WEBVTT - Too Healed to Hoe 0:00:00.200 --> 0:00:03.520 Once upon a time there was a good old traditional housewife. 0:00:03.680 --> 0:00:04.280 She couldn't. 0:00:04.440 --> 0:00:06.840 She cleaned and cared for her children and the man 0:00:06.880 --> 0:00:09.680 of the house, and of course she didn't talk back. 0:00:09.800 --> 0:00:12.640 She was both obedient and soft by nature. She was 0:00:12.680 --> 0:00:15.600 a good woman who always made good choices. 0:00:16.160 --> 0:00:18.759 I shared that shit. We're good mom's bad choices. 0:00:18.800 --> 0:00:21.520 Who single mom who said fuck the patriarchy shared all 0:00:21.520 --> 0:00:22.480 their bad choices and. 0:00:22.440 --> 0:00:23.600 Sound out they were so bad. 0:00:23.640 --> 0:00:26.600 After all, we're experts, overshares and your new besties. 0:00:26.720 --> 0:00:29.320 Sit back and enjoy the ride. I can do it. 0:00:32.920 --> 0:00:34.720 Welcome back to good mom's bad choices. 0:00:34.880 --> 0:00:35.199 I'm me. 0:00:36.920 --> 0:00:43.200 Sorry, God wrong. Welcome back to good mom's bad choices. 0:00:43.240 --> 0:00:47.040 I'm Mela and I'm Erica, and this is good mom's 0:00:47.080 --> 0:00:47.840 bad choices. 0:00:48.280 --> 0:00:53.720 Twenty twenty six, y'all, Hey, bitches, see it's next year. 0:00:53.760 --> 0:01:01.040 Ho next year house the girl Mela, listen up, poor, 0:01:02.160 --> 0:01:03.680 It's twenty twenty six, beach. 0:01:04.920 --> 0:01:06.600 I feel like we're convincing ourselves. 0:01:06.920 --> 0:01:09.080 I am it's a new year. Yesterday, when you said 0:01:09.080 --> 0:01:15.640 it feels like December thirty second, I was like, yeah. 0:01:14.160 --> 0:01:16.720 I saw mem yesterday that said I don't know how 0:01:16.720 --> 0:01:18.080 I can go to work tomorrow. I don't even know 0:01:18.080 --> 0:01:21.640 what I do anymore. I was like, for real, what 0:01:21.680 --> 0:01:22.560 am I doing. 0:01:23.880 --> 0:01:24.360 In LA. 0:01:24.440 --> 0:01:27.360 It's been raining for like a week, which is only 0:01:27.400 --> 0:01:31.240 happens once a year, maybe twice. So it's been feeling 0:01:31.360 --> 0:01:33.360 very much like shut the fuck up and sit the 0:01:33.360 --> 0:01:36.280 fuck down and do nothing. And I really appreciate that 0:01:36.520 --> 0:01:38.959 because I want to sit the fuck down and do 0:01:39.040 --> 0:01:40.400 nothing for a month. 0:01:40.600 --> 0:01:43.680 I want to knock on wood. 0:01:45.040 --> 0:01:47.840 I kind of want twenty twenty over again without the panic. 0:01:47.960 --> 0:01:50.760 We've already said this, I know, but I do. I 0:01:50.800 --> 0:01:54.480 want to sit the fuck down. I wanted to be 0:01:54.520 --> 0:01:56.600 no traffic. I want to sit down. Apparently there's a 0:01:56.640 --> 0:01:58.680 deadly virus. You know, I have been saying I don't 0:01:58.680 --> 0:02:00.560 want it to be there. 0:02:00.080 --> 0:02:03.160 So it was apparently at New York Airport slot yesterday 0:02:03.240 --> 0:02:05.400 or two days ago, so it might be on the way. 0:02:05.520 --> 0:02:07.760 You know, the world's going to shit when you're kind 0:02:08.440 --> 0:02:11.640 kind of wishing for a deadly virus or some kind 0:02:11.680 --> 0:02:12.800 of biohazard, or. 0:02:13.160 --> 0:02:15.280 I don't want a deadly virus because then I it 0:02:15.400 --> 0:02:17.680 might dead me. I don't want to be dead. 0:02:17.720 --> 0:02:19.480 Do you remember when we thought monkey pox was going 0:02:19.560 --> 0:02:21.399 to come after COVID. 0:02:21.120 --> 0:02:23.839 Renumber when my ex boyfriend course sort of got monkey pox. Yeah, 0:02:23.880 --> 0:02:26.600 and that's what really was the scariest part. I was like, 0:02:26.639 --> 0:02:27.160 oh my god. 0:02:27.639 --> 0:02:29.680 I had a whole theory. I was like, COVID wasn't 0:02:29.720 --> 0:02:32.560 bad enough. They had to make something more visual because 0:02:32.600 --> 0:02:34.440 the humans are more visual, and then they're really going 0:02:34.480 --> 0:02:37.360 to get scared. And then he did. He didn't get it, 0:02:37.400 --> 0:02:37.880 but he did. 0:02:38.200 --> 0:02:39.840 I don't know. That had to be monkey That was 0:02:39.880 --> 0:02:41.840 some mother shit. That was the That was the devil 0:02:42.280 --> 0:02:43.160 working over time. 0:02:43.360 --> 0:02:46.120 Can you just can you just listen to the signs 0:02:46.480 --> 0:02:48.760 in the future, because I never heard of Nigga get 0:02:49.040 --> 0:02:51.960 any monkey pox to not come on a trip, like 0:02:52.040 --> 0:02:54.960 God was trying to tell you, and you're like, not listening. 0:02:56.120 --> 0:03:02.840 I did listen two years later. Yeah, God wasn't going 0:03:02.919 --> 0:03:05.520 to let him come to my sacred land of Costa Rica. 0:03:05.840 --> 0:03:07.600 He's like, no, we have to be we have to 0:03:07.600 --> 0:03:10.239 be extreme. Monkey pop have monkey pox. 0:03:11.400 --> 0:03:14.600 But as you could tell with us wearing our shirlings 0:03:15.000 --> 0:03:16.760 and me wearing my new wig because I didn't want 0:03:16.760 --> 0:03:21.200 to do my hair, we're not really ready yet. I 0:03:21.240 --> 0:03:22.760 don't know if you could tell, but I'm just gonna 0:03:22.760 --> 0:03:23.560 say it me too. 0:03:23.639 --> 0:03:27.360 You see to slip back. Nah, really here all the way. 0:03:27.520 --> 0:03:30.040 So I was gonna do my hair this morning and 0:03:30.080 --> 0:03:33.360 I was like, no, I'm not ready for that yet. 0:03:34.160 --> 0:03:35.320 So here we are. 0:03:35.480 --> 0:03:38.640 There's my hair, there's nothing to do. It just didn't work. 0:03:39.240 --> 0:03:41.880 I was like, no, it's not happening. I've set my 0:03:41.920 --> 0:03:45.520 alarm early to figure it out. And this is how 0:03:45.520 --> 0:03:48.160 as far as I got a double whammy. You can 0:03:48.200 --> 0:03:53.400 call me jemmilet Jemmy Lett. There was a billboard by 0:03:53.440 --> 0:03:56.480 my house for like a month of some Persian woman 0:03:56.560 --> 0:03:58.600 with a lot of makeup and extensions, and it was 0:03:58.640 --> 0:04:01.080 like Jemmy Lit. And every time I was like, why 0:04:01.160 --> 0:04:03.360 does this bitch have a billboard? And finally I looked 0:04:03.440 --> 0:04:05.880 up Gemleete because I was like, maybe our daughter's name 0:04:05.920 --> 0:04:09.600 was gonna be Gemalet and it was a clothing line. Oh, 0:04:09.920 --> 0:04:11.040 shout out to Jemlette. 0:04:11.200 --> 0:04:12.760 I was good. I was gonna say, you're giving more 0:04:12.800 --> 0:04:16.960 like Pam Anderson, you know, MTV Awards, or maybe Jamiroquai, 0:04:17.560 --> 0:04:19.000 because I feel like he wore that hat and the. 0:04:19.400 --> 0:04:22.839 Like Pam Anderson MTV Awards. I just looked up that 0:04:22.839 --> 0:04:23.640 outphit recently. 0:04:23.720 --> 0:04:27.520 Were you with me? Okay? Yeah, because I liked because 0:04:27.560 --> 0:04:30.120 she had that hat on. Yeah, and then yeah, I 0:04:30.120 --> 0:04:31.839 think it was purple. That's like the same. 0:04:31.880 --> 0:04:34.320 I feel like that's the same era of Angeline and 0:04:34.400 --> 0:04:37.640 Jolie and Billie, Bob Thornton. It was like a ninety 0:04:37.680 --> 0:04:38.599 eight ninety nine. 0:04:38.720 --> 0:04:42.240 When everyone was like drinking each other's blood and like 0:04:42.440 --> 0:04:45.479 the women were. It was just like it was like 0:04:46.240 --> 0:04:49.520 another burst of sexual liberation that was happening around that 0:04:49.560 --> 0:04:51.680 time in Hollywood. I would say for women, it was 0:04:51.720 --> 0:04:55.920 like Rose McGowan was like with is Rose what you know? 0:04:56.040 --> 0:04:59.560 Rose McGowan dropping white women names like I'm supposed to 0:04:59.560 --> 0:05:01.320 just have the profile of white like I did to 0:05:01.320 --> 0:05:03.000 see their picture. I don't know these bitches names. They 0:05:03.080 --> 0:05:04.800 all kind of look alike. I've been watching so many 0:05:04.800 --> 0:05:06.200 white movies in the last seven days. 0:05:06.240 --> 0:05:09.640 You ever see a jawbreaker, Yeah, okay, she's the leading jawbreaker. 0:05:10.120 --> 0:05:12.840 She's Marylyn, She's Marylynd, she's a singer, and she was 0:05:12.880 --> 0:05:17.720 Marilyn Monroe's wife fiance Marilyn Rosemary. I mean not Marilyn Monroe, Marylynd, 0:05:19.279 --> 0:05:27.799 Marilyn Marilyn, Marilyn Manson. I was like, all these years, 0:05:27.839 --> 0:05:29.839 I had no idea well you see her. You didn't 0:05:29.839 --> 0:05:31.360 know her Rose McGowan. 0:05:34.240 --> 0:05:42.640 Yeah, no, okay, she gets younger and these photos, I'm okay, wow, 0:05:42.760 --> 0:05:43.800 looks totally different. 0:05:43.880 --> 0:05:46.000 Does she knows? Look at her? Then this is who 0:05:46.040 --> 0:05:52.000 I remember? Yeah, Rose, Well she's had some health issues. Okay, 0:05:52.480 --> 0:05:55.640 so and she's older and she actually looks pretty good health. 0:05:55.839 --> 0:05:57.440 But she just doesn't know. I just didn't know that 0:05:57.560 --> 0:05:57.760 was her. 0:05:57.839 --> 0:06:00.320 I had to scroll back to the Jawbreaker time, which 0:06:00.320 --> 0:06:04.720 is what I specifically remember, which also reminds me that 0:06:04.960 --> 0:06:06.440 time is moving by way fast. 0:06:07.320 --> 0:06:08.440 My concept of time. 0:06:08.520 --> 0:06:10.160 I thought it was my add but it's just some 0:06:10.320 --> 0:06:12.800 fucked What I think is five minutes is more like 0:06:13.279 --> 0:06:14.040 fifty hours. 0:06:15.360 --> 0:06:19.640 What are they who's saying like like like a thousand 0:06:19.720 --> 0:06:23.280 years to us? Is God's like day? Like a thousand 0:06:23.360 --> 0:06:25.640 years for humans? Is like one day for God? Who 0:06:25.760 --> 0:06:29.720 said this? The Bible? I think it does? Yeah, I 0:06:29.760 --> 0:06:32.280 don't think so. Did you read every single page in 0:06:32.320 --> 0:06:34.040 the Bible to know that that's not I read a 0:06:34.040 --> 0:06:37.200 lot of it. For all my Bible thumpers, I'm listening 0:06:37.360 --> 0:06:39.560 right now. Did you read the Bible? You've never paid 0:06:39.680 --> 0:06:43.640 the Bible? No, but someone biblical told me that who's 0:06:43.680 --> 0:06:50.720 someone biblical my boyfriend. Now you're having a biblical boyfriend, 0:06:51.120 --> 0:06:54.600 and I have a former. I have a former Jehovah's 0:06:54.640 --> 0:06:55.520 witness boyfriend. 0:06:55.640 --> 0:06:57.640 One time I was I think we're in Thailand and 0:06:57.720 --> 0:06:59.560 you guys are on speakerphone and he said a word, 0:06:59.640 --> 0:07:02.600 and I was like, that is the most biblical. 0:07:02.200 --> 0:07:07.520 Word I've ever heard a young person use. Shepherd? Oh, 0:07:07.680 --> 0:07:11.080 like like shepherding the people. Yeah, I was like, call 0:07:11.160 --> 0:07:14.040 me off guard. I was like, I've never used shepherd 0:07:14.080 --> 0:07:16.640 in a sentence because you're not a biblical place, I know. 0:07:16.920 --> 0:07:20.160 I was like, I've never heard anyone under fifties. Well 0:07:20.200 --> 0:07:22.160 that's going to kept this four hundred and twenty two 0:07:22.240 --> 0:07:26.800 years old. I was literally like pondering, like, shepherd is that? 0:07:27.520 --> 0:07:27.640 Oh? 0:07:27.720 --> 0:07:31.320 My God? Not a biblical person told me. Does the 0:07:31.480 --> 0:07:38.240 Bible say how many days is a day? For God? Okay, 0:07:38.400 --> 0:07:42.360 well good to know anyway. That makes sense to me 0:07:42.480 --> 0:07:44.280 because God is so vast and so broad. 0:07:45.000 --> 0:07:46.880 I don't think God operates in time at all. I 0:07:46.920 --> 0:07:49.320 don't think there's any translation because I don't think time 0:07:49.400 --> 0:07:52.640 is real. I think it's made up, and that's why 0:07:52.680 --> 0:07:55.360 we're aging ourselves by believing it and celebrating the new 0:07:55.440 --> 0:07:56.840 year and singing Happy Birthday. 0:07:57.920 --> 0:08:00.680 Back in the day, you're just living. I think we 0:08:00.760 --> 0:08:02.800 were younger too, because weren't looking at ourselves so much. 0:08:02.880 --> 0:08:06.200 I think like we started fucking up and aging when 0:08:06.200 --> 0:08:09.200 we had access to like phones with cameras. Do you 0:08:09.240 --> 0:08:12.280 remember when our cameras didn't have fucking when our phones 0:08:12.320 --> 0:08:16.520 didn't have cameras. Yeah, no, Ki the Sidekick, I just 0:08:16.600 --> 0:08:19.160 looked at a post, a post the BlackBerry didn't even 0:08:19.200 --> 0:08:21.280 have a camera. No, because we didn't need a camera. 0:08:21.640 --> 0:08:22.840 We just had chats. 0:08:23.080 --> 0:08:26.360 Mirrors are kind of a new discovery, like this is 0:08:26.400 --> 0:08:27.920 a more modern technology. 0:08:28.000 --> 0:08:29.800 People didn't have mirror technology. 0:08:29.880 --> 0:08:31.640 It's true, but you had to learn how to make it. 0:08:31.720 --> 0:08:34.079 Like who fuck made a mirror? I don't know, but 0:08:34.520 --> 0:08:36.920 that took time. And before we just looked into a 0:08:37.000 --> 0:08:38.440 pond and we're like, looks pretty. 0:08:38.200 --> 0:08:41.840 Good, Hey girl, do I look okay? Yeah? 0:08:43.440 --> 0:08:45.240 Could love me and you're gonna say yeah, and that 0:08:45.360 --> 0:08:45.480 was it. 0:08:46.120 --> 0:08:48.080 Yeah. I think if we looked at at ourselves less, 0:08:48.120 --> 0:08:50.439 we would be a lot kinder to ourselves. I think 0:08:50.480 --> 0:08:53.720 if we had less, should we do it? No mirror challenge, 0:08:54.360 --> 0:08:58.839 No mirror Challenge, twenty four hours it's gonna be it's 0:08:58.840 --> 0:09:00.360 gonna be hard. It's fine with me. 0:09:00.840 --> 0:09:02.199 There's times and I'm looking in the mirror for like 0:09:02.200 --> 0:09:02.640 a whole day. 0:09:02.920 --> 0:09:04.680 Some people have mirrors all over the fucking house. 0:09:04.760 --> 0:09:04.920 I do. 0:09:05.040 --> 0:09:08.439 I still do't look at it, walk right past. What 0:09:08.559 --> 0:09:12.160 do I look like right now? I don't know. It's me. 0:09:14.240 --> 0:09:16.480 I'm avoidant, so I can easily not look at myself 0:09:16.559 --> 0:09:18.920 in the mirror and think I'm beautiful, just keep walking by. 0:09:19.000 --> 0:09:20.640 And then I finally do. I'm like, oh, I know 0:09:20.760 --> 0:09:24.439 that happened to me this morning. I like did twenty things. 0:09:24.600 --> 0:09:25.959 And then I finally looked at the mirror and my 0:09:26.080 --> 0:09:29.040 hair looked like it was like growing this way, and 0:09:29.120 --> 0:09:30.040 I was like, what the fuck? 0:09:30.080 --> 0:09:33.400 And even smiling on people's faces, I was like, good morning, love. 0:09:33.240 --> 0:09:39.240 You, Hey, heppen, poor men, Oh my god, your poor 0:09:39.360 --> 0:09:43.040 good thing. Your man's biblical. He's not gonna judge now, 0:09:43.160 --> 0:09:46.240 he's too busy shepherding the people. Oh my goodness. 0:09:46.760 --> 0:09:50.120 I was looking at a post about that twenty That 0:09:50.200 --> 0:09:53.160 two thousand and six was twenty years ago, and I 0:09:53.240 --> 0:09:55.120 graduated high school in twenty twenty six. And there was 0:09:55.160 --> 0:09:57.319 like in the video that had some things like some 0:09:57.400 --> 0:09:59.880 high school students saying two thousand and six is the year, 0:10:00.000 --> 0:10:01.960 and there's like I had the pink Razor. I remember 0:10:02.000 --> 0:10:04.240 I had the pink Razor Motorola razor when I went 0:10:04.280 --> 0:10:06.280 to college, and I thought I was a shit. I 0:10:06.280 --> 0:10:09.320 had a sidekick, yeah, and I was like college flipping 0:10:09.320 --> 0:10:09.600 it open. 0:10:09.920 --> 0:10:12.280 Yeah. It was like I should just do this. Hello, Hello, 0:10:12.480 --> 0:10:14.400 it was pink. I thought it was mine is gray, 0:10:15.040 --> 0:10:15.560 Me and Jared. 0:10:15.880 --> 0:10:19.079 Now we have twelve thousand dollars phones or were killing 0:10:19.120 --> 0:10:24.160 people for them and when were times? But I was 0:10:24.280 --> 0:10:26.400 in the smoke shop late at night the other day 0:10:27.160 --> 0:10:29.200 and I don't know why people love me so much. 0:10:29.240 --> 0:10:30.280 I don't really have to say much. 0:10:30.320 --> 0:10:31.480 I was there's a couple of people in front of me, 0:10:31.480 --> 0:10:33.440 and this girl like sorry walking by me, and she's 0:10:33.480 --> 0:10:37.880 like just stopped. It's like you're so beautiful. I was like, really, 0:10:38.679 --> 0:10:41.280 I don't feel really beautiful, but thanks. She's like, for real, 0:10:41.320 --> 0:10:42.000 you're gorgeous. 0:10:42.080 --> 0:10:43.600 I was like, think, so are you? And she's like. 0:10:45.160 --> 0:10:46.719 I was like okay, and she like walked away and 0:10:46.800 --> 0:10:49.160 she came back. It's like you having a good night. 0:10:49.240 --> 0:10:52.520 She's like yeah, I'm lit, Like. 0:10:52.600 --> 0:10:53.280 No shit, bitch. 0:10:53.679 --> 0:10:56.000 Two o'clock in the morning, You're staring at me. And 0:10:56.160 --> 0:10:58.120 also the lights are like this in the smoke shop. 0:10:58.160 --> 0:10:59.679 I don't know why because it's up until three am. 0:10:59.720 --> 0:11:00.320 They need lights. 0:11:00.559 --> 0:11:02.640 And she's like, I'm leting me to get some modern 0:11:02.640 --> 0:11:05.440 I'm like okay. She's like, I was like, what are 0:11:05.480 --> 0:11:07.600 you doing tonight. She's like, I don't know. You live 0:11:07.640 --> 0:11:09.280 the neighborhood and now I live in Sun Valley. 0:11:09.280 --> 0:11:12.480 I'm like okay. She's like, I was like, are you 0:11:12.520 --> 0:11:14.880 from here? I just starting conversation because she was just sitting. 0:11:14.640 --> 0:11:16.240 In front of me, and she's like I went to 0:11:16.440 --> 0:11:17.640 where I was like, where'd you go to high school? 0:11:17.640 --> 0:11:19.480 Because I just thought maybe that was a question. She's like, 0:11:19.520 --> 0:11:20.679 so and so where'd you go? And I was like, 0:11:20.720 --> 0:11:23.040 I went to high school a long time ago. And 0:11:23.240 --> 0:11:25.240 I was like Saint Jabbe. She's like, no, no, you 0:11:25.320 --> 0:11:25.559 did it. 0:11:25.720 --> 0:11:28.480 And I was like, I graduated twenty years ago. 0:11:30.360 --> 0:11:32.480 And the two guys at the smoke Tu're like, oh shit, 0:11:34.240 --> 0:11:37.120 you nigga shut out. They're like, no, no, it's just 0:11:37.160 --> 0:11:41.840 how you said it. I was like, damn, I wasn't 0:11:41.840 --> 0:11:42.400 really beginning. 0:11:42.480 --> 0:11:44.439 Oh my god. I had a similar I had a 0:11:44.480 --> 0:11:47.160 similar interaction. Where was I at. I was at a restaurant, 0:11:47.200 --> 0:11:48.920 and I was some of us. I was saying, I 0:11:48.920 --> 0:11:51.480 don't know. I wasn't even talking to this person. I 0:11:51.600 --> 0:11:53.280 was talking to someone else and I was like, nobody 0:11:53.320 --> 0:11:54.760 goes out on the weekends, so we go out during 0:11:54.800 --> 0:11:56.160 the week and he was this was like this young guy. 0:11:56.200 --> 0:11:58.320 He's like, actually, no, people do go out on the weekends. 0:11:58.320 --> 0:12:00.480 And I was like, no, they don't. And he was like, 0:12:00.840 --> 0:12:03.439 I just went out this weekend. And I was like, okay, well, 0:12:03.480 --> 0:12:05.640 I don't know where you're going, but the better places 0:12:05.760 --> 0:12:08.679 are typically on Mondays through Thursday. That the bitch who 0:12:08.720 --> 0:12:12.960 goes nowhere Monday. According to my calculations from two years ago, 0:12:14.000 --> 0:12:17.400 Monday through Thursdays is the day. And he just looked 0:12:17.440 --> 0:12:18.920 at me, and I could tell he was like how 0:12:18.960 --> 0:12:21.319 old you're old? And I was like, fuck you. And 0:12:21.400 --> 0:12:22.840 I was like, she can why don't people fucking mind 0:12:22.880 --> 0:12:26.280 their business? I was even bucking talking to him. She 0:12:26.400 --> 0:12:29.760 was like, you look so good. I can't believe you're 0:12:29.840 --> 0:12:30.680 thirty seven. 0:12:31.480 --> 0:12:34.280 They're like thirty one. I was like thirty seven. They're like, oh, 0:12:34.840 --> 0:12:37.760 I was like twenty years ago. I graduated. 0:12:39.559 --> 0:12:40.840 And then I was like, Wow, we're here. 0:12:41.000 --> 0:12:45.160 We're here in this time where I am the old 0:12:45.240 --> 0:12:48.280 bitch at the smoke shop, but youo I am, And 0:12:48.360 --> 0:12:49.840 I was like, something's wrong with me because the old dad. 0:12:49.720 --> 0:12:50.800 Would be like, are you okay? Do you want to 0:12:50.840 --> 0:12:52.679 come over? I was like, let me just leave this 0:12:52.800 --> 0:12:56.199 fucking bitch. I know, like, where did you find this one? 0:12:57.240 --> 0:13:00.400 Where did you drag this one in from Mila? You know, 0:13:00.480 --> 0:13:00.840 a good thing. 0:13:01.000 --> 0:13:02.920 Early in my twenties, I learned my lesson, like I 0:13:02.960 --> 0:13:04.559 would like go home with people because I thought we 0:13:04.600 --> 0:13:07.480 were best friends. And one time this girl wouldn't leave 0:13:07.520 --> 0:13:09.959 my house. And then I got invited to a basketball 0:13:10.000 --> 0:13:12.000 game and so I like dropped her off at this 0:13:12.160 --> 0:13:12.880 neighbor's house. 0:13:12.960 --> 0:13:14.400 I was like, at the neighbor's house. 0:13:14.559 --> 0:13:16.800 This guy I used to like fuck on sometimes upstairs, 0:13:16.840 --> 0:13:17.959 and I said, let's go see my neighbor. 0:13:18.000 --> 0:13:18.760 And then we were up there. 0:13:18.800 --> 0:13:20.480 I'm like, I'm actually going to do a basketball game. 0:13:20.480 --> 0:13:21.280 I'm gonna leave her here. 0:13:21.320 --> 0:13:25.920 I'll be back. He texted like what the fuck? I 0:13:26.000 --> 0:13:27.280 was like, I don't know, man, told girl. 0:13:28.440 --> 0:13:31.280 But yeah, I realized in my thirty seven years of life, 0:13:31.320 --> 0:13:34.000 it took me to realize even if someone's friendly and 0:13:34.160 --> 0:13:36.480 is attracted to you and won't leave you alone, it 0:13:36.520 --> 0:13:38.199 does not mean you should post to bring them home 0:13:38.280 --> 0:13:41.040 and save them. Leave them where they're at because you 0:13:41.080 --> 0:13:44.920 don't know what's going on in their psyche. Hmmm, smart, 0:13:44.960 --> 0:13:49.000 I'm glad that you've you've come to this thirty seven 0:13:49.120 --> 0:13:53.600 years later, evolution, growth, maturity, safety. 0:13:55.679 --> 0:13:57.680 Speaking of that, what do you do for New Years? 0:14:00.040 --> 0:14:01.680 Laid on the couch and fell asleep and woke up 0:14:01.679 --> 0:14:04.760 a twelve thirty and watched a movie. What was I watching? 0:14:06.800 --> 0:14:06.839 No? 0:14:06.960 --> 0:14:10.319 I watched Dave Chappelle with you started watching that? Oh yeah, like, 0:14:10.320 --> 0:14:11.920 I watched it again. I liked it. I loved it. 0:14:13.080 --> 0:14:14.520 I was watching something. I don't know. I didn't I 0:14:14.559 --> 0:14:15.760 didn't do anything. What'd you do? 0:14:18.320 --> 0:14:22.080 I stayed home and didn't go to the play. No, 0:14:22.240 --> 0:14:23.200 I didn't go to the place we. 0:14:23.240 --> 0:14:27.320 Went we were nominated, I don't. I don't think we 0:14:27.400 --> 0:14:29.720 won because we didn't go. Fuck, we could still win. 0:14:29.800 --> 0:14:31.840 We just weren't gonna get presented, That's what I asked him. 0:14:31.880 --> 0:14:33.000 Like, but if we went, we're not coming. 0:14:33.320 --> 0:14:36.560 We got presented with the most sex with the Most 0:14:36.600 --> 0:14:41.600 sex Positive Podcast nomination from the play Sex Party the 0:14:41.680 --> 0:14:45.280 Seat founder Michael Hollis told me, but we didn't go because. 0:14:45.360 --> 0:14:47.120 It was I don't I don't know if anybody knows 0:14:47.160 --> 0:14:47.720 is if you don't. 0:14:47.600 --> 0:14:50.840 Live in La or California, but when it rains, nobody 0:14:50.920 --> 0:14:53.880 does anything. You would think it was a snowstorm. So 0:14:54.680 --> 0:14:57.600 all plans get delayed. And I was supposed to go, 0:14:57.680 --> 0:14:59.640 but I was I was really feeling like I wasn't 0:14:59.640 --> 0:15:01.920 supposed to do anything. I kept asking Orlando, like, are 0:15:02.000 --> 0:15:03.560 you sure you want to go to the plate party? 0:15:03.560 --> 0:15:04.600 He's like, I said, I want to go out. I 0:15:04.680 --> 0:15:06.800 was like, so we're going to play party and he's 0:15:06.840 --> 0:15:08.840 like finally, he's like, actually, I don't think we should go. 0:15:08.880 --> 0:15:12.440 I was like, okay, Like bitch, writy to say that. 0:15:12.840 --> 0:15:15.440 But our friend, our homegirl, came down from San Francisco. 0:15:15.600 --> 0:15:16.240 Was her birthday. 0:15:16.640 --> 0:15:18.600 Oh yeah, I didn't. Fuck I did? 0:15:18.720 --> 0:15:18.800 Did? 0:15:18.840 --> 0:15:20.760 I was sure? Happy birthday, birthday, Aaron. 0:15:20.800 --> 0:15:21.160 I love you. 0:15:22.320 --> 0:15:23.240 I'm gonna text you later. 0:15:24.800 --> 0:15:26.440 I went out to dinner with her on the night 0:15:26.480 --> 0:15:29.160 before New Year's Eve to a really good restaurant. 0:15:29.200 --> 0:15:31.400 Actually, she told me this was Panamanian or something. Oh 0:15:31.520 --> 0:15:31.760 my god. 0:15:31.800 --> 0:15:33.880 So when we were in Panama together, someone told us 0:15:33.880 --> 0:15:35.560 a chef out there had this restaurant, so I've been 0:15:35.600 --> 0:15:39.000 wanting to go for like two years. I was orgasmic 0:15:39.040 --> 0:15:41.240 when I ate the food. I've never felt like I 0:15:41.320 --> 0:15:43.600 had to moan immediately when putting something in my mouth. 0:15:43.680 --> 0:15:46.520 But anyway, it's called Simon in Venice. 0:15:47.000 --> 0:15:47.320 But I. 0:15:49.360 --> 0:15:53.080 I we decorated, and then because I have a natural 0:15:53.200 --> 0:15:57.280 urge to invite people to my house, somebody text me 0:15:57.360 --> 0:15:58.600 and I was like, Hey, what are you doing? And 0:15:58.680 --> 0:16:00.600 my friend who lives down the street, he's like, nothing 0:16:00.760 --> 0:16:02.760 is I was like, you could come over if you want, 0:16:02.920 --> 0:16:04.640 And so we're just like in the house and like 0:16:05.280 --> 0:16:08.040 topless and naked and like just rolling around. She had 0:16:08.080 --> 0:16:10.760 some Mollie and we were like rolling around and then 0:16:11.160 --> 0:16:14.200 he comes over at like twelve eleven forty five. He 0:16:14.280 --> 0:16:15.720 opens the door, and I just noticed he's like looking 0:16:15.760 --> 0:16:19.040 behind him, like are you with people? He's like yeah. 0:16:19.040 --> 0:16:21.080 I was like give me a second, I close the door. 0:16:21.080 --> 0:16:23.120 I'm like there's people here, more than one. So we 0:16:23.280 --> 0:16:25.360 like put on our clothes and then they come into 0:16:25.400 --> 0:16:27.440 like three guys that I didn't two guys I didn't know, 0:16:27.560 --> 0:16:30.800 and we literally had an impromptu dance party and dance 0:16:30.840 --> 0:16:32.320 in the mirror and I was like, look in the mirror, 0:16:32.720 --> 0:16:35.120 tell yourself, you love yourself, and then we just they 0:16:35.280 --> 0:16:38.120 stayed for like two hours and then that was it. 0:16:38.800 --> 0:16:41.400 We didn't do shit. That sounds great. It was kind 0:16:41.400 --> 0:16:41.680 of funny. 0:16:41.800 --> 0:16:43.440 I kind of wanted to dance, but it wasn't such 0:16:43.440 --> 0:16:45.120 a giving dance party with three of us, So then 0:16:45.120 --> 0:16:46.400 we I haded three people and then it was six 0:16:46.440 --> 0:16:48.280 and then it was a party for one hour. 0:16:48.560 --> 0:16:50.480 Nice, it's fun. Yeah. I was like you said it 0:16:50.560 --> 0:16:54.080 was raining, and I did like some spiritual practice stuff, 0:16:54.480 --> 0:16:59.120 did some meditating. Didn't get to vision boarding. Because we're magazines. 0:17:00.320 --> 0:17:02.440 We are magazines. Where are they? Do they exist? Oh? 0:17:02.480 --> 0:17:05.000 I think I said we're magazines. I was like, yes, 0:17:05.160 --> 0:17:11.320 we are. We would be in more twenty six. Yeah. 0:17:11.400 --> 0:17:14.160 I've just been like I feel like moving very very 0:17:15.119 --> 0:17:17.359 very slow. I've also had like house guests at my 0:17:17.480 --> 0:17:20.400 house for like a month, it feels like. So I've 0:17:20.440 --> 0:17:24.440 been like entertaining and try to be present and accommodating 0:17:25.119 --> 0:17:26.840 and also like trying to take space because like I'm 0:17:26.840 --> 0:17:28.280 not used to having people at my fucking house for 0:17:29.119 --> 0:17:33.720 twenty one day straight. So yeah, but it's been nice. 0:17:34.000 --> 0:17:36.800 I've been making do for all the motherfucking wrench that 0:17:36.920 --> 0:17:39.040 I pay, I will stay my ass at home. 0:17:39.080 --> 0:17:41.560 Well that's the thing I realize. I'm like every time 0:17:41.600 --> 0:17:43.320 I leave the house, I spend like two hundred dollars. 0:17:43.359 --> 0:17:45.439 So I'm just gonna sit the fuck down. I've been cooking. 0:17:45.800 --> 0:17:48.840 We did do some like manifestations. We burnt our stuff, 0:17:48.880 --> 0:17:50.879 we let our we release some stuff. We brought some 0:17:51.000 --> 0:17:55.200 stuff in, which is nice. Let lit some candles. But 0:17:56.160 --> 0:17:58.840 I've been feeling extremely slow, and it's been making a 0:17:59.000 --> 0:18:01.520 question if I'm just slow in general, because you know, 0:18:01.560 --> 0:18:03.359 I always say I feel slow, but I do. 0:18:03.560 --> 0:18:05.520 I feel like when I get overwhelm, I just want 0:18:05.520 --> 0:18:07.480 to lay back down. No, I just feel like December 0:18:07.560 --> 0:18:10.640 and I feel like a everything slows down in December, 0:18:10.760 --> 0:18:15.040 so you just naturally your body and everything around you 0:18:15.240 --> 0:18:17.280 kind of slows down. I don't, And I think like 0:18:17.400 --> 0:18:20.600 for some reason, because we're programmed all year to go, go, go, 0:18:20.720 --> 0:18:22.639 go go, then when we actually do slow down, we 0:18:22.760 --> 0:18:24.760 feel guilty and we feel confused, and we feel like 0:18:24.760 --> 0:18:26.399 we're not doing enough and like we're not preparing and 0:18:26.440 --> 0:18:29.200 we're not focused. And Instagram will make you really confused 0:18:29.240 --> 0:18:30.520 about like all the things you're supposed to be doing 0:18:30.520 --> 0:18:33.360 to prepared in twenty twenty six. And that's why I've 0:18:33.359 --> 0:18:36.560 been staying off of it. Oh no, what, I got 0:18:36.600 --> 0:18:38.240 a hole in the couch. It's okay, we have a 0:18:38.280 --> 0:18:38.560 new one. 0:18:38.920 --> 0:18:41.480 I haven't put the new couch in here. I thought 0:18:41.480 --> 0:18:42.920 it was for them there because other one broke. But 0:18:43.000 --> 0:18:44.640 we could, we could, We could do anything we want. 0:18:47.600 --> 0:18:49.440 I also feel like my New Year's was kind of 0:18:49.600 --> 0:18:51.320 like the mushroom party I had at my house the 0:18:51.359 --> 0:18:52.920 other night. Oh yeah, I feel like that was my 0:18:53.000 --> 0:18:56.399 New Year's. I had people over and we had like 0:18:56.480 --> 0:18:59.159 little sound bath and then we all took mushrooms and 0:19:00.280 --> 0:19:01.800 I haven't taken that high of a dose in a 0:19:01.880 --> 0:19:06.520 while maybe. And as I was playing the bowls, about 0:19:06.560 --> 0:19:09.920 five minutes into playing the bulls, I was incapacitated and 0:19:10.000 --> 0:19:11.920 I could no longer play, and she Kim was looking 0:19:11.960 --> 0:19:13.800 at me like, bitch, play a bowl and I was like, 0:19:13.800 --> 0:19:14.400 what were you doing? 0:19:14.720 --> 0:19:17.360 Just I got cold, so I went inside side an experience. 0:19:17.480 --> 0:19:20.040 I couldn't you're just sitting there. 0:19:20.320 --> 0:19:23.480 Yeah, one of my bulls wasn't working because it was 0:19:23.480 --> 0:19:26.119 like touching the yoga mat. And then I just was 0:19:26.240 --> 0:19:28.240 like and he was just watching and he was like 0:19:29.880 --> 0:19:32.000 and I was like, I'm done, figure it out. And 0:19:32.080 --> 0:19:34.160 then his friend came over and played for me. Oh 0:19:34.400 --> 0:19:36.639 and then I just sat there and because I was like, 0:19:36.720 --> 0:19:38.359 you know, when you must first hit you, you're like 0:19:39.040 --> 0:19:42.000 you need to breathe. You're like, what did I do? 0:19:42.359 --> 0:19:44.280 Am I okay? Am I okay? Is this smart? Is 0:19:44.320 --> 0:19:48.360 this okay? So it was great. I had a great time. 0:19:48.640 --> 0:19:50.879 There was so much like at my only hope for 0:19:50.960 --> 0:19:53.360 that night was just like joy and laughter. And all 0:19:53.400 --> 0:19:55.720 I heard from like different sectors of the house was 0:19:55.800 --> 0:19:58.639 just like people fucking hysterically laughing in different rooms and 0:19:58.680 --> 0:20:01.479 made me really happy. I was laughing. I really liked 0:20:01.480 --> 0:20:05.600 those lesbians. Where are they at? I think they're at 0:20:05.600 --> 0:20:08.600 my house right now. Where those lesbians? I like those girls. 0:20:10.000 --> 0:20:12.280 When they left, everybody left because I think I know everybody. 0:20:12.280 --> 0:20:14.720 I was like, who brought the lesbians? That's where she 0:20:14.800 --> 0:20:15.959 comes from. I was like, I like them. 0:20:15.960 --> 0:20:19.520 I've never seen them before. Yeah, I don't know what 0:20:19.640 --> 0:20:21.760 she was telling us. And You're like, I was like, 0:20:21.800 --> 0:20:23.960 oh I didn't. Ashley was selling one of the lesbians. 0:20:24.000 --> 0:20:25.200 Oh you were you went viral. 0:20:25.359 --> 0:20:27.120 I saw you. You did something. We were like, we're 0:20:27.160 --> 0:20:28.320 not on the Lelian algorithm. 0:20:28.359 --> 0:20:30.440 We're not on the lesbian algorithm. And then she was 0:20:30.480 --> 0:20:32.320 like it was vogue. I was like, oh, it's not lesbian, 0:20:32.400 --> 0:20:36.560 it's worldwide. She was like, Jamila used to be a lesbian. 0:20:36.640 --> 0:20:38.280 I was like, I used to be in the lesbian 0:20:38.320 --> 0:20:39.400 algorithm before. 0:20:39.160 --> 0:20:42.920 There's a I vouch for her. She really was a 0:20:43.000 --> 0:20:44.600 lesbian one. And they're looking at us like, what the 0:20:44.680 --> 0:20:45.600 fuck are you talking about? 0:20:46.400 --> 0:20:48.960 I was a lesbian. I'm no longer though. 0:20:49.560 --> 0:20:54.440 No, you're done. It's not really in me. No, nope, No, 0:20:54.640 --> 0:20:58.520 you don't feel like eating any pussy six, not even 0:20:58.560 --> 0:21:07.520 a little bit. I'm digmatized. I don't I don't know. Yeah, 0:21:07.560 --> 0:21:09.040 I don't know. I guess I could do it. I 0:21:09.119 --> 0:21:10.800 don't know. Why do you want to eat some pussy 0:21:10.880 --> 0:21:11.960 twenty twenty six? Yeah? 0:21:12.359 --> 0:21:14.600 You feeling like because you didn't eat any pussy twenty 0:21:14.640 --> 0:21:15.000 twenty half. 0:21:15.200 --> 0:21:18.240 Yeah, I think my last eat pussy was twenty three, 0:21:18.520 --> 0:21:21.000 twenty twenty three, so yeah, it's been a while. I 0:21:21.040 --> 0:21:23.720 think that I could get some pussy in my face 0:21:23.720 --> 0:21:26.200 in twenty twenty six. Not a lot. Wait, it's so 0:21:26.280 --> 0:21:28.560 funny today. How much is like, well, because you know, 0:21:28.640 --> 0:21:30.760 I can only do like like two to three. I 0:21:30.840 --> 0:21:32.760 can do like two and a half women a year, 0:21:33.320 --> 0:21:37.240 but you should say. My mom called me and yesterday 0:21:37.280 --> 0:21:38.879 I saw her. She like, I'm gonna go see my friend. 0:21:39.440 --> 0:21:43.080 She just had belf belf surgery. I don't know what 0:21:43.200 --> 0:21:47.920 the bellaf, basically eyelid surgery, and I was like, oh wow. 0:21:48.000 --> 0:21:49.280 So I called her this morning and I was like, 0:21:49.320 --> 0:21:52.479 how's your friend. She's like yeah, it's a bit jarring, 0:21:52.920 --> 0:21:55.600 but you know, you know, she's like in like this 0:21:55.720 --> 0:21:57.879 new space in her life. Like she was married to 0:21:57.920 --> 0:21:59.520 this guy. He was like a creep for a really 0:21:59.600 --> 0:22:02.240 long time, like he used to flirt with me and 0:22:02.320 --> 0:22:04.919 it was always so weird. And then she finally divorced 0:22:05.000 --> 0:22:07.440 him last year, and then her career is taking off, 0:22:07.560 --> 0:22:10.159 and then she's dating this guy and she's happy. So 0:22:10.359 --> 0:22:12.880 I'm I go over there yesterday like waiting to hear 0:22:13.800 --> 0:22:15.840 about this guy she's dating, like letting her, you know, 0:22:16.000 --> 0:22:18.680 share organically, and then she tells me that she just 0:22:18.720 --> 0:22:21.080 went on a date yesterday. So a I'm like, first 0:22:21.080 --> 0:22:22.440 of all, you want on a date with these eyes? 0:22:22.840 --> 0:22:25.840 And number two, I thought you were with a new guy. 0:22:25.920 --> 0:22:28.520 And she's like, no, I'm actually on this app called 0:22:28.640 --> 0:22:32.080 Field and I was like really. She's like, have you 0:22:32.119 --> 0:22:34.520 heard of this app? And I was like, actually, mommy, 0:22:34.560 --> 0:22:37.200 I have heard of that app. And she's like it's 0:22:37.440 --> 0:22:39.600 what is this app? It's like a kinky, freaky app. 0:22:40.280 --> 0:22:42.000 I was like, well kind of, but like, you can 0:22:42.040 --> 0:22:44.840 find love on on Field too. People find love, they 0:22:44.880 --> 0:22:46.359 just care your mom and no, her friend was a 0:22:46.400 --> 0:22:49.280 freak and I was like, so, she's like, yeash. She 0:22:49.400 --> 0:22:51.080 was telling me that she went on a date with 0:22:51.119 --> 0:22:53.920 a married man, but they're like they've been opened for 0:22:54.240 --> 0:22:56.440 She's been married and open for like thirty years, and 0:22:57.080 --> 0:22:58.879 it just felt like more like friendship, like they were 0:22:58.920 --> 0:23:00.879 just hanging out. And my mom was like, I just 0:23:00.920 --> 0:23:02.280 don't get it. I didn't get it. And I was like, 0:23:02.640 --> 0:23:04.159 she's like I think I missed that train. I just 0:23:04.200 --> 0:23:07.439 don't understand Field or like except of like open. 0:23:07.720 --> 0:23:10.520 Yeah yeah, And I was like, yeah, you did miss it, 0:23:14.160 --> 0:23:16.600 and I was like, you can find love on Field, yeah. 0:23:16.880 --> 0:23:18.520 I mean when freaks fall in love that's what they 0:23:18.560 --> 0:23:19.159 should have called it. 0:23:20.440 --> 0:23:20.720 Field. 0:23:20.920 --> 0:23:23.240 Miss You miss it big, You missed a big opportunity. 0:23:23.359 --> 0:23:25.240 Should have been called when Freaks Fall in love dot com. 0:23:25.520 --> 0:23:28.439 But you know what, maybe that's my next endeavor, freaks 0:23:28.520 --> 0:23:33.520 fall because Field it's good. It has so many categories 0:23:33.600 --> 0:23:36.560 though I didn't even know there's this many categories for kinks. 0:23:36.720 --> 0:23:38.680 Like you know, when I was on Field, which was 0:23:38.720 --> 0:23:41.920 in twenty twenty three, like twenty twenty to twenty twenty three, 0:23:42.040 --> 0:23:45.399 on and off. When I first joined, it was whack. 0:23:45.920 --> 0:23:47.680 It was so weird. Have you looked recently and it 0:23:47.760 --> 0:23:49.480 wasn't whack. I'm just saying when I first joined in 0:23:49.520 --> 0:23:51.800 twenty twenty because I was on there with poetry Bay 0:23:53.000 --> 0:23:58.360 to toothless scammer Bay. I was on there with him 0:23:58.440 --> 0:24:00.640 trying to find a third and it was really dry. 0:24:00.760 --> 0:24:02.640 It was like very white, very weird white. 0:24:02.920 --> 0:24:02.960 No. 0:24:03.080 --> 0:24:05.240 But then like in twenty twenty three, when I rejoined 0:24:05.280 --> 0:24:10.080 with I don't know what to call him, the other Bay, 0:24:11.080 --> 0:24:18.359 the Rat City, Bay City Rat, it was better. There 0:24:18.400 --> 0:24:19.920 were more black people on there. Were you there in 0:24:19.960 --> 0:24:21.320 New York? Or are you doing it here? I had it, 0:24:21.840 --> 0:24:23.440 I would change it New York. I feel like it 0:24:23.520 --> 0:24:26.120 was better, but there were more there were more attractive 0:24:26.119 --> 0:24:27.040 black people on there. 0:24:27.080 --> 0:24:29.240 Should I try to be like read, you don't want 0:24:29.280 --> 0:24:30.320 to should I renew my list. 0:24:30.680 --> 0:24:32.320 I want to do that and maybe you can find 0:24:32.320 --> 0:24:35.040 another male. You know what it is. It's like, I'm 0:24:37.080 --> 0:24:39.280 I did that just to see what Orlando's face was 0:24:39.320 --> 0:24:43.760 gonna look like Jamaican. He looks like he's smelling something 0:24:43.800 --> 0:24:49.080 bad Jamaican face. Maybe I'll get back on field just 0:24:49.200 --> 0:24:50.840 to play the field. And my mom was like, is 0:24:50.840 --> 0:24:52.400 that why it's called field because you're playing the field. 0:24:52.640 --> 0:24:54.440 You're just out here in the field. And I was like, 0:24:54.720 --> 0:24:56.720 I don't know. I guess, so, Mom, Yeah that makes sense. 0:24:57.240 --> 0:24:59.120 I feel like I'm two in my head, Like I'm 0:24:59.160 --> 0:25:01.720 a threesome you you know, corn Queen. I could three 0:25:01.800 --> 0:25:05.199 someome any by of their crew. I could be your 0:25:05.240 --> 0:25:07.800 three some in a couple. But like in my own relationship, 0:25:08.400 --> 0:25:12.000 my head hurts, it's too much. It's too much thinking 0:25:12.080 --> 0:25:14.840 I can't. I don't know, like I didn't miss that 0:25:14.960 --> 0:25:16.560 train like your mom, But I think I was, So 0:25:17.400 --> 0:25:20.399 I guess. I guess we're I think our generation is 0:25:20.560 --> 0:25:22.880 right on the borderline, like we could go either way. 0:25:22.920 --> 0:25:25.359 We could go open and polly like the kids, or 0:25:25.440 --> 0:25:27.800 we could go monogamous like we've known and move we've 0:25:27.880 --> 0:25:31.040 learned because it's like what we've inherited. And I think 0:25:31.040 --> 0:25:33.639 because there was so much like accusations of cheating and 0:25:33.840 --> 0:25:36.359 infidelity in my house and my mom is so psycho 0:25:36.440 --> 0:25:40.959 about it that like I can't conceptualized. I can't conceptualize 0:25:41.000 --> 0:25:43.480 like really sharing in my mind, Like my mind starts 0:25:43.560 --> 0:25:46.440 to like go nuts. So I'm like, in order to 0:25:46.760 --> 0:25:52.159 like just reduce my psychonis, I'm gonna save everybody and 0:25:52.359 --> 0:25:54.040 just not do it unless it's like a strip, like 0:25:54.119 --> 0:25:56.520 not a stripper, but like a random bitch that that 0:25:56.760 --> 0:25:58.160 is your sole duty. 0:26:00.480 --> 0:26:02.320 We have a horr that isn't aligned with this that 0:26:02.400 --> 0:26:04.520 I want to share. But before I share this horri, 0:26:05.040 --> 0:26:08.280 I want to check in with you actually, because this 0:26:08.440 --> 0:26:14.640 weekend is your bachelorette party slash bachelor party, and I'm 0:26:14.720 --> 0:26:19.320 just curious, like, what are the vibes? Are we not? 0:26:20.000 --> 0:26:23.720 Are you I know where Lando's gonna be there in 0:26:23.760 --> 0:26:26.600 front of me? Are you all gonna do a little 0:26:26.640 --> 0:26:29.600 switch trade off of it's the bachelorettes the last time 0:26:30.680 --> 0:26:33.200 the last time? What are you asking me? Keep you 0:26:33.240 --> 0:26:35.200 more clear? Are you hoeing on your bachelorette? Are you 0:26:35.280 --> 0:26:38.640 guys hoeing on bachelor? On your bachelor bachelorette to be discussed. 0:26:38.680 --> 0:26:43.399 This to be completely transparent. Hoeing in Vegas doesn't seem 0:26:43.640 --> 0:26:45.920 like like a highlight for me. I don't feel like 0:26:45.920 --> 0:26:49.879 there's like hoes in Vegas for me, like men, because 0:26:49.880 --> 0:26:52.680 I like Dick a lot. I feel like, if we're 0:26:52.680 --> 0:26:54.600 gonna do like an if we're gonna have a discussion 0:26:54.640 --> 0:26:57.280 about having a hall pass, I think it would probably 0:26:57.320 --> 0:26:59.639 need to be like out of the country, like Jamaica, 0:27:00.119 --> 0:27:01.600 or like, I don't know, you're gonna go to his 0:27:01.720 --> 0:27:02.399 native country. 0:27:03.240 --> 0:27:07.359 I know, I know the material I feel like the 0:27:07.560 --> 0:27:09.680 makers out of the off limits. I feel like you 0:27:09.760 --> 0:27:14.480 gotta go to another Caribbean, I know the materials, say 0:27:14.600 --> 0:27:15.359 kits or something. 0:27:15.840 --> 0:27:18.000 About About a year or two ago, me and Orlando 0:27:18.040 --> 0:27:19.520 had a conversation. I was like around, I don't know 0:27:19.520 --> 0:27:21.200 if you were there, And I was like, people usually 0:27:21.280 --> 0:27:24.040 like fuck on their bachelorette right, like that's what you do. 0:27:24.160 --> 0:27:27.399 And he was like no, and I was like, so 0:27:28.520 --> 0:27:30.440 you're not going to fuck on your bachelor party. He's like, 0:27:30.720 --> 0:27:32.840 that's not standard. I was like, I thought it was standard. 0:27:32.880 --> 0:27:33.679 I thought it was standard. 0:27:33.800 --> 0:27:35.440 I feel like we did have this conversation because I'm 0:27:35.440 --> 0:27:37.360 pretty sure I thought, I think we got a standard. 0:27:37.880 --> 0:27:40.600 So I mean it's not standard. It's just on the table, 0:27:40.960 --> 0:27:43.440 like not everybody might take the op might take it. 0:27:43.520 --> 0:27:46.280 I feel like I feel like seventy percent of people 0:27:46.400 --> 0:27:49.840 don't do it, but that it's it's it's on the table. 0:27:50.040 --> 0:27:53.320 This is another issue I take with this whole concept 0:27:53.400 --> 0:27:54.960 of bachelor and bachelorrette parties. 0:27:56.520 --> 0:27:58.720 This it's designed for men women. 0:27:59.240 --> 0:28:02.160 It's gonna be extremely hard for me to go anywhere 0:28:02.400 --> 0:28:04.920 in forty eight hours to seventy two hours and like 0:28:05.000 --> 0:28:06.639 someone enough to want to sit on their face and 0:28:06.720 --> 0:28:08.359 on their dick and be fine with it. 0:28:08.800 --> 0:28:14.320 I have been at drugs. That's all I have to say. 0:28:14.440 --> 0:28:19.040 Let me sit down drugs and alcohol, drugs twenty four hours, 0:28:19.160 --> 0:28:24.080 trust me. Yeah. Well I don't know, Orlando. So is 0:28:24.119 --> 0:28:24.720 that on the table? 0:28:24.960 --> 0:28:26.280 Like it doesn't have to be this weekend, but if 0:28:26.320 --> 0:28:29.120 we have like another bachelor bachelor or this weekend, how. 0:28:29.080 --> 0:28:32.159 Many bachelor bachelors party even I have? Bitch, is it 0:28:32.240 --> 0:28:36.760 on the table for me or for you? I can't. 0:28:38.040 --> 0:28:40.959 I can't take what's on the table. She can't get 0:28:41.200 --> 0:28:44.080 finger banged in seventh grade. 0:28:44.840 --> 0:28:47.080 Last time I said that, someone got really mad. Last 0:28:47.080 --> 0:28:49.080 time when we said his finger bank, I said, what 0:28:49.120 --> 0:28:51.000 are we in seventh grade? Someone got I saw one 0:28:51.040 --> 0:28:52.840 in the comments was like, why the fuck would you 0:28:52.880 --> 0:28:54.080 say that? I was like, because that's what I was 0:28:54.160 --> 0:28:55.040 doing seventh grade. 0:28:55.640 --> 0:29:05.400 Yeah, yeah, sounds like a no. I would rather I 0:29:05.440 --> 0:29:10.000 would what about essential massage? What about like what if 0:29:10.040 --> 0:29:13.280 you both got happy? Like a like a sensual massage 0:29:13.320 --> 0:29:15.400 by like a like what's that guy's name? What the 0:29:15.440 --> 0:29:18.000 fuck is I under? On Instagram? There's so manyhad I 0:29:18.080 --> 0:29:20.360 know there's one specific and he's he's kind of cute 0:29:20.880 --> 0:29:22.760 duffy hands by duffy duffy hands. 0:29:23.040 --> 0:29:24.880 Uh, that's something I don't remember. He looks like they're 0:29:24.920 --> 0:29:27.480 never cute though he's cute, but he might be gay. 0:29:27.520 --> 0:29:31.800 I don't know if I don't care about that. You 0:29:31.880 --> 0:29:34.960 know how I feel about gay porn. Okay, I don't 0:29:35.000 --> 0:29:37.480 want a essential massage unless you're making me come. I 0:29:37.600 --> 0:29:39.320 realized that someone gave me a massage. It was very 0:29:39.360 --> 0:29:42.560 sensual and there was no com and I was so annoyed. 0:29:42.720 --> 0:29:45.880 I felt like I got less massage. I got negative massages. 0:29:46.520 --> 0:29:48.959 But yeah, I don't think that there's like a lot 0:29:48.960 --> 0:29:50.200 of opportunities. 0:29:49.680 --> 0:29:51.680 To gate down and dirty in Vegas. 0:29:51.760 --> 0:29:54.360 I'm actually looking at a black magic mic show for us, 0:29:54.760 --> 0:29:56.440 and even at my picky ass is looking at some 0:29:56.520 --> 0:29:58.440 of the men and I'm like, he's cute. 0:29:58.480 --> 0:29:59.600 He needs to go to the dentist. 0:30:00.040 --> 0:30:02.480 So I think women are just too picky for this concept, 0:30:02.520 --> 0:30:05.200 and men can stick their dicks in any warm up hole, 0:30:05.280 --> 0:30:06.840 and so it's just kind of not fair because I 0:30:06.880 --> 0:30:08.840 need like three I need to know you're smart. 0:30:08.920 --> 0:30:09.840 I want you to make me laugh. 0:30:09.920 --> 0:30:11.240 I kind of want to flirt a little bit, and 0:30:11.320 --> 0:30:13.720 then maybe I'll get drunk and do drugs enough to 0:30:14.280 --> 0:30:17.120 say okay, But like, other than that, it's gonna be 0:30:17.280 --> 0:30:21.720 like familiar. I was just like, I aimlessly hode so 0:30:22.000 --> 0:30:23.000 deep in my twenties. 0:30:23.480 --> 0:30:26.720 I might have caused trauma to myself, but I'm just not. 0:30:27.000 --> 0:30:27.840 You're too healed now. 0:30:28.080 --> 0:30:28.840 I'm too healed. 0:30:29.240 --> 0:30:32.560 You're too healed. I'm too heeled to hoe, I'm too 0:30:32.680 --> 0:30:36.560 heeled to home. It's very annoying, but I'm you healed first. 0:30:36.720 --> 0:30:39.280 Now you can't even hoe anymore, you can't even hoe later. Now, 0:30:40.120 --> 0:30:43.720 can't even wear that shirt anymore. I can't wear my shirt. 0:30:43.760 --> 0:30:44.240 God damn it. 0:30:45.160 --> 0:30:47.560 But yeah, you know, even with our friends who are 0:30:47.600 --> 0:30:51.280 in there like firm a host season. I'm kind of like, 0:30:53.040 --> 0:30:55.120 keep going because you only got about twenty minutes, so 0:30:55.160 --> 0:30:58.920 this like twenty minutes left, and I just I don't, 0:31:00.480 --> 0:31:02.360 I don't know, I just don't have it in me anymore. 0:31:02.640 --> 0:31:04.920 I feel like, do you feel like you can still 0:31:04.960 --> 0:31:07.520 do some helling, like if you're really like hypothetically, if 0:31:07.520 --> 0:31:09.760 you weren't in a relationship, and like, I mean, I'm 0:31:09.760 --> 0:31:11.640 sure we'd still be doing it, but like if we 0:31:11.720 --> 0:31:12.320 were single. 0:31:12.160 --> 0:31:14.320 We'd be hoeing. What do you mean w'd be I 0:31:14.400 --> 0:31:16.840 mean we were we would be intentionally hoeing, but we'd 0:31:16.880 --> 0:31:20.760 be dating and having some not maybe not casual sex 0:31:21.160 --> 0:31:23.600 because I don't. I think even before this relationship, and 0:31:23.600 --> 0:31:25.320 even before the relationship that I was in, before, I 0:31:25.440 --> 0:31:28.240 was already being more intentional about my partners and what 0:31:28.320 --> 0:31:30.840 I was doing. So it's a different type of hoeing. 0:31:30.960 --> 0:31:36.400 It's a more responsible, grown up hoeing. But I would 0:31:36.440 --> 0:31:38.000 revert to like a who that? But I think that 0:31:38.080 --> 0:31:40.239 I would if would I have a drunken night one 0:31:40.280 --> 0:31:43.240 today and you know, like maybe wake up next to 0:31:43.320 --> 0:31:46.440 someone I don't that isn't gonna be my forever. Maybe 0:31:46.640 --> 0:31:48.840 I'm not gonna I'm not gonna take that off the table, 0:31:49.560 --> 0:31:52.760 But am I gonna go to Vegas and like fuck 0:31:52.800 --> 0:31:56.800 a stripper by accident? Probably not? Oh my god, speaking 0:31:56.840 --> 0:31:58.440 of strippers and fucking by accident. 0:31:58.600 --> 0:32:01.920 Oh what I thought Rico wasn't going to be available, 0:32:02.000 --> 0:32:03.080 But he's available me. 0:32:03.360 --> 0:32:10.360 Oh yeah, not oh no, oh no? 0:32:11.200 --> 0:32:13.400 But oh my god, put the hat on. 0:32:13.720 --> 0:32:20.000 Hurry. Orlando edited this out. Not no, you better else 0:32:20.000 --> 0:32:24.120 you're fired. It was like that Girl show. Why did 0:32:24.160 --> 0:32:27.320 it slide off like that? This hair's wised you, guys. 0:32:27.600 --> 0:32:31.360 Mila has I'm at the studio this morning, and she 0:32:31.440 --> 0:32:32.880 told me she's gonna be like, yeah, yeah, I'd be 0:32:32.880 --> 0:32:35.680 there around ten fifteen. It's like eleven. I'm like, where 0:32:35.720 --> 0:32:37.720 are you. I'm here. She's like, I'm having a bad 0:32:37.800 --> 0:32:39.520 hair day. I just put a wig and a hat on. 0:32:40.160 --> 0:32:41.880 And then she came in and then she took this 0:32:42.040 --> 0:32:44.000 wig off. You don't have to do that to yourself. 0:32:44.040 --> 0:32:51.120 I'm not. I'm not. I was like, oh, I grew 0:32:51.200 --> 0:32:53.600 up my hair. The way you keep combing this wig 0:32:53.720 --> 0:32:54.600 as if it's yours. 0:32:55.120 --> 0:32:56.760 I think I'm going to move into my wig era. 0:32:56.880 --> 0:32:59.200 I'm having a good time. I'm gonna name all of them. 0:33:00.200 --> 0:33:02.160 This is my favorite wig from ten years ago. 0:33:02.640 --> 0:33:04.200 But I just want you to know one side is 0:33:04.320 --> 0:33:08.440 very long because you keep combing back. Okay, you keep 0:33:08.520 --> 0:33:11.680 combing one side, bitch. I told you it was December 0:33:11.880 --> 0:33:12.560 thirty second. 0:33:13.720 --> 0:33:17.560 Okay, December thirty second is as good as I can do. 0:33:17.760 --> 0:33:19.920 Okay, can you comb the other side out? More things? 0:33:21.640 --> 0:33:29.200 You're ruining my chances of having a bachelorette honus. Okay, 0:33:29.280 --> 0:33:30.680 but you know what, I do have a question for 0:33:30.720 --> 0:33:35.360 the listeners or for the bachelorette hose whatever. Where is 0:33:35.440 --> 0:33:37.360 a good destination for women to get dick? 0:33:37.440 --> 0:33:41.080 Dominican Republic, Puerto Rico, the Jamaica. The yard men are 0:33:41.160 --> 0:33:43.760 kind of there's not all of them are like that. 0:33:44.080 --> 0:33:47.000 I think it's not every single one waxes their eyebrows. 0:33:47.120 --> 0:33:50.800 There's some like rough poppies out there too, Okay, but 0:33:50.840 --> 0:33:53.360 I think the rough popus. They're also getting other Caribbean 0:33:54.000 --> 0:33:55.800 islands besides Jamaica. 0:33:57.160 --> 0:33:58.600 When I went to Turks, I didn't see that many 0:33:58.680 --> 0:33:59.120 fine men. 0:33:59.400 --> 0:34:03.560 No no, no, no, no, no, which one you're not? 0:34:05.920 --> 0:34:08.120 Which ones? When I went to say with the kids, 0:34:10.120 --> 0:34:13.600 please send Aguilla, Anguila has fine man. That's awesome there. 0:34:13.719 --> 0:34:15.600 I've always wanted to go to Anguila. I ever sent 0:34:15.640 --> 0:34:18.000 to Janet said, you know, you decided to have your 0:34:18.000 --> 0:34:21.440 Bachelor red in Vegas, so I'm having to God, this 0:34:21.600 --> 0:34:22.560 is getting expensive. 0:34:22.800 --> 0:34:24.760 Don't worry. It's not gonna be for eight to ten months. 0:34:27.280 --> 0:34:29.919 You're having Okay, got it? But maybe not because I can't. 0:34:29.920 --> 0:34:31.640 I don't even have I don't have anything on the table. 0:34:33.960 --> 0:34:36.280 I mean, Orlando, better not cheat on me in Vegas 0:34:36.400 --> 0:34:38.000 while I'm we're sharing a room. 0:34:37.880 --> 0:34:39.359 That well, what are you cheating if you guys were 0:34:39.440 --> 0:34:41.239 agreeing to it. I don't come lay with me after 0:34:41.280 --> 0:34:44.800 you lay with the whore. Okay. Anyway, we go to 0:34:44.880 --> 0:34:49.560 Bunny Rich speaking of horror stories, okay, whores, we have 0:34:49.800 --> 0:34:52.520 a horror story. And speaking of which, guys, is twenty 0:34:52.560 --> 0:34:55.120 twenty six. I really need you to step up your 0:34:55.160 --> 0:34:58.279 whole games or just recall your former whole life and 0:34:58.320 --> 0:35:00.440 write in about it. It doesn't have to be you. 0:35:00.480 --> 0:35:03.440 Notice that the healing it really makes you cloud your hoading. 0:35:03.640 --> 0:35:06.040 Everyone here that's been here for so long is healed 0:35:06.120 --> 0:35:08.279 so much. I need you to go back, not go 0:35:08.520 --> 0:35:11.120 back like actually, but like go back in your memory 0:35:11.640 --> 0:35:15.000 and recount those days when you were still outside and 0:35:15.320 --> 0:35:17.960 send them in because people they're still newer people here 0:35:18.000 --> 0:35:20.120 that are on the beginning of their healing journey, and 0:35:20.239 --> 0:35:22.440 they need the horror stories. Okay, and so do I. 0:35:24.440 --> 0:35:29.040 So here's a horror story. My boyfriend and I had 0:35:29.080 --> 0:35:32.800 a threesome with a girl we met off Tinder. Me too, Actually, no, 0:35:32.880 --> 0:35:35.160 I was the girlfriend. Actually I was the unicortn never mind. Okay, 0:35:35.280 --> 0:35:37.279 my boyfriend and I had a threesome with a girl 0:35:37.360 --> 0:35:40.239 we met off Tender. Now, it took a while, took 0:35:40.320 --> 0:35:42.360 a while of convincing and trust building for me to 0:35:42.440 --> 0:35:44.680 agree and become okay with the idea of a threesome. 0:35:45.160 --> 0:35:47.200 I admit that I haven't had the best self esteem 0:35:47.239 --> 0:35:49.040 and I get jealous pretty easily. So it was a 0:35:49.120 --> 0:35:51.400 lot of self reflection, self love, and trust in our 0:35:51.440 --> 0:35:54.400 relationship and trust in him for me to proceed with 0:35:54.480 --> 0:35:57.440 searching for a third Surprisingly, I got pretty into it 0:35:57.520 --> 0:36:01.520 once we started getting matches. I was flattered. So many 0:36:01.560 --> 0:36:04.239 beautiful women thought I was attractive. More and more I 0:36:04.320 --> 0:36:07.040 got the idea, got into the idea and even thought 0:36:07.040 --> 0:36:08.839 it was hot. But in the back of my mind, 0:36:09.000 --> 0:36:11.560 I was always nervous of seeing the moment he penetrates 0:36:11.640 --> 0:36:14.839 someone else, would I flip out, get extremely jealous cry. 0:36:15.360 --> 0:36:17.320 I didn't know, but the idea of it bothered me 0:36:17.480 --> 0:36:20.080 less and less and even turned me on sometimes. And 0:36:20.200 --> 0:36:21.880 he loved that I was getting into it, saying that 0:36:22.000 --> 0:36:25.800 it made me even more attractive to him. Anyway, I 0:36:25.880 --> 0:36:27.719 managed to set up a date with this girl. She 0:36:27.880 --> 0:36:29.160 and I had mashed on Tinder. 0:36:29.040 --> 0:36:32.399 And fla by the way, what oh, you liking girls 0:36:32.520 --> 0:36:34.000 is really making me more attracted to you. 0:36:35.560 --> 0:36:38.360 I mean, you're more attractive now that. Maybe it's just 0:36:38.480 --> 0:36:41.200 like the trust Maybe he feels more trustworthy. I mean, 0:36:41.239 --> 0:36:43.000 I see, I see where that. I see why you 0:36:43.080 --> 0:36:48.800 could see that. So she and I matched. She and 0:36:48.840 --> 0:36:51.800 I mashed on Tinder and had been chatting already, and 0:36:51.880 --> 0:36:54.000 so I already knew some things about her that he didn't. 0:36:54.440 --> 0:36:56.359 I let them get acquainted and I thought we were 0:36:56.400 --> 0:36:59.279 having a great time. It ends up with her back 0:36:59.400 --> 0:37:02.160 at my place and we're having the threesome. I got 0:37:02.239 --> 0:37:04.200 super into it, as it was my first time with 0:37:04.280 --> 0:37:07.719 the girl. After the act, he got moody left the 0:37:07.800 --> 0:37:10.560 room and so I followed him. He had said I 0:37:10.640 --> 0:37:13.160 tried to get her to like me more by joking 0:37:13.239 --> 0:37:15.840 at his expense and throwing him under the bus. She 0:37:15.920 --> 0:37:17.920 had been teasing him all night, asking me why I 0:37:18.000 --> 0:37:19.840 was with him, etc. And I was just laughing it 0:37:19.920 --> 0:37:21.680 off because I thought we were just having a goofy 0:37:21.760 --> 0:37:24.000 and good time. He said I didn't stand up for 0:37:24.080 --> 0:37:26.600 him once. Then when we were having sex, I paid 0:37:27.000 --> 0:37:29.319 ninety percent of my attention on her, and he felt 0:37:29.440 --> 0:37:32.920 like he was the third partner. The overall experience for 0:37:33.040 --> 0:37:35.600 him has been ruined, As he said, he felt like 0:37:35.680 --> 0:37:38.960 a third wheel and a boy toy. I don't know 0:37:39.040 --> 0:37:41.200 what to do. He thinks my actions have been highly 0:37:41.280 --> 0:37:46.240 inconsiderate to him and are more mortally mortally insulting, like deathly. 0:37:47.280 --> 0:37:49.480 I keep apologizing because I think I should have stood 0:37:49.520 --> 0:37:51.760 up for him or asked her to tone down the jokes. 0:37:51.760 --> 0:37:54.280 But I genuinely don't know what I did wrong. During sex, 0:37:54.600 --> 0:37:56.439 I thought we wanted to focus on her so she'd 0:37:56.480 --> 0:37:58.560 have a good time and want to see us again. 0:37:58.920 --> 0:38:02.320 I'm so lost, so confused, and so heartbroken that he 0:38:02.440 --> 0:38:05.200 thinks I would do this to him on purpose. What 0:38:05.280 --> 0:38:08.640 should I do? What should she do? Should I agon 0:38:09.320 --> 0:38:11.120 with a new nigga or with him? I mean it 0:38:11.160 --> 0:38:13.000 was a new bitch. He obviously wanted it, and you 0:38:13.040 --> 0:38:15.080 want it and now take it. Do you think he's wrong? 0:38:15.600 --> 0:38:15.840 You know what? 0:38:15.880 --> 0:38:18.520 I think it's an interesting topic because I actually asked 0:38:18.600 --> 0:38:22.000 Orlanda recently like, oh if I if I had sex 0:38:22.080 --> 0:38:25.800 with one of my friends without you, would you be bothered? 0:38:26.080 --> 0:38:27.759 And he was like would you? 0:38:28.360 --> 0:38:29.800 He basically said, if I had sex with one of 0:38:29.840 --> 0:38:31.279 your friends, would you be bothered? I was like, not 0:38:31.400 --> 0:38:35.600 the same thing, And I thought, I thought that for men, 0:38:35.920 --> 0:38:38.759 like women having sex is like oh yeah, hat just 0:38:39.000 --> 0:38:40.960 send me a picture, but don't. 0:38:41.120 --> 0:38:43.759 I don't didn't, I don't guess, guess not. That's what 0:38:43.840 --> 0:38:46.400 I thought too, I was. I actually came the same thing. 0:38:46.400 --> 0:38:47.600 I said, So if I had sex with a girl 0:38:47.640 --> 0:38:49.960 and I told you about it later or like I've 0:38:50.000 --> 0:38:51.719 had to be like whoa, like, would you be mad? 0:38:51.920 --> 0:38:54.480 And he was like you cheated on me? And I 0:38:54.560 --> 0:38:57.320 was like, really that's a nice say. I was like, really, 0:38:57.640 --> 0:39:00.399 this is a fantasy even And then I I'd made 0:39:00.440 --> 0:39:01.799 out with one of our friends and. 0:39:03.719 --> 0:39:06.040 BALI and I told him and he didn't really say anything, 0:39:06.120 --> 0:39:07.920 but I was like, so were you mad about Like 0:39:07.960 --> 0:39:08.600 He's like, like you did? 0:39:09.239 --> 0:39:12.680 And I was like, really, so you cared about that. 0:39:13.120 --> 0:39:16.319 I just I don't know that that what didn't equate 0:39:16.400 --> 0:39:20.080 the same because like, because you're not you don't actually 0:39:20.280 --> 0:39:22.480 care about being with a woman, So it's not like 0:39:22.960 --> 0:39:25.279 there's a likelihood of you leaving him for a woman. 0:39:25.400 --> 0:39:28.800 Yeah and yeah, and I think there's like a culture 0:39:28.880 --> 0:39:32.520 of women where you're like, ah, I'm drunk, okay, bye, 0:39:34.000 --> 0:39:39.279 you know it's like a handshake. But yeah, I also 0:39:39.400 --> 0:39:43.000 think I don't know's that's a difficult thing. I feel 0:39:43.000 --> 0:39:45.239 like it's like for me, maybe like having sex with 0:39:45.360 --> 0:39:48.480 the woman like solo would like solidify something more for 0:39:48.640 --> 0:39:50.960 me where I'm like okay when we like brought in 0:39:51.120 --> 0:39:52.719 the guy wouldn't be so. 0:39:54.360 --> 0:39:55.440 Confusing. I don't know. 0:39:55.640 --> 0:39:58.080 I can only focus on one person at a time. 0:39:58.160 --> 0:39:59.600 My mind is not set up that way. 0:39:59.719 --> 0:40:01.520 I think think this was a good learning lesson for that. 0:40:01.680 --> 0:40:04.800 I think the Dirty the Dating app is a good option. 0:40:05.080 --> 0:40:07.120 I don't think like doing it with somebody that you had, 0:40:07.200 --> 0:40:13.160 like your your friend is like, is is sustainable? Mm hmm, 0:40:13.400 --> 0:40:14.960 because then like I have to see you that I'm 0:40:15.000 --> 0:40:17.000 thinking about it, and then you're gonna think it's expected, 0:40:17.080 --> 0:40:18.040 and then I'm just like and. 0:40:18.040 --> 0:40:20.719 Then yeah, then we can't hang out casually. Yeah, like 0:40:20.800 --> 0:40:22.600 I gave you a drink and now you think it's popping. 0:40:22.800 --> 0:40:24.400 Now we're popping and I just really wanted to have 0:40:24.440 --> 0:40:26.120 a glass of wine. Bitch, sits fucked down. 0:40:27.000 --> 0:40:28.680 And the same with the nigga, Like you sit the 0:40:28.719 --> 0:40:30.480 fuck down. You said, everybody said the fuck down. So 0:40:30.600 --> 0:40:32.279 in order if everybody shit the fuck down without any 0:40:32.360 --> 0:40:35.799 having any expectations, call a bitch from tender or maybe 0:40:35.800 --> 0:40:38.279 you need to have like a like a code word 0:40:39.360 --> 0:40:43.719 for every like that it's tonight's the night, then everybody's waiting. 0:40:43.880 --> 0:40:45.799 What if you say the code robot mistake? The code 0:40:45.800 --> 0:40:53.719 word has to be something so outlandish, full a bit random. Yeah, yeah, 0:40:53.880 --> 0:40:56.799 what do you think? Do you think that? I think 0:40:56.800 --> 0:40:59.960 they just didn't have their rules and regulations ironed out, 0:41:00.600 --> 0:41:02.719 or maybe he just wasn't really ready. He thought he 0:41:02.920 --> 0:41:04.960 was and he wasn't. I don't think she really did 0:41:05.000 --> 0:41:08.640 anything wrong. I can understand, like she probably doesn't know 0:41:08.800 --> 0:41:10.920 how to deal with a woman in that way, and 0:41:10.960 --> 0:41:14.040 so the girl probably was was maybe making jokes and 0:41:14.120 --> 0:41:16.440 it made him feel weird. And they're supposed to be 0:41:16.640 --> 0:41:19.200 like a pack together, like they're in this together, and 0:41:19.360 --> 0:41:22.680 so therefore he probably wanted to feel like they're moving together, 0:41:22.680 --> 0:41:24.120 and it felt like they were like having their little 0:41:24.160 --> 0:41:28.480 girl time and he was left out. But I think 0:41:28.520 --> 0:41:32.480 if you're a man in an uneven like dynamic like that, 0:41:32.760 --> 0:41:35.360 you have to be prepared for that to happen. Like 0:41:35.560 --> 0:41:38.880 it's already imbalanced. It's three and there's two women and 0:41:39.000 --> 0:41:41.680 one guy. That's what I will say. I don't think 0:41:41.880 --> 0:41:43.280 three is a good number. 0:41:43.320 --> 0:41:45.640 I don't know how three sumes got popular, but I 0:41:45.719 --> 0:41:47.440 don't think it's sustainable. 0:41:46.960 --> 0:41:48.759 Because four is like, that's a lot of work. You 0:41:48.800 --> 0:41:50.000 gotta find that other person. 0:41:50.120 --> 0:41:52.359 It's even you can just swap and he swap hit 0:41:52.480 --> 0:41:56.799 it boobe. It's so like four is way more sustainable 0:41:56.920 --> 0:41:59.279 because you're not you don't have time to think so much. 0:42:00.040 --> 0:42:01.680 I put one dick in one pussy at the time, 0:42:02.400 --> 0:42:04.800 so some pussies are going to be empty. It's just 0:42:04.960 --> 0:42:09.320 it's it's very I think four. That's why I get swingers. 0:42:10.480 --> 0:42:12.400 I'm not a swinger, but I get them because it 0:42:12.480 --> 0:42:13.120 makes more sense. 0:42:13.200 --> 0:42:13.960 Just swappy, swap. 0:42:14.239 --> 0:42:16.279 Nobody has time to act crazy because you've got a 0:42:16.320 --> 0:42:20.480 dick in your mouth. Yeah, you know, have you ever 0:42:20.520 --> 0:42:25.839 done four No, No, I haven't. But you're like, you're 0:42:25.880 --> 0:42:29.239 only like you're jealous sometimes. 0:42:30.640 --> 0:42:33.640 You had threesomes. I've never been jealous in a threesome dynamic. 0:42:33.760 --> 0:42:36.320 Have you ever had a three? Little voyeur? So I 0:42:36.440 --> 0:42:38.799 really enjoy watching you only had you. 0:42:38.800 --> 0:42:40.239 Only had a three some in the relationship with the 0:42:40.440 --> 0:42:46.120 last guy. Yeah, well we've definitely had our share of experiences. Yeah, 0:42:46.239 --> 0:42:48.440 and maybe he should changes. Maybe next week I'll be 0:42:48.840 --> 0:42:49.520 threesome queen. 0:42:49.600 --> 0:42:52.800 But no, if you've been kind of in this space 0:42:52.920 --> 0:42:56.680 for a while now, you've been a retired lesbian publicly 0:42:56.800 --> 0:42:57.280 for a minute. 0:42:59.120 --> 0:43:02.839 But I went to Atlanta like not that, like after 0:43:02.960 --> 0:43:05.400 i'd retired, and like saw an ex girlfriend and we 0:43:05.640 --> 0:43:07.279 had sex and it was great and she still got 0:43:07.320 --> 0:43:08.920 on my nerves. I like, I'm not lesbian, but that 0:43:09.000 --> 0:43:09.319 was fun. 0:43:09.360 --> 0:43:12.239 But you know, the other day, like Marie and not 0:43:12.280 --> 0:43:14.040 the other day, like maybe two or three weeks ago, 0:43:14.200 --> 0:43:16.920 I went to lunch with this girl from the internet 0:43:17.400 --> 0:43:22.319 that I got lunch with the same attractive Yeah, she's 0:43:22.440 --> 0:43:24.880 like a designer and we've chatted here and there, and 0:43:24.920 --> 0:43:26.200 I was like, let's get lunch. And I was telling 0:43:26.200 --> 0:43:27.319 you she can I was like, I have a crush 0:43:27.360 --> 0:43:28.839 on the squad. I think she's really cute. I'm gonna 0:43:28.840 --> 0:43:31.320 go have lunch with her and see what who she is. 0:43:32.200 --> 0:43:34.400 And I was like and he was like okay, and 0:43:34.440 --> 0:43:36.439 he showed her. Do you think she's cute and he's like, yeah, 0:43:36.440 --> 0:43:36.879 she's cool. 0:43:37.480 --> 0:43:41.279 Like all right, so not see your religious man participating 0:43:41.400 --> 0:43:43.719 in That's why he's not a religious man. 0:43:43.760 --> 0:43:47.399 He's a spiritual man. You said that saying what I said, 0:43:47.640 --> 0:43:56.160 religious person person? Okay, Sorry, I was kidding. Uh he wait. 0:43:56.320 --> 0:44:00.239 So we went to lunch and we were talking and 0:44:00.320 --> 0:44:01.880 I was like, you know, I was there not to 0:44:02.000 --> 0:44:03.719 like be a creep. I wanted I genuinely wanted to 0:44:03.760 --> 0:44:05.280 get to know her because she's really talented. 0:44:05.560 --> 0:44:06.080 Does a creep? 0:44:07.800 --> 0:44:12.240 And then she fucking ruined it. Why we were just talking, 0:44:12.360 --> 0:44:15.560 We're having a great time, and then out of nowhere, 0:44:15.880 --> 0:44:19.080 she's like, yeah, so tell me about beauty blender and 0:44:19.160 --> 0:44:20.840 I was like, what about it? And she's like, I 0:44:20.920 --> 0:44:22.600 really think that we should partner. I really think that 0:44:22.680 --> 0:44:25.000 we could collaborate. Can I send you a deck? I 0:44:25.000 --> 0:44:26.960 would I would love to talk about sponsorship. And then 0:44:27.040 --> 0:44:29.520 I was like, bitch, are you fucking serious? Right now, 0:44:29.560 --> 0:44:32.600 I'm going to fuck you. What the fuck are you 0:44:32.840 --> 0:44:33.560 talking about? 0:44:33.680 --> 0:44:42.719 So you guys bitch now. I was like okay, and 0:44:42.880 --> 0:44:45.239 then she's then whatever, Like I. 0:44:45.800 --> 0:44:47.560 Did not really talk to raft. I mean, I said, hey, 0:44:47.640 --> 0:44:49.480 thanks for lunch. Is that's the one I text you? 0:44:49.640 --> 0:44:51.520 And you're I kept saying who are you with? And 0:44:51.600 --> 0:44:52.960 you kept saying here, And I was like, who the 0:44:53.040 --> 0:44:54.080 fuck is this person? 0:44:54.560 --> 0:44:58.400 I don't know. Anyway, she sent me the deck like 0:44:58.560 --> 0:45:01.120 a week two weeks ago, and it was like first 0:45:01.160 --> 0:45:05.400 package five thousand, second package twenty thousand, third fifty thousand. 0:45:05.440 --> 0:45:08.799 I'm like, bitch, what the fuck fifty? First of all, 0:45:09.040 --> 0:45:11.960 kind of influencer. I'm like, first of all, no, she whatever, 0:45:12.080 --> 0:45:15.920 it's not even her, it's like whatever. I was just like, 0:45:16.120 --> 0:45:17.560 first of all, this is not how you do business. 0:45:17.800 --> 0:45:19.719 You like, at least pretend you want to be my friend, 0:45:19.840 --> 0:45:21.520 Like at least we let's go to lunch three times. 0:45:21.600 --> 0:45:24.360 Pretend time. I forget so that you got to pretend 0:45:24.440 --> 0:45:26.759 hard you like, be my friend three times before you 0:45:26.800 --> 0:45:28.680 start asking me for shit, bitch, Like I was gonna 0:45:28.680 --> 0:45:30.160 pretend to be your friends before I started wanting to 0:45:30.160 --> 0:45:35.440 eat your pussy. Duh. Hello God, ha ha. 0:45:36.360 --> 0:45:39.480 So yeah, so she's not a prospect anymore because she 0:45:39.560 --> 0:45:40.120 tried to say no. 0:45:40.280 --> 0:45:41.440 She runed it for me. 0:45:41.680 --> 0:45:48.280 She was a user, and you are observer of beauty, 0:45:49.560 --> 0:45:56.399 not an observer of beauty. Yeah, gosh, maybe an orgy, 0:45:59.239 --> 0:46:00.160 Yeah that. 0:46:00.200 --> 0:46:02.040 Seems I mean I could see why an urged orgy 0:46:02.080 --> 0:46:06.440 could be like low steaks, just everybody fuck it, go crazy. 0:46:07.600 --> 0:46:09.560 I don't want everybody like I'm not now, it has 0:46:09.600 --> 0:46:12.080 to be vetting. There'd be some vetting. Let me see, 0:46:12.440 --> 0:46:14.040 let me see your eyes, let me see your dick, 0:46:14.239 --> 0:46:17.440 let me see what's going turn around. My ideal orgy 0:46:17.800 --> 0:46:20.400 would be like maybe ten people. 0:46:21.280 --> 0:46:23.480 They would have to be like dinner, let's have dinner, 0:46:24.400 --> 0:46:26.440 let's like chat, let's like have dinner, and then like 0:46:26.520 --> 0:46:28.279 do a chair swop, so everybody has to sit next 0:46:28.320 --> 0:46:30.960 to each other differently, like maybe feed each other and 0:46:31.080 --> 0:46:33.680 then be like smoke weeds that we're laughing, and then 0:46:34.120 --> 0:46:36.319 like it has to be sexy like a lot of. 0:46:36.320 --> 0:46:38.520 These maybe orders. I don't want a full meal, like 0:46:38.600 --> 0:46:40.399 a maybe a steak in my stomach, and then we're 0:46:40.400 --> 0:46:44.160 gonna have an orgy, like I'm gonna go to sleep 0:46:44.200 --> 0:46:46.600 if we're gonna get tired that sex party we had. 0:46:46.680 --> 0:46:51.840 That's true, you're old. Can we just have snacks and 0:46:51.960 --> 0:46:57.719 molly water? Like, I don't know about full dinners. All 0:46:58.000 --> 0:47:03.040 water would be good. Actually, champagne maybe right? I want 0:47:03.120 --> 0:47:05.919 I want to eat a full meal. Oh she's gonna 0:47:05.920 --> 0:47:09.120 be ready and activated after eating a cow half a cow, 0:47:09.320 --> 0:47:12.040 and I would be tired. But I just want time. 0:47:12.120 --> 0:47:13.480 I want time to like flirt. 0:47:13.520 --> 0:47:15.960 I want time to like get to know you think 0:47:16.000 --> 0:47:18.279 you're attractive, Like I need to know you're not dumb. 0:47:18.360 --> 0:47:20.879 But then also after one hour of conversation, most people 0:47:20.920 --> 0:47:22.759 are kind of dumb, which is problematic too. 0:47:24.000 --> 0:47:25.719 Yeah, dude, there's no way you're gonna know for sure 0:47:25.719 --> 0:47:26.279 they're not dumb. 0:47:26.520 --> 0:47:32.080 I miss say biosexual, they don't fucking oh boy, I do, 0:47:32.239 --> 0:47:33.960 like I want to know that you're smart and you 0:47:33.960 --> 0:47:36.279 don't say anything's fucking stupid. Some maytimes I've found someone 0:47:36.320 --> 0:47:38.279 super attractive and then they say something fucking stupid and 0:47:38.320 --> 0:47:39.680 I was like, oh that's over. 0:47:40.200 --> 0:47:42.120 You're dumb. You can't put it. 0:47:42.200 --> 0:47:45.200 Let a dumb dick go, and you're smart. Pussy to 0:47:45.360 --> 0:47:46.560 bring down your pussy cue, but. 0:47:46.680 --> 0:47:49.680 Just do it every day. It's not the pussy cue. 0:47:51.560 --> 0:47:52.560 Is your pussy c low? 0:47:52.880 --> 0:47:55.160 It's your pussy cue go lo Are you letting dumb 0:47:55.239 --> 0:47:58.480 niggas put their come in you? Their low IQ penis 0:47:58.560 --> 0:47:59.000 inside of. 0:47:59.040 --> 0:48:03.920 Your called mela, I can bring your pissy que up. 0:48:04.880 --> 0:48:05.799 Maybe look at your roster. 0:48:06.640 --> 0:48:10.840 Ask them these five questions before proceeding instead the survey. 0:48:13.360 --> 0:48:18.200 So basically, our lesbian action in twenty twenty six may 0:48:18.239 --> 0:48:21.120 be low unless there's mully water and ten to five 0:48:22.200 --> 0:48:22.680 tell you know. 0:48:22.680 --> 0:48:24.480 How it's going. Maybe I'll join Field this week and 0:48:24.520 --> 0:48:26.800 see what's going on over there, Just see what's happening. 0:48:26.920 --> 0:48:30.879 I am dying if they've updated their their platform capabilities, 0:48:30.920 --> 0:48:32.279 because like the last time I was on there, you 0:48:32.320 --> 0:48:34.600 could like make a profile with your partner or no, 0:48:34.640 --> 0:48:37.600 you could make a profile and then link your partners together. 0:48:38.080 --> 0:48:41.560 However you weren't. You wouldn't get messages together, so your 0:48:41.600 --> 0:48:44.520 partner could still be fucking being a dog and having 0:48:44.560 --> 0:48:47.040 separate messages. Like the whole point was like we're doing 0:48:47.080 --> 0:48:49.960 this together. And then once so that when that happened 0:48:49.960 --> 0:48:51.480 and I was with him, I was like, I don't 0:48:51.640 --> 0:48:53.479 this is not good. This you're cheating on me on Field. 0:48:53.880 --> 0:48:54.720 I told Orlando. 0:48:55.000 --> 0:48:58.799 I was like I I've been like spiraling a little 0:48:58.800 --> 0:49:00.520 bit because I think this full movie was in cancer. 0:49:00.560 --> 0:49:03.800 I'm a cancer, a lot of water, I'm going to 0:49:03.920 --> 0:49:06.480 Vegas on Saturday. It's like shit's getting real. And I 0:49:06.680 --> 0:49:09.120 was like, I just want you to know I'm not 0:49:09.440 --> 0:49:12.600 in the lifestyle. I'm not lifestyle ad Jason. I'm maybe 0:49:12.680 --> 0:49:15.400 dieing lifestyle. I don't I need you to know this 0:49:15.560 --> 0:49:15.719 is not. 0:49:16.200 --> 0:49:18.920 It won't work for me. He's like, I know what 0:49:19.080 --> 0:49:19.680 won't work for you. 0:49:19.840 --> 0:49:21.200 I was not, like, I don't want him to have 0:49:21.239 --> 0:49:24.120 the expectation that like, in the future, I'm gonna evolve 0:49:24.280 --> 0:49:26.400 and like be a threesome queen and I'm gonna be 0:49:26.440 --> 0:49:28.360 totally open and like down with the ships. 0:49:28.400 --> 0:49:29.160 Like I don't want that to be. 0:49:29.480 --> 0:49:31.680 I want to be like, oh, she's she's chirpping now, 0:49:31.760 --> 0:49:34.120 but like in one to three years, we're gonna get 0:49:34.160 --> 0:49:36.080 there and I'm gonna have she'd bring in all the 0:49:36.080 --> 0:49:37.719 pussy for me. We're gonna have all three somes. I 0:49:37.760 --> 0:49:39.759 didn't want him to ever have the expectation because I 0:49:39.880 --> 0:49:41.960 know that I was a previous lesbian and so there's 0:49:41.960 --> 0:49:45.040 probably hope, but there's not, And so I just want 0:49:45.239 --> 0:49:47.520 him to like be very clear that if that's not 0:49:47.640 --> 0:49:48.799 the lifestyle that you choose, you. 0:49:48.800 --> 0:49:52.160 Try to back out of your marriage. I just want 0:49:52.200 --> 0:49:55.239 to be clear, Orlando, before we before you marry me, 0:49:56.040 --> 0:49:58.920 this is one thing that you must know. I am 0:49:59.000 --> 0:50:01.400 not lifestyle of jacent. I know that I made it 0:50:01.480 --> 0:50:06.919 on Amazon, LGBTQ plus highly rated books with good mom's. 0:50:07.160 --> 0:50:10.600 Good mom's got to make you bad choices. However, I 0:50:10.760 --> 0:50:12.440 know that we were in the Rolling Stone article and 0:50:12.520 --> 0:50:15.920 they called us lifestyle adjacent. They called us, I don't know, freaks. 0:50:17.120 --> 0:50:19.799 They call us freak. Oh my god, forever and ever 0:50:19.920 --> 0:50:22.960 in Rolling Stone magazine, We're gonna be God. We did 0:50:23.000 --> 0:50:28.600 a print and frame it. Actually, but do you still 0:50:28.640 --> 0:50:29.759 love me and you don't want to marry me? 0:50:30.160 --> 0:50:32.200 A part of me is kind of like testy that way. 0:50:32.320 --> 0:50:36.839 I kind of want to sow everything in the fire. 0:50:36.880 --> 0:50:39.440 And you say, okay, never mind. I'm like, okay, I 0:50:39.520 --> 0:50:41.680 knew you're gonna say that. Never mind. 0:50:41.680 --> 0:50:42.800 You want to get married because I'm not going to 0:50:42.840 --> 0:50:46.799 have a threesome in two years. Okay. Imagine imagine if 0:50:46.800 --> 0:50:52.200 he's like, Okay, yeah, I can't do this. I don't know. 0:50:52.320 --> 0:50:54.880 Everybody's laughing. I don't know it's so funny because it's 0:50:54.960 --> 0:50:57.040 fucking ridiculous. He's obsessed with you. 0:50:59.600 --> 0:51:01.520 I found my man if I'm in sex party, like 0:51:01.560 --> 0:51:03.520 I found him in sex. I found him at a 0:51:03.640 --> 0:51:05.880 sex podcast. I saw him at a sex party. I 0:51:05.920 --> 0:51:08.080 told you after that one sex party. I was like, yeah, 0:51:08.120 --> 0:51:10.040 we're just friends. It's not gonna work. He's a little 0:51:10.040 --> 0:51:11.719 bit and he's a lot of attention. He's doing too much. 0:51:11.800 --> 0:51:13.359 I don't like it. It's not my life. 0:51:14.280 --> 0:51:16.000 And then he weaseled his way in and so I 0:51:16.080 --> 0:51:18.480 had to be clear. I know, I know, I know 0:51:18.560 --> 0:51:19.960 you saw me in the podcast and I looked really 0:51:20.000 --> 0:51:21.960 free and open, but I was like, I want to 0:51:22.000 --> 0:51:26.279 be open, but I'm not. I was like, I know 0:51:26.360 --> 0:51:28.520 you think I'm really cool and open, but i'm not. 0:51:31.800 --> 0:51:33.359 And then he laughed, just like he's laughing right now. 0:51:33.440 --> 0:51:36.960 It's okay. I was like, I'm cool, but I'm just 0:51:37.160 --> 0:51:40.120 not that cool. If anything is gonna be the opposite, 0:51:40.800 --> 0:51:42.920 it's like leers down the line. You're gonna be like 0:51:43.000 --> 0:51:48.520 I'm ready, babe, and he's gonna be like no, and 0:51:48.560 --> 0:51:50.000 then you're gonna be like, so you don't love me. 0:51:50.600 --> 0:51:51.800 I told him, you want a divorce. 0:51:51.920 --> 0:51:53.680 I told him in the beginning before when we were 0:51:53.719 --> 0:51:56.080 open and long distance and I was tolerating it because 0:51:56.120 --> 0:51:59.040 it was long distance and it was easier. I told him, 0:51:59.040 --> 0:52:02.000 if you want to go monoga now, don't ever ask 0:52:02.080 --> 0:52:03.719 me to go open again, because I'm probably not gonna 0:52:03.719 --> 0:52:05.960 be able to revert if either stay like this and 0:52:06.040 --> 0:52:08.960 I can get my get my shit up, or when 0:52:08.960 --> 0:52:11.279 we go monogamous, I'm gonna just not gonna work. I'm 0:52:11.320 --> 0:52:13.880 just gonna tell you right now, I'm jealousy. And he 0:52:13.960 --> 0:52:15.160 said he might be monogamous. 0:52:15.200 --> 0:52:15.680 So here we are. 0:52:16.800 --> 0:52:19.920 So you have about five more days to figure it 0:52:19.960 --> 0:52:22.560 out to give me your final answer on Friday. 0:52:23.920 --> 0:52:26.000 You sidn't you sidn't think about it at work? Yeah, 0:52:26.040 --> 0:52:28.759 you sit with that decision, Orlando, you just sit there 0:52:28.800 --> 0:52:31.759 and really think about it. You heard me, Don't you 0:52:31.840 --> 0:52:36.200 fuck with my friend because she's not gonna be your 0:52:36.239 --> 0:52:42.480 threesome queen. Okay, not a threesome queen. She is an 0:52:42.520 --> 0:52:43.399 monogamous whore. 0:52:46.680 --> 0:52:49.800 And that's another thing. We have so much dirty, nasty, filthy, 0:52:49.920 --> 0:52:53.560 freaky sex. Sometimes the thought of having like another person there, 0:52:54.160 --> 0:52:57.000 even when we have it's like wrap this up, let's 0:52:57.040 --> 0:52:59.440 get freaky. We can't be freaky in front of them. 0:52:59.440 --> 0:53:02.440 We don't know that them out. Hey, it's three o'clock. 0:53:02.920 --> 0:53:04.279 This has been fun, but we got to go on 0:53:04.320 --> 0:53:07.640 to level ten. We're approaching level ten hours and we 0:53:07.680 --> 0:53:10.600 don't know you like that, so you gotta go. So 0:53:10.760 --> 0:53:12.319 I'm just like, you freaked me out too much. 0:53:12.480 --> 0:53:14.480 You went too far. Now we can't even invite the 0:53:14.600 --> 0:53:19.120 GA general public in. Okay, then you can be the 0:53:19.160 --> 0:53:21.359 activators igniters, and then they get out. 0:53:22.880 --> 0:53:24.880 I'm not good at getting people out. I'm like, oh, 0:53:24.960 --> 0:53:26.799 you feel sad? Do you want to stay here? Come here, 0:53:27.120 --> 0:53:27.880 lay on my bosom. 0:53:28.440 --> 0:53:30.200 You're okay? And then it's like, you don't even want this, 0:53:30.280 --> 0:53:32.080 Why are you doing this? Tell them to get out? 0:53:32.080 --> 0:53:40.560 And I'm like, I just hate this, big fuck you. Yeah, 0:53:40.600 --> 0:53:42.279 you could say say sleep here, s loop in the middle, 0:53:42.280 --> 0:53:44.359 it's fine. Oh my god. 0:53:44.600 --> 0:53:46.520 I'm working on saying what I mean and meaning what 0:53:46.600 --> 0:53:51.120 I say, so it's not people pleasing. What if Shirkemp 0:53:51.120 --> 0:53:53.000 says he's never going to have any threesomes? Are you 0:53:53.080 --> 0:53:56.560 gonna sell marry marry him? Are you the Orlando in 0:53:56.600 --> 0:53:57.439 your relationship? 0:53:58.760 --> 0:54:01.239 Well no, that's not the case. But if he did 0:54:01.360 --> 0:54:06.680 say that we couldn't have any threesomes. That would be 0:54:06.680 --> 0:54:09.239 a problem for me really yeah, not because I'm like 0:54:09.239 --> 0:54:12.080 a threesome queen, but like I need I need the 0:54:12.280 --> 0:54:14.880 option of exploration for sure. And I like women not 0:54:15.000 --> 0:54:17.560 all the time. Obviously I can go years without them, 0:54:17.640 --> 0:54:19.760 but I don't want to like feel like I'm cheating 0:54:19.840 --> 0:54:22.160 on you if I see a woman out and I 0:54:22.400 --> 0:54:24.600 want to sleep with her and you can be there. 0:54:25.360 --> 0:54:29.760 So no, that's not he said. I'm not a threesome 0:54:29.880 --> 0:54:32.680 king and he must be a he could be a 0:54:32.800 --> 0:54:41.279 threesome apprentice. I'm not an apprenticeship. He could be yeah, 0:54:41.360 --> 0:54:43.799 a prince or what's the apprentice. 0:54:45.200 --> 0:54:45.359 Yeah. 0:54:45.480 --> 0:54:52.680 No, I definitely need sexual exploration, like I can't just no, no, 0:54:54.320 --> 0:54:57.040 So twenty twenty six could be the year that we 0:54:57.120 --> 0:54:57.800 have her threesome. 0:54:57.960 --> 0:55:01.160 Well, go after this, goam Field, hey Field, because we're 0:55:01.160 --> 0:55:03.239 coming back. Yeah, it's not a requirement, but I'm open 0:55:03.280 --> 0:55:05.240 to it. Maybe I'll go and Field and I'll pretend 0:55:05.320 --> 0:55:06.200 to be open and try. 0:55:07.400 --> 0:55:08.600 Don't do that. I told myself. 0:55:08.640 --> 0:55:10.319 I was like, I'm gonna try harder, I'm gonna dig 0:55:10.360 --> 0:55:12.520 into this insecurity. And then I had to come to 0:55:12.560 --> 0:55:15.120 the point like it's really not about insecurity. It's literally 0:55:15.200 --> 0:55:18.360 about it's like I know how my brain works, and 0:55:18.480 --> 0:55:21.560 I know how it like spirals, and I'm like in 0:55:21.680 --> 0:55:25.280 order to save everyone for me, and like my my body, 0:55:25.440 --> 0:55:29.879 like my nervous system immediately goes into like, well. 0:55:29.800 --> 0:55:31.440 Then don't do that to yourself. I know I can't 0:55:31.440 --> 0:55:34.600 handle it. You don't need to do that. No, don't, 0:55:34.640 --> 0:55:45.120 please don't join field. You can just look on mine. Fine, anyway, 0:55:47.760 --> 0:55:50.160 did you make any bad choices this week? Bad mom? 0:55:50.280 --> 0:55:54.960 Not a bad mom, but a bad mom. I'm so good. 0:56:02.320 --> 0:56:04.480 This January thinking that I can be a threesome queen 0:56:04.520 --> 0:56:04.880 and I'm not. 0:56:05.320 --> 0:56:06.880 I tried to be a three some queen. This I'm 0:56:06.960 --> 0:56:08.879 just not. I just I just my head doesn't work 0:56:08.920 --> 0:56:13.920 that way. But I can't do it. That's your bad choice, 0:56:15.000 --> 0:56:17.440 going against myself. But I know it's not in me. 0:56:17.560 --> 0:56:19.200 I know it's not. I just have to accept it. 0:56:19.520 --> 0:56:22.680 Even if I want to be cool and open and that. Yeah, 0:56:23.280 --> 0:56:23.719 I feel that. 0:56:23.880 --> 0:56:27.560 I'm a solo, cool and open person, not in a relationship. 0:56:28.080 --> 0:56:29.760 And then I'm about to like about to get married, 0:56:29.840 --> 0:56:32.879 and it's like it's just my mind doesn't. 0:56:32.560 --> 0:56:34.279 Work that way. Yeah, I mean I think you're a 0:56:34.400 --> 0:56:38.360 probably you're in a season of like create, like consecrating 0:56:38.400 --> 0:56:42.320 your relationship. It doesn't feel probably like a third is 0:56:43.440 --> 0:56:44.480 part of the consecration. 0:56:45.239 --> 0:56:47.239 It's just not in alignment. And again, I don't want 0:56:48.600 --> 0:56:50.920 to think that I'm gonna be down that's gonna be 0:56:51.040 --> 0:56:53.400 the that's gonna be the intro to our relationship, because 0:56:53.400 --> 0:56:53.680 it's not. 0:56:54.480 --> 0:56:57.040 You're gonna be mad? Has he shown you this? And 0:56:57.239 --> 0:56:59.319 that's why I mean, I know. 0:56:59.400 --> 0:57:04.040 Him another guy. He would be down. If I was down, 0:57:04.120 --> 0:57:06.920 he'd be down. And well he's a man exactly. And 0:57:07.040 --> 0:57:09.239 that's the thing is like, that's and I maybe you 0:57:09.239 --> 0:57:12.799 can relate to this. I always feel like men are 0:57:12.800 --> 0:57:15.040 gonna lie a little bit. You're gonna always tell you 0:57:15.120 --> 0:57:17.160 what you want to hear. So I'm always like looking 0:57:17.200 --> 0:57:18.640 at their eyes, like even if he says no, I 0:57:18.680 --> 0:57:20.920 don't want that, I'm like, you're why he would if 0:57:20.960 --> 0:57:22.080 I said it? If I lied right now, if I 0:57:22.120 --> 0:57:24.240 did an acting gig and I was like not an 0:57:24.280 --> 0:57:26.400 acting gig, if I was like I'm done and I 0:57:26.560 --> 0:57:29.400 want to do this, he'd be like, okay, game. And 0:57:29.520 --> 0:57:32.080 that's why I just I want to know the truth. 0:57:32.520 --> 0:57:37.560 Do you do this like test, yeah, this is a 0:57:37.600 --> 0:57:39.600 woman thing. Because I test, I mean, I guess, oh, 0:57:39.680 --> 0:57:41.040 yeah you want to do it, And he'd be like, yeah, 0:57:41.040 --> 0:57:41.400 I'm down. 0:57:41.440 --> 0:57:44.680 I'd be like, fuck you, I knew it. You're a 0:57:44.760 --> 0:57:51.000 war I guess sometimes I've I've tested. I don't know 0:57:51.040 --> 0:57:52.720 if I've done a lot of testing, which you came. 0:57:53.800 --> 0:57:56.040 Because I think that he's just honest and he's like 0:57:56.160 --> 0:57:59.160 and he is like obviously a man, but you know 0:57:59.400 --> 0:58:04.640 he's he he's also like he's definitely he's not a cow. 0:58:04.720 --> 0:58:06.680 He's never had a one night stand, Like he's not 0:58:06.880 --> 0:58:10.360 like a casual fucker like that. Like he's a sapio sexual, 0:58:10.680 --> 0:58:14.520 like more than actual, more than I am. You know, 0:58:14.760 --> 0:58:17.160 like the threesome that we have is probably gonna take 0:58:17.200 --> 0:58:19.520 some massaging, Like he's gonna have to really know the 0:58:19.560 --> 0:58:22.080 bitch really well. I'm gonna be the one that's like, 0:58:22.240 --> 0:58:28.920 she's fine, it's good enough, come on. So you know, 0:58:29.440 --> 0:58:33.160 I don't think it's it's mostly me, but he's he 0:58:33.200 --> 0:58:35.040 should be testing me, not the other way around. 0:58:36.400 --> 0:58:38.640 I think that men are afraid of women because we 0:58:38.760 --> 0:58:43.600 have such range of our like feelings and how heavier 0:58:43.680 --> 0:58:45.960 feelings can be so they're like kind of like pre 0:58:46.440 --> 0:58:47.840 prepped to be like, no. 0:58:47.920 --> 0:58:49.560 No, I would do that. Are you okay? No, I wouldn't. 0:58:49.560 --> 0:58:51.320 I didn't say. That's not what I meant. No, no, no, no, 0:58:51.520 --> 0:58:52.480 I don't. She's ugly. 0:58:53.400 --> 0:58:58.400 I don't want Bussie, just yours is the most beautiful because, like, validly, 0:58:58.520 --> 0:59:01.160 they probably see it a lot women crash out. So 0:59:01.240 --> 0:59:03.720 I'm always a little bit like, yeah, oh yeah, you 0:59:03.760 --> 0:59:04.160 want to do that. 0:59:04.360 --> 0:59:04.880 Yeah, me too. 0:59:07.480 --> 0:59:13.640 December thirty second. Fuck, I'm working on it, guys, I'm 0:59:13.680 --> 0:59:14.120 working on it. 0:59:14.440 --> 0:59:16.880 Oh my god. We had someone write in a Bad 0:59:16.960 --> 0:59:20.560 Choice of the Week. They said that they invited their 0:59:20.680 --> 0:59:24.840 crush to a group outing with their wife to practice 0:59:24.880 --> 0:59:28.920 their poly boundaries. Did the wife know? I asked to 0:59:29.040 --> 0:59:30.760 inquire because it's like, is that why it's bad choice? 0:59:30.760 --> 0:59:32.920 Because you're a liared You're fucking being fucking sneaky. 0:59:33.560 --> 0:59:34.640 Oh my god, I just want you to know if 0:59:34.680 --> 0:59:36.320 you invite your crush out with me, I'll slap the 0:59:36.360 --> 0:59:36.840 shit out of you. 0:59:38.120 --> 0:59:43.800 I'm not crazy. I've done weird stuff like that before. 0:59:44.520 --> 0:59:47.400 I've done weird stuff like that before. I think I do. 0:59:47.560 --> 0:59:50.120 I think I've done that a lot. Actually, like be 0:59:50.400 --> 0:59:53.240 bringing like my niggas around, like one specific nigga in 0:59:53.320 --> 0:59:59.840 particular that I know loves me, and but also he 1:00:00.000 --> 1:00:02.520 provides a good environment and fun time. So I just 1:00:02.640 --> 1:00:06.800 kind of like let it happen because it's just not 1:00:07.080 --> 1:00:09.600 it's just not we're not there anymore like that. But 1:00:09.720 --> 1:00:14.280 I do know that if perhaps I was single, we 1:00:14.440 --> 1:00:19.400 might fuck around and find out. But I've really, I've 1:00:19.400 --> 1:00:21.360 been a lot more intentional in this relationship not to 1:00:21.920 --> 1:00:25.680 do that, because I definitely made my ex like shake 1:00:25.720 --> 1:00:27.920 his hand. He got us into like a festival one 1:00:27.960 --> 1:00:31.600 time and he was DJing and by in New York 1:00:32.360 --> 1:00:35.560 Bay City rat as you like to call him, like 1:00:35.640 --> 1:00:38.520 shook his hand and I was like, and him in 1:00:38.560 --> 1:00:41.800 particular because he was so fucking jealous, man can was like. 1:00:42.440 --> 1:00:45.080 And then also he through my birthday party let me 1:00:45.240 --> 1:00:47.720 or let me have a party. That's because he was cheating. 1:00:48.520 --> 1:00:51.160 Yeah, that's why niggas are like, don't let me like 1:00:51.280 --> 1:00:53.040 what is his name, Cam Newton, don't let me be 1:00:53.240 --> 1:00:55.160 somewhere and you hay say to somebody in the building 1:00:55.200 --> 1:00:57.320 and I don't know about it, Like nigga, I said 1:00:57.360 --> 1:00:58.760 to ten of these niggas in this building, there's a 1:00:58.800 --> 1:01:00.520 hundred niggas in here also. 1:01:00.640 --> 1:01:01.240 I mean, i'd like to. 1:01:01.320 --> 1:01:05.040 I'll tell people, but it's just not always realistic. Inviting 1:01:05.120 --> 1:01:07.680 someone is something different, but like someone just being there 1:01:07.720 --> 1:01:08.560 and it's out of your control. 1:01:08.640 --> 1:01:11.480 Like I'm a grown ass woman. I've fucked and like 1:01:11.640 --> 1:01:12.960 not a whole lot of people in. 1:01:12.960 --> 1:01:16.000 The city, but niggas who fucked me are gonna say 1:01:16.080 --> 1:01:18.000 hi because we don't have any beef because we just fucked. 1:01:18.040 --> 1:01:20.520 I think I've just let like my desire to want 1:01:20.560 --> 1:01:27.440 to have a good time supersede respect, Like but I 1:01:27.480 --> 1:01:29.520 wanted to go to the party, but I wanted to 1:01:29.560 --> 1:01:31.880 go to the festival. I mean, but I wanted a 1:01:31.920 --> 1:01:32.760 table for my birthday. 1:01:33.000 --> 1:01:34.920 But if you hadn't, or if you had been in 1:01:34.960 --> 1:01:36.840 a relationship where you could have expressed that, like the 1:01:36.960 --> 1:01:38.760 things that I get us in, there's nothing there like it, 1:01:39.200 --> 1:01:40.600 it would have not been a big deal. But because 1:01:40.640 --> 1:01:43.200 that nigga was overly anxious about it, because he was 1:01:43.280 --> 1:01:45.960 doing funck shit. Because I other tell Orlando, like I've 1:01:46.120 --> 1:01:47.920 been bound with places and I'm like, oh, by the way, 1:01:48.360 --> 1:01:50.800 that guy who just said hydas I hide sex with 1:01:50.840 --> 1:01:53.920 them one time, Like oh okay, yeah, okay, it's random, 1:01:54.000 --> 1:01:56.120 it was five years ago, whatever, you know what I mean. 1:01:55.960 --> 1:01:57.720 It's not that. But does that because he wants to 1:01:57.800 --> 1:02:00.280 know that because she Keem doesn't want me to he said, 1:02:00.320 --> 1:02:02.439 he doesn't need to know. Like every time we see 1:02:02.480 --> 1:02:04.280 someone that I've had sex with, he did. It's not 1:02:04.360 --> 1:02:06.240 a requirement that i'd be like, oh, by the way 1:02:06.560 --> 1:02:07.120 I slept with that. 1:02:07.320 --> 1:02:10.120 Most men feel that way, and I sometimes when we're 1:02:10.160 --> 1:02:12.520 an interaction, I feel I don't know, I've just been 1:02:12.600 --> 1:02:15.880 I've been programmed to say something. 1:02:16.840 --> 1:02:19.160 You programmed yourself. And also he's like my friend. 1:02:19.000 --> 1:02:20.680 So I'm not really it's not like I'm warning you 1:02:20.800 --> 1:02:23.240 so you can know. It's that, but also like, oh, yeah, 1:02:23.280 --> 1:02:27.320 I fucked them. I just remembered, oh my god, flash back. 1:02:27.520 --> 1:02:27.680 You know. 1:02:27.800 --> 1:02:30.720 It's more like I'm just saying it. It's not And 1:02:30.800 --> 1:02:34.400 I don't think that I think that he would want 1:02:34.440 --> 1:02:35.440 to know. But I don't think if I didn't say 1:02:35.440 --> 1:02:36.439 anything he'd be bothered either. 1:02:37.640 --> 1:02:40.280 I think that sometimes women we overshare because we're scared 1:02:40.560 --> 1:02:42.400 to get found out, and then we overshare and then 1:02:42.440 --> 1:02:44.840 we regret it or we overshare and that our partners 1:02:44.880 --> 1:02:46.640 are like, well, I really didn't need to fucking know that. 1:02:47.480 --> 1:02:51.040 I overshared in my past. I wouldn't say shit because 1:02:51.160 --> 1:02:54.080 I know you can't handle it. I'm I usually I 1:02:54.320 --> 1:02:56.920 usually make the decision if you can handle it or not, 1:02:57.120 --> 1:02:59.160 if I see your true colors, because I've been beat 1:02:59.240 --> 1:03:02.760 and I'm not even harassed and terrorized and by jealous niggas, 1:03:02.800 --> 1:03:05.400 and actually, for the most part, I kind of shut 1:03:05.440 --> 1:03:06.840 the fuck up just because I'm used to being in 1:03:06.880 --> 1:03:09.400 those relationships. I'm like, oh, fuck, I'm not going home. 1:03:09.400 --> 1:03:10.760 I'm making a stop. Like should I call and say 1:03:10.800 --> 1:03:13.520 something like no, just hope he doesn't see my location. 1:03:14.080 --> 1:03:16.160 And it's like, bitch, just say what you're doing because 1:03:16.160 --> 1:03:18.040 you're not in that relationship anymore where you're gonna be 1:03:18.120 --> 1:03:20.720 chastised or accused. So like, I think I have to 1:03:20.720 --> 1:03:23.120 come out of that. But I mean, I understand both ways. 1:03:23.160 --> 1:03:26.800 I want to know, but also Orlando is such a whore. 1:03:26.920 --> 1:03:29.160 It's like that's probably everybody. 1:03:30.960 --> 1:03:34.920 Yeah, I want to know too, but I could understand 1:03:34.920 --> 1:03:36.120 why a man doesn't want to know. I feel like 1:03:36.160 --> 1:03:38.280 a man's reaction or like what he harbors after that 1:03:38.400 --> 1:03:40.040 is different than what a woman harbors. It's not like 1:03:40.240 --> 1:03:43.720 a woman is gonna like analyze the girl, Wonder how 1:03:43.760 --> 1:03:47.680 he fucked her, Wonder what all these different things in comparison, 1:03:47.760 --> 1:03:50.160 where a nigga is not really doing comparing he's like 1:03:50.240 --> 1:03:53.400 I'm gonna kill him, or like I don't know, there's 1:03:53.440 --> 1:03:56.920 like a different like thing, there's a different psychological response. 1:03:56.960 --> 1:03:59.800 I feel like that women have versus what men have 1:04:00.360 --> 1:04:05.600 when they're given that type of information, And so I 1:04:05.680 --> 1:04:08.480 think that's why a lot of men don't care not 1:04:08.600 --> 1:04:10.800 to know, because it's going to take them out of themselves. 1:04:10.880 --> 1:04:12.840 I'm just going to examine the way you interact with 1:04:12.920 --> 1:04:15.680 that person the whole time, and how she interacts with me, 1:04:16.280 --> 1:04:18.600 and if it's on some fake shit, I'm going to. 1:04:20.200 --> 1:04:25.640 Blow up everything. Well on that note, is it, Taro tyme? Yeah? 1:04:38.280 --> 1:04:44.160 Ten of Cups? I like Ten of Cups looks beautiful, 1:04:44.280 --> 1:04:46.480 they look joyous, there's happy children. 1:04:47.480 --> 1:04:54.680 It's about divine love, blissful relationships, harmony alignment. As I 1:04:54.760 --> 1:05:00.000 talk about my psychoonists, the ten of Cups embodies happiness, 1:05:00.160 --> 1:05:03.800 joy and emotional contentment, particularly in your relationships and family. 1:05:04.360 --> 1:05:06.440 You have created an abundance of love and happiness in 1:05:06.520 --> 1:05:08.440 your life, and you now share this love with others 1:05:08.520 --> 1:05:11.840 expanding your heart even more. This card often appears when 1:05:11.840 --> 1:05:13.680 you are surrounded by loved ones with whom you share 1:05:13.760 --> 1:05:16.920 powerful and deep connection. You appreciate and support one another, 1:05:17.000 --> 1:05:20.200 and together you help each other reach your highest potential. 1:05:20.280 --> 1:05:22.680 It brings you so much joy to see your loved 1:05:22.720 --> 1:05:25.720 ones succeed and live happily, happy lives. 1:05:26.040 --> 1:05:26.920 The ton of Cups is the. 1:05:26.920 --> 1:05:30.000 Happy family card, suggesting that your family relationships are harmonious 1:05:30.040 --> 1:05:32.320 and loving. Right now, no one is fighting your cause 1:05:32.360 --> 1:05:34.600 and any tension. All family members are getting along with 1:05:34.640 --> 1:05:36.680 each other and sharing in the love and happiness that 1:05:36.760 --> 1:05:40.040 surrounds you. This card may appear in a reading when 1:05:40.120 --> 1:05:42.920 you're spending more time with family, perhaps on a holiday, 1:05:42.960 --> 1:05:45.800 reunion or event where you can rest and relax together, 1:05:45.960 --> 1:05:50.560 creating fun and happy family memories and strong bonds. It's 1:05:50.560 --> 1:05:53.959 a positive card for romantic relationships and may indicate either 1:05:54.000 --> 1:05:56.800 a new and blissled relationship or long term commitment such 1:05:56.800 --> 1:06:00.640 as an engagement, marriage, or starting a family together. You 1:06:00.720 --> 1:06:03.440 share an everlasting love and may believe that your soulmate's 1:06:03.760 --> 1:06:05.320 destined to be with one another. 1:06:06.160 --> 1:06:12.280 Oh beautiful, very nice. Yeah, I resonate with that. I've 1:06:12.280 --> 1:06:14.040 been spending a lot of time with family and it 1:06:14.120 --> 1:06:15.680 feels good. Yeah. 1:06:18.080 --> 1:06:21.080 The holidays are for home and family. I feel that way. 1:06:21.280 --> 1:06:22.880 Do you have an affirmation for us today? 1:06:29.640 --> 1:06:46.200 Today's affirmation is there's no time. Don't take it up 1:06:46.240 --> 1:06:50.520 a notch in January, bitch, relax. Take that. Don't take 1:06:50.520 --> 1:06:56.760 it up a notch. Relax. Relax. Still, don't take it 1:06:56.840 --> 1:07:01.680 up a notch in January, bitch, relax. Be honest with yourself. 1:07:01.680 --> 1:07:04.600 You're not ready. It's okay. I know that you guys 1:07:04.640 --> 1:07:06.560 have all been seeing. It's the year of the horse 1:07:06.800 --> 1:07:10.120 doesn't actually start till February, so you have some time 1:07:10.600 --> 1:07:12.920 you're still shedding. It's still the year of the snake 1:07:12.960 --> 1:07:14.720 according to Chinese astrology. 1:07:15.440 --> 1:07:18.040 Oh really m hm oh I think I did see that. 1:07:18.120 --> 1:07:19.320 February like seventeenth. 1:07:19.400 --> 1:07:22.400 Okay, yeah, yeah, so we have till February seventeenth to 1:07:23.360 --> 1:07:27.120 rev up our horse power. O good. Until then, shed 1:07:27.160 --> 1:07:28.800 it all, bitch, I'm going to need about six more 1:07:28.840 --> 1:07:34.520 weeks and read that. Yeah, I'm I resonate with that. 1:07:35.680 --> 1:07:39.520 Have a seat, bitch, have a seat. So if you're 1:07:39.520 --> 1:07:42.560 listening to this, just relax. Take a few deep breaths today. 1:07:42.560 --> 1:07:44.360 If you're at work, if you're at home, if you're 1:07:44.400 --> 1:07:48.240 in the bed, whatever you're doing, just chill out. It's okay. 1:07:48.520 --> 1:07:51.080 I know it's the beginning of the year. Maybe take 1:07:51.120 --> 1:07:55.240 a little Instagram detox if you haven't already. And there's 1:07:55.240 --> 1:07:57.200 a lot of things going on. I'm going to, but 1:07:57.280 --> 1:07:59.760 there's always a lot of things going on, and so 1:08:00.000 --> 1:08:02.720 oh you have to protect your peace. You should get 1:08:02.720 --> 1:08:05.480 this app I have. It's been really helpful. It's called 1:08:05.560 --> 1:08:12.440 be present and just take it slow, but implement something 1:08:12.480 --> 1:08:15.840 in your life that feels good, Like whether that is 1:08:16.720 --> 1:08:19.360 five minutes in the morning before you wake your kids, 1:08:19.400 --> 1:08:23.439 wake up for yourself, Like, just do something to get 1:08:23.520 --> 1:08:28.080 you ready for February seventeenth, because that bitch is gonna 1:08:28.120 --> 1:08:30.240 pop up out of nowhere. And then you be like, oh, 1:08:30.360 --> 1:08:32.479 you're still resting, and then you're gonna feel frazzled and 1:08:32.560 --> 1:08:34.280 suddenly it's marching. You still don't have shit done, and 1:08:34.360 --> 1:08:36.559 you're overwhelmed, and you're back on the internet and you're 1:08:36.600 --> 1:08:38.240 not doing enough and you're not making enough money and 1:08:38.320 --> 1:08:41.519 fuck fuck fuck. So just you know, slowly, start to 1:08:41.560 --> 1:08:44.519 implement the things in your life that are going to 1:08:44.600 --> 1:08:46.640 get you to where you want to be. By the 1:08:46.760 --> 1:08:49.519 end of the year, but slowly. 1:08:49.479 --> 1:08:55.840 Slow rituals, small alters alter your life slightly each day. 1:08:56.560 --> 1:09:04.599 Gently. Yeah, and if you are looking for a place 1:09:05.000 --> 1:09:08.200 to implement these things, check out the Goodbye Retreat. We 1:09:09.000 --> 1:09:12.559 have retreat offerings for you in twenty twenty six. 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Amen. 1:09:50.760 --> 1:09:56.680 So anyway, happy New Year, rate and review this episode. 1:09:57.520 --> 1:10:02.960 We love you and bye bye jes Yeah, I'm living 1:10:03.120 --> 1:10:05.559 so good. Can't you tell? I went through a drought. 1:10:05.640 --> 1:10:07.599 That's until I found out well may might have been 1:10:07.680 --> 1:10:09.160 known Earth. I used to be broken. 1:10:09.320 --> 1:10:10.640 Hell Now I got the blues in. 1:10:10.720 --> 1:10:13.920 To like Beyonce Jasell throat shot or pop in his car. 1:10:14.000 --> 1:10:16.320 We're in her voices patriarch and kept it in the 1:10:16.400 --> 1:10:17.439 box to it's fotis. 1:10:17.680 --> 1:10:20.240 Women put the pee and powers, so it's pointless. They 1:10:20.280 --> 1:10:22.719 want me to be good, so I make bad choices. 1:10:22.920 --> 1:10:25.400 Bad mom, not a bad mom, but a bad mom. 1:10:25.520 --> 1:10:28.439 It he's in on the cannabis in their bathbon walked 1:10:28.479 --> 1:10:31.280 in Bosts Capp and I blew his cat boss hot dog. 1:10:31.439 --> 1:10:33.880 Now I'm immune to the cat called Herbie and no 1:10:33.960 --> 1:10:36.439 waisted straight to it like a dollar sign. Mother, rent 1:10:36.479 --> 1:10:38.479 the lover when to it is like a water someone 1:10:38.520 --> 1:10:41.320 where you're renting winter essential will when the summertime. I 1:10:41.439 --> 1:10:43.400 do what doll ain't know when that needs a running 1:10:43.439 --> 1:10:43.599 by