1
00:00:00,880 --> 00:00:05,280
Speaker 1: Running reminds us that we can feel sometimes when we

2
00:00:05,320 --> 00:00:09,280
Speaker 1: feel numb. It reminds us that we can do hard

3
00:00:09,360 --> 00:00:13,640
Speaker 1: things when life feels hard, and it reminds us that

4
00:00:13,840 --> 00:00:17,280
Speaker 1: each and every one of us have this beautiful, fucking

5
00:00:17,320 --> 00:00:19,760
Speaker 1: opportunity to go after what it is that we want

6
00:00:20,200 --> 00:00:42,680
Speaker 1: every single day on our own terms, regardless of anybody else. Hey,

7
00:00:42,720 --> 00:00:47,159
Speaker 1: Hurdler's Emily and Badi here bringing you another installment of Hurdle.

8
00:00:47,159 --> 00:00:53,000
Speaker 1: Moment from Hurdle, and this week a much requested episode.

9
00:00:53,760 --> 00:00:56,960
Speaker 1: I am giving you all of my thoughts, all of

10
00:00:57,000 --> 00:01:04,040
Speaker 1: my feelings from the mile time trial I ran last Friday.

11
00:01:05,080 --> 00:01:11,360
Speaker 1: I can't believe I'm saying this, but my new personal

12
00:01:11,440 --> 00:01:20,920
Speaker 1: best mile time is five minutes and fifty six seconds.

13
00:01:22,040 --> 00:01:23,000
Speaker 2: Oh my god.

14
00:01:23,720 --> 00:01:27,679
Speaker 1: I've been a little nervous and excited to record this

15
00:01:27,880 --> 00:01:34,640
Speaker 1: recap because one of the most commented on episodes of

16
00:01:34,760 --> 00:01:39,319
Speaker 1: Hurdle is my Chicago Marathon recap, and I think that's

17
00:01:39,319 --> 00:01:43,160
Speaker 1: because I listened to it again recently myself. It never

18
00:01:43,240 --> 00:01:47,800
Speaker 1: gets old me just sitting in my apartment listening to myself.

19
00:01:48,240 --> 00:01:51,600
Speaker 1: I listened to it again recently and I recorded that

20
00:01:51,680 --> 00:01:54,200
Speaker 1: episode like I'm going to record this episode which was

21
00:01:54,320 --> 00:01:57,920
Speaker 1: just completely off of the cuff, talking to you honestly

22
00:01:58,560 --> 00:02:03,000
Speaker 1: about my experience and and just being open and candid.

23
00:02:03,240 --> 00:02:09,160
Speaker 1: And so hopefully this episode stands the tests of time

24
00:02:10,000 --> 00:02:13,600
Speaker 1: like that one has. Before I get into the swing

25
00:02:13,720 --> 00:02:16,560
Speaker 1: up things today, I do want to take a moment

26
00:02:16,800 --> 00:02:20,919
Speaker 1: to give some love to my friends at Gooder. Now,

27
00:02:21,000 --> 00:02:24,079
Speaker 1: if you have never heard of Gooder, I'm about to

28
00:02:24,120 --> 00:02:24,760
Speaker 1: blow your mind.

29
00:02:24,880 --> 00:02:28,560
Speaker 2: Gooder makes some awesome sunglasses.

30
00:02:28,600 --> 00:02:34,160
Speaker 1: They are polarized, super cozy and no balance and possibly

31
00:02:34,200 --> 00:02:39,320
Speaker 1: the best part, they start at only twenty five dollars.

32
00:02:39,440 --> 00:02:42,399
Speaker 1: I have never gotten so many compliments on a pair

33
00:02:42,400 --> 00:02:47,360
Speaker 1: of sunglasses like I have on their operation Blackout mock G's.

34
00:02:47,760 --> 00:02:49,880
Speaker 2: They have an unbelievable deal for you guys.

35
00:02:50,080 --> 00:02:53,280
Speaker 1: You can use the code Hurdle at checkout to get

36
00:02:53,320 --> 00:02:57,560
Speaker 1: ten dollars off your purchase today ten dollars.

37
00:02:57,720 --> 00:03:00,800
Speaker 2: They have never extended anything like this before.

38
00:03:00,960 --> 00:03:04,240
Speaker 1: Head on over to Gooder dot com slash hurdle and

39
00:03:04,360 --> 00:03:06,880
Speaker 1: use the code hurdle at checkout for ten dollars off

40
00:03:06,919 --> 00:03:11,400
Speaker 1: your purchase today. Again, that is g oo dr dot

41
00:03:11,440 --> 00:03:15,200
Speaker 1: com slash hurdle and use hurdle at checkout for ten

42
00:03:15,280 --> 00:03:19,880
Speaker 1: dollars off your purchase today of course, as always, please

43
00:03:19,960 --> 00:03:22,000
Speaker 1: if you like what you're listening to, if you have

44
00:03:22,320 --> 00:03:25,519
Speaker 1: something to say, if you want to share and tag

45
00:03:25,600 --> 00:03:28,800
Speaker 1: the podcast, I'd love it. Tag me over at Hurdle

46
00:03:28,840 --> 00:03:32,960
Speaker 1: Podcast and at Emily a Body, and while you're at it,

47
00:03:33,200 --> 00:03:36,080
Speaker 1: rate and review the show in the iTunes store. It

48
00:03:36,200 --> 00:03:40,000
Speaker 1: helps Hurdle get noticed and make its way up the charts.

49
00:03:40,040 --> 00:03:42,880
Speaker 1: And also just it brings a little smile to my face.

50
00:03:43,320 --> 00:03:46,240
Speaker 1: With that, it's time to talk about racing. Let's get

51
00:03:46,480 --> 00:03:57,880
Speaker 1: to hurdling. If you were to tell me, like Emily

52
00:03:58,120 --> 00:04:02,880
Speaker 1: circa two thousand and seven when she started running, that

53
00:04:02,960 --> 00:04:08,400
Speaker 1: she would be excited about racing a mile, she would

54
00:04:08,440 --> 00:04:14,000
Speaker 1: have given you like the biggest, blankest stare ever. When

55
00:04:14,040 --> 00:04:16,440
Speaker 1: I started running, and I talked about that back in

56
00:04:16,520 --> 00:04:20,479
Speaker 1: episode one if you haven't checked it out yet, I

57
00:04:20,600 --> 00:04:26,039
Speaker 1: ran a half mile every single day and most days

58
00:04:26,440 --> 00:04:31,120
Speaker 1: the summer that I started running. I absolutely dreaded that experience.

59
00:04:31,200 --> 00:04:35,919
Speaker 1: Not only that, but it took me over fourteen minutes

60
00:04:36,480 --> 00:04:42,080
Speaker 1: to run a half mile every single day. Emily back then,

61
00:04:42,640 --> 00:04:46,480
Speaker 1: never in her wildest dreams would she have thought that

62
00:04:47,040 --> 00:04:51,839
Speaker 1: racing or doing a time trial of said mile would

63
00:04:51,880 --> 00:04:56,880
Speaker 1: bring her joy. She also never thought that she would

64
00:04:57,000 --> 00:05:01,640
Speaker 1: be capable of running a half marathon or a marathon,

65
00:05:02,600 --> 00:05:06,880
Speaker 1: or that running would be such an unbelievably huge.

66
00:05:06,560 --> 00:05:07,599
Speaker 2: Part of her life.

67
00:05:07,800 --> 00:05:10,120
Speaker 1: And to be honest, as I switched from talking about

68
00:05:10,120 --> 00:05:12,479
Speaker 1: myself in the third person to bringing it back to

69
00:05:12,520 --> 00:05:17,120
Speaker 1: the first person, I never really felt like I was

70
00:05:17,160 --> 00:05:21,039
Speaker 1: set up for success at a young age to enjoy running.

71
00:05:21,240 --> 00:05:24,400
Speaker 1: Like so much of my relationship with running has been

72
00:05:24,560 --> 00:05:28,800
Speaker 1: reframing how I grew up with that relationship. I mean,

73
00:05:29,080 --> 00:05:32,840
Speaker 1: growing up my brother bless him. Whenever we would get

74
00:05:32,880 --> 00:05:35,520
Speaker 1: like in an argument, or he I would do something

75
00:05:35,560 --> 00:05:38,520
Speaker 1: that would bother him. His way to tease me, because

76
00:05:38,560 --> 00:05:41,560
Speaker 1: I was an overweight kid and teenager, would be to

77
00:05:41,600 --> 00:05:44,359
Speaker 1: tell me to go run a mile. Now he was

78
00:05:44,440 --> 00:05:48,280
Speaker 1: the track athlete. That was obviously his young boy way

79
00:05:48,600 --> 00:05:51,279
Speaker 1: of like making fun of me for my weight. Let's

80
00:05:51,320 --> 00:05:54,920
Speaker 1: not criticize my brother for his choices at this young age,

81
00:05:55,560 --> 00:05:58,960
Speaker 1: but it was something that stuck with me forever because

82
00:05:59,000 --> 00:06:00,920
Speaker 1: I felt as though at the time when he would

83
00:06:00,960 --> 00:06:02,480
Speaker 1: tease me about this, that it was never going to

84
00:06:02,520 --> 00:06:05,120
Speaker 1: be something ever that was in my wheelhouse. And I

85
00:06:05,200 --> 00:06:09,200
Speaker 1: shared a story on Instagram the other day about an

86
00:06:09,200 --> 00:06:11,800
Speaker 1: experience that I had shortly after the summer that I

87
00:06:11,839 --> 00:06:14,560
Speaker 1: started running, and I wasn't really good at it yet,

88
00:06:14,560 --> 00:06:16,479
Speaker 1: but I'd gotten to a point where I could run

89
00:06:17,000 --> 00:06:20,400
Speaker 1: a mile. And I remember so specifically and afternoon that

90
00:06:20,440 --> 00:06:22,640
Speaker 1: I went with my brother to Planet Fitness and we

91
00:06:22,800 --> 00:06:25,680
Speaker 1: both hopped up on these two treadmills, and they're in

92
00:06:25,720 --> 00:06:28,880
Speaker 1: front of like that wall of televisions, and only like

93
00:06:29,120 --> 00:06:34,040
Speaker 1: four of the twelve televisions are working, and people are

94
00:06:34,040 --> 00:06:37,760
Speaker 1: committing all sorts of different gym faux pause like all

95
00:06:38,400 --> 00:06:41,359
Speaker 1: around us and talking on their phones loudly, you know,

96
00:06:41,440 --> 00:06:43,479
Speaker 1: the drill. And so we both get up on the

97
00:06:43,520 --> 00:06:47,039
Speaker 1: treadmills and we start running, and of course, like my

98
00:06:47,120 --> 00:06:49,000
Speaker 1: pace is much slower than his, But that's not the

99
00:06:49,000 --> 00:06:53,840
Speaker 1: point of the story here. I will never forget watching

100
00:06:53,880 --> 00:06:58,320
Speaker 1: that treadmill, like the numbers on the treadmill click to

101
00:06:58,600 --> 00:07:03,080
Speaker 1: one point, oh uh oh, And I pressed stop on

102
00:07:03,120 --> 00:07:05,279
Speaker 1: the treadmill and the belt slowed down. I looked at

103
00:07:05,320 --> 00:07:09,720
Speaker 1: my brother, who had no idea, like absolutely no idea

104
00:07:09,920 --> 00:07:13,280
Speaker 1: how big of a moment this was for me. I

105
00:07:13,320 --> 00:07:16,240
Speaker 1: looked at him, and I like inside and literally doing

106
00:07:16,440 --> 00:07:19,800
Speaker 1: cartwheels and jumping jacks, and somersaults, and I'm so excited

107
00:07:19,800 --> 00:07:24,760
Speaker 1: because I just ran a full freaking mile next to

108
00:07:24,800 --> 00:07:27,480
Speaker 1: this person who always told me to go do it,

109
00:07:27,760 --> 00:07:32,320
Speaker 1: and there I was, I was doing it, and uh yeah,

110
00:07:32,640 --> 00:07:35,480
Speaker 1: I was like looking for any sort of recognition and

111
00:07:35,520 --> 00:07:37,640
Speaker 1: he just like looked at me and shrugged his shoulders

112
00:07:37,640 --> 00:07:38,640
Speaker 1: and told me that he was.

113
00:07:38,640 --> 00:07:40,120
Speaker 2: Going to go to a different part of the gym.

114
00:07:42,360 --> 00:07:45,040
Speaker 1: That mile on the treadmill that day, the mile that

115
00:07:45,160 --> 00:07:49,880
Speaker 1: literally was like all of my adolescents coming up until

116
00:07:49,960 --> 00:07:53,640
Speaker 1: this past Friday, was probably the most meaningful mile of

117
00:07:53,720 --> 00:07:57,360
Speaker 1: my life, which is a bold statement, right because I

118
00:07:57,440 --> 00:08:02,440
Speaker 1: have run a shit ton of miles. But that mile,

119
00:08:03,560 --> 00:08:07,200
Speaker 1: like so many other stepping stones we have in our lives,

120
00:08:08,120 --> 00:08:13,280
Speaker 1: was the game changer, just like those fourteen minute half

121
00:08:13,320 --> 00:08:18,200
Speaker 1: miles from when I started running that first full eleven

122
00:08:18,360 --> 00:08:21,880
Speaker 1: some odd minute mile that I ran inside of that

123
00:08:21,960 --> 00:08:26,160
Speaker 1: planet fitness. If I had never done that single mile,

124
00:08:26,880 --> 00:08:29,760
Speaker 1: I would never be in the place I am today

125
00:08:29,840 --> 00:08:34,200
Speaker 1: to run a five fifty six. And it's hard to

126
00:08:34,280 --> 00:08:37,600
Speaker 1: frame it that way, right, especially when, especially at the beginning,

127
00:08:37,679 --> 00:08:41,400
Speaker 1: because everything feels like everest, everything feels hard, and you

128
00:08:41,440 --> 00:08:44,520
Speaker 1: think to yourself, I could never do X or y.

129
00:08:44,840 --> 00:08:48,720
Speaker 1: But if you don't put yourself in the place, in

130
00:08:49,000 --> 00:08:52,280
Speaker 1: the position, if you don't get outside of your comfort

131
00:08:52,360 --> 00:08:56,480
Speaker 1: zone to try, then you'll never know. Then you'll never

132
00:08:56,600 --> 00:08:58,520
Speaker 1: get to where you want to be. So let me

133
00:08:58,559 --> 00:09:00,920
Speaker 1: talk to you about how I got to this mile

134
00:09:01,000 --> 00:09:07,120
Speaker 1: time trial situation. Last summer, I raced the Brooklyn Mile,

135
00:09:07,280 --> 00:09:10,440
Speaker 1: and I did a lot of specific training for the

136
00:09:10,480 --> 00:09:14,679
Speaker 1: Brooklyn Mile and fell short of my goal, coming in

137
00:09:14,720 --> 00:09:20,000
Speaker 1: at six minutes and seven seconds, And that was really

138
00:09:20,040 --> 00:09:22,800
Speaker 1: hard for me in retrospect when I think about how

139
00:09:22,800 --> 00:09:26,120
Speaker 1: I felt after that race, because I felt really embarrassed.

140
00:09:26,840 --> 00:09:30,560
Speaker 1: You know, like I'm not Beyonce, I don't have millions

141
00:09:30,559 --> 00:09:34,720
Speaker 1: and millions of followers, but it's still like really embarrassing,

142
00:09:35,080 --> 00:09:39,280
Speaker 1: so to speak, to fail publicly in such a way

143
00:09:39,320 --> 00:09:41,840
Speaker 1: when you put out your big, scary goals and you

144
00:09:41,920 --> 00:09:44,480
Speaker 1: have these big hopes and you think that, okay, like

145
00:09:45,000 --> 00:09:47,120
Speaker 1: this is going to be the motivation I need to

146
00:09:47,200 --> 00:09:50,720
Speaker 1: show up and like exceed all these expectations and do

147
00:09:50,840 --> 00:09:53,800
Speaker 1: the damn thing. There were a lot of lessons in

148
00:09:54,080 --> 00:09:57,520
Speaker 1: that failure. In that hurdle. It was the first time

149
00:09:57,559 --> 00:09:59,920
Speaker 1: and sometime that I had gone out and truly raced

150
00:10:00,400 --> 00:10:03,080
Speaker 1: a mile race. I got the opportunity to get used

151
00:10:03,120 --> 00:10:06,080
Speaker 1: to how that would feel, to gain a better understanding

152
00:10:06,360 --> 00:10:09,079
Speaker 1: of what it would be like in the first four

153
00:10:09,120 --> 00:10:11,400
Speaker 1: hundred meters, the second four hundred meters, and so on

154
00:10:11,480 --> 00:10:14,040
Speaker 1: and so forth, And those are learnings that I have

155
00:10:14,080 --> 00:10:17,680
Speaker 1: been able to take with me ever since. Fast forward

156
00:10:18,000 --> 00:10:21,520
Speaker 1: to now. I mean, I don't need to tell you

157
00:10:21,559 --> 00:10:26,920
Speaker 1: that this year has been all sorts of difficult. I

158
00:10:26,960 --> 00:10:29,600
Speaker 1: have spent so much of it here in this apartment

159
00:10:29,720 --> 00:10:32,680
Speaker 1: thinking about so many things that I want from my

160
00:10:32,800 --> 00:10:35,120
Speaker 1: personal life and what I dream of my life to

161
00:10:35,200 --> 00:10:38,960
Speaker 1: be one day, to my running and health and fitness goals.

162
00:10:39,440 --> 00:10:41,240
Speaker 1: And as an athlete, I've gone through a lot of

163
00:10:41,240 --> 00:10:44,719
Speaker 1: different phases in this quarantine, to say the least. I mean,

164
00:10:45,120 --> 00:10:48,000
Speaker 1: at the beginning was dealing with injuries, and I recorded

165
00:10:48,040 --> 00:10:51,199
Speaker 1: a few episodes on that if you feel as though

166
00:10:51,440 --> 00:10:55,000
Speaker 1: you yourself are struggling with an injury right now. I

167
00:10:55,040 --> 00:10:57,120
Speaker 1: had to give up running for a little bit and

168
00:10:57,200 --> 00:10:59,720
Speaker 1: focus on strength work and walking, and that was a

169
00:10:59,720 --> 00:11:04,680
Speaker 1: mental battle. And then I picked up cycling as a result,

170
00:11:04,800 --> 00:11:07,960
Speaker 1: and God Like, how grateful am I that I picked

171
00:11:08,000 --> 00:11:11,640
Speaker 1: that up. Not only do I have two bikes, hanging

172
00:11:11,720 --> 00:11:16,080
Speaker 1: inside of my apartment now. But I also really feel

173
00:11:16,160 --> 00:11:20,080
Speaker 1: like cycling more, getting out on my bike. Adding in

174
00:11:20,160 --> 00:11:23,080
Speaker 1: more cross training has been a game changer when it

175
00:11:23,160 --> 00:11:26,920
Speaker 1: comes to how I feel when I run, how I

176
00:11:27,000 --> 00:11:30,240
Speaker 1: feel on the track, And so in the recent months,

177
00:11:30,760 --> 00:11:35,920
Speaker 1: I have felt really strong. I've been steadily adding in

178
00:11:36,040 --> 00:11:39,400
Speaker 1: longer runs on the weekends and it feels really fulfilling

179
00:11:39,440 --> 00:11:42,480
Speaker 1: and it brings me so much joy. I've been enjoying

180
00:11:42,600 --> 00:11:47,520
Speaker 1: my socially distant track practices and trying out new speeds

181
00:11:47,640 --> 00:11:51,839
Speaker 1: and getting more comfortable with this new level of uncomfortable.

182
00:11:51,920 --> 00:11:54,280
Speaker 2: And it was about a month ago when a.

183
00:11:54,360 --> 00:11:57,480
Speaker 1: Friend of mine and I chatted about the idea of

184
00:11:57,520 --> 00:12:02,000
Speaker 1: putting together a time trial and we set a date, and,

185
00:12:02,080 --> 00:12:06,760
Speaker 1: of course, because this is my life, about a week before,

186
00:12:07,080 --> 00:12:10,200
Speaker 1: a week and a half before a proposed time trial date,

187
00:12:10,760 --> 00:12:13,360
Speaker 1: I kicked my bed in my apartment and bruised my toe,

188
00:12:13,440 --> 00:12:15,040
Speaker 1: and I had one of those moments where I was

189
00:12:15,120 --> 00:12:18,040
Speaker 1: so scared that I was going to go back to

190
00:12:18,080 --> 00:12:20,480
Speaker 1: square one, like I did at the beginning of quarantine.

191
00:12:20,559 --> 00:12:22,920
Speaker 1: And if you've ever been injured, you can totally totally

192
00:12:22,920 --> 00:12:26,080
Speaker 1: relate to that. It's just this big scary thing where

193
00:12:26,120 --> 00:12:28,000
Speaker 1: you feel like the one thing that makes you feel

194
00:12:28,040 --> 00:12:30,200
Speaker 1: sane and human is completely taken away from you.

195
00:12:30,920 --> 00:12:32,480
Speaker 2: Good news, The toe is fine.

196
00:12:32,559 --> 00:12:34,520
Speaker 1: I've talked about it on a few episodes now, so

197
00:12:34,559 --> 00:12:37,280
Speaker 1: you're probably well versed in what's going home with my toe.

198
00:12:38,000 --> 00:12:41,360
Speaker 1: But we pushed back the time trial one week and

199
00:12:41,520 --> 00:12:44,920
Speaker 1: just like that we were gearing up, and so now

200
00:12:45,080 --> 00:12:48,600
Speaker 1: I'll talk to you about the actual time trial. It

201
00:12:48,840 --> 00:12:52,280
Speaker 1: was on a Friday morning at seven thirty. I the

202
00:12:52,400 --> 00:12:55,840
Speaker 1: night before had a personal pasta party of rigatoni and

203
00:12:55,960 --> 00:12:56,760
Speaker 1: chicken parmesan.

204
00:12:57,880 --> 00:12:59,640
Speaker 2: I woke up.

205
00:12:59,679 --> 00:13:04,200
Speaker 1: On Friday at around six I had a piece of

206
00:13:04,600 --> 00:13:09,040
Speaker 1: peanut butter and jelly toast. I rode my bike downtown

207
00:13:09,559 --> 00:13:12,600
Speaker 1: as a warm up. It's about a thirty minute super

208
00:13:12,679 --> 00:13:18,440
Speaker 1: casual bike ride, and then jogged, so to speak, two

209
00:13:18,559 --> 00:13:21,800
Speaker 1: laps around the track, so that's the warm up for

210
00:13:22,000 --> 00:13:26,080
Speaker 1: the mile. I ran it alongside one of my good friends,

211
00:13:26,160 --> 00:13:30,760
Speaker 1: and we also had another friend pace the mile at

212
00:13:30,800 --> 00:13:35,080
Speaker 1: a strict six minute pace, so there was no intention

213
00:13:35,320 --> 00:13:37,680
Speaker 1: for any sort of negative split or anything like that.

214
00:13:38,160 --> 00:13:41,400
Speaker 1: He was just there to be the rabbit at six

215
00:13:41,520 --> 00:13:45,839
Speaker 1: minutes and that was it. We start running the mile

216
00:13:46,360 --> 00:13:49,480
Speaker 1: and someone asked in the questions like, what were you

217
00:13:49,559 --> 00:13:53,200
Speaker 1: thinking right before you started? I think before any big thing,

218
00:13:53,400 --> 00:13:56,760
Speaker 1: whether it's a job interview, or going on a date

219
00:13:57,120 --> 00:14:02,040
Speaker 1: or running a fast mile, you're never ever, ever going

220
00:14:02,080 --> 00:14:04,520
Speaker 1: to feel like you are one hundred percent ready to

221
00:14:04,679 --> 00:14:07,520
Speaker 1: do this big thing. But that's part of the fun

222
00:14:07,559 --> 00:14:10,480
Speaker 1: of it, right, that excitement. It means that you care.

223
00:14:11,160 --> 00:14:15,280
Speaker 1: And so before I pressed the top right button on

224
00:14:15,320 --> 00:14:20,840
Speaker 1: my Garmin, I thought to myself, like, I guess we're

225
00:14:20,880 --> 00:14:25,600
Speaker 1: gonna fucking do this, But I wasn't, like I've got

226
00:14:25,640 --> 00:14:28,480
Speaker 1: this in the bag. And I think that's what's the

227
00:14:28,520 --> 00:14:31,160
Speaker 1: best part about it, all right. It's like the butterflies

228
00:14:31,200 --> 00:14:34,160
Speaker 1: that you get right before that moment where you're about

229
00:14:34,200 --> 00:14:35,920
Speaker 1: to see what you're really capable of.

230
00:14:36,800 --> 00:14:39,440
Speaker 2: So I pressed the top right button and we're off.

231
00:14:40,120 --> 00:14:45,400
Speaker 1: And the first four hundred felt as though I was

232
00:14:45,560 --> 00:14:48,120
Speaker 1: out for a jog. Which it's silly to say that

233
00:14:48,280 --> 00:14:52,800
Speaker 1: out loud, I know, but I realized very quickly in

234
00:14:52,840 --> 00:14:56,280
Speaker 1: this race that having a pacer is a complete complete

235
00:14:56,360 --> 00:15:00,360
Speaker 1: game changer, because all too often we always go out

236
00:15:00,400 --> 00:15:03,720
Speaker 1: too fast, which is something that I was definitely nervous

237
00:15:03,800 --> 00:15:08,480
Speaker 1: of in Chicago when my first few miles were hovering

238
00:15:09,320 --> 00:15:13,560
Speaker 1: under and around the eight minute mark. The difference for

239
00:15:13,720 --> 00:15:19,760
Speaker 1: me in Chicago was that having run seven marathons before that,

240
00:15:20,600 --> 00:15:25,360
Speaker 1: I knew how it felt to feel highly in control.

241
00:15:25,920 --> 00:15:29,080
Speaker 1: I was moving faster than normal, but I felt like

242
00:15:29,240 --> 00:15:33,200
Speaker 1: what I was doing was completely in my wheelhouse. The

243
00:15:33,240 --> 00:15:37,960
Speaker 1: marathon is meant to be not a ten out of

244
00:15:38,000 --> 00:15:42,600
Speaker 1: ten on the rate of perceived exertion scale the mile, However,

245
00:15:43,400 --> 00:15:47,640
Speaker 1: You're supposed to be in a place where you feel

246
00:15:47,800 --> 00:15:51,680
Speaker 1: like you are truly maxing out, and trust me, I

247
00:15:51,760 --> 00:15:54,600
Speaker 1: definitely got there. So the first lap really felt like

248
00:15:54,600 --> 00:15:57,160
Speaker 1: a joga, felt manageable. The second lap felt like we

249
00:15:57,160 --> 00:16:01,520
Speaker 1: were settling into this pace, still manageable. The third lap

250
00:16:01,760 --> 00:16:04,600
Speaker 1: it's like, okay, you're halfway done. We're well on our way.

251
00:16:04,720 --> 00:16:08,000
Speaker 1: It definitely feels challenging, but I'm not feeling like in

252
00:16:08,040 --> 00:16:11,800
Speaker 1: my legs that I'm not capable of what's happening here.

253
00:16:12,120 --> 00:16:16,320
Speaker 1: I am starting to feel labored in my breathing. The

254
00:16:16,400 --> 00:16:19,480
Speaker 1: fourth lap, like the adrenaline is there, the excitement is there,

255
00:16:19,480 --> 00:16:21,440
Speaker 1: but this is when the fatigue is like really starting

256
00:16:21,520 --> 00:16:24,600
Speaker 1: to settle in in my chest. I get past the

257
00:16:24,640 --> 00:16:27,920
Speaker 1: first two hundred meters of the final four hundred meters lap,

258
00:16:28,680 --> 00:16:31,640
Speaker 1: and as I'm getting to that two hundred meter left

259
00:16:31,680 --> 00:16:34,400
Speaker 1: to go mark, my friends are cheering on the side,

260
00:16:35,120 --> 00:16:38,520
Speaker 1: and I'm starting to weeze so loudly that they think

261
00:16:38,560 --> 00:16:42,640
Speaker 1: that I am crying in my bail, and so one

262
00:16:42,720 --> 00:16:47,240
Speaker 1: of my friends starts sprinting alongside next to me, and

263
00:16:47,600 --> 00:16:51,000
Speaker 1: our pacer is yelling, go, go, go, and my friend

264
00:16:51,080 --> 00:16:53,840
Speaker 1: Ashley like takes off a couple of seconds ahead of me,

265
00:16:54,520 --> 00:16:58,720
Speaker 1: and I literally I close my eyes and I am

266
00:16:58,840 --> 00:17:01,360
Speaker 1: just thinking to myself, like, you can do this, you

267
00:17:01,360 --> 00:17:03,280
Speaker 1: can do this. You didn't come this far to only

268
00:17:03,320 --> 00:17:05,040
Speaker 1: come this far. You didn't come this far to only

269
00:17:05,119 --> 00:17:07,760
Speaker 1: come this far. And I'm pushing and I'm pushing, and

270
00:17:07,800 --> 00:17:11,600
Speaker 1: I just literally am running for at least four seconds

271
00:17:11,640 --> 00:17:14,920
Speaker 1: with my eyes closed, telling myself that I can do this.

272
00:17:15,119 --> 00:17:16,320
Speaker 2: I can do anything.

273
00:17:16,440 --> 00:17:20,680
Speaker 1: For the next five freaking seconds, I open my eyes

274
00:17:20,680 --> 00:17:23,040
Speaker 1: and I'm getting closer and closer to that finish line

275
00:17:23,040 --> 00:17:27,000
Speaker 1: and I cross it and I literally fall over to

276
00:17:27,080 --> 00:17:31,720
Speaker 1: the ground as I press stop on my garment. In

277
00:17:31,760 --> 00:17:33,399
Speaker 1: that moment when I follow the ground, I have no

278
00:17:33,520 --> 00:17:36,120
Speaker 1: idea if I've actually done it, but I do hear

279
00:17:36,160 --> 00:17:41,200
Speaker 1: a lot of cheering, so it's promising, and I instantly

280
00:17:41,240 --> 00:17:45,119
Speaker 1: start crying before I even know truly what even just

281
00:17:45,240 --> 00:17:48,000
Speaker 1: happened or how much time that took me, because I

282
00:17:48,000 --> 00:17:54,520
Speaker 1: am so overwhelmed thinking of the girl and Planet Fitness.

283
00:17:58,080 --> 00:18:02,080
Speaker 1: I'm so overwhelmed thinking about the fact that, like I

284
00:18:02,119 --> 00:18:05,040
Speaker 1: was taunted for not being able to run a mile

285
00:18:05,160 --> 00:18:11,240
Speaker 1: at all for so fucking long. And I look up

286
00:18:11,280 --> 00:18:16,119
Speaker 1: and tears are streaming down my face and ash my friend.

287
00:18:15,920 --> 00:18:17,760
Speaker 1: She comes over to me and I'm like, did we

288
00:18:17,760 --> 00:18:19,960
Speaker 1: do it? And she was like, girl, we did it.

289
00:18:21,280 --> 00:18:23,640
Speaker 1: Sitting here shaking my head doesn't really convey to you

290
00:18:23,720 --> 00:18:26,000
Speaker 1: like how I feel right now, but really, just that

291
00:18:26,080 --> 00:18:28,720
Speaker 1: experience it made me feel so grateful, especially in this

292
00:18:28,840 --> 00:18:31,800
Speaker 1: year that just has felt like so many times like

293
00:18:32,040 --> 00:18:33,959
Speaker 1: I wasn't good enough or I couldn't do what I

294
00:18:34,040 --> 00:18:37,120
Speaker 1: wanted to do. Everything has felt complicated and nothing has

295
00:18:37,119 --> 00:18:40,000
Speaker 1: felt easy. And this was something I wanted so badly

296
00:18:40,400 --> 00:18:43,199
Speaker 1: and I was the only thing that I needed to

297
00:18:43,240 --> 00:18:46,359
Speaker 1: get it done, and that felt so fucking good. It

298
00:18:46,400 --> 00:18:50,000
Speaker 1: felt so good to believe in myself, to find that

299
00:18:50,040 --> 00:18:54,119
Speaker 1: place of self belief and understand that with hard work,

300
00:18:54,320 --> 00:18:58,480
Speaker 1: I can do hard things. And I think what's really

301
00:18:58,520 --> 00:19:03,320
Speaker 1: special about this opportunity is just like it makes me

302
00:19:03,440 --> 00:19:05,919
Speaker 1: excited to want more for the first time in a

303
00:19:05,960 --> 00:19:10,000
Speaker 1: long time. I'm excited for the first time in a

304
00:19:10,119 --> 00:19:14,919
Speaker 1: long time, maybe since crossing that Chicago line. You know,

305
00:19:15,720 --> 00:19:19,399
Speaker 1: I feel as though I have a limitless potential in

306
00:19:19,440 --> 00:19:22,040
Speaker 1: a way that so many of us have not felt

307
00:19:22,119 --> 00:19:26,600
Speaker 1: allowed to feel this year. I want to remember that feeling.

308
00:19:26,640 --> 00:19:29,959
Speaker 1: I want to remember this feeling. I want to feel

309
00:19:30,080 --> 00:19:34,440
Speaker 1: this feeling more, you know. And that's why running is

310
00:19:34,480 --> 00:19:37,120
Speaker 1: a great thing for me and for so many of you,

311
00:19:37,960 --> 00:19:42,119
Speaker 1: is because it reminds us that we can feel sometimes

312
00:19:42,160 --> 00:19:45,840
Speaker 1: when we feel numb. It reminds us that we can

313
00:19:45,880 --> 00:19:49,840
Speaker 1: do hard things when life feels hard, and it reminds

314
00:19:50,040 --> 00:19:54,000
Speaker 1: us that each and every one of us have this beautiful,

315
00:19:54,119 --> 00:19:56,640
Speaker 1: fucking opportunity to go after what it is that we

316
00:19:56,680 --> 00:20:02,359
Speaker 1: want every single day on our own terms, regardless of

317
00:20:02,400 --> 00:20:08,600
Speaker 1: the weather, regardless of anybody else. That mile was something

318
00:20:08,640 --> 00:20:11,760
Speaker 1: really special, And to be honest, I'd be lying if

319
00:20:11,800 --> 00:20:13,720
Speaker 1: I didn't tell you that. I think I've got faster

320
00:20:13,880 --> 00:20:18,600
Speaker 1: times than me But for now, I'll take it and

321
00:20:18,640 --> 00:20:22,560
Speaker 1: I'll run with it. I want to know, are you

322
00:20:22,600 --> 00:20:24,160
Speaker 1: going to do a mile trial? What do you got

323
00:20:24,160 --> 00:20:27,560
Speaker 1: going on? Keeping the loop on your goals, keeping the

324
00:20:27,600 --> 00:20:31,240
Speaker 1: loop on your lives, And thank you if you made

325
00:20:31,280 --> 00:20:34,320
Speaker 1: it this far for listening to me recap something that

326
00:20:34,440 --> 00:20:38,679
Speaker 1: meant the damn world to me at Emily A Body

327
00:20:39,560 --> 00:20:43,640
Speaker 1: at Hurdle podcast Another Hurdle Conquered.

328
00:20:44,359 --> 00:20:45,440
Speaker 2: Catch you guys next time