WEBVTT - Men Are Still Hoes

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<v Speaker 1>Ola, It's Erica and we are so motherfucking excited because

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<v Speaker 1>we just announced our second live show and it's gonna

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<v Speaker 1>be in Atlanta. Yes, Mama, we come into Atlanta to

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<v Speaker 1>hang out with all of our Atlanta Mama's zaddies, people

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<v Speaker 1>without kids. Remember, you ain't gotta have the kid to

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<v Speaker 1>come to a good mom's party. Okay, And this party

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<v Speaker 1>is about to be turned up. It's October thirteenth at

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<v Speaker 1>BQE Lounge Downtown, so make sure you get those tickets.

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<v Speaker 2>No bullshit, because we don't do that over here, honey. Anyway,

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<v Speaker 2>let me shut the fuck up.

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<v Speaker 1>Go ahead and get those tickets on our Instagram at

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<v Speaker 1>Good Bombs Underscore Bad Choices. We'll see you October thirteenth

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<v Speaker 1>in Atlanta.

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<v Speaker 2>Peace.

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<v Speaker 3>Yes, yes, baby, no no, not the weak.

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<v Speaker 2>Song of Welcome back to Good Mom's Bad Choices. I'm

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<v Speaker 2>Nila and I'm Erica. Happy Wednesday Wednesday. Hope you guys

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<v Speaker 2>are you know, living your best life? Your best life,

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<v Speaker 2>accomplishing your goals, setting your.

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<v Speaker 1>Boundaries, drinking your water drinking your water, doing your workouts, meditating,

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<v Speaker 1>eating lettuce.

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<v Speaker 2>Speaking of meditating eating lettuce, I don't know. We just

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<v Speaker 2>had a salad. She's feeling really letousy. Today is the

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<v Speaker 2>first day of my workout story. I'm sorry. Next week journey,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm starting my whole journey next week. Everything. Why next week?

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<v Speaker 2>Why not? Because it's the first I needed to get

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<v Speaker 2>it out of my system. Okay, so you got to

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<v Speaker 2>get all this shit out. I'm gonna drink like lots

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<v Speaker 2>of water next week. I'm not gonna eat any meat meat.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm detoxing, and I'm gonna stop having sex. Are you

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<v Speaker 2>having sex? No, so you're gonna put you might have sex. No,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not having sex.

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<v Speaker 1>But you might have sex now. But so then you're

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<v Speaker 1>just gonna I don't have anybody to have. You're gonna

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<v Speaker 1>you're giving yourself space too, fuck ye just in case.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, okay, got it. But I'm probably not because I

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<v Speaker 2>don't really have any potentials or neither zero.

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<v Speaker 1>I've spent a lot of time with my former potentials though,

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<v Speaker 1>over the past like two.

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<v Speaker 2>Weeks, former potentials, former trembling drip lippe trembling lippe. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>that's a good test. That's a good test.

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<v Speaker 4>And self control, yeah, discipline, which I lack a lot of,

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<v Speaker 4>which is leading me to believe that I should probably

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<v Speaker 4>consume less alcohol in order to make better decisions.

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<v Speaker 2>Absolutely no alcohol make runs everything. Yeah, like literally, I

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<v Speaker 2>make bad decision. Everyone does. It's like I drink tequila

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<v Speaker 2>and then my fangs come out. Mm hm. You always

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<v Speaker 2>say that, especially the fang part. Yeah, because it's it's real.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like sex vampire. Maybe you should switch alcohols. We

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<v Speaker 2>every thought about that. I don't think it's good. It's

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<v Speaker 2>still the same. I think any alcohol is just gonna

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<v Speaker 2>encourage me to do make bad trash. Yeah, maybe, like

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<v Speaker 2>you know, take a month off, a month off of fliquor.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh lord, just smoke, I just got scared you. We

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<v Speaker 2>I do cool? Should I get it? I'll get in

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<v Speaker 2>a second. Okay, uh okay. So, speaking of weird things

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<v Speaker 2>that I'm going to do and I have done, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>I met a politician. Oh my god, SHU say that.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, nobody knows what is unhinge And it sounds really official.

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<v Speaker 2>It sounds like he met Obama. Well it's not, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>it's like wait, not like like it's a politician. I

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<v Speaker 2>don't even know if you can considered a politician. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>he's in politics, but like a much lighter range of

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<v Speaker 2>light politics. And I met have on a hinge And

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<v Speaker 2>I'm flying out tomorrow to San Francisco to go on

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<v Speaker 2>a date overnight. So you just stay for one day.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna stay for two. I'm gonna leave Monday morning,

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<v Speaker 2>so we gonna hang out. We can hang out on Monday.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you have any plans for this weekend? No, well,

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<v Speaker 2>my parents are leaving.

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<v Speaker 1>They initially invited us, like the family to go, but

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<v Speaker 1>since my brother is now off to college, they've been

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<v Speaker 1>like doing a lot of dating.

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<v Speaker 2>Like nasty, Are they in therapy or something? Might I

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<v Speaker 2>have to be in therapy? I don't know.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like that's something a therapist would reckon. No,

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<v Speaker 1>they're like happy and ship without therapy. So they've been

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<v Speaker 1>like doing a lot of dating things. And they invited

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<v Speaker 1>us and then like today she's like me and war

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<v Speaker 1>you are going on our trip to where like Laguna, But

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<v Speaker 1>like didn't say, like you come up like I think

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<v Speaker 1>that she'ld have like they want to do a solo thing,

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<v Speaker 1>which is fine, Like I really I.

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<v Speaker 2>Didn't really want to drive out to Laguna. So you're

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<v Speaker 2>basically we're having a party eat your mom's house. Oh

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<v Speaker 2>we could, right, yeah, why would I? This is where

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<v Speaker 2>she doesn't like me. Okay, No one wants to drive

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<v Speaker 2>all that out there. Yeah. Then she reminds me of

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<v Speaker 2>a story. I'll probably just go to Ashley's house. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>I'll be there. It just trids me a story because

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<v Speaker 2>you said Laguna side story aside from my taking a

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<v Speaker 2>trip to San Francisco for a date in high school

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<v Speaker 2>and my junior year in high school, this stupid rich girl.

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<v Speaker 2>Her dad's like the second richest person in the world.

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<v Speaker 2>He created oshkosh, but god, oh god, damn and her mom.

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<v Speaker 2>They sent all of these like ten kids in a

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<v Speaker 2>limo to Laguna to stay at U like Saint Regis.

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<v Speaker 2>It was like some classes hotel in Orange County Montage

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<v Speaker 2>or something. Yeah, like ten fifteen year olds. Me and

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<v Speaker 2>my baby daddy were like teenagers then, and I have

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<v Speaker 2>a picture of us. He has played. Oh my god,

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<v Speaker 2>this is actually the sweetest thing I've ever heard. I've

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<v Speaker 2>ruined him. He put like rose petals on the bed. Oh,

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<v Speaker 2>oh my god, what kind of advanced romance? Was like

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<v Speaker 2>the last time you had romance like that with him?

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<v Speaker 2>I mean he is he romantic? What's your romantic? Can

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<v Speaker 2>just try? Yeah? He would like make me dinner on

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<v Speaker 2>Valentine's Days and yeah he tried. I mean I don't

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<v Speaker 2>I can't really remember like in the more adult years,

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<v Speaker 2>but yeah, yeah, there's a little bit of romance. There

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<v Speaker 2>was romance. I'm just thinking what parents allowed their kids

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<v Speaker 2>to go to Laguna Beach alone for the weekend. Parents

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<v Speaker 2>that are trying to fuck like get these kids out

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<v Speaker 2>of oh so in car justified. Well, they're like, we'll

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<v Speaker 2>deal with that later. We need time, right, Okay, I

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<v Speaker 2>don't know if I'm letting wanna do that anyway. Back

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<v Speaker 2>to the prime story here, Erica and I have both

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<v Speaker 2>matched with potential politicians on Hinge, and you know, I

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<v Speaker 2>think now we're realizing since we started this podcast that

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<v Speaker 2>we can never date a politician because their whole campaign

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<v Speaker 2>will be ruined as soon as if anyone gets public

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<v Speaker 2>like public notification that they're dating us, and all of

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<v Speaker 2>our history, good, bad, and indifferent is somewhere flooting the internet.

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<v Speaker 2>And I told him that I told my politician too.

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<v Speaker 2>I told you for so I do you stop calling

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<v Speaker 2>him my politician? Like no, I told him that people. Mind,

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<v Speaker 2>neither of us have even met the people. I've never

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<v Speaker 2>met this person, and I'm flying to San Francisco to

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<v Speaker 2>say this house for two days. I'm insane. This is

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<v Speaker 2>something I would do, Like, am I can you do?

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<v Speaker 2>You have to find my friends? Thing on? Are we having?

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<v Speaker 2>I am sharing our locations? Yeah, I mean, I'm pretty

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<v Speaker 2>sure he's not creep. It doesn't matter. You've been talking.

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<v Speaker 2>You never know, these politicians been doing some weird shit, thinking.

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<v Speaker 1>Like he might be wearing like some pantyhose when you

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<v Speaker 1>get there, I actually we all know you'd be down

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<v Speaker 1>for it.

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<v Speaker 2>Fuck you. I did fly to San Francisco in the

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<v Speaker 2>early two thousands.

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<v Speaker 1>Bitch, if you don't stop referencing the early two thousands

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<v Speaker 1>to see this guy. So you actually you're four hundred

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<v Speaker 1>years old the early two thousands. You graduated in two

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<v Speaker 1>thousand and six. How early could it?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay? It was probably like twenty.

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<v Speaker 1>Ten, Yeah, when I lived in Atlanta, late two thousands.

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<v Speaker 2>When I lived in Atlanta, I flew to San Francisco

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<v Speaker 2>to see this other guy much further Atlanta, and he

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<v Speaker 2>did have a like a obsession with pantyhose on me though,

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<v Speaker 2>But I don't know if that would transfer to him.

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<v Speaker 2>I didn't get that far anyway. Hopefully he doesn't want

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<v Speaker 2>to wear pantyhose. Hopefully you have a good time. We're

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<v Speaker 2>supposed to go dancing. He seems cool, is like a

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<v Speaker 2>cool politician. But I don't know where this would go

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<v Speaker 2>because I've ruined any possibilities.

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<v Speaker 1>Well, he knows, and maybe that's maybe he's not looking

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<v Speaker 1>for a relationship. He's looking at a good time, maybe

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<v Speaker 1>he thinks. So you can provide that for him. You're fine, girl,

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<v Speaker 1>Thanks Eric. That's what friends are for. Hey, I'm just

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<v Speaker 1>keeping it real. How is he going to be president

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<v Speaker 1>one day? With with good mom's bad choices as his wife?

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<v Speaker 2>How he said? He said, well, maybe times are changing,

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<v Speaker 2>he told me people like real times are changing, and

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<v Speaker 2>he listened to the podcast like within like the first

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<v Speaker 2>few conversations we had, and you I don't tell people. Really,

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<v Speaker 2>I need to stop telling people because I'm like, you

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<v Speaker 2>know way more.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I don't really tell people, although I did tell

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<v Speaker 1>this guy because he well, because he's not really a politician.

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<v Speaker 1>He's like he works in community and stuff, and like

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<v Speaker 1>tries to do change for the community, or in his text,

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<v Speaker 1>is changing the world.

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<v Speaker 2>He wrote me this long wait. I wish I could

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<v Speaker 2>get phone hold on we see if I have the right hair,

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<v Speaker 2>because it was so It's like it made me not

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<v Speaker 2>like him. My politician is not this okay? Here suck,

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<v Speaker 2>Yes it is okay. This is what he said to me.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh god, what if he listens to this?

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<v Speaker 1>I said, what do you do for work? And this

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<v Speaker 1>is what he wrote me. I envision impact projects intended

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<v Speaker 1>to significantly change the world, I wrote, and push policy

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<v Speaker 1>intended to use the lever of government to control the

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<v Speaker 1>most powerful entities on the planet. I run political, legal

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<v Speaker 1>and advocacy of campaigns to empower the marginalized.

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<v Speaker 2>And I'm building a.

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<v Speaker 1>Conscious community center to focus on activism, development of cooperative businesses,

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<v Speaker 1>and the cultivation of black political awareness.

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<v Speaker 2>That was this week. I would automatically know We're not.

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<v Speaker 2>All I wrote was wow. Wait. Then he asked me

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<v Speaker 2>what I did.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, I don't even know what to say,

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<v Speaker 1>Like I can't even follow up with that, Like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not fucking over here changing the world like one day

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<v Speaker 1>at a time.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, I guess, like you know that was a lot.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, I feel like I'm doing good with their podcast.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like, you know, we are, you know, empowering

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<v Speaker 1>women and also empowering ourselves and learning so much about us.

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<v Speaker 2>But I don't know, I wouldn't know how to break

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<v Speaker 2>it down in that way. It's just so intense. We

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<v Speaker 2>need to write better bios.

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<v Speaker 1>But then he say right, and then he told me

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<v Speaker 1>that he asked me. I asked him, like, what are

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<v Speaker 1>you looking for on hinge? And he said, he said

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<v Speaker 1>my Michelle Obama and I literally just started laughing. And

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<v Speaker 1>he was like what And I said, yeah, well that's

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<v Speaker 1>not me.

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<v Speaker 2>And he' said what do you mean? And I said, well, I.

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<v Speaker 1>Smoke weed, I drink, I curse, I talk about sex.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, I'm sech a positive and I advocate for cannabis.

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<v Speaker 1>And he's like, well, actually I was part of the

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<v Speaker 1>legislation that passed in California to add to make cannabis illegal.

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<v Speaker 1>So think you're so you're welcome, that's what he said.

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<v Speaker 1>And I said, well, actually I don't know if it's

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<v Speaker 1>you're welcome because now I go to cannabis clubs and

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<v Speaker 1>they get taxed for everything, So actually I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>if it's're welcome. I kind of missed my local drug dealer,

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<v Speaker 1>although now at least I'm more informed about what I'm smoking.

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<v Speaker 1>But yeah, it's whatever. I'm not Michelle Obama is essentially

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<v Speaker 1>what I was getting making.

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<v Speaker 2>Clear to shit me either.

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<v Speaker 1>I just and also I showed Jamila his picture and

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<v Speaker 1>she was not impressed.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm not my politician is cooler than that guy. He

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<v Speaker 2>went to the club last night and then went to

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<v Speaker 2>a press conference this morning. So my type of guy.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, mine doesn't mind. I said, do you smoke weed?

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<v Speaker 1>He said no, but maybe I should. But that reminds me.

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<v Speaker 1>I have a glass of a bottle I should open

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<v Speaker 1>right now. And I was like, oh lord, she talks

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<v Speaker 1>a lot. He does talk a lot a lot.

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<v Speaker 2>It's also really weird. I've been talking to mine for

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<v Speaker 2>two weeks straight via text. I've never talked to him

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<v Speaker 2>on the phone. You never heard his voice. You're flying

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<v Speaker 2>and I've never facetimed him or anything. What It's kind

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<v Speaker 2>of like a surprise. I thought about facetiming him today

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<v Speaker 2>before I get on the flight, but I was like

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<v Speaker 2>fuck it. I yell, okay, well go for a girl.

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<v Speaker 2>That's cool. So your dating de talk starts September first. Yeah, okay,

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<v Speaker 2>so but what if it goes well with what are

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<v Speaker 2>you gonna do? I don't know. Okay, I haven't gotten

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<v Speaker 2>that far. All right, what else?

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<v Speaker 1>So this episode we didn't have really a direct a

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<v Speaker 1>direct direct topic. We have three kids playing in the

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<v Speaker 1>other room right now, Irie, Luna and a friend from school,

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<v Speaker 1>and they're both They're all three so fucking cute.

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<v Speaker 2>They're really cute. And are you gonna talk about your

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<v Speaker 2>weird growth? Can you not call it a growth? Okay?

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<v Speaker 2>So fuck parenthood. I got these like, I got it

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<v Speaker 2>so strange I got I'm talking about this because I'm

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<v Speaker 2>sure other parents somewhere in the world, hopefully kim relate.

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<v Speaker 2>I got like a weird bump on my torso and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, this doesn't look like a mosquito bios itching

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<v Speaker 2>a little bit. They had like an indention on it.

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<v Speaker 2>Then like a little bit later I noticed another one.

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<v Speaker 2>Then the next day I saw one there was like

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<v Speaker 2>under my butt cheek, and I was like, what the

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<v Speaker 2>fuck is this? So I started googling because I'm a

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<v Speaker 2>Google queen, and I found it's some fucking child rash

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<v Speaker 2>called molliscous, molluscous contagios or something. Mostly kids have it

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<v Speaker 2>between one and tents. I probably got from of these

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<v Speaker 2>dirty ass children. And for kids that get it mostly

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<v Speaker 2>on their torso, under their arms, knees and elbows. But

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<v Speaker 2>for adults, it's in their genital area, their inner thighs,

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<v Speaker 2>and the creases of their butt. Yeah, the creases of

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<v Speaker 2>their butt apparently. So basically God hates me, and so

0:14:34.520 --> 0:14:38.960
<v Speaker 2>do all children. Anyway, I started reading and they were like, oh,

0:14:38.960 --> 0:14:41.680
<v Speaker 2>it's fine, it's contagious, but you can still send them

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<v Speaker 2>to school. You could still be around people. Just wash

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<v Speaker 2>your hands, don't share this, and that could It could

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<v Speaker 2>lay dormant for six it could be there for six

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<v Speaker 2>months to four years, okay four years. I was like, no,

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<v Speaker 2>what's not gonna happen is that? So I started reading

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<v Speaker 2>my UH medic medicine cabinets for anything that looked like

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<v Speaker 2>a strong prescription acidic based cream and I burnt those

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<v Speaker 2>ships off. That's great, they're gone. Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>Jimila took pictures of the underbut area and showed it

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<v Speaker 1>to me and.

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<v Speaker 2>It did look concerned. I'm glad you figured it out.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you want to see it now no, not really,

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<v Speaker 2>it's burnt off. I don't I'll show it. Well, we're

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<v Speaker 2>on camera, I'll show you after everyone's going to do.

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<v Speaker 1>Actually, you should shut show every If you want to,

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<v Speaker 1>you want to see chamilla's growth, I'm sure you can

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<v Speaker 1>join a Patreon.

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<v Speaker 2>I mean, I was really embarrassed about it, but I figured,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, I was embarrassed. It's disgusting. No one can

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<v Speaker 2>see it though I know it's there. I know, but

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<v Speaker 2>and then what if I'm trying to get some I mean,

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<v Speaker 2>you know what I mean, it's just disgusting and and like,

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<v Speaker 2>it's not like chicken pox. I just think all rashes

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<v Speaker 2>from children are discussing ring worms and disgusting. Molluscas contagios

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<v Speaker 2>is discussing. And then I called my homegirls three kids.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I have this weird rash on my butt.

0:16:05.520 --> 0:16:08.600
<v Speaker 2>It's called She's like, oh, the Mellusicus contagios. She's like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>the girl's got it. Mm hmm. She was like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>it's a kid's disease. Kids. She gets some kids. Shit,

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<v Speaker 2>you're fine, kids disease. So basically like kids are dirty

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<v Speaker 2>and disgusting, and stay away and let you have some.

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<v Speaker 2>Let you have some well, I'm sitting really closer to you. No,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm worried. I'm going to get it. I know. I

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<v Speaker 2>told Danielle and she's like, oh, that touch me. It's like,

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<v Speaker 2>you fucking bitch, I'm not putting my butt on you

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<v Speaker 2>while you're sitting on couches and things. I'm wearing. First

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<v Speaker 2>of all, I'm wearing a band aid over it because

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<v Speaker 2>i'm burning that bitch off. Second of all, I'm covered.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't you can't be You can't tell people shit

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<v Speaker 1>is contagious and then get mad when they have an

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<v Speaker 1>opinion about or not I want.

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<v Speaker 2>Because I know it's contagious. Can't you catching it?

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<v Speaker 1>And they can't make everyone look at it confirmed that

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<v Speaker 1>it looks fucked up, then call it molliscus contagiosis, and

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<v Speaker 1>then be mad when they're like, whoa are we gonna

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<v Speaker 1>get it?

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<v Speaker 2>You have kids. You need to be understanding. I'm your friend.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't wants contained. You're not gonna get it. It's gone.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm burning. I was so desperate. I was relaxing my hair.

0:17:11.480 --> 0:17:12.960
<v Speaker 2>I know I need to drop the cream and crack

0:17:13.280 --> 0:17:14.480
<v Speaker 2>and I was like, oh, I know this, I know

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<v Speaker 2>this shit burns some ship off. I just took a

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<v Speaker 2>little bit of that relaxer, bitch, I put it on

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<v Speaker 2>that did it burn?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>No, get a scar. I don't give a fuck. I'll

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<v Speaker 2>take a scar over the molluscous contagiosis.

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<v Speaker 1>But it's probably not about burning it off. It's probably

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<v Speaker 1>something underneath the skin.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know. They said, as long as like if

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<v Speaker 2>you touch it, you could you it could become contagious.

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<v Speaker 2>But you're not touching it. But I showed you the

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<v Speaker 2>one in my stomach. They're literally burnt off. Okay, Yeah,

0:17:43.320 --> 0:17:46.320
<v Speaker 2>they look like scabs. Yeah, because I'm burning it. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>all right, if you guys encounter this, call me. I'll

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<v Speaker 2>tell you what to do. Just criping the DMS. I'll

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<v Speaker 2>tell you how I got ready to.

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<v Speaker 1>Take a little hair relaxer, rub it off on there, No, baky,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sure this is not Please don't take my medical

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<v Speaker 1>advice even though it's working.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, two days Melissa's contagios is gone. Oh my god. Anyway,

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<v Speaker 2>So our last episode is with Scary Moms, and I

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<v Speaker 2>hope that you listen to both us on both outlabs.

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<v Speaker 2>It's actually fucking hilarious because I was drunk as fuck,

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<v Speaker 2>and Carrie and Ashley were funny as fun and it

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<v Speaker 2>was like, honestly the most professional setting we'd ever recorded.

0:18:30.160 --> 0:18:32.400
<v Speaker 2>There was like a producer, there was like an assistant,

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<v Speaker 2>there was two sound people, and then like in a

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<v Speaker 2>recording studio, and I came late and drunk and I

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<v Speaker 2>called them a bitch a couple of times on an accident,

0:18:41.119 --> 0:18:43.840
<v Speaker 2>but anyway, they loved us. So yeah, I'm so in contact.

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<v Speaker 2>It worked out. What's going on with you? I went

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<v Speaker 2>to the beach.

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<v Speaker 1>I went to the beach, had a solo self care

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<v Speaker 1>day It's nice, which was like really necessary. I almost

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<v Speaker 1>didn't do it. I almost called you to come with me,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I was like, now I need to go

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<v Speaker 1>by myself. I really need to like learn how to

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<v Speaker 1>be okay by myself.

0:19:06.480 --> 0:19:09.000
<v Speaker 2>I know me too, I'm working on it. I'm never done.

0:19:09.119 --> 0:19:09.840
<v Speaker 2>I'm not good at that.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and like it's like, okay, if I want to

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<v Speaker 1>be better at being by myself in like the man department,

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<v Speaker 1>then I also have to like work on it, just

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<v Speaker 1>in like my daily life. So I woke up and

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<v Speaker 1>I really had nothing in a pressing to do.

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<v Speaker 2>Well. I probably did, but I was like fuck it.

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<v Speaker 2>And so I decided.

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, you know what, I'm gonna go to

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<v Speaker 1>the beach Iris with her dad for the next two days.

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<v Speaker 1>And so I went there. I brought my White Claw

0:19:38.840 --> 0:19:42.280
<v Speaker 1>shout out to Donna. Donna from from our meetup. She

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<v Speaker 1>brought this brand called white Claw. She was advocating for

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<v Speaker 1>hard Yeah, whitelaw for you. And then you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>I looked all over the can, even at the beach.

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<v Speaker 1>It doesn't tell you what kind of spiked with. It

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<v Speaker 1>doesn't say what liquor. It is just as spiked, like

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<v Speaker 1>it could just literally be rubbing out.

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<v Speaker 2>It tastes like that. But you would think they.

0:20:02.400 --> 0:20:04.040
<v Speaker 1>Would say, like what if someone has like a like

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<v Speaker 1>a vodka allergy or something like.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, it's just weird. But it was like this,

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<v Speaker 2>and I did some yoga on the beach.

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<v Speaker 1>I did wrote my journal, wrote some really profound things.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh nic, yeah, you know, and I saw your post

0:20:18.480 --> 0:20:22.320
<v Speaker 1>about writing. And it's funny because I went and saw.

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<v Speaker 2>A I guess he's a psychic. I don't know if

0:20:25.960 --> 0:20:27.560
<v Speaker 2>he's a psychic charts.

0:20:27.560 --> 0:20:29.879
<v Speaker 1>This is years ago, and he told me that in

0:20:29.920 --> 0:20:32.359
<v Speaker 1>my life, communication is constantly going to be an issue,

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<v Speaker 1>and the only way to overcome it is I have

0:20:34.240 --> 0:20:34.959
<v Speaker 1>to start writing.

0:20:34.960 --> 0:20:35.920
<v Speaker 2>I have to write.

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<v Speaker 1>And at the time, I was writing a lot because

0:20:37.880 --> 0:20:39.679
<v Speaker 1>I used to like write music and stuff, and so

0:20:39.720 --> 0:20:41.440
<v Speaker 1>I was like, well, okay, do that. But I guess

0:20:41.440 --> 0:20:44.400
<v Speaker 1>I don't really write, you know. I mean, I guess

0:20:44.400 --> 0:20:46.360
<v Speaker 1>I write. I would write in my journal back then too,

0:20:48.080 --> 0:20:49.960
<v Speaker 1>but I always feel so much better when I do,

0:20:50.280 --> 0:20:52.520
<v Speaker 1>And so I brought my journal wrote some stuff about

0:20:52.520 --> 0:20:55.639
<v Speaker 1>the ocean. The ocean is so fucking crazy man, beautiful.

0:20:55.840 --> 0:20:58.320
<v Speaker 1>I mean, I have like this very like strong connection

0:20:58.400 --> 0:20:59.760
<v Speaker 1>to it. And I was when I was sitting there,

0:20:59.800 --> 0:21:02.159
<v Speaker 1>I was thinking, like, why is that why, I mean,

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<v Speaker 1>besides the fact I'm a water sign blah blah blah, Like,

0:21:04.400 --> 0:21:08.600
<v Speaker 1>why is it that the ocean brings me like peace

0:21:09.000 --> 0:21:12.399
<v Speaker 1>and like forces me to breathe? And I think a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of it too, is like I spent a lot

0:21:13.880 --> 0:21:19.159
<v Speaker 1>of time there with my grandfather and I don't know,

0:21:19.200 --> 0:21:21.399
<v Speaker 1>it just it brings me back to childhood of just

0:21:21.400 --> 0:21:27.280
<v Speaker 1>like having really like good times, like without any interruption.

0:21:28.480 --> 0:21:31.160
<v Speaker 2>And also it's just so pure.

0:21:31.320 --> 0:21:34.320
<v Speaker 1>Like nature in itself, like the ocean in particular is well,

0:21:34.320 --> 0:21:36.280
<v Speaker 1>it's not really pure because of pollution. But it's pure

0:21:36.320 --> 0:21:39.080
<v Speaker 1>in the way that like it does what it's gonna do,

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<v Speaker 1>gonna do nothing regard.

0:21:40.840 --> 0:21:42.119
<v Speaker 2>Nothing is gonna change it.

0:21:42.200 --> 0:21:44.920
<v Speaker 1>I mean, yeah, the molewarming and the moon whatever will

0:21:45.000 --> 0:21:45.840
<v Speaker 1>change it.

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<v Speaker 2>But that's what its natural instinct is like.

0:21:48.760 --> 0:21:52.200
<v Speaker 1>And it's just so it does everything without I don't know,

0:21:52.240 --> 0:21:53.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna feel like people are gonna think I'm high,

0:21:53.840 --> 0:21:55.800
<v Speaker 1>but it does everything without ego. It does everything in

0:21:55.880 --> 0:21:57.280
<v Speaker 1>just such a pure way.

0:21:57.960 --> 0:22:01.680
<v Speaker 2>And it's like, that's how I want to live my life.

0:22:01.880 --> 0:22:04.920
<v Speaker 1>And that's because people aren't. People aren't that way. We're

0:22:05.000 --> 0:22:07.600
<v Speaker 1>so jaded. So many things have like influenced us, whether

0:22:07.640 --> 0:22:09.640
<v Speaker 1>or not we want to admit it or not. Whereas

0:22:09.680 --> 0:22:13.280
<v Speaker 1>like nature and like the ocean, it's so strong, it's

0:22:13.320 --> 0:22:17.600
<v Speaker 1>so majestic, it's so mysterious. It's so like calm, but

0:22:17.720 --> 0:22:21.359
<v Speaker 1>also unforgiving, like it will fucking kill you and not

0:22:21.400 --> 0:22:23.920
<v Speaker 1>give a fuck, you know. And so I was having

0:22:23.960 --> 0:22:25.960
<v Speaker 1>all these moments, all these things I was thinking about.

0:22:26.000 --> 0:22:28.440
<v Speaker 2>There took a little nap.

0:22:30.000 --> 0:22:32.800
<v Speaker 1>And then trembling Lippe came to hang out with me

0:22:33.640 --> 0:22:35.679
<v Speaker 1>for a little while, and he was sharing all of

0:22:35.720 --> 0:22:39.760
<v Speaker 1>his wholeness with me. And trembling Lippe. If you guys

0:22:39.800 --> 0:22:43.040
<v Speaker 1>haven't haven't listened to the podcast from the beginning, He's

0:22:43.080 --> 0:22:45.280
<v Speaker 1>like a former guy that I met on Tinder. We're

0:22:45.280 --> 0:22:51.439
<v Speaker 1>still friends now. We had a very intense travel story

0:22:51.520 --> 0:22:57.480
<v Speaker 1>you should check out. Uh No, it's not the Safesome.

0:22:57.920 --> 0:22:59.560
<v Speaker 2>No, it was like it was like when we came

0:22:59.600 --> 0:23:01.920
<v Speaker 2>back was like breakups.

0:23:01.240 --> 0:23:04.040
<v Speaker 1>And I don't know, I can't remember what the episode

0:23:04.080 --> 0:23:06.320
<v Speaker 1>was called, something about breakups, because it was like we

0:23:06.359 --> 0:23:08.600
<v Speaker 1>broke up, but we didn't really break up roun together.

0:23:10.040 --> 0:23:14.359
<v Speaker 2>Anyways. Around July love last last year, in July early August.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, And so we hung out and then we went

0:23:17.720 --> 0:23:21.080
<v Speaker 1>back to his place and we ate, and I learned

0:23:21.080 --> 0:23:23.840
<v Speaker 1>a lot of things about men, and that the fact that,

0:23:23.880 --> 0:23:26.840
<v Speaker 1>like now that we are very much platonic, he shares,

0:23:26.920 --> 0:23:28.920
<v Speaker 1>I mean, he's always shared with me things, but now

0:23:28.960 --> 0:23:30.000
<v Speaker 1>I'm just like, wow.

0:23:29.800 --> 0:23:34.960
<v Speaker 2>Men are really course hose straight hose. They really are,

0:23:35.080 --> 0:23:37.080
<v Speaker 2>I mean, and like I know not all are, but

0:23:37.200 --> 0:23:39.040
<v Speaker 2>like almost of them. You would look at him and

0:23:39.080 --> 0:23:41.760
<v Speaker 2>you would not think like.

0:23:43.320 --> 0:23:46.280
<v Speaker 1>You just wouldn't think like he's just he's fucking every day,

0:23:47.320 --> 0:23:49.760
<v Speaker 1>not like he's not attracted at all, Like that's not

0:23:49.760 --> 0:23:50.160
<v Speaker 1>what I'm saying.

0:23:50.200 --> 0:23:51.159
<v Speaker 2>It's just like, oh, he's a grown man.

0:23:51.200 --> 0:23:53.480
<v Speaker 1>He's kind of nerdy, Like he's like, you know, he's

0:23:53.520 --> 0:23:56.320
<v Speaker 1>doing this thing like who has time, He's running his

0:23:56.320 --> 0:23:57.200
<v Speaker 1>own business.

0:23:57.240 --> 0:23:59.480
<v Speaker 2>Like nope, they make bad time. They make that time.

0:23:59.520 --> 0:24:02.359
<v Speaker 2>Oh for sure. Yeah.

0:24:02.359 --> 0:24:05.040
<v Speaker 1>His girlfriend had just literally come to pick up her

0:24:05.080 --> 0:24:07.520
<v Speaker 1>star's ex girlfriend they broke up. I had literally come just

0:24:07.560 --> 0:24:10.760
<v Speaker 1>to come pick up her stuff, and we had where

0:24:10.760 --> 0:24:12.280
<v Speaker 1>at the beach when this was happening. I mean, I

0:24:12.320 --> 0:24:13.919
<v Speaker 1>didn't know this was happening until he told me. And

0:24:13.920 --> 0:24:15.639
<v Speaker 1>then I was like, wait, we're gonna go by to

0:24:15.680 --> 0:24:16.000
<v Speaker 1>your house?

0:24:16.040 --> 0:24:16.520
<v Speaker 2>Is that okay?

0:24:16.640 --> 0:24:19.199
<v Speaker 1>Like obviously we're not dating anymore. I just didn't know

0:24:19.200 --> 0:24:20.960
<v Speaker 1>if that was cool. He was like, no, it's fine.

0:24:21.000 --> 0:24:25.240
<v Speaker 1>So we get there and she's gone, and then you know,

0:24:25.359 --> 0:24:27.040
<v Speaker 1>he proceeds to try to you know.

0:24:29.359 --> 0:24:32.040
<v Speaker 2>Flirt and get me to you know, look up.

0:24:32.000 --> 0:24:34.080
<v Speaker 1>With him, and I'm just like looking at him, and

0:24:34.119 --> 0:24:35.680
<v Speaker 1>I literally was just like.

0:24:35.320 --> 0:24:37.520
<v Speaker 2>Like, are you trying to get me to be her?

0:24:37.640 --> 0:24:40.320
<v Speaker 2>Like pacified just broke up. Sets.

0:24:42.119 --> 0:24:43.960
<v Speaker 1>I don't even think it was that. I think he's

0:24:43.960 --> 0:24:46.760
<v Speaker 1>just horny. Yeah, it is even like not even that.

0:24:47.280 --> 0:24:49.399
<v Speaker 1>And I told him like straight up, like you have

0:24:49.480 --> 0:24:52.199
<v Speaker 1>no compassion, and he's like, what do you mean? I

0:24:52.240 --> 0:24:55.880
<v Speaker 1>was like, your ex girlfriend literally was just here ten

0:24:56.040 --> 0:24:58.800
<v Speaker 1>minutes ago getting her shit out of here, and you

0:24:58.840 --> 0:25:01.800
<v Speaker 1>were trying to pu your dick in my back, Like

0:25:01.920 --> 0:25:03.399
<v Speaker 1>what is happening.

0:25:03.000 --> 0:25:05.800
<v Speaker 2>In the world? And I mean we were laughing about it,

0:25:05.840 --> 0:25:08.680
<v Speaker 2>but I was like, wow, care, they don't care. They

0:25:08.720 --> 0:25:12.240
<v Speaker 2>don't care. I mean, like, do you think men are

0:25:12.359 --> 0:25:15.640
<v Speaker 2>so physically driven by their boners that literally, like even

0:25:15.680 --> 0:25:18.160
<v Speaker 2>when I even like when I went through Young Fay's

0:25:18.920 --> 0:25:22.760
<v Speaker 2>millions of whores. I don't even call them horse he's

0:25:22.760 --> 0:25:27.320
<v Speaker 2>the horse women. And I confronted him because I'm crazy.

0:25:27.440 --> 0:25:31.360
<v Speaker 2>He was just like, I have needs. I'd be horny, babe.

0:25:31.400 --> 0:25:36.080
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, what ten bitches horny? Like I'm horny? Can

0:25:36.119 --> 0:25:40.639
<v Speaker 2>women twenty four hours horny? I leave twenty four hours ago? Horny? Yeah?

0:25:40.680 --> 0:25:45.760
<v Speaker 2>Like you had to fuck why I went up the street? Thanks?

0:25:46.160 --> 0:25:46.320
<v Speaker 2>Is it?

0:25:46.520 --> 0:25:46.560
<v Speaker 1>Is?

0:25:46.600 --> 0:25:49.720
<v Speaker 2>It? Just like physically, it's just like they their testosterone

0:25:49.840 --> 0:25:52.720
<v Speaker 2>is just seeping from their pores. They have to let

0:25:52.760 --> 0:25:55.000
<v Speaker 2>it out and get one out. I mean I think

0:25:55.080 --> 0:25:57.919
<v Speaker 2>so he's like I masturbate every day, I take a shower.

0:25:58.040 --> 0:25:59.880
<v Speaker 2>I'm like isn't that enough?

0:26:00.119 --> 0:26:03.040
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god, I mean seriously, I mean, I mean

0:26:03.080 --> 0:26:05.639
<v Speaker 1>I masturbate every day too, not every day, but pretty

0:26:05.680 --> 0:26:06.680
<v Speaker 1>much really.

0:26:08.040 --> 0:26:11.159
<v Speaker 2>Maybe like okay, like four times a week, okay, but

0:26:11.200 --> 0:26:13.720
<v Speaker 2>not in the morning. But I didn't fuck every day.

0:26:13.680 --> 0:26:15.320
<v Speaker 1>No, I mean, if I had a man, I would,

0:26:15.359 --> 0:26:18.360
<v Speaker 1>but I'm not gonna go seek out that every day.

0:26:18.440 --> 0:26:20.119
<v Speaker 2>Like that's a lot of work. I mean I go,

0:26:20.240 --> 0:26:22.879
<v Speaker 2>I get under spells and like super horny, but like,

0:26:22.920 --> 0:26:24.160
<v Speaker 2>for the most part, a lot of work.

0:26:24.240 --> 0:26:28.359
<v Speaker 1>But anyway, it was cool to gain that access that

0:26:28.600 --> 0:26:31.280
<v Speaker 1>not that information, but all that unfiltered information.

0:26:32.600 --> 0:26:34.719
<v Speaker 2>But to have a better perspective on men in general

0:26:35.040 --> 0:26:37.679
<v Speaker 2>or him. I mean, obviously he doesn't.

0:26:37.800 --> 0:26:42.080
<v Speaker 1>He's not like the standard this he's not like the

0:26:42.119 --> 0:26:45.160
<v Speaker 1>mascot for all men. But it's just it's just interesting

0:26:45.200 --> 0:26:47.440
<v Speaker 1>because he is, like he's not like.

0:26:49.440 --> 0:26:50.680
<v Speaker 2>In the entertainment industry.

0:26:50.840 --> 0:26:54.000
<v Speaker 1>He's what women would say, like is safe. He doesn't

0:26:54.000 --> 0:26:55.960
<v Speaker 1>have a crazy job like you.

0:26:55.920 --> 0:26:58.400
<v Speaker 2>Know, and didn't pop bottles every week.

0:26:58.640 --> 0:27:03.440
<v Speaker 1>No, he's chill, does yoga, he's like self aware, he reads,

0:27:03.480 --> 0:27:05.879
<v Speaker 1>he's down to travel. He's like a lot of women's

0:27:05.920 --> 0:27:07.679
<v Speaker 1>dream girl. And I even told him, I said, you know,

0:27:08.760 --> 0:27:11.000
<v Speaker 1>I said, you are rare in the way that, like

0:27:11.280 --> 0:27:13.080
<v Speaker 1>last weekend he went to the Chicago to go see

0:27:13.119 --> 0:27:15.200
<v Speaker 1>a girl he likes, like he's not gonna like.

0:27:15.359 --> 0:27:16.119
<v Speaker 2>But like I don't.

0:27:16.160 --> 0:27:17.960
<v Speaker 1>I don't meet men that are down to just jump

0:27:17.960 --> 0:27:19.879
<v Speaker 1>on a plane and just go hang out and just

0:27:19.880 --> 0:27:22.320
<v Speaker 1>do something fun, and like that's it. He was, He's

0:27:22.400 --> 0:27:24.399
<v Speaker 1>rare in that way, and I'm like that, you know,

0:27:24.440 --> 0:27:26.359
<v Speaker 1>And so I haven't been I haven't been able to

0:27:26.400 --> 0:27:28.960
<v Speaker 1>find that type of connection with someone.

0:27:28.960 --> 0:27:32.240
<v Speaker 2>But obviously I need more than just that. It's not

0:27:32.320 --> 0:27:34.240
<v Speaker 2>annoying when they have like one or two things, but

0:27:34.400 --> 0:27:40.040
<v Speaker 2>a five fucking annoying. Yeah, but that was cool.

0:27:41.600 --> 0:27:45.280
<v Speaker 1>Other than that, I mean, yeah, I've just been really

0:27:45.920 --> 0:27:49.880
<v Speaker 1>settling into this alone thing. Like I really am very

0:27:50.040 --> 0:27:52.760
<v Speaker 1>very single. I've been single for two years. But like

0:27:52.920 --> 0:27:54.800
<v Speaker 1>there was a time where I was very distracted by

0:27:54.800 --> 0:27:59.040
<v Speaker 1>Happy Bay and now I'm very single. And at first

0:27:59.080 --> 0:28:01.000
<v Speaker 1>I was, like I think last week I was feeling

0:28:01.200 --> 0:28:04.119
<v Speaker 1>anxious and like kind of sad and depressed and needy,

0:28:04.200 --> 0:28:05.800
<v Speaker 1>like I even went over to some guy's house to

0:28:05.800 --> 0:28:19.560
<v Speaker 1>make out. Who oh and and.

0:28:18.200 --> 0:28:20.240
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, and then I was laud I mean, and nothing happened.

0:28:20.240 --> 0:28:22.160
<v Speaker 1>We just made out this week. He called me actually

0:28:22.240 --> 0:28:24.840
<v Speaker 1>yesterday and I didn't answer. I was like, no, I

0:28:24.880 --> 0:28:27.000
<v Speaker 1>feel like I'm getting better at it. I feel like

0:28:27.040 --> 0:28:29.239
<v Speaker 1>I'm getting a little more comfortable with even with like

0:28:29.880 --> 0:28:32.439
<v Speaker 1>just saying no, just saying no, even like yesterday, like

0:28:32.480 --> 0:28:35.320
<v Speaker 1>with trembling lippee trying to get on me.

0:28:36.359 --> 0:28:39.880
<v Speaker 2>I was horny. His stick was out, I know, because

0:28:39.880 --> 0:28:41.240
<v Speaker 2>someone liked me. I'd be like, hey, I fuck it.

0:28:41.360 --> 0:28:42.040
<v Speaker 2>Yeah you No.

0:28:42.320 --> 0:28:44.360
<v Speaker 1>I'm not saying yeah, but like yeah, yeah, I feel

0:28:44.360 --> 0:28:45.800
<v Speaker 1>like he you know, he should come. And then we

0:28:45.840 --> 0:28:48.200
<v Speaker 1>cooked dinner together. He was coming up behind me and

0:28:48.200 --> 0:28:49.840
<v Speaker 1>trying to kiss me, and I was like do no.

0:28:50.480 --> 0:28:51.959
<v Speaker 1>And then he was like, I need to learn how

0:28:51.960 --> 0:28:53.240
<v Speaker 1>to be friends with women. I'm like, you don't know

0:28:53.240 --> 0:28:54.840
<v Speaker 1>how to be friends with women. And honestly, I don't

0:28:54.840 --> 0:28:56.240
<v Speaker 1>even know why we're what are we doing?

0:28:56.320 --> 0:28:56.680
<v Speaker 2>Are do you?

0:28:56.720 --> 0:28:58.360
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, are we friends? He's like, yeah, you know,

0:28:58.360 --> 0:29:01.320
<v Speaker 1>we're friends. And I'm like, I'm like, but you want

0:29:01.360 --> 0:29:04.920
<v Speaker 1>to have sex with me? He's like well yeah, I'm

0:29:05.040 --> 0:29:08.040
<v Speaker 1>like okay, but and but most women would be like

0:29:08.080 --> 0:29:09.960
<v Speaker 1>that would turn them on, and it did kind of

0:29:09.960 --> 0:29:12.640
<v Speaker 1>turn me on. Well, but that was almost just enough.

0:29:12.680 --> 0:29:13.680
<v Speaker 1>Of what I needed, just.

0:29:13.640 --> 0:29:16.880
<v Speaker 2>That that was just that he wanted to Yeah, I see.

0:29:16.920 --> 0:29:20.360
<v Speaker 2>I find like recently, I went to therapy for the

0:29:20.400 --> 0:29:23.160
<v Speaker 2>first time last week and he made another appointment. I'm

0:29:23.160 --> 0:29:25.040
<v Speaker 2>supposed to go Saturday, but I'm rescheduling because I want

0:29:25.040 --> 0:29:27.760
<v Speaker 2>to say, because your priorities are fucked up. Yeah, pretty much.

0:29:27.760 --> 0:29:29.200
<v Speaker 2>I'm just kidding. I want to eat oysters. It's a

0:29:29.480 --> 0:29:31.800
<v Speaker 2>ver day weekend. Yeah, that's what I said to myself.

0:29:32.360 --> 0:29:37.720
<v Speaker 2>Justified it. I just I've been really examining my habits

0:29:38.600 --> 0:29:42.280
<v Speaker 2>and they're the root of those habits because I find

0:29:42.320 --> 0:29:47.360
<v Speaker 2>myself knowing what I need to do and still battling

0:29:47.440 --> 0:29:51.840
<v Speaker 2>with like wanting to spend time with people just because

0:29:54.160 --> 0:29:58.040
<v Speaker 2>I don't know because there's something that I'm avoiding and

0:29:58.040 --> 0:30:00.840
<v Speaker 2>there's something that I'm to be Like, you been this

0:30:00.920 --> 0:30:03.440
<v Speaker 2>way most of your life. Yeah, it takes.

0:30:03.240 --> 0:30:05.800
<v Speaker 1>Time to unlearn things and you have to like forgive

0:30:05.840 --> 0:30:06.479
<v Speaker 1>yourself for that.

0:30:06.560 --> 0:30:08.600
<v Speaker 2>It's not gonna be perfect. Well, it's just it's just

0:30:08.640 --> 0:30:10.720
<v Speaker 2>interesting to examine it, to be in it and be like,

0:30:11.160 --> 0:30:14.280
<v Speaker 2>why are why are you doing this right now? Like

0:30:14.360 --> 0:30:17.360
<v Speaker 2>even like I went and hung out like with Luna

0:30:17.400 --> 0:30:19.840
<v Speaker 2>and her dad, and I just like felt myself wanting

0:30:19.880 --> 0:30:23.000
<v Speaker 2>to stay. And it's not like we're physical or like

0:30:23.080 --> 0:30:27.479
<v Speaker 2>we we hardly really even talk, but it just like

0:30:27.920 --> 0:30:29.800
<v Speaker 2>and I could tell that he wanted me to stay,

0:30:29.840 --> 0:30:32.080
<v Speaker 2>you know, and I and I and I it dawned

0:30:32.120 --> 0:30:34.880
<v Speaker 2>on me, like we both have things we've connected over

0:30:34.920 --> 0:30:38.120
<v Speaker 2>these many years for so long because it's it was

0:30:38.160 --> 0:30:41.120
<v Speaker 2>easy for us to like avoid ourselves with each other,

0:30:41.600 --> 0:30:44.000
<v Speaker 2>so it's so comfortable. And it's just like even with

0:30:44.040 --> 0:30:46.480
<v Speaker 2>like you're saying about the ocean, like just being and

0:30:46.520 --> 0:30:50.640
<v Speaker 2>being egoists and like not caring about opinions, just literally

0:30:50.720 --> 0:30:53.280
<v Speaker 2>just being Like yesterday, I was feeling hell anxious because

0:30:53.280 --> 0:30:55.720
<v Speaker 2>I got a fucking shot of espresso my trit and

0:30:55.760 --> 0:30:58.480
<v Speaker 2>I'm allergic to caffeine and why I fucking keep drinking it.

0:30:59.160 --> 0:31:01.800
<v Speaker 2>I was having major anxiety. And then Danielle left and

0:31:01.840 --> 0:31:04.640
<v Speaker 2>for some reason, I just start crying. I just start

0:31:04.680 --> 0:31:07.640
<v Speaker 2>feeling overwhelmed with emotion and I just start crying, and

0:31:07.680 --> 0:31:09.520
<v Speaker 2>then I like let some safe and I start taking

0:31:09.520 --> 0:31:13.080
<v Speaker 2>really deep breaths and I just was just like letting

0:31:13.120 --> 0:31:15.840
<v Speaker 2>myself cry. I didn't really know, oh I was crying

0:31:15.840 --> 0:31:18.440
<v Speaker 2>for like I was crying for a lot of reasons,

0:31:18.480 --> 0:31:23.160
<v Speaker 2>you know, like just like this fucking rash. Literally, I

0:31:23.200 --> 0:31:26.720
<v Speaker 2>was like, fuck, it's fucking rash and fucking storage and

0:31:27.000 --> 0:31:29.880
<v Speaker 2>fucking bills. My phone bill is due. And then I

0:31:29.920 --> 0:31:32.200
<v Speaker 2>was like laughing at myself crying and I was like

0:31:32.200 --> 0:31:35.680
<v Speaker 2>taking deep breaths and it's like and I was just like,

0:31:35.960 --> 0:31:38.040
<v Speaker 2>it's okay, everything's okay. I was literally saying out loud,

0:31:38.040 --> 0:31:40.560
<v Speaker 2>it's okay, everything's okay. You're good, You're good. And I

0:31:40.600 --> 0:31:43.920
<v Speaker 2>was just like, if something major happened today, like if

0:31:43.920 --> 0:31:47.560
<v Speaker 2>someone I cared about disappeared, if something happened to me,

0:31:47.960 --> 0:31:51.320
<v Speaker 2>what are the things that would actually really matter, Like

0:31:51.480 --> 0:31:53.920
<v Speaker 2>the things that I stress about and I like I

0:31:53.960 --> 0:31:55.200
<v Speaker 2>care about, Like at the end of the day, I'm

0:31:55.240 --> 0:31:58.720
<v Speaker 2>fed and my kid is fed, we're clothes, We're happy,

0:31:58.840 --> 0:32:01.040
<v Speaker 2>you know, like I'm I have love in my heart,

0:32:01.160 --> 0:32:03.040
<v Speaker 2>Like I'm happy about those things. And I just was

0:32:03.120 --> 0:32:06.000
<v Speaker 2>like telling myself chill the fuck out and just be

0:32:06.160 --> 0:32:08.959
<v Speaker 2>and I was just giving myself permission to cry and

0:32:09.040 --> 0:32:12.720
<v Speaker 2>to laugh and to breathe and to remind myself, shit's okay,

0:32:12.800 --> 0:32:17.440
<v Speaker 2>Everything's okay. And it was so cleansing, you know, because

0:32:17.720 --> 0:32:20.880
<v Speaker 2>so often we're so stressed out about shit and things

0:32:20.920 --> 0:32:24.600
<v Speaker 2>and people that we can't fucking control anyway, and it's

0:32:24.680 --> 0:32:28.400
<v Speaker 2>just like let that shit go, you know, and I

0:32:28.480 --> 0:32:31.360
<v Speaker 2>just let myself be without judging it or observing it.

0:32:31.400 --> 0:32:35.240
<v Speaker 2>But I'm just in this space where I'm submitting. I wrote,

0:32:35.240 --> 0:32:37.360
<v Speaker 2>did a little writing too, and I was just like this,

0:32:37.480 --> 0:32:40.440
<v Speaker 2>I feel like this is a period of submission of

0:32:40.480 --> 0:32:43.480
<v Speaker 2>like whatever's happening right now, allowing it to flow, and

0:32:44.360 --> 0:32:48.320
<v Speaker 2>just like new paths opening up and allowing that to happen,

0:32:48.360 --> 0:32:52.400
<v Speaker 2>and like facilitating that by observing it and making better decisions.

0:32:52.400 --> 0:32:55.160
<v Speaker 2>And I know sometimes I'm gonna fuck up, like I'm

0:32:55.200 --> 0:33:00.280
<v Speaker 2>doing it this weekend, But at least I'm grateful to

0:33:00.320 --> 0:33:04.560
<v Speaker 2>be growing and be oh self aware, you know, even

0:33:04.720 --> 0:33:06.360
<v Speaker 2>of the fun shit that I do, because there is

0:33:06.360 --> 0:33:09.560
<v Speaker 2>a lot of it. I've literally been like dependent on

0:33:09.640 --> 0:33:12.960
<v Speaker 2>other people for like just filling up space in my life,

0:33:13.280 --> 0:33:20.400
<v Speaker 2>my whole life, you know, my girlfriends, the guys I date, sex, whatever, drinking.

0:33:20.760 --> 0:33:23.280
<v Speaker 2>It's just something that I've always done. And I'm just like,

0:33:23.400 --> 0:33:27.440
<v Speaker 2>at what point am I going to really fall in

0:33:27.480 --> 0:33:31.840
<v Speaker 2>love with myself enough to not feel urged to just

0:33:32.920 --> 0:33:37.120
<v Speaker 2>be around people all the time. So well, I think that.

0:33:37.200 --> 0:33:39.240
<v Speaker 1>I mean also like that, I think that is part

0:33:39.280 --> 0:33:41.480
<v Speaker 1>of who you are too though, and also that and

0:33:41.560 --> 0:33:43.840
<v Speaker 1>then like and so it gets confusing and that where's

0:33:43.840 --> 0:33:45.520
<v Speaker 1>the balance? How do I find the balance?

0:33:45.520 --> 0:33:48.040
<v Speaker 2>Because I really do find fun and like meeting new people.

0:33:48.080 --> 0:33:50.000
<v Speaker 2>And then I was battling about going to San Francisco

0:33:50.000 --> 0:33:51.160
<v Speaker 2>and at first I was like, I'm not gonna go,

0:33:51.200 --> 0:33:53.040
<v Speaker 2>and then I was like, he's like, you know, just come,

0:33:53.160 --> 0:33:55.080
<v Speaker 2>and I was just like, what the truth is? Like,

0:33:55.240 --> 0:33:56.720
<v Speaker 2>am I going to fall in love over the weekend?

0:33:56.760 --> 0:33:58.840
<v Speaker 2>I doubt it, But I think he's cool. I think

0:33:58.840 --> 0:34:00.880
<v Speaker 2>we're gonna have fun time, and I think we're the

0:34:00.880 --> 0:34:04.000
<v Speaker 2>same in that space. Like I'm spontaneous, I like to explore.

0:34:04.000 --> 0:34:05.800
<v Speaker 2>I like to do new things and new people, and

0:34:05.840 --> 0:34:08.440
<v Speaker 2>I think that's that's fun for me. So there is

0:34:08.520 --> 0:34:12.040
<v Speaker 2>like honoring who I am and also founding boundaries and

0:34:12.560 --> 0:34:16.080
<v Speaker 2>limits and when I'm avoiding myself by doing those things,

0:34:16.120 --> 0:34:21.080
<v Speaker 2>you know, So I that's true, Like I'm still learning

0:34:21.120 --> 0:34:24.680
<v Speaker 2>myself and I'm still giving myself permission to be, you know,

0:34:24.880 --> 0:34:27.120
<v Speaker 2>like how I am, because I'm not going to be

0:34:27.280 --> 0:34:29.920
<v Speaker 2>just like you or just like this person. Like everybody's different,

0:34:30.280 --> 0:34:32.839
<v Speaker 2>and I really enjoy people, and I really enjoy meeting

0:34:32.920 --> 0:34:36.480
<v Speaker 2>new people and connecting with people and hearing new stories

0:34:36.520 --> 0:34:39.319
<v Speaker 2>and like that brings me joy, you know, to bring

0:34:39.360 --> 0:34:42.440
<v Speaker 2>other people joy and just to listen. Sometimes I think

0:34:42.480 --> 0:34:43.200
<v Speaker 2>it's just like you have.

0:34:43.360 --> 0:34:45.680
<v Speaker 1>Like I think the balance is finding like when you're

0:34:45.719 --> 0:34:48.840
<v Speaker 1>not when you're enjoying people but not running away from

0:34:49.000 --> 0:34:52.239
<v Speaker 1>my responsibilities and yourself in order to enjoy those people.

0:34:52.000 --> 0:34:56.120
<v Speaker 2>Right, you know, that's like I can only give once

0:34:56.160 --> 0:35:00.640
<v Speaker 2>I've given enough to myself. You need to be more

0:35:00.680 --> 0:35:03.760
<v Speaker 2>like the ocean. I want to be like the ocean literally,

0:35:03.840 --> 0:35:05.120
<v Speaker 2>And I was that too.

0:35:05.280 --> 0:35:07.000
<v Speaker 1>Was so I was watching the birds too, and they

0:35:07.000 --> 0:35:08.920
<v Speaker 1>were just there was this bird and it was just

0:35:08.920 --> 0:35:12.120
<v Speaker 1>like staring at the ocean, like sitting on the sand,

0:35:12.200 --> 0:35:13.240
<v Speaker 1>just staring at the ocean.

0:35:13.320 --> 0:35:15.560
<v Speaker 2>I was like, I wonder what that bird's thinking about.

0:35:15.960 --> 0:35:18.840
<v Speaker 1>And I wonder, like he probably is enjoying this so

0:35:18.920 --> 0:35:21.160
<v Speaker 1>much more than I am, because your mind is like one.

0:35:21.320 --> 0:35:23.800
<v Speaker 1>Because in my mind, though I'm enjoying it, I'm also

0:35:23.960 --> 0:35:26.239
<v Speaker 1>like being my mind is being infiltrated by a bunch

0:35:26.239 --> 0:35:28.960
<v Speaker 1>of shit that doesn't fucking matter, and I'm having to

0:35:29.080 --> 0:35:32.000
<v Speaker 1>keep having to force myself to focus focus, be present,

0:35:32.040 --> 0:35:35.640
<v Speaker 1>be present, be present, Like literally, I like, I noticed

0:35:35.680 --> 0:35:39.239
<v Speaker 1>how many fucking times I had to remind myself.

0:35:38.960 --> 0:35:42.319
<v Speaker 2>To be present me too. In there was nothing else

0:35:42.360 --> 0:35:43.240
<v Speaker 2>I needed to be doing.

0:35:43.360 --> 0:35:45.839
<v Speaker 1>I was at the place I wanted to be, you know,

0:35:46.280 --> 0:35:49.040
<v Speaker 1>Nobody was calling me, no one was stressing me out,

0:35:49.400 --> 0:35:53.000
<v Speaker 1>you know, and it was just like damn, it's like

0:35:53.719 --> 0:35:56.080
<v Speaker 1>so much stimulation in this world too.

0:35:56.280 --> 0:35:57.200
<v Speaker 2>It's it's it.

0:35:57.239 --> 0:35:59.960
<v Speaker 1>We're overstimulated between our flat I don't think our brain

0:36:00.160 --> 0:36:03.640
<v Speaker 1>were made for this, like for all these phones and.

0:36:03.560 --> 0:36:07.239
<v Speaker 2>Computer everybody else's lives, like literally non so.

0:36:07.560 --> 0:36:09.800
<v Speaker 1>And like our evolution is being pushed at such a

0:36:09.880 --> 0:36:13.120
<v Speaker 1>high rate like that we can't catch up. Like evolution

0:36:13.360 --> 0:36:16.879
<v Speaker 1>happened slowly and like we had time to assimilate and

0:36:16.960 --> 0:36:20.120
<v Speaker 1>like digest. Now it's like everything's happening so fast that

0:36:20.160 --> 0:36:22.040
<v Speaker 1>I feel like our brains are like.

0:36:21.960 --> 0:36:24.719
<v Speaker 2>Wait, what what? Who are hard to? Who am I?

0:36:24.719 --> 0:36:26.040
<v Speaker 2>Who am I? Do I like this? I hate this?

0:36:26.040 --> 0:36:27.160
<v Speaker 2>I hate this. I don't like this part of me?

0:36:27.360 --> 0:36:28.360
<v Speaker 2>Do I like this part of me? I want to

0:36:28.400 --> 0:36:32.879
<v Speaker 2>be like you. It's just so much overstimulation. And that's

0:36:32.920 --> 0:36:34.799
<v Speaker 2>why we do have to come back to ourselves. We

0:36:34.840 --> 0:36:36.840
<v Speaker 2>do have to like quiet, you have we have to

0:36:36.920 --> 0:36:42.040
<v Speaker 2>practice being present because we're so stimulated to do otherwise

0:36:42.120 --> 0:36:45.239
<v Speaker 2>there's so much distraction. Even while I was meditating, I

0:36:45.280 --> 0:36:48.279
<v Speaker 2>was like thinking about, oh shit, we need to post this,

0:36:48.520 --> 0:36:50.719
<v Speaker 2>and I'm like, what the fuck is wrong with me? No?

0:36:50.840 --> 0:36:51.200
<v Speaker 2>Me too.

0:36:51.960 --> 0:36:52.960
<v Speaker 1>When I was at the beach, I was like, I

0:36:53.120 --> 0:36:55.799
<v Speaker 1>don't even make a story for work. And I did

0:36:55.960 --> 0:36:57.480
<v Speaker 1>and I was like, you know, and I was like,

0:36:57.480 --> 0:36:59.080
<v Speaker 1>you know what, I'm not going to judge myself for this.

0:36:59.320 --> 0:36:59.759
<v Speaker 2>That's too.

0:36:59.800 --> 0:37:02.880
<v Speaker 1>It's like the judging of yourself for doing things also

0:37:03.120 --> 0:37:06.040
<v Speaker 1>that that then that then makes you feel worse, even worse,

0:37:06.880 --> 0:37:07.080
<v Speaker 1>you know.

0:37:07.320 --> 0:37:08.359
<v Speaker 2>So I was just like.

0:37:08.320 --> 0:37:10.439
<v Speaker 1>Trying to But I will say even though like my

0:37:10.440 --> 0:37:12.560
<v Speaker 1>my my self care day was not perfect in the

0:37:12.560 --> 0:37:15.120
<v Speaker 1>way like I felt like because I am I because

0:37:15.160 --> 0:37:19.600
<v Speaker 1>I want to be this like super present person. Sometimes

0:37:19.640 --> 0:37:21.960
<v Speaker 1>that comes with a feeling of guilt when you're not.

0:37:22.239 --> 0:37:23.600
<v Speaker 1>I think most of the time it does feels like,

0:37:23.680 --> 0:37:26.439
<v Speaker 1>oh do it. I didn't accomplish my goal today, which

0:37:26.480 --> 0:37:31.120
<v Speaker 1>was just to just shut my brain off. But I

0:37:31.160 --> 0:37:33.480
<v Speaker 1>will say that like the past two weeks, like I've

0:37:33.480 --> 0:37:36.800
<v Speaker 1>been feeling very tired, and I've been haven't been treating

0:37:36.800 --> 0:37:39.759
<v Speaker 1>myself well, like I've been eating well, I've been drinking a.

0:37:39.680 --> 0:37:42.440
<v Speaker 2>Lot, not sleeping well.

0:37:43.120 --> 0:37:46.239
<v Speaker 1>And after yesterday, I woke up today and felt like, Okay,

0:37:46.280 --> 0:37:48.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm ready to like I'm gonna go to the gym.

0:37:48.760 --> 0:37:50.920
<v Speaker 2>Well, tonight's like a super moon. And so I think

0:37:50.920 --> 0:37:52.600
<v Speaker 2>there is a shift. I mean, obviously I had this

0:37:52.680 --> 0:37:59.239
<v Speaker 2>strange meditative breakthrough yesterday, but and I've been I've been

0:37:59.280 --> 0:38:02.520
<v Speaker 2>really feeling that too, because you know, September first will

0:38:02.520 --> 0:38:05.040
<v Speaker 2>be at We're in the last quarter. We're in the

0:38:05.080 --> 0:38:08.440
<v Speaker 2>last quarter of this year, and it's insane. I know,

0:38:08.680 --> 0:38:11.400
<v Speaker 2>it's crazy, and I'm like, Okay, I have four months

0:38:11.880 --> 0:38:14.719
<v Speaker 2>to be to do things differently, you know, like I've

0:38:14.719 --> 0:38:16.640
<v Speaker 2>been living my whole life doing this, this and that. Well,

0:38:17.120 --> 0:38:19.040
<v Speaker 2>you don't have four months. You have your whole life.

0:38:19.239 --> 0:38:23.160
<v Speaker 1>Don't put that much pressure on yourself. And that's the problem. Yeah,

0:38:23.280 --> 0:38:26.319
<v Speaker 1>you have, you have every day. It's like you're not

0:38:26.360 --> 0:38:31.360
<v Speaker 1>gonna like become this other person next week, like little

0:38:31.480 --> 0:38:33.920
<v Speaker 1>tiny steps, but just try to make them like you're

0:38:33.920 --> 0:38:35.919
<v Speaker 1>gonna fuck up and you're gonna go backwards. And that's

0:38:35.920 --> 0:38:38.240
<v Speaker 1>like what I was I've been trying to remind myself

0:38:38.280 --> 0:38:40.400
<v Speaker 1>because I'm one of those people that like I want

0:38:40.520 --> 0:38:43.600
<v Speaker 1>everything to happen perfect quickly, Like why do I feel

0:38:43.600 --> 0:38:44.759
<v Speaker 1>this way? Why do I feel this way? I hate

0:38:44.760 --> 0:38:46.360
<v Speaker 1>that I feel this way. I'm judging myself for feeling

0:38:46.360 --> 0:38:51.680
<v Speaker 1>this way. And it's like, okay, like what's that's? What's

0:38:51.719 --> 0:38:54.520
<v Speaker 1>that saying like something wasn't built overnight?

0:38:54.600 --> 0:38:55.000
<v Speaker 2>I don't know.

0:38:56.120 --> 0:39:03.439
<v Speaker 1>It's like some Romans, but like Pisa, that leaning ass

0:39:03.480 --> 0:39:05.000
<v Speaker 1>tower clearly was built.

0:39:08.600 --> 0:39:10.720
<v Speaker 2>So yeah, I've just been.

0:39:14.320 --> 0:39:17.879
<v Speaker 1>Yeah this baby steps, Try not to be so hard

0:39:17.880 --> 0:39:21.879
<v Speaker 1>on yourself, you know. And like if you're going to say,

0:39:21.880 --> 0:39:24.759
<v Speaker 1>I don't like you said earlier that you're going your back,

0:39:24.760 --> 0:39:27.839
<v Speaker 1>you're backstepping by going to San Francisco this weekend, why

0:39:27.840 --> 0:39:29.719
<v Speaker 1>you're not backstepping like you know? I mean, it doesn't

0:39:29.760 --> 0:39:31.719
<v Speaker 1>mean you have to fuck this guy. I'm not, but

0:39:31.760 --> 0:39:34.120
<v Speaker 1>I'm just saying, like know that though. Do you think

0:39:34.160 --> 0:39:36.879
<v Speaker 1>I need to tell him that? No, it's your fucking choice.

0:39:36.920 --> 0:39:37.520
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, Like I don't have.

0:39:37.560 --> 0:39:39.560
<v Speaker 1>But that's the thing though, is women like because men

0:39:39.800 --> 0:39:41.680
<v Speaker 1>fly us out or they do this, but sometimes we

0:39:41.719 --> 0:39:42.120
<v Speaker 1>feel like.

0:39:42.040 --> 0:39:43.600
<v Speaker 2>Oh well fine, that's what my girl said. She's like,

0:39:43.600 --> 0:39:45.080
<v Speaker 2>you're gonna have to fuck I was like, no, I'm not.

0:39:45.560 --> 0:39:48.520
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, why would I My girlfriend was look at

0:39:48.560 --> 0:39:50.279
<v Speaker 2>my crazy. She's like, it's very two thousand and six

0:39:50.360 --> 0:39:51.879
<v Speaker 2>of you. But you guys gonna know what sex.

0:39:51.920 --> 0:39:55.359
<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I don't think I went to right and

0:39:55.360 --> 0:39:56.960
<v Speaker 1>that was a true test because I'm not like that.

0:39:57.000 --> 0:40:00.680
<v Speaker 1>I felt pressured, right, and he's still your friend, He's

0:40:00.640 --> 0:40:01.320
<v Speaker 1>still my friend.

0:40:02.320 --> 0:40:05.280
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, I'm not. I'm not going with down that

0:40:05.800 --> 0:40:08.440
<v Speaker 2>narrative because I don't and don't try.

0:40:08.239 --> 0:40:10.080
<v Speaker 1>To search for attraction if it's not there, you know,

0:40:10.120 --> 0:40:11.960
<v Speaker 1>because sometimes I feel like that's what we do too,

0:40:12.000 --> 0:40:15.080
<v Speaker 1>Like we try to find something attractive in someone really.

0:40:14.840 --> 0:40:16.879
<v Speaker 2>Well, the part about me is like it's very easy

0:40:16.920 --> 0:40:19.440
<v Speaker 2>for me to find attractive parts of people because I

0:40:19.560 --> 0:40:24.040
<v Speaker 2>like people, and I I just I find it easy

0:40:24.040 --> 0:40:26.400
<v Speaker 2>to love people and be attracted to different things about people,

0:40:26.400 --> 0:40:28.799
<v Speaker 2>Like it's not a standard, but I need to work

0:40:28.840 --> 0:40:31.719
<v Speaker 2>on like not well only just finding it, like is

0:40:31.760 --> 0:40:33.800
<v Speaker 2>it really like a true The only.

0:40:33.640 --> 0:40:35.799
<v Speaker 1>Thing that about that The reason why I think you

0:40:35.840 --> 0:40:38.919
<v Speaker 1>should try not all the time is because you're you're

0:40:39.000 --> 0:40:41.840
<v Speaker 1>literally like giving like you're giving energy away to that

0:40:41.920 --> 0:40:44.200
<v Speaker 1>I know, and then you're taking on their energy. That's

0:40:44.239 --> 0:40:47.000
<v Speaker 1>a lot because we are energy people. We're really based

0:40:47.000 --> 0:40:49.200
<v Speaker 1>in that. I feel like that's why we have a connection,

0:40:49.440 --> 0:40:49.680
<v Speaker 1>you know.

0:40:50.400 --> 0:40:52.200
<v Speaker 2>And it can be exhausting.

0:40:52.280 --> 0:40:53.640
<v Speaker 1>And when you do that, you don't have a lot

0:40:53.680 --> 0:40:55.600
<v Speaker 1>of energy left for yourself, and all the work that

0:40:55.640 --> 0:40:58.680
<v Speaker 1>you want to do is being wasted on all the

0:40:58.800 --> 0:41:00.799
<v Speaker 1>energy you're giving everyone else. So then when it's time

0:41:00.840 --> 0:41:03.640
<v Speaker 1>to work on yourself, it feels overwhelming, right because you

0:41:03.680 --> 0:41:04.640
<v Speaker 1>have nothing left to give.

0:41:05.920 --> 0:41:07.359
<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, you know what song wish you used

0:41:07.400 --> 0:41:11.480
<v Speaker 2>for this? It's all about me, me, me, me, me

0:41:13.200 --> 0:41:19.200
<v Speaker 2>you you you you. I'm gonna get it up, get

0:41:19.920 --> 0:41:27.759
<v Speaker 2>get it away. Sorry, no, we haven't used that. I

0:41:27.800 --> 0:41:34.160
<v Speaker 2>don't think. Sorry, that was an easy, quick distraction. But

0:41:34.560 --> 0:41:38.200
<v Speaker 2>you're right. And Danielle just has this conversation with me about, uh,

0:41:38.360 --> 0:41:40.959
<v Speaker 2>that I give away too much energy and that that's

0:41:41.000 --> 0:41:44.520
<v Speaker 2>exhausting and that it takes away And that's true, it's true,

0:41:44.520 --> 0:41:46.319
<v Speaker 2>and I have to be able to better monitor. Well,

0:41:46.320 --> 0:41:47.960
<v Speaker 2>you've been doing it for so long you probably don't

0:41:47.960 --> 0:41:48.319
<v Speaker 2>even know.

0:41:48.760 --> 0:41:51.160
<v Speaker 1>It doesn't feel like any doesn't feel like you're giving

0:41:51.160 --> 0:41:52.880
<v Speaker 1>away energy, Yeah, because it's.

0:41:52.719 --> 0:41:54.120
<v Speaker 2>What you're an autopilot.

0:41:54.440 --> 0:41:57.160
<v Speaker 1>But imagine if you start taking away some of it,

0:41:57.200 --> 0:42:01.040
<v Speaker 1>which might feel unnatural at first look, changed feels unnatural.

0:42:01.160 --> 0:42:02.920
<v Speaker 1>It doesn't feel like you feel like I'm not this

0:42:02.960 --> 0:42:04.680
<v Speaker 1>isn't me, this is not who I am. So then

0:42:04.680 --> 0:42:06.640
<v Speaker 1>you're like, fuck this, I'm going back to how I was.

0:42:07.000 --> 0:42:10.400
<v Speaker 2>But it's like if change was easy, everyone would be

0:42:10.440 --> 0:42:13.600
<v Speaker 2>fucking doing it everyone, and they're not. So I just

0:42:13.640 --> 0:42:16.799
<v Speaker 2>feel like, what did I see? What did I say?

0:42:16.800 --> 0:42:17.439
<v Speaker 2>What did I see?

0:42:17.480 --> 0:42:17.560
<v Speaker 4>On?

0:42:17.640 --> 0:42:19.960
<v Speaker 2>That was like a meme? Like my biggest flex of

0:42:19.960 --> 0:42:21.520
<v Speaker 2>twenty nineteen is like.

0:42:23.200 --> 0:42:26.640
<v Speaker 1>Retracting people's access to me, Like that's the biggest flex.

0:42:27.080 --> 0:42:28.680
<v Speaker 2>I think, I think, I think I posted it and

0:42:28.680 --> 0:42:31.040
<v Speaker 2>it was like I really liked me too. People don't

0:42:31.080 --> 0:42:33.400
<v Speaker 2>like people who thought they had access to me don't. Yeah,

0:42:33.400 --> 0:42:36.239
<v Speaker 2>And I think it's true. And I even was thinking

0:42:36.280 --> 0:42:38.959
<v Speaker 2>about like because I've been of course I've thought about

0:42:38.960 --> 0:42:41.480
<v Speaker 2>Young Bay and it's but I've realized it's a lot.

0:42:41.960 --> 0:42:46.160
<v Speaker 2>It's a lot of based an ego like talking like

0:42:46.640 --> 0:42:50.319
<v Speaker 2>just just ego based thoughts, cender thoughts about like him

0:42:50.320 --> 0:42:52.600
<v Speaker 2>talking to other people and like missing him or whatever.

0:42:53.120 --> 0:42:58.000
<v Speaker 2>And it just dawned on me that why do I

0:42:58.080 --> 0:43:00.640
<v Speaker 2>care so much about someone who's like really not caring

0:43:00.640 --> 0:43:03.799
<v Speaker 2>that much about me, how dumb, And I was just

0:43:03.920 --> 0:43:07.240
<v Speaker 2>like release that. Like release people who like if someone

0:43:07.280 --> 0:43:10.719
<v Speaker 2>doesn't meet your standards and like respect you or give

0:43:10.760 --> 0:43:13.359
<v Speaker 2>you as much energy as you give, it should be

0:43:13.400 --> 0:43:16.000
<v Speaker 2>no problem to cut that shit off. It shouldn't even

0:43:16.280 --> 0:43:18.480
<v Speaker 2>I shouldn't even think about it twice. You know what

0:43:18.560 --> 0:43:21.200
<v Speaker 2>I'm saying, like people who don't like the truth is

0:43:21.880 --> 0:43:24.680
<v Speaker 2>there's we use people, We use each other, and we

0:43:24.920 --> 0:43:27.280
<v Speaker 2>should we should be utilizing each other in positive ways

0:43:27.600 --> 0:43:31.040
<v Speaker 2>to motivate, to inspire, to love on whatever. But once

0:43:31.239 --> 0:43:35.480
<v Speaker 2>it's not a mutual exchange, there's no need for certain

0:43:35.600 --> 0:43:37.319
<v Speaker 2>energies and people to be in your life. And you

0:43:37.400 --> 0:43:40.160
<v Speaker 2>really shouldn't mourn them when they're gone because they don't

0:43:40.200 --> 0:43:41.640
<v Speaker 2>fucking contribute well.

0:43:41.840 --> 0:43:43.560
<v Speaker 1>I think you have to mourn them or else you

0:43:43.640 --> 0:43:46.600
<v Speaker 1>go back. Yeah, you have to, like you, I mean

0:43:46.680 --> 0:43:49.799
<v Speaker 1>maybe not everyone. I mean everyone has their own process

0:43:49.920 --> 0:43:51.319
<v Speaker 1>of letting shit go.

0:43:52.520 --> 0:43:56.520
<v Speaker 2>You have to evaluate if what they're contributing is enough

0:43:57.080 --> 0:44:01.440
<v Speaker 2>for to maintain the relationship. Do I get enough from

0:44:01.480 --> 0:44:05.600
<v Speaker 2>you that this is feels good? Is it nourishing me

0:44:05.880 --> 0:44:08.880
<v Speaker 2>in spirit? You know? And if not, if it's just

0:44:08.960 --> 0:44:11.880
<v Speaker 2>heartache and fucking me giving giving What the fuck is

0:44:11.920 --> 0:44:14.839
<v Speaker 2>the point? That's in friendships, that's in romantic relationships, that's

0:44:14.840 --> 0:44:16.560
<v Speaker 2>in any work relationships.

0:44:16.600 --> 0:44:18.520
<v Speaker 1>Like if you're now, it's like you want to know

0:44:18.560 --> 0:44:21.560
<v Speaker 1>that what all the energy that you're putting in you're

0:44:21.600 --> 0:44:23.120
<v Speaker 1>getting it back from that person.

0:44:23.200 --> 0:44:25.040
<v Speaker 2>Then you deserve that and we deserve that.

0:44:25.880 --> 0:44:28.000
<v Speaker 1>It's you know, but a lot of times we'll take

0:44:28.040 --> 0:44:30.799
<v Speaker 1>what we can get, right, which is the problem. Take

0:44:30.800 --> 0:44:33.000
<v Speaker 1>what we can get and hope because there's moments where

0:44:33.040 --> 0:44:34.960
<v Speaker 1>they do give it and then we hold on to

0:44:35.040 --> 0:44:38.280
<v Speaker 1>those moments and not looking at the whole picture of like, Okay,

0:44:38.480 --> 0:44:40.440
<v Speaker 1>that was on Monday, but on Wednesday, the nigga was

0:44:40.480 --> 0:44:42.560
<v Speaker 1>not calling me back, and Thursday and Friday and he

0:44:42.640 --> 0:44:43.319
<v Speaker 1>still ain't called me.

0:44:43.360 --> 0:44:45.680
<v Speaker 2>Oh but there he is on Monday again. To tell

0:44:45.719 --> 0:44:48.080
<v Speaker 2>them about the excel sheet the mom told you about.

0:44:48.280 --> 0:44:52.080
<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, So I hung out with.

0:44:52.040 --> 0:44:54.560
<v Speaker 2>One of IRI's friends at school's.

0:44:54.200 --> 0:44:58.960
<v Speaker 1>Moms and she's been married for a long time and

0:44:59.040 --> 0:45:01.120
<v Speaker 1>she told me that because I told her I'm single,

0:45:01.160 --> 0:45:02.680
<v Speaker 1>and she was like, okay, well this is what you

0:45:02.680 --> 0:45:05.080
<v Speaker 1>need to do. You need to create an excel sheet

0:45:05.160 --> 0:45:07.719
<v Speaker 1>first of all, like actually an excel sheet, like you

0:45:07.760 --> 0:45:08.799
<v Speaker 1>can't do this in your head.

0:45:08.880 --> 0:45:10.440
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And she's like.

0:45:10.160 --> 0:45:13.040
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, she's like, you need to date at least seventy people.

0:45:14.280 --> 0:45:15.200
<v Speaker 2>I thought she said one hundred.

0:45:15.200 --> 0:45:16.920
<v Speaker 1>I was like, or she still like seventy to one

0:45:16.960 --> 0:45:19.359
<v Speaker 1>hundred people, And I was like wait what She's like, yeah,

0:45:19.719 --> 0:45:22.880
<v Speaker 1>it's crucial, and she's like and so on the Excel sheet,

0:45:23.280 --> 0:45:26.440
<v Speaker 1>like everyone starts at the bottom and they.

0:45:26.280 --> 0:45:27.239
<v Speaker 2>Work themselves up.

0:45:27.719 --> 0:45:30.560
<v Speaker 1>So like say you go on a date with Bobby, Okay,

0:45:30.680 --> 0:45:32.239
<v Speaker 1>that's not a good one. Say you going to bait

0:45:32.320 --> 0:45:37.959
<v Speaker 1>or Day with Tommy. Tommy doesn't. Tommy buys dinner, Okay,

0:45:38.000 --> 0:45:40.440
<v Speaker 1>he goes up. You go on a date with Greg,

0:45:40.680 --> 0:45:42.960
<v Speaker 1>Greg buys dinner, okay, he goes up. Want to date

0:45:43.000 --> 0:45:44.759
<v Speaker 1>with Tommy, he decides to split the bill.

0:45:45.200 --> 0:45:46.160
<v Speaker 2>He goes down.

0:45:46.280 --> 0:45:49.200
<v Speaker 1>Greg's still up. So these guys, they work up the

0:45:49.280 --> 0:45:52.200
<v Speaker 1>list until you see who is in the top like

0:45:52.360 --> 0:45:54.880
<v Speaker 1>three of your dating list. And she's like, for me,

0:45:55.120 --> 0:46:00.920
<v Speaker 1>like I really like a guy that is What did

0:46:00.960 --> 0:46:04.880
<v Speaker 1>she say? How did she describe him? I don't know,

0:46:04.880 --> 0:46:09.000
<v Speaker 1>like guy's gonna chase her or something. She's like, obviously

0:46:09.040 --> 0:46:11.120
<v Speaker 1>everyone's things that are important are different, so you have

0:46:11.160 --> 0:46:13.160
<v Speaker 1>to decide what those things are and how you move

0:46:13.200 --> 0:46:13.960
<v Speaker 1>them up the list.

0:46:14.600 --> 0:46:17.360
<v Speaker 2>So I was like, huh, not that organized.

0:46:17.360 --> 0:46:19.319
<v Speaker 1>Maybe I can have Niche to make this listen, I

0:46:19.320 --> 0:46:21.840
<v Speaker 1>can like send her notes every week, like maybe like

0:46:21.880 --> 0:46:23.480
<v Speaker 1>once she make the list, it'll be easy.

0:46:23.680 --> 0:46:26.200
<v Speaker 2>So maybe we can have anisia like make make an

0:46:28.320 --> 0:46:29.439
<v Speaker 2>like sixty people.

0:46:29.520 --> 0:46:31.160
<v Speaker 1>We'll just send her a text every day and be

0:46:31.200 --> 0:46:33.239
<v Speaker 1>like hey, so he's went.

0:46:37.480 --> 0:46:39.840
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't know how that works, but it probably

0:46:39.880 --> 0:46:45.520
<v Speaker 2>does work, though I don't know. I don't know.

0:46:45.640 --> 0:46:48.080
<v Speaker 1>I'm just kind of like, I mean, I'm I'm I'm

0:46:48.160 --> 0:46:50.240
<v Speaker 1>like chatting with people and stuff, but I'm.

0:46:50.120 --> 0:46:53.920
<v Speaker 2>So like, but you know, thinking about like being chased.

0:46:54.880 --> 0:46:59.399
<v Speaker 2>I've come to the conclusion recently, like unless you're mad

0:46:59.480 --> 0:47:05.439
<v Speaker 2>crazy into me, boldly loudly, I don't want it. I'm good,

0:47:05.760 --> 0:47:09.879
<v Speaker 2>like uh, indifferent too, chill to relax, like I want

0:47:09.920 --> 0:47:13.279
<v Speaker 2>to be pursued me too. I mean, I think it's

0:47:13.320 --> 0:47:17.320
<v Speaker 2>a part of like the male female. I think guys

0:47:17.320 --> 0:47:22.160
<v Speaker 2>have become so fucking there's just too much access. There's

0:47:22.160 --> 0:47:24.719
<v Speaker 2>too many horrores out there giving away the milk, and

0:47:24.920 --> 0:47:26.880
<v Speaker 2>the guys are just they don't still know how to

0:47:26.880 --> 0:47:29.759
<v Speaker 2>act anymore. And I was hanging out with Nan heard

0:47:29.760 --> 0:47:32.280
<v Speaker 2>this dis guy she's dating who's from Texas, and he's like, literally,

0:47:32.400 --> 0:47:34.440
<v Speaker 2>LA's the only place where I hear this open fucking

0:47:34.520 --> 0:47:38.520
<v Speaker 2>relationship conversation. He's like, everybody I know in Texas is married,

0:47:38.880 --> 0:47:42.120
<v Speaker 2>already having kids. Everybody. He's like, they were like doing

0:47:42.120 --> 0:47:44.319
<v Speaker 2>that since college, like pursuing people because they knew they

0:47:44.320 --> 0:47:45.680
<v Speaker 2>were gonna be their husband or their wife. He's like,

0:47:45.719 --> 0:47:48.640
<v Speaker 2>I come to LA, everybody's dating multiple people and it's

0:47:48.719 --> 0:47:50.920
<v Speaker 2>just the norm. He's like, you guys are so fucked up.

0:47:52.080 --> 0:47:53.960
<v Speaker 2>I was like, oh my god, is it an LA thing?

0:47:54.080 --> 0:47:56.759
<v Speaker 2>Are we or all of our listeners disconnected by our

0:47:56.840 --> 0:48:00.319
<v Speaker 2>millions of episodes about being an open relationships? You know,

0:48:00.680 --> 0:48:02.319
<v Speaker 2>I don't know it's an LA thing. And I just

0:48:02.360 --> 0:48:05.960
<v Speaker 2>think maybe God, like maybe women like I need to

0:48:06.000 --> 0:48:08.719
<v Speaker 2>step up my standards, Like I could have crossed a

0:48:08.719 --> 0:48:10.239
<v Speaker 2>lot of iguas off the list if I would have

0:48:10.280 --> 0:48:12.800
<v Speaker 2>used her mechanism sooner.

0:48:13.000 --> 0:48:16.319
<v Speaker 1>Because but just because they show and they like they

0:48:16.440 --> 0:48:19.400
<v Speaker 1>do these grand acts whatever whatever those acts may be,

0:48:19.719 --> 0:48:24.040
<v Speaker 1>whether like it's I don't know, posting you on Instagram

0:48:24.200 --> 0:48:27.839
<v Speaker 1>like women Crush Wednesday or whatever the fuck it used

0:48:27.840 --> 0:48:30.600
<v Speaker 1>to and it only used to because it never happened.

0:48:30.600 --> 0:48:33.520
<v Speaker 1>It would bother me, right, you know, because I was

0:48:33.520 --> 0:48:36.680
<v Speaker 1>in you know, with with my baby daddy, Like I

0:48:36.719 --> 0:48:42.400
<v Speaker 1>posted him all the time, and he never never posted. Really,

0:48:42.560 --> 0:48:44.600
<v Speaker 1>I mean, it wasn't a secret we were in a relationship.

0:48:44.640 --> 0:48:47.840
<v Speaker 1>Anytime we were out, we're always super affectionate. Like everyone

0:48:47.880 --> 0:48:50.880
<v Speaker 1>knew he had a woman, but on social media it

0:48:51.000 --> 0:48:52.960
<v Speaker 1>was never that. And I remember there was this one

0:48:53.040 --> 0:48:56.719
<v Speaker 1>post and it pissed me, like I like that broke

0:48:56.800 --> 0:48:59.440
<v Speaker 1>up with him. Yeah, he posted a picture of him

0:48:59.440 --> 0:49:03.400
<v Speaker 1>in this video and said caption this and like let

0:49:03.480 --> 0:49:06.960
<v Speaker 1>everyone caption it and decide, and like that was the

0:49:07.000 --> 0:49:09.520
<v Speaker 1>only time he'd ever posted a girl on his Instagram. Well,

0:49:09.640 --> 0:49:12.759
<v Speaker 1>and I was like, take that shit down. I was like,

0:49:12.800 --> 0:49:15.880
<v Speaker 1>how dare you post another woman? Give people access to

0:49:16.000 --> 0:49:19.920
<v Speaker 1>like creating whatever story they wanted, and like you have

0:49:20.440 --> 0:49:22.920
<v Speaker 1>a good woman at home, no looking back on it,

0:49:22.960 --> 0:49:25.240
<v Speaker 1>Like it's dumb, it's immature, whatever.

0:49:25.880 --> 0:49:28.440
<v Speaker 2>I think, it doesn't matter. It really doesn't matter, and

0:49:28.760 --> 0:49:31.560
<v Speaker 2>like it doesn't matter because I won't do it until

0:49:31.719 --> 0:49:35.399
<v Speaker 2>if you post another female and we're like, then that

0:49:35.440 --> 0:49:38.000
<v Speaker 2>really bothers me, Like if you're with him and then

0:49:38.040 --> 0:49:40.640
<v Speaker 2>he posts someone else. Yeah, and even like I was dating,

0:49:40.680 --> 0:49:43.000
<v Speaker 2>I was just dating young Bay and he posted someone

0:49:43.000 --> 0:49:44.160
<v Speaker 2>else and I knew we were just dating and he

0:49:44.239 --> 0:49:45.480
<v Speaker 2>was saying other people. I knew he went to go

0:49:45.520 --> 0:49:49.080
<v Speaker 2>see this girl. It fucking pissed. It pisses me off

0:49:49.080 --> 0:49:51.719
<v Speaker 2>to this day. I'm still mad about it because it's

0:49:51.800 --> 0:49:56.200
<v Speaker 2>just like the audacity. I'm better than that bitch. Why

0:49:56.239 --> 0:49:58.640
<v Speaker 2>did she like? Why what's so special? And I had

0:49:58.680 --> 0:50:00.880
<v Speaker 2>other underlying reasons. I feel like he did that, but

0:50:02.719 --> 0:50:05.279
<v Speaker 2>you know my dark secrets. I mean, I.

0:50:05.160 --> 0:50:08.080
<v Speaker 1>Can't say that it doesn't feel good to get some recognition,

0:50:08.080 --> 0:50:12.080
<v Speaker 1>public display of recognition, and you know.

0:50:12.120 --> 0:50:16.120
<v Speaker 2>That this that I love her. Even when I look

0:50:16.120 --> 0:50:18.600
<v Speaker 2>at other people, like men's pages that I follow, and

0:50:18.640 --> 0:50:20.719
<v Speaker 2>I see them posting their girls a lot, like God,

0:50:20.760 --> 0:50:22.879
<v Speaker 2>this is I'm so lucky or whatever, I'm like, Okay,

0:50:22.880 --> 0:50:24.839
<v Speaker 2>I want a man like this. I want a man

0:50:24.920 --> 0:50:26.680
<v Speaker 2>that takes pictures of me when I'm not asking and

0:50:26.719 --> 0:50:30.600
<v Speaker 2>secretly because he just he just is down, is down

0:50:30.640 --> 0:50:32.440
<v Speaker 2>for me. Oh my god, we're I was talking to

0:50:32.680 --> 0:50:35.279
<v Speaker 2>talking to one of our friends at the beach, and

0:50:35.360 --> 0:50:36.960
<v Speaker 2>she was like, I went to my man's phone. I

0:50:36.960 --> 0:50:38.200
<v Speaker 2>don't know what I was looking for. She was like,

0:50:38.360 --> 0:50:40.640
<v Speaker 2>but I felt really I felt really happy because I

0:50:40.680 --> 0:50:45.000
<v Speaker 2>found a whole folder dedicated to my ass, my secret

0:50:45.000 --> 0:50:47.279
<v Speaker 2>photos of my ass, just my ass. Oh my god,

0:50:47.360 --> 0:50:50.680
<v Speaker 2>that's the cutest thing. That's over. She's like, so I

0:50:50.800 --> 0:50:52.279
<v Speaker 2>let it go. I just like twit the phone down

0:50:52.840 --> 0:50:53.359
<v Speaker 2>is that cute?

0:50:53.440 --> 0:50:56.200
<v Speaker 1>I want a secret photo dedicated to me me too,

0:50:56.920 --> 0:50:57.600
<v Speaker 1>That's really sweet.

0:50:57.680 --> 0:51:02.520
<v Speaker 2>That was really sweet. But like I'm I'm I realize now,

0:51:02.520 --> 0:51:06.520
<v Speaker 2>at thirty one years old, I deserve someone who loves

0:51:06.520 --> 0:51:07.920
<v Speaker 2>me like that, you know what I'm saying. Not to

0:51:07.960 --> 0:51:10.680
<v Speaker 2>say everybody loves the same way, but a that's how

0:51:10.719 --> 0:51:14.120
<v Speaker 2>I need to be loved and be like I deserve that.

0:51:14.360 --> 0:51:17.320
<v Speaker 2>I love that way. I love boldly, I love loudly.

0:51:17.600 --> 0:51:21.080
<v Speaker 1>Well, you have to find someone that that's their lovely language,

0:51:21.200 --> 0:51:25.120
<v Speaker 1>because that's not how everyone expresses their love for you

0:51:25.520 --> 0:51:26.000
<v Speaker 1>for people.

0:51:26.920 --> 0:51:27.440
<v Speaker 2>I love that.

0:51:27.680 --> 0:51:29.640
<v Speaker 1>Hinge also has that on the app, like what's your

0:51:29.640 --> 0:51:37.040
<v Speaker 1>love language? Yeah, physical tich, quality time food. Mine is

0:51:37.040 --> 0:51:39.400
<v Speaker 1>physical touch and quality time for sure.

0:51:39.640 --> 0:51:46.239
<v Speaker 2>And gifts mine's affirmation gifts and yeah, affection Like I

0:51:46.239 --> 0:51:49.200
<v Speaker 2>don't want to chase you to like give me a kiss.

0:51:49.200 --> 0:51:51.160
<v Speaker 2>I want to like us to be making out mostly

0:51:51.200 --> 0:51:56.040
<v Speaker 2>all day. I want like sec I want like Stephanie kisses.

0:51:56.560 --> 0:51:57.759
<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, I need to tell her about that.

0:51:57.800 --> 0:51:59.839
<v Speaker 2>Oh my god. That was like, Okay, we're at the beach.

0:51:59.840 --> 0:52:01.960
<v Speaker 2>Are friend just had a baby, and I just happened

0:52:01.960 --> 0:52:03.520
<v Speaker 2>to like turn around from the corner of my eye

0:52:03.560 --> 0:52:09.640
<v Speaker 2>and I saw this sexy ass, long low tongue, tongue makeout.

0:52:09.640 --> 0:52:12.440
<v Speaker 2>I was like, okay, mama a newborn baby. I was like,

0:52:12.960 --> 0:52:16.160
<v Speaker 2>just like, yeah, I want that too. Note to self,

0:52:16.760 --> 0:52:22.759
<v Speaker 2>long kisses, long time kisses. Oh my god. Yeah. I

0:52:22.800 --> 0:52:26.040
<v Speaker 2>just want to be madly, like have mad chemistry and

0:52:26.120 --> 0:52:30.160
<v Speaker 2>atraction to my man and a mutual you know, like

0:52:30.840 --> 0:52:34.600
<v Speaker 2>come home right now. I know it's hot. Anyway, I

0:52:34.719 --> 0:52:37.319
<v Speaker 2>just want we should write this down.

0:52:37.400 --> 0:52:39.399
<v Speaker 1>I mean I want those things, but also I want

0:52:39.400 --> 0:52:44.480
<v Speaker 1>to be okay, like I want I want all those things,

0:52:44.480 --> 0:52:47.640
<v Speaker 1>but I'm more so to try to sweat. I more

0:52:47.719 --> 0:52:50.040
<v Speaker 1>so want to be okay. I'm more mad at myself

0:52:50.040 --> 0:52:53.640
<v Speaker 1>that I feel. So it's so like I feel this,

0:52:54.800 --> 0:52:57.160
<v Speaker 1>it's so necessary for me, Like life is going to

0:52:57.200 --> 0:52:58.760
<v Speaker 1>be better once I find this person.

0:52:59.120 --> 0:53:03.080
<v Speaker 2>It's not yeah, like you know what, and I used

0:53:03.080 --> 0:53:06.239
<v Speaker 2>to I think I want my more so want that

0:53:06.360 --> 0:53:08.600
<v Speaker 2>feeling to go away. Well, you know what I think

0:53:08.600 --> 0:53:11.480
<v Speaker 2>it is because I feel the same way. I find

0:53:11.520 --> 0:53:13.759
<v Speaker 2>myself in those thoughts, like if I had a partner, then,

0:53:14.080 --> 0:53:16.160
<v Speaker 2>if I had a partner then and I'm like, I

0:53:16.160 --> 0:53:18.440
<v Speaker 2>gotta stop thinking that, Like, if I had a partner,

0:53:18.480 --> 0:53:20.920
<v Speaker 2>if he would help me, I'd have left financial burden.

0:53:20.920 --> 0:53:22.960
<v Speaker 2>I'd have someone I can cry on my shoulder, I

0:53:23.000 --> 0:53:25.840
<v Speaker 2>have someone to like brainstorm ideas, I had someone to

0:53:25.880 --> 0:53:28.200
<v Speaker 2>motivate me. These are things that are real. But yeah,

0:53:28.200 --> 0:53:31.960
<v Speaker 2>we have to do that for ourselves. But it's I

0:53:31.960 --> 0:53:34.040
<v Speaker 2>don't think that's bad to think that. I don't think

0:53:34.080 --> 0:53:34.759
<v Speaker 2>it's bad, but.

0:53:34.760 --> 0:53:37.120
<v Speaker 1>I feel like, first of all, a lot of our

0:53:37.200 --> 0:53:39.520
<v Speaker 1>episodes are about my relationships with them.

0:53:39.600 --> 0:53:42.879
<v Speaker 2>Wow, that's really sad, And are not in our non

0:53:42.920 --> 0:53:45.480
<v Speaker 2>relationship non relationships with them and are wanting them and

0:53:45.520 --> 0:53:50.200
<v Speaker 2>fuck them? And why can't we were great? Flower? No,

0:53:50.440 --> 0:53:51.759
<v Speaker 2>we're perfect. They suck.

0:53:52.719 --> 0:53:55.040
<v Speaker 1>And actually, when I was at the beach yesterday, I

0:53:55.080 --> 0:54:00.440
<v Speaker 1>was like watching this couple and I almost like, and

0:54:00.520 --> 0:54:02.480
<v Speaker 1>this never happens because normally when to witch couples, I

0:54:02.520 --> 0:54:03.080
<v Speaker 1>get jealous.

0:54:05.480 --> 0:54:10.319
<v Speaker 2>I was like, huh, I don't have anyone to like

0:54:11.400 --> 0:54:13.640
<v Speaker 2>I don't, like, I don't have to consider.

0:54:13.239 --> 0:54:17.680
<v Speaker 1>Anybody that's nice, and like, for that bleak moment, that

0:54:17.719 --> 0:54:21.400
<v Speaker 1>brief moment, I felt like lucky, lucky I did.

0:54:21.600 --> 0:54:24.080
<v Speaker 2>Obviously, I don't feel that way most of the time.

0:54:24.800 --> 0:54:27.120
<v Speaker 1>Hopefully I can like expand on that moment and make

0:54:27.160 --> 0:54:30.040
<v Speaker 1>it last longer. But like I was like, oh, that's

0:54:30.080 --> 0:54:33.600
<v Speaker 1>what that feels like, the not the need, the not need,

0:54:33.640 --> 0:54:36.480
<v Speaker 1>the not the need to not feel like I'm missing

0:54:36.560 --> 0:54:38.799
<v Speaker 1>out because I don't have a partner. And they were

0:54:38.840 --> 0:54:40.919
<v Speaker 1>totally happy and that was cool, but I kept thinking

0:54:40.960 --> 0:54:44.319
<v Speaker 1>to myself, like, oh, she probably makes decisions based off

0:54:44.400 --> 0:54:46.920
<v Speaker 1>of him, or she feels like she can't do certain

0:54:46.960 --> 0:54:49.040
<v Speaker 1>things because of him, and vice versa. I do not

0:54:49.120 --> 0:54:53.279
<v Speaker 1>miss that, And like that's that usually is when when

0:54:53.280 --> 0:54:55.359
<v Speaker 1>you put that title on a relationship, and that's when

0:54:55.400 --> 0:54:56.719
<v Speaker 1>those those things start coming up.

0:54:56.760 --> 0:54:59.560
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, well, can't do that anymore. Oh wait, why would

0:54:59.560 --> 0:55:01.360
<v Speaker 2>you do that? I'm where are you at? Why did

0:55:01.360 --> 0:55:03.960
<v Speaker 2>you change to the phone? Because I'm a human adult.

0:55:04.000 --> 0:55:05.360
<v Speaker 2>And so then there's the other side of it. I'm like,

0:55:05.440 --> 0:55:07.080
<v Speaker 2>I want to consider someone.

0:55:07.400 --> 0:55:09.359
<v Speaker 1>I want to not do shit.

0:55:09.760 --> 0:55:12.800
<v Speaker 2>I shouldn't be doing that shit anyway. I mean I

0:55:12.840 --> 0:55:14.480
<v Speaker 2>think like half of the relationships I've ever been in

0:55:14.600 --> 0:55:17.440
<v Speaker 2>is like to save me for myself. Absolutely. I think, like,

0:55:17.440 --> 0:55:18.960
<v Speaker 2>but you're doing too much get in a relationship.

0:55:19.040 --> 0:55:20.719
<v Speaker 1>Well yeah, I mean we're young, we were most of

0:55:20.800 --> 0:55:23.279
<v Speaker 1>us were really young when we started. I mean you've

0:55:23.280 --> 0:55:25.600
<v Speaker 1>been you were with your baby daddy since high school,

0:55:25.719 --> 0:55:28.520
<v Speaker 1>you know, and I know you've had the relationship since then.

0:55:28.680 --> 0:55:31.480
<v Speaker 1>But like I started my relationship with mine when I

0:55:31.520 --> 0:55:35.320
<v Speaker 1>was twenty two, twenty one, twenty two, I don't know

0:55:35.360 --> 0:55:38.120
<v Speaker 1>who the fuck I was then, Like I really and

0:55:38.880 --> 0:55:41.720
<v Speaker 1>I only knew who I was with him throughout my twenties,

0:55:42.360 --> 0:55:44.400
<v Speaker 1>so I didn't really have a stronghold on that either.

0:55:44.560 --> 0:55:47.200
<v Speaker 1>It's like only these next these last two years, really

0:55:47.320 --> 0:55:49.879
<v Speaker 1>have I had to really face and figure out who

0:55:49.920 --> 0:55:52.120
<v Speaker 1>am I. And that's why it's like met with so

0:55:52.200 --> 0:55:56.080
<v Speaker 1>much anxiety and met with so much like it feels

0:55:56.120 --> 0:55:59.920
<v Speaker 1>overwhelming on top of also having a child and like

0:56:00.160 --> 0:56:02.799
<v Speaker 1>you know, wanting her, like wanting her to know who

0:56:02.800 --> 0:56:04.520
<v Speaker 1>she is, and I'm like still trying to figure my

0:56:04.600 --> 0:56:05.239
<v Speaker 1>own shit out.

0:56:05.320 --> 0:56:08.279
<v Speaker 2>You know. I think people don't realize is you can

0:56:08.280 --> 0:56:11.720
<v Speaker 2>get in a relationship and you can completely lose yourself

0:56:11.960 --> 0:56:17.480
<v Speaker 2>because relationships. Often were told that you have to constantly

0:56:17.520 --> 0:56:20.040
<v Speaker 2>be in consideration of someone else, and you can like

0:56:20.719 --> 0:56:23.160
<v Speaker 2>mold into what somebody else wants you to be or

0:56:23.200 --> 0:56:24.960
<v Speaker 2>with you, and which you think they expect from you,

0:56:25.040 --> 0:56:28.600
<v Speaker 2>like that period this lasts like five years or whatever.

0:56:28.840 --> 0:56:31.200
<v Speaker 2>When I was with them and his dad, I completely

0:56:31.880 --> 0:56:35.320
<v Speaker 2>lost sight of who I was, like completely, which seems

0:56:35.440 --> 0:56:37.960
<v Speaker 2>crazy because I'm pretty much who I am, you know,

0:56:38.440 --> 0:56:41.239
<v Speaker 2>but like there was just I was just in this weird,

0:56:41.239 --> 0:56:43.279
<v Speaker 2>great area and my dad said to me, He's like

0:56:44.080 --> 0:56:47.279
<v Speaker 2>don't He's like, be careful. You know, you'll forget who

0:56:47.280 --> 0:56:49.319
<v Speaker 2>you are if you sit in a space too long

0:56:49.640 --> 0:56:52.080
<v Speaker 2>with someone that's not for you. And I was like, fuck,

0:56:52.320 --> 0:56:54.359
<v Speaker 2>that's true. And I feel like he felt a lot.

0:56:54.400 --> 0:56:56.800
<v Speaker 2>He felt that way a lot in his relationship and

0:56:56.840 --> 0:57:00.920
<v Speaker 2>he's like fifty something. So I'm just like even now

0:57:00.920 --> 0:57:02.840
<v Speaker 2>when I see my friends and relationships and they're like,

0:57:03.840 --> 0:57:07.160
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, hi, hello, are you in there? Hello? It's

0:57:08.520 --> 0:57:12.319
<v Speaker 2>you really have to be really careful about the relationships

0:57:12.320 --> 0:57:15.080
<v Speaker 2>you choose to be in a relationship because you will

0:57:15.320 --> 0:57:16.200
<v Speaker 2>become well.

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<v Speaker 1>That's why you've got to be so straight on who

0:57:18.600 --> 0:57:20.640
<v Speaker 1>you are, right, And that's why we have a really

0:57:20.680 --> 0:57:25.240
<v Speaker 1>special gift right now, an opportunity as single people to

0:57:25.360 --> 0:57:28.840
<v Speaker 1>really do that and like not be so depressed about

0:57:28.920 --> 0:57:30.040
<v Speaker 1>being single, you know.

0:57:30.120 --> 0:57:31.600
<v Speaker 2>Because I don't think we're going to be in any

0:57:31.600 --> 0:57:35.280
<v Speaker 2>healthy relationship until we're really, say, really clear about who

0:57:35.280 --> 0:57:37.080
<v Speaker 2>we are, and that will make us clear about who

0:57:37.080 --> 0:57:39.280
<v Speaker 2>we want and when they come, it'll be easy to

0:57:39.320 --> 0:57:41.840
<v Speaker 2>identify those things that oh no, no, don't like that.

0:57:42.040 --> 0:57:43.919
<v Speaker 2>And I had to think about it because like even

0:57:43.960 --> 0:57:46.160
<v Speaker 2>with young Bay, like there was things I thought I could,

0:57:46.240 --> 0:57:48.000
<v Speaker 2>like I wanted to change, and I was like trying

0:57:48.000 --> 0:57:50.080
<v Speaker 2>to plant seeds so his mind would be a little

0:57:50.120 --> 0:57:52.680
<v Speaker 2>bit more open, Like I know, my thought process is

0:57:52.720 --> 0:57:56.640
<v Speaker 2>not like traditional and I'm just like just in how

0:57:56.680 --> 0:57:58.480
<v Speaker 2>you look at women, how you view women and I

0:57:59.200 --> 0:58:01.000
<v Speaker 2>you know men. So he's like, well, you're a woman,

0:58:01.080 --> 0:58:02.760
<v Speaker 2>so this or you're that, and I'm like, I'm not

0:58:02.880 --> 0:58:05.520
<v Speaker 2>settling for an igu who thinks that we're different. Like

0:58:05.600 --> 0:58:08.200
<v Speaker 2>we're different, but you're not gonna put your needs or

0:58:08.200 --> 0:58:12.800
<v Speaker 2>you're your behavior before mine and justify things just because

0:58:12.800 --> 0:58:14.480
<v Speaker 2>you're a man. You know what I'm saying, Like there's

0:58:14.480 --> 0:58:16.920
<v Speaker 2>so many things I need you to be like low

0:58:17.000 --> 0:58:21.160
<v Speaker 2>key a conspiracy theorist. You got to be just really spiritual.

0:58:21.240 --> 0:58:23.439
<v Speaker 2>There's these things that I need that before I would

0:58:23.480 --> 0:58:26.800
<v Speaker 2>be easy, it would be easy for me to negate

0:58:26.960 --> 0:58:28.400
<v Speaker 2>or just be like, oh I can change this or

0:58:28.480 --> 0:58:30.360
<v Speaker 2>change that. But at this point, I don't really have

0:58:30.400 --> 0:58:31.960
<v Speaker 2>a desire to do that. Like, you need to be

0:58:32.080 --> 0:58:34.920
<v Speaker 2>in a certain space and then we can have crazy

0:58:34.960 --> 0:58:36.960
<v Speaker 2>conversations and maybe you change my mind, but you have

0:58:37.000 --> 0:58:42.360
<v Speaker 2>the least be here. No, we have to. Yeah, I'm yeah, yeah,

0:58:42.400 --> 0:58:52.640
<v Speaker 2>that's true. It's true. I don't know. So this is

0:58:52.680 --> 0:58:56.800
<v Speaker 2>about us not needing and wanting to be in a

0:58:56.800 --> 0:58:59.880
<v Speaker 2>relationship all the fucking time. Just be cool.

0:59:00.280 --> 0:59:02.080
<v Speaker 1>I mean this that this week is how That's how

0:59:02.120 --> 0:59:04.200
<v Speaker 1>I feel. Next week I could be like depressed again,

0:59:04.240 --> 0:59:08.439
<v Speaker 1>who knows, but like I think my one self care

0:59:08.520 --> 0:59:12.480
<v Speaker 1>day has me feeling like I mean, I don't know,

0:59:12.520 --> 0:59:14.240
<v Speaker 1>I just I really kept thinking about that moment when

0:59:14.280 --> 0:59:19.000
<v Speaker 1>I saw Hey, when I saw that couple, and I

0:59:19.080 --> 0:59:21.960
<v Speaker 1>wasn't jealous and like or like.

0:59:21.960 --> 0:59:23.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I was just like, damn, I don't have to

0:59:24.000 --> 0:59:24.760
<v Speaker 2>consider anyone.

0:59:24.800 --> 0:59:30.480
<v Speaker 1>And honestly, when I thought about that, it's something that Happy.

0:59:30.200 --> 0:59:31.760
<v Speaker 2>Bay says to me all the time.

0:59:32.000 --> 0:59:34.840
<v Speaker 1>And then I was like, Okay, I get where he's

0:59:34.840 --> 0:59:37.120
<v Speaker 1>coming from. I mean, I've been getting where he's coming from.

0:59:37.120 --> 0:59:39.600
<v Speaker 1>But I think he might even be farther along on this.

0:59:41.440 --> 0:59:43.760
<v Speaker 1>I've been single longer than him. I feel like he's

0:59:43.800 --> 0:59:47.120
<v Speaker 1>a little bit farther ahead in his like comfortability being

0:59:47.160 --> 0:59:50.240
<v Speaker 1>alone than I am. And that's why his that his

0:59:50.520 --> 0:59:54.320
<v Speaker 1>like need to like be that way annoys me when really,

0:59:54.400 --> 0:59:57.040
<v Speaker 1>like I'm starting to feel.

0:59:56.720 --> 0:59:59.280
<v Speaker 2>Like the same in a way. What does he always said?

0:59:59.320 --> 1:00:00.640
<v Speaker 1>He's like I don't want don't want to have to

1:00:00.680 --> 1:00:03.200
<v Speaker 1>consider someone. I don't want to have to consider anyone.

1:00:03.320 --> 1:00:05.680
<v Speaker 2>And that's like so beautiful sometimes, like.

1:00:05.480 --> 1:00:07.080
<v Speaker 1>Like I'll all I have, all I have to do

1:00:07.120 --> 1:00:09.160
<v Speaker 1>when I wake up in the morning is consider myself.

1:00:09.400 --> 1:00:11.480
<v Speaker 2>I mean, obviously we don't have that luxury. We have kids,

1:00:11.520 --> 1:00:13.960
<v Speaker 2>we have to consider them, but like especially because we

1:00:14.000 --> 1:00:16.920
<v Speaker 2>don't have like because we do have the consider kids,

1:00:16.480 --> 1:00:20.040
<v Speaker 2>but if we want, but if that need to feel

1:00:20.040 --> 1:00:22.080
<v Speaker 2>like we I want to, but I want to consider someone.

1:00:22.120 --> 1:00:25.440
<v Speaker 1>Okay, we have someone, it's our kid, use that use

1:00:25.480 --> 1:00:26.920
<v Speaker 1>that as someone to consider.

1:00:27.000 --> 1:00:29.440
<v Speaker 2>That's the most important person. I mean, even if be

1:00:29.480 --> 1:00:31.320
<v Speaker 2>going on this trip this weekend, Like I haven't done

1:00:31.360 --> 1:00:33.160
<v Speaker 2>anything like that and like and like this in a

1:00:33.200 --> 1:00:35.720
<v Speaker 2>long time, and I'm just like happy I can just

1:00:35.760 --> 1:00:39.240
<v Speaker 2>get up and go bye bye. When to go see

1:00:39.240 --> 1:00:41.640
<v Speaker 2>a stranger, catch you later. Maybe you don't like it,

1:00:41.640 --> 1:00:49.760
<v Speaker 2>you can come back. You're not far super simple. If

1:00:49.800 --> 1:00:52.919
<v Speaker 2>any anything else is dead, let's go make a list

1:00:52.960 --> 1:00:55.200
<v Speaker 2>of qualities we wanted a man become.

1:00:55.280 --> 1:00:55.520
<v Speaker 4>We know.

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<v Speaker 1>Anything else, not really, I mean, the world is crazy.

1:01:04.640 --> 1:01:07.240
<v Speaker 2>People are crazy. People are crazy as fuck.

1:01:08.200 --> 1:01:10.880
<v Speaker 1>And I think we need to We actually have to

1:01:10.880 --> 1:01:14.040
<v Speaker 1>go because we need to write something really quickly on your.

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<v Speaker 2>Phone in this press sent Oh we do Twitter.

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<v Speaker 1>But anyway, I hope you guys have Oh she looks

1:01:26.280 --> 1:01:30.600
<v Speaker 1>really cute there. I hope you guys have an amazing week.

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<v Speaker 1>That you consider yourself this week. If you are single,

1:01:35.960 --> 1:01:38.760
<v Speaker 1>that you know, kind of just basking it, basking it,

1:01:38.800 --> 1:01:41.720
<v Speaker 1>embrace it. You have no one to consider, to do

1:01:41.760 --> 1:01:44.960
<v Speaker 1>whatever the fuck you want. It's beautiful, Like you're not

1:01:44.960 --> 1:01:49.680
<v Speaker 1>gonna hurt any motherfucker's feeling, but you're like, just consider yourself,

1:01:49.880 --> 1:01:52.200
<v Speaker 1>Like how beautiful is that to just be like, God,

1:01:52.200 --> 1:01:53.360
<v Speaker 1>I love myself, I'm the bomb.

1:01:53.920 --> 1:01:59.360
<v Speaker 2>What am I gonna do for me today? But we'll

1:01:59.360 --> 1:02:02.800
<v Speaker 2>catch you guys next week. If you're in Atlanta or

1:02:02.840 --> 1:02:05.360
<v Speaker 2>in the Atlanta area, we're having a live show October

1:02:05.400 --> 1:02:09.560
<v Speaker 2>thirteenth at b q E on Edwood and we would

1:02:09.680 --> 1:02:10.880
<v Speaker 2>like to see you there.

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<v Speaker 1>Yes, we're gonna make a link right now, link in

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<v Speaker 1>our bio for those tickets. Tell your friends, bring a friend,

1:02:18.800 --> 1:02:21.440
<v Speaker 1>bring a friend, bring your mama, and have a drink.

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<v Speaker 2>It's gonna be fun and we'll talk to you guys

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<v Speaker 2>next week. NY Audios, that's lunch