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Speaker 1: What's happening again? Welcome back to one breakuple of Mental

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Speaker 1: health podcast. And this is Monday Motivation, but I'm gonna

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Speaker 1: call it Monday celebration. And I don't know if you

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Speaker 1: saw yesterday, but I got engaged. Me the guy who

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Speaker 1: all these years has felt unworthy of being loved, the

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Speaker 1: guy who never thought it would happen because I just

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Speaker 1: didn't feel like something like that should happen to me.

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Speaker 1: But it finally happened. But I wouldn't be in this

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Speaker 1: position if it wasn't for all you out there. You

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Speaker 1: have all given me this team and show me this worth.

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Speaker 1: And you know, for years I just never felt worthy

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Speaker 1: of being loved. So every time I was in a relationship,

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Speaker 1: I sabotaged it. And that's what a lot of us do.

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Speaker 1: We have depression, anxiety, we don't feel worthy. For me,

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Speaker 1: the living in question was more painful than anything else.

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Speaker 1: When I mean by living in question, when you're not

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Speaker 1: feeling worthy of this love and you're in a relationship,

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Speaker 1: you tend to say to yourself it's got to end.

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Speaker 1: It's gonna end at one point, I'm not worthy of it.

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Speaker 1: But the living in question of when is that going

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Speaker 1: to happen. That is the hell that you're stuck in.

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Speaker 1: Sabotage you speed up the process when there really is

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Speaker 1: no reason to do it. And Rosie and I already

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Speaker 1: broken up one time before, and we broke up because

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Speaker 1: I purshed her away. I sabotaged it. And when I

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Speaker 1: started talking about mental health and started opening up and

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Speaker 1: started being really, really vulnerable and started getting these new tools,

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Speaker 1: that's when she felt safe to come back in. But

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Speaker 1: that's when she also saw a shift to me, and

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Speaker 1: it was beautiful and I feel safe with her now,

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Speaker 1: And even just the other night, she had to remind me, Babe,

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Speaker 1: I'm not going anywhere. I'm in this with you. That's

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Speaker 1: something that I couldn't have comprehended before I started doing

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Speaker 1: this with all of you. I have these tools now

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Speaker 1: to calm down the roommates in my head. I do

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Speaker 1: feel worthy of being loved for the most part. Most

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Speaker 1: times I still go through it, but it's so great.

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Speaker 1: I talk about having a team. I never dreamed I'd

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Speaker 1: have a team like Rosie Tennyson for the rest of

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Speaker 1: my life, and now here I am. And again, this

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Speaker 1: is motivation, celebration and gratitude for you. All. I've learned

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Speaker 1: so much from all of you out there. We've taking

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Speaker 1: this journey together, and you've all lifted me up to

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Speaker 1: the point where I do have this self worth now

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Speaker 1: and my dream has come true. I'm marrying the greatest woman,

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Speaker 1: my best friend I could ever dream about. I really

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Speaker 1: never thought this day would come. I'm so grateful to

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Speaker 1: you all. How about me, Jay Glaze finally engaged. Only

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Speaker 1: took me fifty three years, but I got the rest

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Speaker 1: of the eternity now with this incredible woman. I love

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Speaker 1: you all. I'm so grateful. Let's keep all walking this

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Speaker 1: walk together.