1 00:00:00,520 --> 00:00:04,000 Speaker 1: Calling all my sweeties to the forefront. I'm your host, Christopher, 2 00:00:04,120 --> 00:00:09,479 Speaker 1: and this is to keep it positive. Sweetie show. Can 3 00:00:09,560 --> 00:00:13,400 Speaker 1: we just say thank you Jesus? That was not loud enough. 4 00:00:13,480 --> 00:00:17,960 Speaker 1: Can we say thank you Jesus? There we go listen. 5 00:00:18,800 --> 00:00:20,920 Speaker 1: I was I had to travel to New York yesterday 6 00:00:21,200 --> 00:00:24,040 Speaker 1: and I was like on the first flight out to 7 00:00:24,040 --> 00:00:25,840 Speaker 1: get back so I could hear Pastor say our preach 8 00:00:25,920 --> 00:00:26,400 Speaker 1: last night. 9 00:00:27,000 --> 00:00:30,040 Speaker 2: And I get on the plane and this woman was. 10 00:00:30,000 --> 00:00:31,920 Speaker 1: I'm talking about saying a very fervent prayer. 11 00:00:32,440 --> 00:00:33,320 Speaker 2: She was God. 12 00:00:34,680 --> 00:00:36,800 Speaker 1: And I looked over. She's on my road, and I said, 13 00:00:37,000 --> 00:00:39,160 Speaker 1: we're gonna be all right. We're gonna make it. Because 14 00:00:39,159 --> 00:00:42,800 Speaker 1: it was storms all over and since January the year 15 00:00:42,840 --> 00:00:44,879 Speaker 1: has been yearing. Can we all agree on that? 16 00:00:45,720 --> 00:00:48,200 Speaker 2: And I said, Lord, if there's a delay, I'm. 17 00:00:48,040 --> 00:00:50,320 Speaker 1: Gonna thank you for the delay because I just want 18 00:00:50,320 --> 00:00:52,800 Speaker 1: to make it there safe, whatever it is. And because 19 00:00:52,800 --> 00:00:55,320 Speaker 1: I used to get agitated, and I felt that agitation 20 00:00:55,440 --> 00:00:55,959 Speaker 1: creeping in. 21 00:00:56,000 --> 00:00:57,960 Speaker 2: After two hours sitting on the ground. 22 00:00:57,800 --> 00:00:59,800 Speaker 1: We finally get in the air and we're almost to it. 23 00:01:00,040 --> 00:01:02,240 Speaker 1: And so I gone to the bathroom on the plane 24 00:01:02,320 --> 00:01:04,840 Speaker 1: change clothes. I was gonna hit the ground running and 25 00:01:04,840 --> 00:01:07,640 Speaker 1: the pilot comes on the intercomm and says, what we're 26 00:01:07,640 --> 00:01:09,800 Speaker 1: gonna be in a thirty minute holding pattern in the air. 27 00:01:10,640 --> 00:01:12,039 Speaker 1: So I hit my team up and I said, y'all, 28 00:01:12,040 --> 00:01:15,000 Speaker 1: we're not gonna make it, and shout out to Big West, 29 00:01:15,040 --> 00:01:19,679 Speaker 1: one of my managers. Big fella, y'all don't put us 30 00:01:19,720 --> 00:01:21,880 Speaker 1: in church jail. But he bootlegged the sermons so I 31 00:01:21,880 --> 00:01:24,000 Speaker 1: could watch it because that's how thirsty I am for 32 00:01:24,040 --> 00:01:25,920 Speaker 1: the word. And I know if you're here today, it's 33 00:01:25,959 --> 00:01:28,480 Speaker 1: because you're also thirsty for the word. Shout out to 34 00:01:28,520 --> 00:01:31,160 Speaker 1: that praying woman who was praying like a grandmother on 35 00:01:31,200 --> 00:01:33,760 Speaker 1: that plane. We made it safely and I still got 36 00:01:33,800 --> 00:01:36,800 Speaker 1: the word. But it also goes to show who's on 37 00:01:36,840 --> 00:01:39,920 Speaker 1: your role. You know what I'm saying. That woman was 38 00:01:39,920 --> 00:01:41,280 Speaker 1: on my row, and I want you to always be 39 00:01:41,280 --> 00:01:43,920 Speaker 1: cognizant of the people on your role in your life. 40 00:01:44,319 --> 00:01:46,280 Speaker 1: Are they praying for you? Are they there for you? 41 00:01:46,640 --> 00:01:48,920 Speaker 1: Are y'all praying to the same God? You know what 42 00:01:48,960 --> 00:01:51,880 Speaker 1: I'm saying, Because there's a difference. And without further ado, 43 00:01:52,000 --> 00:01:54,560 Speaker 1: I want to welcome one of my sisters in Christ. 44 00:01:55,200 --> 00:01:59,400 Speaker 1: She is absolutely amazing. You may remember her as Levita 45 00:01:59,520 --> 00:02:03,960 Speaker 1: Alise Jenkins on The Steve Harvey Show, or you may 46 00:02:04,040 --> 00:02:08,440 Speaker 1: know her from her new hit show on Netflix, Miss Governor, Ladies, 47 00:02:08,520 --> 00:02:11,360 Speaker 1: put it together, put your hands together for my sister, 48 00:02:11,480 --> 00:02:12,480 Speaker 1: Miss Terry Vaughn. 49 00:02:13,320 --> 00:02:31,720 Speaker 3: Yes, hey y'all. 50 00:02:31,560 --> 00:02:38,040 Speaker 4: U, thank y'all. Hey, Joss, all. 51 00:02:38,040 --> 00:02:40,000 Speaker 2: Right, since it is so good to be here with you. 52 00:02:40,120 --> 00:02:42,680 Speaker 1: When we were going over people that I could interview 53 00:02:42,720 --> 00:02:45,520 Speaker 1: for this moment, and hands down, you were the one. 54 00:02:46,400 --> 00:02:48,880 Speaker 1: And it was because of our recent conversations that I 55 00:02:48,960 --> 00:02:50,640 Speaker 1: knew I needed to sit down with you. 56 00:02:51,440 --> 00:02:53,720 Speaker 2: Terry and I, well, we met a lot. 57 00:02:53,760 --> 00:02:55,480 Speaker 1: We kind of met a long time ago. I just 58 00:02:55,520 --> 00:02:58,160 Speaker 1: reminded her that in twenty ten we were in a 59 00:02:58,200 --> 00:03:01,680 Speaker 1: short film called This Time duracted by Matthew Cherry, and 60 00:03:01,720 --> 00:03:04,880 Speaker 1: I had one line. So I'm like, this kid trying 61 00:03:04,919 --> 00:03:07,720 Speaker 1: to get into the movie industry and he's a kid 62 00:03:07,840 --> 00:03:11,959 Speaker 1: making short films and here's the Terry Vine in this movie. 63 00:03:12,120 --> 00:03:14,040 Speaker 1: And I found the cover art for it and I 64 00:03:14,080 --> 00:03:15,520 Speaker 1: was like, do you remember this? 65 00:03:15,919 --> 00:03:19,360 Speaker 2: And she was like, oh my gosh. I had one line. 66 00:03:19,840 --> 00:03:23,200 Speaker 2: Your table is ready and here we are and look 67 00:03:23,280 --> 00:03:24,440 Speaker 2: at her now right. 68 00:03:25,120 --> 00:03:25,960 Speaker 3: God is good. 69 00:03:26,600 --> 00:03:29,360 Speaker 1: But recently we were at a Sunday brunch at Tyler 70 00:03:29,400 --> 00:03:33,000 Speaker 1: Perry's house. And Tyler does these brunches where we screened 71 00:03:33,280 --> 00:03:36,000 Speaker 1: what he's the latest project that he's worked on. And 72 00:03:36,120 --> 00:03:39,840 Speaker 1: this particular Sunday, we were screening the first episode of 73 00:03:39,880 --> 00:03:44,560 Speaker 1: your show, mis Governor. And when I tell you, Tyler 74 00:03:44,640 --> 00:03:46,400 Speaker 1: saw it and I saw it as well. But Terry 75 00:03:46,520 --> 00:03:49,880 Speaker 1: was so full in that moment, and it was so 76 00:03:49,920 --> 00:03:52,560 Speaker 1: beautiful to see. And in that moment, Tyler looked at 77 00:03:52,600 --> 00:03:54,840 Speaker 1: me and he goes, that was you when sisters came 78 00:03:54,880 --> 00:03:58,000 Speaker 1: out and he said, y'all need to talk, and you 79 00:03:58,080 --> 00:04:00,480 Speaker 1: put it off for a little while and saying we 80 00:04:00,520 --> 00:04:01,600 Speaker 1: need to talk, and then finally you. 81 00:04:01,680 --> 00:04:03,000 Speaker 4: Like, I need to call you. 82 00:04:03,960 --> 00:04:06,520 Speaker 1: And we had this beautiful conversation and I want to 83 00:04:06,560 --> 00:04:09,920 Speaker 1: start with that because we talk about the journey. Don't 84 00:04:09,960 --> 00:04:10,400 Speaker 1: you start? 85 00:04:10,480 --> 00:04:12,520 Speaker 4: I know you see I'm looking around. I'm like, y'all 86 00:04:12,520 --> 00:04:14,880 Speaker 4: don't have tissue up here. I'm sorry. It's just that 87 00:04:14,960 --> 00:04:17,520 Speaker 4: kind of party. I was telling her about stage. I've 88 00:04:17,520 --> 00:04:18,960 Speaker 4: been on the verge of crind all day. I don't 89 00:04:19,000 --> 00:04:20,479 Speaker 4: know what it is. I do know what it is. 90 00:04:20,480 --> 00:04:21,120 Speaker 4: It's grateful. 91 00:04:21,279 --> 00:04:23,159 Speaker 1: Yeah, y'all might need to bring the clean nex. 92 00:04:23,720 --> 00:04:25,599 Speaker 4: Yeah, just yes. 93 00:04:26,800 --> 00:04:29,560 Speaker 1: But in that conversation. I thought it was so beautiful, 94 00:04:29,600 --> 00:04:33,520 Speaker 1: how vulnerable you were to have started off on this 95 00:04:33,640 --> 00:04:37,040 Speaker 1: hit show. Everyone watched The Steve Harvey Show, and we're 96 00:04:37,080 --> 00:04:38,920 Speaker 1: going to get to the journey, but to where you 97 00:04:38,960 --> 00:04:42,159 Speaker 1: are now. It was like a completely new ground for you, 98 00:04:42,520 --> 00:04:44,760 Speaker 1: and you're like, how do I navigate this? Let us 99 00:04:44,800 --> 00:04:46,120 Speaker 1: know where you were in that moment. 100 00:04:47,160 --> 00:04:51,200 Speaker 4: So, first of all, thank you for choosing me. Okay, 101 00:04:51,720 --> 00:04:56,680 Speaker 4: it's always nice to be chosen. Yeah, So in that moment, 102 00:04:57,440 --> 00:04:59,480 Speaker 4: I was in the midst of a lot of press 103 00:04:59,520 --> 00:05:02,800 Speaker 4: for the new show for MS. Governor, and it was 104 00:05:02,880 --> 00:05:04,839 Speaker 4: everything was just so back to back to back to 105 00:05:04,880 --> 00:05:08,280 Speaker 4: back to back. And yes, I've been in this business 106 00:05:08,320 --> 00:05:10,480 Speaker 4: for a really long time. You guys have been in 107 00:05:11,240 --> 00:05:15,800 Speaker 4: this business for thirty years. But yet though I've been 108 00:05:15,880 --> 00:05:19,480 Speaker 4: pitching my own show for twenty years, say that again. 109 00:05:20,120 --> 00:05:25,320 Speaker 4: I've been pitching my own show for twenty years. Now 110 00:05:25,440 --> 00:05:27,719 Speaker 4: it is upon me and I have that show. 111 00:05:33,640 --> 00:05:35,279 Speaker 1: Thank you take it in. 112 00:05:35,760 --> 00:05:42,760 Speaker 4: And it was it was a bit overwhelming, and I 113 00:05:42,800 --> 00:05:46,640 Speaker 4: have several conversations with God, and I know why it 114 00:05:46,680 --> 00:05:52,920 Speaker 4: took the twenty years, because feeling all the things that 115 00:05:53,120 --> 00:05:57,159 Speaker 4: come with being in this position. I wouldn't have been ready. 116 00:05:58,760 --> 00:06:00,760 Speaker 4: I wouldn't have been ready. I would have messed it up. 117 00:06:01,160 --> 00:06:05,080 Speaker 4: I would have freaked out or something. And now is 118 00:06:05,200 --> 00:06:09,039 Speaker 4: the time, and I'm like just looking for a little 119 00:06:09,200 --> 00:06:11,520 Speaker 4: direction or guidance because I don't want to mess up 120 00:06:11,560 --> 00:06:15,359 Speaker 4: the moment, right I don't want to because every everything 121 00:06:15,440 --> 00:06:20,359 Speaker 4: just got different. The people that call, the people that 122 00:06:20,480 --> 00:06:27,200 Speaker 4: don't call, the things being said, everything changed and I'm 123 00:06:27,240 --> 00:06:30,320 Speaker 4: still the same person though I haven't changed. Everything is still. 124 00:06:30,640 --> 00:06:34,679 Speaker 4: So I'm trying to navigate how to change, to move 125 00:06:34,880 --> 00:06:39,520 Speaker 4: in all the newness of it without losing myself, losing 126 00:06:39,520 --> 00:06:44,479 Speaker 4: my connection to my tribe, my real friends, my village, 127 00:06:44,640 --> 00:06:49,760 Speaker 4: and not getting caught up in the newness, the new calls, 128 00:06:49,880 --> 00:06:52,680 Speaker 4: the new, you know. And so I just was like 129 00:06:52,800 --> 00:06:57,080 Speaker 4: talking to Crystal about how she navigated when she first 130 00:06:57,120 --> 00:07:00,800 Speaker 4: got her show, and now everything is on her, the 131 00:07:00,920 --> 00:07:04,680 Speaker 4: light is on her, the calls are on her, and 132 00:07:05,360 --> 00:07:08,400 Speaker 4: just make it because it's a huge responsibility. You are 133 00:07:08,480 --> 00:07:11,600 Speaker 4: responsible for you know a lot of people. You're the 134 00:07:11,680 --> 00:07:14,920 Speaker 4: lead of the cast, so kind of your energy and 135 00:07:14,960 --> 00:07:19,480 Speaker 4: how you move affects everybody. And I'm a mama bear, 136 00:07:19,640 --> 00:07:23,160 Speaker 4: so I'm super protective. So I want to protect my 137 00:07:23,320 --> 00:07:25,680 Speaker 4: cast I want to make sure I'm standing up for them, 138 00:07:26,000 --> 00:07:29,160 Speaker 4: making sure I'm asking, you know, that they get the 139 00:07:29,200 --> 00:07:31,360 Speaker 4: things that I you know, I'm just trying to be fair. 140 00:07:31,480 --> 00:07:34,840 Speaker 4: We're libors too, so I'm always balancing this scale. So 141 00:07:34,880 --> 00:07:37,760 Speaker 4: I want, you know, everybody to be treated fairly and 142 00:07:37,880 --> 00:07:41,080 Speaker 4: all the things. So I just wanted to talk to 143 00:07:41,120 --> 00:07:45,520 Speaker 4: her and ask her how she navigated when she first 144 00:07:45,560 --> 00:07:48,480 Speaker 4: plopped into it, because when you PLoP into it, it 145 00:07:48,720 --> 00:07:52,120 Speaker 4: just like everything happens, and you want that one it's 146 00:07:52,160 --> 00:07:54,720 Speaker 4: not a build up. And so I was in the 147 00:07:55,000 --> 00:07:58,800 Speaker 4: in the midst of everything rushing at me, and I 148 00:07:58,880 --> 00:08:02,360 Speaker 4: was like, I need to I need to pause, and 149 00:08:02,400 --> 00:08:06,200 Speaker 4: I need to talk to somebody, And Crystal talked to 150 00:08:06,240 --> 00:08:08,680 Speaker 4: me and told me, you know, just share things that 151 00:08:08,760 --> 00:08:11,800 Speaker 4: she did to stay focused and grounded. And you know, 152 00:08:11,840 --> 00:08:18,000 Speaker 4: I'm very spiritual and you know, obviously getting in my 153 00:08:18,120 --> 00:08:21,840 Speaker 4: prayers and my meditation. So I'm like, I know who 154 00:08:21,880 --> 00:08:24,440 Speaker 4: I am. I know I'm grounded, but I also I 155 00:08:24,480 --> 00:08:27,880 Speaker 4: have to operate in a space that doesn't necessarily move 156 00:08:27,960 --> 00:08:32,320 Speaker 4: or act like me sometimes and not wanting to lose me, 157 00:08:33,120 --> 00:08:37,280 Speaker 4: but still have to navigate through it, you know. So 158 00:08:37,400 --> 00:08:41,920 Speaker 4: it was just nice to hear somebody else's perspective, somebody 159 00:08:41,960 --> 00:08:43,840 Speaker 4: that I could trust, because you can't really have these 160 00:08:43,920 --> 00:08:48,040 Speaker 4: kind of conversations with everyone. So it was just beautiful 161 00:08:48,080 --> 00:08:50,959 Speaker 4: that she opened up and we had a really great conversation. 162 00:08:51,240 --> 00:08:55,079 Speaker 1: I love that. And what I think is so beautiful 163 00:08:55,120 --> 00:08:57,840 Speaker 1: about that about sisterhood is that you do have a 164 00:08:57,920 --> 00:09:00,280 Speaker 1: village and your tribe is so important to make sure 165 00:09:00,280 --> 00:09:02,320 Speaker 1: that you can have those moments where you say, hey'sis 166 00:09:02,320 --> 00:09:04,160 Speaker 1: I am struggling with this? Am I ready for this? 167 00:09:04,240 --> 00:09:06,880 Speaker 1: Because a lot of times we've gone through the twenty 168 00:09:06,960 --> 00:09:09,200 Speaker 1: years you know whatever that looks like. It may not 169 00:09:09,240 --> 00:09:11,240 Speaker 1: be twenty years for everyone, but you go through it 170 00:09:11,640 --> 00:09:13,600 Speaker 1: and then you get to the moment, and then you 171 00:09:13,600 --> 00:09:15,920 Speaker 1: start second guessing everything that God has put in your 172 00:09:15,920 --> 00:09:18,760 Speaker 1: toolbox to make you ready for that moment. Has anybody 173 00:09:18,800 --> 00:09:20,520 Speaker 1: ever done it self sabotages in the building? 174 00:09:20,600 --> 00:09:22,040 Speaker 4: Yeah, yes, right. 175 00:09:22,600 --> 00:09:25,200 Speaker 1: I'm a big self sabotager, like I can get in 176 00:09:25,280 --> 00:09:26,600 Speaker 1: my own way, and I think a lot of us 177 00:09:26,679 --> 00:09:29,480 Speaker 1: do that. But what I thought was so beautiful is 178 00:09:29,520 --> 00:09:31,800 Speaker 1: that you knew that you could call you know, And 179 00:09:31,800 --> 00:09:34,000 Speaker 1: I think that's so important to be someone that your 180 00:09:34,000 --> 00:09:35,920 Speaker 1: girl can call or if you have a guy friend 181 00:09:35,920 --> 00:09:38,200 Speaker 1: that they can call and say, Hey, I'm struggling with 182 00:09:38,280 --> 00:09:40,160 Speaker 1: this and this is the position that I'm in. 183 00:09:40,080 --> 00:09:42,360 Speaker 2: But I want to do right by it and steward 184 00:09:42,400 --> 00:09:42,800 Speaker 2: over it. 185 00:09:43,120 --> 00:09:45,479 Speaker 1: How do I do that? And a lot of times 186 00:09:45,679 --> 00:09:48,320 Speaker 1: we forget that, like we are ready for that moment, 187 00:09:48,400 --> 00:09:51,120 Speaker 1: yeah you know, and yeah, so I want to go 188 00:09:51,200 --> 00:09:53,480 Speaker 1: back to when you first started. Let's walk to the 189 00:09:53,480 --> 00:09:55,280 Speaker 1: ti we're going to we started. It's like a movie 190 00:09:55,280 --> 00:09:56,720 Speaker 1: where they started the ending. Then we're going to go 191 00:09:56,720 --> 00:09:59,480 Speaker 1: back to the beginning. We're gonna mind so we can 192 00:09:59,480 --> 00:10:00,880 Speaker 1: go back to the be and tell us about that 193 00:10:00,960 --> 00:10:02,880 Speaker 1: journey and like the ups and downs and ebbs and 194 00:10:02,920 --> 00:10:05,200 Speaker 1: flows of that. Because you started off with Steve Harvey Show, 195 00:10:05,200 --> 00:10:05,920 Speaker 1: your big break. 196 00:10:06,160 --> 00:10:09,000 Speaker 4: Steve Harvey Show was definitely my big break I had. 197 00:10:09,840 --> 00:10:13,640 Speaker 4: I'm from San Francisco. I grew up in the Bay Area. Yes, 198 00:10:14,040 --> 00:10:19,839 Speaker 4: Bay love me, yep. And I was living in LA 199 00:10:20,040 --> 00:10:23,520 Speaker 4: for about five years, just you know, doing the actor thing, 200 00:10:24,200 --> 00:10:30,600 Speaker 4: background work, waiting tables, worked at Benetton, you know Benetton, 201 00:10:30,679 --> 00:10:33,920 Speaker 4: and so the people are like, what's Benette, Yes, the 202 00:10:34,000 --> 00:10:38,000 Speaker 4: colors of Benetta. I know, that's so long ago. Okay anyway, So, 203 00:10:38,160 --> 00:10:41,560 Speaker 4: you know, just the life of a starving actor and 204 00:10:42,480 --> 00:10:47,400 Speaker 4: just auditioning getting parts, and finally this audition came through 205 00:10:47,640 --> 00:10:51,040 Speaker 4: for The Steve Harvey Show. And when I remember getting 206 00:10:51,040 --> 00:10:54,000 Speaker 4: when I got that audition and I read the material, 207 00:10:54,480 --> 00:10:56,120 Speaker 4: I was like, oh my gosh, she's so fun. I 208 00:10:56,160 --> 00:10:56,480 Speaker 4: know her. 209 00:10:56,760 --> 00:10:58,240 Speaker 1: It was like so easy. 210 00:10:58,720 --> 00:11:05,120 Speaker 4: I was like, so I did the audition, got call 211 00:11:05,200 --> 00:11:07,640 Speaker 4: back and call back and call back and call back, 212 00:11:08,080 --> 00:11:13,040 Speaker 4: and it was like it was definitely the easiest up 213 00:11:13,040 --> 00:11:16,319 Speaker 4: to that point, the easiest audition that I had ever had. 214 00:11:16,440 --> 00:11:21,240 Speaker 4: It just felt easy. It felt right. She fit on 215 00:11:21,360 --> 00:11:24,600 Speaker 4: me and in me because I knew her, yeah, and 216 00:11:24,679 --> 00:11:28,120 Speaker 4: I really cared about her. We could tell I really 217 00:11:28,160 --> 00:11:34,679 Speaker 4: cared about her. And so finally I got a call 218 00:11:34,800 --> 00:11:39,160 Speaker 4: from my agents and you guys, so when you're when 219 00:11:39,160 --> 00:11:42,040 Speaker 4: you're testing for a series like that and you're getting 220 00:11:42,040 --> 00:11:45,960 Speaker 4: your callbacks over and over, the last audition you go 221 00:11:46,040 --> 00:11:49,480 Speaker 4: in for is with the directors and the producers and 222 00:11:49,520 --> 00:11:53,840 Speaker 4: the networks, so it's like tons of people in you 223 00:11:56,000 --> 00:12:00,439 Speaker 4: and you have to perform like you always have. And 224 00:12:00,520 --> 00:12:03,280 Speaker 4: to me, that was my worst audition out of the 225 00:12:03,360 --> 00:12:07,720 Speaker 4: whole journey of my Levita auditioning was the last one 226 00:12:08,480 --> 00:12:11,760 Speaker 4: because at that point, and I don't even know if 227 00:12:11,800 --> 00:12:14,520 Speaker 4: it still happens like this now, but when you do 228 00:12:14,720 --> 00:12:18,560 Speaker 4: your last test read, they give you your deal, what 229 00:12:18,720 --> 00:12:23,320 Speaker 4: your deal will be if you get this, You're going 230 00:12:23,360 --> 00:12:26,520 Speaker 4: to get this many episodes, this much money. So now 231 00:12:26,559 --> 00:12:29,520 Speaker 4: I have all this information. Right before, I didn't have 232 00:12:29,600 --> 00:12:32,600 Speaker 4: that information, so I was just free. So now I'm like, oh, 233 00:12:33,000 --> 00:12:35,160 Speaker 4: I got it. I can't make this much money, Like 234 00:12:35,200 --> 00:12:38,000 Speaker 4: I've never seen that much money. So now I got 235 00:12:38,040 --> 00:12:40,720 Speaker 4: all these other things in my mind instead of staying 236 00:12:40,760 --> 00:12:45,520 Speaker 4: focused just on her, so I kicked into my training. 237 00:12:45,640 --> 00:12:47,560 Speaker 4: I was like, nope, focus on her. The only thing 238 00:12:47,600 --> 00:12:49,640 Speaker 4: that matters is the role. The only thing that matters 239 00:12:49,679 --> 00:12:53,840 Speaker 4: is the role. But and I went in and I 240 00:12:53,920 --> 00:12:56,679 Speaker 4: just felt like it wasn't my strongest audition. I just 241 00:12:56,720 --> 00:12:58,640 Speaker 4: felt like it wasn't my strongest. So I go home 242 00:12:59,120 --> 00:13:01,960 Speaker 4: and I get a call from my agents and they're like, so, 243 00:13:02,040 --> 00:13:04,160 Speaker 4: how to go? And I was like, oh, it was okay. 244 00:13:04,200 --> 00:13:07,520 Speaker 4: I don't think it was my best, but I feel good. 245 00:13:07,960 --> 00:13:09,600 Speaker 4: And they were like, well, you must have did something 246 00:13:09,640 --> 00:13:12,880 Speaker 4: because you got the park And I just screamed in 247 00:13:12,880 --> 00:13:15,920 Speaker 4: my little one bedroom apartment, fell on my knees and 248 00:13:16,200 --> 00:13:21,320 Speaker 4: just cried. I just the tears, tears, tears. Why the 249 00:13:21,400 --> 00:13:23,480 Speaker 4: phone was on the floor by this time, and I'm 250 00:13:23,520 --> 00:13:27,040 Speaker 4: just on the middle of the floor crying because you know, 251 00:13:27,120 --> 00:13:30,960 Speaker 4: it's something that work. Yeah, so hard to work. 252 00:13:31,080 --> 00:13:31,280 Speaker 3: Yeah. 253 00:13:31,760 --> 00:13:39,680 Speaker 4: Yeah. And in our business, we're used to hearing no. 254 00:13:40,360 --> 00:13:42,080 Speaker 1: Yes all the time. 255 00:13:43,400 --> 00:13:47,320 Speaker 4: We get up every day to hear no, literally literally 256 00:13:47,440 --> 00:13:51,320 Speaker 4: every day. But we still keep going because we know 257 00:13:51,360 --> 00:13:53,880 Speaker 4: we are in line with our purpose and we keep going. 258 00:13:54,240 --> 00:13:56,559 Speaker 4: We keep showing up for the nose, but still keep 259 00:13:56,600 --> 00:14:03,439 Speaker 4: going and to finally get that yes, it's it's just amazing. 260 00:14:03,440 --> 00:14:04,800 Speaker 4: It's amazing. 261 00:14:06,080 --> 00:14:07,920 Speaker 1: So you talked about like you get the deal and 262 00:14:07,960 --> 00:14:09,800 Speaker 1: you're like, oh my goodness, I'm gonna be making this 263 00:14:09,920 --> 00:14:10,400 Speaker 1: much money. 264 00:14:10,480 --> 00:14:10,720 Speaker 4: Yeah. 265 00:14:11,040 --> 00:14:13,680 Speaker 1: A lot of time, is it running to lack of 266 00:14:13,720 --> 00:14:14,680 Speaker 1: financial literacy? 267 00:14:15,200 --> 00:14:15,440 Speaker 4: Yes? 268 00:14:16,440 --> 00:14:18,360 Speaker 1: What were some of those moments where you were like, Okay, 269 00:14:18,360 --> 00:14:19,400 Speaker 1: I got this money and. 270 00:14:20,040 --> 00:14:22,840 Speaker 4: What now I was I'm cheap. I was cheap. I 271 00:14:22,840 --> 00:14:27,320 Speaker 4: didn't do anything. I was like, oh no, I got 272 00:14:27,320 --> 00:14:30,080 Speaker 4: that this, I gotta keep this. Nobody gonna take this. 273 00:14:31,800 --> 00:14:36,080 Speaker 4: So you know, I didn't really definitely didn't have any 274 00:14:36,120 --> 00:14:40,440 Speaker 4: financial literacy. I just was responsible I've always been a 275 00:14:40,480 --> 00:14:43,920 Speaker 4: responsible person, so I didn't really splur or spend a lot. 276 00:14:44,360 --> 00:14:47,280 Speaker 4: I know how to live in my means. I had 277 00:14:47,280 --> 00:14:50,120 Speaker 4: been acting for a while, so I knew that jobs, 278 00:14:50,480 --> 00:14:52,480 Speaker 4: you know, come far and in between. So when you 279 00:14:52,560 --> 00:14:55,760 Speaker 4: are working, you need to save safe, safe for those 280 00:14:56,200 --> 00:14:58,840 Speaker 4: long months when you're not working, you got to live 281 00:14:58,840 --> 00:15:01,880 Speaker 4: off of that money. So it's you know, it's it's 282 00:15:01,920 --> 00:15:06,120 Speaker 4: different than people may really think. So I didn't. I didn't. 283 00:15:06,600 --> 00:15:08,520 Speaker 4: I didn't mess up my money. I was able to 284 00:15:08,760 --> 00:15:11,320 Speaker 4: not ever have to go back and get another job 285 00:15:11,480 --> 00:15:15,520 Speaker 4: outside of our business. Yes, so that was a blessing. 286 00:15:16,800 --> 00:15:20,200 Speaker 4: But with the lack of financial knowledge, there are things 287 00:15:20,320 --> 00:15:23,680 Speaker 4: I could have done with that money that would have 288 00:15:23,720 --> 00:15:27,240 Speaker 4: been smart to set me up better for future. And 289 00:15:27,280 --> 00:15:30,200 Speaker 4: I didn't know that. I was just in a bank account. 290 00:15:30,440 --> 00:15:32,800 Speaker 1: I'm just sitting, just sitting, and that's not good. 291 00:15:33,160 --> 00:15:33,560 Speaker 4: Yeah. 292 00:15:33,680 --> 00:15:36,720 Speaker 1: Yeah, Steve Harvey Show had an amazing run. And like 293 00:15:36,800 --> 00:15:40,080 Speaker 1: you said, the jobs come far and few between. What 294 00:15:40,120 --> 00:15:42,680 Speaker 1: was that transition like, because we hear about like athletes, 295 00:15:42,720 --> 00:15:45,600 Speaker 1: when what they go through when the basketball is done, 296 00:15:45,640 --> 00:15:48,520 Speaker 1: how do they like navigate life? What was that transition 297 00:15:48,720 --> 00:15:50,640 Speaker 1: like when you guys got the call saying, hey, this 298 00:15:50,720 --> 00:15:53,240 Speaker 1: is the last season, that last day on the show, 299 00:15:53,240 --> 00:15:55,160 Speaker 1: and then now it's like, okay, what do I do next? 300 00:15:55,760 --> 00:15:59,720 Speaker 4: So for me, I was like, oh, the show was 301 00:15:59,760 --> 00:16:03,760 Speaker 4: in the that's okay, I'll get another show. I'll just 302 00:16:03,760 --> 00:16:08,560 Speaker 4: get another show. You know, Lavita's popular, people like her, 303 00:16:09,240 --> 00:16:16,360 Speaker 4: people like me. I'll get another job, crickets, so it 304 00:16:16,520 --> 00:16:19,440 Speaker 4: you know, it's just just go back to the grind. 305 00:16:19,520 --> 00:16:21,960 Speaker 4: But again, you know, I have been working, so i'd 306 00:16:22,000 --> 00:16:25,080 Speaker 4: save my money. I was actually married at this time, 307 00:16:25,240 --> 00:16:28,720 Speaker 4: had my first son. The last year of the Steve 308 00:16:28,720 --> 00:16:34,080 Speaker 4: Harvey Show, I was pregnant and so I had time, 309 00:16:34,840 --> 00:16:39,240 Speaker 4: and then eventually I did went on to Soul Food. 310 00:16:40,160 --> 00:16:44,120 Speaker 4: Thank God for Felicia Henderson, who because you know, because 311 00:16:44,160 --> 00:16:47,640 Speaker 4: of the role of Levita, she was very comical and 312 00:16:47,800 --> 00:16:52,760 Speaker 4: all the things that she was which I loved, I didn't. 313 00:16:52,800 --> 00:16:54,840 Speaker 4: I still didn't as an actress. I didn't want to 314 00:16:55,200 --> 00:16:59,960 Speaker 4: just be typecast as that kind of character. So I'll 315 00:17:00,000 --> 00:17:05,240 Speaker 4: aways Thankfulicia Henderson for giving me that job on Soul Food, 316 00:17:05,240 --> 00:17:09,440 Speaker 4: which was totally different than Levita. She was an executive, 317 00:17:10,080 --> 00:17:12,320 Speaker 4: you know, it was she was just a totally different 318 00:17:12,400 --> 00:17:16,840 Speaker 4: character on a drama series. So that was a blessing. 319 00:17:18,040 --> 00:17:21,199 Speaker 4: And I think you just have to stay true to 320 00:17:21,320 --> 00:17:24,560 Speaker 4: yourself and just focus and the things will come. You know, 321 00:17:24,600 --> 00:17:29,040 Speaker 4: I didn't panic. I just stayed the course. Stay the course. 322 00:17:29,280 --> 00:17:32,560 Speaker 1: That is so good. So you built a family. You 323 00:17:32,600 --> 00:17:34,359 Speaker 1: have three beautiful children, Yes I do. 324 00:17:34,480 --> 00:17:35,119 Speaker 3: You're married. 325 00:17:35,720 --> 00:17:38,320 Speaker 1: What was that building of the family life for you? 326 00:17:38,359 --> 00:17:40,680 Speaker 1: Because you did you take a little time off between 327 00:17:41,280 --> 00:17:44,080 Speaker 1: soul food and like really to really hone it on 328 00:17:44,119 --> 00:17:44,600 Speaker 1: your family. 329 00:17:45,000 --> 00:17:50,199 Speaker 4: No, so not really. I didn't necessarily need to purposely 330 00:17:50,280 --> 00:17:53,720 Speaker 4: take time off. It's in our business. We just have 331 00:17:53,960 --> 00:17:58,600 Speaker 4: time off. Yes, But you know, I learned a long 332 00:17:58,640 --> 00:18:01,000 Speaker 4: time ago, and I'm really thank you for this message 333 00:18:01,000 --> 00:18:05,960 Speaker 4: from one of my early acting instructors. She always told 334 00:18:06,040 --> 00:18:10,280 Speaker 4: us to never put our personal lives on hold for 335 00:18:10,400 --> 00:18:14,119 Speaker 4: the business. She said, never put your personal lives on 336 00:18:14,200 --> 00:18:17,359 Speaker 4: hold for the business, because the business fluctuates and it 337 00:18:19,080 --> 00:18:24,720 Speaker 4: doesn't love anyone. It's not protecting you. It's just the business. 338 00:18:25,280 --> 00:18:28,560 Speaker 4: So you have to make sure that you're living your life. 339 00:18:29,200 --> 00:18:32,600 Speaker 4: And also, just as an artist, it's important to live 340 00:18:32,680 --> 00:18:36,000 Speaker 4: your life because it makes you a better artist because 341 00:18:36,000 --> 00:18:39,280 Speaker 4: you're experiencing life. So, yes, I knew what it was 342 00:18:39,440 --> 00:18:41,439 Speaker 4: like to get married. I knew what it was like 343 00:18:41,520 --> 00:18:43,280 Speaker 4: to have a baby. I knew what it was like 344 00:18:43,359 --> 00:18:47,399 Speaker 4: to do these new different things because I'm living my 345 00:18:47,520 --> 00:18:49,480 Speaker 4: life and now I can put those things into the 346 00:18:49,600 --> 00:18:53,360 Speaker 4: characters that I play. Yes, and so yeah, that's one 347 00:18:53,359 --> 00:18:56,639 Speaker 4: thing I definitely tell all the aspiring actors, Well. 348 00:18:56,480 --> 00:18:58,320 Speaker 2: Where were you when I started my career? 349 00:18:58,720 --> 00:19:02,119 Speaker 4: Girl a lot, I'm telling you now, but you do 350 00:19:02,240 --> 00:19:04,720 Speaker 4: live your life, You travel, you do things. 351 00:19:04,800 --> 00:19:07,480 Speaker 1: Yeah, I live, but I've put off the family, you know, 352 00:19:07,680 --> 00:19:10,040 Speaker 1: because on purpose. Yeah, because I didn't know if I 353 00:19:10,480 --> 00:19:12,000 Speaker 1: you know, like you having this in you. I don't 354 00:19:12,000 --> 00:19:13,159 Speaker 1: know if you guys like this, but you have in 355 00:19:13,200 --> 00:19:15,200 Speaker 1: your mind, like I don't have time to take off 356 00:19:15,240 --> 00:19:18,080 Speaker 1: to have a child. And it wasn't even until this 357 00:19:18,200 --> 00:19:22,520 Speaker 1: year seeing my castmate kJ Smith, ye be pregnant work 358 00:19:22,560 --> 00:19:25,680 Speaker 1: while you know how we work, like we shoot fast 359 00:19:25,680 --> 00:19:28,320 Speaker 1: and tile Fair studios. And it was in that moment 360 00:19:28,320 --> 00:19:29,879 Speaker 1: where I actually saw where I was like, wait, I 361 00:19:29,920 --> 00:19:32,880 Speaker 1: could do this, but now it's like can I do this? 362 00:19:33,280 --> 00:19:36,280 Speaker 1: You know? So going to the doctor trying to find 363 00:19:36,320 --> 00:19:38,879 Speaker 1: out if I can even carry, you know, because I 364 00:19:39,119 --> 00:19:41,679 Speaker 1: put my life on hold, and I have that story. 365 00:19:41,760 --> 00:19:45,920 Speaker 4: So many of my peers have that story, and so yeah, 366 00:19:46,000 --> 00:19:50,720 Speaker 4: it is important because you can. I mean, there are 367 00:19:50,760 --> 00:19:53,439 Speaker 4: no limits to what God, God is gonna do. And 368 00:19:53,480 --> 00:19:56,040 Speaker 4: if God blesses you with a family and it's not 369 00:19:56,080 --> 00:20:00,840 Speaker 4: gonna stop you right doing, you'll still you can do both. Yes, 370 00:20:00,920 --> 00:20:03,680 Speaker 4: I always tell you can do both. You can have 371 00:20:03,720 --> 00:20:08,120 Speaker 4: a full family life and a full, beautiful, prosperous career 372 00:20:08,720 --> 00:20:12,399 Speaker 4: because I love them both equally too, I couldn't. I 373 00:20:13,560 --> 00:20:17,200 Speaker 4: love what we do. I love it for many reasons. 374 00:20:17,280 --> 00:20:20,080 Speaker 4: The stories we get to tell, the images we get 375 00:20:20,119 --> 00:20:22,919 Speaker 4: to represent. I love that my daughter can turn on 376 00:20:22,960 --> 00:20:25,439 Speaker 4: a television and see people that look like her, that 377 00:20:25,600 --> 00:20:29,080 Speaker 4: talk like her. That's really important. That my grandmother, who's 378 00:20:29,200 --> 00:20:33,120 Speaker 4: ninety five, she can turn on something and you know 379 00:20:33,640 --> 00:20:39,200 Speaker 4: it resembles her. That's important. Yes, And for me in particular, 380 00:20:39,800 --> 00:20:44,280 Speaker 4: I love to bring comedy into people's lives on purpose, 381 00:20:44,960 --> 00:20:51,760 Speaker 4: because there's so much trauma and heaviness in the world globally, 382 00:20:52,240 --> 00:20:56,479 Speaker 4: not to mention into our individual lives the things that 383 00:20:56,520 --> 00:20:58,879 Speaker 4: people are dealing with. So if I can be a 384 00:20:58,920 --> 00:21:03,080 Speaker 4: part of bringing some joy, some life, even for thirty 385 00:21:03,160 --> 00:21:05,520 Speaker 4: minutes of your day where you just laugh and forget 386 00:21:05,560 --> 00:21:08,120 Speaker 4: about that be all or whatever, and you've forgotten. You're laughing, 387 00:21:08,160 --> 00:21:10,439 Speaker 4: and you're laughing and you get those endorphins and you 388 00:21:10,560 --> 00:21:15,160 Speaker 4: have some sunshine for thirty minutes. That's good, that's good stuff. 389 00:21:15,560 --> 00:21:18,880 Speaker 4: And then life is still there. It's fun. They come 390 00:21:18,920 --> 00:21:21,199 Speaker 4: back next week and watch it thirty more minutes and 391 00:21:21,280 --> 00:21:25,800 Speaker 4: laugh again. But that's important to me, And it's just 392 00:21:25,920 --> 00:21:28,960 Speaker 4: important to me as I'm there for my kids, and 393 00:21:29,160 --> 00:21:32,879 Speaker 4: you know, and God gave me, You'll give you the 394 00:21:33,040 --> 00:21:36,000 Speaker 4: kids that fit your life. You don't have to fit 395 00:21:36,080 --> 00:21:37,960 Speaker 4: their life. They fit your lime on. 396 00:21:39,400 --> 00:21:44,320 Speaker 1: She reaches it to yourself because she's reaching to me. 397 00:21:44,640 --> 00:21:46,680 Speaker 2: Okay, oh man. 398 00:21:46,520 --> 00:21:46,880 Speaker 3: That's good. 399 00:21:46,960 --> 00:21:49,159 Speaker 1: Yeah, because I think a lot of times for me 400 00:21:49,240 --> 00:21:51,280 Speaker 1: at my career started late in life. You know, my 401 00:21:51,400 --> 00:21:54,520 Speaker 1: dream career started late in life. So I was talking 402 00:21:54,520 --> 00:21:57,760 Speaker 1: to Sarah about this Thursday night. She was like, Chrystal, 403 00:21:57,800 --> 00:21:59,440 Speaker 1: are you resting? When do you have time to rest? 404 00:21:59,480 --> 00:22:01,560 Speaker 1: How are you bound? And she's like, do you ever 405 00:22:01,600 --> 00:22:03,680 Speaker 1: feel like feel like you're missing out or like if 406 00:22:03,680 --> 00:22:05,400 Speaker 1: you don't take if you take a break, that you're 407 00:22:05,400 --> 00:22:07,359 Speaker 1: going to miss out in a moment because you have 408 00:22:07,440 --> 00:22:11,280 Speaker 1: to strike while the iron is hot. And I was like, wow, yeah, 409 00:22:11,320 --> 00:22:14,520 Speaker 1: I have had those moments, yeah, for sure, but I 410 00:22:14,520 --> 00:22:17,159 Speaker 1: feel like now I'm more intentional about Okay, I have 411 00:22:17,240 --> 00:22:19,520 Speaker 1: to pencil in the rest. You know, God, you have 412 00:22:20,040 --> 00:22:22,240 Speaker 1: made my plate very full, and I'm grateful because this 413 00:22:22,280 --> 00:22:24,199 Speaker 1: is what I asked for. But now I have to 414 00:22:24,320 --> 00:22:27,399 Speaker 1: intentionally schedule in. Okay, these days I'm going to go 415 00:22:27,440 --> 00:22:30,080 Speaker 1: on vacation or Okay, I can't do it because sometimes 416 00:22:30,160 --> 00:22:31,359 Speaker 1: my team will be like, all right, we get in 417 00:22:31,400 --> 00:22:33,719 Speaker 1: on this day and we're gonna shoot a podcast episode 418 00:22:33,760 --> 00:22:35,119 Speaker 1: on this day as soon as we get back. I'm like, 419 00:22:35,119 --> 00:22:37,840 Speaker 1: I can't do that. I know my limits now, very good, 420 00:22:37,840 --> 00:22:42,600 Speaker 1: and I love y'all for obliging. Now that's very good. 421 00:22:42,640 --> 00:22:45,560 Speaker 4: You have to listen to yourself. Yeah, you have to 422 00:22:45,680 --> 00:22:50,360 Speaker 4: trust your instincts. That's number one. That's God talking, that's 423 00:22:50,359 --> 00:22:53,760 Speaker 4: your intuition. That's the connection. It's not the talk and 424 00:22:53,840 --> 00:22:56,679 Speaker 4: chatter outside of you, it's the talk inside. 425 00:22:56,800 --> 00:22:59,480 Speaker 2: Yes, that's so true. Yeah, it's funny. 426 00:22:59,560 --> 00:23:02,240 Speaker 1: I went to the doctor probably two weeks ago, a 427 00:23:02,240 --> 00:23:06,120 Speaker 1: fertility doctor and a guy who i'd only met one 428 00:23:06,119 --> 00:23:09,800 Speaker 1: time through ryhanda our costume designer, had sent me a 429 00:23:09,840 --> 00:23:12,000 Speaker 1: DM and he said, hey, God gave me a word 430 00:23:12,040 --> 00:23:14,440 Speaker 1: for you give me a call. And I was like, okay, 431 00:23:14,440 --> 00:23:17,000 Speaker 1: we've met like one time. What word did God give 432 00:23:17,040 --> 00:23:20,360 Speaker 1: you for me? So I said, hey, I'll be free 433 00:23:20,400 --> 00:23:22,480 Speaker 1: at this time. Just called me. So I was journaling 434 00:23:22,880 --> 00:23:25,600 Speaker 1: that morning, and I was journaling about God protecting me 435 00:23:25,680 --> 00:23:28,719 Speaker 1: and covering my womb all these different things and asking 436 00:23:28,760 --> 00:23:32,199 Speaker 1: God to give me the desires of his heart. I 437 00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:34,359 Speaker 1: was like, God, whatever you want from me, give it 438 00:23:34,359 --> 00:23:36,200 Speaker 1: to me, and give me the discernment to know what 439 00:23:36,240 --> 00:23:38,480 Speaker 1: you don't desire for me. So as soon as I 440 00:23:38,480 --> 00:23:41,000 Speaker 1: put the pencil down, the guy calls me and he 441 00:23:41,080 --> 00:23:42,600 Speaker 1: told me the first part of it and he said, yeah, 442 00:23:42,600 --> 00:23:44,040 Speaker 1: I was wrestling with this and he said, cause I 443 00:23:44,040 --> 00:23:46,080 Speaker 1: don't know you like that. And then he's like, but 444 00:23:46,119 --> 00:23:47,720 Speaker 1: then this morning I woke up and he gave me 445 00:23:47,760 --> 00:23:49,880 Speaker 1: an addendum to the word and I was like, really, 446 00:23:49,880 --> 00:23:52,920 Speaker 1: what's that? And he said, expect a miracle. And y'all, 447 00:23:52,920 --> 00:23:56,160 Speaker 1: when I tell you, I just started bawling because I'm 448 00:23:56,200 --> 00:24:00,760 Speaker 1: forty two years old, and I got look you, I 449 00:24:00,800 --> 00:24:03,639 Speaker 1: started bawling crying, and I said, you have no idea. 450 00:24:03,640 --> 00:24:06,040 Speaker 1: I was like, I just went to the doctor and 451 00:24:06,240 --> 00:24:09,960 Speaker 1: I'm in my word. I'm reading about Sarah and Abraham, 452 00:24:10,760 --> 00:24:14,879 Speaker 1: and my pastor, Pastor Deare Sinius, always tells us the 453 00:24:14,880 --> 00:24:18,520 Speaker 1: Bible still applies. You're just the character now, you know. 454 00:24:18,600 --> 00:24:22,080 Speaker 1: So replace Sarah's name with Crystal, you know, or whoever 455 00:24:22,280 --> 00:24:24,960 Speaker 1: is out there wanting a child. And I said, you 456 00:24:25,000 --> 00:24:26,719 Speaker 1: don't know what I just wrote down in my journal 457 00:24:27,320 --> 00:24:28,639 Speaker 1: and he was like what. And I was like, I 458 00:24:28,680 --> 00:24:30,359 Speaker 1: just went to the fertility doctor and I said, I 459 00:24:30,359 --> 00:24:32,480 Speaker 1: got a great report back. But I was asking God 460 00:24:32,520 --> 00:24:34,919 Speaker 1: to protect my womb. I was like, thank you for 461 00:24:34,960 --> 00:24:37,679 Speaker 1: protecting my family, but protect my womb. I said, and 462 00:24:37,760 --> 00:24:39,960 Speaker 1: let it happen in your time, in your way, because 463 00:24:40,000 --> 00:24:42,080 Speaker 1: I want to do it in the proper order. And 464 00:24:42,359 --> 00:24:44,320 Speaker 1: I was like, this is just like that's how quick 465 00:24:44,359 --> 00:24:46,680 Speaker 1: God answers like I literally had put the pen down 466 00:24:46,960 --> 00:24:49,240 Speaker 1: and I was showing it to Chornelle our hairstyles this morning. 467 00:24:49,320 --> 00:24:51,760 Speaker 1: I said, do you see this wet drop on the page? 468 00:24:51,880 --> 00:24:53,880 Speaker 1: I said, that was my tears and she goes, oh, 469 00:24:53,960 --> 00:24:57,400 Speaker 1: my goodness. And when you really really get into your 470 00:24:57,440 --> 00:25:00,200 Speaker 1: word and really have that intimate and cultivate that into 471 00:25:00,200 --> 00:25:05,280 Speaker 1: a relationship with God, he literally answers, how I call hey, Terry, Yes, 472 00:25:05,359 --> 00:25:08,520 Speaker 1: Crystal that's how fast God will answer you. And it 473 00:25:08,600 --> 00:25:12,600 Speaker 1: keeps showing up, so you're absolutely right, Yeah, it'll happen. 474 00:25:12,600 --> 00:25:16,640 Speaker 1: In God's simon, It's going to be perfect for you. Yes, 475 00:25:17,119 --> 00:25:19,400 Speaker 1: thank you. I received that, and I hope you guys too. 476 00:25:21,520 --> 00:25:24,320 Speaker 1: Were there ever any moments in this journey where your 477 00:25:24,320 --> 00:25:26,520 Speaker 1: faith was tested where you're like, all right, Lord, now 478 00:25:26,720 --> 00:25:29,400 Speaker 1: things are moving in that twenty years wherever moments where 479 00:25:29,400 --> 00:25:30,200 Speaker 1: you were like, all. 480 00:25:30,160 --> 00:25:34,120 Speaker 4: Right, absolutely in the thirty years, yes, wow, Absolutely. There's 481 00:25:34,160 --> 00:25:39,199 Speaker 4: been several times when I was like, because because my 482 00:25:39,520 --> 00:25:45,280 Speaker 4: entry into this career wasn't something that that I pursued. 483 00:25:45,520 --> 00:25:49,320 Speaker 4: It was something that was offered to me. Because I 484 00:25:49,400 --> 00:25:51,639 Speaker 4: was going to school for advertising. I thought I was 485 00:25:51,680 --> 00:25:55,760 Speaker 4: going to work in the advertising agency, and I was 486 00:25:55,920 --> 00:25:59,879 Speaker 4: invited to participate in this pageant. One of the judges 487 00:25:59,880 --> 00:26:02,399 Speaker 4: of a pageant with a producer of a play that 488 00:26:02,480 --> 00:26:05,359 Speaker 4: they were casting the tour of the country, and he 489 00:26:05,440 --> 00:26:07,359 Speaker 4: asked me if I want to audition for his play. 490 00:26:07,720 --> 00:26:10,960 Speaker 4: So I had never pursued it just on my own. 491 00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:14,679 Speaker 4: It was offerings that I just kept saying yes to. 492 00:26:15,600 --> 00:26:20,520 Speaker 4: And so in those many, many times where it has 493 00:26:20,600 --> 00:26:25,719 Speaker 4: been dark moments when I felt like God this industry 494 00:26:25,840 --> 00:26:29,400 Speaker 4: is not for me. I'm not why am I here? 495 00:26:29,560 --> 00:26:33,040 Speaker 4: What am I doing? I didn't even ask to be here, 496 00:26:33,119 --> 00:26:34,720 Speaker 4: So this is me talking to God. I was like, 497 00:26:34,840 --> 00:26:37,679 Speaker 4: I didn't even ask to be here, so you brought 498 00:26:37,720 --> 00:26:41,280 Speaker 4: me here. So you need to fix it. You need 499 00:26:41,320 --> 00:26:43,960 Speaker 4: to make something happen because I didn't ask to be here. 500 00:26:44,160 --> 00:26:46,520 Speaker 4: I could have been at Grades Advertising in San Francisco. 501 00:26:49,040 --> 00:26:56,000 Speaker 4: And so that conversation has happened several times along this 502 00:26:56,200 --> 00:27:02,199 Speaker 4: journey because it's tough, and I'm telling you, the only 503 00:27:02,320 --> 00:27:07,480 Speaker 4: thing that keeps me going and actually joyful and fulfilled 504 00:27:08,119 --> 00:27:11,720 Speaker 4: in going is because I know I'm living in my purpose. 505 00:27:11,840 --> 00:27:15,400 Speaker 4: I know it. I know it. That's the only way 506 00:27:15,640 --> 00:27:18,320 Speaker 4: I kept going with pitching in my own show for 507 00:27:18,359 --> 00:27:21,760 Speaker 4: twenty years because even though everybody kept telling me no 508 00:27:22,200 --> 00:27:26,119 Speaker 4: for twenty years, I kept feeling the yes on the inside. 509 00:27:26,240 --> 00:27:29,359 Speaker 4: I kept feeling it. So I'm like, I'm just gonna 510 00:27:29,400 --> 00:27:31,479 Speaker 4: listen to that and I'm just gonna keep going. They 511 00:27:31,480 --> 00:27:33,560 Speaker 4: could keep telling me no because they just don't know. 512 00:27:34,000 --> 00:27:36,400 Speaker 4: But I know there's a yes inside. 513 00:27:36,280 --> 00:27:39,440 Speaker 1: Yeah, Loo, It's good. I love that I know there's 514 00:27:39,440 --> 00:27:41,320 Speaker 1: a yes inside. How many of you all can resonate 515 00:27:41,359 --> 00:27:43,840 Speaker 1: with it, right, if you don't have to be in 516 00:27:43,840 --> 00:27:47,560 Speaker 1: the entertainment industry to realize, wait, this is what I'm 517 00:27:47,560 --> 00:27:49,159 Speaker 1: supposed to be doing. And I think a lot of 518 00:27:49,240 --> 00:27:52,360 Speaker 1: times we talked about this backstage, how often and how 519 00:27:52,440 --> 00:27:53,560 Speaker 1: quickly we give up. 520 00:27:54,160 --> 00:27:56,080 Speaker 2: And I think sometimes, like you said, that. 521 00:27:56,280 --> 00:27:59,960 Speaker 1: Giving up is and it's actually an indication that you 522 00:28:00,119 --> 00:28:03,240 Speaker 1: may not be running after your purpose. Because if it's 523 00:28:03,240 --> 00:28:06,400 Speaker 1: something that you are supposed to be doing, we keep 524 00:28:06,440 --> 00:28:09,600 Speaker 1: going no after no, after no after no, because we 525 00:28:09,760 --> 00:28:12,000 Speaker 1: know there's a yes, you know what I'm saying, Yes, 526 00:28:12,440 --> 00:28:21,680 Speaker 1: come on, that's right, I'm preaching you all, But no, 527 00:28:21,760 --> 00:28:22,359 Speaker 1: there is. 528 00:28:22,280 --> 00:28:24,280 Speaker 2: And I think a lot of people give up way 529 00:28:24,320 --> 00:28:24,800 Speaker 2: too soon. 530 00:28:25,200 --> 00:28:29,080 Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah they do. I mean, and like you said, 531 00:28:29,080 --> 00:28:32,760 Speaker 4: it's whatever you want to do in life. And again, 532 00:28:33,520 --> 00:28:36,680 Speaker 4: you know, even our loved ones, people that really love 533 00:28:36,760 --> 00:28:39,720 Speaker 4: us and care about us, they give us guidance and 534 00:28:39,840 --> 00:28:46,760 Speaker 4: advice from their best, yes, from their best, but my 535 00:28:46,960 --> 00:28:49,600 Speaker 4: yes inside of me is not in them, so they 536 00:28:49,640 --> 00:28:55,959 Speaker 4: don't know. They're just they don't give me advice based 537 00:28:56,000 --> 00:29:01,760 Speaker 4: on their experience, their life, their limitations of what they 538 00:29:01,840 --> 00:29:05,600 Speaker 4: think can happen. And they are they're being you know, 539 00:29:05,880 --> 00:29:09,440 Speaker 4: loving and think they're being supportive. But who am I 540 00:29:09,480 --> 00:29:14,480 Speaker 4: gonna trust to? You know, am I gonna listen? Because 541 00:29:14,520 --> 00:29:17,040 Speaker 4: my mom says she's never done this, like this is crazy. 542 00:29:17,160 --> 00:29:18,800 Speaker 4: You got to get a job. You need to go 543 00:29:18,920 --> 00:29:22,000 Speaker 4: do this, you need so I stop and go get 544 00:29:22,040 --> 00:29:25,400 Speaker 4: a job. Because my mom doesn't feel that burning yes 545 00:29:25,560 --> 00:29:29,480 Speaker 4: inside of me, Terry, No, I still got to follow 546 00:29:29,560 --> 00:29:33,200 Speaker 4: my yes. So sometimes it's really scary because you're you 547 00:29:33,280 --> 00:29:36,840 Speaker 4: feel like you're alone, and you are. You're alone with 548 00:29:37,040 --> 00:29:43,000 Speaker 4: your alone because it's yours alone, because it's yours alone. 549 00:29:43,440 --> 00:29:46,400 Speaker 4: It's not for my mom, it's not for my sister, 550 00:29:46,640 --> 00:29:49,640 Speaker 4: it's not for them. This is mine. And because I 551 00:29:49,840 --> 00:29:53,640 Speaker 4: followed what was mine. Look what I get to do 552 00:29:53,720 --> 00:29:55,760 Speaker 4: and who I get to talk to and how I 553 00:29:55,800 --> 00:29:59,080 Speaker 4: get to live and y'all get to laugh. And you know, 554 00:29:59,320 --> 00:30:02,400 Speaker 4: if I didn't do that, there wouldn't be the things. 555 00:30:02,560 --> 00:30:05,160 Speaker 4: There wouldn't have been a Levita, there wouldn't be a misk, 556 00:30:05,560 --> 00:30:08,680 Speaker 4: you know, if I didn't listen to that burning yes yes. 557 00:30:09,080 --> 00:30:11,720 Speaker 1: Oh my goodness, Oh. 558 00:30:14,280 --> 00:30:15,760 Speaker 4: This is good. 559 00:30:16,920 --> 00:30:20,200 Speaker 1: I love it. Now you are in a place now 560 00:30:20,240 --> 00:30:25,160 Speaker 1: where you're starting your own production company, TJV Enterprising Enterprise 561 00:30:25,560 --> 00:30:26,360 Speaker 1: Enterprise y'all. 562 00:30:26,880 --> 00:30:29,040 Speaker 2: That means multiple things happening. 563 00:30:29,080 --> 00:30:32,600 Speaker 4: Okay, I love it, Yes, tell us about that. 564 00:30:32,680 --> 00:30:33,800 Speaker 1: What else do you have going on? 565 00:30:34,600 --> 00:30:34,719 Speaker 3: So? 566 00:30:34,880 --> 00:30:39,680 Speaker 4: You know, we of course our show mis Governor on Netflix, 567 00:30:40,120 --> 00:30:44,760 Speaker 4: but we have more shows that I am actively pitching. 568 00:30:46,400 --> 00:30:50,840 Speaker 4: It never stops, it never, oh lord, it never stops. Uh. 569 00:30:50,880 --> 00:30:55,200 Speaker 4: So we're doing that. Yeah, we're just creating, you know, 570 00:30:55,360 --> 00:30:57,040 Speaker 4: I don't I don't know. I have a slate of 571 00:30:57,080 --> 00:30:58,960 Speaker 4: things that I want to do. It's like, I'm sure 572 00:30:59,000 --> 00:31:02,160 Speaker 4: you do. Like the list is long, Yes, so you 573 00:31:02,240 --> 00:31:05,640 Speaker 4: grab about three at one time and trying to pursue 574 00:31:05,680 --> 00:31:09,720 Speaker 4: the first three. See what happened? So yeah, So we 575 00:31:09,760 --> 00:31:16,240 Speaker 4: have movies and television series. I'm just really inspired to 576 00:31:16,280 --> 00:31:21,440 Speaker 4: tell stories that feature women of color in leading roles 577 00:31:21,640 --> 00:31:24,400 Speaker 4: and comedic roles. And you know, because a lot of 578 00:31:24,440 --> 00:31:27,160 Speaker 4: times we're the girlfriend of somebody, or the neighbor or 579 00:31:27,200 --> 00:31:30,840 Speaker 4: the dad. I'm like, nope, I want our stuff to 580 00:31:30,880 --> 00:31:35,040 Speaker 4: be us telling these stories from our own mouth. Come on, 581 00:31:35,280 --> 00:31:38,720 Speaker 4: laughing at ourselves and all of our you know, our 582 00:31:38,760 --> 00:31:41,760 Speaker 4: flaws and all. You know, we're not perfect, but that's 583 00:31:41,800 --> 00:31:45,040 Speaker 4: what makes the world so great and interesting. And I 584 00:31:45,080 --> 00:31:47,560 Speaker 4: want to be able to feature women of color in 585 00:31:47,600 --> 00:31:50,280 Speaker 4: those leading roles. So all of our projects pretty much 586 00:31:50,400 --> 00:31:52,240 Speaker 4: are that I love it. 587 00:31:52,320 --> 00:31:54,680 Speaker 1: I love it like you. I'm getting more into the 588 00:31:54,720 --> 00:31:55,760 Speaker 1: producer side of things. 589 00:31:55,880 --> 00:31:56,480 Speaker 4: Yes, I was. 590 00:31:56,440 --> 00:31:59,680 Speaker 1: Having a conversation with my friend Woody maclain from Hour 591 00:32:00,280 --> 00:32:03,560 Speaker 1: and Yeah shut Out with he and he's working on something. 592 00:32:03,560 --> 00:32:05,200 Speaker 2: He's been public about it. He's working on a rom 593 00:32:05,240 --> 00:32:06,280 Speaker 2: com and. 594 00:32:06,360 --> 00:32:09,160 Speaker 1: He had done a podcast and he broke down crime 595 00:32:09,160 --> 00:32:11,040 Speaker 1: because he has twins on the way and he was like, 596 00:32:11,040 --> 00:32:13,000 Speaker 1: I don't want my daughters to see me in that 597 00:32:13,160 --> 00:32:17,600 Speaker 1: light as the character that I'm playing. And I felt 598 00:32:17,680 --> 00:32:20,840 Speaker 1: him in that moment because I want to see different 599 00:32:20,840 --> 00:32:23,680 Speaker 1: content that shines a different light on us, you know. 600 00:32:23,840 --> 00:32:25,520 Speaker 1: And in that moment, he was like, y'all want you 601 00:32:25,560 --> 00:32:26,800 Speaker 1: to epe this with me? And I was like, I 602 00:32:26,920 --> 00:32:29,400 Speaker 1: bet I'm down, but I'll say it's crazy you're calling 603 00:32:29,400 --> 00:32:31,320 Speaker 1: me because I want to start creating the content that 604 00:32:31,360 --> 00:32:33,680 Speaker 1: I want to see. It's only so much I want 605 00:32:33,720 --> 00:32:37,760 Speaker 1: to see something different then make it, you know. So 606 00:32:37,880 --> 00:32:41,000 Speaker 1: I love that you're doing that. Yes, And that's the 607 00:32:41,040 --> 00:32:42,520 Speaker 1: path that I'm forging next as well. 608 00:32:42,600 --> 00:32:46,160 Speaker 4: So yeah, we have to It's very important and it's 609 00:32:46,760 --> 00:32:51,400 Speaker 4: for us, and that's the thing. It's all purposeful, right, 610 00:32:51,560 --> 00:32:54,760 Speaker 4: It's a part of my ministry is to bring this 611 00:32:55,040 --> 00:32:58,960 Speaker 4: to y'all. I want you to be filled with joy. 612 00:32:59,040 --> 00:33:02,560 Speaker 4: I want you to I want you to think and 613 00:33:02,640 --> 00:33:07,120 Speaker 4: be challenged and reconsider or whatever it is that you 614 00:33:07,160 --> 00:33:10,240 Speaker 4: know is needed in the moment. I want to create 615 00:33:10,320 --> 00:33:13,720 Speaker 4: images that look like you, that are helping you through 616 00:33:13,800 --> 00:33:17,920 Speaker 4: that navigate. I just I think it's really important and 617 00:33:18,520 --> 00:33:22,640 Speaker 4: I totally believe that laughter is healing. Yes, it is 618 00:33:22,680 --> 00:33:26,600 Speaker 4: healing for your soul to laugh. Literally, it's medicine. 619 00:33:26,680 --> 00:33:30,080 Speaker 1: It is speaking of lazard medicine. MS Governor is a 620 00:33:30,120 --> 00:33:34,959 Speaker 1: show that have you guys watched mis Governor on Netflix? Yes, 621 00:33:35,120 --> 00:33:36,360 Speaker 1: it will have you cackling. 622 00:33:36,440 --> 00:33:39,800 Speaker 2: Okay, Yeah, What was the inspiration behind it? 623 00:33:40,080 --> 00:33:41,240 Speaker 1: How did it feel when you. 624 00:33:41,160 --> 00:33:44,800 Speaker 2: Saw the ratings on Netflix all the things? 625 00:33:44,880 --> 00:33:49,720 Speaker 4: So the inspiration actually started about eight years ago. My 626 00:33:49,840 --> 00:33:56,000 Speaker 4: girlfriend London Breed became the first black Hey Bay Area, 627 00:33:56,440 --> 00:33:59,320 Speaker 4: became the first black female mayor of the city of 628 00:33:59,320 --> 00:34:04,160 Speaker 4: San Francisco, Go and the city with bananas. It was crazy, 629 00:34:04,360 --> 00:34:08,800 Speaker 4: so much pushback and drama she got being in that position, 630 00:34:09,080 --> 00:34:11,879 Speaker 4: and they did so many things that she had to 631 00:34:11,920 --> 00:34:14,520 Speaker 4: like jump through these hoops and do a special election 632 00:34:15,200 --> 00:34:17,640 Speaker 4: and all the things, and she still ended up winning. 633 00:34:18,080 --> 00:34:22,000 Speaker 4: And when I watched my sister do that, like and 634 00:34:22,040 --> 00:34:24,000 Speaker 4: this is a girl from the hood, Like we grew 635 00:34:24,040 --> 00:34:26,959 Speaker 4: up in the hood, and I'm watching her as she's 636 00:34:27,120 --> 00:34:31,719 Speaker 4: climbing the political chain and she became the mayor of 637 00:34:31,760 --> 00:34:34,400 Speaker 4: one of the richest cities in the nation, the first 638 00:34:34,440 --> 00:34:39,239 Speaker 4: black woman to do that. I was inspired. Yeah, and 639 00:34:39,360 --> 00:34:42,839 Speaker 4: so the character of Antoinette, and Antoinette is named after 640 00:34:42,840 --> 00:34:45,520 Speaker 4: one of my childhood friends. So I always pull from 641 00:34:45,560 --> 00:34:50,560 Speaker 4: my real life my stories. So the character of Antoinette 642 00:34:50,920 --> 00:34:58,440 Speaker 4: was inspired by London's win for the mayor of San Francisco. 643 00:34:58,520 --> 00:35:00,480 Speaker 4: And of course, you know, we changed the story to 644 00:35:00,520 --> 00:35:02,719 Speaker 4: be getting more saucy and made it south and made 645 00:35:02,719 --> 00:35:05,520 Speaker 4: a governor instead of mayor and all the things. But 646 00:35:05,640 --> 00:35:09,040 Speaker 4: that's where the inspiration came from. So that's been like 647 00:35:09,239 --> 00:35:14,280 Speaker 4: seven years in the works of pitching, restructuring, partnering, meeting 648 00:35:14,840 --> 00:35:22,239 Speaker 4: and finally landed with our silent ferry and that yes 649 00:35:22,920 --> 00:35:27,200 Speaker 4: and so yes. So now it's on Netflix. And you know, 650 00:35:27,320 --> 00:35:30,080 Speaker 4: I love my cast. I have an amazing cast. These 651 00:35:30,080 --> 00:35:35,600 Speaker 4: are so funny and lovely, great human beings and talented 652 00:35:36,200 --> 00:35:39,080 Speaker 4: and we get to tell these stories and get to 653 00:35:39,120 --> 00:35:43,000 Speaker 4: play with each other. And the ratings were great, so guys, 654 00:35:43,000 --> 00:35:47,320 Speaker 4: please keep watching. We are hoping to get a second season, 655 00:35:47,840 --> 00:35:50,480 Speaker 4: so please watch it, watch it, watch it. Spread the 656 00:35:50,520 --> 00:35:53,320 Speaker 4: words so we can get that second season. 657 00:35:53,719 --> 00:35:59,000 Speaker 1: Yes, please definitely watch it. Support Support, Support, I love 658 00:35:59,040 --> 00:36:02,760 Speaker 1: it so well. This year's theme is a race to freedom. 659 00:36:02,800 --> 00:36:06,120 Speaker 1: So in closing, I'm going to tell you what my 660 00:36:06,280 --> 00:36:08,440 Speaker 1: race to freedom is and what I'm working towards, and 661 00:36:08,480 --> 00:36:09,799 Speaker 1: then I would love for you to share with us 662 00:36:09,880 --> 00:36:13,239 Speaker 1: your race to freedom. Okay, for me, when I leave 663 00:36:13,239 --> 00:36:18,400 Speaker 1: Women Evolved this year, I want to be free from 664 00:36:18,440 --> 00:36:21,759 Speaker 1: self sabotage, the spirit of self sabotage. I want to 665 00:36:21,800 --> 00:36:26,480 Speaker 1: be free of understanding that things that are out of 666 00:36:26,480 --> 00:36:30,440 Speaker 1: my control they're simply out of my control because I 667 00:36:30,480 --> 00:36:31,120 Speaker 1: get worked up. 668 00:36:32,520 --> 00:36:36,440 Speaker 4: So mine is very similar. I want to be free 669 00:36:36,640 --> 00:36:44,480 Speaker 4: from judgment of myself. I'm really hard, yeah, So I 670 00:36:44,520 --> 00:36:50,520 Speaker 4: want to free myself of having to set a certain 671 00:36:50,640 --> 00:36:55,680 Speaker 4: bar for everybody, myself, making sure everybody's pleased, and I'm 672 00:36:55,719 --> 00:36:59,200 Speaker 4: taking care of everybody in it and you know, making 673 00:36:59,239 --> 00:37:04,160 Speaker 4: people happy, being nice, and you know it's the thing 674 00:37:04,200 --> 00:37:06,560 Speaker 4: in this business. It's like I don't want to lose 675 00:37:06,560 --> 00:37:09,560 Speaker 4: who I am, because that's just who I am. But 676 00:37:10,040 --> 00:37:14,680 Speaker 4: it can be very very stressful carrying that and judging 677 00:37:14,719 --> 00:37:18,040 Speaker 4: yourself if you feel like you've done something wrong. So 678 00:37:18,080 --> 00:37:20,200 Speaker 4: it's very similar to what you're saying. I want to 679 00:37:20,200 --> 00:37:23,000 Speaker 4: give myself grace. I want to release the things I 680 00:37:23,040 --> 00:37:27,440 Speaker 4: have no control of. I cannot control what people say, think, do, 681 00:37:28,640 --> 00:37:31,319 Speaker 4: even though I if I put out my best intentions, 682 00:37:31,440 --> 00:37:34,320 Speaker 4: it doesn't matter. Yeah, So I want to free myself 683 00:37:34,320 --> 00:37:34,600 Speaker 4: with that. 684 00:37:34,960 --> 00:37:37,399 Speaker 1: I love that. I love that. Do you mind if 685 00:37:37,400 --> 00:37:41,160 Speaker 1: we close off in a prayer because I know everyone 686 00:37:41,160 --> 00:37:43,880 Speaker 1: who was here they came for a reason and I 687 00:37:43,920 --> 00:37:45,400 Speaker 1: just want to pray over you guys before we leave. 688 00:37:45,440 --> 00:37:47,880 Speaker 1: Is that okay? All right? I mave o our heads, 689 00:37:49,320 --> 00:37:51,399 Speaker 1: Heavening Father. We just want to thank you for this day, 690 00:37:51,480 --> 00:37:54,120 Speaker 1: Dear God. We thank you for safe travels. We want 691 00:37:54,160 --> 00:37:56,440 Speaker 1: to thank you for every woman that is present in 692 00:37:56,480 --> 00:37:59,400 Speaker 1: this room who is thirsty for your word, who was 693 00:37:59,440 --> 00:38:02,080 Speaker 1: thirsty for you, your presence, Dear God, and yearns for it. 694 00:38:02,560 --> 00:38:04,919 Speaker 1: I ask that whatever is on her or his heart, 695 00:38:05,000 --> 00:38:06,920 Speaker 1: I ask that you answer it and be very clear. 696 00:38:07,560 --> 00:38:10,040 Speaker 1: I ask that you move with swiftness, Dear God, whatever 697 00:38:10,080 --> 00:38:12,800 Speaker 1: it is, if there's a sickness, if there is hurt, 698 00:38:13,160 --> 00:38:15,080 Speaker 1: if there is trauma, whatever it is, or God, I 699 00:38:15,120 --> 00:38:17,160 Speaker 1: ask that you heal them from that. I asked that 700 00:38:17,280 --> 00:38:21,680 Speaker 1: every person leaves this conference change with a new perspective 701 00:38:21,800 --> 00:38:24,839 Speaker 1: and knowing that you are a gracious God. I ask 702 00:38:24,920 --> 00:38:26,920 Speaker 1: that you allow us to give ourselves more grace the 703 00:38:26,960 --> 00:38:29,000 Speaker 1: same way that you do, because I know, even myself, 704 00:38:29,080 --> 00:38:31,759 Speaker 1: I'm hard on myself, but as I studied your word, 705 00:38:31,840 --> 00:38:33,279 Speaker 1: I know that you are a good God. You are 706 00:38:33,280 --> 00:38:35,680 Speaker 1: a gracious God, and every time we fall, you are 707 00:38:35,680 --> 00:38:38,120 Speaker 1: there to pick us up. So I want to just 708 00:38:38,200 --> 00:38:40,239 Speaker 1: thank you for this moment. Thank you for allowing me 709 00:38:40,280 --> 00:38:46,040 Speaker 1: to use this platform to spread your word. 710 00:38:45,400 --> 00:38:51,799 Speaker 3: Thank you. 711 00:38:53,760 --> 00:38:58,040 Speaker 1: I'm so undeserving. Thank you God, but you let me 712 00:38:58,120 --> 00:39:00,680 Speaker 1: know every day that I deserve it everything that you 713 00:39:00,760 --> 00:39:03,040 Speaker 1: have put in my life, and I appreciate that. I 714 00:39:03,040 --> 00:39:06,120 Speaker 1: want to continue to keep this humble heart. I asked 715 00:39:06,160 --> 00:39:08,359 Speaker 1: that you continue to bless this platform that we can 716 00:39:08,400 --> 00:39:10,680 Speaker 1: continue to spread your message. And I ask it everywhere 717 00:39:10,680 --> 00:39:13,200 Speaker 1: I go that they see your light In Jesus name, 718 00:39:13,239 --> 00:39:14,600 Speaker 1: we pray Amen, Amen,