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Speaker 1: Nicky Glazer podcast. I heard a little bit of that.

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Speaker 1: That was the first Year's Nikki where I heard a

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Speaker 1: little bit of a I don't know, I guess a

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Speaker 1: tiredness in your voice. A maybe, um, the first time

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Speaker 1: you've talked this morning. I haven't drink any water, Like

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Speaker 1: haven't had some water. As you say it, Oh, there

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Speaker 1: you go, there's analogene. God, you're still still supporting analogene.

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Speaker 1: Noges came out in like two thousand two. I feel

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Speaker 1: like when I was graduating high school, analgeanes were like

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Speaker 1: so cool. And I think my one of my first

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Speaker 1: comedy bits from when I um uh did stand up

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Speaker 1: for the first time was like people always talked about

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Speaker 1: nonlogies like you could drop them from space and they

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Speaker 1: won't crack, they won't destroy. And I did a bit

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Speaker 1: about like who is dropping them so far? Like I'm

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Speaker 1: just dropping them on the way the class, Like I

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Speaker 1: don't need this guarantee of like as you're looking at

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Speaker 1: drop your analogene onto what is the towers. Actually, I

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Speaker 1: just found out that that is not a true thing. Um,

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Speaker 1: that you can see the Great Wall of China from space.

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Speaker 1: I found that out on Reddit. Did you know that's

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Speaker 1: that's a myth. I didn't even realize it was. You

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Speaker 1: thing that I just put out into your head, erase it.

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Speaker 1: You cannot see the Great Wall of China from space.

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Speaker 1: You've never heard that before. That like anecdote. I don't think.

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Speaker 1: I don't think we'll get with it, Noah, Jesus. Um, Well,

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Speaker 1: I mean I know you you're back in two thousand two.

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Speaker 1: I mean, that's really impressive to me that you kept

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Speaker 1: analgene every time I get a water bottle, so that

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Speaker 1: It's not good enough. I lose it. Um. This whole

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Speaker 1: times with you. It's like the oldest thing you own?

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Speaker 1: Do you like? Do you You don't lose things that often?

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Speaker 1: Are you messy? Wait? You told me you are messy.

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Speaker 1: You said you are messy, but you know where everything is.

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Speaker 1: I'm an organized chaos. That's what I call myself. Okay,

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Speaker 1: I like that. I lose jewelry all the time, so

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Speaker 1: lost so many valuable things. I mean, I lost those

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Speaker 1: my problem with the book. People go. The book worked

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Speaker 1: was like, come on, we could do and I talked

425
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Speaker 1: her into it's a chicken salad. It's four am to

426
00:22:01,880 --> 00:22:06,080
Speaker 1: I mean to four am food, Like, of course salad.

427
00:22:06,359 --> 00:22:09,480
Speaker 1: It's there's no four am food, Brenda, come on, come on,

428
00:22:09,560 --> 00:22:13,240
Speaker 1: brend come on. So you had a chicken salad sandwich

429
00:22:13,880 --> 00:22:15,639
Speaker 1: made that at four am, and that's maybe why you

430
00:22:15,640 --> 00:22:17,240
Speaker 1: didn't sleep well the rest of the night. No, no,

431
00:22:17,359 --> 00:22:19,520
Speaker 1: and then I slept great afterwards. It was just nice

432
00:22:19,520 --> 00:22:21,159
Speaker 1: to are you getting depressed in the middle of the

433
00:22:21,240 --> 00:22:24,160
Speaker 1: night at four am? I my brain is a thing.

434
00:22:24,600 --> 00:22:27,560
Speaker 1: Maybe it wears out. Maybe that's the one hour that

435
00:22:27,640 --> 00:22:30,479
Speaker 1: it's not there. I don't know, and you wake up

436
00:22:30,520 --> 00:22:33,000
Speaker 1: with anxiety like what are you thinking about it? Four um?

437
00:22:33,040 --> 00:22:35,600
Speaker 1: If you don't mind me asking that because I've woken

438
00:22:35,680 --> 00:22:36,959
Speaker 1: up in the middle of the night before and I

439
00:22:37,040 --> 00:22:40,320
Speaker 1: just go maybe I'm a little agitated because I'm like, oh,

440
00:22:40,320 --> 00:22:41,800
Speaker 1: I have to be up so soon and I don't

441
00:22:41,800 --> 00:22:43,679
Speaker 1: want to get up yet, that kind of thing. But

442
00:22:43,760 --> 00:22:46,440
Speaker 1: it's not like I'm not like sad, or I'm not

443
00:22:46,520 --> 00:22:50,720
Speaker 1: like lonely or like, oh, life is worse right now

444
00:22:50,760 --> 00:22:53,840
Speaker 1: than it ever is. Honestly, I feel better in the

445
00:22:53,880 --> 00:22:56,240
Speaker 1: middle of the night because I'm like everyone's asleep, no

446
00:22:56,280 --> 00:22:58,879
Speaker 1: one's sending me emails, no one's expecting anything from me.

447
00:22:58,960 --> 00:23:01,959
Speaker 1: It actually feels like best time to be awake sometimes.

448
00:23:01,960 --> 00:23:04,600
Speaker 1: So I'm just wondering what the feeling is that you have. Well,

449
00:23:04,640 --> 00:23:06,440
Speaker 1: I think in the past I shouldn't be asking you

450
00:23:06,440 --> 00:23:08,840
Speaker 1: your feelings. Um, I mean, tell me what you think

451
00:23:08,880 --> 00:23:10,520
Speaker 1: in the middle of the night. I feel like I

452
00:23:10,560 --> 00:23:12,040
Speaker 1: want to hear what you think in the middle of

453
00:23:12,080 --> 00:23:14,400
Speaker 1: the night. I'm trying to do the book on you. Okay, Well,

454
00:23:14,440 --> 00:23:17,080
Speaker 1: my feelings are um no, no, no, no, no, What

455
00:23:17,119 --> 00:23:19,640
Speaker 1: do you think about in the never mind? Just tell

456
00:23:19,680 --> 00:23:23,800
Speaker 1: me what I'll be masking and energy to you. What hey, babe,

457
00:23:23,880 --> 00:23:25,480
Speaker 1: what do you feel in the middle of the night.

458
00:23:26,240 --> 00:23:28,840
Speaker 1: Tell I think that you should tell me what you feel.

459
00:23:29,200 --> 00:23:34,080
Speaker 1: I don't know if you could handle it. What I

460
00:23:34,080 --> 00:23:36,440
Speaker 1: think I probably can't get. But Andrew, how do you feel?

461
00:23:36,520 --> 00:23:38,320
Speaker 1: What do you know what it is? Because I think

462
00:23:38,320 --> 00:23:40,960
Speaker 1: a lot. I think I might have a PTSD from

463
00:23:41,720 --> 00:23:43,679
Speaker 1: I used to have. Whenever I would have panic attacks,

464
00:23:43,680 --> 00:23:44,840
Speaker 1: it would be in the middle of the night. It

465
00:23:44,840 --> 00:23:47,840
Speaker 1: would be at like two am, and I think maybe

466
00:23:47,840 --> 00:23:50,640
Speaker 1: when my brain wakes up, I think, oh, ship, here

467
00:23:50,680 --> 00:23:53,639
Speaker 1: comes maybe some kind of panic attack where I would

468
00:23:53,640 --> 00:23:57,320
Speaker 1: be in my hallways stretching, doing calisthetics to try to

469
00:23:57,320 --> 00:24:00,320
Speaker 1: get the panic away, and like in your all way

470
00:24:00,400 --> 00:24:03,720
Speaker 1: where my apartment in New York. I used to like

471
00:24:04,440 --> 00:24:06,639
Speaker 1: I couldn't control myself, and I thought I literally was

472
00:24:06,640 --> 00:24:09,280
Speaker 1: going to blow up, like my brain was going to

473
00:24:09,359 --> 00:24:11,760
Speaker 1: blow up, essentially, probably have a stroke or something or

474
00:24:11,800 --> 00:24:14,600
Speaker 1: a seizure, like you thought you're like because all the

475
00:24:14,840 --> 00:24:16,960
Speaker 1: there was so much pressure in your hair, and I

476
00:24:16,960 --> 00:24:19,199
Speaker 1: would try, why wouldn't you take like an eccentrian or

477
00:24:19,200 --> 00:24:21,840
Speaker 1: something like My thought would be. And I'm speaking as

478
00:24:21,840 --> 00:24:24,000
Speaker 1: someone who's never had a panic attack, so I don't

479
00:24:24,040 --> 00:24:26,240
Speaker 1: get it. And I know people toss that word around

480
00:24:26,240 --> 00:24:28,399
Speaker 1: a lot or those words being like and I like

481
00:24:28,440 --> 00:24:30,439
Speaker 1: almost a panic attack. It's like, no, you were just

482
00:24:30,480 --> 00:24:33,880
Speaker 1: a little upset, yeah, because you were late for your flight.

483
00:24:33,960 --> 00:24:36,080
Speaker 1: But it's a panic attack. You honestly feel like you're

484
00:24:36,080 --> 00:24:38,840
Speaker 1: about to your skin is gonna like rupture and your

485
00:24:38,840 --> 00:24:42,639
Speaker 1: brain's gonna explode. Yeah yeah, and you know sometimes it

486
00:24:42,680 --> 00:24:44,920
Speaker 1: will be caused by heartburn, which I would then lead

487
00:24:44,920 --> 00:24:46,320
Speaker 1: to a heart attack. And then you go, well, why

488
00:24:46,359 --> 00:24:48,600
Speaker 1: don't you just take exam tack. It's like, because my

489
00:24:48,680 --> 00:24:52,960
Speaker 1: brain isn't there to go, oh, I'll just take this

490
00:24:53,000 --> 00:24:55,359
Speaker 1: pill and be fine. And once I calmed down a

491
00:24:55,400 --> 00:24:58,639
Speaker 1: little and I take the pill, like you know, but

492
00:24:59,400 --> 00:25:02,440
Speaker 1: the moment for like thirty minutes. And I know, people,

493
00:25:02,880 --> 00:25:07,040
Speaker 1: you did not learn to take care of yourself as

494
00:25:06,880 --> 00:25:11,480
Speaker 1: a as a child, and um, you you're not through

495
00:25:11,520 --> 00:25:14,120
Speaker 1: any fault. They are good parents. You have lovely parents

496
00:25:14,160 --> 00:25:16,960
Speaker 1: who I love so much, but they did not teach

497
00:25:17,000 --> 00:25:20,000
Speaker 1: you how to take care of yourself. And like, oh,

498
00:25:20,000 --> 00:25:22,880
Speaker 1: when you have this, let's do this, like have tools

499
00:25:23,000 --> 00:25:25,520
Speaker 1: for when things, you know, the basic tools because you

500
00:25:25,560 --> 00:25:27,679
Speaker 1: get older and you learn, Oh, when I'm doing this,

501
00:25:27,720 --> 00:25:30,280
Speaker 1: maybe I said, sit down in journal, Maybe I should

502
00:25:30,280 --> 00:25:33,040
Speaker 1: call a friend, but like even tools like take an

503
00:25:33,080 --> 00:25:35,960
Speaker 1: ecceteran or you know, you'll sometimes come to me and

504
00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:39,600
Speaker 1: be like night quill like helps you sleep, I'm like you,

505
00:25:41,280 --> 00:25:43,199
Speaker 1: or you'll be like, you know what really helped was

506
00:25:43,280 --> 00:25:47,639
Speaker 1: like sitting down and breathing in and out deeply or

507
00:25:47,640 --> 00:25:49,639
Speaker 1: so you know, like, there's this new app actually that

508
00:25:49,680 --> 00:25:52,720
Speaker 1: I think you would love andrew It just popped up

509
00:25:52,720 --> 00:25:55,680
Speaker 1: on my phone. It's called chicken salad at four am

510
00:25:55,720 --> 00:25:59,080
Speaker 1: and what it finds the nearest place open that will

511
00:25:59,119 --> 00:26:02,920
Speaker 1: deliver chicken seal it's sandwich. And then it says, you idiot,

512
00:26:03,359 --> 00:26:07,919
Speaker 1: it's four um, go to sleep, um and uh, no

513
00:26:07,960 --> 00:26:09,320
Speaker 1: one wants to eat chicken sell it at four you.

514
00:26:09,600 --> 00:26:12,600
Speaker 1: I'll tell you what. One of the cutest things you

515
00:26:12,600 --> 00:26:14,880
Speaker 1: can do with the partners eat in the dark with

516
00:26:14,920 --> 00:26:21,200
Speaker 1: each other in bed. I will never do that because, um.

517
00:26:21,440 --> 00:26:24,280
Speaker 1: Part of my eating disorder recovery is that I don't

518
00:26:24,320 --> 00:26:28,200
Speaker 1: eat in bed ever again. And it was really hard

519
00:26:28,240 --> 00:26:30,800
Speaker 1: for me to pick that because when you would recover

520
00:26:30,880 --> 00:26:33,840
Speaker 1: from ans or you have to focus on because it's

521
00:26:33,840 --> 00:26:35,640
Speaker 1: not like cut and dry, like oh, stop drinking, I'll

522
00:26:35,640 --> 00:26:40,440
Speaker 1: stop smoking weed. It's what behave, what food behaviors lead

523
00:26:40,520 --> 00:26:44,200
Speaker 1: you to feel terrible about yourself, and even if they're

524
00:26:44,240 --> 00:26:50,040
Speaker 1: like innocent at first, and what foods maybe trigger binges? What? Um?

525
00:26:50,119 --> 00:26:53,160
Speaker 1: So for me, I don't starve myself anymore to look thin,

526
00:26:53,480 --> 00:26:57,119
Speaker 1: Like sometimes I don't eat all right, I'm not hungry

527
00:26:57,880 --> 00:26:59,680
Speaker 1: and I have to go. Am I not hungry because

528
00:26:59,680 --> 00:27:01,400
Speaker 1: I'm not greener? Am I not hungry because I'm trying

529
00:27:01,440 --> 00:27:04,560
Speaker 1: to control something and trying to like look thinner or

530
00:27:04,640 --> 00:27:07,560
Speaker 1: feel thinner? And honestly, I don't even have to ask

531
00:27:07,560 --> 00:27:10,240
Speaker 1: myself that anymore because I don't do that. Ever. I

532
00:27:10,680 --> 00:27:15,199
Speaker 1: was like, I gained probably like five to seven pounds

533
00:27:15,240 --> 00:27:17,199
Speaker 1: the other day, which on my frame shows up and

534
00:27:17,359 --> 00:27:19,600
Speaker 1: makes all my clothes tight because all my clothes are

535
00:27:19,600 --> 00:27:22,840
Speaker 1: tight anyway, and it is uncomfortable. But it was nice

536
00:27:22,880 --> 00:27:25,400
Speaker 1: because the other day I was just like, and if

537
00:27:25,400 --> 00:27:27,440
Speaker 1: you relate to this, even if you're like, fuck you bitch,

538
00:27:27,480 --> 00:27:30,639
Speaker 1: seven pounds, I have to lose sixty or whatever. I

539
00:27:32,119 --> 00:27:33,880
Speaker 1: get that too. I don't get it, but I get

540
00:27:33,880 --> 00:27:35,320
Speaker 1: I get it in a way. And I'm not trying

541
00:27:35,359 --> 00:27:37,960
Speaker 1: to um act like woe is me because of seven pounds.

542
00:27:37,960 --> 00:27:40,560
Speaker 1: But I just want to say that for skinny bitches

543
00:27:40,600 --> 00:27:43,720
Speaker 1: out there and fat pitches like you know that even

544
00:27:43,800 --> 00:27:46,320
Speaker 1: a little increminum amount of weight, it doesn't matter, like

545
00:27:46,400 --> 00:27:49,680
Speaker 1: it just can like throw you into a tailspin, even

546
00:27:49,720 --> 00:27:54,200
Speaker 1: like a pound sometimes And for me, usually it would

547
00:27:54,200 --> 00:27:56,560
Speaker 1: make me starve the next day because I was I

548
00:27:56,600 --> 00:27:58,800
Speaker 1: looked pregnant, like it was really fun, Like I was

549
00:27:58,880 --> 00:28:03,320
Speaker 1: just like bloated, like just felt juicy and like voluptuous,

550
00:28:03,400 --> 00:28:05,639
Speaker 1: which is not how I ever, I usually feel like

551
00:28:05,800 --> 00:28:12,720
Speaker 1: bony and um like just lanky, and I just this

552
00:28:12,800 --> 00:28:14,520
Speaker 1: is what I did. And I want to just pass

553
00:28:14,560 --> 00:28:16,639
Speaker 1: this on to any people out there who might be

554
00:28:16,640 --> 00:28:18,840
Speaker 1: having like a fat day. And maybe you're like, I'm

555
00:28:18,840 --> 00:28:22,600
Speaker 1: fat every day, shut up, Nikki. Um. What helped me

556
00:28:22,840 --> 00:28:24,919
Speaker 1: was just but I think this can help you as well.

557
00:28:25,080 --> 00:28:28,000
Speaker 1: And first of all, you look great, fat person. And

558
00:28:28,040 --> 00:28:29,520
Speaker 1: by the way, I've been sitting next to so many

559
00:28:29,720 --> 00:28:32,200
Speaker 1: fat people on flights. I honestly think that every time,

560
00:28:32,800 --> 00:28:35,200
Speaker 1: because I've said before, please, if you're fat, sit next

561
00:28:35,200 --> 00:28:36,560
Speaker 1: to me on a flight, because I will never make

562
00:28:36,600 --> 00:28:38,400
Speaker 1: you feel bad. I will never I'll never make a

563
00:28:38,400 --> 00:28:41,400
Speaker 1: fat person feel feel bad on purpose ever, ever, And

564
00:28:41,440 --> 00:28:43,920
Speaker 1: that's I know that sounds like, oh what thank you

565
00:28:43,960 --> 00:28:46,080
Speaker 1: for doing us as a favor. But people are so

566
00:28:46,200 --> 00:28:48,160
Speaker 1: rude to fat people. If you haven't heard me like

567
00:28:48,200 --> 00:28:51,000
Speaker 1: going to tie rate against it, read Lyndy West's book

568
00:28:51,640 --> 00:28:56,320
Speaker 1: Um Shrill, or read Rock sand Gay's book Hunger, and

569
00:28:56,360 --> 00:28:58,840
Speaker 1: you'll understand the fat experience. But what I was gonna

570
00:28:58,840 --> 00:29:03,960
Speaker 1: say is that I I just said, I looked in

571
00:29:04,040 --> 00:29:06,680
Speaker 1: the mirror and I saw a body that I didn't

572
00:29:06,760 --> 00:29:09,880
Speaker 1: really recognize, and I was just like, yes, like I did.

573
00:29:09,920 --> 00:29:12,840
Speaker 1: I wasn't like, oh I love myself because I wasn't

574
00:29:12,880 --> 00:29:14,520
Speaker 1: feeling that way, like I didn't like what I saw

575
00:29:14,800 --> 00:29:17,520
Speaker 1: and be honest, but I was just like, this is today,

576
00:29:18,120 --> 00:29:20,760
Speaker 1: It's not forever. It doesn't mean that this is just

577
00:29:20,800 --> 00:29:24,120
Speaker 1: a slippery slope into like you know, for people who

578
00:29:24,160 --> 00:29:26,400
Speaker 1: are interrectic, you think you're gained one pound and you

579
00:29:26,480 --> 00:29:29,040
Speaker 1: just think it's like then throw in the towel. You're

580
00:29:29,080 --> 00:29:32,000
Speaker 1: I'm I'm obese tomorrow. Not that being this is a

581
00:29:32,040 --> 00:29:34,920
Speaker 1: bad thing, but you just that you fear that like

582
00:29:34,960 --> 00:29:38,280
Speaker 1: I'm just gonna lose control. And so then, but for

583
00:29:38,320 --> 00:29:41,280
Speaker 1: some reason, I was just like I'm like on my period,

584
00:29:41,320 --> 00:29:43,719
Speaker 1: I'm like right before my period, my body kind of

585
00:29:43,720 --> 00:29:47,920
Speaker 1: expands I've been eating more because I've been, uh dealing

586
00:29:48,000 --> 00:29:51,080
Speaker 1: with stress and food helps me cope, so sometimes they

587
00:29:51,120 --> 00:29:53,440
Speaker 1: eat a little bit more. My body also probably needs

588
00:29:53,440 --> 00:29:55,160
Speaker 1: more food because I'm about to shed a ton of

589
00:29:55,160 --> 00:29:58,680
Speaker 1: blood and vaginal lining, so it's preparing for that. It

590
00:29:58,720 --> 00:30:00,640
Speaker 1: thinks I'm ready to have a get ready to have

591
00:30:00,680 --> 00:30:02,640
Speaker 1: a baby because I'm about to ovulate, so my body

592
00:30:02,720 --> 00:30:04,840
Speaker 1: is holding up. Like I just talked to myself through

593
00:30:04,880 --> 00:30:07,600
Speaker 1: it and was like, this makes sense, even if it

594
00:30:07,680 --> 00:30:10,840
Speaker 1: was because I binged or was such a lazy ass

595
00:30:10,880 --> 00:30:13,160
Speaker 1: I didn't work out for whatever. I don't work out anymore.

596
00:30:13,160 --> 00:30:15,760
Speaker 1: But let's say your scenario was like, no, Nikki, I'm

597
00:30:15,760 --> 00:30:18,840
Speaker 1: fat because I fucking binged on all these cookies because

598
00:30:18,840 --> 00:30:21,160
Speaker 1: I'm a fat piece of ship and I'm lazy and

599
00:30:21,200 --> 00:30:22,840
Speaker 1: I don't work out. My friend asked me to go

600
00:30:22,880 --> 00:30:24,200
Speaker 1: on a hike, but I said no because I wanted

601
00:30:24,240 --> 00:30:27,719
Speaker 1: to sit on the couch and watch reruns of you know,

602
00:30:27,920 --> 00:30:31,200
Speaker 1: the Office and stuff my face and I was discussing, bitch,

603
00:30:31,280 --> 00:30:33,800
Speaker 1: you needed that, you needed to do that, you were

604
00:30:33,800 --> 00:30:35,440
Speaker 1: feeling things. That hike would have put you in a

605
00:30:35,480 --> 00:30:37,800
Speaker 1: worse mood because you would have gone against yourself because

606
00:30:37,840 --> 00:30:39,240
Speaker 1: you didn't want to go on a hike, you would

607
00:30:39,240 --> 00:30:41,239
Speaker 1: have gone on that hike. Yeah, maybe you would have

608
00:30:41,280 --> 00:30:43,280
Speaker 1: been snapped out of it and found some way, But

609
00:30:43,400 --> 00:30:45,920
Speaker 1: maybe that hike would have made you feel even worse,

610
00:30:46,040 --> 00:30:48,840
Speaker 1: or maybe that class that's peloton class, would have made

611
00:30:48,840 --> 00:30:53,360
Speaker 1: you feel like you should eat two things of cookies.

612
00:30:53,520 --> 00:30:56,400
Speaker 1: So just let yourself off the hook for feeling for

613
00:30:56,440 --> 00:30:58,600
Speaker 1: whatever your body is doing today, because what led to

614
00:30:58,640 --> 00:31:01,960
Speaker 1: that was your coping. Mike is ms for how rough

615
00:31:02,040 --> 00:31:05,560
Speaker 1: life is. And some people abuse peloton classes to cope

616
00:31:05,560 --> 00:31:08,360
Speaker 1: with how their life is. Some people eat tons of

617
00:31:08,400 --> 00:31:11,479
Speaker 1: cookies to cope with it um and so whatever you do,

618
00:31:11,680 --> 00:31:14,080
Speaker 1: let yourself off the hook. I smoked weed yesterday. I

619
00:31:14,160 --> 00:31:16,840
Speaker 1: didn't want to remember yesterday. I said, maybe I'm gonna

620
00:31:16,880 --> 00:31:19,480
Speaker 1: quit smoking weed. Now. Guess what I was having a

621
00:31:19,560 --> 00:31:22,040
Speaker 1: day where I go I need a little weed. I

622
00:31:22,040 --> 00:31:23,880
Speaker 1: want to get out of my head. I'm feeling anxiety.

623
00:31:23,920 --> 00:31:25,920
Speaker 1: I have to shoot a show tomorrow that I've never watched.

624
00:31:25,920 --> 00:31:28,200
Speaker 1: There's been fourteen seasons of it. I'm going onto the

625
00:31:28,200 --> 00:31:30,560
Speaker 1: show that's very beloved. I need to give these people,

626
00:31:30,880 --> 00:31:33,000
Speaker 1: you know, I'm going on as a celebrity guest judge,

627
00:31:33,240 --> 00:31:35,440
Speaker 1: I need I have to. I was feeling so much

628
00:31:35,440 --> 00:31:37,200
Speaker 1: anxiety yesterday and I was like, I need to smoke

629
00:31:37,200 --> 00:31:39,920
Speaker 1: a little weeds. So I did and um, and then

630
00:31:39,960 --> 00:31:42,640
Speaker 1: I was like, that's that. Instead of being like you idiot,

631
00:31:43,280 --> 00:31:45,680
Speaker 1: I was just like, good job, girl. You took care

632
00:31:45,720 --> 00:31:47,960
Speaker 1: of that feeling. And maybe it wasn't the best way

633
00:31:47,960 --> 00:31:49,880
Speaker 1: to take care of it, but you needed it. And

634
00:31:49,920 --> 00:31:51,560
Speaker 1: you know what it led me to do not smoke

635
00:31:51,640 --> 00:31:53,720
Speaker 1: more wheat, because if I would have compounded it and

636
00:31:53,760 --> 00:31:56,680
Speaker 1: been like you you what you smoke weed, I would

637
00:31:56,680 --> 00:31:59,120
Speaker 1: have smoked more to deal with that stress. So let's

638
00:31:59,120 --> 00:32:02,920
Speaker 1: all be nice to ourselves. Andrew. Final thing that I

639
00:32:02,920 --> 00:32:04,840
Speaker 1: want to say to you on before we get to

640
00:32:04,880 --> 00:32:08,360
Speaker 1: the news or ask you, is, um, how are you

641
00:32:08,400 --> 00:32:12,800
Speaker 1: feeling with the impending um departure of your lady? I

642
00:32:12,840 --> 00:32:15,959
Speaker 1: think a lot of the stress you or she might

643
00:32:16,000 --> 00:32:18,520
Speaker 1: be going through that's waking up at four am might

644
00:32:18,600 --> 00:32:21,280
Speaker 1: be related to a big move that she has to do,

645
00:32:22,000 --> 00:32:25,560
Speaker 1: like she might be having and the fact that she's leaving.

646
00:32:25,680 --> 00:32:28,440
Speaker 1: And that sometimes happens, like when I was recently in

647
00:32:28,440 --> 00:32:30,840
Speaker 1: a romance where we had to part ways, I could

648
00:32:30,840 --> 00:32:34,800
Speaker 1: tell that the last couple of days of it. I

649
00:32:34,840 --> 00:32:38,640
Speaker 1: was a total bitch and he was a total jackass.

650
00:32:38,760 --> 00:32:41,520
Speaker 1: And it was all because we cared about each other

651
00:32:41,600 --> 00:32:43,600
Speaker 1: so much and we're so sad to go and weren't

652
00:32:43,640 --> 00:32:46,840
Speaker 1: ready to like actually address those feelings. Do you feel

653
00:32:46,840 --> 00:32:50,960
Speaker 1: like that might be it? Um, she's uh, she's one

654
00:32:51,000 --> 00:32:54,000
Speaker 1: of those people that doesn't procrastinate. She's like getting ready

655
00:32:54,000 --> 00:32:56,800
Speaker 1: for the move a month early. And I wish she

656
00:32:57,000 --> 00:32:59,840
Speaker 1: just like did everything the day before instead of like,

657
00:33:00,360 --> 00:33:03,280
Speaker 1: because it's a constant remind constant reminder that she's leaving.

658
00:33:03,320 --> 00:33:07,080
Speaker 1: So that's sad, and also her about yeah yeah, yeah,

659
00:33:07,120 --> 00:33:09,680
Speaker 1: we're good, we're good, and she keeps selling things in

660
00:33:09,720 --> 00:33:13,280
Speaker 1: the house, so like the couch has gone her, uh,

661
00:33:13,480 --> 00:33:18,880
Speaker 1: everything just like slowly, like she's disappearing through her tangible

662
00:33:18,960 --> 00:33:21,160
Speaker 1: things in her house. And it's just funny now that

663
00:33:21,320 --> 00:33:23,200
Speaker 1: the only thing left is the bed and the chicken

664
00:33:23,200 --> 00:33:27,360
Speaker 1: salad sandwich that we ate and sweet and but it's

665
00:33:27,400 --> 00:33:30,520
Speaker 1: just like it's a slow move, which is hard. Like

666
00:33:30,760 --> 00:33:33,880
Speaker 1: I'm so used to living like a gypsy and being

667
00:33:33,880 --> 00:33:36,840
Speaker 1: like okay, I'm gone, Yes, I'm not thinking about it.

668
00:33:37,080 --> 00:33:39,440
Speaker 1: We pack an hour before we leave for the road,

669
00:33:39,520 --> 00:33:41,800
Speaker 1: Like there's no planning, because if you plan, then you

670
00:33:41,840 --> 00:33:44,440
Speaker 1: have to focus on the thing that you're dreading. Let's

671
00:33:44,480 --> 00:33:47,360
Speaker 1: just wait till the last second before we plan our set. Yeah,

672
00:33:47,560 --> 00:33:50,920
Speaker 1: so that's hard. But you know I care about her,

673
00:33:50,920 --> 00:33:53,880
Speaker 1: and like, have you talked about you guys in the future.

674
00:33:54,160 --> 00:33:58,320
Speaker 1: Is that conversation happening at all? Because I'm guessing it's not,

675
00:33:58,480 --> 00:34:00,240
Speaker 1: and that's why you're waking up at four you No,

676
00:34:00,520 --> 00:34:03,160
Speaker 1: I'm guessing you haven't talked about it. I think you're

677
00:34:03,720 --> 00:34:07,280
Speaker 1: being like a like a live medium here, But I

678
00:34:07,320 --> 00:34:11,520
Speaker 1: don't think that that's the way. I don't I really don't. Oh,

679
00:34:12,239 --> 00:34:16,720
Speaker 1: I'm saying during your period just because that one day,

680
00:34:16,880 --> 00:34:19,680
Speaker 1: I know you're you're trying, you're you're you're avoiding it.

681
00:34:19,800 --> 00:34:23,279
Speaker 1: But I don't think. I don't think I'm right. I

682
00:34:23,280 --> 00:34:25,520
Speaker 1: don't know. I mean, I don't think there's a I

683
00:34:25,520 --> 00:34:28,719
Speaker 1: think if you've talked about it, um, you would have

684
00:34:28,760 --> 00:34:32,160
Speaker 1: just said, yeah, we've talked about it, NICKI, But I'm

685
00:34:32,200 --> 00:34:34,200
Speaker 1: not deflecting it. You didn't let me get it out.

686
00:34:34,600 --> 00:34:41,440
Speaker 1: We haven't talked about You're right, I didn't let you talk.

687
00:34:41,600 --> 00:34:46,319
Speaker 1: I don't think that we we've had kind of conversations

688
00:34:46,360 --> 00:34:48,799
Speaker 1: about it, but both of us have come to the

689
00:34:48,800 --> 00:34:51,759
Speaker 1: conclusion that there's no reason to worry about the few

690
00:34:51,920 --> 00:34:55,160
Speaker 1: what the future will bring. Let's live present, Let's be

691
00:34:55,280 --> 00:34:59,120
Speaker 1: happy now. The days are now, and in the future

692
00:34:59,160 --> 00:35:01,960
Speaker 1: we'll figure it out. That's and that's great. And I

693
00:35:02,040 --> 00:35:04,799
Speaker 1: don't know, I just don't think dreading on, okay, But

694
00:35:04,920 --> 00:35:07,399
Speaker 1: when you're there and I'm traveling and I don't see

695
00:35:07,440 --> 00:35:08,920
Speaker 1: you for two and a half weeks, what are we

696
00:35:08,920 --> 00:35:14,799
Speaker 1: gonna do. It's like Brenna is a different person than

697
00:35:14,840 --> 00:35:20,520
Speaker 1: I am. She's much cooler and like just she's ages,

698
00:35:20,960 --> 00:35:24,359
Speaker 1: she's so much she's the best I I you know

699
00:35:24,400 --> 00:35:25,960
Speaker 1: how much of a fan I am and Brenna has

700
00:35:26,000 --> 00:35:28,160
Speaker 1: always have been, But in the past couple of weeks,

701
00:35:28,200 --> 00:35:30,560
Speaker 1: like it's elevated to like I want to be her

702
00:35:30,600 --> 00:35:32,080
Speaker 1: best friend and I want her in my life forever,

703
00:35:32,120 --> 00:35:34,880
Speaker 1: and I want to us to be together forever um

704
00:35:34,920 --> 00:35:38,680
Speaker 1: because I just feel so comfortable with her, and I

705
00:35:38,760 --> 00:35:40,520
Speaker 1: just feel like I have my own relationship with her

706
00:35:40,640 --> 00:35:43,719
Speaker 1: that's not even has to like can be separate from you,

707
00:35:43,760 --> 00:35:48,600
Speaker 1: which is just so special to me. And I feel like,

708
00:35:49,080 --> 00:35:52,239
Speaker 1: so I'm not talking about your experience, I'm saying from

709
00:35:52,320 --> 00:35:55,600
Speaker 1: me um or. And I'm not talking about what Brenna

710
00:35:55,680 --> 00:35:58,000
Speaker 1: might be feeling either, because I think we're so different.

711
00:35:58,040 --> 00:36:01,200
Speaker 1: But for me, I would see fell the same way

712
00:36:01,200 --> 00:36:04,080
Speaker 1: of like, let's just live in the now. But also

713
00:36:04,239 --> 00:36:08,160
Speaker 1: then why is she selling things and getting like planning

714
00:36:08,160 --> 00:36:10,239
Speaker 1: a move? What if she if she likes to just

715
00:36:10,280 --> 00:36:12,719
Speaker 1: live in the present, you know, Like for me, I

716
00:36:12,719 --> 00:36:15,719
Speaker 1: would go, I would want in conversation, mind to go,

717
00:36:15,880 --> 00:36:17,759
Speaker 1: here's the next time we'll see each other. Okay, this

718
00:36:17,840 --> 00:36:18,840
Speaker 1: is this is what this is? You know what? It

719
00:36:18,840 --> 00:36:20,560
Speaker 1: would feel good? No one, And I think you'll agree

720
00:36:20,560 --> 00:36:23,759
Speaker 1: with me. Is that if based on when I move

721
00:36:24,719 --> 00:36:27,799
Speaker 1: to wherever, if I wanted to continue seeing this person,

722
00:36:27,840 --> 00:36:29,360
Speaker 1: which I think you guys like are still going to

723
00:36:29,400 --> 00:36:31,120
Speaker 1: stay in touch. This isn't like goodbye for you're not

724
00:36:31,200 --> 00:36:33,839
Speaker 1: breaking up. It seems like even though you haven't talked

725
00:36:33,840 --> 00:36:36,320
Speaker 1: about it. Then I would just want a date on

726
00:36:36,360 --> 00:36:39,160
Speaker 1: the books when I'm going to see you next. That

727
00:36:39,320 --> 00:36:41,439
Speaker 1: isn't you're taking me to Chicago to move. I would

728
00:36:41,480 --> 00:36:43,399
Speaker 1: just like, let's look at her calendar just because then

729
00:36:43,800 --> 00:36:46,600
Speaker 1: then it's like we'll be fine, We're gonna see each

730
00:36:46,600 --> 00:36:51,120
Speaker 1: other gun and so baby makes it might help you

731
00:36:51,200 --> 00:36:54,040
Speaker 1: wake up at five am. Well, here's the thing, any

732
00:36:54,120 --> 00:36:58,920
Speaker 1: tuna salad. But here's the thing I care. I I

733
00:36:58,960 --> 00:37:01,799
Speaker 1: think I showed how much I care about her by going.

734
00:37:01,960 --> 00:37:04,360
Speaker 1: She didn't ask me to help her move to Chicago.

735
00:37:04,520 --> 00:37:07,439
Speaker 1: She didn't ask me to drive with her. Yeah, she's

736
00:37:07,480 --> 00:37:10,680
Speaker 1: really good about that. She doesn't ever like it's probably

737
00:37:10,680 --> 00:37:15,080
Speaker 1: in the but no, I know she gave I was

738
00:37:15,120 --> 00:37:16,799
Speaker 1: surprised she gave me that book in front of you.

739
00:37:17,520 --> 00:37:20,000
Speaker 1: Did that make you feel any certain way? Uh? Well,

740
00:37:20,239 --> 00:37:22,640
Speaker 1: here's the thing though, I brought up. I brought up

741
00:37:23,520 --> 00:37:26,000
Speaker 1: going with her, and so I think that showed to

742
00:37:26,040 --> 00:37:28,200
Speaker 1: her that, like and I have said, I want to

743
00:37:28,239 --> 00:37:30,320
Speaker 1: stay together, like I have voiced at Yeah, it's like

744
00:37:30,360 --> 00:37:32,200
Speaker 1: when the guy after I blew him, walked me to

745
00:37:32,200 --> 00:37:35,000
Speaker 1: the elevator holding my hand and then bowled me into

746
00:37:35,040 --> 00:37:37,440
Speaker 1: it and just like let me like I was like,

747
00:37:37,680 --> 00:37:40,360
Speaker 1: he's gonna take me there, and then he just bowled

748
00:37:40,360 --> 00:37:42,200
Speaker 1: me into the elevator and wave goodbye. So it's not

749
00:37:42,320 --> 00:37:44,359
Speaker 1: just because you're moving her there doesn't necessarily I mean,

750
00:37:44,520 --> 00:37:46,719
Speaker 1: I'm just kidding. It's a very nice thing. Am I

751
00:37:46,719 --> 00:37:48,680
Speaker 1: going to get all the way to Chicago? Probably not.

752
00:37:48,760 --> 00:37:51,200
Speaker 1: I'll probably turn around in Champagne after she blows me

753
00:37:51,239 --> 00:37:53,680
Speaker 1: on the side of the road, if that's what you're thinking.

754
00:37:54,080 --> 00:37:57,520
Speaker 1: And I just feel like you guys always feel I

755
00:37:57,600 --> 00:38:00,239
Speaker 1: always hear good things from you when you've had the talk,

756
00:38:00,280 --> 00:38:02,000
Speaker 1: when you've had a talk that you both have been

757
00:38:02,040 --> 00:38:04,799
Speaker 1: avoiding having, things seem to be very good if you

758
00:38:04,840 --> 00:38:06,760
Speaker 1: force yourself to have that. And I've heard this before

759
00:38:06,800 --> 00:38:10,200
Speaker 1: from you of we don't need to things are fine

760
00:38:10,239 --> 00:38:12,000
Speaker 1: the way they are. We don't need to have have a talk.

761
00:38:12,280 --> 00:38:13,840
Speaker 1: Yet the one time that you, guys did have a

762
00:38:13,880 --> 00:38:16,719
Speaker 1: talk and establish your relationship, the next day you were

763
00:38:16,840 --> 00:38:19,600
Speaker 1: so much more into her and not not into her,

764
00:38:19,600 --> 00:38:22,560
Speaker 1: but like you just it changed something in you. The

765
00:38:22,600 --> 00:38:25,839
Speaker 1: next day, I just saw you like loving and appreciating

766
00:38:25,840 --> 00:38:29,040
Speaker 1: her on a level that um, you weren't comfortable admitting

767
00:38:29,040 --> 00:38:30,920
Speaker 1: to yourself before. And it was because you had a

768
00:38:30,920 --> 00:38:33,200
Speaker 1: hard conversation that you were saying, I don't need to

769
00:38:33,239 --> 00:38:35,360
Speaker 1: have it. We're just flying by the seat of our pants.

770
00:38:35,640 --> 00:38:38,400
Speaker 1: It's their security and having a com the hard conversations,

771
00:38:38,440 --> 00:38:41,520
Speaker 1: but not necessarily this one. And it's obviously your own relationship.

772
00:38:41,719 --> 00:38:46,160
Speaker 1: And I'm projecting all over you. Let's get to the

773
00:38:46,280 --> 00:38:56,480
Speaker 1: early we got barly Tuesday. I know it's a tough day,

774
00:38:56,520 --> 00:38:59,439
Speaker 1: tough day Tuesday t tease, but you're having a good

775
00:38:59,480 --> 00:39:02,880
Speaker 1: time out there and you're having all the swells for sure. Alright,

776
00:39:02,920 --> 00:39:06,399
Speaker 1: first headline. This is interesting because I don't think you've

777
00:39:06,440 --> 00:39:08,759
Speaker 1: done this yet, but I can see you doing this

778
00:39:08,840 --> 00:39:12,320
Speaker 1: in the future, Nikki. Do crystals work for anxiety and depression?

779
00:39:12,719 --> 00:39:16,360
Speaker 1: Modern science says no, it's a placebo effect. Past science

780
00:39:16,360 --> 00:39:20,680
Speaker 1: says yes, how do you Okay? So science, yeah, I

781
00:39:20,719 --> 00:39:25,120
Speaker 1: don't really understand that. But uh, like Bunsen burners and

782
00:39:25,440 --> 00:39:30,080
Speaker 1: like those microscope thousands years of history before modern medicine,

783
00:39:30,080 --> 00:39:34,960
Speaker 1: and what does that mean? Like what what what studies

784
00:39:35,239 --> 00:39:39,120
Speaker 1: it were the Mayan's doing with crystals that they've document Like,

785
00:39:39,680 --> 00:39:43,640
Speaker 1: you know what, you seem like a crystal person. Thank you.

786
00:39:43,680 --> 00:39:46,759
Speaker 1: I feel like you're getting a little what didn't mean

787
00:39:46,800 --> 00:39:52,560
Speaker 1: that's a comment you can't argue with the um No.

788
00:39:52,719 --> 00:39:57,000
Speaker 1: I mean like I I you seem like someone First

789
00:39:57,000 --> 00:39:59,839
Speaker 1: of all, I believe in fucking God, So crystals God,

790
00:40:00,000 --> 00:40:04,160
Speaker 1: it's all the same, you know, Like that's I it's spiritual.

791
00:40:04,920 --> 00:40:07,600
Speaker 1: I somewe I read somewhere that someone goes, why do

792
00:40:07,600 --> 00:40:10,720
Speaker 1: you all, why do the crystals that change your life

793
00:40:10,840 --> 00:40:14,120
Speaker 1: and center you and help your blood flow and all

794
00:40:14,120 --> 00:40:16,439
Speaker 1: these things, why are they always so beautiful? Why can't

795
00:40:16,440 --> 00:40:18,640
Speaker 1: it just be a fucking rock that you shove up

796
00:40:18,680 --> 00:40:21,640
Speaker 1: your puss and it gives you and harnesses energy, you know, Like,

797
00:40:21,800 --> 00:40:26,640
Speaker 1: why is it always a beautiful shaped, smooth egg? You know?

798
00:40:26,760 --> 00:40:28,920
Speaker 1: Why can't it be like an old piece of gravel

799
00:40:29,000 --> 00:40:32,719
Speaker 1: from your you know, uncle's driveway. Remember Indiana Jones when

800
00:40:33,160 --> 00:40:36,080
Speaker 1: you know he chooses the cup of life. The cup

801
00:40:36,120 --> 00:40:39,600
Speaker 1: of life is like, there's all these shiny, beautiful cups,

802
00:40:39,640 --> 00:40:41,840
Speaker 1: and the cup that actually gives you internal life is

803
00:40:41,880 --> 00:40:44,560
Speaker 1: a piece of shaped cup and it reminds the bowl

804
00:40:44,640 --> 00:40:46,799
Speaker 1: from your apartment that you gave to a girl after

805
00:40:46,880 --> 00:40:50,440
Speaker 1: you slept with her. I've been if you're new to

806
00:40:50,480 --> 00:40:52,800
Speaker 1: the show, if you've been following us since the U updates,

807
00:40:52,840 --> 00:40:55,800
Speaker 1: Andrew once didn't have glasses in his New York apartment

808
00:40:55,800 --> 00:40:58,279
Speaker 1: and he offered a girl a bowl of water. Um,

809
00:40:58,280 --> 00:41:01,520
Speaker 1: it was hilarious. You gotta watch go watch the YouTube

810
00:41:01,560 --> 00:41:04,919
Speaker 1: clip of Judy gold On you up on and how

811
00:41:05,120 --> 00:41:07,799
Speaker 1: disgusted she was by the bowl situation. But you bring

812
00:41:07,880 --> 00:41:10,520
Speaker 1: up a good point about the past stuff. It's like

813
00:41:11,239 --> 00:41:13,440
Speaker 1: always read things and it's not just the crystals, but

814
00:41:13,480 --> 00:41:16,920
Speaker 1: they'll be like a hundred a thousand years ago they

815
00:41:17,000 --> 00:41:19,920
Speaker 1: used this. It's like they didn't have modern science. They

816
00:41:20,000 --> 00:41:23,480
Speaker 1: didn't have They also cut people in half to have

817
00:41:23,560 --> 00:41:26,879
Speaker 1: them bleed out. They would they would bleed out. Yeah, yeah,

818
00:41:27,239 --> 00:41:29,200
Speaker 1: but this is what they did back then. It's like, yeah,

819
00:41:29,320 --> 00:41:34,719
Speaker 1: they didn't have this, like comes from I believe so

820
00:41:34,840 --> 00:41:38,600
Speaker 1: much in First of all, the placebo effect is works

821
00:41:38,600 --> 00:41:41,320
Speaker 1: better than medicine a lot of times, like just your mind.

822
00:41:41,960 --> 00:41:44,720
Speaker 1: And I've said on the show before that I cured

823
00:41:45,200 --> 00:41:49,320
Speaker 1: or I like made um a cold sore go away

824
00:41:49,560 --> 00:41:53,520
Speaker 1: on my lip from meditating and from harnessing energy and

825
00:41:53,560 --> 00:41:59,120
Speaker 1: just thinking in the same way with crystals, Like yeah,

826
00:41:59,160 --> 00:42:01,359
Speaker 1: there was a jade that my friend Kursen was trying

827
00:42:01,360 --> 00:42:03,520
Speaker 1: to get me to buy to put up my pussy

828
00:42:03,640 --> 00:42:05,879
Speaker 1: that she hadn't bought but her friend did. And it's

829
00:42:05,880 --> 00:42:07,960
Speaker 1: like supposed to because I was suffering with my libido

830
00:42:08,040 --> 00:42:09,160
Speaker 1: last year, but it turns out it was just like

831
00:42:09,160 --> 00:42:11,160
Speaker 1: my hormones. It wasn't because I didn't have a rock

832
00:42:11,239 --> 00:42:16,640
Speaker 1: up my snatch um, And it's all like okay, if

833
00:42:16,640 --> 00:42:18,440
Speaker 1: I have this rock in my vagina. I'm aware that

834
00:42:18,480 --> 00:42:20,799
Speaker 1: there's a rock. I'm maybe thinking like things are happen.

835
00:42:20,800 --> 00:42:23,680
Speaker 1: It's placebo effect, and placebo effect is so powerful science

836
00:42:23,719 --> 00:42:26,880
Speaker 1: doesn't even understand it. So um, I did want to

837
00:42:26,880 --> 00:42:29,560
Speaker 1: explain though, real quick. I'll do a motor mouth for

838
00:42:29,600 --> 00:42:31,080
Speaker 1: a second, so slow this down if you want to

839
00:42:31,120 --> 00:42:33,440
Speaker 1: understand it. I got a question about how I cured

840
00:42:33,480 --> 00:42:36,480
Speaker 1: my own um cold sort with my mind. So I

841
00:42:36,520 --> 00:42:38,640
Speaker 1: was doing the show called Rosse Battle for Comedy Central.

842
00:42:38,800 --> 00:42:41,680
Speaker 1: I was getting picked up to go film an episode,

843
00:42:42,080 --> 00:42:44,760
Speaker 1: and I had three days of filming like five episodes

844
00:42:44,880 --> 00:42:47,239
Speaker 1: or six episodes, and three days I was starting a

845
00:42:47,239 --> 00:42:49,399
Speaker 1: cold sort on my lip. It was a tingling, there

846
00:42:49,440 --> 00:42:51,080
Speaker 1: was a bump. I couldn't believe it because I had

847
00:42:51,120 --> 00:42:52,520
Speaker 1: only gotten a cold sort once and it was like

848
00:42:52,560 --> 00:42:54,480
Speaker 1: ten years prior, and it was terrible. And all of

849
00:42:54,520 --> 00:42:56,760
Speaker 1: a sudden, I'm feeling a cold storre. I started googling

850
00:42:56,760 --> 00:42:58,839
Speaker 1: it and all the symptoms of this cold sort are

851
00:42:58,840 --> 00:43:01,120
Speaker 1: showing up. And now it is at the point where

852
00:43:01,239 --> 00:43:03,040
Speaker 1: the cold sore is at a point where everything I'm

853
00:43:03,080 --> 00:43:06,000
Speaker 1: reading says there's no turning back. This is going to happen.

854
00:43:06,239 --> 00:43:08,000
Speaker 1: Just accept it. It's going to blister. It's going to

855
00:43:08,120 --> 00:43:09,920
Speaker 1: do this. Here are the preventive measures. You can go

856
00:43:09,920 --> 00:43:11,239
Speaker 1: to CVS and get a patch for it, and then

857
00:43:11,280 --> 00:43:12,920
Speaker 1: you can put makeup over it. I'm about to shoot

858
00:43:12,920 --> 00:43:14,960
Speaker 1: a show and have this giant thing on my lip

859
00:43:15,000 --> 00:43:16,799
Speaker 1: that is going to blister within a couple of days.

860
00:43:16,960 --> 00:43:19,080
Speaker 1: And everything I read was there's no turning back, there's

861
00:43:19,160 --> 00:43:20,800
Speaker 1: nothing you can do. You can just treat the blister

862
00:43:20,840 --> 00:43:23,480
Speaker 1: and make it, don't pick at it. And I'm like, fuck,

863
00:43:23,600 --> 00:43:25,319
Speaker 1: you know what, I'm throwing in the towel. So I

864
00:43:25,360 --> 00:43:28,359
Speaker 1: have I have an hour before I get picked up

865
00:43:28,400 --> 00:43:31,080
Speaker 1: for my for this shoot. The car is showing up

866
00:43:31,080 --> 00:43:32,680
Speaker 1: in my place. I can either go to CVS and

867
00:43:32,680 --> 00:43:34,560
Speaker 1: get one of the patches. I can go get a breavia,

868
00:43:34,680 --> 00:43:37,440
Speaker 1: all these things. I'm past that point based on all

869
00:43:37,480 --> 00:43:39,480
Speaker 1: the things I'm reading where this thing is. I can't

870
00:43:39,480 --> 00:43:43,160
Speaker 1: stop it in his tracks. It's done, Um it's happening. Instead,

871
00:43:43,200 --> 00:43:45,400
Speaker 1: I go, you know what, I'm going to meditate because

872
00:43:45,480 --> 00:43:47,879
Speaker 1: maybe just my I know that these come on from

873
00:43:48,000 --> 00:43:51,760
Speaker 1: nerves and from anxiety. That's what triggers herpes and different

874
00:43:52,120 --> 00:43:54,799
Speaker 1: things like that. I don't have herpes vaginally, but like

875
00:43:55,520 --> 00:43:57,920
Speaker 1: cold sores are for form of herpes, and so I

876
00:43:57,960 --> 00:44:00,400
Speaker 1: was like, okay, stress, so I'll meditate. I metitat for

877
00:44:00,400 --> 00:44:02,920
Speaker 1: twenty minutes, and all I said during my meditation was

878
00:44:03,560 --> 00:44:05,840
Speaker 1: you're done. I was. I focused so much on the

879
00:44:05,840 --> 00:44:08,480
Speaker 1: cold store, the tingling, felt it all. Just really focused

880
00:44:08,480 --> 00:44:09,640
Speaker 1: on it the whole time, like like the way you

881
00:44:09,640 --> 00:44:11,839
Speaker 1: focus on your breath for meditations. And I said to it,

882
00:44:12,120 --> 00:44:14,600
Speaker 1: you're done. I got you came here to warn me

883
00:44:14,640 --> 00:44:17,560
Speaker 1: that I was nervous. I you served a purpose. I

884
00:44:17,640 --> 00:44:20,160
Speaker 1: hear you. Thank you so much, but you don't need

885
00:44:20,200 --> 00:44:22,080
Speaker 1: to keep going. I'm done with you. You're gonna go

886
00:44:22,120 --> 00:44:24,279
Speaker 1: away now, but thank you. I thanked it. I was

887
00:44:24,320 --> 00:44:26,600
Speaker 1: gentle to it, and I said no more. And I

888
00:44:26,640 --> 00:44:32,080
Speaker 1: swear to god, it went away within hours, within hours, Herbie,

889
00:44:32,320 --> 00:44:35,279
Speaker 1: herbie thing on my lip that was destined by every

890
00:44:35,280 --> 00:44:38,120
Speaker 1: account that I read online to turn into a blister,

891
00:44:38,320 --> 00:44:40,279
Speaker 1: went away. So that's what I'm talking about, was like

892
00:44:40,880 --> 00:44:42,680
Speaker 1: the power of the mind. I really did do that.

893
00:44:42,719 --> 00:44:44,439
Speaker 1: I don't think it can do. Like I'm not saying

894
00:44:44,440 --> 00:44:46,719
Speaker 1: that you can cure cancer by meditating or anything, but

895
00:44:46,920 --> 00:44:49,719
Speaker 1: I turned a cold sore back around in its tracks.

896
00:44:49,760 --> 00:44:51,080
Speaker 1: I don't know how I did it, but all I

897
00:44:51,120 --> 00:44:54,080
Speaker 1: did was think gentle thoughts. So I believe that crystals,

898
00:44:54,080 --> 00:44:56,680
Speaker 1: whatever gets you to think positively about your body and

899
00:44:56,719 --> 00:44:58,920
Speaker 1: think that something might be helping it spiritually is a

900
00:44:58,920 --> 00:45:02,120
Speaker 1: beautiful thing, and let's do it. So and crystals are beautiful.

901
00:45:03,280 --> 00:45:09,839
Speaker 1: Um next story. But yeah, I'm just skidding. Okay, shut

902
00:45:09,960 --> 00:45:14,040
Speaker 1: up your ass I should solve a crystal at my asss.

903
00:45:15,000 --> 00:45:17,960
Speaker 1: I'm gonna start just put getting the ugliest rocks on

904
00:45:18,040 --> 00:45:20,839
Speaker 1: earth and just being and just seeing what it will

905
00:45:20,880 --> 00:45:24,440
Speaker 1: happen and check in. Get you a crystal, Andrew, I'm

906
00:45:24,440 --> 00:45:26,640
Speaker 1: gonna get you a crystal. I think it might help you.

907
00:45:26,640 --> 00:45:29,080
Speaker 1: You know what it is about the crystal. The crystals

908
00:45:29,120 --> 00:45:31,480
Speaker 1: are very They're very smooth, and if you put them

909
00:45:31,480 --> 00:45:33,400
Speaker 1: in your hand, they act as like a fidget spinner,

910
00:45:33,760 --> 00:45:36,080
Speaker 1: and if you play with it, it does do something

911
00:45:36,160 --> 00:45:42,480
Speaker 1: there as well. What I was like, how you call

912
00:45:42,520 --> 00:45:45,359
Speaker 1: it a fidget spinner? Where that's like modern? And then

913
00:45:45,400 --> 00:45:51,400
Speaker 1: the rock the crystal is like, yeah, yeah, the fidget spinners,

914
00:45:51,480 --> 00:45:57,879
Speaker 1: the modern crystal. Yeah, geologists no longer go just say

915
00:45:57,880 --> 00:46:04,239
Speaker 1: go by uh earth made fidget spinners. All right, you're

916
00:46:04,239 --> 00:46:06,919
Speaker 1: gonna love this next davery nick, I'll tell you what.

917
00:46:07,440 --> 00:46:11,759
Speaker 1: HBO Melick dropped the trailer. We were all over the

918
00:46:11,800 --> 00:46:16,200
Speaker 1: news yesterday News. Can I play it? Can we play

919
00:46:16,200 --> 00:46:19,160
Speaker 1: a clip from the trailer? Yes? From just play at

920
00:46:19,160 --> 00:46:24,200
Speaker 1: the very end? Noah, Yeah. F Boy Island coming out July. Y'all.

921
00:46:24,280 --> 00:46:27,279
Speaker 1: The trailer came out yesterday. It's on my Instagram. During

922
00:46:27,320 --> 00:46:29,319
Speaker 1: the show yesterday in New York Post, you were like,

923
00:46:29,400 --> 00:46:32,280
Speaker 1: the second line like host Nikki and then the last

924
00:46:32,280 --> 00:46:36,719
Speaker 1: line is producer Nicky Glazer. Motherfucker. Yes. And I didn't

925
00:46:36,760 --> 00:46:39,759
Speaker 1: see any of these. I was getting Google ers from

926
00:46:39,760 --> 00:46:41,800
Speaker 1: my name all day yesterday and it was all F

927
00:46:41,960 --> 00:46:44,640
Speaker 1: Boy stuff. People are fucking stoked, you know, as someone

928
00:46:44,680 --> 00:46:46,680
Speaker 1: who watched the show get made and knows what happens

929
00:46:46,680 --> 00:46:49,920
Speaker 1: and everything. I can't look at it objectively, I know,

930
00:46:50,120 --> 00:46:52,200
Speaker 1: like I know I'm excited about the show, But just

931
00:46:52,320 --> 00:46:55,400
Speaker 1: the response yesterday and how so many of my like

932
00:46:55,400 --> 00:46:58,160
Speaker 1: when I posted it, all the comments of that people

933
00:46:58,160 --> 00:47:02,120
Speaker 1: are excited about it on on my Instagram from like

934
00:47:02,320 --> 00:47:05,040
Speaker 1: my friends who I know like good reality. It was

935
00:47:05,080 --> 00:47:07,640
Speaker 1: just so nice to see, like everyone who has good

936
00:47:07,640 --> 00:47:09,759
Speaker 1: taste in reality is like stoked for the show, and

937
00:47:09,760 --> 00:47:11,920
Speaker 1: you should be It's gonna be so good. Okay, listen

938
00:47:12,000 --> 00:47:14,680
Speaker 1: to this clip. I was listening to my ex boyfriend's

939
00:47:14,760 --> 00:47:16,920
Speaker 1: radio show today and they were doing like their Hollywood

940
00:47:16,920 --> 00:47:19,000
Speaker 1: Minute and even they talked about it and they played

941
00:47:19,000 --> 00:47:20,640
Speaker 1: this clip and I was so excited to see them

942
00:47:20,719 --> 00:47:22,759
Speaker 1: um play. So you could start at about like two

943
00:47:22,800 --> 00:47:25,480
Speaker 1: minutes no, or like I would say, like two fifteen.

944
00:47:25,719 --> 00:47:28,759
Speaker 1: I read some comments and obviously you know it's it's

945
00:47:28,800 --> 00:47:32,719
Speaker 1: a very It's already polarizing, which is great for a

946
00:47:32,800 --> 00:47:36,440
Speaker 1: reality TV. You want people to be like, I don't understand,

947
00:47:37,000 --> 00:47:38,799
Speaker 1: and then you want people to be like, here's the clip.

948
00:47:39,080 --> 00:47:47,280
Speaker 1: It was great. Yeah, are you crying? Are you okay?

949
00:47:44,360 --> 00:47:54,400
Speaker 1: This is the game, but we're not a game. And

950
00:47:54,400 --> 00:47:56,280
Speaker 1: then there's a little feel free to take your shirts

951
00:47:56,280 --> 00:47:57,880
Speaker 1: off at any time. You guys, just want you to

952
00:47:57,880 --> 00:48:02,799
Speaker 1: be comfortable and for me to be comfortable that that

953
00:48:03,000 --> 00:48:06,799
Speaker 1: was your Oscar, that scene where that little clip is from, Yeah,

954
00:48:06,880 --> 00:48:11,400
Speaker 1: you think that was your I mean you were incredible

955
00:48:11,600 --> 00:48:14,400
Speaker 1: that day, and I mean it was really like unbelievable

956
00:48:14,480 --> 00:48:18,920
Speaker 1: to watch, and you brought humor and reality and you

957
00:48:19,000 --> 00:48:23,080
Speaker 1: listen to these guys and you made it humans. You

958
00:48:23,120 --> 00:48:25,439
Speaker 1: made it human and it was like, really, that would

959
00:48:25,440 --> 00:48:28,160
Speaker 1: be a very special day for me because yeah, after

960
00:48:28,200 --> 00:48:30,239
Speaker 1: I got done with that, I felt really so when

961
00:48:30,239 --> 00:48:32,040
Speaker 1: I was shooting the scene that you see where I

962
00:48:32,040 --> 00:48:34,200
Speaker 1: say that the comfort take your shirts off, it will

963
00:48:34,239 --> 00:48:37,680
Speaker 1: be more comfortable for me and you, Um, that was

964
00:48:37,719 --> 00:48:40,160
Speaker 1: a scene that was kind of we just like we're

965
00:48:40,200 --> 00:48:41,879
Speaker 1: kind of making on the fly, like is this even

966
00:48:41,880 --> 00:48:44,080
Speaker 1: gonna work? And it turned into something so special that

967
00:48:44,160 --> 00:48:48,640
Speaker 1: was both real and funny. And my ex boyfriend, you know,

968
00:48:48,680 --> 00:48:50,640
Speaker 1: we still like flirt and send each other like funny

969
00:48:50,640 --> 00:48:53,400
Speaker 1: stuff and he always says, like, the best combo of

970
00:48:53,480 --> 00:48:56,720
Speaker 1: you is when you're like hot and funny, which usually

971
00:48:56,719 --> 00:48:58,440
Speaker 1: don't work, but he's always like, my favorite combo is

972
00:48:58,440 --> 00:49:00,279
Speaker 1: hot and funny. Like this morning, I was talking to

973
00:49:00,280 --> 00:49:04,440
Speaker 1: get Starbucks and there's a street called dicks uh near me,

974
00:49:05,320 --> 00:49:07,279
Speaker 1: and I was on my way I saw the street.

975
00:49:07,280 --> 00:49:11,120
Speaker 1: It's like Dick's Street Dicks, And so I just took

976
00:49:11,120 --> 00:49:13,000
Speaker 1: a picture of the I'll show you the picture I

977
00:49:13,040 --> 00:49:17,120
Speaker 1: sent to him, um of me with my mouth like open,

978
00:49:17,920 --> 00:49:21,000
Speaker 1: like I'm like the the dicks are like just coming

979
00:49:21,040 --> 00:49:25,359
Speaker 1: into my mouth. Do you see the signs? And so

980
00:49:25,640 --> 00:49:28,480
Speaker 1: he like he was like that he goes perfect combo

981
00:49:28,480 --> 00:49:30,560
Speaker 1: because I know he always loves when it's funny and hot.

982
00:49:30,680 --> 00:49:34,080
Speaker 1: But um, that to me was both that scene that

983
00:49:34,080 --> 00:49:36,080
Speaker 1: we shot was so special and it was so nice

984
00:49:36,080 --> 00:49:38,720
Speaker 1: because I actually got a text from two HBO execs

985
00:49:38,760 --> 00:49:41,600
Speaker 1: who were watching the show and this was a month

986
00:49:41,640 --> 00:49:44,040
Speaker 1: ago and I hadn't seen anything of the show and

987
00:49:44,080 --> 00:49:46,120
Speaker 1: they wrote to me, and I guess got from two

988
00:49:46,200 --> 00:49:48,920
Speaker 1: random numbers HBO exacts, which like they weren't even in

989
00:49:48,920 --> 00:49:50,520
Speaker 1: touch with me during the show. I was like heard

990
00:49:50,560 --> 00:49:52,839
Speaker 1: from them through other people. We had like one zoom

991
00:49:52,880 --> 00:49:55,880
Speaker 1: meeting and that was it. But um, they texted me

992
00:49:55,960 --> 00:50:00,320
Speaker 1: to say, holy sh it, these scenes are so funny,

993
00:50:00,400 --> 00:50:02,239
Speaker 1: we can't get over it. And I go, guys, I'm

994
00:50:02,280 --> 00:50:04,600
Speaker 1: so happy that you understand how like special that was.

995
00:50:04,680 --> 00:50:08,799
Speaker 1: Because that was that day everyone felt like, whoa, this

996
00:50:08,880 --> 00:50:10,880
Speaker 1: is a separate show and of itself. Those scenes I

997
00:50:10,880 --> 00:50:14,640
Speaker 1: shot and your andrew your comments to me after that

998
00:50:14,920 --> 00:50:17,600
Speaker 1: made me feel so good because you see everything I

999
00:50:17,640 --> 00:50:20,200
Speaker 1: do and like after a while you're just like okay,

1000
00:50:20,239 --> 00:50:22,200
Speaker 1: like you're saying on this you watched all my sets.

1001
00:50:22,280 --> 00:50:24,719
Speaker 1: He's like to have someone who's seen you do so

1002
00:50:24,800 --> 00:50:28,279
Speaker 1: much stuff go, WHOA that was special. You should win,

1003
00:50:28,360 --> 00:50:31,360
Speaker 1: Like I want to be up for like an Hosting

1004
00:50:31,360 --> 00:50:33,400
Speaker 1: Emmy for the Emmys are being announced today, but I

1005
00:50:33,440 --> 00:50:36,719
Speaker 1: hope next year, a year from today, um, I get

1006
00:50:36,880 --> 00:50:39,880
Speaker 1: a host Emmy nomination because and you know what, I

1007
00:50:39,920 --> 00:50:41,759
Speaker 1: hope I get one for the second season of f

1008
00:50:41,800 --> 00:50:43,400
Speaker 1: Boy Island because I hope we get one because I

1009
00:50:43,480 --> 00:50:46,000
Speaker 1: really want to take that up a notch. But I

1010
00:50:46,040 --> 00:50:50,279
Speaker 1: really just appreciated your enthusiasm for my performance that day.

1011
00:50:50,320 --> 00:50:52,879
Speaker 1: It meant so much to me when you go, whoa

1012
00:50:52,920 --> 00:50:55,520
Speaker 1: wait a second, dude, like because you always say good job,

1013
00:50:55,560 --> 00:50:57,759
Speaker 1: great set whenever, but you were just like that was

1014
00:50:57,840 --> 00:51:00,960
Speaker 1: something special, and I felt too, and it was just

1015
00:51:01,000 --> 00:51:03,760
Speaker 1: like so nice to have that validated from you. And again,

1016
00:51:03,800 --> 00:51:05,680
Speaker 1: I was so happy to have you on that show

1017
00:51:05,760 --> 00:51:07,680
Speaker 1: and it's gonna be so fun to watch it with

1018
00:51:07,719 --> 00:51:10,960
Speaker 1: you and to see the lines that you gave me

1019
00:51:11,040 --> 00:51:13,600
Speaker 1: come to life and like that you contributed so much,

1020
00:51:13,640 --> 00:51:16,200
Speaker 1: and it was like so worth it to me because

1021
00:51:16,239 --> 00:51:17,680
Speaker 1: I told my mom the other day how much I

1022
00:51:17,680 --> 00:51:19,359
Speaker 1: had to pay out of pocket for you to be

1023
00:51:19,440 --> 00:51:21,160
Speaker 1: on the show with me, and she was like, oh

1024
00:51:21,239 --> 00:51:25,200
Speaker 1: my yaw, and I go, it was so worth it

1025
00:51:25,520 --> 00:51:28,399
Speaker 1: because not only emotional support, and you stepped it up.

1026
00:51:28,760 --> 00:51:30,399
Speaker 1: Have I mean, people who have been listening to show

1027
00:51:30,440 --> 00:51:33,479
Speaker 1: you heard this happen where I was like like, because

1028
00:51:33,480 --> 00:51:36,120
Speaker 1: we started we started this show when I was down

1029
00:51:36,239 --> 00:51:38,200
Speaker 1: there shooting F Boy, and I couldn't say it at

1030
00:51:38,200 --> 00:51:39,160
Speaker 1: the time, but if you go back and listen to

1031
00:51:39,200 --> 00:51:41,319
Speaker 1: old episodes, Andrew and I kind of like I went

1032
00:51:41,360 --> 00:51:42,920
Speaker 1: through a time where I was like I need you

1033
00:51:42,960 --> 00:51:45,840
Speaker 1: to be like helping. I need more acts of service

1034
00:51:45,880 --> 00:51:47,960
Speaker 1: from you around set, like when you go get a coffee,

1035
00:51:48,000 --> 00:51:50,160
Speaker 1: get me one, like things like that. So you stepped

1036
00:51:50,160 --> 00:51:52,319
Speaker 1: it up in those ways, but creatively you were like

1037
00:51:52,760 --> 00:51:55,840
Speaker 1: so um, so important to have And I gave you

1038
00:51:55,880 --> 00:51:58,600
Speaker 1: credit yesterday for the Dell Taco line you gave me

1039
00:51:58,680 --> 00:52:01,920
Speaker 1: and how like you sacrifice lines that you come up

1040
00:52:01,960 --> 00:52:05,840
Speaker 1: with for the greater good being me sometimes is the

1041
00:52:05,880 --> 00:52:09,400
Speaker 1: greater good. Um. But so thank you and thank you

1042
00:52:09,440 --> 00:52:11,520
Speaker 1: to everyone who's spreading the word about F Boy on

1043
00:52:11,600 --> 00:52:15,640
Speaker 1: your socials. Get on board, like let's um, let's all

1044
00:52:15,680 --> 00:52:17,520
Speaker 1: gear up for it, and uh, I'm gonna be doing

1045
00:52:17,560 --> 00:52:20,040
Speaker 1: a podcast, I think like I'm I'm gonna be appearing

1046
00:52:20,080 --> 00:52:22,400
Speaker 1: on a podcast about it that you can subscribe to

1047
00:52:22,440 --> 00:52:24,040
Speaker 1: at some point when I find out the details of that,

1048
00:52:24,760 --> 00:52:27,640
Speaker 1: and what else did I want to say about it? Um? Yeah,

1049
00:52:27,640 --> 00:52:30,399
Speaker 1: I'm just excited that everyone's excited about the show and

1050
00:52:30,880 --> 00:52:32,560
Speaker 1: I kind of forgot it was coming out. Is a

1051
00:52:32,600 --> 00:52:35,360
Speaker 1: nice little treat, uh to get that. And there was

1052
00:52:35,400 --> 00:52:37,319
Speaker 1: one other Oh. I went and did um some more

1053
00:52:37,400 --> 00:52:40,520
Speaker 1: voiceover for it yesterday because there were some things that

1054
00:52:40,560 --> 00:52:42,600
Speaker 1: like we just needed. Like you know, there's a thing

1055
00:52:42,640 --> 00:52:45,080
Speaker 1: called a d R where you go back sometimes on shows.

1056
00:52:45,120 --> 00:52:47,560
Speaker 1: You'll be watching reality shows and you'll see like a

1057
00:52:47,600 --> 00:52:49,640
Speaker 1: couple of lines where you're like, Okay, you never see

1058
00:52:49,680 --> 00:52:51,680
Speaker 1: their mouth moving and that kind of doesn't sound like

1059
00:52:51,719 --> 00:52:55,120
Speaker 1: their voice. That's when they're just filling in. So yesterday

1060
00:52:55,120 --> 00:52:57,319
Speaker 1: I went into only two lines of the whole thing

1061
00:52:57,320 --> 00:52:59,560
Speaker 1: are not gonna be what was really said, And it

1062
00:52:59,640 --> 00:53:02,360
Speaker 1: was all because I didn't say it in the right way.

1063
00:53:02,920 --> 00:53:04,480
Speaker 1: And it was so fun to go in because I

1064
00:53:04,480 --> 00:53:06,920
Speaker 1: went in and I was they just let me be

1065
00:53:07,000 --> 00:53:10,040
Speaker 1: so uh like I was like, this line's okay, but

1066
00:53:10,040 --> 00:53:11,480
Speaker 1: can I spice it up and make it funnier? And

1067
00:53:11,480 --> 00:53:13,120
Speaker 1: I was able to. They were just so fun. It

1068
00:53:13,160 --> 00:53:14,640
Speaker 1: was so fun to go back in there and mess

1069
00:53:14,680 --> 00:53:17,600
Speaker 1: around with the show, and it's gonna be so funny.

1070
00:53:17,800 --> 00:53:20,120
Speaker 1: I just want to assure you, like, if you're a

1071
00:53:20,160 --> 00:53:21,480
Speaker 1: girl out there or a guy out there that you

1072
00:53:21,520 --> 00:53:24,839
Speaker 1: have a partner who doesn't like reality shows, get them

1073
00:53:24,840 --> 00:53:27,160
Speaker 1: into this one, because I swear to God, everything they

1074
00:53:27,200 --> 00:53:29,440
Speaker 1: hate about reality shows, I'm gonna be making fun of

1075
00:53:30,040 --> 00:53:32,560
Speaker 1: with them. So they'll have a voice on the show

1076
00:53:32,600 --> 00:53:35,960
Speaker 1: that's like acknowledging how ridiculous the show is, whereas the

1077
00:53:36,000 --> 00:53:38,000
Speaker 1: same voice me is going to be talking about how

1078
00:53:38,040 --> 00:53:39,919
Speaker 1: amazing the show is. Let's get to why do I care?

1079
00:53:40,080 --> 00:53:42,080
Speaker 1: Thank you so much Noah for including f boy in

1080
00:53:42,120 --> 00:53:46,200
Speaker 1: the news. It's news? What can I can't? I can't help.

1081
00:53:46,239 --> 00:53:50,000
Speaker 1: It's just news. It's news. You know. There's another show

1082
00:53:50,080 --> 00:53:52,960
Speaker 1: yesterday that came out announced that I am also on,

1083
00:53:53,080 --> 00:53:55,080
Speaker 1: but I can't say that I'm on. So I had

1084
00:53:55,120 --> 00:53:57,239
Speaker 1: a double news day, but one was a thing I

1085
00:53:57,280 --> 00:54:01,719
Speaker 1: can't talk about. Why do I care? Why do I care?

1086
00:54:01,800 --> 00:54:04,640
Speaker 1: I don't. I don't even know why you'll care about this,

1087
00:54:04,719 --> 00:54:08,400
Speaker 1: to be honest, But we'll find now, I'm sure, okay.

1088
00:54:08,480 --> 00:54:13,080
Speaker 1: Jason Szadekis breaks his silence on split from X fiance

1089
00:54:13,239 --> 00:54:18,960
Speaker 1: Olivia Wy with Ted Lasso coming out. I mean he

1090
00:54:19,080 --> 00:54:22,640
Speaker 1: planned it to the Ted Lasso premier on Thursday. I

1091
00:54:22,680 --> 00:54:24,200
Speaker 1: know I kind of wish I was going to that.

1092
00:54:24,360 --> 00:54:27,520
Speaker 1: I'm jealous. I know I wish you were too. I

1093
00:54:27,520 --> 00:54:29,720
Speaker 1: should have invited you instead of the person I invited.

1094
00:54:30,120 --> 00:54:34,160
Speaker 1: Is that person going, yeah, I'm going to I'm probably uh,

1095
00:54:34,440 --> 00:54:37,960
Speaker 1: I might disinvite because I'm just like, I'm using this

1096
00:54:38,000 --> 00:54:40,080
Speaker 1: as a I want. This is a great opportunity. I

1097
00:54:40,080 --> 00:54:42,319
Speaker 1: have a I have an invite to the number one

1098
00:54:42,360 --> 00:54:47,920
Speaker 1: show that so many people love, and I want it's yeah,

1099
00:54:48,040 --> 00:54:51,359
Speaker 1: So I don't know, I might I might take away

1100
00:54:51,400 --> 00:54:56,480
Speaker 1: the invite. I don't know. Well Andrew read read what

1101
00:54:56,520 --> 00:55:00,560
Speaker 1: he said. Yeah, yes, so I where to God I

1102
00:55:00,600 --> 00:55:03,840
Speaker 1: was going to get there, No, I swear to God. Alright, alright,

1103
00:55:03,880 --> 00:55:08,319
Speaker 1: So Jason Sadik has said to g Q the magazine, Um,

1104
00:55:08,360 --> 00:55:10,959
Speaker 1: I'll have a better understanding of why in a year,

1105
00:55:11,200 --> 00:55:13,680
Speaker 1: and then even better one in two, and an even

1106
00:55:13,760 --> 00:55:16,200
Speaker 1: greater one in five, and it will go from being,

1107
00:55:16,320 --> 00:55:18,640
Speaker 1: you know, a book of my life to becoming a

1108
00:55:18,719 --> 00:55:23,040
Speaker 1: chapter to becoming a paragraph, to align to a word

1109
00:55:23,520 --> 00:55:30,839
Speaker 1: to a doodle, dude, doodle, Holicia, we should start saying

1110
00:55:30,840 --> 00:55:34,000
Speaker 1: doodle instead of dude. It just like kind of takes

1111
00:55:34,000 --> 00:55:37,520
Speaker 1: the edge off of dude. Um. I love that because

1112
00:55:37,840 --> 00:55:39,760
Speaker 1: isn't that true? You know? What I was just reading

1113
00:55:39,800 --> 00:55:43,959
Speaker 1: the other day was there's this web there's this um

1114
00:55:44,080 --> 00:55:46,360
Speaker 1: celeb account I follow where it's just paparazzi shots and

1115
00:55:46,400 --> 00:55:49,600
Speaker 1: sometimes they just like post like remember back when there

1116
00:55:49,640 --> 00:55:54,040
Speaker 1: was this celebration the Instagram post of couples you forgot

1117
00:55:54,040 --> 00:55:57,480
Speaker 1: existed and there was one of Samantha Ronson, Remember the

1118
00:55:57,560 --> 00:56:03,319
Speaker 1: DJ Samantha Ronson and Lindsay Lohan. Remember Lindsay, But it

1119
00:56:03,360 --> 00:56:07,200
Speaker 1: was everything that was like that was everywhere. This is

1120
00:56:07,239 --> 00:56:11,440
Speaker 1: like circle two, thou ever Rewhere was Lindsay Lohan in

1121
00:56:11,440 --> 00:56:13,520
Speaker 1: a gay relationship. They were together like over a year.

1122
00:56:14,239 --> 00:56:18,200
Speaker 1: I completely forgot other things Paris Hilton, sex safe, Kim

1123
00:56:18,280 --> 00:56:21,160
Speaker 1: Kardashian sex tape, these things that seem like they define

1124
00:56:21,239 --> 00:56:23,520
Speaker 1: you as a celebrity or as a person, and maybe

1125
00:56:24,080 --> 00:56:25,799
Speaker 1: maybe there's something in your life that you can kind

1126
00:56:25,800 --> 00:56:28,879
Speaker 1: of say, oh, this injury, this car crash, I had

1127
00:56:28,960 --> 00:56:32,920
Speaker 1: this car crash of a relationship. It it's so true.

1128
00:56:32,960 --> 00:56:35,919
Speaker 1: In a year, it's a chapter. In five years, it's

1129
00:56:36,040 --> 00:56:39,120
Speaker 1: a line like the Lindsay Lohan I didn't even think

1130
00:56:39,120 --> 00:56:40,480
Speaker 1: of some of other on son, even though that was

1131
00:56:40,520 --> 00:56:42,759
Speaker 1: all I thought of her at one point. So it's

1132
00:56:42,800 --> 00:56:45,560
Speaker 1: such a nice reminder, and what a great way to

1133
00:56:45,600 --> 00:56:48,280
Speaker 1: say it. I love that quote. I love it because

1134
00:56:48,600 --> 00:56:51,319
Speaker 1: it's acknowledging that it's that it is a big deal

1135
00:56:51,360 --> 00:56:53,719
Speaker 1: for him right now, it's not taking away from that,

1136
00:56:53,800 --> 00:56:58,960
Speaker 1: and it's also looking forward to a time where it's

1137
00:56:58,960 --> 00:57:01,520
Speaker 1: it's because whenever it says when you're going through breakup,

1138
00:57:01,520 --> 00:57:04,160
Speaker 1: it's gonna get easier. It just give it time. And

1139
00:57:04,360 --> 00:57:06,800
Speaker 1: it's so hard to hear that, but it really is true.

1140
00:57:06,960 --> 00:57:10,320
Speaker 1: And I'm getting ready to go the Ted Lasso premiere,

1141
00:57:10,360 --> 00:57:15,080
Speaker 1: and you know, my stylist charge a look as they deserve.

1142
00:57:15,200 --> 00:57:17,840
Speaker 1: That's what it costs in Hollywood to look good. And

1143
00:57:17,880 --> 00:57:22,400
Speaker 1: I'm doing a show tomorrow or today and tomorrow each

1144
00:57:22,400 --> 00:57:24,200
Speaker 1: look three thousand dollars. I'm getting paid I think seven

1145
00:57:24,240 --> 00:57:26,360
Speaker 1: to do the show. So there goes three of it.

1146
00:57:26,880 --> 00:57:29,440
Speaker 1: Five hundred for hair and makeup, five hundred for um

1147
00:57:29,840 --> 00:57:32,480
Speaker 1: both days, so uh or five each for hair and

1148
00:57:32,480 --> 00:57:35,080
Speaker 1: makeup both days. There goes two thousand, so two plus

1149
00:57:35,160 --> 00:57:38,320
Speaker 1: three so there goes five um of the seven. I'm

1150
00:57:38,360 --> 00:57:40,840
Speaker 1: only going to walk away after thirty is taken and

1151
00:57:40,880 --> 00:57:43,240
Speaker 1: then another. So I'm spending money to do the show.

1152
00:57:43,760 --> 00:57:46,120
Speaker 1: Not a big deal. Love my stylist Danny and Emma Style.

1153
00:57:47,280 --> 00:57:50,000
Speaker 1: I'm wondering if I have them dressed me for the

1154
00:57:50,000 --> 00:57:52,440
Speaker 1: ted Lasso premiere. I was like, Okay, should I get

1155
00:57:52,480 --> 00:57:54,760
Speaker 1: them to sole me for that? It might be worth it.

1156
00:57:54,760 --> 00:57:56,440
Speaker 1: I'm gonna get a red carpet look. I mean, I

1157
00:57:56,440 --> 00:57:59,160
Speaker 1: have the ted Lasso fucking sign behind me, which is

1158
00:57:59,160 --> 00:58:01,800
Speaker 1: a cool thing. Like I'm going. I'm going because not

1159
00:58:01,840 --> 00:58:03,880
Speaker 1: because I'm trying to get photographed, but because it's my

1160
00:58:04,000 --> 00:58:07,160
Speaker 1: favorite show and Bill Lawrence is my friend, and um

1161
00:58:07,240 --> 00:58:08,960
Speaker 1: Jamie Lee, who writes on the show is my friend.

1162
00:58:09,240 --> 00:58:11,040
Speaker 1: A couple other people I know that I associated with

1163
00:58:11,040 --> 00:58:14,000
Speaker 1: the show. I'm going because as a fan. But I'm like,

1164
00:58:14,080 --> 00:58:16,160
Speaker 1: should I dress up? Should I make it look great?

1165
00:58:16,320 --> 00:58:20,720
Speaker 1: And then I've remembered that Jason Sadek has collected his

1166
00:58:21,000 --> 00:58:25,560
Speaker 1: Golden Globe Award for Best Actor in a Comedy Series

1167
00:58:25,920 --> 00:58:29,280
Speaker 1: in a tidy sweatshirt on his couch for ted Lasso.

1168
00:58:29,360 --> 00:58:33,040
Speaker 1: The ted Lasso vibe is not a dollar styled look.

1169
00:58:33,520 --> 00:58:37,200
Speaker 1: It's whatever you want it to be. That's what I

1170
00:58:37,240 --> 00:58:41,680
Speaker 1: love about the show. It's just like, do whatever you want, responded,

1171
00:58:41,760 --> 00:58:45,120
Speaker 1: what his name is actually dating? He responded that he goes,

1172
00:58:45,160 --> 00:58:48,280
Speaker 1: They go, what were you depressed? Were you high? You

1173
00:58:48,320 --> 00:58:50,720
Speaker 1: know that's what everyone put on it And he goes

1174
00:58:51,360 --> 00:58:53,520
Speaker 1: because I didn't want to wear just the fucking top

1175
00:58:53,560 --> 00:58:56,440
Speaker 1: half of a tom Ford suit. I love tom Ford suits,

1176
00:58:56,640 --> 00:58:59,920
Speaker 1: but it looks fucking ridiculous like that was his reason.

1177
00:59:00,040 --> 00:59:02,600
Speaker 1: And he's like, I'm not gonna put on a suit.

1178
00:59:02,640 --> 00:59:05,240
Speaker 1: I'm in my house, Like I mean, Granny could put

1179
00:59:05,280 --> 00:59:08,440
Speaker 1: on a little bit. But when I'm going on a

1180
00:59:08,480 --> 00:59:12,560
Speaker 1: show tomorrow where it's the studio is freezing, I want

1181
00:59:12,560 --> 00:59:16,640
Speaker 1: to just tell everyone, big Hollywood secret. Ellen's not that nice.

1182
00:59:17,120 --> 00:59:22,320
Speaker 1: And also, um, every studio is freezing. Every time you

1183
00:59:22,360 --> 00:59:24,920
Speaker 1: see a TV show where it's like a studio audience,

1184
00:59:25,000 --> 00:59:26,840
Speaker 1: and if you go to a studio audience thing, I'm

1185
00:59:26,840 --> 00:59:30,200
Speaker 1: telling you right now, this is saving so many fucking

1186
00:59:30,200 --> 00:59:34,800
Speaker 1: girls right now. Bring a blanket, brings sweaters, bring a cardigan.

1187
00:59:34,880 --> 00:59:38,320
Speaker 1: It's fucking cold during a studiotaping, every single one. And

1188
00:59:38,360 --> 00:59:41,120
Speaker 1: I wish that they warned people before that they show

1189
00:59:41,200 --> 00:59:43,439
Speaker 1: up to you know, Conan or whatever, it's always cold,

1190
00:59:43,960 --> 00:59:45,920
Speaker 1: so they told me on the on the sheet. They go,

1191
00:59:46,600 --> 00:59:48,280
Speaker 1: you know, she'll need to look for this, she'll need

1192
00:59:48,280 --> 00:59:50,720
Speaker 1: a really glam look for this. They go, But after

1193
00:59:50,800 --> 00:59:53,160
Speaker 1: she walks, after we get the full body shot, she's

1194
00:59:53,160 --> 00:59:54,880
Speaker 1: gonna be seated behind the table and you won't be

1195
00:59:54,920 --> 00:59:57,280
Speaker 1: able to see her lower half. So bring blankets and

1196
00:59:57,320 --> 01:00:00,560
Speaker 1: like warm socks and everything. So when you see the

1197
01:00:00,560 --> 01:00:03,160
Speaker 1: show that eventually I'll tell you about, I will be

1198
01:00:03,320 --> 01:00:06,200
Speaker 1: in like my bottom half will be cozy, cozy, cozy,

1199
01:00:06,280 --> 01:00:08,880
Speaker 1: and the top half will be like, uh, you know

1200
01:00:09,120 --> 01:00:14,040
Speaker 1: top four suit were a little hot skirt under the

1201
01:00:14,120 --> 01:00:19,720
Speaker 1: table and then dress like a gypsy up top. You

1202
01:00:19,760 --> 01:00:21,720
Speaker 1: don't even and then you stand up at the end

1203
01:00:21,760 --> 01:00:24,840
Speaker 1: of reveal that like, my bottom half was so hot

1204
01:00:24,920 --> 01:00:29,240
Speaker 1: the whole time. It was so hot the whole time. Um. Yeah.

1205
01:00:29,280 --> 01:00:32,840
Speaker 1: But the thing is my stylists, whenever I'm like, girls, please,

1206
01:00:32,960 --> 01:00:34,600
Speaker 1: I don't we don't need to wear in these shoes.

1207
01:00:34,640 --> 01:00:36,120
Speaker 1: I'm gonna be sitting and you can't even see my

1208
01:00:36,120 --> 01:00:38,080
Speaker 1: lower half, They're like, can you just like wear it

1209
01:00:38,120 --> 01:00:40,680
Speaker 1: all because it just completes the look. And then they're

1210
01:00:40,760 --> 01:00:43,160
Speaker 1: very like they want the whole look, and I get that,

1211
01:00:43,920 --> 01:00:46,440
Speaker 1: like even even if I was like, let's say I

1212
01:00:46,440 --> 01:00:47,720
Speaker 1: went on a show when I was telling a joke

1213
01:00:47,760 --> 01:00:49,200
Speaker 1: and they're like, We're only gonna use the punch line.

1214
01:00:49,240 --> 01:00:50,919
Speaker 1: I'd be like, can I just do the whole joke

1215
01:00:51,080 --> 01:00:54,200
Speaker 1: so the punch line is delivered with the same rhythm

1216
01:00:54,280 --> 01:00:56,920
Speaker 1: that you know last night was doing. Yesterday, I was

1217
01:00:56,960 --> 01:00:59,240
Speaker 1: doing a d R for this scene they played me for.

1218
01:00:59,400 --> 01:01:02,680
Speaker 1: First of all, are sorry I'm tangenting here, which I

1219
01:01:02,680 --> 01:01:06,440
Speaker 1: should just this whole show should be sorry I'm tangenting. Um.

1220
01:01:06,600 --> 01:01:09,400
Speaker 1: They they showed me. I haven't seen any f boy clips.

1221
01:01:09,440 --> 01:01:11,280
Speaker 1: They've sent me them, but I can't watch them because

1222
01:01:11,280 --> 01:01:13,560
Speaker 1: I'm just too I don't like watching myself, especially when

1223
01:01:13,560 --> 01:01:15,840
Speaker 1: I can't change anything. And also it hasn't aired yet,

1224
01:01:15,840 --> 01:01:18,040
Speaker 1: so there's an air of like you could change it,

1225
01:01:18,160 --> 01:01:20,440
Speaker 1: you know, and I definitely don't. So once it's airing,

1226
01:01:20,440 --> 01:01:22,920
Speaker 1: I'll watch because there's no more looking back. But right

1227
01:01:22,920 --> 01:01:24,600
Speaker 1: now it feels like I could go like, you guys,

1228
01:01:24,760 --> 01:01:27,320
Speaker 1: can you do the tip up? And um? And I

1229
01:01:27,360 --> 01:01:29,880
Speaker 1: can't really, you know. So I was watching it yesterday.

1230
01:01:30,000 --> 01:01:35,440
Speaker 1: I look fucking gorgeous, Like I look so good so

1231
01:01:35,560 --> 01:01:39,120
Speaker 1: much to Julie, Thank you so much to Robin. Thank

1232
01:01:39,120 --> 01:01:41,200
Speaker 1: you so like I thank you so much to Robin

1233
01:01:41,280 --> 01:01:44,680
Speaker 1: for painting my legs every day and making my eyebrows

1234
01:01:44,720 --> 01:01:46,840
Speaker 1: as dark as I wanted them, even though you kind

1235
01:01:46,880 --> 01:01:49,040
Speaker 1: of rolled your eyes a couple of times it I

1236
01:01:49,080 --> 01:01:52,000
Speaker 1: looked stunning. I'm so excited about how I look because

1237
01:01:52,240 --> 01:01:55,840
Speaker 1: you know. But but more than anything, I was I

1238
01:01:55,920 --> 01:01:59,480
Speaker 1: said yesterday, I was trying to match my voice because

1239
01:01:59,520 --> 01:02:02,720
Speaker 1: we're trying to fill in the same like I'm trying

1240
01:02:02,760 --> 01:02:04,200
Speaker 1: to do a line for that scene. So I watched

1241
01:02:04,240 --> 01:02:06,480
Speaker 1: the scene and I went into the a d R.

1242
01:02:06,520 --> 01:02:08,080
Speaker 1: Like I was a little husky esterday. I was kind

1243
01:02:08,080 --> 01:02:11,000
Speaker 1: of like like, Hi, guys, how's it going. And then

1244
01:02:11,040 --> 01:02:13,280
Speaker 1: I look at the clip and I'm like saying the line,

1245
01:02:13,280 --> 01:02:14,800
Speaker 1: and I was like, it would be so funny because

1246
01:02:14,800 --> 01:02:17,600
Speaker 1: the whole thing is like girls, so tonight is a

1247
01:02:17,640 --> 01:02:21,120
Speaker 1: big decision, so you gotta make sure, like it would

1248
01:02:21,120 --> 01:02:23,360
Speaker 1: have fit so wrong. So I had to like watch

1249
01:02:23,440 --> 01:02:26,120
Speaker 1: the thing and remember how I was feeling that day,

1250
01:02:26,160 --> 01:02:29,040
Speaker 1: because I remember every single scene I shot and how

1251
01:02:29,080 --> 01:02:31,480
Speaker 1: I was feeling right before because what I did based

1252
01:02:31,480 --> 01:02:33,919
Speaker 1: on what I was wearing, I can tell what mood

1253
01:02:33,920 --> 01:02:35,800
Speaker 1: I was in. And I was in like the best

1254
01:02:35,800 --> 01:02:37,760
Speaker 1: mood of my life down there. So it was really

1255
01:02:37,760 --> 01:02:41,920
Speaker 1: fun to like try to harness that energy of like, oh,

1256
01:02:41,960 --> 01:02:44,360
Speaker 1: I was like in love and I was with my

1257
01:02:44,400 --> 01:02:46,960
Speaker 1: best friends, and I was in paradise and COVID wasn't

1258
01:02:47,000 --> 01:02:49,280
Speaker 1: an issue, and like life was, and I just was

1259
01:02:49,320 --> 01:02:51,640
Speaker 1: like I had to. It was funny when you think

1260
01:02:51,720 --> 01:02:54,080
Speaker 1: like that and you go, okay, be that your voice

1261
01:02:54,120 --> 01:02:56,720
Speaker 1: will sound different. It was really fun to do, but

1262
01:02:56,760 --> 01:03:00,000
Speaker 1: I had to get into I went in like Bedress

1263
01:03:00,000 --> 01:03:02,479
Speaker 1: egg Old after a long uber ride over the hill

1264
01:03:02,560 --> 01:03:05,320
Speaker 1: over to Burbank, and I got to Burbank, I went

1265
01:03:05,360 --> 01:03:08,640
Speaker 1: on a forty minute uber ride to do two lines.

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01:03:08,760 --> 01:03:10,520
Speaker 1: I was like, guys, I could have done this in

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Speaker 1: my hotel room with my podcast Mike, but um, it

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01:03:14,080 --> 01:03:16,640
Speaker 1: ended up being really fun. Anyway, Why do I care?

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01:03:17,000 --> 01:03:20,480
Speaker 1: Because Jason Sadek has really boiled down life. Give it

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01:03:20,520 --> 01:03:23,360
Speaker 1: time and it will seem so much more inconsequential. I

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01:03:23,400 --> 01:03:26,240
Speaker 1: love that advice of like this thing that you're worried

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01:03:26,240 --> 01:03:29,720
Speaker 1: about today, will you be upset in one year? What

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01:03:29,800 --> 01:03:32,160
Speaker 1: will this feel the same? Like, think project one year

1274
01:03:32,160 --> 01:03:33,800
Speaker 1: in the future and think how you might feel about it.

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01:03:33,840 --> 01:03:36,760
Speaker 1: I think it depends on it will it will be

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01:03:36,800 --> 01:03:39,600
Speaker 1: a longer doodle or stay farther away from the dood,

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01:03:39,680 --> 01:03:42,360
Speaker 1: or the longer Harry and her stay together. I think

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01:03:42,400 --> 01:03:44,520
Speaker 1: it might be just because it will just be a

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01:03:44,520 --> 01:03:49,280
Speaker 1: constant reminder, Oh, Harry styles the longer that they stay together. Yeah,

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01:03:49,400 --> 01:03:52,080
Speaker 1: hopefully they break up together a while. I just saw

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01:03:52,160 --> 01:03:54,640
Speaker 1: pictures of them on a boat. And he's also dating

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01:03:54,680 --> 01:03:57,800
Speaker 1: a girl named Keeley from not Keiley, some girl from

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01:03:57,880 --> 01:04:00,760
Speaker 1: ted Lasso who's adorable, and he seems like he's in

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01:04:00,760 --> 01:04:02,320
Speaker 1: the middle of it, like falling in love. So I

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01:04:02,360 --> 01:04:04,960
Speaker 1: think he's probably pretty good. But it must be real tough,

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01:04:05,200 --> 01:04:09,080
Speaker 1: um to share kids with someone. And I have to like,

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01:04:09,160 --> 01:04:10,880
Speaker 1: when you break up and you have kids, you gotta

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01:04:10,960 --> 01:04:14,200
Speaker 1: keep seeing them, and that's why you don't have kids. Um.

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01:04:14,320 --> 01:04:16,960
Speaker 1: So let's move on to Reddit dump. It's Tuesday, so

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01:04:17,000 --> 01:04:19,080
Speaker 1: this is where I go through all my saved Reddit posts.

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01:04:19,320 --> 01:04:21,880
Speaker 1: You know I'm a big redditor. I recommend it to everyone.

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01:04:21,880 --> 01:04:24,560
Speaker 1: It's where I get so many like random pieces of information.

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01:04:26,320 --> 01:04:29,439
Speaker 1: I love ask Reddit, that's my favorite one. That's where

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01:04:29,440 --> 01:04:32,360
Speaker 1: people ask funny questions or weird questions and you get

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01:04:32,400 --> 01:04:36,400
Speaker 1: amazing stories from people who comment. Okay, So this one

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01:04:36,480 --> 01:04:39,880
Speaker 1: is ask credit, what is the most unexplainable thing that

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Speaker 1: has ever happened to you? I always love these because

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01:04:41,880 --> 01:04:44,960
Speaker 1: they're always like supernatural and like kind of ghost stories,

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01:04:45,240 --> 01:04:46,920
Speaker 1: and these are just like normal people who are like

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01:04:47,000 --> 01:04:48,840
Speaker 1: I swear to God, this is like what happened to me.

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01:04:49,280 --> 01:04:51,560
Speaker 1: So this was one when I was around fifteen. This

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01:04:51,640 --> 01:04:54,080
Speaker 1: is from flip Flop prob. When I was around fifteen,

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01:04:54,120 --> 01:04:56,240
Speaker 1: my my parents left me home alone for the weekend,

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01:04:56,800 --> 01:04:58,720
Speaker 1: and I was thinking, this is awesome. I can chill

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01:04:58,760 --> 01:05:00,760
Speaker 1: play games all weekend and eat what I want. Went

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01:05:00,800 --> 01:05:02,520
Speaker 1: to sleep Friday night, and then woke up to my

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01:05:02,600 --> 01:05:05,080
Speaker 1: mom Mom waking me up to what I thought was

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01:05:05,120 --> 01:05:07,280
Speaker 1: the next morning, So I asked, what happened? I thought

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01:05:07,320 --> 01:05:09,480
Speaker 1: you were going out of out the whole weekend, to

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01:05:09,520 --> 01:05:11,479
Speaker 1: which she replied, what are you talking about. It's four

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01:05:11,480 --> 01:05:13,800
Speaker 1: pm Sunday. I have no idea what happened to those

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01:05:13,800 --> 01:05:15,640
Speaker 1: two days. I didn't leave the house. There was no

1313
01:05:15,680 --> 01:05:17,880
Speaker 1: food or washing up that had changed since they left.

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01:05:18,080 --> 01:05:20,320
Speaker 1: I hadn't looked at my phone. There were unread messages

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01:05:20,320 --> 01:05:22,480
Speaker 1: from Saturday morning, but I refused to believe I was

1316
01:05:22,600 --> 01:05:26,040
Speaker 1: asleep the whole time. Whoa, there was another guy. A

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01:05:26,040 --> 01:05:27,840
Speaker 1: really strong feeling kept me out of a high rise

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01:05:27,880 --> 01:05:29,880
Speaker 1: building during an earthquake. I was staying late at work

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01:05:30,080 --> 01:05:33,080
Speaker 1: with some colleagues. Our office was located on the fiftieth floor.

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01:05:33,200 --> 01:05:34,920
Speaker 1: I suddenly had a really strong thought that, Wow, if

1321
01:05:34,960 --> 01:05:37,080
Speaker 1: an earthquake were to hit now, the dashdown stairs would

1322
01:05:37,080 --> 01:05:39,200
Speaker 1: be chaotic. I tried to brush it off, but couldn't.

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01:05:39,240 --> 01:05:41,040
Speaker 1: The feeling was so strong. And it's not like I'm

1324
01:05:41,080 --> 01:05:42,880
Speaker 1: used to working in high rise buildings. I've been working

1325
01:05:42,920 --> 01:05:44,760
Speaker 1: at the place for It's not like I'm not used

1326
01:05:44,800 --> 01:05:47,080
Speaker 1: to I've been working there for two years. At this point,

1327
01:05:47,200 --> 01:05:49,040
Speaker 1: I decided to leave and work from home, which was

1328
01:05:49,080 --> 01:05:51,600
Speaker 1: only fifteen minutes away on foot. Just as I arrived home,

1329
01:05:51,600 --> 01:05:53,880
Speaker 1: an earthquake struck. It was pretty intense, and thankfully everyone

1330
01:05:53,920 --> 01:05:55,480
Speaker 1: in the office was all right, just freaked out. But

1331
01:05:55,520 --> 01:05:57,000
Speaker 1: it was so strange that something told me to leave

1332
01:05:57,040 --> 01:05:58,960
Speaker 1: just minutes before it happened. I think that guy's a dog.

1333
01:06:00,320 --> 01:06:05,360
Speaker 1: Now dogs. It turns out that Redditor was a dog,

1334
01:06:06,320 --> 01:06:09,640
Speaker 1: and then said that. Another another unexplained thing is that

1335
01:06:09,680 --> 01:06:11,560
Speaker 1: time I fell into a glass door and the only

1336
01:06:11,600 --> 01:06:14,560
Speaker 1: thing that broke was the keys in my pocket. I

1337
01:06:14,600 --> 01:06:18,760
Speaker 1: don't understand that, but that's I guess interesting. Um, if

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01:06:18,800 --> 01:06:21,720
Speaker 1: you have an unexplained moment, Andrew, I'd love to hear it. Uh. Oh,

1339
01:06:21,720 --> 01:06:24,440
Speaker 1: this one's good again. Okay, So I shared this a

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01:06:24,480 --> 01:06:27,400
Speaker 1: couple of Reddit dumps a go, but this one is

1341
01:06:27,480 --> 01:06:29,360
Speaker 1: from um and I wanted to reiterate it because this

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01:06:29,400 --> 01:06:32,280
Speaker 1: one actually worked a little bit better to calm your

1343
01:06:32,280 --> 01:06:35,080
Speaker 1: thoughts almost instantly. I think the last one I told

1344
01:06:35,120 --> 01:06:37,840
Speaker 1: you was to calm your thoughts is to close your

1345
01:06:37,840 --> 01:06:42,480
Speaker 1: eyes and don't move your eyes. Focus on don't moving

1346
01:06:42,520 --> 01:06:44,919
Speaker 1: your eyes or something like that. But this one's even better.

1347
01:06:45,360 --> 01:06:49,280
Speaker 1: This is from Reddit, the subreddit meditation pro tip. Want

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01:06:49,320 --> 01:06:52,080
Speaker 1: to stop overthinking during meditation or during your daily life,

1349
01:06:52,280 --> 01:06:54,320
Speaker 1: stop moving your eyes. Hey, everyone, I just want to

1350
01:06:54,320 --> 01:06:56,520
Speaker 1: share a little tip that's been working for me. I

1351
01:06:56,520 --> 01:06:58,000
Speaker 1: believe I learned a step from a common in the

1352
01:06:58,000 --> 01:06:59,560
Speaker 1: subreddit a while ago, which is the one that I

1353
01:06:59,640 --> 01:07:01,920
Speaker 1: read with to you guys, but it didn't get much attention,

1354
01:07:01,920 --> 01:07:03,720
Speaker 1: so I wanted to ensure that more people saw it,

1355
01:07:03,720 --> 01:07:05,280
Speaker 1: which is why I'm bringing it up again too, because

1356
01:07:05,280 --> 01:07:08,400
Speaker 1: it really helps. Okay, so everyone try this now. Basically,

1357
01:07:08,440 --> 01:07:10,480
Speaker 1: if you catch yourself in a huge whirlwind of thoughts

1358
01:07:10,800 --> 01:07:13,320
Speaker 1: at four am eating a chicken selled sandwich alone or

1359
01:07:13,320 --> 01:07:15,640
Speaker 1: with your girlfriend, pay attention to what your eyes are doing.

1360
01:07:15,720 --> 01:07:18,000
Speaker 1: In most cases, they're be They're darting around instead of

1361
01:07:18,040 --> 01:07:21,160
Speaker 1: staying still. This is so interesting because the side note

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01:07:21,640 --> 01:07:24,880
Speaker 1: E E. M. D R the eye therapy where you

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01:07:24,960 --> 01:07:29,480
Speaker 1: track your eyes eyes. Uh cause us I didn't know

1364
01:07:29,520 --> 01:07:31,600
Speaker 1: how much what you look at and how your eyes

1365
01:07:31,680 --> 01:07:34,440
Speaker 1: moved determine what is going on in your brain, and

1366
01:07:34,440 --> 01:07:36,400
Speaker 1: this really proves it. Basically, if you cut yourself in

1367
01:07:36,400 --> 01:07:39,360
Speaker 1: a huge role a wind of thoughts. Okay, um, Once

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01:07:39,360 --> 01:07:41,439
Speaker 1: you notice this that your eyes are darting around, try

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01:07:41,480 --> 01:07:43,560
Speaker 1: holding your gaze in one position. This can be done

1370
01:07:43,560 --> 01:07:45,600
Speaker 1: with eyes open or clothes. You should immediately notice so

1371
01:07:45,640 --> 01:07:47,200
Speaker 1: much lower rate of thoughts. You can even try this

1372
01:07:47,280 --> 01:07:50,040
Speaker 1: right now. Find any object or on the wall, then

1373
01:07:50,080 --> 01:07:52,040
Speaker 1: stareing at without moving your eyes. You should notice your

1374
01:07:52,080 --> 01:07:54,640
Speaker 1: thoughts are coming in much less frequently and are more manatual.

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01:07:54,680 --> 01:08:00,440
Speaker 1: Let's do it right now. Okay, Okay, I'm gonna look Okay,

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01:08:00,480 --> 01:08:02,320
Speaker 1: that kind of worked. The reason I decided to share

1377
01:08:02,320 --> 01:08:04,000
Speaker 1: this tip this morning is because I was just discussing

1378
01:08:04,120 --> 01:08:06,560
Speaker 1: r EM sleep and dreaming with someone. For those that

1379
01:08:06,600 --> 01:08:08,400
Speaker 1: don't know, your RM cycle is the phase of your

1380
01:08:08,400 --> 01:08:10,440
Speaker 1: sleep where you have rapid eye movement. I may not

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01:08:10,520 --> 01:08:12,560
Speaker 1: be the first person to make this correlation, but I

1382
01:08:12,560 --> 01:08:15,000
Speaker 1: haven't seen it mentioned anywhere before. So like when you're

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01:08:15,080 --> 01:08:16,760
Speaker 1: dreaming a lot, your eyes are darting around like you're

1384
01:08:16,840 --> 01:08:20,000
Speaker 1: thinking a lot, you're seeing things. So someone Halse shared

1385
01:08:20,280 --> 01:08:23,559
Speaker 1: um that another trick is to scan the room very slowly.

1386
01:08:23,640 --> 01:08:25,519
Speaker 1: That could be good, That could work for you. There

1387
01:08:25,600 --> 01:08:28,200
Speaker 1: was one I loved. This was the best one. This

1388
01:08:28,240 --> 01:08:30,559
Speaker 1: is insane, but you can try this right now. When

1389
01:08:30,560 --> 01:08:33,559
Speaker 1: you focus on your peripheral vision, the thoughts stop. So

1390
01:08:33,640 --> 01:08:35,320
Speaker 1: look at a point. This one's even better. Look at

1391
01:08:35,360 --> 01:08:37,360
Speaker 1: a point, the same point you're just looking at now,

1392
01:08:37,360 --> 01:08:40,080
Speaker 1: look at your peripheral vision without looking at it. Just

1393
01:08:40,120 --> 01:08:42,719
Speaker 1: focus on it. Keep the keep your eyes on the point,

1394
01:08:43,120 --> 01:08:47,800
Speaker 1: but just focus on your peripheral vision. Your mind calms. Yeah,

1395
01:08:47,800 --> 01:08:50,040
Speaker 1: peripheral is like your side, but don't look to the side.

1396
01:08:50,439 --> 01:08:52,479
Speaker 1: Just be aware of it. When you're staring at the

1397
01:08:52,479 --> 01:08:55,800
Speaker 1: point in front of you, saraht it, but then be

1398
01:08:55,840 --> 01:08:58,720
Speaker 1: aware of your peripheral vision the ring around it, but

1399
01:08:59,000 --> 01:09:00,680
Speaker 1: just aware of it. Don't look at it and your

1400
01:09:00,720 --> 01:09:02,800
Speaker 1: thoughts will calm. I can't do it right now because

1401
01:09:02,840 --> 01:09:05,360
Speaker 1: I'm hosting a show, but it actually doesn't share that

1402
01:09:05,360 --> 01:09:11,240
Speaker 1: with people. I'm pretty chill right now about I really

1403
01:09:11,280 --> 01:09:13,479
Speaker 1: I think I think you should try that, Andrew as

1404
01:09:13,520 --> 01:09:15,800
Speaker 1: like a quick fix, because I instantly thought of it

1405
01:09:16,280 --> 01:09:20,880
Speaker 1: in a dark room. I'm not I'm just saying like, no, no, no, Well,

1406
01:09:20,960 --> 01:09:22,559
Speaker 1: you can just stare, but you can do it with

1407
01:09:22,560 --> 01:09:24,880
Speaker 1: your eyes closed, so it doesn't This is the same thing.

1408
01:09:24,960 --> 01:09:28,000
Speaker 1: Just stare, just steady your eyes and then focus on

1409
01:09:28,040 --> 01:09:30,439
Speaker 1: the side, like pay attention to the sides without looking

1410
01:09:30,439 --> 01:09:32,320
Speaker 1: at that. Did you ever do this when you're okay,

1411
01:09:32,400 --> 01:09:34,760
Speaker 1: never mind never, but when you would look, when you

1412
01:09:34,800 --> 01:09:36,920
Speaker 1: would look in a closet like I would try, and

1413
01:09:36,960 --> 01:09:39,760
Speaker 1: you would see like the clothes hanger would like turn

1414
01:09:39,800 --> 01:09:46,360
Speaker 1: into a person. That happened. Well. I shared this on

1415
01:09:46,400 --> 01:09:49,880
Speaker 1: the subreddit that they sometimes would like the peripheral vision thing.

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01:09:49,960 --> 01:09:52,120
Speaker 1: It happens to me sometimes where I stare and I'm

1417
01:09:52,160 --> 01:09:54,599
Speaker 1: just locked into a stare because I'm so zoned out

1418
01:09:54,920 --> 01:09:57,640
Speaker 1: and it's that locked peripheral vision. Someone shared that they

1419
01:09:57,680 --> 01:09:58,880
Speaker 1: were a kid and they used to not be able

1420
01:09:58,920 --> 01:10:00,760
Speaker 1: to get out of it and that they would have

1421
01:10:00,800 --> 01:10:03,200
Speaker 1: to literally touch their eyeball to get out of it.

1422
01:10:03,760 --> 01:10:05,880
Speaker 1: And I relate to that. Remember the time that I

1423
01:10:05,920 --> 01:10:08,280
Speaker 1: was cold and I was staring and the Starbucks guy

1424
01:10:08,400 --> 01:10:11,559
Speaker 1: was like Nikki and I like waited. Do you remember

1425
01:10:11,560 --> 01:10:13,840
Speaker 1: that time I shared I was locked into one of

1426
01:10:13,840 --> 01:10:17,200
Speaker 1: those visions that was a lock that reminded me I

1427
01:10:17,240 --> 01:10:19,160
Speaker 1: wasn't trying to be cool as much as I just

1428
01:10:19,200 --> 01:10:25,000
Speaker 1: wanted to stay in that like calming locked in for though. Okay,

1429
01:10:25,040 --> 01:10:28,679
Speaker 1: I loved this so much. This is from true off

1430
01:10:28,680 --> 01:10:30,479
Speaker 1: my chest. This is where someone just like creates a

1431
01:10:30,479 --> 01:10:34,240
Speaker 1: fake account and says something off their chest. I loved this.

1432
01:10:34,240 --> 01:10:36,160
Speaker 1: This guy should write a book. I would read it.

1433
01:10:36,680 --> 01:10:39,640
Speaker 1: I love my kids, but holy funk, are they a

1434
01:10:39,640 --> 01:10:41,760
Speaker 1: couple of cock blockers. I'm not going to put any

1435
01:10:41,800 --> 01:10:43,559
Speaker 1: of this on my youngest because they legit have to

1436
01:10:43,600 --> 01:10:45,880
Speaker 1: have everything done for them they are small and young. However,

1437
01:10:46,080 --> 01:10:48,479
Speaker 1: my oldest middle school age is the worst kind of offender.

1438
01:10:48,600 --> 01:10:51,040
Speaker 1: She's perfectly capable of doing anything around the house she needs,

1439
01:10:51,200 --> 01:10:52,719
Speaker 1: But if me and the wife tried to do anything

1440
01:10:52,760 --> 01:10:54,280
Speaker 1: day or night and are gone for more than five

1441
01:10:54,320 --> 01:10:56,880
Speaker 1: minutes alone, she's testing the door lock. Or knocking loudly

1442
01:10:56,880 --> 01:10:58,720
Speaker 1: to ask the most stupid of questions or say something

1443
01:10:58,720 --> 01:11:01,240
Speaker 1: completely benign. Example, I think I hear a bug in

1444
01:11:01,280 --> 01:11:04,120
Speaker 1: my room, not a spider, not not I see a bug.

1445
01:11:04,280 --> 01:11:09,000
Speaker 1: I think I may hear a bug in my room. Ah.

1446
01:11:09,160 --> 01:11:10,800
Speaker 1: It may sound petty, but the ship has been going

1447
01:11:10,800 --> 01:11:12,320
Speaker 1: on for years, and you know what, she's going to

1448
01:11:12,400 --> 01:11:15,360
Speaker 1: get her her first serious relationship. I'm going to bust

1449
01:11:15,360 --> 01:11:17,800
Speaker 1: in whenever just for cookies or to ask a question

1450
01:11:17,840 --> 01:11:20,400
Speaker 1: about plumbing. I won't care, ship man, she'll be married.

1451
01:11:20,520 --> 01:11:22,320
Speaker 1: I'll call her ass at eleven on a Friday night

1452
01:11:22,320 --> 01:11:24,320
Speaker 1: to tell her about a fictitious boil on my asshole

1453
01:11:24,360 --> 01:11:26,400
Speaker 1: that I may need to get lanced. I'll go into

1454
01:11:26,479 --> 01:11:29,120
Speaker 1: detail about dog barf that seeped into the rug. I'm

1455
01:11:29,160 --> 01:11:32,559
Speaker 1: going to have my revenge. And I just like loved that.

1456
01:11:32,800 --> 01:11:35,360
Speaker 1: And his dad is like so mad that he can't

1457
01:11:35,400 --> 01:11:37,519
Speaker 1: get any from his wife because his dumb middle school

1458
01:11:37,600 --> 01:11:40,519
Speaker 1: daughter keeps Scott blogging him, and so he's planning the future.

1459
01:11:40,720 --> 01:11:42,200
Speaker 1: And then he did a bunch of edits on his

1460
01:11:42,280 --> 01:11:45,519
Speaker 1: note to explain to people like listen, I'm not that

1461
01:11:45,600 --> 01:11:50,679
Speaker 1: bad of a dad, Like, she's just annoying so final thought,

1462
01:11:51,080 --> 01:11:53,679
Speaker 1: I want to share it just a couple more. Um,

1463
01:11:55,520 --> 01:11:59,360
Speaker 1: when when someone writes something that's obviously satire and fictitious

1464
01:11:59,400 --> 01:12:02,680
Speaker 1: and like really mean and people make that person go,

1465
01:12:03,000 --> 01:12:05,479
Speaker 1: I don't really want to boil on my asshole, it's

1466
01:12:05,520 --> 01:12:08,040
Speaker 1: like fuck you, Like you don't have to apologize, like

1467
01:12:08,120 --> 01:12:09,880
Speaker 1: stop it, Like you don't know what it's like to

1468
01:12:09,880 --> 01:12:11,800
Speaker 1: have a boiler your ass. It's not funny. They'll talk

1469
01:12:11,840 --> 01:12:14,439
Speaker 1: about dog barf. My dad slipped on some dog bar

1470
01:12:14,520 --> 01:12:19,280
Speaker 1: fin our thing and he died and that really hurts me.

1471
01:12:19,880 --> 01:12:25,559
Speaker 1: Set to rick, Oh my god. Yeah anyways, but yeah,

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01:12:25,800 --> 01:12:29,439
Speaker 1: well I understand, Like the thing is that guy is

1473
01:12:29,479 --> 01:12:32,240
Speaker 1: writing comedically in a place where that should be allowed

1474
01:12:32,280 --> 01:12:36,080
Speaker 1: to happen. But people when you're on when you're on

1475
01:12:36,080 --> 01:12:38,120
Speaker 1: stations comedian, that's the weirdest thing is when you do

1476
01:12:38,200 --> 01:12:40,479
Speaker 1: something that over the top and people take you seriously

1477
01:12:40,479 --> 01:12:42,240
Speaker 1: and you have to go, yeah, do you guys remember

1478
01:12:42,280 --> 01:12:46,760
Speaker 1: these are jokes, Like this guy's anonymous, like he doesn't

1479
01:12:46,760 --> 01:12:50,160
Speaker 1: even have to apologize, Like, but his apology was really

1480
01:12:50,160 --> 01:12:52,000
Speaker 1: funny too. I won't read it because I want to

1481
01:12:52,000 --> 01:12:53,479
Speaker 1: get to the next true off my chest. This is

1482
01:12:53,479 --> 01:12:56,519
Speaker 1: also true off my chest I felt this was this

1483
01:12:56,560 --> 01:13:00,000
Speaker 1: isn't funny, this is just like real shit. My husban

1484
01:13:00,000 --> 01:13:02,040
Speaker 1: been passed away two months ago, and I feel relieved.

1485
01:13:02,240 --> 01:13:04,639
Speaker 1: Is the title. I couldn't click on it fast enough.

1486
01:13:04,840 --> 01:13:06,720
Speaker 1: We were married six years, together for eight we have

1487
01:13:06,760 --> 01:13:08,280
Speaker 1: a five year old girl and a three year old boy.

1488
01:13:08,479 --> 01:13:10,680
Speaker 1: He passed away to Carksent May. I was devastated when

1489
01:13:10,680 --> 01:13:12,040
Speaker 1: I found out he was dead. I loved him. I

1490
01:13:12,040 --> 01:13:13,639
Speaker 1: still love him, but now I start to feel relief

1491
01:13:13,680 --> 01:13:15,800
Speaker 1: that he isn't in our life anymore. When I met him,

1492
01:13:15,840 --> 01:13:18,240
Speaker 1: he was amazing, but soon after we got married, he changed.

1493
01:13:18,360 --> 01:13:21,080
Speaker 1: I was to blame for I was to blame for everything.

1494
01:13:21,320 --> 01:13:23,160
Speaker 1: His family didn't help as they hated me and they

1495
01:13:23,160 --> 01:13:25,760
Speaker 1: would feed his insecurities. He was abusive in controlling, but

1496
01:13:25,840 --> 01:13:28,759
Speaker 1: for his family, I deserved it. But for his family,

1497
01:13:28,800 --> 01:13:30,200
Speaker 1: I deserved it. I don't know what she's saying. I

1498
01:13:30,240 --> 01:13:32,080
Speaker 1: stayed because what else could I do. I was afraid

1499
01:13:32,200 --> 01:13:34,120
Speaker 1: and alone. I came to the US for him. I

1500
01:13:34,160 --> 01:13:36,000
Speaker 1: also believe that I deserved it. That I wasn't a

1501
01:13:36,000 --> 01:13:38,120
Speaker 1: good mother and wife, because all that's what That's what

1502
01:13:38,160 --> 01:13:41,000
Speaker 1: everybody told me. Now, his parents pretended to pretend to

1503
01:13:41,000 --> 01:13:42,840
Speaker 1: be there for my kids and I, and they don't

1504
01:13:42,880 --> 01:13:44,880
Speaker 1: want us to leave the country. They spend years hating me,

1505
01:13:44,920 --> 01:13:46,479
Speaker 1: told my husband I only married him for coming to

1506
01:13:46,520 --> 01:13:48,360
Speaker 1: the US, that I was cheating on him, so he

1507
01:13:48,360 --> 01:13:50,320
Speaker 1: would beat me. But now they want me to stay.

1508
01:13:50,360 --> 01:13:52,200
Speaker 1: After his death, the first two weeks was horrible. I

1509
01:13:52,200 --> 01:13:54,400
Speaker 1: didn't know what to do. I didn't know what I

1510
01:13:54,400 --> 01:13:55,880
Speaker 1: was going to do without him. But then the fear

1511
01:13:55,920 --> 01:13:58,920
Speaker 1: that I felt every morning, wondering what, what, whatever he

1512
01:13:58,960 --> 01:14:02,200
Speaker 1: would be in a good mood or not that day disappeared.

1513
01:14:02,360 --> 01:14:04,920
Speaker 1: So this girl's obviously a second language is English. Not

1514
01:14:04,960 --> 01:14:07,200
Speaker 1: walking on eggshells anymore. Even my kids seemed to be

1515
01:14:07,200 --> 01:14:09,280
Speaker 1: happier without him. That's so wrong to feel that way.

1516
01:14:09,320 --> 01:14:10,840
Speaker 1: I never wanted him to die. I wish he was

1517
01:14:10,880 --> 01:14:12,360
Speaker 1: still alive and that I had the courage to walk

1518
01:14:12,400 --> 01:14:16,120
Speaker 1: away from him instead of feeling relieved from his death. WHOA,

1519
01:14:17,080 --> 01:14:20,880
Speaker 1: I'm so happy he died for this woman. Happy for

1520
01:14:20,880 --> 01:14:26,800
Speaker 1: this woman he died. Yeah, he's well and listen. I

1521
01:14:26,880 --> 01:14:30,160
Speaker 1: shared this because I think so many people out there

1522
01:14:30,200 --> 01:14:37,679
Speaker 1: can relate of of knowing that you can't leave because kids, money, Um,

1523
01:14:37,720 --> 01:14:40,599
Speaker 1: you're scared he'll kill you. You're scared she'll kill you,

1524
01:14:40,840 --> 01:14:45,439
Speaker 1: whether whatever relationship you're in and you it would be

1525
01:14:45,560 --> 01:14:49,639
Speaker 1: very easy if he just died and this woman did

1526
01:14:49,640 --> 01:14:52,160
Speaker 1: not wish this. But I'm so happy for and it

1527
01:14:52,240 --> 01:14:55,920
Speaker 1: just made me feel a lot of things because I

1528
01:14:55,960 --> 01:14:58,000
Speaker 1: bet that is not I mean, this is why people

1529
01:14:58,080 --> 01:15:01,080
Speaker 1: kill their significant other. Yeah, I would check to get

1530
01:15:01,360 --> 01:15:04,439
Speaker 1: it's easier than breaks. It sounds like she might be

1531
01:15:04,479 --> 01:15:09,240
Speaker 1: in on it, but you know, yes, um no, it's

1532
01:15:09,240 --> 01:15:11,880
Speaker 1: a it's a it's a very tough thought to think

1533
01:15:12,120 --> 01:15:16,800
Speaker 1: that life that. Yeah, I don't know that you're like,

1534
01:15:16,880 --> 01:15:20,320
Speaker 1: even if you're getting abused, if someone dies to be happy,

1535
01:15:20,600 --> 01:15:22,880
Speaker 1: it's just it's a tough thing to even say, you

1536
01:15:22,880 --> 01:15:25,600
Speaker 1: know what I mean, I don't know. It's like, yeah,

1537
01:15:25,640 --> 01:15:28,640
Speaker 1: but there's there's times where I've wished men and my

1538
01:15:28,720 --> 01:15:31,479
Speaker 1: friends lives would die, and I told my friends that,

1539
01:15:31,560 --> 01:15:32,960
Speaker 1: and I'm like, I hope he don't, you know, Like

1540
01:15:33,680 --> 01:15:35,519
Speaker 1: I don't do that anymore because I don't want to

1541
01:15:35,560 --> 01:15:37,960
Speaker 1: wish death on anyone, even though I feel like sometimes

1542
01:15:38,000 --> 01:15:41,439
Speaker 1: death is like sometimes and this is tough to say,

1543
01:15:41,520 --> 01:15:47,200
Speaker 1: but sometimes when people commit suicide or die from a

1544
01:15:47,439 --> 01:15:51,760
Speaker 1: long term illness, I like am happy for them. If

1545
01:15:51,800 --> 01:15:54,720
Speaker 1: that makes sense because they're in so much pain, and

1546
01:15:54,760 --> 01:15:56,200
Speaker 1: they are, and you know, we say that a lot,

1547
01:15:56,200 --> 01:15:57,880
Speaker 1: like oh, if they're not in pain anymore, and like

1548
01:15:57,880 --> 01:16:01,200
Speaker 1: they're in a better place. But I've wished, I've wished

1549
01:16:01,280 --> 01:16:04,479
Speaker 1: death upon some men in my friends lives, so that

1550
01:16:04,920 --> 01:16:06,720
Speaker 1: in secret, like I've said it to them, but I've

1551
01:16:06,760 --> 01:16:09,120
Speaker 1: also said it not to them, of like, I just

1552
01:16:09,160 --> 01:16:11,000
Speaker 1: want this guy to disappear. And the only way my

1553
01:16:11,000 --> 01:16:13,040
Speaker 1: friend's gonna get over him as if he's dead. And

1554
01:16:13,240 --> 01:16:16,280
Speaker 1: that's a sad thing. And I'm sorry that I caused

1555
01:16:16,280 --> 01:16:21,200
Speaker 1: this guy to to tie. But maybe maybe I think, well,

1556
01:16:21,320 --> 01:16:24,800
Speaker 1: the common talk is like, what a coward to kill themselves.

1557
01:16:24,800 --> 01:16:27,440
Speaker 1: They didn't even think about what they would do to

1558
01:16:27,439 --> 01:16:30,120
Speaker 1: to the family and who they left behind. It's such

1559
01:16:30,160 --> 01:16:33,080
Speaker 1: a coward way out, And I think that's bullshit. I

1560
01:16:33,120 --> 01:16:36,320
Speaker 1: think in a weird, twisted way, it takes a lot

1561
01:16:36,360 --> 01:16:40,519
Speaker 1: of courage to to end it. Like I think, if

1562
01:16:40,680 --> 01:16:43,400
Speaker 1: I'm not saying that it's a good thing, I'm just saying,

1563
01:16:43,400 --> 01:16:48,640
Speaker 1: you know, the dialogue behind one out there who is suicidal,

1564
01:16:48,840 --> 01:16:51,840
Speaker 1: it's not courageous to kill yourself. No one's going to

1565
01:16:52,040 --> 01:16:54,400
Speaker 1: give you that honor. But Andrew, I do know what

1566
01:16:54,439 --> 01:16:57,720
Speaker 1: you're talking about. When I've been really suicidal. Yeah, no,

1567
01:16:57,880 --> 01:17:01,760
Speaker 1: it's like, well, I I've always said that if I

1568
01:17:01,800 --> 01:17:03,760
Speaker 1: get a terminal illness, that's going to be something like

1569
01:17:03,800 --> 01:17:06,639
Speaker 1: a l S or like you know lu Garrig's which

1570
01:17:06,680 --> 01:17:10,759
Speaker 1: is a l S or. Um Uh, the Huntington's disease,

1571
01:17:10,760 --> 01:17:13,040
Speaker 1: which is another one that just there's no cure and

1572
01:17:13,080 --> 01:17:16,839
Speaker 1: you literally die because you choke because you can't swallow anymore,

1573
01:17:16,880 --> 01:17:19,320
Speaker 1: Like your body just shuts down. And it's hell, I

1574
01:17:19,360 --> 01:17:24,480
Speaker 1: would go to Portland or Sweden to be euthanized. Um,

1575
01:17:24,960 --> 01:17:28,000
Speaker 1: I would kill myself in that way, and like it

1576
01:17:28,040 --> 01:17:31,200
Speaker 1: would be that would be a better choice. But and

1577
01:17:31,240 --> 01:17:34,360
Speaker 1: I've been in so much pain, Uh that suicide seems

1578
01:17:34,360 --> 01:17:36,639
Speaker 1: like a good idea. So it's you're not unclear thinking

1579
01:17:36,640 --> 01:17:38,960
Speaker 1: though when you want to do that stuff. Um. That

1580
01:17:39,080 --> 01:17:41,559
Speaker 1: being said, I just want to say last night I

1581
01:17:41,640 --> 01:17:46,160
Speaker 1: read before We really Before We Go. Um, there's a

1582
01:17:46,200 --> 01:17:49,040
Speaker 1: new Anthony Bourdain documentary coming out about his life and

1583
01:17:49,120 --> 01:17:53,320
Speaker 1: final days, and dude, it's like I read a thing

1584
01:17:53,600 --> 01:17:56,280
Speaker 1: yesterday about it on Reddit. I can't find it right now,

1585
01:17:56,320 --> 01:17:59,519
Speaker 1: but it's like the last Days of Anthony Bourdain and

1586
01:18:00,240 --> 01:18:03,880
Speaker 1: Oh my god, is I can't wait for this documentary?

1587
01:18:04,000 --> 01:18:10,920
Speaker 1: Um pretty much pretty much he was not his The

1588
01:18:11,000 --> 01:18:13,160
Speaker 1: interesting thing I found was on the pilot episode of

1589
01:18:13,200 --> 01:18:14,960
Speaker 1: his show. Because he did those best selling books, they

1590
01:18:14,960 --> 01:18:16,880
Speaker 1: gave him a show where he travels around. He wasn't

1591
01:18:16,880 --> 01:18:19,400
Speaker 1: a traveler. He didn't like to travel, he didn't like people.

1592
01:18:19,520 --> 01:18:23,040
Speaker 1: He had social anxiety. The first episode they showed footage

1593
01:18:23,080 --> 01:18:24,759
Speaker 1: for the first episode, which the first day of shooting,

1594
01:18:24,760 --> 01:18:26,360
Speaker 1: the whole crew said, what the funk are we going

1595
01:18:26,400 --> 01:18:28,839
Speaker 1: to do? This guy cannot talk to people. He's awkward,

1596
01:18:28,840 --> 01:18:32,360
Speaker 1: he doesn't know what to say. He's like they described

1597
01:18:32,360 --> 01:18:35,800
Speaker 1: this first scene where it's so uncomfortable because he doesn't

1598
01:18:35,840 --> 01:18:37,599
Speaker 1: even know what to say to this Japanese woman. He's

1599
01:18:37,640 --> 01:18:39,360
Speaker 1: sitting on the floor eating ramen and like it's just

1600
01:18:39,400 --> 01:18:42,280
Speaker 1: like it's good, Like it's awkward. They don't even want

1601
01:18:42,280 --> 01:18:44,280
Speaker 1: to And then something happened where he just clicked and

1602
01:18:44,280 --> 01:18:47,559
Speaker 1: he found it, and then they pretty much say I

1603
01:18:47,600 --> 01:18:50,040
Speaker 1: didn't like this. They pretty much do everything in the

1604
01:18:50,080 --> 01:18:54,160
Speaker 1: documentary to blame Asia Argento, the woman that he was seeing,

1605
01:18:54,280 --> 01:18:57,160
Speaker 1: who was I didn't know this. I'm so sorry it's

1606
01:18:57,160 --> 01:19:00,360
Speaker 1: going along. He They all say that five days after

1607
01:19:00,439 --> 01:19:06,120
Speaker 1: he saw paparazzi footage of his girlfriend Uh making out

1608
01:19:06,160 --> 01:19:08,920
Speaker 1: with a guy in Paris or something, that he killed

1609
01:19:09,000 --> 01:19:13,240
Speaker 1: himself five days later, and by all uh, by all accounts,

1610
01:19:13,280 --> 01:19:15,920
Speaker 1: he was obsessed with this woman, totally in like a

1611
01:19:16,040 --> 01:19:19,880
Speaker 1: love bubble, like love addict, like he before he met her,

1612
01:19:19,920 --> 01:19:22,680
Speaker 1: he was looking for something that was like unhealthy, unsustainable.

1613
01:19:22,680 --> 01:19:24,000
Speaker 1: When he met her, he was like, this is gonna

1614
01:19:24,080 --> 01:19:27,160
Speaker 1: end badly told everyone. He fired the director on his show,

1615
01:19:27,240 --> 01:19:30,120
Speaker 1: made the director on the show got sick for one episode.

1616
01:19:30,120 --> 01:19:32,400
Speaker 1: He put her in his place. She caused so much

1617
01:19:32,520 --> 01:19:34,559
Speaker 1: tension on the set and changed the way this show

1618
01:19:34,560 --> 01:19:37,360
Speaker 1: had been shot for so long that the director of

1619
01:19:37,360 --> 01:19:40,960
Speaker 1: photography quit the like such a huge part of the show.

1620
01:19:41,280 --> 01:19:44,320
Speaker 1: Quit another person, and he started firing people that he

1621
01:19:44,360 --> 01:19:47,400
Speaker 1: worked with forever. And so he was really handling it

1622
01:19:47,439 --> 01:19:50,679
Speaker 1: irrationally and doing everything to protect this woman, to stay

1623
01:19:50,680 --> 01:19:53,200
Speaker 1: with this woman, obsessing over her. But they're kind of

1624
01:19:53,200 --> 01:19:56,080
Speaker 1: blaming her, like she cheated, and that's why he killed himself,

1625
01:19:56,880 --> 01:19:59,360
Speaker 1: his addiction to her, Like you don't you can blame

1626
01:19:59,400 --> 01:20:02,400
Speaker 1: heroin when someone O d S or the drug dealer,

1627
01:20:03,120 --> 01:20:05,840
Speaker 1: but and I'm not gonna blame him either, But it's

1628
01:20:05,880 --> 01:20:07,920
Speaker 1: just it was a disease of love. If it wasn't her,

1629
01:20:07,960 --> 01:20:09,880
Speaker 1: he would have become obsessed with someone else, you know,

1630
01:20:09,920 --> 01:20:12,840
Speaker 1: Like I don't want her to now want to kill

1631
01:20:12,920 --> 01:20:16,519
Speaker 1: herself because she's a toxic, Like she made bad decisions

1632
01:20:16,560 --> 01:20:19,240
Speaker 1: that hurt him. But I don't think it's anyone's fault.

1633
01:20:19,680 --> 01:20:21,799
Speaker 1: As as someone who had a friend who killed himself

1634
01:20:21,840 --> 01:20:25,240
Speaker 1: over my best friend and her not loving him and

1635
01:20:25,520 --> 01:20:28,360
Speaker 1: trying to blame her and her suffering the feelings of

1636
01:20:28,400 --> 01:20:31,280
Speaker 1: the guilt associated with that. It had nothing to it

1637
01:20:31,360 --> 01:20:33,720
Speaker 1: had something. She was the trigger, but it would have

1638
01:20:33,720 --> 01:20:36,880
Speaker 1: been something else eventually, Like and we can put a

1639
01:20:36,920 --> 01:20:39,280
Speaker 1: figure at this girl who maybe didn't handle their relationship

1640
01:20:39,280 --> 01:20:40,720
Speaker 1: the best way and was toxic for him and a

1641
01:20:40,880 --> 01:20:43,280
Speaker 1: just toxic person in general. I don't know her, but

1642
01:20:44,560 --> 01:20:46,680
Speaker 1: I don't think it was her fault. But it's just

1643
01:20:46,840 --> 01:20:48,320
Speaker 1: we just want answers. We want to be able to

1644
01:20:48,320 --> 01:20:50,600
Speaker 1: blame someone for this stuff because we go anthony with

1645
01:20:51,360 --> 01:20:53,439
Speaker 1: he wouldn't do that. This is totally on. I mean,

1646
01:20:53,479 --> 01:20:55,760
Speaker 1: this was very out of character for him, as as

1647
01:20:55,800 --> 01:20:58,800
Speaker 1: most people would have reported. We just lost Andrew, and

1648
01:20:58,800 --> 01:21:00,600
Speaker 1: that's for the best. We gotta go. Thank you so

1649
01:21:00,680 --> 01:21:02,960
Speaker 1: much for listening. He literally just like stepped off. I

1650
01:21:02,960 --> 01:21:05,439
Speaker 1: think he uh, he just made me a r gento

1651
01:21:05,520 --> 01:21:07,840
Speaker 1: and is changing his life to be with her, so

1652
01:21:08,120 --> 01:21:11,400
Speaker 1: uh watch out, Brenna. Sorry, he's moving on. Thank you

1653
01:21:11,439 --> 01:21:14,160
Speaker 1: for listening. Don't be cool out there, and we'll see

1654
01:21:14,160 --> 01:21:16,559
Speaker 1: you tomorrow on the show Dig Dig