WEBVTT - Messages from the Afterlife with Medium A.J. Barrera

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<v Speaker 1>What is a medium? Mediums connect with those who have

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<v Speaker 1>passed over in the spirit room and individuals where they

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<v Speaker 1>have one foot in the physical world one foot on

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<v Speaker 1>their side, they're able to bridge that connection. Hence a medium.

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<v Speaker 1>Is there a unique reference that you would actually have

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<v Speaker 1>some sort of rock of her? Oh now that? Oh

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<v Speaker 1>my god, that's so crazy. I gave my mom a

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<v Speaker 1>rock when she was here. I'm just hearing it in

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<v Speaker 1>a way of just like me, princess, PRINCESSA Oh my god,

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<v Speaker 1>those are the words like she would always call me, princess.

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<v Speaker 1>What up, guys. Welcome to Chickens and chill Um your

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<v Speaker 1>host cheek ease. I hope you all had a really

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<v Speaker 1>great weekend and you're starting your week off strong. Today's

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<v Speaker 1>episode is probably going to be a little intense. That's

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<v Speaker 1>because I'm talking to a medium. We'll be talking about

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<v Speaker 1>how it all works, and also I'll be getting a reading.

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<v Speaker 1>I hope you guys are ready for this episode, because

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<v Speaker 1>I sure am. This is checks and chill Okay, So

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<v Speaker 1>today's guest is a J. Berrera or A. He's a

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<v Speaker 1>psychic medium and intuitive counselor based in Los Angeles. He's

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<v Speaker 1>been doing this for about twenty years and so I'm

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<v Speaker 1>really looking forward to talking to him a j. First

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<v Speaker 1>of all, I want to say thank you, thank you

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<v Speaker 1>so much for doing this. I know we talked a

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<v Speaker 1>while ago. I mean, are my first reading was my

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<v Speaker 1>mom was still here? Right? Correct? That was several years ago.

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<v Speaker 1>What year was that? I think that was ten or

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<v Speaker 1>we love and if I'm not mistaken, yeah, yeah, So

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<v Speaker 1>I think you went to our house in Encino. You

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<v Speaker 1>were part of the reality show as well, and I

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<v Speaker 1>think that's when you were the first one that mentioned

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<v Speaker 1>that my stepdad, Juan, who had passed in in O nine,

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<v Speaker 1>was in the house and doing and just wanted to

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<v Speaker 1>let us know that he was there. The kids were like,

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<v Speaker 1>we were all freaking out. We're like, oh my god,

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<v Speaker 1>how does he know that we hear things? That is

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<v Speaker 1>so crazy. It's so amazing because at the time I

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<v Speaker 1>had my show from Beyond that would air I think

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<v Speaker 1>before after your Your Guys show. So it was weird

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<v Speaker 1>because it was kind of like the way it presented

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<v Speaker 1>itself and I wasn't sure if you guys were gonna

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<v Speaker 1>be open to it. And when the producer reached out

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<v Speaker 1>to me and mentioned that, and I said, well, they're

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<v Speaker 1>open and recepted to it, and just look all the

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<v Speaker 1>different things that were happening within your home and the energies.

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<v Speaker 1>It was just really interesting to see how things kind

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<v Speaker 1>of orchestrated and the reading kind of took place in

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<v Speaker 1>its own very organically. So it was a beautiful thing.

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<v Speaker 1>It was. We were in my mom's office, I remember,

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<v Speaker 1>and you looked at me and you said that I

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<v Speaker 1>had no idea what was coming in my future. You

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<v Speaker 1>told me all kinds of things, and I was like, whoa.

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<v Speaker 1>I mean, we never thought my mom would leave us

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<v Speaker 1>and things would play out the way they have. But

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<v Speaker 1>like everything that you said was like whoa. Now I

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<v Speaker 1>look back and I think back, because I mean, thank goodness,

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<v Speaker 1>we have the reality show. We can look back and

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<v Speaker 1>see those moments. It's just like, my goodness. First of all,

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<v Speaker 1>let's let's start off with can you explain to us

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<v Speaker 1>for the listeners that may not know what a medium is, like,

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<v Speaker 1>what is a medium? Yeah? Absolutely, so there is a

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<v Speaker 1>difference between a psychic and a medium. So some people

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<v Speaker 1>are just mediums where they connect with those who have

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<v Speaker 1>passed over in the spirit realm and those individuals where

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<v Speaker 1>they have one foot in the physical world, one foot

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<v Speaker 1>on their side where they're able to bridge that connection,

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<v Speaker 1>hence a medium. Then you have a psychic who actually

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<v Speaker 1>works with tarot cards, crystals. They predict the future, give

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<v Speaker 1>you guidance, and so on, so forth. So there are

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<v Speaker 1>individuals that focus just on psychic work and medimistic work.

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<v Speaker 1>As for me, I do both psychic and medium ship work,

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<v Speaker 1>which is intuitive guidance and connecting with those who have

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<v Speaker 1>passed over. Okay, perfect, And is there a way of

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<v Speaker 1>like learning this or is this something that you're born with?

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<v Speaker 1>I love that you asked that question. A lot of

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<v Speaker 1>people think that that you're born with this a gift

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<v Speaker 1>or this ability. I always tell people it's an ability

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<v Speaker 1>more so than a gift. Because we all are we

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<v Speaker 1>all are intuitive, we all have that gut feeling, we

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<v Speaker 1>all have that intuition whatever you want to call it,

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<v Speaker 1>being sensitive. So if you ever had a moment in

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<v Speaker 1>your life that say, for instance, that you are doing

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<v Speaker 1>a business still and all of a sudden, your gut

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<v Speaker 1>tells you, like this doesn't feel right, or you're gonna

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<v Speaker 1>make a move to a new home, it doesn't feel right.

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<v Speaker 1>You're listening to that intuition, and that's what we need

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<v Speaker 1>to pay attention to. So what I do I hold workshops,

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<v Speaker 1>classes and so on, so forth to teach people how

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<v Speaker 1>to do this work. Because I'm only one person, so

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<v Speaker 1>we can have hundreds or thousand more people out there

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<v Speaker 1>that can heal the world and give people advice and

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<v Speaker 1>give the people the guidance. It's something that we can

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<v Speaker 1>tap into. But it really starts with ethics, grounding, meditation,

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<v Speaker 1>the foundation of mediumship, which is really being respectful to

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<v Speaker 1>people's work. And a lot of people will tell me like, hey,

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<v Speaker 1>can you tap into this person's energy, And I would

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<v Speaker 1>tell them absolutely not, because it's being disrespectful, it's not

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<v Speaker 1>being ethical and not to be personal. When when you

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<v Speaker 1>know people come into this work, they take one workshop,

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<v Speaker 1>the take one class, and they think like oh the psychic,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm a medium. It takes years to develop that ability

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<v Speaker 1>and to recognize it. So with you, you're you're very

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<v Speaker 1>sensitive and just in general as a person, but you

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<v Speaker 1>also vibrate this beautiful green energy. And typically that green

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<v Speaker 1>energy is like the humanitarian, the fixed person, the therapist,

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<v Speaker 1>Like you always want to make things right, but you

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<v Speaker 1>really don't know how to make things right for yourself

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<v Speaker 1>to focus on the things that makes sense for you.

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<v Speaker 1>So with you, it's there's there's a sense of trying

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<v Speaker 1>to bring balance in but you really don't know how

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<v Speaker 1>to do it. Even though you you want to do it,

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<v Speaker 1>you don't know how to do it. So it's really

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<v Speaker 1>recognizing what your gut and what spirit is telling you.

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<v Speaker 1>And I think just development over time is that the

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<v Speaker 1>brain is like a muscle. The more that you work

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<v Speaker 1>with it, the stronger and better than it gets. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>I call it my sixth sense. I'm like, you know what,

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<v Speaker 1>I always thank God. I'm like, thank you for my

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<v Speaker 1>five senses and my sixth sense because I'm very intuitive.

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<v Speaker 1>I I can feel certain energies. I feel like if

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<v Speaker 1>I were to stop honestly drinking and maybe smoking a

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<v Speaker 1>little weed, because I smoke weed at night sometimes. So

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like if I were to just cleanse myself

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<v Speaker 1>and maybe become like vegetarian, like, I will be like

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<v Speaker 1>vibrating at a different level and I feel like I

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<v Speaker 1>can develop it more. But I'm not gonna lie. Sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>a part of it's kind of like a little like

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<v Speaker 1>maybe I'll wait a little bit, but I know how,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, Yeah, but I think at the same time,

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<v Speaker 1>people are fearful. They're fearful of the unknown. They're fearful

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<v Speaker 1>of like not knowing how to turn it on or

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<v Speaker 1>off or tap into it. So it's really again just

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<v Speaker 1>having that balance and understanding the process. I come from

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<v Speaker 1>a Catholic background one Heaven, one how on that judgment

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<v Speaker 1>day you go to that place. So for me, my

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<v Speaker 1>parents weren't really big believers in this work. They thought

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<v Speaker 1>I was taboo. So I've been doing this work for

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<v Speaker 1>twenty years now. So when I started doing this work

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<v Speaker 1>on radio stations here here in l A, my mom

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<v Speaker 1>thought it was a phase. So she goes, oh, it's

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<v Speaker 1>just a phase. It's just a phase. I go, Mom,

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<v Speaker 1>I've been doing this work for like twenty years now.

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<v Speaker 1>It's not a phase anymore. This is like what I

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<v Speaker 1>do right. So again, the more that you recognize the cheeky's,

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<v Speaker 1>I think it's gonna be such an easy process to

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<v Speaker 1>resonate with the subtle signs, because we expect to get

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<v Speaker 1>these big, almighty signs from the other side, and sometimes

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<v Speaker 1>they're very subtle. It's a thought, it's a feeling, it's

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<v Speaker 1>a sense, it's a smell, it's a little different things.

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<v Speaker 1>If we recognize that, then we can gradually develop that ability.

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<v Speaker 1>And you said you started this work twenty years ago. Yeah, okay,

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<v Speaker 1>and how how did you know what happened where You're like, Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>this is what I'm meant to do, this is what

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<v Speaker 1>makes me happy, or I don't know, tell us a

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<v Speaker 1>little bit about it. Yeah, so interesting background with my work.

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<v Speaker 1>I never had a near death experience. I never had

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<v Speaker 1>like something that traumatized me. I never lost anyone close

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<v Speaker 1>to me as a young individual. So for me, it

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<v Speaker 1>was more so curiosity than anything else. I was very

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<v Speaker 1>curious about the afterlife, the beyond, psychics and medium So

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<v Speaker 1>I grew up watching I Dream A Genie b Which,

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<v Speaker 1>The X Files, The Unexplained, you know, the Twilight Zone,

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<v Speaker 1>like all these different shows that meet me want to understand.

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<v Speaker 1>I guess the woo woo stuff if you will, because

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<v Speaker 1>you know, I grew up watching certain talk shows, and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm sure you have. You're not that much older. I

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<v Speaker 1>think younger. I think you're younger than me if I'm mistaken.

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<v Speaker 1>So we had talk shows like Sally Jesse, Rafael, Jenny Jones,

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<v Speaker 1>like all these different people and they had psychics and

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<v Speaker 1>mediums on television shows where they placed people in the

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<v Speaker 1>audience and they had them like read different things and

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<v Speaker 1>so on so forth. So I thought it was all

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<v Speaker 1>set up, like it was all placed, like, oh, this

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<v Speaker 1>is all like an act basically. So I kind of

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<v Speaker 1>went on my own journey when I was in sixth grade,

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<v Speaker 1>which is at a very young age, and I started

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<v Speaker 1>working with Tarot cards. It's actually the Writer's Deck, one

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<v Speaker 1>of the original decks that I recommend to people if

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<v Speaker 1>they're interested in tarot to work with that. So I

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<v Speaker 1>started working with Tarot cards from sixth grade to eighth grade,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was explaining giving readings to people in junior

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<v Speaker 1>high and so people that I was the weird kid.

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<v Speaker 1>Obviously I wasn't very popular at all. I was definitely

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<v Speaker 1>the weird kid. But you know, so I I could

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<v Speaker 1>look back now and make fun of myself and see like,

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<v Speaker 1>oh my god, what was I doing back then, because

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<v Speaker 1>it wasn't something that was really talked about back then.

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<v Speaker 1>It was really looked as taboo, the devil's work, evil

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<v Speaker 1>and so on so forth. So having that understanding, it

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<v Speaker 1>was really trying to bring that balance. I think for me,

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<v Speaker 1>my freshman year when I met my high school teacher

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<v Speaker 1>and she's actually a medium who I still talked to

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<v Speaker 1>like on a weekly basis, And she is a medium,

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<v Speaker 1>and she told me that I had the ability to

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<v Speaker 1>communicate with the either side. I did not know that.

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<v Speaker 1>All I knew I was able to read energy like

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<v Speaker 1>psychic energy, like I was able to sense things and

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<v Speaker 1>read things and predict things that were coming up. So

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<v Speaker 1>I started working with her for four years. I had

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<v Speaker 1>her for a PR science biology for everything because I

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<v Speaker 1>wanted to know everything. I was like a sponge. I

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<v Speaker 1>exhorbed everything that I want to do, so I really

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<v Speaker 1>didn't take any classes. It was more of a natural

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<v Speaker 1>ability that came to me an understanding because I mean

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<v Speaker 1>some of the books that I had behind me in

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<v Speaker 1>my garage and my other office. I have so many

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<v Speaker 1>books from when I started this work to help me

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<v Speaker 1>understand it. And I love reading about this work because

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<v Speaker 1>I see myself as an internal student of this work.

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<v Speaker 1>So I will never know everything about this work even

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<v Speaker 1>as I get older. I learned new development, new frame

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<v Speaker 1>of references of how I work. But for me that

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<v Speaker 1>that was yeah, because like, you cannot know everything, and

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<v Speaker 1>I always tell people, I can and will be wrong

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<v Speaker 1>in reading. I can admit that I am not like

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<v Speaker 1>needed to toot my horn and saying like it has

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<v Speaker 1>to be this way, has to be that way. Like

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<v Speaker 1>you have to accept that because if you're working from

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<v Speaker 1>a place of v ego, you're not working from a

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<v Speaker 1>place of love. And you need to work from a

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<v Speaker 1>place of love when you do this work, because if

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<v Speaker 1>you're working with that vibration, that's what you want to

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<v Speaker 1>get back out to the client, to the individual or

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<v Speaker 1>whoever you're talking to, because they're there too. Hell and

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<v Speaker 1>we all healed differently in our own ways, and we

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<v Speaker 1>all grieve differently. Some of us take a year, five years,

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<v Speaker 1>ten years. There's no time frame on healing. There's no timeline,

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<v Speaker 1>so it's as being patient with it. But for things

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<v Speaker 1>that happened and real quick to backtrack with with high

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<v Speaker 1>school works with my mentor Ellen Marin for four years,

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<v Speaker 1>and then at age nineteen and a half, I landed

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<v Speaker 1>a gig with Coast one of three point five in Burbank.

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<v Speaker 1>So I landed a contract with them and I was

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<v Speaker 1>on the on the show from seven at midnight in

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<v Speaker 1>a radio show called Angels and Waiting they took me

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<v Speaker 1>in the studio and said, hey, let's let's check out

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<v Speaker 1>this guy. They saw a kid that was there and

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<v Speaker 1>they're like, what is this kid get gonna do? So

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<v Speaker 1>they had me come in the studio. Yeah, trust me,

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<v Speaker 1>I was so nervous. I've never done live radio, never

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<v Speaker 1>done anything like that. And they had me read, like

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<v Speaker 1>basically screened me to eat for six different people, like

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<v Speaker 1>all over New York, Kansas, whatever a v phone. Because

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<v Speaker 1>everything that I do is work about energy, it's about

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<v Speaker 1>a person's voice. So one thing led to another, and

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<v Speaker 1>dined at a gig, and then from there on I

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<v Speaker 1>went to k BIG, which is now my FM, and

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<v Speaker 1>Kiss FM, Hot I T jams and things just kind

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<v Speaker 1>of took off. I wasn't trying to do this work.

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<v Speaker 1>My background, honestly was to be a firefighter, to be

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<v Speaker 1>in law enforcement. Now I work, Yeah, yeah, but now

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<v Speaker 1>here's a beautiful part. And now I teach classes with departments,

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<v Speaker 1>and I teach them with detectives, and I teach them

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<v Speaker 1>how to do this work. But also we work with

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<v Speaker 1>detectives high rking. I'm not gonna say the department because

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<v Speaker 1>there's a lot of red tape around it. But with

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<v Speaker 1>different departments that we teach intuitives how to work with

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<v Speaker 1>law enforcement, because you have to think of us like

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<v Speaker 1>when we work on missing person in the homicide cases,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm just like a dog, like a canine, a diver dog.

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<v Speaker 1>I sniffed out the information and the detective needs to

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<v Speaker 1>figure out how to do it, you know what I mean.

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<v Speaker 1>So for me, it's about really learning the work. And

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<v Speaker 1>I've been blessed and fortunate because now I work with

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<v Speaker 1>small and large departments, law enforcement companies and cold cases.

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<v Speaker 1>So it just kind of became full circle years later. Yeah, circle,

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<v Speaker 1>so awesome. Do you know roughly how many readings you've done,

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<v Speaker 1>well over fifteen thousand. Is it something that you can

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<v Speaker 1>turn off for it? If you're just hanging out, you're

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<v Speaker 1>at a dinner, do you start getting feelings from someone

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<v Speaker 1>like hey there anything like that? I mean, yes and no,

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<v Speaker 1>it has happened a couple of times. But for me,

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<v Speaker 1>like there again, there's ethics with it. So when I

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<v Speaker 1>clock in, basically I'm working so meditation and prayer. Even

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<v Speaker 1>when I do any interviews, radio, whatever I do, I meditate,

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<v Speaker 1>prey and I just you know, be the vessel for

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<v Speaker 1>the instrument of spirit basically, and when I'm done, I

0:12:23.640 --> 0:12:26.000
<v Speaker 1>shut down my chakras, I shut down and do a prayer,

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<v Speaker 1>Thank God, thank Spirit for allowing me to do what

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<v Speaker 1>I do. It's always giving thanks and being respectful of

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<v Speaker 1>the process regardless if I don't know what's going to

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<v Speaker 1>happen in an interview or in an event or so on,

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<v Speaker 1>so worth I need to allow it to happen. So

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<v Speaker 1>you can't keep that battery always on because what's gonna happen.

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<v Speaker 1>It's gonna vent, You're gonna drain and you can't recharge

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<v Speaker 1>it quickly enough. And so you have to be respectful

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<v Speaker 1>of the body and what the body is telling you.

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<v Speaker 1>And there's times that I've done events where I'm like

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<v Speaker 1>at this high, like vibrating so high, but I feel

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<v Speaker 1>tired at the same time. So it's really learning to say,

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<v Speaker 1>check yourself first before anything else, because you can't always

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<v Speaker 1>just be around doing readings. Okay, Well, with that being said,

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<v Speaker 1>would you be open to giving me a reading right now?

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<v Speaker 1>Are you on right now? Absolutely? Every client's different. Every

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<v Speaker 1>person is different of what they're looking for. If it's mediumistically,

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<v Speaker 1>if it's about connecting with spirit, or if it's connecting

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<v Speaker 1>with your energy in general. So are you open and

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<v Speaker 1>receptive to everything? I'm open and receptive to everything. Okay,

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<v Speaker 1>So if I can ask you, what's your birth month

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<v Speaker 1>and your birth date? So what I'm doing is I'm

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<v Speaker 1>working with numerology real quick. So when we wreak down

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<v Speaker 1>your information, you break down to a twenty. So twenty

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<v Speaker 1>you break down two plus zero equals to serio two vibrations.

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<v Speaker 1>So what's interesting about a two vibration? This year is

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<v Speaker 1>all about patients. It's all about calming down for what

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<v Speaker 1>you need to focus on. What's interesting. The last three

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<v Speaker 1>years for you have been very heavy weight, like very

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<v Speaker 1>heavy lifting that you needed to do, and it's about

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<v Speaker 1>coming into play about being responsible for yourself. What I

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<v Speaker 1>do see what's interesting with you is that this is

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<v Speaker 1>going to be a year for you to focus on

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<v Speaker 1>kind of like having this whole past to kind of

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<v Speaker 1>relax and do the things that you need to do

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<v Speaker 1>in your own personal life, not so much relating to career.

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<v Speaker 1>Because you're so driven of what you need to do,

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<v Speaker 1>it's hard for you to take a backseat and focus

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<v Speaker 1>on the needs for cheekies for yourself because you're always

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<v Speaker 1>like this motor vibrating and moving in this direction, saying

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<v Speaker 1>I gotta go, I gotta go, I gotta go, and

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<v Speaker 1>the moment that you sit down, it's kind of like crap,

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<v Speaker 1>like what do I What can I work on next?

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<v Speaker 1>What can I do next? So it's about you really

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<v Speaker 1>being patient with that vibration and focusing on the things

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<v Speaker 1>that you need to do for yourself. What's interesting here

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<v Speaker 1>is that I don't want to be too personal, but

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<v Speaker 1>I am gonna ask you. I don't know if you

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<v Speaker 1>are currently in a relationship, but are you currently in

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<v Speaker 1>a relationship. If you don't be asking, I am okay.

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<v Speaker 1>So when we look at that vibration, it's gonna be

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<v Speaker 1>about you focusing for this year, about focusing on relationships,

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<v Speaker 1>focusing on communication, and focusing on the things that you

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<v Speaker 1>need to you. So it's gonna be about presenting it

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<v Speaker 1>this year. I feel like that for an interesting reference.

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<v Speaker 1>I don't know if if last year, if you were

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<v Speaker 1>in that relationship, but to me, it makes me feel

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<v Speaker 1>like this year is very significant for you to focus

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<v Speaker 1>on really bridging that gap. And what's interesting, there's gonna

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<v Speaker 1>be a very unique reference. What I'm being shown energetically,

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<v Speaker 1>which lets me know that there is going to be

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<v Speaker 1>a sense of you not jumping into like, Oh, we're

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<v Speaker 1>gonna move in, we're gonna get married, we're gonna do this.

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<v Speaker 1>I think it's gonna be a reality check for you

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<v Speaker 1>to kind of say, like, Okay, do I really take

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<v Speaker 1>a step back and really move into this vibration and

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<v Speaker 1>this relationship very calmly, very smoothly, because the challenges that

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<v Speaker 1>you had is really with your heart chakra. You give

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<v Speaker 1>too much energetically. You put everything out there energetically, so

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<v Speaker 1>it's about being protected at that same nature, what I

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<v Speaker 1>do need to bring up here with you as I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like that you have a lot of guidance that

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<v Speaker 1>is coming through from the spirit realm. So if it's

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<v Speaker 1>your loved ones, if it's from your guides, I feel

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<v Speaker 1>like it's important for you to recognize this what we

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<v Speaker 1>do need to bring up here. And I may be

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<v Speaker 1>mistaken in the process because I'm going to go in

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<v Speaker 1>a direction here. There's a sense that I see with

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<v Speaker 1>when we look at the relationship vibration here, there's a

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<v Speaker 1>sense that I don't want to say there's difficulty, but

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<v Speaker 1>it seems like it's about really you kind of vibrating

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<v Speaker 1>to his energy. And I don't know how this does

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<v Speaker 1>make sense to you. I don't know if there's a

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<v Speaker 1>sense of him like being private or closed off or

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<v Speaker 1>whatever it is. But there's a sense of kind of

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<v Speaker 1>saying like I respect my woman. I respect my woman,

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<v Speaker 1>but I don't want to be present with my woman,

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<v Speaker 1>if that makes sense. It's almost like I don't want that,

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<v Speaker 1>I wanta say limelight, but there's a sense of that

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<v Speaker 1>that I feel like there's a sense of like being

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<v Speaker 1>respectful to the process in you. So if there is

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<v Speaker 1>gonna be some seed bumps that you guys are going

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<v Speaker 1>to go through, which is normal with any relationship, I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like Spirit is gonna be working with you. Now.

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<v Speaker 1>What I do want to go into is relating to

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<v Speaker 1>more so the vibration of spirit in general. And what's

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<v Speaker 1>interesting here because when I bring this up here and

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<v Speaker 1>I I am just gonna be very direct with everything,

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<v Speaker 1>and I hope you don't mind where I'm going with this. Obviously,

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<v Speaker 1>Mom isn't spirit. Obviously I know that we know that,

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<v Speaker 1>and I do need to recognize this. And I'm going

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<v Speaker 1>to give you everything either how I feel, and you

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<v Speaker 1>may ask questions, and I'll be honest, like Cheeky's, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>not feeling it. I'm not sensing it. But what I

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<v Speaker 1>can tell you vibration ly is I just get immediately

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<v Speaker 1>like blackness to my head, which is more symbolism. It

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<v Speaker 1>doesn't mean like a physical injury, doesn't mean that, but

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<v Speaker 1>it lets me know that her soul and her spirit

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<v Speaker 1>immediately left the body before impact. I do not feel

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<v Speaker 1>like there's a sense of recognizing what was going on,

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<v Speaker 1>because to me, everything feels very blurry, and it feels

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<v Speaker 1>like there's a sense of being at peace. There's not

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<v Speaker 1>a moment of being afraid, which is weird. It's like

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<v Speaker 1>a calm energy, and you would think that so one

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<v Speaker 1>in that situation or individuals in that situation would be fearful,

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<v Speaker 1>but it's a sense of like coming to a calmness.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like the calm before the storm. I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>if your mom would have own her destiny because I

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<v Speaker 1>don't predict, I don't play god, I don't do any

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<v Speaker 1>of that. But there's a sense with her that she

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<v Speaker 1>wants to recodize more so her love and her gratitude

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<v Speaker 1>towards you, because there wasn't that opportunity to verbally communicate

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<v Speaker 1>that with you, and I feel like it's important for

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<v Speaker 1>you to hear it from her, not from me as

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<v Speaker 1>a medium, but from your mom, because there's a sense

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<v Speaker 1>of understanding and accepting your mom's transition, but there's a

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<v Speaker 1>sense that still makes there there's a brick wall, as

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<v Speaker 1>if I never really got It's not an apology, but

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<v Speaker 1>it's a sense of being validated and being accepted. And

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<v Speaker 1>your mom wants to make sure that you understand that

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<v Speaker 1>she appreciates you then and she appreciates you now because

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<v Speaker 1>there's a sense that she wants to put you on

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<v Speaker 1>a beautiful pedestal in her way for what you have

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<v Speaker 1>done not only after her transition, but more so kind

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<v Speaker 1>of making yourself as like I gotta be in charge,

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<v Speaker 1>I gotta do this. And you took life by the

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<v Speaker 1>by the horns or by the rain, if you will,

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<v Speaker 1>and you kind of like gotta do what you gotta do.

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<v Speaker 1>I do need to bring something interesting. And I don't

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<v Speaker 1>know if you know this, but I don't speak a

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<v Speaker 1>lot of Spanish at all whatsoever, so it might come

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<v Speaker 1>out very so used. The thing I feel like there's

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<v Speaker 1>a sense like I'm just hearing it in a way

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<v Speaker 1>of just like if I'm seeing it correctly, like me, PRINCESSA, me, PRINCESSA,

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<v Speaker 1>Like I keep on hearing over and over and over again,

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<v Speaker 1>and she just wants to put this little t r

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<v Speaker 1>like this crown on you as like you're still my

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<v Speaker 1>little girl, even though you're an adult. In front of

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<v Speaker 1>me and to your mother, there's a sense that she

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<v Speaker 1>wants to pay that respect to you in a very

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<v Speaker 1>beautiful way to recognize Mom will always be with you,

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<v Speaker 1>she will always be guiding you. Because there's moments that

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<v Speaker 1>I know, Cheeky's that you're very spiritual, hence you could

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<v Speaker 1>be very religious at the same time, but I know

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<v Speaker 1>you know your mom was with you. You know that

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<v Speaker 1>your mom is guiding you, but also accepting that. And

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<v Speaker 1>it's not about apologizing because your mom is laughing saying

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<v Speaker 1>that she would never really apologize, to be quite frank,

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<v Speaker 1>so this is not a woman that would really apologize.

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<v Speaker 1>But I feel like it's your way making peace and

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<v Speaker 1>kind of clearing the air that she wants to happen

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<v Speaker 1>here with you because it's something that you need to

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<v Speaker 1>hear from her. There's also a reference that she's showing

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<v Speaker 1>to me that I feel like I might misinterpret. Would

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<v Speaker 1>you understand why she would actually show me like, say,

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<v Speaker 1>oh my god, I'm seeing like a bunch of materials.

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<v Speaker 1>So did you somehow put pieces of material together for

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<v Speaker 1>your mother, or like you somehow did some sort of quilt,

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<v Speaker 1>or you did some sort of blanket. I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>what it is, but there's something that she wants to

0:20:23.440 --> 0:20:25.399
<v Speaker 1>say thank you for honoring her or thank you for

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<v Speaker 1>doing this. So what's the reference. Yeah, I've I've made

0:20:28.359 --> 0:20:31.600
<v Speaker 1>a lot of blankets that I travel with, that I

0:20:31.640 --> 0:20:34.439
<v Speaker 1>sleep with, that I make. They have her pictures and

0:20:34.440 --> 0:20:37.280
<v Speaker 1>pictures of her and I together. Okay, there might be

0:20:37.440 --> 0:20:39.280
<v Speaker 1>a very specific one that I do need to bring

0:20:39.359 --> 0:20:41.680
<v Speaker 1>up here. There would be one that I'm seeing that

0:20:41.720 --> 0:20:45.000
<v Speaker 1>would be more of her items, like say, I don't

0:20:45.040 --> 0:20:47.359
<v Speaker 1>know her shirt, her jacket. I don't know what it is,

0:20:47.400 --> 0:20:49.200
<v Speaker 1>but it feels very personal that she wants to say

0:20:49.200 --> 0:20:51.800
<v Speaker 1>thank you for that one specifically. So I don't know

0:20:51.840 --> 0:20:53.520
<v Speaker 1>how that makes sense for you, but she wants to

0:20:53.560 --> 0:20:55.720
<v Speaker 1>thank you for doing that because she definitely wants to

0:20:55.720 --> 0:20:58.760
<v Speaker 1>recognize that she's still You're guarding your protector in that

0:20:58.840 --> 0:21:01.600
<v Speaker 1>sense when she comes through. There's also a sense that

0:21:01.720 --> 0:21:03.800
<v Speaker 1>I keep on hearing her as like saying, continue to

0:21:03.880 --> 0:21:06.000
<v Speaker 1>kind of be like a chingo now like a badass,

0:21:06.080 --> 0:21:08.440
<v Speaker 1>because I feel like that's something that your mom wants

0:21:08.480 --> 0:21:10.679
<v Speaker 1>to do, is support you on this level of that

0:21:10.760 --> 0:21:12.960
<v Speaker 1>you need from her. I want to make sure that

0:21:13.040 --> 0:21:16.080
<v Speaker 1>you understand this from her, not for me, is that

0:21:16.119 --> 0:21:18.720
<v Speaker 1>you've always had that support from your mother, even in

0:21:18.760 --> 0:21:21.119
<v Speaker 1>the moments that you feel like you didn't have it

0:21:21.160 --> 0:21:23.760
<v Speaker 1>from her. And I feel like that when she brings

0:21:23.800 --> 0:21:26.359
<v Speaker 1>it up here, it was her way of giving you

0:21:26.400 --> 0:21:29.680
<v Speaker 1>the sense of tough love, given the sense of respect

0:21:30.119 --> 0:21:32.480
<v Speaker 1>that you need it. Because there's a sense with Mom's

0:21:32.560 --> 0:21:35.280
<v Speaker 1>energy is that when she shifts my awareness, there's a

0:21:35.280 --> 0:21:38.520
<v Speaker 1>sense that you're able to truly be on your own.

0:21:39.000 --> 0:21:40.600
<v Speaker 1>And I feel like that you were always on your own,

0:21:40.600 --> 0:21:42.679
<v Speaker 1>though in a very interesting way. And I feel like

0:21:42.720 --> 0:21:46.919
<v Speaker 1>that she never meant to give you the responsibility because

0:21:46.960 --> 0:21:50.240
<v Speaker 1>I really believe that you truly made sacrifices one only

0:21:50.280 --> 0:21:53.240
<v Speaker 1>your mom was here, but also when she transitioned, and

0:21:53.280 --> 0:21:55.520
<v Speaker 1>I feel like it's important when she brings us up here,

0:21:55.600 --> 0:21:58.560
<v Speaker 1>is that she never got to thank you as often

0:21:58.600 --> 0:22:00.439
<v Speaker 1>as she should have when she was here in the

0:22:00.440 --> 0:22:02.600
<v Speaker 1>physical realm, and I feel like that she wants to

0:22:02.600 --> 0:22:05.360
<v Speaker 1>thank you today for doing the things that you had

0:22:05.400 --> 0:22:07.760
<v Speaker 1>to do for her in the physical realm. But also

0:22:07.920 --> 0:22:10.960
<v Speaker 1>after she transition, you you may have to I don't

0:22:10.960 --> 0:22:13.240
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to get personal with something and I might

0:22:13.280 --> 0:22:17.639
<v Speaker 1>be wrong on this when we bring up mom or

0:22:17.640 --> 0:22:21.240
<v Speaker 1>say the energies around you guys, is there something we

0:22:21.280 --> 0:22:24.480
<v Speaker 1>need to look at like now relating to like say,

0:22:25.280 --> 0:22:28.080
<v Speaker 1>your mom, say on a financial situation that we need

0:22:28.119 --> 0:22:30.879
<v Speaker 1>to look at with her or with you guys, like

0:22:30.960 --> 0:22:32.680
<v Speaker 1>meaning that is there like a big decision that needs

0:22:32.720 --> 0:22:34.240
<v Speaker 1>to be done or did you guys just make like

0:22:34.240 --> 0:22:37.160
<v Speaker 1>a major decision with her. I don't know. I don't

0:22:37.200 --> 0:22:38.959
<v Speaker 1>say your things, but it seems like more of like

0:22:39.840 --> 0:22:44.000
<v Speaker 1>her legacy. We did we We just yeah, we were

0:22:44.080 --> 0:22:46.679
<v Speaker 1>going through like a transition right now. My sister is

0:22:46.720 --> 0:22:50.680
<v Speaker 1>now the trustee of her estate, so we have been

0:22:50.680 --> 0:22:56.080
<v Speaker 1>finding out certain things and it's been pretty disappointing. But yeah, okay,

0:22:56.200 --> 0:23:00.440
<v Speaker 1>I want to be personal again. But to me, there's

0:23:00.480 --> 0:23:02.320
<v Speaker 1>a sense of what's the word I want to use,

0:23:02.800 --> 0:23:06.439
<v Speaker 1>like ego that's involved with these individuals And it's not

0:23:06.480 --> 0:23:08.919
<v Speaker 1>that your mom is upset, but it's kind of like why.

0:23:09.040 --> 0:23:11.680
<v Speaker 1>It's more of a question of why why, And I

0:23:11.680 --> 0:23:13.439
<v Speaker 1>feel like there's a sense as if she wants to

0:23:13.560 --> 0:23:15.560
<v Speaker 1>orchestrate things in the right way to kind of put

0:23:15.560 --> 0:23:18.000
<v Speaker 1>things in order when it comes down to say the

0:23:18.080 --> 0:23:20.679
<v Speaker 1>business or the estate or whatever it is, Like, I

0:23:20.680 --> 0:23:23.320
<v Speaker 1>feel like there's a sense of it. It seems very difficult,

0:23:23.359 --> 0:23:25.959
<v Speaker 1>and it feels like the cookie has crumbled. So whatever

0:23:26.040 --> 0:23:29.600
<v Speaker 1>happened in the trustee or beneficiary all that stuff, I

0:23:29.640 --> 0:23:31.280
<v Speaker 1>feel like it's happening the way that it needs to

0:23:31.320 --> 0:23:33.720
<v Speaker 1>be done. But I feel like it's making sure that

0:23:33.760 --> 0:23:36.919
<v Speaker 1>it's a sense of accepting what needs to happen. And

0:23:36.960 --> 0:23:38.840
<v Speaker 1>I just feel like, again there's a sense of a

0:23:38.840 --> 0:23:41.199
<v Speaker 1>hand in the cookie jar or the sense of what

0:23:41.280 --> 0:23:42.840
<v Speaker 1>can I benefit, what can I get out of it?

0:23:43.040 --> 0:23:44.639
<v Speaker 1>And that's where I feel like your mom does not

0:23:44.880 --> 0:23:47.439
<v Speaker 1>like in a way thing like let's make sure everything

0:23:47.560 --> 0:23:49.879
<v Speaker 1>is put together, because I just feel like that in

0:23:49.960 --> 0:23:51.600
<v Speaker 1>my gut, it just makes me feel like that it's

0:23:51.600 --> 0:23:53.120
<v Speaker 1>not done right, and I just feel like it needs

0:23:53.119 --> 0:23:55.760
<v Speaker 1>to move in a direction that spirit sees it, that

0:23:55.800 --> 0:23:57.800
<v Speaker 1>her soul sees it in the right way. I'm going

0:23:57.840 --> 0:24:00.280
<v Speaker 1>to shift directions in a very interesting way, and I

0:24:00.320 --> 0:24:03.880
<v Speaker 1>do need to acknowledge something. I don't know where she's

0:24:03.880 --> 0:24:07.560
<v Speaker 1>going with this, but there's a sense with you of

0:24:07.680 --> 0:24:11.760
<v Speaker 1>how she's showing you or how she's showing herself with you.

0:24:11.880 --> 0:24:15.720
<v Speaker 1>So I may totally misinterpret something. But is there a

0:24:15.840 --> 0:24:18.560
<v Speaker 1>unique reference that you would actually have some sort of

0:24:20.280 --> 0:24:24.200
<v Speaker 1>like a rock of her or some sort of paper

0:24:24.200 --> 0:24:26.159
<v Speaker 1>weight of her, or some sort of I don't know

0:24:26.240 --> 0:24:28.439
<v Speaker 1>what it is, but is there some sort of reference

0:24:28.480 --> 0:24:30.960
<v Speaker 1>to like a weight thing or a rock thing that

0:24:31.000 --> 0:24:33.760
<v Speaker 1>we need to bring up here. I don't know. I

0:24:33.800 --> 0:24:35.680
<v Speaker 1>would have to think about it. And to me, it

0:24:35.680 --> 0:24:37.960
<v Speaker 1>feels like there's a smooth surface to it, like a

0:24:37.960 --> 0:24:40.840
<v Speaker 1>smooth surface to it, like almost like a smooth rock

0:24:41.040 --> 0:24:42.920
<v Speaker 1>or like I don't I don't know, like a river rock.

0:24:43.000 --> 0:24:45.800
<v Speaker 1>There's something with this that she's bringing up here. Okay,

0:24:45.800 --> 0:24:55.000
<v Speaker 1>well now that Oh my god, that's so crazy. I

0:24:55.040 --> 0:24:59.080
<v Speaker 1>gave my mom a rock before, and there was something

0:24:59.119 --> 0:25:01.520
<v Speaker 1>written to her on there that I would It was

0:25:01.560 --> 0:25:03.480
<v Speaker 1>like I would always say that she was my rock.

0:25:04.160 --> 0:25:05.680
<v Speaker 1>So I gave it to her when she was here.

0:25:05.960 --> 0:25:08.720
<v Speaker 1>It was she put on her desk. Oh my god,

0:25:08.880 --> 0:25:12.199
<v Speaker 1>that's so crazy. Okay, I just want to let to

0:25:12.240 --> 0:25:14.280
<v Speaker 1>know that she has that rock with her in spirit.

0:25:14.760 --> 0:25:17.760
<v Speaker 1>She is still wrong, she still wants to recognize that,

0:25:17.880 --> 0:25:19.639
<v Speaker 1>because I just feel like there's a sense of her

0:25:19.760 --> 0:25:22.280
<v Speaker 1>of just being very proud of you, and I feel

0:25:22.280 --> 0:25:24.480
<v Speaker 1>like that in a very beautiful way that she kind

0:25:24.480 --> 0:25:26.800
<v Speaker 1>of spiritually wants to hand it back as if now

0:25:26.880 --> 0:25:30.400
<v Speaker 1>you're the rock for everyone else. So I just feel

0:25:30.440 --> 0:25:33.240
<v Speaker 1>like it's her way of thanking you again for doing

0:25:33.240 --> 0:25:35.960
<v Speaker 1>the things that you did for her. But now what

0:25:36.000 --> 0:25:37.880
<v Speaker 1>she's gonna do for you is pull some strings from

0:25:37.880 --> 0:25:39.760
<v Speaker 1>the spirit room to help you lead in the right

0:25:39.800 --> 0:25:42.240
<v Speaker 1>direction where you need to be, because I feel like

0:25:42.280 --> 0:25:44.760
<v Speaker 1>your mom really wants the best for you, regardless of

0:25:44.800 --> 0:25:47.840
<v Speaker 1>like anything that you feel or maybe thought of, like

0:25:47.880 --> 0:25:50.400
<v Speaker 1>it's all like residual and old energy that she does

0:25:50.440 --> 0:25:52.400
<v Speaker 1>not want you to focus on. And I think it's

0:25:52.440 --> 0:25:54.760
<v Speaker 1>so important for you to really kind of thrive in

0:25:54.800 --> 0:25:57.760
<v Speaker 1>that moment and saying thanks Mom, thanks for being here

0:25:57.760 --> 0:26:00.240
<v Speaker 1>with me, thank you for recognizing me. And I feel

0:26:00.240 --> 0:26:03.000
<v Speaker 1>like there's a moment of you of having that peace

0:26:03.040 --> 0:26:07.520
<v Speaker 1>of mind because my impression it's not anything that we

0:26:07.560 --> 0:26:11.040
<v Speaker 1>need to bring up here as the event that caused

0:26:11.080 --> 0:26:13.320
<v Speaker 1>your mom's passing. She doesn't want to emphasize on that.

0:26:13.359 --> 0:26:15.240
<v Speaker 1>She doesn't not really focus on that because that's not

0:26:15.320 --> 0:26:18.640
<v Speaker 1>really an important sense of what we need to talk about.

0:26:18.720 --> 0:26:21.800
<v Speaker 1>It's more so the healing and moving forward from that

0:26:21.800 --> 0:26:23.840
<v Speaker 1>that needs to happen here with you in the family.

0:26:24.200 --> 0:26:26.280
<v Speaker 1>And like as I mentioned earlier in this interview, we

0:26:26.320 --> 0:26:28.600
<v Speaker 1>all grieve differently. It could be a year, could be

0:26:28.640 --> 0:26:31.480
<v Speaker 1>five years, could be so many years. We all grieve differently.

0:26:32.080 --> 0:26:33.800
<v Speaker 1>I just feel like in some ways that there's a

0:26:33.840 --> 0:26:37.760
<v Speaker 1>sense of coming to terms of being at peace, but

0:26:37.800 --> 0:26:39.439
<v Speaker 1>it's not letting go of mom. And I feel like

0:26:39.440 --> 0:26:41.159
<v Speaker 1>there might be fear of letting go a mom of

0:26:41.160 --> 0:26:43.640
<v Speaker 1>those emotions, because if you let go a mom, she's

0:26:43.640 --> 0:26:45.760
<v Speaker 1>not gonna be around you. I feel like it's letting

0:26:45.800 --> 0:26:48.840
<v Speaker 1>go the toxicity, the emotions, all that stuff, knowing that

0:26:48.880 --> 0:26:51.040
<v Speaker 1>she will always be in your heart and recognizing that

0:26:51.080 --> 0:26:54.040
<v Speaker 1>feeling and recognizing that moment. I do need to bring

0:26:54.040 --> 0:26:58.000
<v Speaker 1>something up in a very interesting way. Did you recently

0:26:58.040 --> 0:27:00.639
<v Speaker 1>have like a fall or did you fall down your stairs?

0:27:00.720 --> 0:27:01.760
<v Speaker 1>Or is there some sort of fault that I need

0:27:01.760 --> 0:27:03.120
<v Speaker 1>to bring up here. I don't know what she's bringing

0:27:03.200 --> 0:27:06.200
<v Speaker 1>up here, but okay, make note to your footing or

0:27:06.240 --> 0:27:08.400
<v Speaker 1>to getting out of the car or getting out off

0:27:08.440 --> 0:27:10.120
<v Speaker 1>the stairs or walking out the front yard. I don't

0:27:10.119 --> 0:27:12.080
<v Speaker 1>know what it is, but there's something about your footing

0:27:12.080 --> 0:27:14.080
<v Speaker 1>that I feel like she's trying to acknowledge, like be careful,

0:27:14.200 --> 0:27:16.199
<v Speaker 1>be cautious, whatever, it is still safe for us that

0:27:16.240 --> 0:27:18.560
<v Speaker 1>you have tile floors. I don't know what it is,

0:27:18.560 --> 0:27:19.760
<v Speaker 1>but I feel like it's her way kind of giving

0:27:19.800 --> 0:27:22.200
<v Speaker 1>a projection and a very positive light. I don't want

0:27:22.200 --> 0:27:24.240
<v Speaker 1>to say it's anything of an accident or anything that nature,

0:27:24.280 --> 0:27:26.879
<v Speaker 1>but I feel like there's something funny about it about

0:27:26.880 --> 0:27:29.160
<v Speaker 1>the situation. So if there's gonna be other people's targing

0:27:29.200 --> 0:27:31.159
<v Speaker 1>involve here, it feels like there's more of that moment

0:27:31.400 --> 0:27:33.320
<v Speaker 1>that she's kind of guiding you and protect you in

0:27:33.359 --> 0:27:35.840
<v Speaker 1>that situation that she wants to bring up here. There's

0:27:35.880 --> 0:27:38.240
<v Speaker 1>a reference that I beat maybe a mistake in here,

0:27:38.760 --> 0:27:41.600
<v Speaker 1>And I don't know how I'm to describe this, but

0:27:41.640 --> 0:27:45.040
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna do my best interpret this. I don't know

0:27:45.200 --> 0:27:47.000
<v Speaker 1>how this doesn't make sense to you at all whatsoever,

0:27:48.480 --> 0:27:51.200
<v Speaker 1>but there's an interesting reference that she's bringing up here

0:27:51.440 --> 0:27:56.880
<v Speaker 1>that we need to identify after her transition, after her passing,

0:27:57.000 --> 0:27:59.840
<v Speaker 1>And I don't know if it means like several years later,

0:28:00.440 --> 0:28:05.399
<v Speaker 1>a day after passing, but would you understand during the

0:28:05.480 --> 0:28:10.040
<v Speaker 1>time of the event that occurred, she's making herself known

0:28:10.080 --> 0:28:11.959
<v Speaker 1>to me in a way saying that she made herself

0:28:12.080 --> 0:28:14.880
<v Speaker 1>known to you, like in spirit, like in a way

0:28:14.880 --> 0:28:17.399
<v Speaker 1>of saying that I'm safe, I'm okay. I don't know

0:28:17.440 --> 0:28:19.280
<v Speaker 1>what that looks like to you if that was more

0:28:19.320 --> 0:28:22.919
<v Speaker 1>so a physical sign a dream, But she wants to

0:28:22.920 --> 0:28:25.399
<v Speaker 1>make sure that whatever happened in this event, it was

0:28:25.400 --> 0:28:27.919
<v Speaker 1>her way letting you know that she made it safe

0:28:28.280 --> 0:28:30.480
<v Speaker 1>and that she went to heaven. And I feel that

0:28:30.520 --> 0:28:32.920
<v Speaker 1>she wants to make sure that you understand that message.

0:28:32.920 --> 0:28:34.879
<v Speaker 1>So what is the sign or what is the reference

0:28:34.880 --> 0:28:37.879
<v Speaker 1>that she's bringing up here? Yeah, that's absolutely right. It

0:28:37.960 --> 0:28:41.040
<v Speaker 1>was a few days after she had passed and I

0:28:41.080 --> 0:28:42.960
<v Speaker 1>had left my grandmother's house because I just needed to

0:28:42.960 --> 0:28:45.880
<v Speaker 1>take a drive. Everyone was there. It was hectic, and

0:28:46.080 --> 0:28:48.080
<v Speaker 1>I drove out. Everything was fine, but when I came

0:28:48.120 --> 0:28:50.280
<v Speaker 1>back to go back to my grandma's house, they had

0:28:50.360 --> 0:28:52.520
<v Speaker 1>closed off the street. So I thought, how am I

0:28:52.520 --> 0:28:54.160
<v Speaker 1>going to do this? There was a bunch of media

0:28:54.200 --> 0:28:56.160
<v Speaker 1>and fans, and I said, how am I going to

0:28:56.200 --> 0:28:58.080
<v Speaker 1>get off the car and try to get my car

0:28:58.160 --> 0:29:01.440
<v Speaker 1>under this to get through to my Grandma's And magically,

0:29:01.600 --> 0:29:04.920
<v Speaker 1>I swear to you, like the little it was like

0:29:04.920 --> 0:29:08.360
<v Speaker 1>a string of some sort lifted high enough for me

0:29:08.400 --> 0:29:11.160
<v Speaker 1>to go under. And I was like, oh my god,

0:29:11.280 --> 0:29:13.560
<v Speaker 1>that's like that's my mom. That was like the first

0:29:13.600 --> 0:29:16.560
<v Speaker 1>time I had felt it. And then I had a

0:29:16.600 --> 0:29:18.920
<v Speaker 1>moment when I knew she was gone gone. I was

0:29:18.960 --> 0:29:20.960
<v Speaker 1>in the restroom, I was holding a picture of hers,

0:29:22.000 --> 0:29:24.320
<v Speaker 1>and I heard it clearly like you are going to

0:29:24.440 --> 0:29:25.800
<v Speaker 1>have to be stronger. You're gonna have to tell your

0:29:25.840 --> 0:29:27.920
<v Speaker 1>siblings that I'm not coming home. Because we still had

0:29:28.320 --> 0:29:31.840
<v Speaker 1>hope that she was going to come home. So I

0:29:31.920 --> 0:29:34.000
<v Speaker 1>felt her and I heard her voice to the point

0:29:34.000 --> 0:29:35.520
<v Speaker 1>where I just cried and cried and cried, and I

0:29:35.560 --> 0:29:38.200
<v Speaker 1>cried so much that I just after I got out

0:29:38.200 --> 0:29:40.160
<v Speaker 1>of that restroom, I was like, Okay, I have to

0:29:40.160 --> 0:29:41.800
<v Speaker 1>tell my siblings that she's not gonna come home. I

0:29:41.800 --> 0:29:43.320
<v Speaker 1>have to tell Johnny, and I have to be strong.

0:29:43.400 --> 0:29:46.080
<v Speaker 1>From that moment forward, it's like I knew she's fine,

0:29:46.120 --> 0:29:49.120
<v Speaker 1>She's at peace. This is how things had to happen.

0:29:49.160 --> 0:29:51.600
<v Speaker 1>And now it's I feel like my turn to step

0:29:51.600 --> 0:29:53.520
<v Speaker 1>forward and be like, Okay, this is what I prepared

0:29:53.560 --> 0:29:55.400
<v Speaker 1>you for all of your life, is to be here

0:29:55.400 --> 0:29:58.600
<v Speaker 1>for these kids. So those two things I'll never forget

0:29:58.640 --> 0:30:01.480
<v Speaker 1>because there were moments of like, oh, she's here with me,

0:30:01.760 --> 0:30:04.760
<v Speaker 1>she's okay. Wow, like with so much respect to you

0:30:04.920 --> 0:30:06.800
<v Speaker 1>and to your family, And again, that is just a

0:30:06.800 --> 0:30:10.080
<v Speaker 1>beautiful message. As much as we don't want to think

0:30:10.160 --> 0:30:12.280
<v Speaker 1>that way in a way, knowing that we lost we

0:30:12.360 --> 0:30:15.640
<v Speaker 1>lost an individual or they're gone, that is a personal

0:30:15.680 --> 0:30:18.640
<v Speaker 1>experience that no one can take away from you. That

0:30:18.720 --> 0:30:21.040
<v Speaker 1>moment in the restroom, that moment of that happening. No

0:30:21.080 --> 0:30:22.480
<v Speaker 1>one can take that away from you. I feel like

0:30:22.520 --> 0:30:25.640
<v Speaker 1>it's just your mom's way validing those experiences and how

0:30:25.680 --> 0:30:27.160
<v Speaker 1>that looks like to you. It was her way let

0:30:27.240 --> 0:30:30.320
<v Speaker 1>you know again that she's safe, she's okay. Now she's

0:30:30.360 --> 0:30:32.320
<v Speaker 1>turning over the leaf to you to kind of pass

0:30:32.360 --> 0:30:34.480
<v Speaker 1>the baton, pass it over. That you need to focus

0:30:34.520 --> 0:30:37.480
<v Speaker 1>on that because for your energy, again, it's kind of

0:30:37.520 --> 0:30:40.040
<v Speaker 1>like the weight that you take on. But I feel

0:30:40.040 --> 0:30:42.360
<v Speaker 1>like at the same time, it's really about bringing in

0:30:42.400 --> 0:30:44.160
<v Speaker 1>that balance that you need in your own life and

0:30:44.200 --> 0:30:46.120
<v Speaker 1>balance is going to be so important for you again,

0:30:46.200 --> 0:30:49.520
<v Speaker 1>not only with business relationships self help. It's going to

0:30:49.560 --> 0:30:51.400
<v Speaker 1>be an important year for you because they feel like

0:30:51.440 --> 0:30:54.880
<v Speaker 1>moving into a transition of it's going to be more

0:30:54.920 --> 0:30:57.200
<v Speaker 1>so a sense of like really kind of focusing on

0:30:57.280 --> 0:31:01.000
<v Speaker 1>than family, focusing on than financials, focusing on that. So

0:31:01.040 --> 0:31:03.400
<v Speaker 1>there there riches were literally right around the corner of

0:31:04.160 --> 0:31:06.760
<v Speaker 1>which is crazy to even think about, but I feel

0:31:06.760 --> 0:31:09.840
<v Speaker 1>like that your mom wants to really spiritually embrace you,

0:31:09.920 --> 0:31:11.600
<v Speaker 1>like she wants to give you this big spirit hug,

0:31:11.720 --> 0:31:14.000
<v Speaker 1>because I feel like physical touch is so important for

0:31:14.000 --> 0:31:16.120
<v Speaker 1>you to have, but more important to have it from

0:31:16.120 --> 0:31:17.720
<v Speaker 1>your mom, because I feel like that she wants to

0:31:17.720 --> 0:31:20.440
<v Speaker 1>make sure that I verbally say I love you like

0:31:20.480 --> 0:31:22.840
<v Speaker 1>I feel like the ghetto ghetto. I feel like it's

0:31:22.840 --> 0:31:24.920
<v Speaker 1>important for her to give that love to you and

0:31:24.960 --> 0:31:28.960
<v Speaker 1>pay that respect again because there wasn't that opportunity for

0:31:29.000 --> 0:31:33.440
<v Speaker 1>her to physically and verbally communicate that with you. And

0:31:33.480 --> 0:31:35.000
<v Speaker 1>I just feel like that you make sure that you

0:31:35.040 --> 0:31:36.960
<v Speaker 1>have it in your heart and you carry that love

0:31:36.960 --> 0:31:40.160
<v Speaker 1>in that vibration regardless of whatever feelings that you've had

0:31:40.200 --> 0:31:43.080
<v Speaker 1>then or what you have now. It's more so it's

0:31:43.080 --> 0:31:45.080
<v Speaker 1>all water on the bridge. Is my impression that your

0:31:45.120 --> 0:31:47.080
<v Speaker 1>mom is given it to you like it's it. We're good,

0:31:47.240 --> 0:31:49.920
<v Speaker 1>we're cool, everything's fine. And I think that's important for

0:31:49.960 --> 0:31:54.040
<v Speaker 1>you to walk away with and understand those messages. Obviously

0:31:54.200 --> 0:31:56.959
<v Speaker 1>if you want to ask questions or anything in general,

0:31:57.120 --> 0:31:58.880
<v Speaker 1>you feel free if there's something that you want to

0:31:58.880 --> 0:32:01.479
<v Speaker 1>ask her throughout there. More than anything, I just kind

0:32:01.480 --> 0:32:05.120
<v Speaker 1>of wanted to see what she had to say and

0:32:05.160 --> 0:32:08.640
<v Speaker 1>what you did say right now about me thanking her

0:32:08.720 --> 0:32:11.120
<v Speaker 1>and thanking her for being here with me and stuff

0:32:11.160 --> 0:32:13.040
<v Speaker 1>like I don't think I've done enough of that, like

0:32:13.080 --> 0:32:15.800
<v Speaker 1>I speak to her. But it's different. I think for

0:32:15.840 --> 0:32:18.560
<v Speaker 1>a long time I was upset because of the mess

0:32:18.600 --> 0:32:20.479
<v Speaker 1>that was left and I had to clean it up,

0:32:20.480 --> 0:32:23.400
<v Speaker 1>and I was a little bit resentful. Obviously still missed

0:32:23.400 --> 0:32:25.680
<v Speaker 1>her and everything, but in my heart I felt, for

0:32:25.720 --> 0:32:28.040
<v Speaker 1>like a long time, I was just mad. There are

0:32:28.160 --> 0:32:30.760
<v Speaker 1>moments that come back and I'm just like I get

0:32:30.840 --> 0:32:33.760
<v Speaker 1>like frustrated. I don't know how to explain it, but

0:32:33.800 --> 0:32:36.120
<v Speaker 1>I think it's just I'm glad you're reminding me of saying,

0:32:36.160 --> 0:32:38.680
<v Speaker 1>you know what. I think things are going to change,

0:32:38.680 --> 0:32:41.800
<v Speaker 1>even for the better if I start thinking her more

0:32:42.000 --> 0:32:43.920
<v Speaker 1>because I know that she's pulling strings. I know she's

0:32:43.920 --> 0:32:46.240
<v Speaker 1>opening doors, like I know it for a fact that

0:32:46.600 --> 0:32:48.720
<v Speaker 1>she's with me, with us, and she's taking care of

0:32:48.760 --> 0:32:51.880
<v Speaker 1>my siblings and I and giving me the strength. But

0:32:52.880 --> 0:32:54.400
<v Speaker 1>I just want to say thank you more than anything

0:32:54.400 --> 0:32:56.160
<v Speaker 1>because I'm like, oh my god, and those are the

0:32:56.160 --> 0:32:59.080
<v Speaker 1>words like she would always call me princess. So it's like,

0:32:59.160 --> 0:33:01.360
<v Speaker 1>I still I think. I'm like, I know that I'm

0:33:01.400 --> 0:33:03.560
<v Speaker 1>like a woman now, but I still want to be

0:33:03.600 --> 0:33:05.720
<v Speaker 1>your baby. And that's so funny that you say that,

0:33:05.720 --> 0:33:07.960
<v Speaker 1>because I'm like, oh my god, that's all I ever want.

0:33:08.080 --> 0:33:11.000
<v Speaker 1>Oh my god. It's such a beautiful thing to again

0:33:11.080 --> 0:33:13.800
<v Speaker 1>recognize and feel that vibration like I have chills, and

0:33:13.880 --> 0:33:16.000
<v Speaker 1>chills for me are always confirmation and validation of what

0:33:16.000 --> 0:33:18.200
<v Speaker 1>you're speaking about. And it just lets me know that

0:33:18.240 --> 0:33:20.400
<v Speaker 1>I want you to continue to build that relationship with

0:33:20.440 --> 0:33:23.360
<v Speaker 1>your mother. One thing, and I don't want to be direct,

0:33:23.360 --> 0:33:25.360
<v Speaker 1>but I am going to be very direct. You need

0:33:25.440 --> 0:33:28.320
<v Speaker 1>to understand from her again not for me as a medium,

0:33:28.360 --> 0:33:33.280
<v Speaker 1>that she never she never ever meant to abandon you

0:33:33.280 --> 0:33:36.320
<v Speaker 1>guys ever, and I need to make sure that you

0:33:36.400 --> 0:33:38.960
<v Speaker 1>and the family understand that in their own way or

0:33:39.000 --> 0:33:41.320
<v Speaker 1>in your own way, because I feel like that sense

0:33:41.360 --> 0:33:44.000
<v Speaker 1>when Mom left is the best way going to use

0:33:44.680 --> 0:33:47.719
<v Speaker 1>that her soul checked out, her spirit checked out, not

0:33:47.880 --> 0:33:49.800
<v Speaker 1>her energy, and not who she was as a woman,

0:33:49.960 --> 0:33:52.120
<v Speaker 1>because if there was anything that she could do to

0:33:52.160 --> 0:33:54.360
<v Speaker 1>come back to this physical realm, she would have made

0:33:54.360 --> 0:33:56.720
<v Speaker 1>it happen in a in a medical way to come back.

0:33:57.000 --> 0:33:59.800
<v Speaker 1>But since the event happened in such a tragic way, again,

0:33:59.840 --> 0:34:02.160
<v Speaker 1>her soul left the body. Their souls left their body.

0:34:02.200 --> 0:34:04.720
<v Speaker 1>Because I don't even feel there's a sense of an

0:34:04.720 --> 0:34:08.800
<v Speaker 1>impact or something happened. I can tell you during an event.

0:34:09.280 --> 0:34:13.080
<v Speaker 1>I remember sitting at a at a restaurant when I'm hurt,

0:34:13.120 --> 0:34:16.279
<v Speaker 1>the news and my cell phone was blowing up from

0:34:16.280 --> 0:34:19.680
<v Speaker 1>different people from networks and this and that, and I refused,

0:34:19.800 --> 0:34:22.719
<v Speaker 1>refused to talk with anyone anything social, this and that,

0:34:22.800 --> 0:34:24.520
<v Speaker 1>and I still this is my first time I ever

0:34:24.520 --> 0:34:26.920
<v Speaker 1>talking about it is on your show because I respect

0:34:26.960 --> 0:34:28.720
<v Speaker 1>you and the family so much, and I never talked

0:34:28.719 --> 0:34:31.399
<v Speaker 1>about it because it's not my place and I need

0:34:31.440 --> 0:34:34.200
<v Speaker 1>to be respectful of the process because it's me in

0:34:34.320 --> 0:34:37.440
<v Speaker 1>beating someone's privacy and I never ever wanted to do

0:34:37.520 --> 0:34:39.439
<v Speaker 1>that to you or your family, nor ever talk about

0:34:39.440 --> 0:34:41.800
<v Speaker 1>it because it wasn't my business, it wasn't my place.

0:34:42.200 --> 0:34:44.440
<v Speaker 1>And I feel like that, you know how things come

0:34:44.480 --> 0:34:48.120
<v Speaker 1>in full circle in a very beautiful way. Here today

0:34:48.360 --> 0:34:50.640
<v Speaker 1>is again respect the process, and I feel like your

0:34:50.680 --> 0:34:53.399
<v Speaker 1>mom and you at least allowed me to be here

0:34:53.440 --> 0:34:56.359
<v Speaker 1>today to maybe orchestrate this and help bridge that gap.

0:34:56.440 --> 0:34:59.799
<v Speaker 1>And I respect you, your team, your producers, every whe

0:35:00.000 --> 0:35:03.040
<v Speaker 1>Scott Spirit that orchestrated this because by you thank your

0:35:03.080 --> 0:35:06.400
<v Speaker 1>mom and by you talking to her, it's it's okay,

0:35:06.520 --> 0:35:09.680
<v Speaker 1>and it's okay for you to be angry. It's okay

0:35:09.680 --> 0:35:11.239
<v Speaker 1>for you to be upset because she's not going to

0:35:11.280 --> 0:35:13.680
<v Speaker 1>be upset. It's more so what we're feeling, and that's

0:35:13.719 --> 0:35:15.360
<v Speaker 1>part of the process. So in those moments that you

0:35:15.360 --> 0:35:17.239
<v Speaker 1>need to thank your mom and say thanks Mam for

0:35:17.239 --> 0:35:19.759
<v Speaker 1>showing up, thanks Mam for gotting me. She's again, she's

0:35:19.840 --> 0:35:22.239
<v Speaker 1>very much with you. So anytime you think about mom,

0:35:22.239 --> 0:35:26.040
<v Speaker 1>she's right there with you. Oh, thank you so much.

0:35:26.200 --> 0:35:28.799
<v Speaker 1>Thank you. Honestly, this it made me feel a lot better,

0:35:28.880 --> 0:35:30.680
<v Speaker 1>especially because I was having a tough day to day,

0:35:31.120 --> 0:35:33.480
<v Speaker 1>so it's just kind of like, okay, just you reminded

0:35:33.520 --> 0:35:36.480
<v Speaker 1>me of a lot of things, And I mean, I

0:35:36.680 --> 0:35:38.680
<v Speaker 1>I don't think I have any questions, to be honest,

0:35:38.760 --> 0:35:41.120
<v Speaker 1>I mean just besides the fact that i'd like to know,

0:35:41.200 --> 0:35:43.319
<v Speaker 1>you know, sometimes I go back and forth with my

0:35:43.400 --> 0:35:47.799
<v Speaker 1>music career. I feel like my music career is a

0:35:47.920 --> 0:35:53.239
<v Speaker 1>vehicle to go somewhere, not necessarily bigger, but for my

0:35:53.320 --> 0:35:55.520
<v Speaker 1>real mission in life. And I just I don't know,

0:35:55.719 --> 0:35:57.600
<v Speaker 1>I just kind of wanted to know, like in regards

0:35:57.640 --> 0:35:59.440
<v Speaker 1>to my music career, like what do you what does

0:35:59.480 --> 0:36:03.200
<v Speaker 1>she say? Would you think? Or yeah? Honestly my impression

0:36:03.200 --> 0:36:06.279
<v Speaker 1>and energetically, I feel like your career would be absolutely fine.

0:36:06.560 --> 0:36:08.799
<v Speaker 1>My only concern, and again I'm very direct of how

0:36:08.840 --> 0:36:11.640
<v Speaker 1>it comes through energetically. I just like, in a very

0:36:11.640 --> 0:36:14.600
<v Speaker 1>interesting way, is that you're holding yourself back Like it's

0:36:14.760 --> 0:36:16.160
<v Speaker 1>it's in a very interesting way. It's kind of like

0:36:16.200 --> 0:36:18.920
<v Speaker 1>yourself sabotaging yourself. You know what you can do, but

0:36:18.960 --> 0:36:21.400
<v Speaker 1>I feel like it's fearful of like being successful and

0:36:21.440 --> 0:36:23.920
<v Speaker 1>not that you're not now. But it's like, once I

0:36:23.920 --> 0:36:25.640
<v Speaker 1>go to place, it's gonna be like seeing my language,

0:36:25.640 --> 0:36:28.040
<v Speaker 1>like oh shit, I can't believe I'm here now. I

0:36:28.080 --> 0:36:30.200
<v Speaker 1>think that's what's the scary part. About it, and once

0:36:30.239 --> 0:36:32.800
<v Speaker 1>that moment happens, you're gonna be like, oh my god,

0:36:32.960 --> 0:36:36.200
<v Speaker 1>I might my feeling though, I feel like like mide,

0:36:36.560 --> 0:36:38.279
<v Speaker 1>I feel like I want to go maybe in springtime

0:36:38.320 --> 0:36:40.319
<v Speaker 1>where I see a major transition. So if that's like

0:36:40.440 --> 0:36:42.840
<v Speaker 1>March April, may like in that time frame, I wouldn't

0:36:42.840 --> 0:36:45.880
<v Speaker 1>be surprised. If there's some major opportunities that present itself

0:36:45.880 --> 0:36:47.719
<v Speaker 1>to you, I don't want you to look for them.

0:36:47.800 --> 0:36:50.520
<v Speaker 1>Jeekie's let it happen organically, because if we would say,

0:36:50.520 --> 0:36:52.600
<v Speaker 1>oh A J said this or my mom brought this

0:36:52.680 --> 0:36:54.879
<v Speaker 1>up here, we're gonna stick to that. We're gonna hold

0:36:54.880 --> 0:36:56.439
<v Speaker 1>on to it. So I feel like there's a sense

0:36:56.480 --> 0:36:58.680
<v Speaker 1>with her that she wants to make sure that she's

0:36:58.760 --> 0:37:01.279
<v Speaker 1>very much with you and guide you. There's also a

0:37:01.320 --> 0:37:03.880
<v Speaker 1>reference that we do need to bring up here, And

0:37:03.920 --> 0:37:06.560
<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna give you a very interesting reference. And I

0:37:06.560 --> 0:37:08.239
<v Speaker 1>don't know how it's gonna make sense, or maybe somehow

0:37:08.280 --> 0:37:11.360
<v Speaker 1>it's gonna come to fruition. Do you remember when Michael

0:37:11.440 --> 0:37:14.640
<v Speaker 1>Jackson did his was it fifty tours or fifty one tours?

0:37:14.640 --> 0:37:16.400
<v Speaker 1>You was supposed to do it? Then he transitioned on

0:37:16.760 --> 0:37:19.520
<v Speaker 1>Proba fall or something like that. So there's an interesting

0:37:19.560 --> 0:37:21.239
<v Speaker 1>reference that we need to bring up here, is that

0:37:21.280 --> 0:37:23.680
<v Speaker 1>we need to highlight something coming into next year. So

0:37:23.719 --> 0:37:25.520
<v Speaker 1>I don't know if you're planning to go onto fifty

0:37:25.600 --> 0:37:27.279
<v Speaker 1>States fifty tours type of thing that we need to

0:37:27.320 --> 0:37:29.839
<v Speaker 1>look at, but there's something very major, like very grand

0:37:29.920 --> 0:37:32.000
<v Speaker 1>use that we're looking at. And there's a sense of

0:37:32.040 --> 0:37:35.440
<v Speaker 1>like having like a very unique like Michael Jackson, Janet Jackson,

0:37:35.480 --> 0:37:37.840
<v Speaker 1>Phil but in your own way where we're kind of

0:37:37.880 --> 0:37:41.160
<v Speaker 1>canna have like say, these amazing backgrounds, these amazing lights,

0:37:41.200 --> 0:37:42.920
<v Speaker 1>Like I just feel like there's a very high scale

0:37:42.920 --> 0:37:45.320
<v Speaker 1>that I've seen this that I feel like that again,

0:37:45.400 --> 0:37:47.520
<v Speaker 1>Mom is gonna pull some strings, but I feel like

0:37:47.560 --> 0:37:49.959
<v Speaker 1>you're already there, Chickie's honestly like, I'm not worried about

0:37:49.960 --> 0:37:52.880
<v Speaker 1>your career. I feel like that it's already here, vibrating.

0:37:52.960 --> 0:37:54.160
<v Speaker 1>It's just up to you to kind of put your

0:37:54.160 --> 0:37:57.239
<v Speaker 1>foot forward and take the opportunities. And again, I feel

0:37:57.280 --> 0:38:00.200
<v Speaker 1>like mid next year, springtime will feel it is like

0:38:00.239 --> 0:38:02.160
<v Speaker 1>the right time in my gut that you're going to

0:38:02.239 --> 0:38:04.360
<v Speaker 1>start seeing that and you're gonna start saying like, Okay,

0:38:04.440 --> 0:38:05.880
<v Speaker 1>this is what they were talking about this is what

0:38:05.920 --> 0:38:08.319
<v Speaker 1>they're bringing up here. This is awesome. Like my mom

0:38:08.400 --> 0:38:10.560
<v Speaker 1>would say, just don't pitch out, cheekies, don't pitch out.

0:38:11.400 --> 0:38:14.120
<v Speaker 1>That's my mom would say, because it's just like right

0:38:14.160 --> 0:38:16.320
<v Speaker 1>when I'm like, when things are about to get like boom,

0:38:16.520 --> 0:38:18.719
<v Speaker 1>it's like when I'm like, I don't know, I want

0:38:18.719 --> 0:38:21.279
<v Speaker 1>to shrink back, and it's like she would always tell

0:38:21.320 --> 0:38:27.600
<v Speaker 1>me that don't pitch out. Now. That this great example.

0:38:27.680 --> 0:38:29.840
<v Speaker 1>So just remember that when that moment comes, listen to

0:38:29.920 --> 0:38:35.480
<v Speaker 1>your mom's words and that will help you out. Thank you,

0:38:35.560 --> 0:38:39.040
<v Speaker 1>Thank you. I really appreciate you you coming on and

0:38:39.400 --> 0:38:41.840
<v Speaker 1>being so open with us, and I'm so happy to

0:38:41.880 --> 0:38:43.560
<v Speaker 1>be able to see you and hear you, you know,

0:38:45.719 --> 0:38:47.120
<v Speaker 1>so I'm so happy. Do you want to share your

0:38:47.120 --> 0:38:50.000
<v Speaker 1>socials with everyone? Yeah? Absolutely. People can find me on

0:38:50.040 --> 0:38:53.480
<v Speaker 1>Instagram at a j Underscore Barrera or TikTok a j

0:38:53.719 --> 0:38:56.200
<v Speaker 1>Underscore Barrea pretty much the same, and my Facebook is

0:38:56.239 --> 0:38:58.400
<v Speaker 1>a J Barrera, so you find me all my socials

0:38:58.480 --> 0:39:00.160
<v Speaker 1>or just go to my website at a j were

0:39:00.239 --> 0:39:03.560
<v Speaker 1>dot com for any upcoming offense online in person or

0:39:03.640 --> 0:39:05.560
<v Speaker 1>private readings and all that good stuff there. But I

0:39:05.600 --> 0:39:07.480
<v Speaker 1>want to thank you guys again, So much for allowing

0:39:07.480 --> 0:39:09.080
<v Speaker 1>me to do this for you, but also letting me

0:39:09.160 --> 0:39:12.279
<v Speaker 1>part of this podcast. It's a fun, beautiful experience and

0:39:12.280 --> 0:39:13.840
<v Speaker 1>I hope this helps you guys out of perhaps a

0:39:13.880 --> 0:39:15.600
<v Speaker 1>family as well and other people let me have lost

0:39:15.600 --> 0:39:18.160
<v Speaker 1>a loved one that was very close to them. Oh yes,

0:39:18.360 --> 0:39:20.440
<v Speaker 1>thank you, thank you so much. And again, you guys,

0:39:20.560 --> 0:39:23.799
<v Speaker 1>you have his website, his social media and before we go,

0:39:23.920 --> 0:39:25.520
<v Speaker 1>you know that I always if you guys with a

0:39:25.560 --> 0:39:34.880
<v Speaker 1>motivational Monday quote, So the quote for today is faith

0:39:34.960 --> 0:39:40.080
<v Speaker 1>sees the invisible, believes the unbelievable, and receives the impossible.

0:39:40.120 --> 0:39:44.680
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