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Speaker 1: Scrubbing In with Becca Tilly and Tanya Red and I

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Speaker 1: Heart Radio Podcast. Hello everybody, we are scrubbing in. Scrub

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Speaker 1: a dub dub Thursday, Thursday, Thursday. Who's getting CHRONK tonight?

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Speaker 1: Not you, Nada? Are you? Are you on the no

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Speaker 1: alcohol train yet or is it still the casine? I'm

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Speaker 1: not sober curious, but I am sober this week because

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Speaker 1: I'm gearing up for like book launch week, and I

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Speaker 1: feel as though next week is going to be very

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Speaker 1: intense in terms of schedule for me. So I'm trying

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Speaker 1: to eat super clean, drink super clean, your best, feel

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Speaker 1: my best. Yeah, I feel my strongest, because that's important.

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Speaker 1: It is important. Book launch is happening. Yeah, we're like

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Speaker 1: T minus whatever days. I just can't even believe it's here.

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Speaker 1: Oh my gosh, I know this. Here's flying by. It's

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Speaker 1: I'm so happy you said that. Because it's Valentine's Day

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Speaker 1: very soon, then in St Patrick's Day. Then we're basically

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Speaker 1: into summer. After summer, we have the iHeart Rating Music

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Speaker 1: Festival in September, and then it's basically Halloween, your birthday,

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Speaker 1: and Thanksgiving and we're done. I'm so stressed. I hate

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Speaker 1: that I hate that mentality. There's so much time in

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Speaker 1: between these things. Not big job. I'm just saying St.

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Speaker 1: Patrick's not because it's like March and then summer's June, March, April,

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Speaker 1: made Junie. You went from St. Patrick's Day to iHeart

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Speaker 1: Festival in September. There was a large of summer in there.

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Speaker 1: Summer that's July August. That's a lot of time six months.

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Speaker 1: I'm just saying, if you're trying to plan big things,

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Speaker 1: it's time to get on that. Also, do you go

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Speaker 1: really hard for St. Patty's there? That's not true. I

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Speaker 1: always Celbady to get some cute little sunglasses and like

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Speaker 1: go to some sort of pub, not a pub, but

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Speaker 1: I do and vibe. Yeah, I think you liked the

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Speaker 1: idea of like participating, but it's not like you're like

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Speaker 1: out like in the streets, like on a parade or something.

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Speaker 1: I haven't gotten a parade. And I'm just saying, like

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Speaker 1: the way you included St. Patty's Day like it was Christmas, Yeah,

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Speaker 1: basically Christmas. Because you know who's on the show today,

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Speaker 1: Candice came. I know so Candice and I actually well

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Speaker 1: we met. They were on our podcast a while though,

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Speaker 1: her and Kayla and then Beck and I read an

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Speaker 1: event like a an industry event and yeah, that's right, industry,

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Speaker 1: and Candice was there and I remember, Um, I was

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Speaker 1: telling her how I just started dating somebody. This was

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Speaker 1: right when robbing I started dating. Oh my gosh. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: and that's when she was just so kind and so

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Speaker 1: warm and gave me her phone number because I was like,

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Speaker 1: I've never dated a divorced dad before, and so she

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Speaker 1: got my number and has just been such a beautiful

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Speaker 1: friend to me throughout this entire process because I feel

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Speaker 1: like she'd been there and stuff. So um, I just

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Speaker 1: we just created like a really nice bond. And she's

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Speaker 1: also a fellow podcaster, and she launched a new podcast,

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Speaker 1: a super Blum podcast. So we're going to have her

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Speaker 1: on as our guest and scrubbing In right now. So

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Speaker 1: right now we're going to back. We'll be right back

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Speaker 1: with Candice. Al Right, we are back, and we we can't.

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Speaker 1: I don't even remember the year it was when you

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Speaker 1: were on Scrubbing In It. It would have been like

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Speaker 1: five years ago. Maybe. Yeah, that is the voice of

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Speaker 1: Candice King, who Yeah, let's get a warrant here, Thank you,

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Speaker 1: thank you. Thank you. We were trying to think of

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Speaker 1: when that was, and I was like, that was either

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Speaker 1: two or two thousand nineteen. Yeah, I was around that.

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Speaker 1: It was like five years ago. It was it was before,

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Speaker 1: which it's like a whole basically we were all much

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Speaker 1: all of us, which is great. You know, we've all

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Speaker 1: really excited to have you back. I know you've really

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Speaker 1: been a special person for Tanya the last few years,

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Speaker 1: navigating her relationships. So I feel like it's been a

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Speaker 1: feel like you have been a very prominent person in

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Speaker 1: I remember you were so sweet. You literally gave me

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Speaker 1: an arbitrary invite, like you really followed through. You were

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Speaker 1: felt like we became like instant best friends and it

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Speaker 1: I don't know, like I just look at you as

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Speaker 1: like this little guardian angel that was sent to me.

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Speaker 1: I well, that's everything you just said is so kind,

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Speaker 1: whole bunch of different ways in life, whether it's you know,

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Speaker 1: navigating career relationships, French anything. I think. Um, you know,

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Speaker 1: there's a whole bunch of different kinds of friends you

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Speaker 1: can have. Um, A lot of my super close friends

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Speaker 1: I've known for a long time know this about me

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Speaker 1: that I'm the worst text message person ever, Like I think,

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Speaker 1: I just I have like seven hundred unread text messages.

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Speaker 1: I'm one of those people. Um, Like the phone scares me.

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Speaker 1: But I'm also a writer or die. Like if someone

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Speaker 1: you guys, I mean, Becca, you were the first person

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Speaker 1: with Kayla for many years who Kayla is still hosting

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Speaker 1: now And you don't realize when you're starting something new,

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Speaker 1: grateful to know you each in those separate ways. I mean,

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Speaker 1: me your Candice and Caleb were also modeling that day,

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Speaker 1: for you my stepdaughters, Yeah, because we wrote we'd all

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Speaker 1: it was like this perfect moment of like, like you know,

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Speaker 1: show me your MoU is a fantastic clothing line. If

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Speaker 1: anyone needs like wonderful clothes, go check it out. Um

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Speaker 1: riot on that. But that was a very fun day.

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Speaker 1: I just I you were the first um like celebrity

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Speaker 1: let's just acknowledge the facts, but you were the first

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Speaker 1: so super Bloom struck me. There's a band called Mr.

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Speaker 1: it light, but it is very common and people are

428
00:23:01,359 --> 00:23:04,080
Speaker 1: do get on the other side, and like really beautiful

429
00:23:04,119 --> 00:23:08,600
Speaker 1: things can happen post rainstorm, and I just feel like,

430
00:23:08,720 --> 00:23:11,960
Speaker 1: you know, I want to, Um, I want to help

431
00:23:12,000 --> 00:23:14,280
Speaker 1: you and like be that light for you like you

432
00:23:14,320 --> 00:23:16,399
Speaker 1: were for me, you know, two or three years ago

433
00:23:16,480 --> 00:23:17,720
Speaker 1: and I was kind of going through a little bit

434
00:23:17,760 --> 00:23:19,959
Speaker 1: of a storm, and so like I just want I

435
00:23:20,000 --> 00:23:22,679
Speaker 1: just want you to know that you always have me

436
00:23:23,080 --> 00:23:27,399
Speaker 1: to kind of you. Yeah, thank you. I appreciate that.

437
00:23:27,640 --> 00:23:30,639
Speaker 1: It is really beautiful I feel I don't know, have

438
00:23:30,680 --> 00:23:32,960
Speaker 1: you guys felt the shift, you know in this kind

439
00:23:32,960 --> 00:23:36,720
Speaker 1: of post world where I feel like either people are

440
00:23:36,720 --> 00:23:39,160
Speaker 1: still just as distanced or all of a sudden people

441
00:23:39,200 --> 00:23:42,000
Speaker 1: are so heart open and willing like to lead with

442
00:23:42,000 --> 00:23:46,199
Speaker 1: their vulnerability in a new way. Um. I've definitely felt that.

443
00:23:46,320 --> 00:23:49,400
Speaker 1: And what I will say is, yeah, you're completely right,

444
00:23:49,560 --> 00:23:52,959
Speaker 1: the divorce is very common. It is not this like

445
00:23:53,600 --> 00:23:56,480
Speaker 1: thing that no one has ever done before. But what

446
00:23:56,600 --> 00:23:59,879
Speaker 1: I have found interesting is like anything else, like in

447
00:24:00,040 --> 00:24:04,160
Speaker 1: until you've been through the process of you know, losing

448
00:24:04,280 --> 00:24:06,360
Speaker 1: a loved one, Like I don't know what it's like

449
00:24:06,560 --> 00:24:09,560
Speaker 1: to lose a loved one, but anyone who has been

450
00:24:09,560 --> 00:24:12,360
Speaker 1: through that experience before, they have an understanding with each other.

451
00:24:12,520 --> 00:24:15,800
Speaker 1: And I don't know what it's like to you know,

452
00:24:16,080 --> 00:24:17,919
Speaker 1: or even having a baby, Like when you when you

453
00:24:17,960 --> 00:24:20,920
Speaker 1: see someone else who's been in that like first six

454
00:24:21,000 --> 00:24:23,400
Speaker 1: weeks of having a baby, you just know what they're

455
00:24:23,440 --> 00:24:26,800
Speaker 1: going through on some cellular level. So it has been

456
00:24:26,800 --> 00:24:31,320
Speaker 1: really beautiful to just see um, so many people even

457
00:24:31,320 --> 00:24:33,959
Speaker 1: just like strangers at airports, you know, if you you

458
00:24:34,000 --> 00:24:36,760
Speaker 1: find yourself like just airport bars have just been so

459
00:24:36,800 --> 00:24:39,199
Speaker 1: funny when you start talking to people, and people are

460
00:24:39,240 --> 00:24:42,000
Speaker 1: just so willing to share these days, and so I

461
00:24:42,080 --> 00:24:45,080
Speaker 1: have been so encouraged by this kind of like shift

462
00:24:45,160 --> 00:24:49,080
Speaker 1: and willingness to be vulnerable, um, especially when it's come

463
00:24:49,119 --> 00:24:52,280
Speaker 1: to the topic of like separation and divorce. It's people

464
00:24:52,320 --> 00:24:56,439
Speaker 1: have been very willing to share their stories and and

465
00:24:56,840 --> 00:24:59,000
Speaker 1: I've been really moved by it. So I try to

466
00:24:59,040 --> 00:25:03,160
Speaker 1: do my small apart, but also with keeping healthy boundaries

467
00:25:03,200 --> 00:25:06,439
Speaker 1: because you're in it, you're in it. Yeah. Yeah, I

468
00:25:06,480 --> 00:25:08,760
Speaker 1: felt like that a lot when I before Haley and

469
00:25:08,800 --> 00:25:11,080
Speaker 1: I went public with our relationship, and like the coming

470
00:25:11,080 --> 00:25:16,040
Speaker 1: out process was very interesting because my friends who weren't

471
00:25:16,160 --> 00:25:17,960
Speaker 1: going through that or had never been through that, We're

472
00:25:18,040 --> 00:25:19,800
Speaker 1: just like, but you're going to get so much support,

473
00:25:19,880 --> 00:25:22,360
Speaker 1: Like you're gonna be so loved, you know, like think

474
00:25:22,400 --> 00:25:24,840
Speaker 1: about all the positives. But when you're in it, and

475
00:25:24,920 --> 00:25:27,719
Speaker 1: it's like you're going through that, you're like, but what

476
00:25:27,760 --> 00:25:29,520
Speaker 1: if they don't, you know, like you're thinking of all

477
00:25:29,560 --> 00:25:32,240
Speaker 1: the things of like what could go wrong, the fear

478
00:25:32,320 --> 00:25:35,359
Speaker 1: you're not thinking. And it was like at that point,

479
00:25:35,359 --> 00:25:37,240
Speaker 1: it was like so many people have done it before me,

480
00:25:37,280 --> 00:25:39,280
Speaker 1: so many people have been through the process of coming

481
00:25:39,280 --> 00:25:44,080
Speaker 1: out and sharing their love, and I felt so scared

482
00:25:44,119 --> 00:25:46,600
Speaker 1: because it felt so personal and heavy to me. Even

483
00:25:46,640 --> 00:25:48,479
Speaker 1: though so many other people have done it, It's like

484
00:25:48,920 --> 00:25:51,800
Speaker 1: such a unique experience when it's your own, you know, like,

485
00:25:51,880 --> 00:25:56,360
Speaker 1: regardless of how common it's, it's still heavy and it's

486
00:25:56,359 --> 00:25:59,640
Speaker 1: still your own. Like going through it feels very personal.

487
00:26:00,640 --> 00:26:03,040
Speaker 1: Did you have people you were able did you find

488
00:26:03,040 --> 00:26:05,120
Speaker 1: anyone who you were able to connect with who did

489
00:26:05,280 --> 00:26:08,280
Speaker 1: understand on some sort of you know, equal level, because

490
00:26:08,280 --> 00:26:12,720
Speaker 1: you also, you know, are not just coming out to friends, family,

491
00:26:12,760 --> 00:26:15,960
Speaker 1: but like to the world in a very public way. Well,

492
00:26:16,000 --> 00:26:18,760
Speaker 1: I think because all my friends and family and like

493
00:26:18,840 --> 00:26:21,560
Speaker 1: people close to me knew about it. It was like

494
00:26:22,400 --> 00:26:24,320
Speaker 1: when we did go public last year, there was this

495
00:26:24,480 --> 00:26:28,840
Speaker 1: sense of like safety, knowing that we had that support,

496
00:26:29,000 --> 00:26:31,600
Speaker 1: which was the people that matter so much to us.

497
00:26:31,640 --> 00:26:34,639
Speaker 1: So it almost felt like I I felt ready because

498
00:26:34,680 --> 00:26:36,640
Speaker 1: I knew that I had the support that I needed

499
00:26:37,000 --> 00:26:41,720
Speaker 1: regardless of what people responded or how they reacted. Um,

500
00:26:41,800 --> 00:26:44,159
Speaker 1: but yeah, I mean I think you know, everyone you

501
00:26:44,240 --> 00:26:48,000
Speaker 1: talked to who has gone through the process of either

502
00:26:48,400 --> 00:26:53,159
Speaker 1: coming out or recognizing that um they're queer or whatever

503
00:26:53,200 --> 00:26:55,760
Speaker 1: it is, they kind of have a similar experience of

504
00:26:55,800 --> 00:26:58,120
Speaker 1: like navigating it so that you can relate to people,

505
00:26:58,119 --> 00:27:01,040
Speaker 1: even though if it's very different because everyone's situation is different,

506
00:27:01,440 --> 00:27:03,520
Speaker 1: You find people and you connect to things like, oh yeah,

507
00:27:03,520 --> 00:27:05,960
Speaker 1: I like felt that exact same thing, which is really

508
00:27:05,960 --> 00:27:08,440
Speaker 1: important to like be able to share that and open

509
00:27:08,520 --> 00:27:11,159
Speaker 1: it up because most of my friend group they're all straight,

510
00:27:11,240 --> 00:27:16,199
Speaker 1: you know, like most of my friends are true, I

511
00:27:16,240 --> 00:27:18,840
Speaker 1: didn't have that, you know. It was luckily I have

512
00:27:18,920 --> 00:27:22,360
Speaker 1: two younger sisters that are both um gay, and they

513
00:27:22,400 --> 00:27:24,840
Speaker 1: they were very close to me at the time and

514
00:27:24,920 --> 00:27:27,280
Speaker 1: living with me, so I had them actually for a

515
00:27:27,280 --> 00:27:29,600
Speaker 1: lot of support. Even though they're my younger sisters. It

516
00:27:29,640 --> 00:27:31,879
Speaker 1: was really important to me. So I think it's just

517
00:27:32,200 --> 00:27:35,880
Speaker 1: very important to find your people and to find a

518
00:27:35,920 --> 00:27:38,880
Speaker 1: place that's safe while you're going through something like that. Yeah,

519
00:27:38,920 --> 00:27:40,880
Speaker 1: and take your time, yeah, yeah, and take your time.

520
00:27:40,920 --> 00:27:42,640
Speaker 1: And I like that you said sitting with the grief

521
00:27:42,680 --> 00:27:45,639
Speaker 1: because I think so often it's so easy to distract

522
00:27:45,760 --> 00:27:51,320
Speaker 1: from what's going on and look outside. Yes, it is

523
00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:59,480
Speaker 1: so easy, so so easy. Yes, what's your I really

524
00:27:59,520 --> 00:28:02,560
Speaker 1: resonate it when you said someone texting you about something

525
00:28:02,640 --> 00:28:06,040
Speaker 1: specific or like I really need help or advice going

526
00:28:06,080 --> 00:28:09,600
Speaker 1: through this. But then if someone says something vague, I

527
00:28:09,680 --> 00:28:12,520
Speaker 1: do the same thing, like my brain shuts off. I'm

528
00:28:12,560 --> 00:28:15,920
Speaker 1: like I can't respond to that. No, I know. It

529
00:28:15,960 --> 00:28:18,320
Speaker 1: makes me think back to like being in school and

530
00:28:18,359 --> 00:28:20,600
Speaker 1: when you're passing notes, you know what I mean, Like

531
00:28:21,040 --> 00:28:24,399
Speaker 1: pass a note that's like like do you like so

532
00:28:24,560 --> 00:28:27,080
Speaker 1: and so circule yes or no, Like that's like big

533
00:28:27,119 --> 00:28:32,000
Speaker 1: important information, you know, like don't be like what's up? Yeah?

534
00:28:32,560 --> 00:28:34,840
Speaker 1: Like what what do you? Like? How are you? How

535
00:28:34,920 --> 00:28:38,960
Speaker 1: am I? I don't know? Like I'm on my third coffee,

536
00:28:39,320 --> 00:28:41,280
Speaker 1: like I'm trying to get gas, I can't put my

537
00:28:41,360 --> 00:28:44,560
Speaker 1: keys and now used to sit down for five minutes

538
00:28:44,600 --> 00:28:47,040
Speaker 1: and put out a text message about how I'm doing.

539
00:28:47,240 --> 00:28:52,520
Speaker 1: Right now, I'm barely alive. That's how I'm doing. I'm

540
00:28:52,560 --> 00:28:54,560
Speaker 1: not going to write that. I'm like, that's a phone

541
00:28:54,560 --> 00:28:57,000
Speaker 1: call conversation, but there's a good chance I won't answer

542
00:28:57,040 --> 00:29:01,360
Speaker 1: the phone, So I don't know what to tell Like,

543
00:29:01,480 --> 00:29:04,240
Speaker 1: that's definitely a phone call, but I don't know when

544
00:29:04,240 --> 00:29:08,480
Speaker 1: I'll be ready to enter the phone. So yeah, you

545
00:29:08,760 --> 00:29:10,480
Speaker 1: give me a nine one one. I love a nine

546
00:29:10,520 --> 00:29:12,160
Speaker 1: one one. Do you feel like you've met because you

547
00:29:12,200 --> 00:29:15,040
Speaker 1: moved to Nashville kind of? Was it during the pandemic?

548
00:29:15,560 --> 00:29:18,240
Speaker 1: It's right, well, I mean we're all at this what's like,

549
00:29:18,280 --> 00:29:21,600
Speaker 1: what is what isn't the pandemic at this point? Um,

550
00:29:21,640 --> 00:29:26,760
Speaker 1: it's I moved last August. You feel like you have

551
00:29:26,840 --> 00:29:29,280
Speaker 1: like a like a like a home base there? Do

552
00:29:29,320 --> 00:29:32,000
Speaker 1: you feel at home? There no chance I ever moved

553
00:29:32,000 --> 00:29:34,680
Speaker 1: back to l A. I don't think so, unless like

554
00:29:34,760 --> 00:29:39,120
Speaker 1: I actually got a job that made me be there.

555
00:29:39,160 --> 00:29:40,840
Speaker 1: But I really love it here. I mean I spent

556
00:29:41,120 --> 00:29:44,760
Speaker 1: almost a decade in Atlanta, so I was used to

557
00:29:44,800 --> 00:29:48,160
Speaker 1: that speed. Um, I've always loved Nashville. I mean I

558
00:29:48,240 --> 00:29:51,080
Speaker 1: drive to my my drive my kids to school, and

559
00:29:51,280 --> 00:29:53,360
Speaker 1: we passed by horses and turkeys. I mean even on

560
00:29:53,400 --> 00:29:56,160
Speaker 1: our walk around the lake today, like my girlfriend and

561
00:29:56,160 --> 00:29:59,960
Speaker 1: I saw like deer and wild turkeys and little car

562
00:30:00,080 --> 00:30:03,000
Speaker 1: knolls and turtles, you know, And it's just like that's

563
00:30:03,000 --> 00:30:05,840
Speaker 1: our runyan, you know what. And it's beautiful and seasonal

564
00:30:06,440 --> 00:30:09,720
Speaker 1: and I can breathe. And I want l A to

565
00:30:09,760 --> 00:30:11,719
Speaker 1: be a city that works for me so much, and

566
00:30:11,760 --> 00:30:14,800
Speaker 1: it just didn't. I found myself to be there and

567
00:30:14,920 --> 00:30:18,360
Speaker 1: kind of um going backwards in a way of waiting

568
00:30:18,360 --> 00:30:21,120
Speaker 1: by the phone or comparing myself to a lot of people,

569
00:30:21,280 --> 00:30:23,920
Speaker 1: and and the city just felt so big and it

570
00:30:23,960 --> 00:30:26,160
Speaker 1: didn't bring out like the best of me as a

571
00:30:26,160 --> 00:30:29,360
Speaker 1: as a mother, I felt overwhelmed and trying to kind

572
00:30:29,360 --> 00:30:31,800
Speaker 1: of go and do a bunch of things and activities

573
00:30:31,800 --> 00:30:34,440
Speaker 1: with the kids. And here I feel like we can

574
00:30:34,520 --> 00:30:37,000
Speaker 1: just do so many fun things in a day. I

575
00:30:37,080 --> 00:30:39,240
Speaker 1: also I am not scared of moving. I moved a

576
00:30:39,280 --> 00:30:42,280
Speaker 1: lot when I was a kid. I travel alone, Like

577
00:30:42,360 --> 00:30:46,520
Speaker 1: I I'm fine making new friends. Like that's never anything

578
00:30:46,560 --> 00:30:49,479
Speaker 1: that's been really scary. It doesn't mean it's not scary

579
00:30:49,480 --> 00:30:52,480
Speaker 1: in the moment. And weird to try to like make

580
00:30:52,520 --> 00:30:55,880
Speaker 1: a new friend in your thirties. I want to go

581
00:30:56,000 --> 00:30:58,800
Speaker 1: get coffee or like a glass of wine to a

582
00:30:59,760 --> 00:31:03,040
Speaker 1: and um, you know, like what movies do you like?

583
00:31:05,120 --> 00:31:08,320
Speaker 1: Did you hear you on like bumble dff way? I know? Um,

584
00:31:08,520 --> 00:31:12,080
Speaker 1: I got really like I didn't do things I so

585
00:31:12,160 --> 00:31:14,920
Speaker 1: I before moving here, I actually did a Christmas movie

586
00:31:14,960 --> 00:31:18,560
Speaker 1: where I got to play Reba McIntire's daughter. And one

587
00:31:18,600 --> 00:31:21,600
Speaker 1: of the producers of it was Melissa Joan Hart and

588
00:31:21,680 --> 00:31:25,120
Speaker 1: she lives here and so she um, so I got

589
00:31:25,160 --> 00:31:28,160
Speaker 1: her number from her mom. I creeped in, was like, hey,

590
00:31:28,240 --> 00:31:31,440
Speaker 1: paula kind of your daughter's number because I need friends.

591
00:31:32,680 --> 00:31:35,840
Speaker 1: And so she invited me out to like this mom

592
00:31:35,960 --> 00:31:40,160
Speaker 1: group and they are the most and like write or

593
00:31:40,160 --> 00:31:43,800
Speaker 1: die women ever like that. I mean, I remember we

594
00:31:43,880 --> 00:31:46,680
Speaker 1: all there on this text chain, which you know if

595
00:31:46,680 --> 00:31:48,960
Speaker 1: you I'm not a big texture, but they text all

596
00:31:49,040 --> 00:31:51,600
Speaker 1: day all that there's like thirty messages, but I love

597
00:31:51,640 --> 00:31:54,480
Speaker 1: reading it like it's my version of like it's like

598
00:31:54,560 --> 00:31:59,280
Speaker 1: dumois and then that text change. I'm set um, but

599
00:31:59,400 --> 00:32:01,600
Speaker 1: there are me saying and so we do like movie

600
00:32:01,680 --> 00:32:04,080
Speaker 1: nights and dinner nights. I'm also the co leader of

601
00:32:04,120 --> 00:32:07,440
Speaker 1: my daughter's girl Scout troop that we are also a

602
00:32:07,600 --> 00:32:13,960
Speaker 1: very biggest thieves group of women and so fun, very fun.

603
00:32:14,240 --> 00:32:16,440
Speaker 1: It's very very fun. Yes, if you guys need cookies,

604
00:32:16,480 --> 00:32:18,760
Speaker 1: I can hook you up. Let me know. Yeah, I do.

605
00:32:18,920 --> 00:32:21,160
Speaker 1: Are you like true Beverly Hills? Like? Is that you

606
00:32:21,760 --> 00:32:26,640
Speaker 1: just like we are the opposite. We're pretty chill, were

607
00:32:26,680 --> 00:32:29,400
Speaker 1: like the very chill like for all the type a

608
00:32:29,560 --> 00:32:31,800
Speaker 1: stuff that I do. This is where we're pretty um,

609
00:32:31,960 --> 00:32:34,800
Speaker 1: We're pretty relaxed. Yeah, I keep forgetting. I want to

610
00:32:34,800 --> 00:32:36,680
Speaker 1: set you up on a friend date with Meredith Seacrest

611
00:32:36,720 --> 00:32:39,120
Speaker 1: because she lives in Nashville and she's so cute. Yeah,

612
00:32:39,240 --> 00:32:41,640
Speaker 1: I gotta, I gotta fire up the text chain because

613
00:32:41,640 --> 00:32:43,680
Speaker 1: she's so like you guys are one and the same,

614
00:32:43,760 --> 00:32:51,120
Speaker 1: like little angels from Heaven, little Nashville angels. When you

615
00:32:51,840 --> 00:32:54,840
Speaker 1: do you know you're in anigram type? Do you know that?

616
00:32:54,920 --> 00:32:58,960
Speaker 1: Have you ever done that? Wait? Why why? Because everyone

617
00:32:59,080 --> 00:33:01,920
Speaker 1: I have been asked is almost every week for the

618
00:33:02,000 --> 00:33:06,400
Speaker 1: last like three months to decide we operate. And the

619
00:33:07,520 --> 00:33:10,080
Speaker 1: this was my last like girls like night. We went

620
00:33:10,120 --> 00:33:13,440
Speaker 1: and had Margarita's and and that's all like my two

621
00:33:13,520 --> 00:33:16,360
Speaker 1: girlfriends that were like all about the instagrams going deep.

622
00:33:16,520 --> 00:33:18,440
Speaker 1: So finally on the way home, I took the test

623
00:33:18,680 --> 00:33:20,920
Speaker 1: like in my uber and I was like, guys, after

624
00:33:20,920 --> 00:33:23,520
Speaker 1: a few Margharita's, I'm a six. And my friend was like, no,

625
00:33:23,640 --> 00:33:27,080
Speaker 1: you're not, You're a ten. And what's the six? What's

626
00:33:27,120 --> 00:33:29,160
Speaker 1: the six? I don't know, but she thought I was

627
00:33:29,200 --> 00:33:31,400
Speaker 1: like downgrading myself. She's like, no, you're a ten of

628
00:33:31,400 --> 00:33:34,360
Speaker 1: a woman, she was. I was like, what do you do?

629
00:33:34,480 --> 00:33:36,680
Speaker 1: I thought there were only nine intagrams. She's like, why

630
00:33:36,760 --> 00:33:39,560
Speaker 1: are you selling yourself short? I was like, I'm talking

631
00:33:39,560 --> 00:33:41,360
Speaker 1: about the instagram. She's like, oh, I thought you were

632
00:33:41,400 --> 00:33:45,520
Speaker 1: feeling bad about yourself. I was like, no, how did

633
00:33:45,560 --> 00:33:48,840
Speaker 1: we get here when you just said ten? I was

634
00:33:48,920 --> 00:33:50,800
Speaker 1: like I don't know how to tell her there are

635
00:33:50,840 --> 00:33:54,200
Speaker 1: not ten aim So I'm not as familiar with that

636
00:33:54,320 --> 00:33:57,160
Speaker 1: Asbecca is, because well I'm not super familiar. I was

637
00:33:57,200 --> 00:33:59,120
Speaker 1: just thinking about a lot of the things that you said,

638
00:33:59,120 --> 00:34:01,320
Speaker 1: and I relate to a lot of them, But then

639
00:34:01,360 --> 00:34:03,800
Speaker 1: like the planning type a thing is more Tania, but

640
00:34:03,920 --> 00:34:07,320
Speaker 1: I don't I was curious if you New Year's but

641
00:34:07,800 --> 00:34:11,520
Speaker 1: you're six apparently a six after few margharitas, so I

642
00:34:11,520 --> 00:34:14,520
Speaker 1: don't know if that changes. I'm i'd probably be different

643
00:34:14,560 --> 00:34:18,640
Speaker 1: after a few margarita. We should all have an indiogram

644
00:34:18,800 --> 00:34:23,080
Speaker 1: sober and indiogram after a few margharitas and see if

645
00:34:23,120 --> 00:34:26,359
Speaker 1: they line up. Um. But I was also I just

646
00:34:26,800 --> 00:34:31,840
Speaker 1: I feel I really connect to the part of overthinking conversations,

647
00:34:31,880 --> 00:34:33,960
Speaker 1: Like when I go to social events, I leave and

648
00:34:33,960 --> 00:34:38,840
Speaker 1: I'm like, did I why did I share what I

649
00:34:38,920 --> 00:34:42,000
Speaker 1: shared with that stranger that I just met, Like, honestly,

650
00:34:42,080 --> 00:34:46,560
Speaker 1: I like overshare so much out of I don't know, nervousness,

651
00:34:46,640 --> 00:34:48,719
Speaker 1: social anxiety, whatever it is. And then I leave and

652
00:34:48,760 --> 00:34:51,240
Speaker 1: I'm like anxious about that. And same thing on the podcast,

653
00:34:51,239 --> 00:34:52,920
Speaker 1: where like, I mean, we've been doing this for a

654
00:34:52,960 --> 00:34:54,840
Speaker 1: long time, but I still have times where I'm like,

655
00:34:54,880 --> 00:34:59,880
Speaker 1: did I Misspeah? You're fine, so I you know that

656
00:35:00,000 --> 00:35:01,760
Speaker 1: why I asked. I don't know if it has anything

657
00:35:01,760 --> 00:35:04,640
Speaker 1: to do with your indiogram. It could I don't know,

658
00:35:06,160 --> 00:35:08,399
Speaker 1: but I'm like, it's a word that I've never ever

659
00:35:08,440 --> 00:35:10,440
Speaker 1: heard before. And in the last couple of months, it's

660
00:35:10,440 --> 00:35:14,160
Speaker 1: like every single week I'm like, what, what godwink is

661
00:35:14,200 --> 00:35:20,000
Speaker 1: this to say? Maybe there's something there. I don't know

662
00:35:20,040 --> 00:35:23,200
Speaker 1: what it would be. I don't either. It's got something

663
00:35:23,239 --> 00:35:25,239
Speaker 1: to do with six I don't know. I know you

664
00:35:25,320 --> 00:35:28,040
Speaker 1: do a lot of therapy, but are you lik into

665
00:35:28,040 --> 00:35:33,319
Speaker 1: self help books? No? I try like it's interesting. I

666
00:35:33,360 --> 00:35:36,759
Speaker 1: don't know. No, I'm not. I'm just not. Yeah, I'm

667
00:35:36,800 --> 00:35:42,239
Speaker 1: not like, no, I want to be. I I also like,

668
00:35:42,280 --> 00:35:45,480
Speaker 1: I used to be a very like voracious reader and

669
00:35:45,480 --> 00:35:47,840
Speaker 1: then all of a sudden when I had babies and

670
00:35:48,040 --> 00:35:51,160
Speaker 1: it was really hard, Like my brain just doesn't stick

671
00:35:51,560 --> 00:35:53,840
Speaker 1: to the page very well. Um, I can do it

672
00:35:53,880 --> 00:35:56,240
Speaker 1: when I'm like cramming for a podcast episode. I tried

673
00:35:56,280 --> 00:35:59,200
Speaker 1: to read the book or most of the book, um,

674
00:35:59,600 --> 00:36:01,759
Speaker 1: But other than that, it's it's tough for me to

675
00:36:01,840 --> 00:36:03,840
Speaker 1: really get through it because I feel like you're somebody

676
00:36:03,880 --> 00:36:10,399
Speaker 1: that's very like self aware. Yes, I believe that I am.

677
00:36:10,600 --> 00:36:13,279
Speaker 1: I think that there's but I mean that could be

678
00:36:13,320 --> 00:36:15,799
Speaker 1: a whole other podcast episode. Probably I'd have to check

679
00:36:15,880 --> 00:36:18,920
Speaker 1: with my therapist on that one. Um, but it is

680
00:36:19,000 --> 00:36:22,160
Speaker 1: I do. Look, I love therapy. I've I've been in

681
00:36:22,200 --> 00:36:26,319
Speaker 1: therapy since I was eighteen, UM with various therapists through

682
00:36:26,320 --> 00:36:29,000
Speaker 1: the years, and what I've found is, um, I like

683
00:36:29,200 --> 00:36:31,239
Speaker 1: going in with like one thing I'm trying to really

684
00:36:31,360 --> 00:36:33,600
Speaker 1: navigate and seeing if that person is able to kind

685
00:36:33,600 --> 00:36:37,319
Speaker 1: of walk me through that kind of chapter, that path. Um.

686
00:36:37,360 --> 00:36:41,640
Speaker 1: But I love it. I I encourage anyone to give

687
00:36:41,680 --> 00:36:44,000
Speaker 1: it a go. If you're too scared, just go for it.

688
00:36:44,000 --> 00:36:45,439
Speaker 1: And also, if you go to therapy and you don't

689
00:36:45,440 --> 00:36:48,000
Speaker 1: like the therapist the first time, it's fine. It's like dating,

690
00:36:48,600 --> 00:36:50,680
Speaker 1: Like just because you go and have a drink doesn't

691
00:36:50,680 --> 00:36:53,040
Speaker 1: mean you're married to them. And sometimes they make it

692
00:36:53,080 --> 00:36:54,680
Speaker 1: weird when you try to break up with them. Like

693
00:36:54,760 --> 00:36:58,040
Speaker 1: I tried a therapist here and she was like, give

694
00:36:58,080 --> 00:37:00,600
Speaker 1: me one more chance, and I was like no, And

695
00:37:00,640 --> 00:37:02,560
Speaker 1: then I was like, wow, this is a breakthrough for me,

696
00:37:02,719 --> 00:37:06,840
Speaker 1: this is like healthy boundaries. No, she was like giving

697
00:37:06,840 --> 00:37:09,799
Speaker 1: you a chance to like work on what y'all talk

698
00:37:09,840 --> 00:37:17,120
Speaker 1: about testing me, testing me like a pass. I graduated

699
00:37:17,160 --> 00:37:23,799
Speaker 1: from your therapy going to college. Now I want to

700
00:37:23,840 --> 00:37:27,160
Speaker 1: talk about what you see if you want to talk

701
00:37:27,160 --> 00:37:29,120
Speaker 1: about it. I want to talk about what you see

702
00:37:29,360 --> 00:37:33,040
Speaker 1: moving forward career wise personally. But first we're gonna take

703
00:37:33,040 --> 00:37:55,360
Speaker 1: a break. Okay, we are back. I scrapped the name earlier,

704
00:37:55,400 --> 00:37:57,719
Speaker 1: but as I said in the beginning, you were all

705
00:37:57,800 --> 00:38:01,960
Speaker 1: night little show called the Vampire Diaries. What did I

706
00:38:01,960 --> 00:38:05,839
Speaker 1: say earlier, Vampire's Diary, Vampire Diary, the Vampire's Diaryire is

707
00:38:05,719 --> 00:38:13,959
Speaker 1: this diary? Um? Do you ever see a reunion type

708
00:38:14,000 --> 00:38:17,160
Speaker 1: show happening? It's so funny. I got asked this question

709
00:38:17,200 --> 00:38:22,799
Speaker 1: recently and a questions. I mean, but I with the

710
00:38:22,800 --> 00:38:27,480
Speaker 1: show just technically ended last year because we had the

711
00:38:27,520 --> 00:38:31,279
Speaker 1: original spinoff and then we had Legacies, um, which just

712
00:38:31,520 --> 00:38:35,680
Speaker 1: finished in the spring of one, so I think it'd

713
00:38:35,719 --> 00:38:39,440
Speaker 1: be too soon. You know it it is. I still

714
00:38:39,520 --> 00:38:42,239
Speaker 1: pinched myself. I can't believe that I was a part

715
00:38:42,280 --> 00:38:46,360
Speaker 1: of something that just especially now with streaming, people continue

716
00:38:46,400 --> 00:38:49,200
Speaker 1: to watch things all the time, and it's you know,

717
00:38:49,360 --> 00:38:52,080
Speaker 1: it's like you get older, but then the people watching

718
00:38:52,120 --> 00:38:55,360
Speaker 1: it get younger, and then that feels really interesting. Um.

719
00:38:55,440 --> 00:38:58,240
Speaker 1: Today at the coffee shop, at these really sweet girls

720
00:38:58,239 --> 00:39:01,320
Speaker 1: in college come up and they were your voice sounds

721
00:39:01,400 --> 00:39:05,080
Speaker 1: so different, and I was like, well, I've aged thirteen years.

722
00:39:07,560 --> 00:39:09,880
Speaker 1: That's a funny comment to make. That is such a

723
00:39:09,880 --> 00:39:12,920
Speaker 1: funny comment to make. But I do like that. I

724
00:39:12,960 --> 00:39:15,120
Speaker 1: do like the idea behind this, Like where do you

725
00:39:15,200 --> 00:39:18,040
Speaker 1: see yourself? Because you are such a planner, Where do

726
00:39:18,080 --> 00:39:20,280
Speaker 1: you see yourself because you just launch this new podcast,

727
00:39:20,320 --> 00:39:22,160
Speaker 1: Like do you see this going a certain direction? Like

728
00:39:22,200 --> 00:39:24,400
Speaker 1: where do you see yourself going career wise personally in

729
00:39:24,440 --> 00:39:28,080
Speaker 1: the next five years? Or do you have dreams? Well,

730
00:39:28,120 --> 00:39:30,799
Speaker 1: I think that's no dreams. Nope, I've decided to not

731
00:39:30,920 --> 00:39:39,840
Speaker 1: dream anymore. Part of those, I have some vision board goals,

732
00:39:40,080 --> 00:39:42,759
Speaker 1: but I did have for many years at when I

733
00:39:42,840 --> 00:39:47,200
Speaker 1: left the Vampire Diaries, Um, I did have an idea

734
00:39:47,239 --> 00:39:49,640
Speaker 1: of what I thought my life was supposed to look like.

735
00:39:50,040 --> 00:39:51,960
Speaker 1: And I was like, okay, so here I am. Now

736
00:39:52,000 --> 00:39:54,160
Speaker 1: I'm entering my thirties. I'm going to do this, I'm

737
00:39:54,160 --> 00:39:56,360
Speaker 1: gonna do this, I'm gonna do that, and then and

738
00:39:56,360 --> 00:39:57,839
Speaker 1: then I'm gonna take a break in them and do this,

739
00:39:58,080 --> 00:40:00,919
Speaker 1: and then there's the rest of my life. And when

740
00:40:01,680 --> 00:40:05,200
Speaker 1: life changes and you realize that you can't really plan

741
00:40:05,320 --> 00:40:07,680
Speaker 1: everything and it doesn't matter how many times you write

742
00:40:07,680 --> 00:40:10,120
Speaker 1: it down on the calendar, like life has its own

743
00:40:10,120 --> 00:40:17,799
Speaker 1: plans sometimes, and um, I just really had to rethink

744
00:40:17,840 --> 00:40:21,560
Speaker 1: about why I felt it's so necessary to have an

745
00:40:21,600 --> 00:40:23,440
Speaker 1: idea of what it was supposed to look like. And

746
00:40:23,480 --> 00:40:25,920
Speaker 1: I had these blinders on and I didn't have that

747
00:40:25,920 --> 00:40:28,640
Speaker 1: when I was younger. I I looking back, I didn't.

748
00:40:28,680 --> 00:40:31,000
Speaker 1: I had like general goals that I was always was

749
00:40:31,040 --> 00:40:34,200
Speaker 1: working towards something. But I was still listening for those

750
00:40:34,200 --> 00:40:37,400
Speaker 1: little opportunities and knew that sometimes you know, it's like

751
00:40:37,440 --> 00:40:39,319
Speaker 1: instead of going through the front door, sometimes you go

752
00:40:39,360 --> 00:40:41,200
Speaker 1: through the side door, or you go through the window.

753
00:40:41,320 --> 00:40:44,200
Speaker 1: And I just had not been really doing that for

754
00:40:44,280 --> 00:40:46,719
Speaker 1: a period of time. I was just so focused on

755
00:40:46,760 --> 00:40:48,960
Speaker 1: it had to be a certain way of the trajectory

756
00:40:49,000 --> 00:40:52,959
Speaker 1: of my career. Um. And so now I'm much more

757
00:40:53,160 --> 00:40:56,680
Speaker 1: open to see, you know, what else is out there.

758
00:40:56,680 --> 00:40:59,400
Speaker 1: And I really I don't know. I love being on

759
00:40:59,480 --> 00:41:03,279
Speaker 1: a set. I love working in television. Television is my

760
00:41:03,520 --> 00:41:07,240
Speaker 1: like happy place. I feel very confused on a movie.

761
00:41:07,320 --> 00:41:10,279
Speaker 1: I've not done very many of them, but I'm just like,

762
00:41:10,360 --> 00:41:12,319
Speaker 1: why are we only here for like a couple of

763
00:41:12,320 --> 00:41:14,399
Speaker 1: weeks or a couple of months. This doesn't make sense.

764
00:41:14,400 --> 00:41:16,960
Speaker 1: We're all supposed to know each other for years. Um,

765
00:41:17,280 --> 00:41:20,960
Speaker 1: and I I got so spoiled on the Vampire Diaries.

766
00:41:21,000 --> 00:41:24,799
Speaker 1: You don't usually get a run like that, so um,

767
00:41:24,840 --> 00:41:27,760
Speaker 1: I really don't know. Um. I also for a while.

768
00:41:27,960 --> 00:41:29,520
Speaker 1: I mean, you guys will appreciate this because I was

769
00:41:29,560 --> 00:41:32,239
Speaker 1: just was like Ellen Pompeio, she's got the dream, and

770
00:41:32,520 --> 00:41:35,080
Speaker 1: then that's what I'm gonna do, replicate her career. I'm

771
00:41:35,120 --> 00:41:37,279
Speaker 1: gonna turn thirty three years old and I'm going to

772
00:41:37,360 --> 00:41:39,239
Speaker 1: be on a show and I'm gonna be there for

773
00:41:39,320 --> 00:41:41,440
Speaker 1: like eighteen years and then that's it. And then I'm

774
00:41:41,480 --> 00:41:43,480
Speaker 1: just gonna be happy and making money and like, I

775
00:41:43,560 --> 00:41:45,760
Speaker 1: got my babies and I can just take them to school,

776
00:41:45,840 --> 00:41:49,000
Speaker 1: go work, and then that's the life. Um. And then

777
00:41:49,000 --> 00:41:52,040
Speaker 1: when I hit thirty three thirty four and that didn't happen,

778
00:41:52,120 --> 00:41:53,920
Speaker 1: I was like, well, I guess it's over. I have

779
00:41:54,000 --> 00:41:59,080
Speaker 1: failed and I will never ever achieve Ellen Pompeio's dream,

780
00:41:59,120 --> 00:42:01,560
Speaker 1: which had become my. And it is so silly to

781
00:42:01,600 --> 00:42:04,239
Speaker 1: put a time stamp on what happens in life, and

782
00:42:04,320 --> 00:42:06,840
Speaker 1: especially I think for anyone that was watching Award shows lately,

783
00:42:07,480 --> 00:42:10,160
Speaker 1: it's so fun to see all of these artists and

784
00:42:10,239 --> 00:42:13,200
Speaker 1: performers who are up there winning awards, going angle. This

785
00:42:13,239 --> 00:42:15,879
Speaker 1: is hilarious. I thought my career was over thirty years ago,

786
00:42:16,760 --> 00:42:19,160
Speaker 1: and so there is no one way that it's supposed

787
00:42:19,160 --> 00:42:22,960
Speaker 1: to look um right now. I'm just very I'm kind

788
00:42:22,960 --> 00:42:26,840
Speaker 1: of I'm here. I'm showing up and interested to see

789
00:42:26,880 --> 00:42:29,759
Speaker 1: like what windows and indoors and and you know a

790
00:42:29,800 --> 00:42:34,000
Speaker 1: little pockets are open um to kind of that. That's

791
00:42:34,040 --> 00:42:36,440
Speaker 1: as that's as good as I have planned right now,

792
00:42:36,520 --> 00:42:39,399
Speaker 1: which is for me actually a really positive thing. Yeah,

793
00:42:39,400 --> 00:42:41,279
Speaker 1: it's interesting that you say that, because I feel like

794
00:42:41,360 --> 00:42:43,200
Speaker 1: I've been some of that vision boards. I do it

795
00:42:43,200 --> 00:42:44,800
Speaker 1: every single year, and I used to I was always

796
00:42:44,840 --> 00:42:47,720
Speaker 1: attached to the outcome. It was always I was attached

797
00:42:47,760 --> 00:42:49,880
Speaker 1: to every single outcome, and when those things didn't happen

798
00:42:49,920 --> 00:42:51,520
Speaker 1: when I thought they were supposed to happen, it was

799
00:42:51,560 --> 00:42:54,160
Speaker 1: just like heartbreak after heartbreak after heartbreak. And so what

800
00:42:54,239 --> 00:42:57,080
Speaker 1: I realized, it's like it's having vision and having passion.

801
00:42:57,120 --> 00:42:59,279
Speaker 1: Having purpose is one thing, but like attaching it to

802
00:42:59,320 --> 00:43:01,680
Speaker 1: a specific time online is where things get. You know,

803
00:43:01,680 --> 00:43:06,200
Speaker 1: you're attaching an outcome that you don't know when that's

804
00:43:06,200 --> 00:43:08,040
Speaker 1: going to happen. So it's like I've had to learn

805
00:43:08,040 --> 00:43:11,080
Speaker 1: this like fine balance of having these goals and having

806
00:43:11,200 --> 00:43:14,400
Speaker 1: vision and passion and purpose and drive, but also letting

807
00:43:14,520 --> 00:43:18,879
Speaker 1: life just kind of unfold in its own timing, which

808
00:43:18,920 --> 00:43:21,480
Speaker 1: is very difficult for me, but you know, working through it,

809
00:43:21,960 --> 00:43:23,960
Speaker 1: and it's so much more fun when that happens. But

810
00:43:24,040 --> 00:43:28,000
Speaker 1: I'm the same way like I. But it when when

811
00:43:28,000 --> 00:43:30,080
Speaker 1: when when all of a sudden you go, wow, I

812
00:43:30,120 --> 00:43:32,600
Speaker 1: can't believe this is how it came together, but it did,

813
00:43:32,640 --> 00:43:37,400
Speaker 1: and it actually feels fantastic, and I didn't like it

814
00:43:37,520 --> 00:43:40,280
Speaker 1: when it does reveal itself. I mean even just Oprey

815
00:43:40,280 --> 00:43:43,480
Speaker 1: Plaza hosting SML ending it with like dreams come true.

816
00:43:43,840 --> 00:43:47,120
Speaker 1: You know, it's like it's beautiful and you never know

817
00:43:47,200 --> 00:43:50,680
Speaker 1: how it's going to happen. Um. And and also sometimes

818
00:43:50,719 --> 00:43:53,600
Speaker 1: dreams change and it's okay too. I Mean, I grew

819
00:43:53,680 --> 00:43:57,279
Speaker 1: up wanting to be a pop star and that is

820
00:43:57,360 --> 00:44:00,399
Speaker 1: so far from what I ever want to do at

821
00:44:00,440 --> 00:44:03,720
Speaker 1: this point, So I you know, dreams change and evolve

822
00:44:03,760 --> 00:44:07,880
Speaker 1: as well, and there's room for that. Um. What about

823
00:44:07,880 --> 00:44:10,080
Speaker 1: writing that seems to be like a passion? Is that

824
00:44:10,160 --> 00:44:12,080
Speaker 1: something you'd ever wanted to be a career? Is that

825
00:44:12,120 --> 00:44:15,640
Speaker 1: one of those things that you hold is like a

826
00:44:15,640 --> 00:44:21,200
Speaker 1: hobby and something that's an escape. It's it's funny. I

827
00:44:21,200 --> 00:44:24,680
Speaker 1: I love writers like I love them like I just

828
00:44:24,719 --> 00:44:27,000
Speaker 1: think that they're so cool, like instead of I would

829
00:44:27,120 --> 00:44:29,640
Speaker 1: rather be at a table full of writers and screenwriters

830
00:44:29,680 --> 00:44:31,640
Speaker 1: than at a table full of actors like that would

831
00:44:31,800 --> 00:44:34,800
Speaker 1: it's just more I don't know, I really like listening

832
00:44:34,800 --> 00:44:37,879
Speaker 1: to those conversations. And I'm not to like sound small

833
00:44:38,440 --> 00:44:42,120
Speaker 1: or anything. I just, Um, I have a lot of

834
00:44:42,120 --> 00:44:44,560
Speaker 1: friends who are writers, and I'm just in awe of them.

835
00:44:44,680 --> 00:44:46,720
Speaker 1: So it's really been hard for me to ever consider

836
00:44:46,760 --> 00:44:50,480
Speaker 1: myself any sort of or to be a writer. But

837
00:44:50,680 --> 00:44:53,719
Speaker 1: I I don't know that that I would absolutely be

838
00:44:53,840 --> 00:44:57,560
Speaker 1: open to maybe one day. Well, you're good at it.

839
00:44:57,640 --> 00:45:00,520
Speaker 1: As a listener of the Super of a Super Blue podcast,

840
00:45:00,600 --> 00:45:02,000
Speaker 1: you are good at it. So if you could just

841
00:45:02,040 --> 00:45:03,960
Speaker 1: even like compile all those things that you really like

842
00:45:04,000 --> 00:45:06,439
Speaker 1: the audio, you could do like, um, what are those

843
00:45:06,520 --> 00:45:09,240
Speaker 1: call maps? Like the call map where you like read?

844
00:45:09,920 --> 00:45:17,480
Speaker 1: Like reading? I used the sleep the Sleep stories. I mean,

845
00:45:17,719 --> 00:45:21,920
Speaker 1: it doesn't always work, but I've tried. I know it

846
00:45:21,960 --> 00:45:24,600
Speaker 1: works like half of the time. You're like when I

847
00:45:24,640 --> 00:45:27,839
Speaker 1: take a melatonin and other things, it works great. I know,

848
00:45:28,040 --> 00:45:32,040
Speaker 1: it's funny. There's I've been I've been like, I've been trouble.

849
00:45:32,120 --> 00:45:34,600
Speaker 1: I've had trouble sleeping, and so I've been binge watching

850
00:45:34,640 --> 00:45:37,520
Speaker 1: shows and so I rebene watched Ship's Creek and then

851
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Speaker 1: I've been been watching Outlander because I never watched it.

852
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Speaker 1: But I went to Scotland last fall by myself for

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Speaker 1: like a solo woman like I did like a solo

854
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Speaker 1: trip and road trip through Scotland to go fly fishing

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Speaker 1: and golfing as one lady does. And so I was

856
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Speaker 1: driving and all the places I ended up like all

857
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Speaker 1: my guides and everyone was like, so you're here because

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Speaker 1: of Outlander and I was like, nope, don't know. I

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Speaker 1: don't know. No, I'm not. But you're a woman and

860
00:46:04,000 --> 00:46:07,000
Speaker 1: you're in Scotland alone, so obviously you love Outlander. And

861
00:46:07,200 --> 00:46:09,840
Speaker 1: I had no idea. But so I started watching that

862
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Speaker 1: um at night like when I'm kind of falling to sleep,

863
00:46:12,520 --> 00:46:14,000
Speaker 1: and one of the people from the show just did

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00:46:14,000 --> 00:46:19,719
Speaker 1: asleep story, like it helps me fall asleep, funny Scottish,

865
00:46:19,760 --> 00:46:23,080
Speaker 1: like the Scottish like accent right now is helping me. Like,

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00:46:23,160 --> 00:46:26,000
Speaker 1: so maybe you can try that. Highly recommend just maybe

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Speaker 1: put on like a Scottish audio book. Oay, something about

868
00:46:30,600 --> 00:46:33,840
Speaker 1: the cadence in which like the Scottish accent is spoken.

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Speaker 1: It's just very relaxing. I'll try that. We watched it.

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00:46:39,320 --> 00:46:42,440
Speaker 1: We watch Friends at night, Haley like normally I fall asleep,

871
00:46:42,480 --> 00:46:44,920
Speaker 1: but Hailey watches like we It's always on when she

872
00:46:45,000 --> 00:46:47,200
Speaker 1: was ready to go to sleep. Maybe if I had

873
00:46:47,239 --> 00:46:56,200
Speaker 1: like a calm with like Jennifer Aniston, I fall asleep. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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Speaker 1: I don't know if Monica would relax me, but or

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00:47:00,520 --> 00:47:09,759
Speaker 1: Ross about I would love a ross one. Well I am.

876
00:47:09,480 --> 00:47:13,040
Speaker 1: I just like want everything that you want for yourself,

877
00:47:13,080 --> 00:47:16,880
Speaker 1: for you, because I really think that you're such an

878
00:47:16,920 --> 00:47:22,280
Speaker 1: incredible person and I want you to once you're super

879
00:47:22,280 --> 00:47:24,480
Speaker 1: bloom happens, I want it to be everything that you

880
00:47:24,719 --> 00:47:28,160
Speaker 1: hope for and dream for. So me too, I can't

881
00:47:28,160 --> 00:47:39,520
Speaker 1: wait to see your super blooming. Oh yeah, how can

882
00:47:39,560 --> 00:47:42,000
Speaker 1: you wait to see it? And asking my intagram can

883
00:47:42,239 --> 00:47:46,800
Speaker 1: wait to see the scientific phenomenon that only happens after

884
00:47:46,840 --> 00:47:50,360
Speaker 1: a lot of rain is pounding on the soil and

885
00:47:50,400 --> 00:47:53,600
Speaker 1: then something that happens and then something beautiful comes out

886
00:47:53,640 --> 00:48:00,879
Speaker 1: of it. Yes, we're ready to see that you guys

887
00:48:00,880 --> 00:48:06,040
Speaker 1: are both pervs. Herberts. I wasn't going there until she

888
00:48:06,080 --> 00:48:08,440
Speaker 1: went there, and then I've been watching too much Outlander.

889
00:48:08,520 --> 00:48:13,520
Speaker 1: That's what happens show. It's not it's a very historical show.

890
00:48:13,680 --> 00:48:16,239
Speaker 1: It's a lot of history that I wasn't aware of

891
00:48:17,400 --> 00:48:22,600
Speaker 1: mixed in with PERV seeing super bloom of people. Do

892
00:48:22,600 --> 00:48:25,000
Speaker 1: I need to watch that show? It's very good and

893
00:48:25,040 --> 00:48:29,000
Speaker 1: it's very good, like not a relaxing show though, Like,

894
00:48:29,080 --> 00:48:33,080
Speaker 1: isn't it kind of intense? Yeah, so that's interesting that

895
00:48:33,120 --> 00:48:36,680
Speaker 1: you're but that's where I'm operating. That's how I relaxed.

896
00:48:38,920 --> 00:48:43,879
Speaker 1: I need to see other people living in chaos to relax. Yes,

897
00:48:44,560 --> 00:48:48,239
Speaker 1: that there might be something there to that. Yeah, it's

898
00:48:48,280 --> 00:48:55,440
Speaker 1: like Housewives and Outlander kills me out house stressed. I

899
00:48:55,480 --> 00:48:58,600
Speaker 1: feel like last night Potomac watching I was like, yes,

900
00:48:58,800 --> 00:49:01,520
Speaker 1: they're also upset and stress out. I feel so much

901
00:49:01,560 --> 00:49:04,279
Speaker 1: better now. Oh that's so interesting because I watched that

902
00:49:04,320 --> 00:49:07,239
Speaker 1: show when I get major anxiety, like, I can't watch it.

903
00:49:08,120 --> 00:49:11,799
Speaker 1: Maybe your life's too calm right now, so you're not

904
00:49:12,160 --> 00:49:15,120
Speaker 1: relaxed by other people. It's not very calm. I wouldn't

905
00:49:15,239 --> 00:49:21,840
Speaker 1: describe it as calm, and the slightest, but OK, well,

906
00:49:22,000 --> 00:49:25,480
Speaker 1: it was so wonderful seeing you and talking with you

907
00:49:25,520 --> 00:49:28,319
Speaker 1: and having you back on scrubbing in. We love you

908
00:49:28,440 --> 00:49:32,319
Speaker 1: and are fans of you. Fans for everybody to check

909
00:49:32,320 --> 00:49:35,279
Speaker 1: out your podcast, a super bloom podcast. Everybody goes show

910
00:49:35,360 --> 00:49:39,160
Speaker 1: cand to some love, tell her your scrubber sender all

911
00:49:39,160 --> 00:49:43,719
Speaker 1: the the scrubber love and encouragement vibes. For sure, You'll

912
00:49:43,760 --> 00:49:47,640
Speaker 1: always provide um. Where can people follow you and know

913
00:49:47,760 --> 00:49:51,000
Speaker 1: about you and watch it? Do you have TikTok? I do?

914
00:49:51,800 --> 00:49:53,560
Speaker 1: I need to get back on it. I like was

915
00:49:53,719 --> 00:49:55,800
Speaker 1: like coming in strong for a minute because apparently my

916
00:49:55,880 --> 00:49:58,680
Speaker 1: voice went like viral for some like not my voice,

917
00:49:58,719 --> 00:50:04,480
Speaker 1: well my voice technically, but Caroline, remember the burn it?

918
00:50:04,640 --> 00:50:08,239
Speaker 1: The can' like, um burn it? Burn it? Did? I

919
00:50:08,280 --> 00:50:12,680
Speaker 1: say stand there and looks stupid? So I said burn it. Wait,

920
00:50:12,760 --> 00:50:15,120
Speaker 1: let's do that again. Maybe our podcast can go viral.

921
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Speaker 1: We need it here here first re viral moment it

922
00:50:21,239 --> 00:50:24,600
Speaker 1: goes I don't know, god, burn it? Did I say

923
00:50:24,680 --> 00:50:29,320
Speaker 1: stand there and looks stupid? No, I said burn it

924
00:50:29,600 --> 00:50:32,319
Speaker 1: something like that. But I had someone helping me with

925
00:50:32,360 --> 00:50:35,000
Speaker 1: TikTok because I had to literally hire someone because I

926
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Speaker 1: didn't understand the app because I'm don't. My brain doesn't

927
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Speaker 1: work like that, and and she was like, you have

928
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Speaker 1: to do it, and I was like, this is so funny.

929
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Speaker 1: It's from the show. I think was it Catherine who

930
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Speaker 1: did it? She's like, no, it's your voice. I'm like, oh,

931
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Speaker 1: yeah it was. And then I was in New York

932
00:50:51,800 --> 00:50:54,359
Speaker 1: and I'd like the a very like youth people like

933
00:50:54,440 --> 00:50:57,200
Speaker 1: you're just young people being like you're you're the girl

934
00:50:57,239 --> 00:51:03,680
Speaker 1: from TikTok. And I was just like, yeah, kids, I'm

935
00:51:03,760 --> 00:51:06,040
Speaker 1: here and you're like all that hard work to be

936
00:51:06,120 --> 00:51:10,759
Speaker 1: a girlfriend TikTok. That is so funny. I will say,

937
00:51:10,800 --> 00:51:13,600
Speaker 1: you know, Haley had an episode. I don't she had

938
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Speaker 1: an episode on Van Pard. She died quickly, but she

939
00:51:18,600 --> 00:51:22,440
Speaker 1: always said you were so kind to her. She was awesome.

940
00:51:22,560 --> 00:51:25,720
Speaker 1: I definitely remember, Yeah, she was awesome with the angel vibes.

941
00:51:26,719 --> 00:51:32,759
Speaker 1: That's just you know, how to fly. Just wow, that

942
00:51:32,880 --> 00:51:35,799
Speaker 1: was exciting hearing you do that on here. Honestly, and

943
00:51:35,840 --> 00:51:38,600
Speaker 1: like on it it is funny. TikTok is funny in

944
00:51:38,600 --> 00:51:41,200
Speaker 1: the sense that it'll pick the most random thing that

945
00:51:41,280 --> 00:51:44,520
Speaker 1: has no like significance to it. I was going to

946
00:51:44,880 --> 00:51:50,880
Speaker 1: totally miss that trend that makes sense to me, or

947
00:51:51,760 --> 00:51:54,080
Speaker 1: I too am not so good on the TikTok, but

948
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Speaker 1: I'm trying well. I'm gonna be working with the team

949
00:51:58,640 --> 00:52:00,920
Speaker 1: again in a few weeks, so then the TikTok's will

950
00:52:00,960 --> 00:52:02,520
Speaker 1: be rolling again. If I don't know how to point

951
00:52:02,520 --> 00:52:04,600
Speaker 1: at the words and make them disappear, so one day

952
00:52:04,640 --> 00:52:09,919
Speaker 1: I'll figure that out. Oh yeah, yeah, I can. Any

953
00:52:10,000 --> 00:52:13,319
Speaker 1: TikTok that like is any sort of has any type

954
00:52:13,320 --> 00:52:15,840
Speaker 1: of element outside of a video. Becca has to do

955
00:52:15,880 --> 00:52:20,759
Speaker 1: it for me. Yeah, I'm decent um, But where can

956
00:52:20,760 --> 00:52:24,399
Speaker 1: people follow you on the TikTok sorry TikTok? I think

957
00:52:24,440 --> 00:52:31,239
Speaker 1: on it's Candice King on TikTok Um we will and

958
00:52:31,280 --> 00:52:34,160
Speaker 1: then on Instagram I'm at Candice King and I also

959
00:52:34,200 --> 00:52:37,640
Speaker 1: have at a super Bloom pod and a super Boom

960
00:52:37,840 --> 00:52:40,759
Speaker 1: A Super Bloom podcast comes out every Thursday, and I've

961
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Speaker 1: also just started a second um episode each week that's

962
00:52:44,760 --> 00:52:47,759
Speaker 1: coming out on Monday's and it's called like cold Brew

963
00:52:48,080 --> 00:52:50,919
Speaker 1: Caffeinated Conversations. I'm still coming up with the name. I'm

964
00:52:50,960 --> 00:52:53,920
Speaker 1: just very I'm answering questions and talking about pop culture

965
00:52:53,920 --> 00:52:57,319
Speaker 1: stuff while drinking an obscene amount of cold brew, which

966
00:52:57,360 --> 00:53:00,560
Speaker 1: is how I usually super my day. Love that we

967
00:53:00,640 --> 00:53:04,919
Speaker 1: love it to to podcasts a week situation. We love

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Speaker 1: you so much, We love you so much for having me. Yeah,