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Speaker 1: the more we get together together. Hearing this song now

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Speaker 1: is Raffie Kabukian, but you might know him is just Raffi.

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Speaker 1: He's one of the most famous children's musicians of all time.

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Speaker 1: He's like the Beatles of kids music. Raphy has released

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Speaker 1: or if by dude, my mother will say, did you

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Speaker 1: Thousands of preschool teachers played Rafi's cassettes on repeat for

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Speaker 1: with his playfulness and patience, was making connections with his audience.

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Speaker 1: For decades, Raffie has been telling us to wake up

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Speaker 1: to the needs of our children, to the kitten side

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Speaker 1: you wouldn't necessarily know that by listening to opals and

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Speaker 1: bononas or shake your sillies out. You need to talk

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Speaker 1: with his old friends and collaborators, the people who built

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Speaker 1: and this is Finding Raffie, a ten part series for

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Speaker 1: My Heart Radio and Fatherly in partnership with Rococo Punch

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Speaker 1: about the life, philosophy, and the work of Raffie, the

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Speaker 1: right next time on finding Raffie. If you were to

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Speaker 1: Rafi's music is like the happiest music on the planet.

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Speaker 1: There were stories of survival of my family, survival from

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Speaker 1: Rococo Punch, Ty Trimble, Mike Rothman and Jeff Eisenman at Fatherly,

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Speaker 1: and me Chris Garcia. Thank you for listening, and then

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