WEBVTT - Miss Trust Fall 0:00:08.840 --> 0:00:17.960 Misspelling with Tori Spelling and iHeartRadio podcast, Welcome to DWTS 0:00:18.160 --> 0:00:21.640 Dancing with Tory Spelling and just kidding. Oh my gosh, 0:00:21.640 --> 0:00:26.000 you guys. So I haven't talked to you guys since 0:00:26.079 --> 0:00:29.480 I had my first live performance on Dancing with the Stars. 0:00:30.160 --> 0:00:35.479 And it was, honestly, you guys, it was magical. It really, 0:00:36.720 --> 0:00:40.920 it really was. And I my face is hurting because 0:00:40.920 --> 0:00:44.080 I'm still smiling, like I have like permegrant from like 0:00:44.240 --> 0:00:50.519 smiling so hard. But it was just unbelievable, and especially 0:00:50.600 --> 0:00:54.920 I think for me, this was like a real ooh 0:00:55.440 --> 0:01:01.200 testament of my will because I so fearful. You know, 0:01:01.280 --> 0:01:04.600 I've said before that I have been offered Dancing with 0:01:04.640 --> 0:01:06.959 the Stars before, and I've always said no. Not because 0:01:07.000 --> 0:01:08.920 I didn't want to do it. I'm a huge fan 0:01:09.000 --> 0:01:12.280 girl of the show, but because I was just terrified. 0:01:12.319 --> 0:01:16.000 I was terrified I would fail. I was terrified. I 0:01:16.120 --> 0:01:19.480 just so insecure about it. And also performing in front 0:01:19.480 --> 0:01:22.160 of a live audience. I think people think actors like 0:01:22.600 --> 0:01:26.760 and maybe most actors are fine with live audiences. I 0:01:26.800 --> 0:01:32.000 have such a huge fear of performing in front of well, 0:01:32.040 --> 0:01:35.520 it's not just like in the ballroom there's hundreds of people, 0:01:35.680 --> 0:01:38.600 but you know it's a live show. There's you know, 0:01:38.680 --> 0:01:42.399 as an actor, we are used to you know, if 0:01:42.400 --> 0:01:45.559 something doesn't go right, we can do a take two, three, four, five, 0:01:45.680 --> 0:01:48.520 you know, and the final outcome that you see on 0:01:48.600 --> 0:01:52.400 TV or in the theater, it's it's the best one, right, 0:01:52.520 --> 0:01:55.320 But you don't get that. But on a live show 0:01:55.440 --> 0:02:00.920 you get one chance. And keep in mind, this isn't acting, 0:02:01.040 --> 0:02:05.840 this is dancing. Something I've never done, so I don't know. 0:02:06.320 --> 0:02:11.480 It was like terrifying, terrifying, But I made a promise 0:02:11.480 --> 0:02:14.000 to myself that this year, you know, I would push 0:02:14.000 --> 0:02:17.160 myself out of my comfort zone, push past my fears, 0:02:17.240 --> 0:02:21.040 go for things that scared me. Because hey, I'm fifty one. 0:02:21.080 --> 0:02:22.920 I got to take my shot now, right, you know, 0:02:23.040 --> 0:02:27.200 it's time. It's go time, story time. So when I 0:02:27.240 --> 0:02:32.560 decided to finally do Dancing with the Stars, I commit 0:02:32.639 --> 0:02:35.560 it because I'm the type of person and if you know, 0:02:35.639 --> 0:02:40.000 you know, like I say, I always say no before 0:02:40.040 --> 0:02:45.720 yes to everything in my life because my brain just 0:02:45.760 --> 0:02:47.799 works that way. I can't do it. I can't do it, 0:02:47.919 --> 0:02:49.959 and then I think about it, I'm like, okay, yes, 0:02:50.000 --> 0:02:51.760 so I can do it. I can do it. But 0:02:52.720 --> 0:02:55.359 the good news about me is even though I will 0:02:55.400 --> 0:02:57.400 completely tell myself I can't do it, once I say 0:02:57.480 --> 0:03:01.880 yes to something and I am in. I don't back down. 0:03:02.320 --> 0:03:09.320 Like competitive to like beyond, but not competitive with others. 0:03:09.480 --> 0:03:12.720 I'm not competitive with others. I'm competitive with myself. So 0:03:13.240 --> 0:03:16.480 I will just throw myself in and go for it. 0:03:16.960 --> 0:03:21.120 And I feel like I really did this. And the 0:03:21.200 --> 0:03:27.080 live show, I was scared going into it. You know, 0:03:27.160 --> 0:03:32.320 we were all dressed in the wardrobe was amazing. I 0:03:32.360 --> 0:03:37.040 loved my dress, I loved my hair, I loved my makeup. 0:03:37.560 --> 0:03:40.240 I was like, oh my gosh, it's all coming together, 0:03:40.320 --> 0:03:44.560 and it really did. I think I posted a picture 0:03:44.640 --> 0:03:48.040 the next day. But I like Pasha and I felt 0:03:48.080 --> 0:03:50.680 like a Disney princess with my Prince Charming on the 0:03:50.720 --> 0:03:55.120 dance floor, like, oh my gosh. I was so proud, 0:03:55.280 --> 0:03:58.600 like so proud, that's the word. I was really proud 0:03:58.600 --> 0:04:03.480 of myself. And yeah, we did our dress rehearsal the 0:04:03.560 --> 0:04:06.040 day of. You do it and you go full out, 0:04:06.120 --> 0:04:09.280 so right before the live show. It goes live at 0:04:09.320 --> 0:04:12.120 eight pm on the East Coast, which is five pm 0:04:12.160 --> 0:04:17.880 on the West Coast seven pm Central. You do a 0:04:17.960 --> 0:04:23.120 full on, full on dress rehearsal, made up in your outfit, 0:04:23.360 --> 0:04:27.760 go out music, set's lights, the pyro, the confetti, everything 0:04:27.760 --> 0:04:30.839 that comes out during my act. They do it full on, 0:04:31.120 --> 0:04:33.479 and then once you're done with the full run of 0:04:33.480 --> 0:04:37.560 the entire show, like introduce everyone at the end, you know, 0:04:38.040 --> 0:04:40.960 Julian and Alfonso say goodbye and like see you next week, 0:04:41.040 --> 0:04:44.680 like all the way through, and then we go back 0:04:44.760 --> 0:04:47.200 to our trailer and we have like twenty minutes to 0:04:47.240 --> 0:04:50.760 regroup and then boom right into the live show, which 0:04:50.800 --> 0:04:54.080 I think is good doing the dress rehearsal because you 0:04:54.120 --> 0:04:56.800 do it full on and then you're like, okay, memory, 0:04:57.520 --> 0:05:00.080 save me now. I hope it's all there in and 0:05:00.200 --> 0:05:03.479 you know, as soon as we go live. But yeah, 0:05:03.640 --> 0:05:06.719 right before my dance, it was like three three minutes 0:05:06.720 --> 0:05:09.280 and they were like okay, you know, Torri, Pasha head 0:05:09.320 --> 0:05:12.240 to the stage. I was just like, here we go, 0:05:12.680 --> 0:05:15.719 Here we go. And you really don't have a moment 0:05:15.839 --> 0:05:19.440 to be falling out nervous once you go on the stage, 0:05:19.520 --> 0:05:22.640 because at least for me in my brain, I was 0:05:22.720 --> 0:05:25.960 like I don't know it now, I don't know and 0:05:26.000 --> 0:05:29.680 now here we go. My kids were all there all 0:05:29.720 --> 0:05:33.600 five of my kids sitting in the front row. Sorry 0:05:33.640 --> 0:05:39.680 I got choked up there. Oh sorry, guys. I got 0:05:39.680 --> 0:05:42.240 to see them right before, so they came to see 0:05:42.279 --> 0:05:47.160 me and wish me luck and brought me flowers. So 0:05:49.040 --> 0:05:50.719 as I went on to the stage, you know, I 0:05:50.720 --> 0:05:55.200 took my place on the stage and I was laying 0:05:55.320 --> 0:05:59.240 down and they had the amazing like so kind of 0:05:59.279 --> 0:06:05.360 I did Trust by Pink and well, I'm going to 0:06:05.480 --> 0:06:09.440 cry again. So I've had like no sleep and I'm 0:06:09.520 --> 0:06:12.120 literally going, going, going, and I'm so committed to this 0:06:12.279 --> 0:06:16.000 this just like emotions are coming out at all different forms. 0:06:16.960 --> 0:06:20.039 But I was laying there and it's supposed to simulate 0:06:20.080 --> 0:06:23.159 like I'm falling and then trust fall. You know, my 0:06:23.200 --> 0:06:26.360 partner catches me and we go through it. But as 0:06:26.360 --> 0:06:28.680 I'm laying there, you know, you hear the three clicks. 0:06:28.720 --> 0:06:32.880 So when everyone song comes on, right before it goes live, 0:06:32.960 --> 0:06:36.839 you hear three clicks, so it's like click click click boom. 0:06:36.880 --> 0:06:39.640 It goes into your music. So as your music starts, 0:06:39.720 --> 0:06:42.520 that's when you know, you know, you start your movement. 0:06:43.200 --> 0:06:46.280 And I was laying there and I could hear them 0:06:46.320 --> 0:06:49.680 announce it like dancing at the Foxtra and I was like, 0:06:49.680 --> 0:06:52.520 oh my gosh, it's us, you know, Tori Spelling and 0:06:52.560 --> 0:06:55.880 her partner Pasha, And I'm like, yeah, this is us. 0:06:56.080 --> 0:06:58.159 And then I can hear my package being played, and 0:06:58.200 --> 0:07:00.920 I was like, stand in the zone, like focus, don't. 0:07:01.160 --> 0:07:03.280 They don't play the package for you, so like we 0:07:03.320 --> 0:07:06.080 don't know, like what you guys saw live, the package 0:07:06.120 --> 0:07:10.200 that they create for us, we never see it or 0:07:10.280 --> 0:07:12.280 hear it. So that was the first time I was 0:07:12.280 --> 0:07:15.040 hearing it, and I was like, okay, keep your mind not, 0:07:15.320 --> 0:07:17.920 you know, focus in the game, like, don't listen to 0:07:17.960 --> 0:07:21.360 the package. And I get I did hear though, like 0:07:22.240 --> 0:07:26.040 you know, me talking in my interview that i'd done. 0:07:26.080 --> 0:07:30.120 They put in the package and all I remember hearing 0:07:30.160 --> 0:07:33.680 before I went on was I'm going through really public divorce, 0:07:34.480 --> 0:07:36.840 and in my brain I was quickly like, oh my gosh, 0:07:36.880 --> 0:07:39.280 I feel bad. The kids are like hearing this right now, 0:07:39.320 --> 0:07:41.520 but they know, like this is our lives and stuff. 0:07:41.520 --> 0:07:45.360 And then I was like go and I was like, 0:07:45.440 --> 0:07:50.600 you know, let's start. So it began, and it had 0:07:50.640 --> 0:07:54.440 a couple of hiccups. I don't know. Pasha just kept 0:07:54.480 --> 0:07:59.160 telling me for you know, the week before, like days before, 0:07:59.680 --> 0:08:03.960 hours before, minutes before, Like it's very important that no 0:08:04.000 --> 0:08:08.040 one knows our dance except us, Like they don't know it. 0:08:08.600 --> 0:08:11.240 So if one thing isn't the way that you know, 0:08:11.760 --> 0:08:14.360 oh I screwed up or I didn't do that move, 0:08:14.880 --> 0:08:17.480 no one will know it. If you sell it like 0:08:17.720 --> 0:08:21.240 you got to go on and you know, there's no 0:08:22.320 --> 0:08:26.240 in me. You know, I wear my heart and expressions 0:08:26.280 --> 0:08:30.600 and everything on my face, big eyes. So that was 0:08:30.640 --> 0:08:34.040 a challenge for me, you know, through the rehearsals at 0:08:34.040 --> 0:08:37.000 the end, like being like, okay, you know, just smile 0:08:37.160 --> 0:08:40.360 through it and just go on and don't let them 0:08:40.400 --> 0:08:42.080 know you made a mistake because no one will know. 0:08:42.559 --> 0:08:45.599 And it's true, you know, and from seeing everybody's dances 0:08:45.880 --> 0:08:48.720 because we you know, we got to see rehearsals before 0:08:48.920 --> 0:08:51.640 and be with everyone during you know, camera blocking and 0:08:51.720 --> 0:08:55.200 dress rehearsals and everything. We had seen each other's dances, 0:08:55.640 --> 0:08:58.160 so you know, we might know like, oh, you know, 0:08:58.360 --> 0:09:01.720 there was one little move that it was in a 0:09:01.760 --> 0:09:04.839 previous couple stans that wasn't there during the live show. 0:09:05.240 --> 0:09:07.880 But if they you know, just go through it and 0:09:08.000 --> 0:09:12.199 smile through it and just keep going. It's not noticeable. 0:09:13.000 --> 0:09:19.000 So for mine. I could tell rewatching it, and again 0:09:19.120 --> 0:09:22.640 I'm really hard on myself. I could tell for myself like, oh, 0:09:22.679 --> 0:09:27.400 I was slightly late on that beat or that movement. 0:09:27.640 --> 0:09:29.720 You know. I think there was one movement my hand 0:09:29.840 --> 0:09:33.800 was supposed to go up and I like put it down. 0:09:34.120 --> 0:09:37.360 I did a slide across the floor. The floor we 0:09:37.480 --> 0:09:41.600 practice on is not as tactile as that one, so 0:09:41.960 --> 0:09:45.760 it's easier to slide. The ballroom had a little bit 0:09:45.800 --> 0:09:49.160 more stick to it, I guess, so I could tell 0:09:49.360 --> 0:09:52.199 watching it like my as I went into my slide, 0:09:52.600 --> 0:09:55.080 my toe got stuck a little bit going across, so 0:09:55.120 --> 0:09:58.959 it wasn't as full as slide, like a split slide 0:09:59.000 --> 0:10:03.280 that I typically do. But things like that don't matter. 0:10:03.320 --> 0:10:05.600 And I've realized that now, and I was really proud 0:10:05.760 --> 0:10:09.800 of how it went. I had so much joy in it, 0:10:09.920 --> 0:10:13.720 like and that that's what matters to me, because so 0:10:13.840 --> 0:10:16.560 much fear my whole life of doing things that put 0:10:16.559 --> 0:10:19.760 me out of my comfort stone, and here I am 0:10:19.880 --> 0:10:24.720 doing something. Keep in mind, you know, most of the 0:10:24.720 --> 0:10:30.520 people on this show have some sort of dance experience 0:10:30.600 --> 0:10:37.040 at some point in their lives or they you know, 0:10:37.160 --> 0:10:42.559 athletes have a lot of you know a lot of experience, 0:10:42.640 --> 0:10:45.880 you know, doing sports. You know, I come into this 0:10:45.960 --> 0:10:52.160 with you know, nothing, absolutely nothing. Never had, you know, 0:10:52.640 --> 0:10:58.160 the dance lessons, never had the dance training, never had anything. 0:10:58.200 --> 0:11:04.120 I don't work out like you know. And I'm keeping up. 0:11:04.360 --> 0:11:13.120 I'm keeping up. When I was getting my comments from 0:11:13.120 --> 0:11:16.719 the judges, I was I had to watch them back 0:11:16.760 --> 0:11:20.600 afterwards because I was a little like, I was so 0:11:20.640 --> 0:11:23.160 excited that I got like, Wow, I made it. I 0:11:23.160 --> 0:11:25.800 got through my dance. You know, I'm really happy with 0:11:25.920 --> 0:11:29.760 how it went. I could tell Pasha was really proud 0:11:29.760 --> 0:11:31.360 of me. And I was like, okay, I see my 0:11:31.480 --> 0:11:36.640 kids cheering. I'm gonna cry again. Sorry, my kids are 0:11:36.720 --> 0:11:39.680 cheering from the front row, and I'm like, yes, this 0:11:39.880 --> 0:11:41.600 is it. And then all of a sudden, you know, 0:11:41.640 --> 0:11:44.600 I'm standing in front of Harry Ann and Derek and 0:11:44.640 --> 0:11:47.840 Bruno and in my head, I like forgot for a 0:11:47.880 --> 0:11:50.440 moment that I was there to get like critiques. I 0:11:50.559 --> 0:11:52.960 was like, oh my god. I was like, I watch 0:11:53.000 --> 0:11:57.480 you on TV. This is awesome. You're gonna give critiques 0:11:57.480 --> 0:12:00.120 in scores and I'm like, oh, duh, it's me. It's me, Like, 0:12:00.200 --> 0:12:04.200 snap out of it. And then I had to be 0:12:04.280 --> 0:12:06.840 like okay, okay, wait, focus because I was so excited 0:12:06.880 --> 0:12:11.520 to just be standing in front of them. Anyway, I 0:12:11.600 --> 0:12:17.880 thought their comments were very fair, like they were great, 0:12:18.400 --> 0:12:22.920 really encouraging. I loved that Carrie Anne said, you know, 0:12:23.320 --> 0:12:28.440 don't be you know, as timid, and she wants, you know, 0:12:28.600 --> 0:12:31.320 let go of the timatory and go for it. And 0:12:32.000 --> 0:12:34.640 you know, I'm in my fifties now, like doing this, Yeah, 0:12:34.679 --> 0:12:38.839 it's not as easy as you know the kids, the 0:12:38.840 --> 0:12:41.680 ones out there that you know, we're in their twenties 0:12:41.760 --> 0:12:48.920 and thirties and forties and hello, I'm fifty one. So yeah, 0:12:49.600 --> 0:12:52.040 you know, I'm definitely coming out of my shell. It 0:12:52.120 --> 0:12:55.920 was my first week. I definitely don't want to go anywhere, 0:12:55.920 --> 0:12:59.600 like I am beyond in this, like I want to 0:12:59.679 --> 0:13:04.520 keep dancing, like I I honestly love it so much. 0:13:04.559 --> 0:13:08.440 I believe like when the show is long over, I 0:13:08.480 --> 0:13:10.840 want to keep dancing somehow, Like I don't know what 0:13:11.040 --> 0:13:14.360 warm that'll be in, but it's definitely the ballroom like 0:13:14.800 --> 0:13:20.240 has been my therapy. It's really affected me on so 0:13:20.720 --> 0:13:27.040 many levels. It has, Like the personal growth I've seen 0:13:27.040 --> 0:13:29.840 in myself is wild. You guys, Like I feel like 0:13:30.000 --> 0:13:32.679 what I just started this, what two weeks ago, two 0:13:32.720 --> 0:13:36.000 and a half, three weeks ago. It all happened really fast, 0:13:37.559 --> 0:13:43.400 and I already see a change in myself personally, like I, 0:13:43.400 --> 0:13:45.959 I mean, don't get me wrong. Well, let me finish 0:13:46.040 --> 0:13:48.280 with my comments in my scores and then I'll get 0:13:48.280 --> 0:13:53.520 back to this. But so the comments were good. There's 0:13:54.400 --> 0:13:57.320 I forget the name of it. Pasha and I make 0:13:57.400 --> 0:14:02.280 up words that are tory words so that I know, 0:14:02.520 --> 0:14:04.240 like you know, because I don't know the technical like 0:14:04.400 --> 0:14:08.920 dance words, these fancy dance names. But there's a part 0:14:09.080 --> 0:14:12.240 where we call it the iconic dance because Pasha when 0:14:12.240 --> 0:14:15.560 he put this in our dance was like you know, 0:14:15.760 --> 0:14:18.360 in the ballroom and especially the fox trot, like it's 0:14:18.360 --> 0:14:23.200 a sin not to do this move. So I do it. 0:14:23.240 --> 0:14:25.280 I hit it three times, you know, I do my 0:14:25.400 --> 0:14:29.640 dance like my iconic move, and then another one. There 0:14:29.760 --> 0:14:35.000 was like three of them, and whatever that is called, 0:14:35.080 --> 0:14:38.520 I'm gonna have to ask Pasha the name. Derek said 0:14:38.720 --> 0:14:41.720 it was that I hit it very well. I had 0:14:41.760 --> 0:14:45.640 pretty clean lines. I mean words you want to hear 0:14:45.720 --> 0:14:50.200 when you're dancing. Pretty lines. Yes, I'll take it. And 0:14:50.320 --> 0:14:53.200 Bruno gave great comments. I don't know. I just want 0:14:53.200 --> 0:14:57.280 to keep improving. So because now they're a part of 0:14:57.320 --> 0:15:01.840 it with me, Like I've known all of them for years, 0:15:02.000 --> 0:15:06.000 but now I'm a contestant. A contestant, it's not a 0:15:06.040 --> 0:15:09.680 game show competitor. That doesn't sound right anyway. I'm a 0:15:09.800 --> 0:15:15.400 dancer on their show. And now I'm taking all of 0:15:15.440 --> 0:15:17.560 their comments to heart, and I'm like, wow, I want 0:15:17.560 --> 0:15:19.080 to make them proud too. I want I want to 0:15:19.080 --> 0:15:21.200 come back here each week and have them be like, 0:15:22.120 --> 0:15:24.680 she took that to heart, you know, the critique we 0:15:24.720 --> 0:15:27.880 gave her, and she worked on it. So I'm definitely 0:15:27.920 --> 0:15:30.800 like keeping all of that in mind. And then you 0:15:30.840 --> 0:15:32.960 go up to the skybox and all my friends are 0:15:33.040 --> 0:15:35.760 up there. By the way. Everyone has become such I 0:15:35.800 --> 0:15:41.960 call it my dance family now, like they really. Brian 0:15:42.000 --> 0:15:43.880 Austin Green and I were talking the other day because 0:15:43.920 --> 0:15:47.280 he's been such a champion through this whole process, because 0:15:47.280 --> 0:15:48.920 he was the one, like the only one I told 0:15:48.960 --> 0:15:53.520 about this when I got the offer this year, and yeah, 0:15:53.560 --> 0:15:56.440 so he's just been there and he and Charna for 0:15:56.440 --> 0:16:00.480 every step of the way, and and and he was 0:16:00.520 --> 0:16:04.760 like he was so proud, and he was so happy, 0:16:04.800 --> 0:16:07.560 and he was like, how'd you feel? And he this 0:16:07.720 --> 0:16:11.920 wording was really correct. It's trial by fire this show, 0:16:12.040 --> 0:16:14.360 and it's like, wow, it is because you it's like 0:16:14.400 --> 0:16:19.120 an experiment. We're all just like thrown into this celebrities, 0:16:19.120 --> 0:16:22.560 and it's like, let's see what you can do. Let's 0:16:22.600 --> 0:16:25.160 push you to the limit and see what you can 0:16:25.240 --> 0:16:29.000 do and how your body, your mind, your heart and 0:16:29.040 --> 0:16:32.680 soul respond. And everyone's gonna watch live each week to 0:16:32.720 --> 0:16:38.640 see it really is the truth. But but I feel 0:16:38.720 --> 0:16:45.520 so connected with all of the couples. All there's thirteen couples. 0:16:45.560 --> 0:16:48.520 I'm you know, so all the other twelve couples. I 0:16:48.560 --> 0:16:51.720 feel so connected with all of those celebrities and all 0:16:51.760 --> 0:16:58.160 of those pros because we're in it together. Like h 0:17:00.040 --> 0:17:02.160 I love them so much. I'll talk about them in 0:17:02.200 --> 0:17:04.320 a second. But Pasha, I went up to the skybox. 0:17:04.760 --> 0:17:09.320 We got our scores. I got six, six and a five. 0:17:10.600 --> 0:17:12.639 My daughter Stella was like, oh my god, I was 0:17:12.840 --> 0:17:16.560 booing when Bruno gave you a five and I'm like, no, no, 0:17:16.760 --> 0:17:20.800 it's fair, don't worry. My kids were so buffed when 0:17:20.800 --> 0:17:22.879 I got a five, and I was like, you guys, 0:17:23.520 --> 0:17:25.800 this is all new to me, I'm not a dancer. 0:17:25.840 --> 0:17:30.400 I don't dance. You know. This was scary, and I 0:17:30.480 --> 0:17:33.960 went out there and did it, and to me, two 0:17:34.040 --> 0:17:37.040 six is and five it was like getting tens and 0:17:37.080 --> 0:17:40.359 a nine. Like literally, I was like, did you see 0:17:40.359 --> 0:17:42.560 my reaction? If you watch the show, I was like, guys, 0:17:43.520 --> 0:17:46.600 I'm like, I'll take it because it's just the first 0:17:46.640 --> 0:17:51.200 week and there's room for improvement. I get it. And 0:17:51.840 --> 0:17:55.560 everyone kept saying after my friends would be like, we 0:17:55.720 --> 0:17:58.480 bummed that others got higher scores and you were lower 0:17:58.480 --> 0:18:00.960 on the leader boards. Yeah, I have all the lingo now, 0:18:01.600 --> 0:18:04.240 And I was like, no, not at all. I'm having 0:18:04.320 --> 0:18:08.760 such a great time doing this, and I really did 0:18:08.760 --> 0:18:11.320 this for me, you know. And while I'm there and 0:18:11.359 --> 0:18:15.679 I'm making my kids proud and showing them how you 0:18:15.760 --> 0:18:18.560 face your fears, Like I really did this for me 0:18:18.600 --> 0:18:20.280 this time, and I've never done anything for me my 0:18:20.320 --> 0:18:23.080 whole life. So I'm just happy to be there. As 0:18:23.119 --> 0:18:30.920 you could see, still smiling. Anyway, the show's over. Uh so, uh, 0:18:31.200 --> 0:18:33.080 I think we took you through this before, but if not, 0:18:33.680 --> 0:18:37.280 like you get about two weeks to practice a little 0:18:37.359 --> 0:18:39.040 less than two weeks because we had to go to 0:18:39.040 --> 0:18:41.040 New York and do Good Morning America and all that. 0:18:41.119 --> 0:18:43.719 So we lost a couple of days there. But like, 0:18:44.000 --> 0:18:46.240 you get a little less than two weeks to learn 0:18:46.280 --> 0:18:49.320 your first dance, so it's kind of a little bit 0:18:49.359 --> 0:18:56.879 of trickery to the brain because you're like, Okay, I 0:18:56.960 --> 0:19:00.480 learned that dance. I learned a fox trot said no 0:19:01.359 --> 0:19:05.920 time in my life ever, and I did it. Not 0:19:06.080 --> 0:19:08.840 a simple dance, not a simple dance, but I got 0:19:08.840 --> 0:19:11.560 that one out of the way. I'll miss your fox trot. 0:19:12.240 --> 0:19:17.439 Not no, I'm gonna mistrustfall like that, Like that's my anthem. 0:19:17.480 --> 0:19:19.719 And I was like it was in my head. I 0:19:19.800 --> 0:19:22.160 was dancing to it for two weeks straight and now 0:19:22.160 --> 0:19:23.800 all of a sudden, it's like, oh, and move on 0:19:23.880 --> 0:19:29.639 to the next song. It's like, oh, I trustful, but 0:19:30.000 --> 0:19:35.520 uh yeah. So after the live first show, you know, 0:19:35.600 --> 0:19:39.680 there's no like leading up to the premiere episode. It's 0:19:39.720 --> 0:19:44.960 every week now. So Tuesday, the twenty fourth, we'll be 0:19:45.040 --> 0:19:49.119 back out there dancing. So you really get five days 0:19:49.240 --> 0:19:51.600 after the premiere show. I don't think anyone tells you 0:19:51.640 --> 0:19:55.080 that that, or I didn't realize that, or I didn't 0:19:55.080 --> 0:19:57.680 even think about that. You get five days to learn 0:19:57.720 --> 0:20:05.280 a brand new dance. You're I already mentally, physically, emotionally exhausted, 0:20:05.960 --> 0:20:09.399 so it's such a high. After the first show, like 0:20:10.200 --> 0:20:12.280 I came home and I was just like, oh, this 0:20:12.320 --> 0:20:15.520 is amazing. Though I was like, oh, shoot, okay, yeah, 0:20:16.640 --> 0:20:18.760 back to the grind. I gotta go to bed, you know, 0:20:19.640 --> 0:20:21.440 kids got to get up in the morning for school, 0:20:21.800 --> 0:20:24.680 you know, drop offs, and then back to the dance 0:20:24.720 --> 0:20:29.760 studio and start learning the rumba. That's right, I'm doing 0:20:29.800 --> 0:20:34.880 the rumba for week two, you guys. Oh, and Pasha 0:20:34.960 --> 0:20:40.320 said my strengths or I am really have beautiful hands 0:20:40.440 --> 0:20:45.040 and arms, and I tell him that he must be mistaken. 0:20:45.200 --> 0:20:47.800 It must be that it's just my nails. My superpower 0:20:47.880 --> 0:20:50.080 must be just my nails. But I guess I do 0:20:50.119 --> 0:20:54.399 have graceful hands. So he's like, yeah, you know, your posture, 0:20:55.040 --> 0:20:58.840 your arms, your upper body, that's your strength. So we 0:20:58.960 --> 0:21:04.000 really want to use that, which I've said, like is 0:21:04.000 --> 0:21:05.879 so crazy to me because my whole life I had 0:21:05.920 --> 0:21:10.119 bad posture and like always didn't sit up straight. Always 0:21:10.119 --> 0:21:13.239 thought in pictures like it was like sticking down. And 0:21:13.240 --> 0:21:17.160 I'm like, oh, good posture. I have like a dancers 0:21:17.280 --> 0:21:23.400 like dance stance. I don't know anyway. So the very 0:21:23.400 --> 0:21:26.440 next day, after the live show, back in the studio, 0:21:27.400 --> 0:21:33.879 so tired, so tired, I couldn't even see straight. I 0:21:33.960 --> 0:21:37.000 dropped the kids off at school that morning, still make 0:21:37.040 --> 0:21:41.480 them and hair on, and it's like dance makeup. So 0:21:41.600 --> 0:21:45.000 it's like it's I love it. I'm like sow into 0:21:45.040 --> 0:21:46.600 the makeup and hair and war job. But oh I 0:21:46.640 --> 0:21:50.760 couldn't be happier. But you know, they got to make 0:21:50.760 --> 0:21:53.600 it stay on you because you're sweating. You're sweating head 0:21:53.640 --> 0:21:58.159 to toe, and you know you're wearing a lot of glitter, 0:21:58.240 --> 0:22:00.119 a lot of makeup, more makeup than the usual. Well 0:22:00.160 --> 0:22:01.639 it's not just like you know, a night out in 0:22:01.640 --> 0:22:05.240 the town, not just like a red carpet event, not 0:22:05.359 --> 0:22:07.880 just like doing a TV show, Like it's a lot. 0:22:08.160 --> 0:22:11.119 It's even more makeup and the lashes, and it's just 0:22:12.320 --> 0:22:17.760 ten times. I loved it, but I want to sleep. 0:22:17.760 --> 0:22:19.920 That night, so tired that I was like, I can't 0:22:19.920 --> 0:22:23.359 even take my makeup off. I didn't undo my hair. 0:22:23.920 --> 0:22:28.919 My hair rocked. Oh god, that hair. I just literally 0:22:29.000 --> 0:22:32.320 took my clothes off and went to bed. I didn't 0:22:32.320 --> 0:22:34.000 even know if I took my clothes off. You guys, 0:22:34.040 --> 0:22:37.600 that might have been a lie. I think I still 0:22:37.680 --> 0:22:40.240 did bed in my dance tights, my dance fish nets. 0:22:40.320 --> 0:22:44.439 I just I crashed. And then the next morning alarm 0:22:44.440 --> 0:22:47.840 went off six three in the morning. I was like, oh, 0:22:48.080 --> 0:22:54.800 oh yeah. So I I literally was making Bow's lunch 0:22:55.040 --> 0:22:57.399 and like putting everything together. I had my sweats on 0:22:58.000 --> 0:23:00.320 and still in makeup and hair from the night before, 0:23:00.440 --> 0:23:01.960 and I was putting. I was like, okay, you guys, 0:23:02.040 --> 0:23:03.560 we gotta go. We gotta get in the car. We're 0:23:03.560 --> 0:23:08.399 gonna be late for school. And Stella goes, Mom, I 0:23:08.400 --> 0:23:12.399 think you need to make a boipe and I was like, why, no, no, no, 0:23:12.400 --> 0:23:14.280 I'm fine. She goes mom, it looks like you have 0:23:14.280 --> 0:23:16.040 two black eyes, like you've been punched in the eye. 0:23:16.320 --> 0:23:18.800 And I was like huh. And I hadn't even looked 0:23:18.840 --> 0:23:21.120 in the mirror. And I looked in a mirror and 0:23:21.280 --> 0:23:23.080 I was like, oh my god, and all my mess 0:23:23.119 --> 0:23:26.800 care was like under my eye. And I was like, oh, well, 0:23:27.080 --> 0:23:30.440 the life of a dance mom. Okay. So she brought 0:23:30.440 --> 0:23:33.119 me a makeup b woipe. I wiped right under my 0:23:33.160 --> 0:23:37.240 eyes and I was like, let's do it. So I'm 0:23:37.280 --> 0:23:43.000 sure in the drop off line I looked like I 0:23:43.000 --> 0:23:45.239 don't know, I don't know. People were probably like, what 0:23:45.440 --> 0:23:48.639 is that Like, I looked like doing the Walk of 0:23:48.680 --> 0:23:52.520 Shame night before or something. But I was dropping off 0:23:52.600 --> 0:23:57.679 five kids at schools, you know. But to anyone that 0:23:57.960 --> 0:24:03.280 drop off line mom out there, they were probably like, wow, 0:24:03.760 --> 0:24:06.160 if they watched Dancing with the Stars and a lot 0:24:06.160 --> 0:24:09.080 of people did you guys got it got huge ratings, 0:24:09.080 --> 0:24:13.160 which I'm so happy about, they were probably like, oh, 0:24:13.160 --> 0:24:15.840 that's commendable. We just saw her dancing a little heart 0:24:15.880 --> 0:24:17.480 out last night, and here she is in the drop 0:24:17.520 --> 0:24:25.840 offline the next morning, and I'm like, yep, anyway, sorry, 0:24:25.840 --> 0:24:29.240 I tooted my own horn there. I was impressed with myself, 0:24:29.320 --> 0:24:33.119 let's just say that. So anyway, clean myself up. After 0:24:33.280 --> 0:24:37.159 drop offs, went to rehearsal and I was just like, Okay, 0:24:37.320 --> 0:24:39.800 let's go. We're gonna do We're gonna learn the rumba. 0:24:40.560 --> 0:24:43.240 And he told me that I would be good at 0:24:43.240 --> 0:24:47.399 the rumba. Well, did he tell me that he eluded 0:24:47.960 --> 0:24:50.920 that this dance was made for me because it has 0:24:51.000 --> 0:24:57.760 a lot of like hand movements, and yeah, so or 0:24:57.800 --> 0:25:03.040 maybe I assume that, but anyway to learn the room. 0:25:03.080 --> 0:25:07.119 But I had to learn some things that he started 0:25:07.160 --> 0:25:11.959 teaching me that I can only liken to. He had 0:25:11.960 --> 0:25:15.280 to hold my hand and I was doing movements. It 0:25:15.320 --> 0:25:17.520