1 00:00:00,440 --> 00:00:03,120 Speaker 1: I met the peak of my career and boom it happened. 2 00:00:03,320 --> 00:00:05,320 Speaker 1: It was a miscarriage. I love my baby mom. I 3 00:00:05,360 --> 00:00:07,680 Speaker 1: lost my day one. My left hand to the fis 4 00:00:08,520 --> 00:00:11,840 Speaker 1: my right hand to the streets. It's my back to back. 5 00:00:12,200 --> 00:00:19,959 Speaker 2: Andie Martinez in Real Life podcast money Bag. Yo, everybody, Hey, 6 00:00:20,880 --> 00:00:24,520 Speaker 2: back outside, Let's go back outside. What's up? 7 00:00:24,560 --> 00:00:24,759 Speaker 1: Love? 8 00:00:24,800 --> 00:00:25,239 Speaker 2: How you live? 9 00:00:25,480 --> 00:00:27,200 Speaker 1: I'm good? I feel good good. 10 00:00:27,560 --> 00:00:31,240 Speaker 2: It's been how long has been since you put music? 11 00:00:31,320 --> 00:00:31,400 Speaker 1: Like? 12 00:00:31,400 --> 00:00:33,240 Speaker 2: Two years? A little over two years. 13 00:00:33,080 --> 00:00:36,800 Speaker 1: Look a little over two years, a little over two years. 14 00:00:37,040 --> 00:00:39,080 Speaker 1: I'm ready to. I'm ready to. I'm ready to get 15 00:00:39,080 --> 00:00:40,800 Speaker 1: back in the mold. You know, I was just I 16 00:00:40,880 --> 00:00:42,880 Speaker 1: was dealing with a lot of personal problems and going 17 00:00:42,880 --> 00:00:46,040 Speaker 1: through stuff. So it affected my whole process, you know 18 00:00:46,080 --> 00:00:46,440 Speaker 1: what I mean. 19 00:00:47,000 --> 00:00:48,639 Speaker 2: Yeah, it's hard when you, like, when you have real 20 00:00:48,680 --> 00:00:52,080 Speaker 2: life going on and then you have lots of people 21 00:00:52,080 --> 00:00:52,839 Speaker 2: that depend on. 22 00:00:52,800 --> 00:00:54,760 Speaker 1: You exactly, exactly. 23 00:00:54,520 --> 00:00:55,320 Speaker 2: Get back to work. 24 00:00:55,640 --> 00:00:55,880 Speaker 1: Yep. 25 00:00:56,120 --> 00:00:58,200 Speaker 2: So before we talk about what the past two years 26 00:00:58,200 --> 00:00:59,960 Speaker 2: been like, we should just because I'm not going to 27 00:01:00,080 --> 00:01:02,760 Speaker 2: assume that everybody knows your story and your history or whatever, 28 00:01:02,800 --> 00:01:05,000 Speaker 2: but maybe just take us to like. 29 00:01:05,280 --> 00:01:07,400 Speaker 1: Walking homes, take you yourself, Yeah. 30 00:01:07,440 --> 00:01:09,800 Speaker 2: Tell me that I had never been to Memphis. 31 00:01:09,840 --> 00:01:12,000 Speaker 1: So tell me, I got a restaurant in Memphis. Now, 32 00:01:12,000 --> 00:01:13,959 Speaker 1: So now you got a reason I heard that is 33 00:01:14,000 --> 00:01:17,920 Speaker 1: the reason enough exactly. So I come from South Memphis, 34 00:01:17,959 --> 00:01:20,839 Speaker 1: walking homes. Of course, the table girl were hard, trying 35 00:01:20,840 --> 00:01:23,440 Speaker 1: to make it out up and down. We ain't have 36 00:01:23,600 --> 00:01:27,200 Speaker 1: too much. I mean I did the normal stuff with 37 00:01:27,280 --> 00:01:28,000 Speaker 1: everybody else, do. 38 00:01:28,600 --> 00:01:30,400 Speaker 2: You know, you know, trying to get out, trying to 39 00:01:30,440 --> 00:01:31,000 Speaker 2: get trying. 40 00:01:30,840 --> 00:01:33,319 Speaker 1: To get out, trying to get money. And I mean, 41 00:01:33,440 --> 00:01:36,360 Speaker 1: I just I had develop the passion for music, like 42 00:01:36,480 --> 00:01:39,520 Speaker 1: being around a group of dudes I was I used 43 00:01:39,560 --> 00:01:41,640 Speaker 1: to hang with and I used to see them like 44 00:01:41,959 --> 00:01:43,800 Speaker 1: do it and they was getting money off. I'm like, 45 00:01:44,560 --> 00:01:47,880 Speaker 1: when I seen them get two thousand and fifteen twenty 46 00:01:47,960 --> 00:01:49,840 Speaker 1: twenty five hundred for show, I'm like, I can do 47 00:01:49,880 --> 00:01:52,919 Speaker 1: this too, and it's legal, Like this, Lea, they legally give. 48 00:01:52,800 --> 00:01:54,080 Speaker 2: You this penitential chance. 49 00:01:54,680 --> 00:01:57,680 Speaker 1: Yeah, you can take me penitentional chances. So I just 50 00:01:58,120 --> 00:02:01,080 Speaker 1: I got into it and it's started thirty started from 51 00:02:01,120 --> 00:02:04,120 Speaker 1: five hundred my first show, and it's just got to growing, 52 00:02:04,240 --> 00:02:07,080 Speaker 1: jump in twenty five hundred and fifteen thousand, like it's 53 00:02:07,360 --> 00:02:08,040 Speaker 1: got crazy. 54 00:02:08,280 --> 00:02:09,240 Speaker 2: So you made a good choice. 55 00:02:09,280 --> 00:02:11,680 Speaker 1: Yeah, made a great choice. And that's how I figured 56 00:02:11,680 --> 00:02:12,320 Speaker 1: out it was for me. 57 00:02:12,680 --> 00:02:14,880 Speaker 2: But tell me about that that place in Memphis, because 58 00:02:16,840 --> 00:02:18,280 Speaker 2: I've never been there. I don't know what it looks like. 59 00:02:18,320 --> 00:02:19,600 Speaker 2: I don't know what it feels like. I don't know, 60 00:02:20,120 --> 00:02:21,000 Speaker 2: like where you grew up. 61 00:02:21,080 --> 00:02:25,000 Speaker 1: It's a neighborhood, of course, treachers trenches for show. Like, 62 00:02:25,040 --> 00:02:26,920 Speaker 1: you might get robbed in the day. You might come 63 00:02:26,960 --> 00:02:28,680 Speaker 1: out of the house. You might. You gotta worry about 64 00:02:28,680 --> 00:02:30,560 Speaker 1: somebody close to your snake and you're sitting you up. 65 00:02:30,720 --> 00:02:32,480 Speaker 1: You're getting this type of money. You can't let this 66 00:02:32,560 --> 00:02:34,880 Speaker 1: person see too much. You know what I'm saying. That 67 00:02:35,040 --> 00:02:37,720 Speaker 1: might they might caut you know what I'm saying. You got, 68 00:02:38,800 --> 00:02:41,560 Speaker 1: you got, I'm gonna just get dirty or get wrong 69 00:02:41,639 --> 00:02:44,040 Speaker 1: with it. Or you might. You might have a baby 70 00:02:44,040 --> 00:02:46,679 Speaker 1: with this girl. She got a baby with somebody, you 71 00:02:46,760 --> 00:02:48,680 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. A dude over her, two streets 72 00:02:48,720 --> 00:02:51,160 Speaker 1: over her from you. Yeah, it's like that. 73 00:02:51,480 --> 00:02:53,120 Speaker 2: Everybody knows everybody. It's like small. 74 00:02:53,480 --> 00:02:55,280 Speaker 1: Everybody is small as right there, Like. 75 00:02:55,480 --> 00:02:56,639 Speaker 2: And where are your parents? 76 00:02:57,160 --> 00:02:59,440 Speaker 1: You know? My mama was in walking home. It was 77 00:02:59,440 --> 00:03:02,359 Speaker 1: in walking home. I ran away a lot, you know, 78 00:03:02,360 --> 00:03:03,440 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I ran away? 79 00:03:04,280 --> 00:03:04,880 Speaker 2: Where'd you go? 80 00:03:05,160 --> 00:03:07,360 Speaker 1: I ran away because I wanted to be I feel 81 00:03:07,360 --> 00:03:11,760 Speaker 1: like being around like my mama she was having me too. 82 00:03:11,840 --> 00:03:13,200 Speaker 1: It was too girly fat. 83 00:03:13,080 --> 00:03:14,679 Speaker 2: Over there's too it was single mom. 84 00:03:15,040 --> 00:03:18,200 Speaker 1: Yeah, so it was too many girls, too many girls 85 00:03:18,200 --> 00:03:21,840 Speaker 1: in the house and stuff. Yeah, I got two sisters 86 00:03:21,880 --> 00:03:24,760 Speaker 1: and on my mama's side, but it was like it 87 00:03:24,840 --> 00:03:28,600 Speaker 1: was too too girl and my aunties and just different people. 88 00:03:28,600 --> 00:03:30,920 Speaker 1: It's just was too much going on. So my daddy 89 00:03:30,919 --> 00:03:32,880 Speaker 1: he was really in the streets with it. So I 90 00:03:33,000 --> 00:03:34,800 Speaker 1: just used to always run away, go over there with 91 00:03:34,880 --> 00:03:38,480 Speaker 1: his mama, like and my uncles and and just that's 92 00:03:38,520 --> 00:03:40,880 Speaker 1: how I got just influenced and jumped off the porch 93 00:03:41,000 --> 00:03:41,400 Speaker 1: Like and. 94 00:03:41,480 --> 00:03:43,520 Speaker 2: What was your father's any about all that? What was 95 00:03:43,560 --> 00:03:44,119 Speaker 2: he doing around? 96 00:03:44,240 --> 00:03:47,320 Speaker 1: It was pimping like he was you know Memphis, no 97 00:03:47,520 --> 00:03:51,200 Speaker 1: the uh so he was pimping and he was telling, 98 00:03:51,280 --> 00:03:53,200 Speaker 1: you know, just in the streets to taking penitential. 99 00:03:53,560 --> 00:03:55,640 Speaker 2: But what does that do to a young like you 100 00:03:55,680 --> 00:03:56,520 Speaker 2: as a young boy? 101 00:03:57,200 --> 00:03:59,760 Speaker 1: All it's the way to go. Like like when you 102 00:03:59,840 --> 00:04:00,200 Speaker 1: say it. 103 00:04:00,320 --> 00:04:02,680 Speaker 2: Like at what age? What age were talking about? 104 00:04:02,760 --> 00:04:06,480 Speaker 1: We're talking about fifteen? We were talking about fourteen, fifteen sixteen. 105 00:04:06,560 --> 00:04:08,640 Speaker 1: Your mind like a sponge at this point. It's like 106 00:04:09,280 --> 00:04:11,440 Speaker 1: your man is the sponge you seeing? Is you absorbing? 107 00:04:11,480 --> 00:04:13,360 Speaker 1: Like this is what I supposed to be doing? Or 108 00:04:13,400 --> 00:04:15,040 Speaker 1: this like this is the way to go my dad 109 00:04:15,120 --> 00:04:16,919 Speaker 1: are doing to get money? Shit, I can do it. 110 00:04:16,920 --> 00:04:18,440 Speaker 1: I might can even do it better. I might can 111 00:04:18,480 --> 00:04:20,800 Speaker 1: really be successful it, you know what I'm saying. So 112 00:04:21,040 --> 00:04:22,080 Speaker 1: that's how I was looking at. 113 00:04:22,080 --> 00:04:24,560 Speaker 2: Did he have any saying that or anything? 114 00:04:25,279 --> 00:04:28,080 Speaker 1: I think like, for a minute, he enjoyed it, like 115 00:04:28,080 --> 00:04:29,000 Speaker 1: like he made him proud. 116 00:04:29,880 --> 00:04:31,760 Speaker 2: You know how dysfunctional and why that is. 117 00:04:32,120 --> 00:04:34,080 Speaker 1: Yeah, sure, but it's just like a product where we 118 00:04:34,240 --> 00:04:34,680 Speaker 1: come from. 119 00:04:35,200 --> 00:04:37,760 Speaker 2: I think he's like, that's my baby exactly. 120 00:04:37,839 --> 00:04:39,800 Speaker 1: Like he kind of enjoyed it, you know what I'm sing. 121 00:04:39,800 --> 00:04:42,240 Speaker 1: But he did tell me a lot of like real 122 00:04:42,279 --> 00:04:44,360 Speaker 1: stuff and a lot of right ways. 123 00:04:44,080 --> 00:04:46,160 Speaker 2: To go to the So you did have both your 124 00:04:46,200 --> 00:04:47,000 Speaker 2: parents in your life? 125 00:04:47,080 --> 00:04:48,960 Speaker 1: No, Like I ain't really had him in my life 126 00:04:49,000 --> 00:04:52,279 Speaker 1: like that, But the times I did spend with him, 127 00:04:52,480 --> 00:04:54,320 Speaker 1: he put me down and I learned from it. I 128 00:04:54,360 --> 00:04:57,160 Speaker 1: looked out, observed, I watched stuff. You know, I'm something 129 00:04:57,240 --> 00:05:01,080 Speaker 1: very very observer, and I just paid attention and picked 130 00:05:01,160 --> 00:05:04,040 Speaker 1: up off of So that's why I still like got 131 00:05:04,080 --> 00:05:04,800 Speaker 1: them memories in. 132 00:05:04,760 --> 00:05:07,320 Speaker 2: My head now, Like isn't that crazy now that you're 133 00:05:07,360 --> 00:05:07,760 Speaker 2: a father? 134 00:05:08,120 --> 00:05:08,799 Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm my father. 135 00:05:08,960 --> 00:05:13,200 Speaker 2: So when you think about your child being fifteen years old? 136 00:05:13,360 --> 00:05:15,960 Speaker 1: It scared me? What do you mean it scared me 137 00:05:16,000 --> 00:05:18,600 Speaker 1: because I know how it was and I know what 138 00:05:18,640 --> 00:05:20,599 Speaker 1: I saw, Like I know what I saw others like 139 00:05:20,640 --> 00:05:23,040 Speaker 1: I got daughters, like I got it's four and fourth. 140 00:05:23,080 --> 00:05:27,080 Speaker 1: So it's like I'm thinking, like four daughters, Like what 141 00:05:27,160 --> 00:05:29,840 Speaker 1: I saying, the worst the girls did in these four 142 00:05:29,880 --> 00:05:32,400 Speaker 1: different type of personalities, Like you know what I'm saying, 143 00:05:32,400 --> 00:05:34,880 Speaker 1: Like I can't do no pray, Like really, you know 144 00:05:34,920 --> 00:05:36,520 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, can't do no but pray because the 145 00:05:36,560 --> 00:05:39,240 Speaker 1: world we live in is so crazy and it's like 146 00:05:39,360 --> 00:05:41,479 Speaker 1: and you can't stretch over nowing you can't control. 147 00:05:41,600 --> 00:05:45,159 Speaker 2: It's like, yeah, but how do you how do you 148 00:05:45,279 --> 00:05:46,440 Speaker 2: know how you have eight kids? 149 00:05:46,480 --> 00:05:47,000 Speaker 1: Right? Yeah? 150 00:05:47,680 --> 00:05:51,120 Speaker 2: How do you know how to father eight kids when 151 00:05:51,160 --> 00:05:53,680 Speaker 2: your father wasn't really like. 152 00:05:54,279 --> 00:05:56,839 Speaker 1: There, I feel like the streets. I feel like the 153 00:05:56,839 --> 00:06:00,600 Speaker 1: streets because it just like me want better for myself 154 00:06:00,600 --> 00:06:02,719 Speaker 1: and me like if I ever had kids, I don't 155 00:06:02,720 --> 00:06:04,120 Speaker 1: want to feel I don't want them to feel that. 156 00:06:04,800 --> 00:06:07,039 Speaker 1: I don't want them to feel what I felt. You 157 00:06:07,040 --> 00:06:09,440 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, like just feeling left out when 158 00:06:09,440 --> 00:06:12,040 Speaker 1: you see other people with their dad or it is 159 00:06:12,120 --> 00:06:15,760 Speaker 1: the is the daddy and and like you know when 160 00:06:15,760 --> 00:06:17,920 Speaker 1: you invite your parents to the school and all them 161 00:06:17,960 --> 00:06:18,760 Speaker 1: type of activities. 162 00:06:18,720 --> 00:06:20,880 Speaker 2: Isn't that crazy? How it really that ship? Really like 163 00:06:20,960 --> 00:06:24,719 Speaker 2: the school things? Yeah, I remember that too, being a kid, 164 00:06:24,720 --> 00:06:25,280 Speaker 2: the same. 165 00:06:25,120 --> 00:06:27,039 Speaker 1: Thing, and it affected me. You know what I'm saying 166 00:06:27,040 --> 00:06:28,120 Speaker 1: affected me crazy? 167 00:06:28,200 --> 00:06:31,320 Speaker 2: Is that it's not your father selling drugs or pimping 168 00:06:31,400 --> 00:06:33,600 Speaker 2: or anything like that. That it was that he wasn't 169 00:06:33,600 --> 00:06:34,360 Speaker 2: at the school thing. 170 00:06:34,560 --> 00:06:38,480 Speaker 1: Yeah, like as the kids, that's crazy. 171 00:06:38,560 --> 00:06:40,120 Speaker 2: What sticks the most. 172 00:06:39,880 --> 00:06:42,560 Speaker 1: Like not telling me happy birthday, like you feel me 173 00:06:42,600 --> 00:06:44,920 Speaker 1: like like it be my birthday? He like, and this 174 00:06:44,960 --> 00:06:47,839 Speaker 1: one this one like I started, I created motion. I 175 00:06:47,880 --> 00:06:48,800 Speaker 1: had created motion. 176 00:06:49,320 --> 00:06:50,200 Speaker 2: What's that like? 177 00:06:50,320 --> 00:06:53,240 Speaker 1: Motion means like you got you got it going, like 178 00:06:54,040 --> 00:06:58,680 Speaker 1: moving a moving right now? You feel me? So in 179 00:06:58,720 --> 00:07:02,080 Speaker 1: the streets, yeah, just like we're like when my first year, 180 00:07:02,200 --> 00:07:04,400 Speaker 1: like when the city got on me, the trash states 181 00:07:04,440 --> 00:07:08,080 Speaker 1: and all them people in the chicken circuits. So he 182 00:07:08,200 --> 00:07:11,520 Speaker 1: reached out. He was like, yo, what's so and then 183 00:07:11,520 --> 00:07:14,480 Speaker 1: he go to asks for like, but it was my birthday? 184 00:07:14,680 --> 00:07:16,080 Speaker 2: Is that the first time he came around when you 185 00:07:16,120 --> 00:07:16,800 Speaker 2: started popping? 186 00:07:17,560 --> 00:07:19,440 Speaker 1: No, I want the first time he came around, Like 187 00:07:19,480 --> 00:07:21,960 Speaker 1: I had seen him a couple of times, been seeing 188 00:07:22,000 --> 00:07:23,240 Speaker 1: him off and on. You know what I'm saying, every 189 00:07:23,280 --> 00:07:26,280 Speaker 1: blue moon, stuff like that, and then boom, you know, 190 00:07:26,880 --> 00:07:28,480 Speaker 1: but it was just at that time it was my 191 00:07:28,680 --> 00:07:31,080 Speaker 1: I can't forget. You're going back to saying, like what 192 00:07:31,280 --> 00:07:33,880 Speaker 1: stuck to me? Like I couldn't forget moments like I 193 00:07:33,920 --> 00:07:36,360 Speaker 1: can't forget moments like that, And I don't never want 194 00:07:36,360 --> 00:07:38,200 Speaker 1: my kids to you know what I'm saying. So I 195 00:07:38,240 --> 00:07:40,840 Speaker 1: try to stay on point with all their birthday like 196 00:07:41,160 --> 00:07:44,920 Speaker 1: I started. I started out like like two or three. 197 00:07:44,960 --> 00:07:47,120 Speaker 1: I know about heart and I just had to learn 198 00:07:47,160 --> 00:07:48,800 Speaker 1: to like and put it, put it into my notes, 199 00:07:48,880 --> 00:07:50,640 Speaker 1: like because it's something I really cared about. So I 200 00:07:50,640 --> 00:07:54,400 Speaker 1: gotta take calendar. Yeah, I got my calendar, my notes. 201 00:07:54,560 --> 00:07:56,760 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Whatever it takes, whatever it takes, 202 00:07:56,800 --> 00:07:59,960 Speaker 1: the stay shop with make them happy. So yeah, try. 203 00:08:00,320 --> 00:08:02,040 Speaker 2: I have only two. I have one and the step 204 00:08:02,120 --> 00:08:04,640 Speaker 2: so I have two boys and it's hard to just 205 00:08:04,720 --> 00:08:07,480 Speaker 2: juggle at exactly. I can't even imagine eight, and then 206 00:08:07,480 --> 00:08:09,920 Speaker 2: you got eight with different co parenting and then. 207 00:08:09,840 --> 00:08:13,320 Speaker 1: You right, situation, Yeah it was five, it was five 208 00:08:13,400 --> 00:08:14,760 Speaker 1: baby mamas. Now it's four. 209 00:08:16,000 --> 00:08:19,160 Speaker 2: I'm sorry, you know what I'm saying. So, yeah, how's that? 210 00:08:20,080 --> 00:08:22,680 Speaker 1: Uh, it's a tough situation. Uh, you know, I got 211 00:08:23,080 --> 00:08:24,880 Speaker 1: I had three, three kids by her. 212 00:08:25,640 --> 00:08:26,880 Speaker 2: This is your first baby money. 213 00:08:26,720 --> 00:08:28,640 Speaker 1: Yeah, my first bab I got three kids by her. 214 00:08:29,120 --> 00:08:35,120 Speaker 1: I got and it's like, uh, I took, I got 215 00:08:35,280 --> 00:08:37,079 Speaker 1: full county to my kids. You know what I'm saying. 216 00:08:37,080 --> 00:08:39,040 Speaker 1: They stay in the house with me. I'm sure I'm 217 00:08:39,040 --> 00:08:42,000 Speaker 1: getting them adjusted to this lifestyle. It's different life, you 218 00:08:42,080 --> 00:08:44,160 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. And it's just like it's hard, 219 00:08:44,480 --> 00:08:48,480 Speaker 1: I really be. I see, like what type of sacrifices 220 00:08:48,559 --> 00:08:49,520 Speaker 1: you you gotta make? 221 00:08:49,679 --> 00:08:52,240 Speaker 2: Like it's definitely kind of sacrifices. 222 00:08:51,640 --> 00:08:54,040 Speaker 1: You gotta make. And it's like three know you're talking 223 00:08:54,080 --> 00:08:57,120 Speaker 1: about an artist like hordes me, like I'm at the 224 00:08:57,160 --> 00:08:59,240 Speaker 1: peak of my career and boom that happened. 225 00:09:00,120 --> 00:09:02,840 Speaker 2: So what happened you you were? Was this your first? 226 00:09:02,960 --> 00:09:05,319 Speaker 2: This is your first wetting together a long time? Like 227 00:09:05,480 --> 00:09:08,160 Speaker 2: was this like a like you you had three kids 228 00:09:08,200 --> 00:09:09,559 Speaker 2: that's a significant amount of time. 229 00:09:09,720 --> 00:09:12,280 Speaker 1: Yeah, but no they want they won't like it. You know, 230 00:09:12,360 --> 00:09:13,880 Speaker 1: I was in the streets with it, so you know 231 00:09:13,880 --> 00:09:15,040 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I was in the streets with it. 232 00:09:15,080 --> 00:09:18,240 Speaker 1: So it was in between other situations. You know, when 233 00:09:18,240 --> 00:09:20,880 Speaker 1: I called myself done, I ain't going you know what 234 00:09:20,920 --> 00:09:21,280 Speaker 1: I'm saying. 235 00:09:21,360 --> 00:09:23,240 Speaker 2: So but you kept going back? 236 00:09:23,360 --> 00:09:27,760 Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah, it was that type of it was 237 00:09:27,840 --> 00:09:28,320 Speaker 1: something good. 238 00:09:28,480 --> 00:09:30,559 Speaker 2: It was something good. Was there must have been some 239 00:09:30,679 --> 00:09:33,520 Speaker 2: love or something there was there for sure. Yeah. So 240 00:09:33,640 --> 00:09:34,680 Speaker 2: then how did you is it okay? 241 00:09:34,720 --> 00:09:38,959 Speaker 1: But the street, you know, she was in the streets. 242 00:09:39,040 --> 00:09:41,040 Speaker 1: Like I said, she come from walking homes too. Just 243 00:09:41,120 --> 00:09:44,040 Speaker 1: told you how treachers there was h she was murdered. 244 00:09:44,080 --> 00:09:45,959 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. She was killed. I'm so 245 00:09:46,080 --> 00:09:49,719 Speaker 1: sorry about somebody that she was with. And you know 246 00:09:50,880 --> 00:09:53,439 Speaker 1: it was shocking. I was in Atlanta and I was recorded. 247 00:09:53,480 --> 00:09:56,719 Speaker 1: I was working on the the taking on. They just 248 00:09:56,840 --> 00:10:00,360 Speaker 1: called me, like you know what she is saying, Uh, 249 00:10:01,120 --> 00:10:05,880 Speaker 1: she had a room, she dead, she left at the room. 250 00:10:06,320 --> 00:10:07,920 Speaker 1: I can get deep on. I ain't gonna get as 251 00:10:07,960 --> 00:10:11,360 Speaker 1: deep as I can. But that's like the picture right there, 252 00:10:11,400 --> 00:10:14,160 Speaker 1: you know, like this god aentually broke I couldn't believe. 253 00:10:14,280 --> 00:10:16,280 Speaker 1: Like first I was, I felt like I was more 254 00:10:16,400 --> 00:10:19,000 Speaker 1: mad at her than anything, Like I was more mad 255 00:10:19,080 --> 00:10:20,839 Speaker 1: at I was like how you lit it? Like you 256 00:10:20,920 --> 00:10:22,480 Speaker 1: feel me? Like how you let it happen? How you 257 00:10:22,640 --> 00:10:24,760 Speaker 1: let your kids? And it was so crazy because when 258 00:10:24,760 --> 00:10:26,920 Speaker 1: I when I talked to my daughter, she was just 259 00:10:27,000 --> 00:10:29,160 Speaker 1: telling me, like I told my mom we was at 260 00:10:29,200 --> 00:10:31,480 Speaker 1: the airport. I told my mama not to go. Well, 261 00:10:31,559 --> 00:10:34,880 Speaker 1: they was in the airport in Miami going back to Memphis. 262 00:10:35,400 --> 00:10:37,480 Speaker 1: You feel me? So she was just like I told 263 00:10:37,559 --> 00:10:39,679 Speaker 1: my mama, I didn't feel right. We didn't need to go. 264 00:10:39,920 --> 00:10:43,200 Speaker 2: And when when she when ipened in Memphis or in Miami, her. 265 00:10:43,160 --> 00:10:45,679 Speaker 1: Getting murdered, She that happened in Memphis, you know what 266 00:10:45,720 --> 00:10:49,000 Speaker 1: I'm saying. So my daughter like when I it was 267 00:10:49,120 --> 00:10:51,760 Speaker 1: crazy like because I had called my daughter, was like 268 00:10:51,800 --> 00:10:53,520 Speaker 1: where you are? I had already got the news like 269 00:10:53,600 --> 00:10:56,880 Speaker 1: this when I'm broke down, Like damn, I'm fine, I'm 270 00:10:56,880 --> 00:10:59,840 Speaker 1: finna like what I'm finna say? So I end up 271 00:11:00,760 --> 00:11:03,800 Speaker 1: let the steam off out, you know crab whatever Crabb 272 00:11:04,720 --> 00:11:09,160 Speaker 1: got on the phone. When crab, baby, you know when 273 00:11:09,200 --> 00:11:13,679 Speaker 1: you're in serious. I called my daughter and I was 274 00:11:13,760 --> 00:11:15,920 Speaker 1: just like what you're doing with y'all at like that. 275 00:11:16,360 --> 00:11:19,719 Speaker 1: And she was just like it happened. That's exactly what 276 00:11:19,880 --> 00:11:23,440 Speaker 1: she saidady, because her mama sposed to being with her 277 00:11:23,600 --> 00:11:26,080 Speaker 1: like that night, she sposed to came back and get 278 00:11:26,120 --> 00:11:28,440 Speaker 1: she ain't never come back, you know what I'm saying. 279 00:11:28,679 --> 00:11:33,000 Speaker 1: So she was like, it happened. No, it' you know 280 00:11:33,040 --> 00:11:33,480 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. 281 00:11:33,559 --> 00:11:34,360 Speaker 2: It's just thirteen. 282 00:11:34,800 --> 00:11:39,440 Speaker 1: Yeah, she's fourteen. Her birthday was in March, March nineteenth. 283 00:11:40,200 --> 00:11:41,800 Speaker 2: Well, this is just a year ago. This is still 284 00:11:41,880 --> 00:11:42,360 Speaker 2: kind of fresh. 285 00:11:42,559 --> 00:11:44,920 Speaker 1: And I was real fresh, like it's super fresh, and 286 00:11:45,800 --> 00:11:47,760 Speaker 1: I just didn't know how to jee like man, I 287 00:11:47,920 --> 00:11:49,840 Speaker 1: was like, my mama, finish, come get y'all. It's all 288 00:11:49,880 --> 00:11:51,800 Speaker 1: I can say. I was in the A. I'm like, man, 289 00:11:51,880 --> 00:11:53,200 Speaker 1: my mama finn to come get y'all. 290 00:11:53,760 --> 00:11:55,160 Speaker 2: And boom, are you in shock? 291 00:11:55,559 --> 00:11:57,679 Speaker 1: You have to be like almost deffinitely in shock. Like 292 00:11:57,800 --> 00:12:00,280 Speaker 1: it's it's hard to talk about right now, but I'm 293 00:12:00,320 --> 00:12:02,000 Speaker 1: strong with man, you know what I'm saying. I'm dealing 294 00:12:02,040 --> 00:12:03,640 Speaker 1: with it and I'm getting through it, you know. 295 00:12:04,640 --> 00:12:07,720 Speaker 2: And how how are your kids dealing with it? There's 296 00:12:07,760 --> 00:12:09,680 Speaker 2: three of her three children right. 297 00:12:10,280 --> 00:12:13,160 Speaker 1: Like my uh, my daughter, like the oldest one. You know, 298 00:12:13,320 --> 00:12:16,600 Speaker 1: she understand more. She understands more than the other ones. 299 00:12:16,679 --> 00:12:19,920 Speaker 1: So she taking it way harder. Like she walked up 300 00:12:19,960 --> 00:12:22,160 Speaker 1: to me like before I left, like, Dad, I just 301 00:12:22,240 --> 00:12:23,679 Speaker 1: want to talk to him, talking to her. She's like, 302 00:12:24,400 --> 00:12:26,599 Speaker 1: I don't want to do therapy. I need therapy. Like 303 00:12:26,679 --> 00:12:29,240 Speaker 1: she she a world enough to say that, like, you know, 304 00:12:29,960 --> 00:12:32,000 Speaker 1: like I want to do therapy. I want to get 305 00:12:32,000 --> 00:12:34,480 Speaker 1: I just be so sad and I'm just always in 306 00:12:34,520 --> 00:12:36,480 Speaker 1: the room because she always just in her room, Like 307 00:12:36,800 --> 00:12:39,319 Speaker 1: I have to make her do stuff. You feel me, 308 00:12:39,440 --> 00:12:41,280 Speaker 1: I have to make her just get up and get 309 00:12:41,320 --> 00:12:43,079 Speaker 1: about her day, like come on to mind, let's do this, 310 00:12:43,200 --> 00:12:44,959 Speaker 1: do this. You know what it took him in but 311 00:12:45,040 --> 00:12:47,280 Speaker 1: now she's she she opening up, she's doing it. 312 00:12:47,800 --> 00:12:49,880 Speaker 2: Thank god you have a relationship where she can say 313 00:12:49,960 --> 00:12:50,280 Speaker 2: that to you. 314 00:12:50,520 --> 00:12:52,920 Speaker 1: Noah, for sure, you know. And I just always you know, 315 00:12:53,120 --> 00:12:55,079 Speaker 1: just try to keep her just Daddy, love you this 316 00:12:55,200 --> 00:12:57,920 Speaker 1: and then it just always texted just in carriage and stuff. 317 00:12:58,120 --> 00:13:01,199 Speaker 1: You know, that's tough, tough. It's a tough situation. 318 00:13:01,400 --> 00:13:03,760 Speaker 2: The three kids are you have full custody now, right? 319 00:13:04,000 --> 00:13:06,160 Speaker 2: They love what you Yeah, they didn't before. It was 320 00:13:06,200 --> 00:13:07,480 Speaker 2: just like joint and yeah, you. 321 00:13:07,520 --> 00:13:09,760 Speaker 1: Know how when you have a baby, you know, and 322 00:13:09,960 --> 00:13:11,920 Speaker 1: we ain't taking she ain't never take me to court. 323 00:13:12,200 --> 00:13:14,880 Speaker 1: She actually like was like one of my baby mamas. 324 00:13:15,200 --> 00:13:18,920 Speaker 1: Never gave me problems, Like she never gave me problems, 325 00:13:19,000 --> 00:13:21,800 Speaker 1: like and when she and we did, it was probably 326 00:13:21,840 --> 00:13:24,400 Speaker 1: my fault. You see what I'm saying. 327 00:13:24,480 --> 00:13:25,640 Speaker 2: Do you have any regrets about that? 328 00:13:25,800 --> 00:13:28,160 Speaker 1: Maybe yeah, I stay up, Like, man, I wish I 329 00:13:28,200 --> 00:13:30,440 Speaker 1: would have. I wish I would have picked up the phone. 330 00:13:30,480 --> 00:13:33,600 Speaker 1: She called me before it happened, Like I'm like, man, 331 00:13:33,600 --> 00:13:35,199 Speaker 1: I wish I would have picked up the phone. You know, 332 00:13:35,480 --> 00:13:37,400 Speaker 1: maybe I could have said someone made her not go 333 00:13:37,559 --> 00:13:40,079 Speaker 1: get on the plane, like I was thinking like that, 334 00:13:40,760 --> 00:13:42,959 Speaker 1: to not go back home, like my daughter was telling me. 335 00:13:43,040 --> 00:13:45,000 Speaker 1: She was rushing to me. It was like they had 336 00:13:45,120 --> 00:13:48,480 Speaker 1: missed two three flights. She she ain't want to turn around, 337 00:13:48,600 --> 00:13:51,079 Speaker 1: go back to the house or none in Miami that 338 00:13:51,200 --> 00:13:53,439 Speaker 1: I got for him, and she just was like, no, 339 00:13:53,640 --> 00:13:54,439 Speaker 1: I'm going, We're going. 340 00:13:54,520 --> 00:13:54,880 Speaker 2: You going. 341 00:13:55,000 --> 00:13:56,240 Speaker 1: She was like, I just want to go back. Let 342 00:13:56,280 --> 00:13:58,160 Speaker 1: me go back with my daddy. This is my daughter 343 00:13:58,280 --> 00:14:00,679 Speaker 1: telling her. But she like, no, you ain't going, but 344 00:14:00,720 --> 00:14:02,880 Speaker 1: you're coming with me. You're coming with me, coming right back. 345 00:14:02,960 --> 00:14:05,400 Speaker 1: But she was going to like get all this stuff 346 00:14:05,480 --> 00:14:08,600 Speaker 1: to transfer them to the schools out there. So even 347 00:14:08,640 --> 00:14:10,959 Speaker 1: in the hotel they found the stack of papers, all 348 00:14:11,040 --> 00:14:11,680 Speaker 1: the papers. 349 00:14:12,200 --> 00:14:14,199 Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying, trying to change your life. 350 00:14:14,080 --> 00:14:17,160 Speaker 1: Here, she told me. She like she like like even 351 00:14:17,160 --> 00:14:18,920 Speaker 1: when I was having like little dreams and you know, 352 00:14:19,040 --> 00:14:21,200 Speaker 1: like when you you feel like they come to you 353 00:14:21,320 --> 00:14:22,840 Speaker 1: and your sleep and stuff like that, she was just 354 00:14:22,880 --> 00:14:25,480 Speaker 1: telling me it was my last time, like my last 355 00:14:25,560 --> 00:14:27,280 Speaker 1: time it was gonna be. It was just one more 356 00:14:27,360 --> 00:14:29,400 Speaker 1: time ipposed to came back, like you know what I'm saying. 357 00:14:29,440 --> 00:14:35,320 Speaker 2: So that's tough. Your kids probably do the therapy right 358 00:14:35,360 --> 00:14:35,760 Speaker 2: at something. 359 00:14:37,040 --> 00:14:38,600 Speaker 1: Show My MoMA even be telling me too. 360 00:14:40,320 --> 00:14:42,200 Speaker 2: The man she was about to so you brought to 361 00:14:42,240 --> 00:14:45,400 Speaker 2: my house they were supposed to move to MAAMMI Yeah, yeah, God, 362 00:14:45,480 --> 00:14:46,600 Speaker 2: bless how are you doing. 363 00:14:47,880 --> 00:14:51,880 Speaker 1: I mean, it's a tough situation. I'm just staying strong. 364 00:14:52,320 --> 00:14:54,680 Speaker 1: I'm just I'm just happy to have like a great 365 00:14:54,760 --> 00:14:58,040 Speaker 1: support system, the support system that I got, and just 366 00:14:58,200 --> 00:15:01,920 Speaker 1: keep me motivated like a girl. My mama. You know 367 00:15:01,920 --> 00:15:04,360 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. Just friends, you know what I'm saying, 368 00:15:04,400 --> 00:15:05,280 Speaker 1: Friends of the family. 369 00:15:05,560 --> 00:15:10,000 Speaker 2: Yeah, because trauma like that and sometimes that people can't 370 00:15:10,000 --> 00:15:10,600 Speaker 2: get up from that. 371 00:15:11,400 --> 00:15:13,800 Speaker 1: It's still it's super hard like, but I just like 372 00:15:14,040 --> 00:15:16,080 Speaker 1: what I say. I'm in the strong phase. It's why 373 00:15:16,120 --> 00:15:17,480 Speaker 1: I feel like I want to come back. And I'm 374 00:15:17,560 --> 00:15:20,240 Speaker 1: talking though, like i'm speaking. At first, I couldn't talk. 375 00:15:20,320 --> 00:15:23,000 Speaker 1: I couldn't even I couldn't do this right now. I couldn't, 376 00:15:23,000 --> 00:15:25,280 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Yes, couldn't even get worried. 377 00:15:25,320 --> 00:15:27,000 Speaker 2: I can't believe you doing it now. And be honest 378 00:15:27,040 --> 00:15:27,800 Speaker 2: with you, you. 379 00:15:27,880 --> 00:15:29,480 Speaker 1: Probably can hear them. You probably don't know if you 380 00:15:29,480 --> 00:15:31,200 Speaker 1: can hear them. My voice a little bit, it's trembling 381 00:15:31,280 --> 00:15:32,520 Speaker 1: a little bit, but I feel like I. 382 00:15:32,520 --> 00:15:34,320 Speaker 2: Can tremble for you, like you know what I'm saying. 383 00:15:34,400 --> 00:15:36,600 Speaker 1: Not it is the year is not. 384 00:15:38,080 --> 00:15:39,960 Speaker 2: It's still, you know what I mean, not that long, 385 00:15:40,000 --> 00:15:41,520 Speaker 2: and not only you dealing with your own trauma, but 386 00:15:41,600 --> 00:15:44,160 Speaker 2: you're dealing with your kids trauma and trying to save 387 00:15:44,240 --> 00:15:46,080 Speaker 2: them and protect them because the other two are how. 388 00:15:46,080 --> 00:15:48,320 Speaker 1: Old eleven and nine eleven? 389 00:15:48,360 --> 00:15:50,120 Speaker 2: And now, oh so they old enough that they had 390 00:15:50,200 --> 00:15:51,080 Speaker 2: relationship with her? 391 00:15:51,240 --> 00:15:51,840 Speaker 1: Yeah, for sure. 392 00:15:52,720 --> 00:15:55,000 Speaker 2: And if you don't want to talk about this, it's okay. 393 00:15:55,040 --> 00:15:57,240 Speaker 2: But I know, people probably would wonder. It's like has 394 00:15:57,280 --> 00:16:03,400 Speaker 2: there been any arrest or any its just it was 395 00:16:03,480 --> 00:16:04,360 Speaker 2: just just like. 396 00:16:04,440 --> 00:16:07,800 Speaker 1: This crazy like before Mother's Day, before month's day, on 397 00:16:08,040 --> 00:16:11,040 Speaker 1: actual murder. Yeah, yeah, my mama, I mean her mama 398 00:16:11,120 --> 00:16:13,320 Speaker 1: called me and told me that they had got them 399 00:16:13,360 --> 00:16:15,760 Speaker 1: or something like that. I don't really know the full detail. 400 00:16:15,800 --> 00:16:17,920 Speaker 1: Don't even know them, like they don't know nothing about it, 401 00:16:18,080 --> 00:16:20,080 Speaker 1: like they never try to know them or none of them, 402 00:16:20,160 --> 00:16:23,240 Speaker 1: just going off what they say, what they will help mamas, 403 00:16:23,720 --> 00:16:24,400 Speaker 1: what I was told. 404 00:16:25,000 --> 00:16:26,600 Speaker 2: I know you said you have a good support system, 405 00:16:26,680 --> 00:16:29,560 Speaker 2: but like grief and like trauma and all of that stuff, 406 00:16:29,640 --> 00:16:31,640 Speaker 2: like how do is it music? Like how are you 407 00:16:31,880 --> 00:16:35,600 Speaker 2: like I mean pulling yourself back up because you're saying 408 00:16:35,640 --> 00:16:37,240 Speaker 2: now you're starting to know, like you said, like. 409 00:16:37,240 --> 00:16:39,440 Speaker 1: You gotta let it out, you gotta cry, crowd in 410 00:16:39,520 --> 00:16:42,200 Speaker 1: the shower, like crowd in shower, like you know, let 411 00:16:42,240 --> 00:16:44,000 Speaker 1: it out, let the sting. I feel good about it. 412 00:16:44,040 --> 00:16:47,600 Speaker 1: After they record songs, try to stay busy as possible, 413 00:16:48,200 --> 00:16:51,120 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, and really just stay focusing. 414 00:16:51,560 --> 00:16:53,840 Speaker 1: But just looking at my kids just like it's hard. 415 00:16:53,880 --> 00:16:55,840 Speaker 1: They would make it harder, like looking at my kids 416 00:16:56,600 --> 00:16:58,640 Speaker 1: looking at my kids make it way worse. 417 00:16:58,640 --> 00:17:01,520 Speaker 2: Like of course, because now you got to be a 418 00:17:01,600 --> 00:17:04,600 Speaker 2: father on top of that, and you gotta save them 419 00:17:04,640 --> 00:17:07,000 Speaker 2: and protect them and do all that stuff. How are 420 00:17:07,040 --> 00:17:10,479 Speaker 2: you doing that? Like how are you parenting? How are 421 00:17:10,480 --> 00:17:14,040 Speaker 2: you being in that? Like how are you managing that? 422 00:17:14,920 --> 00:17:17,719 Speaker 1: I don't know. I can't even explain it for real. 423 00:17:17,800 --> 00:17:20,040 Speaker 1: I just I'm just doing it like I'm real deal, 424 00:17:20,200 --> 00:17:22,639 Speaker 1: just going with the going with the flow. We all 425 00:17:22,760 --> 00:17:25,320 Speaker 1: trying to get better, We're all trying to heal. You 426 00:17:25,359 --> 00:17:29,080 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I take prayers seriously. I take 427 00:17:29,240 --> 00:17:31,760 Speaker 1: my religions seriously, and it's just like I just be 428 00:17:31,880 --> 00:17:34,360 Speaker 1: on my knees, like you know what, do you pray 429 00:17:34,440 --> 00:17:37,359 Speaker 1: for a lot of everything? Like everything that is like 430 00:17:37,720 --> 00:17:40,440 Speaker 1: and like I go back to like when I first 431 00:17:41,119 --> 00:17:43,800 Speaker 1: took my shahada and I got and I became Muslim. 432 00:17:44,080 --> 00:17:46,680 Speaker 1: I don't know if that's the reason, because who I 433 00:17:46,760 --> 00:17:49,960 Speaker 1: am now, me fast and me taking God as serious 434 00:17:50,000 --> 00:17:52,360 Speaker 1: as I did, That's when I took my career took off. 435 00:17:52,680 --> 00:17:54,320 Speaker 1: It's like when I ain't hell, I'm just living in 436 00:17:54,359 --> 00:17:56,440 Speaker 1: the world. I could never get over the hump, you 437 00:17:56,480 --> 00:17:58,320 Speaker 1: see what I'm saying. But It's like when I started 438 00:17:58,359 --> 00:18:02,200 Speaker 1: taking God serious, like like I started seeing everything like 439 00:18:02,560 --> 00:18:05,440 Speaker 1: really sorry, and it was like unexpected to it don't 440 00:18:05,480 --> 00:18:06,480 Speaker 1: be as soon as you pray for. 441 00:18:07,240 --> 00:18:09,439 Speaker 2: Did you not believe in God? Like early in your life, I. 442 00:18:09,400 --> 00:18:10,960 Speaker 1: Ain't did I ain't believe in God? You know, my 443 00:18:11,080 --> 00:18:14,239 Speaker 1: Mama raised me up to like on a Christian end, 444 00:18:14,359 --> 00:18:16,000 Speaker 1: like on that end you went. 445 00:18:15,920 --> 00:18:21,720 Speaker 2: To church and stuff or no sometimes on occasion sometimes, 446 00:18:21,800 --> 00:18:27,560 Speaker 2: But so when did you uh, when did you become assome? 447 00:18:27,720 --> 00:18:32,720 Speaker 1: But where was that? Uh? Twenty eight twenty eighteen, twenty nineteen. 448 00:18:32,520 --> 00:18:35,639 Speaker 2: And then your career has taken off twenty twenty like. 449 00:18:35,680 --> 00:18:37,359 Speaker 1: Do what I said? Like it ain't gonna happen as 450 00:18:37,400 --> 00:18:41,120 Speaker 1: soon as you twenty excreuse me twenty nineteen. I feel 451 00:18:41,200 --> 00:18:43,919 Speaker 1: like none will work, like damn what I ain't doing right? 452 00:18:44,040 --> 00:18:46,720 Speaker 1: Like I ain't doing That's just it's like God really 453 00:18:46,880 --> 00:18:49,800 Speaker 1: test your patience, like it really test your patience. You 454 00:18:49,880 --> 00:18:52,040 Speaker 1: gotta have a patients like this is the key. And 455 00:18:52,160 --> 00:18:54,920 Speaker 1: once I locked on it, I found out about that. 456 00:18:55,000 --> 00:18:57,680 Speaker 1: It's like none can't stop me. Now I don't rush 457 00:18:57,800 --> 00:19:00,680 Speaker 1: nothing like I don't rush nothing no more time do it? 458 00:19:01,440 --> 00:19:03,360 Speaker 2: God, bless your kids, man, how are the other kids. 459 00:19:03,400 --> 00:19:05,640 Speaker 2: Don't they all together? You only have three in the house. 460 00:19:05,800 --> 00:19:07,920 Speaker 1: No, I got three that actually stay with me this 461 00:19:08,080 --> 00:19:10,080 Speaker 1: in the house. But you know my other kids. I'm 462 00:19:10,160 --> 00:19:12,439 Speaker 1: always having my kids. I'm always having when I get 463 00:19:12,480 --> 00:19:14,680 Speaker 1: back to the house, and I got free time, even 464 00:19:14,720 --> 00:19:16,439 Speaker 1: if really if I don't have free time, I let 465 00:19:16,520 --> 00:19:18,320 Speaker 1: them run around the house and I go in the studio. 466 00:19:18,520 --> 00:19:20,000 Speaker 2: Yeah, you know I heard. 467 00:19:20,160 --> 00:19:23,960 Speaker 1: I got the nanny and my sister, my mama daughter, 468 00:19:24,040 --> 00:19:24,680 Speaker 1: my other sister. 469 00:19:24,760 --> 00:19:26,800 Speaker 2: She she helped me because I heard you say one 470 00:19:26,880 --> 00:19:29,520 Speaker 2: time that you at the beginning of your kid's life, 471 00:19:29,560 --> 00:19:30,080 Speaker 2: you missed a lot. 472 00:19:30,080 --> 00:19:32,639 Speaker 1: Because yeah, I missed a lot. I missed birthdays. I 473 00:19:32,720 --> 00:19:35,000 Speaker 1: had to sacrifice a lot to get here. Like I missed. 474 00:19:35,040 --> 00:19:37,439 Speaker 1: I missed a lot, whole lot, Like the daddy daughter day, 475 00:19:37,600 --> 00:19:40,160 Speaker 1: like stuff she wanted me to come to. I had 476 00:19:40,200 --> 00:19:42,760 Speaker 1: to miss it. And I was tripping by my my people. 477 00:19:42,840 --> 00:19:45,200 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. But I'm making them for 478 00:19:45,280 --> 00:19:49,240 Speaker 1: it for sure. That ain't they real smart kids. I 479 00:19:49,280 --> 00:19:52,080 Speaker 1: don't forget nothing now. But so they got my jeans. 480 00:19:52,119 --> 00:19:53,800 Speaker 1: But at the end of the day, it's like I'm 481 00:19:53,880 --> 00:19:56,040 Speaker 1: making up for the good way. Too bad? 482 00:19:56,720 --> 00:19:59,440 Speaker 2: Has anything surprised you about parents because it's different co 483 00:19:59,680 --> 00:20:02,200 Speaker 2: parents and having kids have and then having kids in 484 00:20:02,320 --> 00:20:03,119 Speaker 2: the house every. 485 00:20:03,040 --> 00:20:06,800 Speaker 1: Day, Like really like anything surprised you, I say, like 486 00:20:06,920 --> 00:20:10,359 Speaker 1: really like kind of like dealing with my daughter, like 487 00:20:10,440 --> 00:20:13,159 Speaker 1: you know this is right, We're going wrong, like she 488 00:20:13,520 --> 00:20:15,399 Speaker 1: like the periods and all that stuff. 489 00:20:15,440 --> 00:20:18,280 Speaker 2: You know, it's something when you would navigate that. 490 00:20:18,440 --> 00:20:19,840 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, I don't know nothing about it. 491 00:20:19,880 --> 00:20:23,000 Speaker 2: So you go into the store for tampons and I work. 492 00:20:23,320 --> 00:20:25,480 Speaker 1: I work, my sister and a you know what I'm saying. 493 00:20:25,480 --> 00:20:27,600 Speaker 1: They work with me on it. You know I love that. 494 00:20:27,760 --> 00:20:32,440 Speaker 1: It's like I don't know how to playing it. Stay 495 00:20:32,480 --> 00:20:33,960 Speaker 1: out of it. Yeah, I stay out of it. You 496 00:20:34,000 --> 00:20:36,119 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Stay out of it. You know, 497 00:20:36,400 --> 00:20:36,920 Speaker 1: it's life. 498 00:20:37,760 --> 00:20:39,560 Speaker 2: They I mean, they're doing better than most of us. 499 00:20:39,640 --> 00:20:41,320 Speaker 2: They got their dad and you know what I'm saying. 500 00:20:41,359 --> 00:20:43,560 Speaker 2: We talk about daddy issues and dad's not being around 501 00:20:43,560 --> 00:20:45,720 Speaker 2: a lot on this podcast. It's about real life. A 502 00:20:45,760 --> 00:20:48,720 Speaker 2: lot of people come from, you know, not having that, 503 00:20:48,960 --> 00:20:51,159 Speaker 2: so you know, them having you in in their. 504 00:20:51,040 --> 00:20:54,240 Speaker 3: Life, it's really a very blessing for sure. All on 505 00:20:54,600 --> 00:20:58,080 Speaker 3: for sure, just all active with all of them. 506 00:20:58,240 --> 00:21:00,560 Speaker 1: You know what, I'd be having ups and downs, you know, 507 00:21:00,720 --> 00:21:03,320 Speaker 1: like with a couple of moms, but you know how 508 00:21:03,359 --> 00:21:05,720 Speaker 1: they go, like everybody ain't gonna be happy, can't make 509 00:21:05,760 --> 00:21:07,960 Speaker 1: it better? Happy? So happy? 510 00:21:08,840 --> 00:21:10,000 Speaker 2: Is there anything you would do different? 511 00:21:11,000 --> 00:21:14,480 Speaker 1: Yeah? But I don't regret nothing. I don't regret and 512 00:21:14,560 --> 00:21:16,720 Speaker 1: I don't look at my kids and they know mistakes 513 00:21:16,760 --> 00:21:18,639 Speaker 1: and none of it like I look at them like 514 00:21:18,680 --> 00:21:22,159 Speaker 1: they blessings for sure. But you know, for sure, like 515 00:21:22,320 --> 00:21:25,040 Speaker 1: the knowledge that I got now, I'm a whole new person, 516 00:21:25,240 --> 00:21:26,720 Speaker 1: my whole you know what I'm saying. So if I 517 00:21:26,760 --> 00:21:30,200 Speaker 1: could have these knowledge, then a lot of stuff wouldn't happened. 518 00:21:30,359 --> 00:21:33,160 Speaker 2: How old are you can answer? Yeah? Do you feel 519 00:21:33,160 --> 00:21:36,200 Speaker 2: like this kicked you into like real real adult thing, 520 00:21:36,440 --> 00:21:37,560 Speaker 2: like real real life? 521 00:21:37,600 --> 00:21:40,680 Speaker 1: It kicked me, it did. Yeah, it put me in 522 00:21:40,760 --> 00:21:43,520 Speaker 1: there and it made me feel kind of I don't 523 00:21:43,600 --> 00:21:49,480 Speaker 1: like feeling what do you mean feel I've been through 524 00:21:49,520 --> 00:21:53,000 Speaker 1: real life mature and then like just having my kids 525 00:21:53,119 --> 00:21:56,480 Speaker 1: like that, having my kids like that, like, man, wow, 526 00:21:57,400 --> 00:22:00,320 Speaker 1: that's funny, he said. I don't want to feel You 527 00:22:00,359 --> 00:22:01,960 Speaker 1: don't want to feel like that? What have you? 528 00:22:03,680 --> 00:22:06,280 Speaker 2: What have you learned about love through all this? Because 529 00:22:09,600 --> 00:22:12,000 Speaker 2: because you said, you have to be supported deeply, like 530 00:22:12,200 --> 00:22:14,439 Speaker 2: during this type of grief and trauma and life change. 531 00:22:16,720 --> 00:22:19,640 Speaker 1: I don't know, man, I just feel like it's literally 532 00:22:19,840 --> 00:22:21,960 Speaker 1: it's how you even got the title for this mixtape, 533 00:22:22,040 --> 00:22:25,320 Speaker 1: Like it's real deal hard to love, Like it's hard 534 00:22:25,400 --> 00:22:28,320 Speaker 1: to love people like because they don't come with just 535 00:22:28,480 --> 00:22:31,280 Speaker 1: they don't come soliday, like they be disguised and ain't 536 00:22:31,320 --> 00:22:33,800 Speaker 1: got good intentions all the time. And it's like, I 537 00:22:33,880 --> 00:22:36,320 Speaker 1: feel like it's hard to love me because of everything 538 00:22:36,400 --> 00:22:38,600 Speaker 1: I've been through. So it makes it worse. It makes 539 00:22:38,600 --> 00:22:41,399 Speaker 1: it hard for me to trust, like all kinds of stuff, 540 00:22:41,440 --> 00:22:43,159 Speaker 1: Like I don't know how to you feel me. And 541 00:22:43,200 --> 00:22:45,200 Speaker 1: I always be in my head. I'm a virgo, you know. 542 00:22:45,560 --> 00:22:47,480 Speaker 1: Sometimes I overthink, you know what I'm saying. I be 543 00:22:47,560 --> 00:22:49,920 Speaker 1: in my head sometimes, but I be thinking like it's 544 00:22:49,960 --> 00:22:52,200 Speaker 1: for the better. It's for the better too, because I 545 00:22:52,320 --> 00:22:54,520 Speaker 1: have came out on top thinking like that, what do 546 00:22:54,600 --> 00:22:57,679 Speaker 1: you mean? Or being protective, being over protected myself, being 547 00:22:57,720 --> 00:22:59,320 Speaker 1: guard to guards up, you know what I'm saying, and 548 00:22:59,720 --> 00:23:02,159 Speaker 1: out dods a lot of situations like that. So I 549 00:23:02,200 --> 00:23:03,639 Speaker 1: don't never want I don't regret that. 550 00:23:04,080 --> 00:23:06,159 Speaker 2: I don't want to take that back yeah, but at 551 00:23:06,200 --> 00:23:07,800 Speaker 2: some point if you but. 552 00:23:07,880 --> 00:23:10,160 Speaker 1: I be, I try to loosen on certain I didn't 553 00:23:10,200 --> 00:23:13,480 Speaker 1: got I didn't got mature and up there to like 554 00:23:13,600 --> 00:23:15,800 Speaker 1: a word to the point. It's like when I see stuff, 555 00:23:16,440 --> 00:23:19,240 Speaker 1: i'd be like, let me, let me see. But I 556 00:23:19,320 --> 00:23:21,639 Speaker 1: always have a I be ten steps ahead of the 557 00:23:21,720 --> 00:23:24,080 Speaker 1: situation to where like if this go like this, I'm 558 00:23:24,200 --> 00:23:24,359 Speaker 1: like this. 559 00:23:24,840 --> 00:23:28,480 Speaker 2: So it's like, so you never all the way committed 560 00:23:28,520 --> 00:23:30,760 Speaker 2: if you're always looking at somebody with a side eye, 561 00:23:31,119 --> 00:23:35,880 Speaker 2: it ain't You can't all the way committed love if 562 00:23:35,920 --> 00:23:41,920 Speaker 2: you always like let me see, you're hard to love exactly. 563 00:23:42,000 --> 00:23:43,800 Speaker 1: I feel like this is exactly why I'm hard to love. 564 00:23:44,400 --> 00:23:46,840 Speaker 1: But it's like I don't look at everybody and everything 565 00:23:47,000 --> 00:23:49,200 Speaker 1: like that. It'd be certain situations because I'd be like, 566 00:23:49,920 --> 00:23:52,399 Speaker 1: especially first of all, this situation like who I am 567 00:23:53,160 --> 00:23:55,480 Speaker 1: like today? Make me like that? Like you can't like 568 00:23:55,560 --> 00:23:57,399 Speaker 1: how you know people coming in there with great motives, 569 00:23:57,480 --> 00:24:00,000 Speaker 1: like good motives. Everybody ain't coming in with good motive. 570 00:24:00,080 --> 00:24:02,520 Speaker 1: Everybody trying to get off, get on, get some money, 571 00:24:02,600 --> 00:24:05,200 Speaker 1: get some motion going, like I don't like you feel 572 00:24:05,280 --> 00:24:08,159 Speaker 1: me need their hands out? Yeah you feel me? So 573 00:24:08,240 --> 00:24:10,080 Speaker 1: I got it, just I got to be like they. 574 00:24:10,000 --> 00:24:12,080 Speaker 2: Really but do you feel like because I feel like 575 00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:15,240 Speaker 2: I'm the same way. I'm super protective. I got small circle, 576 00:24:15,760 --> 00:24:19,000 Speaker 2: but I do have faith and showy you got to 577 00:24:19,080 --> 00:24:21,000 Speaker 2: have I have faith, but also I have faith in 578 00:24:21,160 --> 00:24:24,760 Speaker 2: that I've been gifted with. I feel like I'm a 579 00:24:24,800 --> 00:24:27,360 Speaker 2: good judge of character. Yeah, not to say I can't 580 00:24:27,359 --> 00:24:30,000 Speaker 2: make mistakes or people still can't disappoint me, for sure, 581 00:24:30,080 --> 00:24:32,639 Speaker 2: but I try to if I see something that I 582 00:24:32,680 --> 00:24:34,760 Speaker 2: don't like, you know what I mean. I try to 583 00:24:34,800 --> 00:24:36,480 Speaker 2: make sure the people around me. I feel like I'm 584 00:24:36,480 --> 00:24:38,000 Speaker 2: for the most part, I'm a good judge of character 585 00:24:38,200 --> 00:24:40,280 Speaker 2: for sure. You feel like you know I know how 586 00:24:40,320 --> 00:24:44,040 Speaker 2: to Yeah, I pick people good because that helps when 587 00:24:44,960 --> 00:24:48,120 Speaker 2: a lot of times I have messed up too though 588 00:24:48,520 --> 00:24:51,200 Speaker 2: I ain't perfect. Now messed up and I be like, 589 00:24:51,520 --> 00:24:53,080 Speaker 2: I beat myself and when I go through it, I 590 00:24:53,200 --> 00:24:55,640 Speaker 2: beat myself up bad about it. Even when you trust 591 00:24:55,640 --> 00:24:56,840 Speaker 2: somebody and they disappoint you or. 592 00:24:57,160 --> 00:24:59,639 Speaker 1: Yeah, exactly like if I let you in and you 593 00:25:00,359 --> 00:25:02,480 Speaker 1: you betrayed me, or this happen, I'd be like, I 594 00:25:03,080 --> 00:25:10,080 Speaker 1: know I shouldn't be like nothing. You know, I get 595 00:25:10,119 --> 00:25:10,440 Speaker 1: over it. 596 00:25:11,280 --> 00:25:14,680 Speaker 2: But you've been in a relationship now how long you 597 00:25:14,720 --> 00:25:15,520 Speaker 2: have already been together? 598 00:25:15,760 --> 00:25:16,440 Speaker 1: Like four years? 599 00:25:16,640 --> 00:25:18,400 Speaker 2: Four years? Ye, that's real. 600 00:25:18,720 --> 00:25:19,160 Speaker 1: It's real. 601 00:25:20,320 --> 00:25:25,639 Speaker 2: That went fast fast, And I gotta imagine this is 602 00:25:25,720 --> 00:25:28,159 Speaker 2: cou just be me guessing. It's like when you have 603 00:25:28,200 --> 00:25:30,119 Speaker 2: a relationship with somebody is so good and sweet, but 604 00:25:30,160 --> 00:25:31,800 Speaker 2: when when she gets really hard. 605 00:25:32,640 --> 00:25:36,680 Speaker 1: Get rocket now, get rocket, Yeah, get rocket. 606 00:25:36,920 --> 00:25:38,639 Speaker 2: But when you go through trauma in your life, or 607 00:25:38,720 --> 00:25:41,520 Speaker 2: you go through challenge like you've been through the past year. 608 00:25:41,560 --> 00:25:43,600 Speaker 1: It's like it's on her life. Be on her too, 609 00:25:44,320 --> 00:25:46,280 Speaker 1: you feel me like it don't just be on me 610 00:25:46,480 --> 00:25:48,280 Speaker 1: like she dealing with me. She locked in with me, 611 00:25:49,840 --> 00:25:52,840 Speaker 1: spiritually connected, all kinds of stuff, and it's like it 612 00:25:53,000 --> 00:25:54,760 Speaker 1: be on her too, like she got she be had 613 00:25:54,800 --> 00:25:57,040 Speaker 1: to deal with them problems too, like because it's on 614 00:25:57,200 --> 00:25:59,040 Speaker 1: me and she want me to be happy. If i'm 615 00:25:59,359 --> 00:26:01,280 Speaker 1: if I ain't had, I can't make no better happy. 616 00:26:01,560 --> 00:26:05,560 Speaker 2: And she was with you when you wasn't full custody dad, 617 00:26:05,640 --> 00:26:10,520 Speaker 2: when you was. She's transition to both of us for sure. 618 00:26:11,240 --> 00:26:11,960 Speaker 2: How's that going. 619 00:26:12,520 --> 00:26:19,400 Speaker 1: It's going challenges, Yeah, it's challenging for show. It's difficult, 620 00:26:19,440 --> 00:26:23,560 Speaker 1: you know, it's difficult relationship relationships, they're difficult for show. 621 00:26:23,800 --> 00:26:25,359 Speaker 2: So what keeps you? What connected you? 622 00:26:25,480 --> 00:26:25,600 Speaker 1: Then? 623 00:26:25,680 --> 00:26:27,240 Speaker 2: What what's the thing that I like? 624 00:26:27,480 --> 00:26:29,880 Speaker 1: She more of Like she might homie at the same 625 00:26:29,960 --> 00:26:32,359 Speaker 1: time she might love she's my friend. Like it's like 626 00:26:32,480 --> 00:26:34,879 Speaker 1: we can I could tell her anything, She's gonna correct me. 627 00:26:37,640 --> 00:26:40,119 Speaker 1: You have to have trust show like we locked in 628 00:26:40,240 --> 00:26:42,720 Speaker 1: to that point, like we we we just open with 629 00:26:42,800 --> 00:26:44,400 Speaker 1: each other about everything. 630 00:26:44,800 --> 00:26:47,040 Speaker 2: It's probably very helpful going through what you went through 631 00:26:47,080 --> 00:26:47,720 Speaker 2: to have somebody that. 632 00:26:47,880 --> 00:26:50,800 Speaker 1: Yeah, and she and she very supportive. She very supportive. 633 00:26:50,840 --> 00:26:53,960 Speaker 1: She a supportive person too, very supportive person. 634 00:26:54,200 --> 00:26:56,280 Speaker 2: So you're doing okay in love? You got four years in. 635 00:26:56,480 --> 00:26:58,360 Speaker 2: You made it through some tough times. 636 00:26:58,119 --> 00:27:01,160 Speaker 1: Difficult times to know, difficult times happen. 637 00:27:01,320 --> 00:27:03,600 Speaker 2: It hasn't been hart because you know, you talk about 638 00:27:03,680 --> 00:27:06,560 Speaker 2: coming from the daddy you came from. You talk about 639 00:27:06,600 --> 00:27:09,359 Speaker 2: coming from the streets and having babies in between others. 640 00:27:09,480 --> 00:27:12,320 Speaker 2: You know, how are you doing with like being in 641 00:27:12,440 --> 00:27:17,119 Speaker 2: a should I say monogamous relationship? Like how do you 642 00:27:17,680 --> 00:27:18,960 Speaker 2: is that taken adjustment for you? 643 00:27:19,320 --> 00:27:19,359 Speaker 1: No? 644 00:27:19,520 --> 00:27:22,879 Speaker 2: What you mean because like you talk about being in 645 00:27:23,000 --> 00:27:25,560 Speaker 2: and out of stuff and it presents and I could 646 00:27:25,600 --> 00:27:27,639 Speaker 2: be wrong, and just assuming that your relationship is like 647 00:27:27,920 --> 00:27:31,680 Speaker 2: you guys are together, right, sure, but some people have 648 00:27:31,840 --> 00:27:34,920 Speaker 2: open relationships, some people have monogamous relationships. 649 00:27:34,960 --> 00:27:37,440 Speaker 1: We ain't got that going. But I made mistakes, you 650 00:27:37,480 --> 00:27:41,439 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I made poor decisions, and that's 651 00:27:41,480 --> 00:27:43,760 Speaker 1: why I rock with her so tough like. I rock 652 00:27:43,840 --> 00:27:47,360 Speaker 1: with her so tough like she helped me through this situation. 653 00:27:47,520 --> 00:27:49,639 Speaker 1: I mean I was I looked at it. I was 654 00:27:49,680 --> 00:27:52,080 Speaker 1: just being a nigga, and a nigga that like come 655 00:27:52,119 --> 00:27:55,560 Speaker 1: from Memphis and my environment. That's what I was used to. 656 00:27:55,680 --> 00:27:58,680 Speaker 1: I had never been in no real relationship before. You 657 00:27:58,720 --> 00:27:59,840 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, I had never been in no 658 00:28:00,080 --> 00:28:03,880 Speaker 1: real relationship to where like I'm talking to her all night, 659 00:28:04,200 --> 00:28:07,240 Speaker 1: I'm checking in and yo, like baby, I'm doing this. 660 00:28:07,359 --> 00:28:09,320 Speaker 1: You good, I'm finna be doing this, so you ain't 661 00:28:09,320 --> 00:28:11,200 Speaker 1: got to be thinking this or this, and it like 662 00:28:11,359 --> 00:28:12,800 Speaker 1: it was like so new to me. 663 00:28:13,000 --> 00:28:16,439 Speaker 2: That's why I was asking because that's a big transition to. 664 00:28:16,520 --> 00:28:17,800 Speaker 1: Somebody, big transition. 665 00:28:17,960 --> 00:28:20,320 Speaker 2: So of course, you know, I you know, you made 666 00:28:20,359 --> 00:28:20,840 Speaker 2: some mistakes. 667 00:28:20,880 --> 00:28:23,280 Speaker 1: I made some mistakes. You already know what I'm I'm 668 00:28:23,320 --> 00:28:27,920 Speaker 1: getting there with it. I made some mistakes. You know, 669 00:28:28,040 --> 00:28:30,120 Speaker 1: she ain't take their will, She ain't take their will, 670 00:28:30,200 --> 00:28:33,960 Speaker 1: But you got any and it got crazy to you. 671 00:28:34,080 --> 00:28:36,359 Speaker 1: It get crazier, like it's different, like when you do 672 00:28:36,560 --> 00:28:39,720 Speaker 1: something and then it's like how you did it okay, 673 00:28:40,280 --> 00:28:42,240 Speaker 1: But then it's different like when when the mother was 674 00:28:42,400 --> 00:28:45,400 Speaker 1: like when you have the person like called him and 675 00:28:45,520 --> 00:28:48,120 Speaker 1: try to tell them me andything like he did this 676 00:28:48,320 --> 00:28:50,200 Speaker 1: and this and he was doing it. Did you know 677 00:28:50,320 --> 00:28:53,160 Speaker 1: he did? You know this? And so that made it 678 00:28:53,240 --> 00:28:55,680 Speaker 1: even worse on her, Like but I kept it, GETO, 679 00:28:55,760 --> 00:28:57,760 Speaker 1: I just kept it. You're like, yeah, you know, you 680 00:28:57,840 --> 00:29:00,040 Speaker 1: know I did that. I'm sorry, baby, you know what 681 00:29:00,040 --> 00:29:02,400 Speaker 1: I'm saying. I just I made mistakes. You know what 682 00:29:02,440 --> 00:29:04,480 Speaker 1: I'm saying. That was then are you sorry? 683 00:29:04,520 --> 00:29:06,400 Speaker 2: Because people gots say I'm sorry. 684 00:29:08,120 --> 00:29:11,680 Speaker 1: Got caught no exactly. I really come from a puer place, 685 00:29:11,760 --> 00:29:13,000 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. I come from a puer 686 00:29:13,080 --> 00:29:14,800 Speaker 1: place when I say that. You know what I'm saying, like, 687 00:29:15,440 --> 00:29:17,720 Speaker 1: I apologize and I just want to you know what 688 00:29:17,720 --> 00:29:19,320 Speaker 1: I'm saying. I want to work through it and get 689 00:29:19,400 --> 00:29:21,440 Speaker 1: through it. And she with it and she hilping me 690 00:29:21,520 --> 00:29:23,120 Speaker 1: with my you know what I'm saying, hipping me work 691 00:29:23,200 --> 00:29:25,080 Speaker 1: through it. That's why I rock with her so tough, 692 00:29:25,120 --> 00:29:29,080 Speaker 1: because it's like Okay, I get it. I understand you. 693 00:29:29,560 --> 00:29:30,959 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I don't want don't let 694 00:29:31,040 --> 00:29:33,240 Speaker 1: it happen again. Don't let this you feel me like, 695 00:29:34,080 --> 00:29:35,800 Speaker 1: this ain't gonna be our life. Don't don't take me 696 00:29:35,920 --> 00:29:38,360 Speaker 1: up through there. But I do understand. You know what 697 00:29:38,400 --> 00:29:39,960 Speaker 1: I'm saying. Once I broke it all the way down 698 00:29:40,000 --> 00:29:41,280 Speaker 1: to her. You know what I'm saying. When I broke 699 00:29:41,280 --> 00:29:43,720 Speaker 1: it all the way down her, she she understood me fully. 700 00:29:44,440 --> 00:29:47,880 Speaker 3: You know that's a that's a big transition, that's a 701 00:29:48,080 --> 00:29:54,240 Speaker 3: big crazy Are you proud of yourself to like, yeah, yeah. 702 00:29:54,480 --> 00:29:57,080 Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm proud of myself. I'm proud of me. I'm 703 00:29:57,120 --> 00:29:59,600 Speaker 1: proud of me. I'm getting somewhere, I'm moving, You're going 704 00:29:59,640 --> 00:30:03,400 Speaker 1: in the right direction, in the right direction. Like at 705 00:30:03,440 --> 00:30:05,080 Speaker 1: the end of the day too, it's like, excuse me, 706 00:30:05,240 --> 00:30:08,760 Speaker 1: Like it's like the other they don't be having nothing 707 00:30:08,760 --> 00:30:11,280 Speaker 1: to offer. Like when it's especially when you've been with 708 00:30:11,360 --> 00:30:14,720 Speaker 1: a person four years, you see you see how she coming. 709 00:30:14,840 --> 00:30:16,800 Speaker 1: She she there for you in all kinds of ways, 710 00:30:16,840 --> 00:30:19,280 Speaker 1: of ports, systems just just all across the board, and 711 00:30:19,360 --> 00:30:22,880 Speaker 1: it's like you deal with a situation just on convenience, 712 00:30:23,000 --> 00:30:24,840 Speaker 1: like because it was convenient and you right there, you 713 00:30:24,960 --> 00:30:27,680 Speaker 1: on the road or something, and it just happened. Trying 714 00:30:27,720 --> 00:30:29,960 Speaker 1: to look for excuse, you know, Cachine, Nere or something, 715 00:30:30,000 --> 00:30:33,960 Speaker 1: whatever the case was. Uh and uh, and it happened, 716 00:30:33,960 --> 00:30:36,600 Speaker 1: and you just be like, man, this ain't I'm glad. 717 00:30:36,720 --> 00:30:38,760 Speaker 1: I'm glad. I just I got baby at the house. 718 00:30:38,800 --> 00:30:41,240 Speaker 1: I got baby to go home to. And you know 719 00:30:41,240 --> 00:30:43,440 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, just vent to and talk, you know, 720 00:30:43,800 --> 00:30:45,040 Speaker 1: just hit me get through stuff. 721 00:30:45,400 --> 00:30:47,400 Speaker 2: Is that the first time you felt like that in 722 00:30:47,520 --> 00:30:47,960 Speaker 2: your life? 723 00:30:48,200 --> 00:30:50,280 Speaker 1: Yeah? This is this is This is a tough situation 724 00:30:50,480 --> 00:30:54,320 Speaker 1: like relationship difficult, man, relationship difficult. I ain't perfect. I'm 725 00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:57,640 Speaker 1: hearing like people go through this now. They they just 726 00:30:57,720 --> 00:30:59,320 Speaker 1: don't want to They ain't gonna get on here with 727 00:30:59,400 --> 00:31:02,200 Speaker 1: Andrew martin Is and say what they did because they 728 00:31:02,200 --> 00:31:04,080 Speaker 1: don't want to face backglass or they don't want to 729 00:31:04,120 --> 00:31:07,080 Speaker 1: do that. Man, I'm hurting. I'm not perfect. I have 730 00:31:07,080 --> 00:31:14,440 Speaker 1: didn't done stuff like probably about seven months ago, were healing. 731 00:31:14,560 --> 00:31:17,640 Speaker 1: Right now, we were on the road to were moving forward. 732 00:31:17,720 --> 00:31:19,680 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, We're moving forward healing right now. 733 00:31:20,240 --> 00:31:21,680 Speaker 2: How do you get her to trust you again? 734 00:31:22,040 --> 00:31:24,520 Speaker 1: That's hard? She really, I don't think she one hundred 735 00:31:24,520 --> 00:31:26,560 Speaker 1: percent trust I know she don't one hundred percent trust me. 736 00:31:27,360 --> 00:31:28,760 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, But it is what it is. 737 00:31:28,880 --> 00:31:32,000 Speaker 1: I made that bed. I gotta lady, and I take 738 00:31:32,080 --> 00:31:34,680 Speaker 1: full accountability. I'm a man, you know what I'm saying. 739 00:31:34,720 --> 00:31:37,360 Speaker 1: Before anything, so you know we're working towards I can't 740 00:31:37,400 --> 00:31:41,040 Speaker 1: do nothing but sure sure keep showing, show improve and 741 00:31:41,960 --> 00:31:44,840 Speaker 1: make her feel safe and won't it and let her 742 00:31:44,880 --> 00:31:46,720 Speaker 1: know that I'm here, like you, you ain't gonna get 743 00:31:46,720 --> 00:31:47,120 Speaker 1: that again. 744 00:31:47,760 --> 00:31:49,280 Speaker 2: Does that make you appreciate her more? 745 00:31:49,880 --> 00:31:52,640 Speaker 1: Yeah? I appreciate that. I like that made me just 746 00:31:53,080 --> 00:31:56,120 Speaker 1: get all the way together like I can't. I don't 747 00:31:56,360 --> 00:31:58,120 Speaker 1: lose that. Like, do you know what I'm saying. I 748 00:31:58,120 --> 00:32:00,120 Speaker 1: don't want to lose this situation this. I might I 749 00:32:00,200 --> 00:32:02,600 Speaker 1: get this again. No, I might not get this again. 750 00:32:02,640 --> 00:32:04,880 Speaker 1: I lose this situation. Nobody else might even come like 751 00:32:04,960 --> 00:32:07,719 Speaker 1: a I might think. I think I might. I can 752 00:32:07,760 --> 00:32:09,760 Speaker 1: find it on money. Value'm gonna get someone else, you 753 00:32:09,800 --> 00:32:11,480 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, get something. I'm gonna get someone 754 00:32:11,520 --> 00:32:12,880 Speaker 1: else and don't even get it. 755 00:32:13,360 --> 00:32:15,680 Speaker 2: I gotta imagine women watching gonna think this, They're gonna 756 00:32:15,720 --> 00:32:18,480 Speaker 2: have this question for it? How does a man who 757 00:32:18,600 --> 00:32:20,840 Speaker 2: lives a certain type of way for his whole life 758 00:32:20,920 --> 00:32:23,680 Speaker 2: and is trying to transition into a different type of 759 00:32:23,760 --> 00:32:25,360 Speaker 2: man for his woman because he wants to be in 760 00:32:25,440 --> 00:32:28,200 Speaker 2: this monogamous relationship and all of that, How is that 761 00:32:28,760 --> 00:32:31,240 Speaker 2: a real thing? Is it possible? Do you believe that 762 00:32:31,360 --> 00:32:32,520 Speaker 2: for yourself? Do you believe that? 763 00:32:32,600 --> 00:32:33,520 Speaker 1: But transformation? 764 00:32:33,760 --> 00:32:35,040 Speaker 2: Yeah, that type of transformation? 765 00:32:36,120 --> 00:32:36,440 Speaker 1: What is it? 766 00:32:36,560 --> 00:32:38,000 Speaker 2: And if you do believe in it? What is the 767 00:32:38,120 --> 00:32:38,680 Speaker 2: key to it? 768 00:32:38,800 --> 00:32:38,840 Speaker 1: Like? 769 00:32:38,920 --> 00:32:40,800 Speaker 2: What are you learning about yourself and learning that? 770 00:32:41,400 --> 00:32:44,440 Speaker 1: You know what I mean? Temptation? What do you mean? 771 00:32:45,000 --> 00:32:47,240 Speaker 1: You gotta learn how to fight temptation. You gotta know 772 00:32:47,320 --> 00:32:48,840 Speaker 1: how to fight. This is the hard thing to do, 773 00:32:49,600 --> 00:32:51,440 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. That's why the situation is 774 00:32:51,480 --> 00:32:54,320 Speaker 1: why I found myself in this situation when it happened. 775 00:32:54,320 --> 00:32:56,160 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. It's like, you got to 776 00:32:56,320 --> 00:32:58,640 Speaker 1: know how to control yourself. You know what I'm saying. 777 00:32:58,680 --> 00:33:00,600 Speaker 1: That's what I'm learning on big on it right now. 778 00:33:00,800 --> 00:33:03,440 Speaker 1: I'm learning how to control myself and never and navigate 779 00:33:03,480 --> 00:33:05,880 Speaker 1: myself in the right lane and and stay over there, 780 00:33:05,960 --> 00:33:08,680 Speaker 1: like look, bro, like that ain't gonna be good. Then 781 00:33:08,720 --> 00:33:10,920 Speaker 1: they might they might be trying to They might don't 782 00:33:10,920 --> 00:33:13,640 Speaker 1: even like they might be trying to get off like 783 00:33:14,040 --> 00:33:15,720 Speaker 1: you do this, They trying to get off, They trying 784 00:33:15,720 --> 00:33:17,760 Speaker 1: to really embarrass you know what I'm saying, ship on 785 00:33:17,880 --> 00:33:20,080 Speaker 1: her like so i'd be I'd have to think for 786 00:33:20,200 --> 00:33:22,320 Speaker 1: her going in a certain situations like you know what 787 00:33:22,320 --> 00:33:24,240 Speaker 1: I'm saying, That's how I know I love her, Like 788 00:33:24,280 --> 00:33:25,320 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, That's how you know you 789 00:33:25,440 --> 00:33:27,160 Speaker 1: love a person when you're thinking for them, and you 790 00:33:27,400 --> 00:33:28,720 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, when you're moving and you're 791 00:33:28,720 --> 00:33:30,760 Speaker 1: thinking for them, You're like, I can't do that. But 792 00:33:30,960 --> 00:33:38,040 Speaker 1: like this ship she already crazy. You know, she don't 793 00:33:38,120 --> 00:33:40,120 Speaker 1: go to the moon. She's gonna go fist. So it's 794 00:33:40,200 --> 00:33:42,800 Speaker 1: like I'll be trying to keep my head on straight 795 00:33:42,880 --> 00:33:45,040 Speaker 1: cause it's somebody really I really want to do. I 796 00:33:45,200 --> 00:33:46,480 Speaker 1: just that's what I want to do. 797 00:33:46,800 --> 00:33:49,640 Speaker 2: That's beautiful, God bless she brought you property too, right, 798 00:33:49,720 --> 00:33:51,480 Speaker 2: that's the keeper. Did she buy you land up? 799 00:33:51,760 --> 00:33:53,280 Speaker 1: She bought me property like that know what I'm saying, 800 00:33:53,320 --> 00:33:55,160 Speaker 1: Like this, you set my kids up? How can I 801 00:33:55,320 --> 00:33:58,080 Speaker 1: not love you? Like I can I not love you? So? 802 00:33:58,320 --> 00:34:00,280 Speaker 2: Did I feel like because anybody ever get did do 803 00:34:00,360 --> 00:34:01,240 Speaker 2: something like that before? 804 00:34:01,880 --> 00:34:03,480 Speaker 1: They didn't gave me. I can got little gifts and 805 00:34:03,520 --> 00:34:06,440 Speaker 1: stuff before, but that no, that was like the biggest 806 00:34:07,200 --> 00:34:08,600 Speaker 1: greatest gift I ever got. 807 00:34:09,440 --> 00:34:12,520 Speaker 2: Like so far and are you used to that? Like 808 00:34:12,640 --> 00:34:14,640 Speaker 2: with like no, how did that feel for you? 809 00:34:15,719 --> 00:34:18,480 Speaker 1: I may feel mushy crazy, you know what I'm saying, 810 00:34:19,560 --> 00:34:22,560 Speaker 1: Like like you know, you know what I'm saying, not 811 00:34:22,680 --> 00:34:24,560 Speaker 1: trying to be just too hard. It just made me 812 00:34:24,760 --> 00:34:27,600 Speaker 1: like I was like, damn, like man, she really do lott. 813 00:34:27,800 --> 00:34:29,880 Speaker 1: It made it opened my eyes more so, like not 814 00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:32,239 Speaker 1: saying that I used to question love with her like 815 00:34:32,760 --> 00:34:35,320 Speaker 1: or that question I love. It's just period in general, 816 00:34:35,400 --> 00:34:37,960 Speaker 1: like going back to the heart, hard to love situations 817 00:34:38,040 --> 00:34:41,520 Speaker 1: like is this really it? How we what we're going 818 00:34:41,640 --> 00:34:44,480 Speaker 1: and what we're going to like what we're doing, Like oh, 819 00:34:45,280 --> 00:34:47,040 Speaker 1: I be in my head a lot about that, but 820 00:34:47,480 --> 00:34:49,480 Speaker 1: and to myself, you know what I'm saying. But then 821 00:34:49,600 --> 00:34:51,680 Speaker 1: that situation like when she when I got my gifts, 822 00:34:51,719 --> 00:34:55,000 Speaker 1: my mama threw me a little party downtown Memphis. We 823 00:34:55,200 --> 00:34:57,200 Speaker 1: I opened up all my gifts, I got my gifts, 824 00:34:57,520 --> 00:35:00,360 Speaker 1: we left, we went up. They just drop having me. 825 00:35:00,680 --> 00:35:03,000 Speaker 1: I just know I'm getting closer to my neighborhood, my hood, 826 00:35:03,040 --> 00:35:06,080 Speaker 1: one front walking homes, and we turned, we turned on 827 00:35:06,200 --> 00:35:09,600 Speaker 1: third Street. I'm like, I'm like, what we're doing, Like 828 00:35:09,600 --> 00:35:11,680 Speaker 1: what we turn in the field for. You know what 829 00:35:11,680 --> 00:35:13,160 Speaker 1: I'm saying. We turn in the field when I get 830 00:35:13,239 --> 00:35:15,919 Speaker 1: when I get deeper in the field, I see my name. 831 00:35:17,280 --> 00:35:20,520 Speaker 1: I love you baby. The twenty eight point eight acres 832 00:35:20,680 --> 00:35:23,840 Speaker 1: and the big cars and the big you know, balloons, 833 00:35:23,960 --> 00:35:26,000 Speaker 1: and just the whole vibe, you know what I'm saying. 834 00:35:26,040 --> 00:35:29,520 Speaker 1: So it was a real touching moment for me, Like 835 00:35:29,640 --> 00:35:32,080 Speaker 1: it touched me for sure, because nobody, like I said, 836 00:35:32,120 --> 00:35:35,080 Speaker 1: nobody ever did that. I ever did nothing like this. 837 00:35:35,200 --> 00:35:36,360 Speaker 1: So I was like, damn, this might be. 838 00:35:36,760 --> 00:35:40,080 Speaker 2: This might be a keeper might keep you might put 839 00:35:40,120 --> 00:35:42,040 Speaker 2: yourself together when you're in the club and somebody trying 840 00:35:42,080 --> 00:35:47,719 Speaker 2: to tempt you keep you might that might. That's beautiful, man. 841 00:35:47,920 --> 00:35:49,920 Speaker 2: So do you see like marriage and all that stuff 842 00:35:49,960 --> 00:35:50,680 Speaker 2: in the future for you. 843 00:35:50,960 --> 00:35:52,759 Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know about all that yet. 844 00:35:53,000 --> 00:35:56,040 Speaker 1: I don't know about allying. You know what I'm saying. 845 00:35:56,840 --> 00:35:58,399 Speaker 1: One thing at the time, we're gonna do We're gonna 846 00:35:58,400 --> 00:35:59,680 Speaker 1: do this right here, you know what I'm say. We're 847 00:35:59,680 --> 00:36:01,719 Speaker 1: gonna do it. We're doing right here and now just 848 00:36:01,760 --> 00:36:02,640 Speaker 1: stay focused with that. 849 00:36:03,200 --> 00:36:06,280 Speaker 2: You know, I saw it because there was some speculation about. 850 00:36:06,040 --> 00:36:08,200 Speaker 1: A ring that it was. Yeah. I was just yeah, 851 00:36:08,200 --> 00:36:11,120 Speaker 1: you're in my mind. I had gay hell ring. And 852 00:36:11,200 --> 00:36:13,120 Speaker 1: it's just I liked that the ring. Like I like 853 00:36:13,200 --> 00:36:14,799 Speaker 1: the the ring. I wanted to see it look good 854 00:36:14,880 --> 00:36:17,400 Speaker 1: on like the color of the white, color of the diamond, 855 00:36:17,440 --> 00:36:19,920 Speaker 1: it looked the good on her finger, and I got it, 856 00:36:20,400 --> 00:36:22,880 Speaker 1: Like it's just looked good. It looked good on her. 857 00:36:23,080 --> 00:36:26,160 Speaker 2: It's beautiful that you found love like that, especially the 858 00:36:26,239 --> 00:36:28,719 Speaker 2: circumstances you come out of and experiences. 859 00:36:30,040 --> 00:36:32,960 Speaker 1: Rugs. Shout out to mister Rugg. You know he throw 860 00:36:33,040 --> 00:36:33,799 Speaker 1: parties in the lima. 861 00:36:34,120 --> 00:36:34,600 Speaker 2: Is he the one who? 862 00:36:35,200 --> 00:36:35,480 Speaker 1: Yeah this? 863 00:36:35,760 --> 00:36:35,920 Speaker 2: You know? 864 00:36:36,040 --> 00:36:37,839 Speaker 1: God? It reached out to him like, hey, yo, bad 865 00:36:37,960 --> 00:36:40,480 Speaker 1: hit me trying to get in contable. Already seeing that self. 866 00:36:40,480 --> 00:36:41,120 Speaker 2: You went for her. 867 00:36:41,400 --> 00:36:43,000 Speaker 1: Yeah, I went for you know what I'm saying. I seen, 868 00:36:43,560 --> 00:36:45,280 Speaker 1: I seen, you know, I was already on the Instagram 869 00:36:45,360 --> 00:36:50,000 Speaker 1: like I don't want this joint. You know. You know 870 00:36:50,120 --> 00:36:51,719 Speaker 1: how you do that when you work that one and 871 00:36:51,800 --> 00:36:54,560 Speaker 1: then it's like sometimes you can think you want something 872 00:36:54,600 --> 00:36:56,120 Speaker 1: you don't even want it, Like when you get it? 873 00:36:56,360 --> 00:36:59,200 Speaker 1: Why did I even? But it's just this situation, Like 874 00:37:00,360 --> 00:37:03,920 Speaker 1: this situation was like boom, it was like damn, this 875 00:37:03,960 --> 00:37:05,600 Speaker 1: is what I want to like, you know what I'm saying. 876 00:37:05,640 --> 00:37:08,600 Speaker 1: You like you gilt old, you read and you know 877 00:37:08,680 --> 00:37:10,600 Speaker 1: when it toning down you want to turn it off, 878 00:37:10,680 --> 00:37:13,680 Speaker 1: Like how the Internet perceive her, like try to prank 879 00:37:13,760 --> 00:37:15,800 Speaker 1: this picture of her and say she this and that. 880 00:37:15,960 --> 00:37:17,840 Speaker 1: I don't even I don't get I don't get that. 881 00:37:18,680 --> 00:37:19,320 Speaker 1: I don't see that. 882 00:37:19,480 --> 00:37:21,839 Speaker 2: Like what do you think people misunderstand about her. 883 00:37:21,800 --> 00:37:24,160 Speaker 1: Because she's so wrong Like in the internet, it's so 884 00:37:24,320 --> 00:37:27,400 Speaker 1: sensitive right now and the world so sensible right now, 885 00:37:27,560 --> 00:37:30,040 Speaker 1: Like she just too wrong for it. You know what 886 00:37:30,080 --> 00:37:33,960 Speaker 1: I'm saying. I feel like, dude, you don't ever I'm 887 00:37:34,000 --> 00:37:36,800 Speaker 1: not at the house going crazy what you're doing with 888 00:37:37,880 --> 00:37:41,480 Speaker 1: all the insecurity. Are insecure with it because I know 889 00:37:41,600 --> 00:37:43,600 Speaker 1: where I stand, I know who I am. You gotta 890 00:37:43,640 --> 00:37:45,840 Speaker 1: be confident with yo. You You should like men and 891 00:37:45,840 --> 00:37:48,600 Speaker 1: should even want they they women to see how confident 892 00:37:48,680 --> 00:37:50,880 Speaker 1: they is. Like you gotta be confident. You can't have 893 00:37:51,080 --> 00:37:53,759 Speaker 1: like but I also know it's some fun the women 894 00:37:53,840 --> 00:37:56,080 Speaker 1: out there too, though. This don't just work on men, 895 00:37:56,320 --> 00:37:58,359 Speaker 1: like Yeah, don't do that. You know what I'm saying. 896 00:37:58,400 --> 00:38:01,279 Speaker 1: We ain't gonna do that because women too, you know 897 00:38:01,280 --> 00:38:03,239 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. But at the end of the day, 898 00:38:04,200 --> 00:38:07,440 Speaker 1: we were in a good space, in a great space. 899 00:38:07,920 --> 00:38:10,480 Speaker 2: How you deal with that co parenting situation and all 900 00:38:10,520 --> 00:38:14,480 Speaker 2: of that because you have complicated you both have other parents. 901 00:38:16,719 --> 00:38:18,640 Speaker 2: Does that get complicated or do you stay out of 902 00:38:18,719 --> 00:38:19,440 Speaker 2: her co parents? 903 00:38:19,480 --> 00:38:21,320 Speaker 1: Yeah, I stay out of it. I stay out of it. 904 00:38:21,400 --> 00:38:23,520 Speaker 1: I let I let them figure it out, you know 905 00:38:23,520 --> 00:38:25,600 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, long as they don't just get disrespectful. 906 00:38:26,000 --> 00:38:27,640 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. Don't get disrespectful. You know 907 00:38:27,680 --> 00:38:29,600 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. On each end, I try to stay 908 00:38:29,600 --> 00:38:30,879 Speaker 1: out of it. You know what I'm saying. I stay 909 00:38:30,880 --> 00:38:33,560 Speaker 1: all the way out of it. And but you know 910 00:38:33,640 --> 00:38:35,600 Speaker 1: how it be on the on the other tip, you 911 00:38:35,719 --> 00:38:39,400 Speaker 1: got you know some baby mama's day. Girls different, like 912 00:38:39,520 --> 00:38:42,080 Speaker 1: girls different. Some dudes be real building and stuff too, 913 00:38:42,160 --> 00:38:44,600 Speaker 1: but females different. But I just try to keep it 914 00:38:44,719 --> 00:38:47,600 Speaker 1: like I balanced it, man, I just be balancing it. 915 00:38:47,760 --> 00:38:51,480 Speaker 2: The fact that y'all still standing four years after so 916 00:38:51,719 --> 00:38:52,520 Speaker 2: much all. 917 00:38:52,440 --> 00:38:55,200 Speaker 1: Of that is, that's a lot. But I ain't like that. 918 00:38:55,320 --> 00:38:56,719 Speaker 1: What I said at the beginning of it, want this 919 00:38:56,800 --> 00:38:59,080 Speaker 1: stuff won't going on. It's like seven months like when 920 00:38:59,080 --> 00:39:04,080 Speaker 1: I made that they're fucked up decision. All right, yeah 921 00:39:04,120 --> 00:39:06,320 Speaker 1: there was were seven months later I put. 922 00:39:06,200 --> 00:39:13,440 Speaker 2: Money on y'all. Y'all so we got music coming, which 923 00:39:13,520 --> 00:39:16,000 Speaker 2: is exciting. So you so all the stuff that you've 924 00:39:16,080 --> 00:39:18,360 Speaker 2: been through, it's all the music. 925 00:39:19,360 --> 00:39:21,839 Speaker 1: You about to hear it on. I'm talking on when 926 00:39:21,960 --> 00:39:25,960 Speaker 1: when it's a song called going Through Some Things Hard 927 00:39:26,040 --> 00:39:29,560 Speaker 1: to Love. When I'm talking about the miscarried situation, like 928 00:39:29,680 --> 00:39:34,239 Speaker 1: I say, like, yeah, well her and I say, treat 929 00:39:34,280 --> 00:39:36,879 Speaker 1: her like a wife about a big carrot. As soon 930 00:39:36,960 --> 00:39:39,279 Speaker 1: as we agreed to have a child, she had a miscarry. 931 00:39:39,640 --> 00:39:42,440 Speaker 1: Deal with this ship behind clothed. Those ain't posting nothing online. 932 00:39:42,920 --> 00:39:46,120 Speaker 1: I kept them folks about my business whatever, whatever the 933 00:39:46,640 --> 00:39:48,279 Speaker 1: case may be. You know what I'm saying. But it's 934 00:39:48,320 --> 00:39:51,800 Speaker 1: like I was, I'm really being opening up about opening 935 00:39:51,920 --> 00:39:55,200 Speaker 1: up about the situation and telling them like this situation 936 00:39:55,360 --> 00:39:57,640 Speaker 1: like her losing the baby and all that, it is 937 00:39:57,680 --> 00:40:00,239 Speaker 1: like broke. It was kind of breaking out bumb because 938 00:40:00,560 --> 00:40:04,160 Speaker 1: at one point it was breaking out bun you feel me, 939 00:40:04,320 --> 00:40:07,680 Speaker 1: And it was because I feel like she felt like 940 00:40:07,760 --> 00:40:12,279 Speaker 1: I want third, you know how it's difficult. Yeah, she 941 00:40:12,360 --> 00:40:14,719 Speaker 1: felt like I want third for like how opposed to 942 00:40:14,800 --> 00:40:18,040 Speaker 1: been but whole town trying to get through my situations. 943 00:40:18,440 --> 00:40:21,520 Speaker 1: I'm trying to work. I'm trying to wrap this all happened. 944 00:40:21,960 --> 00:40:24,440 Speaker 1: All this happened like it was a miscarriage. I lost 945 00:40:24,480 --> 00:40:26,759 Speaker 1: my baby, Mam, I lost my day, won my best 946 00:40:26,920 --> 00:40:29,880 Speaker 1: my left and right hand left, my left hand to 947 00:40:29,960 --> 00:40:32,880 Speaker 1: the fix, my right hand to the you know what 948 00:40:32,880 --> 00:40:35,759 Speaker 1: I'm saying to the streets, it's my back to back. 949 00:40:35,800 --> 00:40:38,880 Speaker 1: Were telling my back to back like within a year period, 950 00:40:38,960 --> 00:40:43,240 Speaker 1: like January, that's when news could at nowise could at January. 951 00:40:43,320 --> 00:40:45,440 Speaker 1: That's my brother or my brother he died in January, 952 00:40:45,640 --> 00:40:47,799 Speaker 1: you know what I mean? So how did he die? Well, 953 00:40:47,920 --> 00:40:50,040 Speaker 1: just in the streets got killt you know what I'm saying, 954 00:40:50,760 --> 00:40:53,160 Speaker 1: unexpected The same day, it was crazy. The same day, 955 00:40:53,560 --> 00:40:55,320 Speaker 1: the same day I got the call about him. I 956 00:40:55,440 --> 00:40:58,439 Speaker 1: was buying the founom. I had just renegotiated my deal. 957 00:40:58,800 --> 00:41:03,040 Speaker 1: Shout out the end scope uh, renegotiating my deal and 958 00:41:03,160 --> 00:41:05,200 Speaker 1: I was buying a fuenom. You know what I'm saying, 959 00:41:05,239 --> 00:41:06,759 Speaker 1: being the found But I had just talked to him 960 00:41:06,800 --> 00:41:08,480 Speaker 1: the day before that, and I was like, bro, the 961 00:41:08,560 --> 00:41:11,040 Speaker 1: money and the bag in the big bag in they 962 00:41:11,080 --> 00:41:12,920 Speaker 1: we finna do this, We're gonna do that. He was like, Oh, 963 00:41:12,960 --> 00:41:14,560 Speaker 1: they don't want to see no gangs do with no money. 964 00:41:14,680 --> 00:41:16,520 Speaker 1: That's the last thing I remember. I'm saying, like, they 965 00:41:16,520 --> 00:41:18,560 Speaker 1: don't want to see me with this money. So boom. 966 00:41:19,680 --> 00:41:21,680 Speaker 1: I was on the showroom floor. I was buying, getting 967 00:41:21,719 --> 00:41:24,640 Speaker 1: getting the getting a fenom Rose Russ and they called 968 00:41:24,680 --> 00:41:26,919 Speaker 1: me and pulling off, I fin the gas up. I'm 969 00:41:26,960 --> 00:41:29,120 Speaker 1: pulling them across the street from the where I got 970 00:41:29,160 --> 00:41:31,680 Speaker 1: the car from, pulling over the cast say hey, come bro, 971 00:41:31,920 --> 00:41:35,640 Speaker 1: They saying Nowski called you gonna want to answering the 972 00:41:35,680 --> 00:41:39,920 Speaker 1: phone mama and uh, his mama. His baby Mama's then 973 00:41:40,520 --> 00:41:43,000 Speaker 1: stamped it. You know, they stamped it. So that was 974 00:41:43,040 --> 00:41:45,080 Speaker 1: a hard situation, you know what I'm saying. That was 975 00:41:45,120 --> 00:41:48,760 Speaker 1: the first. Then my baby mama died three months after that, Jesus, 976 00:41:50,000 --> 00:41:51,839 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Because like the smoke care 977 00:41:51,920 --> 00:41:54,200 Speaker 1: got so heavy in the city. The smoke had got 978 00:41:54,280 --> 00:41:56,520 Speaker 1: so heav in the city. I had to like maneuver 979 00:41:56,680 --> 00:41:58,680 Speaker 1: my baby mamas around. It wasn't like it was too 980 00:41:58,760 --> 00:42:00,960 Speaker 1: much a lot of stuff wasn't even on me. But 981 00:42:01,239 --> 00:42:03,120 Speaker 1: I understand how the streets go. And I'm not gonna 982 00:42:03,160 --> 00:42:06,600 Speaker 1: explain to no nigga or nobody like nothing, like I'm 983 00:42:06,640 --> 00:42:09,399 Speaker 1: not doing it. I'm just gonna move accordingly because I'm 984 00:42:09,880 --> 00:42:10,480 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. 985 00:42:10,640 --> 00:42:14,200 Speaker 2: So you actually moved her out of Memphis, save her 986 00:42:14,280 --> 00:42:15,439 Speaker 2: from what was happening. 987 00:42:15,520 --> 00:42:18,080 Speaker 1: Like I moved all of them, like I moved all 988 00:42:18,080 --> 00:42:20,759 Speaker 1: of them, like look, y'all, go over here, y'all, come 989 00:42:21,160 --> 00:42:23,920 Speaker 1: do this for a minute. Boom. But then she was, 990 00:42:24,040 --> 00:42:25,719 Speaker 1: you know, she was in the streets with it, and 991 00:42:26,239 --> 00:42:30,879 Speaker 1: she was doing what she was doing. And yeah, unfortunately 992 00:42:31,040 --> 00:42:33,319 Speaker 1: this situation happened. Going back, you. 993 00:42:33,400 --> 00:42:34,359 Speaker 2: Tried to do the right thing. 994 00:42:34,480 --> 00:42:35,399 Speaker 1: Yeah I did. I did. 995 00:42:35,760 --> 00:42:38,640 Speaker 2: Do you have at least some I don't know, some 996 00:42:39,040 --> 00:42:40,880 Speaker 2: like peace and that for yourself. 997 00:42:40,960 --> 00:42:44,720 Speaker 1: Yeah, but like my mom, y'all, Mari yo, quit blaming yourself. 998 00:42:44,840 --> 00:42:47,279 Speaker 1: Quit blaming yourself with that. Like when they first had out, 999 00:42:47,320 --> 00:42:50,600 Speaker 1: like man crying, go on ham and just like man 1000 00:42:50,719 --> 00:42:53,440 Speaker 1: is my fault? Man post else the phone for she 1001 00:42:53,560 --> 00:42:56,520 Speaker 1: sent me this long text like the day before she died, 1002 00:42:56,600 --> 00:42:59,759 Speaker 1: like we need to talk and just real long paragraph 1003 00:42:59,880 --> 00:43:02,440 Speaker 1: like this is like it'd be crazy how people say goodbye. 1004 00:43:02,480 --> 00:43:04,319 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. She send me a real 1005 00:43:04,400 --> 00:43:07,800 Speaker 1: loan paragraph and she called me like and I was 1006 00:43:07,920 --> 00:43:10,479 Speaker 1: like two days before that, you know, I was talking 1007 00:43:10,480 --> 00:43:12,279 Speaker 1: to her because she was telling me, I'm going back 1008 00:43:12,320 --> 00:43:14,799 Speaker 1: to Memphis. I'm gonna get the kids stuff and get 1009 00:43:14,840 --> 00:43:17,920 Speaker 1: their paperf and get everything transferred over and we finished 1010 00:43:17,960 --> 00:43:21,799 Speaker 1: your start over. I'm I'm clean offing to be right. Yeah, 1011 00:43:22,400 --> 00:43:24,960 Speaker 1: fuck man. And it's just hit me like every time 1012 00:43:25,040 --> 00:43:27,080 Speaker 1: somebody be due to every time somebody try to clean 1013 00:43:27,120 --> 00:43:29,400 Speaker 1: their life up, just like with news, Like he was like, Bro, 1014 00:43:29,440 --> 00:43:31,359 Speaker 1: I want I'm fin the gone, come to man, I'm 1015 00:43:31,520 --> 00:43:33,359 Speaker 1: the gone. Come out there with you and just get 1016 00:43:33,400 --> 00:43:35,839 Speaker 1: it straight, get it right, you know what I'm saying. 1017 00:43:35,880 --> 00:43:40,200 Speaker 1: And this situation happened too, And the same thing happened 1018 00:43:40,239 --> 00:43:43,359 Speaker 1: with A. Uh my brother, he in the fast right now. 1019 00:43:43,400 --> 00:43:45,640 Speaker 1: But it's looking real good for A. You know what 1020 00:43:45,640 --> 00:43:47,200 Speaker 1: I'm saying. It's looking real good for him. It look 1021 00:43:47,280 --> 00:43:50,440 Speaker 1: like he's coming home real soon. So it's a blessing. 1022 00:43:50,480 --> 00:43:53,120 Speaker 1: I can lose some good news right now. I can 1023 00:43:53,280 --> 00:43:54,880 Speaker 1: use some good news. What do you do this? 1024 00:43:55,440 --> 00:43:57,520 Speaker 2: What do you use to balance? Like all that pain 1025 00:43:57,560 --> 00:43:59,480 Speaker 2: because you gotta find some joy in your life, right, 1026 00:43:59,560 --> 00:44:01,200 Speaker 2: Like what's can you smile these days? 1027 00:44:01,320 --> 00:44:03,239 Speaker 1: So I want to be hard. A lot of times 1028 00:44:03,280 --> 00:44:05,480 Speaker 1: I act like I'm happy, Like I be acting like 1029 00:44:05,520 --> 00:44:08,600 Speaker 1: I'm happy because I understand I'm a role model. I 1030 00:44:08,719 --> 00:44:11,839 Speaker 1: got people looking up to me. I can't you can't 1031 00:44:11,920 --> 00:44:14,239 Speaker 1: do that. You can't let them see that. And I 1032 00:44:14,440 --> 00:44:16,880 Speaker 1: ain't about looking weak like I said, you were hearman 1033 00:44:17,320 --> 00:44:19,040 Speaker 1: at the end of the day. But it's like, I can't, 1034 00:44:19,640 --> 00:44:21,560 Speaker 1: I can't do that. I gotta set examples. I got 1035 00:44:21,640 --> 00:44:23,480 Speaker 1: people looking at me, so I got the stay strong 1036 00:44:23,880 --> 00:44:26,439 Speaker 1: if then I got kids that if they see me crying, 1037 00:44:26,480 --> 00:44:28,399 Speaker 1: what you think they're gonna do? You know what I'm saying. 1038 00:44:28,400 --> 00:44:29,759 Speaker 1: So if they see me break down, what you think 1039 00:44:29,760 --> 00:44:31,359 Speaker 1: they're gonna do? I got to stay strong in front 1040 00:44:31,400 --> 00:44:34,239 Speaker 1: of them, even though it be super intend be super hard. 1041 00:44:34,920 --> 00:44:36,600 Speaker 1: Do you I be having to walk hold up? Let 1042 00:44:36,640 --> 00:44:38,600 Speaker 1: me go. I gotta be real quick and cry like 1043 00:44:38,960 --> 00:44:41,480 Speaker 1: oh and then come back and we finished the situation, 1044 00:44:41,600 --> 00:44:44,440 Speaker 1: finish the conversation like it be that hard, Like do 1045 00:44:44,560 --> 00:44:44,799 Speaker 1: you have. 1046 00:44:44,920 --> 00:44:46,680 Speaker 2: Do you talk to anybody about this? Or do you 1047 00:44:46,719 --> 00:44:47,400 Speaker 2: how do you get it out? 1048 00:44:47,600 --> 00:44:49,880 Speaker 1: I tried. They I ain't gonna lie tried therapy, the 1049 00:44:50,000 --> 00:44:53,200 Speaker 1: ladies just one. I feel like she she won't giving 1050 00:44:53,239 --> 00:44:58,279 Speaker 1: it given put it now. They ain't try. Not every 1051 00:44:58,360 --> 00:45:01,200 Speaker 1: third is trashed. But she won't giving like she she 1052 00:45:02,440 --> 00:45:04,120 Speaker 1: I couldn't. I feel like I couldn't open up to her. 1053 00:45:04,160 --> 00:45:05,839 Speaker 1: She ain't make me feel like me sitting right here 1054 00:45:05,880 --> 00:45:08,480 Speaker 1: talking to you, you would have me, you would have me. 1055 00:45:08,560 --> 00:45:11,400 Speaker 1: I feel like off these cameras, I really vent like 1056 00:45:11,480 --> 00:45:12,960 Speaker 1: you were really you know what I'm saying. I really 1057 00:45:13,040 --> 00:45:15,960 Speaker 1: give you everything. You know what I'm saying. And she 1058 00:45:16,080 --> 00:45:18,239 Speaker 1: didn't give it. She ain't make me feel comfortable. It's 1059 00:45:18,280 --> 00:45:20,240 Speaker 1: like she was almost trying to be in my business 1060 00:45:20,719 --> 00:45:22,880 Speaker 1: because who I was, and it really bagged me up. 1061 00:45:22,960 --> 00:45:25,200 Speaker 2: Yeah that's not, that's not, but you know that most 1062 00:45:25,239 --> 00:45:28,040 Speaker 2: people would take three or four. Like I had a 1063 00:45:28,080 --> 00:45:30,000 Speaker 2: car accident a few years ago, and I was dealing 1064 00:45:30,080 --> 00:45:32,799 Speaker 2: with all types of PTSD wear shit, and it took 1065 00:45:32,840 --> 00:45:34,680 Speaker 2: me like I had to go to like three therapists 1066 00:45:34,719 --> 00:45:36,600 Speaker 2: before I found somebody to help me be able to 1067 00:45:36,640 --> 00:45:38,200 Speaker 2: even drive. Because I coudn't even drive. I get in 1068 00:45:38,239 --> 00:45:40,160 Speaker 2: the car, my hands and start shaking like this, and 1069 00:45:40,239 --> 00:45:41,919 Speaker 2: I was like, I'm not trying to live my life 1070 00:45:41,960 --> 00:45:44,080 Speaker 2: like this. Somebody got to help me. First couple of 1071 00:45:44,080 --> 00:45:48,640 Speaker 2: therapists I went to trash for I say that to 1072 00:45:48,719 --> 00:45:51,640 Speaker 2: you because don't just because you had one bad experience. 1073 00:45:52,160 --> 00:45:53,960 Speaker 1: But I just feel like I ain't even to talk. 1074 00:45:54,120 --> 00:45:55,839 Speaker 1: She put a bad taste in my mouth. 1075 00:45:55,920 --> 00:45:57,880 Speaker 2: So it's just like yeah, but she can't ruin it. 1076 00:45:59,239 --> 00:46:00,640 Speaker 1: I feel like I can get through it, like if 1077 00:46:00,680 --> 00:46:03,000 Speaker 1: I just like, if it's somebody like if I had, 1078 00:46:03,080 --> 00:46:05,560 Speaker 1: Like it's somebody like you were like all like, or 1079 00:46:05,640 --> 00:46:07,680 Speaker 1: somebody that I just trust dearly, like I know they 1080 00:46:07,680 --> 00:46:09,879 Speaker 1: ain't gonna use this. I got a big brother, Bam. 1081 00:46:10,400 --> 00:46:12,120 Speaker 1: I vent to him about everything that you know what 1082 00:46:12,120 --> 00:46:14,960 Speaker 1: I'm saying. I vented him about everything. My brother table 1083 00:46:15,320 --> 00:46:18,399 Speaker 1: he lost his baby mama. So we shure the same hurt. 1084 00:46:18,480 --> 00:46:21,680 Speaker 1: We share the same pain, like we like last week 1085 00:46:21,760 --> 00:46:23,600 Speaker 1: we was on the phone crown with each other because 1086 00:46:23,840 --> 00:46:27,239 Speaker 1: of the situation. And it's like, Bro, like get out 1087 00:46:27,280 --> 00:46:29,279 Speaker 1: of memory. I'm telling him to get out of memory, Like, Bro, 1088 00:46:29,440 --> 00:46:30,920 Speaker 1: I want through them. I'm like, Bro, I'm gonna help you. 1089 00:46:31,080 --> 00:46:33,080 Speaker 1: I'm gonna do this. I'm gonna get you the house. 1090 00:46:33,120 --> 00:46:34,680 Speaker 1: I'm gonna get you to come and get you set up. 1091 00:46:34,760 --> 00:46:36,560 Speaker 1: I'm gonna put your daughter in school, like we're gonna 1092 00:46:36,560 --> 00:46:39,000 Speaker 1: were gonna figure this situation out because he having a 1093 00:46:39,040 --> 00:46:43,040 Speaker 1: hard with his daughter, like adjusting to this her mama 1094 00:46:43,160 --> 00:46:45,760 Speaker 1: being gone right now. So it's like I can understand. 1095 00:46:45,800 --> 00:46:48,279 Speaker 1: I'm automatically his shoes. You see what I'm saying. 1096 00:46:48,400 --> 00:46:52,480 Speaker 2: So you built like it's almost like a support group. Yeah, 1097 00:46:52,600 --> 00:46:55,200 Speaker 2: gotta support you figured out your I got another. 1098 00:46:55,280 --> 00:46:57,279 Speaker 1: I got another one of my homeboys I grew up 1099 00:46:57,280 --> 00:46:59,920 Speaker 1: with his name Shad. He lost his baby mama too, 1100 00:47:00,120 --> 00:47:02,600 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So it's like he was 1101 00:47:02,640 --> 00:47:05,240 Speaker 1: like he called me for advice, like he lost a recently. 1102 00:47:05,520 --> 00:47:08,040 Speaker 1: He called me, like, bro, how you deal with it? 1103 00:47:08,160 --> 00:47:09,920 Speaker 1: Like how you you know what I'm saying. I got 1104 00:47:09,960 --> 00:47:12,160 Speaker 1: a song hurt Man. Like it's a song called hurt Man. 1105 00:47:12,200 --> 00:47:16,520 Speaker 1: I'm speaking on the like like I hit table for advice. 1106 00:47:16,560 --> 00:47:18,560 Speaker 1: Ask me. He's like, no amount of money gonna be 1107 00:47:18,560 --> 00:47:21,680 Speaker 1: able to fix that. No matter what type of bag 1108 00:47:21,760 --> 00:47:23,640 Speaker 1: you get in, what you're gonna be happy for. Man, 1109 00:47:23,680 --> 00:47:26,000 Speaker 1: you're gonna be happy, gonna get through it. But you're 1110 00:47:26,040 --> 00:47:28,759 Speaker 1: still gonna think about this. You never finna forget about this, bro. 1111 00:47:28,840 --> 00:47:32,000 Speaker 1: First of all, because you got kids, you know what, 1112 00:47:32,480 --> 00:47:34,719 Speaker 1: you got to carry them. You gotta tok them. So 1113 00:47:34,840 --> 00:47:37,279 Speaker 1: it's like I'm getting to that point, like getting them 1114 00:47:37,320 --> 00:47:41,120 Speaker 1: out of town, seeing different stuff, putting a smile on 1115 00:47:41,200 --> 00:47:43,400 Speaker 1: their face. But you know how it is. 1116 00:47:44,400 --> 00:47:46,080 Speaker 2: How do you do that? How do you how do 1117 00:47:46,160 --> 00:47:47,160 Speaker 2: you put smiles on it? 1118 00:47:47,280 --> 00:47:47,320 Speaker 1: Like? 1119 00:47:47,360 --> 00:47:49,200 Speaker 2: What's that? What's a normal day in the house? 1120 00:47:49,280 --> 00:47:52,400 Speaker 1: Like, you know, I gotta I gotta humbly speaking, I 1121 00:47:52,440 --> 00:47:53,880 Speaker 1: got a big I got a nice house. You know 1122 00:47:53,920 --> 00:47:55,080 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I got a big house. So we 1123 00:47:55,200 --> 00:47:57,200 Speaker 1: run through the house. I'm playing with them, We jump 1124 00:47:57,280 --> 00:47:58,880 Speaker 1: in the pool, we were I got four wheelers, I 1125 00:47:58,880 --> 00:48:02,080 Speaker 1: got the fund. Yeah we all. Yeah, we get active. 1126 00:48:02,840 --> 00:48:05,080 Speaker 1: We get active, and I take them. I go like 1127 00:48:05,200 --> 00:48:07,680 Speaker 1: I take my girls on dinner dates. Try to let 1128 00:48:07,760 --> 00:48:11,680 Speaker 1: them know, like this, how you like, Oh, I love that. 1129 00:48:11,920 --> 00:48:13,440 Speaker 1: That's how your man suposed to treat you when you 1130 00:48:13,520 --> 00:48:15,239 Speaker 1: get in there. Because you know, my daughter, like I said, 1131 00:48:15,280 --> 00:48:17,680 Speaker 1: she's fourteen, I gotta go and paint their pictures. She 1132 00:48:17,760 --> 00:48:19,960 Speaker 1: might she might take me, dad, daddy, can we go 1133 00:48:20,000 --> 00:48:22,400 Speaker 1: to the nail shop today? Why not? You know what 1134 00:48:22,400 --> 00:48:24,239 Speaker 1: I'm saying. It's probably four minutes away from the house, 1135 00:48:24,600 --> 00:48:26,400 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So there's like stuff like that, 1136 00:48:26,560 --> 00:48:27,360 Speaker 1: you have to do that. 1137 00:48:27,800 --> 00:48:28,840 Speaker 2: You go on daddy. 1138 00:48:29,120 --> 00:48:32,680 Speaker 1: Yeah, I take fact. Yeah, I took him on a date. 1139 00:48:32,960 --> 00:48:37,360 Speaker 1: You know, we ate and then my boys, you know, 1140 00:48:37,440 --> 00:48:40,600 Speaker 1: we do the rough stuff. You know, they into baseball football, 1141 00:48:40,760 --> 00:48:43,280 Speaker 1: So I go to baseball games. I go to football 1142 00:48:43,440 --> 00:48:45,560 Speaker 1: just supportive. You know what, even if I got if 1143 00:48:45,600 --> 00:48:47,800 Speaker 1: I'm craym will work, I still just figure out. I 1144 00:48:48,040 --> 00:48:49,759 Speaker 1: pause it for two three hours and let me go 1145 00:48:49,840 --> 00:48:51,520 Speaker 1: do that. It ain't gonna hurt because I do how 1146 00:48:51,560 --> 00:48:53,440 Speaker 1: I do, how do my songs, and how I do 1147 00:48:53,520 --> 00:48:55,359 Speaker 1: my stuff. It's like, ain't gonna hurt. 1148 00:48:55,600 --> 00:48:58,160 Speaker 2: Ain't hurt nothing we had. I did an interview a 1149 00:48:58,160 --> 00:49:00,800 Speaker 2: couple of weeks, a couple of episodes ago with Kelly Clarkson, 1150 00:49:00,840 --> 00:49:02,840 Speaker 2: who had been through a bad voice and stuff, and 1151 00:49:02,880 --> 00:49:05,840 Speaker 2: she was talking about how she she lets her kids know, 1152 00:49:06,640 --> 00:49:09,799 Speaker 2: because everybody's different about this with their kids. She lets 1153 00:49:09,800 --> 00:49:12,800 Speaker 2: her kids know when she's going through something. Are you 1154 00:49:12,920 --> 00:49:13,399 Speaker 2: that typing? 1155 00:49:13,840 --> 00:49:17,879 Speaker 1: She's like, yeah, this is what I'm doing, like right now. 1156 00:49:18,040 --> 00:49:23,759 Speaker 1: And it was like like like having this conversation, Okay, 1157 00:49:23,800 --> 00:49:26,319 Speaker 1: I'm straighten up for them, like all right, so it's 1158 00:49:26,360 --> 00:49:29,560 Speaker 1: like I'm just cranking it up, like I'm just getting 1159 00:49:29,600 --> 00:49:31,880 Speaker 1: into the modes and like really like getting into their 1160 00:49:31,920 --> 00:49:34,680 Speaker 1: life because it was almost over fear, Like I was 1161 00:49:34,800 --> 00:49:38,600 Speaker 1: more feared like and I say they because like they 1162 00:49:38,680 --> 00:49:40,680 Speaker 1: was like my three kids. They were with their mama 1163 00:49:40,719 --> 00:49:42,640 Speaker 1: all the time, and it's just all kinds. I was 1164 00:49:42,680 --> 00:49:46,719 Speaker 1: almost scared to almost know certain stuff because how I 1165 00:49:46,800 --> 00:49:49,000 Speaker 1: might reactle how I might take it if I'm making 1166 00:49:49,080 --> 00:49:52,520 Speaker 1: sense to you. And it's like my daughter, you know, 1167 00:49:53,280 --> 00:49:56,759 Speaker 1: like too, She'll be like, man, it's crazy. I'd be 1168 00:49:56,840 --> 00:49:59,480 Speaker 1: like what like talking about her mama, talking about the 1169 00:49:59,680 --> 00:50:02,320 Speaker 1: mama situation, like just me, she used to love me, 1170 00:50:02,400 --> 00:50:04,120 Speaker 1: blah blah blah. Jay. She went to a point where 1171 00:50:04,120 --> 00:50:06,600 Speaker 1: she was like like saying she wanted something to happen 1172 00:50:06,640 --> 00:50:09,120 Speaker 1: to her. I had to get it. I had like 1173 00:50:09,239 --> 00:50:12,279 Speaker 1: she's ten, like you see what I'm saying. So I 1174 00:50:12,400 --> 00:50:14,600 Speaker 1: had to like we and this talk right there, so 1175 00:50:14,719 --> 00:50:16,680 Speaker 1: fresh you're talking about like before I got on the 1176 00:50:16,760 --> 00:50:19,200 Speaker 1: flight and came out here and came to New York. 1177 00:50:19,280 --> 00:50:21,560 Speaker 1: We just had to talk. She was just like it 1178 00:50:21,680 --> 00:50:24,239 Speaker 1: was real emotional. You know what I'm saying that it 1179 00:50:24,360 --> 00:50:24,759 Speaker 1: was tough. 1180 00:50:24,920 --> 00:50:25,120 Speaker 2: It was. 1181 00:50:25,280 --> 00:50:27,480 Speaker 1: It was a real tough situation. So that's why I be. 1182 00:50:28,000 --> 00:50:29,960 Speaker 1: I be kind of scared, Like I be kind of 1183 00:50:30,000 --> 00:50:32,239 Speaker 1: scared on stuff like that. But I but I got 1184 00:50:32,320 --> 00:50:35,160 Speaker 1: to be. I'm daddy. I gotta be. You know, I'm 1185 00:50:35,200 --> 00:50:36,680 Speaker 1: the man, so I gotta do that. 1186 00:50:36,880 --> 00:50:38,480 Speaker 2: The fact that your kids talk to you the way 1187 00:50:38,480 --> 00:50:40,200 Speaker 2: they do says a lot about the type of parents 1188 00:50:40,239 --> 00:50:40,480 Speaker 2: you are. 1189 00:50:40,719 --> 00:50:43,160 Speaker 1: No, for sure, they get to open up with my 1190 00:50:43,200 --> 00:50:48,120 Speaker 1: little girl, my oldest girl. She she's just getting into that. 1191 00:50:48,360 --> 00:50:51,640 Speaker 1: Like my other ones, they so vocal, be scary younger, 1192 00:50:51,719 --> 00:50:55,520 Speaker 1: the younger ones they like super vocal, way vocal than her, 1193 00:50:56,120 --> 00:50:59,000 Speaker 1: Like she quiet and to herself and we have to 1194 00:50:59,040 --> 00:51:00,680 Speaker 1: get it out of and push it out over she 1195 00:51:00,760 --> 00:51:03,120 Speaker 1: might go vent to a woman because I probably can't 1196 00:51:03,120 --> 00:51:05,200 Speaker 1: answer certain questions. And she used to Mama too, like 1197 00:51:05,200 --> 00:51:07,360 Speaker 1: they were like best friend. That why she taking it 1198 00:51:07,440 --> 00:51:09,600 Speaker 1: so hard. She take it so hard too, So it's 1199 00:51:09,719 --> 00:51:13,399 Speaker 1: like she was. It's like she don't she don't talk 1200 00:51:13,520 --> 00:51:16,239 Speaker 1: too much. But I'm getting them edging. I'm getting it 1201 00:51:16,320 --> 00:51:17,800 Speaker 1: in there and then you know, like I told you, 1202 00:51:17,800 --> 00:51:20,359 Speaker 1: I got my brother. He lost his daughter, lost her 1203 00:51:20,400 --> 00:51:23,720 Speaker 1: mama too, so he's telling me how to. He's helping 1204 00:51:23,760 --> 00:51:25,839 Speaker 1: me how to like start conversation with her and get 1205 00:51:25,880 --> 00:51:26,319 Speaker 1: that going. 1206 00:51:26,520 --> 00:51:28,960 Speaker 2: Yeah, one day at a time, Yeah, for surely. And 1207 00:51:29,080 --> 00:51:31,239 Speaker 2: you have prayer too, right, like you pray, pray hard. 1208 00:51:31,360 --> 00:51:34,160 Speaker 1: And I really be saying, like I don't know about 1209 00:51:34,200 --> 00:51:38,000 Speaker 1: the other people and whoever else just claim they into 1210 00:51:38,080 --> 00:51:41,320 Speaker 1: their life. I really see what I pray for because 1211 00:51:41,320 --> 00:51:44,520 Speaker 1: I really like sacrifice, like for God, like sacrifice. I 1212 00:51:44,560 --> 00:51:47,279 Speaker 1: put all my faith in God, and I really sacrifice 1213 00:51:47,320 --> 00:51:49,759 Speaker 1: for God. You see what I'm saying, like like just 1214 00:51:49,920 --> 00:51:51,759 Speaker 1: what I said, Like when I'm saying like rama don 1215 00:51:51,880 --> 00:51:56,520 Speaker 1: ramadans well last last month, and I'm still going, you're 1216 00:51:56,520 --> 00:51:59,160 Speaker 1: still doing you know what I'm saying. I'm still I'm 1217 00:51:59,200 --> 00:52:01,239 Speaker 1: still fast, but I'm doing it like I'm doing it, 1218 00:52:01,480 --> 00:52:05,040 Speaker 1: you know how I'm doing it. It's just like I 1219 00:52:05,160 --> 00:52:07,719 Speaker 1: get my prayers get answered. God opened my eyes. I 1220 00:52:07,800 --> 00:52:11,479 Speaker 1: see everything clear. I swear to God, I see everything clear. 1221 00:52:11,600 --> 00:52:15,160 Speaker 1: Is like everything clear now, and it's like I'm almost 1222 00:52:15,239 --> 00:52:18,040 Speaker 1: like this, so I'm fin to live like this exactly 1223 00:52:18,120 --> 00:52:20,160 Speaker 1: how I might take two weeks off. I'm not fast, 1224 00:52:20,320 --> 00:52:21,120 Speaker 1: but I feel like. 1225 00:52:22,040 --> 00:52:25,320 Speaker 2: Health wise, if that's you probably should make sure. 1226 00:52:25,160 --> 00:52:27,360 Speaker 1: That I say, make sure it is okay to just 1227 00:52:27,480 --> 00:52:30,200 Speaker 1: live like that every single day. But uh that what 1228 00:52:30,280 --> 00:52:32,319 Speaker 1: I say, Like I might take two weeks a month 1229 00:52:32,400 --> 00:52:34,359 Speaker 1: off and then get right back to it. But it's 1230 00:52:34,440 --> 00:52:37,359 Speaker 1: like it's like when I'm when I'm in that world, 1231 00:52:37,440 --> 00:52:39,600 Speaker 1: like when I'm eating and I'm doing drugs and other 1232 00:52:39,640 --> 00:52:40,640 Speaker 1: stuff like that. It's like you. 1233 00:52:40,760 --> 00:52:44,879 Speaker 2: Blind, Yeah, but it's the fast, and it's good because 1234 00:52:44,920 --> 00:52:46,440 Speaker 2: I get it used to fast too. It's like good 1235 00:52:46,480 --> 00:52:49,800 Speaker 2: with discipline and especially when you it's for spiritual reasons. 1236 00:52:50,960 --> 00:52:53,920 Speaker 2: But you can lock it with God without having a fast, exactly. 1237 00:52:55,200 --> 00:52:58,440 Speaker 1: Sure, for sure it didn't happen before I locked in 1238 00:52:58,600 --> 00:53:00,920 Speaker 1: with them men time a lot of times. 1239 00:53:01,200 --> 00:53:03,800 Speaker 2: Whatever fast it's got you here, it's amazing. 1240 00:53:04,080 --> 00:53:06,520 Speaker 1: I don't get me here like I didn't got through 1241 00:53:06,560 --> 00:53:11,239 Speaker 1: some sticky situation. Exactly. I didn't got through some sticky situations. 1242 00:53:11,280 --> 00:53:14,080 Speaker 1: And a lot of people like, bro, you is like 1243 00:53:14,680 --> 00:53:18,000 Speaker 1: like the people that's the guys beside me, they be like, bro, you, 1244 00:53:18,280 --> 00:53:20,239 Speaker 1: I ain't never seen nobody strong with you. I ain't 1245 00:53:20,239 --> 00:53:23,719 Speaker 1: gonna lie. It's like they say, they say they never 1246 00:53:23,800 --> 00:53:26,319 Speaker 1: seen nobody strong with me, like real tight, Like bro, 1247 00:53:26,440 --> 00:53:29,880 Speaker 1: we can't tell you going through stuff. You see what 1248 00:53:29,920 --> 00:53:32,279 Speaker 1: I'm saying, Like I'll be that great, I'll be that 1249 00:53:32,440 --> 00:53:35,200 Speaker 1: good at like just being a role mode is just 1250 00:53:35,760 --> 00:53:38,440 Speaker 1: covering it up. Like man folk look up to me. 1251 00:53:38,480 --> 00:53:41,479 Speaker 1: I can't let the I got artists like Defoe saying 1252 00:53:41,520 --> 00:53:43,080 Speaker 1: to me, I can't let them see me like this, 1253 00:53:43,320 --> 00:53:45,399 Speaker 1: Like they can't see me like this. Of course that's 1254 00:53:45,400 --> 00:53:46,960 Speaker 1: what That's what the shower for us. It is what 1255 00:53:47,040 --> 00:53:48,759 Speaker 1: the bathroom for. It's what the song. 1256 00:53:49,520 --> 00:53:54,840 Speaker 2: You go to the gym, I'll be ready way just 1257 00:53:55,520 --> 00:53:57,680 Speaker 2: for your team if you ever go to the bathroom 1258 00:53:57,680 --> 00:53:59,920 Speaker 2: when you're in there too long, somebody finn. 1259 00:54:01,080 --> 00:54:04,640 Speaker 1: I just broke the ice, I confessed. Gat me, Yeah, 1260 00:54:04,640 --> 00:54:06,480 Speaker 1: I gat me. At least I ain't doing nothing else 1261 00:54:06,520 --> 00:54:07,080 Speaker 1: when I go on in. 1262 00:54:07,840 --> 00:54:11,080 Speaker 2: Because people go to vicens, people go to drugs. 1263 00:54:10,920 --> 00:54:14,040 Speaker 1: Exactly, run to drugs in the bathroom. You know what 1264 00:54:14,080 --> 00:54:14,439 Speaker 1: I'm saying. 1265 00:54:14,520 --> 00:54:17,120 Speaker 2: You said that in one of the songs because I 1266 00:54:17,160 --> 00:54:19,320 Speaker 2: got a little they sent me a sample of a mixtape. 1267 00:54:19,760 --> 00:54:22,920 Speaker 2: You said that in one of the songs about FANOYL 1268 00:54:23,200 --> 00:54:24,120 Speaker 2: and drugs. 1269 00:54:23,800 --> 00:54:26,040 Speaker 1: And oh yeah, feeling like feting all on the street, 1270 00:54:26,160 --> 00:54:27,120 Speaker 1: Like that's what's going on. 1271 00:54:28,360 --> 00:54:29,839 Speaker 2: How did you start that song? It was I can't 1272 00:54:29,840 --> 00:54:31,680 Speaker 2: remember write the second something about. 1273 00:54:31,719 --> 00:54:37,200 Speaker 1: I said what I say, what is more get nauseous? 1274 00:54:37,840 --> 00:54:39,560 Speaker 1: You know, take taking these drugs. 1275 00:54:39,680 --> 00:54:43,719 Speaker 2: Taking these drugs like you're not taking on drugs right now. 1276 00:54:43,600 --> 00:54:47,320 Speaker 1: Because you not for sure. I'm clean, but you know 1277 00:54:47,440 --> 00:54:49,320 Speaker 1: I have. I can talk about it because I've done it, 1278 00:54:49,480 --> 00:54:52,600 Speaker 1: and I do it, you know what I'm saying occasionally, 1279 00:54:52,640 --> 00:54:54,799 Speaker 1: But I ain't doing no like no crazy. We're doing 1280 00:54:54,880 --> 00:54:58,200 Speaker 1: the norm like drank weed, you know, yeah, stuff like 1281 00:54:58,280 --> 00:55:00,919 Speaker 1: they might pop up here in there, Oh my god, 1282 00:55:01,239 --> 00:55:03,560 Speaker 1: get the hanks off. You know. It ain't nothing to 1283 00:55:03,600 --> 00:55:05,160 Speaker 1: throw me, ain't nothing to throw me out. 1284 00:55:05,600 --> 00:55:08,759 Speaker 2: I r L does not support or condone ye stay 1285 00:55:08,760 --> 00:55:13,240 Speaker 2: away from for any reason. We don't need you tapping 1286 00:55:13,239 --> 00:55:15,560 Speaker 2: into vices because when you go through trauma and grief 1287 00:55:15,640 --> 00:55:17,160 Speaker 2: and all that type of stuff. 1288 00:55:16,960 --> 00:55:19,759 Speaker 1: But it do it puts you and on this song 1289 00:55:19,880 --> 00:55:21,920 Speaker 1: more sick on speaking, it's like the outro, that's the 1290 00:55:22,040 --> 00:55:25,440 Speaker 1: last song. I'm saying stuff like at the end, I'm 1291 00:55:25,480 --> 00:55:28,520 Speaker 1: talking like I'm telling them why did it took me 1292 00:55:28,640 --> 00:55:31,239 Speaker 1: two years to not put out music? Why it took 1293 00:55:31,320 --> 00:55:34,160 Speaker 1: that long? And what I was doing running to Sometimes 1294 00:55:34,200 --> 00:55:35,799 Speaker 1: when you're going through a lot of stuff, you run 1295 00:55:35,880 --> 00:55:39,840 Speaker 1: to drugs like weed, peels and drunk. You know what 1296 00:55:39,880 --> 00:55:42,759 Speaker 1: I'm saying. But I'm taking this thinking it's gonna cure 1297 00:55:42,800 --> 00:55:45,600 Speaker 1: me because it's supposed to be medicine quote unquote medicine, 1298 00:55:45,880 --> 00:55:48,719 Speaker 1: and it's making me more sick. You get what I'm saying. 1299 00:55:49,280 --> 00:55:51,080 Speaker 1: So that's how it even came up with their whole 1300 00:55:51,239 --> 00:55:51,719 Speaker 1: title the. 1301 00:55:51,920 --> 00:55:54,520 Speaker 2: Very easy to slip into an addiction when you and 1302 00:55:54,600 --> 00:55:56,120 Speaker 2: you got undealt. 1303 00:55:55,640 --> 00:55:59,040 Speaker 1: With and then the will draws. It's terrible doing dealing 1304 00:55:59,120 --> 00:56:01,319 Speaker 1: with that. Been through all it because I like when 1305 00:56:01,360 --> 00:56:03,279 Speaker 1: I first came in, that's what made me get my 1306 00:56:03,840 --> 00:56:05,640 Speaker 1: physique together and just try to stay in the gym 1307 00:56:05,719 --> 00:56:08,360 Speaker 1: and start to stay focused of just being on the 1308 00:56:08,400 --> 00:56:11,279 Speaker 1: stage being full of drink before I go perform, just 1309 00:56:11,320 --> 00:56:14,160 Speaker 1: a fat slob and just stomach. I got a video 1310 00:56:14,239 --> 00:56:17,200 Speaker 1: I can show you. You probably won't even believe it's me. Wow, 1311 00:56:17,760 --> 00:56:20,160 Speaker 1: And it's just like I overcame this situation. 1312 00:56:20,880 --> 00:56:22,080 Speaker 2: Yo, what is this motivation? 1313 00:56:22,320 --> 00:56:22,360 Speaker 1: Like? 1314 00:56:22,400 --> 00:56:23,520 Speaker 2: Where do you get that from? 1315 00:56:23,600 --> 00:56:25,880 Speaker 1: What is that? It's really like I said, it's a 1316 00:56:26,000 --> 00:56:28,160 Speaker 1: disciplined thing. It's just prayer and it's just me. I 1317 00:56:28,320 --> 00:56:29,680 Speaker 1: just know what I want to be. I look at 1318 00:56:29,800 --> 00:56:32,839 Speaker 1: certain things like the workout stuff. I'd be like, I'll 1319 00:56:32,880 --> 00:56:35,320 Speaker 1: be on Instagram. You know the reels come through. I 1320 00:56:35,400 --> 00:56:37,600 Speaker 1: look at the reels and I see man got their 1321 00:56:37,600 --> 00:56:40,520 Speaker 1: stuff together, They got their get my you know what 1322 00:56:40,560 --> 00:56:42,879 Speaker 1: I'm saying. Sometimes I have to look at that. Don't 1323 00:56:43,080 --> 00:56:44,840 Speaker 1: get mine together. You know what I'm saying, Get you 1324 00:56:44,920 --> 00:56:46,800 Speaker 1: some discipline, to give me some discipline to get my 1325 00:56:46,840 --> 00:56:48,759 Speaker 1: stuff together. Then don't finish go on tour. You don't 1326 00:56:48,760 --> 00:56:50,640 Speaker 1: want to look weak on them pictures, and you don't 1327 00:56:50,640 --> 00:56:52,080 Speaker 1: want to look you want to look good. You want 1328 00:56:52,080 --> 00:56:53,600 Speaker 1: to know what I'm saying. You want to look like 1329 00:56:53,680 --> 00:56:54,400 Speaker 1: who you supposed to be. 1330 00:56:54,600 --> 00:56:55,800 Speaker 2: What do you see for yourself? 1331 00:56:55,880 --> 00:56:59,560 Speaker 1: Like what is the like? What what is the thing? 1332 00:56:59,680 --> 00:57:01,440 Speaker 1: Looking to get right? They finna see me? I got 1333 00:57:01,480 --> 00:57:02,439 Speaker 1: the tour coming up. 1334 00:57:03,280 --> 00:57:06,600 Speaker 2: Physically, I mean your whole life, like with your kids 1335 00:57:06,640 --> 00:57:10,120 Speaker 2: and you just you as a man, your business, artist, 1336 00:57:10,239 --> 00:57:15,040 Speaker 2: a dad, a partner, and like where do you see 1337 00:57:15,080 --> 00:57:16,720 Speaker 2: I don't know five ten years like what do you 1338 00:57:16,840 --> 00:57:19,160 Speaker 2: what do you say? What are you working towards? 1339 00:57:19,560 --> 00:57:23,400 Speaker 1: I'm working to it. I'm just continually carving my legacy 1340 00:57:24,080 --> 00:57:28,880 Speaker 1: and and just you know, changing the narrative, changing the 1341 00:57:29,280 --> 00:57:32,360 Speaker 1: narrative on from somebody coming from Memphis, you coming from 1342 00:57:32,480 --> 00:57:34,320 Speaker 1: just the good a part of myths. This is another thud. 1343 00:57:34,600 --> 00:57:37,800 Speaker 1: He's face, his face tatted up, his tattoos everywhere. He 1344 00:57:37,880 --> 00:57:40,120 Speaker 1: looked too gangster. He looks he was like a monster. 1345 00:57:40,480 --> 00:57:42,480 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, I'm changing it up. You 1346 00:57:42,560 --> 00:57:44,640 Speaker 1: know what I saying, changing their whole narrative, like, oh, 1347 00:57:44,720 --> 00:57:47,320 Speaker 1: the restaurant Cachet forty two. You know what I'm saying, 1348 00:57:48,520 --> 00:57:50,800 Speaker 1: the land Did you feel like that? 1349 00:57:50,960 --> 00:57:52,560 Speaker 2: Like people look at you like a monster at some. 1350 00:57:52,600 --> 00:57:55,200 Speaker 1: Point, like I hear that through people be like, bro, 1351 00:57:55,320 --> 00:57:57,959 Speaker 1: you mean like they'd be like you, like you mother, 1352 00:57:58,040 --> 00:58:03,000 Speaker 1: go just straight face mafia you poker face scared, scare people. 1353 00:58:03,040 --> 00:58:05,080 Speaker 1: And then it's just like right now, this with this 1354 00:58:05,240 --> 00:58:07,600 Speaker 1: whole rollout and everything I'm doing right now, it's just 1355 00:58:07,720 --> 00:58:10,760 Speaker 1: like I ain't letting you all the way in because 1356 00:58:10,800 --> 00:58:12,840 Speaker 1: you never can get them everything. You can't do that 1357 00:58:13,000 --> 00:58:15,000 Speaker 1: on the vice. Nobody is watching us to do that. 1358 00:58:15,600 --> 00:58:17,640 Speaker 1: But you have to open up. You have to open 1359 00:58:17,760 --> 00:58:20,520 Speaker 1: up and let them know like you hearming too, Like 1360 00:58:20,600 --> 00:58:22,880 Speaker 1: I go through with you on you, I go through 1361 00:58:22,920 --> 00:58:25,520 Speaker 1: what you go through at a higher level on a 1362 00:58:25,560 --> 00:58:28,400 Speaker 1: bigger scale, on a bigger scale in my life, like 1363 00:58:28,520 --> 00:58:32,040 Speaker 1: on the on the microscope, and it's it's way different. 1364 00:58:32,200 --> 00:58:35,680 Speaker 1: Like so stuff that somebody normal regular might do, an 1365 00:58:35,720 --> 00:58:39,320 Speaker 1: average Joe, he ain't gonna get the backlash or anything 1366 00:58:39,360 --> 00:58:42,600 Speaker 1: I'm gonna get mm hm. So you gotta like learn 1367 00:58:42,680 --> 00:58:44,040 Speaker 1: how to clean up your egg and get right. 1368 00:58:44,520 --> 00:58:46,960 Speaker 2: You push it through though, like you need an award. 1369 00:58:48,000 --> 00:58:49,640 Speaker 1: You don't get no real nigga ward. They don't get 1370 00:58:49,720 --> 00:58:51,360 Speaker 1: no real nigga wards out what you need. 1371 00:58:53,360 --> 00:58:55,560 Speaker 2: You should start that award ceremony. 1372 00:58:55,760 --> 00:58:57,520 Speaker 1: It'll be hard. How do I start. 1373 00:58:59,440 --> 00:59:02,880 Speaker 2: Up? First of all, get it copyright, like, get a 1374 00:59:03,120 --> 00:59:05,800 Speaker 2: get a stamp, just give me a small piece because 1375 00:59:05,800 --> 00:59:07,920 Speaker 2: I feel like this is someone my idea, but you 1376 00:59:08,000 --> 00:59:12,160 Speaker 2: can do whatever. I trust you. I trust you to 1377 00:59:12,200 --> 00:59:15,600 Speaker 2: be fair. You start and then you pick them. It's 1378 00:59:15,640 --> 00:59:17,920 Speaker 2: something to this. You could let already come out and 1379 00:59:18,040 --> 00:59:19,920 Speaker 2: she could be like the hostess. 1380 00:59:22,560 --> 00:59:25,520 Speaker 1: Bed. That's a great idea. Thanks. 1381 00:59:25,840 --> 00:59:27,480 Speaker 2: You can put it on YouTube once. It could be 1382 00:59:27,560 --> 00:59:31,120 Speaker 2: on any platform you want. Once a year. You did 1383 00:59:31,160 --> 00:59:35,280 Speaker 2: it apart ceremony, you get got involved. 1384 00:59:35,840 --> 00:59:37,600 Speaker 1: I got you know, I got the relationships, Now the 1385 00:59:37,680 --> 00:59:39,320 Speaker 1: resources I can I can pull it off. 1386 00:59:39,960 --> 00:59:40,600 Speaker 2: I love this for you. 1387 00:59:41,880 --> 00:59:44,600 Speaker 1: I love this for you. How much? 1388 00:59:44,760 --> 00:59:46,960 Speaker 2: How much of that gets you excited? Like business and 1389 00:59:47,120 --> 00:59:49,080 Speaker 2: ideas and I like got. 1390 00:59:49,080 --> 00:59:51,440 Speaker 1: I'll tell you that. Anybody that's around me, they'll be like, bro, 1391 00:59:51,560 --> 00:59:55,120 Speaker 1: you super creative. Like all my videos I do that, 1392 00:59:55,280 --> 00:59:57,000 Speaker 1: Like I come up with them treatments. I come up 1393 00:59:57,000 --> 01:00:00,800 Speaker 1: with these ideas. How you finished see stuff going down? 1394 01:00:00,840 --> 01:00:03,520 Speaker 1: With these videos and everything I'm using right now, it's 1395 01:00:03,600 --> 01:00:06,640 Speaker 1: like my ideas, Like I read them. I'm all way 1396 01:00:06,720 --> 01:00:09,280 Speaker 1: in it. I'm on the front line by man, Like, yeah, 1397 01:00:09,440 --> 01:00:11,280 Speaker 1: I don't just sit down and wait for somebody to 1398 01:00:11,360 --> 01:00:11,920 Speaker 1: do something for me. 1399 01:00:12,200 --> 01:00:14,520 Speaker 2: What about connecting with God? It was this something because 1400 01:00:14,560 --> 01:00:17,920 Speaker 2: I imagine he's similar, like he's clearly. 1401 01:00:17,720 --> 01:00:19,760 Speaker 1: Oh and got it most definitely. Or he give me 1402 01:00:19,840 --> 01:00:22,600 Speaker 1: great ideas too. I don't want to take all the 1403 01:00:22,720 --> 01:00:25,200 Speaker 1: full credit of credit, but he give me a lot 1404 01:00:25,200 --> 01:00:27,640 Speaker 1: of great ideas. And even if I bring it to him, 1405 01:00:27,680 --> 01:00:29,240 Speaker 1: he'll twist it be like how a beut we do it? 1406 01:00:29,320 --> 01:00:32,000 Speaker 1: Like this, this and it and like and you. It's 1407 01:00:32,080 --> 01:00:34,280 Speaker 1: just a great thing with God. It's just a great relationship. 1408 01:00:34,360 --> 01:00:36,760 Speaker 1: He just always listen in my corner. At the end 1409 01:00:36,800 --> 01:00:39,600 Speaker 1: of the day, he always my best interest, and some people, 1410 01:00:39,760 --> 01:00:41,800 Speaker 1: like a lot of people don't even get this far, 1411 01:00:41,960 --> 01:00:44,080 Speaker 1: like we didn't get fought, Like we didn't with this, 1412 01:00:44,280 --> 01:00:47,920 Speaker 1: this whole journey, journey, we didn't came far from twenty seventeen. 1413 01:00:48,480 --> 01:00:51,000 Speaker 1: We didn't get fought. And I just say, because I'm 1414 01:00:51,040 --> 01:00:53,520 Speaker 1: not in competition with God. God is not in competition 1415 01:00:53,640 --> 01:00:55,680 Speaker 1: with me. He's not trying to hold me back. He 1416 01:00:55,800 --> 01:00:57,360 Speaker 1: wanted to see me bigger. You know what I'm saying. 1417 01:00:57,360 --> 01:00:59,040 Speaker 1: You want to see me bigger than him. Damn there. 1418 01:00:59,080 --> 01:01:01,320 Speaker 1: So it's just like you feel what I'm saying. It's 1419 01:01:01,360 --> 01:01:03,160 Speaker 1: like and this is where people bump heads a lot, 1420 01:01:03,200 --> 01:01:05,440 Speaker 1: when you see CEOs and artists falling out and they 1421 01:01:05,560 --> 01:01:09,160 Speaker 1: mad about this is because somebody's in competition or ego 1422 01:01:09,600 --> 01:01:11,840 Speaker 1: egos but got it led out to like, bro, I'm 1423 01:01:11,880 --> 01:01:14,280 Speaker 1: with you right or wrong. So however you I'm gonna 1424 01:01:14,320 --> 01:01:16,520 Speaker 1: lea it out to you like this if you want 1425 01:01:16,560 --> 01:01:17,120 Speaker 1: to go your way. 1426 01:01:17,360 --> 01:01:19,360 Speaker 2: Hey, was it hard for you to trust him? 1427 01:01:20,000 --> 01:01:22,880 Speaker 1: Trust the process? Yeah? Because you like coming trust and 1428 01:01:22,960 --> 01:01:25,480 Speaker 1: trust coming from the screee, Like you hear stuff like that? 1429 01:01:25,600 --> 01:01:27,320 Speaker 1: What made me want to take the chance to coming 1430 01:01:27,360 --> 01:01:29,760 Speaker 1: from the screee. You hear stuff like, man, don't sound 1431 01:01:29,800 --> 01:01:31,960 Speaker 1: on't got it, don't sound we got it? Bro, you 1432 01:01:32,040 --> 01:01:34,160 Speaker 1: can Man, You're gonna be bigger than that. Don't do 1433 01:01:34,280 --> 01:01:37,000 Speaker 1: that and don't he he what about this artist? What 1434 01:01:37,080 --> 01:01:39,680 Speaker 1: a rest? What about either other man? That man? Ain't like? 1435 01:01:40,200 --> 01:01:42,080 Speaker 1: That is not it? Man? That ain't that ain't true. 1436 01:01:42,080 --> 01:01:44,400 Speaker 1: None of that ain't even true. You feel me, You 1437 01:01:44,560 --> 01:01:48,760 Speaker 1: control your freuture like literally like you control your freachure. 1438 01:01:48,760 --> 01:01:50,960 Speaker 1: And I'm in the world saying it right now. I 1439 01:01:51,120 --> 01:01:53,440 Speaker 1: literally like he put it. He put it to you 1440 01:01:53,600 --> 01:01:55,080 Speaker 1: like that. You can do it or you can go 1441 01:01:55,200 --> 01:01:58,160 Speaker 1: by this however you might think, go just do it. 1442 01:01:58,880 --> 01:01:59,400 Speaker 1: You feel me? 1443 01:02:00,200 --> 01:02:02,880 Speaker 2: Was there any pressure in the past two years for 1444 01:02:02,960 --> 01:02:04,200 Speaker 2: you to like get back to work? 1445 01:02:04,800 --> 01:02:06,880 Speaker 1: Yeah, most definitely, like he and he was like he 1446 01:02:07,040 --> 01:02:09,880 Speaker 1: was it, Like what I said that letter was more 1447 01:02:09,960 --> 01:02:12,880 Speaker 1: than the letter was more than just to my fans. 1448 01:02:12,960 --> 01:02:15,280 Speaker 1: It was people that was like in my corner. They 1449 01:02:15,640 --> 01:02:19,400 Speaker 1: was lost at one point, they was lost, like got it? Like, bro, 1450 01:02:19,520 --> 01:02:22,840 Speaker 1: what you ain't never took this long? You ain't never 1451 01:02:23,400 --> 01:02:25,800 Speaker 1: like what's going on? Talk like talk to me? 1452 01:02:25,960 --> 01:02:27,720 Speaker 2: Like did they know what was going now? 1453 01:02:27,760 --> 01:02:29,480 Speaker 1: They knew what was going on? But the I told you, 1454 01:02:29,560 --> 01:02:32,400 Speaker 1: I do so much of a great job covering it up. 1455 01:02:32,640 --> 01:02:34,360 Speaker 1: They didn't even know it was affecting me how its 1456 01:02:34,360 --> 01:02:37,440 Speaker 1: affected me, Like you feel me? I do good at 1457 01:02:37,480 --> 01:02:38,040 Speaker 1: covering it up. 1458 01:02:39,320 --> 01:02:40,520 Speaker 2: Check on your strong friend. 1459 01:02:40,480 --> 01:02:42,960 Speaker 1: Check on your people. You feel me? So it is 1460 01:02:43,080 --> 01:02:43,480 Speaker 1: what it is. 1461 01:02:43,880 --> 01:02:46,800 Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, I love that partnership. It's nice to see 1462 01:02:46,840 --> 01:02:47,920 Speaker 2: that great partnership. 1463 01:02:47,960 --> 01:02:48,800 Speaker 1: I love it, you know what I mean. 1464 01:02:49,400 --> 01:02:52,240 Speaker 2: So I have questions that I ask everybody on every 1465 01:02:52,240 --> 01:02:54,080 Speaker 2: episode of this The first question I asked, and I'm 1466 01:02:54,080 --> 01:02:56,320 Speaker 2: almost scared to ask you this question, especially. 1467 01:02:58,000 --> 01:02:59,240 Speaker 1: As m b RO. 1468 01:03:00,080 --> 01:03:01,840 Speaker 2: It's not raw. It's very simple. It's like a super 1469 01:03:01,880 --> 01:03:03,960 Speaker 2: basic question I asked. They asked me. By the way, 1470 01:03:03,960 --> 01:03:06,480 Speaker 2: I was having a really bad day today and my 1471 01:03:06,600 --> 01:03:09,480 Speaker 2: team knows the shout out to Evan, who's doing the pictures. 1472 01:03:09,920 --> 01:03:13,600 Speaker 2: I when I walked in, he was like, how happy 1473 01:03:13,640 --> 01:03:16,080 Speaker 2: are you? On a scale of one to ten, I 1474 01:03:16,240 --> 01:03:18,520 Speaker 2: was like, I'm a three, fow I was a three 1475 01:03:18,520 --> 01:03:19,800 Speaker 2: when I walked in. I was having a bad day 1476 01:03:19,840 --> 01:03:21,040 Speaker 2: today and I had. 1477 01:03:21,000 --> 01:03:23,920 Speaker 1: A little situation that was a whole bunch of shit. 1478 01:03:23,960 --> 01:03:25,920 Speaker 2: It was just a weird day. I feel good. I 1479 01:03:25,960 --> 01:03:27,440 Speaker 2: don't know. I feel like I'm doing what I'm supposed 1480 01:03:27,440 --> 01:03:31,320 Speaker 2: to be doing. And I like this conversation. I feel 1481 01:03:31,840 --> 01:03:33,240 Speaker 2: I don't know, I feel like I'm being used in 1482 01:03:33,320 --> 01:03:35,000 Speaker 2: some type of good way, in a good way, you 1483 01:03:35,080 --> 01:03:37,000 Speaker 2: know what I'm saying. So that picks me up to 1484 01:03:37,080 --> 01:03:41,680 Speaker 2: I would say right now, I'm be twenty six and 1485 01:03:41,760 --> 01:03:43,800 Speaker 2: seven Right now, I would say I'm at a six 1486 01:03:43,880 --> 01:03:47,280 Speaker 2: and seven. That's good. Right, it's on a scale of 1487 01:03:47,320 --> 01:03:49,840 Speaker 2: one to ten. How happy are you right now right now? 1488 01:03:51,080 --> 01:03:53,120 Speaker 1: Just the whole environment? I say eight? 1489 01:03:53,600 --> 01:03:55,640 Speaker 2: Really? Oh, I love that. 1490 01:03:56,320 --> 01:04:05,720 Speaker 1: I say eight this morning? Two just telling up like 1491 01:04:05,880 --> 01:04:08,040 Speaker 1: I've been up all night. So that's that's the reason 1492 01:04:08,120 --> 01:04:10,640 Speaker 1: to all night. Just just how I to be living, 1493 01:04:10,760 --> 01:04:12,720 Speaker 1: like you know what I'm saying, so boom and then 1494 01:04:12,800 --> 01:04:15,000 Speaker 1: I just got an emotions got in, traffic got going 1495 01:04:15,560 --> 01:04:18,640 Speaker 1: like you know what, I feel good. Everything out I'm 1496 01:04:18,680 --> 01:04:19,840 Speaker 1: gonna talk about it. 1497 01:04:20,080 --> 01:04:22,960 Speaker 2: Feel better to let everything out with It's weird for 1498 01:04:23,080 --> 01:04:24,680 Speaker 2: you to be sharing so much. 1499 01:04:24,720 --> 01:04:26,960 Speaker 1: Like no, I feel like I feel like they need to. 1500 01:04:27,080 --> 01:04:29,439 Speaker 1: I owe my fans that. I feel like I owe 1501 01:04:29,480 --> 01:04:31,880 Speaker 1: my fans and my the listeners, the viers, whatever, you 1502 01:04:31,920 --> 01:04:33,880 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, I owe them. I hold them 1503 01:04:34,120 --> 01:04:37,560 Speaker 1: to say something like should I've been gone two years. Yeah, 1504 01:04:37,680 --> 01:04:40,680 Speaker 1: two years without doing nothing, like no interviewers, No, I 1505 01:04:40,720 --> 01:04:42,040 Speaker 1: ain't did nothing in two years. 1506 01:04:42,840 --> 01:04:45,280 Speaker 2: I believe that, And this is one of the reasons 1507 01:04:45,280 --> 01:04:47,720 Speaker 2: I even created this podcast. I believe that us telling 1508 01:04:47,760 --> 01:04:50,320 Speaker 2: our stories and sharing it what we're willing to. Like 1509 01:04:50,360 --> 01:04:54,160 Speaker 2: you said, you know, you keep whatever you keep, But 1510 01:04:54,280 --> 01:04:56,400 Speaker 2: I think I think it helps other people who are 1511 01:04:56,440 --> 01:04:57,720 Speaker 2: in situations. 1512 01:04:57,560 --> 01:04:59,720 Speaker 1: Get through because I'm, like I said, the road model position. 1513 01:05:00,360 --> 01:05:03,200 Speaker 1: People look at this and be like, bad going, You 1514 01:05:03,280 --> 01:05:08,120 Speaker 1: were going through that, bro spunk, Yeah, motivation. 1515 01:05:08,480 --> 01:05:10,160 Speaker 2: So what is the thing Because when I look at 1516 01:05:10,160 --> 01:05:11,880 Speaker 2: your life and I think about this past year, like 1517 01:05:12,040 --> 01:05:16,720 Speaker 2: trauma and grief really yeah, like somebody who's maybe going 1518 01:05:16,760 --> 01:05:18,160 Speaker 2: through that right now, who's in the trenches of that, 1519 01:05:18,360 --> 01:05:20,360 Speaker 2: Like what what do you think is the one thing 1520 01:05:20,440 --> 01:05:25,480 Speaker 2: that that has lifted you up or helped you get 1521 01:05:25,520 --> 01:05:25,680 Speaker 2: through it? 1522 01:05:26,800 --> 01:05:29,400 Speaker 1: Like I said, like I really don't, Like I really 1523 01:05:29,440 --> 01:05:31,440 Speaker 1: had to just give all it to God really just 1524 01:05:31,520 --> 01:05:33,960 Speaker 1: he the reason. Just praying and just getting through it, 1525 01:05:34,880 --> 01:05:37,480 Speaker 1: just praying and just just staying focusing, like and He's 1526 01:05:37,520 --> 01:05:39,520 Speaker 1: making you you don't even know you're getting stronger at that. 1527 01:05:39,640 --> 01:05:41,800 Speaker 1: You don't even know you're gonna turn out like this, 1528 01:05:41,920 --> 01:05:43,520 Speaker 1: but you finally wake up and one day and like 1529 01:05:43,680 --> 01:05:47,400 Speaker 1: my goal time. Hm, there's gold time and that's what 1530 01:05:47,520 --> 01:05:50,240 Speaker 1: I made. Right now, I'm in an upcoming artists mode. 1531 01:05:50,280 --> 01:05:51,080 Speaker 1: I'm doing everything. 1532 01:05:51,240 --> 01:05:52,160 Speaker 2: You're a new artist out here. 1533 01:05:52,240 --> 01:05:53,640 Speaker 1: I'm a new artist out here. I want you to 1534 01:05:53,680 --> 01:05:55,480 Speaker 1: look at me, money bag. You're like, he's a new 1535 01:05:55,560 --> 01:05:58,200 Speaker 1: artist right here. You know what I'm saying, don't hold 1536 01:05:58,240 --> 01:06:00,360 Speaker 1: me nothing to the old bad I'm saying. 1537 01:06:00,440 --> 01:06:02,280 Speaker 2: So we drop this mixtape and then is there another? 1538 01:06:02,440 --> 01:06:03,720 Speaker 2: Is there more? Is it like an album? 1539 01:06:04,280 --> 01:06:06,200 Speaker 1: It's a mixtape. That was saying, I'm a mixtape mode. 1540 01:06:07,000 --> 01:06:09,959 Speaker 1: Im back freestyle and I'm back just then I'm letting 1541 01:06:09,960 --> 01:06:11,040 Speaker 1: it out, letting the world in. 1542 01:06:12,840 --> 01:06:14,840 Speaker 2: In real life. How important is money to you? 1543 01:06:16,280 --> 01:06:20,320 Speaker 1: Money, money bag? Yo, No, money is important because I 1544 01:06:20,400 --> 01:06:22,920 Speaker 1: mean you need it to survive. You know what I'm saying, survive. 1545 01:06:23,400 --> 01:06:26,080 Speaker 1: You got you need money to survive. But I don't 1546 01:06:26,160 --> 01:06:28,600 Speaker 1: do everything for money, like you don't supposed to do 1547 01:06:28,720 --> 01:06:31,360 Speaker 1: everything for money. All money ain't good money. You have 1548 01:06:31,440 --> 01:06:33,440 Speaker 1: to know the difference. You have to know how to 1549 01:06:33,520 --> 01:06:35,200 Speaker 1: maneuver through that. You got to know how to see 1550 01:06:35,240 --> 01:06:38,360 Speaker 1: that and spot that, like hold up and when you 1551 01:06:38,480 --> 01:06:40,720 Speaker 1: hear it, not even if like it. It's in visual, 1552 01:06:40,800 --> 01:06:42,480 Speaker 1: like you gotta know how to hear it and be like, no, 1553 01:06:43,600 --> 01:06:46,280 Speaker 1: I ain't doing it. Not much crazy stuff. I only 1554 01:06:46,320 --> 01:06:48,320 Speaker 1: even ain't gonna I ain't gonna speak on that, like 1555 01:06:48,400 --> 01:06:50,480 Speaker 1: I ain't gonna get deep into it. You know how 1556 01:06:50,520 --> 01:06:52,959 Speaker 1: much crazy stuff people offer me to do for money. 1557 01:06:53,000 --> 01:06:56,160 Speaker 1: I'm not doing that. I'm not doing that. I know 1558 01:06:56,240 --> 01:06:56,600 Speaker 1: who I am. 1559 01:06:56,720 --> 01:06:57,440 Speaker 2: What's the line? Then? 1560 01:06:57,520 --> 01:07:00,520 Speaker 1: How do you know? Because it's automatically like that not 1561 01:07:00,600 --> 01:07:02,280 Speaker 1: who I am. I'm not feeling like why would I 1562 01:07:02,400 --> 01:07:05,400 Speaker 1: do that? I don't make it makes sense? You see 1563 01:07:05,400 --> 01:07:09,480 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, like make it. Some people like for 1564 01:07:09,560 --> 01:07:12,600 Speaker 1: this amount of dollar amount of dollars and I'm gonna 1565 01:07:12,640 --> 01:07:16,760 Speaker 1: go let me. You can't move like that. It's goofy, 1566 01:07:16,880 --> 01:07:18,760 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. It's goofy. That's a goofy 1567 01:07:18,840 --> 01:07:24,280 Speaker 1: move the show showing me who you is? You know 1568 01:07:24,320 --> 01:07:24,680 Speaker 1: what I mean? 1569 01:07:25,520 --> 01:07:28,200 Speaker 2: In real life, if today was if this was it, 1570 01:07:28,600 --> 01:07:31,400 Speaker 2: today was the last day, what would you what would 1571 01:07:31,400 --> 01:07:31,560 Speaker 2: you be? 1572 01:07:32,240 --> 01:07:33,520 Speaker 1: Because you said. 1573 01:07:34,400 --> 01:07:37,040 Speaker 2: Life if today was the last day, like yes, what 1574 01:07:37,120 --> 01:07:38,560 Speaker 2: would you do? How would you spend it? 1575 01:07:38,720 --> 01:07:42,360 Speaker 1: Well? Al most definitely won't be here doing this interview. 1576 01:07:42,400 --> 01:07:43,959 Speaker 1: But that's fine. 1577 01:07:43,960 --> 01:07:47,640 Speaker 2: I won't be offend, but you might because you want 1578 01:07:47,720 --> 01:07:49,560 Speaker 2: you might want your legacy. You might want people to 1579 01:07:49,600 --> 01:07:49,760 Speaker 2: know you. 1580 01:07:50,200 --> 01:07:52,840 Speaker 1: If matter of fact, I'm glad you said that I 1581 01:07:52,880 --> 01:07:55,080 Speaker 1: would be doing this interview with all my kids in here. 1582 01:07:56,360 --> 01:07:58,320 Speaker 1: I'll do this interview with all my kids sitting behind 1583 01:07:58,360 --> 01:08:00,960 Speaker 1: me right here. Let them know what I'm saying. Chime in, 1584 01:08:01,200 --> 01:08:04,400 Speaker 1: jump jump in. You know you feel me. You know 1585 01:08:04,400 --> 01:08:06,280 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. So that's how I really spend it. 1586 01:08:06,520 --> 01:08:07,480 Speaker 2: What would they say about you? 1587 01:08:08,120 --> 01:08:11,000 Speaker 1: They love me like they overly love their daddy. You 1588 01:08:11,000 --> 01:08:12,680 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I never tell them no unless 1589 01:08:12,840 --> 01:08:15,919 Speaker 1: it's about your grades or they or your mama called 1590 01:08:15,960 --> 01:08:18,160 Speaker 1: me and you've done something. I got to discipline you. 1591 01:08:18,280 --> 01:08:20,800 Speaker 1: I can't make you think it's sweet like like I'm sweet, 1592 01:08:20,920 --> 01:08:24,720 Speaker 1: Like it's easy. So just part of being a part 1593 01:08:24,760 --> 01:08:27,360 Speaker 1: of being about being a father. I'm sorry. And it's 1594 01:08:27,479 --> 01:08:31,600 Speaker 1: like I love them, they love me. Here's what it is. 1595 01:08:31,840 --> 01:08:33,840 Speaker 2: That's the best thing in the world. Like that alone 1596 01:08:33,960 --> 01:08:36,519 Speaker 2: is your legacy. That your kids just adore you. 1597 01:08:36,760 --> 01:08:39,439 Speaker 1: For sure. It makes me feel good. Like when I 1598 01:08:39,520 --> 01:08:41,920 Speaker 1: come in, like they jump up like be that type 1599 01:08:41,960 --> 01:08:44,120 Speaker 1: of ain't no fair you, no captn you, no cap 1600 01:08:44,320 --> 01:08:48,080 Speaker 1: They be just daddy like it'd be like it's crazy. 1601 01:08:48,200 --> 01:08:49,680 Speaker 1: I'd be like, somebody love me. 1602 01:08:49,960 --> 01:08:51,040 Speaker 2: That's a different type of love. 1603 01:08:51,280 --> 01:08:52,000 Speaker 1: Somebody love me? 1604 01:08:52,120 --> 01:08:56,120 Speaker 2: Sure in real life? What do you like most about yourself? H? 1605 01:08:57,000 --> 01:08:59,519 Speaker 1: I kind of like that I beat I play defense. 1606 01:09:00,040 --> 01:09:02,040 Speaker 1: I kind of like I play defense all the time 1607 01:09:03,479 --> 01:09:06,479 Speaker 1: because I don't just like, first of all, I don't 1608 01:09:06,479 --> 01:09:09,040 Speaker 1: believe it just starting nothing, and then I'm glad, like 1609 01:09:09,160 --> 01:09:12,559 Speaker 1: I'm observer, Like I'm observed and I'm happy. I listen. 1610 01:09:13,240 --> 01:09:15,080 Speaker 1: I love all of it about me, Like I listen, 1611 01:09:15,360 --> 01:09:22,280 Speaker 1: I'm observable. I know how to take constructive criticism. Yeah, basically, what. 1612 01:09:22,439 --> 01:09:25,640 Speaker 2: Was the last constructive criticism you've got that was good? Uh? 1613 01:09:26,120 --> 01:09:30,519 Speaker 1: That constructive criticism I had? Let I let alright hear 1614 01:09:30,560 --> 01:09:33,320 Speaker 1: a song I was trying something. I was in my 1615 01:09:33,439 --> 01:09:39,679 Speaker 1: singing bag. She was like yeah, She's like no, She's 1616 01:09:39,720 --> 01:09:42,760 Speaker 1: like yeah, no, like literally like maybe if you go 1617 01:09:42,840 --> 01:09:45,720 Speaker 1: a little soft or you do it like but coaching me, 1618 01:09:45,800 --> 01:09:48,160 Speaker 1: but no, but you're going too high. You're going too 1619 01:09:48,760 --> 01:09:50,920 Speaker 1: and you think and then it's one song on that 1620 01:09:51,040 --> 01:09:54,240 Speaker 1: she loved right now. It's called no Show like you 1621 01:09:54,320 --> 01:09:55,760 Speaker 1: can hear it on her like you can hear like 1622 01:09:57,120 --> 01:09:59,320 Speaker 1: I go up, I go up on it, and it's 1623 01:09:59,360 --> 01:10:03,200 Speaker 1: like but it's not. It's like iry friendly And she's like, okay, 1624 01:10:03,240 --> 01:10:03,880 Speaker 1: that's the pocket. 1625 01:10:05,520 --> 01:10:06,519 Speaker 2: Do you trust her opinion? 1626 01:10:06,640 --> 01:10:10,000 Speaker 1: Like she loved music, Like I trust she loved music 1627 01:10:10,080 --> 01:10:14,400 Speaker 1: for sure. Yeah, like this ain't what the females ain't 1628 01:10:14,400 --> 01:10:15,880 Speaker 1: gonna turn off to this. I ain't gonna do this. 1629 01:10:15,960 --> 01:10:17,800 Speaker 1: I ain't gonna do that. She's gonna keep it tight. 1630 01:10:19,120 --> 01:10:22,479 Speaker 2: This is my last one in real life. What do 1631 01:10:22,600 --> 01:10:27,160 Speaker 2: you hope people learn from your life? Uh? 1632 01:10:28,320 --> 01:10:30,280 Speaker 1: Kind of what you said, kind of what you said, 1633 01:10:30,400 --> 01:10:33,200 Speaker 1: like like you can you can cover it up all 1634 01:10:33,240 --> 01:10:34,760 Speaker 1: of it. But it's okay to cray. It's okay to 1635 01:10:34,840 --> 01:10:36,679 Speaker 1: be you know what I'm saying, who you is okay 1636 01:10:36,720 --> 01:10:38,880 Speaker 1: to be human like a normal person. You know what 1637 01:10:38,880 --> 01:10:40,800 Speaker 1: I'm saying. You just you gotta know how to cope 1638 01:10:40,840 --> 01:10:44,280 Speaker 1: with certain situations. You know, I gotta know how to deal. 1639 01:10:44,400 --> 01:10:46,400 Speaker 1: You gotta know who to vent to, you know what 1640 01:10:46,439 --> 01:10:49,720 Speaker 1: I'm saying. Got to be real careful with that. And 1641 01:10:49,960 --> 01:10:52,320 Speaker 1: just if you got a career, I'm sorry with career 1642 01:10:52,360 --> 01:10:54,080 Speaker 1: if you got stuff, you know, country, I talk I'm 1643 01:10:54,080 --> 01:11:01,439 Speaker 1: a real country country that might trip over where it's 1644 01:11:01,479 --> 01:11:05,680 Speaker 1: trying to get right. So like if you got there 1645 01:11:05,760 --> 01:11:08,120 Speaker 1: going on, forgot something going on for yourself, I just say, 1646 01:11:08,240 --> 01:11:10,720 Speaker 1: like you just force it on them, like you just 1647 01:11:10,760 --> 01:11:13,360 Speaker 1: stay motivated and just force it on them, stay hustling 1648 01:11:13,520 --> 01:11:15,519 Speaker 1: no matter what, don't never let just keep I pray 1649 01:11:15,600 --> 01:11:17,519 Speaker 1: for a tun of vision, and I don't want to 1650 01:11:17,560 --> 01:11:19,160 Speaker 1: see nothe on the side of me. I want God 1651 01:11:19,200 --> 01:11:21,360 Speaker 1: to keep me like this, like because you know they're 1652 01:11:21,360 --> 01:11:22,840 Speaker 1: gonna do this. I want to stay like this the 1653 01:11:22,880 --> 01:11:25,120 Speaker 1: whole entire time, you know what I'm saying, going to 1654 01:11:25,200 --> 01:11:27,960 Speaker 1: the end goal and it's a hard it's a hard task. Now, 1655 01:11:28,439 --> 01:11:31,240 Speaker 1: it's a hard task because somebody says it the wrong stuff. 1656 01:11:31,240 --> 01:11:34,080 Speaker 1: You're gonna turn over it, You're but it might cast you. 1657 01:11:34,560 --> 01:11:36,040 Speaker 1: So you got a thing like that, Like it might 1658 01:11:36,120 --> 01:11:36,960 Speaker 1: cost me if I do that. 1659 01:11:38,200 --> 01:11:39,400 Speaker 2: So you pray for tunnel vision. 1660 01:11:39,520 --> 01:11:42,200 Speaker 1: I pray for a ton of vision, pray for confidence. 1661 01:11:42,280 --> 01:11:44,760 Speaker 1: I pray for more and more awareness, you know what 1662 01:11:44,760 --> 01:11:47,640 Speaker 1: I'm saying, awardness, you know, And I ask God to 1663 01:11:47,720 --> 01:11:49,680 Speaker 1: reveal stuff to me like I want to see. I 1664 01:11:49,800 --> 01:11:51,519 Speaker 1: want to see it, like, don't have it forbody got 1665 01:11:51,600 --> 01:11:53,599 Speaker 1: to be able to take this. I already I took 1666 01:11:53,680 --> 01:11:56,280 Speaker 1: pain already, I'm dealing with it. You tell them you're 1667 01:11:56,280 --> 01:11:58,439 Speaker 1: showing me I'm strong. You know what I'm saying. So 1668 01:11:58,560 --> 01:12:02,599 Speaker 1: I know you know feel me you are. Thanks. 1669 01:12:03,920 --> 01:12:07,160 Speaker 2: Check on your strong friends people. That's one thing I 1670 01:12:07,280 --> 01:12:09,439 Speaker 2: learned from you today. I don't know how you doing this. 1671 01:12:09,520 --> 01:12:11,160 Speaker 2: I'll be honest, I don't know how you just like 1672 01:12:11,880 --> 01:12:13,280 Speaker 2: you seem so good and so. 1673 01:12:13,560 --> 01:12:16,519 Speaker 1: Like Yeah, a good move. I love that. 1674 01:12:17,040 --> 01:12:19,760 Speaker 2: I love that today. God bless you man, Thank you 1675 01:12:19,880 --> 01:12:22,439 Speaker 2: for sharing your story today. I can't wait to hear 1676 01:12:22,479 --> 01:12:25,280 Speaker 2: all the music. Go Hard to Love money Bag Yell 1677 01:12:25,320 --> 01:12:28,720 Speaker 2: in Real Life Man, Real Life The Realist spots