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Danny Brown, what's up? 0:01:02.200 --> 0:01:02.720 What's up? 0:01:02.880 --> 0:01:05.800 What's been the most persistent thought on your mind lately? 0:01:06.160 --> 0:01:07.720 Persistent thought on my mind? 0:01:10.240 --> 0:01:12.080 I just really been working on music a lot, so 0:01:12.319 --> 0:01:15.440 just getting back into being like creative and shit and 0:01:15.480 --> 0:01:17.800 starting to try to like, you know, find my foot 0:01:17.840 --> 0:01:19.120 and I mean, I guess, you know, I've been doing 0:01:19.200 --> 0:01:22.120 music for a long time, but still finding new ways, 0:01:22.600 --> 0:01:25.080 you know, still learning. So I guess that's been the 0:01:25.080 --> 0:01:28.560 most thing for me, just studying, you know, going back 0:01:28.640 --> 0:01:30.880 listening to a lot of old albums that I grew 0:01:30.959 --> 0:01:33.520 up on and stuff, and trying to remind myself while 0:01:33.560 --> 0:01:36.200 I liked it, you know, and try to you know, 0:01:36.240 --> 0:01:37.679 incorporate that into what I do. 0:01:38.400 --> 0:01:40.640 What kind of conclusions of you have you come to 0:01:40.760 --> 0:01:43.440 in this studying and learning. 0:01:44.680 --> 0:01:47.400 I think for the most part is don't think too hard. 0:01:48.080 --> 0:01:50.120 I think when I live in my head too much 0:01:50.120 --> 0:01:53.080 and try to you know, make shit that I think 0:01:53.080 --> 0:01:55.559 people will like or something like that, just get caught 0:01:55.600 --> 0:01:55.880 up in that. 0:01:56.200 --> 0:01:58.120 You know, that's when my. 0:01:58.120 --> 0:02:00.320 Least creative, I think, when I just let it happen, 0:02:01.160 --> 0:02:03.240 almost like a flow state, if you know. 0:02:03.240 --> 0:02:03.800 What I'm talking about. 0:02:03.880 --> 0:02:05.760 Yeah, yeah, yeah, So when I just get into when 0:02:05.760 --> 0:02:07.840 i'm not, I feel like I'm not trying hard, when 0:02:07.840 --> 0:02:08.440 it's just like. 0:02:08.760 --> 0:02:11.080 A higher power or some just making everything happen. 0:02:11.120 --> 0:02:13.600 So that's how I've been feeling quite lately, just been 0:02:13.680 --> 0:02:16.639 really fucking like, you know, showing gratitude to that. 0:02:16.760 --> 0:02:18.000 I think that's for the most part. 0:02:18.160 --> 0:02:20.400 Have you figured like I've always tried to figure out 0:02:20.440 --> 0:02:23.440 some kind of equation of like what variables need to 0:02:23.480 --> 0:02:26.480 be in place for me to get into that flow state? 0:02:26.880 --> 0:02:27.440 You know what I mean? 0:02:27.680 --> 0:02:30.720 You have you found there are certain things that surround 0:02:30.720 --> 0:02:33.440 whether it's like people you're with or has you been 0:02:33.480 --> 0:02:35.320 eating or drinking or anything like that that kind of 0:02:35.320 --> 0:02:36.679 gets you to that flow state. 0:02:37.320 --> 0:02:38.680 For the most part, it is just what's going on 0:02:38.720 --> 0:02:40.880 in my life. If I got like a lot of 0:02:41.280 --> 0:02:44.200 drama or like a certain shit that's just you know, 0:02:44.880 --> 0:02:47.239 just fucking with me mentally, then it's gonna be hard 0:02:47.280 --> 0:02:49.040 for me to concentrate. But if I'm doing all the 0:02:49.120 --> 0:02:51.800 right shit, you know, taking care of myself and you know, 0:02:51.840 --> 0:02:53.840 for the most part, like just you know, staying out of. 0:02:53.800 --> 0:02:55.960 Trouble, yeah, yeah, yeah. 0:02:56.360 --> 0:02:58.200 But I got everything going good in my life, even 0:02:58.240 --> 0:03:01.119 though I do have like crazy anxiety too when shit 0:03:01.240 --> 0:03:03.400 diet like that. I don't know if other people deal 0:03:03.440 --> 0:03:06.000 with that, But sometime when stuff is just going too 0:03:06.040 --> 0:03:07.960 good for me, I'll be like, man, something's. 0:03:07.600 --> 0:03:13.560 Bad, right, right, right, right, there's almost something the best 0:03:13.600 --> 0:03:16.679 part about things being bad is that they can't get bad. 0:03:16.760 --> 0:03:20.560 They're already there. Yeah, but that's just living in your head. 0:03:20.880 --> 0:03:22.760 Once I just get out of that, you know, stop 0:03:22.880 --> 0:03:24.920 stop thinking too much, I think, you know, I just 0:03:24.960 --> 0:03:25.800 smoke a lot of weed. 0:03:25.840 --> 0:03:27.200 I think smoking weed. 0:03:27.840 --> 0:03:30.600 When I thought it was, you know, helping with my 0:03:30.639 --> 0:03:33.040 anxiety or helping me like to feel better and ship, 0:03:33.120 --> 0:03:35.080 it was just making shit worse, to be honest. 0:03:35.520 --> 0:03:37.880 You know, because I find that when I smoke weed, 0:03:37.920 --> 0:03:40.120 it feels like I'm like stepping on a step ladder 0:03:40.160 --> 0:03:42.320 and like kind of looking at my life from this 0:03:42.440 --> 0:03:44.040 different point of view. 0:03:44.520 --> 0:03:44.720 You know. 0:03:44.880 --> 0:03:47.160 Do you feel like you were just kind of thinking 0:03:47.280 --> 0:03:48.120 thinking too much? 0:03:48.640 --> 0:03:51.520 Yeah, because you always look at it like a numbing agent, Yeah, 0:03:51.720 --> 0:03:55.000 numbing pain type. But for the most part, it was 0:03:55.120 --> 0:03:57.640 just causing it more, to be honest, because it makes you, 0:03:57.640 --> 0:04:00.320 don't I mean, it made me not care now I 0:04:00.400 --> 0:04:01.040 care about shit? 0:04:01.160 --> 0:04:05.360 You know. Do you feel like you in your life 0:04:05.440 --> 0:04:05.800 right now? 0:04:05.840 --> 0:04:07.920 Are you? 0:04:07.640 --> 0:04:11.160 Are you has every year gotten better? 0:04:11.640 --> 0:04:16.159 Fuck? No, it really got a lot of worse for me. 0:04:16.240 --> 0:04:16.440 You know. 0:04:16.680 --> 0:04:18.640 I was just me, you know, caught up in my 0:04:18.640 --> 0:04:21.960 addictions and everything. But ever since I've been sober and everything. 0:04:22.000 --> 0:04:23.920 Everything's been going great. To be honest, I mean I 0:04:24.040 --> 0:04:25.800 never always, like I say, I always thought it was 0:04:25.880 --> 0:04:29.800 like me using as an escape. But now it's like 0:04:30.920 --> 0:04:33.719 everything's been great, man, I have no complaints right now. 0:04:36.240 --> 0:04:38.920 What do you? Is there anything that you've like been 0:04:38.920 --> 0:04:41.120 doing lately and in sober life that you feel like 0:04:41.160 --> 0:04:44.040 you just didn't have time for before? 0:04:44.200 --> 0:04:44.479 Yeah? 0:04:44.680 --> 0:04:47.719 I mean now I feel like I have too much 0:04:47.720 --> 0:04:49.279 time on my hands and I'd be like, what the 0:04:49.279 --> 0:04:50.560 fuck did I used to be doing all this time? 0:04:50.560 --> 0:04:51.359 I was getting sucked up. 0:04:51.400 --> 0:04:55.400 But now now I've just been working back, just being 0:04:55.440 --> 0:04:57.880 in the studio making music again. It's just started to 0:04:57.920 --> 0:05:00.560 become fun for me again. You know, before it just 0:05:00.560 --> 0:05:02.680 felt like work after a while, like I would be 0:05:02.720 --> 0:05:05.279 getting so fucked up and shit and having to be 0:05:05.320 --> 0:05:07.280 in the studio, and I didn't really like that shit, 0:05:07.520 --> 0:05:10.120 Like I already I don't know, I just didn't like it, 0:05:10.160 --> 0:05:13.240 to be honest. It got to a point where, you know, 0:05:13.640 --> 0:05:16.080 I just didn't really want to be in the studio. 0:05:16.560 --> 0:05:18.400 But now it's just like I'm having so much fun 0:05:18.440 --> 0:05:20.520 with it. I'm having fun. It's like cause you know, 0:05:21.160 --> 0:05:24.760 I guess when you become you know, like when you 0:05:24.800 --> 0:05:27.640 start making money from it, and as a kid it 0:05:27.680 --> 0:05:29.880 was a hobby, Like your hobby becomes your job. 0:05:30.000 --> 0:05:32.600 Yeah, it's like, oh fuck, yeah. 0:05:32.279 --> 0:05:34.560 You know now it's back again. It's starting to feel 0:05:34.600 --> 0:05:36.840 like a hobby again. So I've just been really just 0:05:36.960 --> 0:05:39.000 making music, man, for the most part. 0:05:39.320 --> 0:05:41.719 Do you feel like you're even still not having to 0:05:41.760 --> 0:05:45.599 balance the whole thing of like trying to do what 0:05:45.720 --> 0:05:48.359 will be you know in your mind, like financially and 0:05:48.360 --> 0:05:51.599 commercially successful versus like what you and your heart want 0:05:51.640 --> 0:05:54.240 to do, or are you pretty set on like I've 0:05:54.279 --> 0:05:55.919 gotten to the point where I want to be with 0:05:55.960 --> 0:05:58.159 all that other stuff, let me just do it what's 0:05:58.160 --> 0:05:58.839 in my own brain. 0:05:58.960 --> 0:06:00.680 I think when you start thinking that, it fucks with 0:06:00.720 --> 0:06:03.800 you creatively for sure, you know. So you know, it 0:06:03.880 --> 0:06:05.200 gets to the point you just got to do it 0:06:05.240 --> 0:06:07.960 for the love and anything else can come from. 0:06:07.760 --> 0:06:08.599 It, that's a blessing. 0:06:09.200 --> 0:06:11.680 So I always kind of went into making my music 0:06:11.720 --> 0:06:15.080 with that thought process. So it never really was about 0:06:15.200 --> 0:06:16.960 if you listen to my music, you obviously know I'm 0:06:17.000 --> 0:06:17.719 not fucking trying to. 0:06:17.720 --> 0:06:19.680 Make a top forty hit and shit like that. 0:06:19.720 --> 0:06:22.919 But you know, I guess I don't know man, I 0:06:23.040 --> 0:06:26.159 just really just just tapped into, like I don't know, 0:06:26.279 --> 0:06:28.320 just like a creative source. Like I said, it's almost 0:06:28.320 --> 0:06:30.520 like a flow state now, like I'm not trying hard 0:06:30.560 --> 0:06:33.200 to do this shit and I just making crazy shit. 0:06:33.360 --> 0:06:36.680 But for the most part, I just really just being 0:06:36.720 --> 0:06:38.800 creative and shit. It's like when you when you're doing 0:06:38.839 --> 0:06:41.000 it out of the love. I think that's when a 0:06:41.000 --> 0:06:43.440 lot of people gravitate towards it more so, almost like 0:06:43.440 --> 0:06:46.240 a creative energy or some type of shit I can't 0:06:46.240 --> 0:06:46.720 even hard to do. 0:06:47.279 --> 0:06:49.080 When you were like when you think about like the 0:06:49.120 --> 0:06:51.480 times where you just were dreading being in the studio 0:06:51.600 --> 0:06:53.080 the most, Like did you have a time where you 0:06:53.120 --> 0:06:57.159 just thought you would you would like never get it back. 0:06:57.480 --> 0:06:59.880 You know about making music. Yeah, I mean it's the 0:07:00.040 --> 0:07:01.480 love that you had for I mean. 0:07:01.400 --> 0:07:03.920 It's fairly easy for me to be honest, because I've 0:07:03.960 --> 0:07:07.240 been doing it for so long. But I think that 0:07:07.320 --> 0:07:09.120 was just me being wanted to be fucked up. It 0:07:09.200 --> 0:07:11.240 started out as me getting sucked up because I thought 0:07:11.280 --> 0:07:12.840 it sparked my creative juices. 0:07:13.240 --> 0:07:15.400 Then at the point like why am I here? I 0:07:15.480 --> 0:07:16.520 rather just get fucked up? 0:07:16.600 --> 0:07:21.680 Yeah, but no, it's just like you know, without all that, 0:07:22.360 --> 0:07:25.040 it was just a distraction to be honest. 0:07:25.360 --> 0:07:27.960 Mm well okay, I mean looking back on it, is 0:07:28.000 --> 0:07:30.080 there any part of it where you're like, you know 0:07:30.120 --> 0:07:33.640 what that night out actually did kind of like even 0:07:33.720 --> 0:07:36.200 kind of do something for this song, like it gave 0:07:36.240 --> 0:07:39.040 me this idea or this rhythm or something or was 0:07:39.080 --> 0:07:40.680 it all just excuse? 0:07:41.360 --> 0:07:42.400 It was just excuse? 0:07:43.160 --> 0:07:46.200 It was none of it, None of it. No, I 0:07:46.240 --> 0:07:48.720 think now I was just like because even got to 0:07:48.760 --> 0:07:51.480 the point where it was like I was just dreaded, 0:07:52.000 --> 0:07:53.480 like I gotta go to work. 0:07:54.040 --> 0:07:55.920 I looked at it like work and stopped being fun. 0:07:56.440 --> 0:07:58.480 And now I was just like, since I've not been 0:07:58.480 --> 0:08:00.200 looking at it like that and just been having fun 0:08:00.320 --> 0:08:01.800 with it again, is just like it comes to. 0:08:01.680 --> 0:08:02.840 Me so easy now. 0:08:03.040 --> 0:08:05.400 Before it be like wrecking my brain trying to make 0:08:05.440 --> 0:08:07.760 some dope shit or even just the point of doing that, 0:08:08.040 --> 0:08:09.600 like trying to make something dope. 0:08:10.040 --> 0:08:10.920 It's like, no, just. 0:08:10.840 --> 0:08:12.960 Get in there and do it, and everything else to 0:08:13.040 --> 0:08:13.840 take care of itself. 0:08:13.880 --> 0:08:16.080 So what was what was the spark for you to 0:08:16.120 --> 0:08:17.880 be like, you know, after so long for you to 0:08:17.920 --> 0:08:20.440 be like all right, I'm I'm gonna get clean and 0:08:20.640 --> 0:08:23.880 like kind of enter this new phase of life. 0:08:24.720 --> 0:08:27.240 I mean, it was something that I always wanted to do. 0:08:27.520 --> 0:08:29.800 I feel like, I mean, I knew I was fucking up, 0:08:30.040 --> 0:08:33.040 but I guess you know, as men, sometimes it's hard 0:08:33.040 --> 0:08:35.760 to ask for help, you know. And I didn't even 0:08:35.760 --> 0:08:38.200 know how to go about doing that, you know, so 0:08:39.000 --> 0:08:40.960 once I just got fed up, like you know, just 0:08:41.120 --> 0:08:45.520 running relationships and you know, having them waking up every morning, 0:08:45.640 --> 0:08:47.959 like you know, after getting blacked out drunk and people 0:08:47.960 --> 0:08:49.640 telling you shit you did and you're like, fuck, I 0:08:49.679 --> 0:08:52.960 did that, you know, and just so many embarrassments and 0:08:53.559 --> 0:08:55.360 shit like that, and just getting tired of that shit 0:08:55.440 --> 0:08:58.120 and just being fed up and then just you know, 0:08:58.160 --> 0:09:00.000 I guess when you feel like you were at rock bottom, 0:09:00.200 --> 0:09:03.120 like you know, I just felt like I was there 0:09:03.200 --> 0:09:05.880 emotionally where I was just tired of putting myself through 0:09:05.880 --> 0:09:07.840 that kind of turmoil, you know what I'm saying. Where 0:09:07.880 --> 0:09:10.240 I was like, shit, got a change, man. 0:09:10.760 --> 0:09:13.920 You know, what are you looking forward to in the future. 0:09:14.640 --> 0:09:19.240 In the future, Yeah, I think before I used to 0:09:19.640 --> 0:09:21.160 when I used to go on the road and I 0:09:21.160 --> 0:09:23.440 would do shows and shit, it was almost like I 0:09:23.559 --> 0:09:27.920 was more concerned with the after party than the actual show. Yeah, 0:09:28.160 --> 0:09:31.000 And now, you know, after I just did this tour 0:09:31.040 --> 0:09:34.480 with Peggy, being on stage started to become. 0:09:34.200 --> 0:09:37.559 Like therapy for me, Like it made me happy. 0:09:37.880 --> 0:09:39.920 Like I used to be so nervous to go on 0:09:39.960 --> 0:09:41.640 stage and I would get fucked up just because I 0:09:41.640 --> 0:09:44.160 felt like it would make me, you know, feel better 0:09:44.200 --> 0:09:46.960 and not be you know, just everybody get nervous, you know, 0:09:47.000 --> 0:09:48.520 being in front of a lot of people, I guess. 0:09:48.559 --> 0:09:51.600 But and now it's like I was excited to get 0:09:51.600 --> 0:09:54.280 on stage and that became like a former therapy for me. 0:09:54.320 --> 0:09:56.640 So I think for the most part, just being back 0:09:56.679 --> 0:09:59.880 on stage is caused me so much clarity to see 0:10:00.040 --> 0:10:02.160 people that really enjoy the music for what it is, 0:10:02.240 --> 0:10:04.520 you know, So that just made me feel so good 0:10:04.600 --> 0:10:05.520 during his last tour. 0:10:05.600 --> 0:10:06.560 So I'm just more. 0:10:06.440 --> 0:10:08.840 Excited to just get back out and playing music for 0:10:08.880 --> 0:10:09.880 the people that enjoy it. 0:10:10.160 --> 0:10:14.360 We were talking beforehand about like that the adrenaline after 0:10:14.440 --> 0:10:17.920 you do a show. I've been doing all these shows 0:10:17.960 --> 0:10:21.560 this year, doing the podcast live, and after each show, 0:10:21.600 --> 0:10:24.240 I also feel like like I can't just fucking go 0:10:24.320 --> 0:10:26.760 to sleep, you know, like even if I even I'll 0:10:26.800 --> 0:10:29.520 even just like take a long walk or something like. 0:10:29.720 --> 0:10:32.000 And you know, now that you you said you're not 0:10:32.040 --> 0:10:33.840 going out as much, Like what do you what do 0:10:33.880 --> 0:10:36.200 you do with that? And how what have you been 0:10:36.240 --> 0:10:37.200 doing with that energy? 0:10:37.400 --> 0:10:40.320 Yeah after the show, cause yeah, after after a show, 0:10:40.360 --> 0:10:42.720 I do have like a crazy like adrenaline rush and 0:10:42.720 --> 0:10:44.520 I'm like pumped up. And it was really hard the 0:10:44.559 --> 0:10:47.040 first couple of shows we did where I didn't know, 0:10:47.280 --> 0:10:49.280 you know, like damn, because I used to drink or 0:10:49.320 --> 0:10:52.400 you know, smoke and do other shit, you know. But 0:10:52.559 --> 0:10:56.720 now it's like I start to find like solace and 0:10:56.760 --> 0:10:58.960 like just going back to the hotel room by myself 0:10:59.040 --> 0:11:01.960 and yeah, playing and my steam deck or reading a 0:11:02.000 --> 0:11:04.640 book or just like you know, watching random shit on YouTube. 0:11:04.679 --> 0:11:06.360 You know, it just started. I just started to be 0:11:06.480 --> 0:11:09.240 comfortable in that element, you know. And then I brought 0:11:09.280 --> 0:11:12.920 my equipment with me, so I would like set up 0:11:12.960 --> 0:11:15.920 in hotel rooms and just work on music. So it'd 0:11:15.920 --> 0:11:17.680 be like, you know, I wake up in the morning, 0:11:18.000 --> 0:11:20.480 you know, get my coffee, you know everything. 0:11:20.120 --> 0:11:21.920 And just work on some music. 0:11:21.960 --> 0:11:23.560 Then before I know what, I gotta go to sound check, 0:11:23.640 --> 0:11:26.000 Go to sound check, come back, do some do a 0:11:26.000 --> 0:11:28.200 little more shit. So I just got caught up and 0:11:28.280 --> 0:11:31.120 it was like twenty four hour work where I didn't 0:11:32.080 --> 0:11:33.920 I wasn't even thinking about nothing else, you know. 0:11:34.360 --> 0:11:37.079 Well, it was also like the social elements of going out, 0:11:37.360 --> 0:11:39.719 you know, like it does it ever? Do you do 0:11:39.760 --> 0:11:42.200 you ever get like lonely afterwards, like after you're just. 0:11:42.200 --> 0:11:45.080 Sitting in there playing the Yeah, being on the road 0:11:45.240 --> 0:11:47.480 is lonely. Yeah, I wouldn't. I wouldn't say that. 0:11:47.520 --> 0:11:51.880 But I think for the most part, man, I just 0:11:52.280 --> 0:11:54.040 I don't know, I had a lot of time to 0:11:54.080 --> 0:11:56.400 be with myself, you know, when I'm at the crib 0:11:56.559 --> 0:11:58.719 with my girl, with my dogs. You know, it's a 0:11:58.800 --> 0:12:01.200 lot of stuff going on, you know, dealing with my family, 0:12:01.320 --> 0:12:03.760 my friends, you know, and for the most I haven't 0:12:03.800 --> 0:12:06.400 been on the road for a while, so being back 0:12:06.480 --> 0:12:08.920 it was like I was just happy being back at work, Like, oh, 0:12:09.000 --> 0:12:11.760 it almost kind of sparked something like I remember why 0:12:11.760 --> 0:12:13.000 I love doing this, you know. 0:12:13.520 --> 0:12:21.000 M Yeah, it almost feel like when you're when when 0:12:21.040 --> 0:12:23.720 you're just kind of going back home and like going 0:12:23.800 --> 0:12:25.760 back into your routine of what you of what you 0:12:25.760 --> 0:12:27.480 would be doing when you weren't on the road, like 0:12:27.480 --> 0:12:30.160 watching YouTube videos or reading or something like that, it 0:12:30.200 --> 0:12:33.160 feels like, you know, the days are less, you're you're 0:12:33.240 --> 0:12:36.480 less engulfed in fucking chaos. Yeah, you know, it's like 0:12:36.520 --> 0:12:37.840 becomes a part of your routine. 0:12:39.000 --> 0:12:41.920 Yeah, but I would say that being on the road, 0:12:42.440 --> 0:12:43.840 it's hard to like live. 0:12:43.679 --> 0:12:44.720 Healthy in some sense. 0:12:44.840 --> 0:12:47.360 Oh fuck yeah, you know, like you gotta eat bullshit 0:12:47.440 --> 0:12:48.120 where you can eat it. 0:12:48.200 --> 0:12:50.880 So I have enjoyed being back at home to be 0:12:50.960 --> 0:12:52.880 able to be able to eat. 0:12:52.720 --> 0:12:54.400 The way I want to eat, and live the way 0:12:54.440 --> 0:12:55.880 I want to live, and sleep in my own bed 0:12:56.000 --> 0:12:56.800 for the most part. 0:12:57.000 --> 0:12:59.600 You know, what's the worst, like things that you're eating 0:12:59.640 --> 0:13:01.000 on the on the red. 0:13:00.720 --> 0:13:02.640 I mean fast food, you know, sometimes you got to 0:13:02.800 --> 0:13:04.920 you know, certain cities you go in they shut down. 0:13:05.000 --> 0:13:07.480 Really you have a favorite one of those. 0:13:07.640 --> 0:13:09.600 I've just eat a lot of chicken. You know, I'm black. 0:13:11.880 --> 0:13:12.120 I was. 0:13:12.480 --> 0:13:14.960 We were just set seven eleven and I had what 0:13:15.080 --> 0:13:18.840 was it, the Lone Star. I had a lone Star slider. 0:13:19.240 --> 0:13:20.600 Oh god, it was. 0:13:21.559 --> 0:13:24.280 It wasn't that bad, It wasn't. Yeah, I mean I 0:13:24.360 --> 0:13:26.920 might have to I might have to fucking shove all 0:13:26.920 --> 0:13:29.760 these tables away to do diarrhea halfway through this. 0:13:29.880 --> 0:13:33.400 But yeah, eating out to seven eleven is gnarly. That's 0:13:33.480 --> 0:13:35.880 definitely some gnarly that takes me back to like being 0:13:35.920 --> 0:13:37.400 a teenager or some ship man. 0:13:37.600 --> 0:13:39.080 Nah, I can't do that no more. 0:13:39.880 --> 0:13:41.560 Hey man, you want to take a phone call at all, 0:13:42.000 --> 0:13:49.559 let's do. Let's see what we got on the phones. Hello, Stephanie, Stephene? 0:13:50.200 --> 0:13:51.520 Is it Stephanie or Stein? 0:13:52.040 --> 0:13:54.000 You can call me whatever you want, but it's Stephanie. 0:13:54.520 --> 0:13:57.480 Okay, then I'll then I'll call you Steffene. All right, 0:13:58.559 --> 0:13:59.560 what's going on, Stephen? 0:14:00.040 --> 0:14:04.560 I'm busy and I work my choose jobs, so that's 0:14:04.559 --> 0:14:05.160 pretty fun. 0:14:06.120 --> 0:14:11.360 Well, you said here that your boyfriend is choosing roadblocks 0:14:11.720 --> 0:14:13.680 over your guys' relationship. 0:14:15.440 --> 0:14:20.520 Yeah, I'm trying to understand why he does that. It's 0:14:20.720 --> 0:14:22.640 to me, it's like a child's game, and I don't 0:14:22.680 --> 0:14:26.239 know why he's choosing a child game over our relationship. 0:14:27.960 --> 0:14:30.000 So I've been dating him for a year and it's 0:14:30.040 --> 0:14:30.920 been pretty. 0:14:30.600 --> 0:14:31.320 Good to tell. 0:14:31.480 --> 0:14:36.080 He started his little roblocks eviction and I managed to 0:14:36.080 --> 0:14:38.000 make an account because I was like, Okay, we could 0:14:38.000 --> 0:14:40.120 spend more time with each other if I get this game. 0:14:40.240 --> 0:14:44.480 And he's kind of like choosing to play that game 0:14:44.560 --> 0:14:48.240 all day till like four am rather than hang out 0:14:48.280 --> 0:14:52.880 with me. And it's always this one game which I 0:14:52.960 --> 0:14:56.520 came to realize it's like this donation game. So do 0:14:56.560 --> 0:14:58.840 you know how roadblocks work? I? 0:14:59.120 --> 0:14:59.960 Do you know how roadblocks? 0:15:00.360 --> 0:15:01.520 No? I'm grown? 0:15:03.680 --> 0:15:07.760 Okay, Well, he gives like these roebucks with like actual money, 0:15:07.800 --> 0:15:10.960 and I wanted to support his little gaming edition, so 0:15:11.120 --> 0:15:14.160 I bought him a couple of gift cards, and I 0:15:14.200 --> 0:15:17.840 guess I realized that donation game. He donates all the 0:15:17.880 --> 0:15:21.720 gift cards I give to him to random people, and 0:15:21.760 --> 0:15:23.360 that's like the only game he plays on there. 0:15:23.400 --> 0:15:24.280 And it's really. 0:15:25.600 --> 0:15:28.920 I'm trying to figure out what he enjoys doing that 0:15:29.120 --> 0:15:31.920 rather than like hanging out with me and. 0:15:33.600 --> 0:15:34.400 Using my money. 0:15:35.160 --> 0:15:40.800 Nineteen Okay, I don't know. It's like an EDP situation 0:15:40.880 --> 0:15:41.560 going on here. 0:15:41.600 --> 0:15:42.640 What's ZDP stand for? 0:15:42.880 --> 0:15:43.520 This pump bro? 0:15:48.160 --> 0:15:48.200 No? 0:15:48.320 --> 0:15:50.880 Because I joined him one time and they's just like 0:15:50.920 --> 0:15:53.440 a bunch of kids running to him or not kids. 0:15:53.440 --> 0:15:54.640 I don't know how all they are, but like they 0:15:54.640 --> 0:15:57.760 tell me for money. 0:15:57.800 --> 0:15:59.840 I guess what I want to say is if is 0:16:00.000 --> 0:16:02.080 do you want him to stop playing the game? And 0:16:02.240 --> 0:16:03.920 you're I get I guess you're trying to be a 0:16:04.280 --> 0:16:06.560 supportive girlfriend, But if you want him to stop playing 0:16:06.600 --> 0:16:11.280 the game, why are you buying him gift cards. 0:16:10.840 --> 0:16:14.640 For the game, well, because I just I don't know. 0:16:14.800 --> 0:16:18.240 I'm I really provided for him. I don't know whatever 0:16:18.280 --> 0:16:20.560 he wants. I comes to give it to him because 0:16:20.600 --> 0:16:23.640 you know, I like to make him happy. But it's 0:16:23.680 --> 0:16:25.160 kind of like a slap to the face. I give 0:16:25.200 --> 0:16:27.680 him like maybe a forty dollars gift carded then he 0:16:27.760 --> 0:16:31.640 just like ignores me, and I feel like I'm kind 0:16:31.640 --> 0:16:34.200 of too old to be going through this cycle over 0:16:34.240 --> 0:16:34.840 and over again. 0:16:35.960 --> 0:16:37.560 What do you do? What do you do outside of 0:16:37.560 --> 0:16:41.640 your relationship? Do you have a dreams and aspirations outside 0:16:41.680 --> 0:16:43.080 of this rowbox man? 0:16:46.320 --> 0:16:49.600 So, I don't know. I just work with my two jobs, 0:16:50.360 --> 0:16:52.600 come home, hang out with my boyfriend. That's that's all 0:16:52.600 --> 0:17:00.240 I do when I release Dream. Yeah, he works worked 0:17:00.240 --> 0:17:03.560 it two days a week and he's in score and 0:17:03.600 --> 0:17:04.720 now he's in college right now. 0:17:06.160 --> 0:17:07.000 That's pretty weird. 0:17:07.119 --> 0:17:11.200 He just makes it rain on kids and roadblocks with 0:17:11.400 --> 0:17:11.919 my money. 0:17:11.960 --> 0:17:16.080 I guess, I what did you I I've been trying 0:17:16.080 --> 0:17:23.160 to get it. So we're actually a long distance We 0:17:23.160 --> 0:17:25.200 we met off of a game called the Art Chat, 0:17:25.400 --> 0:17:30.440 and I think someone talks about it and on your channel. 0:17:30.119 --> 0:17:35.040 Before you I do know what vr chat is who 0:17:35.160 --> 0:17:37.880 I want to know what what was his avatar and vr. 0:17:37.800 --> 0:17:40.640 Chat he wasn't. 0:17:40.880 --> 0:17:43.879 He wasn't like a meme avatar. We're both in meme avatars, 0:17:43.880 --> 0:17:46.040 so we're like duping around and I started talking to him, 0:17:46.720 --> 0:17:51.600 and to be honest, it's been pretty healthy besides this 0:17:51.960 --> 0:17:55.440 roadblock phase because before him, I was dating someone for 0:17:55.560 --> 0:17:58.679 seven years and you know, he didn't really cheat me 0:17:58.680 --> 0:18:01.440 well with them. I started eating this man right here. 0:18:01.920 --> 0:18:05.480 So it's just it's just I don't know. 0:18:06.200 --> 0:18:09.400 Well, you you met your boyfriend in a digital realm, 0:18:09.760 --> 0:18:13.120 knowing that he spends a lot of time and digital realms, 0:18:13.640 --> 0:18:19.399 and he continues to spend lots of time and digital realms. Yeah, 0:18:19.440 --> 0:18:21.199 and you and you, but you made an account to 0:18:21.240 --> 0:18:22.800 try to play it with. 0:18:22.800 --> 0:18:25.080 Him, right, Yeah. 0:18:25.600 --> 0:18:27.800 I really don't understand the games because it's like too 0:18:27.880 --> 0:18:30.760 kiddish for me, and I just I can't really enjoy it. 0:18:31.960 --> 0:18:35.719 I kind of thought like that he would like, yeah, somebody, 0:18:36.160 --> 0:18:38.240 it would be a red flag for you. For somebody, 0:18:38.720 --> 0:18:39.200 it's just. 0:18:39.119 --> 0:18:42.560 A little creepy, give me creepy vibes, like kids or something. 0:18:44.440 --> 0:18:46.840 Yeah, I don't think he would ever cheat, but it's 0:18:46.880 --> 0:18:49.159 just like it's I don't know. 0:18:49.160 --> 0:18:51.480 I don't know if the fact that that would be 0:18:51.560 --> 0:18:54.880 cheating is the problem. 0:18:54.960 --> 0:18:57.440 Yeah, I know he used to socialize, but I would 0:18:57.520 --> 0:19:00.400 rather have like socialize on I guess the org because 0:19:00.400 --> 0:19:03.800 it's more aim for adults, and I would kind of 0:19:03.880 --> 0:19:05.200 understand it in that way. 0:19:05.760 --> 0:19:07.040 Does he have like a bunch Does he have like 0:19:07.080 --> 0:19:11.000 a bunch of like friends on discord who are like kids? 0:19:11.000 --> 0:19:11.520 And shit? 0:19:13.240 --> 0:19:17.359 No, there, I would consider eighteen still kind of like 0:19:17.400 --> 0:19:21.439 a kid honestly, So they're kind of eighteen twenty so 0:19:21.600 --> 0:19:25.520 his age range, but it's just they are really childish. 0:19:25.760 --> 0:19:31.640 So I just mentally not mature. I'm twenty two. 0:19:32.640 --> 0:19:37.000 Oh m hmm. It's a little creepy man, A little 0:19:37.040 --> 0:19:40.800 creepy me, right, No, not you him. 0:19:41.560 --> 0:19:43.240 I just wouldn't want to be spending my time all 0:19:43.320 --> 0:19:46.320 day when I got me a hot old woman sitting 0:19:46.320 --> 0:19:47.840 around playing Rodblox all day. 0:19:47.920 --> 0:19:49.320 That's just a little creepy things. 0:19:49.359 --> 0:19:54.600 I work like thirteen hour shifts or one of my jobs, 0:19:54.640 --> 0:19:58.159 and I would like to kind of like what is 0:19:58.200 --> 0:20:00.280 the word he compressed and hang out with him, maybe 0:20:00.320 --> 0:20:04.159 watch something, But he choose to go in the roadblocks 0:20:04.160 --> 0:20:06.760 and play games all night. So I feel kind of 0:20:06.760 --> 0:20:09.080 ignored and I'm kind of too drained to fight it anymore. 0:20:11.119 --> 0:20:15.200 Did you, like before calling us, did you have a 0:20:15.320 --> 0:20:18.440 sit down with him where you told him that he's 0:20:18.520 --> 0:20:20.520 spending too much time with roadblocks children. 0:20:22.560 --> 0:20:26.040 Well, if I'm being honest, I kind of talked to 0:20:26.080 --> 0:20:27.840 him like, hey, I was pretty depressed today and I 0:20:27.920 --> 0:20:29.400 kind of mentioned it to you. I wish you could 0:20:29.480 --> 0:20:32.760 like watch something and hung out, and he kind of 0:20:32.760 --> 0:20:35.600 like give me half ass replies and continue playing this 0:20:35.640 --> 0:20:38.480 little roadblocks. So I try to mention it. 0:20:39.080 --> 0:20:39.440 I think. 0:20:39.720 --> 0:20:42.480 I think sometimes you gotta just like like you get 0:20:42.480 --> 0:20:47.239 to give a direct response of like, hey, you are 0:20:47.280 --> 0:20:48.320 spending too much time. 0:20:48.600 --> 0:20:51.440 I feel like, oh no, I've had multiple times. That's 0:20:51.440 --> 0:20:54.720 the thing. So it's just like you teach yourself too much. 0:20:54.800 --> 0:20:58.399 It's just I I don't even want to say it anymore. 0:20:58.400 --> 0:21:00.760 That's why I'm kind of like joining myself dollars from 0:21:00.880 --> 0:21:01.800 both of my jobs. 0:21:01.840 --> 0:21:04.359 So I mean it sounds like to me, if he 0:21:04.600 --> 0:21:07.600 met you on VR chat, he might got a roadbox relationship. 0:21:07.600 --> 0:21:09.440 You might got him with a rodbox bitch or something 0:21:09.440 --> 0:21:11.639 going on. I wouldn't doubt that. 0:21:11.760 --> 0:21:12.359 I'm not trying to. 0:21:14.160 --> 0:21:16.639 No, no, no, I know he doesn't. It's just the 0:21:16.720 --> 0:21:20.400 fact he enjoys hanging out with I don't know children. 0:21:20.400 --> 0:21:21.159 I guess I don't know. 0:21:21.560 --> 0:21:23.960 That's kind of worse than having a Rodbox girlfriend. 0:21:24.480 --> 0:21:25.479 I think he got a roadblock. 0:21:25.840 --> 0:21:28.679 I think they're equal, if I'm being honest. 0:21:29.640 --> 0:21:32.040 That'd be crazy if he had a robox girlfriend and 0:21:32.119 --> 0:21:38.200 he was donating to her using gift card money. Yeah, 0:21:38.720 --> 0:21:40.000 I don't know. I don't know this guy. I don't 0:21:40.000 --> 0:21:42.040 want to put anything on him like that. 0:21:42.200 --> 0:21:43.520 But it's pamping. 0:21:46.040 --> 0:21:46.560 Out here. 0:21:47.119 --> 0:21:50.240 Well let me okay, Actually, here's uh. You guys are 0:21:50.280 --> 0:21:53.679 long distance, right, so you can't even you You almost 0:21:53.880 --> 0:21:55.639 like are spending time in these digital realms because that's 0:21:55.640 --> 0:21:57.520 the only way you can spend time. Where where? How 0:21:57.560 --> 0:21:58.080 far is this. 0:22:01.960 --> 0:22:05.600 He's I feel like people who know him watched this. 0:22:05.680 --> 0:22:08.600 But that's fine. He's in Canada and I'm in Texas. 0:22:08.880 --> 0:22:13.000 But my parents offered because they really like my boyfriend. 0:22:13.000 --> 0:22:15.919 They offer to buy a plane ticket for one of 0:22:15.960 --> 0:22:20.000 us to see each other this upcoming summer. So we 0:22:20.119 --> 0:22:22.520 have plans to meet and stuff. But the way he's 0:22:22.520 --> 0:22:26.880 asking just makes me very unsure about it being successful. 0:22:26.920 --> 0:22:30.960 Because he's choosing a litteral child game rather than focusing 0:22:31.000 --> 0:22:31.880 on a relationship. 0:22:32.640 --> 0:22:36.400 This is crazy. I think you probably need to find 0:22:36.400 --> 0:22:37.120 a new boyfriend. 0:22:40.040 --> 0:22:40.200 Oh. 0:22:40.200 --> 0:22:42.760 I'm trying my best to, like really giving as much 0:22:42.880 --> 0:22:44.560 chances as I can, because I do love him to 0:22:44.640 --> 0:22:48.040 death and I'm the type of person who always puts 0:22:48.040 --> 0:22:50.000 them before I do, like myself. 0:22:51.200 --> 0:22:53.520 Your type of person. You put the person you're with 0:22:53.720 --> 0:22:54.680 before yourself. 0:22:56.160 --> 0:22:59.240 Yeah, of course, before before. 0:22:58.920 --> 0:23:02.280 We go, I want to ask you, what's your name again? 0:23:02.920 --> 0:23:06.679 My name is Seane Stephanie Stephanie. If you were to 0:23:06.720 --> 0:23:10.439 put yourself, if you were to put yourself first, what 0:23:10.440 --> 0:23:11.760 would that look like for you? 0:23:15.760 --> 0:23:19.160 Well, I would honestly keep doing the same things I'm doing, 0:23:19.440 --> 0:23:21.960 working more hours, so I go af forward to move 0:23:22.000 --> 0:23:25.760 out and provide for myself and just not date for 0:23:25.840 --> 0:23:26.320 a little bit. 0:23:29.240 --> 0:23:32.560 I don't know, I'm lost. 0:23:32.560 --> 0:23:34.000 I'm kind of lost in life as well. 0:23:34.080 --> 0:23:43.679 So mhmm mmmm. Well, if you ever want to uh 0:23:44.200 --> 0:23:49.960 use use me as a VR avatar, you can have 0:23:50.000 --> 0:23:54.040 the rights to my Gecko intellectual property and use that 0:23:54.160 --> 0:23:59.000 to find as many romantic partners as that would bring on. 0:24:00.800 --> 0:24:02.920 Oh no, I would, I would pimp with that avatar. 0:24:04.800 --> 0:24:07.640 Danny do you have any final thoughts for Stephanie at all? 0:24:07.960 --> 0:24:11.479 Yeah, I need to find you a real person. 0:24:11.600 --> 0:24:11.760 Man. 0:24:13.600 --> 0:24:15.400 It's hard. It's hard to do in the long dis Yeah. 0:24:17.000 --> 0:24:20.800 I enjoy long distance because I feel much safer because 0:24:20.880 --> 0:24:23.600 my seven year relationship he was very I guess abusive 0:24:23.680 --> 0:24:25.600 and stuff. So you know, you can't really hit me 0:24:25.640 --> 0:24:26.320 through the internet. 0:24:26.680 --> 0:24:29.000 Oh man, I'm sorry to hear that. I'm sorry to 0:24:29.000 --> 0:24:34.480 hear that, Stephanie. Although this s guy Joshin, he doesn't 0:24:34.480 --> 0:24:37.240 seem like that physically imposing of a man. 0:24:37.920 --> 0:24:40.920 I mean, nineteen years old on roadblocks, eighteen hours a day. 0:24:40.920 --> 0:24:45.520 Hell no, Stephane. 0:24:45.480 --> 0:24:48.040 I hoped this was I hope this was in some way, 0:24:48.040 --> 0:24:50.280 shape or form. I don't know that. 0:24:50.840 --> 0:24:52.680 I mean, it's nice to talk to someone about it. 0:24:53.840 --> 0:24:55.199 Dude, is there anything else you want to say to 0:24:55.200 --> 0:25:00.240 the people of the computer before we go? O, don't 0:25:00.280 --> 0:25:02.040 let your boyfriend play Roadblocks. 0:25:02.440 --> 0:25:03.840 That's all I got to say. 0:25:04.160 --> 0:25:05.120 I have a good night, Stephanie. 0:25:06.480 --> 0:25:07.280 You have a niclone. 0:25:11.359 --> 0:25:13.679 That's weird. I thought Roadblocks was like but like people 0:25:13.760 --> 0:25:15.920 like I don't know, like twelve of or some shit. 0:25:16.240 --> 0:25:18.400 I think it is. I think this guy is probably 0:25:18.520 --> 0:25:20.520 like when he said, we don't. I don't know what 0:25:20.880 --> 0:25:23.879 she meant by a donation game or if it's like, 0:25:23.960 --> 0:25:25.879 I mean, you can like donate to twitch streamers or 0:25:25.920 --> 0:25:28.639 something like that, but I don't. I don't know me 0:25:28.720 --> 0:25:30.840 even even the guys who are like streaming that are 0:25:30.920 --> 0:25:32.480 like fifteen or something like that. 0:25:32.680 --> 0:25:35.320 Like it's kind of creepy. Yeah, it's kind of Creepy'll 0:25:35.320 --> 0:25:36.960 get a little pdfile vibes. 0:25:37.240 --> 0:25:41.680 Yeah, yeah, yeah. Uh do you what? What do you 0:25:41.680 --> 0:25:42.560 play on the Steam Deck? 0:25:43.920 --> 0:25:46.719 Well, I've been playing The Witcher because I never finished it. 0:25:46.840 --> 0:25:48.840 I was playing a lot of The Witcher, but for 0:25:48.880 --> 0:25:51.000 the most part, I'm you know, I play a lot 0:25:51.040 --> 0:25:51.879 of j RPGs. 0:25:52.320 --> 0:25:55.760 Okay, yeah, so I'm what what what are you plan now? 0:25:55.800 --> 0:25:57.280 There's a two percent chance? 0:25:57.280 --> 0:25:59.480 So well, I went back and I was playing for 0:25:59.560 --> 0:26:05.119 Soono four, were for Signer four. I'm getting into Starfield. 0:26:05.200 --> 0:26:06.600 I'm gonna start playing that tonight. 0:26:07.440 --> 0:26:08.800 Do you ever play the Switch? 0:26:09.520 --> 0:26:12.160 The Nintendo Switch? Yeah? Yeah, I lost a few of them. 0:26:12.359 --> 0:26:14.560 You lost you lost a few. 0:26:15.119 --> 0:26:16.160 Lost a few switches? 0:26:16.240 --> 0:26:18.320 Where did you? I mean, I guess if you knew 0:26:18.320 --> 0:26:19.639 you wouldn't have, it wouldn't be lost. 0:26:19.640 --> 0:26:22.000 But leaving him in a hotel room one time I left 0:26:22.040 --> 0:26:23.520 a switch in the hotel room. Next thing I know, 0:26:23.560 --> 0:26:25.560 I got a new one and he bought like four 0:26:25.600 --> 0:26:27.240 new games. I'm like, what the fuck? I ain't buy 0:26:27.280 --> 0:26:28.919 no Mario Party. What the going? 0:26:29.960 --> 0:26:32.760 They were in your account and they bought the games, Like, 0:26:32.800 --> 0:26:34.800 I ain't buy Mario Party. Who got this? 0:26:35.359 --> 0:26:35.439 So? 0:26:35.600 --> 0:26:37.119 Yeah? But no, I don't have a switch. 0:26:37.200 --> 0:26:37.320 Now. 0:26:37.359 --> 0:26:38.920 I've been like every since I got the Steam, Steam 0:26:38.960 --> 0:26:41.679 Decks amazing, I got the emulator on it, got a 0:26:41.680 --> 0:26:43.400 whole bunch of game Cube games. 0:26:43.440 --> 0:26:47.760 I've been back playing game Cube game Metroy Prime. Okay, 0:26:47.920 --> 0:26:49.440 That's what I've been getting busy with. 0:26:50.640 --> 0:26:52.600 I'm gonna beat I'm a huge I used to play, 0:26:52.640 --> 0:26:55.560 like in tournaments for a Super Smash Brothers. 0:26:55.600 --> 0:26:58.800 I suck at Smash. I mean I think I was 0:26:58.840 --> 0:27:00.520 better on it. What was it sixty four? 0:27:00.960 --> 0:27:01.360 Sixty four? 0:27:01.440 --> 0:27:03.639 No? No, I think it was Gang Year. I think 0:27:03.680 --> 0:27:05.480 game Cube was my favorite one. Yeah. 0:27:05.800 --> 0:27:06.840 Do you ever play the new one? 0:27:07.200 --> 0:27:07.920 Yeah? It suck. 0:27:08.119 --> 0:27:12.000 I suck the the I'm like kind of a purist 0:27:12.000 --> 0:27:12.320 about it. 0:27:12.359 --> 0:27:13.200 Like the new one. 0:27:13.800 --> 0:27:17.880 It controls a little bit differently than the GameCube one. 0:27:18.680 --> 0:27:21.280 So I'll only play the GameCube one it's just people 0:27:21.280 --> 0:27:23.879 are so good at it, man. Yeah, it's one of 0:27:23.880 --> 0:27:24.439 those games. 0:27:24.440 --> 0:27:26.639 It's just like, Man, you can have fun playing it, 0:27:26.680 --> 0:27:29.280 but then when you play someone that's just fucking amazing thatdy. 0:27:29.160 --> 0:27:30.520 Like, I don't want to play this shit no more. 0:27:30.520 --> 0:27:31.800 Why am I putting myself through this? 0:27:32.040 --> 0:27:32.640 It's not fun. 0:27:32.760 --> 0:27:34.000 No, it's not fun at all. 0:27:34.240 --> 0:27:35.679 Then I was trying to be cool and play with 0:27:35.720 --> 0:27:37.680 love Mac and shit because he was a new character 0:27:37.760 --> 0:27:38.400 at the time. 0:27:38.280 --> 0:27:40.720 And fuck it fucking sucks little Max. 0:27:40.760 --> 0:27:42.680 So you ever sideb off the stage? 0:27:43.800 --> 0:27:44.040 Yeah? 0:27:44.080 --> 0:27:47.280 Always falling off the fucking stage with may do that 0:27:47.320 --> 0:27:50.639 fucking dash punch and just fall right off the fucking world. 0:27:53.359 --> 0:27:55.280 That was pretty good with kirbyat oh back in the day. 0:27:55.400 --> 0:27:56.120 That was my guy. 0:27:57.560 --> 0:28:04.159 Yeah, use that down b move you already know. So 0:28:04.320 --> 0:28:11.960 let's suck to let's talk to MJ. Hello, Oh hello, Hey, 0:28:12.000 --> 0:28:12.359 what's up? 0:28:12.400 --> 0:28:12.560 Man? 0:28:12.880 --> 0:28:14.800 Oh my god? Is this Lyle? Yeah? 0:28:14.840 --> 0:28:16.040 It's Lyle and Danny. What's up? 0:28:16.040 --> 0:28:16.800 Man? What's it up? 0:28:16.840 --> 0:28:17.000 Bro? 0:28:17.720 --> 0:28:21.320 I'm I'm I'm actually shaking. I'm Oh my god, Lyle, 0:28:21.440 --> 0:28:24.480 you have no idea, like, how big of a fan 0:28:24.560 --> 0:28:29.880 I am. I worked all summer and the only thing 0:28:29.920 --> 0:28:32.800 that got me through the first five hours of like 0:28:32.880 --> 0:28:34.240 my ten hour shifts. 0:28:34.440 --> 0:28:37.040 Were you bro? For real? 0:28:37.520 --> 0:28:38.160 Thanks? Man? 0:28:39.720 --> 0:28:39.920 Yeah? 0:28:39.920 --> 0:28:41.720 Can you say something nice about Danny too? 0:28:42.920 --> 0:28:45.440 You don't have to Danny, Danny, you look great in 0:28:45.520 --> 0:28:46.840 the suit. I'm being serious. 0:28:46.840 --> 0:28:48.720 I actually was just checking out your music right now. 0:28:48.880 --> 0:28:51.120 I actually might start listening to you more for real, Like, 0:28:51.240 --> 0:28:52.200 yes to figure. 0:28:52.000 --> 0:28:55.080 Music that warms my heart? 0:28:56.640 --> 0:28:57.240 What's up about? 0:28:58.240 --> 0:28:59.080 Serious? Thank you? 0:29:00.040 --> 0:29:00.840 How's how's it going? 0:29:00.840 --> 0:29:01.000 Man? 0:29:01.000 --> 0:29:04.200 What's what's going on with you? It says that you're 0:29:04.320 --> 0:29:10.360 nineteen from Chicago, You're in college, and you're like finding 0:29:10.400 --> 0:29:14.520 it hard to talk to your peers. It says, is. 0:29:14.480 --> 0:29:19.120 That, yeah, yeah, So I've been in school right now 0:29:19.160 --> 0:29:23.600 for about three weeks and I've only been able to 0:29:23.640 --> 0:29:27.480 talk to one person in my class, and she's a 0:29:27.520 --> 0:29:31.800 pretty cool dude. And the only way I've learned how 0:29:31.840 --> 0:29:33.800 to talk to him is I offered him like a 0:29:33.840 --> 0:29:35.960 piece of gum, Like every single class period that I 0:29:36.000 --> 0:29:37.360 had with him, I was like, do you want a 0:29:37.400 --> 0:29:39.040 piece of gum or anything? 0:29:39.680 --> 0:29:41.480 And he's really cool. 0:29:41.560 --> 0:29:43.280 I mean, he reminds me a lot of my older brother, 0:29:43.560 --> 0:29:45.440 so it just kind of feels like I'm talking to him. 0:29:45.960 --> 0:29:50.000 But other than that, I am just really like I'm 0:29:50.000 --> 0:29:53.200 not diagnosed at all with like social anxiety, but it's 0:29:53.400 --> 0:29:56.560 I find it really hard to like talk to people, 0:29:56.800 --> 0:29:58.840 and like even if I'm like in a store or whatever, 0:29:59.120 --> 0:30:01.680 I have to have like my brother, like my sibling 0:30:01.800 --> 0:30:04.360 hyped me up to talk to like an employee, to 0:30:04.360 --> 0:30:05.680 ask like do you know where this is? 0:30:06.200 --> 0:30:09.280 So it's just it's. 0:30:09.200 --> 0:30:12.200 Kind of hard to like get myself out there and 0:30:12.200 --> 0:30:13.280 like just talk to people. 0:30:17.320 --> 0:30:19.680 I dealt with that a lot, but I had fucked 0:30:19.720 --> 0:30:22.800 up teeth, so I just do want people to see 0:30:22.800 --> 0:30:24.280 my teeth. So I didn't used to talk a lot 0:30:24.280 --> 0:30:26.240 when I was younger because they always teased me and shit. 0:30:26.960 --> 0:30:30.720 But for the most part, I realized that it's almost 0:30:30.840 --> 0:30:33.160 just like putting yourself in a situation and you're just 0:30:33.160 --> 0:30:35.160 being cool enough and people would just like want to 0:30:35.240 --> 0:30:38.160 kick it with you, like when you seem interesting, you 0:30:38.160 --> 0:30:40.680 know what I'm saying type shit where you know, not 0:30:40.960 --> 0:30:42.960 trying too hard, not being a try hard and not 0:30:43.000 --> 0:30:44.680 trying to go out because then that comes off kind 0:30:44.720 --> 0:30:46.840 of creepy. But I feel like, just you know, you 0:30:46.880 --> 0:30:48.560 got to just go with the flow and not live 0:30:48.600 --> 0:30:50.960 in your head, and eventually people would just pop up. 0:30:51.200 --> 0:30:51.920 That's how I feel. 0:30:52.280 --> 0:30:54.280 I feel like there's almost that you have to like 0:30:54.400 --> 0:30:56.760 get comfortable with yourself. 0:30:56.840 --> 0:30:57.320 Yeah. 0:30:57.560 --> 0:31:00.280 First, because if you're if you think that you're word 0:31:00.280 --> 0:31:02.760 and suck, then everyone else is gonna kind of kind 0:31:02.760 --> 0:31:03.440 of catch on to that. 0:31:03.520 --> 0:31:04.480 So you have to kind of like. 0:31:06.000 --> 0:31:10.480 Build that internal confidence, and weirdly it always kind of 0:31:10.480 --> 0:31:12.600 shows in a way. I mean, how do you how 0:31:12.600 --> 0:31:13.880 do you feel about yourself? 0:31:14.480 --> 0:31:14.680 M J. 0:31:16.480 --> 0:31:17.640 I'm man, I'm not that confident. 0:31:17.680 --> 0:31:18.360 I'm gonna be honest. 0:31:19.040 --> 0:31:19.160 Uh. 0:31:20.040 --> 0:31:23.960 I kind of struggle with a lot of body positivity 0:31:24.200 --> 0:31:26.120 and just my looks and everything. I try to take 0:31:26.160 --> 0:31:29.680 care of myself as much as possible, but it's hard, 0:31:30.120 --> 0:31:32.800 you know. And I just I got a new haircut, 0:31:33.040 --> 0:31:35.200 like something that I never did. I got like those 0:31:35.200 --> 0:31:36.440 like modern mullets now. 0:31:36.960 --> 0:31:39.240 But how tall are you? 0:31:39.400 --> 0:31:44.160 I'm just I'm five eight five eight, so I'm. 0:31:44.000 --> 0:31:49.800 Like pretty sure. Yeah, how tall are you? 0:31:50.040 --> 0:31:50.600 Five six? 0:31:52.360 --> 0:31:52.560 Oh? 0:31:52.760 --> 0:31:56.880 Oh you're like my brother? Yeah, My little brother's taller 0:31:56.880 --> 0:31:59.360 than me. And I kind of look to him more 0:31:59.600 --> 0:32:02.360 as like kind of like trying to be like him 0:32:02.360 --> 0:32:05.200 because he's in high school and everything, and he just 0:32:05.400 --> 0:32:07.680 does not care about what other people think or say 0:32:07.800 --> 0:32:09.200 he's the Hills person. 0:32:09.240 --> 0:32:11.880 Ever, you don't really talk. He has like a. 0:32:11.800 --> 0:32:13.920 Group of friends that he usually hangs out with, like 0:32:14.000 --> 0:32:18.360 online and in school, and he's just like, man, I 0:32:18.400 --> 0:32:20.320 don't think like you're too much or like he always 0:32:20.320 --> 0:32:23.160 will tell me do your cringy, dude, you're embarrassing and everything. 0:32:23.200 --> 0:32:26.280 So kind of it either messes with me or I'm like, man, 0:32:26.280 --> 0:32:28.200 I'm doing too much. I gotta like calm down. 0:32:29.520 --> 0:32:33.080 So so, Danny, you said that you've kind of felt like, 0:32:33.840 --> 0:32:35.680 you know, earlier on you had a little bit of 0:32:35.760 --> 0:32:39.160 what he's talking about. But I mean now you kind 0:32:39.160 --> 0:32:42.080 of seem like you have a bit of a you know, 0:32:42.160 --> 0:32:45.680 not giving a fuck what people think about me. What 0:32:45.720 --> 0:32:47.800 do you think changed for you in that cause? 0:32:47.920 --> 0:32:50.000 I mean like it's all about what you're kind of into. 0:32:50.280 --> 0:32:52.000 And I think most of my friends when I when 0:32:52.000 --> 0:32:53.920 I was in school and stuff, it all came from music. 0:32:54.320 --> 0:32:56.640 So it's like I was super into like rapping all 0:32:56.640 --> 0:32:58.959 that stuff, and you know, I used to rap and stuff, 0:32:59.000 --> 0:33:01.480 so I met my friends do doing it. So I 0:33:01.480 --> 0:33:03.760 think it's pretty much about like what you're into, and 0:33:03.800 --> 0:33:06.720 that's where your friend group will come from and that type. 0:33:06.800 --> 0:33:08.920 So what are you into right now? 0:33:08.920 --> 0:33:13.240 I'm actually majoring within graphic design and like art and stuff, 0:33:13.720 --> 0:33:16.320 so I try to like talk to people about like, 0:33:16.840 --> 0:33:19.520 you know, all like this looks cool, or like I 0:33:20.040 --> 0:33:21.720 like a lot of music, so I'll be like, who's 0:33:21.720 --> 0:33:25.280 your favorite artists and everything. Like I don't really listen 0:33:25.320 --> 0:33:27.200 to like pop music because it's just kind of like 0:33:27.320 --> 0:33:29.800 I don't mean to sound like that pretentious like pops 0:33:29.800 --> 0:33:31.720 like or whatever, but it's not for me. 0:33:32.240 --> 0:33:33.959 I think. I think there's there is this thing of 0:33:34.040 --> 0:33:38.200 like creating your own universe that surrounds what you're interested in, 0:33:38.840 --> 0:33:41.120 and then if you take the initiative to do that, 0:33:41.240 --> 0:33:43.880 other people catch on and that's a good way to 0:33:43.880 --> 0:33:45.920 make friends. Yeah, Like when we were just talking about 0:33:46.560 --> 0:33:48.840 you know, Smash Bros. When I was in college, I 0:33:48.840 --> 0:33:53.239 would like put on tournaments and events and stuff, and 0:33:53.280 --> 0:33:57.200 it's like when you when you create your own thing 0:33:57.280 --> 0:33:59.720 around your own interests and invite other people to join, 0:33:59.800 --> 0:34:01.720 its great way to make friends. So if you're in 0:34:01.760 --> 0:34:04.800 graphic design and you wanted to start, like I don't know, man, 0:34:04.960 --> 0:34:08.520 you think about any clubs, starting a little graphic design club, 0:34:08.560 --> 0:34:12.320 a little uh what's the thing where like you show 0:34:12.400 --> 0:34:16.840 up the a crit start a little crit club. You know, 0:34:16.880 --> 0:34:19.680 everyone brings their work and you guys kind of go 0:34:19.760 --> 0:34:23.280 around better something like that, especially if you just started 0:34:23.320 --> 0:34:27.520 college and there's all these like other you know. I 0:34:27.520 --> 0:34:30.000 always always found that starting a club or something like 0:34:30.000 --> 0:34:33.640 that is a great way to get people around you, 0:34:33.640 --> 0:34:35.759 you know, and also you you feel more confident when 0:34:35.800 --> 0:34:36.440 it's your space. 0:34:36.960 --> 0:34:39.200 I also thinks he seems pretty cool to me, like 0:34:39.239 --> 0:34:41.480 he called and talking to us, So I really just 0:34:41.520 --> 0:34:43.480 think it's just him living in his head. That's what 0:34:43.520 --> 0:34:45.399 we go back and think about. Like, you know, you're 0:34:45.440 --> 0:34:48.040 just thinking too hard, man, Just you know, just go 0:34:48.120 --> 0:34:48.640 with the flow. 0:34:48.719 --> 0:34:48.959 Man. 0:34:49.440 --> 0:34:52.400 That's really you know, you putting yourself in the situation 0:34:52.520 --> 0:34:54.480 of being a part of like graphic design. You're around 0:34:54.560 --> 0:34:56.439 a lot of other people that are into the same 0:34:56.480 --> 0:35:00.359 things that you are. So eventually, you know, time did 0:35:00.440 --> 0:35:03.880 nature take his course. You know, if you think too 0:35:03.920 --> 0:35:04.400 hard about it. 0:35:04.560 --> 0:35:10.000 I appreciate that, you know, Yeah, in school started. 0:35:09.800 --> 0:35:14.560 Right, especially, yeah, especially like my little brother and everything, 0:35:14.600 --> 0:35:16.719 because like we're like not too far. He's like a 0:35:16.760 --> 0:35:19.280 little like five years younger than me, so like he's 0:35:19.320 --> 0:35:24.000 like fifteen, and he actually did try to call in 0:35:24.120 --> 0:35:27.759 once and he got shut down because he's fifteen, and 0:35:27.880 --> 0:35:30.080 I was like, oh, dang, I didn't know, like you 0:35:30.120 --> 0:35:31.319 had to be fifteen to call off. 0:35:32.040 --> 0:35:33.919 So he was upset about that. But it's all good. 0:35:34.320 --> 0:35:37.680 It was nice to take a break from hanging out 0:35:37.719 --> 0:35:41.000 with the previous caller's boyfriend too call. 0:35:40.840 --> 0:35:41.479 Into the show. 0:35:41.880 --> 0:35:44.640 Yeah, a man, I don't know what was going on 0:35:44.719 --> 0:35:46.279 with that. I heard like a little bit like a 0:35:46.280 --> 0:35:48.319 snippet of like roadblocks and stuff like that, and I 0:35:48.360 --> 0:35:50.720 can relate to my older brother he plays the roadblock. 0:35:50.800 --> 0:35:51.840 But listen, listen, you. 0:35:52.040 --> 0:35:54.919 You and that guy, if any if you can leave 0:35:54.960 --> 0:35:57.200 this with anything, You and that guy are both nineteen, 0:35:57.239 --> 0:35:59.440 and you sound like you're doing a lot better socially 0:35:59.480 --> 0:36:01.880 than he is. So you have that gun for you. 0:36:02.000 --> 0:36:04.840 Okay, man, I appreciate that, true. 0:36:04.760 --> 0:36:06.680 Of course, Danige. Anything do you want to say to 0:36:07.080 --> 0:36:07.920 MJ before we go? 0:36:08.120 --> 0:36:11.160 Yeah, man, it's just I think a lot of times, 0:36:11.160 --> 0:36:13.000 you know, you just got to work on yourself, like 0:36:13.080 --> 0:36:15.200 confidence is everything, Like you know, you got the new 0:36:15.239 --> 0:36:17.920 cool haircuts, you know, maybe you know, get some new 0:36:17.960 --> 0:36:20.319 clothes and you know, just work on yourself, maybe going 0:36:20.320 --> 0:36:22.600 to the gym, working out once you feel better about 0:36:22.640 --> 0:36:25.520 yourself than everybody had noticed that, then everything could just 0:36:25.560 --> 0:36:26.120 happen for you. 0:36:26.200 --> 0:36:26.399 Man. 0:36:26.680 --> 0:36:28.480 But if you keep living in your head and feeling 0:36:28.520 --> 0:36:30.960 like you're cringey, then of course it's going to project 0:36:30.960 --> 0:36:31.640 the other people. 0:36:34.080 --> 0:36:35.440 Yeah, I really appreciate that. 0:36:35.440 --> 0:36:38.200 I actually did start going to the gym this last 0:36:38.239 --> 0:36:41.359 week because I just look up to my little brother 0:36:41.440 --> 0:36:44.640 so much, because like he's just such a like a calm, 0:36:44.680 --> 0:36:46.600 like cool dude. And he started going to the gym 0:36:46.640 --> 0:36:48.000 with his friend. So I was like, all right, let 0:36:48.000 --> 0:36:50.279 me hop on. My dad was like, all right, if 0:36:50.280 --> 0:36:52.320 you guys want to go, I'll pay for you guys 0:36:52.320 --> 0:36:53.359 to tag on with him. 0:36:53.760 --> 0:36:54.400 And we didn't. 0:36:54.760 --> 0:36:56.520 And now I'm going to the gym, and I think, 0:36:56.560 --> 0:36:59.200 like this week I've lost like maybe like five six pounds. 0:36:59.680 --> 0:37:01.120 You can, that's great, that's great. 0:37:03.000 --> 0:37:05.160 Yeah, so I'm gonna try to keep on that. I'm 0:37:05.160 --> 0:37:08.719 cooking some food right now to lapia, you know, so 0:37:08.960 --> 0:37:09.960 it's gonna be good tonight. 0:37:10.760 --> 0:37:11.200 That's right. 0:37:11.480 --> 0:37:12.960 Enjoy your lapia. I don't know what that. 0:37:13.040 --> 0:37:13.279 Is, but. 0:37:15.360 --> 0:37:20.440 Right it's like it's yeah, well, enjoy your tilapia. And 0:37:20.840 --> 0:37:21.760 thanks for calling. 0:37:21.560 --> 0:37:25.520 Man, good luck, thank you, gig oh and I missed 0:37:25.520 --> 0:37:30.000 your Chicago show. I found out that you existed, Like, I'll. 0:37:29.840 --> 0:37:33.800 Be back after twenty twenty four. I'm coming back to Chicago. 0:37:33.800 --> 0:37:34.600 I might try to come back. 0:37:34.640 --> 0:37:36.200 I heard, I heard, I heard I'm gonna go. I'm 0:37:36.200 --> 0:37:38.480 gonna go with twenty twenty four. I swear, I swear. 0:37:38.600 --> 0:37:41.960 You're coming to Chicago soon too, not that I know about. Yeah, 0:37:42.120 --> 0:37:44.520 go see Dan, anybody who comes to Chicago too. All right, 0:37:44.560 --> 0:37:45.040 take care of him. 0:37:45.120 --> 0:37:46.360 Jay, all right, thank you, sir. 0:37:46.920 --> 0:37:47.040 So. 0:37:47.280 --> 0:37:50.000 I asked you earlier. I was like, do you feel 0:37:50.040 --> 0:37:53.360 like this era of your life is like the best 0:37:53.520 --> 0:37:56.240 it's been? And you said fuck no. But to phrase 0:37:56.280 --> 0:37:59.239 it differently, do you try it to what we were 0:37:59.239 --> 0:38:02.239 just talking about. Do you feel like over the years, 0:38:02.280 --> 0:38:06.600 how's your personal confidence in yourself been? Is that at 0:38:06.640 --> 0:38:07.520 the highest it's been? 0:38:07.640 --> 0:38:09.640 Or I wouldn't say is that the highest because I've 0:38:09.680 --> 0:38:12.760 always I wouldn't. I always had, like, you know, pretty 0:38:12.800 --> 0:38:16.239 confident in myself in some sense. But I think I'm 0:38:16.280 --> 0:38:20.480 just not causing any problems for myself. I think that's 0:38:20.200 --> 0:38:23.640 the biggest deal. But like I say, man, I'm so 0:38:23.719 --> 0:38:27.920 get caught up in my own head as well, and everything. 0:38:28.080 --> 0:38:29.160 Stuff's just been going. 0:38:29.040 --> 0:38:32.040 So good that I get that anxiety of like, ah, 0:38:32.160 --> 0:38:34.120 something just gonna happen to him or whatever, you know, 0:38:34.880 --> 0:38:36.839 But I would say, man, yeah, I was causing all 0:38:36.880 --> 0:38:39.240 the problems for myself thinking I was making things better. 0:38:39.680 --> 0:38:42.719 Not at this point in my life, I'm realizing, you know, 0:38:43.960 --> 0:38:47.600 what the problems were, and the problems wasn't necessarily. 0:38:48.480 --> 0:38:49.040 Maybe it's just me. 0:38:49.520 --> 0:38:53.200 And once you understand, like having that unresolved trauma and 0:38:53.200 --> 0:38:55.279 stuff and you letting go of that. I think that 0:38:55.400 --> 0:38:58.360 was the biggest takeaway from me going to rehab it, 0:38:58.520 --> 0:39:01.600 just realizing where everything is stemmed from. And once you 0:39:01.600 --> 0:39:03.799 were able to find the root of the problem, you're 0:39:03.800 --> 0:39:04.480 able to take. 0:39:04.280 --> 0:39:04.719 Care of it. 0:39:04.880 --> 0:39:08.400 You know, do you what do you feel like the 0:39:08.480 --> 0:39:10.839 root of the problem was. 0:39:12.239 --> 0:39:15.120 A lot of guilt, probably a lot of guilt and 0:39:15.160 --> 0:39:19.719 then not not forgiving a lot of people like I 0:39:19.760 --> 0:39:23.120 can be like bingefol in some sense, you know, And 0:39:23.160 --> 0:39:25.759 once you're just able to be like, you know, look 0:39:25.800 --> 0:39:28.719 at it through the other person's eyes. You know, I 0:39:28.760 --> 0:39:31.440 was able to overcome that. I feel like, you know 0:39:31.680 --> 0:39:33.759 a lot of times, man like even just with you know, 0:39:33.840 --> 0:39:37.680 people with their parents or family members and stuff like that, 0:39:37.760 --> 0:39:39.720 and once you were able to just you know, feel 0:39:39.760 --> 0:39:43.520 apologetic on their end, then you can, you know, get 0:39:43.560 --> 0:39:44.439 through it a lot better. 0:39:44.880 --> 0:39:47.279 You know, were you holding on to grudges that were 0:39:47.320 --> 0:39:48.840 like several years definitely? 0:39:48.960 --> 0:39:51.239 Yeah, that's really what was the big deal you did 0:39:51.239 --> 0:39:52.440 you like. 0:39:53.400 --> 0:39:56.239 Did you forgive in the sense of like let me 0:39:56.280 --> 0:39:58.800 call this person up or just an internal. 0:39:58.520 --> 0:40:02.160 Internally I'll stee I still struggle with that with with 0:40:04.080 --> 0:40:07.480 I don't know, we just calling people, like having that drama, 0:40:07.560 --> 0:40:09.600 you know, like, I don't know, I still I still 0:40:09.600 --> 0:40:12.359 struggle with that, but I've gotten a lot better with it. 0:40:12.440 --> 0:40:16.080 I've gotten a lot better with it, especially with expressing 0:40:16.120 --> 0:40:19.120 myself because sometimes you know, stuff cannot go your way 0:40:19.120 --> 0:40:21.080 and you can feel a certain way about certain things, 0:40:21.120 --> 0:40:24.359 and instead of addressing the issue, you just hold it in. 0:40:25.000 --> 0:40:27.320 And I think that was a that was a big 0:40:27.840 --> 0:40:29.440 That was a big deal with me. That caused a 0:40:29.440 --> 0:40:31.719 lot of problems with me. Now I just you know, 0:40:32.360 --> 0:40:34.920 be open about how I feel about stuff. And you 0:40:35.120 --> 0:40:40.879 realize sometimes man like like people don't give a fuck man, 0:40:40.760 --> 0:40:42.960 and you realize, like you be like man, you know, 0:40:43.040 --> 0:40:45.640 you might think something happened and you know, you you 0:40:45.680 --> 0:40:48.239 try to think from their point of view, and then 0:40:48.320 --> 0:40:49.920 once you really just sit down and talk to them, 0:40:49.920 --> 0:40:51.520 you're like, they didn't really care that much. You know, 0:40:51.680 --> 0:40:53.200 it wasn't even that big of a deal that I 0:40:53.239 --> 0:40:54.080 was making it out to be. 0:40:54.239 --> 0:40:57.400 You know. Yeah. Do you do you like when you 0:40:57.440 --> 0:40:57.759 when you. 0:40:57.680 --> 0:41:00.440 Think of there's like multi year grudges you're talking about it, 0:41:00.440 --> 0:41:03.319 do you feel like, oh, I'm holding onto this thing 0:41:03.360 --> 0:41:05.600 for several years and this person just probably doesn't even 0:41:05.719 --> 0:41:06.600 hasn't thought about it. 0:41:06.719 --> 0:41:09.719 Yeah, that's really what it is when you really get 0:41:09.760 --> 0:41:11.200 down and you talk to me like, man, I didn't 0:41:11.200 --> 0:41:12.680 even know you were feeling like that about that. 0:41:12.760 --> 0:41:15.200 I'm right, I'm saying you like, ah, fuck, and you 0:41:15.239 --> 0:41:17.880 feel stupid. And that was a big deal with me. 0:41:18.200 --> 0:41:21.040 It's such a weird thing how like our brains can 0:41:21.200 --> 0:41:25.480 take certain things and just mess them out of proportion 0:41:25.600 --> 0:41:28.200 in terms of what's reality, you know. And we also 0:41:28.360 --> 0:41:32.799 like you can assume how other people feel all the time, 0:41:32.840 --> 0:41:35.160 and you can assume another person's mad at you or 0:41:35.239 --> 0:41:37.440 upset about this or this and that when they just 0:41:38.000 --> 0:41:39.759 don't get you just projecting stuff onto them. 0:41:39.880 --> 0:41:40.120 Yeah. 0:41:40.200 --> 0:41:41.920 And another thing with me was when I know I 0:41:42.040 --> 0:41:46.200 was wrong in a situation. Yeah, and from me being wrong, 0:41:46.239 --> 0:41:48.799 it'll make me hate the other person eventually, Like, no, 0:41:48.920 --> 0:41:51.040 you know, it's easier to hate someone when you know 0:41:51.080 --> 0:41:54.279 you was wrong kind of thing and just manning up 0:41:54.360 --> 0:41:56.920 and just to step the responsibility for it, you know, 0:41:57.080 --> 0:41:59.799 self accountability. That was really the biggest thing for me, 0:42:00.440 --> 0:42:03.279 was just you know, being being accountable for all the 0:42:03.400 --> 0:42:05.279 fucked up ship that I did, you know, And I 0:42:05.320 --> 0:42:06.719 was able to get over a lot of things once 0:42:06.800 --> 0:42:09.000 I realized I was the fucking bad guy. 0:42:09.239 --> 0:42:12.600 Mm hmmm did you like so, I know you said 0:42:12.600 --> 0:42:14.360 you it was kind of a lot of internal forgiveness 0:42:14.360 --> 0:42:16.719 towards the people who you felt like wrong to you. 0:42:16.840 --> 0:42:20.360 Did you make any calls or do any reach outs 0:42:20.360 --> 0:42:23.040 of people you felt like, oh you kind of fucked 0:42:23.080 --> 0:42:23.960 up there or anything like that. 0:42:24.080 --> 0:42:27.560 Yeah, Yeah, definitely that's cathartic because it feels like a 0:42:27.600 --> 0:42:29.839 weight off your shoulders. Yeah, you know, you holding all 0:42:29.880 --> 0:42:33.720 this you know, internal trauma and stuff like that, overs 0:42:33.760 --> 0:42:36.439 fucked up shit that you did, you know. So for me, yeah, 0:42:36.600 --> 0:42:39.560 it definitely lifted, like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. 0:42:41.200 --> 0:42:45.360 Do you so you're working on new music now? Right? Always? 0:42:45.400 --> 0:42:48.040 Now it's my it's my that's my sweet spot. 0:42:48.080 --> 0:42:49.680 Are you taking Are you taking a lot of this 0:42:49.760 --> 0:42:52.400 a lot this stuff? And correct me if I'm wrong, 0:42:52.440 --> 0:42:53.920 But it feels like a lot of the stuff that 0:42:53.920 --> 0:42:57.360 you're talking about is like fresh for you since rehab 0:42:57.440 --> 0:43:02.360 and and I know you even dropped an album since 0:43:02.719 --> 0:43:04.680 do you feel like a lot of these things that 0:43:04.719 --> 0:43:07.520 you're thinking about in these themes and whatnot, or you're 0:43:07.560 --> 0:43:09.960 gonna try to kind of express that I got. 0:43:09.800 --> 0:43:12.200 An album coming out soon. But I think for the 0:43:12.239 --> 0:43:14.080 most part, with a lot of my music, it was 0:43:14.160 --> 0:43:18.040 almost like trauma dumping, you know, where I would talk 0:43:18.040 --> 0:43:20.399 about shitting my music that I was afraid to talk 0:43:20.440 --> 0:43:23.799 to other people about, you know, And now it's like, 0:43:23.840 --> 0:43:28.280 you know, it's as much as it was an artistic expression, 0:43:28.320 --> 0:43:29.200 it almost. 0:43:28.880 --> 0:43:31.120 Was like a cry for help too. 0:43:31.680 --> 0:43:34.680 And you know, listening to that music is great and 0:43:34.760 --> 0:43:36.520 you know, but I put a lot of comedy in 0:43:36.560 --> 0:43:39.120 my music. So that was the way I masted, almost 0:43:39.160 --> 0:43:42.680 like a dramedy type of situation. But now it's almost 0:43:42.719 --> 0:43:46.160 like I will and it did, because I do get 0:43:46.200 --> 0:43:47.839 a lot of messages from people be like, you know. 0:43:48.000 --> 0:43:50.160 Some of my most fucked up songs, they be like man, 0:43:50.160 --> 0:43:51.279 that helped me get through my shit. 0:43:51.920 --> 0:43:54.279 You know, it's almost like a weird thing. But now 0:43:54.280 --> 0:43:56.640 it's like, I just kind of want to make people 0:43:56.680 --> 0:43:58.439 happy with my music. I don't want them to feel 0:43:58.480 --> 0:44:02.000 sad or feel some feel worried about me type of shit, 0:44:02.160 --> 0:44:04.480 you know. So it's like because I realized, you know, 0:44:04.520 --> 0:44:06.120 a lot of the music that I like growing up 0:44:06.120 --> 0:44:08.239 as a kid was the type of songs that just 0:44:08.320 --> 0:44:10.360 made me no matter what I was going through in 0:44:10.400 --> 0:44:12.359 my life, I can listen to this song and just 0:44:12.640 --> 0:44:15.200 takes me to a happy place. I'm not saying I'm 0:44:15.200 --> 0:44:17.520 about to be making some old corny ass fucking you 0:44:17.560 --> 0:44:20.680 know what, I'm saying that popping type shit, but just still, 0:44:20.760 --> 0:44:23.400 I want to make people feel good, give them that confidence. 0:44:23.400 --> 0:44:25.319 So just make them just forget all their problems for 0:44:25.360 --> 0:44:26.800 that three minutes and just dance. 0:44:26.920 --> 0:44:29.160 You know, do you ever have a song that you 0:44:29.360 --> 0:44:33.760 just like had you had no intention of it being 0:44:34.000 --> 0:44:37.160 a song like that that would like help people in 0:44:37.200 --> 0:44:39.279 that way, and it's just something you just were, I 0:44:39.320 --> 0:44:41.400 don't know, wanted it to be hype or something like that, 0:44:41.680 --> 0:44:43.799 and then it was interpreted in ways so you didn't 0:44:43.800 --> 0:44:44.680 think it would be intern. 0:44:44.840 --> 0:44:47.880 Just like my album Atrocity Exhibition, that was pretty much 0:44:47.960 --> 0:44:51.000 I was. I mean, I was really just in a 0:44:51.120 --> 0:44:54.360 dark place. But I find that a lot of people 0:44:54.400 --> 0:44:57.040 you know that loved that album hit me up and 0:44:57.080 --> 0:44:59.520 tild was like, man, it helped them realize they were 0:44:59.520 --> 0:45:01.880 going through a and you know, got them out of 0:45:01.920 --> 0:45:02.319 their funk. 0:45:02.719 --> 0:45:02.960 You know. 0:45:03.120 --> 0:45:05.840 So maybe I don't know. I guess sometimes you know, 0:45:05.880 --> 0:45:08.239 people have this whole perception of what artists. You know, 0:45:08.280 --> 0:45:10.239 we're normal people too, we go through shit too, So 0:45:10.280 --> 0:45:12.000 I guess people hear like, oh, he have an these 0:45:12.040 --> 0:45:14.680 same problems in these troubles, you know. So it's just 0:45:14.719 --> 0:45:17.120 so I'm at such a great space to see people, 0:45:17.800 --> 0:45:20.160 you know, let them know that I made it out, 0:45:20.360 --> 0:45:23.400 so instead of doing all this trauma dump and I'm more. 0:45:23.320 --> 0:45:24.840 So I want to help, you know. 0:45:24.880 --> 0:45:26.880 That's always tell anybody if you going through something, man, 0:45:27.120 --> 0:45:28.840 you want to reach out to me. Man, I'm definitely 0:45:28.880 --> 0:45:29.360 with answer. 0:45:29.719 --> 0:45:29.920 You know. 0:45:30.760 --> 0:45:35.320 Trauma dumping though, like when you're when you're being open, 0:45:35.920 --> 0:45:38.759 it is it is helpful for people because people are like, oh, man, 0:45:39.120 --> 0:45:43.200 Danny Brown's this fucking cool rapper. God, he's probably like 0:45:43.320 --> 0:45:46.399 just you know, having sex with models and doing all this, 0:45:46.640 --> 0:45:48.640 but you know, and then for you to you know, 0:45:48.719 --> 0:45:51.800 talk openly about things that you're struggling with, people are like, oh, 0:45:51.880 --> 0:45:54.000 and then there's people who are like dreaming. They're like, oh, well, 0:45:54.040 --> 0:45:57.360 once I'm like, you know, famous and successful and whatever 0:45:57.360 --> 0:45:59.320 the fuck, then I'm never gonna have any problems ever. Again, 0:46:00.040 --> 0:46:02.160 to hear people who are as successful talk about problems 0:46:02.160 --> 0:46:04.879 they have, they're like, oh, maybe it's not these external 0:46:04.960 --> 0:46:08.320 things that I have to achieve to reach, but it's 0:46:08.360 --> 0:46:11.080 something you know, more internal. 0:46:11.520 --> 0:46:13.000 Yeah, Like I said, I would cause a lot of 0:46:13.000 --> 0:46:13.800 the problems to myself. 0:46:13.840 --> 0:46:16.000 But every time I would like make an album, like 0:46:16.080 --> 0:46:18.200 even now, like you know, having an album getting ready 0:46:18.239 --> 0:46:21.400 to come out, I would just get this crazy anxiety, 0:46:21.480 --> 0:46:23.760 Like I would just be so afraid. It was almost 0:46:23.760 --> 0:46:25.319 like cause you know, once you're trying to get on, 0:46:26.000 --> 0:46:28.080 you know, it's like joy, like you're just happy any 0:46:28.120 --> 0:46:30.000 little thing that happened. But once you kind of feel 0:46:30.040 --> 0:46:32.279 like you made it in some sense, it feels like 0:46:32.360 --> 0:46:34.560 anything can take it away, right, you don't want to 0:46:34.600 --> 0:46:36.760 lose that like one and make one trash album. 0:46:36.760 --> 0:46:37.160 I'm done. 0:46:37.960 --> 0:46:40.040 And I used to just be so scared, like having 0:46:40.040 --> 0:46:41.400 an album get ready to come out and be like, 0:46:41.440 --> 0:46:44.600 oh man, just people think it sucks. Careers about to 0:46:44.600 --> 0:46:47.680 be over. Maybe I shouldn't have made that, Maybe I 0:46:47.680 --> 0:46:50.920 should make some more songs and stuff like that. But 0:46:51.000 --> 0:46:53.680 now it's like I'm just in a happy place, even 0:46:53.719 --> 0:46:57.799 though this album is a complete trauma do but for me, man, 0:46:57.840 --> 0:47:00.640 a lot of my favorite albums with musicians from adopting. 0:47:00.760 --> 0:47:02.560 So I'm trying to get on this. I'm trying to 0:47:02.680 --> 0:47:05.239 drill into my head this idea that I think. I 0:47:05.320 --> 0:47:10.360 think sucking and being kind of cringey is not that bad. 0:47:10.800 --> 0:47:14.200 It's not that bad if you suck. And if everyone 0:47:14.560 --> 0:47:18.680 thinks you suck, because what whatever? Man, And look as 0:47:18.680 --> 0:47:21.200 long as as long as you don't like go to 0:47:21.440 --> 0:47:28.360 jail or get grievously injured or die, you're you're. 0:47:28.280 --> 0:47:29.719 Probably fine, you know. 0:47:29.960 --> 0:47:33.719 So like sucking is just in that if you like, 0:47:33.760 --> 0:47:35.399 I want, I want to get my base. I want 0:47:35.400 --> 0:47:38.160 to get my perspective to such a point where that's 0:47:38.200 --> 0:47:39.799 all I care about. You know, if I woke if 0:47:39.840 --> 0:47:46.399 I woke up today and everyone online thinks I'm you know, cringey, 0:47:46.480 --> 0:47:50.520 but I can like walk and eat food and stare 0:47:50.520 --> 0:47:52.839 at the sky. That's pretty good. That's pretty good, that's 0:47:52.840 --> 0:47:53.720 pretty That's. 0:47:53.600 --> 0:47:56.960 Really important because for the most part, music is subjective. 0:47:57.560 --> 0:47:59.600 It's going to be someone that thinks it sucks, it's 0:47:59.640 --> 0:48:01.680 going to be someone that love it, regardless of what 0:48:01.880 --> 0:48:02.120 you know. 0:48:02.920 --> 0:48:04.000 So it's like, man, I used to. 0:48:04.040 --> 0:48:06.239 Just put myself through a whirlwind of trouble and then 0:48:06.320 --> 0:48:08.400 getting sucked up trying to escape, and I think about it, 0:48:08.440 --> 0:48:10.040 and that just caused more problems. 0:48:10.080 --> 0:48:12.760 You know, when you're when you're on your like deathbed, 0:48:13.600 --> 0:48:14.920 what are you going to be thinking about? 0:48:17.880 --> 0:48:19.080 Why do you want to think about my death? 0:48:21.440 --> 0:48:23.879 No, for the most part, I just hope that I've 0:48:24.000 --> 0:48:27.759 I've accomplished what I had to accomplish on Earth. That's 0:48:27.800 --> 0:48:29.640 really what I think. You know, I want to be 0:48:29.680 --> 0:48:32.640 able to whatever I was put here for to do. 0:48:32.840 --> 0:48:35.000 I just hope I accomplished a mission. 0:48:35.160 --> 0:48:37.480 If you if you died tomorrow, hopefully like would you 0:48:37.520 --> 0:48:38.279 be like we did it? 0:48:39.160 --> 0:48:41.640 Obviously I did. If I died, it's pretty. 0:48:41.360 --> 0:48:43.120 Good, all right, So then you can spend so then 0:48:43.600 --> 0:48:45.680 you know everything and everything else just the bonus, you know, 0:48:45.760 --> 0:48:47.200 you can suck for the rest of your life. 0:48:47.239 --> 0:48:50.000 And I feel like, you know, I obviously didn't do 0:48:50.040 --> 0:48:52.080 what I came here to do yet, So you know, 0:48:53.360 --> 0:48:55.120 but I ain't trying to think about that no time. 0:48:55.160 --> 0:48:58.960 So I spend too much time thinking about immortality, you know. 0:48:59.400 --> 0:49:01.720 So now I'm just, you know, instead of thinking about 0:49:01.920 --> 0:49:04.160 fucking dying all the time, thinking about living. 0:49:04.200 --> 0:49:04.359 Now. 0:49:04.520 --> 0:49:05.800 I saw, I saw, I saw it. 0:49:06.040 --> 0:49:06.359 I was. 0:49:06.400 --> 0:49:07.960 I was doing some research on you before this, and 0:49:08.000 --> 0:49:10.680 I saw someone that road a headline about you that said, like, 0:49:11.560 --> 0:49:12.480 Danny Brown. 0:49:12.360 --> 0:49:13.920 Yeah tears. 0:49:14.600 --> 0:49:17.600 What the fuck is no longer afraid to die? 0:49:17.680 --> 0:49:17.839 Who? 0:49:18.520 --> 0:49:19.840 Like, why would you do that? 0:49:19.840 --> 0:49:22.680 That's a that's a that's a dangerous invitation to the universe. 0:49:22.760 --> 0:49:25.919 I mean, I guess now, man, Twitter paying people for tweets, man, 0:49:25.920 --> 0:49:28.240 so they do anything for engagements at this point. 0:49:28.280 --> 0:49:31.080 You know, Hey you want to take a phone call, sure, But. 0:49:31.160 --> 0:49:32.920 Yeah, I was pissed off about that. I'm like, what 0:49:32.960 --> 0:49:36.000 the fuck out of all that long ass article? That's 0:49:36.040 --> 0:49:39.799 what y'all took from that. Now he has a new 0:49:39.840 --> 0:49:43.279 album coming soon, nothing else. He's not scared to die, 0:49:43.880 --> 0:49:45.920 And that really just was me talking about a mushroom 0:49:45.960 --> 0:49:49.080 trip I had where I saw my grave and I 0:49:49.160 --> 0:49:54.560 was like, oh, it's not that bad, So what the fuck? 0:49:55.040 --> 0:50:00.239 Hello? Hello, this is Sam, twenty seven from California. 0:50:00.360 --> 0:50:00.919 How you doing. 0:50:00.960 --> 0:50:01.560 How's life? 0:50:01.719 --> 0:50:04.200 I'm doing all right. I'm doing all right. 0:50:05.960 --> 0:50:07.520 Sam. What does it you wanted to talk about today? 0:50:07.520 --> 0:50:11.040 I wanted to talk about growing up in the Mormon 0:50:11.160 --> 0:50:14.760 Church as a black man adopted into a white family 0:50:14.840 --> 0:50:16.600 in the California suburbs. 0:50:17.640 --> 0:50:19.279 Do you know anything about Mormonism? 0:50:19.480 --> 0:50:22.520 Fuck? No, what I do? 0:50:22.840 --> 0:50:23.360 Indeed? 0:50:24.920 --> 0:50:27.520 Well was I was asking? I used you, I assume 0:50:27.560 --> 0:50:29.640 know a lot about Mormonism, unless if you weren't paying 0:50:29.680 --> 0:50:32.759 attention while they were teaching you about it. How long 0:50:32.800 --> 0:50:33.840 were you and were you in the. 0:50:33.880 --> 0:50:38.680 Church for Yeah, I wasn't until I was fifteen. I 0:50:38.719 --> 0:50:41.680 got taken out of the home when I was around 0:50:41.719 --> 0:50:44.680 that age, and but yeah, I was in it for 0:50:44.680 --> 0:50:53.560 fifteen years. And my entire except for my mom, is 0:50:53.600 --> 0:50:54.480 out of the religion. 0:50:54.520 --> 0:50:56.839 Now did you Were you the first one to leave? 0:50:57.360 --> 0:51:01.160 No, my older brother was. So my parents pretty much 0:51:01.160 --> 0:51:04.520 gave him the ultimatum that when you turn eighteen, you 0:51:04.560 --> 0:51:07.600 can stay in the house, but there's no drinking, no smoking, 0:51:07.800 --> 0:51:11.799 no no no sex before marriage or anything like that, 0:51:11.840 --> 0:51:13.920 and you're guarantee the spot. But if not, then the 0:51:14.000 --> 0:51:15.960 a deletes. It's like final I'll join the military. 0:51:17.840 --> 0:51:19.120 So you left and joined the military. 0:51:20.760 --> 0:51:22.400 Yeah, that sounds. 0:51:23.719 --> 0:51:25.719 I don't know which one is worse, between being in 0:51:25.719 --> 0:51:28.560 the Mormon Church or being in the military. They both 0:51:28.600 --> 0:51:30.719 sound like a similar level of strictness. 0:51:30.920 --> 0:51:34.960 Yeah, they're both pretty bad. But one of them doesn't 0:51:35.040 --> 0:51:38.960 really care if you jerk off at night and the 0:51:39.040 --> 0:51:47.120 other one, I mean, you know, does different levels of rigidness. 0:51:47.160 --> 0:51:54.200 I assume, m do you uh where where are you 0:51:54.320 --> 0:51:57.719 jerking off at night in the Is it like in 0:51:57.760 --> 0:52:01.320 the bathroom or are you just like in the bunk beds, 0:52:01.600 --> 0:52:03.719 jerking off like while you're in the same room as 0:52:03.760 --> 0:52:05.920 all the other folks? 0:52:07.880 --> 0:52:08.080 Oh? 0:52:08.239 --> 0:52:12.240 Hell no, that's hell is shameful. Get it in wherever 0:52:12.280 --> 0:52:18.640 you can. Yeah, I ain't that ship, you know, wait 0:52:18.680 --> 0:52:22.080 for everyone to go home, you know, wait for one 0:52:22.160 --> 0:52:26.960 to leave whatever, it's crazy, Hell is shameful. 0:52:29.560 --> 0:52:31.000 Should suck Dan? 0:52:31.080 --> 0:52:32.080 Any questions so far? 0:52:33.480 --> 0:52:35.600 I'm at a loss for words. So you lef a 0:52:35.640 --> 0:52:36.919 religion just to jack off? 0:52:39.320 --> 0:52:39.520 Hell? 0:52:39.680 --> 0:52:41.720 Yeah, come on, now. 0:52:42.320 --> 0:52:46.120 This is what they have in our armed forces China 0:52:46.160 --> 0:52:47.160 gonna fuck us up? 0:52:48.840 --> 0:52:48.920 No? 0:52:49.080 --> 0:52:50.640 Well I have have they? 0:52:50.920 --> 0:52:51.040 We? 0:52:51.280 --> 0:52:54.279 I think what we gotta do is you need to 0:52:54.640 --> 0:52:58.960 you need to somehow weaponize. 0:53:00.080 --> 0:53:01.919 Jerking off so. 0:53:01.840 --> 0:53:05.520 That you can use it as something accomplish some form 0:53:05.560 --> 0:53:09.120 of biochemical You can use your penis as like a 0:53:09.120 --> 0:53:10.280 biochemical weapon. 0:53:12.400 --> 0:53:15.000 You crazy join the military just to jack off? 0:53:17.040 --> 0:53:19.040 I mean you have to. I mean that's the only 0:53:19.120 --> 0:53:21.640 reason to join the military. You want to go kill 0:53:21.719 --> 0:53:23.160 kids in a different country and. 0:53:23.200 --> 0:53:24.359 Not be able to jack off? 0:53:26.680 --> 0:53:29.799 You got me there? What do you what do you 0:53:29.840 --> 0:53:30.320 do now? 0:53:31.040 --> 0:53:33.960 Are you still in the military? 0:53:34.360 --> 0:53:36.640 No, no, no, that was my brother. I was in 0:53:36.680 --> 0:53:38.920 the military. I just I just left. 0:53:39.600 --> 0:53:49.000 So yeah, okay, I'm terrified at this guy. 0:53:51.080 --> 0:53:52.719 I mean, see the upbringing man. 0:53:53.239 --> 0:53:53.480 You know. 0:53:54.760 --> 0:53:55.720 Are you sure you're black? 0:53:56.560 --> 0:53:56.840 Weird? 0:53:58.760 --> 0:54:00.240 Yeah? 0:54:00.040 --> 0:54:00.239 Yeah? 0:54:00.280 --> 0:54:02.239 See that's the thing though, because even though I was 0:54:02.239 --> 0:54:04.879 born in the Bronx, when you're adopted by a bunch 0:54:04.920 --> 0:54:07.239 of like white people from the Midwest, you kind of 0:54:07.760 --> 0:54:09.000 sound white. You feel me? 0:54:09.640 --> 0:54:17.319 All right? I got you? Are you are? 0:54:18.080 --> 0:54:20.640 Are you happier now that you're out of the out 0:54:20.680 --> 0:54:23.640 of the church and out of the military, and now 0:54:23.800 --> 0:54:27.480 you you're jacking off? Is not under monitored? Is not 0:54:27.680 --> 0:54:30.359 being monitored by any organization of any kind? 0:54:31.440 --> 0:54:34.320 No, No, I get to jack off freely now. It's 0:54:34.360 --> 0:54:36.200 it's a good life. It's a good life. 0:54:36.520 --> 0:54:40.520 Are you with us right now? What was the question? 0:54:40.719 --> 0:54:44.959 No, that's that's for later. Yeah, a year, come on. 0:54:46.719 --> 0:54:47.000 Later. 0:54:48.080 --> 0:54:49.560 What do you want us to help you with? 0:54:52.600 --> 0:54:56.600 Do you like Lemons? 0:54:58.040 --> 0:54:58.160 Yes? 0:54:58.280 --> 0:54:59.640 If yes? If we like Lemons? 0:55:00.560 --> 0:55:01.959 Yeah, I like Lemons. 0:55:02.400 --> 0:55:03.080 I like lemonade. 0:55:03.080 --> 0:55:06.760 And should I make my friend lemon meringue pie this weekend? 0:55:09.400 --> 0:55:12.719 If you're not gonna jack off, isn't it? I think 0:55:12.719 --> 0:55:13.279 he just trove? 0:55:13.440 --> 0:55:17.520 No, no, no, just Lemons, just Lemons. 0:55:21.560 --> 0:55:28.319 Man, do you feel satisfied by this phone call? Sam? 0:55:28.600 --> 0:55:29.879 I'm quite satisfied. 0:55:34.960 --> 0:55:35.960 Is there anything else you want to say to the 0:55:35.960 --> 0:55:37.080 people of the computer before we go? 0:55:40.200 --> 0:55:45.360 Don't jack off until lemon meringue pie and leave Mormonism 0:55:45.440 --> 0:55:46.319 if it's bad for. 0:55:46.239 --> 0:55:51.359 You, just noted. Thanks man, take care. 0:55:53.680 --> 0:55:57.280 I mean it's a psycho that I was definitely jacking 0:55:57.280 --> 0:55:58.000 off on the phone. 0:55:58.080 --> 0:56:00.920 Oh man, I feel like that's a villain arc. 0:56:01.040 --> 0:56:06.279 Start like, yeah, and he's got that is a that 0:56:06.400 --> 0:56:08.480 is quite a quite an interesting villain arc because he 0:56:08.520 --> 0:56:11.520 has the traumatic childhood of a villain and then he's. 0:56:11.400 --> 0:56:14.280 Got the weapons training of a villain as well. 0:56:14.360 --> 0:56:18.799 Yeah, and he's just want jack off everywhere. Yeah, he 0:56:18.840 --> 0:56:19.920 needs to find a girlfriend. 0:56:20.200 --> 0:56:21.120 Do you jack off a lot? 0:56:21.600 --> 0:56:24.160 I used to? What changed. 0:56:26.920 --> 0:56:31.200 Not being hungover being being just being hungover and make 0:56:31.640 --> 0:56:33.000 you want to jernk off a lot? 0:56:33.200 --> 0:56:34.160 I think so it did. 0:56:34.320 --> 0:56:41.319 Yeah, huh h huh. Would you like with all that 0:56:41.400 --> 0:56:44.920 adrenaline after the shows? Do you are you a nightly 0:56:45.840 --> 0:56:48.880 post show jack jack? Are offer? 0:56:49.400 --> 0:56:49.440 No? 0:56:49.560 --> 0:56:52.440 I wouldn't say not not, No, I weren't really. I 0:56:52.480 --> 0:56:55.040 was kind of sleeping but the most But like I said, 0:56:55.040 --> 0:56:56.800 I work. I'd get some work in before I know 0:56:56.880 --> 0:56:59.080 what I pass out, but I was. I was taking 0:57:00.200 --> 0:57:03.360 Valerian root. What's Valerian root? It's just like some Valerian 0:57:03.440 --> 0:57:07.280 root capsules they say helped with anxiety. When they really worked, 0:57:07.280 --> 0:57:08.879 it really worked good. So I would get off stage, 0:57:08.920 --> 0:57:11.640 I take some Valerium route and I'd be calm, like 0:57:11.680 --> 0:57:14.359 it was. You know, I think jacking off its. 0:57:14.320 --> 0:57:16.640 More like a you know, stimulant, like. 0:57:16.600 --> 0:57:18.680 A just like I don't know, something you feel like 0:57:18.760 --> 0:57:22.560 cuters anxiety or like you just like nervousness or absolutely 0:57:22.640 --> 0:57:24.080 I don't know. Yeah, so it was one of those 0:57:24.120 --> 0:57:26.920 kind of things, or like you just can't sleep, yeah, 0:57:27.080 --> 0:57:28.880 you know, But for the most problem is getting good sleep. 0:57:28.880 --> 0:57:32.320 On the road. You know, what's this thing called again? 0:57:32.520 --> 0:57:33.160 Valerian root? 0:57:33.280 --> 0:57:35.440 Valerium root is that? Can you buy it at like 0:57:35.480 --> 0:57:36.520 a place or you have to. 0:57:36.520 --> 0:57:37.560 Order it just like you know? 0:57:38.360 --> 0:57:41.400 Okay, yeah it was It works because I've had a 0:57:41.440 --> 0:57:45.640 lot of nights where like, uh, I'm just like jacking 0:57:45.720 --> 0:57:49.280 off like a like four times in a row or something. 0:57:49.320 --> 0:57:50.920 They just to fall asleep. 0:57:56.720 --> 0:57:58.920 Yeah, I've been there and it's hard. 0:57:58.880 --> 0:58:00.720 In the suit. Because I have gloves on. 0:58:02.400 --> 0:58:03.400 It probably feels better. 0:58:04.200 --> 0:58:08.120 It does. Jayden from Wisconsin just had just had a baby. 0:58:08.880 --> 0:58:12.640 It wasn't intentional, but he wants to know what our 0:58:12.720 --> 0:58:14.160 advice would be to young. 0:58:14.680 --> 0:58:17.640 Parents your parent, right, Yeah, you. 0:58:17.600 --> 0:58:19.520 Wanna talk to you want to talk to Jaden? 0:58:20.880 --> 0:58:22.520 Men? You got to be a father to your child. 0:58:24.240 --> 0:58:24.880 It's kind of. 0:58:24.880 --> 0:58:28.920 Simple, Jayden, what's going on? 0:58:29.520 --> 0:58:30.400 Hey, what's up? 0:58:31.080 --> 0:58:31.600 How's it going? 0:58:31.680 --> 0:58:31.880 Man? 0:58:31.920 --> 0:58:34.920 I'm here with mister Danny Brown. We're talking to people 0:58:34.960 --> 0:58:37.320 on the phone. How's life pretty good? 0:58:37.360 --> 0:58:37.520 Man? 0:58:37.560 --> 0:58:39.360 How about I mean, I guess how about you guys. 0:58:39.360 --> 0:58:40.960 It seems like you guys are having a pretty good 0:58:40.960 --> 0:58:41.600 time on there. 0:58:42.240 --> 0:58:43.400 Yeah, we're great with chilling. 0:58:45.680 --> 0:58:46.560 I'm having fun too. 0:58:46.760 --> 0:58:47.840 Yeah, that's what's up? 0:58:48.840 --> 0:58:50.960 Well? I called in about the baby. But then I thought, 0:58:51.320 --> 0:58:52.760 do you guys know what the cowboy kisses? 0:58:54.360 --> 0:58:56.720 No? 0:58:56.720 --> 0:58:58.440 No, So. 0:59:00.080 --> 0:59:01.000 I had this boss. 0:59:01.240 --> 0:59:03.480 Well, I guess you'd call him a cowboy. 0:59:03.600 --> 0:59:09.160 But you know how we were talking before, we were 0:59:09.200 --> 0:59:14.400 talking before going live, and I had asked Dan had 0:59:14.440 --> 0:59:17.000 asked you if you had never taken phone calls before 0:59:17.120 --> 0:59:19.120 on your shows. You said you like used to, but 0:59:19.120 --> 0:59:23.680 there was too much weird shit. Yeah, and then the 0:59:23.720 --> 0:59:25.080 weird shit this was some of that. 0:59:25.320 --> 0:59:28.000 Yeah, So what's the cowboy kiss? 0:59:29.520 --> 0:59:31.640 So it's a grown man. 0:59:32.080 --> 0:59:34.200 I guess this grown man was about seventy years old. 0:59:34.960 --> 0:59:35.080 Uh. 0:59:35.480 --> 0:59:37.560 He thinks you're either doing a pretty bad job or 0:59:37.600 --> 0:59:40.800 a pretty good job, and he surprises you with a 0:59:40.840 --> 0:59:41.959 slap first. 0:59:42.440 --> 0:59:45.000 And then he proceeds to lean in and. 0:59:45.040 --> 0:59:47.160 Kissy when you don't when you don't expect it, man, 0:59:47.680 --> 0:59:48.400 don't expect it. 0:59:48.320 --> 0:59:50.640 At all baffles you. 0:59:52.480 --> 0:59:53.920 So you got the cowboy kiss. 0:59:55.480 --> 1:00:01.280 I got the cowboy kiss man. And you know, honestly, yeah, dude, 1:00:01.280 --> 1:00:02.560 he slapped, he slapped me. 1:00:02.600 --> 1:00:03.480 I'm not gonna lie to you. 1:00:04.600 --> 1:00:05.640 And you didn't hit him back? 1:00:08.040 --> 1:00:08.600 Oh I did? 1:00:08.760 --> 1:00:09.080 I did. 1:00:09.080 --> 1:00:10.360 I gave him a cowboy kiss back. 1:00:10.960 --> 1:00:16.480 Oh okay, this sounds like some form of BDSM. 1:00:16.680 --> 1:00:17.320 I mean kinda. 1:00:17.880 --> 1:00:18.439 I mean I didn't. 1:00:18.440 --> 1:00:21.280 I don't know though, because I didn't like it at first, but. 1:00:21.320 --> 1:00:21.960 You like it now? 1:00:24.000 --> 1:00:25.920 No, no, no, I ended up quitting that job, not 1:00:25.920 --> 1:00:28.440 because of the cowboy kids, but he was he was 1:00:28.480 --> 1:00:29.080 a crazy. 1:00:28.800 --> 1:00:29.800 Redneck on PCP. 1:00:30.640 --> 1:00:32.920 That doesn't never really makes. 1:00:33.080 --> 1:00:36.760 Yeh, seventy years old, dude, No in. 1:00:36.720 --> 1:00:41.080 The fucking trees, big ass bucket truck cutting down them trees. 1:00:42.320 --> 1:00:48.760 Oh wow, okay, cowboy hat on bowl of PCP. I'm 1:00:48.760 --> 1:00:50.640 not even like fucking with you guys or nothing like. 1:00:50.920 --> 1:00:56.880 I'm so dead ass right now. Job, I was a lumberjack. 1:00:57.560 --> 1:01:02.280 Oh shit, that's some that's some hard work right there. 1:01:04.320 --> 1:01:08.600 How are things going with Your Child's doing great? 1:01:08.760 --> 1:01:12.720 Right, She's pretty cool. She just likes to look around 1:01:12.800 --> 1:01:15.920 and sleep and poop and yell at me. 1:01:16.040 --> 1:01:17.640 But that's okay. 1:01:20.080 --> 1:01:22.440 You called and you said you wanted some advice to 1:01:22.560 --> 1:01:24.280 a young parents. 1:01:26.280 --> 1:01:27.440 Yeah. 1:01:28.200 --> 1:01:32.880 The how old were you when you had your kid? Twenty? Okay? 1:01:33.240 --> 1:01:34.960 Was that was that difficult for you or was there 1:01:35.000 --> 1:01:37.800 any things that you remember kind of being stressed out 1:01:37.800 --> 1:01:38.760 about or struggling with. 1:01:39.320 --> 1:01:42.680 Yeah, financially, worrying about how it's gonna take care of 1:01:42.920 --> 1:01:43.280 for real. 1:01:44.160 --> 1:01:45.600 So yeah, that was the biggest deal. 1:01:45.680 --> 1:01:48.360 But I think when you have a kid that that young, 1:01:48.440 --> 1:01:49.600 you just got to realize. 1:01:49.320 --> 1:01:53.720 Your life is over. It's over. Brother, party had none 1:01:53.760 --> 1:01:56.080 of that. The party is over, no more, none of that. 1:01:56.200 --> 1:01:59.320 Everything is for a kid now. You know, more cowboy kissing, 1:01:59.360 --> 1:02:02.360 No more cowboy kisses. So it's all about the baby now. 1:02:02.480 --> 1:02:05.480 So your whole life is dedicated to taking care of 1:02:05.600 --> 1:02:08.640 this beautiful life that you brought into the world. 1:02:10.200 --> 1:02:12.880 Man, I got my whole I got my whole own crib. 1:02:12.920 --> 1:02:15.439 Now I'm remodeling a house cause I ended up getting 1:02:15.440 --> 1:02:18.720 into this farm, which I'm gonna be buying and it'll 1:02:18.760 --> 1:02:19.320 be pretty cool. 1:02:19.360 --> 1:02:21.080 But because it's like I'm buying it on payments from 1:02:21.080 --> 1:02:21.720 this old lady. 1:02:22.440 --> 1:02:24.960 And you got a lot going on. But someone just eighteen, 1:02:25.160 --> 1:02:25.640 Yeah I was. 1:02:25.680 --> 1:02:27.920 I was gonna say, Man, you're like, you're buying a farm, 1:02:27.960 --> 1:02:30.080 you're a lumberjack, you're having a kid. Do you have 1:02:30.120 --> 1:02:31.040 any advice for me? 1:02:34.640 --> 1:02:35.640 Keep doing you're man. 1:02:35.680 --> 1:02:36.640 I love watching you. 1:02:36.800 --> 1:02:40.120 Oh, thanks, Man, got my earbuds in cutting down some. 1:02:40.040 --> 1:02:41.960 Trees you're doing. 1:02:42.000 --> 1:02:43.160 I love milk. 1:02:44.000 --> 1:02:46.480 Oh And actually I called you a while back as 1:02:46.640 --> 1:02:49.840 rob about my cat, and you told me to put 1:02:49.880 --> 1:02:52.440 him into the jail for a thousand years. And I 1:02:52.440 --> 1:02:53.640 think that was pretty good advice. 1:02:53.880 --> 1:02:56.200 I told you to put your cat in jail for. 1:02:56.160 --> 1:02:57.120 A thousand years. 1:02:57.320 --> 1:03:00.680 And look at you now, you're buying a farm. 1:03:00.840 --> 1:03:01.080 Fuck. 1:03:01.160 --> 1:03:03.880 Yeah, the cat to come with me though, I can't lie. 1:03:04.080 --> 1:03:06.920 What's the what's how's everything going with the mom? Are 1:03:06.920 --> 1:03:08.640 you still with her? What's going on with her? 1:03:09.400 --> 1:03:09.800 Yeah? 1:03:10.440 --> 1:03:12.640 Yeah, we're doing pretty good. She's at one of her 1:03:12.680 --> 1:03:15.160 friend's house. My first night alone with the baby. 1:03:15.840 --> 1:03:18.080 M hm, this is your first night alone with the 1:03:18.120 --> 1:03:22.080 baby and you're supposed to be taking care of the baby. 1:03:22.120 --> 1:03:23.440 Man, I'm holder right now. 1:03:23.960 --> 1:03:27.160 Okay an I gave her a bottle action right before 1:03:27.160 --> 1:03:27.760 you guys answered. 1:03:27.760 --> 1:03:28.480 That was pretty cool. 1:03:28.920 --> 1:03:30.360 Good job man, good job. 1:03:30.920 --> 1:03:33.520 Yeah. I think you're gonna be fine. Yeah, you sound 1:03:33.600 --> 1:03:36.320 like a great you sound I wish you were my dad. 1:03:38.280 --> 1:03:38.840 I will be. 1:03:40.320 --> 1:03:41.480 Let me the adoption paper. 1:03:42.360 --> 1:03:45.720 That's cool, all right, I'm moving. I i'd love to, hey, man, 1:03:45.800 --> 1:03:48.560 if you prepare a nice bale of hay for me, 1:03:49.280 --> 1:03:51.760 I'll live in your farm, be your son. 1:03:52.320 --> 1:03:55.560 I don't mind. I'll give you two bails a hey, 1:03:55.680 --> 1:03:56.280 how about that. 1:04:02.280 --> 1:04:06.920 Well, Jayden, damn, you actually really do sound like you 1:04:06.920 --> 1:04:09.280 have you are you? I I I genuinely you sound 1:04:09.360 --> 1:04:10.800 like you're gonna be okay. I'm not worried about you 1:04:10.880 --> 1:04:11.160 at all. 1:04:12.800 --> 1:04:13.880 Fuck yeah, thank you. 1:04:13.960 --> 1:04:14.800 I appreciate that. 1:04:15.520 --> 1:04:18.800 I'm any other final words for Jaden. 1:04:19.640 --> 1:04:21.960 Yeah, Man, just like I told him, Man, everything is 1:04:22.000 --> 1:04:24.000 about the baby, not man. Your life is over. 1:04:27.240 --> 1:04:28.760 Man, you sound like Drewski. 1:04:33.480 --> 1:04:34.680 All right, take care of jidd. 1:04:36.120 --> 1:04:36.400 You too. 1:04:36.480 --> 1:04:36.640 Man. 1:04:36.640 --> 1:04:37.480 It's awesome talking to you. 1:04:38.160 --> 1:04:43.320 Talking to man. Well, it's it's funny. I believe the 1:04:43.320 --> 1:04:46.760 same thing, right, Like, when you have a kid, your 1:04:46.800 --> 1:04:49.680 life is pretty much over. But that doesn't seem like 1:04:49.840 --> 1:04:53.240 it was the case for you. You've seen You've lived 1:04:53.600 --> 1:04:55.160 a full life up until this point. 1:04:55.160 --> 1:04:57.560 Mean, I wasn't a lumberjack at eighteen. I was selling cracks, 1:04:59.600 --> 1:05:01.800 but I have I had young parents, you know. My 1:05:01.800 --> 1:05:04.160 mom was eighteen when she had me. My dad was sixteen, 1:05:04.640 --> 1:05:09.240 and look how it turned out. So yeah, fucked up. 1:05:09.800 --> 1:05:12.360 But no, Man, and my parents they partied every weekend 1:05:12.760 --> 1:05:15.360 type shit. Yeah, So that's what I'm saying. Like that 1:05:15.440 --> 1:05:18.080 was where a lot of my fucking you know, a 1:05:18.080 --> 1:05:20.560 lot of I got into a lot of trouble because 1:05:20.600 --> 1:05:20.840 of that. 1:05:20.880 --> 1:05:24.040 You know, are you still are your your parents still around? 1:05:24.280 --> 1:05:24.440 Yeah? 1:05:24.520 --> 1:05:25.240 Yeah, definitely? Are you? 1:05:25.240 --> 1:05:26.000 Are you still cool with them? 1:05:26.040 --> 1:05:26.200 Yeah? 1:05:26.240 --> 1:05:27.240 Yeah? Oh good? Good? 1:05:27.240 --> 1:05:28.800 Have you and liked? Were you cool with them in 1:05:28.840 --> 1:05:29.400 your whole life? 1:05:29.840 --> 1:05:30.120 Mmm? 1:05:30.280 --> 1:05:32.440 You know, I guess it's just like everything else it's been. 1:05:32.800 --> 1:05:35.640 When I was fucking up, you know, you know, it 1:05:35.680 --> 1:05:38.400 was always button heads with my mom or well me 1:05:38.440 --> 1:05:38.919 and my dad. 1:05:39.000 --> 1:05:41.320 We got really close. So this is good. It's good. 1:05:41.560 --> 1:05:42.680 How things going with your daughter? 1:05:42.720 --> 1:05:43.600 Now? She's great. 1:05:43.640 --> 1:05:45.919 She just was out here not too long ago, hanging out. 1:05:46.080 --> 1:05:47.640 You know, she's twenty two now. 1:05:47.720 --> 1:05:49.040 Oh cool, So she's grown. 1:05:49.320 --> 1:05:52.360 What's her like? What she do? What's her what's her deal. 1:05:52.120 --> 1:05:54.000 With she's into like photography and shit? 1:05:54.240 --> 1:05:54.680 Oh cool? 1:05:54.840 --> 1:05:57.320 You know she come out here, she go thrifting and shiit, 1:05:57.640 --> 1:05:58.160 same shit. 1:05:58.320 --> 1:05:58.520 You know. 1:06:01.440 --> 1:06:03.760 Now when you said you were twenty and you had 1:06:03.760 --> 1:06:07.440 her and you were like and then the main issue 1:06:07.520 --> 1:06:09.480 was just like financial stuff. 1:06:09.880 --> 1:06:11.920 Yeah, and then me and her mom wasn't together, so 1:06:12.120 --> 1:06:15.240 just that whole hard part of just being able to 1:06:15.240 --> 1:06:17.120 see her and being around her and stuff like that. 1:06:17.200 --> 1:06:18.880 But then you know, we eventually worked it out. 1:06:19.720 --> 1:06:21.840 But I mean, I like, I had a lot of 1:06:21.880 --> 1:06:25.440 crazy shit, Like I had my first well, I was 1:06:25.480 --> 1:06:28.880 having my first child at sixteen, and the mom was 1:06:30.320 --> 1:06:33.440 she went nine months and didn't had a miscarriage and 1:06:33.480 --> 1:06:36.800 the baby died. And I struggled with that for a 1:06:36.800 --> 1:06:39.040 long time. Didn't really realize how much it affected me 1:06:39.040 --> 1:06:40.800 because I was like running around in the streets at 1:06:40.800 --> 1:06:43.520 the time. But once I really got older, I was like, man, 1:06:43.560 --> 1:06:46.080 I was I went through a real something that really 1:06:46.160 --> 1:06:47.880 shaped my life for the rest you know what I'm saying, 1:06:47.920 --> 1:06:50.000 for the rest of my life, and it really Yeah, 1:06:50.120 --> 1:06:52.480 just dealing with that in high school, you were supposed 1:06:52.480 --> 1:06:54.880 to be thinking about fucking homework and graduating and shit 1:06:54.920 --> 1:06:57.240 like that, and I'm running around selling drugs having babies, 1:06:57.440 --> 1:06:59.680 you know, So that was really hard. 1:07:00.720 --> 1:07:02.280 Was there was there like a point in your life 1:07:02.280 --> 1:07:04.560 where even even now, where like you were thinking a 1:07:04.600 --> 1:07:08.320 lot about things from high school in your early life 1:07:08.400 --> 1:07:11.880 and being like having that realization that they still affected 1:07:11.880 --> 1:07:12.480 you to this day. 1:07:12.640 --> 1:07:15.200 Yeah, definitely. I always think about how shit would have 1:07:15.240 --> 1:07:16.960 turned out if I just would have did the right thing. 1:07:17.080 --> 1:07:18.760 I mean, maybe I wouldn't be here right now, maybe 1:07:18.760 --> 1:07:21.160 I wouldn't be making music or anything, you know. Like 1:07:21.200 --> 1:07:22.960 I think about that all the time, Like, you know, 1:07:23.200 --> 1:07:25.320 there's a gift and a curse in some sense. You know, 1:07:25.640 --> 1:07:27.200 if I would have had a baby at sixteen, I 1:07:27.240 --> 1:07:29.560 probably would have been working some bullshit job right now. 1:07:29.960 --> 1:07:32.600 You know, I wouldn't have been able to fucking follow 1:07:32.640 --> 1:07:34.960 my dreams of making music, you know. So it was 1:07:35.000 --> 1:07:37.320 almost like that's my angel in the sky, like you know, 1:07:37.840 --> 1:07:39.480 getting me through life kind of. 1:07:39.400 --> 1:07:39.960 Shit, you know. 1:07:40.160 --> 1:07:43.480 And that at twenty was it like was it was 1:07:43.520 --> 1:07:46.080 it an intentional decision to have a. 1:07:46.120 --> 1:07:50.439 Care Definitely, but I think yeah, we was going through 1:07:50.440 --> 1:07:53.360 the trauma of losing that one, so yeah, it was. 1:07:53.560 --> 1:07:55.720 I mean, I wouldn't say it was intentional, but you know, 1:07:55.920 --> 1:07:56.640 I'm pretty sure. 1:07:56.800 --> 1:08:00.840 H So the it was the same girl at sixteen, Yeah, 1:08:01.040 --> 1:08:07.000 okay do you And and was it like right sort 1:08:07.040 --> 1:08:09.720 of after you had the kid that things started going 1:08:09.760 --> 1:08:10.560 to arrive with her? 1:08:10.600 --> 1:08:13.480 No, we was already it was like before there even 1:08:13.920 --> 1:08:15.840 any of that happened. It was like we were already 1:08:15.920 --> 1:08:17.960 kind of like you know, you know, you is when 1:08:17.960 --> 1:08:20.720 you're young. I was running around, she was doing every 1:08:20.760 --> 1:08:23.040 thing too, and it was just you know, we were 1:08:23.080 --> 1:08:26.160 still fooling around and just ended up happening. But then 1:08:26.200 --> 1:08:28.439 we ended up. We was together, we got back together 1:08:28.520 --> 1:08:30.840 for some years. We was together for a long time, 1:08:31.800 --> 1:08:35.000 and then I just was a piece of shit, you know, 1:08:35.760 --> 1:08:39.240 I was. I wasn't really ready for that kind of thing, 1:08:39.520 --> 1:08:42.240 Like I wasn't ready for like a I just didn't understand. 1:08:42.240 --> 1:08:43.960 I'm like I said, I came from young parents, so 1:08:44.000 --> 1:08:46.960 I didn't even understand what it takes to have a family, 1:08:47.880 --> 1:08:50.439 you know, so I just think, you know, like a 1:08:50.439 --> 1:08:52.840 lot of fucked up part on me. You know, still 1:08:52.920 --> 1:08:53.799 I was still trying. 1:08:53.560 --> 1:08:54.960 To be young too. You know. 1:08:55.600 --> 1:08:58.800 It's a wild thing because I I feel like if you, 1:08:59.040 --> 1:09:04.800 if you like have a kid, your life it is hard. 1:09:04.840 --> 1:09:06.559 It's like it's about the kid. 1:09:06.920 --> 1:09:09.080 But I don't know. 1:09:09.120 --> 1:09:11.640 I'm now I'm thinking about Jaden, and you know, he 1:09:11.720 --> 1:09:14.920 really did seem like, yeah, he had it together like me. 1:09:15.040 --> 1:09:18.040 I was running around so like even you know, having 1:09:18.040 --> 1:09:20.880 a kid and trying to sell drugs, like any day 1:09:21.160 --> 1:09:22.559 the ship could have been overwhere and I could have 1:09:22.560 --> 1:09:25.439 been in jail, which happened. I went to jail for 1:09:25.479 --> 1:09:27.280 a year, and that's pretty much how we split up. 1:09:28.080 --> 1:09:30.360 She met somebody else and moved on, you know, type shit, 1:09:30.560 --> 1:09:33.080 and then you know, I got out. It's hard to 1:09:33.120 --> 1:09:35.720 see my daughter and this and that, and just hard 1:09:35.720 --> 1:09:38.679 to keep that relationship going. And but it did give 1:09:38.720 --> 1:09:41.760 me a drive to make it in music though, like 1:09:42.160 --> 1:09:44.960 you know, it was almost like just like I got it, 1:09:45.200 --> 1:09:47.240 I had nothing else going for me. You know, I 1:09:47.439 --> 1:09:51.080 dropped out of school, didn't have any education really, and 1:09:51.240 --> 1:09:53.200 all I knew how to do was fucking sell drugs 1:09:53.200 --> 1:09:54.040 at that point. 1:09:53.880 --> 1:09:54.599 To get money. 1:09:55.040 --> 1:09:57.200 I was trying to get like normal jobs and shit, 1:09:57.360 --> 1:10:01.559 and just working like normal jobs up fuck and just couldn't. 1:10:01.840 --> 1:10:07.680 I'm not like built the labor, but you. 1:10:07.400 --> 1:10:10.840 There's but there's there's something of like you were built 1:10:10.880 --> 1:10:14.160 to be an entrepreneur. You know, you were a built 1:10:14.200 --> 1:10:16.920 to like make it for yourself, but not like you know, 1:10:17.000 --> 1:10:17.519 working But. 1:10:17.479 --> 1:10:19.760 It did get me that drive, though, I would say, 1:10:19.800 --> 1:10:22.799 because I was like I would take twelve hour greyhound 1:10:22.800 --> 1:10:25.640 trips to New York with the bag of CDs and 1:10:26.400 --> 1:10:28.920 just trying to network this days before like cell phones 1:10:28.960 --> 1:10:30.400 and shit, I'm going out there without a phone. 1:10:30.439 --> 1:10:32.759 Were you like doing the thing like I went to Square, 1:10:32.760 --> 1:10:34.760 like handing out CDs and stuff. 1:10:34.479 --> 1:10:36.200 In the beginning, Yeah, but then I had met an 1:10:36.200 --> 1:10:38.800 A and R that worked at Death Jam. So then 1:10:38.840 --> 1:10:40.439 I had that connection with him, and then I would 1:10:40.479 --> 1:10:42.519 talk to him and I'll come out sometimes I'll just 1:10:42.520 --> 1:10:45.200 pop up on him, but I come out here and 1:10:45.240 --> 1:10:47.360 then he'll let me like crash at his crib and 1:10:47.400 --> 1:10:49.719 we'd like take me around the studios and shit. And 1:10:49.760 --> 1:10:52.080 that's really how it all started for me. And then 1:10:52.120 --> 1:10:55.000 I just was making music, you know, and you know, 1:10:55.640 --> 1:10:58.280 people getting up on my ship and shit, like just 1:10:58.280 --> 1:11:01.080 making connections kind of, you know. And then I actually 1:11:01.160 --> 1:11:02.280 just saw him not too long ago. We were in 1:11:02.320 --> 1:11:05.880 New York and then ended up going to jail. 1:11:07.000 --> 1:11:09.360 I lost that ship. Then I came when I got 1:11:09.360 --> 1:11:09.920 back out, it. 1:11:09.880 --> 1:11:11.880 Was this was this you had like a kind of 1:11:11.920 --> 1:11:14.160 like a recording. 1:11:13.640 --> 1:11:15.720 I mean, you know, just networking and building with him. 1:11:16.000 --> 1:11:16.240 Yeah. 1:11:16.320 --> 1:11:20.160 Once I but this was like way before like internet 1:11:20.280 --> 1:11:23.960 shit kind of, you know. So the main deal would 1:11:23.960 --> 1:11:26.200 be like you know, I would go out to New 1:11:26.280 --> 1:11:29.639 York and then people are like hit back, like seeing 1:11:29.800 --> 1:11:31.519 you know, hit up, like people in Detroit and like 1:11:31.520 --> 1:11:32.800 you heard it as kid and this and that, and 1:11:32.840 --> 1:11:35.320 then nobody knew who I was. So it was almost 1:11:35.360 --> 1:11:36.519 like when I got a jug, like I got to 1:11:36.520 --> 1:11:38.920 make my name known in my city before I can 1:11:38.960 --> 1:11:41.040 take it anywhere else. So that's what I did once 1:11:41.040 --> 1:11:42.400 I got out of jail. I would like go to 1:11:42.520 --> 1:11:45.080 open my aches and you know, just make music and 1:11:45.080 --> 1:11:47.840 put it out. And then the internet things start taking off, 1:11:47.880 --> 1:11:50.280 you know, getting my music on blogs and stuff like that, 1:11:50.360 --> 1:11:53.519 and then everything just kind of came together because I 1:11:53.520 --> 1:11:55.320 already had like the connections in New York, and then 1:11:55.320 --> 1:11:57.040 once I got my name up in my city, then 1:11:57.120 --> 1:11:59.280 everything just like opened up for me. 1:11:59.760 --> 1:12:01.960 Do you do you ever think about, you know, what 1:12:02.000 --> 1:12:04.479 you would be doing if if it wasn't for music, 1:12:04.640 --> 1:12:08.720 or even if even like any other like positive thing 1:12:08.760 --> 1:12:11.840 you would have, you would have sunk your your your 1:12:11.840 --> 1:12:13.040 work ethic into. 1:12:13.040 --> 1:12:14.920 Honestly, I can't. I can't think so. 1:12:15.040 --> 1:12:18.040 I don't think so, because like most of my friends 1:12:18.040 --> 1:12:19.840 from like back then, they are pretty much dead or 1:12:19.840 --> 1:12:22.600 in jail, as cliche as that sounds. And if not, 1:12:23.040 --> 1:12:25.240 then it's just like you know, working dead in jobs 1:12:25.320 --> 1:12:28.920 or you know. So I don't know, man, it's almost 1:12:28.960 --> 1:12:34.280 like music was that's like my last That's like my 1:12:34.360 --> 1:12:35.320 last thing that I had. 1:12:35.360 --> 1:12:38.160 Man, are you still friends with anyone from Yeah? 1:12:38.200 --> 1:12:40.920 Definitely time, Yeah, definitely a lot of my friends, you know, 1:12:41.560 --> 1:12:44.000 But I feel like I met a lot of my 1:12:44.560 --> 1:12:47.360 you know, newer friends through music. Like we like I said, 1:12:47.439 --> 1:12:50.280 you know, doing the same ship. So like a lot 1:12:50.280 --> 1:12:51.920 of my friends that I have now is like for 1:12:52.080 --> 1:12:54.519 my music time and not for my street days. 1:12:54.560 --> 1:12:54.760 You know. 1:12:56.520 --> 1:13:00.840 Do you like so your your kind of social life nowadays? 1:13:01.479 --> 1:13:03.800 Do you do you find yourself mainly like trying to 1:13:03.800 --> 1:13:05.559 hang around other people who are who are sober? 1:13:06.720 --> 1:13:10.439 No, I wouldn't say that, because one thing they teach 1:13:10.439 --> 1:13:13.640 you kind of rehabits that you can't. The worst thing 1:13:13.680 --> 1:13:16.320 you can do is try to run from it. You know, 1:13:16.840 --> 1:13:19.240 you have to be able to like so like when 1:13:19.280 --> 1:13:20.920 people around, I want them to be able to be 1:13:20.960 --> 1:13:22.960 comfortable and do whatever they want to do. It's not 1:13:22.960 --> 1:13:24.559 going to trigger me. I already got it in my 1:13:24.600 --> 1:13:27.040 head that, you know, that's not what I'm trying to do. 1:13:27.120 --> 1:13:28.720 That's not where I'm living. So the last thing you 1:13:28.760 --> 1:13:31.040 can do is try to run from it. And that's 1:13:31.120 --> 1:13:33.639 just that's just causing more problems for yourself. Like if 1:13:33.680 --> 1:13:36.280 you're not around it for years and then all of 1:13:36.320 --> 1:13:39.679 a sudden you around it might be subject to relapse. 1:13:39.760 --> 1:13:44.280 There's a weird thing of like, if you're engaging both 1:13:44.720 --> 1:13:50.760 engaging in an activity constantly and engaging in the avoidance 1:13:50.880 --> 1:13:54.960 of an activity constantly, are still both forms of that 1:13:55.040 --> 1:13:58.280 activity having some fucking roll over you. 1:13:58.360 --> 1:13:58.559 Yeah. 1:13:58.600 --> 1:14:01.720 Yeah, So that's why when I'm around people, I want 1:14:01.760 --> 1:14:03.040 them to do what they want to do, to feel 1:14:03.040 --> 1:14:04.760 comfortable and be able to be in a element and 1:14:04.840 --> 1:14:07.559 not be worried about me. You know, that was solely 1:14:07.600 --> 1:14:09.559 the reason why I didn't ride on a tour bus, 1:14:09.600 --> 1:14:12.200 because I didn't want anybody to feel like they couldn't 1:14:12.240 --> 1:14:14.000 get fucked up around me and be like that. I 1:14:14.080 --> 1:14:15.720 was like, you know, it's all good. I just take 1:14:15.760 --> 1:14:17.360 a band and just ride behind the bus. 1:14:17.360 --> 1:14:20.360 Sure, sure, Who who do you when you go on 1:14:20.400 --> 1:14:22.920 tour with like your girlfriend and like you have. 1:14:23.880 --> 1:14:25.920 I've got my tour manager and my DJ. 1:14:26.240 --> 1:14:28.040 Cool cool cool cool. 1:14:29.360 --> 1:14:31.200 I mean, my girl came up to a few shows. 1:14:31.640 --> 1:14:32.680 You know, we kicked it. 1:14:33.360 --> 1:14:35.320 But for the most part, it's like, when I'm locked 1:14:35.320 --> 1:14:39.800 into like music mode, I can't have any outside distractions. 1:14:40.600 --> 1:14:43.320 You know, are you when you're do you ever make 1:14:43.360 --> 1:14:47.880 any like adaptations to to your songs while you're performing? 1:14:47.920 --> 1:14:50.000 You're like, oh, that might sound better doing that all 1:14:50.040 --> 1:14:50.360 the time. 1:14:50.520 --> 1:14:53.479 Yeah, sometimes it's just you know, like you know, you're 1:14:53.479 --> 1:14:56.840 performing songs that are so old or like, you know, 1:14:56.960 --> 1:14:59.360 these songs I wrote ten years ago some shit like that, 1:14:59.439 --> 1:15:02.040 and it almost just happened like a freestyle type of 1:15:02.360 --> 1:15:04.519 type of thing where I'm singing the songs because I'm 1:15:04.520 --> 1:15:07.360 not like listening to them all the time, right type 1:15:07.360 --> 1:15:09.000 of thing. So sometime I get up there and I'd 1:15:09.040 --> 1:15:11.840 be rapping and I would change a line. It just 1:15:11.880 --> 1:15:13.880 happens on its own, and before I know it, that 1:15:13.920 --> 1:15:15.720 becomes the line when if. 1:15:15.600 --> 1:15:17.600 It what's your what's your fan base? Like, like what 1:15:17.760 --> 1:15:20.599 kind of what demographics you're seeing out there? 1:15:21.520 --> 1:15:23.760 Well, this last tour was it was crazy because it 1:15:23.800 --> 1:15:26.880 was a lot of younger kids, and it's you know 1:15:27.200 --> 1:15:29.840 that I wasn't really used to that, Like I didn't 1:15:29.840 --> 1:15:32.479 really see too many kids at my shows. But you know, 1:15:32.560 --> 1:15:34.720 I guess Peggy he has a younger fan based than me. 1:15:35.280 --> 1:15:37.160 So it was cool to see some kids out there, 1:15:37.520 --> 1:15:39.720 you know, enjoying the music and shit. But for the 1:15:39.800 --> 1:15:41.320 most part, I think of I don't know, I think 1:15:41.360 --> 1:15:44.280 I gotta I couldn't. I couldn't really say, you know, 1:15:44.840 --> 1:15:45.479 I don't know. 1:15:45.400 --> 1:15:46.720 How does it. How does it make you feel when 1:15:46.760 --> 1:15:50.960 people tell you that, like, you know, you you inspire them, 1:15:51.360 --> 1:15:53.360 or that they look up to you and whatnot. What's 1:15:53.360 --> 1:15:57.920 your kind of like relationship to other people's perspective on you. 1:15:58.760 --> 1:16:01.320 It's it inspired me to be honest, you know, before 1:16:01.360 --> 1:16:03.680 I probably wouldn't even give a shit, you know, but 1:16:03.720 --> 1:16:05.679 now I just realize how much it is a blessing 1:16:06.160 --> 1:16:09.280 to been doing this for over ten years now. So 1:16:09.320 --> 1:16:12.240 now it's almost like I'm just grateful man, to be 1:16:12.360 --> 1:16:14.720 even and still in the same position, to still have 1:16:14.800 --> 1:16:17.719 to drive to make music, to steal for newer fans 1:16:17.720 --> 1:16:19.400 to come and hear my shit every day is almost 1:16:19.439 --> 1:16:22.080 just like a blessing, man, because I've seen so many 1:16:22.120 --> 1:16:24.680 people that started when I started and they not here 1:16:24.720 --> 1:16:27.760 no more. Yeah, you know, And like I say, man, 1:16:28.080 --> 1:16:29.080 music is subjective. 1:16:29.120 --> 1:16:29.320 Man. 1:16:29.400 --> 1:16:31.880 You never know, man, when it's your last song or 1:16:32.000 --> 1:16:35.040 you know, like it's been so many artists that I'm 1:16:35.120 --> 1:16:37.840 huge fans of and they can't you know, people are 1:16:37.880 --> 1:16:39.519 not checking for the shit and this and that. 1:16:39.680 --> 1:16:42.519 So it's a scary, man. It's a slippery slope. 1:16:42.520 --> 1:16:45.120 Man. It's yeah, that's kind of back to what you 1:16:45.200 --> 1:16:47.760 were talking about with like the when things are going good, 1:16:47.880 --> 1:16:52.080 it's like there's a weird fucking anxiety, like everything's gonna tumble. 1:16:52.120 --> 1:16:54.800 I feel that way too, Like I'm you know, I'm 1:16:54.880 --> 1:16:57.080 lucky enough to get to do a podcast where people can, 1:16:57.960 --> 1:16:59.960 you know, talk to me about jerking off into pond. 1:17:01.439 --> 1:17:03.880 Now I've gotten better with it though, Like, I just 1:17:03.920 --> 1:17:06.920 think it's for the most part, man, just you gotta. 1:17:06.680 --> 1:17:10.360 Have faith, as you know, Yeah, as weird does that sound? 1:17:10.720 --> 1:17:12.320 And I hate it, but you gotta have faith. 1:17:14.400 --> 1:17:16.040 I know what you mean. You gotta stop being such 1:17:16.080 --> 1:17:19.760 a such a baby and be like, no, I got this. 1:17:20.240 --> 1:17:22.200 I just feel like when you know you're doing the 1:17:22.280 --> 1:17:24.679 right shit in life, the right shit is gonna happen 1:17:24.760 --> 1:17:27.120 for you. If you're out there fucking up and you've 1:17:27.120 --> 1:17:29.240 been a piece of shit, then of course you got 1:17:29.240 --> 1:17:32.479 a lot of shit to worry about it. Like Karena's real, man, Hey, you. 1:17:32.400 --> 1:17:36.439 Want to talk to another caller? Sure, Shane. His boss 1:17:36.520 --> 1:17:40.000 has a drinking problem and is constantly over sharing about 1:17:40.000 --> 1:17:43.000 it and it makes him uncomfortable. 1:17:46.560 --> 1:17:51.200 Yeah, I guess I definitely have a lot a lot 1:17:51.200 --> 1:17:52.360 of experience with that. 1:17:53.360 --> 1:17:57.559 Yo. Hello, what's up? 1:17:57.680 --> 1:18:00.479 Shane? Twenty five from ohio his life. 1:18:02.479 --> 1:18:03.519 Oh it's not too bad. 1:18:04.520 --> 1:18:05.240 How's he going for. 1:18:05.200 --> 1:18:06.880 You, Danny? How you feeling? 1:18:06.920 --> 1:18:08.120 I'm great? How you doing? Brother? 1:18:08.520 --> 1:18:08.680 Good? 1:18:08.880 --> 1:18:09.400 Good? 1:18:10.400 --> 1:18:15.799 Well? Shane? You you you messaged in saying that you're 1:18:16.160 --> 1:18:20.360 you're you're dealing with an oversharing boss. Is that correct? 1:18:20.960 --> 1:18:21.360 Yeah? 1:18:21.560 --> 1:18:25.160 Yeah, tell us, tell us, tell us more, or tell 1:18:25.240 --> 1:18:27.639 us whatever you desire to tell us. 1:18:28.080 --> 1:18:30.719 Well, yeah, I work at this catering company. It's actually 1:18:30.720 --> 1:18:33.040 based out of like an old slaughterhouse. It's it's a 1:18:33.080 --> 1:18:36.400 really creepy building, but it's currently being bought out by 1:18:36.400 --> 1:18:40.800 somebody else who's he's like, he's he's cool enough. I 1:18:40.800 --> 1:18:42.919 guess I'm having against him. But he likes to overshare 1:18:42.920 --> 1:18:46.200 a lot about his personal stuff, like very personal stuff. 1:18:46.200 --> 1:18:49.320 And he he told me a while back that he's 1:18:49.360 --> 1:18:53.479 got a drinking problem and he's going to like meetings 1:18:53.520 --> 1:18:56.000 about it every day, which is cool, good for him. 1:18:56.560 --> 1:18:58.479 He's currently also drinking on the job as well. 1:18:58.560 --> 1:18:59.439 I've I've. 1:19:01.240 --> 1:19:04.200 He he takes a little by a coax and mixes 1:19:04.240 --> 1:19:05.559 it with whiskey. 1:19:05.800 --> 1:19:06.360 I've found. 1:19:07.160 --> 1:19:11.280 Well, here's the thing in terms of the jobs, that 1:19:11.360 --> 1:19:17.519 he could be getting drunk at catering company. Not that bad. 1:19:19.320 --> 1:19:22.800 That's fair. It's and it's it's not like there's a 1:19:22.800 --> 1:19:25.400 bunch of people that work there. It's kind of just myself. 1:19:25.520 --> 1:19:31.360 Basically, are you are you like debating about like what 1:19:31.520 --> 1:19:34.559 I guess what what anguish, if any is is this 1:19:35.880 --> 1:19:36.760 presenting to you? 1:19:37.320 --> 1:19:41.040 It's really awkward. I don't do good with people who overshare, 1:19:41.120 --> 1:19:45.040 especially people they don't know super well. 1:19:45.680 --> 1:19:47.960 And yet you're a fan of this podcast. 1:19:50.240 --> 1:19:51.519 I know that's weird in that. 1:19:52.560 --> 1:19:57.960 Hmm, Danny, You ever have somebody in your life over 1:19:58.000 --> 1:19:59.760 share in a way that makes you feel. 1:20:00.280 --> 1:20:02.960 Yeah, it was probably me. You know. 1:20:03.000 --> 1:20:05.960 They say a drunk person speaks a sober mind, you know, 1:20:06.240 --> 1:20:08.920 and the only people that tell the truth is people. 1:20:09.960 --> 1:20:14.000 It's people that are mad kids and drunk motherfucker. So 1:20:14.000 --> 1:20:17.160 sounds like to me, man, it seems like he's going 1:20:17.240 --> 1:20:19.280 to meet and so he know he has a problem, 1:20:19.320 --> 1:20:23.080 which is the first step to get help and to 1:20:23.160 --> 1:20:25.640 being on a road to sobriety. I think for the 1:20:25.640 --> 1:20:27.320 most part, you gotta do it. Just tell him he's 1:20:27.360 --> 1:20:30.200 making you uncomfortable. That's just the easiest thing to do, 1:20:30.280 --> 1:20:32.680 especially when he's drunk, you know, like, dog, shut the 1:20:32.680 --> 1:20:36.360 fuck up. You know, it's drunk. You're not gonna take 1:20:36.400 --> 1:20:36.880 it any baby. 1:20:37.080 --> 1:20:40.320 You know. Do you drink? 1:20:40.760 --> 1:20:45.559 Yeah, that's fair, not really. No, I smoke more than 1:20:45.600 --> 1:20:46.479 I drink for sure. 1:20:47.120 --> 1:20:47.320 Yeah. 1:20:47.800 --> 1:20:48.160 Do you know? 1:20:49.600 --> 1:20:53.160 I have a question, why does it make you uncomfortable 1:20:54.200 --> 1:20:56.040 when when this guy shares with you. 1:21:00.520 --> 1:21:02.639 I don't really know him super well. You know, he's 1:21:02.760 --> 1:21:05.439 he just started kind of working there a few months ago. 1:21:09.560 --> 1:21:09.800 Yeah. 1:21:10.280 --> 1:21:12.519 I guess I can't really explain why it makes me 1:21:12.600 --> 1:21:13.520 super uncomfortable. 1:21:15.880 --> 1:21:17.519 I don't. I don't know if this is just like 1:21:17.840 --> 1:21:20.320 a weird thing with me, and I guess it is 1:21:20.400 --> 1:21:23.719 like what I do on this podcast. But I don't 1:21:23.760 --> 1:21:29.719 mind unless if it's like incessant. I don't mind hearing 1:21:29.760 --> 1:21:35.000 about people's personal lives. I usually find that interesting. 1:21:34.760 --> 1:21:37.000 Yeah, because I find humor in it, to be honest. 1:21:37.000 --> 1:21:39.080 But all you got to do, like you say, if 1:21:39.120 --> 1:21:41.400 he's going to meetings and he realized he got a problem, 1:21:41.439 --> 1:21:43.400 if you just set him down and talk to him like, man, 1:21:43.439 --> 1:21:44.880 I think you really got a problem. You need to 1:21:44.920 --> 1:21:46.320 get some help. I bet you wouldn't talk to you 1:21:46.400 --> 1:21:47.960 as no more because he just don't want to drink, 1:21:48.280 --> 1:21:50.120 so he's gonna leave you out this shit Like fuck, 1:21:50.120 --> 1:21:51.680 that I'm getting drunk. I don't want to talk to him. 1:21:51.680 --> 1:21:53.479 He's gonna talk about need help and this and that. 1:21:54.120 --> 1:21:56.879 So yeah, but if he's still drinking and going to meetings, then. 1:21:57.320 --> 1:21:59.960 He's fucked up. He's just he's all over the place. 1:22:00.439 --> 1:22:03.800 H Are you trying? Are you trying to help him? 1:22:03.880 --> 1:22:08.280 Or just you are to lead alone he stopped drinking 1:22:08.360 --> 1:22:10.120 or not. Yeah, but yeah, that's all you gotta do 1:22:10.160 --> 1:22:11.479 is that I talk about him like, man, I think 1:22:11.479 --> 1:22:13.519 you really need some help. I'm worried about you. Should 1:22:13.520 --> 1:22:15.559 get on the road to sobriety, bitch. You gonna leo 1:22:15.640 --> 1:22:16.280 as alone in. 1:22:18.479 --> 1:22:20.280 And if he if he drinks, I don't give a 1:22:20.320 --> 1:22:20.800 ship whatever. 1:22:20.840 --> 1:22:24.960 Does his person act like you care like you think 1:22:25.040 --> 1:22:28.680 you think him acting like he cares? I don't want 1:22:28.720 --> 1:22:32.040 to talk to this guy because you don't want to drink. Yeah, 1:22:32.040 --> 1:22:33.880 that's that's that's that's smart, that's smart. 1:22:34.000 --> 1:22:34.240 Yeah. 1:22:34.720 --> 1:22:36.840 Yeah, just pretend like you really you really want him 1:22:36.840 --> 1:22:38.360 to stop worried about you? 1:22:38.439 --> 1:22:38.639 Man? 1:22:38.720 --> 1:22:39.520 Yeah? 1:22:40.040 --> 1:22:41.840 Should I sit in the meetings with him? You think? 1:22:42.479 --> 1:22:47.120 Fuck no, but then he'll definitely never talk to you again. Yeah, 1:22:47.280 --> 1:22:51.519 maybe you should do. Do you get like at the 1:22:51.560 --> 1:22:54.519 catering job. Do you get like free Montrell sticks afterwards 1:22:54.520 --> 1:22:55.240 when they're done? 1:22:56.240 --> 1:22:58.360 I mean, I get free whatever whatever we have there? 1:23:00.080 --> 1:23:03.519 Shit, man, getting drunk on the job and then having 1:23:03.520 --> 1:23:07.560 a bunch of like chicken sliders and shit afterwards, that 1:23:07.600 --> 1:23:08.479 sounds pretty awesome. 1:23:08.800 --> 1:23:11.760 Yeah, Lee, that's all you gotta do. Just talk to 1:23:11.800 --> 1:23:13.519 him about getting clean. He ain't gonna talk to you 1:23:13.560 --> 1:23:16.720 no more. Heal y alone. 1:23:17.960 --> 1:23:18.920 Hey, maybe I'll do that. 1:23:19.600 --> 1:23:20.840 Shane, Is there anything else you want to say to 1:23:20.840 --> 1:23:22.080 the people of the computer before we go? 1:23:23.080 --> 1:23:25.040 No, I don't think so. Thak, I'm good. 1:23:26.000 --> 1:23:29.000 Have a rest of the night, Shane, Thank you all, 1:23:29.080 --> 1:23:33.040 Thank you, Danny, thank you brother. 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Let's talk to Elizabeth. Hello, Elizabeth. 1:24:22.400 --> 1:24:26.120 Hello, Yes, hi Elizabeth. 1:24:25.680 --> 1:24:26.200 How are you doing. 1:24:26.479 --> 1:24:28.280 Hello, I'm good. 1:24:28.320 --> 1:24:29.920 How are you doing? 1:24:29.920 --> 1:24:30.360 All right? 1:24:30.400 --> 1:24:31.160 Thanks for calling, man. 1:24:31.160 --> 1:24:33.439 I'm sorry. I'm excited just to get on the line. 1:24:33.800 --> 1:24:35.360 No, don't be sorry, don't be sorry at all. 1:24:39.080 --> 1:24:44.880 Yeah, sorry, go ahead, No, Yeah, I just want to 1:24:44.960 --> 1:24:47.599 say I'm a really big fan of you and as 1:24:47.600 --> 1:24:50.880 well as Danny. I went on the Scaring the Host 1:24:50.920 --> 1:24:54.800 War and I saw you guy, or I saw Yeah. 1:24:54.840 --> 1:24:58.519 I saw Danny on in Baltimore and it was amazing. 1:24:59.640 --> 1:25:04.479 Yeah, you play in Baltimore. I remember my friends went 1:25:04.479 --> 1:25:10.080 to that show. Yeah awesome. 1:25:10.320 --> 1:25:10.599 Wow. 1:25:10.840 --> 1:25:13.599 Sorry, I'm like having a little moment because I've been 1:25:13.600 --> 1:25:16.280 a fan of Danny's been triple X, so this is 1:25:16.320 --> 1:25:17.519 like really big for me. 1:25:19.800 --> 1:25:21.640 Yeah. 1:25:21.680 --> 1:25:26.519 But yeah, so sorry, I called him just because obviously 1:25:26.560 --> 1:25:30.200 being a fan of Danny, but also I'm a two artist, 1:25:30.360 --> 1:25:33.680 and as an artist, I think like all artists kind 1:25:33.680 --> 1:25:38.559 of struggle with the same thing. But just like imposter 1:25:38.720 --> 1:25:42.320 syndrome and kind of like comparing yourself to other artists, 1:25:42.400 --> 1:25:47.040 and I was wondering how he kind of feels about 1:25:47.040 --> 1:25:51.280 that and like how he goes about that and just 1:25:51.320 --> 1:25:54.559 dealing with like not feeling like you're adequate even when 1:25:54.640 --> 1:25:58.920 like everyone's telling you you're like artists. 1:26:00.080 --> 1:26:02.559 Well, I think the biggest deal with that is fucking 1:26:02.640 --> 1:26:05.960 social media. I swear, like when you get caught up 1:26:06.000 --> 1:26:09.120 and see what everyone else is doing, it always makes 1:26:09.120 --> 1:26:11.120 you feel like that. And I think for the most part, 1:26:11.120 --> 1:26:13.120 when you just gotta take you gotta take those social 1:26:13.160 --> 1:26:15.919 media breaks and stop worrying about you know, like sometimes 1:26:15.920 --> 1:26:19.000 with me just basically because I fucking do rap music, 1:26:19.040 --> 1:26:21.639 so I just wouldn't listen to rap music and every 1:26:21.640 --> 1:26:23.599 way I can't even I don't know what's going on, 1:26:23.720 --> 1:26:24.000 I don't. 1:26:24.160 --> 1:26:25.759 I just get myself out of that world. 1:26:25.760 --> 1:26:27.479 So I'm pretty sure you probably follow a lot of 1:26:27.520 --> 1:26:31.160 tattoo shit, So every time you go on fucking go online, 1:26:31.160 --> 1:26:33.240 you're just seeing tattoo shit everywhere and this and that. 1:26:33.320 --> 1:26:35.120 So just you got to take yourself out of that 1:26:35.240 --> 1:26:38.120 world and then just work on your own shit. I 1:26:38.120 --> 1:26:41.679 think that's the best thing to do, as fucking simple 1:26:41.680 --> 1:26:43.400 as it sounds, but yeah, it's hard. 1:26:46.160 --> 1:26:50.879 Wow, Yeah, No, I really appreciate that. No, I appreciate 1:26:50.920 --> 1:26:53.080 you saying that, and I have heard that advice before. 1:26:53.160 --> 1:26:55.120 But I guess like it's like really hard when like 1:26:55.520 --> 1:26:58.280 a lot of your career is based around social media, 1:26:58.479 --> 1:27:00.920 like getting clients and stuff like that. 1:27:01.200 --> 1:27:04.599 So yeah, yeah, I can see that. But yeah, that's 1:27:04.600 --> 1:27:06.519 what I'm saying. You just can't be paying attention to 1:27:06.560 --> 1:27:09.479 what everybody else is doing. Just worry about your own shit. 1:27:09.760 --> 1:27:11.720 That's really all it is. Because I know sometimes like 1:27:12.760 --> 1:27:15.080 us where artists struggle with that too as well. You know, 1:27:15.160 --> 1:27:17.000 you might see somebody you think you better than and 1:27:17.080 --> 1:27:17.559 be like, oh. 1:27:17.520 --> 1:27:19.920 Fuck, this motherfucker's doing good. Why fuck I'm not here. 1:27:20.000 --> 1:27:20.479 I'm out here. 1:27:21.080 --> 1:27:24.680 You can't even worry about that. I think everybody, everybody 1:27:25.040 --> 1:27:27.160 are where they want to be in life in some sense. 1:27:27.400 --> 1:27:29.960 So I think, just stop worrying about other motherfuckers and 1:27:30.040 --> 1:27:32.680 just put the grind on yourself, you know, and just 1:27:32.760 --> 1:27:34.960 start just figuring out what you can do to make 1:27:35.000 --> 1:27:37.800 your shit better instead of looking at other motherfuckers. 1:27:37.840 --> 1:27:38.840 That's really the main thing. 1:27:40.320 --> 1:27:43.639 What's do you have like a specialty kind of thing 1:27:43.680 --> 1:27:47.120 that you like to tattoo flowers or yeah, I. 1:27:47.200 --> 1:27:55.519 Like anime tattoos. Actually, yeah, I'm mostly doing anime, which 1:27:55.720 --> 1:28:00.320 in like the general DMV area, there's not that many 1:28:00.439 --> 1:28:04.360 animes have two artists. But I do compare myself to 1:28:04.520 --> 1:28:06.960 like the ones in La, the ones in New York, 1:28:07.080 --> 1:28:09.240 you know, like all the really great artists out there. 1:28:09.400 --> 1:28:13.720 So it is like probably really good to just kind 1:28:13.800 --> 1:28:17.559 of stop focusing on that and just focus on my 1:28:17.600 --> 1:28:18.000 own thing. 1:28:19.520 --> 1:28:21.720 Yeah, struggle. I struggle with that too, of like comparing 1:28:21.840 --> 1:28:24.759 myself to to other people. And I always just noticed 1:28:24.800 --> 1:28:29.960 it's such a time suck distraction from like, you know, 1:28:30.080 --> 1:28:33.839 the most the most important fucking thing is like making stuff, 1:28:34.640 --> 1:28:37.479 you know, and so anything that's not making stuff is 1:28:37.640 --> 1:28:40.640 just is just gonna fuck you. And then and then 1:28:40.720 --> 1:28:43.760 it's weird, right because you you're like, oh, I wish 1:28:43.840 --> 1:28:46.240 I could be where this person is, but it's like 1:28:46.360 --> 1:28:48.200 in order to get where that person is, you just 1:28:48.240 --> 1:28:51.559 got to shut out all the distractions and be making stuff. 1:28:52.160 --> 1:28:57.200 So it's it's like a weird, counterproductive thing to do, 1:28:57.280 --> 1:28:59.439 and I get sucked in on it. And it's true that, like, 1:29:00.439 --> 1:29:03.639 you know, social media just yeah, yeah, it's. 1:29:03.439 --> 1:29:06.320 The numbers game now, you see, and you know, everybody's 1:29:06.360 --> 1:29:09.120 just it's a rat race really, you know, but really 1:29:09.160 --> 1:29:12.200 that's all it is, man, Yeah, just just focus on 1:29:12.240 --> 1:29:14.760 your creativity and stop worrying about what everybody else is doing. 1:29:14.840 --> 1:29:16.800 I think social media has fucked us all with that, 1:29:16.960 --> 1:29:17.160 you know. 1:29:19.080 --> 1:29:23.800 Yeah, absolutely, what's thank you so much? 1:29:24.920 --> 1:29:25.240 Sorry? 1:29:25.280 --> 1:29:26.519 What's my favorite anime? 1:29:26.880 --> 1:29:28.440 Yeah? 1:29:29.000 --> 1:29:31.400 Oh my gosh, you don't want. 1:29:31.280 --> 1:29:35.880 To get me started. I would say right now, it's 1:29:35.920 --> 1:29:38.959 between Fruits Basket has always been one of my favorites. 1:29:39.040 --> 1:29:43.600 It's like a romance drama type thing. And then I 1:29:43.720 --> 1:29:48.559 really am loving Jujitsu Kaisan season two right now. It's like, 1:29:49.520 --> 1:29:50.200 really amazing. 1:29:51.600 --> 1:29:53.160 You're an anime guy. I know you said you're into 1:29:53.280 --> 1:29:55.080 j RPG's. 1:29:54.880 --> 1:29:56.840 Not really I can't say I'm an anime guy at 1:29:57.160 --> 1:29:58.360 I'm more of a hint tay guy. 1:29:58.800 --> 1:30:01.680 Yeah. 1:30:00.280 --> 1:30:05.719 Okay, yeah me too. 1:30:07.920 --> 1:30:11.360 Hey, you know there's some good Hends Eyes out there. 1:30:11.880 --> 1:30:13.960 There is. I've talked about this on this podcast before that. 1:30:14.120 --> 1:30:17.879 My actually the first porn I was watching was Hentai. 1:30:18.160 --> 1:30:20.000 So you replay Smash Bros. 1:30:20.040 --> 1:30:20.200 Right. 1:30:20.840 --> 1:30:23.519 I would on my Wii channel. I would go to 1:30:23.560 --> 1:30:26.759 the Internet channel and I would search up zero Suit 1:30:26.880 --> 1:30:30.080 Samus Naked and that was that was some of the 1:30:30.080 --> 1:30:30.880 first stuff. 1:30:30.640 --> 1:30:30.800 That I. 1:30:36.120 --> 1:30:38.720 Well, thanks for calling Elizabeth. You want to plug, you go, 1:30:38.920 --> 1:30:43.840 let's do a plug. You want to plug your tattoo Instagram? Yeah, 1:30:43.960 --> 1:30:45.479 do a plug? What's what's your instagram? 1:30:45.520 --> 1:30:46.000 Tattoo? 1:30:46.120 --> 1:30:52.559 Instagram? Is nessa tattoo? That Enna's Nancy e c as 1:30:52.600 --> 1:30:58.839 in cat I a tattoo? All one word, Danny or Lyle. Honestly, 1:30:58.960 --> 1:31:00.840 if you ever want a tattoo, just put me up. 1:31:00.920 --> 1:31:11.400 I got you, guys, We'll take care of m. Thank you, goodbye. 1:31:12.320 --> 1:31:13.280 We love you, Danny. 1:31:14.040 --> 1:31:14.760 I love you too. 1:31:15.040 --> 1:31:15.479 Good Bye. 1:31:17.800 --> 1:31:18.839 Do you have any tattoos? 1:31:18.920 --> 1:31:19.160 Fuck? 1:31:19.240 --> 1:31:19.320 No? 1:31:19.920 --> 1:31:20.680 Whye funk Now? 1:31:20.760 --> 1:31:22.559 I mean no, I just say that a lot. 1:31:22.640 --> 1:31:28.040 But no, I've just you said you looked at Joey. 1:31:28.080 --> 1:31:29.240 He has a bunch of tes. 1:31:31.280 --> 1:31:31.720 But no, I. 1:31:33.720 --> 1:31:37.320 Just just been scared and I think I've I've aaged 1:31:37.360 --> 1:31:39.360 out of it. I was probably gonna get my first 1:31:39.360 --> 1:31:42.960 tattoo at eighteen, and then I was skepted the appointment. 1:31:42.960 --> 1:31:44.439 Everything I was supposed to show up, and then I 1:31:44.600 --> 1:31:47.839 just ended up getting high. And that's what made myself paranoid. 1:31:48.040 --> 1:31:50.400 Like fun that, but then it's also like another thing too. 1:31:50.479 --> 1:31:52.400 I have a lot of family members that you know, 1:31:53.040 --> 1:31:55.559 fucked around with needles and ship like this. Yeah, sure, 1:31:55.680 --> 1:31:57.479 that's just like weirded me out too. 1:31:58.400 --> 1:32:00.160 But I love I love tattoos. 1:32:00.640 --> 1:32:07.800 I there's nothing that I'm into that I'm confident that 1:32:08.880 --> 1:32:13.439 I would be into forever, like that that would still 1:32:13.479 --> 1:32:21.160 be like prominent in my life when I get older. 1:32:21.240 --> 1:32:22.599 You know, like if I got a tattoo of something 1:32:22.680 --> 1:32:26.000 right now and then years later, I don't think I'm 1:32:26.000 --> 1:32:27.960 gonna identify with it anymore. Like if I got like 1:32:28.600 --> 1:32:31.840 master shake from aquatine hunger for some of my ankle, Like, 1:32:31.880 --> 1:32:34.320 am I still going to be into that when I'm seventy? 1:32:34.720 --> 1:32:37.360 But it's almost like a memory thing, ain't it, Like 1:32:37.520 --> 1:32:38.640 you know you just got you know? 1:32:39.360 --> 1:32:41.120 But no, I don't know. I just don't want to 1:32:41.160 --> 1:32:42.320 put myself through any pain. 1:32:43.160 --> 1:32:46.360 Joey said, can we get matching tattoos if I pay? 1:32:46.720 --> 1:32:51.400 I still I still well at tatchoes are expensive, aren't 1:32:51.400 --> 1:32:55.160 they They're like they're like what like two hundred bucks 1:32:55.240 --> 1:32:56.040 or something like that. 1:32:57.800 --> 1:32:59.760 But even like I say, I I feel like I 1:32:59.880 --> 1:33:02.560 ate myself out of that. I have to stop. 1:33:02.479 --> 1:33:06.679 Thinking like that, you know, like thinking that you're aged 1:33:06.680 --> 1:33:08.639 out of things. Yeah, you know, some things are good 1:33:08.640 --> 1:33:10.120 to think, to feel like you're aged out of. 1:33:10.880 --> 1:33:12.920 I know, but it's just like I'm always using this 1:33:13.160 --> 1:33:15.000 as an excuse of some type of sense, and I 1:33:15.080 --> 1:33:17.800 just felt like if you look at ship like that, 1:33:17.920 --> 1:33:20.599 then it's like what's next dying? Like you gotta live, 1:33:20.840 --> 1:33:23.200 you know, so just like fuck, get a tattoo, get 1:33:23.200 --> 1:33:24.360 that fucking nipple piercing. 1:33:24.520 --> 1:33:26.160 You know what? What other things do you feel like you're 1:33:26.200 --> 1:33:26.680 aged out of? 1:33:29.960 --> 1:33:32.160 I mean when it comes to like fashion, I don't 1:33:32.160 --> 1:33:34.360 think so. I mean I wouldn't want to be walking 1:33:34.360 --> 1:33:37.080 around wearing like a fucking Spider Man shirt or some shit. 1:33:37.800 --> 1:33:42.200 You know I was, or like wearing like marble clothes 1:33:42.240 --> 1:33:42.880 and shit, or. 1:33:42.880 --> 1:33:44.680 Like are you are you into Spider Man? 1:33:45.160 --> 1:33:47.280 No, I can't say this. I can't say I am, 1:33:47.320 --> 1:33:49.599 But I don't know. Something about that is weird to me, 1:33:49.640 --> 1:33:51.040 Like when you're wearing a motherfucker's be. 1:33:51.600 --> 1:33:54.400 Dude, that's what it's like. Uh. When I was in 1:33:54.439 --> 1:34:01.639 middle school and high school, my wardrobe was all like Marvel, yeah, 1:34:01.680 --> 1:34:05.320 Spider Man because Target, because Target would sell that ship. 1:34:06.680 --> 1:34:08.680 But if you like, I mean, I guess man, you 1:34:08.720 --> 1:34:11.160 know it's old nerds and ship. But I don't know 1:34:11.320 --> 1:34:15.320 for me, I just couldn't fucking wear like fucking marble 1:34:15.360 --> 1:34:16.479 clothes or ship like that. 1:34:16.560 --> 1:34:18.760 Do you feel too old to collect funk pops? No? 1:34:19.000 --> 1:34:20.639 I don't think you're too old to collect anything. 1:34:22.520 --> 1:34:24.360 What about Spider Man T shirts? 1:34:24.840 --> 1:34:26.519 I mean, if you're just gonna collect them and not 1:34:26.560 --> 1:34:29.679 wear them in public, I mean that's pajamas, that's probably cool. 1:34:29.800 --> 1:34:31.400 Just wear them at the krea to yourself. 1:34:31.439 --> 1:34:35.280 But you're going out wearing pajama clothes at a certain age, 1:34:35.280 --> 1:34:37.479 you're gonna I'm gonna think you on roadblocks looking. 1:34:37.320 --> 1:34:38.080 For younger. 1:34:41.280 --> 1:34:43.519 You're you're you're big into fashion, right, yeah? 1:34:43.840 --> 1:34:44.360 Do you uh? 1:34:44.439 --> 1:34:46.240 Do you ever like you design ship? 1:34:46.479 --> 1:34:46.519 No? 1:34:46.840 --> 1:34:50.360 But that's I will say I have been more into 1:34:51.000 --> 1:34:54.400 independent designers than I have been, Like buying ship from 1:34:54.400 --> 1:34:57.600 like fashion houses and ship that has been like my 1:34:57.760 --> 1:35:00.599 thing for like the past few years, just like finding 1:35:00.600 --> 1:35:01.599 people on Instagram that. 1:35:01.600 --> 1:35:02.280 Make dope shit. 1:35:02.479 --> 1:35:06.080 Who Now, let's say there was who's like, who's the 1:35:06.160 --> 1:35:08.560 most famous fashion I don't know anything about fashions the 1:35:08.600 --> 1:35:09.960 most famous fashion designer? 1:35:10.320 --> 1:35:11.880 I mean it's so many. 1:35:11.960 --> 1:35:15.880 I mean what if, okay, if a fashion designer that 1:35:16.000 --> 1:35:20.400 you highly respected came out with like a really dope 1:35:20.760 --> 1:35:22.240 spider Man T shirt. 1:35:23.560 --> 1:35:25.639 Na, I'm not fucking with it, but I will say 1:35:25.680 --> 1:35:27.800 one of my favorite it was like back in the day, 1:35:27.800 --> 1:35:31.200 Brands was like Iceberg History and they whole ship was 1:35:31.240 --> 1:35:33.840 about fucking cartoons and ship. Like they had a whole 1:35:33.880 --> 1:35:36.680 Simpsons collection and they had my favorite was they did 1:35:36.720 --> 1:35:39.320 a Milian. They did a Milian collection. But these were 1:35:39.320 --> 1:35:40.639 like thousand dollars T shirts. 1:35:41.000 --> 1:35:45.639 You know, so thousand dollars T shirts? 1:35:46.760 --> 1:35:47.040 What's that? 1:35:47.080 --> 1:35:48.760 What's what's the most amount of money you've spent on 1:35:48.800 --> 1:35:49.599 a piece of clothing. 1:35:49.960 --> 1:35:59.920 Mmm, I don't know. I mean probably about oh twelve thousand. 1:36:00.840 --> 1:36:01.559 It's not terrible. 1:36:01.720 --> 1:36:03.080 Yeah, I mean it was just a cop. 1:36:03.600 --> 1:36:05.719 Okay do they do they hold their value? 1:36:05.880 --> 1:36:07.479 Or I gave it away? Actually? 1:36:07.680 --> 1:36:07.840 Oh? 1:36:07.880 --> 1:36:10.360 Really? Would you give it to one? Are my homies? 1:36:10.439 --> 1:36:13.160 Okay? Cool? You know I want to you know, those 1:36:13.240 --> 1:36:16.559 like heart I want you know, those fucking airbrush shirts 1:36:16.560 --> 1:36:18.960 of SpongeBob and he's got like a grill. Yeah, I 1:36:19.000 --> 1:36:20.720 want like a designer version of that. 1:36:21.720 --> 1:36:22.000 Hmm. 1:36:23.520 --> 1:36:25.519 If you know, guy, I mean they used to make 1:36:25.560 --> 1:36:28.160 those like liquor stores and ship Yeah, you know, and 1:36:28.200 --> 1:36:31.840 you have like bugs Bunny with fucking baggy jeans on ship. 1:36:31.960 --> 1:36:34.479 Those shirts are cool, though, I'm not gonna lie that's drip. 1:36:34.560 --> 1:36:37.280 If you can actually find one from like the early nineties, 1:36:37.840 --> 1:36:39.320 like thri you can probably find for come of that 1:36:39.360 --> 1:36:40.240 ship thrifting though? 1:36:40.800 --> 1:36:41.120 Do you. 1:36:43.320 --> 1:36:46.800 Every day? Are you? Are you very intentional with what 1:36:46.840 --> 1:36:47.200 you wear? 1:36:48.120 --> 1:36:48.559 Yeah? 1:36:49.360 --> 1:36:52.040 Really that sounds that sounds exhausting. 1:36:52.120 --> 1:36:53.719 I think about it the first day of the morning 1:36:53.760 --> 1:36:54.200 type ship. 1:36:54.320 --> 1:36:56.599 That sounds that. You know, you know the Mark Zuckerberg 1:36:56.680 --> 1:37:01.760 thing right where he like has is what like a 1:37:01.760 --> 1:37:05.599 closet of like one hundred black tear Yeah, yeah, anywhere's 1:37:05.600 --> 1:37:08.439 the same thing every day, just to eliminate that choice. 1:37:08.840 --> 1:37:11.280 But the thing is I think about it is even 1:37:11.320 --> 1:37:14.640 though I do do that, it's a conscious choice to 1:37:14.720 --> 1:37:19.360 make it look like I'm not doing it can make you. 1:37:18.960 --> 1:37:24.320 You intentionally make your words look like unintentionally. Yeah, that 1:37:24.439 --> 1:37:26.040 sounds exhausting. 1:37:26.880 --> 1:37:28.320 It can be, It can't be. 1:37:28.320 --> 1:37:28.840 But I would. 1:37:28.960 --> 1:37:32.160 I did have a great time during his tour. I 1:37:32.280 --> 1:37:34.320 did a lot of truth then, so I got a 1:37:34.320 --> 1:37:35.120 lot of dope ship. 1:37:35.400 --> 1:37:39.679 Okay, do you do you wear a different Actually? Shit, 1:37:39.760 --> 1:37:42.880 what I was, uh, do you said something on one 1:37:42.920 --> 1:37:45.559 of your podcasts that I was listening to recently about 1:37:45.600 --> 1:37:50.519 how you you haven't worn the same thing, the same shirt, 1:37:50.560 --> 1:37:52.679 the same shirt. Yeah, that's true. Are you ever gonna 1:37:52.800 --> 1:37:53.479 I think I did. 1:37:53.600 --> 1:37:55.920 I think I'd wore one shirt twice and that was 1:37:55.960 --> 1:37:57.599 just Does that feel like a bad laundry day? 1:37:57.720 --> 1:37:59.559 No regret that does that feel like a failure deal? 1:37:59.800 --> 1:38:02.120 No, it's just I mean, it just becomes one of 1:38:02.160 --> 1:38:04.200 those hard things like, fuck, I gotta buy some new 1:38:04.240 --> 1:38:08.840 shirts now. So I'm always shopping kind of, but that's 1:38:08.880 --> 1:38:12.040 the one thing that I really wish I can just 1:38:12.240 --> 1:38:14.040 you know, I don't know. I mean, I've been like 1:38:14.080 --> 1:38:17.400 that ever since a kid, you know, I just I 1:38:17.439 --> 1:38:19.680 don't know. I just it's hard for me not to 1:38:19.760 --> 1:38:20.120 buy it. 1:38:21.520 --> 1:38:26.439 Sometimes. I like looking shitty, like because there's a cool 1:38:26.560 --> 1:38:29.880 challenge to it, of like can I walk into this 1:38:29.960 --> 1:38:34.360 place and be socially confident and feeling myself in cargo 1:38:34.479 --> 1:38:36.280 shorts and a fucking Zelda T shirt? 1:38:36.720 --> 1:38:36.960 You know? 1:38:37.120 --> 1:38:39.320 And this is because it's a challenge to that, it's enjoyable. 1:38:39.479 --> 1:38:41.680 Like my thing is, you gotta kind of dress for 1:38:41.760 --> 1:38:42.400 that situation. 1:38:42.560 --> 1:38:45.360 Like if I'm just going around, I'm not going to 1:38:45.439 --> 1:38:47.599 fucking you like, you know, put on ship that's gonna 1:38:47.640 --> 1:38:49.320 draw a whole much attention to me, even though I 1:38:49.439 --> 1:38:51.240 used to but now at this point in my life, 1:38:51.280 --> 1:38:53.439 I just don't. But it's still gonna be some dope shit, 1:38:54.080 --> 1:38:56.040 you know, like motherfucker probably you why you wouldn't know 1:38:56.080 --> 1:38:57.760 what it is or like you know, motherfucker wouldn't just 1:38:57.760 --> 1:38:59.479 look at me, and I realized, But it's like, no, 1:38:59.520 --> 1:39:01.439 I'm everything I own is some dope shit. 1:39:01.560 --> 1:39:03.880 Like I don't have nothing that's just fucked up, you know, 1:39:04.280 --> 1:39:06.600 but the people who know, no, Yeah, it's almost like 1:39:06.600 --> 1:39:08.000 if you know, no kind of thing. 1:39:08.560 --> 1:39:12.160 Is there any like I guess aside from fashion, is 1:39:12.200 --> 1:39:15.920 there anything hobby wise where you're like, I'm willing to 1:39:16.040 --> 1:39:18.760 like put down some good money on this because it's 1:39:18.760 --> 1:39:20.880 like because I want the quality version of it. 1:39:22.520 --> 1:39:25.280 I don't know if it counts, but like because it's 1:39:25.360 --> 1:39:26.040 part of my job. 1:39:26.040 --> 1:39:29.719 But like music, music, music, I would say that doesn't 1:39:29.720 --> 1:39:32.920 count anything that you couldn't theoretically write off on your taxi. 1:39:33.040 --> 1:39:35.920 Like I find myself fucking just spending thousands of dollars 1:39:35.960 --> 1:39:37.960 on plug ins and it's like what the fuck? I 1:39:38.000 --> 1:39:41.240 don't even use half of them now, you know, But 1:39:41.439 --> 1:39:43.080 just you see a new plug in come out, You're like, 1:39:43.080 --> 1:39:44.240 oh shit, that's just dope. 1:39:44.240 --> 1:39:45.840 I gotta get that shit. You get it. 1:39:46.360 --> 1:39:49.200 What was the first ever software you were fucking around 1:39:49.240 --> 1:39:50.599 on music? 1:39:50.720 --> 1:39:50.920 Yeah? 1:39:51.040 --> 1:39:53.880 No, I started off with hardware. Like my first drum 1:39:53.880 --> 1:39:57.120 machine was SP three h three. I just now got 1:39:57.160 --> 1:39:59.920 into like maybe a few years ago, was using use 1:40:00.040 --> 1:40:02.639 in the software. I never really fucked with that ship. 1:40:02.920 --> 1:40:06.240 But my first drum machine was an SP three or three. 1:40:06.680 --> 1:40:10.120 And then eventually I saved up some money and then 1:40:10.160 --> 1:40:13.280 that's when the MPC one thousand came out. I got that, 1:40:14.080 --> 1:40:15.840 and then I've been Yeah, so I've been making beats 1:40:15.880 --> 1:40:17.640 for a long time. I just haven't even I just 1:40:17.680 --> 1:40:18.799 never wrap over my beats. 1:40:20.400 --> 1:40:22.200 You ever use AI to make me? 1:40:22.320 --> 1:40:23.559 Yes, it's dope as fuck. 1:40:23.920 --> 1:40:25.760 When it first was coming around, and shit, I was 1:40:25.760 --> 1:40:28.080 hating on it, But what I realized is that if 1:40:28.680 --> 1:40:32.519 it does cut Like I love all the AI mixing software, yeah, 1:40:32.760 --> 1:40:35.160 because you know, you want to hate on it and 1:40:35.160 --> 1:40:37.680 ship like that, but it saves you so much fucking time, right, 1:40:37.760 --> 1:40:39.240 and you know, and could I mean, I'm not saying 1:40:39.280 --> 1:40:41.919 that it's not the end all, it's just getting you halfway. 1:40:42.000 --> 1:40:44.840 So if you know your ship. It's able to save 1:40:44.880 --> 1:40:46.639 you a lot of time where you can be creative 1:40:46.640 --> 1:40:48.759 and I have to worry about the actual fucking sound 1:40:48.760 --> 1:40:52.320 of the ship. So I definitely fuck with the the 1:40:52.360 --> 1:40:53.400 mixing software and. 1:40:53.360 --> 1:40:55.479 Ship like that. So I use that ship a lot. 1:40:55.680 --> 1:40:57.320 That's good. That's good that you're an optimist. 1:40:57.640 --> 1:40:59.120 Yeah, I think what it is. 1:40:59.160 --> 1:41:01.240 I think the people that hating on the AI ship 1:41:01.479 --> 1:41:03.720 is that motherfuckers that ain't that dope anyway. 1:41:04.160 --> 1:41:06.320 Not everybody gonna be able to make a trap beat 1:41:06.360 --> 1:41:07.840 through AI, you know what I'm saying. 1:41:07.880 --> 1:41:10.480 But if if you really got some style and some 1:41:10.479 --> 1:41:12.360 some real talent with this shit, and you ain't worried 1:41:12.400 --> 1:41:14.120 about it, it is making your shit. 1:41:14.000 --> 1:41:16.639 Doper, right. That's the thing is like if if you're 1:41:16.720 --> 1:41:18.920 if you're really that worried that AI is going to 1:41:19.000 --> 1:41:20.719 take away away. 1:41:21.640 --> 1:41:23.720 Yeah, so everybody be able to make a trap beat 1:41:23.720 --> 1:41:24.240 in the minute. 1:41:24.280 --> 1:41:27.560 So even with like trying to come up with ideas 1:41:27.600 --> 1:41:30.679 and stuff and write things, like you can just type 1:41:30.720 --> 1:41:33.559 a prompt and to chat GPT and it'll generate like 1:41:34.320 --> 1:41:36.599 vague ideas and then you can be creative and like 1:41:36.720 --> 1:41:38.320 go off of like vague ideas that. 1:41:38.240 --> 1:41:40.840 Are now that's the one thing I did hear about that. 1:41:40.880 --> 1:41:43.120 I'm not fucking with that. I heard motherfuckers is using 1:41:43.120 --> 1:41:45.519 a OU to write raps, Like you can write a 1:41:45.560 --> 1:41:47.920 line and it'll write to your next line for you. Like, 1:41:48.520 --> 1:41:50.720 now that's getting Now that's getting fucked up. 1:41:50.840 --> 1:41:53.360 You know, you know what, do you think one day 1:41:53.560 --> 1:41:55.840 somebody will just pop off really hard in the rap 1:41:55.920 --> 1:41:58.400 scene and then get exposed that they've been using a. 1:41:58.520 --> 1:42:00.960 I think it's already been happening on the low, like 1:42:01.160 --> 1:42:03.599 some of ty rappers is probably using AI already. 1:42:04.760 --> 1:42:05.320 I bet you could. 1:42:05.320 --> 1:42:08.599 That'd be sick of you. You could probably create a rapper 1:42:08.920 --> 1:42:11.080 out of AI. You could like fucking use AI to 1:42:11.120 --> 1:42:12.240 make a human face. 1:42:12.320 --> 1:42:14.840 He was trying, wasn't they? Then they shut that ship down? 1:42:15.120 --> 1:42:15.759 Who was trying? 1:42:15.920 --> 1:42:17.800 I think? I mean? Did it was one of the 1:42:17.840 --> 1:42:19.280 AI rapper that got a record deal? 1:42:19.960 --> 1:42:22.439 No, yeah, it was the whole thing I talked about it. 1:42:22.680 --> 1:42:23.920 I was hating on it for sure. 1:42:25.120 --> 1:42:27.920 If I wish, I'm I'm I know that. Oh this 1:42:27.960 --> 1:42:29.160 guy what is this guy's name? 1:42:29.760 --> 1:42:31.160 Him? 1:42:31.720 --> 1:42:34.680 F and Mecca, I'm so i'm this, I'm I'm so 1:42:34.840 --> 1:42:37.000 bad at uh, you know, all these fucking guys on 1:42:37.040 --> 1:42:39.120 their podcasts. They know how to like pull stuff up. 1:42:39.520 --> 1:42:42.760 I'm a terrible pull stuff up guy. 1:42:42.920 --> 1:42:43.840 He got canceled. 1:42:44.600 --> 1:42:47.880 Well he didn't. He never even existed, so he's still 1:42:47.920 --> 1:42:51.919 be fine. That good. Someone said, Danny as ice Spice 1:42:52.080 --> 1:42:52.800 is hious. 1:42:53.000 --> 1:42:55.080 Yeah, that was a AI thing that was funny. 1:42:55.560 --> 1:42:56.280 What was it was? 1:42:56.400 --> 1:42:57.120 Somebody made a. 1:42:58.760 --> 1:43:01.600 AI of me on I Spice body, my head on 1:43:01.680 --> 1:43:04.400 Ice Spicy body, and you know me, I took it. 1:43:04.680 --> 1:43:06.760 It was hilarious to me, so I shared it. But 1:43:08.320 --> 1:43:12.840 it's just showing Oh do you want to watch it? 1:43:13.000 --> 1:43:16.320 Brown? Let's see. I don't know if I can. Oh, 1:43:16.400 --> 1:43:20.160 is it a video or is it like a Okay, 1:43:22.000 --> 1:43:23.559 all right here, I'll watch it and maybe we can 1:43:23.600 --> 1:43:29.519 put it in later. Danny Brown shares, this is a 1:43:29.520 --> 1:43:32.479 fucking article. No, isn't that so stupid? Is it? 1:43:32.600 --> 1:43:35.559 Slow day? For a lot of media they use this. 1:43:36.280 --> 1:43:39.439 I looked it up and I saw the complex, tweeted 1:43:39.960 --> 1:43:44.719 Brown tweeted Ice Spice generated deep fake video. 1:43:45.600 --> 1:43:45.840 Yeah. 1:43:47.680 --> 1:43:50.760 Fuck, okay, this is so annoying that I google it 1:43:50.800 --> 1:43:53.120 and instead of you, and instead of you at first, 1:43:53.200 --> 1:43:57.080 it's showing me that all right, I'm gonna go to videos. 1:43:59.600 --> 1:44:01.120 Puppy yeah, I just want to look. 1:44:01.160 --> 1:44:02.840 Look how many articles who wrote about that. 1:44:02.880 --> 1:44:05.840 Who they could be using their time to like put 1:44:05.880 --> 1:44:07.720 on new artists and ship like that. 1:44:07.760 --> 1:44:18.120 This is their post that actually sounds really good, Brandon, 1:44:18.160 --> 1:44:20.880 I'll send you this to put in later. 1:44:21.320 --> 1:44:23.720 But yeah, I feel like a lot of media they 1:44:23.720 --> 1:44:27.080 could be spending that time like putting on the next 1:44:27.120 --> 1:44:29.440 Danny Brown instead of fucking posting. 1:44:29.120 --> 1:44:32.720 Ship like right, you know, right right, there's a guy dead, boy, 1:44:32.760 --> 1:44:34.559 guys who died. Okay, you want you want to talk 1:44:34.600 --> 1:44:36.439 to the guy who died for two minutes on his 1:44:36.479 --> 1:44:36.960 own vomit? 1:44:37.240 --> 1:44:38.280 This sounds a little dark. 1:44:38.920 --> 1:44:48.679 Hello, sounds like he died again? All right, No fucking way, Marco, 1:44:48.760 --> 1:44:49.559 what's up, man. 1:44:50.479 --> 1:44:52.280 There's no fucking way. 1:44:52.320 --> 1:44:53.040 I'm on call. 1:44:53.280 --> 1:44:55.240 First of all, I've seen here in the stream for 1:44:55.479 --> 1:44:57.560 like so long. I'm actually hyped. 1:44:58.920 --> 1:45:01.040 Thanks man, What's what's going on? 1:45:01.400 --> 1:45:04.640 How's life for being super excited by the Way to 1:45:04.800 --> 1:45:10.120 Breakfast or being super hyped? I have recently b BPD 1:45:10.720 --> 1:45:13.519 and ADHD. So if anyone in the chat is like, 1:45:14.000 --> 1:45:18.040 get a badger me over my story, just no, you know, compulsivity. 1:45:18.160 --> 1:45:21.280 It's really hard for me. But it was recently my 1:45:21.360 --> 1:45:25.160 second time at the bar, and I fucking died and 1:45:25.240 --> 1:45:29.439 she was crazy. It took me. It sounds stupid, but 1:45:29.640 --> 1:45:32.760 like after the fact, it was unrelated. I had a 1:45:32.800 --> 1:45:36.360 doctor's appointment, but I'm getting too out of myself, so 1:45:37.360 --> 1:45:41.880 I went to a bar in near my downtown area 1:45:42.200 --> 1:45:47.519 with one of my coworkers, and I just like it 1:45:47.560 --> 1:45:51.719 was like a bunch of awful decisions. Mind you, zero 1:45:52.320 --> 1:45:55.799 nothing in my belly at two medications on me, zero sleep, 1:45:56.120 --> 1:45:58.400 So it was just like a combination of asking to 1:45:58.439 --> 1:46:03.320 fuck around and find out but what's the call my friends? 1:46:03.320 --> 1:46:05.800 He wanted to like just show me out because I 1:46:05.800 --> 1:46:07.240 told him that I've never been to like a b 1:46:07.640 --> 1:46:09.640 I have. Like he was like, this was like my 1:46:09.720 --> 1:46:12.280 second adventure going out with him, and he's kind of 1:46:12.320 --> 1:46:14.280 like a wild card, Like he's kind of like a 1:46:14.439 --> 1:46:16.080 I don't know, shouldn't be really hanging out with him. 1:46:16.520 --> 1:46:18.439 But he was loaded me with like all sorts of 1:46:18.439 --> 1:46:21.519 cocktails and shit. And the only thing I remembered from 1:46:21.520 --> 1:46:25.360 the fact was what's it called? What was he wanted 1:46:25.400 --> 1:46:29.559 to smoke outside? I went outside with him and what's 1:46:29.600 --> 1:46:33.040 it called? Uh, Yeah, that's all I remember. Just woke 1:46:33.120 --> 1:46:34.560 up at the hospital. 1:46:35.680 --> 1:46:38.320 Did your friend drug? 1:46:40.200 --> 1:46:42.839 No, that was the thing that was so fucking funny. 1:46:42.920 --> 1:46:44.680 He was like the funniest part. So when I woke 1:46:44.800 --> 1:46:48.639 up in the hospital, I didn't remember anything other than 1:46:49.040 --> 1:46:52.760 him wanting to smoke outside. And so when I woke up, 1:46:53.800 --> 1:46:56.640 I was just panicked. I was fucking naked, and I 1:46:56.640 --> 1:46:58.519 saw in the corner beside me that there was a 1:46:58.520 --> 1:47:00.479 pile of my clothes, but I thought it was all clothes, 1:47:00.520 --> 1:47:04.360 And ironically, from the fact, was exact morning that day, 1:47:04.560 --> 1:47:06.800 and I bought these cool ass nifty car heart pants 1:47:06.840 --> 1:47:09.080 for my job. So I was just worn that they 1:47:09.080 --> 1:47:11.439 cut out my pants and my shirt. But I saw 1:47:11.439 --> 1:47:12.960 that my clothes in the corner, but they only cut 1:47:13.000 --> 1:47:17.120 up my shirt. But what's it called? I panic because 1:47:17.200 --> 1:47:19.879 I was like, oh, like, I've never been to the hospital. 1:47:19.880 --> 1:47:21.799 I had like a bunch of IVS on my body, 1:47:22.560 --> 1:47:25.519 and I called my mom and my siblings. Took him 1:47:25.520 --> 1:47:28.640 a little while to get there, and I feel like 1:47:28.680 --> 1:47:31.360 the nurse tried to like make me look like a 1:47:31.360 --> 1:47:35.080 fucking attic because I was kind of scared too. She 1:47:35.680 --> 1:47:39.120 my mom was like sitting beside and h NR like 1:47:39.160 --> 1:47:42.760 the red sterted nurse was like, oh, so your son 1:47:42.840 --> 1:47:46.120 has like multiple drugs in his body. And she starts 1:47:46.200 --> 1:47:49.439 listening off like the medications. She's ah, fuck, I could 1:47:49.439 --> 1:47:53.200 remember it was METS, which I got scared when she 1:47:53.200 --> 1:47:55.360 said METS, because I'm like, what the fuck? But that 1:47:55.479 --> 1:48:00.000 was my medication for my ADHD. Then it was benzo diazepine, 1:48:00.280 --> 1:48:02.920 which I stupidly thought that that was for the VPD, 1:48:03.400 --> 1:48:06.080 but that wasn't the case. And this will like coincide 1:48:06.120 --> 1:48:09.320 with the like a prior thing, but it was smith 1:48:09.520 --> 1:48:14.040 Benjo had diazepine another medication, and alcohol and weeds, and 1:48:14.280 --> 1:48:17.240 I already knew that. And I told the doctor like 1:48:17.280 --> 1:48:19.960 that all those medications are for like you know, and 1:48:20.200 --> 1:48:24.720 they trace back my medical information and everything came conclusive. 1:48:25.160 --> 1:48:28.760 It was only completely unrelated a week later where I 1:48:28.760 --> 1:48:31.840 had to do a following Uh what do you call it? 1:48:31.840 --> 1:48:34.240 It was from something unrelated, but it was for like 1:48:34.880 --> 1:48:38.840 psychiatric stuff for my BPD, and it was something like 1:48:39.080 --> 1:48:41.880 no one wants to see. Like the doctor looked at 1:48:41.880 --> 1:48:44.600 me like in awe, Like she was like just like, 1:48:45.400 --> 1:48:47.360 I don't know. It was a look that like will 1:48:47.400 --> 1:48:50.439 forever stay with my young twenty two year old soul. 1:48:50.520 --> 1:48:52.040 But she just looked at me with like such a 1:48:52.040 --> 1:48:55.160 weird but like bewilderment, and she's like, you shouldn't be here, 1:48:55.240 --> 1:48:57.679 And she was like reading out the notes and saying 1:48:57.800 --> 1:49:00.479 like that like it was only told like the mouth, 1:49:00.479 --> 1:49:02.320 because the doc, I think then have the soul to 1:49:02.360 --> 1:49:05.720 tell me it was only when my doctors like you 1:49:05.760 --> 1:49:08.120 shouldn't be here, like you legally died on like her 1:49:08.200 --> 1:49:10.479 way like the bend of diazepines. She was grilling me 1:49:10.520 --> 1:49:10.840 about that. 1:49:11.120 --> 1:49:17.920 Yes, yeah, what did you what was this shit that 1:49:18.000 --> 1:49:20.559 your friend did you smoked with your friends? 1:49:20.600 --> 1:49:21.559 No, well, here's the thing. 1:49:22.000 --> 1:49:22.559 Here's the thing. 1:49:22.600 --> 1:49:25.240 Here's the thing about like the funniest part. The doctor 1:49:25.320 --> 1:49:28.160 wasn't going to prescribe in my medication because she saw 1:49:28.160 --> 1:49:30.639 the bendo diazepine and I was like, oh, it wasn't 1:49:30.640 --> 1:49:32.839 that for my bipolar and she's like that's not for bipolar, 1:49:33.120 --> 1:49:34.800 Like that's for like and she was like listening off 1:49:34.800 --> 1:49:36.559 stuff like this is like usually what we get for 1:49:36.600 --> 1:49:39.000 people with like really bad anxiety. So she's like, you 1:49:39.120 --> 1:49:41.400 either were drugged, like your friend might have drugged you, 1:49:41.479 --> 1:49:43.839 or you were like date grape, or you're doing hardcore 1:49:43.920 --> 1:49:47.200 drugs like you're like abusing. And I was fucking scared. 1:49:47.240 --> 1:49:50.040 I was like, well, like there's two fears, like one 1:49:50.040 --> 1:49:51.800 that she thinks I'm like using drugs and like I'm 1:49:51.840 --> 1:49:54.479 a junkie, but there's nothing wrong, like you know. But 1:49:54.880 --> 1:49:57.360 another part was like obviously like I got big breaks, 1:49:57.720 --> 1:49:59.960 and I was like trying to think very hard. I'm like, 1:50:00.320 --> 1:50:03.200 did anyone spiked me? And she even said something even scarier. 1:50:03.200 --> 1:50:05.519 She's like, you can also be injected. But she's like, 1:50:05.560 --> 1:50:07.479 I highly doubt someone's not gonna go in a bar 1:50:07.560 --> 1:50:09.559 and like inject you with a s arrange fold with 1:50:09.680 --> 1:50:12.160 that shit. But it was only when she was doing 1:50:12.200 --> 1:50:15.000 like the research, the deeper research, and she's like, oh, 1:50:15.080 --> 1:50:18.640 they gave me the benzodiazepine while you're like intubated, like 1:50:18.680 --> 1:50:21.799 when you're like dying on like the ambulance. I was like, oh, 1:50:21.880 --> 1:50:24.960 that makes sense, so she passed that off. But yeah, 1:50:25.000 --> 1:50:26.920 it was just a mixture of me not sleeping, my 1:50:26.960 --> 1:50:29.680 medication and shit that caused me to happen. Had it 1:50:29.680 --> 1:50:31.920 not been for that, I would have been okay. But yeah, 1:50:32.520 --> 1:50:37.200 lessen to people don't mix and drink really stupid fucking shit. Yeah, 1:50:37.600 --> 1:50:39.880 like it only took to the doctor like that. She 1:50:39.960 --> 1:50:42.120 looked at me. She's like, you shouldn't be here, which 1:50:42.160 --> 1:50:44.400 is something like you don't want your fucking primary doctor 1:50:44.439 --> 1:50:46.479 to tell you it was a big fucking head trip. 1:50:48.640 --> 1:50:51.519 But yeah, that is my story of me fucking dying. 1:50:51.760 --> 1:50:53.240 It was kind of funny because I had like this, 1:50:53.360 --> 1:50:56.000 like I've always had this extensionism of like what's like 1:50:56.040 --> 1:51:00.559 the afterlife religion and all that jazz and having that happen, 1:51:00.720 --> 1:51:03.599 like it very much like I don't know any more grateful, 1:51:03.640 --> 1:51:04.719 like more PEPs in my step. 1:51:05.640 --> 1:51:07.120 Yeah, I was going to ask you that because you 1:51:07.160 --> 1:51:09.400 seem a little too happy to be a mother that 1:51:09.600 --> 1:51:10.040 just died. 1:51:10.120 --> 1:51:13.880 I think you seem very like happy and excited to 1:51:13.920 --> 1:51:15.280 be telling this story. 1:51:15.680 --> 1:51:19.599 I both of y'all. And this is so funny too 1:51:19.640 --> 1:51:21.519 because I was watching to Kill Tony when you were 1:51:21.520 --> 1:51:24.000 on it. I love your music, Danny Brown, I love 1:51:24.040 --> 1:51:26.439 your everything, your streams and all that ship. I guess 1:51:26.479 --> 1:51:28.759 I was going, like, I guess Danny Brown's fucking crazy, 1:51:29.080 --> 1:51:31.639 because like I shouldn't have been drinking all that stupid 1:51:31.680 --> 1:51:34.040 ship like Eve when I tell people that, like I know, 1:51:34.080 --> 1:51:36.639 like I was an idiot, a fucking massive idiot regards 1:51:36.760 --> 1:51:39.000 if it was like my mental problems are just me 1:51:39.120 --> 1:51:42.280 being me, but like yeah, I could easily sucked around 1:51:42.320 --> 1:51:45.320 and found out that day it. 1:51:45.320 --> 1:51:49.519 Was you have a second chance at life now, like 1:51:50.000 --> 1:51:52.800 you know, everything almost just been opra with no that's 1:51:52.840 --> 1:51:53.920 what my that was. 1:51:53.920 --> 1:51:55.880 Like what was crazy? My document said that like you 1:51:55.880 --> 1:51:58.400 should very much like you know, be grateful that like 1:51:58.439 --> 1:52:00.760 you're here, like you really shouldn't like and that was 1:52:00.800 --> 1:52:02.760 like the scary part that like really made me, like 1:52:03.360 --> 1:52:06.000 it did dawn on me heavily, like this weird boloom 1:52:06.040 --> 1:52:08.920 of like depression afterwards because she's all like, I don't know. 1:52:09.080 --> 1:52:11.240 It really scared me that the doctor told me that 1:52:11.240 --> 1:52:13.400 that's when it fully realized. And like my mom even 1:52:13.439 --> 1:52:15.400 said like like don mask did it take you like 1:52:15.439 --> 1:52:17.800 a doctor like your second time around to tell you, 1:52:17.800 --> 1:52:20.080 because my mom was like when in it it happened. 1:52:20.240 --> 1:52:22.080 I just went about like still going with my friends, 1:52:22.080 --> 1:52:23.720 and my mom was like, you need a resp like 1:52:23.800 --> 1:52:27.120 it's serious. It was only until like my doctor sent 1:52:27.240 --> 1:52:29.679 me down, looked me dead in the eyes and was like, yeah, 1:52:29.840 --> 1:52:32.240 you shouldn't have been like here like file was in 1:52:32.240 --> 1:52:35.080 your stomach. It wasn't funny because I thought I didn't 1:52:35.200 --> 1:52:38.200 ate the whole day at work because I skipped the work. 1:52:38.360 --> 1:52:40.000 My friends like go on addition and go to the bar. 1:52:40.040 --> 1:52:41.000 I'm like, I'm fucking down. 1:52:41.840 --> 1:52:45.400 But yeah, so now that you have this like second 1:52:45.560 --> 1:52:48.040 chance of life and you're feeling like what do you 1:52:48.840 --> 1:52:50.920 what do you want to do? Man? What what do 1:52:51.040 --> 1:52:54.280 you what are you going to do with this new uhh? 1:52:56.640 --> 1:53:00.360 Yeah, I think I've always had it, but now even 1:53:00.600 --> 1:53:03.599 more like get sat with me of like really that 1:53:03.760 --> 1:53:05.560 like I don't want to say that corny as like 1:53:05.600 --> 1:53:07.760 full sent but like you really in life have to 1:53:07.800 --> 1:53:10.360 have that like you know, bravado to do shit like 1:53:10.400 --> 1:53:12.680 if no one like that's like I guess a good 1:53:12.760 --> 1:53:16.680 quote I was here podcasters people motivational speakers say it's 1:53:16.720 --> 1:53:19.759 really true, like you can only do so much for yourself, 1:53:20.080 --> 1:53:21.560 like no one like your mom a is going to 1:53:21.600 --> 1:53:23.439 be their daddy ain't gonna be there, your friends are 1:53:23.439 --> 1:53:24.800 gonna be there, like you can only put your best 1:53:24.800 --> 1:53:27.080 so forward. I feel like it's taught me now more 1:53:27.120 --> 1:53:31.040 than ever to be grateful, not really do really impulsive 1:53:31.120 --> 1:53:35.479 stupid shit. But yeah, more and more I guess grateful 1:53:35.479 --> 1:53:37.920 and just like just do shit, like at least it's 1:53:37.960 --> 1:53:40.160 better to know than to not know at all, like 1:53:40.240 --> 1:53:44.280 just shit, Like it's okay to be anxious with anything 1:53:44.280 --> 1:53:46.880 in life, like a new job, speaking to a group 1:53:46.960 --> 1:53:49.120 full of thousands of sucking people or a crowd. It 1:53:49.160 --> 1:53:51.519 gets normal, Like no one ever does that, I feel 1:53:51.520 --> 1:53:54.280 like have I guess a subtle sense of anxiety is normal, 1:53:54.800 --> 1:53:57.439 like to an extent, you know that's really hard to control. 1:53:58.640 --> 1:54:02.600 But yeah, just that as well as it helped me 1:54:02.880 --> 1:54:05.840 that situation too a little bit with my job up 1:54:05.960 --> 1:54:08.519 currently as well as my prior Joe, because I worked 1:54:08.560 --> 1:54:12.200 at a I don't want to fully like it was 1:54:12.240 --> 1:54:12.920 a what do you? 1:54:13.000 --> 1:54:13.920 What do you? What do you? 1:54:13.960 --> 1:54:14.719 What do you do now? 1:54:17.880 --> 1:54:21.439 I want to say, but like I'm not checking the 1:54:21.479 --> 1:54:23.040 stream right now or anything. I don't give a fuck 1:54:23.080 --> 1:54:26.599 what people said. But it's kind of I guess it's 1:54:26.720 --> 1:54:30.680 very pacific Northwest Washington, I'll say that, but it's very mechanical. 1:54:30.800 --> 1:54:35.200 I guess. No, actually no. I did a class and 1:54:35.240 --> 1:54:37.400 they did a cool OSHA thing and this is like, 1:54:37.440 --> 1:54:39.120 I guess other cool sho I could talk about. 1:54:39.760 --> 1:54:40.720 Uh. 1:54:40.760 --> 1:54:43.800 I did a class for high school, which is like 1:54:43.840 --> 1:54:46.920 a college thing, and one of the classes I did 1:54:47.040 --> 1:54:50.040 was aerospace and they did like an ocean thing. And 1:54:50.080 --> 1:54:53.000 they basically were talking about like incidents in general for 1:54:53.120 --> 1:54:56.120 all jobs, and here in Pacific Northwest is a lot 1:54:56.120 --> 1:54:58.760 of like blue college lumberjack job. It's just like this 1:54:58.880 --> 1:55:01.120 fucked a video of a lumberjack and like his fingers missing, 1:55:01.560 --> 1:55:04.440 like some incident happens. Yeah, it's like I don't know, 1:55:05.000 --> 1:55:08.320 that's another I guess with Like the incident happened made 1:55:08.360 --> 1:55:10.720 me way way I was already way more grateful and 1:55:10.760 --> 1:55:13.320 left because I watched pretty graphic content that like they 1:55:13.360 --> 1:55:15.960 see humble to like, I guess, drive safe, like look 1:55:16.040 --> 1:55:19.800 both ways, like be very safe in my job, but like, yeah, 1:55:19.880 --> 1:55:21.880 my current job, Like I don't know, there's way more 1:55:21.960 --> 1:55:24.640 ways to get hurt. I worked at prior to this, 1:55:24.680 --> 1:55:27.840 it was like four years of CNC and press break 1:55:27.840 --> 1:55:30.120 and that witnessed like multiple people getting their fingers like 1:55:30.120 --> 1:55:32.400 blown out. That was really like traumatic for me. 1:55:32.440 --> 1:55:35.920 I guess yeah, crazy job. Crazy fucked up internet videos 1:55:36.000 --> 1:55:39.920 is one of my favorite topics. It does well because 1:55:39.920 --> 1:55:41.840 it does do that. It does do that for you, 1:55:42.040 --> 1:55:45.280 right because you see all these car accidents and lumberjacks 1:55:45.320 --> 1:55:47.360 getting their fingers cut off, and it makes you feel like, well, 1:55:47.400 --> 1:55:50.120 all right, life is. It's actually pretty good if you're 1:55:50.120 --> 1:55:52.120 not the people in these videos, but so. 1:55:52.120 --> 1:55:55.839 Crazy that like all those like I guess crazy shock videos. 1:55:55.960 --> 1:55:58.320 It's funny whether wherever it comes from, Like there's like 1:55:58.320 --> 1:56:00.320 it's been going on since the nineties, like all the 1:56:00.360 --> 1:56:03.120 shock pages. But it's so interesting. It's seeing the comments 1:56:03.280 --> 1:56:05.640 of people what they say, and some people like there's 1:56:06.280 --> 1:56:08.880 usually like poles of like, oh, why do you guys 1:56:08.960 --> 1:56:10.960 watch this? Like there's always like that, like you know, 1:56:11.040 --> 1:56:12.840 like just a comment and people usually say that, and 1:56:12.880 --> 1:56:15.960 I can heavily understand that, like it could very much 1:56:16.000 --> 1:56:18.879 help certain people as well as like interiorate your mindset. 1:56:18.920 --> 1:56:20.720 Like it's not for everyone. It's not some shit you 1:56:20.760 --> 1:56:22.840 should seek out, but like when you watch that type 1:56:22.840 --> 1:56:24.880 of shit, it's like, damn, it really makes you. Like 1:56:25.040 --> 1:56:28.520 from my SENC and pressprict machine, it made me very 1:56:28.680 --> 1:56:30.920 very like safe. I guess that was like the reason 1:56:30.920 --> 1:56:32.920 why I was so safe on that job. Then continue 1:56:32.960 --> 1:56:34.320 on with the job that I have currently. 1:56:35.240 --> 1:56:37.800 Danny, you ever watched that? I know that on your 1:56:37.800 --> 1:56:40.600 mom's house, they watch a lot of videos. 1:56:40.760 --> 1:56:43.960 Yeah, especially in the early stages moved Internet, like the 1:56:43.960 --> 1:56:46.120 whole Rotten dot Com and all that kind of shit, 1:56:46.200 --> 1:56:49.800 but not too much now, you know. Now I'm not 1:56:50.160 --> 1:56:51.800 trying to see no shit like that I used to 1:56:51.800 --> 1:56:54.120 be into, like you know, the ice is behaving videos 1:56:54.160 --> 1:56:55.760 and all that kind of shit. I think now I 1:56:55.880 --> 1:57:00.680 do every now watch some fucking narco shit in Mexico 1:57:00.720 --> 1:57:04.760 and they tortured, But that's not something that I seek out. 1:57:05.680 --> 1:57:07.880 It's so I don't know why I've managed to get 1:57:07.920 --> 1:57:10.680 into either every fucking podcast I managed to get into 1:57:10.720 --> 1:57:18.560 a conversation with someone. Well, shit, Danny, do you have 1:57:18.560 --> 1:57:20.520 any thoughts on anything? 1:57:22.160 --> 1:57:24.480 I would say, Man, I'm just so happy right now 1:57:24.520 --> 1:57:25.920 that I got in call with both of y'all. 1:57:26.520 --> 1:57:28.440 Yeah, I would just say, Bro, you be lucky. 1:57:29.800 --> 1:57:32.560 You're really lucky, man, Like at twenty two years old, 1:57:32.680 --> 1:57:35.200 that's still young man. You're still a kid pretty much, 1:57:35.200 --> 1:57:38.280 and you got so much more life to live. And 1:57:38.320 --> 1:57:40.960 like you said, just some impulsive decision like that can 1:57:41.000 --> 1:57:42.720 fucking just end it all. You got to think about 1:57:42.720 --> 1:57:45.800 your mom and your family ship like that. And you know, 1:57:45.840 --> 1:57:47.360 as me as a person used to drink a lot 1:57:47.400 --> 1:57:49.080 and all type of shit and get myself in all 1:57:49.120 --> 1:57:50.880 types of trouble, that could have ended it all. It's 1:57:50.920 --> 1:57:52.840 like it's not worth it at the end of the day. 1:57:53.320 --> 1:57:53.960 So I would just. 1:57:53.880 --> 1:57:56.160 Say that I need to hear from someone you should really. 1:57:55.920 --> 1:57:59.040 Feel blessed, man, you should really feel blessed and to 1:57:59.080 --> 1:58:02.000 be able to see another because it's not promised, you know, 1:58:02.280 --> 1:58:03.960 and just for you to go through something like that 1:58:04.200 --> 1:58:06.920 obviously mean you got a lot more life to live 1:58:06.960 --> 1:58:09.200 and you just put out here for a reason, you know. 1:58:09.560 --> 1:58:10.280 So I would just. 1:58:10.280 --> 1:58:12.840 Say, man, you need to just. 1:58:12.160 --> 1:58:14.440 Take it a lot more serious, because it seems like 1:58:14.520 --> 1:58:16.320 you had a lot of fun dying to me. 1:58:17.840 --> 1:58:22.240 No, No, it was your marker. You're living life a 1:58:22.280 --> 1:58:25.240 mile of a fucking minute, man, I can I can 1:58:25.240 --> 1:58:28.720 tell which is a fun thing sometimes. 1:58:29.280 --> 1:58:32.200 No, I wouldn't. I would never think that's funny. I 1:58:32.320 --> 1:58:34.160 never had like a moment of like it's drinking and 1:58:34.240 --> 1:58:36.840 my teenagers, like I know, I realized, like I guess 1:58:37.040 --> 1:58:41.240 in American society or just like people like drinking, I'm way, way, 1:58:41.320 --> 1:58:43.640 way way more over a smoker. So I don't know. 1:58:43.760 --> 1:58:47.800 It was very stupid decisions that day, obviously, and heavily 1:58:47.920 --> 1:58:50.840 heavily on what like Danny said, like really real ship, 1:58:50.920 --> 1:58:52.760 like my life easily could have been cut short or 1:58:52.760 --> 1:58:54.880 some stupid tripis ship that goes for I guess, like 1:58:54.920 --> 1:58:57.680 I can tell that to anyone that goes for everything, 1:58:58.120 --> 1:59:01.240 Like I guess even with like mental issues or like 1:59:01.320 --> 1:59:03.960 anger issues, like you could easily lose your whole life 1:59:04.000 --> 1:59:06.280 over something really trivial stupid argument. 1:59:06.320 --> 1:59:10.840 Yeah, emotional, So you did in the heat and the moment. 1:59:11.440 --> 1:59:18.280 Yeah yeah, mm hmm, Marco. And you got an effection, 1:59:18.400 --> 1:59:22.640 you got an infectious energy. Marco. I'm I'm I'm happy 1:59:22.640 --> 1:59:24.520 for you. I'm happy that you're not dead so you 1:59:24.560 --> 1:59:31.960 can go live a beautiful doing exciting fun things. True. 1:59:32.120 --> 1:59:35.760 True, the Pacific Northwest Washington is pretty. 1:59:35.400 --> 1:59:37.960 Lovely, Marc. 1:59:38.120 --> 1:59:40.840 Is there any other like before we move on? Is 1:59:40.880 --> 1:59:44.520 there anything else you wanna you want to say or 1:59:44.520 --> 1:59:45.280 anything like that? 1:59:45.440 --> 1:59:45.879 Anything? 1:59:47.120 --> 1:59:49.400 Yeah, it's pretty much all I had to get off 1:59:49.400 --> 1:59:51.600 of my chest. Are any other details or any like, 1:59:51.760 --> 1:59:53.440 I don't know. That's pretty much all I have to 1:59:53.480 --> 1:59:54.480 say about the incident. 1:59:54.960 --> 2:00:02.160 Oh yeah, man, I'm gonna pray for you. 2:00:02.640 --> 2:00:05.240 This is the funniest this, this is the funny Well, 2:00:06.120 --> 2:00:07.360 I don't know if I should say this or not 2:00:07.440 --> 2:00:09.680 doing like the thing because this is like, uh, the 2:00:09.760 --> 2:00:12.000 thing I kind of mentioned in the chat, but like 2:00:12.080 --> 2:00:15.200 this is weird and funny because Okay, for both of you, 2:00:15.280 --> 2:00:17.360 have you guys ever been to the doctor like hospital 2:00:17.400 --> 2:00:18.760 like emergency emergency ship? 2:00:18.920 --> 2:00:21.040 You're asking us if we've ever been to the like 2:00:21.080 --> 2:00:23.400 to the hospital like for an emergency. Yeah, we've been 2:00:23.400 --> 2:00:23.920 to the hospital. 2:00:25.680 --> 2:00:33.840 I've ever gotten the ID they put that in the penis? 2:00:34.280 --> 2:00:34.800 Did you have a. 2:00:35.840 --> 2:00:38.440 Jesus no, that's the thing. I fucking woke up and 2:00:38.480 --> 2:00:40.240 I was fucking takon and I was like, where the 2:00:40.240 --> 2:00:41.880 fuck is my clothes? I've seen the corner and I 2:00:41.920 --> 2:00:43.360 thought like my shirt was there because it was like 2:00:43.400 --> 2:00:44.000 all black fit. 2:00:44.240 --> 2:00:45.320 It was these cool. 2:00:45.160 --> 2:00:47.560 Black Doublene car heart pants and the black shirt. Got 2:00:47.560 --> 2:00:49.440 to really give a fuck that they cut my shirt up. 2:00:50.000 --> 2:00:52.760 But when I saw like I was like naked from 2:00:53.000 --> 2:00:56.280 like everything, but like they had uh this like weird 2:00:56.360 --> 2:00:58.440 like he had like a handle like a bottle like 2:00:58.520 --> 2:01:01.440 you just I just picked my winging in. But like 2:01:01.640 --> 2:01:03.840 it was only after the fact that like when I 2:01:03.880 --> 2:01:06.760 went home. This sounds so fucking disgusting in team my 2:01:07.200 --> 2:01:09.520 but like blood came out and I fucking panicked. Like 2:01:09.600 --> 2:01:11.880 five seconds I was about to like google and put 2:01:11.880 --> 2:01:14.120 myself in like a oh shit, I got fucking fall 2:01:14.200 --> 2:01:16.880 cancer some shit. But no, I realized that they fucking 2:01:17.000 --> 2:01:18.720 like just shove that shit in me while I was 2:01:18.720 --> 2:01:21.040 in the car and didn't like removed it out. And 2:01:21.160 --> 2:01:23.520 what I didn't know is that they're supposed to give 2:01:23.560 --> 2:01:25.560 you like numbing cream, I guess, And he didn't give 2:01:25.600 --> 2:01:27.080 me none of that ship. So I had like this weird, 2:01:27.160 --> 2:01:29.480 uncomfortable fucking team for like a week after that, so 2:01:29.720 --> 2:01:31.280 very much time my lesson not to drink like a 2:01:31.320 --> 2:01:35.040 fucking idiot, never get in the fucking hospital. That was uncomfortable. 2:01:36.440 --> 2:01:38.240 I hope I hope that the I hope the graphic 2:01:38.280 --> 2:01:40.960 image of your bloody penis inspires many of the people 2:01:41.000 --> 2:01:44.080 listening to in their lives. 2:01:44.280 --> 2:01:48.560 Yeah, drink fucking safely and responsibly, and yeah, have fucking 2:01:48.600 --> 2:01:50.560 friends that all like And you know, it was worse. 2:01:50.840 --> 2:01:51.840 I was like five. 2:01:51.600 --> 2:01:53.640 Minutes passed out, and it took him that fucking lung 2:01:53.720 --> 2:01:56.240 to realize that I wasn't around there until he thought 2:01:56.280 --> 2:01:59.240 like mind conscious, fucking body just like limp, like family 2:01:59.240 --> 2:02:00.320 guy positioned. 2:02:00.600 --> 2:02:03.840 Well, I have a good night, Marco, and I wish 2:02:03.960 --> 2:02:06.960 you and your penis a long safe for coming. I mean, 2:02:07.000 --> 2:02:07.919 it's short, safe. 2:02:08.920 --> 2:02:10.680 Keep doing what you do. 2:02:11.200 --> 2:02:11.720 Thanks By. 2:02:14.640 --> 2:02:18.480 That's fucking scary, man. Yeah. Yeah, he sounds like he's 2:02:18.520 --> 2:02:19.280 doing that right with it. 2:02:19.400 --> 2:02:23.800 He does so, he sounded. He sounded psyched. 2:02:24.000 --> 2:02:25.000 I'm not worried about he. 2:02:25.040 --> 2:02:27.160 Got a new leash on life or something, you know. 2:02:27.640 --> 2:02:29.280 But I think when you that agent and you don't 2:02:29.280 --> 2:02:32.000 really understand how serious something like that could be, maybe 2:02:32.160 --> 2:02:34.320 you know because me, I've been getting sucked up as 2:02:34.320 --> 2:02:36.200 long as he's been living, and I've never been through 2:02:36.200 --> 2:02:37.560 a scare like that really. 2:02:37.640 --> 2:02:39.480 You know, you even had a time where you were like, 2:02:40.000 --> 2:02:41.360 We're like, oh fuck, I almost died. 2:02:41.600 --> 2:02:43.560 I mean I probably was. I just didn't know it. 2:02:43.600 --> 2:02:45.720 I would just you know, I'm pretty sure I've been 2:02:46.240 --> 2:02:48.160 glaying in a bed a few times like oh no, 2:02:48.320 --> 2:02:51.840 this might be in but but never like having to 2:02:51.840 --> 2:02:54.080 go to the hospital or getting something like that. 2:02:54.160 --> 2:02:55.720 I'd never been through anything like that. 2:02:55.840 --> 2:02:58.440 So but if I did, I think that would be 2:02:58.560 --> 2:03:00.240 enough of a scare for me to you. 2:03:00.200 --> 2:03:02.560 Know, be like fuck this shit. You know I ain't, 2:03:02.960 --> 2:03:03.640 I ain't doing it. 2:03:03.680 --> 2:03:05.680 But I guess I felt like I was getting close 2:03:06.000 --> 2:03:08.680 to something like that happening. It's a few you know, 2:03:09.040 --> 2:03:11.680 close calls where you just be like, man, I don't 2:03:11.720 --> 2:03:14.200 know how I woke up today type shit like being 2:03:14.240 --> 2:03:16.400 blacked out drunk is like the worst shit ever, man, 2:03:16.440 --> 2:03:16.720 to be. 2:03:16.680 --> 2:03:23.160 Honest, I feel like, but yeah, I feel like Marco, uh, 2:03:23.360 --> 2:03:28.080 he's got he's got a positive energy to everyone we've 2:03:28.120 --> 2:03:28.560 talked to. 2:03:29.240 --> 2:03:31.600 But maybe if you died you would feel like you 2:03:31.600 --> 2:03:33.080 get know what I'm saying, and you're still here, you 2:03:33.120 --> 2:03:35.760 probably would be that excited about living life again. 2:03:35.840 --> 2:03:36.040 You know. 2:03:36.520 --> 2:03:39.200 It's almost like when you go skydiving or some shit, like, 2:03:39.200 --> 2:03:40.920 oh shit, I'm happy, you know. 2:03:41.160 --> 2:03:43.000 So maybe that's what it is too. You know. 2:03:43.320 --> 2:03:45.360 Isn't that cool that I always think about you can 2:03:45.400 --> 2:03:48.640 always that's something excessed. You don't have to You don't 2:03:48.680 --> 2:03:53.160 have to almost die to access that, like every day 2:03:53.160 --> 2:03:56.400 if you really want to, you can operate from that 2:03:56.520 --> 2:03:59.440 perspective of oh, it's just it's cool to be alive and. 2:03:59.440 --> 2:04:00.200 Enjoy your life. 2:04:00.520 --> 2:04:00.760 Yeah. 2:04:00.800 --> 2:04:02.560 I think that's that's a big deal for a lot 2:04:02.560 --> 2:04:02.960 of people. 2:04:02.960 --> 2:04:05.800 Man, we take this ship for granted, you know, and 2:04:05.840 --> 2:04:07.800 I realize that it's just a blessing just to fucking 2:04:07.840 --> 2:04:11.160 wake up. You're not fucking promised tomorrow, man, So just 2:04:11.280 --> 2:04:13.040 us being here, man, that's just good enough. 2:04:13.720 --> 2:04:20.320 I think every everyone we talked to today, except for 2:04:20.440 --> 2:04:23.440 the Roadblocks girl. No, no, not even though to the 2:04:23.520 --> 2:04:27.400 robox girl. Everyone we've talked to you today, I'm not 2:04:27.400 --> 2:04:29.600 worried about. Everyone seem like they're doing all right. 2:04:29.680 --> 2:04:32.720 I had a positive energy to him. Yeah, you know, so, yeah, 2:04:32.800 --> 2:04:35.880 that's put the most part. I mean, the guy dying though, 2:04:35.920 --> 2:04:36.880 that was a little dark. 2:04:36.760 --> 2:04:37.080 For me. 2:04:38.640 --> 2:04:40.800 On paper, it's dark, but he seems I mean no, 2:04:41.040 --> 2:04:42.560 I mean like it's one of the best things ever 2:04:42.600 --> 2:04:43.480 happened to her about it. 2:04:43.480 --> 2:04:44.640 Maybe that's just his adderall. 2:04:44.760 --> 2:04:50.480 I mean, you know, his ADAHD medication got him going 2:04:50.520 --> 2:04:52.560 crazy like that. But yeah, when you're on medications and 2:04:52.600 --> 2:04:55.000 ship like that, man, you can't drink. Like he has 2:04:55.040 --> 2:04:57.480 to realize that, Like that's just out of the that's 2:04:57.520 --> 2:04:59.839 just out of the question, man, Like drinking and medication 2:05:00.200 --> 2:05:03.080 just like you know, doing fucking prescriptions and ship. That's 2:05:03.120 --> 2:05:05.440 like the worst shit ever, you know, that's almost worse 2:05:05.560 --> 2:05:07.760 than fucking getting street drugs and some ship, which is 2:05:07.800 --> 2:05:11.440 crazy fucking alcohol and fucking pharmaceuticals. 2:05:11.480 --> 2:05:14.720 Man. Took a lot of motherfuckers out, man for real m. M. 2:05:20.640 --> 2:05:23.480 That's what I'm worried about, you know, like where he 2:05:23.600 --> 2:05:26.000 just did take it that serious and he like, fuck it, man, 2:05:26.040 --> 2:05:27.040 that shit was kind of dope. 2:05:27.200 --> 2:05:29.680 Yeah, yeah, I care more about them. 2:05:29.520 --> 2:05:31.600 Carhart double knees and he cared about dying. 2:05:31.840 --> 2:05:35.000 Are you are you into any of the like skydiving, 2:05:35.160 --> 2:05:36.280 extreme sports. 2:05:37.000 --> 2:05:40.600 I would like to go skydiving, but I'm not seeking 2:05:40.600 --> 2:05:44.400 it out. I'm not like trying to figure out how 2:05:44.400 --> 2:05:46.760 to do it. But if it ever came across my 2:05:46.840 --> 2:05:48.800 ship in life and it's like, all right, fuck it, 2:05:48.800 --> 2:05:49.200 I'm down. 2:05:49.960 --> 2:05:51.840 See no, you see they whoever said that in the 2:05:51.920 --> 2:05:57.760 chat is is he might get addicted to the thrill 2:05:57.840 --> 2:05:58.520 of almost. 2:05:58.760 --> 2:06:02.400 Like that adrenaline rush, like you know, yeah, but I 2:06:02.440 --> 2:06:05.080 don't know, man, hopefully man, like you said the catheter 2:06:05.200 --> 2:06:07.520 and the dick thing, man, And I don't know, Like 2:06:07.560 --> 2:06:09.520 I said, he's still young, so maybe he's not taking 2:06:09.520 --> 2:06:13.720 it as serious as somewhat my age would. But na, man, 2:06:13.840 --> 2:06:17.280 like fucking passing out drunk and all that shit is 2:06:17.320 --> 2:06:17.760 fucked up. 2:06:17.800 --> 2:06:18.000 Man. 2:06:18.360 --> 2:06:20.080 That was the one thing I was really worried about. 2:06:20.120 --> 2:06:20.280 Man. 2:06:20.320 --> 2:06:23.000 It's like something like that happening to me, man, And. 2:06:23.040 --> 2:06:26.440 Especially now with like all this fucking fentanyl and all 2:06:26.480 --> 2:06:28.800 this fucked up ship, like you can just one night 2:06:28.800 --> 2:06:31.240 of having fun can just turn dark, you know. 2:06:31.800 --> 2:06:35.080 So did you did you have you know, a share 2:06:35.120 --> 2:06:37.560 of nights where you woke up like like to the 2:06:37.600 --> 2:06:39.960 point where you like you don't remember all the time. 2:06:40.160 --> 2:06:42.320 Yeah, it was a lot where I'll be like, man, 2:06:42.320 --> 2:06:44.480 people telling me shit that I did, and I'm like, fuck, 2:06:44.640 --> 2:06:48.160 you know, it's just it's fucked up, man, it is. 2:06:48.200 --> 2:06:51.040 It's really when you when you're on that where you know, 2:06:51.400 --> 2:06:52.960 I guess you know, when you're young and you know 2:06:53.040 --> 2:06:55.040 something like that happened every blue moon, but when it's 2:06:55.080 --> 2:06:58.480 like fucking every other day, like you need help, bro, 2:06:58.720 --> 2:07:01.280 you need to have an intervention and someone needs to 2:07:01.320 --> 2:07:04.920 sit you down really, And so I was just I mean, 2:07:05.200 --> 2:07:08.040 I guess you know, it takes you know, you have 2:07:08.160 --> 2:07:10.360 to go through certain ship to get to certain ship. 2:07:10.520 --> 2:07:12.800 So I guess if I never been through anything like that, 2:07:12.840 --> 2:07:15.520 I probably wouldn't have went and got help. So I mean, 2:07:15.560 --> 2:07:17.280 I'm happy for everything that I've been through to be 2:07:17.320 --> 2:07:18.760 able to go get help because I was I was 2:07:18.760 --> 2:07:20.320 the type of motherfucker that talked shit. 2:07:20.160 --> 2:07:21.880 About going to get treatment and rehab. 2:07:21.960 --> 2:07:25.040 Really what was your what was your opinion on it? 2:07:25.320 --> 2:07:27.840 Like you want to quit doing something? Just quit like motherfucker. 2:07:28.080 --> 2:07:29.600 Yeah you feel like it's a problem. You could, but 2:07:30.240 --> 2:07:32.160 it ain't that easy for a lot of people. Man, 2:07:32.560 --> 2:07:35.400 Like a lot of people don't even know like why 2:07:35.440 --> 2:07:38.440 they getting fucked up. You know, it could start off 2:07:38.440 --> 2:07:40.520 as being fun and for you know it, man, it's 2:07:40.600 --> 2:07:42.680 just using it to fucking mash your emotions. 2:07:42.760 --> 2:07:44.400 And then did you have did you have to go 2:07:44.440 --> 2:07:48.040 through like several hypotheses as to why you were getting 2:07:48.040 --> 2:07:50.480 sucked up before you found the true one? 2:07:51.040 --> 2:07:53.960 I mean I kind of knew in some sense, you know, 2:07:54.640 --> 2:07:57.000 and it I never was a drinker like that. My 2:07:57.160 --> 2:08:01.560 drinking actually started from touring. Like I would drink, you know, 2:08:01.600 --> 2:08:03.600 I was more of a fuck with weed or you 2:08:03.640 --> 2:08:07.040 know other shit. But drinking for me, it started off 2:08:07.080 --> 2:08:09.800 as just me being on tour and you know, having 2:08:09.800 --> 2:08:12.520 to drink before I go on stage and maybe having 2:08:12.640 --> 2:08:15.600 another drink to power down after I get off stage. 2:08:15.680 --> 2:08:18.160 Then before I know it, you know, after years of 2:08:18.280 --> 2:08:20.760 doing that, then I'm finding myself drinking at home. 2:08:21.640 --> 2:08:23.960 Yeah. Yeah, you get to the plane, I'm just drinking 2:08:24.040 --> 2:08:24.640 every day. 2:08:25.240 --> 2:08:27.880 Yeah, it's when it's like when you have a thing 2:08:27.920 --> 2:08:30.360 where like you have some like clear boundaries with it, 2:08:30.520 --> 2:08:32.640 and then you kind of start to encroach on the 2:08:32.640 --> 2:08:34.600 boundaries a little bit and then all of a sudden, 2:08:34.600 --> 2:08:35.600 you're out of control. 2:08:35.800 --> 2:08:37.600 Yeah, like you don't I didn't know I was a 2:08:37.600 --> 2:08:43.040 fucking alcoholic to just you know, you just come to 2:08:43.120 --> 2:08:46.040 the realization, like, you know, you had that talk with yourself. 2:08:45.680 --> 2:08:48.240 Like are you are you off of weed now? 2:08:48.480 --> 2:08:48.720 Yeah. 2:08:48.800 --> 2:08:50.960 I didn't have any intentions on stopping to smoke weed 2:08:51.000 --> 2:08:52.520 when I went to treatment. It was just to get 2:08:52.520 --> 2:08:56.800 off alcohol. But I learned so much about myself during 2:08:56.800 --> 2:08:59.560 that process and just everything, and I told myself I 2:08:59.600 --> 2:09:01.440 was going to like I'm one't going to stop smoking. 2:09:01.440 --> 2:09:03.080 But then when I got home, you know, start doing 2:09:03.120 --> 2:09:06.200 therapy and shit, and just you know, it could be 2:09:06.240 --> 2:09:09.960 a gateway. Yeah for me, not saying for everybody, you know, 2:09:10.040 --> 2:09:12.280 but it could. You know, it does alter your thinking 2:09:12.320 --> 2:09:14.400 in some sense. And I can totally see myself having 2:09:14.440 --> 2:09:17.600 a great time, too much fun smoking. We get high, 2:09:17.720 --> 2:09:19.720 might be at some cool party or something, somebody offer 2:09:19.760 --> 2:09:21.879 me a drinking in my fucking high mind. 2:09:21.800 --> 2:09:24.240 Like, yeah, not that bad, right, right, I've been clean 2:09:24.600 --> 2:09:24.920 I'm not. 2:09:24.840 --> 2:09:27.360 Gonna drink tomorrow and drinking well, I know what, I'm 2:09:27.400 --> 2:09:29.120 back on the fucking Farris Wheels. 2:09:28.880 --> 2:09:32.120 Right right, right right. It's hard because I'm and I've 2:09:32.120 --> 2:09:35.200 talked about this on here before, but like there's so 2:09:35.320 --> 2:09:39.440 many models of stoners that are like successful, Like when 2:09:39.480 --> 2:09:41.920 Seth Rogen gets on and he's like, yeah, I'm a 2:09:42.000 --> 2:09:44.920 multi million dollar you know. I do everything I do 2:09:45.080 --> 2:09:48.080 is while I'm stones And I see that, and I'm like, 2:09:48.120 --> 2:09:49.760 oh fuck, I wish I could do that. I wish 2:09:49.800 --> 2:09:52.560 I could be one of those. Like in high school 2:09:52.560 --> 2:09:55.160 there were there were these kids who would get super 2:09:55.200 --> 2:09:57.640 stoned and then do their homework like I could. I 2:09:57.640 --> 2:10:00.520 always wish I could be that kind of have that 2:10:00.520 --> 2:10:01.520 productive balance. 2:10:01.640 --> 2:10:05.000 But don't get me wrong, I love weed like I 2:10:05.080 --> 2:10:05.640 still miss it. 2:10:05.680 --> 2:10:08.000 I probably think about smoking every day, just make a 2:10:08.040 --> 2:10:11.040 conscious decision not to, and I find out that. I mean, 2:10:11.720 --> 2:10:14.440 it's not like fucking rocket science. I'm way more productive 2:10:14.480 --> 2:10:17.000 without it, you know what I'm saying. Like when I 2:10:17.120 --> 2:10:18.880 used to sit around, like when I first got out 2:10:18.880 --> 2:10:21.200 of rehab and ship, it was I couldn't sleep for ship, 2:10:21.800 --> 2:10:23.720 like it was I was sleeping good in there. But 2:10:23.720 --> 2:10:26.160 when I got home, it was like, like, what did I. 2:10:26.240 --> 2:10:29.240 Used to fucking do with all this time? Yeah, it's 2:10:29.280 --> 2:10:29.960 like I'm bored. 2:10:30.000 --> 2:10:32.360 And I realized that I was just using weed for anything, 2:10:32.400 --> 2:10:34.800 like I'm nothing to do smoke weed and smoke you know, 2:10:34.960 --> 2:10:37.280 so even like playing video games. It took a long 2:10:37.360 --> 2:10:39.520 time for me to even start back enjoying video games 2:10:39.560 --> 2:10:41.640 because I was so used to doing it while smoking weed. 2:10:41.840 --> 2:10:44.120 You know, do you do? 2:10:44.160 --> 2:10:44.520 You do? 2:10:44.600 --> 2:10:47.680 You have like a like do the whole sponsor thing. 2:10:49.200 --> 2:10:51.080 I did in the beginning, but then after a while, 2:10:51.080 --> 2:10:55.440 it's just I started to feel like just that whole 2:10:55.480 --> 2:10:58.040 shit felt a little cultish to me, like going to 2:10:58.120 --> 2:11:00.600 meetings and ship Sure, so I know a lot of 2:11:00.600 --> 2:11:02.480 people are like, oh, you know, you got it, but 2:11:02.720 --> 2:11:04.440 I don't know, man, everybody's kind of different. 2:11:04.480 --> 2:11:07.400 But no, for me, for the most part, I. 2:11:07.920 --> 2:11:11.160 Did a couple like online shit, But the thing that 2:11:11.240 --> 2:11:13.280 resonated with me the most was like doing like the 2:11:13.360 --> 2:11:16.760 dharma shit, which is like going like meditation classes and shit. 2:11:17.320 --> 2:11:19.760 I like that the most, and like smart recovery. But 2:11:19.840 --> 2:11:21.440 for the most part, I mean when I went on tour, 2:11:21.480 --> 2:11:22.880 a lot of that shit fell off, Like I haven't 2:11:22.920 --> 2:11:25.560 been in therapy none of that shit since something. 2:11:25.920 --> 2:11:28.040 So when you're on a tour like that and you're 2:11:28.080 --> 2:11:30.720 traveling every day, it's hard to keep a routine. It's 2:11:30.720 --> 2:11:31.760 like almost impossible. 2:11:32.120 --> 2:11:34.200 But I'm not over confident in it. Any day. I 2:11:34.280 --> 2:11:35.120 know I can fuck up. 2:11:35.160 --> 2:11:37.040 So the best thing for me to do is just, 2:11:37.080 --> 2:11:39.480 you know, as dumb as it sign clanchicun, just take 2:11:39.480 --> 2:11:42.520 one day at the time, man, and I just you know, 2:11:43.320 --> 2:11:44.240 keep myself busy. 2:11:44.720 --> 2:11:47.600 Are you a religious guy at all? 2:11:47.640 --> 2:11:49.720 I know that. I mean I have been. I mean 2:11:49.800 --> 2:11:51.200 I'm being there. 2:11:51.320 --> 2:11:53.800 That was like one of the one things that kind 2:11:53.800 --> 2:11:56.280 of made me feel good and shit, like was going 2:11:56.280 --> 2:11:58.760 to the church and they had like a spiritual advisor 2:11:59.280 --> 2:12:01.080 and I'll go see this siritual advisor. And every time 2:12:01.080 --> 2:12:02.760 I would do that shit, I would just feel good 2:12:02.800 --> 2:12:04.600 for some reason, like no matter, you know, I know 2:12:04.640 --> 2:12:07.560 I'm at the fucking bottom to being fucking rehabited and 2:12:07.640 --> 2:12:10.040 just feel like a fucking failure. But every time I 2:12:10.040 --> 2:12:11.840 would like go to the church or like go see 2:12:11.880 --> 2:12:14.360 the spiritual advisor and should always left feeling good and shit. 2:12:14.480 --> 2:12:17.000 So yeah, it definitely did give me like a spiritual 2:12:17.040 --> 2:12:18.040 awakening kind of thing. 2:12:18.640 --> 2:12:20.640 When when you were when you were you raised religious 2:12:20.640 --> 2:12:20.840 at all? 2:12:20.920 --> 2:12:22.760 Yeah, I just go to church every fucking Sunday. I 2:12:22.760 --> 2:12:23.720 hated that ship though. 2:12:24.800 --> 2:12:27.640 There's almost a weird like, uh that when you're an adult, 2:12:28.080 --> 2:12:30.120 if you when you're because as a kid, it sucks 2:12:30.120 --> 2:12:32.240 because you're getting dragged, but when you're an adult, if 2:12:32.280 --> 2:12:34.360 you make the decision to go, it can almost be 2:12:34.360 --> 2:12:35.800 a little bit better. 2:12:36.040 --> 2:12:36.640 Yeah. 2:12:36.920 --> 2:12:38.840 I mean I live right across street from the church, 2:12:38.840 --> 2:12:40.160 and I was like, oh, I'm gonna start going to 2:12:40.240 --> 2:12:42.200 church and shoo. But I was still I'm like that shit, 2:12:44.840 --> 2:12:46.640 I deal with it on my own terms, you know. 2:12:46.880 --> 2:12:50.000 Yeah, I went to a U. 2:12:50.120 --> 2:12:54.600 I went to Overeaters Anonymous once I've been back since 2:12:54.640 --> 2:12:58.600 I should go. It was cool, but uh, like people 2:12:58.640 --> 2:13:02.600 would talk about like God is. I don't know if 2:13:02.600 --> 2:13:05.320 you've been to like the AA meanings, but like God is, 2:13:05.440 --> 2:13:09.440 like it's it's it's it's in the background. Like when 2:13:09.440 --> 2:13:11.840 people talk, they'll talk about like the higher power instead. 2:13:12.160 --> 2:13:14.760 And I remember like people would would tell their stories 2:13:14.800 --> 2:13:17.280 and they would mention a higher power and like I wasn't. 2:13:17.600 --> 2:13:24.040 I just subbed in my own interpretation of what that meant, 2:13:24.160 --> 2:13:27.920 which wasn't necessarily always like uh, you know, a god 2:13:28.080 --> 2:13:30.240 like a dude, but you know, could just be the 2:13:30.320 --> 2:13:34.320 higher power of of I don't know, man, Like, uh. 2:13:34.400 --> 2:13:35.160 Yeah, I know what you mean. 2:13:35.240 --> 2:13:37.000 Yeah, you can sell, you can sub in your own. 2:13:38.680 --> 2:13:40.280 What I was saying, Like, that's the whole faith thing, 2:13:40.560 --> 2:13:41.880 just believing in something it. 2:13:41.840 --> 2:13:43.240 Could be fucking could. 2:13:45.560 --> 2:13:48.680 Just believe it in because you know. But yeah, man, 2:13:48.760 --> 2:13:50.920 that that that helped me a lot, to be honest. 2:13:51.080 --> 2:13:52.440 I mean when I was in jail, and that's what 2:13:52.600 --> 2:13:55.120 fucking helped me a lot, believe in something that shit 2:13:55.240 --> 2:13:57.360 was gonna be better when I got out, and having 2:13:57.400 --> 2:13:59.280 some kind of faith. Once you lose faith and you 2:13:59.280 --> 2:14:02.640 don't care about you, that's when you know, that's when 2:14:03.120 --> 2:14:05.920 that's probably why I was using so many fucking drugs 2:14:05.920 --> 2:14:08.280 and drinking so much because I didn't you know, just didn't. 2:14:08.080 --> 2:14:08.880 Care no more. Man. 2:14:10.000 --> 2:14:12.120 What gives you faith? Now? 2:14:15.200 --> 2:14:17.960 Helping others, Just being able to share my story with 2:14:18.000 --> 2:14:20.480 everybody else and letting them know, man that you know, 2:14:20.560 --> 2:14:22.560 no matter what you're going through, man, somebody like me, 2:14:22.680 --> 2:14:25.320 you know, being an example for them now you know 2:14:25.360 --> 2:14:26.960 I went through that ship. You know what I'm saying, 2:14:27.040 --> 2:14:28.480 Just showing them that you can still make it out 2:14:28.520 --> 2:14:28.840 that ship. 2:14:28.880 --> 2:14:31.560 Don't give up. So yeah, that's my whole journey. 2:14:31.640 --> 2:14:31.760 Now. 2:14:31.800 --> 2:14:34.120 I just want to help no man where this through 2:14:34.120 --> 2:14:36.320 my music or just meeting people and talking to them. 2:14:36.360 --> 2:14:40.040 You know, you can change somebody life with one conversation 2:14:40.160 --> 2:14:42.400 type shit, you know. So just being in that position 2:14:42.480 --> 2:14:44.560 to be able to you know, to have that voice, 2:14:44.640 --> 2:14:46.000 you know, and just to talk to people. 2:14:46.000 --> 2:14:47.840 Man. So yeah, I feel like I got my new 2:14:47.920 --> 2:14:49.840 leash on life with that, and. 2:14:49.800 --> 2:14:53.560 It makes you it makes you feel good to do that. 2:14:54.120 --> 2:14:56.400 It keeps me on a straight and narrow you know. 2:14:56.640 --> 2:14:59.200 One of the things I like about doing this this 2:14:59.320 --> 2:15:01.840 show is like like I feel like, uh, it's a 2:15:01.920 --> 2:15:04.800 fun Like I get out of my own because every day, 2:15:05.320 --> 2:15:08.360 every day I'm like wrestling in my own overthinking shit 2:15:08.400 --> 2:15:10.440 you were talking Earli about just like overthinking my own 2:15:10.480 --> 2:15:12.680 fucking life and all my own problems and shit. And 2:15:12.720 --> 2:15:15.320 it's fun to get out of that and like talk 2:15:15.360 --> 2:15:18.000 to somebody else about whatever's going on with them. You know, 2:15:18.040 --> 2:15:21.720 it gives you perspective on your own life, you know. 2:15:22.640 --> 2:15:25.400 Yeah, definitely, and you know, just being able to have 2:15:25.440 --> 2:15:28.160 that voice, like I said, and like you know sometimes 2:15:28.200 --> 2:15:30.600 you you know, like I say, we just normal motherfuckers, 2:15:30.640 --> 2:15:33.480 just like everybody else too. But you never know that 2:15:33.600 --> 2:15:35.640 one person that reached out to you and said something 2:15:35.680 --> 2:15:35.880 to you. 2:15:35.920 --> 2:15:36.880 How much you know like. 2:15:36.840 --> 2:15:38.720 People calling in and just them being able to come 2:15:38.760 --> 2:15:41.240 in it fucking makes their day. Fucking changes shit, you know. 2:15:41.400 --> 2:15:43.600 So you helping motherfuckers too at. 2:15:43.440 --> 2:15:46.080 The end of I hope, So man, I hope. So 2:15:46.600 --> 2:15:49.320 that's what this show is based on. This ship sometimes. 2:15:48.880 --> 2:15:52.080 You're going to do one final one before we go. Okay, cool, 2:15:52.520 --> 2:15:56.400 let me ask first chat. Do you have any questions 2:15:56.560 --> 2:15:59.960 or or stuff for Danny that you wanna talk about. 2:16:00.480 --> 2:16:03.800 Can Danny confirm if he was or was not wearing 2:16:04.000 --> 2:16:05.600 trip pants? What does that mean? 2:16:06.520 --> 2:16:06.760 Yeah? 2:16:07.000 --> 2:16:11.879 No, they weren't actually tripped. They were actually a designer 2:16:11.920 --> 2:16:14.440 out of Houston, Texas. He made those and they do 2:16:14.520 --> 2:16:16.240 look like trips, but they're not trips. 2:16:16.720 --> 2:16:17.400 Let's see. 2:16:18.080 --> 2:16:22.000 Do you remember playing middle Lands Festival Middlelands? 2:16:22.120 --> 2:16:22.200 No? 2:16:22.720 --> 2:16:26.160 I probably was blacked out drunk. Where's Middlelands? I don't know, 2:16:26.400 --> 2:16:27.080 I don't remember. 2:16:27.200 --> 2:16:30.680 No, Danny, how was getting put into GTA five? You 2:16:30.680 --> 2:16:32.760 were in GTA five. Yeah, that's sick. 2:16:33.800 --> 2:16:34.240 It's great. 2:16:34.240 --> 2:16:34.400 Man. 2:16:34.440 --> 2:16:37.360 I love all the guys at Rockstar and they always 2:16:37.360 --> 2:16:39.320 reach out to me to do stuff. Still had a 2:16:39.360 --> 2:16:43.440 relationship with them, so but yeah, man, it was you know, 2:16:44.440 --> 2:16:45.000 it was great. 2:16:45.400 --> 2:16:45.840 I don't know. 2:16:46.200 --> 2:16:47.959 It's one of those things where I can't believe I 2:16:48.000 --> 2:16:49.520 did that shit, and it makes it hard for me 2:16:49.560 --> 2:16:50.480 to play the fucking game. 2:16:50.560 --> 2:16:54.000 I never even had finished because you're afraid of hearing 2:16:54.040 --> 2:16:54.560 your own voice. 2:16:54.640 --> 2:16:56.920 Yeah, I'm the first fucking song you hear, and then 2:16:56.959 --> 2:17:00.400 they I did my own downloadable content. I had my 2:17:00.440 --> 2:17:03.360 own shit. So it's just hard for me to now. 2:17:03.400 --> 2:17:05.840 I can't It's like I'm too close to it. I 2:17:05.840 --> 2:17:08.560 can't even really enjoy it right right, Yeah, but it 2:17:08.640 --> 2:17:10.680 was a lot of work though. They actually kne to Detroit, 2:17:11.760 --> 2:17:15.200 fucking you know. We recorded for fucking months doing that shit. 2:17:15.360 --> 2:17:15.520 Man. 2:17:15.640 --> 2:17:17.720 So but it was fun, man shot talk to the 2:17:17.720 --> 2:17:18.560 homies that rock Star. 2:17:18.760 --> 2:17:20.400 Did you see that GT six got leaked? 2:17:21.000 --> 2:17:23.200 I've seen something about it, but I don't really know 2:17:23.240 --> 2:17:23.680 too much. 2:17:23.920 --> 2:17:26.600 There was like a sixteen year old kid who like 2:17:26.800 --> 2:17:29.560 hacked in the rock Star and he got thrown in jail. 2:17:30.040 --> 2:17:32.800 But I was thinking about it, he's probably like the 2:17:32.879 --> 2:17:35.640 coolest kid in jail, Like, that's gotta be the best 2:17:35.680 --> 2:17:38.000 thing to be thrown into juvenile Hall for is leaking 2:17:38.520 --> 2:17:39.280 GTA six. 2:17:39.520 --> 2:17:45.879 Yeah, but jail fucking sucks. I fuck that shit. 2:17:46.720 --> 2:17:48.840 H Danny, Are you ever gonna hop back on Final 2:17:48.959 --> 2:17:50.640 Fantasy fourteen? 2:17:51.160 --> 2:17:53.400 That's the new one? Are just the one that just 2:17:53.440 --> 2:17:55.279 came out? Oh you're talking about online? 2:17:55.680 --> 2:17:56.000 Yeah? 2:17:56.200 --> 2:17:56.440 Nah? 2:17:56.920 --> 2:17:58.760 They said they someone said they played with you when 2:17:58.800 --> 2:17:59.520 you started heavy. 2:18:00.080 --> 2:18:00.720 Yeah. I kind of. 2:18:01.200 --> 2:18:01.360 Yeah. 2:18:01.400 --> 2:18:03.200 I was super into it, but I kind of got 2:18:03.200 --> 2:18:06.039 out of it. No, I don't know, man, I just it's. 2:18:05.840 --> 2:18:07.720 A little clique. Yeah, a little clique as you're in 2:18:07.720 --> 2:18:08.400 that motherfucker. 2:18:08.440 --> 2:18:11.480 Man, it's almost like the VR motherfuckers that just sit 2:18:11.520 --> 2:18:12.840 in the mirror and won't talk to you. 2:18:13.480 --> 2:18:15.840 Someon wants to know what your very first job was. 2:18:16.200 --> 2:18:19.240 My very first job was. I worked at a Sweeten House, 2:18:19.840 --> 2:18:23.040 which is a buffet. I actually allowed on my job 2:18:23.080 --> 2:18:25.760 application because you're supposed to be sixteen to work in 2:18:25.760 --> 2:18:28.120 Michigan and I was only fourteen, so illed on my 2:18:28.200 --> 2:18:31.400 job application and forged my work permit and I worked. 2:18:31.160 --> 2:18:32.359 There until I was sixteen. 2:18:32.400 --> 2:18:34.800 I was a potwasher making four to fifty an hour, 2:18:35.280 --> 2:18:37.119 so they knew I was too young. It was slave 2:18:37.200 --> 2:18:38.879 laboring me, and once I was old enough to get 2:18:38.879 --> 2:18:43.640 a job, I quit and started selling wheat. I worked 2:18:43.680 --> 2:18:46.400 at an old country buffet too. I was just working 2:18:46.440 --> 2:18:49.440 at buffets and shit. As a kid, I worked at 2:18:49.440 --> 2:18:51.360 a burger king, but I was really just selling weed. 2:18:51.400 --> 2:18:52.959 Everybody there, you ever. 2:18:54.480 --> 2:18:54.720 Are you? 2:18:54.760 --> 2:18:56.359 Are you a buffet fan? Personally? 2:18:57.520 --> 2:19:00.560 Now it's nasty to me because I know we used 2:19:00.560 --> 2:19:02.560 to be doing back there, so I'm like, fuck, but 2:19:02.760 --> 2:19:07.120 uh no, I can't say I haven't been to a 2:19:07.120 --> 2:19:09.320 buffet in over ten years. 2:19:09.360 --> 2:19:09.560 Man. 2:19:11.080 --> 2:19:13.800 There was a Chinese buffet near my school called the 2:19:13.840 --> 2:19:19.000 Habachi Grill, and all the food was stale, but I 2:19:19.080 --> 2:19:19.520 loved it. 2:19:19.920 --> 2:19:20.160 Yeah. 2:19:20.280 --> 2:19:23.680 I mean, as you're a teenager, you younger, like, you know, 2:19:23.920 --> 2:19:26.039 buffets and shit, they cool and shit. But once you 2:19:26.080 --> 2:19:28.840 get like a certain age, I feel like that's just disgusting. 2:19:28.920 --> 2:19:32.720 Man. Like now I can't even think about going to 2:19:32.720 --> 2:19:33.200 a buffet. 2:19:35.560 --> 2:19:37.680 All right, let me, I'll read off a few options. 2:19:37.680 --> 2:19:43.320 You tell me what sounds interesting to you. Zach eighteen 2:19:44.160 --> 2:19:47.840 wants to discuss the complicated relationship he has with his mom, 2:19:48.000 --> 2:19:54.640 who stole some money from him. We have Joshua thirty four. 2:19:54.680 --> 2:19:59.760 It feels like he reached a third life crisis. We 2:19:59.840 --> 2:20:04.039 had of Sam thirty one, one of her exes and 2:20:04.080 --> 2:20:07.800 one of her friends wants to have a threesome with her. 2:20:08.760 --> 2:20:19.959 She does not know what to do about that. Hello, Hello, 2:20:20.560 --> 2:20:21.800 what's up? Sam? 2:20:22.000 --> 2:20:22.160 Yo? 2:20:22.760 --> 2:20:24.400 What's going on? 2:20:23.840 --> 2:20:26.640 I'm a girl, by the way, but I'm okay with 2:20:26.959 --> 2:20:27.480 you saying that. 2:20:27.600 --> 2:20:29.480 All right, Sam, I see the blue screen in the 2:20:29.480 --> 2:20:32.400 background is slowly peeling off, so we we should make 2:20:32.440 --> 2:20:37.879 this quick. Yeah, I'm mainly kidding up. What's going on? Sam? 2:20:37.920 --> 2:20:38.440 How's life? 2:20:40.320 --> 2:20:45.720 Uh, it's all right, It's all right, I guess Yeah, 2:20:45.760 --> 2:20:47.920 I just had some advice or not if I didn't 2:20:47.959 --> 2:20:53.360 have it back, I'm asking for advice, I should say. 2:20:52.480 --> 2:20:59.040 It's the two ladies involved in this, this predicament. One 2:20:59.040 --> 2:21:05.520 of them is an X and the other one. They 2:21:05.600 --> 2:21:09.240 were not particularly they how do I how do I 2:21:09.280 --> 2:21:12.560 even say this? They were like enemies, they were like 2:21:12.600 --> 2:21:14.880 not close friends at all. At a certain point they 2:21:14.920 --> 2:21:18.400 really did not like each other. Okay, yeah, they hated 2:21:18.440 --> 2:21:20.720 each other, and now they're like cool again. And in 2:21:20.760 --> 2:21:23.880 the past few weeks, not all three of us together 2:21:24.040 --> 2:21:27.840 but separately, like this idea has just sort of come 2:21:27.920 --> 2:21:33.640 about and it's I just I'm not sure if it's 2:21:33.640 --> 2:21:37.160 a decent Uh, it might be a good idea. 2:21:37.760 --> 2:21:38.160 I don't know. 2:21:38.200 --> 2:21:40.920 I'm just I'm asking for a third opinion space or 2:21:40.920 --> 2:21:41.680 a fourth opinion. 2:21:41.720 --> 2:21:45.720 I guess technically, I guess if you thinking about it, 2:21:45.760 --> 2:21:46.960 that must mean you can't handle it. 2:21:47.040 --> 2:21:49.280 So you probably shouldn't do that, man, because the threesome 2:21:49.360 --> 2:21:50.000 is very hard. 2:21:50.080 --> 2:21:50.280 Man. 2:21:50.600 --> 2:21:53.520 You think it's hard enough pleasing one woman, imagine pleasing two. 2:21:53.680 --> 2:21:56.000 So I would say you probably don't want to put 2:21:56.000 --> 2:21:58.320 yourself to that type of situation if you don't think. 2:21:58.160 --> 2:22:01.640 You can handle it, Why don't you think, Sam, Why 2:22:01.640 --> 2:22:04.840 don't you think you can handle it? Though? Why do 2:22:04.959 --> 2:22:07.160 you have a lack of confidence in your abilities? 2:22:08.640 --> 2:22:09.959 I say, just do it for a story. 2:22:10.080 --> 2:22:13.600 Weirdly, that's not weirdly. The confidence of my ability is 2:22:13.600 --> 2:22:17.760 not the issue. It's more of like the weird the 2:22:17.800 --> 2:22:19.879 potential weirdness for the future. 2:22:20.879 --> 2:22:22.480 It wouldn't be weird, y'all, just to be doing it 2:22:22.520 --> 2:22:25.640 all the time now, it's going to be more weird 2:22:25.640 --> 2:22:26.520 if you turn it down. 2:22:29.200 --> 2:22:39.560 That's that's fair. That's fair. Yeah, Okay, I gotta say 2:22:39.600 --> 2:22:45.160 I love your last Daddy, thank you. It's every every time, 2:22:45.400 --> 2:22:47.600 every time I hear it, it makes me so happy. 2:22:48.640 --> 2:22:49.360 Yeah, no, y'all. 2:22:49.440 --> 2:22:51.920 Y'all make really good points that it's just, you know, 2:22:52.160 --> 2:22:55.119 the thing that's being talked about. Maybe it's just something 2:22:55.120 --> 2:22:57.680 that should that should happen, because you know, it's not 2:22:57.760 --> 2:23:00.520 like I don't know and it maybe if it happens 2:23:00.520 --> 2:23:01.520 and then it's weird whatever. 2:23:04.040 --> 2:23:05.760 Yeah, it's just something you've been wanting to do for 2:23:05.800 --> 2:23:13.200 a while. It sounds like we hit the nerve of 2:23:13.240 --> 2:23:13.640 some kind. 2:23:18.080 --> 2:23:21.200 I don't really know how to answer that, to be 2:23:21.320 --> 2:23:22.800 quite honest, if you don't. 2:23:22.600 --> 2:23:24.280 Know how to answer that, it kind of sounds like 2:23:24.320 --> 2:23:29.600 the answer is yes, you know, I. 2:23:29.400 --> 2:23:33.160 Hadn't thought about. You know, it's one of those things. 2:23:33.200 --> 2:23:36.240 I feel like a lot of people, you know, this 2:23:36.400 --> 2:23:38.480 is not a situation that comes up in most of 2:23:38.520 --> 2:23:41.959 their lives, so as far as like the reality of 2:23:41.959 --> 2:23:44.760 the situation, like it's only something in the past, like 2:23:44.760 --> 2:23:47.160 a couple of past few weeks that's been like, oh wow, 2:23:47.920 --> 2:23:48.880 that could be a thing. 2:23:53.120 --> 2:23:57.680 I mean, we can't tell you what to do necessarily, 2:23:57.840 --> 2:24:01.520 but you I think when Danny and you were like, 2:24:01.560 --> 2:24:03.520 if you're asking, it sounds like the answer is it 2:24:03.520 --> 2:24:07.640 sounds like something you're You're that that's a good point. 2:24:07.760 --> 2:24:11.119 You're curious and excited about so I don't know, man. 2:24:10.959 --> 2:24:13.560 I think you're just trying to brag dust that you go. 2:24:14.240 --> 2:24:16.680 You're like you all motherfucker's sitting around with Gecko paint 2:24:16.680 --> 2:24:18.400 on when I got two bitches ready. 2:24:19.840 --> 2:24:24.560 It is not lined up. That hasn't been clear. It's 2:24:24.600 --> 2:24:29.199 not lined up, and for that I apologize. 2:24:29.400 --> 2:24:31.599 Not lined up. 2:24:34.000 --> 2:24:38.680 Well, Samya, it worked. I think I'm jealous of you, 2:24:38.760 --> 2:24:41.920 and I think that your life sounds really cool, and 2:24:42.000 --> 2:24:43.960 I think that if you don't feel that way, you 2:24:43.959 --> 2:24:45.839 should start feeling that way. 2:24:46.120 --> 2:24:51.360 You got bitches, God damn it. Who are you with? 2:24:51.520 --> 2:24:53.640 By the way, who are you? Who's this person giggling 2:24:53.640 --> 2:24:54.240 in the background. 2:24:56.600 --> 2:24:59.520 Oh it's I'm one of the girls. I'm Christina. 2:25:00.080 --> 2:25:01.640 Oh you're wait, you already got one of the girls 2:25:01.680 --> 2:25:04.160 with you? That's always he was stunning on. 2:25:06.240 --> 2:25:09.800 Yeah, No, like we yeah, I mean like we didn't 2:25:09.800 --> 2:25:14.560 have expect and maybe I don't know, thinking about involving Emily. 2:25:14.240 --> 2:25:15.480 I don't like. 2:25:15.560 --> 2:25:18.360 She off handedly minted it might be okay, but she's like, 2:25:18.400 --> 2:25:21.199 I don't know, that would be weird because they dated 2:25:21.240 --> 2:25:24.080 like why, I don't know what four years ago something 2:25:24.160 --> 2:25:27.520 like that, And now I'm fucking Sam. 2:25:27.560 --> 2:25:28.000 I don't know. 2:25:28.280 --> 2:25:29.280 So I don't want to be weird. 2:25:29.280 --> 2:25:30.800 I don't want her to get like upset. 2:25:30.920 --> 2:25:32.200 But I don't know. 2:25:32.879 --> 2:25:33.280 I don't know. 2:25:34.360 --> 2:25:37.440 I don't want to like hurt my friend girlfriend, you know, 2:25:38.800 --> 2:25:39.520 but she's. 2:25:39.400 --> 2:25:41.240 But why would it Why would it hurt her if 2:25:41.240 --> 2:25:49.119 she's that if it was her idea. 2:25:47.480 --> 2:25:47.920 My idea. 2:25:48.440 --> 2:25:50.680 Actually I think it was your idea, it was my idea. 2:25:51.280 --> 2:25:51.720 I don't know. 2:25:51.840 --> 2:25:55.360 I just don't want her that's okay, And then it 2:25:55.440 --> 2:25:57.240 hurst her feeling like later. 2:26:00.600 --> 2:26:02.640 Well, look, I if I had to put money on, 2:26:02.760 --> 2:26:05.160 like what I think you're going to end up doing 2:26:05.400 --> 2:26:09.760 after this phone call, it sounds like it sounds like 2:26:09.800 --> 2:26:11.200 you're gonna do it. And I hope you have a 2:26:11.200 --> 2:26:13.200 good time. I hope you have a good time in 2:26:13.280 --> 2:26:17.480 the moment. I really do. And I don't know if 2:26:17.480 --> 2:26:19.400 you want to, if you want to borrow three gecko 2:26:19.480 --> 2:26:22.000 costumes and make it even steamier, you let me know. 2:26:22.959 --> 2:26:26.000 Oh my god, yeah fuck it, let's do. 2:26:26.000 --> 2:26:29.160 It, Danny, And that a conversation. 2:26:30.360 --> 2:26:38.320 No, I'm upset, he's living a life. I'm just a gecko. Yeah, 2:26:38.480 --> 2:26:39.200 hearing about it? 2:26:39.320 --> 2:26:41.039 Yeah see now you know, now you guys, now you 2:26:41.080 --> 2:26:42.640 guys have to do it because or else it would 2:26:42.640 --> 2:26:46.160 have just been in vain us Gecko, Okay, we have 2:26:46.200 --> 2:26:47.640 to do it. Say anything else you want to say 2:26:47.640 --> 2:26:48.920 to the people of the computer before we go. 2:26:55.040 --> 2:27:00.200 Yeah, just be safe, be nice to each other. A 2:27:00.200 --> 2:27:02.480 triple ax. Well, the stuff you've been doing with Taggy. 2:27:03.000 --> 2:27:03.680 Thank you. 2:27:03.760 --> 2:27:06.600 Yeah, man, I'll you know, I'll let you know how 2:27:06.600 --> 2:27:07.360 it goes next time. 2:27:07.440 --> 2:27:09.760 Sounds like you guys got a collaboration of your own 2:27:09.840 --> 2:27:10.320 to get to. 2:27:12.040 --> 2:27:12.120 That. 2:27:12.560 --> 2:27:16.000 Yeah, for one one before the other, obviously, but thank 2:27:16.040 --> 2:27:17.119 you for the opportunity. 2:27:17.680 --> 2:27:18.640 Take care of guys. 2:27:18.920 --> 2:27:19.680 Bye bye. 2:27:20.320 --> 2:27:25.959 Who I was, actually I was I was watching a 2:27:26.000 --> 2:27:28.600 different part. I was watching a different podcast with you 2:27:28.680 --> 2:27:31.160 on it, and you were asked this question, you have 2:27:31.360 --> 2:27:32.200 you have a threesome? 2:27:34.160 --> 2:27:41.000 Yeah? Nice, I mean it's not all it's cracked up 2:27:41.040 --> 2:27:41.200 to me. 2:27:41.520 --> 2:27:44.320 Yeah what what? What issues did you run into? 2:27:44.760 --> 2:27:46.959 I mean, it's just like I said, it's it's a 2:27:46.959 --> 2:27:49.160 lot of hard work. I mean, there's nothing worse than 2:27:49.160 --> 2:27:50.279 having a trash treason. 2:27:51.879 --> 2:27:54.240 Now you got because now you've got two people talking. 2:27:54.959 --> 2:27:56.920 Expectat at this play in my life, I would rather 2:27:57.240 --> 2:27:59.600 have just one person. I mean, you know, a lot 2:27:59.640 --> 2:28:02.680 of ship drug fueled, alcohol fueled. 2:28:02.840 --> 2:28:04.280 Yeah shit, you. 2:28:04.240 --> 2:28:06.440 Know what I'm saying. But now it's like I ain't 2:28:06.480 --> 2:28:08.439 even damn I'm a one woman. 2:28:08.280 --> 2:28:11.080 Then now nice man, I make love. Now. 2:28:11.600 --> 2:28:13.320 I gotta say I was I was watching a lot 2:28:13.320 --> 2:28:16.320 of podcasts with you on them, like in preparation for this, 2:28:16.480 --> 2:28:18.880 and you know, obviously I don't know you very well personally, 2:28:18.920 --> 2:28:23.760 but you do you seem calmer? Is that fair to say? 2:28:24.080 --> 2:28:25.000 Yeah? Definitely. 2:28:25.320 --> 2:28:28.200 I mean, yeah, I just was going through a lot 2:28:28.400 --> 2:28:31.400 the past few years, you know, and I'm just at 2:28:31.440 --> 2:28:34.640 a spot in my life, like I say, just not 2:28:34.680 --> 2:28:36.960 living in my head so much and just enjoying a moment. 2:28:37.480 --> 2:28:39.520 I think I was putting myself. I was stressing myself 2:28:39.560 --> 2:28:42.920 out so much that I wasn't even living life, you know, 2:28:43.200 --> 2:28:45.920 so worried about bad shouted happening. And now I wouldn't 2:28:45.920 --> 2:28:47.720 even enjoying a good ship that was in front of me. 2:28:47.800 --> 2:28:49.480 So now I'm just feel blessed. 2:28:49.760 --> 2:28:49.959 You know. 2:28:50.360 --> 2:28:50.600 Fuck. 2:28:50.680 --> 2:28:53.520 Yeah, Well, dude, thank thanks so much for doing this. 2:28:53.640 --> 2:28:56.080 And I'm very happy for you that you seem like 2:28:56.120 --> 2:28:59.280 you're in this new era of life that that you're 2:28:59.840 --> 2:29:01.240 very happy having me. 2:29:01.320 --> 2:29:03.400 Man, I've been watching your ship for some years now, 2:29:03.440 --> 2:29:04.879 So it's cool on there man. 2:29:04.840 --> 2:29:07.000 Cool cool, cool dude. Is there anything you want to like, 2:29:07.280 --> 2:29:09.000 you have any plugs or anything coming up? 2:29:09.040 --> 2:29:10.879 Do you want to tell the people about? Yeah? I mean, 2:29:10.920 --> 2:29:13.680 you know, you can watch my podcast Danny Brown Show 2:29:13.800 --> 2:29:18.840 every Tuesday on Wild Mate, you know, and new album 2:29:18.879 --> 2:29:23.000 coming very sooner than motherfuckers think. So it's going to 2:29:23.080 --> 2:29:24.440 be fun. It's going to be fun. 2:29:24.480 --> 2:29:27.680 And if you haven't already check out what for anyone 2:29:27.680 --> 2:29:31.640 who who hasn't heard you, like, where where should they start? 2:29:31.920 --> 2:29:36.600 Far as music? Yeah, I mean I guess you know 2:29:36.720 --> 2:29:39.560 you can just I don't know. 2:29:39.600 --> 2:29:41.600 I wouldn't say I don't know because every album, I 2:29:41.600 --> 2:29:43.840 would say, is kind of like my babies, and they're 2:29:43.840 --> 2:29:45.840 all kind of different from each other. 2:29:46.640 --> 2:29:47.320 So I don't know. 2:29:47.400 --> 2:29:50.000 It depends on what the person into and what they're 2:29:50.000 --> 2:29:53.000 going through life, what's going on in their life at 2:29:53.000 --> 2:29:53.400 the moment. 2:29:54.040 --> 2:29:55.879 But I would say I don't know. 2:29:55.959 --> 2:29:57.920 The best shit to do is probably start with Triple 2:29:58.040 --> 2:30:00.440 X and work your way up, or start with you 2:30:00.440 --> 2:30:03.720 know what I'm saying and work your way down, or 2:30:03.879 --> 2:30:05.840 just listen to the Peggy Ship. I would say that's 2:30:05.840 --> 2:30:11.280 the most funnest, not the Trauma Dump. So that probably 2:30:11.280 --> 2:30:12.600 the jpeg Maffia album. 2:30:12.720 --> 2:30:15.000 You know, check out Scaring the Hose. 2:30:15.160 --> 2:30:16.920 Yeah, that's a fun one. We have fun making that, 2:30:17.040 --> 2:30:17.240 you know. 2:30:17.800 --> 2:30:20.440 Beautiful. Hey Ghak, bless you Danny, thank. 2:30:20.280 --> 2:30:20.959 You man, you too. 2:30:21.000 --> 2:30:25.640 Brother goes on the line taking your phone calls every 2:30:25.760 --> 2:30:26.480 night ever. 2:30:27.200 --> 2:30:29.000 Goes to his i's. 2:30:28.520 --> 2:30:30.440 Teaching your cloudy life. 2:30:31.360 --> 2:30:33.000 Not an expert.