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Speaker 1: the episode. Danny Brown, what's up?

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Speaker 2: What's up?

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Speaker 1: What's been the most persistent thought on your mind lately?

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Speaker 2: Persistent thought on my mind?

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Speaker 3: I just really been working on music a lot, so

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Speaker 3: just getting back into being like creative and shit and

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Speaker 3: starting to try to like, you know, find my foot

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Speaker 3: and I mean, I guess, you know, I've been doing

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Speaker 3: music for a long time, but still finding new ways,

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Speaker 3: you know, still learning. So I guess that's been the

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Speaker 3: most thing for me, just studying, you know, going back

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Speaker 3: listening to a lot of old albums that I grew

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Speaker 3: I liked it, you know, and try to you know,

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Speaker 3: incorporate that into what I do.

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Speaker 1: What kind of conclusions of you have you come to

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Speaker 3: I think for the most part is don't think too hard.

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Speaker 3: I think when I live in my head too much

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Speaker 3: up in that.

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Speaker 2: You know, that's when my.

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Speaker 3: Least creative, I think, when I just let it happen,

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Speaker 3: almost like a flow state, if you know.

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Speaker 2: What I'm talking about.

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Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, yeah, So when I just get into when

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Speaker 3: i'm not, I feel like I'm not trying hard, when

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Speaker 3: it's just like.

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Speaker 2: A higher power or some just making everything happen.

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Speaker 3: So that's how I've been feeling quite lately, just been

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Speaker 3: really fucking like, you know, showing gratitude to that.

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Speaker 2: I think that's for the most part.

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Speaker 1: Have you figured like I've always tried to figure out

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Speaker 2: You know what I mean?

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Speaker 1: You have you found there are certain things that surround

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Speaker 3: For the most part, it is just what's going on

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Speaker 3: But I got everything going good in my life, even

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Speaker 1: Bad, right, right, right, right, there's almost something the best

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Speaker 1: part about things being bad is that they can't get bad.

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Speaker 2: They're already there. Yeah, but that's just living in your head.

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Speaker 3: Once I just get out of that, you know, stop

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Speaker 1: You know, because I find that when I smoke weed,

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Speaker 1: You know. Do you feel like you in your life

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Speaker 2: Fuck? No, it really got a lot of worse for me.

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Speaker 1: What do you? Is there anything that you've like been

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Speaker 2: I was getting sucked up.

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Speaker 3: But now now I've just been working back, just being

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Speaker 3: Like I already I don't know, I just didn't like it,

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Speaker 3: But now it's just like I'm having so much fun

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Speaker 3: You know now it's back again. It's starting to feel

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Speaker 3: I think when you start thinking that, it fucks with

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Speaker 3: So I always kind of went into making my music

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Speaker 1: When you were like when you think about like the

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Speaker 2: You know about making music. Yeah, I mean it's the

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Speaker 2: Then at the point like why am I here? I

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Speaker 3: I mean, it was something that I always wanted to do.

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Speaker 3: I feel like, I mean, I knew I was fucking up,

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I'm trying to understand why he does that. It's

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Speaker 1: What's ZDP stand for?

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Speaker 5: Because I joined him one time and they's just like

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Speaker 1: What do you do? What do you do outside of

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Speaker 5: So, I don't know. I just work with my two jobs,

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Speaker 5: I do when I release Dream. Yeah, he works worked

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Speaker 2: That's pretty weird.

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Speaker 3: He just makes it rain on kids and roadblocks with

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Speaker 5: I guess, I what did you I I've been trying

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Speaker 1: I want to know what what was his avatar and vr.

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Speaker 5: He wasn't like a meme avatar. We're both in meme avatars,

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Speaker 5: and to be honest, it's been pretty healthy besides this

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Speaker 5: So it's just it's just I don't know.

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Speaker 1: Well, you you met your boyfriend in a digital realm,

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Speaker 5: I really don't understand the games because it's like too

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Speaker 1: it would be a red flag for you. For somebody,

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Speaker 1: it's just.

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Speaker 3: A little creepy, give me creepy vibes, like kids or something.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I don't think he would ever cheat, but it's

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Speaker 5: Yeah, I know he used to socialize, but I would

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Speaker 1: Does he have like a bunch Does he have like

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Speaker 5: No, there, I would consider eighteen still kind of like

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Speaker 2: Oh m hmm. It's a little creepy man, A little

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Speaker 2: creepy me, right, No, not you him.

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Speaker 3: I just wouldn't want to be spending my time all

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Speaker 5: watch something, But he choose to go in the roadblocks

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00:20:04,160 --> 00:20:06,760
Speaker 5: and play games all night. So I feel kind of

446
00:20:06,760 --> 00:20:09,080
Speaker 5: ignored and I'm kind of too drained to fight it anymore.

447
00:20:11,119 --> 00:20:15,200
Speaker 1: Did you, like before calling us, did you have a

448
00:20:15,320 --> 00:20:18,440
Speaker 1: sit down with him where you told him that he's

449
00:20:18,520 --> 00:20:20,520
Speaker 1: spending too much time with roadblocks children.

450
00:20:22,560 --> 00:20:26,040
Speaker 5: Well, if I'm being honest, I kind of talked to

451
00:20:26,080 --> 00:20:27,840
Speaker 5: him like, hey, I was pretty depressed today and I

452
00:20:27,920 --> 00:20:29,400
Speaker 5: kind of mentioned it to you. I wish you could

453
00:20:29,480 --> 00:20:32,760
Speaker 5: like watch something and hung out, and he kind of

454
00:20:32,760 --> 00:20:35,600
Speaker 5: like give me half ass replies and continue playing this

455
00:20:35,640 --> 00:20:38,480
Speaker 5: little roadblocks. So I try to mention it.

456
00:20:39,080 --> 00:20:39,440
Speaker 2: I think.

457
00:20:39,720 --> 00:20:42,480
Speaker 1: I think sometimes you gotta just like like you get

458
00:20:42,480 --> 00:20:47,239
Speaker 1: to give a direct response of like, hey, you are

459
00:20:47,280 --> 00:20:48,320
Speaker 1: spending too much time.

460
00:20:48,600 --> 00:20:51,440
Speaker 5: I feel like, oh no, I've had multiple times. That's

461
00:20:51,440 --> 00:20:54,720
Speaker 5: the thing. So it's just like you teach yourself too much.

462
00:20:54,800 --> 00:20:58,399
Speaker 5: It's just I I don't even want to say it anymore.

463
00:20:58,400 --> 00:21:00,760
Speaker 5: That's why I'm kind of like joining myself dollars from

464
00:21:00,880 --> 00:21:01,800
Speaker 5: both of my jobs.

465
00:21:01,840 --> 00:21:04,359
Speaker 3: So I mean it sounds like to me, if he

466
00:21:04,600 --> 00:21:07,600
Speaker 3: met you on VR chat, he might got a roadbox relationship.

467
00:21:07,600 --> 00:21:09,440
Speaker 3: You might got him with a rodbox bitch or something

468
00:21:09,440 --> 00:21:11,639
Speaker 3: going on. I wouldn't doubt that.

469
00:21:11,760 --> 00:21:12,359
Speaker 2: I'm not trying to.

470
00:21:14,160 --> 00:21:16,639
Speaker 5: No, no, no, I know he doesn't. It's just the

471
00:21:16,720 --> 00:21:20,400
Speaker 5: fact he enjoys hanging out with I don't know children.

472
00:21:20,400 --> 00:21:21,159
Speaker 5: I guess I don't know.

473
00:21:21,560 --> 00:21:23,960
Speaker 1: That's kind of worse than having a Rodbox girlfriend.

474
00:21:24,480 --> 00:21:25,479
Speaker 2: I think he got a roadblock.

475
00:21:25,840 --> 00:21:28,679
Speaker 5: I think they're equal, if I'm being honest.

476
00:21:29,640 --> 00:21:32,040
Speaker 1: That'd be crazy if he had a robox girlfriend and

477
00:21:32,119 --> 00:21:38,200
Speaker 1: he was donating to her using gift card money. Yeah,

478
00:21:38,720 --> 00:21:40,000
Speaker 1: I don't know. I don't know this guy. I don't

479
00:21:40,000 --> 00:21:42,040
Speaker 1: want to put anything on him like that.

480
00:21:42,200 --> 00:21:43,520
Speaker 2: But it's pamping.

481
00:21:46,040 --> 00:21:46,560
Speaker 4: Out here.

482
00:21:47,119 --> 00:21:50,240
Speaker 1: Well let me okay, Actually, here's uh. You guys are

483
00:21:50,280 --> 00:21:53,679
Speaker 1: long distance, right, so you can't even you You almost

484
00:21:53,880 --> 00:21:55,639
Speaker 1: like are spending time in these digital realms because that's

485
00:21:55,640 --> 00:21:57,520
Speaker 1: the only way you can spend time. Where where? How

486
00:21:57,560 --> 00:21:58,080
Speaker 1: far is this.

487
00:22:01,960 --> 00:22:05,600
Speaker 5: He's I feel like people who know him watched this.

488
00:22:05,680 --> 00:22:08,600
Speaker 5: But that's fine. He's in Canada and I'm in Texas.

489
00:22:08,880 --> 00:22:13,000
Speaker 5: But my parents offered because they really like my boyfriend.

490
00:22:13,000 --> 00:22:15,919
Speaker 5: They offer to buy a plane ticket for one of

491
00:22:15,960 --> 00:22:20,000
Speaker 5: us to see each other this upcoming summer. So we

492
00:22:20,119 --> 00:22:22,520
Speaker 5: have plans to meet and stuff. But the way he's

493
00:22:22,520 --> 00:22:26,880
Speaker 5: asking just makes me very unsure about it being successful.

494
00:22:26,920 --> 00:22:30,960
Speaker 5: Because he's choosing a litteral child game rather than focusing

495
00:22:31,000 --> 00:22:31,880
Speaker 5: on a relationship.

496
00:22:32,640 --> 00:22:36,400
Speaker 2: This is crazy. I think you probably need to find

497
00:22:36,400 --> 00:22:37,120
Speaker 2: a new boyfriend.

498
00:22:40,040 --> 00:22:40,200
Speaker 1: Oh.

499
00:22:40,200 --> 00:22:42,760
Speaker 5: I'm trying my best to, like really giving as much

500
00:22:42,880 --> 00:22:44,560
Speaker 5: chances as I can, because I do love him to

501
00:22:44,640 --> 00:22:48,040
Speaker 5: death and I'm the type of person who always puts

502
00:22:48,040 --> 00:22:50,000
Speaker 5: them before I do, like myself.

503
00:22:51,200 --> 00:22:53,520
Speaker 1: Your type of person. You put the person you're with

504
00:22:53,720 --> 00:22:54,680
Speaker 1: before yourself.

505
00:22:56,160 --> 00:22:59,240
Speaker 8: Yeah, of course, before before.

506
00:22:58,920 --> 00:23:02,280
Speaker 1: We go, I want to ask you, what's your name again?

507
00:23:02,920 --> 00:23:06,679
Speaker 1: My name is Seane Stephanie Stephanie. If you were to

508
00:23:06,720 --> 00:23:10,439
Speaker 1: put yourself, if you were to put yourself first, what

509
00:23:10,440 --> 00:23:11,760
Speaker 1: would that look like for you?

510
00:23:15,760 --> 00:23:19,160
Speaker 5: Well, I would honestly keep doing the same things I'm doing,

511
00:23:19,440 --> 00:23:21,960
Speaker 5: working more hours, so I go af forward to move

512
00:23:22,000 --> 00:23:25,760
Speaker 5: out and provide for myself and just not date for

513
00:23:25,840 --> 00:23:26,320
Speaker 5: a little bit.

514
00:23:29,240 --> 00:23:32,560
Speaker 2: I don't know, I'm lost.

515
00:23:32,560 --> 00:23:34,000
Speaker 5: I'm kind of lost in life as well.

516
00:23:34,080 --> 00:23:43,679
Speaker 1: So mhmm mmmm. Well, if you ever want to uh

517
00:23:44,200 --> 00:23:49,960
Speaker 1: use use me as a VR avatar, you can have

518
00:23:50,000 --> 00:23:54,040
Speaker 1: the rights to my Gecko intellectual property and use that

519
00:23:54,160 --> 00:23:59,000
Speaker 1: to find as many romantic partners as that would bring on.

520
00:24:00,800 --> 00:24:02,920
Speaker 5: Oh no, I would, I would pimp with that avatar.

521
00:24:04,800 --> 00:24:07,640
Speaker 1: Danny do you have any final thoughts for Stephanie at all?

522
00:24:07,960 --> 00:24:11,479
Speaker 2: Yeah, I need to find you a real person.

523
00:24:11,600 --> 00:24:11,760
Speaker 4: Man.

524
00:24:13,600 --> 00:24:15,400
Speaker 1: It's hard. It's hard to do in the long dis Yeah.

525
00:24:17,000 --> 00:24:20,800
Speaker 5: I enjoy long distance because I feel much safer because

526
00:24:20,880 --> 00:24:23,600
Speaker 5: my seven year relationship he was very I guess abusive

527
00:24:23,680 --> 00:24:25,600
Speaker 5: and stuff. So you know, you can't really hit me

528
00:24:25,640 --> 00:24:26,320
Speaker 5: through the internet.

529
00:24:26,680 --> 00:24:29,000
Speaker 1: Oh man, I'm sorry to hear that. I'm sorry to

530
00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:34,480
Speaker 1: hear that, Stephanie. Although this s guy Joshin, he doesn't

531
00:24:34,480 --> 00:24:37,240
Speaker 1: seem like that physically imposing of a man.

532
00:24:37,920 --> 00:24:40,920
Speaker 3: I mean, nineteen years old on roadblocks, eighteen hours a day.

533
00:24:40,920 --> 00:24:45,520
Speaker 3: Hell no, Stephane.

534
00:24:45,480 --> 00:24:48,040
Speaker 1: I hoped this was I hope this was in some way,

535
00:24:48,040 --> 00:24:50,280
Speaker 1: shape or form. I don't know that.

536
00:24:50,840 --> 00:24:52,680
Speaker 5: I mean, it's nice to talk to someone about it.

537
00:24:53,840 --> 00:24:55,199
Speaker 1: Dude, is there anything else you want to say to

538
00:24:55,200 --> 00:25:00,240
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go? O, don't

539
00:25:00,280 --> 00:25:02,040
Speaker 1: let your boyfriend play Roadblocks.

540
00:25:02,440 --> 00:25:03,840
Speaker 5: That's all I got to say.

541
00:25:04,160 --> 00:25:05,120
Speaker 1: I have a good night, Stephanie.

542
00:25:06,480 --> 00:25:07,280
Speaker 9: You have a niclone.

543
00:25:11,359 --> 00:25:13,679
Speaker 2: That's weird. I thought Roadblocks was like but like people

544
00:25:13,760 --> 00:25:15,920
Speaker 2: like I don't know, like twelve of or some shit.

545
00:25:16,240 --> 00:25:18,400
Speaker 1: I think it is. I think this guy is probably

546
00:25:18,520 --> 00:25:20,520
Speaker 1: like when he said, we don't. I don't know what

547
00:25:20,880 --> 00:25:23,879
Speaker 1: she meant by a donation game or if it's like,

548
00:25:23,960 --> 00:25:25,879
Speaker 1: I mean, you can like donate to twitch streamers or

549
00:25:25,920 --> 00:25:28,639
Speaker 1: something like that, but I don't. I don't know me

550
00:25:28,720 --> 00:25:30,840
Speaker 1: even even the guys who are like streaming that are

551
00:25:30,920 --> 00:25:32,480
Speaker 1: like fifteen or something like that.

552
00:25:32,680 --> 00:25:35,320
Speaker 2: Like it's kind of creepy. Yeah, it's kind of Creepy'll

553
00:25:35,320 --> 00:25:36,960
Speaker 2: get a little pdfile vibes.

554
00:25:37,240 --> 00:25:41,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, yeah. Uh do you what? What do you

555
00:25:41,680 --> 00:25:42,560
Speaker 1: play on the Steam Deck?

556
00:25:43,920 --> 00:25:46,719
Speaker 3: Well, I've been playing The Witcher because I never finished it.

557
00:25:46,840 --> 00:25:48,840
Speaker 3: I was playing a lot of The Witcher, but for

558
00:25:48,880 --> 00:25:51,000
Speaker 3: the most part, I'm you know, I play a lot

559
00:25:51,040 --> 00:25:51,879
Speaker 3: of j RPGs.

560
00:25:52,320 --> 00:25:55,760
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah, so I'm what what what are you plan now?

561
00:25:55,800 --> 00:25:57,280
Speaker 1: There's a two percent chance?

562
00:25:57,280 --> 00:25:59,480
Speaker 3: So well, I went back and I was playing for

563
00:25:59,560 --> 00:26:05,119
Speaker 3: Soono four, were for Signer four. I'm getting into Starfield.

564
00:26:05,200 --> 00:26:06,600
Speaker 3: I'm gonna start playing that tonight.

565
00:26:07,440 --> 00:26:08,800
Speaker 1: Do you ever play the Switch?

566
00:26:09,520 --> 00:26:12,160
Speaker 2: The Nintendo Switch? Yeah? Yeah, I lost a few of them.

567
00:26:12,359 --> 00:26:14,560
Speaker 1: You lost you lost a few.

568
00:26:15,119 --> 00:26:16,160
Speaker 2: Lost a few switches?

569
00:26:16,240 --> 00:26:18,320
Speaker 1: Where did you? I mean, I guess if you knew

570
00:26:18,320 --> 00:26:19,639
Speaker 1: you wouldn't have, it wouldn't be lost.

571
00:26:19,640 --> 00:26:22,000
Speaker 3: But leaving him in a hotel room one time I left

572
00:26:22,040 --> 00:26:23,520
Speaker 3: a switch in the hotel room. Next thing I know,

573
00:26:23,560 --> 00:26:25,560
Speaker 3: I got a new one and he bought like four

574
00:26:25,600 --> 00:26:27,240
Speaker 3: new games. I'm like, what the fuck? I ain't buy

575
00:26:27,280 --> 00:26:28,919
Speaker 3: no Mario Party. What the going?

576
00:26:29,960 --> 00:26:32,760
Speaker 2: They were in your account and they bought the games, Like,

577
00:26:32,800 --> 00:26:34,800
Speaker 2: I ain't buy Mario Party. Who got this?

578
00:26:35,359 --> 00:26:35,439
Speaker 4: So?

579
00:26:35,600 --> 00:26:37,119
Speaker 2: Yeah? But no, I don't have a switch.

580
00:26:37,200 --> 00:26:37,320
Speaker 10: Now.

581
00:26:37,359 --> 00:26:38,920
Speaker 3: I've been like every since I got the Steam, Steam

582
00:26:38,960 --> 00:26:41,679
Speaker 3: Decks amazing, I got the emulator on it, got a

583
00:26:41,680 --> 00:26:43,400
Speaker 3: whole bunch of game Cube games.

584
00:26:43,440 --> 00:26:47,760
Speaker 2: I've been back playing game Cube game Metroy Prime. Okay,

585
00:26:47,920 --> 00:26:49,440
Speaker 2: That's what I've been getting busy with.

586
00:26:50,640 --> 00:26:52,600
Speaker 1: I'm gonna beat I'm a huge I used to play,

587
00:26:52,640 --> 00:26:55,560
Speaker 1: like in tournaments for a Super Smash Brothers.

588
00:26:55,600 --> 00:26:58,800
Speaker 3: I suck at Smash. I mean I think I was

589
00:26:58,840 --> 00:27:00,520
Speaker 3: better on it. What was it sixty four?

590
00:27:00,960 --> 00:27:01,360
Speaker 1: Sixty four?

591
00:27:01,440 --> 00:27:03,639
Speaker 2: No? No, I think it was Gang Year. I think

592
00:27:03,680 --> 00:27:05,480
Speaker 2: game Cube was my favorite one. Yeah.

593
00:27:05,800 --> 00:27:06,840
Speaker 1: Do you ever play the new one?

594
00:27:07,200 --> 00:27:07,920
Speaker 2: Yeah? It suck.

595
00:27:08,119 --> 00:27:12,000
Speaker 1: I suck the the I'm like kind of a purist

596
00:27:12,000 --> 00:27:12,320
Speaker 1: about it.

597
00:27:12,359 --> 00:27:13,200
Speaker 2: Like the new one.

598
00:27:13,800 --> 00:27:17,880
Speaker 1: It controls a little bit differently than the GameCube one.

599
00:27:18,680 --> 00:27:21,280
Speaker 1: So I'll only play the GameCube one it's just people

600
00:27:21,280 --> 00:27:23,879
Speaker 1: are so good at it, man. Yeah, it's one of

601
00:27:23,880 --> 00:27:24,439
Speaker 1: those games.

602
00:27:24,440 --> 00:27:26,639
Speaker 3: It's just like, Man, you can have fun playing it,

603
00:27:26,680 --> 00:27:29,280
Speaker 3: but then when you play someone that's just fucking amazing thatdy.

604
00:27:29,160 --> 00:27:30,520
Speaker 2: Like, I don't want to play this shit no more.

605
00:27:30,520 --> 00:27:31,800
Speaker 2: Why am I putting myself through this?

606
00:27:32,040 --> 00:27:32,640
Speaker 1: It's not fun.

607
00:27:32,760 --> 00:27:34,000
Speaker 2: No, it's not fun at all.

608
00:27:34,240 --> 00:27:35,679
Speaker 3: Then I was trying to be cool and play with

609
00:27:35,720 --> 00:27:37,680
Speaker 3: love Mac and shit because he was a new character

610
00:27:37,760 --> 00:27:38,400
Speaker 3: at the time.

611
00:27:38,280 --> 00:27:40,720
Speaker 2: And fuck it fucking sucks little Max.

612
00:27:40,760 --> 00:27:42,680
Speaker 1: So you ever sideb off the stage?

613
00:27:43,800 --> 00:27:44,040
Speaker 2: Yeah?

614
00:27:44,080 --> 00:27:47,280
Speaker 3: Always falling off the fucking stage with may do that

615
00:27:47,320 --> 00:27:50,639
Speaker 3: fucking dash punch and just fall right off the fucking world.

616
00:27:53,359 --> 00:27:55,280
Speaker 2: That was pretty good with kirbyat oh back in the day.

617
00:27:55,400 --> 00:27:56,120
Speaker 2: That was my guy.

618
00:27:57,560 --> 00:28:04,159
Speaker 1: Yeah, use that down b move you already know. So

619
00:28:04,320 --> 00:28:11,960
Speaker 1: let's suck to let's talk to MJ. Hello, Oh hello, Hey,

620
00:28:12,000 --> 00:28:12,359
Speaker 1: what's up?

621
00:28:12,400 --> 00:28:12,560
Speaker 2: Man?

622
00:28:12,880 --> 00:28:14,800
Speaker 4: Oh my god? Is this Lyle? Yeah?

623
00:28:14,840 --> 00:28:16,040
Speaker 1: It's Lyle and Danny. What's up?

624
00:28:16,040 --> 00:28:16,800
Speaker 2: Man? What's it up?

625
00:28:16,840 --> 00:28:17,000
Speaker 10: Bro?

626
00:28:17,720 --> 00:28:21,320
Speaker 11: I'm I'm I'm actually shaking. I'm Oh my god, Lyle,

627
00:28:21,440 --> 00:28:24,480
Speaker 11: you have no idea, like, how big of a fan

628
00:28:24,560 --> 00:28:29,880
Speaker 11: I am. I worked all summer and the only thing

629
00:28:29,920 --> 00:28:32,800
Speaker 11: that got me through the first five hours of like

630
00:28:32,880 --> 00:28:34,240
Speaker 11: my ten hour shifts.

631
00:28:34,440 --> 00:28:37,040
Speaker 4: Were you bro? For real?

632
00:28:37,520 --> 00:28:38,160
Speaker 2: Thanks? Man?

633
00:28:39,720 --> 00:28:39,920
Speaker 4: Yeah?

634
00:28:39,920 --> 00:28:41,720
Speaker 1: Can you say something nice about Danny too?

635
00:28:42,920 --> 00:28:45,440
Speaker 4: You don't have to Danny, Danny, you look great in

636
00:28:45,520 --> 00:28:46,840
Speaker 4: the suit. I'm being serious.

637
00:28:46,840 --> 00:28:48,720
Speaker 11: I actually was just checking out your music right now.

638
00:28:48,880 --> 00:28:51,120
Speaker 11: I actually might start listening to you more for real, Like,

639
00:28:51,240 --> 00:28:52,200
Speaker 11: yes to figure.

640
00:28:52,000 --> 00:28:55,080
Speaker 2: Music that warms my heart?

641
00:28:56,640 --> 00:28:57,240
Speaker 1: What's up about?

642
00:28:58,240 --> 00:28:59,080
Speaker 4: Serious? Thank you?

643
00:29:00,040 --> 00:29:00,840
Speaker 1: How's how's it going?

644
00:29:00,840 --> 00:29:01,000
Speaker 2: Man?

645
00:29:01,000 --> 00:29:04,200
Speaker 1: What's what's going on with you? It says that you're

646
00:29:04,320 --> 00:29:10,360
Speaker 1: nineteen from Chicago, You're in college, and you're like finding

647
00:29:10,400 --> 00:29:14,520
Speaker 1: it hard to talk to your peers. It says, is.

648
00:29:14,480 --> 00:29:19,120
Speaker 11: That, yeah, yeah, So I've been in school right now

649
00:29:19,160 --> 00:29:23,600
Speaker 11: for about three weeks and I've only been able to

650
00:29:23,640 --> 00:29:27,480
Speaker 11: talk to one person in my class, and she's a

651
00:29:27,520 --> 00:29:31,800
Speaker 11: pretty cool dude. And the only way I've learned how

652
00:29:31,840 --> 00:29:33,800
Speaker 11: to talk to him is I offered him like a

653
00:29:33,840 --> 00:29:35,960
Speaker 11: piece of gum, Like every single class period that I

654
00:29:36,000 --> 00:29:37,360
Speaker 11: had with him, I was like, do you want a

655
00:29:37,400 --> 00:29:39,040
Speaker 11: piece of gum or anything?

656
00:29:39,680 --> 00:29:41,480
Speaker 4: And he's really cool.

657
00:29:41,560 --> 00:29:43,280
Speaker 11: I mean, he reminds me a lot of my older brother,

658
00:29:43,560 --> 00:29:45,440
Speaker 11: so it just kind of feels like I'm talking to him.

659
00:29:45,960 --> 00:29:50,000
Speaker 11: But other than that, I am just really like I'm

660
00:29:50,000 --> 00:29:53,200
Speaker 11: not diagnosed at all with like social anxiety, but it's

661
00:29:53,400 --> 00:29:56,560
Speaker 11: I find it really hard to like talk to people,

662
00:29:56,800 --> 00:29:58,840
Speaker 11: and like even if I'm like in a store or whatever,

663
00:29:59,120 --> 00:30:01,680
Speaker 11: I have to have like my brother, like my sibling

664
00:30:01,800 --> 00:30:04,360
Speaker 11: hyped me up to talk to like an employee, to

665
00:30:04,360 --> 00:30:05,680
Speaker 11: ask like do you know where this is?

666
00:30:06,200 --> 00:30:09,280
Speaker 4: So it's just it's.

667
00:30:09,200 --> 00:30:12,200
Speaker 11: Kind of hard to like get myself out there and

668
00:30:12,200 --> 00:30:13,280
Speaker 11: like just talk to people.

669
00:30:17,320 --> 00:30:19,680
Speaker 3: I dealt with that a lot, but I had fucked

670
00:30:19,720 --> 00:30:22,800
Speaker 3: up teeth, so I just do want people to see

671
00:30:22,800 --> 00:30:24,280
Speaker 3: my teeth. So I didn't used to talk a lot

672
00:30:24,280 --> 00:30:26,240
Speaker 3: when I was younger because they always teased me and shit.

673
00:30:26,960 --> 00:30:30,720
Speaker 3: But for the most part, I realized that it's almost

674
00:30:30,840 --> 00:30:33,160
Speaker 3: just like putting yourself in a situation and you're just

675
00:30:33,160 --> 00:30:35,160
Speaker 3: being cool enough and people would just like want to

676
00:30:35,240 --> 00:30:38,160
Speaker 3: kick it with you, like when you seem interesting, you

677
00:30:38,160 --> 00:30:40,680
Speaker 3: know what I'm saying type shit where you know, not

678
00:30:40,960 --> 00:30:42,960
Speaker 3: trying too hard, not being a try hard and not

679
00:30:43,000 --> 00:30:44,680
Speaker 3: trying to go out because then that comes off kind

680
00:30:44,720 --> 00:30:46,840
Speaker 3: of creepy. But I feel like, just you know, you

681
00:30:46,880 --> 00:30:48,560
Speaker 3: got to just go with the flow and not live

682
00:30:48,600 --> 00:30:50,960
Speaker 3: in your head, and eventually people would just pop up.

683
00:30:51,200 --> 00:30:51,920
Speaker 2: That's how I feel.

684
00:30:52,280 --> 00:30:54,280
Speaker 1: I feel like there's almost that you have to like

685
00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:56,760
Speaker 1: get comfortable with yourself.

686
00:30:56,840 --> 00:30:57,320
Speaker 2: Yeah.

687
00:30:57,560 --> 00:31:00,280
Speaker 1: First, because if you're if you think that you're word

688
00:31:00,280 --> 00:31:02,760
Speaker 1: and suck, then everyone else is gonna kind of kind

689
00:31:02,760 --> 00:31:03,440
Speaker 1: of catch on to that.

690
00:31:03,520 --> 00:31:04,480
Speaker 2: So you have to kind of like.

691
00:31:06,000 --> 00:31:10,480
Speaker 1: Build that internal confidence, and weirdly it always kind of

692
00:31:10,480 --> 00:31:12,600
Speaker 1: shows in a way. I mean, how do you how

693
00:31:12,600 --> 00:31:13,880
Speaker 1: do you feel about yourself?

694
00:31:14,480 --> 00:31:14,680
Speaker 4: M J.

695
00:31:16,480 --> 00:31:17,640
Speaker 11: I'm man, I'm not that confident.

696
00:31:17,680 --> 00:31:18,360
Speaker 4: I'm gonna be honest.

697
00:31:19,040 --> 00:31:19,160
Speaker 9: Uh.

698
00:31:20,040 --> 00:31:23,960
Speaker 11: I kind of struggle with a lot of body positivity

699
00:31:24,200 --> 00:31:26,120
Speaker 11: and just my looks and everything. I try to take

700
00:31:26,160 --> 00:31:29,680
Speaker 11: care of myself as much as possible, but it's hard,

701
00:31:30,120 --> 00:31:32,800
Speaker 11: you know. And I just I got a new haircut,

702
00:31:33,040 --> 00:31:35,200
Speaker 11: like something that I never did. I got like those

703
00:31:35,200 --> 00:31:36,440
Speaker 11: like modern mullets now.

704
00:31:36,960 --> 00:31:39,240
Speaker 1: But how tall are you?

705
00:31:39,400 --> 00:31:44,160
Speaker 11: I'm just I'm five eight five eight, so I'm.

706
00:31:44,000 --> 00:31:49,800
Speaker 4: Like pretty sure. Yeah, how tall are you?

707
00:31:50,040 --> 00:31:50,600
Speaker 1: Five six?

708
00:31:52,360 --> 00:31:52,560
Speaker 6: Oh?

709
00:31:52,760 --> 00:31:56,880
Speaker 11: Oh you're like my brother? Yeah, My little brother's taller

710
00:31:56,880 --> 00:31:59,360
Speaker 11: than me. And I kind of look to him more

711
00:31:59,600 --> 00:32:02,360
Speaker 11: as like kind of like trying to be like him

712
00:32:02,360 --> 00:32:05,200
Speaker 11: because he's in high school and everything, and he just

713
00:32:05,400 --> 00:32:07,680
Speaker 11: does not care about what other people think or say

714
00:32:07,800 --> 00:32:09,200
Speaker 11: he's the Hills person.

715
00:32:09,240 --> 00:32:11,880
Speaker 4: Ever, you don't really talk. He has like a.

716
00:32:11,800 --> 00:32:13,920
Speaker 11: Group of friends that he usually hangs out with, like

717
00:32:14,000 --> 00:32:18,360
Speaker 11: online and in school, and he's just like, man, I

718
00:32:18,400 --> 00:32:20,320
Speaker 11: don't think like you're too much or like he always

719
00:32:20,320 --> 00:32:23,160
Speaker 11: will tell me do your cringy, dude, you're embarrassing and everything.

720
00:32:23,200 --> 00:32:26,280
Speaker 11: So kind of it either messes with me or I'm like, man,

721
00:32:26,280 --> 00:32:28,200
Speaker 11: I'm doing too much. I gotta like calm down.

722
00:32:29,520 --> 00:32:33,080
Speaker 1: So so, Danny, you said that you've kind of felt like,

723
00:32:33,840 --> 00:32:35,680
Speaker 1: you know, earlier on you had a little bit of

724
00:32:35,760 --> 00:32:39,160
Speaker 1: what he's talking about. But I mean now you kind

725
00:32:39,160 --> 00:32:42,080
Speaker 1: of seem like you have a bit of a you know,

726
00:32:42,160 --> 00:32:45,680
Speaker 1: not giving a fuck what people think about me. What

727
00:32:45,720 --> 00:32:47,800
Speaker 1: do you think changed for you in that cause?

728
00:32:47,920 --> 00:32:50,000
Speaker 3: I mean like it's all about what you're kind of into.

729
00:32:50,280 --> 00:32:52,000
Speaker 3: And I think most of my friends when I when

730
00:32:52,000 --> 00:32:53,920
Speaker 3: I was in school and stuff, it all came from music.

731
00:32:54,320 --> 00:32:56,640
Speaker 3: So it's like I was super into like rapping all

732
00:32:56,640 --> 00:32:58,959
Speaker 3: that stuff, and you know, I used to rap and stuff,

733
00:32:59,000 --> 00:33:01,480
Speaker 3: so I met my friends do doing it. So I

734
00:33:01,480 --> 00:33:03,760
Speaker 3: think it's pretty much about like what you're into, and

735
00:33:03,800 --> 00:33:06,720
Speaker 3: that's where your friend group will come from and that type.

736
00:33:06,800 --> 00:33:08,920
Speaker 2: So what are you into right now?

737
00:33:08,920 --> 00:33:13,240
Speaker 11: I'm actually majoring within graphic design and like art and stuff,

738
00:33:13,720 --> 00:33:16,320
Speaker 11: so I try to like talk to people about like,

739
00:33:16,840 --> 00:33:19,520
Speaker 11: you know, all like this looks cool, or like I

740
00:33:20,040 --> 00:33:21,720
Speaker 11: like a lot of music, so I'll be like, who's

741
00:33:21,720 --> 00:33:25,280
Speaker 11: your favorite artists and everything. Like I don't really listen

742
00:33:25,320 --> 00:33:27,200
Speaker 11: to like pop music because it's just kind of like

743
00:33:27,320 --> 00:33:29,800
Speaker 11: I don't mean to sound like that pretentious like pops

744
00:33:29,800 --> 00:33:31,720
Speaker 11: like or whatever, but it's not for me.

745
00:33:32,240 --> 00:33:33,959
Speaker 1: I think. I think there's there is this thing of

746
00:33:34,040 --> 00:33:38,200
Speaker 1: like creating your own universe that surrounds what you're interested in,

747
00:33:38,840 --> 00:33:41,120
Speaker 1: and then if you take the initiative to do that,

748
00:33:41,240 --> 00:33:43,880
Speaker 1: other people catch on and that's a good way to

749
00:33:43,880 --> 00:33:45,920
Speaker 1: make friends. Yeah, Like when we were just talking about

750
00:33:46,560 --> 00:33:48,840
Speaker 1: you know, Smash Bros. When I was in college, I

751
00:33:48,840 --> 00:33:53,239
Speaker 1: would like put on tournaments and events and stuff, and

752
00:33:53,280 --> 00:33:57,200
Speaker 1: it's like when you when you create your own thing

753
00:33:57,280 --> 00:33:59,720
Speaker 1: around your own interests and invite other people to join,

754
00:33:59,800 --> 00:34:01,720
Speaker 1: its great way to make friends. So if you're in

755
00:34:01,760 --> 00:34:04,800
Speaker 1: graphic design and you wanted to start, like I don't know, man,

756
00:34:04,960 --> 00:34:08,520
Speaker 1: you think about any clubs, starting a little graphic design club,

757
00:34:08,560 --> 00:34:12,320
Speaker 1: a little uh what's the thing where like you show

758
00:34:12,400 --> 00:34:16,840
Speaker 1: up the a crit start a little crit club. You know,

759
00:34:16,880 --> 00:34:19,680
Speaker 1: everyone brings their work and you guys kind of go

760
00:34:19,760 --> 00:34:23,280
Speaker 1: around better something like that, especially if you just started

761
00:34:23,320 --> 00:34:27,520
Speaker 1: college and there's all these like other you know. I

762
00:34:27,520 --> 00:34:30,000
Speaker 1: always always found that starting a club or something like

763
00:34:30,000 --> 00:34:33,640
Speaker 1: that is a great way to get people around you,

764
00:34:33,640 --> 00:34:35,759
Speaker 1: you know, and also you you feel more confident when

765
00:34:35,800 --> 00:34:36,440
Speaker 1: it's your space.

766
00:34:36,960 --> 00:34:39,200
Speaker 3: I also thinks he seems pretty cool to me, like

767
00:34:39,239 --> 00:34:41,480
Speaker 3: he called and talking to us, So I really just

768
00:34:41,520 --> 00:34:43,480
Speaker 3: think it's just him living in his head. That's what

769
00:34:43,520 --> 00:34:45,399
Speaker 3: we go back and think about. Like, you know, you're

770
00:34:45,440 --> 00:34:48,040
Speaker 3: just thinking too hard, man, Just you know, just go

771
00:34:48,120 --> 00:34:48,640
Speaker 3: with the flow.

772
00:34:48,719 --> 00:34:48,959
Speaker 4: Man.

773
00:34:49,440 --> 00:34:52,400
Speaker 3: That's really you know, you putting yourself in the situation

774
00:34:52,520 --> 00:34:54,480
Speaker 3: of being a part of like graphic design. You're around

775
00:34:54,560 --> 00:34:56,439
Speaker 3: a lot of other people that are into the same

776
00:34:56,480 --> 00:35:00,359
Speaker 3: things that you are. So eventually, you know, time did

777
00:35:00,440 --> 00:35:03,880
Speaker 3: nature take his course. You know, if you think too

778
00:35:03,920 --> 00:35:04,400
Speaker 3: hard about it.

779
00:35:04,560 --> 00:35:10,000
Speaker 4: I appreciate that, you know, Yeah, in school started.

780
00:35:09,800 --> 00:35:14,560
Speaker 11: Right, especially, yeah, especially like my little brother and everything,

781
00:35:14,600 --> 00:35:16,719
Speaker 11: because like we're like not too far. He's like a

782
00:35:16,760 --> 00:35:19,280
Speaker 11: little like five years younger than me, so like he's

783
00:35:19,320 --> 00:35:24,000
Speaker 11: like fifteen, and he actually did try to call in

784
00:35:24,120 --> 00:35:27,759
Speaker 11: once and he got shut down because he's fifteen, and

785
00:35:27,880 --> 00:35:30,080
Speaker 11: I was like, oh, dang, I didn't know, like you

786
00:35:30,120 --> 00:35:31,319
Speaker 11: had to be fifteen to call off.

787
00:35:32,040 --> 00:35:33,919
Speaker 4: So he was upset about that. But it's all good.

788
00:35:34,320 --> 00:35:37,680
Speaker 1: It was nice to take a break from hanging out

789
00:35:37,719 --> 00:35:41,000
Speaker 1: with the previous caller's boyfriend too call.

790
00:35:40,840 --> 00:35:41,479
Speaker 2: Into the show.

791
00:35:41,880 --> 00:35:44,640
Speaker 11: Yeah, a man, I don't know what was going on

792
00:35:44,719 --> 00:35:46,279
Speaker 11: with that. I heard like a little bit like a

793
00:35:46,280 --> 00:35:48,319
Speaker 11: snippet of like roadblocks and stuff like that, and I

794
00:35:48,360 --> 00:35:50,720
Speaker 11: can relate to my older brother he plays the roadblock.

795
00:35:50,800 --> 00:35:51,840
Speaker 2: But listen, listen, you.

796
00:35:52,040 --> 00:35:54,919
Speaker 1: You and that guy, if any if you can leave

797
00:35:54,960 --> 00:35:57,200
Speaker 1: this with anything, You and that guy are both nineteen,

798
00:35:57,239 --> 00:35:59,440
Speaker 1: and you sound like you're doing a lot better socially

799
00:35:59,480 --> 00:36:01,880
Speaker 1: than he is. So you have that gun for you.

800
00:36:02,000 --> 00:36:04,840
Speaker 4: Okay, man, I appreciate that, true.

801
00:36:04,760 --> 00:36:06,680
Speaker 1: Of course, Danige. Anything do you want to say to

802
00:36:07,080 --> 00:36:07,920
Speaker 1: MJ before we go?

803
00:36:08,120 --> 00:36:11,160
Speaker 3: Yeah, man, it's just I think a lot of times,

804
00:36:11,160 --> 00:36:13,000
Speaker 3: you know, you just got to work on yourself, like

805
00:36:13,080 --> 00:36:15,200
Speaker 3: confidence is everything, Like you know, you got the new

806
00:36:15,239 --> 00:36:17,920
Speaker 3: cool haircuts, you know, maybe you know, get some new

807
00:36:17,960 --> 00:36:20,319
Speaker 3: clothes and you know, just work on yourself, maybe going

808
00:36:20,320 --> 00:36:22,600
Speaker 3: to the gym, working out once you feel better about

809
00:36:22,640 --> 00:36:25,520
Speaker 3: yourself than everybody had noticed that, then everything could just

810
00:36:25,560 --> 00:36:26,120
Speaker 3: happen for you.

811
00:36:26,200 --> 00:36:26,399
Speaker 2: Man.

812
00:36:26,680 --> 00:36:28,480
Speaker 3: But if you keep living in your head and feeling

813
00:36:28,520 --> 00:36:30,960
Speaker 3: like you're cringey, then of course it's going to project

814
00:36:30,960 --> 00:36:31,640
Speaker 3: the other people.

815
00:36:34,080 --> 00:36:35,440
Speaker 4: Yeah, I really appreciate that.

816
00:36:35,440 --> 00:36:38,200
Speaker 11: I actually did start going to the gym this last

817
00:36:38,239 --> 00:36:41,359
Speaker 11: week because I just look up to my little brother

818
00:36:41,440 --> 00:36:44,640
Speaker 11: so much, because like he's just such a like a calm,

819
00:36:44,680 --> 00:36:46,600
Speaker 11: like cool dude. And he started going to the gym

820
00:36:46,640 --> 00:36:48,000
Speaker 11: with his friend. So I was like, all right, let

821
00:36:48,000 --> 00:36:50,279
Speaker 11: me hop on. My dad was like, all right, if

822
00:36:50,280 --> 00:36:52,320
Speaker 11: you guys want to go, I'll pay for you guys

823
00:36:52,320 --> 00:36:53,359
Speaker 11: to tag on with him.

824
00:36:53,760 --> 00:36:54,400
Speaker 4: And we didn't.

825
00:36:54,760 --> 00:36:56,520
Speaker 11: And now I'm going to the gym, and I think,

826
00:36:56,560 --> 00:36:59,200
Speaker 11: like this week I've lost like maybe like five six pounds.

827
00:36:59,680 --> 00:37:01,120
Speaker 2: You can, that's great, that's great.

828
00:37:03,000 --> 00:37:05,160
Speaker 11: Yeah, so I'm gonna try to keep on that. I'm

829
00:37:05,160 --> 00:37:08,719
Speaker 11: cooking some food right now to lapia, you know, so

830
00:37:08,960 --> 00:37:09,960
Speaker 11: it's gonna be good tonight.

831
00:37:10,760 --> 00:37:11,200
Speaker 2: That's right.

832
00:37:11,480 --> 00:37:12,960
Speaker 1: Enjoy your lapia. I don't know what that.

833
00:37:13,040 --> 00:37:13,279
Speaker 2: Is, but.

834
00:37:15,360 --> 00:37:20,440
Speaker 1: Right it's like it's yeah, well, enjoy your tilapia. And

835
00:37:20,840 --> 00:37:21,760
Speaker 1: thanks for calling.

836
00:37:21,560 --> 00:37:25,520
Speaker 11: Man, good luck, thank you, gig oh and I missed

837
00:37:25,520 --> 00:37:30,000
Speaker 11: your Chicago show. I found out that you existed, Like, I'll.

838
00:37:29,840 --> 00:37:33,800
Speaker 1: Be back after twenty twenty four. I'm coming back to Chicago.

839
00:37:33,800 --> 00:37:34,600
Speaker 1: I might try to come back.

840
00:37:34,640 --> 00:37:36,200
Speaker 4: I heard, I heard, I heard I'm gonna go. I'm

841
00:37:36,200 --> 00:37:38,480
Speaker 4: gonna go with twenty twenty four. I swear, I swear.

842
00:37:38,600 --> 00:37:41,960
Speaker 1: You're coming to Chicago soon too, not that I know about. Yeah,

843
00:37:42,120 --> 00:37:44,520
Speaker 1: go see Dan, anybody who comes to Chicago too. All right,

844
00:37:44,560 --> 00:37:45,040
Speaker 1: take care of him.

845
00:37:45,120 --> 00:37:46,360
Speaker 4: Jay, all right, thank you, sir.

846
00:37:46,920 --> 00:37:47,040
Speaker 10: So.

847
00:37:47,280 --> 00:37:50,000
Speaker 1: I asked you earlier. I was like, do you feel

848
00:37:50,040 --> 00:37:53,360
Speaker 1: like this era of your life is like the best

849
00:37:53,520 --> 00:37:56,240
Speaker 1: it's been? And you said fuck no. But to phrase

850
00:37:56,280 --> 00:37:59,239
Speaker 1: it differently, do you try it to what we were

851
00:37:59,239 --> 00:38:02,239
Speaker 1: just talking about. Do you feel like over the years,

852
00:38:02,280 --> 00:38:06,600
Speaker 1: how's your personal confidence in yourself been? Is that at

853
00:38:06,640 --> 00:38:07,520
Speaker 1: the highest it's been?

854
00:38:07,640 --> 00:38:09,640
Speaker 3: Or I wouldn't say is that the highest because I've

855
00:38:09,680 --> 00:38:12,760
Speaker 3: always I wouldn't. I always had, like, you know, pretty

856
00:38:12,800 --> 00:38:16,239
Speaker 3: confident in myself in some sense. But I think I'm

857
00:38:16,280 --> 00:38:20,480
Speaker 3: just not causing any problems for myself. I think that's

858
00:38:20,200 --> 00:38:23,640
Speaker 3: the biggest deal. But like I say, man, I'm so

859
00:38:23,719 --> 00:38:27,920
Speaker 3: get caught up in my own head as well, and everything.

860
00:38:28,080 --> 00:38:29,160
Speaker 2: Stuff's just been going.

861
00:38:29,040 --> 00:38:32,040
Speaker 3: So good that I get that anxiety of like, ah,

862
00:38:32,160 --> 00:38:34,120
Speaker 3: something just gonna happen to him or whatever, you know,

863
00:38:34,880 --> 00:38:36,839
Speaker 3: But I would say, man, yeah, I was causing all

864
00:38:36,880 --> 00:38:39,240
Speaker 3: the problems for myself thinking I was making things better.

865
00:38:39,680 --> 00:38:42,719
Speaker 3: Not at this point in my life, I'm realizing, you know,

866
00:38:43,960 --> 00:38:47,600
Speaker 3: what the problems were, and the problems wasn't necessarily.

867
00:38:48,480 --> 00:38:49,040
Speaker 2: Maybe it's just me.

868
00:38:49,520 --> 00:38:53,200
Speaker 3: And once you understand, like having that unresolved trauma and

869
00:38:53,200 --> 00:38:55,279
Speaker 3: stuff and you letting go of that. I think that

870
00:38:55,400 --> 00:38:58,360
Speaker 3: was the biggest takeaway from me going to rehab it,

871
00:38:58,520 --> 00:39:01,600
Speaker 3: just realizing where everything is stemmed from. And once you

872
00:39:01,600 --> 00:39:03,799
Speaker 3: were able to find the root of the problem, you're

873
00:39:03,800 --> 00:39:04,480
Speaker 3: able to take.

874
00:39:04,280 --> 00:39:04,719
Speaker 2: Care of it.

875
00:39:04,880 --> 00:39:08,400
Speaker 1: You know, do you what do you feel like the

876
00:39:08,480 --> 00:39:10,839
Speaker 1: root of the problem was.

877
00:39:12,239 --> 00:39:15,120
Speaker 3: A lot of guilt, probably a lot of guilt and

878
00:39:15,160 --> 00:39:19,719
Speaker 3: then not not forgiving a lot of people like I

879
00:39:19,760 --> 00:39:23,120
Speaker 3: can be like bingefol in some sense, you know, And

880
00:39:23,160 --> 00:39:25,759
Speaker 3: once you're just able to be like, you know, look

881
00:39:25,800 --> 00:39:28,719
Speaker 3: at it through the other person's eyes. You know, I

882
00:39:28,760 --> 00:39:31,440
Speaker 3: was able to overcome that. I feel like, you know

883
00:39:31,680 --> 00:39:33,759
Speaker 3: a lot of times, man like even just with you know,

884
00:39:33,840 --> 00:39:37,680
Speaker 3: people with their parents or family members and stuff like that,

885
00:39:37,760 --> 00:39:39,720
Speaker 3: and once you were able to just you know, feel

886
00:39:39,760 --> 00:39:43,520
Speaker 3: apologetic on their end, then you can, you know, get

887
00:39:43,560 --> 00:39:44,439
Speaker 3: through it a lot better.

888
00:39:44,880 --> 00:39:47,279
Speaker 1: You know, were you holding on to grudges that were

889
00:39:47,320 --> 00:39:48,840
Speaker 1: like several years definitely?

890
00:39:48,960 --> 00:39:51,239
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's really what was the big deal you did

891
00:39:51,239 --> 00:39:52,440
Speaker 2: you like.

892
00:39:53,400 --> 00:39:56,239
Speaker 1: Did you forgive in the sense of like let me

893
00:39:56,280 --> 00:39:58,800
Speaker 1: call this person up or just an internal.

894
00:39:58,520 --> 00:40:02,160
Speaker 3: Internally I'll stee I still struggle with that with with

895
00:40:04,080 --> 00:40:07,480
Speaker 3: I don't know, we just calling people, like having that drama,

896
00:40:07,560 --> 00:40:09,600
Speaker 3: you know, like, I don't know, I still I still

897
00:40:09,600 --> 00:40:12,359
Speaker 3: struggle with that, but I've gotten a lot better with it.

898
00:40:12,440 --> 00:40:16,080
Speaker 3: I've gotten a lot better with it, especially with expressing

899
00:40:16,120 --> 00:40:19,120
Speaker 3: myself because sometimes you know, stuff cannot go your way

900
00:40:19,120 --> 00:40:21,080
Speaker 3: and you can feel a certain way about certain things,

901
00:40:21,120 --> 00:40:24,359
Speaker 3: and instead of addressing the issue, you just hold it in.

902
00:40:25,000 --> 00:40:27,320
Speaker 3: And I think that was a that was a big

903
00:40:27,840 --> 00:40:29,440
Speaker 3: That was a big deal with me. That caused a

904
00:40:29,440 --> 00:40:31,719
Speaker 3: lot of problems with me. Now I just you know,

905
00:40:32,360 --> 00:40:34,920
Speaker 3: be open about how I feel about stuff. And you

906
00:40:35,120 --> 00:40:40,879
Speaker 3: realize sometimes man like like people don't give a fuck man,

907
00:40:40,760 --> 00:40:42,960
Speaker 3: and you realize, like you be like man, you know,

908
00:40:43,040 --> 00:40:45,640
Speaker 3: you might think something happened and you know, you you

909
00:40:45,680 --> 00:40:48,239
Speaker 3: try to think from their point of view, and then

910
00:40:48,320 --> 00:40:49,920
Speaker 3: once you really just sit down and talk to them,

911
00:40:49,920 --> 00:40:51,520
Speaker 3: you're like, they didn't really care that much. You know,

912
00:40:51,680 --> 00:40:53,200
Speaker 3: it wasn't even that big of a deal that I

913
00:40:53,239 --> 00:40:54,080
Speaker 3: was making it out to be.

914
00:40:54,239 --> 00:40:57,400
Speaker 2: You know. Yeah. Do you do you like when you

915
00:40:57,440 --> 00:40:57,759
Speaker 2: when you.

916
00:40:57,680 --> 00:41:00,440
Speaker 1: Think of there's like multi year grudges you're talking about it,

917
00:41:00,440 --> 00:41:03,319
Speaker 1: do you feel like, oh, I'm holding onto this thing

918
00:41:03,360 --> 00:41:05,600
Speaker 1: for several years and this person just probably doesn't even

919
00:41:05,719 --> 00:41:06,600
Speaker 1: hasn't thought about it.

920
00:41:06,719 --> 00:41:09,719
Speaker 3: Yeah, that's really what it is when you really get

921
00:41:09,760 --> 00:41:11,200
Speaker 3: down and you talk to me like, man, I didn't

922
00:41:11,200 --> 00:41:12,680
Speaker 3: even know you were feeling like that about that.

923
00:41:12,760 --> 00:41:15,200
Speaker 2: I'm right, I'm saying you like, ah, fuck, and you

924
00:41:15,239 --> 00:41:17,880
Speaker 2: feel stupid. And that was a big deal with me.

925
00:41:18,200 --> 00:41:21,040
Speaker 1: It's such a weird thing how like our brains can

926
00:41:21,200 --> 00:41:25,480
Speaker 1: take certain things and just mess them out of proportion

927
00:41:25,600 --> 00:41:28,200
Speaker 1: in terms of what's reality, you know. And we also

928
00:41:28,360 --> 00:41:32,799
Speaker 1: like you can assume how other people feel all the time,

929
00:41:32,840 --> 00:41:35,160
Speaker 1: and you can assume another person's mad at you or

930
00:41:35,239 --> 00:41:37,440
Speaker 1: upset about this or this and that when they just

931
00:41:38,000 --> 00:41:39,759
Speaker 1: don't get you just projecting stuff onto them.

932
00:41:39,880 --> 00:41:40,120
Speaker 11: Yeah.

933
00:41:40,200 --> 00:41:41,920
Speaker 3: And another thing with me was when I know I

934
00:41:42,040 --> 00:41:46,200
Speaker 3: was wrong in a situation. Yeah, and from me being wrong,

935
00:41:46,239 --> 00:41:48,799
Speaker 3: it'll make me hate the other person eventually, Like, no,

936
00:41:48,920 --> 00:41:51,040
Speaker 3: you know, it's easier to hate someone when you know

937
00:41:51,080 --> 00:41:54,279
Speaker 3: you was wrong kind of thing and just manning up

938
00:41:54,360 --> 00:41:56,920
Speaker 3: and just to step the responsibility for it, you know,

939
00:41:57,080 --> 00:41:59,799
Speaker 3: self accountability. That was really the biggest thing for me,

940
00:42:00,440 --> 00:42:03,279
Speaker 3: was just you know, being being accountable for all the

941
00:42:03,400 --> 00:42:05,279
Speaker 3: fucked up ship that I did, you know, And I

942
00:42:05,320 --> 00:42:06,719
Speaker 3: was able to get over a lot of things once

943
00:42:06,800 --> 00:42:09,000
Speaker 3: I realized I was the fucking bad guy.

944
00:42:09,239 --> 00:42:12,600
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm did you like so, I know you said

945
00:42:12,600 --> 00:42:14,360
Speaker 1: you it was kind of a lot of internal forgiveness

946
00:42:14,360 --> 00:42:16,719
Speaker 1: towards the people who you felt like wrong to you.

947
00:42:16,840 --> 00:42:20,360
Speaker 1: Did you make any calls or do any reach outs

948
00:42:20,360 --> 00:42:23,040
Speaker 1: of people you felt like, oh you kind of fucked

949
00:42:23,080 --> 00:42:23,960
Speaker 1: up there or anything like that.

950
00:42:24,080 --> 00:42:27,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, Yeah, definitely that's cathartic because it feels like a

951
00:42:27,600 --> 00:42:29,839
Speaker 3: weight off your shoulders. Yeah, you know, you holding all

952
00:42:29,880 --> 00:42:33,720
Speaker 3: this you know, internal trauma and stuff like that, overs

953
00:42:33,760 --> 00:42:36,439
Speaker 3: fucked up shit that you did, you know. So for me, yeah,

954
00:42:36,600 --> 00:42:39,560
Speaker 3: it definitely lifted, like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.

955
00:42:41,200 --> 00:42:45,360
Speaker 2: Do you so you're working on new music now? Right? Always?

956
00:42:45,400 --> 00:42:48,040
Speaker 2: Now it's my it's my that's my sweet spot.

957
00:42:48,080 --> 00:42:49,680
Speaker 1: Are you taking Are you taking a lot of this

958
00:42:49,760 --> 00:42:52,400
Speaker 1: a lot this stuff? And correct me if I'm wrong,

959
00:42:52,440 --> 00:42:53,920
Speaker 1: But it feels like a lot of the stuff that

960
00:42:53,920 --> 00:42:57,360
Speaker 1: you're talking about is like fresh for you since rehab

961
00:42:57,440 --> 00:43:02,360
Speaker 1: and and I know you even dropped an album since

962
00:43:02,719 --> 00:43:04,680
Speaker 1: do you feel like a lot of these things that

963
00:43:04,719 --> 00:43:07,520
Speaker 1: you're thinking about in these themes and whatnot, or you're

964
00:43:07,560 --> 00:43:09,960
Speaker 1: gonna try to kind of express that I got.

965
00:43:09,800 --> 00:43:12,200
Speaker 3: An album coming out soon. But I think for the

966
00:43:12,239 --> 00:43:14,080
Speaker 3: most part, with a lot of my music, it was

967
00:43:14,160 --> 00:43:18,040
Speaker 3: almost like trauma dumping, you know, where I would talk

968
00:43:18,040 --> 00:43:20,399
Speaker 3: about shitting my music that I was afraid to talk

969
00:43:20,440 --> 00:43:23,799
Speaker 3: to other people about, you know, And now it's like,

970
00:43:23,840 --> 00:43:28,280
Speaker 3: you know, it's as much as it was an artistic expression,

971
00:43:28,320 --> 00:43:29,200
Speaker 3: it almost.

972
00:43:28,880 --> 00:43:31,120
Speaker 2: Was like a cry for help too.

973
00:43:31,680 --> 00:43:34,680
Speaker 3: And you know, listening to that music is great and

974
00:43:34,760 --> 00:43:36,520
Speaker 3: you know, but I put a lot of comedy in

975
00:43:36,560 --> 00:43:39,120
Speaker 3: my music. So that was the way I masted, almost

976
00:43:39,160 --> 00:43:42,680
Speaker 3: like a dramedy type of situation. But now it's almost

977
00:43:42,719 --> 00:43:46,160
Speaker 3: like I will and it did, because I do get

978
00:43:46,200 --> 00:43:47,839
Speaker 3: a lot of messages from people be like, you know.

979
00:43:48,000 --> 00:43:50,160
Speaker 2: Some of my most fucked up songs, they be like man,

980
00:43:50,160 --> 00:43:51,279
Speaker 2: that helped me get through my shit.

981
00:43:51,920 --> 00:43:54,279
Speaker 3: You know, it's almost like a weird thing. But now

982
00:43:54,280 --> 00:43:56,640
Speaker 3: it's like, I just kind of want to make people

983
00:43:56,680 --> 00:43:58,439
Speaker 3: happy with my music. I don't want them to feel

984
00:43:58,480 --> 00:44:02,000
Speaker 3: sad or feel some feel worried about me type of shit,

985
00:44:02,160 --> 00:44:04,480
Speaker 3: you know. So it's like because I realized, you know,

986
00:44:04,520 --> 00:44:06,120
Speaker 3: a lot of the music that I like growing up

987
00:44:06,120 --> 00:44:08,239
Speaker 3: as a kid was the type of songs that just

988
00:44:08,320 --> 00:44:10,360
Speaker 3: made me no matter what I was going through in

989
00:44:10,400 --> 00:44:12,359
Speaker 3: my life, I can listen to this song and just

990
00:44:12,640 --> 00:44:15,200
Speaker 3: takes me to a happy place. I'm not saying I'm

991
00:44:15,200 --> 00:44:17,520
Speaker 3: about to be making some old corny ass fucking you

992
00:44:17,560 --> 00:44:20,680
Speaker 3: know what, I'm saying that popping type shit, but just still,

993
00:44:20,760 --> 00:44:23,400
Speaker 3: I want to make people feel good, give them that confidence.

994
00:44:23,400 --> 00:44:25,319
Speaker 3: So just make them just forget all their problems for

995
00:44:25,360 --> 00:44:26,800
Speaker 3: that three minutes and just dance.

996
00:44:26,920 --> 00:44:29,160
Speaker 1: You know, do you ever have a song that you

997
00:44:29,360 --> 00:44:33,760
Speaker 1: just like had you had no intention of it being

998
00:44:34,000 --> 00:44:37,160
Speaker 1: a song like that that would like help people in

999
00:44:37,200 --> 00:44:39,279
Speaker 1: that way, and it's just something you just were, I

1000
00:44:39,320 --> 00:44:41,400
Speaker 1: don't know, wanted it to be hype or something like that,

1001
00:44:41,680 --> 00:44:43,799
Speaker 1: and then it was interpreted in ways so you didn't

1002
00:44:43,800 --> 00:44:44,680
Speaker 1: think it would be intern.

1003
00:44:44,840 --> 00:44:47,880
Speaker 3: Just like my album Atrocity Exhibition, that was pretty much

1004
00:44:47,960 --> 00:44:51,000
Speaker 3: I was. I mean, I was really just in a

1005
00:44:51,120 --> 00:44:54,360
Speaker 3: dark place. But I find that a lot of people

1006
00:44:54,400 --> 00:44:57,040
Speaker 3: you know that loved that album hit me up and

1007
00:44:57,080 --> 00:44:59,520
Speaker 3: tild was like, man, it helped them realize they were

1008
00:44:59,520 --> 00:45:01,880
Speaker 3: going through a and you know, got them out of

1009
00:45:01,920 --> 00:45:02,319
Speaker 3: their funk.

1010
00:45:02,719 --> 00:45:02,960
Speaker 4: You know.

1011
00:45:03,120 --> 00:45:05,840
Speaker 3: So maybe I don't know. I guess sometimes you know,

1012
00:45:05,880 --> 00:45:08,239
Speaker 3: people have this whole perception of what artists. You know,

1013
00:45:08,280 --> 00:45:10,239
Speaker 3: we're normal people too, we go through shit too, So

1014
00:45:10,280 --> 00:45:12,000
Speaker 3: I guess people hear like, oh, he have an these

1015
00:45:12,040 --> 00:45:14,680
Speaker 3: same problems in these troubles, you know. So it's just

1016
00:45:14,719 --> 00:45:17,120
Speaker 3: so I'm at such a great space to see people,

1017
00:45:17,800 --> 00:45:20,160
Speaker 3: you know, let them know that I made it out,

1018
00:45:20,360 --> 00:45:23,400
Speaker 3: so instead of doing all this trauma dump and I'm more.

1019
00:45:23,320 --> 00:45:24,840
Speaker 2: So I want to help, you know.

1020
00:45:24,880 --> 00:45:26,880
Speaker 3: That's always tell anybody if you going through something, man,

1021
00:45:27,120 --> 00:45:28,840
Speaker 3: you want to reach out to me. Man, I'm definitely

1022
00:45:28,880 --> 00:45:29,360
Speaker 3: with answer.

1023
00:45:29,719 --> 00:45:29,920
Speaker 4: You know.

1024
00:45:30,760 --> 00:45:35,320
Speaker 1: Trauma dumping though, like when you're when you're being open,

1025
00:45:35,920 --> 00:45:38,759
Speaker 1: it is it is helpful for people because people are like, oh, man,

1026
00:45:39,120 --> 00:45:43,200
Speaker 1: Danny Brown's this fucking cool rapper. God, he's probably like

1027
00:45:43,320 --> 00:45:46,399
Speaker 1: just you know, having sex with models and doing all this,

1028
00:45:46,640 --> 00:45:48,640
Speaker 1: but you know, and then for you to you know,

1029
00:45:48,719 --> 00:45:51,800
Speaker 1: talk openly about things that you're struggling with, people are like, oh,

1030
00:45:51,880 --> 00:45:54,000
Speaker 1: and then there's people who are like dreaming. They're like, oh, well,

1031
00:45:54,040 --> 00:45:57,360
Speaker 1: once I'm like, you know, famous and successful and whatever

1032
00:45:57,360 --> 00:45:59,320
Speaker 1: the fuck, then I'm never gonna have any problems ever. Again,

1033
00:46:00,040 --> 00:46:02,160
Speaker 1: to hear people who are as successful talk about problems

1034
00:46:02,160 --> 00:46:04,879
Speaker 1: they have, they're like, oh, maybe it's not these external

1035
00:46:04,960 --> 00:46:08,320
Speaker 1: things that I have to achieve to reach, but it's

1036
00:46:08,360 --> 00:46:11,080
Speaker 1: something you know, more internal.

1037
00:46:11,520 --> 00:46:13,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, Like I said, I would cause a lot of

1038
00:46:13,000 --> 00:46:13,800
Speaker 2: the problems to myself.

1039
00:46:13,840 --> 00:46:16,000
Speaker 3: But every time I would like make an album, like

1040
00:46:16,080 --> 00:46:18,200
Speaker 3: even now, like you know, having an album getting ready

1041
00:46:18,239 --> 00:46:21,400
Speaker 3: to come out, I would just get this crazy anxiety,

1042
00:46:21,480 --> 00:46:23,760
Speaker 3: Like I would just be so afraid. It was almost

1043
00:46:23,760 --> 00:46:25,319
Speaker 3: like cause you know, once you're trying to get on,

1044
00:46:26,000 --> 00:46:28,080
Speaker 3: you know, it's like joy, like you're just happy any

1045
00:46:28,120 --> 00:46:30,000
Speaker 3: little thing that happened. But once you kind of feel

1046
00:46:30,040 --> 00:46:32,279
Speaker 3: like you made it in some sense, it feels like

1047
00:46:32,360 --> 00:46:34,560
Speaker 3: anything can take it away, right, you don't want to

1048
00:46:34,600 --> 00:46:36,760
Speaker 3: lose that like one and make one trash album.

1049
00:46:36,760 --> 00:46:37,160
Speaker 2: I'm done.

1050
00:46:37,960 --> 00:46:40,040
Speaker 3: And I used to just be so scared, like having

1051
00:46:40,040 --> 00:46:41,400
Speaker 3: an album get ready to come out and be like,

1052
00:46:41,440 --> 00:46:44,600
Speaker 3: oh man, just people think it sucks. Careers about to

1053
00:46:44,600 --> 00:46:47,680
Speaker 3: be over. Maybe I shouldn't have made that, Maybe I

1054
00:46:47,680 --> 00:46:50,920
Speaker 3: should make some more songs and stuff like that. But

1055
00:46:51,000 --> 00:46:53,680
Speaker 3: now it's like I'm just in a happy place, even

1056
00:46:53,719 --> 00:46:57,799
Speaker 3: though this album is a complete trauma do but for me, man,

1057
00:46:57,840 --> 00:47:00,640
Speaker 3: a lot of my favorite albums with musicians from adopting.

1058
00:47:00,760 --> 00:47:02,560
Speaker 1: So I'm trying to get on this. I'm trying to

1059
00:47:02,680 --> 00:47:05,239
Speaker 1: drill into my head this idea that I think. I

1060
00:47:05,320 --> 00:47:10,360
Speaker 1: think sucking and being kind of cringey is not that bad.

1061
00:47:10,800 --> 00:47:14,200
Speaker 1: It's not that bad if you suck. And if everyone

1062
00:47:14,560 --> 00:47:18,680
Speaker 1: thinks you suck, because what whatever? Man, And look as

1063
00:47:18,680 --> 00:47:21,200
Speaker 1: long as as long as you don't like go to

1064
00:47:21,440 --> 00:47:28,360
Speaker 1: jail or get grievously injured or die, you're you're.

1065
00:47:28,280 --> 00:47:29,719
Speaker 2: Probably fine, you know.

1066
00:47:29,960 --> 00:47:33,719
Speaker 1: So like sucking is just in that if you like,

1067
00:47:33,760 --> 00:47:35,399
Speaker 1: I want, I want to get my base. I want

1068
00:47:35,400 --> 00:47:38,160
Speaker 1: to get my perspective to such a point where that's

1069
00:47:38,200 --> 00:47:39,799
Speaker 1: all I care about. You know, if I woke if

1070
00:47:39,840 --> 00:47:46,399
Speaker 1: I woke up today and everyone online thinks I'm you know, cringey,

1071
00:47:46,480 --> 00:47:50,520
Speaker 1: but I can like walk and eat food and stare

1072
00:47:50,520 --> 00:47:52,839
Speaker 1: at the sky. That's pretty good. That's pretty good, that's

1073
00:47:52,840 --> 00:47:53,720
Speaker 1: pretty That's.

1074
00:47:53,600 --> 00:47:56,960
Speaker 3: Really important because for the most part, music is subjective.

1075
00:47:57,560 --> 00:47:59,600
Speaker 3: It's going to be someone that thinks it sucks, it's

1076
00:47:59,640 --> 00:48:01,680
Speaker 3: going to be someone that love it, regardless of what

1077
00:48:01,880 --> 00:48:02,120
Speaker 3: you know.

1078
00:48:02,920 --> 00:48:04,000
Speaker 2: So it's like, man, I used to.

1079
00:48:04,040 --> 00:48:06,239
Speaker 3: Just put myself through a whirlwind of trouble and then

1080
00:48:06,320 --> 00:48:08,400
Speaker 3: getting sucked up trying to escape, and I think about it,

1081
00:48:08,440 --> 00:48:10,040
Speaker 3: and that just caused more problems.

1082
00:48:10,080 --> 00:48:12,760
Speaker 1: You know, when you're when you're on your like deathbed,

1083
00:48:13,600 --> 00:48:14,920
Speaker 1: what are you going to be thinking about?

1084
00:48:17,880 --> 00:48:19,080
Speaker 2: Why do you want to think about my death?

1085
00:48:21,440 --> 00:48:23,879
Speaker 3: No, for the most part, I just hope that I've

1086
00:48:24,000 --> 00:48:27,759
Speaker 3: I've accomplished what I had to accomplish on Earth. That's

1087
00:48:27,800 --> 00:48:29,640
Speaker 3: really what I think. You know, I want to be

1088
00:48:29,680 --> 00:48:32,640
Speaker 3: able to whatever I was put here for to do.

1089
00:48:32,840 --> 00:48:35,000
Speaker 3: I just hope I accomplished a mission.

1090
00:48:35,160 --> 00:48:37,480
Speaker 1: If you if you died tomorrow, hopefully like would you

1091
00:48:37,520 --> 00:48:38,279
Speaker 1: be like we did it?

1092
00:48:39,160 --> 00:48:41,640
Speaker 2: Obviously I did. If I died, it's pretty.

1093
00:48:41,360 --> 00:48:43,120
Speaker 1: Good, all right, So then you can spend so then

1094
00:48:43,600 --> 00:48:45,680
Speaker 1: you know everything and everything else just the bonus, you know,

1095
00:48:45,760 --> 00:48:47,200
Speaker 1: you can suck for the rest of your life.

1096
00:48:47,239 --> 00:48:50,000
Speaker 3: And I feel like, you know, I obviously didn't do

1097
00:48:50,040 --> 00:48:52,080
Speaker 3: what I came here to do yet, So you know,

1098
00:48:53,360 --> 00:48:55,120
Speaker 3: but I ain't trying to think about that no time.

1099
00:48:55,160 --> 00:48:58,960
Speaker 3: So I spend too much time thinking about immortality, you know.

1100
00:48:59,400 --> 00:49:01,720
Speaker 3: So now I'm just, you know, instead of thinking about

1101
00:49:01,920 --> 00:49:04,160
Speaker 3: fucking dying all the time, thinking about living.

1102
00:49:04,200 --> 00:49:04,359
Speaker 4: Now.

1103
00:49:04,520 --> 00:49:05,800
Speaker 1: I saw, I saw, I saw it.

1104
00:49:06,040 --> 00:49:06,359
Speaker 2: I was.

1105
00:49:06,400 --> 00:49:07,960
Speaker 1: I was doing some research on you before this, and

1106
00:49:08,000 --> 00:49:10,680
Speaker 1: I saw someone that road a headline about you that said, like,

1107
00:49:11,560 --> 00:49:12,480
Speaker 1: Danny Brown.

1108
00:49:12,360 --> 00:49:13,920
Speaker 2: Yeah tears.

1109
00:49:14,600 --> 00:49:17,600
Speaker 1: What the fuck is no longer afraid to die?

1110
00:49:17,680 --> 00:49:17,839
Speaker 6: Who?

1111
00:49:18,520 --> 00:49:19,840
Speaker 2: Like, why would you do that?

1112
00:49:19,840 --> 00:49:22,680
Speaker 1: That's a that's a that's a dangerous invitation to the universe.

1113
00:49:22,760 --> 00:49:25,919
Speaker 3: I mean, I guess now, man, Twitter paying people for tweets, man,

1114
00:49:25,920 --> 00:49:28,240
Speaker 3: so they do anything for engagements at this point.

1115
00:49:28,280 --> 00:49:31,080
Speaker 2: You know, Hey you want to take a phone call, sure, But.

1116
00:49:31,160 --> 00:49:32,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, I was pissed off about that. I'm like, what

1117
00:49:32,960 --> 00:49:36,000
Speaker 3: the fuck out of all that long ass article? That's

1118
00:49:36,040 --> 00:49:39,799
Speaker 3: what y'all took from that. Now he has a new

1119
00:49:39,840 --> 00:49:43,279
Speaker 3: album coming soon, nothing else. He's not scared to die,

1120
00:49:43,880 --> 00:49:45,920
Speaker 3: And that really just was me talking about a mushroom

1121
00:49:45,960 --> 00:49:49,080
Speaker 3: trip I had where I saw my grave and I

1122
00:49:49,160 --> 00:49:54,560
Speaker 3: was like, oh, it's not that bad, So what the fuck?

1123
00:49:55,040 --> 00:50:00,239
Speaker 1: Hello? Hello, this is Sam, twenty seven from California.

1124
00:50:00,360 --> 00:50:00,919
Speaker 2: How you doing.

1125
00:50:00,960 --> 00:50:01,560
Speaker 1: How's life?

1126
00:50:01,719 --> 00:50:04,200
Speaker 10: I'm doing all right. I'm doing all right.

1127
00:50:05,960 --> 00:50:07,520
Speaker 1: Sam. What does it you wanted to talk about today?

1128
00:50:07,520 --> 00:50:11,040
Speaker 10: I wanted to talk about growing up in the Mormon

1129
00:50:11,160 --> 00:50:14,760
Speaker 10: Church as a black man adopted into a white family

1130
00:50:14,840 --> 00:50:16,600
Speaker 10: in the California suburbs.

1131
00:50:17,640 --> 00:50:19,279
Speaker 1: Do you know anything about Mormonism?

1132
00:50:19,480 --> 00:50:22,520
Speaker 2: Fuck? No, what I do?

1133
00:50:22,840 --> 00:50:23,360
Speaker 10: Indeed?

1134
00:50:24,920 --> 00:50:27,520
Speaker 1: Well was I was asking? I used you, I assume

1135
00:50:27,560 --> 00:50:29,640
Speaker 1: know a lot about Mormonism, unless if you weren't paying

1136
00:50:29,680 --> 00:50:32,759
Speaker 1: attention while they were teaching you about it. How long

1137
00:50:32,800 --> 00:50:33,840
Speaker 1: were you and were you in the.

1138
00:50:33,880 --> 00:50:38,680
Speaker 10: Church for Yeah, I wasn't until I was fifteen. I

1139
00:50:38,719 --> 00:50:41,680
Speaker 10: got taken out of the home when I was around

1140
00:50:41,719 --> 00:50:44,680
Speaker 10: that age, and but yeah, I was in it for

1141
00:50:44,680 --> 00:50:53,560
Speaker 10: fifteen years. And my entire except for my mom, is

1142
00:50:53,600 --> 00:50:54,480
Speaker 10: out of the religion.

1143
00:50:54,520 --> 00:50:56,839
Speaker 2: Now did you Were you the first one to leave?

1144
00:50:57,360 --> 00:51:01,160
Speaker 10: No, my older brother was. So my parents pretty much

1145
00:51:01,160 --> 00:51:04,520
Speaker 10: gave him the ultimatum that when you turn eighteen, you

1146
00:51:04,560 --> 00:51:07,600
Speaker 10: can stay in the house, but there's no drinking, no smoking,

1147
00:51:07,800 --> 00:51:11,799
Speaker 10: no no no sex before marriage or anything like that,

1148
00:51:11,840 --> 00:51:13,920
Speaker 10: and you're guarantee the spot. But if not, then the

1149
00:51:14,000 --> 00:51:15,960
Speaker 10: a deletes. It's like final I'll join the military.

1150
00:51:17,840 --> 00:51:19,120
Speaker 1: So you left and joined the military.

1151
00:51:20,760 --> 00:51:22,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, that sounds.

1152
00:51:23,719 --> 00:51:25,719
Speaker 1: I don't know which one is worse, between being in

1153
00:51:25,719 --> 00:51:28,560
Speaker 1: the Mormon Church or being in the military. They both

1154
00:51:28,600 --> 00:51:30,719
Speaker 1: sound like a similar level of strictness.

1155
00:51:30,920 --> 00:51:34,960
Speaker 10: Yeah, they're both pretty bad. But one of them doesn't

1156
00:51:35,040 --> 00:51:38,960
Speaker 10: really care if you jerk off at night and the

1157
00:51:39,040 --> 00:51:47,120
Speaker 10: other one, I mean, you know, does different levels of rigidness.

1158
00:51:47,160 --> 00:51:54,200
Speaker 1: I assume, m do you uh where where are you

1159
00:51:54,320 --> 00:51:57,719
Speaker 1: jerking off at night in the Is it like in

1160
00:51:57,760 --> 00:52:01,320
Speaker 1: the bathroom or are you just like in the bunk beds,

1161
00:52:01,600 --> 00:52:03,719
Speaker 1: jerking off like while you're in the same room as

1162
00:52:03,760 --> 00:52:05,920
Speaker 1: all the other folks?

1163
00:52:07,880 --> 00:52:08,080
Speaker 11: Oh?

1164
00:52:08,239 --> 00:52:12,240
Speaker 10: Hell no, that's hell is shameful. Get it in wherever

1165
00:52:12,280 --> 00:52:18,640
Speaker 10: you can. Yeah, I ain't that ship, you know, wait

1166
00:52:18,680 --> 00:52:22,080
Speaker 10: for everyone to go home, you know, wait for one

1167
00:52:22,160 --> 00:52:26,960
Speaker 10: to leave whatever, it's crazy, Hell is shameful.

1168
00:52:29,560 --> 00:52:31,000
Speaker 2: Should suck Dan?

1169
00:52:31,080 --> 00:52:32,080
Speaker 1: Any questions so far?

1170
00:52:33,480 --> 00:52:35,600
Speaker 3: I'm at a loss for words. So you lef a

1171
00:52:35,640 --> 00:52:36,919
Speaker 3: religion just to jack off?

1172
00:52:39,320 --> 00:52:39,520
Speaker 2: Hell?

1173
00:52:39,680 --> 00:52:41,720
Speaker 10: Yeah, come on, now.

1174
00:52:42,320 --> 00:52:46,120
Speaker 2: This is what they have in our armed forces China

1175
00:52:46,160 --> 00:52:47,160
Speaker 2: gonna fuck us up?

1176
00:52:48,840 --> 00:52:48,920
Speaker 9: No?

1177
00:52:49,080 --> 00:52:50,640
Speaker 1: Well I have have they?

1178
00:52:50,920 --> 00:52:51,040
Speaker 4: We?

1179
00:52:51,280 --> 00:52:54,279
Speaker 1: I think what we gotta do is you need to

1180
00:52:54,640 --> 00:52:58,960
Speaker 1: you need to somehow weaponize.

1181
00:53:00,080 --> 00:53:01,919
Speaker 2: Jerking off so.

1182
00:53:01,840 --> 00:53:05,520
Speaker 1: That you can use it as something accomplish some form

1183
00:53:05,560 --> 00:53:09,120
Speaker 1: of biochemical You can use your penis as like a

1184
00:53:09,120 --> 00:53:10,280
Speaker 1: biochemical weapon.

1185
00:53:12,400 --> 00:53:15,000
Speaker 2: You crazy join the military just to jack off?

1186
00:53:17,040 --> 00:53:19,040
Speaker 10: I mean you have to. I mean that's the only

1187
00:53:19,120 --> 00:53:21,640
Speaker 10: reason to join the military. You want to go kill

1188
00:53:21,719 --> 00:53:23,160
Speaker 10: kids in a different country and.

1189
00:53:23,200 --> 00:53:24,359
Speaker 4: Not be able to jack off?

1190
00:53:26,680 --> 00:53:29,799
Speaker 2: You got me there? What do you what do you

1191
00:53:29,840 --> 00:53:30,320
Speaker 2: do now?

1192
00:53:31,040 --> 00:53:33,960
Speaker 1: Are you still in the military?

1193
00:53:34,360 --> 00:53:36,640
Speaker 10: No, no, no, that was my brother. I was in

1194
00:53:36,680 --> 00:53:38,920
Speaker 10: the military. I just I just left.

1195
00:53:39,600 --> 00:53:49,000
Speaker 2: So yeah, okay, I'm terrified at this guy.

1196
00:53:51,080 --> 00:53:52,719
Speaker 10: I mean, see the upbringing man.

1197
00:53:53,239 --> 00:53:53,480
Speaker 6: You know.

1198
00:53:54,760 --> 00:53:55,720
Speaker 2: Are you sure you're black?

1199
00:53:56,560 --> 00:53:56,840
Speaker 5: Weird?

1200
00:53:58,760 --> 00:54:00,240
Speaker 10: Yeah?

1201
00:54:00,040 --> 00:54:00,239
Speaker 11: Yeah?

1202
00:54:00,280 --> 00:54:02,239
Speaker 10: See that's the thing though, because even though I was

1203
00:54:02,239 --> 00:54:04,879
Speaker 10: born in the Bronx, when you're adopted by a bunch

1204
00:54:04,920 --> 00:54:07,239
Speaker 10: of like white people from the Midwest, you kind of

1205
00:54:07,760 --> 00:54:09,000
Speaker 10: sound white. You feel me?

1206
00:54:09,640 --> 00:54:17,319
Speaker 2: All right? I got you? Are you are?

1207
00:54:18,080 --> 00:54:20,640
Speaker 1: Are you happier now that you're out of the out

1208
00:54:20,680 --> 00:54:23,640
Speaker 1: of the church and out of the military, and now

1209
00:54:23,800 --> 00:54:27,480
Speaker 1: you you're jacking off? Is not under monitored? Is not

1210
00:54:27,680 --> 00:54:30,359
Speaker 1: being monitored by any organization of any kind?

1211
00:54:31,440 --> 00:54:34,320
Speaker 10: No, No, I get to jack off freely now. It's

1212
00:54:34,360 --> 00:54:36,200
Speaker 10: it's a good life. It's a good life.

1213
00:54:36,520 --> 00:54:40,520
Speaker 2: Are you with us right now? What was the question?

1214
00:54:40,719 --> 00:54:44,959
Speaker 10: No, that's that's for later. Yeah, a year, come on.

1215
00:54:46,719 --> 00:54:47,000
Speaker 4: Later.

1216
00:54:48,080 --> 00:54:49,560
Speaker 2: What do you want us to help you with?

1217
00:54:52,600 --> 00:54:56,600
Speaker 10: Do you like Lemons?

1218
00:54:58,040 --> 00:54:58,160
Speaker 2: Yes?

1219
00:54:58,280 --> 00:54:59,640
Speaker 1: If yes? If we like Lemons?

1220
00:55:00,560 --> 00:55:01,959
Speaker 2: Yeah, I like Lemons.

1221
00:55:02,400 --> 00:55:03,080
Speaker 1: I like lemonade.

1222
00:55:03,080 --> 00:55:06,760
Speaker 10: And should I make my friend lemon meringue pie this weekend?

1223
00:55:09,400 --> 00:55:12,719
Speaker 2: If you're not gonna jack off, isn't it? I think

1224
00:55:12,719 --> 00:55:13,279
Speaker 2: he just trove?

1225
00:55:13,440 --> 00:55:17,520
Speaker 10: No, no, no, just Lemons, just Lemons.

1226
00:55:21,560 --> 00:55:28,319
Speaker 1: Man, do you feel satisfied by this phone call? Sam?

1227
00:55:28,600 --> 00:55:29,879
Speaker 10: I'm quite satisfied.

1228
00:55:34,960 --> 00:55:35,960
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

1229
00:55:35,960 --> 00:55:37,080
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

1230
00:55:40,200 --> 00:55:45,360
Speaker 10: Don't jack off until lemon meringue pie and leave Mormonism

1231
00:55:45,440 --> 00:55:46,319
Speaker 10: if it's bad for.

1232
00:55:46,239 --> 00:55:51,359
Speaker 2: You, just noted. Thanks man, take care.

1233
00:55:53,680 --> 00:55:57,280
Speaker 1: I mean it's a psycho that I was definitely jacking

1234
00:55:57,280 --> 00:55:58,000
Speaker 1: off on the phone.

1235
00:55:58,080 --> 00:56:00,920
Speaker 2: Oh man, I feel like that's a villain arc.

1236
00:56:01,040 --> 00:56:06,279
Speaker 12: Start like, yeah, and he's got that is a that

1237
00:56:06,400 --> 00:56:08,480
Speaker 12: is quite a quite an interesting villain arc because he

1238
00:56:08,520 --> 00:56:11,520
Speaker 12: has the traumatic childhood of a villain and then he's.

1239
00:56:11,400 --> 00:56:14,280
Speaker 1: Got the weapons training of a villain as well.

1240
00:56:14,360 --> 00:56:18,799
Speaker 2: Yeah, and he's just want jack off everywhere. Yeah, he

1241
00:56:18,840 --> 00:56:19,920
Speaker 2: needs to find a girlfriend.

1242
00:56:20,200 --> 00:56:21,120
Speaker 1: Do you jack off a lot?

1243
00:56:21,600 --> 00:56:24,160
Speaker 2: I used to? What changed.

1244
00:56:26,920 --> 00:56:31,200
Speaker 1: Not being hungover being being just being hungover and make

1245
00:56:31,640 --> 00:56:33,000
Speaker 1: you want to jernk off a lot?

1246
00:56:33,200 --> 00:56:34,160
Speaker 2: I think so it did.

1247
00:56:34,320 --> 00:56:41,319
Speaker 1: Yeah, huh h huh. Would you like with all that

1248
00:56:41,400 --> 00:56:44,920
Speaker 1: adrenaline after the shows? Do you are you a nightly

1249
00:56:45,840 --> 00:56:48,880
Speaker 1: post show jack jack? Are offer?

1250
00:56:49,400 --> 00:56:49,440
Speaker 11: No?

1251
00:56:49,560 --> 00:56:52,440
Speaker 3: I wouldn't say not not, No, I weren't really. I

1252
00:56:52,480 --> 00:56:55,040
Speaker 3: was kind of sleeping but the most But like I said,

1253
00:56:55,040 --> 00:56:56,800
Speaker 3: I work. I'd get some work in before I know

1254
00:56:56,880 --> 00:56:59,080
Speaker 3: what I pass out, but I was. I was taking

1255
00:57:00,200 --> 00:57:03,360
Speaker 3: Valerian root. What's Valerian root? It's just like some Valerian

1256
00:57:03,440 --> 00:57:07,280
Speaker 3: root capsules they say helped with anxiety. When they really worked,

1257
00:57:07,280 --> 00:57:08,879
Speaker 3: it really worked good. So I would get off stage,

1258
00:57:08,920 --> 00:57:11,640
Speaker 3: I take some Valerium route and I'd be calm, like

1259
00:57:11,680 --> 00:57:14,359
Speaker 3: it was. You know, I think jacking off its.

1260
00:57:14,320 --> 00:57:16,640
Speaker 1: More like a you know, stimulant, like.

1261
00:57:16,600 --> 00:57:18,680
Speaker 3: A just like I don't know, something you feel like

1262
00:57:18,760 --> 00:57:22,560
Speaker 3: cuters anxiety or like you just like nervousness or absolutely

1263
00:57:22,640 --> 00:57:24,080
Speaker 3: I don't know. Yeah, so it was one of those

1264
00:57:24,120 --> 00:57:26,920
Speaker 3: kind of things, or like you just can't sleep, yeah,

1265
00:57:27,080 --> 00:57:28,880
Speaker 3: you know, But for the most problem is getting good sleep.

1266
00:57:28,880 --> 00:57:32,320
Speaker 1: On the road. You know, what's this thing called again?

1267
00:57:32,520 --> 00:57:33,160
Speaker 2: Valerian root?

1268
00:57:33,280 --> 00:57:35,440
Speaker 1: Valerium root is that? Can you buy it at like

1269
00:57:35,480 --> 00:57:36,520
Speaker 1: a place or you have to.

1270
00:57:36,520 --> 00:57:37,560
Speaker 2: Order it just like you know?

1271
00:57:38,360 --> 00:57:41,400
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah it was It works because I've had a

1272
00:57:41,440 --> 00:57:45,640
Speaker 1: lot of nights where like, uh, I'm just like jacking

1273
00:57:45,720 --> 00:57:49,280
Speaker 1: off like a like four times in a row or something.

1274
00:57:49,320 --> 00:57:50,920
Speaker 1: They just to fall asleep.

1275
00:57:56,720 --> 00:57:58,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, I've been there and it's hard.

1276
00:57:58,880 --> 00:58:00,720
Speaker 1: In the suit. Because I have gloves on.

1277
00:58:02,400 --> 00:58:03,400
Speaker 2: It probably feels better.

1278
00:58:04,200 --> 00:58:08,120
Speaker 1: It does. Jayden from Wisconsin just had just had a baby.

1279
00:58:08,880 --> 00:58:12,640
Speaker 1: It wasn't intentional, but he wants to know what our

1280
00:58:12,720 --> 00:58:14,160
Speaker 1: advice would be to young.

1281
00:58:14,680 --> 00:58:17,640
Speaker 2: Parents your parent, right, Yeah, you.

1282
00:58:17,600 --> 00:58:19,520
Speaker 1: Wanna talk to you want to talk to Jaden?

1283
00:58:20,880 --> 00:58:22,520
Speaker 2: Men? You got to be a father to your child.

1284
00:58:24,240 --> 00:58:24,880
Speaker 2: It's kind of.

1285
00:58:24,880 --> 00:58:28,920
Speaker 1: Simple, Jayden, what's going on?

1286
00:58:29,520 --> 00:58:30,400
Speaker 13: Hey, what's up?

1287
00:58:31,080 --> 00:58:31,600
Speaker 1: How's it going?

1288
00:58:31,680 --> 00:58:31,880
Speaker 11: Man?

1289
00:58:31,920 --> 00:58:34,920
Speaker 1: I'm here with mister Danny Brown. We're talking to people

1290
00:58:34,960 --> 00:58:37,320
Speaker 1: on the phone. How's life pretty good?

1291
00:58:37,360 --> 00:58:37,520
Speaker 11: Man?

1292
00:58:37,560 --> 00:58:39,360
Speaker 6: How about I mean, I guess how about you guys.

1293
00:58:39,360 --> 00:58:40,960
Speaker 6: It seems like you guys are having a pretty good

1294
00:58:40,960 --> 00:58:41,600
Speaker 6: time on there.

1295
00:58:42,240 --> 00:58:43,400
Speaker 2: Yeah, we're great with chilling.

1296
00:58:45,680 --> 00:58:46,560
Speaker 1: I'm having fun too.

1297
00:58:46,760 --> 00:58:47,840
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's what's up?

1298
00:58:48,840 --> 00:58:50,960
Speaker 4: Well? I called in about the baby. But then I thought,

1299
00:58:51,320 --> 00:58:52,760
Speaker 4: do you guys know what the cowboy kisses?

1300
00:58:54,360 --> 00:58:56,720
Speaker 2: No?

1301
00:58:56,720 --> 00:58:58,440
Speaker 4: No, So.

1302
00:59:00,080 --> 00:59:01,000
Speaker 2: I had this boss.

1303
00:59:01,240 --> 00:59:03,480
Speaker 4: Well, I guess you'd call him a cowboy.

1304
00:59:03,600 --> 00:59:09,160
Speaker 1: But you know how we were talking before, we were

1305
00:59:09,200 --> 00:59:14,400
Speaker 1: talking before going live, and I had asked Dan had

1306
00:59:14,440 --> 00:59:17,000
Speaker 1: asked you if you had never taken phone calls before

1307
00:59:17,120 --> 00:59:19,120
Speaker 1: on your shows. You said you like used to, but

1308
00:59:19,120 --> 00:59:23,680
Speaker 1: there was too much weird shit. Yeah, and then the

1309
00:59:23,720 --> 00:59:25,080
Speaker 1: weird shit this was some of that.

1310
00:59:25,320 --> 00:59:28,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, So what's the cowboy kiss?

1311
00:59:29,520 --> 00:59:31,640
Speaker 6: So it's a grown man.

1312
00:59:32,080 --> 00:59:34,200
Speaker 4: I guess this grown man was about seventy years old.

1313
00:59:34,960 --> 00:59:35,080
Speaker 13: Uh.

1314
00:59:35,480 --> 00:59:37,560
Speaker 6: He thinks you're either doing a pretty bad job or

1315
00:59:37,600 --> 00:59:40,800
Speaker 6: a pretty good job, and he surprises you with a

1316
00:59:40,840 --> 00:59:41,959
Speaker 6: slap first.

1317
00:59:42,440 --> 00:59:45,000
Speaker 10: And then he proceeds to lean in and.

1318
00:59:45,040 --> 00:59:47,160
Speaker 6: Kissy when you don't when you don't expect it, man,

1319
00:59:47,680 --> 00:59:48,400
Speaker 6: don't expect it.

1320
00:59:48,320 --> 00:59:50,640
Speaker 4: At all baffles you.

1321
00:59:52,480 --> 00:59:53,920
Speaker 2: So you got the cowboy kiss.

1322
00:59:55,480 --> 01:00:01,280
Speaker 6: I got the cowboy kiss man. And you know, honestly, yeah, dude,

1323
01:00:01,280 --> 01:00:02,560
Speaker 6: he slapped, he slapped me.

1324
01:00:02,600 --> 01:00:03,480
Speaker 10: I'm not gonna lie to you.

1325
01:00:04,600 --> 01:00:05,640
Speaker 2: And you didn't hit him back?

1326
01:00:08,040 --> 01:00:08,600
Speaker 6: Oh I did?

1327
01:00:08,760 --> 01:00:09,080
Speaker 4: I did.

1328
01:00:09,080 --> 01:00:10,360
Speaker 6: I gave him a cowboy kiss back.

1329
01:00:10,960 --> 01:00:16,480
Speaker 2: Oh okay, this sounds like some form of BDSM.

1330
01:00:16,680 --> 01:00:17,320
Speaker 6: I mean kinda.

1331
01:00:17,880 --> 01:00:18,439
Speaker 10: I mean I didn't.

1332
01:00:18,440 --> 01:00:21,280
Speaker 6: I don't know though, because I didn't like it at first, but.

1333
01:00:21,320 --> 01:00:21,960
Speaker 2: You like it now?

1334
01:00:24,000 --> 01:00:25,920
Speaker 6: No, no, no, I ended up quitting that job, not

1335
01:00:25,920 --> 01:00:28,440
Speaker 6: because of the cowboy kids, but he was he was

1336
01:00:28,480 --> 01:00:29,080
Speaker 6: a crazy.

1337
01:00:28,800 --> 01:00:29,800
Speaker 10: Redneck on PCP.

1338
01:00:30,640 --> 01:00:32,920
Speaker 11: That doesn't never really makes.

1339
01:00:33,080 --> 01:00:36,760
Speaker 2: Yeh, seventy years old, dude, No in.

1340
01:00:36,720 --> 01:00:41,080
Speaker 6: The fucking trees, big ass bucket truck cutting down them trees.

1341
01:00:42,320 --> 01:00:48,760
Speaker 6: Oh wow, okay, cowboy hat on bowl of PCP. I'm

1342
01:00:48,760 --> 01:00:50,640
Speaker 6: not even like fucking with you guys or nothing like.

1343
01:00:50,920 --> 01:00:56,880
Speaker 13: I'm so dead ass right now. Job, I was a lumberjack.

1344
01:00:57,560 --> 01:01:02,280
Speaker 2: Oh shit, that's some that's some hard work right there.

1345
01:01:04,320 --> 01:01:08,600
Speaker 1: How are things going with Your Child's doing great?

1346
01:01:08,760 --> 01:01:12,720
Speaker 6: Right, She's pretty cool. She just likes to look around

1347
01:01:12,800 --> 01:01:15,920
Speaker 6: and sleep and poop and yell at me.

1348
01:01:16,040 --> 01:01:17,640
Speaker 13: But that's okay.

1349
01:01:20,080 --> 01:01:22,440
Speaker 1: You called and you said you wanted some advice to

1350
01:01:22,560 --> 01:01:24,280
Speaker 1: a young parents.

1351
01:01:26,280 --> 01:01:27,440
Speaker 10: Yeah.

1352
01:01:28,200 --> 01:01:32,880
Speaker 1: The how old were you when you had your kid? Twenty? Okay?

1353
01:01:33,240 --> 01:01:34,960
Speaker 1: Was that was that difficult for you or was there

1354
01:01:35,000 --> 01:01:37,800
Speaker 1: any things that you remember kind of being stressed out

1355
01:01:37,800 --> 01:01:38,760
Speaker 1: about or struggling with.

1356
01:01:39,320 --> 01:01:42,680
Speaker 3: Yeah, financially, worrying about how it's gonna take care of

1357
01:01:42,920 --> 01:01:43,280
Speaker 3: for real.

1358
01:01:44,160 --> 01:01:45,600
Speaker 2: So yeah, that was the biggest deal.

1359
01:01:45,680 --> 01:01:48,360
Speaker 3: But I think when you have a kid that that young,

1360
01:01:48,440 --> 01:01:49,600
Speaker 3: you just got to realize.

1361
01:01:49,320 --> 01:01:53,720
Speaker 2: Your life is over. It's over. Brother, party had none

1362
01:01:53,760 --> 01:01:56,080
Speaker 2: of that. The party is over, no more, none of that.

1363
01:01:56,200 --> 01:01:59,320
Speaker 2: Everything is for a kid now. You know, more cowboy kissing,

1364
01:01:59,360 --> 01:02:02,360
Speaker 2: No more cowboy kisses. So it's all about the baby now.

1365
01:02:02,480 --> 01:02:05,480
Speaker 3: So your whole life is dedicated to taking care of

1366
01:02:05,600 --> 01:02:08,640
Speaker 3: this beautiful life that you brought into the world.

1367
01:02:10,200 --> 01:02:12,880
Speaker 6: Man, I got my whole I got my whole own crib.

1368
01:02:12,920 --> 01:02:15,439
Speaker 6: Now I'm remodeling a house cause I ended up getting

1369
01:02:15,440 --> 01:02:18,720
Speaker 6: into this farm, which I'm gonna be buying and it'll

1370
01:02:18,760 --> 01:02:19,320
Speaker 6: be pretty cool.

1371
01:02:19,360 --> 01:02:21,080
Speaker 4: But because it's like I'm buying it on payments from

1372
01:02:21,080 --> 01:02:21,720
Speaker 4: this old lady.

1373
01:02:22,440 --> 01:02:24,960
Speaker 2: And you got a lot going on. But someone just eighteen,

1374
01:02:25,160 --> 01:02:25,640
Speaker 2: Yeah I was.

1375
01:02:25,680 --> 01:02:27,920
Speaker 1: I was gonna say, Man, you're like, you're buying a farm,

1376
01:02:27,960 --> 01:02:30,080
Speaker 1: you're a lumberjack, you're having a kid. Do you have

1377
01:02:30,120 --> 01:02:31,040
Speaker 1: any advice for me?

1378
01:02:34,640 --> 01:02:35,640
Speaker 6: Keep doing you're man.

1379
01:02:35,680 --> 01:02:36,640
Speaker 4: I love watching you.

1380
01:02:36,800 --> 01:02:40,120
Speaker 6: Oh, thanks, Man, got my earbuds in cutting down some.

1381
01:02:40,040 --> 01:02:41,960
Speaker 2: Trees you're doing.

1382
01:02:42,000 --> 01:02:43,160
Speaker 1: I love milk.

1383
01:02:44,000 --> 01:02:46,480
Speaker 6: Oh And actually I called you a while back as

1384
01:02:46,640 --> 01:02:49,840
Speaker 6: rob about my cat, and you told me to put

1385
01:02:49,880 --> 01:02:52,440
Speaker 6: him into the jail for a thousand years. And I

1386
01:02:52,440 --> 01:02:53,640
Speaker 6: think that was pretty good advice.

1387
01:02:53,880 --> 01:02:56,200
Speaker 1: I told you to put your cat in jail for.

1388
01:02:56,160 --> 01:02:57,120
Speaker 4: A thousand years.

1389
01:02:57,320 --> 01:03:00,680
Speaker 1: And look at you now, you're buying a farm.

1390
01:03:00,840 --> 01:03:01,080
Speaker 2: Fuck.

1391
01:03:01,160 --> 01:03:03,880
Speaker 6: Yeah, the cat to come with me though, I can't lie.

1392
01:03:04,080 --> 01:03:06,920
Speaker 1: What's the what's how's everything going with the mom? Are

1393
01:03:06,920 --> 01:03:08,640
Speaker 1: you still with her? What's going on with her?

1394
01:03:09,400 --> 01:03:09,800
Speaker 10: Yeah?

1395
01:03:10,440 --> 01:03:12,640
Speaker 6: Yeah, we're doing pretty good. She's at one of her

1396
01:03:12,680 --> 01:03:15,160
Speaker 6: friend's house. My first night alone with the baby.

1397
01:03:15,840 --> 01:03:18,080
Speaker 1: M hm, this is your first night alone with the

1398
01:03:18,120 --> 01:03:22,080
Speaker 1: baby and you're supposed to be taking care of the baby.

1399
01:03:22,120 --> 01:03:23,440
Speaker 2: Man, I'm holder right now.

1400
01:03:23,960 --> 01:03:27,160
Speaker 6: Okay an I gave her a bottle action right before

1401
01:03:27,160 --> 01:03:27,760
Speaker 6: you guys answered.

1402
01:03:27,760 --> 01:03:28,480
Speaker 4: That was pretty cool.

1403
01:03:28,920 --> 01:03:30,360
Speaker 2: Good job man, good job.

1404
01:03:30,920 --> 01:03:33,520
Speaker 1: Yeah. I think you're gonna be fine. Yeah, you sound

1405
01:03:33,600 --> 01:03:36,320
Speaker 1: like a great you sound I wish you were my dad.

1406
01:03:38,280 --> 01:03:38,840
Speaker 4: I will be.

1407
01:03:40,320 --> 01:03:41,480
Speaker 6: Let me the adoption paper.

1408
01:03:42,360 --> 01:03:45,720
Speaker 1: That's cool, all right, I'm moving. I i'd love to, hey, man,

1409
01:03:45,800 --> 01:03:48,560
Speaker 1: if you prepare a nice bale of hay for me,

1410
01:03:49,280 --> 01:03:51,760
Speaker 1: I'll live in your farm, be your son.

1411
01:03:52,320 --> 01:03:55,560
Speaker 6: I don't mind. I'll give you two bails a hey,

1412
01:03:55,680 --> 01:03:56,280
Speaker 6: how about that.

1413
01:04:02,280 --> 01:04:06,920
Speaker 1: Well, Jayden, damn, you actually really do sound like you

1414
01:04:06,920 --> 01:04:09,280
Speaker 1: have you are you? I I I genuinely you sound

1415
01:04:09,360 --> 01:04:10,800
Speaker 1: like you're gonna be okay. I'm not worried about you

1416
01:04:10,880 --> 01:04:11,160
Speaker 1: at all.

1417
01:04:12,800 --> 01:04:13,880
Speaker 6: Fuck yeah, thank you.

1418
01:04:13,960 --> 01:04:14,800
Speaker 4: I appreciate that.

1419
01:04:15,520 --> 01:04:18,800
Speaker 1: I'm any other final words for Jaden.

1420
01:04:19,640 --> 01:04:21,960
Speaker 3: Yeah, Man, just like I told him, Man, everything is

1421
01:04:22,000 --> 01:04:24,000
Speaker 3: about the baby, not man. Your life is over.

1422
01:04:27,240 --> 01:04:28,760
Speaker 4: Man, you sound like Drewski.

1423
01:04:33,480 --> 01:04:34,680
Speaker 1: All right, take care of jidd.

1424
01:04:36,120 --> 01:04:36,400
Speaker 4: You too.

1425
01:04:36,480 --> 01:04:36,640
Speaker 2: Man.

1426
01:04:36,640 --> 01:04:37,480
Speaker 11: It's awesome talking to you.

1427
01:04:38,160 --> 01:04:43,320
Speaker 1: Talking to man. Well, it's it's funny. I believe the

1428
01:04:43,320 --> 01:04:46,760
Speaker 1: same thing, right, Like, when you have a kid, your

1429
01:04:46,800 --> 01:04:49,680
Speaker 1: life is pretty much over. But that doesn't seem like

1430
01:04:49,840 --> 01:04:53,240
Speaker 1: it was the case for you. You've seen You've lived

1431
01:04:53,600 --> 01:04:55,160
Speaker 1: a full life up until this point.

1432
01:04:55,160 --> 01:04:57,560
Speaker 3: Mean, I wasn't a lumberjack at eighteen. I was selling cracks,

1433
01:04:59,600 --> 01:05:01,800
Speaker 3: but I have I had young parents, you know. My

1434
01:05:01,800 --> 01:05:04,160
Speaker 3: mom was eighteen when she had me. My dad was sixteen,

1435
01:05:04,640 --> 01:05:09,240
Speaker 3: and look how it turned out. So yeah, fucked up.

1436
01:05:09,800 --> 01:05:12,360
Speaker 3: But no, Man, and my parents they partied every weekend

1437
01:05:12,760 --> 01:05:15,360
Speaker 3: type shit. Yeah, So that's what I'm saying. Like that

1438
01:05:15,440 --> 01:05:18,080
Speaker 3: was where a lot of my fucking you know, a

1439
01:05:18,080 --> 01:05:20,560
Speaker 3: lot of I got into a lot of trouble because

1440
01:05:20,600 --> 01:05:20,840
Speaker 3: of that.

1441
01:05:20,880 --> 01:05:24,040
Speaker 1: You know, are you still are your your parents still around?

1442
01:05:24,280 --> 01:05:24,440
Speaker 6: Yeah?

1443
01:05:24,520 --> 01:05:25,240
Speaker 2: Yeah, definitely? Are you?

1444
01:05:25,240 --> 01:05:26,000
Speaker 1: Are you still cool with them?

1445
01:05:26,040 --> 01:05:26,200
Speaker 8: Yeah?

1446
01:05:26,240 --> 01:05:27,240
Speaker 2: Yeah? Oh good? Good?

1447
01:05:27,240 --> 01:05:28,800
Speaker 1: Have you and liked? Were you cool with them in

1448
01:05:28,840 --> 01:05:29,400
Speaker 1: your whole life?

1449
01:05:29,840 --> 01:05:30,120
Speaker 2: Mmm?

1450
01:05:30,280 --> 01:05:32,440
Speaker 3: You know, I guess it's just like everything else it's been.

1451
01:05:32,800 --> 01:05:35,640
Speaker 3: When I was fucking up, you know, you know, it

1452
01:05:35,680 --> 01:05:38,400
Speaker 3: was always button heads with my mom or well me

1453
01:05:38,440 --> 01:05:38,919
Speaker 3: and my dad.

1454
01:05:39,000 --> 01:05:41,320
Speaker 2: We got really close. So this is good. It's good.

1455
01:05:41,560 --> 01:05:42,680
Speaker 1: How things going with your daughter?

1456
01:05:42,720 --> 01:05:43,600
Speaker 2: Now? She's great.

1457
01:05:43,640 --> 01:05:45,919
Speaker 3: She just was out here not too long ago, hanging out.

1458
01:05:46,080 --> 01:05:47,640
Speaker 3: You know, she's twenty two now.

1459
01:05:47,720 --> 01:05:49,040
Speaker 2: Oh cool, So she's grown.

1460
01:05:49,320 --> 01:05:52,360
Speaker 1: What's her like? What she do? What's her what's her deal.

1461
01:05:52,120 --> 01:05:54,000
Speaker 2: With she's into like photography and shit?

1462
01:05:54,240 --> 01:05:54,680
Speaker 1: Oh cool?

1463
01:05:54,840 --> 01:05:57,320
Speaker 2: You know she come out here, she go thrifting and shiit,

1464
01:05:57,640 --> 01:05:58,160
Speaker 2: same shit.

1465
01:05:58,320 --> 01:05:58,520
Speaker 4: You know.

1466
01:06:01,440 --> 01:06:03,760
Speaker 1: Now when you said you were twenty and you had

1467
01:06:03,760 --> 01:06:07,440
Speaker 1: her and you were like and then the main issue

1468
01:06:07,520 --> 01:06:09,480
Speaker 1: was just like financial stuff.

1469
01:06:09,880 --> 01:06:11,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, and then me and her mom wasn't together, so

1470
01:06:12,120 --> 01:06:15,240
Speaker 3: just that whole hard part of just being able to

1471
01:06:15,240 --> 01:06:17,120
Speaker 3: see her and being around her and stuff like that.

1472
01:06:17,200 --> 01:06:18,880
Speaker 2: But then you know, we eventually worked it out.

1473
01:06:19,720 --> 01:06:21,840
Speaker 3: But I mean, I like, I had a lot of

1474
01:06:21,880 --> 01:06:25,440
Speaker 3: crazy shit, Like I had my first well, I was

1475
01:06:25,480 --> 01:06:28,880
Speaker 3: having my first child at sixteen, and the mom was

1476
01:06:30,320 --> 01:06:33,440
Speaker 3: she went nine months and didn't had a miscarriage and

1477
01:06:33,480 --> 01:06:36,800
Speaker 3: the baby died. And I struggled with that for a

1478
01:06:36,800 --> 01:06:39,040
Speaker 3: long time. Didn't really realize how much it affected me

1479
01:06:39,040 --> 01:06:40,800
Speaker 3: because I was like running around in the streets at

1480
01:06:40,800 --> 01:06:43,520
Speaker 3: the time. But once I really got older, I was like, man,

1481
01:06:43,560 --> 01:06:46,080
Speaker 3: I was I went through a real something that really

1482
01:06:46,160 --> 01:06:47,880
Speaker 3: shaped my life for the rest you know what I'm saying,

1483
01:06:47,920 --> 01:06:50,000
Speaker 3: for the rest of my life, and it really Yeah,

1484
01:06:50,120 --> 01:06:52,480
Speaker 3: just dealing with that in high school, you were supposed

1485
01:06:52,480 --> 01:06:54,880
Speaker 3: to be thinking about fucking homework and graduating and shit

1486
01:06:54,920 --> 01:06:57,240
Speaker 3: like that, and I'm running around selling drugs having babies,

1487
01:06:57,440 --> 01:06:59,680
Speaker 3: you know, So that was really hard.

1488
01:07:00,720 --> 01:07:02,280
Speaker 1: Was there was there like a point in your life

1489
01:07:02,280 --> 01:07:04,560
Speaker 1: where even even now, where like you were thinking a

1490
01:07:04,600 --> 01:07:08,320
Speaker 1: lot about things from high school in your early life

1491
01:07:08,400 --> 01:07:11,880
Speaker 1: and being like having that realization that they still affected

1492
01:07:11,880 --> 01:07:12,480
Speaker 1: you to this day.

1493
01:07:12,640 --> 01:07:15,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, definitely. I always think about how shit would have

1494
01:07:15,240 --> 01:07:16,960
Speaker 3: turned out if I just would have did the right thing.

1495
01:07:17,080 --> 01:07:18,760
Speaker 3: I mean, maybe I wouldn't be here right now, maybe

1496
01:07:18,760 --> 01:07:21,160
Speaker 3: I wouldn't be making music or anything, you know. Like

1497
01:07:21,200 --> 01:07:22,960
Speaker 3: I think about that all the time, Like, you know,

1498
01:07:23,200 --> 01:07:25,320
Speaker 3: there's a gift and a curse in some sense. You know,

1499
01:07:25,640 --> 01:07:27,200
Speaker 3: if I would have had a baby at sixteen, I

1500
01:07:27,240 --> 01:07:29,560
Speaker 3: probably would have been working some bullshit job right now.

1501
01:07:29,960 --> 01:07:32,600
Speaker 3: You know, I wouldn't have been able to fucking follow

1502
01:07:32,640 --> 01:07:34,960
Speaker 3: my dreams of making music, you know. So it was

1503
01:07:35,000 --> 01:07:37,320
Speaker 3: almost like that's my angel in the sky, like you know,

1504
01:07:37,840 --> 01:07:39,480
Speaker 3: getting me through life kind of.

1505
01:07:39,400 --> 01:07:39,960
Speaker 2: Shit, you know.

1506
01:07:40,160 --> 01:07:43,480
Speaker 1: And that at twenty was it like was it was

1507
01:07:43,520 --> 01:07:46,080
Speaker 1: it an intentional decision to have a.

1508
01:07:46,120 --> 01:07:50,439
Speaker 3: Care Definitely, but I think yeah, we was going through

1509
01:07:50,440 --> 01:07:53,360
Speaker 3: the trauma of losing that one, so yeah, it was.

1510
01:07:53,560 --> 01:07:55,720
Speaker 3: I mean, I wouldn't say it was intentional, but you know,

1511
01:07:55,920 --> 01:07:56,640
Speaker 3: I'm pretty sure.

1512
01:07:56,800 --> 01:08:00,840
Speaker 1: H So the it was the same girl at sixteen, Yeah,

1513
01:08:01,040 --> 01:08:07,000
Speaker 1: okay do you And and was it like right sort

1514
01:08:07,040 --> 01:08:09,720
Speaker 1: of after you had the kid that things started going

1515
01:08:09,760 --> 01:08:10,560
Speaker 1: to arrive with her?

1516
01:08:10,600 --> 01:08:13,480
Speaker 3: No, we was already it was like before there even

1517
01:08:13,920 --> 01:08:15,840
Speaker 3: any of that happened. It was like we were already

1518
01:08:15,920 --> 01:08:17,960
Speaker 3: kind of like you know, you know, you is when

1519
01:08:17,960 --> 01:08:20,720
Speaker 3: you're young. I was running around, she was doing every

1520
01:08:20,760 --> 01:08:23,040
Speaker 3: thing too, and it was just you know, we were

1521
01:08:23,080 --> 01:08:26,160
Speaker 3: still fooling around and just ended up happening. But then

1522
01:08:26,200 --> 01:08:28,439
Speaker 3: we ended up. We was together, we got back together

1523
01:08:28,520 --> 01:08:30,840
Speaker 3: for some years. We was together for a long time,

1524
01:08:31,800 --> 01:08:35,000
Speaker 3: and then I just was a piece of shit, you know,

1525
01:08:35,760 --> 01:08:39,240
Speaker 3: I was. I wasn't really ready for that kind of thing,

1526
01:08:39,520 --> 01:08:42,240
Speaker 3: Like I wasn't ready for like a I just didn't understand.

1527
01:08:42,240 --> 01:08:43,960
Speaker 3: I'm like I said, I came from young parents, so

1528
01:08:44,000 --> 01:08:46,960
Speaker 3: I didn't even understand what it takes to have a family,

1529
01:08:47,880 --> 01:08:50,439
Speaker 3: you know, so I just think, you know, like a

1530
01:08:50,439 --> 01:08:52,840
Speaker 3: lot of fucked up part on me. You know, still

1531
01:08:52,920 --> 01:08:53,799
Speaker 3: I was still trying.

1532
01:08:53,560 --> 01:08:54,960
Speaker 2: To be young too. You know.

1533
01:08:55,600 --> 01:08:58,800
Speaker 1: It's a wild thing because I I feel like if you,

1534
01:08:59,040 --> 01:09:04,800
Speaker 1: if you like have a kid, your life it is hard.

1535
01:09:04,840 --> 01:09:06,559
Speaker 1: It's like it's about the kid.

1536
01:09:06,920 --> 01:09:09,080
Speaker 2: But I don't know.

1537
01:09:09,120 --> 01:09:11,640
Speaker 1: I'm now I'm thinking about Jaden, and you know, he

1538
01:09:11,720 --> 01:09:14,920
Speaker 1: really did seem like, yeah, he had it together like me.

1539
01:09:15,040 --> 01:09:18,040
Speaker 3: I was running around so like even you know, having

1540
01:09:18,040 --> 01:09:20,880
Speaker 3: a kid and trying to sell drugs, like any day

1541
01:09:21,160 --> 01:09:22,559
Speaker 3: the ship could have been overwhere and I could have

1542
01:09:22,560 --> 01:09:25,439
Speaker 3: been in jail, which happened. I went to jail for

1543
01:09:25,479 --> 01:09:27,280
Speaker 3: a year, and that's pretty much how we split up.

1544
01:09:28,080 --> 01:09:30,360
Speaker 3: She met somebody else and moved on, you know, type shit,

1545
01:09:30,560 --> 01:09:33,080
Speaker 3: and then you know, I got out. It's hard to

1546
01:09:33,120 --> 01:09:35,720
Speaker 3: see my daughter and this and that, and just hard

1547
01:09:35,720 --> 01:09:38,679
Speaker 3: to keep that relationship going. And but it did give

1548
01:09:38,720 --> 01:09:41,760
Speaker 3: me a drive to make it in music though, like

1549
01:09:42,160 --> 01:09:44,960
Speaker 3: you know, it was almost like just like I got it,

1550
01:09:45,200 --> 01:09:47,240
Speaker 3: I had nothing else going for me. You know, I

1551
01:09:47,439 --> 01:09:51,080
Speaker 3: dropped out of school, didn't have any education really, and

1552
01:09:51,240 --> 01:09:53,200
Speaker 3: all I knew how to do was fucking sell drugs

1553
01:09:53,200 --> 01:09:54,040
Speaker 3: at that point.

1554
01:09:53,880 --> 01:09:54,599
Speaker 2: To get money.

1555
01:09:55,040 --> 01:09:57,200
Speaker 3: I was trying to get like normal jobs and shit,

1556
01:09:57,360 --> 01:10:01,559
Speaker 3: and just working like normal jobs up fuck and just couldn't.

1557
01:10:01,840 --> 01:10:07,680
Speaker 3: I'm not like built the labor, but you.

1558
01:10:07,400 --> 01:10:10,840
Speaker 1: There's but there's there's something of like you were built

1559
01:10:10,880 --> 01:10:14,160
Speaker 1: to be an entrepreneur. You know, you were a built

1560
01:10:14,200 --> 01:10:16,920
Speaker 1: to like make it for yourself, but not like you know,

1561
01:10:17,000 --> 01:10:17,519
Speaker 1: working But.

1562
01:10:17,479 --> 01:10:19,760
Speaker 3: It did get me that drive, though, I would say,

1563
01:10:19,800 --> 01:10:22,799
Speaker 3: because I was like I would take twelve hour greyhound

1564
01:10:22,800 --> 01:10:25,640
Speaker 3: trips to New York with the bag of CDs and

1565
01:10:26,400 --> 01:10:28,920
Speaker 3: just trying to network this days before like cell phones

1566
01:10:28,960 --> 01:10:30,400
Speaker 3: and shit, I'm going out there without a phone.

1567
01:10:30,439 --> 01:10:32,759
Speaker 1: Were you like doing the thing like I went to Square,

1568
01:10:32,760 --> 01:10:34,760
Speaker 1: like handing out CDs and stuff.

1569
01:10:34,479 --> 01:10:36,200
Speaker 3: In the beginning, Yeah, but then I had met an

1570
01:10:36,200 --> 01:10:38,800
Speaker 3: A and R that worked at Death Jam. So then

1571
01:10:38,840 --> 01:10:40,439
Speaker 3: I had that connection with him, and then I would

1572
01:10:40,479 --> 01:10:42,519
Speaker 3: talk to him and I'll come out sometimes I'll just

1573
01:10:42,520 --> 01:10:45,200
Speaker 3: pop up on him, but I come out here and

1574
01:10:45,240 --> 01:10:47,360
Speaker 3: then he'll let me like crash at his crib and

1575
01:10:47,400 --> 01:10:49,719
Speaker 3: we'd like take me around the studios and shit. And

1576
01:10:49,760 --> 01:10:52,080
Speaker 3: that's really how it all started for me. And then

1577
01:10:52,120 --> 01:10:55,000
Speaker 3: I just was making music, you know, and you know,

1578
01:10:55,640 --> 01:10:58,280
Speaker 3: people getting up on my ship and shit, like just

1579
01:10:58,280 --> 01:11:01,080
Speaker 3: making connections kind of, you know. And then I actually

1580
01:11:01,160 --> 01:11:02,280
Speaker 3: just saw him not too long ago. We were in

1581
01:11:02,320 --> 01:11:05,880
Speaker 3: New York and then ended up going to jail.

1582
01:11:07,000 --> 01:11:09,360
Speaker 2: I lost that ship. Then I came when I got

1583
01:11:09,360 --> 01:11:09,920
Speaker 2: back out, it.

1584
01:11:09,880 --> 01:11:11,880
Speaker 1: Was this was this you had like a kind of

1585
01:11:11,920 --> 01:11:14,160
Speaker 1: like a recording.

1586
01:11:13,640 --> 01:11:15,720
Speaker 2: I mean, you know, just networking and building with him.

1587
01:11:16,000 --> 01:11:16,240
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1588
01:11:16,320 --> 01:11:20,160
Speaker 3: Once I but this was like way before like internet

1589
01:11:20,280 --> 01:11:23,960
Speaker 3: shit kind of, you know. So the main deal would

1590
01:11:23,960 --> 01:11:26,200
Speaker 3: be like you know, I would go out to New

1591
01:11:26,280 --> 01:11:29,639
Speaker 3: York and then people are like hit back, like seeing

1592
01:11:29,800 --> 01:11:31,519
Speaker 3: you know, hit up, like people in Detroit and like

1593
01:11:31,520 --> 01:11:32,800
Speaker 3: you heard it as kid and this and that, and

1594
01:11:32,840 --> 01:11:35,320
Speaker 3: then nobody knew who I was. So it was almost

1595
01:11:35,360 --> 01:11:36,519
Speaker 3: like when I got a jug, like I got to

1596
01:11:36,520 --> 01:11:38,920
Speaker 3: make my name known in my city before I can

1597
01:11:38,960 --> 01:11:41,040
Speaker 3: take it anywhere else. So that's what I did once

1598
01:11:41,040 --> 01:11:42,400
Speaker 3: I got out of jail. I would like go to

1599
01:11:42,520 --> 01:11:45,080
Speaker 3: open my aches and you know, just make music and

1600
01:11:45,080 --> 01:11:47,840
Speaker 3: put it out. And then the internet things start taking off,

1601
01:11:47,880 --> 01:11:50,280
Speaker 3: you know, getting my music on blogs and stuff like that,

1602
01:11:50,360 --> 01:11:53,519
Speaker 3: and then everything just kind of came together because I

1603
01:11:53,520 --> 01:11:55,320
Speaker 3: already had like the connections in New York, and then

1604
01:11:55,320 --> 01:11:57,040
Speaker 3: once I got my name up in my city, then

1605
01:11:57,120 --> 01:11:59,280
Speaker 3: everything just like opened up for me.

1606
01:11:59,760 --> 01:12:01,960
Speaker 1: Do you do you ever think about, you know, what

1607
01:12:02,000 --> 01:12:04,479
Speaker 1: you would be doing if if it wasn't for music,

1608
01:12:04,640 --> 01:12:08,720
Speaker 1: or even if even like any other like positive thing

1609
01:12:08,760 --> 01:12:11,840
Speaker 1: you would have, you would have sunk your your your

1610
01:12:11,840 --> 01:12:13,040
Speaker 1: work ethic into.

1611
01:12:13,040 --> 01:12:14,920
Speaker 2: Honestly, I can't. I can't think so.

1612
01:12:15,040 --> 01:12:18,040
Speaker 3: I don't think so, because like most of my friends

1613
01:12:18,040 --> 01:12:19,840
Speaker 3: from like back then, they are pretty much dead or

1614
01:12:19,840 --> 01:12:22,600
Speaker 3: in jail, as cliche as that sounds. And if not,

1615
01:12:23,040 --> 01:12:25,240
Speaker 3: then it's just like you know, working dead in jobs

1616
01:12:25,320 --> 01:12:28,920
Speaker 3: or you know. So I don't know, man, it's almost

1617
01:12:28,960 --> 01:12:34,280
Speaker 3: like music was that's like my last That's like my

1618
01:12:34,360 --> 01:12:35,320
Speaker 3: last thing that I had.

1619
01:12:35,360 --> 01:12:38,160
Speaker 1: Man, are you still friends with anyone from Yeah?

1620
01:12:38,200 --> 01:12:40,920
Speaker 3: Definitely time, Yeah, definitely a lot of my friends, you know,

1621
01:12:41,560 --> 01:12:44,000
Speaker 3: But I feel like I met a lot of my

1622
01:12:44,560 --> 01:12:47,360
Speaker 3: you know, newer friends through music. Like we like I said,

1623
01:12:47,439 --> 01:12:50,280
Speaker 3: you know, doing the same ship. So like a lot

1624
01:12:50,280 --> 01:12:51,920
Speaker 3: of my friends that I have now is like for

1625
01:12:52,080 --> 01:12:54,519
Speaker 3: my music time and not for my street days.

1626
01:12:54,560 --> 01:12:54,760
Speaker 13: You know.

1627
01:12:56,520 --> 01:13:00,840
Speaker 1: Do you like so your your kind of social life nowadays?

1628
01:13:01,479 --> 01:13:03,800
Speaker 1: Do you do you find yourself mainly like trying to

1629
01:13:03,800 --> 01:13:05,559
Speaker 1: hang around other people who are who are sober?

1630
01:13:06,720 --> 01:13:10,439
Speaker 3: No, I wouldn't say that, because one thing they teach

1631
01:13:10,439 --> 01:13:13,640
Speaker 3: you kind of rehabits that you can't. The worst thing

1632
01:13:13,680 --> 01:13:16,320
Speaker 3: you can do is try to run from it. You know,

1633
01:13:16,840 --> 01:13:19,240
Speaker 3: you have to be able to like so like when

1634
01:13:19,280 --> 01:13:20,920
Speaker 3: people around, I want them to be able to be

1635
01:13:20,960 --> 01:13:22,960
Speaker 3: comfortable and do whatever they want to do. It's not

1636
01:13:22,960 --> 01:13:24,559
Speaker 3: going to trigger me. I already got it in my

1637
01:13:24,600 --> 01:13:27,040
Speaker 3: head that, you know, that's not what I'm trying to do.

1638
01:13:27,120 --> 01:13:28,720
Speaker 3: That's not where I'm living. So the last thing you

1639
01:13:28,760 --> 01:13:31,040
Speaker 3: can do is try to run from it. And that's

1640
01:13:31,120 --> 01:13:33,639
Speaker 3: just that's just causing more problems for yourself. Like if

1641
01:13:33,680 --> 01:13:36,280
Speaker 3: you're not around it for years and then all of

1642
01:13:36,320 --> 01:13:39,679
Speaker 3: a sudden you around it might be subject to relapse.

1643
01:13:39,760 --> 01:13:44,280
Speaker 1: There's a weird thing of like, if you're engaging both

1644
01:13:44,720 --> 01:13:50,760
Speaker 1: engaging in an activity constantly and engaging in the avoidance

1645
01:13:50,880 --> 01:13:54,960
Speaker 1: of an activity constantly, are still both forms of that

1646
01:13:55,040 --> 01:13:58,280
Speaker 1: activity having some fucking roll over you.

1647
01:13:58,360 --> 01:13:58,559
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1648
01:13:58,600 --> 01:14:01,720
Speaker 3: Yeah, So that's why when I'm around people, I want

1649
01:14:01,760 --> 01:14:03,040
Speaker 3: them to do what they want to do, to feel

1650
01:14:03,040 --> 01:14:04,760
Speaker 3: comfortable and be able to be in a element and

1651
01:14:04,840 --> 01:14:07,559
Speaker 3: not be worried about me. You know, that was solely

1652
01:14:07,600 --> 01:14:09,559
Speaker 3: the reason why I didn't ride on a tour bus,

1653
01:14:09,600 --> 01:14:12,200
Speaker 3: because I didn't want anybody to feel like they couldn't

1654
01:14:12,240 --> 01:14:14,000
Speaker 3: get fucked up around me and be like that. I

1655
01:14:14,080 --> 01:14:15,720
Speaker 3: was like, you know, it's all good. I just take

1656
01:14:15,760 --> 01:14:17,360
Speaker 3: a band and just ride behind the bus.

1657
01:14:17,360 --> 01:14:20,360
Speaker 1: Sure, sure, Who who do you when you go on

1658
01:14:20,400 --> 01:14:22,920
Speaker 1: tour with like your girlfriend and like you have.

1659
01:14:23,880 --> 01:14:25,920
Speaker 2: I've got my tour manager and my DJ.

1660
01:14:26,240 --> 01:14:28,040
Speaker 1: Cool cool cool cool.

1661
01:14:29,360 --> 01:14:31,200
Speaker 2: I mean, my girl came up to a few shows.

1662
01:14:31,640 --> 01:14:32,680
Speaker 2: You know, we kicked it.

1663
01:14:33,360 --> 01:14:35,320
Speaker 3: But for the most part, it's like, when I'm locked

1664
01:14:35,320 --> 01:14:39,800
Speaker 3: into like music mode, I can't have any outside distractions.

1665
01:14:40,600 --> 01:14:43,320
Speaker 1: You know, are you when you're do you ever make

1666
01:14:43,360 --> 01:14:47,880
Speaker 1: any like adaptations to to your songs while you're performing?

1667
01:14:47,920 --> 01:14:50,000
Speaker 1: You're like, oh, that might sound better doing that all

1668
01:14:50,040 --> 01:14:50,360
Speaker 1: the time.

1669
01:14:50,520 --> 01:14:53,479
Speaker 3: Yeah, sometimes it's just you know, like you know, you're

1670
01:14:53,479 --> 01:14:56,840
Speaker 3: performing songs that are so old or like, you know,

1671
01:14:56,960 --> 01:14:59,360
Speaker 3: these songs I wrote ten years ago some shit like that,

1672
01:14:59,439 --> 01:15:02,040
Speaker 3: and it almost just happened like a freestyle type of

1673
01:15:02,360 --> 01:15:04,519
Speaker 3: type of thing where I'm singing the songs because I'm

1674
01:15:04,520 --> 01:15:07,360
Speaker 3: not like listening to them all the time, right type

1675
01:15:07,360 --> 01:15:09,000
Speaker 3: of thing. So sometime I get up there and I'd

1676
01:15:09,040 --> 01:15:11,840
Speaker 3: be rapping and I would change a line. It just

1677
01:15:11,880 --> 01:15:13,880
Speaker 3: happens on its own, and before I know it, that

1678
01:15:13,920 --> 01:15:15,720
Speaker 3: becomes the line when if.

1679
01:15:15,600 --> 01:15:17,600
Speaker 1: It what's your what's your fan base? Like, like what

1680
01:15:17,760 --> 01:15:20,599
Speaker 1: kind of what demographics you're seeing out there?

1681
01:15:21,520 --> 01:15:23,760
Speaker 3: Well, this last tour was it was crazy because it

1682
01:15:23,800 --> 01:15:26,880
Speaker 3: was a lot of younger kids, and it's you know

1683
01:15:27,200 --> 01:15:29,840
Speaker 3: that I wasn't really used to that, Like I didn't

1684
01:15:29,840 --> 01:15:32,479
Speaker 3: really see too many kids at my shows. But you know,

1685
01:15:32,560 --> 01:15:34,720
Speaker 3: I guess Peggy he has a younger fan based than me.

1686
01:15:35,280 --> 01:15:37,160
Speaker 3: So it was cool to see some kids out there,

1687
01:15:37,520 --> 01:15:39,720
Speaker 3: you know, enjoying the music and shit. But for the

1688
01:15:39,800 --> 01:15:41,320
Speaker 3: most part, I think of I don't know, I think

1689
01:15:41,360 --> 01:15:44,280
Speaker 3: I gotta I couldn't. I couldn't really say, you know,

1690
01:15:44,840 --> 01:15:45,479
Speaker 3: I don't know.

1691
01:15:45,400 --> 01:15:46,720
Speaker 1: How does it. How does it make you feel when

1692
01:15:46,760 --> 01:15:50,960
Speaker 1: people tell you that, like, you know, you you inspire them,

1693
01:15:51,360 --> 01:15:53,360
Speaker 1: or that they look up to you and whatnot. What's

1694
01:15:53,360 --> 01:15:57,920
Speaker 1: your kind of like relationship to other people's perspective on you.

1695
01:15:58,760 --> 01:16:01,320
Speaker 3: It's it inspired me to be honest, you know, before

1696
01:16:01,360 --> 01:16:03,680
Speaker 3: I probably wouldn't even give a shit, you know, but

1697
01:16:03,720 --> 01:16:05,679
Speaker 3: now I just realize how much it is a blessing

1698
01:16:06,160 --> 01:16:09,280
Speaker 3: to been doing this for over ten years now. So

1699
01:16:09,320 --> 01:16:12,240
Speaker 3: now it's almost like I'm just grateful man, to be

1700
01:16:12,360 --> 01:16:14,720
Speaker 3: even and still in the same position, to still have

1701
01:16:14,800 --> 01:16:17,719
Speaker 3: to drive to make music, to steal for newer fans

1702
01:16:17,720 --> 01:16:19,400
Speaker 3: to come and hear my shit every day is almost

1703
01:16:19,439 --> 01:16:22,080
Speaker 3: just like a blessing, man, because I've seen so many

1704
01:16:22,120 --> 01:16:24,680
Speaker 3: people that started when I started and they not here

1705
01:16:24,720 --> 01:16:27,760
Speaker 3: no more. Yeah, you know, And like I say, man,

1706
01:16:28,080 --> 01:16:29,080
Speaker 3: music is subjective.

1707
01:16:29,120 --> 01:16:29,320
Speaker 5: Man.

1708
01:16:29,400 --> 01:16:31,880
Speaker 3: You never know, man, when it's your last song or

1709
01:16:32,000 --> 01:16:35,040
Speaker 3: you know, like it's been so many artists that I'm

1710
01:16:35,120 --> 01:16:37,840
Speaker 3: huge fans of and they can't you know, people are

1711
01:16:37,880 --> 01:16:39,519
Speaker 3: not checking for the shit and this and that.

1712
01:16:39,680 --> 01:16:42,519
Speaker 2: So it's a scary, man. It's a slippery slope.

1713
01:16:42,520 --> 01:16:45,120
Speaker 1: Man. It's yeah, that's kind of back to what you

1714
01:16:45,200 --> 01:16:47,760
Speaker 1: were talking about with like the when things are going good,

1715
01:16:47,880 --> 01:16:52,080
Speaker 1: it's like there's a weird fucking anxiety, like everything's gonna tumble.

1716
01:16:52,120 --> 01:16:54,800
Speaker 1: I feel that way too, Like I'm you know, I'm

1717
01:16:54,880 --> 01:16:57,080
Speaker 1: lucky enough to get to do a podcast where people can,

1718
01:16:57,960 --> 01:16:59,960
Speaker 1: you know, talk to me about jerking off into pond.

1719
01:17:01,439 --> 01:17:03,880
Speaker 3: Now I've gotten better with it though, Like, I just

1720
01:17:03,920 --> 01:17:06,920
Speaker 3: think it's for the most part, man, just you gotta.

1721
01:17:06,680 --> 01:17:10,360
Speaker 2: Have faith, as you know, Yeah, as weird does that sound?

1722
01:17:10,720 --> 01:17:12,320
Speaker 2: And I hate it, but you gotta have faith.

1723
01:17:14,400 --> 01:17:16,040
Speaker 1: I know what you mean. You gotta stop being such

1724
01:17:16,080 --> 01:17:19,760
Speaker 1: a such a baby and be like, no, I got this.

1725
01:17:20,240 --> 01:17:22,200
Speaker 3: I just feel like when you know you're doing the

1726
01:17:22,280 --> 01:17:24,679
Speaker 3: right shit in life, the right shit is gonna happen

1727
01:17:24,760 --> 01:17:27,120
Speaker 3: for you. If you're out there fucking up and you've

1728
01:17:27,120 --> 01:17:29,240
Speaker 3: been a piece of shit, then of course you got

1729
01:17:29,240 --> 01:17:32,479
Speaker 3: a lot of shit to worry about it. Like Karena's real, man, Hey, you.

1730
01:17:32,400 --> 01:17:36,439
Speaker 1: Want to talk to another caller? Sure, Shane. His boss

1731
01:17:36,520 --> 01:17:40,000
Speaker 1: has a drinking problem and is constantly over sharing about

1732
01:17:40,000 --> 01:17:43,000
Speaker 1: it and it makes him uncomfortable.

1733
01:17:46,560 --> 01:17:51,200
Speaker 3: Yeah, I guess I definitely have a lot a lot

1734
01:17:51,200 --> 01:17:52,360
Speaker 3: of experience with that.

1735
01:17:53,360 --> 01:17:57,559
Speaker 2: Yo. Hello, what's up?

1736
01:17:57,680 --> 01:18:00,479
Speaker 1: Shane? Twenty five from ohio his life.

1737
01:18:02,479 --> 01:18:03,519
Speaker 8: Oh it's not too bad.

1738
01:18:04,520 --> 01:18:05,240
Speaker 4: How's he going for.

1739
01:18:05,200 --> 01:18:06,880
Speaker 1: You, Danny? How you feeling?

1740
01:18:06,920 --> 01:18:08,120
Speaker 2: I'm great? How you doing? Brother?

1741
01:18:08,520 --> 01:18:08,680
Speaker 7: Good?

1742
01:18:08,880 --> 01:18:09,400
Speaker 10: Good?

1743
01:18:10,400 --> 01:18:15,799
Speaker 1: Well? Shane? You you you messaged in saying that you're

1744
01:18:16,160 --> 01:18:20,360
Speaker 1: you're you're dealing with an oversharing boss. Is that correct?

1745
01:18:20,960 --> 01:18:21,360
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1746
01:18:21,560 --> 01:18:25,160
Speaker 1: Yeah, tell us, tell us, tell us more, or tell

1747
01:18:25,240 --> 01:18:27,639
Speaker 1: us whatever you desire to tell us.

1748
01:18:28,080 --> 01:18:30,719
Speaker 8: Well, yeah, I work at this catering company. It's actually

1749
01:18:30,720 --> 01:18:33,040
Speaker 8: based out of like an old slaughterhouse. It's it's a

1750
01:18:33,080 --> 01:18:36,400
Speaker 8: really creepy building, but it's currently being bought out by

1751
01:18:36,400 --> 01:18:40,800
Speaker 8: somebody else who's he's like, he's he's cool enough. I

1752
01:18:40,800 --> 01:18:42,919
Speaker 8: guess I'm having against him. But he likes to overshare

1753
01:18:42,920 --> 01:18:46,200
Speaker 8: a lot about his personal stuff, like very personal stuff.

1754
01:18:46,200 --> 01:18:49,320
Speaker 8: And he he told me a while back that he's

1755
01:18:49,360 --> 01:18:53,479
Speaker 8: got a drinking problem and he's going to like meetings

1756
01:18:53,520 --> 01:18:56,000
Speaker 8: about it every day, which is cool, good for him.

1757
01:18:56,560 --> 01:18:58,479
Speaker 8: He's currently also drinking on the job as well.

1758
01:18:58,560 --> 01:18:59,439
Speaker 4: I've I've.

1759
01:19:01,240 --> 01:19:04,200
Speaker 8: He he takes a little by a coax and mixes

1760
01:19:04,240 --> 01:19:05,559
Speaker 8: it with whiskey.

1761
01:19:05,800 --> 01:19:06,360
Speaker 4: I've found.

1762
01:19:07,160 --> 01:19:11,280
Speaker 1: Well, here's the thing in terms of the jobs, that

1763
01:19:11,360 --> 01:19:17,519
Speaker 1: he could be getting drunk at catering company. Not that bad.

1764
01:19:19,320 --> 01:19:22,800
Speaker 8: That's fair. It's and it's it's not like there's a

1765
01:19:22,800 --> 01:19:25,400
Speaker 8: bunch of people that work there. It's kind of just myself.

1766
01:19:25,520 --> 01:19:31,360
Speaker 1: Basically, are you are you like debating about like what

1767
01:19:31,520 --> 01:19:34,559
Speaker 1: I guess what what anguish, if any is is this

1768
01:19:35,880 --> 01:19:36,760
Speaker 1: presenting to you?

1769
01:19:37,320 --> 01:19:41,040
Speaker 8: It's really awkward. I don't do good with people who overshare,

1770
01:19:41,120 --> 01:19:45,040
Speaker 8: especially people they don't know super well.

1771
01:19:45,680 --> 01:19:47,960
Speaker 1: And yet you're a fan of this podcast.

1772
01:19:50,240 --> 01:19:51,519
Speaker 8: I know that's weird in that.

1773
01:19:52,560 --> 01:19:57,960
Speaker 1: Hmm, Danny, You ever have somebody in your life over

1774
01:19:58,000 --> 01:19:59,760
Speaker 1: share in a way that makes you feel.

1775
01:20:00,280 --> 01:20:02,960
Speaker 2: Yeah, it was probably me. You know.

1776
01:20:03,000 --> 01:20:05,960
Speaker 3: They say a drunk person speaks a sober mind, you know,

1777
01:20:06,240 --> 01:20:08,920
Speaker 3: and the only people that tell the truth is people.

1778
01:20:09,960 --> 01:20:14,000
Speaker 3: It's people that are mad kids and drunk motherfucker. So

1779
01:20:14,000 --> 01:20:17,160
Speaker 3: sounds like to me, man, it seems like he's going

1780
01:20:17,240 --> 01:20:19,280
Speaker 3: to meet and so he know he has a problem,

1781
01:20:19,320 --> 01:20:23,080
Speaker 3: which is the first step to get help and to

1782
01:20:23,160 --> 01:20:25,640
Speaker 3: being on a road to sobriety. I think for the

1783
01:20:25,640 --> 01:20:27,320
Speaker 3: most part, you gotta do it. Just tell him he's

1784
01:20:27,360 --> 01:20:30,200
Speaker 3: making you uncomfortable. That's just the easiest thing to do,

1785
01:20:30,280 --> 01:20:32,680
Speaker 3: especially when he's drunk, you know, like, dog, shut the

1786
01:20:32,680 --> 01:20:36,360
Speaker 3: fuck up. You know, it's drunk. You're not gonna take

1787
01:20:36,400 --> 01:20:36,880
Speaker 3: it any baby.

1788
01:20:37,080 --> 01:20:40,320
Speaker 2: You know. Do you drink?

1789
01:20:40,760 --> 01:20:45,559
Speaker 8: Yeah, that's fair, not really. No, I smoke more than

1790
01:20:45,600 --> 01:20:46,479
Speaker 8: I drink for sure.

1791
01:20:47,120 --> 01:20:47,320
Speaker 1: Yeah.

1792
01:20:47,800 --> 01:20:48,160
Speaker 2: Do you know?

1793
01:20:49,600 --> 01:20:53,160
Speaker 1: I have a question, why does it make you uncomfortable

1794
01:20:54,200 --> 01:20:56,040
Speaker 1: when when this guy shares with you.

1795
01:21:00,520 --> 01:21:02,639
Speaker 8: I don't really know him super well. You know, he's

1796
01:21:02,760 --> 01:21:05,439
Speaker 8: he just started kind of working there a few months ago.

1797
01:21:09,560 --> 01:21:09,800
Speaker 4: Yeah.

1798
01:21:10,280 --> 01:21:12,519
Speaker 8: I guess I can't really explain why it makes me

1799
01:21:12,600 --> 01:21:13,520
Speaker 8: super uncomfortable.

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01:21:15,880 --> 01:21:17,519
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't know if this is just like

1801
01:21:17,840 --> 01:21:20,320
Speaker 1: a weird thing with me, and I guess it is

1802
01:21:20,400 --> 01:21:23,719
Speaker 1: like what I do on this podcast. But I don't

1803
01:21:23,760 --> 01:21:29,719
Speaker 1: mind unless if it's like incessant. I don't mind hearing

1804
01:21:29,760 --> 01:21:35,000
Speaker 1: about people's personal lives. I usually find that interesting.

1805
01:21:34,760 --> 01:21:37,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, because I find humor in it, to be honest.

1806
01:21:37,000 --> 01:21:39,080
Speaker 3: But all you got to do, like you say, if

1807
01:21:39,120 --> 01:21:41,400
Speaker 3: he's going to meetings and he realized he got a problem,

1808
01:21:41,439 --> 01:21:43,400
Speaker 3: if you just set him down and talk to him like, man,

1809
01:21:43,439 --> 01:21:44,880
Speaker 3: I think you really got a problem. You need to

1810
01:21:44,920 --> 01:21:46,320
Speaker 3: get some help. I bet you wouldn't talk to you

1811
01:21:46,400 --> 01:21:47,960
Speaker 3: as no more because he just don't want to drink,

1812
01:21:48,280 --> 01:21:50,120
Speaker 3: so he's gonna leave you out this shit Like fuck,

1813
01:21:50,120 --> 01:21:51,680
Speaker 3: that I'm getting drunk. I don't want to talk to him.

1814
01:21:51,680 --> 01:21:53,479
Speaker 3: He's gonna talk about need help and this and that.

1815
01:21:54,120 --> 01:21:56,879
Speaker 3: So yeah, but if he's still drinking and going to meetings, then.

1816
01:21:57,320 --> 01:21:59,960
Speaker 2: He's fucked up. He's just he's all over the place.

1817
01:22:00,439 --> 01:22:03,800
Speaker 1: H Are you trying? Are you trying to help him?

1818
01:22:03,880 --> 01:22:08,280
Speaker 3: Or just you are to lead alone he stopped drinking

1819
01:22:08,360 --> 01:22:10,120
Speaker 3: or not. Yeah, but yeah, that's all you gotta do

1820
01:22:10,160 --> 01:22:11,479
Speaker 3: is that I talk about him like, man, I think

1821
01:22:11,479 --> 01:22:13,519
Speaker 3: you really need some help. I'm worried about you. Should

1822
01:22:13,520 --> 01:22:15,559
Speaker 3: get on the road to sobriety, bitch. You gonna leo

1823
01:22:15,640 --> 01:22:16,280
Speaker 3: as alone in.

1824
01:22:18,479 --> 01:22:20,280
Speaker 8: And if he if he drinks, I don't give a

1825
01:22:20,320 --> 01:22:20,800
Speaker 8: ship whatever.

1826
01:22:20,840 --> 01:22:24,960
Speaker 1: Does his person act like you care like you think

1827
01:22:25,040 --> 01:22:28,680
Speaker 1: you think him acting like he cares? I don't want

1828
01:22:28,720 --> 01:22:32,040
Speaker 1: to talk to this guy because you don't want to drink. Yeah,

1829
01:22:32,040 --> 01:22:33,880
Speaker 1: that's that's that's that's smart, that's smart.

1830
01:22:34,000 --> 01:22:34,240
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1831
01:22:34,720 --> 01:22:36,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, just pretend like you really you really want him

1832
01:22:36,840 --> 01:22:38,360
Speaker 1: to stop worried about you?

1833
01:22:38,439 --> 01:22:38,639
Speaker 10: Man?

1834
01:22:38,720 --> 01:22:39,520
Speaker 4: Yeah?

1835
01:22:40,040 --> 01:22:41,840
Speaker 8: Should I sit in the meetings with him? You think?

1836
01:22:42,479 --> 01:22:47,120
Speaker 1: Fuck no, but then he'll definitely never talk to you again. Yeah,

1837
01:22:47,280 --> 01:22:51,519
Speaker 1: maybe you should do. Do you get like at the

1838
01:22:51,560 --> 01:22:54,519
Speaker 1: catering job. Do you get like free Montrell sticks afterwards

1839
01:22:54,520 --> 01:22:55,240
Speaker 1: when they're done?

1840
01:22:56,240 --> 01:22:58,360
Speaker 8: I mean, I get free whatever whatever we have there?

1841
01:23:00,080 --> 01:23:03,519
Speaker 1: Shit, man, getting drunk on the job and then having

1842
01:23:03,520 --> 01:23:07,560
Speaker 1: a bunch of like chicken sliders and shit afterwards, that

1843
01:23:07,600 --> 01:23:08,479
Speaker 1: sounds pretty awesome.

1844
01:23:08,800 --> 01:23:11,760
Speaker 3: Yeah, Lee, that's all you gotta do. Just talk to

1845
01:23:11,800 --> 01:23:13,519
Speaker 3: him about getting clean. He ain't gonna talk to you

1846
01:23:13,560 --> 01:23:16,720
Speaker 3: no more. Heal y alone.

1847
01:23:17,960 --> 01:23:18,920
Speaker 4: Hey, maybe I'll do that.

1848
01:23:19,600 --> 01:23:20,840
Speaker 1: Shane, Is there anything else you want to say to

1849
01:23:20,840 --> 01:23:22,080
Speaker 1: the people of the computer before we go?

1850
01:23:23,080 --> 01:23:25,040
Speaker 4: No, I don't think so. Thak, I'm good.

1851
01:23:26,000 --> 01:23:29,000
Speaker 1: Have a rest of the night, Shane, Thank you all,

1852
01:23:29,080 --> 01:23:33,040
Speaker 1: Thank you, Danny, thank you brother. Hey guys, it's Lyle here.

1853
01:23:33,160 --> 01:23:36,200
Speaker 1: I'm about to do some ad reads, but if you're

1854
01:23:36,240 --> 01:23:39,519
Speaker 1: a premium member of the podcast, you will not hear them.

1855
01:23:39,760 --> 01:23:43,240
Speaker 1: Premium members, or gek Legends as I like to call them,

1856
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Speaker 1: get access to every episode of this podcast ad free.

1857
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Speaker 1: They also get bonus episodes, recordings for my live shows,

1858
01:23:51,160 --> 01:23:54,400
Speaker 1: members only streams, and they support my ability to keep

1859
01:23:54,439 --> 01:23:57,200
Speaker 1: doing this show for a long time, do it in cooler,

1860
01:23:57,280 --> 01:24:01,919
Speaker 1: more interesting places, and also eat food, which is important.

1861
01:24:02,040 --> 01:24:03,960
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Speaker 1: go to Therapy Gecko dot supercast dot com to become

1863
01:24:08,200 --> 01:24:12,160
Speaker 1: a gek legend, or find the link in the episode description.

1864
01:24:12,439 --> 01:24:22,320
Speaker 1: All right, let's do some ads. Let's talk to Elizabeth. Hello, Elizabeth.

1865
01:24:22,400 --> 01:24:26,120
Speaker 2: Hello, Yes, hi Elizabeth.

1866
01:24:25,680 --> 01:24:26,200
Speaker 1: How are you doing.

1867
01:24:26,479 --> 01:24:28,280
Speaker 7: Hello, I'm good.

1868
01:24:28,320 --> 01:24:29,920
Speaker 1: How are you doing?

1869
01:24:29,920 --> 01:24:30,360
Speaker 2: All right?

1870
01:24:30,400 --> 01:24:31,160
Speaker 1: Thanks for calling, man.

1871
01:24:31,160 --> 01:24:33,439
Speaker 7: I'm sorry. I'm excited just to get on the line.

1872
01:24:33,800 --> 01:24:35,360
Speaker 1: No, don't be sorry, don't be sorry at all.

1873
01:24:39,080 --> 01:24:44,880
Speaker 7: Yeah, sorry, go ahead, No, Yeah, I just want to

1874
01:24:44,960 --> 01:24:47,599
Speaker 7: say I'm a really big fan of you and as

1875
01:24:47,600 --> 01:24:50,880
Speaker 7: well as Danny. I went on the Scaring the Host

1876
01:24:50,920 --> 01:24:54,800
Speaker 7: War and I saw you guy, or I saw Yeah.

1877
01:24:54,840 --> 01:24:58,519
Speaker 7: I saw Danny on in Baltimore and it was amazing.

1878
01:24:59,640 --> 01:25:04,479
Speaker 1: Yeah, you play in Baltimore. I remember my friends went

1879
01:25:04,479 --> 01:25:10,080
Speaker 1: to that show. Yeah awesome.

1880
01:25:10,320 --> 01:25:10,599
Speaker 11: Wow.

1881
01:25:10,840 --> 01:25:13,599
Speaker 7: Sorry, I'm like having a little moment because I've been

1882
01:25:13,600 --> 01:25:16,280
Speaker 7: a fan of Danny's been triple X, so this is

1883
01:25:16,320 --> 01:25:17,519
Speaker 7: like really big for me.

1884
01:25:19,800 --> 01:25:21,640
Speaker 1: Yeah.

1885
01:25:21,680 --> 01:25:26,519
Speaker 7: But yeah, so sorry, I called him just because obviously

1886
01:25:26,560 --> 01:25:30,200
Speaker 7: being a fan of Danny, but also I'm a two artist,

1887
01:25:30,360 --> 01:25:33,680
Speaker 7: and as an artist, I think like all artists kind

1888
01:25:33,680 --> 01:25:38,559
Speaker 7: of struggle with the same thing. But just like imposter

1889
01:25:38,720 --> 01:25:42,320
Speaker 7: syndrome and kind of like comparing yourself to other artists,

1890
01:25:42,400 --> 01:25:47,040
Speaker 7: and I was wondering how he kind of feels about

1891
01:25:47,040 --> 01:25:51,280
Speaker 7: that and like how he goes about that and just

1892
01:25:51,320 --> 01:25:54,559
Speaker 7: dealing with like not feeling like you're adequate even when

1893
01:25:54,640 --> 01:25:58,920
Speaker 7: like everyone's telling you you're like artists.

1894
01:26:00,080 --> 01:26:02,559
Speaker 3: Well, I think the biggest deal with that is fucking

1895
01:26:02,640 --> 01:26:05,960
Speaker 3: social media. I swear, like when you get caught up

1896
01:26:06,000 --> 01:26:09,120
Speaker 3: and see what everyone else is doing, it always makes

1897
01:26:09,120 --> 01:26:11,120
Speaker 3: you feel like that. And I think for the most part,

1898
01:26:11,120 --> 01:26:13,120
Speaker 3: when you just gotta take you gotta take those social

1899
01:26:13,160 --> 01:26:15,919
Speaker 3: media breaks and stop worrying about you know, like sometimes

1900
01:26:15,920 --> 01:26:19,000
Speaker 3: with me just basically because I fucking do rap music,

1901
01:26:19,040 --> 01:26:21,639
Speaker 3: so I just wouldn't listen to rap music and every

1902
01:26:21,640 --> 01:26:23,599
Speaker 3: way I can't even I don't know what's going on,

1903
01:26:23,720 --> 01:26:24,000
Speaker 3: I don't.

1904
01:26:24,160 --> 01:26:25,759
Speaker 2: I just get myself out of that world.

1905
01:26:25,760 --> 01:26:27,479
Speaker 3: So I'm pretty sure you probably follow a lot of

1906
01:26:27,520 --> 01:26:31,160
Speaker 3: tattoo shit, So every time you go on fucking go online,

1907
01:26:31,160 --> 01:26:33,240
Speaker 3: you're just seeing tattoo shit everywhere and this and that.

1908
01:26:33,320 --> 01:26:35,120
Speaker 3: So just you got to take yourself out of that

1909
01:26:35,240 --> 01:26:38,120
Speaker 3: world and then just work on your own shit. I

1910
01:26:38,120 --> 01:26:41,679
Speaker 3: think that's the best thing to do, as fucking simple

1911
01:26:41,680 --> 01:26:43,400
Speaker 3: as it sounds, but yeah, it's hard.

1912
01:26:46,160 --> 01:26:50,879
Speaker 14: Wow, Yeah, No, I really appreciate that. No, I appreciate

1913
01:26:50,920 --> 01:26:53,080
Speaker 14: you saying that, and I have heard that advice before.

1914
01:26:53,160 --> 01:26:55,120
Speaker 14: But I guess like it's like really hard when like

1915
01:26:55,520 --> 01:26:58,280
Speaker 14: a lot of your career is based around social media,

1916
01:26:58,479 --> 01:27:00,920
Speaker 14: like getting clients and stuff like that.

1917
01:27:01,200 --> 01:27:04,599
Speaker 3: So yeah, yeah, I can see that. But yeah, that's

1918
01:27:04,600 --> 01:27:06,519
Speaker 3: what I'm saying. You just can't be paying attention to

1919
01:27:06,560 --> 01:27:09,479
Speaker 3: what everybody else is doing. Just worry about your own shit.

1920
01:27:09,760 --> 01:27:11,720
Speaker 3: That's really all it is. Because I know sometimes like

1921
01:27:12,760 --> 01:27:15,080
Speaker 3: us where artists struggle with that too as well. You know,

1922
01:27:15,160 --> 01:27:17,000
Speaker 3: you might see somebody you think you better than and

1923
01:27:17,080 --> 01:27:17,559
Speaker 3: be like, oh.

1924
01:27:17,520 --> 01:27:19,920
Speaker 2: Fuck, this motherfucker's doing good. Why fuck I'm not here.

1925
01:27:20,000 --> 01:27:20,479
Speaker 2: I'm out here.

1926
01:27:21,080 --> 01:27:24,680
Speaker 3: You can't even worry about that. I think everybody, everybody

1927
01:27:25,040 --> 01:27:27,160
Speaker 3: are where they want to be in life in some sense.

1928
01:27:27,400 --> 01:27:29,960
Speaker 3: So I think, just stop worrying about other motherfuckers and

1929
01:27:30,040 --> 01:27:32,680
Speaker 3: just put the grind on yourself, you know, and just

1930
01:27:32,760 --> 01:27:34,960
Speaker 3: start just figuring out what you can do to make

1931
01:27:35,000 --> 01:27:37,800
Speaker 3: your shit better instead of looking at other motherfuckers.

1932
01:27:37,840 --> 01:27:38,840
Speaker 2: That's really the main thing.

1933
01:27:40,320 --> 01:27:43,639
Speaker 1: What's do you have like a specialty kind of thing

1934
01:27:43,680 --> 01:27:47,120
Speaker 1: that you like to tattoo flowers or yeah, I.

1935
01:27:47,200 --> 01:27:55,519
Speaker 7: Like anime tattoos. Actually, yeah, I'm mostly doing anime, which

1936
01:27:55,720 --> 01:28:00,320
Speaker 7: in like the general DMV area, there's not that many

1937
01:28:00,439 --> 01:28:04,360
Speaker 7: animes have two artists. But I do compare myself to

1938
01:28:04,520 --> 01:28:06,960
Speaker 7: like the ones in La, the ones in New York,

1939
01:28:07,080 --> 01:28:09,240
Speaker 7: you know, like all the really great artists out there.

1940
01:28:09,400 --> 01:28:13,720
Speaker 7: So it is like probably really good to just kind

1941
01:28:13,800 --> 01:28:17,559
Speaker 7: of stop focusing on that and just focus on my

1942
01:28:17,600 --> 01:28:18,000
Speaker 7: own thing.

1943
01:28:19,520 --> 01:28:21,720
Speaker 1: Yeah, struggle. I struggle with that too, of like comparing

1944
01:28:21,840 --> 01:28:24,759
Speaker 1: myself to to other people. And I always just noticed

1945
01:28:24,800 --> 01:28:29,960
Speaker 1: it's such a time suck distraction from like, you know,

1946
01:28:30,080 --> 01:28:33,839
Speaker 1: the most the most important fucking thing is like making stuff,

1947
01:28:34,640 --> 01:28:37,479
Speaker 1: you know, and so anything that's not making stuff is

1948
01:28:37,640 --> 01:28:40,640
Speaker 1: just is just gonna fuck you. And then and then

1949
01:28:40,720 --> 01:28:43,760
Speaker 1: it's weird, right because you you're like, oh, I wish

1950
01:28:43,840 --> 01:28:46,240
Speaker 1: I could be where this person is, but it's like

1951
01:28:46,360 --> 01:28:48,200
Speaker 1: in order to get where that person is, you just

1952
01:28:48,240 --> 01:28:51,559
Speaker 1: got to shut out all the distractions and be making stuff.

1953
01:28:52,160 --> 01:28:57,200
Speaker 1: So it's it's like a weird, counterproductive thing to do,

1954
01:28:57,280 --> 01:28:59,439
Speaker 1: and I get sucked in on it. And it's true that, like,

1955
01:29:00,439 --> 01:29:03,639
Speaker 1: you know, social media just yeah, yeah, it's.

1956
01:29:03,439 --> 01:29:06,320
Speaker 3: The numbers game now, you see, and you know, everybody's

1957
01:29:06,360 --> 01:29:09,120
Speaker 3: just it's a rat race really, you know, but really

1958
01:29:09,160 --> 01:29:12,200
Speaker 3: that's all it is, man, Yeah, just just focus on

1959
01:29:12,240 --> 01:29:14,760
Speaker 3: your creativity and stop worrying about what everybody else is doing.

1960
01:29:14,840 --> 01:29:16,800
Speaker 2: I think social media has fucked us all with that,

1961
01:29:16,960 --> 01:29:17,160
Speaker 2: you know.

1962
01:29:19,080 --> 01:29:23,800
Speaker 7: Yeah, absolutely, what's thank you so much?

1963
01:29:24,920 --> 01:29:25,240
Speaker 6: Sorry?

1964
01:29:25,280 --> 01:29:26,519
Speaker 7: What's my favorite anime?

1965
01:29:26,880 --> 01:29:28,440
Speaker 1: Yeah?

1966
01:29:29,000 --> 01:29:31,400
Speaker 14: Oh my gosh, you don't want.

1967
01:29:31,280 --> 01:29:35,880
Speaker 7: To get me started. I would say right now, it's

1968
01:29:35,920 --> 01:29:38,959
Speaker 7: between Fruits Basket has always been one of my favorites.

1969
01:29:39,040 --> 01:29:43,600
Speaker 7: It's like a romance drama type thing. And then I

1970
01:29:43,720 --> 01:29:48,559
Speaker 7: really am loving Jujitsu Kaisan season two right now. It's like,

1971
01:29:49,520 --> 01:29:50,200
Speaker 7: really amazing.

1972
01:29:51,600 --> 01:29:53,160
Speaker 1: You're an anime guy. I know you said you're into

1973
01:29:53,280 --> 01:29:55,080
Speaker 1: j RPG's.

1974
01:29:54,880 --> 01:29:56,840
Speaker 3: Not really I can't say I'm an anime guy at

1975
01:29:57,160 --> 01:29:58,360
Speaker 3: I'm more of a hint tay guy.

1976
01:29:58,800 --> 01:30:01,680
Speaker 2: Yeah.

1977
01:30:00,280 --> 01:30:05,719
Speaker 1: Okay, yeah me too.

1978
01:30:07,920 --> 01:30:11,360
Speaker 7: Hey, you know there's some good Hends Eyes out there.

1979
01:30:11,880 --> 01:30:13,960
Speaker 1: There is. I've talked about this on this podcast before that.

1980
01:30:14,120 --> 01:30:17,879
Speaker 1: My actually the first porn I was watching was Hentai.

1981
01:30:18,160 --> 01:30:20,000
Speaker 1: So you replay Smash Bros.

1982
01:30:20,040 --> 01:30:20,200
Speaker 2: Right.

1983
01:30:20,840 --> 01:30:23,519
Speaker 1: I would on my Wii channel. I would go to

1984
01:30:23,560 --> 01:30:26,759
Speaker 1: the Internet channel and I would search up zero Suit

1985
01:30:26,880 --> 01:30:30,080
Speaker 1: Samus Naked and that was that was some of the

1986
01:30:30,080 --> 01:30:30,880
Speaker 1: first stuff.

1987
01:30:30,640 --> 01:30:30,800
Speaker 2: That I.

1988
01:30:36,120 --> 01:30:38,720
Speaker 1: Well, thanks for calling Elizabeth. You want to plug, you go,

1989
01:30:38,920 --> 01:30:43,840
Speaker 1: let's do a plug. You want to plug your tattoo Instagram? Yeah,

1990
01:30:43,960 --> 01:30:45,479
Speaker 1: do a plug? What's what's your instagram?

1991
01:30:45,520 --> 01:30:46,000
Speaker 14: Tattoo?

1992
01:30:46,120 --> 01:30:52,559
Speaker 7: Instagram? Is nessa tattoo? That Enna's Nancy e c as

1993
01:30:52,600 --> 01:30:58,839
Speaker 7: in cat I a tattoo? All one word, Danny or Lyle. Honestly,

1994
01:30:58,960 --> 01:31:00,840
Speaker 7: if you ever want a tattoo, just put me up.

1995
01:31:00,920 --> 01:31:11,400
Speaker 7: I got you, guys, We'll take care of m. Thank you, goodbye.

1996
01:31:12,320 --> 01:31:13,280
Speaker 7: We love you, Danny.

1997
01:31:14,040 --> 01:31:14,760
Speaker 2: I love you too.

1998
01:31:15,040 --> 01:31:15,479
Speaker 7: Good Bye.

1999
01:31:17,800 --> 01:31:18,839
Speaker 1: Do you have any tattoos?

2000
01:31:18,920 --> 01:31:19,160
Speaker 2: Fuck?

2001
01:31:19,240 --> 01:31:19,320
Speaker 11: No?

2002
01:31:19,920 --> 01:31:20,680
Speaker 1: Whye funk Now?

2003
01:31:20,760 --> 01:31:22,559
Speaker 2: I mean no, I just say that a lot.

2004
01:31:22,640 --> 01:31:28,040
Speaker 1: But no, I've just you said you looked at Joey.

2005
01:31:28,080 --> 01:31:29,240
Speaker 1: He has a bunch of tes.

2006
01:31:31,280 --> 01:31:31,720
Speaker 2: But no, I.

2007
01:31:33,720 --> 01:31:37,320
Speaker 3: Just just been scared and I think I've I've aaged

2008
01:31:37,360 --> 01:31:39,360
Speaker 3: out of it. I was probably gonna get my first

2009
01:31:39,360 --> 01:31:42,960
Speaker 3: tattoo at eighteen, and then I was skepted the appointment.

2010
01:31:42,960 --> 01:31:44,439
Speaker 3: Everything I was supposed to show up, and then I

2011
01:31:44,600 --> 01:31:47,839
Speaker 3: just ended up getting high. And that's what made myself paranoid.

2012
01:31:48,040 --> 01:31:50,400
Speaker 3: Like fun that, but then it's also like another thing too.

2013
01:31:50,479 --> 01:31:52,400
Speaker 3: I have a lot of family members that you know,

2014
01:31:53,040 --> 01:31:55,559
Speaker 3: fucked around with needles and ship like this. Yeah, sure,

2015
01:31:55,680 --> 01:31:57,479
Speaker 3: that's just like weirded me out too.

2016
01:31:58,400 --> 01:32:00,160
Speaker 2: But I love I love tattoos.

2017
01:32:00,640 --> 01:32:07,800
Speaker 1: I there's nothing that I'm into that I'm confident that

2018
01:32:08,880 --> 01:32:13,439
Speaker 1: I would be into forever, like that that would still

2019
01:32:13,479 --> 01:32:21,160
Speaker 1: be like prominent in my life when I get older.

2020
01:32:21,240 --> 01:32:22,599
Speaker 1: You know, like if I got a tattoo of something

2021
01:32:22,680 --> 01:32:26,000
Speaker 1: right now and then years later, I don't think I'm

2022
01:32:26,000 --> 01:32:27,960
Speaker 1: gonna identify with it anymore. Like if I got like

2023
01:32:28,600 --> 01:32:31,840
Speaker 1: master shake from aquatine hunger for some of my ankle, Like,

2024
01:32:31,880 --> 01:32:34,320
Speaker 1: am I still going to be into that when I'm seventy?

2025
01:32:34,720 --> 01:32:37,360
Speaker 3: But it's almost like a memory thing, ain't it, Like

2026
01:32:37,520 --> 01:32:38,640
Speaker 3: you know you just got you know?

2027
01:32:39,360 --> 01:32:41,120
Speaker 2: But no, I don't know. I just don't want to

2028
01:32:41,160 --> 01:32:42,320
Speaker 2: put myself through any pain.

2029
01:32:43,160 --> 01:32:46,360
Speaker 1: Joey said, can we get matching tattoos if I pay?

2030
01:32:46,720 --> 01:32:51,400
Speaker 1: I still I still well at tatchoes are expensive, aren't

2031
01:32:51,400 --> 01:32:55,160
Speaker 1: they They're like they're like what like two hundred bucks

2032
01:32:55,240 --> 01:32:56,040
Speaker 1: or something like that.

2033
01:32:57,800 --> 01:32:59,760
Speaker 2: But even like I say, I I feel like I

2034
01:32:59,880 --> 01:33:02,560
Speaker 2: ate myself out of that. I have to stop.

2035
01:33:02,479 --> 01:33:06,679
Speaker 1: Thinking like that, you know, like thinking that you're aged

2036
01:33:06,680 --> 01:33:08,639
Speaker 1: out of things. Yeah, you know, some things are good

2037
01:33:08,640 --> 01:33:10,120
Speaker 1: to think, to feel like you're aged out of.

2038
01:33:10,880 --> 01:33:12,920
Speaker 3: I know, but it's just like I'm always using this

2039
01:33:13,160 --> 01:33:15,000
Speaker 3: as an excuse of some type of sense, and I

2040
01:33:15,080 --> 01:33:17,800
Speaker 3: just felt like if you look at ship like that,

2041
01:33:17,920 --> 01:33:20,599
Speaker 3: then it's like what's next dying? Like you gotta live,

2042
01:33:20,840 --> 01:33:23,200
Speaker 3: you know, so just like fuck, get a tattoo, get

2043
01:33:23,200 --> 01:33:24,360
Speaker 3: that fucking nipple piercing.

2044
01:33:24,520 --> 01:33:26,160
Speaker 1: You know what? What other things do you feel like you're

2045
01:33:26,200 --> 01:33:26,680
Speaker 1: aged out of?

2046
01:33:29,960 --> 01:33:32,160
Speaker 3: I mean when it comes to like fashion, I don't

2047
01:33:32,160 --> 01:33:34,360
Speaker 3: think so. I mean I wouldn't want to be walking

2048
01:33:34,360 --> 01:33:37,080
Speaker 3: around wearing like a fucking Spider Man shirt or some shit.

2049
01:33:37,800 --> 01:33:42,200
Speaker 2: You know I was, or like wearing like marble clothes

2050
01:33:42,240 --> 01:33:42,880
Speaker 2: and shit, or.

2051
01:33:42,880 --> 01:33:44,680
Speaker 1: Like are you are you into Spider Man?

2052
01:33:45,160 --> 01:33:47,280
Speaker 3: No, I can't say this. I can't say I am,

2053
01:33:47,320 --> 01:33:49,599
Speaker 3: But I don't know. Something about that is weird to me,

2054
01:33:49,640 --> 01:33:51,040
Speaker 3: Like when you're wearing a motherfucker's be.

2055
01:33:51,600 --> 01:33:54,400
Speaker 1: Dude, that's what it's like. Uh. When I was in

2056
01:33:54,439 --> 01:34:01,639
Speaker 1: middle school and high school, my wardrobe was all like Marvel, yeah,

2057
01:34:01,680 --> 01:34:05,320
Speaker 1: Spider Man because Target, because Target would sell that ship.

2058
01:34:06,680 --> 01:34:08,680
Speaker 3: But if you like, I mean, I guess man, you

2059
01:34:08,720 --> 01:34:11,160
Speaker 3: know it's old nerds and ship. But I don't know

2060
01:34:11,320 --> 01:34:15,320
Speaker 3: for me, I just couldn't fucking wear like fucking marble

2061
01:34:15,360 --> 01:34:16,479
Speaker 3: clothes or ship like that.

2062
01:34:16,560 --> 01:34:18,760
Speaker 1: Do you feel too old to collect funk pops? No?

2063
01:34:19,000 --> 01:34:20,639
Speaker 2: I don't think you're too old to collect anything.

2064
01:34:22,520 --> 01:34:24,360
Speaker 1: What about Spider Man T shirts?

2065
01:34:24,840 --> 01:34:26,519
Speaker 3: I mean, if you're just gonna collect them and not

2066
01:34:26,560 --> 01:34:29,679
Speaker 3: wear them in public, I mean that's pajamas, that's probably cool.

2067
01:34:29,800 --> 01:34:31,400
Speaker 2: Just wear them at the krea to yourself.

2068
01:34:31,439 --> 01:34:35,280
Speaker 3: But you're going out wearing pajama clothes at a certain age,

2069
01:34:35,280 --> 01:34:37,479
Speaker 3: you're gonna I'm gonna think you on roadblocks looking.

2070
01:34:37,320 --> 01:34:38,080
Speaker 2: For younger.

2071
01:34:41,280 --> 01:34:43,519
Speaker 1: You're you're you're big into fashion, right, yeah?

2072
01:34:43,840 --> 01:34:44,360
Speaker 2: Do you uh?

2073
01:34:44,439 --> 01:34:46,240
Speaker 1: Do you ever like you design ship?

2074
01:34:46,479 --> 01:34:46,519
Speaker 4: No?

2075
01:34:46,840 --> 01:34:50,360
Speaker 3: But that's I will say I have been more into

2076
01:34:51,000 --> 01:34:54,400
Speaker 3: independent designers than I have been, Like buying ship from

2077
01:34:54,400 --> 01:34:57,600
Speaker 3: like fashion houses and ship that has been like my

2078
01:34:57,760 --> 01:35:00,599
Speaker 3: thing for like the past few years, just like finding

2079
01:35:00,600 --> 01:35:01,599
Speaker 3: people on Instagram that.

2080
01:35:01,600 --> 01:35:02,280
Speaker 2: Make dope shit.

2081
01:35:02,479 --> 01:35:06,080
Speaker 1: Who Now, let's say there was who's like, who's the

2082
01:35:06,160 --> 01:35:08,560
Speaker 1: most famous fashion I don't know anything about fashions the

2083
01:35:08,600 --> 01:35:09,960
Speaker 1: most famous fashion designer?

2084
01:35:10,320 --> 01:35:11,880
Speaker 2: I mean it's so many.

2085
01:35:11,960 --> 01:35:15,880
Speaker 1: I mean what if, okay, if a fashion designer that

2086
01:35:16,000 --> 01:35:20,400
Speaker 1: you highly respected came out with like a really dope

2087
01:35:20,760 --> 01:35:22,240
Speaker 1: spider Man T shirt.

2088
01:35:23,560 --> 01:35:25,639
Speaker 3: Na, I'm not fucking with it, but I will say

2089
01:35:25,680 --> 01:35:27,800
Speaker 3: one of my favorite it was like back in the day,

2090
01:35:27,800 --> 01:35:31,200
Speaker 3: Brands was like Iceberg History and they whole ship was

2091
01:35:31,240 --> 01:35:33,840
Speaker 3: about fucking cartoons and ship. Like they had a whole

2092
01:35:33,880 --> 01:35:36,680
Speaker 3: Simpsons collection and they had my favorite was they did

2093
01:35:36,720 --> 01:35:39,320
Speaker 3: a Milian. They did a Milian collection. But these were

2094
01:35:39,320 --> 01:35:40,639
Speaker 3: like thousand dollars T shirts.

2095
01:35:41,000 --> 01:35:45,639
Speaker 1: You know, so thousand dollars T shirts?

2096
01:35:46,760 --> 01:35:47,040
Speaker 2: What's that?

2097
01:35:47,080 --> 01:35:48,760
Speaker 1: What's what's the most amount of money you've spent on

2098
01:35:48,800 --> 01:35:49,599
Speaker 1: a piece of clothing.

2099
01:35:49,960 --> 01:35:59,920
Speaker 2: Mmm, I don't know. I mean probably about oh twelve thousand.

2100
01:36:00,840 --> 01:36:01,559
Speaker 1: It's not terrible.

2101
01:36:01,720 --> 01:36:03,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, I mean it was just a cop.

2102
01:36:03,600 --> 01:36:05,719
Speaker 1: Okay do they do they hold their value?

2103
01:36:05,880 --> 01:36:07,479
Speaker 2: Or I gave it away? Actually?

2104
01:36:07,680 --> 01:36:07,840
Speaker 11: Oh?

2105
01:36:07,880 --> 01:36:10,360
Speaker 2: Really? Would you give it to one? Are my homies?

2106
01:36:10,439 --> 01:36:13,160
Speaker 1: Okay? Cool? You know I want to you know, those

2107
01:36:13,240 --> 01:36:16,559
Speaker 1: like heart I want you know, those fucking airbrush shirts

2108
01:36:16,560 --> 01:36:18,960
Speaker 1: of SpongeBob and he's got like a grill. Yeah, I

2109
01:36:19,000 --> 01:36:20,720
Speaker 1: want like a designer version of that.

2110
01:36:21,720 --> 01:36:22,000
Speaker 2: Hmm.

2111
01:36:23,520 --> 01:36:25,519
Speaker 3: If you know, guy, I mean they used to make

2112
01:36:25,560 --> 01:36:28,160
Speaker 3: those like liquor stores and ship Yeah, you know, and

2113
01:36:28,200 --> 01:36:31,840
Speaker 3: you have like bugs Bunny with fucking baggy jeans on ship.

2114
01:36:31,960 --> 01:36:34,479
Speaker 3: Those shirts are cool, though, I'm not gonna lie that's drip.

2115
01:36:34,560 --> 01:36:37,280
Speaker 3: If you can actually find one from like the early nineties,

2116
01:36:37,840 --> 01:36:39,320
Speaker 3: like thri you can probably find for come of that

2117
01:36:39,360 --> 01:36:40,240
Speaker 3: ship thrifting though?

2118
01:36:40,800 --> 01:36:41,120
Speaker 2: Do you.

2119
01:36:43,320 --> 01:36:46,800
Speaker 1: Every day? Are you? Are you very intentional with what

2120
01:36:46,840 --> 01:36:47,200
Speaker 1: you wear?

2121
01:36:48,120 --> 01:36:48,559
Speaker 2: Yeah?

2122
01:36:49,360 --> 01:36:52,040
Speaker 1: Really that sounds that sounds exhausting.

2123
01:36:52,120 --> 01:36:53,719
Speaker 2: I think about it the first day of the morning

2124
01:36:53,760 --> 01:36:54,200
Speaker 2: type ship.

2125
01:36:54,320 --> 01:36:56,599
Speaker 1: That sounds that. You know, you know the Mark Zuckerberg

2126
01:36:56,680 --> 01:37:01,760
Speaker 1: thing right where he like has is what like a

2127
01:37:01,760 --> 01:37:05,599
Speaker 1: closet of like one hundred black tear Yeah, yeah, anywhere's

2128
01:37:05,600 --> 01:37:08,439
Speaker 1: the same thing every day, just to eliminate that choice.

2129
01:37:08,840 --> 01:37:11,280
Speaker 3: But the thing is I think about it is even

2130
01:37:11,320 --> 01:37:14,640
Speaker 3: though I do do that, it's a conscious choice to

2131
01:37:14,720 --> 01:37:19,360
Speaker 3: make it look like I'm not doing it can make you.

2132
01:37:18,960 --> 01:37:24,320
Speaker 1: You intentionally make your words look like unintentionally. Yeah, that

2133
01:37:24,439 --> 01:37:26,040
Speaker 1: sounds exhausting.

2134
01:37:26,880 --> 01:37:28,320
Speaker 2: It can be, It can't be.

2135
01:37:28,320 --> 01:37:28,840
Speaker 1: But I would.

2136
01:37:28,960 --> 01:37:32,160
Speaker 3: I did have a great time during his tour. I

2137
01:37:32,280 --> 01:37:34,320
Speaker 3: did a lot of truth then, so I got a

2138
01:37:34,320 --> 01:37:35,120
Speaker 3: lot of dope ship.

2139
01:37:35,400 --> 01:37:39,679
Speaker 1: Okay, do you do you wear a different Actually? Shit,

2140
01:37:39,760 --> 01:37:42,880
Speaker 1: what I was, uh, do you said something on one

2141
01:37:42,920 --> 01:37:45,559
Speaker 1: of your podcasts that I was listening to recently about

2142
01:37:45,600 --> 01:37:50,519
Speaker 1: how you you haven't worn the same thing, the same shirt,

2143
01:37:50,560 --> 01:37:52,679
Speaker 1: the same shirt. Yeah, that's true. Are you ever gonna

2144
01:37:52,800 --> 01:37:53,479
Speaker 1: I think I did.

2145
01:37:53,600 --> 01:37:55,920
Speaker 3: I think I'd wore one shirt twice and that was

2146
01:37:55,960 --> 01:37:57,599
Speaker 3: just Does that feel like a bad laundry day?

2147
01:37:57,720 --> 01:37:59,559
Speaker 1: No regret that does that feel like a failure deal?

2148
01:37:59,800 --> 01:38:02,120
Speaker 3: No, it's just I mean, it just becomes one of

2149
01:38:02,160 --> 01:38:04,200
Speaker 3: those hard things like, fuck, I gotta buy some new

2150
01:38:04,240 --> 01:38:08,840
Speaker 3: shirts now. So I'm always shopping kind of, but that's

2151
01:38:08,880 --> 01:38:12,040
Speaker 3: the one thing that I really wish I can just

2152
01:38:12,240 --> 01:38:14,040
Speaker 3: you know, I don't know. I mean, I've been like

2153
01:38:14,080 --> 01:38:17,400
Speaker 3: that ever since a kid, you know, I just I

2154
01:38:17,439 --> 01:38:19,680
Speaker 3: don't know. I just it's hard for me not to

2155
01:38:19,760 --> 01:38:20,120
Speaker 3: buy it.

2156
01:38:21,520 --> 01:38:26,439
Speaker 1: Sometimes. I like looking shitty, like because there's a cool

2157
01:38:26,560 --> 01:38:29,880
Speaker 1: challenge to it, of like can I walk into this

2158
01:38:29,960 --> 01:38:34,360
Speaker 1: place and be socially confident and feeling myself in cargo

2159
01:38:34,479 --> 01:38:36,280
Speaker 1: shorts and a fucking Zelda T shirt?

2160
01:38:36,720 --> 01:38:36,960
Speaker 4: You know?

2161
01:38:37,120 --> 01:38:39,320
Speaker 1: And this is because it's a challenge to that, it's enjoyable.

2162
01:38:39,479 --> 01:38:41,680
Speaker 2: Like my thing is, you gotta kind of dress for

2163
01:38:41,760 --> 01:38:42,400
Speaker 2: that situation.

2164
01:38:42,560 --> 01:38:45,360
Speaker 3: Like if I'm just going around, I'm not going to

2165
01:38:45,439 --> 01:38:47,599
Speaker 3: fucking you like, you know, put on ship that's gonna

2166
01:38:47,640 --> 01:38:49,320
Speaker 3: draw a whole much attention to me, even though I

2167
01:38:49,439 --> 01:38:51,240
Speaker 3: used to but now at this point in my life,

2168
01:38:51,280 --> 01:38:53,439
Speaker 3: I just don't. But it's still gonna be some dope shit,

2169
01:38:54,080 --> 01:38:56,040
Speaker 3: you know, like motherfucker probably you why you wouldn't know

2170
01:38:56,080 --> 01:38:57,760
Speaker 3: what it is or like you know, motherfucker wouldn't just

2171
01:38:57,760 --> 01:38:59,479
Speaker 3: look at me, and I realized, But it's like, no,

2172
01:38:59,520 --> 01:39:01,439
Speaker 3: I'm everything I own is some dope shit.

2173
01:39:01,560 --> 01:39:03,880
Speaker 2: Like I don't have nothing that's just fucked up, you know,

2174
01:39:04,280 --> 01:39:06,600
Speaker 2: but the people who know, no, Yeah, it's almost like

2175
01:39:06,600 --> 01:39:08,000
Speaker 2: if you know, no kind of thing.

2176
01:39:08,560 --> 01:39:12,160
Speaker 1: Is there any like I guess aside from fashion, is

2177
01:39:12,200 --> 01:39:15,920
Speaker 1: there anything hobby wise where you're like, I'm willing to

2178
01:39:16,040 --> 01:39:18,760
Speaker 1: like put down some good money on this because it's

2179
01:39:18,760 --> 01:39:20,880
Speaker 1: like because I want the quality version of it.

2180
01:39:22,520 --> 01:39:25,280
Speaker 3: I don't know if it counts, but like because it's

2181
01:39:25,360 --> 01:39:26,040
Speaker 3: part of my job.

2182
01:39:26,040 --> 01:39:29,719
Speaker 1: But like music, music, music, I would say that doesn't

2183
01:39:29,720 --> 01:39:32,920
Speaker 1: count anything that you couldn't theoretically write off on your taxi.

2184
01:39:33,040 --> 01:39:35,920
Speaker 3: Like I find myself fucking just spending thousands of dollars

2185
01:39:35,960 --> 01:39:37,960
Speaker 3: on plug ins and it's like what the fuck? I

2186
01:39:38,000 --> 01:39:41,240
Speaker 3: don't even use half of them now, you know, But

2187
01:39:41,439 --> 01:39:43,080
Speaker 3: just you see a new plug in come out, You're like,

2188
01:39:43,080 --> 01:39:44,240
Speaker 3: oh shit, that's just dope.

2189
01:39:44,240 --> 01:39:45,840
Speaker 2: I gotta get that shit. You get it.

2190
01:39:46,360 --> 01:39:49,200
Speaker 1: What was the first ever software you were fucking around

2191
01:39:49,240 --> 01:39:50,599
Speaker 1: on music?

2192
01:39:50,720 --> 01:39:50,920
Speaker 4: Yeah?

2193
01:39:51,040 --> 01:39:53,880
Speaker 3: No, I started off with hardware. Like my first drum

2194
01:39:53,880 --> 01:39:57,120
Speaker 3: machine was SP three h three. I just now got

2195
01:39:57,160 --> 01:39:59,920
Speaker 3: into like maybe a few years ago, was using use

2196
01:40:00,040 --> 01:40:02,639
Speaker 3: in the software. I never really fucked with that ship.

2197
01:40:02,920 --> 01:40:06,240
Speaker 3: But my first drum machine was an SP three or three.

2198
01:40:06,680 --> 01:40:10,120
Speaker 3: And then eventually I saved up some money and then

2199
01:40:10,160 --> 01:40:13,280
Speaker 3: that's when the MPC one thousand came out. I got that,

2200
01:40:14,080 --> 01:40:15,840
Speaker 3: and then I've been Yeah, so I've been making beats

2201
01:40:15,880 --> 01:40:17,640
Speaker 3: for a long time. I just haven't even I just

2202
01:40:17,680 --> 01:40:18,799
Speaker 3: never wrap over my beats.

2203
01:40:20,400 --> 01:40:22,200
Speaker 1: You ever use AI to make me?

2204
01:40:22,320 --> 01:40:23,559
Speaker 2: Yes, it's dope as fuck.

2205
01:40:23,920 --> 01:40:25,760
Speaker 3: When it first was coming around, and shit, I was

2206
01:40:25,760 --> 01:40:28,080
Speaker 3: hating on it, But what I realized is that if

2207
01:40:28,680 --> 01:40:32,519
Speaker 3: it does cut Like I love all the AI mixing software, yeah,

2208
01:40:32,760 --> 01:40:35,160
Speaker 3: because you know, you want to hate on it and

2209
01:40:35,160 --> 01:40:37,680
Speaker 3: ship like that, but it saves you so much fucking time, right,

2210
01:40:37,760 --> 01:40:39,240
Speaker 3: and you know, and could I mean, I'm not saying

2211
01:40:39,280 --> 01:40:41,919
Speaker 3: that it's not the end all, it's just getting you halfway.

2212
01:40:42,000 --> 01:40:44,840
Speaker 3: So if you know your ship. It's able to save

2213
01:40:44,880 --> 01:40:46,639
Speaker 3: you a lot of time where you can be creative

2214
01:40:46,640 --> 01:40:48,759
Speaker 3: and I have to worry about the actual fucking sound

2215
01:40:48,760 --> 01:40:52,320
Speaker 3: of the ship. So I definitely fuck with the the

2216
01:40:52,360 --> 01:40:53,400
Speaker 3: mixing software and.

2217
01:40:53,360 --> 01:40:55,479
Speaker 2: Ship like that. So I use that ship a lot.

2218
01:40:55,680 --> 01:40:57,320
Speaker 1: That's good. That's good that you're an optimist.

2219
01:40:57,640 --> 01:40:59,120
Speaker 2: Yeah, I think what it is.

2220
01:40:59,160 --> 01:41:01,240
Speaker 3: I think the people that hating on the AI ship

2221
01:41:01,479 --> 01:41:03,720
Speaker 3: is that motherfuckers that ain't that dope anyway.

2222
01:41:04,160 --> 01:41:06,320
Speaker 2: Not everybody gonna be able to make a trap beat

2223
01:41:06,360 --> 01:41:07,840
Speaker 2: through AI, you know what I'm saying.

2224
01:41:07,880 --> 01:41:10,480
Speaker 3: But if if you really got some style and some

2225
01:41:10,479 --> 01:41:12,360
Speaker 3: some real talent with this shit, and you ain't worried

2226
01:41:12,400 --> 01:41:14,120
Speaker 3: about it, it is making your shit.

2227
01:41:14,000 --> 01:41:16,639
Speaker 1: Doper, right. That's the thing is like if if you're

2228
01:41:16,720 --> 01:41:18,920
Speaker 1: if you're really that worried that AI is going to

2229
01:41:19,000 --> 01:41:20,719
Speaker 1: take away away.

2230
01:41:21,640 --> 01:41:23,720
Speaker 2: Yeah, so everybody be able to make a trap beat

2231
01:41:23,720 --> 01:41:24,240
Speaker 2: in the minute.

2232
01:41:24,280 --> 01:41:27,560
Speaker 1: So even with like trying to come up with ideas

2233
01:41:27,600 --> 01:41:30,679
Speaker 1: and stuff and write things, like you can just type

2234
01:41:30,720 --> 01:41:33,559
Speaker 1: a prompt and to chat GPT and it'll generate like

2235
01:41:34,320 --> 01:41:36,599
Speaker 1: vague ideas and then you can be creative and like

2236
01:41:36,720 --> 01:41:38,320
Speaker 1: go off of like vague ideas that.

2237
01:41:38,240 --> 01:41:40,840
Speaker 3: Are now that's the one thing I did hear about that.

2238
01:41:40,880 --> 01:41:43,120
Speaker 3: I'm not fucking with that. I heard motherfuckers is using

2239
01:41:43,120 --> 01:41:45,519
Speaker 3: a OU to write raps, Like you can write a

2240
01:41:45,560 --> 01:41:47,920
Speaker 3: line and it'll write to your next line for you. Like,

2241
01:41:48,520 --> 01:41:50,720
Speaker 3: now that's getting Now that's getting fucked up.

2242
01:41:50,840 --> 01:41:53,360
Speaker 1: You know, you know what, do you think one day

2243
01:41:53,560 --> 01:41:55,840
Speaker 1: somebody will just pop off really hard in the rap

2244
01:41:55,920 --> 01:41:58,400
Speaker 1: scene and then get exposed that they've been using a.

2245
01:41:58,520 --> 01:42:00,960
Speaker 3: I think it's already been happening on the low, like

2246
01:42:01,160 --> 01:42:03,599
Speaker 3: some of ty rappers is probably using AI already.

2247
01:42:04,760 --> 01:42:05,320
Speaker 2: I bet you could.

2248
01:42:05,320 --> 01:42:08,599
Speaker 1: That'd be sick of you. You could probably create a rapper

2249
01:42:08,920 --> 01:42:11,080
Speaker 1: out of AI. You could like fucking use AI to

2250
01:42:11,120 --> 01:42:12,240
Speaker 1: make a human face.

2251
01:42:12,320 --> 01:42:14,840
Speaker 2: He was trying, wasn't they? Then they shut that ship down?

2252
01:42:15,120 --> 01:42:15,759
Speaker 1: Who was trying?

2253
01:42:15,920 --> 01:42:17,800
Speaker 2: I think? I mean? Did it was one of the

2254
01:42:17,840 --> 01:42:19,280
Speaker 2: AI rapper that got a record deal?

2255
01:42:19,960 --> 01:42:22,439
Speaker 3: No, yeah, it was the whole thing I talked about it.

2256
01:42:22,680 --> 01:42:23,920
Speaker 3: I was hating on it for sure.

2257
01:42:25,120 --> 01:42:27,920
Speaker 1: If I wish, I'm I'm I know that. Oh this

2258
01:42:27,960 --> 01:42:29,160
Speaker 1: guy what is this guy's name?

2259
01:42:29,760 --> 01:42:31,160
Speaker 2: Him?

2260
01:42:31,720 --> 01:42:34,680
Speaker 1: F and Mecca, I'm so i'm this, I'm I'm so

2261
01:42:34,840 --> 01:42:37,000
Speaker 1: bad at uh, you know, all these fucking guys on

2262
01:42:37,040 --> 01:42:39,120
Speaker 1: their podcasts. They know how to like pull stuff up.

2263
01:42:39,520 --> 01:42:42,760
Speaker 1: I'm a terrible pull stuff up guy.

2264
01:42:42,920 --> 01:42:43,840
Speaker 2: He got canceled.

2265
01:42:44,600 --> 01:42:47,880
Speaker 1: Well he didn't. He never even existed, so he's still

2266
01:42:47,920 --> 01:42:51,919
Speaker 1: be fine. That good. Someone said, Danny as ice Spice

2267
01:42:52,080 --> 01:42:52,800
Speaker 1: is hious.

2268
01:42:53,000 --> 01:42:55,080
Speaker 2: Yeah, that was a AI thing that was funny.

2269
01:42:55,560 --> 01:42:56,280
Speaker 1: What was it was?

2270
01:42:56,400 --> 01:42:57,120
Speaker 2: Somebody made a.

2271
01:42:58,760 --> 01:43:01,600
Speaker 3: AI of me on I Spice body, my head on

2272
01:43:01,680 --> 01:43:04,400
Speaker 3: Ice Spicy body, and you know me, I took it.

2273
01:43:04,680 --> 01:43:06,760
Speaker 3: It was hilarious to me, so I shared it. But

2274
01:43:08,320 --> 01:43:12,840
Speaker 3: it's just showing Oh do you want to watch it?

2275
01:43:13,000 --> 01:43:16,320
Speaker 1: Brown? Let's see. I don't know if I can. Oh,

2276
01:43:16,400 --> 01:43:20,160
Speaker 1: is it a video or is it like a Okay,

2277
01:43:22,000 --> 01:43:23,559
Speaker 1: all right here, I'll watch it and maybe we can

2278
01:43:23,600 --> 01:43:29,519
Speaker 1: put it in later. Danny Brown shares, this is a

2279
01:43:29,520 --> 01:43:32,479
Speaker 1: fucking article. No, isn't that so stupid? Is it?

2280
01:43:32,600 --> 01:43:35,559
Speaker 2: Slow day? For a lot of media they use this.

2281
01:43:36,280 --> 01:43:39,439
Speaker 1: I looked it up and I saw the complex, tweeted

2282
01:43:39,960 --> 01:43:44,719
Speaker 1: Brown tweeted Ice Spice generated deep fake video.

2283
01:43:45,600 --> 01:43:45,840
Speaker 2: Yeah.

2284
01:43:47,680 --> 01:43:50,760
Speaker 1: Fuck, okay, this is so annoying that I google it

2285
01:43:50,800 --> 01:43:53,120
Speaker 1: and instead of you, and instead of you at first,

2286
01:43:53,200 --> 01:43:57,080
Speaker 1: it's showing me that all right, I'm gonna go to videos.

2287
01:43:59,600 --> 01:44:01,120
Speaker 1: Puppy yeah, I just want to look.

2288
01:44:01,160 --> 01:44:02,840
Speaker 2: Look how many articles who wrote about that.

2289
01:44:02,880 --> 01:44:05,840
Speaker 3: Who they could be using their time to like put

2290
01:44:05,880 --> 01:44:07,720
Speaker 3: on new artists and ship like that.

2291
01:44:07,760 --> 01:44:18,120
Speaker 1: This is their post that actually sounds really good, Brandon,

2292
01:44:18,160 --> 01:44:20,880
Speaker 1: I'll send you this to put in later.

2293
01:44:21,320 --> 01:44:23,720
Speaker 3: But yeah, I feel like a lot of media they

2294
01:44:23,720 --> 01:44:27,080
Speaker 3: could be spending that time like putting on the next

2295
01:44:27,120 --> 01:44:29,440
Speaker 3: Danny Brown instead of fucking posting.

2296
01:44:29,120 --> 01:44:32,720
Speaker 1: Ship like right, you know, right right, there's a guy dead, boy,

2297
01:44:32,760 --> 01:44:34,559
Speaker 1: guys who died. Okay, you want you want to talk

2298
01:44:34,600 --> 01:44:36,439
Speaker 1: to the guy who died for two minutes on his

2299
01:44:36,479 --> 01:44:36,960
Speaker 1: own vomit?

2300
01:44:37,240 --> 01:44:38,280
Speaker 2: This sounds a little dark.

2301
01:44:38,920 --> 01:44:48,679
Speaker 1: Hello, sounds like he died again? All right, No fucking way, Marco,

2302
01:44:48,760 --> 01:44:49,559
Speaker 1: what's up, man.

2303
01:44:50,479 --> 01:44:52,280
Speaker 13: There's no fucking way.

2304
01:44:52,320 --> 01:44:53,040
Speaker 5: I'm on call.

2305
01:44:53,280 --> 01:44:55,240
Speaker 13: First of all, I've seen here in the stream for

2306
01:44:55,479 --> 01:44:57,560
Speaker 13: like so long. I'm actually hyped.

2307
01:44:58,920 --> 01:45:01,040
Speaker 1: Thanks man, What's what's going on?

2308
01:45:01,400 --> 01:45:04,640
Speaker 13: How's life for being super excited by the Way to

2309
01:45:04,800 --> 01:45:10,120
Speaker 13: Breakfast or being super hyped? I have recently b BPD

2310
01:45:10,720 --> 01:45:13,519
Speaker 13: and ADHD. So if anyone in the chat is like,

2311
01:45:14,000 --> 01:45:18,040
Speaker 13: get a badger me over my story, just no, you know, compulsivity.

2312
01:45:18,160 --> 01:45:21,280
Speaker 13: It's really hard for me. But it was recently my

2313
01:45:21,360 --> 01:45:25,160
Speaker 13: second time at the bar, and I fucking died and

2314
01:45:25,240 --> 01:45:29,439
Speaker 13: she was crazy. It took me. It sounds stupid, but

2315
01:45:29,640 --> 01:45:32,760
Speaker 13: like after the fact, it was unrelated. I had a

2316
01:45:32,800 --> 01:45:36,360
Speaker 13: doctor's appointment, but I'm getting too out of myself, so

2317
01:45:37,360 --> 01:45:41,880
Speaker 13: I went to a bar in near my downtown area

2318
01:45:42,200 --> 01:45:47,519
Speaker 13: with one of my coworkers, and I just like it

2319
01:45:47,560 --> 01:45:51,719
Speaker 13: was like a bunch of awful decisions. Mind you, zero

2320
01:45:52,320 --> 01:45:55,799
Speaker 13: nothing in my belly at two medications on me, zero sleep,

2321
01:45:56,120 --> 01:45:58,400
Speaker 13: So it was just like a combination of asking to

2322
01:45:58,439 --> 01:46:03,320
Speaker 13: fuck around and find out but what's the call my friends?

2323
01:46:03,320 --> 01:46:05,800
Speaker 13: He wanted to like just show me out because I

2324
01:46:05,800 --> 01:46:07,240
Speaker 13: told him that I've never been to like a b

2325
01:46:07,640 --> 01:46:09,640
Speaker 13: I have. Like he was like, this was like my

2326
01:46:09,720 --> 01:46:12,280
Speaker 13: second adventure going out with him, and he's kind of

2327
01:46:12,320 --> 01:46:14,280
Speaker 13: like a wild card, Like he's kind of like a

2328
01:46:14,439 --> 01:46:16,080
Speaker 13: I don't know, shouldn't be really hanging out with him.

2329
01:46:16,520 --> 01:46:18,439
Speaker 13: But he was loaded me with like all sorts of

2330
01:46:18,439 --> 01:46:21,519
Speaker 13: cocktails and shit. And the only thing I remembered from

2331
01:46:21,520 --> 01:46:25,360
Speaker 13: the fact was what's it called? What was he wanted

2332
01:46:25,400 --> 01:46:29,559
Speaker 13: to smoke outside? I went outside with him and what's

2333
01:46:29,600 --> 01:46:33,040
Speaker 13: it called? Uh, Yeah, that's all I remember. Just woke

2334
01:46:33,120 --> 01:46:34,560
Speaker 13: up at the hospital.

2335
01:46:35,680 --> 01:46:38,320
Speaker 1: Did your friend drug?

2336
01:46:40,200 --> 01:46:42,839
Speaker 13: No, that was the thing that was so fucking funny.

2337
01:46:42,920 --> 01:46:44,680
Speaker 13: He was like the funniest part. So when I woke

2338
01:46:44,800 --> 01:46:48,639
Speaker 13: up in the hospital, I didn't remember anything other than

2339
01:46:49,040 --> 01:46:52,760
Speaker 13: him wanting to smoke outside. And so when I woke up,

2340
01:46:53,800 --> 01:46:56,640
Speaker 13: I was just panicked. I was fucking naked, and I

2341
01:46:56,640 --> 01:46:58,519
Speaker 13: saw in the corner beside me that there was a

2342
01:46:58,520 --> 01:47:00,479
Speaker 13: pile of my clothes, but I thought it was all clothes,

2343
01:47:00,520 --> 01:47:04,360
Speaker 13: And ironically, from the fact, was exact morning that day,

2344
01:47:04,560 --> 01:47:06,800
Speaker 13: and I bought these cool ass nifty car heart pants

2345
01:47:06,840 --> 01:47:09,080
Speaker 13: for my job. So I was just worn that they

2346
01:47:09,080 --> 01:47:11,439
Speaker 13: cut out my pants and my shirt. But I saw

2347
01:47:11,439 --> 01:47:12,960
Speaker 13: that my clothes in the corner, but they only cut

2348
01:47:13,000 --> 01:47:17,120
Speaker 13: up my shirt. But what's it called? I panic because

2349
01:47:17,200 --> 01:47:19,879
Speaker 13: I was like, oh, like, I've never been to the hospital.

2350
01:47:19,880 --> 01:47:21,799
Speaker 13: I had like a bunch of IVS on my body,

2351
01:47:22,560 --> 01:47:25,519
Speaker 13: and I called my mom and my siblings. Took him

2352
01:47:25,520 --> 01:47:28,640
Speaker 13: a little while to get there, and I feel like

2353
01:47:28,680 --> 01:47:31,360
Speaker 13: the nurse tried to like make me look like a

2354
01:47:31,360 --> 01:47:35,080
Speaker 13: fucking attic because I was kind of scared too. She

2355
01:47:35,680 --> 01:47:39,120
Speaker 13: my mom was like sitting beside and h NR like

2356
01:47:39,160 --> 01:47:42,760
Speaker 13: the red sterted nurse was like, oh, so your son

2357
01:47:42,840 --> 01:47:46,120
Speaker 13: has like multiple drugs in his body. And she starts

2358
01:47:46,200 --> 01:47:49,439
Speaker 13: listening off like the medications. She's ah, fuck, I could

2359
01:47:49,439 --> 01:47:53,200
Speaker 13: remember it was METS, which I got scared when she

2360
01:47:53,200 --> 01:47:55,360
Speaker 13: said METS, because I'm like, what the fuck? But that

2361
01:47:55,479 --> 01:48:00,000
Speaker 13: was my medication for my ADHD. Then it was benzo diazepine,

2362
01:48:00,280 --> 01:48:02,920
Speaker 13: which I stupidly thought that that was for the VPD,

2363
01:48:03,400 --> 01:48:06,080
Speaker 13: but that wasn't the case. And this will like coincide

2364
01:48:06,120 --> 01:48:09,320
Speaker 13: with the like a prior thing, but it was smith

2365
01:48:09,520 --> 01:48:14,040
Speaker 13: Benjo had diazepine another medication, and alcohol and weeds, and

2366
01:48:14,280 --> 01:48:17,240
Speaker 13: I already knew that. And I told the doctor like

2367
01:48:17,280 --> 01:48:19,960
Speaker 13: that all those medications are for like you know, and

2368
01:48:20,200 --> 01:48:24,720
Speaker 13: they trace back my medical information and everything came conclusive.

2369
01:48:25,160 --> 01:48:28,760
Speaker 13: It was only completely unrelated a week later where I

2370
01:48:28,760 --> 01:48:31,840
Speaker 13: had to do a following Uh what do you call it?

2371
01:48:31,840 --> 01:48:34,240
Speaker 13: It was from something unrelated, but it was for like

2372
01:48:34,880 --> 01:48:38,840
Speaker 13: psychiatric stuff for my BPD, and it was something like

2373
01:48:39,080 --> 01:48:41,880
Speaker 13: no one wants to see. Like the doctor looked at

2374
01:48:41,880 --> 01:48:44,600
Speaker 13: me like in awe, Like she was like just like,

2375
01:48:45,400 --> 01:48:47,360
Speaker 13: I don't know. It was a look that like will

2376
01:48:47,400 --> 01:48:50,439
Speaker 13: forever stay with my young twenty two year old soul.

2377
01:48:50,520 --> 01:48:52,040
Speaker 13: But she just looked at me with like such a

2378
01:48:52,040 --> 01:48:55,160
Speaker 13: weird but like bewilderment, and she's like, you shouldn't be here,

2379
01:48:55,240 --> 01:48:57,679
Speaker 13: And she was like reading out the notes and saying

2380
01:48:57,800 --> 01:49:00,479
Speaker 13: like that like it was only told like the mouth,

2381
01:49:00,479 --> 01:49:02,320
Speaker 13: because the doc, I think then have the soul to

2382
01:49:02,360 --> 01:49:05,720
Speaker 13: tell me it was only when my doctors like you

2383
01:49:05,760 --> 01:49:08,120
Speaker 13: shouldn't be here, like you legally died on like her

2384
01:49:08,200 --> 01:49:10,479
Speaker 13: way like the bend of diazepines. She was grilling me

2385
01:49:10,520 --> 01:49:10,840
Speaker 13: about that.

2386
01:49:11,120 --> 01:49:17,920
Speaker 1: Yes, yeah, what did you what was this shit that

2387
01:49:18,000 --> 01:49:20,559
Speaker 1: your friend did you smoked with your friends?

2388
01:49:20,600 --> 01:49:21,559
Speaker 13: No, well, here's the thing.

2389
01:49:22,000 --> 01:49:22,559
Speaker 10: Here's the thing.

2390
01:49:22,600 --> 01:49:25,240
Speaker 13: Here's the thing about like the funniest part. The doctor

2391
01:49:25,320 --> 01:49:28,160
Speaker 13: wasn't going to prescribe in my medication because she saw

2392
01:49:28,160 --> 01:49:30,639
Speaker 13: the bendo diazepine and I was like, oh, it wasn't

2393
01:49:30,640 --> 01:49:32,839
Speaker 13: that for my bipolar and she's like that's not for bipolar,

2394
01:49:33,120 --> 01:49:34,800
Speaker 13: Like that's for like and she was like listening off

2395
01:49:34,800 --> 01:49:36,559
Speaker 13: stuff like this is like usually what we get for

2396
01:49:36,600 --> 01:49:39,000
Speaker 13: people with like really bad anxiety. So she's like, you

2397
01:49:39,120 --> 01:49:41,400
Speaker 13: either were drugged, like your friend might have drugged you,

2398
01:49:41,479 --> 01:49:43,839
Speaker 13: or you were like date grape, or you're doing hardcore

2399
01:49:43,920 --> 01:49:47,200
Speaker 13: drugs like you're like abusing. And I was fucking scared.

2400
01:49:47,240 --> 01:49:50,040
Speaker 13: I was like, well, like there's two fears, like one

2401
01:49:50,040 --> 01:49:51,800
Speaker 13: that she thinks I'm like using drugs and like I'm

2402
01:49:51,840 --> 01:49:54,479
Speaker 13: a junkie, but there's nothing wrong, like you know. But

2403
01:49:54,880 --> 01:49:57,360
Speaker 13: another part was like obviously like I got big breaks,

2404
01:49:57,720 --> 01:49:59,960
Speaker 13: and I was like trying to think very hard. I'm like,

2405
01:50:00,320 --> 01:50:03,200
Speaker 13: did anyone spiked me? And she even said something even scarier.

2406
01:50:03,200 --> 01:50:05,519
Speaker 13: She's like, you can also be injected. But she's like,

2407
01:50:05,560 --> 01:50:07,479
Speaker 13: I highly doubt someone's not gonna go in a bar

2408
01:50:07,560 --> 01:50:09,559
Speaker 13: and like inject you with a s arrange fold with

2409
01:50:09,680 --> 01:50:12,160
Speaker 13: that shit. But it was only when she was doing

2410
01:50:12,200 --> 01:50:15,000
Speaker 13: like the research, the deeper research, and she's like, oh,

2411
01:50:15,080 --> 01:50:18,640
Speaker 13: they gave me the benzodiazepine while you're like intubated, like

2412
01:50:18,680 --> 01:50:21,799
Speaker 13: when you're like dying on like the ambulance. I was like, oh,

2413
01:50:21,880 --> 01:50:24,960
Speaker 13: that makes sense, so she passed that off. But yeah,

2414
01:50:25,000 --> 01:50:26,920
Speaker 13: it was just a mixture of me not sleeping, my

2415
01:50:26,960 --> 01:50:29,680
Speaker 13: medication and shit that caused me to happen. Had it

2416
01:50:29,680 --> 01:50:31,920
Speaker 13: not been for that, I would have been okay. But yeah,

2417
01:50:32,520 --> 01:50:37,200
Speaker 13: lessen to people don't mix and drink really stupid fucking shit. Yeah,

2418
01:50:37,600 --> 01:50:39,880
Speaker 13: like it only took to the doctor like that. She

2419
01:50:39,960 --> 01:50:42,120
Speaker 13: looked at me. She's like, you shouldn't be here, which

2420
01:50:42,160 --> 01:50:44,400
Speaker 13: is something like you don't want your fucking primary doctor

2421
01:50:44,439 --> 01:50:46,479
Speaker 13: to tell you it was a big fucking head trip.

2422
01:50:48,640 --> 01:50:51,519
Speaker 13: But yeah, that is my story of me fucking dying.

2423
01:50:51,760 --> 01:50:53,240
Speaker 13: It was kind of funny because I had like this,

2424
01:50:53,360 --> 01:50:56,000
Speaker 13: like I've always had this extensionism of like what's like

2425
01:50:56,040 --> 01:51:00,559
Speaker 13: the afterlife religion and all that jazz and having that happen,

2426
01:51:00,720 --> 01:51:03,599
Speaker 13: like it very much like I don't know any more grateful,

2427
01:51:03,640 --> 01:51:04,719
Speaker 13: like more PEPs in my step.

2428
01:51:05,640 --> 01:51:07,120
Speaker 3: Yeah, I was going to ask you that because you

2429
01:51:07,160 --> 01:51:09,400
Speaker 3: seem a little too happy to be a mother that

2430
01:51:09,600 --> 01:51:10,040
Speaker 3: just died.

2431
01:51:10,120 --> 01:51:13,880
Speaker 1: I think you seem very like happy and excited to

2432
01:51:13,920 --> 01:51:15,280
Speaker 1: be telling this story.

2433
01:51:15,680 --> 01:51:19,599
Speaker 13: I both of y'all. And this is so funny too

2434
01:51:19,640 --> 01:51:21,519
Speaker 13: because I was watching to Kill Tony when you were

2435
01:51:21,520 --> 01:51:24,000
Speaker 13: on it. I love your music, Danny Brown, I love

2436
01:51:24,040 --> 01:51:26,439
Speaker 13: your everything, your streams and all that ship. I guess

2437
01:51:26,479 --> 01:51:28,759
Speaker 13: I was going, like, I guess Danny Brown's fucking crazy,

2438
01:51:29,080 --> 01:51:31,639
Speaker 13: because like I shouldn't have been drinking all that stupid

2439
01:51:31,680 --> 01:51:34,040
Speaker 13: ship like Eve when I tell people that, like I know,

2440
01:51:34,080 --> 01:51:36,639
Speaker 13: like I was an idiot, a fucking massive idiot regards

2441
01:51:36,760 --> 01:51:39,000
Speaker 13: if it was like my mental problems are just me

2442
01:51:39,120 --> 01:51:42,280
Speaker 13: being me, but like yeah, I could easily sucked around

2443
01:51:42,320 --> 01:51:45,320
Speaker 13: and found out that day it.

2444
01:51:45,320 --> 01:51:49,519
Speaker 3: Was you have a second chance at life now, like

2445
01:51:50,000 --> 01:51:52,800
Speaker 3: you know, everything almost just been opra with no that's

2446
01:51:52,840 --> 01:51:53,920
Speaker 3: what my that was.

2447
01:51:53,920 --> 01:51:55,880
Speaker 13: Like what was crazy? My document said that like you

2448
01:51:55,880 --> 01:51:58,400
Speaker 13: should very much like you know, be grateful that like

2449
01:51:58,439 --> 01:52:00,760
Speaker 13: you're here, like you really shouldn't like and that was

2450
01:52:00,800 --> 01:52:02,760
Speaker 13: like the scary part that like really made me, like

2451
01:52:03,360 --> 01:52:06,000
Speaker 13: it did dawn on me heavily, like this weird boloom

2452
01:52:06,040 --> 01:52:08,920
Speaker 13: of like depression afterwards because she's all like, I don't know.

2453
01:52:09,080 --> 01:52:11,240
Speaker 13: It really scared me that the doctor told me that

2454
01:52:11,240 --> 01:52:13,400
Speaker 13: that's when it fully realized. And like my mom even

2455
01:52:13,439 --> 01:52:15,400
Speaker 13: said like like don mask did it take you like

2456
01:52:15,439 --> 01:52:17,800
Speaker 13: a doctor like your second time around to tell you,

2457
01:52:17,800 --> 01:52:20,080
Speaker 13: because my mom was like when in it it happened.

2458
01:52:20,240 --> 01:52:22,080
Speaker 13: I just went about like still going with my friends,

2459
01:52:22,080 --> 01:52:23,720
Speaker 13: and my mom was like, you need a resp like

2460
01:52:23,800 --> 01:52:27,120
Speaker 13: it's serious. It was only until like my doctor sent

2461
01:52:27,240 --> 01:52:29,679
Speaker 13: me down, looked me dead in the eyes and was like, yeah,

2462
01:52:29,840 --> 01:52:32,240
Speaker 13: you shouldn't have been like here like file was in

2463
01:52:32,240 --> 01:52:35,080
Speaker 13: your stomach. It wasn't funny because I thought I didn't

2464
01:52:35,200 --> 01:52:38,200
Speaker 13: ate the whole day at work because I skipped the work.

2465
01:52:38,360 --> 01:52:40,000
Speaker 13: My friends like go on addition and go to the bar.

2466
01:52:40,040 --> 01:52:41,000
Speaker 13: I'm like, I'm fucking down.

2467
01:52:41,840 --> 01:52:45,400
Speaker 1: But yeah, so now that you have this like second

2468
01:52:45,560 --> 01:52:48,040
Speaker 1: chance of life and you're feeling like what do you

2469
01:52:48,840 --> 01:52:50,920
Speaker 1: what do you want to do? Man? What what do

2470
01:52:51,040 --> 01:52:54,280
Speaker 1: you what are you going to do with this new uhh?

2471
01:52:56,640 --> 01:53:00,360
Speaker 13: Yeah, I think I've always had it, but now even

2472
01:53:00,600 --> 01:53:03,599
Speaker 13: more like get sat with me of like really that

2473
01:53:03,760 --> 01:53:05,560
Speaker 13: like I don't want to say that corny as like

2474
01:53:05,600 --> 01:53:07,760
Speaker 13: full sent but like you really in life have to

2475
01:53:07,800 --> 01:53:10,360
Speaker 13: have that like you know, bravado to do shit like

2476
01:53:10,400 --> 01:53:12,680
Speaker 13: if no one like that's like I guess a good

2477
01:53:12,760 --> 01:53:16,680
Speaker 13: quote I was here podcasters people motivational speakers say it's

2478
01:53:16,720 --> 01:53:19,759
Speaker 13: really true, like you can only do so much for yourself,

2479
01:53:20,080 --> 01:53:21,560
Speaker 13: like no one like your mom a is going to

2480
01:53:21,600 --> 01:53:23,439
Speaker 13: be their daddy ain't gonna be there, your friends are

2481
01:53:23,439 --> 01:53:24,800
Speaker 13: gonna be there, like you can only put your best

2482
01:53:24,800 --> 01:53:27,080
Speaker 13: so forward. I feel like it's taught me now more

2483
01:53:27,120 --> 01:53:31,040
Speaker 13: than ever to be grateful, not really do really impulsive

2484
01:53:31,120 --> 01:53:35,479
Speaker 13: stupid shit. But yeah, more and more I guess grateful

2485
01:53:35,479 --> 01:53:37,920
Speaker 13: and just like just do shit, like at least it's

2486
01:53:37,960 --> 01:53:40,160
Speaker 13: better to know than to not know at all, like

2487
01:53:40,240 --> 01:53:44,280
Speaker 13: just shit, Like it's okay to be anxious with anything

2488
01:53:44,280 --> 01:53:46,880
Speaker 13: in life, like a new job, speaking to a group

2489
01:53:46,960 --> 01:53:49,120
Speaker 13: full of thousands of sucking people or a crowd. It

2490
01:53:49,160 --> 01:53:51,519
Speaker 13: gets normal, Like no one ever does that, I feel

2491
01:53:51,520 --> 01:53:54,280
Speaker 13: like have I guess a subtle sense of anxiety is normal,

2492
01:53:54,800 --> 01:53:57,439
Speaker 13: like to an extent, you know that's really hard to control.

2493
01:53:58,640 --> 01:54:02,600
Speaker 13: But yeah, just that as well as it helped me

2494
01:54:02,880 --> 01:54:05,840
Speaker 13: that situation too a little bit with my job up

2495
01:54:05,960 --> 01:54:08,519
Speaker 13: currently as well as my prior Joe, because I worked

2496
01:54:08,560 --> 01:54:12,200
Speaker 13: at a I don't want to fully like it was

2497
01:54:12,240 --> 01:54:12,920
Speaker 13: a what do you?

2498
01:54:13,000 --> 01:54:13,920
Speaker 2: What do you? What do you?

2499
01:54:13,960 --> 01:54:14,719
Speaker 1: What do you do now?

2500
01:54:17,880 --> 01:54:21,439
Speaker 13: I want to say, but like I'm not checking the

2501
01:54:21,479 --> 01:54:23,040
Speaker 13: stream right now or anything. I don't give a fuck

2502
01:54:23,080 --> 01:54:26,599
Speaker 13: what people said. But it's kind of I guess it's

2503
01:54:26,720 --> 01:54:30,680
Speaker 13: very pacific Northwest Washington, I'll say that, but it's very mechanical.

2504
01:54:30,800 --> 01:54:35,200
Speaker 13: I guess. No, actually no. I did a class and

2505
01:54:35,240 --> 01:54:37,400
Speaker 13: they did a cool OSHA thing and this is like,

2506
01:54:37,440 --> 01:54:39,120
Speaker 13: I guess other cool sho I could talk about.

2507
01:54:39,760 --> 01:54:40,720
Speaker 10: Uh.

2508
01:54:40,760 --> 01:54:43,800
Speaker 13: I did a class for high school, which is like

2509
01:54:43,840 --> 01:54:46,920
Speaker 13: a college thing, and one of the classes I did

2510
01:54:47,040 --> 01:54:50,040
Speaker 13: was aerospace and they did like an ocean thing. And

2511
01:54:50,080 --> 01:54:53,000
Speaker 13: they basically were talking about like incidents in general for

2512
01:54:53,120 --> 01:54:56,120
Speaker 13: all jobs, and here in Pacific Northwest is a lot

2513
01:54:56,120 --> 01:54:58,760
Speaker 13: of like blue college lumberjack job. It's just like this

2514
01:54:58,880 --> 01:55:01,120
Speaker 13: fucked a video of a lumberjack and like his fingers missing,

2515
01:55:01,560 --> 01:55:04,440
Speaker 13: like some incident happens. Yeah, it's like I don't know,

2516
01:55:05,000 --> 01:55:08,320
Speaker 13: that's another I guess with Like the incident happened made

2517
01:55:08,360 --> 01:55:10,720
Speaker 13: me way way I was already way more grateful and

2518
01:55:10,760 --> 01:55:13,320
Speaker 13: left because I watched pretty graphic content that like they

2519
01:55:13,360 --> 01:55:15,960
Speaker 13: see humble to like, I guess, drive safe, like look

2520
01:55:16,040 --> 01:55:19,800
Speaker 13: both ways, like be very safe in my job, but like, yeah,

2521
01:55:19,880 --> 01:55:21,880
Speaker 13: my current job, Like I don't know, there's way more

2522
01:55:21,960 --> 01:55:24,640
Speaker 13: ways to get hurt. I worked at prior to this,

2523
01:55:24,680 --> 01:55:27,840
Speaker 13: it was like four years of CNC and press break

2524
01:55:27,840 --> 01:55:30,120
Speaker 13: and that witnessed like multiple people getting their fingers like

2525
01:55:30,120 --> 01:55:32,400
Speaker 13: blown out. That was really like traumatic for me.

2526
01:55:32,440 --> 01:55:35,920
Speaker 1: I guess yeah, crazy job. Crazy fucked up internet videos

2527
01:55:36,000 --> 01:55:39,920
Speaker 1: is one of my favorite topics. It does well because

2528
01:55:39,920 --> 01:55:41,840
Speaker 1: it does do that. It does do that for you,

2529
01:55:42,040 --> 01:55:45,280
Speaker 1: right because you see all these car accidents and lumberjacks

2530
01:55:45,320 --> 01:55:47,360
Speaker 1: getting their fingers cut off, and it makes you feel like, well,

2531
01:55:47,400 --> 01:55:50,120
Speaker 1: all right, life is. It's actually pretty good if you're

2532
01:55:50,120 --> 01:55:52,120
Speaker 1: not the people in these videos, but so.

2533
01:55:52,120 --> 01:55:55,839
Speaker 13: Crazy that like all those like I guess crazy shock videos.

2534
01:55:55,960 --> 01:55:58,320
Speaker 13: It's funny whether wherever it comes from, Like there's like

2535
01:55:58,320 --> 01:56:00,320
Speaker 13: it's been going on since the nineties, like all the

2536
01:56:00,360 --> 01:56:03,120
Speaker 13: shock pages. But it's so interesting. It's seeing the comments

2537
01:56:03,280 --> 01:56:05,640
Speaker 13: of people what they say, and some people like there's

2538
01:56:06,280 --> 01:56:08,880
Speaker 13: usually like poles of like, oh, why do you guys

2539
01:56:08,960 --> 01:56:10,960
Speaker 13: watch this? Like there's always like that, like you know,

2540
01:56:11,040 --> 01:56:12,840
Speaker 13: like just a comment and people usually say that, and

2541
01:56:12,880 --> 01:56:15,960
Speaker 13: I can heavily understand that, like it could very much

2542
01:56:16,000 --> 01:56:18,879
Speaker 13: help certain people as well as like interiorate your mindset.

2543
01:56:18,920 --> 01:56:20,720
Speaker 13: Like it's not for everyone. It's not some shit you

2544
01:56:20,760 --> 01:56:22,840
Speaker 13: should seek out, but like when you watch that type

2545
01:56:22,840 --> 01:56:24,880
Speaker 13: of shit, it's like, damn, it really makes you. Like

2546
01:56:25,040 --> 01:56:28,520
Speaker 13: from my SENC and pressprict machine, it made me very

2547
01:56:28,680 --> 01:56:30,920
Speaker 13: very like safe. I guess that was like the reason

2548
01:56:30,920 --> 01:56:32,920
Speaker 13: why I was so safe on that job. Then continue

2549
01:56:32,960 --> 01:56:34,320
Speaker 13: on with the job that I have currently.

2550
01:56:35,240 --> 01:56:37,800
Speaker 1: Danny, you ever watched that? I know that on your

2551
01:56:37,800 --> 01:56:40,600
Speaker 1: mom's house, they watch a lot of videos.

2552
01:56:40,760 --> 01:56:43,960
Speaker 3: Yeah, especially in the early stages moved Internet, like the

2553
01:56:43,960 --> 01:56:46,120
Speaker 3: whole Rotten dot Com and all that kind of shit,

2554
01:56:46,200 --> 01:56:49,800
Speaker 3: but not too much now, you know. Now I'm not

2555
01:56:50,160 --> 01:56:51,800
Speaker 3: trying to see no shit like that I used to

2556
01:56:51,800 --> 01:56:54,120
Speaker 3: be into, like you know, the ice is behaving videos

2557
01:56:54,160 --> 01:56:55,760
Speaker 3: and all that kind of shit. I think now I

2558
01:56:55,880 --> 01:57:00,680
Speaker 3: do every now watch some fucking narco shit in Mexico

2559
01:57:00,720 --> 01:57:04,760
Speaker 3: and they tortured, But that's not something that I seek out.

2560
01:57:05,680 --> 01:57:07,880
Speaker 1: It's so I don't know why I've managed to get

2561
01:57:07,920 --> 01:57:10,680
Speaker 1: into either every fucking podcast I managed to get into

2562
01:57:10,720 --> 01:57:18,560
Speaker 1: a conversation with someone. Well, shit, Danny, do you have

2563
01:57:18,560 --> 01:57:20,520
Speaker 1: any thoughts on anything?

2564
01:57:22,160 --> 01:57:24,480
Speaker 13: I would say, Man, I'm just so happy right now

2565
01:57:24,520 --> 01:57:25,920
Speaker 13: that I got in call with both of y'all.

2566
01:57:26,520 --> 01:57:28,440
Speaker 2: Yeah, I would just say, Bro, you be lucky.

2567
01:57:29,800 --> 01:57:32,560
Speaker 3: You're really lucky, man, Like at twenty two years old,

2568
01:57:32,680 --> 01:57:35,200
Speaker 3: that's still young man. You're still a kid pretty much,

2569
01:57:35,200 --> 01:57:38,280
Speaker 3: and you got so much more life to live. And

2570
01:57:38,320 --> 01:57:40,960
Speaker 3: like you said, just some impulsive decision like that can

2571
01:57:41,000 --> 01:57:42,720
Speaker 3: fucking just end it all. You got to think about

2572
01:57:42,720 --> 01:57:45,800
Speaker 3: your mom and your family ship like that. And you know,

2573
01:57:45,840 --> 01:57:47,360
Speaker 3: as me as a person used to drink a lot

2574
01:57:47,400 --> 01:57:49,080
Speaker 3: and all type of shit and get myself in all

2575
01:57:49,120 --> 01:57:50,880
Speaker 3: types of trouble, that could have ended it all. It's

2576
01:57:50,920 --> 01:57:52,840
Speaker 3: like it's not worth it at the end of the day.

2577
01:57:53,320 --> 01:57:53,960
Speaker 2: So I would just.

2578
01:57:53,880 --> 01:57:56,160
Speaker 13: Say that I need to hear from someone you should really.

2579
01:57:55,920 --> 01:57:59,040
Speaker 3: Feel blessed, man, you should really feel blessed and to

2580
01:57:59,080 --> 01:58:02,000
Speaker 3: be able to see another because it's not promised, you know,

2581
01:58:02,280 --> 01:58:03,960
Speaker 3: and just for you to go through something like that

2582
01:58:04,200 --> 01:58:06,920
Speaker 3: obviously mean you got a lot more life to live

2583
01:58:06,960 --> 01:58:09,200
Speaker 3: and you just put out here for a reason, you know.

2584
01:58:09,560 --> 01:58:10,280
Speaker 2: So I would just.

2585
01:58:10,280 --> 01:58:12,840
Speaker 13: Say, man, you need to just.

2586
01:58:12,160 --> 01:58:14,440
Speaker 3: Take it a lot more serious, because it seems like

2587
01:58:14,520 --> 01:58:16,320
Speaker 3: you had a lot of fun dying to me.

2588
01:58:17,840 --> 01:58:22,240
Speaker 1: No, No, it was your marker. You're living life a

2589
01:58:22,280 --> 01:58:25,240
Speaker 1: mile of a fucking minute, man, I can I can

2590
01:58:25,240 --> 01:58:28,720
Speaker 1: tell which is a fun thing sometimes.

2591
01:58:29,280 --> 01:58:32,200
Speaker 13: No, I wouldn't. I would never think that's funny. I

2592
01:58:32,320 --> 01:58:34,160
Speaker 13: never had like a moment of like it's drinking and

2593
01:58:34,240 --> 01:58:36,840
Speaker 13: my teenagers, like I know, I realized, like I guess

2594
01:58:37,040 --> 01:58:41,240
Speaker 13: in American society or just like people like drinking, I'm way, way,

2595
01:58:41,320 --> 01:58:43,640
Speaker 13: way way more over a smoker. So I don't know.

2596
01:58:43,760 --> 01:58:47,800
Speaker 13: It was very stupid decisions that day, obviously, and heavily

2597
01:58:47,920 --> 01:58:50,840
Speaker 13: heavily on what like Danny said, like really real ship,

2598
01:58:50,920 --> 01:58:52,760
Speaker 13: like my life easily could have been cut short or

2599
01:58:52,760 --> 01:58:54,880
Speaker 13: some stupid tripis ship that goes for I guess, like

2600
01:58:54,920 --> 01:58:57,680
Speaker 13: I can tell that to anyone that goes for everything,

2601
01:58:58,120 --> 01:59:01,240
Speaker 13: Like I guess even with like mental issues or like

2602
01:59:01,320 --> 01:59:03,960
Speaker 13: anger issues, like you could easily lose your whole life

2603
01:59:04,000 --> 01:59:06,280
Speaker 13: over something really trivial stupid argument.

2604
01:59:06,320 --> 01:59:10,840
Speaker 1: Yeah, emotional, So you did in the heat and the moment.

2605
01:59:11,440 --> 01:59:18,280
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, mm hmm, Marco. And you got an effection,

2606
01:59:18,400 --> 01:59:22,640
Speaker 1: you got an infectious energy. Marco. I'm I'm I'm happy

2607
01:59:22,640 --> 01:59:24,520
Speaker 1: for you. I'm happy that you're not dead so you

2608
01:59:24,560 --> 01:59:31,960
Speaker 1: can go live a beautiful doing exciting fun things. True.

2609
01:59:32,120 --> 01:59:35,760
Speaker 13: True, the Pacific Northwest Washington is pretty.

2610
01:59:35,400 --> 01:59:37,960
Speaker 2: Lovely, Marc.

2611
01:59:38,120 --> 01:59:40,840
Speaker 1: Is there any other like before we move on? Is

2612
01:59:40,880 --> 01:59:44,520
Speaker 1: there anything else you wanna you want to say or

2613
01:59:44,520 --> 01:59:45,280
Speaker 1: anything like that?

2614
01:59:45,440 --> 01:59:45,879
Speaker 10: Anything?

2615
01:59:47,120 --> 01:59:49,400
Speaker 13: Yeah, it's pretty much all I had to get off

2616
01:59:49,400 --> 01:59:51,600
Speaker 13: of my chest. Are any other details or any like,

2617
01:59:51,760 --> 01:59:53,440
Speaker 13: I don't know. That's pretty much all I have to

2618
01:59:53,480 --> 01:59:54,480
Speaker 13: say about the incident.

2619
01:59:54,960 --> 02:00:02,160
Speaker 3: Oh yeah, man, I'm gonna pray for you.

2620
02:00:02,640 --> 02:00:05,240
Speaker 13: This is the funniest this, this is the funny Well,

2621
02:00:06,120 --> 02:00:07,360
Speaker 13: I don't know if I should say this or not

2622
02:00:07,440 --> 02:00:09,680
Speaker 13: doing like the thing because this is like, uh, the

2623
02:00:09,760 --> 02:00:12,000
Speaker 13: thing I kind of mentioned in the chat, but like

2624
02:00:12,080 --> 02:00:15,200
Speaker 13: this is weird and funny because Okay, for both of you,

2625
02:00:15,280 --> 02:00:17,360
Speaker 13: have you guys ever been to the doctor like hospital

2626
02:00:17,400 --> 02:00:18,760
Speaker 13: like emergency emergency ship?

2627
02:00:18,920 --> 02:00:21,040
Speaker 1: You're asking us if we've ever been to the like

2628
02:00:21,080 --> 02:00:23,400
Speaker 1: to the hospital like for an emergency. Yeah, we've been

2629
02:00:23,400 --> 02:00:23,920
Speaker 1: to the hospital.

2630
02:00:25,680 --> 02:00:33,840
Speaker 2: I've ever gotten the ID they put that in the penis?

2631
02:00:34,280 --> 02:00:34,800
Speaker 2: Did you have a.

2632
02:00:35,840 --> 02:00:38,440
Speaker 13: Jesus no, that's the thing. I fucking woke up and

2633
02:00:38,480 --> 02:00:40,240
Speaker 13: I was fucking takon and I was like, where the

2634
02:00:40,240 --> 02:00:41,880
Speaker 13: fuck is my clothes? I've seen the corner and I

2635
02:00:41,920 --> 02:00:43,360
Speaker 13: thought like my shirt was there because it was like

2636
02:00:43,400 --> 02:00:44,000
Speaker 13: all black fit.

2637
02:00:44,240 --> 02:00:45,320
Speaker 4: It was these cool.

2638
02:00:45,160 --> 02:00:47,560
Speaker 13: Black Doublene car heart pants and the black shirt. Got

2639
02:00:47,560 --> 02:00:49,440
Speaker 13: to really give a fuck that they cut my shirt up.

2640
02:00:50,000 --> 02:00:52,760
Speaker 13: But when I saw like I was like naked from

2641
02:00:53,000 --> 02:00:56,280
Speaker 13: like everything, but like they had uh this like weird

2642
02:00:56,360 --> 02:00:58,440
Speaker 13: like he had like a handle like a bottle like

2643
02:00:58,520 --> 02:01:01,440
Speaker 13: you just I just picked my winging in. But like

2644
02:01:01,640 --> 02:01:03,840
Speaker 13: it was only after the fact that like when I

2645
02:01:03,880 --> 02:01:06,760
Speaker 13: went home. This sounds so fucking disgusting in team my

2646
02:01:07,200 --> 02:01:09,520
Speaker 13: but like blood came out and I fucking panicked. Like

2647
02:01:09,600 --> 02:01:11,880
Speaker 13: five seconds I was about to like google and put

2648
02:01:11,880 --> 02:01:14,120
Speaker 13: myself in like a oh shit, I got fucking fall

2649
02:01:14,200 --> 02:01:16,880
Speaker 13: cancer some shit. But no, I realized that they fucking

2650
02:01:17,000 --> 02:01:18,720
Speaker 13: like just shove that shit in me while I was

2651
02:01:18,720 --> 02:01:21,040
Speaker 13: in the car and didn't like removed it out. And

2652
02:01:21,160 --> 02:01:23,520
Speaker 13: what I didn't know is that they're supposed to give

2653
02:01:23,560 --> 02:01:25,560
Speaker 13: you like numbing cream, I guess, And he didn't give

2654
02:01:25,600 --> 02:01:27,080
Speaker 13: me none of that ship. So I had like this weird,

2655
02:01:27,160 --> 02:01:29,480
Speaker 13: uncomfortable fucking team for like a week after that, so

2656
02:01:29,720 --> 02:01:31,280
Speaker 13: very much time my lesson not to drink like a

2657
02:01:31,320 --> 02:01:35,040
Speaker 13: fucking idiot, never get in the fucking hospital. That was uncomfortable.

2658
02:01:36,440 --> 02:01:38,240
Speaker 1: I hope I hope that the I hope the graphic

2659
02:01:38,280 --> 02:01:40,960
Speaker 1: image of your bloody penis inspires many of the people

2660
02:01:41,000 --> 02:01:44,080
Speaker 1: listening to in their lives.

2661
02:01:44,280 --> 02:01:48,560
Speaker 13: Yeah, drink fucking safely and responsibly, and yeah, have fucking

2662
02:01:48,600 --> 02:01:50,560
Speaker 13: friends that all like And you know, it was worse.

2663
02:01:50,840 --> 02:01:51,840
Speaker 2: I was like five.

2664
02:01:51,600 --> 02:01:53,640
Speaker 13: Minutes passed out, and it took him that fucking lung

2665
02:01:53,720 --> 02:01:56,240
Speaker 13: to realize that I wasn't around there until he thought

2666
02:01:56,280 --> 02:01:59,240
Speaker 13: like mind conscious, fucking body just like limp, like family

2667
02:01:59,240 --> 02:02:00,320
Speaker 13: guy positioned.

2668
02:02:00,600 --> 02:02:03,840
Speaker 1: Well, I have a good night, Marco, and I wish

2669
02:02:03,960 --> 02:02:06,960
Speaker 1: you and your penis a long safe for coming. I mean,

2670
02:02:07,000 --> 02:02:07,919
Speaker 1: it's short, safe.

2671
02:02:08,920 --> 02:02:10,680
Speaker 13: Keep doing what you do.

2672
02:02:11,200 --> 02:02:11,720
Speaker 1: Thanks By.

2673
02:02:14,640 --> 02:02:18,480
Speaker 2: That's fucking scary, man. Yeah. Yeah, he sounds like he's

2674
02:02:18,520 --> 02:02:19,280
Speaker 2: doing that right with it.

2675
02:02:19,400 --> 02:02:23,800
Speaker 1: He does so, he sounded. He sounded psyched.

2676
02:02:24,000 --> 02:02:25,000
Speaker 2: I'm not worried about he.

2677
02:02:25,040 --> 02:02:27,160
Speaker 3: Got a new leash on life or something, you know.

2678
02:02:27,640 --> 02:02:29,280
Speaker 3: But I think when you that agent and you don't

2679
02:02:29,280 --> 02:02:32,000
Speaker 3: really understand how serious something like that could be, maybe

2680
02:02:32,160 --> 02:02:34,320
Speaker 3: you know because me, I've been getting sucked up as

2681
02:02:34,320 --> 02:02:36,200
Speaker 3: long as he's been living, and I've never been through

2682
02:02:36,200 --> 02:02:37,560
Speaker 3: a scare like that really.

2683
02:02:37,640 --> 02:02:39,480
Speaker 1: You know, you even had a time where you were like,

2684
02:02:40,000 --> 02:02:41,360
Speaker 1: We're like, oh fuck, I almost died.

2685
02:02:41,600 --> 02:02:43,560
Speaker 3: I mean I probably was. I just didn't know it.

2686
02:02:43,600 --> 02:02:45,720
Speaker 3: I would just you know, I'm pretty sure I've been

2687
02:02:46,240 --> 02:02:48,160
Speaker 3: glaying in a bed a few times like oh no,

2688
02:02:48,320 --> 02:02:51,840
Speaker 3: this might be in but but never like having to

2689
02:02:51,840 --> 02:02:54,080
Speaker 3: go to the hospital or getting something like that.

2690
02:02:54,160 --> 02:02:55,720
Speaker 2: I'd never been through anything like that.

2691
02:02:55,840 --> 02:02:58,440
Speaker 3: So but if I did, I think that would be

2692
02:02:58,560 --> 02:03:00,240
Speaker 3: enough of a scare for me to you.

2693
02:03:00,200 --> 02:03:02,560
Speaker 2: Know, be like fuck this shit. You know I ain't,

2694
02:03:02,960 --> 02:03:03,640
Speaker 2: I ain't doing it.

2695
02:03:03,680 --> 02:03:05,680
Speaker 3: But I guess I felt like I was getting close

2696
02:03:06,000 --> 02:03:08,680
Speaker 3: to something like that happening. It's a few you know,

2697
02:03:09,040 --> 02:03:11,680
Speaker 3: close calls where you just be like, man, I don't

2698
02:03:11,720 --> 02:03:14,200
Speaker 3: know how I woke up today type shit like being

2699
02:03:14,240 --> 02:03:16,400
Speaker 3: blacked out drunk is like the worst shit ever, man,

2700
02:03:16,440 --> 02:03:16,720
Speaker 3: to be.

2701
02:03:16,680 --> 02:03:23,160
Speaker 1: Honest, I feel like, but yeah, I feel like Marco, uh,

2702
02:03:23,360 --> 02:03:28,080
Speaker 1: he's got he's got a positive energy to everyone we've

2703
02:03:28,120 --> 02:03:28,560
Speaker 1: talked to.

2704
02:03:29,240 --> 02:03:31,600
Speaker 3: But maybe if you died you would feel like you

2705
02:03:31,600 --> 02:03:33,080
Speaker 3: get know what I'm saying, and you're still here, you

2706
02:03:33,120 --> 02:03:35,760
Speaker 3: probably would be that excited about living life again.

2707
02:03:35,840 --> 02:03:36,040
Speaker 2: You know.

2708
02:03:36,520 --> 02:03:39,200
Speaker 3: It's almost like when you go skydiving or some shit, like,

2709
02:03:39,200 --> 02:03:40,920
Speaker 3: oh shit, I'm happy, you know.

2710
02:03:41,160 --> 02:03:43,000
Speaker 2: So maybe that's what it is too. You know.

2711
02:03:43,320 --> 02:03:45,360
Speaker 1: Isn't that cool that I always think about you can

2712
02:03:45,400 --> 02:03:48,640
Speaker 1: always that's something excessed. You don't have to You don't

2713
02:03:48,680 --> 02:03:53,160
Speaker 1: have to almost die to access that, like every day

2714
02:03:53,160 --> 02:03:56,400
Speaker 1: if you really want to, you can operate from that

2715
02:03:56,520 --> 02:03:59,440
Speaker 1: perspective of oh, it's just it's cool to be alive and.

2716
02:03:59,440 --> 02:04:00,200
Speaker 2: Enjoy your life.

2717
02:04:00,520 --> 02:04:00,760
Speaker 1: Yeah.

2718
02:04:00,800 --> 02:04:02,560
Speaker 2: I think that's that's a big deal for a lot

2719
02:04:02,560 --> 02:04:02,960
Speaker 2: of people.

2720
02:04:02,960 --> 02:04:05,800
Speaker 3: Man, we take this ship for granted, you know, and

2721
02:04:05,840 --> 02:04:07,800
Speaker 3: I realize that it's just a blessing just to fucking

2722
02:04:07,840 --> 02:04:11,160
Speaker 3: wake up. You're not fucking promised tomorrow, man, So just

2723
02:04:11,280 --> 02:04:13,040
Speaker 3: us being here, man, that's just good enough.

2724
02:04:13,720 --> 02:04:20,320
Speaker 1: I think every everyone we talked to today, except for

2725
02:04:20,440 --> 02:04:23,440
Speaker 1: the Roadblocks girl. No, no, not even though to the

2726
02:04:23,520 --> 02:04:27,400
Speaker 1: robox girl. Everyone we've talked to you today, I'm not

2727
02:04:27,400 --> 02:04:29,600
Speaker 1: worried about. Everyone seem like they're doing all right.

2728
02:04:29,680 --> 02:04:32,720
Speaker 3: I had a positive energy to him. Yeah, you know, so, yeah,

2729
02:04:32,800 --> 02:04:35,880
Speaker 3: that's put the most part. I mean, the guy dying though,

2730
02:04:35,920 --> 02:04:36,880
Speaker 3: that was a little dark.

2731
02:04:36,760 --> 02:04:37,080
Speaker 6: For me.

2732
02:04:38,640 --> 02:04:40,800
Speaker 1: On paper, it's dark, but he seems I mean no,

2733
02:04:41,040 --> 02:04:42,560
Speaker 1: I mean like it's one of the best things ever

2734
02:04:42,600 --> 02:04:43,480
Speaker 1: happened to her about it.

2735
02:04:43,480 --> 02:04:44,640
Speaker 2: Maybe that's just his adderall.

2736
02:04:44,760 --> 02:04:50,480
Speaker 3: I mean, you know, his ADAHD medication got him going

2737
02:04:50,520 --> 02:04:52,560
Speaker 3: crazy like that. But yeah, when you're on medications and

2738
02:04:52,600 --> 02:04:55,000
Speaker 3: ship like that, man, you can't drink. Like he has

2739
02:04:55,040 --> 02:04:57,480
Speaker 3: to realize that, Like that's just out of the that's

2740
02:04:57,520 --> 02:04:59,839
Speaker 3: just out of the question, man, Like drinking and medication

2741
02:05:00,200 --> 02:05:03,080
Speaker 3: just like you know, doing fucking prescriptions and ship. That's

2742
02:05:03,120 --> 02:05:05,440
Speaker 3: like the worst shit ever, you know, that's almost worse

2743
02:05:05,560 --> 02:05:07,760
Speaker 3: than fucking getting street drugs and some ship, which is

2744
02:05:07,800 --> 02:05:11,440
Speaker 3: crazy fucking alcohol and fucking pharmaceuticals.

2745
02:05:11,480 --> 02:05:14,720
Speaker 2: Man. Took a lot of motherfuckers out, man for real m. M.

2746
02:05:20,640 --> 02:05:23,480
Speaker 3: That's what I'm worried about, you know, like where he

2747
02:05:23,600 --> 02:05:26,000
Speaker 3: just did take it that serious and he like, fuck it, man,

2748
02:05:26,040 --> 02:05:27,040
Speaker 3: that shit was kind of dope.

2749
02:05:27,200 --> 02:05:29,680
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I care more about them.

2750
02:05:29,520 --> 02:05:31,600
Speaker 2: Carhart double knees and he cared about dying.

2751
02:05:31,840 --> 02:05:35,000
Speaker 1: Are you are you into any of the like skydiving,

2752
02:05:35,160 --> 02:05:36,280
Speaker 1: extreme sports.

2753
02:05:37,000 --> 02:05:40,600
Speaker 3: I would like to go skydiving, but I'm not seeking

2754
02:05:40,600 --> 02:05:44,400
Speaker 3: it out. I'm not like trying to figure out how

2755
02:05:44,400 --> 02:05:46,760
Speaker 3: to do it. But if it ever came across my

2756
02:05:46,840 --> 02:05:48,800
Speaker 3: ship in life and it's like, all right, fuck it,

2757
02:05:48,800 --> 02:05:49,200
Speaker 3: I'm down.

2758
02:05:49,960 --> 02:05:51,840
Speaker 1: See no, you see they whoever said that in the

2759
02:05:51,920 --> 02:05:57,760
Speaker 1: chat is is he might get addicted to the thrill

2760
02:05:57,840 --> 02:05:58,520
Speaker 1: of almost.

2761
02:05:58,760 --> 02:06:02,400
Speaker 3: Like that adrenaline rush, like you know, yeah, but I

2762
02:06:02,440 --> 02:06:05,080
Speaker 3: don't know, man, hopefully man, like you said the catheter

2763
02:06:05,200 --> 02:06:07,520
Speaker 3: and the dick thing, man, And I don't know, Like

2764
02:06:07,560 --> 02:06:09,520
Speaker 3: I said, he's still young, so maybe he's not taking

2765
02:06:09,520 --> 02:06:13,720
Speaker 3: it as serious as somewhat my age would. But na, man,

2766
02:06:13,840 --> 02:06:17,280
Speaker 3: like fucking passing out drunk and all that shit is

2767
02:06:17,320 --> 02:06:17,760
Speaker 3: fucked up.

2768
02:06:17,800 --> 02:06:18,000
Speaker 12: Man.

2769
02:06:18,360 --> 02:06:20,080
Speaker 2: That was the one thing I was really worried about.

2770
02:06:20,120 --> 02:06:20,280
Speaker 6: Man.

2771
02:06:20,320 --> 02:06:23,000
Speaker 2: It's like something like that happening to me, man, And.

2772
02:06:23,040 --> 02:06:26,440
Speaker 3: Especially now with like all this fucking fentanyl and all

2773
02:06:26,480 --> 02:06:28,800
Speaker 3: this fucked up ship, like you can just one night

2774
02:06:28,800 --> 02:06:31,240
Speaker 3: of having fun can just turn dark, you know.

2775
02:06:31,800 --> 02:06:35,080
Speaker 1: So did you did you have you know, a share

2776
02:06:35,120 --> 02:06:37,560
Speaker 1: of nights where you woke up like like to the

2777
02:06:37,600 --> 02:06:39,960
Speaker 1: point where you like you don't remember all the time.

2778
02:06:40,160 --> 02:06:42,320
Speaker 3: Yeah, it was a lot where I'll be like, man,

2779
02:06:42,320 --> 02:06:44,480
Speaker 3: people telling me shit that I did, and I'm like, fuck,

2780
02:06:44,640 --> 02:06:48,160
Speaker 3: you know, it's just it's fucked up, man, it is.

2781
02:06:48,200 --> 02:06:51,040
Speaker 3: It's really when you when you're on that where you know,

2782
02:06:51,400 --> 02:06:52,960
Speaker 3: I guess you know, when you're young and you know

2783
02:06:53,040 --> 02:06:55,040
Speaker 3: something like that happened every blue moon, but when it's

2784
02:06:55,080 --> 02:06:58,480
Speaker 3: like fucking every other day, like you need help, bro,

2785
02:06:58,720 --> 02:07:01,280
Speaker 3: you need to have an intervention and someone needs to

2786
02:07:01,320 --> 02:07:04,920
Speaker 3: sit you down really, And so I was just I mean,

2787
02:07:05,200 --> 02:07:08,040
Speaker 3: I guess you know, it takes you know, you have

2788
02:07:08,160 --> 02:07:10,360
Speaker 3: to go through certain ship to get to certain ship.

2789
02:07:10,520 --> 02:07:12,800
Speaker 3: So I guess if I never been through anything like that,

2790
02:07:12,840 --> 02:07:15,520
Speaker 3: I probably wouldn't have went and got help. So I mean,

2791
02:07:15,560 --> 02:07:17,280
Speaker 3: I'm happy for everything that I've been through to be

2792
02:07:17,320 --> 02:07:18,760
Speaker 3: able to go get help because I was I was

2793
02:07:18,760 --> 02:07:20,320
Speaker 3: the type of motherfucker that talked shit.

2794
02:07:20,160 --> 02:07:21,880
Speaker 2: About going to get treatment and rehab.

2795
02:07:21,960 --> 02:07:25,040
Speaker 1: Really what was your what was your opinion on it?

2796
02:07:25,320 --> 02:07:27,840
Speaker 3: Like you want to quit doing something? Just quit like motherfucker.

2797
02:07:28,080 --> 02:07:29,600
Speaker 3: Yeah you feel like it's a problem. You could, but

2798
02:07:30,240 --> 02:07:32,160
Speaker 3: it ain't that easy for a lot of people. Man,

2799
02:07:32,560 --> 02:07:35,400
Speaker 3: Like a lot of people don't even know like why

2800
02:07:35,440 --> 02:07:38,440
Speaker 3: they getting fucked up. You know, it could start off

2801
02:07:38,440 --> 02:07:40,520
Speaker 3: as being fun and for you know it, man, it's

2802
02:07:40,600 --> 02:07:42,680
Speaker 3: just using it to fucking mash your emotions.

2803
02:07:42,760 --> 02:07:44,400
Speaker 1: And then did you have did you have to go

2804
02:07:44,440 --> 02:07:48,040
Speaker 1: through like several hypotheses as to why you were getting

2805
02:07:48,040 --> 02:07:50,480
Speaker 1: sucked up before you found the true one?

2806
02:07:51,040 --> 02:07:53,960
Speaker 3: I mean I kind of knew in some sense, you know,

2807
02:07:54,640 --> 02:07:57,000
Speaker 3: and it I never was a drinker like that. My

2808
02:07:57,160 --> 02:08:01,560
Speaker 3: drinking actually started from touring. Like I would drink, you know,

2809
02:08:01,600 --> 02:08:03,600
Speaker 3: I was more of a fuck with weed or you

2810
02:08:03,640 --> 02:08:07,040
Speaker 3: know other shit. But drinking for me, it started off

2811
02:08:07,080 --> 02:08:09,800
Speaker 3: as just me being on tour and you know, having

2812
02:08:09,800 --> 02:08:12,520
Speaker 3: to drink before I go on stage and maybe having

2813
02:08:12,640 --> 02:08:15,600
Speaker 3: another drink to power down after I get off stage.

2814
02:08:15,680 --> 02:08:18,160
Speaker 3: Then before I know it, you know, after years of

2815
02:08:18,280 --> 02:08:20,760
Speaker 3: doing that, then I'm finding myself drinking at home.

2816
02:08:21,640 --> 02:08:23,960
Speaker 2: Yeah. Yeah, you get to the plane, I'm just drinking

2817
02:08:24,040 --> 02:08:24,640
Speaker 2: every day.

2818
02:08:25,240 --> 02:08:27,880
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's when it's like when you have a thing

2819
02:08:27,920 --> 02:08:30,360
Speaker 1: where like you have some like clear boundaries with it,

2820
02:08:30,520 --> 02:08:32,640
Speaker 1: and then you kind of start to encroach on the

2821
02:08:32,640 --> 02:08:34,600
Speaker 1: boundaries a little bit and then all of a sudden,

2822
02:08:34,600 --> 02:08:35,600
Speaker 1: you're out of control.

2823
02:08:35,800 --> 02:08:37,600
Speaker 3: Yeah, like you don't I didn't know I was a

2824
02:08:37,600 --> 02:08:43,040
Speaker 3: fucking alcoholic to just you know, you just come to

2825
02:08:43,120 --> 02:08:46,040
Speaker 3: the realization, like, you know, you had that talk with yourself.

2826
02:08:45,680 --> 02:08:48,240
Speaker 1: Like are you are you off of weed now?

2827
02:08:48,480 --> 02:08:48,720
Speaker 9: Yeah.

2828
02:08:48,800 --> 02:08:50,960
Speaker 3: I didn't have any intentions on stopping to smoke weed

2829
02:08:51,000 --> 02:08:52,520
Speaker 3: when I went to treatment. It was just to get

2830
02:08:52,520 --> 02:08:56,800
Speaker 3: off alcohol. But I learned so much about myself during

2831
02:08:56,800 --> 02:08:59,560
Speaker 3: that process and just everything, and I told myself I

2832
02:08:59,600 --> 02:09:01,440
Speaker 3: was going to like I'm one't going to stop smoking.

2833
02:09:01,440 --> 02:09:03,080
Speaker 3: But then when I got home, you know, start doing

2834
02:09:03,120 --> 02:09:06,200
Speaker 3: therapy and shit, and just you know, it could be

2835
02:09:06,240 --> 02:09:09,960
Speaker 3: a gateway. Yeah for me, not saying for everybody, you know,

2836
02:09:10,040 --> 02:09:12,280
Speaker 3: but it could. You know, it does alter your thinking

2837
02:09:12,320 --> 02:09:14,400
Speaker 3: in some sense. And I can totally see myself having

2838
02:09:14,440 --> 02:09:17,600
Speaker 3: a great time, too much fun smoking. We get high,

2839
02:09:17,720 --> 02:09:19,720
Speaker 3: might be at some cool party or something, somebody offer

2840
02:09:19,760 --> 02:09:21,879
Speaker 3: me a drinking in my fucking high mind.

2841
02:09:21,800 --> 02:09:24,240
Speaker 2: Like, yeah, not that bad, right, right, I've been clean

2842
02:09:24,600 --> 02:09:24,920
Speaker 2: I'm not.

2843
02:09:24,840 --> 02:09:27,360
Speaker 3: Gonna drink tomorrow and drinking well, I know what, I'm

2844
02:09:27,400 --> 02:09:29,120
Speaker 3: back on the fucking Farris Wheels.

2845
02:09:28,880 --> 02:09:32,120
Speaker 1: Right right, right right. It's hard because I'm and I've

2846
02:09:32,120 --> 02:09:35,200
Speaker 1: talked about this on here before, but like there's so

2847
02:09:35,320 --> 02:09:39,440
Speaker 1: many models of stoners that are like successful, Like when

2848
02:09:39,480 --> 02:09:41,920
Speaker 1: Seth Rogen gets on and he's like, yeah, I'm a

2849
02:09:42,000 --> 02:09:44,920
Speaker 1: multi million dollar you know. I do everything I do

2850
02:09:45,080 --> 02:09:48,080
Speaker 1: is while I'm stones And I see that, and I'm like,

2851
02:09:48,120 --> 02:09:49,760
Speaker 1: oh fuck, I wish I could do that. I wish

2852
02:09:49,800 --> 02:09:52,560
Speaker 1: I could be one of those. Like in high school

2853
02:09:52,560 --> 02:09:55,160
Speaker 1: there were there were these kids who would get super

2854
02:09:55,200 --> 02:09:57,640
Speaker 1: stoned and then do their homework like I could. I

2855
02:09:57,640 --> 02:10:00,520
Speaker 1: always wish I could be that kind of have that

2856
02:10:00,520 --> 02:10:01,520
Speaker 1: productive balance.

2857
02:10:01,640 --> 02:10:05,000
Speaker 2: But don't get me wrong, I love weed like I

2858
02:10:05,080 --> 02:10:05,640
Speaker 2: still miss it.

2859
02:10:05,680 --> 02:10:08,000
Speaker 3: I probably think about smoking every day, just make a

2860
02:10:08,040 --> 02:10:11,040
Speaker 3: conscious decision not to, and I find out that. I mean,

2861
02:10:11,720 --> 02:10:14,440
Speaker 3: it's not like fucking rocket science. I'm way more productive

2862
02:10:14,480 --> 02:10:17,000
Speaker 3: without it, you know what I'm saying. Like when I

2863
02:10:17,120 --> 02:10:18,880
Speaker 3: used to sit around, like when I first got out

2864
02:10:18,880 --> 02:10:21,200
Speaker 3: of rehab and ship, it was I couldn't sleep for ship,

2865
02:10:21,800 --> 02:10:23,720
Speaker 3: like it was I was sleeping good in there. But

2866
02:10:23,720 --> 02:10:26,160
Speaker 3: when I got home, it was like, like, what did I.

2867
02:10:26,240 --> 02:10:29,240
Speaker 2: Used to fucking do with all this time? Yeah, it's

2868
02:10:29,280 --> 02:10:29,960
Speaker 2: like I'm bored.

2869
02:10:30,000 --> 02:10:32,360
Speaker 3: And I realized that I was just using weed for anything,

2870
02:10:32,400 --> 02:10:34,800
Speaker 3: like I'm nothing to do smoke weed and smoke you know,

2871
02:10:34,960 --> 02:10:37,280
Speaker 3: so even like playing video games. It took a long

2872
02:10:37,360 --> 02:10:39,520
Speaker 3: time for me to even start back enjoying video games

2873
02:10:39,560 --> 02:10:41,640
Speaker 3: because I was so used to doing it while smoking weed.

2874
02:10:41,840 --> 02:10:44,120
Speaker 1: You know, do you do?

2875
02:10:44,160 --> 02:10:44,520
Speaker 2: You do?

2876
02:10:44,600 --> 02:10:47,680
Speaker 1: You have like a like do the whole sponsor thing.

2877
02:10:49,200 --> 02:10:51,080
Speaker 3: I did in the beginning, but then after a while,

2878
02:10:51,080 --> 02:10:55,440
Speaker 3: it's just I started to feel like just that whole

2879
02:10:55,480 --> 02:10:58,040
Speaker 3: shit felt a little cultish to me, like going to

2880
02:10:58,120 --> 02:11:00,600
Speaker 3: meetings and ship Sure, so I know a lot of

2881
02:11:00,600 --> 02:11:02,480
Speaker 3: people are like, oh, you know, you got it, but

2882
02:11:02,720 --> 02:11:04,440
Speaker 3: I don't know, man, everybody's kind of different.

2883
02:11:04,480 --> 02:11:07,400
Speaker 2: But no, for me, for the most part, I.

2884
02:11:07,920 --> 02:11:11,160
Speaker 3: Did a couple like online shit, But the thing that

2885
02:11:11,240 --> 02:11:13,280
Speaker 3: resonated with me the most was like doing like the

2886
02:11:13,360 --> 02:11:16,760
Speaker 3: dharma shit, which is like going like meditation classes and shit.

2887
02:11:17,320 --> 02:11:19,760
Speaker 3: I like that the most, and like smart recovery. But

2888
02:11:19,840 --> 02:11:21,440
Speaker 3: for the most part, I mean when I went on tour,

2889
02:11:21,480 --> 02:11:22,880
Speaker 3: a lot of that shit fell off, Like I haven't

2890
02:11:22,920 --> 02:11:25,560
Speaker 3: been in therapy none of that shit since something.

2891
02:11:25,920 --> 02:11:28,040
Speaker 1: So when you're on a tour like that and you're

2892
02:11:28,080 --> 02:11:30,720
Speaker 1: traveling every day, it's hard to keep a routine. It's

2893
02:11:30,720 --> 02:11:31,760
Speaker 1: like almost impossible.

2894
02:11:32,120 --> 02:11:34,200
Speaker 2: But I'm not over confident in it. Any day. I

2895
02:11:34,280 --> 02:11:35,120
Speaker 2: know I can fuck up.

2896
02:11:35,160 --> 02:11:37,040
Speaker 3: So the best thing for me to do is just,

2897
02:11:37,080 --> 02:11:39,480
Speaker 3: you know, as dumb as it sign clanchicun, just take

2898
02:11:39,480 --> 02:11:42,520
Speaker 3: one day at the time, man, and I just you know,

2899
02:11:43,320 --> 02:11:44,240
Speaker 3: keep myself busy.

2900
02:11:44,720 --> 02:11:47,600
Speaker 1: Are you a religious guy at all?

2901
02:11:47,640 --> 02:11:49,720
Speaker 2: I know that. I mean I have been. I mean

2902
02:11:49,800 --> 02:11:51,200
Speaker 2: I'm being there.

2903
02:11:51,320 --> 02:11:53,800
Speaker 3: That was like one of the one things that kind

2904
02:11:53,800 --> 02:11:56,280
Speaker 3: of made me feel good and shit, like was going

2905
02:11:56,280 --> 02:11:58,760
Speaker 3: to the church and they had like a spiritual advisor

2906
02:11:59,280 --> 02:12:01,080
Speaker 3: and I'll go see this siritual advisor. And every time

2907
02:12:01,080 --> 02:12:02,760
Speaker 3: I would do that shit, I would just feel good

2908
02:12:02,800 --> 02:12:04,600
Speaker 3: for some reason, like no matter, you know, I know

2909
02:12:04,640 --> 02:12:07,560
Speaker 3: I'm at the fucking bottom to being fucking rehabited and

2910
02:12:07,640 --> 02:12:10,040
Speaker 3: just feel like a fucking failure. But every time I

2911
02:12:10,040 --> 02:12:11,840
Speaker 3: would like go to the church or like go see

2912
02:12:11,880 --> 02:12:14,360
Speaker 3: the spiritual advisor and should always left feeling good and shit.

2913
02:12:14,480 --> 02:12:17,000
Speaker 3: So yeah, it definitely did give me like a spiritual

2914
02:12:17,040 --> 02:12:18,040
Speaker 3: awakening kind of thing.

2915
02:12:18,640 --> 02:12:20,640
Speaker 1: When when you were when you were you raised religious

2916
02:12:20,640 --> 02:12:20,840
Speaker 1: at all?

2917
02:12:20,920 --> 02:12:22,760
Speaker 2: Yeah, I just go to church every fucking Sunday. I

2918
02:12:22,760 --> 02:12:23,720
Speaker 2: hated that ship though.

2919
02:12:24,800 --> 02:12:27,640
Speaker 1: There's almost a weird like, uh that when you're an adult,

2920
02:12:28,080 --> 02:12:30,120
Speaker 1: if you when you're because as a kid, it sucks

2921
02:12:30,120 --> 02:12:32,240
Speaker 1: because you're getting dragged, but when you're an adult, if

2922
02:12:32,280 --> 02:12:34,360
Speaker 1: you make the decision to go, it can almost be

2923
02:12:34,360 --> 02:12:35,800
Speaker 1: a little bit better.

2924
02:12:36,040 --> 02:12:36,640
Speaker 2: Yeah.

2925
02:12:36,920 --> 02:12:38,840
Speaker 3: I mean I live right across street from the church,

2926
02:12:38,840 --> 02:12:40,160
Speaker 3: and I was like, oh, I'm gonna start going to

2927
02:12:40,240 --> 02:12:42,200
Speaker 3: church and shoo. But I was still I'm like that shit,

2928
02:12:44,840 --> 02:12:46,640
Speaker 3: I deal with it on my own terms, you know.

2929
02:12:46,880 --> 02:12:50,000
Speaker 2: Yeah, I went to a U.

2930
02:12:50,120 --> 02:12:54,600
Speaker 1: I went to Overeaters Anonymous once I've been back since

2931
02:12:54,640 --> 02:12:58,600
Speaker 1: I should go. It was cool, but uh, like people

2932
02:12:58,640 --> 02:13:02,600
Speaker 1: would talk about like God is. I don't know if

2933
02:13:02,600 --> 02:13:05,320
Speaker 1: you've been to like the AA meanings, but like God is,

2934
02:13:05,440 --> 02:13:09,440
Speaker 1: like it's it's it's it's in the background. Like when

2935
02:13:09,440 --> 02:13:11,840
Speaker 1: people talk, they'll talk about like the higher power instead.

2936
02:13:12,160 --> 02:13:14,760
Speaker 1: And I remember like people would would tell their stories

2937
02:13:14,800 --> 02:13:17,280
Speaker 1: and they would mention a higher power and like I wasn't.

2938
02:13:17,600 --> 02:13:24,040
Speaker 1: I just subbed in my own interpretation of what that meant,

2939
02:13:24,160 --> 02:13:27,920
Speaker 1: which wasn't necessarily always like uh, you know, a god

2940
02:13:28,080 --> 02:13:30,240
Speaker 1: like a dude, but you know, could just be the

2941
02:13:30,320 --> 02:13:34,320
Speaker 1: higher power of of I don't know, man, Like, uh.

2942
02:13:34,400 --> 02:13:35,160
Speaker 2: Yeah, I know what you mean.

2943
02:13:35,240 --> 02:13:37,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, you can sell, you can sub in your own.

2944
02:13:38,680 --> 02:13:40,280
Speaker 3: What I was saying, Like, that's the whole faith thing,

2945
02:13:40,560 --> 02:13:41,880
Speaker 3: just believing in something it.

2946
02:13:41,840 --> 02:13:43,240
Speaker 2: Could be fucking could.

2947
02:13:45,560 --> 02:13:48,680
Speaker 3: Just believe it in because you know. But yeah, man,

2948
02:13:48,760 --> 02:13:50,920
Speaker 3: that that that helped me a lot, to be honest.

2949
02:13:51,080 --> 02:13:52,440
Speaker 3: I mean when I was in jail, and that's what

2950
02:13:52,600 --> 02:13:55,120
Speaker 3: fucking helped me a lot, believe in something that shit

2951
02:13:55,240 --> 02:13:57,360
Speaker 3: was gonna be better when I got out, and having

2952
02:13:57,400 --> 02:13:59,280
Speaker 3: some kind of faith. Once you lose faith and you

2953
02:13:59,280 --> 02:14:02,640
Speaker 3: don't care about you, that's when you know, that's when

2954
02:14:03,120 --> 02:14:05,920
Speaker 3: that's probably why I was using so many fucking drugs

2955
02:14:05,920 --> 02:14:08,280
Speaker 3: and drinking so much because I didn't you know, just didn't.

2956
02:14:08,080 --> 02:14:08,880
Speaker 2: Care no more. Man.

2957
02:14:10,000 --> 02:14:12,120
Speaker 1: What gives you faith? Now?

2958
02:14:15,200 --> 02:14:17,960
Speaker 3: Helping others, Just being able to share my story with

2959
02:14:18,000 --> 02:14:20,480
Speaker 3: everybody else and letting them know, man that you know,

2960
02:14:20,560 --> 02:14:22,560
Speaker 3: no matter what you're going through, man, somebody like me,

2961
02:14:22,680 --> 02:14:25,320
Speaker 3: you know, being an example for them now you know

2962
02:14:25,360 --> 02:14:26,960
Speaker 3: I went through that ship. You know what I'm saying,

2963
02:14:27,040 --> 02:14:28,480
Speaker 3: Just showing them that you can still make it out

2964
02:14:28,520 --> 02:14:28,840
Speaker 3: that ship.

2965
02:14:28,880 --> 02:14:31,560
Speaker 2: Don't give up. So yeah, that's my whole journey.

2966
02:14:31,640 --> 02:14:31,760
Speaker 11: Now.

2967
02:14:31,800 --> 02:14:34,120
Speaker 3: I just want to help no man where this through

2968
02:14:34,120 --> 02:14:36,320
Speaker 3: my music or just meeting people and talking to them.

2969
02:14:36,360 --> 02:14:40,040
Speaker 3: You know, you can change somebody life with one conversation

2970
02:14:40,160 --> 02:14:42,400
Speaker 3: type shit, you know. So just being in that position

2971
02:14:42,480 --> 02:14:44,560
Speaker 3: to be able to you know, to have that voice,

2972
02:14:44,640 --> 02:14:46,000
Speaker 3: you know, and just to talk to people.

2973
02:14:46,000 --> 02:14:47,840
Speaker 2: Man. So yeah, I feel like I got my new

2974
02:14:47,920 --> 02:14:49,840
Speaker 2: leash on life with that, and.

2975
02:14:49,800 --> 02:14:53,560
Speaker 1: It makes you it makes you feel good to do that.

2976
02:14:54,120 --> 02:14:56,400
Speaker 2: It keeps me on a straight and narrow you know.

2977
02:14:56,640 --> 02:14:59,200
Speaker 1: One of the things I like about doing this this

2978
02:14:59,320 --> 02:15:01,840
Speaker 1: show is like like I feel like, uh, it's a

2979
02:15:01,920 --> 02:15:04,800
Speaker 1: fun Like I get out of my own because every day,

2980
02:15:05,320 --> 02:15:08,360
Speaker 1: every day I'm like wrestling in my own overthinking shit

2981
02:15:08,400 --> 02:15:10,440
Speaker 1: you were talking Earli about just like overthinking my own

2982
02:15:10,480 --> 02:15:12,680
Speaker 1: fucking life and all my own problems and shit. And

2983
02:15:12,720 --> 02:15:15,320
Speaker 1: it's fun to get out of that and like talk

2984
02:15:15,360 --> 02:15:18,000
Speaker 1: to somebody else about whatever's going on with them. You know,

2985
02:15:18,040 --> 02:15:21,720
Speaker 1: it gives you perspective on your own life, you know.

2986
02:15:22,640 --> 02:15:25,400
Speaker 3: Yeah, definitely, and you know, just being able to have

2987
02:15:25,440 --> 02:15:28,160
Speaker 3: that voice, like I said, and like you know sometimes

2988
02:15:28,200 --> 02:15:30,600
Speaker 3: you you know, like I say, we just normal motherfuckers,

2989
02:15:30,640 --> 02:15:33,480
Speaker 3: just like everybody else too. But you never know that

2990
02:15:33,600 --> 02:15:35,640
Speaker 3: one person that reached out to you and said something

2991
02:15:35,680 --> 02:15:35,880
Speaker 3: to you.

2992
02:15:35,920 --> 02:15:36,880
Speaker 2: How much you know like.

2993
02:15:36,840 --> 02:15:38,720
Speaker 3: People calling in and just them being able to come

2994
02:15:38,760 --> 02:15:41,240
Speaker 3: in it fucking makes their day. Fucking changes shit, you know.

2995
02:15:41,400 --> 02:15:43,600
Speaker 3: So you helping motherfuckers too at.

2996
02:15:43,440 --> 02:15:46,080
Speaker 2: The end of I hope, So man, I hope. So

2997
02:15:46,600 --> 02:15:49,320
Speaker 2: that's what this show is based on. This ship sometimes.

2998
02:15:48,880 --> 02:15:52,080
Speaker 1: You're going to do one final one before we go. Okay, cool,

2999
02:15:52,520 --> 02:15:56,400
Speaker 1: let me ask first chat. Do you have any questions

3000
02:15:56,560 --> 02:15:59,960
Speaker 1: or or stuff for Danny that you wanna talk about.

3001
02:16:00,480 --> 02:16:03,800
Speaker 1: Can Danny confirm if he was or was not wearing

3002
02:16:04,000 --> 02:16:05,600
Speaker 1: trip pants? What does that mean?

3003
02:16:06,520 --> 02:16:06,760
Speaker 2: Yeah?

3004
02:16:07,000 --> 02:16:11,879
Speaker 3: No, they weren't actually tripped. They were actually a designer

3005
02:16:11,920 --> 02:16:14,440
Speaker 3: out of Houston, Texas. He made those and they do

3006
02:16:14,520 --> 02:16:16,240
Speaker 3: look like trips, but they're not trips.

3007
02:16:16,720 --> 02:16:17,400
Speaker 2: Let's see.

3008
02:16:18,080 --> 02:16:22,000
Speaker 1: Do you remember playing middle Lands Festival Middlelands?

3009
02:16:22,120 --> 02:16:22,200
Speaker 4: No?

3010
02:16:22,720 --> 02:16:26,160
Speaker 3: I probably was blacked out drunk. Where's Middlelands? I don't know,

3011
02:16:26,400 --> 02:16:27,080
Speaker 3: I don't remember.

3012
02:16:27,200 --> 02:16:30,680
Speaker 1: No, Danny, how was getting put into GTA five? You

3013
02:16:30,680 --> 02:16:32,760
Speaker 1: were in GTA five. Yeah, that's sick.

3014
02:16:33,800 --> 02:16:34,240
Speaker 2: It's great.

3015
02:16:34,240 --> 02:16:34,400
Speaker 11: Man.

3016
02:16:34,440 --> 02:16:37,360
Speaker 3: I love all the guys at Rockstar and they always

3017
02:16:37,360 --> 02:16:39,320
Speaker 3: reach out to me to do stuff. Still had a

3018
02:16:39,360 --> 02:16:43,440
Speaker 3: relationship with them, so but yeah, man, it was you know,

3019
02:16:44,440 --> 02:16:45,000
Speaker 3: it was great.

3020
02:16:45,400 --> 02:16:45,840
Speaker 2: I don't know.

3021
02:16:46,200 --> 02:16:47,959
Speaker 3: It's one of those things where I can't believe I

3022
02:16:48,000 --> 02:16:49,520
Speaker 3: did that shit, and it makes it hard for me

3023
02:16:49,560 --> 02:16:50,480
Speaker 3: to play the fucking game.

3024
02:16:50,560 --> 02:16:54,000
Speaker 2: I never even had finished because you're afraid of hearing

3025
02:16:54,040 --> 02:16:54,560
Speaker 2: your own voice.

3026
02:16:54,640 --> 02:16:56,920
Speaker 3: Yeah, I'm the first fucking song you hear, and then

3027
02:16:56,959 --> 02:17:00,400
Speaker 3: they I did my own downloadable content. I had my

3028
02:17:00,440 --> 02:17:03,360
Speaker 3: own shit. So it's just hard for me to now.

3029
02:17:03,400 --> 02:17:05,840
Speaker 3: I can't It's like I'm too close to it. I

3030
02:17:05,840 --> 02:17:08,560
Speaker 3: can't even really enjoy it right right, Yeah, but it

3031
02:17:08,640 --> 02:17:10,680
Speaker 3: was a lot of work though. They actually kne to Detroit,

3032
02:17:11,760 --> 02:17:15,200
Speaker 3: fucking you know. We recorded for fucking months doing that shit.

3033
02:17:15,360 --> 02:17:15,520
Speaker 11: Man.

3034
02:17:15,640 --> 02:17:17,720
Speaker 2: So but it was fun, man shot talk to the

3035
02:17:17,720 --> 02:17:18,560
Speaker 2: homies that rock Star.

3036
02:17:18,760 --> 02:17:20,400
Speaker 1: Did you see that GT six got leaked?

3037
02:17:21,000 --> 02:17:23,200
Speaker 3: I've seen something about it, but I don't really know

3038
02:17:23,240 --> 02:17:23,680
Speaker 3: too much.

3039
02:17:23,920 --> 02:17:26,600
Speaker 1: There was like a sixteen year old kid who like

3040
02:17:26,800 --> 02:17:29,560
Speaker 1: hacked in the rock Star and he got thrown in jail.

3041
02:17:30,040 --> 02:17:32,800
Speaker 1: But I was thinking about it, he's probably like the

3042
02:17:32,879 --> 02:17:35,640
Speaker 1: coolest kid in jail, Like, that's gotta be the best

3043
02:17:35,680 --> 02:17:38,000
Speaker 1: thing to be thrown into juvenile Hall for is leaking

3044
02:17:38,520 --> 02:17:39,280
Speaker 1: GTA six.

3045
02:17:39,520 --> 02:17:45,879
Speaker 3: Yeah, but jail fucking sucks. I fuck that shit.

3046
02:17:46,720 --> 02:17:48,840
Speaker 1: H Danny, Are you ever gonna hop back on Final

3047
02:17:48,959 --> 02:17:50,640
Speaker 1: Fantasy fourteen?

3048
02:17:51,160 --> 02:17:53,400
Speaker 3: That's the new one? Are just the one that just

3049
02:17:53,440 --> 02:17:55,279
Speaker 3: came out? Oh you're talking about online?

3050
02:17:55,680 --> 02:17:56,000
Speaker 1: Yeah?

3051
02:17:56,200 --> 02:17:56,440
Speaker 2: Nah?

3052
02:17:56,920 --> 02:17:58,760
Speaker 1: They said they someone said they played with you when

3053
02:17:58,800 --> 02:17:59,520
Speaker 1: you started heavy.

3054
02:18:00,080 --> 02:18:00,720
Speaker 2: Yeah. I kind of.

3055
02:18:01,200 --> 02:18:01,360
Speaker 4: Yeah.

3056
02:18:01,400 --> 02:18:03,200
Speaker 3: I was super into it, but I kind of got

3057
02:18:03,200 --> 02:18:06,039
Speaker 3: out of it. No, I don't know, man, I just it's.

3058
02:18:05,840 --> 02:18:07,720
Speaker 2: A little clique. Yeah, a little clique as you're in

3059
02:18:07,720 --> 02:18:08,400
Speaker 2: that motherfucker.

3060
02:18:08,440 --> 02:18:11,480
Speaker 3: Man, it's almost like the VR motherfuckers that just sit

3061
02:18:11,520 --> 02:18:12,840
Speaker 3: in the mirror and won't talk to you.

3062
02:18:13,480 --> 02:18:15,840
Speaker 1: Someon wants to know what your very first job was.

3063
02:18:16,200 --> 02:18:19,240
Speaker 3: My very first job was. I worked at a Sweeten House,

3064
02:18:19,840 --> 02:18:23,040
Speaker 3: which is a buffet. I actually allowed on my job

3065
02:18:23,080 --> 02:18:25,760
Speaker 3: application because you're supposed to be sixteen to work in

3066
02:18:25,760 --> 02:18:28,120
Speaker 3: Michigan and I was only fourteen, so illed on my

3067
02:18:28,200 --> 02:18:31,400
Speaker 3: job application and forged my work permit and I worked.

3068
02:18:31,160 --> 02:18:32,359
Speaker 2: There until I was sixteen.

3069
02:18:32,400 --> 02:18:34,800
Speaker 3: I was a potwasher making four to fifty an hour,

3070
02:18:35,280 --> 02:18:37,119
Speaker 3: so they knew I was too young. It was slave

3071
02:18:37,200 --> 02:18:38,879
Speaker 3: laboring me, and once I was old enough to get

3072
02:18:38,879 --> 02:18:43,640
Speaker 3: a job, I quit and started selling wheat. I worked

3073
02:18:43,680 --> 02:18:46,400
Speaker 3: at an old country buffet too. I was just working

3074
02:18:46,440 --> 02:18:49,440
Speaker 3: at buffets and shit. As a kid, I worked at

3075
02:18:49,440 --> 02:18:51,360
Speaker 3: a burger king, but I was really just selling weed.

3076
02:18:51,400 --> 02:18:52,959
Speaker 3: Everybody there, you ever.

3077
02:18:54,480 --> 02:18:54,720
Speaker 2: Are you?

3078
02:18:54,760 --> 02:18:56,359
Speaker 1: Are you a buffet fan? Personally?

3079
02:18:57,520 --> 02:19:00,560
Speaker 3: Now it's nasty to me because I know we used

3080
02:19:00,560 --> 02:19:02,560
Speaker 3: to be doing back there, so I'm like, fuck, but

3081
02:19:02,760 --> 02:19:07,120
Speaker 3: uh no, I can't say I haven't been to a

3082
02:19:07,120 --> 02:19:09,320
Speaker 3: buffet in over ten years.

3083
02:19:09,360 --> 02:19:09,560
Speaker 2: Man.

3084
02:19:11,080 --> 02:19:13,800
Speaker 1: There was a Chinese buffet near my school called the

3085
02:19:13,840 --> 02:19:19,000
Speaker 1: Habachi Grill, and all the food was stale, but I

3086
02:19:19,080 --> 02:19:19,520
Speaker 1: loved it.

3087
02:19:19,920 --> 02:19:20,160
Speaker 2: Yeah.

3088
02:19:20,280 --> 02:19:23,680
Speaker 3: I mean, as you're a teenager, you younger, like, you know,

3089
02:19:23,920 --> 02:19:26,039
Speaker 3: buffets and shit, they cool and shit. But once you

3090
02:19:26,080 --> 02:19:28,840
Speaker 3: get like a certain age, I feel like that's just disgusting.

3091
02:19:28,920 --> 02:19:32,720
Speaker 2: Man. Like now I can't even think about going to

3092
02:19:32,720 --> 02:19:33,200
Speaker 2: a buffet.

3093
02:19:35,560 --> 02:19:37,680
Speaker 1: All right, let me, I'll read off a few options.

3094
02:19:37,680 --> 02:19:43,320
Speaker 1: You tell me what sounds interesting to you. Zach eighteen

3095
02:19:44,160 --> 02:19:47,840
Speaker 1: wants to discuss the complicated relationship he has with his mom,

3096
02:19:48,000 --> 02:19:54,640
Speaker 1: who stole some money from him. We have Joshua thirty four.

3097
02:19:54,680 --> 02:19:59,760
Speaker 1: It feels like he reached a third life crisis. We

3098
02:19:59,840 --> 02:20:04,039
Speaker 1: had of Sam thirty one, one of her exes and

3099
02:20:04,080 --> 02:20:07,800
Speaker 1: one of her friends wants to have a threesome with her.

3100
02:20:08,760 --> 02:20:19,959
Speaker 1: She does not know what to do about that. Hello, Hello,

3101
02:20:20,560 --> 02:20:21,800
Speaker 1: what's up? Sam?

3102
02:20:22,000 --> 02:20:22,160
Speaker 11: Yo?

3103
02:20:22,760 --> 02:20:24,400
Speaker 1: What's going on?

3104
02:20:23,840 --> 02:20:26,640
Speaker 9: I'm a girl, by the way, but I'm okay with

3105
02:20:26,959 --> 02:20:27,480
Speaker 9: you saying that.

3106
02:20:27,600 --> 02:20:29,480
Speaker 1: All right, Sam, I see the blue screen in the

3107
02:20:29,480 --> 02:20:32,400
Speaker 1: background is slowly peeling off, so we we should make

3108
02:20:32,440 --> 02:20:37,879
Speaker 1: this quick. Yeah, I'm mainly kidding up. What's going on? Sam?

3109
02:20:37,920 --> 02:20:38,440
Speaker 1: How's life?

3110
02:20:40,320 --> 02:20:45,720
Speaker 9: Uh, it's all right, It's all right, I guess Yeah,

3111
02:20:45,760 --> 02:20:47,920
Speaker 9: I just had some advice or not if I didn't

3112
02:20:47,959 --> 02:20:53,360
Speaker 9: have it back, I'm asking for advice, I should say.

3113
02:20:52,480 --> 02:20:59,040
Speaker 9: It's the two ladies involved in this, this predicament. One

3114
02:20:59,040 --> 02:21:05,520
Speaker 9: of them is an X and the other one. They

3115
02:21:05,600 --> 02:21:09,240
Speaker 9: were not particularly they how do I how do I

3116
02:21:09,280 --> 02:21:12,560
Speaker 9: even say this? They were like enemies, they were like

3117
02:21:12,600 --> 02:21:14,880
Speaker 9: not close friends at all. At a certain point they

3118
02:21:14,920 --> 02:21:18,400
Speaker 9: really did not like each other. Okay, yeah, they hated

3119
02:21:18,440 --> 02:21:20,720
Speaker 9: each other, and now they're like cool again. And in

3120
02:21:20,760 --> 02:21:23,880
Speaker 9: the past few weeks, not all three of us together

3121
02:21:24,040 --> 02:21:27,840
Speaker 9: but separately, like this idea has just sort of come

3122
02:21:27,920 --> 02:21:33,640
Speaker 9: about and it's I just I'm not sure if it's

3123
02:21:33,640 --> 02:21:37,160
Speaker 9: a decent Uh, it might be a good idea.

3124
02:21:37,760 --> 02:21:38,160
Speaker 1: I don't know.

3125
02:21:38,200 --> 02:21:40,920
Speaker 9: I'm just I'm asking for a third opinion space or

3126
02:21:40,920 --> 02:21:41,680
Speaker 9: a fourth opinion.

3127
02:21:41,720 --> 02:21:45,720
Speaker 3: I guess technically, I guess if you thinking about it,

3128
02:21:45,760 --> 02:21:46,960
Speaker 3: that must mean you can't handle it.

3129
02:21:47,040 --> 02:21:49,280
Speaker 2: So you probably shouldn't do that, man, because the threesome

3130
02:21:49,360 --> 02:21:50,000
Speaker 2: is very hard.

3131
02:21:50,080 --> 02:21:50,280
Speaker 13: Man.

3132
02:21:50,600 --> 02:21:53,520
Speaker 3: You think it's hard enough pleasing one woman, imagine pleasing two.

3133
02:21:53,680 --> 02:21:56,000
Speaker 3: So I would say you probably don't want to put

3134
02:21:56,000 --> 02:21:58,320
Speaker 3: yourself to that type of situation if you don't think.

3135
02:21:58,160 --> 02:22:01,640
Speaker 1: You can handle it, Why don't you think, Sam, Why

3136
02:22:01,640 --> 02:22:04,840
Speaker 1: don't you think you can handle it? Though? Why do

3137
02:22:04,959 --> 02:22:07,160
Speaker 1: you have a lack of confidence in your abilities?

3138
02:22:08,640 --> 02:22:09,959
Speaker 2: I say, just do it for a story.

3139
02:22:10,080 --> 02:22:13,600
Speaker 9: Weirdly, that's not weirdly. The confidence of my ability is

3140
02:22:13,600 --> 02:22:17,760
Speaker 9: not the issue. It's more of like the weird the

3141
02:22:17,800 --> 02:22:19,879
Speaker 9: potential weirdness for the future.

3142
02:22:20,879 --> 02:22:22,480
Speaker 3: It wouldn't be weird, y'all, just to be doing it

3143
02:22:22,520 --> 02:22:25,640
Speaker 3: all the time now, it's going to be more weird

3144
02:22:25,640 --> 02:22:26,520
Speaker 3: if you turn it down.

3145
02:22:29,200 --> 02:22:39,560
Speaker 9: That's that's fair. That's fair. Yeah, Okay, I gotta say

3146
02:22:39,600 --> 02:22:45,160
Speaker 9: I love your last Daddy, thank you. It's every every time,

3147
02:22:45,400 --> 02:22:47,600
Speaker 9: every time I hear it, it makes me so happy.

3148
02:22:48,640 --> 02:22:49,360
Speaker 4: Yeah, no, y'all.

3149
02:22:49,440 --> 02:22:51,920
Speaker 9: Y'all make really good points that it's just, you know,

3150
02:22:52,160 --> 02:22:55,119
Speaker 9: the thing that's being talked about. Maybe it's just something

3151
02:22:55,120 --> 02:22:57,680
Speaker 9: that should that should happen, because you know, it's not

3152
02:22:57,760 --> 02:23:00,520
Speaker 9: like I don't know and it maybe if it happens

3153
02:23:00,520 --> 02:23:01,520
Speaker 9: and then it's weird whatever.

3154
02:23:04,040 --> 02:23:05,760
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's just something you've been wanting to do for

3155
02:23:05,800 --> 02:23:13,200
Speaker 1: a while. It sounds like we hit the nerve of

3156
02:23:13,240 --> 02:23:13,640
Speaker 1: some kind.

3157
02:23:18,080 --> 02:23:21,200
Speaker 9: I don't really know how to answer that, to be

3158
02:23:21,320 --> 02:23:22,800
Speaker 9: quite honest, if you don't.

3159
02:23:22,600 --> 02:23:24,280
Speaker 1: Know how to answer that, it kind of sounds like

3160
02:23:24,320 --> 02:23:29,600
Speaker 1: the answer is yes, you know, I.

3161
02:23:29,400 --> 02:23:33,160
Speaker 9: Hadn't thought about. You know, it's one of those things.

3162
02:23:33,200 --> 02:23:36,240
Speaker 9: I feel like a lot of people, you know, this

3163
02:23:36,400 --> 02:23:38,480
Speaker 9: is not a situation that comes up in most of

3164
02:23:38,520 --> 02:23:41,959
Speaker 9: their lives, so as far as like the reality of

3165
02:23:41,959 --> 02:23:44,760
Speaker 9: the situation, like it's only something in the past, like

3166
02:23:44,760 --> 02:23:47,160
Speaker 9: a couple of past few weeks that's been like, oh wow,

3167
02:23:47,920 --> 02:23:48,880
Speaker 9: that could be a thing.

3168
02:23:53,120 --> 02:23:57,680
Speaker 1: I mean, we can't tell you what to do necessarily,

3169
02:23:57,840 --> 02:24:01,520
Speaker 1: but you I think when Danny and you were like,

3170
02:24:01,560 --> 02:24:03,520
Speaker 1: if you're asking, it sounds like the answer is it

3171
02:24:03,520 --> 02:24:07,640
Speaker 1: sounds like something you're You're that that's a good point.

3172
02:24:07,760 --> 02:24:11,119
Speaker 1: You're curious and excited about so I don't know, man.

3173
02:24:10,959 --> 02:24:13,560
Speaker 3: I think you're just trying to brag dust that you go.

3174
02:24:14,240 --> 02:24:16,680
Speaker 3: You're like you all motherfucker's sitting around with Gecko paint

3175
02:24:16,680 --> 02:24:18,400
Speaker 3: on when I got two bitches ready.

3176
02:24:19,840 --> 02:24:24,560
Speaker 9: It is not lined up. That hasn't been clear. It's

3177
02:24:24,600 --> 02:24:29,199
Speaker 9: not lined up, and for that I apologize.

3178
02:24:29,400 --> 02:24:31,599
Speaker 13: Not lined up.

3179
02:24:34,000 --> 02:24:38,680
Speaker 1: Well, Samya, it worked. I think I'm jealous of you,

3180
02:24:38,760 --> 02:24:41,920
Speaker 1: and I think that your life sounds really cool, and

3181
02:24:42,000 --> 02:24:43,960
Speaker 1: I think that if you don't feel that way, you

3182
02:24:43,959 --> 02:24:45,839
Speaker 1: should start feeling that way.

3183
02:24:46,120 --> 02:24:51,360
Speaker 2: You got bitches, God damn it. Who are you with?

3184
02:24:51,520 --> 02:24:53,640
Speaker 1: By the way, who are you? Who's this person giggling

3185
02:24:53,640 --> 02:24:54,240
Speaker 1: in the background.

3186
02:24:56,600 --> 02:24:59,520
Speaker 5: Oh it's I'm one of the girls. I'm Christina.

3187
02:25:00,080 --> 02:25:01,640
Speaker 2: Oh you're wait, you already got one of the girls

3188
02:25:01,680 --> 02:25:04,160
Speaker 2: with you? That's always he was stunning on.

3189
02:25:06,240 --> 02:25:09,800
Speaker 15: Yeah, No, like we yeah, I mean like we didn't

3190
02:25:09,800 --> 02:25:14,560
Speaker 15: have expect and maybe I don't know, thinking about involving Emily.

3191
02:25:14,240 --> 02:25:15,480
Speaker 13: I don't like.

3192
02:25:15,560 --> 02:25:18,360
Speaker 15: She off handedly minted it might be okay, but she's like,

3193
02:25:18,400 --> 02:25:21,199
Speaker 15: I don't know, that would be weird because they dated

3194
02:25:21,240 --> 02:25:24,080
Speaker 15: like why, I don't know what four years ago something

3195
02:25:24,160 --> 02:25:27,520
Speaker 15: like that, And now I'm fucking Sam.

3196
02:25:27,560 --> 02:25:28,000
Speaker 13: I don't know.

3197
02:25:28,280 --> 02:25:29,280
Speaker 15: So I don't want to be weird.

3198
02:25:29,280 --> 02:25:30,800
Speaker 5: I don't want her to get like upset.

3199
02:25:30,920 --> 02:25:32,200
Speaker 13: But I don't know.

3200
02:25:32,879 --> 02:25:33,280
Speaker 2: I don't know.

3201
02:25:34,360 --> 02:25:37,440
Speaker 15: I don't want to like hurt my friend girlfriend, you know,

3202
02:25:38,800 --> 02:25:39,520
Speaker 15: but she's.

3203
02:25:39,400 --> 02:25:41,240
Speaker 1: But why would it Why would it hurt her if

3204
02:25:41,240 --> 02:25:49,119
Speaker 1: she's that if it was her idea.

3205
02:25:47,480 --> 02:25:47,920
Speaker 10: My idea.

3206
02:25:48,440 --> 02:25:50,680
Speaker 15: Actually I think it was your idea, it was my idea.

3207
02:25:51,280 --> 02:25:51,720
Speaker 10: I don't know.

3208
02:25:51,840 --> 02:25:55,360
Speaker 15: I just don't want her that's okay, And then it

3209
02:25:55,440 --> 02:25:57,240
Speaker 15: hurst her feeling like later.

3210
02:26:00,600 --> 02:26:02,640
Speaker 1: Well, look, I if I had to put money on,

3211
02:26:02,760 --> 02:26:05,160
Speaker 1: like what I think you're going to end up doing

3212
02:26:05,400 --> 02:26:09,760
Speaker 1: after this phone call, it sounds like it sounds like

3213
02:26:09,800 --> 02:26:11,200
Speaker 1: you're gonna do it. And I hope you have a

3214
02:26:11,200 --> 02:26:13,200
Speaker 1: good time. I hope you have a good time in

3215
02:26:13,280 --> 02:26:17,480
Speaker 1: the moment. I really do. And I don't know if

3216
02:26:17,480 --> 02:26:19,400
Speaker 1: you want to, if you want to borrow three gecko

3217
02:26:19,480 --> 02:26:22,000
Speaker 1: costumes and make it even steamier, you let me know.

3218
02:26:22,959 --> 02:26:26,000
Speaker 5: Oh my god, yeah fuck it, let's do.

3219
02:26:26,000 --> 02:26:29,160
Speaker 4: It, Danny, And that a conversation.

3220
02:26:30,360 --> 02:26:38,320
Speaker 2: No, I'm upset, he's living a life. I'm just a gecko. Yeah,

3221
02:26:38,480 --> 02:26:39,200
Speaker 2: hearing about it?

3222
02:26:39,320 --> 02:26:41,039
Speaker 1: Yeah see now you know, now you guys, now you

3223
02:26:41,080 --> 02:26:42,640
Speaker 1: guys have to do it because or else it would

3224
02:26:42,640 --> 02:26:46,160
Speaker 1: have just been in vain us Gecko, Okay, we have

3225
02:26:46,200 --> 02:26:47,640
Speaker 1: to do it. Say anything else you want to say

3226
02:26:47,640 --> 02:26:48,920
Speaker 1: to the people of the computer before we go.

3227
02:26:55,040 --> 02:27:00,200
Speaker 9: Yeah, just be safe, be nice to each other. A

3228
02:27:00,200 --> 02:27:02,480
Speaker 9: triple ax. Well, the stuff you've been doing with Taggy.

3229
02:27:03,000 --> 02:27:03,680
Speaker 2: Thank you.

3230
02:27:03,760 --> 02:27:06,600
Speaker 9: Yeah, man, I'll you know, I'll let you know how

3231
02:27:06,600 --> 02:27:07,360
Speaker 9: it goes next time.

3232
02:27:07,440 --> 02:27:09,760
Speaker 1: Sounds like you guys got a collaboration of your own

3233
02:27:09,840 --> 02:27:10,320
Speaker 1: to get to.

3234
02:27:12,040 --> 02:27:12,120
Speaker 4: That.

3235
02:27:12,560 --> 02:27:16,000
Speaker 9: Yeah, for one one before the other, obviously, but thank

3236
02:27:16,040 --> 02:27:17,119
Speaker 9: you for the opportunity.

3237
02:27:17,680 --> 02:27:18,640
Speaker 1: Take care of guys.

3238
02:27:18,920 --> 02:27:19,680
Speaker 9: Bye bye.

3239
02:27:20,320 --> 02:27:25,959
Speaker 1: Who I was, actually I was I was watching a

3240
02:27:26,000 --> 02:27:28,600
Speaker 1: different part. I was watching a different podcast with you

3241
02:27:28,680 --> 02:27:31,160
Speaker 1: on it, and you were asked this question, you have

3242
02:27:31,360 --> 02:27:32,200
Speaker 1: you have a threesome?

3243
02:27:34,160 --> 02:27:41,000
Speaker 2: Yeah? Nice, I mean it's not all it's cracked up

3244
02:27:41,040 --> 02:27:41,200
Speaker 2: to me.

3245
02:27:41,520 --> 02:27:44,320
Speaker 1: Yeah what what? What issues did you run into?

3246
02:27:44,760 --> 02:27:46,959
Speaker 3: I mean, it's just like I said, it's it's a

3247
02:27:46,959 --> 02:27:49,160
Speaker 3: lot of hard work. I mean, there's nothing worse than

3248
02:27:49,160 --> 02:27:50,279
Speaker 3: having a trash treason.

3249
02:27:51,879 --> 02:27:54,240
Speaker 1: Now you got because now you've got two people talking.

3250
02:27:54,959 --> 02:27:56,920
Speaker 3: Expectat at this play in my life, I would rather

3251
02:27:57,240 --> 02:27:59,600
Speaker 3: have just one person. I mean, you know, a lot

3252
02:27:59,640 --> 02:28:02,680
Speaker 3: of ship drug fueled, alcohol fueled.

3253
02:28:02,840 --> 02:28:04,280
Speaker 2: Yeah shit, you.

3254
02:28:04,240 --> 02:28:06,440
Speaker 3: Know what I'm saying. But now it's like I ain't

3255
02:28:06,480 --> 02:28:08,439
Speaker 3: even damn I'm a one woman.

3256
02:28:08,280 --> 02:28:11,080
Speaker 2: Then now nice man, I make love. Now.

3257
02:28:11,600 --> 02:28:13,320
Speaker 1: I gotta say I was I was watching a lot

3258
02:28:13,320 --> 02:28:16,320
Speaker 1: of podcasts with you on them, like in preparation for this,

3259
02:28:16,480 --> 02:28:18,880
Speaker 1: and you know, obviously I don't know you very well personally,

3260
02:28:18,920 --> 02:28:23,760
Speaker 1: but you do you seem calmer? Is that fair to say?

3261
02:28:24,080 --> 02:28:25,000
Speaker 2: Yeah? Definitely.

3262
02:28:25,320 --> 02:28:28,200
Speaker 3: I mean, yeah, I just was going through a lot

3263
02:28:28,400 --> 02:28:31,400
Speaker 3: the past few years, you know, and I'm just at

3264
02:28:31,440 --> 02:28:34,640
Speaker 3: a spot in my life, like I say, just not

3265
02:28:34,680 --> 02:28:36,960
Speaker 3: living in my head so much and just enjoying a moment.

3266
02:28:37,480 --> 02:28:39,520
Speaker 3: I think I was putting myself. I was stressing myself

3267
02:28:39,560 --> 02:28:42,920
Speaker 3: out so much that I wasn't even living life, you know,

3268
02:28:43,200 --> 02:28:45,920
Speaker 3: so worried about bad shouted happening. And now I wouldn't

3269
02:28:45,920 --> 02:28:47,720
Speaker 3: even enjoying a good ship that was in front of me.

3270
02:28:47,800 --> 02:28:49,480
Speaker 3: So now I'm just feel blessed.

3271
02:28:49,760 --> 02:28:49,959
Speaker 1: You know.

3272
02:28:50,360 --> 02:28:50,600
Speaker 2: Fuck.

3273
02:28:50,680 --> 02:28:53,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, Well, dude, thank thanks so much for doing this.

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02:28:53,640 --> 02:28:56,080
Speaker 1: And I'm very happy for you that you seem like

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02:28:56,120 --> 02:28:59,280
Speaker 1: you're in this new era of life that that you're

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02:28:59,840 --> 02:29:01,240
Speaker 1: very happy having me.

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Speaker 3: Man, I've been watching your ship for some years now,

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02:29:03,440 --> 02:29:04,879
Speaker 3: So it's cool on there man.

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02:29:04,840 --> 02:29:07,000
Speaker 1: Cool cool, cool dude. Is there anything you want to like,

3280
02:29:07,280 --> 02:29:09,000
Speaker 1: you have any plugs or anything coming up?

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02:29:09,040 --> 02:29:10,879
Speaker 2: Do you want to tell the people about? Yeah? I mean,

3282
02:29:10,920 --> 02:29:13,680
Speaker 2: you know, you can watch my podcast Danny Brown Show

3283
02:29:13,800 --> 02:29:18,840
Speaker 2: every Tuesday on Wild Mate, you know, and new album

3284
02:29:18,879 --> 02:29:23,000
Speaker 2: coming very sooner than motherfuckers think. So it's going to

3285
02:29:23,080 --> 02:29:24,440
Speaker 2: be fun. It's going to be fun.

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02:29:24,480 --> 02:29:27,680
Speaker 1: And if you haven't already check out what for anyone

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Speaker 1: who who hasn't heard you, like, where where should they start?

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02:29:31,920 --> 02:29:36,600
Speaker 2: Far as music? Yeah, I mean I guess you know

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02:29:36,720 --> 02:29:39,560
Speaker 2: you can just I don't know.

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Speaker 3: I wouldn't say I don't know because every album, I

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02:29:41,600 --> 02:29:43,840
Speaker 3: would say, is kind of like my babies, and they're

3292
02:29:43,840 --> 02:29:45,840
Speaker 3: all kind of different from each other.

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02:29:46,640 --> 02:29:47,320
Speaker 2: So I don't know.

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02:29:47,400 --> 02:29:50,000
Speaker 3: It depends on what the person into and what they're

3295
02:29:50,000 --> 02:29:53,000
Speaker 3: going through life, what's going on in their life at

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Speaker 3: the moment.

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Speaker 2: But I would say I don't know.

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02:29:55,959 --> 02:29:57,920
Speaker 3: The best shit to do is probably start with Triple

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02:29:58,040 --> 02:30:00,440
Speaker 3: X and work your way up, or start with you

3300
02:30:00,440 --> 02:30:03,720
Speaker 3: know what I'm saying and work your way down, or

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02:30:03,879 --> 02:30:05,840
Speaker 3: just listen to the Peggy Ship. I would say that's

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02:30:05,840 --> 02:30:11,280
Speaker 3: the most funnest, not the Trauma Dump. So that probably

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02:30:11,280 --> 02:30:12,600
Speaker 3: the jpeg Maffia album.

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02:30:12,720 --> 02:30:15,000
Speaker 1: You know, check out Scaring the Hose.

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02:30:15,160 --> 02:30:16,920
Speaker 2: Yeah, that's a fun one. We have fun making that,

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02:30:17,040 --> 02:30:17,240
Speaker 2: you know.

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Speaker 1: Beautiful. Hey Ghak, bless you Danny, thank.

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02:30:20,280 --> 02:30:20,959
Speaker 2: You man, you too.

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02:30:21,000 --> 02:30:25,640
Speaker 1: Brother goes on the line taking your phone calls every

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02:30:25,760 --> 02:30:26,480
Speaker 1: night ever.

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02:30:27,200 --> 02:30:29,000
Speaker 2: Goes to his i's.

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02:30:28,520 --> 02:30:30,440
Speaker 1: Teaching your cloudy life.

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Speaker 2: Not an expert.