Speaker 1: At this point I was just fighting, wanting to live,
Speaker 1: so at this point I had to let them go.
Speaker 1: This was always a known, okay thing. Oh I know
Speaker 1: he did that. And this is family business, because my
Speaker 1: station is not family business. This is a story of
Speaker 1: years later me coming back and correcting or wrong.
Speaker 2: It's never too late to fix something.
Speaker 3: Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm Erica and
Speaker 3: I'm Nila.
Speaker 4: And it's home day.
Speaker 3: It's Wednesday, Beaches.
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Speaker 3: And this month, I don't know if you've joined us already,
Speaker 3: but it's a very, very very special month for us.
Speaker 3: It is a good Mom's Guide, may And do you
Speaker 3: know why it's a good mom's guide? Tell them, baby,
Speaker 3: it's because you girls are author's bitches. And we wrote
Speaker 3: a book called a Good Mom's Guide to Making Bad Choices.
Speaker 4: This is a fact as well.
Speaker 3: This is our first book we've worked tiresly, very very
Speaker 3: very hard to produce this beautiful love child, and now
Speaker 3: it's finally out and we're here to explore it with you.
Speaker 3: All of the themes in the book, all of the lessons,
Speaker 3: all of the funny and very personal stories.
Speaker 5: But before we get into the book, I just want
Speaker 5: to I just want to remind everyone a few things
Speaker 5: that we have going on that are exciting. Number One,
Speaker 5: we're going to Mexico. We're going on a retreat.
Speaker 3: Hallelujah.
Speaker 5: Retreat is happening July second and July twelfth. We're going
Speaker 5: to Salulita, Mexico. If you're not familiar with Salulita, it's
Speaker 5: about an hour from Puerto Viata. If you're not familiar
Speaker 5: with Puerto Viata, I don't know what the fuck to
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Speaker 4: But yeah, we're going there.
Speaker 5: It's our eighth and ninth, seventh and eighth, it's a seventh.
Speaker 3: It's our seventh and eighth retreats. Yeah, it's our first
Speaker 3: one in Mexico. It's on a very special property that's
Speaker 3: ocean front. It's fucking beautiful and it's special. It's our
Speaker 3: first time getting out of Costa Rica on the retreat.
Speaker 3: This retreat is like this, This part of Mexico is
Speaker 3: on a bed of rose quarts. So it's about to
Speaker 3: open up your motherfucking heart. It's about to restore you.
Speaker 3: You're about to relax you. We're about to nurture the
Speaker 3: fuck out of you, and you're not gonna have to
Speaker 3: worry about shit. So if you're worrying about what you're
Speaker 3: going to do this summer, here's the answer. Baby, We
Speaker 3: got you. You're coming to Mexico with us. You're coming
Speaker 3: into release and heal and you know, just have your
Speaker 3: titties out and prance through the beach.
Speaker 4: Prance baby.
Speaker 3: Anyway, how are you feeling.
Speaker 4: I'm great, I'm excited. I'm We're in Atlanta right now.
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Speaker 2: Your like covid because we were they were online.
Speaker 5: No, not even where we met though, like when you
Speaker 5: came to the office where we were recording before, like
Speaker 5: you were talking, yes, you were talking about your podcast
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Speaker 3: I'm so proud of your friend. You know, all of
Speaker 3: our friends are the ship. It's really true. Every time
Speaker 3: I see my friends and like especially you, I'm like,
Speaker 3: this is a reflection of me. I was like boss ass,
Speaker 3: badass women. And it's your birthday and dear friend is
Speaker 3: only thirty one and fucking killing it. This is like
Speaker 3: our rich friends, like our auntie's house, even though we're
Speaker 3: older than her. I'm gonna go see our rich auntie
Speaker 3: because she's rich. But for I'm very very very very
Speaker 3: very proud of you for your braver read, for your
Speaker 3: courage from sharing your story. And I'm just like, I'm
Speaker 3: just so proud of us because you know, like we
Speaker 3: didn't really know each other from a candapign we've met
Speaker 3: each other on the internet, and then we just told
Speaker 3: each other right then, like we're going to be friends.
Speaker 2: So this didn't make a decision.
Speaker 3: Hey, we're friends now. She was like, I'm coming to
Speaker 3: LA and I was like, perfect, because we're friends and
Speaker 3: we've actually continued on that journey. And it's because you.
Speaker 3: You also manifested that you said you wanted busy friends
Speaker 3: who could do the same thing. You know, this bitch
Speaker 3: loves to work and play, so this is like she
Speaker 3: only wants to be friends with you if you're gonna
Speaker 3: work too.
Speaker 1: Or come to work with me. You got to be
Speaker 1: able to come to work with me. I receive all
Speaker 1: of that. Thank you guys so much for just being
Speaker 1: there and setting the example. I think it's easy to
Speaker 1: develop the ideas because I'm seeing so many things that
Speaker 1: are possible, and every single time there's something on my
Speaker 1: list and I'm kind of like, I don't know, and
Speaker 1: then y'all come out and y'all do some form of that,
Speaker 1: or you bring someone on the show that does that,
Speaker 1: and it's like, stop, you have.
Speaker 2: Everything that you need. You're good, you know.
Speaker 1: And so this is such a full circle moment, like
Speaker 1: this is some HBO documentary type ship, since we since
Speaker 1: we manifest in I just you know, it's some HBO
Speaker 1: documentary type ship.
Speaker 4: I received that. I love HBO on a documentary.
Speaker 3: Okay, I think about it all the time. Every time
Speaker 3: I make a vlog that I don't really want to make,
Speaker 3: I'm like, this is perfect for my true Hollywood story.
Speaker 3: It's okay, I'm gonna make the blog.
Speaker 1: Get all the practicing. You're not just started blogging. I feel, yeah,
Speaker 1: I know, I'm starting to do the amount of blogs
Speaker 1: never before seen, never before seen by anyone, that me
Speaker 1: and Jamila have made on our phones over the years,
Speaker 1: Like we would be TikTok real mastering bitches by now,
Speaker 1: but no one on.
Speaker 5: The earth has ever seen, and then they get lost.
Speaker 5: They get lost deep in the archive and like never
Speaker 5: to be found again. Into my phone wants to like,
Speaker 5: you know, do those stupid ass memories where they trigger you,
Speaker 5: where they're like show you old niggas you don't want
Speaker 5: to see and all types of shit.
Speaker 4: And I'm like, oh, ship, there's that blog that I
Speaker 4: never posted.
Speaker 1: I have a memory of Mila with the sex bar
Speaker 1: between your legs and we were doing the Position of
Speaker 1: the Day and I was like, hey, guys, I'm coming
Speaker 1: to Elaine. Can you be on my Patreon? And You're like, sure,
Speaker 1: what we're gonna do? And I was like, so I
Speaker 1: brought this stuff.
Speaker 4: I brought this sex bar and I'm gonna show.
Speaker 1: Me ern you demonstraight you put it on, okay, and
Speaker 1: then Mila you fuck her like this? And Nate told me, okay,
Speaker 1: whatever you want, support for me, whatever you want, you
Speaker 1: gotta show up for your friend.
Speaker 3: What the fuck are you doing my friends, Samaya, I'm working.
Speaker 3: I call you right back, interrupted me.
Speaker 4: David, you need to insert that clip right here.
Speaker 5: It's pretty it's pretty fucking good, or join go to
Speaker 5: patreon to see it because it's it's it's a moment.
Speaker 2: Some nice stuff there.
Speaker 4: It's a moment.
Speaker 3: I think speaking of niggas that our phone reminds us
Speaker 3: of that we don't want to see anymore. This brings
Speaker 3: us to our book.
Speaker 4: That's a great like that.
Speaker 3: Yeah, you know, we have a very robust book that
Speaker 3: we wrote for all the women and I mean really
Speaker 3: all the humans, because niggas need to read this men
Speaker 3: men need to read this book too, and we wanted
Speaker 3: to just get your perspective on some of the things.
Speaker 3: You know, I don't I don't know if you guys
Speaker 3: have picked up your book yet, but picked the book up, okay, copies,
Speaker 3: thank you. The book is broken up in three and
Speaker 3: three parts, and the first part is before children BC,
Speaker 3: and then the second part.
Speaker 4: Is after Daddy, and.
Speaker 3: Then the third part is revelation, like revelations like in
Speaker 3: the Bible, but not the Bible. So we kind of
Speaker 3: talked about our journeys and our experiences before we had kids,
Speaker 3: who we were, childhood stuff because obviously, like our parenting
Speaker 3: is directly directly affected by that. And then we talked about,
Speaker 3: you know, our pregnancies, finding out we were pregnant, giving birth,
Speaker 3: which is fucking can be traumatic and life changing experience,
Speaker 3: and then we talked about our breakups and how that
Speaker 3: deeply affected us and how we healed through that and
Speaker 3: kind of finally, you know, got our our grounds and
Speaker 3: got back on top. So we just want to talk
Speaker 3: to you about those things so I know you've had
Speaker 3: a similar experience. We are all single moms.
Speaker 2: That's the fact.
Speaker 4: We're all moms.
Speaker 2: Didn't put it in my calendar that way, but here
Speaker 2: we are.
Speaker 3: I don't think any of us in the calendar, honestly,
Speaker 3: like what the fuck? That wasn't the plan, but look
Speaker 3: at the glory and you know, not even thinking about that.
Speaker 3: I'm like, this is a question for you because you've
Speaker 3: had tremendous success and like an untraditional taboo space. Do
Speaker 3: you think that you would have come up on this
Speaker 3: space had you stay in your relationship with your child's father.
Speaker 1: I would not have been as successful at all. I
Speaker 1: did start sexual Essentials when I was breastfeeding, so it
Speaker 1: was definitely something I was committing to, but I wasn't
Speaker 1: being my full self because there were so many things
Speaker 1: that the way I was being viewed as a mom,
Speaker 1: and the things I wanted to teach and how I
Speaker 1: wanted to teach them and who would be able to
Speaker 1: see me. At one point, I was showing him my
Speaker 1: reels from some of the classes, like are you okay
Speaker 1: with how this looks? Before I posted? But I'm not
Speaker 1: sucking or real dick, we don't even have that part
Speaker 1: on there, but oh I'm torking or you know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying something like that, And it's like, oh, can
Speaker 1: you tone this down a little bit? And it's just
Speaker 1: like every single time you agree to that, you're chipping
Speaker 1: away from a part of you. And I also made
Speaker 1: a commitment. I made a commitment to this marriage and
Speaker 1: I did not take that lightly. And more so than that,
Speaker 1: I made a commitment to my child just at conception
Speaker 1: that I am there. So it's like, am I doing
Speaker 1: everything I can do to make this work? And it
Speaker 1: felt like compromise. But when you get married before you
Speaker 1: know who you are and you've decided and made peace
Speaker 1: with who you are and the parts of you you
Speaker 1: thought you didn't want to be, and you just accept
Speaker 1: the basket and how it looks, you know, you don't
Speaker 1: even realize that you're tripping away at you. And I
Speaker 1: made I hit six figures and was making five figures
Speaker 1: a month, and I'm not talking about like the tens.
Speaker 1: You know, we got up to thirty five thousand a
Speaker 1: month on Patreon a year after this man, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying, like left my life. And it's not
Speaker 1: as if I was not accountable for a part of this.
Speaker 1: I totally played a role. This was just the wrong
Speaker 1: decision period. But still it just shows me not being
Speaker 1: me was the key to every single thing that I
Speaker 1: wanted that I desired that. But if you don't give
Speaker 1: yourself permission to want something that is ballsy as fucked,
Speaker 1: then why should the universe or anybody else.
Speaker 2: Just give it to you? You know?
Speaker 1: And so no, I would not be as successful. I
Speaker 1: would be working a job and working my business and
Speaker 1: packing my orders and not growing and not having my
Speaker 1: own office because your man cave is in the office
Speaker 1: and that's your personal space, but this business is. But
Speaker 1: you know, and I would be explaining why the degree
Speaker 1: I have works the way that it does, you know,
Speaker 1: and you know, constantly feeling invalidated because you're the man
Speaker 1: of the house.
Speaker 3: When you got married.
Speaker 2: I was twenty two when I got married.
Speaker 3: Wow, it's very young.
Speaker 2: I've always been so mature for my age.
Speaker 1: Yeah, watching a visuals right, because the quotations are out
Speaker 1: the quotes, and you know, that's always just the sign
Speaker 1: of the trauma that we've you know, went through, and
Speaker 1: unfortunately I hadn't unrivaled with that trauma. So it's not
Speaker 1: all his fault, nor mine or any of that. It's
Speaker 1: really not that type of situation like you know, I'm
Speaker 1: a I'm a mom that's single, you know.
Speaker 2: And but yeah, I.
Speaker 1: Was super mature, so I was very clear about what
Speaker 1: I wanted, but I wasn't clear on the entire vision.
Speaker 1: I wasn't really aware of the bigger picture. And the
Speaker 1: bigger picture was I meant to be a star, you know, period.
Speaker 1: I am a major manifest Do you.
Speaker 4: Think that you.
Speaker 5: I mean because you got married at twenty two, and
Speaker 5: I think, like I think about when we were on
Speaker 5: your episode when we're talking about just like the checklist
Speaker 5: that women have as far as like, Okay, you met
Speaker 5: the person, you're in love, you get married, then you
Speaker 5: have the baby. Whereas versus like me and Mila kind
Speaker 5: of did a little different. I got the baby, I
Speaker 5: got I got pregnant, then I got engaged, and obviously
Speaker 5: the marriage never came to Fruition where you know, Miila,
Speaker 5: she got pregnant.
Speaker 4: I don't know.
Speaker 5: Maybe you were planning on getting married at some point,
Speaker 5: but that's just not the story of what happened.
Speaker 3: No, no, no, no, no, was seventh grade. I was planning
Speaker 3: on marrying him in the ninth grade.
Speaker 5: But did you feel like, was the marriage kind of
Speaker 5: like what the next step was in your mind just
Speaker 5: because of what society he like has painted around love
Speaker 5: and you know, what women should aspire to, or was
Speaker 5: it that you truly wanted to marry this person and
Speaker 5: spend the rest.
Speaker 4: Of your life with them.
Speaker 2: I truly wanted to be with this person.
Speaker 1: I wanted to I wanted to commit to the type
Speaker 1: of love I wanted to have, and that is a
Speaker 1: very selfish way to love. I can't commit to any
Speaker 1: of those things if I can't commit to myself. So
Speaker 1: I really don't know how much I can commit to you.
Speaker 1: And I told you I could give you everything, and
Speaker 1: I did, and that was stupid because I gave you
Speaker 1: everything and left myself with nothing.
Speaker 2: You know, I never wanted to get married.
Speaker 1: I've always been a wild child, and it's just so
Speaker 1: crazy how many times I put myself in taming situations,
Speaker 1: and I don't do well at least stuff.
Speaker 2: It's just not my thing.
Speaker 3: Two peas in the fucking pot. I've definitely gotten into
Speaker 3: relationships with the thought like if I get in a relationship,
Speaker 3: I can sit the fuck down. Like if I get
Speaker 3: a relationship, I will chill out, like it's like it's
Speaker 3: my own it's like my own leish.
Speaker 1: But but now it's But I met someone and I
Speaker 1: had the feels, and you know, they liked me at
Speaker 1: that time, and I would say that feelings escalated very
Speaker 1: quickly or whatever, and it felt right. And I think
Speaker 1: that something, and I think I know that something I've
Speaker 1: had to work on over the years, was even if
Speaker 1: it's right, it'll still be right if you give it time.
Speaker 1: But feeling so rush to make decisions and to act
Speaker 1: and do something about the way that we feel, as
Speaker 1: well as modeling an incorrect marriage or union that I
Speaker 1: had been worshiping for years, so understanding that through my
Speaker 1: own Stockholm syndrome with my parents, I was idealizing something
Speaker 1: that was terrible for me, something that was breaking me down,
Speaker 1: something that was invalidating me. But when you go to
Speaker 1: therapy and you're trying to do the work. You think
Speaker 1: you're handling the issue that's right there at hand. But
Speaker 1: when a lot of people don't make it past the digging,
Speaker 1: things get better and they're like, okay, so things got better.
Speaker 1: And for me, I had a child, which meant I
Speaker 1: didn't have that luxury. As soon as I had that child,
Speaker 1: motherly instinct saved me. And it was right then that
Speaker 1: I realized, oh, the way I'm thinking is fucked up,
Speaker 1: because if somebody touches my kid like this, or just
Speaker 1: my kid like that, you know what I mean. And
Speaker 1: so now I realized the marriage I had been modeling
Speaker 1: and the lifestyle I had been modeling was based off
Speaker 1: some fuck ass shit like some generational patterns, generational credit curses.
Speaker 1: And so I didn't leave my marriage at all. He
Speaker 1: left me, but he left me because I started choosing
Speaker 1: myself more and we started bumping hisas even more, and
Speaker 1: even fixing and changing and being a better me just
Speaker 1: didn't save what wasn't meant to be saved, you know, right, I.
Speaker 5: Think about in our book we have we have a
Speaker 5: bunch of different things in the book, where when then
Speaker 5: can kind of like check in with themselves and do
Speaker 5: some work. And one of the things that I wish
Speaker 5: I would have done, and I probably would have lied
Speaker 5: to myself even doing this at that time, was a checklist,
Speaker 5: like a list of like.
Speaker 4: Should I have this baby or should I not?
Speaker 5: The reason is why it's a good idea to have
Speaker 5: this baby, or the reasons why it's a good idea
Speaker 5: to get married, versus the reasons why it may not be.
Speaker 5: And like, you know, I heard you mention that like
Speaker 5: you felt like your husband didn't like you very much
Speaker 5: and that he wasn't that I guess maybe loving during
Speaker 5: the times in your pregnancy. He would like dive into
Speaker 5: that a little bit more. And I'm curious, like would
Speaker 5: those things be on that checklist?
Speaker 1: Like so, I you know, I'm poly princess. I'm just
Speaker 1: I am free to be you and me and whatever
Speaker 1: works for you. I accept that for you, and I
Speaker 1: want you to accept works for me.
Speaker 3: Right.
Speaker 1: So the truth was is that like after a year
Speaker 1: of marriage, we were at that crosswords where it's like
Speaker 1: I'm not happy, you're not happy. But also we were
Speaker 1: talking to people and they were saying, well, that's usually
Speaker 1: how it goes if you've never lived together before you
Speaker 1: got married.
Speaker 2: Then we did not live together.
Speaker 1: I was like, my dad was a deacon, but also
Speaker 1: I am that aries wild child. So the idea of
Speaker 1: living with somebody who I wasn't about to marry you
Speaker 1: scared the shit out of me because I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: hell no, like you know no. And so I was like, okay,
Speaker 1: this work, this works right, And we were spending almost
Speaker 1: every night together.
Speaker 2: You think it ignorant. I was twenty two.
Speaker 4: You know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: You think that shit close enough, that shit farther far
Speaker 2: as fuck?
Speaker 4: Okay, so that's some.
Speaker 3: People that think that, oh I might have a niece.
Speaker 4: So say I spent a lot of time with her.
Speaker 4: I basically raised her. No, you did not know.
Speaker 1: And so so we were asking people and and mind you,
Speaker 1: we were you don't know to you know right, We
Speaker 1: didn't know it was wrong.
Speaker 2: We knew we liked to.
Speaker 1: Just we didn't be like I don't want to go
Speaker 1: down the aisle, like no, we wanted to do that.
Speaker 1: That day, a year later, we were told with what
Speaker 1: we were feeling was normal, and then it was like, okay,
Speaker 1: well let's do some work on it. Let's go to counseling,
Speaker 1: let's do that. We did those things right then it
Speaker 1: was like, okay, what else can we do?
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying?
Speaker 4: What was the shift though?
Speaker 1: The shift was that he finally realized that I wouldn't
Speaker 1: gonna stop fucking trying to work out my goddamn marriage.
Speaker 5: But what was a shift in that that in your
Speaker 5: relation relationship that I mean besides me that I.
Speaker 2: Knew he didn't like me?
Speaker 4: Well that moving in like you.
Speaker 5: Guys obviously were in love and loved each other, and
Speaker 5: then you moved in together and got married and something
Speaker 5: was different, Like what do you think that different?
Speaker 2: Because he did not like me?
Speaker 5: Like living with you? Then you know how I got
Speaker 5: to see you? Yes, go to sleep, Yes. But also
Speaker 5: that's when all those traumas come out. That's when we
Speaker 5: lack of communication.
Speaker 1: But also men have not been encouraged to voice what
Speaker 1: they have a problem with. They only speak up when
Speaker 1: it's too late. So when he did finally speak up
Speaker 1: and I was, you know, it was too late, he
Speaker 1: had a energy about me. I'm not saying that he
Speaker 1: didn't love me. I'm not saying he didn't care for me.
Speaker 1: But the people you choose, the people you choose to
Speaker 1: hang around, that make you feel good naturally or make
Speaker 1: you your most comfortable self.
Speaker 3: I was.
Speaker 1: I was not his for his best self, and I
Speaker 1: respect the fuck out of him for setting that boundary
Speaker 1: with his damn self. And I saw that it was
Speaker 1: a struggle because it's like to everybody in the world,
Speaker 1: it was like, we're breaking up a marriage and I
Speaker 1: don't see anything wrong.
Speaker 2: We we If anything, he's.
Speaker 1: More supportive now you know what I mean, because it's like,
Speaker 1: you want to go travel, go to do this as long
Speaker 1: as I ain't gotta go, like you know, it's more
Speaker 1: support But he wasn't happy. And men have been told
Speaker 1: to choose their responsibilities and their family for so long.
Speaker 1: And I commend him because I don't know what your
Speaker 1: general generational patterns are like, but there are a lot
Speaker 1: of grandparents in our lives that really didn't want to
Speaker 1: be there, you know what I'm saying. And we skip
Speaker 1: over that it's not his fault, and if anything, he
Speaker 1: set an example for me that I don't want to
Speaker 1: live the rest of my life with.
Speaker 2: Somebody that bro you.
Speaker 1: We still got to work on his marriage, and the
Speaker 1: one thing he could have did for me was tell me,
Speaker 1: I know that I haven't done everything I can do,
Speaker 1: but I realized I don't want to.
Speaker 2: He told you that, yes, and.
Speaker 1: He set me the fuck free because the way that
Speaker 1: I rationalize things, I can find a way to do anything.
Speaker 2: I'm a woman. I can do anything.
Speaker 1: I can make anything work, I can make anything cohesive,
Speaker 1: I can put anything back together. But he taught me
Speaker 1: that just because you can doesn't mean that you should.
Speaker 3: Right.
Speaker 5: That's I think a lot of relationships have that element.
Speaker 5: I mean some people have that element where like I
Speaker 5: think that in your journey of love and there might
Speaker 5: be times where you don't like your partner. Like I've
Speaker 5: talked to a lot of married people where they've gone
Speaker 5: through those moments and then they've surpassed those moments and
Speaker 5: they've reconnected. Yeah, but then there's like when you have
Speaker 5: a deep understanding of like you are just not this
Speaker 5: is not for me and I don't want to do
Speaker 5: the work, and you can actually say that out loud,
Speaker 5: Like what a gift actually that he was able to
Speaker 5: give you. I'm sure, Like, I don't know, was it
Speaker 5: heartbreaking for you to hear that or was it you say.
Speaker 2: You find relief?
Speaker 1: It was really Now, I'm not gonna lie to you divorce,
Speaker 1: and not even just divorce, it was I lost everything
Speaker 1: all at once.
Speaker 2: Life was like, Okay, now we talking some big shit, right.
Speaker 1: So when God, the universe, whatever it is that you believe,
Speaker 1: is like, it's time to make a change. They want
Speaker 1: everything to change, right, so you change one of the
Speaker 1: thing you like. I changed my life and the thing
Speaker 1: is that the universe chose for me. Nah, now you've
Speaker 1: got a chance to do this over, like you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. And it was like, let go everything.
Speaker 2: I lost my job.
Speaker 1: Within that, I lost my family, like I cut off
Speaker 1: my parents and I lived down in Like my only
Speaker 1: family in the city I live in is my ex husband,
Speaker 1: Like he's still my emergency contact because I don't deal
Speaker 1: with my He's family, you know what I mean.
Speaker 2: And so.
Speaker 1: For me, it was a matter of letting everything go
Speaker 1: and being stripped of everything. But even realizing that he
Speaker 1: doesn't care for me, He wasn't trying to be mean.
Speaker 2: He can't help what he like or don't like.
Speaker 1: The only way I was even able to acknowledge that
Speaker 1: he didn't like me was because I had to realize
Speaker 1: there were my parents at sometimes didn't like me, like
Speaker 1: the way my mom.
Speaker 2: Was treating me. Was if it was okay what he
Speaker 2: was doing, then it was it was okay. You know
Speaker 2: what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: If you say that, oh, it's okay if my mom
Speaker 1: does this, then that means that the partner that you're
Speaker 1: allowed will talk to you like this as well.
Speaker 3: Well. We attract the look that we're used to and
Speaker 3: that we're comfortable with, and that we and then we
Speaker 3: don't even realize it's settling because it feels like love
Speaker 3: that you're familiar with and you have to kind of
Speaker 3: get out of your comfort zone to realize and really
Speaker 3: assess just because was this ecce childhood or whatever, this
Speaker 3: past relationship, is this type of love the standard that
Speaker 3: I want to live by, Like you have to consciously
Speaker 3: choose those things or else they will choose you for
Speaker 3: you because that's what you're used to every time.
Speaker 1: And so it's like my imagination and the second start
Speaker 1: was like everything. I was like, well, I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: fuck this shit up, and an't got in a relationship
Speaker 1: right after that and almost and so it's crazy, you know,
Speaker 1: and you do a little bit better every time, But
Speaker 1: what I realize is that I'm going to make mistakes
Speaker 1: and things like that. But it's about getting up faster
Speaker 1: and not making the exact same mistakes and realizing quicker
Speaker 1: that this is not right for me. And so this
Speaker 1: has been a journey of understanding my intuition. And I
Speaker 1: feel like I would not have chose my intuition if
Speaker 1: he didn't pick for me.
Speaker 2: And for that we always cool because my life is
Speaker 2: so amazing.
Speaker 1: It's hard, but it's so amazing and beautiful and it's
Speaker 1: just like, bitch, you can do whatever it is that
Speaker 1: you want to do.
Speaker 2: Like it's so crazy.
Speaker 1: We live in a world that you know, like he
Speaker 1: would have to say and offer me to get my
Speaker 1: tubes tied. Still, we live in a world like that, Yeah,
Speaker 1: your tube because I'm thirty one, no married, no, so
Speaker 1: like you have to find a doctor that's willing to
Speaker 1: do Like we live in a world like that, right,
Speaker 1: And in that world, I'm living this.
Speaker 2: Ball ass life as a divorced.
Speaker 1: Woman with a child, and like, do you know the
Speaker 1: numbers for like how much women like us make and
Speaker 1: being able to come back after I made a choice
Speaker 1: that I could literally have stuck with and tried to
Speaker 1: make it work and in thirty years.
Speaker 2: Been like na we worked on our marriage.
Speaker 3: So hard.
Speaker 1: Like this story of struggle and wearing that ship with
Speaker 1: paying man, fuck that ship, Like this is so much
Speaker 1: better because life gonna suck anyway, so why not make
Speaker 1: it suck with the ship I can choose from, Like
Speaker 1: I fucked with him for that for real, feel like
Speaker 1: being like, bro, I don't want to do this, say less,
Speaker 1: I felt relieved because I didn't have the balls to
Speaker 1: pick me.
Speaker 3: Well. The the thing is is that, like it's crazy
Speaker 3: that we live in this society that almost tells us
Speaker 3: that you, like a your happiness is not that important.
Speaker 3: And second, you know, like you chose to be a
Speaker 3: mom and you chose to be a wife, so now
Speaker 3: you sacrifice and now you figure it out. And like
Speaker 3: it's like you said, there's almost this adopted understanding that
Speaker 3: if I choose motherhood and I choose marriage, then I
Speaker 3: have I've in some ways chosen to struggle and sometimes
Speaker 3: it's not going to be hard, and obviously it's not
Speaker 3: I mean not gonna be easy, and obviously it's not
Speaker 3: always going to be easy, but it also gives us
Speaker 3: this narrative that we have to have some huge explosion
Speaker 3: has to happen in order to not fuck with somebody anymore,
Speaker 3: in order to grow out of something, in order to
Speaker 3: be like I'm I'm healed, I'm a different version of myself,
Speaker 3: and I love you, and but I'm also parting with you.
Speaker 3: We live in this like this world where especially as women,
Speaker 3: that if I just wake up today and say I
Speaker 3: don't feel like I don't even feel motivated to work
Speaker 3: on this with you. I'm not attracted to you, I'm
Speaker 3: not getting fucked right, it's not good.
Speaker 2: It's not good enough.
Speaker 3: If I tell somebody I'm getting divorce because I'm gon
Speaker 3: and fucked right, it's like, oh that fucking sweat, you
Speaker 3: know what I'm saying?
Speaker 2: What's crazy?
Speaker 4: I was.
Speaker 1: That's usually when it confuses the like how could I
Speaker 1: be having great sex.
Speaker 3: And still be unhappy and still be unhappy?
Speaker 2: And so it's like your perspective changes.
Speaker 1: But also I mean, I just I was like, damn,
Speaker 1: I really am in the right field, because if I
Speaker 1: could make good it's good with somebody that like, I
Speaker 1: ain't even fucking like that. It just it makes you
Speaker 1: wonder what could be like with the place where I'm
Speaker 1: supposed to be.
Speaker 3: But that shit, it only lasts so long. Like that
Speaker 3: should as you heal, and as you get more aligned
Speaker 3: with yourself, like as you heal, like you could have
Speaker 3: great sex. But the more you evolve, like spiritually, it
Speaker 3: doesn't matter how good that dick is, it's not going
Speaker 3: to feel good. Because I found I saw the same
Speaker 3: about my baby Daddy was dicking me down, and I
Speaker 3: was like, I'll just hold on to this dick. You know,
Speaker 3: this is I'm good dick. But it's like eventually, like
Speaker 3: it doesn't matter, like you're like, fuck, I still hate you.
Speaker 3: Dick is not enough to make me, not fucking make
Speaker 3: it's making me miserable. This good dick is making me miserable.
Speaker 3: So you could fucking take them both.
Speaker 1: Getting good dick is that fucking rare that women say
Speaker 1: just to get dick down?
Speaker 2: What a woman to do for orgasm.
Speaker 3: But but it's important too. I think, like I wish
Speaker 3: I was, like I wish in this evolution that I
Speaker 3: was like just more in tune with myself. I'm grateful
Speaker 3: for the lessons because now I'm here, but like I like,
Speaker 3: we are pussies in our hearts and our minds are
Speaker 3: so compartmentalize. Now we forget that we need to integrate
Speaker 3: them and that they all matter, you know. And it's
Speaker 3: just like I.
Speaker 4: Think that that actually sometimes is the problem. To be honest.
Speaker 3: Okay, well speak of mine, bitch.
Speaker 5: When you're pussy in your heart, are compartmentalized when you
Speaker 5: make fucked up choices. A lot of times sometimes you
Speaker 5: need to compartmentalize that, bitch and say.
Speaker 2: This is what this one?
Speaker 5: Yeah, that's the problem. Like she'd be thinking you she
Speaker 5: in love because she you know, did first time ever,
Speaker 5: and she's like, wow, I my husband, it must be him.
Speaker 4: No.
Speaker 2: I feel like the a lot of the.
Speaker 1: A lot of the problems come from this timeline that
Speaker 1: we have that doesn't exist, or it's it's altered. Like
Speaker 1: a lot of times we don't see stuff for what
Speaker 1: it really is, and so we see that we're in
Speaker 1: our thirties and it's like, oh, I wish I hadn't
Speaker 1: made these mistakes or things like that. But in retrospect,
Speaker 1: if I expect to live this beautiful lifetime eighty ninety
Speaker 1: one hundred years old and I'm taking care of my body,
Speaker 1: drinking my coconut water, you know what I'm saying, getting
Speaker 1: the sunlight and all that stuff, Really my prime is
Speaker 1: around forty fifty, you know what I mean. But so
Speaker 1: these mistakes, they happen to mistakes at twenty Like that's
Speaker 1: making sense. I see through the mistakes, how I could
Speaker 1: have been kinder, and how you just don't fucking know everything,
Speaker 1: Like women just are some fucking know it alls.
Speaker 2: I don't know shit.
Speaker 4: That we know it all.
Speaker 5: I think about, like I think about how man marriage is.
Speaker 5: There is a timeline that's fed to us that like
Speaker 5: we find our husband in our twenties, we might get
Speaker 5: married at the end of our twenties, thirties, maybe early thirties.
Speaker 5: And I think about, like most people, I'm still I'm
Speaker 5: still being introduced to myself. Yeah I'm thirty five, you know.
Speaker 5: And I think about you getting married at twenty two
Speaker 5: and crazy like having like just not knowing who you are,
Speaker 5: having unchecked traumas, and you know, I know that you
Speaker 5: had a you know, a challenging childhood that I don't
Speaker 5: know if you had even begun to unpack before entering
Speaker 5: into a marriage with someone and coming in and deciding
Speaker 5: to have creating a whole life with somebody you know,
Speaker 5: and as you know and as we know, and if
Speaker 5: you're a mother listening you know that when you have
Speaker 5: a child, like you can't you start to be like,
Speaker 5: I can't hide from these anymore.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I have to face them.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: My child was my biggest trigger. And I didn't know
Speaker 1: what the word trigger meant. I didn't know every something
Speaker 1: was wrong, Like my body was screaming, like literally inside
Speaker 1: understanding into as a woman, I understand that that is something,
Speaker 1: it's a gift, it's something. I it's just like the
Speaker 1: way that you pick up a seed and it turns
Speaker 1: into a tree. That shit is crazy magic and there
Speaker 1: is intuition inside of us. And I my intuition went
Speaker 1: off when I had my child because there was like
Speaker 1: there was no way that everything that I believed before
Speaker 1: it could be true. The way that I'm loving my child,
Speaker 1: the things that happened to me, I would kill somebody
Speaker 1: for you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: And that's when I was like, oh, they got me
Speaker 2: fucked up.
Speaker 1: Now got like and I can figure that because guess
Speaker 1: what now I'm the protector and that's the core of
Speaker 1: my world now. At first, it was when you were raised,
Speaker 1: you know, you're when you raised It's like when you
Speaker 1: raised by robbers. If I was raised by some robbers
Speaker 1: and I became a robbery and be like, oh, robbers
Speaker 1: is cool.
Speaker 2: The fact that you can't tell me nothing bad about
Speaker 2: robbers because what you mean, my parents is a robbery
Speaker 2: Like yeah, like because we're robbers or whatever. So you
Speaker 2: know what I'm saying. So I was raised by these parents.
Speaker 2: They the center of my world. I'm a kid, I'm supposed.
Speaker 4: I love my you know what I'm saying.
Speaker 2: I love my parents. Then I'm came a mother and
Speaker 2: the role and my role in life switched. And so
Speaker 2: from my perspective, I was like, oh, everybody got me
Speaker 2: fucked up.
Speaker 4: I saw a little Somaya and you were like, no
Speaker 4: one protected me.
Speaker 3: You got me.
Speaker 1: And more than that, I loved him in a way
Speaker 1: that I didn't even know I could love myself yet,
Speaker 1: simply because of motherhood, which was intuition, which is a natural.
Speaker 1: I was born with that good in me, whether I
Speaker 1: wanted to be a mother or not. But as soon
Speaker 1: as I had him, oh bitch, it was like law
Speaker 1: abide and citizen for households. When I tell you, everything
Speaker 1: fucking change. I was like, Yo, what am I gonna do? Like?
Speaker 2: What am I gonna like? How am I gonna fix this.
Speaker 1: My life did not change until I had to put
Speaker 1: down a hard limit. Hey, I cannot deal or like
Speaker 1: cut off my parents. I'm talking about parents that I like,
Speaker 1: that I love that I missed like because fucking with
Speaker 1: you got me fucked up. I can't look myself in
Speaker 1: the mirror, and I got shit. I got to do
Speaker 1: like I'm responsible for him, and so I made that
Speaker 1: whole change. And ever since I've decided to be honest,
Speaker 1: everything that I want has dropped to me because this
Speaker 1: is my purpose to other fucking truth talk for people
Speaker 1: who can't fucking talk because I ain't got no fucking shame.
Speaker 1: You know what I'm saying, Like, this is what it
Speaker 1: is like the things I have created from my truths.
Speaker 1: Nobody gives a fuck whose Oprah's dad was that got
Speaker 1: her pregnant, But what you know is Oprah got pregnant
Speaker 1: by her dad and Da Da Da Da Da. I
Speaker 1: was so worried about protecting their name, even in the
Speaker 1: midst of just sharing my story, about to sit on
Speaker 1: my purpose and what I'm supposed to tell and what
Speaker 1: I'm supposed to do and what I'm supposed to change
Speaker 1: in rooms, protecting the people that did this thing to you,
Speaker 1: holding secrets, holding secrets. I'm so fucking tired of this
Speaker 1: is family business. No, it's just my station is not
Speaker 1: family business. And I'm such an honest person and a
Speaker 1: loud person, So yeah, it's time to talk about it.
Speaker 2: I'm done.
Speaker 1: It's time to talk about it, and not out of
Speaker 1: I want something bad to happen to you. It's about
Speaker 1: we need to speak the fuck up. Because if we
Speaker 1: had spoke up about what marriages were like and love
Speaker 1: was really like, I wouldn't have made some of those
Speaker 1: decisions either. But you're telling me that this is okay,
Speaker 1: that this is good. It's time to fix that because
Speaker 1: I want my child to have a fair shot of
Speaker 1: I couldnot imagine hurting my child and holding all this
Speaker 1: in that's hurting my child.
Speaker 2: It's something different.
Speaker 1: I can't bring a girl into this world knowing that
Speaker 1: I didn't do anything to make a change like I can't.
Speaker 5: In the book, we talk about forgiveness, and I have
Speaker 5: an exercise in there that I that I encourage our
Speaker 5: reader to do, and the exercises I'm not going to
Speaker 5: share because I want you to read the book, but
Speaker 5: you know a lot of times we want forgiveness from
Speaker 5: people that we will never get forgiveness from, you know,
Speaker 5: and people that are either dead or that will never
Speaker 5: give it to you, will never admit to it, will
Speaker 5: you know, placate you, and just you know, pacify you.
Speaker 5: I'm just curious for you and your personal experience, like
Speaker 5: your in your life like that, Is there a forgiveness
Speaker 5: that you have been granted? And if not, how have
Speaker 5: you been able to move forward in that or is
Speaker 5: it still a process?
Speaker 1: I forgave them a long time ago. I believe that
Speaker 1: me holding you accountable is not the same thing as
Speaker 1: me forgiving you. I'm still holding you accountable because I
Speaker 1: understand the boundaries and dedication of discipline to myself.
Speaker 4: Was there an admission though?
Speaker 1: I said, it was all from the which is why
Speaker 1: the situation is so fucked us and how it's so
Speaker 1: manipulative because I always spoke of I told the truths.
Speaker 4: I don't mean, I mean.
Speaker 1: I was always this was always a known, okay thing?
Speaker 2: Oh I know he did that? And like this is
Speaker 2: not like a secret, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: This is a story of years later me coming back
Speaker 1: and correcting or wrong. It's never too late to fix
Speaker 1: something you know what I mean. And so I kept
Speaker 1: going and I kept wondering why I was having issues
Speaker 1: in life.
Speaker 2: I'm talking.
Speaker 1: I was hitting my head hard, and I'm like, what
Speaker 1: an I'm a person I cannot sit with being unhappy.
Speaker 2: I don't do well with it. I would quit a job.
Speaker 2: I can't do it.
Speaker 1: And I kept running into problem like it was intuition
Speaker 1: moving me. But you got to you know, I'm eighteen.
Speaker 1: I'm nineteen, so I don't. I'm just thinking life is
Speaker 1: fucked up, you know. And I'm hyper sexualized for the
Speaker 1: wrong reasons, and I'm feeling these things and I'm getting
Speaker 1: married why because I want to feel protected. You know,
Speaker 1: this man is big, This man's old fashioned. This is safe,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. I forgave them because you
Speaker 1: did what you they They made me safer than what
Speaker 1: they've experienced, you know, And that's a that don't mean
Speaker 1: it's good enough now, you know. I mean me, that
Speaker 1: was me learning boundaries. Boundaries is I understand? But fuck no,
Speaker 1: that's and I'm allowed to have both. I intertwined them
Speaker 1: in my life the best way that I can. The
Speaker 1: things that they gave me that was good. We do
Speaker 1: those things. I love food. That's the thing that I've
Speaker 1: tried not to like. I always say I hate to cook.
Speaker 1: My parents are on a restaurant. I love cooking for
Speaker 1: the people that I love. I hate saying it, but
Speaker 1: I do. It makes me feel amazing. I love outside.
Speaker 1: I have a living van because it was an amazing
Speaker 1: you know, to fish with my dad is sometimes miss
Speaker 1: all the time, you know what I mean. My kid
Speaker 1: plays baseball like he you know what I'm saying. As
Speaker 1: much as I can intertwine with him, he doesn't know
Speaker 1: what he's learning is from some of those things. When
Speaker 1: he gets older, I'll explain them. But their love is
Speaker 1: not lost in my household, in my lineage, and my
Speaker 1: kids will know everything. But they made a mistake and
Speaker 1: my boundaries they crossed, and there was always space for
Speaker 1: us to forgive.
Speaker 2: And work it out.
Speaker 1: But you can't do that and still drink and not
Speaker 1: get an AA and think I'm going to leave my
Speaker 1: kid around you and you're doing the same things and
Speaker 1: repeating the same cycles after you told me that, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean. At the end of the day,
Speaker 1: you need help. You need help, And I just made
Speaker 1: a choice that that's not the life I want.
Speaker 2: To live.
Speaker 1: And if that means that we can no longer be
Speaker 1: that type of family and I have to have a
Speaker 1: chosen family, then that's what I choose, because I have
Speaker 1: to live this life and I have to want to live,
Speaker 1: and if I don't want to live, then you gotta go,
Speaker 1: right And at this point, I was just fighting wanting
Speaker 1: to live. So at this point I had to let
Speaker 1: them go, or y'all would have let me go.
Speaker 3: I just want to say, like, as your friend, I'm
Speaker 3: like super proud of you. You know, We're not like
Speaker 3: we've been known each other for like three years or
Speaker 3: you know whatever, but like when when we met and
Speaker 3: when I learned about you and we talked and we connected,
Speaker 3: and these are recent decisions that you've made, Like this
Speaker 3: is not like years of like I've cut these people
Speaker 3: off that hurt me, Like this is recent strides and
Speaker 3: your healing, And I just want to say I'm super
Speaker 3: proud of you because I've seen you do it. I've
Speaker 3: seen how difficult it is for you. I can't begin
Speaker 3: to imagine what that process is like. But you know,
Speaker 3: our parents are the first people that we have that
Speaker 3: were supposed to protect us, our first examples of that,
Speaker 3: and naturally, when we're raised and nurtured by people, we
Speaker 3: want to protect them and we want to love them,
Speaker 3: and we want to stay in contact with them, and
Speaker 3: we watch TV and we want to have happy households
Speaker 3: and do Christmases and Easters and shit, and you know,
Speaker 3: and I know that's been a big obstacle for you
Speaker 3: and have grandparents to our children and all these things.
Speaker 3: And you know, for anybody listening for you, like anyone
Speaker 3: who hurts you in a major way and continues to
Speaker 3: like display those types of behaviors, cut them the fuck off.
Speaker 3: It doesn't matter if they birthed you, it doesn't matter
Speaker 3: if you live with them your whole life, doesn't matter
Speaker 3: if they fed you three squares a day, like sometimes
Speaker 3: that's the lesson for those people. And I've seen you grow,
Speaker 3: I've seen you heal tremendously through that decision, and I
Speaker 3: knew that was a decision you were going to eventually make.
Speaker 3: And obviously I'm not ever going to tell you what
Speaker 3: to do, but I see you. I know this is
Speaker 3: not a story that you always were, you know, willing
Speaker 3: to tell, for you know a lot of reasons, but
Speaker 3: it's so fucking powerful Samaya, Like, like you said, it's
Speaker 3: just like it heals other people and it heals you.
Speaker 3: And I've seen you grow and I've seen you you know,
Speaker 3: like it's contagious, it is, and like choosing yourself is
Speaker 3: revolutionary and for your kid and to clear generational curses
Speaker 3: and like who fucking knows what they experience and honestly,
Speaker 3: like not who cares, but who cares? You know what
Speaker 3: I mean? Like you just you do things, you decide
Speaker 3: to grow out of them, and if you don't, you
Speaker 3: got to cut people off, you know, And like you've
Speaker 3: decided to grow, You've chosen yourself and not pick him,
Speaker 3: and and you choose you. And by choosing you, you
Speaker 3: choose him. And like look where we're sitting and look
Speaker 3: at all the things that you've accomplished. And like Be
Speaker 3: and Erica always say that podcasting has been like the
Speaker 3: honesty through podcasting has really truly been healing to us.
Speaker 3: But that shit is true, like speaking your truth, especially
Speaker 3: for people who have been told like don't tell the business,
Speaker 3: like like you know, black people, to keep keep on
Speaker 3: business in the house, don't go outside town on business,
Speaker 3: Like well it's crazy shit is going on in the house.
Speaker 3: What the fuck? Asking children to hold adult secrets is
Speaker 3: not cool, and it's not you know, like it's not
Speaker 3: having your child in mind. And when you don't protect
Speaker 3: your child, best believe they might not they should not
Speaker 3: protect you. And so I just want to say, I'm
Speaker 3: really grateful for you, and I'm really you know, for
Speaker 3: your for your strength and your courage and for your
Speaker 3: voice because it's important and a lot of people need
Speaker 3: to hear it, including me, and so I'm just I'm thankful.
Speaker 3: And you know, even in our book, we talk about
Speaker 3: how our parents affected us and how we show up
Speaker 3: in relationships and how we parent, and I think sometimes
Speaker 3: we forget that we can change all those things, like
Speaker 3: we can actually edit our parents' parenting, you know, like
Speaker 3: this didn't work out for me, Mom, I saw you
Speaker 3: curse my dad out four thousand times. I saw you
Speaker 3: kick his ass, and now I don't want to be
Speaker 3: a married I don't want to be a wife, you know,
Speaker 3: Like this is good? You know, I'm good, like you know,
Speaker 3: and my parents are still the fuck mary with their
Speaker 3: crazy asses. But like I you know, I'm just grateful
Speaker 3: that we as women have all tapped into our voices
Speaker 3: and our honesty and our vulnerability and chosen to show
Speaker 3: up as ourselves so that it can change our own lives,
Speaker 3: and obviously it has.
Speaker 1: I'm grateful for well, first of all, I receive that
Speaker 1: thank you. I am grateful for you guys. To me,
Speaker 1: you guys are the coolest girls like y'all. And I
Speaker 1: know it sounded like so corny, but I'm a corny
Speaker 1: ass bitch, be witty. I'm fine though, too, but corny
Speaker 1: and fine is y'all are just such amazing energy and something.
Speaker 1: And when I found you guys where you guys were
Speaker 1: in your motherhood and you know, in your journey, was like,
Speaker 1: you know what, that's something I love. And I was like, hey,
Speaker 1: you want to be my friend and y'all was like
Speaker 1: fuck yes, so yes to that nice girl energy and
Speaker 1: yes too, saying you want to be cool too, good
Speaker 1: come be with us and being amazing and always teaching
Speaker 1: me stop fucking apologizing, like y'all have gotten me together
Speaker 1: to the point that it is rubbing off of my friends. Hey,
Speaker 1: we don't apologize. We tell you what's going on, and
Speaker 1: motherfucker's respected. You know what I'm saying, And that's it.
Speaker 1: And y'all have taught me that don't come over, don't
Speaker 1: come to our retree to apologize and for shit, just
Speaker 1: let your titties hay damn, like, don't start apologizing somebody
Speaker 1: like and it's okay. And I've always been accepted to
Speaker 1: be me while you guys authentically be y'all. And it's
Speaker 1: so crazy because I say, these are my hippie friends,
Speaker 1: and my friends think I'm a hippie friend, and I'm like, yeah, okay,
Speaker 1: when good Mom's come around, it's like, no, these are
Speaker 1: my hippie friends. They're the ones who are like, look,
Speaker 1: be you, be you however that you and type A
Speaker 1: and how many or how many lists do you need
Speaker 1: to tell.
Speaker 2: Us who you are?
Speaker 1: Okay, I'll look at all the lists, okay, Like it's
Speaker 1: just support and it's just beautiful. And I hope you
Speaker 1: guys just understand what you guys are doing. You're showing
Speaker 1: other people that they can do it. Watching you guys
Speaker 1: do it told me that, Okay, whatever my story is,
Speaker 1: I can throw it into a show as well. I
Speaker 1: can throw it into other podcasts. You know, you guys
Speaker 1: have done it. Like, I'm so proud of you for
Speaker 1: showing other.
Speaker 4: Women that thank you. Thank you. I'm proud of you.
Speaker 4: Your podcast is the Bomb Girl.
Speaker 5: If you have haven't checked it out, please go check
Speaker 5: out somebody's podcast or just.
Speaker 3: On it last week. So make sure you go check
Speaker 3: us out on not another sex podcast to book tour.
Speaker 5: It just feel like I was I was just I
Speaker 5: was just thinking about you know, us the Green that
Speaker 5: we were going to be friends and how like it.
Speaker 5: But like, I think if more women just said that
Speaker 5: out loud to people that they.
Speaker 4: Want to be friends with.
Speaker 2: Here I want to be friends with, Like I want
Speaker 2: to like just say.
Speaker 5: If you're listening right now, and you might think this
Speaker 5: is weird, but the next time you meet a bitch
Speaker 5: who you want to.
Speaker 4: Be your friend, just tell her, yeah, we should be friends.
Speaker 5: We should be friends and know it's and if she
Speaker 5: can't receive that, girl not your friend anyway. But I
Speaker 5: think that if we just felt graver in that way
Speaker 5: and took that initiative, like, there would be so many
Speaker 5: more female friendships. And I really do think female friendships
Speaker 5: is like the key to like saving the world.
Speaker 4: And we've been separated and pitted against.
Speaker 5: Each other and and and you know, our whole shit
Speaker 5: is like when women come together and we're more powerful
Speaker 5: and it's the truth. It's not just like fun to
Speaker 5: say it truly is a thing. But we have to
Speaker 5: like take the step. We have to like like reach
Speaker 5: the olive branch out and and stop playing this narrative
Speaker 5: in our minds that you can't trust women, that we
Speaker 5: don't fuck with women, because yeah, there are some untrustful
Speaker 5: people period there. People will hurt you, men will hurt you,
Speaker 5: and you still.
Speaker 3: He did do a couple of things. This will help everything.
Speaker 2: I feel like women also have to see themselves.
Speaker 1: And one thing that I think you guys were the
Speaker 1: first women that I saw myself in that I thought
Speaker 1: were cool as fuck, like, but that was me accepting
Speaker 1: who I was, which was sma your you know, and
Speaker 1: you know you've heard my voice get louder over time,
Speaker 1: But at first it started off somebody, you're kind of
Speaker 1: cool and you doing the damn thing sexual sensuals and
Speaker 1: then boom, you guys walked into or internet linked in
Speaker 1: to my life. We were in COVID at this time,
Speaker 1: and it's just like seeing yourself and acknowledging that don't
Speaker 1: be afraid to you know, don't feel intimidated.
Speaker 2: You guys, like maybe saying the elephant in the room here.
Speaker 1: But other women sometimes don't reach out to other women
Speaker 1: because we feel intimidated, because we feel like, well, because
Speaker 1: they are like this or this successful, they wouldn't want
Speaker 1: to hang out with me. Yeah, and I don't want.
Speaker 1: I don't talk to my friend like that. Y'all like,
Speaker 1: do better. And when I say my friend, I'm talking
Speaker 1: about you. So be kinder to yourself. And every time
Speaker 1: I'm around you, guys, I'm always reminded to be kinder
Speaker 1: to myself and slow down.
Speaker 2: So that's beautiful.
Speaker 5: Well, think talking about the internet, and just like the
Speaker 5: journey of me learning more about these sexual essentials. You know,
Speaker 5: I've shared the story before that it's May invited me
Speaker 5: to her dick sucking class and I happened to be
Speaker 5: at my homegirl's house at the time, and I was like,
Speaker 5: oh shit, tonight's my friend's dick sucking class. And she
Speaker 5: was like what. I was like, yes, She's like, are
Speaker 5: you a sucking dick? Like we have suck dicks? And
Speaker 5: I was like, I actually have no idea what we're
Speaker 5: doing in this class. I know that I should have
Speaker 5: bought I was. I had the option to buy like
Speaker 5: a toy, but it didn't happen. And now we're here
Speaker 5: in at your house. We're gonnaigure it out. We're just
Speaker 5: gonna log on and we logged onto your class and
Speaker 5: I was mind blown at a the community that you have.
Speaker 5: It was pages and pages of just like you know,
Speaker 5: you go on zoom, you got the pages, pages and pages,
Speaker 5: and I was like, I am in.
Speaker 3: This class, super tuned in, like.
Speaker 5: I mean, this is the queen of Patreon herself. But
Speaker 5: I was just like, WHOA, I had no idea. But
Speaker 5: it shouldn't have surprised me, because pleasure and learning, learning
Speaker 5: how to a please, you know, as women were nurturers.
Speaker 5: And there's a good part of this, and there's also
Speaker 5: a bad part because I feel like sometimes our our
Speaker 5: lust or our are not lust, our desire to learn
Speaker 5: is a lot of times outside of our own pleasure.
Speaker 5: It's just because we just want to please the man.
Speaker 5: We want to please the man. Which I'm sure there
Speaker 5: were some bitches in there for that, trying to save relationships,
Speaker 5: shave marriages and all the types of shit, right, But
Speaker 5: then there's also like the woman who just wants to
Speaker 5: just be just be the best sexual pleaser of her
Speaker 5: just of all times, so that she can please and
Speaker 5: get pleased back.
Speaker 4: But I was just so mind blown.
Speaker 5: And all the women there, and and and and the command.
Speaker 5: I mean, I shouldn't be mind blown, but I didn't
Speaker 5: know what kind of the educator you were, so.
Speaker 4: I was super I was just super impressed.
Speaker 5: Like you commanded the room and you just got the
Speaker 5: bitches together, okay, and the guy and gave us real tools.
Speaker 2: Like that.
Speaker 5: Really have changed myself, I literally have changed my Like you, guys,
Speaker 5: you need to go check out somebis Patreon.
Speaker 3: The windshield, yes, the windshield.
Speaker 5: And beyond all things anyway, So you know, speaking of
Speaker 5: pleasure and women tapping into pleasure, I'm just curious, like,
Speaker 5: so after after motherhood and now you're single and you
Speaker 5: know able to explore.
Speaker 4: I know you guys, were you?
Speaker 2: Guys?
Speaker 3: Were you?
Speaker 2: Guys? Were Polly in a relationship and I was always Polly.
Speaker 1: He was giving me an opportunity to expand, and the
Speaker 1: expand so we did try some things at the end.
Speaker 1: But me also being fully poly means that I can
Speaker 1: commit to another person, and so you know, when you
Speaker 1: don't know at this point, I think that it was
Speaker 1: just a lot of hail Mary's trying to give her
Speaker 1: what she really wants, which is I'm a polyamorous person
Speaker 1: and you know, we tried.
Speaker 2: Some things anyway.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it's who I am, whether I end up in
Speaker 1: a monogamous relation or relationship or not. I am a
Speaker 1: I can love many people. Yeah, I don't really care
Speaker 1: about men women. I'm a lover So yeah.
Speaker 5: I'm just curious, like how you were able to kind
Speaker 5: of step back into your son uality or sexuality in
Speaker 5: this new space of like introducing new a new energy
Speaker 5: into your life, meaning dating and having sex with other people.
Speaker 5: Like was that a seamless transition for you because you've
Speaker 5: always just been kind of more sexually liberated, more open,
Speaker 5: Because a lot of women, you know, including myself, like
Speaker 5: after you have a divorce or a breakup, like that
Speaker 5: transition into you know, finding out finding new sources of
Speaker 5: pleasure can feel really intimidating.
Speaker 4: Like was it like were.
Speaker 5: You just like backing popping or like did you have
Speaker 5: a whole phase or like what was what was?
Speaker 4: What was? So Maaya after divorce?
Speaker 1: Yeah, Smaya after divorce was pretty similar to Smaya after child.
Speaker 2: So after I had my son, I made a choice.
Speaker 1: To keep my sexuality, which was I didn't really have
Speaker 1: the desire to be sexual right after, but I made
Speaker 1: a choice and put it on my schedule that I
Speaker 1: was going to rub my kuci And this is what
Speaker 1: I was because I had heard these horror stories that
Speaker 1: people like lose the urge to me, and that scared
Speaker 1: the ship out of me.
Speaker 4: Scared this ship you literally had scheduled.
Speaker 1: I would just laughter it like I didn't because what
Speaker 1: I realized it was the alarm was set.
Speaker 2: Yes, it's it's always like has always been on my calendar.
Speaker 1: Really thorough in every and guess what, you know, how
Speaker 1: much better you do it when it's already in your
Speaker 1: mind and you knew that you had to do it,
Speaker 1: versus you being tired and somebody lay down and be like,
Speaker 1: oh you want to suck my dick and iouldn't expecting it.
Speaker 3: How often isn't on your calendar? Like once a week?
Speaker 1: Depend how much do I like you?
Speaker 3: Hear that?
Speaker 4: You two hear that?
Speaker 1: Man?
Speaker 3: If you like someone, it's like four times a week.
Speaker 1: It depends how much we're seeing each other. But also
Speaker 1: I like to say, Dick, I love it. I did
Speaker 1: to you have pretty lips it's like a thing.
Speaker 4: Yeah I like.
Speaker 3: To dick, but honestly, like, I know the guys like
Speaker 3: it messy, but I'm like, if I throw up on
Speaker 3: your dick, you're going to be I know. I'm like,
Speaker 3: but I wanted to be messy like lines.
Speaker 1: I just because I realized that everybody don't like everything
Speaker 1: the same and so like one of And it's also sexy.
Speaker 1: It's almost like with women with consent, like getting consent
Speaker 1: and sexy, like when they ask can I kiss you?
Speaker 3: I don't like the kiss me.
Speaker 1: Well, you also like threesome kisses and stuff like you
Speaker 1: have a different version of kissing that you prefer, and
Speaker 1: I so you know, it's never it's not it's for
Speaker 1: you and I get that, but yeah, it's just a
Speaker 1: little different. But for me, I feel like with men
Speaker 1: it's kind of the same thing. How do you like
Speaker 1: your dig sucked? And it's like, I matter, you know
Speaker 1: what I mean, And we have to remember like the
Speaker 1: same stuff we're teaching ourselves with them.
Speaker 5: Well, just like not all pussies are like that should
Speaker 5: be eating the same same with dick suck, And we
Speaker 5: have to offer extend the same invitation to the men
Speaker 5: that we share our mouths with absolutely.
Speaker 2: So I just I made it a priority.
Speaker 1: I'm just a person that if I say I'm going
Speaker 1: to do something, I'm going to do it.
Speaker 2: That's just the type of person I am. Period.
Speaker 1: So if I say I'm going to run my coach,
Speaker 1: and also if you're telling me that there's a chance
Speaker 1: that and mind you, this is what I was studying.
Speaker 2: You know what I'm saying. I've always been a sexual person.
Speaker 1: So before I even got into the business, I knew
Speaker 1: that when y'all said, then my kuchie may draw up,
Speaker 1: I started listening, like because when I tell you, my
Speaker 1: vagina was like baby powder pussy dry. For like a year,
Speaker 1: I felt you telling me I birthed.
Speaker 2: The gift of life and this is what you took
Speaker 2: for me. I felt betrayed, like bamboozoo hood wings, like you.
Speaker 4: Got me fucked up.
Speaker 1: And so I was like, but I also knew that
Speaker 1: I've always been a three orgasm girl, So like, if
Speaker 1: I'm sitting down to masturbate, I'm not getting up until
Speaker 1: have at least three orgasms. What I realized is that
Speaker 1: if I before, yeah, before even the sex, I would
Speaker 1: be like wet. And that was great one more like
Speaker 1: a creepy anyway, so it would be there. But then
Speaker 1: I realized after the baby it wasn't on the first one,
Speaker 1: and so I was really discouraged and embarrassed and you
Speaker 1: know what I'm saying. But then I realized one day
Speaker 1: I happened to have sex after masturbating, and I realized
Speaker 1: I just needed more time.
Speaker 2: I just need more time.
Speaker 1: It was like being in a like living in Miami
Speaker 1: and then living like in snow, and it's just like
Speaker 1: just let the car warm up.
Speaker 2: It's still worked.
Speaker 5: I'm so happy you said this because I think a
Speaker 5: lot of women and men don't realize, and this may
Speaker 5: not be true for all women. I know that, like
Speaker 5: my what I needed sexually after I had a child
Speaker 5: was different than what I needed before. Yes, like what
Speaker 5: literally what my pussy wanted.
Speaker 1: And also what I wanted as a woman. I started
Speaker 1: desiring people to do things for me, and that shit
Speaker 1: got my pussy wet. The words you were saying stopped
Speaker 1: working because I'm a mom now, bitch, you know what
Speaker 1: I'm saying. So there was that, but also just doing
Speaker 1: it with myself. I was like, so it's not even
Speaker 1: just all like another person it's also just me alone.
Speaker 1: I wasn't I was getting wet again. I just realized
Speaker 1: now it took about three orgasms before. It's like super
Speaker 1: superort such as understanding that and then also it did
Speaker 1: come back right.
Speaker 2: But also you know, it's like going to the gym.
Speaker 2: You never something.
Speaker 1: You might not want to do it, but have you
Speaker 1: ever regretted it after you did? But also if you've
Speaker 1: never had an orgasm, like, well, I don't like doing it.
Speaker 1: It's frustrating. Might be frustrated because you got blue pussy,
Speaker 1: you have not ever had an orgasm. If you're listening
Speaker 1: and you're not sure if you've ever had an orgasm,
Speaker 1: the odds are you haven't.
Speaker 2: That that's the odds.
Speaker 1: Like it's just like taking a shit, you know, if
Speaker 1: you ship your pants like hmm, that wasn't a fart,
Speaker 1: that was more like you would know. Like, so with
Speaker 1: an orgasm, it can feel you'd be like, ooh, sex
Speaker 1: feel good. Orgasm is it could feel good, but when
Speaker 1: it's orgasm, you'll know.
Speaker 2: Okay.
Speaker 1: So anyways, this is the part where you take my
Speaker 1: master classes like this.
Speaker 5: Take this part because this is what wait, this is
Speaker 5: the part of the master class.
Speaker 4: But Also, I just want to say.
Speaker 5: If you do something from dry pussy, you guys, and
Speaker 5: there is and you you know that's.
Speaker 3: The thing for you, especially like postpartum espec. Just at
Speaker 3: any point period.
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Speaker 3: My pussy's wet, and now it's wet, wet wet. We
Speaker 3: we what? And I know when to pull that bitch
Speaker 3: out because I'm like, let me show this motherfucker a
Speaker 3: little son.
Speaker 1: I'm like, you got I don't know, I'm shorts.
Speaker 3: You know, I will be honest. I didn't. I didn't
Speaker 3: pack any panties this trip.
Speaker 4: WHOA why purpose I didn't.
Speaker 3: I didn't enough laundry. It's a long star. I don't
Speaker 3: really panties that often anyway. But the point is v
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Speaker 3: life because even if you have wet pussy is gonna
Speaker 3: make a wet, wet weather. And if you're going on
Speaker 3: a date, I have a date night, planned something special,
Speaker 3: a vacation, I don't know, toss it in the bag
Speaker 3: and then think us later. But it really does work.
Speaker 1: One day we got to talk about, you know, wet
Speaker 1: pussies and creamy pussies, because I think that also women
Speaker 1: have different not think, I know that women have different consistencies.
Speaker 3: With well, you know it has It has a lot
Speaker 3: to do with your ovulation. Usually, if it's creamy, niggas
Speaker 3: pull out, that's when they're ovulating. But if it's clear
Speaker 3: and that little like sticky clearness, then you're not ovulating,
Speaker 3: and then it's don't take this from me. I wouldn't
Speaker 3: say I'm not gonna tell you.
Speaker 5: Want to say that she's not a medical expert. So
Speaker 5: if you get pregnant listening to me, I do not contrast.
Speaker 3: No, this is to.
Speaker 4: Shut the fuck up. What's your life?
Speaker 1: Do what you want to?
Speaker 2: Just add that on the end and it resolves you.
Speaker 3: If it's a if it's a creamy smell, olderless thicker discharge,
Speaker 3: it's probably because you're ovulating. Now if there's a smell,
Speaker 3: that's a different issue and you have to go see it.
Speaker 4: No, we need to go use the vitamins because that
Speaker 4: also helps with the smell, or you need.
Speaker 3: To see a medical professional. But she's like, I think
Speaker 3: you should go the vitamins. Don't care that then you
Speaker 3: need to go see a medical professional. But just general
Speaker 3: creamy non odorless is probably ovulating. You shouldn't get none
Speaker 3: of it. Anyway, back to the regular program.
Speaker 2: I love the the range. This is gonna be a
Speaker 2: good book. It's gonna be a good book.
Speaker 3: The book is really good, and I'm not going to
Speaker 3: say it just because we wrote it, but it really
Speaker 3: is good. I was like, I can't miss any of
Speaker 3: these points. This is very important.
Speaker 2: What pussy yes asked the question?
Speaker 5: Okay, so yes, So was it easy getting back into
Speaker 5: your pleasure? Was it uncomfortable dating with a child?
Speaker 1: It is always uncomfortable dating with a child. That's fine
Speaker 1: because I don't like to split any of my time
Speaker 1: the time that I have. I already have my child
Speaker 1: fifty percent of the time, and that's not my choice.
Speaker 1: And when I think about those numbers, that shit fucks
Speaker 1: me up. Like you're telling me I have my child
Speaker 1: half of his life and I'm his mother, so I
Speaker 1: don't date while I have my child.
Speaker 2: But sex wasn't difficult because I was.
Speaker 1: I ended up dating the guy who was my boyfriend
Speaker 1: in my marriage, so we were already comfortable and him
Speaker 1: and my husband were already cool and stuff like that,
Speaker 1: so like he.
Speaker 2: Was even encouraging it because he ain't want me to
Speaker 2: be dating on new people.
Speaker 1: We either, like, because that's your kid around somebody knew
Speaker 1: so that you know, lasted for a while. But since
Speaker 1: then it has been very fucking hard because now I'm
Speaker 1: not dating, I have a new set of boundaries and
Speaker 1: standards and things I want for myself.
Speaker 2: But also.
Speaker 1: I've been lusting after me, like I've been allowing myself
Speaker 1: to explore seeing me, and like I turned myself on
Speaker 1: a lot.
Speaker 2: But also it works out because I'm busy.
Speaker 1: This concept house shit is whooping my ass, but now
Speaker 1: we open it, so now I'm ready for dates.
Speaker 2: She's available for dates, single and ready to mingle. I'm
Speaker 2: an aries.
Speaker 3: She's like long long walks in the beach, a very
Speaker 3: organized date with lots of plans, maybe even that itinerary
Speaker 3: you I love ituary, and maybe even a wardrobe stylists
Speaker 3: and makeup artists before the itinerary begins, and don't be late,
Speaker 3: she will dump you.
Speaker 2: Now that's not true. I have grace, but we would
Speaker 2: have to reschedule the new itinerary.
Speaker 3: No girl, he was three minutes late, so I had
Speaker 3: to do something else. I went to sleep.
Speaker 2: I'm masturbated, you guys.
Speaker 3: We came to we got to somebody's house. I mistakenly
Speaker 3: text her that we're getting her the wrong day at
Speaker 3: five am. And as we've walked to the door, I
Speaker 3: was like, oh my god, this bitch is going to
Speaker 3: kill us.
Speaker 4: It was dark, it was five am.
Speaker 3: I'm like I thought I did. She's like I thought
Speaker 3: you said. I was like, I thought we left tomorrow.
Speaker 3: I was like, if one person's gonna beat her ass,
Speaker 3: that's gonna be motherfucking Semia because she did not plan
Speaker 3: for this. Ship.
Speaker 5: We pulled up to the house, like the security is
Speaker 5: thick here, so don't even think about it. Don't even
Speaker 5: think about it. Okay, I'm gonna let you know now.
Speaker 5: I noticed Atlanta and there's robbers and shit. Don't even
Speaker 5: think about it.
Speaker 4: Okay.
Speaker 3: We pulled up.
Speaker 5: I was like, oh, ship, we're being recorded. It was
Speaker 5: like you are being recorded, Okay.
Speaker 3: I was like, oh gosh.
Speaker 5: We pulled an open opens the door, half sleep with
Speaker 5: her blue frosachi rope hair perfectly coiled in her little coils,
Speaker 5: and ship she's throwing ship eyes closed, here.
Speaker 4: Go get in there.
Speaker 3: Perfect just let out and I was like.
Speaker 4: She's gonna kill us.
Speaker 3: I was like, I know he might not be friends
Speaker 3: to bro.
Speaker 4: I woke them up organizing she did.
Speaker 3: She just came in the room. I was like, what's
Speaker 3: gonna be here? At nine am, I was like, he's
Speaker 3: never latest.
Speaker 4: Even about.
Speaker 3: She sures did at eight fifty. That came to awake
Speaker 3: as the funk up. You all need to move.
Speaker 2: Look here or you don't like the details. I like
Speaker 2: the you know all the you want a picture, you
Speaker 2: want to drink like? I love the aesthetics and I
Speaker 2: do I do. I think we deserve it, like.
Speaker 3: Your goddess, your godess is we deserve all the goddish things.
Speaker 3: Before before we move on, I wanted to ask you,
Speaker 3: and this is going to be strictly for Patreon, because
Speaker 3: you can't get all the gems for free.
Speaker 5: But before we get out of here, because and then
Speaker 5: we gotta go, there's three things, okay. Number one, do
Speaker 5: you have an affirmation you can share with us?
Speaker 3: If you don't. I can share one from the book.
Speaker 3: I have one just because we talked about a lot
Speaker 3: of important things today. This is we share manifestations in
Speaker 3: the book. And one of the manifestations that I wanted
Speaker 3: to share with you all, just one because you got
Speaker 3: to read the book. But this comes from chapter one
Speaker 3: and it says, I will not let my past fears
Speaker 3: and traumas limit the beautiful experiences manifesting in my present
Speaker 3: gorgeous existence. I love that I will not let my
Speaker 3: past fears and traumas limit the beautiful experiences manifesting in
Speaker 3: my present gorgeous existence, which basically means, whatever happened yesterday
Speaker 3: is yesterday, and you can build new life. You can
Speaker 3: build new systems in your body, new responses, and new relationships.
Speaker 3: And you have the power. So whatever doesn't serve you,
Speaker 3: release it, let it go, Let them go, and forgive.
Speaker 2: And move on, start over as many times as you
Speaker 2: need to.
Speaker 3: Amen.
Speaker 5: And we pulled a card at the top of the show,
Speaker 5: and it just maya pulled a card as you pulled
Speaker 5: the world card. And the world card means my sense, completion, integration, accomplishment,
Speaker 5: and travel.
Speaker 4: Bitch, is time to make a vacation. Maybe come, maybe
Speaker 4: you need to come out to the Mexico good vibratry.
Speaker 1: First of all, you know when y'all was talking about
Speaker 1: it and y'all said rose courts, Yeah, I knowed.
Speaker 2: I'd be rubbing my pussy to some rose qu.
Speaker 1: A.
Speaker 5: B Well, come bring your rose courts and rub your
Speaker 5: pussy on the rose courts at the good vibe treatful? Okay,
Speaker 5: but yes, so that those are the things that it represents.
Speaker 3: And uh.
Speaker 5: When the World card appears in the tarot reading, you
Speaker 5: are glowing with a sense of wholeness, achievement, fulfillment, and completion.
Speaker 5: Hello Si content house, completion, a long term project, period
Speaker 5: of study, relationship, or career has come full circle and
Speaker 5: you are now reveling in the sense of closure and accomplishment.
Speaker 5: This card could represent graduation, a marriage, a birth of
Speaker 5: a child, achieving a long held dream or aspiration. You
Speaker 5: have finally accomplished your goals or purpose. Everything has come
Speaker 5: together and you are in the right place, doing the
Speaker 5: right thing, achieving what you have envisioned. You feel whole
Speaker 5: and complete. More literally, the world can mean world travel,
Speaker 5: particularly particularly on a large scale. You may be lucky
Speaker 5: enough to embark on a six month overseas trip, or
Speaker 5: are working, studying, or living overseas for an extended period.
Speaker 5: This card reinforces universal understanding and global awareness, and you
Speaker 5: will find a new appreciation for people and cultures from
Speaker 5: across the world.
Speaker 2: I receive, Ah, Okay.
Speaker 3: I feel like all of us are going to live
Speaker 3: out of the country.
Speaker 1: I think that you all are going to buy a
Speaker 1: vacation house, and I'm going to buy a vacation house,
Speaker 1: and then we're going to swap weekends.
Speaker 4: And we already bought land, so we're building our house
Speaker 4: in Costa Rica. So you're more than welcome to come,
Speaker 4: of course, and.
Speaker 3: Then everybody ears will definitely swap.
Speaker 2: I'd love that, Okay.
Speaker 1: I I gotta find a city because you know, I
Speaker 1: always loved a Malibu house, but y'all live out there,
Speaker 1: So now I got to get another well house like.
Speaker 2: You know that that like on the on the cliff,
Speaker 2: like up there.
Speaker 3: You know, I need.
Speaker 2: I need bouginess, like I need. I need like a
Speaker 2: modern rustic like.
Speaker 5: But I feel your esthetic though, I'm like, no, I
Speaker 5: see the esthetics. I'm like, bitch, I'm gonna be your husband.
Speaker 5: But now I'll marry you, watch out, and then one more.
Speaker 3: Last question before we wrap up. So our final part
Speaker 3: in the book is called Revelation, which is obviously a
Speaker 3: play on revelations because we're rebels. So we wanted to
Speaker 3: ask you, what is your revelation, something that a divine
Speaker 3: epiphany understanding that you discovered through you know, just being
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Speaker 1: I am a greedy bitch, I should be. The truth
Speaker 1: is is that I want to be treated all girly
Speaker 1: and things like that, and I want to live this
Speaker 1: you know, quote unquote soft life, and but I also
Speaker 1: want to work hard as fucking live in crazy schedules
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Speaker 1: And I also want to be buried for years. And
Speaker 1: I kind of want a daughter, and I'm really scared
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Speaker 1: I'm giving myself permission to not be sure. And I
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Speaker 1: bending or backing down for any of that. And I'm
Speaker 1: a greedy bitch, And yes it don't add up, but
Speaker 1: this is my life. I want everything. I want it
Speaker 1: all and I've decided and I'm okay with.
Speaker 3: It, and you can it all.
Speaker 5: It sounds about a revelation to me, all of it. Yes, well,
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