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Speaker 1: Hmmm, So welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices.

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Speaker 2: I'm Erica and I'm Neila, and it's Wednesday, Happy hump Day.

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Speaker 2: Not only that, you guys, it's masturbation May. And we

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Speaker 2: are on a diktalks?

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Speaker 3: Are we on a dick talks? Are we on addicts? Oh? Wow?

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Speaker 3: Are we on a diktalk?

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Speaker 1: You think you have friends and there's loyalty, but there's none. Actually,

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Speaker 1: I don't think I've had sex since three days ago.

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Speaker 3: So I am on tktoks. Okay, okay for those of

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Speaker 3: you that don't know what we're talking about. Starting May first,

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Speaker 3: I have encouraged the community to join me on abstaining

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Speaker 3: from sex for the month of May, to do some

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Speaker 3: inner healing, you know, just questioning whyest we're having sex

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Speaker 3: with some of the people that we're having sex with,

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Speaker 3: healing our vaginas, giving them a low break, doing some

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Speaker 3: manifestation during this month, and coming back to self, especially

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Speaker 3: because it is masturbation May. So yes, we're abstaining from sex,

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Speaker 3: and yes we are masturbating. Yes, yep, but she said,

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Speaker 3: and I'm really excited because we have our first meet

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Speaker 3: up tomorrow with the community on Patreon. So In order

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Speaker 3: to join the Dick Talks, you have to join Patreon

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Speaker 3: our Pasture Bedtime Tier, and it's worth it. Our Pasture

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Speaker 3: Bedtime Tier not only has the Dick Talks, but it

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Speaker 3: has so much other content that we don't post on

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Speaker 3: We have a roll up on there that we do.

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Speaker 3: We roll up our favorite weed, We talk our shit.

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Speaker 1: We have blog book Sex Positions one on one where

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Speaker 1: Eric and I reenact our most favorite, most recent sex positions,

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Speaker 3: How you do. And Mila just posted her birth video

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Speaker 3: which people have been crying about in the patreons. Have

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Speaker 3: you seen it? I didn't watch the whole thing. I'm

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Speaker 3: going to post mine. Mine is about six seconds long

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Speaker 3: because my baby daddy was screaming like a psychopath during

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Speaker 3: it and decided that he had had enough and turned

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Speaker 3: will be it. It was a sea section, so you know,

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Speaker 3: maybe not as beautiful as your vaginal birth. All births

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Speaker 3: are equal, but yeah. On Thursday, we're having a zoom

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Speaker 3: because we have Somaya of Sexual Essentials, who's going to

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Speaker 3: teach us all about manifestation masturbation and that I feel

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Speaker 3: which is my shit. Yeah, and we also have Bruna

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Speaker 3: She's been a guest on our show. She actually did

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Speaker 3: the episode called One Thousand Days of Celibacy because she

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Speaker 3: again right now and joining us on the Diktoks. So

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Speaker 3: I'm really excited to talk to her and share and

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Speaker 1: There's so many ways to experience intimacy, you know, And

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Speaker 3: It's Mother's Day this weekend. Treat mother's nice.

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Speaker 1: I was telling Erica today my statement, not my quote,

430
00:23:13,480 --> 00:23:16,360
Speaker 1: that you know, dysfunction is like mold. If you don't

431
00:23:16,359 --> 00:23:19,440
Speaker 1: attend to it, it will inevitably like spread into every

432
00:23:19,440 --> 00:23:22,679
Speaker 1: other part every other existence, your family, your relationship, your

433
00:23:22,680 --> 00:23:25,639
Speaker 1: relationship with your kids, and like that dysfunction is like

434
00:23:25,800 --> 00:23:26,920
Speaker 1: trauma that's unhealed.

435
00:23:28,760 --> 00:23:30,600
Speaker 3: And sometimes it's hard to admit when you fuck up

436
00:23:30,640 --> 00:23:32,959
Speaker 3: and when you're wrong and when you're not doing a

437
00:23:33,000 --> 00:23:34,080
Speaker 3: good job balancing.

438
00:23:36,000 --> 00:23:37,320
Speaker 1: But that's a part of it, that's a part of

439
00:23:37,320 --> 00:23:41,000
Speaker 1: getting back on it. But like that has been heavy

440
00:23:41,200 --> 00:23:48,600
Speaker 1: on my heart because I'm an avoidant attachment. I have

441
00:23:48,800 --> 00:23:53,320
Speaker 1: avoidant attachment. I have an avoidant attachment avoided, I have

442
00:23:53,320 --> 00:23:56,040
Speaker 1: a confused attachment. So I will try to attach myself

443
00:23:56,080 --> 00:23:59,480
Speaker 1: to someone and then attach myself into their life love me,

444
00:23:59,560 --> 00:24:01,480
Speaker 1: and then be like oh no, no, no, no, no, never mind,

445
00:24:01,520 --> 00:24:03,680
Speaker 1: just kidding and try and detach because I'm now I'm

446
00:24:03,680 --> 00:24:06,760
Speaker 1: scared of it. But it's just this vicious cycle of

447
00:24:07,040 --> 00:24:10,320
Speaker 1: just like running, you know, running for myself, running from

448
00:24:10,320 --> 00:24:15,560
Speaker 1: and just seeking validation and love and like admiration from

449
00:24:15,600 --> 00:24:19,879
Speaker 1: outside places and you can't. You I'll be fucking searching

450
00:24:19,920 --> 00:24:22,600
Speaker 1: for that forever because no one's ever going to love

451
00:24:22,640 --> 00:24:25,719
Speaker 1: you better than you love yourself, It's true. And if

452
00:24:25,720 --> 00:24:28,360
Speaker 1: you can't like fully give that to yourself, and how

453
00:24:28,400 --> 00:24:31,000
Speaker 1: can you give that to your kids or to anybody else.

454
00:24:31,720 --> 00:24:36,200
Speaker 1: So yeah, there's just you're I mean, you're like our

455
00:24:36,280 --> 00:24:37,080
Speaker 1: kids are mirrors.

456
00:24:37,080 --> 00:24:41,320
Speaker 3: They really like force us to stare deep in our

457
00:24:41,359 --> 00:24:45,120
Speaker 3: eyeballs and like fucking be like you have You're still

458
00:24:45,119 --> 00:24:48,520
Speaker 3: not doing the work, bitch. Guess what I'm getting older?

459
00:24:48,720 --> 00:24:50,520
Speaker 3: Oh you see that thing I did I do that

460
00:24:50,560 --> 00:24:53,960
Speaker 3: you don't like? That's you, bitch, Like that's me being

461
00:24:54,040 --> 00:24:57,640
Speaker 3: you because I'm watching you do that dumb shit And

462
00:24:57,680 --> 00:25:00,679
Speaker 3: now I won't unlearn it because I've been watching it

463
00:25:00,720 --> 00:25:02,520
Speaker 3: for too long. I don't want to say long learn it,

464
00:25:02,560 --> 00:25:07,840
Speaker 3: but I don't know. It's I think about like because

465
00:25:07,880 --> 00:25:11,600
Speaker 3: we took these attachment tests, right, and last week we

466
00:25:11,600 --> 00:25:16,359
Speaker 3: had Felicia latouron and she was talking about our attachment styles.

467
00:25:16,400 --> 00:25:18,000
Speaker 3: I don't know if you guys have ever heard about this,

468
00:25:18,119 --> 00:25:22,480
Speaker 3: but it's just basically based in childhood and like how

469
00:25:22,520 --> 00:25:28,919
Speaker 3: we are as adults as in relationships essentially, and mine

470
00:25:29,080 --> 00:25:31,520
Speaker 3: was when I took the test, I was just secure attachment.

471
00:25:31,520 --> 00:25:33,960
Speaker 3: And people are really proud of being like the secure

472
00:25:34,320 --> 00:25:40,880
Speaker 3: like having secure attachment tendencies and stuff. But I don't

473
00:25:40,920 --> 00:25:44,639
Speaker 3: know if it's all that great either, because there's a

474
00:25:44,720 --> 00:25:50,439
Speaker 3: sense of like I don't need anybody, I think for me,

475
00:25:51,200 --> 00:25:54,080
Speaker 3: but I do need people, but like no one's ever

476
00:25:54,119 --> 00:25:57,359
Speaker 3: good enough, you know, And like that's what I've realized too,

477
00:25:57,400 --> 00:25:58,880
Speaker 3: and I know that men have told me that too.

478
00:25:58,920 --> 00:26:00,560
Speaker 3: Like men I've always said, like make me feel like

479
00:26:00,600 --> 00:26:02,800
Speaker 3: I'm not good enough, and I'm like good you're not,

480
00:26:02,920 --> 00:26:06,200
Speaker 3: but also like I'm not perfect either. Fuck like even

481
00:26:06,240 --> 00:26:11,720
Speaker 3: like recently I went on this secret trip and that

482
00:26:11,960 --> 00:26:17,239
Speaker 3: only like only close friends got to see. And uh,

483
00:26:18,600 --> 00:26:25,359
Speaker 3: just like expecting men to be more than where I'm at,

484
00:26:25,520 --> 00:26:30,000
Speaker 3: you know, like wanting men to give me shit that necessarily,

485
00:26:30,080 --> 00:26:32,000
Speaker 3: yeah I can, I can give myself, and like this

486
00:26:32,040 --> 00:26:34,160
Speaker 3: situation is a little different, but I was thinking about

487
00:26:34,160 --> 00:26:36,400
Speaker 3: that a lot too, like my desire for like a

488
00:26:36,400 --> 00:26:38,600
Speaker 3: man to have this and this and that and that,

489
00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:41,159
Speaker 3: and it's like, bitch, you don't have all of those things,

490
00:26:41,200 --> 00:26:43,160
Speaker 3: So how are you going to sit here and demand

491
00:26:43,280 --> 00:26:44,920
Speaker 3: that he does? And I'm like, well, because I want

492
00:26:45,000 --> 00:26:47,159
Speaker 3: him to elevate me. I want him to motivate me.

493
00:26:47,280 --> 00:26:50,639
Speaker 3: I'm already motivated. I'm on my way there, so you

494
00:26:50,720 --> 00:26:52,320
Speaker 3: need to be there already. One of us needs to

495
00:26:52,359 --> 00:26:56,400
Speaker 3: be there. Make the shit easier, teach me something, make

496
00:26:56,440 --> 00:27:00,840
Speaker 3: it easier. But then I was like, well to say that,

497
00:27:01,040 --> 00:27:04,159
Speaker 3: you know, I don't know. I've been like battling these

498
00:27:04,280 --> 00:27:06,600
Speaker 3: these rules I've made for myself when it comes to

499
00:27:06,680 --> 00:27:09,199
Speaker 3: like the men I want, And I think that some

500
00:27:09,280 --> 00:27:12,119
Speaker 3: of them are about valid for sure, But then some

501
00:27:12,160 --> 00:27:14,480
Speaker 3: of them, I'm like, are these tactics to never set

502
00:27:14,520 --> 00:27:17,280
Speaker 3: to never find that person? Are these like ways for

503
00:27:17,359 --> 00:27:20,440
Speaker 3: me to be like mm almost but not really? She said,

504
00:27:20,480 --> 00:27:23,640
Speaker 3: But she's a track stuff. And it's so weird because

505
00:27:23,640 --> 00:27:26,800
Speaker 3: I wasn't always. I've always been like a very much

506
00:27:26,840 --> 00:27:32,120
Speaker 3: a relationship person, and now I find myself like making

507
00:27:33,280 --> 00:27:36,720
Speaker 3: I don't know, like oh, like if I got like

508
00:27:36,760 --> 00:27:38,520
Speaker 3: what if a guy I'm seeing and tell is like

509
00:27:40,160 --> 00:27:43,720
Speaker 3: talk like test mentions another girl, I'm like encouraging them

510
00:27:43,800 --> 00:27:45,360
Speaker 3: to like go with be with them.

511
00:27:45,760 --> 00:27:47,480
Speaker 1: Is it because you're testing it and you want to

512
00:27:47,520 --> 00:27:50,280
Speaker 1: like test your like your own I sometimes test it.

513
00:27:50,280 --> 00:27:51,919
Speaker 3: It's just so I could be like, yeah, this is

514
00:27:51,960 --> 00:27:55,000
Speaker 3: not really for me anyway, go like yeah.

515
00:27:54,960 --> 00:27:58,200
Speaker 1: I like I would like someone, and then I'll find

516
00:27:58,240 --> 00:27:59,840
Speaker 1: reasons not to like them, and you know, because I'll

517
00:27:59,840 --> 00:28:03,600
Speaker 1: tell about it, getting to school on time and fucking

518
00:28:03,680 --> 00:28:06,359
Speaker 1: logging into that COVID thing just for them to get in.

519
00:28:07,280 --> 00:28:11,960
Speaker 1: It's just so much fucking work, writing absent notes, making lunch.

520
00:28:12,480 --> 00:28:14,480
Speaker 1: I can't every day I buy lunch for a little

521
00:28:14,560 --> 00:28:16,320
Speaker 1: I like sop it subway on the way to school,

522
00:28:16,520 --> 00:28:22,359
Speaker 1: like every day because I'm irresponsible and she's bougie. She

523
00:28:22,440 --> 00:28:25,240
Speaker 1: wants like sushi for lunch and tune its sandwich is

524
00:28:25,280 --> 00:28:28,240
Speaker 1: specifically only from subway because she doesn't like my tune us.

525
00:28:30,280 --> 00:28:31,920
Speaker 3: It's crazy. I'm just like.

526
00:28:33,640 --> 00:28:37,639
Speaker 1: I do get envious too of married couples. That woman

527
00:28:37,680 --> 00:28:39,920
Speaker 1: over there has her husband to pick up where she's

528
00:28:40,000 --> 00:28:41,480
Speaker 1: left off, or when she wants to go cry in

529
00:28:41,480 --> 00:28:45,840
Speaker 1: the bathroom. You know, Peter can fucking make dinner, but

530
00:28:45,920 --> 00:28:48,240
Speaker 1: I can't. I can't cry in the bathroom and make dinner.

531
00:28:49,720 --> 00:28:51,080
Speaker 1: The other it's one of the other and stuff we

532
00:28:51,120 --> 00:28:54,320
Speaker 1: gotta eat. Usually the crying, I'll do it later.

533
00:28:54,360 --> 00:28:55,600
Speaker 3: And then you don't even do it, and it just

534
00:28:55,640 --> 00:28:58,520
Speaker 3: builds up inside you until you fucking explode and curse

535
00:28:58,560 --> 00:28:59,640
Speaker 3: your kid out by accident.

536
00:29:00,680 --> 00:29:03,520
Speaker 1: Speaking of that, the other day, my it was my

537
00:29:03,560 --> 00:29:06,160
Speaker 1: mom's birthday and they made a really late reservation and

538
00:29:06,200 --> 00:29:08,680
Speaker 1: I should have just been an adult mom and said

539
00:29:08,720 --> 00:29:11,000
Speaker 1: we're not going to go, but she wanted to go,

540
00:29:11,120 --> 00:29:12,920
Speaker 1: and I was like, we're gonna go and celebrate.

541
00:29:12,960 --> 00:29:14,600
Speaker 3: It was fucking late. She was acting.

542
00:29:14,800 --> 00:29:19,800
Speaker 1: She was like screaming, like like I was like, what

543
00:29:19,840 --> 00:29:20,840
Speaker 1: the fuck is going on?

544
00:29:20,880 --> 00:29:21,440
Speaker 3: I'm like, we're not going.

545
00:29:21,520 --> 00:29:23,280
Speaker 1: No, She's like, man, she would break out into tears

546
00:29:23,280 --> 00:29:25,080
Speaker 1: about not going. I'm like, what the fuck am I

547
00:29:25,120 --> 00:29:27,360
Speaker 1: supposed to do with this? I'm like seeing the peak

548
00:29:27,400 --> 00:29:31,600
Speaker 1: of like that early teenage like rebellious, and I'm I'm

549
00:29:31,640 --> 00:29:35,080
Speaker 1: not prepared. I think, is there a class? Does anyone know,

550
00:29:35,200 --> 00:29:38,280
Speaker 1: like the prepare moms for the stage class?

551
00:29:38,320 --> 00:29:40,880
Speaker 3: Because I need to take it. What is the stage

552
00:29:40,960 --> 00:29:42,520
Speaker 3: like eight through seven through nine?

553
00:29:42,560 --> 00:29:45,360
Speaker 1: I don't know, tween age or whatever what they call it, Like,

554
00:29:45,560 --> 00:29:47,880
Speaker 1: I don't know, like attitude I don't fucking know.

555
00:29:47,920 --> 00:29:49,520
Speaker 3: Do we need to develop the class when we get

556
00:29:49,520 --> 00:29:49,959
Speaker 3: the answers?

557
00:29:50,000 --> 00:29:53,560
Speaker 1: Whenever that is, there has to be a meditation specifically

558
00:29:53,640 --> 00:29:59,040
Speaker 1: dedicated to moms for their kids when they get attitude age?

559
00:30:00,480 --> 00:30:13,920
Speaker 3: How how do you manage? Somebody give me the answers. Yeah,

560
00:30:15,320 --> 00:30:17,520
Speaker 3: you're doing a good job. You're doing a great job.

561
00:30:18,480 --> 00:30:21,760
Speaker 3: You're a great mom. Thank you, you're a great mom.

562
00:30:22,240 --> 00:30:27,120
Speaker 3: Thanks so that you're doing a great job too. Thank you,

563
00:30:27,120 --> 00:30:29,720
Speaker 3: you really are. You're very patient. I love you. He

564
00:30:29,840 --> 00:30:32,680
Speaker 3: teach me patience. We're doing the best we can what

565
00:30:32,760 --> 00:30:36,720
Speaker 3: we got. Yeah, Okay, And inevitably our kids are gonna

566
00:30:36,720 --> 00:30:38,719
Speaker 3: blame us for some shit. It's just inevitable. It might

567
00:30:38,720 --> 00:30:40,680
Speaker 3: not even it's gonna be the most unexpected shit too.

568
00:30:40,720 --> 00:30:43,120
Speaker 3: It's like, that's what you fucking think I fucked up on.

569
00:30:43,640 --> 00:30:45,560
Speaker 3: Not the forty times I let you go to bed

570
00:30:45,600 --> 00:30:48,360
Speaker 3: at one am, but I was recording my podcast right

571
00:30:48,680 --> 00:30:51,120
Speaker 3: at school. Not the times where like I didn't like

572
00:30:51,200 --> 00:30:54,200
Speaker 3: talk to you for like twelve seventy two hours straight

573
00:30:54,280 --> 00:30:58,480
Speaker 3: because I was packaging packages, Like you didn't get to

574
00:30:58,520 --> 00:31:02,280
Speaker 3: my soccer game. It's gonna be like that one time

575
00:31:02,400 --> 00:31:05,000
Speaker 3: that you made me not tug my shirt and you

576
00:31:05,040 --> 00:31:07,160
Speaker 3: didn't let me be the fashionista I was meant to

577
00:31:07,200 --> 00:31:10,760
Speaker 3: be right, Like what the fuck? I'm gonna laugh and

578
00:31:10,800 --> 00:31:13,640
Speaker 3: then I'm gonna cry again in her arms while she

579
00:31:13,680 --> 00:31:14,040
Speaker 3: holds me.

580
00:31:14,560 --> 00:31:16,800
Speaker 1: Want to be holding me too, be like damn, this

581
00:31:16,880 --> 00:31:20,520
Speaker 1: is is this my mom? Like there is some healing,

582
00:31:20,680 --> 00:31:26,520
Speaker 1: some interro like some like exchange healing that happens, and.

583
00:31:26,680 --> 00:31:29,120
Speaker 3: I'm always proud and happy. Is some when she sees

584
00:31:29,160 --> 00:31:34,080
Speaker 3: me not be weak, but like be less, be human

585
00:31:34,920 --> 00:31:38,040
Speaker 3: right in like a lot of ways, I am grateful

586
00:31:38,200 --> 00:31:42,000
Speaker 3: to let Lena see me be human because it lets

587
00:31:42,040 --> 00:31:43,479
Speaker 3: her know that I'm not perfect, you know.

588
00:31:43,600 --> 00:31:44,000
Speaker 1: And like.

589
00:31:45,480 --> 00:31:46,920
Speaker 3: At the end of the day when she gets older

590
00:31:46,920 --> 00:31:48,800
Speaker 3: and tries to blame me for her trauma, like I

591
00:31:48,880 --> 00:31:50,960
Speaker 3: told you I was fucking up.

592
00:31:53,640 --> 00:31:56,440
Speaker 1: What do you want for me? I told you when

593
00:31:56,440 --> 00:31:58,040
Speaker 1: you were six, I told you when you were eight.

594
00:31:58,080 --> 00:32:00,959
Speaker 1: I'm telling you now, Like it's not as great. I'm sorry.

595
00:32:02,640 --> 00:32:04,480
Speaker 1: At least I did like our parents, like I did

596
00:32:04,520 --> 00:32:06,120
Speaker 1: everything perfectly right. And I don't know what the fuck

597
00:32:06,120 --> 00:32:06,680
Speaker 1: you're talking about.

598
00:32:06,680 --> 00:32:08,280
Speaker 3: I never said that. I never said that. I never

599
00:32:08,320 --> 00:32:10,440
Speaker 3: said that. I don't know why you're so emotional. I like,

600
00:32:10,440 --> 00:32:12,760
Speaker 3: look at my journal in nineteen ninety nine. It says

601
00:32:12,840 --> 00:32:16,080
Speaker 3: my mom said. My mom literally always says you're so emotional.

602
00:32:16,160 --> 00:32:18,959
Speaker 3: You're so emotional, Like, so, when what are you going

603
00:32:19,040 --> 00:32:21,640
Speaker 3: to just accept the emotional and stop using it against me?

604
00:32:21,920 --> 00:32:24,520
Speaker 3: You would raise an emotional fucking scorpio child. Do you

605
00:32:24,520 --> 00:32:26,160
Speaker 3: think that's why you're like not? You try not to

606
00:32:26,200 --> 00:32:28,840
Speaker 3: be emotional. I try not to be. I'm so emotional,

607
00:32:28,880 --> 00:32:31,080
Speaker 3: and I try so hard to be hard poor. It's

608
00:32:31,200 --> 00:32:32,840
Speaker 3: I think I'm pretty emotional. It just comes out in

609
00:32:32,840 --> 00:32:35,200
Speaker 3: different ways. It's like it doesn't necessarily come out in tears.

610
00:32:35,280 --> 00:32:37,440
Speaker 3: It comes out like with like where people will like

611
00:32:37,520 --> 00:32:40,760
Speaker 3: get like overwhelmed by my presence because I'm in a mood.

612
00:32:41,480 --> 00:32:43,280
Speaker 3: Or it comes out with like my tongue when I

613
00:32:43,400 --> 00:32:45,000
Speaker 3: like just say shit and I know it's mean, and

614
00:32:45,000 --> 00:32:46,680
Speaker 3: then I have to apologize later like I do with

615
00:32:46,720 --> 00:32:50,480
Speaker 3: you all the time, and then or just like sometimes

616
00:32:50,520 --> 00:32:53,440
Speaker 3: crying or sometimes just lashing out. Like it's just emotional

617
00:32:53,480 --> 00:32:56,840
Speaker 3: in different ways. I think people typically think emotional means

618
00:32:56,840 --> 00:33:02,200
Speaker 3: like crying whatever. No, yeah, it's not true. But I

619
00:33:02,240 --> 00:33:05,760
Speaker 3: am emotional. I'm a motherfucking double scorpio. I'm emotional as fuck.

620
00:33:06,480 --> 00:33:12,160
Speaker 3: And I'm like, I don't know, I just I don't

621
00:33:12,160 --> 00:33:15,120
Speaker 3: know I have I guess I haven't always felt space

622
00:33:15,200 --> 00:33:19,920
Speaker 3: to be emotional with my mom, and so when she

623
00:33:19,960 --> 00:33:22,320
Speaker 3: says that, it really irritates the fuck out of me.

624
00:33:22,920 --> 00:33:25,360
Speaker 3: And and so that's why I try to give Iri

625
00:33:25,480 --> 00:33:29,720
Speaker 3: the space to be emotional. But then sometimes i'm my girl,

626
00:33:29,960 --> 00:33:33,680
Speaker 3: you're driven. It's like you are really really She's.

627
00:33:34,200 --> 00:33:38,600
Speaker 1: There's some drama, but she's emotional too, but it's so

628
00:33:39,000 --> 00:33:42,480
Speaker 1: it's so crazy to be a mom and like I

629
00:33:42,520 --> 00:33:45,000
Speaker 1: don't I am very emotional, and I wasn't given a

630
00:33:45,040 --> 00:33:47,200
Speaker 1: lot of space to be emotional in my household either.

631
00:33:47,440 --> 00:33:50,240
Speaker 1: It was kind of like yeah, like shuts, like shut up, stop,

632
00:33:50,480 --> 00:33:51,720
Speaker 1: Like are you stop crying?

633
00:33:52,040 --> 00:33:53,480
Speaker 3: My dad was like laugh at me. My dad's like

634
00:33:53,520 --> 00:34:00,200
Speaker 3: a jokester. Oh you're said, like ship like that. So

635
00:34:00,200 --> 00:34:03,000
Speaker 3: I think that that does spill over. And then in

636
00:34:03,040 --> 00:34:05,880
Speaker 3: my regular life when I am feeling emotional, I'm not

637
00:34:06,120 --> 00:34:09,359
Speaker 3: acknowledging it and I'm not saying that I'm not I'm good.

638
00:34:09,840 --> 00:34:11,600
Speaker 3: I'm good. Actually just get the fuck away from me,

639
00:34:12,160 --> 00:34:14,080
Speaker 3: you know what I mean. And I'm like, I'm not good,

640
00:34:14,280 --> 00:34:14,920
Speaker 3: I'm sad.

641
00:34:15,400 --> 00:34:17,400
Speaker 1: And I go through I go through periods where I

642
00:34:17,480 --> 00:34:20,239
Speaker 1: allow myself to like be more emotional than others. Like

643
00:34:20,360 --> 00:34:23,560
Speaker 1: the last year eighteen months, I cried a lot, and

644
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Speaker 1: I feel like I've kind of come from that, but

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Speaker 1: now I'm like, damn, bitch, do you.

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Speaker 3: Need to cry a little bit and just check it's you.

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Speaker 1: If podcasting has taught me any fucking thing in the

648
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Speaker 1: world is like you're gonna constantly have to check in

649
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Speaker 1: and have to scale and have to refigure like where

650
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Speaker 1: you're at, you know, and if you're fucking up and

651
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Speaker 1: and how you could be better. It's not Healing is

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Speaker 1: not linear. It's a daily, minute to minute practice. Every minute,

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Speaker 1: every fucking minute. You have to like pull yourself out

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Speaker 1: of anxiety, pull yourself out of depression, pull yourself out

655
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Speaker 1: of sadness, and just remind yourself like everything's okay.

656
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Speaker 3: And this type of this world that we live in

657
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Speaker 3: with fucking social media and time time time, do we

658
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Speaker 3: have enough time? Have you called that person? Have you

659
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Speaker 3: done this? Like there's just not enough time.

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Speaker 1: I sat on the phone on hold like three times

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Speaker 1: this weekend for over an hour and then got disconnected.

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Speaker 3: Do you know how fucking irritating that is? But you

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Speaker 3: still got a call back and do the thing. I

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Speaker 3: haven't filed my taxes, but whenever I feel like when

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Speaker 3: was the time? When did I have the time to

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Speaker 3: do it? When do I have time? Like it's either

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Speaker 3: filed my taxes or like have take a day or

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Speaker 3: two for self care for myself because I've worked myself

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Speaker 3: to the ground that past like ten days straight. It's

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Speaker 3: like taxes can wait, and.

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Speaker 1: Then it's like, if I wait, if I don't tend

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Speaker 1: to this right now, what's the worst that's gonna happen.

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Speaker 3: Government's gonna fucking come after me because I haven't filed

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Speaker 3: for last year either. You have four hundred millions. Just

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Speaker 3: I don't even know a really good tax person DM me.

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Speaker 3: Who's gonna get me the most money back? The Hennessy

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Speaker 3: eliminated both.

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Speaker 1: Sure anyway, this episode brought to you by Hennessy.

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Speaker 3: It is Mother's Day. I swear to God, we do

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Speaker 3: love being moms. No, I do love being There are

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Speaker 3: so many like beautiful experiences that I've shared with Iri

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Speaker 3: over the last six years. Her birthday just happened, which

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Speaker 3: was amazing, and she had a great time, and I'm

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Speaker 3: watching her grow up is like one of the most

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Speaker 3: It is the most amazing experience I will ever have

686
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Speaker 3: in my life. You know, I guess I just worry

687
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Speaker 3: that I'm fucking it up, But you know, she seems

688
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Speaker 3: she seems like she's done right.

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Speaker 1: That's so every time I think I'm fucking it real bad,

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Speaker 1: I see Little I think you missed me. She's like, yeah, okay, fun, Like.

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Speaker 3: Are you sure you were? Said? I was like just

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Speaker 3: talking She's like, what, Ellen.

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Speaker 5: Never mind.

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Speaker 3: Anyway, let's shift gears. Okay, don't we have an advice questions?

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Speaker 5: We do.

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Speaker 3: It's a big one too. Today's advice question is a

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Speaker 3: Oh my god, I have a little confession. So you know,

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Speaker 3: it's masturbation may and I'm not really having sex. So

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Speaker 3: I'm not really I'm not having sex at all. But

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Speaker 3: I've been using this app called dipsy. You know, you

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Speaker 3: heard me talk about it, and it is the most

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Speaker 3: amazing app. It has hundreds of erotic tales that tantalize

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Speaker 3: my senses. When I tell you, this app turns me on,

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Speaker 3: like I'm wet listening to this ship.

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Speaker 4: Matter of fact, let me just play you.

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Speaker 3: A little clip, because let me see what putting on

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Speaker 6: First, and I guess her smooth scan who's trying to

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Speaker 6: take and every feeling, not the movement entice hercles on

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Speaker 6: her clip.

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Speaker 3: That's all you get.

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Speaker 5: That's all you get.

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Speaker 7: I never even thought about Sharona's like that except for

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Speaker 7: a couple episodes in Secure, But suddenly I might have

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Speaker 7: to go download Dipsy.

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Speaker 3: Girl, I'm telling you, And not only that if you

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Speaker 3: you're in the car, like a form of four play.

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Speaker 3: If you have any advice questions, don't forget to hit

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Speaker 3: us up in our email and put subject line and hey,

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Speaker 3: I'm not sure if y'all actually read your DMS. We do,

737
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Speaker 3: but I need help.

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Speaker 1: I started dating this guy and he's so amazing, has

739
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Speaker 1: his master's degree, super kind, handsome, good dick, and super

740
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Speaker 1: well off. But he's into cuck holding. I don't know

741
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Speaker 1: if I'm even comfortable with that. Does this mean he's bisexual.

742
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Speaker 1: I wouldn't be bothered by his sexuality if you were,

743
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Speaker 1: but I'm super confused as to what he likes in

744
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Speaker 1: bed and what I should do since I have no

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Speaker 1: experience with the situation like this. Do y'all know anything

746
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Speaker 1: about this and what problems would arise or how I

747
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Speaker 1: should talk to him about it. For those of you

748
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Speaker 1: who don't know what cuck holding is, it's a man

749
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Speaker 1: who willingly encourages his wife or girlfriend to sleep with

750
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Speaker 1: other people because it brings him pleasure.

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Speaker 3: Pass him over. That's what I told her. I said, girl,

752
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Speaker 3: sounds like you came up. Sounds like a come up.

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Speaker 3: Sounds like a motherfucking come up.

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Speaker 1: I continued the conversation with her, because you know, my

755
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Speaker 1: freaking ass was right to the rescue you. She said

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Speaker 1: that he's even down to have a male male female threesome,

757
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Speaker 1: and I was like, I think you need to figure

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Speaker 1: I think you need to try it out.

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Speaker 3: I don't think that.

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Speaker 1: First of all, do you know, I'm I don't think

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Speaker 1: that being a cut caled makes you bisexual.

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Speaker 3: Biting means well, doesn't necessarily mean that he wants to

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Speaker 3: interact with the man. It means that he just wants

764
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Speaker 3: to see his woman be pleased, be penetrated, or like yeah,

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Speaker 3: be pleased by someone else and be a spectator to that,

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Speaker 3: either because he's you know, voyeuristic, or because watching the

767
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Speaker 3: person he loves or cares about experiencing pleasure outside of

768
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Speaker 3: himself turns me on. I kind of what's what? I'm

769
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Speaker 3: a cut queen. I think I'm a cut queen? What what?

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Speaker 3: You just make that up? No? I think that actually

771
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Speaker 3: is what you want to do. You want your boy

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Speaker 3: for your husband to watch you. But see, like wife,

773
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Speaker 3: the wife of an adultero's husband is a cut queen.

774
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Speaker 3: Or maybe I'm a cut queen. I don't know whatever,

775
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Speaker 3: this is the wrong definition. I want. I want to

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Speaker 3: watch the person that I care about experience pleasure from

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Speaker 3: another woman like I haven't. I haven't I have yet

778
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Speaker 3: to experience it, but like I've encouraged it multiple times,

779
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Speaker 3: even on this little secret trip. I went on, I try,

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Speaker 3: I wanted that to happen. I told him that I

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Speaker 3: wanted to happen. Believe I think he believed me, but

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Speaker 3: I think I don't know. Then then I think, like

783
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Speaker 3: I scare man when I say that type of ship

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Speaker 3: because and then I'm like, that's what I was saying too,

785
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Speaker 3: like I pushed people, not like pushing people away, Like

786
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Speaker 3: but I know for sure, and I do want to

787
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Speaker 3: experience that. I might not like it when it actually happens.

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Speaker 3: That's why I want to know. I actually like this

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Speaker 3: because when I master me, I often think about my

790
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Speaker 3: lovers with other people and me watching them and me

791
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Speaker 3: not like being involved. No, that's interesting. Actually when I

792
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Speaker 3: got that question, I was with this guy that I'm

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Speaker 3: saying and I explained it to him and he's like,

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Speaker 3: what the fuck the fuck are you talking about?

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Speaker 4: Fuck?

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Speaker 3: No, I was like, oh no, when I was when

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Speaker 3: Samaya was here Sexual Essentials Sexual Essentials, she were sitting

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Speaker 3: on the couch and she was explaining, like her her

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Speaker 3: desire to experience male male female and like the way

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Speaker 3: she explained it made it so appealing to me, and

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00:42:08,719 --> 00:42:11,960
Speaker 3: I'd never really like heard it explained in such beautiful detail,

802
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Speaker 3: and she was just saying like she's like I'd be willing.

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Speaker 3: She was like, I'd be willing to pay for this experience.

804
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Speaker 3: Like I want two men that are like fuck with

805
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Speaker 3: each other, not fuck with each other sexually, but like

806
00:42:23,160 --> 00:42:25,800
Speaker 3: are cool like respect, like respect each other, have a

807
00:42:25,920 --> 00:42:29,319
Speaker 3: good rapport, who adore me and who want to like

808
00:42:29,400 --> 00:42:31,960
Speaker 3: shower me with affection and love, like sit there, cook

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00:42:32,040 --> 00:42:35,799
Speaker 3: dinner for me, like like whisper to each other about

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Speaker 3: how they're going to like please me, and like you know,

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Speaker 3: I'll handle the salad, you get the pasta, whatever me.

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00:42:42,000 --> 00:42:45,120
Speaker 3: Come in, like massage me my pussy, pour my glass

813
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Speaker 3: of wine, like really like wine, and dine me. And

814
00:42:48,920 --> 00:42:52,520
Speaker 3: it doesn't have to be this nasty experience that porn,

815
00:42:52,640 --> 00:42:55,440
Speaker 3: you know, presents this experience to be. It's actually like

816
00:42:55,480 --> 00:42:59,560
Speaker 3: a beautiful experience. Often what we see in porn when

817
00:42:59,560 --> 00:43:01,640
Speaker 3: a man is experience as two women, when it's like

818
00:43:01,719 --> 00:43:05,080
Speaker 3: a romance scene, rarely do you see you know, vice.

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Speaker 3: And so when she explained it that way, I was

820
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Speaker 3: like that sounds fucking amazing, Like what, yeah, I want

821
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Speaker 3: to experience that, duh. But also there's so much shame

822
00:43:17,239 --> 00:43:19,680
Speaker 3: about Like there's so much shame in even saying that

823
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Speaker 3: there's so much shame and even being like, yeah, I

824
00:43:22,480 --> 00:43:24,880
Speaker 3: would be open to having like two men cater to

825
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Speaker 3: me at the same time in the same session. Like

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Speaker 3: I remember I had an X and he was like

827
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Speaker 3: he said that he had an ex expressed that to

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Speaker 3: him and he was like, I would never marry her.

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Speaker 3: I'm like, why, because then you don't like that one

830
00:43:36,200 --> 00:43:38,200
Speaker 3: thing can make you not love someone. I'm like, so

831
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Speaker 3: you never love that person to begin with, right, And

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Speaker 3: that's the thing with men.

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Speaker 1: They have these fucking rules because that's how society has

834
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Speaker 1: made it, and then they.

835
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Speaker 3: Can just drop you that quickly. I think that's why

836
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Speaker 3: I don't trust men.

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Speaker 1: I don't trust men to say or to keep me

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Speaker 1: because I believe that there's so many things that are

839
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Speaker 1: it's just it's so conditional. Ego makes love so like

840
00:44:03,719 --> 00:44:08,840
Speaker 1: a male ego makes their love for women so conditional

841
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Speaker 1: based on these standards that they.

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Speaker 3: Don't live by at all. Like we're different, Like we're different.

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Speaker 1: I had a conversation with this guy and he was like, well,

844
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Speaker 1: women can get pregnant, so it's different. You know, I

845
00:44:23,880 --> 00:44:26,040
Speaker 1: can experience different women, but I can only get pregnant

846
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Speaker 1: once a year. I was like, but you can spread

847
00:44:29,000 --> 00:44:31,799
Speaker 1: your seat, so I say, God intended for you years ago,

848
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Speaker 1: nutt and bitches, and we just sit.

849
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Speaker 3: So because women can only get pregnant once a year,

850
00:44:35,920 --> 00:44:38,000
Speaker 3: we're supposed to not have multiple sexual.

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Speaker 1: Partners, basically scientifically, like he's trying to make it like

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Speaker 1: some scientific some male scientists came up with this, some

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00:44:44,160 --> 00:44:48,520
Speaker 1: scientific religious like. I was just like, and also also

854
00:44:48,600 --> 00:44:51,040
Speaker 1: that there's more there's more women that there are men.

855
00:44:51,160 --> 00:44:54,000
Speaker 1: So women are supposed to have one man, and men

856
00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:54,560
Speaker 1: are supposed to.

857
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Speaker 3: Have multiple women. Why are there more men? Because God

858
00:44:59,520 --> 00:45:04,960
Speaker 3: intended for who made them? Right? Fuck you right, honestly

859
00:45:05,239 --> 00:45:07,279
Speaker 3: you would even be here without us or shut the

860
00:45:07,280 --> 00:45:07,719
Speaker 3: fuck up.

861
00:45:07,760 --> 00:45:12,120
Speaker 1: It's just yeah, I do want I would want to

862
00:45:12,160 --> 00:45:12,959
Speaker 1: experience that.

863
00:45:13,440 --> 00:45:15,520
Speaker 3: It's just so rare that you find two men that

864
00:45:15,560 --> 00:45:17,600
Speaker 3: would be willing to do it in a cordial especially

865
00:45:17,600 --> 00:45:20,640
Speaker 3: black man. Yeah, that's very rare, especially in the black

866
00:45:21,040 --> 00:45:25,040
Speaker 3: black man's space. Damn, I want you know what, some

867
00:45:25,080 --> 00:45:26,640
Speaker 3: of my I would be willing to pay for that

868
00:45:26,680 --> 00:45:28,600
Speaker 3: shit too. When she said she paid for it, I

869
00:45:28,640 --> 00:45:30,319
Speaker 3: was like, you know what, at least if you know

870
00:45:30,360 --> 00:45:33,080
Speaker 3: you pay, you know you're getting what you want. And

871
00:45:33,080 --> 00:45:34,920
Speaker 3: that's basically what she said too. She's like, I want

872
00:45:34,960 --> 00:45:37,319
Speaker 3: to get the experience that I want and that's why

873
00:45:37,320 --> 00:45:40,000
Speaker 3: I will pay for it. And I was like, you

874
00:45:40,040 --> 00:45:44,520
Speaker 3: know what, You're fucking genius. I'm getting on just for

875
00:45:44,560 --> 00:45:48,319
Speaker 3: this purchase. Where are who connect us to the only

876
00:45:48,400 --> 00:45:51,080
Speaker 3: fans of the men? Wait?

877
00:45:51,440 --> 00:45:55,600
Speaker 1: When I follow all those sites like black Polynation poly Couples,

878
00:45:55,680 --> 00:45:58,520
Speaker 1: like they're always like, we're looking for our queen, I'm

879
00:45:58,560 --> 00:46:02,360
Speaker 1: looking for my kings hiam miila, and I'm seeing it.

880
00:46:02,440 --> 00:46:06,040
Speaker 1: I'm looking for my kings even right now, and we're

881
00:46:06,040 --> 00:46:07,200
Speaker 1: looking for kings.

882
00:46:08,480 --> 00:46:20,200
Speaker 3: Wasn't that Daddy's aka Kings. The crazy part about this

883
00:46:20,360 --> 00:46:24,040
Speaker 3: is like a little bit of part of me has anxiety.

884
00:46:23,640 --> 00:46:25,680
Speaker 1: About even saying this, even though I'm gonna fuck, but

885
00:46:25,840 --> 00:46:27,680
Speaker 1: like I do, like, what if one of my niggas

886
00:46:27,719 --> 00:46:29,080
Speaker 1: is gonna come and judge me and.

887
00:46:29,040 --> 00:46:32,120
Speaker 8: Drop me over this conversation? If you drop me over

888
00:46:32,360 --> 00:46:36,120
Speaker 8: my secret fan, my public fantas, my secret public man,

889
00:46:36,200 --> 00:46:38,520
Speaker 8: my secret public fantasies, did you ever really love me

890
00:46:38,600 --> 00:46:43,040
Speaker 8: at all? Because you know that's another thing. Oh, back

891
00:46:43,080 --> 00:46:43,960
Speaker 8: to our advice question.

892
00:46:44,040 --> 00:46:48,520
Speaker 1: We put our own fucking our own fantasies when it

893
00:46:48,520 --> 00:46:51,720
Speaker 1: comes to sex. There's really no judgment in kink unless

894
00:46:51,719 --> 00:46:53,680
Speaker 1: as long as you're not hurting anyone, and it's all

895
00:46:53,719 --> 00:46:57,000
Speaker 1: adults and humans. I don't really think there's any weird

896
00:46:57,040 --> 00:47:00,560
Speaker 1: thing with kinks. There's no fantasy that's too weird. People

897
00:47:00,680 --> 00:47:03,440
Speaker 1: fantasies to come up in all different places, in all

898
00:47:03,440 --> 00:47:06,799
Speaker 1: different ways, Like you can't really judge a fantasy, and

899
00:47:06,840 --> 00:47:10,040
Speaker 1: like there's really no spectrum of sexuality, Like I'm gay,

900
00:47:10,120 --> 00:47:12,720
Speaker 1: I'm straight, I'm in the between, I'm fifty to fifty.

901
00:47:12,760 --> 00:47:14,839
Speaker 3: Like there's just it's just not that clear and cut.

902
00:47:14,880 --> 00:47:16,560
Speaker 1: You know what you do like and don't like, and

903
00:47:16,640 --> 00:47:19,680
Speaker 1: like that's the part about having a partner.

904
00:47:19,320 --> 00:47:22,719
Speaker 3: And it changes you evolve. You're allowed to change your

905
00:47:22,800 --> 00:47:25,839
Speaker 3: mind every day. Every day, Like I'm allowed to say,

906
00:47:25,880 --> 00:47:27,319
Speaker 3: you know what, I don't want to do that, and

907
00:47:27,320 --> 00:47:29,359
Speaker 3: then next week be like, you know what, maybe I've

908
00:47:29,440 --> 00:47:32,600
Speaker 3: changed my mind. Like we get so married to these

909
00:47:32,719 --> 00:47:36,319
Speaker 3: rules about what our sexuality looks like, what what what

910
00:47:36,520 --> 00:47:39,880
Speaker 3: sex looks like for us? And I don't know, Like

911
00:47:39,920 --> 00:47:42,960
Speaker 3: I just I want to encourage all of us to

912
00:47:43,520 --> 00:47:47,200
Speaker 3: kind of rethink the rules that we've made and not

913
00:47:47,320 --> 00:47:50,000
Speaker 3: judge yourself and the rules believe and if like you

914
00:47:50,239 --> 00:47:53,319
Speaker 3: or you're listening listening, and if you're listening to us

915
00:47:53,440 --> 00:47:56,719
Speaker 3: talk about male male female and it sounds appealing to you,

916
00:47:56,760 --> 00:47:59,480
Speaker 3: and suddenly you're like, huh, never looked at it that way?

917
00:48:00,080 --> 00:48:02,439
Speaker 3: That might sound appeal Like, don't judge yourself for that. Yeah,

918
00:48:02,480 --> 00:48:04,239
Speaker 3: like don't like I'm a slat? Oh my god, Like

919
00:48:04,280 --> 00:48:06,600
Speaker 3: why does that sound good? Because it fucking does sound good.

920
00:48:06,719 --> 00:48:09,320
Speaker 3: That's all about you, you like maya set. Yeah, we

921
00:48:09,400 --> 00:48:11,200
Speaker 3: give so much. It's time for us to get some

922
00:48:11,280 --> 00:48:11,799
Speaker 3: shit back.

923
00:48:12,239 --> 00:48:14,640
Speaker 1: Oh my god, if I can't imagine if for Mother's

924
00:48:14,680 --> 00:48:17,120
Speaker 1: Day we could buy that for ourselves, I mean, minus

925
00:48:17,160 --> 00:48:20,000
Speaker 1: the dicktks. But I'm just saying, what if you could

926
00:48:20,040 --> 00:48:22,800
Speaker 1: just if you moms everywhere, If this is your fantasy

927
00:48:23,160 --> 00:48:25,440
Speaker 1: and you participate in this for Mother's Day, can you

928
00:48:25,480 --> 00:48:31,600
Speaker 1: tell us about it more importantly than encouraging, I mean,

929
00:48:31,640 --> 00:48:33,320
Speaker 1: I also want to encourage. If you have that fantasy

930
00:48:33,400 --> 00:48:36,319
Speaker 1: and you're a woman, don't judge yourself. But even more

931
00:48:36,520 --> 00:48:39,920
Speaker 1: past that, if you're a man and you have these

932
00:48:40,120 --> 00:48:45,279
Speaker 1: deep toxic beliefs that you are a man, and so

933
00:48:45,440 --> 00:48:47,640
Speaker 1: only you can have certain fantasies and only you can

934
00:48:47,680 --> 00:48:51,360
Speaker 1: fulfill certain fantasies and it's only made for you to

935
00:48:51,440 --> 00:48:54,160
Speaker 1: experience certain type of pleasure. I really encourage you to

936
00:48:54,160 --> 00:48:56,759
Speaker 1: break out of that bullshit, like it's holding everybody back,

937
00:48:57,840 --> 00:49:01,439
Speaker 1: holding women back, it's holding shame on women, and it's

938
00:49:01,520 --> 00:49:06,279
Speaker 1: just it's not helping this flow of life. It's not

939
00:49:07,160 --> 00:49:08,719
Speaker 1: you need to like think bigger. You need to be

940
00:49:08,800 --> 00:49:10,680
Speaker 1: more mature. You needed to be more kinky, you need

941
00:49:10,719 --> 00:49:12,239
Speaker 1: to be more open, and you need to be more free.

942
00:49:12,320 --> 00:49:13,680
Speaker 1: Oh my god, talking about you being.

943
00:49:15,360 --> 00:49:18,360
Speaker 3: Pushy. I thought about you this weekend because I was

944
00:49:18,400 --> 00:49:20,920
Speaker 3: like telling someone like, relax, you need to relax, take

945
00:49:20,920 --> 00:49:23,839
Speaker 3: off your jeans, relax. Why are you so like are

946
00:49:23,840 --> 00:49:24,400
Speaker 3: you at peace?

947
00:49:24,800 --> 00:49:26,479
Speaker 1: And then I was talking about us on the boat

948
00:49:26,480 --> 00:49:29,160
Speaker 1: and I was like forcing someone to relax and like

949
00:49:29,680 --> 00:49:32,360
Speaker 1: be touchy feeling, and You're like, you can't just force

950
00:49:32,440 --> 00:49:36,800
Speaker 1: people to be kumbayah with you, bitch. Everyone's not fucking receptive.

951
00:49:36,800 --> 00:49:38,960
Speaker 1: And I'm like, I just wanted them to be love.

952
00:49:39,560 --> 00:49:42,000
Speaker 1: I just wanted them to embrace each other and embrace me,

953
00:49:42,280 --> 00:49:44,640
Speaker 1: Like you can't go around trying to kiss everybody in

954
00:49:44,719 --> 00:49:48,440
Speaker 1: your toplessness. I'm like they didn't want to embrace me,

955
00:49:49,040 --> 00:49:49,480
Speaker 1: and I'm.

956
00:49:49,360 --> 00:49:51,440
Speaker 3: Like, damn, am I a little forceful? I'm with my flow.

957
00:49:51,560 --> 00:49:54,120
Speaker 1: I'm like I never thought about it that way, but

958
00:49:54,160 --> 00:49:56,360
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm a force fully peaceful bitch.

959
00:49:57,200 --> 00:50:00,600
Speaker 3: You will get all this peace small with me me. Listen.

960
00:50:00,680 --> 00:50:02,560
Speaker 3: I just don't want you to see the next me too.

961
00:50:04,160 --> 00:50:07,320
Speaker 3: She's like, you're gonna get our podcast me too, because

962
00:50:07,320 --> 00:50:12,359
Speaker 3: I won't stop hugging and moaning strangers. I realized it's

963
00:50:12,360 --> 00:50:13,080
Speaker 3: a part of my gift.

964
00:50:13,120 --> 00:50:15,759
Speaker 1: I'm supposed to just like I think I'm supposed to

965
00:50:15,760 --> 00:50:17,839
Speaker 1: like break people open and heal them and like.

966
00:50:19,680 --> 00:50:23,640
Speaker 3: Relax release with me. But even I'm a little pushy

967
00:50:23,680 --> 00:50:27,560
Speaker 3: and everyone doesn't want to be.

968
00:50:27,040 --> 00:50:31,080
Speaker 9: Part of honing that gift is knowing when people are

969
00:50:31,280 --> 00:50:34,600
Speaker 9: people are like past the point of like openness and

970
00:50:34,640 --> 00:50:36,560
Speaker 9: now they've totally shut down and they're not going to

971
00:50:36,680 --> 00:50:39,840
Speaker 9: receive anything you're giving them.

972
00:50:39,880 --> 00:50:44,360
Speaker 1: I'm still gonna try them.

973
00:50:44,400 --> 00:50:47,399
Speaker 3: Speaking of sex and speaking of freaky ship and all

974
00:50:47,400 --> 00:50:49,719
Speaker 3: that stuff, and you know, it's Mother's Day, and you

975
00:50:49,760 --> 00:50:53,319
Speaker 3: know we're all mothers because we're fucking so essentially, you know,

976
00:50:54,360 --> 00:50:57,359
Speaker 3: people always shame moms for like enjoying sex and like

977
00:50:57,480 --> 00:51:00,120
Speaker 3: talking and even even I was talking about sex when

978
00:51:00,080 --> 00:51:02,000
Speaker 3: the people always so shocked, like, wow, you guys talk

979
00:51:02,040 --> 00:51:05,040
Speaker 3: about sex so open, name like we have we have kids,

980
00:51:05,160 --> 00:51:07,560
Speaker 3: Like we really we did the thing that like we

981
00:51:07,560 --> 00:51:10,600
Speaker 3: were the God or whatever the Bible or Jesus whoever

982
00:51:10,600 --> 00:51:14,120
Speaker 3: the buck said, were supposed to do it like this deliberate.

983
00:51:14,239 --> 00:51:18,480
Speaker 3: Literally he said, be fruitful and multiply. I listened. Okay,

984
00:51:18,640 --> 00:51:20,200
Speaker 3: and now you don't wait to talk about it? The

985
00:51:20,239 --> 00:51:23,359
Speaker 3: fuck is wrong with you. We have a horror story, guys,

986
00:51:23,400 --> 00:51:31,600
Speaker 3: it's been a while. Who story. Yes, it's horror story

987
00:51:31,640 --> 00:51:33,840
Speaker 3: at claw. If you're just you know, tuning into the

988
00:51:33,840 --> 00:51:36,120
Speaker 3: podcast for the first time, or maybe it's you know,

989
00:51:36,160 --> 00:51:38,000
Speaker 3: you tuned in the middle, you haven't heard what a

990
00:51:38,000 --> 00:51:43,200
Speaker 3: horror story is. A horror story is a highly horrorsh hotel.

991
00:51:44,040 --> 00:51:49,400
Speaker 3: It's either funny, a little scary, a little wild crazy

992
00:51:50,480 --> 00:51:56,400
Speaker 3: level ten socially horsh things. Yes, and we say horrish

993
00:51:56,440 --> 00:51:58,640
Speaker 3: in the best way possible because we love to hear

994
00:51:58,680 --> 00:52:01,280
Speaker 3: from you. And if you guys have any hotels, which

995
00:52:01,560 --> 00:52:03,960
Speaker 3: we had, I've had at least like eight people recently

996
00:52:03,960 --> 00:52:05,800
Speaker 3: tell me they have hotels. And then you guys don't

997
00:52:05,800 --> 00:52:08,600
Speaker 3: send them. It's very annoying, like I don't care if

998
00:52:08,600 --> 00:52:13,080
Speaker 3: you don't tell me, don't give me like three sentences that,

999
00:52:13,480 --> 00:52:15,759
Speaker 3: oh my god, bitch, I had the craziest hotel. I

1000
00:52:15,800 --> 00:52:18,400
Speaker 3: can't wait to tell you. And then I say, message

1001
00:52:18,400 --> 00:52:23,560
Speaker 3: me and write it beautifully and then you don't. Right, anyway,

1002
00:52:23,760 --> 00:52:27,800
Speaker 3: this is a hotel from a listener, And here goes.

1003
00:52:28,480 --> 00:52:30,480
Speaker 3: When I was twenty, I started dating a thirty five

1004
00:52:30,560 --> 00:52:34,400
Speaker 3: year old man. My digmatized ass, fell into a situationship

1005
00:52:34,480 --> 00:52:37,120
Speaker 3: and dealt with a year of physical and mental abuse

1006
00:52:37,520 --> 00:52:39,840
Speaker 3: until one night I watched him choke one of the

1007
00:52:39,840 --> 00:52:42,640
Speaker 3: women he was cheating on me with, and she pulled

1008
00:52:43,600 --> 00:52:46,080
Speaker 3: cheating on me with after she pulled up and was

1009
00:52:46,120 --> 00:52:49,280
Speaker 3: screaming up and down the street that she be elbowed

1010
00:52:49,280 --> 00:52:55,120
Speaker 3: deep in his ass. Whoa, whoa, whoa, this sounds like amber.

1011
00:52:55,160 --> 00:52:57,799
Speaker 3: When she said she said, like Kanye different like that.

1012
00:52:57,960 --> 00:52:59,719
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, I think they got it on Twitter. And

1013
00:52:59,719 --> 00:53:02,360
Speaker 3: it's just like I'll be fingering your booty hole and

1014
00:53:02,480 --> 00:53:05,400
Speaker 3: everybody else you and every nigga, any nigga like a

1015
00:53:05,400 --> 00:53:06,719
Speaker 3: little finger in the mood hole. I don't care what

1016
00:53:06,760 --> 00:53:09,919
Speaker 3: they say in ninety nine point nine anyway, he lived

1017
00:53:09,920 --> 00:53:12,280
Speaker 3: in an apartment with his best friend of twenty years,

1018
00:53:12,600 --> 00:53:15,239
Speaker 3: so I ran upstairs to tell him his boy had

1019
00:53:15,280 --> 00:53:19,239
Speaker 3: lost his mind. I'm hysterically crying, and this man starts sensually.

1020
00:53:19,320 --> 00:53:22,200
Speaker 3: Oh okay, so the way, the way, Oh my god,

1021
00:53:22,239 --> 00:53:26,400
Speaker 3: I'm hysterically crying and this man starts sensually rubbing my

1022
00:53:26,480 --> 00:53:29,719
Speaker 3: back and shoulders. Fast forward to a month later, after

1023
00:53:29,760 --> 00:53:32,440
Speaker 3: his friend coached me through leaving him, I went to

1024
00:53:32,480 --> 00:53:35,040
Speaker 3: their apartment and fucked his friend, who gave me even

1025
00:53:35,160 --> 00:53:40,719
Speaker 3: better dick. My ex heard and recognized my moan. I

1026
00:53:40,800 --> 00:53:45,480
Speaker 3: know that he waited for me outside all night. When

1027
00:53:45,480 --> 00:53:47,640
Speaker 3: I went to leave, I saw him. He tried to

1028
00:53:47,680 --> 00:53:49,480
Speaker 3: come for me, and I told him after what he

1029
00:53:49,520 --> 00:53:51,959
Speaker 3: put me through, I wouldn't feel bad fucking his dead,

1030
00:53:52,760 --> 00:53:56,840
Speaker 3: but his best friend and nephew was enough and worth

1031
00:53:56,920 --> 00:54:06,040
Speaker 3: no weight. Male mau female man nephew too. What's that story? Now?

1032
00:54:06,200 --> 00:54:09,160
Speaker 1: This is the thing, fellas, And I'm not saying this

1033
00:54:09,239 --> 00:54:12,040
Speaker 1: with bragging, but I'm letting you know. Niggas always want

1034
00:54:12,040 --> 00:54:14,600
Speaker 1: to fuck with women. You always want to fuck with

1035
00:54:14,680 --> 00:54:17,319
Speaker 1: us and fuck with us and fuck with us and

1036
00:54:17,400 --> 00:54:20,080
Speaker 1: push us and push us and push us.

1037
00:54:21,160 --> 00:54:24,120
Speaker 3: But no one will ever get the last laugh better

1038
00:54:24,160 --> 00:54:27,799
Speaker 3: than a woman, absar. We will fuck your dad, we

1039
00:54:27,880 --> 00:54:31,440
Speaker 3: will fuck your uncle, we will fuck your nephew, and

1040
00:54:31,480 --> 00:54:34,279
Speaker 3: you will cry. And that's what the fuck you will

1041
00:54:34,320 --> 00:54:40,200
Speaker 3: deserve because you're an abusive, fucking asshole. Last thing that

1042
00:54:40,719 --> 00:54:43,600
Speaker 3: burns me joy, This is my niggas. This is why

1043
00:54:43,680 --> 00:54:48,319
Speaker 3: no one trusts each other. Sign note. We really are

1044
00:54:48,360 --> 00:54:53,600
Speaker 3: about building family and community. But when a niggas doing

1045
00:54:53,640 --> 00:55:02,399
Speaker 3: some dumb ship, you can do about it. Yo. That

1046
00:55:02,480 --> 00:55:05,440
Speaker 3: shit is so true. So whoever heard who said that's

1047
00:55:05,440 --> 00:55:07,839
Speaker 3: all r Kelly or Kelly? Yeah? Who ever heard him?

1048
00:55:07,880 --> 00:55:11,319
Speaker 3: And you know, actually, yeah, he heard a lot of people. Yeah,

1049
00:55:11,320 --> 00:55:14,400
Speaker 3: and it's opposed to me that hurt people, hurt people. However,

1050
00:55:14,760 --> 00:55:18,120
Speaker 3: a spiteful woman, it's not a woman you want to

1051
00:55:18,120 --> 00:55:18,480
Speaker 3: fuck with.

1052
00:55:18,560 --> 00:55:23,080
Speaker 1: A woman who is retaliating against your bullshit will always

1053
00:55:23,680 --> 00:55:25,040
Speaker 1: always sink her teeth in.

1054
00:55:25,160 --> 00:55:27,799
Speaker 3: Baby. I will tell you we could be the most

1055
00:55:27,880 --> 00:55:29,160
Speaker 3: loyal creatures.

1056
00:55:29,200 --> 00:55:31,560
Speaker 1: We are the most loyal creatures, but when we want

1057
00:55:31,560 --> 00:55:34,279
Speaker 1: to get a nigga back, there's really nothing you can

1058
00:55:34,320 --> 00:55:40,240
Speaker 1: do about it. Niggas be fucking everybody, the homies, everybody.

1059
00:55:40,440 --> 00:55:42,959
Speaker 3: I've heard hella stories from niggas about them. I've heard

1060
00:55:43,080 --> 00:55:46,480
Speaker 3: my nick. This nigga told me he fucked the mom,

1061
00:55:46,840 --> 00:55:49,720
Speaker 3: his baby mama is the baby mama, the baby mama's

1062
00:55:49,760 --> 00:55:53,319
Speaker 3: mom and her sister because he was given serving them weed.

1063
00:55:56,000 --> 00:55:57,239
Speaker 3: I don't want to hear shit. I don't want to

1064
00:55:57,239 --> 00:55:58,319
Speaker 3: hear it. I don't want to hear it.

1065
00:55:58,400 --> 00:56:01,480
Speaker 1: Like, just the shame that projected on women, just purely

1066
00:56:01,520 --> 00:56:04,640
Speaker 1: because we have a vagina that's not addressed to men

1067
00:56:04,880 --> 00:56:08,280
Speaker 1: is so incredibly fucking stupid.

1068
00:56:08,840 --> 00:56:11,680
Speaker 3: We're the same, nigga. We are both human, we both

1069
00:56:11,719 --> 00:56:14,480
Speaker 3: have feelings, we both like to fuck, we both have fantasies.

1070
00:56:15,520 --> 00:56:18,319
Speaker 1: If you don't get it, you're dumb. And if you

1071
00:56:18,360 --> 00:56:20,360
Speaker 1: can't accept it, you're dumb. And if you find a

1072
00:56:20,360 --> 00:56:23,360
Speaker 1: woman who's willing to pretend like she's down for the bullshit,

1073
00:56:23,600 --> 00:56:28,279
Speaker 1: she's cheating on you. So, Yeah, either be monogamous or

1074
00:56:28,320 --> 00:56:32,839
Speaker 1: be fair. Amen, Either be monogamous or be equal. We're

1075
00:56:33,000 --> 00:56:36,080
Speaker 1: equal If we're not each other's equal, k rocks, I

1076
00:56:36,080 --> 00:56:37,160
Speaker 1: don't really know what to tell you.

1077
00:56:38,440 --> 00:56:45,279
Speaker 3: I'm talking to myself. You have a little little therapy session.

1078
00:56:45,000 --> 00:56:48,879
Speaker 1: With your Yeah, as empowered as we are, as much

1079
00:56:48,880 --> 00:56:52,880
Speaker 1: as we talk shit every week, we're still we're still

1080
00:56:53,520 --> 00:56:56,000
Speaker 1: have shame associated with so much shame.

1081
00:56:56,360 --> 00:56:58,560
Speaker 3: So I've been reading this book the Ethical Slug. I've

1082
00:56:58,600 --> 00:57:00,520
Speaker 3: posted it a few times on so I don't know

1083
00:57:00,520 --> 00:57:02,480
Speaker 3: if you guys have read it. Shout out to Alessandra

1084
00:57:02,640 --> 00:57:06,799
Speaker 3: for sending all the greatest gifts. Yeah, absolu all the time.

1085
00:57:06,920 --> 00:57:09,839
Speaker 3: Thank you girl. But this book is going to change

1086
00:57:09,840 --> 00:57:12,680
Speaker 3: my life. I'm only like twenty five pages in and

1087
00:57:12,719 --> 00:57:18,600
Speaker 3: I literally highlighted every page has at least like ten lines.

1088
00:57:18,640 --> 00:57:21,560
Speaker 3: I'm like, I'm basically highlighting the whole book and like

1089
00:57:21,680 --> 00:57:23,840
Speaker 3: reading chapters. I was reading them to one of the

1090
00:57:23,920 --> 00:57:26,080
Speaker 3: dudes I'm seeing. I was like, we see this, this

1091
00:57:26,160 --> 00:57:28,600
Speaker 3: is why, this is what I need when I say this,

1092
00:57:29,440 --> 00:57:35,280
Speaker 3: And it's just really empowering and enlightening when it comes

1093
00:57:35,440 --> 00:57:41,720
Speaker 3: to the agreements that we've made around sex and how

1094
00:57:41,840 --> 00:57:45,560
Speaker 3: monogamy is really a new thing. It's really like a

1095
00:57:45,720 --> 00:57:48,600
Speaker 3: very new tradition.

1096
00:57:48,800 --> 00:57:52,200
Speaker 1: I would say every like religion is at the patriarch.

1097
00:57:52,360 --> 00:57:54,280
Speaker 1: All of these things that we deeply believe, even if

1098
00:57:54,280 --> 00:57:56,760
Speaker 1: we don't believe them, are ingrained in us so deeply,

1099
00:57:56,800 --> 00:57:58,120
Speaker 1: and it's just like, this is why we do this,

1100
00:57:58,120 --> 00:58:00,240
Speaker 1: This is why we have these conversations because I've talk

1101
00:58:00,280 --> 00:58:02,280
Speaker 1: to myself to talk to you, to break ourselves out

1102
00:58:02,320 --> 00:58:05,840
Speaker 1: of this bullshit because it's fake.

1103
00:58:06,000 --> 00:58:06,479
Speaker 3: It's fake.

1104
00:58:06,560 --> 00:58:10,280
Speaker 1: These these systems and beliefs that we hold so dearly,

1105
00:58:10,600 --> 00:58:12,840
Speaker 1: subconsciously and consciously are so fucking fake.

1106
00:58:13,000 --> 00:58:16,200
Speaker 3: And but they even talk about how monogamy is that

1107
00:58:16,240 --> 00:58:20,800
Speaker 3: that's what you choose after reading the book, understanding you

1108
00:58:20,840 --> 00:58:23,120
Speaker 3: know all the aspects, and you choose monogamy and then

1109
00:58:23,160 --> 00:58:25,280
Speaker 3: that's what you really want. And that's okay because that's

1110
00:58:25,320 --> 00:58:29,000
Speaker 3: a form, that's a that's a that's a form of relationship. Obviously,

1111
00:58:29,080 --> 00:58:32,800
Speaker 3: like that people choose when they have free choice. If

1112
00:58:32,800 --> 00:58:35,280
Speaker 3: there's nothing wrong with monogamy, and like, I don't I'm

1113
00:58:35,320 --> 00:58:37,080
Speaker 3: not going to sit here and you know, preach and

1114
00:58:37,120 --> 00:58:39,000
Speaker 3: say and you know people that are married, that have

1115
00:58:39,120 --> 00:58:41,320
Speaker 3: chosen to be with one person their entire life, and

1116
00:58:41,320 --> 00:58:42,919
Speaker 3: that's what they subscribe to you, that you guys are

1117
00:58:42,960 --> 00:58:45,880
Speaker 3: fucking wrong and that like that's crazy, that's crazy. Like no,

1118
00:58:46,080 --> 00:58:48,360
Speaker 3: like that's works for you, then that works for you.

1119
00:58:49,040 --> 00:58:52,160
Speaker 3: But there are so many other ways to love someone.

1120
00:58:52,520 --> 00:58:57,840
Speaker 3: And yeah, I'm just is the ethical slight your new Bible.

1121
00:58:57,960 --> 00:59:00,200
Speaker 3: I'm just excited to explore that more this month, because

1122
00:59:00,200 --> 00:59:02,000
Speaker 3: I think in May we're really we're gonna have a

1123
00:59:02,040 --> 00:59:04,240
Speaker 3: few different guests on to talk about sex and the

1124
00:59:04,280 --> 00:59:10,080
Speaker 3: history of sex and kind of just explore what we

1125
00:59:10,120 --> 00:59:14,040
Speaker 3: want out of sex and love more and what we

1126
00:59:14,160 --> 00:59:14,959
Speaker 3: believe in want.

1127
00:59:15,640 --> 00:59:17,440
Speaker 1: I think it's important to be like, damn, why do

1128
00:59:17,520 --> 00:59:19,280
Speaker 1: I when I say this? When I said damn, I

1129
00:59:19,320 --> 00:59:21,240
Speaker 1: kind of want to male male female for somebody like

1130
00:59:21,280 --> 00:59:23,080
Speaker 1: a little bit inside of me and cringe a little bit, like,

1131
00:59:23,080 --> 00:59:24,200
Speaker 1: oh no, I hope noyone hears this.

1132
00:59:25,160 --> 00:59:25,760
Speaker 3: What is that?

1133
00:59:25,880 --> 00:59:29,000
Speaker 1: Because I am free, and I like I pride myself

1134
00:59:29,040 --> 00:59:31,560
Speaker 1: in that, but also I'm not. There's still parts of

1135
00:59:31,560 --> 00:59:34,920
Speaker 1: me that are attached to wanting to be loved and accepted.

1136
00:59:35,000 --> 00:59:36,920
Speaker 1: And if you and if I say this out loud,

1137
00:59:37,240 --> 00:59:39,439
Speaker 1: can I still be loved and accepted? Can someone still

1138
00:59:39,440 --> 00:59:41,000
Speaker 1: want me as their wife or to keep me?

1139
00:59:41,160 --> 00:59:41,400
Speaker 2: You know?

1140
00:59:41,520 --> 00:59:44,040
Speaker 3: And like that's the thing, wanting to feel worthy enough

1141
00:59:44,320 --> 00:59:47,280
Speaker 3: to be kept. But the truth is wanting to be

1142
00:59:47,360 --> 00:59:52,200
Speaker 3: kept in general, you know, the wanting to even be kept.

1143
00:59:51,840 --> 00:59:55,080
Speaker 1: Like so so much so that you will disregard your

1144
00:59:55,080 --> 00:59:58,600
Speaker 1: own feelings and your own desires and fantasies to appease

1145
00:59:58,640 --> 01:00:01,680
Speaker 1: someone else's idea of what you of what you should

1146
01:00:01,880 --> 01:00:04,160
Speaker 1: look like, and how you should be, even if that

1147
01:00:04,240 --> 01:00:05,840
Speaker 1: person doesn't subscribe to the.

1148
01:00:05,800 --> 01:00:10,600
Speaker 3: Same behavior they want you to subscribe to. Huh. Anyway,

1149
01:00:10,880 --> 01:00:15,600
Speaker 3: it's late, the kids must go to sleep. Happy Mother's Day, guys.

1150
01:00:15,800 --> 01:00:17,400
Speaker 3: I don't want to what you guys are doing for

1151
01:00:17,520 --> 01:00:19,960
Speaker 3: Mother's Day, but I hope going to eat like what

1152
01:00:20,000 --> 01:00:22,320
Speaker 3: everybody does. You guys, are you know when we get

1153
01:00:22,360 --> 01:00:26,600
Speaker 3: some massages. I hope that if you are not during

1154
01:00:26,600 --> 01:00:31,240
Speaker 3: the dicktalks, that you get some excellent dick penis or vagina,

1155
01:00:31,680 --> 01:00:37,200
Speaker 3: both both together at once or separately, side by side.

1156
01:00:37,360 --> 01:00:39,280
Speaker 3: I don't know what I needed to do do it.

1157
01:00:39,560 --> 01:00:41,840
Speaker 3: I hope your kids spoil you and on that day

1158
01:00:42,080 --> 01:00:44,240
Speaker 3: act right, just for that one day, Like I hope

1159
01:00:44,240 --> 01:00:47,120
Speaker 3: those kids just act the fuck right, you know, just

1160
01:00:47,160 --> 01:00:49,440
Speaker 3: that one day. I would say, when I have to

1161
01:00:49,480 --> 01:00:51,120
Speaker 3: talk a little chat with Irene, be like you know,

1162
01:00:51,160 --> 01:00:54,080
Speaker 3: on Sunday, like that's this week is Mother's Day, you know,

1163
01:00:54,160 --> 01:00:57,479
Speaker 3: like this this is my week, so please just bear

1164
01:00:57,520 --> 01:00:59,080
Speaker 3: with me. What is Mother's Day? Actually?

1165
01:00:59,080 --> 01:01:12,680
Speaker 10: Should we ask thee oh yeah, come here, you guys,

1166
01:01:14,360 --> 01:01:16,320
Speaker 10: even though we're doing a blog and right in.

1167
01:01:16,240 --> 01:01:18,320
Speaker 11: The middle of You're in the middle of a blog.

1168
01:01:18,640 --> 01:01:20,880
Speaker 11: What kind of blog are you guys doing? We're doing

1169
01:01:20,920 --> 01:01:24,760
Speaker 11: about Oh? Okay, okay, well we wanted to we're in

1170
01:01:24,800 --> 01:01:26,520
Speaker 11: the middle of the blog too. We wanted to ask

1171
01:01:26,560 --> 01:01:28,960
Speaker 11: you some questions. This week's holiday.

1172
01:01:29,000 --> 01:01:29,640
Speaker 3: You know what it is?

1173
01:01:29,920 --> 01:01:30,680
Speaker 5: Monday?

1174
01:01:31,880 --> 01:01:36,800
Speaker 3: Oh you know what if Mother's Day mean yoursel but

1175
01:01:37,000 --> 01:01:43,400
Speaker 3: your mother's how do you celebrate us? Like? Guess that's it?

1176
01:01:43,760 --> 01:01:44,000
Speaker 5: Yeah?

1177
01:01:44,160 --> 01:01:44,520
Speaker 4: Okay?

1178
01:01:45,080 --> 01:01:49,840
Speaker 3: What's what's your favorite thing about your mom's what you

1179
01:01:49,880 --> 01:01:51,520
Speaker 3: guys have different moms?

1180
01:01:51,800 --> 01:01:54,760
Speaker 4: You share ideas? What is what is it a what's

1181
01:01:54,760 --> 01:01:55,560
Speaker 4: your favorite thing about me?

1182
01:01:58,760 --> 01:02:02,040
Speaker 5: Mama? He always take her your school day?

1183
01:02:02,520 --> 01:02:07,440
Speaker 3: That's it? Everything about me?

1184
01:02:08,200 --> 01:02:09,600
Speaker 4: That's all you got, girl.

1185
01:02:10,280 --> 01:02:18,160
Speaker 12: I know when you get saying about you that you're smart.

1186
01:02:19,280 --> 01:02:21,560
Speaker 4: Oh thanks, baby, beink I'm smart.

1187
01:02:22,000 --> 01:02:25,000
Speaker 5: I think like you.

1188
01:02:25,000 --> 01:02:31,240
Speaker 4: You mm, you are bumpy.

1189
01:02:35,760 --> 01:02:41,520
Speaker 3: That's not nice. Listen, your mom has apostrophy now, so

1190
01:02:41,560 --> 01:02:42,600
Speaker 3: she's working on that.

1191
01:02:43,400 --> 01:02:46,640
Speaker 5: Really think I like it. And when you feed me

1192
01:02:46,880 --> 01:02:49,120
Speaker 5: food and as a baby.

1193
01:02:49,640 --> 01:02:53,360
Speaker 3: When I sent you food when you're a baby. Right now?

1194
01:02:53,360 --> 01:02:56,480
Speaker 3: What about one now? Girl? Do you guys want to

1195
01:02:56,480 --> 01:02:58,160
Speaker 3: be moms one day? No?

1196
01:02:58,360 --> 01:03:01,720
Speaker 5: No, really no, because the kids will.

1197
01:03:01,560 --> 01:03:04,280
Speaker 4: Be Okay, I I know that. I mean, Luna, I

1198
01:03:04,280 --> 01:03:06,240
Speaker 4: know you want kids, but I do you want kids? No,

1199
01:03:06,520 --> 01:03:07,560
Speaker 4: that's I know.

1200
01:03:07,840 --> 01:03:09,000
Speaker 5: I do not want kids.

1201
01:03:09,000 --> 01:03:10,640
Speaker 4: That's not what you told me. Irin. You don't have

1202
01:03:10,680 --> 01:03:12,080
Speaker 4: to say that just because Luna doesn't.

1203
01:03:12,840 --> 01:03:15,760
Speaker 3: Luda, I'm waiting for a better response for your favorite

1204
01:03:15,800 --> 01:03:17,040
Speaker 3: thing about me?

1205
01:03:18,400 --> 01:03:19,240
Speaker 4: What do you think a job?

1206
01:03:19,680 --> 01:03:21,320
Speaker 5: Job is to get money?

1207
01:03:22,800 --> 01:03:24,360
Speaker 4: To get money?

1208
01:03:24,600 --> 01:03:25,520
Speaker 3: Why do we need money?

1209
01:03:26,160 --> 01:03:28,520
Speaker 5: They get to get some money and.

1210
01:03:29,280 --> 01:03:30,440
Speaker 3: By some stuff?

1211
01:03:30,840 --> 01:03:32,040
Speaker 4: What kind of stuff are we buying?

1212
01:03:32,160 --> 01:03:33,440
Speaker 3: Clothes? Well?

1213
01:03:33,760 --> 01:03:35,920
Speaker 4: What else does a mom's job besides get money?

1214
01:03:37,920 --> 01:03:41,320
Speaker 5: Get that for your kids? Spend time with your kids?

1215
01:03:41,640 --> 01:03:41,880
Speaker 3: Yeah?

1216
01:03:43,040 --> 01:03:45,000
Speaker 4: You know you do? You know how much we love you?

1217
01:03:45,600 --> 01:03:49,440
Speaker 5: How much I can't?

1218
01:03:50,160 --> 01:03:51,720
Speaker 4: Your hands are too little for us to fit it

1219
01:03:51,760 --> 01:03:52,000
Speaker 4: all in.

1220
01:03:53,120 --> 01:03:57,480
Speaker 5: That b Wait? Do it? I? Yeah?

1221
01:03:57,920 --> 01:03:59,760
Speaker 3: Do you think we're good moms? Yes?

1222
01:04:00,280 --> 01:04:00,640
Speaker 5: Yes?

1223
01:04:00,840 --> 01:04:02,200
Speaker 4: Just good? Or like excellent?

1224
01:04:02,400 --> 01:04:02,880
Speaker 5: Excellent?

1225
01:04:04,120 --> 01:04:04,760
Speaker 4: Good or great?

1226
01:04:05,240 --> 01:04:05,760
Speaker 5: Great?

1227
01:04:06,400 --> 01:04:06,880
Speaker 4: It's good?

1228
01:04:07,160 --> 01:04:10,440
Speaker 3: Bad? No? Are you like one of your best friends?

1229
01:04:11,120 --> 01:04:15,520
Speaker 5: Yes? What what you said?

1230
01:04:15,600 --> 01:04:15,960
Speaker 3: Yes?

1231
01:04:16,640 --> 01:04:17,200
Speaker 4: Okay?

1232
01:04:18,600 --> 01:04:23,480
Speaker 7: What's one special thing about your relationship with your mom?

1233
01:04:23,520 --> 01:04:24,360
Speaker 5: Having fun?

1234
01:04:26,880 --> 01:04:27,480
Speaker 3: Having fun?

1235
01:04:27,560 --> 01:04:28,800
Speaker 4: That's it, that's all you got for us.

1236
01:04:29,840 --> 01:04:33,160
Speaker 7: One special thing about my relationship with you, Luna, is

1237
01:04:33,280 --> 01:04:36,880
Speaker 7: I enjoy when we dance together?

1238
01:04:37,880 --> 01:04:40,120
Speaker 4: What about you, mem.

1239
01:04:43,360 --> 01:04:47,600
Speaker 5: When I do shock tack.

1240
01:04:47,080 --> 01:04:49,720
Speaker 3: Okay, that's sweet. One thing that I love to do

1241
01:04:49,800 --> 01:04:52,600
Speaker 3: with you, Iri is saying in the car and make

1242
01:04:52,680 --> 01:04:53,600
Speaker 3: up songs.

1243
01:04:54,400 --> 01:04:55,040
Speaker 5: I do that.

1244
01:04:57,080 --> 01:04:58,280
Speaker 3: I do.

1245
01:05:04,080 --> 01:05:05,760
Speaker 5: Like you taking me.

1246
01:05:05,920 --> 01:05:16,360
Speaker 3: To school to school. That's your favorite thing. Sucks, that's

1247
01:05:16,400 --> 01:05:18,320
Speaker 3: your that's it. That's your favorite thing to do with me.

1248
01:05:18,480 --> 01:05:19,760
Speaker 3: Not are like dance parties.

1249
01:05:19,760 --> 01:05:21,800
Speaker 5: We have dance parties too, or like.

1250
01:05:21,760 --> 01:05:25,280
Speaker 3: Our singing competitions. Yeah, or you know all the fun

1251
01:05:25,280 --> 01:05:26,320
Speaker 3: activities we do together.

1252
01:05:26,560 --> 01:05:32,520
Speaker 12: Yeah, that's all like ski yeah, yeah, cuddles, going in

1253
01:05:32,600 --> 01:05:36,920
Speaker 12: the pool. The real thing, right love is ski And

1254
01:05:36,960 --> 01:05:39,360
Speaker 12: the real thing I love is skiing and going in

1255
01:05:39,440 --> 01:05:39,880
Speaker 12: the pool.

1256
01:05:40,440 --> 01:05:42,400
Speaker 3: Can you tell all the moms that are listening, Happy

1257
01:05:42,400 --> 01:05:44,480
Speaker 3: Mother's Day.

1258
01:05:43,640 --> 01:05:46,040
Speaker 5: Mother's Day bye.

1259
01:05:47,520 --> 01:05:49,240
Speaker 3: Just so you guys know, that's like the third time

1260
01:05:49,280 --> 01:05:52,280
Speaker 3: we've done that, and it is eleven.

1261
01:05:52,600 --> 01:05:53,160
Speaker 4: We gotta go.

1262
01:05:54,200 --> 01:05:58,240
Speaker 3: They're delusional and we are too too. I hope you

1263
01:05:58,280 --> 01:06:00,800
Speaker 3: guys have a great Mother's Day, Happy man asturbation may,

1264
01:06:00,880 --> 01:06:06,120
Speaker 3: happy dick talks, Happy Mother's Day. Take some time for

1265
01:06:06,200 --> 01:06:08,360
Speaker 3: yourself and don't feel bad about it, and make sure

1266
01:06:08,360 --> 01:06:10,720
Speaker 3: you check out dipsy because on some real shit, those

1267
01:06:11,360 --> 01:06:15,000
Speaker 3: the app is fire. It's it's firefirefire, matter of fact,

1268
01:06:15,000 --> 01:06:16,960
Speaker 3: I'm gonna listen to it as I go to sleep.

1269
01:06:16,800 --> 01:06:19,440
Speaker 4: And that's a good idea, and have some sexy dreams.

1270
01:06:20,160 --> 01:06:21,960
Speaker 3: I like that idea. I think I'm gonna do the same.

1271
01:06:22,680 --> 01:06:24,600
Speaker 4: All right, We'll see you guys next week.

1272
01:06:24,760 --> 01:06:27,080
Speaker 1: Happy sexy dreams, Happy Mother's Day.

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01:06:27,080 --> 01:06:33,640
Speaker 3: Bye.