1 00:00:00,360 --> 00:00:04,040 Speaker 1: Big Fangs and DJ Scream bring you Big Facts, the 2 00:00:04,040 --> 00:00:07,480 Speaker 1: hottest podcast in the streets. Visit the new website today 3 00:00:07,760 --> 00:00:11,800 Speaker 1: www dot Big Facts pod dot com live from first 4 00:00:11,880 --> 00:00:14,560 Speaker 1: Class Sounds. You know who it is. DJ Scream, Big 5 00:00:14,560 --> 00:00:16,880 Speaker 1: Bankers here, Baby Jay to see a time for another 6 00:00:16,960 --> 00:00:20,119 Speaker 1: episode of Big Facts and then get turned up on it. 7 00:00:20,320 --> 00:00:27,800 Speaker 1: You gotta get the energy basine. We're blessed to be here. Bro, 8 00:00:29,760 --> 00:00:31,480 Speaker 1: everybody don't get to do this. I'll be happy. I'm 9 00:00:31,480 --> 00:00:38,159 Speaker 1: still happy. I ain't used to it. I ain't used 10 00:00:38,159 --> 00:00:40,520 Speaker 1: to it. Yeah, you know, I'm still happy. But today 11 00:00:40,520 --> 00:00:43,000 Speaker 1: I'll be happier back because we're gonna get some motivations. 12 00:00:43,120 --> 00:00:45,720 Speaker 1: Houts to Ikey Johnson. If you're not familiar with Ikey Johnson, 13 00:00:45,760 --> 00:00:48,320 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. Very captivated story, a real story. 14 00:00:48,360 --> 00:00:51,760 Speaker 1: He gonna give us some motivation. Is some game today. 15 00:00:52,080 --> 00:00:59,000 Speaker 1: So I'm excited about that. Pressure on that chill you Yeah, 16 00:00:59,160 --> 00:01:07,080 Speaker 1: pressure on that little good ahead. After you tell you 17 00:01:12,160 --> 00:01:28,679 Speaker 1: ship you got, we got to talk about uh surreal 18 00:01:28,760 --> 00:01:31,600 Speaker 1: ship because this this is ship that be happening for 19 00:01:31,680 --> 00:01:34,759 Speaker 1: everybody right. Oh what do you do when you feel 20 00:01:34,800 --> 00:01:36,800 Speaker 1: like quitting? You know what I'm saying when ship ain't 21 00:01:36,800 --> 00:01:41,040 Speaker 1: going your way. The obstacles, the obstacles got you down. 22 00:01:41,120 --> 00:01:42,720 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like what are you doing? 23 00:01:43,040 --> 00:01:45,600 Speaker 1: And to be completely transparent, you know what I'm saying, 24 00:01:45,640 --> 00:01:48,240 Speaker 1: It's great and as blessed as everything can be. Yeah, 25 00:01:48,280 --> 00:01:50,520 Speaker 1: I'll be having some dash still have some days like 26 00:01:51,320 --> 00:01:54,400 Speaker 1: like but like for I started off, like for like 27 00:01:54,640 --> 00:01:57,640 Speaker 1: for me, when I'm when I'm down or like when 28 00:01:57,680 --> 00:02:01,000 Speaker 1: I'm just not feeling it or I'm just like low, 29 00:02:01,720 --> 00:02:04,520 Speaker 1: I have to like I have to get out of 30 00:02:04,880 --> 00:02:06,920 Speaker 1: I have to go outside. I have to get some 31 00:02:07,040 --> 00:02:09,760 Speaker 1: fresh air. You know what I'm saying. Yeah, Because it's 32 00:02:09,800 --> 00:02:11,600 Speaker 1: like if I'm sitting in the house or I'm sitting 33 00:02:11,680 --> 00:02:15,639 Speaker 1: somewhere or whatever, it's gonna just it's gonna stay on me. 34 00:02:16,120 --> 00:02:18,519 Speaker 1: So I gotta get out, Go take a walk, you know, 35 00:02:19,120 --> 00:02:21,239 Speaker 1: go swim, you know what I'm saying, anything to like 36 00:02:21,480 --> 00:02:23,799 Speaker 1: shake that ship off and like get it off me 37 00:02:23,840 --> 00:02:25,280 Speaker 1: and kind of just clear my mind a little bit 38 00:02:25,320 --> 00:02:28,240 Speaker 1: because if I don't, then like my energy is gonna 39 00:02:28,240 --> 00:02:31,200 Speaker 1: be sucked up for however long until I get it 40 00:02:31,240 --> 00:02:33,400 Speaker 1: off of me. And like with me, like when my 41 00:02:33,520 --> 00:02:35,239 Speaker 1: energy be fucked up and ship, I try to stay 42 00:02:35,240 --> 00:02:37,840 Speaker 1: away from people. Anything could happen when my energy is 43 00:02:37,840 --> 00:02:40,079 Speaker 1: sucked up, and I don't want to be responsible for 44 00:02:40,720 --> 00:02:44,440 Speaker 1: offending somebody or hurting somebody's feelings, or cursing somebody out, 45 00:02:44,560 --> 00:02:47,359 Speaker 1: or punching somebody or anything. You know what I'm saying. 46 00:02:47,440 --> 00:02:50,000 Speaker 1: And it wasn't warranted. You see what I'm saying is 47 00:02:50,040 --> 00:02:52,120 Speaker 1: because I'm already in a fun up mood and y'all 48 00:02:52,160 --> 00:02:53,840 Speaker 1: just ended up catching it. You see what I'm saying, 49 00:02:54,280 --> 00:02:56,679 Speaker 1: So get it. You know what I'm saying. The first 50 00:02:56,720 --> 00:02:58,680 Speaker 1: thing I do is pray. I got to start praying 51 00:02:58,760 --> 00:03:01,120 Speaker 1: if it ain't going right out of Yeah, that's a friend, 52 00:03:01,400 --> 00:03:03,359 Speaker 1: a lot of meditating, a lot of being to myself, 53 00:03:03,520 --> 00:03:05,200 Speaker 1: like you say, because I don't want to suck up. 54 00:03:05,280 --> 00:03:07,679 Speaker 1: It always seems like sometimes when when you when you 55 00:03:07,800 --> 00:03:10,160 Speaker 1: haven't sometimes like when you're having that I'm a quit 56 00:03:10,280 --> 00:03:12,680 Speaker 1: day or that fucked up day, that somebody else day 57 00:03:12,760 --> 00:03:14,560 Speaker 1: might be going good. She don't want to be mad 58 00:03:14,560 --> 00:03:16,919 Speaker 1: at him because they ship going good. It's just like, yeah, 59 00:03:17,000 --> 00:03:20,239 Speaker 1: like I don't know, hate every happy for you, like 60 00:03:20,680 --> 00:03:23,240 Speaker 1: just the day ain't yeah, yeah, let me just let 61 00:03:23,280 --> 00:03:26,119 Speaker 1: me just let me just stay over here until tomorrow. Yeah, 62 00:03:26,440 --> 00:03:28,079 Speaker 1: I can't. I don't want to, you know. I think 63 00:03:28,120 --> 00:03:30,160 Speaker 1: that's a beautiful thing. Though maybe in our space you 64 00:03:30,200 --> 00:03:31,919 Speaker 1: got to speak to bank, but like it would be 65 00:03:31,960 --> 00:03:34,120 Speaker 1: a day for me. It don't never be like dumpty. 66 00:03:35,040 --> 00:03:37,560 Speaker 1: They don't never what we're talking about. When you feel 67 00:03:37,600 --> 00:03:41,560 Speaker 1: like when you feel like quit, when you had that 68 00:03:41,680 --> 00:03:44,560 Speaker 1: fucked up day, when you like fuck everything, one of 69 00:03:44,600 --> 00:03:51,240 Speaker 1: them days that could be having you happy to day 70 00:03:52,160 --> 00:03:55,640 Speaker 1: I'm happy. Well, I'm thinking about Quinn too. I'm just 71 00:03:55,800 --> 00:03:58,000 Speaker 1: a sad day for me. Man. I just every day 72 00:03:58,040 --> 00:04:00,320 Speaker 1: I wake up, I want to do something different. Man, 73 00:04:00,400 --> 00:04:02,160 Speaker 1: This ship just I guess that's what it is. Only 74 00:04:02,240 --> 00:04:08,400 Speaker 1: one But how do you like, how do you shake 75 00:04:08,440 --> 00:04:10,600 Speaker 1: out of it or shake it off when you're having 76 00:04:10,680 --> 00:04:15,600 Speaker 1: one of those days like I just got damn smoke 77 00:04:17,720 --> 00:04:21,240 Speaker 1: blood back with a day, man, take the pain away, 78 00:04:22,880 --> 00:04:27,080 Speaker 1: real ship. You can smoke that ship away. Bro, We 79 00:04:27,800 --> 00:04:29,880 Speaker 1: like got some men to make it to be like 80 00:04:30,240 --> 00:04:32,160 Speaker 1: you can see that another way. That's the way to 81 00:04:32,200 --> 00:04:35,160 Speaker 1: look at it. For me, I don't know what for 82 00:04:35,279 --> 00:04:37,840 Speaker 1: other people like it should I be smoking. I'm gonna 83 00:04:37,839 --> 00:04:40,080 Speaker 1: tell you what the therapist told me. I do therapy 84 00:04:40,120 --> 00:04:42,480 Speaker 1: and all that ship I started a gratitude general ship 85 00:04:42,640 --> 00:04:45,000 Speaker 1: changed my life because you start writing down all the 86 00:04:45,040 --> 00:04:48,600 Speaker 1: ship that's going, right, I don't like my hand right. 87 00:04:51,080 --> 00:04:53,080 Speaker 1: I can't even read that ship when I got there. 88 00:04:54,800 --> 00:04:56,680 Speaker 1: When I write the ship down, I can't he ever, 89 00:04:56,800 --> 00:05:00,880 Speaker 1: Like what the fun they was this v y'all I'm 90 00:05:00,920 --> 00:05:03,320 Speaker 1: probably doing on my phone. Probably No. I'm just saying 91 00:05:03,360 --> 00:05:05,400 Speaker 1: that I get in the spirit of gratitude. You ain't 92 00:05:05,400 --> 00:05:07,200 Speaker 1: gotten to write it down, but you can. You can 93 00:05:07,240 --> 00:05:09,159 Speaker 1: sit there and look at them two or threefold things 94 00:05:09,240 --> 00:05:11,160 Speaker 1: that's fucked up that day of that week. But if 95 00:05:11,200 --> 00:05:14,040 Speaker 1: you start to think about, damn, I can walk, I'm healthy, 96 00:05:14,160 --> 00:05:16,280 Speaker 1: I got food. Yeah, But you know another thing to 97 00:05:16,480 --> 00:05:19,400 Speaker 1: like you're saying, like, when you like have some ship 98 00:05:19,520 --> 00:05:22,440 Speaker 1: that you're upset about or depressed about or down about, 99 00:05:22,600 --> 00:05:25,520 Speaker 1: and it's fucked up for you, another way to like 100 00:05:25,760 --> 00:05:27,880 Speaker 1: kind of offset the ship is when you take that 101 00:05:28,000 --> 00:05:30,960 Speaker 1: one thing that you are down about, think about three 102 00:05:31,040 --> 00:05:34,360 Speaker 1: things that you're grateful for or three positive things, and 103 00:05:34,480 --> 00:05:36,600 Speaker 1: focus on those. And then I'm not saying that you'll 104 00:05:36,640 --> 00:05:38,720 Speaker 1: forget about what you're down about, but it will kind 105 00:05:38,760 --> 00:05:40,880 Speaker 1: of help even it out to bring your spirit back up. 106 00:05:43,600 --> 00:05:49,680 Speaker 1: Like I'm gonna smoke. Yeah. Man, One thing about it, man, 107 00:05:49,800 --> 00:05:52,240 Speaker 1: ship just you just gotta pray for the best, man 108 00:05:52,520 --> 00:05:54,800 Speaker 1: prepare for the worst. I think I think you know, 109 00:05:54,920 --> 00:05:56,960 Speaker 1: kind of the purpose of this is to let our 110 00:05:57,000 --> 00:05:59,880 Speaker 1: supporters and everybody know, like you know, go through ship too. 111 00:06:00,160 --> 00:06:05,880 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. Bunch of right, everybody go 112 00:06:06,000 --> 00:06:10,719 Speaker 1: through ship. Yeah, but it's you can't let that ship 113 00:06:10,920 --> 00:06:16,240 Speaker 1: consume you, man, definitely not, but for real because if 114 00:06:16,279 --> 00:06:19,360 Speaker 1: you focus, if you Another thing that I've learned too 115 00:06:20,240 --> 00:06:24,680 Speaker 1: is that if you continuously focused on the negative as 116 00:06:24,720 --> 00:06:28,120 Speaker 1: opposed to the positive, then you block your blessings because 117 00:06:28,480 --> 00:06:31,080 Speaker 1: God feels like you're ungrateful for what you already have 118 00:06:33,279 --> 00:06:43,080 Speaker 1: what allegedly allegedly who told you that? Okay told me 119 00:06:43,160 --> 00:06:51,400 Speaker 1: that it ain't nothing more than Hey, what you perceive 120 00:06:51,480 --> 00:06:53,160 Speaker 1: and what you think about and what's what's in that 121 00:06:53,320 --> 00:06:55,520 Speaker 1: brain A lot can become a reality. You know what 122 00:06:55,520 --> 00:06:58,440 Speaker 1: I'm saying. I think we kind of spoke up a 123 00:06:58,520 --> 00:07:01,920 Speaker 1: thought up. It's all about me festation and infestations there is, 124 00:07:02,040 --> 00:07:04,040 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. So you gotta just kind 125 00:07:04,040 --> 00:07:05,600 Speaker 1: of be on that ship and then it's gonna be 126 00:07:06,000 --> 00:07:07,840 Speaker 1: It's different energies around here. You know what I'm saying, 127 00:07:07,880 --> 00:07:10,200 Speaker 1: You gotta fight them when you gotta rebuke them, keep 128 00:07:10,240 --> 00:07:11,880 Speaker 1: them away. You know what I'm saying. It's definitely you 129 00:07:12,240 --> 00:07:15,360 Speaker 1: just know ship happened to like ship happens. Yeah, what 130 00:07:15,440 --> 00:07:19,080 Speaker 1: I'm saying it do be some people that be when 131 00:07:20,120 --> 00:07:21,840 Speaker 1: when you talk to some people though they do be 132 00:07:21,960 --> 00:07:24,440 Speaker 1: having I guess you say a stream of bad luck 133 00:07:24,520 --> 00:07:27,600 Speaker 1: like I'm talking about nigga's like that. You gotta stay 134 00:07:27,640 --> 00:07:30,800 Speaker 1: away from niggas like that, the unlucky. You gotta stay 135 00:07:30,920 --> 00:07:32,920 Speaker 1: the farthest away from them because that ship can run. 136 00:07:34,760 --> 00:07:39,080 Speaker 1: You gotta be aware of help for help my life 137 00:07:39,160 --> 00:07:44,000 Speaker 1: just it ain't going right what you're thinking. No, but 138 00:07:44,120 --> 00:07:47,480 Speaker 1: listening if everybody I might know for real listening. But 139 00:07:47,880 --> 00:07:49,360 Speaker 1: I might not get too close to him, but want 140 00:07:49,400 --> 00:07:51,320 Speaker 1: to be with him every day. But I always tell 141 00:07:51,400 --> 00:07:54,720 Speaker 1: niggas like, bro, have you evaluated some might not be 142 00:07:54,880 --> 00:07:56,840 Speaker 1: right in here? You know what I'm saying, like evaluate 143 00:07:56,920 --> 00:08:00,360 Speaker 1: that ship. Yeah, I just I just talk about this 144 00:08:00,440 --> 00:08:03,360 Speaker 1: on my Instagram the other day, Like I'm the like 145 00:08:03,760 --> 00:08:06,200 Speaker 1: I'm the friend that we might not talk every day, 146 00:08:06,280 --> 00:08:09,000 Speaker 1: we might not talk a whole lot, but if you 147 00:08:09,160 --> 00:08:12,600 Speaker 1: need me, I'm most definitely pulling up. And it's people 148 00:08:13,880 --> 00:08:16,560 Speaker 1: that I don't funk with anymore, even though I don't 149 00:08:16,600 --> 00:08:19,120 Speaker 1: funk with them, like I'm still gonna, like you said, 150 00:08:19,160 --> 00:08:21,720 Speaker 1: answer the phone for them. But people, but the people 151 00:08:21,760 --> 00:08:23,600 Speaker 1: that I don't funk with either I don't funk with 152 00:08:23,680 --> 00:08:25,880 Speaker 1: them because they crossed me, or don't funk with them 153 00:08:25,960 --> 00:08:28,800 Speaker 1: because they just got some funked up ship going on. 154 00:08:28,920 --> 00:08:30,520 Speaker 1: And I don't want that ship to like spill over 155 00:08:30,600 --> 00:08:33,280 Speaker 1: into my ship. Like we're talking about the unlucky people, 156 00:08:33,800 --> 00:08:35,160 Speaker 1: but it's like at the end of the day, it's 157 00:08:35,240 --> 00:08:37,400 Speaker 1: like you can help them, but you can only help 158 00:08:37,480 --> 00:08:40,160 Speaker 1: them so much because it's like why the fund do 159 00:08:40,240 --> 00:08:43,720 Speaker 1: you keep needing help? You have to evaluate like what's 160 00:08:43,760 --> 00:08:47,000 Speaker 1: going on and why you keep being unlucky, and you 161 00:08:47,080 --> 00:08:50,360 Speaker 1: gotta stop pulling people into your ship, like yeah, like 162 00:08:50,600 --> 00:08:54,880 Speaker 1: that's crazy enough is enough? Sometimes right a wrong? You 163 00:08:54,960 --> 00:08:58,600 Speaker 1: even got cash talking, she'll never talk. Big ain't helping 164 00:08:58,640 --> 00:09:07,600 Speaker 1: your situation, nig you don't. But but but you gotta 165 00:09:07,760 --> 00:09:11,160 Speaker 1: evaluate that ship. I'm telling you gotta evaluate that ship 166 00:09:11,280 --> 00:09:14,120 Speaker 1: like somebody will be fucked up and blame everybody else. 167 00:09:15,240 --> 00:09:16,679 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. You can't do that you 168 00:09:16,760 --> 00:09:23,280 Speaker 1: gotta look inward. What did I do to get into ship? Yeah, exactly, 169 00:09:24,080 --> 00:09:26,040 Speaker 1: he can't keep it real. He ain't come show me 170 00:09:26,120 --> 00:09:30,120 Speaker 1: no love anyway. Did you show yourself love? That's what 171 00:09:30,200 --> 00:09:33,760 Speaker 1: you gotta ask these niggas like are you showing yourself love? 172 00:09:34,120 --> 00:09:36,240 Speaker 1: And nigga can't want more for you than what you 173 00:09:36,320 --> 00:09:38,599 Speaker 1: want for yourself, just like they said, was that not 174 00:09:38,760 --> 00:09:41,760 Speaker 1: poetic justice? What was that movie? Um Jason's leard you 175 00:09:41,800 --> 00:09:44,520 Speaker 1: can't save a nigga don't want to be saved like 176 00:09:44,840 --> 00:09:48,120 Speaker 1: like you can't like it's impossible. More. The story is 177 00:09:48,240 --> 00:09:53,440 Speaker 1: if you feel like quit, get high right, everything throw 178 00:09:53,559 --> 00:09:59,400 Speaker 1: you up shot a lot. I don't know. I don't 179 00:09:59,440 --> 00:10:01,199 Speaker 1: know what worked for everybody else because you know what 180 00:10:01,240 --> 00:10:08,240 Speaker 1: I'm saying, they might smoked the wrong ship. Yeah from me, 181 00:10:08,360 --> 00:10:12,280 Speaker 1: I just except everything they come with this ship, taking 182 00:10:12,320 --> 00:10:24,640 Speaker 1: everything that come code this ship co with it. Man. Yeah, 183 00:10:24,720 --> 00:10:29,040 Speaker 1: that's why Plue don't got a verse for every fucking situation, life, 184 00:10:30,000 --> 00:10:35,320 Speaker 1: fucking obstacle, everything Like that's it, crazy man, you can 185 00:10:35,400 --> 00:10:37,840 Speaker 1: get you through a lot of ship bro. Most definitely 186 00:10:38,400 --> 00:10:40,719 Speaker 1: definitely shout out of Kirkwood, Shout out the Ink on 187 00:10:40,800 --> 00:10:43,560 Speaker 1: the way Kirkwood. Yes, Inky Johnson on the way. Triple 188 00:10:43,720 --> 00:10:46,240 Speaker 1: W dot Big Facts pod dot Com is going down 189 00:10:47,480 --> 00:10:50,679 Speaker 1: the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the Truth 190 00:10:52,320 --> 00:10:53,920 Speaker 1: live and first class sounds. You know who it is, 191 00:10:54,000 --> 00:10:57,160 Speaker 1: DJ Scream, Big Bank Baby and jade A Today We're 192 00:10:57,160 --> 00:10:59,640 Speaker 1: gonna get motivated on Big Facts. If you're down and out, 193 00:10:59,679 --> 00:11:01,240 Speaker 1: if you ain't feeling that, you know what I'm saying. 194 00:11:01,280 --> 00:11:04,160 Speaker 1: We got the one and only Inky Johnson here. Oh 195 00:11:04,320 --> 00:11:08,960 Speaker 1: big what's up my brother? How you feeling? How you're feeling, man, 196 00:11:09,000 --> 00:11:11,520 Speaker 1: I'm all good, It's anna. It's a privilege, man. I 197 00:11:11,559 --> 00:11:15,520 Speaker 1: appreciate y'all. We appreciate it. We appreciate it for everybody 198 00:11:15,559 --> 00:11:17,480 Speaker 1: out there. Let's start by just letting everybody know a 199 00:11:17,600 --> 00:11:20,520 Speaker 1: little bit of the Inky Johnson story. I guess you could, 200 00:11:20,640 --> 00:11:23,960 Speaker 1: um let everybody know a little bit of the timeline, 201 00:11:24,000 --> 00:11:26,959 Speaker 1: Like what you were doing, um that led up to 202 00:11:27,040 --> 00:11:29,760 Speaker 1: you playing sports? You know what I'm saying, unfortunate circumstances 203 00:11:30,120 --> 00:11:32,040 Speaker 1: while you were playing sports that led you to be 204 00:11:32,120 --> 00:11:35,120 Speaker 1: a motivational speaker. Yes, so you know, boring and raised 205 00:11:35,160 --> 00:11:42,000 Speaker 1: in Atlanta Kirkwood on six exactly. Yeah, lived all over 206 00:11:42,080 --> 00:11:45,480 Speaker 1: the six but boring and raised in Kirkwood and like 207 00:11:45,600 --> 00:11:48,000 Speaker 1: any other kid man, you know, boring to a mother, 208 00:11:48,040 --> 00:11:52,240 Speaker 1: a sixteen two back on home fourteen people, and I 209 00:11:52,320 --> 00:11:55,079 Speaker 1: saw sports as the vehicle, you know, I wanted to 210 00:11:55,120 --> 00:11:57,160 Speaker 1: help my family. I felt like, you know, they were 211 00:11:57,240 --> 00:11:59,480 Speaker 1: good people. I saw it all just like any other 212 00:11:59,559 --> 00:12:02,240 Speaker 1: cat come up in the city. You see it and 213 00:12:02,360 --> 00:12:04,280 Speaker 1: you want to make a difference in your family's life, 214 00:12:04,320 --> 00:12:06,120 Speaker 1: and you feel as if you've been blessed with the 215 00:12:06,200 --> 00:12:09,240 Speaker 1: talent to do it. And so football was my game, 216 00:12:09,520 --> 00:12:12,480 Speaker 1: you know, not only just the skill set, but it 217 00:12:12,600 --> 00:12:15,360 Speaker 1: was a release. Like once I got out on that field, 218 00:12:15,400 --> 00:12:18,000 Speaker 1: I felt like I was free, you know what I'm saying, 219 00:12:18,160 --> 00:12:20,880 Speaker 1: from my household, from all that was going on. And 220 00:12:20,960 --> 00:12:23,320 Speaker 1: I felt like it was the opportunity. And I got 221 00:12:23,400 --> 00:12:25,800 Speaker 1: a scholarship to the University of Tennessee, first one in 222 00:12:25,840 --> 00:12:28,400 Speaker 1: my family to go to college, and I wanted to 223 00:12:28,480 --> 00:12:30,560 Speaker 1: make good on that investment that a lot of people 224 00:12:30,600 --> 00:12:33,600 Speaker 1: have made in the sacrifices to get me to that point. 225 00:12:34,240 --> 00:12:36,280 Speaker 1: And when I got to Tennessee in my third year, 226 00:12:36,880 --> 00:12:39,400 Speaker 1: I was starting that corner, had been starting that corner, 227 00:12:39,880 --> 00:12:41,160 Speaker 1: and it looked like I was about to be a 228 00:12:41,200 --> 00:12:43,760 Speaker 1: first round draft pick and I go out the second 229 00:12:43,800 --> 00:12:47,760 Speaker 1: game my junior year, make a routine tackle that I've 230 00:12:47,800 --> 00:12:50,559 Speaker 1: been doing since I was a kid, and found myself 231 00:12:50,640 --> 00:12:53,400 Speaker 1: in the emergency room fighting for my life two hours later. 232 00:12:54,120 --> 00:12:56,920 Speaker 1: And it paralyzed my right on the hand, ruptured the 233 00:12:57,040 --> 00:13:00,280 Speaker 1: artery in my chest toward the nurse, my spinic troll, 234 00:13:00,400 --> 00:13:03,800 Speaker 1: my own, my hand, my fingers, and obviously it ended 235 00:13:03,880 --> 00:13:07,959 Speaker 1: my career and my life changed, man, and I went 236 00:13:08,080 --> 00:13:11,120 Speaker 1: searching for purpose. You know, I never thought I would 237 00:13:11,240 --> 00:13:14,320 Speaker 1: be a speaker, Like I never wanted to speak because 238 00:13:14,600 --> 00:13:17,360 Speaker 1: where I grew up, everybody grew up similar to how 239 00:13:17,440 --> 00:13:20,000 Speaker 1: I grew up, and so I never thought what I 240 00:13:20,120 --> 00:13:22,800 Speaker 1: experienced is anything special, you know what I'm saying. Just 241 00:13:23,440 --> 00:13:26,280 Speaker 1: you grew up in the cats, living and sur best 242 00:13:26,320 --> 00:13:28,480 Speaker 1: times in my life, you know what I'm saying. And 243 00:13:28,600 --> 00:13:30,360 Speaker 1: one day I was telling somebody and it was like, 244 00:13:30,440 --> 00:13:34,760 Speaker 1: you grew up, how you experience what? And um, you know, 245 00:13:34,840 --> 00:13:36,559 Speaker 1: I felt like this is what I was supposed to 246 00:13:36,559 --> 00:13:38,319 Speaker 1: be doing in my life, man, And I approached it 247 00:13:38,400 --> 00:13:40,640 Speaker 1: with you know, a level of gratitude, and here we 248 00:13:40,760 --> 00:13:43,400 Speaker 1: are and doing it for fourteen years. Well, when you 249 00:13:43,559 --> 00:13:47,400 Speaker 1: when when you speak, though, brothers like a real gift 250 00:13:47,440 --> 00:13:49,320 Speaker 1: from God or I ain't even gonna kept like because 251 00:13:49,360 --> 00:13:52,280 Speaker 1: you can feel every word, like even with his interview, 252 00:13:52,400 --> 00:13:55,800 Speaker 1: like like if y'all ain't only inc y'all got to 253 00:13:55,800 --> 00:14:00,120 Speaker 1: get on them in Johnson on Instagram A talking to 254 00:14:00,200 --> 00:14:03,640 Speaker 1: fit the thousand motherfucker's like he's packing it out like Drake, 255 00:14:03,760 --> 00:14:07,719 Speaker 1: no little cot, no real ship, and I know the 256 00:14:07,800 --> 00:14:10,400 Speaker 1: story like I used to stop down his day's house 257 00:14:10,440 --> 00:14:11,640 Speaker 1: in the morning if I go to school and the 258 00:14:11,800 --> 00:14:13,640 Speaker 1: little kids getting rid of like we all meet up 259 00:14:14,040 --> 00:14:17,680 Speaker 1: at dad in the house thinking up with the kids 260 00:14:17,920 --> 00:14:21,600 Speaker 1: going to white tumor and ship and we're going to coring. 261 00:14:21,880 --> 00:14:23,680 Speaker 1: You get what I'm saying. And he get up age 262 00:14:23,680 --> 00:14:25,600 Speaker 1: and started playing high school about ever, about the whole 263 00:14:25,600 --> 00:14:27,920 Speaker 1: neighborhood behind. You know what I'm saying, we know what, 264 00:14:28,160 --> 00:14:30,880 Speaker 1: we know what, this is, this guaranteed. Then he had 265 00:14:30,920 --> 00:14:32,520 Speaker 1: to like I said, you had an accident or whatever. 266 00:14:33,280 --> 00:14:36,080 Speaker 1: And then then like just popped up like this is 267 00:14:36,120 --> 00:14:39,560 Speaker 1: what he's doing and this ship was serious, real ship. 268 00:14:40,040 --> 00:14:43,600 Speaker 1: Congratulations to bro. No, I appreciate it real. I appreciate 269 00:14:43,680 --> 00:14:46,440 Speaker 1: that one thing when when when you go through adversity 270 00:14:46,640 --> 00:14:49,560 Speaker 1: and I think just being transparent I mean, even when 271 00:14:49,600 --> 00:14:51,600 Speaker 1: you're not going to adversity, just life, sometimes you just 272 00:14:51,680 --> 00:14:54,080 Speaker 1: want to quit. It's just like I still have those days, 273 00:14:54,120 --> 00:14:56,120 Speaker 1: believe it or not. Like you, how you never just 274 00:14:56,240 --> 00:14:59,280 Speaker 1: gave up, like late down, you know, Like I was 275 00:14:59,360 --> 00:15:02,360 Speaker 1: telling the cat last week, like I never had the luxury. 276 00:15:03,360 --> 00:15:06,120 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like you grow up? How 277 00:15:06,200 --> 00:15:08,040 Speaker 1: we grow up? I give up. I'm going back to 278 00:15:08,120 --> 00:15:11,240 Speaker 1: the porch, you know what I'm saying. Like my uncle's 279 00:15:11,240 --> 00:15:13,480 Speaker 1: going in and out of prison like cats in the city, 280 00:15:13,880 --> 00:15:16,480 Speaker 1: you know him, like them, cats hustling like anybody in 281 00:15:16,560 --> 00:15:19,160 Speaker 1: the city. And so I just couldn't fathom me getting 282 00:15:19,200 --> 00:15:21,800 Speaker 1: to that point of like a lot of people helped me, 283 00:15:22,520 --> 00:15:24,000 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like that's why I lived 284 00:15:24,040 --> 00:15:25,640 Speaker 1: my life the way that I live in It wasn't 285 00:15:25,680 --> 00:15:28,360 Speaker 1: like I was this cat and I was claiming self made, 286 00:15:28,640 --> 00:15:32,440 Speaker 1: Like teachers helped me, cats in the community, Corn Paul Kirkwood, 287 00:15:32,520 --> 00:15:35,680 Speaker 1: Paul coaches helped me. My mom worked a double shift 288 00:15:35,720 --> 00:15:39,040 Speaker 1: at Wendy's sacrifice, my dad when he came into the picture, 289 00:15:39,280 --> 00:15:41,880 Speaker 1: Like a lot of cats helped shape me. And so 290 00:15:42,080 --> 00:15:44,640 Speaker 1: I just couldn't see me getting an injury and quitting 291 00:15:45,120 --> 00:15:47,160 Speaker 1: and going back home to Kirkwood and saying, all right, 292 00:15:47,600 --> 00:15:50,240 Speaker 1: good ride. I made it to that point. Now come 293 00:15:50,280 --> 00:15:52,400 Speaker 1: back to the hood. No, I gotta make good on 294 00:15:52,480 --> 00:15:55,040 Speaker 1: this promise. I gotta show him what I'm made out of. 295 00:15:55,200 --> 00:15:57,240 Speaker 1: I can't quit like and to be honest, I'm gonna 296 00:15:57,240 --> 00:16:00,280 Speaker 1: just be one hunt with you. Like I'm not built 297 00:16:00,360 --> 00:16:02,920 Speaker 1: like that. You know what I'm saying, Like I'm a fighter, 298 00:16:03,720 --> 00:16:05,640 Speaker 1: just how I am. If I walk out this building 299 00:16:05,760 --> 00:16:07,800 Speaker 1: right now and I'm trying to get in my truck 300 00:16:08,000 --> 00:16:10,480 Speaker 1: and my right on the hand para lit. If three 301 00:16:10,560 --> 00:16:13,600 Speaker 1: cats running up on me, I ain't running, you know 302 00:16:13,640 --> 00:16:16,440 Speaker 1: what I'm saying, Like I ain't no tough guy. You 303 00:16:16,480 --> 00:16:19,760 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But I ain't running. I wann't 304 00:16:19,840 --> 00:16:21,880 Speaker 1: raised like that. You know what I'm saying, Like I 305 00:16:21,920 --> 00:16:24,600 Speaker 1: wann't raised the fold like he know the cats I 306 00:16:24,720 --> 00:16:27,080 Speaker 1: come up, I wasn't built like that. Like they ain't 307 00:16:27,120 --> 00:16:29,320 Speaker 1: mold me like that. You know what I'm saying. The 308 00:16:29,400 --> 00:16:32,200 Speaker 1: floor I came from the house. I came from rats 309 00:16:32,240 --> 00:16:34,320 Speaker 1: and roaches when we got sent out of the house. 310 00:16:34,600 --> 00:16:37,120 Speaker 1: If my cousin got into a fight, all y'all better fighting. 311 00:16:37,560 --> 00:16:40,160 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, what are you when you 312 00:16:40,280 --> 00:16:42,920 Speaker 1: come home? It's on you know what I'm saying. And 313 00:16:42,960 --> 00:16:45,000 Speaker 1: so I wasn't raised like that, And so I looked 314 00:16:45,040 --> 00:16:47,920 Speaker 1: at my injury the same way, like I'm not stopping. 315 00:16:47,960 --> 00:16:50,320 Speaker 1: I'm not quitting because I got an injury. I gotta 316 00:16:50,320 --> 00:16:52,040 Speaker 1: figure out how to process it and I might got 317 00:16:52,120 --> 00:16:54,800 Speaker 1: to change my ain't But Quinn is stopping it ain't 318 00:16:54,840 --> 00:16:58,520 Speaker 1: never been an option for me. Yeah, really, so so 319 00:16:58,640 --> 00:17:00,600 Speaker 1: what about what about? What about something who might not 320 00:17:00,680 --> 00:17:02,880 Speaker 1: have that? Just we speak for general people out there 321 00:17:02,920 --> 00:17:06,000 Speaker 1: that might not have that same upbringing all that fire, 322 00:17:06,080 --> 00:17:08,000 Speaker 1: like they might not be as strong. Like there's people 323 00:17:08,080 --> 00:17:10,960 Speaker 1: that go to substances because they can't deal with the 324 00:17:11,000 --> 00:17:13,600 Speaker 1: realities of Yeah, because it's it's like like real ship, 325 00:17:13,840 --> 00:17:20,800 Speaker 1: like for you to be able to persevere through pretty 326 00:17:20,880 --> 00:17:24,120 Speaker 1: much your whole world being shattered and turned upside down 327 00:17:24,600 --> 00:17:28,159 Speaker 1: with no idea like where to go. That's like a 328 00:17:28,320 --> 00:17:30,520 Speaker 1: one in a million type thing with the type of 329 00:17:30,920 --> 00:17:32,440 Speaker 1: with what you had in front of you and like 330 00:17:32,640 --> 00:17:37,080 Speaker 1: having to go through that. So dealing with, like Scream said, 331 00:17:37,119 --> 00:17:39,680 Speaker 1: dealing with that type of adversity, most people would turn 332 00:17:39,720 --> 00:17:43,640 Speaker 1: the substance abuse or you know, turn even suicide or whatever. 333 00:17:43,760 --> 00:17:47,720 Speaker 1: So it's like, how did you I know, like you 334 00:17:47,800 --> 00:17:50,080 Speaker 1: had the strong upbringing and you're a fighter and that, 335 00:17:50,600 --> 00:17:53,480 Speaker 1: but it really took a lot of faith and a 336 00:17:53,560 --> 00:17:55,119 Speaker 1: lot more than that to be able to get you 337 00:17:55,200 --> 00:17:59,639 Speaker 1: through that. So what like how long process exactly what 338 00:18:00,080 --> 00:18:02,800 Speaker 1: to get to where you are now to be okay 339 00:18:02,920 --> 00:18:05,080 Speaker 1: with the fact that you'll never play football again and 340 00:18:05,160 --> 00:18:08,920 Speaker 1: that was your dream? Absolutely no, I hurt um man, 341 00:18:09,000 --> 00:18:13,080 Speaker 1: I cried. I was disappointed. I couldn't fathom it. I 342 00:18:13,160 --> 00:18:17,119 Speaker 1: didn't think it was real. I'll tell people all the time. 343 00:18:17,119 --> 00:18:19,440 Speaker 1: I went to sleep early for like a month, like 344 00:18:19,640 --> 00:18:21,840 Speaker 1: every day. You know what I'm saying, I'll just go 345 00:18:21,920 --> 00:18:24,520 Speaker 1: to sleep early, thinking, Man, I'm gonna wake up tomorrow 346 00:18:24,560 --> 00:18:26,399 Speaker 1: and I'll be able to move my arm again. You 347 00:18:26,640 --> 00:18:30,880 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like I can't be paralyzed. Yeah, 348 00:18:30,920 --> 00:18:32,800 Speaker 1: it was real. I've been working for this since I 349 00:18:32,920 --> 00:18:34,920 Speaker 1: was seven, and then you tell me one day it's 350 00:18:34,920 --> 00:18:36,560 Speaker 1: like y'all coming here and do what y'all do. Every 351 00:18:36,600 --> 00:18:39,480 Speaker 1: single day, something happened and the next day you can't 352 00:18:39,560 --> 00:18:41,720 Speaker 1: use your limb again that you've been using your whole 353 00:18:41,800 --> 00:18:44,640 Speaker 1: life without even thinking about it. And so I'm thinking 354 00:18:44,680 --> 00:18:47,440 Speaker 1: it can't be real. And in the process of that 355 00:18:47,640 --> 00:18:50,400 Speaker 1: that bringing me different options to do. When they say 356 00:18:50,400 --> 00:18:52,000 Speaker 1: to me, Ink, we want to get you to assist 357 00:18:52,080 --> 00:18:55,360 Speaker 1: it daily living, and I was like, what's that. They said, 358 00:18:55,359 --> 00:18:57,320 Speaker 1: If you can go to a grocery store and you 359 00:18:57,359 --> 00:19:00,240 Speaker 1: can hold a bag under your arm, that's a plus 360 00:19:00,320 --> 00:19:02,560 Speaker 1: for us. If you can grab a pencil and you 361 00:19:02,640 --> 00:19:05,320 Speaker 1: can write like a kid, that's a plus for us. 362 00:19:05,720 --> 00:19:07,680 Speaker 1: But your arm in your hand would probably never be 363 00:19:07,800 --> 00:19:10,840 Speaker 1: the same again. And I'm like, I can't, like I 364 00:19:10,960 --> 00:19:15,320 Speaker 1: sacrifice too much, right and this can't be real. I 365 00:19:15,400 --> 00:19:17,480 Speaker 1: go to sleep early again, wake up the next day, 366 00:19:17,760 --> 00:19:19,760 Speaker 1: touch my arm and at the time I couldn't feel 367 00:19:20,240 --> 00:19:22,840 Speaker 1: nothing on my up extremity on my right side, touch 368 00:19:22,960 --> 00:19:25,800 Speaker 1: my back, touched my chest and I couldn't feel it. 369 00:19:26,320 --> 00:19:28,919 Speaker 1: And I kept going throughout the process. And I always 370 00:19:28,960 --> 00:19:31,439 Speaker 1: say to people, like, when you got people in your 371 00:19:31,520 --> 00:19:34,360 Speaker 1: life that you love and you respect enough not to disrespect, 372 00:19:34,800 --> 00:19:37,159 Speaker 1: it's a powerful thing. And I had a lot of 373 00:19:37,240 --> 00:19:40,040 Speaker 1: people around me that I cherished and I respect it 374 00:19:40,160 --> 00:19:42,959 Speaker 1: like I'm a loyal person. And so I had teachers 375 00:19:43,000 --> 00:19:45,800 Speaker 1: at Corn Middle School that was in the emergency room. 376 00:19:46,240 --> 00:19:48,879 Speaker 1: I had my coaches that put me in organized sports. 377 00:19:48,920 --> 00:19:51,280 Speaker 1: When I was a kid that was in the emergency room, 378 00:19:51,359 --> 00:19:54,000 Speaker 1: I had my mother and as I'm looking at these 379 00:19:54,080 --> 00:19:57,359 Speaker 1: people and I'm talking to him, I start apologizing, because 380 00:19:57,400 --> 00:19:58,720 Speaker 1: you know how it is when you come from the 381 00:19:58,800 --> 00:20:01,000 Speaker 1: hood and you're looking like, man, I'm gonna make it 382 00:20:01,359 --> 00:20:04,359 Speaker 1: so I can help everybody. You feeling like you're putting 383 00:20:04,359 --> 00:20:06,480 Speaker 1: it on your back. You want to do it, and 384 00:20:06,560 --> 00:20:09,440 Speaker 1: so I'm like, man, I apologize, I'm sorry, and it 385 00:20:09,560 --> 00:20:11,200 Speaker 1: was like what you saw for it. I was like, 386 00:20:11,320 --> 00:20:13,560 Speaker 1: I can't make it, and I can't pay you all back. 387 00:20:14,200 --> 00:20:16,879 Speaker 1: Would kind of be disrespectful to them, that's how you. 388 00:20:17,960 --> 00:20:19,480 Speaker 1: And I was like, I can't pay you all back, 389 00:20:19,560 --> 00:20:22,200 Speaker 1: and they was like, man, you know it's nothing. It's like, 390 00:20:22,240 --> 00:20:23,760 Speaker 1: the only thing we want from you is for you 391 00:20:23,880 --> 00:20:26,320 Speaker 1: to do something with what you've been blessed with. Take 392 00:20:26,400 --> 00:20:29,520 Speaker 1: your situation, take your circumstance, go out into the world 393 00:20:29,560 --> 00:20:31,560 Speaker 1: and be a decent man. You get blessed with a family, 394 00:20:31,880 --> 00:20:33,920 Speaker 1: be a decent father, you get blessed with a wife, 395 00:20:34,320 --> 00:20:36,400 Speaker 1: be a decent husband. That's the only thing we want 396 00:20:36,440 --> 00:20:38,639 Speaker 1: from you. And it was like it freed me to 397 00:20:38,760 --> 00:20:41,680 Speaker 1: now focus on the process because you try to understand 398 00:20:41,760 --> 00:20:44,040 Speaker 1: it right. And I say to people all the time, 399 00:20:44,560 --> 00:20:46,920 Speaker 1: it's natural if something happens to you, donna want to 400 00:20:46,960 --> 00:20:49,200 Speaker 1: know why, Like why me? Why did this have to 401 00:20:49,280 --> 00:20:52,000 Speaker 1: happen to me? You get a paralyzed right on right hand. 402 00:20:52,080 --> 00:20:54,600 Speaker 1: You want to understand it. And I told people when 403 00:20:54,760 --> 00:20:57,520 Speaker 1: when they said that to me, I went from the mindsetting, 404 00:20:57,520 --> 00:21:00,600 Speaker 1: the perspective of I was no longer trying to understand 405 00:21:00,680 --> 00:21:02,960 Speaker 1: it and trying to survive it. Now I wanted to 406 00:21:03,119 --> 00:21:05,639 Speaker 1: use it right. And you take that same energy when 407 00:21:05,640 --> 00:21:07,639 Speaker 1: you're focusing on something and you want to understand it 408 00:21:07,880 --> 00:21:10,000 Speaker 1: and you're trying to survive it, take that same energy, 409 00:21:10,280 --> 00:21:12,600 Speaker 1: put perspective behind it, and go out and try to 410 00:21:12,720 --> 00:21:15,200 Speaker 1: use your situations, in your circumstances to add value to 411 00:21:15,240 --> 00:21:17,480 Speaker 1: the world. And so that's all I tried to do 412 00:21:17,760 --> 00:21:21,280 Speaker 1: for two years. For two years. So you've been with 413 00:21:21,359 --> 00:21:27,160 Speaker 1: your wife, hollow Man, we've been rocking since fifth grade. Kid. 414 00:21:27,320 --> 00:21:29,399 Speaker 1: She grew up in Kirkwood two blocks away from me. 415 00:21:30,320 --> 00:21:36,360 Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, you say, y'all going to your temp yr anniversary, Yeah, yeah, man. 416 00:21:36,560 --> 00:21:39,960 Speaker 1: And she's been a blessing, probably the best thing that's 417 00:21:40,000 --> 00:21:42,600 Speaker 1: ever happened to me, her and my children, you know, 418 00:21:42,720 --> 00:21:45,800 Speaker 1: outside of my injury, you know, because it's a powerful thing. 419 00:21:46,359 --> 00:21:48,639 Speaker 1: And that's how I got in to speaking, to be honest, 420 00:21:49,040 --> 00:21:52,200 Speaker 1: you know, because she she co signed it. Because after 421 00:21:52,320 --> 00:21:55,639 Speaker 1: my injury, I moved back to Atlanta and she called me. 422 00:21:55,680 --> 00:21:59,160 Speaker 1: I was coaching and she called me, and I want 423 00:21:59,200 --> 00:22:02,600 Speaker 1: to story. She called me and I was a graduate 424 00:22:02,640 --> 00:22:05,160 Speaker 1: assistant because I thought I was gonna be a defensive 425 00:22:05,200 --> 00:22:08,080 Speaker 1: backs college coach, and I was like, man, I got injured. 426 00:22:08,080 --> 00:22:10,680 Speaker 1: I can't play our coach And she called me one 427 00:22:10,720 --> 00:22:13,840 Speaker 1: day and she was like, I'm pregnant, and you know, 428 00:22:14,240 --> 00:22:16,240 Speaker 1: I'm I'm like, how that that happened? You know what 429 00:22:16,280 --> 00:22:19,119 Speaker 1: I'm saying. I'm been shocked. I'm like, you pregnant, I'm 430 00:22:19,200 --> 00:22:21,840 Speaker 1: a g a. I'm still in college almost, I'm making 431 00:22:22,280 --> 00:22:24,600 Speaker 1: five hundred dollars a month. I'm like, how that happen? 432 00:22:24,960 --> 00:22:26,840 Speaker 1: She's like, you know how I happened? You know what 433 00:22:26,880 --> 00:22:30,920 Speaker 1: I'm saying. I go in the coach office and I'm like, man, coach, 434 00:22:30,960 --> 00:22:33,040 Speaker 1: I want to move back to Atlanta. I need to 435 00:22:33,119 --> 00:22:35,840 Speaker 1: take care of my family. And he was like, go forward. 436 00:22:36,680 --> 00:22:39,080 Speaker 1: And when I played to move back, I called somebody 437 00:22:39,160 --> 00:22:42,840 Speaker 1: at Kirkwood Record at Bessie Branham Park. I said, hey, man, 438 00:22:42,960 --> 00:22:44,639 Speaker 1: I need to come back. I want to work at 439 00:22:44,680 --> 00:22:47,000 Speaker 1: the park. I want to take care of my family. 440 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:49,280 Speaker 1: I just want to create leadership curriculum for the kids 441 00:22:49,840 --> 00:22:51,680 Speaker 1: at Kirkwood Park. And it was like, back, come on, 442 00:22:51,800 --> 00:22:55,000 Speaker 1: you got a job. Packed up. I left. I get there. 443 00:22:55,920 --> 00:22:58,760 Speaker 1: Cat that I was talking to supposedly wasn't there. I 444 00:22:58,880 --> 00:23:02,040 Speaker 1: take my resume in all fish. They say you overqualified. 445 00:23:02,640 --> 00:23:04,399 Speaker 1: I was like, man, what's that? I just want to 446 00:23:04,440 --> 00:23:07,520 Speaker 1: work with it right. But at the time, I'm living 447 00:23:07,560 --> 00:23:10,920 Speaker 1: in my wife's grandmother's home, you know, two back room home. 448 00:23:11,119 --> 00:23:13,520 Speaker 1: She praked me with our daughter, Jada. She ended up 449 00:23:13,560 --> 00:23:15,959 Speaker 1: having Jada. I'm there. The only thing I got at 450 00:23:16,000 --> 00:23:19,320 Speaker 1: the time was my book that I had wrote. And 451 00:23:19,440 --> 00:23:21,440 Speaker 1: I'm getting up every day trying to find a job. 452 00:23:21,480 --> 00:23:23,800 Speaker 1: I wasn't speaking then. I was just trying to work. 453 00:23:23,880 --> 00:23:26,320 Speaker 1: I wanted to put some money in my pocket, take 454 00:23:26,359 --> 00:23:29,159 Speaker 1: care of my family. My wife was teaching and Stone Mountain. 455 00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:31,680 Speaker 1: Every morning, She'll get up, get dressed, go to work. 456 00:23:31,760 --> 00:23:34,080 Speaker 1: I'll get up, get dressed, go look for a job. 457 00:23:34,240 --> 00:23:36,560 Speaker 1: Everywhere I go there, tell me something like I can't 458 00:23:36,600 --> 00:23:38,760 Speaker 1: do it. And I knew part of it was probably 459 00:23:38,800 --> 00:23:41,760 Speaker 1: he got a paralyze on. I ain't tripping, I ain't 460 00:23:41,840 --> 00:23:44,199 Speaker 1: knocking it. It is what it is. And so one 461 00:23:44,280 --> 00:23:46,680 Speaker 1: morning I got up, I looked at my wife. I 462 00:23:46,760 --> 00:23:50,160 Speaker 1: said to her, I said, babe, my mom, I'm about 463 00:23:50,200 --> 00:23:53,080 Speaker 1: to go meet Oprah. I'm about to give open the book. 464 00:23:54,160 --> 00:23:57,400 Speaker 1: And my wife said, you know Oprah. I was like nah. 465 00:23:58,160 --> 00:24:00,879 Speaker 1: She's like, you know somebody that worked. We're open. I 466 00:24:01,080 --> 00:24:05,600 Speaker 1: was like nah, but you're talking about it's going to 467 00:24:05,680 --> 00:24:07,960 Speaker 1: me open. I was like, I'm gonna take the book. 468 00:24:08,119 --> 00:24:10,600 Speaker 1: This was before a show ended. And she was like, 469 00:24:10,720 --> 00:24:12,600 Speaker 1: you you really believe you can do it. I was 470 00:24:12,680 --> 00:24:15,280 Speaker 1: like yeah. She was like, go for it. At the time, 471 00:24:15,320 --> 00:24:17,920 Speaker 1: I probably had two hundred dollars to my name. I 472 00:24:18,040 --> 00:24:21,240 Speaker 1: was in my truck. I take off driving to Chicago. 473 00:24:21,640 --> 00:24:24,920 Speaker 1: I get to Chattanooga. I called my buddy, Jeff and Knoxville. 474 00:24:24,960 --> 00:24:27,440 Speaker 1: He's an attorney. He picked up. I said, Jeff, you 475 00:24:27,480 --> 00:24:29,760 Speaker 1: ain't gonna believe it. He said, what you got ink? 476 00:24:29,840 --> 00:24:32,120 Speaker 1: I said, Man, I'm on the way to Chicago. I'm 477 00:24:32,119 --> 00:24:34,920 Speaker 1: about to take open the book. Jeff was like, ain't 478 00:24:34,960 --> 00:24:40,040 Speaker 1: you know open like nah. He's like, I know what 479 00:24:40,160 --> 00:24:42,000 Speaker 1: this is. He said, call me, man, when you get 480 00:24:42,040 --> 00:24:45,520 Speaker 1: the Knoxville. I know you're an ambitious person. Chances of 481 00:24:45,640 --> 00:24:48,000 Speaker 1: this happening slim to none. He said, Man, I don't 482 00:24:48,000 --> 00:24:50,720 Speaker 1: want you to be disappointed when it doesn't happen. I 483 00:24:50,840 --> 00:24:52,560 Speaker 1: called him. When I get the Knox he pick up. 484 00:24:52,600 --> 00:24:55,040 Speaker 1: He said, you're still going on't you? I said yeah. 485 00:24:55,080 --> 00:24:56,480 Speaker 1: He said, man, I'm gonna ride with you up to 486 00:24:56,560 --> 00:24:58,919 Speaker 1: the Shy. I don't want you to be too disappointed. 487 00:24:59,040 --> 00:25:01,440 Speaker 1: We get there at night, Jeff gets us a room. 488 00:25:01,560 --> 00:25:03,560 Speaker 1: We get up the next morning. I go to the 489 00:25:03,640 --> 00:25:05,920 Speaker 1: front desk. I say to him, man, can you give 490 00:25:05,960 --> 00:25:08,400 Speaker 1: me the best possible directions to get the hard bow. 491 00:25:08,760 --> 00:25:11,119 Speaker 1: They're giving me the directions. Jeff is in the corner. 492 00:25:11,840 --> 00:25:14,120 Speaker 1: I go to walk out the door. Jeff said, ain't wait. 493 00:25:15,040 --> 00:25:17,840 Speaker 1: He's said, IMNA, get us a taxi. Get us a taxi. 494 00:25:17,920 --> 00:25:20,119 Speaker 1: We pull up. It's when the last shows was happening, 495 00:25:20,320 --> 00:25:23,399 Speaker 1: so it's people everywhere. Right, I get out, He said, Man, 496 00:25:23,400 --> 00:25:25,720 Speaker 1: I'm gonna go to this coffee shop. I try to 497 00:25:25,840 --> 00:25:28,960 Speaker 1: run into every door that I could see somebody coming 498 00:25:29,000 --> 00:25:32,480 Speaker 1: out of. I see right, I run up in man, 499 00:25:32,520 --> 00:25:34,280 Speaker 1: I drove up from Atlanta. I just want to get 500 00:25:34,320 --> 00:25:36,520 Speaker 1: open my book. It was I get out of here. 501 00:25:36,560 --> 00:25:39,240 Speaker 1: Man won't do that. I was like, man, y'all real. 502 00:25:39,320 --> 00:25:43,119 Speaker 1: I thought, y'all be getting way cars and TV. I 503 00:25:43,240 --> 00:25:49,200 Speaker 1: got y'all give me the third. I gotta bug right, 504 00:25:50,080 --> 00:25:52,320 Speaker 1: and I got so discouraged. Right, I went around the 505 00:25:52,400 --> 00:25:56,080 Speaker 1: back of the building. I sit down. I'm like, man, 506 00:25:56,200 --> 00:25:58,359 Speaker 1: my wife gonna go off. And I get back to 507 00:25:58,440 --> 00:26:01,359 Speaker 1: the city and everybody had made it in. And I 508 00:26:01,440 --> 00:26:03,920 Speaker 1: get up and I'm walking down the sidewalk. And it 509 00:26:04,040 --> 00:26:06,840 Speaker 1: looked like it was a homeless gentleman right sitting on 510 00:26:06,920 --> 00:26:09,600 Speaker 1: the curb. I sit down beside my man. I said, 511 00:26:09,600 --> 00:26:12,480 Speaker 1: how you doing? My man said, I'm great, he said 512 00:26:12,520 --> 00:26:15,960 Speaker 1: how are you. I'm like, I've seen better days. The 513 00:26:16,040 --> 00:26:19,680 Speaker 1: irony of the situation, right, I look up, I kid, 514 00:26:19,760 --> 00:26:23,399 Speaker 1: you not coming down the sidewalk. It's open her security guard. 515 00:26:24,359 --> 00:26:28,719 Speaker 1: I get up. I'm like, man, I'm gonna take my shot, right, 516 00:26:29,119 --> 00:26:31,639 Speaker 1: I'm taking my man gonna come up and move me 517 00:26:31,680 --> 00:26:34,280 Speaker 1: out of the way. So I started walking toward her. 518 00:26:34,359 --> 00:26:37,720 Speaker 1: She walking towards me, and she gets right in front 519 00:26:37,760 --> 00:26:41,160 Speaker 1: of me. I said, hey, I'm Inkie. Johnson. I drove 520 00:26:41,240 --> 00:26:43,639 Speaker 1: up from Atlanta. I just wanted to give you my book. 521 00:26:44,280 --> 00:26:46,800 Speaker 1: She grabs the book, so, oh, that's nice. She gives 522 00:26:46,840 --> 00:26:49,800 Speaker 1: it to my man. She grabs my soup. She shakes 523 00:26:49,880 --> 00:26:52,200 Speaker 1: it right, and I had on like a two ex 524 00:26:52,280 --> 00:26:54,800 Speaker 1: sup right, And she said it's a nice suit. I 525 00:26:54,920 --> 00:26:57,080 Speaker 1: think you're trying to see if I had some minute, right, 526 00:26:57,600 --> 00:26:59,359 Speaker 1: I said, thank you. I said, can I take a 527 00:26:59,400 --> 00:27:02,240 Speaker 1: picture with you? He said, sure, we take a picture. 528 00:27:02,320 --> 00:27:03,880 Speaker 1: She said, I gotta get in and do my show. 529 00:27:04,600 --> 00:27:06,639 Speaker 1: I said, no problem. I went to walk off for 530 00:27:06,760 --> 00:27:09,280 Speaker 1: security guard that he closed the door. He said, hey, 531 00:27:09,320 --> 00:27:11,000 Speaker 1: little man, he said, come in, man, I want to 532 00:27:11,040 --> 00:27:13,560 Speaker 1: tell you something. Go over to him. He said, UM, 533 00:27:14,040 --> 00:27:16,119 Speaker 1: I'm not telling you anything that's gonna come of this. 534 00:27:16,960 --> 00:27:19,199 Speaker 1: He said, I just want you to know what just happened. 535 00:27:19,840 --> 00:27:22,680 Speaker 1: It never happens, he said. Usually she'll tell me go 536 00:27:22,840 --> 00:27:25,520 Speaker 1: clear him out, let him going about their business, or 537 00:27:25,600 --> 00:27:27,800 Speaker 1: she'll take it and she'll probably never get the product. 538 00:27:28,160 --> 00:27:29,520 Speaker 1: He said, I'm not saying you're gonna be on a 539 00:27:29,560 --> 00:27:32,280 Speaker 1: book club show, none of that. I just want you 540 00:27:32,359 --> 00:27:35,359 Speaker 1: to know what just happened. Never happens. I said, appreciate it. 541 00:27:35,800 --> 00:27:39,719 Speaker 1: I send a picture home, family friends. Everybody responds, You're 542 00:27:39,720 --> 00:27:43,560 Speaker 1: gonna be on the show, ain't I was like, nah, 543 00:27:43,640 --> 00:27:46,320 Speaker 1: I don't know, I don't care. Is that what your man? 544 00:27:46,359 --> 00:27:47,720 Speaker 1: You don't know, you don't care You're gonna be on 545 00:27:47,800 --> 00:27:50,520 Speaker 1: the book Club. I was like, that moment wasn't about 546 00:27:50,600 --> 00:27:53,000 Speaker 1: that for me. They said, well, what was it about? 547 00:27:53,800 --> 00:27:56,760 Speaker 1: I said, man, I needed to know that God was 548 00:27:56,800 --> 00:27:59,800 Speaker 1: still walking with me. You know what I'm saying. That's 549 00:27:59,840 --> 00:28:01,760 Speaker 1: all I needed to know. I just I just was 550 00:28:01,800 --> 00:28:03,600 Speaker 1: trying to figure out if God was still with that 551 00:28:03,760 --> 00:28:06,600 Speaker 1: kid that grew up in Kirkwood, made it to college, 552 00:28:06,960 --> 00:28:09,400 Speaker 1: got eight games away from becoming a potential first round 553 00:28:09,480 --> 00:28:12,960 Speaker 1: draft pick, and then my life got shattered, right, And 554 00:28:13,080 --> 00:28:16,720 Speaker 1: that was God showing me like, now, bro, I got you. Like, 555 00:28:16,840 --> 00:28:19,920 Speaker 1: the moment wasn't even about Oprah. The moment wasn't even 556 00:28:19,920 --> 00:28:22,080 Speaker 1: about the trip to chicak That was a faith journey 557 00:28:22,119 --> 00:28:24,560 Speaker 1: for me. That was a faith walk for me. And 558 00:28:24,640 --> 00:28:27,520 Speaker 1: so when I made the decision to speak and say, man, 559 00:28:27,560 --> 00:28:29,680 Speaker 1: I'm gonna be a speaker. I never called myself a 560 00:28:29,760 --> 00:28:32,960 Speaker 1: motivation of speaker. The world labeled me that, right, But 561 00:28:33,040 --> 00:28:35,520 Speaker 1: when I made the decision to do it, I just said, Bro, 562 00:28:35,600 --> 00:28:38,160 Speaker 1: I want to be obedient right and do what I 563 00:28:38,240 --> 00:28:40,160 Speaker 1: feel the creators called me to do with my life. 564 00:28:40,560 --> 00:28:43,040 Speaker 1: And that's how it started. What would you say to 565 00:28:43,160 --> 00:28:46,120 Speaker 1: somebody who and this is just a real question, like 566 00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:48,440 Speaker 1: what would you say to somebody who don't believe in 567 00:28:48,520 --> 00:28:50,600 Speaker 1: God or high power? What would you say to one 568 00:28:50,640 --> 00:28:52,640 Speaker 1: of my best friends? Don't one of my best friends 569 00:28:52,680 --> 00:28:55,000 Speaker 1: are atheist? You know what I'm saying. And I don't 570 00:28:55,040 --> 00:28:57,440 Speaker 1: love him any less. I still got mad love for him, 571 00:28:57,880 --> 00:28:59,280 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying. And I let him work 572 00:28:59,320 --> 00:29:02,400 Speaker 1: through his standing of what the Creator means to him. 573 00:29:02,480 --> 00:29:05,120 Speaker 1: But like I always tell him, like, man, I ain't 574 00:29:05,120 --> 00:29:08,479 Speaker 1: trying to preach to you, Like you believe what you believe, right, 575 00:29:08,600 --> 00:29:12,160 Speaker 1: If it's allies, if it's Catholicism, right, it's all good. 576 00:29:12,640 --> 00:29:14,640 Speaker 1: But I always say to him, I would rather live 577 00:29:14,760 --> 00:29:16,960 Speaker 1: my life as if it's a God, and if I 578 00:29:17,040 --> 00:29:19,440 Speaker 1: pass away figure out that it's not, then to live 579 00:29:19,560 --> 00:29:21,320 Speaker 1: my life as if it's not a god. And if 580 00:29:21,360 --> 00:29:24,040 Speaker 1: I pass away and figure out there is right. But 581 00:29:24,160 --> 00:29:26,360 Speaker 1: I don't love him any less, you know what I'm saying, 582 00:29:26,360 --> 00:29:28,280 Speaker 1: Because the same grace my man need, I need the 583 00:29:28,360 --> 00:29:30,360 Speaker 1: same level of grace. You know what I'm saying. We 584 00:29:30,480 --> 00:29:33,160 Speaker 1: fall short every single day. And so, like I said, 585 00:29:33,160 --> 00:29:35,280 Speaker 1: I ain't knocking him. You find your belief how you 586 00:29:35,440 --> 00:29:37,040 Speaker 1: find it, but I'm gonna be here to show you 587 00:29:37,160 --> 00:29:41,840 Speaker 1: love and support alone that journey. Yeah, what do you 588 00:29:41,880 --> 00:29:44,840 Speaker 1: think is the foundation of um? A lot of the 589 00:29:44,920 --> 00:29:47,640 Speaker 1: hate in the world, like racism, I mean black or 590 00:29:47,720 --> 00:29:50,080 Speaker 1: black crime or whatever it is. There's a lot of hate. 591 00:29:50,080 --> 00:29:51,480 Speaker 1: There's a lot of different things going on in the 592 00:29:51,520 --> 00:29:53,560 Speaker 1: world as we speak. What do you think it's the 593 00:29:53,600 --> 00:29:56,040 Speaker 1: foundation for that? And what would you say to somebody 594 00:29:56,160 --> 00:29:59,040 Speaker 1: is the cure for it? I would say understanding and 595 00:29:59,320 --> 00:30:04,440 Speaker 1: u in miscommunication, right, the ability to It's hard for cats, 596 00:30:04,520 --> 00:30:08,720 Speaker 1: I feel like sometimes to put themselves in other people's shoes, right, 597 00:30:08,760 --> 00:30:11,600 Speaker 1: And even if you would never experience what that person experience, 598 00:30:11,960 --> 00:30:14,240 Speaker 1: it's hard for people to put themselves in somebody else's 599 00:30:14,320 --> 00:30:16,320 Speaker 1: shoes and just try to see through the lens of 600 00:30:16,360 --> 00:30:18,760 Speaker 1: which they see it through. Because it's hard for a 601 00:30:18,880 --> 00:30:21,800 Speaker 1: cat sometimes if things are going well, to look at 602 00:30:21,840 --> 00:30:24,480 Speaker 1: the other side of the corn. Right, it's hard for 603 00:30:24,560 --> 00:30:25,920 Speaker 1: a cat. If a cat that made it to a 604 00:30:26,040 --> 00:30:28,720 Speaker 1: certain spot, they got the house, they got the call, 605 00:30:29,120 --> 00:30:31,280 Speaker 1: they got the money, and now you're trying to tell 606 00:30:31,320 --> 00:30:33,520 Speaker 1: them to look at something with a different perspective, and 607 00:30:33,560 --> 00:30:35,560 Speaker 1: they feel as if they struggled to get there, and 608 00:30:35,640 --> 00:30:38,240 Speaker 1: it might be valid. You might work, you might have 609 00:30:38,320 --> 00:30:41,320 Speaker 1: handled your business. I get it. I salute you. Right. 610 00:30:41,440 --> 00:30:44,040 Speaker 1: It's hard for cats sometimes to stop and look at 611 00:30:44,120 --> 00:30:47,680 Speaker 1: people's situations and circumstances through the lens of other people. 612 00:30:47,760 --> 00:30:50,640 Speaker 1: But also, I think the cure to it is love. Man, 613 00:30:51,400 --> 00:30:53,920 Speaker 1: It's unconditional love. You know what I'm saying. It's showing 614 00:30:53,960 --> 00:30:57,920 Speaker 1: people love regardless of situation, regardless of skin color, regardless 615 00:30:57,960 --> 00:31:00,360 Speaker 1: of what's going on. Like me getting an organized sports 616 00:31:00,440 --> 00:31:03,040 Speaker 1: A white man paid for that. You know what I'm saying. 617 00:31:03,240 --> 00:31:05,880 Speaker 1: Like I know my man. My man hadn't seen me play. 618 00:31:06,240 --> 00:31:08,719 Speaker 1: He was coming down the street. He helped Patrick pass 619 00:31:09,280 --> 00:31:11,280 Speaker 1: a bunch of cats. You know what I'm saying. When 620 00:31:11,320 --> 00:31:13,320 Speaker 1: my man helped me, my man never came back to 621 00:31:13,440 --> 00:31:16,600 Speaker 1: my mom and said, you owed me for putting inking sports. 622 00:31:16,760 --> 00:31:18,960 Speaker 1: He never came back to me and said you owe 623 00:31:19,040 --> 00:31:21,200 Speaker 1: me at some point, like my man came out of 624 00:31:21,280 --> 00:31:23,880 Speaker 1: his pocket paid for me and my three younger cousins 625 00:31:23,920 --> 00:31:25,600 Speaker 1: to play ball, and in my family, the only people 626 00:31:25,640 --> 00:31:28,440 Speaker 1: that went to college was me and my three younger cousins, 627 00:31:29,040 --> 00:31:31,479 Speaker 1: and so I looked at people different from rep Now 628 00:31:31,520 --> 00:31:35,080 Speaker 1: I understand it's all type of people out there, whether 629 00:31:35,200 --> 00:31:37,600 Speaker 1: regardless of race and regardless of what they do. And 630 00:31:37,760 --> 00:31:40,880 Speaker 1: that's my constant challenge as a father. You know what 631 00:31:40,920 --> 00:31:42,959 Speaker 1: I'm saying with my children. I got nine year old son, 632 00:31:43,080 --> 00:31:45,480 Speaker 1: ten year old daughter, and so when something happens with 633 00:31:45,600 --> 00:31:48,320 Speaker 1: the police in the world and they kill a black person, 634 00:31:48,840 --> 00:31:50,560 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying that my children have had 635 00:31:50,720 --> 00:31:53,640 Speaker 1: encounters with police officers. You know what I'm saying that 636 00:31:53,680 --> 00:31:56,160 Speaker 1: they're bringing a little K nine to their school at 637 00:31:56,240 --> 00:31:59,560 Speaker 1: lunchtime and they know my man, Mr Henry or whatever, 638 00:31:59,640 --> 00:32:01,560 Speaker 1: and then they see someone on television or they see 639 00:32:01,600 --> 00:32:04,360 Speaker 1: someone on the internet. They say, hey, polices are this way, 640 00:32:04,600 --> 00:32:06,640 Speaker 1: and then they come and ask their father. And I 641 00:32:06,680 --> 00:32:10,120 Speaker 1: gotta break that down when at the same time, my granddaddy, 642 00:32:10,120 --> 00:32:12,520 Speaker 1: who you calling, dad, I haven't seeing polices When I 643 00:32:12,600 --> 00:32:15,160 Speaker 1: was a kid, kick out front door in and grabbed 644 00:32:15,200 --> 00:32:17,560 Speaker 1: my grandfather out of his wheelchair, slamming on his face 645 00:32:17,800 --> 00:32:19,600 Speaker 1: and plant dope in the house. But you know what 646 00:32:19,640 --> 00:32:21,880 Speaker 1: I'm saying, I didn't see that side of life, and 647 00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:25,200 Speaker 1: so trying to balance that out with my children, and 648 00:32:25,320 --> 00:32:27,920 Speaker 1: also trying to balance that out with my perspective. Like, 649 00:32:28,000 --> 00:32:31,880 Speaker 1: come in the industry, and it's predominantly white old men. 650 00:32:32,600 --> 00:32:36,440 Speaker 1: It's predominantly white speaking. Right, every room I walk in, 651 00:32:37,160 --> 00:32:39,920 Speaker 1: almost the whole crowd is almost white. Right when I 652 00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:43,080 Speaker 1: do corporate events, and I walk in and I got 653 00:32:43,160 --> 00:32:44,920 Speaker 1: on a college shirt. You know what I'm saying, I'm 654 00:32:44,960 --> 00:32:47,080 Speaker 1: not dressed in a suit. I got on jeans and 655 00:32:47,160 --> 00:32:49,040 Speaker 1: a college shirt. And so if I'm going in to 656 00:32:49,040 --> 00:32:52,720 Speaker 1: speak to a hundred and fifty ensuring agents, probably a 657 00:32:52,840 --> 00:32:56,840 Speaker 1: hundred and forty five people white, and they're older than 658 00:32:56,960 --> 00:32:59,400 Speaker 1: me and so off rep they're looking at me like 659 00:32:59,520 --> 00:33:03,000 Speaker 1: what my man ain't got them say to me, like, 660 00:33:03,120 --> 00:33:04,920 Speaker 1: my man, my son's age, What do you got to 661 00:33:05,280 --> 00:33:09,760 Speaker 1: tell us? And I'm backstage taking it debt serious. You 662 00:33:09,840 --> 00:33:11,719 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. I'm backstage taking it debt sit. 663 00:33:11,880 --> 00:33:14,200 Speaker 1: Not because I want to be the best order to 664 00:33:14,280 --> 00:33:17,120 Speaker 1: the best communicator in the world. No, I'm taking it 665 00:33:17,240 --> 00:33:19,720 Speaker 1: serious because I know one day it might be another 666 00:33:19,800 --> 00:33:22,360 Speaker 1: young cat coming up and he's gonna need that opportunity, 667 00:33:22,400 --> 00:33:24,560 Speaker 1: and I gotta steward that right. You know what I'm saying. 668 00:33:24,600 --> 00:33:26,960 Speaker 1: He's gonna need that opportunity, and I gotta go about 669 00:33:27,000 --> 00:33:28,960 Speaker 1: it in the right way. It's a bigger purpose to it. 670 00:33:29,360 --> 00:33:30,840 Speaker 1: And so when I get the rock and I get 671 00:33:30,880 --> 00:33:32,800 Speaker 1: to play, I want to steward it right and do 672 00:33:33,000 --> 00:33:35,320 Speaker 1: right by it. So when the next cat coming the door, 673 00:33:35,600 --> 00:33:38,160 Speaker 1: they don't look at him as just a young African American, 674 00:33:38,200 --> 00:33:40,640 Speaker 1: young black man. They're like, hey, that cat ink that 675 00:33:40,720 --> 00:33:42,719 Speaker 1: we brought in here, nobody has done it the way 676 00:33:42,760 --> 00:33:45,400 Speaker 1: he did it. Let's get this cat of opportunity. And 677 00:33:45,520 --> 00:33:48,560 Speaker 1: so looking at things with the right perspective and constantly 678 00:33:48,560 --> 00:33:51,080 Speaker 1: trying to balance it out. But also man having a 679 00:33:51,160 --> 00:33:53,400 Speaker 1: level of grace and love for cats when they slipped, 680 00:33:53,720 --> 00:33:56,600 Speaker 1: because we all do. And I think sometimes cats get 681 00:33:56,680 --> 00:33:59,080 Speaker 1: on that high horse and they forget that, you know, 682 00:33:59,240 --> 00:34:02,280 Speaker 1: And so yeah, I think I think that's it. Yeah, 683 00:34:02,880 --> 00:34:05,760 Speaker 1: So with it, so with it being like with your 684 00:34:05,800 --> 00:34:09,200 Speaker 1: new path, you being the one that's always motivational, always 685 00:34:09,280 --> 00:34:13,399 Speaker 1: uplifting everybody, always trying to be positive. When you get 686 00:34:13,480 --> 00:34:17,520 Speaker 1: down and when you don't really feel like yourself or 687 00:34:17,560 --> 00:34:20,480 Speaker 1: you don't really feel like being positive, who do you 688 00:34:20,560 --> 00:34:22,920 Speaker 1: go to to lift you back? Up and put you 689 00:34:23,000 --> 00:34:26,120 Speaker 1: back in the right mind space. Absolutely, I got I 690 00:34:26,239 --> 00:34:29,680 Speaker 1: got people I talked to in every aspect of my life. 691 00:34:30,239 --> 00:34:32,520 Speaker 1: And so I got somebody I talked to for marriage, 692 00:34:33,600 --> 00:34:36,800 Speaker 1: I got somebody I talked to for fatherhood, got somebody 693 00:34:36,840 --> 00:34:40,080 Speaker 1: I talked to and speaking. And then I talked, you know, 694 00:34:40,239 --> 00:34:43,080 Speaker 1: to my uncle's in prison. You know, I talked to 695 00:34:43,160 --> 00:34:45,880 Speaker 1: my uncle's das. I still got uncles and cousins in 696 00:34:45,920 --> 00:34:48,719 Speaker 1: the streets. You know that's trying to do what they do. 697 00:34:48,880 --> 00:34:50,800 Speaker 1: I talked to my mother, I talked to my wife, 698 00:34:51,400 --> 00:34:54,880 Speaker 1: I talked to my children. And I used that as 699 00:34:54,960 --> 00:34:58,359 Speaker 1: sources of inspiration, sources of motivation. And I think cats 700 00:34:58,440 --> 00:35:01,239 Speaker 1: think sometimes like if they see me speak that, like 701 00:35:01,480 --> 00:35:04,319 Speaker 1: every day, happy, go lucky. You know what I'm saying 702 00:35:04,440 --> 00:35:09,960 Speaker 1: every day, like, oh be part I come from it. 703 00:35:12,560 --> 00:35:15,319 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I come from it. And uh, 704 00:35:15,760 --> 00:35:19,080 Speaker 1: but I'm willing to fight for it. And what I 705 00:35:19,160 --> 00:35:21,600 Speaker 1: mean by that is the mindset that I want to acquire. 706 00:35:21,960 --> 00:35:24,000 Speaker 1: I'm willing to fight for my happiness. I'm willing to 707 00:35:24,080 --> 00:35:26,640 Speaker 1: fight for my peace. I'm willing to fight for the father, 708 00:35:26,840 --> 00:35:29,520 Speaker 1: the husband, and the man that I'm striving to become. 709 00:35:30,000 --> 00:35:32,920 Speaker 1: And I think it's important to have accountability in your 710 00:35:33,000 --> 00:35:35,040 Speaker 1: life and people that don't just tell you what you 711 00:35:35,120 --> 00:35:37,000 Speaker 1: want to hear, but people that tell you what you 712 00:35:37,080 --> 00:35:39,320 Speaker 1: need to hear. And I got people around me in 713 00:35:39,440 --> 00:35:42,320 Speaker 1: every aspect of my life that I remember when I 714 00:35:42,400 --> 00:35:45,400 Speaker 1: first got married. I'm young and married, you know, and 715 00:35:45,480 --> 00:35:48,040 Speaker 1: I'm I'm calling the dude that I talked to, the 716 00:35:48,200 --> 00:35:51,560 Speaker 1: mentor me about marriage, and I'm like, man, she ain't 717 00:35:51,600 --> 00:35:54,640 Speaker 1: doing this. She ain't doing that, man, she ain't doing 718 00:35:54,719 --> 00:35:56,560 Speaker 1: this the way I wanted to do it. She ain't 719 00:35:56,560 --> 00:35:58,040 Speaker 1: doing this the way I wanted to do And he 720 00:35:58,239 --> 00:36:01,960 Speaker 1: listened to me. When I got done, he said to me, like, man, 721 00:36:02,160 --> 00:36:04,320 Speaker 1: like God didn't bless you with your wife for you 722 00:36:04,440 --> 00:36:07,520 Speaker 1: to change your wife. Like you can't change your wife, 723 00:36:08,160 --> 00:36:10,960 Speaker 1: your position, your responsibilities, to love your wife and work 724 00:36:11,080 --> 00:36:13,440 Speaker 1: with your wife through whatever it is that you're trying 725 00:36:13,480 --> 00:36:15,600 Speaker 1: to get to. He said, I guarantee you what you 726 00:36:15,760 --> 00:36:17,480 Speaker 1: just told me. If I get on the phone with 727 00:36:17,560 --> 00:36:25,040 Speaker 1: your wife right now, she's gonna have being positive and speaking. 728 00:36:26,120 --> 00:36:28,360 Speaker 1: I'm tired of him talking to the kids, trying to 729 00:36:28,440 --> 00:36:30,920 Speaker 1: give him motivation, you know what I'm saying, Like she's 730 00:36:30,920 --> 00:36:34,320 Speaker 1: gonna be saying, and I had to respect it. But 731 00:36:34,480 --> 00:36:37,560 Speaker 1: also man, every single day, you know, just trying to 732 00:36:37,640 --> 00:36:39,960 Speaker 1: be a better man, like the quest for better that's 733 00:36:40,000 --> 00:36:42,640 Speaker 1: not perfect, but just trying to be a better man 734 00:36:42,840 --> 00:36:45,640 Speaker 1: because you know, I come from a place to where 735 00:36:45,680 --> 00:36:48,320 Speaker 1: we got our demons too. What's that one? What's that 736 00:36:48,440 --> 00:36:51,319 Speaker 1: one situation that you can recall to make you feel, 737 00:36:51,520 --> 00:36:54,200 Speaker 1: made you be like when you start speaking, made you 738 00:36:54,280 --> 00:36:57,719 Speaker 1: be like, Okay, this is what I'm doing for you 739 00:36:57,760 --> 00:36:59,239 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like that one person told you 740 00:36:59,320 --> 00:37:02,160 Speaker 1: their story, how you motivated them or help them get 741 00:37:02,280 --> 00:37:04,759 Speaker 1: through it? You know what I'm saying. You know what's 742 00:37:04,800 --> 00:37:06,759 Speaker 1: that you got the story? One of those storys? I 743 00:37:06,800 --> 00:37:09,359 Speaker 1: got a couple of them, but the first one would 744 00:37:09,360 --> 00:37:15,880 Speaker 1: be you know Eric Burry that that's from Atlanta, beast 745 00:37:16,000 --> 00:37:19,360 Speaker 1: Man and uh, Eric like a little brother to me. 746 00:37:20,080 --> 00:37:22,840 Speaker 1: And we was in West Town Maul and Knoxville. This 747 00:37:23,040 --> 00:37:26,360 Speaker 1: was years ago, and we were leaving at the signing 748 00:37:26,440 --> 00:37:28,640 Speaker 1: that EB had went to this car and I was 749 00:37:28,680 --> 00:37:31,040 Speaker 1: walking to mind and a man was running over to 750 00:37:31,160 --> 00:37:34,320 Speaker 1: me and my man was like, I'm talking about he 751 00:37:34,480 --> 00:37:37,640 Speaker 1: was running and so I've seen him coming and I'm 752 00:37:37,680 --> 00:37:40,839 Speaker 1: in the parking lot, and I'm like, and I don't 753 00:37:40,880 --> 00:37:43,160 Speaker 1: know what my man about to try to do, like 754 00:37:43,280 --> 00:37:45,480 Speaker 1: I might need to create some space with my man, 755 00:37:46,080 --> 00:37:48,080 Speaker 1: Like my man might be trying to get me, like 756 00:37:48,160 --> 00:37:49,959 Speaker 1: we're in the parking lot, you know what I'm saying. 757 00:37:50,440 --> 00:37:52,279 Speaker 1: And he stopped a couple of feet away from me, 758 00:37:53,000 --> 00:37:55,640 Speaker 1: and I could see he was crying, and he said 759 00:37:55,680 --> 00:37:58,400 Speaker 1: thank you, and I said, man, no problem, if you 760 00:37:58,400 --> 00:38:01,080 Speaker 1: don't mind, what are you thinking me for? And he said, 761 00:38:01,120 --> 00:38:03,560 Speaker 1: I just saw your story on the news and you 762 00:38:03,640 --> 00:38:06,720 Speaker 1: were making humor of your situation and about what happened 763 00:38:06,760 --> 00:38:10,040 Speaker 1: to you. And he said, man, um life and beat 764 00:38:10,120 --> 00:38:11,600 Speaker 1: me up. And I was about to leave my wife 765 00:38:11,640 --> 00:38:14,400 Speaker 1: and my three daughters. And he said, I said, when 766 00:38:14,480 --> 00:38:16,839 Speaker 1: you could laugh at what you've been through and how 767 00:38:16,920 --> 00:38:19,440 Speaker 1: you've handled it, he said, surely I can hang in 768 00:38:19,480 --> 00:38:22,320 Speaker 1: there and I can fight for my family. And he 769 00:38:22,480 --> 00:38:24,800 Speaker 1: just walked off, and I never forget man. When I 770 00:38:24,880 --> 00:38:27,080 Speaker 1: walked off, I was like, I gotta take what I 771 00:38:27,200 --> 00:38:30,800 Speaker 1: do a little bit more serious, and even even like 772 00:38:30,960 --> 00:38:34,000 Speaker 1: when Eric Barry got hit with cancer. You know what 773 00:38:34,080 --> 00:38:35,839 Speaker 1: I'm saying. He called me and he was like, man, 774 00:38:35,920 --> 00:38:38,920 Speaker 1: I feel like something in my chest, like We talked 775 00:38:39,040 --> 00:38:41,239 Speaker 1: like that, and he was like, I gotta go to 776 00:38:41,320 --> 00:38:44,160 Speaker 1: Emory for some testing. Was like, call me Athew Donne, 777 00:38:44,800 --> 00:38:46,520 Speaker 1: and he called me. He said they found a mask 778 00:38:46,600 --> 00:38:49,359 Speaker 1: and they diagnosed him with cancer. And I watched him 779 00:38:49,400 --> 00:38:51,680 Speaker 1: go through that process and we used to meet and 780 00:38:51,719 --> 00:38:55,480 Speaker 1: when he got through it, I never forget him saying like, Man, 781 00:38:55,640 --> 00:38:59,800 Speaker 1: ain't like now I know about that purpose you speak 782 00:38:59,840 --> 00:39:01,680 Speaker 1: of out You know what I'm saying. Now, I know 783 00:39:01,840 --> 00:39:04,560 Speaker 1: when you talk about your situation and not just thinking 784 00:39:04,560 --> 00:39:06,600 Speaker 1: about it in terms of you and what you were 785 00:39:06,680 --> 00:39:08,600 Speaker 1: quiet as a result of it, but you being able 786 00:39:08,640 --> 00:39:11,279 Speaker 1: to use it like it's a reason. It's say in 787 00:39:11,400 --> 00:39:13,560 Speaker 1: the Bible, Man, we are overcome us by blood and 788 00:39:13,680 --> 00:39:15,960 Speaker 1: lamb and the word about testimony. That's why when you 789 00:39:16,080 --> 00:39:18,839 Speaker 1: hear Cat's journey and where they've been, what they've been through, 790 00:39:18,920 --> 00:39:21,480 Speaker 1: you're like, man, that's beautiful. You know what I'm saying, 791 00:39:21,520 --> 00:39:23,320 Speaker 1: Because all of us got stories, all of us have 792 00:39:23,400 --> 00:39:26,400 Speaker 1: walked our path and the journey is still unfolding. But 793 00:39:26,600 --> 00:39:29,719 Speaker 1: every single day I bumped into somebody bank, I kid 794 00:39:29,800 --> 00:39:32,319 Speaker 1: you not. I was in the airport yesterday. Cat come 795 00:39:32,400 --> 00:39:35,000 Speaker 1: up to me, Man, be honest with me. You wouldn't 796 00:39:35,040 --> 00:39:37,279 Speaker 1: change what happened to you, Like I wouldn't change it 797 00:39:37,320 --> 00:39:39,520 Speaker 1: for nothing in the world. A man like y'are paralyzed 798 00:39:39,600 --> 00:39:42,279 Speaker 1: on I'm like, it ain't about that. It's about what 799 00:39:42,400 --> 00:39:44,719 Speaker 1: it did for my father, you know what I'm saying. 800 00:39:44,760 --> 00:39:46,879 Speaker 1: It's about what it did for my my homies. It's 801 00:39:46,920 --> 00:39:49,520 Speaker 1: about what it did for my family. Like this situation 802 00:39:49,640 --> 00:39:51,960 Speaker 1: put me in put my mother and my father in 803 00:39:52,040 --> 00:39:54,440 Speaker 1: the same room, you know what I'm saying, Like my mom, 804 00:39:54,600 --> 00:39:58,640 Speaker 1: my MoMA despised my dad man for a long time, Like, 805 00:39:58,920 --> 00:40:01,279 Speaker 1: and it felt bad to me when I was this 806 00:40:01,400 --> 00:40:03,879 Speaker 1: athlete and my mother and my father couldn't even really 807 00:40:03,920 --> 00:40:06,680 Speaker 1: be in the same room because he bounced and she 808 00:40:06,840 --> 00:40:10,560 Speaker 1: just despised my man. And when this happened, now all 809 00:40:10,640 --> 00:40:13,160 Speaker 1: the foolishness had to cease because they didn't know if 810 00:40:13,200 --> 00:40:15,200 Speaker 1: they was gonna have to cut off my arm. They 811 00:40:15,200 --> 00:40:16,719 Speaker 1: didn't know if I was gonna live, if I was 812 00:40:16,719 --> 00:40:19,080 Speaker 1: gonna die. And now my mother and my father was 813 00:40:19,120 --> 00:40:21,600 Speaker 1: in the same room. And so when I say I 814 00:40:21,680 --> 00:40:24,560 Speaker 1: look at this as a blessing, I think people think 815 00:40:24,640 --> 00:40:28,120 Speaker 1: in terms of it's just some spiritual facade, right, And 816 00:40:28,200 --> 00:40:30,440 Speaker 1: I'm grateful to God for it. But when I say 817 00:40:30,480 --> 00:40:33,239 Speaker 1: I'm thankful for it because of how it happened, I'm 818 00:40:33,280 --> 00:40:35,480 Speaker 1: thankful for what it's done in the people's lives that 819 00:40:35,520 --> 00:40:38,440 Speaker 1: are connected to me. And so every single day, man, 820 00:40:38,480 --> 00:40:40,080 Speaker 1: I don't think none of us have to look for 821 00:40:40,640 --> 00:40:43,040 Speaker 1: when we see people and meet people, because, like I 822 00:40:43,080 --> 00:40:44,840 Speaker 1: say all the time, cats don't have to stop and 823 00:40:44,880 --> 00:40:47,080 Speaker 1: say nothing to me what I'm saying. The cat don't 824 00:40:47,120 --> 00:40:49,839 Speaker 1: have to say, Man, I appreciate your speeches. A cat 825 00:40:49,920 --> 00:40:52,359 Speaker 1: don't have to look at my stuff. And so I'm 826 00:40:52,400 --> 00:40:55,400 Speaker 1: extremely grateful for that, and I'm honored by it. It's humbling. 827 00:40:56,400 --> 00:41:00,000 Speaker 1: It's humbling, man. Outside of um, you know your motivational speech. 828 00:41:00,000 --> 00:41:02,080 Speaker 1: And of course we were in the book and everything. 829 00:41:02,160 --> 00:41:03,719 Speaker 1: What's the ship that you just like to do? Like 830 00:41:03,840 --> 00:41:08,520 Speaker 1: some day to day just man, like to work with 831 00:41:08,680 --> 00:41:11,320 Speaker 1: young cats, man, Like we served at the homeless shelter 832 00:41:12,200 --> 00:41:15,239 Speaker 1: at my sister's house under the Atlanta Mission. We do 833 00:41:15,400 --> 00:41:19,000 Speaker 1: that quite a bit pre COVID. But I like working 834 00:41:19,080 --> 00:41:22,400 Speaker 1: with young cats man a lot, because like where I 835 00:41:22,520 --> 00:41:25,080 Speaker 1: grew up and a lot of the cats I went 836 00:41:25,120 --> 00:41:27,359 Speaker 1: to Krim High School, right, a lot of the cats 837 00:41:27,400 --> 00:41:31,280 Speaker 1: I went to school with, I felt like with talented cats. 838 00:41:32,080 --> 00:41:33,800 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, and I never forget. I 839 00:41:33,960 --> 00:41:36,680 Speaker 1: was fighting one of my teammates one day and my 840 00:41:36,800 --> 00:41:39,440 Speaker 1: man just thought like I was coming at him because 841 00:41:40,040 --> 00:41:42,560 Speaker 1: I didn't like him, and I had to tell him, like, 842 00:41:42,600 --> 00:41:44,400 Speaker 1: but I love you. You know what I'm saying. I 843 00:41:44,440 --> 00:41:47,080 Speaker 1: got mad love for you. I'm like, but I see 844 00:41:47,120 --> 00:41:50,560 Speaker 1: the potential. I see what you can become. I see 845 00:41:50,600 --> 00:41:52,680 Speaker 1: what you possess. I see what you can do. I 846 00:41:52,760 --> 00:41:54,120 Speaker 1: see what you can you can go on to do 847 00:41:54,280 --> 00:41:56,560 Speaker 1: for your family right, and you don't want to leave 848 00:41:56,600 --> 00:41:58,520 Speaker 1: outside of twenty you don't want to leave on the 849 00:41:58,560 --> 00:42:00,560 Speaker 1: east side of Atlanta. I coach have to take us 850 00:42:00,600 --> 00:42:04,040 Speaker 1: to a tournament in Popular Bluff, Missouri, and they was like, Coach, 851 00:42:04,120 --> 00:42:05,879 Speaker 1: we ain't going and he was like, yeah, I see 852 00:42:05,960 --> 00:42:08,440 Speaker 1: y'all in the morning. Man, three folks showed up, man 853 00:42:09,280 --> 00:42:11,719 Speaker 1: to the bus. You know what I'm saying, like three 854 00:42:12,600 --> 00:42:14,400 Speaker 1: and my man thought they was playing. I'm like, man, 855 00:42:14,520 --> 00:42:17,399 Speaker 1: them folks not playing. And so when I see young 856 00:42:17,480 --> 00:42:19,919 Speaker 1: cast and I'm talking to him, you know what I'm saying, 857 00:42:19,960 --> 00:42:22,360 Speaker 1: and I'm trying to help shape their mind. I'm listening 858 00:42:22,400 --> 00:42:26,239 Speaker 1: to their stories like that's beautiful for me because cats 859 00:42:26,320 --> 00:42:28,279 Speaker 1: did it for me, you know what I'm saying, the 860 00:42:28,360 --> 00:42:30,440 Speaker 1: older cats at the part it's used to be at 861 00:42:30,480 --> 00:42:32,920 Speaker 1: my granddad at the house, Like people did it for me, 862 00:42:33,160 --> 00:42:35,160 Speaker 1: and it made an imprint on my mind that changed 863 00:42:35,200 --> 00:42:37,360 Speaker 1: my life. And so anytime I get to work with 864 00:42:37,520 --> 00:42:39,839 Speaker 1: kids and do certain things and going to the home, 865 00:42:39,920 --> 00:42:42,040 Speaker 1: the shelter and making us grateful for what we do have, 866 00:42:42,760 --> 00:42:45,120 Speaker 1: you know, it's something that I love to do. Yeah. 867 00:42:45,560 --> 00:42:48,239 Speaker 1: So another thing that like we always talked about on 868 00:42:48,320 --> 00:42:52,240 Speaker 1: the show is is how like growth is an essential 869 00:42:52,360 --> 00:42:55,920 Speaker 1: part of progress. So what do you do, like day 870 00:42:55,960 --> 00:42:58,920 Speaker 1: to day or you know, just whenever you have time 871 00:42:59,160 --> 00:43:01,759 Speaker 1: or any time at all, to make sure that you 872 00:43:01,800 --> 00:43:03,480 Speaker 1: don't get stuck in the same place and to make 873 00:43:03,560 --> 00:43:07,880 Speaker 1: sure that you're at least taking one step a day forward. Absolutely, 874 00:43:08,239 --> 00:43:13,000 Speaker 1: I journal a lot, journal a journal. Oh yeah, every day, 875 00:43:13,280 --> 00:43:17,680 Speaker 1: every day I journal. Um, I got four journals, and 876 00:43:17,800 --> 00:43:21,360 Speaker 1: so I journal in the morning, I journal shortly after lunchtime, 877 00:43:21,960 --> 00:43:24,880 Speaker 1: and I journal at night. But I journal to my children. 878 00:43:25,000 --> 00:43:27,400 Speaker 1: So I got a journal with my son, I got 879 00:43:27,520 --> 00:43:29,960 Speaker 1: a journal with my daughter, journal with my wife, and 880 00:43:30,040 --> 00:43:33,640 Speaker 1: a journal with myself. I write to you know how 881 00:43:33,800 --> 00:43:36,800 Speaker 1: like when something happened to a parent, or something happened 882 00:43:36,840 --> 00:43:39,200 Speaker 1: to somebody, and somebody to go to somebody's kids and 883 00:43:39,280 --> 00:43:42,160 Speaker 1: be like, man, let me tell you about your dad. Man, 884 00:43:42,239 --> 00:43:44,040 Speaker 1: let me tell you about your mom. Tell you the 885 00:43:44,080 --> 00:43:46,400 Speaker 1: type of person they're working. That's cool, right, But I 886 00:43:46,480 --> 00:43:49,920 Speaker 1: want my children to have something that, like, one day 887 00:43:49,920 --> 00:43:51,680 Speaker 1: I'm gonna give it to him. I don't know when 888 00:43:51,719 --> 00:43:53,759 Speaker 1: that moment comes, but one day they got something that 889 00:43:54,320 --> 00:43:56,960 Speaker 1: they can look at and say, I know exactly who 890 00:43:57,040 --> 00:43:59,360 Speaker 1: my dad was. You know what I'm saying. I know 891 00:43:59,480 --> 00:44:01,839 Speaker 1: what it's how youse are. I know what his principles are. 892 00:44:02,320 --> 00:44:05,400 Speaker 1: I know why he did sir. I explained decisions to him. Man, 893 00:44:05,520 --> 00:44:07,000 Speaker 1: this is why I had to do this. It might 894 00:44:07,080 --> 00:44:09,320 Speaker 1: then feel good in the moment, you might hate it, 895 00:44:09,360 --> 00:44:11,279 Speaker 1: but you're gonna love me later for you know what 896 00:44:11,360 --> 00:44:13,839 Speaker 1: I'm saying. And I explained things like that to my son, 897 00:44:13,960 --> 00:44:17,440 Speaker 1: my daughter, but also to myself, like I'm transparent in it. 898 00:44:17,640 --> 00:44:21,360 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying about my fears about my future, 899 00:44:21,400 --> 00:44:23,640 Speaker 1: about things that I need to work on, Like I 900 00:44:23,719 --> 00:44:26,200 Speaker 1: told my wife yesterday, and I'm like, man, I got 901 00:44:26,520 --> 00:44:28,520 Speaker 1: I got somebo need to work on, Like I don't 902 00:44:28,560 --> 00:44:30,439 Speaker 1: know if it's from the time I was a kid 903 00:44:31,080 --> 00:44:33,400 Speaker 1: and I just experienced this and this is how I cope. 904 00:44:33,800 --> 00:44:38,000 Speaker 1: But like when I cut somebody off, I'm gone, you 905 00:44:38,080 --> 00:44:40,080 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, Like I'm gone, Like I don't 906 00:44:40,120 --> 00:44:43,160 Speaker 1: double back, I don't come back, I'm gone. And I 907 00:44:43,280 --> 00:44:46,360 Speaker 1: told her, like, I gotta work on that, because I 908 00:44:46,480 --> 00:44:50,839 Speaker 1: think that's something from my childhood that yeah, yeah, I'm 909 00:44:50,880 --> 00:44:52,560 Speaker 1: just out. You know what I'm saying, like a man, 910 00:44:52,680 --> 00:44:54,719 Speaker 1: you bound, I'm out. You know what I'm saying, And 911 00:44:54,760 --> 00:44:57,239 Speaker 1: I ain't coming back, and it's all good. But I 912 00:44:57,360 --> 00:44:59,759 Speaker 1: think it's something that I learned and I need to 913 00:44:59,760 --> 00:45:01,960 Speaker 1: work go because when I was a kid, when my 914 00:45:02,080 --> 00:45:05,520 Speaker 1: father wasn't present, that's how I coped without having to 915 00:45:05,640 --> 00:45:08,640 Speaker 1: deal with the natural situation of my father not present. 916 00:45:08,800 --> 00:45:11,920 Speaker 1: But it created certain levels of pain with other people 917 00:45:12,280 --> 00:45:14,680 Speaker 1: to where all right, if you stagnant, if you're playing 918 00:45:14,719 --> 00:45:17,600 Speaker 1: them out right and not giving people that grace in 919 00:45:17,680 --> 00:45:20,200 Speaker 1: that time to grow, when probably if I would have 920 00:45:20,239 --> 00:45:22,040 Speaker 1: gave him the grace in the time to grow, that 921 00:45:22,120 --> 00:45:23,880 Speaker 1: could have been a situation we could have nurtured and 922 00:45:24,000 --> 00:45:28,640 Speaker 1: cultivated relationship, right. And so it's things that I want 923 00:45:28,680 --> 00:45:30,280 Speaker 1: to work on that. When I look in at journal, 924 00:45:30,640 --> 00:45:32,840 Speaker 1: I know I'm not there yet, and I'm trying to 925 00:45:32,920 --> 00:45:35,440 Speaker 1: continue to foster that level of growth. But having that 926 00:45:35,600 --> 00:45:38,600 Speaker 1: journal there as accountability is something I can refer back 927 00:45:38,640 --> 00:45:41,359 Speaker 1: to every single day in every aspect of my life 928 00:45:41,400 --> 00:45:44,360 Speaker 1: and my children, with my wife, most importantly with myself. 929 00:45:47,040 --> 00:45:49,360 Speaker 1: What's one thing you want to say to your followers 930 00:45:49,400 --> 00:45:51,399 Speaker 1: people that don't follow you? You know what I'm saying, 931 00:45:51,440 --> 00:45:53,759 Speaker 1: What's What's what's some some good game of motivation that 932 00:45:53,800 --> 00:45:58,640 Speaker 1: you would give to the people, like the most valuable vitamin? Man. 933 00:45:58,680 --> 00:46:02,560 Speaker 1: I would say, don't take life for granted, you know, 934 00:46:03,120 --> 00:46:06,040 Speaker 1: make life count, man, because I think there's so many 935 00:46:06,160 --> 00:46:09,640 Speaker 1: people man that that wake up and they just they 936 00:46:09,719 --> 00:46:12,200 Speaker 1: take this thing for granted. Like and I didn't look 937 00:46:12,239 --> 00:46:14,239 Speaker 1: at it that way until I almost lost my life, 938 00:46:14,760 --> 00:46:16,400 Speaker 1: you know, because a lot of cats look at my 939 00:46:16,560 --> 00:46:18,840 Speaker 1: injury and look at what happened to me, and cats 940 00:46:18,880 --> 00:46:21,480 Speaker 1: focus so much on the sports part of it, and 941 00:46:21,600 --> 00:46:23,800 Speaker 1: cats don't think about like bro I had three hundred 942 00:46:23,800 --> 00:46:26,680 Speaker 1: and fifty staples in my body, had six incisions down 943 00:46:26,719 --> 00:46:29,000 Speaker 1: my left eye. When incision cross the left side of 944 00:46:29,040 --> 00:46:31,200 Speaker 1: my neck went across the right twice do my right 945 00:46:31,320 --> 00:46:33,719 Speaker 1: ribs cut out my right peck, bottom of my armpit 946 00:46:33,840 --> 00:46:35,879 Speaker 1: to the bottom of my hand. They had to cut 947 00:46:35,960 --> 00:46:38,520 Speaker 1: up plastic bags so I could take a shower. They 948 00:46:38,560 --> 00:46:40,319 Speaker 1: just put me on the jet back and forth from 949 00:46:40,400 --> 00:46:44,120 Speaker 1: Tennessee to the Mayo Clinic in Rochester, Minnesota every week. 950 00:46:44,800 --> 00:46:46,560 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. So it changed my life. 951 00:46:46,640 --> 00:46:49,040 Speaker 1: It made me look at life different, and I'll never 952 00:46:49,160 --> 00:46:52,160 Speaker 1: forget the first time I sat down in the Mayo 953 00:46:52,280 --> 00:46:55,359 Speaker 1: Clinic in Rochester, Minnesota, it was like a little girl 954 00:46:55,520 --> 00:46:58,280 Speaker 1: like she was sitting where you're sitting, scream about distance wise, 955 00:46:58,920 --> 00:47:02,719 Speaker 1: she's probably like you love, And it looked like like 956 00:47:02,840 --> 00:47:05,680 Speaker 1: her face is falling off what I'm saying. Her parents 957 00:47:05,760 --> 00:47:07,960 Speaker 1: were sitting on the side of her trying to help her. 958 00:47:07,960 --> 00:47:10,799 Speaker 1: I don't know what a condition was, and I'm like, man, 959 00:47:10,920 --> 00:47:14,279 Speaker 1: she like eleven or twelve years old. And it made 960 00:47:14,320 --> 00:47:18,160 Speaker 1: me look at my situation totally different. But most importantly, 961 00:47:18,600 --> 00:47:20,680 Speaker 1: it made me grateful for the gift of life. Man, 962 00:47:21,239 --> 00:47:23,359 Speaker 1: like make it count, Like when it's all setting done 963 00:47:23,400 --> 00:47:25,480 Speaker 1: for me, I want one life to be enough for me, 964 00:47:26,280 --> 00:47:28,279 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like when they come, I 965 00:47:28,400 --> 00:47:30,680 Speaker 1: want to be like I did it. You know what 966 00:47:30,719 --> 00:47:32,279 Speaker 1: I'm saying, I lived it. I don't want to be 967 00:47:32,360 --> 00:47:34,480 Speaker 1: the cat that's living with regret. I don't want to 968 00:47:34,480 --> 00:47:36,680 Speaker 1: be the count that's saying, man, I wish I could 969 00:47:36,680 --> 00:47:38,680 Speaker 1: have this time to do this now. That takes a 970 00:47:38,760 --> 00:47:40,640 Speaker 1: lot of courage, a lot of bravery, a lot of pain. 971 00:47:41,080 --> 00:47:42,600 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. I want to patch up 972 00:47:42,640 --> 00:47:45,680 Speaker 1: certain relationships. I want to do things differently. You know 973 00:47:45,719 --> 00:47:47,680 Speaker 1: what I'm saying. I want to grow. And I think 974 00:47:47,760 --> 00:47:50,040 Speaker 1: we take life for granted so much. We think people 975 00:47:50,040 --> 00:47:52,239 Speaker 1: are gonna be here. I'm sure some cats that wanted 976 00:47:52,280 --> 00:47:54,640 Speaker 1: to talk to DMX and say something and felt like 977 00:47:54,760 --> 00:47:56,840 Speaker 1: I get to it. You know what I'm saying, I 978 00:47:56,960 --> 00:47:59,560 Speaker 1: get to I had that, I had that conversation and 979 00:47:59,640 --> 00:48:02,920 Speaker 1: then get the opportunity to not because they didn't want to. 980 00:48:03,520 --> 00:48:05,480 Speaker 1: Because we take life for granted and we feel as 981 00:48:05,520 --> 00:48:08,359 Speaker 1: if we promised something. Cat feel as oh, I get 982 00:48:08,440 --> 00:48:10,879 Speaker 1: to the next year. How you know you promised next year? 983 00:48:11,800 --> 00:48:13,480 Speaker 1: I thought it were certain things in my career I 984 00:48:13,600 --> 00:48:15,320 Speaker 1: was gonna get to. I get to it in the 985 00:48:15,400 --> 00:48:18,399 Speaker 1: fifth game, I'll do it. Second game, my career was over, 986 00:48:18,560 --> 00:48:21,480 Speaker 1: never to be played again, and so every single day. Man, 987 00:48:21,520 --> 00:48:24,359 Speaker 1: don't take life for granted. Go out and live it up. Man, 988 00:48:24,480 --> 00:48:27,120 Speaker 1: what's what's what's your? Do you still love the sport 989 00:48:27,160 --> 00:48:30,680 Speaker 1: of football? Even love it? I love everything about it, Man, 990 00:48:31,160 --> 00:48:35,560 Speaker 1: I'm not I'm not mad at the sport um because 991 00:48:35,600 --> 00:48:38,279 Speaker 1: it gave me so much. You know what I'm saying. 992 00:48:38,320 --> 00:48:40,680 Speaker 1: It exposed my mind to a different level of life 993 00:48:40,719 --> 00:48:42,359 Speaker 1: that it could never go back to what it used 994 00:48:42,400 --> 00:48:45,200 Speaker 1: to be. Right like when I never forget bank. I 995 00:48:45,320 --> 00:48:49,359 Speaker 1: walked in and I'm eating steak shrimp spaghetti like I'm 996 00:48:49,480 --> 00:48:53,200 Speaker 1: coming from noodles. You know what I'm saying. I'm like, boy, 997 00:48:53,280 --> 00:48:58,759 Speaker 1: y'all steak shrimp spaghetti. You know what I'm saying, Like 998 00:48:58,920 --> 00:49:02,560 Speaker 1: this is gravy like, but also just the access that 999 00:49:02,640 --> 00:49:05,640 Speaker 1: it gave us, the resources that it gave us, like 1000 00:49:06,719 --> 00:49:09,080 Speaker 1: something different, you see something different, but they lay it 1001 00:49:09,160 --> 00:49:11,120 Speaker 1: out for you. You know what I'm saying, Like you 1002 00:49:11,280 --> 00:49:15,040 Speaker 1: get everything and so like I could never be mad 1003 00:49:15,120 --> 00:49:18,680 Speaker 1: at that. So they saying that ship set your set 1004 00:49:18,719 --> 00:49:20,719 Speaker 1: your boy in life like this what I want this, 1005 00:49:20,880 --> 00:49:24,440 Speaker 1: I want not going back to nothing else. It exposed 1006 00:49:24,480 --> 00:49:27,759 Speaker 1: you too, Like they're taking you the catering class. They're 1007 00:49:27,760 --> 00:49:30,200 Speaker 1: taking you to what side to put your spoon, your 1008 00:49:30,280 --> 00:49:33,239 Speaker 1: forking night Like they give you everything. You know what 1009 00:49:33,280 --> 00:49:35,960 Speaker 1: I'm saying. They put you, you travel, you on the plane, 1010 00:49:36,360 --> 00:49:39,799 Speaker 1: You're getting everything. You go to a hotel, you five star, 1011 00:49:40,000 --> 00:49:43,080 Speaker 1: you standing the best, like they give you access to everything, 1012 00:49:43,160 --> 00:49:45,400 Speaker 1: and so I can never be mad at it. And 1013 00:49:45,480 --> 00:49:48,360 Speaker 1: then when my injury happened, they did right by me. 1014 00:49:48,800 --> 00:49:50,480 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying. And I'm gonna be honest. 1015 00:49:50,520 --> 00:49:53,040 Speaker 1: I was thinking, man, or they still gonna treat me 1016 00:49:53,120 --> 00:49:55,799 Speaker 1: the same, or they still do the same same things 1017 00:49:55,840 --> 00:49:57,960 Speaker 1: they did for me when I was playing. But they 1018 00:49:58,040 --> 00:49:59,920 Speaker 1: did right by me. You know what I'm saying. They 1019 00:50:00,160 --> 00:50:02,239 Speaker 1: they took care of me, and I can't do nothing 1020 00:50:02,280 --> 00:50:05,120 Speaker 1: but respect that. But also, I believe in destiny. I 1021 00:50:05,239 --> 00:50:07,680 Speaker 1: believe in faith, and so I don't live my life 1022 00:50:07,719 --> 00:50:09,840 Speaker 1: with regrets. I don't wish I would have grew up different, 1023 00:50:10,640 --> 00:50:12,279 Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying, Like, I love the way 1024 00:50:12,320 --> 00:50:14,120 Speaker 1: I grew up. That made me who I am as 1025 00:50:14,160 --> 00:50:16,359 Speaker 1: a man. Like if a cat came to me and said, 1026 00:50:16,360 --> 00:50:18,759 Speaker 1: you want to grow up in Malibu, No, I want 1027 00:50:18,800 --> 00:50:22,719 Speaker 1: to grow up in Kirkwood, right down the street. You 1028 00:50:22,719 --> 00:50:24,440 Speaker 1: know what I'm saying, that's why I want to grow 1029 00:50:24,560 --> 00:50:26,680 Speaker 1: up at my mom. I want to grow up the 1030 00:50:26,760 --> 00:50:29,480 Speaker 1: same way. And so when I look at my injury 1031 00:50:29,520 --> 00:50:31,960 Speaker 1: and what happened to me, I think it's destiny and 1032 00:50:32,040 --> 00:50:34,359 Speaker 1: faith for where I am now as a father, as 1033 00:50:34,400 --> 00:50:37,880 Speaker 1: a man, as a husband, as a friend. Like it 1034 00:50:38,080 --> 00:50:40,480 Speaker 1: changed me, you know in a good way. Not just 1035 00:50:40,640 --> 00:50:43,320 Speaker 1: physically with the arch fee and me walking around like 1036 00:50:43,400 --> 00:50:45,799 Speaker 1: if a cat see me, they're gonna know. Man, something 1037 00:50:45,880 --> 00:50:48,600 Speaker 1: happened to my man arm, but what it did for 1038 00:50:48,680 --> 00:50:51,840 Speaker 1: me internally as a man. In my perspective, I'm forever 1039 00:50:51,920 --> 00:50:54,879 Speaker 1: grateful for that. And most important, God's spared of my life. 1040 00:50:54,920 --> 00:50:57,680 Speaker 1: God could have took me that day, but he felt 1041 00:50:57,719 --> 00:50:59,560 Speaker 1: as if I was worth it, and so he left me. 1042 00:50:59,600 --> 00:51:02,960 Speaker 1: I do you think like a successful athlete or or 1043 00:51:03,080 --> 00:51:07,080 Speaker 1: rap artists and everybody should seek different like aspects of life, 1044 00:51:07,440 --> 00:51:10,280 Speaker 1: because sometimes it takes tragedy to make you open yourself 1045 00:51:10,360 --> 00:51:12,120 Speaker 1: up the other parts of life. But you like speaking 1046 00:51:12,120 --> 00:51:14,399 Speaker 1: to people that you think, like, man, there's other parts 1047 00:51:14,440 --> 00:51:16,759 Speaker 1: of life. It's more than just football. It's more than 1048 00:51:16,840 --> 00:51:18,799 Speaker 1: just rapids, more than just acting. You know what I'm saying. 1049 00:51:18,800 --> 00:51:20,760 Speaker 1: Do you feel like people should see that different aspects 1050 00:51:20,760 --> 00:51:23,320 Speaker 1: of life. Yeah, I think I think they should maximize 1051 00:51:23,360 --> 00:51:26,440 Speaker 1: their talents, but they should honor their gifts. And so 1052 00:51:26,840 --> 00:51:28,799 Speaker 1: what I mean by that is like when you see 1053 00:51:29,160 --> 00:51:31,880 Speaker 1: somebody coming up, whether it be in the inner cities 1054 00:51:31,920 --> 00:51:34,919 Speaker 1: of America, in the suburbs of America, whatever the case 1055 00:51:35,040 --> 00:51:37,440 Speaker 1: may be. And let's say we look at sports, right 1056 00:51:38,000 --> 00:51:40,240 Speaker 1: and a catacomb to a young cat that's playing sports 1057 00:51:40,280 --> 00:51:43,040 Speaker 1: and say, hey man, look at some other things, right, 1058 00:51:43,120 --> 00:51:44,960 Speaker 1: Like I don't see the cats stand on the stage 1059 00:51:45,000 --> 00:51:47,160 Speaker 1: and say, y'all don't need to play sports. Don't just 1060 00:51:47,239 --> 00:51:50,040 Speaker 1: focus on sports. And I'm like, but what if sports 1061 00:51:50,160 --> 00:51:53,239 Speaker 1: is that person's gift that God has blessed in what 1062 00:51:53,400 --> 00:51:55,520 Speaker 1: like a lot of my boys, they took the vehicle 1063 00:51:55,600 --> 00:51:58,280 Speaker 1: of sports, made a lot of money. Now they're dabbling 1064 00:51:58,320 --> 00:52:01,080 Speaker 1: in the business and other ventures in life and maximizing 1065 00:52:01,120 --> 00:52:04,400 Speaker 1: their gifts. But the vehicle of sports change their family's 1066 00:52:04,480 --> 00:52:07,520 Speaker 1: life for generations to come. And so I think they 1067 00:52:07,560 --> 00:52:10,800 Speaker 1: should honor their gifts and maximize them whatever it is, 1068 00:52:10,880 --> 00:52:13,520 Speaker 1: Like it's a lot of cats and entertainment that wrapped 1069 00:52:13,560 --> 00:52:15,799 Speaker 1: that play basketball or whatever the case may be. If 1070 00:52:15,840 --> 00:52:19,200 Speaker 1: that's the vehicle, do that, But also maximize them talents. 1071 00:52:19,239 --> 00:52:20,880 Speaker 1: If you want to get in the media right, if 1072 00:52:20,920 --> 00:52:22,399 Speaker 1: you want to get in the podcast, if you want 1073 00:52:22,440 --> 00:52:24,200 Speaker 1: to be a public speaker, if you want to do 1074 00:52:24,360 --> 00:52:27,000 Speaker 1: things with business like, start doing it before it comes 1075 00:52:27,040 --> 00:52:28,920 Speaker 1: time for you to do it. Because a lot of 1076 00:52:29,000 --> 00:52:31,319 Speaker 1: cats they play ball and they make their money, they 1077 00:52:31,400 --> 00:52:33,839 Speaker 1: do what they do, or something goes wrong, they want 1078 00:52:33,880 --> 00:52:35,840 Speaker 1: to wait, and then they got their back up against 1079 00:52:35,840 --> 00:52:38,279 Speaker 1: the wall and they're trying to do it like it's 1080 00:52:38,280 --> 00:52:40,120 Speaker 1: like when the cats say pray. Don't just pray when 1081 00:52:40,160 --> 00:52:42,640 Speaker 1: things are going like bad, pray when things are going 1082 00:52:42,719 --> 00:52:45,040 Speaker 1: good too. And so why things are going good in 1083 00:52:45,080 --> 00:52:48,160 Speaker 1: your career whatever you're doing, start venturing off into other 1084 00:52:48,280 --> 00:52:50,600 Speaker 1: things and maximizing you because when you're back is against 1085 00:52:50,640 --> 00:52:52,640 Speaker 1: the wall, you don't have a clear head to think 1086 00:52:52,680 --> 00:52:57,600 Speaker 1: with because you're panicking facts and it jades your perspective 1087 00:52:57,640 --> 00:53:00,880 Speaker 1: and how you do things right. Instead of it being 1088 00:53:00,920 --> 00:53:03,560 Speaker 1: about purpose, now it's about money because you feel as 1089 00:53:03,600 --> 00:53:06,600 Speaker 1: if you're back and that's necessity and necessity and not 1090 00:53:06,719 --> 00:53:09,000 Speaker 1: saying that there's anything wrong money. You should get money 1091 00:53:09,040 --> 00:53:11,000 Speaker 1: for what you do. Just approach you with the right 1092 00:53:11,040 --> 00:53:16,040 Speaker 1: perspective and honor the gift whatever it may be big 1093 00:53:16,080 --> 00:53:22,640 Speaker 1: shots out to Inky Johnson positive positive motivation. They're crying 1094 00:53:22,719 --> 00:53:26,440 Speaker 1: and ship like, what what where can everybody go to 1095 00:53:26,760 --> 00:53:28,960 Speaker 1: if they're not familiar with you? Check you out online, 1096 00:53:29,000 --> 00:53:32,200 Speaker 1: your Instagram, anything, anyway you channel all that. Oh, no doubt, 1097 00:53:32,239 --> 00:53:36,239 Speaker 1: it's Inky Johnson on everything and on Instagram it's Inky 1098 00:53:36,360 --> 00:53:41,560 Speaker 1: Johnson motivate because the cat stole my name a year ago. 1099 00:53:41,800 --> 00:53:44,040 Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, cat stole the names. I 1100 00:53:44,120 --> 00:53:47,239 Speaker 1: had to come back as Inky Johnson motivate. 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