1 00:00:00,070 --> 00:00:02,030 Speaker 1: Maybe I did live another life, you know? And it's like, 2 00:00:02,090 --> 00:00:04,100 Speaker 1: maybe that's related to something else. Because I'll tell my 3 00:00:04,140 --> 00:00:06,740 Speaker 1: girls sometimes, like, I'll see things that, like, in my 4 00:00:06,780 --> 00:00:08,459 Speaker 1: dreams and stuff. And I'm like, I don't even think 5 00:00:08,480 --> 00:00:09,780 Speaker 1: that's related to me. Like, I don't know what the 6 00:00:09,800 --> 00:00:12,510 Speaker 1: fuck that is, but I don't know. I'm going to 7 00:00:12,530 --> 00:00:14,050 Speaker 1: sound crazy. If you make me talk long enough, I'm 8 00:00:14,090 --> 00:00:17,230 Speaker 1: going to sound crazy. They're going to fucking lock me up. No. 9 00:00:17,250 --> 00:00:19,630 Speaker 2: I don't think you sound crazy at all. 10 00:00:24,800 --> 00:00:27,180 Speaker 3: Hey guys, thanks for watching. This episode is brought to 11 00:00:27,220 --> 00:00:31,460 Speaker 3: you by Boost Mobile. Our guest today went from a 12 00:00:31,600 --> 00:00:34,600 Speaker 3: mixtape that hit the Billboard Top Rap Albums chart to 13 00:00:34,680 --> 00:00:37,059 Speaker 3: walking away from Atlantic Records to building her own, her 14 00:00:38,470 --> 00:00:42,310 Speaker 3: own everything from scratch. She has millions of followers that 15 00:00:42,350 --> 00:00:44,830 Speaker 3: she's grown when I find this fascinating, that she's grown 16 00:00:44,870 --> 00:00:49,409 Speaker 3: with no manager, no label, still no manager, no label, 17 00:00:49,550 --> 00:00:50,769 Speaker 3: no team, publicist. 18 00:00:51,250 --> 00:00:53,340 Speaker 1: I mean, like my wife and my son are here. 19 00:00:53,600 --> 00:00:56,320 Speaker 1: You know, yeah. Like I just recently got with a 20 00:00:56,420 --> 00:00:59,220 Speaker 1: media company that's doing some of the publicity stuff, helping 21 00:00:59,260 --> 00:01:02,590 Speaker 1: me out with different things. But no, none of that. However, 22 00:01:02,600 --> 00:01:05,470 Speaker 1: you know, I'm not opposed to maybe someday finding the 23 00:01:05,510 --> 00:01:06,110 Speaker 1: right manager. 24 00:01:06,130 --> 00:01:09,869 Speaker 3: I just haven't. But I say all that to say 25 00:01:09,910 --> 00:01:14,700 Speaker 3: that you really embody the spirit. of an independent artist 26 00:01:15,110 --> 00:01:19,449 Speaker 3: who's found their way and created an amazing following and 27 00:01:19,510 --> 00:01:22,569 Speaker 3: has had a full career kind of on your own. 28 00:01:23,090 --> 00:01:25,510 Speaker 3: Thank you. She's also been one of the most outspoken 29 00:01:25,550 --> 00:01:30,389 Speaker 3: voices in hip hop on immigration, LGBTQ identity, mental health. 30 00:01:30,630 --> 00:01:32,149 Speaker 3: She has a wife. She has a mother. She is 31 00:01:32,209 --> 00:01:38,000 Speaker 3: Snow the Product. In real life today. Thank you. Hi, Snow. 32 00:01:38,140 --> 00:01:38,420 Speaker 1: Hi. 33 00:01:38,660 --> 00:01:39,860 Speaker 3: I feel like we're Instagram friends. 34 00:01:40,240 --> 00:01:40,660 Speaker 1: I know. 35 00:01:40,680 --> 00:01:43,300 Speaker 3: I feel like I want to vibe with you in 36 00:01:43,360 --> 00:01:45,039 Speaker 3: real life, and so I'm glad you're here today. 37 00:01:45,180 --> 00:01:46,140 Speaker 1: I'm very glad to be here. 38 00:01:46,240 --> 00:01:48,390 Speaker 3: But I've been following you. We've never met, but I've 39 00:01:48,410 --> 00:01:50,770 Speaker 3: been following you. We follow each other. Isn't that funny 40 00:01:50,810 --> 00:01:51,350 Speaker 3: how you can have. 41 00:01:52,170 --> 00:01:52,590 Speaker 1: Yeah. 42 00:01:52,630 --> 00:01:54,230 Speaker 3: Like, I feel like I kind of know you, but. 43 00:01:54,410 --> 00:01:54,770 Speaker 2: Yeah. 44 00:01:54,830 --> 00:01:56,570 Speaker 1: And it's been like years where it's like, you know, 45 00:01:56,610 --> 00:01:58,270 Speaker 1: we kind of like think about like, we're like, okay, 46 00:01:58,290 --> 00:02:01,140 Speaker 1: should we, let's meet up. And I think it's nice 47 00:02:01,180 --> 00:02:02,900 Speaker 1: to see you. And it does feel like I know you. Like, 48 00:02:02,920 --> 00:02:04,440 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying? But let's get to know 49 00:02:04,460 --> 00:02:04,660 Speaker 1: each other. 50 00:02:04,780 --> 00:02:07,100 Speaker 3: What I'm hoping for today is that people who know 51 00:02:07,120 --> 00:02:08,720 Speaker 3: you and follow you will get to know you at 52 00:02:08,760 --> 00:02:10,859 Speaker 3: like maybe a little bit of a different level. And 53 00:02:10,900 --> 00:02:14,090 Speaker 3: then people who don't know you could come to the party. 54 00:02:14,389 --> 00:02:14,649 Speaker 1: Yeah. 55 00:02:15,090 --> 00:02:15,430 Speaker 3: Yeah. 56 00:02:15,510 --> 00:02:16,209 Speaker 1: God willing, you know? 57 00:02:16,230 --> 00:02:18,150 Speaker 3: Yeah. Take me to the beginning. Like, how do you 58 00:02:18,210 --> 00:02:20,340 Speaker 3: even like begin this career? I. 59 00:02:21,610 --> 00:02:23,170 Speaker 1: When I was a little kid, my dad would make 60 00:02:23,190 --> 00:02:25,750 Speaker 1: me sing mariachi. When I was like really little kid, 61 00:02:25,780 --> 00:02:27,739 Speaker 1: my dad sang mariachi. My grandpa, like, you know, in 62 00:02:27,780 --> 00:02:29,380 Speaker 1: our family, it was always musical. It was always like, 63 00:02:29,700 --> 00:02:31,840 Speaker 1: there's a get together, everyone's singing. Like they're, you know. 64 00:02:32,200 --> 00:02:33,360 Speaker 3: Both your parents are from Mexico? 65 00:02:33,639 --> 00:02:33,880 Speaker 1: Yeah. 66 00:02:34,240 --> 00:02:34,460 Speaker 3: Yeah. 67 00:02:34,940 --> 00:02:38,480 Speaker 1: And so that's what it was. I ran away from 68 00:02:38,560 --> 00:02:40,399 Speaker 1: it for a long time. I kind of almost ran 69 00:02:40,440 --> 00:02:43,359 Speaker 1: away from everything. My dad was a very like overbearing dude. 70 00:02:43,740 --> 00:02:45,880 Speaker 1: So it was like everything he like pushed me to do, 71 00:02:45,940 --> 00:02:47,760 Speaker 1: I was like rebelled at some point. I was like, 72 00:02:47,780 --> 00:02:48,380 Speaker 1: I don't want to do that. 73 00:02:48,600 --> 00:02:50,410 Speaker 3: Is he first generation here? Yeah. 74 00:02:50,750 --> 00:02:52,790 Speaker 1: He's in Mexico. Both my parents are in Mexico. 75 00:02:52,810 --> 00:02:53,790 Speaker 3: Oh, they're still in Mexico. Yeah. 76 00:02:53,830 --> 00:02:56,010 Speaker 1: Well, they came here, like kind of, I always say that, 77 00:02:56,030 --> 00:02:58,750 Speaker 1: like got, got citizenship and then left. So I was 78 00:02:58,770 --> 00:03:00,590 Speaker 1: just like, what was all this for? You know, which 79 00:03:00,650 --> 00:03:02,370 Speaker 1: is weird. Cause it's like, now I'm so outspoken about 80 00:03:02,389 --> 00:03:04,730 Speaker 1: immigrants and I'm like, most of the immigrants I know left. 81 00:03:05,050 --> 00:03:06,690 Speaker 1: So I'm like, what am I even doing? Like half 82 00:03:06,710 --> 00:03:09,120 Speaker 1: the time I'm arguing with myself. Like, what am I like, 83 00:03:09,130 --> 00:03:12,380 Speaker 1: you know, but I guess anyway, we'll talk about that. But, um, yeah, 84 00:03:12,660 --> 00:03:15,780 Speaker 1: that ran away from it at some point, start freestyling, 85 00:03:15,800 --> 00:03:18,329 Speaker 1: start rapping, you know, hip hop, uh, You know, you're 86 00:03:18,370 --> 00:03:20,450 Speaker 1: listening to music and I'm like, I think I could 87 00:03:20,470 --> 00:03:28,280 Speaker 1: do it. Miss Lauryn Hill, Big Pun, you know, Biggie, Pac, obviously, 88 00:03:28,820 --> 00:03:34,320 Speaker 1: Andre 3000, Brat, Shauna, like, you know, Lil' Kim, like Missy. 89 00:03:34,680 --> 00:03:37,880 Speaker 1: You know, it's just all the stuff that, I don't know, 90 00:03:38,020 --> 00:03:41,470 Speaker 1: is good music. And I think I haven't left that vibe. 91 00:03:41,490 --> 00:03:43,230 Speaker 1: When I put on music, I put on the same 92 00:03:43,290 --> 00:03:44,570 Speaker 1: stuff I listened to my entire life. 93 00:03:45,200 --> 00:03:46,800 Speaker 3: You know, so I don't know. You still now listen 94 00:03:46,820 --> 00:03:47,080 Speaker 3: to it? 95 00:03:47,100 --> 00:03:50,020 Speaker 1: To this day. To this day. Yeah, I haven't left 96 00:03:50,500 --> 00:03:53,360 Speaker 1: that era of music. Other than, like, Drake, I think, or, like, 97 00:03:53,700 --> 00:03:55,600 Speaker 1: Bryson Tiller. Like, I listen to, like, more R & 98 00:03:55,320 --> 00:03:56,300 Speaker 1: B stuff. Yeah. 99 00:03:56,700 --> 00:03:58,900 Speaker 3: Okay, so you're younger, you're listening to that, and you 100 00:03:58,920 --> 00:03:59,300 Speaker 3: try it. 101 00:03:59,620 --> 00:04:00,030 Speaker 1: Try it. 102 00:04:00,040 --> 00:04:01,780 Speaker 3: And you're, like, nice right away? No, terrible. 103 00:04:01,800 --> 00:04:03,840 Speaker 1: Yeah, no. Like, I think a couple of my bars, 104 00:04:03,910 --> 00:04:06,310 Speaker 1: I kind of got the gist, and I've been listening to, like, 105 00:04:06,780 --> 00:04:09,029 Speaker 1: the best, you know? So I'm just like, okay, this 106 00:04:09,050 --> 00:04:11,110 Speaker 1: is how you form a bar, and this is how 107 00:04:11,150 --> 00:04:14,910 Speaker 1: you do patterns. I was really obsessed with, like... percussion 108 00:04:14,970 --> 00:04:17,530 Speaker 1: and drums so it's like i i would just be 109 00:04:17,570 --> 00:04:19,770 Speaker 1: like okay this is how you want to and i 110 00:04:19,810 --> 00:04:22,330 Speaker 1: don't know that was it like that's that's just what 111 00:04:22,370 --> 00:04:24,370 Speaker 1: i did and i felt good and i got to 112 00:04:24,430 --> 00:04:27,300 Speaker 1: escape my life as it was while i was making 113 00:04:27,339 --> 00:04:30,660 Speaker 1: it i think it just became an escape and. 114 00:04:30,620 --> 00:04:33,339 Speaker 3: That's all what were you escaping i. 115 00:04:33,320 --> 00:04:35,540 Speaker 1: Don't know it was just you know i was first 116 00:04:35,580 --> 00:04:41,950 Speaker 1: generation uh american born granddaughter on two sides you know 117 00:04:41,970 --> 00:04:43,790 Speaker 1: my mom's one of nine my dad's one of nine 118 00:04:44,230 --> 00:04:48,369 Speaker 1: huge family, just fully Mexican. Like everyone's just born in Mexico, 119 00:04:48,410 --> 00:04:49,070 Speaker 1: raised in Mexico. 120 00:04:49,110 --> 00:04:49,400 Speaker 3: That's it. 121 00:04:49,430 --> 00:04:51,710 Speaker 1: I'm the first granddaughter that pops out. And I'm like, 122 00:04:52,390 --> 00:04:54,570 Speaker 1: now born in the U S and like being raised here. 123 00:04:54,600 --> 00:04:57,700 Speaker 1: And like, I'm hearing everyone telling me everything I'm doing 124 00:04:57,760 --> 00:05:00,800 Speaker 1: is wrong. And you're just like, I don't know where 125 00:05:00,820 --> 00:05:02,180 Speaker 1: to go. You know what I'm saying? And it's like, 126 00:05:02,240 --> 00:05:03,900 Speaker 1: it's not like we have very much money or anything. 127 00:05:03,960 --> 00:05:07,380 Speaker 1: So my dad's working two jobs. My mom's working like everyone, 128 00:05:07,760 --> 00:05:09,719 Speaker 1: it starts to feel really alone. So I would literally 129 00:05:09,740 --> 00:05:12,420 Speaker 1: just like, make music, you know, or like write or 130 00:05:12,440 --> 00:05:14,279 Speaker 1: like first it started off as like kind of like 131 00:05:15,220 --> 00:05:18,240 Speaker 1: writing words, poetry, and then it just became rap. And 132 00:05:18,260 --> 00:05:21,540 Speaker 1: then it became go to this showcase, go to this showcase. 133 00:05:21,600 --> 00:05:23,780 Speaker 1: And you just kind of start, I don't know. And 134 00:05:23,820 --> 00:05:26,000 Speaker 1: then I never stopped. I remember my mom said this 135 00:05:26,880 --> 00:05:28,240 Speaker 1: one time when I was in high school, she was like, 136 00:05:28,260 --> 00:05:30,370 Speaker 1: you quit everything you do. She's like, you do things 137 00:05:30,380 --> 00:05:31,990 Speaker 1: and then you quit and then you whatever. She's like, 138 00:05:32,000 --> 00:05:34,369 Speaker 1: the next thing you do, just don't stop. Just go, 139 00:05:34,430 --> 00:05:36,870 Speaker 1: just do something. And it was rap. And I just 140 00:05:36,910 --> 00:05:37,390 Speaker 1: never did. 141 00:05:37,410 --> 00:05:37,870 Speaker 2: Wow. 142 00:05:38,650 --> 00:05:39,870 Speaker 1: You know, I don't know. I don't even know if 143 00:05:40,270 --> 00:05:41,810 Speaker 1: Sometimes I question myself. I'm like, is this what I 144 00:05:41,830 --> 00:05:44,200 Speaker 1: really wanted to do? And I'm like, no, I just 145 00:05:44,240 --> 00:05:44,760 Speaker 1: kept going. 146 00:05:44,920 --> 00:05:45,240 Speaker 3: You know? 147 00:05:45,300 --> 00:05:48,140 Speaker 1: And then it eventually included my brother and my cousin 148 00:05:48,160 --> 00:05:50,160 Speaker 1: and my family and my friends. And then it just 149 00:05:50,180 --> 00:05:53,100 Speaker 1: became something that we all gathered around to create together. 150 00:05:53,560 --> 00:05:54,940 Speaker 3: Like a community. You built a community. 151 00:05:54,960 --> 00:05:56,420 Speaker 1: Yeah. So now I'm like, and now we all live 152 00:05:56,440 --> 00:05:58,300 Speaker 1: together and we have a ranch and everybody lives on 153 00:05:58,339 --> 00:06:00,700 Speaker 1: the property. And this is just all we know. This 154 00:06:00,740 --> 00:06:01,940 Speaker 1: became really my life. 155 00:06:02,020 --> 00:06:03,320 Speaker 3: How many people on this property? 156 00:06:03,339 --> 00:06:07,250 Speaker 1: I mean, it's my aunt and her kid. It's my cousin, 157 00:06:07,370 --> 00:06:12,289 Speaker 1: my brother, my wife, my son. all my animals. And 158 00:06:12,350 --> 00:06:14,469 Speaker 1: here and there, here and there, whoever crashes, you know, 159 00:06:14,490 --> 00:06:16,270 Speaker 1: like I have multiple places where you can crash if 160 00:06:16,290 --> 00:06:19,170 Speaker 1: you want. Like some people stay for a while, two weeks. 161 00:06:19,210 --> 00:06:20,110 Speaker 1: Some people don't like. 162 00:06:20,750 --> 00:06:23,890 Speaker 3: That is a whole vibe though. And there's music always happening. 163 00:06:24,440 --> 00:06:28,080 Speaker 1: There's music, there's pool, there's a carna sala. There's just, 164 00:06:28,140 --> 00:06:32,140 Speaker 1: you know, I have goats, I have chickens, I have dogs. Um, 165 00:06:32,220 --> 00:06:35,640 Speaker 1: and just trying to live in community. 166 00:06:35,700 --> 00:06:37,480 Speaker 3: I think, you know, it's so interesting. We always hear 167 00:06:37,520 --> 00:06:41,740 Speaker 3: the story of like, The immigrant who has to deal 168 00:06:41,800 --> 00:06:44,400 Speaker 3: as a child feeling out of place because they're here 169 00:06:44,420 --> 00:06:47,140 Speaker 3: and language and all that. We don't really often too 170 00:06:47,180 --> 00:06:49,930 Speaker 3: much hear the story of the first generation where your 171 00:06:49,990 --> 00:06:53,810 Speaker 3: whole family and everybody else around you has lived a 172 00:06:53,870 --> 00:06:57,510 Speaker 3: different experience. Yeah. And you're this little girl growing up 173 00:06:57,589 --> 00:07:02,000 Speaker 3: here with this family. American hip hop music as your 174 00:07:02,060 --> 00:07:05,350 Speaker 3: influence and, and English was your second language when you 175 00:07:05,770 --> 00:07:07,490 Speaker 3: were just saying like a second language, but you were 176 00:07:07,510 --> 00:07:10,530 Speaker 3: probably one of the few in your family that were fluent, right? 177 00:07:11,010 --> 00:07:13,690 Speaker 1: Yeah. I mean, well, when I was little, I didn't, 178 00:07:13,770 --> 00:07:16,710 Speaker 1: my little brain didn't understand that I was going to 179 00:07:16,740 --> 00:07:18,320 Speaker 1: speak English. Like I thought I was just going to 180 00:07:18,480 --> 00:07:19,840 Speaker 1: grow up to be like my mom. Like I was 181 00:07:19,860 --> 00:07:22,200 Speaker 1: just going to speak Spanish. So my household was completely 182 00:07:22,240 --> 00:07:25,000 Speaker 1: Spanish and it wasn't until I think like, you know, 183 00:07:25,040 --> 00:07:27,119 Speaker 1: as I started going to school and like kindergarten, first grade, 184 00:07:27,580 --> 00:07:30,250 Speaker 1: that I start speaking English as a second language, but 185 00:07:30,260 --> 00:07:32,350 Speaker 1: I have an accent. And now, you know, people at school, 186 00:07:32,410 --> 00:07:33,730 Speaker 1: like kids at school are making fun of how you 187 00:07:33,770 --> 00:07:37,100 Speaker 1: say things. But then at home, you can't speak English 188 00:07:37,120 --> 00:07:39,290 Speaker 1: because then people think, You think you're better than them. 189 00:07:39,450 --> 00:07:41,150 Speaker 1: So it's like, you're just kind of like battling these 190 00:07:41,210 --> 00:07:47,390 Speaker 1: two identities and constantly doing that. But yeah, you're right. That's, 191 00:07:47,620 --> 00:07:48,150 Speaker 1: that's a lot. 192 00:07:48,630 --> 00:07:51,040 Speaker 3: It is a lot. You know, when you think about that, right? 193 00:07:51,360 --> 00:07:51,640 Speaker 1: Yeah. 194 00:07:51,920 --> 00:07:53,520 Speaker 3: Cause then you're not even young enough. You're too young 195 00:07:53,560 --> 00:07:56,380 Speaker 3: to even process that. Yeah. You're just happy. You know 196 00:07:56,400 --> 00:07:57,740 Speaker 3: what I'm saying? Trying to figure it out. 197 00:07:57,800 --> 00:07:59,980 Speaker 1: I was a happy hyper kid. Like I was just 198 00:08:00,260 --> 00:08:03,750 Speaker 1: running around doing, doing a lot. And then yeah, life 199 00:08:03,830 --> 00:08:06,680 Speaker 1: and society starts to kind of like, limit you and 200 00:08:06,710 --> 00:08:08,100 Speaker 1: control you you can't do this and you can't do 201 00:08:08,120 --> 00:08:09,540 Speaker 1: that and you can't do this here and if you 202 00:08:09,560 --> 00:08:11,640 Speaker 1: do that there you you can do it over here 203 00:08:11,660 --> 00:08:13,360 Speaker 1: but not over there and you just start kind of 204 00:08:13,400 --> 00:08:16,060 Speaker 1: like you know and obviously being neurodivergent and like having 205 00:08:16,080 --> 00:08:18,940 Speaker 1: adhd it's like it starts to feel like everything you're 206 00:08:18,960 --> 00:08:22,760 Speaker 1: doing is wrong and so you feel alone and it 207 00:08:22,780 --> 00:08:24,420 Speaker 1: takes a while to and i think that's what you 208 00:08:24,440 --> 00:08:27,240 Speaker 1: start seeking that community that that vibe is like okay 209 00:08:27,280 --> 00:08:29,080 Speaker 1: they don't like rap so where do where are the 210 00:08:29,120 --> 00:08:30,480 Speaker 1: people who like rap so i could go hang out 211 00:08:30,500 --> 00:08:32,480 Speaker 1: with them and you know where are the people who 212 00:08:32,840 --> 00:08:34,850 Speaker 1: who want to make this type of music or do 213 00:08:34,880 --> 00:08:37,130 Speaker 1: these type of things and And I think that's ultimately 214 00:08:37,170 --> 00:08:39,370 Speaker 1: why a lot of times in Latino communities or black 215 00:08:39,390 --> 00:08:43,010 Speaker 1: and brown communities, we seek community and family outside of 216 00:08:43,070 --> 00:08:45,130 Speaker 1: our own family. And it ends up sometimes, you know, 217 00:08:45,150 --> 00:08:47,089 Speaker 1: being the streets or gangs or whatever. But it's because 218 00:08:47,110 --> 00:08:49,120 Speaker 1: we're just looking for like minded people to like hang 219 00:08:49,170 --> 00:08:50,050 Speaker 1: out with and have fun. 220 00:08:50,170 --> 00:08:51,380 Speaker 3: That likes the same shit we like. 221 00:08:51,420 --> 00:08:52,339 Speaker 1: That's all. Yeah. 222 00:08:52,580 --> 00:08:54,800 Speaker 3: And don't look at us like we're crazy. Yeah. So 223 00:08:54,820 --> 00:08:56,980 Speaker 3: when you were young, did you were you struggling with 224 00:08:57,000 --> 00:08:58,920 Speaker 3: ADHD and all that? Or was that older that you 225 00:08:59,080 --> 00:09:00,650 Speaker 3: kind of identified that? I. 226 00:09:01,570 --> 00:09:04,569 Speaker 1: I think pretty young you could tell something was going 227 00:09:04,690 --> 00:09:06,469 Speaker 1: on because I was just a lot I was a 228 00:09:06,490 --> 00:09:08,950 Speaker 1: lot you know like even nowadays when I watch some 229 00:09:08,990 --> 00:09:11,010 Speaker 1: of my baby videos I'm like oh okay like I 230 00:09:11,050 --> 00:09:12,890 Speaker 1: get my mom now sometimes you know I was kind 231 00:09:12,910 --> 00:09:16,140 Speaker 1: of annoying like I was just so much and um 232 00:09:16,520 --> 00:09:18,200 Speaker 1: but pretty early on my mom I think in like 233 00:09:18,260 --> 00:09:20,580 Speaker 1: elementary school she started like kind of being like you 234 00:09:20,640 --> 00:09:23,319 Speaker 1: have something so and she was very the good thing 235 00:09:23,340 --> 00:09:25,120 Speaker 1: that I could give my mom props for is she 236 00:09:25,140 --> 00:09:28,290 Speaker 1: always seek help for whatever we needed I did go 237 00:09:28,309 --> 00:09:31,230 Speaker 1: to therapy young I did you know go get diagnosed 238 00:09:31,270 --> 00:09:34,010 Speaker 1: with ADHD I did you know they did try medicine 239 00:09:34,309 --> 00:09:35,710 Speaker 1: so I think that was good it was good that 240 00:09:35,730 --> 00:09:38,890 Speaker 1: my mom always kind of like seeked okay what age 241 00:09:38,950 --> 00:09:42,929 Speaker 1: is that um like middle school uh-huh yeah oh that's 242 00:09:42,990 --> 00:09:45,710 Speaker 1: pretty young yeah and um I. 243 00:09:45,670 --> 00:09:48,090 Speaker 3: Feel like there's so many people almost being misdiagnosed now 244 00:09:48,110 --> 00:09:51,910 Speaker 3: I feel like everybody's It says ADHD so lightly. Yeah. 245 00:09:51,940 --> 00:09:53,640 Speaker 3: Like if your kids just has a lot of energy 246 00:09:53,720 --> 00:09:55,540 Speaker 3: or what, I just feel like people throw that around 247 00:09:55,679 --> 00:09:58,910 Speaker 3: all the time versus clinically yeah what that means or 248 00:09:58,929 --> 00:10:01,250 Speaker 3: what that experience is or yeah I don't know what 249 00:10:01,270 --> 00:10:02,390 Speaker 3: does that mean for your life. 250 00:10:02,830 --> 00:10:05,150 Speaker 1: Yeah I don't know I think you know and I'm 251 00:10:05,170 --> 00:10:06,989 Speaker 1: gonna like because I've kind of lived with it and 252 00:10:07,010 --> 00:10:10,000 Speaker 1: known that I have it and I've I tried medicine 253 00:10:10,010 --> 00:10:11,890 Speaker 1: and I didn't like it you know like so I'm 254 00:10:11,910 --> 00:10:15,040 Speaker 1: not someone who like I don't think people should immediately 255 00:10:15,100 --> 00:10:18,500 Speaker 1: go to like taking that if you don't absolutely need it. 256 00:10:18,559 --> 00:10:22,480 Speaker 1: Sometimes I will say that ADHD, when you're, when you're 257 00:10:22,520 --> 00:10:25,199 Speaker 1: going unmedicated for a long time, it could turn into like, 258 00:10:25,220 --> 00:10:27,580 Speaker 1: you know, depression. And I did suffer from a lot 259 00:10:27,620 --> 00:10:31,460 Speaker 1: of that, like anxiety, depression, stuff like that. Um, but 260 00:10:31,500 --> 00:10:34,050 Speaker 1: every time that I would kind of like try a medicine, 261 00:10:34,070 --> 00:10:36,939 Speaker 1: it would have a, a reaction somewhere else. And now 262 00:10:36,960 --> 00:10:38,340 Speaker 1: you got to take something else for that. So it's 263 00:10:38,360 --> 00:10:41,179 Speaker 1: like the ADHD medicine is giving me anxiety. Now the anxiety, 264 00:10:41,210 --> 00:10:42,670 Speaker 1: you got to take something else for that. And now 265 00:10:42,690 --> 00:10:44,329 Speaker 1: you got to sleep, you know? So it's like, it 266 00:10:44,350 --> 00:10:45,650 Speaker 1: gets to a point where I was just like, man, 267 00:10:45,730 --> 00:10:48,790 Speaker 1: I just drank coffee and prayed and kept it pushing. 268 00:10:48,809 --> 00:10:52,339 Speaker 1: I was like, that was it. You know, here and 269 00:10:52,380 --> 00:10:54,020 Speaker 1: there I'll, I'll be like, all right, I think I 270 00:10:54,059 --> 00:10:57,220 Speaker 1: need to, talk to my therapist and psychiatrist and get 271 00:10:57,240 --> 00:10:59,490 Speaker 1: a little medicine or something to just level me out. 272 00:10:59,530 --> 00:11:01,450 Speaker 1: But other than that, I'm like, yeah, you're okay. 273 00:11:01,590 --> 00:11:02,189 Speaker 2: You're managing. 274 00:11:02,350 --> 00:11:05,300 Speaker 1: We're, we're going, we're, we're, we're going. 275 00:11:05,460 --> 00:11:07,900 Speaker 3: Do you think it informs or helps you as a creative? 276 00:11:08,510 --> 00:11:10,850 Speaker 3: I think it helps a lot. I think it helps 277 00:11:10,910 --> 00:11:11,170 Speaker 3: a lot. 278 00:11:11,210 --> 00:11:15,590 Speaker 1: I think ADHD and finding that superpower in creativity and 279 00:11:15,630 --> 00:11:19,080 Speaker 1: hyperactive brain and ideas and just whatever, it helps you 280 00:11:19,130 --> 00:11:21,679 Speaker 1: a lot creatively. But it does help to have a 281 00:11:21,720 --> 00:11:24,600 Speaker 1: team around you of people who are not neurodivergent that. 282 00:11:24,480 --> 00:11:25,250 Speaker 3: Could kind of like.... 283 00:11:26,580 --> 00:11:29,640 Speaker 1: Bring it down, land it. You feel me? Cause I, I, I, 284 00:11:29,880 --> 00:11:31,110 Speaker 1: and that's what I was saying about, like, I do 285 00:11:31,120 --> 00:11:32,850 Speaker 1: wish I had, sometimes I do wish I had like 286 00:11:32,890 --> 00:11:34,490 Speaker 1: a really good manager that can help me with some 287 00:11:34,510 --> 00:11:36,070 Speaker 1: of this. Cause like, I have a lot of ideas 288 00:11:36,110 --> 00:11:37,370 Speaker 1: and I spark a lot of things and I want 289 00:11:37,390 --> 00:11:39,190 Speaker 1: to go here and there. And then sometimes I'm like, 290 00:11:39,290 --> 00:11:42,010 Speaker 1: Oh shit, I'm 20 projects deep. And I don't know 291 00:11:42,030 --> 00:11:45,000 Speaker 1: which one to finish, you know? And so, but my 292 00:11:45,040 --> 00:11:48,260 Speaker 1: wife is very neurotypical. She's like, okay, here's the things 293 00:11:48,300 --> 00:11:49,179 Speaker 1: you have this week. 294 00:11:49,320 --> 00:11:50,920 Speaker 3: Break down these terminologies for me. 295 00:11:51,240 --> 00:11:51,679 Speaker 1: No typical. 296 00:11:52,050 --> 00:11:54,170 Speaker 3: She's neurotypical and neurodivergent. 297 00:11:54,350 --> 00:11:54,710 Speaker 2: Yeah. 298 00:11:54,790 --> 00:11:56,770 Speaker 3: Break down what those mean for somebody who doesn't. 299 00:11:56,790 --> 00:11:59,950 Speaker 1: For me? Well, for me, with ADHD, right? With ADHD, 300 00:11:59,970 --> 00:12:03,329 Speaker 1: like I just have these, this, uh, my brain tends 301 00:12:03,410 --> 00:12:07,050 Speaker 1: to be very great and creative and have all these 302 00:12:07,150 --> 00:12:09,250 Speaker 1: great ideas. And I love it. And a lot of 303 00:12:09,290 --> 00:12:13,150 Speaker 1: times what has ended up becoming what made my life 304 00:12:13,550 --> 00:12:18,490 Speaker 1: work out was those ideas. There was these sporadic random, like, 305 00:12:18,630 --> 00:12:19,910 Speaker 1: what if I do this? And then I did it. 306 00:12:19,950 --> 00:12:23,350 Speaker 1: And then next thing you know, you know, I'm, I 307 00:12:23,550 --> 00:12:26,390 Speaker 1: got a Latin Grammy nomination or I went viral again 308 00:12:26,429 --> 00:12:29,090 Speaker 1: and we have a great song and streaming well and whatever. 309 00:12:29,510 --> 00:12:32,950 Speaker 1: And sometimes when I'm not in that type of vibe, 310 00:12:32,970 --> 00:12:36,270 Speaker 1: I'm just a blob. I'm just like, you know? 311 00:12:36,290 --> 00:12:40,140 Speaker 3: Imagine somebody who lives a very strict life with a 312 00:12:40,150 --> 00:12:43,780 Speaker 3: strict family and is in a box for whatever reason, 313 00:12:44,480 --> 00:12:52,450 Speaker 3: but they're ADHD or neurodivergent. how that could go left without, without, 314 00:12:52,950 --> 00:12:54,370 Speaker 3: I don't know, just the way to get it out. 315 00:12:54,809 --> 00:12:56,790 Speaker 1: I think a lot of times that's what happens. It's 316 00:12:56,809 --> 00:12:58,630 Speaker 1: like when you're in your child, right? Like I was saying, 317 00:12:58,650 --> 00:12:59,990 Speaker 1: it's like, I was a little kid. I was happy. 318 00:13:00,010 --> 00:13:01,790 Speaker 1: I was hyper. I'm moving around. I'm doing all these 319 00:13:01,830 --> 00:13:04,510 Speaker 1: things or whatever. And it's like, then society tries to 320 00:13:04,550 --> 00:13:06,540 Speaker 1: like push you into this box and then, you know 321 00:13:06,580 --> 00:13:08,380 Speaker 1: what you can do, what you can't do. You're a woman. 322 00:13:08,400 --> 00:13:09,620 Speaker 1: You need to do this. You need to, you know, 323 00:13:09,900 --> 00:13:12,380 Speaker 1: and it's like, sometimes that's not it. You want, you're 324 00:13:12,400 --> 00:13:16,640 Speaker 1: a multifaceted, you know, person. And, and I think that 325 00:13:16,740 --> 00:13:20,260 Speaker 1: does eventually turn into something, problematic for a lot of people. 326 00:13:20,690 --> 00:13:23,670 Speaker 1: They're forced to, you go to college and now you 327 00:13:23,690 --> 00:13:24,809 Speaker 1: have to have a nine to five and you work 328 00:13:25,250 --> 00:13:27,770 Speaker 1: for the man and you just want to make enough 329 00:13:27,830 --> 00:13:30,270 Speaker 1: money or put enough money in your retirement, your 401k 330 00:13:30,309 --> 00:13:32,250 Speaker 1: to one day retire and finally be able to take 331 00:13:32,270 --> 00:13:35,390 Speaker 1: that one big trip that you always wanted. And that's life. 332 00:13:35,750 --> 00:13:40,150 Speaker 1: And I think that sucks. And I think if more 333 00:13:40,170 --> 00:13:43,070 Speaker 1: people were free to do what they wanted and have 334 00:13:43,150 --> 00:13:46,630 Speaker 1: those side hustles, have those hobbies, have those outlets, those 335 00:13:46,690 --> 00:13:48,890 Speaker 1: creative outlets, more people would be happy and they would 336 00:13:48,910 --> 00:13:51,589 Speaker 1: stop messing with other people's lives, you know? Sometimes people 337 00:13:51,610 --> 00:13:53,850 Speaker 1: are miserable, so they want to just go around and, 338 00:13:54,050 --> 00:13:55,310 Speaker 1: you know... Can I cuss? 339 00:13:55,650 --> 00:13:56,650 Speaker 3: Yes, please. Okay, sorry. 340 00:13:56,980 --> 00:13:59,160 Speaker 1: Shit on other people's life, you know? And it's just like, 341 00:13:59,780 --> 00:14:01,300 Speaker 1: that's not what life was supposed to be. You were 342 00:14:01,320 --> 00:14:07,600 Speaker 1: supposed to just live free, you know? And I think, honestly... 343 00:14:08,480 --> 00:14:10,960 Speaker 1: maybe everybody is a little bit neurodivergent and everybody is 344 00:14:11,040 --> 00:14:13,980 Speaker 1: allowed to just feel whatever they feel and probably. 345 00:14:13,660 --> 00:14:15,680 Speaker 3: More than that's been diagnosed for sure. 346 00:14:15,500 --> 00:14:17,750 Speaker 1: Yeah and i think that's why sometimes when i talk 347 00:14:17,770 --> 00:14:21,110 Speaker 1: about this stuff i say it because i see sometimes 348 00:14:21,170 --> 00:14:23,850 Speaker 1: people parenting their kids and they're not giving them that 349 00:14:23,890 --> 00:14:26,270 Speaker 1: freedom to do whatever they want to do and i'm 350 00:14:26,310 --> 00:14:28,770 Speaker 1: like damn like that kid right now like you know 351 00:14:28,790 --> 00:14:30,720 Speaker 1: is being seen as a bad kid and it's like 352 00:14:30,740 --> 00:14:33,560 Speaker 1: they really just need They need another outlet. 353 00:14:33,300 --> 00:14:36,400 Speaker 3: Because they need to be stimulated in different ways. 354 00:14:36,420 --> 00:14:39,400 Speaker 1: Creative, you know, go, go do some things. 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Or what is this? 389 00:16:27,840 --> 00:16:31,020 Speaker 1: No, like, well, already before, like I said, I seeked 390 00:16:31,140 --> 00:16:35,330 Speaker 1: out people who were more like me because you very 391 00:16:35,390 --> 00:16:38,770 Speaker 1: quickly as a young kid, especially in first generation, you 392 00:16:39,130 --> 00:16:41,890 Speaker 1: start seeing the colorism, the racism, the things within your 393 00:16:41,910 --> 00:16:46,110 Speaker 1: own family, the not accepting of, you know, and you 394 00:16:46,130 --> 00:16:48,510 Speaker 1: just start being like, that's wrong. Like, I don't like that, 395 00:16:48,550 --> 00:16:52,410 Speaker 1: you know, or like going to school, learning certain things 396 00:16:52,430 --> 00:16:56,350 Speaker 1: and then going home. And unlearning those things to learn what, 397 00:16:56,410 --> 00:16:57,990 Speaker 1: you know, my dad, one thing that my dad did 398 00:16:58,010 --> 00:17:00,550 Speaker 1: do for me was he taught me to be very proud, 399 00:17:00,600 --> 00:17:03,120 Speaker 1: like indigenous and Mexican. And, you know, so sometimes when 400 00:17:03,140 --> 00:17:05,240 Speaker 1: I'm going to school and they're teaching me about the 401 00:17:05,280 --> 00:17:08,630 Speaker 1: missions and, you know, what they... they educated the indigenous people. 402 00:17:08,690 --> 00:17:10,330 Speaker 1: And then my dad's like, they didn't educate them. They 403 00:17:10,350 --> 00:17:12,130 Speaker 1: freaking locked them up. And then they, you know, took 404 00:17:12,170 --> 00:17:13,929 Speaker 1: a lot of things from us, you know? So, so 405 00:17:13,990 --> 00:17:16,149 Speaker 1: it's like, I'm learning all these things, you know, and 406 00:17:16,170 --> 00:17:18,629 Speaker 1: I'm learning about dinosaurs and how the world started and, 407 00:17:18,690 --> 00:17:20,450 Speaker 1: you know, the big bang. And then my dad's like, no, 408 00:17:20,530 --> 00:17:22,370 Speaker 1: it was Jesus. And I'm like, oh shoot. Like what? 409 00:17:22,730 --> 00:17:26,149 Speaker 1: So it's like, I'm just in this constant push and pull. 410 00:17:26,630 --> 00:17:29,080 Speaker 1: And so, I don't know, I think rap and music 411 00:17:29,119 --> 00:17:33,180 Speaker 1: and frustration and talking about all this became something. So yes, 412 00:17:33,320 --> 00:17:35,260 Speaker 1: once I was going to rap, I knew my family 413 00:17:35,280 --> 00:17:37,359 Speaker 1: wasn't going to like it. And so that made me 414 00:17:37,420 --> 00:17:40,840 Speaker 1: even more pulled away from everything. Just go in my 415 00:17:40,859 --> 00:17:42,600 Speaker 1: room and I would spend hours and hours and hours 416 00:17:42,640 --> 00:17:43,159 Speaker 1: by myself. 417 00:17:43,180 --> 00:17:45,400 Speaker 3: What were you rapping about? What were you writing about? 418 00:17:46,440 --> 00:17:48,649 Speaker 1: Getting out of poverty. I mean, at the time I 419 00:17:48,670 --> 00:17:50,370 Speaker 1: was a bad kid. I mean, I hope my son 420 00:17:50,450 --> 00:17:52,530 Speaker 1: covers his ears, but I was doing bad. You know 421 00:17:52,550 --> 00:17:56,270 Speaker 1: what I'm saying? I was like, I was, I was rebelling. 422 00:17:56,770 --> 00:17:57,050 Speaker 3: Right. 423 00:17:57,530 --> 00:18:00,820 Speaker 1: So I'm, you know, committing little crimes and going to 424 00:18:00,859 --> 00:18:03,260 Speaker 1: juvenile hall and doing dumb things that I shouldn't have 425 00:18:03,300 --> 00:18:06,780 Speaker 1: been doing. And, just trying to find, I don't know. 426 00:18:06,840 --> 00:18:07,439 Speaker 3: I was mad. 427 00:18:07,500 --> 00:18:10,560 Speaker 1: I was angry. I was trying to figure out what 428 00:18:11,280 --> 00:18:14,000 Speaker 1: life was about. So I'm rapping about everything. 429 00:18:14,460 --> 00:18:18,260 Speaker 3: You're rebellious rapping too, right? Yeah. Fuck these people. Fuck them. 430 00:18:18,280 --> 00:18:22,180 Speaker 1: Fuck everybody. I'm fucking poor. Like I'll rob you. Like 431 00:18:22,220 --> 00:18:25,359 Speaker 1: I don't fucking care. Like, you know, so I'm, that's basically, yeah. 432 00:18:26,119 --> 00:18:28,420 Speaker 3: So when did you, I don't know, at some point, 433 00:18:29,020 --> 00:18:31,000 Speaker 3: when did you think this could be a career? 434 00:18:31,100 --> 00:18:33,460 Speaker 1: Well, I tried to go to college for, like, two weeks. 435 00:18:33,700 --> 00:18:34,200 Speaker 3: Two weeks. 436 00:18:34,520 --> 00:18:37,000 Speaker 1: Nice. And then I got a parking ticket. 437 00:18:37,040 --> 00:18:38,320 Speaker 2: Were you studying communication? 438 00:18:38,340 --> 00:18:43,780 Speaker 1: No, psychology. I wanted to be a social worker because 439 00:18:43,859 --> 00:18:45,159 Speaker 1: I got a lot of help. Like I said, my 440 00:18:45,180 --> 00:18:47,800 Speaker 1: mom did get me that. I went to the teen 441 00:18:47,840 --> 00:18:50,179 Speaker 1: center and then low-income housing. Like, I was like, I 442 00:18:50,200 --> 00:18:52,360 Speaker 1: want to do that for somebody. Like, you know, especially 443 00:18:52,400 --> 00:18:55,040 Speaker 1: after I decided. When I went to juvenile hall and 444 00:18:55,380 --> 00:18:57,760 Speaker 1: did all this bad stuff or whatever, like, they had 445 00:18:57,780 --> 00:18:59,220 Speaker 1: therapists in there and then they were just like is 446 00:18:59,240 --> 00:19:00,440 Speaker 1: this what you want for the rest of your life 447 00:19:00,480 --> 00:19:01,939 Speaker 1: like you want to be locked up like you're you 448 00:19:01,960 --> 00:19:03,740 Speaker 1: say you're this rebellious person but you want to be 449 00:19:03,760 --> 00:19:05,780 Speaker 1: in here being told what to do every day you 450 00:19:05,800 --> 00:19:09,180 Speaker 1: know whatever and then they talk to you 17 16 451 00:19:09,180 --> 00:19:12,379 Speaker 1: yeah it was like right before like you know it's 452 00:19:12,400 --> 00:19:14,010 Speaker 1: like they were like you really they're like you do 453 00:19:14,050 --> 00:19:16,270 Speaker 1: this again next year you're going to prison like you're 454 00:19:16,290 --> 00:19:18,189 Speaker 1: going to jail yeah and i was just like then 455 00:19:18,210 --> 00:19:19,669 Speaker 1: they were like you know your brother think about your 456 00:19:19,690 --> 00:19:22,500 Speaker 1: brother and that right there kind of hurt me a 457 00:19:22,520 --> 00:19:24,460 Speaker 1: lot because my brother, I've always been very close with it. 458 00:19:24,600 --> 00:19:26,219 Speaker 3: So I was like, man, you know what? I got 459 00:19:26,240 --> 00:19:26,620 Speaker 3: to do better. 460 00:19:26,840 --> 00:19:28,720 Speaker 1: And then I just, I remember even reading the Bible 461 00:19:28,740 --> 00:19:30,310 Speaker 1: and stuff and just being like, all right, like I 462 00:19:30,350 --> 00:19:32,050 Speaker 1: promise God, I'm not going to do nothing bad. Just, 463 00:19:32,550 --> 00:19:33,990 Speaker 1: you know, I knew that karma was coming. So I 464 00:19:34,010 --> 00:19:36,370 Speaker 1: was just like, yo, God, please just forgive me for this. 465 00:19:36,450 --> 00:19:38,710 Speaker 1: And I just will never do any of this ever again. 466 00:19:38,730 --> 00:19:40,210 Speaker 1: I'll focus on whatever I got to focus. 467 00:19:40,490 --> 00:19:41,890 Speaker 3: You're 17 having this conversation? 468 00:19:41,950 --> 00:19:42,370 Speaker 2: Yes. 469 00:19:42,490 --> 00:19:45,490 Speaker 1: With God, like real, like really just, I'm reading Proverbs. 470 00:19:45,510 --> 00:19:48,260 Speaker 1: I'm like, really just like, I, don't ever want this 471 00:19:48,540 --> 00:19:51,000 Speaker 1: feeling again, you know? I felt like, I felt like shit, 472 00:19:51,320 --> 00:19:53,100 Speaker 1: to be honest. Like, I just didn't. And then I'm 473 00:19:53,119 --> 00:19:54,540 Speaker 1: looking at all my friends. And at that point, my 474 00:19:54,580 --> 00:19:57,200 Speaker 1: friends are 18, 19, 20. They're going to jail. They're 475 00:19:57,220 --> 00:19:59,360 Speaker 1: getting into meth now or different stuff. You know, first 476 00:19:59,400 --> 00:20:01,480 Speaker 1: I was, it was just like, we're smoking weed. We're 477 00:20:01,500 --> 00:20:03,159 Speaker 1: doing this. We're doing that. Now people are starting to 478 00:20:03,200 --> 00:20:06,280 Speaker 1: do bigger things. And I'm just like, ah, that's not 479 00:20:06,300 --> 00:20:08,790 Speaker 1: really what I want. So then I just focused on 480 00:20:08,810 --> 00:20:12,890 Speaker 1: the music. start going to showcases. People start really being like, yo, 481 00:20:12,930 --> 00:20:15,090 Speaker 1: you're good. Like, you're not just kind of good. You're good. 482 00:20:15,350 --> 00:20:17,030 Speaker 3: And I was like, nice. 483 00:20:17,109 --> 00:20:18,670 Speaker 1: It felt good to get those compliments. You know, it 484 00:20:18,690 --> 00:20:20,990 Speaker 1: felt good to be told I'm good at something. So 485 00:20:21,750 --> 00:20:22,970 Speaker 1: it gives you like a purpose, right? 486 00:20:23,130 --> 00:20:24,070 Speaker 3: Yeah. 487 00:20:24,690 --> 00:20:33,609 Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah. And then I just low key, like I 488 00:20:33,650 --> 00:20:36,209 Speaker 1: just keep going. And then I started, then I find 489 00:20:36,250 --> 00:20:38,790 Speaker 1: the internet. So then that's when, you know, my space and, 490 00:20:39,180 --> 00:20:42,450 Speaker 1: YouTube and, and I, that piff and, you know, the 491 00:20:42,830 --> 00:20:46,130 Speaker 1: two dope boys and blogs and, you know, and then 492 00:20:46,150 --> 00:20:49,490 Speaker 1: eventually I get on, um, world star. That'll do it 493 00:20:49,550 --> 00:20:49,790 Speaker 1: for you. 494 00:20:49,970 --> 00:20:51,530 Speaker 3: And then you start get popping. Yeah. 495 00:20:51,570 --> 00:20:53,460 Speaker 1: World star posts back then. Like, yeah, they're going to, 496 00:20:53,650 --> 00:20:55,530 Speaker 1: they're going to drag you to hell, but they're going to, 497 00:20:55,890 --> 00:20:57,730 Speaker 1: they're going to get those views up and you're going 498 00:20:57,750 --> 00:21:02,680 Speaker 1: to get something going. So like that feeling that, that negative, 499 00:21:02,740 --> 00:21:04,540 Speaker 1: just trying to run away from it. So I always 500 00:21:04,660 --> 00:21:06,940 Speaker 1: put it into rap and put it into music and 501 00:21:06,960 --> 00:21:09,990 Speaker 1: put it into being creative or whatever. And then sometimes 502 00:21:10,010 --> 00:21:11,669 Speaker 1: I would just run away physically. I would just, you know, 503 00:21:11,750 --> 00:21:14,859 Speaker 1: go to Mexico or dip. Like, cause I always grew up, 504 00:21:15,090 --> 00:21:18,560 Speaker 1: you know, between Northern California or Southern California, or, you know, 505 00:21:18,640 --> 00:21:21,260 Speaker 1: then I moved to Texas and then going to Mexico. 506 00:21:21,320 --> 00:21:23,000 Speaker 1: It's like, I've always kind of like had that feeling 507 00:21:23,040 --> 00:21:27,780 Speaker 1: of just like running away. And eventually you really don't 508 00:21:27,820 --> 00:21:29,590 Speaker 1: run away anymore. You're just kind of sitting in it. 509 00:21:29,619 --> 00:21:31,130 Speaker 1: And I think that's kind of where I'm at right now. 510 00:21:31,170 --> 00:21:33,699 Speaker 1: It's like, I don't think physically running away from anything 511 00:21:33,740 --> 00:21:36,000 Speaker 1: is going to do anything. The world's becoming smaller. The more, 512 00:21:36,060 --> 00:21:38,460 Speaker 1: you know, the more internet and the more I can travel, 513 00:21:38,500 --> 00:21:40,080 Speaker 1: I can buy a ticket anywhere right now. The world 514 00:21:40,119 --> 00:21:43,230 Speaker 1: just became a lot smaller. So now you're just like, okay, 515 00:21:43,250 --> 00:21:44,949 Speaker 1: so what the hell am I? So I think that's 516 00:21:44,970 --> 00:21:46,390 Speaker 1: where I'm at right now is like trying to figure 517 00:21:46,430 --> 00:21:47,890 Speaker 1: out what it's, what it's always been. 518 00:21:47,910 --> 00:21:48,910 Speaker 3: It was fun. 519 00:21:48,930 --> 00:21:51,270 Speaker 1: It's been fun to make music. It's been fun. 520 00:21:51,070 --> 00:21:53,960 Speaker 3: To tour and probably tour and, and. 521 00:21:53,880 --> 00:21:56,240 Speaker 1: Then go just keep going. And eventually you just kind 522 00:21:56,260 --> 00:21:57,200 Speaker 1: of sit there and be like, damn. 523 00:21:57,540 --> 00:22:01,600 Speaker 3: In the quiet. That scares people. I'm surprised therapy hasn't, 524 00:22:02,040 --> 00:22:02,960 Speaker 3: pointed that out for you. 525 00:22:03,000 --> 00:22:06,560 Speaker 1: It does, but it's almost like, how do I say this? 526 00:22:06,660 --> 00:22:09,340 Speaker 1: I've been able to, I could say it to you. 527 00:22:09,359 --> 00:22:11,060 Speaker 1: I could tell you right now what I know it 528 00:22:11,160 --> 00:22:14,480 Speaker 1: is and I'm, it doesn't solve it. You know what 529 00:22:14,520 --> 00:22:17,419 Speaker 1: I'm saying? Like, I'm like, I know what it is. 530 00:22:17,500 --> 00:22:19,350 Speaker 1: I know what I'm kind of like, I can pinpoint 531 00:22:19,380 --> 00:22:21,670 Speaker 1: these things at this point. I can put it into 532 00:22:21,710 --> 00:22:24,510 Speaker 1: words and it's just like, so maybe, so maybe it's 533 00:22:24,530 --> 00:22:26,129 Speaker 1: not that, I don't know. Maybe it's something else, but 534 00:22:26,190 --> 00:22:28,510 Speaker 1: I just don't see it. I don't know. But I 535 00:22:28,530 --> 00:22:31,120 Speaker 1: think that's what life is, right? It's like, It's that 536 00:22:31,200 --> 00:22:35,270 Speaker 1: constant wanting. As humanity, we've always wanted to improve something, 537 00:22:35,290 --> 00:22:37,290 Speaker 1: wanted to make something better, wanted to discover something, wanted 538 00:22:37,310 --> 00:22:39,869 Speaker 1: to find something. I think that's what pushes us forward 539 00:22:39,910 --> 00:22:44,510 Speaker 1: as humanity. If you don't have hope or if you 540 00:22:44,530 --> 00:22:46,970 Speaker 1: don't have somewhere to go, then you just kind of 541 00:22:47,030 --> 00:22:48,379 Speaker 1: sit there and just wait. It's kind of like when 542 00:22:48,410 --> 00:22:51,879 Speaker 1: old people retire and then they just sit there they 543 00:22:51,900 --> 00:22:53,419 Speaker 1: don't have a purpose anymore and they just kind of 544 00:22:53,440 --> 00:22:55,650 Speaker 1: like get sick and die like that's sad. 545 00:22:56,130 --> 00:23:00,030 Speaker 3: That is depressing that's depressing you just depressed me. 546 00:23:00,230 --> 00:23:02,450 Speaker 1: Like so so you don't know so then we keep 547 00:23:02,490 --> 00:23:04,830 Speaker 1: going you know it's like that's why people like garden 548 00:23:04,869 --> 00:23:07,379 Speaker 1: or do things or build things or you know it's 549 00:23:07,410 --> 00:23:09,560 Speaker 1: like I think about it. I think about like, do 550 00:23:09,600 --> 00:23:11,500 Speaker 1: I want to stop rapping? And then I'm just like, damn, 551 00:23:11,520 --> 00:23:12,440 Speaker 1: what the hell am I going to do? 552 00:23:12,500 --> 00:23:15,080 Speaker 3: Just sit there? No, you can't just sit there. You 553 00:23:15,100 --> 00:23:17,820 Speaker 3: should not do anything else besides rap, besides your career. 554 00:23:17,859 --> 00:23:19,320 Speaker 3: What do you do? Come on. There's got to be more. 555 00:23:19,340 --> 00:23:21,179 Speaker 3: I just started golfing. I talk about this all the time, 556 00:23:21,200 --> 00:23:24,320 Speaker 3: but golf has become my thing. I grew up in 557 00:23:24,359 --> 00:23:26,240 Speaker 3: New York. You would never, I would never in my 558 00:23:26,340 --> 00:23:28,640 Speaker 3: mind think that I would find that. But something about 559 00:23:28,680 --> 00:23:31,359 Speaker 3: being out there in that grass and doing something that 560 00:23:31,380 --> 00:23:33,399 Speaker 3: you're focused. I don't know. For me, it's become a 561 00:23:33,440 --> 00:23:36,370 Speaker 3: thing that takes me out of work. keeps me working 562 00:23:36,410 --> 00:23:39,010 Speaker 3: on something, trying to learn, trying to figure this little game, 563 00:23:39,030 --> 00:23:40,610 Speaker 3: this fucking crazy little game out. 564 00:23:40,930 --> 00:23:41,130 Speaker 1: Yeah. 565 00:23:41,210 --> 00:23:43,910 Speaker 3: I just feel like it's important to have things outside 566 00:23:43,950 --> 00:23:47,169 Speaker 3: of what we do for a career that keep us 567 00:23:47,210 --> 00:23:47,950 Speaker 3: kind of still. 568 00:23:49,020 --> 00:23:51,380 Speaker 1: Yeah. But, and I do, I mean, I got like that, 569 00:23:51,460 --> 00:23:54,600 Speaker 1: the ranch, it's just, I got into, I got into like, 570 00:23:54,840 --> 00:23:57,040 Speaker 1: tried to get into gardening, but that's more frustrating than 571 00:23:57,080 --> 00:23:58,500 Speaker 1: anything I've ever done in my life. 572 00:23:58,859 --> 00:23:59,719 Speaker 3: Stresses you out. 573 00:23:59,900 --> 00:24:04,120 Speaker 1: I'm like, I ain't mad. I'm depressed. I'm angry. It's 574 00:24:04,240 --> 00:24:05,710 Speaker 1: not cool at all. 575 00:24:05,750 --> 00:24:08,010 Speaker 3: You can't retire from music and just go to gardening. 576 00:24:08,290 --> 00:24:09,950 Speaker 1: Right? Well, I want to right now that you can't 577 00:24:09,990 --> 00:24:10,449 Speaker 1: eat lettuce. 578 00:24:10,470 --> 00:24:12,290 Speaker 3: I'm like, I should really. 579 00:24:12,330 --> 00:24:13,189 Speaker 1: I think this is wind. 580 00:24:13,450 --> 00:24:14,990 Speaker 3: The state of the world that we can't even eat 581 00:24:15,030 --> 00:24:17,450 Speaker 3: lettuce is crazy. Lettuce. 582 00:24:17,490 --> 00:24:19,909 Speaker 1: They got the Pillsbury Doughboy. They got the fruits and 583 00:24:19,930 --> 00:24:23,090 Speaker 1: the vegetables. They got the worms with the cows. You're 584 00:24:23,130 --> 00:24:26,369 Speaker 1: just like, bro, farming. Yeah, I guess I should just 585 00:24:26,410 --> 00:24:26,990 Speaker 1: become a farmer. 586 00:24:28,030 --> 00:24:29,710 Speaker 3: Yeah it's really scary i don't even know what to 587 00:24:29,830 --> 00:24:31,410 Speaker 3: eat what to take then they tell you to take 588 00:24:31,450 --> 00:24:33,310 Speaker 3: all these pills that are like supposed to give you 589 00:24:33,350 --> 00:24:36,060 Speaker 3: longevity or the peptides and everything's this and there's always 590 00:24:36,080 --> 00:24:39,000 Speaker 3: like something and i i still i because every day 591 00:24:39,020 --> 00:24:41,280 Speaker 3: something changes i don't i don't even know what work 592 00:24:41,320 --> 00:24:43,720 Speaker 3: i saw something on instagram the other day because like 593 00:24:43,760 --> 00:24:45,439 Speaker 3: my glam people was like you got to get on 594 00:24:45,460 --> 00:24:47,640 Speaker 3: the peptides i'm like but do. 595 00:24:47,640 --> 00:24:50,760 Speaker 4: I because what is the yeah what's gonna happen later 596 00:24:50,780 --> 00:24:52,700 Speaker 4: i don't know what happens later and then i saw 597 00:24:52,720 --> 00:24:55,080 Speaker 4: something on instagram it was like You didn't want to 598 00:24:55,100 --> 00:24:57,540 Speaker 4: take the COVID vaccine, but you're getting peptides from the 599 00:24:57,580 --> 00:24:58,200 Speaker 4: taco lady. 600 00:24:58,640 --> 00:24:59,950 Speaker 3: And it's true. 601 00:24:59,970 --> 00:25:00,990 Speaker 2: Where are you. 602 00:25:00,869 --> 00:25:02,990 Speaker 3: Getting the peptides from? What is in that peptide? 603 00:25:03,010 --> 00:25:03,850 Speaker 1: Does that work for you? 604 00:25:03,890 --> 00:25:04,550 Speaker 2: Does it work for you? 605 00:25:04,609 --> 00:25:05,290 Speaker 3: And not for me. 606 00:25:05,369 --> 00:25:06,090 Speaker 2: I don't really know. 607 00:25:06,109 --> 00:25:07,850 Speaker 3: I don't even know what to eat anymore. Like, what 608 00:25:07,869 --> 00:25:08,750 Speaker 3: do we do? 609 00:25:08,770 --> 00:25:13,100 Speaker 1: Yeah, so far, every, like, evolutionary thing that has happened with, like, with... 610 00:25:13,660 --> 00:25:16,300 Speaker 1: consumerism and like capitalism has not worked out very well 611 00:25:16,320 --> 00:25:18,020 Speaker 1: you know it's like they got the microwave because that's 612 00:25:18,040 --> 00:25:19,600 Speaker 1: going to make you heat up the food faster they 613 00:25:19,619 --> 00:25:21,620 Speaker 1: got the plastic because you don't want to be using 614 00:25:21,660 --> 00:25:24,540 Speaker 1: glass and and and aluminum but then the plastic's actually 615 00:25:24,580 --> 00:25:26,800 Speaker 1: bad and then the microwave's bad and then you know 616 00:25:27,020 --> 00:25:29,580 Speaker 1: it's just everything we think we solve a problem we 617 00:25:29,600 --> 00:25:31,780 Speaker 1: end up creating another one so it does become like 618 00:25:31,800 --> 00:25:34,030 Speaker 1: yo like what were they doing in the past like 619 00:25:34,070 --> 00:25:35,570 Speaker 1: let's just do it that way because it seemed like 620 00:25:35,990 --> 00:25:37,810 Speaker 1: the old ladies in mexico be living till 150 years 621 00:25:37,830 --> 00:25:40,070 Speaker 1: old you know and so it's like let's just do 622 00:25:40,090 --> 00:25:42,150 Speaker 1: that you know and what do they do yeah the 623 00:25:42,170 --> 00:25:43,430 Speaker 1: hitas like let's do that. 624 00:25:43,590 --> 00:25:46,590 Speaker 3: They eat fresh food from outside. Yeah. 625 00:25:46,990 --> 00:25:47,170 Speaker 5: Right. 626 00:25:47,190 --> 00:25:50,170 Speaker 3: They probably garden, which I love doing, but yeah. 627 00:25:50,930 --> 00:25:52,590 Speaker 1: I don't want to kill my chickens. Right. So like, 628 00:25:52,630 --> 00:25:54,490 Speaker 1: I just get the eggs from the chickens. I can't 629 00:25:54,510 --> 00:25:58,290 Speaker 1: see myself wanting a fresh chicken that bad, but, but 630 00:25:58,310 --> 00:26:00,980 Speaker 1: you know, but I mean, I do, but like, I 631 00:26:01,020 --> 00:26:03,340 Speaker 1: just eat other people's chicken. I don't want to eat 632 00:26:03,380 --> 00:26:05,950 Speaker 1: my own chickens. I don't want to kill my own chickens. 633 00:26:06,010 --> 00:26:08,250 Speaker 1: I want somebody else to do it. 634 00:26:08,369 --> 00:26:09,290 Speaker 3: I can't even. 635 00:26:09,210 --> 00:26:11,930 Speaker 1: Take an egg from the chicken and eat it right there. 636 00:26:11,970 --> 00:26:13,650 Speaker 1: It's got to live in the fridge for a bit. 637 00:26:13,730 --> 00:26:17,190 Speaker 1: I got to forget that it came from there. And then, yeah. 638 00:26:17,470 --> 00:26:19,190 Speaker 3: That's so funny. Yeah. 639 00:26:19,470 --> 00:26:21,760 Speaker 1: Like the limes from my trees. We do. I definitely 640 00:26:21,820 --> 00:26:22,230 Speaker 1: use those. 641 00:26:23,750 --> 00:26:25,629 Speaker 3: Like do you eat because when people make the pork 642 00:26:25,730 --> 00:26:29,170 Speaker 3: like the they roast the full pork I can't I 643 00:26:29,190 --> 00:26:30,510 Speaker 3: don't eat a lot of pork but when I do 644 00:26:30,570 --> 00:26:33,030 Speaker 3: it I can't watch somebody kill a pig and put 645 00:26:33,050 --> 00:26:34,990 Speaker 3: it on the thing yeah it's a little gruesome I 646 00:26:35,010 --> 00:26:37,090 Speaker 3: can't do it and a fish I don't want to 647 00:26:37,130 --> 00:26:39,330 Speaker 3: see the head or the eyeball. 648 00:26:39,060 --> 00:26:41,149 Speaker 1: Well I mean I'll eat a big fried I'll go 649 00:26:41,580 --> 00:26:44,139 Speaker 1: to Mama Juana and eat the big fish that they have. 650 00:26:44,020 --> 00:26:46,200 Speaker 3: There with the eyeball looking at you. 651 00:26:46,500 --> 00:26:48,020 Speaker 1: No look I would just be a little bit like 652 00:26:48,060 --> 00:26:51,159 Speaker 1: I don't make eye contact with it but you don't 653 00:26:51,180 --> 00:26:53,899 Speaker 1: make eye contact no I'm like Just looking away. I 654 00:26:54,859 --> 00:26:55,340 Speaker 1: hit the hookah. 655 00:26:56,060 --> 00:26:57,770 Speaker 3: That's fine. Hit the hookah. 656 00:26:57,790 --> 00:27:00,629 Speaker 1: Hit the hookah. Forget about it. Have a drink. I 657 00:27:00,670 --> 00:27:01,290 Speaker 1: don't know, man. 658 00:27:01,590 --> 00:27:03,330 Speaker 3: All that shit could stress you out. It really could. 659 00:27:03,390 --> 00:27:05,390 Speaker 3: The world is literally designed to stress us the fuck 660 00:27:05,430 --> 00:27:06,149 Speaker 3: out right now. 661 00:27:06,170 --> 00:27:07,869 Speaker 1: Yeah. And that's what I mean. It's like you have 662 00:27:07,890 --> 00:27:09,790 Speaker 1: all these thoughts and you're just like, okay, well, this 663 00:27:09,830 --> 00:27:11,490 Speaker 1: is connected to this and that's connected to that. And 664 00:27:11,510 --> 00:27:13,330 Speaker 1: if I make money with this company, that company is 665 00:27:13,350 --> 00:27:15,190 Speaker 1: with this. And then you eventually just sit there and 666 00:27:15,210 --> 00:27:16,909 Speaker 1: you're like, damn, I don't know what to do. You 667 00:27:16,950 --> 00:27:17,709 Speaker 1: kind of freeze up. 668 00:27:18,030 --> 00:27:19,950 Speaker 3: So you do. I think. 669 00:27:20,890 --> 00:27:23,149 Speaker 1: It's a lot right now. There's so much information. We 670 00:27:23,190 --> 00:27:25,270 Speaker 1: know everything. You know what I'm saying? It's like right now, 671 00:27:25,369 --> 00:27:28,310 Speaker 1: all the information is out there. You know about at 672 00:27:28,869 --> 00:27:31,940 Speaker 1: least 200 different people's problems right now. And back in 673 00:27:31,980 --> 00:27:35,040 Speaker 1: the day, you just knew the local community, you know, 674 00:27:35,180 --> 00:27:37,820 Speaker 1: who's cheating on who. It was just like right there. 675 00:27:37,859 --> 00:27:40,280 Speaker 1: Now you're just like getting information from everywhere. 676 00:27:40,580 --> 00:27:43,369 Speaker 3: From everywhere and seeing people fuck up and then worried 677 00:27:43,550 --> 00:27:44,950 Speaker 3: that that could happen to you. 678 00:27:44,970 --> 00:27:47,060 Speaker 1: Yeah. And then they're canceled. And then you're like, okay, 679 00:27:47,080 --> 00:27:48,770 Speaker 1: that's cancelable. And then they're not canceled no more. And 680 00:27:48,790 --> 00:27:50,189 Speaker 1: you're like, oh, okay, what the hell happened there? But 681 00:27:50,210 --> 00:27:52,409 Speaker 1: then they're canceled over some shit that you're like, really? 682 00:27:52,430 --> 00:27:57,030 Speaker 1: I don't know. Public perception right now is wild. 683 00:27:57,830 --> 00:28:00,140 Speaker 3: Do you feel, do you play into that? Or because 684 00:28:00,240 --> 00:28:03,700 Speaker 3: I feel like your audience is so, I don't know. 685 00:28:03,800 --> 00:28:07,580 Speaker 3: I feel like you operate in a different channel than 686 00:28:07,600 --> 00:28:10,010 Speaker 3: the rest of the music business. 687 00:28:10,680 --> 00:28:11,270 Speaker 1: I try to. 688 00:28:11,590 --> 00:28:13,490 Speaker 3: I'm saying you have your own kind of channel. 689 00:28:14,060 --> 00:28:14,320 Speaker 1: Yeah. 690 00:28:14,420 --> 00:28:16,500 Speaker 3: Is it as scary in your own channel or is 691 00:28:16,560 --> 00:28:17,380 Speaker 3: it a little safer there? 692 00:28:18,240 --> 00:28:22,359 Speaker 1: It's safer for me with my direct core fan base. 693 00:28:22,420 --> 00:28:24,050 Speaker 3: Yeah. We're good. 694 00:28:24,609 --> 00:28:26,090 Speaker 1: There's always going to be the core fan base and 695 00:28:26,109 --> 00:28:28,670 Speaker 1: then there's like the outer layer and then there's like 696 00:28:28,690 --> 00:28:31,990 Speaker 1: the outer layer. And it gets a little tricky there. 697 00:28:32,050 --> 00:28:34,330 Speaker 1: I think, you know, getting people to go from that 698 00:28:34,430 --> 00:28:37,570 Speaker 1: outer layer to like my core base. takes a while, 699 00:28:37,630 --> 00:28:39,950 Speaker 1: but when they're there, I feel safe with them. So, 700 00:28:40,580 --> 00:28:43,100 Speaker 1: and that's where I welcome people into, you know, life 701 00:28:43,160 --> 00:28:46,200 Speaker 1: with my wife and my child and the ranch and 702 00:28:46,240 --> 00:28:52,020 Speaker 1: you know what I do, but also between caring ridiculously 703 00:28:52,060 --> 00:28:54,620 Speaker 1: too much and not giving a fuck, I kind of just, 704 00:28:55,300 --> 00:28:57,620 Speaker 1: you know, depending on the day, you know, some days 705 00:28:57,640 --> 00:28:59,660 Speaker 1: I'm like, it is what it is. And some days 706 00:28:59,680 --> 00:29:01,650 Speaker 1: I'm like, Damn, I don't even want to go out 707 00:29:01,670 --> 00:29:03,470 Speaker 1: there because I don't want to know what they think. 708 00:29:04,490 --> 00:29:06,840 Speaker 1: But my people are safe. You know what I'm saying? 709 00:29:07,280 --> 00:29:12,560 Speaker 1: I have channels, literal, where it's directly with them. I 710 00:29:13,020 --> 00:29:17,380 Speaker 1: have conversations and chats where it's directly with my main people. 711 00:29:17,410 --> 00:29:20,830 Speaker 1: And as long as I can live there on my 712 00:29:20,870 --> 00:29:22,910 Speaker 1: slow days and I can go out there when I 713 00:29:22,950 --> 00:29:23,610 Speaker 1: have the energy. 714 00:29:24,820 --> 00:29:27,380 Speaker 3: Then that's cool. What do you, I don't know yet, 715 00:29:27,420 --> 00:29:29,220 Speaker 3: what is the thing you want still? Like, what do 716 00:29:29,240 --> 00:29:32,220 Speaker 3: you think you need to still, like, do you still 717 00:29:32,270 --> 00:29:34,170 Speaker 3: chase those kind of things that people think maybe you 718 00:29:34,190 --> 00:29:36,140 Speaker 3: should have Here and there. 719 00:29:36,180 --> 00:29:38,560 Speaker 1: I think sometimes it comes from ego, though. I think 720 00:29:38,580 --> 00:29:41,520 Speaker 1: sometimes here and there when I'm like, I want this thing. 721 00:29:41,580 --> 00:29:42,820 Speaker 1: I think that's just more for me to feel. 722 00:29:42,840 --> 00:29:43,400 Speaker 3: What is the thing? 723 00:29:44,300 --> 00:29:47,350 Speaker 1: I don't know. Like the accolades. Yeah, like whenever you 724 00:29:47,370 --> 00:29:50,210 Speaker 1: think about the accolades or whenever you think about like, 725 00:29:50,230 --> 00:29:51,130 Speaker 1: you know, okay, I want that. 726 00:29:51,150 --> 00:29:52,390 Speaker 3: Heavy rotation, radio songs. 727 00:29:52,450 --> 00:29:54,810 Speaker 1: Yeah, you know. But then it's like when you peek 728 00:29:54,850 --> 00:29:57,110 Speaker 1: behind the curtain and you see how it all happens, 729 00:29:57,130 --> 00:29:59,670 Speaker 1: you're like, fuck. It doesn't feel as good as when 730 00:29:59,710 --> 00:30:01,710 Speaker 1: I first started out and I was bright eyed and 731 00:30:01,750 --> 00:30:04,130 Speaker 1: I'm thinking like, one day I'm going to get this thing. 732 00:30:04,150 --> 00:30:05,290 Speaker 1: But then when they're like, oh yeah, well, you know, 733 00:30:05,310 --> 00:30:06,950 Speaker 1: you can get that thing. You just got to talk 734 00:30:06,970 --> 00:30:08,590 Speaker 1: to this person and pay this and do this and 735 00:30:08,630 --> 00:30:11,280 Speaker 1: do that and, you know, and whatever and give up 736 00:30:11,320 --> 00:30:13,400 Speaker 1: this to this person because that person is actually connected 737 00:30:13,480 --> 00:30:15,420 Speaker 1: to this. It starts to just not feel so. 738 00:30:15,980 --> 00:30:16,520 Speaker 3: Authentic? 739 00:30:17,380 --> 00:30:21,360 Speaker 1: Yeah. Like as empowering as I would have thought to 740 00:30:21,400 --> 00:30:24,280 Speaker 1: get it. It just feels like, okay, we're in the 741 00:30:24,300 --> 00:30:27,450 Speaker 1: right race. You know? I think that's why sometimes I, 742 00:30:27,750 --> 00:30:31,050 Speaker 1: I love making music live on live stream. And then 743 00:30:31,090 --> 00:30:33,510 Speaker 1: it goes like, for example, Salvador, Salvador felt good because 744 00:30:33,550 --> 00:30:35,290 Speaker 1: I was on live stream. I'm making a song. I'm 745 00:30:35,330 --> 00:30:37,850 Speaker 1: having fun. My fans are watching it. The shit goes crazy. 746 00:30:38,170 --> 00:30:39,750 Speaker 1: And now we're like, yo, we saw this. Like we 747 00:30:39,790 --> 00:30:42,170 Speaker 1: shot the video at my house. Like, I think when 748 00:30:42,210 --> 00:30:46,970 Speaker 1: you've felt that level of authenticity and like joy and 749 00:30:47,030 --> 00:30:51,190 Speaker 1: something that really was authentic, everything else kind of falls short. 750 00:30:52,130 --> 00:30:52,630 Speaker 1: You know what I mean? 751 00:30:52,790 --> 00:30:53,110 Speaker 5: I do. 752 00:30:53,490 --> 00:30:57,180 Speaker 1: So it's like, I chase that now. I want that again. 753 00:30:57,360 --> 00:30:59,380 Speaker 1: I want not, not, not another side of it. Cause 754 00:30:59,400 --> 00:31:01,660 Speaker 1: obviously like that was a moment, but it's like, I 755 00:31:01,700 --> 00:31:06,620 Speaker 1: want little moments. And even if they don't, they're not this, 756 00:31:06,980 --> 00:31:09,060 Speaker 1: I feel like all those little moments, that's a heartbeat. 757 00:31:09,120 --> 00:31:10,620 Speaker 1: That's a, you know what I'm saying? You're not always 758 00:31:10,640 --> 00:31:13,860 Speaker 1: going to be on 120 fucking BBM. You got to 759 00:31:13,880 --> 00:31:15,860 Speaker 1: be on chill sometimes. 760 00:31:15,900 --> 00:31:18,140 Speaker 3: You got to breathe. You have a heart attack. Yeah. 761 00:31:18,180 --> 00:31:19,180 Speaker 1: You're on a heart attack. 762 00:31:19,200 --> 00:31:22,880 Speaker 3: You're on pre-workout. You got to, um, not pre-workout. 763 00:31:23,320 --> 00:31:24,390 Speaker 1: You're pre-workouting right now. 764 00:31:24,910 --> 00:31:25,850 Speaker 3: That's mad funny. 765 00:31:26,130 --> 00:31:27,090 Speaker 5: Yeah. Wow. 766 00:31:27,110 --> 00:31:27,970 Speaker 2: What a good balance. 767 00:31:28,330 --> 00:31:29,080 Speaker 3: You figured it out. 768 00:31:29,300 --> 00:31:31,180 Speaker 2: Is it always like, I don't know. 769 00:31:31,260 --> 00:31:33,900 Speaker 3: You talked about the ego, not sometimes the ego boy. 770 00:31:33,960 --> 00:31:34,200 Speaker 5: Woo. 771 00:31:34,500 --> 00:31:36,360 Speaker 3: Yeah. That'll get you. That'll get you. 772 00:31:36,700 --> 00:31:38,440 Speaker 1: And I've done, I've changed things for ego. And then 773 00:31:38,480 --> 00:31:40,680 Speaker 1: I've sat there with myself and had to be like, bitch, 774 00:31:40,720 --> 00:31:42,080 Speaker 1: you know, you know, that was your ego. 775 00:31:42,100 --> 00:31:43,300 Speaker 3: Like, why did we do that? You know? 776 00:31:43,860 --> 00:31:46,270 Speaker 1: So I don't know. I think it's all of it. 777 00:31:46,480 --> 00:31:47,690 Speaker 1: I think it's all of it. I think a real 778 00:31:48,030 --> 00:31:50,590 Speaker 1: whole human experience is going to be some moments, our ego, 779 00:31:50,610 --> 00:31:53,880 Speaker 1: some moments, our pride, some moments are, You know, vulnerability. 780 00:31:53,960 --> 00:31:57,330 Speaker 1: Sometimes you're slow. Sometimes you're fast. Whatever. You know, you're home. 781 00:31:58,150 --> 00:32:00,150 Speaker 1: It takes a second for me to slow down at home. 782 00:32:01,110 --> 00:32:03,030 Speaker 1: I think... My girl knows. 783 00:32:03,070 --> 00:32:04,150 Speaker 3: She... Like, I'll be. 784 00:32:04,490 --> 00:32:06,650 Speaker 1: I'll take a rest. And then I'll just get up. 785 00:32:06,850 --> 00:32:09,280 Speaker 1: And she'll be like, what? And I'm like, I don't know. Like, 786 00:32:09,300 --> 00:32:11,160 Speaker 1: just physically, like, I'm like, I gotta go. Like, I 787 00:32:11,180 --> 00:32:13,120 Speaker 1: don't know what it is, you know? So I think it's... 788 00:32:14,210 --> 00:32:18,030 Speaker 1: training and and practicing to be at peace sometimes and 789 00:32:18,090 --> 00:32:22,270 Speaker 1: relax i have a meditation spot i try to like 790 00:32:23,070 --> 00:32:26,030 Speaker 1: calm down and see the butterflies and the hummingbirds and 791 00:32:27,590 --> 00:32:28,910 Speaker 1: i don't know it's all of it you know what 792 00:32:28,930 --> 00:32:30,490 Speaker 1: i'm saying and i want all of it that's the 793 00:32:30,530 --> 00:32:32,930 Speaker 1: crazy thing it's like you want the full human i 794 00:32:32,950 --> 00:32:34,600 Speaker 1: want to have my cake and eat it too i 795 00:32:34,640 --> 00:32:36,380 Speaker 1: want all of it i want the peace and i 796 00:32:36,400 --> 00:32:38,140 Speaker 1: want the crazy i want the chaos i want the 797 00:32:38,200 --> 00:32:40,400 Speaker 1: anxiety i want all of it if i if the 798 00:32:40,440 --> 00:32:43,400 Speaker 1: depression brings me certain topics to talk about then. 799 00:32:43,260 --> 00:32:47,500 Speaker 3: I'll take that too You know? Yeah. Does that still, 800 00:32:47,740 --> 00:32:49,940 Speaker 3: have you managed that? Because I know you've had bouts 801 00:32:49,960 --> 00:32:50,340 Speaker 3: with that. 802 00:32:51,400 --> 00:32:52,940 Speaker 1: No, I have that all the time. 803 00:32:52,960 --> 00:32:56,020 Speaker 3: Oh, it's all the time? Mm-hmm. It's like. You just 804 00:32:56,040 --> 00:32:56,510 Speaker 3: live with it? 805 00:32:57,980 --> 00:32:58,500 Speaker 1: Yeah. 806 00:32:59,700 --> 00:32:59,980 Speaker 3: Yeah. 807 00:33:00,000 --> 00:33:02,380 Speaker 1: I don't know what it is. I think it's like, sometimes, 808 00:33:02,680 --> 00:33:04,560 Speaker 1: sometimes it just feels like, I don't know. Sometimes it 809 00:33:04,580 --> 00:33:06,840 Speaker 1: feels like maybe I did live another life, you know? 810 00:33:06,900 --> 00:33:08,960 Speaker 1: And it's like, maybe that's related to something else. Because 811 00:33:08,980 --> 00:33:13,630 Speaker 1: I'll tell my girls sometimes like, I'll, I'll like, go 812 00:33:13,650 --> 00:33:16,150 Speaker 1: through something or like I'll see things that like in 813 00:33:16,170 --> 00:33:17,850 Speaker 1: my dreams and stuff. And I'm like, I don't even 814 00:33:17,870 --> 00:33:19,230 Speaker 1: think that's related to me. Like, I don't know what 815 00:33:19,250 --> 00:33:21,950 Speaker 1: the fuck that is, but I don't know. I'm going 816 00:33:21,970 --> 00:33:23,490 Speaker 1: to sound crazy. If you make me talk long enough, 817 00:33:23,510 --> 00:33:25,780 Speaker 1: I'm going to sound crazy. They're going to fucking lock 818 00:33:25,800 --> 00:33:26,780 Speaker 1: me up. No. 819 00:33:27,580 --> 00:33:29,240 Speaker 2: I don't think you sound crazy at all. 820 00:33:29,660 --> 00:33:30,180 Speaker 1: I don't know. 821 00:33:30,220 --> 00:33:31,420 Speaker 3: I actually get all of that. 822 00:33:31,740 --> 00:33:34,540 Speaker 1: You know, it's like spiritually, if we're talking spiritually and 823 00:33:34,560 --> 00:33:35,080 Speaker 1: we're talking. 824 00:33:35,260 --> 00:33:39,880 Speaker 3: You know, life and you get deep enough, you're woke enough, 825 00:33:40,800 --> 00:33:43,990 Speaker 3: it all, You also realize, too, how much we don't 826 00:33:44,050 --> 00:33:45,050 Speaker 3: fucking know about anything. 827 00:33:45,530 --> 00:33:45,930 Speaker 1: Anything. 828 00:33:46,250 --> 00:33:47,590 Speaker 3: We think we got shit figured out. As soon as 829 00:33:47,610 --> 00:33:49,210 Speaker 3: you be like, I got this figured out. I got 830 00:33:49,250 --> 00:33:53,860 Speaker 3: my depression or my ADHD or my insecurities, whatever your 831 00:33:54,040 --> 00:33:56,920 Speaker 3: shit is. You think you figured it out. And then 832 00:33:56,940 --> 00:34:00,780 Speaker 3: the more work you do, you realize... okay, but the universe, okay, 833 00:34:00,820 --> 00:34:04,110 Speaker 3: but all the other things happen. 834 00:34:04,370 --> 00:34:07,790 Speaker 1: I think that humility, that comes from knowing we don't 835 00:34:07,830 --> 00:34:10,650 Speaker 1: know what the fuck we're talking about. And that's why 836 00:34:10,670 --> 00:34:14,509 Speaker 1: I think I live with my depression is because I'm like, 837 00:34:14,680 --> 00:34:16,360 Speaker 1: just when you think that you figured it out, that 838 00:34:16,380 --> 00:34:17,930 Speaker 1: you're happy now, you're like, all right, I beat it. 839 00:34:18,780 --> 00:34:20,800 Speaker 1: And the next time you get that wave, you're like, fuck, 840 00:34:20,840 --> 00:34:22,779 Speaker 1: I did it. So it becomes almost more depressing. It's 841 00:34:22,820 --> 00:34:25,470 Speaker 1: kind of like when When you get disappointed by someone, 842 00:34:25,510 --> 00:34:27,270 Speaker 1: it's like, if you just know that that person is disappointing, 843 00:34:27,290 --> 00:34:28,750 Speaker 1: you just fucking, you just live with it. 844 00:34:28,810 --> 00:34:30,090 Speaker 3: You're just like, all right, well that person. Have you 845 00:34:30,130 --> 00:34:31,750 Speaker 3: gotten to that point with it where it could like 846 00:34:31,790 --> 00:34:33,190 Speaker 3: a wave could happen and you could just be like, 847 00:34:33,230 --> 00:34:34,910 Speaker 3: this is just what it is. It'll pass. You breathe 848 00:34:34,950 --> 00:34:35,779 Speaker 3: through it. Yeah. 849 00:34:36,050 --> 00:34:37,779 Speaker 1: Yeah. I think that's what I mean. It's like, you know, 850 00:34:37,800 --> 00:34:39,880 Speaker 1: it's chemical. I think sometimes, you know, it's like I 851 00:34:39,900 --> 00:34:41,480 Speaker 1: could be in the happiest place. And if like my 852 00:34:41,520 --> 00:34:44,900 Speaker 1: body chooses to just have this like feeling I have. 853 00:34:45,540 --> 00:34:47,560 Speaker 1: And I breathe through it and I chill and I, 854 00:34:47,680 --> 00:34:47,960 Speaker 1: you know. 855 00:34:47,980 --> 00:34:48,640 Speaker 3: Yeah. 856 00:34:49,000 --> 00:34:49,960 Speaker 1: And then it goes away. 857 00:34:49,980 --> 00:34:54,149 Speaker 3: I had a, um, I had a car accident about five, 858 00:34:54,170 --> 00:34:55,780 Speaker 3: six years ago. It was real bad. I had PTSD. 859 00:34:56,239 --> 00:34:58,580 Speaker 3: And the therapist told me something about that, too, because 860 00:34:58,620 --> 00:35:01,259 Speaker 3: I kept saying... Because I couldn't drive after. Like, I'd 861 00:35:01,300 --> 00:35:03,380 Speaker 3: get in the car, my hands would start shaking. And 862 00:35:03,420 --> 00:35:06,140 Speaker 3: I knew in my brain, oh, you're having trauma. Oh, yeah, 863 00:35:06,160 --> 00:35:08,239 Speaker 3: you know what it is. Like, you can say the words. Oh, 864 00:35:08,260 --> 00:35:09,890 Speaker 3: I need to just calm down. I need to know 865 00:35:09,930 --> 00:35:11,629 Speaker 3: I'm safe. I need to know I'm staying in the moment. 866 00:35:11,690 --> 00:35:13,270 Speaker 3: All the things that they teach you to say, and 867 00:35:13,290 --> 00:35:16,210 Speaker 3: the shit was just not working. And months were passing, 868 00:35:16,370 --> 00:35:19,010 Speaker 3: and I couldn't drive to the corner, and the therapist 869 00:35:19,130 --> 00:35:22,500 Speaker 3: said to me, was like, why... why do you want 870 00:35:22,520 --> 00:35:27,210 Speaker 3: to control this process? Yeah. Stop trying to control the process. 871 00:35:27,690 --> 00:35:30,230 Speaker 3: You are shaking because you had a bad experience. It's 872 00:35:30,250 --> 00:35:32,690 Speaker 3: just what it is. Like you trying to control it 873 00:35:32,870 --> 00:35:36,839 Speaker 3: makes it worse. Me trying to get over PTSD. Then 874 00:35:36,880 --> 00:35:39,000 Speaker 3: the stress is that I wasn't over it fast enough. 875 00:35:39,100 --> 00:35:41,279 Speaker 3: So that was making it worse and dragging it along. 876 00:35:41,300 --> 00:35:43,200 Speaker 3: So the same thing, like you're talking about depression. It's like, 877 00:35:43,780 --> 00:35:47,620 Speaker 3: if you're trying to fist fight it, it's like you 878 00:35:47,640 --> 00:35:49,600 Speaker 3: make it almost worse than like, damn, I thought I 879 00:35:49,620 --> 00:35:49,890 Speaker 3: beat it. 880 00:35:49,920 --> 00:35:50,530 Speaker 2: I didn't beat it. 881 00:35:50,540 --> 00:35:53,450 Speaker 3: Now I'm making myself worse. Cause you're making sense what 882 00:35:53,469 --> 00:35:53,990 Speaker 3: I'm saying? 883 00:35:54,350 --> 00:35:55,750 Speaker 1: It's like when people are trying to fight and then 884 00:35:55,790 --> 00:35:57,150 Speaker 1: people are trying to stop them. So then it just 885 00:35:57,170 --> 00:35:59,969 Speaker 1: makes this whole bigger thing. It's like people are, you know, 886 00:35:59,989 --> 00:36:02,230 Speaker 1: pulling this person and that person and they're pushing and 887 00:36:02,250 --> 00:36:04,170 Speaker 1: next thing, you know, it's like, yeah, it becomes this 888 00:36:04,210 --> 00:36:04,790 Speaker 1: whole scene. 889 00:36:05,700 --> 00:36:07,819 Speaker 3: I think it's about giving yourself enough grace to kind 890 00:36:07,860 --> 00:36:10,000 Speaker 3: of like, just float through it. Like being like a 891 00:36:10,060 --> 00:36:13,180 Speaker 3: flow state with being able to like manage whatever the 892 00:36:13,239 --> 00:36:15,660 Speaker 3: things are that we're trying to get to the other 893 00:36:15,700 --> 00:36:17,520 Speaker 3: side of. Yeah. Yeah. 894 00:36:17,560 --> 00:36:19,500 Speaker 1: And I'm grateful for the fact that nowadays, you know, 895 00:36:19,520 --> 00:36:22,540 Speaker 1: thanks to the internet, like people do have more access 896 00:36:22,560 --> 00:36:25,899 Speaker 1: to like conversations. Somebody can be watching this and be like, okay, dope. 897 00:36:25,940 --> 00:36:27,799 Speaker 1: Like I get that. Or I watch other people, you know, 898 00:36:27,820 --> 00:36:31,920 Speaker 1: or whatever. It's like having those conversations about mental health 899 00:36:31,980 --> 00:36:35,960 Speaker 1: or grief or, you know, process or whatever is valuable 900 00:36:36,180 --> 00:36:39,660 Speaker 1: to us. And I love that because then we kind 901 00:36:39,680 --> 00:36:40,900 Speaker 1: of just get to vibe. 902 00:36:41,160 --> 00:36:44,230 Speaker 3: I love that too. It's like, This haircut is so 903 00:36:44,290 --> 00:36:45,730 Speaker 3: cute on you, by the way. Thank you. 904 00:36:45,739 --> 00:36:46,640 Speaker 1: I chopped my hair off. 905 00:36:46,719 --> 00:36:48,799 Speaker 3: I know. You walked in, I was like, oh, this 906 00:36:49,400 --> 00:36:50,220 Speaker 3: is a different person. 907 00:36:50,239 --> 00:36:54,560 Speaker 1: I'm dead. Yeah. I, again, I'm going through some things, 908 00:36:54,620 --> 00:36:56,840 Speaker 1: I guess. My girl took me to the doctor and 909 00:36:56,860 --> 00:36:59,430 Speaker 1: they're like, how often do you think about not being 910 00:36:59,469 --> 00:37:01,550 Speaker 1: alive anymore? I'm like, nope, I know this fucking question. 911 00:37:01,590 --> 00:37:05,110 Speaker 1: You're tripping. I feel like people think I'm going crazy, 912 00:37:05,150 --> 00:37:08,730 Speaker 1: but actually I think I'm becoming more true to myself. 913 00:37:09,660 --> 00:37:11,380 Speaker 3: To what I want to be like, wait, what do 914 00:37:11,400 --> 00:37:14,319 Speaker 3: we take me? What's happening? Why did they ask you that? 915 00:37:14,760 --> 00:37:15,440 Speaker 1: Oh, well, sorry. 916 00:37:15,700 --> 00:37:15,899 Speaker 3: Yeah. 917 00:37:15,940 --> 00:37:18,560 Speaker 1: Because, because, because we were just like, am I doing okay? Like, 918 00:37:18,580 --> 00:37:20,480 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying? Like, am I emotionally all right? 919 00:37:20,520 --> 00:37:22,140 Speaker 1: Am I, what am I feeling? And I'm like, again, 920 00:37:22,500 --> 00:37:24,460 Speaker 1: I think it's like a process. I think it's a wave. 921 00:37:24,500 --> 00:37:25,860 Speaker 1: And I think right now where I'm at in my 922 00:37:25,900 --> 00:37:31,450 Speaker 1: life is like, I just, I want to feel whatever 923 00:37:31,510 --> 00:37:34,210 Speaker 1: makes me feel as true to myself and as honest 924 00:37:34,250 --> 00:37:36,810 Speaker 1: and as good. I think I've been like walking around 925 00:37:36,830 --> 00:37:40,070 Speaker 1: my ranch now and, you know, like in a sports bra, 926 00:37:40,110 --> 00:37:42,190 Speaker 1: in the sun, you know, my hair is short. If 927 00:37:42,230 --> 00:37:43,450 Speaker 1: I want to get in the pool, I do. I 928 00:37:43,469 --> 00:37:45,279 Speaker 1: got a tattoo. I want to make music. I want 929 00:37:45,300 --> 00:37:46,980 Speaker 1: to cook out. I want to, I just want to 930 00:37:47,000 --> 00:37:50,840 Speaker 1: like fully, I don't know, like something's pushing me to, yeah. 931 00:37:50,920 --> 00:37:53,500 Speaker 1: Like for so long, I think I've cared. So as 932 00:37:53,540 --> 00:37:55,320 Speaker 1: much as I've been the, I don't give a fuck person. 933 00:37:55,340 --> 00:37:57,100 Speaker 1: I think the more I said, I don't give a fuck. 934 00:37:57,140 --> 00:37:58,560 Speaker 1: And the more I acted like I didn't give a fuck. 935 00:37:58,940 --> 00:37:59,259 Speaker 3: I did. 936 00:37:59,280 --> 00:38:02,740 Speaker 1: I think right now I just fully want to experience not, 937 00:38:03,469 --> 00:38:05,310 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying? I want to cut my hair. So, 938 00:38:05,750 --> 00:38:07,840 Speaker 1: so long. And so many people told me, no, And 939 00:38:07,880 --> 00:38:09,299 Speaker 1: then so one day I went in my bathroom and I. 940 00:38:09,260 --> 00:38:13,160 Speaker 3: Just cut it. Yourself? Yeah. When did this happen? A 941 00:38:13,200 --> 00:38:13,700 Speaker 3: few days ago. 942 00:38:13,880 --> 00:38:16,080 Speaker 2: No way. It just happened? Yeah. 943 00:38:16,180 --> 00:38:18,839 Speaker 3: How long was it? It was long, right? 944 00:38:18,890 --> 00:38:20,569 Speaker 1: Down here. I mean, I do wigs and stuff, so 945 00:38:20,610 --> 00:38:23,410 Speaker 1: it doesn't matter. I could do whatever, but yeah. 946 00:38:24,070 --> 00:38:26,250 Speaker 3: So you just go in there with a scissor and 947 00:38:26,270 --> 00:38:28,609 Speaker 3: does your wife say something going on? 948 00:38:28,870 --> 00:38:30,390 Speaker 1: I walked out with a towel wrapped around my head 949 00:38:30,410 --> 00:38:31,969 Speaker 1: and I just kept smiling and she was like, what? 950 00:38:32,130 --> 00:38:32,649 Speaker 1: What did you do? 951 00:38:32,670 --> 00:38:33,830 Speaker 3: I was like, nothing. 952 00:38:34,820 --> 00:38:36,820 Speaker 1: And then I just, yeah. And then my friend, and 953 00:38:36,840 --> 00:38:38,200 Speaker 1: then I was like, I'm going to cut more. And 954 00:38:38,219 --> 00:38:39,719 Speaker 1: then my friend was like, do not cut it. I'm 955 00:38:39,760 --> 00:38:41,390 Speaker 1: coming over. And then they came and then they like 956 00:38:41,430 --> 00:38:43,989 Speaker 1: fixed it for me because they were like, you didn't 957 00:38:44,010 --> 00:38:45,290 Speaker 1: fuck it up. They're like, you actually did a pretty 958 00:38:45,310 --> 00:38:46,330 Speaker 1: good job. I was like, I know. 959 00:38:46,350 --> 00:38:48,569 Speaker 3: It was like, I think it was cool. What were 960 00:38:48,590 --> 00:38:50,090 Speaker 3: you trying to do? Like shed weight? 961 00:38:50,130 --> 00:38:52,410 Speaker 1: Were you trying to like- Shed weight, energy, just like, 962 00:38:52,530 --> 00:38:54,640 Speaker 1: I don't know. I want to like, you know, like 963 00:38:54,660 --> 00:38:56,500 Speaker 1: I told you, it's like, I have a place in Mexico. 964 00:38:56,520 --> 00:38:58,080 Speaker 1: I have a place in another place in Mexico. I 965 00:38:58,120 --> 00:38:59,500 Speaker 1: have a place here. Like, I want to travel. 966 00:38:59,540 --> 00:39:00,040 Speaker 5: I want to move. 967 00:39:00,080 --> 00:39:03,600 Speaker 1: I want to just like, I don't know. Just- enjoy 968 00:39:03,700 --> 00:39:06,300 Speaker 1: everything that life has to fucking offer because it feels 969 00:39:06,380 --> 00:39:09,920 Speaker 1: so negative. 970 00:39:15,280 --> 00:39:16,920 Speaker 3: You're going to be mad, but she's making me want 971 00:39:16,940 --> 00:39:17,490 Speaker 3: to cut my hair. 972 00:39:17,510 --> 00:39:18,589 Speaker 1: Hey, let's do it. 973 00:39:18,700 --> 00:39:21,190 Speaker 3: You're making me so bad want to cut it. Yeah. 974 00:39:21,290 --> 00:39:23,089 Speaker 1: Like I feel like it's like, I'm there too. 975 00:39:23,170 --> 00:39:24,930 Speaker 3: I'm in a little transition period of my life right 976 00:39:24,969 --> 00:39:28,010 Speaker 3: now too. So like cutting my hair might feel amazing. 977 00:39:28,050 --> 00:39:31,440 Speaker 3: I might regret it because I don't know but who 978 00:39:31,460 --> 00:39:33,620 Speaker 3: cares right you go back or you put extensions or 979 00:39:33,640 --> 00:39:34,080 Speaker 3: a wig. 980 00:39:34,020 --> 00:39:37,060 Speaker 1: On yeah it feels it feels like you like okay 981 00:39:37,080 --> 00:39:39,180 Speaker 1: I think that's what it was that's sorry my brain 982 00:39:39,200 --> 00:39:41,529 Speaker 1: was all over the place when I was saying like 983 00:39:41,550 --> 00:39:43,610 Speaker 1: you're running away or you're going somewhere you're trying to 984 00:39:43,630 --> 00:39:45,750 Speaker 1: do you know it's like I think sometimes that that 985 00:39:45,810 --> 00:39:47,750 Speaker 1: because I would be the type of person who like 986 00:39:48,030 --> 00:39:49,390 Speaker 1: I'll be here right now and I'll tell my girl 987 00:39:49,410 --> 00:39:51,370 Speaker 1: like Let's buy a plane ticket right now. We're leaving. 988 00:39:51,710 --> 00:39:52,390 Speaker 1: And then we just go. 989 00:39:52,570 --> 00:39:52,710 Speaker 3: Right. 990 00:39:52,750 --> 00:39:54,770 Speaker 1: But I think sometimes that is that wanting to have 991 00:39:55,770 --> 00:39:57,940 Speaker 1: power over your own life. Sometimes it doesn't feel like 992 00:39:57,980 --> 00:39:59,839 Speaker 1: you do, you know, especially being an artist, especially being 993 00:39:59,860 --> 00:40:02,720 Speaker 1: in the public eye, especially people commenting or saying whatever 994 00:40:02,780 --> 00:40:04,960 Speaker 1: it's like or at a major label or with a 995 00:40:05,000 --> 00:40:07,239 Speaker 1: manager or with an agent or with whatever. People just 996 00:40:07,280 --> 00:40:08,420 Speaker 1: are like, well, you know, you got to get this 997 00:40:08,440 --> 00:40:09,570 Speaker 1: check or you got to pull up, you got to 998 00:40:09,590 --> 00:40:11,330 Speaker 1: do this. And it never feels like you have control 999 00:40:11,390 --> 00:40:13,940 Speaker 1: over your own life. And so I think that's kind 1000 00:40:13,960 --> 00:40:16,240 Speaker 1: of what cutting the hair for me was. It's like, yo, 1001 00:40:16,300 --> 00:40:17,219 Speaker 1: I want to do this shit and I want to 1002 00:40:17,239 --> 00:40:18,520 Speaker 1: do it. Like, that's it. And I'm going to do 1003 00:40:18,560 --> 00:40:19,480 Speaker 1: it right now. And I'm going to do it right 1004 00:40:19,520 --> 00:40:22,529 Speaker 1: now because I want to, because I need to, you know? 1005 00:40:22,570 --> 00:40:24,950 Speaker 1: And it's like, sometimes it's just a reminder to yourself 1006 00:40:24,989 --> 00:40:29,509 Speaker 1: that you are, you know, an autonomous body and like, 1007 00:40:29,550 --> 00:40:32,290 Speaker 1: it doesn't matter. Yes, I'm Snow the Product and I 1008 00:40:32,390 --> 00:40:34,680 Speaker 1: rap and, you know, I'm the girl talking about immigration 1009 00:40:34,700 --> 00:40:37,379 Speaker 1: and whatever, but it becomes a thing that people then 1010 00:40:37,560 --> 00:40:40,040 Speaker 1: expect so many different things from you. And you're like, yo, 1011 00:40:40,480 --> 00:40:42,730 Speaker 1: I do this because it's from the heart. And I 1012 00:40:42,770 --> 00:40:44,469 Speaker 1: do it and I talk and I say, and I, 1013 00:40:44,870 --> 00:40:46,629 Speaker 1: whatever I do is from the heart. And the moment 1014 00:40:46,650 --> 00:40:49,830 Speaker 1: that now it's expected, it almost feels like, yo, chill. Like, 1015 00:40:50,190 --> 00:40:52,770 Speaker 1: you know, I think everybody needs to do their part. 1016 00:40:53,530 --> 00:40:54,610 Speaker 1: And I think sometimes people. 1017 00:40:54,630 --> 00:40:56,250 Speaker 3: But you don't want to be like the poster child 1018 00:40:56,330 --> 00:40:57,030 Speaker 3: for something. 1019 00:40:57,050 --> 00:40:59,650 Speaker 1: That's not, that's why, yeah. Like, cause I, you know, 1020 00:40:59,670 --> 00:41:01,969 Speaker 1: I had some people around me being like, you know, 1021 00:41:02,290 --> 00:41:04,430 Speaker 1: Salvador's doing really well. Like, let's put all this, all 1022 00:41:04,450 --> 00:41:06,180 Speaker 1: this money to like, you make it go even bigger. 1023 00:41:06,219 --> 00:41:07,609 Speaker 1: And I'm like, I don't, I don't think I want 1024 00:41:07,680 --> 00:41:11,580 Speaker 1: that song to become popular. I'm not the Sabbath girl. 1025 00:41:11,600 --> 00:41:13,380 Speaker 1: I'm not the Donald Trump song girl. You know what 1026 00:41:13,400 --> 00:41:15,380 Speaker 1: I'm saying? I'm like, let it do and live and 1027 00:41:15,440 --> 00:41:18,100 Speaker 1: be what it is and organically. And then I'll make 1028 00:41:18,140 --> 00:41:19,940 Speaker 1: another song. And, you know, and it's like, and then 1029 00:41:19,960 --> 00:41:22,440 Speaker 1: I'll make another and another. And that's where I'm happy. 1030 00:41:22,480 --> 00:41:25,960 Speaker 1: I'm not happy. And let's force this hit record to, 1031 00:41:26,280 --> 00:41:27,580 Speaker 1: you know, I don't want to do any of that. 1032 00:41:28,140 --> 00:41:31,680 Speaker 1: And maybe I'm self-sabotaging. I also think about that. 1033 00:41:32,320 --> 00:41:36,509 Speaker 3: Somebody in your team or your circumference probably feels like that. 1034 00:41:36,530 --> 00:41:38,710 Speaker 3: Some people probably do. Because they want something for you 1035 00:41:38,770 --> 00:41:41,610 Speaker 3: that maybe you don't even care about so much for yourself. Yeah. 1036 00:41:41,670 --> 00:41:43,739 Speaker 1: Or they want that percentage or they want, you know, whatever. 1037 00:41:43,760 --> 00:41:48,880 Speaker 1: And it's like, I think, I don't know. Like I 1038 00:41:48,920 --> 00:41:50,600 Speaker 1: told you, I want to be a full. 1039 00:41:52,120 --> 00:41:52,420 Speaker 3: Person. 1040 00:41:53,070 --> 00:41:55,130 Speaker 1: And I also want to be seen as a full person, 1041 00:41:55,530 --> 00:41:57,509 Speaker 1: you know? So it's like, so I do enjoy the 1042 00:41:57,550 --> 00:41:59,890 Speaker 1: vlogs the same way that I enjoy the music. Maybe 1043 00:41:59,910 --> 00:42:02,190 Speaker 1: the vlogs aren't as popular, but I like it. When 1044 00:42:02,210 --> 00:42:05,720 Speaker 1: I started my podcast, I did that during COVID because 1045 00:42:05,780 --> 00:42:07,239 Speaker 1: I didn't want to do those, you know, when they 1046 00:42:07,260 --> 00:42:10,380 Speaker 1: were doing those live shows, those live performances, you know, 1047 00:42:10,400 --> 00:42:12,440 Speaker 1: with the camera and they're just rapping and it just 1048 00:42:12,460 --> 00:42:14,500 Speaker 1: looks corny as hell. I was like, I don't want 1049 00:42:14,520 --> 00:42:17,029 Speaker 1: to do that. So I'd rather give my fans something else. 1050 00:42:17,150 --> 00:42:18,430 Speaker 1: So I was like, I'm going to do these streams 1051 00:42:18,469 --> 00:42:19,529 Speaker 1: and I'm going to put a mic and I'm going 1052 00:42:19,550 --> 00:42:22,259 Speaker 1: to talk. And I enjoyed those so much, you know, 1053 00:42:22,300 --> 00:42:25,040 Speaker 1: and I love them. And then, and then, and then 1054 00:42:25,080 --> 00:42:26,960 Speaker 1: not so much for a while. So then I was like, 1055 00:42:27,000 --> 00:42:29,100 Speaker 1: I know I'm going to stream and, you know, and 1056 00:42:29,120 --> 00:42:30,969 Speaker 1: I don't know. I just want to fucking, I want 1057 00:42:30,989 --> 00:42:36,690 Speaker 1: to enjoy that inner child. I want to let that 1058 00:42:36,730 --> 00:42:39,509 Speaker 1: kid do everything that they want to do, you know? 1059 00:42:39,950 --> 00:42:42,260 Speaker 1: That's so good. I'm sorry that it doesn't align with 1060 00:42:43,280 --> 00:42:45,700 Speaker 1: capitalism sometimes, you know? 1061 00:42:46,300 --> 00:42:49,149 Speaker 3: Yes, I do. That's beautiful. And you've been really open 1062 00:42:49,190 --> 00:42:52,310 Speaker 3: to about your family. Like you share your son and 1063 00:42:52,330 --> 00:42:56,219 Speaker 3: your fans know your son, your wife, your brother, my cousin, 1064 00:42:56,260 --> 00:42:58,180 Speaker 3: your brother, your cousin, your home. 1065 00:42:58,219 --> 00:42:58,560 Speaker 2: Yeah. 1066 00:43:00,920 --> 00:43:03,200 Speaker 3: Is that because you just, that's you just being free 1067 00:43:03,239 --> 00:43:05,520 Speaker 3: or that's you wanting to share for other people's experience 1068 00:43:05,600 --> 00:43:09,380 Speaker 3: or what it is for you, right? It's who you are. 1069 00:43:09,820 --> 00:43:12,120 Speaker 1: I love it. I love, I love my brother and 1070 00:43:12,180 --> 00:43:15,379 Speaker 1: my cousin and my family. I love how long they've 1071 00:43:15,400 --> 00:43:17,339 Speaker 1: been there for me. I love that we went from, 1072 00:43:18,239 --> 00:43:21,650 Speaker 1: touring in a Honda Civic to a caravan to a 1073 00:43:21,630 --> 00:43:25,170 Speaker 1: 12 passenger to a 15 passenger to renting buses to 1074 00:43:25,250 --> 00:43:27,810 Speaker 1: back to a van because I thought everybody was flipping 1075 00:43:27,890 --> 00:43:31,310 Speaker 1: out on the bus to them buying a bus you 1076 00:43:31,350 --> 00:43:33,399 Speaker 1: know to the bus breaking down like I love all 1077 00:43:33,440 --> 00:43:35,460 Speaker 1: of it and I want people to see it you 1078 00:43:35,480 --> 00:43:36,040 Speaker 1: seem to have. 1079 00:43:35,960 --> 00:43:40,500 Speaker 3: Figured out um love too yeah like uh how long 1080 00:43:40,520 --> 00:43:43,120 Speaker 3: have you been married now two years That's it? 1081 00:43:43,200 --> 00:43:45,300 Speaker 1: Well, you're in some change. Well, we dated for a 1082 00:43:45,320 --> 00:43:45,939 Speaker 1: long ass time. 1083 00:43:45,980 --> 00:43:46,439 Speaker 3: Long time. 1084 00:43:46,640 --> 00:43:51,060 Speaker 1: Yeah. And then we, you know, and yeah, we, I, we, 1085 00:43:51,260 --> 00:43:54,560 Speaker 1: thank God didn't get into a relationship until, until I 1086 00:43:54,600 --> 00:44:01,160 Speaker 1: was ready to do it. And she was ready. And yeah, 1087 00:44:01,590 --> 00:44:07,229 Speaker 1: I think this relationship is the most understanding and more 1088 00:44:07,270 --> 00:44:09,390 Speaker 1: allowed me to be free. And I think maybe that's 1089 00:44:09,430 --> 00:44:12,780 Speaker 1: also something that's helping me right now, you know? is 1090 00:44:14,500 --> 00:44:20,350 Speaker 1: that I finally have, like, acceptance and a high person 1091 00:44:20,390 --> 00:44:23,110 Speaker 1: to tell me, you know, like, do that, you know, 1092 00:44:23,150 --> 00:44:24,970 Speaker 1: if you want to. Even with the whole Erica, it's like, 1093 00:44:25,910 --> 00:44:27,509 Speaker 1: I pranked her that I got a face tattoo right 1094 00:44:27,530 --> 00:44:29,750 Speaker 1: here because she doesn't want me to. And then I 1095 00:44:29,830 --> 00:44:31,600 Speaker 1: pranked her, and then it was so funny to see, like, 1096 00:44:32,160 --> 00:44:33,719 Speaker 1: we filmed it, and it was so funny to see 1097 00:44:33,760 --> 00:44:37,120 Speaker 1: her be like, no! And she's like, well, and I 1098 00:44:37,140 --> 00:44:39,299 Speaker 1: was like, really? I'm like, that's the reaction. Like, if 1099 00:44:39,340 --> 00:44:40,550 Speaker 1: I would have known that I would have just really 1100 00:44:40,590 --> 00:44:42,469 Speaker 1: got it for real. Like you really do accept me. 1101 00:44:43,030 --> 00:44:44,469 Speaker 1: And so I'm like, that wasn't even a good prank. 1102 00:44:44,489 --> 00:44:46,330 Speaker 1: Cause she's just gonna, you know, she's happy for me, 1103 00:44:46,350 --> 00:44:49,110 Speaker 1: whatever I want to do. And I'm like, that's, that's nice. 1104 00:44:49,310 --> 00:44:51,129 Speaker 1: It's teaching me to like, you know. 1105 00:44:51,489 --> 00:44:53,390 Speaker 3: Did you have to, did you stumble on that? Or 1106 00:44:53,410 --> 00:44:56,200 Speaker 3: did you have to learn that that was important in 1107 00:44:56,219 --> 00:44:59,040 Speaker 3: a relationship? It's like somebody that like accepts you for 1108 00:44:59,060 --> 00:45:03,009 Speaker 3: all your kooky little. yeah fullness you know what I'm 1109 00:45:03,030 --> 00:45:05,710 Speaker 3: saying like. 1110 00:45:04,630 --> 00:45:11,050 Speaker 1: I had to grow to accept that kind of acceptance 1111 00:45:11,640 --> 00:45:14,140 Speaker 1: I think maybe I have gotten partners in the past 1112 00:45:14,200 --> 00:45:18,020 Speaker 1: that I don't know maybe we're like karmic like maybe 1113 00:45:18,040 --> 00:45:20,620 Speaker 1: it was like I've gone through relationships that have had 1114 00:45:20,660 --> 00:45:24,350 Speaker 1: this that in each relationship I've shifted over until I 1115 00:45:24,390 --> 00:45:26,310 Speaker 1: was on the plane where I can see eye to 1116 00:45:26,430 --> 00:45:27,610 Speaker 1: eye with the partner. 1117 00:45:27,410 --> 00:45:28,009 Speaker 3: That I'm with now. 1118 00:45:28,190 --> 00:45:28,549 Speaker 1: You feel me? 1119 00:45:28,590 --> 00:45:29,450 Speaker 3: You had to be ready for that. 1120 00:45:29,550 --> 00:45:31,200 Speaker 1: I had to be ready for that. I feel like, 1121 00:45:31,719 --> 00:45:34,000 Speaker 1: and that's, that's life. And you don't know that till 1122 00:45:34,020 --> 00:45:35,739 Speaker 1: you know that I had so many people advise me that. 1123 00:45:36,080 --> 00:45:37,600 Speaker 1: And I was like, yeah, whatever. No, I want to 1124 00:45:37,620 --> 00:45:39,460 Speaker 1: be with this person. And it was just wrong. You know, 1125 00:45:39,500 --> 00:45:41,140 Speaker 1: it's like, it just was terrible. 1126 00:45:41,160 --> 00:45:42,640 Speaker 3: Like it was, you were married. 1127 00:45:42,760 --> 00:45:45,239 Speaker 1: It's not, yeah, I've been married. I, you know, I've 1128 00:45:45,260 --> 00:45:47,569 Speaker 1: been in a long-term relationship. I was in a half 1129 00:45:47,590 --> 00:45:50,150 Speaker 1: a decade relationship and then that went to shit. And, 1130 00:45:50,690 --> 00:45:54,110 Speaker 1: and then I realized why, like, you know, it's like, yeah. 1131 00:45:54,130 --> 00:45:54,250 Speaker 3: Yeah. 1132 00:45:54,760 --> 00:45:57,899 Speaker 1: That's life. And that sucks sometimes. Maybe it's like that 1133 00:45:57,969 --> 00:46:00,310 Speaker 1: not until you get older and you realize it, you 1134 00:46:00,330 --> 00:46:02,830 Speaker 1: wish you would have known it earlier, you know? So 1135 00:46:02,870 --> 00:46:05,490 Speaker 1: I think that's why, I don't know, maybe I'm supposed 1136 00:46:05,510 --> 00:46:08,049 Speaker 1: to inspire more people to get it. Maybe, you know, 1137 00:46:08,110 --> 00:46:09,850 Speaker 1: we do need a lot of change right now because 1138 00:46:09,910 --> 00:46:12,549 Speaker 1: where the world's kind of going, I feel really not 1139 00:46:13,050 --> 00:46:18,470 Speaker 1: great about it. Between AI, between, you know, data centers 1140 00:46:18,570 --> 00:46:23,080 Speaker 1: and politics and everything that's happening, it feels dark. 1141 00:46:23,940 --> 00:46:26,960 Speaker 3: It is dark. And it feels like we can't stop it. 1142 00:46:27,280 --> 00:46:33,050 Speaker 3: You think that? I feel like the good guys are losing. Really? 1143 00:46:33,770 --> 00:46:34,170 Speaker 5: Why? 1144 00:46:34,190 --> 00:46:35,910 Speaker 1: I think maybe that's why I want to live as 1145 00:46:36,090 --> 00:46:38,810 Speaker 1: best as I can right now. Because I'm like, I 1146 00:46:38,850 --> 00:46:44,549 Speaker 1: don't know that we can stop it. Sorry to depress you. 1147 00:46:45,130 --> 00:46:47,029 Speaker 3: This is the second time in our conversation that you've 1148 00:46:47,070 --> 00:46:48,029 Speaker 3: depressed me. 1149 00:46:48,070 --> 00:46:48,550 Speaker 1: I'm sorry. 1150 00:46:48,690 --> 00:46:52,330 Speaker 3: I'm depressing you. No, no, no. No, but it's freeing, though. 1151 00:46:52,390 --> 00:46:53,609 Speaker 1: No, it is freeing. It's kind of freeing. 1152 00:46:53,630 --> 00:46:54,860 Speaker 3: Because you have to say it out loud. You have 1153 00:46:54,880 --> 00:46:55,259 Speaker 3: to say it. 1154 00:46:55,260 --> 00:46:55,640 Speaker 1: You have to. 1155 00:46:55,700 --> 00:46:59,600 Speaker 3: Otherwise, you're living like, why do I feel so much 1156 00:46:59,719 --> 00:47:02,640 Speaker 3: shit inside? And if you don't say it out loud, well, 1157 00:47:02,680 --> 00:47:06,259 Speaker 3: the world is fucking crazy right now. That could be 1158 00:47:06,300 --> 00:47:07,470 Speaker 3: more problematic. Yes. 1159 00:47:07,510 --> 00:47:08,189 Speaker 1: Does it feel dark? 1160 00:47:08,230 --> 00:47:08,490 Speaker 3: Yes. 1161 00:47:08,550 --> 00:47:10,310 Speaker 1: Does it feel like maybe at some point, maybe it's 1162 00:47:10,350 --> 00:47:12,670 Speaker 1: going to fucking... But right now, you can book that 1163 00:47:12,690 --> 00:47:15,129 Speaker 1: flight to Mexico City and you can enjoy it. Right now, 1164 00:47:15,190 --> 00:47:18,650 Speaker 1: you can sit next to that beach or water or whatever. 1165 00:47:18,730 --> 00:47:20,450 Speaker 1: Right now, you can enjoy your family. Like you were 1166 00:47:20,469 --> 00:47:23,069 Speaker 1: telling me, like, I'm going to miss Drew being 16 1167 00:47:23,070 --> 00:47:28,330 Speaker 1: because your son's older, right? Right now, it's like if 1168 00:47:28,390 --> 00:47:30,290 Speaker 1: I didn't hear that advice and really take it in, 1169 00:47:30,670 --> 00:47:32,860 Speaker 1: I might just think, oh, yeah, my kid's 16, whatever. 1170 00:47:32,950 --> 00:47:36,120 Speaker 1: But it's like, no, like, right now, I can... just 1171 00:47:36,360 --> 00:47:38,400 Speaker 1: try to get that feeling in a bottle, you know, 1172 00:47:38,480 --> 00:47:40,759 Speaker 1: and like enjoy it as much as I can. That's 1173 00:47:40,780 --> 00:47:44,060 Speaker 1: what it feels like with humanity and earth and people 1174 00:47:44,160 --> 00:47:46,890 Speaker 1: is like, right now we can hug the people we 1175 00:47:46,910 --> 00:47:48,910 Speaker 1: love and we don't got to worry about if one 1176 00:47:48,930 --> 00:47:50,969 Speaker 1: day they're not going to be, we got to do it. 1177 00:47:51,430 --> 00:47:53,190 Speaker 3: We got to do it now. I mean, any of 1178 00:47:53,230 --> 00:47:57,690 Speaker 3: like the, the wellness regimens, it's always like the moment 1179 00:47:58,430 --> 00:48:03,230 Speaker 3: living in the moment or just, Like right now, even 1180 00:48:03,610 --> 00:48:08,149 Speaker 3: battling PTSD, it's like, can't be fearful of what could 1181 00:48:08,210 --> 00:48:09,710 Speaker 3: happen because it might not even happen. 1182 00:48:09,830 --> 00:48:11,610 Speaker 1: Now you're just living in that feeling. 1183 00:48:11,650 --> 00:48:14,840 Speaker 3: You're living in that feeling. Yeah. So it's like being present. 1184 00:48:15,040 --> 00:48:17,540 Speaker 1: And it sounds crazy sometimes. Like when you start being like, 1185 00:48:17,560 --> 00:48:20,399 Speaker 1: all right, like. sometimes because with anxiety like you start 1186 00:48:20,420 --> 00:48:22,460 Speaker 1: having like a panic attack or whatever and sometimes you 1187 00:48:22,480 --> 00:48:24,420 Speaker 1: just gotta remember like just feel the table or you 1188 00:48:24,460 --> 00:48:27,460 Speaker 1: know like you drink the water feel it down tapping 1189 00:48:27,500 --> 00:48:30,299 Speaker 1: you're breathing but it's like when you start talking like 1190 00:48:30,320 --> 00:48:31,980 Speaker 1: that to someone who's not ready to receive that type of. 1191 00:48:32,000 --> 00:48:34,439 Speaker 3: Information they're like that person's fucking weird weirdo and. 1192 00:48:34,390 --> 00:48:37,210 Speaker 1: You're not you're literally just fucking actually enjoying what the 1193 00:48:37,370 --> 00:48:40,210 Speaker 1: what the you know moment is you know when we 1194 00:48:40,250 --> 00:48:45,090 Speaker 1: first started like my first microphone was $ 400. Like my, 1195 00:48:45,280 --> 00:48:48,450 Speaker 1: my dream microphone is the microphone I have now, you know? 1196 00:48:48,510 --> 00:48:51,930 Speaker 1: And it's like, and sometimes I just take it for granted. 1197 00:48:52,690 --> 00:48:54,569 Speaker 1: I should stare at as much as I wanted that. 1198 00:48:54,610 --> 00:48:56,410 Speaker 1: My whole life. I should just stare at it. And, 1199 00:48:56,530 --> 00:48:58,740 Speaker 1: or like these microphones, you know, these, these podcast stuff. 1200 00:48:59,060 --> 00:49:01,180 Speaker 1: It's like when we first went and bought podcast stuff, 1201 00:49:01,280 --> 00:49:03,200 Speaker 1: we were like, whoa, we're like sitting in front of it. 1202 00:49:03,219 --> 00:49:04,799 Speaker 1: And sometimes you just take it for granted. And it's like, 1203 00:49:04,820 --> 00:49:06,799 Speaker 1: no man, like let's enjoy every single bit. 1204 00:49:07,200 --> 00:49:08,759 Speaker 3: It's so funny to say that. Cause when we first 1205 00:49:08,820 --> 00:49:11,430 Speaker 3: launched the pod and I first walked in, I was like, 1206 00:49:12,120 --> 00:49:16,200 Speaker 3: It's like a whole set. It's real. Yeah, like it 1207 00:49:16,239 --> 00:49:18,370 Speaker 3: was our set. It was like such a big deal. 1208 00:49:18,390 --> 00:49:20,860 Speaker 3: This is a real set. You know, because I come 1209 00:49:20,880 --> 00:49:23,080 Speaker 3: from radio. We're in a box, little thing. You know, 1210 00:49:23,100 --> 00:49:25,280 Speaker 3: you flip it on, you're on the air. Everything was very. 1211 00:49:25,890 --> 00:49:27,930 Speaker 3: And so when we launched this, I remember feeling that. 1212 00:49:28,030 --> 00:49:30,690 Speaker 3: And I haven't really thought about that much. recently, I 1213 00:49:30,730 --> 00:49:31,630 Speaker 3: should remind myself. 1214 00:49:31,870 --> 00:49:33,030 Speaker 1: It's amazing. 1215 00:49:33,130 --> 00:49:33,569 Speaker 3: What the fuck? 1216 00:49:33,830 --> 00:49:36,150 Speaker 1: And speaking about shift, I mean, yeah, you did radio 1217 00:49:36,550 --> 00:49:38,390 Speaker 1: and then with like the internet and with podcasting and 1218 00:49:38,410 --> 00:49:40,870 Speaker 1: with everything, like how was that like evolution for you? 1219 00:49:40,890 --> 00:49:43,970 Speaker 3: Well, it's like you said, it's like you're just in 1220 00:49:43,989 --> 00:49:45,959 Speaker 3: it trying to ride the wave, trying to like the 1221 00:49:45,980 --> 00:49:49,340 Speaker 3: wave for yourself, not the wave for outside. Yeah. I'm aware. 1222 00:49:49,400 --> 00:49:50,819 Speaker 3: You can't stay in a game and a business for 1223 00:49:50,860 --> 00:49:53,100 Speaker 3: that long without being aware of what like the industry 1224 00:49:53,120 --> 00:49:55,739 Speaker 3: is doing or what people are responding to. I like 1225 00:49:55,760 --> 00:49:59,540 Speaker 3: to be aware of what everything is, but then find my... 1226 00:50:01,080 --> 00:50:04,339 Speaker 3: a natural space for myself. Yeah. Not try to like 1227 00:50:04,440 --> 00:50:06,860 Speaker 3: fit into some shit that everybody else is doing because 1228 00:50:06,880 --> 00:50:10,710 Speaker 3: that's not a happy place or, or comfortable place to 1229 00:50:10,730 --> 00:50:13,009 Speaker 3: be in. So for me, it's always been that. It's 1230 00:50:13,050 --> 00:50:14,629 Speaker 3: always like, well, what am I, what am I into 1231 00:50:14,650 --> 00:50:17,170 Speaker 3: right now? I'm going to write a book. I'm going 1232 00:50:17,190 --> 00:50:21,509 Speaker 3: to try this podcast. It's just more, more, of what 1233 00:50:21,530 --> 00:50:24,399 Speaker 3: I already did, which is really just people and conversation. 1234 00:50:24,420 --> 00:50:27,460 Speaker 3: You know, I'm on the radio, conversation, pod is conversation. 1235 00:50:27,480 --> 00:50:31,530 Speaker 3: It's really about connection and hearing people, helping people tell 1236 00:50:31,550 --> 00:50:34,930 Speaker 3: their stories. Yeah. It's really the same thing. 1237 00:50:34,950 --> 00:50:35,550 Speaker 1: And you made music. 1238 00:50:36,070 --> 00:50:36,870 Speaker 3: I did music for. 1239 00:50:36,790 --> 00:50:39,379 Speaker 1: A little while. I did. What was that shift like? 1240 00:50:40,180 --> 00:50:43,850 Speaker 3: Same thing. It's like, you know, having a creative spirit, 1241 00:50:44,390 --> 00:50:47,489 Speaker 3: wanting to try new shit, being a fan. And then like, Oh, 1242 00:50:47,510 --> 00:50:48,830 Speaker 3: how do we do that? And how do we make 1243 00:50:48,870 --> 00:50:51,090 Speaker 3: it better? But it was, for me, it was really hard. 1244 00:50:51,750 --> 00:50:53,370 Speaker 1: And so, Oh, you didn't like the music part? 1245 00:50:53,670 --> 00:50:55,509 Speaker 3: I did, but it was really hard. It wasn't like 1246 00:50:55,550 --> 00:50:58,469 Speaker 3: the natural, like, this is natural to me. This is like, 1247 00:50:58,489 --> 00:50:59,330 Speaker 3: I can do this in my sleep. 1248 00:50:59,690 --> 00:50:59,910 Speaker 1: Right. 1249 00:50:59,950 --> 00:51:03,420 Speaker 3: And so it's, I don't know. At some point I 1250 00:51:03,430 --> 00:51:05,180 Speaker 3: made a choice when I had my son that I 1251 00:51:05,200 --> 00:51:08,200 Speaker 3: wanted to do what was not easy. None of it 1252 00:51:08,239 --> 00:51:09,870 Speaker 3: is easy. You know, you got to get up every 1253 00:51:09,890 --> 00:51:11,910 Speaker 3: day and fucking do glam and do this and make 1254 00:51:11,930 --> 00:51:14,149 Speaker 3: the calls and do all that shit. But like what 1255 00:51:14,230 --> 00:51:16,919 Speaker 3: just feels natural in your spirit. You know what I'm saying? 1256 00:51:16,980 --> 00:51:18,840 Speaker 3: It's the same type of thing. I looked up to 1257 00:51:18,860 --> 00:51:19,880 Speaker 3: your career forever. 1258 00:51:20,160 --> 00:51:20,660 Speaker 1: Really? 1259 00:51:20,719 --> 00:51:20,980 Speaker 3: Yes. 1260 00:51:21,100 --> 00:51:22,779 Speaker 1: Like I remember you made music and then you went 1261 00:51:22,820 --> 00:51:25,500 Speaker 1: to the radio stuff and you had you. I feel 1262 00:51:25,540 --> 00:51:27,819 Speaker 1: like that was inspiring to me. I feel like that's 1263 00:51:27,860 --> 00:51:33,669 Speaker 1: what made. I don't know. Like it made sense. I've 1264 00:51:33,730 --> 00:51:35,990 Speaker 1: said it. I think I know one of my clippers, 1265 00:51:36,030 --> 00:51:38,810 Speaker 1: if somebody could find an interview or somewhere where I've 1266 00:51:38,830 --> 00:51:41,760 Speaker 1: said it, where I've just been like that, I wanted 1267 00:51:41,780 --> 00:51:43,600 Speaker 1: to do radio because of that. You know, it's like 1268 00:51:43,680 --> 00:51:45,460 Speaker 1: I wanted to go somewhere. And then when I did 1269 00:51:45,480 --> 00:51:48,100 Speaker 1: the podcast, it felt good and I feel comfortable and talking. 1270 00:51:48,460 --> 00:51:50,440 Speaker 1: And then now for me, honestly, live streaming is fun 1271 00:51:50,480 --> 00:51:53,660 Speaker 1: just because it's like, I think that's a trauma response. 1272 00:51:53,680 --> 00:51:57,719 Speaker 1: We'll talk about that later. But yes, the evolution, like, 1273 00:51:58,750 --> 00:52:00,680 Speaker 1: And did you get more free time with your family 1274 00:52:00,719 --> 00:52:02,319 Speaker 1: because you were doing radio? Like you get to clock 1275 00:52:02,420 --> 00:52:02,700 Speaker 1: in and. 1276 00:52:02,840 --> 00:52:04,060 Speaker 3: Oh yeah. When I was, when I had to do 1277 00:52:04,080 --> 00:52:06,640 Speaker 3: music and I was traveling and for sure, my son 1278 00:52:06,660 --> 00:52:10,210 Speaker 3: was born right after my album came out. And so 1279 00:52:10,230 --> 00:52:12,390 Speaker 3: I had to figure out, okay, what do I want 1280 00:52:12,410 --> 00:52:15,060 Speaker 3: my life to look like? And yeah, that was just 1281 00:52:15,260 --> 00:52:17,960 Speaker 3: it was just easier right for me it wasn't the 1282 00:52:18,060 --> 00:52:21,200 Speaker 3: artistry the music shit wasn't a natural thing and it's 1283 00:52:21,219 --> 00:52:23,319 Speaker 3: funny because I used to downplay it a lot because 1284 00:52:23,340 --> 00:52:24,790 Speaker 3: I'm like oh it's like looking at a high school 1285 00:52:24,810 --> 00:52:26,469 Speaker 3: yearbook you'd be like oh my god that was me 1286 00:52:26,630 --> 00:52:29,129 Speaker 3: oh my god but now I realize I stopped doing 1287 00:52:29,170 --> 00:52:31,710 Speaker 3: that so much because I realized that that moment was 1288 00:52:31,770 --> 00:52:33,850 Speaker 3: something for other people and every time I kind of 1289 00:52:33,870 --> 00:52:35,590 Speaker 3: like bash it I feel like I was ruining the 1290 00:52:35,610 --> 00:52:38,430 Speaker 3: moment for anybody else who connected with it you know 1291 00:52:38,450 --> 00:52:39,730 Speaker 3: I'm saying and now I can look at it with 1292 00:52:39,770 --> 00:52:42,310 Speaker 3: like love like Damn, that was dope. Damn, I did this. 1293 00:52:42,430 --> 00:52:44,890 Speaker 3: And we got a Grammy nomination. Ladies Night got a 1294 00:52:44,910 --> 00:52:50,319 Speaker 3: Grammy nomination. I had a top 10 song. I had 1295 00:52:50,360 --> 00:52:54,500 Speaker 3: things that some people probably would love to have that experience. 1296 00:52:54,560 --> 00:52:56,759 Speaker 3: You know what I'm saying? So I stopped looking at 1297 00:52:56,800 --> 00:53:00,359 Speaker 3: it as a weird blip and just as a dope blip. 1298 00:53:00,430 --> 00:53:00,870 Speaker 3: You know what I mean? 1299 00:53:00,910 --> 00:53:01,330 Speaker 1: That was fun. 1300 00:53:01,350 --> 00:53:02,770 Speaker 3: It's dope. It's inspiring. 1301 00:53:02,810 --> 00:53:06,090 Speaker 1: Like I said, I think that whole thing... I've seen 1302 00:53:06,770 --> 00:53:10,859 Speaker 1: rappers talk about how they didn't have... the child that 1303 00:53:10,880 --> 00:53:13,360 Speaker 1: they wanted, you know, they, they chose their career or whatever. 1304 00:53:13,380 --> 00:53:16,700 Speaker 1: And it's like, sometimes you see those parallels and you go, damn, like, 1305 00:53:16,739 --> 00:53:18,890 Speaker 1: you know, it's like, I, I, you know, some of 1306 00:53:18,950 --> 00:53:21,670 Speaker 1: us artists have, have had the, you know, we had 1307 00:53:21,710 --> 00:53:23,950 Speaker 1: the kid and we raised them and we chose that. And, 1308 00:53:24,210 --> 00:53:26,410 Speaker 1: and yeah, did it, did it not turn into this? 1309 00:53:26,730 --> 00:53:27,050 Speaker 3: Yes. 1310 00:53:27,230 --> 00:53:30,520 Speaker 1: But that's our life. You know what I'm saying? 1311 00:53:30,560 --> 00:53:32,460 Speaker 3: Like that's, you wouldn't change anything about that. 1312 00:53:32,480 --> 00:53:32,760 Speaker 1: No. 1313 00:53:33,020 --> 00:53:35,759 Speaker 3: I find it really funny that you're, you have the 1314 00:53:35,940 --> 00:53:39,520 Speaker 3: history and the experience and your family and being, having 1315 00:53:39,540 --> 00:53:41,719 Speaker 3: that experience as this child in this Mexican family, and 1316 00:53:41,780 --> 00:53:45,540 Speaker 3: then having a child who's, by the way, this term 1317 00:53:45,600 --> 00:53:47,820 Speaker 3: is so universally known. I didn't know like a Yono 1318 00:53:47,840 --> 00:53:51,219 Speaker 3: Sabo baby is a real universal term that people know. 1319 00:53:51,700 --> 00:53:54,259 Speaker 3: And I'm that baby too, by the way. And I'm 1320 00:53:54,300 --> 00:53:58,600 Speaker 3: third generation. My, my grandfather's, I have Cuban, Dominican and 1321 00:53:58,640 --> 00:54:01,419 Speaker 3: Puerto Rican background. Right. But my mother was born here. 1322 00:54:01,600 --> 00:54:03,590 Speaker 3: My father was born here. So I'm third generation. So 1323 00:54:03,610 --> 00:54:04,620 Speaker 3: my Spanish is shit. 1324 00:54:05,010 --> 00:54:05,299 Speaker 1: I'm dead. 1325 00:54:05,940 --> 00:54:08,340 Speaker 3: And then the crazy thing is my last name is Martinez. 1326 00:54:08,400 --> 00:54:13,169 Speaker 3: I'm a public figure. There's something about being Latina that people, 1327 00:54:13,190 --> 00:54:18,210 Speaker 3: there's expectations that come with that in some way. And 1328 00:54:18,230 --> 00:54:19,250 Speaker 3: so I, when I was a kid, I used to 1329 00:54:19,330 --> 00:54:21,739 Speaker 3: be so embarrassed by that. Like, oh my God, they 1330 00:54:21,780 --> 00:54:24,620 Speaker 3: expect me to speak Spanish. And my Spanish is, I 1331 00:54:24,660 --> 00:54:26,799 Speaker 3: could do it, but it's, it's going to be more 1332 00:54:26,840 --> 00:54:28,960 Speaker 3: embarrassing for me to speak publicly than it would be 1333 00:54:29,260 --> 00:54:31,339 Speaker 3: for me to just say, I don't speak it because 1334 00:54:31,400 --> 00:54:34,890 Speaker 3: it's so bad. But then I was thinking like, wow, 1335 00:54:34,910 --> 00:54:39,009 Speaker 3: that really unites us as Latinas because I think, you know, 1336 00:54:39,030 --> 00:54:43,609 Speaker 3: like this country or just like mainstream people that the 1337 00:54:43,650 --> 00:54:46,430 Speaker 3: term Latina, right. They try to put it in a thing. 1338 00:54:46,489 --> 00:54:50,490 Speaker 3: Like we are, we are Latinas, but we're not the same. 1339 00:54:50,690 --> 00:54:54,190 Speaker 3: Our experiences are so different. A girl who grew up, 1340 00:54:55,150 --> 00:54:58,910 Speaker 3: with a Mexican family in L.A., a Dominican girl from 1341 00:54:58,950 --> 00:55:03,130 Speaker 3: Washington Heights, a Cuban girl from Miami. We're all Latina. 1342 00:55:03,150 --> 00:55:05,969 Speaker 3: We do have similar threads. Yeah. But our experience is 1343 00:55:06,050 --> 00:55:09,589 Speaker 3: so different. Yeah. But the one thing that we all 1344 00:55:09,650 --> 00:55:14,450 Speaker 3: experience is that second, third generation of, like, with your 1345 00:55:14,469 --> 00:55:18,170 Speaker 3: son or me, who is, like, disconnected from the language. That's, like, 1346 00:55:18,210 --> 00:55:21,230 Speaker 3: a real thing. Yeah. That every single one of us. 1347 00:55:21,550 --> 00:55:23,730 Speaker 1: I'm currently going through it with my son about it. And, 1348 00:55:23,790 --> 00:55:25,990 Speaker 1: you know, and I mean... I don't know. I struggle 1349 00:55:26,030 --> 00:55:27,850 Speaker 1: with it because obviously sometimes people make fun of me 1350 00:55:27,870 --> 00:55:29,530 Speaker 1: and they're like, yeah, you're very proud of being Mexican, 1351 00:55:29,570 --> 00:55:32,830 Speaker 1: but your son doesn't speak, you know? And I'm just like, man. 1352 00:55:32,870 --> 00:55:35,160 Speaker 3: Yeah. I'm at the Puerto Rican day parade for my 1353 00:55:35,180 --> 00:55:35,910 Speaker 3: whole career. 1354 00:55:36,480 --> 00:55:36,980 Speaker 1: Yeah. 1355 00:55:37,020 --> 00:55:39,379 Speaker 3: So I understand him completely. Yeah. I'm like, I just 1356 00:55:39,640 --> 00:55:40,700 Speaker 3: got a bad grade in Spanish. 1357 00:55:40,719 --> 00:55:43,020 Speaker 1: I'm like, baby, come on. But I mean, at the 1358 00:55:43,040 --> 00:55:44,960 Speaker 1: same time, I know like as his mom, you know, like, 1359 00:55:45,020 --> 00:55:49,290 Speaker 1: I don't know, man. I, I hope to teach him 1360 00:55:49,410 --> 00:55:51,650 Speaker 1: enough Spanish that he can, you know, get move around. 1361 00:55:51,830 --> 00:55:54,950 Speaker 3: But, um, I, but a lot of times I was gone. 1362 00:55:54,969 --> 00:55:59,130 Speaker 1: Yeah, no, it's just, I think it's a added bonus 1363 00:55:59,190 --> 00:56:02,529 Speaker 1: if you can obviously communicate with more people, you know, and, and, 1364 00:56:02,590 --> 00:56:04,890 Speaker 1: and it's never too late to, to try. And I 1365 00:56:04,910 --> 00:56:07,890 Speaker 1: don't think accents, I don't think when, you know, when 1366 00:56:07,930 --> 00:56:09,910 Speaker 1: Hispanic people speak English and they have an accent, I 1367 00:56:09,930 --> 00:56:11,830 Speaker 1: don't think that should be looked down on. And I 1368 00:56:11,850 --> 00:56:14,779 Speaker 1: don't think if Spanish, if English speaking people speak Spanish 1369 00:56:14,800 --> 00:56:16,100 Speaker 1: with an accent, I don't think it should be looked 1370 00:56:16,120 --> 00:56:18,819 Speaker 1: down on. because people don't ever look down on, you know, 1371 00:56:19,700 --> 00:56:22,580 Speaker 1: the Italian or the European accents. Whenever people speak English 1372 00:56:22,600 --> 00:56:25,260 Speaker 1: with certain different, or, you know, or Spanish with other accents, 1373 00:56:25,280 --> 00:56:26,739 Speaker 1: people don't look down on them. So I don't know. 1374 00:56:26,780 --> 00:56:27,620 Speaker 1: I think if you're trying. 1375 00:56:28,219 --> 00:56:29,879 Speaker 3: Just try. You're fine. You're good. 1376 00:56:29,900 --> 00:56:30,839 Speaker 1: Okay, I'm going to try. 1377 00:56:30,860 --> 00:56:33,160 Speaker 3: I'm going to try publicly. Try it. 1378 00:56:33,219 --> 00:56:35,880 Speaker 1: Like, why not? I think, you know, I think, I 1379 00:56:35,900 --> 00:56:37,839 Speaker 1: think if you weren't trying, you know, then, then, then, 1380 00:56:37,960 --> 00:56:39,440 Speaker 1: then they're getting to you, but don't let them get 1381 00:56:39,460 --> 00:56:39,680 Speaker 1: to you. 1382 00:56:39,940 --> 00:56:40,520 Speaker 3: Yeah, that's true. 1383 00:56:40,620 --> 00:56:43,120 Speaker 1: You know, and then it's like with my son, same thing. 1384 00:56:43,140 --> 00:56:44,739 Speaker 1: It's like, I want to teach him more, but I 1385 00:56:44,739 --> 00:56:47,360 Speaker 1: also want, I'm okay with like living those experiences with him. 1386 00:56:47,410 --> 00:56:49,830 Speaker 1: I try to take him to Mexico. Like he's Mexican, 1387 00:56:49,870 --> 00:56:52,350 Speaker 1: Puerto Rican and Dominican. So I took him to DR. 1388 00:56:52,390 --> 00:56:53,989 Speaker 1: I took him to Mexico. You know, I have to 1389 00:56:54,030 --> 00:56:56,250 Speaker 1: take him to PR. Like I have to like, I'm like, where, 1390 00:56:56,290 --> 00:56:57,910 Speaker 1: where do you feel your roots? You know, what are you, 1391 00:56:57,930 --> 00:56:59,969 Speaker 1: what are your ancestors telling you? Cause at the same time, 1392 00:57:00,030 --> 00:57:02,910 Speaker 1: me being full Mexican is not his experience. His dad 1393 00:57:02,950 --> 00:57:06,390 Speaker 1: is Puerto Rican Dominican from Miami. So you know what 1394 00:57:06,410 --> 00:57:08,390 Speaker 1: I'm saying? Like he's growing up with a completely different 1395 00:57:08,410 --> 00:57:10,390 Speaker 1: experience than I am. So I be telling him this 1396 00:57:10,410 --> 00:57:13,110 Speaker 1: all the time. I'm like, I'm meeting you like you're 1397 00:57:13,239 --> 00:57:16,090 Speaker 1: developing and you're telling me kind of what, you know, 1398 00:57:16,130 --> 00:57:19,650 Speaker 1: and I kind of have to deal with and accordingly. 1399 00:57:20,130 --> 00:57:24,350 Speaker 3: And so that's good parenting though. I'm trying my damn best. 1400 00:57:26,030 --> 00:57:28,270 Speaker 1: Sometimes I'll be forgetting. Sometimes I'll be getting frustrated, but 1401 00:57:28,290 --> 00:57:29,770 Speaker 1: at the same time, you know, it's like, I've left 1402 00:57:29,810 --> 00:57:31,610 Speaker 1: him with like, whenever I go on tour, like my 1403 00:57:31,650 --> 00:57:33,370 Speaker 1: mom will come into town and I tell my mom, 1404 00:57:33,410 --> 00:57:35,490 Speaker 1: I'm like, mom, speak Spanish to him. You're his grandma. 1405 00:57:35,510 --> 00:57:37,210 Speaker 1: Like you speak Spanish, you know, or his grandma on 1406 00:57:37,230 --> 00:57:39,110 Speaker 1: his other side, nobody speaks. 1407 00:57:39,210 --> 00:57:39,730 Speaker 3: Spanish to him. 1408 00:57:39,870 --> 00:57:42,460 Speaker 1: I'm like, Like, oh, you did? Who speaks Spanish to me? 1409 00:57:42,680 --> 00:57:45,400 Speaker 1: She's like, yeah, but he speaks English. I'm like, somebody 1410 00:57:45,420 --> 00:57:45,760 Speaker 1: help me. 1411 00:57:45,940 --> 00:57:48,000 Speaker 3: Yeah, but the idea, I love that you said you're 1412 00:57:48,020 --> 00:57:50,760 Speaker 3: getting to know who he is. Yeah. I think mothers, 1413 00:57:50,840 --> 00:57:53,750 Speaker 3: sometimes we have an idea of what we think our 1414 00:57:54,030 --> 00:57:58,910 Speaker 3: children should be. And I don't know. That's a tough 1415 00:57:58,990 --> 00:58:03,330 Speaker 3: kind of thing, trying to form somebody, create somebody, make somebody. 1416 00:58:03,830 --> 00:58:08,800 Speaker 3: But you're being introduced to somebody. letting your child kind 1417 00:58:08,860 --> 00:58:10,550 Speaker 3: of tell you who they are, which is interesting. 1418 00:58:10,610 --> 00:58:13,010 Speaker 1: It's a push and pull, you know, I obviously can't 1419 00:58:13,170 --> 00:58:17,230 Speaker 1: also just let him drift and just do whatever. Cause 1420 00:58:17,290 --> 00:58:19,930 Speaker 1: I know that even he's actually verbally said it, like 1421 00:58:20,490 --> 00:58:23,090 Speaker 1: sometimes it's okay to give me, you know, direction or 1422 00:58:23,110 --> 00:58:24,750 Speaker 1: structure or whatever. And I'm like, cool. I'm there for that. 1423 00:58:24,810 --> 00:58:28,010 Speaker 1: You know, I'm here to give him the tools that 1424 00:58:28,030 --> 00:58:30,890 Speaker 1: he's going to need to become the man he wants 1425 00:58:31,140 --> 00:58:34,240 Speaker 1: to become. But I also wasn't raised in this time. 1426 00:58:34,300 --> 00:58:35,580 Speaker 1: I was telling him the other day, like, I'm like, 1427 00:58:35,950 --> 00:58:39,540 Speaker 1: you know, you're raised on full screens now. And, you know, 1428 00:58:39,580 --> 00:58:42,240 Speaker 1: like people like the internet, where it is, and I 1429 00:58:42,280 --> 00:58:44,220 Speaker 1: don't know what future we're leaving for our kids. Like, 1430 00:58:44,260 --> 00:58:46,220 Speaker 1: that's sad to look at your child and be like, yo, 1431 00:58:46,260 --> 00:58:47,620 Speaker 1: what are we leaving them? 1432 00:58:48,060 --> 00:58:48,340 Speaker 3: You know? 1433 00:58:48,400 --> 00:58:50,890 Speaker 1: So it's like the best I could do is try 1434 00:58:50,910 --> 00:58:53,710 Speaker 1: to provide that and safety. And then also remember I'm 1435 00:58:53,770 --> 00:58:55,430 Speaker 1: the mom, I'm not the dad. So I have to, 1436 00:58:55,510 --> 00:58:58,490 Speaker 1: you know, be the nurturing and be that, and, you know, 1437 00:58:58,550 --> 00:59:01,650 Speaker 1: have a good relationship with his dad and, It's so much, 1438 00:59:01,730 --> 00:59:03,250 Speaker 1: it's so much to be a mom and to be 1439 00:59:03,290 --> 00:59:06,820 Speaker 1: a grownup and to be a person and to be 1440 00:59:06,880 --> 00:59:09,870 Speaker 1: queer and to be, you know, Latina and to be Mexican. 1441 00:59:09,910 --> 00:59:10,930 Speaker 1: and to be all these things. 1442 00:59:10,950 --> 00:59:11,930 Speaker 3: There's so many things. 1443 00:59:12,030 --> 00:59:16,290 Speaker 1: So many buzzwords now. Like, literally, it's so crazy how 1444 00:59:16,310 --> 00:59:17,470 Speaker 1: many buzzwords I am. 1445 00:59:17,650 --> 00:59:18,410 Speaker 3: Oh, my God. 1446 00:59:18,490 --> 00:59:20,040 Speaker 1: And then I'm not even trying to be a buzzword. 1447 00:59:20,080 --> 00:59:21,860 Speaker 1: I'm just talking and people are like, oh, these are 1448 00:59:21,900 --> 00:59:26,100 Speaker 1: all those words and, you know, neurodivergent and queer and LGBT. 1449 00:59:26,120 --> 00:59:28,300 Speaker 1: I'm like, that's not my fucking fault. Like, I was 1450 00:59:28,320 --> 00:59:30,580 Speaker 1: these things before people started talking about them on TikTok. 1451 00:59:31,940 --> 00:59:33,720 Speaker 1: Thank God they did, though, because now people at least, 1452 00:59:33,740 --> 00:59:35,600 Speaker 1: you know, know. 1453 00:59:35,660 --> 00:59:37,220 Speaker 3: It's not so, I don't know. 1454 00:59:37,460 --> 00:59:39,520 Speaker 1: Yeah, and I still have to educate people and deal 1455 00:59:39,540 --> 00:59:40,260 Speaker 1: with that, you know? 1456 00:59:40,700 --> 00:59:42,640 Speaker 3: Why aren't you just straight? 1457 00:59:42,660 --> 00:59:44,160 Speaker 1: And I'm like, I don't fucking know. 1458 00:59:44,240 --> 00:59:46,020 Speaker 3: Has somebody really asked you why aren't you straight? 1459 00:59:46,040 --> 00:59:50,320 Speaker 1: Dude, so much. Literally, people are like, some guys, right 1460 00:59:50,360 --> 00:59:51,940 Speaker 1: here in the bathroom, I just have to respond to 1461 00:59:51,960 --> 00:59:52,520 Speaker 1: some fucking guy. 1462 00:59:52,540 --> 00:59:54,640 Speaker 3: Because he was like, I cut my hair because I 1463 00:59:54,680 --> 00:59:55,120 Speaker 3: need a man. 1464 00:59:55,140 --> 00:59:58,220 Speaker 1: I was like, girl, shut up. And he has his 1465 00:59:58,260 --> 01:00:00,200 Speaker 1: daughter in his picture. I'm like, one day your daughter's 1466 01:00:00,220 --> 01:00:03,670 Speaker 1: going to come home. Crying because somebody bullied her. And 1467 01:00:03,690 --> 01:00:05,310 Speaker 1: you better remember that this is what you do on 1468 01:00:05,330 --> 01:00:07,550 Speaker 1: the internet. I'm parenting him. 1469 01:00:08,510 --> 01:00:09,310 Speaker 3: On the internet. 1470 01:00:09,390 --> 01:00:09,730 Speaker 1: Yeah. 1471 01:00:15,010 --> 01:00:17,590 Speaker 3: Oh, you're a good mom. I'm trying. You're trying to 1472 01:00:17,630 --> 01:00:18,709 Speaker 3: have another baby too, yeah? 1473 01:00:18,930 --> 01:00:20,150 Speaker 1: Yeah, hopefully God willing. 1474 01:00:20,230 --> 01:00:21,170 Speaker 3: How was that process? 1475 01:00:21,660 --> 01:00:24,950 Speaker 1: Well, you know, first round, not great. We failed. But 1476 01:00:26,730 --> 01:00:28,410 Speaker 1: I also have a, that's why I was telling you 1477 01:00:28,430 --> 01:00:29,650 Speaker 1: that I didn't think I was ever going to have 1478 01:00:29,670 --> 01:00:31,530 Speaker 1: a kid. So I have this condition I take medicine 1479 01:00:31,550 --> 01:00:34,550 Speaker 1: for since I was like 15. And so I think 1480 01:00:34,570 --> 01:00:37,700 Speaker 1: I just also, just wrong timing too. Energy, like what's 1481 01:00:37,720 --> 01:00:39,800 Speaker 1: it called? I wasn't on my medicine. I was leaving 1482 01:00:39,860 --> 01:00:41,160 Speaker 1: on tour, all that stuff. 1483 01:00:41,400 --> 01:00:42,110 Speaker 3: You're trying to carry it. 1484 01:00:43,520 --> 01:00:43,940 Speaker 1: My egg. 1485 01:00:44,360 --> 01:00:45,260 Speaker 3: Oh, yeah. 1486 01:00:45,360 --> 01:00:46,960 Speaker 1: But I was like, worst case scenario, if I got 1487 01:00:46,980 --> 01:00:48,140 Speaker 1: to get pregnant, I mean, Brad did it. 1488 01:00:48,140 --> 01:00:48,680 Speaker 3: I could do it. 1489 01:00:50,240 --> 01:00:52,920 Speaker 1: I'll go out there and wrap in a jersey too 1490 01:00:53,180 --> 01:00:53,940 Speaker 1: and do my thing. 1491 01:00:54,620 --> 01:00:58,330 Speaker 3: She could take care of me. Yeah. Why not? So 1492 01:00:58,350 --> 01:00:59,270 Speaker 3: you're going to figure it out. 1493 01:00:59,450 --> 01:01:00,250 Speaker 1: We're going to figure it out. 1494 01:01:00,550 --> 01:01:00,790 Speaker 3: Yeah. 1495 01:01:00,850 --> 01:01:02,169 Speaker 1: We always do. Is that a joke? 1496 01:01:02,250 --> 01:01:04,170 Speaker 3: Who did we just talk to that had a really 1497 01:01:04,230 --> 01:01:09,930 Speaker 3: difficult challenge? Oh, Michelle Buteau. Michelle Buteau. You know her? 1498 01:01:09,950 --> 01:01:14,020 Speaker 3: She has a show on Netflix, The Survival of the Thickest. Oh, shoot. 1499 01:01:14,160 --> 01:01:15,000 Speaker 2: Yeah, it's really good. 1500 01:01:15,020 --> 01:01:15,790 Speaker 3: You should check that out. 1501 01:01:15,800 --> 01:01:16,340 Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah. 1502 01:01:16,360 --> 01:01:18,110 Speaker 3: She was just on. But she was talking about her 1503 01:01:18,170 --> 01:01:20,350 Speaker 3: IVF journey was, whoo, it was a, it was a 1504 01:01:20,370 --> 01:01:22,230 Speaker 3: real one. I like took a toll on her. She 1505 01:01:22,690 --> 01:01:24,610 Speaker 3: eventually wound up going surrogate. 1506 01:01:25,700 --> 01:01:25,880 Speaker 1: Yeah. 1507 01:01:26,060 --> 01:01:28,320 Speaker 3: And she directed one of the episodes on the show about, 1508 01:01:29,020 --> 01:01:33,120 Speaker 3: about that. But it's like, it could be an emotional. Yeah. 1509 01:01:33,340 --> 01:01:34,000 Speaker 3: Very process. 1510 01:01:34,140 --> 01:01:37,460 Speaker 1: Very much so. And I, you know, in, in the, 1511 01:01:37,620 --> 01:01:42,070 Speaker 1: in my typical way, I was doing too much during a. 1512 01:01:42,050 --> 01:01:43,050 Speaker 3: Very short amount of time. 1513 01:01:43,110 --> 01:01:45,030 Speaker 1: I took my son to Mexico. I was showing him Mexico. 1514 01:01:45,050 --> 01:01:45,790 Speaker 3: I was working. 1515 01:01:45,850 --> 01:01:47,970 Speaker 1: I was, getting ready for a tour. I was, you know, 1516 01:01:48,030 --> 01:01:49,990 Speaker 1: going to the stuff and getting the shots and doing 1517 01:01:50,010 --> 01:01:52,950 Speaker 1: all this stuff. And it just, life will slow you 1518 01:01:52,990 --> 01:01:55,710 Speaker 1: down and teach you, you know, a hard lesson. And 1519 01:01:55,770 --> 01:01:58,640 Speaker 1: so I think ultimately, I think that was something. And 1520 01:01:58,680 --> 01:02:00,480 Speaker 1: that's how I ended up buying the apartment in Mexico 1521 01:02:00,500 --> 01:02:02,460 Speaker 1: City was because that's where the doctor was and everything. 1522 01:02:02,500 --> 01:02:04,700 Speaker 1: So we started looking for apartments and everything. And then 1523 01:02:04,720 --> 01:02:06,280 Speaker 1: I was just like, you know what, now maybe I 1524 01:02:06,320 --> 01:02:08,260 Speaker 1: just come over here and I calm down and I 1525 01:02:08,280 --> 01:02:11,400 Speaker 1: just live chill. And we try again, maybe in a 1526 01:02:11,420 --> 01:02:16,140 Speaker 1: more relaxed way. way instead of so uh adhd like 1527 01:02:16,160 --> 01:02:19,110 Speaker 1: i usually do everything you know sometimes you gotta focus 1528 01:02:20,130 --> 01:02:22,030 Speaker 1: and i think life will teach you to relax a 1529 01:02:22,070 --> 01:02:26,250 Speaker 1: little bit or my wife yeah she'll be like calm 1530 01:02:26,290 --> 01:02:28,850 Speaker 1: down i'm like you know. 1531 01:02:29,010 --> 01:02:31,610 Speaker 3: Yeah she's a good partner for you huh very very 1532 01:02:31,630 --> 01:02:34,470 Speaker 3: good partner for me i think um yeah what do 1533 01:02:34,490 --> 01:02:37,470 Speaker 3: you think the key is to finding a good partner. 1534 01:02:38,770 --> 01:02:41,110 Speaker 1: Like I said, I mean, prior to getting this relationship, 1535 01:02:41,170 --> 01:02:44,590 Speaker 1: we dated, we dated other people, whatever. I was in therapy. 1536 01:02:44,650 --> 01:02:47,710 Speaker 1: I was living through what I needed to live through 1537 01:02:47,830 --> 01:02:52,350 Speaker 1: and kind of adjusting and normalizing my nervous system. I 1538 01:02:52,390 --> 01:02:56,340 Speaker 1: think I was in a very truculent, you know, relationship 1539 01:02:56,380 --> 01:02:59,320 Speaker 1: for a while that maybe made me live in a 1540 01:02:59,360 --> 01:03:03,169 Speaker 1: different type of frequency, you know, and Sometimes you can't 1541 01:03:03,210 --> 01:03:05,410 Speaker 1: go from that to something else. And I had been 1542 01:03:05,450 --> 01:03:07,790 Speaker 1: a serial dater. Like, since my first relationship, I had 1543 01:03:07,830 --> 01:03:11,690 Speaker 1: never really been alone. I had always kind of, you know, 1544 01:03:11,730 --> 01:03:13,810 Speaker 1: dated a little bit and then just in the next relationship. 1545 01:03:14,200 --> 01:03:16,200 Speaker 1: And so this was the first time that I actually took, like, 1546 01:03:16,420 --> 01:03:17,439 Speaker 1: a couple years to just. 1547 01:03:17,840 --> 01:03:18,100 Speaker 3: Date? 1548 01:03:18,760 --> 01:03:19,040 Speaker 1: Yeah. 1549 01:03:19,280 --> 01:03:19,720 Speaker 3: How's that? 1550 01:03:19,820 --> 01:03:20,340 Speaker 1: And be alone. 1551 01:03:20,360 --> 01:03:21,400 Speaker 3: Oh, and be alone. 1552 01:03:21,620 --> 01:03:24,260 Speaker 1: Be alone, date, then be alone again, then date, then, 1553 01:03:24,360 --> 01:03:28,280 Speaker 1: you know, whatever. It was a lot. I found out 1554 01:03:28,300 --> 01:03:31,630 Speaker 1: a lot about myself. It's, yeah, it's... You kind of, 1555 01:03:31,640 --> 01:03:34,490 Speaker 1: you really do have to sit with that alone and 1556 01:03:34,510 --> 01:03:36,050 Speaker 1: be like, what have I been. 1557 01:03:37,410 --> 01:03:38,210 Speaker 3: Searching for? 1558 01:03:38,490 --> 01:03:40,450 Speaker 1: Maybe sometimes you search for it outside of you and 1559 01:03:40,970 --> 01:03:43,210 Speaker 1: really you're supposed to just become that person. And then 1560 01:03:43,910 --> 01:03:48,090 Speaker 1: you eventually get to a place where, you know, you're 1561 01:03:48,110 --> 01:03:52,850 Speaker 1: ready to just, you're, you're coming to it from a 1562 01:03:52,890 --> 01:03:57,830 Speaker 1: partnership and from understanding, not so much for seeking something or. 1563 01:03:57,850 --> 01:03:59,150 Speaker 3: Somebody to save you. Yeah. 1564 01:03:59,530 --> 01:03:59,740 Speaker 5: Yeah. 1565 01:03:59,820 --> 01:04:00,640 Speaker 3: Or fix you. Yeah. 1566 01:04:01,200 --> 01:04:03,940 Speaker 1: You just want to be. And I think that's why 1567 01:04:03,980 --> 01:04:05,920 Speaker 1: I kind of get the freedom to just kind of 1568 01:04:06,580 --> 01:04:11,310 Speaker 1: be whatever it is that I am right now. You know? 1569 01:04:11,330 --> 01:04:14,350 Speaker 1: I did open the vault. I have a lot of 1570 01:04:14,830 --> 01:04:18,550 Speaker 1: recorded songs that I started throughout the years. And I'm 1571 01:04:18,570 --> 01:04:20,330 Speaker 1: just kind of like, a lot of it is kind 1572 01:04:20,350 --> 01:04:22,630 Speaker 1: of closing chapters. It's like, I want to wrap some 1573 01:04:22,670 --> 01:04:24,090 Speaker 1: of those up and just put them out. Even if 1574 01:04:24,470 --> 01:04:27,710 Speaker 1: those aren't necessarily, you know, the huge, you know, whatever. 1575 01:04:27,790 --> 01:04:31,340 Speaker 1: But it's like, I wrote it. I came up with it. 1576 01:04:31,380 --> 01:04:33,730 Speaker 1: Those were feelings. Those were real things. And it's like, 1577 01:04:34,150 --> 01:04:36,430 Speaker 1: that's what I did on this last project was some 1578 01:04:36,470 --> 01:04:39,230 Speaker 1: of those songs were songs that I started in the 1579 01:04:39,290 --> 01:04:41,490 Speaker 1: second versus me now, you know? So it's like, I 1580 01:04:41,530 --> 01:04:44,760 Speaker 1: have a song called faith and the first verse is 1581 01:04:44,820 --> 01:04:48,200 Speaker 1: coming from where I was six years ago, which was 1582 01:04:48,280 --> 01:04:51,100 Speaker 1: me very frustrated, very going through things. And I'm kind 1583 01:04:51,220 --> 01:04:54,400 Speaker 1: of had this, you know, angry vibe. And on the 1584 01:04:54,440 --> 01:04:57,640 Speaker 1: second version, I'm just kind of more, you know, accepting 1585 01:04:57,700 --> 01:04:59,940 Speaker 1: and like, it's more, a little bit more faith, based 1586 01:05:00,020 --> 01:05:01,950 Speaker 1: like more god you know and just being like yo 1587 01:05:01,990 --> 01:05:04,030 Speaker 1: this is who i am you know and i think 1588 01:05:04,070 --> 01:05:06,910 Speaker 1: i had a couple songs on the project where it's 1589 01:05:06,950 --> 01:05:09,150 Speaker 1: not often you get to see an artist finish a 1590 01:05:09,190 --> 01:05:11,850 Speaker 1: song on this side and be like this is the 1591 01:05:11,890 --> 01:05:14,580 Speaker 1: loop this is the cycle we're closing and wow i 1592 01:05:14,600 --> 01:05:16,300 Speaker 1: think that's art you know what i'm saying it's like 1593 01:05:16,320 --> 01:05:18,740 Speaker 1: sure it is that's real art yeah it's like a 1594 01:05:18,780 --> 01:05:20,540 Speaker 1: time warp and you just come out and you're like 1595 01:05:22,020 --> 01:05:23,200 Speaker 1: you're featuring yourself. 1596 01:05:23,880 --> 01:05:27,010 Speaker 3: That's so dope you know yeah That's a span of what, 1597 01:05:27,030 --> 01:05:28,010 Speaker 3: like six months, you said? 1598 01:05:28,090 --> 01:05:28,530 Speaker 1: Six years. 1599 01:05:28,790 --> 01:05:31,410 Speaker 3: Six years. Holy shit. Yeah. Oh, yeah. It's a big, 1600 01:05:31,770 --> 01:05:32,250 Speaker 3: big shift. 1601 01:05:32,370 --> 01:05:32,710 Speaker 1: Yeah. 1602 01:05:33,290 --> 01:05:34,630 Speaker 3: In life. Yeah. 1603 01:05:34,710 --> 01:05:36,950 Speaker 1: And I like that. I think, like I said, it's 1604 01:05:36,970 --> 01:05:41,470 Speaker 1: like some of me isn't going to be that song 1605 01:05:41,510 --> 01:05:43,440 Speaker 1: that I made, those little things. It's going to be 1606 01:05:43,480 --> 01:05:45,980 Speaker 1: the whole thing. It's going to be the whole journey 1607 01:05:46,060 --> 01:05:49,020 Speaker 1: or the whole journey. song that took six years it's 1608 01:05:49,040 --> 01:05:50,720 Speaker 1: gonna be all that i think all of that is 1609 01:05:50,760 --> 01:05:52,700 Speaker 1: like hopefully inspiring and i'm sure there will be some 1610 01:05:52,760 --> 01:05:55,100 Speaker 1: artists that pop off and one day they'd be like 1611 01:05:55,120 --> 01:05:58,270 Speaker 1: yo like you know snow was dope and i'm like 1612 01:05:58,790 --> 01:06:00,230 Speaker 1: lit you know what i'm saying i don't know like 1613 01:06:00,830 --> 01:06:02,310 Speaker 1: i think it's cool i think along the way you 1614 01:06:02,330 --> 01:06:03,770 Speaker 1: know i paid my bills and i lived a. 1615 01:06:03,750 --> 01:06:07,360 Speaker 3: Good life Yeah. You're still living and you're still, story's 1616 01:06:07,380 --> 01:06:08,080 Speaker 3: still developing. 1617 01:06:08,280 --> 01:06:10,960 Speaker 1: Story, story developing. For sure. 1618 01:06:11,640 --> 01:06:13,140 Speaker 3: Have to look at my cards as we've been going. 1619 01:06:13,480 --> 01:06:15,400 Speaker 1: I'm sorry. Yeah. No, you're so great. 1620 01:06:15,440 --> 01:06:16,560 Speaker 3: I love that when I don't have to look at 1621 01:06:16,600 --> 01:06:20,370 Speaker 3: my cards. Those are my favorite. Something in my eye. No, 1622 01:06:20,410 --> 01:06:27,100 Speaker 3: you're just, you're like a fucking, you're so good at this. Okay. Oh, 1623 01:06:27,130 --> 01:06:30,890 Speaker 3: I love this. I don't know. There's a card here 1624 01:06:30,930 --> 01:06:35,850 Speaker 3: about Brown Pride, Black Love. That's the title of the card. 1625 01:06:36,550 --> 01:06:38,870 Speaker 3: And I know you referenced that POC line a lot 1626 01:06:39,050 --> 01:06:42,880 Speaker 3: about LA wouldn't be without Mexicans. Did you put that 1627 01:06:42,940 --> 01:06:45,000 Speaker 3: on your... Where did I see you post that? The 1628 01:06:45,020 --> 01:06:45,800 Speaker 3: POC line about. 1629 01:06:46,630 --> 01:06:48,700 Speaker 1: I mean, I think every Mexican is happy as hell 1630 01:06:48,740 --> 01:06:52,020 Speaker 1: about that line. I think we've always loved that. Generally? 1631 01:06:52,040 --> 01:06:52,110 Speaker 5: Yes. 1632 01:06:52,260 --> 01:06:54,540 Speaker 3: It's not like tatted on you secretly somewhere? 1633 01:06:54,700 --> 01:06:56,680 Speaker 1: No, but it, yeah, but it definitely. 1634 01:06:56,700 --> 01:06:57,400 Speaker 2: But it could be? 1635 01:06:57,640 --> 01:07:00,060 Speaker 1: Yeah. But I'm not, you know, I'm not, I'm not super, 1636 01:07:00,080 --> 01:07:01,900 Speaker 1: I think if I was to say I'm from LA, 1637 01:07:02,080 --> 01:07:04,430 Speaker 1: LA people will like come for me. I know, from 1638 01:07:04,470 --> 01:07:06,490 Speaker 1: the Bay Area. Yeah, but I, but I, you know, 1639 01:07:06,530 --> 01:07:08,370 Speaker 1: I love LA. At this point, I've lived in LA 1640 01:07:08,490 --> 01:07:09,970 Speaker 1: for a while. I live in the Valley. 1641 01:07:10,250 --> 01:07:13,750 Speaker 3: It's West Coast though. I feel like that line meant 1642 01:07:13,770 --> 01:07:18,730 Speaker 3: more about, it meant more about just West coast or the, 1643 01:07:18,850 --> 01:07:21,010 Speaker 3: or the, or the States versus, I don't think it 1644 01:07:21,030 --> 01:07:21,770 Speaker 3: was about LA. 1645 01:07:21,830 --> 01:07:22,170 Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah. 1646 01:07:22,190 --> 01:07:22,430 Speaker 3: Yeah. 1647 01:07:22,490 --> 01:07:24,860 Speaker 1: No. Yeah, absolutely. And I, like I said, I'm not joking. 1648 01:07:24,880 --> 01:07:28,280 Speaker 1: I think for a long time, Mexicans weren't mentioned. You 1649 01:07:28,300 --> 01:07:31,740 Speaker 1: feel me? Like we weren't really like, you know, growing up, 1650 01:07:31,820 --> 01:07:34,060 Speaker 1: I remember it was, it was completely different. I think 1651 01:07:34,100 --> 01:07:38,500 Speaker 1: I'm so happy and proud to see, you know, people celebrated. 1652 01:07:38,600 --> 01:07:41,660 Speaker 1: And even though right now it's really sad that it's like, 1653 01:07:41,720 --> 01:07:44,270 Speaker 1: when we're finally the most celebrated is when we're also 1654 01:07:44,310 --> 01:07:46,229 Speaker 1: the most targeted. And it just, I mean, it usually 1655 01:07:46,270 --> 01:07:51,710 Speaker 1: works out like that. You know, it's like, it's, you 1656 01:07:51,750 --> 01:07:54,830 Speaker 1: always have that type of vibe, but I'm happy to 1657 01:07:54,870 --> 01:07:58,210 Speaker 1: see so much representation and That's all I ever wanted, 1658 01:07:58,250 --> 01:08:00,190 Speaker 1: you know? It's like ever since the beginning of my 1659 01:08:00,230 --> 01:08:03,200 Speaker 1: career when I was talking about immigration and our people 1660 01:08:03,300 --> 01:08:07,060 Speaker 1: and Latinos and Mexican and immigrants and, you know, what 1661 01:08:07,080 --> 01:08:09,780 Speaker 1: my family went through. I think, you know, I'm happy 1662 01:08:09,820 --> 01:08:14,060 Speaker 1: that you can always see that that was consistent. You know, 1663 01:08:14,100 --> 01:08:17,280 Speaker 1: it didn't become a moment. It was always what it was, 1664 01:08:17,340 --> 01:08:18,580 Speaker 1: you know? Because I cared. 1665 01:08:19,400 --> 01:08:23,270 Speaker 3: And I care. But, yeah. That's what it is. It's 1666 01:08:23,310 --> 01:08:25,030 Speaker 3: interesting what you said at the beginning of this about 1667 01:08:25,070 --> 01:08:29,740 Speaker 3: how your parents... Became citizens. And then went back to... 1668 01:08:29,840 --> 01:08:32,200 Speaker 3: And then left. And you're out here fighting. 1669 01:08:32,460 --> 01:08:35,960 Speaker 1: Right. Sometimes, literally, I'm like... Because sometimes people will be 1670 01:08:35,979 --> 01:08:37,820 Speaker 1: cussing me out. Like, I've had so many death threats. 1671 01:08:37,900 --> 01:08:40,620 Speaker 1: I've had stalkers come to my house. I've had so much, like, 1672 01:08:41,520 --> 01:08:44,060 Speaker 1: negative come from it. And sometimes I'll be like, bro, 1673 01:08:44,080 --> 01:08:46,460 Speaker 1: you're arguing for some fucking, like... But what are they 1674 01:08:46,479 --> 01:08:46,940 Speaker 1: mad about? 1675 01:08:46,979 --> 01:08:49,440 Speaker 3: That you're fighting for Mexicans to have. 1676 01:08:49,540 --> 01:08:53,880 Speaker 1: Even some Mexican men will be like, shut the fuck up. Blah, blah, blah. Like, 1677 01:08:53,920 --> 01:08:56,220 Speaker 1: there's a lot of red-pilled Latino men. There's a lot of, 1678 01:08:56,320 --> 01:08:56,540 Speaker 1: you know. 1679 01:08:57,430 --> 01:08:59,970 Speaker 3: What is that about? I don't know. 1680 01:09:00,620 --> 01:09:03,920 Speaker 1: I don't know. I think colorism and racism has run 1681 01:09:03,979 --> 01:09:06,700 Speaker 1: deep in our communities for so long, and some of 1682 01:09:06,740 --> 01:09:09,200 Speaker 1: them have really just ate that up. I think red-pilled 1683 01:09:09,820 --> 01:09:14,150 Speaker 1: content really did damage to... a lot of young men 1684 01:09:14,210 --> 01:09:16,890 Speaker 1: at some point that were looking for that acceptance that 1685 01:09:16,910 --> 01:09:19,410 Speaker 1: we're looking for, you know, they got in the gyms 1686 01:09:19,450 --> 01:09:20,890 Speaker 1: and they got in the gym bros and they got 1687 01:09:20,950 --> 01:09:23,590 Speaker 1: in the man and alpha and you know, you need 1688 01:09:23,610 --> 01:09:26,290 Speaker 1: to in the podcasts and everything. I don't know. You've 1689 01:09:26,330 --> 01:09:29,350 Speaker 1: seen it kind of like all happen and, and they're 1690 01:09:29,380 --> 01:09:33,460 Speaker 1: susceptible because they're looking for, we're all looking for something 1691 01:09:33,520 --> 01:09:35,920 Speaker 1: in some sort of community. And unfortunately some of them 1692 01:09:35,960 --> 01:09:39,260 Speaker 1: have found it in some very toxic places. And, um, 1693 01:09:40,680 --> 01:09:41,519 Speaker 1: and so, Hmm. 1694 01:09:43,240 --> 01:09:46,410 Speaker 3: You know? Yeah. That makes me sad. It's sad. 1695 01:09:46,510 --> 01:09:46,650 Speaker 1: Yeah. 1696 01:09:46,710 --> 01:09:48,979 Speaker 3: It's embarrassing too. When they talk about how, how many 1697 01:09:49,020 --> 01:09:50,620 Speaker 3: Latinos put Trump in office. 1698 01:09:51,260 --> 01:09:53,220 Speaker 1: And it sucks, yeah, because sometimes you get the Black 1699 01:09:53,260 --> 01:09:56,160 Speaker 1: community accusing all Latinos or whatever, and I'll be like, hey, hey, 1700 01:09:56,240 --> 01:09:59,280 Speaker 1: it was a Latino man. Talk to them. I'm like, 1701 01:09:59,320 --> 01:10:02,550 Speaker 1: it was not us. But you know what I'm saying? 1702 01:10:02,729 --> 01:10:04,269 Speaker 3: That's funny. 1703 01:10:04,670 --> 01:10:06,530 Speaker 1: Go talk to them. They're the macho guys, right? They 1704 01:10:06,550 --> 01:10:09,229 Speaker 1: were talking all that shit. They're talking to me, you know, 1705 01:10:09,250 --> 01:10:11,610 Speaker 1: trying to threaten me and stuff. I'm like, so go, 1706 01:10:11,729 --> 01:10:14,970 Speaker 1: you know, defend your point. But no, honestly, in all honesty, 1707 01:10:15,030 --> 01:10:18,729 Speaker 1: I think It is a sad thing. I think these 1708 01:10:18,770 --> 01:10:22,160 Speaker 1: young men, you know, they are looking for something and, 1709 01:10:23,540 --> 01:10:25,220 Speaker 1: and they, and then the pick me women too, because 1710 01:10:25,240 --> 01:10:26,760 Speaker 1: there is some pick me women that listen to them 1711 01:10:26,780 --> 01:10:27,760 Speaker 1: and they're all in the gym too. 1712 01:10:28,380 --> 01:10:29,600 Speaker 3: I don't know. Not the gym. 1713 01:10:29,640 --> 01:10:32,179 Speaker 2: Don't blame the gym. I'm dead. No, yeah. 1714 01:10:32,240 --> 01:10:33,080 Speaker 1: Don't work out. 1715 01:10:33,140 --> 01:10:34,099 Speaker 3: It'll get you red-pilled. 1716 01:10:34,380 --> 01:10:35,220 Speaker 1: No, don't do that. 1717 01:10:35,240 --> 01:10:35,980 Speaker 3: I'm joking. I'm joking. 1718 01:10:36,340 --> 01:10:39,080 Speaker 1: No, there's... I think just a little bit more love 1719 01:10:39,140 --> 01:10:42,000 Speaker 1: and acceptance and explaining to them maybe, like, their fires 1720 01:10:42,060 --> 01:10:43,960 Speaker 1: and being like, this is why this is not good. 1721 01:10:44,120 --> 01:10:46,740 Speaker 1: Because sometimes if you actually sit there and have the conversation. 1722 01:10:47,580 --> 01:10:48,580 Speaker 3: You get them to the other side? 1723 01:10:49,060 --> 01:10:50,080 Speaker 2: Well, they'll... Can you convert? 1724 01:10:50,100 --> 01:10:52,939 Speaker 1: They'll agree with certain topics and you'll be like.... 1725 01:10:54,270 --> 01:10:54,559 Speaker 3: You know? 1726 01:10:54,740 --> 01:10:58,189 Speaker 1: Like the Cardi B thing. You know? So you're just like... 1727 01:10:59,210 --> 01:11:02,750 Speaker 1: But yeah, I will. That's how you know I actually 1728 01:11:02,770 --> 01:11:04,990 Speaker 1: give a fuck. Because whether there's a camera or not, 1729 01:11:05,390 --> 01:11:07,730 Speaker 1: I'll have the conversations and I'm trying to bring people 1730 01:11:07,850 --> 01:11:10,349 Speaker 1: one by one. Sometimes it's heartbreaking. Sometimes it's a waste 1731 01:11:10,370 --> 01:11:12,839 Speaker 1: of time. Sometimes I don't got time for it. But 1732 01:11:12,880 --> 01:11:14,150 Speaker 1: if I do, I try. 1733 01:11:14,350 --> 01:11:16,880 Speaker 3: Man, I tried recently. I was at the bar at Houston. 1734 01:11:16,920 --> 01:11:18,500 Speaker 3: Me and my girlfriend, we started talking to this dude. 1735 01:11:18,540 --> 01:11:20,740 Speaker 3: He was like a contractor or whatever. I don't know 1736 01:11:20,760 --> 01:11:23,180 Speaker 3: what it was. Something about the conversation with him, I 1737 01:11:23,220 --> 01:11:26,080 Speaker 3: was interested because he was talking about home repair. We 1738 01:11:26,100 --> 01:11:27,720 Speaker 3: were just talking about house shit. We're sitting at the 1739 01:11:27,760 --> 01:11:30,639 Speaker 3: bar talking. Nicest guy. The two of us, we start 1740 01:11:30,680 --> 01:11:33,240 Speaker 3: talking and then for some reason it came up. I'm 1741 01:11:33,280 --> 01:11:37,920 Speaker 3: in Miami too. They be out there with the Red 1742 01:11:37,939 --> 01:11:43,559 Speaker 3: Pills in Miami. And so he mentioned something about our 1743 01:11:43,600 --> 01:11:46,220 Speaker 3: New York mayor in a tone that made me understand, oh, 1744 01:11:46,650 --> 01:11:52,500 Speaker 3: we're on different sides of the fence here. And I 1745 01:11:52,520 --> 01:11:53,939 Speaker 3: don't know, for that day, I had the time. 1746 01:11:53,960 --> 01:11:56,640 Speaker 1: Sometimes you just do. 1747 01:11:57,260 --> 01:11:59,860 Speaker 3: And we just went down a road that ended bad. 1748 01:12:00,040 --> 01:12:00,680 Speaker 2: It didn't end well. 1749 01:12:00,979 --> 01:12:04,240 Speaker 3: He didn't see. Everything he said, I disagreed with. Everything 1750 01:12:04,260 --> 01:12:09,599 Speaker 3: I said, he dismissed. And then after like an hour 1751 01:12:09,640 --> 01:12:12,850 Speaker 3: of it, I thought, what are we doing here? Like, 1752 01:12:12,910 --> 01:12:16,450 Speaker 3: why am I doing this? And then I thought, does 1753 01:12:16,470 --> 01:12:19,590 Speaker 3: that mean you never try? To point out things to people? No, 1754 01:12:19,630 --> 01:12:22,290 Speaker 3: you can't never try. But it is exhausting. That day 1755 01:12:22,330 --> 01:12:25,769 Speaker 3: was exhausting. And he ruined the perfectly good Cosmopolitan that 1756 01:12:25,810 --> 01:12:29,479 Speaker 3: I was having with my old girl. So anyway, I 1757 01:12:29,500 --> 01:12:31,500 Speaker 3: don't know. I just say that to say it's tricky 1758 01:12:31,540 --> 01:12:37,620 Speaker 3: out here. Yeah, it is. It's tricky navigating the polarizing difference. 1759 01:12:39,740 --> 01:12:40,040 Speaker 5: Yeah. 1760 01:12:40,420 --> 01:12:43,050 Speaker 1: And I think that's why sometimes, like I said, from 1761 01:12:43,110 --> 01:12:45,190 Speaker 1: the sad, from the depression, from the dark, from the whatever, 1762 01:12:45,229 --> 01:12:48,460 Speaker 1: you end up finding the light, you end up going 1763 01:12:48,560 --> 01:12:51,780 Speaker 1: for the, you know, enjoy your life, be more, whatever 1764 01:12:52,180 --> 01:12:55,540 Speaker 1: does not mean you don't address what's happening. It just means, 1765 01:12:55,580 --> 01:12:58,380 Speaker 1: you know, you're not supposed to just ignore it, but you, 1766 01:12:58,800 --> 01:13:01,610 Speaker 1: you have to kind of like balance that, that out. 1767 01:13:01,670 --> 01:13:04,630 Speaker 1: Cause otherwise you'll just go dark, you know? And, um, 1768 01:13:04,970 --> 01:13:07,809 Speaker 1: and yeah, I, I have those conversations and they're draining. 1769 01:13:07,870 --> 01:13:09,790 Speaker 1: And sometimes you have to remember, wait, how much would 1770 01:13:09,810 --> 01:13:12,379 Speaker 1: a conversation for an hour with me cost? Like, what the, 1771 01:13:12,729 --> 01:13:14,660 Speaker 1: I should invoice you for this, you know? But it's like, 1772 01:13:15,479 --> 01:13:18,969 Speaker 1: it just is, You try, you care, you give a fuck, 1773 01:13:18,990 --> 01:13:21,470 Speaker 1: you know, you care. And, and that's all we can do. 1774 01:13:21,680 --> 01:13:23,840 Speaker 3: And also I'd be trying to understand. Yeah. 1775 01:13:24,020 --> 01:13:25,700 Speaker 2: Like how'd you get like this? 1776 01:13:25,920 --> 01:13:28,660 Speaker 3: How could you be? How? Cause you seem like such 1777 01:13:28,700 --> 01:13:32,299 Speaker 3: a nice human being. How could you have this so wrong? 1778 01:13:32,320 --> 01:13:35,969 Speaker 3: It's just challenging times. It's really, and I'm a person 1779 01:13:35,979 --> 01:13:39,050 Speaker 3: of connection. I like to connect with different people. You 1780 01:13:39,070 --> 01:13:40,950 Speaker 3: see the world different than me. I'm interested. I want 1781 01:13:40,970 --> 01:13:43,430 Speaker 3: to know. Yeah. But this is like a level I've 1782 01:13:43,550 --> 01:13:47,250 Speaker 3: never experienced level of seeing the world differently. And so 1783 01:13:47,310 --> 01:13:51,389 Speaker 3: normally my instinct is to want to understand why, how 1784 01:13:51,430 --> 01:13:54,350 Speaker 3: could you, how could you ignore these things? I understand 1785 01:13:54,380 --> 01:13:57,260 Speaker 3: you're worried about finances or whatever, but like, look what's 1786 01:13:57,300 --> 01:14:00,059 Speaker 3: happening to this, these, all of these people and how 1787 01:14:00,080 --> 01:14:02,700 Speaker 3: they're affected by this. And it's, and it doesn't, it's, 1788 01:14:02,860 --> 01:14:04,340 Speaker 3: it's just not connecting. 1789 01:14:04,520 --> 01:14:06,440 Speaker 1: People don't want to check out of the, people don't 1790 01:14:06,460 --> 01:14:08,320 Speaker 1: want to zoom out big enough to check out that 1791 01:14:08,380 --> 01:14:09,820 Speaker 1: it's the whole thing is the problem. 1792 01:14:10,000 --> 01:14:10,270 Speaker 3: Right. 1793 01:14:10,590 --> 01:14:12,510 Speaker 1: So it's like, I think sometimes that's where I've gotten 1794 01:14:12,570 --> 01:14:15,120 Speaker 1: closer with them to be able to argue from there. 1795 01:14:15,300 --> 01:14:17,179 Speaker 1: Cause you know how they always agree with the, both 1796 01:14:17,200 --> 01:14:19,049 Speaker 1: sides are the same, you know, it's the whole, you know, 1797 01:14:19,100 --> 01:14:23,610 Speaker 1: two birds, two, uh, two, two wings, one bird. And 1798 01:14:23,650 --> 01:14:25,269 Speaker 1: it's like, okay, you know, yeah, zoom out. 1799 01:14:25,290 --> 01:14:25,410 Speaker 5: Okay. 1800 01:14:25,430 --> 01:14:27,670 Speaker 1: Now zoom out even more than that. Zoom out to 1801 01:14:27,990 --> 01:14:32,630 Speaker 1: capitalism and zoom out to how it's been put in 1802 01:14:32,689 --> 01:14:34,620 Speaker 1: front of you. So that now we're both fighting over 1803 01:14:34,700 --> 01:14:37,059 Speaker 1: this amount of money when they got this amount of money, like, 1804 01:14:37,800 --> 01:14:39,560 Speaker 1: you know, but I haven't gotten there yet. And I 1805 01:14:39,580 --> 01:14:42,280 Speaker 1: think when, when I do, I think hopefully we all can, 1806 01:14:42,460 --> 01:14:46,670 Speaker 1: you know, change the world, but, Um, I think it 1807 01:14:46,750 --> 01:14:49,090 Speaker 1: is a problem. The whole thing, the whole system, it's 1808 01:14:49,270 --> 01:14:51,309 Speaker 1: rigged like that. It's supposed to be like that. We're 1809 01:14:51,330 --> 01:14:52,650 Speaker 1: supposed to be in the rat race. And that's why 1810 01:14:52,689 --> 01:14:54,590 Speaker 1: sometimes when it comes to music too, it's like, I 1811 01:14:54,630 --> 01:14:56,009 Speaker 1: love creating. I love the music. 1812 01:14:56,090 --> 01:14:58,650 Speaker 3: I love, I love that part of it. 1813 01:14:58,870 --> 01:15:01,400 Speaker 1: I don't love where I'm in a rat race still. 1814 01:15:01,640 --> 01:15:05,120 Speaker 1: I'm still chasing exactly what I would be chasing if 1815 01:15:05,180 --> 01:15:06,820 Speaker 1: I was just part of, you know, if I was 1816 01:15:06,860 --> 01:15:08,420 Speaker 1: at a nine to five, it would be the exact 1817 01:15:08,439 --> 01:15:11,520 Speaker 1: same thing. So I went from one thing to another. 1818 01:15:12,850 --> 01:15:14,110 Speaker 1: There's got to be a different way. We got to 1819 01:15:14,150 --> 01:15:16,690 Speaker 1: shake shit up. We got to make a different... Fucking 1820 01:15:16,720 --> 01:15:17,860 Speaker 1: LA life. Right. 1821 01:15:18,580 --> 01:15:22,360 Speaker 3: Sorry. New York shit is bad. Right. Our studio in 1822 01:15:22,380 --> 01:15:24,100 Speaker 3: New York does this all the time. Got to wait 1823 01:15:24,160 --> 01:15:24,570 Speaker 3: past it. 1824 01:15:25,080 --> 01:15:25,260 Speaker 5: All right. 1825 01:15:25,280 --> 01:15:27,720 Speaker 3: Give me a second to look at my cards. Oh, 1826 01:15:27,780 --> 01:15:30,400 Speaker 3: that guy pissed me off so bad that day. He 1827 01:15:30,420 --> 01:15:33,120 Speaker 3: fucking ruined my... We had two lychee... I mean... Hey, 1828 01:15:33,160 --> 01:15:34,730 Speaker 3: lychee martini. I love a lychee martini. 1829 01:15:34,740 --> 01:15:36,429 Speaker 1: Me too. We got to go get a lychee martini. 1830 01:15:36,450 --> 01:15:39,030 Speaker 2: I would love that. Where? You tell me where. 1831 01:15:39,050 --> 01:15:42,610 Speaker 1: Babe, where did we go that had the best lychee martini? 1832 01:15:44,140 --> 01:15:46,260 Speaker 1: That one spot that they have one in Malibu, is it? 1833 01:15:47,000 --> 01:15:50,620 Speaker 3: Nobu. Nobu. Nobu got a lychee martini. Nobu has the best. 1834 01:15:50,960 --> 01:15:51,660 Speaker 1: No, not the best. 1835 01:15:52,160 --> 01:15:54,229 Speaker 3: Nobu? It's pretty good. Oh, yeah, it's pretty good. It's 1836 01:15:54,240 --> 01:15:54,660 Speaker 3: like the best. 1837 01:15:54,860 --> 01:15:55,049 Speaker 1: Yeah. 1838 01:15:55,060 --> 01:15:56,350 Speaker 3: It's like my favorite restaurant. 1839 01:15:56,689 --> 01:15:57,110 Speaker 1: Let's go. 1840 01:15:57,130 --> 01:15:59,450 Speaker 3: The radio station on the 57th, I can walk two 1841 01:15:59,490 --> 01:16:01,250 Speaker 3: blocks and I'm at Nobu. So I eat there like 1842 01:16:01,290 --> 01:16:02,730 Speaker 3: three times. Oh, okay. 1843 01:16:02,750 --> 01:16:06,050 Speaker 1: So you're like, I know it is. I'm telling you. 1844 01:16:06,070 --> 01:16:06,769 Speaker 3: I'm experienced. 1845 01:16:08,050 --> 01:16:08,550 Speaker 1: I love that. 1846 01:16:08,570 --> 01:16:11,620 Speaker 3: I love a lychee martini. It's showing. 1847 01:16:11,840 --> 01:16:12,060 Speaker 1: All right. 1848 01:16:12,080 --> 01:16:13,700 Speaker 3: We just got to do our bowl with some IRL 1849 01:16:13,740 --> 01:16:17,979 Speaker 3: questions and I think we're good. Just go. Yeah, go. 1850 01:16:19,000 --> 01:16:19,560 Speaker 1: I'm sorry. 1851 01:16:19,820 --> 01:16:20,370 Speaker 2: You know what it is. 1852 01:16:20,400 --> 01:16:23,190 Speaker 3: I'm just used to our guy just gets in there. 1853 01:16:23,490 --> 01:16:25,870 Speaker 3: I know you be respectful. I appreciate it, but just 1854 01:16:25,890 --> 01:16:27,070 Speaker 3: fucking do it. It's okay. 1855 01:16:27,170 --> 01:16:28,270 Speaker 1: Do you think I need a little more water? 1856 01:16:29,080 --> 01:16:31,520 Speaker 3: Please. Sorry. Oh, my God. You're so good at this. 1857 01:16:31,560 --> 01:16:33,360 Speaker 3: I forget that you have your pod and you're fucking 1858 01:16:33,439 --> 01:16:33,800 Speaker 3: used to talking. 1859 01:16:33,820 --> 01:16:35,420 Speaker 1: I'm dead. No, I got to do it one day. Oh, 1860 01:16:35,540 --> 01:16:35,820 Speaker 1: my God. 1861 01:16:35,860 --> 01:16:37,140 Speaker 3: If I ever have you on my pod, that would 1862 01:16:37,160 --> 01:16:38,800 Speaker 3: be crazy. I would love to. What do you mean? 1863 01:16:38,820 --> 01:16:39,300 Speaker 3: I would do it. 1864 01:16:39,479 --> 01:16:39,980 Speaker 1: That would be insane. 1865 01:16:40,020 --> 01:16:43,559 Speaker 3: What would we talk about? Anything. I mean, on mine, 1866 01:16:43,580 --> 01:16:47,580 Speaker 3: I'm not prepared. Well, you see I'm prepared, but I 1867 01:16:47,600 --> 01:16:49,620 Speaker 3: didn't use none of the shit that they prepared me for. 1868 01:16:49,640 --> 01:16:51,420 Speaker 1: We just talk. We just shoot the shit, and it 1869 01:16:51,439 --> 01:16:54,269 Speaker 1: could literally be about anything. You can ask me. I 1870 01:16:54,310 --> 01:16:55,290 Speaker 1: can ask you. It just is. 1871 01:16:55,310 --> 01:16:57,049 Speaker 3: It just is. I love that. 1872 01:16:57,280 --> 01:16:57,509 Speaker 1: Yeah. 1873 01:16:57,590 --> 01:16:58,970 Speaker 3: I always try to tell people that for this. I 1874 01:16:59,010 --> 01:17:00,810 Speaker 3: forgot to have that conversation with you before. I'm always like, 1875 01:17:01,150 --> 01:17:02,650 Speaker 3: if I'm asking you something and you're not into it 1876 01:17:02,670 --> 01:17:03,890 Speaker 3: and you want to go somewhere else, just take me 1877 01:17:03,910 --> 01:17:05,990 Speaker 3: and I'll go with you and we'll do like whatever. 1878 01:17:06,010 --> 01:17:08,550 Speaker 3: Hell yeah. But we kind of did that today naturally, 1879 01:17:08,570 --> 01:17:11,630 Speaker 3: just organically. But usually I will say that to people 1880 01:17:12,189 --> 01:17:14,330 Speaker 3: beforehand because I hate a Q & A. I don't 1881 01:17:14,350 --> 01:17:15,309 Speaker 3: want to fucking do a Q & A. 1882 01:17:15,340 --> 01:17:16,099 Speaker 2: I want to get to know you. 1883 01:17:16,140 --> 01:17:17,340 Speaker 3: I want to know what's on your spirit, what's on 1884 01:17:17,380 --> 01:17:21,080 Speaker 3: your heart, what season are you in? What do you 1885 01:17:21,180 --> 01:17:22,460 Speaker 3: really care about right now? 1886 01:17:22,720 --> 01:17:22,880 Speaker 5: Yeah. 1887 01:17:23,160 --> 01:17:24,820 Speaker 1: This is my first chopped off hair in years. 1888 01:17:25,479 --> 01:17:29,269 Speaker 3: It's so cute thank you thank you I love it 1889 01:17:29,280 --> 01:17:33,210 Speaker 3: even though you got a cover you have a cover 1890 01:17:33,229 --> 01:17:35,230 Speaker 3: but it's cute it's framing your face. 1891 01:17:34,910 --> 01:17:38,450 Speaker 1: The little curls thank you yeah my attorney chopped off 1892 01:17:38,490 --> 01:17:40,090 Speaker 1: her hair and I think she might have inspired it 1893 01:17:40,689 --> 01:17:42,830 Speaker 1: she did a bob she lit a fire I was 1894 01:17:42,850 --> 01:17:44,530 Speaker 1: like girl go ahead. 1895 01:17:46,460 --> 01:17:52,259 Speaker 3: Don't be surprised if on Thursday I don't know scissor 1896 01:17:52,280 --> 01:17:56,769 Speaker 3: to it let it flow I've always... I'm not going 1897 01:17:56,790 --> 01:17:57,340 Speaker 3: to do it because I. 1898 01:17:57,350 --> 01:17:58,570 Speaker 1: Don't do it off of lychee martini, though. 1899 01:17:58,720 --> 01:17:59,760 Speaker 3: No, I won't. I have to do it sober. 1900 01:17:59,780 --> 01:18:00,240 Speaker 1: Do it sober. 1901 01:18:00,260 --> 01:18:03,580 Speaker 3: I have to do it sober. But I have always... 1902 01:18:03,300 --> 01:18:05,440 Speaker 3: And I don't think I will ever. This is one 1903 01:18:05,460 --> 01:18:06,900 Speaker 3: thing I always wanted to do. I don't think I'll 1904 01:18:06,960 --> 01:18:09,220 Speaker 3: ever do it because I have a big head. I 1905 01:18:09,260 --> 01:18:10,200 Speaker 3: have a really big head. 1906 01:18:10,320 --> 01:18:13,180 Speaker 2: I'm dead. No, dead ass. Like, if I see a 1907 01:18:13,220 --> 01:18:13,580 Speaker 2: cute head. 1908 01:18:13,620 --> 01:18:15,020 Speaker 3: Like, if I try to put your head on, it's 1909 01:18:15,060 --> 01:18:15,730 Speaker 3: probably mad tight. 1910 01:18:16,090 --> 01:18:16,570 Speaker 2: I'm dead. 1911 01:18:16,590 --> 01:18:17,030 Speaker 1: You're dead. 1912 01:18:17,070 --> 01:18:19,470 Speaker 3: Big ass head. But I've always wanted to shave my 1913 01:18:19,510 --> 01:18:21,549 Speaker 3: head just to see it, just to have the experience. 1914 01:18:21,570 --> 01:18:22,030 Speaker 1: Period. 1915 01:18:23,090 --> 01:18:29,320 Speaker 3: But I fear... in 30 seconds i will regret i 1916 01:18:29,360 --> 01:18:32,580 Speaker 3: will feel like this didn't work out well i know 1917 01:18:32,600 --> 01:18:34,900 Speaker 3: it wouldn't so maybe i won't ever do that but 1918 01:18:35,439 --> 01:18:37,310 Speaker 3: super short i might do one time just because fuck 1919 01:18:37,350 --> 01:18:39,330 Speaker 3: it go right do it so i could go like 1920 01:18:39,370 --> 01:18:42,189 Speaker 3: this like you don't want to that's the that's my 1921 01:18:42,210 --> 01:18:44,490 Speaker 3: favorite part right yeah just being like. 1922 01:18:44,650 --> 01:18:47,189 Speaker 1: Fuck it i washed my hair today hella quick dude 1923 01:18:47,250 --> 01:18:48,530 Speaker 1: come on that was the best. 1924 01:18:48,410 --> 01:18:50,540 Speaker 3: You dried it how fast yeah super quick. There's no 1925 01:18:50,580 --> 01:18:51,620 Speaker 3: days you miss it yet? 1926 01:18:52,580 --> 01:18:54,260 Speaker 1: No. I've been vibing. I mean, I've been getting a 1927 01:18:54,280 --> 01:18:58,429 Speaker 1: lot of comments or people just being like... Like I said, 1928 01:18:58,470 --> 01:19:00,189 Speaker 1: it's like they think I'm mental or they think I 1929 01:19:00,229 --> 01:19:02,790 Speaker 1: just like... I lost it. Somebody right now when we 1930 01:19:02,810 --> 01:19:05,050 Speaker 1: were out there waiting, somebody was like, your energy just 1931 01:19:05,090 --> 01:19:07,090 Speaker 1: seems so off right now. And I'm just like, my 1932 01:19:07,130 --> 01:19:07,929 Speaker 1: energy is great. 1933 01:19:07,970 --> 01:19:08,490 Speaker 2: Somebody you know? 1934 01:19:08,510 --> 01:19:08,750 Speaker 3: I'm chilling. 1935 01:19:09,320 --> 01:19:11,910 Speaker 1: No, just like, you know, people that like, it's cause 1936 01:19:11,930 --> 01:19:14,450 Speaker 1: you know, like Instagram will have like certain conversations, not 1937 01:19:14,490 --> 01:19:16,290 Speaker 1: even go to the request. They just kind of come through. 1938 01:19:16,729 --> 01:19:18,349 Speaker 1: So you'd be like seeing them and you're like, who 1939 01:19:18,430 --> 01:19:19,510 Speaker 1: is this? Like, do I know them? 1940 01:19:19,570 --> 01:19:22,330 Speaker 3: Oh, this is somebody on social media. Oh yeah. 1941 01:19:22,470 --> 01:19:22,690 Speaker 1: Yeah. 1942 01:19:22,750 --> 01:19:23,430 Speaker 3: Energy feels off. 1943 01:19:23,550 --> 01:19:23,770 Speaker 1: Yeah. 1944 01:19:23,790 --> 01:19:24,189 Speaker 3: Cut your hair. 1945 01:19:24,229 --> 01:19:26,370 Speaker 1: No people. I actually don't even get that many texts. 1946 01:19:26,750 --> 01:19:27,190 Speaker 1: I don't know. 1947 01:19:27,250 --> 01:19:29,410 Speaker 3: I thought you meant somebody in person. 1948 01:19:29,650 --> 01:19:31,490 Speaker 1: No. Like somebody walks off to me. 1949 01:19:31,530 --> 01:19:33,780 Speaker 3: I was like, that's like a crackhead. 1950 01:19:33,840 --> 01:19:36,140 Speaker 1: I'm like, what? No, that would have been. 1951 01:19:36,180 --> 01:19:43,700 Speaker 3: How dare you? All right, we have some in real 1952 01:19:43,740 --> 01:19:52,040 Speaker 3: life questions. Oh, these are going to be fun. Oh, 1953 01:19:52,060 --> 01:19:54,309 Speaker 3: you want to go serious. You want to be focused. Serious. 1954 01:19:54,510 --> 01:19:55,870 Speaker 3: Very serious. All right. 1955 01:19:55,890 --> 01:19:56,269 Speaker 5: Let me just. 1956 01:19:56,290 --> 01:19:59,110 Speaker 3: Let me sort my IRLs. See, I do be having shit. 1957 01:19:59,130 --> 01:19:59,309 Speaker 5: I just. 1958 01:20:05,229 --> 01:20:07,009 Speaker 3: It's too much shit. Who could even look at this. 1959 01:20:06,930 --> 01:20:09,840 Speaker 1: In the middle of an interview? That's dope, though. 1960 01:20:09,880 --> 01:20:10,340 Speaker 3: I admire that. 1961 01:20:10,380 --> 01:20:11,280 Speaker 1: Don't. I like that. 1962 01:20:11,720 --> 01:20:12,900 Speaker 3: Because it's really stupid. 1963 01:20:14,180 --> 01:20:16,540 Speaker 1: Because on my part, the thing is that mine's live 1964 01:20:16,720 --> 01:20:19,599 Speaker 1: and we drink. So it unravels. In the beginning, sometimes 1965 01:20:19,640 --> 01:20:22,439 Speaker 1: I'd be feeling unprepared. Once I take a couple shots, 1966 01:20:22,479 --> 01:20:23,830 Speaker 1: I'm like, so let's. 1967 01:20:23,670 --> 01:20:27,270 Speaker 3: Talk about this. You're like drink champs. 1968 01:20:27,550 --> 01:20:28,870 Speaker 1: Yeah. Kind of like that, yeah. 1969 01:20:29,290 --> 01:20:29,889 Speaker 3: That's pretty good. 1970 01:20:29,950 --> 01:20:31,210 Speaker 1: I know. I told them. I was like, I got 1971 01:20:31,229 --> 01:20:33,870 Speaker 1: to go on drink champs before I fucking stop drinking 1972 01:20:33,950 --> 01:20:34,170 Speaker 1: one day. 1973 01:20:34,490 --> 01:20:37,320 Speaker 3: I know. but yeah you should that would be great 1974 01:20:37,720 --> 01:20:39,559 Speaker 3: yeah we think we're shutting it up we could have 1975 01:20:39,580 --> 01:20:44,400 Speaker 3: had drinks today hey period next time um all right 1976 01:20:44,620 --> 01:20:46,550 Speaker 3: hey guys you ever sign up for a phone plan 1977 01:20:46,570 --> 01:20:48,769 Speaker 3: thinking wow what a great price and then a few 1978 01:20:48,810 --> 01:20:51,310 Speaker 3: months later it's like surprise your bill is higher we 1979 01:20:51,330 --> 01:20:56,180 Speaker 3: hate that With Boost Mobile, you pay $ 25 a month forever. 1980 01:20:56,260 --> 01:20:59,760 Speaker 3: That's unlimited talk, text, and data starting at just $ 25 1981 01:20:59,720 --> 01:21:02,590 Speaker 3: a month. 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This is our 1991 01:21:34,860 --> 01:21:36,940 Speaker 3: voice note segment. So somebody sent in a voice note, 1992 01:21:36,970 --> 01:21:38,710 Speaker 3: which is usually a question or a comment from a 1993 01:21:38,750 --> 01:21:41,080 Speaker 3: fan or a... I don't know, a friend? 1994 01:21:41,479 --> 01:21:45,540 Speaker 5: Hey Snow, this is Yaya, a Salvadoran American college grad. Yesterday, 1995 01:21:45,620 --> 01:21:48,660 Speaker 5: during the FIFA World Cup, my household was divided. Some 1996 01:21:48,720 --> 01:21:50,840 Speaker 5: of us were Team Spain and some of us were 1997 01:21:50,880 --> 01:21:54,809 Speaker 5: Team Argentina. The reason why I went for Spain was 1998 01:21:54,860 --> 01:22:00,590 Speaker 5: for their contributions towards Palestine and their better sportsmanship. Meanwhile, 1999 01:22:00,610 --> 01:22:04,170 Speaker 5: Argentina has not given them any aid and has had 2000 01:22:04,430 --> 01:22:08,800 Speaker 5: poor sportsmanship. But some in my household said that because 2001 01:22:08,820 --> 01:22:12,229 Speaker 5: they're Latinos, we should stick together. What are your two cents? 2002 01:22:12,250 --> 01:22:14,810 Speaker 3: That was loaded. 2003 01:22:14,830 --> 01:22:16,370 Speaker 1: That was right. I'm like, what? 2004 01:22:16,390 --> 01:22:18,130 Speaker 3: She came for you. She's a professor? 2005 01:22:18,150 --> 01:22:18,349 Speaker 1: Yeah. 2006 01:22:19,930 --> 01:22:23,479 Speaker 3: That was a professor question. Where should we land? Speak 2007 01:22:23,520 --> 01:22:25,820 Speaker 3: for all Latinos, Snow. Right. 2008 01:22:27,600 --> 01:22:32,340 Speaker 1: I don't know, but I think a lot of Argentinians... 2009 01:22:32,210 --> 01:22:35,320 Speaker 1: don't necessarily consider themselves Latino. I've seen videos like that 2010 01:22:35,340 --> 01:22:40,400 Speaker 1: where they're like, we're European, blah, blah, blah. I don't know. 2011 01:22:40,860 --> 01:22:45,980 Speaker 1: I feel like the sportsmanship was not there. I didn't 2012 01:22:46,020 --> 01:22:50,530 Speaker 1: watch it. I didn't necessarily... I'm probably the wrong person 2013 01:22:50,550 --> 01:22:52,530 Speaker 1: to ask because I didn't watch it. I didn't really... 2014 01:22:53,030 --> 01:22:55,090 Speaker 1: Once Mexico was out, I was like, okay, well, that's 2015 01:22:55,110 --> 01:22:58,140 Speaker 1: the end of mine. I went to games. I went 2016 01:22:58,160 --> 01:23:01,090 Speaker 1: to actual World Cup games and Enjoyed it. Took my 2017 01:23:01,130 --> 01:23:03,090 Speaker 1: son to one, you know, was there when we lost, 2018 01:23:03,110 --> 01:23:04,950 Speaker 1: when we got taken out. So I was just sitting 2019 01:23:04,970 --> 01:23:12,799 Speaker 1: there in awe. But, um, I don't know. I don't, I, I, girl, 2020 01:23:13,160 --> 01:23:15,820 Speaker 1: I mean, yeah. Free Palestine, you know, I, I agree. 2021 01:23:16,479 --> 01:23:18,780 Speaker 3: So. But you don't want to tell everybody what soccer 2022 01:23:18,820 --> 01:23:19,510 Speaker 3: is a cheer for. 2023 01:23:20,470 --> 01:23:24,150 Speaker 1: Um, that game. I just literally didn't like, yeah, no. Yeah. 2024 01:23:24,330 --> 01:23:26,330 Speaker 1: I mean, am I, am I happy? Argentina lost. 2025 01:23:26,350 --> 01:23:29,870 Speaker 3: Hey, maybe. Yeah. 2026 01:23:30,560 --> 01:23:34,020 Speaker 1: I saw the sportsmanship. I've seen some of the behavior. 2027 01:23:34,080 --> 01:23:36,920 Speaker 1: I noticed some of the Argentina players didn't shake Claudio 2028 01:23:36,939 --> 01:23:37,700 Speaker 1: Sheinbaum's hand. 2029 01:23:38,140 --> 01:23:41,670 Speaker 3: I thought that was rude. And that's all I can 2030 01:23:41,689 --> 01:23:44,590 Speaker 3: say about that. Yeah. Once Mexico was out, you were 2031 01:23:44,610 --> 01:23:44,990 Speaker 3: out too. 2032 01:23:45,630 --> 01:23:48,269 Speaker 1: Yeah. Because also it was a vibe. It's not like 2033 01:23:48,290 --> 01:23:50,850 Speaker 1: I'm that much of a... I don't watch all those 2034 01:23:50,890 --> 01:23:53,259 Speaker 1: soccer games and stuff. So for me, it was more like, okay, 2035 01:23:53,270 --> 01:23:55,120 Speaker 1: the vibe was that. I kept going to Mexico. And 2036 01:23:55,160 --> 01:23:57,179 Speaker 1: then once that kind of passed, I was just like, well. 2037 01:23:58,860 --> 01:24:00,220 Speaker 3: I have things to do. That would be like if 2038 01:24:00,280 --> 01:24:03,120 Speaker 3: the Knicks didn't win, I would have been out of basketball. 2039 01:24:03,580 --> 01:24:05,760 Speaker 3: But I stayed all the way because we won. Right. 2040 01:24:05,880 --> 01:24:06,120 Speaker 3: All right. 2041 01:24:06,160 --> 01:24:06,599 Speaker 2: In real life. 2042 01:24:06,660 --> 01:24:08,299 Speaker 3: Now we have a bowl. You pick a question. 2043 01:24:09,140 --> 01:24:10,760 Speaker 1: What is a habit you're proud of and what is 2044 01:24:10,820 --> 01:24:12,080 Speaker 1: a habit you're trying to break? 2045 01:24:12,439 --> 01:24:12,759 Speaker 5: Ooh. 2046 01:24:13,140 --> 01:24:15,360 Speaker 3: I don't know why this will be good for you. Right. Well, 2047 01:24:15,380 --> 01:24:17,800 Speaker 3: I'm trying to not bite my nails, which is terrible. 2048 01:24:17,860 --> 01:24:20,300 Speaker 1: I pick at my nails. It's terrible. My girl is 2049 01:24:20,340 --> 01:24:24,480 Speaker 1: always mad about it. I'm trying to stop that. And 2050 01:24:24,540 --> 01:24:26,360 Speaker 1: then a habit that I like. 2051 01:24:30,560 --> 01:24:33,670 Speaker 3: Is it that you like? Or is it, what is it? 2052 01:24:33,680 --> 01:24:35,740 Speaker 3: You're proud of. A habit that you're proud of. Okay, 2053 01:24:35,770 --> 01:24:37,830 Speaker 3: then I'm proud of. Yeah. Like, what's a habit? 2054 01:24:38,229 --> 01:24:38,510 Speaker 1: I don't know. 2055 01:24:38,530 --> 01:24:42,009 Speaker 3: Are you disciplined about anything? Are you, like, somebody who... 2056 01:24:42,310 --> 01:24:44,350 Speaker 3: I don't know. I don't know. Let me think about mine. 2057 01:24:44,390 --> 01:24:47,070 Speaker 3: What is mine? Something that I'm trying to break. Something 2058 01:24:47,090 --> 01:24:58,009 Speaker 3: that I'm having... I'm proud that I can... Cute. I 2059 01:24:58,050 --> 01:25:01,110 Speaker 3: go forward. I always think there's an answer. Like I'll 2060 01:25:01,130 --> 01:25:05,110 Speaker 3: pull myself out, out of some, whether I'm confused, disappointed, 2061 01:25:05,150 --> 01:25:07,270 Speaker 3: don't know what's next. I'm proud of myself because I 2062 01:25:07,350 --> 01:25:09,470 Speaker 3: do have a habit or I have a ritual that 2063 01:25:09,510 --> 01:25:11,360 Speaker 3: I do. It's like, but you just haven't figured it 2064 01:25:11,400 --> 01:25:14,240 Speaker 3: out yet. Like I tell myself that in real time 2065 01:25:14,320 --> 01:25:17,440 Speaker 3: and that pushes me past pretty much everything because I 2066 01:25:17,460 --> 01:25:21,440 Speaker 3: don't let myself sit in something, a no or disappointment 2067 01:25:21,640 --> 01:25:25,530 Speaker 3: or a, whatever is going on. I don't sit in that. 2068 01:25:25,590 --> 01:25:27,070 Speaker 3: I figure it out. So for me, I think that 2069 01:25:27,130 --> 01:25:29,610 Speaker 3: is a habit that I've got. I've trained myself to 2070 01:25:29,630 --> 01:25:32,650 Speaker 3: be that way. And I'm proud of that. And when 2071 01:25:32,670 --> 01:25:35,470 Speaker 3: it's something that I, what's the other, what is the 2072 01:25:35,530 --> 01:25:38,690 Speaker 3: other question that I don't like a habit that I 2073 01:25:38,729 --> 01:25:44,300 Speaker 3: don't like? Oh, is that I make excuses to not 2074 01:25:44,340 --> 01:25:47,750 Speaker 3: go to the gym. Yeah. I don't like that. 2075 01:25:48,270 --> 01:25:49,769 Speaker 2: I really know I need to do it more. 2076 01:25:49,830 --> 01:25:51,870 Speaker 3: And I really want to become, I want my health 2077 01:25:51,910 --> 01:25:54,189 Speaker 3: to be something I'm really consistent at. And I just, 2078 01:25:54,300 --> 01:25:56,820 Speaker 3: for some reason, I make excuses and find my way 2079 01:25:56,900 --> 01:25:59,540 Speaker 3: out of it. And I hate that for me. I 2080 01:25:59,960 --> 01:26:02,599 Speaker 3: hate that for me. Yeah. 2081 01:26:02,860 --> 01:26:10,280 Speaker 1: I feel like similar thing I'm proud of is that 2082 01:26:10,479 --> 01:26:14,610 Speaker 1: even though I will, unfortunately, always see what can go 2083 01:26:14,670 --> 01:26:18,250 Speaker 1: wrong because- my brain will just be like, okay, but this, 2084 01:26:18,310 --> 01:26:20,650 Speaker 1: and I think it's probably like a, like a protective, 2085 01:26:21,210 --> 01:26:22,590 Speaker 1: you know, it's like, it's like, if I got to 2086 01:26:22,630 --> 01:26:24,860 Speaker 1: see where the exits are, I got to see what 2087 01:26:25,100 --> 01:26:27,020 Speaker 1: isn't going to work so I can find where, where 2088 01:26:27,040 --> 01:26:29,040 Speaker 1: it is. So it's like, even though it can be 2089 01:26:29,100 --> 01:26:31,430 Speaker 1: seen as a negative thing, I feel like I will 2090 01:26:31,470 --> 01:26:34,269 Speaker 1: always end it with what the positive thing is. You 2091 01:26:34,310 --> 01:26:35,950 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying? And that's why I said, it's like, 2092 01:26:36,450 --> 01:26:39,330 Speaker 1: I live with the depression or I live with the anxiety. 2093 01:26:39,370 --> 01:26:41,210 Speaker 1: I live with these things because I know that there's 2094 01:26:41,250 --> 01:26:42,700 Speaker 1: always going to be that other side of it. 2095 01:26:42,910 --> 01:26:44,750 Speaker 3: So beauty, you know? Yeah. 2096 01:26:44,890 --> 01:26:46,470 Speaker 1: So like a moth, you got to go keep looking 2097 01:26:46,490 --> 01:26:49,139 Speaker 1: for the light. Like you, you got to know where 2098 01:26:49,180 --> 01:26:50,720 Speaker 1: the dark is though. Cause otherwise you're going to walk 2099 01:26:50,740 --> 01:26:52,800 Speaker 1: straight towards it. So sometimes, you know, you walk in 2100 01:26:52,820 --> 01:26:54,420 Speaker 1: a room and you're like, okay, this is where I'm going. 2101 01:26:54,439 --> 01:26:57,760 Speaker 1: This is where I'm not going. Sometimes it's the, the 2102 01:26:57,900 --> 01:27:03,010 Speaker 1: um assessing yeah it's assessing or it's the the what 2103 01:27:03,030 --> 01:27:06,490 Speaker 1: is it called when you do it by elimination you. 2104 01:27:06,410 --> 01:27:09,710 Speaker 3: Know yeah this is the three things i'm not doing 2105 01:27:09,729 --> 01:27:12,600 Speaker 3: so i'm going this way yeah that's it i guess 2106 01:27:12,880 --> 01:27:17,780 Speaker 3: analyzing too right yeah overanalyzer probably sometimes. Absolutely. 2107 01:27:18,240 --> 01:27:21,500 Speaker 1: That's the problem. That's the problem here is, you know, 2108 01:27:21,560 --> 01:27:23,689 Speaker 1: I'm like, but it, but it does suck. And I 2109 01:27:23,729 --> 01:27:26,550 Speaker 1: think that's probably one of the things that in industry 2110 01:27:26,750 --> 01:27:30,190 Speaker 1: terms or like with certain things has seemed bad is 2111 01:27:30,229 --> 01:27:34,750 Speaker 1: that sometimes things, people will say something and I'll be like, yeah, 2112 01:27:34,770 --> 01:27:36,730 Speaker 1: but that won't work because of these three things, which 2113 01:27:36,770 --> 01:27:38,950 Speaker 1: makes me seem negative, but I'm just trying to like, 2114 01:27:38,990 --> 01:27:41,340 Speaker 1: I'm playing devil's advocate, but we can find the thing 2115 01:27:41,360 --> 01:27:43,979 Speaker 1: that will or what can, or maybe shift it. But 2116 01:27:44,020 --> 01:27:46,360 Speaker 1: sometimes it's like, I don't know. Maybe I'm a little 2117 01:27:46,390 --> 01:27:48,390 Speaker 1: traumatized to where it's like I get scared of like 2118 01:27:49,570 --> 01:27:52,030 Speaker 1: making too many mistakes. So I always kind of try 2119 01:27:52,050 --> 01:27:53,660 Speaker 1: to prevent it. 2120 01:27:54,010 --> 01:27:54,930 Speaker 3: Cut it off at the path? 2121 01:27:55,530 --> 01:27:56,110 Speaker 1: Yeah. Yeah. 2122 01:27:56,430 --> 01:27:59,170 Speaker 3: In the same fucking same way as you. That way. 2123 01:27:59,370 --> 01:28:01,670 Speaker 3: It could be exhausting. Yeah. And we could trick ourselves 2124 01:28:01,770 --> 01:28:05,530 Speaker 3: out of doing something because we see all the scary parts. Yeah. 2125 01:28:05,560 --> 01:28:07,380 Speaker 1: We're going to have that lychee martini for sure. 2126 01:28:07,460 --> 01:28:07,740 Speaker 3: Yeah. 2127 01:28:07,760 --> 01:28:08,599 Speaker 2: I'm so excited. 2128 01:28:09,120 --> 01:28:10,559 Speaker 3: Okay. And we got to do it fast because I 2129 01:28:10,600 --> 01:28:12,580 Speaker 3: might stop drinking soon. Oh, all right. 2130 01:28:12,600 --> 01:28:12,900 Speaker 1: Let's do it. 2131 01:28:13,400 --> 01:28:15,900 Speaker 3: Or at least for like a month. ASAP. You tell 2132 01:28:15,939 --> 01:28:16,890 Speaker 3: me what your schedule is like. 2133 01:28:16,900 --> 01:28:18,130 Speaker 1: We can do it while I'm here. 2134 01:28:18,150 --> 01:28:18,790 Speaker 3: I'm here for two weeks. 2135 01:28:18,990 --> 01:28:19,229 Speaker 1: All right. 2136 01:28:19,250 --> 01:28:22,410 Speaker 3: We're here. We'll do it while I'm here. Okay. Let's 2137 01:28:22,430 --> 01:28:24,490 Speaker 3: do some in real life before you go. In real life, 2138 01:28:24,530 --> 01:28:26,830 Speaker 3: what is the last piece of great advice someone has 2139 01:28:26,850 --> 01:28:27,210 Speaker 3: given you? 2140 01:28:27,229 --> 01:28:31,560 Speaker 1: I was talking to my therapist about parenting because that's 2141 01:28:31,560 --> 01:28:37,060 Speaker 1: something that's difficult for me because my mom's parenting style 2142 01:28:37,060 --> 01:28:39,480 Speaker 1: was very, was not necessarily what I want to do, 2143 01:28:40,060 --> 01:28:43,960 Speaker 1: but I don't want to overcorrect. And we were talking 2144 01:28:43,979 --> 01:28:47,060 Speaker 1: about something and something my son did reminded me of 2145 01:28:47,100 --> 01:28:47,420 Speaker 1: my mom. 2146 01:28:47,479 --> 01:28:48,280 Speaker 3: So I was like, I'm scared. 2147 01:28:48,320 --> 01:28:50,960 Speaker 1: I'm raising some, you know what I'm saying? It's like, 2148 01:28:51,060 --> 01:28:54,439 Speaker 1: I'm scared. I'm kind of like just bouncing kind of 2149 01:28:54,460 --> 01:28:56,009 Speaker 1: the energy and then I'm just going to make a, 2150 01:28:56,320 --> 01:28:58,160 Speaker 1: I don't know. And she was like, I think when 2151 01:28:58,180 --> 01:29:00,599 Speaker 1: she was like, remember don't make any of this about 2152 01:29:00,660 --> 01:29:07,549 Speaker 1: you even though that seems so normal I don't know 2153 01:29:07,560 --> 01:29:09,530 Speaker 1: why that shit stuck with me so hard and I 2154 01:29:09,570 --> 01:29:11,030 Speaker 1: was just like it's not about me it's not about 2155 01:29:11,050 --> 01:29:13,610 Speaker 1: my feelings it's not about my insecurity about his feelings 2156 01:29:13,630 --> 01:29:15,910 Speaker 1: or whatever it's it's about his and I think it's 2157 01:29:15,990 --> 01:29:17,509 Speaker 1: made me like I told you it's like I overthink 2158 01:29:17,570 --> 01:29:19,490 Speaker 1: and I overdo and I over and I think it's 2159 01:29:19,510 --> 01:29:24,040 Speaker 1: like learning to just shut up and stop and pause 2160 01:29:24,120 --> 01:29:26,620 Speaker 1: and I think it's not only helping me right now 2161 01:29:26,920 --> 01:29:28,740 Speaker 1: in trying to figure out what I'm going to do parenting, 2162 01:29:29,220 --> 01:29:30,780 Speaker 1: but also maybe in what I'm going to do with 2163 01:29:30,820 --> 01:29:33,980 Speaker 1: like my life. And I say the rest of my life, 2164 01:29:34,000 --> 01:29:35,800 Speaker 1: like makes me makes it really sound like I'm going 2165 01:29:35,820 --> 01:29:37,360 Speaker 1: to retire and I'm going to go away. But I'm like, no, 2166 01:29:37,380 --> 01:29:40,340 Speaker 1: like this next chapter, whatever this is, whatever this, cause 2167 01:29:40,360 --> 01:29:42,269 Speaker 1: you know, I don't want this to be my, I 2168 01:29:42,270 --> 01:29:44,929 Speaker 1: don't want this to be a phase. I'm going through something. 2169 01:29:44,979 --> 01:29:46,550 Speaker 1: It's like, no, I want this to be a new plane. 2170 01:29:46,570 --> 01:29:49,510 Speaker 1: I want this to be a new level. I want 2171 01:29:49,530 --> 01:29:52,769 Speaker 1: to go somewhere better and bigger. And you know, and 2172 01:29:52,790 --> 01:29:54,430 Speaker 1: I think for all of that I need right now, 2173 01:29:55,200 --> 01:29:58,630 Speaker 1: to do and live as honestly as I can, but 2174 01:29:58,670 --> 01:30:01,910 Speaker 1: also observe and let the people around me kind of 2175 01:30:01,950 --> 01:30:03,210 Speaker 1: like guide the way. 2176 01:30:04,350 --> 01:30:06,650 Speaker 3: Yeah, that's really good. She probably, and I think a 2177 01:30:06,710 --> 01:30:09,510 Speaker 3: lot of moms do this, it's like we try to 2178 01:30:09,750 --> 01:30:15,430 Speaker 3: over control the result. So like we love our kids 2179 01:30:15,470 --> 01:30:17,250 Speaker 3: so much. We don't want them to make a mistake. 2180 01:30:17,890 --> 01:30:19,530 Speaker 3: We want them to have the best life possible. We 2181 01:30:19,550 --> 01:30:23,170 Speaker 3: want to do everything right. But it's like, shit, we're 2182 01:30:23,210 --> 01:30:27,720 Speaker 3: still human beings. And also we can't really fully direct 2183 01:30:27,800 --> 01:30:31,560 Speaker 3: their whole life. And so, I don't know, it's challenging. 2184 01:30:31,580 --> 01:30:34,180 Speaker 3: So I kind of get why you needed to hear that. 2185 01:30:34,380 --> 01:30:35,820 Speaker 2: Yeah. It's not really advice. 2186 01:30:35,880 --> 01:30:38,860 Speaker 3: It's just like a reminder. Yeah. 2187 01:30:39,439 --> 01:30:42,160 Speaker 1: And then the advice that I got given, in case 2188 01:30:42,180 --> 01:30:44,240 Speaker 1: that's not advice, the advice that I got given a 2189 01:30:44,520 --> 01:30:50,070 Speaker 1: long time ago from my friend Dove was to take 2190 01:30:50,110 --> 01:30:53,030 Speaker 1: the emotion out of my, out of my voice when 2191 01:30:53,050 --> 01:30:54,980 Speaker 1: I'm talking to men in business or when I'm talking 2192 01:30:54,990 --> 01:30:56,900 Speaker 1: to people in this music industry because I used to 2193 01:30:56,939 --> 01:30:58,640 Speaker 1: get really frustrated and be like no but I but 2194 01:30:58,720 --> 01:31:01,260 Speaker 1: I and she was just like take take it down 2195 01:31:01,600 --> 01:31:04,560 Speaker 1: speak as monotone as you can wow and just get 2196 01:31:04,580 --> 01:31:08,429 Speaker 1: your get what you want to get out without all 2197 01:31:08,470 --> 01:31:11,349 Speaker 1: these feelings and I was like and I think that 2198 01:31:11,370 --> 01:31:14,309 Speaker 1: helped me a lot really yeah especially in negotiating things 2199 01:31:14,710 --> 01:31:15,010 Speaker 1: what's a. 2200 01:31:15,010 --> 01:31:17,009 Speaker 3: Real life pet peeve or trigger for you. 2201 01:31:18,530 --> 01:31:21,670 Speaker 1: So many oh my god all the things a lot 2202 01:31:23,130 --> 01:31:24,650 Speaker 1: why do men breathe? No, I'm just joking. 2203 01:31:26,070 --> 01:31:27,070 Speaker 2: Um, it's so annoying. 2204 01:31:27,090 --> 01:31:27,470 Speaker 3: Right. 2205 01:31:27,670 --> 01:31:31,250 Speaker 1: It's like, stop. No, stop talking. 2206 01:31:31,270 --> 01:31:31,930 Speaker 3: No. 2207 01:31:32,130 --> 01:31:34,650 Speaker 1: Um, I'm joking by the way, before I get all 2208 01:31:34,670 --> 01:31:35,430 Speaker 1: this hate mail from you. 2209 01:31:35,450 --> 01:31:36,070 Speaker 3: We love men. 2210 01:31:36,450 --> 01:31:37,390 Speaker 1: Um, yeah, we love you. 2211 01:31:37,410 --> 01:31:38,110 Speaker 3: They're great. 2212 01:31:39,110 --> 01:31:41,830 Speaker 1: Um, pet peeves. 2213 01:31:43,610 --> 01:31:44,840 Speaker 3: We love you guys here. Yeah. 2214 01:31:44,850 --> 01:31:47,180 Speaker 1: You guys are amazing. You guys are awesome. Yeah. 2215 01:31:47,880 --> 01:31:53,940 Speaker 3: Um, I think it's so basic. 2216 01:31:54,000 --> 01:31:58,120 Speaker 1: Like, like, you know, I hate when people lie about 2217 01:31:58,160 --> 01:32:02,450 Speaker 1: really little things. Like, I think it's pointless and annoying. 2218 01:32:02,470 --> 01:32:06,729 Speaker 1: I hate when people. Oh, dude, lately, I've really I 2219 01:32:06,750 --> 01:32:08,710 Speaker 1: just really hate when, like, the small talk is just 2220 01:32:08,750 --> 01:32:12,060 Speaker 1: so fucking dumb. Like, and I hate that it makes 2221 01:32:12,100 --> 01:32:16,400 Speaker 1: me seem rude because I'm just like, but like. I 2222 01:32:16,400 --> 01:32:18,610 Speaker 1: don't know. Or when people steal jokes from like memes 2223 01:32:18,670 --> 01:32:20,190 Speaker 1: and stuff, and then they say it as if it's new. 2224 01:32:20,229 --> 01:32:22,370 Speaker 1: And then the whole room is just sitting there like, 2225 01:32:22,729 --> 01:32:24,450 Speaker 1: Oh my God. Ha ha ha. And I'm like, dude, 2226 01:32:24,490 --> 01:32:27,310 Speaker 1: that's been copied since my space. Like that's a terrible, 2227 01:32:27,870 --> 01:32:29,430 Speaker 1: I don't know. So I hate that. I end up 2228 01:32:29,490 --> 01:32:34,330 Speaker 1: seeming rude for just being like real. Like, please have 2229 01:32:34,370 --> 01:32:36,760 Speaker 1: a better conversation. I literally anything. 2230 01:32:37,110 --> 01:32:38,580 Speaker 3: What do you pray for most in real life? 2231 01:32:41,220 --> 01:32:48,510 Speaker 1: Um, My son, me, my health, my family, my girl, 2232 01:32:48,550 --> 01:32:52,270 Speaker 1: just that I don't, that I don't lose anyone at all. 2233 01:32:52,290 --> 01:32:56,240 Speaker 1: You know, I just want to, I want to, I 2234 01:32:56,260 --> 01:32:59,000 Speaker 1: want to be around and I want to, I want 2235 01:32:59,020 --> 01:32:59,759 Speaker 1: everyone I love. 2236 01:32:59,620 --> 01:33:04,010 Speaker 3: To be around. Do you have fear about that? Yeah. Yeah. 2237 01:33:06,090 --> 01:33:08,229 Speaker 3: Is that trauma or is that... Yeah. 2238 01:33:09,010 --> 01:33:13,410 Speaker 1: Yeah, I lost an aunt and a grandma and a 2239 01:33:13,570 --> 01:33:17,229 Speaker 1: couple more family members and another aunt and uncle and stuff. 2240 01:33:17,689 --> 01:33:21,670 Speaker 1: But losing my aunt and my grandma at the same time, 2241 01:33:21,710 --> 01:33:24,910 Speaker 1: like really, really close together was really a lot when 2242 01:33:24,950 --> 01:33:27,790 Speaker 1: I was a kid because we were close in age. 2243 01:33:28,770 --> 01:33:33,510 Speaker 1: And the way that it happened was life-changing for me 2244 01:33:33,550 --> 01:33:34,410 Speaker 1: and for my entire family. 2245 01:33:34,430 --> 01:33:37,630 Speaker 3: I don't think we've ever... because my aunt... She was young? 2246 01:33:38,010 --> 01:33:38,210 Speaker 5: Mm-hmm. 2247 01:33:38,450 --> 01:33:38,929 Speaker 3: She was 16. 2248 01:33:38,930 --> 01:33:42,229 Speaker 1: And she got shot in the kitchen of our house 2249 01:33:42,880 --> 01:33:45,840 Speaker 1: and my grandma's. And then right away, you know, my 2250 01:33:45,860 --> 01:33:47,400 Speaker 1: grandma got sick and then she passed away. And it 2251 01:33:47,439 --> 01:33:49,180 Speaker 1: just was something that, like, I don't think we ever 2252 01:33:49,240 --> 01:33:51,840 Speaker 1: recovered from because it was just so there. It was 2253 01:33:51,939 --> 01:33:55,700 Speaker 1: so dramatic. And it was just, like, it just made 2254 01:33:55,780 --> 01:33:58,300 Speaker 1: me fear that so much my whole life, you know? 2255 01:33:58,660 --> 01:33:59,200 Speaker 1: And are you there? 2256 01:33:59,240 --> 01:33:59,790 Speaker 3: Did you see it? 2257 01:34:00,310 --> 01:34:02,030 Speaker 1: No, but I, we had just, we, we had just 2258 01:34:02,050 --> 01:34:04,889 Speaker 1: celebrated a big family, you know, quinceanera for her and everything. 2259 01:34:04,930 --> 01:34:07,030 Speaker 3: So it was just like, um. 2260 01:34:07,570 --> 01:34:10,070 Speaker 1: I don't know. It just, it just getting everything ripped from, 2261 01:34:10,470 --> 01:34:14,690 Speaker 1: from that. And then just never, ever being the same was, um, 2262 01:34:14,729 --> 01:34:16,950 Speaker 1: something that maybe, maybe that's why I kind of like, 2263 01:34:16,990 --> 01:34:18,690 Speaker 1: I'm always like trying to have my family close and 2264 01:34:18,729 --> 01:34:20,360 Speaker 1: I'm like, you know, I bought a ranch and it's like, 2265 01:34:20,380 --> 01:34:22,040 Speaker 1: I want everybody that I love near me. And I 2266 01:34:22,060 --> 01:34:24,280 Speaker 1: just want them. It just is. How old were you? 2267 01:34:24,280 --> 01:34:30,330 Speaker 3: 10 oh yeah yeah that shape that's a yeah that'll 2268 01:34:30,350 --> 01:34:32,250 Speaker 3: shake you up yeah it'll shake you up yeah and 2269 01:34:32,270 --> 01:34:35,650 Speaker 3: shape you also in a lot of ways right yeah 2270 01:34:36,410 --> 01:34:38,410 Speaker 3: what are you most proud of about yourself. 2271 01:34:41,500 --> 01:34:45,960 Speaker 1: I think that in the weird roundabout way even when 2272 01:34:46,000 --> 01:34:50,920 Speaker 1: I didn't mean to because I stuck to to family 2273 01:34:50,960 --> 01:34:53,840 Speaker 1: and I stuck to you know what what I felt 2274 01:34:53,880 --> 01:34:56,580 Speaker 1: was authentic I think I really do think I've built 2275 01:34:56,620 --> 01:34:59,400 Speaker 1: a really amazing life for myself, you know, and I 2276 01:34:59,460 --> 01:35:06,080 Speaker 1: think I've helped my family, my media family, um, have 2277 01:35:06,100 --> 01:35:08,740 Speaker 1: a great life too. And I think to this day, I, 2278 01:35:09,240 --> 01:35:13,150 Speaker 1: maybe I'm still accepting parts of it, but when I 2279 01:35:13,189 --> 01:35:15,309 Speaker 1: really zoom out and when I really look around and 2280 01:35:15,350 --> 01:35:17,950 Speaker 1: when people sometimes remind me, they go, dude, do you 2281 01:35:17,990 --> 01:35:21,650 Speaker 1: realize I, I, I do, you know, I just, the 2282 01:35:21,689 --> 01:35:24,010 Speaker 1: low self-esteem sometimes will get to you and it'll make you, 2283 01:35:24,550 --> 01:35:27,090 Speaker 1: not see it or be like, I need, but not really. 2284 01:35:27,130 --> 01:35:29,490 Speaker 1: I think I, I think I love, I love it all. 2285 01:35:30,010 --> 01:35:33,250 Speaker 3: You've done good. Yeah. And then my final bowl, it's 2286 01:35:33,290 --> 01:35:35,050 Speaker 3: in the bowl somewhere, but I'll just sell it to you. My, 2287 01:35:35,250 --> 01:35:37,930 Speaker 3: my favorite question in the bowl, if God were to 2288 01:35:37,990 --> 01:35:42,360 Speaker 3: text you right now, what would it say? Oh my God. 2289 01:35:42,380 --> 01:35:45,160 Speaker 3: He wouldn't say, oh my God. 2290 01:35:45,320 --> 01:35:50,480 Speaker 1: Hopefully not see you soon. Oh my God. Um, no, um, 2291 01:35:51,260 --> 01:35:57,320 Speaker 1: I think, um, Damn, you didn't make me cry. 2292 01:35:57,360 --> 01:35:58,460 Speaker 3: That's a good question, right? 2293 01:36:03,460 --> 01:36:04,750 Speaker 1: No, you didn't make me cry. 2294 01:36:04,760 --> 01:36:07,060 Speaker 3: No, I'm sorry. Is it a good cry or a 2295 01:36:07,100 --> 01:36:10,320 Speaker 3: sad cry? I think it's a good cry. Okay. Well, 2296 01:36:10,350 --> 01:36:13,430 Speaker 3: then that's good. I think you'd say you did all right. 2297 01:36:14,590 --> 01:36:18,930 Speaker 3: That makes you cry? Yeah. Like I said, I'm still accepting. 2298 01:36:28,050 --> 01:36:30,630 Speaker 1: I think I'm still accepting that I am doing okay. 2299 01:36:31,710 --> 01:36:34,760 Speaker 3: You know? I think maybe there's some people I need 2300 01:36:34,770 --> 01:36:38,420 Speaker 3: to hear from a little more. That you need to 2301 01:36:38,439 --> 01:36:42,140 Speaker 3: hear from? That you're doing okay? That's all. 2302 01:36:42,960 --> 01:36:43,120 Speaker 1: Oh. 2303 01:36:43,939 --> 01:36:49,460 Speaker 3: Family? Parents? Isn't it crazy no matter how successful we 2304 01:36:49,540 --> 01:36:51,080 Speaker 3: are and how grown we are and how much dope 2305 01:36:51,100 --> 01:36:52,740 Speaker 3: stuff you have a dope wife and a dope kid? 2306 01:36:53,040 --> 01:36:59,390 Speaker 3: It's like you still have those like you still need 2307 01:36:59,450 --> 01:37:02,799 Speaker 3: certain things from our parents or you still need some 2308 01:37:02,810 --> 01:37:06,700 Speaker 3: of that, whatever childhood trauma to be, I don't know, 2309 01:37:06,760 --> 01:37:08,840 Speaker 3: corrected in some type of way. Yeah. 2310 01:37:09,380 --> 01:37:13,540 Speaker 1: And it does. Yeah. I think, um, you hope it, 2311 01:37:13,860 --> 01:37:16,020 Speaker 1: you hope it happens, but also I guess that's why 2312 01:37:16,060 --> 01:37:18,510 Speaker 1: we go to therapy to, even if it doesn't, you 2313 01:37:18,550 --> 01:37:19,270 Speaker 1: need to be okay. 2314 01:37:20,090 --> 01:37:20,349 Speaker 3: You know? 2315 01:37:21,130 --> 01:37:23,130 Speaker 1: But I think, like I said, it's like, it passes, 2316 01:37:23,330 --> 01:37:25,790 Speaker 1: you cry. I mean, I'm a cancer, like cry for everything. 2317 01:37:26,310 --> 01:37:27,650 Speaker 1: It's like, you know, it's like it happens. 2318 01:37:27,930 --> 01:37:29,849 Speaker 3: Yeah, but I feel like there's a sensitive spot right now. 2319 01:37:30,030 --> 01:37:33,250 Speaker 1: You cry and then you just, you have a little 2320 01:37:33,270 --> 01:37:36,229 Speaker 1: bit more bandwidth to deal with it. 2321 01:37:36,310 --> 01:37:38,240 Speaker 3: Push forward, right? Yeah. Yeah. 2322 01:37:38,260 --> 01:37:39,840 Speaker 1: Sometimes I'll be getting a headache right before I'm about 2323 01:37:39,860 --> 01:37:41,300 Speaker 1: to cry and then I cry and then it goes away. 2324 01:37:41,700 --> 01:37:43,979 Speaker 1: So I think I just like need to sometimes cry 2325 01:37:44,000 --> 01:37:44,280 Speaker 1: it out. 2326 01:37:44,300 --> 01:37:45,979 Speaker 3: And then you just. 2327 01:37:45,780 --> 01:37:48,500 Speaker 1: Move out, you know, and then you just like... I 2328 01:37:48,520 --> 01:37:52,160 Speaker 1: just freed up like 10 gigabytes of RAM right now 2329 01:37:52,540 --> 01:37:53,800 Speaker 1: for the rest of the day. 2330 01:37:53,920 --> 01:37:55,340 Speaker 3: Because I cried it out. 2331 01:37:55,500 --> 01:37:57,840 Speaker 2: I'm glad we can do that. If nothing else, we 2332 01:37:57,860 --> 01:37:58,380 Speaker 2: did that. 2333 01:37:58,479 --> 01:38:01,260 Speaker 3: Therapy. What was the answer, though, that God said? What 2334 01:38:01,300 --> 01:38:02,240 Speaker 3: was God's thanks to you? 2335 01:38:03,860 --> 01:38:04,389 Speaker 1: I did okay. 2336 01:38:04,689 --> 01:38:04,969 Speaker 2: Yeah. 2337 01:38:05,820 --> 01:38:07,090 Speaker 3: So there you are. 2338 01:38:07,150 --> 01:38:07,849 Speaker 1: You did okay. 2339 01:38:07,930 --> 01:38:10,290 Speaker 3: Yeah. Stole the product of real life. 2340 01:38:10,850 --> 01:38:11,509 Speaker 2: She did okay. 2341 01:38:11,530 --> 01:38:13,250 Speaker 1: Thank you. I'm sorry I cried. 2342 01:38:14,130 --> 01:38:21,750 Speaker 3: Never say sorry you cried. Hey guys, thanks for watching. 2343 01:38:21,770 --> 01:38:25,240 Speaker 3: Make sure you subscribe, like, comment, and check out all 2344 01:38:25,260 --> 01:38:28,240 Speaker 3: of the other episodes we have on Angie Martinez IRL podcast.