Speaker 1: Guess what decision We're about to make a horrible decision. Hey, guys,
Speaker 1: welcome to yet another episode of Less did the old
Speaker 1: I'm your girl Mandy b aka pet to Stallion aka
Speaker 1: that bitch aka Copumps aka I will puck your daddy
Speaker 1: and your brother. Okay, that's that's that's the bibe more.
Speaker 1: Okay the brother to the brother to Mandy ever tell
Speaker 1: you about her brother's story. We're not gonna do that. Okay.
Speaker 1: Anyway way, your daddy and your son have you been
Speaker 1: seeing all these like old NBA players posted up with
Speaker 1: a son? Okay, I'm easy, walk to the show. I'm
Speaker 1: really sorry. We have a guest in the villa. And
Speaker 1: to be honest, I always feel weird when we have
Speaker 1: interviewers on because I'll be like, fuck, we're terrible at this.
Speaker 1: We talk shit. I'd like to say, oh, we have
Speaker 1: conversations with people just then and be like, damn, why
Speaker 1: did y'all go all over the place. Well, y'all, we
Speaker 1: have Jason Lee in the building today, and I'm excited
Speaker 1: because I'm your guard is down. We talked already, I mean,
Speaker 1: even to have been horrible, Well, there's no there's never
Speaker 1: a guard up. I go into every interview ready to
Speaker 1: just shoot every motherfucking down if they try me. So
Speaker 1: my guard is never up. It's never up, it's always down. Yeah.
Speaker 1: I mean, I'm very comfortable. But I had great time
Speaker 1: last time we talked to I love it. But why horrible?
Speaker 1: Because I made horrible decisions I made. Everybody watching you've
Speaker 1: seen all my decisions and you talk about me. Um, yeah,
Speaker 1: but I'm making better decisions now, you know, And I
Speaker 1: make strategically a horrible decision. I don't just be making
Speaker 1: horrible decisions, just do it. You know what I call
Speaker 1: strategic horrible decisions being like a safe hope. It's like
Speaker 1: me leaving my location on me bringing a condom. That's
Speaker 1: my strategic horrible decision. Basically bringing a condom is a
Speaker 1: horrible decision. No, no no, no, what I'm saying like, well,
Speaker 1: I don't think horrible decisions are bad. Bet, Yeah, it
Speaker 1: ain't a bad thing. You know. We made the show
Speaker 1: title based on the premise of, like, you know, you
Speaker 1: could be called a whole were in a short skirt.
Speaker 1: So it's basically like empowering women to have their quote
Speaker 1: unquote slooty moments safely having fun and enjoying it liberating.
Speaker 1: I just had I just had a friend hanging out
Speaker 1: with me here and I told her when she got
Speaker 1: out of her relationship, she was in a relationship like
Speaker 1: five or six years, and then, oh, I don't want
Speaker 1: to be Anybody said you need to just go be
Speaker 1: oh four, give yourself one year to be a reckless horse.
Speaker 1: The type of work like walk in the club, find
Speaker 1: the nigga that you want to fuck, and walk up
Speaker 1: to him and say, I want to fuck you. You
Speaker 1: said just one year, you're just one a whole decade.
Speaker 1: That well, I think a year is good if you
Speaker 1: just depends your age. I ain't gonna hold you. A
Speaker 1: year makes sense if you in your thirties and maybe
Speaker 1: didn't experience it because he was in a long relationship.
Speaker 1: But to me, I think a lot of us had
Speaker 1: enough time to be in our whole phase, especially in
Speaker 1: our twenties, that I think a year is a good time.
Speaker 1: I wouldn't suggest someone to just be in a whole phase.
Speaker 1: I disagree. If you're coming off a five year relationship
Speaker 1: right now, you already know what you want and love
Speaker 1: what you want next, what you what your likes and disclikes,
Speaker 1: aren't you kind of need that year to just suck around.
Speaker 1: I think we could keep having whole phases. I think
Speaker 1: I'm having another one at forty. Yeah. I think you
Speaker 1: can have a whole phase at any stage your life
Speaker 1: when you need to have that release, no pun intended.
Speaker 1: I think you should just give yourself the flexibility and
Speaker 1: freedom to do what you want. At the end of
Speaker 1: the day, it's all about your choice. I always tell
Speaker 1: people when people say, oh, is this person gay or straders?
Speaker 1: Are you get I don't believe in all of that.
Speaker 1: I believe in fluidity. I believe in evolving the sexual experience.
Speaker 1: I don't believe somebody should be forced to be this
Speaker 1: or this or identify with this. Bill hor don't be
Speaker 1: like just be you like bbu, be as free as
Speaker 1: you want to be, as long as everybody's consenting, legal
Speaker 1: and STD free. And look, if you're in the STDs,
Speaker 1: do your thing. You know how if it's a STD
Speaker 1: some people are youre fucking like they don't care just
Speaker 1: to stick a bumping me. Oh yeah, they don't. They
Speaker 1: don't think everybody cares. Until you get your first one,
Speaker 1: you're like, oh damn. And a lot of people got theirs,
Speaker 1: and they because they realize it's just a pill. I
Speaker 1: caught my first one, and when caught it again two
Speaker 1: weeks later, a pill in the shot. To be honest,
Speaker 1: thought taking a pill to make clamidia go away. It's
Speaker 1: just so it's just too simple. They gotta make it
Speaker 1: a little more difficult. Sit me down now, They've got
Speaker 1: to make it. Have a conversation with me, be like, bitch,
Speaker 1: you know you gotta stop. Well, if when you do it,
Speaker 1: when you get it the second time they do have
Speaker 1: that conversation, really refer you to therapy. They're like, you
Speaker 1: need to go get help. They actually refer me, I
Speaker 1: didn't go. You know, I just got my STD results
Speaker 1: back the other day. And again I'm completely negative on everything,
Speaker 1: and I'm on PREP and I and I'm saying the
Speaker 1: reason why I'm saying PREP is because I just recently
Speaker 1: the Angel Martinez and show, and I was telling people,
Speaker 1: told my story about all that, and I feel like
Speaker 1: I'm meeting a lot of straight people that do not
Speaker 1: know about PREP. And I'm like, how do you not
Speaker 1: know about PREP? I knew about it. I was just
Speaker 1: never on it. So it's because so I tried to
Speaker 1: get on PREP or I was looking into getting on
Speaker 1: PREP a couple of years ago, especially because I go
Speaker 1: to sex clubs and I'm okay with my partners being fluid.
Speaker 1: So I dealt with a lot of guys who may
Speaker 1: have been with trans women, may have dipped in dad,
Speaker 1: may have been a little diplo on a stick where
Speaker 1: they're not not gay, but they'll let a little bit
Speaker 1: shout out to my boy play with him. We ain't playing. No,
Speaker 1: don't you play West will be in my will be sext.
Speaker 1: This ain't what we do on it. No, this is
Speaker 1: not what we do all of that. I ain't got
Speaker 1: do it where. No, this is a good thing. I'm saying.
Speaker 1: I deal with guys who maybe very much like him. Yeah,
Speaker 1: when I saw that clip, I was so. I was
Speaker 1: on Patreon she said, oh that shit, maybe that's my friend.
Speaker 1: When I m I say, nay, but that's where Like
Speaker 1: so when I was looking into if I actually get
Speaker 1: on it, because I know I'm suscepting myself to that
Speaker 1: or being at a higher risk, they literally would not
Speaker 1: like give a straight woman or a woman at all
Speaker 1: prep Like you have to go the same thing like
Speaker 1: when power shot at company out real quick. I've been
Speaker 1: working with the Department of Health in Orlando and there's
Speaker 1: a company talk test Tree, and they taught me and
Speaker 1: I've been doing talks and shit with them. Sixty eight
Speaker 1: percent of new cases of HIV are black, are black women,
Speaker 1: and they are preaching prep um. Make sure to check
Speaker 1: them out. They give free HIV kids. But seriously, like, yeah,
Speaker 1: I hate that happened. I think it's really sad because
Speaker 1: like when monkey pox came out, you know, I of
Speaker 1: course got a proved to go get the vaccination, which
Speaker 1: was interesting because when COVID came out and niggas was
Speaker 1: dying all over the world every day, I was like,
Speaker 1: I ain't getting that vaccagion. The minute munkeypox came out
Speaker 1: and I saw nigga with a hole in this throat
Speaker 1: out like what the fuck is that? I'm about it? Yeah,
Speaker 1: because I know we don't want what we can see. No, well,
Speaker 1: we will take a risk with what your case. I
Speaker 1: ain't hold you. I was nineteen keys when the COVID
Speaker 1: shot came out. I was like, I'm not but let
Speaker 1: me tell you. Let me tell you. I went down
Speaker 1: and got it. But I took all my straight friends.
Speaker 1: What I did was I said, these are all my
Speaker 1: lovers and they all needed to and so all my
Speaker 1: straight friends were able to get it. And I think
Speaker 1: it's I say a lot of it to say. I
Speaker 1: think it's unfair that, like, we know that these diseases
Speaker 1: are affecting you know, women who identify straight or whatever,
Speaker 1: because they're in situations with people who aren't maybe sharing
Speaker 1: information and everybody should be available to get it. Um,
Speaker 1: it's really sad. But yeah, I am so happy that
Speaker 1: I'm good. And because I've been reckless. We talk about
Speaker 1: horrible decisions. I've been a war for thirty one years now.
Speaker 1: You know, what do you think is one of your
Speaker 1: decisions you made where you were just like like I
Speaker 1: show up taking to the grave, But you're gonna tell
Speaker 1: it today. Why I don't take anything. I put it
Speaker 1: out out there. You know, we all love Charlemagne. He
Speaker 1: told me something I'll never forget. He was like, there
Speaker 1: was something that came out about me. I think it
Speaker 1: was like a muck shot and I was really upset.
Speaker 1: He was like, bro, post the mug shot. Use your
Speaker 1: truth before someone used it against you. I mean, that's
Speaker 1: what Rihanna did with you share your things before someone
Speaker 1: tries to Well, it's about controlling your narrative. I mean,
Speaker 1: at the end of the day, we're in the world now,
Speaker 1: especially with the cell phones and the internet and social media,
Speaker 1: everybody wants to be paparazzi and post your business. So
Speaker 1: post it first. Uh, let's see one of my horrible
Speaker 1: decisions that I didn't take it to the grave. Actually,
Speaker 1: one of my most proudest viral moments was I was
Speaker 1: on this app, it's a social media at rice or
Speaker 1: live stream, and I became one of the top broadcasters
Speaker 1: there was making lots of money and I have billboards
Speaker 1: and all this and that. So I was popular on
Speaker 1: the app. And one night I was in Atlanta and
Speaker 1: I had gotten so wasted that I went live on
Speaker 1: the app, which you should never go live when your'reted.
Speaker 1: Y'all saw me when I did that with Safari in
Speaker 1: Mexico where I was doing all this with Dick and
Speaker 1: all that, I was drunk in the pool, y'all said,
Speaker 1: I was on heroin cocaine whatever you knew what that was.
Speaker 1: That was. That was a horridle decision, But I had
Speaker 1: to do something for BT but whatever. Shout out to
Speaker 1: BT y I'll still pay me. Um. So I go
Speaker 1: live on this app and this motherfucker. I go in
Speaker 1: the room and this motherfucker's like, yo, you fine, you
Speaker 1: know whatever, he's shooting a shot. Tell me all these
Speaker 1: things you're gonna do. I said, nigg you better watch
Speaker 1: him out because I'll fly you out. We'll get into that.
Speaker 1: We'll get into that. That's where I get known for
Speaker 1: flying somebody out. So, um, I go to sleep. I
Speaker 1: wake up in the morning. My phone is blowing up.
Speaker 1: I flew to motherfuck out and didn't know you did what?
Speaker 1: So I flew out. He's like, I'm in Atlanta. I'm
Speaker 1: like for what. He's like, you flew me here. I go, no,
Speaker 1: I didn't goes. You put me in a text with
Speaker 1: you assist and he flew me out. I go, okay, Well,
Speaker 1: what you're gonna do? Now? Here's my mind? Where's my mind? Right?
Speaker 1: Like everyone saw that you no, no, no, I got
Speaker 1: the DN me got the number. I guess because I don't,
Speaker 1: you don't remember. So I go back. I look at
Speaker 1: my text and there is literally a text saying the
Speaker 1: damn it was confirmed. So I'm like, okay, it's seven
Speaker 1: in the morning. I've flown somebody out. Jason Leaf flew
Speaker 1: somebody out right now next day? Oh I mean the
Speaker 1: tech the flight happened within hours, right wow, So not
Speaker 1: the people behind the scenes to judgment. But this is
Speaker 1: why you own your ship, because that nigga about to
Speaker 1: really go for real. Like he met me in the
Speaker 1: hallway and thought I was cool because I'm calm and
Speaker 1: I smelled and I'm dressed, and I say, no, I'm
Speaker 1: a horr I've made horrible decisions. I'm a horror therapy.
Speaker 1: So I so I'm like, okay, now here's my dilemma,
Speaker 1: right because now I'm sobering up. I've flown somebody out.
Speaker 1: I'm now responsible for you if I don't connect with
Speaker 1: you and I leave you stranded. You're on social media
Speaker 1: and this person was twenty five years old. I'm forty
Speaker 1: five years old, so not got you flew a young
Speaker 1: nigga out, left him stranded at Hartsfield Airport. So now
Speaker 1: you got a link with the person, but you don't
Speaker 1: really know who you're linking with. What say, your assistant
Speaker 1: book the flight, but not the car service, my assistant,
Speaker 1: that's what my assistant did. Your assistant then be like,
Speaker 1: by the way, it's six in the morning, and my
Speaker 1: assistants on the West coast, so it's three. That motherfucker sleep.
Speaker 1: I did my job. Good luck with your decision. My
Speaker 1: team abandoned. When I make bad decisions, they do what
Speaker 1: they need to do to get it done, and then
Speaker 1: they and then you get the fuck out of the way.
Speaker 1: I called my assistant off of a boat in the
Speaker 1: all Mulfi Coast like, bitch, I'm with this old nigga
Speaker 1: helped me find me another room. She's like, Okay, I'm
Speaker 1: telling you that's what they that's really what we pay
Speaker 1: for it. Listen. I So now I say, okay, you know,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna uber you to my hotel so we can
Speaker 1: have breakfast, because now we need to sit and have
Speaker 1: a conversation about this was a horrible decision. So I
Speaker 1: uber the person to my hotel and they get there
Speaker 1: and they got their luggage or whatever, and I said,
Speaker 1: you know, just before we before we get started. Um,
Speaker 1: you know, I'm really not big with social media. I
Speaker 1: don't want no video, no photos, don't post nothing. I
Speaker 1: just you know, this was not the best decision. But
Speaker 1: you're here. What ever, Okay, So I said, so then
Speaker 1: then they go, my mother's a big fan of yours.
Speaker 1: Like okay, that's not there. And they're a big fan, right,
Speaker 1: So I'm like, okay. So now they're talking about loving
Speaker 1: hip hop scenes and whiling out jokes, and I'm like,
Speaker 1: you know what, I don't really don't feel comfortable talking
Speaker 1: about none of them my work because I don't talk
Speaker 1: about my work to people like this. You know. But
Speaker 1: we didn't get to know each other because I just
Speaker 1: flew you out yesterday or whatever. So I said to them,
Speaker 1: you know, um, I think it's the best idea that
Speaker 1: you go somewhere. Do you have a friend out here?
Speaker 1: I have my best friends and all. And I said, okay, cool,
Speaker 1: let me over you to your best friend. If you
Speaker 1: need anything while you're here, I'll take care of it.
Speaker 1: I got you. I'm good. We're friends now, right, so
Speaker 1: we don't do anything. I put them in a car.
Speaker 1: They go off. Now. I'm shopping one day and at
Speaker 1: the mall and U or Nyman and I get a
Speaker 1: text that says me and my friend just fell out.
Speaker 1: I ain't got nowhere to go, and I'm and I
Speaker 1: ain't got nothing else to wear. I'm literally standing next
Speaker 1: to a clearance rack right now, mind you, I just
Speaker 1: I just said recently, I don't call me white girl
Speaker 1: that if I'm wearing you or my nigga gonna wear
Speaker 1: de or like, I'm gonna make sure because your your
Speaker 1: nigga is a reflection to you. People who don't believe
Speaker 1: that is probably single with you know, empathetic whatever. So,
Speaker 1: but this's not my niggas. This nigga accidentally flew out.
Speaker 1: So I'm I'm like, okay, you need something where? Okay, cool,
Speaker 1: I look at my fragg just grab something off the rack, right,
Speaker 1: just grabbing, just grab something. It's everything, say, twenty four dollars,
Speaker 1: twenty three dollars whatever. So my friend grabs a pair
Speaker 1: of white um guest jeans and a white guest shirt.
Speaker 1: I don't know the last party. Not only that not
Speaker 1: an all white fit, and it's not even an all
Speaker 1: white party. And on top of that, the guest logo
Speaker 1: is so big it ain't even all white. No, my
Speaker 1: friend was lazy. He just he literally went like this.
Speaker 1: I don't even know if we looked at the side.
Speaker 1: He just grabbed the ship. So we get in the car.
Speaker 1: So I said, okay, we're going to a party tonight.
Speaker 1: I'm leaving tomorrow, so you can come with us to
Speaker 1: the party and then I'll send you to the airport.
Speaker 1: And I got you outfit. Worry about it. So I
Speaker 1: get the outfit, and so he goes, well, where I
Speaker 1: get dressed to go? You can get dressed in the hotel.
Speaker 1: They go to my hotel. I said, check your luggage
Speaker 1: in at the front because you don't need to bring
Speaker 1: it to my room because you're not spending night. So
Speaker 1: do that. So he does that where I fucked up.
Speaker 1: He gotta receipt, So he gotta receipt that he put
Speaker 1: his luggage at my hotel. I'm not knowing this is
Speaker 1: the receipt collector on the way. So we go to
Speaker 1: the party. The person standing outside in the rain with
Speaker 1: no umbrella waiting for me. I pull up with two
Speaker 1: black cars full of people. And now these people in
Speaker 1: the car are on the same APP because they're a
Speaker 1: part of my family on the APP. And I'm telling
Speaker 1: and I don't want nobody to know that I fool
Speaker 1: him out, so I'm trying to hide my horrible decision.
Speaker 1: So I'm like, can you please go inside the club.
Speaker 1: We'll be in there in a minute. You don't need
Speaker 1: to be outside. Oh no, I'm waiting for you. So
Speaker 1: we get out and somehow I figure how to shovel
Speaker 1: him into the mix. He gets in, he gets up there.
Speaker 1: Now he's drinking, everybody's drinking. He's trying to dance on me.
Speaker 1: I'm like, I'm not about to do all that. So
Speaker 1: I so I've covered this up the whole night. But
Speaker 1: people now are around me are kind of like, is
Speaker 1: it he on the app? And I'm like, I'm there's
Speaker 1: a lot of people in here. Maybe an app as
Speaker 1: I have. We all on Instagram, we all on Facebook.
Speaker 1: So long story short, night's over. Now I've been drinking,
Speaker 1: they've been drinking. Everybody's drunk, and this person needs a
Speaker 1: ride back to get their luggage. I'm like, okay, you
Speaker 1: come back and get your luggage. So we get to hotel,
Speaker 1: get the luggage. Okay, well I need to change. Okay,
Speaker 1: Well there's now. The thing that I have to say
Speaker 1: is that people, especially people who look like me TSA,
Speaker 1: hotel workers, food service workers, they know me stores, They
Speaker 1: are on me every time I'm moving and I see
Speaker 1: them looking at me, and so I'm always very aware
Speaker 1: of like where I'm at and who I'm win and
Speaker 1: how you're behaving and what you're saying. And because I
Speaker 1: know that they will, even though the other platforms won't
Speaker 1: post me like that, because we have a relationship, I
Speaker 1: still I'm always very aware. So I let the person
Speaker 1: come to my room. And here's where it went bad. Drunk,
Speaker 1: horrible discisions jermain. I went. I let the person shower
Speaker 1: and get dressed. Then I showered and got dressed for bed.
Speaker 1: And then the person says, you know what, my flight
Speaker 1: is just not for a while. Can I just crash
Speaker 1: here and I'm gonna get up? I say, okay, fucking
Speaker 1: you can crash, but you gotta get up and get
Speaker 1: on this flight. Okay, Well, and I have a sweet
Speaker 1: with a couch and everything, but I let them get
Speaker 1: in the bed. All right, you were a real nice
Speaker 1: the whole name. I'm trying to be friendly to mitigate
Speaker 1: damage this person or so I'm laying there and the
Speaker 1: person backed up on me. Now, I don't care who
Speaker 1: you are. I don't care if you're a man to
Speaker 1: my back up on you. As soon as they touched
Speaker 1: that dick, that dick gonna get action. So I got
Speaker 1: up I said, fuck it, I got up. I ended
Speaker 1: up sucking this person, fucked him, went to sleep, got up,
Speaker 1: fucked him again, send him on his way. I thought,
Speaker 1: you got some good dick. You gotta guess out in now.
Speaker 1: That probably wasn't the best lenning. Yeah, you drank nineteen
Speaker 1: forty two. That's top shelf. Look he could have gave
Speaker 1: you smirna. I hate you. You on American wasn't one Spirit,
Speaker 1: wasn't Frontier, wasn't Allegiance. It was you know, good and
Speaker 1: you probably got a aut seat. I don't know he
Speaker 1: didn't get first slaves, but um, and I sent you home. Well.
Speaker 1: This person then started trying to extort me, say if
Speaker 1: you don't give me money that I'm going to tell
Speaker 1: everybody you fucked me. So you know what I did.
Speaker 1: I said, no problem, good luck with that. I blocked him,
Speaker 1: and I went to put on my best Valentino and
Speaker 1: I went to a restaurant with a bunch of white people,
Speaker 1: and I set up my phone saying and I said,
Speaker 1: this storytime, let me tell you how I fucked to
Speaker 1: shoot up this nigga out flew in last night and
Speaker 1: I went on or the other night and I went
Speaker 1: on to tell my story, and I was like, yeah,
Speaker 1: the nigga didn't even get a proper meal, but the
Speaker 1: nigga got hung arout, was fucking so I jacked him up,
Speaker 1: put his nut in his mouth. I get that nigga.
Speaker 1: All types of protein got that energy. Because see, at
Speaker 1: the end of the day, I will never give anybody
Speaker 1: control over my narrative. I agree, but you try to
Speaker 1: extort me for some money because you got some dick.
Speaker 1: When was getting dick news? I never knew getting dick
Speaker 1: was news? That was that a thing? Dick? Well, I
Speaker 1: think people assume that you'd be like, you'd be embarrassed, right,
Speaker 1: Like people want to tell that story because they think
Speaker 1: that you having a wild night would make you look bad. No,
Speaker 1: just as crazy, you say, is getting dick news? Yeah? Crazy,
Speaker 1: like crazy enough. We know that the clips, the stories
Speaker 1: that du Go viral is who's fucking who, who's dating home? Yeah?
Speaker 1: Like so yeah. Unfortunately, Digo viral. It was all over
Speaker 1: the internet, social media, Twitter. People were texting me and saying,
Speaker 1: oh my god, because the narrative he said was, you know,
Speaker 1: Jason Lee flew me out. You know, I'm a young nigga.
Speaker 1: He tried to play the whole victim thing. No, you
Speaker 1: was a young whore who got online dick you wanted.
Speaker 1: But the thing about it is nowadays with the Internet,
Speaker 1: if you say something that makes somebody embarrassed, and if
Speaker 1: it keeps getting repeated enough, the narrative will change by
Speaker 1: the time it gets to you. It's a whole other thing.
Speaker 1: I was. I'm a twenty five year old nigga who
Speaker 1: wanted some dick. I got flown out. I'm a young
Speaker 1: nigga who got flown out. I'm a nigga who was
Speaker 1: taking advantage of I'm a nigga who this person like it.
Speaker 1: What if you got online, yeah, to get some enough.
Speaker 1: Let me tell you something. Twenty five now now I
Speaker 1: would never date or twenty five year old, but you
Speaker 1: might get fucked year old is rental Kardi. I love it.
Speaker 1: I love good. It is not it hurts if you
Speaker 1: got bad grands. By the way, it's twenty six, I
Speaker 1: think seven. I do have a question if getting you
Speaker 1: asked us is getting dick news. Have you are the
Speaker 1: Hollywood locked dms like sometimes so exposing where you're like
Speaker 1: this is too much? Do you have to like prove
Speaker 1: it first? Because I'm sure someone's like so and so
Speaker 1: fucked me. Yeah, but then my team, my team gets
Speaker 1: emails and and and dms all the time about you know,
Speaker 1: I slept with someone soon, So we honestly don't care,
Speaker 1: Like if you like, getting dick to me is not news. Now,
Speaker 1: if you're getting dick for somebody who's married to a Kardashian,
Speaker 1: I may we may run that if we can verify it,
Speaker 1: you know what I mean. And sometimes y'all getting dick.
Speaker 1: Y'all getting dick that ain't even worth reporting, like you're
Speaker 1: thinking it's something worse. Trash dick stories get sent to
Speaker 1: us all the time, like you got that dick and
Speaker 1: you want the world to know, you better send this
Speaker 1: shit to dick. Yo. I'm gonna be honest with your
Speaker 1: trash story. You don't know about dick. That's okay, dick yo.
Speaker 1: If y'all around ya report, there's nothing called dick ye Yes, no,
Speaker 1: they came back, bitch on it. Oh yes, let's go
Speaker 1: boy hall on. Oh dick y'all is on it. So
Speaker 1: dick YEA is a page and they just added pussy
Speaker 1: up too. But it's a place where you can literally
Speaker 1: and you do need to send in receipts and stuff.
Speaker 1: But it's a and it be gone viral on Twitter.
Speaker 1: Women send in who they've had sex with? Uh? Girl,
Speaker 1: they just had uh. And I'm not gonna say I'm sorry.
Speaker 1: I see, I ain't gonna say who, but they why
Speaker 1: because they recently shared about it and it was like, ooh,
Speaker 1: bad timing. But no, up, that's what I said. See.
Speaker 1: I tried to say, Oh, I was reading mom. Oh wait,
Speaker 1: mall got a dick yo for you. No, we're not
Speaker 1: talking about it. I'll be honest. I wasn't going to bed.
Speaker 1: You said what I eat really good pussy. I suck
Speaker 1: really good dick. I think the only thing they'd be like, damn,
Speaker 1: this bitch was clean, and I'd be like, oh, well,
Speaker 1: I'm also very cleaning clean when I'm with somebody that
Speaker 1: I really care. Oh, I'm a color. I'm affectionate. You
Speaker 1: you gotta if you walking through my house and you
Speaker 1: see me, you gotta put your tongue in my mouth.
Speaker 1: At least my chef. Let me say my chef. My
Speaker 1: chef is so funny. So I got the chef because
Speaker 1: I wanted to stay healthy. You know, a lot of
Speaker 1: y'all that be having the surgery, I had to lose weight,
Speaker 1: y'all be getting fat again. That's because y'all really don't
Speaker 1: understand that the surgery was just to reset you. And
Speaker 1: even though you said you had the surgeony game way
Speaker 1: you're thick. There's that I've always been, yeah, but but see,
Speaker 1: there's a difference between having the surgery and staying thick,
Speaker 1: because I do feel like for those of us who
Speaker 1: have the surgery and still can look thick or look
Speaker 1: healthy is important. Oh well, some people be having the
Speaker 1: surgery look like a pop balloon. Well, and that's the
Speaker 1: thing too. When when I've had the surgery for those
Speaker 1: of you don't know, of course, the gastric sleeve. Uh,
Speaker 1: when I got really small, like my smallest, I think
Speaker 1: I got down to like one forty eight. I didn't
Speaker 1: like that. I was like, I want to be one
Speaker 1: sick because you start to feel sick and look and
Speaker 1: my friend, like my mom was even saying it. And
Speaker 1: that's the crazy thing too about like going from plus
Speaker 1: size to losing weight to possibly like gaining some back
Speaker 1: as well. It sucks because you realize how it doesn't
Speaker 1: matter the way you are someone's gonna have a problem
Speaker 1: with it, period, period. But then you developed body dys
Speaker 1: morphia then because we could talk. That's a whole other thing.
Speaker 1: I mean, I have body just morphia now because I've
Speaker 1: let the social media comments for the first time every
Speaker 1: when I was three hundred twenty three pounds, I can't
Speaker 1: get fuck with social media said I was still fucking.
Speaker 1: I was still fucking. I was fucking. I was fucking.
Speaker 1: And I'd look at first of all, shout to all
Speaker 1: the niggas who was let me fucking three twenty three,
Speaker 1: say the same thing. Shout out to y'all let me
Speaker 1: fucking two thirds, and shout out to all the niggas
Speaker 1: who didn't let me fuck because I used to trash
Speaker 1: them too. Fuck you, nigga, you ain't ship. And now
Speaker 1: when I look back, like damn, I I understand, I
Speaker 1: ain't that nigga. Now I'm rich, I'm cute, I'm still good,
Speaker 1: and I'm fit so and my fashion game is fired. No,
Speaker 1: But what we're talking about a minute, well, you you
Speaker 1: brought up the chef the so this is how my
Speaker 1: chef is shady? How many people will be joining us
Speaker 1: for breakfast. I had to catch this sad one day,
Speaker 1: shout out to Chef Casey. He gonna posts, I'm sure
Speaker 1: I had to catch the shade. How many people are
Speaker 1: joining us for breakfast? You know how many people live
Speaker 1: in this house? It's only two in my two staffs,
Speaker 1: so there's four. But you're trying to insinuate because you
Speaker 1: know you maybe have met a few people. You had
Speaker 1: to catch the shade. How many people will be joining
Speaker 1: us from? What's your commun number? What would you prefer?
Speaker 1: Would you prefer just one person or would you prefer
Speaker 1: to you know what? Um, I didn't even know if
Speaker 1: the numbers two. I don't know that. I don't know
Speaker 1: because I'm in therapy. Let me start by saying, I'm
Speaker 1: in therapy because I've made a lot of horrible decisions.
Speaker 1: Horror in therapy. Well, why do you think therapy needs
Speaker 1: to be because well, first of all, we all need
Speaker 1: to be in therapy for different reasons. You know, right now,
Speaker 1: I'm I'm going right now, what I'm going through is
Speaker 1: And Charlottagne said this the other day when I callosed
Speaker 1: breakfast club. He said, you're you're you're useless if you
Speaker 1: can't be used, if you can't be used, you're useless.
Speaker 1: And when I thought about that, you know, you start
Speaker 1: going through you know why so many people want to
Speaker 1: be in your world? They want to use you, Like
Speaker 1: do they really want to be your friend? Like? What
Speaker 1: is being friends with me? Especially in this business when
Speaker 1: you have influenced me, you have money, when you have cloud,
Speaker 1: you have access, when you have things that people want.
Speaker 1: In your mind, you're just you. But then you start
Speaker 1: to realize you're actually being you. So I went through
Speaker 1: that yesterday where like I wanted to just burn the
Speaker 1: whole Internet down, and I still do it. Maybe today
Speaker 1: I might I don't know. I haven't decided. But but
Speaker 1: in therapy, the reason why I'm in therapy now is
Speaker 1: I'm trying to one become the person that I want
Speaker 1: to attract. Two, I want to start attracting people that
Speaker 1: are there for the right reasons. And then also I'm
Speaker 1: trying to discover like do I'm at an age now
Speaker 1: where I am exploring having a child this year? But
Speaker 1: I also want to know do I want to raise
Speaker 1: that child with one person? Do I want to I'm
Speaker 1: a very sexual person, so do I want to have
Speaker 1: more than one person? Because I don't know that we're
Speaker 1: created to be with one person, you know, but you
Speaker 1: do you do want that person to share your journey
Speaker 1: with When you start making a lot of money and
Speaker 1: travel around the world, you want to create memories with
Speaker 1: a You want a person to join you on that journey.
Speaker 1: But do you want people to join you on the journey?
Speaker 1: Because I have enough space in my house where you know,
Speaker 1: they can have a room and then we can share
Speaker 1: a room together. I want to do that or we
Speaker 1: want to do that, but I don't know. I'm figuring
Speaker 1: that out. Have you tried um? I was in a
Speaker 1: threatfule a few years ago on the show. Have you
Speaker 1: tried dating? Or I don't know how many partners you
Speaker 1: want to have? But have you try people? Well? I
Speaker 1: met somebody recently that I really liked and I was
Speaker 1: getting to know him, and I started the conversation with
Speaker 1: you know, like where where do you want to see
Speaker 1: this guy? Like would you be open to a third person? Oh? No,
Speaker 1: not just just me and one person? And I'm like, well,
Speaker 1: I don't want to work for you for I love
Speaker 1: that you also just sat with an Eli chocolate. I
Speaker 1: think the conversations that we're having now about non traditional,
Speaker 1: non ethically non monogamous relationships are something that our parents
Speaker 1: and before them weren't able to have. I know a
Speaker 1: lot of people assume that you're greedy for wanting multiple people,
Speaker 1: but I love that you can come in and be
Speaker 1: like monogamism for me. I don't know how many people
Speaker 1: I need, but one person I don't think would fully
Speaker 1: fulfill me. What does that look like? Then with with
Speaker 1: with day? Do you bring that out the gate? Do
Speaker 1: you wait until you see you want more with them?
Speaker 1: How soon do you bring up that you don't want
Speaker 1: a traditional Yeah, there's a couple of things. One I
Speaker 1: don't believe I was saying to a friend yesterday. I
Speaker 1: do not believe in straight gay. I'm so sick of
Speaker 1: pronouncing at this point, he she day them this that another.
Speaker 1: You know, just be like be you do what you
Speaker 1: want to do. If it's safe and it's consensual and
Speaker 1: it feels right, do it out the gate. I try
Speaker 1: to have a few experiences. One we gotta fuck because
Speaker 1: I just gotta know if the sex is good, great,
Speaker 1: hold on, wait wait wait wait. If the sex is
Speaker 1: not good, I don't care if Jesus Christ brought you
Speaker 1: there with a stamp of approval for me to get
Speaker 1: in heaven. I got fuck with you now, Nick, I'm
Speaker 1: gona help. I'm I'm not going to fuck. I'm not
Speaker 1: going to be able to be with somebody. The sexual
Speaker 1: experience it's not good. That's wait, are you a first
Speaker 1: time I know I'm a vibe I'm a vibe person like,
Speaker 1: so if the vibe feels right like the one, let
Speaker 1: me just say this real U, because I don't want
Speaker 1: to listen the person that I said I was interested in.
Speaker 1: He told me out the gate, I'm not gonna have
Speaker 1: sex with you, which is what I like. At first,
Speaker 1: He's I'm not gonna have sex because I want to
Speaker 1: know that you really want to be with me, and
Speaker 1: I was that was he caught me at a moment
Speaker 1: where I was like, oh, well, I actually respect that
Speaker 1: you're respecting yourself. So like I was hanging out and
Speaker 1: getting on but we're culling and he all up on
Speaker 1: me and I'm like, oh my god. And so he
Speaker 1: wanted me to wait, and I said to him like
Speaker 1: I need to know, like, okay, so I'm gonna wait.
Speaker 1: But once we fuck, you know all that is it
Speaker 1: just gonna be me And you are like are you
Speaker 1: opening through Oh no, no, we can never be in
Speaker 1: a vise. I said, well, who's to say we can't,
Speaker 1: like once we developed a strong foundation for a year
Speaker 1: or so, why can't we invite anybody else in? Or
Speaker 1: why can't we have fun? And he was just very
Speaker 1: focused on his traditional vice. Of course, he didn't work out.
Speaker 1: So we had a conversation and it was the Twitter
Speaker 1: had an unpopular opinion, you know, three going on, and
Speaker 1: one of the opinions was waiting for sex makes it better?
Speaker 1: And I said to Mandy, like, what was it? Now?
Speaker 1: I was the explanation for that? Well, here's the thing, right,
Speaker 1: as someone that's had one night stands, who's you know,
Speaker 1: maybe fun, first day, third day, whatever. I have noticed
Speaker 1: the more I build a connection with someone, the better
Speaker 1: the sex is out of the gate. Also, I do
Speaker 1: really think any way define build a connection now? Okay,
Speaker 1: I think that one you provide with someone the first
Speaker 1: night and have chemistry, but you're not building connection because
Speaker 1: connection to me is a semi investment with that person.
Speaker 1: When I am maybe i'll say about two dates in
Speaker 1: then I'm like, you know, following up with maybe a
Speaker 1: project you had going on? Oh, hey, did you get
Speaker 1: your script in what's going on with this, and now
Speaker 1: we're a little more connected and close. Once I have
Speaker 1: a better connection, then I'm not saying I'm already not
Speaker 1: fucking out the gate if I want to, but I
Speaker 1: do think waiting a little bit does build for stronger relationship.
Speaker 1: If we fuck and you text me and say, how's
Speaker 1: Rihanna Nigga, I'm never calling you back. My projects, my business,
Speaker 1: my jokes on while and now my scripts all that
Speaker 1: that was not what we signed up to. Fuck. I
Speaker 1: don't have a sexual experience with somebody and treat them
Speaker 1: in a disrespectful way, no matter who they are, no
Speaker 1: matter what if it's a one night stand, if it's
Speaker 1: a week stand, if it's a year, a month, whatever
Speaker 1: everybody feels. I try to make sure everybody feels valuable
Speaker 1: because we're sharing that connection. However, I don't want somebody
Speaker 1: to believe that because we had sex, now you got
Speaker 1: the right to be all of my business, or that
Speaker 1: we have a relationship beyond what that was, because sometimes
Speaker 1: I feel like I've had people who because I will
Speaker 1: never use my platform or my access for my relationship,
Speaker 1: for my money to get sex, like oh, you know,
Speaker 1: why I'll put you on. I don't do that because
Speaker 1: weird niggas in the industry do that ship. But I
Speaker 1: have had niggas come to me to connect with me,
Speaker 1: and they use sex to build the connection to get
Speaker 1: to the support they want. And I'm not with that weird.
Speaker 1: That's tough, you know what I mean. But the average person,
Speaker 1: when I was saying, like yours is different because showing
Speaker 1: an interest in someone's work and passions is showing them
Speaker 1: respect with yours. It's difficult because it's like industry people
Speaker 1: and maybe most people listening to this don't fit that bill.
Speaker 1: But how do you then know if someone is using
Speaker 1: your hunt You don't. I mean, if you're in my house,
Speaker 1: it could be um Tiffany Hattrish walks in to talk
Speaker 1: about something, or the White House calls, or somebody's calling
Speaker 1: because Kim Kardashian did this or that happened, or an
Speaker 1: interview is getting set up, or I'm screaming about something,
Speaker 1: and now you in my house as somebody that I
Speaker 1: just want to fuck. But now you all up in
Speaker 1: the mix want to talk about what Biden is doing
Speaker 1: like we're not about to do so. I'm very mindful
Speaker 1: of the environment that I'm creating with the people. But
Speaker 1: you know what you don't know, and you know if
Speaker 1: you're in LA and especially working with Ken, you know,
Speaker 1: like I'm in a place right now where I'm totally evaluating,
Speaker 1: like why why are you in my life? Why are
Speaker 1: you on my phone? Why am I following you? I
Speaker 1: just said, I cut off this little this young nigan.
Speaker 1: I'm really beautiful, big old dick girl. I did. But
Speaker 1: I cut up on dick. Yelp too, He's not I'm
Speaker 1: about to go download. Yeah he's not. Um. But literally,
Speaker 1: I was having that conversation with my friend, like being
Speaker 1: of a relationship where I felt like I've received so
Speaker 1: much in terms of affection, acts of service, the things
Speaker 1: that made me feel fulfilled, just fucking somebody that didn't
Speaker 1: really feel I felt like do anything to me. I
Speaker 1: was like, what am I doing this for? I also
Speaker 1: am also in therapy, so there's a lot of things
Speaker 1: that trigger into a place that I was in my
Speaker 1: twenties where I was having sex with no emotions or
Speaker 1: transactionally that I like regret and feel shame about now.
Speaker 1: So a part of me, what I'm do you regret it? Oh?
Speaker 1: I mean I don't regret being able to pay my bills,
Speaker 1: but through therapy and through a project that we're working on,
Speaker 1: there's a lot of things. Even on this show, listening
Speaker 1: back and reliving some of my stories, I do have
Speaker 1: to be like, wow, my mind was in a completely
Speaker 1: different space than it was in and there is some
Speaker 1: There is shame in a lot of the things that
Speaker 1: I did sexually out of the means of survival, only
Speaker 1: because now I have the option to choose who I
Speaker 1: sleep with, who I entertain, who I give my body to,
Speaker 1: even even money. The way I look at it now,
Speaker 1: I was like, oh, I was a cheap bitch. O.
Speaker 1: We we should expound on that as people that are
Speaker 1: making money now can gravel where we want to buy
Speaker 1: what we want. Are there ever times where you're just
Speaker 1: kind of like someone tricking on me? And I like
Speaker 1: whether it be a nice you know, you know what
Speaker 1: I learned, you know when they were talking about like
Speaker 1: what's your um, what's what's your what your love language? Yes,
Speaker 1: my love language is and probably because when I grew up,
Speaker 1: I really didn't have anybody making sure I was good.
Speaker 1: I make sure they're good, you know what I mean?
Speaker 1: Like I told the story recently where um I was
Speaker 1: talking to this guy, met him in Columbia, flew him
Speaker 1: out because I really want to get and I thought
Speaker 1: this was the one. Oh this I was. I brought
Speaker 1: him to I had an Easter dinner and and introduced
Speaker 1: him to all my friends and was like, this is
Speaker 1: the one. Hey, one one was not the one? Why
Speaker 1: not nothing? Because the next time I saw one, I
Speaker 1: flew him to Dubai because I was going to buy.
Speaker 1: I'm like, yeah, whyn't you flay to bay and meet
Speaker 1: me whatever, meat me mimami were gonna get him playing
Speaker 1: god to buy and flew him in and he went
Speaker 1: silent when he landed for like five hours. Come to
Speaker 1: find out he was accosted by the TSA people, not
Speaker 1: that you know, the people immigration whatever, because he had
Speaker 1: pictures of cocaine in his phone and all this to that,
Speaker 1: which I didn't know about, and uh and I don't
Speaker 1: fuck around with that shit. This is not my thing.
Speaker 1: And so when he finally got out of you know,
Speaker 1: I was like frustrated because I'm very much like, let's
Speaker 1: stay on schedule type person when I took it. So
Speaker 1: we get to the airport. On the way the airport.
Speaker 1: I'm like, do you have your your COVID tests, your PCR.
Speaker 1: Oh no, I don't need PCR. I travel the world,
Speaker 1: It's what I do. He argued me down to go
Speaker 1: to Dubai. I've been there six times this year. You
Speaker 1: need to have PCR. We get to the airport, you
Speaker 1: don't have a PCR. Long short of short. They don't
Speaker 1: let him on the flight. We miss our flight. Wow,
Speaker 1: first class tickets called sixteen grand, I mean business classics
Speaker 1: called sixteen grand. My assistance in flight to Dubai already,
Speaker 1: So now to reschedule the flight, I don't even know
Speaker 1: how to do that. Thank god he had WiFi. So
Speaker 1: I'm trying to now find a way to get there's
Speaker 1: no more flights, trying to find a way to get
Speaker 1: to New York, to get on the flight because I
Speaker 1: have two more friends flying from New York. So I
Speaker 1: called him, find a jet to get to New York.
Speaker 1: That's twenty thousand. Can't find a jet. Find two flights,
Speaker 1: first thing in the morning, that lands at nine thirty,
Speaker 1: but the next flight is at eleven am. So we
Speaker 1: make the flight along. Story short. He ruined everything, ruining
Speaker 1: all the energy, and we don't talk anymore. But you
Speaker 1: brought one up by name up, yeah, I'm followed him,
Speaker 1: he following yore. So then let's get into because you're
Speaker 1: dropping all say something that don't regret anything. The reason
Speaker 1: why right now I'm talking very freely, and they're gonna
Speaker 1: be people who say, you know, who would have fucked
Speaker 1: that fat nigga? Or I wouldn't fuck the nigga now,
Speaker 1: or that niggas I don't care about. I don't subscribe
Speaker 1: to none of that. But the reason why I tell
Speaker 1: the stories is because I've come a long way and
Speaker 1: the fact that we're black or people of color and
Speaker 1: therapy and we're talking very openly about decisions that we
Speaker 1: made that we regret. I think there's a lot of
Speaker 1: people watching, even though they're watching in judgment, who are
Speaker 1: making horrible decisions themselves, can see like yo, I can
Speaker 1: be honest and not feel afraid of that one I
Speaker 1: tell another horrible decsion masons. I'm here in New York.
Speaker 1: I moved to New York and when I live in
Speaker 1: LA I lived at the W So I said, when
Speaker 1: I moved to New York, I'm like, I want to
Speaker 1: move to the hood. I want to move where No, no, no,
Speaker 1: back then it wasn't. This was literally right when now
Speaker 1: it's trash, but back then it wasn't. And I said,
Speaker 1: I want to move to New York and I want
Speaker 1: to live wherever there are Dominicans. So I moved to
Speaker 1: Washington Heights one seventy seven and four Washington. We just
Speaker 1: we just talked about Dominican niggas. Literally, that's because I
Speaker 1: had met a Dominican somewhere, and I think in Rhode Island.
Speaker 1: I was like, what are you like? I never saw
Speaker 1: y'all before. Oh and Kate Verdiens all y'all niggas could beamn. No,
Speaker 1: actually don't, I'm your husband? No you think so? Yeah,
Speaker 1: I would want to get married for the wedding because
Speaker 1: you know pictures. You know what's crazy My first day
Speaker 1: that about Indian weddings. She just want to marry Indians
Speaker 1: just so she can have an Indian girl. When the
Speaker 1: LA comes out, I ain't gonna hold you hilarious. It's
Speaker 1: a ga. So I moved to the to Washington Heights
Speaker 1: and I fell in love with the whole block. The
Speaker 1: old block is popping right, and uh, I ended up
Speaker 1: so caught up in these Dominicans that this was way
Speaker 1: before loving him. But this is way before a Hollywood like.
Speaker 1: I would be very clear, this before I had any
Speaker 1: ambition to be an entertainment. I've found myself fucking a
Speaker 1: Dominican in an abandoned department. That's when I knew I
Speaker 1: hit an all time low. I don't know if that's
Speaker 1: a low. Okay, wait, there are mattress on the flow
Speaker 1: where y'all abandon apartment? So was there furniture? Ah? No,
Speaker 1: it was what one? How did you know there was
Speaker 1: in the bandon department? And too? How did we end
Speaker 1: up in an abandon apart and why are we in
Speaker 1: a trip house? So that's what I knew. I had
Speaker 1: an all time low. Have you ever fucked in a
Speaker 1: trip house? I told you I don't like good guys.
Speaker 1: Oh you know that's my fam don't know. I know
Speaker 1: too many of my niggas make legal money. I ain't
Speaker 1: gotta deal with that. See, but it's not as gird
Speaker 1: of mine. The gun under the pillow is really I
Speaker 1: told you, see what I mean? No, I told you
Speaker 1: I was just in Atlanta hanging out with my friends.
Speaker 1: And the fact that all my friends was carrying I
Speaker 1: was like, you know what I sound like. I live
Speaker 1: at the w in Hollywood. Now that's what I got.
Speaker 1: Got guns, I gotta I got a shotgun on the
Speaker 1: side of my bed. I have a nine millimeter on
Speaker 1: my nights and I have an Air fifteen land against it.
Speaker 1: I don't play, but you have to have gall in
Speaker 1: your house. It's something that's which I ain't gonna hold you.
Speaker 1: Sometimes I'll be sleeping looking at the ship, like, who
Speaker 1: would I do? Someone busting his house you don't like,
Speaker 1: And then be like, and the way my house is built,
Speaker 1: like it's gonna take you time to get to me.
Speaker 1: So like, no, no, no, you know so crazy. People
Speaker 1: actually be trying to come to my house. I had
Speaker 1: somebody come to my group of people came to my
Speaker 1: house one day. I heard noise outside. I look outside
Speaker 1: and it's like they're walking up to the door. So
Speaker 1: my house is this four levels, so I'm on the
Speaker 1: third level. I walk on the background out. It was
Speaker 1: a TMZ tour. I walked out. I walked out with
Speaker 1: an Air fifteen. I turned a little red light on
Speaker 1: and I put it right on a motherfucking ass. I said,
Speaker 1: what what what youre doing? They start at a gun,
Speaker 1: they start running, I would shoot this whole block up.
Speaker 1: I would like, all you know, that's key for are
Speaker 1: crazy ass, that's audacious. Bandy and I had a weird
Speaker 1: situation too, where we had to like kind of just
Speaker 1: you know, she changed her name at the hotel and
Speaker 1: shit like that. And I think about it all the
Speaker 1: time when I walk my dog and I'm in West Hollywood,
Speaker 1: I'll be thinking I'm safe. No, you have to think.
Speaker 1: I don't go to grocery stores. I don't go to
Speaker 1: gas stations. I don't go to banks. Really, um, I
Speaker 1: don't go to anywhere I gotta. I don't sit in
Speaker 1: restaurants as much. Oh no, no, not in LA not
Speaker 1: really anywhere. I mean there's some restaurants like I'll go
Speaker 1: to Ava Damn damn more ship. Look, they got either
Speaker 1: in New York now, but you know there's one thing.
Speaker 1: There's someplace, but there's really no safe place anymore. I
Speaker 1: don't think the avandoned house was that crazy. I wanted
Speaker 1: to become harder than hit. Okay, I got one more stup.
Speaker 1: I think I ever told this one. Back in the
Speaker 1: day before entertainment, before all of that. Um, I used
Speaker 1: to work for a union and we would have you know,
Speaker 1: um conferences and stuff. And we were working with Jesse
Speaker 1: Jackson Rambo Push Coalition and they have this annual thing
Speaker 1: in Chicago. I had never been a life of goddamn it.
Speaker 1: I was like, I can tell you when I'm working
Speaker 1: for too. But that's the story. Wow three years that
Speaker 1: was bullshit. No, but I found myself going to this
Speaker 1: conference and I have a phobia that I don't even
Speaker 1: know if I've ever talked about. But I can't share
Speaker 1: the room with people like I can't be paired up
Speaker 1: with people I don't like being in the room with,
Speaker 1: especially I don't know you. Because and when you work
Speaker 1: for a union, sometimes we'll send your way on conferences.
Speaker 1: They'll put you in a room to share with a
Speaker 1: co worker. I don't even if we work together, know
Speaker 1: each other, we friends that were I don't want to
Speaker 1: I need my space. I don't like that whatever. So
Speaker 1: they put me that I go to this conference. They
Speaker 1: put me in a room with a pastor. This fucking
Speaker 1: nigga's praying and shit, you know, like no, no, I understand, no,
Speaker 1: he's like he's so I walk in, you know, my
Speaker 1: gas and the fucking pastors there and he gets on
Speaker 1: his knees and he starts praying and im and I'm
Speaker 1: standing there. No, he's bibles laid on the bed. He
Speaker 1: literally looked like Marl Luther King. He got on his
Speaker 1: knees and he started praying right, and so I'm standing there. No,
Speaker 1: I'm standing there like like nigga. This is a long
Speaker 1: ass prayer. Right. So he stops praying. He's like, how
Speaker 1: you doing, young man. I'm like, I'm doing great, sir,
Speaker 1: how are you doing doing fine? So? Okay, Uh, how
Speaker 1: often do you pray? Well? You know, I pray all
Speaker 1: throughout the day because the Good Lord. I understand. I understand.
Speaker 1: But um, I'm I'm a heathen. I'm in Chicago. These
Speaker 1: niggas is out here. I'm about to go to the game.
Speaker 1: I don't tell I'm going to get club. So I
Speaker 1: go to the gay club and I am having a
Speaker 1: great time. I have a friend, I had a frend
Speaker 1: of Chicago and uh, long story, sure we're having a
Speaker 1: great time. We end up getting sucked up and I
Speaker 1: fucked him behind the club on a cardboard box. This
Speaker 1: is how pathetically addicted to being a horrid It's a
Speaker 1: horrible decision. First of all, the way these knees are
Speaker 1: built at forty five, I ain't getting ground. I ain't
Speaker 1: even getting on carpet at this point, or you know
Speaker 1: what I mean. Like and first of all, I don't
Speaker 1: even get all my knees like that. But I'm still
Speaker 1: a good time. So yeah. So anyway, I come back
Speaker 1: from fucking this nigga behind the club in Chicago, on
Speaker 1: the ground on a cardboard box, and I still feel
Speaker 1: great about myself, have high self, the same confidence the world.
Speaker 1: And I'm going home. But there's a pastor there, right,
Speaker 1: So I come back. I walk in. The nigga is
Speaker 1: sitting up waiting for me to pray, and I said
Speaker 1: to him, and I looked him dead in the space,
Speaker 1: and I said, no disrespect. I've been drinking. I just
Speaker 1: fucked somebody behind the club. I ain't about to sit here.
Speaker 1: That nigga got up all his ship, got the fuck
Speaker 1: out there. He was like this, He made a whole thing.
Speaker 1: So now here comes Jesse Jackson, people you know, the
Speaker 1: next day, judging me and shit, Now, ain't y'all pastors?
Speaker 1: Because the Lord that I knew took wars in Look
Speaker 1: at you that's what he did. He did. The Bible
Speaker 1: says no one sin is greater than another sin. So
Speaker 1: if you lied about your weight on your DNV license
Speaker 1: and I fucked somebody I just met behind the club, nigga,
Speaker 1: who's going ahead? We both going here apparently because so
Speaker 1: so it's sort of like, you know, I saw early
Speaker 1: on that you know, sometimes the people, even the people
Speaker 1: in the church, they made horrible decision in judging us sinners.
Speaker 1: But now you know, I don't know where that that
Speaker 1: pastor is now, but that nigga. I ain't never seen
Speaker 1: a nigga get up and get his ship so fast
Speaker 1: and get out of there. I can't. I just imagine
Speaker 1: the Bible being fumbled. Oh, he was waiting up for
Speaker 1: me to pray, and soon I walked in. He's sitting there,
Speaker 1: like what is you sitting up? And like sitting and
Speaker 1: it's probably like three and the more he is sitting
Speaker 1: three am, he is sitting up and I'm waiting and
Speaker 1: I and I said, and I see him and I'm like,
Speaker 1: what's up? He like, Yo, I've just been waiting for
Speaker 1: you to pray. I sitting on nigga now, and I
Speaker 1: knew I'm about to let you. I'm about to give
Speaker 1: you something to go pray about that, run to your
Speaker 1: prayer closet. When you said I don't get on my
Speaker 1: knees like that, do you mean you're not a giver
Speaker 1: or you just no? I mean, don't get me wrong.
Speaker 1: I mean you know I'm gonna do whatever the situation
Speaker 1: calls for. I mean, I fucked in showers, bathtubs. I
Speaker 1: mean I've done I've I've lived a life, I've done it,
Speaker 1: and I still will do it because I'm a pleaser,
Speaker 1: so I want to please the person I'm with. I'm
Speaker 1: just saying I'm not like I'm not just gonna be
Speaker 1: on my knees, uh, sucking dick and doing all types
Speaker 1: of shit just to be doing it. Have I done it?
Speaker 1: Will I do? Of course? Of course? Am I receiver?
Speaker 1: Or what are you asking me if I'm the top
Speaker 1: of a bottom? No? No, no, ask a direct question.
Speaker 1: I want to know, like are you are you a giver?
Speaker 1: Because when you said I don't give a giver of what?
Speaker 1: Sucking dick? Yeah, of course, but but sucking dick or
Speaker 1: get my dick sucked? That's I mean, yeah, of course,
Speaker 1: I mean I think any if you are sexual, woman
Speaker 1: or man, and you don't suck dick, you're trash. You
Speaker 1: do give me top energy bottom for love. No, really,
Speaker 1: and I'll tell you why I won't let anybody fuck
Speaker 1: me in It's not. It's not because I'm afraid to
Speaker 1: get fucked or I think getting fucked hurts or whatever
Speaker 1: may be a good time. I mean, we all know where,
Speaker 1: we all know where or a man's m G spot
Speaker 1: is and his wrecking we know that. So and I
Speaker 1: see the pleasure that I've given to a lot of people,
Speaker 1: and I know I know where it is. I know
Speaker 1: where the promised land is on a man. Um. Let's
Speaker 1: be clear. It's only because if you fucked me and
Speaker 1: you go and tell somebody you fucked me the way
Speaker 1: that people be saying, like, yo, I fucked her, I
Speaker 1: put my all my dicking. I saw online yesterday this
Speaker 1: man was online talking to people and he put his
Speaker 1: phone in his pocket and went and fucked a girl
Speaker 1: and let everybody hear it. I felt like that was
Speaker 1: such a violation. I was so disrespectful, And I just
Speaker 1: feel like your private intimate moment should be valued at
Speaker 1: a place where you don't hurt the other person. I've
Speaker 1: never fucked somebody and been like yo, yo yo, I
Speaker 1: fucked nig now the nigga. I told y'all that try
Speaker 1: to extore me for money and all that. Y'all told
Speaker 1: that story because he tried me. So since he wanted
Speaker 1: to put it out there, I just put it my
Speaker 1: tea out there with myself. But I don't I prob
Speaker 1: myself in protecting people's privacy. Um yeah, I don't think
Speaker 1: I could handle the disrespect of somebody say but what
Speaker 1: does love mean? I've been in love and I've fell
Speaker 1: out of love. I mean, you you're talking to having children,
Speaker 1: so marriage maybe having the big way, Maybe that'll be
Speaker 1: the day. But I do think vulnerability, most of my
Speaker 1: friends being vulnerable don't mean you got to open up
Speaker 1: your asshole. It doesn't. I think that your response to
Speaker 1: it seems like it's a vulnerable. No, no, no, I'm
Speaker 1: all for being vulnerable. I recently had somebody going in
Speaker 1: do an interview where they talked about as fucking, which
Speaker 1: again I don't understand what that is, a cloud or whatever,
Speaker 1: and they said somebody like, yeah, Jason wanted me to
Speaker 1: put my fingers in his ass. I called, I said listen,
Speaker 1: I'm not ashamed if I want, if I wanted somebody
Speaker 1: put their finger in my ass, I'm not ashamed of that. However,
Speaker 1: I know that in forty five years, I've never asked
Speaker 1: anybody to put their fingers in my ass. Well, you
Speaker 1: were drunk, I said. Well, if I was drunk and
Speaker 1: you put your fingers in my ass, that means you
Speaker 1: took advantage of me while I was passed out. And
Speaker 1: that's a conversation I'm willing to have. I'm willing to
Speaker 1: I'm but I'm willing to have that with the police,
Speaker 1: with the Internet, with you. So what happened? Okay, So okay, great.
Speaker 1: Just want to be very clear because if you try
Speaker 1: to use me for Cloud, if you try to expose
Speaker 1: our personal having intimate moments for Cloud, that's the shit
Speaker 1: I can't handle. And that's why I'm very careful about
Speaker 1: the individual of that. Bobby Lights made me scared of
Speaker 1: that watching that show. Really executive produce that show, I
Speaker 1: know I was. I was such a fan of watching it.
Speaker 1: I really enjoyed it. I loved that. You know, there
Speaker 1: weren't any like I'm scared to be gay stories. I
Speaker 1: kind of thought somebody would have that especially, um was
Speaker 1: it so was the same soul? Oh so yeah? So
Speaker 1: never really but so if you go to this Twitter,
Speaker 1: I mean, but just being happy about being who they are.
Speaker 1: That was great to see. But one day all talk
Speaker 1: I watched all of them are only fans and Twitter,
Speaker 1: and I was like, this is ruining for me. I
Speaker 1: don't want to hear y'all talk. Let me just see
Speaker 1: bigger as Dixie. But I'm gonna tell you who's fumbled
Speaker 1: the bag. I told them we need to do a
Speaker 1: charm school with that whole cast and bring it more
Speaker 1: like and let me host that shit. I would have
Speaker 1: hosted it. I mean, we're still talking. But that cast
Speaker 1: was a shot. It was a good cast, but only
Speaker 1: because I knew half of them and rolland Ray sitting
Speaker 1: on the other. But Hot Will I watched it every night.
Speaker 1: I watched it twice every nigga they came over to.
Speaker 1: I was like, some watch my show well. And when
Speaker 1: I told how Hot Wills to roll out, the whole
Speaker 1: wheelchair community got said rollout, nigga, bitch shell me again
Speaker 1: and they all said roll out. She said, that's we
Speaker 1: had a guest on here with a wheelchair hold on
Speaker 1: that whole tried me. She did he said I couldn't
Speaker 1: suck it. I said, bit, Y'll roll you out of here.
Speaker 1: But but I still liked her. But no, that Bobby
Speaker 1: lights being. I mean just watching people who loved on
Speaker 1: him in one moment and then turn on him. I
Speaker 1: was so disgussed. You know, when you do like loving hip,
Speaker 1: are you do reality shows? You see how sometimes it
Speaker 1: feels scripted or it's that show was not scripted. I
Speaker 1: literally walked through the house every day like, hey, how
Speaker 1: are you doing. I would come to set every day.
Speaker 1: First of all, I was an executive producer, like I
Speaker 1: was gonna be a passive executivedce just put my name
Speaker 1: on in like you know, cast whatever. But once I
Speaker 1: met the guys and I saw how great they were.
Speaker 1: I would come to set with bottles of nineteen forty
Speaker 1: two and I'd be like, what's going on? And they'd
Speaker 1: be like, Yo, that motherfucker it was over. There was
Speaker 1: on Jack. We don't like looking at Jack, Like what
Speaker 1: about them? That motherfucker was sucking his dick my girlfriend away?
Speaker 1: And do you know what I did? Watch the X Room?
Speaker 1: Did you hear I was gas lighting them all day?
Speaker 1: And as soon as them cameras came on, they was
Speaker 1: beating each other ass. Shout out to that cash. Y'all
Speaker 1: did a great They were great. They were who impressed
Speaker 1: you the most on it? On that show? You know what,
Speaker 1: I think Bobby's a star. I think rolland raised the
Speaker 1: star brought rolland Raider to Zeus. They impressed in terms
Speaker 1: of the cast. Um no, I mean, guess they're part
Speaker 1: of the cast. Bobby impressed me too. I wasn't all
Speaker 1: of them all they all did, but Bobby was great
Speaker 1: and I felt like I loved seeing him get emotional
Speaker 1: and seeing him cry like that to me made it
Speaker 1: feel real because he went in really wanting to be
Speaker 1: in love and he wanted to find out. Now the
Speaker 1: reunion was a hot ass man. Because of that reunion,
Speaker 1: I don't plan on most anymore real. That's just not
Speaker 1: I'm good like. I don't know how you weren't like it.
Speaker 1: That was crazy. I was watching it. It was nothing
Speaker 1: but fight like. It was pausing and fighting and it
Speaker 1: was a lot. That was the best show Zeus had.
Speaker 1: But Jocelyn, I guess it takes the cake, but it
Speaker 1: was the best show. Well. I felt like they were
Speaker 1: fighting for something. They were fighting for love, and they
Speaker 1: literally were fighting for love. Dmitri was there, the white
Speaker 1: boy who Dmitri the day I met, the first day
Speaker 1: I got there. Off camera, he says, oh, I know
Speaker 1: who you are. I know who you are. I saw
Speaker 1: you on a flight before you were in Coach. I said,
Speaker 1: first of all, And there's no coach shaming going on here,
Speaker 1: right but you but on Jet Blue. I've never flown Coach.
Speaker 1: I've only flown Mint, so that's not true. I guess
Speaker 1: he was a flight attendant. He was trying to read
Speaker 1: me off camera. I said, let me tell you something.
Speaker 1: I'm not a part of this cast. The security ain't
Speaker 1: gonna hold me back. So you watch him out like
Speaker 1: I'm really about all that action you want. And so
Speaker 1: then the whole cast turned on him. Right then, that's
Speaker 1: how it started. They were like, first of all, I
Speaker 1: don't disrespect like because they the cast gave me a
Speaker 1: lot of respect. Don't know, because it was a black
Speaker 1: show as a white dude, Dame Dimitri. They all called
Speaker 1: him Demetrius, but I called him Demitrius. You. I thought
Speaker 1: this was that show, and you also, being in therapy
Speaker 1: and wanting love, would you know people for love you
Speaker 1: don't even they don't even finish that statement, do not
Speaker 1: because words have power in the manifestation. What happened. No,
Speaker 1: they've proach you about doing the day and show. I
Speaker 1: said to Zeus, first thing you're gonna do is bring
Speaker 1: a midget, and everybody knows, I'm afraid. I'm afraid. Listen,
Speaker 1: we're not bleeping that shitt y'all I had imagined on
Speaker 1: my show once I said, hop up here, let's talk whatever,
Speaker 1: here's the deal, here's the here's the deal. You're going
Speaker 1: to offend somebody, okay, always, so just fuck it, you
Speaker 1: know whatever, Get your little ass in here and listen
Speaker 1: to what I'm saying. Okay, No, if I date, what
Speaker 1: they're gonna do is they're gonna find all the people
Speaker 1: that I do not want a day and I got
Speaker 1: to go on a date with it. But you should,
Speaker 1: Bobby help you because you got we're gonna what we're
Speaker 1: gonna work like, we gonna stop it. I'm gonna bring
Speaker 1: a high chair now here we are. No. And then
Speaker 1: now my whole brand, Yeah that my whole brands sucked
Speaker 1: up because I didn't got into it. What I mention
Speaker 1: this person. This person hit my knees and shit, and
Speaker 1: I'm trying to explain no, no, no, so no, I
Speaker 1: won't do to give you ask and up um, I
Speaker 1: like to lay down and get my dick. You like
Speaker 1: to lay down? Yeah? I like that. I had Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm in therapy, but I'm on a show. Horrible decision. Yeah,
Speaker 1: this is work. I meant somebody that I knew and
Speaker 1: whatever we had a situation ship or whatever. And I
Speaker 1: remember one time I was on a conference call doing
Speaker 1: some Kanye business and I'm like, and no, it won't
Speaker 1: even come. It was zoom, but I was on my phone,
Speaker 1: but I was calmed down. This motherfucker's sitting there talking
Speaker 1: to me. Yo, nigga need me. I'm like, yo, I'm
Speaker 1: wanna call it. Motherfucking out started sucking one did. That
Speaker 1: was the best conference call I ever had, the best
Speaker 1: and that was hot. But you know that is I'm
Speaker 1: all about the moment, the vibe. And you know there's
Speaker 1: people that I will be interested in that I may
Speaker 1: want to be oral with you, or I may not
Speaker 1: want to be oral with you. I may want to fuck,
Speaker 1: but I may not want to be oral. I mayn't
Speaker 1: want to cuddle, not fucker, do nothing. It's a vibe
Speaker 1: for me. If the vibe ain't there. Now, if I
Speaker 1: find a vibe that's just passion is just on, like
Speaker 1: just crazy. And I did meet somebody once and do
Speaker 1: buy that. I mean the passion was crazy. Um. Yeah,
Speaker 1: then you know we get into it. You're gonna suck
Speaker 1: me though, because you're going decision to tell people. We
Speaker 1: don't like exposing I don't like the exposing of people.
Speaker 1: I think it's corny for everybody. Really. Yeah, we have
Speaker 1: nicknam inviting people on to me, Like there's that clip
Speaker 1: of Megan James recently with the young jock thing. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and I really didn't like seeing it because I'm like,
Speaker 1: you brought him into your home, your house, you know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. She said something like how you stayed
Speaker 1: relevant all these years of one hit? And she's like,
Speaker 1: he said, well, I have a lot of hits. She goes,
Speaker 1: we'll name him or let's let's hear about him. Yeah,
Speaker 1: and it just kind of fun I'm back and forth. Yeah,
Speaker 1: they went back and forth on on Twitter, I think,
Speaker 1: and then she brought him funny Marco. Um, but why
Speaker 1: bring people on to shit on them? Now, don't get
Speaker 1: me wrong. If you have a situation that's out, maybe
Speaker 1: you know you're gonna talk about it in a moment cool,
Speaker 1: you know, like Black China with her mother. How can
Speaker 1: you not talk about that? But I think when people
Speaker 1: blatantly bring someone on an interview to have this gotcha moment, yeah,
Speaker 1: I don't like that. That really that recently happened to me.
Speaker 1: I don't know when is this coming out next? Uh?
Speaker 1: In two weeks? Okay? So um, they there's a there's
Speaker 1: a platform that shared with me that they're putting me
Speaker 1: on their most influential list, which great, okay, but but
Speaker 1: I respect them so much that whatever they want to
Speaker 1: do an interview with Maul, do it. You know. Let's
Speaker 1: sure like we built a relationship. Now you want to Okay,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna come. I'm suport you come on my ship.
Speaker 1: I'm all about that. That's why I love breakfast Club,
Speaker 1: drink Champs, whatever. But I'm very selective. I don't just
Speaker 1: be doing anything because there are some people who don't
Speaker 1: have talent. The only talent they have will be to
Speaker 1: set you up and get that moment. And I I've
Speaker 1: had to happen to me a couple of times where
Speaker 1: I come in saying, yeah, ask whatever you want, but
Speaker 1: that doesn't mean that you tell me you want to
Speaker 1: interview me for one thing and then flip it around
Speaker 1: and do. And that happened. That happened to me recently
Speaker 1: where they were asking me, you know, what do you
Speaker 1: think about hip hop media covering the Republican Party and
Speaker 1: the conservative movement? And I said, okay, I'll give you
Speaker 1: my input on that. But then they started digging into
Speaker 1: Kanye this and this and this and this, and it
Speaker 1: became something and questioning why I make decisions. I said,
Speaker 1: I said, hold on. First of all, because I didn't
Speaker 1: know the reporter. I was off camera recording the conversation
Speaker 1: because I'm always have my receipt in case you try
Speaker 1: to edit your shit, I would have mine. Wow. So
Speaker 1: I'm feeling it. So the person says, you know what,
Speaker 1: let me just stop the interview, let me stop the
Speaker 1: recording and let's talk. I said, no, keep recording, because
Speaker 1: I'm recording. And I said, let me be very clear.
Speaker 1: You dealing with the King Kong of the fucking Internet.
Speaker 1: Not only will I find where you live and find you,
Speaker 1: but I will make sure that everybody in my world
Speaker 1: knows that you're piece of shit. Don't play with me. Now,
Speaker 1: you only talked about this here your pre approved questions.
Speaker 1: Do that, but don't start playing anyway in an interview.
Speaker 1: Didn't come out and probably won't come out. But but
Speaker 1: I say all that to say, like those gotcha moments,
Speaker 1: that's why I think a lot of hip hop media
Speaker 1: or black people in media get the bad rap that
Speaker 1: we're somewhere trying to be this evil thing when really, no,
Speaker 1: we should be the trusted space that all black people
Speaker 1: or people of color in the world of entertainment come to.
Speaker 1: I agree, Yeah, I agree. Does she not work with
Speaker 1: you though? Oh, Megan No. I saw her on a
Speaker 1: red carpet and she was there. It seemed on behalf
Speaker 1: of I think the show either has the title Hollywood
Speaker 1: or that's it's it's yeah, Hollywood group Chat. But I
Speaker 1: think she was on a She was on a red
Speaker 1: carpet and someone asked, but where's Jason. I saw a
Speaker 1: clip where she was maybe they confused her name with
Speaker 1: jar Yeah, they would ask it for you on the
Speaker 1: red carpet and she posted the clip. Yeah, it's been
Speaker 1: nice to see Hollywood unlocked on carpets. I think y'all
Speaker 1: came to you people. Premier. Oh yeah, oh shout out
Speaker 1: you people. Was Kenya's Yeah, can you put me in
Speaker 1: a fucking I'm not gonna ask her. I saw Kenya
Speaker 1: ny bar embarrass was at um Charlemagne's Hell of a
Speaker 1: Week the day I was. He was on the episode.
Speaker 1: I was, I was on the episode before, so I
Speaker 1: saw him going. I wanted to meet him. But I've never,
Speaker 1: like formerly said I respect this movement. I just saw
Speaker 1: um Yashihiti the last weeks ago, who I love and
Speaker 1: I didn't even know she knew who I was. But
Speaker 1: I'm a fan of hers. But no, Kenya, you people,
Speaker 1: you need to do something with me. I'm honest with you.
Speaker 1: If you ever told him that, it's like I'm telling
Speaker 1: I'm telling you right now, take this clip, call me
Speaker 1: anything you need. I can. I'm not a trained actor,
Speaker 1: but if you saying your job is to be a
Speaker 1: messy motherfucker up. But no, I respect what he's been
Speaker 1: with doing you people. I love him, including people in
Speaker 1: there like it was a It was filming a year ago,
Speaker 1: and so we would sometimes hear about it at work.
Speaker 1: But when I finally got to see it and everybody
Speaker 1: that popped out. It was so much fun, Like just
Speaker 1: to know that Kenya Bridge is the gap. You know
Speaker 1: what I'm saying. Um, one of our friends of the
Speaker 1: show who doesn't show with Charlotage, Andrew Schultz, we were
Speaker 1: having lunch and he's like, yo, put me in you
Speaker 1: people talk to ken y'all do whatever you want. I'm
Speaker 1: sitting here like, damn, don't want some money what they
Speaker 1: guy to do? And Kenya loves his work, And I
Speaker 1: think that's the cool thing is he's like they didn't
Speaker 1: know each other. Keny didn't know Andrew, Andrew don know Keny,
Speaker 1: and he's like, fuck it, the internet loves you. Niggas
Speaker 1: loved me, like, let's do it together. And he had
Speaker 1: the one of the funniest part of you people talking
Speaker 1: about storming in the capital. And I think that what's
Speaker 1: cool about Kenya, much like Issa including pieces of pop
Speaker 1: culture in our media, in our movies. Even though white
Speaker 1: people loved you people, maybe they didn't realize young Miami's
Speaker 1: Young Miami. Well, Esa is not gonna do it because
Speaker 1: her publicists are shit, That's what And you know the
Speaker 1: crazy part is, Um, you know, I love you'sa I
Speaker 1: think he'sa. Have you've met her before, right, Yeah, but
Speaker 1: she's got she's so beautiful, right, she's got, she's she's
Speaker 1: she's she's beautiful online. But when you meet her, like
Speaker 1: her skin beautiful as fucked and I love how and
Speaker 1: she's like pro black as fucked right, putting on black
Speaker 1: as fuck. So we've always wanted to celebrate her at
Speaker 1: Hollywood or not. We want to have her on her show.
Speaker 1: She never would come on and then come to find
Speaker 1: out her her publicist was just a blocking ass hate
Speaker 1: and as motherfucker. But you know that's the new trojan horse,
Speaker 1: the black publicist, the black executive, the black uh manager
Speaker 1: who gate keeps people from the culture, which's so crazy
Speaker 1: because they believe and I think niggas just inherently have
Speaker 1: the slave mentality or until the white man, until mainstream validation,
Speaker 1: as we haven't made it. Well. You know the sad
Speaker 1: part about that is if you're a person curating and
Speaker 1: artist or an athlete's career and you're telling that the
Speaker 1: only way they'd be seen and to be honest, for
Speaker 1: E Online to talk about them, or for Vogue or
Speaker 1: GQ to write about them or whatever, and you forget
Speaker 1: that fall Alert, shade Room, Hollywood Unlocked, horrible decisions, breakfast club,
Speaker 1: drink Chams. I even throw to Joe Buddark whatever that's fair,
Speaker 1: you know whatever, Black media. But if you don't tell them,
Speaker 1: like Queen Latifa told me, she said, get black people
Speaker 1: behind you and take them on a journey and never
Speaker 1: forget them. Don't never get over there with those other
Speaker 1: folks and forget where you started to take. Bring them
Speaker 1: along for the journey. So that's what I've been doing.
Speaker 1: And I feel like there's this thing now where at
Speaker 1: first it was white folks keeping black folks from me,
Speaker 1: but now it's black folks keeping I don't think it's
Speaker 1: that they're keeping it's that black posts are convinced that
Speaker 1: there's a crossover that we won't receive if we are
Speaker 1: supporting each other. They think that if I don't, hey like,
Speaker 1: people don't know me in this space, so I have
Speaker 1: to do the GQ. Oh no, no, they believe that
Speaker 1: if you go over the Jason, he's gonna be messy.
Speaker 1: Well no, if you're in a public fight with somebody,
Speaker 1: Jason's gonna ask you what the people want to hear,
Speaker 1: and he's gonna do it in a way that's respectful.
Speaker 1: You're gonna nobody's ever left my show and said, oh my,
Speaker 1: like I had Laverne Cox come on and break down
Speaker 1: time my suicide things, and she said, I never thought
Speaker 1: I'd be crying on the Jason Lee show. Well because
Speaker 1: she thought she was gonna come on just Kiki the
Speaker 1: whole way through. We'll get to the key, key and
Speaker 1: the games and all that. But I want to have
Speaker 1: real conversations with people, and but but they've been but
Speaker 1: but black media has been villainized to a place where
Speaker 1: white people have done a great job and telling black celebrities,
Speaker 1: I'm gonna make you real famous and I'm gonna make
Speaker 1: you real successful, and we're gonna have these elevated conversations
Speaker 1: when you can have elevated conversation with me, which I
Speaker 1: will see celebrities on. Really we try not to. Yeah,
Speaker 1: And before I do want to give your flowers because
Speaker 1: the last time we spoke it was right before your
Speaker 1: showy dropped. It is phenomenal. Thank you, you were a
Speaker 1: wonderful job and questions you're asking of course top tier
Speaker 1: guests as well. Thank you. But seeing you hold the
Speaker 1: blog space and do all that. Seeing you have the
Speaker 1: Hollywood Unlock radio show podcast. You were with Fox, so
Speaker 1: you did all that. Seeing you on your own space,
Speaker 1: you were doing a phenomenal, thank you, phenomenal job. And
Speaker 1: I love that people are able to see you in
Speaker 1: that light now, Yeah, like you just being yourself and
Speaker 1: you having conversations with the likes of people that not
Speaker 1: many other people are able to sit down and have
Speaker 1: those conversations with. Yeah, like, it's just it's just it's wonderful. One.
Speaker 1: I appreciate that. And I'm learning to be comfortable with
Speaker 1: receiving flowers because I used to not want to receive them.
Speaker 1: But I have worked my ass off to get to
Speaker 1: a place where I appreciate that. You know, I had recently,
Speaker 1: I had coffee with the Vice President, right, so I've
Speaker 1: been building with her. Went to our house during the
Speaker 1: Christmas party. And when you go to the White House,
Speaker 1: you wait in this line to take your photo. I
Speaker 1: waited in the line, and when I got there, so oh,
Speaker 1: oh my god, so good to see you. I'm so
Speaker 1: proud of all the things you're doing. And you know
Speaker 1: your your voice matters, and your influence matters. And I
Speaker 1: looked her dead in her face, and I said, Madam
Speaker 1: Vice President, why is your messaging not connecting with the people,
Speaker 1: because I don't really know what you're doing unless I'm
Speaker 1: looking at her Instagram. And she stopped the line and
Speaker 1: we had a moment, and I said, I want to
Speaker 1: help you because as a black woman, first black vice president,
Speaker 1: for whatever reason, it's just the work that I see
Speaker 1: or have learned that you all are doing it is
Speaker 1: not landing with the people. And so she said, you
Speaker 1: know what, like she I could see in her eyes
Speaker 1: and actually like connected that somebody actually cared about her
Speaker 1: as a human being. So she came out. Her people
Speaker 1: came out and said we'd like to follow up and whateverever,
Speaker 1: so long as you're short. They called me and said,
Speaker 1: we'd like to meet with you in La. It's okay.
Speaker 1: So I called Angie from the Shade Room, call it
Speaker 1: neighborhood talk, James de Boza, Foxhole, and shann a spiritual word,
Speaker 1: and I said, we all need to go in together
Speaker 1: because we're stronger together. It's not all about me. I
Speaker 1: want her to see that all of us collectively talk
Speaker 1: to millions of people. But in that moment, I was
Speaker 1: sitting there But in that moment when I was sitting there,
Speaker 1: I was like, I was proud of myself because I
Speaker 1: said the person that people have said I am and
Speaker 1: the person that I've played into because once they saw
Speaker 1: who I was and said who I was, I played
Speaker 1: the funk out of that role. Well, you says, let
Speaker 1: me give you the villain, let me give you the savage,
Speaker 1: let me give you the don't care. And sometimes I
Speaker 1: would be like, damn, Like, I know I went too hard,
Speaker 1: but I'm not gonna apologize though, but I know I'm
Speaker 1: to her, And I said, you know, I'm sitting out
Speaker 1: with the second most powerful person the world, who sees
Speaker 1: my influence and who values my voice. But I also
Speaker 1: I'm humble enough to share that with other people. And
Speaker 1: and and I think that's just too to the heart
Speaker 1: of who I am as a person. And now what
Speaker 1: I'm learning also in therapy is to start being more
Speaker 1: vulnerable and sharing those sides so people can get the
Speaker 1: totality of who I am, you know. But still they're
Speaker 1: gonna judge and say whatever they're gonna say, you know.
Speaker 1: And um, but yeah, with the guests, I'm on right
Speaker 1: now and I'm and I'm actually scheduling time with the
Speaker 1: Vice president to get her on the show. Oh well, p'ama,
Speaker 1: you say you come in, Adam put it out there
Speaker 1: to make a horrible decision. I want to see more.
Speaker 1: But that's the thing I said here, I said to
Speaker 1: see you in person, And like as soon as I
Speaker 1: walk in, I don't think I I walk in to
Speaker 1: meet to meet the vice president. When you're meeting the
Speaker 1: vice president president, they shut down everything. They shut down
Speaker 1: the escalator so that splayers were moving until she got there.
Speaker 1: Then all of a sudden that stopped. Stop. They pipe
Speaker 1: draped the room. There's a curtain like there's there's secret
Speaker 1: service everywhere. So it's a very control environment. So now
Speaker 1: I'm like, damn, like nigging my taxes, but everything I
Speaker 1: want to get about this motherfucker, you know what I mean.
Speaker 1: They won't let my assist in. I got my phone,
Speaker 1: like was it, you know? And so I walked in.
Speaker 1: I got I brought her some of my books because
Speaker 1: I wanted to read my book because I think it's
Speaker 1: important as I learned her story and she know my story,
Speaker 1: like you own the plane Air Force too, you got
Speaker 1: time when you fly in the Africa. Read that motherfucker.
Speaker 1: I know who you talk to. So I walk in
Speaker 1: with my books in my coffee and I'm like, hi, Hi,
Speaker 1: my invest president. And I go to sit it down
Speaker 1: in my coffee spills all over the table. Oh, and
Speaker 1: I'm like this some this some embarrassing ass shit, and
Speaker 1: so she starts to clean it up. I'm like, She's like, no,
Speaker 1: you don't, we got and so she starts to like
Speaker 1: clean up whatever. So they clean it up, and I'm
Speaker 1: looking at it and I go, do I shake your
Speaker 1: hand and give you a hug. She goes give me
Speaker 1: a hug, and I get her a hug. She's cool.
Speaker 1: But I said, why don't we get to see that.
Speaker 1: That's a great story. I love seeing powerful people do something.
Speaker 1: She was like, she was like, I said, And so
Speaker 1: Angie from the share room said, when I was at
Speaker 1: a party, you were, you were, you were dancing with
Speaker 1: the djo hair was sweating out, and I wanted to
Speaker 1: fill them even put that because if I would have
Speaker 1: put that out, people have been like, look at Kamala,
Speaker 1: you know. And she said, I wish you would have
Speaker 1: done that. She said, well, your people wouldn't let me
Speaker 1: do it. But that's the thing she's in a bubble
Speaker 1: of an ecosystem who are trying to protect her, protect
Speaker 1: her and keep her certain way. When black folks, we
Speaker 1: just want to see Auntie Kamala so we can support
Speaker 1: you and get behind you, know what I mean? We did, Yeah,
Speaker 1: but thank you for that. I appreciate that because it's
Speaker 1: we're being very intentional with the conversation. Rights. It's wont
Speaker 1: to fi from second Dick to the president. Oh but
Speaker 1: I'm still gonna suck a dick. I know that's right.
Speaker 1: Everyone knows Jason where they can follow you, where they
Speaker 1: can support you, and all like the judgment coming from
Speaker 1: behind the camera though the whole time he gonna even
Speaker 1: get his dick suck. So what we stopped. We got
Speaker 1: to normalize the ship that we all be doing that
Speaker 1: People like I can't believe he said gonna get his dick,
Speaker 1: So you sunk it? Didn't watching this show right now?
Speaker 1: You were watching the Jason Lee Shwan Revolt every Tuesday,
Speaker 1: um every Tuesday night at temp him East a certain times.
Speaker 1: And the Jason Lee podcast is getting ready to launch
Speaker 1: next month. So for all of you that have fallen
Speaker 1: in love with this new, improved, elevated cappuccino sipping Jason.
Speaker 1: The tea is so fucking pipeing het and I've been
Speaker 1: going through it draws because I ain't been able to
Speaker 1: get it out. So once that podcast go, y'all gonna
Speaker 1: be like, oh, he back to the same. Oh, I'm
Speaker 1: not changing for money or the industry. We need something
Speaker 1: after Wendy exactly exactly. So, yeah, the tea is coming
Speaker 1: on Jason Podcast. I'm sad about that. Well, thank you
Speaker 1: so much for joining us. Of course, here I told
Speaker 1: Mandy I was not coming on this show until I
Speaker 1: got all my contracts out the way because look at
Speaker 1: look can you imagine I'm over at Revolte like I'd
Speaker 1: like to be on the network, But I was fucking
Speaker 1: somebody behind Roscoe and Waffles in Chicago and told that,
Speaker 1: and told that Martin Luther King looking past and get
Speaker 1: your ass to fuck up and go get your Yeah, exactly. Well,
Speaker 1: thank you for joining us, y'all. Y'all make sure y'all
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Speaker 1: my gummy kids. So yeah, another episode of our Decisions
Speaker 1: and abortions. I know doesn't want to allow black history
Speaker 1: African America. So that wasn't even going on at the
Speaker 1: time that I meet her, and I got into it,
Speaker 1: but I replied to her and I said, Zoe, all
Speaker 1: of the women you work with and service and are
Speaker 1: you serious and shoot? And I said, think about it,
Speaker 1: like we're literally talking about kids that like he wants
Speaker 1: to not like he was talking about anti abortion laws.
Speaker 1: And I was like, like, you think this is okay
Speaker 1: for unsafe abortions even down to women getting raped, And
Speaker 1: she was like, this is not something that concerns me. Everyday.
Speaker 1: Taxes do equal rights with to Da Da Da Da,
Speaker 1: and I was like, wow, my nigga, like that ship
Speaker 1: was really wild because Zoe isn't I believe she let
Speaker 1: me ask you a question. Um, Like, we talked about
Speaker 1: some of your friends supporting Trump. Now Trump has a
Speaker 1: celebrity about him, so I still love celebrity apprentice to
Speaker 1: this day. So I get even the draw to him
Speaker 1: to some people. It wasn't all my friends you talk about, Anthony,
Speaker 1: I mean whatever, Well, there's been conversations where you said
Speaker 1: you sat at tables and you realize that people were
Speaker 1: Republican and supported him as well. Oh yeah yeah, like
Speaker 1: dinners and ship. Yeah yeah, yeah, So I do want
Speaker 1: to know. I feel like the sensis is so dangerous.
Speaker 1: Could you be friends or even acquaintances with someone who
Speaker 1: supports somebody like no? And you know what's interesting. Anthony
Speaker 1: and I did have a conversation about him before and
Speaker 1: we were something about him came up and he was like, bro,
Speaker 1: He's like, you know, he's like the Trump shit, and
Speaker 1: he's like he's like for me, he was like, you know,
Speaker 1: I'm not paying taxes all that. He's very like old
Speaker 1: school Puerto Rican New York, you know, and he was like,
Speaker 1: but what we're starting to see with the governors, he's
Speaker 1: like the radical shit. He's like, absolutely not, And he
Speaker 1: said I never thought Trump was a radical guy. And
Speaker 1: I was like, that's a weird thing for you to say,
Speaker 1: considering I believe that all these people were birth under
Speaker 1: the Trump ran to me, these people feeling so much
Speaker 1: excitement about anti abortion laws and keeping women anyway, I
Speaker 1: say all that. To say that to me was interesting
Speaker 1: because he was like, remember, and I said, but Trump
Speaker 1: made a comment that people that got abortions before he
Speaker 1: was in office should go to jail. And he's like,
Speaker 1: it's he just did that to blow smoke up. Everybody's
Speaker 1: asked to get an office. He just wanted to do that.
Speaker 1: It's possible. It's possible. It's interesting because I mean, the
Speaker 1: more that I'm excelling financially, which that's been a whole
Speaker 1: cluster fucking therapy for me. I am so liberal fiscally conservative. However,
Speaker 1: in terms of like money versus the rights of human beings,
Speaker 1: I still don't know how taxes is just the number
Speaker 1: one response for why people want to sit here and say, oh, well, financially,
Speaker 1: I'm going to be a Republican and vote when there's
Speaker 1: so many bills and laws that are being pushed that
Speaker 1: literally take away the rights of human I've never I
Speaker 1: don't have an attitude to get up and work. I
Speaker 1: don't have an attitude to get up at work. I've
Speaker 1: never had that attitude. I don't believe in that my
Speaker 1: father has worked his whole life to only now have
Speaker 1: a social security of eleven hundred dollars like my parents
Speaker 1: before I was having a good job where like using
Speaker 1: food stamps and Medicaid and ship like that, and like,
Speaker 1: I'm lucky enough to be able to take care of them.
Speaker 1: But at the end of the day, there's somebody else
Speaker 1: that's a seventy one you're old woman like my mother,
Speaker 1: who can't afford shit like that. That's where my money
Speaker 1: is going out. Hope so and if it doesn't, it doesn't.
Speaker 1: But I'm not about to fight about the ship when
Speaker 1: at the end of the day, I'm the person that's
Speaker 1: been on the front lines being like ra, Ra, you
Speaker 1: need to give your tax money up so I deserve
Speaker 1: it too. You know what I'm saying. Now, I'm going
Speaker 1: to register my bitches businesses in Florida. Yeah, I'm gonna
Speaker 1: try to cheat the shit, damn, but I'm at the
Speaker 1: end of the day, I ain't. But I'm still gonna
Speaker 1: pay my taxes hope. Um. Yeah, it's it's interesting and
Speaker 1: if even they I'm always fumsted to police bro. It's
Speaker 1: strange because there's still this idea, um, even now when
Speaker 1: people travel abroad, like, there's still this idea of oh,
Speaker 1: you ain't scared to go to another country, And it's
Speaker 1: so crazy because America is really shitty compared to so
Speaker 1: many other countries. Yes, there's a lot of countries where
Speaker 1: women don't have rights and can't get education and have
Speaker 1: to cover their whole bodies and men run everything. But
Speaker 1: when you really dig into our not only judicial system,
Speaker 1: but our government and how things are operated from a
Speaker 1: federal and a state and a local municipal and how
Speaker 1: everything is so different and divided, it's really scary what
Speaker 1: laws are currently being pushed in past in our country
Speaker 1: that make it completely unsafe um And it's crazy. Um.
Speaker 1: But I didn't want to get into this doc because
Speaker 1: I know our cinema normally sometimes goes askew, and there's
Speaker 1: so many great topics for this specific for this specific documentary,
Speaker 1: now I want to give a spoiler alert as this
Speaker 1: whole last week said Bursted Tomato, and now she's on
Speaker 1: a skew? Is that not a word? Askew as a word.
Speaker 1: I just can't believe you. I can't believe you used
Speaker 1: it after bursting. You know why it is because it
Speaker 1: is three pm in the afternoon. I hadn't had a coffee,
Speaker 1: I hadn't been awake. My brain is worth you burst
Speaker 1: in my bubble with that. See that is word versus
Speaker 1: versus No, Mandy burst is already, oh burst, you know
Speaker 1: what you're reminded me of when you said that me
Speaker 1: and Vinnie fucking love me. Actually, this is the nigga
Speaker 1: talking to told me that I live on internet me
Speaker 1: and he's like