WEBVTT - ATL HOE 0:00:02.360 --> 0:00:02.880 Right girl. 0:00:02.920 --> 0:00:05.880 Shit, Yeah, I'm in my bag, but I mean he 0:00:06.000 --> 0:00:08.600 is too, and that's why your time you're seeing me. 0:00:08.640 --> 0:00:15.560 I got some new shoes. Look, bitch, I'm a start. 0:00:15.560 --> 0:00:18.040 I got these niggas wishing. He say, hungry is pussy 0:00:18.040 --> 0:00:19.920 the kitchen. Yeah, that's my doubt. He's gonna sit down 0:00:19.920 --> 0:00:21.720 and listen. Call him a trick and he don't get 0:00:21.720 --> 0:00:22.079 a huller. 0:00:22.239 --> 0:00:24.040 Bitch, I'm a start. I got these niggas wishing. 0:00:24.160 --> 0:00:26.600 He say hungry's pussy the kitchen. Yeah, that's my doubt. 0:00:26.600 --> 0:00:28.680 He's gonna sit down and listen. Call him a Trickiny, 0:00:28.760 --> 0:00:31.360 don't get offended. You know he giving his money to Megan. 0:00:31.520 --> 0:00:33.720 He know it's very expensive to daily. Tell him go 0:00:33.840 --> 0:00:36.000 put my name one to come because when I need money, 0:00:36.120 --> 0:00:38.320 I'm trying to holler. You know, he giving his money 0:00:38.320 --> 0:00:40.600 to making You know it's very expensive to day. 0:00:40.720 --> 0:00:41.840 Tell him gonna put my name. 0:00:41.720 --> 0:00:43.639 One that count because when I need money, I ain't 0:00:43.640 --> 0:00:44.680 trying to. 0:00:44.320 --> 0:00:47.400 Be Welcome back to good Mom's bad choices. I'm Erica 0:00:47.800 --> 0:00:48.520 and named Mila. 0:00:48.920 --> 0:00:49.760 Happy wedsday. 0:00:50.600 --> 0:00:54.080 Hey some dad today. It feels like we haven't been 0:00:54.120 --> 0:00:54.880 here in so long. 0:00:55.000 --> 0:00:56.600 I know we haven't I know. 0:00:56.680 --> 0:00:59.600 I'm so happy to be in our chairs, in our setup. 0:01:00.600 --> 0:01:02.520 I'm so happy to be in chairs and are setup 0:01:02.520 --> 0:01:04.480 and not have an event planned. 0:01:04.560 --> 0:01:07.680 Oh my god, I'm so happy. I'm so happy, so happy. 0:01:07.959 --> 0:01:10.440 I'm looking at our chalkboard across the way. There's nothing 0:01:10.480 --> 0:01:11.720 on it. It's fucking great. 0:01:11.840 --> 0:01:12.720 It's a whiteboard. 0:01:12.800 --> 0:01:15.280 Whatever, a white board. There's nothing on it. 0:01:15.280 --> 0:01:18.039 It looks so beautiful, so happy. A see there's nothing 0:01:18.040 --> 0:01:18.200 on it. 0:01:18.240 --> 0:01:20.200 I'm like ready to put some things on it, but like, 0:01:20.280 --> 0:01:22.479 I'm happy with this right now. Let's take our time 0:01:22.600 --> 0:01:25.360 because that ship was the source of a lot of stress. 0:01:25.440 --> 0:01:28.560 Ooor. I was like, this is gonna be this is 0:01:28.600 --> 0:01:30.680 gonna be our make or break. Are we gonna make it? 0:01:30.720 --> 0:01:32.080 Are we gonna make it fastest? 0:01:34.440 --> 0:01:39.480 So we didn't put We didn't have an episode last 0:01:39.520 --> 0:01:42.480 week because we couldn't get our shit together. We were 0:01:42.520 --> 0:01:45.440 both in different coasts. Jamila was still in Atlanta. I 0:01:45.840 --> 0:01:52.000 was like in fucking Florida, New York. So sorry about that. 0:01:52.760 --> 0:01:55.840 Someone messaged us, someone mentioned that we're gonna fall off 0:01:55.960 --> 0:01:58.960 because we haven't posted, and where are we? A bitch 0:01:59.000 --> 0:02:01.200 needed a fucking minute, Okay, Like. 0:02:01.160 --> 0:02:03.480 I goog the person you told me, yeah, I needed 0:02:03.480 --> 0:02:03.919 a second. 0:02:03.960 --> 0:02:09.559 Okay, Like I could not post think talk nothing about motherhood, 0:02:10.520 --> 0:02:14.440 mommy hood, good mom hood, nada. I couldn't do it 0:02:14.560 --> 0:02:19.519 like good mom overload, good mom fucking over loa. I 0:02:19.560 --> 0:02:21.840 don't know if we're gonna kill each other, kill ourselves. 0:02:21.880 --> 0:02:24.639 Like I was like ten seconds away from fucking cursing 0:02:24.720 --> 0:02:26.840 Jamila ou. I was like trying to keep it together. 0:02:27.280 --> 0:02:29.280 She was ten seconds from like cursing me. 0:02:29.320 --> 0:02:31.880 Out, Like I need to calm the fuck damn. Yeah. 0:02:31.919 --> 0:02:35.680 Like I realized like a lot of things about my 0:02:35.680 --> 0:02:39.639 stress levels and how I handle things, like the anxiety 0:02:40.080 --> 0:02:42.239 lossome friends. 0:02:41.480 --> 0:02:44.840 Like yo, shit was just it wasn't the tensions were high. 0:02:44.880 --> 0:02:48.800 It was literally like tensions were high up I mean, 0:02:48.840 --> 0:02:51.120 I want to say up until we got on stage, 0:02:51.160 --> 0:02:54.240 but like even after that, the next day, it was 0:02:54.280 --> 0:02:56.760 a lot like Okay, let's just let's just recap this 0:02:56.800 --> 0:02:57.280 whole thing. 0:02:57.240 --> 0:03:00.440 Because it's it's it's it's intent. 0:03:01.600 --> 0:03:03.200 So if you don't know, we're talking about our we 0:03:03.240 --> 0:03:05.560 just had a live show in Atlanta last Sunday. 0:03:05.400 --> 0:03:08.280 Last Sunday. Yeah, I know those Sunday before last. 0:03:08.040 --> 0:03:11.240 Sunday before last, our first out of state show. 0:03:11.600 --> 0:03:14.680 Right, and we decided this at like last minute, maybe 0:03:14.720 --> 0:03:18.160 like two months, two months before, because we found out 0:03:18.200 --> 0:03:22.160 there was an all women's podcast convention that weekend and 0:03:22.200 --> 0:03:24.600 our friend Danielle from Marriage and Martinez, who was going 0:03:24.639 --> 0:03:26.080 to be there, She's like, you guys should come, and 0:03:26.080 --> 0:03:27.440 I was like, this is a good time to have 0:03:27.480 --> 0:03:29.359 our show Erica. So we're like, let's do it. 0:03:29.680 --> 0:03:31.880 Fuck itt fuck it. We can do it. 0:03:32.280 --> 0:03:36.840 Two people show perfect, we could do everything. We realized 0:03:36.840 --> 0:03:38.760 that was fucking insane. 0:03:39.120 --> 0:03:39.560 We did it. 0:03:39.760 --> 0:03:42.880 We did it, We did it. It was absolutely insane. 0:03:43.480 --> 0:03:45.240 Okay, so let me just let's start from the beginning. 0:03:45.280 --> 0:03:47.480 So we had to do all this shit, email people 0:03:47.520 --> 0:03:51.320 and get these fucking bags, ship everything from La to 0:03:51.560 --> 0:03:55.880 Atlanta that we needed, ship various things from different people 0:03:55.960 --> 0:03:58.520 to different people in Atlanta, Like hey, my friend, I'm 0:03:58.640 --> 0:04:00.360 shipping twenty boxes to your house. 0:04:00.400 --> 0:04:01.120 I hope that's cool. 0:04:03.680 --> 0:04:08.320 I get to Atlanta, my dumb ass, I left this 0:04:08.400 --> 0:04:11.240 guy who I've literally known ten years ago and he 0:04:11.360 --> 0:04:12.480 was crazy ten years. 0:04:12.280 --> 0:04:14.480 Ago, picked me up. He's like he can cook, That's 0:04:14.480 --> 0:04:16.040 what it was. So I was like, okay, you can 0:04:16.080 --> 0:04:18.400 pick it up in the airport. This bitch and her stomach. 0:04:19.240 --> 0:04:20.800 I get it from the airport. He picks me up. 0:04:21.320 --> 0:04:25.880 We immediately run out of gas. He's like he mentions 0:04:25.920 --> 0:04:28.960 in these gas, but I didn't think, like literally we left, 0:04:29.360 --> 0:04:33.200 we left the airport, we got to like, uh, what's 0:04:33.240 --> 0:04:37.400 the exit where the varsity is. It's like right ten 0:04:37.440 --> 0:04:40.000 minutes from the airport. We stop and I'm like, he's like, 0:04:40.080 --> 0:04:43.159 oh no, I'm like, you ran out of gas. We 0:04:43.240 --> 0:04:45.640 call Hero because in Atlanta, if you stop on the freeway, 0:04:45.520 --> 0:04:47.120 they'll get they'll give you gas. 0:04:47.240 --> 0:04:48.440 But I don't know how long it's going to take. 0:04:48.480 --> 0:04:50.360 So like I think there's a gas station off the exit. 0:04:51.000 --> 0:04:53.320 We walk up the ramp off the exit, get a 0:04:53.360 --> 0:04:58.039 gas can, get gas, fill it up. Okay, fine, that's fine. 0:04:58.040 --> 0:04:59.640 I wasn't even tripping. I'm like, this is this is 0:04:59.680 --> 0:05:02.600 going to be a fun trip. You're to his apartment 0:05:02.839 --> 0:05:06.400 and immediately he starts talking about like how much he's 0:05:06.480 --> 0:05:10.160 missed me, you know how he's never forgotten. 0:05:10.560 --> 0:05:13.240 And I'm like, what is he talking about? 0:05:13.440 --> 0:05:17.360 Like I vaguely remember the hangout, and the one hangout 0:05:17.360 --> 0:05:20.120 I do remember is because this crazy na get pulled 0:05:20.120 --> 0:05:24.000 a gun on my twenty first birthday party. What he 0:05:24.080 --> 0:05:26.000 met me like one week and then he's like he's 0:05:26.120 --> 0:05:26.720 he's parties. 0:05:26.720 --> 0:05:28.159 He's like, you could have a party in my apartment. 0:05:28.200 --> 0:05:29.600 I was like twenty one. I'm like, are you sure 0:05:29.640 --> 0:05:31.279 he's okay. I'll bring all the food up and cradlags. 0:05:31.320 --> 0:05:34.400 I'm like, bet. I invited like probably like sixty people. 0:05:34.440 --> 0:05:36.240 Then other people started coming there. We didn't know they 0:05:36.279 --> 0:05:39.080 were up to his apartment, his condo. He was gonna 0:05:39.279 --> 0:05:41.679 throw ones at me and this like dirty bitch stole 0:05:41.720 --> 0:05:41.960 the one. 0:05:42.000 --> 0:05:42.599 Wait, he was. 0:05:42.560 --> 0:05:44.720 Gonna throw ones at year. I don't know for what. 0:05:46.600 --> 0:05:47.400 This on your birthday. 0:05:47.440 --> 0:05:48.960 I was also I was also just wearing a bikini 0:05:49.000 --> 0:05:51.360 in high heels the entire birthday. 0:05:51.600 --> 0:05:52.520 The entire birthday. 0:05:52.520 --> 0:05:53.840 That's all I remember is like I was wearing this 0:05:53.880 --> 0:05:56.440 bikini and high heels. I never took them off because 0:05:56.440 --> 0:05:58.000 I was twenty one. That's what why I would do that. 0:05:58.080 --> 0:06:01.839 Now, so wou stairs, this bitch steals the hundred dollars 0:06:01.880 --> 0:06:03.599 I was on the counter. He flips out. 0:06:03.800 --> 0:06:05.440 First of all, the apartment is not the condo's not 0:06:05.480 --> 0:06:07.360 that big because first one was in the pool. But 0:06:07.480 --> 0:06:09.719 I had the fucking bathing sit on, goes up to 0:06:09.760 --> 0:06:11.680 the thing the girl steals the money, he. 0:06:11.560 --> 0:06:13.640 Pulls out a gap on the whole party. 0:06:13.640 --> 0:06:16.800 I had like coworkers there from the Marriot. I had 0:06:16.800 --> 0:06:18.680 like all these people. Even then, I was like, what 0:06:18.680 --> 0:06:21.880 the fuck? Everybody leaves? That ends the party. 0:06:21.920 --> 0:06:22.960 Quickly get that money back. 0:06:23.160 --> 0:06:24.920 Never got the money back. I found out who stole it, 0:06:24.920 --> 0:06:28.640 those dirty bitches. So this is why I probably shouldn't 0:06:28.640 --> 0:06:30.520 have went to hang out with this guy because that. 0:06:30.680 --> 0:06:32.120 But I was like, whoa, that's a long time ago. 0:06:32.240 --> 0:06:32.600 Anyway. 0:06:34.480 --> 0:06:36.400 Oh So she starts telling me how much he's missed 0:06:36.440 --> 0:06:38.960 me and he's been waiting for this opportunity to come, 0:06:39.040 --> 0:06:43.159 like come back. And then he's like he like touches me, 0:06:43.200 --> 0:06:44.800 and I like pushed him off a little. He's like, 0:06:44.839 --> 0:06:48.600 oh man, that's why I like girls from LA. He's like, 0:06:48.600 --> 0:06:51.000 because y'all, don't you tough. You don't you know, like girls. 0:06:50.760 --> 0:06:52.920 Out here be tripping. I'd be like, so, I was like, well, 0:06:52.920 --> 0:06:55.440 what do you mean they be tripping? He's like, you know, 0:06:55.640 --> 0:06:57.640 I touched them. They'd be like, you know, trying to 0:06:57.640 --> 0:07:01.360 tell my friends I'm aggressive. Oh god, you know, they'd 0:07:01.360 --> 0:07:02.880 been trying to like, you know, make it a big deal. 0:07:02.920 --> 0:07:05.560 I was like well, I'm not afraid of you because 0:07:05.560 --> 0:07:07.960 I'll fuck you up. And I was like, but you know, 0:07:08.000 --> 0:07:09.400 there's this thing called consent. 0:07:10.160 --> 0:07:11.520 So in my head as soon as he said this, 0:07:11.560 --> 0:07:14.360 I'm like, well, how many friends have they told? You know? What? 0:07:14.400 --> 0:07:16.280 If you're talking to my boys saying I'm this and 0:07:16.320 --> 0:07:18.800 I'm that some I had, I'm like, fuck my life, 0:07:20.040 --> 0:07:23.240 what have I signed up for? Then he continues to 0:07:23.280 --> 0:07:26.040 talk about how he likes young girls, but not too young. 0:07:26.160 --> 0:07:26.840 How old is he? 0:07:28.160 --> 0:07:30.920 It's probably forty something. Oh lord, Okay, keep in mind 0:07:30.960 --> 0:07:33.160 he met me when I was twenty. He showed me 0:07:33.200 --> 0:07:35.080 he's okay because my other girl, I know, she was nineteen. 0:07:35.120 --> 0:07:36.440 This other girl I know since she was eighteen, and 0:07:36.440 --> 0:07:37.880 that they're like your age now. And I was like, 0:07:38.080 --> 0:07:42.040 so you like young girls. He's like, well, I like 0:07:42.080 --> 0:07:44.200 girls that age young, like look good in age. 0:07:44.200 --> 0:07:45.880 Well like, okay, I like young girls. 0:07:46.160 --> 0:07:47.480 I was like, but. 0:07:47.360 --> 0:07:49.560 The difference between me and R. Kelly is oh god, 0:07:49.600 --> 0:07:51.040 no he didn't, Yes he did, No he didn't, Yes 0:07:51.080 --> 0:07:54.520 he didn't. Oh no, I don't. I won't go below eighteen. 0:07:54.640 --> 0:07:58.120 I was like, you think that's the difference between insane 0:07:58.200 --> 0:07:59.000 and insane? 0:08:00.120 --> 0:08:02.080 So I was already like okay, panicking a little bit 0:08:02.120 --> 0:08:03.640 between like the rape. 0:08:03.320 --> 0:08:05.520 Comment and the like underage comment. 0:08:05.600 --> 0:08:09.480 I'm like, okay, always just being honest, okay, whatever continues 0:08:09.480 --> 0:08:13.200 a drink, he makes me crab legs or chilling till 0:08:13.200 --> 0:08:15.880 the night comes and he's like, gets real close to 0:08:15.920 --> 0:08:18.880 my face and he's like, we're gonna make you know 0:08:18.920 --> 0:08:21.680 if we have sex tonight, you're gonna remember. I was like, uh, 0:08:21.720 --> 0:08:24.160 what makes you think we're having sex tonight. He's like, well, 0:08:24.160 --> 0:08:25.520 at least you gonn kiss me right. I was like, 0:08:25.560 --> 0:08:26.520 I don't know about all that. 0:08:27.320 --> 0:08:29.760 He's like just he's like, breathe. 0:08:29.480 --> 0:08:30.080 Out your nose. 0:08:30.240 --> 0:08:32.040 I was like what He's like, just just breathe out 0:08:32.040 --> 0:08:33.719 your nose. He gets real close to my face, to 0:08:33.800 --> 0:08:39.120 my nose. He's like, I remember that. 0:08:39.200 --> 0:08:39.760 I remember that. 0:08:39.920 --> 0:08:40.240 Sense. 0:08:40.559 --> 0:08:46.120 I was like, oh god, no, So he's into your pheromones, 0:08:46.200 --> 0:08:47.600 Like what the fuck is happening? Yes? 0:08:47.640 --> 0:08:49.400 And then this is another thing that really irritated me, 0:08:49.400 --> 0:08:51.040 and this is something that men should listen to because 0:08:51.120 --> 0:08:53.360 niggas do this all the time. When he offered to 0:08:53.400 --> 0:08:55.840 let me stay pick me up from the airport, he's like, 0:08:55.960 --> 0:08:59.400 you can stay in my son's bedroom. And I was 0:08:59.440 --> 0:09:01.319 like cool. I was like, you know, he's like he 0:09:01.320 --> 0:09:03.000 said he'll sleep in a sun's bedroom. I can stay 0:09:03.000 --> 0:09:05.520 in his. And I was like whatever, cool, Like you 0:09:05.520 --> 0:09:07.240 don't have to put me out. I'm smaller, I could 0:09:07.240 --> 0:09:09.840 stay in your son's bedroom. So I get there and 0:09:09.880 --> 0:09:11.800 I'm like, so, what happened to your son's bedroom. He's like, 0:09:12.200 --> 0:09:13.880 there's no sheets on it. I was like, you don't 0:09:13.880 --> 0:09:16.680 have any sheets. I mean I do, but like they're 0:09:16.679 --> 0:09:18.320 from my bed. I'm like, so you don't have any 0:09:18.360 --> 0:09:20.960 sheets in here. So basically, you put something on the 0:09:20.960 --> 0:09:23.200 table and presented something a certain way, and in fact, 0:09:23.200 --> 0:09:25.120 you had no intention for it to happen that way, 0:09:25.160 --> 0:09:26.400 and basically you fucking. 0:09:26.160 --> 0:09:26.640 Lied, right. 0:09:26.880 --> 0:09:30.520 I hate this type of shit. Don't do this adults. 0:09:30.720 --> 0:09:31.360 This is dumb. 0:09:31.679 --> 0:09:34.840 I'm not a child, but anyway, I'm like, I'm still 0:09:34.840 --> 0:09:37.839 not like super scared because I'll throw bleach in your eyes. 0:09:39.960 --> 0:09:42.160 So I'm like we can lay down or whatever. He's 0:09:42.200 --> 0:09:44.200 like cuddling the shit out of me. 0:09:44.280 --> 0:09:46.200 I'm like, at first I was like making out with him, 0:09:46.240 --> 0:09:47.840 and then I was like I got really uncomfortable. 0:09:47.880 --> 0:09:48.960 I was just like I needed to get off of me. 0:09:48.960 --> 0:09:50.640 He's like Pharreal. I was like, yep, you need to 0:09:50.640 --> 0:09:52.640 get off of me. He's like phar Real. I was 0:09:52.720 --> 0:09:56.360 like absolutely, I'm asking you to get off of me. 0:09:57.559 --> 0:09:59.520 He like waited like thirty seconds to see if I 0:09:59.600 --> 0:10:01.680 was phar Real, and I was like looking at him, 0:10:02.040 --> 0:10:03.320 and then he's like all right. 0:10:04.000 --> 0:10:10.200 Then he starts to snore. Oh God, when I say 0:10:10.320 --> 0:10:11.640 I wanted to stab him. 0:10:13.320 --> 0:10:17.400 I was so tired, like we've been like relentlessly working 0:10:17.760 --> 0:10:19.480 for this show, and then like even when we were sleeping, 0:10:19.480 --> 0:10:21.000 we're not sleeping because we're stressing about it. 0:10:21.200 --> 0:10:24.080 So I hadn't really slept. I was. I woke up 0:10:24.120 --> 0:10:26.760 so early. I text everybody in my phone, Hey what's up? 0:10:26.800 --> 0:10:27.880 Are you? Are you close to this place? 0:10:27.920 --> 0:10:28.040 Hey? 0:10:28.040 --> 0:10:28.360 What's up? 0:10:28.360 --> 0:10:28.440 Bar? 0:10:28.440 --> 0:10:28.599 Are you? 0:10:28.600 --> 0:10:29.400 Are you close to this place? 0:10:30.280 --> 0:10:32.960 But before I got to get picked up, he rolled 0:10:33.000 --> 0:10:36.880 over on top of me, put his nose in my armpit, 0:10:39.120 --> 0:10:43.280 took a big whiff, and I was like oh. I 0:10:43.360 --> 0:10:45.320 was like in my head, I was like, this is 0:10:45.360 --> 0:10:49.360 not happening. I can't wait to tell someone. Then he 0:10:49.360 --> 0:10:51.240 proceeds to tell me I remember that smell. 0:10:51.679 --> 0:10:52.400 I remember your. 0:10:52.920 --> 0:10:55.160 Yeah, he said, I remember ten years ten years ago. 0:10:55.800 --> 0:10:58.240 I was like Oh my god, I'm so I'm so embarrassed. 0:10:58.880 --> 0:11:01.240 I was inside you and I sniffed your armpit. You 0:11:01.240 --> 0:11:06.800 didn't notice, but I got harder. I could never packed 0:11:06.840 --> 0:11:09.400 my shit up so fast in my life. He was 0:11:09.520 --> 0:11:11.079 He made me breakfast on the balcony. 0:11:11.120 --> 0:11:11.800 He made me a drink. 0:11:11.840 --> 0:11:13.640 I was literally looking he took a picture of me. 0:11:13.640 --> 0:11:15.440 I didn't notice until later. I was looking over the 0:11:15.440 --> 0:11:19.079 balcony waiting for my friend, and he took a picture, like, oh, 0:11:19.120 --> 0:11:20.679 this is my friend. I made her breakfast. I hope 0:11:20.720 --> 0:11:22.520 she has a good show. And I'm literally like my back. 0:11:22.679 --> 0:11:29.760 So when I say I, he was like, my friends 0:11:29.760 --> 0:11:30.760 told me not to tell you this. 0:11:30.800 --> 0:11:32.480 I've been thinking about you since. Then in my head, 0:11:32.480 --> 0:11:34.480 I was like, you sink. You should have listened to 0:11:34.520 --> 0:11:36.679 your fucking friends. So I leave right. So I took 0:11:36.720 --> 0:11:39.080 all my shit out. He's like, oh, you're not coming back. 0:11:39.280 --> 0:11:40.720 I was like, oh, you know, I'll be around. I'm 0:11:40.720 --> 0:11:41.920 just gonna I got a lot of shit in here. 0:11:41.960 --> 0:11:44.720 I just you know I'll be I'll be in touch. 0:11:46.080 --> 0:11:48.000 I ran out of there right. 0:11:48.520 --> 0:11:49.760 He calls me ten minutes. 0:11:49.559 --> 0:11:52.800 Later, Hey, I just really cleared my schedule because I 0:11:52.880 --> 0:11:53.880 knew you were coming in town. 0:11:53.960 --> 0:11:55.520 I just thought you were staying with me, Like, are 0:11:55.559 --> 0:11:58.160 you coming back? I was like, did I scare you off? 0:11:58.200 --> 0:12:02.800 I was like, listen, I have a lot of commitments 0:12:02.840 --> 0:12:03.920 on here. I have a lot of people to see 0:12:03.920 --> 0:12:05.080 and I have a lot of things to do for 0:12:05.160 --> 0:12:07.319 this show, so I'm not going to make any promises. 0:12:07.800 --> 0:12:13.360 I'm cool, but I'll call you. Don't call me. I 0:12:13.480 --> 0:12:13.959 was scared. 0:12:14.120 --> 0:12:17.480 I know you text me like what are you here yet? 0:12:17.520 --> 0:12:18.079 What's going on? 0:12:18.320 --> 0:12:20.840 Okay, I'm freaking out. I saw that Danielle text you. 0:12:20.880 --> 0:12:21.640 You were like, hey, I'm. 0:12:21.480 --> 0:12:22.800 Coming over coming your hotel. 0:12:23.080 --> 0:12:23.560 Anybody. 0:12:23.840 --> 0:12:28.640 I was literally like anybody. So that was like the 0:12:28.640 --> 0:12:30.840 first lesson, Like, bitch, you're not twenty anymore. Don't be 0:12:30.880 --> 0:12:34.240 doing dumb shit. This is not twenty one year old Atlanta, 0:12:34.280 --> 0:12:36.360 and you are not twenty year old Jamilla. And I 0:12:36.440 --> 0:12:38.880 learned quickly like, but you're too smart for this, Oka, 0:12:38.880 --> 0:12:43.559 I'm not drunk enough. Nearly, and then he was supposed 0:12:43.559 --> 0:12:46.000 to come to the show and didn't, thank god. 0:12:45.840 --> 0:12:46.360 Thank god. 0:12:46.480 --> 0:12:48.040 And then I hope he doesn't listen to this, which 0:12:48.040 --> 0:12:49.640 I'm sure he will, but this is you need to 0:12:49.679 --> 0:12:52.840 know that. This is does he listen he has this 0:12:52.880 --> 0:12:56.000 is these are things you don't do to women because 0:12:56.080 --> 0:13:01.560 this freaks them out. But he he then, oh, he 0:13:01.720 --> 0:13:03.560 didn't come to show, and he said something about his 0:13:03.640 --> 0:13:07.040 mom's lungs and he said, believe it or not, that's 0:13:07.040 --> 0:13:08.200 what I wanted to talk to you about. 0:13:09.200 --> 0:13:09.920 That's another thing. 0:13:10.120 --> 0:13:12.680 If you ain't if we haven't connected in ten years, 0:13:13.400 --> 0:13:15.600 I'm not your close friend, and I don't want to 0:13:15.720 --> 0:13:17.200 talk to you about your mom's health. 0:13:18.480 --> 0:13:20.720 And that sounds bitchy. It does, No, it's not. 0:13:21.000 --> 0:13:22.200 It is what it is. 0:13:22.240 --> 0:13:24.360 I would not reach out to someone I haven't spoken 0:13:24.400 --> 0:13:26.920 to in a year and say I want to talk 0:13:26.920 --> 0:13:27.560 to about when. 0:13:27.400 --> 0:13:29.280 I was probably his attempted some having some sort of 0:13:29.360 --> 0:13:32.960 emotional attachment to you and wanting to connect in any 0:13:32.960 --> 0:13:33.720 way possible. 0:13:34.080 --> 0:13:34.960 And I get it. 0:13:35.000 --> 0:13:37.280 And you know, it was the first lesson of the 0:13:37.360 --> 0:13:40.040 trip for me because I had a lot of similar 0:13:40.080 --> 0:13:42.559 experiences with people I've had people. 0:13:42.320 --> 0:13:43.880 Were actually closer to me than this person. 0:13:43.880 --> 0:13:47.080 Though this guy's a little crazy, like ex girlfriends and 0:13:47.080 --> 0:13:48.800 stuff that I like hung out with and like just 0:13:48.840 --> 0:13:53.000 people and people were just really invested in our relationships. 0:13:53.559 --> 0:13:56.120 And I realized, like I'm that type of person. 0:13:56.600 --> 0:13:59.839 People really get connected to me, and sometimes it's not mutual, 0:14:00.040 --> 0:14:02.280 you know, and I think that's a special quality of mine. 0:14:02.320 --> 0:14:05.800 But I also have to be like conscious of that cancer. Yeah, 0:14:05.880 --> 0:14:06.679 I have to be really. 0:14:06.480 --> 0:14:09.560 Conscious because this nigga thought we were getting married for sure, 0:14:10.280 --> 0:14:13.000 and I was just like, this is crazy, Like you're 0:14:13.080 --> 0:14:13.840 fucking nuts. 0:14:13.920 --> 0:14:16.160 And he was a nice guy. He tried really hard to. 0:14:16.200 --> 0:14:19.120 Like accommodate me and be nice and I appreciate that, 0:14:19.240 --> 0:14:21.240 but like it was just a little it was just 0:14:21.240 --> 0:14:24.600 a little left too heavy. Anyway, my wonderful friend Sydney 0:14:24.640 --> 0:14:28.040 picked me up, thank god, and she went with me 0:14:28.080 --> 0:14:31.160 to the venue and Erica wasn't there yet, and I 0:14:31.200 --> 0:14:33.520 was like, look, said like what can we do to 0:14:33.560 --> 0:14:36.080 make this like space nice? You know, like I need 0:14:36.080 --> 0:14:37.360 how first she was going to drop me off, I 0:14:37.400 --> 0:14:38.560 was like, can you come and side with me? 0:14:38.880 --> 0:14:42.560 I need I need help. My partner's not here, Like please, bitch. 0:14:43.000 --> 0:14:44.560 She's like, okay, I like stuff like this. 0:14:44.640 --> 0:14:47.040 So she comes in. Then we go back to her apartment. 0:14:47.280 --> 0:14:49.640 We're sitting getting high and she's like, oh, you know what, 0:14:51.040 --> 0:14:52.920 my barstools look really good at the show. 0:14:53.440 --> 0:14:55.440 This area rug will look really good at the show. Oh, 0:14:55.440 --> 0:14:57.080 you should take all my plants. I was like, so 0:14:57.440 --> 0:14:58.000 I could take your. 0:14:57.960 --> 0:14:58.760 Whole living room. 0:15:00.680 --> 0:15:03.120 And we surely did, and we surely did. I was like, Sydney, 0:15:03.120 --> 0:15:04.960 I said, I can arrange it. I can arrange for 0:15:05.040 --> 0:15:06.920 someone to pick up this entire living room and I. 0:15:06.880 --> 0:15:10.720 Did, okay, which was amazing and it really made the 0:15:10.760 --> 0:15:11.800 difference for our decor. 0:15:11.920 --> 0:15:14.400 She, like Sydney, pulled the stops out. 0:15:14.720 --> 0:15:17.560 So even though I had a really strange, rapey kind 0:15:17.600 --> 0:15:21.800 of stalker related situation that led me to Sydney, that 0:15:21.880 --> 0:15:23.680 led her to come with me to look at the venue, 0:15:23.680 --> 0:15:25.840 that led me to have her whole living room at 0:15:25.840 --> 0:15:29.600 the venue, it just shows how divine things are, truly. 0:15:31.600 --> 0:15:36.120 And then and then Erica got there. Yeah, me just 0:15:36.360 --> 0:15:38.560 you know, raging anxiety. 0:15:38.440 --> 0:15:45.200 Raging well, I had just come from Home Shopping Network Florida, 0:15:45.360 --> 0:15:49.200 from Florida on a show, stressed the fuck out there, 0:15:49.880 --> 0:15:54.520 then came to Atlanta, got there, and then what happened was. 0:15:55.040 --> 0:15:57.320 I was like, go to oh, go to the venue. 0:15:58.040 --> 0:16:01.080 Oh yeah, Jamila sends me to the venue, a venue 0:16:01.120 --> 0:16:03.680 I've never been to with owners that are her people, 0:16:03.760 --> 0:16:05.720 and I'm like, I get there and she's like, it's fine, 0:16:05.840 --> 0:16:08.200 just tell them like, oh, I get there because our 0:16:08.240 --> 0:16:11.360 stage risers are getting delivered. But there's also it's also 0:16:11.400 --> 0:16:14.000 a restaurant, so there's brunch, there's things that happen between 0:16:14.040 --> 0:16:15.000 Saturday and Sunday. 0:16:15.640 --> 0:16:18.560 They're telling. So they're telling she's first, so they don't 0:16:18.560 --> 0:16:19.440 know what she's talking about. 0:16:19.600 --> 0:16:21.240 No one knows what I'm talking about, and I'm like, 0:16:22.280 --> 0:16:23.480 I was like, I knew I was gonna get here, 0:16:23.480 --> 0:16:24.040 and no one's gonna know. 0:16:24.040 --> 0:16:25.440 I was talking about everything. 0:16:25.440 --> 0:16:27.360 I knew that was gonna happen happen, probably because I 0:16:27.400 --> 0:16:29.280 manifested it because I was in like a very like 0:16:29.880 --> 0:16:34.440 negative place. So I get there and I'm like, hey, 0:16:34.600 --> 0:16:37.120 so I'm here for the podcast. They're like who. I'm like, 0:16:37.440 --> 0:16:40.840 we're having a podcast outside. They're like what where? And 0:16:40.840 --> 0:16:43.520 I'm like is there an outside? They're like yeah, I 0:16:43.600 --> 0:16:45.800 just go out there, go around the side. I'm like where. 0:16:46.160 --> 0:16:50.120 So someone finally directs me. I get there and it's 0:16:50.160 --> 0:16:51.920 set up for like it's set up for brunch, and 0:16:51.960 --> 0:16:54.480 I'm like, okay, So the event planning company is coming 0:16:54.520 --> 0:16:57.080 in like ten minutes and I'm talking to the person 0:16:57.120 --> 0:16:59.600 like we have to set up a riser here Jamila's like, 0:16:59.680 --> 0:17:00.880 no worry, We're gonna set it. 0:17:00.880 --> 0:17:02.160 Up and then we're gonna move it in the basement. 0:17:02.280 --> 0:17:04.479 But I'm like, well, the event planning company can't know 0:17:04.520 --> 0:17:06.680 that because they're crazy, and they asked me all these 0:17:06.680 --> 0:17:09.600 motherfucking questions before we booked them because they're crazy. 0:17:09.440 --> 0:17:10.320 And they're gonna charge it. 0:17:10.320 --> 0:17:12.439 It's like if you, if you, if you, if you 0:17:12.480 --> 0:17:13.960 touch it, if you do assemble it, if you, if you, 0:17:14.080 --> 0:17:15.800 if there's stairs, if it's outside. 0:17:15.920 --> 0:17:17.800 So I'm there and. 0:17:17.760 --> 0:17:19.639 It's like all of the no one knows what the 0:17:19.680 --> 0:17:21.760 fuck of this riser is, where it's going. 0:17:22.119 --> 0:17:24.280 And so I called Jamila. 0:17:24.000 --> 0:17:25.720 And keep in mind I had not slept, I'd like 0:17:25.800 --> 0:17:28.119 partied all night and I was just like wait what. 0:17:29.080 --> 0:17:30.679 I'm like, Oh my god, this bitch is gonna kill me. 0:17:30.880 --> 0:17:34.960 This restaurant is gonna make me kill them. So I'm like, where, Jamila, 0:17:35.040 --> 0:17:36.480 what do you Where am I suppos put this rider? 0:17:36.520 --> 0:17:38.359 She's like, it's fine, just put it there. I'm like, no, 0:17:38.480 --> 0:17:40.760 they're telling me I can't. Then the owner is the 0:17:40.840 --> 0:17:42.919 wife of the owner. I don't know who she is, 0:17:42.960 --> 0:17:47.760 big mama, Okay. She calls me on ten like damn 0:17:47.800 --> 0:17:52.240 you're cursing me like low. Like was just like, hey, 0:17:52.320 --> 0:17:54.879 so the riser's not going up. We're not putting the 0:17:54.960 --> 0:17:56.800 riser up. And I was like, okay, well Jamila told 0:17:56.800 --> 0:17:59.160 me that. I don't care what Jamila said. It's not happening. 0:17:59.160 --> 0:18:03.600 And I said, okay, So like, Hi, I'm Erica. She's like, 0:18:03.600 --> 0:18:05.720 it doesn't matter who you are, it's not going I 0:18:05.840 --> 0:18:08.680 was like okay. She's like and when I get there, 0:18:08.720 --> 0:18:11.520 it better not be up. I was like, god damn, bitch. 0:18:12.119 --> 0:18:15.040 So I hang up and I called Jamila and I'm like, bitch, 0:18:15.200 --> 0:18:16.240 this is why you need it. 0:18:16.160 --> 0:18:16.640 To be here. 0:18:16.840 --> 0:18:19.359 We're people are your fucking people. I don't know what 0:18:19.359 --> 0:18:20.639 the fuck is going on here. 0:18:20.800 --> 0:18:23.240 So I'm like, let me call you back. So so 0:18:23.280 --> 0:18:26.240 I'm calling Jamel, the bar manager that never answers the phone. 0:18:26.280 --> 0:18:28.639 Jamel, ever, like the whole time we've been in contact, 0:18:28.680 --> 0:18:31.320 does not text back, does not answer. That's the sweetest 0:18:31.359 --> 0:18:33.840 man in the world, but does not text back. He's like, 0:18:33.840 --> 0:18:35.159 oh yeah, let me let me figure it out. Then 0:18:35.200 --> 0:18:37.200 I call Ma, who just cussed her out, and I'm 0:18:37.200 --> 0:18:39.560 like and she is scary, like she's an old terrifying 0:18:40.000 --> 0:18:41.120 She's like it doesn't get better. 0:18:41.200 --> 0:18:42.880 The story of Ma doesn't get better with time. 0:18:43.200 --> 0:18:45.520 She's just like she's a good person. She's just direct. 0:18:45.600 --> 0:18:47.280 So she's like, no, I didn't tell you that they 0:18:47.280 --> 0:18:48.280 need to put it somewhere. I don't care. 0:18:48.280 --> 0:18:49.920 I don't figure out unless you don't get me direct 0:18:49.920 --> 0:18:52.199 me at track for thirty five hundred dollars for my brunch. 0:18:52.560 --> 0:18:53.920 I'm not then, and I'm. 0:18:53.760 --> 0:18:56.480 Like, okay, So I'm like, what the fuck are we 0:18:56.480 --> 0:18:56.959 about to do. 0:18:57.040 --> 0:19:00.120 I'm like, listen, they're gonna charge us. We have wasted money. 0:19:00.400 --> 0:19:01.280 But da da da da. 0:19:01.320 --> 0:19:03.760 It's just like I don't care. Okay, So we hang out. 0:19:04.920 --> 0:19:07.800 Five minutes later, Erica text me it's fine. The guys 0:19:07.920 --> 0:19:09.399 just put it downstairs in the basement. 0:19:09.640 --> 0:19:11.400 Well, thank god it wasn't the guy who I talked 0:19:11.400 --> 0:19:12.719 to on the phone. It was like some just some 0:19:12.840 --> 0:19:14.720 random dudes that he had to come bring the ship 0:19:15.040 --> 0:19:15.400 and then. 0:19:15.440 --> 0:19:16.640 The delivery guys don't give a fuck. 0:19:16.680 --> 0:19:18.800 The delivery guards has been parted out down there. 0:19:18.880 --> 0:19:20.480 I was, and I was like, please, like, I know 0:19:20.520 --> 0:19:22.439 it's farther than twenty five feet, because it was like, 0:19:22.440 --> 0:19:24.000 if it's more than twenty five feet from the car 0:19:24.040 --> 0:19:26.440 to the venue, it's extra, and I was like, I'm 0:19:26.440 --> 0:19:27.119 a single mom. 0:19:27.400 --> 0:19:29.159 I was like, please, don't even give I Literally it 0:19:29.200 --> 0:19:31.879 was like, I'm a single mom. I didn't even have 0:19:31.920 --> 0:19:32.400 to say anything. 0:19:32.400 --> 0:19:33.959 And it was like, baby, it's fine. 0:19:34.200 --> 0:19:37.680 That's one thing about Atlanta, the hospitality levels and the 0:19:38.480 --> 0:19:42.320 chillness was so up, like so high that that that 0:19:42.400 --> 0:19:43.680 kind of eased everything. 0:19:43.720 --> 0:19:46.960 Oh that's yeah. So then that worked out and that 0:19:47.080 --> 0:19:49.920 was fine. I went back to Actually, I don't even like, 0:19:49.960 --> 0:19:50.560 it's kind of a blow. 0:19:50.560 --> 0:19:51.199 I don't even know what I did. 0:19:51.359 --> 0:19:52.720 He was to Jennifer and then went to Jennifer and 0:19:52.720 --> 0:19:53.159 then I met you. 0:19:53.760 --> 0:19:55.199 Yeah, and then it got worse. So let me tell 0:19:55.240 --> 0:19:55.399 you how. 0:19:55.480 --> 0:19:57.040 Let me how a divine shit is. So I was. 0:19:57.320 --> 0:19:58.840 I was at a hotel room because the night before 0:19:58.880 --> 0:20:01.480 I stayed out online with my friend Mira. Did not 0:20:01.520 --> 0:20:03.560 answer the door, so we got a room by Mira's house. 0:20:04.000 --> 0:20:05.760 So I was like, let me get the fuck up. 0:20:05.800 --> 0:20:08.960 This bitch is about to have a conniption. So something 0:20:09.000 --> 0:20:11.560 tells me to text this other guy that I used 0:20:11.560 --> 0:20:14.000 to like hook up with in my building because he's like, 0:20:14.040 --> 0:20:15.320 I'm running errands today. 0:20:15.080 --> 0:20:16.480 Call me. He lives nowhere. 0:20:16.680 --> 0:20:18.480 He lives like where I was staying is in Marietta 0:20:18.480 --> 0:20:20.080 in the north side. He lives in the West side. 0:20:20.640 --> 0:20:23.560 Something just like, where are your errands you're running? He's like, Oh, 0:20:23.600 --> 0:20:26.800 I'm leaving Cumberland Mall. I'm across the street from Cumberland Mall. 0:20:26.840 --> 0:20:29.080 I'm like, can you come get me please. He's like, yeah, 0:20:29.119 --> 0:20:29.680 I'm outside. 0:20:29.840 --> 0:20:33.240 I'm like trying to get my shit together, collecting my stuff. 0:20:33.800 --> 0:20:35.480 I'm like, I gotta go. I tell my friends she's sleep. 0:20:35.480 --> 0:20:36.119 I'm like gonna have to go. 0:20:36.600 --> 0:20:39.160 This guy who just happens to be across the street 0:20:39.400 --> 0:20:41.560 while I text him, Hey, where are those errands you're 0:20:41.640 --> 0:20:44.840 running at Cumberland Mall? Oh, I'm here, picks me up. 0:20:44.840 --> 0:20:49.800 I go to Erica. As this girl comes down to 0:20:49.840 --> 0:20:52.000 get me to take us up. We pick up one 0:20:52.000 --> 0:20:55.399 more box. But the box is like these two boxes 0:20:55.480 --> 0:20:56.920 we sent. First of all, we spent like six hundred 0:20:56.920 --> 0:20:59.120 dollars sending him because we're done moving to the last minute. 0:20:59.240 --> 0:21:02.400 And second of all, they're essential for the show, essential crucial, 0:21:02.640 --> 0:21:06.840 like our merch mom's signed. Everything that was important and 0:21:06.880 --> 0:21:09.040 everything that was gonna make us some money was in 0:21:09.040 --> 0:21:09.879 that fucking box. 0:21:10.359 --> 0:21:13.120 So we sent them together with the same address. 0:21:13.240 --> 0:21:16.040 So we get downstairs to the mailing office. There's one box, 0:21:16.119 --> 0:21:18.640 the small box, not the one we fucking really need. 0:21:18.720 --> 0:21:20.240 So I'm looking through this thing. I'm like, I don't 0:21:20.240 --> 0:21:22.080 see our other box. I'm sorry to flip. 0:21:21.960 --> 0:21:25.040 Out, and I my flipout is different than Erica's slip out. 0:21:25.080 --> 0:21:30.840 I like internalized my flip I'm like, okay, so let's 0:21:30.840 --> 0:21:32.320 just take a calm, let's just take it one step 0:21:32.320 --> 0:21:35.080 at a time, because if I freak out, nothing's gonna happen. 0:21:35.320 --> 0:21:37.960 So I get upstairs and I told Jim, I just heard. 0:21:38.080 --> 0:21:41.960 I just told our other this other girl, like Erica 0:21:42.040 --> 0:21:44.200 stressed the funk out. She stressed me out. And then 0:21:44.440 --> 0:21:46.600 we've realized the box is not there. I'm like, she's 0:21:46.600 --> 0:21:47.840 about to flip. 0:21:47.520 --> 0:21:48.200 The fuck out. 0:21:48.920 --> 0:21:53.399 So we get upstairs and I'm like, Erica, there was 0:21:53.680 --> 0:21:56.840 only one box downstairs, and she's like what. 0:21:57.480 --> 0:22:00.240 So there's like it's like just a silence comes over them, 0:22:00.240 --> 0:22:02.600 like we don't were just looking at each other, just 0:22:02.640 --> 0:22:03.480 looking at each other. 0:22:03.520 --> 0:22:06.040 Like okay, let's so we start like looking at the 0:22:06.119 --> 0:22:08.760 ups track tracking and it says. 0:22:08.520 --> 0:22:10.760 It is twelve fifty two pm. 0:22:10.920 --> 0:22:13.280 It says your box will now be delivered at one 0:22:13.359 --> 0:22:16.920 pm on Monday. Our show is on Sunday. So I'm like, wait, 0:22:17.040 --> 0:22:19.679 where is the box? So we finally track the box 0:22:19.760 --> 0:22:20.920 at like twelve fifty six. 0:22:20.960 --> 0:22:23.000 It's by the airport, by the airpor which is twenty 0:22:23.000 --> 0:22:24.040 minutes from where we are, and. 0:22:24.000 --> 0:22:27.400 It's closing at one pm and it's twelve fifty three, and. 0:22:27.359 --> 0:22:29.360 I'm like, there's no way we're making it. There's no way. 0:22:29.440 --> 0:22:30.959 And I was just like, we gotta try. We have 0:22:31.000 --> 0:22:32.600 to go up there, and we have to try. We 0:22:32.680 --> 0:22:34.560 have to see if someone lags them around. There's like 0:22:34.640 --> 0:22:35.679 if we don't try. 0:22:36.280 --> 0:22:36.760 We'll never know. 0:22:36.880 --> 0:22:37.320 We'll never know. 0:22:37.560 --> 0:22:39.600 So we get in the uber. We get in immediately. 0:22:39.600 --> 0:22:41.840 I tell the uber driver, I'm like, look, you need 0:22:41.880 --> 0:22:43.960 to get us there. We need to drive fast as 0:22:44.000 --> 0:22:47.000 fast as you can while being all being safe. And 0:22:47.080 --> 0:22:50.359 so he gets us there. He's he did, He fucking. 0:22:50.119 --> 0:22:50.679 Hauled us there. 0:22:50.720 --> 0:22:52.360 He did, but it was one fifteen. So we got 0:22:52.359 --> 0:22:53.080 there at one fifteen. 0:22:53.080 --> 0:22:54.760 And now I'm thinking, is like Atlanta has a lot 0:22:54.800 --> 0:22:56.720 of black people. Black people will be clocking out five 0:22:56.760 --> 0:22:58.840 minutes before the time shift. 0:22:59.200 --> 0:22:59.960 I'm out, I'm out. 0:23:00.240 --> 0:23:04.760 So we pull and it's this huge ups like hanger 0:23:05.200 --> 0:23:09.440 like facility, parking lot, like fucking community. 0:23:09.520 --> 0:23:11.640 It's huge. So he drops me off at one end 0:23:11.640 --> 0:23:14.640 and drops Erica off another. We're like jo So she goes. 0:23:14.480 --> 0:23:16.480 To like the hangar where like you would go pick 0:23:16.560 --> 0:23:18.720 up the package. And I go to where I said, 0:23:18.760 --> 0:23:19.439 I see people. 0:23:19.480 --> 0:23:20.240 There's like an office. 0:23:20.320 --> 0:23:22.240 So I go in there, Well, did you mean the college. 0:23:22.280 --> 0:23:23.800 She's like, there's nobody here. They won't let me in. 0:23:23.840 --> 0:23:25.480 The security guard sell. 0:23:25.560 --> 0:23:27.120 I mean. I'm like, but I'm like jogging. 0:23:27.920 --> 0:23:30.600 So I'm walking in and I just see so many 0:23:30.640 --> 0:23:32.359 people and I'm like, what is going on here? It's 0:23:32.400 --> 0:23:35.359 a fucking job fair for the holidays, so there's so 0:23:35.600 --> 0:23:38.080 many people in there, just trying to apply for jobs. 0:23:38.400 --> 0:23:43.120 I am like walking around frantically, like panicking and like hyperventilating. Finally, 0:23:43.520 --> 0:23:45.880 like they're literally there. They're sitting at school desks, remember 0:23:45.880 --> 0:23:46.200 the school. 0:23:46.200 --> 0:23:47.040 They were taking a test. 0:23:47.080 --> 0:23:49.080 They were like sitting at school desk like the ones 0:23:49.119 --> 0:23:52.240 you had in like middle school, like personals, like you 0:23:52.359 --> 0:23:53.680 have the little personal desks. 0:23:53.800 --> 0:23:56.680 I opened, I see this like really handsome. He was fine. 0:23:56.680 --> 0:23:59.119 He was fine, a handsome like man in the in 0:23:59.200 --> 0:24:01.240 an office inner viewing someone and I just like knock 0:24:01.320 --> 0:24:03.600 him like, Hi, I'm sorry. 0:24:03.680 --> 0:24:04.840 I don't mean to interrupt, but. 0:24:04.880 --> 0:24:08.680 I'm like freaking out because my box is missing and 0:24:08.720 --> 0:24:11.720 I need my box because I'm getting married tomorrow and 0:24:11.760 --> 0:24:13.520 my wedding dress is in the fucking box. And he 0:24:13.600 --> 0:24:16.439 was like what and I was like, yes, I'm getting married, 0:24:16.640 --> 0:24:19.200 my dress is in the box. Please can somebody help me? 0:24:19.240 --> 0:24:19.919 And he's like whoa. 0:24:20.000 --> 0:24:22.240 Just meanwhile, the overdriver has come back to get me 0:24:22.240 --> 0:24:25.760 from the other side of this strange place Upslafe and 0:24:25.800 --> 0:24:27.360 I'm in the car and I go in and then 0:24:27.520 --> 0:24:29.440 Eric's like, I think they're gonna help us. I think 0:24:29.440 --> 0:24:31.080 they're gonna help us. And this guy's like everything's gonna 0:24:31.080 --> 0:24:33.600 be fine, and then she discreetly says, oh, yeah. By 0:24:33.600 --> 0:24:35.480 the way, I told her my wedding dress is in 0:24:35.480 --> 0:24:36.720 the box and my weddings tomorrow. 0:24:36.800 --> 0:24:38.159 I'm like what to mean. 0:24:38.200 --> 0:24:39.639 I was like, you don't think the show was important enough. 0:24:39.680 --> 0:24:42.400 I was like, no, it needs to be emotional emotional attachments. 0:24:42.800 --> 0:24:45.800 So he knocks on this girl's this lady's office who 0:24:45.880 --> 0:24:47.480 I had actually been knocking on her office and she 0:24:47.520 --> 0:24:50.199 was ignoring me, and he went and knocks on her 0:24:50.240 --> 0:24:52.400 office he's like, hey, Jean, So I have this young 0:24:52.480 --> 0:24:54.600 lady here she's getting married and her fair. 0:24:54.600 --> 0:24:55.680 Name really was je is Jean. 0:24:55.760 --> 0:24:57.520 I'll never forget her fucking name Jean. 0:24:57.640 --> 0:24:59.919 And she's getting married and her boxes and she's like, 0:25:00.080 --> 0:25:01.639 oh no, oh wait, we got it. 0:25:01.640 --> 0:25:03.600 We're gonna figure this out. Just give me one second. 0:25:03.600 --> 0:25:05.679 She like locks up her office and ship hurt me. 0:25:07.240 --> 0:25:10.920 She starts making phone calls where she's like calling things 0:25:10.040 --> 0:25:12.400 the cell phone trucks. 0:25:13.400 --> 0:25:16.919 Yeah, we're gonna set out to set an announcement for 0:25:16.960 --> 0:25:18.359 all the truck drivers right now, all the. 0:25:18.320 --> 0:25:19.720 Truck drivers all over Lena. 0:25:20.320 --> 0:25:22.440 So we've she walks us through the first of all, 0:25:22.480 --> 0:25:24.680 we have to like take we have to go through security. 0:25:24.760 --> 0:25:27.320 Security shows that there's like super certain protocol we have 0:25:27.400 --> 0:25:28.920 to follow, like walk on certain lines. 0:25:29.080 --> 0:25:31.320 Hey, stay in line, saying line it's very dangerous. It's 0:25:31.359 --> 0:25:33.480 very dangerous. Do you have any no photos? She's like, 0:25:33.520 --> 0:25:34.080 no cell phones. 0:25:34.080 --> 0:25:37.520 So I'm like, what the fuck kind of fucking secret 0:25:37.520 --> 0:25:38.520 area fifty one? 0:25:38.680 --> 0:25:41.320 Ups? Shit have we walked into? I wanted to laugh. 0:25:41.520 --> 0:25:43.879 I'm like I was just gonna have a pant I 0:25:43.920 --> 0:25:46.720 was panicing, I was having a panic attack, and. 0:25:46.680 --> 0:25:47.600 Like I was had. 0:25:47.640 --> 0:25:48.879 I was like on the verge of crying. 0:25:49.600 --> 0:25:51.840 And so we get there and then there's like thousands 0:25:51.880 --> 0:25:54.280 of boxes and then she's like, we're gonna find the box. 0:25:54.040 --> 0:25:55.440 Somehow, and I was like, no one, So I was 0:25:55.440 --> 0:25:57.080 gonna call us back, girl. 0:25:57.240 --> 0:26:01.320 I we just were walking through a huge way, huge boxes. 0:26:01.480 --> 0:26:01.920 Bitch. 0:26:02.560 --> 0:26:05.720 I must have saw that box my laser fucking eyes. 0:26:05.840 --> 0:26:07.320 I think I think that's walks right there. 0:26:07.520 --> 0:26:11.359 I'm like, because Jamila's scribbled scrabble writing on it, I'm. 0:26:11.200 --> 0:26:12.280 Like, it is our box. 0:26:12.320 --> 0:26:16.320 Oh my god, I like hugged me, hug I like literally, 0:26:16.359 --> 0:26:17.800 I'm like, I'm gonna cry right now thinking about it. 0:26:17.840 --> 0:26:20.960 My eyes were getting watery. I literally was in tears. 0:26:21.400 --> 0:26:24.560 Literally like every all this, you would have really thought 0:26:24.560 --> 0:26:26.080 it was our fucking wedding dress. 0:26:26.160 --> 0:26:26.520 Witch. 0:26:27.000 --> 0:26:28.720 I literally like fell on the. 0:26:28.680 --> 0:26:32.360 Floor like kissed Jean's feet. I was like, Jeane, I'm 0:26:32.359 --> 0:26:34.880 gonna write review whatever you need. There was another black 0:26:34.880 --> 0:26:36.680 woman in there who was like these pitches are crazy, 0:26:36.800 --> 0:26:37.439 right she was. 0:26:37.640 --> 0:26:39.080 Then they got the box, like that's a pretty heavy 0:26:39.080 --> 0:26:40.840 wedding dress. We're like, oh, there's a couple other things in. 0:26:40.800 --> 0:26:43.800 There, and the box was lowkey falling apart. 0:26:43.840 --> 0:26:45.280 I was like, oh my god, if they pick up 0:26:45.280 --> 0:26:47.080 this box and falls apart and all the ship falls 0:26:47.080 --> 0:26:48.119 out and there's no wedding dress. 0:26:48.160 --> 0:26:49.920 Because Jean kept saying, you know, like if there was. 0:26:49.920 --> 0:26:52.280 Any other, any other situation, I wouldn't I wouldn't just 0:26:52.359 --> 0:26:53.359 let you guys wait till. 0:26:53.240 --> 0:26:55.639 Monday, like if it were some shoes or anything like that. 0:26:55.760 --> 0:26:57.280 I'm like, Jeane, thank you so much. 0:26:57.320 --> 0:26:59.920 So shout out to Jean from ups and at Land 0:27:00.280 --> 0:27:02.840 because bit saved a mother. Shout out to everyone in 0:27:02.880 --> 0:27:05.800 Atlanta that literally saved us on a lot of occasions. 0:27:05.840 --> 0:27:06.800 Okay, because there's more. 0:27:06.840 --> 0:27:09.320 Wait, I haven't done I know this sounds crazy, right, 0:27:10.800 --> 0:27:14.919 So we get the box, we somehow get all the 0:27:14.920 --> 0:27:15.960 furniture to the show. 0:27:16.080 --> 0:27:16.320 Oh no. 0:27:16.560 --> 0:27:17.879 Then we get the box and we get back to 0:27:17.920 --> 0:27:20.359 the house. I want to get another alert that one 0:27:20.359 --> 0:27:21.400 of our other boxes didn't. 0:27:21.720 --> 0:27:23.439 Oh yeah, another box that make it. 0:27:23.680 --> 0:27:28.120 Oh yeah, our sign, this the fucking print fuck Vista Press, 0:27:28.160 --> 0:27:30.800 buck Vista print. We got a sign delivered, it was, 0:27:31.119 --> 0:27:34.040 but they sent it back to Canada because they're dumb. 0:27:35.359 --> 0:27:37.240 So we're like, we don't have a sign the end 0:27:37.240 --> 0:27:37.960 of the world. 0:27:38.240 --> 0:27:40.679 Our sign that we got for this event isn't coming 0:27:40.880 --> 0:27:43.520 like one win, one loss at least, like the big 0:27:43.560 --> 0:27:46.160 box came and now all honestly, we didn't really fucking 0:27:46.160 --> 0:27:48.000 need that sign, but. 0:27:48.000 --> 0:27:50.639 At the time it seemed very high, like very very important, 0:27:50.680 --> 0:27:53.520 very important. Everything was very important. And then at this point, 0:27:53.520 --> 0:27:55.440 I feel like we still hadn't really run the show. 0:27:55.600 --> 0:27:58.720 Yeah, that's we haven't run the show one time ever. 0:27:59.400 --> 0:28:00.840 So I don't even know. 0:28:01.119 --> 0:28:02.040 We were literally. 0:28:01.760 --> 0:28:03.760 Running the show while Jamala was taking a shower and 0:28:03.760 --> 0:28:04.680 I was doing my makeup. 0:28:04.760 --> 0:28:06.119 I I was in my hair. 0:28:06.160 --> 0:28:07.760 I was like dying my hair, and I was like, 0:28:07.880 --> 0:28:09.760 I gotta do this, so just come in the bath. 0:28:11.080 --> 0:28:13.720 So like we knew generally what we wanted to do 0:28:13.760 --> 0:28:16.080 with the guests, but like we just didn't. 0:28:16.160 --> 0:28:16.639 I don't know. 0:28:16.880 --> 0:28:17.840 Thank god we do this. 0:28:17.840 --> 0:28:19.919 Every week, I know, because then we can kind of 0:28:19.920 --> 0:28:22.240 like play off of each other. But it was fine, 0:28:22.320 --> 0:28:24.600 but it was just And then when we got in 0:28:24.640 --> 0:28:27.440 the room, I mean honestly, in La I was so nervous, and. 0:28:27.359 --> 0:28:28.920 Then when I got the room in Atlanta, I wasn't 0:28:28.920 --> 0:28:32.080 that nervous. I was like, my people, Thank God, my 0:28:32.160 --> 0:28:32.640 people are. 0:28:32.600 --> 0:28:34.680 I didn't know anybody, but I almost made it better. 0:28:34.760 --> 0:28:36.200 No, but it wasn't my people. 0:28:36.280 --> 0:28:37.919 It was some faces that I knew, but it was 0:28:37.920 --> 0:28:41.400 mostly faces I did not know, but I still felt comfortable. 0:28:41.600 --> 0:28:43.640 Yeah, it was the audio guy was sucking up a 0:28:43.640 --> 0:28:44.840 few times with the microphone. 0:28:45.440 --> 0:28:49.640 Our DJ didn't get our memo o our we didn't 0:28:49.640 --> 0:28:50.680 get a rehearsal, so. 0:28:50.720 --> 0:28:53.920 It was Yeah, but everything was really good. Everybody was 0:28:54.040 --> 0:28:56.680 really nice to us. And then to make matters even 0:28:56.720 --> 0:28:58.400 better because people have asked us, like can we smoke 0:28:58.400 --> 0:28:59.600 at this venue? And we didn't want to be the 0:28:59.600 --> 0:29:03.240 culpers saying yes, we got to smoke in the tent 0:29:03.520 --> 0:29:06.680 like everybody had. Everybody lit their blunts together, well their 0:29:06.680 --> 0:29:10.040 blunts together, passed their blunts together, took shots together. 0:29:10.160 --> 0:29:10.720 Oh my god. 0:29:10.720 --> 0:29:12.880 It was And it was just like there was just 0:29:12.920 --> 0:29:15.960 so much participation too, because you never know, like if 0:29:16.000 --> 0:29:18.040 people are just gonna be staring at you in silence, 0:29:18.120 --> 0:29:21.240 like as afraid to ask things. And like I just 0:29:21.320 --> 0:29:24.840 appreciated like the energy in the room. A lot of 0:29:24.880 --> 0:29:27.880 women that don't even know us, that like felt comfortable 0:29:28.240 --> 0:29:31.480 comfortable enough to like share things, ask us things. 0:29:31.920 --> 0:29:33.080 Do what are you looking at? 0:29:33.160 --> 0:29:34.280 Did you get a new piercing Yeah? 0:29:34.320 --> 0:29:34.560 I did. 0:29:34.640 --> 0:29:36.280 Oh, I'm like, am I chrippin' or is that a 0:29:36.280 --> 0:29:36.800 new piercit? 0:29:36.840 --> 0:29:38.360 I got it in and it's infected? 0:29:38.760 --> 0:29:39.920 This one this well? 0:29:40.040 --> 0:29:41.560 This, I got this one I had and he re 0:29:41.680 --> 0:29:43.840 pierced it well, and I went to I went to 0:29:43.880 --> 0:29:45.600 a shop to get this done. Then I went to 0:29:45.680 --> 0:29:47.080 I was being cheap, so I went down the street 0:29:47.080 --> 0:29:49.280 to another like shady shop, and he bucked my shit up. 0:29:49.320 --> 0:29:49.840 Was it a gun? 0:29:50.280 --> 0:29:52.320 No, it was already pierced, but it was kind of closed, 0:29:52.520 --> 0:29:54.000 and so he like was jamming it through. 0:29:54.040 --> 0:29:54.920 Did it with a gun though? 0:29:55.160 --> 0:29:56.640 No, he just then he pulled. 0:29:56.400 --> 0:29:58.320 Out some strange needle, which I don't even know if 0:29:58.320 --> 0:30:00.320 it was clean. And that's why I think I'm infected. Oh, 0:30:00.480 --> 0:30:00.960 both yours. 0:30:00.960 --> 0:30:04.360 But you're sorry. That was random looking at her like 0:30:04.640 --> 0:30:05.240 this is what you have? 0:30:05.280 --> 0:30:08.600 More? I don't know, okay, but anyway, I just was 0:30:08.640 --> 0:30:12.720 so I was just like and honestly to like our 0:30:12.800 --> 0:30:18.640 guests that kind of came together last minute, like Shanisha that. 0:30:18.560 --> 0:30:20.440 We've been calling a year and a half. 0:30:20.480 --> 0:30:22.640 Yeah, Shanisha, who who's from Black Mom's blog. 0:30:22.680 --> 0:30:24.480 We didn't we did an episode with her. She's the 0:30:24.520 --> 0:30:27.240 only phone interview we've ever done. On the podcast. So 0:30:27.280 --> 0:30:29.840 we've actually never met her, and we asked her to come. 0:30:30.000 --> 0:30:32.560 She flew in from like a convention straight to the 0:30:32.600 --> 0:30:35.840 podcast to come beyond our shit. We've never met in person. 0:30:35.920 --> 0:30:38.120 We'd had no idea what our dynamic was going to be, Like, 0:30:38.160 --> 0:30:40.320 I mean, we had a phone conversation before. 0:30:40.400 --> 0:30:42.560 But even that was us like really standard. 0:30:42.720 --> 0:30:46.080 Yeah, and like Lauren never met her, Lauren from Real. 0:30:45.960 --> 0:30:48.440 Housewives of Atlanta, Like that was a hookup through one 0:30:48.480 --> 0:30:51.320 of our homeboys, Carlton, who lives out here, who knows her, 0:30:51.760 --> 0:30:54.840 was so cool, came on, shared some like really funny 0:30:54.880 --> 0:30:56.640 personal shit, like. 0:30:56.920 --> 0:30:58.480 It was just like perfect. 0:30:58.600 --> 0:31:01.200 Couldn't have asked for like her guests to like also 0:31:01.320 --> 0:31:04.239 kind of like our show is fun, but also like 0:31:04.440 --> 0:31:05.640 to bring it down and like. 0:31:05.600 --> 0:31:07.240 Have a real conversation right right right. 0:31:07.240 --> 0:31:09.280 And then Danielle of course too, like our married wife 0:31:09.280 --> 0:31:11.160 are We had a segment on the show called Ask 0:31:11.200 --> 0:31:13.520 a Wife where we Askedanielle a bunch of like inappropriate 0:31:13.520 --> 0:31:15.480 shit that like things I want to know as a 0:31:15.480 --> 0:31:17.680 married person, like are you still sucking dick in cars? 0:31:17.920 --> 0:31:20.240 Like are you still giving road head? Like you does 0:31:20.240 --> 0:31:20.960 he finger you? 0:31:21.080 --> 0:31:21.320 Right? 0:31:21.560 --> 0:31:23.560 Like how do you have sex with three adult kids 0:31:23.600 --> 0:31:24.240 in the house. 0:31:24.400 --> 0:31:28.800 So I just like really appreciated the energy and everything 0:31:28.960 --> 0:31:30.000 and the honesty. 0:31:30.320 --> 0:31:35.440 The honesty. So it all worked out. And then the 0:31:35.520 --> 0:31:36.240 next day. 0:31:36.240 --> 0:31:40.240 So we're all hype it's finally over, and our dear 0:31:40.360 --> 0:31:43.720 wonderful bar manager is like, leave everything here. 0:31:43.800 --> 0:31:47.160 We got it. I'm like, okay, so we leave. 0:31:47.520 --> 0:31:50.560 No, Actually, Sydney went and told him. He was like, look, 0:31:50.880 --> 0:31:53.320 they are single moms. We have worked our ass off. 0:31:53.520 --> 0:31:56.360 We need this night. Sidney said, yeah, she told me that. 0:31:56.480 --> 0:31:58.040 She was like, we need this night. 0:31:58.240 --> 0:31:59.960 You guys need to figure this shit out because we're leaving. 0:32:00.280 --> 0:32:00.760 We're leaving. 0:32:00.840 --> 0:32:02.360 You gotta figure this out. And he was like And 0:32:02.360 --> 0:32:03.600 then I went up to him because I was like, 0:32:03.640 --> 0:32:04.040 are you guys. 0:32:04.280 --> 0:32:06.280 He's like, go go enjoy your night. You guys deserve it. 0:32:06.360 --> 0:32:07.480 I was like, she sure did tell him that. 0:32:07.560 --> 0:32:10.160 Wait. First of all, we have such like such like 0:32:10.720 --> 0:32:13.120 down ass friends. Sidney. 0:32:13.160 --> 0:32:14.400 I don't know what she was over there doing with 0:32:14.400 --> 0:32:16.440 the bar manager. I'm glad you did it because I 0:32:16.440 --> 0:32:18.280 didn't have any energy to do it. But we set 0:32:18.360 --> 0:32:21.480 up like literally literally right before the show came started 0:32:21.600 --> 0:32:23.080 to the point where people were showing up and we 0:32:23.080 --> 0:32:24.040 were still like wearing sweats. 0:32:24.040 --> 0:32:26.600 I'm like, you're here for the shows, give us five minutes. 0:32:26.640 --> 0:32:30.600 Tell me that she was holding shit down with the 0:32:30.640 --> 0:32:33.520 bar manager, Ashley fucking hell shit. 0:32:33.720 --> 0:32:36.760 Two of our friends flew in from LA to come 0:32:36.840 --> 0:32:39.640 enjoy the show, and they fucking worked the show. If 0:32:39.680 --> 0:32:42.479 without them, there would have been no motherfucking show for real. 0:32:42.640 --> 0:32:46.480 Like literally, we've learned so much about what needs to 0:32:46.560 --> 0:32:49.280 happen if we're gonna do more out of town shows, 0:32:49.280 --> 0:32:52.360 which we want to do, but god damn, we're. 0:32:52.280 --> 0:32:53.320 Gonna need friends in every city. 0:32:53.360 --> 0:32:55.240 Okay, we wanna sign up for a roll call us Okay, 0:32:55.240 --> 0:32:57.320 because we had to, we have someone working the door mirror. 0:32:57.320 --> 0:32:59.440 My best friend Marra was like security slash door girl. 0:32:59.480 --> 0:33:02.320 She's like to She told me. All my boyfriends who came, 0:33:02.400 --> 0:33:03.840 like all the people I went on dates with that week, 0:33:03.840 --> 0:33:05.280 were like looking at her like, bitch, I don't need. 0:33:05.280 --> 0:33:08.720 No ticket, Donna. 0:33:09.080 --> 0:33:12.000 It was just bumb But the next day we had 0:33:12.000 --> 0:33:13.440 to come back and get our shit right. 0:33:13.480 --> 0:33:14.120 So we went out. 0:33:14.240 --> 0:33:16.600 We partied because that's what we do, and then somehow, 0:33:16.880 --> 0:33:19.640 like nine o'clock, we like ten eleven, we rolled over. 0:33:19.720 --> 0:33:21.600 I was like, bitch, we gotta go back. 0:33:21.680 --> 0:33:23.640 We gotta get this goddamn riser. We got to get 0:33:23.640 --> 0:33:25.680 this fucking riser for this event company. 0:33:25.840 --> 0:33:26.840 They're gonna get it picked up. 0:33:27.840 --> 0:33:28.520 So we get there. 0:33:29.000 --> 0:33:31.200 No again, I just happened to call a friend and 0:33:31.240 --> 0:33:33.800 she's close by and she has my jacket. I'm like, 0:33:33.960 --> 0:33:35.760 I was supposed to be picking up my jacket, and 0:33:36.080 --> 0:33:37.960 me and Erica come down with bubble wrap and we're like, 0:33:38.080 --> 0:33:39.040 can you drop us off? 0:33:40.640 --> 0:33:44.880 And we get to First of all, side note, when 0:33:44.920 --> 0:33:47.880 I was trying to get the riser into the venue, 0:33:47.960 --> 0:33:50.680 Jamila kept telling me about a homeless man named Johnny 0:33:51.160 --> 0:33:52.840 who was gonna be my point. 0:33:52.560 --> 0:33:54.360 Of contact for the event. 0:33:54.720 --> 0:33:57.760 And I was like, Jamila, I cannot tell an event 0:33:57.800 --> 0:34:00.640 planning company that the point of contact is Johnny the 0:34:00.680 --> 0:34:04.040 homeless man outside low key. Even Devin was like, oh, yeah, 0:34:04.040 --> 0:34:07.360 I think I know Johnny. Who's Devin, Johnny's baby Taddy. 0:34:07.400 --> 0:34:11.520 Oh who owns the bar down the street? The neighborhood 0:34:11.600 --> 0:34:13.960 is neighborhood, Jay, I don't care. Johnny can't be the 0:34:13.960 --> 0:34:16.279 point of contact. So we get there and like we 0:34:16.360 --> 0:34:19.239 can't get in the bar, but Johnny's there, knocked out, 0:34:19.280 --> 0:34:20.160 knocked the fuck out. 0:34:20.040 --> 0:34:23.040 In the tent. He's like the resident tent guy. 0:34:23.040 --> 0:34:25.200 The back, like he just holds down like the parking 0:34:25.239 --> 0:34:27.520 and the tent and the local bars, you know. But 0:34:27.560 --> 0:34:30.279 in Atlanta that's just like generally like there's some like 0:34:31.200 --> 0:34:32.160 there's some like I. 0:34:32.120 --> 0:34:34.440 Don't know how to say, resident thumbs. 0:34:34.680 --> 0:34:37.600 That help out the gas stations help at certain places, 0:34:37.640 --> 0:34:38.160 parking lots. 0:34:38.800 --> 0:34:41.440 Johnny's asked, So we pull up, my friend leaves us. 0:34:41.600 --> 0:34:42.600 My phone's about to die. 0:34:42.960 --> 0:34:45.240 The bar manager who promised us our stuff is inside 0:34:45.280 --> 0:34:45.800 is not answering. 0:34:45.800 --> 0:34:47.560 I'm going straight to voicemail. 0:34:47.640 --> 0:34:50.600 And the truck pulls up to pick up the riser 0:34:50.640 --> 0:34:55.520 and we're like, listen, uh, it's not open yet. 0:34:55.560 --> 0:34:57.200 Can you come back in the thirty minutes? 0:34:57.239 --> 0:34:59.640 Thirty minutes He's like, oh man, she shot it because 0:34:59.760 --> 0:35:00.760 U I don't get some breakfast. 0:35:00.760 --> 0:35:02.840 Gonta get some breakfast. We a little early anyway, come on, 0:35:02.960 --> 0:35:06.000 come on. So thank god they leave. We go across 0:35:06.040 --> 0:35:06.400 the street. 0:35:06.360 --> 0:35:08.560 We go, so I sneak into the tent. Johnny's knocked 0:35:08.600 --> 0:35:10.719 the fuck out in the tent. He's not doing shit. 0:35:11.719 --> 0:35:14.040 So we're like, so, so first of we're dehydrated and 0:35:14.160 --> 0:35:15.879 dying at first because we got drunk to night before. 0:35:16.480 --> 0:35:17.160 My phone's dead. 0:35:17.200 --> 0:35:19.080 Bar managers not answering. We have no idea in the 0:35:19.160 --> 0:35:21.160 restaurant's closed on Monday, we have no idea how we're 0:35:21.160 --> 0:35:25.600 about to get in, and some strangely enough fucking freak out. 0:35:25.640 --> 0:35:29.319 Ass Erica is not freaking out. She's like, I don't know, girl, 0:35:29.360 --> 0:35:32.759 everything's God's just worked it out thus far. He'll work 0:35:32.800 --> 0:35:33.360 it out again. 0:35:33.400 --> 0:35:35.600 And I'm like, I guess you're right. 0:35:37.160 --> 0:35:39.719 So we go across the street to like there's like 0:35:39.719 --> 0:35:43.399 a marketplace that's at indoor, like marketplace with all these 0:35:43.400 --> 0:35:44.480 different like vendors. 0:35:44.480 --> 0:35:45.440 Like it's really big and. 0:35:45.440 --> 0:35:47.800 It's really beautiful on Edgewood. And I've lived in Atlanta, 0:35:47.800 --> 0:35:49.120 I've lived in the lane in for seven years. I've 0:35:49.120 --> 0:35:50.520 never I didn't even know the shit was there. And 0:35:50.520 --> 0:35:52.400 I've been there, like on the street a lot of times. 0:35:52.719 --> 0:35:53.200 So we go in. 0:35:53.280 --> 0:35:55.040 I'm like, damn, I didn't know this was here. We 0:35:55.120 --> 0:35:57.800 go to we find a coffee shop. We're just sitting 0:35:57.840 --> 0:36:00.239 at the coffee shop like do do do do you? 0:36:00.440 --> 0:36:03.600 Like? I wonder what's gonna happen when they come back 0:36:03.640 --> 0:36:06.279 and we can't get in. And as we're sitting there 0:36:06.360 --> 0:36:09.799 Erica looks past me and she goes, oh my god. 0:36:10.000 --> 0:36:12.160 I was like what she's like, isn't that him? So 0:36:12.200 --> 0:36:15.080 I turn around like who She's like, that isn't Jamel 0:36:15.120 --> 0:36:18.080 the bar manager. I turn around and I'm like, oh 0:36:18.120 --> 0:36:19.040 my fucking god. 0:36:20.000 --> 0:36:23.560 I run out into the hallway and his two kids 0:36:23.600 --> 0:36:25.839 just embraced me, and Erica was so tight. 0:36:25.920 --> 0:36:28.319 They hug us like they know us. They gave us 0:36:28.320 --> 0:36:29.240 so much love. 0:36:29.600 --> 0:36:34.280 I was like, that's exactly how I feel. And we're like, Jamel, 0:36:34.719 --> 0:36:36.520 what are you doing here? We've been calling you. 0:36:36.560 --> 0:36:37.640 He's like, I lost my phone. 0:36:37.640 --> 0:36:40.120 Ohone stole my phone last night. So if anyone stole 0:36:40.200 --> 0:36:42.600 Jammel's phone, that is not nice. You didn't take it back. 0:36:43.760 --> 0:36:46.120 But anyway, Jammel got an extra phone and was She's like, 0:36:46.160 --> 0:36:47.440 I just came over here because I don't know how 0:36:47.480 --> 0:36:50.040 I was gonna like find you guys, and so I'm here. 0:36:50.800 --> 0:36:53.120 We hugged that Jamel so fucking hard that day. 0:36:53.200 --> 0:36:55.120 I was like, oh my god, Erica, you're right, like 0:36:55.200 --> 0:36:57.160 God really is looking out for us. 0:36:57.480 --> 0:37:00.279 So we get back to the spot, Jamel's like, I 0:37:00.320 --> 0:37:01.280 don't have the key. 0:37:01.760 --> 0:37:03.759 Yeah, the manager is supposed to meet me here. With 0:37:03.800 --> 0:37:04.160 the key. 0:37:04.400 --> 0:37:07.120 He meets me usually on Mondays. I'm like, usually on 0:37:07.200 --> 0:37:09.680 Mondays he meets you. He's like, I don't have his number, 0:37:09.760 --> 0:37:12.920 like you have number. I'm like, I don't have nobody's number. 0:37:13.960 --> 0:37:16.200 So now it's me Erica, Jamel and his two sons 0:37:16.200 --> 0:37:18.600 and Johnny and Johnny who's still sleep. 0:37:18.320 --> 0:37:19.279 Who still passed out? 0:37:19.360 --> 0:37:22.399 Johnny still we're all the time, Johnny's passed out. 0:37:22.480 --> 0:37:24.440 And my homegirl who dropped us off, who knew my 0:37:24.440 --> 0:37:27.480 phone was about to die, had delivered some waters and 0:37:27.600 --> 0:37:31.080 juice to a bench and she texts she DM does 0:37:31.120 --> 0:37:32.960 like I love some juices on that bench where I 0:37:33.040 --> 0:37:33.560 left you guys. 0:37:33.560 --> 0:37:34.839 You guys were gone when I got back. 0:37:35.600 --> 0:37:38.239 So we were like in the so we're telling We're 0:37:38.280 --> 0:37:39.439 like looking at each other, like what are we gonna 0:37:39.480 --> 0:37:40.399 do about this fucking riser. 0:37:40.440 --> 0:37:42.160 We're going during Chargers an extra day. 0:37:42.560 --> 0:37:45.120 The risers literally trapped in the basement and there's a 0:37:45.239 --> 0:37:46.120 huge lock on it. 0:37:46.160 --> 0:37:47.840 There's like a gate in four locks. 0:37:47.880 --> 0:37:49.960 So Jamel, I don't know where. 0:37:49.760 --> 0:37:51.600 This nigga from where bloodshammer. 0:37:51.719 --> 0:37:54.640 He starts banging the fuck out of the lock here 0:37:55.920 --> 0:37:58.640 literally for an hour, for an hour straight, This poor 0:37:58.760 --> 0:38:01.239 man is. First of all, he went to he went 0:38:01.280 --> 0:38:03.160 to the fire station to try to find a cutter. 0:38:03.239 --> 0:38:05.239 He went next door to some technology school where he 0:38:05.320 --> 0:38:06.600 thought he was gonna find some shit. 0:38:06.680 --> 0:38:07.640 He got tools somehow. 0:38:07.680 --> 0:38:09.560 He like went around the neighborhood and found these tools 0:38:09.800 --> 0:38:12.439 and was banging these locks. I'm like, are you gonna 0:38:12.440 --> 0:38:14.000 get in trouble for breaking the locks? 0:38:14.040 --> 0:38:15.719 He's like, no, it's fine. You need to get your 0:38:15.719 --> 0:38:16.080 shit up. 0:38:17.360 --> 0:38:19.759 And now the truck pulls back up to pick up 0:38:19.800 --> 0:38:23.080 this fucking riser and the fucking lock is not open yet. 0:38:24.080 --> 0:38:26.960 So these two guys come back and look, oh yeah, 0:38:27.040 --> 0:38:29.080 we heard that banging. Is that whatever you're doing? So 0:38:29.160 --> 0:38:31.120 you go there look at the lock. He's like, oh yeah, 0:38:31.120 --> 0:38:33.400 he almost won't get that thing open. Like, can you 0:38:33.520 --> 0:38:36.800 please come back in fifteen minutes, it's almost open. 0:38:37.600 --> 0:38:39.880 Please, He's like, well showed it. I'm taking and we 0:38:39.960 --> 0:38:42.120 can be you number. I'm like, listen, just come back 0:38:42.160 --> 0:38:47.439 and fit. As soon as they pull off, jamel Bow 0:38:47.920 --> 0:38:51.040 pops this the third lock off to the basement. 0:38:52.400 --> 0:38:54.640 I was like, it was It was a joyous moment, 0:38:54.880 --> 0:38:55.480 it really was. 0:38:55.719 --> 0:38:58.160 I was just like, God, wow, you're just trying to 0:38:58.160 --> 0:39:00.839 stress us out. And bring us through every time, trying 0:39:00.880 --> 0:39:01.880 to make a Churstian out of me. 0:39:03.760 --> 0:39:08.200 I believe, for real, for real, Like, okay, god, I 0:39:08.320 --> 0:39:08.600 get it. 0:39:08.880 --> 0:39:11.600 So we got everything out. Everything worked out. I literally 0:39:12.120 --> 0:39:14.759 went back to the house, packed up and got on 0:39:14.840 --> 0:39:17.560 a flight straight to Florida to do to go back 0:39:17.600 --> 0:39:22.759 to work. But it all worked out. And in our 0:39:22.800 --> 0:39:24.759 Atlanta trap, there are some other things outside of the 0:39:24.800 --> 0:39:25.560 show that happened. 0:39:25.719 --> 0:39:30.560 So there's this Did you write it down in your book? 0:39:30.640 --> 0:39:32.400 No, no, no, I'm just I'm not doing this right now. 0:39:32.520 --> 0:39:35.480 I was thinking about this. This there's this podcast in Atlanta. 0:39:35.719 --> 0:39:37.480 Oh, oh my god, I forgot about this part. 0:39:37.560 --> 0:39:40.160 So there's this podcast in Atlanta that I had reached 0:39:40.200 --> 0:39:42.759 out to because I thought maybe we while we were there, 0:39:42.840 --> 0:39:46.200 we could record and like do like you knows a 0:39:46.239 --> 0:39:48.080 cross podcast situation. 0:39:48.719 --> 0:39:50.239 There had been no way to do it anyway, there 0:39:50.280 --> 0:39:53.480 was absolutely no time, but we had like reached out 0:39:53.520 --> 0:39:57.400 to them and text Ericahead. 0:39:58.360 --> 0:40:00.719 Yeah, we had texted. Actually did I talk to her 0:40:00.800 --> 0:40:03.520 on the phone. I think I talked to her on 0:40:03.600 --> 0:40:03.960 the phone. 0:40:04.040 --> 0:40:04.759 I don't know. Whatever. 0:40:04.840 --> 0:40:08.759 We talked on the phone and she had asked, they're 0:40:08.840 --> 0:40:11.600 like a large they're like semi larger podcast than us. 0:40:11.719 --> 0:40:13.719 They do something they've been they've been doing like more 0:40:13.880 --> 0:40:16.279 like out of state shows than us. They've had a 0:40:16.360 --> 0:40:17.680 show longer, show longer. 0:40:17.760 --> 0:40:17.920 Yeah. 0:40:18.360 --> 0:40:19.960 So when they asked us about like where we're having 0:40:20.000 --> 0:40:22.240 our podcast, they told them that we're having a BQI Lounge, 0:40:22.320 --> 0:40:24.759 which is a bar, a bar restaurant, and they're like, oh, 0:40:24.800 --> 0:40:27.200 that's cool, and like I thought we had really cool rapport. 0:40:27.880 --> 0:40:30.120 She asked her them a couple of questions, like advice questions, 0:40:30.160 --> 0:40:31.400 like we're doing this, this is the first time thing 0:40:31.480 --> 0:40:33.040 out of town, Like what did you guys do for 0:40:33.160 --> 0:40:33.560 this or that? 0:40:33.800 --> 0:40:34.880 Maybe three questions? 0:40:35.040 --> 0:40:39.960 Right, So I happened to listen to their episode, like 0:40:40.360 --> 0:40:43.160 the week after the week after our conversation, just so 0:40:43.280 --> 0:40:46.720 happened to tune in. Yeah, and she is talking about 0:40:46.800 --> 0:40:49.520 her next show and that people need to buy tickets 0:40:49.680 --> 0:40:52.200 and she's like, you know, we're having a show. If 0:40:52.239 --> 0:40:54.080 you haven't bought tickets, make sure you buy those tickets 0:40:54.120 --> 0:40:56.600 because this isn't like those other podcasts that do pop 0:40:56.680 --> 0:40:59.480 that do bar podcasts, like where you have a podcast 0:40:59.520 --> 0:41:02.480 in a bar and if anyone can, anyone can just 0:41:02.560 --> 0:41:05.160 come and walk in. This ain't that so make sure 0:41:05.160 --> 0:41:07.360 you buy your podcast because this ain't that, honey. 0:41:07.440 --> 0:41:09.759 And I was like, oh, So immediately Erica calls me 0:41:09.880 --> 0:41:11.479 like I think this bitch is trying to throw shade. 0:41:11.520 --> 0:41:12.920 I'm like, well, what do you mean. She's like, she's 0:41:12.960 --> 0:41:14.520 talking about you know, this ain't that. 0:41:15.120 --> 0:41:16.880 She's like I had told her we were having our 0:41:17.000 --> 0:41:19.759 podcast in a bar literally like a few days before, 0:41:19.760 --> 0:41:21.799 and then this is the new episode, so I knew 0:41:21.840 --> 0:41:23.839 that it was connected. And I just felt like, Wow, 0:41:24.320 --> 0:41:27.040 that's so whack because I thought we had a good rapport. 0:41:27.480 --> 0:41:31.000 I mean, I think she's continually thought we did because. 0:41:30.760 --> 0:41:32.759 She didn't know you listen and she But I just 0:41:32.840 --> 0:41:35.080 feel like it's so lame when women feel like they 0:41:35.200 --> 0:41:38.000 have to throw someone under the bus to make themselves 0:41:38.040 --> 0:41:40.439 feel more elevated. And I actually did a little post 0:41:40.480 --> 0:41:42.400 about this on my stories around that week because I 0:41:42.520 --> 0:41:45.200 was pissed because I was just so disgusted by the 0:41:45.239 --> 0:41:47.560 fact that like, we're not even in the same genre 0:41:47.719 --> 0:41:50.120 of a podcast, like we are we don't even Yeah, 0:41:50.160 --> 0:41:52.440 we talk about similar things, but we're our podcast is 0:41:52.520 --> 0:41:55.360 rooted in the parenthood, So like, I don't even know 0:41:55.400 --> 0:41:58.120 why there's even a competition there's enough space for everyone. 0:41:58.200 --> 0:42:00.160 And that's what where I really get sad for us 0:42:00.160 --> 0:42:01.960 as women. And there's not that many black women in 0:42:02.000 --> 0:42:03.640 the podcast. Is that where we feel like we have 0:42:03.800 --> 0:42:04.520 to be little. 0:42:04.320 --> 0:42:06.080 One another because we feel like we're crabs in a 0:42:06.120 --> 0:42:08.960 barrel and we have to like fight one another or 0:42:09.320 --> 0:42:10.960 take the jabs at one another. 0:42:10.880 --> 0:42:12.560 Even if you weren't even like and that's another thing 0:42:12.560 --> 0:42:15.000 you got to jab at someone. Bitch, you better come 0:42:15.040 --> 0:42:16.480 at me all the way, you better say. 0:42:16.360 --> 0:42:18.239 The name, you better like. And I don't like the 0:42:19.239 --> 0:42:21.239 subliminal subliminals. Yeah, I'm not into that. 0:42:21.440 --> 0:42:23.960 So I saw that shit and I was like, all right, bitch, well, 0:42:24.000 --> 0:42:25.560 I'm definitely not hitting you up when I come. 0:42:26.160 --> 0:42:28.040 So she had messaged me like. 0:42:28.160 --> 0:42:29.560 Oh, hey, I heard you. 0:42:29.960 --> 0:42:31.480 I saw you're in town, like I want to come 0:42:31.520 --> 0:42:33.239 to the show. And I was like cool. 0:42:33.360 --> 0:42:36.320 She's like, she said, are you selling tickets or is 0:42:36.360 --> 0:42:37.680 it free? And I said tickets? 0:42:37.880 --> 0:42:39.200 Lol? You said that? 0:42:39.440 --> 0:42:39.600 Yeah. 0:42:39.719 --> 0:42:41.880 Yeah, I'm like, bitch, fuck you. 0:42:42.360 --> 0:42:44.240 So I was like tickets all and she's like oh okay, 0:42:44.320 --> 0:42:45.960 and then she kind of like didn't say anything. She's like, Okay, 0:42:46.000 --> 0:42:47.680 I guess I'm gonna go get my ticket, and I 0:42:47.719 --> 0:42:49.840 didn't respond. I'm like, yeah, bitch, you better buy that. 0:42:49.880 --> 0:42:53.399 God says, you ain't gonna get no free pass over here. 0:42:53.480 --> 0:42:55.960 You might have you might have gotten like because I 0:42:56.040 --> 0:42:57.480 wanted them to come, but then I was like, you 0:42:57.520 --> 0:42:59.239 know what, let me not. I'm glad they didn't because 0:42:59.239 --> 0:43:01.880 they probably would have like tried to like I don't know. 0:43:02.120 --> 0:43:03.879 I mean, they would talk shit, probably would have talked 0:43:03.880 --> 0:43:06.359 talk shit because my idea, I said, oh, yeah, I'll 0:43:06.360 --> 0:43:07.080 tell a bitch to come. 0:43:07.080 --> 0:43:08.839 I would have gladly had liked her to come because 0:43:08.880 --> 0:43:11.520 I wanted to be on stage and be like, did 0:43:11.560 --> 0:43:12.799 you check her ticket at the door? 0:43:13.040 --> 0:43:16.800 Specifically this one, I'm sorting yeah, because it's not that 0:43:16.920 --> 0:43:19.719 type of show I would like I prefer and I've 0:43:19.760 --> 0:43:23.160 realized this in all of the confrontations I've had or 0:43:23.239 --> 0:43:25.480 didn't have this week. I would prefer people to talk 0:43:25.680 --> 0:43:28.680 directly to me if you have some bullshit to side, 0:43:28.960 --> 0:43:30.880 which just seems not the case with women. 0:43:31.360 --> 0:43:34.879 It's unfortunate, and so I just whatever. So anyway, fast 0:43:34.920 --> 0:43:38.399 forward to the night of our show. We go out 0:43:38.680 --> 0:43:41.279 and we like to bone who was like, who's our DJ? 0:43:41.400 --> 0:43:44.960 Which also so divine as well because I actually met 0:43:45.000 --> 0:43:48.360 to Bone maybe like eight years ago in Atlanta. I 0:43:48.480 --> 0:43:50.719 was shooting a movie and like I was out there 0:43:50.800 --> 0:43:54.440 by myself and would I happened to go to this 0:43:54.560 --> 0:43:57.200 bar alone because I literally didn't know anyone. And I'm 0:43:57.200 --> 0:43:59.480 sitting there like eating alone and he comes up to 0:43:59.560 --> 0:44:02.040 me and he was like, hey, what's up. I'm to 0:44:02.120 --> 0:44:04.080 Bone and I'll never forget because I'm like, you don't 0:44:04.080 --> 0:44:06.040 forget that name. And also his hair was like very 0:44:06.200 --> 0:44:08.719 distinct at the time, and we exchanged information and we 0:44:08.840 --> 0:44:11.680 always like message music to each other for a while, 0:44:12.080 --> 0:44:13.880 and then I lost track of him. And then Jamila 0:44:14.000 --> 0:44:16.040 was like Tabone's gonna DJ. This guy DJ to Bone 0:44:16.080 --> 0:44:17.600 is djaying our shit, and I was like, shut the 0:44:17.719 --> 0:44:18.120 fuck up. 0:44:18.200 --> 0:44:19.239 That can't be the same person. 0:44:19.280 --> 0:44:20.720 She's like, what does he look like? And I described 0:44:20.760 --> 0:44:22.400 him and she's like, oh my god, I've met him. 0:44:22.640 --> 0:44:22.839 Yeah. 0:44:23.239 --> 0:44:25.720 So anyway, he invites us out to this little party 0:44:25.840 --> 0:44:27.400 that he's was he DJing. 0:44:27.400 --> 0:44:29.160 I don't remember some shit he was doing. 0:44:29.960 --> 0:44:35.360 And I see this girl from the podcast walking down 0:44:36.480 --> 0:44:39.200 walking towards us down out of the out of the club, 0:44:39.600 --> 0:44:41.560 and she saw me. 0:44:42.360 --> 0:44:43.200 I saw her. Hi. 0:44:43.640 --> 0:44:45.440 I didn't say a guy I didn't say shit to her. 0:44:45.600 --> 0:44:49.279 No, no, but like I just thought it was so funny, like, bitch, yeah, 0:44:49.280 --> 0:44:52.040 you didn't buy that ticket because you're not really a supporter, 0:44:52.440 --> 0:44:54.480 you don't really give a fuck, and you're actually a hater. 0:44:54.840 --> 0:44:55.560 You're actually a hater. 0:44:55.719 --> 0:44:59.000 That's really it's the first thing, the most important thing 0:44:59.000 --> 0:44:59.920 overall is that you're a hater. 0:45:00.280 --> 0:45:02.960 And she didn't speak because she also probably knew she 0:45:03.040 --> 0:45:03.359 was a hater. 0:45:03.640 --> 0:45:06.239 Yeah, it just it was just whack overall, and I'm 0:45:06.280 --> 0:45:08.480 just so disappointed. She just thinks, did you see her, 0:45:08.520 --> 0:45:11.160 like even hesitate to maybe speak. No, I don't know, 0:45:11.400 --> 0:45:12.279 I don't know, I don't know. 0:45:12.440 --> 0:45:14.560 It's just whack. I know she saw me. 0:45:15.600 --> 0:45:18.920 She she quickly went downstairs with her whack guss. So 0:45:19.840 --> 0:45:23.600 I just feel like it's really unfortunate, and unfortunately we've 0:45:23.680 --> 0:45:26.320 encountered this a few times in the process of you know, 0:45:26.440 --> 0:45:31.800 building this our shit, where women appear to want to 0:45:31.840 --> 0:45:37.439 help you or they have these empowering platforms and they're 0:45:37.480 --> 0:45:40.960 actually the meanest ones. They're actually the most hating ass ones, 0:45:41.520 --> 0:45:45.440 and it's unfortunate. But I you know, everything happens for 0:45:45.440 --> 0:45:47.920 a reason. You know, maybe like she wasn't supposed to 0:45:47.920 --> 0:45:49.640 be there because she was gonna try and steal aspects 0:45:49.680 --> 0:45:55.200 of our sham and uh, I send her love, I 0:45:55.320 --> 0:45:58.840 send her peace because I don't ever wish poorly on anyone. 0:45:59.400 --> 0:46:01.360 But you know, it's really a reflection of you and 0:46:01.440 --> 0:46:04.160 has nothing to do with me. So that happened in Atlanta. 0:46:04.800 --> 0:46:07.680 There's been a lot of things I think that I've 0:46:07.800 --> 0:46:12.920 had to like not personalize and then recognize, like some things, 0:46:13.400 --> 0:46:16.480 a lot of things, most things are a reflection of 0:46:16.600 --> 0:46:17.480 other people, not you. 0:46:18.120 --> 0:46:20.920 People will project shit on you and be mean and 0:46:21.040 --> 0:46:23.360 be this, but it's because it's their life. They're ugly insides. 0:46:25.239 --> 0:46:25.640 I don't know. 0:46:25.760 --> 0:46:27.840 Yeah, I don't know what. I don't know what it 0:46:28.000 --> 0:46:30.279 is about us that she feels threatened by. 0:46:30.480 --> 0:46:34.440 I mean that we have a ball mask community, that 0:46:34.520 --> 0:46:37.680 we're multidimensional and not just one type of podcast that 0:46:37.800 --> 0:46:39.960 we can talk about all different types of things. I 0:46:40.000 --> 0:46:43.480 don't know, but that's a personal problem. And I will 0:46:43.520 --> 0:46:45.839 never ever ever go on her podcast and she will 0:46:45.880 --> 0:46:46.520 never be online. 0:46:47.000 --> 0:46:52.720 So that's cool. Anyway. 0:46:53.120 --> 0:46:56.080 What else happened Atlanta? I just want I went on 0:46:56.360 --> 0:46:57.280 I went on a date. 0:47:01.320 --> 0:47:04.560 With a someone who listens to the podcast that found 0:47:04.600 --> 0:47:06.680 me through the podcast that I have not I had 0:47:06.760 --> 0:47:08.160 never met in person. 0:47:08.920 --> 0:47:10.680 Oh yeah, that was your first time meeting. 0:47:10.480 --> 0:47:15.920 Him, and uh that was interesting. 0:47:16.360 --> 0:47:17.480 I popped up on her date. 0:47:18.600 --> 0:47:20.000 Not only did I pop up, our other two friends 0:47:20.000 --> 0:47:21.640 were already there and I just happened to be at 0:47:21.640 --> 0:47:23.560 dinner next door. I was joking that I was gonna 0:47:23.560 --> 0:47:25.480 pop up, but I'm like, ohait right next door, I'm 0:47:25.560 --> 0:47:26.560 definitely popping up. 0:47:28.080 --> 0:47:29.080 And I was also on a date. 0:47:30.560 --> 0:47:33.000 I'm done a lot of dates, and I did a 0:47:33.080 --> 0:47:36.120 lot of twenty year old Jamila things. 0:47:36.320 --> 0:47:38.000 Just I went to Starbar on Tuesday. 0:47:38.000 --> 0:47:39.840 If you're in Atlanta, I've never been a Starbar on Tuesday, 0:47:39.880 --> 0:47:42.880 I'm little five points, It's bomb it Cisco music MJQ. 0:47:43.040 --> 0:47:46.120 On Wednesday, I did that too, all the classic Atlanta things. 0:47:48.600 --> 0:47:52.520 I got some head in the car on Peachtree. 0:47:54.480 --> 0:47:54.760 Great. 0:47:54.880 --> 0:47:56.560 Yeah, like one of these I've ever known one of these, 0:47:56.640 --> 0:48:00.840 like if you're driving, wait with you? Yeah, like he 0:48:00.960 --> 0:48:02.919 was driving, and then I was in the passenger seat 0:48:02.960 --> 0:48:04.440 and then wait, he. 0:48:04.600 --> 0:48:07.840 Was driving the car? Yes, what was he like checking 0:48:07.880 --> 0:48:08.920 in back and floors? 0:48:08.960 --> 0:48:11.560 Like if it like, what the fuck was happening here? 0:48:11.680 --> 0:48:13.840 If there was if the light turned red. I like 0:48:14.080 --> 0:48:17.399 leaned my body up against Oh my god, I wish. 0:48:17.480 --> 0:48:20.240 Okay, well, if you drawn our Patreon, you can definitely 0:48:20.360 --> 0:48:22.640 see what's happening because Jamila's showing me. 0:48:22.800 --> 0:48:23.080 Okay. 0:48:23.360 --> 0:48:24.440 So he's driving and he's like. 0:48:24.560 --> 0:48:26.200 Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah yeah. 0:48:26.400 --> 0:48:27.480 Oh that's a good one. 0:48:27.680 --> 0:48:30.120 Yeah okay, And then we pulled over. Wait was this 0:48:30.200 --> 0:48:30.799 after my dan? 0:48:30.960 --> 0:48:31.120 Yeah? 0:48:31.160 --> 0:48:33.000 Okay, because you told me that because I sent Jamila home. 0:48:33.080 --> 0:48:34.600 Yeah, they weren't allowing me to go out. They were 0:48:34.640 --> 0:48:36.719 going out. They're like, you have to I had to 0:48:36.719 --> 0:48:39.320 bring the furniture. You hadn't slept. Oh, I hadn't slept. 0:48:39.400 --> 0:48:41.239 You told me you haven't slept in twenty four hours, 0:48:41.280 --> 0:48:42.360 and you were trying to go out with us. And 0:48:42.400 --> 0:48:43.879 our show was the next day, and I was like, bitch, 0:48:43.960 --> 0:48:44.399 go home. 0:48:44.680 --> 0:48:45.600 So I had to go home. 0:48:45.680 --> 0:48:47.239 And I told that guy like, well, mama had to 0:48:47.239 --> 0:48:49.080 come to your house because Erica told me no. But 0:48:49.800 --> 0:48:51.239 if you want to figure something out in the way, 0:48:52.400 --> 0:48:53.280 And so we did. 0:48:54.360 --> 0:48:58.840 Pulled over, got a little, got not little, got some 0:48:59.040 --> 0:49:01.480 D in the car. I like exciting sex, so that 0:49:01.680 --> 0:49:04.640 was fun. And then he dropped me off. 0:49:08.120 --> 0:49:11.720 And the next day, Yeah, I went to get an outfit, 0:49:11.920 --> 0:49:14.279 pick up that furniture, drop it off, meet up with 0:49:14.400 --> 0:49:16.319 you to go to the show. 0:49:16.640 --> 0:49:17.480 What else happened? 0:49:17.560 --> 0:49:19.080 I met up with an ex girlfriend, one of my 0:49:19.280 --> 0:49:22.040 first girlfriends I've ever had, who is so sweet and 0:49:22.040 --> 0:49:23.719 I hadn't seen her a long time, but same, she 0:49:23.880 --> 0:49:26.960 was just like, I can never forget you ever since 0:49:27.000 --> 0:49:27.759 this relationship. 0:49:28.320 --> 0:49:29.960 I was just like, very deep and I had not 0:49:30.040 --> 0:49:33.360 thought about it in ten years. But it also reminded 0:49:33.400 --> 0:49:35.240 me like, I'm such I am kind of a lesbian. 0:49:35.280 --> 0:49:36.560 Because we had some lesbian sex. 0:49:36.640 --> 0:49:39.640 I was kind of bomb. It was good. 0:49:39.680 --> 0:49:40.920 I wasn't mad at I was like, oh, yeah, this 0:49:41.040 --> 0:49:44.840 is fine city in lesbian you when they used to be. 0:49:49.000 --> 0:49:49.640 Anything else? 0:49:53.760 --> 0:49:55.359 No, oh well then we had so then we had 0:49:55.719 --> 0:49:58.320 one of the guys. So one of the when we 0:49:58.400 --> 0:50:00.360 have this male listener, I don't even know if he's listener. 0:50:00.400 --> 0:50:03.880 Actually I think he. I don't think he listens. I 0:50:03.920 --> 0:50:06.640 think he just like looks at our Instagram. Oh really, 0:50:07.080 --> 0:50:08.040 I don't think he listened. 0:50:08.040 --> 0:50:08.920 Okay, oh yeah, she could. 0:50:09.480 --> 0:50:13.760 Sugarho and we call him sugar. We call him sugar 0:50:14.360 --> 0:50:15.080 because he. 0:50:15.480 --> 0:50:18.439 Sends us nuds, he sends us nuts and his dick 0:50:19.200 --> 0:50:22.239 is huge, and he lives in Atlanta, and he's been 0:50:22.280 --> 0:50:24.239 like waiting to like come to one to come to 0:50:24.320 --> 0:50:27.360 our show. And he showed up to our show and 0:50:27.760 --> 0:50:29.680 I appairly got to talk to him. He was like 0:50:29.840 --> 0:50:32.920 kind of lurking around, like trying to like connect with us, 0:50:33.000 --> 0:50:33.359 but there. 0:50:33.320 --> 0:50:38.400 Was like a lot happening, so much happening, so kind 0:50:38.400 --> 0:50:40.319 of cute. He's really cute. I messaged him a few 0:50:40.360 --> 0:50:44.239 times after. I was like, what are you doing? What 0:50:45.360 --> 0:50:46.600 I told him? 0:50:46.600 --> 0:50:48.279 I was like, oh my god, it's getting over. I'm 0:50:48.320 --> 0:50:50.160 let me call you that because we can't pronounce your 0:50:50.200 --> 0:50:53.279 Instagram name. He's like, my name is whatever his name. 0:50:53.239 --> 0:50:54.560 Is, And I was like, look Erica. 0:50:56.440 --> 0:51:00.279 Still continued to call him that, and he he's by 0:51:00.360 --> 0:51:02.719 before his birthday, like he was having a birthday something 0:51:02.719 --> 0:51:03.120 people were. 0:51:03.520 --> 0:51:04.800 He told me like he was. He went to a 0:51:04.880 --> 0:51:05.479 birthday party. 0:51:05.560 --> 0:51:09.560 It was it was for him. Shut up, Oh my god, 0:51:09.719 --> 0:51:09.920 I know. 0:51:12.920 --> 0:51:14.920 And then and then my the guy that I went 0:51:15.000 --> 0:51:16.360 on the date with didn't even make it to the 0:51:16.400 --> 0:51:18.560 show because they got in a fucking car accident on 0:51:18.680 --> 0:51:19.120 the way there. 0:51:21.040 --> 0:51:23.040 Shout out to him, Hi, what's up. 0:51:24.640 --> 0:51:25.520 I mean. 0:51:25.560 --> 0:51:27.279 I had a couple of good dates, I had a 0:51:27.280 --> 0:51:27.640 good time. 0:51:31.160 --> 0:51:33.120 What else I don't know. 0:51:33.320 --> 0:51:36.040 I just I just like also like just going back 0:51:36.040 --> 0:51:38.040 to the show, like I couldn't believe that women drove 0:51:38.800 --> 0:51:40.080 from like far places to. 0:51:40.080 --> 0:51:43.759 Come to Tennessee to like like Nashville. 0:51:43.840 --> 0:51:45.000 So I couldn't believe that. 0:51:45.480 --> 0:51:46.960 Like this one woman even came up to me and 0:51:47.040 --> 0:51:49.240 like got emotional because she was talking about our episode 0:51:49.280 --> 0:51:54.080 with uh the Black Midwife. Oh my god, I came 0:51:54.120 --> 0:51:56.239 Why am I drawing a blank on her name right now? 0:51:58.040 --> 0:51:59.959 Rasha Hani. 0:52:00.760 --> 0:52:03.040 That's a lot of people's favorite episode. Yeah, my friend Sidney, 0:52:03.080 --> 0:52:04.800 who's not even black, loves that episode. 0:52:04.880 --> 0:52:05.040 Yeah. 0:52:05.160 --> 0:52:07.800 She was just saying she was talking about her birthing 0:52:07.880 --> 0:52:09.919 story and it was just so cool. 0:52:12.480 --> 0:52:14.360 But aside from all those things in. 0:52:14.400 --> 0:52:19.200 Atlanta, after Atlanta, which I was so depressed, like I think. 0:52:19.160 --> 0:52:24.080 Like everything, all the anxieties, all of like settled adrenaline, 0:52:24.680 --> 0:52:26.480 all the things that kind of had been neglecting over 0:52:26.520 --> 0:52:29.000 the last two months because I've been putting so much 0:52:29.200 --> 0:52:29.920 energy into. 0:52:29.760 --> 0:52:32.160 This kind of all hit me at once. 0:52:32.760 --> 0:52:35.040 Because after I left Atlanta, I went to Florida and 0:52:35.080 --> 0:52:39.680 I was alone, and I just felt so heavy and 0:52:39.840 --> 0:52:43.680 overwhelmed and like sad, and I just had to, like 0:52:44.719 --> 0:52:46.400 I feel better now, but like there's just been a 0:52:46.440 --> 0:52:50.120 few a few things like that have been unsettling for me, 0:52:50.440 --> 0:52:55.799 with like my Dirie's dad and like thinking that I'm 0:52:55.880 --> 0:52:57.320 over it when I'm really not. 0:52:57.880 --> 0:52:58.359 Like I thought. 0:52:58.520 --> 0:53:01.200 I really thought like I was really moving I am 0:53:01.360 --> 0:53:03.520 moving forward and I have been moving forward, but there's 0:53:03.560 --> 0:53:05.960 things about our relationship that I'm still holding on to. 0:53:06.280 --> 0:53:08.480 And it wasn't It was only brought to my attention 0:53:08.560 --> 0:53:11.160 after I finally like got so much of the stress 0:53:11.200 --> 0:53:12.719 that I've been dealing with out of the way, and 0:53:12.760 --> 0:53:13.880 then I had to get back to like. 0:53:14.120 --> 0:53:15.640 Reality, and. 0:53:19.000 --> 0:53:21.719 I just like all just kind of hit me. And 0:53:23.920 --> 0:53:25.319 also like thinking about like. 0:53:27.760 --> 0:53:32.160 Just there was there was this thing that came out yesterday, 0:53:32.280 --> 0:53:34.759 this other podcast that had him on that like really 0:53:34.840 --> 0:53:39.279 triggered me. And I wasn't doing it, no, but just 0:53:39.360 --> 0:53:45.160 the title of it just triggered me. And the fact 0:53:45.200 --> 0:53:46.560 that I knew he was going to be on there 0:53:46.680 --> 0:53:51.360 talking about all of his sex just made me. Escapades 0:53:51.520 --> 0:53:54.239 just made me feel really weird, even though like I 0:53:54.320 --> 0:53:57.239 talked about my IX escapades, So like I can't really 0:53:57.320 --> 0:53:58.360 be I can't be upset. 0:53:58.160 --> 0:54:02.120 About any of it. Together, right, but it's still triggering. 0:54:02.239 --> 0:54:03.000 It's just triggering. 0:54:03.400 --> 0:54:06.759 And he had mentioned something about our podcast, like me 0:54:06.960 --> 0:54:11.560 saying something that he's offended by, which I don't know 0:54:11.680 --> 0:54:15.399 which one of you motherfucker's listening is reporting my shit 0:54:15.560 --> 0:54:18.600 to my baby daddy, but if so, fuck you and 0:54:18.640 --> 0:54:19.360 stop listening. 0:54:19.520 --> 0:54:19.800 Thank you. 0:54:22.719 --> 0:54:24.839 It's just like it was just like all a lot. 0:54:25.520 --> 0:54:28.719 And I called my mom yesterday because I was like 0:54:28.880 --> 0:54:33.640 just upset and like crying, and she's like, well, she's like, 0:54:33.719 --> 0:54:35.640 you know it's She's like, it took me ten years 0:54:35.680 --> 0:54:36.520 to get over your dad. 0:54:36.760 --> 0:54:38.080 I was like ten years. 0:54:38.600 --> 0:54:40.239 Yeah, I was like ten. 0:54:40.400 --> 0:54:41.759 I was like, you only were with him for like 0:54:41.840 --> 0:54:43.800 two and a half. I was like I was with 0:54:44.280 --> 0:54:46.800 mine for like seven years. And she's like, it's not 0:54:46.880 --> 0:54:49.040 about the time, it's about how deep it was, how 0:54:49.080 --> 0:54:51.160 deep your love is for that person. I was like, well, fuck, 0:54:51.280 --> 0:54:53.480 my shit was deep as fuck, So what does that 0:54:53.560 --> 0:54:56.279 mean for me? Like, and it's not even that I 0:54:56.360 --> 0:54:58.640 really want it. It's not that I I don't know 0:54:58.680 --> 0:55:01.480 there's I think it's like the mourning of like I'm 0:55:01.520 --> 0:55:03.960 still mourning though, what it could what it' sh what 0:55:04.040 --> 0:55:07.040 I felt like it should have been, and what I 0:55:07.320 --> 0:55:10.279 deserve and what I want and she was like, you know, 0:55:10.560 --> 0:55:12.040 and I told her, I was like, I don't want 0:55:12.560 --> 0:55:15.080 to have to ha start a relationship with someone to 0:55:15.160 --> 0:55:15.640 get over it. 0:55:15.760 --> 0:55:17.640 I want to be strong enough to be alone on 0:55:17.760 --> 0:55:19.640 my own to move past it. 0:55:20.400 --> 0:55:21.759 And she's like, a y. 0:55:21.920 --> 0:55:25.080 She's like yeah, and that's important, but like also you 0:55:25.200 --> 0:55:27.600 might meet someone along the way that helps, and that's okay. 0:55:28.080 --> 0:55:29.640 What are you watching oursha Yeah? 0:55:29.640 --> 0:55:32.719 Ok yeah, And so she was like, you know what 0:55:32.760 --> 0:55:35.719 you need to do, Erica, You need to just and 0:55:35.800 --> 0:55:37.560 she's like, I know you talk a lot about manifesting, 0:55:37.800 --> 0:55:40.840 like you need to like really think about what you want. 0:55:40.719 --> 0:55:43.160 Out of a man, like every little detail. 0:55:43.320 --> 0:55:45.759 And she said specifically, and this really stuck with me, 0:55:46.000 --> 0:55:49.279 was like, don't be modest, don't be afraid to ask 0:55:49.400 --> 0:55:51.600 for the big things. Don't be afraid, I know what 0:55:51.680 --> 0:55:53.520 she was saying, don't be afraid to say like R 0:55:53.680 --> 0:55:54.359 needs to be rich. 0:55:54.520 --> 0:55:56.600 Yeah, yeah, that's okay. 0:55:57.440 --> 0:55:59.480 And I was like, you're so right, because I spent 0:55:59.600 --> 0:56:01.239 so much time I'm talking about all the things I 0:56:01.360 --> 0:56:04.239 don't want, all things I won't put up with that 0:56:04.320 --> 0:56:06.759 I never really talk about the things that I really 0:56:06.840 --> 0:56:07.719 really truly. 0:56:07.560 --> 0:56:09.719 Do want And I told Jamila last night. 0:56:09.760 --> 0:56:11.600 I was like, Okay, tomorrow's episode, we're going to talk 0:56:11.600 --> 0:56:13.480 about Atlanta, but I also want to talk I want 0:56:13.480 --> 0:56:16.520 to like set in Stone and say the things out loud, 0:56:17.120 --> 0:56:19.080 the things that I want to manifest for my man. 0:56:19.360 --> 0:56:20.720 And I was like, I want to be like Sierra, 0:56:20.840 --> 0:56:23.439 because Sierra talked about this. She did, she talked about 0:56:23.480 --> 0:56:26.320 the asked God. She asked God and she got be 0:56:26.360 --> 0:56:28.680 coming through. Someone asked her like, how the fuck did 0:56:28.719 --> 0:56:31.680 you get in Whistle and She's like, I literally asked 0:56:31.800 --> 0:56:36.200 specifically for things and I really thought about it, yes, 0:56:36.280 --> 0:56:37.640 or like what are those things? Like? 0:56:37.800 --> 0:56:40.080 There are like the oh, I want you to be funny. 0:56:40.200 --> 0:56:43.440 I want you to like support my dreams to be honest. 0:56:46.160 --> 0:56:48.920 And in ways I feel like I've I've encountered men 0:56:49.040 --> 0:56:51.279 that encompass certain things that I didn't get out of 0:56:51.320 --> 0:56:53.640 my last relationship. But there's a lot of things that 0:56:53.760 --> 0:56:56.080 I feel like I haven't found that. I even told Jamala, like, 0:56:56.440 --> 0:56:59.480 when what is the work that we're doing to get 0:56:59.520 --> 0:56:59.920 those men? 0:57:00.640 --> 0:57:00.800 You know? 0:57:00.920 --> 0:57:02.800 Because like we we ask all these things and we 0:57:02.880 --> 0:57:04.920 want all those things, and they might be right there, 0:57:05.120 --> 0:57:09.600 but we're not appealing, appealing to them because we haven't 0:57:09.840 --> 0:57:12.880 worked on this and this and that, and like, so 0:57:13.800 --> 0:57:15.759 I was just thinking about like I asked Remal, I 0:57:15.800 --> 0:57:17.600 was like, so we should think about like what it is, 0:57:17.760 --> 0:57:20.000 like what is it that we want? And for me, 0:57:20.200 --> 0:57:22.720 like again, like I want this healing to come and 0:57:22.800 --> 0:57:25.000 I've been healing on my own for a while now, 0:57:25.040 --> 0:57:26.760 and I don't want it to be in this in 0:57:26.880 --> 0:57:28.640 the in the form of a man that comes in 0:57:28.800 --> 0:57:32.959 and saves me from whatever the residual sadness I still 0:57:33.160 --> 0:57:34.760 have for for him. 0:57:37.720 --> 0:57:41.000 But I also don't want to. 0:57:41.280 --> 0:57:44.080 Not think about what I want, like you know, and 0:57:44.240 --> 0:57:48.880 not and not and not be like true to myself 0:57:48.920 --> 0:57:51.240 and saying, yeah, it's someone I do want a relationship. 0:57:51.840 --> 0:57:54.960 Well, I realized in this trip that first of when 0:57:54.960 --> 0:57:57.200 I got back on the plane, I felt really drained, 0:57:57.760 --> 0:57:59.400 and it reminded me of how I felt a lot 0:57:59.480 --> 0:58:01.840 of times I live there because there were so many 0:58:01.920 --> 0:58:04.560 people that I gave energy to and that's a part 0:58:04.560 --> 0:58:07.760 of it is me because I kind of take from 0:58:07.800 --> 0:58:08.120 that too. 0:58:09.120 --> 0:58:11.200 But even being reaffirmed by. 0:58:11.120 --> 0:58:13.920 People who were significant in my life but not as 0:58:13.960 --> 0:58:16.400 significant as I think as I were in their lives, 0:58:16.880 --> 0:58:19.560 but them validating me, even friends, like this is what 0:58:19.600 --> 0:58:20.480 you're supposed to be doing. 0:58:20.520 --> 0:58:22.040 I'm so happy to see you in this space. This 0:58:22.200 --> 0:58:24.200 seems really aligned with who you are. 0:58:24.320 --> 0:58:27.160 I knew that you had bigger things, you know, like 0:58:27.520 --> 0:58:29.400 I knew that this was something like I knew that 0:58:29.520 --> 0:58:31.080 you had this or that, or you were this person, 0:58:31.120 --> 0:58:34.120 that you were special, and people who love me validating 0:58:34.200 --> 0:58:37.400 me reminded me like it's okay not to be modest, 0:58:37.680 --> 0:58:40.400 Like I'm a good person, I'm a people are like 0:58:41.360 --> 0:58:44.680 people seek me because I'm a giver and I have 0:58:44.840 --> 0:58:48.800 things to provide and to give, and so say, speaking 0:58:48.840 --> 0:58:51.440 about not being modest about the things you want, I 0:58:51.560 --> 0:58:53.600 have no reason, like you have no reason to be 0:58:53.640 --> 0:58:54.720 modest about the things we want. 0:58:54.960 --> 0:58:56.880 And granted we're not exactly where we want to be, 0:58:57.240 --> 0:58:58.800 we both realize. 0:58:58.440 --> 0:58:59.960 That there's girl friend things to happen, and there's things 0:59:00.120 --> 0:59:02.560 that need to be attained to get to those places. 0:59:03.040 --> 0:59:05.840 But I also don't feel like I don't because I 0:59:05.880 --> 0:59:07.440 thought about this. I don't feel like I need a 0:59:07.560 --> 0:59:10.800 man to like bring me out of anything. And I 0:59:11.600 --> 0:59:12.200 for sure have. 0:59:12.280 --> 0:59:15.080 Attachments like you know you already know to my baby 0:59:15.160 --> 0:59:17.320 daddy into that situation, and as I think a lot 0:59:17.400 --> 0:59:21.800 of baby moms do, despite the fact that it was 0:59:22.040 --> 0:59:25.400 a very abusive relationship, I still love him, and that 0:59:25.480 --> 0:59:26.480 has a lot to say about me. 0:59:26.760 --> 0:59:29.120 But I do kind of feel like if I could. 0:59:29.120 --> 0:59:31.560 If I could bring the right person, find the right 0:59:31.600 --> 0:59:33.400 person in align with the right person with all the 0:59:33.480 --> 0:59:36.320 things that I really want, I don't think there's anything 0:59:36.360 --> 0:59:38.600 wrong with that helping you heal. I don't think there's 0:59:38.600 --> 0:59:40.520 anything wrong with that helping you realize, Oh, this is 0:59:40.600 --> 0:59:43.280 what I deserve and this is not. And sometimes when 0:59:43.280 --> 0:59:45.959 we're used to certain things, we gravitate towards that because 0:59:46.000 --> 0:59:49.280 we're comfortable with it, and it just it was just 0:59:49.480 --> 0:59:53.560 like the whole trip overall, like was affirmative but also 0:59:53.680 --> 0:59:56.240 draining in a good way because it made me realize, like. 0:59:57.360 --> 0:59:59.560 I have energy, positive good energy to give. 1:00:00.120 --> 1:00:04.080 It needs to be focused and deliberated towards the people 1:00:04.200 --> 1:00:07.800 that deserve it, and I deserve that exchange, and it deserves. 1:00:07.520 --> 1:00:08.640 To be an even exchange. 1:00:08.840 --> 1:00:10.880 And if that is what needs to happen to help 1:00:10.920 --> 1:00:14.600 me move away from the toxic relationship that I'm somewhat 1:00:14.640 --> 1:00:16.360 still attached to, that's cool. 1:00:16.760 --> 1:00:17.520 I'm okay with that. 1:00:17.680 --> 1:00:19.320 And I'm not saying I need it to grow or 1:00:19.360 --> 1:00:21.120 to get to the next level, because obviously I'm still 1:00:21.160 --> 1:00:22.160 going to continue to do that. 1:00:22.720 --> 1:00:24.320 But I'm, like you said, like your mom said, I'm 1:00:24.360 --> 1:00:24.680 not going. 1:00:24.600 --> 1:00:26.320 To be modest about the things that I want because 1:00:26.360 --> 1:00:30.640 I realized, like people overall are just like you can't 1:00:30.680 --> 1:00:32.760 be like, oh, I'm the shit. You can't be like, oh, 1:00:32.840 --> 1:00:35.360 that's because that's a really great quality of mine. Like people, 1:00:35.720 --> 1:00:37.920 I haven't been really taught to be that way, and 1:00:38.000 --> 1:00:40.000 most people aren't. I would most some people are, but 1:00:41.120 --> 1:00:43.280 it's okay. I think the more we hone in on 1:00:43.800 --> 1:00:45.320 what we deserve, well, I. 1:00:45.320 --> 1:00:47.080 Think a lot of times when people are single, when 1:00:47.120 --> 1:00:49.720 people are asking like what do you want in a relationship, 1:00:49.720 --> 1:00:50.960 people are like, oh, you're never going to find the 1:00:50.960 --> 1:00:53.800 perfect person, so you can't ask for that. You can't 1:00:53.840 --> 1:00:55.880 ask for this and that, Like if you didn't get this, 1:00:55.960 --> 1:00:58.000 would you accept that? So I think that's where it's like, 1:00:58.320 --> 1:01:00.920 well we start, we start talking about relationships in a 1:01:01.000 --> 1:01:03.800 place of like already a deficit like okay, I can't ask. 1:01:03.640 --> 1:01:05.120 For that, right, Well, you know, he doesn't have to 1:01:05.160 --> 1:01:07.520 be so rich. That's not like, oh, you're a gold digger. 1:01:07.520 --> 1:01:09.360 Okay, you want a six pack and a big dick, relax, 1:01:09.440 --> 1:01:11.400 calm down, you can't have and a big wallaway and 1:01:11.520 --> 1:01:13.280 a big wallet. Oh and he's got to make you laugh. 1:01:13.400 --> 1:01:14.920 Oh and he's got to love your child as well. 1:01:15.120 --> 1:01:17.760 Calm down, like, oh and he's got to love his family. Oh. 1:01:18.080 --> 1:01:20.080 Like he's got to be thoughtful and romantic. 1:01:20.640 --> 1:01:20.840 Yeah. 1:01:21.640 --> 1:01:23.960 I want all those things absolutely. 1:01:23.720 --> 1:01:26.240 Like you know, all those things that doesn't they don't 1:01:26.280 --> 1:01:29.240 have to show up immediately and within. But I want 1:01:29.320 --> 1:01:30.400 someone that wants. 1:01:30.200 --> 1:01:31.280 To grow with me. 1:01:31.520 --> 1:01:33.720 Yeah, and has the ability to do so. 1:01:34.200 --> 1:01:36.840 And I always say this, I kind of need and 1:01:37.040 --> 1:01:39.720 want someone who maybe is a little older than me, 1:01:39.800 --> 1:01:42.200 maybe is a little bit more established than me, because bitch, 1:01:42.320 --> 1:01:43.120 I need a mentor. 1:01:43.240 --> 1:01:45.600 Okay, but even that not maybe you have to be 1:01:45.680 --> 1:01:46.680 specific like I do. 1:01:47.000 --> 1:01:47.240 I do. 1:01:47.440 --> 1:01:49.760 There are things that I areas I need help in 1:01:50.080 --> 1:01:52.800 and I would benefit from a partner that are motivated 1:01:52.840 --> 1:01:54.440 in the areas that I'm not motivated. 1:01:54.560 --> 1:01:56.000 I would benefit like I feel like in my. 1:01:56.040 --> 1:01:59.360 Past relationships, I'm constantly like not just giving an energy, 1:01:59.480 --> 1:02:02.760 but tea opening minds and even like my ex girlfriend, 1:02:02.800 --> 1:02:04.480 she's like, you opened up my mind in so many ways. 1:02:04.480 --> 1:02:06.920 She's super country, she's from Georgia or whatever. But she's like, 1:02:06.960 --> 1:02:08.920 there's so many things you showed me that I had 1:02:08.960 --> 1:02:10.760 no idea about. And I was just like I had 1:02:10.800 --> 1:02:13.680 no idea that I shifted you in this many ways, 1:02:13.760 --> 1:02:18.280 you know, just like by being myself. But there are 1:02:18.400 --> 1:02:21.520 things that I need from, Like you know, I want 1:02:21.600 --> 1:02:23.440 to be learning from the next person. I don't want 1:02:23.480 --> 1:02:24.960 to be teaching all the time too. 1:02:25.080 --> 1:02:27.560 I don't have enough. I don't I need, I need. 1:02:27.840 --> 1:02:30.240 I don't have enough to teach and to grow and 1:02:30.320 --> 1:02:33.000 to open up your mind, Like I need someone to 1:02:33.080 --> 1:02:35.080 be able to like do that for me as well. 1:02:35.840 --> 1:02:38.160 And I don't want to feel guilty by about saying that. 1:02:38.640 --> 1:02:41.120 No, I don't either, and like you would have asked me, 1:02:41.320 --> 1:02:43.560 like I think, well, I think also age changes things 1:02:43.600 --> 1:02:46.120 and responsibility. But like I used to always tell my mom, 1:02:46.280 --> 1:02:49.000 like I used to think my mom was super shallow 1:02:49.560 --> 1:02:51.960 because she would always judge my boyfriends when I was 1:02:52.000 --> 1:02:54.840 so young, like I was a tea like late early twenties, 1:02:54.920 --> 1:02:57.760 Like they didn't have their shit together, you know, But 1:02:57.920 --> 1:02:59.479 now I get it. It's like it's not even about 1:02:59.480 --> 1:03:01.200 having your shit together in your twenties. It's like, okay, 1:03:01.320 --> 1:03:03.840 but you can when you're that young though, you see 1:03:03.880 --> 1:03:07.440 the motivation in someone like what like do they have drive? 1:03:08.320 --> 1:03:10.960 You know? And for me now as a thirty one 1:03:11.040 --> 1:03:15.080 year old almost thirty two my birthdays in four days, yeah, 1:03:15.080 --> 1:03:18.760 almost thirty two year old woman, Like, there's things that 1:03:18.840 --> 1:03:22.680 I definitely require and there's things that I want, Like 1:03:22.800 --> 1:03:28.520 I want my partner to be wealthy, not just like 1:03:29.080 --> 1:03:31.440 light wealthy, have money, Like I want you to be 1:03:31.520 --> 1:03:34.080 wealthy because I don't want money to ever play a 1:03:34.160 --> 1:03:36.680 factor in the thing in our access and why we 1:03:36.760 --> 1:03:37.439 can't do things. 1:03:38.000 --> 1:03:39.960 And the reason I asked that is because I plan 1:03:40.080 --> 1:03:40.720 on being wealthy. 1:03:41.040 --> 1:03:43.960 And people really get people turn their nose up at 1:03:43.960 --> 1:03:45.960 these type of comments. And I've had these conversations before. 1:03:46.240 --> 1:03:48.280 Let me explain why this is important, because if I 1:03:48.280 --> 1:03:50.480 want to have a family with you, we need to 1:03:50.600 --> 1:03:51.840 be on the same page and what type of a 1:03:51.920 --> 1:03:55.360 lifestyle we want to live. If your ideal settle down 1:03:55.360 --> 1:03:57.400 and this is fine, and this is what your ideal is, 1:03:57.880 --> 1:04:00.240 having a home in suburbia. Maybe it's for bytime, two 1:04:00.280 --> 1:04:01.880 cars to car garage, and that's what it is. 1:04:02.000 --> 1:04:02.439 That's cool. 1:04:03.360 --> 1:04:03.960 I want like. 1:04:05.560 --> 1:04:08.600 I want a place in like each coast. I want 1:04:08.920 --> 1:04:11.600 to go on a yacht excursion for the. 1:04:11.640 --> 1:04:15.160 Summer, for real, like with my friends, Like let's get 1:04:15.160 --> 1:04:17.360 the families together and let's get on this yacht as 1:04:17.400 --> 1:04:18.160 this in the south of. 1:04:18.200 --> 1:04:21.200 France, and you know, and in the south of Italy, 1:04:21.320 --> 1:04:24.120 and like let's go for a month and take Vananny. 1:04:24.560 --> 1:04:25.720 These are the things I think of. 1:04:25.880 --> 1:04:29.040 And if you think that's too crazy, we don't need 1:04:29.040 --> 1:04:31.360 to be together because I'm gonna be constantly frustrated by 1:04:31.400 --> 1:04:32.320 your limits. 1:04:32.240 --> 1:04:34.960 By your limits and your limited And when I say wealthy, 1:04:35.040 --> 1:04:39.040 yes I absolutely mean financially, but I also mean in spirit. 1:04:39.560 --> 1:04:42.720 I also mean in so many other ways. But I 1:04:42.880 --> 1:04:45.880 do definitely mean in your pockets, because yes, I want 1:04:45.920 --> 1:04:48.280 to I want to travel. I want to show my 1:04:48.520 --> 1:04:52.000 daughter and maybe our future children that there's nothing that 1:04:52.080 --> 1:04:55.440 you can't do. And unfortunately, we live in a society 1:04:55.680 --> 1:05:00.600 where monetary acts, we're monitory money is determined your access 1:05:00.680 --> 1:05:01.479 in a lot of ways. 1:05:01.600 --> 1:05:04.240 Not always influence does as well, but your freedom. 1:05:05.080 --> 1:05:07.400 Yeah, I want to be like fuck it, Like I 1:05:07.440 --> 1:05:09.120 don't want to be here this weekend anymore. Like I 1:05:09.200 --> 1:05:11.120 wanna like, let's let's fly up to so and so like, 1:05:11.200 --> 1:05:11.960 let's just fly up. 1:05:11.920 --> 1:05:13.840 For the weekend. That's the type of shit I want 1:05:13.920 --> 1:05:15.360 to be able to do, because that's the type of 1:05:15.440 --> 1:05:18.160 person I am. That's how I thrive. I like new experiences. 1:05:18.240 --> 1:05:19.640 I like new food, I like new places. 1:05:19.760 --> 1:05:21.960 I like to travel, and I don't like to be 1:05:22.040 --> 1:05:25.000 I mean, anybody who has ever stressed over money, which 1:05:25.000 --> 1:05:27.880 is everybody, nobody, that's not anything I want to do 1:05:28.040 --> 1:05:29.240 for forever. 1:05:29.480 --> 1:05:32.640 It's not something I plan on doing. So I don't 1:05:32.720 --> 1:05:33.439 feel any shame. 1:05:33.640 --> 1:05:36.520 And you know what, I notice all my gold diggery friends, 1:05:36.800 --> 1:05:39.560 every single one who's always been that way, always has been. 1:05:39.640 --> 1:05:41.360 And even when I was like, oh she's a little 1:05:41.400 --> 1:05:44.400 bit much, every single one of those bitch got a 1:05:44.560 --> 1:05:47.800 man with a coin. Well absolutely, I mean, whether there's 1:05:47.880 --> 1:05:49.400 love in it or not, it's a different story, and 1:05:49.480 --> 1:05:53.440 I'm not willing to compromise that. But security is really 1:05:53.480 --> 1:05:55.040 important to me, and I like to do older guys. 1:05:55.080 --> 1:05:56.640 So yeah, I hope that you're in a better position 1:05:56.720 --> 1:05:56.880 than me. 1:05:57.640 --> 1:05:59.360 So that's that's I wouldn't say. I don't know if 1:05:59.400 --> 1:06:01.560 that's number one, but it's definitely up there. I don't 1:06:01.560 --> 1:06:04.040 even know if there's I think there's probably like a 1:06:04.160 --> 1:06:06.640 numerical order. Possibly I haven't figured that out, but I 1:06:06.720 --> 1:06:08.800 know that that's definitely one that I'm asking for and 1:06:08.880 --> 1:06:11.560 I'm manifesting and it's important to me. And if you can't, 1:06:11.640 --> 1:06:13.320 like you said, like, if you're limited in your mind 1:06:13.360 --> 1:06:15.480 thinking you think that I'm too much asking for that, 1:06:15.880 --> 1:06:18.640 then we're not going to We're not We're gonna bump 1:06:18.720 --> 1:06:21.560 heads and I'm gonna end up feeling like I have 1:06:21.720 --> 1:06:25.400 to dim myself because you're not on the same page 1:06:25.440 --> 1:06:27.480 of like where I'm trying to be and where I 1:06:27.560 --> 1:06:28.160 want you to be. 1:06:28.400 --> 1:06:30.640 And you have to be generous. You can't be just 1:06:30.800 --> 1:06:32.280 rich and stingy like I think. 1:06:32.440 --> 1:06:35.320 And I went out with the guy when I was 1:06:35.400 --> 1:06:37.760 there and he he got my plane ticket and he 1:06:37.840 --> 1:06:39.320 was like, well, if I'm trying to date you, I like, 1:06:39.520 --> 1:06:41.520 I help, I help, I want to help if I'm 1:06:41.720 --> 1:06:42.240 trying to date you. 1:06:42.560 --> 1:06:44.920 I'm like, yeah, I think so too. 1:06:45.920 --> 1:06:49.040 But that's like even in dating young Bay who was 1:06:49.120 --> 1:06:53.200 like so young, I didn't constantly like train him on 1:06:53.440 --> 1:06:57.080 like listen, like you see me struggling offer, you haven't 1:06:57.280 --> 1:06:58.000 yes offer. 1:06:58.200 --> 1:06:59.040 That's yeah. 1:06:59.040 --> 1:07:00.760 That's another thing too, is like I don't want to 1:07:00.880 --> 1:07:03.160 have to ask, and if I ask, don't make me. 1:07:03.200 --> 1:07:06.200 Ask twice, right, Like that's I don't have that because 1:07:06.200 --> 1:07:08.960 that's what I even encountered in the past. And it's 1:07:09.080 --> 1:07:13.000 just like, don't ask me again if I still need it, 1:07:13.280 --> 1:07:14.640 And you know what young they used to do, Yes, 1:07:14.720 --> 1:07:16.600 I still need it because you haven't given it to me. 1:07:17.520 --> 1:07:19.360 Younger used to say something like bring when I would 1:07:19.360 --> 1:07:21.720 bring these type of things up, like he would bring 1:07:21.840 --> 1:07:23.960 up like, oh, but you want to be all equal 1:07:24.080 --> 1:07:27.680 with like feminism and and that's that's not that they 1:07:27.720 --> 1:07:30.120 don't go hand in hand and because you're at the 1:07:30.200 --> 1:07:35.560 end of the day like yeah, like men have historically 1:07:35.640 --> 1:07:36.400 been providers. 1:07:36.640 --> 1:07:39.800 And I'm not saying that if I was first of all, 1:07:39.840 --> 1:07:41.120 if I was rich and I want to day a 1:07:41.200 --> 1:07:43.320 nigga who wasn't on the same page as me, I wouldn't. 1:07:43.920 --> 1:07:46.440 I would not have an issue given that's that's the 1:07:46.600 --> 1:07:48.600 and that's why and that's why I don't have an 1:07:48.640 --> 1:07:51.720 issue saying it, because I know if I had, I 1:07:51.840 --> 1:07:52.320 will give it. 1:07:52.680 --> 1:07:54.120 And and if I believe in you, and I'm like, oh, 1:07:54.120 --> 1:07:55.840 this nigga has drive and he is he is, he 1:07:55.920 --> 1:07:58.680 has ideas and he has places to grow and I 1:07:58.800 --> 1:08:01.880 believe in that I have without a shadow of a doubt, 1:08:01.880 --> 1:08:04.120 I would do that. And so yeah, that's why I 1:08:04.160 --> 1:08:06.680 don't think it's like whoever makes it first, let's make 1:08:06.720 --> 1:08:07.040 it work. 1:08:07.200 --> 1:08:09.720 But and this, you know, like if you have it, 1:08:10.200 --> 1:08:12.200 let's yeah, don't make me have to ask you twice. 1:08:12.480 --> 1:08:13.840 I hate that. Yeah. 1:08:14.040 --> 1:08:16.679 And another one, another thing that I realized is also 1:08:16.720 --> 1:08:20.559 important to me is humor and being and like if 1:08:20.600 --> 1:08:22.360 you can make me laugh and if our humor. 1:08:22.320 --> 1:08:25.000 Is aligned, and if you can roll with the punches. 1:08:24.800 --> 1:08:27.479 Like but specifically, can you make me laugh? Because that's 1:08:28.000 --> 1:08:30.200 what I've realized is so important to me. I went 1:08:30.240 --> 1:08:34.120 on a date in New York with someone and it 1:08:34.240 --> 1:08:37.200 was cool, but I felt like and it was a 1:08:37.200 --> 1:08:40.240 first date, so who knows, but like, and then I 1:08:40.280 --> 1:08:42.240 went on a date with my art bay out there, 1:08:42.360 --> 1:08:44.960 who is like so funny and like, girl, I was 1:08:45.000 --> 1:08:46.479 telling you, Oh my god, I didn't tell you the story. 1:08:48.320 --> 1:08:49.200 Wait side note. 1:08:49.240 --> 1:08:51.880 Okay, So I went on this hinge date like three 1:08:51.960 --> 1:08:53.559 months ago with this guy who I met in New 1:08:53.640 --> 1:08:56.280 York and we had a great time. And I've been 1:08:56.320 --> 1:08:58.200 trying to get back to New York for work and 1:08:58.520 --> 1:09:00.320 I wanted to like hang out with him and see 1:09:00.360 --> 1:09:01.800 him again and go on a date. We've been talking 1:09:01.920 --> 1:09:04.400 on it, like we talked pretty consistently over the phone 1:09:04.760 --> 1:09:07.439 in text. And so when I went to New York 1:09:07.520 --> 1:09:10.200 after I think it was like after Atlanta. 1:09:12.200 --> 1:09:13.840 I went. 1:09:14.640 --> 1:09:16.320 I met him in Brooklyn and I was like, what 1:09:16.360 --> 1:09:18.280 should I wear? Like should I wear my hair down? 1:09:18.400 --> 1:09:18.800 What's do? 1:09:19.640 --> 1:09:21.800 And so like I actually called Reese and she was like, 1:09:21.840 --> 1:09:23.640 wear her down and you can put some red lipstick on. 1:09:23.720 --> 1:09:24.840 I was like, yes, that you're right. 1:09:24.960 --> 1:09:26.600 Oh, I think you did tell it. I saw it. 1:09:26.760 --> 1:09:28.439 Oh wait, No, yeah, I don't think I told her 1:09:28.479 --> 1:09:30.559 the story. So there's just like I think I read 1:09:30.560 --> 1:09:34.599 it in our GMS. Okay, So okay, I told Melanie. 1:09:35.240 --> 1:09:38.200 So there's this brand that like I always support because 1:09:38.240 --> 1:09:41.000 it's black owned, and like, I put this lipstick on 1:09:41.040 --> 1:09:41.840 and it's bomb. Right. 1:09:41.880 --> 1:09:44.320 I've worn it a bunch of times. Never made out 1:09:44.360 --> 1:09:44.800 in it though. 1:09:45.400 --> 1:09:47.479 So we go out, we're having a great time, we're dancing, 1:09:47.600 --> 1:09:49.559 we go back to his house, we're like smoking the bong. 1:09:50.240 --> 1:09:52.439 We start making out. Bitch, We're like making up for 1:09:52.479 --> 1:09:54.799 like fifteen minutes. I pulled back and he's. 1:09:54.680 --> 1:09:57.400 Like, what the fuck? And I'm like what He's like, 1:09:57.560 --> 1:10:00.640 Oh my god. And I was like, what he's like, 1:10:00.720 --> 1:10:01.920 go look in the mirror. 1:10:01.800 --> 1:10:05.960 Bitch, my whole face not like smeared across my lips, 1:10:06.280 --> 1:10:10.640 like from here to here, all red. Even on my 1:10:10.800 --> 1:10:13.639 forehead was red. I and on top of the eyes 1:10:13.640 --> 1:10:15.960 and smoked a bong. I looked fucking like a crackhead. 1:10:16.640 --> 1:10:19.880 My eyes were all like low and like red, bloodshot. 1:10:20.000 --> 1:10:23.000 I was like semi drunk. Like I look at the room, 1:10:23.000 --> 1:10:24.360 I'm like, oh my god. So I go in there 1:10:24.360 --> 1:10:27.160 and I start like wiping my face. Bitch, my face 1:10:27.320 --> 1:10:30.680 was stained red. I couldn't get it off. I just 1:10:30.760 --> 1:10:32.200 had red everywhere. 1:10:31.920 --> 1:10:34.479 Put like oil. Bitch, I'm at his house is it's 1:10:34.479 --> 1:10:35.080 like an oils. 1:10:35.600 --> 1:10:37.880 I just I was just stained red. Then he comes 1:10:37.960 --> 1:10:41.160 in he has read all over his face. His beard 1:10:41.280 --> 1:10:43.160 is red, like everything is red. 1:10:43.520 --> 1:10:45.479 And reminded Sadong. 1:10:52.000 --> 1:10:57.320 Anyway, I was so embarrassing, so I left because bitch, 1:10:57.400 --> 1:11:01.040 it was crazy. But but anyway, what I was getting 1:11:01.080 --> 1:11:04.439 to is that like making me laugh is so important. 1:11:04.479 --> 1:11:07.800 It's important to like my attraction to you, my la, 1:11:08.040 --> 1:11:11.240 my long lasting attraction to you, right, like if you 1:11:11.280 --> 1:11:14.800 can't make me laugh, because I'm fucking funny too, right, 1:11:15.040 --> 1:11:19.479 Like it's not one sided laugh you know, like I 1:11:19.640 --> 1:11:21.320 need to make make me laugh, and that you're not 1:11:21.439 --> 1:11:22.639 taking things too seriously. 1:11:23.479 --> 1:11:25.479 I could get stressed out, so you can't be like 1:11:26.600 --> 1:11:27.479 very stressed out person. 1:11:27.600 --> 1:11:28.559 I also need someone. 1:11:28.400 --> 1:11:31.599 That's like forgiving of my Like I feel like I'm 1:11:31.600 --> 1:11:35.280 a communicator, but sometimes my communication can be like poor 1:11:35.439 --> 1:11:38.360 even though I am communicating, Like I realize that sometimes 1:11:38.439 --> 1:11:40.800 like I'm emotional when I'm communicating. I'm trying to work 1:11:40.840 --> 1:11:43.680 on that. But to someone that's like gonna be not 1:11:43.880 --> 1:11:49.640 take my my moodiness to personally. I want someone that 1:11:50.080 --> 1:11:54.360 is six feet and over. I can't do anything below that. 1:11:54.600 --> 1:11:56.800 It's a big dick. I just can't do anything I 1:11:56.840 --> 1:11:59.040 could gus give a good head, have a big dick, 1:11:59.080 --> 1:11:59.680 and you also have. 1:11:59.720 --> 1:11:59.880 To be. 1:12:01.880 --> 1:12:04.560 More actually or else I'm going to cheat on you. 1:12:04.680 --> 1:12:07.120 I'm gonna get bored. It has to be like fun, 1:12:08.520 --> 1:12:10.439 funcomfortable sex that we can explore together. 1:12:10.479 --> 1:12:15.880 I need someone that values family, like goes and sees 1:12:15.960 --> 1:12:19.160 their family. If their family doesn't live here, I need 1:12:19.240 --> 1:12:21.160 to know that you make an effort to go see them, 1:12:21.479 --> 1:12:25.680 because I've learned in the past like through multiple relationships, 1:12:25.800 --> 1:12:28.479 the men that I've dated, they have family out of 1:12:28.560 --> 1:12:31.600 state and they don't go see them, and it's it 1:12:31.720 --> 1:12:34.479 always shows me. It always shows up somehow in our life, 1:12:35.040 --> 1:12:36.920 like how you deal with me, how you deal with 1:12:37.080 --> 1:12:37.719 my family. 1:12:38.160 --> 1:12:38.960 That's very true. 1:12:39.240 --> 1:12:41.800 It's like it's like a lot of times you feel 1:12:41.800 --> 1:12:45.400 like it's not important because it's like, well, well I'm here, Like, no, 1:12:45.720 --> 1:12:46.719 you need to make that effort. 1:12:46.720 --> 1:12:48.600 I need to know that family is a priority in 1:12:48.640 --> 1:12:52.760 the family dynamic. Because I've dated someone who's close with 1:12:52.880 --> 1:12:56.599 their family, it appeared but like they weren't and like they. 1:12:58.040 --> 1:12:59.560 I don't know, like there was some distance, and so 1:12:59.600 --> 1:13:01.840 I feel like I was always trying to like could 1:13:01.960 --> 1:13:03.800 be the connect between them and the family, and it 1:13:03.960 --> 1:13:06.400 was just a strange. But I also, on that same note, 1:13:06.439 --> 1:13:08.560 side note, I went, I hung out with this the 1:13:08.640 --> 1:13:10.760 same guy who I said, you know, I was like, 1:13:10.840 --> 1:13:12.800 I'm trying to date you, so and I went to 1:13:12.880 --> 1:13:16.759 his house and like pictures of his daughter and him everywhere, 1:13:17.320 --> 1:13:18.960 and I was like, this is so great. He's like, oh, 1:13:19.000 --> 1:13:21.880 I just frame like framed photos everywhere, and he was like, 1:13:21.960 --> 1:13:24.320 you know, tell me how him and his baby mam 1:13:24.400 --> 1:13:25.400 Mark he's good. 1:13:25.600 --> 1:13:26.320 It is wet. 1:13:26.400 --> 1:13:28.320 I don't know, this is from the party, really good. 1:13:28.600 --> 1:13:31.840 They hang out all the time and you know, they 1:13:31.880 --> 1:13:33.679 have a really good relationship. And I was like, yeah, 1:13:33.760 --> 1:13:35.920 that's and then he goes home to New Orleans all 1:13:35.960 --> 1:13:37.760 the time to visit his mom and dad, and I 1:13:37.920 --> 1:13:39.800 was just like, okay, that's that is important to me too. 1:13:39.920 --> 1:13:42.479 And and how your relationship is with your family is 1:13:42.640 --> 1:13:44.920 shows how your relationship if we're in a startup family 1:13:44.960 --> 1:13:46.599 and how that will that will play out too. 1:13:48.640 --> 1:13:51.280 Also, you need to be okay with public displays of 1:13:51.280 --> 1:13:55.200 affection period. You I guess someone who's likely obsessed. 1:13:54.880 --> 1:13:57.519 With so like art, they were we like I started 1:13:57.600 --> 1:13:59.960 kissing him outside of the bar, and he was uncomfortable. 1:14:00.120 --> 1:14:01.880 I'm that irritating. Young baby did that to me a 1:14:01.960 --> 1:14:03.560 few times and it's irritated. 1:14:03.560 --> 1:14:05.160 I'm like, look, I'm not trying to feel like your 1:14:05.200 --> 1:14:08.040 dick in public, but like I need to grab my ass, 1:14:08.479 --> 1:14:10.639 show me some affections to me, like that's what makes 1:14:10.680 --> 1:14:12.560 me feel like, that's the passion that I like. I 1:14:12.760 --> 1:14:15.960 let like when I'm old and gray and I'm still horny, 1:14:16.040 --> 1:14:18.920 like and make out with me in the backseat of 1:14:18.960 --> 1:14:20.840 the car while our kids drive us to the movie. 1:14:21.000 --> 1:14:24.000 Yes, like I want passion like that long term. 1:14:24.200 --> 1:14:25.879 I don't like anyone being inhibited. 1:14:25.960 --> 1:14:28.360 Inhibited as far as like public displays of affections I 1:14:28.400 --> 1:14:29.920 don't like. And I know that's not for everyone, and 1:14:30.000 --> 1:14:31.680 that's cool, but that's what I want me too. 1:14:31.720 --> 1:14:33.720 I want you to love me boldly and loudly, no 1:14:33.800 --> 1:14:35.599 matter who's watching, no matter where we're at. 1:14:36.120 --> 1:14:36.960 That's important to me. 1:14:37.360 --> 1:14:40.519 And I need to feel like lusted after, Like I 1:14:40.640 --> 1:14:43.240 need to know you're super attracted to me sexually and 1:14:43.760 --> 1:14:47.040 you respect me. And I think also me being how 1:14:47.080 --> 1:14:49.479 I am, I'm a flirt. I dance with everyone at 1:14:49.520 --> 1:14:51.800 a party. I want somebody who's gonna almost encourage it, 1:14:52.439 --> 1:14:54.839 like yes, yes both she doing. 1:14:54.680 --> 1:14:57.360 That, break it down baby and see for me. 1:14:57.479 --> 1:14:59.200 I want someone that's gonna be like your mine, get. 1:14:59.120 --> 1:15:02.040 Over here and then occasionally pull me over. I want that. 1:15:02.160 --> 1:15:03.360 I want a little bit of it. I think you 1:15:03.479 --> 1:15:04.360 need more of that than I do. 1:15:04.520 --> 1:15:07.200 Yeah, I need more of like the security of like 1:15:07.360 --> 1:15:09.880 this is our ship and it's unbreakable and no one 1:15:10.000 --> 1:15:10.800 is infiltrating that. 1:15:10.840 --> 1:15:12.040 And I know that's what you want to I'm not 1:15:12.080 --> 1:15:14.960 saying that's you don't but like I I'm not. I'm not. 1:15:15.000 --> 1:15:15.800 I'm moody as fucks. 1:15:15.840 --> 1:15:17.519 You know. Sometimes I can be that free spirit that's 1:15:17.520 --> 1:15:19.280 gonna go dance around the party, but sometimes I don't 1:15:19.479 --> 1:15:20.960 try to talk to anybody and I just want to 1:15:21.000 --> 1:15:22.280 be in the corner making out with my man. 1:15:22.360 --> 1:15:24.519 But I just think more than more than anything, it's 1:15:24.560 --> 1:15:26.479 just whatever vibe I'm on. 1:15:27.240 --> 1:15:30.960 I don't want to be shamed for being a people person, enjoying, 1:15:31.120 --> 1:15:32.840 like you know, being around people, because that's so much 1:15:32.880 --> 1:15:34.840 of who I am. I just don't like sometimes we 1:15:34.880 --> 1:15:36.320 can't be in the corner making out, but I don't 1:15:36.320 --> 1:15:38.920 want you to make me feel bad for being who 1:15:39.000 --> 1:15:39.200 I am. 1:15:39.200 --> 1:15:40.600 I'm doing what I'm gonna do. When she'd be like, oh, 1:15:40.600 --> 1:15:46.400 that's Jamilla. I want someone who is invested in my career, yes, 1:15:46.520 --> 1:15:46.760 and I. 1:15:46.880 --> 1:15:48.320 Was like, let's think about it, Like, let's see. I 1:15:48.360 --> 1:15:49.920 think Alice is a good idea for you, Like, oh, 1:15:49.960 --> 1:15:51.960 I know someone you should meet, right, and really, do 1:15:52.120 --> 1:15:55.920 that really connect those dots for me? Right? It's like 1:15:56.479 --> 1:15:58.920 excited about what I'm doing, because I'm gonna be excited 1:15:58.920 --> 1:15:59.639 about what you're doing. 1:15:59.760 --> 1:16:01.600 I'm always like whenever I meet someone that. 1:16:01.640 --> 1:16:04.679 I'm like, I want to pump people up, Like, wow, 1:16:04.720 --> 1:16:07.040 that's an amazing idea. And if I have an idea, 1:16:07.320 --> 1:16:09.120 like I'm the type of person too, like I want 1:16:09.200 --> 1:16:10.160 to be your cheerleader. 1:16:10.200 --> 1:16:11.400 I don't and not. 1:16:11.439 --> 1:16:15.400 Feel intimidated and feel like it's somehow diminishing like the other. 1:16:15.520 --> 1:16:17.799 When I was in New York, I went to nicole 1:16:18.240 --> 1:16:21.040 her Precious Streams Foundation gala and Miguel was one of 1:16:21.160 --> 1:16:25.920 the keynote speakers. And afterwards, Miguel and Nicole are really 1:16:25.920 --> 1:16:27.960 good friends, and so we all went out with him 1:16:28.040 --> 1:16:31.280 and his wife, nas who's they're both like so cool, 1:16:31.479 --> 1:16:35.160 like real down to earth people, like for real, for real, 1:16:35.520 --> 1:16:38.439 and he was so excited to like because she has 1:16:38.439 --> 1:16:41.400 a podcast too. She's like her podcast is doing really well, 1:16:41.439 --> 1:16:43.679 and he was just pumping her up and just talking 1:16:43.720 --> 1:16:45.920 about her to everyone and how proud he is, and 1:16:46.000 --> 1:16:49.479 it was like, I was like, Wow, that's so beautiful. 1:16:49.680 --> 1:16:51.559 Yes, I like that, like that, it's so beautiful. 1:16:51.760 --> 1:16:54.960 Yes, Like it's not about you, because it probably is 1:16:55.080 --> 1:16:58.800 mostly always about him. And the fact that like he 1:16:58.960 --> 1:17:01.960 was pumping her, I need that, I'm natural and he 1:17:02.080 --> 1:17:04.599 wanted to do it was so proud of you because 1:17:04.640 --> 1:17:07.200 this is what you're doing big things. Yes, I know, 1:17:07.560 --> 1:17:09.280 And I just keep saying young be because he's the 1:17:09.320 --> 1:17:10.000 only person I dated. 1:17:10.000 --> 1:17:10.720 Last this year. 1:17:11.840 --> 1:17:13.680 I told you, I've said this before, Like I think 1:17:13.720 --> 1:17:15.639 we did a beach meetup or we did some type 1:17:15.680 --> 1:17:17.400 of meetup and he was just like, I don't really 1:17:17.439 --> 1:17:17.920 get the point. 1:17:18.600 --> 1:17:21.439 And I was just like, you don't get the point 1:17:21.479 --> 1:17:21.760 of shit. 1:17:22.600 --> 1:17:25.760 You don't get me, then you're not understanding what I'm 1:17:25.840 --> 1:17:27.880 the work I'm doing, you don't value it, and I 1:17:27.960 --> 1:17:30.519 mean you're not a mom, But like, yes, this type 1:17:30.560 --> 1:17:32.920 of shit is important because I'm like, he has a 1:17:33.080 --> 1:17:34.960 very like nine to five job and I'm like, so 1:17:35.080 --> 1:17:36.040 what else makes you happy? 1:17:36.439 --> 1:17:38.200 What are you passionate about? You could do whatever. This 1:17:38.360 --> 1:17:39.640 doesn't have to be the end of what you do. 1:17:40.120 --> 1:17:41.960 You can do stuff. Take time to you like you 1:17:42.040 --> 1:17:44.519 want to do this. I'm the pumper upper of people. 1:17:44.560 --> 1:17:48.559 If you can't pump me up mutually, it's pointless. It's 1:17:48.560 --> 1:17:49.280 actually draining. 1:17:49.479 --> 1:17:49.679 Yeah. 1:17:50.880 --> 1:17:52.360 Another thing too, is. 1:17:54.160 --> 1:17:58.320 Obviously loving my child, like and you know, and for 1:17:59.280 --> 1:18:01.439 some time, like I don't really because I've never really 1:18:03.160 --> 1:18:05.719 had a relationship serie enough to have iri around someone 1:18:05.840 --> 1:18:07.600 like that. But like I've heard other people be like, 1:18:07.640 --> 1:18:09.120 you don't have to love my child, but you just 1:18:09.240 --> 1:18:12.320 have to, Like no, you have to, Like you know, 1:18:13.520 --> 1:18:15.160 she don't have to, She's not yours, you know what 1:18:15.240 --> 1:18:15.479 I mean. 1:18:15.920 --> 1:18:18.439 Fuck that, like the fact that I don't irie has 1:18:18.560 --> 1:18:19.639 a father, you know what I mean? 1:18:19.720 --> 1:18:22.439 But like I want someone that is loves my child 1:18:22.840 --> 1:18:24.880 wants to if you're gonna be with me all the 1:18:25.000 --> 1:18:28.120 time that you're like participating in the things I'm participating, 1:18:28.280 --> 1:18:31.400 which is enriching her life, teaching her things, and like 1:18:32.000 --> 1:18:35.640 I don't know, like encouraging her. And that's also like 1:18:35.840 --> 1:18:38.000 I want to have more kids. That's gonna let me 1:18:38.120 --> 1:18:39.880 know that like when we do, Like what kind of 1:18:39.880 --> 1:18:41.679 father you're going to be if you're not a father already? 1:18:41.800 --> 1:18:44.240 Like who knows if this person I'm manifesting has children. 1:18:44.280 --> 1:18:46.680 It's that for me is not a requirement. But I'm 1:18:46.720 --> 1:18:50.160 definitely not like opposed to it. I feel like maybe men, 1:18:50.360 --> 1:18:52.840 Maybe I'm assuming because I've never really dated one, but 1:18:52.920 --> 1:18:55.680 like I'm assuming maybe men with kids, some who are 1:18:55.720 --> 1:18:56.280 good fathers. 1:18:56.880 --> 1:18:59.760 You know, they understand the important they understand. 1:19:01.240 --> 1:19:06.360 The value of time, responsibility, just a little bit have 1:19:06.479 --> 1:19:10.840 this deeper sense of like how fragile and important life is, 1:19:11.520 --> 1:19:13.320 because I know that's what parent who's about My. 1:19:13.479 --> 1:19:14.479 Role is much bigger. 1:19:14.560 --> 1:19:17.559 I have a lot of purpose, but like my number 1:19:17.640 --> 1:19:20.439 one role is this child. And if you're a part 1:19:20.439 --> 1:19:22.200 of my life and my partner, you absolutely have to 1:19:22.200 --> 1:19:22.840 be on the same. 1:19:22.720 --> 1:19:25.320 Page, right, And also making my life easier knowing that 1:19:25.600 --> 1:19:28.320 I have a child, Like, if you know I have 1:19:28.400 --> 1:19:31.040 a kid, don't expect me to come out to you 1:19:31.240 --> 1:19:33.719 every all the time anymore, Like make my life easier. 1:19:34.160 --> 1:19:35.320 How can I help you today? 1:19:35.479 --> 1:19:37.000 Like if you see something needs to be done, just 1:19:37.080 --> 1:19:41.599 do it right. Like so I think also someone who's 1:19:41.640 --> 1:19:44.479 really like culturally aware, like, oh. 1:19:44.439 --> 1:19:45.680 That's so true. That's that too. 1:19:45.800 --> 1:19:47.599 That's another thing, Like I mean, think about this list 1:19:47.640 --> 1:19:49.479 that we're creating, Like this is a lot of things, 1:19:49.640 --> 1:19:52.160 and people like I think even me in the past 1:19:52.240 --> 1:19:53.680 have been like that's too much. I can't ask for 1:19:53.720 --> 1:19:55.760 all these things. Now you absolutely can't, and you need to. 1:19:55.760 --> 1:19:57.840 You have to, yeah, or she won't get what you want. 1:19:57.920 --> 1:19:59.360 And that's why a lot of us are out here 1:19:59.479 --> 1:20:00.559 just like oh he's nice guy. 1:20:01.080 --> 1:20:03.080 Nice guy is not enough. He doesn't have this, but 1:20:03.840 --> 1:20:06.400 he does that yeah, and I've done that all the time. 1:20:06.400 --> 1:20:06.840 I've done that. 1:20:06.960 --> 1:20:09.599 That's again, And it doesn't mean that all over people 1:20:09.680 --> 1:20:12.519 aren't good people and aren't worthy of love, but they're 1:20:12.560 --> 1:20:13.519 just not your people. 1:20:13.560 --> 1:20:15.719 And that doesn't mean that this person that you manifest 1:20:15.840 --> 1:20:18.960 won't fall short. Sometimes this person is not perfect, even 1:20:19.080 --> 1:20:21.360 I don't want perfect. No, I'm not perfect. 1:20:21.400 --> 1:20:22.880 But I need sprinkles of things. 1:20:23.040 --> 1:20:25.360 I need big portions and sprinkles of things, and I 1:20:25.479 --> 1:20:26.800 need to ask for all of them or none of 1:20:26.840 --> 1:20:27.960 them are going to be in the RX. 1:20:28.080 --> 1:20:29.120 Specifically, you know. 1:20:29.360 --> 1:20:33.600 Yeah, culturally is so important, like pro like, yeah, just 1:20:33.760 --> 1:20:36.240 cultural awareness and understanding. 1:20:36.400 --> 1:20:40.280 Like my, I need adventure. I need an adventure continuity. 1:20:40.439 --> 1:20:43.960 I want an adventure life adventurer like I want to. 1:20:44.120 --> 1:20:46.160 There's so many things I haven't done, and I think 1:20:46.840 --> 1:20:49.920 sometimes what I what I realized exatement, is that I'm 1:20:50.000 --> 1:20:54.559 waiting to share experiences with someone when that's I shouldn't 1:20:54.600 --> 1:20:56.200 do that, you know, Like there's things I like I 1:20:56.240 --> 1:20:58.120 could go try. I do travel a lot, but there's 1:20:58.160 --> 1:21:02.640 things I haven't seen, maybe way like with someone you know, 1:21:02.840 --> 1:21:05.479 and it's like I want someone that's just like already 1:21:05.520 --> 1:21:07.599 doing that, and it's to do it. It's gonna maybe 1:21:07.640 --> 1:21:08.760 even encourage that more in. 1:21:08.840 --> 1:21:09.960 Me, right, inspire it more. 1:21:10.160 --> 1:21:10.360 You know. 1:21:11.560 --> 1:21:16.280 So I want someone spiritual, Yeah, me too. I need 1:21:16.360 --> 1:21:20.240 you to have some sense of the spirituality, spiritual growth, 1:21:21.080 --> 1:21:22.680 like purpose, what you like. 1:21:22.720 --> 1:21:24.640 You know, I think those things are really important and 1:21:24.760 --> 1:21:29.400 not necessarily like religious, actually probably not religious, but just 1:21:29.520 --> 1:21:31.600 have some spiritual accountability, like. 1:21:33.160 --> 1:21:35.080 Some sort of ethics, morality. 1:21:36.320 --> 1:21:38.880 Anyway, the point is, and like I just feel like 1:21:39.120 --> 1:21:43.080 we as women, if we want to, I don't know, 1:21:43.240 --> 1:21:46.479 manifest this partner, like we have to really ask for 1:21:46.560 --> 1:21:48.760 those things and not be just internalizing it all the 1:21:48.800 --> 1:21:52.800 time and say it out loud. Like I think that's 1:21:52.960 --> 1:21:54.479 all the things that I've said out loud that I 1:21:54.600 --> 1:21:57.439 really really meant have happened. You know. I said to you, 1:21:57.760 --> 1:22:00.760 let's do this podcast, let's do it, and we did it, 1:22:01.240 --> 1:22:03.480 and then we just kept talking and it's just continued, 1:22:03.680 --> 1:22:05.200 you know, let's do an event, let's do it. 1:22:05.439 --> 1:22:06.760 All right, right, Okay, fine, let's do it. 1:22:06.800 --> 1:22:08.639 I didn't just internalize it in my head and say 1:22:08.640 --> 1:22:10.720 it in my head or write it down even I 1:22:10.840 --> 1:22:11.519 said it out loud. 1:22:11.560 --> 1:22:13.040 I mean, I think it's important to write things down 1:22:13.040 --> 1:22:13.400 as well. 1:22:13.479 --> 1:22:14.600 But like that. 1:22:14.800 --> 1:22:18.040 I think that that idea works in so many different ways, 1:22:18.120 --> 1:22:22.800 and it can. I have hope. I'm hoping, I'm hoping 1:22:22.880 --> 1:22:23.080 that is. 1:22:23.400 --> 1:22:24.880 I think that's just how the world. I just think 1:22:24.920 --> 1:22:26.880 how that that's how shit works. I think that's how 1:22:26.920 --> 1:22:28.800 life works. I think you put it out there, you 1:22:28.920 --> 1:22:32.040 believe it, and then you I'm a firm believer in 1:22:32.520 --> 1:22:36.160 the what is it the secret, the like the law 1:22:36.160 --> 1:22:38.760 of attraction. If you if you believe it's yours, you 1:22:38.880 --> 1:22:41.560 deserve it, you talk about it like it's yours. And 1:22:41.720 --> 1:22:46.080 we've proven that so many times, even in the slightest ways, 1:22:46.320 --> 1:22:49.360 talking about fucking Coachella, talking about this song. Oh that 1:22:49.479 --> 1:22:51.920 sh it was weird, that shit was crazy. But it's 1:22:52.040 --> 1:22:55.200 like the universe, God Spirit telling you, this is how 1:22:55.280 --> 1:22:58.439 the ship works. Stop playing, you can have it. 1:22:59.400 --> 1:23:01.920 That's it. So I believe it. 1:23:02.040 --> 1:23:03.840 And that's why I don't be tripping, like I be 1:23:03.920 --> 1:23:07.560 fucking up, you know, chilling with baby Daddy doing this, 1:23:07.880 --> 1:23:08.160 doing that. 1:23:08.320 --> 1:23:12.920 But I'm like, no, this is not it, this is 1:23:13.000 --> 1:23:14.400 not You're not it, this is not it. 1:23:15.240 --> 1:23:18.479 But because I know there's something like this, and I 1:23:18.520 --> 1:23:20.280 think even with this, we both know, like there's this 1:23:20.400 --> 1:23:22.200 bigger there's this bigger picture. 1:23:22.240 --> 1:23:23.880 There's this bigger thing. People like, what's the angle? And 1:23:23.960 --> 1:23:29.599 I'm like, just wait and see. So I don't know. Yeah, 1:23:31.280 --> 1:23:31.840 are we gonna? 1:23:32.479 --> 1:23:40.200 Should we do? It's time for horror stories. Guys whose 1:23:40.640 --> 1:23:46.400 stories highly horrific tales brought to you by good Moms. 1:23:47.840 --> 1:23:49.679 Okay, Hory. 1:23:51.439 --> 1:23:53.240 I was dating this guy for a couple of months 1:23:53.280 --> 1:23:55.000 when I went to a party with him and at 1:23:55.080 --> 1:23:56.960 his friend's house, who I had never met before. 1:23:58.000 --> 1:23:58.879 I get really. 1:23:58.680 --> 1:24:01.120 Feisty and horny when I joined and there was this dude. 1:24:01.160 --> 1:24:03.559 They're making fun of special ed people. So I told 1:24:03.640 --> 1:24:05.200 the guy to shut the fuck up or I was 1:24:05.200 --> 1:24:06.439 going to knock his ass out. 1:24:08.960 --> 1:24:11.360 Tight. I was like, oh my god, is this about me? 1:24:12.840 --> 1:24:13.559 He continued to. 1:24:13.640 --> 1:24:16.040 Make dumb jokes and pissing me off. More so the 1:24:16.080 --> 1:24:18.960 guy I was with told him, Man, she's not kidding around. 1:24:19.000 --> 1:24:20.920 She's kind of crazy, so you might want to shut 1:24:21.000 --> 1:24:23.280 up something about him. Saying that to the to the 1:24:23.360 --> 1:24:25.040 douchebag dude turned me on. 1:24:25.800 --> 1:24:27.280 No, turned me on. 1:24:28.160 --> 1:24:30.280 Five minutes later, me and my guy were chilling on 1:24:30.360 --> 1:24:32.040 the couch and next thing I know, he had his 1:24:32.200 --> 1:24:34.760 hand up my skirt trying to secretly finger me in 1:24:34.840 --> 1:24:37.320 front of everyone, and I did not give a fuck. 1:24:37.880 --> 1:24:41.000 I even said hold on, I'll be right back, went 1:24:41.080 --> 1:24:43.200 and took off my panties and came back for more. 1:24:43.840 --> 1:24:45.200 I was right. 1:24:45.360 --> 1:24:48.160 I was like, ah, I was rubbing on his dick 1:24:48.240 --> 1:24:50.840 through his pants, trying to be nonchalant, but people were 1:24:50.880 --> 1:24:54.439 definitely catching on. Then my drunk ass got on his lap, 1:24:56.000 --> 1:24:57.519 told him to whip it out, and I sat on 1:24:57.600 --> 1:24:59.800 his dick trying to discreetly ride him while we were 1:24:59.800 --> 1:25:02.360 having a full blown conversation with people. 1:25:05.280 --> 1:25:07.759 Like what were you drinking that night? Amazing. 1:25:08.120 --> 1:25:11.120 Eventually we snuck away to their their spare bedroom and 1:25:11.200 --> 1:25:14.680 had some nasty, nasty sex. Well everyone else listened. We 1:25:14.720 --> 1:25:17.040 probably should have gone in there from the beginning, but whatever. 1:25:17.560 --> 1:25:20.280 I was so horny I didn't care. We now have 1:25:20.400 --> 1:25:23.400 two kids and just got married. Oh and those friends 1:25:23.600 --> 1:25:24.639 don't talk to us anymore. 1:25:26.400 --> 1:25:29.639 Manifestation right, that was perfect? 1:25:30.720 --> 1:25:33.200 Yeah, yeah, just like we said, if you want the 1:25:33.280 --> 1:25:37.960 freaky fun family, you can do that. 1:25:38.200 --> 1:25:41.519 You can do that. That's so cool. Goals, I'm really 1:25:41.600 --> 1:25:47.000 horny now. Made that was a really hot one. Choos too, 1:25:48.520 --> 1:25:52.479 Oh yeah, amazing. I was like, you're my type. Of girl, 1:25:52.840 --> 1:25:54.320 I said the only thing I wish I wish you 1:25:54.320 --> 1:25:56.200 would have punched that guy in the face. 1:25:56.200 --> 1:25:59.600 Right, that would have been while you write whe. 1:26:02.080 --> 1:26:06.639 Wow, Well we've been talking a long time. 1:26:06.760 --> 1:26:08.519 Yeah, it's been a while, so we got to go. 1:26:08.680 --> 1:26:11.720 The kids start coming when I must leave and. 1:26:13.000 --> 1:26:16.960 Got a doctor's appointment. Yeah, okay, dokie, See you. 1:26:17.000 --> 1:26:17.760 Guys next week. 1:26:18.479 --> 1:26:22.080 Make sure to watch this episode on our Patreon search 1:26:22.160 --> 1:26:23.280 Good Mom's Bad Choices. 1:26:23.320 --> 1:26:25.280 You're gonna want to see that car head situation. 1:26:25.320 --> 1:26:28.920 You really well, i'm't like I'm gonna I need to 1:26:29.000 --> 1:26:30.800 try that. I didn't even think about bad as. 1:26:31.360 --> 1:26:31.720 I think it was. 1:26:31.920 --> 1:26:32.160 I'm not. 1:26:32.200 --> 1:26:34.640 I think the dashboard in the seat is right, that's 1:26:34.680 --> 1:26:36.519 the perfect level. Yeah, and I propped my and I. 1:26:36.600 --> 1:26:43.240 Like, bring it up. That's amazing. Patreon. There are sex 1:26:43.320 --> 1:26:45.479 moves on their car sex moves. You know what's music 1:26:45.520 --> 1:26:48.080 you were listening to at the time. Try to paint 1:26:48.120 --> 1:26:48.719 the scene. 1:26:50.040 --> 1:26:55.080 Up tempo Atlanta up so Debaby, I think it was 1:26:55.200 --> 1:26:57.360 the baby. I've been like a lot of de baby 1:26:57.520 --> 1:27:01.120 all week long. Literally, if you text mer time about 1:27:01.280 --> 1:27:02.120 the baby bitch. 1:27:02.680 --> 1:27:04.840 Anytime I asked her about a song for anything, She's 1:27:04.840 --> 1:27:05.759 like well the baby. 1:27:05.840 --> 1:27:08.960 I'm like, bitch, Mira only listens to the baby, so 1:27:09.160 --> 1:27:12.160 I'm like, do the baby baby it's called baby side 1:27:12.200 --> 1:27:15.439 the baby, but it was like, yeah, he has what's 1:27:15.439 --> 1:27:15.880 another one? 1:27:17.200 --> 1:27:19.599 I don't know, maybe was the album is something the baby? 1:27:19.760 --> 1:27:19.960 Yeah? 1:27:21.000 --> 1:27:23.200 Anyway, and there's another baby, little baby. 1:27:23.520 --> 1:27:24.559 There was another little baby. 1:27:24.680 --> 1:27:26.320 I can't keep up which one was a cute one? 1:27:26.680 --> 1:27:29.960 The baby? No? I think, well, I don't know. Okay, whatever? 1:27:32.720 --> 1:27:39.519 Uh too high. 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Put it out then, not 1:28:44.520 --> 1:28:46.880 titty for I fuck up from the back of see 1:28:46.960 --> 1:28:49.479 now it's killing them. No, I give it up. I'll 1:28:49.520 --> 1:28:51.400 be cool on the bitch. Ain't no pressure until I 1:28:51.479 --> 1:28:54.040 met this le freaking named Meg. Then the thing that's died. 1:28:54.200 --> 1:28:56.840 Look at you out, look at you, she says, I 1:28:57.040 --> 1:28:59.559 like when they pretty in ghetto the business. Don't even 1:28:59.560 --> 1:29:02.000 say hello. And whenever we're supposed to be sucking me 1:29:02.080 --> 1:29:04.240 back with her in the headlight with my elbow, I 1:29:04.320 --> 1:29:06.400 see them reverse, got a bone of dick and ride 1:29:06.439 --> 1:29:07.400 the ship like a camaro. 1:29:08.040 --> 1:29:10.679 I can't be fucked with. Nope, Oh you can't touch 1:29:10.880 --> 1:29:11.439 this height. 1:29:12.040 --> 1:29:14.000 Don re ship my money