Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio
Speaker 1: and the Black Effects. And just like that, we're back
Speaker 1: with yet another carefully Reckless episode with your girl just hilarious.
Speaker 1: We're gonna jump straight in. It's just fixed my mess.
Speaker 1: You already know. People are submitting more and more voice
Speaker 1: memos and I am loving it because that means I
Speaker 1: don't have to read these long run on sentence as
Speaker 1: paragrams that y'all be sending me. So here we go. Hi.
Speaker 1: Just long story short, I have a five y'all with
Speaker 1: an abuser, and the abuse has come to a boiling
Speaker 1: point where I cannot take it anymore. It doesn't stop
Speaker 1: I fil charges. Don't get me wrong. I fight because
Speaker 1: because I watched, because I have to. But now that's
Speaker 1: to the point where I have to constantly get a
Speaker 1: tool with his family for disrespecting me, and the girlfriend
Speaker 1: because she feels like she's a time into my child
Speaker 1: and I don't understand that considers you don't have no kids,
Speaker 1: and I would never send my child with somebody rather
Speaker 1: problem with me. I am sick of the abuse. My
Speaker 1: son is extremely traumatized, and I need space. I was
Speaker 1: in the relationship for five years. I have been beaten
Speaker 1: to the point of having a concussion. I have a
Speaker 1: babar to sept them. I've had patches of hair and
Speaker 1: and you name it. I don't want to be that
Speaker 1: parents away from his father, but I have no idea
Speaker 1: what else to do. It is paining to have to
Speaker 1: do this, and I know he loves his dad, but
Speaker 1: it is draining and it is not fair that he
Speaker 1: gets to come around beat up on me and then
Speaker 1: go live his life. He's for me while we suffer.
Speaker 1: I love the fact that you're in rome have a
Speaker 1: good relationship. I thought that maybe taking tips from you
Speaker 1: with help, but he's so severely messed up in the
Speaker 1: head and have too many mommy issues for me to
Speaker 1: do it to even compare with. I need your help, baby.
Speaker 1: You already know what you have to do. So you
Speaker 1: r in a five year relationship with this man. When
Speaker 1: did this fucking abuse start? Like? When did it start?
Speaker 1: Because if it's always been something that you kind of
Speaker 1: like let roll off your back, maybe he felt as
Speaker 1: if it was okay because they'll do what you allow.
Speaker 1: You know, men will do what you allow. Maybe you
Speaker 1: ignored red flags because there's no fucking way this man
Speaker 1: has beaten you to a point of having a concussion,
Speaker 1: and you said some other ship that was going on
Speaker 1: with you, patches of hair missing and all the other ship,
Speaker 1: and you stayed after this. Now I know what you said.
Speaker 1: Don't get you wrong. You fight, but you shouldn't have
Speaker 1: to fight a motherfucking man. It doesn't matter. It doesn't
Speaker 1: matter if you fight or not. You should not have
Speaker 1: to fight. You're children's father. You shouldn't have to fight
Speaker 1: no man, but definitely not a man that gave you
Speaker 1: a child like funck No, how could he even feel
Speaker 1: like a man beating on a woman who is the
Speaker 1: mother of his child. And then, you know, you said,
Speaker 1: you get into it with the family, and you know
Speaker 1: his girlfriend. He has a girlfriend who he's probably more
Speaker 1: than likely beating the funk out of as well, but
Speaker 1: she has a problem with you, and so your child
Speaker 1: is traumatized and all that ship. No, no, no, no
Speaker 1: no no. You don't want to be that parent who
Speaker 1: does not allow your son's father to see him. However,
Speaker 1: this is detrimental to your life, y'all argue, y'all fight.
Speaker 1: You have to fight his family. You know, you have
Speaker 1: to find a way to explain to your baby white
Speaker 1: he has to take a break from daddy. You know,
Speaker 1: just Utio, your son's dad gets himself together, fuck the girlfriend,
Speaker 1: fucked his family. It's about you and your safety. It's
Speaker 1: about staying away from him and explaining to him why
Speaker 1: he needs to understand why you need a fucking restraining
Speaker 1: order or a peace order or some type of order
Speaker 1: put in place. Now. I know the laws a big
Speaker 1: ass fucking joke when it comes to domestic violence and
Speaker 1: things of that nature. But you need to do what
Speaker 1: you can. This is not something that I would let
Speaker 1: roll off my back. And you actually need more help
Speaker 1: than Jess fix my mess, girl, You need the whole
Speaker 1: Alma of God. Obviously this is dangerous. I feel for you.
Speaker 1: I will keep you in my prayers, but this is dangerous,
Speaker 1: God damn Like and then your baby boy is so
Speaker 1: young to even have to go through this. Do y'all
Speaker 1: fight in front of him? Does he hit you in
Speaker 1: front of your child? You know like that this is
Speaker 1: this is a lot. You told me he was traumatized,
Speaker 1: so maybe that is the answer to that question. Yes,
Speaker 1: y'all actually do this in front of him. That's not good,
Speaker 1: that's not healthy. That's showing your son that he can
Speaker 1: disrespect women. If his father acts out in front of him.
Speaker 1: It's showing him that my me is a punching bag.
Speaker 1: You know. It's showing him how to treat women, which
Speaker 1: is not a good thing. You understand me, So I
Speaker 1: understand you don't want to be that parent that takes
Speaker 1: the son, that takes the child away from his father.
Speaker 1: But right now you have to be that parent, and
Speaker 1: you have to do it for the well being of yourself,
Speaker 1: for your mental sanity, so you can raise your son
Speaker 1: the right way, so you can be in the right
Speaker 1: mind to even raise your child, because if you ain't
Speaker 1: no good, you can't be no good for you. Baby.
Speaker 1: All right, check back in with me with an update. Girl,
Speaker 1: that's really sad. I don't think people really understand the
Speaker 1: severity of an abusive relationship. I don't think people really
Speaker 1: really take it serious until they can't get out. I
Speaker 1: think people ignore, ignore, ignore, They hope for the best.
Speaker 1: They pray that this man changes, or they pray that
Speaker 1: the woman changes, because you know, women can be abusers
Speaker 1: as well. They continue to stay in these relationships hoping
Speaker 1: that the person will change, and more times often than
Speaker 1: not they don't and people wait too late to do something.
Speaker 1: I really hope that she gets helped for her and
Speaker 1: her child, because that sho ain't nothing to play with. Seriously,
Speaker 1: hold up, hold up. I noticed she getting good. But
Speaker 1: listen to just a couple of seconds of a commercial
Speaker 1: with you love Me. You'll listen moving on. This is
Speaker 1: like my fist time trying to send this message. I
Speaker 1: just feel so ashamed, but I just I feel like
Speaker 1: I have to just let it out. I won't get therapy.
Speaker 1: But I recently saw this TikTok trend where you know,
Speaker 1: girls were saying like, if a girl wants to be
Speaker 1: your friend and she doesn't have any friends, then that's
Speaker 1: a huge red flag. And when I first saw TikTok,
Speaker 1: I was like, man, funck y'all bitches, Like, what the funk?
Speaker 1: There's mad bitches that have zero friends but our hello cool.
Speaker 1: It's me on bitches, zero friends but too cool. I
Speaker 1: guess I don't fucking know. Let me just start off
Speaker 1: by saying this. I didn't have a good life growing up.
Speaker 1: You know, I didn't have two parents who you know,
Speaker 1: watched me and taught me things. I'm learning things on
Speaker 1: my own. Girl, with a single mom. My dad passed
Speaker 1: away when I was a kid, when I was a baby. Um,
Speaker 1: so my mom, you know, I had to pick up
Speaker 1: the pieces. I have nine siblings and she had to
Speaker 1: figure out a way to keep a roof overhead, you
Speaker 1: know what I mean. I had three jobs, was living
Speaker 1: on Section eight. We didn't have any money, and my
Speaker 1: mom's starting, you know, starting from the bottom when I
Speaker 1: was young, and that resulted to me, you know, having
Speaker 1: a very traumatic childhood because you know, when you leave
Speaker 1: siblings with other siblings and and I don't I don't
Speaker 1: blame my siblings for what happened to me as a baby,
Speaker 1: but you know it was it was somebody's fault because
Speaker 1: I was just a fucking baby. I had something very
Speaker 1: traumatic happened to me that I did not deserve, and
Speaker 1: it was because I was neglected. You know. My mom
Speaker 1: left me with my siblings, but they never watched me.
Speaker 1: So I imagine a kid six seven years old just
Speaker 1: roaming the streets. Nobody gives a fuck. I mean, sometimes
Speaker 1: my sister would come back home from partying with her friends.
Speaker 1: She's a teenager, you know what I mean, what teenager
Speaker 1: wants to take care of her a baby. She would
Speaker 1: see me just roaming the streets and be like, Yo'll
Speaker 1: go back in the house, and then she would change
Speaker 1: and then go back outside. And that's when I would
Speaker 1: just leave, whenever my siblings would leave. And yeah, just
Speaker 1: a lot of traumatic things happened to me at that age.
Speaker 1: I don't really want to get into it, but whatever
Speaker 1: you think is the worst thing that can have happened
Speaker 1: to a child is what happened. What happened to me.
Speaker 1: So back to what I first said about friends, I
Speaker 1: found myself in my twenties not really having any friends.
Speaker 1: I like to take it back to when I was
Speaker 1: a kid. Fifth Great, there's this girl. You know, she
Speaker 1: had a boyfriend, she had a lot of friends. I
Speaker 1: was just really jealous of her. So what did I do?
Speaker 1: I just bullied her. Young me had friends. I've always
Speaker 1: had friends in school. I was never a loner kid, Okay,
Speaker 1: but I was just a bully. This girl literally got
Speaker 1: a Valentine's Day gift one time and I fucking threw
Speaker 1: her ship in the fucking garbage in the fucking toilet.
Speaker 1: Told her fight me in class, fight me, because she
Speaker 1: was like, yo, why did you do that? Graduations spilled
Speaker 1: milk on her gown dress, like why everybody was laughing?
Speaker 1: Like what I was so problematic? Middle school? This girl
Speaker 1: lets me borrow her laptop and I bring it back
Speaker 1: and on the bus I find a view of her
Speaker 1: dancing in her underwear showed. Everybody in the bus humiliated
Speaker 1: her for what? Middle school? This girl I was jealous
Speaker 1: of how beautiful, beautiful she was, bullied her, constantly made
Speaker 1: fun of her on her face, wouldn't let her join
Speaker 1: my friend group for what. I don't even know. High
Speaker 1: school my best friend her sex stape was weeked. All
Speaker 1: she asked me was you'll find out. Can you please
Speaker 1: find out who did it? I find out who did it.
Speaker 1: I gave her the name. She said, who told you?
Speaker 1: Because she needs to know everything? And I told her,
Speaker 1: I'm not going to tell you because the girl that
Speaker 1: told me told me not to tell her for what reason.
Speaker 1: I don't even know. Another girl that I was really
Speaker 1: close with, you know, I grew up in the same neighborhood.
Speaker 1: We were always close. I literally just stole her iPad
Speaker 1: just to piss her off. No, it was iPod, sorry,
Speaker 1: you know, like the music shuffle. iPod stole it from
Speaker 1: her house, told everybody, and I was like, bitch, you're
Speaker 1: not getting it back. Just bullied her no reason, just
Speaker 1: because I felt like it. It's just so many fucked
Speaker 1: up things slop with my best friend's boyfriend, stole every
Speaker 1: nincause she had ever been with, talked about her on
Speaker 1: social media, told all her business because I was matter
Speaker 1: for no reason over me fighting her when I was drunk.
Speaker 1: That she was defending herself pissed me off, so I
Speaker 1: went on social media. I was still drunk, told all
Speaker 1: her business on social media. She still forgave me. One day,
Speaker 1: we were at a house party. I didn't want to
Speaker 1: drive her to her house. I was drunk and I
Speaker 1: didn't want to get a d u I and I
Speaker 1: knew how to go to my house, but I didn't
Speaker 1: want to bring her with me. Just left her at
Speaker 1: a party. Anything could happen to her, just left her,
Speaker 1: didn't care, no empathy whatsoever. And there's so many other things,
Speaker 1: but I just I can't think of it right now.
Speaker 1: But those are just a list of things throughout the
Speaker 1: years that I've done for what reason exactly, I don't know.
Speaker 1: And now I'm in my late twenties, I don't have anybody.
Speaker 1: I don't have any friends. I don't have anybody to
Speaker 1: talk to you. I don't have anything. I have siblings
Speaker 1: that I'm close with, but it's not the same. There's
Speaker 1: things that you want to talk to your friends about
Speaker 1: that you can't talk to your siblings about. And I
Speaker 1: just want a connection. I just want I want real,
Speaker 1: you know, friendship, womanhood to circle around me. But I
Speaker 1: feel like I'm getting the karma over all my younger
Speaker 1: years of screwing people over. But is it really karma
Speaker 1: if you had to funk up life too? You know
Speaker 1: what I mean? How am I supposed to know how
Speaker 1: to treat people if I was never taught anything, I
Speaker 1: was never shown anything. My siblings idea of trying to
Speaker 1: raise me was beating the funk out of me. I
Speaker 1: remember when I got suspended in fifth grade for bullying
Speaker 1: that girl. My sibling was like, I opened the door.
Speaker 1: I already felt bad for what I did. He was like,
Speaker 1: I got a belt and I got a hanger, which
Speaker 1: one am I going to beat the funk out of
Speaker 1: you with? And then I got I got beat up.
Speaker 1: I skipped class one day in high school. He put
Speaker 1: his foot in my fucking chest. I couldn't breathe. I
Speaker 1: stole my mom's husband's credit card and bought a bunch
Speaker 1: of ship. Literally, my face was bleeding, my chest was
Speaker 1: read from how badly I was beaten, just all around,
Speaker 1: just me getting abused in my house, and now I'm
Speaker 1: going out and I'm abusing people. I don't understand why
Speaker 1: I'm still suffering, Like why am I suffering? And why
Speaker 1: am I feeling the karma of what I did to
Speaker 1: women in the past, and now I have no friends
Speaker 1: because of that. I don't understand how karma works, Like,
Speaker 1: I don't get it. I don't I don't get what
Speaker 1: I'm doing. I do want to change. I see I
Speaker 1: see it now. You know, after all these years, it
Speaker 1: took a one TikTok for me to realize that I'm
Speaker 1: not good. I'm not a good person, But I always
Speaker 1: felt like a good person. I always felt like, damn, like,
Speaker 1: what the funk? Why why did that person do that
Speaker 1: to me? Why did that person backstabbed me like that?
Speaker 1: No one's ever done any of the ship that I've
Speaker 1: didn't done to people. The worst thing that people have
Speaker 1: ever done to me is probably just talked me on
Speaker 1: my back. That's it bird rooms about me, like there's
Speaker 1: nothing that anybody has ever done that. And when I
Speaker 1: say anybody, I mean like in regards to friends. I mean,
Speaker 1: I've had a lot of very very traumatic stuff happened
Speaker 1: to me because of my family, you know, But I'm
Speaker 1: talking about like friends at the moment. You know, I've
Speaker 1: never really had a friend that was like horrible to me.
Speaker 1: I've never had any of that. I mean, I've had
Speaker 1: fake bitches around me. It was because I was fake.
Speaker 1: I've had fake friends because I was the fake friend.
Speaker 1: I've had backstabbing weird bitches because I was the backstabbing
Speaker 1: weird bitch. I was the company that I kept, you know,
Speaker 1: So how do you change now that I've acknowledged that
Speaker 1: all of the ship that I've done and probably even
Speaker 1: done more, I can't remember right now? What do I do?
Speaker 1: You know what I mean? Do you think that I
Speaker 1: should just not have friends for a little bit longer?
Speaker 1: Should I write down and think of all the stuff
Speaker 1: that I've done, like list by list of age by
Speaker 1: age up until now. I'm still young. Of course I
Speaker 1: have more life to live. But I don't want to
Speaker 1: keep living like this, you know, I don't want to
Speaker 1: keep attracting bad people, And I'm like, why am I
Speaker 1: always attracting bad friends? Why am I always attracting bad
Speaker 1: friend And now I realized that I've always been a
Speaker 1: bad friend. They relate to me. They love the fact
Speaker 1: that I'm just like them. Envy my sister. She has
Speaker 1: had the same friends because she was a kid. When
Speaker 1: I tell you this girl, there are people from like
Speaker 1: when she was a child still asking about her, still
Speaker 1: praising her, I'm so jealous of that. Like, I don't
Speaker 1: know what she does. She's a very private um. She
Speaker 1: doesn't really tell me anything. I think she knows that
Speaker 1: I'm a fake ass person, so I don't don't I
Speaker 1: don't blame her. I don't know anything about about that girl.
Speaker 1: I don't think anybody knows anything about her. And I
Speaker 1: admire her for that, um, and I love her for that.
Speaker 1: She's always been there for me. Even though I've never
Speaker 1: really had any real friends. I can say that my
Speaker 1: siblings in my adult years have been my bestest friends.
Speaker 1: And and I don't think they know like how much
Speaker 1: they need to me at a time like this, send
Speaker 1: my life for I've just had a horrible ship happened
Speaker 1: to me you know, over and over again, and you
Speaker 1: know I can see that even though like none of
Speaker 1: my friends ever stuck, I think my sisters have definitely
Speaker 1: like have stuck with me, you know, when I love
Speaker 1: them like so much. But I feel so lonely now
Speaker 1: and I feel so shitty. I feel so bad, and
Speaker 1: I wish I could apologize to those girls. I probably
Speaker 1: traumatized them because I was traumatized. I definitely want to change.
Speaker 1: I want to change. I want to be better. I
Speaker 1: want to have an amazing circle of friends, you know,
Speaker 1: and I want to be happy, and I just want
Speaker 1: to move on. And I'm tired of crying all the
Speaker 1: time when I'm in my apartment by myself, and I realized, like,
Speaker 1: damn dish, and you just finished the whole fucking bottle
Speaker 1: of wine by yourself night after night, thinking you're having
Speaker 1: a ball, but deep telling you and just lonely, and
Speaker 1: the first person that talks to you end up spilling
Speaker 1: along with your secrets because you genuinely want someone to
Speaker 1: talk to. That's me right now. But yeah, thank you
Speaker 1: for listening. Oh and I know I know it'll get better,
Speaker 1: Damn baby girl, If you love me, you'll listen to
Speaker 1: this commercial and then we'll be right back. Listen. Let
Speaker 1: me tell you. You sent me through a series of
Speaker 1: emotions with your story. I'm going to tell you I
Speaker 1: went from being said sorry for you, disappointed, angry with you,
Speaker 1: content with you, proud of you, wanting to beat your ass,
Speaker 1: still wanting to hug you, grab you, and just hug
Speaker 1: you and tell you that it is okay. I'm not
Speaker 1: gonna sit here and say it's okay. You should be
Speaker 1: forgiven for everything you did. Know you didn't sucked over
Speaker 1: some people, but you already know you did. I don't
Speaker 1: have to beat a dead horse. You already know what
Speaker 1: you did was wrong. And when it comes to karma, no, no,
Speaker 1: I don't believe that's what you're getting. I don't believe
Speaker 1: that this is your karma or any of that ship.
Speaker 1: What I do believe it's hurt people. Hurt people. Yes,
Speaker 1: you was traumatized from a kid up until you were
Speaker 1: a adult. You got the ship beat out of you.
Speaker 1: Your mother didn't raise you, your father died, You and
Speaker 1: your siblings had to fend for yourselves, so you basically
Speaker 1: raised yourself along with your siblings wherever they could pitch
Speaker 1: in and help raise you as well. Y'all raised each other.
Speaker 1: It's nine of you. I see things like this all
Speaker 1: the time. I grew up around families like this. I've
Speaker 1: seen it. I'm gonna tell your story. I'm serious. Someone
Speaker 1: who was once a friend of mine, y'all may know
Speaker 1: this story. A couple of years ago, this girl had
Speaker 1: put my personal information all over the internet. Not my sister.
Speaker 1: My sister had did it to me, but I had
Speaker 1: a friend. She put both of my phone numbers and
Speaker 1: my address because I had made her angry. We were
Speaker 1: arguing back and forth, and she did that. You know,
Speaker 1: I had to move out of my house. I had
Speaker 1: to change both of my numbers, the same number that
Speaker 1: I've had since middle school. That everyone knew, everybody in
Speaker 1: the industry, old friends, family, all that people, important people
Speaker 1: had to change that. She came from a big family.
Speaker 1: Her mother didn't raise her either. Her mother was somewhere
Speaker 1: chasing men and ship like that. You know what I mean.
Speaker 1: She don't have her father. Her father is actually dying,
Speaker 1: if he's not already dead, but he was never in
Speaker 1: her life. Didn't even want to meet her while he
Speaker 1: was sick on his deathbed, didn't even want to fucking
Speaker 1: apologize for anything that he did or anything that he
Speaker 1: didn't do as a father. Her and her siblings had
Speaker 1: to raise each other in the house. She used to
Speaker 1: be walking up and down the street barefoot. Same ship
Speaker 1: that you are describing to me happened to this girl
Speaker 1: that was once my friend. Every friendship that she has
Speaker 1: created and she has been in, she has fucked up.
Speaker 1: So when I look at you and I look at
Speaker 1: your story, you remind me of my old friend. We've
Speaker 1: recently reconnected. I will never ever, ever trust her ever
Speaker 1: again in my presence, with my new address, with any
Speaker 1: of my numbers. But we kind of speak here and
Speaker 1: there on social media. She's pregnant now, but she describe
Speaker 1: some of the same things that you described to me.
Speaker 1: She was a very lonely person. I don't know if
Speaker 1: she is now, but I have forgiven her for everything
Speaker 1: that she's done, because there were some really good memories
Speaker 1: that we had in our friendship, you know, before all
Speaker 1: that ship went down. But I realized she's hurt from
Speaker 1: her childhood. You are hurt from your childhood, and you
Speaker 1: inflict pain on others because it was inflicted on you.
Speaker 1: Hurt people, hurt people. I know that's a very cliche saying,
Speaker 1: but it's true. You are very fucking hurt and you're damaged.
Speaker 1: And I suggest that you get into like a peace group.
Speaker 1: I don't know if you go to church. I don't
Speaker 1: know if you're a Christian or not or whatever, But
Speaker 1: there are all types of groups, different types of groups
Speaker 1: that you can get in to build your social status
Speaker 1: learning how to treat people. You said you don't know
Speaker 1: how to treat people. You can start by first writing
Speaker 1: down how you want to be treated. What do you
Speaker 1: want to feel? Do you want to feel how you
Speaker 1: felt growing up? No? Funck No? Do you want to
Speaker 1: feel like those girls that you ridiculed and you tortured
Speaker 1: and you bullied? And ship? You want to feel like that? No?
Speaker 1: You don't want to feel like that. Do you want
Speaker 1: to do that ship? No, you don't want to do
Speaker 1: that ship. I think that that's a good outlet for you.
Speaker 1: You should get into one of those groups. There are
Speaker 1: other people just like you. You feel like you're lonely,
Speaker 1: there are other people who feel just like you. You're
Speaker 1: not the only one that's dealing with that, you know.
Speaker 1: I think that that's what you should do. You should
Speaker 1: should seek social groups to be in. You know, I
Speaker 1: think you should continue to reach out to me. After
Speaker 1: listening to you, I will be checking in on you. Uh,
Speaker 1: this is off air, you know what I mean. This
Speaker 1: is not only for carefully reckless. You cried. I can
Speaker 1: tell you're hurt. You still need to heal. You still
Speaker 1: need to get past what happened to you as a child,
Speaker 1: because if you don't, you'll let it hinder you for
Speaker 1: the rest of your life. You know, you still got
Speaker 1: a lot of life to live. You know you answered
Speaker 1: a lot of your own questions. You know what you
Speaker 1: need to do going forward. I think that's the healthiest
Speaker 1: thing for you to do. That's a good start for you.
Speaker 1: You need therapy as well. You need counseling before you
Speaker 1: get in these groups. There are things that you need
Speaker 1: to get out. You had a lot bottled up. I
Speaker 1: could have given you your own episode with the things
Speaker 1: that you and I could sit and talk about back
Speaker 1: and forth. I want you to check in with me. Jesus, girl,
Speaker 1: you got me fucking emotional. Girl. You need to check
Speaker 1: in with me more, way more um and I'll be
Speaker 1: checking in on YouTube. And I want to let you
Speaker 1: know I don't know you from a can of paint.
Speaker 1: You don't know me, but from one woman to another,
Speaker 1: one young lady to another, I love you. I do
Speaker 1: love you. I think you need to hear that. I
Speaker 1: think you need some type of affection. I think you
Speaker 1: need to reunite with your mother as well, you know,
Speaker 1: and tell her how you feel. You don't have your dad.
Speaker 1: You don't have a dad, you know, but you still
Speaker 1: do have a living parent. I think she gave up
Speaker 1: on being a mother, so you blame her for a
Speaker 1: lot of things. But I think that you need to
Speaker 1: talk to her. I think you need to seek counseling therapy,
Speaker 1: like a psychiatrist or a psychologist. I can't sit here
Speaker 1: and tell you that I know the accurate difference, Like
Speaker 1: I really don't know the exact difference between a psychologist
Speaker 1: and a psychiatrist. But should We're gonna figure this ship
Speaker 1: out together because I'm all about helping people, not just women,
Speaker 1: mainly women. And then I want you to seek those
Speaker 1: piece groups, you know, those social groups and ship they're
Speaker 1: everywhere everywhere. I know you don't want to hurt people
Speaker 1: for the rest of your life. Who the fund does
Speaker 1: you couldn't have been getting no type of enjoyment out
Speaker 1: of fucking up other people's lives and sucking up all
Speaker 1: those bonds and and fucking your home girls and niggas
Speaker 1: and ship like that deep down inside. No, no, no,
Speaker 1: no no, you thought that ship made you better. It didn't.
Speaker 1: Temporarily it did, but no, you're right back to square one.
Speaker 1: I want you to check in with me. I'm serious
Speaker 1: about that. And on that note, we're gonna end this episode.
Speaker 1: This one has been a very emotional one for me.
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie that that ship is gonna be
Speaker 1: on my mind. But I want you guys to tune
Speaker 1: into co Parents and Therapy at seven pm tonight, Me
Speaker 1: and Jerome are sitting down with our very first guest,
Speaker 1: and you guys do not want to miss it. Make
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