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Speaker 1: Hello, my beautiful people. Welcome to Cheeky's and Chill. I'm

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Speaker 1: going to keep it one hundred with you guys, the

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Speaker 1: way I always do. That's what this podcast is all about.

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Speaker 1: It is the end of the year and I have

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Speaker 1: wanted to throw in the towel quite a few times.

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Speaker 1: I am running on fumes and I know I'm not

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Speaker 1: the only one, and that's what I want to talk

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Speaker 1: about on this episode. Just going to keep it a buck.

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Speaker 1: I'm going to tell you guys how I've been feeling,

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Speaker 1: and not only how I've been feeling, but also the

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Speaker 1: epiphany I just had and the realization that I just had,

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Speaker 1: because it made me feel a tiny bit better. So

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Speaker 1: I hope that by me expressing what it is I've

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Speaker 1: been going through and what I just found out, we

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Speaker 1: can all feel better knowing that this year is almost over.

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Speaker 1: So starting with me, I have been in a very

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Speaker 1: dark place the past almost two weeks. Granted a lot

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Speaker 1: has happened. I have a lot of decisions that I

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Speaker 1: need to make. I felt that this year was going

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Speaker 1: to be a lot slower. That was the plan. I

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Speaker 1: was supposed to get pregnant this year, and it hasn't happened,

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Speaker 1: so that also had an effect. I have not been

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Speaker 1: traveling as much for work as I did last year,

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Speaker 1: but this year has still been busy in a very

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Speaker 1: different way. As you guys know and I've shared, I've

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Speaker 1: done a lot of healing, deep healing, digging deep. That

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Speaker 1: middle of the year, I thought, Okay, I shouldn't feel

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Speaker 1: it comes to the end of the year. Just to

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Speaker 1: backtrack a tiny bit, like the first nine years of

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Speaker 1: my mom graduating to heaven, as soon as October hit,

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Speaker 1: every year since twenty twelve, I would start spiraling because

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Speaker 1: when my mom and I stopped talking in twenty twelve,

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Speaker 1: it started in October early October, so I would remember

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Speaker 1: all the dates and I'm like, oh my gosh, this happened,

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Speaker 1: and I would just think about all those negative things.

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Speaker 1: So it would just take me in this negative place

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Speaker 1: and very emotional, and I would feel all kinds of things.

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Speaker 1: So it was October November, and then in December she passed.

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Speaker 1: So that's like a whole other thing. Not only did

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Speaker 1: she pass away December, but then on December nineteenth, we

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Speaker 1: had her what we call her graduation, her funeral, and

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Speaker 1: then on December thirty first, we buried her. So it

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Speaker 1: emotionally heavy. So I thought, Okay, I did all this

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Speaker 1: Like I've never loved her more than I love her

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Speaker 1: now and respect her and understand her, I'm not going

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Speaker 1: to feel that. Uh yeah, I still felt it, guys.

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Speaker 1: I still felt it. And I think I felt it

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Speaker 1: fact that she is and was and will always be

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Speaker 1: a very important part of my life forever. And it

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Speaker 1: have to accept that, and I have to accept that

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Speaker 1: And because of everything else that's going on, because Emilio

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Speaker 1: what I did was I went to my mentor who

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Speaker 1: And that helped. But then it still wasn't going away.

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Speaker 1: I'm like, okay, the whole thing with Emilia was better,

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Speaker 1: I realize, guys, and this is what made me feel better. Okay.

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Speaker 1: So if you have been feeling I want to give up,

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Speaker 1: have been feeling the same way, and you're not alone.

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Speaker 1: This is a collective feeling, and it's happening all over

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Speaker 1: the world. And I'm going to tell you why. I'm

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Speaker 1: but I forgot. But guys, in numerology, and I believe

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Speaker 1: a lot in numerology, you don't have to believe in it.

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Speaker 1: But numbers don't lie, guys, they just don't. And a

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Speaker 1: lot of people are like, oh my gosh, astrology and

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Speaker 1: and whether we like it or not, it does affect us.

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Speaker 1: And I think a lot of us are feeling it.

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Speaker 1: It is a year nine, okay. And for those of

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Speaker 1: a year nine. So it's a year nine because of

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Speaker 1: the actual year. So twenty twenty five, when you add

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Speaker 1: I don't know why, but it's like a thing. So

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Speaker 1: it's two plus zero plus two plus five equals a nine.

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Speaker 1: So in numerology, like there's different type of numbers, there's

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Speaker 1: ten and one plus zero is one, and that's why

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Speaker 1: It means completion. It means things are coming to an end,

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Speaker 1: So nine also represents what we said completion, endings, release,

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Speaker 1: grief plus healing, karmic clearing, letting go of what no

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Speaker 1: longer aligns, and that's in everything. I just posted something

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Speaker 1: It was someone that left me a question and was saying,

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Speaker 1: Cheeky's how do you do it. I've gone through so

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Speaker 1: much loss. I lost I think her mother, and she

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Speaker 1: that twenty twenty five has been so hard. I lost

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Speaker 1: a karma year, right. What does karma mean? People think,

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Speaker 1: it means that whatever you've put out into the world

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Speaker 1: so that you don't bring it into the next year. Okay.

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Speaker 1: like telling myself, Janey, what's wrong with you? Like you're

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Speaker 1: I'm doing everything you ask, Like I'm doing the healing.

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Speaker 1: I'm learning the lessons like what's happening? But there are

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Speaker 1: need to accept that my people pleasing my abandonment issues,

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Speaker 1: what God wants for my life. And when he thinks

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Speaker 1: to figure that out. So if you have experienced relationships ending,

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Speaker 1: learn to detach to have healthier relationships. All that stuff.

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Speaker 1: Systems crack. Okay in a year nine, you guys, truth

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Speaker 1: is the year of the snake. What does the snake do?

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Speaker 1: It sheds, it transforms. And I guess I just forgot

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Speaker 1: because I think that's what we need to really close

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Speaker 1: and thank you. I'll never get tired of thanking you

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Speaker 1: listen to this podcast. I do this podcast with all

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Speaker 1: and whatever, dude, I'm sensitive and I'm gonna freaking embrace

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Speaker 1: So thank you. I can't wait to have more conversations

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Speaker 1: with you in twenty twenty six. I hope you guys

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Speaker 1: have an amazing and safe new Year. Be careful, guys,

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Speaker 1: be safe out there, have fun, enjoy, celebrate, and let

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Speaker 1: let's start twenty twenty six on the right foot. Wishing

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Speaker 1: you all a very merry, happy New Year. I'll talk

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Speaker 1: to you soon, catch you on the next episode of

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Speaker 1: Cheeky's and Chill In twenty twenty six. Y'all, this is

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