WEBVTT - and Raquel Leviss 0:00:13.480 --> 0:00:15.400 Hey, are you cool cats and kittens. 0:00:15.560 --> 0:00:18.520 It's La La Kent with Ryan with. 0:00:22.200 --> 0:00:26.080 We have a super dope guest today. She is poised, 0:00:26.160 --> 0:00:28.960 she is elegant, and she is a gangster when it 0:00:29.000 --> 0:00:30.960 comes to taking the wrath of La La Kent. Her 0:00:31.080 --> 0:00:34.840 name is Raquel, motherfucking Levice God. 0:00:36.479 --> 0:00:38.959 I gotta tell you the reason I'm excited about having 0:00:39.000 --> 0:00:42.720 Raquel on is the fact that you two have all 0:00:42.760 --> 0:00:46.120 this stuff going on about whatever to going at it 0:00:46.280 --> 0:00:49.360 or whatever whatever, and she is the sweetest human and 0:00:49.400 --> 0:00:51.280 you have the biggest heart in the world. So I 0:00:51.320 --> 0:00:54.560 don't understand any of this shit, but I am excited 0:00:54.600 --> 0:00:56.760 to have her because I don't know Raquel that well. 0:00:56.800 --> 0:00:59.760 I know we're obviously just saying hi at different things, Yeah, totally. 0:00:59.800 --> 0:01:02.040 But I'm excited to get to know her because she's 0:01:02.080 --> 0:01:05.119 always so nice to me, so genuine so and I'm 0:01:05.160 --> 0:01:07.119 sure you too will talk and we'll hear that. 0:01:07.080 --> 0:01:07.480 Part of it. 0:01:07.520 --> 0:01:10.160 But yeah, I'm just glad you two are are talking 0:01:10.240 --> 0:01:13.160 and friends and whatever it was, we'll we'll get into. 0:01:13.240 --> 0:01:15.560 But I just got to tell you, Raquel, you know, 0:01:15.640 --> 0:01:17.080 there's a lot of people on your show and a 0:01:17.120 --> 0:01:20.160 lot of different personalities and raquel from day one, no 0:01:20.160 --> 0:01:20.720 matter what. 0:01:20.640 --> 0:01:21.360 Has been going on? 0:01:21.480 --> 0:01:23.200 So sweet. 0:01:23.319 --> 0:01:26.640 So let me ask you a question, Miss Lalla, so 0:01:28.200 --> 0:01:29.480 soon to be, missus Lala. 0:01:31.240 --> 0:01:34.560 We're we're in quarantine here on week three hundred. Yeah, 0:01:34.600 --> 0:01:37.880 it's getting it's getting now. Am I right to say 0:01:38.080 --> 0:01:41.080 that when we first got into quarantine, I had just 0:01:41.080 --> 0:01:42.720 gotten home. So you're already a weekend? 0:01:43.080 --> 0:01:43.319 Yes? 0:01:43.560 --> 0:01:45.560 I got home day one. I think I went in 0:01:45.600 --> 0:01:49.120 a full depression, like what is going on? What just happened? 0:01:49.160 --> 0:01:51.720 And you already had been in like a week right 0:01:52.800 --> 0:01:56.520 week two, I was like bouncing off the walls, going nuts, 0:01:56.520 --> 0:01:58.920 renting r v's, you know, going to our house in 0:01:58.960 --> 0:02:02.120 Palm Springs, blah blah blah. You were happy as a clamp. 0:02:02.440 --> 0:02:04.559 I saw you drawing every day. You have four hundred 0:02:04.600 --> 0:02:06.200 coloring books here in front of us, and so you're 0:02:06.240 --> 0:02:09.640 laughing right here. You've got lizards, you're drawing, You've got 0:02:09.919 --> 0:02:12.639 I don't know, you've got states and countries. You were 0:02:12.680 --> 0:02:15.359 having the time of your life. Yes, not only were 0:02:15.360 --> 0:02:18.959 you coloring. Then we built our we extended our pickleball court, right, 0:02:19.040 --> 0:02:21.639 and now we've been playing pickleball. That's been awesome, totally 0:02:21.960 --> 0:02:27.440 so professional coloriss, professional pickleball player, swimmer, step mom, everything, 0:02:27.880 --> 0:02:29.920 and you have been the best attitude. And I've been 0:02:29.960 --> 0:02:31.080 in the like the. 0:02:31.480 --> 0:02:33.880 Dems, and I've even PMS while in quarantine. 0:02:33.919 --> 0:02:36.000 Okay, that was a rough four days that those four 0:02:36.080 --> 0:02:37.440 days were off, but we made it through all that, 0:02:37.480 --> 0:02:42.799 and you kept a great attitude totally. Yesterday yesterday, Yeah, 0:02:42.840 --> 0:02:44.040 I feel like you hit the wall. 0:02:44.440 --> 0:02:46.919 Yeah, I'm hitting a wall. 0:02:47.080 --> 0:02:48.519 Yeah. Today today you can. 0:02:48.440 --> 0:02:52.200 Only color and give myself so many facials before I 0:02:52.240 --> 0:02:54.280 want to fucking shoot everybody. 0:02:55.440 --> 0:02:58.200 Okay, I'm looking at you, and at least you're admitting 0:02:58.240 --> 0:03:01.079 it because you know, you have had the most positive attitude. 0:03:01.120 --> 0:03:01.880 Baby, I swear to you. 0:03:01.919 --> 0:03:04.080 Every day I've been like, well, because I'm anti social. 0:03:04.160 --> 0:03:06.200 So for me, it's like, oh, don't leave your houses, 0:03:06.280 --> 0:03:06.680 I'm like. 0:03:06.760 --> 0:03:11.320 Uh, for you, three weeks of no gym, three weeks 0:03:11.360 --> 0:03:14.359 of not seeing any of your friends, any of your friends, 0:03:14.480 --> 0:03:16.160 yeah takes a toll. 0:03:16.320 --> 0:03:18.400 Yeah, I mean all of my friends are homebodies, so 0:03:18.440 --> 0:03:20.079 like if we don't see each other for a minute, 0:03:20.080 --> 0:03:24.040 like at least we text and whatnot. The gym is. 0:03:24.160 --> 0:03:25.680 Killing me, and the gym is people. 0:03:25.720 --> 0:03:28.120 Well, the gym sets the tone for my whole day, 0:03:28.240 --> 0:03:29.160 and I want to tell people. 0:03:29.160 --> 0:03:31.600 People don't know this. So normally our schedule. 0:03:31.240 --> 0:03:33.520 Is we wake up, we talked about this, we did, 0:03:33.639 --> 0:03:34.200 we have talked. 0:03:34.200 --> 0:03:36.280 Okay, so you don't want me to repeat it. 0:03:36.280 --> 0:03:38.760 Well, I would prefer to talk about something different if 0:03:38.800 --> 0:03:39.840 we've already spoken about it. 0:03:40.160 --> 0:03:45.240 I'm a repeater though, Okay, okay, but going backwards, just 0:03:45.280 --> 0:03:47.560 saying when you go to the gym, it is your 0:03:47.760 --> 0:03:49.800 kind of first window of the day after your call. 0:03:50.120 --> 0:03:52.560 Yes, And I've told people a hundred times. If I 0:03:52.640 --> 0:03:55.120 don't have a trainer, I am not working out. My 0:03:55.160 --> 0:03:57.720 ass is getting flat. I've lost weight. 0:03:58.240 --> 0:04:01.240 You have lost weight? Is that a thing? Because I don't. 0:04:01.280 --> 0:04:02.680 I mean, you're skinny already. 0:04:02.840 --> 0:04:05.640 People they're like, oh, that's great me. I want thick, 0:04:05.920 --> 0:04:07.720 thick ass. I don't want that, and I don't want 0:04:07.720 --> 0:04:08.920 to freaking thigh gap. 0:04:09.040 --> 0:04:09.200 You know. 0:04:09.280 --> 0:04:11.200 I'm trying to be thicky thick bitch over here, which 0:04:11.200 --> 0:04:14.200 is why really? Yeah, so I squat a lot. It's 0:04:14.200 --> 0:04:16.479 why I eat a lot. But I think it's because 0:04:17.080 --> 0:04:20.520 Jenna works my ass out so hard that my body 0:04:20.600 --> 0:04:23.279 is like needing fuel all the time. 0:04:23.360 --> 0:04:24.240 I just want to preface this. 0:04:24.360 --> 0:04:27.159 Whatever however you say you look right now, I think 0:04:27.160 --> 0:04:29.120 you look stunning, thank you, And I think you look 0:04:29.160 --> 0:04:30.920 people every day and that is the truth. And you 0:04:30.960 --> 0:04:32.840 know I say that day, thank you. But what I 0:04:32.839 --> 0:04:35.479 do want to say is we've hit this wall, both 0:04:35.520 --> 0:04:39.400 of us. Yeah, and we're looking outside. It's pouring rain 0:04:39.520 --> 0:04:42.760 right now, and we're just like, you know, when does 0:04:42.800 --> 0:04:43.480 it end? 0:04:44.279 --> 0:04:46.640 And we feel like I'm in the Walking Dead kind of. 0:04:46.680 --> 0:04:49.960 Yes, like this is our this is our base, this 0:04:50.040 --> 0:04:50.640 is our camp. 0:04:50.760 --> 0:04:53.880 And the kids are the walkers because they're stuck at 0:04:53.880 --> 0:04:54.520 home all day. 0:04:54.600 --> 0:04:56.320 Everybody's stuck, are we? 0:04:56.800 --> 0:04:58.720 And I hear them coming up the stairs to l 0:04:58.760 --> 0:05:02.600 l la la la, shut the door. 0:05:05.000 --> 0:05:07.280 You know, people don't people who don't a lot of 0:05:07.279 --> 0:05:09.800 people who listen I have kids, but people don't have kids. 0:05:09.920 --> 0:05:12.599 Let me just tell you I love being with my children. 0:05:12.640 --> 0:05:15.200 The people that have kids know exactly what works. 0:05:15.040 --> 0:05:16.960 That's I'm but I'm trying to tell the people that don't. 0:05:17.320 --> 0:05:20.000 So people who don't have children, who are young, you know, 0:05:20.080 --> 0:05:22.800 or having our kids yet or whatever, you know, you 0:05:22.880 --> 0:05:24.840 love your kids and you love every minute with them. 0:05:24.839 --> 0:05:27.240 And people know I love Riley and London obsessively, and 0:05:27.279 --> 0:05:27.760 so do you. 0:05:27.600 --> 0:05:30.920 You. But here's the thing. When they don't go to 0:05:31.000 --> 0:05:33.640 school and you have to try to be creative in 0:05:33.640 --> 0:05:34.119 your home. 0:05:34.400 --> 0:05:36.400 You can only color so much, you can only play 0:05:36.520 --> 0:05:39.200 Jenga so much. You can only play Hide. 0:05:38.920 --> 0:05:43.120 And seek, swim pickle, run them into. 0:05:42.920 --> 0:05:44.320 The ground so many times. 0:05:44.400 --> 0:05:47.000 Yes, before you're run into the ground by freaking three 0:05:47.000 --> 0:05:48.240 o'clock exactly. 0:05:48.320 --> 0:05:51.160 But you know, so we so we face that, and 0:05:51.640 --> 0:05:54.760 and I just think, look, I think we're halfway through 0:05:54.760 --> 0:05:55.400 this quarantine. 0:05:55.440 --> 0:05:57.400 I think we're on starting to head towards the other side. 0:05:57.640 --> 0:05:59.920 I've read a lot of articles that say the curves 0:06:00.040 --> 0:06:02.240 aren't happen, the numbers are lower than they thought. 0:06:02.279 --> 0:06:04.840 Look, we don't know yet, but I am optimistic. 0:06:04.880 --> 0:06:05.599 I avoid the news. 0:06:05.600 --> 0:06:08.119 I don't know shit I know, but I'm optimistic seeing 0:06:08.120 --> 0:06:10.599 a lot of headlines lately that seem like they're going 0:06:10.600 --> 0:06:11.320 in the right direction. 0:06:11.400 --> 0:06:13.000 So knock on wood, hopefully. 0:06:12.600 --> 0:06:15.160 Will All I know is my mother has put two 0:06:15.240 --> 0:06:19.400 baskets in the entryway, one full of masks, one full 0:06:19.440 --> 0:06:24.240 of gloves, and another full of lyesol. And that means, 0:06:24.400 --> 0:06:26.800 obviously we're stepping our game up. You can't come in 0:06:26.839 --> 0:06:28.680 the house without those, and you can't leave the house 0:06:28.720 --> 0:06:31.600 without those, so clearly is popping off. 0:06:32.400 --> 0:06:33.000 It's popping off. 0:06:33.000 --> 0:06:34.680 But at the same time, right now we're in a 0:06:34.720 --> 0:06:37.480 real serious lockdown this week, and they're saying that hopefully 0:06:37.520 --> 0:06:41.080 we'll hit our peak. But having said that, it does 0:06:41.560 --> 0:06:44.440 make me think about, like, when this quarantine's over and 0:06:44.480 --> 0:06:46.040 we go back to work, we go back to our 0:06:46.080 --> 0:06:52.279 lives or whatever version the appreciation I'm gonna have for traffic, 0:06:52.680 --> 0:06:55.680 I'm telling you, when I get in traffic to go 0:06:55.720 --> 0:06:58.479 to the office, yeah, I'm gonna be like, thank god, 0:06:58.800 --> 0:07:00.720 I can go to the office. So I just think 0:07:00.760 --> 0:07:03.600 people are going to be a hope more tolerant and 0:07:04.279 --> 0:07:06.440 appreciative of the small things in life that. 0:07:06.400 --> 0:07:09.280 We used to take for granted, right Like I used 0:07:09.279 --> 0:07:11.640 to sit there and be like, ugh, I have to 0:07:11.680 --> 0:07:16.000 go to, like, you know, a meeting today. Do you 0:07:16.080 --> 0:07:17.880 know how much money I would give to go to 0:07:17.920 --> 0:07:20.239 a meeting instead of be like here's the zoom link. 0:07:21.440 --> 0:07:21.760 I mean. 0:07:21.840 --> 0:07:23.360 And by the way, you know, not only. 0:07:23.160 --> 0:07:26.720 Are you asking me to log into something I'm technologically challenged, 0:07:27.040 --> 0:07:30.160 but you're asking me to get ready to sit at 0:07:30.160 --> 0:07:31.480 home in front of a computer. 0:07:31.640 --> 0:07:32.119 It's tough. 0:07:32.200 --> 0:07:34.480 It's tough, and I'll tell you, and for you, I 0:07:34.520 --> 0:07:36.560 got to give you a lot of credit to stay 0:07:37.040 --> 0:07:40.480 You have stayed sober, you have done your homework with 0:07:40.560 --> 0:07:41.200 your sponsor. 0:07:41.680 --> 0:07:43.000 And I'm sure for a lot of. 0:07:42.920 --> 0:07:46.320 People who fight addiction having to be quarantined, not be 0:07:46.320 --> 0:07:49.000 able to drive to their typical weekly meeting that some 0:07:49.000 --> 0:07:49.600 people have been. 0:07:49.480 --> 0:07:50.840 Going twenty years. 0:07:50.960 --> 0:07:51.960 Zoom, it's all on zoom. 0:07:52.000 --> 0:07:53.960 But for twenty years some of these people or thirty 0:07:54.040 --> 0:07:56.280 years have been sober going to the same weekly meeting, 0:07:56.280 --> 0:07:58.680 the same routine. I give a lot of people a 0:07:58.720 --> 0:08:01.680 lot of credit right now for fighting to stay sober 0:08:01.720 --> 0:08:05.920 and staying the course, because you know, it's already tough enough. 0:08:05.960 --> 0:08:08.000 I'm sure to stay sober, but to stay sober in 0:08:08.200 --> 0:08:08.760 your house. 0:08:08.960 --> 0:08:12.080 I'm really happy that you brought that up, because I 0:08:12.080 --> 0:08:16.440 feel like everyone is, you know, so consumed with getting 0:08:16.560 --> 0:08:18.840 sick and getting this virus and what do we do 0:08:18.920 --> 0:08:23.640 to prevent getting it that we also have to think 0:08:23.680 --> 0:08:28.680 about the fact that my people, my fellow alcoholics and addicts, 0:08:29.720 --> 0:08:34.839 don't get to go to meetings that are keeping them sober. Yeah, way, 0:08:34.880 --> 0:08:38.080 they're having to do the work on their own, calling 0:08:38.120 --> 0:08:41.720 their sponsor, but they don't have they don't have. Most 0:08:41.760 --> 0:08:44.280 people don't know this. Just getting in the car to 0:08:44.360 --> 0:08:48.280 go to a meeting is keeping people sober, and they 0:08:48.280 --> 0:08:50.120 don't have that anymore. And by the way, we have 0:08:50.200 --> 0:08:52.640 to log onto a computer and I get it. It's like, okay, 0:08:52.640 --> 0:08:55.319 well they still have the meeting, but it's different. It 0:08:55.360 --> 0:08:57.800 is different. So I give so many people that have 0:08:57.880 --> 0:09:01.000 been going to those meetings for ten twenty years that 0:09:01.080 --> 0:09:03.840 they're still fucking fighting for their sobriety. Those are the 0:09:03.840 --> 0:09:04.880 people that inspire me. 0:09:05.120 --> 0:09:07.720 And I want to second that, just when I've gone 0:09:07.760 --> 0:09:10.600 to your the meetings with you to support you, watching 0:09:10.640 --> 0:09:13.319 the speakers and the inspiration and kind of the community 0:09:13.320 --> 0:09:16.160 that comes around you, watching the love that you get, 0:09:16.200 --> 0:09:18.559 you know, of being sober in the celebratory and when 0:09:18.559 --> 0:09:20.360 I went to your one year you know, watching you 0:09:20.440 --> 0:09:24.080 speak like that, I get it, like I get it. 0:09:24.160 --> 0:09:26.320 And to not have that right now, for you not 0:09:26.360 --> 0:09:27.400 to be able to just get in the car and 0:09:27.440 --> 0:09:30.320 say I'm having a shitty two days. You know, I'm stressed, 0:09:30.360 --> 0:09:32.920 as like everybody else in the world, I'm going to 0:09:32.960 --> 0:09:34.440 go to my meeting and talk it out. 0:09:35.320 --> 0:09:35.920 You can't do that. 0:09:36.240 --> 0:09:38.599 There are people rand that have been going to the 0:09:38.760 --> 0:09:41.160 who have been sober for like forty plus years and 0:09:41.160 --> 0:09:42.400 they go to a meeting and you look in the 0:09:42.440 --> 0:09:45.199 corner and they're like falling asleep, and it's like, but. 0:09:45.280 --> 0:09:46.720 They went to the meeting. 0:09:46.760 --> 0:09:48.840 They got in the car and they went to their meeting. 0:09:49.160 --> 0:09:51.320 Exactly the point they went to the meeting, and it 0:09:51.320 --> 0:09:53.679 doesn't matter. And maybe that week they were falling asleep. 0:09:53.679 --> 0:09:54.880 In the next week they needed the meeting. 0:09:54.920 --> 0:09:55.360 They know. 0:09:55.320 --> 0:09:58.320 What I'm saying is that people people take out. It's like, oh, 0:09:58.360 --> 0:09:59.760 but you can still tune in. It's like, but you 0:09:59.800 --> 0:10:02.080 don't understand the power of getting into your car and 0:10:02.160 --> 0:10:03.920 driving to that meeting. That's what I'm saying. 0:10:03.960 --> 0:10:07.200 And I give you so much respect. I tell you 0:10:07.240 --> 0:10:07.679 this all the time. 0:10:07.720 --> 0:10:10.679 Your biggest accomplishment, and when I have gone to meetings 0:10:10.679 --> 0:10:15.040 with you to support you, watching you just you. 0:10:15.000 --> 0:10:16.560 Know, every time you came out of a meeting that 0:10:16.720 --> 0:10:17.480 I was with you. 0:10:17.480 --> 0:10:20.559 At, you were l liked, you were like floating, it 0:10:20.720 --> 0:10:23.360 was like church exactly. So for you not to have 0:10:23.400 --> 0:10:25.280 that and have to do it on the phone or 0:10:25.280 --> 0:10:28.720 in zoom. Look, I've been doing meetings or meetups with 0:10:28.760 --> 0:10:29.320 my friends. 0:10:29.360 --> 0:10:31.240 You know that kind of stuff on the zoom. Yeah, 0:10:31.280 --> 0:10:32.040 it's not the same. 0:10:32.440 --> 0:10:33.160 It's not the same. 0:10:33.200 --> 0:10:36.480 It's it's good, it's something, it's better than nothing, but 0:10:36.520 --> 0:10:38.960 it's not the same. And I that one meeting we 0:10:39.000 --> 0:10:44.319 went to with that amazing speaker, the place down by 0:10:44.320 --> 0:10:46.600 the four or five whatever, It was an amazing speaker 0:10:46.640 --> 0:10:49.080 and we were both like amazing, blown away. You know, 0:10:49.880 --> 0:10:52.400 you can't get that same thing unless you're sitting twenty 0:10:52.400 --> 0:10:55.800 feet from the person. So allalla to you and everybody 0:10:55.800 --> 0:10:59.080 out there, who's who's you know staying sober. I give 0:10:59.160 --> 0:11:03.080 all of you such amazing respect because you know, I 0:11:03.120 --> 0:11:03.720 know I need. 0:11:03.600 --> 0:11:05.320 To drink even more during these times, so I. 0:11:05.400 --> 0:11:07.600 Should, I give you that's funny. But I just take 0:11:07.640 --> 0:11:10.840 more baths instead of four, damn taking like six. So 0:11:10.880 --> 0:11:15.679 if there's a drought problem, I'm single handedly responsible for it. 0:11:15.760 --> 0:11:16.959 Okay, Well I'm fine with that. 0:11:17.360 --> 0:11:20.959 Well, I want to say I am excited about our 0:11:20.960 --> 0:11:21.520 next guest. 0:11:21.640 --> 0:11:23.160 I am excited that you. 0:11:23.000 --> 0:11:25.320 And her are on such a good path, and I 0:11:25.360 --> 0:11:27.600 think that I'm excited to get to know a lot 0:11:27.600 --> 0:11:31.760 about her. So I think we should. You should introduce 0:11:31.760 --> 0:11:33.720 her because obviously you know her better than me. 0:11:34.160 --> 0:11:36.160 Yeah, let's take a short break and then we are 0:11:36.200 --> 0:11:45.120 back with the stunning Raquel Levis, and we are back 0:11:45.240 --> 0:11:49.319 with the guest that I have been really excited about. 0:11:49.600 --> 0:11:55.440 I know we've had some rocky times, but she she 0:11:55.800 --> 0:11:58.400 was like really open to being on our podcast. We 0:11:58.520 --> 0:12:01.120 have the beautiful Raquel Levin. 0:12:01.240 --> 0:12:08.680 Yes, Hello, Hey, Raquelala, Raquel I am I got to say, 0:12:08.679 --> 0:12:12.160 got to say you are awesome and and just so 0:12:12.360 --> 0:12:14.240 cool to just come on here. 0:12:14.480 --> 0:12:17.040 And and I know that you and Laala had some 0:12:17.160 --> 0:12:20.280 vander Pomp drama, but you know what, that's behind us. 0:12:20.360 --> 0:12:23.520 And I just want people to get to know you, 0:12:23.679 --> 0:12:25.960 because you know, I don't know you that well, but 0:12:26.040 --> 0:12:28.880 I know you know James obviously for a long time now. 0:12:28.920 --> 0:12:31.520 And I just think that I can't tell you how 0:12:31.520 --> 0:12:34.120 excited I am for you to be here and for 0:12:34.360 --> 0:12:36.600 me and everybody to kind of get to know a 0:12:36.640 --> 0:12:37.480 lot more about you. 0:12:37.640 --> 0:12:40.040 So I just want to thank you, amazing. 0:12:39.640 --> 0:12:42.720 Thank you. No, I'm excited to be here talking to 0:12:42.800 --> 0:12:43.640 you guys too. 0:12:44.080 --> 0:12:48.240 So you said earlier, like you get you get nervous, 0:12:48.559 --> 0:12:51.600 you know, doing podcasts, and you you know last year 0:12:51.679 --> 0:12:55.079 during the reunion, you have told us that you struggle 0:12:55.720 --> 0:12:58.960 or have struggled with anxiety and things like that. What 0:12:59.120 --> 0:13:01.600 is it like for you you coming on you know 0:13:01.679 --> 0:13:05.960 you you met James and then you just like became 0:13:06.200 --> 0:13:10.880 a personality on reality TV? Like what was your mindset? 0:13:10.960 --> 0:13:15.400 I don't know if i'd call myself a personality. I 0:13:15.480 --> 0:13:17.480 know you're definitely a person. 0:13:18.760 --> 0:13:21.480 Well, I will say no, no, no, I will say, Raquel, 0:13:21.720 --> 0:13:27.000 this season watching you has been pretty epic. You've gone toes. 0:13:27.280 --> 0:13:29.960 I've already told you this when we've had our phone conversations, 0:13:30.000 --> 0:13:32.679 Like you handle yourself with Grayson Poise. I wish I 0:13:32.720 --> 0:13:36.680 could do that. Unfortunately I'm cut from a very dingy cloth. 0:13:36.800 --> 0:13:38.760 But you know, we let that, We've just let it go. 0:13:40.160 --> 0:13:42.320 But what is it What is it like for you 0:13:42.400 --> 0:13:44.760 to like watch yourself on TV when you you know 0:13:44.880 --> 0:13:47.720 you were a model or are a model, like when 0:13:47.760 --> 0:13:49.800 you film what is your mindset? 0:13:50.280 --> 0:13:55.240 It's really weird watching myself on TV. I don't particularly 0:13:55.440 --> 0:13:55.920 enjoy it. 0:13:57.880 --> 0:13:59.800 That makes two of us for Keul trust me, two 0:13:59.800 --> 0:14:00.000 of them. 0:14:00.920 --> 0:14:01.240 Yeah. 0:14:01.360 --> 0:14:03.319 I was like, oh my gosh, is that what I'm 0:14:03.360 --> 0:14:04.280 really sound like? 0:14:04.520 --> 0:14:07.000 And like like what am I doing right now with 0:14:07.120 --> 0:14:07.600 my face? 0:14:08.760 --> 0:14:10.040 And I guess it makes you. 0:14:10.080 --> 0:14:16.600 More aware of you know, your gestures or anything. But 0:14:17.600 --> 0:14:24.960 filmy in general is definitely an anxiety induced time, because 0:14:25.240 --> 0:14:30.640 I do get anxious and nervous just about talking in general. 0:14:31.560 --> 0:14:35.680 Growing up, I in class, I like was always the 0:14:35.760 --> 0:14:38.400 quiet one, always oh wow. 0:14:38.200 --> 0:14:42.960 The teacher's pat oh wow, like Faull. 0:14:43.720 --> 0:14:51.640 That's obviously not surprising, but. 0:14:48.840 --> 0:14:51.480 I would never speak up. I would never speak up 0:14:51.520 --> 0:14:52.000 in class. 0:14:52.040 --> 0:14:56.080 I was always so scared too, because I never thought 0:14:56.080 --> 0:14:58.640 that I had the right answer. And it wasn't until 0:14:58.800 --> 0:15:02.840 I went to college that things started clicking for me. 0:15:03.040 --> 0:15:04.400 Wait, can you do me a favor, Kaul? 0:15:04.520 --> 0:15:07.680 Can you take me back just so I understand you 0:15:07.720 --> 0:15:09.160 grew up in northern California? 0:15:09.200 --> 0:15:09.840 Is that correct? 0:15:10.000 --> 0:15:12.480 No, I actually grew up in Thousand Oaks, which is 0:15:12.600 --> 0:15:13.240 oh here. 0:15:13.080 --> 0:15:17.240 It's in la oh yeah, And just just give me 0:15:17.720 --> 0:15:21.520 a snippet of like you started modeling pageant, how did 0:15:21.520 --> 0:15:23.720 it kind of all begin for you? Because you know, 0:15:23.760 --> 0:15:25.640 you say you were this quiet kid, but I mean 0:15:25.640 --> 0:15:28.480 obviously you had a lot of ambition. So tell me 0:15:28.560 --> 0:15:30.760 kind of how, Yeah, tell me how that all came 0:15:30.800 --> 0:15:33.840 together and then how it led you to kind of vanderpomp. 0:15:34.160 --> 0:15:38.320 I was very ambitious because I was so nervous about talking, 0:15:38.920 --> 0:15:41.920 but I wanted to push myself out of my comfort zone. 0:15:42.320 --> 0:15:45.320 So that's what drew me into pageantry. 0:15:45.440 --> 0:15:49.880 Okay, I was always scared to like talk in front 0:15:49.920 --> 0:15:54.160 of other people, So going in and being judged in 0:15:54.160 --> 0:15:58.880 a person person interview and being on stage in a 0:15:58.920 --> 0:16:03.280 swimsuit and eat gown, that really pushed me outside of 0:16:03.280 --> 0:16:04.160 my comfort zone. 0:16:04.920 --> 0:16:09.400 And when I was able to, you know, help myself 0:16:09.440 --> 0:16:10.520 grow in those ways. 0:16:10.880 --> 0:16:11.960 And let me let me ask a question. 0:16:12.760 --> 0:16:15.240 I've seen these TV shows right which I'm sure you 0:16:15.280 --> 0:16:18.480 have where they show pageants are them? Was your mom 0:16:18.560 --> 0:16:19.880 like a pageant mom stage one? 0:16:20.040 --> 0:16:20.720 Is it like that? 0:16:21.200 --> 0:16:23.480 Or I mean, have you seen other moms like that 0:16:23.520 --> 0:16:25.640 when you were coming up in it? Because I find 0:16:25.680 --> 0:16:28.920 it fascinating and it's got to be a very surreal experience, 0:16:29.040 --> 0:16:31.720 like just you know, being on stage at a young 0:16:31.760 --> 0:16:35.080 age and having to talk and do all these different things. 0:16:35.440 --> 0:16:38.120 There is there drama in that world that you saw or. 0:16:38.080 --> 0:16:39.800 You were shield you know, shielded from that. 0:16:40.200 --> 0:16:40.960 No. 0:16:40.960 --> 0:16:45.040 No, I didn't start competing on pageants until later, like 0:16:45.080 --> 0:16:47.840 when I was a teenager. They were like sixteen, so 0:16:48.000 --> 0:16:53.240 I never experienced the toddlers and tiaras in person. But 0:16:53.440 --> 0:16:57.080 I can tell you from my experience, it's nothing like that. 0:16:57.320 --> 0:16:58.360 Okay, okay. 0:16:58.560 --> 0:17:00.640 And then and then so you start to do pageants 0:17:00.680 --> 0:17:03.920 in your teenage years. Obviously you're modeling as well, and 0:17:04.040 --> 0:17:06.360 you're going through this, and you're going through your education. 0:17:07.119 --> 0:17:10.800 You're going through your education, and then what happened? So 0:17:10.840 --> 0:17:13.200 then where where does that take you to? You decide 0:17:13.240 --> 0:17:15.280 you want to go to college. Obviously get a degree, 0:17:15.280 --> 0:17:17.800 which I understand I got one as well, But at 0:17:17.840 --> 0:17:20.480 that point do you continue them just you know, kind 0:17:20.480 --> 0:17:24.600 of take me through that last part into Los Angeles 0:17:24.640 --> 0:17:26.800 and how you mentioned this because I'm intrigued. 0:17:26.840 --> 0:17:27.640 I'm very intrigued. 0:17:27.720 --> 0:17:30.639 So when I competed for Miss Hollywood, one of the 0:17:30.760 --> 0:17:33.840 judges wanted to sign me because she had a modeling agency. 0:17:34.680 --> 0:17:37.959 So that was my little gateway into the modeling world 0:17:38.440 --> 0:17:43.720 as little teenager. For call, it was really fun. And 0:17:43.760 --> 0:17:48.040 then I decided to go to Sonoma State University and 0:17:48.040 --> 0:17:52.320 get my degree in kinesiology. Oh wow, and I would 0:17:52.359 --> 0:17:54.600 love to work with kids with special needs in the 0:17:54.640 --> 0:17:55.400 near future. 0:17:55.600 --> 0:17:56.639 But that did you know that? 0:17:56.760 --> 0:17:56.920 Law? 0:17:57.600 --> 0:18:00.840 Oh you did, dude. That's amazing. That is I had 0:18:00.880 --> 0:18:03.080 no idea. That is very So that's why I love it. 0:18:03.200 --> 0:18:04.320 She has a very sweetheart. 0:18:04.359 --> 0:18:06.439 But that's why I love podcasts because I would have 0:18:06.520 --> 0:18:08.320 never known this. And now we're kel, I like, have 0:18:08.400 --> 0:18:10.280 a whole different like. I mean, I always liked you, 0:18:10.359 --> 0:18:12.800