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Speaker 1: Family Secrets is a production of I Heart Radio. I'm

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Speaker 1: Danny Shapiro, and this is a special sneak peek of

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Speaker 1: our first episode of the new season of Family Secrets,

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Speaker 1: whose drops a week from today on Thursday, October one.

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Speaker 1: I can't wait to share the whole season with you.

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Speaker 1: You know, in terms of Family Secrets, there really are

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Speaker 1: two that I want to talk to you about. And

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Speaker 1: one is that during some of this period of time,

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Speaker 1: you had fixed up your house and you had this

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Speaker 1: incredible knack with design, and some photographs were taken and

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Speaker 1: you made everything really gorgeous and like this beautiful interior,

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Speaker 1: and you became this Instagram darling, suddenly having this world

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Speaker 1: of people seeing your beautiful life, everything perfect. And I

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Speaker 1: think that that's such an important thing for people to

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Speaker 1: hear and to think about, because so much of social media,

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Speaker 1: Instagram in particular, is about comparing our insides with other

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Speaker 1: people's outside or what we think other people's outsides are.

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Speaker 1: So when was the moment that you sat down and

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Speaker 1: opened your Instagram account and posted the truth and just

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Speaker 1: like shared it in all of its complexity with the

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Speaker 1: people who were following you. I actually didn't start my

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Speaker 1: Instagram account until after I'd wean myself off all the drugs.

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Speaker 1: It took me about four months to get off all

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Speaker 1: of the narcotics, and I had my brother was like,

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Speaker 1: you can lay in your bed and hurt, or you

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Speaker 1: can get up and be with people and try to

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Speaker 1: love people and people and lived life and hurt. I

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Speaker 1: was like, okay, so much trying to live in her,

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Speaker 1: you know. And once that happened, and you know, my

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Speaker 1: marriage did end, and I was like, if I get

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Speaker 1: back in that bed, I will die. I will die.

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Speaker 1: So Instagram it became a part of my life joy journal.

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Speaker 1: What ended up happening is I wasn't giving people the

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Speaker 1: full context. I was only giving them the beauty, the joy,

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Speaker 1: the goodness. I did not give them the context of

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Speaker 1: my joy. And after about eight or nine months of

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Speaker 1: doing that, I had people that didn't know me following

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Speaker 1: along on social media, and I started getting these messages

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Speaker 1: of like, oh my gosh, I want your life, what

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Speaker 1: a dream life? If this is so beautiful, I wish

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Speaker 1: that was my dining room. I was, you know, all

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Speaker 1: these crazy messages and it made me nauseous because I'm

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Speaker 1: like I remember looking on social media and just I

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Speaker 1: would have paid so much money to have been able

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Speaker 1: to be outside playing with the children that I was

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Speaker 1: dreaming of having instead of just laying in my bed

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Speaker 1: hurting all the time, and out doing these adventures, you know.

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Speaker 1: And the idea that I could conjure up those feelings

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Speaker 1: and someone else withoutcome getting the full picture made me

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Speaker 1: so sad. Listen to the new season of Family Secrets,

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Speaker 1: premiering October one, on Apple podcasts, the I heart Radio app,

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