WEBVTT - HOW HATH THOU SINNED?

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, folks, this is Lyle here. I just got done

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<v Speaker 1>going through all two hundred plus submissions for Geck across America,

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<v Speaker 1>and my god, I just I had to hop in

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<v Speaker 1>and tell you guys we have the best community ever.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, it is incredible seeing all these different people

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<v Speaker 1>it's really awesome. I you know, I have been doing

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<v Speaker 1>these videos, it's setting in just how great the community is.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm pained by the fact that we're not going to

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<v Speaker 1>be able to get back to everyone. Seriously. I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>I was with Owen, who's going to be coming along

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<v Speaker 1>documenting the journey, and we were talking about how we

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<v Speaker 1>just wish we had, like, you know, you know, could

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<v Speaker 1>do this, you know, for a whole year or something

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<v Speaker 1>know that I really appreciate you submitting. Every single submission

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<v Speaker 1>we watched was very genuine and really great. So thank

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<v Speaker 1>you guys so much. Again, this is going to be

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<v Speaker 1>crazy fucking project. We're going to go all over the place,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm totally nervous, totally excited. Just wanted to express

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<v Speaker 1>guys to see this journey. I haven't reached out to

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<v Speaker 1>everyone who we're gonna pick because we have to spend

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<v Speaker 1>in a whole another week sort of going through everything

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<v Speaker 1>where we can all go. But again, if you submitted something,

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<v Speaker 1>you're a fucking hero, because all these submissions, I mean

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<v Speaker 1>it totally completely blew away any expectations that I had,

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<v Speaker 1>to go on a project like this, So thank you guys. Anyway,

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<v Speaker 1>Baby never goes on the line taking your phone calls.

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<v Speaker 1>Every night, ever goes to his I was teaching you

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<v Speaker 1>how your life. He's not really an expert.

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<v Speaker 2>All from is it?

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<v Speaker 3>Hello?

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<v Speaker 1>Hello, what's your name?

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<v Speaker 2>Show up.

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<v Speaker 1>How are you.

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<v Speaker 2>Pretty good? You know, so glad beyond glad to you know,

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<v Speaker 2>actually talk to you, of course, Philip. So recently, I've

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<v Speaker 2>been with my girlfriend and uh, she pulled this big

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<v Speaker 2>thing out called Hank the Tank. It's about ten inches long,

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<v Speaker 2>and it really makes me feel bad about myself. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know how to tell her to get rid of it.

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<v Speaker 1>Hank the Tank? Is that the name of of of

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<v Speaker 1>of a I'm I'm getting the sense that you're implying

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<v Speaker 1>that's the name of a of a sex toy of hers.

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<v Speaker 1>It's very phallic, a ten inch long phallic instrument that

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<v Speaker 1>she uses for her own personal sexual pleasure. Yes, Philip,

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<v Speaker 1>look the whole thing of you know, telling her to

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<v Speaker 1>get rid of it. I mean that your your your

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<v Speaker 1>problem is that you know this thing is making you insecure.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't just tell her to get rid of it.

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<v Speaker 1>That's not that's not within your your jurisdiction at all.

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<v Speaker 2>You're right, I guess it just doesn't seem right.

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<v Speaker 1>Why do you say it doesn't What do you mean

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<v Speaker 1>it doesn't seem right?

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<v Speaker 2>I never thought I would use something like that. I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>oh god, I got showered. I've never been showered before.

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<v Speaker 1>What a showered mean?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, once in a while, when you do some stuff,

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<v Speaker 2>there's some liquid that comes back.

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<v Speaker 1>I assume you're you're making this all up, but your

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<v Speaker 1>wife pete on you.

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<v Speaker 2>No, No, I did not make this up. This actually

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<v Speaker 2>happened two weeks ago.

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<v Speaker 1>Really tell me every last detail, every last detail. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I want to know, like, what was it didn't feel hot?

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<v Speaker 1>Where did you pee on you? Exactly?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I mean it was, it was hot and then

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<v Speaker 2>kind of got cold because it was cold in the room,

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<v Speaker 2>so it kind of evaporated a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, that makes sense. We'll check with our science people

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<v Speaker 1>about that.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's just like I said, she pulled that thing out.

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<v Speaker 2>I got jealous, and I don't know how to bring it.

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<v Speaker 3>Up to her.

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<v Speaker 2>I'd really like to get it out of the house,

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<v Speaker 2>but you said, don't do that.

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<v Speaker 5>That's wrong.

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<v Speaker 1>Why why are you so concerned with getting this thing

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<v Speaker 1>out of the house. If I were her, I would

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<v Speaker 1>be see, here's the thing is like this, you're you're

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<v Speaker 1>you know. Look, I don't think your wife is going

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<v Speaker 1>to leave you because this is your wife or your

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<v Speaker 1>girlfriend girlfriend. Look, your girlfriend's not going to leave you

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<v Speaker 1>because you have a tiny penis all right, because she's

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<v Speaker 1>stuck with you so far. But your girlfriend might leave

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<v Speaker 1>you for trying to, you know, control her and what

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<v Speaker 1>she can and can't do, and you know, with with

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<v Speaker 1>with her own life and with her own you know,

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<v Speaker 1>fulfilling her own sexual needs. I leave you over that

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<v Speaker 1>more than I would you having a tiny penis.

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<v Speaker 2>Enough. Get we'll keep tank the tank. I mean, I

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<v Speaker 2>guess I answered the question.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, absolutely, man. See, that's the thing is you're you're

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<v Speaker 1>you're You're gonna make it much worse for yourself because

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<v Speaker 1>you're feeding into your own insecurity, whereas like, look, having

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<v Speaker 1>a tiny penis is like that's you know, that's just

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<v Speaker 1>who you are. And and look she stayed with you

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<v Speaker 1>long enough, she obviously doesn't care. She's still with you.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you're right, Okay, I'll let you go. Thank you sir,

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<v Speaker 2>of course.

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<v Speaker 1>Man, you have a good rest of.

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<v Speaker 5>The night now, you too.

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<v Speaker 2>All from Nathan.

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<v Speaker 1>Nathan.

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<v Speaker 5>Hey, how are you?

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<v Speaker 1>Nathan?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh?

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<v Speaker 6>I'm doing all right.

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<v Speaker 4>How are you?

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<v Speaker 1>How have you sinned? Nathan?

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<v Speaker 6>Well, about ten years ago I cheated on my wife.

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<v Speaker 1>Mmm, you cheated on your wife? And are you two

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<v Speaker 1>still together?

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<v Speaker 4>Yes?

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<v Speaker 1>We are you are, so she forgave it.

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<v Speaker 6>Well, we're working on that because this, uh, she just

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<v Speaker 6>recently found out.

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<v Speaker 1>She only found out recently.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah, just probably just a little under two weeks ago.

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<v Speaker 1>And did you reveal it to her or did she

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<v Speaker 1>find out on her own?

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<v Speaker 6>She found out on her own?

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<v Speaker 1>How did she find out?

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<v Speaker 6>So the husband of the woman I cheated with told

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<v Speaker 6>her because he found out. He found out about two

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<v Speaker 6>years ago, and he contacted her and told her.

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<v Speaker 1>How did he find out? Eight years after it happened.

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<v Speaker 6>Another mutual friend of ours told him let him know?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So I'm sorry.

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<v Speaker 6>Oh. He confronted me about this when he found out

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<v Speaker 6>about it and told me that he knew, but then

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<v Speaker 6>didn't tell me if whether or not he was going

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<v Speaker 6>to tell my wife. But see, his wife and my

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<v Speaker 6>wife are best friends, so in order to try and

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<v Speaker 6>save their friendship at the time, he told me that

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<v Speaker 6>he wasn't planning on telling my wife. But then something

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<v Speaker 6>something inside him just here recently caused him to tell her.

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<v Speaker 6>So now she knows.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So you didn't just cheat on your wife with

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<v Speaker 1>a you know, an unconnected woman. This was her best friend.

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<v Speaker 6>This was her best friend.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, and how long have you all own each other for?

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<v Speaker 1>I mean ten years is.

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<v Speaker 6>A while, right, Well, no, so, I mean, I'm almost

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<v Speaker 6>thirty seven years old, and i've known that the the

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<v Speaker 6>guy is an old friend of mine from I met

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<v Speaker 6>him in eighth grade. We've known each other for a

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<v Speaker 6>long time. And then my wife and her best friend,

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<v Speaker 6>they've known each other since high school. And my wife's

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<v Speaker 6>even a couple of years older than I am. So

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<v Speaker 6>they we've all known each other for years.

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<v Speaker 1>And how long and how many times did you cheot

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<v Speaker 1>on your wife? Was this you know, one isolated incident

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<v Speaker 1>ten years ago? Was to say, over the past ten

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<v Speaker 1>years ago?

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<v Speaker 6>It was a couple of times, roughly, you know, pretty

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<v Speaker 6>close to each other. It happened about twice, Okay, probably

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<v Speaker 6>within a month or two sday.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm did she have a conversation about your wife? Do

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<v Speaker 1>you have a conversation with your wife about it? This

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<v Speaker 1>is two weeks ago?

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<v Speaker 6>You said, yeah, about two weeks ago she about she

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<v Speaker 6>found out. Yeah, and we've been talking. Well, the first

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<v Speaker 6>few days of her finding out were pretty rough. See,

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<v Speaker 6>the problem is, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm working out of town.

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<v Speaker 6>This is it's been horrible timing. I've been working out

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<v Speaker 6>of town. I'm about twelve hundred miles away from home

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<v Speaker 6>when she found out about this, So I've been pretty complete,

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<v Speaker 6>pretty pretty helpless about trying to take care of this,

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<v Speaker 6>you know, face to face, it's all been over the

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<v Speaker 6>fault and it was pretty rough those first few days.

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<v Speaker 6>But she seems like she's getting better.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't expect her to forgive me. I hope she does,

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<v Speaker 6>but I don't expect her to. But I guess I'm

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<v Speaker 6>just kind of hoping for the best.

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<v Speaker 1>Now, do you guys have kids?

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<v Speaker 6>We have three kids.

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<v Speaker 1>M do they know?

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<v Speaker 2>So?

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<v Speaker 6>I just found out that one of them overheard my

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<v Speaker 6>wife and I talking one evening and uh yeah, my

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<v Speaker 6>my middle daughter, she's about sixteen, she knows.

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<v Speaker 1>Hm. And how are you feeling about the situation as

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<v Speaker 1>a whole.

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<v Speaker 6>I'm terrified, you know, I don't want to lose my family.

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<v Speaker 6>You know, I made a really bad mistake. You know,

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<v Speaker 6>there's no excuse for it, and I'll do whatever it

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<v Speaker 6>takes to, you know, keep my family together and keep

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<v Speaker 6>my wife.

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<v Speaker 1>Have you talked through with your I mean, I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, what have you done so far in your

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<v Speaker 1>attempts to rectify the situation.

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<v Speaker 6>Uh, you know, I've just tried to any any kind

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<v Speaker 6>of answers my wife has for me. I do my

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<v Speaker 6>best answer them. I mean, it did happen a while ago,

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<v Speaker 6>and you know, I'm having to try to remember a

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<v Speaker 6>lot of things. But I you know, I just I

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<v Speaker 6>answer honestly, and I answer answer truthfully. Whatever I can do,

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<v Speaker 6>you know. I mean, that's just that's the problem about

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<v Speaker 6>all I can do, being that I'm away from homeworking,

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<v Speaker 6>about all I can do is just talk. So it's

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<v Speaker 6>just been a lot of talking, you know, And and

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<v Speaker 6>I let her say what she wants to say, and

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<v Speaker 6>I answer, I answered truthfully, and so yeah, that's about

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<v Speaker 6>all I can do right now.

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<v Speaker 1>Have you talked through it extensively with your your your

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<v Speaker 1>sixteen year old.

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<v Speaker 6>No, I have not. I haven't. I'm going to. She's

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<v Speaker 6>pretty upset about it from what I from what I understand,

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<v Speaker 6>and uh, I just I haven't had that conversation with

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<v Speaker 6>her yet.

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<v Speaker 4>M hm.

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<v Speaker 6>So yeah, that's how I send.

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<v Speaker 1>Wow, are you a religious person?

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<v Speaker 6>You know? I never used to be years ago, but

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<v Speaker 6>I find I find myself a lot more religious now

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<v Speaker 6>these days.

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<v Speaker 4>And I think.

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<v Speaker 6>I think my actions in the past really kind of

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<v Speaker 6>helped get me where I am right now, faithfully, you know,

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<v Speaker 6>with with my faith in God.

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<v Speaker 7>Mhm.

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<v Speaker 6>I know I've done wrong, and I you know, I

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<v Speaker 6>do my best to pray and have a relationship with God.

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<v Speaker 1>Well listen, what'd you say?

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<v Speaker 5>Your name was, Nathan?

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<v Speaker 1>Well listen, Nathan? Thank you for sharing.

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<v Speaker 6>Yes, thank you for taking my call. I appreciate it.

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<v Speaker 1>Of course, you have a good rest of the night.

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<v Speaker 6>You too. Thanks.

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<v Speaker 4>Get all from Bobert.

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<v Speaker 1>Bobert.

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<v Speaker 4>Yes, Hello, how are you?

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<v Speaker 1>Bobert?

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<v Speaker 4>I'm doing alright. Gek, I'm doing all right. How are you?

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<v Speaker 1>You know Bobert Bobberts. Is that having anything to do

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<v Speaker 1>with Robert or just the Bobert?

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<v Speaker 4>A little bit of both. I like to think, No,

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<v Speaker 4>just couldn't choose.

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<v Speaker 1>You couldn't choose. Are you a generally indecisive person?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>What was the last time you had a tough time

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<v Speaker 1>making a decision?

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<v Speaker 4>Earlier? Actually earlier?

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<v Speaker 1>Why?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah? Earlier today, I was trying to decide whether or

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<v Speaker 4>not to like continue. Its kind of like I've been

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<v Speaker 4>going to therapy on and off, and it's been kind

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<v Speaker 4>of arduous and wearing me down a little bit. So

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<v Speaker 4>I've got something else scheduled for tomorrow, and I was

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<v Speaker 4>kind of weighing on whether or not to skip it

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<v Speaker 4>and try to just chill and repress all this shit

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<v Speaker 4>for maybe a year more, or just wait, Okay, you're.

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<v Speaker 1>Not talking about skipping one there. Besides, you're talking about

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<v Speaker 1>skipping going to therapy. Yeah, why do you Why do

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<v Speaker 1>you think that would help you?

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<v Speaker 4>Well, I had sort of a bad experience with it.

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<v Speaker 4>I tried to and my dad kind of got in

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<v Speaker 4>the way.

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<v Speaker 1>You tried to skip it and your dad got in

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<v Speaker 1>the way. Or you tried to do it and your

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<v Speaker 1>dad got in the way.

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<v Speaker 4>The second one, I tried to do it and my

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<v Speaker 4>dad got in a way.

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<v Speaker 1>How did your dad get in the way.

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<v Speaker 4>It was like a group session, and he lied, he lied.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, you're not talking about group session, all right, or

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<v Speaker 1>you're talking about just a single session, a group session.

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<v Speaker 1>What's the session that you have tomorrow?

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<v Speaker 4>It's a single session. But I've been hearing a lot

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<v Speaker 4>lately from the therapists and doctors. I've been seeing that

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<v Speaker 4>group sessions would be more helpful to me probably.

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<v Speaker 6>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh.

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<v Speaker 1>If your doctors are telling you the group sessions would

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<v Speaker 1>be helpful. Then, I mean, why don't you go to

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<v Speaker 1>You know you should do is go to the single

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<v Speaker 1>session and tell all I mean everything, I have everything

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<v Speaker 1>that you just told me, Like you know the fact

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<v Speaker 1>that you don't want to go to therapy because your

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<v Speaker 1>dad lied in therapy. Have you told that to Well?

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<v Speaker 4>The decision, well, the decision has already like been made

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<v Speaker 4>like against my like against my sort of gut feeling

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<v Speaker 4>like even though I don't want to, I'm going to

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<v Speaker 4>do it anyway because I know that's what's best for me.

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<v Speaker 4>But good, I'm that was the decision I was kind

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<v Speaker 4>of struggling with earlier. Just to answer the question, I'm

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<v Speaker 4>not I'm not still struggling with it. Now.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, good, I'm glad that you decide to go and

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<v Speaker 1>now and now you have so much to talk about

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<v Speaker 1>in the therapy. You can get metal with it. You

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<v Speaker 1>can talk about how you didn't want to go.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, you're right. I actually intend to kind of bring

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<v Speaker 4>that up, like right off of that.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, you should totally bring it up.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah sweet, all right?

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<v Speaker 2>Cool?

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<v Speaker 1>And they actually think that that's probably I mean, they

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<v Speaker 1>probably get that question all the time, or you know,

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<v Speaker 1>the concern all the time of people not wanting to

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<v Speaker 1>see them. Oh yeah, I be offended. Yeah yeah, Well listen,

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<v Speaker 1>what did you say? Your name was Bob Ritt? How

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<v Speaker 1>how have you sinned barber it?

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<v Speaker 4>Do?

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<v Speaker 1>You seem like a nice guy. You seem like you

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<v Speaker 1>haven't sinned it before. But I've talked to many people.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know that looks could be deceiving and not

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<v Speaker 1>that I can see you, but.

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<v Speaker 4>Well, uh, well, I guess my voice is sort of

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<v Speaker 4>deceiving because I've sinned a lot. But I'll I'll share

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<v Speaker 4>a more entertaining, kind of lighthearted one.

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<v Speaker 1>Sure.

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<v Speaker 4>When I was in like I think like second or

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<v Speaker 4>third grade, I was, uh and to get this sort

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<v Speaker 4>of like background, I guess it is pretty awful, and

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<v Speaker 4>I know that now, but uh, I was like bullied

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<v Speaker 4>pretty heavily in my household as a kid. So I

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<v Speaker 4>kind of turned into a bully in like elementary school.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, transmusion of the of the bullying energy.

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<v Speaker 4>I got out of it in like middle school, of course,

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<v Speaker 4>when I like changed schools and all that, but when

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<v Speaker 4>I was like, thank you, I am too. But in

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<v Speaker 4>like second or third grade, I had this friend, let's

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<v Speaker 4>call him, uh, let's call him Pete, and uh, Pete

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<v Speaker 4>was he was an awesome kid. He was an awesome kid,

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<v Speaker 4>but he wasn't the sharpestool in the shed, I guess.

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<v Speaker 1>Sure.

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<v Speaker 4>And this one time we were in like this, this

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<v Speaker 4>kind of like I don't know if a lot of

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<v Speaker 4>schools have this. It's kind of like daycare after school

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<v Speaker 4>for like kids whose parents can't get off work, like

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<v Speaker 4>righte at three, sure, and me and Pete were like

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<v Speaker 4>playing with the legos, your legos, and they had hand

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<v Speaker 4>sanitizer to try and make sure nobody got sick because

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<v Speaker 4>you use legos your hands, and our schools kind of gross,

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<v Speaker 4>I guess. But I was really bored while we were

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<v Speaker 4>playing with these legos, and I just saw this hand

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<v Speaker 4>sanitizer just sitting there and I was like, hey, Pete,

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<v Speaker 4>you know, you know hand sanitizers really for your eyes, right,

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<v Speaker 4>And he's like what really. I didn't have a chance

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<v Speaker 4>to answer him because before he he said really, and

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<v Speaker 4>then in immediately took like three big squirts of hand sanitizer,

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<v Speaker 4>rubbed him into his hands, and then rubbed his hands

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<v Speaker 4>into his eyes. Hm hm, And uh, I didn't get

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<v Speaker 4>in trouble for it.

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<v Speaker 1>You didn't get in trouble for us. Now, how did

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<v Speaker 1>you have had? What?

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<v Speaker 2>What?

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<v Speaker 1>What events? I'm very curious what events preceded that?

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<v Speaker 4>Well, Well, the school we were at was gross, not

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<v Speaker 4>just like on the outside but on the inside, like

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<v Speaker 4>the faculty I guess, and the way they saw it

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<v Speaker 4>or that that situation unfolded, I guess they saw thought

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<v Speaker 4>of it like it was his fault because it literally

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<v Speaker 4>says hand sanitizer on the hand sanitizer like as a

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<v Speaker 4>like a matter of reading. And we were in like

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<v Speaker 4>sex in our third grade, So they were just like

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<v Speaker 4>really mad at him for actually falling for it. But

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<v Speaker 4>I don't think they realized that, Like I don't think

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<v Speaker 4>it occurred to them that there might have been like

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<v Speaker 4>developmental stuff in play or something like that.

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<v Speaker 1>That's crazy, that's crazy, they got. That's like you know

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<v Speaker 1>what that is. That's like that's some real world ass

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<v Speaker 1>like spelling, like reading comprehension test.

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<v Speaker 4>They literally like it was really awful. How they they

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<v Speaker 4>like handled it. They were like, Tony, what does that

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<v Speaker 4>say hand sanitizer? They like they took him away like

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<v Speaker 4>into little like detention after that.

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<v Speaker 1>Damn he got he got hand sanitizer in his eyes

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<v Speaker 1>and an f Yeah, damn, poor kid, what you're doing?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you still do you still keep up with him?

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<v Speaker 5>No?

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<v Speaker 4>I uh, Unfortunately I never got a chance to make

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<v Speaker 4>amends or anything like that. I uh, I've tried a

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<v Speaker 4>couple of times, but every time I looked him up

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<v Speaker 4>on Facebook, like once a couple of years ago, and

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<v Speaker 4>he wears glasses now.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you think the two ads are related?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah, because they didn't when they put him in the

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<v Speaker 4>room after he got it in his eyes, they didn't

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<v Speaker 4>let him rinse it out or anything.

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<v Speaker 1>Why.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know. I was like kind of like peeking

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<v Speaker 4>over like the teacher's shoulders and like on the on

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<v Speaker 4>the outskirts, like as he was getting like chewed out,

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<v Speaker 4>because I wanted to know what was gonna happen, or

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<v Speaker 4>like if he was gonna be okay, because his eyes

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<v Speaker 4>were like bright bright red. But I think I think

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<v Speaker 4>I did that.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting. So, how do you know for sure that the

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<v Speaker 1>fact that he wears glasses now is related to this

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<v Speaker 1>thing that happened to him many years ago?

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<v Speaker 4>Well?

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<v Speaker 3>I don't know for sure.

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<v Speaker 4>Which is a thing that kind of perplexes me about

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<v Speaker 4>this and kind of makes me get into my own head,

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<v Speaker 4>a little bit about it, like just the possibility of it.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, Bobert, sounds like you have a lot to talk

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<v Speaker 1>about tomorrow.

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<v Speaker 4>Yep, for sure.

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<v Speaker 1>Good luck man, you have a wonderful us of the night.

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<v Speaker 4>Thanks you too, gek.

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<v Speaker 1>F dude, babe, Oh shit, what if what if they

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<v Speaker 1>actually gave him better sight? Think about it? Think about it,

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<v Speaker 1>think about this, think about this all right. Theoretically they

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<v Speaker 1>could have actually given a better sight, right, because think

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<v Speaker 1>about this, No one puts hand sanitizer in their eye, right,

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<v Speaker 1>No one would ever put hand sanitizer in their eye.

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<v Speaker 1>No one would ever do it. So we don't know

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<v Speaker 1>what happens if you do. And maybe what happens is

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<v Speaker 1>you get superpowers, high risk, high reward.

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<v Speaker 2>All from Elliott to accept prescio.

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<v Speaker 1>Huh huhuh I.

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<v Speaker 8>Hullo.

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<v Speaker 1>What's up?

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<v Speaker 4>Hey?

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<v Speaker 1>What's your name?

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<v Speaker 2>Elliott?

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<v Speaker 1>Elliott?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah? Can you do all right?

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<v Speaker 1>Elliott?

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<v Speaker 4>Yes, Elliott?

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<v Speaker 1>I can hear you beautifully.

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<v Speaker 8>Awesome, awesome, it's great to hear man.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh we were spoken before, Elliott?

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<v Speaker 8>No, I don't think so. My first time calling in

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<v Speaker 8>so this is.

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<v Speaker 1>Really the first, like your first time ever dialing the number? Yes, sir, Wow,

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<v Speaker 1>that's awesome. A lot of people are like, damn, it

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<v Speaker 1>took me like five hundred tries, but you got it.

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 8>No, I just heard you guys feel like taking calls.

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<v Speaker 8>I'm like, you know what, I'll give it a shot.

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<v Speaker 1>Why not listen? Look, I mean you came on a

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<v Speaker 1>good night. We don't usually take calls on the stream,

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<v Speaker 1>but tonight I figured we take some phone calls.

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<v Speaker 8>That sounds amazing.

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<v Speaker 2>Man.

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<v Speaker 8>You know it's like destiny.

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<v Speaker 1>You know it's again you're playing destiny.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, oh, it's like destiny.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it could be destiny. Do you believe in destiny?

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<v Speaker 4>Really?

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<v Speaker 8>Not really a religious person myself.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, no, I don't know if you have to believe

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<v Speaker 1>in I don't know if it's the concept of destinies

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<v Speaker 1>is inherently religious. I mean, do you believe in fate?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you believe in things happen for a reason or

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<v Speaker 1>or are you more towards the side of everything is

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<v Speaker 1>just random?

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah? Bro?

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<v Speaker 8>Everything just random?

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<v Speaker 4>You know?

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<v Speaker 1>Hm? So you think it was completely random that you

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<v Speaker 1>just got in tonight the first just luck?

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<v Speaker 8>You know?

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<v Speaker 1>I agree with you.

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<v Speaker 8>Oh yeah, yeah, so I cheated, but not in that way. Okay, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 8>so you know how we have this coronavirus going on.

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<v Speaker 8>We I'm in school right now and we have to

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<v Speaker 8>take online exams, now what's called I'm then there's a

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<v Speaker 8>big discord group where some students in the same class

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<v Speaker 8>and we all essentially we all just take the exam

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<v Speaker 8>at the same time and we cheat off there. But

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<v Speaker 8>you know, I don't I'm not really fond of these

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<v Speaker 8>people because I'd never met them in my life. So

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<v Speaker 8>what I did was I what's called I helped them

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<v Speaker 8>out with the exam answers throughout the semester, and our

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<v Speaker 8>teachers have this policy of where you have to get

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<v Speaker 8>fifty on the final exam for pass, and so essentially

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<v Speaker 8>a lot of people were coming to me for answers

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<v Speaker 8>on the exam, and on the final exam, I gave

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<v Speaker 8>them wrong answers, and I heard about like five or

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<v Speaker 8>six people filled out and they have to take the

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<v Speaker 8>class again.

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<v Speaker 1>M You gave them wrong answers on purpose?

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<v Speaker 8>Yes, yes, because I mean I don't like them, to

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<v Speaker 8>be honest, you like them. No, I mean they didn't

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<v Speaker 8>do anything wrong to me. It's not like they're wrong

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<v Speaker 8>to me or anything. I just you know, it wasn't

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<v Speaker 8>really fonds. Then you know, I had no connection to them.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, so you gave them the wrong answers. These

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<v Speaker 1>weren't people you disliked strongly and you were trying to

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<v Speaker 1>seeking vengeance against them. You you were just kind of

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<v Speaker 1>failing them for sport.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, I guess. Yeah, yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>See this is interesting to me because on one hand,

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<v Speaker 1>it's like, look, if you're cheating off the exam, by

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<v Speaker 1>the way, I mean, well, what do you what do

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<v Speaker 1>you guys? What do you guys study?

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<v Speaker 8>Computer science?

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<v Speaker 1>So computers?

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<v Speaker 4>This particular class was a really hard one.

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<v Speaker 8>It's about like computer hardware, like some believe all that,

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<v Speaker 8>you know, a bunch of ones and zeros.

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<v Speaker 1>M hmm.

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<v Speaker 7>See.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, this is an interesting thing because you know, look,

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<v Speaker 1>I can't inherently say that what you did was wrong,

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<v Speaker 1>because it's like, you know, if you cheat on the exam,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, you're you're you're working outside the bounds of

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<v Speaker 1>the system. Anything could happen. It's a lawless land, right right.

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<v Speaker 8>Right, But like the act of like I don't know,

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<v Speaker 8>I mean, I guess it is allis land, but like

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<v Speaker 8>I don't know, you know, like because like I mean,

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<v Speaker 8>at the time, I didn't really care but like now

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<v Speaker 8>I kind of feel I wouldn't say guilty, but like, uh,

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<v Speaker 8>I don't know, like almost that fault for them, you know, No,

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<v Speaker 8>I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't think you're well, I'm what I'm most curious about,

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<v Speaker 1>aside from like whether or not what you did was wrong, yes,

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<v Speaker 1>is not as interesting to me as like why you

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<v Speaker 1>did it, like you just I mean, you know, if

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<v Speaker 1>these people, like if you felt like, oh, these people

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<v Speaker 1>are taking advantage of me, and you know that I

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<v Speaker 1>actually my friends, Uh fuck them, I'm gonna give them

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<v Speaker 1>the wrong answers. But that feeling didn't seem like it

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<v Speaker 1>was ind you. It seemed like you just kind of

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to do this.

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<v Speaker 8>For for like sport, like I enjoyed it or something.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you seem like you kind of enjoyed it.

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<v Speaker 8>At the time.

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<v Speaker 4>I was.

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<v Speaker 8>It's kind of feeling like high in mindy of myself

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<v Speaker 8>because like I was definitely on the top of the class.

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<v Speaker 8>I wouldn't say I was like the smartest one there.

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<v Speaker 8>That was definitely one of the smartest ones in the

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<v Speaker 8>class at least, but I mean, yeah, like kind of

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<v Speaker 8>just felt nice. So I because like their fate was

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<v Speaker 8>in my hands, Like.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, you enjoyed the power of it.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, kind of. Yeah, I guess I kind of get

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<v Speaker 8>like power hungry right there?

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<v Speaker 1>Do you feel as though you don't have a lot

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<v Speaker 1>of power?

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<v Speaker 8>Uh, like in my life? Or I mean yeah, but

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<v Speaker 8>I mean I feel like this was everyone. You know,

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<v Speaker 8>you're you're born a certain way, you're born in a

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<v Speaker 8>certain country. You don't really get the same opportunities as

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<v Speaker 8>everyone else. You know, you're bound to feel parallels at

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<v Speaker 8>sometimes in your life, but like, you know, that's life.

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<v Speaker 1>M Now, did these students who gave the wrong answers

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<v Speaker 1>to did they eventually come back to you and be like, hey,

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<v Speaker 1>what the fuck will these answers are wrong? No?

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<v Speaker 8>No, So essentially we're in this big district group and

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<v Speaker 8>I just all I did was I left the group

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<v Speaker 8>after we completed the class, and I never heard from

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<v Speaker 8>them again, because you know, it's all online.

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<v Speaker 4>You know, like, what are they going to detract me down?

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<v Speaker 8>They don't even know me.

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<v Speaker 1>But you told me that they You told me that

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<v Speaker 1>you heard some of them failed.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, yeah, from other students.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, yeah, you think you're feeling guilty about what you did?

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah, you know, because like now they have to review

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<v Speaker 8>the semester, and like I heard from one of them

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<v Speaker 8>at least that like they had really strict towns and

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<v Speaker 8>like they're overseas, you know, and so like failing this

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<v Speaker 8>class like really hurt them financially speaking. I kind of

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<v Speaker 8>felt bad.

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<v Speaker 4>About that, you know, m.

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<v Speaker 8>Because like they have to retake your class. The teams

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<v Speaker 8>they have to like reinvest the money to take that

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<v Speaker 8>class again, you know in college. Is they're not particularly cheap.

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<v Speaker 1>Well listen before we go, Yeah, would you do it again?

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<v Speaker 4>No?

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<v Speaker 8>No, no, I would not.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you for sharing. Man, you over the rest of

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<v Speaker 1>the night.

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<v Speaker 2>All from Kirby.

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<v Speaker 1>Kirby, Hello Herby.

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<v Speaker 9>Hello am I on stream?

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<v Speaker 1>You are Kirby?

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<v Speaker 9>Oh what's up?

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<v Speaker 6>While what's not?

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<v Speaker 1>You know, not a whole heck of a lot? Kirby?

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<v Speaker 1>Is that your You don't have to tell me what

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<v Speaker 1>your real name is? But is Kirby your real name?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>God, I wish how did you pick that name? Do

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<v Speaker 1>you have an affinity for the Kirby series? Uh?

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<v Speaker 9>I main Kirby and it's just a very He's just

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<v Speaker 9>a pink ball man. He looks real, chill and nice

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<v Speaker 9>and like the way I perceive myself is not like that.

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<v Speaker 9>So I was like, that's kind of funny. I'll be Kirby.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting. The way you perceive yourself is not like that?

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<v Speaker 1>How how do you perceive yourself?

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<v Speaker 9>I'm mean and dark and rude, and Kirby is just

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<v Speaker 9>a nice little ball and he just screams pio at people.

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<v Speaker 6>You know, mean and.

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<v Speaker 1>Dark and rude. What makes you say that you are

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<v Speaker 1>mean and dark and rude?

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<v Speaker 9>Well, I don't really like people. This is gonna tie

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<v Speaker 9>into my sin. I don't care about other people.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting. How old are you?

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<v Speaker 9>I'm nineteen?

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, Well, what's your sin? How hath you sinned? Karby?

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<v Speaker 9>So going on with the scene with cheating? I have

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<v Speaker 9>not been cheated on, but I've been the cheater for

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<v Speaker 9>other people. You get me?

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<v Speaker 1>You said that the way don't. I can't describe exactly why,

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<v Speaker 1>but that the way you phrased that is I have

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<v Speaker 1>been that. I have not been cheated on, but I

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<v Speaker 1>have been the cheater for other people. I can't describe

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<v Speaker 1>exactly what bothers me about the way you phrased that.

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<v Speaker 1>I wish I could, but I don't. That's definitely not okay.

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<v Speaker 1>What go on?

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<v Speaker 9>Yes, home wrecker Kurby, Everyone in the chat saying that, yes,

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<v Speaker 9>it's I just don't care about other people, so knowingly

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<v Speaker 9>letting someone choose bad. Yeah, but like, for example, it

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<v Speaker 9>was a toxic relationship between the both of them, and

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<v Speaker 9>neither of them wanted to be with each other. Not

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<v Speaker 9>to say that I wanted to be with that person either,

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<v Speaker 9>but like we did the dirty and then there's significant

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<v Speaker 9>other was mad and I was just like, well, that

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<v Speaker 9>that sucks.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess, my dad, why do you think you don't

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<v Speaker 1>care about other people?

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<v Speaker 9>Interesting? Because I've been let down a lot. I can't

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<v Speaker 9>have expectations of others.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't have ex well, I mean, I mean, I

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<v Speaker 1>think it's a good thing not to have expects of others,

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<v Speaker 1>but I don't. I don't necessarily look link having not

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<v Speaker 1>having expectations with other of not having expectations of others too,

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<v Speaker 1>not caring about others. I don't think those two things

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<v Speaker 1>have to be inherently related.

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<v Speaker 9>I agree, But I guess it's just in my experience

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<v Speaker 9>where I don't expect anything of others.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, but why why? What do you like? You don't

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<v Speaker 1>care about other people's feelings, You don't care if you

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<v Speaker 1>hurt other people?

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<v Speaker 9>Well, I mean, like, you know, true, you have your people, right,

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<v Speaker 9>like just your close friends or for or whatever. Those

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<v Speaker 9>people I care about the like random people, they're not really.

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<v Speaker 1>M Do you let me ask you something. Do you

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<v Speaker 1>see this as a problem?

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<v Speaker 9>I do, I really do.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, So, so you're not in the camp of I

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<v Speaker 1>don't care about other people and fucking I mean you

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<v Speaker 1>kind of are. But there is a part of you

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<v Speaker 1>that I would like to care about other people. It

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<v Speaker 1>sounds like.

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<v Speaker 9>I don't think I can have that like emotional attachment

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<v Speaker 9>to other people enough to care about them.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>Mmmm, well, I mean, look, you just said that you

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<v Speaker 1>you just said that you have people that you do

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<v Speaker 1>care about. Yes, I do, so, so that's not true.

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<v Speaker 1>You do have the capacity to have emotional attachments to

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<v Speaker 1>people and care about.

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<v Speaker 9>Them, but like when I hurt their feelings, I don't.

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<v Speaker 9>I don't feel bad about it.

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<v Speaker 1>Let me have Is this something you've spoken to a

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<v Speaker 1>real therapist about.

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<v Speaker 9>Yes, and I do go to therapy, but everyone in chat, oh, man, Kacy,

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<v Speaker 9>she's just like, girl, you need to help. And I'm like,

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<v Speaker 9>that's why I'm talking to you.

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<v Speaker 1>What fuck your therapist said to you? You need help? Yes, Okay,

0:38:13.840 --> 0:38:16.719
<v Speaker 1>what did she elaborate on that? Did she offer any.

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<v Speaker 6>Not enough?

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<v Speaker 1>I would say, she said, you need help. Okay, you

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<v Speaker 1>told her I don't care about other people. I don't

0:38:28.560 --> 0:38:32.359
<v Speaker 1>care when they hurt their feelings. And what does she say?

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<v Speaker 9>Well, you know, the real lack of empathy is probably

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<v Speaker 9>like from trauma or something. I'm like, yeah, probably Stacy

0:38:42.400 --> 0:38:45.319
<v Speaker 9>and just conversations like that with her.

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<v Speaker 1>It's from trauma.

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<v Speaker 9>Yeah, but I don't.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I mean, listen, first of all, you should get

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<v Speaker 1>a new therapist until you find someone that he's helpful

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<v Speaker 1>for you. But in the meantime, you know, it's one

0:39:07.800 --> 0:39:10.400
<v Speaker 1>thing not to care about other people, but it's another

0:39:10.440 --> 0:39:13.440
<v Speaker 1>thing when you know, you go out and your actions

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<v Speaker 1>start to have adverse effects on other people. So you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, look, try to get some help. Try to

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<v Speaker 1>keep the havoc reaking, you know, under control until until

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<v Speaker 1>you can get some help. You know, I imagining Kirby.

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<v Speaker 1>Kirby swallows you and gains your your copies, your ability

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<v Speaker 1>to not care about other people and just goes on

0:39:46.000 --> 0:39:53.480
<v Speaker 1>like a a rampage of of of sin. And it's

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<v Speaker 1>a video game. It's called Kirby's Rampage. Of sin. It's

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<v Speaker 1>on the on this twitch.

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<v Speaker 9>I don't know if you've seen those means where it's

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<v Speaker 9>like if Kirby like eight you or whatever, what would

0:40:07.239 --> 0:40:09.960
<v Speaker 9>your power be? So what would your power be?

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<v Speaker 4>Geck?

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<v Speaker 1>I'd be a He'd be turned into a geck. I

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<v Speaker 1>would well listen, Kirby, are you gonna try to find

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<v Speaker 1>the new therapist?

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<v Speaker 9>They have me on meds right now and I don't

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<v Speaker 9>really like it, so probably.

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<v Speaker 1>Good. I hope, I hope that everything works out for you.

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<v Speaker 9>Thank you, man.

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<v Speaker 1>You have a good rest of the night too.

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<v Speaker 9>I will try to enjoy streams.

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<v Speaker 1>I was the cheater for other people? What does that mean?

0:40:48.680 --> 0:40:52.120
<v Speaker 2>All from David?

0:40:52.200 --> 0:40:57.879
<v Speaker 1>David? Good while we're doing it? Not big?

0:40:59.480 --> 0:41:01.120
<v Speaker 5>Oh my man, I didn't think I reached you?

0:41:01.239 --> 0:41:04.200
<v Speaker 1>Man, Why didn't you think you'd reach me? You got

0:41:04.280 --> 0:41:05.560
<v Speaker 1>you called the phone number?

0:41:06.200 --> 0:41:09.000
<v Speaker 5>Well, I called earlier. I wasn't the other day that

0:41:09.080 --> 0:41:10.879
<v Speaker 5>cheated you know? So I was the one that didn't

0:41:10.880 --> 0:41:12.360
<v Speaker 5>stay on the line.

0:41:12.719 --> 0:41:16.680
<v Speaker 1>Ah, I remember that. Yeah, I'm glad we finally got

0:41:16.719 --> 0:41:18.200
<v Speaker 1>the chat with you. What's up man? How you doing?

0:41:19.360 --> 0:41:24.919
<v Speaker 5>I'm doing all right. I'ma take some cookies, watching rush hour,

0:41:25.040 --> 0:41:26.480
<v Speaker 5>watching your stream at the same.

0:41:26.280 --> 0:41:31.719
<v Speaker 1>Time you're watching the movie rush Hour? Yeah, how can

0:41:31.760 --> 0:41:34.920
<v Speaker 1>I ask? How were you? I don't understand media consumption

0:41:35.200 --> 0:41:37.439
<v Speaker 1>habits these days, because I'll go to my friend's house

0:41:37.480 --> 0:41:39.440
<v Speaker 1>and they got a movie on, they got a stream on,

0:41:39.960 --> 0:41:45.000
<v Speaker 1>they got the Beatles playing, they're watching porn, they're doing

0:41:45.080 --> 0:41:47.799
<v Speaker 1>they're brushing their teeth, Like, how do you do all

0:41:47.840 --> 0:41:49.920
<v Speaker 1>these different things? How are you watching my stream? Man

0:41:49.960 --> 0:41:55.640
<v Speaker 1>watching rush Hour? What's like taking dominance in your mind

0:41:55.680 --> 0:41:57.360
<v Speaker 1>as you're processing all this information?

0:41:58.280 --> 0:42:02.879
<v Speaker 5>Well, the majority of it, it's mostly Uh, when when

0:42:02.840 --> 0:42:06.200
<v Speaker 5>you're talking to somebody and you're on your stream. I

0:42:06.239 --> 0:42:08.480
<v Speaker 5>turned the volume up on your stream, and then I

0:42:08.520 --> 0:42:12.479
<v Speaker 5>turned down with rush Hour. But then you know, as

0:42:12.520 --> 0:42:14.960
<v Speaker 5>it gets boring or you know, the persons you know

0:42:15.680 --> 0:42:20.000
<v Speaker 5>not interesting enough for me, I just turn up rush

0:42:20.040 --> 0:42:23.320
<v Speaker 5>Hour and once it ends, I'll pause rush Hour. I

0:42:23.360 --> 0:42:24.640
<v Speaker 5>gotta call him. I gotta call him.

0:42:26.560 --> 0:42:29.799
<v Speaker 1>I'd love I would love to see, like, I mean,

0:42:29.840 --> 0:42:37.160
<v Speaker 1>the data on what percentage of the stream you've selected

0:42:37.239 --> 0:42:39.480
<v Speaker 1>to have it be the dominant thing over rush Hour?

0:42:40.840 --> 0:42:44.920
<v Speaker 1>Like how often who? How often over the this this

0:42:45.000 --> 0:42:47.680
<v Speaker 1>current stream? Did it get boring and you you put

0:42:47.760 --> 0:42:53.160
<v Speaker 1>rush Hour on? I'd be completely I'm.

0:42:52.960 --> 0:42:55.399
<v Speaker 5>Not gonna lie. I don't like I didn't like Curby girl,

0:42:55.520 --> 0:42:58.520
<v Speaker 5>so I tuned her out for a bit. Like once

0:42:58.560 --> 0:43:00.560
<v Speaker 5>you talk started talking about a therapist, was like, all right,

0:43:00.880 --> 0:43:03.359
<v Speaker 5>he lying, I'm I'm gonna keep watching Rush Hour.

0:43:04.080 --> 0:43:11.200
<v Speaker 1>I thought she was lying, Yeah, lying about about what the.

0:43:11.040 --> 0:43:13.640
<v Speaker 5>Therapist telling her she needs to get help. Ain't no

0:43:13.719 --> 0:43:14.839
<v Speaker 5>therapist gonna tell you that.

0:43:15.719 --> 0:43:19.279
<v Speaker 1>I've there are some terrible therapists out there. By the way,

0:43:19.640 --> 0:43:20.960
<v Speaker 1>have you ever been a therapy.

0:43:22.560 --> 0:43:30.000
<v Speaker 5>I have, Bud. He was a Christian therapist, m but

0:43:30.320 --> 0:43:33.160
<v Speaker 5>he gave good advice, you know, just at the end

0:43:33.200 --> 0:43:34.319
<v Speaker 5>of it, he just prayed for me.

0:43:34.719 --> 0:43:41.480
<v Speaker 1>You know, so, oh that's so stupid. I'm in no offense.

0:43:42.680 --> 0:43:44.960
<v Speaker 1>I mean, but if I went to a therapist and

0:43:45.000 --> 0:43:46.839
<v Speaker 1>they prayed for me, I would be so pissed off.

0:43:48.480 --> 0:43:53.800
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, yeah, I understand. It's uh, he gives you advice.

0:43:53.880 --> 0:43:55.360
<v Speaker 5>Let me tell you, God will work it out. So

0:43:55.400 --> 0:43:56.160
<v Speaker 5>it's a little weird.

0:43:59.800 --> 0:44:02.120
<v Speaker 1>Well if God, if you know what, that would piss

0:44:02.120 --> 0:44:04.120
<v Speaker 1>me off too. If God is going to work it out,

0:44:04.160 --> 0:44:05.759
<v Speaker 1>you know, why doesn't he just do it right now?

0:44:05.800 --> 0:44:07.200
<v Speaker 1>Why what the hell is he waiting for?

0:44:08.200 --> 0:44:11.840
<v Speaker 5>That's what I'm saying, man, I still have to go

0:44:11.880 --> 0:44:14.400
<v Speaker 5>to church because I made the deal with my boss

0:44:14.440 --> 0:44:16.480
<v Speaker 5>and I lost. So I gotta go to church every

0:44:16.520 --> 0:44:17.120
<v Speaker 5>Sunday with him.

0:44:17.120 --> 0:44:19.799
<v Speaker 1>Now, you made a bet. What was the deal or

0:44:19.840 --> 0:44:20.200
<v Speaker 1>the bet?

0:44:21.480 --> 0:44:23.080
<v Speaker 5>Well, he said if he could get me out of

0:44:23.960 --> 0:44:30.440
<v Speaker 5>West Virginia from an abusive job. Uh, I gotta go

0:44:30.440 --> 0:44:32.080
<v Speaker 5>to church every Sunday if I worked for him, and

0:44:32.080 --> 0:44:34.279
<v Speaker 5>I was like, well, ship, he did it. I don't

0:44:34.320 --> 0:44:35.000
<v Speaker 5>know how he did it.

0:44:35.040 --> 0:44:38.239
<v Speaker 1>But wait, this is wait. This man is making it

0:44:38.280 --> 0:44:41.200
<v Speaker 1>so that one of the requirements of working for him

0:44:41.239 --> 0:44:42.240
<v Speaker 1>is that you have to go to church.

0:44:43.760 --> 0:44:45.680
<v Speaker 5>Yes, personal requirement.

0:44:47.200 --> 0:44:49.759
<v Speaker 1>All right, it's just not an actual He's not going

0:44:49.840 --> 0:44:51.839
<v Speaker 1>to fire you if you don't do it. But you're

0:44:51.880 --> 0:44:55.240
<v Speaker 1>a man of your word and you agree to it. Yes,

0:44:56.160 --> 0:44:58.560
<v Speaker 1>how do you feel about it? Have you been is?

0:44:58.600 --> 0:45:00.800
<v Speaker 1>Have you been enjoying your church going experience?

0:45:01.840 --> 0:45:01.960
<v Speaker 2>Uh?

0:45:02.320 --> 0:45:05.880
<v Speaker 5>Some of it. I mean it connects to how I've sinned,

0:45:06.200 --> 0:45:11.279
<v Speaker 5>So it's uh, it's it's fun. It's all right. I

0:45:11.360 --> 0:45:13.760
<v Speaker 5>just don't go to the I don't actually go inside.

0:45:13.840 --> 0:45:15.440
<v Speaker 5>I just sit out there and drink coffee with the

0:45:15.760 --> 0:45:16.320
<v Speaker 5>old people.

0:45:16.840 --> 0:45:19.040
<v Speaker 1>Well, you're not serious, are you don't actually go in.

0:45:20.760 --> 0:45:21.239
<v Speaker 6>I'm there.

0:45:21.600 --> 0:45:23.719
<v Speaker 5>I mean, I have a personal relationship with pastor because

0:45:23.719 --> 0:45:25.719
<v Speaker 5>he's just such a nice guy. You can't really he

0:45:25.840 --> 0:45:28.680
<v Speaker 5>smiled that just like I gotta smile back.

0:45:28.840 --> 0:45:31.560
<v Speaker 1>I know. It's so annoying. I mean we had too,

0:45:32.040 --> 0:45:35.280
<v Speaker 1>we had that Catholic guy calling. He was so nice.

0:45:35.360 --> 0:45:38.359
<v Speaker 1>It's so annoying when they're nice, because then it makes

0:45:38.400 --> 0:45:43.240
<v Speaker 1>you want to not be mean about religion because they're

0:45:43.400 --> 0:45:43.960
<v Speaker 1>nice people.

0:45:45.160 --> 0:45:47.560
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, yeah, I mean that's how.

0:45:47.719 --> 0:45:49.759
<v Speaker 1>How had you sinned? What was What's that you said?

0:45:49.760 --> 0:45:51.200
<v Speaker 1>This is in connection to your sin?

0:45:52.320 --> 0:45:55.279
<v Speaker 5>Uh? It connected because I talked to one of the

0:45:55.280 --> 0:46:01.120
<v Speaker 5>old people and church about it. But back in the day,

0:46:01.280 --> 0:46:06.319
<v Speaker 5>I stole a lot, So I don't know. Back in

0:46:06.360 --> 0:46:10.600
<v Speaker 5>the day, I'd say probably middle school, high school. I

0:46:10.680 --> 0:46:14.000
<v Speaker 5>lived in Detroit, and I stole a lot of things.

0:46:14.080 --> 0:46:17.799
<v Speaker 5>I stole from my family, primarily my dad. I didn't

0:46:17.840 --> 0:46:19.560
<v Speaker 5>like my dad at the time, but.

0:46:21.560 --> 0:46:24.840
<v Speaker 6>Stole lot through money everywhere, stole for.

0:46:25.800 --> 0:46:28.719
<v Speaker 5>A lot of I think they were blood. They wore

0:46:28.760 --> 0:46:30.560
<v Speaker 5>a lot of red, That's about it. But I mean

0:46:30.760 --> 0:46:32.560
<v Speaker 5>still have their off days and we're purple for some

0:46:32.600 --> 0:46:33.520
<v Speaker 5>fucking reasons.

0:46:34.120 --> 0:46:38.200
<v Speaker 1>Still from bloods.

0:46:36.680 --> 0:46:39.840
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, like no, not from blood. I stole things and

0:46:39.920 --> 0:46:42.880
<v Speaker 5>sold it to them. It was more like a you

0:46:42.960 --> 0:46:44.799
<v Speaker 5>got to survive out there type of thing.

0:46:44.960 --> 0:46:46.399
<v Speaker 1>Were you in the gang?

0:46:47.360 --> 0:46:52.640
<v Speaker 5>No, no, no no, I was too too uh too

0:46:52.719 --> 0:46:54.200
<v Speaker 5>baby faced Asians for that.

0:46:54.440 --> 0:46:57.960
<v Speaker 1>So okay, but.

0:46:58.239 --> 0:47:03.880
<v Speaker 5>Uh, I don't know. I said, stolen things from you know,

0:47:05.160 --> 0:47:12.400
<v Speaker 5>candy to whole entire washing machines and video games.

0:47:14.080 --> 0:47:16.160
<v Speaker 1>How the fuck do you steal a washing machine?

0:47:16.840 --> 0:47:18.200
<v Speaker 6>What was back in the day? Man?

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<v Speaker 5>You know around like I'd say probably one two thousand

0:47:21.320 --> 0:47:24.319
<v Speaker 5>and eight, you know, back in the day. And I

0:47:24.360 --> 0:47:28.680
<v Speaker 5>walked into a Steers and I didn't look like a

0:47:28.680 --> 0:47:30.480
<v Speaker 5>gang member or anything like that. I walked in with

0:47:30.560 --> 0:47:35.640
<v Speaker 5>khaki a dress shirt. Just the excuse me, man, Can

0:47:35.719 --> 0:47:40.160
<v Speaker 5>I just grab the doll and grab this display? Talked

0:47:40.200 --> 0:47:42.280
<v Speaker 5>to them recently and they said at the last monle.

0:47:42.200 --> 0:47:44.400
<v Speaker 6>Was doing to pay for He's, oh, yeah, sure, go ahead, honey.

0:47:44.840 --> 0:47:46.680
<v Speaker 5>And you know you just got to stroll that shit

0:47:46.719 --> 0:47:47.440
<v Speaker 5>out there, and that's it.

0:47:48.160 --> 0:47:52.200
<v Speaker 1>Damn that. I'm not gonna lie like getting away with

0:47:52.680 --> 0:47:57.560
<v Speaker 1>stealing with like stealing a washing machine could probably it

0:47:57.560 --> 0:47:59.759
<v Speaker 1>probably seemed like gould feel really good. Just the act

0:47:59.800 --> 0:48:02.000
<v Speaker 1>of that kind of feels like you pulled I mean

0:48:02.000 --> 0:48:04.719
<v Speaker 1>because still on like whatever, some candy or whatever. You know,

0:48:04.760 --> 0:48:08.520
<v Speaker 1>it's like you know, but I mean getting away with

0:48:08.560 --> 0:48:11.720
<v Speaker 1>the washing machine. I mean that's a true heist. Score

0:48:14.640 --> 0:48:15.720
<v Speaker 1>I don't know, man.

0:48:15.600 --> 0:48:18.640
<v Speaker 5>I mean I gave up on it a long time ago.

0:48:19.000 --> 0:48:21.440
<v Speaker 1>So there's two steps to that. You have to deceive

0:48:21.520 --> 0:48:23.480
<v Speaker 1>the part you have a disguise.

0:48:23.200 --> 0:48:26.600
<v Speaker 5>Kind of yeah, kind of, but that was actually who

0:48:26.640 --> 0:48:27.040
<v Speaker 5>I was.

0:48:29.680 --> 0:48:32.760
<v Speaker 1>All right, So you you stole a lot of things,

0:48:32.840 --> 0:48:36.239
<v Speaker 1>and then and then you talked to it about you

0:48:36.280 --> 0:48:39.000
<v Speaker 1>talked to this woman at church about this, and what

0:48:39.280 --> 0:48:40.319
<v Speaker 1>did she have to tell you?

0:48:41.800 --> 0:48:45.440
<v Speaker 5>Well, they tried to portray it to like my relationship

0:48:45.480 --> 0:48:48.799
<v Speaker 5>with my father, because how it all started. I would

0:48:48.800 --> 0:48:53.560
<v Speaker 5>steal money from him. And granted he wasn't a good

0:48:53.600 --> 0:48:56.440
<v Speaker 5>father when I was a little kid, so my relationship

0:48:56.800 --> 0:49:01.600
<v Speaker 5>with him wasn't that great. So he's old school, so

0:49:01.640 --> 0:49:07.080
<v Speaker 5>he keeps his money and his illegal money under his mattress.

0:49:07.200 --> 0:49:09.280
<v Speaker 5>So I wouldn't steel, like, you know, a couple bucks,

0:49:09.320 --> 0:49:12.600
<v Speaker 5>I'd steel you know, two thousand and three thousand dollars

0:49:12.680 --> 0:49:13.120
<v Speaker 5>every week.

0:49:14.640 --> 0:49:16.040
<v Speaker 1>And how did you not notice that?

0:49:17.560 --> 0:49:20.680
<v Speaker 5>Well, apparently this dude is rolling in money. I mean,

0:49:20.760 --> 0:49:22.680
<v Speaker 5>I could go on and on about how you know,

0:49:22.800 --> 0:49:24.520
<v Speaker 5>he's still a shitty father to me.

0:49:27.360 --> 0:49:29.840
<v Speaker 1>But had enough that he wasn't noticing two thousand and

0:49:29.840 --> 0:49:33.719
<v Speaker 1>three thousand bucks just a stock PI looks man.

0:49:33.800 --> 0:49:37.399
<v Speaker 5>He had a nineteen eleven and uh, what's it called

0:49:37.440 --> 0:49:39.799
<v Speaker 5>one of those fanny packs full of cash that you know,

0:49:40.520 --> 0:49:43.920
<v Speaker 5>just had scrumpled up hundreds in it, you know, and

0:49:43.960 --> 0:49:47.120
<v Speaker 5>then the other stuff were just like rolls of hundreds,

0:49:47.160 --> 0:49:51.359
<v Speaker 5>and uh, you know, it is what it is. You know,

0:49:51.440 --> 0:49:53.040
<v Speaker 5>I didn't. I was too young at the time to

0:49:53.080 --> 0:49:55.279
<v Speaker 5>even care. You know. It's like I have money, I

0:49:55.320 --> 0:50:00.640
<v Speaker 5>want money. But turns out, you know, like as I

0:50:00.640 --> 0:50:05.239
<v Speaker 5>grew older and stuff like that. Yeah, he he uh,

0:50:05.920 --> 0:50:11.520
<v Speaker 5>manages a lot of salons, dry cleaners, a lot of

0:50:11.560 --> 0:50:15.600
<v Speaker 5>those places in the Asian community, so you know, so

0:50:15.680 --> 0:50:18.960
<v Speaker 5>they give them cash because you know they have some

0:50:19.000 --> 0:50:21.800
<v Speaker 5>of them have illegal businesses. And that's how it all started.

0:50:21.880 --> 0:50:25.920
<v Speaker 5>But nonetheless, you just started talking about how, you know,

0:50:26.080 --> 0:50:27.480
<v Speaker 5>why do you hate your father.

0:50:27.440 --> 0:50:28.920
<v Speaker 2>Things like that, Well, because.

0:50:28.640 --> 0:50:29.200
<v Speaker 6>You know, he's a.

0:50:30.920 --> 0:50:34.200
<v Speaker 5>You know, I live in his shadow and I hated it.

0:50:34.360 --> 0:50:37.680
<v Speaker 5>So you know, now I'm here, far far away from

0:50:37.719 --> 0:50:40.880
<v Speaker 5>Michigan and living in the middle of nowhere in the

0:50:40.880 --> 0:50:46.120
<v Speaker 5>woods and I don't know. I just told her. You know,

0:50:46.200 --> 0:50:48.279
<v Speaker 5>I don't think I'll be able to forgive him now

0:50:49.280 --> 0:50:53.799
<v Speaker 5>because I felt bad at one point I wanted to

0:50:54.080 --> 0:50:57.400
<v Speaker 5>apologize and talent. But you know, the last time I

0:50:57.440 --> 0:51:00.319
<v Speaker 5>talked to him, he said I was broke and a

0:51:00.360 --> 0:51:02.160
<v Speaker 5>loser and laughed at me and I hung up. So

0:51:03.800 --> 0:51:06.520
<v Speaker 5>you know, like, you know what he doesn't really need

0:51:06.560 --> 0:51:10.839
<v Speaker 5>to know now, and you know that's how Asian families are.

0:51:10.880 --> 0:51:13.080
<v Speaker 9>You know, M.

0:51:14.800 --> 0:51:17.040
<v Speaker 1>Then you how long ago was this when you last

0:51:17.040 --> 0:51:17.360
<v Speaker 1>talked to.

0:51:17.360 --> 0:51:23.919
<v Speaker 5>Him, I'd say in August of last year?

0:51:25.280 --> 0:51:26.960
<v Speaker 1>Hm, you have an all plans talk to him again?

0:51:28.600 --> 0:51:31.919
<v Speaker 5>Well, I figured i'd call him for Father's Day next month,

0:51:32.040 --> 0:51:33.920
<v Speaker 5>but I think he would just asked me if I'm

0:51:33.960 --> 0:51:38.640
<v Speaker 5>making money yet, So kind of that thing where I

0:51:38.680 --> 0:51:44.720
<v Speaker 5>need to reevaluate my relationship with him. But it's hard,

0:51:45.120 --> 0:51:49.600
<v Speaker 5>you know, it's uh, he's not really you know, everything

0:51:49.680 --> 0:51:53.120
<v Speaker 5>that I wanted to be when I was a kid

0:51:53.160 --> 0:51:55.319
<v Speaker 5>with him, but now it's more like everything I don't

0:51:55.320 --> 0:52:02.000
<v Speaker 5>want to be is him. M And uh, I don't know.

0:52:03.400 --> 0:52:06.000
<v Speaker 5>I wouldn't say he's the source of all my my

0:52:06.000 --> 0:52:10.440
<v Speaker 5>my greatest sin, but it's one of the most sinful

0:52:10.520 --> 0:52:14.440
<v Speaker 5>things I've done, I don't know. And I used to

0:52:14.480 --> 0:52:19.360
<v Speaker 5>manipulate all my I don't know, my peers in school

0:52:19.400 --> 0:52:19.920
<v Speaker 5>with money.

0:52:21.400 --> 0:52:23.560
<v Speaker 1>Used to manipulate your peers in school with money, like

0:52:23.560 --> 0:52:25.560
<v Speaker 1>you would pay them to do things for you.

0:52:26.239 --> 0:52:29.279
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, it was fun to just throw twenty bucks on

0:52:29.360 --> 0:52:31.520
<v Speaker 5>the floor and wash them fight over it. Things like

0:52:31.560 --> 0:52:33.759
<v Speaker 5>that and amusement, because I knew that money wasn't mine,

0:52:35.719 --> 0:52:38.839
<v Speaker 5>you know, like, hey man, you take this cheese stick

0:52:38.880 --> 0:52:41.080
<v Speaker 5>and smack your friend, I'll give you twenty bucks. That's

0:52:42.040 --> 0:52:42.800
<v Speaker 5>stupid stuff.

0:52:46.040 --> 0:52:46.120
<v Speaker 8>You.

0:52:46.440 --> 0:52:50.279
<v Speaker 1>I feel like you were like like like one of

0:52:50.280 --> 0:52:51.960
<v Speaker 1>those people that stood at the top of in the

0:52:51.960 --> 0:52:56.600
<v Speaker 1>balcony at the Roman Wars watching people that you know

0:52:57.320 --> 0:53:00.800
<v Speaker 1>pitting fights for amusement.

0:53:01.880 --> 0:53:04.839
<v Speaker 5>Well, that's you know, that's it was a lie.

0:53:04.840 --> 0:53:07.759
<v Speaker 1>If I had disposable income at when I was in

0:53:07.800 --> 0:53:09.799
<v Speaker 1>high school, I would definitely spend a little bit of

0:53:09.840 --> 0:53:14.040
<v Speaker 1>it on initiating cheese steak fights. I think that, you

0:53:14.080 --> 0:53:15.280
<v Speaker 1>know a lot of people might.

0:53:17.520 --> 0:53:17.759
<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

0:53:18.239 --> 0:53:21.880
<v Speaker 5>I mean I've honestly just probably did, because you know,

0:53:23.120 --> 0:53:25.319
<v Speaker 5>I didn't want the affection, you know, like my dad

0:53:25.360 --> 0:53:27.560
<v Speaker 5>didn't give me any affection or attention back when I

0:53:27.600 --> 0:53:31.319
<v Speaker 5>was young or whatever. But you know, he right, you know,

0:53:32.560 --> 0:53:36.160
<v Speaker 5>it is the same a lot of Asian Parents Day

0:53:36.680 --> 0:53:39.440
<v Speaker 5>or whatever it is. Well, he's never really said that

0:53:39.480 --> 0:53:41.640
<v Speaker 5>type of stuff. Mostly my dad just said the maggot

0:53:41.680 --> 0:53:49.319
<v Speaker 5>time night and then that basically like damn this guy

0:53:50.480 --> 0:53:54.279
<v Speaker 5>in a simplistic term. But you know, like I don't

0:53:54.320 --> 0:53:56.920
<v Speaker 5>know a lot of shit like that. He never said

0:53:56.960 --> 0:53:59.280
<v Speaker 5>anything else like he was proud of me or something

0:53:59.360 --> 0:53:59.600
<v Speaker 5>like that.

0:53:59.680 --> 0:54:03.439
<v Speaker 1>He just well, so it sounds to me like now,

0:54:03.560 --> 0:54:05.799
<v Speaker 1>I mean now though, it sounds to me like now

0:54:05.880 --> 0:54:10.000
<v Speaker 1>you've you've you've sort of got your own life going. Yeah,

0:54:10.160 --> 0:54:12.840
<v Speaker 1>but that's awesome. It's I you know, I feel for

0:54:13.200 --> 0:54:15.279
<v Speaker 1>we get we get people calling in being like, you know,

0:54:15.880 --> 0:54:17.560
<v Speaker 1>I want to do something that I make my family

0:54:17.600 --> 0:54:19.759
<v Speaker 1>proud of me and this and that, and you know,

0:54:20.080 --> 0:54:24.080
<v Speaker 1>I it's it's cool when when people are able to

0:54:24.120 --> 0:54:27.319
<v Speaker 1>move past that and be able to build something just independently.

0:54:28.560 --> 0:54:32.319
<v Speaker 5>Oh yeah, And I'll tell you what I'm trying. I'm

0:54:32.320 --> 0:54:36.840
<v Speaker 5>getting there. But it's not only like it's trying to

0:54:36.840 --> 0:54:40.319
<v Speaker 5>pick up the pieces after you get out. I got out,

0:54:40.760 --> 0:54:44.960
<v Speaker 5>but it's uh, now it's I gotta I gotta get

0:54:44.960 --> 0:54:47.360
<v Speaker 5>the rest of my siblings out. You know, we all

0:54:47.440 --> 0:54:51.840
<v Speaker 5>came out pretty messed up from whatever happened with our family.

0:54:51.920 --> 0:54:55.799
<v Speaker 1>So do and if your siblings live uh near where

0:54:55.840 --> 0:54:56.239
<v Speaker 1>you live.

0:54:57.840 --> 0:55:01.279
<v Speaker 5>Oh, my sister does, but she she got affected up

0:55:01.320 --> 0:55:04.319
<v Speaker 5>my dad pretty heavily. So she's on that you know,

0:55:04.440 --> 0:55:06.520
<v Speaker 5>you need to be successful blah blah blah blah and

0:55:06.560 --> 0:55:10.640
<v Speaker 5>have enough money, David. And you know, they shunned me

0:55:10.760 --> 0:55:13.000
<v Speaker 5>for about a year and I wasn't allowed to go

0:55:13.080 --> 0:55:17.600
<v Speaker 5>to uh family gatherings or anything like that for about

0:55:17.600 --> 0:55:20.040
<v Speaker 5>a year because I've actually told him, hey, bug off,

0:55:20.239 --> 0:55:22.960
<v Speaker 5>I'm gonna do whatever I want to do. And I

0:55:23.000 --> 0:55:25.400
<v Speaker 5>was all right, well, don't talk to them. And I

0:55:25.440 --> 0:55:26.640
<v Speaker 5>was like, well, that's sucks.

0:55:27.000 --> 0:55:31.359
<v Speaker 1>And then listen before we go, I mean, what's your

0:55:31.400 --> 0:55:33.560
<v Speaker 1>what's your your dream goal?

0:55:36.360 --> 0:55:36.600
<v Speaker 6>Man?

0:55:39.760 --> 0:55:44.000
<v Speaker 5>I just want to honestly, I just wanted to be

0:55:44.120 --> 0:55:52.120
<v Speaker 5>content with myself. I just want to be acknowledged by myself.

0:55:53.880 --> 0:55:55.560
<v Speaker 1>I like that. I think that that's a good goal.

0:55:55.640 --> 0:55:59.279
<v Speaker 1>I think that. You know, Look, I'm priort of you, man.

0:55:59.320 --> 0:56:02.080
<v Speaker 1>It sounds like you've been able to get a good

0:56:02.200 --> 0:56:05.840
<v Speaker 1>dent in that by moving away from from your family.

0:56:05.880 --> 0:56:06.920
<v Speaker 1>A lot of people don't do that. A lot of

0:56:06.960 --> 0:56:12.080
<v Speaker 1>people will just succumb to, you know, living by their parents'

0:56:12.120 --> 0:56:16.080
<v Speaker 1>expectations for their entire life. But you know, even though

0:56:16.120 --> 0:56:17.560
<v Speaker 1>it's hard, I'm glad to hear you making a dent

0:56:17.600 --> 0:56:17.759
<v Speaker 1>in it.

0:56:18.960 --> 0:56:22.759
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, thanks man, Thanks man, It means a lot. I

0:56:22.800 --> 0:56:24.399
<v Speaker 5>can't even I can't even believe I got.

0:56:24.360 --> 0:56:26.399
<v Speaker 1>A phone call with you, you know for sure.

0:56:26.440 --> 0:56:29.680
<v Speaker 5>Man, I've been watching you for a long time, called

0:56:29.719 --> 0:56:32.879
<v Speaker 5>you like fifty times to night, told everyone I knew

0:56:32.960 --> 0:56:35.919
<v Speaker 5>about you. Like, man, it seems like a cool guy.

0:56:36.680 --> 0:56:37.759
<v Speaker 5>I gotta talk to him.

0:56:39.160 --> 0:56:40.680
<v Speaker 1>Well, listen, did what you say your name was? Your

0:56:40.800 --> 0:56:42.520
<v Speaker 1>name was? I'm not gonna guess because I'm going to

0:56:42.520 --> 0:56:43.520
<v Speaker 1>get wrong. What's your name was?

0:56:44.280 --> 0:56:44.600
<v Speaker 5>David?

0:56:45.239 --> 0:56:46.759
<v Speaker 1>David? Okay? I was going to guess Philip and that

0:56:46.760 --> 0:56:48.640
<v Speaker 1>would have been wrong. Well, thank you so much for

0:56:48.760 --> 0:56:50.319
<v Speaker 1>calling David. You ever one for us to the night,

0:56:51.000 --> 0:56:51.960
<v Speaker 1>you too, thinks.

0:56:57.840 --> 0:57:03.480
<v Speaker 10>All from Jim, Jim, that's me?

0:57:04.960 --> 0:57:05.320
<v Speaker 1>How are you?

0:57:05.520 --> 0:57:05.920
<v Speaker 4>How you doing?

0:57:06.000 --> 0:57:08.759
<v Speaker 1>Lie? Say your name was Jim?

0:57:08.800 --> 0:57:09.160
<v Speaker 10>Correct?

0:57:09.239 --> 0:57:12.239
<v Speaker 1>Jay? I am you spell that again?

0:57:13.560 --> 0:57:13.799
<v Speaker 5>Jay?

0:57:15.200 --> 0:57:17.000
<v Speaker 4>I am?

0:57:17.240 --> 0:57:17.960
<v Speaker 1>Can you spell back?

0:57:20.160 --> 0:57:20.560
<v Speaker 6>Am? I? I?

0:57:21.120 --> 0:57:21.320
<v Speaker 4>Jay?

0:57:23.040 --> 0:57:25.600
<v Speaker 1>How have you sinned? Jim?

0:57:25.800 --> 0:57:28.320
<v Speaker 10>Oh lyle? This is this is not our recent sin.

0:57:29.680 --> 0:57:32.160
<v Speaker 10>It happened a quite a long time ago when I

0:57:32.200 --> 0:57:36.400
<v Speaker 10>was Oh, I don't know, played eighteen or nineteen. I'm

0:57:36.480 --> 0:57:40.960
<v Speaker 10>thirty one now, mm hmmm. We lived on a lake,

0:57:41.640 --> 0:57:44.320
<v Speaker 10>and I guess I don't even know if it's really

0:57:44.320 --> 0:57:48.000
<v Speaker 10>a sin. It's just kind of something that's fucked up.

0:57:48.000 --> 0:57:49.600
<v Speaker 10>But I kind of think about more often than that.

0:57:49.680 --> 0:57:49.880
<v Speaker 5>Shill.

0:57:51.680 --> 0:57:52.040
<v Speaker 4>Uh.

0:57:52.080 --> 0:57:54.520
<v Speaker 10>So we were We lived on a lake, I said,

0:57:54.760 --> 0:57:58.000
<v Speaker 10>by the by the dock. This tiny little bird flew

0:57:58.080 --> 0:58:01.360
<v Speaker 10>up and landed in the water, and it landed far

0:58:01.400 --> 0:58:03.000
<v Speaker 10>out in the water, far enough to where I couldn't

0:58:03.040 --> 0:58:04.880
<v Speaker 10>grab it. And it wasn't there for about a minute

0:58:04.880 --> 0:58:07.400
<v Speaker 10>before it folded, you know, close enough to where I

0:58:07.480 --> 0:58:11.120
<v Speaker 10>could reach the bird. I pulled the bird out of

0:58:11.120 --> 0:58:13.920
<v Speaker 10>the water, and it is struggling to breathe. It's it's

0:58:13.960 --> 0:58:18.720
<v Speaker 10>in a bad place, and morally, I didn't feel that

0:58:18.800 --> 0:58:23.520
<v Speaker 10>I should sit there and let the bird struggle like that. Now,

0:58:23.520 --> 0:58:27.200
<v Speaker 10>I'm I'm no avi ay expert by any means, but

0:58:27.480 --> 0:58:29.080
<v Speaker 10>I assumed the bird was going to die.

0:58:31.280 --> 0:58:33.400
<v Speaker 1>So where was the bird? Wait? So the bird was

0:58:33.680 --> 0:58:36.000
<v Speaker 1>the bird was dying already because it was because it

0:58:36.040 --> 0:58:36.640
<v Speaker 1>was drowning.

0:58:37.400 --> 0:58:38.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I believe it was.

0:58:39.360 --> 0:58:40.600
<v Speaker 10>So I pulled it out of the water and it

0:58:40.640 --> 0:58:46.760
<v Speaker 10>was just like and I just I didn't I don't know.

0:58:46.760 --> 0:58:49.120
<v Speaker 10>It just it felt bad. It felt really bad to

0:58:49.160 --> 0:58:50.880
<v Speaker 10>sit there and watch the bird making that noise.

0:58:52.600 --> 0:58:57.480
<v Speaker 1>Mmmm. Well, I guess you, I guess if you put

0:58:57.520 --> 0:58:59.400
<v Speaker 1>it out of his miseries, that is.

0:58:59.320 --> 0:59:01.560
<v Speaker 10>That that is where it's going to lead to. Yes,

0:59:01.600 --> 0:59:06.720
<v Speaker 10>I put the bird off its misery. But I just

0:59:06.760 --> 0:59:07.479
<v Speaker 10>don't know if.

0:59:07.400 --> 0:59:09.720
<v Speaker 1>I was not that bad because if you but I

0:59:09.760 --> 0:59:12.520
<v Speaker 1>guess you didn't, you didn't know, Like, I don't know,

0:59:12.520 --> 0:59:13.520
<v Speaker 1>I don't know what I would have done there. I

0:59:13.520 --> 0:59:14.680
<v Speaker 1>don't know what I would have done there.

0:59:15.840 --> 0:59:17.960
<v Speaker 10>Yeah, I just I don't know, Like like I said, like,

0:59:18.080 --> 0:59:20.560
<v Speaker 10>I'm not really a sin per se, but it's it's

0:59:20.760 --> 0:59:24.280
<v Speaker 10>not maybe the the right thing to have done at

0:59:24.280 --> 0:59:24.680
<v Speaker 10>the time.

0:59:26.040 --> 0:59:27.360
<v Speaker 1>Well, I don't know what I would have done because

0:59:27.360 --> 0:59:29.080
<v Speaker 1>if the bird, because if the bird, you know, you

0:59:29.080 --> 0:59:30.720
<v Speaker 1>didn't want to watch the bird just sit there and

0:59:30.800 --> 0:59:31.480
<v Speaker 1>riose in pain?

0:59:32.200 --> 0:59:35.880
<v Speaker 6>Yes, correct, I mean, and you're not you.

0:59:35.840 --> 0:59:37.480
<v Speaker 1>Don't know how to fits not like you are a bird.

0:59:37.520 --> 0:59:38.280
<v Speaker 1>You can fix it.

0:59:39.760 --> 0:59:43.800
<v Speaker 10>No, And I taking it to a veterinarian or the

0:59:44.040 --> 0:59:46.320
<v Speaker 10>animal rescue center kind of seemed out of the picture

0:59:46.360 --> 0:59:47.240
<v Speaker 10>at that point in time.

0:59:48.160 --> 0:59:49.800
<v Speaker 1>Damn. Yeah, it was a tough decision.

0:59:50.840 --> 0:59:51.440
<v Speaker 4>I agree.

0:59:51.600 --> 0:59:54.320
<v Speaker 10>I agree it was, and I'm just not sure if

0:59:54.360 --> 0:59:57.000
<v Speaker 10>I made the right decision at the time. Like I said,

0:59:57.000 --> 0:59:59.280
<v Speaker 10>it's not recent. This happened quite quite some time ago,

0:59:59.400 --> 1:00:01.640
<v Speaker 10>but I do think about it every now and again,

1:00:01.680 --> 1:00:02.560
<v Speaker 10>more often than I should.

1:00:05.440 --> 1:00:05.840
<v Speaker 6>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>What when you think about it? What sort of thoughts

1:00:09.200 --> 1:00:11.720
<v Speaker 1>do you have that ship man?

1:00:11.760 --> 1:00:13.480
<v Speaker 10>Did I do the right thing? Was that the right

1:00:13.560 --> 1:00:14.200
<v Speaker 10>choice to make?

1:00:15.200 --> 1:00:15.520
<v Speaker 6>Mmm?

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<v Speaker 1>Have you talked about this with anyone else?

1:00:18.360 --> 1:00:18.520
<v Speaker 9>Oh?

1:00:18.640 --> 1:00:19.280
<v Speaker 10>No, not really?

1:00:20.360 --> 1:00:23.120
<v Speaker 1>Mm hmmm No.

1:00:23.480 --> 1:00:25.880
<v Speaker 10>I mean, I'm sure somebody knows. I'm sure my mom

1:00:26.040 --> 1:00:28.000
<v Speaker 10>knows about it or something. I'm sure I told her

1:00:28.080 --> 1:00:30.160
<v Speaker 10>when it happened, but recently.

1:00:30.720 --> 1:00:33.200
<v Speaker 1>So when you told your mom what happened, what did

1:00:33.240 --> 1:00:35.960
<v Speaker 1>she said? Did she think you did the the correct thing?

1:00:37.200 --> 1:00:39.760
<v Speaker 10>I think she said something similar to, well, that's kind

1:00:39.760 --> 1:00:41.320
<v Speaker 10>of fucked up, Jim.

1:00:41.320 --> 1:00:47.920
<v Speaker 1>But you know, you know, she just said, she just

1:00:47.960 --> 1:00:50.120
<v Speaker 1>said that's kind of fucked up, and then she walked away.

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<v Speaker 10>Dude, Well how she didn't walk away? I mean, I

1:00:52.520 --> 1:00:54.080
<v Speaker 10>think we continued to talk about it, but.

1:00:54.040 --> 1:00:56.480
<v Speaker 8>It was it was kind of fucked up.

1:00:58.160 --> 1:00:58.640
<v Speaker 1>Make dinner.

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<v Speaker 10>I don't know if you made dinner. I don't regab

1:01:02.120 --> 1:01:04.080
<v Speaker 10>what happened the rest of that day. I might have

1:01:04.160 --> 1:01:04.880
<v Speaker 10>eaten that bird.

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<v Speaker 6>I'm just kidding.

1:01:08.120 --> 1:01:10.040
<v Speaker 10>We didn't eat the bird. That that would be fucked up.

1:01:10.520 --> 1:01:13.760
<v Speaker 1>No, that wouldn't have because all right, well theoretically if

1:01:13.800 --> 1:01:16.640
<v Speaker 1>you ate that bird, wouldn't that have also been the

1:01:16.760 --> 1:01:18.880
<v Speaker 1>right thing to do, because if you're supposed to use

1:01:18.920 --> 1:01:19.880
<v Speaker 1>every part of the animal.

1:01:22.040 --> 1:01:23.480
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I mean, I.

1:01:25.520 --> 1:01:28.080
<v Speaker 1>Mean, I'll say, personally, if I die, you can eat

1:01:28.080 --> 1:01:30.800
<v Speaker 1>me if you want. Just that's an open invitation. If

1:01:30.840 --> 1:01:33.120
<v Speaker 1>there are any like, like if there are any cannibals

1:01:33.160 --> 1:01:35.240
<v Speaker 1>out there, and like, you know how when you go

1:01:35.320 --> 1:01:37.000
<v Speaker 1>to you know, when you're like if you're like addicted

1:01:37.040 --> 1:01:38.680
<v Speaker 1>to like a drug or something, you got to rehab.

1:01:38.840 --> 1:01:41.440
<v Speaker 1>They give you a little bit of the drug so

1:01:41.560 --> 1:01:44.400
<v Speaker 1>you don't go through like intense withdrawal. Yeah, sure, yeah,

1:01:44.840 --> 1:01:47.400
<v Speaker 1>if they have, if there's some sort of like rehab

1:01:47.520 --> 1:01:52.120
<v Speaker 1>for cannibals where like cannibal, they turn in cannibals and

1:01:52.840 --> 1:01:55.520
<v Speaker 1>they need to give them a little bit of human

1:01:56.080 --> 1:01:59.200
<v Speaker 1>flesh or so so they don't go through withdraw I will,

1:01:59.240 --> 1:02:03.960
<v Speaker 1>I'll glad volunteer to be the dead guy that they

1:02:03.960 --> 1:02:06.080
<v Speaker 1>feed to the cannibals for that purpose, and you can

1:02:06.120 --> 1:02:09.520
<v Speaker 1>eat me if you're dead. I mean, I'm just saying

1:02:10.280 --> 1:02:13.600
<v Speaker 1>appreciate how I would feel. I mean the bird. I'm

1:02:13.680 --> 1:02:16.640
<v Speaker 1>sure it didn't have like anything in his wallet about that,

1:02:16.760 --> 1:02:18.160
<v Speaker 1>but I.

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<v Speaker 10>Don't even think it had a concept of anything close

1:02:20.760 --> 1:02:22.280
<v Speaker 10>to that.

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<v Speaker 1>No, I don't know what kind of Maybe it's not

1:02:27.160 --> 1:02:27.840
<v Speaker 1>with us.

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<v Speaker 10>Yeah, probably that's just in the ground I buried it.

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<v Speaker 10>That's where it's at.

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<v Speaker 4>It's bones.

1:02:35.560 --> 1:02:36.439
<v Speaker 10>Its bones, my guy.

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<v Speaker 1>Well you know what, Jim, Soon enough will all be bones.

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<v Speaker 10>That is the truest statement I've ever heard.

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<v Speaker 1>You ever won for us in the night.

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<v Speaker 10>Jim, you too, Lyle, thank you for your time.

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<v Speaker 9>All from Josh Josh.

1:03:01.280 --> 1:03:05.320
<v Speaker 2>Josh did not expect to make it on go figure.

1:03:05.360 --> 1:03:06.280
<v Speaker 2>You never know what do you mean?

1:03:06.360 --> 1:03:06.800
<v Speaker 8>What do you mean?

1:03:06.880 --> 1:03:08.080
<v Speaker 1>And expect to make it on? Josh?

1:03:08.120 --> 1:03:13.080
<v Speaker 2>You called, uh yeah, But statistically speaking, I wasn't going

1:03:13.120 --> 1:03:13.560
<v Speaker 2>to make it on.

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<v Speaker 1>Who cares about statistics? Josh. You have the heart of

1:03:17.680 --> 1:03:19.760
<v Speaker 1>the cards and you're not You're not a hard guy.

1:03:21.120 --> 1:03:22.600
<v Speaker 1>Have we spoken before, Josh?

1:03:23.160 --> 1:03:23.920
<v Speaker 2>No, we have.

1:03:24.040 --> 1:03:26.360
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, I love I love this is so

1:03:27.200 --> 1:03:29.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm so happy, Josh. I mean, not only do I

1:03:29.120 --> 1:03:31.160
<v Speaker 1>get to be a kick on the computer. Every time

1:03:31.240 --> 1:03:33.919
<v Speaker 1>I do this stream, I get to talk to tons

1:03:33.920 --> 1:03:37.120
<v Speaker 1>of brand new people. This is this is incredible. I'm

1:03:37.120 --> 1:03:37.920
<v Speaker 1>so happy you call in.

1:03:38.040 --> 1:03:39.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you said, you said a few minutes ago. It's

1:03:40.000 --> 1:03:41.840
<v Speaker 2>a one and done situation. So we have to make

1:03:41.880 --> 1:03:42.360
<v Speaker 2>it good, right.

1:03:44.400 --> 1:03:47.320
<v Speaker 1>You know, I don't have any exclusive like, that's not

1:03:47.400 --> 1:03:48.920
<v Speaker 1>a rule. You know, I'm not going to hang up

1:03:48.960 --> 1:03:51.200
<v Speaker 1>on you, because I feel like that would be you know. Look,

1:03:51.280 --> 1:03:53.400
<v Speaker 1>I mean if if someone calls back in, if I

1:03:53.400 --> 1:03:56.520
<v Speaker 1>get a return caller, you know, that's that's probably a

1:03:56.560 --> 1:03:59.240
<v Speaker 1>person who you know has been with the stream for

1:03:59.280 --> 1:04:01.760
<v Speaker 1>a while and you know, coming back, and I'm like, well,

1:04:01.760 --> 1:04:03.560
<v Speaker 1>and I want to snub these people, you know, So

1:04:03.640 --> 1:04:06.320
<v Speaker 1>I feel bad making it a rule. But at the

1:04:06.320 --> 1:04:08.800
<v Speaker 1>same coin, you know a lot of people trying to

1:04:08.800 --> 1:04:12.280
<v Speaker 1>get in, and you know, you know, anyway, we.

1:04:12.320 --> 1:04:16.800
<v Speaker 2>Try to be fair. How are you, Josh, Well, I'm

1:04:16.800 --> 1:04:18.680
<v Speaker 2>connecting my ears. So if I drop out for half

1:04:18.680 --> 1:04:27.080
<v Speaker 2>a second, that's why here we go, it'll come.

1:04:28.440 --> 1:04:28.960
<v Speaker 4>There. We are.

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<v Speaker 2>So so how hast to out sinned?

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<v Speaker 1>There's a question, right sure is how have you sinned?

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<v Speaker 2>Well?

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<v Speaker 6>I have?

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<v Speaker 2>I have failed to do everything that I can to

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<v Speaker 2>be successful so that I can help other people.

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<v Speaker 1>You have failed to do everything that you can to

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<v Speaker 1>be successful that you can help other people. How old

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<v Speaker 1>do you.

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<v Speaker 2>For a few more days?

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<v Speaker 6>Thirty eight?

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<v Speaker 1>Why do you say you have failed thus far thus far? Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>when you say you have failed to do everything you can,

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<v Speaker 1>that's I mean, that's a whole big.

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<v Speaker 2>Well Okay, yeah, that's a bit much. That's a bit much.

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<v Speaker 2>How about I haven't achieved even you know, basic stable

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<v Speaker 2>success for myself, so then I'm able to reach out

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<v Speaker 2>to products.

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<v Speaker 1>But you're not talking about achievements. You're talking about trying.

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<v Speaker 1>You're saying I have failed to try. You have not

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<v Speaker 1>that there's a failing to try and trying and failing.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, obviously I haven't tried hard enough, have I?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh? Well, before you do something, I think it's important

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<v Speaker 1>to define what it is you actually are trying to do.

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<v Speaker 1>So what is it that you are trying to do?

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<v Speaker 6>Well?

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<v Speaker 2>What you know? They tell you on the airplane that

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<v Speaker 2>you have to put your on mask on first? Right, Yes,

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<v Speaker 2>you can't help you can't help anyone else if you

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<v Speaker 2>if you're not in a position to sure. So so

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<v Speaker 2>far I haven't put myself in a position to help anyone. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>I get up, But what do you put you.

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<v Speaker 1>In a position to help other people?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, you know the basics, you know, having a

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<v Speaker 2>stable job, having stable emotions, having a stable schedule, having

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<v Speaker 2>you know, just general basic stability, things that most people

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<v Speaker 2>should have and hopefully many.

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<v Speaker 4>People do have.

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<v Speaker 1>Have you made sort of concrete definitions of what stability

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<v Speaker 1>looks like to you?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>And what are those definitions?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, having a home, having a job that has

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<v Speaker 2>enough money to keep that home, keeping that home in order,

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<v Speaker 2>enough money to pay your bills, you know, like, uh,

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<v Speaker 2>enough money to see all the uh physical and mental

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<v Speaker 2>health professionals you need to see, enough to uh to

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<v Speaker 2>you know, engage in the self care that is needed

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<v Speaker 2>to keep one healthy.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah mmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Have you gone to see I mean for the you know,

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<v Speaker 1>when you mentioned emotional stability, have you gone to see

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<v Speaker 1>a license?

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>So I do not have uh uh an appropriate relationship,

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<v Speaker 2>pirapeutic relationship with a mental health professional. It is a

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<v Speaker 2>very daunting thing for me. I've reached out and tried

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<v Speaker 2>a number of times. It hasn't worked out. And you know,

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<v Speaker 2>you kind of you spend a lot of energy and efforts,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, sewing your guts and what do you do

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<v Speaker 2>you go for a while?

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<v Speaker 1>What do you mean, what do you mean you've reached

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<v Speaker 1>out to? What do you mean you've reached out?

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<v Speaker 2>No, I've gone like I have gone. I'm engaged in

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<v Speaker 2>the therapeutic process of me the appointments of people, and

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<v Speaker 2>I've gone to see them and for a very long

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<v Speaker 2>time time.

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<v Speaker 1>So, by the way, by the way, first of all,

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<v Speaker 1>first of all, you opened this with saying you haven't tried, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>and that's wrong.

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<v Speaker 2>You know well how you need it.

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<v Speaker 1>Thus far, forget about whether I used to say that

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<v Speaker 1>you've tried, you know, I just want to make it

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<v Speaker 1>clear you've said, you said that you didn't try, and

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<v Speaker 1>you you have tried.

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<v Speaker 2>I would have to go back and remember my words.

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<v Speaker 2>But yeah, it's possible. It's possible that I wasn't giving

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<v Speaker 2>myself enough credit in that particular sense. But the true,

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<v Speaker 2>the true sin here, since that's what we're talking about,

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<v Speaker 2>is that you know, I haven't I haven't leveraged my

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<v Speaker 2>advantages and I haven't vanquished my challenges to the point

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<v Speaker 2>where I can just participate and you know, not be

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<v Speaker 2>a drain on society and be an additive factor.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, when you've gone to you said, you've reached out

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<v Speaker 1>to these professionals, what and you I'm assuming you've told

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<v Speaker 1>them everything you've told me to.

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<v Speaker 2>A degree or another. I mean, this is you know,

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<v Speaker 2>it's been over a long span of time. In my view,

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<v Speaker 2>hasn't always been quite so clear.

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<v Speaker 1>And when you tell them what you tell when when

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<v Speaker 1>you tell these therapists what you have told me, what

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<v Speaker 1>do they tell you?

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<v Speaker 2>Some of them resonate, some of them don't. A lot

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<v Speaker 2>of them are hacks. A lot of them are trying

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<v Speaker 2>and are just in the wrong profession. Uh, very few

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<v Speaker 2>have actually gotten any respect for me. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Interesting. You know the term hack I used to do

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<v Speaker 1>stand up and that was a big thing. That that's

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<v Speaker 1>that's a that's a big term, and stand up a hack,

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<v Speaker 1>I think stand up a little bit. But it's funny.

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<v Speaker 1>I've never heard that in uhuh being I kind of

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<v Speaker 1>actually I actually kind of like that a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I know it's cynical.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh well, yeah, you more hack you and more expect

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<v Speaker 2>to hear a quack. But that's like a question stronger, Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>a quack is usually uh, you know, in the medical sense,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, quack doctors, but.

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<v Speaker 1>A hack quack to me quack and hack, because a

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<v Speaker 1>quack to me is someone who practices something that's fake,

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<v Speaker 1>where a hack is someone that.

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<v Speaker 2>Practice is something real poorly. Yes, yeah, yeah, that works.

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<v Speaker 1>But I I I think hack is a funny way

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<v Speaker 1>to describe a therapist. A lot of them are a

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<v Speaker 1>bad one, Yeah, a lot of I'm not I.

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<v Speaker 2>Don't mean to pain, yeah, and I don't. So that's

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<v Speaker 2>the thing. I don't know. They're not all hacks. A

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<v Speaker 2>lot of them. A lot of them are that thing

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<v Speaker 2>I don't need to paint everybody, especially there's there's you.

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<v Speaker 6>Know, there's a whole there's a whole herd.

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<v Speaker 2>Of magical unicorn therapists out there, and like I gotta

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<v Speaker 2>go catch one or one or something. But like it's

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<v Speaker 2>a it's a daunting task.

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<v Speaker 4>Hm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, Well you've tried.

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<v Speaker 2>I've put in some time. Did you stop trying? I

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<v Speaker 2>I haven't put in effort in a very.

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<v Speaker 1>Long time, okay. Or do you have a Do you

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<v Speaker 1>have a job.

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<v Speaker 2>I could have a job.

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<v Speaker 6>How's that one?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh, there's been work that's available to me that I've

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<v Speaker 2>been unable to overcome my anxiety and go do okay.

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<v Speaker 1>So it sounds like, uh okay, So it sounds like

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<v Speaker 1>you got to get the the first thing we've been

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<v Speaker 1>talking about, which is, you know, mental health help before

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<v Speaker 1>you go out and get a job. You know you

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<v Speaker 1>you don't want to be taking on all your demons at.

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<v Speaker 2>Once, one thing at a time, right.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, mm hmm. Why is there such a daunting task

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<v Speaker 1>for you to find the therapist?

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<v Speaker 2>Hcause because I've put too much on it. Really, really,

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<v Speaker 2>all I need, all I need to get going is

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<v Speaker 2>someone who can like effectively be an executive assistance, like

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<v Speaker 2>that would get my day to day j I'm started,

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<v Speaker 2>and I don't have to get into these psychoanalysis until

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<v Speaker 2>part sometimes, but you know, I kind of lump it

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<v Speaker 2>all together and it's like if I go once, then

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<v Speaker 2>I want that person to be my everything and like

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<v Speaker 2>it black and white, thinking it's not super healthy.

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<v Speaker 1>You said you need an executive assistant? What do you

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<v Speaker 1>What do you mean that? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Like if so, what I mean is, you know, you

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<v Speaker 2>know how like being rich in the United States, like

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<v Speaker 2>it doesn't fix problems, but sometimes it does, and sometimes

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<v Speaker 2>it just helps you avoid them. So there are executives

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<v Speaker 2>that I've worked with, and you know this, this this

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<v Speaker 2>personality type is parody in media everywhere. They're a mess.

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<v Speaker 2>They're a complete mess, and the only reason they're able

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<v Speaker 2>to function in everyday life is because they have people

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<v Speaker 2>who they pay to do things for them. So that's

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<v Speaker 2>a realistic thing. Like if I literally just had the

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<v Speaker 2>money to pay an executive assistant and kept the schedule,

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<v Speaker 2>kept me on target, et cetera, you know, poke me

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<v Speaker 2>in the dressing that I needed to go and definitely

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<v Speaker 2>enough to get me started. But no one has that

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<v Speaker 2>kind of money.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, Well, okay, if you needed well okay, well

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<v Speaker 1>here I'm confused because you're painting a picture of yourself

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<v Speaker 1>as you're you're painting this image of yourself as you say,

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<v Speaker 1>you're not contributing to society, but you have enough to do.

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<v Speaker 1>You have enough that you need to do that would require.

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<v Speaker 2>An assistant, I know, like even basic Okay, I'm saying

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<v Speaker 2>the effective equivalent of that, not like the actual dude

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<v Speaker 2>that's his business test. I mean from basic everyday such

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<v Speaker 2>like you know, like just functioning.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, you need hell function? I mean, are you have

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<v Speaker 1>you you know, have you been diagnosed with like a

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<v Speaker 1>legitimate mental illness.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I've received diagnoses of major depressions disorder and borderline

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<v Speaker 2>personality disorder.

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<v Speaker 1>You you should, again, man, I mean there's not There's

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<v Speaker 1>not a whole lot I can tell you, but you

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<v Speaker 1>should continue to definitely, you know. Well, one thing I

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<v Speaker 1>do want to tell you, and I'm not a real

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<v Speaker 1>therapist or anything.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not, you know, no, but you're a thoughtful sould

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<v Speaker 2>who usually has good opinions.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, well, then here's what I'll tell you. I'll tell

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<v Speaker 1>you uh uh. You started this out by saying that

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<v Speaker 1>you haven't been trying, which we determined is not true.

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<v Speaker 1>You have been trying. You've been putting an effort. I would,

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<v Speaker 1>if I were you, just continue to put in that

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<v Speaker 1>effort and you will eventually, I believe, find a mental

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<v Speaker 1>health professional that clicks with you. And it sounds like

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<v Speaker 1>that's really what you need, and so I.

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<v Speaker 2>Would answers find ye. Yeah, the answer is always just

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<v Speaker 2>do it. It's it's difficult to you know, to find

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<v Speaker 2>the strength to do that, especially after at risk of

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I don't want to turn the conversation political,

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<v Speaker 2>but it's been five years of socio political trauma and

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<v Speaker 2>it's been pretty harsh.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, I mean, keep keep staying in the path, man,

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<v Speaker 1>keep trying to find someone that's the best I can

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<v Speaker 1>tell you.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean, it's the best anyone could. That's the thing,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, it's it's it's just you know, you need

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<v Speaker 2>to hear it as often as possible, and hear it

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<v Speaker 2>from the right people as all.

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<v Speaker 1>Of course. Man, I appreciate you sharing, Josh Josh right.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, that's the word.

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<v Speaker 6>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>Well done. I don't know if my brother is listening,

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<v Speaker 2>but he's He told me that I have to watch

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<v Speaker 2>your show.

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<v Speaker 1>So helliat, what what's your relationship with your brother?

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<v Speaker 7>Like?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh, he's the only one in my family that I

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<v Speaker 2>can be particularly close to. All the rest of them

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<v Speaker 2>are awful conservatives of some sort or another.

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<v Speaker 1>Okay, when you tell real quick before we go, because

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<v Speaker 1>I'm curious about this. When you tell all this stuff

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<v Speaker 1>to your brother, I'm assuming you have because you're probably

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<v Speaker 1>you're closer with him than you are with me, and

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<v Speaker 1>you've told me all this stuff.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm going to tell him to watch the odds, So.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, tell him to watch the vod and then

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<v Speaker 1>listen to what he says, because he seems like he's

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<v Speaker 1>a smart guy.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean, you know, he knows this stuff. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>what is it?

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<v Speaker 4>What is it?

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<v Speaker 1>What does he usually tell you when you when you

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<v Speaker 1>come to him for advice?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh, you know, there's not really anything that anyone can

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<v Speaker 2>tell me. And and and that's the thing. It's like, Uh,

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<v Speaker 2>sometimes the best thing you can do for someone is

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<v Speaker 2>just let them know that you're there for them and

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<v Speaker 2>not tell them what to do.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, well listen, man, you have a good rest

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<v Speaker 1>of the night, Josh, and good luck to you.

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<v Speaker 2>For you too. I appreciate your time. Good man, I

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<v Speaker 2>have a good thing.

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<v Speaker 1>That was thirteen minutes that did not feel like thirteen minutes.

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<v Speaker 9>All from what Mark?

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<v Speaker 7>Tick?

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<v Speaker 1>Stop? Yeah? How you doing? Doug?

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<v Speaker 5>Hello?

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<v Speaker 1>Hey, what's up?

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<v Speaker 6>Player? What's going on?

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<v Speaker 8>Well?

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<v Speaker 1>What's what's up with you? How have you? Sin?

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<v Speaker 8>Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Big?

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<v Speaker 3>A genre?

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<v Speaker 9>Man?

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<v Speaker 3>All around?

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<v Speaker 1>A genre? Like a genre, a genre of sin.

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<v Speaker 5>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>You you tell me what you got?

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<v Speaker 5>You?

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<v Speaker 1>You you tell me? Where are we going here?

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<v Speaker 8>Oh?

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<v Speaker 4>Shit?

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<v Speaker 3>In directions man on the nearest sin that would be

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<v Speaker 3>worth a ship. Not so much lately now that I'm

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<v Speaker 3>a dad man. But you know, when I was a kid,

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<v Speaker 3>I was shipped.

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<v Speaker 1>When you were a kid, you were a piece of

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<v Speaker 1>ship pretty much. How so that's the worst thing you did.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not gonna make it's not gonna make me. It's

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<v Speaker 1>not gonna it's not gonna piss me off.

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<v Speaker 9>Is it?

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<v Speaker 3>No, not going to piss you off. No, I'm I'm

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<v Speaker 3>an actual piece of ship.

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<v Speaker 1>Would you would you do when you were a kid?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh, just steady sold drugs, was a piece of ship,

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<v Speaker 3>lied a lot and thought I was all about myself.

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<v Speaker 3>But you know, when you have kids, man, it starts

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<v Speaker 3>to do your reality chick.

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<v Speaker 1>Mm hmm. Okay, so you you you have kids now?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, hell yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Are your kids anything like how you were when you

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<v Speaker 1>were a kid?

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<v Speaker 3>Absolutely not?

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<v Speaker 4>Mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh what why do you think that is? Do you

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<v Speaker 1>think that the way that you raise them is different

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<v Speaker 1>than how you were raised?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh?

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<v Speaker 3>In fact, in fact absolutely, you know, learn from the

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<v Speaker 3>mistakes and travel forward.

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<v Speaker 1>That's really cool because you know a lot of the

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<v Speaker 1>times you hear about, you know, sort of chains of that.

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<v Speaker 9>Uh.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, your your dad treats you shitty, so you

1:18:09.880 --> 1:18:12.800
<v Speaker 1>treat your kids shitty. You know, it sounds like you've

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<v Speaker 1>broaken broken a chain of sorts.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>Absolutely, man, My kids are happy and healthy, man, in

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<v Speaker 3>the right direction. That's just wasn't lucky enough to have

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<v Speaker 3>that direction. Man, it's all.

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<v Speaker 1>That's cool. What do you think factored into that? What

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<v Speaker 1>do you think I'm allowed you to break this chain?

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<v Speaker 9>Oh?

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<v Speaker 3>The fear?

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<v Speaker 6>Man.

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<v Speaker 3>I've never really been scared in my life until the

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<v Speaker 3>first pregnancy. Man, I didn't. I didn't realize how scared

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<v Speaker 3>shit actually got. So that kind of stacked me up

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<v Speaker 3>a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>That's awesome. Why were you scared?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh?

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<v Speaker 6>Man, I was.

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<v Speaker 3>I wasn't doing a very good job of taking care

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<v Speaker 3>of myself. Man's scared shit at me home. I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 3>take care of somebody else that needs you know what

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<v Speaker 3>I mean. It's just reality. I was living life for me, man,

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<v Speaker 3>that's all. That's a pretty self centered, shitty way of

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<v Speaker 3>going mm hmm.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, to talk about I I initially I didn't

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<v Speaker 1>want to talk about the previous car, but I want

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<v Speaker 1>to bring up sort of what they were talking about

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<v Speaker 1>because they were mentioning, you know, and I sort of

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<v Speaker 1>have my own thoughts about this. You know, they're mentioning

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<v Speaker 1>that you know, it's important to take care of yourself

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<v Speaker 1>before you take care of others. And you know, I

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<v Speaker 1>don't have a refined I generally believe that, but I

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<v Speaker 1>have read some things about how you know, and thought

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<v Speaker 1>of in my own head of some things of like

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I feel like you can do both simultaneously,

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<v Speaker 1>or help others as a way of helping yourself.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh kind of man, It kind of comes down to

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<v Speaker 3>that old school shit. Can't help unless you help yourself,

1:19:38.000 --> 1:19:40.720
<v Speaker 3>Like I can't help if I'm not producing to help them.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, I'm still being a jackass. And you got

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<v Speaker 3>to lead by example, and you know.

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<v Speaker 2>The whole thing.

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<v Speaker 1>What would you say is the biggest difference between you

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<v Speaker 1>now and you then? If you have to pick one

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<v Speaker 1>key aspect caring? Caring? You care? You didn't care then,

1:19:56.880 --> 1:20:04.080
<v Speaker 1>but now you care. We had a caller This is

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<v Speaker 1>kind of a round out the evening here. We had

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<v Speaker 1>a caller towards the beginning and she was telling us

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<v Speaker 1>that she's about nineteen and she did not care about anything,

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<v Speaker 1>did not care about other people, had a hard time caring.

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<v Speaker 1>What would you say to someone like that? It has

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<v Speaker 1>a hard time caring?

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<v Speaker 3>Well, you can't make anybody care. You know, they have

1:20:27.400 --> 1:20:29.000
<v Speaker 3>to find something to give a shit about. You know,

1:20:29.080 --> 1:20:31.320
<v Speaker 3>something has to be important to them, you know. I mean,

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<v Speaker 3>not caring is kind of a mental illness, man. It's

1:20:33.400 --> 1:20:35.599
<v Speaker 3>just a self centered way of life. And some people

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<v Speaker 3>get stuck in it, man. They find safety and security

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<v Speaker 3>in it, man, because they don't want to trust anybody else,

1:20:39.439 --> 1:20:41.080
<v Speaker 3>and if they care about somebody else, that leaves them

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<v Speaker 3>open to get hurt and shit. You know, you know

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<v Speaker 3>it's a scary thing.

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<v Speaker 1>So it sounds like to me, your solution to that

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<v Speaker 1>was that you ended up finding something that you cared about.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, I mean I didn't find it, kind of

1:20:56.160 --> 1:20:58.120
<v Speaker 3>found me, you know it. You know it's I mean,

1:20:58.160 --> 1:21:01.320
<v Speaker 3>you know how accidental pregnancy works, and so I was

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<v Speaker 3>just it was just the eye opener for me, man.

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<v Speaker 3>You know, I just realized that, holy shit, man, I'm

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<v Speaker 3>gonna have to take care of this little midget that

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<v Speaker 3>genuinely needs me. Man, And you know, it changed my life.

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<v Speaker 1>How many kids do you have?

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<v Speaker 3>I have two?

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<v Speaker 1>No, for the second. Second one was an accident. First, okay, cool?

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<v Speaker 1>How old are I?

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<v Speaker 3>My oldest is sixteen and my youngest is eight.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh wow, Okay, sixteen is cool because you can I

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<v Speaker 1>feel they're like a real person.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, man, it's really cool watching them grow. We're actually friends.

1:21:36.479 --> 1:21:39.080
<v Speaker 3>You communicate. Man, it's really awesome see his personality and

1:21:39.240 --> 1:21:39.960
<v Speaker 3>it's really awesome.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you have any activities in particularly like to do

1:21:44.160 --> 1:21:44.599
<v Speaker 1>with your son?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh?

1:21:46.280 --> 1:21:48.519
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, he gets into art. And when I was younger,

1:21:48.520 --> 1:21:50.360
<v Speaker 3>I used to write graph a lot and I got

1:21:51.160 --> 1:21:53.800
<v Speaker 3>somewhat some are pretty good. I got putting a couple

1:21:53.800 --> 1:21:56.200
<v Speaker 3>of magazines and shit like that. And when he got old,

1:21:56.600 --> 1:21:58.519
<v Speaker 3>ye showing the stuff. Man, I started showing him and

1:21:58.520 --> 1:21:59.960
<v Speaker 3>I told him I'm not cool with him going out

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<v Speaker 3>fucking know people ship like I was.

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<v Speaker 9>But he can.

1:22:02.000 --> 1:22:03.639
<v Speaker 3>You know, he can draw on black books and inspire

1:22:03.680 --> 1:22:06.320
<v Speaker 3>himself and find different art, different ways to express himselves.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, are you still involved as an artist in anyway?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 3>I don't necessarily go out and smash it anymore, but

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<v Speaker 3>if I do any kind of kid up, man, nowadays,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm kind of a kind of what I used to

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<v Speaker 3>hate when I was a kid. But I only really

1:22:20.360 --> 1:22:22.360
<v Speaker 3>hit legal ship now man, because you know, how do

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<v Speaker 3>I tell my kid I'm in jail for painting somebody

1:22:24.080 --> 1:22:24.559
<v Speaker 3>else's ship.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh, that's what you do for a living.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm curious actually build customer motorcycles.

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<v Speaker 1>Man, that sounds really cool. Are you do you like

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<v Speaker 1>is there any artistry in that? Do you like paint

1:22:36.479 --> 1:22:38.880
<v Speaker 1>them or graffiti type?

1:22:38.880 --> 1:22:38.960
<v Speaker 4>Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, design?

1:22:40.640 --> 1:22:43.679
<v Speaker 3>I don't necessarily paint. My part of the shop is

1:22:43.680 --> 1:22:47.160
<v Speaker 3>is fabricating and giving a lot of ideas for design

1:22:47.240 --> 1:22:48.599
<v Speaker 3>for their bike because a lot of guys are coming

1:22:48.680 --> 1:22:50.720
<v Speaker 3>with money but no creativity, and that's kind of where

1:22:50.720 --> 1:22:51.040
<v Speaker 3>I coming in.

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<v Speaker 1>That's awesome, man. M hmm. Do you do you see

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<v Speaker 1>anything in your son that maybe uh you had in

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<v Speaker 1>you when you were sixteen that you didn't like that

1:23:04.120 --> 1:23:04.640
<v Speaker 1>worries you.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh yeah, a little bit of a little bit of

1:23:08.520 --> 1:23:11.920
<v Speaker 3>paranoia about my surroundings and ship. But that came from

1:23:11.960 --> 1:23:14.320
<v Speaker 3>just not having anybody to talk to. Man, And he

1:23:14.360 --> 1:23:16.639
<v Speaker 3>has somebody to talk to, so you know, he can

1:23:16.680 --> 1:23:18.519
<v Speaker 3>he can be completely honest with me, man, even if

1:23:18.560 --> 1:23:20.479
<v Speaker 3>he's gonna get in trouble or whatever. You know, he

1:23:20.560 --> 1:23:22.760
<v Speaker 3>knows he can trust me. So yeah, he you know,

1:23:22.800 --> 1:23:25.439
<v Speaker 3>he has all those little little traits I used to have,

1:23:25.520 --> 1:23:27.479
<v Speaker 3>you know, but you know he's got somebody to talk to.

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<v Speaker 3>That's a difference.

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<v Speaker 1>That's awesome. And are you married?

1:23:33.760 --> 1:23:35.800
<v Speaker 3>I was, and thank god I'm not anymore because that

1:23:35.840 --> 1:23:37.840
<v Speaker 3>was fucking hell mhm.

1:23:38.320 --> 1:23:40.599
<v Speaker 1>Uh Are you single now you're dating anyone?

1:23:41.560 --> 1:23:41.680
<v Speaker 4>Oh?

1:23:41.720 --> 1:23:44.160
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I got a girlfriend. Man, she's fucking she's pretty awesome.

1:23:44.520 --> 1:23:46.800
<v Speaker 3>Kind of YouTube new to my GIMI ship about girls, man,

1:23:46.840 --> 1:23:47.599
<v Speaker 3>which is pretty cool.

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<v Speaker 1>Do the kids like her?

1:23:50.360 --> 1:23:50.519
<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, man, that's that's the number one.

1:23:51.880 --> 1:23:52.000
<v Speaker 2>Man.

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<v Speaker 3>That's kids don't get along with it, no matter how

1:23:53.680 --> 1:23:56.080
<v Speaker 3>much I like her. Issues out m.

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<v Speaker 1>Seems like you got you got a good life.

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<v Speaker 7>Man.

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<v Speaker 1>You gotta have some good stuff going on, you know.

1:24:02.479 --> 1:24:06.320
<v Speaker 1>I feel like you're a good success story for you

1:24:06.360 --> 1:24:10.400
<v Speaker 1>know a lot of people. I mean, because you're how

1:24:10.479 --> 1:24:12.720
<v Speaker 1>old you good for I guess I am.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm actually forty now.

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<v Speaker 6>Man.

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<v Speaker 3>It's fucking crazy seeing it. I love but I'm forty now.

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<v Speaker 1>Hell yeah, I see. That's cool to me because you

1:24:19.160 --> 1:24:22.080
<v Speaker 1>know we've had you know, I know it's awesome because

1:24:22.120 --> 1:24:24.280
<v Speaker 1>I love I love having like you know, younger callers

1:24:24.280 --> 1:24:27.240
<v Speaker 1>and older collers are in the same thing. Because you know,

1:24:27.280 --> 1:24:29.000
<v Speaker 1>we had that girl earlier who was like, I don't

1:24:29.040 --> 1:24:30.840
<v Speaker 1>care about anything. I don't care about anything, and it's

1:24:30.840 --> 1:24:32.479
<v Speaker 1>like you know, it's cool to see how you can

1:24:32.479 --> 1:24:36.160
<v Speaker 1>evolve from you know, not caring about anything or having had,

1:24:36.360 --> 1:24:41.439
<v Speaker 1>you know, a shitty past or anything, into you know,

1:24:41.520 --> 1:24:45.760
<v Speaker 1>having a pretty good life and a family and the

1:24:45.800 --> 1:24:46.639
<v Speaker 1>thing you enjoy doing.

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<v Speaker 3>I'll tell you right now, if she was, if she

1:24:49.040 --> 1:24:50.800
<v Speaker 3>was claiming that she didn't care so much and trying

1:24:50.800 --> 1:24:53.040
<v Speaker 3>to convince people, that mean she probably does care about something.

1:24:53.120 --> 1:24:54.920
<v Speaker 3>She definitely doesn't want anybody to know that.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, listen to God, this is a pleasure talking to you.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, you too, man to meet together?

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<v Speaker 8>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Did you have the rest of the name?

1:25:05.560 --> 1:25:05.880
<v Speaker 3>YouTube?

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<v Speaker 7>All from Tim?

1:25:11.760 --> 1:25:12.040
<v Speaker 6>Tim?

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<v Speaker 4>Baby? What up?

1:25:15.640 --> 1:25:16.600
<v Speaker 1>Not much going with you?

1:25:19.560 --> 1:25:19.640
<v Speaker 4>What?

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<v Speaker 8>Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>What are you doing right now? Tim?

1:25:25.040 --> 1:25:29.960
<v Speaker 7>I'm reading, uh, reading the chat and listening to your stream.

1:25:30.640 --> 1:25:32.880
<v Speaker 1>You're reading anything good going on in the chat? I

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<v Speaker 1>hope you're not reading chat right now? But was anything?

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<v Speaker 1>Was anything interesting happening?

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<v Speaker 7>Not much? People are just being mean to other people.

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<v Speaker 7>That's what goes down, you think.

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<v Speaker 1>So, you know, here's what I you know, what I'll

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<v Speaker 1>say about that is that I often I've done this before.

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<v Speaker 1>Actually I've rot Sometimes i go back and I'll rewatch

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<v Speaker 1>my VODs because I'm curious, you know, I do. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't. I don't read the chat a whole lot

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<v Speaker 1>when I'm on the phone, so you know, I'll sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>I go back and I'll read it in the VODs,

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<v Speaker 1>but I'll sometimes I've done this before, I'll count I'll

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<v Speaker 1>watch the chat and I'll count the comments in terms

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<v Speaker 1>of like, uh, okay, that's a good one, that's a

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<v Speaker 1>nice one, that's a nice one, that's neutral, that's neutral,

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<v Speaker 1>that's mean, that's neutral, that's nice, that's nice, that's mean,

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<v Speaker 1>that's mean, And I'll count them, and I'll be like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>what's you know. There's gotta be some sort of I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like I'm in the process of developing some sort

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<v Speaker 1>of mathematical equation for this where you could just plug

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<v Speaker 1>in a VOD and you can get a number, like

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<v Speaker 1>a score of how nice your chat is. That would

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<v Speaker 1>be interesting, But.

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<v Speaker 7>That again, you look a scanner on your your chat

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<v Speaker 7>or something.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, I mean, I'll have this and just said, this

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<v Speaker 1>would be an interesting thing to be invented, some sort

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<v Speaker 1>of chat scanner that could because the hard part of

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<v Speaker 1>that is how do you out I mean, I don't

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not a computer person, but how do you get

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<v Speaker 1>a computer to judge whether or not a sentence is mean,

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<v Speaker 1>nice or neutral. But yeah, machine learning something like that,

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<v Speaker 1>I'll go through in my own because like if someone

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<v Speaker 1>is like because like let's say someone types in, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>fuck this guy, you know, uh, you know, that's a

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<v Speaker 1>bad you know, if the thing reads fuck, and then

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<v Speaker 1>it's like, all right, that's bad. But if someone's like,

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<v Speaker 1>this guy is fucking cool, then that's a good one.

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<v Speaker 1>But it says fuck. Anyway, I'll go through my own

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<v Speaker 1>sample sizes. I've noticed the chat is majority like eighty

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<v Speaker 1>percent at least, which I think is pretty good. Eighty

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<v Speaker 1>percent pretty positive, you know. But the thing is, the

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<v Speaker 1>thing is I mean, this is just the thing in general.

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<v Speaker 1>This is the thing in general when you're on the

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<v Speaker 1>internet and in life and the mean stuff it's, unfortunately,

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<v Speaker 1>just the way that our brains work. It's so much

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<v Speaker 1>more potent than the nice stuff. You notice it more

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<v Speaker 1>even if there's less.

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<v Speaker 7>Of it, right, Yeah, I know, it's like it sticks

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<v Speaker 7>out because it's negative basically, it's what you're saying.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And that always bothers me because then, like you know,

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<v Speaker 1>if there's a chat going on and you know, nine

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<v Speaker 1>people are being nice, and one of them is mean.

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<v Speaker 1>You know, people will be like, oh, the chat's being mean,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's like, no, nine, it's just the one person.

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<v Speaker 1>But they are like harnessing the power of the negativity,

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<v Speaker 1>which is you know, yeah, I get you. I hate

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<v Speaker 1>when I promised I'm gonna stop ranting in two seconds,

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<v Speaker 1>but I hate when like I'll go on I've noticed

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<v Speaker 1>the thing. I'll go on Twitter and they'll be like

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<v Speaker 1>a celebrity or some Twitter person like having a public

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<v Speaker 1>argument with I don't know, let's say it's like Chrissy

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<v Speaker 1>Tiagan or whatever. I'll use her as example, Like if

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<v Speaker 1>Christy Tagan's having an argument with someone, like clapping back

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<v Speaker 1>at someone who said something mean about her, and then

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<v Speaker 1>she types something he said, and I'm like, you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>You're spending time and I got to take my own

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<v Speaker 1>advice on this, but I'm like, you're spending time engaging

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<v Speaker 1>with this person that hates you. Meanwhile, you've got thousands

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<v Speaker 1>of unread dms that are like, yeah, I love you, You're incredible,

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<v Speaker 1>and you're just you're like, ah, this is what. There's

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<v Speaker 1>an abundance to that. You see one mean person, you

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<v Speaker 1>engage with that and I'm like, well, why are you

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<v Speaker 1>engaging with the one bad person? You got all these

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<v Speaker 1>but nice people that you just you're leaving on red.

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<v Speaker 1>You're choosing to elevate the one mean part. I never

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<v Speaker 1>got that. I never stood that on Twitter anyway.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, there's no reason to focus on the negativity. I

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<v Speaker 7>guess you're right, like all the positive thoughts are basically

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<v Speaker 7>kind of what you should be focusing on, and don't

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<v Speaker 7>be don't be a negative Nancy. I guess right.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Like if someone someone types out one of these

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<v Speaker 1>actors like, oh, your movie sucks, and then in a retweet,

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<v Speaker 1>and the meanwhile, under that tweet, there's fifty different tweets

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<v Speaker 1>being like that movie is awesome, and they never they

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<v Speaker 1>never type back to the people who say your movie's awesome,

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<v Speaker 1>never goes oh thank you. I appreciate that they always

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<v Speaker 1>go the type of one guy, your movie sucks, Well

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<v Speaker 1>you should you know die anyway? How about you soon?

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<v Speaker 7>My name's not actually Tim, so that's sim SI number one.

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<v Speaker 1>But lying that's a sin, yeah number one. Have you

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<v Speaker 1>I was at the first one, as were you a

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<v Speaker 1>clean slate before you called in?

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<v Speaker 7>Not really a clean slate? I don't think anybody is, But.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 7>You know, everybody does stuff they don't they don't really

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<v Speaker 7>want to do. I guess it's like it's hard to

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<v Speaker 7>think about the thing, like I you know, most people

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<v Speaker 7>don't as long as you live your life and you're happy,

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<v Speaker 7>I guess I don't know. Like there's a guy that

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<v Speaker 7>called in earlier that said, you know, he's religious, and

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<v Speaker 7>you know, I agree as well. I'm I consider myself

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<v Speaker 7>slightly religious, but I think to a certain point, you know,

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<v Speaker 7>like I think, you know, as long as if that

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<v Speaker 7>helps you, that's awesome. Like I love that idea. I

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<v Speaker 7>love the idea that like, if you can think about

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<v Speaker 7>something that made somebody else feel bad, and you can

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<v Speaker 7>you can get that off your chest. Hopefully it's you know,

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<v Speaker 7>making recompense with somebody else that you've wronged. I think

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<v Speaker 7>that's the best way to go about life, not to

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<v Speaker 7>steer around the conversation. But I don't think I've done

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<v Speaker 7>too much wrong recently. I think, you know, maybe you

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<v Speaker 7>know doing this you speed every once in a while

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<v Speaker 7>or whatever.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, listen you first of all, your name isn't Tim.

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<v Speaker 1>You lied and lying was your sin? Do you lie often?

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<v Speaker 6>Uh?

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<v Speaker 4>No?

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<v Speaker 7>I don't think so this is.

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<v Speaker 1>Rare for you to lie. Do you remember any lies

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<v Speaker 1>that you've told in the past before the one you

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<v Speaker 1>told this evening, which, by the way, you know, you

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<v Speaker 1>came clean about the lie pretty quick. I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>this is only I mean, in terms of lie points,

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<v Speaker 1>you probably get back seventy five percent of your lie.

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<v Speaker 1>So you've probably came out about twenty five percent of

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<v Speaker 1>a lie because you came clean about the lie almost immediately.

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<v Speaker 1>It wasn't a long, calm lie you didn't have. You

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<v Speaker 1>didn't you didn't really build any compound interest on that lie.

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<v Speaker 1>So you're a clean slate. You're getting into heaven. How

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<v Speaker 1>are you excited?

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<v Speaker 7>Uh No, I don't think that's always true. You gotta

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<v Speaker 7>there's always things that you gotta you know, was it

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<v Speaker 7>a confessed or whatever before you get to heaven. So

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<v Speaker 7>I don't know. There's there's always things and things in

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<v Speaker 7>life you regret doing.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>See, that's I'm not going to get into heaven because

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<v Speaker 1>if you're telling me that it takes if to get

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<v Speaker 1>into heaven, all you have to do is not kill people.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm getting in, but if you have to take act,

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<v Speaker 1>hopefully I'm getting in. Yeah, well, if I mean, I

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<v Speaker 1>drive a car, so every day I could theoretically end

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<v Speaker 1>up killing someone accidentally. You know, I mean, I text

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<v Speaker 1>and dry everyone's texting, I'm playing. I play Flappy Bird

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<v Speaker 1>while I'm driving because I get bored, and no I don't.

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<v Speaker 1>Actually I play duetal Jump and uh, you know, so

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<v Speaker 1>I could kill someone, but for now I haven't. So

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<v Speaker 1>I'm good. But if you have to do anything act,

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<v Speaker 1>if you have to actively do good things or actively

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<v Speaker 1>pray to God, I'm not I'm not getting it. I'm

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<v Speaker 1>I'm I'm too lazy for that, even if it's all

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<v Speaker 1>even if it's all of eternity and I only have

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<v Speaker 1>to do it, I'm I'm not kidding in. But I

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<v Speaker 1>haven't killed anyone.

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<v Speaker 7>Mh.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, listen, thank you for I'm not gonna lie I

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<v Speaker 1>did about I talked over you. I talked for the

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<v Speaker 1>majority of this. How do you feel about that?

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<v Speaker 7>I'm feeling like I made you feel better, which is

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<v Speaker 7>you know, always good? I mean, you know, I think

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<v Speaker 7>I think you did. You did spread wisdom. I think

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<v Speaker 7>that you know most of what you've said. It sounds

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<v Speaker 7>like it's it's sinking in for a lot of people.

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<v Speaker 7>People are listening, So I think I think it's a

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<v Speaker 7>good conversation. If if the end of the conversation is enlightenment,

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<v Speaker 7>then I think that's I think we did a good

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<v Speaker 7>job here.

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<v Speaker 1>Do you disagree? Do you want to challenge me on

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<v Speaker 1>anything I've said? I invited openly because I mean this

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<v Speaker 1>would be to be terrible if I was allowed to

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<v Speaker 1>just go on without anyone challenging anything I've said, then

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<v Speaker 1>I could just say, you know what, terrible things all

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<v Speaker 1>the time.

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<v Speaker 7>No, I mean, I don't know how I challenge what

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<v Speaker 7>you said. I mean, most of the stuff is pretty logical.

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<v Speaker 7>I think, like, you know, don't murder people. I mean,

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<v Speaker 7>like going to challenge you on that kind of stuff?

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<v Speaker 7>You know, I mean like make me a bad person?

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<v Speaker 7>You know, so I would, I would think.

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<v Speaker 1>So, well, listen, you know, only get can judge.

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<v Speaker 4>There you go.

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<v Speaker 7>I want to give a shout out my buddies. My

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<v Speaker 7>buddy's in the chat room, Quindo Ley fer Noort in

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<v Speaker 7>my Steady Snacks. You know those guys. Those guys keep

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<v Speaker 7>me sane.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm glad to hear that you're feeling sane, Tim, and

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<v Speaker 1>I appreciate you calling in Thanks my guy, you have

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<v Speaker 1>a wonder for us of the night.

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<v Speaker 7>You too, Dick.

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<v Speaker 2>Never goes on the line, taking your phone calls every

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<v Speaker 2>night

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<v Speaker 1>Never goes to his I was teaching you abou