1 00:00:00,720 --> 00:00:06,400 Speaker 1: Talk. We're just too unapologetically black women with an opinion 2 00:00:06,960 --> 00:00:12,200 Speaker 1: to talk back. What's up, y'all, it's your girl, a 3 00:00:12,400 --> 00:00:14,960 Speaker 1: j Welcome to a new episode. If we talked back 4 00:00:15,160 --> 00:00:20,680 Speaker 1: A Hey, y'all, it's tam Bell and I'm broken hearted. 5 00:00:21,960 --> 00:00:28,920 Speaker 1: You're not. I don't mind. I'm hurting because, man, these 6 00:00:29,000 --> 00:00:32,159 Speaker 1: niggas is trash. It's like, not all of them, but 7 00:00:32,200 --> 00:00:37,480 Speaker 1: the one I'm thinking about. Yeah. Here. I love y'all. Though, 8 00:00:38,000 --> 00:00:39,880 Speaker 1: if I ain't told y'all a long time, I feel 9 00:00:39,880 --> 00:00:45,800 Speaker 1: like I ain't told y'all in a minute. Um. I 10 00:00:45,840 --> 00:00:50,760 Speaker 1: went to d Artists past weekend by myself and I 11 00:00:50,880 --> 00:00:53,120 Speaker 1: had a lot of fun. Actually, I hung out with 12 00:00:54,200 --> 00:00:56,120 Speaker 1: this old man on the first night who was a 13 00:00:56,160 --> 00:01:01,040 Speaker 1: foreign diplomat. Yeah, I know he was. He was cool. 14 00:01:01,120 --> 00:01:07,040 Speaker 1: Probably was, um, what's those people are hit man? What 15 00:01:07,080 --> 00:01:10,240 Speaker 1: if well he hits he hit nothing out there. I'm 16 00:01:10,240 --> 00:01:16,200 Speaker 1: gonna tell you that he hit me. He thought he 17 00:01:16,240 --> 00:01:17,600 Speaker 1: was gonna hit me too. At the end of the night, 18 00:01:17,600 --> 00:01:20,360 Speaker 1: he looked so disappointed. I was like, sorry, Grandpa, I 19 00:01:20,360 --> 00:01:23,520 Speaker 1: gotta go. Did he have that gray got that gray 20 00:01:23,600 --> 00:01:28,120 Speaker 1: line around his pupil? No, he wasn't that old. He 21 00:01:28,280 --> 00:01:33,120 Speaker 1: was like fifty three. Mm, that's not old. I kind 22 00:01:33,120 --> 00:01:36,560 Speaker 1: of like fifty three year olds. M hmmm, that's too 23 00:01:36,640 --> 00:01:40,320 Speaker 1: old for me. They did he was he black. Yeah, 24 00:01:40,400 --> 00:01:42,480 Speaker 1: he was youthful. He was a youthful fifty three. He 25 00:01:42,560 --> 00:01:48,000 Speaker 1: wasn't like, you know, go get the soldier out the trunk. 26 00:01:48,040 --> 00:01:51,600 Speaker 1: He going my keys. He wasn't that old, but he 27 00:01:51,760 --> 00:01:55,000 Speaker 1: was old. He's too old for me, but he was 28 00:01:55,040 --> 00:01:57,600 Speaker 1: a lot of fun and he cut me sauce up. 29 00:01:57,600 --> 00:02:00,240 Speaker 1: I don't know if y'll follow my Instagram, but was 30 00:02:01,040 --> 00:02:05,200 Speaker 1: I had a whole Instagram rant drunk is Someone said, girl, 31 00:02:05,200 --> 00:02:07,800 Speaker 1: you're drunk. Her in a football back. I don't even 32 00:02:08,440 --> 00:02:11,800 Speaker 1: a football back. She saw that she's drunk, because what 33 00:02:11,840 --> 00:02:17,200 Speaker 1: the fun is a football back? Exactly That's exactly how 34 00:02:17,280 --> 00:02:21,640 Speaker 1: drunk I was. Then I wrote, I was in Santo Domingo, 35 00:02:21,800 --> 00:02:25,239 Speaker 1: and I left Santo Domingo and I went to Punta Conor, 36 00:02:25,320 --> 00:02:27,560 Speaker 1: which was like across the country, two and a half 37 00:02:27,600 --> 00:02:31,200 Speaker 1: hour drive, and I got an uber and my uber 38 00:02:31,320 --> 00:02:34,800 Speaker 1: hit somebody, like literally hit a man on a motorcycle 39 00:02:34,800 --> 00:02:37,920 Speaker 1: like I know what you did last summer type ship? Yeah, 40 00:02:38,160 --> 00:02:40,200 Speaker 1: some ship like that and drove off. So I hope 41 00:02:40,240 --> 00:02:43,040 Speaker 1: it ain't no dominicanting out here ready to come get me. 42 00:02:43,560 --> 00:02:45,600 Speaker 1: I was a passenger to I was, I was a 43 00:02:45,680 --> 00:02:51,080 Speaker 1: victim to sir. And she ain't speaking no English, so 44 00:02:51,120 --> 00:02:53,160 Speaker 1: I was like sitting there stunned, and she just was 45 00:02:53,160 --> 00:02:55,320 Speaker 1: looking in the review at me, and then she just 46 00:02:55,360 --> 00:02:58,320 Speaker 1: put her hand in the air like and she just 47 00:02:58,400 --> 00:03:03,400 Speaker 1: kept going yo. So that's how didn't get down of 48 00:03:03,480 --> 00:03:09,240 Speaker 1: dr They just be hitting motherfucker's on the highway. That's 49 00:03:09,200 --> 00:03:10,919 Speaker 1: sound like China and something because they don't be having 50 00:03:10,919 --> 00:03:14,079 Speaker 1: on stoplights and stop signs. They just be driving. They 51 00:03:14,160 --> 00:03:15,640 Speaker 1: just be going. I don't see e men. Why they 52 00:03:15,639 --> 00:03:19,160 Speaker 1: have lanes there just for decoration. I think because nobody 53 00:03:19,200 --> 00:03:22,720 Speaker 1: adheres to them, like in the Yes. But that was 54 00:03:23,120 --> 00:03:26,919 Speaker 1: really the only adventure I had was you know, someone 55 00:03:26,960 --> 00:03:31,400 Speaker 1: getting hit by a car. But but I had a 56 00:03:31,400 --> 00:03:36,560 Speaker 1: good time. I went to the beach, but I ain't 57 00:03:36,560 --> 00:03:38,320 Speaker 1: get in the beach. I ain't getting the water. I 58 00:03:38,360 --> 00:03:40,600 Speaker 1: just was out there someplace for the New Year's I 59 00:03:40,640 --> 00:03:44,200 Speaker 1: need some sun, I need some saying, I need something dick, 60 00:03:44,560 --> 00:03:47,560 Speaker 1: I need all types of ship. I was on our period, 61 00:03:47,680 --> 00:03:53,600 Speaker 1: so I know flow was like, fuck you bitch. I 62 00:03:53,600 --> 00:03:55,600 Speaker 1: didn't even playing for my peer. You know, I have 63 00:03:55,640 --> 00:03:57,600 Speaker 1: a float chart and that my perer was supposed to 64 00:03:57,640 --> 00:04:00,280 Speaker 1: come on the following week, but she came early. Hate. 65 00:04:00,280 --> 00:04:03,520 Speaker 1: That's like your vacation. You see all those memes online 66 00:04:03,520 --> 00:04:05,720 Speaker 1: like a bitch be packing a little overnight whole back 67 00:04:06,160 --> 00:04:11,280 Speaker 1: and the perid come out the other room, like what uppit? 68 00:04:11,720 --> 00:04:14,200 Speaker 1: Where the fund you going without me? Bit? You know, 69 00:04:14,280 --> 00:04:16,760 Speaker 1: I always thought that if I was planning to do 70 00:04:16,800 --> 00:04:19,400 Speaker 1: some whole ship and my perid came on, I thought 71 00:04:19,400 --> 00:04:21,960 Speaker 1: it was aside from God, like I'm not supposed to 72 00:04:21,960 --> 00:04:24,160 Speaker 1: be doing this ship. That's why God like passing your 73 00:04:24,200 --> 00:04:26,599 Speaker 1: sucking ass down for the weekend. You're trying to go 74 00:04:26,680 --> 00:04:28,600 Speaker 1: fun with something you ain't got no business sucking with? 75 00:04:32,880 --> 00:04:39,000 Speaker 1: Who you h at my heart? Did you hurt my heart? 76 00:04:42,600 --> 00:04:45,479 Speaker 1: You know? You can get herpes from someone using a condom? Yeah, 77 00:04:45,520 --> 00:04:48,279 Speaker 1: because of skin contact. It's not like it's not like liquid, 78 00:04:48,360 --> 00:04:51,800 Speaker 1: not liquid but body fluids like people think of other s. 79 00:04:51,800 --> 00:04:57,760 Speaker 1: Cd S is skin contact that it's not really technically 80 00:04:57,880 --> 00:05:03,440 Speaker 1: is it really uh an STD? It's not really an STD. 81 00:05:03,520 --> 00:05:07,240 Speaker 1: It's more like a skin condition, right, But it has 82 00:05:07,320 --> 00:05:11,080 Speaker 1: like such a very bad stigma more than it it is. 83 00:05:11,360 --> 00:05:14,359 Speaker 1: You know, a sickness. Yeah, because if somebody gives you 84 00:05:14,480 --> 00:05:19,120 Speaker 1: all sex who has like fever blisters, simplex one, you 85 00:05:19,200 --> 00:05:22,160 Speaker 1: can get that on your pussy. It may not come 86 00:05:22,200 --> 00:05:25,520 Speaker 1: up as a simplex too, but you're gonna have to be. 87 00:05:25,600 --> 00:05:30,400 Speaker 1: It'll be oral. It'll be oral herpes on your vaginant. Yeah, 88 00:05:30,560 --> 00:05:35,839 Speaker 1: fool fool, fool, fool fool. He got's to be careful. 89 00:05:36,120 --> 00:05:38,240 Speaker 1: It looks of y'all. Didn't know that. Y'all be with 90 00:05:38,240 --> 00:05:40,280 Speaker 1: the niggs who always be getting the fever blisters. I 91 00:05:40,279 --> 00:05:43,960 Speaker 1: always see you want light skin, dudes, and it wins 92 00:05:43,960 --> 00:05:46,960 Speaker 1: the time, Like if y'll be fun with them, dudes, 93 00:05:47,000 --> 00:05:51,320 Speaker 1: get them fever blisters. Just no, pussy might look like 94 00:05:51,360 --> 00:05:56,240 Speaker 1: a damn herpes cry crunch, I mean nestly crunch star Crunch, 95 00:05:56,800 --> 00:06:01,400 Speaker 1: Star crunch bar. We don't hurt be shaman though. What 96 00:06:01,480 --> 00:06:04,839 Speaker 1: about you? What's your what's your weekend? Look like? My 97 00:06:04,880 --> 00:06:07,960 Speaker 1: weekend was all right? I actually did something this weekend. 98 00:06:08,000 --> 00:06:11,880 Speaker 1: I went to a friend's birthday party, little gathering, and 99 00:06:11,920 --> 00:06:19,640 Speaker 1: guess who the DJ was? Erica fucking do Yes. I'm 100 00:06:19,720 --> 00:06:24,360 Speaker 1: jealous of you, Yes, girl, I love I love her. 101 00:06:24,600 --> 00:06:29,960 Speaker 1: She's beautiful too, She's beautiful one of my karaoke songs 102 00:06:30,000 --> 00:06:32,799 Speaker 1: is Tyrone. When I do karaoke, it's either Dixie Chicks 103 00:06:32,800 --> 00:06:37,560 Speaker 1: Earl or Tyrone or UM. I also do Jill Scott 104 00:06:37,720 --> 00:06:40,440 Speaker 1: he Loves Me. Those are my three songs. But Erica 105 00:06:40,440 --> 00:06:43,680 Speaker 1: Bardou is like one of the greatest all time. I love, love, 106 00:06:43,839 --> 00:06:47,200 Speaker 1: love Erica, and she was with her was fat. Yes, 107 00:06:47,600 --> 00:06:52,600 Speaker 1: she would listen like she'd fucking mixing too, like she's 108 00:06:52,640 --> 00:06:55,520 Speaker 1: a real live DJ, like she'd be mixing and all 109 00:06:55,560 --> 00:06:57,800 Speaker 1: of that. But she seems like she might have had 110 00:06:57,839 --> 00:06:59,680 Speaker 1: her leg up on something. But she just was like 111 00:07:00,560 --> 00:07:05,080 Speaker 1: making that thing just like in DJ with her eyes closed. Bitch. 112 00:07:05,720 --> 00:07:09,320 Speaker 1: She gave like some real good Lott affirmations before she 113 00:07:09,360 --> 00:07:15,400 Speaker 1: started um DJ and I love Erica bad Man me too. 114 00:07:16,040 --> 00:07:19,280 Speaker 1: It was a real intimate uh sating that she was there. 115 00:07:19,320 --> 00:07:21,040 Speaker 1: But I was excited about that because that's one of 116 00:07:21,040 --> 00:07:22,840 Speaker 1: my favorite I want to be close friends with your 117 00:07:22,840 --> 00:07:24,400 Speaker 1: close friends so I can be in the midst of 118 00:07:24,480 --> 00:07:32,000 Speaker 1: all that ship. Okay, good luck, bitch, like I'll be 119 00:07:32,080 --> 00:07:35,040 Speaker 1: sending you with people. Not for real, we're gonna be 120 00:07:35,080 --> 00:07:38,640 Speaker 1: in there. But whenever you get a plus one, just 121 00:07:38,840 --> 00:07:44,920 Speaker 1: let me be it until you get one Okay, cool, 122 00:07:45,720 --> 00:07:47,880 Speaker 1: Well that sounds like a fun weekend. I love Erica, 123 00:07:47,920 --> 00:07:49,560 Speaker 1: but do if you tune into the show, we love 124 00:07:49,640 --> 00:07:51,640 Speaker 1: to have you as a guess. You should have tried 125 00:07:51,680 --> 00:07:53,960 Speaker 1: to plug that ship. I know she got the funk 126 00:07:54,000 --> 00:07:56,360 Speaker 1: up out of there too quick though, like she literally 127 00:07:56,440 --> 00:07:59,040 Speaker 1: came to DJ. You know what I'm saying, Like she 128 00:07:59,360 --> 00:08:03,080 Speaker 1: you know what I really want from Erica? Bad God, 129 00:08:03,600 --> 00:08:05,240 Speaker 1: just give me the check. I need like a super 130 00:08:05,320 --> 00:08:08,080 Speaker 1: duperd check when I have a kid. I want Erka 131 00:08:08,080 --> 00:08:11,560 Speaker 1: Baidu to be my dola. That's like a real life 132 00:08:11,600 --> 00:08:16,560 Speaker 1: life goal of mine. I need a h I bring 133 00:08:16,680 --> 00:08:20,440 Speaker 1: some life on this fuck up ass planet. I need 134 00:08:20,560 --> 00:08:24,400 Speaker 1: Erica one of these. I just want to I just 135 00:08:24,440 --> 00:08:29,320 Speaker 1: want to do Erica. I don't want to give no 136 00:08:29,760 --> 00:08:33,199 Speaker 1: no baby behind. I want to play play makeup baby 137 00:08:33,240 --> 00:08:38,440 Speaker 1: with her ass. I'm just joking. People don't think I'm 138 00:08:38,480 --> 00:08:43,720 Speaker 1: gave for real and real life like you you gave 139 00:08:43,800 --> 00:08:50,920 Speaker 1: for the check. I'll just be talking. I'm scared of possy. 140 00:08:52,000 --> 00:08:54,600 Speaker 1: I would need to that should look like a oyster, 141 00:08:54,920 --> 00:08:59,920 Speaker 1: like I love oysters, and my thing is just like 142 00:09:00,080 --> 00:09:01,960 Speaker 1: I just don't want to bitch what we've eating. My 143 00:09:02,040 --> 00:09:04,640 Speaker 1: pussy leg and then like what happens where both of 144 00:09:04,640 --> 00:09:08,880 Speaker 1: our periods sync up, like we're gonna be fighting. We're fighting. 145 00:09:08,880 --> 00:09:11,160 Speaker 1: I'm not with that ship. Like at least a man 146 00:09:11,240 --> 00:09:12,920 Speaker 1: can sunk the ship out of you after he piss 147 00:09:13,000 --> 00:09:15,480 Speaker 1: you off. Like, now I gotta get this cold plastic dick. 148 00:09:15,960 --> 00:09:19,360 Speaker 1: I'm not good with that. I put it in the 149 00:09:19,400 --> 00:09:30,199 Speaker 1: microwave for you, baby shame. Now you got what's the 150 00:09:30,240 --> 00:09:36,199 Speaker 1: ship that microwaves give off? Uh? Girl, we're gonna all 151 00:09:36,240 --> 00:09:43,480 Speaker 1: die one way or another, might as well radiation. No, 152 00:09:45,200 --> 00:09:48,240 Speaker 1: you're eating up food with that motherfucker when I using microwave, 153 00:09:48,360 --> 00:09:50,440 Speaker 1: So I definitely was wouldn't put dick in the microwave. 154 00:09:50,480 --> 00:09:52,480 Speaker 1: I don't use the microwave. I recooked my food on 155 00:09:52,480 --> 00:09:55,439 Speaker 1: the sober I put in the oven. Yeah, me too, 156 00:09:55,640 --> 00:09:58,160 Speaker 1: or the air frying. I'm scared of air friers. Like, 157 00:09:58,200 --> 00:10:01,120 Speaker 1: how then does that work? It's like a it's like 158 00:10:01,160 --> 00:10:03,400 Speaker 1: a I have the stove upside down with a face. 159 00:10:03,480 --> 00:10:07,960 Speaker 1: It's like a confection of him. Is it confection and convection? Yeah? Okay, 160 00:10:08,200 --> 00:10:10,200 Speaker 1: But what we got going on the old school eyes 161 00:10:10,240 --> 00:10:13,240 Speaker 1: though they had to wire, you know, not these flat 162 00:10:13,280 --> 00:10:15,480 Speaker 1: top ships that we got Now, it's the old school, 163 00:10:16,520 --> 00:10:20,560 Speaker 1: that's it. Remember that where you m oh, I guess 164 00:10:20,600 --> 00:10:22,240 Speaker 1: I never even looked at them to see how they 165 00:10:22,280 --> 00:10:25,640 Speaker 1: were actually made. But I don't know. I'm scared of 166 00:10:25,760 --> 00:10:27,600 Speaker 1: I'm scared of all that ship. I just want to 167 00:10:27,600 --> 00:10:31,640 Speaker 1: cook my ship and the stove on the stainless steel pot. Y'all, 168 00:10:31,640 --> 00:10:35,719 Speaker 1: bitches be using them, uh not stainless steel, yeah, stainlessteel. 169 00:10:35,720 --> 00:10:37,880 Speaker 1: You'll be using them non stickpots. All that should be 170 00:10:37,920 --> 00:10:39,920 Speaker 1: scraped up in them pots. That's going to your food. 171 00:10:41,600 --> 00:10:43,560 Speaker 1: I've seen this white lady at the hotel and she 172 00:10:43,679 --> 00:10:48,360 Speaker 1: had on some of those Cardier Love Bengals and I 173 00:10:48,400 --> 00:10:50,240 Speaker 1: was like, oh, they're so pretty. I'm not gonna line 174 00:10:50,240 --> 00:10:51,640 Speaker 1: because I'm gonna see if I can get me one 175 00:10:51,640 --> 00:10:55,400 Speaker 1: for Christmas. Bit simp ships about seven thousand dollars a piece, 176 00:10:56,200 --> 00:10:59,079 Speaker 1: and she had on three, Like bit y'all robbed you 177 00:10:59,160 --> 00:11:03,600 Speaker 1: out here like a bit just jumking. I want to 178 00:11:03,640 --> 00:11:07,360 Speaker 1: rob nobody, but yeah, on three of them, I just 179 00:11:07,400 --> 00:11:08,960 Speaker 1: won't want what the hell I got to do with 180 00:11:09,000 --> 00:11:12,600 Speaker 1: the damn air fryer? Bit Like, why you think about that, lady? Bracelets? 181 00:11:13,880 --> 00:11:19,920 Speaker 1: I don't know, so just took me back to beautiful. 182 00:11:21,200 --> 00:11:24,520 Speaker 1: If anybody want to buy me a Cardier bracelet, thank you, 183 00:11:24,559 --> 00:11:27,920 Speaker 1: I love you? All right? Did you see Stevie J? 184 00:11:29,080 --> 00:11:31,959 Speaker 1: Girl moving right along? Did you see Stevie J what 185 00:11:32,120 --> 00:11:37,520 Speaker 1: he did to Faith? Faith? Did his I'm gonna tell 186 00:11:37,520 --> 00:11:42,320 Speaker 1: you something, So I saw somebody like when they put 187 00:11:42,320 --> 00:11:45,280 Speaker 1: the video out of them arguing and him accusing her 188 00:11:45,320 --> 00:11:48,840 Speaker 1: of having stuff like having somebody in their house. They're 189 00:11:48,840 --> 00:11:51,440 Speaker 1: probably broken up. And yeah, she might have had the 190 00:11:51,480 --> 00:11:55,439 Speaker 1: next nigg over very well possible, right, but that's funked up, 191 00:11:55,800 --> 00:11:58,040 Speaker 1: all right, y'all. If y'all y'all weren't paying the taste 192 00:11:58,080 --> 00:12:01,400 Speaker 1: to this week, Stevie J and ain't broke up, y'all. 193 00:12:02,800 --> 00:12:05,480 Speaker 1: But did we not see that coming? But they tried. 194 00:12:05,920 --> 00:12:09,559 Speaker 1: I didn't think that was gonna last forever. And then 195 00:12:09,559 --> 00:12:13,760 Speaker 1: the altercation aired and you know, went viral, and he 196 00:12:13,840 --> 00:12:16,080 Speaker 1: accused her of bringing the nigg in the house and 197 00:12:16,160 --> 00:12:20,280 Speaker 1: sucking him in the house. Listen, that's that's the kind 198 00:12:20,280 --> 00:12:22,920 Speaker 1: of strict get you killed right there. You gotta be careful. 199 00:12:23,440 --> 00:12:26,960 Speaker 1: I never was interested in what what her sign was 200 00:12:27,440 --> 00:12:31,000 Speaker 1: her astrological sign until I read I think either was 201 00:12:31,040 --> 00:12:36,640 Speaker 1: on ts R ball alert. The video right, yes, listen 202 00:12:37,360 --> 00:12:39,800 Speaker 1: when he said you had another bit of the house 203 00:12:40,080 --> 00:12:43,640 Speaker 1: and she was like m but just said, wait a minute, 204 00:12:43,679 --> 00:12:45,720 Speaker 1: what the fuck is Faith signed? Because that would have 205 00:12:45,760 --> 00:12:53,000 Speaker 1: been my response another nigga, I'm sleep, I'm going to 206 00:12:53,120 --> 00:13:01,040 Speaker 1: sleep whatever whatever. Hey shout out to all the geminis. Hey, 207 00:13:02,280 --> 00:13:04,600 Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you something. Don't think y'all can do that, 208 00:13:04,679 --> 00:13:07,040 Speaker 1: like Faith did, bring nig and talking about you in 209 00:13:07,040 --> 00:13:09,240 Speaker 1: the house. Probably her house. All them damn kids that 210 00:13:09,360 --> 00:13:11,600 Speaker 1: nigga own. He can't own no property or nothing because 211 00:13:11,760 --> 00:13:15,480 Speaker 1: the damn text man and child support man coming. It's 212 00:13:15,480 --> 00:13:17,760 Speaker 1: probably her house and he's concerned about her having a 213 00:13:17,800 --> 00:13:22,960 Speaker 1: niggin by. He's seeking spouse of support. From what I understand, Listen, 214 00:13:23,000 --> 00:13:25,079 Speaker 1: I'm not against that because men have to take care 215 00:13:25,080 --> 00:13:27,440 Speaker 1: of women all the time, like whoever has the most money, 216 00:13:27,440 --> 00:13:30,320 Speaker 1: blah blah blah blah blah blah. You know, they really 217 00:13:30,320 --> 00:13:33,079 Speaker 1: weren't married that long for him to be trying to 218 00:13:33,240 --> 00:13:36,040 Speaker 1: three years, that's not long enough. Nigga, You forty something 219 00:13:36,120 --> 00:13:38,480 Speaker 1: years old. Damn they're fifties. So now I'm having to 220 00:13:38,520 --> 00:13:40,720 Speaker 1: pay because I was married to you for three years 221 00:13:40,720 --> 00:13:44,000 Speaker 1: and you're used to some lifestyle after three years, I 222 00:13:44,000 --> 00:13:47,680 Speaker 1: gotta help you keep up with that's some bullshit. He's 223 00:13:47,720 --> 00:13:49,520 Speaker 1: not gonna get that. They don't even have no kids together. 224 00:13:50,440 --> 00:13:57,760 Speaker 1: He's not gonna get that. Did you see right? Well? 225 00:13:58,320 --> 00:14:00,600 Speaker 1: I hope he gets a little a little bit. You 226 00:14:00,679 --> 00:14:03,880 Speaker 1: really hope he does that to Faith. She knew who 227 00:14:03,880 --> 00:14:07,959 Speaker 1: the funk he was before she married his friends. They 228 00:14:07,960 --> 00:14:10,040 Speaker 1: really thought they probably was going to be together forever, 229 00:14:10,120 --> 00:14:12,240 Speaker 1: you know, because that's the whole ching you gotta, you 230 00:14:12,240 --> 00:14:16,120 Speaker 1: gotta During that time, everybody was watching love and hip hop, 231 00:14:16,160 --> 00:14:18,160 Speaker 1: but you weren't watching, you know what I'm like, You 232 00:14:18,160 --> 00:14:20,760 Speaker 1: didn't see how doing Josh. Look, you know, I'm light skinned. 233 00:14:20,760 --> 00:14:23,760 Speaker 1: Bitches think that the exception, but you ain't no exception. 234 00:14:23,800 --> 00:14:29,080 Speaker 1: But you gonna dog right, it's gonna be the same ship, right. 235 00:14:29,160 --> 00:14:31,080 Speaker 1: He want a light skin now, he wants a spou 236 00:14:31,400 --> 00:14:39,120 Speaker 1: he wants he wants to check now. So I mean, 237 00:14:39,240 --> 00:14:41,800 Speaker 1: I feel you know, sorry, Faith, we love you, but 238 00:14:42,640 --> 00:14:50,160 Speaker 1: that's how a cookie curl sometimes. Alright, moving right along, No, 239 00:14:50,320 --> 00:14:52,640 Speaker 1: let's go to a commercial, bitch, let's face some bills. 240 00:14:52,640 --> 00:14:59,880 Speaker 1: He'd be right back. What's out with Tristan? Now? He's 241 00:15:00,040 --> 00:15:05,080 Speaker 1: wilding out? Okay, did you read the fucking Tristan throw 242 00:15:05,160 --> 00:15:10,000 Speaker 1: that Dick Thompson and his back at it again. He's 243 00:15:10,040 --> 00:15:13,160 Speaker 1: so fine, he said, he about to be unemployed, so 244 00:15:13,240 --> 00:15:15,400 Speaker 1: you ain't gonna get no money, but to a millionaire, 245 00:15:15,440 --> 00:15:19,320 Speaker 1: I'm getting something every month. He is terrible. You know, 246 00:15:19,680 --> 00:15:24,240 Speaker 1: every day I see future in a different light. It's 247 00:15:24,320 --> 00:15:29,040 Speaker 1: just something that's a little worse than a lot worse, 248 00:15:30,640 --> 00:15:35,120 Speaker 1: a lot worse. Poor clothes. You want to pay her. 249 00:15:35,560 --> 00:15:36,960 Speaker 1: My thing is so you want to you want to 250 00:15:37,040 --> 00:15:39,760 Speaker 1: keep the millionaire, but you want to keep impregnant in 251 00:15:39,800 --> 00:15:43,000 Speaker 1: all these regular women and then trying to force them 252 00:15:43,000 --> 00:15:46,400 Speaker 1: to have an abortion. My thing with men and abortions, like, nigga, 253 00:15:46,800 --> 00:15:49,480 Speaker 1: don't suggest nothing to me. If I decided to have 254 00:15:49,520 --> 00:15:52,960 Speaker 1: an abortion, that's gonna sucking me. You don't have to 255 00:15:53,000 --> 00:15:55,320 Speaker 1: deal with this ship even with a morning after playing 256 00:15:55,400 --> 00:15:57,440 Speaker 1: b pill. Like you don't have to deal with the 257 00:15:57,520 --> 00:15:59,800 Speaker 1: after effects of having to take the pill. You don't 258 00:15:59,840 --> 00:16:03,600 Speaker 1: have to deal with the emotional and physical ship you're 259 00:16:03,600 --> 00:16:06,800 Speaker 1: gonna go through after having abortion. Don't suggest a motherfucking 260 00:16:06,880 --> 00:16:09,840 Speaker 1: thing to me now. But I have taken the seventy 261 00:16:09,840 --> 00:16:11,840 Speaker 1: five dollars because this nigga said he don't want a 262 00:16:11,840 --> 00:16:16,360 Speaker 1: baby and we had four weeks. Absolutely the fuck, Like, 263 00:16:16,880 --> 00:16:18,920 Speaker 1: I'm not into forcing anybody to do some ship they 264 00:16:18,960 --> 00:16:24,360 Speaker 1: don't want to do. But that baby is in you. First, Nigga, 265 00:16:25,560 --> 00:16:28,640 Speaker 1: I would have been like a hundred fifty extra yes, 266 00:16:29,720 --> 00:16:34,040 Speaker 1: a hundred fifty double it bit outside an NDA and 267 00:16:34,080 --> 00:16:37,080 Speaker 1: going about my fucking business. But you're not about to 268 00:16:37,120 --> 00:16:39,120 Speaker 1: play me via text like that, like who are you 269 00:16:39,160 --> 00:16:42,880 Speaker 1: talking to? And I'm pretty sure why I think I did. 270 00:16:42,880 --> 00:16:45,680 Speaker 1: They show up images of well, maybe that girl wanted 271 00:16:45,720 --> 00:16:47,440 Speaker 1: to be a mom. You never know, like what if 272 00:16:47,440 --> 00:16:50,200 Speaker 1: she never could get the future? The girl who were 273 00:16:50,200 --> 00:16:52,480 Speaker 1: not the last woman, but the Haitian girl who had 274 00:16:52,520 --> 00:16:54,680 Speaker 1: the baby for the future. I forgot her name from Miami. 275 00:16:55,360 --> 00:16:57,520 Speaker 1: She was like, you know, I'm thirty six years old. 276 00:16:57,760 --> 00:17:01,160 Speaker 1: I've never been pregnant. Now I'm pregnant. The doctor said, 277 00:17:01,240 --> 00:17:04,000 Speaker 1: like this could be like a high risk pregnancy. Who's 278 00:17:04,040 --> 00:17:05,960 Speaker 1: to say I would ever be able to get pregnant again. 279 00:17:06,400 --> 00:17:11,200 Speaker 1: I'm keeping my fucking kid right. Furthermore, just somebody even 280 00:17:11,240 --> 00:17:14,159 Speaker 1: sucking raw for how long? Forever? She said her in 281 00:17:14,200 --> 00:17:16,639 Speaker 1: future I had never used the condom. We also know 282 00:17:16,720 --> 00:17:20,280 Speaker 1: that Tristan on me using the goddamn condoms. He don't 283 00:17:20,359 --> 00:17:22,320 Speaker 1: use no condoms. It's clear he don't be using it. 284 00:17:22,600 --> 00:17:25,880 Speaker 1: He's sucking the trainer wrong. You're just sucking everybody wrong. 285 00:17:25,920 --> 00:17:31,520 Speaker 1: You don't give a damn dog as a woman, as 286 00:17:31,560 --> 00:17:35,359 Speaker 1: a woman as Chloe, and he finds his hell. I 287 00:17:35,359 --> 00:17:38,080 Speaker 1: probably would have gave something too, but I would I 288 00:17:38,160 --> 00:17:40,960 Speaker 1: just listen. I know this come up every week, but 289 00:17:40,960 --> 00:17:45,040 Speaker 1: I'm gonna say it again this week. Y'all. Just use condoms, y'all. 290 00:17:45,119 --> 00:17:47,800 Speaker 1: What the fuck is wrong? Right? You don't gotta have 291 00:17:47,920 --> 00:17:50,360 Speaker 1: these niggas baby down. You don't have to have amortion. 292 00:17:50,440 --> 00:17:58,240 Speaker 1: You can't use the condom. Yeah, he Chloe, he busting 293 00:17:58,280 --> 00:18:01,040 Speaker 1: in that thing. He probably ain't got no control. He'd 294 00:18:01,040 --> 00:18:04,560 Speaker 1: probably be in there like he like really hang in 295 00:18:04,600 --> 00:18:07,880 Speaker 1: these women and then saying ship like heading sandy fire 296 00:18:07,920 --> 00:18:10,879 Speaker 1: racks like that's some expensive ass nuts. Just use the 297 00:18:10,920 --> 00:18:16,520 Speaker 1: cond yeah, yeah, a box of what's some skin condoms? Day, 298 00:18:16,600 --> 00:18:22,440 Speaker 1: like eleven ninety nine bro eleven dollars an sid You 299 00:18:22,520 --> 00:18:26,040 Speaker 1: could have saved seventy four thousand, nine hundred nine and 300 00:18:26,160 --> 00:18:29,959 Speaker 1: nine note nine hundred eighty nine dollars if you just 301 00:18:30,000 --> 00:18:33,199 Speaker 1: bought a box of Countos stupid ass. I hope she 302 00:18:33,320 --> 00:18:35,520 Speaker 1: keeps that baby, and I hope Chloe leave your ass 303 00:18:35,560 --> 00:18:38,360 Speaker 1: because you don't deserve to be with nobody right now, 304 00:18:38,920 --> 00:18:41,600 Speaker 1: absolutely until you get your ship together. But you keep 305 00:18:41,640 --> 00:18:46,680 Speaker 1: them how you get them? Sorry, Chloe. Ye oh, and 306 00:18:46,800 --> 00:18:49,520 Speaker 1: she stole him from somebody. Remember his other his first 307 00:18:49,600 --> 00:18:53,320 Speaker 1: child's mom. She was pregnant. She was pregnant with that 308 00:18:53,400 --> 00:18:58,520 Speaker 1: kid when he got with Chloe. Mm hmm. So hey, 309 00:18:58,760 --> 00:19:01,120 Speaker 1: and we already know that family. Maybe they definitely snatch 310 00:19:01,160 --> 00:19:04,600 Speaker 1: your nigga up. But the thing I noticed about them, 311 00:19:04,600 --> 00:19:07,360 Speaker 1: they can't keep no nigger. That pussy wax his hell 312 00:19:07,440 --> 00:19:10,080 Speaker 1: over there. They're going to get white men now, they're 313 00:19:10,080 --> 00:19:12,960 Speaker 1: going to get like white rock rocker dudes. That's the 314 00:19:15,400 --> 00:19:17,160 Speaker 1: I'm gonna go get me one. I'm gonna go get 315 00:19:17,200 --> 00:19:19,159 Speaker 1: me one too, with the skims outfit. I'm gonna give 316 00:19:19,200 --> 00:19:20,960 Speaker 1: me some scams, and I'm gonna get me a white 317 00:19:21,000 --> 00:19:25,280 Speaker 1: rocker boy with the tattoos and ship like the cool 318 00:19:25,320 --> 00:19:28,960 Speaker 1: white boys. They're going to get like some white boysencies 319 00:19:29,040 --> 00:19:32,359 Speaker 1: it's what they're trying to do. Like it's like with 320 00:19:32,480 --> 00:19:35,919 Speaker 1: all the cool but not all the you know, generational trauma. 321 00:19:39,600 --> 00:19:42,000 Speaker 1: Tristan Jamaican. You know here a whole whole lot here 322 00:19:42,760 --> 00:19:46,320 Speaker 1: girl buy he ain't got no choice. And Chloe like, 323 00:19:46,320 --> 00:19:47,920 Speaker 1: how do you think you can have that? Fin ask 324 00:19:48,000 --> 00:19:50,920 Speaker 1: man like that he ain't gonna nobody. Come on, man, 325 00:19:52,359 --> 00:19:54,760 Speaker 1: he's you know what kind of it's not even the 326 00:19:54,760 --> 00:19:59,439 Speaker 1: fucking other people? Is the how you do it? I 327 00:19:59,520 --> 00:20:01,640 Speaker 1: want you to. It was so smooth at like doing 328 00:20:01,720 --> 00:20:08,760 Speaker 1: like how what's his name, Lebron? Yeah, Lebron, That's what 329 00:20:08,800 --> 00:20:11,800 Speaker 1: I'm talking about doing like Lebron. It's not cheating on Savannah. 330 00:20:11,840 --> 00:20:14,159 Speaker 1: Fine ass. I don't believe that they're both cheating on 331 00:20:14,200 --> 00:20:17,880 Speaker 1: each other. They got sign people believe that happily happily 332 00:20:17,960 --> 00:20:21,960 Speaker 1: leave that? Who said that? Who said that? I don't 333 00:20:22,000 --> 00:20:25,080 Speaker 1: believe that. I'm trying to go with both of y'all. 334 00:20:27,240 --> 00:20:28,840 Speaker 1: That's how you try to put that narrative out there 335 00:20:28,840 --> 00:20:32,440 Speaker 1: because you're trying to snatch like you're trying to be there. 336 00:20:33,400 --> 00:20:38,320 Speaker 1: I love Savannah, Yes, I love Savannah Ward and Lebron. 337 00:20:37,359 --> 00:20:41,840 Speaker 1: I don't know. She seems like we could be good friends. 338 00:20:41,880 --> 00:20:43,679 Speaker 1: I do her hair, we go shopping, she eat my 339 00:20:43,720 --> 00:20:52,240 Speaker 1: people like sounds so good. I'm joking, Savannah, unless you 340 00:20:52,320 --> 00:21:00,679 Speaker 1: win it. These are jokes, guys, don't be bad? Is 341 00:21:00,720 --> 00:21:11,800 Speaker 1: that inappropriate? Do you care? Inappropriate? So? What the hell 342 00:21:11,880 --> 00:21:15,480 Speaker 1: we talk about today? Job? No, let's let's pay in 343 00:21:15,520 --> 00:21:17,280 Speaker 1: a one more bill before we get into the thick 344 00:21:17,320 --> 00:21:28,360 Speaker 1: of one. It's gonna change another another one. Okay, y'all, 345 00:21:28,440 --> 00:21:32,600 Speaker 1: we're back now. I bought this book over the weekend because, 346 00:21:32,640 --> 00:21:35,320 Speaker 1: as I told y'all in the beginning, I'm going through 347 00:21:36,320 --> 00:21:42,320 Speaker 1: a little heartache. Oh this man. So I bought this 348 00:21:42,359 --> 00:21:45,200 Speaker 1: book and it's called Getting Over Him and Back to You, 349 00:21:45,240 --> 00:21:48,640 Speaker 1: and it's by Kindled. If you ladies are going through 350 00:21:49,359 --> 00:21:53,720 Speaker 1: a breakup of any sort, please buy this little book 351 00:21:53,760 --> 00:21:56,240 Speaker 1: and you can. It's gonna ask us a couple of questions, 352 00:21:56,840 --> 00:21:59,320 Speaker 1: and well asked quite a few questions. We're just gonna 353 00:21:59,320 --> 00:22:02,560 Speaker 1: answer a couple all of them. A j actually recently 354 00:22:02,640 --> 00:22:06,120 Speaker 1: went through a split, and I want her to answer 355 00:22:06,200 --> 00:22:08,200 Speaker 1: these questions. And we're gonna be it with you guys, 356 00:22:08,680 --> 00:22:11,199 Speaker 1: and then you guys can like pause us and do 357 00:22:11,240 --> 00:22:15,479 Speaker 1: it yourself, you know beforehand, like why like I know 358 00:22:15,560 --> 00:22:19,560 Speaker 1: you because I want you to be vulnerable. I don't 359 00:22:19,600 --> 00:22:22,520 Speaker 1: want you to prepare. Yeah, I know me too. Let's 360 00:22:22,520 --> 00:22:28,560 Speaker 1: cry together. I'm a real nigga, man, I can't be crying. Well, 361 00:22:28,800 --> 00:22:31,560 Speaker 1: let's cry. It ain't two yet. Let's cry it all 362 00:22:31,560 --> 00:22:33,760 Speaker 1: out now so we can be good for the new year. 363 00:22:34,200 --> 00:22:37,480 Speaker 1: Damn it. All right. So it stars and says you're 364 00:22:37,520 --> 00:22:40,000 Speaker 1: crying is stressed out over a man that won't even 365 00:22:40,080 --> 00:22:42,679 Speaker 1: be your type anymore once you level up and become 366 00:22:42,760 --> 00:22:47,000 Speaker 1: your highest self. And there's a mm hmmm, and it's 367 00:22:47,040 --> 00:22:50,200 Speaker 1: a picture woman and then she's her body is stretched 368 00:22:50,280 --> 00:22:52,560 Speaker 1: up and her chin is to the sky and it's 369 00:22:52,600 --> 00:22:56,199 Speaker 1: like butterflies floating from her chest. So now look at 370 00:22:56,240 --> 00:22:58,280 Speaker 1: me asking right quick. Because I always tell my niece 371 00:22:58,320 --> 00:23:00,720 Speaker 1: that the niggas you're fucking now, they're not gonna be 372 00:23:00,760 --> 00:23:03,480 Speaker 1: able to see your pussy thirty years old. When you 373 00:23:03,480 --> 00:23:05,639 Speaker 1: get thirty like these same type of guys, you're not 374 00:23:05,640 --> 00:23:08,359 Speaker 1: gonna be interested in him. So keep them regrets to 375 00:23:08,400 --> 00:23:11,240 Speaker 1: him and him and go ahead. All right. So the 376 00:23:11,280 --> 00:23:14,560 Speaker 1: first question, oh my god, you wait, wait, wait, are 377 00:23:14,640 --> 00:23:17,960 Speaker 1: you gonna be answering these fucking questions too? Yeah, yeah, 378 00:23:17,960 --> 00:23:21,640 Speaker 1: I'm gonna answer them first. Okay, we'll see. Oh, I'm 379 00:23:21,640 --> 00:23:24,680 Speaker 1: gonna answer this one first, all right. Alright, So it 380 00:23:24,720 --> 00:23:28,520 Speaker 1: says what attracted me to him. What did I find 381 00:23:28,720 --> 00:23:32,840 Speaker 1: attractive about him? So I'm gonna tell y'all. I'm at 382 00:23:32,880 --> 00:23:36,400 Speaker 1: this nigga in the club. I was in his section. 383 00:23:36,840 --> 00:23:39,479 Speaker 1: He was sitting on the top of the chair, and 384 00:23:39,600 --> 00:23:43,120 Speaker 1: he was looking all shiny's brown, his hairs are curly, 385 00:23:43,880 --> 00:23:47,359 Speaker 1: and he smiled, and his smile just like lit up 386 00:23:47,400 --> 00:23:50,880 Speaker 1: the whole club. I was like, damn, he fine as hell, 387 00:23:51,000 --> 00:24:02,200 Speaker 1: looking like a fucking Boston here. That was my initial attraction. Okay, 388 00:24:03,080 --> 00:24:06,320 Speaker 1: let's see. So I met my ex through his sister, 389 00:24:06,440 --> 00:24:10,119 Speaker 1: Actually met his sister at a wedding, and she hooked 390 00:24:10,160 --> 00:24:11,880 Speaker 1: me up with her brother, right and I was going 391 00:24:11,920 --> 00:24:13,840 Speaker 1: through a bunch of ship, almost went to prison right before. 392 00:24:15,520 --> 00:24:17,479 Speaker 1: I just thought it was gonna be a solid fucking 393 00:24:17,520 --> 00:24:21,880 Speaker 1: hook up. Right, So when I met him, I met 394 00:24:21,920 --> 00:24:25,800 Speaker 1: the very next day. We link up. We go to um, 395 00:24:26,880 --> 00:24:29,920 Speaker 1: this little spot in Charlotte, actually two different little spots, 396 00:24:29,960 --> 00:24:36,080 Speaker 1: and like little bar and all that. But I would say, um, 397 00:24:36,080 --> 00:24:39,240 Speaker 1: maybe how he was dressed, Maybe because he just seemed 398 00:24:39,280 --> 00:24:45,159 Speaker 1: different from men I usually date. Um, this nigger like 399 00:24:45,240 --> 00:24:47,679 Speaker 1: had a headband on, like he made his shirt, he 400 00:24:48,040 --> 00:24:52,240 Speaker 1: made his shirt that he was wearing. Um, he just 401 00:24:52,280 --> 00:24:56,320 Speaker 1: seemed like real manly, that's what attracted me to him initially, 402 00:24:57,080 --> 00:25:01,880 Speaker 1: um and creative. Manly and creative, I would say, that's 403 00:25:01,920 --> 00:25:05,840 Speaker 1: what attracted me to him. And we had conversation. Our 404 00:25:05,880 --> 00:25:09,199 Speaker 1: conversation was always like a big thing we would live. 405 00:25:09,320 --> 00:25:11,840 Speaker 1: When we first started talking, we would literally like set 406 00:25:11,920 --> 00:25:16,840 Speaker 1: time aside to talk. Okay, it says you will attract 407 00:25:16,920 --> 00:25:20,880 Speaker 1: all types of men. Your level of self esteem, voids 408 00:25:20,960 --> 00:25:24,800 Speaker 1: and unhealed traumas will determine who you are attracted to. 409 00:25:25,960 --> 00:25:29,800 Speaker 1: Now that right there. I always say you date based 410 00:25:29,840 --> 00:25:32,879 Speaker 1: on your self esteem. And like I said, at the time, 411 00:25:33,400 --> 00:25:36,239 Speaker 1: I was going through a bunch of ships, you know, 412 00:25:36,320 --> 00:25:39,040 Speaker 1: so my self esteem may not have been as high 413 00:25:39,080 --> 00:25:43,440 Speaker 1: as it could have been when I meant him as 414 00:25:43,440 --> 00:25:44,879 Speaker 1: it should have been. I don't know if mine and 415 00:25:45,320 --> 00:25:47,520 Speaker 1: mine is still as high as it should be. You know, 416 00:25:47,560 --> 00:25:51,720 Speaker 1: I don't feel like it. That's the date, have you? Uh? 417 00:25:51,920 --> 00:25:55,600 Speaker 1: Mary J. Blige new song good Morning, Gorgeous Doe. I'll 418 00:25:55,640 --> 00:25:58,280 Speaker 1: be playing that ship to myself. That's a whole anthem. 419 00:25:58,280 --> 00:26:01,720 Speaker 1: I'll be singing it. Yeah, And she said, I ain't 420 00:26:01,760 --> 00:26:04,359 Speaker 1: talking about makeup and hair done. I'm talking about right 421 00:26:04,400 --> 00:26:06,480 Speaker 1: when you wake up, bitch, how you look when you 422 00:26:06,520 --> 00:26:11,720 Speaker 1: wake up crusty, crusty, I slove down the side of 423 00:26:11,760 --> 00:26:14,480 Speaker 1: your mouth. Good morning, gorgeous. Yes, you got to speak 424 00:26:14,480 --> 00:26:17,120 Speaker 1: to yourself. You gotta learn how to speak that to yourself. 425 00:26:17,160 --> 00:26:19,200 Speaker 1: Even if and say it to you believe it. Even 426 00:26:19,240 --> 00:26:20,600 Speaker 1: if you're looking in the mirror you be like I'm 427 00:26:20,800 --> 00:26:23,960 Speaker 1: ugly right now. Still say it to yourself till you 428 00:26:23,960 --> 00:26:28,680 Speaker 1: believe it. So next question, you're gonna answer this one. Okay, 429 00:26:29,760 --> 00:26:35,440 Speaker 1: some voids he may have feeled for me were at 430 00:26:35,520 --> 00:26:38,320 Speaker 1: that time, I hadn't had sex for like a year, 431 00:26:38,840 --> 00:26:43,120 Speaker 1: so he did feel the dick void with some real 432 00:26:43,200 --> 00:26:49,760 Speaker 1: good dick, like soul snatching dick. Uh, what else can 433 00:26:49,800 --> 00:26:52,120 Speaker 1: we see? Just having somebody I know would show up 434 00:26:52,119 --> 00:26:54,560 Speaker 1: for me, You know what I'm saying, Like somebody can 435 00:26:54,600 --> 00:26:57,800 Speaker 1: depend on he feeled. He feeled that I like people 436 00:26:57,840 --> 00:27:02,200 Speaker 1: I can depend on. I may stay with somebody too 437 00:27:02,240 --> 00:27:05,520 Speaker 1: long because I made may become I don't want to 438 00:27:05,520 --> 00:27:08,200 Speaker 1: stay co dependent. But it's just hard to find people 439 00:27:08,240 --> 00:27:09,760 Speaker 1: you know you can depend on. And I think a 440 00:27:09,760 --> 00:27:12,000 Speaker 1: lot of women experienced that. Like you're working with somebody 441 00:27:12,040 --> 00:27:15,119 Speaker 1: you can't even call in the state of emergency. I 442 00:27:15,119 --> 00:27:17,240 Speaker 1: could call him, no matter even if you know, even 443 00:27:17,240 --> 00:27:20,280 Speaker 1: in the beginning stages where I wasn't sure why our 444 00:27:20,320 --> 00:27:22,520 Speaker 1: relationship was going at, I could still depend on him. 445 00:27:23,160 --> 00:27:26,840 Speaker 1: So I feel like maybe that's one thing I think 446 00:27:27,240 --> 00:27:29,960 Speaker 1: for me, it was something similar to that. You know, 447 00:27:30,800 --> 00:27:33,359 Speaker 1: I was really at that time when we met, living 448 00:27:34,080 --> 00:27:39,320 Speaker 1: from hand the mouth where I was like paying everything 449 00:27:39,359 --> 00:27:43,600 Speaker 1: out and just just very hustling. I didn't have any 450 00:27:43,640 --> 00:27:46,480 Speaker 1: safety net, and he definitely was a safety net for me, 451 00:27:46,560 --> 00:27:50,919 Speaker 1: especially financially, like you know, if I needed it, he 452 00:27:50,960 --> 00:27:52,840 Speaker 1: would give it to me. And I didn't abuse that, 453 00:27:52,960 --> 00:27:56,879 Speaker 1: you know, but he was there then. He was my 454 00:27:56,960 --> 00:28:00,880 Speaker 1: smoke partner, Like anybody who know me, no, I love 455 00:28:00,960 --> 00:28:06,199 Speaker 1: me some good old ah and that was yeah, that 456 00:28:06,280 --> 00:28:09,000 Speaker 1: was that was my smoke partner. And we just would 457 00:28:09,040 --> 00:28:11,840 Speaker 1: have a lot of fun together. So I think he 458 00:28:11,880 --> 00:28:15,320 Speaker 1: feels those boys that I had, like the type of 459 00:28:15,320 --> 00:28:18,920 Speaker 1: men I had been dating, they were like that would 460 00:28:18,960 --> 00:28:22,000 Speaker 1: be great with this, but missing that. Like I was 461 00:28:22,080 --> 00:28:24,560 Speaker 1: dating this one guy and he was so cool and 462 00:28:24,600 --> 00:28:28,440 Speaker 1: he was successful and you know he was a helpmate, 463 00:28:28,720 --> 00:28:32,800 Speaker 1: but um, he was a bitch as nigga. Like remember 464 00:28:32,840 --> 00:28:35,320 Speaker 1: I had Diamonds, my dog. She was a child about 465 00:28:35,359 --> 00:28:38,600 Speaker 1: four pounds soaking with I let her out the cage 466 00:28:38,600 --> 00:28:44,880 Speaker 1: and he was like, I can't. You have to get 467 00:28:44,880 --> 00:28:46,520 Speaker 1: the funk out of our house because this is my 468 00:28:46,680 --> 00:28:51,080 Speaker 1: me and my doghouse, bitch. Right. Oh but the smoke, 469 00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:55,080 Speaker 1: like I wasn't smoking like that prior to me in 470 00:28:55,120 --> 00:28:59,200 Speaker 1: my ex and we started I started smoking with him, 471 00:28:59,240 --> 00:29:01,760 Speaker 1: and you know, needed sex, like I can understand, like 472 00:29:01,840 --> 00:29:04,600 Speaker 1: Bobby and with me, like you do your drug a 473 00:29:04,720 --> 00:29:07,040 Speaker 1: choice together with whoever and then having sex with it. 474 00:29:07,040 --> 00:29:12,200 Speaker 1: It just it's something spiritual that happens, man. It really, 475 00:29:13,080 --> 00:29:17,760 Speaker 1: it's some type of some type of bond. Something happens 476 00:29:18,080 --> 00:29:21,040 Speaker 1: when you be um having sex under the influence like 477 00:29:21,120 --> 00:29:26,000 Speaker 1: that a lot, Like it's planned into y'all activity, right, 478 00:29:28,200 --> 00:29:31,680 Speaker 1: and that should make you connected on a cellular level 479 00:29:31,760 --> 00:29:34,480 Speaker 1: or something else. Yeah, Like I can feel you when 480 00:29:34,480 --> 00:29:36,880 Speaker 1: you're not around me. I can smell you when you're 481 00:29:36,880 --> 00:29:39,960 Speaker 1: not around me, like I can. I can think about 482 00:29:40,000 --> 00:29:42,680 Speaker 1: that dick going in and feel it. You ever been 483 00:29:42,720 --> 00:29:45,400 Speaker 1: like that, like just like like a little something just 484 00:29:45,440 --> 00:29:49,040 Speaker 1: come over you right quick. No, I ain't never felt 485 00:29:49,040 --> 00:29:53,000 Speaker 1: the dick when the dick y'all. If y'all felt this, 486 00:29:53,040 --> 00:29:55,360 Speaker 1: send us a message if y'all. If y'all have ever 487 00:29:55,400 --> 00:29:57,840 Speaker 1: been just driving to work one morning and you think 488 00:29:57,880 --> 00:30:02,240 Speaker 1: about a session you had with that one man and 489 00:30:02,320 --> 00:30:05,720 Speaker 1: you just get like this little tingling thing. Now, I 490 00:30:05,720 --> 00:30:10,200 Speaker 1: don't get butterflies. I'm thinking about it, but I don't 491 00:30:10,200 --> 00:30:12,720 Speaker 1: never felt no imaginary dick. No, I feel like I'm 492 00:30:12,760 --> 00:30:18,400 Speaker 1: coming a little bit. Oh No, you got like for real, 493 00:30:18,840 --> 00:30:28,360 Speaker 1: something different. It's like like a little all right, next question. 494 00:30:28,440 --> 00:30:35,959 Speaker 1: Breaking up with him made me feel like Um. Breaking 495 00:30:36,040 --> 00:30:44,200 Speaker 1: up with him made me feal Um, I don't know, 496 00:30:46,120 --> 00:30:54,680 Speaker 1: like some days I could breathe easier, less stressed. Um, 497 00:30:54,760 --> 00:31:06,880 Speaker 1: Jesus Christ girl. Breaking up with him made me feel sad. 498 00:31:08,080 --> 00:31:15,200 Speaker 1: You know I feel sadness. Um, I feel hopeful. I 499 00:31:15,240 --> 00:31:17,760 Speaker 1: still have hope to find something beautiful in the future 500 00:31:17,760 --> 00:31:19,920 Speaker 1: if I can love him the way I did. I 501 00:31:20,000 --> 00:31:23,640 Speaker 1: know that I'm capable of that, and I'm grateful that 502 00:31:23,880 --> 00:31:27,320 Speaker 1: he showed me that I'm capable of that. And the 503 00:31:27,400 --> 00:31:30,920 Speaker 1: Lord will see me somebody that we're talking about the 504 00:31:30,960 --> 00:31:41,840 Speaker 1: law of today, I hear that I feel resentful because 505 00:31:41,840 --> 00:31:45,000 Speaker 1: I feel like I spent a lot of time. I 506 00:31:45,040 --> 00:31:49,920 Speaker 1: gave a lot of time away for nothing. Um. I 507 00:31:49,920 --> 00:31:52,280 Speaker 1: think that's a woman thing. I don't think men feel 508 00:31:52,320 --> 00:31:54,680 Speaker 1: resentful when they break up with us. I don't think 509 00:31:54,760 --> 00:31:58,520 Speaker 1: the way we calculate our time, men don't do that. 510 00:31:58,720 --> 00:32:03,280 Speaker 1: Men don't count up like I guess because sometimes it's 511 00:32:03,320 --> 00:32:05,680 Speaker 1: usually should happen to the happening to the woman. Or 512 00:32:05,680 --> 00:32:08,240 Speaker 1: maybe that's just how we feel, maybe we aren't taking 513 00:32:08,240 --> 00:32:11,680 Speaker 1: accountability for the roles we may have played and whatever. 514 00:32:12,440 --> 00:32:16,400 Speaker 1: But we do definitely calculate time up on a nigga, 515 00:32:16,480 --> 00:32:18,920 Speaker 1: like I could have been doing this in this amount 516 00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:20,400 Speaker 1: of time, or I could have been with so and so, 517 00:32:20,600 --> 00:32:22,600 Speaker 1: like we definitely and that causes you to keep one 518 00:32:22,600 --> 00:32:25,600 Speaker 1: foot at the door when you when you're always thinking 519 00:32:25,640 --> 00:32:28,680 Speaker 1: about what it should have could have on a nigga. 520 00:32:30,120 --> 00:32:31,680 Speaker 1: So I do have a lot of I have more 521 00:32:31,760 --> 00:32:34,680 Speaker 1: resentment towards myself, though I really don't have a lot 522 00:32:34,720 --> 00:32:39,480 Speaker 1: of resentment towards him, because when things happen in a relationship, 523 00:32:39,640 --> 00:32:42,000 Speaker 1: I'd be like, man, what the fund is it about 524 00:32:42,040 --> 00:32:44,760 Speaker 1: me that makes you think you could play with me 525 00:32:44,840 --> 00:32:47,480 Speaker 1: like this? Like? What is it about me that makes 526 00:32:47,480 --> 00:32:48,720 Speaker 1: you think you could talk to me like this? What 527 00:32:48,800 --> 00:32:52,560 Speaker 1: it is about me to make you think you? Don't? 528 00:32:53,160 --> 00:32:57,200 Speaker 1: It be their ship? Right? But but you would not 529 00:32:57,280 --> 00:32:59,640 Speaker 1: have allowed that thing to happen had you been different. 530 00:33:00,000 --> 00:33:03,640 Speaker 1: Do you see what I'm saying? I felt Another thing 531 00:33:03,680 --> 00:33:13,400 Speaker 1: I felt was devalued, like I wasn't enough. Um, I 532 00:33:13,400 --> 00:33:16,080 Speaker 1: think that's about all the feelings I had anger, no 533 00:33:16,200 --> 00:33:19,240 Speaker 1: let me And I'm lying, that's when I felt like mad, 534 00:33:20,720 --> 00:33:25,360 Speaker 1: like I want to hurt this nigger the way I'm hurting. Yeah, 535 00:33:25,520 --> 00:33:27,920 Speaker 1: that's that's some real ship. I guess that's the difference 536 00:33:27,920 --> 00:33:29,840 Speaker 1: between me when I break up with When I break 537 00:33:29,880 --> 00:33:34,800 Speaker 1: up with somebody, I just be like, like, if you different, 538 00:33:34,840 --> 00:33:37,480 Speaker 1: now is for the next woman. I don't mind giving 539 00:33:37,520 --> 00:33:40,720 Speaker 1: a woman to refurbished that nigger, like I went through 540 00:33:40,760 --> 00:33:42,959 Speaker 1: all this ship, so y'all can have a great relationship. 541 00:33:43,760 --> 00:33:48,960 Speaker 1: That's just really how I feel about it. Um. I 542 00:33:49,000 --> 00:33:51,240 Speaker 1: guess it's different. I don't know. So maybe it's different 543 00:33:51,280 --> 00:33:53,560 Speaker 1: if the woman is the one who got dumped. Not 544 00:33:53,640 --> 00:33:55,120 Speaker 1: saying that you're the one that got dumped, but I 545 00:33:55,120 --> 00:33:58,920 Speaker 1: think women would have a different um outlook on how 546 00:33:58,960 --> 00:34:02,120 Speaker 1: the relationship, like what transpired any relationship if they weren't 547 00:34:02,120 --> 00:34:04,720 Speaker 1: the one that ended it. But usually women, women are 548 00:34:04,800 --> 00:34:08,160 Speaker 1: usually the ones that leave situations. And I don't be 549 00:34:08,920 --> 00:34:11,399 Speaker 1: how I feel right now is just like I am 550 00:34:11,480 --> 00:34:16,520 Speaker 1: skeptical of the unknown, like what's next? Am I really done? Like? 551 00:34:16,600 --> 00:34:18,720 Speaker 1: Could I be back with this person? I'm just be honest. 552 00:34:18,760 --> 00:34:20,279 Speaker 1: Could I be back with him a year or two 553 00:34:20,360 --> 00:34:23,760 Speaker 1: from now? I could think about? I think about those things, 554 00:34:23,800 --> 00:34:26,680 Speaker 1: but then what I do to make sure I keep 555 00:34:26,719 --> 00:34:30,120 Speaker 1: more moving forward? As I think about all the things 556 00:34:30,160 --> 00:34:33,080 Speaker 1: that happened, I ain't like like I know I didn't 557 00:34:33,080 --> 00:34:38,600 Speaker 1: deserve and that keeps me from going back right. So 558 00:34:38,680 --> 00:34:41,560 Speaker 1: that but leads me to this question, did he betray me? 559 00:34:41,760 --> 00:34:44,960 Speaker 1: Or did I portray betray myself? In what ways did 560 00:34:45,000 --> 00:34:50,600 Speaker 1: I betray myself? I feel like in my last relationship, 561 00:34:50,880 --> 00:34:53,319 Speaker 1: I betrayed myself big time. That's why I said I 562 00:34:53,320 --> 00:34:57,400 Speaker 1: got more resentment towards me than him because earlier on 563 00:34:57,640 --> 00:34:59,800 Speaker 1: in the relationship there was a lot of things that 564 00:35:00,080 --> 00:35:03,640 Speaker 1: is happening that I overlooked because I just wanted somebody, 565 00:35:04,160 --> 00:35:06,279 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like I felt like my 566 00:35:06,400 --> 00:35:09,960 Speaker 1: connection with this person was greater than any other woman. 567 00:35:10,440 --> 00:35:13,000 Speaker 1: It was great at any situation. I loved him in 568 00:35:13,040 --> 00:35:15,399 Speaker 1: spite of like I know, a lot of men say 569 00:35:15,440 --> 00:35:18,080 Speaker 1: like women like they're the last ones to get unconditional love, 570 00:35:18,120 --> 00:35:21,919 Speaker 1: like on a scale from dogs the kids. Like, it's 571 00:35:21,960 --> 00:35:24,400 Speaker 1: just not true. I think all people. We probably have 572 00:35:24,600 --> 00:35:29,399 Speaker 1: more unconditional love for little humans, kids and dogs only 573 00:35:29,440 --> 00:35:33,520 Speaker 1: because they show unconditional love. Back between adult humans, we 574 00:35:33,560 --> 00:35:39,200 Speaker 1: don't show unconditional love. It's unconditional to a certain time period. 575 00:35:39,200 --> 00:35:40,360 Speaker 1: And then it's like, you know what, this is a 576 00:35:40,760 --> 00:35:45,440 Speaker 1: enough Yeah, it don't be unconditional at all as far 577 00:35:45,480 --> 00:35:48,000 Speaker 1: as I'm concerned. It's full of condition. Yeah, And I 578 00:35:48,040 --> 00:35:55,400 Speaker 1: just feel like, um, I definitely went against my intuition. 579 00:35:55,480 --> 00:35:58,120 Speaker 1: I went against what I knew I wanted. I went 580 00:35:58,200 --> 00:36:04,719 Speaker 1: against uh um what I knew, Like, you know, this 581 00:36:04,800 --> 00:36:07,160 Speaker 1: is this is this isn't this isn't what I deserve. 582 00:36:07,400 --> 00:36:10,839 Speaker 1: I don't deserve to begin treated like this. And I 583 00:36:10,880 --> 00:36:14,200 Speaker 1: stayed until those things stopped. But then when they stopped, 584 00:36:14,200 --> 00:36:16,640 Speaker 1: it's like it's too fucking late, like it's so much damaged. 585 00:36:16,719 --> 00:36:20,640 Speaker 1: I don't went through Now, I don't like you, right, 586 00:36:22,000 --> 00:36:23,960 Speaker 1: That's where I ended up at. So and it's not 587 00:36:24,040 --> 00:36:26,480 Speaker 1: because and and it's really some days I don't like 588 00:36:26,560 --> 00:36:33,200 Speaker 1: myself because I list somebody play with me like this, Yeah, same, 589 00:36:33,719 --> 00:36:37,000 Speaker 1: I can't even I wouldn't even my situation. I wouldn't 590 00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:40,920 Speaker 1: even say he betrayed me. I betrayed myself because I 591 00:36:41,040 --> 00:36:45,000 Speaker 1: just really believe, like them light skinned bitches, that I 592 00:36:45,000 --> 00:36:55,360 Speaker 1: could change this. I want my damny lee she but 593 00:36:55,440 --> 00:36:59,880 Speaker 1: you're not a light skin I thought I was, y'all, 594 00:37:02,960 --> 00:37:06,640 Speaker 1: and I just I played. I played myself. Congratulations, shorty, 595 00:37:06,880 --> 00:37:09,160 Speaker 1: you played yourself. That's how I did. It was me. 596 00:37:09,400 --> 00:37:11,120 Speaker 1: You know, I can't even blame him because he didn't 597 00:37:11,160 --> 00:37:15,120 Speaker 1: make me no promises. It was me trying to turn 598 00:37:15,239 --> 00:37:16,839 Speaker 1: him into what I want to happen. I knew you've 599 00:37:16,840 --> 00:37:19,080 Speaker 1: seen those posts online that said, if a woman really 600 00:37:19,080 --> 00:37:22,759 Speaker 1: loves you, shoot a lot of herself. Mm hmmm. That 601 00:37:23,560 --> 00:37:26,600 Speaker 1: and for a man to create that, I'm assuming a 602 00:37:26,640 --> 00:37:30,560 Speaker 1: man created that post. That's some real nasty ship, you 603 00:37:30,600 --> 00:37:32,359 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. Because we we will do that, 604 00:37:32,400 --> 00:37:36,920 Speaker 1: we'll see the brighter side of everything, like we'll see 605 00:37:37,000 --> 00:37:39,040 Speaker 1: some ship in you that you don't even see, and 606 00:37:39,080 --> 00:37:42,040 Speaker 1: we'll fall in love with your potential or the potential. 607 00:37:42,160 --> 00:37:44,880 Speaker 1: And that was the relationship, and right I'll turned it 608 00:37:44,880 --> 00:37:48,480 Speaker 1: I turned into and at least bit at least he 609 00:37:48,520 --> 00:37:52,280 Speaker 1: paid my bills. At least I ain't got about no weed. 610 00:37:52,920 --> 00:37:57,239 Speaker 1: At least he keep me dripped. I will don't be 611 00:37:57,280 --> 00:38:00,359 Speaker 1: an at least bitch. You are not an at least bitch. 612 00:38:00,640 --> 00:38:04,120 Speaker 1: You are the standard ladies. Stop being the at least bit. 613 00:38:04,640 --> 00:38:07,600 Speaker 1: Promise in two I won't be at least nothing. Okay, 614 00:38:08,680 --> 00:38:12,400 Speaker 1: I'm gonna be the most bitch, not the least period. 615 00:38:13,280 --> 00:38:15,759 Speaker 1: Al says the way you love him can make him 616 00:38:15,800 --> 00:38:19,640 Speaker 1: seem more special than what he really is him withholding 617 00:38:19,719 --> 00:38:22,160 Speaker 1: his love can make it seem like you're really missing 618 00:38:22,160 --> 00:38:28,239 Speaker 1: out on something, but you're not. M boo all right? 619 00:38:28,360 --> 00:38:30,400 Speaker 1: Why am I finding it so hard to let him go? 620 00:38:31,600 --> 00:38:35,279 Speaker 1: Um so again, it would be the same thing. It's 621 00:38:35,320 --> 00:38:44,080 Speaker 1: the it's the just dependability, just the having somebody you 622 00:38:44,120 --> 00:38:46,400 Speaker 1: know who's gonna show up for you. You know what 623 00:38:46,480 --> 00:38:48,360 Speaker 1: I'm saying. I'm saying that I grew up as a 624 00:38:48,440 --> 00:38:50,719 Speaker 1: child who just never had anybody show up for me 625 00:38:51,320 --> 00:38:55,160 Speaker 1: or like, I don't know, I it's just hard to 626 00:38:55,280 --> 00:38:57,400 Speaker 1: find people you can depend on. It that's just I 627 00:38:57,440 --> 00:39:01,879 Speaker 1: mean with your mate, family for ends, it's hard to find. 628 00:39:01,920 --> 00:39:04,680 Speaker 1: And I'm a dependable person, like I'm gonna come through 629 00:39:04,719 --> 00:39:08,880 Speaker 1: for you, and I feel like, you know more, My 630 00:39:09,000 --> 00:39:13,399 Speaker 1: thing isn't he was very dependable. But my thing that 631 00:39:13,760 --> 00:39:16,839 Speaker 1: makes it hard for me to let go is I 632 00:39:16,880 --> 00:39:20,960 Speaker 1: don't really I have trouble connecting with people, with men 633 00:39:21,520 --> 00:39:24,080 Speaker 1: on a deeper level. It takes me a long time 634 00:39:24,160 --> 00:39:28,920 Speaker 1: for me to feel comfortable. Can I like, can I 635 00:39:28,960 --> 00:39:32,839 Speaker 1: be around you with my wig off? Can I just 636 00:39:32,880 --> 00:39:37,359 Speaker 1: feel beautiful when I don't feel beautiful around you? Like 637 00:39:37,960 --> 00:39:41,440 Speaker 1: I just I would miss like holding all I like. 638 00:39:41,640 --> 00:39:44,880 Speaker 1: I'm so I'm a nurturer, So I like caressing and 639 00:39:45,000 --> 00:39:48,839 Speaker 1: hugging and rubbing. I'm gonna miss all that ship. Well, 640 00:39:48,880 --> 00:39:50,360 Speaker 1: I guess I can do that with the next nigga. 641 00:39:50,400 --> 00:39:51,840 Speaker 1: But I don't be wanting to the next nigga. I 642 00:39:51,840 --> 00:39:54,160 Speaker 1: don't be like, get off of me, motherfucker. Yeah. But 643 00:39:54,880 --> 00:39:57,080 Speaker 1: every reason why you may feel that way is because 644 00:39:57,120 --> 00:39:59,720 Speaker 1: you haven't let the connection go up with this person. 645 00:40:00,440 --> 00:40:02,120 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. If you don't have yourself 646 00:40:02,160 --> 00:40:04,640 Speaker 1: open to receiving that type of love from somebody else, 647 00:40:04,640 --> 00:40:07,520 Speaker 1: it don't never happen. If you keep saving space for him, 648 00:40:07,719 --> 00:40:09,799 Speaker 1: it's never gonna happen. Bitch. I need to write a 649 00:40:09,840 --> 00:40:12,319 Speaker 1: motherfucker book. I need to finish right in a motherfucking book. 650 00:40:12,360 --> 00:40:15,640 Speaker 1: How about that, like, you're not even you're not even 651 00:40:15,680 --> 00:40:18,440 Speaker 1: opening yourself up to the possibilities of being able to 652 00:40:18,480 --> 00:40:22,320 Speaker 1: get somebody else to do those things with because you 653 00:40:22,400 --> 00:40:28,920 Speaker 1: save space for this fucking nigga that's just unattainable. Yeah, 654 00:40:29,200 --> 00:40:31,800 Speaker 1: all right, and then here's this is the last question 655 00:40:31,840 --> 00:40:33,640 Speaker 1: now because I don't want to do the whole this 656 00:40:33,800 --> 00:40:41,120 Speaker 1: bitch whole book. And then she coming to us in 657 00:40:41,160 --> 00:40:46,160 Speaker 1: what ways did he bring out the worst in me? Y'all? 658 00:40:46,200 --> 00:40:47,880 Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you, I know I'd be joking on 659 00:40:47,960 --> 00:40:49,520 Speaker 1: here a lot. I'd be saying, like how I'm gonna 660 00:40:49,520 --> 00:40:53,120 Speaker 1: fight people and stuff like I am a real live fighter. 661 00:40:54,400 --> 00:40:58,279 Speaker 1: If I feel disrespected, if I feel like I don't 662 00:40:58,280 --> 00:41:01,120 Speaker 1: have a choice, like I'm a fight and I don't 663 00:41:01,120 --> 00:41:03,879 Speaker 1: want to though, so if I keep if we keep 664 00:41:03,920 --> 00:41:07,279 Speaker 1: getting to these things, that makes me feel like like 665 00:41:08,440 --> 00:41:11,440 Speaker 1: I want to attack you, like why why why are 666 00:41:11,440 --> 00:41:14,600 Speaker 1: you doing these things to me? Like and there I 667 00:41:14,640 --> 00:41:16,600 Speaker 1: believe there is a reset button on the top of 668 00:41:16,600 --> 00:41:19,359 Speaker 1: a nigger's head, like for real, you just gotta jump 669 00:41:19,440 --> 00:41:25,040 Speaker 1: up there like the damn Jordan jumped manote. We are 670 00:41:25,239 --> 00:41:28,240 Speaker 1: here and we talked back. We do not promote domestic violence. 671 00:41:28,320 --> 00:41:30,840 Speaker 1: You g so that is one of the things he 672 00:41:30,880 --> 00:41:32,880 Speaker 1: would bring out of me. No, I don't want I 673 00:41:32,880 --> 00:41:35,080 Speaker 1: don't want to be with anyone. I don't want to 674 00:41:35,120 --> 00:41:38,920 Speaker 1: be with any man that I can easily disrespect. So 675 00:41:39,040 --> 00:41:40,960 Speaker 1: I felt that I was getting to a point of 676 00:41:41,040 --> 00:41:45,560 Speaker 1: being very disrespectful, um because I just didn't care anymore. 677 00:41:45,920 --> 00:41:48,040 Speaker 1: I don't care about your feelings. I didn't care about 678 00:41:48,080 --> 00:41:50,400 Speaker 1: how you felt because I felt for the longest you 679 00:41:50,400 --> 00:41:53,520 Speaker 1: didn't give a funk about how I was feeling. So 680 00:41:53,640 --> 00:41:56,360 Speaker 1: now I'm just like, really a nasty bitch, and I 681 00:41:56,400 --> 00:41:58,800 Speaker 1: am not a nasty bitch. So I don't want to 682 00:41:58,840 --> 00:42:03,000 Speaker 1: be with anybody that brings Dad out of me. Megan 683 00:42:03,040 --> 00:42:06,360 Speaker 1: the Stallion, she was on to Rogi p Henson Show. 684 00:42:06,719 --> 00:42:10,160 Speaker 1: I think it's a podcast, but she wo was talking 685 00:42:10,160 --> 00:42:13,480 Speaker 1: about party and she was saying, how you know and 686 00:42:13,520 --> 00:42:15,640 Speaker 1: her all her other relationships. She was more about like 687 00:42:15,680 --> 00:42:18,560 Speaker 1: the physical or whatever. Right, But she was like, man, man, 688 00:42:18,600 --> 00:42:20,800 Speaker 1: my boyfriend, he really take care of my mental health. 689 00:42:21,520 --> 00:42:24,319 Speaker 1: And I felt sad here and that because I want that, 690 00:42:24,600 --> 00:42:27,760 Speaker 1: like I want somebody, Like the world is so fucking 691 00:42:27,760 --> 00:42:31,000 Speaker 1: crazy outside the walls, y'all in when I come in 692 00:42:31,080 --> 00:42:33,080 Speaker 1: here like this supposed to be my fucking safe space. 693 00:42:33,080 --> 00:42:35,279 Speaker 1: I should. I'm supposed to be able to cry, You're 694 00:42:35,280 --> 00:42:38,120 Speaker 1: supposed to be able to console me. We console each other. 695 00:42:38,400 --> 00:42:40,200 Speaker 1: I'm supposed to make you laugh. We're supposed to make 696 00:42:40,200 --> 00:42:42,840 Speaker 1: each other feel good. You're supposed to speak love, life, 697 00:42:42,880 --> 00:42:46,200 Speaker 1: and light into each other. If that's not happening, and 698 00:42:46,239 --> 00:42:48,239 Speaker 1: I'm just a maniac with you, I don't need to 699 00:42:48,280 --> 00:42:50,840 Speaker 1: be with you. But I feel like a lot of 700 00:42:50,880 --> 00:42:54,920 Speaker 1: men are literally sons of bitches like y'all were raised 701 00:42:54,960 --> 00:43:00,200 Speaker 1: by women, um who were probably verbally abusive, did have 702 00:43:00,320 --> 00:43:02,000 Speaker 1: time for you at work. You have a lot of 703 00:43:02,040 --> 00:43:04,399 Speaker 1: resentment towards the women that raise you. So you get 704 00:43:04,440 --> 00:43:06,320 Speaker 1: with women and the only way you feel love is 705 00:43:06,360 --> 00:43:10,880 Speaker 1: when I'm cussing, screaming, yelling, and kicking your ass, because 706 00:43:11,600 --> 00:43:14,919 Speaker 1: that's how you, that's you. You have a fucked up 707 00:43:15,000 --> 00:43:19,040 Speaker 1: sense of like what love is to me, love is 708 00:43:19,080 --> 00:43:22,120 Speaker 1: taking somebody else's life into consideration as if it's your own. 709 00:43:22,600 --> 00:43:24,480 Speaker 1: I don't want to fight me, I don't want to 710 00:43:24,520 --> 00:43:27,759 Speaker 1: cuss me. I want to talk nice to me. I 711 00:43:27,760 --> 00:43:33,480 Speaker 1: want to talk nice to you. Yeah, But if I'm 712 00:43:33,600 --> 00:43:37,800 Speaker 1: I'm continuously put into situations where I have to be demeaning, 713 00:43:37,920 --> 00:43:40,319 Speaker 1: and I saying I have to be. But I guess 714 00:43:40,360 --> 00:43:43,959 Speaker 1: that's a defense mechanism a lot of the times because 715 00:43:44,000 --> 00:43:48,400 Speaker 1: I can't even say that he was real. Um, I 716 00:43:48,480 --> 00:43:51,440 Speaker 1: know my my fucking levels go from zero tell hundred, 717 00:43:51,480 --> 00:43:53,920 Speaker 1: and that's one thing I'd be working on. I just 718 00:43:53,960 --> 00:43:57,320 Speaker 1: need somebody that cares about my mental health to where 719 00:43:57,520 --> 00:44:00,480 Speaker 1: I never have to get to five. I never have 720 00:44:00,560 --> 00:44:04,200 Speaker 1: to get to sixty. It's just I can talk to them. 721 00:44:04,320 --> 00:44:06,279 Speaker 1: They're not talking to me and trying to confuse me, 722 00:44:07,800 --> 00:44:09,239 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Like I feel like a 723 00:44:09,239 --> 00:44:13,640 Speaker 1: lot of times people gas like you mm hm, oh, 724 00:44:13,719 --> 00:44:16,400 Speaker 1: it's not that serious. How do you upset someone and 725 00:44:16,440 --> 00:44:18,920 Speaker 1: then tell them the severity of it? Like it ain't 726 00:44:18,920 --> 00:44:21,080 Speaker 1: even that serious. You can't tell me the severity of 727 00:44:21,080 --> 00:44:25,680 Speaker 1: a situation that pissed me the funk off. So now 728 00:44:25,719 --> 00:44:29,600 Speaker 1: here we are. But yeah, I don't want uh, I don't. 729 00:44:29,600 --> 00:44:35,120 Speaker 1: I don't like how it was in that relationship. I um, 730 00:44:35,160 --> 00:44:37,680 Speaker 1: Like I said earlier, you know, I turned into this 731 00:44:37,800 --> 00:44:41,960 Speaker 1: at least bitch, and I made excuses for why this 732 00:44:42,080 --> 00:44:46,200 Speaker 1: was okay, And this is just something to hold me 733 00:44:46,320 --> 00:44:48,520 Speaker 1: till I find where God has for me. But God 734 00:44:48,640 --> 00:44:50,200 Speaker 1: is not gonna send me. But he asked for me 735 00:44:50,200 --> 00:44:53,680 Speaker 1: while I'm still holding on this ship. You know. So 736 00:44:54,520 --> 00:44:56,759 Speaker 1: I think that was the worst of it out. I 737 00:44:57,000 --> 00:45:05,319 Speaker 1: minimized myself m in this relationship because it's satisfied some 738 00:45:05,520 --> 00:45:10,320 Speaker 1: of my knees, but not the most important ones, you know. Yeah, 739 00:45:10,400 --> 00:45:25,279 Speaker 1: So is your love language still gifts? Yeah? That ain't changed. Yeah, 740 00:45:26,080 --> 00:45:31,880 Speaker 1: some thing's never changed. Yeah, this ship got deep. Y'all 741 00:45:32,000 --> 00:45:36,080 Speaker 1: know I was a philosopher, these niggas. He I just 742 00:45:36,120 --> 00:45:39,040 Speaker 1: feel like, you know, he might have used my love 743 00:45:39,120 --> 00:45:42,440 Speaker 1: language to manipulate me in ways sometimes you know, like 744 00:45:42,719 --> 00:45:48,920 Speaker 1: or you use your love language to manipulate allowed it. Yeah. Yeah, 745 00:45:49,160 --> 00:45:51,520 Speaker 1: I was like, look at this, ysel bag. This ain't 746 00:45:51,600 --> 00:45:56,200 Speaker 1: nothing but the devil. Ain't it cute? Girl? No, that's 747 00:45:56,239 --> 00:45:58,399 Speaker 1: what you would say that girl. That man loved me. Girl. 748 00:45:58,400 --> 00:46:04,439 Speaker 1: Look where you got me that I distinctively remember last 749 00:46:04,520 --> 00:46:07,120 Speaker 1: year your birthday. He was like, girl, that man love me. Girl, 750 00:46:07,800 --> 00:46:14,520 Speaker 1: look at this, but listen, just because somebody could buy 751 00:46:14,520 --> 00:46:16,520 Speaker 1: you some ship, that does not mean they love you. 752 00:46:16,560 --> 00:46:20,960 Speaker 1: They just can afford this ship you like. But let's 753 00:46:21,000 --> 00:46:25,080 Speaker 1: let's let's also add this in there. You cannot negate 754 00:46:25,440 --> 00:46:30,279 Speaker 1: how someone loves. So that's why I always say, you 755 00:46:30,320 --> 00:46:32,360 Speaker 1: just have to find somebody with the same definition of 756 00:46:32,400 --> 00:46:35,440 Speaker 1: love as you, because just because somebody's not loving you 757 00:46:35,480 --> 00:46:38,279 Speaker 1: the way you think they should love you doesn't mean 758 00:46:38,320 --> 00:46:42,360 Speaker 1: they don't love you. That's just how they love. So 759 00:46:42,560 --> 00:46:45,279 Speaker 1: him even buying you things like he probably that that 760 00:46:45,440 --> 00:46:49,279 Speaker 1: is that's that's how he shows love, you know what 761 00:46:49,360 --> 00:46:53,439 Speaker 1: I'm saying. So you just have to identify how you 762 00:46:53,520 --> 00:46:56,080 Speaker 1: want to really be loved, Like, is him buying me 763 00:46:56,120 --> 00:46:59,239 Speaker 1: gifts how I want to be loved? It's not like, 764 00:46:59,360 --> 00:47:01,760 Speaker 1: that's how it is how I want to be loved, 765 00:47:01,800 --> 00:47:03,919 Speaker 1: And that's why we made it as far as we did. 766 00:47:04,040 --> 00:47:07,520 Speaker 1: But it's not the only way I want to be loved. 767 00:47:07,520 --> 00:47:11,600 Speaker 1: Their secondary and third positions to my love languages that 768 00:47:11,640 --> 00:47:14,960 Speaker 1: need to be needs to be able to weave through 769 00:47:15,000 --> 00:47:18,120 Speaker 1: all five and how many other love languages we can 770 00:47:18,160 --> 00:47:21,000 Speaker 1: come up with, Like, Yeah, because why is sex not 771 00:47:21,080 --> 00:47:24,000 Speaker 1: a love language? I guess that falls under physical touch. Yeah, 772 00:47:24,600 --> 00:47:29,359 Speaker 1: because sex is definitely um a way of communicating I mean, 773 00:47:29,360 --> 00:47:31,960 Speaker 1: not having good sex, like I won't talk to you 774 00:47:32,040 --> 00:47:37,200 Speaker 1: verbally and see the thing, that thing that never failed 775 00:47:37,280 --> 00:47:39,280 Speaker 1: all the way to the end. The sex is bomb. 776 00:47:39,640 --> 00:47:43,160 Speaker 1: You know, that was never a problem. It's just everything else, 777 00:47:43,520 --> 00:47:46,440 Speaker 1: all right. So it says trust that he is not 778 00:47:46,560 --> 00:47:49,279 Speaker 1: as good as it gets. Trust that you can love 779 00:47:49,280 --> 00:47:51,640 Speaker 1: again and then it can be better than the love 780 00:47:51,680 --> 00:47:55,600 Speaker 1: you're letting go. Mhm. And I want to believe that 781 00:47:56,600 --> 00:47:59,640 Speaker 1: so hard, but I'm challenged by it because I just 782 00:47:59,680 --> 00:48:02,800 Speaker 1: be looking in that like my mom and their friends, 783 00:48:02,880 --> 00:48:05,839 Speaker 1: and and just wom older women that I do their hair, 784 00:48:06,760 --> 00:48:12,160 Speaker 1: and they never they never have a man again, but 785 00:48:12,239 --> 00:48:15,399 Speaker 1: they'd be content though, they'd be fulfilling themselves and they'd 786 00:48:15,440 --> 00:48:18,040 Speaker 1: be happy. So they say, you know, I don't know 787 00:48:18,200 --> 00:48:20,640 Speaker 1: if they are for real, but they seem to be happy. 788 00:48:20,760 --> 00:48:27,879 Speaker 1: But I don't want to be happy by myself. I don't. 789 00:48:28,840 --> 00:48:30,959 Speaker 1: I don't want to be happy about myself. Y'all listen 790 00:48:30,960 --> 00:48:33,400 Speaker 1: if y'all trying to distinguish who's to Tammy got the 791 00:48:33,440 --> 00:48:37,600 Speaker 1: granny pussy voice, but she got the bomb pussy though, 792 00:48:38,280 --> 00:48:40,719 Speaker 1: calling what you want and I'm gonna get you one 793 00:48:41,320 --> 00:48:50,160 Speaker 1: to get one sound like your auntie, damn man, I 794 00:48:50,200 --> 00:48:56,560 Speaker 1: don't know. Um. I'm not afraid to be alone, and 795 00:48:56,600 --> 00:48:59,640 Speaker 1: I feel like the earlier women learn how to be 796 00:48:59,719 --> 00:49:03,919 Speaker 1: alone own and love themselves the better it is. It's 797 00:49:04,000 --> 00:49:07,640 Speaker 1: hard to be by yourself, but once you get comfortable 798 00:49:07,760 --> 00:49:10,200 Speaker 1: being with you. That's why that song Marj blinst song 799 00:49:10,320 --> 00:49:12,279 Speaker 1: is so good. This is a fifty sum yeo woman 800 00:49:13,800 --> 00:49:19,439 Speaker 1: who has finally learned that she's the ship. For How 801 00:49:19,480 --> 00:49:22,160 Speaker 1: long was she questioned herself because of the treatment she 802 00:49:22,239 --> 00:49:25,480 Speaker 1: was receiving from men like we already need these fucking 803 00:49:25,480 --> 00:49:29,040 Speaker 1: men to validate who the funk we are. If you 804 00:49:29,120 --> 00:49:31,600 Speaker 1: searching outside yourself to determine who you are, you gonna 805 00:49:31,600 --> 00:49:36,520 Speaker 1: be lost forever. And um, but I don't. I don't 806 00:49:36,600 --> 00:49:39,080 Speaker 1: feel like. I feel like I am finding myself more 807 00:49:39,239 --> 00:49:41,680 Speaker 1: as a woman. The older I get, right, and I'm 808 00:49:41,719 --> 00:49:43,840 Speaker 1: getting more in tune with who I am and what 809 00:49:43,920 --> 00:49:46,440 Speaker 1: I want. But I do want a nigger though, And 810 00:49:46,480 --> 00:49:49,719 Speaker 1: I feel like, even though this relationship is ending, I 811 00:49:49,760 --> 00:49:52,000 Speaker 1: felt like I've been alone the whole time, you know, 812 00:49:52,120 --> 00:49:54,120 Speaker 1: And I don't feel like I've really had no bout 813 00:49:55,239 --> 00:49:57,200 Speaker 1: That should be. That should then make it easier for 814 00:49:57,280 --> 00:50:00,800 Speaker 1: you to sadvertise if you already felt a known while 815 00:50:00,920 --> 00:50:03,360 Speaker 1: in a relationship, that means you're you're single in a 816 00:50:03,440 --> 00:50:09,399 Speaker 1: relationship essentially, right, It shouldn't you should never think that 817 00:50:09,440 --> 00:50:13,600 Speaker 1: you could not get another situation at least comparable to 818 00:50:13,640 --> 00:50:16,120 Speaker 1: that one. No. See, that's the thing. I don't want 819 00:50:16,120 --> 00:50:17,960 Speaker 1: that again, That's what I'm saying, Like, I don't want 820 00:50:17,960 --> 00:50:20,120 Speaker 1: to do that. But could you imagine another year going 821 00:50:20,160 --> 00:50:23,919 Speaker 1: by and you're still going through the same thing. That's 822 00:50:23,920 --> 00:50:26,000 Speaker 1: what you don't want, Like you don't want another tall 823 00:50:26,080 --> 00:50:28,799 Speaker 1: month to that. No, I can't do it. But then 824 00:50:28,800 --> 00:50:33,600 Speaker 1: that's that would be a motivation to keep putting yourself first. Um, 825 00:50:34,280 --> 00:50:36,200 Speaker 1: but I just don't want to look up and I'm 826 00:50:36,320 --> 00:50:40,520 Speaker 1: forty something and just just still find going to happen. 827 00:50:40,920 --> 00:50:43,040 Speaker 1: That's not gonna happen. You could be in a relationship 828 00:50:43,080 --> 00:50:44,719 Speaker 1: with somebody tomorrow if you wanted to be, and you 829 00:50:44,760 --> 00:50:48,280 Speaker 1: know that. I know that, like I know that about myself. 830 00:50:48,360 --> 00:50:50,279 Speaker 1: I really want to get married tomorrow. I know a 831 00:50:50,320 --> 00:50:52,879 Speaker 1: couple of things that are marry me. But I don't 832 00:50:52,880 --> 00:50:56,239 Speaker 1: just want to marry because they want me. But you can, 833 00:50:56,480 --> 00:50:59,120 Speaker 1: you can want them to. You just wasn't opening yourself 834 00:50:59,200 --> 00:51:05,560 Speaker 1: up to even wanting because you were with Mr uh Intangible, 835 00:51:05,680 --> 00:51:08,799 Speaker 1: Mr Big exactly, so you weren't even you don't even 836 00:51:08,840 --> 00:51:10,319 Speaker 1: know if you could love these people. You don't even 837 00:51:10,360 --> 00:51:11,880 Speaker 1: know if you could like these people because you just 838 00:51:12,000 --> 00:51:16,239 Speaker 1: wasn't open to it. Didn't you realize the nigga like 839 00:51:16,280 --> 00:51:18,800 Speaker 1: super Dope, you just wasn't paying attention to his ass 840 00:51:21,440 --> 00:51:26,799 Speaker 1: he could happen. I'm not scaring lit an optimistic bitch. 841 00:51:27,800 --> 00:51:29,760 Speaker 1: I haven't seen a couple of my niggas on shading 842 00:51:30,040 --> 00:51:34,200 Speaker 1: in the past. You know your problem. Why are you 843 00:51:34,200 --> 00:51:40,480 Speaker 1: fucking niggas in the shade room like Brad. That's what 844 00:51:40,640 --> 00:51:47,080 Speaker 1: I had to log logs off that made your figs. 845 00:51:47,239 --> 00:51:52,680 Speaker 1: That's a problem. There was never mind, or maybe I 846 00:51:52,880 --> 00:52:00,239 Speaker 1: was project assholes. Oh ship, all right, I'm not all right. 847 00:52:00,280 --> 00:52:02,479 Speaker 1: We're not gonna ask y'all no more questions from this book, 848 00:52:02,520 --> 00:52:06,359 Speaker 1: but you should. If you're going through something similar as 849 00:52:06,440 --> 00:52:08,919 Speaker 1: me and a j you should go ahead and grab 850 00:52:08,960 --> 00:52:11,520 Speaker 1: This book is called Getting Over Him and Back to You. 851 00:52:11,640 --> 00:52:15,160 Speaker 1: It's by Kendall d And it's a journal, right, So 852 00:52:16,320 --> 00:52:18,880 Speaker 1: the questions are laid out and then it has space 853 00:52:18,960 --> 00:52:21,319 Speaker 1: for you to write your answers in. You know, you 854 00:52:21,320 --> 00:52:24,320 Speaker 1: don't have to do them over a fucking podcast for 855 00:52:24,360 --> 00:52:26,360 Speaker 1: the world to criticize you like us. You could just 856 00:52:26,440 --> 00:52:29,160 Speaker 1: do it by yourself. So y'all get that book. It's 857 00:52:29,320 --> 00:52:32,239 Speaker 1: it's really cute and it's I think it's to help 858 00:52:32,320 --> 00:52:34,080 Speaker 1: you heal. We're gonna see what to do for me 859 00:52:34,920 --> 00:52:37,239 Speaker 1: and A J A J. You want one of these? 860 00:52:37,280 --> 00:52:38,799 Speaker 1: How bo? You want to check it out? You know, 861 00:52:38,840 --> 00:52:42,920 Speaker 1: I actually went through break up counseling. I a therapist 862 00:52:42,920 --> 00:52:48,040 Speaker 1: for breaking up. That's that's healthy. So this is why 863 00:52:48,080 --> 00:52:50,839 Speaker 1: I'm trying to stick to my things. Now. If my 864 00:52:50,960 --> 00:52:53,760 Speaker 1: ax happens to listen to this episode and he'll understand 865 00:52:53,760 --> 00:52:57,800 Speaker 1: why it's so hard to get me back. Yeah, because 866 00:52:58,200 --> 00:53:00,719 Speaker 1: so do you really try to get her in mind right? 867 00:53:00,880 --> 00:53:05,520 Speaker 1: And when you got your mind right, ship just don't slide. Yeah, 868 00:53:05,840 --> 00:53:08,680 Speaker 1: me too. I'm really trying this time. Like, and I'll y'all, 869 00:53:08,719 --> 00:53:10,719 Speaker 1: I'm gonna tell you all this. I'm broke up with 870 00:53:10,760 --> 00:53:14,520 Speaker 1: this nick about seventeen times, like you don't even know 871 00:53:14,560 --> 00:53:21,200 Speaker 1: it's been had in the game and look how you Meanwhile, 872 00:53:21,360 --> 00:53:24,120 Speaker 1: we put my whole life on the line, child, put 873 00:53:24,160 --> 00:53:27,640 Speaker 1: all the business out there and even out here flexing. 874 00:53:33,160 --> 00:53:38,040 Speaker 1: This time. I'm really done, y'all, I think, And I 875 00:53:38,080 --> 00:53:40,919 Speaker 1: would be like, did you remember you remember you said 876 00:53:41,000 --> 00:53:45,120 Speaker 1: you were done? Right? Tune in an episode forty four. 877 00:53:45,200 --> 00:53:47,880 Speaker 1: Bit when you said you was done, I'm gonna replay 878 00:53:47,920 --> 00:53:51,040 Speaker 1: it for you, because clearly you forgot an episode forty seven. 879 00:53:51,040 --> 00:53:55,560 Speaker 1: I remember it's forty seven. Y'all were coming up on 880 00:53:55,560 --> 00:53:59,960 Speaker 1: our one year anniversary. Yes, I'm playing it. I'm playing 881 00:54:00,160 --> 00:54:02,040 Speaker 1: something for us a j We're gonna do it. We're 882 00:54:02,040 --> 00:54:07,279 Speaker 1: gonna celebrate, y'all coming, y'all better pull up? What else 883 00:54:07,320 --> 00:54:10,479 Speaker 1: we got? Oh, we got a dumb bitch story. Dumb 884 00:54:10,480 --> 00:54:14,799 Speaker 1: bitch stories because we've all been a dumb bitch at 885 00:54:14,840 --> 00:54:19,399 Speaker 1: least once or twice. Okay, here, guys, hey, guys, here's 886 00:54:19,400 --> 00:54:23,040 Speaker 1: our dumb bach story of the week. All right. This 887 00:54:23,200 --> 00:54:27,640 Speaker 1: came from a Instagram follower. Uh I won't tell you 888 00:54:27,640 --> 00:54:31,680 Speaker 1: her name because it's anonymous. Um says, I actually have 889 00:54:31,840 --> 00:54:34,479 Speaker 1: plenty of dumbing stories regarding the same nigga. But here's 890 00:54:34,480 --> 00:54:38,360 Speaker 1: one of the funniest. So me and my so, me 891 00:54:38,400 --> 00:54:40,959 Speaker 1: and my man had just moved into our first spot 892 00:54:41,040 --> 00:54:44,880 Speaker 1: together on uh ten five, two thou eighteen. It was 893 00:54:44,920 --> 00:54:47,120 Speaker 1: my first time moving out of my mom's house and 894 00:54:47,120 --> 00:54:50,040 Speaker 1: I was twenty one years old. We when we moved 895 00:54:50,040 --> 00:54:53,040 Speaker 1: in together, we were not officially together. He told me 896 00:54:53,080 --> 00:54:55,600 Speaker 1: that once we moved in together, we could become official 897 00:54:55,680 --> 00:54:58,040 Speaker 1: because he had to make sure I was ready or 898 00:54:58,080 --> 00:55:01,239 Speaker 1: some dumb ship like that red f act. That ship 899 00:55:01,280 --> 00:55:03,160 Speaker 1: don't even make any sense. But I was young and 900 00:55:03,239 --> 00:55:06,200 Speaker 1: dumb so really didn't question it too much as I 901 00:55:06,239 --> 00:55:10,440 Speaker 1: should have. On October ten, we had a conversation and 902 00:55:10,480 --> 00:55:13,360 Speaker 1: made things finally official, saying that we were now in 903 00:55:13,360 --> 00:55:16,840 Speaker 1: a relationship. Bitch. That was on a Wednesday. While on 904 00:55:16,920 --> 00:55:20,000 Speaker 1: that Friday, literally two days later, this man did not 905 00:55:20,080 --> 00:55:22,640 Speaker 1: pick me up from work in my car. My sister 906 00:55:22,719 --> 00:55:24,680 Speaker 1: had to come get me. So now I'm at home 907 00:55:24,680 --> 00:55:27,600 Speaker 1: in the living room looking craziest fuck up, crying, blowing 908 00:55:27,680 --> 00:55:30,919 Speaker 1: his phone up with no answer. This man finally makes 909 00:55:30,960 --> 00:55:34,759 Speaker 1: his entrance at two a m. And I asked him 910 00:55:34,800 --> 00:55:38,360 Speaker 1: where has he been? He said, playing poker with his friends. 911 00:55:38,880 --> 00:55:41,120 Speaker 1: So he's at the microwave heating up some food with 912 00:55:41,160 --> 00:55:43,439 Speaker 1: his back turned to me. I get off the couch 913 00:55:43,480 --> 00:55:45,480 Speaker 1: to walk down the hall, and something tells me to 914 00:55:45,520 --> 00:55:48,680 Speaker 1: look at him. Why the funk was there a condom 915 00:55:48,719 --> 00:55:51,799 Speaker 1: hanging out the back of this man's jeans, like just 916 00:55:51,920 --> 00:55:54,839 Speaker 1: dangling there. I walked up to him and I said, Oh, 917 00:55:54,960 --> 00:55:57,600 Speaker 1: where did you said you was? At again, and he 918 00:55:57,719 --> 00:56:00,359 Speaker 1: repeats the same lie I snatched the con them from 919 00:56:00,360 --> 00:56:04,160 Speaker 1: his jeans. In quotation, it says very much disgusting, because 920 00:56:04,160 --> 00:56:08,560 Speaker 1: now I'm touching another bitches pussy juices. And I was like, well, 921 00:56:08,600 --> 00:56:11,560 Speaker 1: what's this, nigga? He looked like he had just seen 922 00:56:11,640 --> 00:56:14,160 Speaker 1: the ghosts. Then he looks me dead in my face, 923 00:56:14,400 --> 00:56:17,080 Speaker 1: trying to look as surprised as I am, says out 924 00:56:17,160 --> 00:56:20,040 Speaker 1: his dumb mouth, My friends must be playing a joke 925 00:56:20,120 --> 00:56:23,479 Speaker 1: on me or something. Girl, What the fuck? Why would 926 00:56:23,480 --> 00:56:26,400 Speaker 1: your friends who's thirty plus put a used condom on 927 00:56:26,440 --> 00:56:29,360 Speaker 1: the back of your jeans? Nigga? I couldnt. I was 928 00:56:29,400 --> 00:56:31,520 Speaker 1: about to swing, and he grabbed me, and I and 929 00:56:31,640 --> 00:56:34,959 Speaker 1: bear hugged me that night. That's a night I will 930 00:56:35,000 --> 00:56:37,600 Speaker 1: never forget. And then I took him back. Oh my god, 931 00:56:38,080 --> 00:56:41,839 Speaker 1: how could I be so damn dumb? Fast forward three 932 00:56:41,920 --> 00:56:45,480 Speaker 1: years later, we're still together. Sometimes it's very on and off, 933 00:56:45,480 --> 00:56:48,120 Speaker 1: in toxic, but I do live on my own and 934 00:56:48,160 --> 00:56:50,839 Speaker 1: he has his own place too. I don't put up 935 00:56:50,840 --> 00:56:52,760 Speaker 1: with half the ship I used to, and I started 936 00:56:52,760 --> 00:56:55,080 Speaker 1: doing me and the rolls had reversed at this point 937 00:56:55,239 --> 00:56:57,759 Speaker 1: where he was now going through my ship. But that's 938 00:56:57,760 --> 00:57:01,080 Speaker 1: my dumb bing story. Child. I love y'all show, Thank 939 00:57:01,160 --> 00:57:06,600 Speaker 1: y'all girl. So three years later, y'all still now he 940 00:57:07,560 --> 00:57:10,319 Speaker 1: now she doesn't started pulling the you. That's the thing 941 00:57:10,560 --> 00:57:13,480 Speaker 1: that goes back to one of the questions, Right, why 942 00:57:13,480 --> 00:57:15,200 Speaker 1: are you gonna stay with somebody to talk to guys? 943 00:57:15,280 --> 00:57:17,480 Speaker 1: Situation that long to where you start being a nigga, 944 00:57:17,800 --> 00:57:20,480 Speaker 1: to where you stopped giving a funk, to where you 945 00:57:20,680 --> 00:57:25,200 Speaker 1: start playing with him, to where you got the comming 946 00:57:26,280 --> 00:57:40,720 Speaker 1: hanging out your back pussy, your back pussy, I mean backpockets, yo, Like, 947 00:57:41,240 --> 00:57:46,680 Speaker 1: why would you list like that's not natural, that's not 948 00:57:46,680 --> 00:57:50,680 Speaker 1: that obviously obviously that wasn't natural for her, right, So 949 00:57:50,720 --> 00:57:52,560 Speaker 1: why I stay with the naked today? They turned you 950 00:57:52,600 --> 00:57:55,160 Speaker 1: into them? I'm a puller, you on you like, get 951 00:57:55,200 --> 00:57:58,360 Speaker 1: the funk up out of there? Just get out of there. Yeah, man, 952 00:57:58,480 --> 00:58:01,240 Speaker 1: just get out of there. It's not worth it. But 953 00:58:03,520 --> 00:58:08,040 Speaker 1: that's younger going through hell hella, dumb ship. You'ren't even 954 00:58:08,040 --> 00:58:10,320 Speaker 1: supposed to be like I'm not saying I do believe 955 00:58:10,360 --> 00:58:13,560 Speaker 1: you're supposed to find your meat sometime in your twenties, 956 00:58:14,680 --> 00:58:16,880 Speaker 1: at least a few like people, but to be in 957 00:58:17,000 --> 00:58:19,600 Speaker 1: like a long term serious relationship in your twenties. I don't. 958 00:58:19,800 --> 00:58:23,920 Speaker 1: It's not highly suggested from my book Living Together with 959 00:58:23,960 --> 00:58:29,480 Speaker 1: a Man. No, not my daughter. Hell no, now you 960 00:58:29,480 --> 00:58:31,040 Speaker 1: know what. I didn't want to do another episode on 961 00:58:31,080 --> 00:58:33,040 Speaker 1: SAM one day. I want to do an episode on 962 00:58:33,040 --> 00:58:35,600 Speaker 1: on Black women dating. That might be our next episode. 963 00:58:35,600 --> 00:58:37,640 Speaker 1: We'll talk about that, like do we know how to date? 964 00:58:38,920 --> 00:58:44,800 Speaker 1: Because why are you living with that's an attachment issue. Yeah, 965 00:58:44,800 --> 00:58:47,400 Speaker 1: that's very young. But some people get together and live 966 00:58:47,440 --> 00:58:50,800 Speaker 1: happily ever after. You know, just a small ass ample 967 00:58:50,840 --> 00:58:58,560 Speaker 1: size bitch, like just it's definitely like the size of 968 00:58:58,600 --> 00:59:00,440 Speaker 1: that ship. They give you a sepphoria when you use 969 00:59:00,480 --> 00:59:03,600 Speaker 1: your points. Yep, I don't want her to. I think 970 00:59:05,840 --> 00:59:10,000 Speaker 1: what could happen. She could possibly finally savertize with this guy. 971 00:59:10,320 --> 00:59:12,360 Speaker 1: And then you get with a nice man and then 972 00:59:12,400 --> 00:59:15,960 Speaker 1: play with him all type of ways because that's what 973 00:59:16,000 --> 00:59:20,040 Speaker 1: you used to. You get with someone else who's not 974 00:59:20,160 --> 00:59:22,520 Speaker 1: your ex, who may be good for you, may be 975 00:59:22,640 --> 00:59:26,880 Speaker 1: great for you, but you're guarded um and now you're 976 00:59:27,120 --> 00:59:30,000 Speaker 1: having him experienced the ship that you went through, and 977 00:59:30,040 --> 00:59:32,000 Speaker 1: then you ruin him for the next woman, and so 978 00:59:32,120 --> 00:59:35,800 Speaker 1: forth and so on, and the psychle continues, Yeah, so 979 00:59:35,960 --> 00:59:39,280 Speaker 1: just try to keep your I don't want to say innocence. 980 00:59:39,640 --> 00:59:42,520 Speaker 1: Just try to keep your nice. Try to keep your 981 00:59:42,640 --> 00:59:46,320 Speaker 1: nice to minimum. Just try to keep your nice about yourself. 982 00:59:47,280 --> 00:59:49,600 Speaker 1: I don't know did she have an actually, because you're 983 00:59:49,600 --> 00:59:51,400 Speaker 1: gonna look up and you're gonna be a whole nigga? 984 00:59:51,520 --> 00:59:54,960 Speaker 1: Did she have a question? No? It wasn't no question. 985 00:59:54,960 --> 00:59:59,120 Speaker 1: It was just a story basically how she pulled a 986 00:59:59,200 --> 01:00:01,680 Speaker 1: nasty on the amount of nigga back as. I just 987 01:00:01,680 --> 01:00:03,400 Speaker 1: don't know if I could, if I can handle it 988 01:00:03,440 --> 01:00:06,760 Speaker 1: being that blatant in my face. Why is in the 989 01:00:06,760 --> 01:00:09,360 Speaker 1: back though? That's what I'd be concerned with. Why was 990 01:00:09,360 --> 01:00:13,440 Speaker 1: the condom in the back because she might not be 991 01:00:13,640 --> 01:00:19,720 Speaker 1: dookey on itive and it might have been his damn 992 01:00:19,920 --> 01:00:21,520 Speaker 1: me just posted it out his ass and put it 993 01:00:21,520 --> 01:00:30,480 Speaker 1: on his pocket? Yo, How did it get back there? Though? 994 01:00:30,520 --> 01:00:43,000 Speaker 1: That's why I was just trying to forget Jesse Smollett. 995 01:00:43,160 --> 01:00:47,560 Speaker 1: I know we gotta go, but Jesse Smollett, Yeah, man, 996 01:00:48,680 --> 01:00:51,320 Speaker 1: how you practice how you do a practice room for 997 01:00:51,440 --> 01:00:55,640 Speaker 1: your crime is still sucking up? You know. The funny 998 01:00:55,680 --> 01:00:57,960 Speaker 1: part is how you had this relationship with this nigga? 999 01:00:58,080 --> 01:01:00,800 Speaker 1: Like when he was telling like how a relationship like 1000 01:01:00,880 --> 01:01:05,200 Speaker 1: I was like, Yo, what is happening? Listen? Don't let 1001 01:01:05,320 --> 01:01:08,880 Speaker 1: them distract y'all from the biggest case of the century though. 1002 01:01:09,000 --> 01:01:13,240 Speaker 1: That fucking gets Lae Maxi Lane. Yes, So now you 1003 01:01:13,240 --> 01:01:16,160 Speaker 1: you know black people love to be entertained. Y'all, Please 1004 01:01:16,160 --> 01:01:18,520 Speaker 1: pay attention to what the fund is happening out here 1005 01:01:19,160 --> 01:01:23,040 Speaker 1: because I really feel like our life depends on it. Yeah, 1006 01:01:23,160 --> 01:01:25,880 Speaker 1: and the lives of our kids. Man, that was out here, 1007 01:01:26,600 --> 01:01:30,600 Speaker 1: you know, doing some awful things. Man, well look into it. 1008 01:01:31,760 --> 01:01:37,920 Speaker 1: But I enjoyed this episode. Talking is definitely my therapy. 1009 01:01:37,960 --> 01:01:39,800 Speaker 1: I don't have to talk to an actual therapists. I 1010 01:01:39,840 --> 01:01:43,439 Speaker 1: just need somebody that I can talk to. I just yeah, 1011 01:01:43,480 --> 01:01:45,880 Speaker 1: I appreciate you all for listening. And sometimes you'll send 1012 01:01:45,880 --> 01:01:48,400 Speaker 1: me messages judging me. Y'all know, I don't give a fuck, 1013 01:01:48,960 --> 01:01:51,240 Speaker 1: but I do appreciate that you even tune in, So 1014 01:01:51,400 --> 01:01:55,959 Speaker 1: just continue. Thank you. Right, Look, but if you guys 1015 01:01:56,040 --> 01:01:58,800 Speaker 1: enjoyed this episode, you know what time it is. Hit 1016 01:01:58,840 --> 01:02:01,520 Speaker 1: us up on We Talked Back podcast on Instagram. 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