Speaker 1: Misspelling with Tory spelling an iHeartRadio podcast.
Speaker 2: Would celebrities come over and go swimming?
Speaker 1: Definitely at the house the BM House. Celebrities came over
Speaker 1: and not only when swimming, but always played tennis doubles
Speaker 1: with my parents.
Speaker 2: Ennis in their whites. It feels like, I hate to
Speaker 2: say this, it feels like the BM House was the
Speaker 2: better house. Feels like it.
Speaker 1: Was more fun, it had more in his heyday then, Yeah,
Speaker 1: so they entertained a lot more. And it's odd because
Speaker 1: you would have thought with this amazing huge house they
Speaker 1: would have entertained more at the manor, but they didn't.
Speaker 1: But I think he was getting older and wanted to.
Speaker 2: Just just he wanted to just be at home and
Speaker 2: do his thing. Yeah, whoa bathrooms? Now, say you were downstairs,
Speaker 2: yes dinner and had to go to the bathroom. Would
Speaker 2: you go to the nearest bathroom or would you go
Speaker 2: like up to your bathroom upstairs?
Speaker 1: Well, considering that would take a real long time and
Speaker 1: you miss out on half the meal. If you went upstairs,
Speaker 1: you have to for the elevator to come down, get
Speaker 1: you go upstairs, walk halfway walk up the stairs. I
Speaker 1: never did that.
Speaker 2: You took the elevator like all the time. Yeah, did
Speaker 2: it ever get stuck?
Speaker 1: No? Never, No, And my mom said like they were
Speaker 1: dynasty staircase and like.
Speaker 2: I would love the stairs. Yeah.
Speaker 1: She would always say these double sided staircase, like I
Speaker 1: created it to have you walk down and get married.
Speaker 2: Did you do that? Which will be a later episode,
Speaker 2: But did you do that?
Speaker 1: No?
Speaker 2: We had it at the manner did it outside?
Speaker 1: But by then I think my dad was so old
Speaker 1: they couldn't walk down the stairs so well, so we
Speaker 1: just had him walk out because that in itself was
Speaker 1: a long walk.
Speaker 2: So was there a bathroom right near the dining room?
Speaker 1: There are bathrooms all over We should google how many
Speaker 1: bathrooms there was a lot, but she always had a
Speaker 1: meta room, a women's room. No, yeah, and there was
Speaker 1: always my mom huge collector, not a hoarder like me,
Speaker 1: collector because she's not messy like me. But she I
Speaker 1: started my collections because of my mom. But in like
Speaker 1: the women's powder room, the guest bathroom there was like
Speaker 1: the Limos collection would be oh.
Speaker 2: I know emoj okay of course, so was there there
Speaker 2: was no potty that had multiple potties. They were still
Speaker 2: like powder rooms.
Speaker 1: The men's as the day.
Speaker 2: I raised, a day in my life so guests could
Speaker 2: come over and they could do a poopy and then bums.
Speaker 1: I want to and then gold embossed. I cannot napkins
Speaker 1: like hand towels. I was going to ask that paper
Speaker 1: very high quality paper belling.
Speaker 2: Did they say, what do they say?
Speaker 1: The manner? Golden boss?
Speaker 2: No? Stop it. They actually said the manner.
Speaker 1: Most things had at the house Prior to that, it
Speaker 1: was always my parents' monogram.
Speaker 2: Yeah, is that like A with the C with the
Speaker 2: S in the middle.
Speaker 1: So I think, but I don't think so. I think
Speaker 1: it is the proper way. At least I heard from
Speaker 1: my mom that the C comes first the S and
Speaker 1: then the A.
Speaker 2: And then the sure sure sure sure no female, no idea.
Speaker 1: Husband like wife husband. Okay, yeah, that was embossed everywhere.
Speaker 1: But once the manor came, there were no pads in
Speaker 1: the manor. I about the pens. This was stolen from
Speaker 1: the manner.
Speaker 2: There was pens. Wait, I forgot about this.
Speaker 1: Yeah, there were pens.
Speaker 2: Manor pens.
Speaker 1: Yeah it was there a man or, notepaper, manor the
Speaker 1: pen said this was stolen from the manor.
Speaker 2: Oh that's very funny. You should look at on basically,
Speaker 2: we need to find those.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, and then notepads. We had no pads in
Speaker 1: every room, like the leather bound just like at a
Speaker 1: hotel you would open it up, you could rip it off,
Speaker 1: it said the man or man or manner.
Speaker 2: Do you think you could have named every staff member
Speaker 2: like you knew them all by name?
Speaker 1: It did? Then? Yeah, whoa, Yeah, it was like family
Speaker 1: to me.
Speaker 2: Was there a spelling soap? Like would you have special
Speaker 2: soap that had an S on it or something? Oh?
Speaker 1: No, it's a good like her own blend. That's a
Speaker 1: good idea. You should bring that to my mom. It's
Speaker 1: a good business.
Speaker 2: And sauma. Was there a sauna in the house? Sauna?
Speaker 2: It was sort of the time of the sauna. It
Speaker 2: was the sauna ear.
Speaker 1: Oh yeah, steam rooms weren't a thing yet, remember like
Speaker 1: it would be steam showering.
Speaker 2: Steam room was probably feels eighties, but saunas were around.
Speaker 1: Yeah, saunas were like my dad would always take a
Speaker 1: sna when I was young, and I was like, oh,
Speaker 1: that's so cool. But wait, have I told you about
Speaker 1: the Andy Warhol paintings that he did?
Speaker 2: And my mom familiar with tell us again, so my.
Speaker 1: Mom is a collector of fine art. I told you
Speaker 1: when Wren because of like Monaise like, she was, yeah,
Speaker 1: very very into arto. But then Andy Warhol had contacted
Speaker 1: her at one point and was fascinated with her and said,
Speaker 1: is in the eighties, I would love to come over
Speaker 1: and do a photo shoot. And while she knew of
Speaker 1: him and respected him and appreciated him, it wasn't her
Speaker 1: type of art now right, So I think every one
Speaker 1: of her friends, especially her gay friends, were like, are
Speaker 1: you kidding? You have to say, Anti World's going to
Speaker 1: come to your house. This is legendary. So she said yes.
Speaker 1: It's still to this day one of my favorite photos
Speaker 1: of my mom. She looks sourgeous in the photo. But
Speaker 1: he did the photos and there's four of them, and
Speaker 1: possibly just like he does in the colors, those pop
Speaker 1: art colors. And he sent him and at first she
Speaker 1: had him in our pre manor house, going down the
Speaker 1: stairs in the projection room, which is really like our
Speaker 1: living room, going down the stairs into the arcade. And
Speaker 1: then when we went to the manor, she had them
Speaker 1: in the poolhouse room. Oh way, I know, because it
Speaker 1: just wasn't her thing. But of course when.
Speaker 2: I had friends though.
Speaker 1: Yeah, it was cool. Well, but because I always when
Speaker 1: my friends would come over, they'd be like they weren't
Speaker 1: into like all that type of art. I'd be like,
Speaker 1: there's you know in my twenties once I was yeah,
Speaker 1: we were more more cultured. I was like, my mom
Speaker 1: is Andy Warl's They're like where, Oh my god, we
Speaker 1: got to see? Wow. I always took my friends the
Speaker 1: air to show them that I.
Speaker 2: Would want to hang out at that point, I, yeah,
Speaker 2: where are they? Does your mom have no? Oh my gosh, what.
Speaker 1: They're not in the Manner in the Sky. I wonder
Speaker 1: if they're either in storage or she gave them or
Speaker 1: donated them. I don't know those.
Speaker 2: You call it the Manner and Sky her place. Oh
Speaker 2: that's a good name.
Speaker 1: Yeah, that's what it's name because it's a mini version
Speaker 1: of the Manner in the Sky.
Speaker 2: Oh oh my god. So okay, here's my other question.
Speaker 2: I always wondered because I kind of want to talk
Speaker 2: about Randy, Like, do you think Randy loved this house
Speaker 2: and loved living there? I know we need to ask him,
Speaker 2: but like he really grew up there.
Speaker 1: His experiences, Yeah, he grew up there is way different
Speaker 1: than mine totally. But I'm sure there's a lot of
Speaker 1: the same feelings, so we should talk to him about that.
Speaker 1: It would be fair.
Speaker 2: I don't think he'll be his numb. He's a little
Speaker 2: more in touch with his feelings than you are.
Speaker 1: You think completely good for him. I'm like, let someone it,
Speaker 1: let me your brother help you.
Speaker 2: He's so good at that.
Speaker 1: The funny thing is he constantly offers advice, and I'm like,
Speaker 1: I feel so guilty. I'm like, dude, you do this
Speaker 1: for a living. You work all day long as in
Speaker 1: here your kids and your wife. You don't want to
Speaker 1: be giving.
Speaker 2: You're truly very good as a life coach.
Speaker 1: He's really good mine.
Speaker 2: But I also have a great therapist for you. I
Speaker 2: do think you need one, But that's another episode. Could
Speaker 2: your brother, especially or you, but especially since your brother
Speaker 2: because he couldn't drive, could he just walk out and
Speaker 2: would there be like a limo? Could he say, like
Speaker 2: take me to Cuckaroo? I don't know the limo driver?
Speaker 2: Or did he have to get like permission, like we
Speaker 2: have to can Bob take me to Cuckaroo? Yeah?
Speaker 1: Okay, so you'd have to ask Oh my gosh, we
Speaker 1: hadn't I think it's it's different like back then. People
Speaker 1: think like when we even when we were like eighteen or
Speaker 1: twenty going out, like well, my I was different. I'd
Speaker 1: moved out and had my own money and everything. But
Speaker 1: our dad like never just gave us a credit card
Speaker 1: and said like great, you know at eighteen, like let
Speaker 1: a limo driver cruise everywhere. Like it wasn't like that.
Speaker 1: I think people assume that that, you know, they see others.
Speaker 1: I don't very wealthy families and their kids are just
Speaker 1: doing whatever. Like we had friends pick us up. We
Speaker 1: went and we had, you know, our money that we
Speaker 1: had saved and like it we didn't have.
Speaker 2: The other vision is like one of your friends, for
Speaker 2: like Westlake in their Honda Civic pulling up into the
Speaker 2: manor to pick you up, which I'm sure happened, you
Speaker 2: know what I mean, Like they're like old wagon ear
Speaker 2: pulling in to pick you up.
Speaker 1: In this grown we had a station wagon like an Oldsmobile. Wait,
Speaker 1: should we picture like the Brady Bunch station went.
Speaker 2: Liker seventies we had like the we saw the wood
Speaker 2: paneling but it was.
Speaker 1: Yeah more eighties, yeah, okay, yeah, we had that and
Speaker 1: that was the car that nanny drove us around in.
Speaker 2: Do you call your nanny nanny?
Speaker 1: Her real name is Margaret, And yeah, Hattie's middle name
Speaker 1: is Margaret, named after her because she was definitely a
Speaker 1: second mother to me. But I didn't know. I grew
Speaker 1: up not thinking that was like a name of a
Speaker 1: position of a staff member.
Speaker 2: Like it was like, my name was nanny, nanny.
Speaker 1: My hopes and dreams were crushed when someone one day
Speaker 1: was like I was like, oh, let me ask nanny
Speaker 1: and they're like, you're nanny. I'm like, no, nanny, let
Speaker 1: me ask her if I can go do that and
Speaker 1: they're like, what do you mean? You know that means
Speaker 1: she takes care of you. Nanny is a word, and
Speaker 1: they like showed me and I was like in the
Speaker 1: pages or something, nanny used to go or something, and
Speaker 1: it like broke my heart and I was like, that's
Speaker 1: not her name, her real name's not nanny.
Speaker 2: It'll be like she was your nanny to you. So
Speaker 2: you fifteen nanny. Well, are any of the nanny is alive?
Speaker 1: I think Nellia, who is my brother's nanny, is still alive. Yeah?
Speaker 2: WHOA Well, Okay, so are you feeling now, like do
Speaker 2: you have any more feelings, just as we've been having
Speaker 2: this conversation.
Speaker 1: If I feel happy right now, yeah, I feel.
Speaker 2: How do you feel about the manner?
Speaker 1: I feel happier about it right now because all these
Speaker 1: memories are coming back as you're talking me through it,
Speaker 1: and it's not just like the place my dad died
Speaker 1: and stuff. It's like, oh, there were some fun all
Speaker 1: these fun times and fun things.
Speaker 2: Oh.
Speaker 1: I mean, we can't get to this episode, but the
Speaker 1: next one the Prince Charles party, Like, oh my gosh.
Speaker 2: Okay, so that's a perfect way this episode the next
Speaker 2: when we do the next dig because I still have
Speaker 2: like a whole I didn't even get to page two.
Speaker 2: I haven't even gotten to my song.
Speaker 1: The only time he came to la and the only
Speaker 1: place that he had the biggest party ever, like in
Speaker 1: the States, was at the Manor, and it was the
Speaker 1: only party she ever threw at the Manor was for
Speaker 1: Prince Charles.
Speaker 2: Okay, so I definitely want to hear all about that.
Speaker 2: And as we leave you, I want you to think
Speaker 2: about one one question and you can answer it now,
Speaker 2: or you can answer it when we do our next
Speaker 2: next one. We'll do it in the next one. But really,
Speaker 2: think about this. If money was no object, So money
Speaker 2: is no object. You have a billion dollars right, like
Speaker 2: money is no object. I would love to know what
Speaker 2: is your dream house? Is it the manor now? Is
Speaker 2: it something like that? Is it the house before the
Speaker 2: manor is it even smaller than that? What is your dream?
Speaker 1: My dreams have changed since. I mean I used to
Speaker 1: believe in fairy tales and believe I really wanted the
Speaker 1: white picket fence. It was all, yeah, I don't know,
Speaker 1: I don't know about that anymore. I mean, it's definitely
Speaker 1: a sizeable house because I want my kids. I do
Speaker 1: have five kids. Those are fasts. So if I had
Speaker 1: my dream house, i'd want I'd really want one big
Speaker 1: ass room that I could have a bed big enough
Speaker 1: and they make them now where on certain nights, movie nights,
Speaker 1: like all my kids and I could sleep in one
Speaker 1: bed and watch a movie and fall asleep together. That
Speaker 1: would be really fun. Yeah, I mean, I definitely I
Speaker 1: always wanted like the idea of like a lazy Susan
Speaker 1: or a Benny Hanna type thing, but it would be
Speaker 1: like or like a rotating like rotating a rotating kitchen,
Speaker 1: just for me that I can make food for my kids.
Speaker 1: So we could all be and it would just be
Speaker 1: on a conveyor, but it would go and we could
Speaker 1: all interact and not have to like not yeah.
Speaker 2: Bigger kitchen so that everybody could be in there, because
Speaker 2: that's like the heart of the home.
Speaker 1: That's our happy place is Yeah, my kids and I
Speaker 1: we could and we bake and we talk, and we dance,
Speaker 1: and we sing and we watch movies. It's all kind
Speaker 1: of in the kitchen and extension of the kitchen in
Speaker 1: like a big room.
Speaker 2: That was all when you bought that house from NICKI
Speaker 2: didn't you buy a house from Nikki?
Speaker 1: That was a good house, That was a great house.
Speaker 1: I had a little shame with that house because so why,
Speaker 1: I mean I had worked my butt off to be
Speaker 1: able to afford a house like that. You know, nothing
Speaker 1: was given to me, and you get somewhere deep down
Speaker 1: when people would come there, I'd be like, oh, are
Speaker 1: they still thinking like oh this is her version of
Speaker 1: the manner in the ballet, Like oh, she's rich.
Speaker 2: Like you thought it was too big. It wasn't that
Speaker 2: big of a house. That was a pretty that would
Speaker 2: be a nice house for you.
Speaker 1: Now, Yeah, it was like just under I think seven
Speaker 1: thousand square felt it had six bedrooms, so it would
Speaker 1: have been perfect. Yeah, yeah, I don't believe in regrets.
Speaker 1: I regret selling that house because I was looking for
Speaker 1: something that I wasn't finding and I thought if we
Speaker 1: kept moving, maybe memories would go away and we would
Speaker 1: start a new family. But it was our relationship, you know.
Speaker 1: So yeah, I should have kept that house.
Speaker 2: That's it. Yeah, I think you want like it's interesting
Speaker 2: because the vibe I'm getting is you don't want the manor.
Speaker 1: Oh never, that's not unless. I mean I do envision
Speaker 1: being able to take care of my kids and their
Speaker 1: kids one day, sure, and would love nothing more than
Speaker 1: like a compound.
Speaker 2: Where there's like a house with a guest house with.
Speaker 1: Like ye so much. And I know it's not in
Speaker 1: La or it can't be, but like a compound where
Speaker 1: it's like acres and acres and we could each have
Speaker 1: a house with the juds.
Speaker 2: Winona had that, remember Winona and Ashley and I and
Speaker 2: their mom all had that. They had like three houses
Speaker 2: on one big piece of property.
Speaker 3: I don't want to speak at school because kind of
Speaker 3: do that being in hidden hills, you know, so it
Speaker 3: would you know if they could just walk to each
Speaker 3: other's houses, that it would be a version of that,
Speaker 3: because that's my dream because for me, family is everything.
Speaker 1: So once they've left the nest and I want them
Speaker 1: to I want them to fly. It's sore, but I
Speaker 1: want I still want to be there with them. I
Speaker 1: don't want. I would love to all be nearby and
Speaker 1: be able to see each other daily.
Speaker 2: You know.
Speaker 1: So yeah, that's my dream of compound on my terms.
Speaker 2: Like despite what we kind of talked about, it's like
Speaker 2: your parents did instill family into you. Even if your
Speaker 2: family was like a little different or more proper whatever,
Speaker 2: that's definitely you get that from them. So family. You
Speaker 2: must have grown up with family being number one.
Speaker 1: They did instill family. Our family is very different, but
Speaker 1: we did have We were all we were very close
Speaker 1: and we did things and yeah, you're right. I think
Speaker 1: as I got older and learned that it was different
Speaker 1: and I always felt like people were looking on us weird.
Speaker 1: Our version was, yeah, we were very close and I
Speaker 1: loved those silly you know. I still remember I loved
Speaker 1: our beach house, which we can talk about at some point,
Speaker 1: because the beach house was my perfect home because it
Speaker 1: was smaller, it was cozier. We didn't now everything together
Speaker 1: in Malibu.
Speaker 2: Oh, stay tuned for this episode because on a.
Speaker 1: Weekend, Oh my gosh, on a weekend we go out
Speaker 1: and get pizza and like go to Swenson's of course,
Speaker 1: and we would have oh my god, I remember an
Speaker 1: ice cream fight my brother and my mom and I
Speaker 1: had at Swenson's that was like iconic. And my mom
Speaker 1: I love when she does this. She's like me, if
Speaker 1: you like, get her silly and giggly and she laughs.
Speaker 1: She will laugh so hard that she cries, and that's
Speaker 1: the sweet spot. I'm just like, there she is, and
Speaker 1: I do that. You know, we're both similar in the
Speaker 1: fact that we don't show emotions, we don't access our emotions.
Speaker 1: But if you like really tap into that little kid
Speaker 1: in us, we both are the same.
Speaker 2: I love this conversations we have, like I mean, like
Speaker 2: I said, I have a lot more to learn, but
Speaker 2: love it. Is it weird that the Manners for Sale.
Speaker 2: I can't remember if we talked about that the last time.
Speaker 2: The Manners for Sale.
Speaker 1: I know, but it's not the first time sold a
Speaker 1: few times, right, Yeah, I mean it was wild for
Speaker 1: me to see how the manor was completely redone. Yeah,
Speaker 1: when Egglestein bought it, like it became very modern and
Speaker 1: it went from light colors to black and she did
Speaker 1: a great job. But it's just so drastically different, and
Speaker 1: it's like wow, wow, Like that was a double staircase.
Speaker 1: It was like not cream and carpet anymore. And yeah,
Speaker 1: laugh and moderate and it's like wow. But I don't
Speaker 1: know what it looks like now. I haven't seen it,
Speaker 1: so I don't know if the last owner redid it
Speaker 1: except for sale murder when the room went around. Remember
Speaker 1: when the rumor went around that Ben and Jal we're
Speaker 1: going to buy it.
Speaker 2: My gosh, that would have been crazy, so expensive. I mean,
Speaker 2: like it's a very particular person that can buy that house,
Speaker 2: because we're not just talking about your average movie starck.
Speaker 1: Really, I mean I would love to. I mean, this
Speaker 1: is a show. If someone wants to fund it and
Speaker 1: buy that house, I would turn it into the most modern,
Speaker 1: cool badass like like airbnban, Oh my gosh, Breakfast, Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean Bed and Breakfast.
Speaker 2: It's the size of the most hotel.
Speaker 1: Inactive experiences and make it family because I feel like
Speaker 1: Bed and Breakfast aren't really for families. But it's so
Speaker 1: big that you can have like a wing where like
Speaker 1: there's kids stuff in, the kids down and then an
Speaker 1: adult side, you know.
Speaker 2: I mean, I don't know the square footage of the
Speaker 2: Beverly Hills Hotel, but like, I don't think this is
Speaker 2: that much. This might be the same. I don't know,
Speaker 2: I have to fact check, but like that your house
Speaker 2: is crazy.
Speaker 1: Have I could think of such great ideas. It could
Speaker 1: be one of the coolest destinations and think about it,
Speaker 1: like it would be even more iconic for fans to
Speaker 1: be like, hey, I'm going to go check in this hotel.
Speaker 1: That's super cool. But also it's owned by Tory Spelling
Speaker 1: and legendary Aaron Spelling. It was his house, Like I
Speaker 1: don't know.
Speaker 2: If back how it was when you guys have so
Speaker 2: we do funding for this, Yeah, we only need two
Speaker 2: hundred million dollars.
Speaker 1: Maybe maybe in the next decade it'll be a new era.
Speaker 1: My kid will be running it.
Speaker 2: The conversation continues, But I hope you're feeling I feel
Speaker 2: good good.
Speaker 1: Thank you.
Speaker 2: I love when you share these things. Also, your hair
Speaker 2: looks great.
Speaker 1: Thank you. What's your fee for this?
Speaker 2: I'm I'm like a I think I'm a mediocre therapist,
Speaker 2: but I do want to get you a good gut.
Speaker 1: You've gone further than many have in my lifetime.
Speaker 2: I can only just tell that there's so much in there.
Speaker 2: I'm waiting for the day when like we're together and
Speaker 2: you just fall apart and I have to like hug
Speaker 2: you and like hold your head because I just feel
Speaker 2: like there's tears in there that haven't had their time
Speaker 2: to come out yet.
Speaker 1: There are, We'll get there.
Speaker 2: It's okay to be sad too, Like it's just I
Speaker 2: don't know, I think people are too. They shove sad
Speaker 2: down when it's like sad AND's got its place. I
Speaker 2: cried every day. When is the last time you cried?
Speaker 2: Like I have a tear every day somehow, not like
Speaker 2: a bawling tear, but like little tears or I don't know.
Speaker 1: Like a proper cry, like yeah, like a like crying.
Speaker 2: Did you ever cry like over the divorce or cry
Speaker 2: over dancing with the stars or cry like, oh my god.
Speaker 1: I definitely had sadness like dancing with the stars. But
Speaker 1: I'm fine. I'm fine because I'm just cry.
Speaker 2: I would have got in my car and bawled like
Speaker 2: a baby sod be so disappointed.
Speaker 1: And didn't cry. It didn't hit me for days, and
Speaker 1: then I was like, because the show must go on.
Speaker 1: I have five kids, Like the show has to always
Speaker 1: go on with them, so you don't.
Speaker 2: I think we need to throw that line out the
Speaker 2: fricking window of the man. The show does not always
Speaker 2: have to go on. You get to have a minute
Speaker 2: to just like cry.
Speaker 1: Not when you have five kids and no one to
Speaker 1: take care of them besides you. Like, what what is
Speaker 1: I mean?
Speaker 2: I guess I guess.
Speaker 1: I could, you know, cry to pick up and drop off.
Speaker 2: I could see you cry.
Speaker 1: My kids are always with me, so they Yeah. I
Speaker 1: did have sadness after Dancing with the Stars. It didn't
Speaker 1: hit me for like days because I was trying to
Speaker 1: be brave friend. And then I was like, wow, I'm like,
Speaker 1: what's this feeling I'm I was like, I'm like Torri
Speaker 1: as usual. I'm like check check inside.
Speaker 2: Yeah, you need to go see inside out.
Speaker 1: I've seen it. I've seen it. I mean I was
Speaker 1: getting kids, you know, drinks and food the entire time.
Speaker 1: I was just a snappitch. But you know, like you
Speaker 1: you're hired.
Speaker 2: I'm sired.
Speaker 1: But yeah, I definitely had days after Dancing with the Stars whar.
Speaker 1: I was like, it didn't hit me for a few days,
Speaker 1: and then all of a sudden, I was like, what
Speaker 1: is this feel? This isn't the usual me. And I
Speaker 1: was like, oh, I'm having like I miss Pasha and
Speaker 1: I miss dancing and it gave me such a joy.
Speaker 1: I will tell you the last time I cried. It
Speaker 1: was during Dancing with the Star's rehearsal WHOA. I cried
Speaker 1: a couple of times during that, and it was the
Speaker 1: weirdest thing. Pasha was teaching me something and I couldn't
Speaker 1: get it, and I was frustrated with myself, and he
Speaker 1: was super kind and patient, and we were trying to
Speaker 1: do movements and my brain was firing and my body
Speaker 1: was firing against it, and we're trying to go and
Speaker 1: I was beating up myself really bad. And he was like,
Speaker 1: you're very competitive, and I was like yes, and I
Speaker 1: was like, but it was with myself. And he would
Speaker 1: always say like when I'd mess up. I was like,
Speaker 1: I call it this thing called hoofing, where I like like,
Speaker 1: like I'm a horse, like a pilly that won't be broken,
Speaker 1: like hoofing across the thing, and I would make grunts
Speaker 1: when I'd mess up, and it was nothing against him.
Speaker 1: I was so mad at myself when I wouldn't get
Speaker 1: it right, I'd be like like m and like anyway.
Speaker 1: There was twice that it happened where I wasn't getting
Speaker 1: something that was happening, and then all of a sudden
Speaker 1: something was like on the brink of happening where I
Speaker 1: was getting the move I was getting and tapping into it,
Speaker 1: and I started crying and hysterically laughing at the same time.
Speaker 2: Oh good, that's so healthy for you.
Speaker 1: That's what he said too, like pachaed so embarrassed, tears
Speaker 1: pouring down, so mud laughing. It was of intense pain,
Speaker 1: emotional pay lease. It was released. It was like this,
Speaker 1: and I was I was laughing so hard I was,
Speaker 1: and I was like, could feel like everything in my
Speaker 1: brain and physical and emotion releasing. And I was like,
Speaker 1: this is crazy.
Speaker 2: Do you know I have therapy every week? Mm hmm,
Speaker 2: oh my god, Tori, like I have therapy three times
Speaker 2: a week. I think you need a label. I love it.
Speaker 2: I feel like you would love it because you need
Speaker 2: that release.
Speaker 1: Doe therapy obviously. But I'm more like, it's very hard
Speaker 1: for me to not like I sit with you and
Speaker 1: sit with everyone and truss the world and like share
Speaker 1: stories and giving the release for the outset.
Speaker 2: That it's interesting that dancing that's what they say, it
Speaker 2: triggered it, That dancing with the stars changes people's lives.
Speaker 1: I mean, for really it does.
Speaker 2: Yeah, oh gosh, we have so much more to talk about.
Speaker 2: I can't wait till our next session.
Speaker 1: Same same, Well, I hope you guys really give us
Speaker 1: great feedback and like this because I could really use
Speaker 1: doing this with Amy weekly just for my own personal reasons.
Speaker 1: So if you care about me, let us know.
Speaker 2: Try to educate myself us.
Speaker 1: Downloads, download, Tell everyone to download so we can get
Speaker 1: these numbers up and do this more often because this
Speaker 1: is great