WEBVTT - Ep. 47  Don't Be An "At least" B*tch

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<v Speaker 1>Talk. We're just too unapologetically black women with an opinion

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<v Speaker 1>to talk back. What's up, y'all, it's your girl, a

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<v Speaker 1>j Welcome to a new episode. If we talked back

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<v Speaker 1>A Hey, y'all, it's tam Bell and I'm broken hearted.

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<v Speaker 1>You're not. I don't mind. I'm hurting because, man, these

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<v Speaker 1>niggas is trash. It's like, not all of them, but

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<v Speaker 1>the one I'm thinking about. Yeah. Here. I love y'all. Though,

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<v Speaker 1>if I ain't told y'all a long time, I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like I ain't told y'all in a minute. Um. I

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<v Speaker 1>went to d Artists past weekend by myself and I

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<v Speaker 1>had a lot of fun. Actually, I hung out with

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<v Speaker 1>this old man on the first night who was a

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<v Speaker 1>foreign diplomat. Yeah, I know he was. He was cool.

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<v Speaker 1>Probably was, um, what's those people are hit man? What

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<v Speaker 1>if well he hits he hit nothing out there. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna tell you that he hit me. He thought he

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<v Speaker 1>was gonna hit me too. At the end of the night,

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<v Speaker 1>he looked so disappointed. I was like, sorry, Grandpa, I

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<v Speaker 1>gotta go. Did he have that gray got that gray

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<v Speaker 1>line around his pupil? No, he wasn't that old. He

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<v Speaker 1>was like fifty three. Mm, that's not old. I kind

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<v Speaker 1>of like fifty three year olds. M hmmm, that's too

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<v Speaker 1>old for me. They did he was he black. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>he was youthful. He was a youthful fifty three. He

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<v Speaker 1>wasn't like, you know, go get the soldier out the trunk.

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<v Speaker 1>He going my keys. He wasn't that old, but he

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<v Speaker 1>was old. He's too old for me, but he was

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of fun and he cut me sauce up.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if y'll follow my Instagram, but was

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<v Speaker 1>I had a whole Instagram rant drunk is Someone said, girl,

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<v Speaker 1>you're drunk. Her in a football back. I don't even

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<v Speaker 1>a football back. She saw that she's drunk, because what

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<v Speaker 1>the fun is a football back? Exactly That's exactly how

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<v Speaker 1>drunk I was. Then I wrote, I was in Santo Domingo,

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<v Speaker 1>and I left Santo Domingo and I went to Punta Conor,

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<v Speaker 1>which was like across the country, two and a half

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<v Speaker 1>hour drive, and I got an uber and my uber

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<v Speaker 1>hit somebody, like literally hit a man on a motorcycle

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<v Speaker 1>like I know what you did last summer type ship? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>some ship like that and drove off. So I hope

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<v Speaker 1>it ain't no dominicanting out here ready to come get me.

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<v Speaker 1>I was a passenger to I was, I was a

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<v Speaker 1>victim to sir. And she ain't speaking no English, so

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<v Speaker 1>I was like sitting there stunned, and she just was

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<v Speaker 1>looking in the review at me, and then she just

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<v Speaker 1>put her hand in the air like and she just

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<v Speaker 1>kept going yo. So that's how didn't get down of

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<v Speaker 1>dr They just be hitting motherfucker's on the highway. That's

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<v Speaker 1>sound like China and something because they don't be having

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<v Speaker 1>on stoplights and stop signs. They just be driving. They

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<v Speaker 1>just be going. I don't see e men. Why they

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<v Speaker 1>have lanes there just for decoration. I think because nobody

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<v Speaker 1>adheres to them, like in the Yes. But that was

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<v Speaker 1>really the only adventure I had was you know, someone

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<v Speaker 1>getting hit by a car. But but I had a

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<v Speaker 1>good time. I went to the beach, but I ain't

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<v Speaker 1>get in the beach. I ain't getting the water. I

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<v Speaker 1>just was out there someplace for the New Year's I

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<v Speaker 1>need some sun, I need some saying, I need something dick,

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<v Speaker 1>I need all types of ship. I was on our period,

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<v Speaker 1>so I know flow was like, fuck you bitch. I

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<v Speaker 1>didn't even playing for my peer. You know, I have

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<v Speaker 1>a float chart and that my perer was supposed to

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<v Speaker 1>come on the following week, but she came early. Hate.

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<v Speaker 1>That's like your vacation. You see all those memes online

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<v Speaker 1>like a bitch be packing a little overnight whole back

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<v Speaker 1>and the perid come out the other room, like what uppit?

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<v Speaker 1>Where the fund you going without me? Bit? You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I always thought that if I was planning to do

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<v Speaker 1>some whole ship and my perid came on, I thought

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<v Speaker 1>it was aside from God, like I'm not supposed to

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<v Speaker 1>be doing this ship. That's why God like passing your

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<v Speaker 1>sucking ass down for the weekend. You're trying to go

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<v Speaker 1>fun with something you ain't got no business sucking with?

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<v Speaker 1>Who you h at my heart? Did you hurt my heart?

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<v Speaker 1>You know? You can get herpes from someone using a condom? Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>because of skin contact. It's not like it's not like liquid,

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<v Speaker 1>not liquid but body fluids like people think of other s.

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<v Speaker 1>Cd S is skin contact that it's not really technically

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<v Speaker 1>is it really uh an STD? It's not really an STD.

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<v Speaker 1>It's more like a skin condition, right, But it has

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<v Speaker 1>like such a very bad stigma more than it it is.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, a sickness. Yeah, because if somebody gives you

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<v Speaker 1>all sex who has like fever blisters, simplex one, you

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<v Speaker 1>can get that on your pussy. It may not come

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<v Speaker 1>up as a simplex too, but you're gonna have to be.

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<v Speaker 1>It'll be oral. It'll be oral herpes on your vaginant. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>fool fool, fool, fool fool. He got's to be careful.

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<v Speaker 1>It looks of y'all. Didn't know that. Y'all be with

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<v Speaker 1>the niggs who always be getting the fever blisters. I

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<v Speaker 1>always see you want light skin, dudes, and it wins

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<v Speaker 1>the time, Like if y'll be fun with them, dudes,

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<v Speaker 1>get them fever blisters. Just no, pussy might look like

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<v Speaker 1>a damn herpes cry crunch, I mean nestly crunch star Crunch,

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<v Speaker 1>Star crunch bar. We don't hurt be shaman though. What

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<v Speaker 1>about you? What's your what's your weekend? Look like? My

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<v Speaker 1>weekend was all right? I actually did something this weekend.

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<v Speaker 1>I went to a friend's birthday party, little gathering, and

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<v Speaker 1>guess who the DJ was? Erica fucking do Yes. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>jealous of you, Yes, girl, I love I love her.

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<v Speaker 1>She's beautiful too, She's beautiful one of my karaoke songs

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<v Speaker 1>is Tyrone. When I do karaoke, it's either Dixie Chicks

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<v Speaker 1>Earl or Tyrone or UM. I also do Jill Scott

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<v Speaker 1>he Loves Me. Those are my three songs. But Erica

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<v Speaker 1>Bardou is like one of the greatest all time. I love, love,

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<v Speaker 1>love Erica, and she was with her was fat. Yes,

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<v Speaker 1>she would listen like she'd fucking mixing too, like she's

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<v Speaker 1>a real live DJ, like she'd be mixing and all

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<v Speaker 1>of that. But she seems like she might have had

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<v Speaker 1>her leg up on something. But she just was like

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<v Speaker 1>making that thing just like in DJ with her eyes closed. Bitch.

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<v Speaker 1>She gave like some real good Lott affirmations before she

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<v Speaker 1>started um DJ and I love Erica bad Man me too.

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<v Speaker 1>It was a real intimate uh sating that she was there.

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<v Speaker 1>But I was excited about that because that's one of

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<v Speaker 1>my favorite I want to be close friends with your

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<v Speaker 1>close friends so I can be in the midst of

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<v Speaker 1>all that ship. Okay, good luck, bitch, like I'll be

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<v Speaker 1>sending you with people. Not for real, we're gonna be

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<v Speaker 1>in there. But whenever you get a plus one, just

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<v Speaker 1>let me be it until you get one Okay, cool,

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<v Speaker 1>Well that sounds like a fun weekend. I love Erica,

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<v Speaker 1>but do if you tune into the show, we love

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<v Speaker 1>to have you as a guess. You should have tried

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<v Speaker 1>to plug that ship. I know she got the funk

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<v Speaker 1>up out of there too quick though, like she literally

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<v Speaker 1>came to DJ. You know what I'm saying, Like she

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<v Speaker 1>you know what I really want from Erica? Bad God,

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<v Speaker 1>just give me the check. I need like a super

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<v Speaker 1>duperd check when I have a kid. I want Erka

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<v Speaker 1>Baidu to be my dola. That's like a real life

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<v Speaker 1>life goal of mine. I need a h I bring

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<v Speaker 1>some life on this fuck up ass planet. I need

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<v Speaker 1>Erica one of these. I just want to I just

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<v Speaker 1>want to do Erica. I don't want to give no

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<v Speaker 1>no baby behind. I want to play play makeup baby

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<v Speaker 1>with her ass. I'm just joking. People don't think I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gave for real and real life like you you gave

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<v Speaker 1>for the check. I'll just be talking. I'm scared of possy.

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<v Speaker 1>I would need to that should look like a oyster,

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<v Speaker 1>like I love oysters, and my thing is just like

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<v Speaker 1>I just don't want to bitch what we've eating. My

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<v Speaker 1>pussy leg and then like what happens where both of

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<v Speaker 1>our periods sync up, like we're gonna be fighting. We're fighting.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not with that ship. Like at least a man

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<v Speaker 1>can sunk the ship out of you after he piss

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<v Speaker 1>you off. Like, now I gotta get this cold plastic dick.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not good with that. I put it in the

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<v Speaker 1>microwave for you, baby shame. Now you got what's the

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<v Speaker 1>ship that microwaves give off? Uh? Girl, we're gonna all

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<v Speaker 1>die one way or another, might as well radiation. No,

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<v Speaker 1>you're eating up food with that motherfucker when I using microwave,

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<v Speaker 1>So I definitely was wouldn't put dick in the microwave.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't use the microwave. I recooked my food on

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<v Speaker 1>the sober I put in the oven. Yeah, me too,

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<v Speaker 1>or the air frying. I'm scared of air friers. Like,

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<v Speaker 1>how then does that work? It's like a it's like

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<v Speaker 1>a I have the stove upside down with a face.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like a confection of him. Is it confection and convection? Yeah? Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>But what we got going on the old school eyes

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<v Speaker 1>though they had to wire, you know, not these flat

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<v Speaker 1>top ships that we got Now, it's the old school,

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<v Speaker 1>that's it. Remember that where you m oh, I guess

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<v Speaker 1>I never even looked at them to see how they

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<v Speaker 1>were actually made. But I don't know. I'm scared of

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<v Speaker 1>I'm scared of all that ship. I just want to

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<v Speaker 1>cook my ship and the stove on the stainless steel pot. Y'all,

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<v Speaker 1>bitches be using them, uh not stainless steel, yeah, stainlessteel.

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<v Speaker 1>You'll be using them non stickpots. All that should be

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<v Speaker 1>scraped up in them pots. That's going to your food.

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<v Speaker 1>I've seen this white lady at the hotel and she

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<v Speaker 1>had on some of those Cardier Love Bengals and I

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<v Speaker 1>was like, oh, they're so pretty. I'm not gonna line

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<v Speaker 1>because I'm gonna see if I can get me one

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<v Speaker 1>for Christmas. Bit simp ships about seven thousand dollars a piece,

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<v Speaker 1>and she had on three, Like bit y'all robbed you

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<v Speaker 1>out here like a bit just jumking. I want to

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<v Speaker 1>rob nobody, but yeah, on three of them, I just

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<v Speaker 1>won't want what the hell I got to do with

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<v Speaker 1>the damn air fryer? Bit Like, why you think about that, lady? Bracelets?

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know, so just took me back to beautiful.

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<v Speaker 1>If anybody want to buy me a Cardier bracelet, thank you,

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<v Speaker 1>I love you? All right? Did you see Stevie J?

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<v Speaker 1>Girl moving right along? Did you see Stevie J what

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<v Speaker 1>he did to Faith? Faith? Did his I'm gonna tell

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<v Speaker 1>you something, So I saw somebody like when they put

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<v Speaker 1>the video out of them arguing and him accusing her

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<v Speaker 1>of having stuff like having somebody in their house. They're

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<v Speaker 1>probably broken up. And yeah, she might have had the

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<v Speaker 1>next nigg over very well possible, right, but that's funked up,

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<v Speaker 1>all right, y'all. If y'all y'all weren't paying the taste

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<v Speaker 1>to this week, Stevie J and ain't broke up, y'all.

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<v Speaker 1>But did we not see that coming? But they tried.

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<v Speaker 1>I didn't think that was gonna last forever. And then

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<v Speaker 1>the altercation aired and you know, went viral, and he

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<v Speaker 1>accused her of bringing the nigg in the house and

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<v Speaker 1>sucking him in the house. Listen, that's that's the kind

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<v Speaker 1>of strict get you killed right there. You gotta be careful.

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<v Speaker 1>I never was interested in what what her sign was

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<v Speaker 1>her astrological sign until I read I think either was

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<v Speaker 1>on ts R ball alert. The video right, yes, listen

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<v Speaker 1>when he said you had another bit of the house

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<v Speaker 1>and she was like m but just said, wait a minute,

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<v Speaker 1>what the fuck is Faith signed? Because that would have

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<v Speaker 1>been my response another nigga, I'm sleep, I'm going to

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<v Speaker 1>sleep whatever whatever. Hey shout out to all the geminis. Hey,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna tell you something. Don't think y'all can do that,

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<v Speaker 1>like Faith did, bring nig and talking about you in

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<v Speaker 1>the house. Probably her house. All them damn kids that

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<v Speaker 1>nigga own. He can't own no property or nothing because

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<v Speaker 1>the damn text man and child support man coming. It's

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<v Speaker 1>probably her house and he's concerned about her having a

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<v Speaker 1>niggin by. He's seeking spouse of support. From what I understand, Listen,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not against that because men have to take care

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<v Speaker 1>of women all the time, like whoever has the most money,

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<v Speaker 1>blah blah blah blah blah blah. You know, they really

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<v Speaker 1>weren't married that long for him to be trying to

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<v Speaker 1>three years, that's not long enough. Nigga, You forty something

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<v Speaker 1>years old. Damn they're fifties. So now I'm having to

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<v Speaker 1>pay because I was married to you for three years

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<v Speaker 1>and you're used to some lifestyle after three years, I

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<v Speaker 1>gotta help you keep up with that's some bullshit. He's

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<v Speaker 1>not gonna get that. They don't even have no kids together.

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<v Speaker 1>He's not gonna get that. Did you see right? Well?

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<v Speaker 1>I hope he gets a little a little bit. You

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<v Speaker 1>really hope he does that to Faith. She knew who

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<v Speaker 1>the funk he was before she married his friends. They

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<v Speaker 1>really thought they probably was going to be together forever,

0:14:10.120 --> 0:14:12.240
<v Speaker 1>you know, because that's the whole ching you gotta, you

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<v Speaker 1>gotta During that time, everybody was watching love and hip hop,

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<v Speaker 1>but you weren't watching, you know what I'm like, You

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<v Speaker 1>didn't see how doing Josh. Look, you know, I'm light skinned.

0:14:20.760 --> 0:14:23.760
<v Speaker 1>Bitches think that the exception, but you ain't no exception.

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<v Speaker 1>But you gonna dog right, it's gonna be the same ship, right.

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<v Speaker 1>He want a light skin now, he wants a spou

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<v Speaker 1>he wants he wants to check now. So I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I feel you know, sorry, Faith, we love you, but

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<v Speaker 1>that's how a cookie curl sometimes. Alright, moving right along, No,

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<v Speaker 1>let's go to a commercial, bitch, let's face some bills.

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<v Speaker 1>He'd be right back. What's out with Tristan? Now? He's

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<v Speaker 1>wilding out? Okay, did you read the fucking Tristan throw

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<v Speaker 1>that Dick Thompson and his back at it again. He's

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<v Speaker 1>so fine, he said, he about to be unemployed, so

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<v Speaker 1>you ain't gonna get no money, but to a millionaire,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm getting something every month. He is terrible. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>every day I see future in a different light. It's

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<v Speaker 1>just something that's a little worse than a lot worse,

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<v Speaker 1>a lot worse. Poor clothes. You want to pay her.

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<v Speaker 1>My thing is so you want to you want to

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<v Speaker 1>keep the millionaire, but you want to keep impregnant in

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<v Speaker 1>all these regular women and then trying to force them

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<v Speaker 1>to have an abortion. My thing with men and abortions, like, nigga,

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<v Speaker 1>don't suggest nothing to me. If I decided to have

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<v Speaker 1>an abortion, that's gonna sucking me. You don't have to

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<v Speaker 1>deal with this ship even with a morning after playing

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<v Speaker 1>b pill. Like you don't have to deal with the

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<v Speaker 1>after effects of having to take the pill. You don't

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<v Speaker 1>have to deal with the emotional and physical ship you're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna go through after having abortion. Don't suggest a motherfucking

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<v Speaker 1>thing to me now. But I have taken the seventy

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<v Speaker 1>five dollars because this nigga said he don't want a

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<v Speaker 1>baby and we had four weeks. Absolutely the fuck, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not into forcing anybody to do some ship they

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<v Speaker 1>don't want to do. But that baby is in you. First, Nigga,

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<v Speaker 1>I would have been like a hundred fifty extra yes,

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<v Speaker 1>a hundred fifty double it bit outside an NDA and

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<v Speaker 1>going about my fucking business. But you're not about to

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<v Speaker 1>play me via text like that, like who are you

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<v Speaker 1>talking to? And I'm pretty sure why I think I did.

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<v Speaker 1>They show up images of well, maybe that girl wanted

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<v Speaker 1>to be a mom. You never know, like what if

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<v Speaker 1>she never could get the future? The girl who were

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<v Speaker 1>not the last woman, but the Haitian girl who had

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<v Speaker 1>the baby for the future. I forgot her name from Miami.

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<v Speaker 1>She was like, you know, I'm thirty six years old.

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<v Speaker 1>I've never been pregnant. Now I'm pregnant. The doctor said,

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<v Speaker 1>like this could be like a high risk pregnancy. Who's

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<v Speaker 1>to say I would ever be able to get pregnant again.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm keeping my fucking kid right. Furthermore, just somebody even

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<v Speaker 1>sucking raw for how long? Forever? She said her in

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<v Speaker 1>future I had never used the condom. We also know

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<v Speaker 1>that Tristan on me using the goddamn condoms. He don't

0:17:20.359 --> 0:17:22.320
<v Speaker 1>use no condoms. It's clear he don't be using it.

0:17:22.600 --> 0:17:25.880
<v Speaker 1>He's sucking the trainer wrong. You're just sucking everybody wrong.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't give a damn dog as a woman, as

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<v Speaker 1>a woman as Chloe, and he finds his hell. I

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<v Speaker 1>probably would have gave something too, but I would I

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<v Speaker 1>just listen. I know this come up every week, but

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna say it again this week. Y'all. Just use condoms, y'all.

0:17:45.119 --> 0:17:47.800
<v Speaker 1>What the fuck is wrong? Right? You don't gotta have

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<v Speaker 1>these niggas baby down. You don't have to have amortion.

0:17:50.440 --> 0:17:58.240
<v Speaker 1>You can't use the condom. Yeah, he Chloe, he busting

0:17:58.280 --> 0:18:01.040
<v Speaker 1>in that thing. He probably ain't got no control. He'd

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<v Speaker 1>probably be in there like he like really hang in

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<v Speaker 1>these women and then saying ship like heading sandy fire

0:18:07.920 --> 0:18:10.879
<v Speaker 1>racks like that's some expensive ass nuts. Just use the

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<v Speaker 1>cond yeah, yeah, a box of what's some skin condoms? Day,

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<v Speaker 1>like eleven ninety nine bro eleven dollars an sid You

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<v Speaker 1>could have saved seventy four thousand, nine hundred nine and

0:18:26.160 --> 0:18:29.959
<v Speaker 1>nine note nine hundred eighty nine dollars if you just

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<v Speaker 1>bought a box of Countos stupid ass. I hope she

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<v Speaker 1>keeps that baby, and I hope Chloe leave your ass

0:18:35.560 --> 0:18:38.360
<v Speaker 1>because you don't deserve to be with nobody right now,

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<v Speaker 1>absolutely until you get your ship together. But you keep

0:18:41.640 --> 0:18:46.680
<v Speaker 1>them how you get them? Sorry, Chloe. Ye oh, and

0:18:46.800 --> 0:18:49.520
<v Speaker 1>she stole him from somebody. Remember his other his first

0:18:49.600 --> 0:18:53.320
<v Speaker 1>child's mom. She was pregnant. She was pregnant with that

0:18:53.400 --> 0:18:58.520
<v Speaker 1>kid when he got with Chloe. Mm hmm. So hey,

0:18:58.760 --> 0:19:01.120
<v Speaker 1>and we already know that family. Maybe they definitely snatch

0:19:01.160 --> 0:19:04.600
<v Speaker 1>your nigga up. But the thing I noticed about them,

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<v Speaker 1>they can't keep no nigger. That pussy wax his hell

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<v Speaker 1>over there. They're going to get white men now, they're

0:19:10.080 --> 0:19:12.960
<v Speaker 1>going to get like white rock rocker dudes. That's the

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna go get me one. I'm gonna go get

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<v Speaker 1>me one too, with the skims outfit. I'm gonna give

0:19:19.200 --> 0:19:20.960
<v Speaker 1>me some scams, and I'm gonna get me a white

0:19:21.000 --> 0:19:25.280
<v Speaker 1>rocker boy with the tattoos and ship like the cool

0:19:25.320 --> 0:19:28.960
<v Speaker 1>white boys. They're going to get like some white boysencies

0:19:29.040 --> 0:19:32.359
<v Speaker 1>it's what they're trying to do. Like it's like with

0:19:32.480 --> 0:19:35.919
<v Speaker 1>all the cool but not all the you know, generational trauma.

0:19:39.600 --> 0:19:42.000
<v Speaker 1>Tristan Jamaican. You know here a whole whole lot here

0:19:42.760 --> 0:19:46.320
<v Speaker 1>girl buy he ain't got no choice. And Chloe like,

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<v Speaker 1>how do you think you can have that? Fin ask

0:19:48.000 --> 0:19:50.920
<v Speaker 1>man like that he ain't gonna nobody. Come on, man,

0:19:52.359 --> 0:19:54.760
<v Speaker 1>he's you know what kind of it's not even the

0:19:54.760 --> 0:19:59.439
<v Speaker 1>fucking other people? Is the how you do it? I

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<v Speaker 1>want you to. It was so smooth at like doing

0:20:01.720 --> 0:20:08.760
<v Speaker 1>like how what's his name, Lebron? Yeah, Lebron, That's what

0:20:08.800 --> 0:20:11.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm talking about doing like Lebron. It's not cheating on Savannah.

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<v Speaker 1>Fine ass. I don't believe that they're both cheating on

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<v Speaker 1>each other. They got sign people believe that happily happily

0:20:17.960 --> 0:20:21.960
<v Speaker 1>leave that? Who said that? Who said that? I don't

0:20:22.000 --> 0:20:25.080
<v Speaker 1>believe that. I'm trying to go with both of y'all.

0:20:27.240 --> 0:20:28.840
<v Speaker 1>That's how you try to put that narrative out there

0:20:28.840 --> 0:20:32.440
<v Speaker 1>because you're trying to snatch like you're trying to be there.

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<v Speaker 1>I love Savannah, Yes, I love Savannah Ward and Lebron.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know. She seems like we could be good friends.

0:20:41.880 --> 0:20:43.679
<v Speaker 1>I do her hair, we go shopping, she eat my

0:20:43.720 --> 0:20:52.240
<v Speaker 1>people like sounds so good. I'm joking, Savannah, unless you

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<v Speaker 1>win it. These are jokes, guys, don't be bad? Is

0:21:00.720 --> 0:21:11.800
<v Speaker 1>that inappropriate? Do you care? Inappropriate? So? What the hell

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<v Speaker 1>we talk about today? Job? No, let's let's pay in

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<v Speaker 1>a one more bill before we get into the thick

0:21:17.320 --> 0:21:28.360
<v Speaker 1>of one. It's gonna change another another one. Okay, y'all,

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<v Speaker 1>we're back now. I bought this book over the weekend because,

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<v Speaker 1>as I told y'all in the beginning, I'm going through

0:21:36.320 --> 0:21:42.320
<v Speaker 1>a little heartache. Oh this man. So I bought this

0:21:42.359 --> 0:21:45.200
<v Speaker 1>book and it's called Getting Over Him and Back to You,

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<v Speaker 1>and it's by Kindled. If you ladies are going through

0:21:49.359 --> 0:21:53.720
<v Speaker 1>a breakup of any sort, please buy this little book

0:21:53.760 --> 0:21:56.240
<v Speaker 1>and you can. It's gonna ask us a couple of questions,

0:21:56.840 --> 0:21:59.320
<v Speaker 1>and well asked quite a few questions. We're just gonna

0:21:59.320 --> 0:22:02.560
<v Speaker 1>answer a couple all of them. A j actually recently

0:22:02.640 --> 0:22:06.120
<v Speaker 1>went through a split, and I want her to answer

0:22:06.200 --> 0:22:08.200
<v Speaker 1>these questions. And we're gonna be it with you guys,

0:22:08.680 --> 0:22:11.199
<v Speaker 1>and then you guys can like pause us and do

0:22:11.240 --> 0:22:15.479
<v Speaker 1>it yourself, you know beforehand, like why like I know

0:22:15.560 --> 0:22:19.560
<v Speaker 1>you because I want you to be vulnerable. I don't

0:22:19.600 --> 0:22:22.520
<v Speaker 1>want you to prepare. Yeah, I know me too. Let's

0:22:22.520 --> 0:22:28.560
<v Speaker 1>cry together. I'm a real nigga, man, I can't be crying. Well,

0:22:28.800 --> 0:22:31.560
<v Speaker 1>let's cry. It ain't two yet. Let's cry it all

0:22:31.560 --> 0:22:33.760
<v Speaker 1>out now so we can be good for the new year.

0:22:34.200 --> 0:22:37.480
<v Speaker 1>Damn it. All right. So it stars and says you're

0:22:37.520 --> 0:22:40.000
<v Speaker 1>crying is stressed out over a man that won't even

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<v Speaker 1>be your type anymore once you level up and become

0:22:42.760 --> 0:22:47.000
<v Speaker 1>your highest self. And there's a mm hmmm, and it's

0:22:47.040 --> 0:22:50.200
<v Speaker 1>a picture woman and then she's her body is stretched

0:22:50.280 --> 0:22:52.560
<v Speaker 1>up and her chin is to the sky and it's

0:22:52.600 --> 0:22:56.199
<v Speaker 1>like butterflies floating from her chest. So now look at

0:22:56.240 --> 0:22:58.280
<v Speaker 1>me asking right quick. Because I always tell my niece

0:22:58.320 --> 0:23:00.720
<v Speaker 1>that the niggas you're fucking now, they're not gonna be

0:23:00.760 --> 0:23:03.480
<v Speaker 1>able to see your pussy thirty years old. When you

0:23:03.480 --> 0:23:05.639
<v Speaker 1>get thirty like these same type of guys, you're not

0:23:05.640 --> 0:23:08.359
<v Speaker 1>gonna be interested in him. So keep them regrets to

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<v Speaker 1>him and him and go ahead. All right. So the

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<v Speaker 1>first question, oh my god, you wait, wait, wait, are

0:23:14.640 --> 0:23:17.960
<v Speaker 1>you gonna be answering these fucking questions too? Yeah, yeah,

0:23:17.960 --> 0:23:21.640
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna answer them first. Okay, we'll see. Oh, I'm

0:23:21.640 --> 0:23:24.680
<v Speaker 1>gonna answer this one first, all right. Alright, So it

0:23:24.720 --> 0:23:28.520
<v Speaker 1>says what attracted me to him. What did I find

0:23:28.720 --> 0:23:32.840
<v Speaker 1>attractive about him? So I'm gonna tell y'all. I'm at

0:23:32.880 --> 0:23:36.400
<v Speaker 1>this nigga in the club. I was in his section.

0:23:36.840 --> 0:23:39.479
<v Speaker 1>He was sitting on the top of the chair, and

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<v Speaker 1>he was looking all shiny's brown, his hairs are curly,

0:23:43.880 --> 0:23:47.359
<v Speaker 1>and he smiled, and his smile just like lit up

0:23:47.400 --> 0:23:50.880
<v Speaker 1>the whole club. I was like, damn, he fine as hell,

0:23:51.000 --> 0:24:02.200
<v Speaker 1>looking like a fucking Boston here. That was my initial attraction. Okay,

0:24:03.080 --> 0:24:06.320
<v Speaker 1>let's see. So I met my ex through his sister,

0:24:06.440 --> 0:24:10.119
<v Speaker 1>Actually met his sister at a wedding, and she hooked

0:24:10.160 --> 0:24:11.880
<v Speaker 1>me up with her brother, right and I was going

0:24:11.920 --> 0:24:13.840
<v Speaker 1>through a bunch of ship, almost went to prison right before.

0:24:15.520 --> 0:24:17.479
<v Speaker 1>I just thought it was gonna be a solid fucking

0:24:17.520 --> 0:24:21.880
<v Speaker 1>hook up. Right, So when I met him, I met

0:24:21.920 --> 0:24:25.800
<v Speaker 1>the very next day. We link up. We go to um,

0:24:26.880 --> 0:24:29.920
<v Speaker 1>this little spot in Charlotte, actually two different little spots,

0:24:29.960 --> 0:24:36.080
<v Speaker 1>and like little bar and all that. But I would say, um,

0:24:36.080 --> 0:24:39.240
<v Speaker 1>maybe how he was dressed, Maybe because he just seemed

0:24:39.280 --> 0:24:45.159
<v Speaker 1>different from men I usually date. Um, this nigger like

0:24:45.240 --> 0:24:47.679
<v Speaker 1>had a headband on, like he made his shirt, he

0:24:48.040 --> 0:24:52.240
<v Speaker 1>made his shirt that he was wearing. Um, he just

0:24:52.280 --> 0:24:56.320
<v Speaker 1>seemed like real manly, that's what attracted me to him initially,

0:24:57.080 --> 0:25:01.880
<v Speaker 1>um and creative. Manly and creative, I would say, that's

0:25:01.920 --> 0:25:05.840
<v Speaker 1>what attracted me to him. And we had conversation. Our

0:25:05.880 --> 0:25:09.199
<v Speaker 1>conversation was always like a big thing we would live.

0:25:09.320 --> 0:25:11.840
<v Speaker 1>When we first started talking, we would literally like set

0:25:11.920 --> 0:25:16.840
<v Speaker 1>time aside to talk. Okay, it says you will attract

0:25:16.920 --> 0:25:20.880
<v Speaker 1>all types of men. Your level of self esteem, voids

0:25:20.960 --> 0:25:24.800
<v Speaker 1>and unhealed traumas will determine who you are attracted to.

0:25:25.960 --> 0:25:29.800
<v Speaker 1>Now that right there. I always say you date based

0:25:29.840 --> 0:25:32.879
<v Speaker 1>on your self esteem. And like I said, at the time,

0:25:33.400 --> 0:25:36.239
<v Speaker 1>I was going through a bunch of ships, you know,

0:25:36.320 --> 0:25:39.040
<v Speaker 1>so my self esteem may not have been as high

0:25:39.080 --> 0:25:43.440
<v Speaker 1>as it could have been when I meant him as

0:25:43.440 --> 0:25:44.879
<v Speaker 1>it should have been. I don't know if mine and

0:25:45.320 --> 0:25:47.520
<v Speaker 1>mine is still as high as it should be. You know,

0:25:47.560 --> 0:25:51.720
<v Speaker 1>I don't feel like it. That's the date, have you? Uh?

0:25:51.920 --> 0:25:55.600
<v Speaker 1>Mary J. Blige new song good Morning, Gorgeous Doe. I'll

0:25:55.640 --> 0:25:58.280
<v Speaker 1>be playing that ship to myself. That's a whole anthem.

0:25:58.280 --> 0:26:01.720
<v Speaker 1>I'll be singing it. Yeah, And she said, I ain't

0:26:01.760 --> 0:26:04.359
<v Speaker 1>talking about makeup and hair done. I'm talking about right

0:26:04.400 --> 0:26:06.480
<v Speaker 1>when you wake up, bitch, how you look when you

0:26:06.520 --> 0:26:11.720
<v Speaker 1>wake up crusty, crusty, I slove down the side of

0:26:11.760 --> 0:26:14.480
<v Speaker 1>your mouth. Good morning, gorgeous. Yes, you got to speak

0:26:14.480 --> 0:26:17.120
<v Speaker 1>to yourself. You gotta learn how to speak that to yourself.

0:26:17.160 --> 0:26:19.200
<v Speaker 1>Even if and say it to you believe it. Even

0:26:19.240 --> 0:26:20.600
<v Speaker 1>if you're looking in the mirror you be like I'm

0:26:20.800 --> 0:26:23.960
<v Speaker 1>ugly right now. Still say it to yourself till you

0:26:23.960 --> 0:26:28.680
<v Speaker 1>believe it. So next question, you're gonna answer this one. Okay,

0:26:29.760 --> 0:26:35.440
<v Speaker 1>some voids he may have feeled for me were at

0:26:35.520 --> 0:26:38.320
<v Speaker 1>that time, I hadn't had sex for like a year,

0:26:38.840 --> 0:26:43.120
<v Speaker 1>so he did feel the dick void with some real

0:26:43.200 --> 0:26:49.760
<v Speaker 1>good dick, like soul snatching dick. Uh, what else can

0:26:49.800 --> 0:26:52.120
<v Speaker 1>we see? Just having somebody I know would show up

0:26:52.119 --> 0:26:54.560
<v Speaker 1>for me, You know what I'm saying, Like somebody can

0:26:54.600 --> 0:26:57.800
<v Speaker 1>depend on he feeled. He feeled that I like people

0:26:57.840 --> 0:27:02.200
<v Speaker 1>I can depend on. I may stay with somebody too

0:27:02.240 --> 0:27:05.520
<v Speaker 1>long because I made may become I don't want to

0:27:05.520 --> 0:27:08.200
<v Speaker 1>stay co dependent. But it's just hard to find people

0:27:08.240 --> 0:27:09.760
<v Speaker 1>you know you can depend on. And I think a

0:27:09.760 --> 0:27:12.000
<v Speaker 1>lot of women experienced that. Like you're working with somebody

0:27:12.040 --> 0:27:15.119
<v Speaker 1>you can't even call in the state of emergency. I

0:27:15.119 --> 0:27:17.240
<v Speaker 1>could call him, no matter even if you know, even

0:27:17.240 --> 0:27:20.280
<v Speaker 1>in the beginning stages where I wasn't sure why our

0:27:20.320 --> 0:27:22.520
<v Speaker 1>relationship was going at, I could still depend on him.

0:27:23.160 --> 0:27:26.840
<v Speaker 1>So I feel like maybe that's one thing I think

0:27:27.240 --> 0:27:29.960
<v Speaker 1>for me, it was something similar to that. You know,

0:27:30.800 --> 0:27:33.359
<v Speaker 1>I was really at that time when we met, living

0:27:34.080 --> 0:27:39.320
<v Speaker 1>from hand the mouth where I was like paying everything

0:27:39.359 --> 0:27:43.600
<v Speaker 1>out and just just very hustling. I didn't have any

0:27:43.640 --> 0:27:46.480
<v Speaker 1>safety net, and he definitely was a safety net for me,

0:27:46.560 --> 0:27:50.919
<v Speaker 1>especially financially, like you know, if I needed it, he

0:27:50.960 --> 0:27:52.840
<v Speaker 1>would give it to me. And I didn't abuse that,

0:27:52.960 --> 0:27:56.879
<v Speaker 1>you know, but he was there then. He was my

0:27:56.960 --> 0:28:00.880
<v Speaker 1>smoke partner, Like anybody who know me, no, I love

0:28:00.960 --> 0:28:06.199
<v Speaker 1>me some good old ah and that was yeah, that

0:28:06.280 --> 0:28:09.000
<v Speaker 1>was that was my smoke partner. And we just would

0:28:09.040 --> 0:28:11.840
<v Speaker 1>have a lot of fun together. So I think he

0:28:11.880 --> 0:28:15.320
<v Speaker 1>feels those boys that I had, like the type of

0:28:15.320 --> 0:28:18.920
<v Speaker 1>men I had been dating, they were like that would

0:28:18.960 --> 0:28:22.000
<v Speaker 1>be great with this, but missing that. Like I was

0:28:22.080 --> 0:28:24.560
<v Speaker 1>dating this one guy and he was so cool and

0:28:24.600 --> 0:28:28.440
<v Speaker 1>he was successful and you know he was a helpmate,

0:28:28.720 --> 0:28:32.800
<v Speaker 1>but um, he was a bitch as nigga. Like remember

0:28:32.840 --> 0:28:35.320
<v Speaker 1>I had Diamonds, my dog. She was a child about

0:28:35.359 --> 0:28:38.600
<v Speaker 1>four pounds soaking with I let her out the cage

0:28:38.600 --> 0:28:44.880
<v Speaker 1>and he was like, I can't. You have to get

0:28:44.880 --> 0:28:46.520
<v Speaker 1>the funk out of our house because this is my

0:28:46.680 --> 0:28:51.080
<v Speaker 1>me and my doghouse, bitch. Right. Oh but the smoke,

0:28:52.000 --> 0:28:55.080
<v Speaker 1>like I wasn't smoking like that prior to me in

0:28:55.120 --> 0:28:59.200
<v Speaker 1>my ex and we started I started smoking with him,

0:28:59.240 --> 0:29:01.760
<v Speaker 1>and you know, needed sex, like I can understand, like

0:29:01.840 --> 0:29:04.600
<v Speaker 1>Bobby and with me, like you do your drug a

0:29:04.720 --> 0:29:07.040
<v Speaker 1>choice together with whoever and then having sex with it.

0:29:07.040 --> 0:29:12.200
<v Speaker 1>It just it's something spiritual that happens, man. It really,

0:29:13.080 --> 0:29:17.760
<v Speaker 1>it's some type of some type of bond. Something happens

0:29:18.080 --> 0:29:21.040
<v Speaker 1>when you be um having sex under the influence like

0:29:21.120 --> 0:29:26.000
<v Speaker 1>that a lot, Like it's planned into y'all activity, right,

0:29:28.200 --> 0:29:31.680
<v Speaker 1>and that should make you connected on a cellular level

0:29:31.760 --> 0:29:34.480
<v Speaker 1>or something else. Yeah, Like I can feel you when

0:29:34.480 --> 0:29:36.880
<v Speaker 1>you're not around me. I can smell you when you're

0:29:36.880 --> 0:29:39.960
<v Speaker 1>not around me, like I can. I can think about

0:29:40.000 --> 0:29:42.680
<v Speaker 1>that dick going in and feel it. You ever been

0:29:42.720 --> 0:29:45.400
<v Speaker 1>like that, like just like like a little something just

0:29:45.440 --> 0:29:49.040
<v Speaker 1>come over you right quick. No, I ain't never felt

0:29:49.040 --> 0:29:53.000
<v Speaker 1>the dick when the dick y'all. If y'all felt this,

0:29:53.040 --> 0:29:55.360
<v Speaker 1>send us a message if y'all. If y'all have ever

0:29:55.400 --> 0:29:57.840
<v Speaker 1>been just driving to work one morning and you think

0:29:57.880 --> 0:30:02.240
<v Speaker 1>about a session you had with that one man and

0:30:02.320 --> 0:30:05.720
<v Speaker 1>you just get like this little tingling thing. Now, I

0:30:05.720 --> 0:30:10.200
<v Speaker 1>don't get butterflies. I'm thinking about it, but I don't

0:30:10.200 --> 0:30:12.720
<v Speaker 1>never felt no imaginary dick. No, I feel like I'm

0:30:12.760 --> 0:30:18.400
<v Speaker 1>coming a little bit. Oh No, you got like for real,

0:30:18.840 --> 0:30:28.360
<v Speaker 1>something different. It's like like a little all right, next question.

0:30:28.440 --> 0:30:35.959
<v Speaker 1>Breaking up with him made me feel like Um. Breaking

0:30:36.040 --> 0:30:44.200
<v Speaker 1>up with him made me feal Um, I don't know,

0:30:46.120 --> 0:30:54.680
<v Speaker 1>like some days I could breathe easier, less stressed. Um,

0:30:54.760 --> 0:31:06.880
<v Speaker 1>Jesus Christ girl. Breaking up with him made me feel sad.

0:31:08.080 --> 0:31:15.200
<v Speaker 1>You know I feel sadness. Um, I feel hopeful. I

0:31:15.240 --> 0:31:17.760
<v Speaker 1>still have hope to find something beautiful in the future

0:31:17.760 --> 0:31:19.920
<v Speaker 1>if I can love him the way I did. I

0:31:20.000 --> 0:31:23.640
<v Speaker 1>know that I'm capable of that, and I'm grateful that

0:31:23.880 --> 0:31:27.320
<v Speaker 1>he showed me that I'm capable of that. And the

0:31:27.400 --> 0:31:30.920
<v Speaker 1>Lord will see me somebody that we're talking about the

0:31:30.960 --> 0:31:41.840
<v Speaker 1>law of today, I hear that I feel resentful because

0:31:41.840 --> 0:31:45.000
<v Speaker 1>I feel like I spent a lot of time. I

0:31:45.040 --> 0:31:49.920
<v Speaker 1>gave a lot of time away for nothing. Um. I

0:31:49.920 --> 0:31:52.280
<v Speaker 1>think that's a woman thing. I don't think men feel

0:31:52.320 --> 0:31:54.680
<v Speaker 1>resentful when they break up with us. I don't think

0:31:54.760 --> 0:31:58.520
<v Speaker 1>the way we calculate our time, men don't do that.

0:31:58.720 --> 0:32:03.280
<v Speaker 1>Men don't count up like I guess because sometimes it's

0:32:03.320 --> 0:32:05.680
<v Speaker 1>usually should happen to the happening to the woman. Or

0:32:05.680 --> 0:32:08.240
<v Speaker 1>maybe that's just how we feel, maybe we aren't taking

0:32:08.240 --> 0:32:11.680
<v Speaker 1>accountability for the roles we may have played and whatever.

0:32:12.440 --> 0:32:16.400
<v Speaker 1>But we do definitely calculate time up on a nigga,

0:32:16.480 --> 0:32:18.920
<v Speaker 1>like I could have been doing this in this amount

0:32:18.960 --> 0:32:20.400
<v Speaker 1>of time, or I could have been with so and so,

0:32:20.600 --> 0:32:22.600
<v Speaker 1>like we definitely and that causes you to keep one

0:32:22.600 --> 0:32:25.600
<v Speaker 1>foot at the door when you when you're always thinking

0:32:25.640 --> 0:32:28.680
<v Speaker 1>about what it should have could have on a nigga.

0:32:30.120 --> 0:32:31.680
<v Speaker 1>So I do have a lot of I have more

0:32:31.760 --> 0:32:34.680
<v Speaker 1>resentment towards myself, though I really don't have a lot

0:32:34.720 --> 0:32:39.480
<v Speaker 1>of resentment towards him, because when things happen in a relationship,

0:32:39.640 --> 0:32:42.000
<v Speaker 1>I'd be like, man, what the fund is it about

0:32:42.040 --> 0:32:44.760
<v Speaker 1>me that makes you think you could play with me

0:32:44.840 --> 0:32:47.480
<v Speaker 1>like this? Like? What is it about me that makes

0:32:47.480 --> 0:32:48.720
<v Speaker 1>you think you could talk to me like this? What

0:32:48.800 --> 0:32:52.560
<v Speaker 1>it is about me to make you think you? Don't?

0:32:53.160 --> 0:32:57.200
<v Speaker 1>It be their ship? Right? But but you would not

0:32:57.280 --> 0:32:59.640
<v Speaker 1>have allowed that thing to happen had you been different.

0:33:00.000 --> 0:33:03.640
<v Speaker 1>Do you see what I'm saying? I felt Another thing

0:33:03.680 --> 0:33:13.400
<v Speaker 1>I felt was devalued, like I wasn't enough. Um, I

0:33:13.400 --> 0:33:16.080
<v Speaker 1>think that's about all the feelings I had anger, no

0:33:16.200 --> 0:33:19.240
<v Speaker 1>let me And I'm lying, that's when I felt like mad,

0:33:20.720 --> 0:33:25.360
<v Speaker 1>like I want to hurt this nigger the way I'm hurting. Yeah,

0:33:25.520 --> 0:33:27.920
<v Speaker 1>that's that's some real ship. I guess that's the difference

0:33:27.920 --> 0:33:29.840
<v Speaker 1>between me when I break up with When I break

0:33:29.880 --> 0:33:34.800
<v Speaker 1>up with somebody, I just be like, like, if you different,

0:33:34.840 --> 0:33:37.480
<v Speaker 1>now is for the next woman. I don't mind giving

0:33:37.520 --> 0:33:40.720
<v Speaker 1>a woman to refurbished that nigger, like I went through

0:33:40.760 --> 0:33:42.959
<v Speaker 1>all this ship, so y'all can have a great relationship.

0:33:43.760 --> 0:33:48.960
<v Speaker 1>That's just really how I feel about it. Um. I

0:33:49.000 --> 0:33:51.240
<v Speaker 1>guess it's different. I don't know. So maybe it's different

0:33:51.280 --> 0:33:53.560
<v Speaker 1>if the woman is the one who got dumped. Not

0:33:53.640 --> 0:33:55.120
<v Speaker 1>saying that you're the one that got dumped, but I

0:33:55.120 --> 0:33:58.920
<v Speaker 1>think women would have a different um outlook on how

0:33:58.960 --> 0:34:02.120
<v Speaker 1>the relationship, like what transpired any relationship if they weren't

0:34:02.120 --> 0:34:04.720
<v Speaker 1>the one that ended it. But usually women, women are

0:34:04.800 --> 0:34:08.160
<v Speaker 1>usually the ones that leave situations. And I don't be

0:34:08.920 --> 0:34:11.399
<v Speaker 1>how I feel right now is just like I am

0:34:11.480 --> 0:34:16.520
<v Speaker 1>skeptical of the unknown, like what's next? Am I really done? Like?

0:34:16.600 --> 0:34:18.720
<v Speaker 1>Could I be back with this person? I'm just be honest.

0:34:18.760 --> 0:34:20.279
<v Speaker 1>Could I be back with him a year or two

0:34:20.360 --> 0:34:23.760
<v Speaker 1>from now? I could think about? I think about those things,

0:34:23.800 --> 0:34:26.680
<v Speaker 1>but then what I do to make sure I keep

0:34:26.719 --> 0:34:30.120
<v Speaker 1>more moving forward? As I think about all the things

0:34:30.160 --> 0:34:33.080
<v Speaker 1>that happened, I ain't like like I know I didn't

0:34:33.080 --> 0:34:38.600
<v Speaker 1>deserve and that keeps me from going back right. So

0:34:38.680 --> 0:34:41.560
<v Speaker 1>that but leads me to this question, did he betray me?

0:34:41.760 --> 0:34:44.960
<v Speaker 1>Or did I portray betray myself? In what ways did

0:34:45.000 --> 0:34:50.600
<v Speaker 1>I betray myself? I feel like in my last relationship,

0:34:50.880 --> 0:34:53.319
<v Speaker 1>I betrayed myself big time. That's why I said I

0:34:53.320 --> 0:34:57.400
<v Speaker 1>got more resentment towards me than him because earlier on

0:34:57.640 --> 0:34:59.800
<v Speaker 1>in the relationship there was a lot of things that

0:35:00.080 --> 0:35:03.640
<v Speaker 1>is happening that I overlooked because I just wanted somebody,

0:35:04.160 --> 0:35:06.279
<v Speaker 1>you know what I'm saying, Like I felt like my

0:35:06.400 --> 0:35:09.960
<v Speaker 1>connection with this person was greater than any other woman.

0:35:10.440 --> 0:35:13.000
<v Speaker 1>It was great at any situation. I loved him in

0:35:13.040 --> 0:35:15.399
<v Speaker 1>spite of like I know, a lot of men say

0:35:15.440 --> 0:35:18.080
<v Speaker 1>like women like they're the last ones to get unconditional love,

0:35:18.120 --> 0:35:21.919
<v Speaker 1>like on a scale from dogs the kids. Like, it's

0:35:21.960 --> 0:35:24.400
<v Speaker 1>just not true. I think all people. We probably have

0:35:24.600 --> 0:35:29.399
<v Speaker 1>more unconditional love for little humans, kids and dogs only

0:35:29.440 --> 0:35:33.520
<v Speaker 1>because they show unconditional love. Back between adult humans, we

0:35:33.560 --> 0:35:39.200
<v Speaker 1>don't show unconditional love. It's unconditional to a certain time period.

0:35:39.200 --> 0:35:40.360
<v Speaker 1>And then it's like, you know what, this is a

0:35:40.760 --> 0:35:45.440
<v Speaker 1>enough Yeah, it don't be unconditional at all as far

0:35:45.480 --> 0:35:48.000
<v Speaker 1>as I'm concerned. It's full of condition. Yeah, And I

0:35:48.040 --> 0:35:55.400
<v Speaker 1>just feel like, um, I definitely went against my intuition.

0:35:55.480 --> 0:35:58.120
<v Speaker 1>I went against what I knew I wanted. I went

0:35:58.200 --> 0:36:04.719
<v Speaker 1>against uh um what I knew, Like, you know, this

0:36:04.800 --> 0:36:07.160
<v Speaker 1>is this is this isn't this isn't what I deserve.

0:36:07.400 --> 0:36:10.839
<v Speaker 1>I don't deserve to begin treated like this. And I

0:36:10.880 --> 0:36:14.200
<v Speaker 1>stayed until those things stopped. But then when they stopped,

0:36:14.200 --> 0:36:16.640
<v Speaker 1>it's like it's too fucking late, like it's so much damaged.

0:36:16.719 --> 0:36:20.640
<v Speaker 1>I don't went through Now, I don't like you, right,

0:36:22.000 --> 0:36:23.960
<v Speaker 1>That's where I ended up at. So and it's not

0:36:24.040 --> 0:36:26.480
<v Speaker 1>because and and it's really some days I don't like

0:36:26.560 --> 0:36:33.200
<v Speaker 1>myself because I list somebody play with me like this, Yeah, same,

0:36:33.719 --> 0:36:37.000
<v Speaker 1>I can't even I wouldn't even my situation. I wouldn't

0:36:37.000 --> 0:36:40.920
<v Speaker 1>even say he betrayed me. I betrayed myself because I

0:36:41.040 --> 0:36:45.000
<v Speaker 1>just really believe, like them light skinned bitches, that I

0:36:45.000 --> 0:36:55.360
<v Speaker 1>could change this. I want my damny lee she but

0:36:55.440 --> 0:36:59.880
<v Speaker 1>you're not a light skin I thought I was, y'all,

0:37:02.960 --> 0:37:06.640
<v Speaker 1>and I just I played. I played myself. Congratulations, shorty,

0:37:06.880 --> 0:37:09.160
<v Speaker 1>you played yourself. That's how I did. It was me.

0:37:09.400 --> 0:37:11.120
<v Speaker 1>You know, I can't even blame him because he didn't

0:37:11.160 --> 0:37:15.120
<v Speaker 1>make me no promises. It was me trying to turn

0:37:15.239 --> 0:37:16.839
<v Speaker 1>him into what I want to happen. I knew you've

0:37:16.840 --> 0:37:19.080
<v Speaker 1>seen those posts online that said, if a woman really

0:37:19.080 --> 0:37:22.759
<v Speaker 1>loves you, shoot a lot of herself. Mm hmmm. That

0:37:23.560 --> 0:37:26.600
<v Speaker 1>and for a man to create that, I'm assuming a

0:37:26.640 --> 0:37:30.560
<v Speaker 1>man created that post. That's some real nasty ship, you

0:37:30.600 --> 0:37:32.359
<v Speaker 1>know what I'm saying. Because we we will do that,

0:37:32.400 --> 0:37:36.920
<v Speaker 1>we'll see the brighter side of everything, like we'll see

0:37:37.000 --> 0:37:39.040
<v Speaker 1>some ship in you that you don't even see, and

0:37:39.080 --> 0:37:42.040
<v Speaker 1>we'll fall in love with your potential or the potential.

0:37:42.160 --> 0:37:44.880
<v Speaker 1>And that was the relationship, and right I'll turned it

0:37:44.880 --> 0:37:48.480
<v Speaker 1>I turned into and at least bit at least he

0:37:48.520 --> 0:37:52.280
<v Speaker 1>paid my bills. At least I ain't got about no weed.

0:37:52.920 --> 0:37:57.239
<v Speaker 1>At least he keep me dripped. I will don't be

0:37:57.280 --> 0:38:00.359
<v Speaker 1>an at least bitch. You are not an at least bitch.

0:38:00.640 --> 0:38:04.120
<v Speaker 1>You are the standard ladies. Stop being the at least bit.

0:38:04.640 --> 0:38:07.600
<v Speaker 1>Promise in two I won't be at least nothing. Okay,

0:38:08.680 --> 0:38:12.400
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna be the most bitch, not the least period.

0:38:13.280 --> 0:38:15.759
<v Speaker 1>Al says the way you love him can make him

0:38:15.800 --> 0:38:19.640
<v Speaker 1>seem more special than what he really is him withholding

0:38:19.719 --> 0:38:22.160
<v Speaker 1>his love can make it seem like you're really missing

0:38:22.160 --> 0:38:28.239
<v Speaker 1>out on something, but you're not. M boo all right?

0:38:28.360 --> 0:38:30.400
<v Speaker 1>Why am I finding it so hard to let him go?

0:38:31.600 --> 0:38:35.279
<v Speaker 1>Um so again, it would be the same thing. It's

0:38:35.320 --> 0:38:44.080
<v Speaker 1>the it's the just dependability, just the having somebody you

0:38:44.120 --> 0:38:46.400
<v Speaker 1>know who's gonna show up for you. You know what

0:38:46.480 --> 0:38:48.360
<v Speaker 1>I'm saying. I'm saying that I grew up as a

0:38:48.440 --> 0:38:50.719
<v Speaker 1>child who just never had anybody show up for me

0:38:51.320 --> 0:38:55.160
<v Speaker 1>or like, I don't know, I it's just hard to

0:38:55.280 --> 0:38:57.400
<v Speaker 1>find people you can depend on. It that's just I

0:38:57.440 --> 0:39:01.879
<v Speaker 1>mean with your mate, family for ends, it's hard to find.

0:39:01.920 --> 0:39:04.680
<v Speaker 1>And I'm a dependable person, like I'm gonna come through

0:39:04.719 --> 0:39:08.880
<v Speaker 1>for you, and I feel like, you know more, My

0:39:09.000 --> 0:39:13.399
<v Speaker 1>thing isn't he was very dependable. But my thing that

0:39:13.760 --> 0:39:16.839
<v Speaker 1>makes it hard for me to let go is I

0:39:16.880 --> 0:39:20.960
<v Speaker 1>don't really I have trouble connecting with people, with men

0:39:21.520 --> 0:39:24.080
<v Speaker 1>on a deeper level. It takes me a long time

0:39:24.160 --> 0:39:28.920
<v Speaker 1>for me to feel comfortable. Can I like, can I

0:39:28.960 --> 0:39:32.839
<v Speaker 1>be around you with my wig off? Can I just

0:39:32.880 --> 0:39:37.359
<v Speaker 1>feel beautiful when I don't feel beautiful around you? Like

0:39:37.960 --> 0:39:41.440
<v Speaker 1>I just I would miss like holding all I like.

0:39:41.640 --> 0:39:44.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm so I'm a nurturer, So I like caressing and

0:39:45.000 --> 0:39:48.839
<v Speaker 1>hugging and rubbing. I'm gonna miss all that ship. Well,

0:39:48.880 --> 0:39:50.360
<v Speaker 1>I guess I can do that with the next nigga.

0:39:50.400 --> 0:39:51.840
<v Speaker 1>But I don't be wanting to the next nigga. I

0:39:51.840 --> 0:39:54.160
<v Speaker 1>don't be like, get off of me, motherfucker. Yeah. But

0:39:54.880 --> 0:39:57.080
<v Speaker 1>every reason why you may feel that way is because

0:39:57.120 --> 0:39:59.720
<v Speaker 1>you haven't let the connection go up with this person.

0:40:00.440 --> 0:40:02.120
<v Speaker 1>You know what I'm saying. If you don't have yourself

0:40:02.160 --> 0:40:04.640
<v Speaker 1>open to receiving that type of love from somebody else,

0:40:04.640 --> 0:40:07.520
<v Speaker 1>it don't never happen. If you keep saving space for him,

0:40:07.719 --> 0:40:09.799
<v Speaker 1>it's never gonna happen. Bitch. I need to write a

0:40:09.840 --> 0:40:12.319
<v Speaker 1>motherfucker book. I need to finish right in a motherfucking book.

0:40:12.360 --> 0:40:15.640
<v Speaker 1>How about that, like, you're not even you're not even

0:40:15.680 --> 0:40:18.440
<v Speaker 1>opening yourself up to the possibilities of being able to

0:40:18.480 --> 0:40:22.320
<v Speaker 1>get somebody else to do those things with because you

0:40:22.400 --> 0:40:28.920
<v Speaker 1>save space for this fucking nigga that's just unattainable. Yeah,

0:40:29.200 --> 0:40:31.800
<v Speaker 1>all right, and then here's this is the last question

0:40:31.840 --> 0:40:33.640
<v Speaker 1>now because I don't want to do the whole this

0:40:33.800 --> 0:40:41.120
<v Speaker 1>bitch whole book. And then she coming to us in

0:40:41.160 --> 0:40:46.160
<v Speaker 1>what ways did he bring out the worst in me? Y'all?

0:40:46.200 --> 0:40:47.880
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna tell you, I know I'd be joking on

0:40:47.960 --> 0:40:49.520
<v Speaker 1>here a lot. I'd be saying, like how I'm gonna

0:40:49.520 --> 0:40:53.120
<v Speaker 1>fight people and stuff like I am a real live fighter.

0:40:54.400 --> 0:40:58.279
<v Speaker 1>If I feel disrespected, if I feel like I don't

0:40:58.280 --> 0:41:01.120
<v Speaker 1>have a choice, like I'm a fight and I don't

0:41:01.120 --> 0:41:03.879
<v Speaker 1>want to though, so if I keep if we keep

0:41:03.920 --> 0:41:07.279
<v Speaker 1>getting to these things, that makes me feel like like

0:41:08.440 --> 0:41:11.440
<v Speaker 1>I want to attack you, like why why why are

0:41:11.440 --> 0:41:14.600
<v Speaker 1>you doing these things to me? Like and there I

0:41:14.640 --> 0:41:16.600
<v Speaker 1>believe there is a reset button on the top of

0:41:16.600 --> 0:41:19.359
<v Speaker 1>a nigger's head, like for real, you just gotta jump

0:41:19.440 --> 0:41:25.040
<v Speaker 1>up there like the damn Jordan jumped manote. We are

0:41:25.239 --> 0:41:28.240
<v Speaker 1>here and we talked back. We do not promote domestic violence.

0:41:28.320 --> 0:41:30.840
<v Speaker 1>You g so that is one of the things he

0:41:30.880 --> 0:41:32.880
<v Speaker 1>would bring out of me. No, I don't want I

0:41:32.880 --> 0:41:35.080
<v Speaker 1>don't want to be with anyone. I don't want to

0:41:35.120 --> 0:41:38.920
<v Speaker 1>be with any man that I can easily disrespect. So

0:41:39.040 --> 0:41:40.960
<v Speaker 1>I felt that I was getting to a point of

0:41:41.040 --> 0:41:45.560
<v Speaker 1>being very disrespectful, um because I just didn't care anymore.

0:41:45.920 --> 0:41:48.040
<v Speaker 1>I don't care about your feelings. I didn't care about

0:41:48.080 --> 0:41:50.400
<v Speaker 1>how you felt because I felt for the longest you

0:41:50.400 --> 0:41:53.520
<v Speaker 1>didn't give a funk about how I was feeling. So

0:41:53.640 --> 0:41:56.360
<v Speaker 1>now I'm just like, really a nasty bitch, and I

0:41:56.400 --> 0:41:58.800
<v Speaker 1>am not a nasty bitch. So I don't want to

0:41:58.840 --> 0:42:03.000
<v Speaker 1>be with anybody that brings Dad out of me. Megan

0:42:03.040 --> 0:42:06.360
<v Speaker 1>the Stallion, she was on to Rogi p Henson Show.

0:42:06.719 --> 0:42:10.160
<v Speaker 1>I think it's a podcast, but she wo was talking

0:42:10.160 --> 0:42:13.480
<v Speaker 1>about party and she was saying, how you know and

0:42:13.520 --> 0:42:15.640
<v Speaker 1>her all her other relationships. She was more about like

0:42:15.680 --> 0:42:18.560
<v Speaker 1>the physical or whatever. Right, But she was like, man, man,

0:42:18.600 --> 0:42:20.800
<v Speaker 1>my boyfriend, he really take care of my mental health.

0:42:21.520 --> 0:42:24.319
<v Speaker 1>And I felt sad here and that because I want that,

0:42:24.600 --> 0:42:27.760
<v Speaker 1>like I want somebody, Like the world is so fucking

0:42:27.760 --> 0:42:31.000
<v Speaker 1>crazy outside the walls, y'all in when I come in

0:42:31.080 --> 0:42:33.080
<v Speaker 1>here like this supposed to be my fucking safe space.

0:42:33.080 --> 0:42:35.279
<v Speaker 1>I should. I'm supposed to be able to cry, You're

0:42:35.280 --> 0:42:38.120
<v Speaker 1>supposed to be able to console me. We console each other.

0:42:38.400 --> 0:42:40.200
<v Speaker 1>I'm supposed to make you laugh. We're supposed to make

0:42:40.200 --> 0:42:42.840
<v Speaker 1>each other feel good. You're supposed to speak love, life,

0:42:42.880 --> 0:42:46.200
<v Speaker 1>and light into each other. If that's not happening, and

0:42:46.239 --> 0:42:48.239
<v Speaker 1>I'm just a maniac with you, I don't need to

0:42:48.280 --> 0:42:50.840
<v Speaker 1>be with you. But I feel like a lot of

0:42:50.880 --> 0:42:54.920
<v Speaker 1>men are literally sons of bitches like y'all were raised

0:42:54.960 --> 0:43:00.200
<v Speaker 1>by women, um who were probably verbally abusive, did have

0:43:00.320 --> 0:43:02.000
<v Speaker 1>time for you at work. You have a lot of

0:43:02.040 --> 0:43:04.399
<v Speaker 1>resentment towards the women that raise you. So you get

0:43:04.440 --> 0:43:06.320
<v Speaker 1>with women and the only way you feel love is

0:43:06.360 --> 0:43:10.880
<v Speaker 1>when I'm cussing, screaming, yelling, and kicking your ass, because

0:43:11.600 --> 0:43:14.919
<v Speaker 1>that's how you, that's you. You have a fucked up

0:43:15.000 --> 0:43:19.040
<v Speaker 1>sense of like what love is to me, love is

0:43:19.080 --> 0:43:22.120
<v Speaker 1>taking somebody else's life into consideration as if it's your own.

0:43:22.600 --> 0:43:24.480
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to fight me, I don't want to

0:43:24.520 --> 0:43:27.759
<v Speaker 1>cuss me. I want to talk nice to me. I

0:43:27.760 --> 0:43:33.480
<v Speaker 1>want to talk nice to you. Yeah, But if I'm

0:43:33.600 --> 0:43:37.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm continuously put into situations where I have to be demeaning,

0:43:37.920 --> 0:43:40.319
<v Speaker 1>and I saying I have to be. But I guess

0:43:40.360 --> 0:43:43.959
<v Speaker 1>that's a defense mechanism a lot of the times because

0:43:44.000 --> 0:43:48.400
<v Speaker 1>I can't even say that he was real. Um, I

0:43:48.480 --> 0:43:51.440
<v Speaker 1>know my my fucking levels go from zero tell hundred,

0:43:51.480 --> 0:43:53.920
<v Speaker 1>and that's one thing I'd be working on. I just

0:43:53.960 --> 0:43:57.320
<v Speaker 1>need somebody that cares about my mental health to where

0:43:57.520 --> 0:44:00.480
<v Speaker 1>I never have to get to five. I never have

0:44:00.560 --> 0:44:04.200
<v Speaker 1>to get to sixty. It's just I can talk to them.

0:44:04.320 --> 0:44:06.279
<v Speaker 1>They're not talking to me and trying to confuse me,

0:44:07.800 --> 0:44:09.239
<v Speaker 1>you know what I'm saying. Like I feel like a

0:44:09.239 --> 0:44:13.640
<v Speaker 1>lot of times people gas like you mm hm, oh,

0:44:13.719 --> 0:44:16.400
<v Speaker 1>it's not that serious. How do you upset someone and

0:44:16.440 --> 0:44:18.920
<v Speaker 1>then tell them the severity of it? Like it ain't

0:44:18.920 --> 0:44:21.080
<v Speaker 1>even that serious. You can't tell me the severity of

0:44:21.080 --> 0:44:25.680
<v Speaker 1>a situation that pissed me the funk off. So now

0:44:25.719 --> 0:44:29.600
<v Speaker 1>here we are. But yeah, I don't want uh, I don't.

0:44:29.600 --> 0:44:35.120
<v Speaker 1>I don't like how it was in that relationship. I um,

0:44:35.160 --> 0:44:37.680
<v Speaker 1>Like I said earlier, you know, I turned into this

0:44:37.800 --> 0:44:41.960
<v Speaker 1>at least bitch, and I made excuses for why this

0:44:42.080 --> 0:44:46.200
<v Speaker 1>was okay, And this is just something to hold me

0:44:46.320 --> 0:44:48.520
<v Speaker 1>till I find where God has for me. But God

0:44:48.640 --> 0:44:50.200
<v Speaker 1>is not gonna send me. But he asked for me

0:44:50.200 --> 0:44:53.680
<v Speaker 1>while I'm still holding on this ship. You know. So

0:44:54.520 --> 0:44:56.759
<v Speaker 1>I think that was the worst of it out. I

0:44:57.000 --> 0:45:05.319
<v Speaker 1>minimized myself m in this relationship because it's satisfied some

0:45:05.520 --> 0:45:10.320
<v Speaker 1>of my knees, but not the most important ones, you know. Yeah,

0:45:10.400 --> 0:45:25.279
<v Speaker 1>So is your love language still gifts? Yeah? That ain't changed. Yeah,

0:45:26.080 --> 0:45:31.880
<v Speaker 1>some thing's never changed. Yeah, this ship got deep. Y'all

0:45:32.000 --> 0:45:36.080
<v Speaker 1>know I was a philosopher, these niggas. He I just

0:45:36.120 --> 0:45:39.040
<v Speaker 1>feel like, you know, he might have used my love

0:45:39.120 --> 0:45:42.440
<v Speaker 1>language to manipulate me in ways sometimes you know, like

0:45:42.719 --> 0:45:48.920
<v Speaker 1>or you use your love language to manipulate allowed it. Yeah. Yeah,

0:45:49.160 --> 0:45:51.520
<v Speaker 1>I was like, look at this, ysel bag. This ain't

0:45:51.600 --> 0:45:56.200
<v Speaker 1>nothing but the devil. Ain't it cute? Girl? No, that's

0:45:56.239 --> 0:45:58.399
<v Speaker 1>what you would say that girl. That man loved me. Girl.

0:45:58.400 --> 0:46:04.439
<v Speaker 1>Look where you got me that I distinctively remember last

0:46:04.520 --> 0:46:07.120
<v Speaker 1>year your birthday. He was like, girl, that man love me. Girl,

0:46:07.800 --> 0:46:14.520
<v Speaker 1>look at this, but listen, just because somebody could buy

0:46:14.520 --> 0:46:16.520
<v Speaker 1>you some ship, that does not mean they love you.

0:46:16.560 --> 0:46:20.960
<v Speaker 1>They just can afford this ship you like. But let's

0:46:21.000 --> 0:46:25.080
<v Speaker 1>let's let's also add this in there. You cannot negate

0:46:25.440 --> 0:46:30.279
<v Speaker 1>how someone loves. So that's why I always say, you

0:46:30.320 --> 0:46:32.360
<v Speaker 1>just have to find somebody with the same definition of

0:46:32.400 --> 0:46:35.440
<v Speaker 1>love as you, because just because somebody's not loving you

0:46:35.480 --> 0:46:38.279
<v Speaker 1>the way you think they should love you doesn't mean

0:46:38.320 --> 0:46:42.360
<v Speaker 1>they don't love you. That's just how they love. So

0:46:42.560 --> 0:46:45.279
<v Speaker 1>him even buying you things like he probably that that

0:46:45.440 --> 0:46:49.279
<v Speaker 1>is that's that's how he shows love, you know what

0:46:49.360 --> 0:46:53.439
<v Speaker 1>I'm saying. So you just have to identify how you

0:46:53.520 --> 0:46:56.080
<v Speaker 1>want to really be loved, Like, is him buying me

0:46:56.120 --> 0:46:59.239
<v Speaker 1>gifts how I want to be loved? It's not like,

0:46:59.360 --> 0:47:01.760
<v Speaker 1>that's how it is how I want to be loved,

0:47:01.800 --> 0:47:03.919
<v Speaker 1>And that's why we made it as far as we did.

0:47:04.040 --> 0:47:07.520
<v Speaker 1>But it's not the only way I want to be loved.

0:47:07.520 --> 0:47:11.600
<v Speaker 1>Their secondary and third positions to my love languages that

0:47:11.640 --> 0:47:14.960
<v Speaker 1>need to be needs to be able to weave through

0:47:15.000 --> 0:47:18.120
<v Speaker 1>all five and how many other love languages we can

0:47:18.160 --> 0:47:21.000
<v Speaker 1>come up with, Like, Yeah, because why is sex not

0:47:21.080 --> 0:47:24.000
<v Speaker 1>a love language? I guess that falls under physical touch. Yeah,

0:47:24.600 --> 0:47:29.359
<v Speaker 1>because sex is definitely um a way of communicating I mean,

0:47:29.360 --> 0:47:31.960
<v Speaker 1>not having good sex, like I won't talk to you

0:47:32.040 --> 0:47:37.200
<v Speaker 1>verbally and see the thing, that thing that never failed

0:47:37.280 --> 0:47:39.280
<v Speaker 1>all the way to the end. The sex is bomb.

0:47:39.640 --> 0:47:43.160
<v Speaker 1>You know, that was never a problem. It's just everything else,

0:47:43.520 --> 0:47:46.440
<v Speaker 1>all right. So it says trust that he is not

0:47:46.560 --> 0:47:49.279
<v Speaker 1>as good as it gets. Trust that you can love

0:47:49.280 --> 0:47:51.640
<v Speaker 1>again and then it can be better than the love

0:47:51.680 --> 0:47:55.600
<v Speaker 1>you're letting go. Mhm. And I want to believe that

0:47:56.600 --> 0:47:59.640
<v Speaker 1>so hard, but I'm challenged by it because I just

0:47:59.680 --> 0:48:02.800
<v Speaker 1>be looking in that like my mom and their friends,

0:48:02.880 --> 0:48:05.839
<v Speaker 1>and and just wom older women that I do their hair,

0:48:06.760 --> 0:48:12.160
<v Speaker 1>and they never they never have a man again, but

0:48:12.239 --> 0:48:15.399
<v Speaker 1>they'd be content though, they'd be fulfilling themselves and they'd

0:48:15.440 --> 0:48:18.040
<v Speaker 1>be happy. So they say, you know, I don't know

0:48:18.200 --> 0:48:20.640
<v Speaker 1>if they are for real, but they seem to be happy.

0:48:20.760 --> 0:48:27.879
<v Speaker 1>But I don't want to be happy by myself. I don't.

0:48:28.840 --> 0:48:30.959
<v Speaker 1>I don't want to be happy about myself. Y'all listen

0:48:30.960 --> 0:48:33.400
<v Speaker 1>if y'all trying to distinguish who's to Tammy got the

0:48:33.440 --> 0:48:37.600
<v Speaker 1>granny pussy voice, but she got the bomb pussy though,

0:48:38.280 --> 0:48:40.719
<v Speaker 1>calling what you want and I'm gonna get you one

0:48:41.320 --> 0:48:50.160
<v Speaker 1>to get one sound like your auntie, damn man, I

0:48:50.200 --> 0:48:56.560
<v Speaker 1>don't know. Um. I'm not afraid to be alone, and

0:48:56.600 --> 0:48:59.640
<v Speaker 1>I feel like the earlier women learn how to be

0:48:59.719 --> 0:49:03.919
<v Speaker 1>alone own and love themselves the better it is. It's

0:49:04.000 --> 0:49:07.640
<v Speaker 1>hard to be by yourself, but once you get comfortable

0:49:07.760 --> 0:49:10.200
<v Speaker 1>being with you. That's why that song Marj blinst song

0:49:10.320 --> 0:49:12.279
<v Speaker 1>is so good. This is a fifty sum yeo woman

0:49:13.800 --> 0:49:19.439
<v Speaker 1>who has finally learned that she's the ship. For How

0:49:19.480 --> 0:49:22.160
<v Speaker 1>long was she questioned herself because of the treatment she

0:49:22.239 --> 0:49:25.480
<v Speaker 1>was receiving from men like we already need these fucking

0:49:25.480 --> 0:49:29.040
<v Speaker 1>men to validate who the funk we are. If you

0:49:29.120 --> 0:49:31.600
<v Speaker 1>searching outside yourself to determine who you are, you gonna

0:49:31.600 --> 0:49:36.520
<v Speaker 1>be lost forever. And um, but I don't. I don't

0:49:36.600 --> 0:49:39.080
<v Speaker 1>feel like. I feel like I am finding myself more

0:49:39.239 --> 0:49:41.680
<v Speaker 1>as a woman. The older I get, right, and I'm

0:49:41.719 --> 0:49:43.840
<v Speaker 1>getting more in tune with who I am and what

0:49:43.920 --> 0:49:46.440
<v Speaker 1>I want. But I do want a nigger though, And

0:49:46.480 --> 0:49:49.719
<v Speaker 1>I feel like, even though this relationship is ending, I

0:49:49.760 --> 0:49:52.000
<v Speaker 1>felt like I've been alone the whole time, you know,

0:49:52.120 --> 0:49:54.120
<v Speaker 1>And I don't feel like I've really had no bout

0:49:55.239 --> 0:49:57.200
<v Speaker 1>That should be. That should then make it easier for

0:49:57.280 --> 0:50:00.800
<v Speaker 1>you to sadvertise if you already felt a known while

0:50:00.920 --> 0:50:03.360
<v Speaker 1>in a relationship, that means you're you're single in a

0:50:03.440 --> 0:50:09.399
<v Speaker 1>relationship essentially, right, It shouldn't you should never think that

0:50:09.440 --> 0:50:13.600
<v Speaker 1>you could not get another situation at least comparable to

0:50:13.640 --> 0:50:16.120
<v Speaker 1>that one. No. See, that's the thing. I don't want

0:50:16.120 --> 0:50:17.960
<v Speaker 1>that again, That's what I'm saying, Like, I don't want

0:50:17.960 --> 0:50:20.120
<v Speaker 1>to do that. But could you imagine another year going

0:50:20.160 --> 0:50:23.919
<v Speaker 1>by and you're still going through the same thing. That's

0:50:23.920 --> 0:50:26.000
<v Speaker 1>what you don't want, Like you don't want another tall

0:50:26.080 --> 0:50:28.799
<v Speaker 1>month to that. No, I can't do it. But then

0:50:28.800 --> 0:50:33.600
<v Speaker 1>that's that would be a motivation to keep putting yourself first. Um,

0:50:34.280 --> 0:50:36.200
<v Speaker 1>but I just don't want to look up and I'm

0:50:36.320 --> 0:50:40.520
<v Speaker 1>forty something and just just still find going to happen.

0:50:40.920 --> 0:50:43.040
<v Speaker 1>That's not gonna happen. You could be in a relationship

0:50:43.080 --> 0:50:44.719
<v Speaker 1>with somebody tomorrow if you wanted to be, and you

0:50:44.760 --> 0:50:48.280
<v Speaker 1>know that. I know that, like I know that about myself.

0:50:48.360 --> 0:50:50.279
<v Speaker 1>I really want to get married tomorrow. I know a

0:50:50.320 --> 0:50:52.879
<v Speaker 1>couple of things that are marry me. But I don't

0:50:52.880 --> 0:50:56.239
<v Speaker 1>just want to marry because they want me. But you can,

0:50:56.480 --> 0:50:59.120
<v Speaker 1>you can want them to. You just wasn't opening yourself

0:50:59.200 --> 0:51:05.560
<v Speaker 1>up to even wanting because you were with Mr uh Intangible,

0:51:05.680 --> 0:51:08.799
<v Speaker 1>Mr Big exactly, so you weren't even you don't even

0:51:08.840 --> 0:51:10.319
<v Speaker 1>know if you could love these people. You don't even

0:51:10.360 --> 0:51:11.880
<v Speaker 1>know if you could like these people because you just

0:51:12.000 --> 0:51:16.239
<v Speaker 1>wasn't open to it. Didn't you realize the nigga like

0:51:16.280 --> 0:51:18.800
<v Speaker 1>super Dope, you just wasn't paying attention to his ass

0:51:21.440 --> 0:51:26.799
<v Speaker 1>he could happen. I'm not scaring lit an optimistic bitch.

0:51:27.800 --> 0:51:29.760
<v Speaker 1>I haven't seen a couple of my niggas on shading

0:51:30.040 --> 0:51:34.200
<v Speaker 1>in the past. You know your problem. Why are you

0:51:34.200 --> 0:51:40.480
<v Speaker 1>fucking niggas in the shade room like Brad. That's what

0:51:40.640 --> 0:51:47.080
<v Speaker 1>I had to log logs off that made your figs.

0:51:47.239 --> 0:51:52.680
<v Speaker 1>That's a problem. There was never mind, or maybe I

0:51:52.880 --> 0:52:00.239
<v Speaker 1>was project assholes. Oh ship, all right, I'm not all right.

0:52:00.280 --> 0:52:02.479
<v Speaker 1>We're not gonna ask y'all no more questions from this book,

0:52:02.520 --> 0:52:06.359
<v Speaker 1>but you should. If you're going through something similar as

0:52:06.440 --> 0:52:08.919
<v Speaker 1>me and a j you should go ahead and grab

0:52:08.960 --> 0:52:11.520
<v Speaker 1>This book is called Getting Over Him and Back to You.

0:52:11.640 --> 0:52:15.160
<v Speaker 1>It's by Kendall d And it's a journal, right, So

0:52:16.320 --> 0:52:18.880
<v Speaker 1>the questions are laid out and then it has space

0:52:18.960 --> 0:52:21.319
<v Speaker 1>for you to write your answers in. You know, you

0:52:21.320 --> 0:52:24.320
<v Speaker 1>don't have to do them over a fucking podcast for

0:52:24.360 --> 0:52:26.360
<v Speaker 1>the world to criticize you like us. You could just

0:52:26.440 --> 0:52:29.160
<v Speaker 1>do it by yourself. So y'all get that book. It's

0:52:29.320 --> 0:52:32.239
<v Speaker 1>it's really cute and it's I think it's to help

0:52:32.320 --> 0:52:34.080
<v Speaker 1>you heal. We're gonna see what to do for me

0:52:34.920 --> 0:52:37.239
<v Speaker 1>and A J A J. You want one of these?

0:52:37.280 --> 0:52:38.799
<v Speaker 1>How bo? You want to check it out? You know,

0:52:38.840 --> 0:52:42.920
<v Speaker 1>I actually went through break up counseling. I a therapist

0:52:42.920 --> 0:52:48.040
<v Speaker 1>for breaking up. That's that's healthy. So this is why

0:52:48.080 --> 0:52:50.839
<v Speaker 1>I'm trying to stick to my things. Now. If my

0:52:50.960 --> 0:52:53.760
<v Speaker 1>ax happens to listen to this episode and he'll understand

0:52:53.760 --> 0:52:57.800
<v Speaker 1>why it's so hard to get me back. Yeah, because

0:52:58.200 --> 0:53:00.719
<v Speaker 1>so do you really try to get her in mind right?

0:53:00.880 --> 0:53:05.520
<v Speaker 1>And when you got your mind right, ship just don't slide. Yeah,

0:53:05.840 --> 0:53:08.680
<v Speaker 1>me too. I'm really trying this time. Like, and I'll y'all,

0:53:08.719 --> 0:53:10.719
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna tell you all this. I'm broke up with

0:53:10.760 --> 0:53:14.520
<v Speaker 1>this nick about seventeen times, like you don't even know

0:53:14.560 --> 0:53:21.200
<v Speaker 1>it's been had in the game and look how you Meanwhile,

0:53:21.360 --> 0:53:24.120
<v Speaker 1>we put my whole life on the line, child, put

0:53:24.160 --> 0:53:27.640
<v Speaker 1>all the business out there and even out here flexing.

0:53:33.160 --> 0:53:38.040
<v Speaker 1>This time. I'm really done, y'all, I think, And I

0:53:38.080 --> 0:53:40.919
<v Speaker 1>would be like, did you remember you remember you said

0:53:41.000 --> 0:53:45.120
<v Speaker 1>you were done? Right? Tune in an episode forty four.

0:53:45.200 --> 0:53:47.880
<v Speaker 1>Bit when you said you was done, I'm gonna replay

0:53:47.920 --> 0:53:51.040
<v Speaker 1>it for you, because clearly you forgot an episode forty seven.

0:53:51.040 --> 0:53:55.560
<v Speaker 1>I remember it's forty seven. Y'all were coming up on

0:53:55.560 --> 0:53:59.960
<v Speaker 1>our one year anniversary. Yes, I'm playing it. I'm playing

0:54:00.160 --> 0:54:02.040
<v Speaker 1>something for us a j We're gonna do it. We're

0:54:02.040 --> 0:54:07.279
<v Speaker 1>gonna celebrate, y'all coming, y'all better pull up? What else

0:54:07.320 --> 0:54:10.479
<v Speaker 1>we got? Oh, we got a dumb bitch story. Dumb

0:54:10.480 --> 0:54:14.799
<v Speaker 1>bitch stories because we've all been a dumb bitch at

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<v Speaker 1>least once or twice. Okay, here, guys, hey, guys, here's

0:54:19.400 --> 0:54:23.040
<v Speaker 1>our dumb bach story of the week. All right. This

0:54:23.200 --> 0:54:27.640
<v Speaker 1>came from a Instagram follower. Uh I won't tell you

0:54:27.640 --> 0:54:31.680
<v Speaker 1>her name because it's anonymous. Um says, I actually have

0:54:31.840 --> 0:54:34.479
<v Speaker 1>plenty of dumbing stories regarding the same nigga. But here's

0:54:34.480 --> 0:54:38.360
<v Speaker 1>one of the funniest. So me and my so, me

0:54:38.400 --> 0:54:40.959
<v Speaker 1>and my man had just moved into our first spot

0:54:41.040 --> 0:54:44.880
<v Speaker 1>together on uh ten five, two thou eighteen. It was

0:54:44.920 --> 0:54:47.120
<v Speaker 1>my first time moving out of my mom's house and

0:54:47.120 --> 0:54:50.040
<v Speaker 1>I was twenty one years old. We when we moved

0:54:50.040 --> 0:54:53.040
<v Speaker 1>in together, we were not officially together. He told me

0:54:53.080 --> 0:54:55.600
<v Speaker 1>that once we moved in together, we could become official

0:54:55.680 --> 0:54:58.040
<v Speaker 1>because he had to make sure I was ready or

0:54:58.080 --> 0:55:01.239
<v Speaker 1>some dumb ship like that red f act. That ship

0:55:01.280 --> 0:55:03.160
<v Speaker 1>don't even make any sense. But I was young and

0:55:03.239 --> 0:55:06.200
<v Speaker 1>dumb so really didn't question it too much as I

0:55:06.239 --> 0:55:10.440
<v Speaker 1>should have. On October ten, we had a conversation and

0:55:10.480 --> 0:55:13.360
<v Speaker 1>made things finally official, saying that we were now in

0:55:13.360 --> 0:55:16.840
<v Speaker 1>a relationship. Bitch. That was on a Wednesday. While on

0:55:16.920 --> 0:55:20.000
<v Speaker 1>that Friday, literally two days later, this man did not

0:55:20.080 --> 0:55:22.640
<v Speaker 1>pick me up from work in my car. My sister

0:55:22.719 --> 0:55:24.680
<v Speaker 1>had to come get me. So now I'm at home

0:55:24.680 --> 0:55:27.600
<v Speaker 1>in the living room looking craziest fuck up, crying, blowing

0:55:27.680 --> 0:55:30.919
<v Speaker 1>his phone up with no answer. This man finally makes

0:55:30.960 --> 0:55:34.759
<v Speaker 1>his entrance at two a m. And I asked him

0:55:34.800 --> 0:55:38.360
<v Speaker 1>where has he been? He said, playing poker with his friends.

0:55:38.880 --> 0:55:41.120
<v Speaker 1>So he's at the microwave heating up some food with

0:55:41.160 --> 0:55:43.439
<v Speaker 1>his back turned to me. I get off the couch

0:55:43.480 --> 0:55:45.480
<v Speaker 1>to walk down the hall, and something tells me to

0:55:45.520 --> 0:55:48.680
<v Speaker 1>look at him. Why the funk was there a condom

0:55:48.719 --> 0:55:51.799
<v Speaker 1>hanging out the back of this man's jeans, like just

0:55:51.920 --> 0:55:54.839
<v Speaker 1>dangling there. I walked up to him and I said, Oh,

0:55:54.960 --> 0:55:57.600
<v Speaker 1>where did you said you was? At again, and he

0:55:57.719 --> 0:56:00.359
<v Speaker 1>repeats the same lie I snatched the con them from

0:56:00.360 --> 0:56:04.160
<v Speaker 1>his jeans. In quotation, it says very much disgusting, because

0:56:04.160 --> 0:56:08.560
<v Speaker 1>now I'm touching another bitches pussy juices. And I was like, well,

0:56:08.600 --> 0:56:11.560
<v Speaker 1>what's this, nigga? He looked like he had just seen

0:56:11.640 --> 0:56:14.160
<v Speaker 1>the ghosts. Then he looks me dead in my face,

0:56:14.400 --> 0:56:17.080
<v Speaker 1>trying to look as surprised as I am, says out

0:56:17.160 --> 0:56:20.040
<v Speaker 1>his dumb mouth, My friends must be playing a joke

0:56:20.120 --> 0:56:23.479
<v Speaker 1>on me or something. Girl, What the fuck? Why would

0:56:23.480 --> 0:56:26.400
<v Speaker 1>your friends who's thirty plus put a used condom on

0:56:26.440 --> 0:56:29.360
<v Speaker 1>the back of your jeans? Nigga? I couldnt. I was

0:56:29.400 --> 0:56:31.520
<v Speaker 1>about to swing, and he grabbed me, and I and

0:56:31.640 --> 0:56:34.959
<v Speaker 1>bear hugged me that night. That's a night I will

0:56:35.000 --> 0:56:37.600
<v Speaker 1>never forget. And then I took him back. Oh my god,

0:56:38.080 --> 0:56:41.839
<v Speaker 1>how could I be so damn dumb? Fast forward three

0:56:41.920 --> 0:56:45.480
<v Speaker 1>years later, we're still together. Sometimes it's very on and off,

0:56:45.480 --> 0:56:48.120
<v Speaker 1>in toxic, but I do live on my own and

0:56:48.160 --> 0:56:50.839
<v Speaker 1>he has his own place too. I don't put up

0:56:50.840 --> 0:56:52.760
<v Speaker 1>with half the ship I used to, and I started

0:56:52.760 --> 0:56:55.080
<v Speaker 1>doing me and the rolls had reversed at this point

0:56:55.239 --> 0:56:57.759
<v Speaker 1>where he was now going through my ship. But that's

0:56:57.760 --> 0:57:01.080
<v Speaker 1>my dumb bing story. Child. I love y'all show, Thank

0:57:01.160 --> 0:57:06.600
<v Speaker 1>y'all girl. So three years later, y'all still now he

0:57:07.560 --> 0:57:10.319
<v Speaker 1>now she doesn't started pulling the you. That's the thing

0:57:10.560 --> 0:57:13.480
<v Speaker 1>that goes back to one of the questions, Right, why

0:57:13.480 --> 0:57:15.200
<v Speaker 1>are you gonna stay with somebody to talk to guys?

0:57:15.280 --> 0:57:17.480
<v Speaker 1>Situation that long to where you start being a nigga,

0:57:17.800 --> 0:57:20.480
<v Speaker 1>to where you stopped giving a funk, to where you

0:57:20.680 --> 0:57:25.200
<v Speaker 1>start playing with him, to where you got the comming

0:57:26.280 --> 0:57:40.720
<v Speaker 1>hanging out your back pussy, your back pussy, I mean backpockets, yo, Like,

0:57:41.240 --> 0:57:46.680
<v Speaker 1>why would you list like that's not natural, that's not

0:57:46.680 --> 0:57:50.680
<v Speaker 1>that obviously obviously that wasn't natural for her, right, So

0:57:50.720 --> 0:57:52.560
<v Speaker 1>why I stay with the naked today? They turned you

0:57:52.600 --> 0:57:55.160
<v Speaker 1>into them? I'm a puller, you on you like, get

0:57:55.200 --> 0:57:58.360
<v Speaker 1>the funk up out of there? Just get out of there. Yeah, man,

0:57:58.480 --> 0:58:01.240
<v Speaker 1>just get out of there. It's not worth it. But

0:58:03.520 --> 0:58:08.040
<v Speaker 1>that's younger going through hell hella, dumb ship. You'ren't even

0:58:08.040 --> 0:58:10.320
<v Speaker 1>supposed to be like I'm not saying I do believe

0:58:10.360 --> 0:58:13.560
<v Speaker 1>you're supposed to find your meat sometime in your twenties,

0:58:14.680 --> 0:58:16.880
<v Speaker 1>at least a few like people, but to be in

0:58:17.000 --> 0:58:19.600
<v Speaker 1>like a long term serious relationship in your twenties. I don't.

0:58:19.800 --> 0:58:23.920
<v Speaker 1>It's not highly suggested from my book Living Together with

0:58:23.960 --> 0:58:29.480
<v Speaker 1>a Man. No, not my daughter. Hell no, now you

0:58:29.480 --> 0:58:31.040
<v Speaker 1>know what. I didn't want to do another episode on

0:58:31.080 --> 0:58:33.040
<v Speaker 1>SAM one day. I want to do an episode on

0:58:33.040 --> 0:58:35.600
<v Speaker 1>on Black women dating. That might be our next episode.

0:58:35.600 --> 0:58:37.640
<v Speaker 1>We'll talk about that, like do we know how to date?

0:58:38.920 --> 0:58:44.800
<v Speaker 1>Because why are you living with that's an attachment issue. Yeah,

0:58:44.800 --> 0:58:47.400
<v Speaker 1>that's very young. But some people get together and live

0:58:47.440 --> 0:58:50.800
<v Speaker 1>happily ever after. You know, just a small ass ample

0:58:50.840 --> 0:58:58.560
<v Speaker 1>size bitch, like just it's definitely like the size of

0:58:58.600 --> 0:59:00.440
<v Speaker 1>that ship. They give you a sepphoria when you use

0:59:00.480 --> 0:59:03.600
<v Speaker 1>your points. Yep, I don't want her to. I think

0:59:05.840 --> 0:59:10.000
<v Speaker 1>what could happen. She could possibly finally savertize with this guy.

0:59:10.320 --> 0:59:12.360
<v Speaker 1>And then you get with a nice man and then

0:59:12.400 --> 0:59:15.960
<v Speaker 1>play with him all type of ways because that's what

0:59:16.000 --> 0:59:20.040
<v Speaker 1>you used to. You get with someone else who's not

0:59:20.160 --> 0:59:22.520
<v Speaker 1>your ex, who may be good for you, may be

0:59:22.640 --> 0:59:26.880
<v Speaker 1>great for you, but you're guarded um and now you're

0:59:27.120 --> 0:59:30.000
<v Speaker 1>having him experienced the ship that you went through, and

0:59:30.040 --> 0:59:32.000
<v Speaker 1>then you ruin him for the next woman, and so

0:59:32.120 --> 0:59:35.800
<v Speaker 1>forth and so on, and the psychle continues, Yeah, so

0:59:35.960 --> 0:59:39.280
<v Speaker 1>just try to keep your I don't want to say innocence.

0:59:39.640 --> 0:59:42.520
<v Speaker 1>Just try to keep your nice. Try to keep your

0:59:42.640 --> 0:59:46.320
<v Speaker 1>nice to minimum. Just try to keep your nice about yourself.

0:59:47.280 --> 0:59:49.600
<v Speaker 1>I don't know did she have an actually, because you're

0:59:49.600 --> 0:59:51.400
<v Speaker 1>gonna look up and you're gonna be a whole nigga?

0:59:51.520 --> 0:59:54.960
<v Speaker 1>Did she have a question? No? It wasn't no question.

0:59:54.960 --> 0:59:59.120
<v Speaker 1>It was just a story basically how she pulled a

0:59:59.200 --> 1:00:01.680
<v Speaker 1>nasty on the amount of nigga back as. I just

1:00:01.680 --> 1:00:03.400
<v Speaker 1>don't know if I could, if I can handle it

1:00:03.440 --> 1:00:06.760
<v Speaker 1>being that blatant in my face. Why is in the

1:00:06.760 --> 1:00:09.360
<v Speaker 1>back though? That's what I'd be concerned with. Why was

1:00:09.360 --> 1:00:13.440
<v Speaker 1>the condom in the back because she might not be

1:00:13.640 --> 1:00:19.720
<v Speaker 1>dookey on itive and it might have been his damn

1:00:19.920 --> 1:00:21.520
<v Speaker 1>me just posted it out his ass and put it

1:00:21.520 --> 1:00:30.480
<v Speaker 1>on his pocket? Yo, How did it get back there? Though?

1:00:30.520 --> 1:00:43.000
<v Speaker 1>That's why I was just trying to forget Jesse Smollett.

1:00:43.160 --> 1:00:47.560
<v Speaker 1>I know we gotta go, but Jesse Smollett, Yeah, man,

1:00:48.680 --> 1:00:51.320
<v Speaker 1>how you practice how you do a practice room for

1:00:51.440 --> 1:00:55.640
<v Speaker 1>your crime is still sucking up? You know. The funny

1:00:55.680 --> 1:00:57.960
<v Speaker 1>part is how you had this relationship with this nigga?

1:00:58.080 --> 1:01:00.800
<v Speaker 1>Like when he was telling like how a relationship like

1:01:00.880 --> 1:01:05.200
<v Speaker 1>I was like, Yo, what is happening? Listen? Don't let

1:01:05.320 --> 1:01:08.880
<v Speaker 1>them distract y'all from the biggest case of the century though.

1:01:09.000 --> 1:01:13.240
<v Speaker 1>That fucking gets Lae Maxi Lane. Yes, So now you

1:01:13.240 --> 1:01:16.160
<v Speaker 1>you know black people love to be entertained. Y'all, Please

1:01:16.160 --> 1:01:18.520
<v Speaker 1>pay attention to what the fund is happening out here

1:01:19.160 --> 1:01:23.040
<v Speaker 1>because I really feel like our life depends on it. Yeah,

1:01:23.160 --> 1:01:25.880
<v Speaker 1>and the lives of our kids. Man, that was out here,

1:01:26.600 --> 1:01:30.600
<v Speaker 1>you know, doing some awful things. Man, well look into it.

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<v Speaker 1>But I enjoyed this episode. Talking is definitely my therapy.

1:01:37.960 --> 1:01:39.800
<v Speaker 1>I don't have to talk to an actual therapists. I

1:01:39.840 --> 1:01:43.439
<v Speaker 1>just need somebody that I can talk to. I just yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I appreciate you all for listening. And sometimes you'll send

1:01:45.880 --> 1:01:48.400
<v Speaker 1>me messages judging me. Y'all know, I don't give a fuck,

1:01:48.960 --> 1:01:51.240
<v Speaker 1>but I do appreciate that you even tune in, So

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<v Speaker 1>just continue. Thank you. Right, Look, but if you guys

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<v Speaker 1>enjoyed this episode, you know what time it is. Hit

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<v Speaker 1>on the Grahams and make sure you keep sending them

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<v Speaker 1>dumbing stories. We haven't received and asked a black friend.

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<v Speaker 1>With all the fun things that are going on amongst

1:02:13.520 --> 1:02:15.440
<v Speaker 1>the black and white community right now, we haven't received

1:02:15.480 --> 1:02:18.440
<v Speaker 1>any questions or any statements or anything, but y'all can

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<v Speaker 1>So y'all stay tuned for that. We want to see

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<v Speaker 1>you in your we talk back paraph. Yeah, it's official

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<v Speaker 1>Y'all have