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Speaker 1: What's up, y'all. Welcome to this episode of Keep It Positive, Sweetie.

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Speaker 2: Today we are talking about survivor's remorse. And when I

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Speaker 2: think about survivor's remorse, the quote that comes to mind

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Speaker 2: is heavy is the head that wears the crown. And

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Speaker 2: I have with me my dear friend, my brother from

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Speaker 2: another mother, the Isaac Curry.

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Speaker 1: Oh my god. First of all, I'm so happy to

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Speaker 1: have you.

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Speaker 2: You are one of my favorite people in the world.

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Speaker 2: You are so talented, so funny. I don't know if

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Speaker 2: if y'all know Ike, but Ike is.

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Speaker 1: A comedian, Like he is so funny.

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Speaker 2: But we've known each other since like two thousand and

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Speaker 2: seven or eight, Yes, when I was still living in

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Speaker 2: DC and I ended up moving to Atlanta in two

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Speaker 2: thousand and nine, and I remember we had lunch.

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Speaker 1: It was olive Garden. I was like, bro, I don't

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Speaker 1: know what's going on. What to do? I don't know,

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Speaker 1: and he's like, unless it, I don't have talk. Have

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Speaker 1: a talk.

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Speaker 2: And the first thing you told me is you need

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Speaker 2: to find a church home. So you gave me a

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Speaker 2: list of churches and I was like, okay, and I

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Speaker 2: found a church. But that was the type of guidance

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Speaker 2: I needed, and you still still help me find church home.

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Speaker 1: One thing I ain't gonna do is.

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Speaker 3: Make sure you church.

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Speaker 2: Shout out, doctor Darius Daniels. We could change church. You

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Speaker 2: got me in there, and I'm super happy. But let's

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Speaker 2: talk about your journey. And a lot of people know

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Speaker 2: you from the gospel world, but I want to kind

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Speaker 2: of know, like how you got there, what it was like,

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Speaker 2: because a lot of people feel like they see the outcome,

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Speaker 2: but they don't see the work and things that went through,

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Speaker 2: what you went through.

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Speaker 4: First of all, I want to say thank you for

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Speaker 4: having me Like this is I'm sitting here like in

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Speaker 4: awe off, like what God has done in your life,

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Speaker 4: your journey, your heart work, your dedication, your persistence, your consistency,

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Speaker 4: Like success hasn't.

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Speaker 3: Changed you, and uh, you just got it on you.

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Speaker 3: It's on you.

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Speaker 4: And it's funny because when I look at you, it's

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Speaker 4: like your trajectory is still going up. It's like eyes

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Speaker 4: haven't seen ears, I ever heard that things that's coming.

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Speaker 4: It's like it's like I've literally had a front row

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Speaker 4: seat to see where you started and where you are.

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Speaker 4: And I'm just so proud of you, so thank you.

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Speaker 4: I just had to get that out of the way.

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Speaker 4: I had to give you a flowers because you deserve it.

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Speaker 3: Oh Man, my journey, Crystal is It's interesting. I started.

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Speaker 4: First of all, you probably wouldn't notice I dropped out

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Speaker 4: of high school to start singing.

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Speaker 3: Wow. I dropped out of high school my eleventh grade year,

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Speaker 3: So you knew this is what I want to do. Yeah,

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Speaker 3: I knew, or I was guessing she was wanting to.

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Speaker 3: But I was gonna figure this.

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Speaker 4: Up about And I'm from Greensboro, North Carolina, small city,

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Speaker 4: North Carolina, and I just had an opportunity and I

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Speaker 5: Music, traveling the world or school.

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Speaker 4: And I loved school because I was I played sports,

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Speaker 4: played basketball, played football. When I realized I was good,

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Speaker 4: but I wasn't good enough, I had to fall back

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Speaker 4: on what I knew I was good at, which was singing. Right,

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Speaker 4: So I got opportunity to travel the world with John

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Speaker 4: py Key at the age of seventeen.

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Speaker 5: Wow, and I took off.

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Speaker 3: Man, I just went and my mother was like, absolutely not.

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Speaker 4: And I literally ran away. She went, she went out

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Speaker 4: of town for a church convention.

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Speaker 1: Like you ran away from here?

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Speaker 3: Because we take what happened that's so stupid, right.

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Speaker 4: So what happened was my mother told me you can

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Speaker 4: sing with him because we traveled on the weekends. We

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Speaker 4: would travel like Fridays, Saturday, Sunday, come home Sunday night.

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Speaker 4: She said, you can go as long as on Monday

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Speaker 4: as you get up for school. I'm like, oh, that's

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Speaker 4: fair easy, let's let's go.

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Speaker 3: And I would go.

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Speaker 4: But we get home like two, three, four o'clock in

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Speaker 1: Yeah.

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Speaker 4: And then he lived in Charlotte, so the bus would

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Speaker 5: An hour to Greensboro.

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Speaker 4: Oh man, yeah, so I'm getting up a school I

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Speaker 3: So I'm like, oh god. She was like, okay, well

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Speaker 3: you don't want to travel no more. Yeah, And she

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Speaker 3: literally just drew a hardline on the sand You're not going.

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Speaker 4: The more'st done until you finish. And she went out

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Speaker 4: of town for a church conference and I moved to Charlotte.

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Speaker 4: It never came back.

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Speaker 1: This is gold, Oh my goodness.

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Speaker 3: And I didn't talk to my mama for a month.

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Speaker 4: I was scared to take her calls, and no cell

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Speaker 4: phones back then, and all that wasn't no beepers even

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Speaker 4: but I was.

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Speaker 3: I went calling home, and I think behind my back,

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Speaker 3: John had called her and told I got him.

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Speaker 4: Because my mom knew John for years. Oh wow, so

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Speaker 4: she had let him know like he had let her know.

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Speaker 5: I got him good.

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Speaker 4: But I was afraid of call because I knew if

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Speaker 4: I hurt my mama's horse, I was going.

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Speaker 5: I knew what it was like, I'm going home.

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Speaker 4: And I went to Charlotte and I figured it out,

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Speaker 4: and I started traveling the world and I fell in

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Speaker 4: love with what I was just doing at church on Sundays,

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Speaker 4: seeing the world, seeing how people responded to it, growing

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Speaker 4: seeing my gift. I was like, oh, I think I

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Speaker 4: from that it's been all gas, no break ever since then.

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Speaker 3: Literally.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, that was in nineteen ninety. So I've been doing

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Speaker 4: music professionally for thirty three years.

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Speaker 1: That's incredible.

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Speaker 4: Yeah, So it's been a journey. It's been a blessing

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Speaker 4: and I still scratch my head now. I guess we'll

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Speaker 4: getting into later on in a conversation like why God

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Speaker 4: still chooses me after all these years because I've seen

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Speaker 4: people come and go. I've seen people hit a mountain

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Speaker 5: And it's like, what is it about me that you

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Speaker 5: seeing me?

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Speaker 4: That you want people to still call my phone? You

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Speaker 4: want people to steal, you want people still interested in me.

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Speaker 4: I can't put my finger on it other than it's

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Speaker 4: the grace of God. Yeah, it's like being from North Carolina.

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Speaker 4: I was just telling my friend the other day. I

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Speaker 4: was like, Yo, I think sometimes good people have a

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Speaker 4: hard time connecting with other good peace people. It's almost

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Speaker 4: like the bad people build the relationships with good people

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Speaker 4: and then they abuse it. But when you find a

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Speaker 5: It's really hard.

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Speaker 4: And I was like, being from North Carolina, I've always

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Speaker 4: been a person who supported other people, push people, and

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Speaker 4: I'm always on the back burner. And I don't say

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Speaker 4: that from a guilt perspective. I genuinely support my friends.

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Speaker 2: You do, Yeah, I have to the mountaintop for your friends.

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Speaker 4: I have no jealous bone in my body. I don't

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Speaker 4: covet what anybody else has. I really support, But it's early,

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Speaker 4: I don't, you know, because I believe that God rewards

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Speaker 4: those who support others.

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Speaker 1: And you see what people.

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Speaker 4: God rewards those who supports others, you know, down not

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Speaker 4: trying to be jealous of you, not idous of you,

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Speaker 4: not not hitting you with the guilt of are you change? Well,

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Speaker 4: I am changing because I'm growing, But it doesn't necessarily

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Speaker 4: mean it's negative exactly. So going through that thing, that's

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Speaker 4: the things that go through my mind every day, like

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Speaker 4: why did God? Why is God still choosing me and

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Speaker 4: using me and creating opportunity, Like I'm here with you.

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Speaker 4: Anybody would die to be on this sofa, we're talking

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Speaker 4: to you. And the fact that you call me it

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Speaker 4: wasn't just because we cool. It was because you saw

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Speaker 4: something in me that you felt like added value to

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Speaker 4: what you're doing.

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Speaker 3: Right, I'm like, why God?

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Speaker 4: So that's the survivors remorse that I battle with every day.

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Speaker 4: Oh God to it like keeps me up at night,

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Speaker 4: It keeps me talking and turning because I just cannot

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Speaker 4: a sign of our humility, you know, feeling like understanding

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Speaker 4: that God wants us but he doesn't need us.

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Speaker 3: Yes, yeah, I want you. I gave you the gift.

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Speaker 4: I gave you the ability, but I can use somebody else.

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Speaker 2: But I chose you, And I think for me, it's

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Speaker 2: an immense sense of gratitude, but also knowing that I'm

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Speaker 2: not perfect.

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Speaker 1: And he continues to be like, no, it's still you go, go, go,

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Speaker 1: go go. I got you.

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Speaker 2: And I'm like, there's times where I send like, Lord,

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Speaker 2: the things I've done, and you are.

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Speaker 3: Still now you're on my street.

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Speaker 4: You're on my street now because Crystal, I know I've

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Speaker 4: done so much that I should be disqualified. I know

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Speaker 4: I've done so much that completely disqualifies me from the race. Yes,

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Speaker 4: and yet and still he's like, my my brace is

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Speaker 3: Yes, keep going going.

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Speaker 4: And here's the thing that started bothering me, probably like

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Speaker 3: And a half ago, as I saw myself.

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Speaker 4: Evolving and changing, not professionally but spiritually, emotionally, healing from

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Speaker 4: the inside out. Yes, I saw that people never see

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Speaker 5: They only see you for where you were.

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Speaker 1: That's it.

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Speaker 4: So they never really give you the We talk and

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Speaker 4: preach and hear about second chances and giving people another

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Speaker 4: chance and forgiving, but people can bring your name up

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Speaker 4: and be like, oh, hell, oh yeah, nah he did.

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Speaker 3: And he that based onf what I wished to.

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Speaker 1: He's changed, he has changed.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, he has evolved.

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Speaker 2: Yes, you know, and they looked at themselves, they would

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Speaker 2: see they are they aren't perfect, they haven't They're not

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Speaker 2: the same as they were.

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Speaker 3: Right.

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Speaker 2: People are so holier than now that they can't even

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Speaker 2: see and they hold your past against one.

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Speaker 4: And the greatest deliverance I ever got in my life

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Speaker 4: was being delivered from people, the opinions of people, how

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Speaker 5: You know.

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Speaker 4: It's like when I stopped caring about what they said

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Speaker 4: because I knew who I was and Passaderia says is

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Speaker 4: me like a ton of bricks. He said, you you

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Speaker 4: can never be happy with yourself until you see yourself

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Speaker 4: the way God sees you.

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Speaker 3: Wow. Out of the lenses are people, yes, But.

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Speaker 4: If you see yourself the way God sees you, it

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Speaker 4: changes everything exponentially.

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Speaker 3: Everything changes in your life everything. And it's like, yo,

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Speaker 3: so you.

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Speaker 4: That's why nobody can pull you down, period, because nobody

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Speaker 2: abundant living with Christal.

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00:20:12,240 --> 00:20:14,280
Speaker 1: I was like, it may not always be like and

447
00:20:14,320 --> 00:20:15,439
Speaker 1: we're gonna have to change the name of the.

448
00:20:15,800 --> 00:20:18,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, but I'm gonna tell you something. It's amazing that

449
00:20:18,760 --> 00:20:19,119
Speaker 3: you say that.

450
00:20:19,160 --> 00:20:21,760
Speaker 4: The reason that we feel that way is because the

451
00:20:21,800 --> 00:20:25,600
Speaker 4: way we were raised. We were raised, Uh, this goes

452
00:20:25,640 --> 00:20:31,120
Speaker 4: back from you know, whether it's a church upbringing, our ethnicity,

453
00:20:31,680 --> 00:20:35,080
Speaker 4: we've always been at the bottom of the barrel, trying

454
00:20:35,119 --> 00:20:37,240
Speaker 4: to claw our way out to the top, to.

455
00:20:37,359 --> 00:20:41,000
Speaker 3: Just get some light to get to the top, right, and.

456
00:20:40,840 --> 00:20:44,200
Speaker 4: When you've been fighting so long to get opportunity because

457
00:20:44,880 --> 00:20:48,640
Speaker 4: we're not necessarily known for actually helping one another, we're

458
00:20:48,920 --> 00:20:50,360
Speaker 4: because we're always competing with one another.

459
00:20:50,440 --> 00:20:53,600
Speaker 3: Yes, you know, because it's like if I help Crystal,

460
00:20:54,320 --> 00:20:55,720
Speaker 3: then Christal's going to take my shine.

461
00:20:55,800 --> 00:20:58,600
Speaker 4: Yeah, So then everybody's going to start all the light

462
00:20:58,680 --> 00:21:00,440
Speaker 4: is going to start illuminating off Chris so and then

463
00:21:00,440 --> 00:21:02,359
Speaker 4: my life's gonna get dimned and I'm a fade up.

464
00:21:02,480 --> 00:21:04,520
Speaker 3: That's not how it works, but that's how we've been trained.

465
00:21:04,880 --> 00:21:05,680
Speaker 5: That's all we saw.

466
00:21:06,280 --> 00:21:08,680
Speaker 4: And so what happens is when we have these attacks

467
00:21:08,720 --> 00:21:10,639
Speaker 4: and we have these moments.

468
00:21:11,000 --> 00:21:16,920
Speaker 3: It's almost like we don't realize that the work.

469
00:21:16,680 --> 00:21:17,440
Speaker 5: Has already been done.

470
00:21:17,560 --> 00:21:22,240
Speaker 4: What's happening in your life has already been written, Like

471
00:21:22,359 --> 00:21:25,919
Speaker 4: God already knows like this is done. The problem is

472
00:21:26,160 --> 00:21:29,119
Speaker 4: his ways are not our ways. His thoughts are not

473
00:21:29,160 --> 00:21:32,760
Speaker 4: our thoughts. So we think of God and how he

474
00:21:32,960 --> 00:21:35,119
Speaker 4: manifests things in our life the way we think of

475
00:21:35,160 --> 00:21:38,879
Speaker 4: each other. Yes, like Chris, like, oh Christal, keep spending

476
00:21:38,880 --> 00:21:43,119
Speaker 4: that money, it's gonna be broken to year. Also he

477
00:21:43,119 --> 00:21:44,800
Speaker 4: told he want to do that. You know he can

478
00:21:44,880 --> 00:21:48,000
Speaker 4: afford that car. Why would you do that? Yeah, we

479
00:21:48,040 --> 00:21:49,880
Speaker 4: see each other the way we see each other. Yes,

480
00:21:50,040 --> 00:21:51,639
Speaker 4: we don't see each other out of the lenses of

481
00:21:51,680 --> 00:21:54,600
Speaker 4: the way God sees us. So his ways on our ways,

482
00:21:54,600 --> 00:21:57,040
Speaker 4: so we can't understand his ways. So it's natural for

483
00:21:57,119 --> 00:21:58,840
Speaker 4: us to be like, oh my God, oh my God,

484
00:21:58,840 --> 00:22:00,960
Speaker 4: oh my God, because we've seen so many other people

485
00:22:01,680 --> 00:22:07,000
Speaker 4: uh doing doul a way opportunities and resources. But when

486
00:22:07,080 --> 00:22:10,040
Speaker 4: you're in God and you're with God and he's bre

487
00:22:10,240 --> 00:22:13,840
Speaker 4: and he's put the breadth of life on your career,

488
00:22:13,920 --> 00:22:17,000
Speaker 4: on your life, on your ministry, can't nothing stop that.

489
00:22:17,800 --> 00:22:23,080
Speaker 4: So it's literally being transformed by the renewing of our minds.

490
00:22:23,560 --> 00:22:26,399
Speaker 3: We have to like that moment was God reminded.

491
00:22:25,960 --> 00:22:30,200
Speaker 4: You don't fight me and I don't need your help.

492
00:22:30,280 --> 00:22:33,800
Speaker 3: Yes, I'm good, I'm good. I got this.

493
00:22:35,359 --> 00:22:40,359
Speaker 4: And when when we calm down, it's something I have

494
00:22:40,400 --> 00:22:43,760
Speaker 4: anxiety attacks. I one of my biggest things that I

495
00:22:43,760 --> 00:22:45,040
Speaker 4: struggle with in life is fear.

496
00:22:45,760 --> 00:22:47,520
Speaker 3: Fear of dying. Fear.

497
00:22:47,600 --> 00:22:49,159
Speaker 4: You know that, it's just like I can have an

498
00:22:49,200 --> 00:22:51,760
Speaker 4: anxiety attack, like at the drop of dying.

499
00:22:52,480 --> 00:22:54,919
Speaker 3: I'm like, yo. And what happens is when I went

500
00:22:54,960 --> 00:22:56,639
Speaker 3: to counseling for my counselor asked me, what do you

501
00:22:56,680 --> 00:22:58,199
Speaker 3: do to stop it?

502
00:22:58,760 --> 00:23:00,359
Speaker 4: How do you get from where you are in that

503
00:23:00,400 --> 00:23:03,440
Speaker 4: moment to the next phase? And I say, I put,

504
00:23:03,480 --> 00:23:06,720
Speaker 4: I start thinking about something else. I literally take my

505
00:23:06,800 --> 00:23:12,679
Speaker 4: mind and I don't have all the scientific neurologists sayings

506
00:23:12,680 --> 00:23:14,600
Speaker 4: that she said, but she says something one part of

507
00:23:14,600 --> 00:23:18,080
Speaker 4: your brain is it does this, but when you trigger

508
00:23:18,160 --> 00:23:22,000
Speaker 4: the other side, it actually washes away that fear, that

509
00:23:22,080 --> 00:23:24,760
Speaker 4: anxiety that you have. So she said, you didn't even

510
00:23:24,800 --> 00:23:27,159
Speaker 4: know what you were doing, but you were doing exactly

511
00:23:27,280 --> 00:23:29,280
Speaker 4: as a counselor I would tell you do you have

512
00:23:29,320 --> 00:23:31,840
Speaker 4: to think on these other things. And when you're in God,

513
00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:35,439
Speaker 4: we can quote a scripture, we can take our minds

514
00:23:35,440 --> 00:23:38,399
Speaker 4: back to something that we heard that will give us

515
00:23:38,440 --> 00:23:42,200
Speaker 4: that peace that surpasses all understanding. So it's not abnormal.

516
00:23:42,600 --> 00:23:45,520
Speaker 4: But the more we keep reminding ourselves. That's why people

517
00:23:45,720 --> 00:23:49,679
Speaker 4: have these affirmations on their mirrors, pictures in their homes,

518
00:23:49,680 --> 00:23:51,800
Speaker 4: because they need to be reminded.

519
00:23:51,400 --> 00:23:52,919
Speaker 5: Of what God said about them daily.

520
00:23:53,440 --> 00:23:57,159
Speaker 4: So that because we can't take this with us. You know,

521
00:23:57,440 --> 00:24:00,199
Speaker 4: I've never seen a hert sport, but you ho. You

522
00:24:00,240 --> 00:24:03,359
Speaker 4: know you can't when we gone, were gone.

523
00:24:03,640 --> 00:24:05,280
Speaker 3: But you can enjoy the life you have.

524
00:24:05,800 --> 00:24:10,680
Speaker 4: And sometimes survivor's remorse makes us feel guilty for being

525
00:24:10,720 --> 00:24:14,840
Speaker 4: able to enjoy what other people can enjoy, so we

526
00:24:14,920 --> 00:24:15,920
Speaker 4: try to dumb down.

527
00:24:16,480 --> 00:24:18,440
Speaker 3: Oh I got a nice watch, mom, Yep, I got

528
00:24:18,480 --> 00:24:19,120
Speaker 3: on necklaces.

529
00:24:19,640 --> 00:24:19,880
Speaker 1: Yep.

530
00:24:20,560 --> 00:24:21,920
Speaker 3: This too much, it's too much.

531
00:24:22,640 --> 00:24:25,680
Speaker 2: Yes, I felt that sometimes, I said, Christal, you worked

532
00:24:25,680 --> 00:24:26,040
Speaker 2: hard for this.

533
00:24:26,119 --> 00:24:26,720
Speaker 5: Is this what you like?

534
00:24:26,760 --> 00:24:27,399
Speaker 1: That's what you like?

535
00:24:27,840 --> 00:24:29,520
Speaker 4: Because you don't even have if people take the time

536
00:24:29,560 --> 00:24:32,159
Speaker 4: to know you, You don't even have a spirit that says,

537
00:24:32,359 --> 00:24:34,439
Speaker 4: look at me, I'm flawing. No people are look at

538
00:24:34,440 --> 00:24:35,960
Speaker 4: you because you're beautful. People are looking at you because

539
00:24:35,960 --> 00:24:38,320
Speaker 4: you're smile. People are look at you because you illuminate

540
00:24:38,640 --> 00:24:41,800
Speaker 4: good energy and good vibes. But somebody who's a hater,

541
00:24:42,600 --> 00:24:44,920
Speaker 4: somebody who's jealous of go, she just wants to see

542
00:24:44,920 --> 00:24:47,639
Speaker 4: she got on hes that's your mind. Don't project that

543
00:24:47,720 --> 00:24:51,600
Speaker 4: on me. So we internalize how people feel about us.

544
00:24:51,760 --> 00:24:52,000
Speaker 7: Yeah.

545
00:24:52,359 --> 00:24:55,560
Speaker 4: So I'm glad that you experienced that, even though I

546
00:24:55,600 --> 00:24:58,480
Speaker 4: know it was uncomfortable, because the next time, you'll know

547
00:24:58,520 --> 00:25:01,240
Speaker 4: exactly what to do. How And the fact that the

548
00:25:01,320 --> 00:25:03,400
Speaker 4: young man came you and said what he said, it's

549
00:25:03,440 --> 00:25:06,680
Speaker 4: just that reminder that Crystal, you earned this, you deserved it.

550
00:25:06,640 --> 00:25:08,359
Speaker 1: And I have to remember that you did.

551
00:25:08,640 --> 00:25:13,160
Speaker 4: And girl, it's about to get crazier. You better get

552
00:25:12,840 --> 00:25:13,840
Speaker 4: out your system now.

553
00:25:14,080 --> 00:25:20,240
Speaker 8: Yeah, thank you, absolutely, it is I know for me

554
00:25:20,320 --> 00:25:24,440
Speaker 8: when it comes to like family and friends and success,

555
00:25:25,240 --> 00:25:28,480
Speaker 8: I've had friends other people were asking well, why could

556
00:25:28,520 --> 00:25:29,600
Speaker 8: Crystal hasn't put you on?

557
00:25:30,240 --> 00:25:33,080
Speaker 2: You know, like I've had those And I said, well

558
00:25:33,119 --> 00:25:34,720
Speaker 2: what did you say? And she was like, well, I

559
00:25:34,760 --> 00:25:36,120
Speaker 2: just don't think that's our friendship.

560
00:25:36,200 --> 00:25:36,640
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying.

561
00:25:36,640 --> 00:25:40,560
Speaker 2: I feel like you support me in other ways, and

562
00:25:40,600 --> 00:25:42,800
Speaker 2: I was like yeah, and for me, it's like you

563
00:25:42,840 --> 00:25:43,959
Speaker 2: never asked me to put you on.

564
00:25:44,119 --> 00:25:46,520
Speaker 1: But do you feel like that because even my brother,

565
00:25:46,600 --> 00:25:47,440
Speaker 1: my brother was like yeah.

566
00:25:47,440 --> 00:25:50,240
Speaker 2: My friend was like you and your sister hasn't bought

567
00:25:50,240 --> 00:25:52,040
Speaker 2: your house because if my sister was making that money,

568
00:25:52,040 --> 00:25:53,920
Speaker 2: she would have and I had I brought my brother house,

569
00:25:54,320 --> 00:25:56,080
Speaker 2: but like this was before and I was just like,

570
00:25:57,119 --> 00:25:59,520
Speaker 2: I said, and what did you say? And he was

571
00:25:59,560 --> 00:26:01,080
Speaker 2: like I told And I was like, I don't expect

572
00:26:01,119 --> 00:26:03,399
Speaker 2: nothing from my sister. And he was like, and she

573
00:26:03,440 --> 00:26:04,960
Speaker 2: does that, then that's what she does. He was like,

574
00:26:05,040 --> 00:26:06,280
Speaker 2: but I don't look at it.

575
00:26:06,359 --> 00:26:09,080
Speaker 5: Like, well, if you're obligated.

576
00:26:08,640 --> 00:26:10,480
Speaker 2: You're obligated to do it. Then I was like, so

577
00:26:10,480 --> 00:26:13,159
Speaker 2: why did you tell me that? Because I feel like

578
00:26:13,200 --> 00:26:16,200
Speaker 2: you're telling me that this is how you really feel.

579
00:26:15,960 --> 00:26:18,240
Speaker 3: Too, you know, projected it on me. Yeah, you're projecting.

580
00:26:18,280 --> 00:26:21,040
Speaker 4: It's almost like I ain't saying it is what people

581
00:26:21,040 --> 00:26:21,840
Speaker 4: are saying.

582
00:26:21,880 --> 00:26:24,280
Speaker 3: Which makes you feel guilty to do something.

583
00:26:24,240 --> 00:26:25,800
Speaker 5: Like oh, should I do this for my brother?

584
00:26:25,920 --> 00:26:26,120
Speaker 3: Yeah?

585
00:26:27,720 --> 00:26:31,800
Speaker 4: You know, because people we just live in society and

586
00:26:31,840 --> 00:26:33,480
Speaker 4: it's sad to say, but we live in a society

587
00:26:33,520 --> 00:26:35,399
Speaker 4: where people don't want to work for anything. They don't

588
00:26:35,960 --> 00:26:39,400
Speaker 4: like I mean, people are still using the pandemic as

589
00:26:39,440 --> 00:26:40,720
Speaker 4: an excuse not to go back to work.

590
00:26:40,840 --> 00:26:43,199
Speaker 1: Yes, we've moved on.

591
00:26:43,400 --> 00:26:45,320
Speaker 3: We don't want to work.

592
00:26:45,440 --> 00:26:45,920
Speaker 1: Yeah.

593
00:26:46,440 --> 00:26:49,720
Speaker 3: And I believe that you get what you.

594
00:26:49,760 --> 00:26:51,280
Speaker 5: Put into a thing is what you get out of

595
00:26:51,280 --> 00:26:51,520
Speaker 5: a thing.

596
00:26:52,080 --> 00:26:56,800
Speaker 4: So Crystal, I cannot expect anything from you if I

597
00:26:56,800 --> 00:26:58,840
Speaker 4: didn't put anything in it to help you get what

598
00:26:58,880 --> 00:26:59,240
Speaker 4: you got.

599
00:26:59,400 --> 00:27:01,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, exactly, And.

600
00:27:01,040 --> 00:27:02,400
Speaker 3: Then I can't project it on you.

601
00:27:02,720 --> 00:27:06,000
Speaker 4: I have to genuinely be like yo, he's see what

602
00:27:06,080 --> 00:27:10,000
Speaker 4: happens is you get more when you do less. Like

603
00:27:10,440 --> 00:27:12,120
Speaker 4: I used to say a the time, like the way

604
00:27:12,160 --> 00:27:14,240
Speaker 4: to get anything from me, He don't ask me for nothing.

605
00:27:14,640 --> 00:27:18,160
Speaker 2: Let me tell you something right now, Tyler Perry is

606
00:27:18,400 --> 00:27:21,840
Speaker 2: the most giving person and I see people coming him

607
00:27:21,840 --> 00:27:25,280
Speaker 2: all the time. I need this or this whatever. I

608
00:27:25,320 --> 00:27:28,119
Speaker 2: don't want nothing from that man. But he's just that's

609
00:27:28,160 --> 00:27:30,000
Speaker 2: just that's just who he is. He's done more for

610
00:27:30,080 --> 00:27:32,000
Speaker 2: me than anybody in this world has ever done.

611
00:27:32,480 --> 00:27:34,000
Speaker 1: And it's just not always monetary.

612
00:27:34,440 --> 00:27:36,560
Speaker 2: Talking about even like that.

613
00:27:36,640 --> 00:27:37,240
Speaker 1: It gives me.

614
00:27:37,640 --> 00:27:40,920
Speaker 2: But the only thing I ever asked him or told

615
00:27:40,960 --> 00:27:42,640
Speaker 2: him was like, Tyler, this is what I want to do.

616
00:27:43,160 --> 00:27:46,200
Speaker 2: And it wasn't until after five years of styling him. Sure,

617
00:27:47,040 --> 00:27:50,280
Speaker 2: but that's that's a prime example of like you get

618
00:27:50,320 --> 00:27:52,040
Speaker 2: more and you don't. I don't consciously I want not

619
00:27:52,040 --> 00:27:54,000
Speaker 2: going to ask something for nothing because I want to

620
00:27:54,040 --> 00:27:56,719
Speaker 2: get something, you know, or I just never wanted him

621
00:27:56,760 --> 00:27:57,879
Speaker 2: to feel like this is another.

622
00:27:57,600 --> 00:27:58,879
Speaker 4: But but you know what probably pricked this hard. I

623
00:27:58,880 --> 00:28:01,120
Speaker 4: can't speak on his behalf, but people like him who

624
00:28:01,160 --> 00:28:05,280
Speaker 4: are successful, who are rich, who are just highly sought after,

625
00:28:06,119 --> 00:28:07,080
Speaker 4: everybody wants something.

626
00:28:07,160 --> 00:28:08,120
Speaker 1: Everybody wants something.

627
00:28:08,480 --> 00:28:11,880
Speaker 4: So when you run across a fresh person, a fresh spirit,

628
00:28:12,000 --> 00:28:16,879
Speaker 4: fresh soul that can handle being around it, but not

629
00:28:16,960 --> 00:28:20,200
Speaker 4: making you feel like I need something from you, they

630
00:28:20,280 --> 00:28:21,280
Speaker 4: never forget, Crystal.

631
00:28:22,200 --> 00:28:23,280
Speaker 3: They never forget.

632
00:28:24,040 --> 00:28:27,080
Speaker 4: It may not be when you think, when you least expected,

633
00:28:27,760 --> 00:28:32,240
Speaker 4: they never forget. And I believe that's the way you

634
00:28:32,680 --> 00:28:38,000
Speaker 4: The way up is down, that's the way of The

635
00:28:38,360 --> 00:28:41,120
Speaker 4: lower you are, the more humble you are, the more

636
00:28:41,160 --> 00:28:45,640
Speaker 4: you'll be exalted. And it's like I told somebody other

637
00:28:45,680 --> 00:28:46,280
Speaker 4: that said, yo.

638
00:28:46,840 --> 00:28:47,920
Speaker 5: I don't chase money.

639
00:28:48,760 --> 00:28:53,320
Speaker 4: No, I chase opportunity, and I chase relationships. Like when

640
00:28:53,360 --> 00:28:55,600
Speaker 4: I'm in a room with somebody great, I don't have

641
00:28:55,680 --> 00:28:57,960
Speaker 4: to be seen heard, I just want to be there

642
00:28:58,280 --> 00:29:00,880
Speaker 4: because I'm gonna get something out this room that I

643
00:29:00,920 --> 00:29:04,320
Speaker 4: can use to help me. Like when you build relationships

644
00:29:04,360 --> 00:29:07,160
Speaker 4: with people, relationships are way more valuable than money.

645
00:29:07,520 --> 00:29:08,640
Speaker 5: Money expires.

646
00:29:09,400 --> 00:29:15,200
Speaker 4: A good relationship when honored, when respected, can live a lifetime.

647
00:29:15,320 --> 00:29:17,200
Speaker 3: Yes, that will.

648
00:29:17,000 --> 00:29:20,320
Speaker 4: Produce money, that will produce opportunities.

649
00:29:20,400 --> 00:29:24,800
Speaker 2: So when you're money to go get it by yourself.

650
00:29:24,840 --> 00:29:26,760
Speaker 4: You know, Like, I'm at a place with my life

651
00:29:26,760 --> 00:29:29,239
Speaker 4: where I'm not well. I'm not going to say this

652
00:29:29,280 --> 00:29:31,600
Speaker 4: because I am rich in faith, but I'm not a

653
00:29:31,600 --> 00:29:33,040
Speaker 4: person who's like, oh I got this, I got this,

654
00:29:33,080 --> 00:29:34,920
Speaker 4: I got this. I'm not that God, but I know

655
00:29:34,960 --> 00:29:38,720
Speaker 4: I'm blessed beyond measure, and I do things now based.

656
00:29:38,560 --> 00:29:40,920
Speaker 3: Off how I feel, not based off my bills.

657
00:29:41,200 --> 00:29:44,960
Speaker 4: Yes yes, yes, Like would it kill me if I

658
00:29:45,040 --> 00:29:49,840
Speaker 4: lended my gift my talent to my friend and not charge.

659
00:29:49,600 --> 00:29:50,000
Speaker 3: You a dime?

660
00:29:50,760 --> 00:29:53,920
Speaker 4: Because I know that when people forget you, God always remembers.

661
00:29:55,680 --> 00:30:03,080
Speaker 4: So we are products of God, like people are your resource.

662
00:30:04,160 --> 00:30:05,240
Speaker 5: God is your source.

663
00:30:07,200 --> 00:30:09,160
Speaker 3: So when you get people the power that you feel

664
00:30:09,160 --> 00:30:09,840
Speaker 3: like I need you for.

665
00:30:09,800 --> 00:30:11,040
Speaker 4: This, I need you for that, I need you for this,

666
00:30:11,640 --> 00:30:15,840
Speaker 4: then that's what manipulation. No over you, using you, over

667
00:30:15,880 --> 00:30:18,720
Speaker 4: working you, underpanding you, all that comes into play. But

668
00:30:18,840 --> 00:30:21,880
Speaker 4: when you understand I want this opportunity, but God is

669
00:30:21,920 --> 00:30:24,320
Speaker 4: my source, so I'll never go with it.

670
00:30:24,440 --> 00:30:27,880
Speaker 3: I'll never lack you because He got me. Yep, you know.

671
00:30:28,120 --> 00:30:31,800
Speaker 3: So those are the things. So I love the fact

672
00:30:31,840 --> 00:30:32,760
Speaker 3: that you were.

673
00:30:32,640 --> 00:30:33,360
Speaker 5: Able to be.

674
00:30:35,080 --> 00:30:42,960
Speaker 3: Around the success, see other people smile, push them and.

675
00:30:42,200 --> 00:30:42,840
Speaker 5: And all along.

676
00:30:42,880 --> 00:30:44,280
Speaker 4: You got this dream on the inside of you that

677
00:30:44,320 --> 00:30:48,200
Speaker 4: you kept to yourself. It was time God created the opportunity.

678
00:30:48,720 --> 00:30:51,520
Speaker 4: You maximize it. And here's the key. When it came

679
00:30:51,600 --> 00:30:53,960
Speaker 4: you was ready. You didn't get ready.

680
00:30:54,080 --> 00:30:56,520
Speaker 1: You was already ready. And I wouldn't have been ready

681
00:30:56,560 --> 00:30:58,880
Speaker 1: if pray this, I.

682
00:30:58,800 --> 00:31:00,920
Speaker 4: Want this, I want that, I want this, and when

683
00:31:01,120 --> 00:31:02,720
Speaker 4: if somebody dropped it on your lap, you wouldn't know

684
00:31:02,720 --> 00:31:03,040
Speaker 4: what to do with.

685
00:31:03,160 --> 00:31:06,160
Speaker 2: No, It's like right, But everything that God put me

686
00:31:06,200 --> 00:31:09,200
Speaker 2: through in that journey, when it came, even those years

687
00:31:09,200 --> 00:31:11,040
Speaker 2: with Tyler, I was learning how to manage business.

688
00:31:11,560 --> 00:31:12,080
Speaker 1: I was learned.

689
00:31:12,200 --> 00:31:14,640
Speaker 2: No, like literally, I'm hearing the conversation like okay, this

690
00:31:14,720 --> 00:31:16,840
Speaker 2: here it is. I learned how to move in these crowds.

691
00:31:17,160 --> 00:31:19,160
Speaker 2: He's like, Crystal, you can't move like this. You need

692
00:31:19,200 --> 00:31:20,920
Speaker 2: to get your home and a trust. You need to

693
00:31:20,920 --> 00:31:21,560
Speaker 2: have security.

694
00:31:21,560 --> 00:31:23,680
Speaker 1: Why are you walking out as the door too?

695
00:31:24,560 --> 00:31:27,680
Speaker 2: Like you can't be going everywhere by yourself now, you

696
00:31:27,680 --> 00:31:29,920
Speaker 2: know what I'm saying. Even everything, He's like, why are

697
00:31:29,920 --> 00:31:31,480
Speaker 2: you doing that? No, this is what you need to do.

698
00:31:31,720 --> 00:31:33,000
Speaker 2: I'm like, okay, even.

699
00:31:32,840 --> 00:31:34,760
Speaker 1: Getting this house, I wasn't.

700
00:31:34,800 --> 00:31:40,840
Speaker 2: I was like looking at like houses and teap know yeah,

701
00:31:40,840 --> 00:31:42,480
Speaker 2: and he was like it was still like expensive, but

702
00:31:42,560 --> 00:31:44,640
Speaker 2: it was like Tyler was like, what are you doing?

703
00:31:45,240 --> 00:31:47,120
Speaker 2: He was like, I know, you feel like you just

704
00:31:47,200 --> 00:31:49,520
Speaker 2: got in the like just got one foot in the door,

705
00:31:49,560 --> 00:31:50,720
Speaker 2: but you're already through the door.

706
00:31:51,200 --> 00:31:54,200
Speaker 1: And he was like, go get the house you want.

707
00:31:54,360 --> 00:31:55,880
Speaker 2: And he was like, because what's going to happen. You're

708
00:31:55,880 --> 00:31:56,960
Speaker 2: gonna be just like me, he said, I went and

709
00:31:57,000 --> 00:31:58,320
Speaker 2: got this house. Okay, this is what I can afford.

710
00:31:58,320 --> 00:31:59,800
Speaker 2: I'm not gonna go broke if I get this house.

711
00:32:00,040 --> 00:32:02,080
Speaker 1: He said. In three years later, I was like, why

712
00:32:02,120 --> 00:32:02,960
Speaker 1: am I in this house?

713
00:32:03,400 --> 00:32:04,880
Speaker 2: And then I gotta go sell this and then get

714
00:32:04,880 --> 00:32:06,479
Speaker 2: the one I really want when you should already got

715
00:32:06,480 --> 00:32:08,160
Speaker 2: the one you want. Because God's going to keep providing.

716
00:32:08,240 --> 00:32:09,960
Speaker 2: He's going to keep he said, it's going to keep

717
00:32:10,000 --> 00:32:13,160
Speaker 2: coming Crystal. He was like, look at your trajectory, and

718
00:32:13,200 --> 00:32:14,960
Speaker 2: I look at it. Since I started working at the

719
00:32:14,960 --> 00:32:18,840
Speaker 2: studio every year since twenty twelve, my life has gotten

720
00:32:18,880 --> 00:32:23,200
Speaker 2: better and better and better, tripling, doublin, quadrupling times over.

721
00:32:23,720 --> 00:32:29,280
Speaker 2: And even to piggyback off what you said about going

722
00:32:29,320 --> 00:32:32,720
Speaker 2: down to come up when as the team that came about,

723
00:32:33,480 --> 00:32:35,360
Speaker 2: someone went to went up to Tom was like, you're.

724
00:32:35,240 --> 00:32:36,560
Speaker 1: Really gonna give Chrysal her own show?

725
00:32:36,880 --> 00:32:39,440
Speaker 2: He said, that girl sacrificed five years of her life

726
00:32:39,440 --> 00:32:41,360
Speaker 2: for me and never said a word. You think I'm

727
00:32:41,400 --> 00:32:44,719
Speaker 2: not gonna bless her like And that's the real thing.

728
00:32:44,720 --> 00:32:46,680
Speaker 3: That's the thing though. So you're blessed.

729
00:32:47,440 --> 00:32:50,240
Speaker 4: But then people wonder why is he still blessing because

730
00:32:50,280 --> 00:32:51,479
Speaker 4: it's blessing people.

731
00:32:52,320 --> 00:32:55,800
Speaker 1: Yes, And that's another thing I learned. You got to

732
00:32:55,840 --> 00:32:56,640
Speaker 1: bless people.

733
00:32:56,560 --> 00:32:59,720
Speaker 5: Got to like we are blessed to be a blessing.

734
00:33:00,040 --> 00:33:02,440
Speaker 4: That doesn't mean I have to give everything I have away, right,

735
00:33:02,600 --> 00:33:05,880
Speaker 4: That means I create opportunities for you to come up.

736
00:33:06,320 --> 00:33:08,840
Speaker 4: So it's not like Christ should do this for me. No,

737
00:33:08,920 --> 00:33:11,520
Speaker 4: what have you done for yourself? God even helps those

738
00:33:11,560 --> 00:33:12,360
Speaker 4: who help themselves.

739
00:33:12,360 --> 00:33:13,640
Speaker 1: He does, he does.

740
00:33:13,760 --> 00:33:16,200
Speaker 4: You know, you make one step, but I'll make two.

741
00:33:16,440 --> 00:33:18,640
Speaker 4: That's God waits on you to do something. Eight of

742
00:33:18,720 --> 00:33:19,360
Speaker 4: that works is dead.

743
00:33:19,440 --> 00:33:19,960
Speaker 3: You have to do.

744
00:33:19,920 --> 00:33:23,200
Speaker 4: Something for before I get behind it. You know, it's

745
00:33:23,240 --> 00:33:26,560
Speaker 4: just it's life a label. You got to give me

746
00:33:26,600 --> 00:33:30,240
Speaker 4: a product before I push your song. Yes, it's always

747
00:33:30,320 --> 00:33:32,080
Speaker 4: you have to do something. But when it comes to

748
00:33:33,200 --> 00:33:35,240
Speaker 4: people wanting something from you, it's like I don't have

749
00:33:35,280 --> 00:33:35,680
Speaker 4: to do nothing.

750
00:33:35,720 --> 00:33:37,240
Speaker 5: You should. You should give it to me.

751
00:33:37,400 --> 00:33:37,840
Speaker 1: Yeah.

752
00:33:38,160 --> 00:33:40,400
Speaker 2: No, I worked hard for this and it had needs

753
00:33:40,440 --> 00:33:41,840
Speaker 2: you to do the same. You're not gonna appreciate it

754
00:33:41,840 --> 00:33:43,960
Speaker 2: if I do give it you want. You will not

755
00:33:43,960 --> 00:33:45,840
Speaker 2: because I wouldn't appreciate it if somebody just gave it

756
00:33:45,880 --> 00:33:46,080
Speaker 2: to me.

757
00:33:46,240 --> 00:33:47,800
Speaker 3: Yeah. So I'm so.

758
00:33:48,000 --> 00:33:52,560
Speaker 4: I'm so happy that through this journey of learning and

759
00:33:52,640 --> 00:33:54,960
Speaker 4: growing and becoming successful, that.

760
00:33:54,880 --> 00:33:55,800
Speaker 5: You're still a student.

761
00:33:56,000 --> 00:33:58,200
Speaker 4: Yes, oh yeah, we never we never get to a

762
00:33:58,240 --> 00:33:59,240
Speaker 4: place where we stopped learning.

763
00:33:59,600 --> 00:34:02,760
Speaker 2: Learnce and Tyler, Like, I watched this man he's a

764
00:34:02,760 --> 00:34:06,800
Speaker 2: billionaire and still goes and sits for seventeen hours behind

765
00:34:07,360 --> 00:34:10,240
Speaker 2: some cameras making directing movies and television shows.

766
00:34:10,280 --> 00:34:13,120
Speaker 5: Because most people look like I'll pay you to do it.

767
00:34:13,239 --> 00:34:17,360
Speaker 2: Yeah, find someone else to do right for someone else

768
00:34:17,480 --> 00:34:18,960
Speaker 2: with your question.

769
00:34:20,000 --> 00:34:22,160
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be in my Buckingham Palace.

770
00:34:22,040 --> 00:34:25,759
Speaker 4: Yes, And it's like but when you're hungry, yeah, and

771
00:34:25,800 --> 00:34:26,960
Speaker 4: you remember.

772
00:34:27,400 --> 00:34:29,439
Speaker 3: I say this thing. Be a tad says is say

773
00:34:29,440 --> 00:34:30,640
Speaker 3: this thing all the time, and we laugh.

774
00:34:30,719 --> 00:34:31,880
Speaker 5: But it's it's so true.

775
00:34:32,440 --> 00:34:38,279
Speaker 9: When I think, I think wow, when I think, I think,

776
00:34:38,480 --> 00:34:40,560
Speaker 9: when I think about where I came from, when I

777
00:34:40,600 --> 00:34:42,600
Speaker 9: think about I'm not qualified to be here.

778
00:34:42,800 --> 00:34:43,560
Speaker 5: When I think.

779
00:34:43,400 --> 00:34:47,160
Speaker 4: About I was in my own way, I've done things.

780
00:34:47,200 --> 00:34:50,439
Speaker 4: I've hurt people, people hurt me. I've done so much

781
00:34:50,520 --> 00:34:53,319
Speaker 4: that should that should I should even be here. But

782
00:34:53,360 --> 00:34:56,759
Speaker 4: when I think about that, I think that's what keeps

783
00:34:56,800 --> 00:35:00,160
Speaker 4: Tyler behind the camera. That's what keeps you grinding, That's

784
00:35:00,160 --> 00:35:03,880
Speaker 4: what keeps me going. Because when we think, we think

785
00:35:03,960 --> 00:35:10,240
Speaker 4: so it's always about if you can just remember, you'll

786
00:35:10,360 --> 00:35:11,320
Speaker 4: never get comfortable.

787
00:35:11,840 --> 00:35:12,600
Speaker 1: Yep, I don't.

788
00:35:13,239 --> 00:35:14,680
Speaker 3: You'll never get comfortable.

789
00:35:14,280 --> 00:35:17,280
Speaker 1: And want to learn new skills.

790
00:35:17,440 --> 00:35:18,120
Speaker 3: Oh my god.

791
00:35:18,600 --> 00:35:21,880
Speaker 4: When I look at Lebron James from Afar, it's like

792
00:35:22,280 --> 00:35:23,560
Speaker 4: twenty years he's still playing.

793
00:35:23,920 --> 00:35:24,799
Speaker 3: You don't have to know.

794
00:35:25,320 --> 00:35:30,000
Speaker 4: He has businesses, he has everything, but he remembers where

795
00:35:30,040 --> 00:35:33,640
Speaker 4: he came from. And when you remember, you never stop

796
00:35:34,120 --> 00:35:37,680
Speaker 4: going wow, because it's now It's like, now, it's not

797
00:35:37,800 --> 00:35:40,360
Speaker 4: just about you, Crystal, No, it's not. You have people

798
00:35:40,480 --> 00:35:44,160
Speaker 4: and you have a team that depends on you, that

799
00:35:44,160 --> 00:35:46,920
Speaker 4: that eat because of you, that have that take care

800
00:35:46,920 --> 00:35:49,880
Speaker 4: of that, families because of you, and you have business

801
00:35:49,920 --> 00:35:51,160
Speaker 4: partners that bald with you.

802
00:35:51,680 --> 00:35:53,640
Speaker 3: It's like, man, come on, man, we can't stop.

803
00:35:53,640 --> 00:35:54,400
Speaker 5: We can't get comfortable.

804
00:35:54,400 --> 00:35:55,960
Speaker 4: We want time to be we don't have time to

805
00:35:56,000 --> 00:36:01,280
Speaker 4: be dealing. I can't be low calling me to be higher.

806
00:36:01,400 --> 00:36:02,200
Speaker 1: Yes, so.

807
00:36:03,680 --> 00:36:04,200
Speaker 3: That's why.

808
00:36:04,360 --> 00:36:06,759
Speaker 4: That's why I just I'm just so grateful and I'm

809
00:36:06,760 --> 00:36:08,680
Speaker 4: so thankful because I never forget where I came from.

810
00:36:08,760 --> 00:36:10,040
Speaker 1: Yeah, I love that.

811
00:36:10,120 --> 00:36:13,600
Speaker 8: I think when I think, I think, I'm definitely say

812
00:36:13,760 --> 00:36:14,280
Speaker 8: it's simple.

813
00:36:14,400 --> 00:36:15,560
Speaker 3: I love that.

814
00:36:15,560 --> 00:36:17,799
Speaker 4: That's why how do you stay so when I think

815
00:36:17,800 --> 00:36:20,600
Speaker 4: I think, I just remember where I came from, and

816
00:36:20,640 --> 00:36:21,520
Speaker 4: I'm so grateful.

817
00:36:21,760 --> 00:36:25,440
Speaker 3: Yeah, and that's all you need. Come on, man, somebody show.

818
00:36:25,280 --> 00:36:28,000
Speaker 5: You, Crystal. This is where you grew up.

819
00:36:28,680 --> 00:36:30,600
Speaker 4: This is what you should have, This is what other

820
00:36:30,600 --> 00:36:32,799
Speaker 4: people in your family have, This is what they settle for.

821
00:36:33,400 --> 00:36:36,759
Speaker 4: God gave you an opportunity. Do you think I don't

822
00:36:36,760 --> 00:36:40,640
Speaker 4: want to go back. I'm not I'm not hating. I

823
00:36:40,840 --> 00:36:41,719
Speaker 4: don't want to go back.

824
00:36:42,160 --> 00:36:46,680
Speaker 3: I love it here. I love it here, and so

825
00:36:46,840 --> 00:36:48,040
Speaker 3: that's that's it's simple.

826
00:36:49,760 --> 00:36:51,320
Speaker 1: This is so good.

827
00:36:55,320 --> 00:36:56,759
Speaker 2: We're gonna get to one of my favorite parts of

828
00:36:56,800 --> 00:36:59,440
Speaker 2: the show. It's called positive outcomes. For one of our

829
00:36:59,440 --> 00:37:01,320
Speaker 2: listeners right in and ask us something. So we're go

830
00:37:01,440 --> 00:37:02,040
Speaker 2: giving them advice.

831
00:37:02,120 --> 00:37:05,120
Speaker 3: Let's go all right, we probably gave it to them.

832
00:37:05,120 --> 00:37:07,280
Speaker 2: You're right, right, and thus it happens a lot of times,

833
00:37:07,280 --> 00:37:09,080
Speaker 2: like we actually touched on this.

834
00:37:09,080 --> 00:37:10,120
Speaker 1: This one says, hey, chrs.

835
00:37:10,160 --> 00:37:12,080
Speaker 2: So first, I'd like to say that I'm extremely proud

836
00:37:12,080 --> 00:37:13,799
Speaker 2: of you and everything you're doing out here.

837
00:37:13,880 --> 00:37:15,000
Speaker 1: You are truly a queen.

838
00:37:15,680 --> 00:37:18,480
Speaker 2: I always said that you inspire that you inspire how

839
00:37:18,520 --> 00:37:21,480
Speaker 2: I carry myself. I'm a professional singer and I've done

840
00:37:21,480 --> 00:37:24,400
Speaker 2: a lot of background singing for likes of John Legend,

841
00:37:24,480 --> 00:37:28,239
Speaker 2: Jennifer Hudson, Pala Bell, just name a few, Okay, okay, yeah,

842
00:37:29,160 --> 00:37:29,520
Speaker 2: m hmm.

843
00:37:29,600 --> 00:37:30,120
Speaker 3: It's good.

844
00:37:30,280 --> 00:37:31,240
Speaker 1: Yeah.

845
00:37:31,600 --> 00:37:33,560
Speaker 2: Just because I work with some really big names, my

846
00:37:33,680 --> 00:37:35,719
Speaker 2: family thinks that I am famous and I have a

847
00:37:35,719 --> 00:37:36,360
Speaker 2: lot of money.

848
00:37:36,840 --> 00:37:37,600
Speaker 1: I know what you mean.

849
00:37:37,760 --> 00:37:41,400
Speaker 2: Yes, therefore they ask me for money and expect tickets

850
00:37:41,400 --> 00:37:42,280
Speaker 2: to all the shows.

851
00:37:42,840 --> 00:37:44,080
Speaker 1: How do I know you.

852
00:37:44,400 --> 00:37:48,960
Speaker 4: Wait a minute, you're on my street, young lady.

853
00:37:49,760 --> 00:37:52,560
Speaker 2: How do I make them understand that this success is

854
00:37:52,719 --> 00:37:55,839
Speaker 2: not is not theirs, but it's mine and that if

855
00:37:55,880 --> 00:37:57,960
Speaker 2: I can help them, then I will, but.

856
00:37:57,920 --> 00:38:00,120
Speaker 1: They should remove their sense of entire.

857
00:38:02,840 --> 00:38:07,800
Speaker 2: Baby girl, my goodness, I was you know what that happening?

858
00:38:07,880 --> 00:38:10,719
Speaker 2: When I started like working closely with Tyler, like I

859
00:38:10,760 --> 00:38:14,000
Speaker 2: would get calls by play, and when he does the plays,

860
00:38:14,360 --> 00:38:17,399
Speaker 2: they wanted tickets, and like I had connection, I could

861
00:38:17,400 --> 00:38:21,600
Speaker 2: get like four tickets per show. But I would start

862
00:38:21,600 --> 00:38:23,600
Speaker 2: getting those and then people like, oh, well you around Tyler.

863
00:38:23,600 --> 00:38:26,120
Speaker 2: I know you getting this same thing with my brother.

864
00:38:26,600 --> 00:38:30,439
Speaker 2: So I would tell you definitely let them know hey,

865
00:38:31,840 --> 00:38:33,880
Speaker 2: because a lot of people have a misconception that just

866
00:38:33,880 --> 00:38:36,239
Speaker 2: because you're on TV or on stage that you have

867
00:38:36,360 --> 00:38:37,560
Speaker 2: a lot of money.

868
00:38:37,520 --> 00:38:39,120
Speaker 1: And that's not always the case.

869
00:38:39,600 --> 00:38:41,160
Speaker 2: And be honest with them and say, hey, this is

870
00:38:41,200 --> 00:38:43,480
Speaker 2: the real because sometimes what they're seeing is not what

871
00:38:43,560 --> 00:38:45,400
Speaker 2: it really is. I would say, be honest with them,

872
00:38:45,440 --> 00:38:47,480
Speaker 2: say hey, this is what I'm really making, Like I

873
00:38:47,520 --> 00:38:49,200
Speaker 2: don't have all that money, and what I do have,

874
00:38:49,560 --> 00:38:51,839
Speaker 2: I got to take care of me. I'm not there

875
00:38:51,920 --> 00:38:54,120
Speaker 2: yet where I can take care of everybody else. And

876
00:38:54,160 --> 00:38:55,719
Speaker 2: I've been in that position where I like, I hope

877
00:38:55,719 --> 00:38:58,920
Speaker 2: that one day I can, but if there were seasons

878
00:38:58,920 --> 00:39:00,960
Speaker 2: in my life where I wasn't there, so I would

879
00:39:01,000 --> 00:39:02,640
Speaker 2: just be honest with them and let them know exactly

880
00:39:02,640 --> 00:39:05,120
Speaker 2: where you are. And when it comes to the entitlement,

881
00:39:05,160 --> 00:39:06,640
Speaker 2: I've dealt with that too, and that's like one of

882
00:39:06,719 --> 00:39:10,120
Speaker 2: my biggest pet piece is when people are entitled to

883
00:39:10,200 --> 00:39:12,640
Speaker 2: what I have going on, and I would tell people

884
00:39:12,680 --> 00:39:13,560
Speaker 2: that makes me uncomfortable.

885
00:39:13,600 --> 00:39:14,560
Speaker 1: I don't like when you do that.

886
00:39:14,800 --> 00:39:17,120
Speaker 2: I've had to have those conversations with family and my

887
00:39:17,200 --> 00:39:20,640
Speaker 2: friends as I continue to ascend. So I would just

888
00:39:20,680 --> 00:39:22,520
Speaker 2: be honest, you know, I would just say, keep it

889
00:39:22,520 --> 00:39:23,960
Speaker 2: honest with everybody, sweetie.

890
00:39:24,200 --> 00:39:25,520
Speaker 3: Yes, I love that.

891
00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:26,520
Speaker 5: I love that.

892
00:39:27,040 --> 00:39:29,959
Speaker 4: If I could add to that, I would say people

893
00:39:30,040 --> 00:39:33,080
Speaker 4: have to learn how to manage your expectations. You know,

894
00:39:33,560 --> 00:39:37,400
Speaker 4: people have these expectations of you and they're really unfair

895
00:39:37,480 --> 00:39:41,800
Speaker 4: because the moment I don't meet your expectation, I'm already feeling.

896
00:39:44,040 --> 00:39:47,920
Speaker 5: So where you set the bar on where.

897
00:39:47,800 --> 00:39:50,640
Speaker 4: Your expectations are, yeah, no matter how high low they are.

898
00:39:51,160 --> 00:39:53,680
Speaker 4: And then the moment I do anything that doesn't line

899
00:39:53,719 --> 00:39:57,480
Speaker 4: up what your expectations are I'm funny, I'm different, I'm changing. Yes,

900
00:39:57,520 --> 00:39:59,719
Speaker 4: So people have to learn how to manage the expectations.

901
00:40:00,080 --> 00:40:03,239
Speaker 4: The other thing I would say is if there's not

902
00:40:03,320 --> 00:40:07,400
Speaker 4: a covenant relationship, then you're not entitled.

903
00:40:07,600 --> 00:40:08,359
Speaker 5: Don't call me for no.

904
00:40:08,320 --> 00:40:10,000
Speaker 4: Tickets if we ain't talked in three weeks, if we

905
00:40:10,040 --> 00:40:12,239
Speaker 4: ain't talked in three months, hello, like I have.

906
00:40:12,360 --> 00:40:13,520
Speaker 3: I've been on tour and people.

907
00:40:13,400 --> 00:40:15,520
Speaker 5: Ask me for tickets. I ain't talked to in years.

908
00:40:15,840 --> 00:40:18,359
Speaker 4: I'm like, what gives you the unmitigated gaul to feel

909
00:40:18,360 --> 00:40:19,680
Speaker 4: like you can pick up your phone and call me

910
00:40:19,719 --> 00:40:21,080
Speaker 4: and ask me when we.

911
00:40:21,040 --> 00:40:24,160
Speaker 5: Don't even talk. Literally and real.

912
00:40:24,000 --> 00:40:28,480
Speaker 4: Friends, real family, people who love you, support you. They

913
00:40:28,520 --> 00:40:33,200
Speaker 4: don't mind paying. They don't mind paying when they really

914
00:40:33,360 --> 00:40:38,800
Speaker 4: support you. Like every like like nothing is given, everything

915
00:40:38,920 --> 00:40:42,600
Speaker 4: is earned. So do not carry the weight of somebody

916
00:40:42,640 --> 00:40:43,719
Speaker 4: else's expectations.

917
00:40:44,200 --> 00:40:44,720
Speaker 1: That's good.

918
00:40:45,520 --> 00:40:46,120
Speaker 3: They do not.

919
00:40:46,160 --> 00:40:49,640
Speaker 4: Feel like you're obligated to do anything for anybody that.

920
00:40:51,480 --> 00:40:51,839
Speaker 3: You're not.

921
00:40:52,440 --> 00:40:55,919
Speaker 4: You're not like again, like if they love you, girl,

922
00:40:56,160 --> 00:40:57,080
Speaker 4: I'm coming to the concert.

923
00:40:57,200 --> 00:40:57,759
Speaker 3: I have no money.

924
00:40:57,760 --> 00:40:59,480
Speaker 4: I'm in the nose, believe, but I'm at then I

925
00:40:59,640 --> 00:41:02,160
Speaker 4: might something might move to my like oh, I'm not.

926
00:41:02,080 --> 00:41:02,839
Speaker 3: Somebody moved you down.

927
00:41:02,920 --> 00:41:04,000
Speaker 1: Ye, I'll get you backstage out.

928
00:41:04,120 --> 00:41:06,759
Speaker 4: Yeah, because people want to be around people who support them.

929
00:41:07,200 --> 00:41:09,359
Speaker 4: I'm a friend that's on tour right now. Not only

930
00:41:09,400 --> 00:41:11,320
Speaker 4: am I giving my time, I give, but I bought tickets.

931
00:41:11,360 --> 00:41:14,080
Speaker 4: I didn't even use me to bless somebody else.

932
00:41:14,200 --> 00:41:15,360
Speaker 1: I bought tics. I couldn't even go.

933
00:41:15,440 --> 00:41:17,600
Speaker 2: I said, I'm still gonna get tickets just so I support.

934
00:41:17,680 --> 00:41:19,239
Speaker 1: Because that's that's what you do.

935
00:41:19,520 --> 00:41:22,319
Speaker 4: That's what you're doing. The Crystal started to clothing line

936
00:41:22,320 --> 00:41:23,040
Speaker 4: and started something.

937
00:41:23,400 --> 00:41:24,080
Speaker 3: I'm going by it.

938
00:41:24,160 --> 00:41:26,880
Speaker 4: I propagated even wed, but I'm gonna buy and bless

939
00:41:26,920 --> 00:41:30,160
Speaker 4: my wife, bless my daughter, blessed somebody else because friends

940
00:41:30,480 --> 00:41:34,840
Speaker 4: support friends. So again, don't get caught up in that

941
00:41:34,920 --> 00:41:38,080
Speaker 4: thing where you're trying to match the expectations. Ask them

942
00:41:38,120 --> 00:41:38,799
Speaker 4: to adjust theirs.

943
00:41:39,080 --> 00:41:42,600
Speaker 1: Yep, that's good. You got that, sweetie, all right, I

944
00:41:42,640 --> 00:41:44,440
Speaker 1: love it. That was good. All Right.

945
00:41:44,440 --> 00:41:46,919
Speaker 2: We're gonna do what I'm going through and what I'm

946
00:41:47,000 --> 00:41:50,680
Speaker 2: growing and for me, oh lord, this is a good one,

947
00:41:51,560 --> 00:41:54,399
Speaker 2: especially when it comes to what we just talked about.

948
00:41:54,800 --> 00:42:01,400
Speaker 2: I am going through accepting where I am my life

949
00:42:01,840 --> 00:42:08,960
Speaker 2: and honestly controlling my my expectations of where I should

950
00:42:09,000 --> 00:42:11,080
Speaker 2: be and try not to community and get.

951
00:42:10,920 --> 00:42:11,640
Speaker 1: Ahead of myself.

952
00:42:12,120 --> 00:42:16,239
Speaker 2: And then I'm growing through understanding that I'm in a

953
00:42:16,280 --> 00:42:19,880
Speaker 2: season where it's okay to be about me, you know,

954
00:42:20,080 --> 00:42:22,800
Speaker 2: because you spend so many years your life just folks

955
00:42:22,840 --> 00:42:25,960
Speaker 2: on everybody else, given, given, given, given, and it's like, Okay,

956
00:42:26,120 --> 00:42:28,200
Speaker 2: this this year, I gotta I gotta get.

957
00:42:28,080 --> 00:42:28,640
Speaker 1: My house in order.

958
00:42:28,680 --> 00:42:31,120
Speaker 2: I got to make sure crystals good and not not

959
00:42:31,239 --> 00:42:34,040
Speaker 2: just the house, my house, my soul.

960
00:42:34,560 --> 00:42:38,080
Speaker 1: So knowing that I'm growing through that, knowing that it's.

961
00:42:37,880 --> 00:42:41,279
Speaker 2: Okay to focus on you and it's not selfish because

962
00:42:41,400 --> 00:42:43,520
Speaker 2: it's not saying it's all about me. I'm still making

963
00:42:43,560 --> 00:42:46,120
Speaker 2: sure people are good, but there are some areas in

964
00:42:46,120 --> 00:42:47,560
Speaker 2: my life where I'd be like, no, I can't do that.

965
00:42:47,800 --> 00:42:49,560
Speaker 2: I need to do this for me right now so.

966
00:42:49,440 --> 00:42:52,080
Speaker 1: That I can puarantine you absolutely. So that's what I'm

967
00:42:52,080 --> 00:42:53,000
Speaker 1: going through, what I'm growing.

968
00:42:53,040 --> 00:42:53,480
Speaker 5: I love that.

969
00:42:53,520 --> 00:42:55,200
Speaker 4: I love that because you can't be good for anybody

970
00:42:55,200 --> 00:42:58,360
Speaker 4: else until you're good for yourself, you know. And you're

971
00:42:58,400 --> 00:43:00,480
Speaker 4: a weird season too, because you have to.

972
00:43:00,400 --> 00:43:07,040
Speaker 7: Be very careful, prayerful, and watchful because from relationships, whether

973
00:43:07,040 --> 00:43:12,880
Speaker 7: it be friends, family, even men because beautiful, you're single,

974
00:43:13,040 --> 00:43:14,520
Speaker 7: and everybody want to be with Crystal.

975
00:43:17,520 --> 00:43:21,480
Speaker 4: They they ain't ready, That's what they are. They ain't

976
00:43:21,520 --> 00:43:26,200
Speaker 4: ready because if you ain't bringing more than what I

977
00:43:26,239 --> 00:43:28,440
Speaker 4: already got, and you can't do for me what I've

978
00:43:28,480 --> 00:43:30,400
Speaker 4: already done for myself, you had no value.

979
00:43:30,680 --> 00:43:32,960
Speaker 5: So you have to understand. It's just a weird spaceship.

980
00:43:33,520 --> 00:43:36,000
Speaker 4: But I think, like you said, working on your house

981
00:43:36,600 --> 00:43:39,759
Speaker 4: and your soul, it gives you that desernment and that

982
00:43:40,000 --> 00:43:43,880
Speaker 4: foresight to see up the street and around the corner.

983
00:43:44,200 --> 00:43:46,359
Speaker 4: You know, for me, what I'm going through and growing

984
00:43:46,400 --> 00:43:51,200
Speaker 4: through is I'm in a weird place. I don't know

985
00:43:51,239 --> 00:43:54,680
Speaker 4: what this is go air, but I'm either I'm turning fifty.

986
00:43:54,360 --> 00:43:59,440
Speaker 5: Or I'm already fifty. But this year I'll be fifty.

987
00:44:00,160 --> 00:44:05,960
Speaker 4: And for me, the fear of getting older. Grateful that

988
00:44:06,040 --> 00:44:08,399
Speaker 4: I'm alive, but the fear of getting older and still

989
00:44:08,440 --> 00:44:11,839
Speaker 4: being relevant. The enemy has trying to plague me with that,

990
00:44:12,640 --> 00:44:16,200
Speaker 4: like getting older this is a young man's game, and

991
00:44:16,239 --> 00:44:18,160
Speaker 4: it's like, well, I ain't not here trying to take

992
00:44:18,200 --> 00:44:20,000
Speaker 4: off my clothes. I ain't trying to take off my

993
00:44:20,000 --> 00:44:22,799
Speaker 4: shirt and same you know, you know I still can

994
00:44:22,840 --> 00:44:25,759
Speaker 4: do what I do at a high level because I stay,

995
00:44:25,880 --> 00:44:27,719
Speaker 4: I work on my craft, I work hard at it,

996
00:44:27,800 --> 00:44:29,719
Speaker 4: and so and so forth. So that's one thing that

997
00:44:29,719 --> 00:44:30,480
Speaker 4: I'm going through.

998
00:44:31,280 --> 00:44:34,520
Speaker 5: At the same time, I have two older kids.

999
00:44:34,880 --> 00:44:38,080
Speaker 4: I have a twenty nine year old daughter and a

1000
00:44:38,120 --> 00:44:42,719
Speaker 4: twenty five year son, and that relationship has always been

1001
00:44:42,800 --> 00:44:51,920
Speaker 4: strained for so many different reasons. Whether it's what we've

1002
00:44:51,920 --> 00:44:54,040
Speaker 4: been talk about pretty much all day. People can look

1003
00:44:54,080 --> 00:44:56,239
Speaker 4: at your life and think that you have more than

1004
00:44:56,239 --> 00:44:59,000
Speaker 4: what you have, or their perception of your success is

1005
00:44:59,000 --> 00:45:01,759
Speaker 4: bigger than what it actually is. Yeah, So that expectation

1006
00:45:01,960 --> 00:45:05,000
Speaker 4: of if you did this for me, if you did

1007
00:45:05,000 --> 00:45:06,080
Speaker 4: this for me, then.

1008
00:45:05,920 --> 00:45:07,959
Speaker 3: I could be I could be here, I can get there.

1009
00:45:08,480 --> 00:45:11,480
Speaker 4: It's like, but you're grown now, and I've done my

1010
00:45:11,520 --> 00:45:16,120
Speaker 4: part as a father, and the guilt of the guilt

1011
00:45:16,120 --> 00:45:19,520
Speaker 4: that I allowed people to put on me because I

1012
00:45:19,520 --> 00:45:20,839
Speaker 4: didn't do it the way they felt like I could

1013
00:45:20,880 --> 00:45:25,279
Speaker 4: do it without understanding why I went through what I

1014
00:45:25,320 --> 00:45:28,080
Speaker 4: went through. It's been a strange place, Like my daughter

1015
00:45:28,960 --> 00:45:31,600
Speaker 4: just got married, Wow, and I was.

1016
00:45:31,600 --> 00:45:32,239
Speaker 5: In a weird place.

1017
00:45:32,280 --> 00:45:33,840
Speaker 3: I was like, do I go?

1018
00:45:34,280 --> 00:45:36,680
Speaker 4: I was like, Okay, I'm going because relationships been so

1019
00:45:36,719 --> 00:45:38,439
Speaker 4: weird when I say, do I go? Like I wanted

1020
00:45:38,480 --> 00:45:40,320
Speaker 4: to go, but I didn't know if I would be received.

1021
00:45:40,360 --> 00:45:42,080
Speaker 4: I didn't know what the expectation would.

1022
00:45:41,840 --> 00:45:47,399
Speaker 3: Be, but it was. I went, and then I came home.

1023
00:45:47,440 --> 00:45:48,759
Speaker 3: That's I went that Saturday.

1024
00:45:49,080 --> 00:45:51,240
Speaker 4: I came home that Saturday night, and then that Sunday

1025
00:45:51,280 --> 00:45:53,239
Speaker 4: went to church and I was at the Ultra Crown

1026
00:45:53,280 --> 00:45:58,840
Speaker 4: all day, right besides you, because it was almost like

1027
00:45:58,880 --> 00:46:04,160
Speaker 4: God was saying, you won't carry that guilt anymore, you

1028
00:46:04,160 --> 00:46:07,719
Speaker 4: won't carry that shame anymore. You won't have to give

1029
00:46:07,760 --> 00:46:10,520
Speaker 4: it an explanation for what I know you did, right,

1030
00:46:11,400 --> 00:46:16,440
Speaker 4: you know. And so growing through that and releasing myself

1031
00:46:16,480 --> 00:46:21,160
Speaker 4: from the guilt this shame has been a process because

1032
00:46:21,200 --> 00:46:25,520
Speaker 4: sometimes we hold on the things that God has already

1033
00:46:25,520 --> 00:46:33,640
Speaker 4: thrown away. Jesus, Yeah, it's like, oh yeah, what about again.

1034
00:46:33,640 --> 00:46:36,600
Speaker 4: It's almost like this, like oh you're about that. Yeah,

1035
00:46:37,960 --> 00:46:40,480
Speaker 4: I got you, but this time it's gone for good.

1036
00:46:40,960 --> 00:46:43,600
Speaker 4: It's almost like, my that's my interpretation of how God

1037
00:46:43,640 --> 00:46:45,360
Speaker 4: sees us. We come back to him stuff he's already

1038
00:46:45,360 --> 00:46:48,560
Speaker 4: forgot about. He has to recall it because he's already

1039
00:46:48,560 --> 00:46:52,360
Speaker 4: released us. We haven't released our said, And that's the

1040
00:46:52,520 --> 00:46:56,200
Speaker 4: that's what I'm growing through and I feel so free.

1041
00:46:55,920 --> 00:47:00,320
Speaker 4: I feel so liberated because it's like yoel, like it

1042
00:47:00,400 --> 00:47:03,320
Speaker 4: was the one thing that I didn't release myself from

1043
00:47:03,360 --> 00:47:06,040
Speaker 4: and now that I've released that, now I'm out of

1044
00:47:06,080 --> 00:47:08,080
Speaker 4: the way and God can do the other things that

1045
00:47:08,080 --> 00:47:09,000
Speaker 4: he wants to do in my life.

1046
00:47:09,040 --> 00:47:12,520
Speaker 3: So that's what I'm growing through and going through it.

1047
00:47:12,880 --> 00:47:14,680
Speaker 1: That's so good. Thank you for sharing that.

1048
00:47:14,680 --> 00:47:16,000
Speaker 3: Absolutely, that's so good.

1049
00:47:16,320 --> 00:47:20,200
Speaker 2: Okay, So we do keep it blank, sweetie. And from

1050
00:47:20,200 --> 00:47:23,360
Speaker 2: what we talked about, one of the things, especially dealing

1051
00:47:23,400 --> 00:47:27,480
Speaker 2: with survivors remorse is for me, I would say, keep

1052
00:47:27,520 --> 00:47:31,520
Speaker 2: it moving, sweety. When you feel like this no longer

1053
00:47:31,560 --> 00:47:33,000
Speaker 2: serves you, just keep it moving.

1054
00:47:34,080 --> 00:47:36,640
Speaker 3: Keep it moving, sweetie, I would say, keep it humble, sweety.

1055
00:47:37,040 --> 00:47:37,480
Speaker 1: That's good.

1056
00:47:37,719 --> 00:47:38,440
Speaker 3: Keep it humble.

1057
00:47:38,680 --> 00:47:43,000
Speaker 4: Yes, you know, if you stay small enough long enough,

1058
00:47:43,000 --> 00:47:46,320
Speaker 4: God will make you big enough soon enough. Just stay

1059
00:47:46,400 --> 00:47:51,839
Speaker 4: stay low, chiller, stay humble, you know, and God will

1060
00:47:51,920 --> 00:47:52,720
Speaker 4: exalt you.

1061
00:47:52,719 --> 00:47:53,360
Speaker 5: You know, you don't have to.

1062
00:47:53,320 --> 00:47:55,839
Speaker 3: Tell everybody what you got. You gotta tell aybody all the.

1063
00:47:55,800 --> 00:47:56,399
Speaker 5: Moves you're making.

1064
00:47:57,080 --> 00:48:01,400
Speaker 4: Just chill, you know, stay humble, stay low, and because

1065
00:48:01,840 --> 00:48:04,080
Speaker 4: like I told you, what's coming is better than what's being.

1066
00:48:04,719 --> 00:48:07,120
Speaker 5: So if you just stay humble, it's easy.

1067
00:48:07,120 --> 00:48:08,520
Speaker 3: So stay humble, sweetie.

1068
00:48:08,200 --> 00:48:09,200
Speaker 1: Stay humble, Sweetie.

1069
00:48:09,239 --> 00:48:13,040
Speaker 2: Oh my goodness, I oh, I have been blessed the

1070
00:48:13,040 --> 00:48:17,600
Speaker 2: way I've been blessed. Goodness, this is so good, so good.

1071
00:48:18,000 --> 00:48:20,200
Speaker 2: Thank you guys so much for tuning in to keep

1072
00:48:20,239 --> 00:48:22,880
Speaker 2: it positive, sweetie. If you want to write into our

1073
00:48:22,920 --> 00:48:26,399
Speaker 2: positive outcomes, right in to keep it positive, Sweetie at

1074
00:48:26,440 --> 00:48:30,080
Speaker 2: gmail dot com. You guys can follow me on all

1075
00:48:30,120 --> 00:48:33,560
Speaker 2: platforms at love l U V Crystal Renee, I tell

1076
00:48:33,600 --> 00:48:34,520
Speaker 2: them where they can find you.

1077
00:48:34,520 --> 00:48:36,640
Speaker 4: You can find me on Instagram at ike Nice, I

1078
00:48:36,760 --> 00:48:38,319
Speaker 4: k E n Ice.

1079
00:48:38,880 --> 00:48:40,920
Speaker 1: Uh do you have music thing coming out?

1080
00:48:41,280 --> 00:48:43,640
Speaker 4: I'm actually in the studio working on some stuff now,

1081
00:48:43,719 --> 00:48:45,960
Speaker 4: so you'll hear about that. And I'm trying, you know,

1082
00:48:46,040 --> 00:48:47,560
Speaker 4: Crystal got me this acting thing.

1083
00:48:47,600 --> 00:48:50,160
Speaker 3: We've been talking. Man, give me some to play by play.

1084
00:48:50,360 --> 00:48:52,920
Speaker 1: So I'm you booked something to What was your first?

1085
00:48:53,120 --> 00:48:57,680
Speaker 4: I did a Christmas movie on Lifetime called Kirk Frank's.

1086
00:48:59,360 --> 00:49:00,279
Speaker 5: Christmas Movie with them.

1087
00:49:01,280 --> 00:49:02,120
Speaker 3: I got my movie.

1088
00:49:02,480 --> 00:49:05,040
Speaker 1: I can't forget your first, right, It's okay.

1089
00:49:04,840 --> 00:49:07,680
Speaker 4: Anyway, Yeah, I did a movie and it was exciting

1090
00:49:07,960 --> 00:49:10,760
Speaker 4: and I got bit oh heah by the acting.

1091
00:49:10,760 --> 00:49:15,840
Speaker 3: But yeah, can I really do this. Yes, yes, you

1092
00:49:15,880 --> 00:49:18,520
Speaker 3: can't keep going do this, do this, and do this.

1093
00:49:18,600 --> 00:49:21,319
Speaker 4: And I started running the play so yeah, I'm here,

1094
00:49:21,520 --> 00:49:23,520
Speaker 4: I'm playing on we turn it up.

1095
00:49:23,640 --> 00:49:24,160
Speaker 3: Turn it up.

1096
00:49:24,360 --> 00:49:26,480
Speaker 1: Yes, And first of all, you do not look fifty.

1097
00:49:26,760 --> 00:49:27,640
Speaker 1: I was the saying, come on.

1098
00:49:28,280 --> 00:49:28,480
Speaker 7: Yeah.

1099
00:49:28,600 --> 00:49:30,400
Speaker 1: I was the same way when I turned forty last year.

1100
00:49:30,400 --> 00:49:32,600
Speaker 1: I didn't I didn't even forty. I turned forty last year.

1101
00:49:32,600 --> 00:49:34,200
Speaker 2: I didn't even want to put on imitation how I

1102
00:49:34,280 --> 00:49:36,239
Speaker 2: was turning, because you know how the industry is.

1103
00:49:36,320 --> 00:49:38,320
Speaker 4: Like Chris, I probably you like you, I know you

1104
00:49:38,400 --> 00:49:40,040
Speaker 4: in your twenties, but you look like it, and I

1105
00:49:40,040 --> 00:49:41,040
Speaker 4: didn't think you was in your forty.

1106
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Speaker 1: Yeah I just turned forty.

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Speaker 3: Wow.

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Speaker 2: Yeah, so like I feel the same. I felt the

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Speaker 2: same way.

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Speaker 3: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: I think it was a thing where I was like, okay,

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Speaker 2: you know what, just be grateful because people aren't making

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Speaker 2: it to forty, and be grateful that because people aren't

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Speaker 2: making it to fifty any of the other And you're like,

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Speaker 2: how many.

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Speaker 1: More years do I have? You know, might have another

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Speaker 1: good thirty on this earth.

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Speaker 4: Tell you if I'm taking care of myself, my skin, everything,

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Speaker 4: I'm just trying to stay right and I'm gonna ne

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Speaker 4: sa y'all seem like this body gonna be right right.

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Speaker 1: Listen, Okay, we're gonna be consistent. All right, Thank you

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Speaker 1: guys so much.

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Speaker 2: Tune in next week or we're talking about so many

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Speaker 2: great things, and in the meantime, keep a

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Speaker 3: Constant seated by y'all,