Speaker 1: Welcome back to good Mom's Bad Choices.
Speaker 2: I'm Erica and I'm Nila, and it is Wednesday, house,
Speaker 2: Happy motherfucking hump day, bitches, the best day of the week.
Speaker 2: It's Monday's over. We're halfway in, We're almost the weekend.
Speaker 2: I feel like Wednesday is a good day. It is.
Speaker 2: I think America officially got rid of Friday as a workday,
Speaker 2: so it's good.
Speaker 1: Nay, yeah, it's recent.
Speaker 2: It's been cycling out for some time.
Speaker 1: Are people not working on Fridays so you get fourday weekends?
Speaker 2: Mostly not in la I think students don't take class
Speaker 2: on Friday. We don't get forty we don't get Forday weekends.
Speaker 2: The well we I mean, are we supposed to give
Speaker 2: our people for day?
Speaker 1: Whoever's listening to shut out, don't return, turn it off
Speaker 1: now you don't get Friday off.
Speaker 2: I don't know. Maybe that's just like a personal belief
Speaker 2: that i've I've I've adapted. I don't know if it's
Speaker 2: actually cycling out. I'm sorry for anyone. Everyone's pissed going
Speaker 2: to work like, I don't know why I'm working Fridays.
Speaker 1: You guys, we're in Dallas.
Speaker 2: Yeehaw haw you know, every time I'm in a southern city,
Speaker 2: I like to use my accent.
Speaker 1: You're really good at that.
Speaker 2: It's my favorite every time, you know what. And this
Speaker 2: week I deliberately left all my cowgirl boots at home.
Speaker 1: Wow, this is very rare. It's a very rare occurrence.
Speaker 1: I know.
Speaker 2: I was like, can I go to a southern city
Speaker 2: with no cowboy boots?
Speaker 3: Well?
Speaker 1: You know why, because we need to buy some.
Speaker 2: Hats, may babe, we buy shoes and hats here. Oh yes,
Speaker 2: gram time, yes, yes, yes. Anyway, we have a very
Speaker 2: very very special guest here today with us, a long
Speaker 2: time coming. Second, her second time on the show. The
Speaker 2: first time was during COVID. Yeah, during COVID it was
Speaker 2: fucking deep. Twenty twenty. We had her on for Money March,
Speaker 2: Money March, Money March. Oh my god, that was such
Speaker 2: a great month. That was a good month. And your episode, well,
Speaker 2: let me let's introduce her. We have the beautiful, amazing
Speaker 2: Loose Warrior. Thank you so much for coming on our show.
Speaker 2: Louise is an intuitive, she's a wealth generator, she's a mama,
Speaker 2: just an overall bad beach.
Speaker 1: Thank you.
Speaker 2: Yeah, your episode with us during Money March was so amazing.
Speaker 2: We had such an amazing response, So many people were
Speaker 2: so happy to be introduced to you.
Speaker 1: I know a lot of our listeners have.
Speaker 2: Taken your course now and are hopefully making lots of
Speaker 2: money in the stock market and beyond.
Speaker 4: So thank you, yeah, thank you so much for having
Speaker 4: me and coming into the space and bringing all your
Speaker 4: divine energy. I feel held like the So yeah, I
Speaker 4: appreciate you all having me again and being here in Texas.
Speaker 2: Of course, after we got off the interview, I was like,
Speaker 2: I want to meet her in person.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 2: We've been like trying to make this happen for a while.
Speaker 2: We're like, we will get to Texas somehow, we'll see
Speaker 2: her in human I know, I was plotting it since
Speaker 2: the day we got off that call. I'm like, we're
Speaker 2: going to see her. Thank you for letting us come
Speaker 2: to your home and do this, and you know, having
Speaker 2: us in and you know, we're like, you know, we
Speaker 2: like to stalk and get in people's faces. We're going
Speaker 2: to make you our best friend. It's the last thing
Speaker 2: we do. What's what's been up, what's changed, What's what's
Speaker 2: new Since we last talked to you, It's been like
Speaker 2: two years.
Speaker 4: It has, it has the the you know, the the
Speaker 4: conversation surrounding money is really growing.
Speaker 1: It's it's taking off. I landed a book deal. Yeah,
Speaker 1: so that's cool. We just turned in the last chapter
Speaker 1: on Friday. Got you girl. That's a big undertaking.
Speaker 4: It's like giving birth to a baby. Yes, And so
Speaker 4: that that's been going on, and then we are currently
Speaker 4: in negotiations to launch a podcast pertaining to money and
Speaker 4: the stock market and just embracing that. So yeah, it's
Speaker 4: been really busy. You know, it's been going really good.
Speaker 4: We are in a really interesting time since the last
Speaker 4: time we spoke, we were like thriving there was in
Speaker 4: terms of the economy and just where we were there
Speaker 4: was so much money that was being funneled in. And
Speaker 4: so right now what we're seeing is just a little
Speaker 4: bit of a pullback of that. It's like going inward resetting. Yeah,
Speaker 4: so you know, it's like navigating all of the outward
Speaker 4: things that I'm being called to do, but also navigating
Speaker 4: how I feel like the economy and we're just having
Speaker 4: like this massive reset right now with the.
Speaker 1: Recession and inflation and all of those things.
Speaker 2: I think people too are just I think one thing
Speaker 2: COVID did in general was to make people just have
Speaker 2: more toon over everything in their life, including finances and
Speaker 2: like really understanding what am I spending my money on,
Speaker 2: and like how can I make more money from home?
Speaker 1: And how can I like not have to.
Speaker 2: Work so hard like every single day, and like make
Speaker 2: this economy work for me? And I know your courses
Speaker 2: like are transformational, especially for women of color to learn
Speaker 2: that and like really feel empowered in that space and
Speaker 2: know that it's not just like a white person's ballgame,
Speaker 2: and like you can do this too.
Speaker 1: Yeah, most definitely.
Speaker 4: I really feel like the energy of money is really
Speaker 4: calling out for divine energy. Like I just really feel
Speaker 4: like money is really asking bipock feminine energy take take me.
Speaker 4: Like I'm ready to be, you know, maneuvered and manipulated
Speaker 4: by you. I'm ready to be held by you. I'm
Speaker 4: ready to be redistributed by you. And I think we're
Speaker 4: really getting a sense of that as we're starting to
Speaker 4: see this entire you know, part of the economy.
Speaker 1: Just descend lives.
Speaker 4: And yeah, like you said, like be in our power,
Speaker 4: and I'm with you. I think we have Fridays back
Speaker 4: that's happening.
Speaker 2: I love that, you know, I think we manifested loose
Speaker 2: even in twenty twenty, because we like someone we really wanted,
Speaker 2: like a witch who also knew about wealth, and like
Speaker 2: that is a very interesting combination to request from the universe.
Speaker 2: And literally that day we got her, and that day
Speaker 2: we recorded with her, literally and like you know, we
Speaker 2: manifest shit really, you know, like easily. But I think
Speaker 2: it's very interesting because when you say, like money is
Speaker 2: calling for like the divine energy and like the feminine
Speaker 2: energy to be held, it's it's interesting because I do
Speaker 2: feel like women are in this time or we're taking
Speaker 2: our power back and standing in our power and like
Speaker 2: healing rapidly and like coming together to each other, and
Speaker 2: there's an awakening happening, and we don't really hear a
Speaker 2: lot of people talk about like women and money and
Speaker 2: like the relationship with money and the energy you have
Speaker 2: with it and how much that really affects how much
Speaker 2: you make and how much you avoid it subconsciously, and like,
Speaker 2: you know, we've all grown very much since since, you know,
Speaker 2: it's like this a rapid growth that's happening. I think
Speaker 2: because we are becoming more in tune with ourselves and
Speaker 2: becoming more empowered, like money is coming to us more easily,
Speaker 2: And I didn't realize until recently, like how much of
Speaker 2: a like the energy I have with money, Like how
Speaker 2: uncomfortable I am with it, Like I've literally had to
Speaker 2: say so many times, like you're safe, You're good, like
Speaker 2: you don't have to like you don't have to fear,
Speaker 2: and like this this like energy that comes up in
Speaker 2: my soul about it is so it is so interesting,
Speaker 2: and I think that we don't pay enough attention to
Speaker 2: that energy and how that like really can stifle how
Speaker 2: easily it comes to you. So like, thank you for
Speaker 2: talking about that and shedding light on that, because I
Speaker 2: think that you know, as like women and like intuitive,
Speaker 2: witchy women, it's important to pay attention to that so
Speaker 2: that we can leverage it more to us without you know,
Speaker 2: avoiding ink and being afraid of it.
Speaker 4: Yeah, you know something really powerful that you just kind
Speaker 4: of brought up. I did this really amazing exercise with money.
Speaker 4: I just held cash one hundred dollars in ones, just
Speaker 4: so I could see like the volume of it, and
Speaker 4: I had an intimate conversation with it that was guided
Speaker 4: by another woman that practices this, and I had to
Speaker 4: like look within and see how I felt towards money,
Speaker 4: and it was so interesting what began to transpire. One
Speaker 4: of the things that came up was like it was
Speaker 4: wrapped up, you know how it comes in the paper,
Speaker 4: and I didn't want to open it, like it was
Speaker 4: like I felt restricted from opening it and letting it loose.
Speaker 1: And then when I finally got to do that, I
Speaker 1: started to feel really angry, like really angry.
Speaker 4: And I started to yell at the money and like
Speaker 4: tell the money like why haven't.
Speaker 1: You been there for me when I needed you? Where
Speaker 1: have you been in?
Speaker 4: What about this time? And when my car broke down?
Speaker 4: And you know, like just I just went through a
Speaker 4: series of events and I realized how that was really
Speaker 4: transpiring with money itself.
Speaker 1: I was angry. I started to throw the money all
Speaker 1: over the room. It got crazy.
Speaker 4: I'm like pissed, and you know, the woman that was
Speaker 4: guiding me said, now, who in your life do you
Speaker 4: feel this same way with?
Speaker 1: Who do you not have access to? Who are you
Speaker 1: not supported by? And I was like my mother, you know,
Speaker 1: my mother.
Speaker 4: And interestingly enough, when I started to really make money,
Speaker 4: like when I started to see so just so we
Speaker 4: can't point of reference. I went from one year making
Speaker 4: fifteen to seventeen thousand in profits for my business, to
Speaker 4: the next making two around two hundred and thirty, to
Speaker 4: the next year making six hundred thousand. So I saw
Speaker 4: money come at me rapidly, like month over month, just
Speaker 4: like come like sweep in. When that pivoted, I had
Speaker 4: a big breakthrough in the relationship with my mom. We
Speaker 4: repaired our relationship, we started communicating, So it was.
Speaker 1: Like mirroring money was mirroring the relationship.
Speaker 2: Yeah, so you made me think of the quest, you know,
Speaker 2: Michelle my body.
Speaker 4: Yeah, so I think with that, you know, I think
Speaker 4: it's important to see how we feel about money intimately
Speaker 4: in that way and then where in our childhood is
Speaker 4: that reflected, because everything is just tied to.
Speaker 2: Of course, I mean I think about like like reflect
Speaker 2: I mean, I think we talked about this on the
Speaker 2: last episode that we did with you. It's like the
Speaker 2: fear that people have around money and like the unlearning
Speaker 2: that we have to do around it. Because I know,
Speaker 2: even for me, this is something that I've worked on
Speaker 2: more and more this year. Is like not saying, oh
Speaker 2: I can't I can't afford that. I can't do that now,
Speaker 2: like I'll get the cheaper one. Like I've been like
Speaker 2: really indulging in the things that I want, and it
Speaker 2: feels and it's helping me learn, Like why am I
Speaker 2: cheapening myself? Why am I of obviously yes, within reason
Speaker 2: of like what I can afford. But if I can
Speaker 2: afford it, why would I buy the other thing that
Speaker 2: I don't really want? Because I feel like that this
Speaker 2: thing is going to like put me in another it's
Speaker 2: going to make me in a deficit of some sort
Speaker 2: or I don't deserve it, you know, or like maybe later.
Speaker 1: Yeah.
Speaker 4: And I think that when we really start to expand
Speaker 4: in that way, like when we make room for luxury
Speaker 4: and we make room for things that are higher quality
Speaker 4: and just better for ourselves overall, the universe always yields.
Speaker 2: Yes, and you like always since I've been spoiling myself,
Speaker 2: like other things have been in my way. Yeah, And
Speaker 2: I think about like where I've really thought about like
Speaker 2: when did this? Where did my fear and money come from?
Speaker 2: Like what was the moment in my life? And it
Speaker 2: definitely was my childhood. I remember there was a time
Speaker 2: like when my mom was going through a really difficult time,
Speaker 2: and I was going to a really prestigious school, and
Speaker 2: I was in school with like a lot of wealthy
Speaker 2: white people, and I wanted like I was like, Mom,
Speaker 2: I want this, I want that. Because I had no
Speaker 2: concept of money, I was like, I want this. Kate's
Speaker 2: Kate's spade bag, Like what the fuck did I knew
Speaker 2: Kate spade bag?
Speaker 1: Everyone else has?
Speaker 2: My mom?
Speaker 1: Like this is school was nuts.
Speaker 2: But these girls were wearing tierras tiaras to school and.
Speaker 1: It was like a sweet six Do you remember that face?
Speaker 1: I don't remember that.
Speaker 2: It feels like a little dainty one.
Speaker 3: Yeah.
Speaker 1: I was a little tr like why, like everyone's a princess?
Speaker 1: I don't know.
Speaker 2: But and there were these things that I was asking for,
Speaker 2: and I remember she was like, Erica, we can't afford it.
Speaker 2: And I'd never heard her say I can't afford it,
Speaker 2: like and I and I like saw like the fear
Speaker 2: in her too, and like the pain of her having
Speaker 2: to tell me that, and I immediately got scared, like
Speaker 2: I started thinking, like it's a are we gonna be
Speaker 2: able to.
Speaker 1: Live in this house anymore?
Speaker 2: She didn't even say all that, but immediately I just
Speaker 2: went into like fear mode. Around money, and because of that,
Speaker 2: I became like throughout that that moment and like the
Speaker 2: moments after that, I became cheap.
Speaker 1: And now even my mom.
Speaker 2: Always says, AKA, you're so cheap, you know, And I'm like, well,
Speaker 2: it was that moment when I was nine and you
Speaker 2: said that, yeah, we could afforded the games paid bag.
Speaker 2: I'm traized, Oh my god, this sounds like for sure
Speaker 2: Valley Girl problems. But no, but that really was a
Speaker 2: defining moment for me. And I realized that when I
Speaker 2: pinpoint that moment, like, well, that was the moment that
Speaker 2: really I became aware of money and like being in
Speaker 2: a deficit of it. And so because of that, I
Speaker 2: always felt like I had to save. I had to
Speaker 2: like I couldn't do this, like that's not that important.
Speaker 2: I'd rather spend money here. And so you know, people listening,
Speaker 2: I encourage you to kind of if you are in
Speaker 2: that deficit mindset money mindset around money, like think about
Speaker 2: one was like that point in your childhood that like
Speaker 2: something shifted for you because children were young, like we
Speaker 2: don't really have a concept of like your life is
Speaker 2: being paid for. I always say, like my daughter's like
Speaker 2: my brokest like roommate she's and it's like you don't
Speaker 2: want them to have a concept of money and you
Speaker 2: don't want them to be like I realized them. I'm like,
Speaker 2: can you Like you're asking for so much stuff, but
Speaker 2: I'm like, also demand what the fuck you want? You know,
Speaker 2: like yeah, you just like if you think you deserve something.
Speaker 2: I'm having to unlearn that as an adult, like yeah,
Speaker 2: I fucking deserve it, and I want and I'll have it,
Speaker 2: you know what I mean, because I've grew up and
Speaker 2: it's like you don't need that, you don't need that,
Speaker 2: Like that's too much. And so now I'm having so
Speaker 2: constantly like I literally hate throwing shit away. I will
Speaker 2: bring all the food home from the table, I will
Speaker 2: throw it away three days later because no one's eating
Speaker 2: that shit. Sometimes I eat it, but it's just like
Speaker 2: like not having enough, you know, Like like I see
Speaker 2: how I see how like I feel about things leaving,
Speaker 2: and I'm like, bitch.
Speaker 1: You know I always make fun of her whatever at
Speaker 1: the dinner tab.
Speaker 2: We were at the dinner table the other night we're leaving,
Speaker 2: we're leaving town, and we're leaving town that night, and
Speaker 2: we had so much food left over and the guy
Speaker 2: was like, do you wanted to go box? And I
Speaker 2: could see her like and I was like, no, we
Speaker 2: don't shoot. I was like, was that hard for you?
Speaker 2: She's like yes, because you know, my family's like someone's starving.
Speaker 2: Someone can use this even so much now, like I
Speaker 2: just bought an expensive pair of shoes or because we're
Speaker 2: telling me buy expensive foot she was wrong time. I'm like,
Speaker 2: it's like the first time it's spent one thousand dollars. Yeah,
Speaker 2: I love that. I'm going to buy him, Like you know,
Speaker 2: I'm bitch, you're thirty four years old. But it's just
Speaker 2: it's interesting, like not even you know, like not feeling
Speaker 2: like you need it, but like if you want it,
Speaker 2: and like just navigating between that space and even feeling
Speaker 2: guilty about it, feeling guilty about my success, like bitch,
Speaker 2: I've worked for this, but feeling like I have been
Speaker 2: in a space where I didn't have it and like
Speaker 2: people didn't support me and I didn't have you know
Speaker 2: what I mean, Like I really didn't have shit, And
Speaker 2: so now I can understand not being able to figure
Speaker 2: it out because it wasn't that long ago. I was
Speaker 2: figuring some shit out recently, we had somebody who is
Speaker 2: a listener of the show who I kind of became
Speaker 2: cool with, like, come at us about like the price
Speaker 2: of our retreat, and it was very unsolicited, and she
Speaker 2: suggested that, like, our demographic is single moms and they
Speaker 2: can't afford that right now, and a it made me
Speaker 2: feel bad and be was like it was not productive,
Speaker 2: and see, it's fucking wrong. Our retreat is cheap because
Speaker 2: we want people to come and afford it, and we
Speaker 2: work really fucking hard and it's like one of a kind,
Speaker 2: life changing, fucking experience and bitch, you've never been, so
Speaker 2: you wouldn't know what to compare it to anyway. But
Speaker 2: it also was like and also you don't know what
Speaker 2: our women are doing, and like women single moms are
Speaker 2: figuring shit out every fucking day. Hence, bitch me the business,
Speaker 2: you know what I mean? Like and you and I
Speaker 2: was just like, how dare you like come at us?
Speaker 2: But also how dare you like suggest that everybody's around
Speaker 2: like struggling, and you know, like obviously it was probably
Speaker 2: a projection in ways, and but I just like, I
Speaker 2: think as we grow, there's always going to be this
Speaker 2: like you know, like this like you're leaving people behind
Speaker 2: type shit, but it's like we all are trying to grow,
Speaker 2: Like that should be the mission for everyone, and it
Speaker 2: shouldn't be uncomfortable to like want that and like want
Speaker 2: your sister and your brother and your friends to like
Speaker 2: level up too. So it is interesting, just like the
Speaker 2: relationship I think from childhood examining that and also how
Speaker 2: you talk. I've while you were talking about this and
Speaker 2: talking about your childhood too, I was thinking about how
Speaker 2: I've only recently really started to like unlearn the ways
Speaker 2: I talk about money, and thinking about how I've already
Speaker 2: talked about money with my daughter and the things that
Speaker 2: she's heard me say are like no, we can't get
Speaker 2: that right now, or like know and like how it's
Speaker 2: my duty now to like make sure that I'm not
Speaker 2: passing on my traumas around money to her.
Speaker 4: I think definitely, And I think it's also not only
Speaker 4: what we say, but I think it's also a lot
Speaker 4: of how we're behaving, like just the energy and the
Speaker 4: thoughts that we have. I think it's great that you're
Speaker 4: picking up on, like you're parenting yourself. You're moving through
Speaker 4: like I feel this scarcity when I'm at the dinner table,
Speaker 4: like catching yourself.
Speaker 1: In those moments, I think is so important.
Speaker 4: The ability to be able to step out of ourselves
Speaker 4: and reflect this is where I need to work on,
Speaker 4: I think is a really crucial part of also showing
Speaker 4: that behavior to our children, whether we're saying.
Speaker 1: It out loud or not.
Speaker 4: I've watched my son grow up in a completely different
Speaker 4: way reflecting the way I feel about money now. Granted
Speaker 4: I still have scarcity, I still have money wounds, money
Speaker 4: traumas that I'm working through, but I'm nowhere near the
Speaker 4: teen mom that I was with my daughter. So I
Speaker 4: can see the stark difference in like her traumas where
Speaker 4: I'm like, fuck as me, I did that, And then
Speaker 4: I can see, you know, the difference with my son
Speaker 4: where he's more in a space of abundance, and you know,
Speaker 4: that contrast also makes me feel guilty like that, why
Speaker 4: didn't I learn faster for my daughter?
Speaker 2: Etc.
Speaker 4: But what I've learned with my son is that it's
Speaker 4: mostly what I'm not saying that he's picking up on
Speaker 4: versus what I am saying. So I think, yes, obviously,
Speaker 4: you know, it's important for us to be conscious mothers
Speaker 4: about how we're talking about money and displaying our relationship.
Speaker 4: But I think a lot of it is what we're
Speaker 4: internalizing as well. That's crucial. I've seen my son has
Speaker 4: he was I'm gonna tell you this really quick story,
Speaker 4: but he was three years old and he's watching this
Speaker 4: wrestling movie for kids and the someone comes in to
Speaker 4: rob a diner. All the kids are at the diner
Speaker 4: and the kids run under the table to hide, and
Speaker 4: the man pretends to have a gun under his shirt
Speaker 4: and it's like holding up the register, and he gets
Speaker 4: so emotional, pauses the movie and I'm like, what's wrong.
Speaker 4: He's like, I just feel so bad? And I thought,
Speaker 4: is it the kids? Is it the person behind the register?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 1: What is it? You know? Never did I think he
Speaker 1: was empathizing with the person that was robbing.
Speaker 4: You know, but that's who he's cancer cancer, Yeah, he
Speaker 4: has a cancer moon. And he's like, he just needs money,
Speaker 4: that's all. He just needs money. And they're all mad
Speaker 4: at him, but he he just needs money. And I
Speaker 4: was like, Okay, so what do you think he should do?
Speaker 1: Well?
Speaker 4: I think he needs to get money and we need
Speaker 4: to teach him where to get money. And I'm like,
Speaker 4: and where do you get money. He's like in the
Speaker 4: stock market. Oh my god, Like.
Speaker 1: Such an easy solution for him.
Speaker 4: But I just it tells me, like, Wow, you're paying attention,
Speaker 4: you're listening, You're you know, it's it's what I'm not
Speaker 4: saying to him that he's picking.
Speaker 1: Up on right.
Speaker 2: No, that's that's amazing. I mean that's really a three
Speaker 2: years old for him to understand that and have that
Speaker 2: empathy and like also know that, like it's so easy,
Speaker 2: like he could get it. Like I love that that
Speaker 2: he already has that ingrained in him and that's going
Speaker 2: to be transformational for him as an adult and not
Speaker 2: having these money wounds and money traumas for sure. You know,
Speaker 2: I was thinking I was thinking about, you know, on
Speaker 2: our last episode, uh loose.
Speaker 1: I don't know if it was.
Speaker 2: On the episode or was later you gave us a message.
Speaker 2: You basically were like, I have a message. I feel it,
Speaker 2: like inclined to tell you something. And you were talking
Speaker 2: about just our bond, me and Jamila's bond, and like,
Speaker 2: I know that you're an intuitive and kind of like
Speaker 2: you just can feel things as many women as we
Speaker 2: do when we're tapped in and you called our union
Speaker 2: kind of an entity, like we had an entity outside
Speaker 2: of just our relationship, our relationship like this third like
Speaker 2: this third entity that is like encompasses all of what
Speaker 2: we're building and all that we're doing. And that conversation
Speaker 2: really transformed our business and transformed our relationship and transformed
Speaker 2: our bond, and like realizing how much we have to
Speaker 2: protect the entity. Yeah, it's like giving her a name,
Speaker 2: like acknowledging her as such, because like we could feel her,
Speaker 2: but when you like put your like when you put
Speaker 2: words to it, I was like, oh oh, and then
Speaker 2: we can refer to her like the entity, our entity,
Speaker 2: like protecting our entity. But yeah, I really did shit
Speaker 2: a lot, Like acknowledging her shifted a lot in our
Speaker 2: business and like even like accelerated our ability to manifest.
Speaker 4: Wow, I feel her, like even just seeing you all
Speaker 4: in person, like your bond. I think what you have
Speaker 4: is so special and it needs to be reflected. That's
Speaker 4: why I think obviously it's important for you all to
Speaker 4: protect her for you all, but I think it's also
Speaker 4: important for you all to protect her for all of us,
Speaker 4: so that we can see what's possible between two women.
Speaker 4: It's so important because I think for many of us.
Speaker 4: Those types of relationships have never been modeled, So you're
Speaker 4: modeling something that's so beautiful.
Speaker 1: I always feel so.
Speaker 4: Intimidated by in a good way when I see you
Speaker 4: all on Instagram or your power. It's just it's it's
Speaker 4: it's what you all do together and your own and
Speaker 4: your own body and your own right, and you open
Speaker 4: up the space to bring me into that, you know,
Speaker 4: And I know I'm not the only one that feels
Speaker 4: like that. I'm sure it's every single room that you
Speaker 4: walk in. So I'm happy to hear that you all
Speaker 4: are here in Dallas and that you all are entering
Speaker 4: rooms where they need to see this entity, like you know,
Speaker 4: I'm here, and because we can feel it, I'm sure
Speaker 4: I'm sure everyone in this room can feel it.
Speaker 1: It's not here speaking for all of us.
Speaker 2: Thank you and thank you for sharing that message, because
Speaker 2: truly it has been transformational and like really helped us
Speaker 2: tap into also trusting our intuition. You know, and I
Speaker 2: know that, like you are an intuitive and I'm just
Speaker 2: curious to know, like I think so many women obviously,
Speaker 2: we all have intuition, and you know, some of us
Speaker 2: trust it more than others. Some of us ignore it
Speaker 2: more than others. Like, what are some ways in which
Speaker 2: that you've been able to kind of just stay stay
Speaker 2: intuitioned with your intuition.
Speaker 4: Yeah, So, I it's funny that you all say I
Speaker 4: use the word entity. That's I think that's how I
Speaker 4: see my intuition. I see it as my higher conscious.
Speaker 4: So I see it as like goddess me. And so
Speaker 4: anytime that I turn my back away from my intuition
Speaker 4: from this energy, everything always goes wrong. And every time
Speaker 4: I just follow it, no matter how scary it is.
Speaker 1: And I think that's that's the hard part.
Speaker 4: Is like we're walking into a space that is unseen, unfelt, untouched, unheard,
Speaker 4: and so you're going into this dark void and every
Speaker 4: step that you take, like the floor lights up, like
Speaker 4: everything shows up for you. You know, the money for
Speaker 4: the bag comes in, Like everything is just like showing
Speaker 4: up as you're walking through this space. But it's dark
Speaker 4: and it's empty, and it's untouched, and it's scary, and
Speaker 4: so we're not used to that. So that entity, that energy,
Speaker 4: that to me, it's like my inner higher self, and
Speaker 4: so I have to make sure that I'm constantly co
Speaker 4: creating with her, constantly like I'm basically like, I bow
Speaker 4: to her, you know, like you tell me where you'd
Speaker 4: have me, go, where you'd have me.
Speaker 1: And that was really hard for me to construct.
Speaker 4: For myself because I did come from a very religious family,
Speaker 4: where before I saw that as like a white man
Speaker 4: in a robe. I'm like, oh, no, this is you,
Speaker 4: this is me, this is us. Yeah, we like, you know,
Speaker 4: this is not so yeah. I think that's what really
Speaker 4: keeps me connected is knowing that I have to honor.
Speaker 4: And that's not to say that I'm perfect with it either,
Speaker 4: because I'm not. I fuck up, you know, I get scared,
Speaker 4: I delay, I get in scarcity, all those things. But
Speaker 4: I also make sure to just parent myself. So in
Speaker 4: addition to paying attention to my intuition in this way,
Speaker 4: I also make sure I connect her to my past
Speaker 4: self and I connect her to my future self. So
Speaker 4: one of the things that I'm practicing right now in
Speaker 4: my life is discipline, and it's disciplined to me, feels
Speaker 4: so masculine, and I think that's why I've rejected did
Speaker 4: it for so long. And I'm not sure if it's
Speaker 4: because I've been in like such a masculine space in
Speaker 4: the last two to three years where I'm really spending
Speaker 4: time with money that I'm having to use like my logic,
Speaker 4: my brain. I started to implement discipline for my business
Speaker 4: and things that I wanted to do, And all that
Speaker 4: means is that I'm staying committed to what I want
Speaker 4: to do. Like future me wants to be have a
Speaker 4: stronger body. Future me wants to be healthier. Present me
Speaker 4: not so ples.
Speaker 2: We're not interested in all.
Speaker 4: That, but I have to make sure I'm staying committed
Speaker 4: to my future self. So I constantly bring in my
Speaker 4: future self, which to me is also a part of
Speaker 4: my intuition to tell me what would you have me
Speaker 4: do today? And my future self will always come in
Speaker 4: and like, thank you so much for working out today.
Speaker 1: I know you didn't want to.
Speaker 4: Do that, but you should see how bomb we are
Speaker 4: a year from now because of what you did today.
Speaker 4: So yeah, that's I just kind of developed a relationship
Speaker 4: as if it was another person. When I'm in here
Speaker 4: in my office by myself, I legit talk to myself
Speaker 4: like bitch, shut the fuck up already, like stop talking ship,
Speaker 4: You're on my fucking nerves. And the ability to do
Speaker 4: that makes me realize like there's really two bitches in.
Speaker 3: My Yeah, I love that. I think more people need
Speaker 3: to do that. I got the amount of shit talking
Speaker 3: that I do is absolutely nuts. I will catch myself.
Speaker 2: I'm like, wow, I've just been talking shit for hours,
Speaker 2: just hours, talking shit, like all the things I didn't do,
Speaker 2: all my fears, not one positive fucking affirmation, And like
Speaker 2: it is important. Sometimes you actually literally have to say
Speaker 2: shit the fuck up. Stop you're making up nuts it
Speaker 2: sometimes like what are you talking?
Speaker 3: Like?
Speaker 1: Are you tired of yourself yet? Are you tired of
Speaker 1: your ship?
Speaker 2: Yeah, you just made up a whole thing that wasn't
Speaker 2: even accurate.
Speaker 1: It's not even true.
Speaker 2: You're a liar basically, like really, like you do, you
Speaker 2: kind of have to like yell at yourself to like
Speaker 2: get out of it. Sometimes. Remember it's really not enough
Speaker 2: to just reason things in your head in your mind.
Speaker 2: I think a lot of times, like you know, when
Speaker 2: we talk about you know, healing and positive affirmations and
Speaker 2: just like this whole space of just trying to elevate
Speaker 2: a lot of it is like you know, this inner
Speaker 2: work and this inner voice. But like I think it's
Speaker 2: so important to say the things out loud and like
Speaker 2: even when you don't mean them, like talking a nice
Speaker 2: to your body, even when you don't feel good about
Speaker 2: your body, because like you literally talk shit all day
Speaker 2: long about shit that isn't true, and eventually you believe it.
Speaker 2: So what if you just talk shit all day long
Speaker 2: in a positive way about things that you feel aren't true,
Speaker 2: eventually you'll believe that too. And it's really it's a
Speaker 2: practice of doing it, and it feels weird and it
Speaker 2: feels awkward, and it feels crazy. Even then someone might
Speaker 2: walk by and be like.
Speaker 1: Is she talking to herself?
Speaker 2: Like she okay, yes, I'm great, she's great. Two entity
Speaker 2: is doing great.
Speaker 1: Now we're all good. All three of us are good
Speaker 1: over here.
Speaker 2: That's true. I think like talking to yourself only in
Speaker 2: your head all the time is just like yeah, you'll
Speaker 2: get in the same cycle. And I just think. I
Speaker 2: think all women have that have intuition, like all children
Speaker 2: are born, like I don't know if you like people have.
Speaker 2: Sometimes I talk to my seven year old, I'm like,
Speaker 2: she got more common sense than a lot of girl
Speaker 2: and ask people that I know, And it's because like
Speaker 2: and just just in tune with things, you know, Like
Speaker 2: I think as children we like we are in tune
Speaker 2: with it and then we lose it. And like Erica
Speaker 2: and I just came off of like two retreats and
Speaker 2: I really peeped that a lot of what we're doing
Speaker 2: is like so powerful, but it's also just like reminding
Speaker 2: women and that messages are everywhere and if you're listening,
Speaker 2: like you can literally get downloads and like have the
Speaker 2: answers to the ship that you need when you're in
Speaker 2: tune with your intuition, which is your real inner voice.
Speaker 2: But you have to be able to differentiate the shiit
Speaker 2: talking and like the goddess you and not separate like
Speaker 2: the fucking divine part of yourself from the human part
Speaker 2: of yourself. And it's like so many magical things happen
Speaker 2: at the retreat. It's like you think that things are small,
Speaker 2: or like ideas come up in your mind because you're
Speaker 2: high or because you're like trippin', but sometimes it's really like,
Speaker 2: you know, even you're talking about the money, the guided
Speaker 2: money experience, people underestimate the most basic things that you
Speaker 2: could do just by putting your intention into some shit,
Speaker 2: you know what I mean, like speaking your truth. Like
Speaker 2: even me and Erica, I think our entity has grown
Speaker 2: tremendously because we're talking into the universe and to the
Speaker 2: sphere honestly, and like it's given us like courage. It's
Speaker 2: like made us rationalize some shit, like let some shit out,
Speaker 2: release some shit, you know. You know, we also wrote
Speaker 2: a book. We were publishing a book next year too,
Speaker 2: and we just turned to thank you, And it took
Speaker 2: forever for us to write because we didn't realize how
Speaker 2: much like in that format we had to get it
Speaker 2: out and had to release it. But like there's so
Speaker 2: many magical things that can happen just from like the
Speaker 2: like alchemy of the things that we have, like water
Speaker 2: the beach, like being clear enough to listen and listen
Speaker 2: to your intuition, like and putting attention behind things, and
Speaker 2: just basically having rituals. I mean, someone might be listening
Speaker 2: and think, you know, you're this kind of experience that
Speaker 2: you had with money. They'll be like what the fuck
Speaker 2: that sounds crazy or like or someone might be listening
Speaker 2: to be like, well I should try that. I think,
Speaker 2: like what you do what works for you, but you
Speaker 2: have to do something. You have to have ritual, You
Speaker 2: have to have intention and be open to all of
Speaker 2: the ways it can come out. Like we do a
Speaker 2: lot of like weird shit the retreat, like we're screaming,
Speaker 2: we're laughing or crying, but like it's exactly what needs
Speaker 2: to happen. It's exactly the type of release and when
Speaker 2: we allow ourselves to like live in that truth and
Speaker 2: kind of like ground down, all the things that you
Speaker 2: need come to you. And even like I was I was,
Speaker 2: I was telling I don't think Erica. During the retreat,
Speaker 2: I was really working on like womb healing. But at
Speaker 2: some point something in my mind was like like I
Speaker 2: was envisioning the like the neuros from my heart shakra
Speaker 2: to my pussy like being re like aligned, like re kindled,
Speaker 2: because I feel like maybe that had been I had
Speaker 2: separated them for a long time. And I just started
Speaker 2: to visualize like little like electric electricity like re like
Speaker 2: remending itself. And I was like, this is a crazy thought.
Speaker 2: And I wasn't high or anything, but I was like,
Speaker 2: but this is what needs to happen, and this is
Speaker 2: how I was thinking of it in my mind and
Speaker 2: visioning it. And I was like, how interesting. But I
Speaker 2: think people underestimate those those strange thoughts, those strange visions,
Speaker 2: those opportunities to have practice, to speak to money, to
Speaker 2: think what makes me feel this way because you know,
Speaker 2: we write it off is crazy or like you know
Speaker 2: what I mean, But like that's your divine feminine, that's
Speaker 2: your intuition showing you what you need to do.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 2: Like I just feel like if we judge ourselves less,
Speaker 2: it's easier to stay in tune with our intuition in ways,
Speaker 2: you know, to observe yourself. So I just, yeah, I
Speaker 2: think be open to all of the ways that it
Speaker 2: can come. Like in her childhood work, you know, going
Speaker 2: back to places in your childhood, like envisioning telling yourself
Speaker 2: it's okay, you know, like comforting yourself as a child,
Speaker 2: to re fucking rehash some shit from like ten to
Speaker 2: twenty years ago that you don't think affects you right now. So, like,
Speaker 2: do you have any like inner child rituals that you do.
Speaker 4: I love rituals. I'm obsessed with rituals. I feel like
Speaker 4: I've been partaking in rituals ever since I was really little,
Speaker 4: and I think that's how I really discovered my inner voice,
Speaker 4: like my intuition and my higher self. I had a
Speaker 4: moment where I was facing abuse as a child in
Speaker 4: a different home during the day at a sitter's house
Speaker 4: and sorry to get dark here. But I would then
Speaker 4: spend the evenings talking to the moon because I didn't
Speaker 4: have anyone to tell.
Speaker 1: I didn't want to share with any one.
Speaker 4: I hadn't shared with anyone until I was an adult,
Speaker 4: and I was in the space speaking to the moon.
Speaker 4: I would speak to her and like, tell her, why
Speaker 4: is this happening to me? When are you going to
Speaker 4: save me? Constantly having that dialogue. I would go into
Speaker 4: the woods after school. We had like a creek, We
Speaker 4: had space there, and I felt like the trees and
Speaker 4: the mud and the water were like asking me to
Speaker 4: do things like move this rock here. So I had
Speaker 4: little rituals like that that I would do, and for me,
Speaker 4: it was it was almost like I was cooking something
Speaker 4: with the forest, you know. So Ever since then, I've
Speaker 4: been practicing just really paying attention to all of the
Speaker 4: elements and allowing for the elements to speak to me.
Speaker 4: Even the tree in front of the house. I would
Speaker 4: go out there and touch it and allow for it
Speaker 4: to speak to me. I get emotional that tree still there,
Speaker 4: Like I get to go visit that tree when I
Speaker 4: go to California and like see it. It's a special
Speaker 4: bond that the tree and I have, you know I do.
Speaker 4: I write my own rituals for the new moon and
Speaker 4: the full moon. I've been known to go out in
Speaker 4: the backyard and bury my intentions, like every intention, as
Speaker 4: if it was a seed, pouring water and mixing it
Speaker 4: into the mud, into the soil bearing it. That's one
Speaker 4: of my favorite things to do. I have bath rituals
Speaker 4: and I really allow for my intuition to guide me
Speaker 4: on what to do.
Speaker 1: I will write out the ritual and.
Speaker 4: So when I used to do a lot of this
Speaker 4: work with women, I would produce like an entire day
Speaker 4: full of rituals that it was just me. It wasn't
Speaker 4: you know, it wasn't an elder. It was like, this
Speaker 4: is something that you have, we all have within us.
Speaker 4: And I feel like, to your point, it's the action.
Speaker 4: It's the speaking it out loud and the like moving
Speaker 4: your body in that space, because yes, the thoughts, I
Speaker 4: feel like it can be convoluted in a lot of noise.
Speaker 4: We could tell ourselves like I am I am this,
Speaker 4: I am powerful, I am deosa. Whatever it is you
Speaker 4: you know, whatever positive affirmations you have, but to actually
Speaker 4: acted out be the didosa, do the ritual that the
Speaker 4: diosa does, that's completely taking it to another level. And
Speaker 4: I think it makes for manifesting, expansion, co creating with
Speaker 4: the universe so much more easier, and also trusting yourself
Speaker 4: and building your relationship to self.
Speaker 1: That I think is really helpful.
Speaker 2: I think, yes, I agree with all those things. I
Speaker 2: think that as for someone that's never done any rituals,
Speaker 2: like this idea can feel kind of overwhelming, like where
Speaker 2: do I start?
Speaker 1: What's the right way? Is there a step by step?
Speaker 2: You know, like because people you see, you look on
Speaker 2: social media, you see on Instagram, you see people in
Speaker 2: their practice, and some of these rituals look very like
Speaker 2: there's like ten steps and you're like holy shit, like
Speaker 2: like and it kind of takes you out of the
Speaker 2: ritual because it doesn't feel genuine to like whatever you need.
Speaker 2: And so I know, for me, like I I've been
Speaker 2: one of those people where I'm like, Okay, let me
Speaker 2: because even when I cook, I'm like, let me look
Speaker 2: on Google step one, step two, step three, And I
Speaker 2: like when I first started doing rituals, I was kind
Speaker 2: of in that space too, and I was like, this
Speaker 2: doesn't feel like genuine to what my spirit is asking
Speaker 2: me to do. So like I think rituals a lot
Speaker 2: of times are really they can be so simple.
Speaker 1: It can literally be you take a bath and you
Speaker 1: put oil in and you just sit there like make
Speaker 1: to the water, like.
Speaker 2: Talk like talk nice to yourself. Because I feel like
Speaker 2: sometimes even like you know, in this month of October,
Speaker 2: we're really focusing on just like tapping into your witchiness,
Speaker 2: and it can feel overwhelming, you know, especially if especially
Speaker 2: depending on like what kind of household you grew up in.
Speaker 2: I mean, I know, like, you know, spirituality in Black
Speaker 2: culture and even in Latin culture, like it's very rich.
Speaker 2: But also I actually feel like in Latin culture it's
Speaker 2: a little bit more accepted, even though there is a
Speaker 2: very like you know, Catholicism is real, like you know God,
Speaker 2: you know, believing in God is is very you know,
Speaker 2: It's like it's being believing in God and Christianity is
Speaker 2: very common in you know, a Latin household.
Speaker 1: However, I do feel like there's.
Speaker 2: So much magical, mystical shiit within Latin culture and same
Speaker 2: with Black people. But for some reason, I feel like
Speaker 2: we are a little bit more disconnected, no for sure.
Speaker 2: And I know you said you grew up in like
Speaker 2: a kind of a religious household, Like.
Speaker 4: Yeah, my mom she was every Sunday at the Catholic
Speaker 4: church and then sometime during the week she was getting
Speaker 4: her cards read by the late.
Speaker 2: H It's like it's usually you know, yeah, And as
Speaker 2: I was gonna say, because like even in my household,
Speaker 2: like the same thing like practicing, like practicing, you know,
Speaker 2: going to church, not not even necessarily like my mother,
Speaker 2: but I think about floor who's like the woman who
Speaker 2: raised me, and she's glutamolin and she's God fearing woman.
Speaker 1: But then she'll be like, take this orange, put across.
Speaker 2: In it, when like if you're going to court, put
Speaker 2: across in it, put some shit, put an onion uner
Speaker 2: your bed, like she got has all these little like
Speaker 2: these little you know, these tools and these rituals per
Speaker 2: se that for some it goes against exactly like this
Speaker 2: this religion, but they still there's still this element of
Speaker 2: like wanting to still feel connected to something else.
Speaker 1: That we were connected to before.
Speaker 2: You know, colonization and white people came in and told
Speaker 2: us who God was to us, And I just found
Speaker 2: that You're right. I found so interesting that, like there's
Speaker 2: this duality that exists.
Speaker 1: Yes, there is.
Speaker 4: This duality, and I feel like obviously a lot of
Speaker 4: it is intuition, right, Like that's staying connected to the
Speaker 4: intuition of the orange or the egg or the all
Speaker 4: those things. I feel like those are intuitive healing modalities.
Speaker 4: I mean, we recently found out that stage actually does
Speaker 4: kill ninety nine percent of bacteria in the air when
Speaker 4: it's burned. Like there's science behind a lot of what's
Speaker 4: taking place, and I feel like that's intuition, Like that's
Speaker 4: higher consciousness saying clean the space, clear the space. So
Speaker 4: I think what I love, what I loved so much
Speaker 4: about going to church was getting to stare at the
Speaker 4: Vidan de Wada Lupe, which she was so powerful, is
Speaker 4: so powerful in how she stands, and I felt like
Speaker 4: she was this road map to who we were internally,
Speaker 4: Like she has the stars, the consolation on her veil,
Speaker 4: she's standing on the moon, like there's so many parts
Speaker 4: of her that are just mysterious and are not necessarily
Speaker 4: tied to like the Bible and Catholic Church. But she
Speaker 4: was also discovered by an indigenous, by an indigenous man
Speaker 4: in Mexico, and so I feel like both of these
Speaker 4: things exist. I think one of the things that I
Speaker 4: really struggled with internally is being the colonie and being
Speaker 4: the colonizer, and that to me was so glaringly apparent
Speaker 4: when my father was much more like close to his
Speaker 4: Spaniard descent, like his last name is very Spaniard, it's
Speaker 4: not found in Mexico, it's very rare.
Speaker 1: And my mom was very like indigenous Indian, closer to
Speaker 1: like her roots.
Speaker 4: And the you know, the earth. And so getting to
Speaker 4: see those stark differences in my parents really created a
Speaker 4: duality within me where I'm having to accept that, you know,
Speaker 4: I'm part Spaniard as well, and like those were my
Speaker 4: fucking ancestors that came over here and fucked it up.
Speaker 1: I can't. I don't get to choose. I don't get
Speaker 1: to choose.
Speaker 4: And so I think that's where that comes from, where
Speaker 4: we can have like one foot in one place and
Speaker 4: like you know what, yeah, yeah, I know.
Speaker 1: It's it's it's interesting.
Speaker 2: And I think that one thing, one thing is true
Speaker 2: about all of it is that.
Speaker 1: I think the idea of.
Speaker 2: It is essentially it's trusting something outside of yourself but
Speaker 2: within you too. I mean, I think religion of it
Speaker 2: oftentimes removes you from you know, self worship and like
Speaker 2: the worship and like people have a lot of take
Speaker 2: a lot of issue with like this idea of self
Speaker 2: devotion and like honoring, like whatever your intuition is calling
Speaker 2: you should do. But then spirituality and whatever it is
Speaker 2: that you believe outside of religion kind of calls you
Speaker 2: back into that space.
Speaker 1: And I believe.
Speaker 2: Probably at its core the idea, maybe not the idea
Speaker 2: of religion, but like the foundation of all of it
Speaker 2: really is about trusting you know, this calling within you
Speaker 2: and this like guided voice within you. And I think
Speaker 2: for women, our intuition is so strong, like no one
Speaker 2: everyone can isn't intuitive essentially like every single person. It's
Speaker 2: just the world and society. Belief systems really start to
Speaker 2: at an early age make you question your power and
Speaker 2: question you know, the things that the messages that you receive.
Speaker 2: And I think the moment that we kind of start
Speaker 2: to really understand that and unpack that and really.
Speaker 1: Question are these my things? Are these my thoughts?
Speaker 2: Like do I actually believe this? Or is this some
Speaker 2: someone programmed me to believe? That I needed to look
Speaker 2: outside of myself to guide me, that I need to
Speaker 2: pray in church to you know, get out of debt,
Speaker 2: like that I need to donate my money to prove
Speaker 2: to God that you know, I'm worthy of that job.
Speaker 3: You know.
Speaker 2: It's like it's so strange the things that we do.
Speaker 2: And it's like, no, girl, Like if you just trust
Speaker 2: yourself and you speak to yourself and have intention behind
Speaker 2: the things that you're doing, creating rituals and creating this
Speaker 2: kind of like energy within yourself and in your household,
Speaker 2: like really, anything is possible. And that's what I've really
Speaker 2: realized in our space is that like there's there's I
Speaker 2: have such little fear and failure at this point, like
Speaker 2: there's literally nothing I can't do. Yeah. Literally, we just
Speaker 2: have this conversation. I'm like, I'm so crazy. It sounds
Speaker 2: so cliche, but like I finally understand when people like
Speaker 2: accept awards and like any like I'm not special, anybody
Speaker 2: could do this. Yeah, we were talking about I was
Speaker 2: like last night, I was like, the Oscar speeches makes
Speaker 2: sense now, it does, I Like I get it.
Speaker 1: I used to be so annoyed, be like like I
Speaker 1: want to.
Speaker 2: Say that from that stage, bitch that it is so.
Speaker 1: Anyone can do this.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you can do this too, but it's truly true.
Speaker 2: Like it's like once you tap into your power and
Speaker 2: you and you and you can like you, you recognize
Speaker 2: how you can like co create with everything around you,
Speaker 2: and you are the alchemy. You are the sauce. Like
Speaker 2: you really there's literally nothing I don't feel like I
Speaker 2: could do, Like we like even early on in our
Speaker 2: relationship in this we're like, it'd be crazy if you
Speaker 2: wrote a book, like you know, I'm like boom, literally
Speaker 2: someone in the email like hey girl, you guys want
Speaker 2: to do this thing, and like what the fuck? But
Speaker 2: realizing just being setting intentions is like truth and setting
Speaker 2: intentions because truth is really what like calls out your alignment.
Speaker 2: Like when you start living in your in like exactly
Speaker 2: who you are without worrying about all the shit, all
Speaker 2: the things the universe will start to come to literally
Speaker 2: layout to your feet. Literally every single fucking thing we've
Speaker 2: asked for we get, including you honestly, like we really do,
Speaker 2: and to the point where it's like we know if
Speaker 2: we want something and we like say it once every
Speaker 2: couple of weeks every month. You know what I mean, like, oh,
Speaker 2: this is gonna happen, Like yep, this is gonna happen,
Speaker 2: you know, And it's just like tucked away, you know,
Speaker 2: even to the point where like maybe things come up
Speaker 2: and then it doesn't go exactly how we want, but
Speaker 2: I'm never in fear that it's not coming back around. Yeah,
Speaker 2: And it's really just like I think people forget to
Speaker 2: I don't know, you have to be willing to change
Speaker 2: your mind, like to grow and to like see the
Speaker 2: world for like your magic for what it is. You
Speaker 2: kind of have to be able to peel back the
Speaker 2: layers and question everything you've ever been taught, Like why
Speaker 2: is it weird if I have a conversation with money
Speaker 2: and start screaming at it. Why do I think that's weird?
Speaker 2: Why am I unwilling to do that? You know what
Speaker 2: I mean? Like just like at the most like basic level,
Speaker 2: like go outside barefoot, yes, you know what I mean,
Speaker 2: Like why is that so strange? Or like white people shit,
Speaker 2: you know what I mean? Like why do we write
Speaker 2: things off so easily? Like bitch, you might need to
Speaker 2: go in the backyard and scream, you know what I mean,
Speaker 2: Like you have to like you know, there's just you
Speaker 2: have to be willing to step outside of the box
Speaker 2: and the norm of what's comfortable and what's normal and
Speaker 2: what you've been taught and really like go to a
Speaker 2: different place, you know, deep in your spirit and your
Speaker 2: soul to like get to be willing to do it.
Speaker 2: You know, I think, I don't know. It's like it's
Speaker 2: magical over here. It's a really magical ass shit. And
Speaker 2: like the more the more we speak on things and
Speaker 2: manifest things, and then we're in Costa Rica with like
Speaker 2: twenty eight new friends and we're all doing witchy shit
Speaker 2: in the jungle and I'm like, I could dream.
Speaker 1: It's a dream.
Speaker 2: I'm like, this is my life. This is a fucking dream.
Speaker 2: While we were talking to the ocean with my new friends,
Speaker 2: like yeah, it's a fucking dream. But you know, especially
Speaker 2: women listening, we all have the power to manipulate energy.
Speaker 2: We all have the power to will the shit that
Speaker 2: we want. We all have the power to have a
Speaker 2: lot of money to be rich. You know, there's more
Speaker 2: than enough of the shit then we need. And like,
Speaker 2: you know, and sometimes you see like privileged people who
Speaker 2: don't have to put a lot of effort and you're
Speaker 2: like so fucking irritated because I've been there, like like
Speaker 2: not talented, just rich. But because they're not worried about money.
Speaker 2: Maybe they've always had it, like they're not worried about it,
Speaker 2: so it's it comes easily. Yeah, and that's like half
Speaker 2: the fucking battle. Yes, it's literally half the battle. Not
Speaker 2: really like not feeling like it's not accessible.
Speaker 4: They're not in scarcity mindset. I think we've grown up
Speaker 4: for many of us, we've grown up so emotionally attached
Speaker 4: to money and in scarcity because that's been activated. We
Speaker 4: can't afford that, you know, and those are just like
Speaker 4: things that we need to deactivate that that scarcity isn't
Speaker 4: activated within wealthy people. That's why they like if they
Speaker 4: lose all their money, guess well, I'll do it again.
Speaker 4: They and multiply it even bigger. Oh and it's really
Speaker 4: just like they learned how to manipulate it. Like I
Speaker 4: literally can see just with my hands, like I like
Speaker 4: to pretend it's like putty.
Speaker 1: I do all kinds of weird shit.
Speaker 2: I did get some petty too. I would give me
Speaker 2: that petty.
Speaker 1: That putty money.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean I love to just like as I'm
Speaker 4: walking like to go refill my glass of water. Like
Speaker 4: every step I take, I act like I'm walking on money.
Speaker 4: Because I took the step, the money showed up. Like
Speaker 4: I like to do all kinds of weird shit like
Speaker 4: that to remind myself that we're supported in the same
Speaker 4: way that, like you mentioned, I can step outside barefoot
Speaker 4: and be supported by the earth and the grass, that
Speaker 4: I can also lean my hand on the tree and
Speaker 4: be supported when I need shade.
Speaker 1: Like everything we want is literally out here for us
Speaker 1: to take.
Speaker 4: We just have to We just have to like build
Speaker 4: the relationship within ourselves to trust that we can take it.
Speaker 2: Trusting yourself first, trusting yourself who you are, what it
Speaker 2: is that you already know, and then everything else conspires
Speaker 2: in your favor, like just trusting in the universe. Then
Speaker 2: the money comes and all the things align, the books
Speaker 2: and the travel and the retreats that you didn't know
Speaker 2: you wanted to be a retreat leader, but now you're
Speaker 2: retreat leader, you know, like the cannabis company, you know,
Speaker 2: like all these things that we're like, oh shit, like
Speaker 2: I can really have it over the fuck I want. Yeah,
Speaker 2: you can, I think too, Like you know when I
Speaker 2: think about money, it does feel like I maybe this
Speaker 2: is definitely the patriarchy too. It feels masculine, like the
Speaker 2: seeking of money and like this like this going out
Speaker 2: and like hunting mentality, and like when you were talking
Speaker 2: earlier at the beginning of this episode about like the
Speaker 2: divine feminine really coming in and like money wanting to
Speaker 2: like be embraced by us and be nurtured by us
Speaker 2: because it's been so mishandled. Yeah, it's been so mishandled,
Speaker 2: and it's like it's time money is ready to be
Speaker 2: embraced by like this softness and like done with in
Speaker 2: more positive and proactive ways. And also thinking about even
Speaker 2: your name on Instagram loose warrior, like this warrior mentality,
Speaker 2: but like still being able to like maintain this softness
Speaker 2: and this like divine feminine about you know who you are,
Speaker 2: and like how do you think that you've been able
Speaker 2: to because you are working and such. You do work
Speaker 2: in such a male dominated industry in space, and you
Speaker 2: do kind of have to have this warrior mentality in
Speaker 2: many ways. But I look at you and I feel
Speaker 2: such softness from you. I feel such femininity from you,
Speaker 2: and like being able to maintain that.
Speaker 1: Don't make me get crazy.
Speaker 4: No, I love this question because there is this part
Speaker 4: of me that does feel like the hunting. I do
Speaker 4: sense that a lot like the hunting. But when I
Speaker 4: look at that space, I think, for me, the way
Speaker 4: I look at money is more like seeds and planting growth.
Speaker 4: So I feel like that's what it's asking for versus
Speaker 4: like the killing for it, like the loss of lives
Speaker 4: for it. I see it like I don't want to
Speaker 4: be that anymore. This is what I want to be,
Speaker 4: and so I think that's what it's like for it
Speaker 4: to be tended by us. But don't get me wrong,
Speaker 4: I feel like there's definitely this warrior side that will
Speaker 4: come out of me in the same way that we
Speaker 4: protect our children, and we will like like I just
Speaker 4: see like chanting and like exactly, like don't don't follow
Speaker 4: mama bear.
Speaker 1: Yeah exactly.
Speaker 4: So I can when I when that needs to come out,
Speaker 4: I'm I'm here for it. I can bring that out.
Speaker 4: But I think for the most part, I like to
Speaker 4: look at it as seeds and planting and not necessarily
Speaker 4: killing and hurting.
Speaker 2: M That's such a beautiful way of looking at it
Speaker 2: because I think people when they think about money, it
Speaker 2: feels like you have to take it from some someone
Speaker 2: else in order to get it, Like there's not like
Speaker 2: this big pot of like seeds growing. It's like, well,
Speaker 2: if she has it, then I need to take it
Speaker 2: from her, or like he has it, Like there's this
Speaker 2: this it is like this whole scarcity mentality around it
Speaker 2: that also does feel like.
Speaker 1: Masculine way scarc mentality even the hunting of it.
Speaker 2: So I know, but I think people forget like we're
Speaker 2: all both right, like sure feminine, but like when I
Speaker 2: envision like divine feminine, I do envision like a goddess
Speaker 2: and like I'm working on that, like speaking like I
Speaker 2: am soft and feminine ways, but like I also cut you,
Speaker 2: but you know what I mean. But like and also
Speaker 2: like letting people do shit for me like that in
Speaker 2: like allowing it to happen, like yeah, can you pick
Speaker 2: that up? Like I'm not even going to pretend so
Speaker 2: go for my wallet. I'm not going to pretend to
Speaker 2: go pick that up because I shouldn't have to. But
Speaker 2: also like when I think of the feminine energy, I
Speaker 2: do think of mama bear, like any mother will fucking
Speaker 2: kill you about her child, and no one will ever
Speaker 2: forget that, you know what I mean. So it's like
Speaker 2: it's like the water, Like the water is gentle and
Speaker 2: soft and will float you, but that motherfucker will take
Speaker 2: you out quickly, and like my feminine energy is both
Speaker 2: you know what I mean. So it's just like trusting
Speaker 2: your intuition also when you have to go into that
Speaker 2: mode and like shape shift.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, yeah, like being primal is like kind of
Speaker 4: powerful too.
Speaker 2: I got them this massage by Maxwell and Costa Rica.
Speaker 2: He's like, do you do you growl in the morning.
Speaker 2: I was like, no, not necessarily in the morning, but
Speaker 2: I'll work on that. Yeah, growl from your girl, from
Speaker 2: your stomach. He's like, from your chest, from your stomach
Speaker 2: every day. He's like, have you growled this morning? I'm like, now,
Speaker 2: I'm gonna go do it now. But yeah, I liked
Speaker 2: tapping into your primal side. Is I think necessary too?
Speaker 1: Well? Oh you know what we didn't do an affirmation?
Speaker 2: Oh yeah, you have an affirmation? Did I tell you this?
Speaker 1: Yeah, we didn't really tell you. Sorry, surprise we do.
Speaker 2: We usually open up our show with an affirmation or
Speaker 2: we do it at the end and do you haven't
Speaker 2: any affirmations maybe that like you, that help motivate you
Speaker 2: or that you live by.
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean, I'm looking at one right now, so
Speaker 4: I'm going to go ahead and share the one that's
Speaker 4: in my office since we're here. Money is not my supply.
Speaker 4: No person, place, or condition is my supply. So that's
Speaker 4: an affirmation that I took from someone else that was
Speaker 4: written in.
Speaker 1: An old book. But I really like it.
Speaker 4: Because it reminds me that money isn't a piece of
Speaker 4: a pie. Money isn't something I take away from someone else.
Speaker 4: Money isn't something that because I have it, someone else
Speaker 4: can't have it. Money is just something that we use
Speaker 4: as a tool. It doesn't even have to come from
Speaker 4: someone else or a paycheck or anything like that. It's
Speaker 4: something that I can generate, I can bring in, I
Speaker 4: can create, like.
Speaker 1: Who's writing the check, Who created the money.
Speaker 4: From the person that wrote the check, you know what
Speaker 4: I mean. So it just really grounds me and reminds
Speaker 4: me that I don't need to be dependent on my
Speaker 4: condition or situation that I'm going through. That I just
Speaker 4: need to be dependent on my higher consciousness. And my
Speaker 4: higher consciousness is everything. It's literally connected to everything. So
Speaker 4: whatever I need. It's going to make sure that it
Speaker 4: filters over to me, and the way it filters over
Speaker 4: to me is none of my business.
Speaker 2: Amen. No money is not my supply. No person, place,
Speaker 2: or condition is my supply. I generate the money.
Speaker 1: I love that. I love that. So at the beginning
Speaker 1: of the show, Loose pulled a card.
Speaker 2: She pulled the four of ones. We have a deck
Speaker 2: like this, but it's the Mahogany writer deck. So the
Speaker 2: four of Wands is upright. Is the celebration. It represents celebration, joy, harmony, relaxation, homecoming.
Speaker 2: The four of Wands shows two happy people dancing and
Speaker 2: celebrating with flowers in their hands in the foreground of
Speaker 2: beautiful wreath abounding with blossoms and grapes to spend between
Speaker 2: the wands together. These elements represent the joy and satisfaction
Speaker 2: that comes with achieving an important goal or milestone. The
Speaker 2: four of Wands is a card of joyful celebration, blissful happiness,
Speaker 2: and appreciation for the good things in life. When this
Speaker 2: card appears in a tarot reading, it is a perfect
Speaker 2: time to celebrate with those you love most. You may
Speaker 2: commemorate a significant event or milestone, such as a wedding, birthday,
Speaker 2: homecoming reunion, or may invite an in a few of
Speaker 2: your favorite friends over for an intimate dinner. Hey girl,
Speaker 2: intimate dinner for no particular reason except to revel in
Speaker 2: each other's company, Relax and let your hair hair down,
Speaker 2: enjoy the special time together. Because the four of want
Speaker 2: associates so closely with home environment, you may work on
Speaker 2: improving or renovating your house or are close to finding
Speaker 2: a new one. Perhaps you recently purchased a home or
Speaker 2: are getting ready to settle down in your new habitat.
Speaker 2: In numerology, for symbolizes stability and firm foundations, and with
Speaker 2: the four of wands, you are now enjoying a period
Speaker 2: of happiness and security. This card indicates a sense of
Speaker 2: harmony and balance as well as completion and those and
Speaker 2: thus denotes a time of peace and contentment in life
Speaker 2: that comes as.
Speaker 1: A result of hard fought efforts.
Speaker 2: With that being said, ladies, i'd like to say congratulations
Speaker 2: on your first published book.
Speaker 4: Yes huge, Yes, yeah, it's important I think for us
Speaker 4: to reflect that that's easy, Yeah, you can do it too,
Speaker 4: yeah yeah, and that you should.
Speaker 1: Enjoy the fruits of your labor. You deserve those thousand dollars.
Speaker 2: Is my love just seppies. Yeah, I'm gonna buy your
Speaker 2: Kate's page just for old times.
Speaker 1: I don't want Kate.
Speaker 2: I'm good. I'm gonna buy the cutest Kate sat.
Speaker 3: No.
Speaker 2: I think that card really does resonate, especially with just
Speaker 2: this idea. Yeah, like celebrating the things you have and
Speaker 2: not cutting like you know, selling yourself short and enjoying
Speaker 2: the fruits of your labor and enjoying the people around
Speaker 2: you too that feel good to you.
Speaker 4: Yeah, yeah, and that we deserve it, you deserve. However
Speaker 4: much money is coming in from the retreat, the women
Speaker 4: that are putting pouring the money into the retreat, they
Speaker 4: deserve to have space made for them in this way.
Speaker 4: They deserve everything they receive in that space. Like it's
Speaker 4: not limited to it doesn't mean it doesn't mean good,
Speaker 4: and it doesn't mean bad.
Speaker 1: It means that this is the.
Speaker 4: Law of the land and we are all welcome to
Speaker 4: receive and give and sew into Yeah.
Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, absolutely, And there's more than enough of wealth
Speaker 2: and abundance for everyone, Like there is no limit, that's
Speaker 2: literally limitless. We all have the ability to tap into
Speaker 2: that because it's infinite yep and infinite well of the
Speaker 2: things that I need and want. Well, Louce, thank you
Speaker 2: so much for coming on our show, and you guys
Speaker 2: please make sure you go check out loose tell the
Speaker 2: people where they can find you.
Speaker 4: You can find me at Lou's Warrior on Instagram, and
Speaker 4: you can find our community at in Louse we Trust
Speaker 4: on Instagram. Thank you, Thank you for coming all the
Speaker 4: way over here in my space. I appreciate having your
Speaker 4: energy here. It's an honor. Thank you truly.
Speaker 2: I'm so happy to meet you in person.
Speaker 1: Yes, I'm grateful to it. I'm like, oh my god,
Speaker 1: I'm finally behind the infamous crown that I always see
Speaker 1: on our Page's so cute, I know, I love it.
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