WEBVTT - EP 333: Pegging Porky (Ft. Phor) 0:00:02.560 --> 0:00:05.760 Guess what decision we're about to make. Horrible decision. 0:00:08.840 --> 0:00:18.680 Hey, guys, welcome to another episode horrible Decisions. Uh oh, listen, 0:00:18.760 --> 0:00:20.320 you know I was gonna come in here and VQ 0:00:20.440 --> 0:00:22.200 today because y'all, we got a very special guest. 0:00:22.480 --> 0:00:24.840 But before we get started, job that was cute? It's 0:00:25.760 --> 0:00:27.040 don't do that? That was a cute? 0:00:27.080 --> 0:00:27.240 Mom? 0:00:27.560 --> 0:00:30.040 Was that a cute molle? Say yes? That's all say. 0:00:29.960 --> 0:00:30.520 Yes, yes. 0:00:30.720 --> 0:00:33.000 Oh and we know we can get on l like 0:00:33.120 --> 0:00:36.000 that today. Anyways, guys, welcome to another episode of Horror Player. 0:00:36.000 --> 0:00:36.640 Just says Yones. 0:00:36.960 --> 0:00:41.000 I'm your girl, Mandy b aka Pulurk Bumps aka that 0:00:41.159 --> 0:00:42.040 motherfucking bitch. 0:00:42.120 --> 0:00:43.680 What's up, y'all? I'm weezy. 0:00:43.840 --> 0:00:45.760 Today we got a special guest in the building that 0:00:46.120 --> 0:00:48.040 we can't really see what we see. 0:00:49.159 --> 0:00:51.040 If you're seeing on the YouTube, you can see in 0:00:51.080 --> 0:00:52.159 what you can't see, you know. 0:00:52.280 --> 0:00:54.800 So we got four in the building, y'all, and y'all 0:00:54.840 --> 0:00:58.520 have been mind y'all, y'all may have purposely noticed I 0:00:58.600 --> 0:01:01.640 left out my nickname, Pegged the Dian because the way 0:01:02.360 --> 0:01:04.760 y'all have been flooding each of us. 0:01:04.560 --> 0:01:08.880 With our tagging anytime he's on anything anytime. As soon 0:01:08.920 --> 0:01:09.200 as you. 0:01:09.120 --> 0:01:11.760 Started popping up on the internet, everyone just started tagging. 0:01:12.040 --> 0:01:15.320 They started sending me your videos and dms, asking if 0:01:15.360 --> 0:01:17.319 you were the man I've been pegging all these years. 0:01:17.400 --> 0:01:18.119 Wow, And. 0:01:21.319 --> 0:01:24.080 I said no, y'all, even in that boodhah, calm down, 0:01:24.600 --> 0:01:26.000 calm down, I don't know that man. 0:01:26.680 --> 0:01:29.920 However, you joined us on stage in Dallas. 0:01:30.000 --> 0:01:32.679 I was super fun. I really enjoyed that too, because like, 0:01:32.720 --> 0:01:35.760 we haven't had a lot of men come on stage 0:01:35.840 --> 0:01:39.640 during our kink sessions, so that was fun. But I 0:01:39.959 --> 0:01:42.880 think what was most we actually have, but they're mostly 0:01:43.000 --> 0:01:45.399 day We haven't had a lot no and when we do, 0:01:45.800 --> 0:01:49.240 they're the doms. So we've had like the bondage, we've 0:01:49.280 --> 0:01:50.800 had like the lead people. 0:01:50.840 --> 0:01:54.760 We've had women bring their subs. But you were like, Nope, 0:01:54.800 --> 0:01:56.560 I would like to come on and I want to 0:01:56.600 --> 0:01:58.680 be masked. I want to bring my dom. I think 0:01:58.960 --> 0:02:00.480 a man saying I want to my dom. 0:02:00.560 --> 0:02:01.200 That was different. 0:02:01.240 --> 0:02:03.480 I think our fans were really excited too, because like 0:02:04.200 --> 0:02:06.560 they I mean, you know, obviously some of them know you, 0:02:06.600 --> 0:02:11.920 but also I think being you and not expecting someone 0:02:12.000 --> 0:02:14.560 like you to look that way. I think what's been 0:02:14.600 --> 0:02:16.880 most exciting about seeing people's tag us and your stuff 0:02:16.919 --> 0:02:20.080 is that obviously we even have a conversation surrounding pegging 0:02:20.080 --> 0:02:25.079 for so long, and you know, our conversations aren't necessarily 0:02:25.080 --> 0:02:28.920 the most surface level sex podcast conversation. So when seeing 0:02:29.160 --> 0:02:33.200 you know, even you after the live show and like 0:02:33.520 --> 0:02:36.680 stuff on the shade room, I was like wow, Like 0:02:37.320 --> 0:02:40.000 I was really like taking back a little bit, Like 0:02:40.360 --> 0:02:43.400 I kind of thought people would make fun of a 0:02:43.480 --> 0:02:45.760 niggain a cage. Oh they did, but I didn't think 0:02:45.760 --> 0:02:48.120 they would be like like to me, you there's a 0:02:48.200 --> 0:02:52.080 joke there, but they got really intense absolute and that 0:02:52.240 --> 0:02:53.640 to me was just the weird. 0:02:53.760 --> 0:02:58.080 What I realized is they hate the person and not 0:02:58.200 --> 0:02:58.720 the character. 0:03:00.080 --> 0:03:00.639 Explain that. 0:03:01.560 --> 0:03:06.160 So, for example, after that post had went viral, it 0:03:06.280 --> 0:03:08.639 was a lot of other comedians posting it. They was 0:03:08.639 --> 0:03:10.799 putting the self in cages and people thought it was funny. 0:03:11.360 --> 0:03:12.959 So they hate the person, you know what I mean, 0:03:13.280 --> 0:03:14.120 and not the character. 0:03:14.400 --> 0:03:15.600 Well, I think I think. 0:03:15.440 --> 0:03:18.080 There was also the element if a comedian does it, 0:03:18.400 --> 0:03:20.440 they're doing it as a joke. I think that a 0:03:20.440 --> 0:03:23.880 lot of people know that you now have an OnlyFans 0:03:24.200 --> 0:03:27.160 and in a sexual way. The way you went viral 0:03:27.200 --> 0:03:30.320 for that reminded me of when Weezy we had a 0:03:30.360 --> 0:03:33.040 guest come on and he went back and forth with 0:03:33.120 --> 0:03:36.280 her because as a black woman, she was doing something 0:03:36.320 --> 0:03:39.720 that he thought was degrading because her partner at the 0:03:39.720 --> 0:03:40.560 time was a white man. 0:03:40.880 --> 0:03:42.480 And that's what I saw a lot of people bringing 0:03:42.560 --> 0:03:43.240 up was. 0:03:43.480 --> 0:03:46.960 The historical how why would a black man choose to 0:03:47.000 --> 0:03:48.480 put himself into a cage? 0:03:49.200 --> 0:03:51.440 And so that's what I think it was more so 0:03:51.680 --> 0:03:52.040 tied to. 0:03:52.520 --> 0:03:54.800 If we keep it honest, there's a lot of there's 0:03:54.800 --> 0:03:58.440 a lot of black people out here that don't represent 0:03:58.480 --> 0:04:00.280 me if we keep it in a book, you know 0:04:00.320 --> 0:04:03.800 what I mean, Like, I don't like some black people. 0:04:03.800 --> 0:04:05.680 I don't I don't really connect with. I mean, I 0:04:05.720 --> 0:04:08.400 respect what they do, but it's like, you gotta look 0:04:08.400 --> 0:04:10.440 at what I'm doing. I'm not I'm not putting it. 0:04:10.800 --> 0:04:12.920 I'm not in harming anyone. It's people out here that 0:04:13.000 --> 0:04:17.320 get saluted for being a kingpin in their hood, right 0:04:17.360 --> 0:04:19.839 being Mama high, your grandma high, your uncle high, you 0:04:19.880 --> 0:04:22.320 feel me. People get have their own supply. It's people 0:04:22.320 --> 0:04:24.160 out here there's killing people that you know what I mean, 0:04:24.279 --> 0:04:26.520 gang related, and they get all the respect in the 0:04:26.520 --> 0:04:29.919 world for being the toughest man in the world. I 0:04:29.920 --> 0:04:32.320 don't represent that. That's where I'm from, but that's not 0:04:32.440 --> 0:04:34.640 That's not who I am, that's not that's that's I 0:04:34.720 --> 0:04:37.279 move my kid out of Chicago to make sure he's safe. 0:04:37.720 --> 0:04:39.520 There's people where I'm from. They don't. They don't. They 0:04:39.520 --> 0:04:41.400 don't make it to see five six years old, you 0:04:41.440 --> 0:04:43.800 feel me it killer be killed out there. So I'm 0:04:43.839 --> 0:04:46.039 just saying so, and my defense, it's like I'm not 0:04:46.120 --> 0:04:48.880 even bothering nobody. But at the same time, they're bothered, 0:04:49.440 --> 0:04:50.720 you know what I mean, because I'm in my own 0:04:50.800 --> 0:04:53.800 lane doing my thing, and I don't they don't understand it, 0:04:53.839 --> 0:04:55.520 you know what I mean. But I got a whole 0:04:56.040 --> 0:04:59.280 audience for that. That's why a lot of the negativity 0:04:59.279 --> 0:05:01.640 stuff I don't see. Well, I noticed it, but it's 0:05:01.640 --> 0:05:03.680 on the effect because I got a whole culture of 0:05:03.720 --> 0:05:04.960 people that's loving what I'm doing. 0:05:05.120 --> 0:05:07.479 I mean, that's that's even here on the show, right, Like, 0:05:07.760 --> 0:05:10.920 I love that we've been able to talk about kinks 0:05:11.320 --> 0:05:14.559 and things and let it be known that no black 0:05:14.600 --> 0:05:15.599 people do this shit too. 0:05:16.000 --> 0:05:18.960 We enjoy doing it. I think that that's one of 0:05:18.560 --> 0:05:19.920 the biggest. 0:05:19.520 --> 0:05:21.920 Shocks too like, which is why I'm really I love 0:05:21.960 --> 0:05:23.520 that we're going to be able to have this conversation 0:05:23.640 --> 0:05:28.120 because even like your stature. We just had a woman 0:05:28.160 --> 0:05:29.960 on here, Hazel Grace, and there was a bit of 0:05:30.000 --> 0:05:34.160 a shock that a I pegged black men, but there 0:05:34.200 --> 0:05:35.839 was even a bigger shot it is also black and 0:05:35.920 --> 0:05:38.320 she was a black woman, but she pegs white men. 0:05:38.520 --> 0:05:43.120 Or she admitted that she pegs twinks, and I was like, okay, 0:05:43.200 --> 0:05:48.520 so twinks are like feminine, small dainty voice. So or 0:05:48.600 --> 0:05:50.560 men that may want to wear the fish nets or 0:05:50.600 --> 0:05:53.240 the lace or that just come off more feminine and 0:05:53.279 --> 0:05:55.920 you you you real maskul it over though I. 0:05:55.839 --> 0:05:57.400 Thought about putting on some fish nets. 0:05:57.720 --> 0:05:59.760 Oh wait, so you do? So you do fish nets. 0:06:00.279 --> 0:06:01.840 I thought about it. I didn't do it yet. 0:06:01.960 --> 0:06:03.200 Oh you haven't done it yet. 0:06:03.279 --> 0:06:04.400 No, I like, it's next. 0:06:04.600 --> 0:06:07.520 So when when you were do you feel like you're 0:06:07.560 --> 0:06:10.640 becoming more open to things because you now have a 0:06:10.680 --> 0:06:12.719 partner that allows you to do these things that you're 0:06:12.760 --> 0:06:15.000 on only fans doing it. 0:06:15.000 --> 0:06:18.080 It's not even necessarily my partner. I mean it helps, 0:06:18.200 --> 0:06:20.960 you know, but it's just the fact that feeling being 0:06:21.040 --> 0:06:22.760 free and not giving a fuck, like I think that 0:06:22.880 --> 0:06:25.880 my My biggest issue in my career and with my 0:06:25.920 --> 0:06:28.600 life is I care too much about other people. I 0:06:29.440 --> 0:06:32.400 put energy into people way more than myself put. I 0:06:32.400 --> 0:06:35.400 gave myself the short energy stick every single time in life. 0:06:35.400 --> 0:06:38.360 What do you think about the people that like are 0:06:38.440 --> 0:06:41.440 feeling like I mean, we got to see you in 0:06:41.520 --> 0:06:44.160 your element in doubtless right and obviously to go as 0:06:44.160 --> 0:06:44.719 far as you have. 0:06:44.800 --> 0:06:45.599 We know this is real. 0:06:45.880 --> 0:06:48.400 You're experienced in the king community. What do you think 0:06:48.440 --> 0:06:50.600 about people that think you're doing it for attention? 0:06:51.920 --> 0:06:53.480 If I was doing it for attention, I will be 0:06:53.520 --> 0:06:57.080 tagging everyone, post me, please post me, please please look, look, 0:06:57.120 --> 0:07:00.120 look look. No, it's not my choice. If you're I 0:07:00.160 --> 0:07:01.760 chose to watch and look and tell a friend to 0:07:01.760 --> 0:07:02.919 tell a friend, that's not my business. 0:07:03.600 --> 0:07:06.240 Have you had a hard conversation with like an X 0:07:06.360 --> 0:07:08.960 or like a family member that was like tripping off 0:07:09.000 --> 0:07:09.720 of watching you? 0:07:10.000 --> 0:07:12.320 Yeah? I mean, of course my mom. See my mom 0:07:12.400 --> 0:07:17.720 is fine with it. She just can't take the the 0:07:18.080 --> 0:07:20.960 attention that comes from it. Like every time she looks 0:07:21.000 --> 0:07:23.200 opens her phone up, I'm right there on her screen. 0:07:23.280 --> 0:07:25.240 Rather she follows me, and rather she's keeping up with 0:07:25.240 --> 0:07:26.640 what I'm doing and it's like the blogs got it 0:07:26.720 --> 0:07:28.880 right in her face, so she can't, you know, miss it. 0:07:28.920 --> 0:07:30.400 I'm like, well, just unfollow the blogs. 0:07:30.400 --> 0:07:32.080 Then you've been able to talk to your mom about 0:07:32.160 --> 0:07:33.200 like kink and stuff like that. 0:07:33.280 --> 0:07:37.440 I have to. That's I too, because it was just like, 0:07:38.240 --> 0:07:40.880 you know, as much as she doesn't understand or necessarily agree, 0:07:40.920 --> 0:07:43.920 I say, stop making you seeing the bad from it. 0:07:44.000 --> 0:07:46.720 You're seeing from your perspective of what you don't want. 0:07:46.840 --> 0:07:49.720 But if I'm telling you as your son, as a 0:07:49.720 --> 0:07:52.080 grown man, at this point, mine, I'm happy. I'm fine, 0:07:52.680 --> 0:07:55.640 Like I'm in a place where the backlash or what 0:07:55.760 --> 0:07:57.480 people got to say that don't affect me no more 0:07:57.640 --> 0:07:59.760 like TV has made me so numb. Whereas like I 0:07:59.760 --> 0:08:02.160 don't give a fuck what you think, because as long 0:08:02.200 --> 0:08:04.680 as I said, you should be worried about how I feel, 0:08:05.040 --> 0:08:07.240 you know, and not by how they feel. I said, 0:08:07.240 --> 0:08:09.400 I need you to be the queen that you are 0:08:09.480 --> 0:08:11.920 and stand up for your son that go to war 0:08:11.960 --> 0:08:13.800 for me. I'm gonna go to war for you. You 0:08:13.840 --> 0:08:15.080 know what I mean. That's how I feel like. You 0:08:15.080 --> 0:08:16.560 don't have to agree with what I'm doing, but you 0:08:16.560 --> 0:08:18.800 can still respect me by being honest with you ye. 0:08:18.880 --> 0:08:22.520 Not really now, I ask you only because I'm do 0:08:22.560 --> 0:08:24.000 you have a relationship with your daddy? 0:08:24.280 --> 0:08:26.239 No, my PAP's passed away, but he wasn't in my life. 0:08:26.280 --> 0:08:29.280 He wasn't in your life, Okay, I said, because like 0:08:29.320 --> 0:08:31.720 we talk about, like now that we've been so open 0:08:32.040 --> 0:08:34.959 the conversations with our moms, we're a lot like our 0:08:35.000 --> 0:08:40.360 moms in terms of like our sexuality and even just 0:08:40.400 --> 0:08:43.720 the fluidity of how we move in. With my mom specifically, 0:08:43.960 --> 0:08:48.240 the conversation was almost an envy that she wasn't able 0:08:48.240 --> 0:08:49.960 to be as free as she wanted to be growing up, 0:08:50.360 --> 0:08:53.240 and so seeing what we're doing now, she's just. 0:08:53.120 --> 0:08:55.480 Like, oh my gosh. Now she'd be talking too much. 0:08:55.520 --> 0:08:56.280 She'd be trying to tell me. 0:08:56.240 --> 0:08:57.920 About our vibrators and the things she want to do 0:08:57.960 --> 0:09:00.440 it and I'm just like, ah, I you doing much. 0:09:00.640 --> 0:09:03.160 But her mom, you know, it's proud that she's the 0:09:03.200 --> 0:09:04.640 number one dick sucker in the world. 0:09:06.400 --> 0:09:06.840 Number one. 0:09:06.840 --> 0:09:10.280 That's that's what my mom said, redication. 0:09:10.880 --> 0:09:13.160 They say that girl's a big teeth. You know. My 0:09:13.280 --> 0:09:18.000 mama said one day, it's so crazy, how did. 0:09:17.920 --> 0:09:21.520 You This was like I can't remember what happened, but 0:09:21.679 --> 0:09:23.839 we were in a car and I think we was 0:09:23.880 --> 0:09:26.000 going to wig store or something, and someone texting my 0:09:26.040 --> 0:09:27.880 phone about how it was the best like head they 0:09:27.920 --> 0:09:30.080 ever had, and my mom looks at me and she 0:09:30.200 --> 0:09:31.520 was like, I just do it. 0:09:32.679 --> 0:09:35.160 I've always had a gift. I knew you had it. 0:09:35.240 --> 0:09:35.720 I knew. 0:09:36.480 --> 0:09:38.320 And then when my ex and I were breaking up, 0:09:38.320 --> 0:09:40.480 I remember my mom said some like, well, nobody's ever 0:09:40.480 --> 0:09:41.600 gonna suck that dick like you did. 0:09:41.600 --> 0:09:46.040 I said that I ain't not right, ain't right right. Listen. 0:09:46.600 --> 0:09:50.480 I think it's great that you're having those conversations with 0:09:50.559 --> 0:09:53.160 your with your parents, even your friends, I know, like 0:09:53.280 --> 0:09:54.959 in your post, and I guess I want to ask 0:09:55.000 --> 0:09:57.760 you that too, just to go ahead and get all 0:09:57.760 --> 0:09:59.840 the questions out the way, because y'all you've been going 0:09:59.840 --> 0:10:01.760 by for so long, and then we gonna get into 0:10:02.160 --> 0:10:06.840 the good shit. But you did respond at one point 0:10:06.920 --> 0:10:09.600 and told people to leave you alone because of all 0:10:09.679 --> 0:10:13.360 the reactions. Your ex girlfriend, you know, came out and 0:10:13.640 --> 0:10:17.480 tweeted what she said about uh she was embarrassed by 0:10:17.480 --> 0:10:20.000 it or whatever. You were just like, I don't bother anyone. 0:10:20.040 --> 0:10:25.160 Everyone leaving me alone. However, being on OnlyFans and promoting 0:10:25.200 --> 0:10:27.480 your only fans. You are putting things on the internet, 0:10:27.880 --> 0:10:32.520 so you have to somewhat expect a response, right to. 0:10:32.520 --> 0:10:37.560 Clear that post up. Yes, I'm not speaking about the 0:10:37.559 --> 0:10:39.560 people who don't know me. I get people gonna say, 0:10:39.600 --> 0:10:43.640 whatever the issue I have when I made that post 0:10:44.000 --> 0:10:47.760 when I say I don't bother nobody, literally I don't, 0:10:47.920 --> 0:10:50.800 but don't hit me up. It's like pick a side. 0:10:51.080 --> 0:10:53.360 So my thing is is like, to you, a perfect example, 0:10:53.559 --> 0:10:56.400 if me and you are having this conversation right here, 0:10:56.600 --> 0:10:58.440 and then after I leave out of here and I 0:10:58.480 --> 0:11:00.679 see you online throwing shade and it's like, damn, I 0:11:00.679 --> 0:11:02.800 thought we just thought we was like this. I was cool. 0:11:02.960 --> 0:11:05.520 So like it's like you're still entertaining the circus at 0:11:05.520 --> 0:11:08.120 the same time but still being my friend like cool. 0:11:08.120 --> 0:11:10.480 So I can't. I can't fuck with that. I don't 0:11:10.480 --> 0:11:11.800 know how to. I don't know how to be fake. 0:11:11.960 --> 0:11:13.280 It's the people that you actually know. 0:11:13.920 --> 0:11:15.760 It's the ones that's close that's still hitting me up 0:11:15.760 --> 0:11:17.880 for money or ones that still look hit me up 0:11:17.880 --> 0:11:21.440 for friendship or some type of you want they want 0:11:21.480 --> 0:11:24.959 something from me, you know. So that's the whole thing. 0:11:24.960 --> 0:11:27.160 It's like, just speak aside, then don't don't don't confuse 0:11:27.240 --> 0:11:29.520 me because the way my heart is like, I'm I'm 0:11:29.520 --> 0:11:32.360 a genuine person, So don't don't play with nobody. Uh 0:11:32.640 --> 0:11:34.480 that's genuine like that that's how I feel. Or just 0:11:34.480 --> 0:11:36.640 stay where you at, Like I'm fine. I've I've been 0:11:36.679 --> 0:11:40.280 losing friends every day, but I'm I'm I'm cool with 0:11:40.559 --> 0:11:42.719 the absolutely absolutely they do it. 0:11:43.400 --> 0:11:44.400 That doesn't surprise me. 0:11:44.480 --> 0:11:46.520 And the reason why is because I like, I feel 0:11:46.520 --> 0:11:49.160 like they're either envious or they either just like, don't 0:11:49.200 --> 0:11:50.640 don't fuck with it, Like I have some of my 0:11:50.720 --> 0:11:53.440 friends that have opened up to me about things they 0:11:53.480 --> 0:11:57.160 do sexually because they feel comfortable. And I've had some 0:11:57.200 --> 0:12:00.280 friends that's that's open up to me about what they 0:12:00.280 --> 0:12:02.880 do sexually, but are mad at me for speaking on 0:12:03.240 --> 0:12:05.480 some of the same shit that they do. They're like, man, 0:12:05.480 --> 0:12:07.800 bro we man, that's being broke. You ain't supposed to 0:12:07.800 --> 0:12:11.600 be talking about that, man says, who broke CoA. 0:12:11.800 --> 0:12:12.880 I mean, I'll be honest with you. 0:12:13.920 --> 0:12:17.439 For the men that I have pegged, We've had a 0:12:17.480 --> 0:12:20.640 lot of those conversations, and not only I wouldn't even 0:12:20.679 --> 0:12:23.240 say just pegging, like for for men that have opened 0:12:23.280 --> 0:12:25.960 up to me about their attraction to trans women and 0:12:26.000 --> 0:12:28.760 things that they don't share with their friends and things. 0:12:29.200 --> 0:12:32.400 It's it's frustrating to here that they're like, there's a 0:12:32.400 --> 0:12:36.400 bro code that black men, specifically, I would say, shouldn't 0:12:36.440 --> 0:12:39.480 be open about the things that they enjoy when I 0:12:39.480 --> 0:12:41.560 don't know, did you see the thing that just went viral? 0:12:42.000 --> 0:12:45.600 So there is a woman who went to divorce her 0:12:45.880 --> 0:12:49.120 husband filed divorce papers because she found out he was 0:12:49.120 --> 0:12:51.679 having sex with men with a guy. 0:12:51.920 --> 0:12:53.400 He had a whole relationship with a man. 0:12:53.800 --> 0:12:56.200 And because she went to go serve the divorce papers, 0:12:56.280 --> 0:12:58.120 I guess he didn't want that coming out. 0:12:58.400 --> 0:12:59.200 He went and killed her. 0:12:59.240 --> 0:13:00.520 Yeah, that's fucked up because she. 0:13:00.520 --> 0:13:03.120 Wanted to leave because well, you weren't honest with me. 0:13:03.160 --> 0:13:06.000 You're having a whole relationship with a man, and the 0:13:06.080 --> 0:13:08.560 man went and killed her for wanting to even leave him. 0:13:08.840 --> 0:13:12.080 And I'm just like, I think that this podcast is 0:13:12.080 --> 0:13:14.400 so important because the men that do come to our 0:13:14.440 --> 0:13:19.120 shows and the couples that are able to experience things 0:13:19.160 --> 0:13:22.760 together differently, just because we talk about these things openly, 0:13:23.080 --> 0:13:24.680 I think it keeps us more safe. 0:13:25.120 --> 0:13:26.520 It keeps people not. 0:13:26.520 --> 0:13:29.560 Having to live in fear of them not being able 0:13:29.559 --> 0:13:32.600 to be free with who they really are, and in 0:13:32.679 --> 0:13:35.960 terms of like getting in relationships, it allows you to 0:13:36.080 --> 0:13:38.880 kind of be honest, which I know y'all be out 0:13:38.880 --> 0:13:41.679 here lying because niggas is liars, and y'all know I'm 0:13:41.720 --> 0:13:43.960 over here triggered right now just with the word lie. 0:13:44.080 --> 0:13:47.600 But just to be free and open, yeah about it. 0:13:47.640 --> 0:13:51.080 So I hate that you actually have friends that are like, Bro, 0:13:51.200 --> 0:13:52.000 you're not supposed to. 0:13:52.000 --> 0:13:53.440 Be telling people we be doing this shit. 0:13:53.600 --> 0:13:55.319 Yeah. Like, it's to the point where I'm so lest 0:13:55.320 --> 0:13:59.520 people have like known over ten twenty years, you know 0:13:59.559 --> 0:14:02.840 what I mean, Just like dangn for me, I'm cool. 0:14:02.880 --> 0:14:04.439 It's like that chapter is done and is done. 0:14:04.640 --> 0:14:08.360 I think what happens in friendships and family relationships where 0:14:08.480 --> 0:14:12.560 people get that judgmental When you said envious, most people 0:14:12.600 --> 0:14:14.680 they like, well, I'm not jealous that you're in a cage, right, 0:14:15.120 --> 0:14:19.120 But the jealousy sometimes can come from other things. 0:14:19.120 --> 0:14:22.280 More so just being as free yep. 0:14:22.680 --> 0:14:27.120 Like, I think a lot of people hate well and 0:14:27.160 --> 0:14:30.240 not realize they're hating it, but watching someone live authentically, 0:14:30.720 --> 0:14:34.080 because if you're not exposing. We used to say, like, 0:14:34.160 --> 0:14:37.040 oh when niggas hate, yeah, niggas, they must be gay 0:14:37.480 --> 0:14:40.800 if it's If that's not it, then it must just 0:14:40.840 --> 0:14:43.440 be you don't like watching someone be open. So if 0:14:43.840 --> 0:14:46.160 someone doesn't want to get pegged by they girl, they 0:14:46.240 --> 0:14:49.280 really must be having a difficult time watching you be 0:14:49.440 --> 0:14:55.960 open and happy. I think that celebrating kink and queerness, 0:14:56.040 --> 0:14:58.440 and even if this isn't relative to your situation, I 0:14:58.440 --> 0:15:01.920 don't think pegging is queer, but it just makes me 0:15:01.960 --> 0:15:03.640 think a lot of like what I've seen over the 0:15:03.720 --> 0:15:06.800 last few years just online, like it's been really scary. 0:15:07.000 --> 0:15:10.120 I think we think we're in this forward moment, and 0:15:10.280 --> 0:15:12.600 especially seeing someone like you, we think we might be. 0:15:12.960 --> 0:15:14.840 But reading the comments that day, I was like, oh 0:15:14.880 --> 0:15:16.160 my god, is crazy. 0:15:16.280 --> 0:15:19.440 Yeah, you know, I mean I feel like, you. 0:15:19.400 --> 0:15:22.880 Know, people are like praying for you in the comments. Yeah, 0:15:24.560 --> 0:15:26.640 I was like, do you see the background of the apartment. 0:15:26.800 --> 0:15:33.360 It's the Florida windows right for you. 0:15:33.440 --> 0:15:35.920 There's a little ship like that where I'm like, but I. 0:15:35.880 --> 0:15:38.640 Feel like the thing is I feel like they put 0:15:38.680 --> 0:15:41.200 me in a box, right. They see reality TV, they 0:15:41.200 --> 0:15:45.760 see music, and it's like that's it. Like no, Like, 0:15:45.920 --> 0:15:48.200 I also understand that being black, we are the most 0:15:48.200 --> 0:15:49.240 opinionated culture. 0:15:49.400 --> 0:15:52.560 Yeah, so we're not a monolith. You not going to 0:15:52.680 --> 0:15:55.440 represent none of us represent everyone as all. 0:15:55.480 --> 0:15:57.320 That's what I'm saying. So it's like the ship did 0:15:57.360 --> 0:15:59.280 y'all stay up here and glorified. I don't funk with. 0:15:59.400 --> 0:16:01.240 Have your cat I don't watch Black and Crew, but 0:16:01.280 --> 0:16:04.640 I can only imagine have your castmates like being kind 0:16:04.680 --> 0:16:05.160 about it? 0:16:05.280 --> 0:16:09.040 Or I mean, yeah, for the people that I still 0:16:09.040 --> 0:16:10.200 funk with, you. 0:16:09.840 --> 0:16:11.320 Go ahead and say the only nice ones, and we 0:16:11.400 --> 0:16:12.920 gonna know who not nice ones? 0:16:14.120 --> 0:16:16.320 Has there been one that surprised you with their kindness? 0:16:17.920 --> 0:16:21.360 No, every Actually, to be honest with you, everybody has 0:16:21.360 --> 0:16:25.680 been pretty supportive to my knowledge that we're talking a 0:16:26.200 --> 0:16:28.120 cast members, not like the B, A, C. D. You 0:16:28.160 --> 0:16:30.160 know what I'm saying at the top the. 0:16:30.800 --> 0:16:34.880 People because to me, like if I didn't have somebody 0:16:34.880 --> 0:16:36.520 that was like all myself, like if people know me 0:16:36.520 --> 0:16:39.720 from horrible decisions and I made a crazy decision, whether 0:16:39.760 --> 0:16:42.360 it be making only fans and Mandy wasn't necessarily saying 0:16:42.400 --> 0:16:43.480 like hey, good for her. 0:16:43.880 --> 0:16:45.920 That's hard. Yeah, you know what I'm saying. 0:16:46.280 --> 0:16:50.320 See, I think for me, like the type of like 0:16:51.520 --> 0:16:55.480 time I've been spending on myself and actually embracing who 0:16:55.520 --> 0:16:57.560 I am flaws and all, like all the self love 0:16:57.680 --> 0:16:59.800 is like I didn't need validation, and that's the thing 0:16:59.800 --> 0:17:03.360 I've feel like, it's so weird if you like everything 0:17:03.400 --> 0:17:06.040 I like, or if I like everything like that, Like 0:17:06.080 --> 0:17:09.320 where's your uniqueness of I don't. I think that's weird 0:17:09.359 --> 0:17:11.240 If you like everything I like, or if you need 0:17:11.440 --> 0:17:14.760 validation from somebody else to look cool, that's weird to me. 0:17:15.560 --> 0:17:17.119 Like I want you to. I want you to like 0:17:17.200 --> 0:17:19.399 different stuff so I can either you could put me 0:17:19.440 --> 0:17:21.280 onto something or know something different that I don't know. 0:17:21.320 --> 0:17:22.920 Like we all know the same thing. What's the fucking 0:17:22.960 --> 0:17:25.280 point how we all able to grow if we running 0:17:25.280 --> 0:17:26.640 the circles doing the same different things. 0:17:26.680 --> 0:17:28.399 Do you have any men reach out to you that 0:17:28.760 --> 0:17:30.560 have been like damn, bro, like you really help me? 0:17:30.760 --> 0:17:34.399 Like, oh man. Women have called me crying because they 0:17:34.400 --> 0:17:36.320 can't live in their truth. And that's about older women 0:17:36.960 --> 0:17:41.920 forties and up. They're literally colling no friends friends, Like man, 0:17:41.920 --> 0:17:45.439 I'm crying watching you seeing you man, because you're speaking 0:17:45.480 --> 0:17:47.879 for me, Like I can't do X, Y and Z 0:17:48.040 --> 0:17:50.200 because of the way I grew up in you know 0:17:50.240 --> 0:17:53.840 what I'm saying, church going family. I can't do this now. 0:17:53.840 --> 0:17:56.040 Because my mom, I respect us. I just can't do it. 0:17:56.080 --> 0:17:59.240 But they are crying, and they also, you know what 0:17:59.240 --> 0:18:01.040 I'm saying, happy for me because they feel like they're 0:18:01.040 --> 0:18:03.840 living through me. So same for my same for my friends, 0:18:03.960 --> 0:18:06.280 Like well, the ones who's still around, a lot of 0:18:06.280 --> 0:18:09.200 people have stepped up to the plate. I did not expect, 0:18:09.200 --> 0:18:11.199 you know what I mean that I knew maybe on 0:18:11.280 --> 0:18:16.080