WEBVTT - Comment Section Crash Out 0:00:00.160 --> 0:00:07.640 Hello, gorgeous. It's Lala Kent. Welcome to untraditionally, Laala, Hello, gorgeous, 0:00:07.960 --> 0:00:12.360 Welcome to untraditionally, Lala. If you guys recall, I did 0:00:12.360 --> 0:00:15.840 an episode I want to say last week about the 0:00:15.920 --> 0:00:19.959 drama with Taylor Frankie Paul. And you know, I like 0:00:20.040 --> 0:00:22.360 to think that I'm a compassionate person. I like to 0:00:22.360 --> 0:00:24.480 think that I've lived some life so I can speak 0:00:24.520 --> 0:00:27.920 from experience. But I also like to think that I'm 0:00:27.960 --> 0:00:34.360 not soft. And with my upbringing, you know, my mom 0:00:34.400 --> 0:00:37.120 babied us, but she was always the person who said, 0:00:38.920 --> 0:00:41.800 you may have gone through a lot of stuff, but 0:00:41.840 --> 0:00:45.680 you better rise to the occasion. You cannot fault anybody 0:00:45.800 --> 0:00:49.360 or anything because you are responsible for your emotions, you 0:00:49.400 --> 0:00:53.800 are responsible for your actions. And so I lead with that, 0:00:53.920 --> 0:00:56.320 and I lead with that in the conversation about Taylor 0:00:56.360 --> 0:01:02.800 Frankie Paul and her hurling furniture, I was shocked to 0:01:02.920 --> 0:01:05.759 my very core when I looked in the comments section. 0:01:06.520 --> 0:01:13.840 You guys were going in on me for basically saying, 0:01:14.000 --> 0:01:20.960 this woman needs the help. And I didn't condone her 0:01:21.400 --> 0:01:27.200 throwing steel fucking barstools in the direction of another person 0:01:27.920 --> 0:01:32.679 while her child was present. I was defending this tiny, 0:01:32.720 --> 0:01:34.800 little five year old, which I have. I have a 0:01:34.840 --> 0:01:36.560 five year old, like I can literally think of a 0:01:36.600 --> 0:01:38.560 five year old and go, oh, I have that. So 0:01:38.600 --> 0:01:41.399 I know exactly like the type of little human and 0:01:41.440 --> 0:01:43.679 little personality that a five year old is. Okay, so 0:01:43.680 --> 0:01:46.560 I'm defending this five year old, which should be a 0:01:46.600 --> 0:01:50.720 no brainer. I truly could not believe what I was reading. 0:01:51.520 --> 0:01:53.280 Y'all want to talk about the trauma and then bring 0:01:53.320 --> 0:01:57.280 me into it. That was the greatest part was I 0:01:57.320 --> 0:01:58.920 don't want to say. I was in a spiral over 0:01:58.960 --> 0:02:02.720 the comments. Shocked over the fucking comments. These are some 0:02:02.840 --> 0:02:06.280 of them. These are some of them. Okay, Lala, you 0:02:06.800 --> 0:02:09.520 have no position to talk? Why, bitch? Why do I 0:02:09.520 --> 0:02:12.400 have no position to talk? Because I was a drunk 0:02:12.400 --> 0:02:14.079 and have been sober for seven and a half years 0:02:14.080 --> 0:02:17.040 and not once hurled furniture, but have definitely gotten physical 0:02:17.160 --> 0:02:19.440 in my past when I was intoxicated, which led me 0:02:19.800 --> 0:02:22.920 to get sober. I think I'm the perfect candidate to 0:02:23.120 --> 0:02:28.640 fucking talk, bitch. That's right, I'm fucking heated. Wow. I 0:02:28.720 --> 0:02:31.040 used to love you, but you got this all wrong, 0:02:31.520 --> 0:02:33.760 and you're the least wholesome person in the world, even 0:02:33.760 --> 0:02:37.000 as a mother. This is my favorite. 0:02:37.320 --> 0:02:37.560 Wow. 0:02:37.639 --> 0:02:41.120 I used to love you. You you never loved me 0:02:41.320 --> 0:02:44.400 because you don't know me. You watch me on television. 0:02:44.480 --> 0:02:46.800 I appreciate you thinking you know what love is. But 0:02:46.880 --> 0:02:48.919 the fact that you could love me watch a thirty 0:02:48.919 --> 0:02:52.240 second clip and not love me, that's not love. Also, 0:02:52.280 --> 0:02:54.919 I never claimed to be wholesome. I'm on a podcast 0:02:54.919 --> 0:02:59.360 talking about blow jobs and eating ass like duh, no shit, 0:02:59.400 --> 0:03:04.640 I'm not wholesome. Also, Wow, I used to love you. 0:03:04.680 --> 0:03:07.640 But you've got this all wrong. You guys, some of 0:03:07.680 --> 0:03:09.280 you saying you don't know the facts. You don't know 0:03:09.320 --> 0:03:11.800 the whole story. Neither do you. You weren't in the room, 0:03:12.320 --> 0:03:15.080 you weren't taking the police report. Y'all are watching and 0:03:15.080 --> 0:03:17.639 reading the news just like I am. How much more 0:03:17.680 --> 0:03:20.520 informed could you be than me? We're all reading the 0:03:20.560 --> 0:03:24.760 same shit. So drunk, La La was an angel, no bitch, 0:03:24.760 --> 0:03:26.600 That's why I'm sober seven and a half years. So 0:03:26.680 --> 0:03:28.320 I am sober seven and a half years. That's why 0:03:28.320 --> 0:03:30.200 I'm sober for seven and a half years. I don't 0:03:30.200 --> 0:03:33.120 know how much more clear I could make this. I 0:03:33.160 --> 0:03:36.240 was not proud of my actions when I drank so 0:03:36.320 --> 0:03:41.160 I got sober. I'm gonna lose all my listeners after this, 0:03:41.360 --> 0:03:44.640 but truly I was angry. I'm like, these are the comments, 0:03:45.280 --> 0:03:48.280 These are the comments Laala on her high horse, acting 0:03:48.360 --> 0:03:52.520 like she's never acted that way. Yes, that's why I'm 0:03:52.600 --> 0:03:57.080 seven and a half years sober. Fuck Anyway, I called 0:03:57.120 --> 0:03:58.760 to the haters. I was like, you know what you 0:03:58.800 --> 0:04:01.040 guys want to talk about it, Let's talk about it. 0:04:01.960 --> 0:04:07.600 And again we posted the haters i Instagram story to 0:04:07.760 --> 0:04:10.160 call all of you to the forefront. And it was 0:04:10.200 --> 0:04:16.560 like crickets again. Some of you are very click happy, 0:04:16.800 --> 0:04:18.640 but then when it comes to facing off with me, 0:04:18.720 --> 0:04:20.640 you run scared. We even reached out to some of 0:04:20.680 --> 0:04:23.440 the haters like, hey, we saw your comment, would love 0:04:23.480 --> 0:04:29.159 to have you on the episode Crickets. But then a 0:04:29.240 --> 0:04:33.159 wonderful hater came through. All right, I'm so excited to 0:04:33.200 --> 0:04:35.839 have you. Hi, Meredith, I'm Lala. I'm so did you 0:04:35.880 --> 0:04:37.440 write in or did we reach out to you? 0:04:37.640 --> 0:04:37.839 Did? 0:04:38.000 --> 0:04:38.760 I did write in? 0:04:39.440 --> 0:04:42.920 I wrote in as a former hater, current Lala lover. 0:04:43.360 --> 0:04:45.080 Okay, well let's talk about the hate because it's the 0:04:45.080 --> 0:04:47.080 Hater Podcast. What made you not dig me? 0:04:48.520 --> 0:04:51.159 Honestly, when you first came on in season four, I 0:04:51.400 --> 0:04:55.000 thought you were kind of airheaded and vapid and just 0:04:55.120 --> 0:05:00.719 like this holier than that personality. That's how they portray 0:05:00.839 --> 0:05:02.640 trade you on the show, not saying that's how you were, 0:05:03.080 --> 0:05:04.599 but that's how it kind of came off that you 0:05:04.640 --> 0:05:09.640 were just angsty, my shit don't stink kind of. 0:05:10.080 --> 0:05:13.480 Kind of I don't even watch season four, so I 0:05:13.520 --> 0:05:16.760 can't watch it so much since then, so I'm so embarrassed. 0:05:16.760 --> 0:05:19.880 I'm like, who is this person? Anyway? Keep going. 0:05:21.560 --> 0:05:23.800 And while and it's just kind of like hit me 0:05:23.839 --> 0:05:26.120 the wrong way of like, oh, I don't like this girl. 0:05:26.360 --> 0:05:28.400 There's something, there's something off about this. 0:05:29.480 --> 0:05:31.520 And then just like as you progressed, you kind of 0:05:31.560 --> 0:05:36.360 were very combative and like anytime you had issues with people, 0:05:36.400 --> 0:05:40.080 it was just like punch it, base on, like take it. 0:05:41.480 --> 0:05:43.719 And I know you were super young and. 0:05:43.680 --> 0:05:49.960 Naive and just went through this new experience, but right 0:05:49.960 --> 0:05:51.680 out the gate, I was like, well, I don't like 0:05:51.760 --> 0:05:54.760 La La. And then I used to be a Katie fan, 0:05:54.960 --> 0:05:56.760 and when you had issues with Katie, I was like, 0:05:57.800 --> 0:05:58.200 pump the. 0:05:58.200 --> 0:06:01.040 Brakes, right, I love this. 0:06:01.600 --> 0:06:04.920 But then the first time that I was like fan 0:06:05.040 --> 0:06:07.719 Laala was when Jax was trying to pull bullshit with 0:06:07.760 --> 0:06:11.320 you and trying to lie about things that were being 0:06:11.320 --> 0:06:16.599 said with and try and tell Brittany that, oh no, 0:06:16.720 --> 0:06:18.960 it was all you, that you were the bad person, 0:06:19.040 --> 0:06:21.839 not him, And I was like, wait a minute, no, 0:06:22.120 --> 0:06:22.520 that's not. 0:06:22.520 --> 0:06:25.960 Okay, that's bullshit. Balas got the papers to prove that, 0:06:27.000 --> 0:06:27.520 and you did. 0:06:28.640 --> 0:06:31.520 And eventually Brittany saw the season and was like, oh, 0:06:31.520 --> 0:06:32.520 you were telling the truth. 0:06:33.240 --> 0:06:35.400 Do you know what? I always wonder because I feel 0:06:35.440 --> 0:06:39.200 like he had been doing What season was that was 0:06:39.200 --> 0:06:41.480 that four? I think that was four? It was like 0:06:41.560 --> 0:06:43.839 right out the gate. Yeah, when he was like saying 0:06:43.839 --> 0:06:45.800 he didn't have a girlfriend, and yes. 0:06:45.920 --> 0:06:48.440 Ok, that was like right when she was coming around 0:06:48.560 --> 0:06:51.880 and he was between him trying to hang out with 0:06:51.920 --> 0:06:53.080 you and hanging out with her. 0:06:53.360 --> 0:06:56.760 And by the way, people still think to this day 0:06:56.760 --> 0:07:00.640 that he and I hooked up. I mean, open book. 0:07:00.800 --> 0:07:03.320 I would totally be open and honest if we had 0:07:03.360 --> 0:07:06.920 hooked up. We never did so much as hold hands 0:07:07.080 --> 0:07:13.120 or kiss each other ever he wished. But it was 0:07:13.440 --> 0:07:15.160 so wild that he had been doing it for so 0:07:15.320 --> 0:07:18.680 long and didn't ever think like this is going to 0:07:18.760 --> 0:07:21.880 come out in a few months and she's going to 0:07:22.000 --> 0:07:25.240 see the behavior. I don't understand people like that. 0:07:25.280 --> 0:07:27.760 He wasn't in the mindset of, oh, this is what's 0:07:27.800 --> 0:07:30.239 going to be shown. He's just playing on his lies. 0:07:30.320 --> 0:07:32.720 Like what he does is hold down the lies. 0:07:33.440 --> 0:07:38.520 Yeah, and like I think people like him think I'll 0:07:38.520 --> 0:07:41.120 deal with this later. Yes, Oh, I'll just handle it 0:07:41.280 --> 0:07:42.560 like put it, sweep it. 0:07:42.560 --> 0:07:44.680 On in the moment and put it to the back 0:07:44.680 --> 0:07:46.680 burner and when it comes back up again, we'll roll 0:07:46.720 --> 0:07:47.480 something else. 0:07:47.800 --> 0:07:51.360 Right, and we'll go down the line of you know, 0:07:51.640 --> 0:07:54.160 I'm not perfect. I got a lot of work to do. 0:07:54.240 --> 0:07:56.240 And then Andy calling him out saying, I feel like 0:07:56.320 --> 0:07:59.120 every season you're talking about how you're a work in progress. 0:07:59.160 --> 0:08:01.800 That was like his go too, oh yeah, oh yeah, yep, 0:08:02.200 --> 0:08:06.840 you know. I I know that there are there are 0:08:06.960 --> 0:08:13.800 people like Jacks or who have issues with addiction, but 0:08:13.920 --> 0:08:17.720 there are there are things that even if you get sober, 0:08:19.240 --> 0:08:21.880 they don't change, Like you still are who you are, 0:08:22.120 --> 0:08:27.040 then side is still there. Yeah, And I think do 0:08:27.080 --> 0:08:30.880 you watch the Valley at all? Yes? I think this 0:08:31.040 --> 0:08:35.400 is the first season. Because I came on to vander 0:08:35.480 --> 0:08:40.760 Pump Rules season four, I was not a confident person. 0:08:41.000 --> 0:08:45.360 I think when people watched me. I seemed very much 0:08:46.040 --> 0:08:48.760 like you said, vapid and holier than now. But I 0:08:48.800 --> 0:08:51.199 think it was a defense mechanism. 0:08:51.600 --> 0:08:51.800 Yeah. 0:08:51.800 --> 0:08:56.120 I think it was a combination of drinking and also 0:08:56.240 --> 0:08:59.400 being very guarded because I knew if this group saw 0:09:00.200 --> 0:09:02.599 who I really was and how I felt about myself, 0:09:02.920 --> 0:09:03.960 they would eat me alive. 0:09:04.440 --> 0:09:06.840 Oh absolutely, because they were established and you were the 0:09:06.880 --> 0:09:08.760 new one coming in very much. 0:09:08.840 --> 0:09:12.040 So I just guard myself. Yeah. I was not a 0:09:12.120 --> 0:09:14.839 confident person, and I think that's why I started drinking 0:09:14.880 --> 0:09:17.320 as well, because that kind of numbed that feeling, and 0:09:17.320 --> 0:09:19.280 then I could go out into the world and feel 0:09:19.559 --> 0:09:23.720 uninhibited and then you know, cut to I get sober, 0:09:23.960 --> 0:09:27.360 I get engaged, I have a baby, and then that 0:09:28.240 --> 0:09:31.040 ends as quickly as it started, right, And so I 0:09:31.200 --> 0:09:33.640 was kind of reeling from that and trying to figure 0:09:33.679 --> 0:09:37.200 out my own identity. I had never gone out and 0:09:37.320 --> 0:09:39.080 dated sober. 0:09:39.120 --> 0:09:41.760 Which is the season that I loved you on. That 0:09:41.880 --> 0:09:44.680 was when I started being team Lalla, because right when, 0:09:46.400 --> 0:09:51.199 right before everything before you had Ocean and for all 0:09:51.240 --> 0:09:53.560 of the craziness with He who shall not be named, 0:09:54.400 --> 0:09:56.920 I became a mom. So it changed my whole perspective 0:09:56.920 --> 0:09:59.600 in life, and I began to look at you, like, Okay, 0:10:00.080 --> 0:10:04.240 she's going through stuff, she's struggling, she's dealing with sobriety, 0:10:04.640 --> 0:10:07.600 she's dealing with being pregnant, going through all of this 0:10:07.720 --> 0:10:10.920 garbage with your ax, and then coming out of that 0:10:11.679 --> 0:10:13.920 was like, you're kind of like a rebirth for you 0:10:14.160 --> 0:10:17.920 of like everything dropped on you and then your dad 0:10:17.960 --> 0:10:20.360 passing and all the stuff that was just like boom 0:10:20.360 --> 0:10:21.120 boom boom for you. 0:10:22.240 --> 0:10:26.280 Yeah, And you know, every single person on the planet 0:10:26.320 --> 0:10:29.559 has gone through things that are life changing, and those 0:10:29.840 --> 0:10:33.400 those moments who shift, they shift who you are, right 0:10:33.440 --> 0:10:36.240 And I try to remember that when I'm dealing with 0:10:36.240 --> 0:10:40.360 people and like, there's there's a reason why we're having 0:10:41.160 --> 0:10:45.120 a differing opinion or our perspectives are different because we've 0:10:45.160 --> 0:10:48.080 experienced things in life that have shaped us and we 0:10:48.120 --> 0:10:52.560 have different triggers. But I feel like this season on 0:10:52.640 --> 0:10:55.679 the Valley, because after vander Pump was over, I really 0:10:55.720 --> 0:10:58.360 did have to take a hard look at myself and 0:10:59.200 --> 0:11:02.280 go from Okay, I was living off of adrenaline, going 0:11:02.320 --> 0:11:08.000 through a custody battle, I'm sober and a single mom. Now, 0:11:08.960 --> 0:11:10.520 this is not how I wanted my life to go, 0:11:10.679 --> 0:11:12.800 and then I went too far the other way where 0:11:12.840 --> 0:11:15.680 I was like, I can't be so guarded that I 0:11:15.679 --> 0:11:21.040 don't let anyone in, and then I was almost too soft. 0:11:21.480 --> 0:11:23.480 It was very confusing. And I feel like this season 0:11:23.520 --> 0:11:25.480 on the Valley, after you know, two and a half 0:11:25.600 --> 0:11:28.440 years of just sitting with myself and being a mom 0:11:28.480 --> 0:11:32.320 and really laying roots of my own where I'm I'm 0:11:32.360 --> 0:11:39.160 really excited to just see it felt different because I 0:11:39.200 --> 0:11:41.080 had been on vander Pump for quite some time and 0:11:41.160 --> 0:11:44.160 it was my It became my safe space, right and 0:11:44.200 --> 0:11:46.640 it was comfortable. Now I'm in a new group and 0:11:46.679 --> 0:11:49.760 I don't really know my place, but for the first time, 0:11:50.040 --> 0:11:52.959 we'll see how it plays out. Right, But from my perspective, 0:11:53.880 --> 0:11:57.000 from what I feel like exactly, I feel like I 0:11:57.080 --> 0:11:59.400 sat back and was like, I'm going to hear people 0:11:59.440 --> 0:12:03.640 out before I react, and when they say something that 0:12:03.720 --> 0:12:07.840 maybe I don't like, I'm either going to repeat it 0:12:07.880 --> 0:12:10.800 to make sure I got this correct before I react. 0:12:11.760 --> 0:12:13.880 And that felt really good. I was like, that's not 0:12:14.040 --> 0:12:15.720 like me. I'm a reactor, which I. 0:12:15.640 --> 0:12:19.160 Think, oh yeah, absolutely, Which I think is where a 0:12:19.160 --> 0:12:22.720 lot of people didn't like you is because you had 0:12:23.160 --> 0:12:23.920 valid points. 0:12:24.000 --> 0:12:28.199 It was just how you were saying it. Oh my god, girl, 0:12:28.320 --> 0:12:31.240 I just had this conversation with my mother this morning 0:12:31.400 --> 0:12:34.560 and yesterday She's like, it's not about what you're saying, 0:12:34.880 --> 0:12:38.920 it's your delivery and your tone. Yep. Looking back on it, yep, 0:12:39.200 --> 0:12:41.480 that is a conversation, Meredith, I have with my mother 0:12:41.520 --> 0:12:44.240 on a daily basis. It's not what you're saying, it's 0:12:44.240 --> 0:12:47.040 your delivery and your tone. And I'm like, fuck, I 0:12:47.160 --> 0:12:48.120 really got to work on that. 0:12:48.840 --> 0:12:52.120 Well, that's where sitting back and just taking a moment 0:12:52.520 --> 0:12:54.080 can give you that perspective. 0:12:54.400 --> 0:12:56.400 We'll see well when you watch The Valley, you know, 0:12:56.800 --> 0:12:59.560 episode one airs tomorrow, which it's laying the groundwork. But 0:12:59.600 --> 0:13:03.600 I'm really excited to wait hear your thoughts on it. Absolutely, 0:13:03.600 --> 0:13:06.000 I can't wait. I loved this, Thank you so much. 0:13:06.040 --> 0:13:09.080 And I loved your beef by the way, it was 0:13:09.120 --> 0:13:11.800 so nice to hear something different than I usually hear. 0:13:12.160 --> 0:13:18.040 Oh yeah, no, My beef was early on, and as 0:13:18.080 --> 0:13:20.480 I've seen you change through all the seasons, especially after 0:13:20.640 --> 0:13:22.880 season eight and then into season nine, it was like, 0:13:22.920 --> 0:13:26.000 all right, team Ala. She's been going through a whole 0:13:26.040 --> 0:13:28.480 bunch and this explains. 0:13:27.920 --> 0:13:31.280 Why I love this and How old is your baby now? 0:13:31.559 --> 0:13:35.960 He is six six Yeah, he turned seven in September. 0:13:36.720 --> 0:13:41.800 Why is he a Rgo baby? He is, yes, yeah, 0:13:41.800 --> 0:13:45.800 it was his birthday September fourth. He's born on the 0:13:45.840 --> 0:13:49.720 same day as Beyonce. Yep, he's a Burgo. I love 0:13:49.800 --> 0:13:53.000 this well. I'm happy that we could venture in a 0:13:53.040 --> 0:13:56.280 motherhood around the same time. Thank you for not being 0:13:56.280 --> 0:13:58.560 afraid to like face off with me. I hope you 0:13:58.559 --> 0:14:01.280 have the best day. I was more surprised to be 0:14:01.360 --> 0:14:04.480 reached out to. I love it well. Welcome. I hope 0:14:04.520 --> 0:14:07.760 you're still a fan after this and we'll talk soon. 0:14:08.160 --> 0:14:09.320 All right, thank you. 0:14:09.320 --> 0:14:26.680 You're welcome by babe. Hi gorgeous. By this lighting is 0:14:26.800 --> 0:14:28.840 fucking fantastic. Where are you? 0:14:29.600 --> 0:14:30.480 I'm in my car. 0:14:30.760 --> 0:14:32.400 Oh, there we go? You got that? You got that 0:14:32.440 --> 0:14:36.120 good natural light going? Yeah. Yeah, welcome. 0:14:36.680 --> 0:14:37.680 I'm happy to be here. 0:14:37.960 --> 0:14:39.080 Are you Are you nervous? 0:14:39.360 --> 0:14:39.640 Yes? 0:14:40.160 --> 0:14:40.400 Are you? 0:14:41.400 --> 0:14:44.400 Yeah, don't be nervous. It's so funny that every time 0:14:44.440 --> 0:14:46.840 someone comes on here, they're like, I'm so nervous. I'm like, 0:14:46.880 --> 0:14:50.440 you have nothing to be nervous about. So did we 0:14:50.480 --> 0:14:52.160 reach out to you or did you reach out to us? 0:14:53.240 --> 0:14:57.440 I reach out to you wow, a bitch with some ovaries. 0:14:57.480 --> 0:14:59.080 I love it. Okay, what's your beef with me? 0:14:59.360 --> 0:15:03.640 It was early La La on vander pump Roles watching you. 0:15:03.720 --> 0:15:08.000 Are we talking like season four? Like first came on season. 0:15:07.680 --> 0:15:11.160 Four maybe five, I think is when this happened. I 0:15:11.200 --> 0:15:14.720 believe just the the and I love it now, like 0:15:14.760 --> 0:15:18.640 i've as things have gone on, I've learned it's very 0:15:18.720 --> 0:15:22.880 endearing about you. Just that sharp tongue was a little 0:15:22.880 --> 0:15:24.840 off putting to me in the beginning, and I just 0:15:24.840 --> 0:15:25.880 couldn't relate. 0:15:26.320 --> 0:15:30.720 When you talked about I can see everyone here hasn't 0:15:30.720 --> 0:15:32.400 been working on their summer bodies. 0:15:33.920 --> 0:15:36.960 It was like so fucking rude, and I was so slammed. 0:15:37.200 --> 0:15:40.160 And I know obviously, I yeah, I followed your journey, 0:15:40.200 --> 0:15:43.280 so I've learned kind of where you were at in 0:15:43.320 --> 0:15:47.280 that time, in this headspace you were probably in. I mean, now, 0:15:47.280 --> 0:15:49.720 I don't think everyone was the nicest to you either, 0:15:49.960 --> 0:15:53.720 but just the reaction it was hard for me to 0:15:53.760 --> 0:15:58.520 relate to and so I had a hard time and 0:15:59.360 --> 0:16:03.040 things took a turn in season seven for me with you. 0:16:03.640 --> 0:16:07.400 Season seven, okay, so I think that I believe that 0:16:07.400 --> 0:16:12.440 that was the season I lost my dad. I think, yeah, okay, 0:16:12.480 --> 0:16:16.360 and you started to like me that seasons season. 0:16:16.680 --> 0:16:20.480 Okay, that was yes, No, I know, I know you 0:16:20.600 --> 0:16:21.400 still had it there. 0:16:21.400 --> 0:16:24.240 But the thing was is I had lost my grandmother 0:16:24.280 --> 0:16:26.480 and then eight months later lost my grandfather, and so 0:16:26.840 --> 0:16:30.280 I felt like I could understand you and where you 0:16:30.320 --> 0:16:31.120 were coming from. 0:16:31.360 --> 0:16:34.280 Okay, it was crazy. I was like, I get it. 0:16:34.360 --> 0:16:38.600 I get what she's going through the process. 0:16:38.640 --> 0:16:41.480 And obviously it's nothing like losing a parent, but like 0:16:41.720 --> 0:16:45.840 I was like, I understand how she's reacting this way. 0:16:45.880 --> 0:16:49.280 I get it because it's it's a wild thing, the 0:16:49.320 --> 0:16:50.280 grieving process. 0:16:50.680 --> 0:16:54.080 It is wild, and I don't think I don't think 0:16:54.120 --> 0:16:57.280 it matters whether it's a grandparent, you're a friend. Like 0:16:57.320 --> 0:17:00.920 we all have such personal relationships with certain people, right, 0:17:01.480 --> 0:17:05.919 and we're all affected differently by the grieving process. I 0:17:06.119 --> 0:17:09.240 noticed that during that time, which I shouldn't have I 0:17:09.240 --> 0:17:11.160 shouldn't have gone back. I had lost my dad three 0:17:11.200 --> 0:17:15.040 weeks before cameras picked up, you know, yeah, and it 0:17:15.119 --> 0:17:18.960 was just, I mean, earth shattering, and I was in 0:17:19.000 --> 0:17:22.600 the stage of just being so fucking mad and just 0:17:22.840 --> 0:17:27.600 angry at life. And that was an intense season. And 0:17:28.480 --> 0:17:30.680 I mean, I think my hair matched how I was 0:17:30.720 --> 0:17:35.199 feeling like I was jet black. I was trying not 0:17:35.280 --> 0:17:37.800 to drink because I didn't want to be chaotic. Turns 0:17:37.840 --> 0:17:40.280 out I was chaotic even without drinking. And then there 0:17:40.280 --> 0:17:42.040 were times where I'm like, I'm just gonna like slip 0:17:42.080 --> 0:17:47.320 some champagne, maybe a whole bottle or two, and it 0:17:47.359 --> 0:17:52.199 was intense. Yeah, So I'm I'm actually shocked that that 0:17:52.359 --> 0:17:54.520 was the turning point for you, because actually I think 0:17:54.520 --> 0:17:57.120 that's the season where I actually lost a few people too. 0:17:57.280 --> 0:18:00.159 Well, I know, and I feel like I'm actually on 0:18:00.240 --> 0:18:05.800 the side of things where and I honestly completely was 0:18:05.880 --> 0:18:08.680 behind you in your last season of Vanderpump And I 0:18:08.720 --> 0:18:11.560 hear that that was you talk about. 0:18:11.280 --> 0:18:13.440 That I like you, I like you. 0:18:13.840 --> 0:18:17.240 I was like, I was like, I love this, Yeah 0:18:17.320 --> 0:18:17.640 I don't. 0:18:17.800 --> 0:18:21.080 I was like, I'm all for asking all the things 0:18:21.080 --> 0:18:23.480 and saying all the things that to me, I was like, 0:18:23.520 --> 0:18:25.679 I want to know, I want to hear these are 0:18:25.680 --> 0:18:27.199 the things I want to see you. 0:18:28.880 --> 0:18:31.919 I dig you, And it's not just because of what 0:18:31.960 --> 0:18:34.439 you're saying to me. It's just it's just such a 0:18:34.440 --> 0:18:37.560 different perspective. Like I usually get people on here and 0:18:37.600 --> 0:18:40.000 they say the same fucking things like you lost me 0:18:40.080 --> 0:18:42.040 at this point in time, and I'm like, okay, yes, 0:18:42.640 --> 0:18:46.520 the same as everyone else. This is like refreshing. I 0:18:46.560 --> 0:18:47.000 dig this. 0:18:47.359 --> 0:18:49.800 And I think as a as a viewer, as a 0:18:49.920 --> 0:18:55.720 someone like I love Brava watch all the shows. I 0:18:55.760 --> 0:18:58.960 have tried to really figure out the audience because sometimes 0:18:59.000 --> 0:19:01.560 I just don't fall in line with what everyone thinks. 0:19:02.200 --> 0:19:06.439 And I just I at that point I could relate 0:19:06.520 --> 0:19:09.040 to you in season seven and your grieving process. I 0:19:09.119 --> 0:19:11.480 was like, I know how she's feeling because I've gone 0:19:11.520 --> 0:19:14.080 through that, and yeah, there are times where you do 0:19:14.200 --> 0:19:17.080 things and you're just like you don't even know, You're 0:19:17.119 --> 0:19:19.760 just trying to go through life and just survive. Everything 0:19:19.880 --> 0:19:22.959 is exactly that is the word survive. And it really, 0:19:23.680 --> 0:19:27.280 it really was connected. It was like I could connect 0:19:27.280 --> 0:19:29.880 with your story at that time, and so it made 0:19:29.880 --> 0:19:32.359 me turn from your early seasons where I was like, 0:19:32.520 --> 0:19:35.840 I don't know, I just those things, the things she's saying, 0:19:35.960 --> 0:19:37.120 I just can't connect. 0:19:38.240 --> 0:19:41.760 I can't imagine why. I mean, I look, I can't 0:19:41.800 --> 0:19:45.080 even go back and watch even people who you know, 0:19:45.160 --> 0:19:47.359 maybe didn't like me at the time, and then you know, 0:19:48.000 --> 0:19:51.600 over time things become like iconic moments like Bambi eyed 0:19:51.680 --> 0:19:56.120 Bitch in the moment I was dragged to filth and 0:19:56.160 --> 0:20:00.000 then it became like an iconic line. But I can't 0:20:00.040 --> 0:20:02.280 even go back and watch because I don't even recognize 0:20:02.280 --> 0:20:05.760 that human. And every time I do an interview where 0:20:05.800 --> 0:20:10.320 someone asks me your number one regret, it is when 0:20:10.359 --> 0:20:12.479 I did the Summer Bodies thing, because I'm like, that 0:20:12.640 --> 0:20:18.040 is just so foul And I was not raised that way. 0:20:18.320 --> 0:20:20.199 But I'm telling you, when I get backed into a 0:20:20.240 --> 0:20:23.439 corner and there's alcohol in my system, I am not 0:20:23.600 --> 0:20:25.480 a nice person, you know. 0:20:26.119 --> 0:20:28.840 Yeah, And I definitely like getting to know, Like I've 0:20:28.880 --> 0:20:31.800 always listened to the podcast, so like hearing you speak 0:20:31.840 --> 0:20:35.119 and talk about your experiences and stuff, I know that 0:20:35.119 --> 0:20:39.520 that's not who what you believe in, like you're that's 0:20:39.520 --> 0:20:42.080 not the person that you are. But it came off 0:20:42.119 --> 0:20:44.840 and yeah, a lot of other things coming into a 0:20:44.880 --> 0:20:47.240 little boiling point. 0:20:47.960 --> 0:20:50.720 Yeah, And I remember telling my mom that I said that, 0:20:50.800 --> 0:20:55.520 and she she was like very disappointed, and I said, 0:20:55.600 --> 0:20:57.320 you know, they're not nice to me, and she was like, 0:20:57.359 --> 0:21:01.320 you can't. Again, I was raised in this way. If 0:21:01.359 --> 0:21:05.040 you can't control anybody else, you can only control yourself. 0:21:05.400 --> 0:21:07.879 So when someone says something to you or does something 0:21:07.920 --> 0:21:10.159 to you and you feed into it and react, it 0:21:10.240 --> 0:21:13.640 is now your issue. This is now your fault because 0:21:13.720 --> 0:21:16.200 you can't allow people to get you to that place 0:21:16.359 --> 0:21:17.879 like you're a grown woman. 0:21:18.520 --> 0:21:18.760 Right. 0:21:19.160 --> 0:21:19.440 Yeah. 0:21:19.480 --> 0:21:22.240 So even though I may have been treated in a 0:21:22.280 --> 0:21:24.800 certain way, I could have I could have handled things 0:21:24.840 --> 0:21:28.080 a lot differently, but I didn't. And that's why you know, 0:21:28.320 --> 0:21:31.399 they had had me back on is I was a 0:21:31.720 --> 0:21:32.560 loose cannon. 0:21:32.760 --> 0:21:35.800 I was gonna say it made for entertaining. 0:21:36.000 --> 0:21:39.120 I know some things that are entertaining, you know, kind of, 0:21:39.160 --> 0:21:42.280