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Speaker 1: Hm said, I've been go go go all day.

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Speaker 2: Mm hmmmm.

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Speaker 3: Welcome back to good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and

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Speaker 3: I'm Mila. We are breathing.

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Speaker 2: Mm hmmm, I'm moaning, Mila moons.

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Speaker 3: I did a lot of screaming in my car today.

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Speaker 3: We've done that by yourself.

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Speaker 2: I did this the other day. I thought it was

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Speaker 2: because I was just lit, but I was emotional too.

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Speaker 2: I remember now. I was like and I was like,

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Speaker 2: this is crazy. It was fun, but also I had

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Speaker 2: a lot to release and I was alone, so I

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Speaker 2: was like, this is the time, Now's the time. Maybe

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Speaker 2: that's why I've had a headache for two days. Could

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Speaker 2: you've been screaming top of my lungs in Hollywood? Downe

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Speaker 2: was Hollywood, I was in Wheaho. I was over at

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Speaker 2: we hung Out Beaches. I was breaking it down and

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Speaker 2: I got in the car by myself. I just had

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Speaker 2: a fucking scream fest all the way down. Santa Monica

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Speaker 2: lit on the fucking tequila. You should try it.

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Speaker 3: Highly recommend. Hi, guys, what's up. Hello, I'm high. I

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Speaker 3: haven't been smoking that much, so a little bit goes

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Speaker 3: a long way. I've noticed here and they just fucking

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Speaker 3: smoking streets for me, it's a beautiful day.

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Speaker 2: How are you feeling? I felt really good. It's really

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Speaker 2: hot in the valley, but I prefer it.

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Speaker 3: And you look very summary, looking very like this is

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Speaker 3: I'm in summer.

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Speaker 2: This is like my ideal you guys, if you don't

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Speaker 2: go to YouTube, go to YouTube because this very outfit.

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Speaker 2: This is my ideal, like everyday uniform I want to

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Speaker 2: wear like I do, Like I want to wear very

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Speaker 2: short florals like I like floral prints and I want

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Speaker 2: them to be like short and kind of like dainty

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Speaker 2: and like never because I never can find them. I

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Speaker 2: can never find them and then they get like then

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Speaker 2: I wear them out, then I can't find another for

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Speaker 2: like another like ten years. But like this is my

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Speaker 2: preferred look. Short, strappy florals, beautiful or see.

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Speaker 3: Through yeah, see through? I yes, I can occur. I

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Speaker 3: don't know if this is my ideal look I'm giving

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Speaker 3: like I don't know. I cut the leaves off and

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Speaker 3: feel like a biker. You look I like that and

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Speaker 3: I go home mine well like you know them mask

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Speaker 3: fem masculine fem mask? Did you just make that mask?

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Speaker 3: Having into my biphon? You know, leaning heavier on, like.

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Speaker 2: It's called like a stem like that.

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Speaker 1: I don't know.

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Speaker 2: You know, you're the formerly formeral lesbian.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, you need to know other terms.

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Speaker 2: You're the former less I'm the former lesbian.

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Speaker 3: I'm just the fun of podcast.

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Speaker 2: I'm the fairy of the podcast, the sex of the podcast.

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Speaker 2: You are the bye fun I'm the former lesbian of

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Speaker 2: the podcast. Speaking as a former lesbian from the LGBTQ plus,

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Speaker 2: I just have to say that, Oh my god. Anyway, wait,

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Speaker 2: I wrote that in our book. So we're writing a

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Speaker 2: book and you know, the editor like reads edits the shit.

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Speaker 2: So I'm like, yeah, my former lesbian days. I'm like,

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Speaker 2: on the note, She's like, this may come off offensive.

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Speaker 2: I was like, why, I'm a former lesbian. I'm still

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Speaker 2: highly in the community, just not right now. Like whatever,

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Speaker 2: I'll change the wording, but I met what I said.

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Speaker 3: Oh my god, I gotta be so politically correct these

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Speaker 3: days where they're gonna come for you.

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Speaker 2: Everyone also.

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Speaker 3: We are them. Also we will also come for you.

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Speaker 3: Oh okay, anyway, you guys, I'm done because I'm high now,

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Speaker 3: and I'm also really super excited because we have manifested

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Speaker 3: I guess that I've been lightly stalking. I don't know,

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Speaker 3: maybe for like two years or so. I don't know

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Speaker 3: when my stalking of you started, my love, but you can.

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Speaker 2: Probably look it up at our emails.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I actually I should have opened the DMS. It

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Speaker 3: was probably like, hey, hi, like a star like maybe

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Speaker 3: we have Emani, we have the hood Healer, we have oceans, mama,

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Speaker 3: we have bed beat, we have what else? Natives? What

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Speaker 3: do we call you? A night fairy, win, night fair witch,

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Speaker 3: ethereal one earth angel, just levitator of all things.

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Speaker 2: Welcome to the show, Mama. Thank you for having me

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Speaker 2: manifested here. I'm happy to have your excited to be here.

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Speaker 2: Thank you so much going here, Thank you, Thank you.

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Speaker 3: You're you're like a you're a local of La now

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Speaker 3: or you're a local of La period of val but

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Speaker 3: now you're a valley girl like us.

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Speaker 4: I am a valley girl. I love it. I just

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Speaker 4: hate getting here. What do you mean, like the traffic?

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Speaker 2: If we stay here, the goal is to get here

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Speaker 2: and not go anywhere unless it's after a.

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Speaker 3: Go other planes.

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Speaker 2: You have to in order to do you have the curate.

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Speaker 2: You have the curator at the right time though, like

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Speaker 2: after ten am after eight pm.

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Speaker 2: Ish, don't go anywhere before that.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, but yeah, I haven't caught the sweet spot. I'm

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Speaker 2: I'm gonna start saying no, I can't come.

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Speaker 3: Well, we had so many people so excited to have

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Speaker 3: you on the show. I was telling you we had,

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Speaker 3: like I swear, like one hundred people right in every

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Speaker 3: type of question, A lot of questions about food. I

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Speaker 3: don't know, why do you do food? Or you do

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Speaker 3: cook A lot? I missed that part. I was like,

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Speaker 3: did I miss something?

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Speaker 2: I need to be asking her similar recipes.

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Speaker 5: I do cook, and I was a former chef, but

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Speaker 5: I don't really like share well I do.

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Speaker 4: I guess I do cook online.

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Speaker 3: What are your specialty?

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Speaker 4: I didn't really have a particular your specialty. It was

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Speaker 4: more artisan food Caribbean. I tried the chef thing, didn't

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Speaker 5: Me, so I don't really like, I don't know, I

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Speaker 5: just be cooking dinner.

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Speaker 2: That's interesting, apparently really cooking dinner because everybody has questions.

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Speaker 5: That was in my discovery phase. I was the kitchen

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Speaker 4: So I don't know.

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Speaker 3: Maybe that's why interesting. I don't know.

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Speaker 2: Look at YouTube.

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Speaker 4: No, I had an Instagram, the kitchen Goddess. I wasn't consistent.

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Speaker 5: I don't know.

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Speaker 4: That's interesting. I eat good. I've been eating a lot.

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Speaker 3: You do you look you like you?

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Speaker 4: I don't know. It doesn't really taking care of you.

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Speaker 3: Take the rest.

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Speaker 2: I'll be eating good too. Girl kill you.

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Speaker 3: So tell me about your journey then from food to

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Speaker 3: now discover everything between your discovery day now, how did

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Speaker 3: you become the hood Healer? I would I don't actually

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Speaker 5: I feel like I was running from the hood Healer.

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Speaker 5: I was trying to do everything but the Hood Healer

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Speaker 5: and just was not working, culinary being one of them,

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Speaker 5: and just an unfortunate series of events. Actually my father

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Speaker 4: It was like I was really denying the.

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Speaker 5: I was denying myself and I didn't realize it, and

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Speaker 5: I started pulling cards. I started pulling cards as simply

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Speaker 5: wholesome for fun. I was working at simply wholesome waitressing.

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Speaker 3: If y'all don't know, simply wholesome, it's like a staple

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Speaker 5: I was waitressing and simply wholesome pulling cards on my

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Speaker 5: just it was something I couldn't deny. Wow, it's always

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Speaker 5: been a gift, but I feel like it's always been misguided.

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Speaker 5: Did you feel so as a child that would always

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Speaker 5: have feelings? As a child, I would be having dreams

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Speaker 5: They did not encourage it.

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Speaker 5: I would just not be able to focus. I would

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Speaker 5: But something happens, maybe testing, I don't know, being excluded,

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Speaker 2: Do you think you like it stopped also because you

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Speaker 4: Oh, definitely definitely.

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Speaker 5: I was trying to figure out what was wrong and

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Speaker 5: I wasn't trying to focus on what was right.

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Speaker 3: Like it was it scary for you though, like aside

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Speaker 3: when it started showing up, is it is it dreams?

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Speaker 3: Is it was it like a voice a calling like.

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Speaker 5: I used to have I used to have really at first, no,

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Speaker 5: it was not always positive. I used to have really

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Speaker 3: So sleep process, like when you can't wake up, like

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Speaker 5: Okay, you just feel like something's on you of something's

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Speaker 2: But you can't when you can't move.

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Speaker 1: I had that a lot as a child too.

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Speaker 3: I had that too, And and in situations too where

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Speaker 3: I was where I would see things as well, and

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Speaker 3: turns off. Because I think a lot of children are

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Speaker 3: most probably all children, to be honest.

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Speaker 5: You scare them out of it. Yeah, yeah, and I

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Speaker 3: It's so now as an adult, how do you like

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Speaker 3: you said when your father passed away, that's kind of

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Speaker 3: like when it started to kind.

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Speaker 5: Of you know, I was do you asked if I

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Speaker 4: I wasn't. God was present, but not enough. And I

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Speaker 4: I totally agree.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I agree.

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Speaker 5: Do you?

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Speaker 3: I know? Do you?

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Speaker 3: How do you define religion versus spirituality? I'm curious.

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Speaker 5: I feel like religion is really constrictive. I don't resonate

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Speaker 3: Yeah, I mean, I mean I would say, of course,

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Speaker 5: And it's like some people take so much offense to everything.

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Speaker 2: The disclaimer here is we're we are not experts. And shit,

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Speaker 3: Is or this or I said what I said and

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Speaker 1: Do you think like, because you were saying that religion.

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Speaker 3: I think that.

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Speaker 4: God within us.

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Speaker 5: I feel like religion is a lot about external worship, and.

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Speaker 1: It's like you take yourself out of.

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Speaker 3: Looking outwardly a lot for the answers, right for help.

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Speaker 3: I was having that thought the other day. I was like,

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Speaker 3: to other things? Which, granted, I believe that, you know,

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Speaker 3: But I think, like does that Does anyone ever pray

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Speaker 3: to themselves? No, dear Erica, bless me today. I'm gonna

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Speaker 3: It's so it's so interesting how we're always praying to

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Speaker 2: And I think one said like maybe self worship, self

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Speaker 1: My god, those three works together.

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Speaker 4: I love that.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, why is why?

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Speaker 2: Why?

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Speaker 1: Like do you ask yourself that? Why is that?

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Speaker 3: So? Why is the devotion of myself?

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Speaker 5: Why?

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Speaker 3: Anything?

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Speaker 4: Are you?

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Speaker 3: Like?

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Speaker 4: I want to know.

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Speaker 5: I think that as a people, we are very triggered

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Speaker 4: For real, self devotion is just self love.

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Speaker 3: I mean think about like I mean even I'm guilty

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Speaker 2: The fuck? Well, oftentimes if we do that, it's because

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Speaker 2: it's a reflection of what you're projecting. Like if you're

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Speaker 3: Well, it was that and also like I'd never seen

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Speaker 2: You felt like it was disingenous.

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Speaker 3: I felt like it was disingenuous, and I really I'd

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Speaker 4: True, there's not a lot of representation of that.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, it wasn't even I mean I think part of

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Speaker 3: for us? My nigga, Like, no, but it's true. But

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Speaker 3: but I think that religion oftentimes can can do that.

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Speaker 3: It's you know, with the lessons you take. His religion

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Speaker 3: also tells you to like love all people except people

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Speaker 5: Feel like it just inhibits you from really like empowering yourself.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, no, it's true. Do you have any like in

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Speaker 3: your spirituality and your practice? Do you have any like

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Speaker 3: specific things? And how do you incorporate that in your relationship?

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Speaker 3: I'm curious, like with your partner, Like, did you find

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Speaker 4: He's very open? He is a warlock.

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Speaker 3: He's a warlock.

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Speaker 5: Yes, he's very intuitive, open to all the things, very receptive.

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Speaker 4: But he.

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Speaker 5: What he doesn't know and what he's not receptive to initially,

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Speaker 3: That's dope.

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Speaker 5: Practices rituals, Well, I do a lot of talking to myself.

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Speaker 5: We have a lot of conversation in our relationship. I

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Speaker 5: I do that a lot before readings. I have like

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Speaker 4: For the day.

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Speaker 5: Because before I did that, readings would disturb my energy,

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Speaker 2: I love that because in my mind, you know, I

441
00:24:16,000 --> 00:24:21,840
Speaker 2: was thinking, I was thinking, like mind me, I'm can

442
00:24:21,880 --> 00:24:25,639
Speaker 2: you give us some examples? I thought for sure like

443
00:24:25,640 --> 00:24:29,359
Speaker 2: like them? Like yeah, I was like them, That's what

444
00:24:29,400 --> 00:24:33,560
Speaker 2: I imagined. Oh wow, I like this one much better.

445
00:24:34,359 --> 00:24:38,200
Speaker 4: We like we like to be in the mirror, and

446
00:24:40,200 --> 00:24:40,720
Speaker 4: it's a thing.

447
00:24:41,720 --> 00:24:46,600
Speaker 5: Should recite affirmations to your partner in front of the mirror.

448
00:24:47,800 --> 00:24:52,040
Speaker 4: Like you are, you are all the things.

449
00:24:53,000 --> 00:24:54,280
Speaker 2: Give us some examples, come on.

450
00:24:57,240 --> 00:25:00,000
Speaker 5: He was just for a little moment, I was feeling

451
00:25:00,160 --> 00:25:05,359
Speaker 5: selb conscious about my booty doo, which is gone now

452
00:25:06,119 --> 00:25:09,119
Speaker 5: of her Scott, but I was feeling a little subconscious,

453
00:25:09,160 --> 00:25:12,800
Speaker 5: and he would just speak about my body, like, you know,

454
00:25:12,840 --> 00:25:17,360
Speaker 5: you look beautiful. I love this, like this, bite this,

455
00:25:17,920 --> 00:25:19,440
Speaker 5: and just affirm it.

456
00:25:20,840 --> 00:25:21,399
Speaker 2: Beautiful.

457
00:25:22,280 --> 00:25:24,720
Speaker 3: That's amazing when you have a partner that is open

458
00:25:25,440 --> 00:25:28,359
Speaker 3: knows that that's what their partner needs to heal that

459
00:25:28,400 --> 00:25:30,320
Speaker 3: part of themselves at that time.

460
00:25:30,560 --> 00:25:35,920
Speaker 5: He gives attention to the areas that need it. Yeah,

461
00:25:35,960 --> 00:25:39,640
Speaker 5: And as a Scorpio Moon, I need that.

462
00:25:40,800 --> 00:25:43,359
Speaker 3: So I'm a Scorpio double Scorpio. I realized that I

463
00:25:43,400 --> 00:25:45,880
Speaker 3: need that. I didn't realize that words of affirmation were

464
00:25:45,920 --> 00:25:49,960
Speaker 3: really important to me until I think, like more recently,

465
00:25:50,840 --> 00:25:52,920
Speaker 3: and because I'm more of it, I'm like, I think

466
00:25:52,920 --> 00:25:55,200
Speaker 3: I'm just like an acts of service, not like physical touch,

467
00:25:55,320 --> 00:25:57,280
Speaker 3: like that's it. Like I like people to tell me

468
00:25:57,840 --> 00:26:01,840
Speaker 3: nice things about me. But I feel like sometimes I'm like, okay, okay,

469
00:26:01,880 --> 00:26:04,960
Speaker 3: but like what else. But recently, in the last year,

470
00:26:05,000 --> 00:26:08,040
Speaker 3: I've been realizing how much like my soul needs that

471
00:26:08,160 --> 00:26:11,720
Speaker 3: to feel I feel like safe with my partner and

472
00:26:11,800 --> 00:26:15,320
Speaker 3: value and also just in ways I think, especially after

473
00:26:15,359 --> 00:26:17,520
Speaker 3: having a baby, I felt I gained seventy pounds in

474
00:26:17,560 --> 00:26:20,720
Speaker 3: my pregnancy, So after that, I was like, who the

475
00:26:20,720 --> 00:26:21,600
Speaker 3: fuck is this, bitch?

476
00:26:21,720 --> 00:26:22,520
Speaker 1: Like what is this?

477
00:26:22,680 --> 00:26:25,560
Speaker 3: And my partner didn't understand why I needed that at

478
00:26:25,600 --> 00:26:28,040
Speaker 3: the time, Like he was like, that's not my job

479
00:26:28,119 --> 00:26:31,280
Speaker 3: to like make you feel better, Like I've told you

480
00:26:31,280 --> 00:26:33,120
Speaker 3: you're beautiful less enough, like I tell.

481
00:26:33,040 --> 00:26:34,440
Speaker 1: You all the time, what's the problem?

482
00:26:34,560 --> 00:26:38,160
Speaker 3: Like, like my healing wasn't happening fast enough for him,

483
00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:41,960
Speaker 3: you know, And so having a partner that I think

484
00:26:42,560 --> 00:26:45,440
Speaker 3: is that knows that that's like what my partner needs

485
00:26:45,520 --> 00:26:48,200
Speaker 3: right now. It might not be forever, Like my partner

486
00:26:48,240 --> 00:26:50,040
Speaker 3: needs this right now for this part of her healing,

487
00:26:50,080 --> 00:26:52,080
Speaker 3: and hopefully us as partners were able to do that

488
00:26:52,160 --> 00:26:54,840
Speaker 3: for them. Like I think that's really important in an

489
00:26:54,880 --> 00:26:59,840
Speaker 3: exchange in partnership in general, you know. So those after

490
00:26:59,880 --> 00:27:01,360
Speaker 3: me in the mirror.

491
00:27:01,280 --> 00:27:04,560
Speaker 5: I feel like, yes, and I feel like in this

492
00:27:04,720 --> 00:27:11,879
Speaker 5: work there's constant, constant criticism, so it's special and I

493
00:27:11,920 --> 00:27:15,639
Speaker 5: feel like it's a healing thing to be affirmed at home.

494
00:27:16,400 --> 00:27:19,320
Speaker 2: Mm hmm, yeah for sure.

495
00:27:19,680 --> 00:27:23,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, because yeah, I mean social media, isn't it interesting?

496
00:27:23,720 --> 00:27:23,920
Speaker 1: Though?

497
00:27:23,960 --> 00:27:27,000
Speaker 3: Like because all the criticism is actually happening here at home,

498
00:27:27,320 --> 00:27:28,720
Speaker 3: like you're on your like in the world, you're not

499
00:27:28,760 --> 00:27:31,520
Speaker 3: going to work. Really like people are criticizing you all

500
00:27:31,600 --> 00:27:33,800
Speaker 3: day long. You have to just like, how do you

501
00:27:33,920 --> 00:27:36,120
Speaker 3: kind of detach yourself from that so that you can

502
00:27:36,160 --> 00:27:42,040
Speaker 3: be I guess, in clear vibration for the work that

503
00:27:42,119 --> 00:27:45,880
Speaker 3: you do, Like, how do you balance doing what you do.

504
00:27:45,800 --> 00:27:46,840
Speaker 1: In social media?

505
00:27:46,880 --> 00:27:51,919
Speaker 3: Because that feels like counterintuitive and you're active? You be

506
00:27:52,000 --> 00:27:53,960
Speaker 3: active because I'd be like this just on she's a

507
00:27:54,119 --> 00:27:55,440
Speaker 3: live If two am.

508
00:27:56,960 --> 00:27:58,680
Speaker 1: And I'm going to sleep, I'm like, she's still on live.

509
00:28:04,400 --> 00:28:11,760
Speaker 5: Well, there's definitely more positive than negative, That's one. And

510
00:28:14,080 --> 00:28:17,680
Speaker 5: I don't know if I do a good job of balancing.

511
00:28:17,840 --> 00:28:22,160
Speaker 5: I feel like I'm really authentic and honest about when

512
00:28:22,200 --> 00:28:25,240
Speaker 5: things hurt my feelings and when I need to break,

513
00:28:25,520 --> 00:28:33,119
Speaker 5: and I feel like people respect that. And it's hard

514
00:28:33,359 --> 00:28:38,640
Speaker 5: sometimes too, because a lot of my clients and people

515
00:28:38,680 --> 00:28:40,760
Speaker 5: that I read are on social media, so it was

516
00:28:40,800 --> 00:28:44,720
Speaker 5: like I'll be over something or moved past something and

517
00:28:45,320 --> 00:28:47,880
Speaker 5: it will be brought back up again in the reading.

518
00:28:48,040 --> 00:28:52,920
Speaker 4: So sometimes it is hard to balance the energy. But

519
00:28:53,200 --> 00:28:59,840
Speaker 4: I feel like I'm just I work it out, and

520
00:29:00,080 --> 00:29:00,560
Speaker 4: I work.

521
00:29:00,360 --> 00:29:04,120
Speaker 5: It out publicly, which is not always the best thing,

522
00:29:04,280 --> 00:29:06,240
Speaker 5: but I feel like I work it out publicly because

523
00:29:06,280 --> 00:29:09,120
Speaker 5: I feel like it's important for people to see what

524
00:29:09,240 --> 00:29:10,840
Speaker 5: active transmussion looks like.

525
00:29:11,400 --> 00:29:11,560
Speaker 4: Right.

526
00:29:11,880 --> 00:29:13,520
Speaker 2: You don't get to see that a lot on social

527
00:29:13,680 --> 00:29:14,560
Speaker 2: people don't show.

528
00:29:14,400 --> 00:29:16,920
Speaker 5: That, and that's the part that I feel like it's

529
00:29:17,040 --> 00:29:20,520
Speaker 5: missing on social and I and so.

530
00:29:21,960 --> 00:29:23,120
Speaker 4: If you don't see it all here.

531
00:29:23,800 --> 00:29:26,680
Speaker 2: I also think, like as like a woman, like being

532
00:29:26,720 --> 00:29:30,000
Speaker 2: a strong woman and showing up like in a public space.

533
00:29:32,880 --> 00:29:37,040
Speaker 2: I think people expect you to, you know, like have

534
00:29:37,160 --> 00:29:40,080
Speaker 2: sick skin, and I think in ways, of course we do,

535
00:29:40,200 --> 00:29:45,360
Speaker 2: but women do need to be I realized women do

536
00:29:45,440 --> 00:29:48,520
Speaker 2: need to be poured into from their men, Like it's

537
00:29:48,560 --> 00:29:52,120
Speaker 2: super healing, it's super important. Like even with Orlando, like

538
00:29:52,240 --> 00:29:54,640
Speaker 2: we'll have sex and he'll affirm me like you're this,

539
00:29:54,720 --> 00:29:56,440
Speaker 2: you're that, and then he'll even tell me to say

540
00:29:56,440 --> 00:29:58,800
Speaker 2: it out loud. We've had sex and like say it,

541
00:29:58,840 --> 00:30:01,240
Speaker 2: say it louder, like while he's fucking me. And I

542
00:30:01,240 --> 00:30:04,520
Speaker 2: didn't know I needed that until I participated with someone

543
00:30:04,560 --> 00:30:08,160
Speaker 2: who was like doing that for me. And I also

544
00:30:08,280 --> 00:30:10,960
Speaker 2: notice in ways where like I haven't had that even

545
00:30:10,960 --> 00:30:14,840
Speaker 2: in like childhood, being affirmed is something that sometimes makes

546
00:30:14,840 --> 00:30:19,320
Speaker 2: me uncomfortable, and I almost also forget to do that

547
00:30:19,360 --> 00:30:21,520
Speaker 2: for my partner and even sometimes for my kid because

548
00:30:21,560 --> 00:30:24,640
Speaker 2: it's not doesn't really come natural to me because I

549
00:30:24,640 --> 00:30:27,120
Speaker 2: didn't receive that. But when I get someone who does it,

550
00:30:27,160 --> 00:30:28,960
Speaker 2: I'm like, oh damn, that feels really good, and then

551
00:30:28,960 --> 00:30:32,080
Speaker 2: I have to. It's like it's a constant work in progress,

552
00:30:32,120 --> 00:30:34,280
Speaker 2: you know, because it kind of feels uncomfortable. You know,

553
00:30:34,400 --> 00:30:36,800
Speaker 2: like you're so beautiful, a god, You're a badass bitch,

554
00:30:36,800 --> 00:30:39,360
Speaker 2: you have so many businesses, Like it's like it's easy

555
00:30:39,400 --> 00:30:41,360
Speaker 2: for you to get comfortable and with someone so much

556
00:30:41,360 --> 00:30:44,360
Speaker 2: in love that you forget to say out loud all

557
00:30:44,400 --> 00:30:46,560
Speaker 2: the things that make them special. And while you value them,

558
00:30:46,640 --> 00:30:48,480
Speaker 2: you know, it's like you're in routine, you're in comfort,

559
00:30:48,520 --> 00:30:50,160
Speaker 2: and you're like, you know, I love you, bitch. You know,

560
00:30:50,280 --> 00:30:51,719
Speaker 2: like you know friends, you know you've had friends for

561
00:30:51,760 --> 00:30:53,480
Speaker 2: so long, and it's like you show up for each

562
00:30:53,480 --> 00:30:56,560
Speaker 2: other and you have conversations, but mostly it's like sometimes

563
00:30:56,600 --> 00:30:59,520
Speaker 2: we forget, you know, because I think a lot of

564
00:30:59,560 --> 00:31:01,880
Speaker 2: us are walking in our masculine we're having to walk

565
00:31:01,960 --> 00:31:04,600
Speaker 2: in our masculine a lot when you've you know, done

566
00:31:04,640 --> 00:31:06,880
Speaker 2: dealt with shit by yourself, had to figure out shit

567
00:31:06,960 --> 00:31:10,000
Speaker 2: by yourself. It's not, you know, it's not. We're not

568
00:31:10,240 --> 00:31:14,240
Speaker 2: always functioning in our femininity. And so I find like

569
00:31:14,280 --> 00:31:16,880
Speaker 2: so much value in having a partner that does that

570
00:31:16,920 --> 00:31:19,640
Speaker 2: for me and reminding me to show up in my

571
00:31:19,760 --> 00:31:21,600
Speaker 2: feminine and to show up and being able to receive

572
00:31:21,680 --> 00:31:24,960
Speaker 2: that and give it, you know, like being poured into

573
00:31:25,720 --> 00:31:28,240
Speaker 2: by your man and feeling safe by your manners. So

574
00:31:28,320 --> 00:31:30,640
Speaker 2: it's almost like for which I feel like women like

575
00:31:30,720 --> 00:31:34,280
Speaker 2: us it's necessary to find that type of partner because

576
00:31:34,560 --> 00:31:37,640
Speaker 2: it's almost fuel for us to go back into the

577
00:31:37,680 --> 00:31:39,880
Speaker 2: world and pour it out to people.

578
00:31:40,000 --> 00:31:42,400
Speaker 3: Absolutely, for sure, I was going to say that, I

579
00:31:42,400 --> 00:31:45,160
Speaker 3: was going to say, it's probably extremely healing that part

580
00:31:45,160 --> 00:31:47,520
Speaker 3: of you, and there's probably it'll continue to heal for

581
00:31:47,560 --> 00:31:50,280
Speaker 3: you so that it doesn't feel unnatural for you to

582
00:31:50,280 --> 00:31:52,680
Speaker 3: do that anymore, and that part of your trauma is

583
00:31:52,800 --> 00:31:55,000
Speaker 3: healed and not passed on to you know, someone else.

584
00:31:55,040 --> 00:31:58,600
Speaker 3: That's really what ancestral healing is exact right, you know,

585
00:31:58,720 --> 00:32:01,800
Speaker 3: And sometimes that's activating by your partner, you know, and

586
00:32:01,840 --> 00:32:03,840
Speaker 3: that's really beautiful. I love that for you guys.

587
00:32:03,960 --> 00:32:07,320
Speaker 1: Thanks, I need to tell my nega to do that.

588
00:32:07,400 --> 00:32:07,880
Speaker 3: What the fuck?

589
00:32:08,560 --> 00:32:11,000
Speaker 2: Hello, you're doing some mirror work.

590
00:32:12,040 --> 00:32:14,680
Speaker 3: Talk to me, talk to me, tell me, tell me

591
00:32:14,720 --> 00:32:16,360
Speaker 3: to say good things about myself.

592
00:32:17,680 --> 00:32:19,000
Speaker 1: That's dope.

593
00:32:20,720 --> 00:32:23,280
Speaker 3: We have some questions. Maybe we should have some other Wait.

594
00:32:23,280 --> 00:32:25,840
Speaker 2: I want to roll this at my wonderful man. Oh,

595
00:32:26,280 --> 00:32:29,320
Speaker 2: roll this backwood for me. It's a kognac backwood, and

596
00:32:29,360 --> 00:32:32,640
Speaker 2: I put it like a flower blend in it because

597
00:32:32,640 --> 00:32:34,520
Speaker 2: it just makes it hit a little bit lighter. And

598
00:32:34,560 --> 00:32:38,040
Speaker 2: then also I want to like to add a little

599
00:32:38,040 --> 00:32:42,240
Speaker 2: honey to the outside, just sweeten it up a little

600
00:32:42,240 --> 00:32:44,160
Speaker 2: bit more. I also feel like it's a good time

601
00:32:44,160 --> 00:32:46,920
Speaker 2: to like put in it. Set in attention, What intention

602
00:32:47,000 --> 00:32:48,560
Speaker 2: are wetting? What do you saying? What do you?

603
00:32:48,600 --> 00:32:48,760
Speaker 3: Guys?

604
00:32:48,800 --> 00:32:49,160
Speaker 4: Want to.

605
00:32:51,400 --> 00:32:56,200
Speaker 3: Juicy good juicy sex where your man tells you how

606
00:32:56,240 --> 00:32:57,280
Speaker 3: beautiful bomb you.

607
00:32:57,240 --> 00:33:07,600
Speaker 2: Are, tell him that all healthy exchange, positive love, healthy love, long, loyal, sexy, lumptuous.

608
00:33:07,280 --> 00:33:09,960
Speaker 3: Deep, deep dives into your pussy.

609
00:33:10,600 --> 00:33:14,960
Speaker 2: Deep fucking makeout sessions, long long deep tocad, deep stairs,

610
00:33:16,680 --> 00:33:20,840
Speaker 2: happy tears and laughs, and then also choked me. Thank

611
00:33:20,880 --> 00:33:24,120
Speaker 2: you let me a little bit, Please choke me maybe

612
00:33:24,120 --> 00:33:29,160
Speaker 2: with your penis. Now, I think it's ready to light

613
00:33:29,200 --> 00:33:29,520
Speaker 2: this up?

614
00:33:29,560 --> 00:33:33,240
Speaker 1: Now, lighter up? Wait, what's the song?

615
00:33:33,320 --> 00:33:33,400
Speaker 2: Now?

616
00:33:33,480 --> 00:33:34,880
Speaker 1: That was sat Ludatics.

617
00:33:36,160 --> 00:33:37,200
Speaker 2: Well he went way back with it.

618
00:33:37,360 --> 00:33:38,760
Speaker 1: Oh my god, I love that album.

619
00:33:39,480 --> 00:33:41,480
Speaker 3: They never had a second one today. That was such

620
00:33:41,480 --> 00:33:44,280
Speaker 3: a good album. Shout out to Nelly. Went went solo

621
00:33:44,320 --> 00:33:46,640
Speaker 3: after that. Nelly was like, fuck them, I'm a star.

622
00:33:48,080 --> 00:33:51,560
Speaker 3: He was right, he was, and I loved me something.

623
00:33:51,800 --> 00:33:56,280
Speaker 2: I like a little little Murphy, Little Murphy dreads right, Yeah,

624
00:33:56,320 --> 00:33:59,680
Speaker 2: he was good though. I like little Murphy Murphy.

625
00:33:59,680 --> 00:33:59,960
Speaker 4: It was.

626
00:34:03,880 --> 00:34:05,120
Speaker 2: Murphy.

627
00:34:05,640 --> 00:34:06,800
Speaker 4: We know who's just talking about that?

628
00:34:08,440 --> 00:34:11,759
Speaker 3: Oh my god, he was the best rapper. He had

629
00:34:11,800 --> 00:34:14,600
Speaker 3: bars Murphy y cute.

630
00:34:15,239 --> 00:34:16,920
Speaker 2: It was kind of cute, right he was.

631
00:34:17,160 --> 00:34:17,480
Speaker 4: I don't know.

632
00:34:17,480 --> 00:34:18,479
Speaker 3: I was to Nelly.

633
00:34:18,560 --> 00:34:20,239
Speaker 1: That's when I was really Nelly was.

634
00:34:20,640 --> 00:34:23,600
Speaker 3: I was really into light Skin and Nelly was. That

635
00:34:23,719 --> 00:34:25,520
Speaker 3: was it. And then when that was over, it was

636
00:34:25,560 --> 00:34:26,080
Speaker 3: that was done.

637
00:34:26,160 --> 00:34:30,160
Speaker 2: Oh this is so sweet. This backwood, Wow, this flower

638
00:34:30,200 --> 00:34:31,480
Speaker 2: blend with this honey.

639
00:34:31,640 --> 00:34:33,560
Speaker 3: Every time you step it up, just a little bit

640
00:34:33,560 --> 00:34:36,040
Speaker 3: more like the flower and the honey.

641
00:34:36,680 --> 00:34:37,160
Speaker 4: Curious.

642
00:34:37,400 --> 00:34:40,040
Speaker 3: Okay, I can't wait to inhale because such amazing.

643
00:34:42,320 --> 00:34:45,200
Speaker 2: Next time you guys will your backwood, make sure you

644
00:34:45,239 --> 00:34:48,600
Speaker 2: set a good intention inhale that ship.

645
00:34:53,840 --> 00:34:56,000
Speaker 1: I'm gonna get more high and more awkward. This is great.

646
00:34:56,400 --> 00:35:04,080
Speaker 2: Wait, you can just get more high and more deep.

647
00:35:04,719 --> 00:35:07,480
Speaker 2: I some of my best, my most philosophical moments, I

648
00:35:07,600 --> 00:35:10,680
Speaker 2: tell you are him like calm, so smart, write this down,

649
00:35:10,800 --> 00:35:11,840
Speaker 2: can't move d do you?

650
00:35:11,920 --> 00:35:13,560
Speaker 3: How do you speak of weed and high? How do

651
00:35:13,560 --> 00:35:17,120
Speaker 3: you plan on like talking about cannabis with very.

652
00:35:18,600 --> 00:35:19,320
Speaker 4: Very openly.

653
00:35:19,640 --> 00:35:23,799
Speaker 5: I'm not going to be hiding anything from her, and

654
00:35:23,920 --> 00:35:26,200
Speaker 5: I would like her to experience it with me first

655
00:35:26,280 --> 00:35:27,440
Speaker 5: when she's of age.

656
00:35:27,840 --> 00:35:28,799
Speaker 3: What is of age too?

657
00:35:29,440 --> 00:35:32,439
Speaker 4: I feel like seventeen eighteen.

658
00:35:33,040 --> 00:35:33,719
Speaker 3: Good luck girl.

659
00:35:34,840 --> 00:35:36,879
Speaker 1: I'm just kidding. I'm just by myself. I was bad.

660
00:35:38,080 --> 00:35:41,000
Speaker 5: I definitely was smoking earlier. But I feel like when

661
00:35:41,040 --> 00:35:43,480
Speaker 5: you're honest with their children and it's not something that

662
00:35:43,520 --> 00:35:45,120
Speaker 5: they feel like they have to go sneak and do,

663
00:35:45,239 --> 00:35:47,160
Speaker 5: they're not rushing to go do it, you know what

664
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Speaker 5: I mean? So hopefully you know, we can have that

665
00:35:51,120 --> 00:35:53,759
Speaker 5: experience together. But if not, I would like her to

666
00:35:53,760 --> 00:35:56,919
Speaker 5: be educated and know what you know, know what's what,

667
00:35:57,080 --> 00:36:02,160
Speaker 5: and no, not to be smoking nothing weird an't you know? Yeah,

668
00:36:02,960 --> 00:36:04,000
Speaker 5: I would be open with her.

669
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Speaker 2: Did you did you smoke while you were pregnant or

670
00:36:08,120 --> 00:36:08,840
Speaker 2: did you breastfeed?

671
00:36:09,200 --> 00:36:15,080
Speaker 5: Yes, I smoked my first trimester. My first trimester was

672
00:36:15,880 --> 00:36:16,480
Speaker 5: actually not.

673
00:36:16,480 --> 00:36:19,160
Speaker 4: That bad, but the it was like the last two

674
00:36:19,200 --> 00:36:21,239
Speaker 4: weeks baby whooke me?

675
00:36:21,840 --> 00:36:23,000
Speaker 3: We get the second trip.

676
00:36:23,440 --> 00:36:26,560
Speaker 4: Worst nausea of my life.

677
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Speaker 2: I was towards the end.

678
00:36:27,360 --> 00:36:30,080
Speaker 5: No, no, the first like the last two weeks of

679
00:36:30,160 --> 00:36:32,680
Speaker 5: my first For my first trimester, I went to Puerto Rico.

680
00:36:32,800 --> 00:36:35,720
Speaker 5: We went on like a little baby moon trip, and

681
00:36:36,120 --> 00:36:37,799
Speaker 5: I thought it would be good. As soon as we

682
00:36:37,880 --> 00:36:43,480
Speaker 5: got to Puerto Rico, the symptoms hit. I was extremely naxious.

683
00:36:43,840 --> 00:36:48,720
Speaker 5: We went on a vegan retreat. Actually it was a mistake.

684
00:36:51,400 --> 00:36:53,200
Speaker 4: In the island for a sandwich.

685
00:36:58,000 --> 00:36:58,920
Speaker 1: Vegan pregnancy.

686
00:36:59,400 --> 00:37:00,000
Speaker 4: No, we didn't.

687
00:37:00,040 --> 00:37:05,840
Speaker 5: We did not follow through. So yeah, it was just

688
00:37:05,880 --> 00:37:11,680
Speaker 5: extremely nauseous. It was horrible. My first trimester. Actually lost

689
00:37:12,080 --> 00:37:16,799
Speaker 5: like almost eight pounds. Yeah, it was like, I'm not

690
00:37:16,960 --> 00:37:17,960
Speaker 5: so the weed saved me.

691
00:37:19,800 --> 00:37:24,200
Speaker 1: Yeah, the weed is soon mother of all things.

692
00:37:24,480 --> 00:37:27,799
Speaker 4: I would say it is. But I had to take

693
00:37:27,800 --> 00:37:29,560
Speaker 4: a break. The wheel was smoking me.

694
00:37:30,719 --> 00:37:33,600
Speaker 3: I've never heard that, you know. That's how I started

695
00:37:33,600 --> 00:37:34,200
Speaker 3: to feel too.

696
00:37:34,560 --> 00:37:37,200
Speaker 4: Maybe, Yes, the weels smoking me.

697
00:37:37,840 --> 00:37:41,360
Speaker 5: I was just smoking to smoke, and I needed to

698
00:37:41,360 --> 00:37:42,839
Speaker 5: take a break, and I needed to.

699
00:37:44,280 --> 00:37:47,200
Speaker 4: Also be present. Well, you know what I realized too,

700
00:37:47,320 --> 00:37:47,520
Speaker 4: is the.

701
00:37:49,800 --> 00:37:53,520
Speaker 5: I was smoking through traumas. I was smoking to decompress.

702
00:37:53,719 --> 00:38:01,800
Speaker 5: I was not smoking for enjoyment, no nor.

703
00:38:00,000 --> 00:38:03,000
Speaker 2: Stories about not smoking. I was like, hell, dare she yeah?

704
00:38:03,000 --> 00:38:04,240
Speaker 4: It was mad about that baby.

705
00:38:04,440 --> 00:38:10,040
Speaker 2: I was like, she's swating smoke, smucket prioritize health was

706
00:38:10,400 --> 00:38:11,400
Speaker 2: cannabis smoke.

707
00:38:11,320 --> 00:38:14,759
Speaker 4: Is Yeah, I needed to take a break. Baby was

708
00:38:14,800 --> 00:38:16,200
Speaker 4: smoked out.

709
00:38:16,480 --> 00:38:20,080
Speaker 5: And I realized also that I wasn't fully present for

710
00:38:20,160 --> 00:38:22,799
Speaker 5: all of the things that I manifested, Like I was

711
00:38:22,920 --> 00:38:27,080
Speaker 5: just smoked out through all of these beautiful things that

712
00:38:27,200 --> 00:38:32,160
Speaker 5: I had prayed for and worked for and manifested, and

713
00:38:32,200 --> 00:38:35,560
Speaker 5: I needed to be sober and present for them. But

714
00:38:35,880 --> 00:38:40,000
Speaker 5: when I had my daughter, I breastfed and I was

715
00:38:40,040 --> 00:38:44,759
Speaker 5: a hard, sacrificial period. Oh my god, breastfeeding is such

716
00:38:44,800 --> 00:38:47,239
Speaker 5: a thing. There's so many things about motherhood. There's so

717
00:38:47,280 --> 00:38:50,600
Speaker 5: many things about the fourth trimester that they do not discuss. Okay,

718
00:38:51,200 --> 00:38:54,840
Speaker 5: breastfeeding was just really, really, really hard. But I was committed,

719
00:38:55,320 --> 00:38:58,759
Speaker 5: and at nine months baby, I was back smoking, and

720
00:38:58,800 --> 00:39:03,200
Speaker 5: I realized that mere honest for others, it really is.

721
00:39:03,239 --> 00:39:07,080
Speaker 3: From others, I agree, I think that mothers are very

722
00:39:07,880 --> 00:39:10,799
Speaker 3: like under tapped in market for cannabis.

723
00:39:10,840 --> 00:39:13,920
Speaker 4: Okay, I really do I know because I agree.

724
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Speaker 1: If you look on our YouTube right now, you'll see

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726
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727
00:39:20,000 --> 00:39:22,479
Speaker 3: we are advocates for mothers smoking weed because the fish

728
00:39:22,480 --> 00:39:25,080
Speaker 3: needs it the most. I love that, I really do.

729
00:39:25,160 --> 00:39:27,600
Speaker 3: I think like for me, I've become such a more

730
00:39:27,719 --> 00:39:32,880
Speaker 3: present mother. I've become a more tolerant mother. I become patient,

731
00:39:33,360 --> 00:39:37,120
Speaker 3: I become happy, and you know, I think, but I

732
00:39:37,160 --> 00:39:39,719
Speaker 3: also know that there for me as well, I had

733
00:39:39,719 --> 00:39:41,440
Speaker 3: to acknowledge a time where I was like, okay, I

734
00:39:41,480 --> 00:39:45,839
Speaker 3: need to like I'm I'm overdoing it. I feel like

735
00:39:46,040 --> 00:39:48,480
Speaker 3: I'm tired, I'm unmotivated. I just want to sleep. And

736
00:39:48,520 --> 00:39:50,759
Speaker 3: also I'm in a haze. My bitch is like a

737
00:39:50,760 --> 00:39:53,200
Speaker 3: bitch is like, huh, what happened? Should be asking me

738
00:39:53,239 --> 00:39:55,800
Speaker 3: something like girl, what I don't remember? My memory already

739
00:39:55,880 --> 00:39:59,240
Speaker 3: is questionable. I'm like, bitch, if I can't also remember

740
00:39:59,320 --> 00:40:03,000
Speaker 3: like two minutes ago, it's time the weed of smoking me.

741
00:40:04,640 --> 00:40:07,200
Speaker 3: But I love weed and I'll always I think we

742
00:40:07,239 --> 00:40:11,399
Speaker 3: will always be present in my life. And like you said,

743
00:40:11,400 --> 00:40:13,400
Speaker 3: because I don't I don't hide that I smoke for

744
00:40:13,520 --> 00:40:16,239
Speaker 3: my daughter, and I haven't since really ever, you know,

745
00:40:16,719 --> 00:40:19,360
Speaker 3: honestly thanks to me, Lamela really kind of. I've always

746
00:40:19,400 --> 00:40:21,400
Speaker 3: been a weed smoker, but I came from a family

747
00:40:21,400 --> 00:40:22,840
Speaker 3: that hit it, so I was like, this is what

748
00:40:22,880 --> 00:40:24,840
Speaker 3: I'm gonna do, because this is what we're supposed to do, right, Like,

749
00:40:25,080 --> 00:40:28,360
Speaker 3: eventually I'll do this show her, but at the right age.

750
00:40:28,680 --> 00:40:32,640
Speaker 3: And people wait for these like age appropriate, made up benchmarks,

751
00:40:32,680 --> 00:40:35,279
Speaker 3: when really, if you're just honest all the time, you

752
00:40:35,520 --> 00:40:38,319
Speaker 3: have to worry less. Because my daughter, she's the most

753
00:40:38,360 --> 00:40:41,920
Speaker 3: responsible child I know she probably she ain't even when

754
00:40:41,920 --> 00:40:46,520
Speaker 3: I smoke, she's like girl bye, Like she may dabble

755
00:40:46,719 --> 00:40:50,120
Speaker 3: and weed and you know, but I think it'll come

756
00:40:50,200 --> 00:40:50,960
Speaker 3: much later.

757
00:40:50,800 --> 00:40:53,840
Speaker 2: Because I don't think she's going to see Yeah, no,

758
00:40:53,920 --> 00:40:55,919
Speaker 2: I don't think she's going to be like I don't

759
00:40:55,960 --> 00:40:56,600
Speaker 2: see it happening.

760
00:40:56,719 --> 00:40:57,799
Speaker 3: She'll be a drinker. I don't know.

761
00:40:57,840 --> 00:40:58,200
Speaker 1: I don't think.

762
00:40:58,200 --> 00:41:00,759
Speaker 2: I don't want to see her doing that.

763
00:41:01,280 --> 00:41:05,080
Speaker 3: Perfect but yeah, there's just there's just a lack of

764
00:41:05,960 --> 00:41:09,640
Speaker 3: interest in it because it's always around, you know, or

765
00:41:09,680 --> 00:41:11,560
Speaker 3: there's a lot or there's an interest. I mean, hopefully

766
00:41:11,640 --> 00:41:13,520
Speaker 3: she'll take interest in some of the things that I've like,

767
00:41:13,719 --> 00:41:18,000
Speaker 3: you know, also normalized too, you know, just like ritual,

768
00:41:18,280 --> 00:41:20,279
Speaker 3: like like the spirituality in.

769
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Speaker 4: My house, like joy dancing.

770
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Speaker 3: Yeah, like being loose in your bike, just letting shit go,

771
00:41:26,520 --> 00:41:29,000
Speaker 3: and like not you know, feeling like, oh my god,

772
00:41:29,040 --> 00:41:29,880
Speaker 3: people are looking at me.

773
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Speaker 4: You know.

774
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Speaker 3: So it's just a cool The mother is such a

775
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Speaker 3: cool job.

776
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777
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778
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779
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781
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Speaker 5: Just she's so meticulous and wants things her way, and

828
00:44:19,040 --> 00:44:22,759
Speaker 5: I see that in myself, and I've been doing a

829
00:44:22,800 --> 00:44:27,640
Speaker 5: lot of releasing and reflecting in this twelve month or

830
00:44:27,719 --> 00:44:29,799
Speaker 5: eleven months since she's been Earth's side.

831
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Speaker 3: What do you think is like, is that like the

832
00:44:32,440 --> 00:44:33,080
Speaker 3: biggest lesson?

833
00:44:33,120 --> 00:44:33,239
Speaker 2: Then?

834
00:44:33,360 --> 00:44:34,719
Speaker 3: Like what is the biggest lesson?

835
00:44:34,719 --> 00:44:34,839
Speaker 2: St?

836
00:44:35,080 --> 00:44:42,560
Speaker 5: Yeah, just like letting go, letting go and yeah, letting

837
00:44:42,640 --> 00:44:45,359
Speaker 5: go you need help, you know, you need.

838
00:44:45,400 --> 00:44:46,520
Speaker 4: That was a big thing for me.

839
00:44:47,840 --> 00:44:53,440
Speaker 5: Letting my partner help, letting my partner's family help, you know,

840
00:44:53,600 --> 00:44:59,520
Speaker 5: embracing that, recognizing the necessity of a tribe and that

841
00:44:59,719 --> 00:45:02,160
Speaker 5: I can can't be present twenty four to seven and

842
00:45:02,200 --> 00:45:05,959
Speaker 5: I can't control every moment, and I'm at a point

843
00:45:05,960 --> 00:45:11,400
Speaker 5: now where I don't want to and nurturing her, I

844
00:45:11,440 --> 00:45:15,080
Speaker 5: feel like has really just put me in a space

845
00:45:15,440 --> 00:45:16,520
Speaker 5: of greater reflection.

846
00:45:18,160 --> 00:45:19,320
Speaker 4: Yeah, it's like habits.

847
00:45:19,360 --> 00:45:21,200
Speaker 5: Also you think about like I don't want her to

848
00:45:21,239 --> 00:45:23,680
Speaker 5: pick this up. I don't want her to be anxious

849
00:45:23,840 --> 00:45:26,719
Speaker 5: or nervous going places, you know what I mean, or

850
00:45:26,840 --> 00:45:34,360
Speaker 5: feel weird about people, you know. So it's just giving

851
00:45:34,360 --> 00:45:38,879
Speaker 5: me like, bitch, check that shit, right, It's fine, Yeah,

852
00:45:38,920 --> 00:45:39,440
Speaker 5: it's okay.

853
00:45:39,920 --> 00:45:42,399
Speaker 2: Yeah, Yeah, I appreciate you saying that because I think,

854
00:45:42,560 --> 00:45:45,120
Speaker 2: you know, it's easy to go in mama bear mode

855
00:45:45,200 --> 00:45:48,399
Speaker 2: and wanted to control shit and you know, call out

856
00:45:48,400 --> 00:45:50,400
Speaker 2: someone else doing the wrong thing for your kid, But

857
00:45:50,600 --> 00:45:55,200
Speaker 2: it does take a level of surrendering and then, like

858
00:45:55,239 --> 00:45:58,160
Speaker 2: you said, examining, do you want to have an independent

859
00:45:58,280 --> 00:46:01,520
Speaker 2: child that has the ability to separate from you and

860
00:46:01,680 --> 00:46:04,759
Speaker 2: enjoy other people and be social and like that, Like

861
00:46:04,880 --> 00:46:06,920
Speaker 2: people forget that, like no, drop that baby off, so

862
00:46:07,160 --> 00:46:11,200
Speaker 2: they understand that it's okay to be with other people

863
00:46:11,239 --> 00:46:13,799
Speaker 2: and spend time with other people. Because I think that

864
00:46:13,880 --> 00:46:18,239
Speaker 2: transition from pregnancy to motherhood it's difficult, and people don't

865
00:46:18,280 --> 00:46:21,360
Speaker 2: talk about all the levels of it, you know, but

866
00:46:21,520 --> 00:46:25,600
Speaker 2: likely relinquishing control and giving yourself a break.

867
00:46:25,960 --> 00:46:31,160
Speaker 5: I observe just in mothers in general not having a break,

868
00:46:31,200 --> 00:46:34,200
Speaker 5: but mostly because they don't give themselves in and allow it.

869
00:46:34,960 --> 00:46:41,040
Speaker 5: And one thing that I really try to do is

870
00:46:42,520 --> 00:46:46,000
Speaker 5: uplift and empower my partner, like I just want you

871
00:46:46,080 --> 00:46:47,799
Speaker 5: to feel like you're the best dad. I don't want

872
00:46:47,880 --> 00:46:49,440
Speaker 5: you to feel like you have to call me for

873
00:46:49,520 --> 00:46:51,919
Speaker 5: any little you know what I mean? He's I want

874
00:46:51,960 --> 00:46:55,319
Speaker 5: him to feel very confident in his fatherhood. Yes, and

875
00:46:55,400 --> 00:46:58,799
Speaker 5: I feel and I feel and I have recognized how

876
00:46:58,840 --> 00:47:02,279
Speaker 5: that has freed me so I could be here and

877
00:47:02,320 --> 00:47:07,520
Speaker 5: not on my phone like I'm sure yeah, because he's

878
00:47:07,560 --> 00:47:13,080
Speaker 5: a present, awesome father and a confident father, and that

879
00:47:13,160 --> 00:47:15,279
Speaker 5: allows me to be confident in other spaces.

880
00:47:16,800 --> 00:47:19,080
Speaker 3: I love that. I think more women need to hear

881
00:47:19,120 --> 00:47:21,360
Speaker 3: that because we don't do that. I feel like a

882
00:47:21,360 --> 00:47:23,400
Speaker 3: lot of women are guilty of that, like thinking that

883
00:47:23,440 --> 00:47:26,880
Speaker 3: their partner is like almost almost treating them as inadequate.

884
00:47:26,920 --> 00:47:30,000
Speaker 3: It's like, yeah, why did we have the babies with

885
00:47:30,320 --> 00:47:30,720
Speaker 3: the person?

886
00:47:31,920 --> 00:47:34,440
Speaker 4: What is that teaching you your child?

887
00:47:34,920 --> 00:47:35,920
Speaker 2: Right? Right?

888
00:47:36,480 --> 00:47:37,080
Speaker 3: That's true.

889
00:47:37,600 --> 00:47:38,080
Speaker 4: Mm hmmm.

890
00:47:38,800 --> 00:47:41,080
Speaker 3: I think it's important too. We gotta we gotta nurture

891
00:47:41,080 --> 00:47:43,480
Speaker 3: the dads too. I was thinking about, like, do you

892
00:47:43,520 --> 00:47:46,360
Speaker 3: consider yourself like I don't mean, I know people like

893
00:47:46,400 --> 00:47:49,560
Speaker 3: to put titles on things and stuff, but like a healer,

894
00:47:49,640 --> 00:47:53,480
Speaker 3: an intuitive anger.

895
00:47:52,880 --> 00:47:53,440
Speaker 4: The healer.

896
00:47:53,719 --> 00:47:57,200
Speaker 5: The title it was just like dub to me, and

897
00:47:57,280 --> 00:48:00,319
Speaker 5: I'm sticking to it because I got paperwork and now

898
00:48:00,560 --> 00:48:02,880
Speaker 5: you know, but I would prefer imani.

899
00:48:03,120 --> 00:48:11,239
Speaker 4: I prefer emani. Right, Yeah, I am psychic.

900
00:48:11,640 --> 00:48:14,960
Speaker 5: I do have those gifts, but I don't really like

901
00:48:15,040 --> 00:48:20,960
Speaker 5: that to be my identity because it puts its People

902
00:48:21,000 --> 00:48:23,440
Speaker 5: don't know how to be receptive.

903
00:48:22,960 --> 00:48:23,960
Speaker 4: To that, right.

904
00:48:24,160 --> 00:48:26,239
Speaker 3: I was just curious about that because I know that

905
00:48:26,360 --> 00:48:27,960
Speaker 3: is a term that gets thrown around a lot. And

906
00:48:28,000 --> 00:48:29,880
Speaker 3: I was like, I wonder what she like because like

907
00:48:29,920 --> 00:48:31,640
Speaker 3: your profile is astroby, and I was like, you know,

908
00:48:31,719 --> 00:48:34,680
Speaker 3: some people usually have like it's their LinkedIn. Essentially, I

909
00:48:34,760 --> 00:48:37,279
Speaker 3: told Mela, like anyone could.

910
00:48:35,920 --> 00:48:39,920
Speaker 4: I could strobey me over the hood healer Astrobay.

911
00:48:40,480 --> 00:48:44,799
Speaker 3: Yeah, because you've had these abilities that seems like, I mean,

912
00:48:44,840 --> 00:48:46,920
Speaker 3: I'm not I don't have psychic abilities. I don't think

913
00:48:46,960 --> 00:48:50,320
Speaker 3: i've sometimes I've I feel like sometimes I see things,

914
00:48:50,320 --> 00:48:53,319
Speaker 3: but like not nothing like the world is going to

915
00:48:53,400 --> 00:48:55,040
Speaker 3: like what's where the state of the world will be

916
00:48:55,080 --> 00:48:56,120
Speaker 3: in like a year.

917
00:48:56,640 --> 00:48:57,200
Speaker 4: Yeah, you do.

918
00:48:58,440 --> 00:48:59,280
Speaker 3: I have fears.

919
00:49:00,400 --> 00:49:03,440
Speaker 5: Really, your fears are inhibiting your ability to see. I

920
00:49:03,440 --> 00:49:04,880
Speaker 5: feel like you see.

921
00:49:06,239 --> 00:49:08,799
Speaker 3: I see things, but I guess I'm thinking that you're saying.

922
00:49:08,800 --> 00:49:12,000
Speaker 5: I think, as a mother have a very special fortitude

923
00:49:12,600 --> 00:49:17,400
Speaker 5: and maybe it's ignored, but you have it all spend

924
00:49:17,400 --> 00:49:19,160
Speaker 5: times where you were like maybe we're not going to

925
00:49:19,239 --> 00:49:22,280
Speaker 5: go on this trip or we're not going to do this.

926
00:49:22,440 --> 00:49:26,040
Speaker 3: And you know, no, for sure, I have those I

927
00:49:26,120 --> 00:49:27,960
Speaker 3: moreso think like I've read some of your posts where

928
00:49:28,000 --> 00:49:33,000
Speaker 3: there's like predictions of like larger like scale effect like

929
00:49:33,320 --> 00:49:36,799
Speaker 3: a large community of people versus me saying as a mother, yeah,

930
00:49:36,800 --> 00:49:38,480
Speaker 3: I don't fuck with that person for me in my

931
00:49:38,560 --> 00:49:42,920
Speaker 3: life versus like knowing outwardly how things are going to

932
00:49:43,320 --> 00:49:45,520
Speaker 3: I guess shift in society and when I say I fears.

933
00:49:45,520 --> 00:49:47,360
Speaker 1: I know we're shifting. I can see it, and I

934
00:49:47,360 --> 00:49:47,960
Speaker 1: can feel it.

935
00:49:48,400 --> 00:49:51,520
Speaker 3: I don't have like exact maybe not even exact, but

936
00:49:51,600 --> 00:49:55,680
Speaker 3: like clear visuals of the manifestation that might happen.

937
00:49:56,200 --> 00:49:57,880
Speaker 1: Is that what yours look like when it happens?

938
00:49:57,920 --> 00:50:03,239
Speaker 5: Or No, always a clear visual, but sometimes it's like

939
00:50:03,480 --> 00:50:13,120
Speaker 5: scenes or I'll just hear things like twenty eighteen, I

940
00:50:13,200 --> 00:50:18,759
Speaker 5: kept hearing to cancel my gym membership, cancel the gym membership,

941
00:50:20,640 --> 00:50:22,480
Speaker 5: like I don't even really fuck with the I mean,

942
00:50:22,520 --> 00:50:23,799
Speaker 5: I was going to the Equinox.

943
00:50:24,840 --> 00:50:27,200
Speaker 4: I missed the Equinox. I was going to the Equinox

944
00:50:27,239 --> 00:50:29,239
Speaker 4: for the steam room and the accoutrements. When I was

945
00:50:29,280 --> 00:50:31,359
Speaker 4: living New York. You know, that was a thing like to.

946
00:50:32,440 --> 00:50:37,120
Speaker 3: You know, from hard Yeah, like I.

947
00:50:37,160 --> 00:50:38,400
Speaker 4: Need to just take a shower.

948
00:50:40,560 --> 00:50:43,480
Speaker 5: Yeah, it was nicer than the shower at home.

949
00:50:43,560 --> 00:50:45,200
Speaker 4: So I feel like that was a personal investment.

950
00:50:45,640 --> 00:50:49,920
Speaker 5: But anyway, I kept hearing that, and I heard it

951
00:50:49,960 --> 00:50:52,360
Speaker 5: all the way until twenty nineteen and in a reading

952
00:50:53,400 --> 00:50:56,200
Speaker 5: when we were I guess I feel like the theme

953
00:50:56,239 --> 00:50:59,799
Speaker 5: of the reading was a preparation, just like I was

954
00:50:59,840 --> 00:51:02,920
Speaker 5: just saying, all these things just prepare for one of

955
00:51:02,960 --> 00:51:08,520
Speaker 5: the things was canceled, the gym membership, and then the

956
00:51:08,560 --> 00:51:15,640
Speaker 5: pandemic happened and there was no need for the gym,

957
00:51:15,880 --> 00:51:19,680
Speaker 5: and you know, we learned that that our home can

958
00:51:19,719 --> 00:51:22,640
Speaker 5: be the gym, our yard can be the gym, and

959
00:51:22,760 --> 00:51:26,160
Speaker 5: we saved money and I feel like that little extra

960
00:51:26,239 --> 00:51:28,760
Speaker 5: savings helped me along in that time.

961
00:51:29,040 --> 00:51:31,279
Speaker 3: Of course that once I don't know how much equinoxes

962
00:51:31,360 --> 00:51:38,840
Speaker 3: New York one two hundred a little coin, yeah, every month. Yeah,

963
00:51:39,239 --> 00:51:41,799
Speaker 3: that's cool. Yeah, I don't know.

964
00:51:41,800 --> 00:51:44,360
Speaker 5: If it's not always clear, it's just gonna be little things.

965
00:51:45,120 --> 00:51:48,120
Speaker 5: And that's sometimes the crazy part.

966
00:51:48,680 --> 00:51:51,280
Speaker 3: We have to be open to even recognizing and hearing

967
00:51:52,040 --> 00:51:53,160
Speaker 3: the calling and the voice.

968
00:51:53,520 --> 00:51:53,840
Speaker 4: Yeah.

969
00:51:54,920 --> 00:51:58,520
Speaker 2: I think also we come from like our society is

970
00:51:58,560 --> 00:52:01,959
Speaker 2: so rigid and strict and has like taught us that,

971
00:52:03,640 --> 00:52:05,759
Speaker 2: I mean, outside of Instagram, taught us that like you

972
00:52:05,840 --> 00:52:07,120
Speaker 2: have to have like I don't know, you have to

973
00:52:07,120 --> 00:52:10,200
Speaker 2: atrieve some level of somethingness to be a healer or

974
00:52:10,239 --> 00:52:13,000
Speaker 2: to be an intuitive or be bold enough to just

975
00:52:13,000 --> 00:52:14,840
Speaker 2: put it on your bio. You know, there's a different

976
00:52:14,880 --> 00:52:17,839
Speaker 2: there's different levels. But like even before you know, Eric

977
00:52:17,920 --> 00:52:21,560
Speaker 2: and I host retreats and we had done all the

978
00:52:21,560 --> 00:52:23,400
Speaker 2: work to put together all these things and granted we

979
00:52:23,400 --> 00:52:28,160
Speaker 2: had a community just talking, but like feeling like we

980
00:52:28,239 --> 00:52:29,759
Speaker 2: need Like I was like, okay, we're we're going to

981
00:52:29,840 --> 00:52:31,279
Speaker 2: do a workshop, but then what are we going to

982
00:52:31,320 --> 00:52:34,000
Speaker 2: talk about? Like are we healers? I'm like, I think,

983
00:52:34,040 --> 00:52:36,760
Speaker 2: I think bitches are healing. Looks like the bitches are healing.

984
00:52:36,880 --> 00:52:39,239
Speaker 2: But it was really just in like the healing of

985
00:52:39,280 --> 00:52:43,279
Speaker 2: ourselves and talking things through ourselves. It's like not this

986
00:52:43,600 --> 00:52:47,680
Speaker 2: necessarily like superpower, but in being true to ourselves that

987
00:52:47,800 --> 00:52:50,399
Speaker 2: was the superpower into relating to other women and then

988
00:52:50,480 --> 00:52:52,400
Speaker 2: like having a testimony and saying like this is what

989
00:52:52,440 --> 00:52:54,360
Speaker 2: we did. This is how we tapped into our ancestor,

990
00:52:54,400 --> 00:52:57,160
Speaker 2: this is how we tapped into our own spirit like

991
00:52:57,200 --> 00:53:00,400
Speaker 2: our own magic, you know, and how we manifest. But

992
00:53:00,440 --> 00:53:03,920
Speaker 2: I think so often we question it because we assume

993
00:53:03,960 --> 00:53:06,480
Speaker 2: we're supposed to have some big And I'm not suggesting

994
00:53:06,520 --> 00:53:08,120
Speaker 2: everybody go buy Tario cards and like it on the

995
00:53:08,160 --> 00:53:12,520
Speaker 2: internet and start accepting money and shit. But I think

996
00:53:12,560 --> 00:53:16,360
Speaker 2: that there's a level of believing in the magic in

997
00:53:16,400 --> 00:53:19,440
Speaker 2: yourself versus having to like, you know, that's.

998
00:53:19,280 --> 00:53:20,040
Speaker 4: Really what it is.

999
00:53:20,160 --> 00:53:23,480
Speaker 5: I think that's the spiritual initiation, is believing in the

1000
00:53:23,520 --> 00:53:29,560
Speaker 5: magic in yourself. And for some people it's like, how

1001
00:53:30,600 --> 00:53:32,600
Speaker 5: the audacity I believe?

1002
00:53:32,640 --> 00:53:34,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, believing in the magic yourself? Yeah, I was the same,

1003
00:53:34,719 --> 00:53:38,320
Speaker 3: the same as that self ceremony, self devotion. It's anything

1004
00:53:38,480 --> 00:53:44,000
Speaker 3: related too deeply to self is deemed demonic or scary

1005
00:53:44,200 --> 00:53:44,800
Speaker 3: or weird.

1006
00:53:45,200 --> 00:53:47,440
Speaker 2: But who knows you better than you? You know, if

1007
00:53:47,440 --> 00:53:49,600
Speaker 2: you've got the whole thing, you know, if some shit

1008
00:53:49,680 --> 00:53:52,400
Speaker 2: you know, you already know. But like it's in denying

1009
00:53:52,440 --> 00:53:54,799
Speaker 2: that that you don't get what you want because you're

1010
00:53:54,840 --> 00:53:57,279
Speaker 2: denying yourself. You're denying your magic, and it won't open

1011
00:53:57,360 --> 00:54:01,319
Speaker 2: up the spirit's path for you if you keep.

1012
00:54:01,280 --> 00:54:05,160
Speaker 4: And people pray upon that. There's other spirit.

1013
00:54:05,200 --> 00:54:14,040
Speaker 5: There's people pray upon your unknowing and disbelieving. And we

1014
00:54:14,120 --> 00:54:17,000
Speaker 5: see that a lot on Instagram now with all these

1015
00:54:17,040 --> 00:54:19,440
Speaker 5: fake pages and people soliciting. I don't know if that

1016
00:54:19,480 --> 00:54:23,239
Speaker 5: really happens to you, guys, you're in your corner, and.

1017
00:54:24,239 --> 00:54:28,880
Speaker 4: It's a lot of the readers on Instagram.

1018
00:54:28,600 --> 00:54:34,040
Speaker 2: Are catfish or whatnott like. They make fake pages and

1019
00:54:34,040 --> 00:54:35,600
Speaker 2: then they solicit people to get rating.

1020
00:54:35,760 --> 00:54:41,240
Speaker 5: And people give them money, right, And so that happens

1021
00:54:41,239 --> 00:54:43,799
Speaker 5: to people who are struggling with the level of discerning,

1022
00:54:43,920 --> 00:54:46,280
Speaker 5: a level of believing, and there's a lot of people

1023
00:54:46,400 --> 00:54:52,640
Speaker 5: who are looking externally for guidance for the magic that

1024
00:54:52,719 --> 00:54:57,400
Speaker 5: really resides within us. And I think that's my biggest

1025
00:54:57,440 --> 00:54:59,959
Speaker 5: issue with the spiritual community. And that's why I really

1026
00:55:00,120 --> 00:55:05,000
Speaker 5: don't want to be associated because my message is.

1027
00:55:07,200 --> 00:55:07,880
Speaker 4: That it's in you.

1028
00:55:09,239 --> 00:55:12,520
Speaker 5: It's in you, you don't have to seek it anywhere.

1029
00:55:13,040 --> 00:55:17,399
Speaker 5: And I spend the time online because I really enjoy it.

1030
00:55:17,880 --> 00:55:24,120
Speaker 5: And it's beautiful to see that believing start to happen

1031
00:55:24,160 --> 00:55:28,640
Speaker 5: in people and people empowering themselves and you know, doing

1032
00:55:28,680 --> 00:55:30,799
Speaker 5: their thing. I really love that. I love to see

1033
00:55:30,880 --> 00:55:33,040
Speaker 5: people living in their magic.

1034
00:55:36,840 --> 00:55:41,360
Speaker 4: I mean, that's that can be very repulsive to someone

1035
00:55:41,440 --> 00:55:42,280
Speaker 4: living in the dark.

1036
00:55:43,239 --> 00:55:48,279
Speaker 3: It's true, that's so true. I mean, I guess that's

1037
00:55:48,320 --> 00:55:50,360
Speaker 3: a good way to look at social media too. It's

1038
00:55:50,360 --> 00:55:53,960
Speaker 3: like being able to view those parts of people's evolution,

1039
00:55:54,440 --> 00:55:56,520
Speaker 3: you know. I think that's why even people like the podcast,

1040
00:55:56,560 --> 00:55:59,960
Speaker 3: because you can do literally a visual evolution of something

1041
00:56:00,160 --> 00:56:03,480
Speaker 3: that you're seeing grow versus like you know, the dark

1042
00:56:03,520 --> 00:56:05,560
Speaker 3: Internet and the toxic shit on the Internet that you

1043
00:56:05,560 --> 00:56:08,000
Speaker 3: don't want to see. But I always tell people like

1044
00:56:08,160 --> 00:56:10,160
Speaker 3: follow who you need to follow and follow who you

1045
00:56:10,200 --> 00:56:12,560
Speaker 3: don't need to follow, Like you can curate what you

1046
00:56:12,680 --> 00:56:16,239
Speaker 3: see even while having to kind of surrender to this

1047
00:56:16,320 --> 00:56:18,840
Speaker 3: thing called the Internet that we can't kind of ignore.

1048
00:56:19,640 --> 00:56:21,480
Speaker 4: But you can still create your algorithm.

1049
00:56:21,640 --> 00:56:25,399
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, I think it's important. Well, I'm so happy

1050
00:56:25,400 --> 00:56:27,680
Speaker 3: you're on my algorithm, girl, because obviously, and I'm like,

1051
00:56:29,320 --> 00:56:30,799
Speaker 3: let me se let me see what she talking about

1052
00:56:30,800 --> 00:56:33,040
Speaker 3: here on her live. It's who I am. Oh, she's

1053
00:56:33,080 --> 00:56:33,719
Speaker 3: spoking about this.

1054
00:56:35,040 --> 00:56:36,759
Speaker 2: You always have a message right right, as soon as

1055
00:56:36,800 --> 00:56:40,880
Speaker 2: I need it. I'm like talking to me. Oh, speaking

1056
00:56:40,880 --> 00:56:43,640
Speaker 2: of messages, do you have an affirmation for our people today?

1057
00:56:44,360 --> 00:56:46,759
Speaker 4: As long as you have breath, you have options.

1058
00:56:48,400 --> 00:56:51,879
Speaker 2: As long as you have breast, you have options.

1059
00:56:52,280 --> 00:56:57,960
Speaker 5: Yes, you're never powerless when you are tuning into the breath.

1060
00:57:00,160 --> 00:57:02,520
Speaker 2: As long as you have breath, you have options.

1061
00:57:02,520 --> 00:57:07,160
Speaker 4: Started with breathing, right, Yeah, definitely.

1062
00:57:09,960 --> 00:57:13,640
Speaker 2: That's true. Always another day. I don't like from yesterday,

1063
00:57:13,800 --> 00:57:19,240
Speaker 2: change it true. Tomorrow is a new day. We asked

1064
00:57:19,240 --> 00:57:22,280
Speaker 2: our people to send in questions for you. I heard

1065
00:57:22,320 --> 00:57:23,560
Speaker 2: there was some questions we did.

1066
00:57:24,920 --> 00:57:28,640
Speaker 3: Do you have any of them that you was one

1067
00:57:28,680 --> 00:57:35,800
Speaker 3: that I liked a lot. Let's see, Oh, here was

1068
00:57:35,880 --> 00:57:40,240
Speaker 3: one how how do you navigate your child's birth chart

1069
00:57:40,520 --> 00:57:42,600
Speaker 3: to help them in their lives? Is that something that

1070
00:57:42,640 --> 00:57:45,680
Speaker 3: you that you do or you just let them do

1071
00:57:45,760 --> 00:57:48,360
Speaker 3: their thing? Because I think people assume because you talk

1072
00:57:48,400 --> 00:57:49,560
Speaker 3: about astrology a lot that.

1073
00:57:49,960 --> 00:57:56,000
Speaker 5: I feel like there's a toxic astrology happening, and I've

1074
00:57:56,040 --> 00:58:00,440
Speaker 5: been retracting a lot of my statements. Actually, yes, I

1075
00:58:00,480 --> 00:58:03,160
Speaker 5: feel like there's a toxic astrology happening, and I feel

1076
00:58:03,200 --> 00:58:05,360
Speaker 5: like people are using astrology to.

1077
00:58:05,400 --> 00:58:10,760
Speaker 4: Possess people and not necessarily learn them.

1078
00:58:12,280 --> 00:58:14,040
Speaker 2: And when you.

1079
00:58:15,480 --> 00:58:20,560
Speaker 5: Are going by a definition and a child is expressing

1080
00:58:20,720 --> 00:58:27,560
Speaker 5: something else, I feel like and by going by a

1081
00:58:27,600 --> 00:58:30,800
Speaker 5: definition and you're like, by like reading the birth chart. Yeah,

1082
00:58:30,800 --> 00:58:37,000
Speaker 5: there's things that can help you understand the archetype. But

1083
00:58:37,080 --> 00:58:39,880
Speaker 5: I think it's just really important to let your kid

1084
00:58:39,960 --> 00:58:42,120
Speaker 5: be a kid and get to know your kid because

1085
00:58:42,200 --> 00:58:45,520
Speaker 5: everyone doesn't express the same within the zodiac, you know

1086
00:58:45,560 --> 00:58:45,960
Speaker 5: what I mean?

1087
00:58:46,960 --> 00:58:49,080
Speaker 3: Yeah, toxic astrology.

1088
00:58:49,120 --> 00:58:50,120
Speaker 4: I think it's like a thing.

1089
00:58:50,840 --> 00:58:53,720
Speaker 3: Well, I mean, whenever you start creating apps for the

1090
00:58:53,760 --> 00:58:55,840
Speaker 3: stars and the moons, I feel like we get it

1091
00:58:55,840 --> 00:58:59,800
Speaker 3: a little scary over there. You start seeing the same notification.

1092
00:59:00,000 --> 00:59:03,040
Speaker 3: I'm like, girl, you said this two months ago.

1093
00:59:04,480 --> 00:59:05,480
Speaker 2: Are you a birth doula?

1094
00:59:06,280 --> 00:59:07,720
Speaker 4: No, what is this question?

1095
00:59:09,680 --> 00:59:12,800
Speaker 2: When they asked questions on being a birth doula helping

1096
00:59:12,800 --> 00:59:16,080
Speaker 2: women through birth? Happy face, happy face?

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Speaker 4: Did you have a birth? I did have a Jeela.

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Speaker 2: Were you in the hospital?

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Speaker 5: I had a duela and I had a midwife. I

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00:59:25,160 --> 00:59:33,960
Speaker 5: had not the best experience. I one of those like

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00:59:35,240 --> 00:59:39,080
Speaker 5: all kim folk and skim folk type of situation. And

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Speaker 5: I chose black midwives because I felt like I needed

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00:59:44,440 --> 00:59:47,240
Speaker 5: the nurturement of a mother, like I needed like some

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00:59:47,320 --> 00:59:48,680
Speaker 5: maternal energy.

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00:59:48,480 --> 00:59:49,919
Speaker 4: Through this experience.

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Speaker 5: And this was my first obviously, my first birth never

1107
00:59:56,760 --> 00:59:57,240
Speaker 5: gave you.

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00:59:57,200 --> 00:59:58,800
Speaker 4: Know, I needed to.

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01:00:00,640 --> 01:00:03,200
Speaker 5: I felt like I needed something that I really didn't,

1110
01:00:03,480 --> 01:00:06,640
Speaker 5: but I just felt like I needed this maternal energy.

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01:00:06,720 --> 01:00:10,680
Speaker 5: And long story short, I dealt with a lot of

1112
01:00:10,720 --> 01:00:16,240
Speaker 5: medical negligence and I just felt like I wasn't going

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Speaker 5: to have a smooth birth unless I switched midwives.

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Speaker 4: So I switched midwives at.

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01:00:21,200 --> 01:00:26,240
Speaker 5: Thirty seven weeks, gave birth at thirty eight weeks. Wow,

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01:00:26,560 --> 01:00:32,560
Speaker 5: and my midwife was actually an angel, but maybe like

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01:00:32,600 --> 01:00:35,080
Speaker 5: after forty five minutes of getting birth, Ocean had to

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Speaker 5: go to the hospital. She was in the hospital for

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01:00:37,640 --> 01:00:41,439
Speaker 5: a week and she had an infection that we still

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Speaker 5: don't know. We still really don't know what went wrong.

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01:00:44,360 --> 01:00:47,400
Speaker 5: We just know that there was many opportunities for it

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01:00:47,520 --> 01:00:54,040
Speaker 5: to be corrected and it didn't happen. So it was

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Speaker 5: a really it was just horrible.

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Speaker 2: Wait, So you birthed at home and then went to

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Speaker 2: the hospital.

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Speaker 5: I birthed home and then Ocean with the paramedics came

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Speaker 5: forty four whiles late in another realm, laying on the floor,

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Speaker 5: and went to the hospital. She was not breathing, she

1129
01:01:10,640 --> 01:01:16,960
Speaker 5: wasn't responding fast enough, and so she was there. But

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Speaker 5: I did have a dula and that really helped because

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01:01:21,080 --> 01:01:28,959
Speaker 5: I was terrified about, you know, the vaccination process and

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01:01:30,280 --> 01:01:32,720
Speaker 5: just like being a black mom and having a black

1133
01:01:32,760 --> 01:01:34,160
Speaker 5: baby in the hospital, you.

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01:01:34,120 --> 01:01:36,840
Speaker 2: Know, especially when you're intended on just having a home

1135
01:01:36,880 --> 01:01:39,160
Speaker 2: birth and not even having to do that. Do you

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01:01:39,200 --> 01:01:41,920
Speaker 2: feel like that happened because of the first the midwife

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01:01:41,960 --> 01:01:43,760
Speaker 2: you had initially for the first thirty seven weeks.

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Speaker 5: I feel like it really happens because I was not

1139
01:01:45,840 --> 01:01:50,720
Speaker 5: trusting my intuition and I was feeling like I needed

1140
01:01:50,760 --> 01:01:58,880
Speaker 5: something that I needed something that was not really attainable,

1141
01:01:59,240 --> 01:02:03,240
Speaker 5: like nobody else to be your mama.

1142
01:02:02,120 --> 01:02:03,800
Speaker 2: But you're trying to Yeah, you can't hire.

1143
01:02:03,600 --> 01:02:10,360
Speaker 5: That, like, yeah, you know, and they just we were

1144
01:02:10,400 --> 01:02:16,560
Speaker 5: just not aligned. And I suffered through the majority of

1145
01:02:16,600 --> 01:02:23,760
Speaker 5: my pregnancy wanting an experience that just wasn't aligned.

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01:02:24,840 --> 01:02:25,320
Speaker 4: Yeah.

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Speaker 5: So I learned a lot too. And I also learned

1148
01:02:29,600 --> 01:02:35,000
Speaker 5: that when it comes to health, do the best thing

1149
01:02:35,080 --> 01:02:40,080
Speaker 5: for you. It's not always about trying to work with

1150
01:02:40,160 --> 01:02:40,640
Speaker 5: your people.

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Speaker 2: Wow, that's I'm so happy you shared that story because

1152
01:02:47,880 --> 01:02:50,160
Speaker 2: there's so many you know, so many things can happen

1153
01:02:50,160 --> 01:02:52,640
Speaker 2: in birth, and I'm always like home birth, home birth,

1154
01:02:53,120 --> 01:02:55,800
Speaker 2: but you know, everybody, I think that's the thing about birth.

1155
01:02:55,840 --> 01:02:59,760
Speaker 2: It's like the first introduction to motherhood and it's like surprise,

1156
01:03:00,600 --> 01:03:02,720
Speaker 2: it's gonna look however way it's supposed to look, and

1157
01:03:02,720 --> 01:03:05,000
Speaker 2: you kind of have to submit to your intuition and

1158
01:03:05,080 --> 01:03:08,520
Speaker 2: to just whatever happens shift and be open to that shift.

1159
01:03:08,560 --> 01:03:11,960
Speaker 2: And I'm grateful that like ocean's okay, you're okay, and

1160
01:03:12,000 --> 01:03:14,360
Speaker 2: you had the opportunity to get transfer to the hospital,

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Speaker 2: and you know, letting go, letting go and allowing that.

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Speaker 3: Process in that hood is the first that's that first lesson.

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01:03:20,560 --> 01:03:22,680
Speaker 3: I feel like most mothers learned that lesson early you

1164
01:03:22,760 --> 01:03:25,400
Speaker 3: learn it eventually, no matter what, you will learn the

1165
01:03:25,400 --> 01:03:27,600
Speaker 3: fucking lesson that you have to surrender and you can

1166
01:03:27,600 --> 01:03:31,440
Speaker 3: either fight against it you're gonna go nuts, or you submit.

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Speaker 3: And a lot of times it's at birth that's when

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01:03:33,880 --> 01:03:35,880
Speaker 3: the lesson happens. I know that was what it was

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01:03:35,880 --> 01:03:37,320
Speaker 3: for me because I had to see section and it

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01:03:37,360 --> 01:03:40,760
Speaker 3: was unplanned. I had not mentally prepared for it. I

1171
01:03:40,840 --> 01:03:43,160
Speaker 3: was just new. I was there was no way. I

1172
01:03:43,200 --> 01:03:45,440
Speaker 3: was like, I'm not manifesting that, that's for sure. So

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01:03:45,480 --> 01:03:48,680
Speaker 3: I literally I thought me manifesting the birth. I wanted

1174
01:03:48,920 --> 01:03:52,080
Speaker 3: me ignoring all possibilities of anything else happening. And I

1175
01:03:52,120 --> 01:03:54,360
Speaker 3: had to learned early that is not That's not how

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01:03:54,400 --> 01:03:54,800
Speaker 3: it works.

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Speaker 4: No, that's not at all.

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Speaker 3: That's not how it works. Like that's not even really

1179
01:03:58,960 --> 01:04:02,240
Speaker 3: how you manifest. You don't manifest by just simply ignoring,

1180
01:04:02,520 --> 01:04:07,400
Speaker 3: like I guess, preparing yourself and being open to the

1181
01:04:07,440 --> 01:04:09,800
Speaker 3: possibilities and be excited about all of them. Like I

1182
01:04:09,880 --> 01:04:12,680
Speaker 3: was so steadfast on like the experience that I wanted

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01:04:12,680 --> 01:04:15,760
Speaker 3: to have, you know, which, Yeah, it's like I feel

1184
01:04:15,760 --> 01:04:18,000
Speaker 3: like there's like a like how do you tote the

1185
01:04:18,040 --> 01:04:21,959
Speaker 3: line of like being extremely intentional about what you want

1186
01:04:22,040 --> 01:04:24,960
Speaker 3: when you're manifesting and saying, this is what's going to happen.

1187
01:04:24,960 --> 01:04:27,280
Speaker 3: This is going to be the end result, versus like

1188
01:04:27,720 --> 01:04:32,440
Speaker 3: being totally unprepared for any other result. No, you know

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Speaker 3: what I mean, Like when you're manifesting, like how do

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Speaker 3: you even how do you do both?

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Speaker 2: I mean I think you just have to know that

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01:04:38,400 --> 01:04:41,200
Speaker 2: it may not it doesn't always show up exactly how

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01:04:41,200 --> 01:04:43,480
Speaker 2: you envisioned it, but it shows up exactly how you

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01:04:43,640 --> 01:04:46,160
Speaker 2: envisioned it. You know, it may look appear different, but

1195
01:04:46,200 --> 01:04:49,520
Speaker 2: it is what you asked for type shit, you know. Yeah,

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01:04:49,960 --> 01:04:51,000
Speaker 2: sometimes it's just a.

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Speaker 3: Lesson, like, bitch, you asked for a baby, you got one, Okay.

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Speaker 2: And sometimes it's just a lesson like but you're not

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Speaker 2: having a home birth. It's not happening. You are going

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Speaker 2: to the hostel lesson and release.

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01:04:58,880 --> 01:04:59,080
Speaker 5: Yeah.

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01:04:59,240 --> 01:05:06,480
Speaker 2: Sometimes it's like no, right, just nope.

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01:05:06,760 --> 01:05:12,320
Speaker 5: Yeah, but listen, trust your intuition. I feel like if

1204
01:05:12,360 --> 01:05:14,640
Speaker 5: I didn't switch midwise, it would have been horrible.

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01:05:15,240 --> 01:05:17,720
Speaker 3: Yeah, what was birth after? Like what was it like

1206
01:05:17,760 --> 01:05:21,280
Speaker 3: after for you? And like the days after and like

1207
01:05:21,840 --> 01:05:24,400
Speaker 3: was that like a big shocking shift for you?

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01:05:25,760 --> 01:05:26,120
Speaker 1: Again?

1209
01:05:26,640 --> 01:05:29,240
Speaker 4: Releasing because I planned to be home.

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01:05:29,400 --> 01:05:33,040
Speaker 5: I wanted to be at home, not running back and

1211
01:05:33,080 --> 01:05:38,800
Speaker 5: forth to the NIKEU unit. And that was kind of

1212
01:05:38,840 --> 01:05:43,280
Speaker 5: traumatizing for me because we did not want her to

1213
01:05:45,040 --> 01:05:48,280
Speaker 5: have to be back deal with some of the vaccinations,

1214
01:05:49,000 --> 01:05:54,320
Speaker 5: and they were just like, I want to tell you

1215
01:05:54,360 --> 01:05:57,000
Speaker 5: everything that could go wrong, and the hospital went wrong

1216
01:05:57,320 --> 01:06:00,240
Speaker 5: that first week, so it was really hard. And then

1217
01:06:00,600 --> 01:06:07,240
Speaker 5: also in the public there was that situation with that

1218
01:06:07,400 --> 01:06:09,440
Speaker 5: child who was like medically kidnapped.

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01:06:09,520 --> 01:06:11,200
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, that was horrible.

1220
01:06:11,320 --> 01:06:15,000
Speaker 4: Oh yeah, So I was just like, on maybe it

1221
01:06:15,040 --> 01:06:18,360
Speaker 4: was not, it wasn't. It took me about a month

1222
01:06:18,520 --> 01:06:19,840
Speaker 4: to really acclimate.

1223
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Speaker 3: Do you think that that affected any like part of

1224
01:06:24,760 --> 01:06:27,240
Speaker 3: your mental health? I know, like people were so they

1225
01:06:27,240 --> 01:06:31,240
Speaker 3: were there was a consci did you have on the

1226
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Speaker 3: internet postpartum and your views on that and whether I mean,

1227
01:06:35,840 --> 01:06:38,040
Speaker 3: do you did you yourself? I mean, obviously you went

1228
01:06:38,080 --> 01:06:40,040
Speaker 3: through something, for sure. I mean, but that like we

1229
01:06:40,080 --> 01:06:42,080
Speaker 3: had that conversation off the mic when I was saying,

1230
01:06:42,080 --> 01:06:44,880
Speaker 3: like I had there was something, but I had a

1231
01:06:44,880 --> 01:06:47,440
Speaker 3: lot of other factors happening that were also stressing me

1232
01:06:47,480 --> 01:06:47,960
Speaker 3: the fuck out.

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01:06:48,840 --> 01:06:51,000
Speaker 5: Yeah, And I think it's really important to be honest

1234
01:06:51,040 --> 01:06:55,320
Speaker 5: about those factors, because postpartum depression is such a blanket

1235
01:06:55,440 --> 01:07:00,440
Speaker 5: diagnosis that we can get lost in. I feel like

1236
01:07:00,600 --> 01:07:06,080
Speaker 5: I was doing a lot of work prior to Ocean

1237
01:07:06,600 --> 01:07:12,840
Speaker 5: coming earthside, just because I just didn't want to have

1238
01:07:12,960 --> 01:07:16,200
Speaker 5: the same experience that I had with my mom. And

1239
01:07:16,600 --> 01:07:20,919
Speaker 5: I was really conscious I was talking earlier about having

1240
01:07:20,960 --> 01:07:24,080
Speaker 5: to release and call in the support. I was really

1241
01:07:24,120 --> 01:07:28,320
Speaker 5: conscious that I had to be conscious of the fact

1242
01:07:28,440 --> 01:07:32,280
Speaker 5: that I have to design, design a life that is

1243
01:07:33,200 --> 01:07:36,280
Speaker 5: going to work for meat and ocean, and if it

1244
01:07:36,320 --> 01:07:39,320
Speaker 5: doesn't work for meat and ocean, it's not going to

1245
01:07:39,400 --> 01:07:40,600
Speaker 5: work for us.

1246
01:07:42,320 --> 01:07:52,440
Speaker 3: So what was the question again, wait, I asked, It

1247
01:07:52,520 --> 01:07:55,000
Speaker 3: was part of did you have yes?

1248
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Speaker 5: So I think because things, I feel like I'm still

1249
01:08:03,400 --> 01:08:09,080
Speaker 5: in a postpartum period, but because so many yeah, so

1250
01:08:09,160 --> 01:08:10,520
Speaker 5: many things.

1251
01:08:13,880 --> 01:08:15,400
Speaker 4: I feel like I focused on.

1252
01:08:15,560 --> 01:08:18,320
Speaker 5: The real thing for me was having to deal with

1253
01:08:18,360 --> 01:08:20,320
Speaker 5: the fact that my birth didn't go the way that

1254
01:08:20,560 --> 01:08:21,599
Speaker 5: it went.

1255
01:08:21,800 --> 01:08:24,040
Speaker 4: It wasn't like, Okay.

1256
01:08:23,760 --> 01:08:25,880
Speaker 5: What's my purpose now, or how am I going to

1257
01:08:25,920 --> 01:08:28,800
Speaker 5: get back to work or you know, it was just

1258
01:08:28,920 --> 01:08:32,519
Speaker 5: like damn, like I really had a fucked up. This

1259
01:08:32,720 --> 01:08:34,400
Speaker 5: was not the fuck and I still have to pay

1260
01:08:34,400 --> 01:08:39,559
Speaker 5: for this ship, you know. Yeah, so I think that

1261
01:08:39,680 --> 01:08:42,000
Speaker 5: there was a little bit of blues about that, and

1262
01:08:42,040 --> 01:08:48,880
Speaker 5: then also having to and still having to deal with

1263
01:08:48,920 --> 01:08:51,920
Speaker 5: the fact that my parents are not here for this

1264
01:08:52,160 --> 01:08:54,880
Speaker 5: experience and there's so many things that I wish that

1265
01:08:54,960 --> 01:08:58,559
Speaker 5: I could talk to them about now, and so there

1266
01:08:58,600 --> 01:09:00,360
Speaker 5: is a little bit of blues about that. But I

1267
01:09:00,439 --> 01:09:05,840
Speaker 5: just think that that's normal. And I feel like I

1268
01:09:05,880 --> 01:09:14,839
Speaker 5: feel like having grievances after you know, having grievances is normal.

1269
01:09:15,680 --> 01:09:21,759
Speaker 5: Having a child and having these things still unsettled is normal.

1270
01:09:22,600 --> 01:09:23,400
Speaker 4: It's okay.

1271
01:09:24,040 --> 01:09:28,280
Speaker 5: But hiding behind postpartum depression, I don't think it's progressive

1272
01:09:30,160 --> 01:09:32,680
Speaker 5: saying that my issue. You know, I feel like this

1273
01:09:33,400 --> 01:09:37,720
Speaker 5: since having the baby. That's not really true. And if

1274
01:09:37,760 --> 01:09:39,800
Speaker 5: you're not honest about that, how do you fix it?

1275
01:09:41,240 --> 01:09:44,160
Speaker 5: And I also feel like black mothers we can't hide

1276
01:09:44,160 --> 01:09:46,439
Speaker 5: behind those type of labels because I can't go to

1277
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Speaker 5: a physician and say I'm dealing with postpartum depression. I'm

1278
01:09:50,280 --> 01:09:54,000
Speaker 5: having these dark thoughts and go through the same channels

1279
01:09:54,040 --> 01:09:55,599
Speaker 5: that a white mother goes through.

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Speaker 2: That's true. Absolutely, that's true, and that shit proves it.

1281
01:10:00,240 --> 01:10:02,000
Speaker 2: Situation that you just talked about.

1282
01:10:02,439 --> 01:10:04,559
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think I think a lot of times the

1283
01:10:04,600 --> 01:10:07,920
Speaker 3: postpartum or for lack of whatever this label and this

1284
01:10:07,960 --> 01:10:11,400
Speaker 3: word I think that I mean postpartum.

1285
01:10:11,680 --> 01:10:12,920
Speaker 1: The word actually.

1286
01:10:12,560 --> 01:10:14,519
Speaker 3: Only has existed for I don't know, probably not that

1287
01:10:14,560 --> 01:10:19,840
Speaker 3: many years. Like this is not some new discovery within birth. Guys,

1288
01:10:19,880 --> 01:10:22,680
Speaker 3: like women, when we have babies, we need to be

1289
01:10:22,680 --> 01:10:24,880
Speaker 3: taken care of. There's a there's a community that is

1290
01:10:24,880 --> 01:10:26,760
Speaker 3: supposed to be built in for the mothers that isn't

1291
01:10:26,760 --> 01:10:28,920
Speaker 3: and there's a shift that happens, and a lot of

1292
01:10:28,960 --> 01:10:31,920
Speaker 3: that shift can be sadness and things of that nature.

1293
01:10:31,960 --> 01:10:34,240
Speaker 3: On top of you know, if maybe you're not a mom,

1294
01:10:34,280 --> 01:10:36,720
Speaker 3: that maybe you're a working mom, like you know, now

1295
01:10:36,760 --> 01:10:38,240
Speaker 3: you have to go back to work immediately, you have

1296
01:10:38,240 --> 01:10:40,080
Speaker 3: to be taken away from your baby because you have

1297
01:10:40,120 --> 01:10:41,799
Speaker 3: to go back to having a child.

1298
01:10:41,880 --> 01:10:46,080
Speaker 5: To realize how unsupportive society is to mothers.

1299
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Speaker 3: I have a friend who I think, where does she live?

1300
01:10:48,960 --> 01:10:51,559
Speaker 3: She lives maybe it's Sweden or something. She had her

1301
01:10:51,560 --> 01:10:54,679
Speaker 3: baby here and she was like, you guys, treat your

1302
01:10:54,840 --> 01:10:57,240
Speaker 3: mom's terribly here horrible.

1303
01:10:57,840 --> 01:10:59,960
Speaker 1: She went went back, she was like, I'm out.

1304
01:11:00,080 --> 01:11:02,240
Speaker 2: But it's a reflection of our society. Like, look at

1305
01:11:02,320 --> 01:11:04,880
Speaker 2: how the society treats the women in the society, the

1306
01:11:04,880 --> 01:11:07,120
Speaker 2: mothers in society, and look at the ship that we

1307
01:11:07,240 --> 01:11:10,400
Speaker 2: call fucking ice cream in America. You know, like that's

1308
01:11:10,640 --> 01:11:11,320
Speaker 2: very true.

1309
01:11:11,800 --> 01:11:14,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, it's like we need the tribe, we need the community,

1310
01:11:14,200 --> 01:11:16,519
Speaker 3: and if we don't, we're gonna be sad. That's like,

1311
01:11:16,640 --> 01:11:18,880
Speaker 3: we will. We will struggle, It'll will have a really

1312
01:11:18,960 --> 01:11:21,640
Speaker 3: hard time. Is there gonna be chemical imbalance? And I'm

1313
01:11:21,680 --> 01:11:23,559
Speaker 3: not I'm not like saying.

1314
01:11:23,400 --> 01:11:29,880
Speaker 5: That thermones are yours. I want to be very clear.

1315
01:11:30,160 --> 01:11:34,400
Speaker 5: The physicality thing is real. You're feeling like like you're

1316
01:11:34,960 --> 01:11:36,840
Speaker 5: like Kuchie got hit by a mack truck.

1317
01:11:36,960 --> 01:11:37,920
Speaker 4: That ship is real.

1318
01:11:38,160 --> 01:11:40,479
Speaker 2: A whole human has dispelled.

1319
01:11:39,920 --> 01:11:43,599
Speaker 5: From George Boobs is real. Waking up in the sweats

1320
01:11:43,640 --> 01:11:47,280
Speaker 5: and all of that is real. Trying to reidentify yourself

1321
01:11:47,520 --> 01:11:52,240
Speaker 5: is real. But I feel like if you can do

1322
01:11:52,439 --> 01:11:56,400
Speaker 5: the work before having a child, and I'm just so

1323
01:11:56,640 --> 01:11:59,960
Speaker 5: passionate about this as I do. I'm very passionate about

1324
01:12:00,040 --> 01:12:04,280
Speaker 5: in her child's work. And I feel like, if you

1325
01:12:04,400 --> 01:12:06,599
Speaker 5: are dealing with postpartum depression, what is.

1326
01:12:06,560 --> 01:12:12,920
Speaker 4: Your child dealing with? What is your child feeling? What

1327
01:12:13,040 --> 01:12:13,400
Speaker 4: do you know?

1328
01:12:13,479 --> 01:12:15,000
Speaker 3: Do you mean, like in the ways of like because

1329
01:12:15,000 --> 01:12:17,360
Speaker 3: their mother is going through this, or because if.

1330
01:12:17,280 --> 01:12:25,280
Speaker 5: Your child, if you are feeling uneasy, what energy is

1331
01:12:25,320 --> 01:12:27,000
Speaker 5: your child picking up from you?

1332
01:12:27,080 --> 01:12:30,599
Speaker 3: Absolutely, I mean even when you're pregnant with your baby,

1333
01:12:30,800 --> 01:12:34,240
Speaker 3: you know the energy that you keep is it is important?

1334
01:12:34,640 --> 01:12:35,439
Speaker 4: Right? And so.

1335
01:12:37,320 --> 01:12:41,120
Speaker 5: My mom is my mom was anxious around me, and

1336
01:12:41,280 --> 01:12:46,880
Speaker 5: so now I'm anxious and now I'm unconfident. And I

1337
01:12:46,920 --> 01:12:49,320
Speaker 5: don't know where these things. I don't know where I

1338
01:12:49,400 --> 01:12:53,800
Speaker 5: adopted this behavior, and it's usually in childhood. And if

1339
01:12:53,840 --> 01:12:57,559
Speaker 5: we could just get if we could start before having

1340
01:12:57,600 --> 01:13:02,479
Speaker 5: the baby and get clear of about a few things.

1341
01:13:02,880 --> 01:13:03,160
Speaker 4: I think.

1342
01:13:03,560 --> 01:13:07,840
Speaker 5: I think that a lot of the sadness that women

1343
01:13:07,960 --> 01:13:13,800
Speaker 5: feels relationship and lack of purpose and those things are

1344
01:13:13,840 --> 01:13:16,639
Speaker 5: hard to straighten out when you have a child.

1345
01:13:17,760 --> 01:13:23,320
Speaker 2: I agree, I mean, I agree that generally there's some

1346
01:13:23,439 --> 01:13:27,280
Speaker 2: pre existing shit that you've ignored, and getting pregnant and

1347
01:13:27,320 --> 01:13:30,400
Speaker 2: having a baby definitely doesn't make the shit easier to

1348
01:13:30,439 --> 01:13:30,840
Speaker 2: deal with.

1349
01:13:31,040 --> 01:13:31,360
Speaker 4: Nothing.

1350
01:13:31,479 --> 01:13:34,479
Speaker 2: In fact, having a kid will have will for sure

1351
01:13:34,520 --> 01:13:36,760
Speaker 2: have things come up. You'll for sure start to think

1352
01:13:36,760 --> 01:13:39,479
Speaker 2: about your relationship with your parents. You'll for sure, even

1353
01:13:39,479 --> 01:13:44,320
Speaker 2: if you're not intentionally, it happens subconsciously, shit becomes starts

1354
01:13:44,360 --> 01:13:46,280
Speaker 2: to come to the surface, and in a lot of ways,

1355
01:13:46,280 --> 01:13:49,840
Speaker 2: I do think because like motherhood is it's triggering, but

1356
01:13:49,880 --> 01:13:53,240
Speaker 2: it's also it's a healing journey. It's a right of passage,

1357
01:13:53,640 --> 01:13:57,000
Speaker 2: and sometimes like it is easy to accredit that to

1358
01:13:57,280 --> 01:14:00,240
Speaker 2: postpartum because I had friends tell me after I gave Earth,

1359
01:14:00,400 --> 01:14:03,280
Speaker 2: like and she were depressed, and I was like no,

1360
01:14:03,360 --> 01:14:05,720
Speaker 2: I wasn't, like yeah, I remember, you know, And I

1361
01:14:05,720 --> 01:14:07,280
Speaker 2: was like, I don't. I disassociated.

1362
01:14:07,320 --> 01:14:07,600
Speaker 4: I was.

1363
01:14:07,840 --> 01:14:11,000
Speaker 2: I thought I was great, you know, But there were

1364
01:14:11,280 --> 01:14:14,240
Speaker 2: there was shit before I got pregnant with my relationship

1365
01:14:14,560 --> 01:14:18,960
Speaker 2: and feeling like I'm not like fully confident about my purpose.

1366
01:14:19,040 --> 01:14:22,320
Speaker 2: I wasn't. And now you add a pregnancy and a

1367
01:14:22,520 --> 01:14:26,080
Speaker 2: and a child and the transformation that motherhood adds to that,

1368
01:14:26,400 --> 01:14:30,040
Speaker 2: and you're, shit's gonna be very fucking confusing. She's going

1369
01:14:30,080 --> 01:14:36,000
Speaker 2: to be very like the way that motherhood fucking fucking

1370
01:14:36,040 --> 01:14:37,639
Speaker 2: snatches you up and put so the.

1371
01:14:37,560 --> 01:14:42,080
Speaker 5: Way that we shame women for having relationship problems with

1372
01:14:42,360 --> 01:14:45,439
Speaker 5: the person that they've chosen to have a child with,

1373
01:14:45,880 --> 01:14:48,920
Speaker 5: and the way that we shame women for not having

1374
01:14:48,920 --> 01:14:52,599
Speaker 5: a sense of direction and purpose in life, or how

1375
01:14:52,680 --> 01:14:56,240
Speaker 5: we shame women for wanting more, wanting to be more

1376
01:14:56,320 --> 01:14:58,519
Speaker 5: than being a mom girl.

1377
01:14:59,680 --> 01:15:02,960
Speaker 2: It's it's such I didn't realize it until recently, like

1378
01:15:03,120 --> 01:15:08,080
Speaker 2: just doing this work, that being a free woman triggers men.

1379
01:15:09,040 --> 01:15:11,600
Speaker 2: I've literally seen like it's almost like it hurt It

1380
01:15:11,680 --> 01:15:14,360
Speaker 2: hurts them like it's like an alarm, Like they'll like

1381
01:15:14,680 --> 01:15:17,040
Speaker 2: start talking and watch them all start crumbling and coming

1382
01:15:17,080 --> 01:15:19,479
Speaker 2: out the woodwork talking shit. And we did a show

1383
01:15:19,479 --> 01:15:23,439
Speaker 2: and it was so fucking toxic and we literally it

1384
01:15:23,479 --> 01:15:26,280
Speaker 2: took this day. It mind boggles me. The statement was

1385
01:15:27,520 --> 01:15:32,840
Speaker 2: like moms deserve happiness, and they're like, what you would

1386
01:15:32,880 --> 01:15:35,320
Speaker 2: have thought we said they should all do crack. They

1387
01:15:35,360 --> 01:15:39,920
Speaker 2: were like, what you chose to have a baby? You

1388
01:15:40,040 --> 01:15:42,920
Speaker 2: chose that, dad, Now you figure it out. And I

1389
01:15:42,960 --> 01:15:47,960
Speaker 2: was like, mothers should be happy. This is the repult,

1390
01:15:48,040 --> 01:15:50,280
Speaker 2: Like it was like you would have thought I said,

1391
01:15:50,400 --> 01:15:53,040
Speaker 2: we said the craziest shit. And it was in that moment,

1392
01:15:53,040 --> 01:15:54,960
Speaker 2: even to this day, I'm starting to process that, Like

1393
01:15:55,800 --> 01:15:58,519
Speaker 2: and then the comments everybody was agreeing with it. I

1394
01:15:58,560 --> 01:16:01,599
Speaker 2: was like, this is nuts. But the thing is, it's

1395
01:16:01,640 --> 01:16:06,840
Speaker 2: like we are so shamed into putting everything and everyone else.

1396
01:16:06,920 --> 01:16:09,640
Speaker 2: We're almost programmed to be fake and if you're not

1397
01:16:09,760 --> 01:16:11,800
Speaker 2: being fake, you're fucked up. And it's like, no, bitch,

1398
01:16:11,840 --> 01:16:14,960
Speaker 2: I'm being honest. Are you listening? Just because if it's

1399
01:16:15,000 --> 01:16:16,960
Speaker 2: not what you want to hear, it doesn't make it wrong.

1400
01:16:17,200 --> 01:16:22,120
Speaker 2: But men are so delicate and have been fucking conditioned

1401
01:16:22,439 --> 01:16:26,840
Speaker 2: for so long to ignore the matriarch, which is the

1402
01:16:26,880 --> 01:16:29,519
Speaker 2: reason we have all this shit, and it's we're in

1403
01:16:29,640 --> 01:16:32,160
Speaker 2: such a deep imbalance because of it. It was just

1404
01:16:32,200 --> 01:16:34,280
Speaker 2: like the why, It's the wildest thing to me even

1405
01:16:34,320 --> 01:16:37,640
Speaker 2: to this day, Like you know, postpartum depression is this

1406
01:16:37,760 --> 01:16:42,000
Speaker 2: huge like word because we need a word to say,

1407
01:16:42,000 --> 01:16:42,880
Speaker 2: like I'm not okay.

1408
01:16:43,200 --> 01:16:45,200
Speaker 4: That's the whole thing, Like, dub bitch.

1409
01:16:44,960 --> 01:16:47,120
Speaker 2: I'm not okay. You you see what the fuck just happened?

1410
01:16:47,760 --> 01:16:52,880
Speaker 4: We really pack it, that's the whole thing. I'm unsupported,

1411
01:16:54,439 --> 01:16:55,440
Speaker 4: I'm exhausted.

1412
01:16:55,840 --> 01:16:58,600
Speaker 2: Yes, help, there's some things coming up in addition to that.

1413
01:16:58,640 --> 01:17:00,680
Speaker 2: My puss, you just opened up ten fuck and centimeters

1414
01:17:00,800 --> 01:17:03,880
Speaker 2: never seen no ship like that is a portal to life. Hello,

1415
01:17:04,200 --> 01:17:06,800
Speaker 2: my whole body, it's not even mine, like just take it.

1416
01:17:07,880 --> 01:17:12,200
Speaker 5: Yeah, but why and why do women have to say

1417
01:17:12,360 --> 01:17:14,760
Speaker 5: I'm dealing with postpartum depression.

1418
01:17:14,479 --> 01:17:15,120
Speaker 2: For you to get it.

1419
01:17:15,600 --> 01:17:17,800
Speaker 3: We have to put titles on everything for things to

1420
01:17:17,880 --> 01:17:21,680
Speaker 3: be important, and there's a hierarchy of importance, and I

1421
01:17:21,680 --> 01:17:23,840
Speaker 3: think that's really making us sick.

1422
01:17:24,840 --> 01:17:26,600
Speaker 2: And in fact, you can only be depressed if you

1423
01:17:26,720 --> 01:17:28,120
Speaker 2: just had a baby, because that's the only way would

1424
01:17:28,120 --> 01:17:30,400
Speaker 2: makes sense. Or else you're not trying hard enough to

1425
01:17:30,439 --> 01:17:30,840
Speaker 2: be happy.

1426
01:17:30,920 --> 01:17:31,200
Speaker 4: You're not.

1427
01:17:31,280 --> 01:17:34,040
Speaker 2: You don't fill yourself again, bitch has been six weeks.

1428
01:17:34,400 --> 01:17:36,240
Speaker 2: The doctor said, we could fuck now you should be okay,

1429
01:17:36,240 --> 01:17:39,599
Speaker 2: I don't even have a baby. You don't get it yet,

1430
01:17:39,720 --> 01:17:40,759
Speaker 2: Here catch the baby.

1431
01:17:40,960 --> 01:17:44,520
Speaker 3: That is just depression. Yeah, that's just depression.

1432
01:17:45,439 --> 01:17:48,080
Speaker 5: Yeah, well one it doesn't get addressed, and yeah it is.

1433
01:17:48,880 --> 01:17:51,960
Speaker 5: It just becomes depression and self loathing and.

1434
01:17:52,400 --> 01:17:54,479
Speaker 2: And then it bleeds into your baby, and it bleeds

1435
01:17:54,520 --> 01:17:56,760
Speaker 2: into their lay, and it bleeds into how you like

1436
01:17:56,840 --> 01:17:58,880
Speaker 2: the cloud that you have over you when you're just

1437
01:17:58,960 --> 01:18:02,200
Speaker 2: functioning just to survive instead of like really enjoying the

1438
01:18:02,240 --> 01:18:04,720
Speaker 2: time with your child, really enjoying your time as a

1439
01:18:04,720 --> 01:18:06,920
Speaker 2: new mother. And of course it's going to be there's

1440
01:18:06,960 --> 01:18:11,040
Speaker 2: a lot of feelings, but when you're supported, I'm four

1441
01:18:11,120 --> 01:18:13,920
Speaker 2: hundred percent, it looks different. I'm four hundred When you're

1442
01:18:13,960 --> 01:18:17,479
Speaker 2: not worried about like basic shit and you can just

1443
01:18:17,520 --> 01:18:18,840
Speaker 2: thrive and sit in it and be.

1444
01:18:19,080 --> 01:18:19,640
Speaker 1: I've seen it.

1445
01:18:19,720 --> 01:18:21,000
Speaker 3: I mean, I think about mo or if we have

1446
01:18:21,080 --> 01:18:23,000
Speaker 3: a friend named mo who lives in Costa Rica and

1447
01:18:23,080 --> 01:18:25,280
Speaker 3: she left here and was like, I'm not having my

1448
01:18:25,280 --> 01:18:26,120
Speaker 3: baby here in America.

1449
01:18:26,200 --> 01:18:27,840
Speaker 1: She's like, I want a free black boy.

1450
01:18:28,479 --> 01:18:33,240
Speaker 3: And she she built a tribe out there, and she

1451
01:18:33,560 --> 01:18:36,040
Speaker 3: came actually recently back here too, another front of ours

1452
01:18:36,040 --> 01:18:37,720
Speaker 3: and was like, America is ghetto. I'm not.

1453
01:18:38,040 --> 01:18:40,200
Speaker 2: She's like, they don't treat mother's nice. I'm like, dab it.

1454
01:18:40,560 --> 01:18:43,400
Speaker 3: And she is happy and she is like blissed out

1455
01:18:43,479 --> 01:18:46,880
Speaker 3: and her baby is fucking thriving and looks perfect. And

1456
01:18:46,920 --> 01:18:48,519
Speaker 3: I was like, this is and this is what it

1457
01:18:48,560 --> 01:18:50,679
Speaker 3: looks like. I was like, oh, and she made sure

1458
01:18:50,840 --> 01:18:53,160
Speaker 3: like because she intend she basically well, she didn't intentionally

1459
01:18:53,240 --> 01:18:56,320
Speaker 3: have her child alone, but she at one point her

1460
01:18:56,320 --> 01:18:59,200
Speaker 3: pregnancy decided, okay, I'm doing this by myself. Let me

1461
01:18:59,240 --> 01:19:01,160
Speaker 3: build my tribe. And that's what she did.

1462
01:19:01,240 --> 01:19:03,439
Speaker 1: She saw it. She created her tribe around her.

1463
01:19:03,479 --> 01:19:05,559
Speaker 3: People gathered around her, and she had an amazing support

1464
01:19:05,600 --> 01:19:10,000
Speaker 3: system and they understood like the role, they understood the

1465
01:19:10,000 --> 01:19:12,080
Speaker 3: assignment and they all did what needed to be done,

1466
01:19:12,439 --> 01:19:14,360
Speaker 3: cook for her, like they really.

1467
01:19:14,320 --> 01:19:18,240
Speaker 6: Like beautiful, beautiful, experience, beautiful, amazing, and I was supposed

1468
01:19:18,240 --> 01:19:20,320
Speaker 6: to be And I was like, wow, you can ask

1469
01:19:20,400 --> 01:19:23,800
Speaker 6: for this, this is what you can have, Like you

1470
01:19:23,840 --> 01:19:24,679
Speaker 6: deserve this shit.

1471
01:19:24,960 --> 01:19:26,600
Speaker 1: And she was like, God, damn n, I deserve it.

1472
01:19:26,640 --> 01:19:28,080
Speaker 3: And that was the first that was really was like

1473
01:19:28,080 --> 01:19:30,840
Speaker 3: one of the first representations of seeing that in action

1474
01:19:30,920 --> 01:19:33,000
Speaker 3: where I was like, Wow, okay, but.

1475
01:19:33,120 --> 01:19:35,160
Speaker 4: You also have to architect your life to receive it.

1476
01:19:35,439 --> 01:19:37,400
Speaker 3: For sure, you have to, and you have to feel

1477
01:19:37,400 --> 01:19:39,760
Speaker 3: like you deserve it. You know, you have to feel

1478
01:19:39,760 --> 01:19:41,280
Speaker 3: like you deserve it. And a lot of women are like,

1479
01:19:41,280 --> 01:19:42,880
Speaker 3: that's too much for me to ask. I can't ask

1480
01:19:42,920 --> 01:19:46,479
Speaker 3: for that. That's crazy, and you know it is crazy almost.

1481
01:19:46,479 --> 01:19:49,760
Speaker 3: It is crazy here. It is crazy in a very

1482
01:19:50,120 --> 01:19:53,400
Speaker 3: bad patriarchy, you know. America is you know, one of

1483
01:19:53,439 --> 01:20:01,880
Speaker 3: the worst so and being black anyway, not about that.

1484
01:20:02,160 --> 01:20:04,040
Speaker 2: I'm like looking at these questions, some of these are

1485
01:20:04,120 --> 01:20:11,280
Speaker 2: very interesting. Something about do you whear to go shit?

1486
01:20:13,040 --> 01:20:14,360
Speaker 2: What are your thoughts on masturbation?

1487
01:20:16,479 --> 01:20:20,400
Speaker 4: Hmmm? I love masturbation.

1488
01:20:20,840 --> 01:20:24,720
Speaker 5: I just think that some of these choys that we

1489
01:20:24,720 --> 01:20:26,480
Speaker 5: were masturbating with.

1490
01:20:28,760 --> 01:20:30,600
Speaker 4: Are doing more harm than good.

1491
01:20:31,240 --> 01:20:35,160
Speaker 5: So I feel like masturbaby, if you don't know yourself,

1492
01:20:35,439 --> 01:20:40,680
Speaker 5: you know who else will please yourself. I feel like

1493
01:20:40,720 --> 01:20:43,800
Speaker 5: that is a form of self worship. I just feel

1494
01:20:43,880 --> 01:20:48,920
Speaker 5: like playing with a vibrator. Though we haven't be fucking

1495
01:20:48,960 --> 01:20:52,200
Speaker 5: some things up de sensitizing, I do.

1496
01:20:53,200 --> 01:20:56,080
Speaker 4: And there's a lot of things, dear.

1497
01:20:56,320 --> 01:21:00,639
Speaker 5: Yeah, there's a lot of correlations to cancer, the toys.

1498
01:21:02,600 --> 01:21:06,880
Speaker 3: Do you use masturbation when you're manifesting at all? You

1499
01:21:06,920 --> 01:21:09,559
Speaker 3: ever marry those two things?

1500
01:21:09,600 --> 01:21:18,880
Speaker 5: So maybe I do unconsciously mm hmm, yeah, we're definitely

1501
01:21:19,240 --> 01:21:22,120
Speaker 5: so maybe unconsciously, Yeah.

1502
01:21:21,439 --> 01:21:24,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, I think it's a really powerful It's been a

1503
01:21:24,240 --> 01:21:26,920
Speaker 3: powerful tool for me because I'm like, I feel like

1504
01:21:26,960 --> 01:21:29,320
Speaker 3: it really is a time where, like my brain, when

1505
01:21:29,320 --> 01:21:31,000
Speaker 3: you're in pleasure and you're in bliss in that way,

1506
01:21:31,080 --> 01:21:33,720
Speaker 3: you're so much more open, Like I just feel like

1507
01:21:34,760 --> 01:21:40,439
Speaker 3: spiritually energetically you're in another realm almost when you're really there,

1508
01:21:40,720 --> 01:21:43,760
Speaker 3: you know, and then when you ask and you're imagining

1509
01:21:43,760 --> 01:21:45,639
Speaker 3: the things that you want, asking for the things that.

1510
01:21:45,640 --> 01:21:48,520
Speaker 4: You want, like really callor forward, really.

1511
01:21:48,280 --> 01:21:50,240
Speaker 3: Calling forward, and then a lot of times to me

1512
01:21:50,280 --> 01:21:52,840
Speaker 3: after I'm done, after I come, I'm like ready for

1513
01:21:52,880 --> 01:21:56,040
Speaker 3: the world, bitch, I'm like, let's get it, like like

1514
01:21:56,080 --> 01:22:00,280
Speaker 3: that will help me like get to it. Yeah, I

1515
01:22:00,280 --> 01:22:02,679
Speaker 3: definitely try that. Trying extimation.

1516
01:22:03,360 --> 01:22:05,679
Speaker 2: I like to think about like the house that I want,

1517
01:22:05,760 --> 01:22:08,360
Speaker 2: like the house I want to fucking that starts to

1518
01:22:08,400 --> 01:22:10,280
Speaker 2: get me wet, like and then like envisioning home.

1519
01:22:10,720 --> 01:22:12,680
Speaker 4: I do think of like environments.

1520
01:22:12,840 --> 01:22:18,000
Speaker 5: Yeah, when I'm like trying to give e on the

1521
01:22:18,680 --> 01:22:22,200
Speaker 5: on the the baby's puddle.

1522
01:22:23,880 --> 01:22:24,920
Speaker 2: Let me get out of here.

1523
01:22:25,600 --> 01:22:26,439
Speaker 1: I'm in Puerto Rico.

1524
01:22:27,000 --> 01:22:29,719
Speaker 4: I'm on the Yeah, I'm not laying on ocean's diaper.

1525
01:22:30,960 --> 01:22:34,200
Speaker 3: F it works for that too.

1526
01:22:34,600 --> 01:22:40,360
Speaker 2: Masturbation manifestation one on one on patrion, try that, yeah,

1527
01:22:40,520 --> 01:22:42,479
Speaker 2: I like, yeah, I like that because sometimes it's like

1528
01:22:42,479 --> 01:22:45,600
Speaker 2: how can you get sexy? And also think about you

1529
01:22:45,640 --> 01:22:48,280
Speaker 2: know the amount of money. Well they both correlate the money,

1530
01:22:48,280 --> 01:22:49,960
Speaker 2: amount of money on your account and my place to

1531
01:22:49,960 --> 01:22:52,240
Speaker 2: getting wet will happen seous, Yeah.

1532
01:22:53,080 --> 01:22:55,519
Speaker 3: All the money I'm going to like spend with my lover,

1533
01:22:56,000 --> 01:22:58,040
Speaker 3: getting all my money, yeah, and things we want.

1534
01:22:58,120 --> 01:23:01,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, like just like they just like sprinkle the hundreds

1535
01:23:01,160 --> 01:23:02,720
Speaker 2: down on me. Why I like roll around in them

1536
01:23:02,760 --> 01:23:03,280
Speaker 2: and ship.

1537
01:23:06,280 --> 01:23:10,920
Speaker 3: Oh my god. Anyway, Wait, so it's is it Tarot time?

1538
01:23:10,960 --> 01:23:11,880
Speaker 3: Should we do tarot?

1539
01:23:11,920 --> 01:23:12,880
Speaker 2: It is Tarot time?

1540
01:23:13,000 --> 01:23:14,600
Speaker 3: My god, we're doing tarot with the Hood Healer. I

1541
01:23:14,640 --> 01:23:19,719
Speaker 3: can't believe that this is fucking crazy. Finally, shit, Okay,

1542
01:23:19,760 --> 01:23:21,320
Speaker 3: so you pulled.

1543
01:23:21,000 --> 01:23:27,080
Speaker 5: The harapont I did, which is interesting. I want to

1544
01:23:27,080 --> 01:23:31,679
Speaker 5: read it and reverse like the Harafin and Reverse is

1545
01:23:31,720 --> 01:23:38,599
Speaker 5: a spiritual teacher, also someone who challenges the status quo

1546
01:23:39,640 --> 01:23:45,479
Speaker 5: and is rebellious in their nature. They generally have good nature,

1547
01:23:45,600 --> 01:23:50,519
Speaker 5: but they're someone who questions things. And when I think

1548
01:23:50,560 --> 01:23:54,040
Speaker 5: of the hero Fin, I feel like the I think

1549
01:23:54,080 --> 01:23:56,960
Speaker 5: of like someone throwing the stone in the water, and

1550
01:23:56,960 --> 01:23:59,519
Speaker 5: I kind of think of myself like that, Like I

1551
01:23:59,560 --> 01:24:01,719
Speaker 5: feel like I just throw the stone in the water

1552
01:24:01,840 --> 01:24:05,400
Speaker 5: and just ripples out, you know, and people just kind

1553
01:24:05,400 --> 01:24:07,200
Speaker 5: of run with these ideas.

1554
01:24:06,760 --> 01:24:10,840
Speaker 4: That I throw out there. So I like that card.

1555
01:24:11,360 --> 01:24:13,000
Speaker 5: And this is a new deck to me. I feel

1556
01:24:13,000 --> 01:24:14,760
Speaker 5: like I've heard I might even have this deck, but

1557
01:24:15,840 --> 01:24:19,560
Speaker 5: I like that. Yeah, Carol is not really my thing though, No,

1558
01:24:19,720 --> 01:24:20,280
Speaker 5: what's your thing?

1559
01:24:21,520 --> 01:24:22,040
Speaker 4: Just reading?

1560
01:24:22,560 --> 01:24:22,880
Speaker 3: Reading?

1561
01:24:22,960 --> 01:24:26,080
Speaker 5: So I feel like oracle cards Taro I feel like

1562
01:24:26,200 --> 01:24:27,880
Speaker 5: is limiting because.

1563
01:24:28,960 --> 01:24:30,120
Speaker 4: There's more.

1564
01:24:30,160 --> 01:24:36,600
Speaker 5: There's like, there's definitions, whereas the oracle you are not restricted.

1565
01:24:36,800 --> 01:24:38,960
Speaker 2: You can just interpret.

1566
01:24:39,320 --> 01:24:42,160
Speaker 5: Yeah, And I feel like that strengthens your imagination and

1567
01:24:42,240 --> 01:24:44,240
Speaker 5: strengthens strengthens your intuition.

1568
01:24:45,479 --> 01:24:45,639
Speaker 3: Yeah.

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01:24:45,640 --> 01:24:48,639
Speaker 5: I feel like when I'm reading Taro, like I'm kind

1570
01:24:48,640 --> 01:24:50,799
Speaker 5: of not I'm just not using my gift.

1571
01:24:51,600 --> 01:24:53,720
Speaker 2: Oh well, like me, like I just go to the

1572
01:24:53,720 --> 01:24:58,320
Speaker 2: bitty Taro dot com. Yeah it is surely, I'm surely

1573
01:24:58,360 --> 01:25:02,840
Speaker 2: dependent on it now, you know what. I Yeah, I'll try.

1574
01:25:03,000 --> 01:25:04,479
Speaker 2: I'm gonna try. This is just like I'm like, let

1575
01:25:04,520 --> 01:25:07,559
Speaker 2: me just look at that. But we never do them

1576
01:25:07,640 --> 01:25:10,320
Speaker 2: upside down because then it gets crazy. I'm like, let

1577
01:25:10,360 --> 01:25:12,360
Speaker 2: me just do them upright. And I can never figure out,

1578
01:25:12,400 --> 01:25:13,679
Speaker 2: like was it upside down?

1579
01:25:13,880 --> 01:25:14,120
Speaker 5: Was it?

1580
01:25:14,600 --> 01:25:16,040
Speaker 2: I can I never call? Am I giving it to?

1581
01:25:16,080 --> 01:25:17,639
Speaker 2: Which way? Is it upside down? I get confused?

1582
01:25:17,640 --> 01:25:19,479
Speaker 4: Real time messages are positive.

1583
01:25:19,600 --> 01:25:21,160
Speaker 2: Okay, that's what I was like. Maybe still let me

1584
01:25:21,200 --> 01:25:23,559
Speaker 2: just stay away from the upside down world. But this

1585
01:25:23,880 --> 01:25:28,000
Speaker 2: I'll read the reverse today, since you pulled it in

1586
01:25:28,080 --> 01:25:31,400
Speaker 2: its most positive form. The heer font reverse reminds you

1587
01:25:31,439 --> 01:25:34,120
Speaker 2: that you are your own teacher. All the wisdom you

1588
01:25:34,160 --> 01:25:37,240
Speaker 2: seek comes from from within, not from some external source

1589
01:25:37,320 --> 01:25:40,120
Speaker 2: of power. Did we not just say this? You are

1590
01:25:40,120 --> 01:25:42,599
Speaker 2: being guided to follow your own path and adopt your

1591
01:25:42,600 --> 01:25:46,680
Speaker 2: own spiritual belief system rather than blindly following others. It

1592
01:25:46,720 --> 01:25:49,320
Speaker 2: may feel unsettling at first as you make your own way,

1593
01:25:49,360 --> 01:25:52,479
Speaker 2: but over time you will learn to trust yourself and

1594
01:25:52,520 --> 01:25:56,280
Speaker 2: tap into your inner knowledge. Others may question your motivations

1595
01:25:56,320 --> 01:25:59,240
Speaker 2: to go against tradition, but you know deep within now

1596
01:25:59,400 --> 01:26:03,040
Speaker 2: that now is the time you no longer need external

1597
01:26:03,080 --> 01:26:06,240
Speaker 2: approval to succeed. You're ready to go go in and

1598
01:26:06,240 --> 01:26:07,920
Speaker 2: a loan and do it your way, even if that

1599
01:26:07,960 --> 01:26:11,720
Speaker 2: means going against convention. Give yourself permission to trust your

1600
01:26:11,720 --> 01:26:15,160
Speaker 2: inner guidance system as you create your own path forward.

1601
01:26:16,280 --> 01:26:16,599
Speaker 3: Mmm.

1602
01:26:17,160 --> 01:26:17,720
Speaker 4: I love that.

1603
01:26:18,560 --> 01:26:25,120
Speaker 3: I mean, yeah, they have some good breakdowns, but that wow,

1604
01:26:25,760 --> 01:26:27,439
Speaker 3: literally what we like that?

1605
01:26:27,600 --> 01:26:28,879
Speaker 2: Yeah, it's pretty accurate.

1606
01:26:29,360 --> 01:26:29,840
Speaker 4: That's me.

1607
01:26:31,439 --> 01:26:33,919
Speaker 3: Use a hero fone? What is a haro? Exactly?

1608
01:26:34,520 --> 01:26:35,360
Speaker 2: King, King.

1609
01:26:36,080 --> 01:26:40,200
Speaker 5: It's like the masculine of the high priests.

1610
01:26:40,920 --> 01:26:45,400
Speaker 4: So yeah, yeah, high priest energy energy.

1611
01:26:46,160 --> 01:26:49,360
Speaker 3: Yes, we love that, especially when it actually matches.

1612
01:26:49,720 --> 01:26:51,360
Speaker 1: Okay, right right?

1613
01:26:51,560 --> 01:26:52,280
Speaker 2: Can we have both?

1614
01:26:52,360 --> 01:26:55,759
Speaker 3: Please make It's like, can the thighs match the ass?

1615
01:26:55,920 --> 01:26:57,880
Speaker 3: Can the BDE match the b D?

1616
01:26:59,000 --> 01:26:59,360
Speaker 2: The bad?

1617
01:27:02,200 --> 01:27:04,240
Speaker 3: Oh my god, well, thank you so much for coming on.

1618
01:27:04,360 --> 01:27:05,400
Speaker 3: Thank you the show.

1619
01:27:05,960 --> 01:27:09,960
Speaker 4: I like this. I really I admire what you guys

1620
01:27:10,040 --> 01:27:13,479
Speaker 4: are doing. Thank you, thank you, And I feel that.

1621
01:27:16,760 --> 01:27:20,280
Speaker 5: It's empowering to me, and I feel that it's empowering

1622
01:27:20,320 --> 01:27:25,800
Speaker 5: to so many women to see you embracing yourself and

1623
01:27:25,840 --> 01:27:28,800
Speaker 5: embracing motherhood and showing that you can do it both

1624
01:27:28,920 --> 01:27:32,519
Speaker 5: and apologetically. I think that's really beautiful. And as a

1625
01:27:32,600 --> 01:27:37,640
Speaker 5: new mom, I truly appreciate the representation and just the

1626
01:27:37,680 --> 01:27:40,360
Speaker 5: authenticity and the space.

1627
01:27:41,720 --> 01:27:45,840
Speaker 4: To be that. I really I like that. Thank you,

1628
01:27:46,120 --> 01:27:47,200
Speaker 4: thank you doing here.

1629
01:27:47,360 --> 01:27:50,479
Speaker 2: I appreciate you for coming to fuck with us, and

1630
01:27:50,600 --> 01:27:54,280
Speaker 2: now you're officially a Valley girl. We're in the neighborhood.

1631
01:27:54,600 --> 01:28:02,839
Speaker 3: Makes bad choices, Trying to make better choices is not always.

1632
01:28:02,840 --> 01:28:05,960
Speaker 2: Sometimes it's fun. Sometimes naughty choices are fun, and the

1633
01:28:06,000 --> 01:28:07,240
Speaker 2: ones that are you learn from.

1634
01:28:07,120 --> 01:28:08,679
Speaker 1: You like dropping that baby off for three weeks.

1635
01:28:08,720 --> 01:28:09,920
Speaker 3: You know, some people might say that's bad.

1636
01:28:09,960 --> 01:28:11,680
Speaker 1: No, bitch, that's good, that's necessary.

1637
01:28:11,920 --> 01:28:15,040
Speaker 4: Yeah, I love that. Well then if that's a bad choice.

1638
01:28:14,600 --> 01:28:18,200
Speaker 3: Yes exactly, that's typically what they are.

1639
01:28:19,520 --> 01:28:22,960
Speaker 2: Challenging the status quo on what's bad. You know, sometimes

1640
01:28:22,960 --> 01:28:24,880
Speaker 2: you gotta get a little ratchet on the weekends with

1641
01:28:25,000 --> 01:28:27,280
Speaker 2: your head red friends and that's us.

1642
01:28:27,800 --> 01:28:30,440
Speaker 4: And that's okay, balance Balnce.

1643
01:28:30,920 --> 01:28:32,479
Speaker 3: So anytime you want to get a hood rat with

1644
01:28:33,160 --> 01:28:35,519
Speaker 3: some two Valley girls and when you know, you.

1645
01:28:35,479 --> 01:28:36,599
Speaker 1: Know, we're right down the street.

1646
01:28:36,600 --> 01:28:37,840
Speaker 4: We're right here, real close.

1647
01:28:40,400 --> 01:28:41,920
Speaker 3: Can you tell the people where they can find you?

1648
01:28:44,160 --> 01:28:46,599
Speaker 4: People can find me on only Fans right now.

1649
01:28:46,600 --> 01:28:51,400
Speaker 2: Oh really, okay, I'm gonna have to do the little subscription.

1650
01:28:51,560 --> 01:28:54,960
Speaker 5: People can find me on only Fans. It's all spiritual content.

1651
01:28:57,520 --> 01:29:01,000
Speaker 3: We're not reading orcle cards with your titties out. Come on.

1652
01:29:02,000 --> 01:29:02,960
Speaker 3: Can I get a private read?

1653
01:29:04,040 --> 01:29:07,559
Speaker 5: I'm not really I do the lives, but I really

1654
01:29:07,600 --> 01:29:11,439
Speaker 5: post too much. But I am working on some things.

1655
01:29:11,479 --> 01:29:14,320
Speaker 5: So chapping with me on only Fans, I'm kind of going.

1656
01:29:14,200 --> 01:29:19,479
Speaker 3: Like underground rogue, going rogue, kind of going rogue like that. Yeah,

1657
01:29:20,240 --> 01:29:22,880
Speaker 3: it's cool. You got to, you know, get off, get

1658
01:29:22,920 --> 01:29:24,559
Speaker 3: off one or two or three?

1659
01:29:24,840 --> 01:29:25,080
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1660
01:29:26,320 --> 01:29:27,320
Speaker 2: Do you have like a newsletter?

1661
01:29:28,439 --> 01:29:30,000
Speaker 4: I have only fans.

1662
01:29:31,840 --> 01:29:35,000
Speaker 3: I have only fans.

1663
01:29:35,120 --> 01:29:37,400
Speaker 5: I'm the hood Healer on Instagram. You could google me.

1664
01:29:37,439 --> 01:29:42,479
Speaker 5: I'm not too hard to find, but I just I'm

1665
01:29:42,520 --> 01:29:45,360
Speaker 5: a little ray cluse. I'm becoming a recluse.

1666
01:29:46,240 --> 01:29:50,519
Speaker 3: You're still like and you're like missing, Yeah, like it's

1667
01:29:50,520 --> 01:29:51,600
Speaker 3: bad and also will pay me?

1668
01:29:52,479 --> 01:29:53,200
Speaker 4: Also pay me?

1669
01:29:53,240 --> 01:29:55,800
Speaker 5: And I feel like also it's like I'm not for everybody,

1670
01:29:56,320 --> 01:29:57,519
Speaker 5: you know, I don't everyone.

1671
01:29:57,520 --> 01:29:59,400
Speaker 3: I don't want to get everyone's energy on me and

1672
01:29:59,439 --> 01:30:01,599
Speaker 3: their judgment. It's and only fans. If you really want

1673
01:30:01,640 --> 01:30:03,080
Speaker 3: to know what I'm talking about, you got to come

1674
01:30:03,080 --> 01:30:03,920
Speaker 3: over here and see what the.

1675
01:30:04,160 --> 01:30:05,919
Speaker 2: Invest invest for the messages.

1676
01:30:06,240 --> 01:30:08,720
Speaker 3: I support that people are probably there because they fuck

1677
01:30:08,760 --> 01:30:10,439
Speaker 3: with you. And that feels like a lot more of

1678
01:30:10,479 --> 01:30:13,000
Speaker 3: a positive space to be in because the Internet could

1679
01:30:13,000 --> 01:30:13,439
Speaker 3: be weird.

1680
01:30:13,800 --> 01:30:15,160
Speaker 2: It's a very word place right now.

1681
01:30:15,240 --> 01:30:19,479
Speaker 3: Yes, well kay safe, I'll stay safe out here. Red protection,

1682
01:30:20,000 --> 01:30:25,599
Speaker 3: Internet protection, what does that look like? Whole body? Well,

1683
01:30:25,640 --> 01:30:26,880
Speaker 3: thank you so much for coming on.

1684
01:30:27,000 --> 01:30:27,639
Speaker 4: Thank you'all.

1685
01:30:29,720 --> 01:30:32,719
Speaker 2: You know where to find us. Good Mom's Underscore, Bad Choices.

1686
01:30:32,800 --> 01:30:35,599
Speaker 2: If you enjoyed this episode, If you enjoy this show,

1687
01:30:36,600 --> 01:30:40,320
Speaker 2: don't be stingy fucking like and review, tell a friend

1688
01:30:40,320 --> 01:30:43,400
Speaker 2: to tell a friend, or have a live show coming up.

1689
01:30:43,680 --> 01:30:48,519
Speaker 2: If you're on the East Coast in Chicago, New York, DC, Atlanta, Philly,

1690
01:30:49,160 --> 01:30:51,599
Speaker 2: come kick it with us, come hang out. It's good

1691
01:30:51,600 --> 01:30:54,320
Speaker 2: Mom's gone wild, and you know one thing we know

1692
01:30:54,439 --> 01:30:58,840
Speaker 2: how to do is go wild. So come join us

1693
01:30:59,640 --> 01:31:04,519
Speaker 2: and and catch us on Patreon, join our discord. We

1694
01:31:04,600 --> 01:31:06,960
Speaker 2: have a huge community of moms over there. We're doing

1695
01:31:06,960 --> 01:31:10,760
Speaker 2: a lot of fun ship. We're sharing nudes, we're affirming

1696
01:31:10,760 --> 01:31:14,080
Speaker 2: each other. We're just talking our ship and connecting in

1697
01:31:14,120 --> 01:31:16,439
Speaker 2: a real raw space. And you can find a mom

1698
01:31:16,520 --> 01:31:19,759
Speaker 2: close to you, find the Eric to your Jamila, and

1699
01:31:20,120 --> 01:31:23,120
Speaker 2: because motherhood can be a lonely place, but we're here,

1700
01:31:23,360 --> 01:31:23,960
Speaker 2: we are.

1701
01:31:23,800 --> 01:31:26,680
Speaker 3: Here, The discord is here. It is a cool It

1702
01:31:26,760 --> 01:31:28,639
Speaker 3: is a cool space discord.

1703
01:31:28,720 --> 01:31:31,800
Speaker 2: I have like this idea that we we manifest and

1704
01:31:31,840 --> 01:31:34,559
Speaker 2: we attract like cool bitches because we're cool bitches. So

1705
01:31:34,600 --> 01:31:36,800
Speaker 2: it's really a safe space. It's really like come as

1706
01:31:36,800 --> 01:31:39,040
Speaker 2: you are really talk your ship. We'll be talking about

1707
01:31:39,080 --> 01:31:40,920
Speaker 2: the kids, but we've been talking about other ship too,

1708
01:31:41,240 --> 01:31:45,599
Speaker 2: so it's like be like, yeah, yeah, I think from

1709
01:31:45,600 --> 01:31:50,760
Speaker 2: talking about the kids, guys, I think moms. Look at Johnny,

1710
01:31:50,840 --> 01:31:52,479
Speaker 2: I talked about that ship all day. I'm not talking

1711
01:31:52,479 --> 01:31:55,280
Speaker 2: about Pepper Pig. I don't like, at what fun what

1712
01:31:55,320 --> 01:31:58,400
Speaker 2: Johnny did today? Look at this dick pic I just got,

1713
01:31:59,120 --> 01:32:02,360
Speaker 2: how about that? See about that? Look at this newde

1714
01:32:02,360 --> 01:32:05,320
Speaker 2: I took today. I just took a lot of work yeah,

1715
01:32:05,360 --> 01:32:08,200
Speaker 2: sometimes we get lost in the motherhood and we think

1716
01:32:08,240 --> 01:32:10,400
Speaker 2: that's our all, like the like the only way to

1717
01:32:10,439 --> 01:32:12,200
Speaker 2: be that's the only way to be acceptable if you're

1718
01:32:12,240 --> 01:32:14,080
Speaker 2: only talking about your kids because now you're a mother

1719
01:32:14,360 --> 01:32:16,080
Speaker 2: and if you don't, then you're a bad mom. But

1720
01:32:16,120 --> 01:32:18,600
Speaker 2: that's just not true. Don't forget about you to be

1721
01:32:18,720 --> 01:32:20,479
Speaker 2: the fight for that ship after you have a kid,

1722
01:32:20,640 --> 01:32:23,759
Speaker 2: and keep fighting for her because she's the ship anyway.

1723
01:32:26,160 --> 01:32:27,800
Speaker 2: I love you, guys, I love you.

1724
01:32:28,680 --> 01:32:38,240
Speaker 3: See you next week. Bye bye m