1 00:00:00,160 --> 00:00:03,119 Speaker 1: Welcome to Carefully Reckless, the production of Our Heart Radio 2 00:00:03,240 --> 00:00:16,439 Speaker 1: and the Black Effects. And just like that, we're back 3 00:00:16,480 --> 00:00:19,760 Speaker 1: with yet another carefully Reckless episode with your girl just hilarious. 4 00:00:19,800 --> 00:00:22,120 Speaker 1: We're gonna jump straight in. It's just fixed my mess. 5 00:00:22,160 --> 00:00:25,320 Speaker 1: You already know. People are submitting more and more voice 6 00:00:25,360 --> 00:00:28,000 Speaker 1: memos and I am loving it because that means I 7 00:00:28,000 --> 00:00:30,640 Speaker 1: don't have to read these long run on sentence as 8 00:00:30,680 --> 00:00:34,479 Speaker 1: paragrams that y'all be sending me. So here we go. Hi. 9 00:00:34,680 --> 00:00:38,640 Speaker 1: Just long story short, I have a five y'all with 10 00:00:38,800 --> 00:00:42,159 Speaker 1: an abuser, and the abuse has come to a boiling 11 00:00:42,200 --> 00:00:45,800 Speaker 1: point where I cannot take it anymore. It doesn't stop 12 00:00:46,280 --> 00:00:50,080 Speaker 1: I fil charges. Don't get me wrong. I fight because 13 00:00:50,200 --> 00:00:52,400 Speaker 1: because I watched, because I have to. But now that's 14 00:00:52,400 --> 00:00:54,880 Speaker 1: to the point where I have to constantly get a 15 00:00:54,960 --> 00:00:58,840 Speaker 1: tool with his family for disrespecting me, and the girlfriend 16 00:00:58,880 --> 00:01:00,960 Speaker 1: because she feels like she's a time into my child 17 00:01:01,320 --> 00:01:03,840 Speaker 1: and I don't understand that considers you don't have no kids, 18 00:01:03,880 --> 00:01:05,800 Speaker 1: and I would never send my child with somebody rather 19 00:01:05,840 --> 00:01:08,800 Speaker 1: problem with me. I am sick of the abuse. My 20 00:01:08,880 --> 00:01:13,920 Speaker 1: son is extremely traumatized, and I need space. I was 21 00:01:13,959 --> 00:01:18,240 Speaker 1: in the relationship for five years. I have been beaten 22 00:01:18,280 --> 00:01:20,160 Speaker 1: to the point of having a concussion. I have a 23 00:01:20,200 --> 00:01:22,320 Speaker 1: babar to sept them. I've had patches of hair and 24 00:01:22,480 --> 00:01:25,280 Speaker 1: and you name it. I don't want to be that 25 00:01:25,400 --> 00:01:31,160 Speaker 1: parents away from his father, but I have no idea 26 00:01:31,280 --> 00:01:36,240 Speaker 1: what else to do. It is paining to have to 27 00:01:36,319 --> 00:01:39,440 Speaker 1: do this, and I know he loves his dad, but 28 00:01:39,560 --> 00:01:42,319 Speaker 1: it is draining and it is not fair that he 29 00:01:42,360 --> 00:01:45,440 Speaker 1: gets to come around beat up on me and then 30 00:01:45,680 --> 00:01:48,760 Speaker 1: go live his life. He's for me while we suffer. 31 00:01:49,400 --> 00:01:51,760 Speaker 1: I love the fact that you're in rome have a 32 00:01:51,760 --> 00:01:55,120 Speaker 1: good relationship. I thought that maybe taking tips from you 33 00:01:55,160 --> 00:01:57,880 Speaker 1: with help, but he's so severely messed up in the 34 00:01:58,000 --> 00:01:59,880 Speaker 1: head and have too many mommy issues for me to 35 00:01:59,880 --> 00:02:05,080 Speaker 1: do it to even compare with. I need your help, baby. 36 00:02:05,360 --> 00:02:07,840 Speaker 1: You already know what you have to do. So you 37 00:02:07,960 --> 00:02:12,560 Speaker 1: r in a five year relationship with this man. When 38 00:02:12,600 --> 00:02:15,240 Speaker 1: did this fucking abuse start? Like? When did it start? 39 00:02:15,320 --> 00:02:20,040 Speaker 1: Because if it's always been something that you kind of 40 00:02:20,080 --> 00:02:23,720 Speaker 1: like let roll off your back, maybe he felt as 41 00:02:23,720 --> 00:02:26,800 Speaker 1: if it was okay because they'll do what you allow. 42 00:02:26,960 --> 00:02:29,720 Speaker 1: You know, men will do what you allow. Maybe you 43 00:02:29,800 --> 00:02:35,720 Speaker 1: ignored red flags because there's no fucking way this man 44 00:02:36,200 --> 00:02:39,279 Speaker 1: has beaten you to a point of having a concussion, 45 00:02:39,639 --> 00:02:42,120 Speaker 1: and you said some other ship that was going on 46 00:02:42,200 --> 00:02:44,560 Speaker 1: with you, patches of hair missing and all the other ship, 47 00:02:45,160 --> 00:02:49,080 Speaker 1: and you stayed after this. Now I know what you said. 48 00:02:49,160 --> 00:02:52,240 Speaker 1: Don't get you wrong. You fight, but you shouldn't have 49 00:02:52,320 --> 00:02:55,800 Speaker 1: to fight a motherfucking man. It doesn't matter. It doesn't 50 00:02:55,840 --> 00:02:58,480 Speaker 1: matter if you fight or not. You should not have 51 00:02:58,560 --> 00:03:02,400 Speaker 1: to fight. You're children's father. You shouldn't have to fight 52 00:03:02,400 --> 00:03:04,920 Speaker 1: no man, but definitely not a man that gave you 53 00:03:04,960 --> 00:03:08,880 Speaker 1: a child like funck No, how could he even feel 54 00:03:09,880 --> 00:03:13,240 Speaker 1: like a man beating on a woman who is the 55 00:03:13,280 --> 00:03:15,760 Speaker 1: mother of his child. And then, you know, you said, 56 00:03:15,800 --> 00:03:17,200 Speaker 1: you get into it with the family, and you know 57 00:03:17,280 --> 00:03:20,600 Speaker 1: his girlfriend. He has a girlfriend who he's probably more 58 00:03:20,600 --> 00:03:23,000 Speaker 1: than likely beating the funk out of as well, but 59 00:03:23,680 --> 00:03:26,840 Speaker 1: she has a problem with you, and so your child 60 00:03:26,919 --> 00:03:29,360 Speaker 1: is traumatized and all that ship. No, no, no, no 61 00:03:29,360 --> 00:03:32,959 Speaker 1: no no. You don't want to be that parent who 62 00:03:33,160 --> 00:03:37,160 Speaker 1: does not allow your son's father to see him. However, 63 00:03:37,720 --> 00:03:41,920 Speaker 1: this is detrimental to your life, y'all argue, y'all fight. 64 00:03:42,520 --> 00:03:44,920 Speaker 1: You have to fight his family. You know, you have 65 00:03:45,080 --> 00:03:47,680 Speaker 1: to find a way to explain to your baby white 66 00:03:47,800 --> 00:03:49,960 Speaker 1: he has to take a break from daddy. You know, 67 00:03:50,120 --> 00:03:54,360 Speaker 1: just Utio, your son's dad gets himself together, fuck the girlfriend, 68 00:03:54,600 --> 00:03:58,720 Speaker 1: fucked his family. It's about you and your safety. It's 69 00:03:58,720 --> 00:04:02,360 Speaker 1: about staying away from him and explaining to him why 70 00:04:02,520 --> 00:04:05,440 Speaker 1: he needs to understand why you need a fucking restraining 71 00:04:05,520 --> 00:04:08,400 Speaker 1: order or a peace order or some type of order 72 00:04:08,440 --> 00:04:10,720 Speaker 1: put in place. Now. I know the laws a big 73 00:04:10,760 --> 00:04:13,440 Speaker 1: ass fucking joke when it comes to domestic violence and 74 00:04:13,680 --> 00:04:15,760 Speaker 1: things of that nature. But you need to do what 75 00:04:15,840 --> 00:04:18,039 Speaker 1: you can. This is not something that I would let 76 00:04:18,160 --> 00:04:21,080 Speaker 1: roll off my back. And you actually need more help 77 00:04:21,520 --> 00:04:24,800 Speaker 1: than Jess fix my mess, girl, You need the whole 78 00:04:24,839 --> 00:04:28,920 Speaker 1: Alma of God. Obviously this is dangerous. I feel for you. 79 00:04:28,960 --> 00:04:31,680 Speaker 1: I will keep you in my prayers, but this is dangerous, 80 00:04:32,600 --> 00:04:35,200 Speaker 1: God damn Like and then your baby boy is so 81 00:04:35,320 --> 00:04:38,520 Speaker 1: young to even have to go through this. Do y'all 82 00:04:38,520 --> 00:04:40,599 Speaker 1: fight in front of him? Does he hit you in 83 00:04:40,640 --> 00:04:43,159 Speaker 1: front of your child? You know like that this is 84 00:04:43,240 --> 00:04:45,719 Speaker 1: this is a lot. You told me he was traumatized, 85 00:04:45,760 --> 00:04:47,840 Speaker 1: so maybe that is the answer to that question. Yes, 86 00:04:48,480 --> 00:04:51,120 Speaker 1: y'all actually do this in front of him. That's not good, 87 00:04:51,120 --> 00:04:54,440 Speaker 1: that's not healthy. That's showing your son that he can 88 00:04:54,480 --> 00:04:57,640 Speaker 1: disrespect women. If his father acts out in front of him. 89 00:04:57,720 --> 00:05:01,039 Speaker 1: It's showing him that my me is a punching bag. 90 00:05:01,160 --> 00:05:04,480 Speaker 1: You know. It's showing him how to treat women, which 91 00:05:04,520 --> 00:05:07,280 Speaker 1: is not a good thing. You understand me, So I 92 00:05:07,400 --> 00:05:09,680 Speaker 1: understand you don't want to be that parent that takes 93 00:05:09,720 --> 00:05:12,479 Speaker 1: the son, that takes the child away from his father. 94 00:05:12,520 --> 00:05:15,400 Speaker 1: But right now you have to be that parent, and 95 00:05:15,480 --> 00:05:18,279 Speaker 1: you have to do it for the well being of yourself, 96 00:05:18,279 --> 00:05:21,159 Speaker 1: for your mental sanity, so you can raise your son 97 00:05:21,480 --> 00:05:23,560 Speaker 1: the right way, so you can be in the right 98 00:05:23,600 --> 00:05:26,600 Speaker 1: mind to even raise your child, because if you ain't 99 00:05:26,600 --> 00:05:28,600 Speaker 1: no good, you can't be no good for you. Baby. 100 00:05:28,880 --> 00:05:31,920 Speaker 1: All right, check back in with me with an update. Girl, 101 00:05:32,880 --> 00:05:36,279 Speaker 1: that's really sad. I don't think people really understand the 102 00:05:36,360 --> 00:05:40,719 Speaker 1: severity of an abusive relationship. I don't think people really 103 00:05:40,800 --> 00:05:44,120 Speaker 1: really take it serious until they can't get out. I 104 00:05:44,120 --> 00:05:47,280 Speaker 1: think people ignore, ignore, ignore, They hope for the best. 105 00:05:47,320 --> 00:05:50,000 Speaker 1: They pray that this man changes, or they pray that 106 00:05:50,040 --> 00:05:53,240 Speaker 1: the woman changes, because you know, women can be abusers 107 00:05:53,279 --> 00:05:56,599 Speaker 1: as well. They continue to stay in these relationships hoping 108 00:05:56,640 --> 00:06:00,680 Speaker 1: that the person will change, and more times often than 109 00:06:00,720 --> 00:06:04,560 Speaker 1: not they don't and people wait too late to do something. 110 00:06:05,360 --> 00:06:07,359 Speaker 1: I really hope that she gets helped for her and 111 00:06:07,440 --> 00:06:11,039 Speaker 1: her child, because that sho ain't nothing to play with. Seriously, 112 00:06:11,800 --> 00:06:13,800 Speaker 1: hold up, hold up. I noticed she getting good. But 113 00:06:13,880 --> 00:06:16,000 Speaker 1: listen to just a couple of seconds of a commercial 114 00:06:16,080 --> 00:06:20,800 Speaker 1: with you love Me. You'll listen moving on. This is 115 00:06:20,839 --> 00:06:23,640 Speaker 1: like my fist time trying to send this message. I 116 00:06:23,720 --> 00:06:26,480 Speaker 1: just feel so ashamed, but I just I feel like 117 00:06:26,520 --> 00:06:29,280 Speaker 1: I have to just let it out. I won't get therapy. 118 00:06:29,480 --> 00:06:33,479 Speaker 1: But I recently saw this TikTok trend where you know, 119 00:06:33,600 --> 00:06:36,520 Speaker 1: girls were saying like, if a girl wants to be 120 00:06:36,560 --> 00:06:39,360 Speaker 1: your friend and she doesn't have any friends, then that's 121 00:06:39,400 --> 00:06:42,799 Speaker 1: a huge red flag. And when I first saw TikTok, 122 00:06:42,839 --> 00:06:45,559 Speaker 1: I was like, man, funck y'all bitches, Like, what the funk? 123 00:06:45,640 --> 00:06:50,360 Speaker 1: There's mad bitches that have zero friends but our hello cool. 124 00:06:50,880 --> 00:06:54,560 Speaker 1: It's me on bitches, zero friends but too cool. I 125 00:06:54,640 --> 00:06:58,479 Speaker 1: guess I don't fucking know. Let me just start off 126 00:06:58,480 --> 00:07:02,160 Speaker 1: by saying this. I didn't have a good life growing up. 127 00:07:02,320 --> 00:07:05,719 Speaker 1: You know, I didn't have two parents who you know, 128 00:07:05,760 --> 00:07:10,480 Speaker 1: watched me and taught me things. I'm learning things on 129 00:07:10,560 --> 00:07:14,240 Speaker 1: my own. Girl, with a single mom. My dad passed 130 00:07:14,240 --> 00:07:17,360 Speaker 1: away when I was a kid, when I was a baby. Um, 131 00:07:17,400 --> 00:07:19,680 Speaker 1: so my mom, you know, I had to pick up 132 00:07:19,680 --> 00:07:24,800 Speaker 1: the pieces. I have nine siblings and she had to 133 00:07:24,840 --> 00:07:26,920 Speaker 1: figure out a way to keep a roof overhead, you 134 00:07:26,920 --> 00:07:29,040 Speaker 1: know what I mean. I had three jobs, was living 135 00:07:29,040 --> 00:07:32,800 Speaker 1: on Section eight. We didn't have any money, and my 136 00:07:32,840 --> 00:07:35,440 Speaker 1: mom's starting, you know, starting from the bottom when I 137 00:07:35,480 --> 00:07:38,560 Speaker 1: was young, and that resulted to me, you know, having 138 00:07:38,600 --> 00:07:41,920 Speaker 1: a very traumatic childhood because you know, when you leave 139 00:07:42,600 --> 00:07:45,640 Speaker 1: siblings with other siblings and and I don't I don't 140 00:07:45,640 --> 00:07:47,920 Speaker 1: blame my siblings for what happened to me as a baby, 141 00:07:48,000 --> 00:07:51,520 Speaker 1: but you know it was it was somebody's fault because 142 00:07:52,080 --> 00:07:54,320 Speaker 1: I was just a fucking baby. I had something very 143 00:07:54,320 --> 00:07:56,920 Speaker 1: traumatic happened to me that I did not deserve, and 144 00:07:57,000 --> 00:07:59,320 Speaker 1: it was because I was neglected. You know. My mom 145 00:07:59,400 --> 00:08:01,600 Speaker 1: left me with my siblings, but they never watched me. 146 00:08:01,760 --> 00:08:05,640 Speaker 1: So I imagine a kid six seven years old just 147 00:08:05,960 --> 00:08:09,960 Speaker 1: roaming the streets. Nobody gives a fuck. I mean, sometimes 148 00:08:10,040 --> 00:08:13,239 Speaker 1: my sister would come back home from partying with her friends. 149 00:08:13,680 --> 00:08:15,679 Speaker 1: She's a teenager, you know what I mean, what teenager 150 00:08:15,720 --> 00:08:17,640 Speaker 1: wants to take care of her a baby. She would 151 00:08:17,640 --> 00:08:20,040 Speaker 1: see me just roaming the streets and be like, Yo'll 152 00:08:20,040 --> 00:08:22,120 Speaker 1: go back in the house, and then she would change 153 00:08:22,600 --> 00:08:25,400 Speaker 1: and then go back outside. And that's when I would 154 00:08:25,400 --> 00:08:29,000 Speaker 1: just leave, whenever my siblings would leave. And yeah, just 155 00:08:29,080 --> 00:08:31,840 Speaker 1: a lot of traumatic things happened to me at that age. 156 00:08:32,040 --> 00:08:35,239 Speaker 1: I don't really want to get into it, but whatever 157 00:08:35,320 --> 00:08:37,360 Speaker 1: you think is the worst thing that can have happened 158 00:08:37,400 --> 00:08:41,760 Speaker 1: to a child is what happened. What happened to me. 159 00:08:43,720 --> 00:08:47,760 Speaker 1: So back to what I first said about friends, I 160 00:08:47,840 --> 00:08:53,480 Speaker 1: found myself in my twenties not really having any friends. 161 00:08:54,520 --> 00:08:56,480 Speaker 1: I like to take it back to when I was 162 00:08:56,520 --> 00:09:01,320 Speaker 1: a kid. Fifth Great, there's this girl. You know, she 163 00:09:01,400 --> 00:09:04,840 Speaker 1: had a boyfriend, she had a lot of friends. I 164 00:09:04,920 --> 00:09:07,480 Speaker 1: was just really jealous of her. So what did I do? 165 00:09:07,600 --> 00:09:10,959 Speaker 1: I just bullied her. Young me had friends. I've always 166 00:09:11,000 --> 00:09:14,480 Speaker 1: had friends in school. I was never a loner kid, Okay, 167 00:09:14,480 --> 00:09:19,360 Speaker 1: but I was just a bully. This girl literally got 168 00:09:19,360 --> 00:09:22,080 Speaker 1: a Valentine's Day gift one time and I fucking threw 169 00:09:22,120 --> 00:09:25,000 Speaker 1: her ship in the fucking garbage in the fucking toilet. 170 00:09:25,840 --> 00:09:28,240 Speaker 1: Told her fight me in class, fight me, because she 171 00:09:28,320 --> 00:09:31,600 Speaker 1: was like, yo, why did you do that? Graduations spilled 172 00:09:31,679 --> 00:09:36,440 Speaker 1: milk on her gown dress, like why everybody was laughing? 173 00:09:36,520 --> 00:09:40,840 Speaker 1: Like what I was so problematic? Middle school? This girl 174 00:09:41,360 --> 00:09:44,280 Speaker 1: lets me borrow her laptop and I bring it back 175 00:09:44,360 --> 00:09:46,640 Speaker 1: and on the bus I find a view of her 176 00:09:46,720 --> 00:09:50,280 Speaker 1: dancing in her underwear showed. Everybody in the bus humiliated 177 00:09:50,320 --> 00:09:55,400 Speaker 1: her for what? Middle school? This girl I was jealous 178 00:09:55,440 --> 00:09:59,360 Speaker 1: of how beautiful, beautiful she was, bullied her, constantly made 179 00:09:59,360 --> 00:10:01,760 Speaker 1: fun of her on her face, wouldn't let her join 180 00:10:01,880 --> 00:10:06,200 Speaker 1: my friend group for what. I don't even know. High 181 00:10:06,240 --> 00:10:09,720 Speaker 1: school my best friend her sex stape was weeked. All 182 00:10:09,720 --> 00:10:11,680 Speaker 1: she asked me was you'll find out. Can you please 183 00:10:11,720 --> 00:10:13,880 Speaker 1: find out who did it? I find out who did it. 184 00:10:14,040 --> 00:10:15,960 Speaker 1: I gave her the name. She said, who told you? 185 00:10:16,080 --> 00:10:18,880 Speaker 1: Because she needs to know everything? And I told her, 186 00:10:18,920 --> 00:10:20,679 Speaker 1: I'm not going to tell you because the girl that 187 00:10:20,800 --> 00:10:23,400 Speaker 1: told me told me not to tell her for what reason. 188 00:10:23,880 --> 00:10:26,680 Speaker 1: I don't even know. Another girl that I was really 189 00:10:26,679 --> 00:10:28,760 Speaker 1: close with, you know, I grew up in the same neighborhood. 190 00:10:28,800 --> 00:10:31,960 Speaker 1: We were always close. I literally just stole her iPad 191 00:10:32,360 --> 00:10:34,920 Speaker 1: just to piss her off. No, it was iPod, sorry, 192 00:10:35,120 --> 00:10:38,800 Speaker 1: you know, like the music shuffle. iPod stole it from 193 00:10:38,800 --> 00:10:41,839 Speaker 1: her house, told everybody, and I was like, bitch, you're 194 00:10:41,840 --> 00:10:45,560 Speaker 1: not getting it back. Just bullied her no reason, just 195 00:10:45,600 --> 00:10:48,439 Speaker 1: because I felt like it. It's just so many fucked 196 00:10:48,520 --> 00:10:54,080 Speaker 1: up things slop with my best friend's boyfriend, stole every 197 00:10:54,800 --> 00:10:58,600 Speaker 1: nincause she had ever been with, talked about her on 198 00:10:58,679 --> 00:11:01,839 Speaker 1: social media, told all her business because I was matter 199 00:11:02,080 --> 00:11:06,280 Speaker 1: for no reason over me fighting her when I was drunk. 200 00:11:06,400 --> 00:11:09,280 Speaker 1: That she was defending herself pissed me off, so I 201 00:11:09,320 --> 00:11:12,280 Speaker 1: went on social media. I was still drunk, told all 202 00:11:12,280 --> 00:11:16,240 Speaker 1: her business on social media. She still forgave me. One day, 203 00:11:16,240 --> 00:11:18,360 Speaker 1: we were at a house party. I didn't want to 204 00:11:18,440 --> 00:11:20,559 Speaker 1: drive her to her house. I was drunk and I 205 00:11:20,600 --> 00:11:22,680 Speaker 1: didn't want to get a d u I and I 206 00:11:22,800 --> 00:11:24,800 Speaker 1: knew how to go to my house, but I didn't 207 00:11:24,800 --> 00:11:26,880 Speaker 1: want to bring her with me. Just left her at 208 00:11:26,880 --> 00:11:29,400 Speaker 1: a party. Anything could happen to her, just left her, 209 00:11:29,559 --> 00:11:33,400 Speaker 1: didn't care, no empathy whatsoever. And there's so many other things, 210 00:11:33,480 --> 00:11:35,360 Speaker 1: but I just I can't think of it right now. 211 00:11:35,400 --> 00:11:38,880 Speaker 1: But those are just a list of things throughout the 212 00:11:38,920 --> 00:11:42,320 Speaker 1: years that I've done for what reason exactly, I don't know. 213 00:11:43,280 --> 00:11:46,840 Speaker 1: And now I'm in my late twenties, I don't have anybody. 214 00:11:46,840 --> 00:11:48,600 Speaker 1: I don't have any friends. I don't have anybody to 215 00:11:48,640 --> 00:11:51,439 Speaker 1: talk to you. I don't have anything. I have siblings 216 00:11:51,440 --> 00:11:54,520 Speaker 1: that I'm close with, but it's not the same. There's 217 00:11:54,600 --> 00:11:57,000 Speaker 1: things that you want to talk to your friends about 218 00:11:57,040 --> 00:12:00,360 Speaker 1: that you can't talk to your siblings about. And I 219 00:12:00,440 --> 00:12:02,800 Speaker 1: just want a connection. I just want I want real, 220 00:12:03,400 --> 00:12:08,400 Speaker 1: you know, friendship, womanhood to circle around me. But I 221 00:12:08,440 --> 00:12:12,000 Speaker 1: feel like I'm getting the karma over all my younger 222 00:12:12,080 --> 00:12:15,360 Speaker 1: years of screwing people over. But is it really karma 223 00:12:15,440 --> 00:12:18,959 Speaker 1: if you had to funk up life too? You know 224 00:12:18,960 --> 00:12:21,640 Speaker 1: what I mean? How am I supposed to know how 225 00:12:21,640 --> 00:12:25,080 Speaker 1: to treat people if I was never taught anything, I 226 00:12:25,160 --> 00:12:28,959 Speaker 1: was never shown anything. My siblings idea of trying to 227 00:12:29,080 --> 00:12:32,200 Speaker 1: raise me was beating the funk out of me. I 228 00:12:32,240 --> 00:12:35,160 Speaker 1: remember when I got suspended in fifth grade for bullying 229 00:12:35,200 --> 00:12:38,319 Speaker 1: that girl. My sibling was like, I opened the door. 230 00:12:38,960 --> 00:12:41,560 Speaker 1: I already felt bad for what I did. He was like, 231 00:12:42,360 --> 00:12:45,280 Speaker 1: I got a belt and I got a hanger, which 232 00:12:45,280 --> 00:12:46,599 Speaker 1: one am I going to beat the funk out of 233 00:12:46,640 --> 00:12:49,360 Speaker 1: you with? And then I got I got beat up. 234 00:12:50,000 --> 00:12:52,680 Speaker 1: I skipped class one day in high school. He put 235 00:12:52,679 --> 00:12:56,040 Speaker 1: his foot in my fucking chest. I couldn't breathe. I 236 00:12:56,120 --> 00:12:59,800 Speaker 1: stole my mom's husband's credit card and bought a bunch 237 00:12:59,840 --> 00:13:04,600 Speaker 1: of ship. Literally, my face was bleeding, my chest was 238 00:13:04,679 --> 00:13:08,720 Speaker 1: read from how badly I was beaten, just all around, 239 00:13:08,800 --> 00:13:14,320 Speaker 1: just me getting abused in my house, and now I'm 240 00:13:14,360 --> 00:13:17,360 Speaker 1: going out and I'm abusing people. I don't understand why 241 00:13:17,440 --> 00:13:20,880 Speaker 1: I'm still suffering, Like why am I suffering? And why 242 00:13:20,920 --> 00:13:23,920 Speaker 1: am I feeling the karma of what I did to 243 00:13:23,960 --> 00:13:26,160 Speaker 1: women in the past, and now I have no friends 244 00:13:26,320 --> 00:13:30,120 Speaker 1: because of that. I don't understand how karma works, Like, 245 00:13:30,520 --> 00:13:32,200 Speaker 1: I don't get it. I don't I don't get what 246 00:13:32,280 --> 00:13:35,360 Speaker 1: I'm doing. I do want to change. I see I 247 00:13:35,440 --> 00:13:37,839 Speaker 1: see it now. You know, after all these years, it 248 00:13:37,960 --> 00:13:41,040 Speaker 1: took a one TikTok for me to realize that I'm 249 00:13:41,080 --> 00:13:44,600 Speaker 1: not good. I'm not a good person, But I always 250 00:13:44,600 --> 00:13:46,760 Speaker 1: felt like a good person. I always felt like, damn, like, 251 00:13:46,760 --> 00:13:48,880 Speaker 1: what the funk? Why why did that person do that 252 00:13:48,920 --> 00:13:51,200 Speaker 1: to me? Why did that person backstabbed me like that? 253 00:13:52,080 --> 00:13:54,719 Speaker 1: No one's ever done any of the ship that I've 254 00:13:54,720 --> 00:13:57,080 Speaker 1: didn't done to people. The worst thing that people have 255 00:13:57,120 --> 00:13:58,599 Speaker 1: ever done to me is probably just talked me on 256 00:13:58,679 --> 00:14:01,600 Speaker 1: my back. That's it bird rooms about me, like there's 257 00:14:01,760 --> 00:14:05,160 Speaker 1: nothing that anybody has ever done that. And when I 258 00:14:05,200 --> 00:14:08,320 Speaker 1: say anybody, I mean like in regards to friends. I mean, 259 00:14:08,920 --> 00:14:11,840 Speaker 1: I've had a lot of very very traumatic stuff happened 260 00:14:11,880 --> 00:14:16,680 Speaker 1: to me because of my family, you know, But I'm 261 00:14:16,720 --> 00:14:20,480 Speaker 1: talking about like friends at the moment. You know, I've 262 00:14:20,520 --> 00:14:23,560 Speaker 1: never really had a friend that was like horrible to me. 263 00:14:23,640 --> 00:14:26,680 Speaker 1: I've never had any of that. I mean, I've had 264 00:14:26,720 --> 00:14:29,400 Speaker 1: fake bitches around me. It was because I was fake. 265 00:14:29,640 --> 00:14:32,200 Speaker 1: I've had fake friends because I was the fake friend. 266 00:14:32,840 --> 00:14:36,080 Speaker 1: I've had backstabbing weird bitches because I was the backstabbing 267 00:14:36,120 --> 00:14:40,840 Speaker 1: weird bitch. I was the company that I kept, you know, 268 00:14:41,040 --> 00:14:45,440 Speaker 1: So how do you change now that I've acknowledged that 269 00:14:45,640 --> 00:14:48,640 Speaker 1: all of the ship that I've done and probably even 270 00:14:48,880 --> 00:14:51,920 Speaker 1: done more, I can't remember right now? What do I do? 271 00:14:52,000 --> 00:14:53,520 Speaker 1: You know what I mean? Do you think that I 272 00:14:53,520 --> 00:14:57,520 Speaker 1: should just not have friends for a little bit longer? 273 00:14:58,000 --> 00:15:01,040 Speaker 1: Should I write down and think of all the stuff 274 00:15:01,040 --> 00:15:04,760 Speaker 1: that I've done, like list by list of age by 275 00:15:04,800 --> 00:15:08,040 Speaker 1: age up until now. I'm still young. Of course I 276 00:15:08,080 --> 00:15:10,320 Speaker 1: have more life to live. But I don't want to 277 00:15:10,360 --> 00:15:12,240 Speaker 1: keep living like this, you know, I don't want to 278 00:15:12,280 --> 00:15:14,880 Speaker 1: keep attracting bad people, And I'm like, why am I 279 00:15:14,920 --> 00:15:17,520 Speaker 1: always attracting bad friends? Why am I always attracting bad 280 00:15:17,520 --> 00:15:19,480 Speaker 1: friend And now I realized that I've always been a 281 00:15:19,520 --> 00:15:23,080 Speaker 1: bad friend. They relate to me. They love the fact 282 00:15:23,120 --> 00:15:27,000 Speaker 1: that I'm just like them. Envy my sister. She has 283 00:15:27,080 --> 00:15:29,760 Speaker 1: had the same friends because she was a kid. When 284 00:15:29,800 --> 00:15:32,000 Speaker 1: I tell you this girl, there are people from like 285 00:15:32,400 --> 00:15:36,280 Speaker 1: when she was a child still asking about her, still 286 00:15:36,360 --> 00:15:40,440 Speaker 1: praising her, I'm so jealous of that. Like, I don't 287 00:15:40,440 --> 00:15:43,760 Speaker 1: know what she does. She's a very private um. She 288 00:15:43,800 --> 00:15:46,360 Speaker 1: doesn't really tell me anything. I think she knows that 289 00:15:48,240 --> 00:15:50,880 Speaker 1: I'm a fake ass person, so I don't don't I 290 00:15:50,880 --> 00:15:54,200 Speaker 1: don't blame her. I don't know anything about about that girl. 291 00:15:55,520 --> 00:15:57,760 Speaker 1: I don't think anybody knows anything about her. And I 292 00:15:57,760 --> 00:16:00,360 Speaker 1: admire her for that, um, and I love her for that. 293 00:16:00,760 --> 00:16:02,960 Speaker 1: She's always been there for me. Even though I've never 294 00:16:02,960 --> 00:16:05,560 Speaker 1: really had any real friends. I can say that my 295 00:16:05,680 --> 00:16:10,320 Speaker 1: siblings in my adult years have been my bestest friends. 296 00:16:10,360 --> 00:16:15,680 Speaker 1: And and I don't think they know like how much 297 00:16:15,720 --> 00:16:18,760 Speaker 1: they need to me at a time like this, send 298 00:16:18,800 --> 00:16:21,280 Speaker 1: my life for I've just had a horrible ship happened 299 00:16:21,320 --> 00:16:26,880 Speaker 1: to me you know, over and over again, and you 300 00:16:26,880 --> 00:16:29,320 Speaker 1: know I can see that even though like none of 301 00:16:29,360 --> 00:16:33,040 Speaker 1: my friends ever stuck, I think my sisters have definitely 302 00:16:33,080 --> 00:16:35,440 Speaker 1: like have stuck with me, you know, when I love 303 00:16:35,520 --> 00:16:38,320 Speaker 1: them like so much. But I feel so lonely now 304 00:16:39,280 --> 00:16:44,240 Speaker 1: and I feel so shitty. I feel so bad, and 305 00:16:46,520 --> 00:16:49,160 Speaker 1: I wish I could apologize to those girls. I probably 306 00:16:49,200 --> 00:16:55,560 Speaker 1: traumatized them because I was traumatized. I definitely want to change. 307 00:16:56,120 --> 00:16:58,480 Speaker 1: I want to change. I want to be better. I 308 00:16:58,560 --> 00:17:01,560 Speaker 1: want to have an amazing circle of friends, you know, 309 00:17:01,640 --> 00:17:04,480 Speaker 1: and I want to be happy, and I just want 310 00:17:04,520 --> 00:17:07,399 Speaker 1: to move on. And I'm tired of crying all the 311 00:17:07,480 --> 00:17:11,239 Speaker 1: time when I'm in my apartment by myself, and I realized, like, 312 00:17:11,359 --> 00:17:13,800 Speaker 1: damn dish, and you just finished the whole fucking bottle 313 00:17:13,840 --> 00:17:20,560 Speaker 1: of wine by yourself night after night, thinking you're having 314 00:17:20,560 --> 00:17:24,080 Speaker 1: a ball, but deep telling you and just lonely, and 315 00:17:24,119 --> 00:17:26,240 Speaker 1: the first person that talks to you end up spilling 316 00:17:26,240 --> 00:17:30,600 Speaker 1: along with your secrets because you genuinely want someone to 317 00:17:30,640 --> 00:17:36,080 Speaker 1: talk to. That's me right now. But yeah, thank you 318 00:17:36,200 --> 00:17:40,640 Speaker 1: for listening. Oh and I know I know it'll get better, 319 00:17:42,040 --> 00:17:45,280 Speaker 1: Damn baby girl, If you love me, you'll listen to 320 00:17:45,320 --> 00:17:50,200 Speaker 1: this commercial and then we'll be right back. Listen. Let 321 00:17:50,200 --> 00:17:52,840 Speaker 1: me tell you. You sent me through a series of 322 00:17:52,920 --> 00:17:55,720 Speaker 1: emotions with your story. I'm going to tell you I 323 00:17:55,840 --> 00:18:03,240 Speaker 1: went from being said sorry for you, disappointed, angry with you, 324 00:18:03,840 --> 00:18:08,680 Speaker 1: content with you, proud of you, wanting to beat your ass, 325 00:18:08,800 --> 00:18:12,160 Speaker 1: still wanting to hug you, grab you, and just hug 326 00:18:12,240 --> 00:18:15,919 Speaker 1: you and tell you that it is okay. I'm not 327 00:18:15,960 --> 00:18:19,000 Speaker 1: gonna sit here and say it's okay. You should be 328 00:18:19,040 --> 00:18:22,440 Speaker 1: forgiven for everything you did. Know you didn't sucked over 329 00:18:22,520 --> 00:18:26,120 Speaker 1: some people, but you already know you did. I don't 330 00:18:26,119 --> 00:18:28,040 Speaker 1: have to beat a dead horse. You already know what 331 00:18:28,080 --> 00:18:32,760 Speaker 1: you did was wrong. And when it comes to karma, no, no, 332 00:18:33,200 --> 00:18:36,360 Speaker 1: I don't believe that's what you're getting. I don't believe 333 00:18:36,400 --> 00:18:39,480 Speaker 1: that this is your karma or any of that ship. 334 00:18:39,600 --> 00:18:43,840 Speaker 1: What I do believe it's hurt people. Hurt people. Yes, 335 00:18:44,520 --> 00:18:48,920 Speaker 1: you was traumatized from a kid up until you were 336 00:18:49,119 --> 00:18:52,280 Speaker 1: a adult. You got the ship beat out of you. 337 00:18:52,280 --> 00:18:56,399 Speaker 1: Your mother didn't raise you, your father died, You and 338 00:18:56,440 --> 00:19:00,440 Speaker 1: your siblings had to fend for yourselves, so you basically 339 00:19:00,600 --> 00:19:05,680 Speaker 1: raised yourself along with your siblings wherever they could pitch 340 00:19:05,720 --> 00:19:09,080 Speaker 1: in and help raise you as well. Y'all raised each other. 341 00:19:09,440 --> 00:19:12,600 Speaker 1: It's nine of you. I see things like this all 342 00:19:12,600 --> 00:19:16,120 Speaker 1: the time. I grew up around families like this. I've 343 00:19:16,160 --> 00:19:19,680 Speaker 1: seen it. I'm gonna tell your story. I'm serious. Someone 344 00:19:19,720 --> 00:19:22,720 Speaker 1: who was once a friend of mine, y'all may know 345 00:19:22,800 --> 00:19:25,960 Speaker 1: this story. A couple of years ago, this girl had 346 00:19:26,040 --> 00:19:30,000 Speaker 1: put my personal information all over the internet. Not my sister. 347 00:19:30,160 --> 00:19:31,520 Speaker 1: My sister had did it to me, but I had 348 00:19:31,560 --> 00:19:34,119 Speaker 1: a friend. She put both of my phone numbers and 349 00:19:34,119 --> 00:19:37,000 Speaker 1: my address because I had made her angry. We were 350 00:19:37,080 --> 00:19:39,159 Speaker 1: arguing back and forth, and she did that. You know, 351 00:19:39,200 --> 00:19:41,239 Speaker 1: I had to move out of my house. I had 352 00:19:41,280 --> 00:19:43,960 Speaker 1: to change both of my numbers, the same number that 353 00:19:44,000 --> 00:19:46,920 Speaker 1: I've had since middle school. That everyone knew, everybody in 354 00:19:46,960 --> 00:19:50,280 Speaker 1: the industry, old friends, family, all that people, important people 355 00:19:50,800 --> 00:19:53,520 Speaker 1: had to change that. She came from a big family. 356 00:19:53,840 --> 00:19:56,920 Speaker 1: Her mother didn't raise her either. Her mother was somewhere 357 00:19:57,040 --> 00:19:59,400 Speaker 1: chasing men and ship like that. You know what I mean. 358 00:20:00,080 --> 00:20:02,800 Speaker 1: She don't have her father. Her father is actually dying, 359 00:20:03,000 --> 00:20:05,800 Speaker 1: if he's not already dead, but he was never in 360 00:20:05,840 --> 00:20:08,280 Speaker 1: her life. Didn't even want to meet her while he 361 00:20:08,320 --> 00:20:11,560 Speaker 1: was sick on his deathbed, didn't even want to fucking 362 00:20:11,800 --> 00:20:15,080 Speaker 1: apologize for anything that he did or anything that he 363 00:20:15,119 --> 00:20:17,879 Speaker 1: didn't do as a father. Her and her siblings had 364 00:20:17,920 --> 00:20:21,480 Speaker 1: to raise each other in the house. She used to 365 00:20:21,520 --> 00:20:25,119 Speaker 1: be walking up and down the street barefoot. Same ship 366 00:20:25,200 --> 00:20:29,040 Speaker 1: that you are describing to me happened to this girl 367 00:20:29,119 --> 00:20:32,320 Speaker 1: that was once my friend. Every friendship that she has 368 00:20:32,400 --> 00:20:35,440 Speaker 1: created and she has been in, she has fucked up. 369 00:20:36,359 --> 00:20:39,439 Speaker 1: So when I look at you and I look at 370 00:20:39,480 --> 00:20:44,920 Speaker 1: your story, you remind me of my old friend. We've 371 00:20:44,960 --> 00:20:50,160 Speaker 1: recently reconnected. I will never ever, ever trust her ever 372 00:20:50,280 --> 00:20:54,320 Speaker 1: again in my presence, with my new address, with any 373 00:20:54,359 --> 00:20:55,960 Speaker 1: of my numbers. But we kind of speak here and 374 00:20:56,000 --> 00:21:00,560 Speaker 1: there on social media. She's pregnant now, but she describe 375 00:21:00,800 --> 00:21:02,679 Speaker 1: some of the same things that you described to me. 376 00:21:02,880 --> 00:21:05,160 Speaker 1: She was a very lonely person. I don't know if 377 00:21:05,160 --> 00:21:07,920 Speaker 1: she is now, but I have forgiven her for everything 378 00:21:07,960 --> 00:21:11,360 Speaker 1: that she's done, because there were some really good memories 379 00:21:11,400 --> 00:21:13,520 Speaker 1: that we had in our friendship, you know, before all 380 00:21:13,520 --> 00:21:18,040 Speaker 1: that ship went down. But I realized she's hurt from 381 00:21:18,040 --> 00:21:22,520 Speaker 1: her childhood. You are hurt from your childhood, and you 382 00:21:22,600 --> 00:21:25,560 Speaker 1: inflict pain on others because it was inflicted on you. 383 00:21:26,000 --> 00:21:29,360 Speaker 1: Hurt people, hurt people. I know that's a very cliche saying, 384 00:21:29,720 --> 00:21:34,240 Speaker 1: but it's true. You are very fucking hurt and you're damaged. 385 00:21:34,320 --> 00:21:37,399 Speaker 1: And I suggest that you get into like a peace group. 386 00:21:37,880 --> 00:21:39,120 Speaker 1: I don't know if you go to church. I don't 387 00:21:39,119 --> 00:21:40,960 Speaker 1: know if you're a Christian or not or whatever, But 388 00:21:41,280 --> 00:21:44,800 Speaker 1: there are all types of groups, different types of groups 389 00:21:44,800 --> 00:21:47,440 Speaker 1: that you can get in to build your social status 390 00:21:47,600 --> 00:21:49,760 Speaker 1: learning how to treat people. You said you don't know 391 00:21:49,800 --> 00:21:53,399 Speaker 1: how to treat people. You can start by first writing 392 00:21:53,400 --> 00:21:55,879 Speaker 1: down how you want to be treated. What do you 393 00:21:55,880 --> 00:21:57,639 Speaker 1: want to feel? Do you want to feel how you 394 00:21:57,720 --> 00:22:00,359 Speaker 1: felt growing up? No? Funck No? Do you want to 395 00:22:00,400 --> 00:22:04,920 Speaker 1: feel like those girls that you ridiculed and you tortured 396 00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:07,760 Speaker 1: and you bullied? And ship? You want to feel like that? No? 397 00:22:07,880 --> 00:22:10,080 Speaker 1: You don't want to feel like that. Do you want 398 00:22:10,080 --> 00:22:12,080 Speaker 1: to do that ship? No, you don't want to do 399 00:22:12,119 --> 00:22:16,240 Speaker 1: that ship. I think that that's a good outlet for you. 400 00:22:16,240 --> 00:22:18,240 Speaker 1: You should get into one of those groups. There are 401 00:22:18,320 --> 00:22:21,480 Speaker 1: other people just like you. You feel like you're lonely, 402 00:22:22,280 --> 00:22:26,560 Speaker 1: there are other people who feel just like you. You're 403 00:22:26,600 --> 00:22:29,479 Speaker 1: not the only one that's dealing with that, you know. 404 00:22:29,760 --> 00:22:31,480 Speaker 1: I think that that's what you should do. You should 405 00:22:31,640 --> 00:22:36,120 Speaker 1: should seek social groups to be in. You know, I 406 00:22:36,119 --> 00:22:40,119 Speaker 1: think you should continue to reach out to me. After 407 00:22:40,200 --> 00:22:42,960 Speaker 1: listening to you, I will be checking in on you. Uh, 408 00:22:43,000 --> 00:22:45,040 Speaker 1: this is off air, you know what I mean. This 409 00:22:45,160 --> 00:22:47,880 Speaker 1: is not only for carefully reckless. You cried. I can 410 00:22:47,920 --> 00:22:50,760 Speaker 1: tell you're hurt. You still need to heal. You still 411 00:22:50,840 --> 00:22:52,879 Speaker 1: need to get past what happened to you as a child, 412 00:22:53,720 --> 00:22:55,600 Speaker 1: because if you don't, you'll let it hinder you for 413 00:22:55,600 --> 00:22:57,720 Speaker 1: the rest of your life. You know, you still got 414 00:22:57,760 --> 00:22:59,520 Speaker 1: a lot of life to live. You know you answered 415 00:22:59,520 --> 00:23:01,960 Speaker 1: a lot of your own questions. You know what you 416 00:23:02,000 --> 00:23:05,080 Speaker 1: need to do going forward. I think that's the healthiest 417 00:23:05,200 --> 00:23:09,000 Speaker 1: thing for you to do. That's a good start for you. 418 00:23:09,000 --> 00:23:13,320 Speaker 1: You need therapy as well. You need counseling before you 419 00:23:13,320 --> 00:23:16,160 Speaker 1: get in these groups. There are things that you need 420 00:23:16,440 --> 00:23:19,480 Speaker 1: to get out. You had a lot bottled up. I 421 00:23:19,480 --> 00:23:22,080 Speaker 1: could have given you your own episode with the things 422 00:23:22,119 --> 00:23:25,119 Speaker 1: that you and I could sit and talk about back 423 00:23:25,160 --> 00:23:29,280 Speaker 1: and forth. I want you to check in with me. Jesus, girl, 424 00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:33,120 Speaker 1: you got me fucking emotional. Girl. You need to check 425 00:23:33,160 --> 00:23:36,080 Speaker 1: in with me more, way more um and I'll be 426 00:23:36,160 --> 00:23:39,040 Speaker 1: checking in on YouTube. And I want to let you 427 00:23:39,080 --> 00:23:41,600 Speaker 1: know I don't know you from a can of paint. 428 00:23:41,920 --> 00:23:44,959 Speaker 1: You don't know me, but from one woman to another, 429 00:23:45,080 --> 00:23:48,199 Speaker 1: one young lady to another, I love you. I do 430 00:23:48,280 --> 00:23:49,879 Speaker 1: love you. I think you need to hear that. I 431 00:23:49,920 --> 00:23:53,399 Speaker 1: think you need some type of affection. I think you 432 00:23:53,480 --> 00:23:56,320 Speaker 1: need to reunite with your mother as well, you know, 433 00:23:56,359 --> 00:23:59,120 Speaker 1: and tell her how you feel. You don't have your dad. 434 00:23:59,160 --> 00:24:00,840 Speaker 1: You don't have a dad, you know, but you still 435 00:24:00,880 --> 00:24:04,399 Speaker 1: do have a living parent. I think she gave up 436 00:24:04,400 --> 00:24:08,399 Speaker 1: on being a mother, so you blame her for a 437 00:24:08,480 --> 00:24:10,119 Speaker 1: lot of things. But I think that you need to 438 00:24:10,160 --> 00:24:14,040 Speaker 1: talk to her. I think you need to seek counseling therapy, 439 00:24:14,480 --> 00:24:18,639 Speaker 1: like a psychiatrist or a psychologist. I can't sit here 440 00:24:18,640 --> 00:24:21,520 Speaker 1: and tell you that I know the accurate difference, Like 441 00:24:21,600 --> 00:24:25,200 Speaker 1: I really don't know the exact difference between a psychologist 442 00:24:25,200 --> 00:24:27,760 Speaker 1: and a psychiatrist. But should We're gonna figure this ship 443 00:24:27,880 --> 00:24:31,679 Speaker 1: out together because I'm all about helping people, not just women, 444 00:24:32,440 --> 00:24:36,200 Speaker 1: mainly women. And then I want you to seek those 445 00:24:36,280 --> 00:24:39,280 Speaker 1: piece groups, you know, those social groups and ship they're 446 00:24:39,359 --> 00:24:42,480 Speaker 1: everywhere everywhere. I know you don't want to hurt people 447 00:24:42,520 --> 00:24:44,400 Speaker 1: for the rest of your life. Who the fund does 448 00:24:44,960 --> 00:24:47,880 Speaker 1: you couldn't have been getting no type of enjoyment out 449 00:24:47,880 --> 00:24:50,840 Speaker 1: of fucking up other people's lives and sucking up all 450 00:24:50,920 --> 00:24:54,240 Speaker 1: those bonds and and fucking your home girls and niggas 451 00:24:54,240 --> 00:24:57,760 Speaker 1: and ship like that deep down inside. No, no, no, 452 00:24:57,760 --> 00:25:00,879 Speaker 1: no no, you thought that ship made you better. It didn't. 453 00:25:01,600 --> 00:25:05,320 Speaker 1: Temporarily it did, but no, you're right back to square one. 454 00:25:06,080 --> 00:25:07,960 Speaker 1: I want you to check in with me. I'm serious 455 00:25:08,000 --> 00:25:11,480 Speaker 1: about that. And on that note, we're gonna end this episode. 456 00:25:12,000 --> 00:25:16,880 Speaker 1: This one has been a very emotional one for me. 457 00:25:17,359 --> 00:25:19,840 Speaker 1: I'm not gonna lie that that ship is gonna be 458 00:25:19,880 --> 00:25:21,960 Speaker 1: on my mind. But I want you guys to tune 459 00:25:21,960 --> 00:25:25,399 Speaker 1: into co Parents and Therapy at seven pm tonight, Me 460 00:25:25,480 --> 00:25:28,560 Speaker 1: and Jerome are sitting down with our very first guest, 461 00:25:29,080 --> 00:25:31,040 Speaker 1: and you guys do not want to miss it. 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