1 00:00:03,600 --> 00:00:06,160 Speaker 1: What is a medium? Mediums connect with those who have 2 00:00:06,200 --> 00:00:08,639 Speaker 1: passed over in the spirit room and individuals where they 3 00:00:08,680 --> 00:00:10,319 Speaker 1: have one foot in the physical world one foot on 4 00:00:10,320 --> 00:00:14,000 Speaker 1: their side, they're able to bridge that connection. Hence a medium. 5 00:00:14,160 --> 00:00:16,920 Speaker 1: Is there a unique reference that you would actually have 6 00:00:17,000 --> 00:00:19,680 Speaker 1: some sort of rock of her? Oh now that? Oh 7 00:00:19,720 --> 00:00:22,400 Speaker 1: my god, that's so crazy. I gave my mom a 8 00:00:22,520 --> 00:00:25,880 Speaker 1: rock when she was here. I'm just hearing it in 9 00:00:25,920 --> 00:00:29,360 Speaker 1: a way of just like me, princess, PRINCESSA Oh my god, 10 00:00:29,440 --> 00:00:31,680 Speaker 1: those are the words like she would always call me, princess. 11 00:00:38,880 --> 00:00:42,080 Speaker 1: What up, guys. Welcome to Chickens and chill Um your 12 00:00:42,080 --> 00:00:44,800 Speaker 1: host cheek ease. I hope you all had a really 13 00:00:44,800 --> 00:00:47,920 Speaker 1: great weekend and you're starting your week off strong. Today's 14 00:00:47,960 --> 00:00:50,440 Speaker 1: episode is probably going to be a little intense. That's 15 00:00:50,479 --> 00:00:53,200 Speaker 1: because I'm talking to a medium. We'll be talking about 16 00:00:53,240 --> 00:00:56,280 Speaker 1: how it all works, and also I'll be getting a reading. 17 00:00:56,720 --> 00:00:58,520 Speaker 1: I hope you guys are ready for this episode, because 18 00:00:58,560 --> 00:01:08,160 Speaker 1: I sure am. This is checks and chill Okay, So 19 00:01:08,240 --> 00:01:12,360 Speaker 1: today's guest is a J. Berrera or A. He's a 20 00:01:12,360 --> 00:01:16,360 Speaker 1: psychic medium and intuitive counselor based in Los Angeles. He's 21 00:01:16,400 --> 00:01:18,880 Speaker 1: been doing this for about twenty years and so I'm 22 00:01:18,959 --> 00:01:22,240 Speaker 1: really looking forward to talking to him a j. First 23 00:01:22,240 --> 00:01:24,560 Speaker 1: of all, I want to say thank you, thank you 24 00:01:24,600 --> 00:01:27,039 Speaker 1: so much for doing this. I know we talked a 25 00:01:27,120 --> 00:01:29,440 Speaker 1: while ago. I mean, are my first reading was my 26 00:01:29,480 --> 00:01:32,479 Speaker 1: mom was still here? Right? Correct? That was several years ago. 27 00:01:32,560 --> 00:01:35,160 Speaker 1: What year was that? I think that was ten or 28 00:01:35,440 --> 00:01:38,360 Speaker 1: we love and if I'm not mistaken, yeah, yeah, So 29 00:01:38,400 --> 00:01:40,160 Speaker 1: I think you went to our house in Encino. You 30 00:01:40,200 --> 00:01:43,600 Speaker 1: were part of the reality show as well, and I 31 00:01:43,640 --> 00:01:45,640 Speaker 1: think that's when you were the first one that mentioned 32 00:01:46,200 --> 00:01:50,040 Speaker 1: that my stepdad, Juan, who had passed in in O nine, 33 00:01:50,520 --> 00:01:53,440 Speaker 1: was in the house and doing and just wanted to 34 00:01:53,520 --> 00:01:55,800 Speaker 1: let us know that he was there. The kids were like, 35 00:01:55,840 --> 00:01:57,280 Speaker 1: we were all freaking out. We're like, oh my god, 36 00:01:57,280 --> 00:01:59,760 Speaker 1: how does he know that we hear things? That is 37 00:01:59,800 --> 00:02:03,160 Speaker 1: so crazy. It's so amazing because at the time I 38 00:02:03,240 --> 00:02:05,120 Speaker 1: had my show from Beyond that would air I think 39 00:02:05,160 --> 00:02:08,200 Speaker 1: before after your Your Guys show. So it was weird 40 00:02:08,240 --> 00:02:10,320 Speaker 1: because it was kind of like the way it presented 41 00:02:10,320 --> 00:02:12,799 Speaker 1: itself and I wasn't sure if you guys were gonna 42 00:02:12,800 --> 00:02:15,280 Speaker 1: be open to it. And when the producer reached out 43 00:02:15,280 --> 00:02:17,320 Speaker 1: to me and mentioned that, and I said, well, they're 44 00:02:17,320 --> 00:02:19,560 Speaker 1: open and recepted to it, and just look all the 45 00:02:19,560 --> 00:02:22,399 Speaker 1: different things that were happening within your home and the energies. 46 00:02:22,480 --> 00:02:25,240 Speaker 1: It was just really interesting to see how things kind 47 00:02:25,240 --> 00:02:27,480 Speaker 1: of orchestrated and the reading kind of took place in 48 00:02:27,480 --> 00:02:29,720 Speaker 1: its own very organically. So it was a beautiful thing. 49 00:02:30,840 --> 00:02:33,120 Speaker 1: It was. We were in my mom's office, I remember, 50 00:02:33,280 --> 00:02:35,640 Speaker 1: and you looked at me and you said that I 51 00:02:35,680 --> 00:02:38,080 Speaker 1: had no idea what was coming in my future. You 52 00:02:38,120 --> 00:02:39,880 Speaker 1: told me all kinds of things, and I was like, whoa. 53 00:02:40,360 --> 00:02:43,440 Speaker 1: I mean, we never thought my mom would leave us 54 00:02:43,600 --> 00:02:45,440 Speaker 1: and things would play out the way they have. But 55 00:02:45,600 --> 00:02:50,920 Speaker 1: like everything that you said was like whoa. Now I 56 00:02:50,960 --> 00:02:53,200 Speaker 1: look back and I think back, because I mean, thank goodness, 57 00:02:53,240 --> 00:02:54,919 Speaker 1: we have the reality show. We can look back and 58 00:02:55,120 --> 00:02:58,680 Speaker 1: see those moments. It's just like, my goodness. First of all, 59 00:02:58,919 --> 00:03:01,520 Speaker 1: let's let's start off with can you explain to us 60 00:03:01,520 --> 00:03:04,160 Speaker 1: for the listeners that may not know what a medium is, like, 61 00:03:04,240 --> 00:03:06,720 Speaker 1: what is a medium? Yeah? Absolutely, so there is a 62 00:03:06,760 --> 00:03:09,639 Speaker 1: difference between a psychic and a medium. So some people 63 00:03:09,680 --> 00:03:12,120 Speaker 1: are just mediums where they connect with those who have 64 00:03:12,120 --> 00:03:15,120 Speaker 1: passed over in the spirit realm and those individuals where 65 00:03:15,160 --> 00:03:16,839 Speaker 1: they have one foot in the physical world, one foot 66 00:03:16,880 --> 00:03:19,040 Speaker 1: on their side where they're able to bridge that connection, 67 00:03:19,120 --> 00:03:22,160 Speaker 1: hence a medium. Then you have a psychic who actually 68 00:03:22,160 --> 00:03:25,079 Speaker 1: works with tarot cards, crystals. They predict the future, give 69 00:03:25,120 --> 00:03:27,280 Speaker 1: you guidance, and so on, so forth. So there are 70 00:03:27,320 --> 00:03:30,440 Speaker 1: individuals that focus just on psychic work and medimistic work. 71 00:03:30,560 --> 00:03:32,720 Speaker 1: As for me, I do both psychic and medium ship work, 72 00:03:32,760 --> 00:03:35,040 Speaker 1: which is intuitive guidance and connecting with those who have 73 00:03:35,080 --> 00:03:38,840 Speaker 1: passed over. Okay, perfect, And is there a way of 74 00:03:38,880 --> 00:03:42,800 Speaker 1: like learning this or is this something that you're born with? 75 00:03:43,600 --> 00:03:45,520 Speaker 1: I love that you asked that question. A lot of 76 00:03:45,560 --> 00:03:47,960 Speaker 1: people think that that you're born with this a gift 77 00:03:48,080 --> 00:03:50,680 Speaker 1: or this ability. I always tell people it's an ability 78 00:03:50,680 --> 00:03:53,040 Speaker 1: more so than a gift. Because we all are we 79 00:03:53,080 --> 00:03:55,240 Speaker 1: all are intuitive, we all have that gut feeling, we 80 00:03:55,280 --> 00:03:57,520 Speaker 1: all have that intuition whatever you want to call it, 81 00:03:57,560 --> 00:04:00,040 Speaker 1: being sensitive. So if you ever had a moment in 82 00:04:00,120 --> 00:04:02,960 Speaker 1: your life that say, for instance, that you are doing 83 00:04:03,200 --> 00:04:04,720 Speaker 1: a business still and all of a sudden, your gut 84 00:04:04,720 --> 00:04:06,920 Speaker 1: tells you, like this doesn't feel right, or you're gonna 85 00:04:06,960 --> 00:04:09,200 Speaker 1: make a move to a new home, it doesn't feel right. 86 00:04:09,440 --> 00:04:11,280 Speaker 1: You're listening to that intuition, and that's what we need 87 00:04:11,320 --> 00:04:14,360 Speaker 1: to pay attention to. So what I do I hold workshops, 88 00:04:14,400 --> 00:04:16,680 Speaker 1: classes and so on, so forth to teach people how 89 00:04:16,720 --> 00:04:19,000 Speaker 1: to do this work. Because I'm only one person, so 90 00:04:19,080 --> 00:04:21,840 Speaker 1: we can have hundreds or thousand more people out there 91 00:04:21,839 --> 00:04:23,599 Speaker 1: that can heal the world and give people advice and 92 00:04:23,600 --> 00:04:25,640 Speaker 1: give the people the guidance. It's something that we can 93 00:04:25,680 --> 00:04:29,440 Speaker 1: tap into. But it really starts with ethics, grounding, meditation, 94 00:04:29,520 --> 00:04:33,120 Speaker 1: the foundation of mediumship, which is really being respectful to 95 00:04:33,120 --> 00:04:36,000 Speaker 1: people's work. And a lot of people will tell me like, hey, 96 00:04:36,040 --> 00:04:38,360 Speaker 1: can you tap into this person's energy, And I would 97 00:04:38,400 --> 00:04:40,919 Speaker 1: tell them absolutely not, because it's being disrespectful, it's not 98 00:04:40,960 --> 00:04:45,719 Speaker 1: being ethical and not to be personal. When when you 99 00:04:45,720 --> 00:04:48,320 Speaker 1: know people come into this work, they take one workshop, 100 00:04:48,360 --> 00:04:50,679 Speaker 1: the take one class, and they think like oh the psychic, 101 00:04:50,760 --> 00:04:53,159 Speaker 1: I'm a medium. It takes years to develop that ability 102 00:04:53,200 --> 00:04:55,800 Speaker 1: and to recognize it. So with you, you're you're very 103 00:04:55,839 --> 00:04:58,719 Speaker 1: sensitive and just in general as a person, but you 104 00:04:58,839 --> 00:05:01,920 Speaker 1: also vibrate this beautiful green energy. And typically that green 105 00:05:02,000 --> 00:05:05,360 Speaker 1: energy is like the humanitarian, the fixed person, the therapist, 106 00:05:05,440 --> 00:05:07,719 Speaker 1: Like you always want to make things right, but you 107 00:05:07,760 --> 00:05:09,480 Speaker 1: really don't know how to make things right for yourself 108 00:05:09,520 --> 00:05:11,560 Speaker 1: to focus on the things that makes sense for you. 109 00:05:11,680 --> 00:05:15,160 Speaker 1: So with you, it's there's there's a sense of trying 110 00:05:15,200 --> 00:05:17,440 Speaker 1: to bring balance in but you really don't know how 111 00:05:17,520 --> 00:05:19,320 Speaker 1: to do it. Even though you you want to do it, 112 00:05:19,400 --> 00:05:20,960 Speaker 1: you don't know how to do it. So it's really 113 00:05:21,000 --> 00:05:24,160 Speaker 1: recognizing what your gut and what spirit is telling you. 114 00:05:24,240 --> 00:05:26,520 Speaker 1: And I think just development over time is that the 115 00:05:26,520 --> 00:05:28,040 Speaker 1: brain is like a muscle. The more that you work 116 00:05:28,120 --> 00:05:29,840 Speaker 1: with it, the stronger and better than it gets. Yeah, 117 00:05:29,960 --> 00:05:32,080 Speaker 1: I call it my sixth sense. I'm like, you know what, 118 00:05:32,200 --> 00:05:34,159 Speaker 1: I always thank God. I'm like, thank you for my 119 00:05:34,160 --> 00:05:36,760 Speaker 1: five senses and my sixth sense because I'm very intuitive. 120 00:05:36,880 --> 00:05:39,400 Speaker 1: I I can feel certain energies. I feel like if 121 00:05:39,400 --> 00:05:41,560 Speaker 1: I were to stop honestly drinking and maybe smoking a 122 00:05:41,600 --> 00:05:44,080 Speaker 1: little weed, because I smoke weed at night sometimes. So 123 00:05:44,120 --> 00:05:46,320 Speaker 1: I feel like if I were to just cleanse myself 124 00:05:46,480 --> 00:05:49,760 Speaker 1: and maybe become like vegetarian, like, I will be like 125 00:05:50,360 --> 00:05:52,360 Speaker 1: vibrating at a different level and I feel like I 126 00:05:52,400 --> 00:05:55,880 Speaker 1: can develop it more. But I'm not gonna lie. Sometimes 127 00:05:55,920 --> 00:05:57,280 Speaker 1: a part of it's kind of like a little like 128 00:05:57,400 --> 00:05:59,839 Speaker 1: maybe I'll wait a little bit, but I know how, 129 00:06:01,040 --> 00:06:03,880 Speaker 1: you know, Yeah, but I think at the same time, 130 00:06:03,880 --> 00:06:06,799 Speaker 1: people are fearful. They're fearful of the unknown. They're fearful 131 00:06:06,839 --> 00:06:08,360 Speaker 1: of like not knowing how to turn it on or 132 00:06:08,400 --> 00:06:10,480 Speaker 1: off or tap into it. So it's really again just 133 00:06:10,560 --> 00:06:13,080 Speaker 1: having that balance and understanding the process. I come from 134 00:06:13,080 --> 00:06:15,680 Speaker 1: a Catholic background one Heaven, one how on that judgment 135 00:06:15,760 --> 00:06:17,960 Speaker 1: day you go to that place. So for me, my 136 00:06:18,040 --> 00:06:20,159 Speaker 1: parents weren't really big believers in this work. They thought 137 00:06:20,160 --> 00:06:22,039 Speaker 1: I was taboo. So I've been doing this work for 138 00:06:22,080 --> 00:06:24,799 Speaker 1: twenty years now. So when I started doing this work 139 00:06:25,000 --> 00:06:27,320 Speaker 1: on radio stations here here in l A, my mom 140 00:06:27,360 --> 00:06:29,040 Speaker 1: thought it was a phase. So she goes, oh, it's 141 00:06:29,040 --> 00:06:30,560 Speaker 1: just a phase. It's just a phase. I go, Mom, 142 00:06:30,560 --> 00:06:32,039 Speaker 1: I've been doing this work for like twenty years now. 143 00:06:32,080 --> 00:06:33,920 Speaker 1: It's not a phase anymore. This is like what I 144 00:06:33,960 --> 00:06:38,080 Speaker 1: do right. So again, the more that you recognize the cheeky's, 145 00:06:38,080 --> 00:06:40,120 Speaker 1: I think it's gonna be such an easy process to 146 00:06:40,400 --> 00:06:43,680 Speaker 1: resonate with the subtle signs, because we expect to get 147 00:06:43,720 --> 00:06:46,360 Speaker 1: these big, almighty signs from the other side, and sometimes 148 00:06:46,360 --> 00:06:49,080 Speaker 1: they're very subtle. It's a thought, it's a feeling, it's 149 00:06:49,080 --> 00:06:51,760 Speaker 1: a sense, it's a smell, it's a little different things. 150 00:06:51,800 --> 00:06:54,760 Speaker 1: If we recognize that, then we can gradually develop that ability. 151 00:06:54,880 --> 00:06:58,719 Speaker 1: And you said you started this work twenty years ago. Yeah, okay, 152 00:06:58,880 --> 00:07:02,560 Speaker 1: and how how did you know what happened where You're like, Okay, 153 00:07:02,600 --> 00:07:05,000 Speaker 1: this is what I'm meant to do, this is what 154 00:07:05,160 --> 00:07:06,880 Speaker 1: makes me happy, or I don't know, tell us a 155 00:07:06,920 --> 00:07:10,400 Speaker 1: little bit about it. Yeah, so interesting background with my work. 156 00:07:10,480 --> 00:07:13,040 Speaker 1: I never had a near death experience. I never had 157 00:07:13,080 --> 00:07:15,480 Speaker 1: like something that traumatized me. I never lost anyone close 158 00:07:15,520 --> 00:07:17,840 Speaker 1: to me as a young individual. So for me, it 159 00:07:17,880 --> 00:07:20,360 Speaker 1: was more so curiosity than anything else. I was very 160 00:07:20,360 --> 00:07:23,960 Speaker 1: curious about the afterlife, the beyond, psychics and medium So 161 00:07:24,000 --> 00:07:26,119 Speaker 1: I grew up watching I Dream A Genie b Which, 162 00:07:26,200 --> 00:07:29,040 Speaker 1: The X Files, The Unexplained, you know, the Twilight Zone, 163 00:07:29,040 --> 00:07:31,560 Speaker 1: like all these different shows that meet me want to understand. 164 00:07:32,080 --> 00:07:34,280 Speaker 1: I guess the woo woo stuff if you will, because 165 00:07:34,320 --> 00:07:36,720 Speaker 1: you know, I grew up watching certain talk shows, and 166 00:07:36,760 --> 00:07:39,120 Speaker 1: I'm sure you have. You're not that much older. I 167 00:07:39,200 --> 00:07:41,160 Speaker 1: think younger. I think you're younger than me if I'm mistaken. 168 00:07:41,200 --> 00:07:43,960 Speaker 1: So we had talk shows like Sally Jesse, Rafael, Jenny Jones, 169 00:07:44,400 --> 00:07:47,200 Speaker 1: like all these different people and they had psychics and 170 00:07:47,240 --> 00:07:49,480 Speaker 1: mediums on television shows where they placed people in the 171 00:07:49,480 --> 00:07:51,560 Speaker 1: audience and they had them like read different things and 172 00:07:51,560 --> 00:07:54,080 Speaker 1: so on so forth. So I thought it was all 173 00:07:54,160 --> 00:07:56,080 Speaker 1: set up, like it was all placed, like, oh, this 174 00:07:56,320 --> 00:07:58,920 Speaker 1: is all like an act basically. So I kind of 175 00:07:58,920 --> 00:08:01,400 Speaker 1: went on my own journey when I was in sixth grade, 176 00:08:01,440 --> 00:08:03,320 Speaker 1: which is at a very young age, and I started 177 00:08:03,360 --> 00:08:05,760 Speaker 1: working with Tarot cards. It's actually the Writer's Deck, one 178 00:08:05,760 --> 00:08:07,920 Speaker 1: of the original decks that I recommend to people if 179 00:08:07,920 --> 00:08:10,320 Speaker 1: they're interested in tarot to work with that. So I 180 00:08:10,320 --> 00:08:13,280 Speaker 1: started working with Tarot cards from sixth grade to eighth grade, 181 00:08:13,720 --> 00:08:16,440 Speaker 1: and I was explaining giving readings to people in junior 182 00:08:16,480 --> 00:08:18,880 Speaker 1: high and so people that I was the weird kid. 183 00:08:19,080 --> 00:08:21,720 Speaker 1: Obviously I wasn't very popular at all. I was definitely 184 00:08:21,760 --> 00:08:24,720 Speaker 1: the weird kid. But you know, so I I could 185 00:08:24,720 --> 00:08:26,720 Speaker 1: look back now and make fun of myself and see like, 186 00:08:26,720 --> 00:08:28,800 Speaker 1: oh my god, what was I doing back then, because 187 00:08:29,040 --> 00:08:31,520 Speaker 1: it wasn't something that was really talked about back then. 188 00:08:31,600 --> 00:08:34,000 Speaker 1: It was really looked as taboo, the devil's work, evil 189 00:08:34,040 --> 00:08:36,960 Speaker 1: and so on so forth. So having that understanding, it 190 00:08:37,000 --> 00:08:39,680 Speaker 1: was really trying to bring that balance. I think for me, 191 00:08:39,840 --> 00:08:42,720 Speaker 1: my freshman year when I met my high school teacher 192 00:08:42,800 --> 00:08:44,520 Speaker 1: and she's actually a medium who I still talked to 193 00:08:44,720 --> 00:08:47,680 Speaker 1: like on a weekly basis, And she is a medium, 194 00:08:47,720 --> 00:08:49,400 Speaker 1: and she told me that I had the ability to 195 00:08:49,440 --> 00:08:51,760 Speaker 1: communicate with the either side. I did not know that. 196 00:08:52,040 --> 00:08:54,560 Speaker 1: All I knew I was able to read energy like 197 00:08:54,640 --> 00:08:56,720 Speaker 1: psychic energy, like I was able to sense things and 198 00:08:56,760 --> 00:08:59,360 Speaker 1: read things and predict things that were coming up. So 199 00:08:59,480 --> 00:09:01,680 Speaker 1: I started working with her for four years. I had 200 00:09:01,679 --> 00:09:05,640 Speaker 1: her for a PR science biology for everything because I 201 00:09:05,679 --> 00:09:07,720 Speaker 1: wanted to know everything. I was like a sponge. I 202 00:09:07,800 --> 00:09:10,400 Speaker 1: exhorbed everything that I want to do, so I really 203 00:09:10,400 --> 00:09:12,440 Speaker 1: didn't take any classes. It was more of a natural 204 00:09:12,520 --> 00:09:15,280 Speaker 1: ability that came to me an understanding because I mean 205 00:09:15,480 --> 00:09:16,839 Speaker 1: some of the books that I had behind me in 206 00:09:16,920 --> 00:09:18,960 Speaker 1: my garage and my other office. I have so many 207 00:09:18,960 --> 00:09:20,839 Speaker 1: books from when I started this work to help me 208 00:09:20,920 --> 00:09:23,840 Speaker 1: understand it. And I love reading about this work because 209 00:09:23,880 --> 00:09:26,200 Speaker 1: I see myself as an internal student of this work. 210 00:09:26,240 --> 00:09:28,600 Speaker 1: So I will never know everything about this work even 211 00:09:28,600 --> 00:09:31,400 Speaker 1: as I get older. I learned new development, new frame 212 00:09:31,480 --> 00:09:34,560 Speaker 1: of references of how I work. But for me that 213 00:09:34,559 --> 00:09:37,599 Speaker 1: that was yeah, because like, you cannot know everything, and 214 00:09:37,600 --> 00:09:39,440 Speaker 1: I always tell people, I can and will be wrong 215 00:09:39,440 --> 00:09:41,640 Speaker 1: in reading. I can admit that I am not like 216 00:09:41,760 --> 00:09:43,559 Speaker 1: needed to toot my horn and saying like it has 217 00:09:43,600 --> 00:09:45,440 Speaker 1: to be this way, has to be that way. Like 218 00:09:45,480 --> 00:09:47,840 Speaker 1: you have to accept that because if you're working from 219 00:09:47,840 --> 00:09:49,240 Speaker 1: a place of v ego, you're not working from a 220 00:09:49,280 --> 00:09:51,040 Speaker 1: place of love. And you need to work from a 221 00:09:51,040 --> 00:09:52,760 Speaker 1: place of love when you do this work, because if 222 00:09:52,800 --> 00:09:55,319 Speaker 1: you're working with that vibration, that's what you want to 223 00:09:55,320 --> 00:09:57,640 Speaker 1: get back out to the client, to the individual or 224 00:09:57,840 --> 00:10:00,520 Speaker 1: whoever you're talking to, because they're there too. Hell and 225 00:10:00,800 --> 00:10:03,080 Speaker 1: we all healed differently in our own ways, and we 226 00:10:03,120 --> 00:10:05,880 Speaker 1: all grieve differently. Some of us take a year, five years, 227 00:10:05,920 --> 00:10:08,760 Speaker 1: ten years. There's no time frame on healing. There's no timeline, 228 00:10:08,800 --> 00:10:11,560 Speaker 1: so it's as being patient with it. But for things 229 00:10:11,559 --> 00:10:14,800 Speaker 1: that happened and real quick to backtrack with with high 230 00:10:14,840 --> 00:10:17,360 Speaker 1: school works with my mentor Ellen Marin for four years, 231 00:10:17,840 --> 00:10:20,839 Speaker 1: and then at age nineteen and a half, I landed 232 00:10:20,840 --> 00:10:23,000 Speaker 1: a gig with Coast one of three point five in Burbank. 233 00:10:23,040 --> 00:10:24,760 Speaker 1: So I landed a contract with them and I was 234 00:10:24,800 --> 00:10:26,439 Speaker 1: on the on the show from seven at midnight in 235 00:10:26,440 --> 00:10:28,559 Speaker 1: a radio show called Angels and Waiting they took me 236 00:10:28,600 --> 00:10:30,559 Speaker 1: in the studio and said, hey, let's let's check out 237 00:10:30,600 --> 00:10:32,439 Speaker 1: this guy. They saw a kid that was there and 238 00:10:32,480 --> 00:10:34,440 Speaker 1: they're like, what is this kid get gonna do? So 239 00:10:34,480 --> 00:10:37,280 Speaker 1: they had me come in the studio. Yeah, trust me, 240 00:10:37,320 --> 00:10:39,600 Speaker 1: I was so nervous. I've never done live radio, never 241 00:10:39,640 --> 00:10:42,520 Speaker 1: done anything like that. And they had me read, like 242 00:10:42,559 --> 00:10:44,840 Speaker 1: basically screened me to eat for six different people, like 243 00:10:44,880 --> 00:10:47,560 Speaker 1: all over New York, Kansas, whatever a v phone. Because 244 00:10:47,559 --> 00:10:50,000 Speaker 1: everything that I do is work about energy, it's about 245 00:10:50,000 --> 00:10:53,120 Speaker 1: a person's voice. So one thing led to another, and 246 00:10:53,240 --> 00:10:54,680 Speaker 1: dined at a gig, and then from there on I 247 00:10:54,679 --> 00:10:56,679 Speaker 1: went to k BIG, which is now my FM, and 248 00:10:56,760 --> 00:10:59,120 Speaker 1: Kiss FM, Hot I T jams and things just kind 249 00:10:59,120 --> 00:11:00,640 Speaker 1: of took off. I wasn't trying to do this work. 250 00:11:00,720 --> 00:11:03,360 Speaker 1: My background, honestly was to be a firefighter, to be 251 00:11:03,400 --> 00:11:07,880 Speaker 1: in law enforcement. Now I work, Yeah, yeah, but now 252 00:11:08,000 --> 00:11:11,559 Speaker 1: here's a beautiful part. And now I teach classes with departments, 253 00:11:11,679 --> 00:11:14,760 Speaker 1: and I teach them with detectives, and I teach them 254 00:11:14,880 --> 00:11:17,520 Speaker 1: how to do this work. But also we work with 255 00:11:17,559 --> 00:11:19,760 Speaker 1: detectives high rking. I'm not gonna say the department because 256 00:11:19,800 --> 00:11:21,840 Speaker 1: there's a lot of red tape around it. But with 257 00:11:22,000 --> 00:11:25,480 Speaker 1: different departments that we teach intuitives how to work with 258 00:11:25,559 --> 00:11:27,800 Speaker 1: law enforcement, because you have to think of us like 259 00:11:28,040 --> 00:11:30,040 Speaker 1: when we work on missing person in the homicide cases, 260 00:11:30,559 --> 00:11:32,800 Speaker 1: I'm just like a dog, like a canine, a diver dog. 261 00:11:32,840 --> 00:11:34,880 Speaker 1: I sniffed out the information and the detective needs to 262 00:11:34,880 --> 00:11:36,240 Speaker 1: figure out how to do it, you know what I mean. 263 00:11:36,320 --> 00:11:38,920 Speaker 1: So for me, it's about really learning the work. And 264 00:11:38,960 --> 00:11:41,240 Speaker 1: I've been blessed and fortunate because now I work with 265 00:11:41,360 --> 00:11:45,280 Speaker 1: small and large departments, law enforcement companies and cold cases. 266 00:11:45,800 --> 00:11:49,960 Speaker 1: So it just kind of became full circle years later. Yeah, circle, 267 00:11:51,360 --> 00:11:54,600 Speaker 1: so awesome. Do you know roughly how many readings you've done, 268 00:11:55,679 --> 00:11:58,719 Speaker 1: well over fifteen thousand. Is it something that you can 269 00:11:58,760 --> 00:12:01,160 Speaker 1: turn off for it? If you're just hanging out, you're 270 00:12:01,240 --> 00:12:03,960 Speaker 1: at a dinner, do you start getting feelings from someone 271 00:12:04,040 --> 00:12:07,079 Speaker 1: like hey there anything like that? I mean, yes and no, 272 00:12:07,200 --> 00:12:09,160 Speaker 1: it has happened a couple of times. But for me, 273 00:12:09,360 --> 00:12:11,560 Speaker 1: like there again, there's ethics with it. So when I 274 00:12:11,600 --> 00:12:14,800 Speaker 1: clock in, basically I'm working so meditation and prayer. Even 275 00:12:14,840 --> 00:12:17,800 Speaker 1: when I do any interviews, radio, whatever I do, I meditate, 276 00:12:17,800 --> 00:12:20,320 Speaker 1: prey and I just you know, be the vessel for 277 00:12:20,400 --> 00:12:23,560 Speaker 1: the instrument of spirit basically, and when I'm done, I 278 00:12:23,640 --> 00:12:26,000 Speaker 1: shut down my chakras, I shut down and do a prayer, 279 00:12:26,080 --> 00:12:27,720 Speaker 1: Thank God, thank Spirit for allowing me to do what 280 00:12:27,760 --> 00:12:29,800 Speaker 1: I do. It's always giving thanks and being respectful of 281 00:12:29,840 --> 00:12:32,319 Speaker 1: the process regardless if I don't know what's going to 282 00:12:32,400 --> 00:12:35,280 Speaker 1: happen in an interview or in an event or so on, 283 00:12:35,400 --> 00:12:37,160 Speaker 1: so worth I need to allow it to happen. So 284 00:12:37,760 --> 00:12:40,680 Speaker 1: you can't keep that battery always on because what's gonna happen. 285 00:12:40,720 --> 00:12:43,120 Speaker 1: It's gonna vent, You're gonna drain and you can't recharge 286 00:12:43,120 --> 00:12:45,960 Speaker 1: it quickly enough. And so you have to be respectful 287 00:12:45,960 --> 00:12:47,920 Speaker 1: of the body and what the body is telling you. 288 00:12:47,960 --> 00:12:51,199 Speaker 1: And there's times that I've done events where I'm like 289 00:12:51,720 --> 00:12:54,520 Speaker 1: at this high, like vibrating so high, but I feel 290 00:12:54,520 --> 00:12:57,240 Speaker 1: tired at the same time. So it's really learning to say, 291 00:12:57,520 --> 00:13:00,960 Speaker 1: check yourself first before anything else, because you can't always 292 00:13:01,000 --> 00:13:05,319 Speaker 1: just be around doing readings. Okay, Well, with that being said, 293 00:13:05,720 --> 00:13:08,040 Speaker 1: would you be open to giving me a reading right now? 294 00:13:08,080 --> 00:13:18,959 Speaker 1: Are you on right now? Absolutely? Every client's different. Every 295 00:13:18,960 --> 00:13:21,400 Speaker 1: person is different of what they're looking for. If it's mediumistically, 296 00:13:21,520 --> 00:13:23,920 Speaker 1: if it's about connecting with spirit, or if it's connecting 297 00:13:23,960 --> 00:13:26,880 Speaker 1: with your energy in general. So are you open and 298 00:13:26,920 --> 00:13:31,520 Speaker 1: receptive to everything? I'm open and receptive to everything. Okay, 299 00:13:31,600 --> 00:13:34,959 Speaker 1: So if I can ask you, what's your birth month 300 00:13:35,080 --> 00:13:39,520 Speaker 1: and your birth date? So what I'm doing is I'm 301 00:13:39,559 --> 00:13:42,199 Speaker 1: working with numerology real quick. So when we wreak down 302 00:13:42,240 --> 00:13:44,640 Speaker 1: your information, you break down to a twenty. So twenty 303 00:13:44,720 --> 00:13:48,360 Speaker 1: you break down two plus zero equals to serio two vibrations. 304 00:13:48,360 --> 00:13:51,120 Speaker 1: So what's interesting about a two vibration? This year is 305 00:13:51,160 --> 00:13:53,440 Speaker 1: all about patients. It's all about calming down for what 306 00:13:53,480 --> 00:13:56,240 Speaker 1: you need to focus on. What's interesting. The last three 307 00:13:56,320 --> 00:13:59,439 Speaker 1: years for you have been very heavy weight, like very 308 00:13:59,440 --> 00:14:01,760 Speaker 1: heavy lifting that you needed to do, and it's about 309 00:14:01,760 --> 00:14:05,560 Speaker 1: coming into play about being responsible for yourself. What I 310 00:14:05,600 --> 00:14:07,679 Speaker 1: do see what's interesting with you is that this is 311 00:14:07,720 --> 00:14:09,800 Speaker 1: going to be a year for you to focus on 312 00:14:09,880 --> 00:14:11,600 Speaker 1: kind of like having this whole past to kind of 313 00:14:11,640 --> 00:14:13,400 Speaker 1: relax and do the things that you need to do 314 00:14:13,440 --> 00:14:16,120 Speaker 1: in your own personal life, not so much relating to career. 315 00:14:16,200 --> 00:14:18,600 Speaker 1: Because you're so driven of what you need to do, 316 00:14:19,000 --> 00:14:21,080 Speaker 1: it's hard for you to take a backseat and focus 317 00:14:21,080 --> 00:14:24,320 Speaker 1: on the needs for cheekies for yourself because you're always 318 00:14:24,320 --> 00:14:27,080 Speaker 1: like this motor vibrating and moving in this direction, saying 319 00:14:27,120 --> 00:14:28,960 Speaker 1: I gotta go, I gotta go, I gotta go, and 320 00:14:29,000 --> 00:14:30,880 Speaker 1: the moment that you sit down, it's kind of like crap, 321 00:14:30,960 --> 00:14:32,640 Speaker 1: like what do I What can I work on next? 322 00:14:32,640 --> 00:14:34,560 Speaker 1: What can I do next? So it's about you really 323 00:14:34,640 --> 00:14:37,680 Speaker 1: being patient with that vibration and focusing on the things 324 00:14:37,720 --> 00:14:40,680 Speaker 1: that you need to do for yourself. What's interesting here 325 00:14:40,880 --> 00:14:43,320 Speaker 1: is that I don't want to be too personal, but 326 00:14:43,360 --> 00:14:44,920 Speaker 1: I am gonna ask you. I don't know if you 327 00:14:44,960 --> 00:14:47,560 Speaker 1: are currently in a relationship, but are you currently in 328 00:14:47,600 --> 00:14:50,720 Speaker 1: a relationship. If you don't be asking, I am okay. 329 00:14:50,720 --> 00:14:53,320 Speaker 1: So when we look at that vibration, it's gonna be 330 00:14:53,360 --> 00:14:56,960 Speaker 1: about you focusing for this year, about focusing on relationships, 331 00:14:57,040 --> 00:14:59,680 Speaker 1: focusing on communication, and focusing on the things that you 332 00:14:59,680 --> 00:15:02,240 Speaker 1: need to you. So it's gonna be about presenting it 333 00:15:02,320 --> 00:15:05,720 Speaker 1: this year. I feel like that for an interesting reference. 334 00:15:05,800 --> 00:15:08,480 Speaker 1: I don't know if if last year, if you were 335 00:15:08,520 --> 00:15:10,800 Speaker 1: in that relationship, but to me, it makes me feel 336 00:15:10,800 --> 00:15:13,120 Speaker 1: like this year is very significant for you to focus 337 00:15:13,160 --> 00:15:16,680 Speaker 1: on really bridging that gap. And what's interesting, there's gonna 338 00:15:16,720 --> 00:15:20,440 Speaker 1: be a very unique reference. What I'm being shown energetically, 339 00:15:20,800 --> 00:15:22,680 Speaker 1: which lets me know that there is going to be 340 00:15:22,720 --> 00:15:26,520 Speaker 1: a sense of you not jumping into like, Oh, we're 341 00:15:26,520 --> 00:15:28,720 Speaker 1: gonna move in, we're gonna get married, we're gonna do this. 342 00:15:28,880 --> 00:15:30,480 Speaker 1: I think it's gonna be a reality check for you 343 00:15:30,520 --> 00:15:32,760 Speaker 1: to kind of say, like, Okay, do I really take 344 00:15:32,760 --> 00:15:34,920 Speaker 1: a step back and really move into this vibration and 345 00:15:34,960 --> 00:15:39,560 Speaker 1: this relationship very calmly, very smoothly, because the challenges that 346 00:15:39,600 --> 00:15:42,600 Speaker 1: you had is really with your heart chakra. You give 347 00:15:42,680 --> 00:15:45,640 Speaker 1: too much energetically. You put everything out there energetically, so 348 00:15:45,680 --> 00:15:49,080 Speaker 1: it's about being protected at that same nature, what I 349 00:15:49,120 --> 00:15:51,560 Speaker 1: do need to bring up here with you as I 350 00:15:51,600 --> 00:15:53,760 Speaker 1: feel like that you have a lot of guidance that 351 00:15:53,920 --> 00:15:55,680 Speaker 1: is coming through from the spirit realm. So if it's 352 00:15:55,680 --> 00:15:58,080 Speaker 1: your loved ones, if it's from your guides, I feel 353 00:15:58,080 --> 00:16:00,880 Speaker 1: like it's important for you to recognize this what we 354 00:16:00,960 --> 00:16:02,680 Speaker 1: do need to bring up here. And I may be 355 00:16:02,800 --> 00:16:04,640 Speaker 1: mistaken in the process because I'm going to go in 356 00:16:04,640 --> 00:16:07,640 Speaker 1: a direction here. There's a sense that I see with 357 00:16:08,040 --> 00:16:11,280 Speaker 1: when we look at the relationship vibration here, there's a 358 00:16:11,320 --> 00:16:13,720 Speaker 1: sense that I don't want to say there's difficulty, but 359 00:16:13,800 --> 00:16:17,119 Speaker 1: it seems like it's about really you kind of vibrating 360 00:16:17,240 --> 00:16:19,920 Speaker 1: to his energy. And I don't know how this does 361 00:16:20,080 --> 00:16:21,560 Speaker 1: make sense to you. I don't know if there's a 362 00:16:21,600 --> 00:16:24,800 Speaker 1: sense of him like being private or closed off or 363 00:16:24,800 --> 00:16:26,560 Speaker 1: whatever it is. But there's a sense of kind of 364 00:16:26,600 --> 00:16:29,040 Speaker 1: saying like I respect my woman. I respect my woman, 365 00:16:29,080 --> 00:16:31,560 Speaker 1: but I don't want to be present with my woman, 366 00:16:31,600 --> 00:16:33,840 Speaker 1: if that makes sense. It's almost like I don't want that, 367 00:16:34,560 --> 00:16:36,680 Speaker 1: I wanta say limelight, but there's a sense of that 368 00:16:36,680 --> 00:16:38,080 Speaker 1: that I feel like there's a sense of like being 369 00:16:38,120 --> 00:16:40,600 Speaker 1: respectful to the process in you. So if there is 370 00:16:40,640 --> 00:16:42,280 Speaker 1: gonna be some seed bumps that you guys are going 371 00:16:42,320 --> 00:16:44,800 Speaker 1: to go through, which is normal with any relationship, I 372 00:16:44,840 --> 00:16:47,280 Speaker 1: feel like Spirit is gonna be working with you. Now. 373 00:16:47,440 --> 00:16:50,360 Speaker 1: What I do want to go into is relating to 374 00:16:50,560 --> 00:16:53,760 Speaker 1: more so the vibration of spirit in general. And what's 375 00:16:53,800 --> 00:16:57,200 Speaker 1: interesting here because when I bring this up here and 376 00:16:57,600 --> 00:16:59,800 Speaker 1: I I am just gonna be very direct with everything, 377 00:16:59,840 --> 00:17:02,760 Speaker 1: and I hope you don't mind where I'm going with this. Obviously, 378 00:17:03,240 --> 00:17:06,120 Speaker 1: Mom isn't spirit. Obviously I know that we know that, 379 00:17:06,200 --> 00:17:07,840 Speaker 1: and I do need to recognize this. And I'm going 380 00:17:07,880 --> 00:17:10,520 Speaker 1: to give you everything either how I feel, and you 381 00:17:10,520 --> 00:17:12,439 Speaker 1: may ask questions, and I'll be honest, like Cheeky's, I'm 382 00:17:12,440 --> 00:17:14,639 Speaker 1: not feeling it. I'm not sensing it. But what I 383 00:17:14,640 --> 00:17:17,960 Speaker 1: can tell you vibration ly is I just get immediately 384 00:17:18,040 --> 00:17:21,000 Speaker 1: like blackness to my head, which is more symbolism. It 385 00:17:21,000 --> 00:17:23,679 Speaker 1: doesn't mean like a physical injury, doesn't mean that, but 386 00:17:23,720 --> 00:17:27,080 Speaker 1: it lets me know that her soul and her spirit 387 00:17:27,840 --> 00:17:31,520 Speaker 1: immediately left the body before impact. I do not feel 388 00:17:31,560 --> 00:17:34,960 Speaker 1: like there's a sense of recognizing what was going on, 389 00:17:35,040 --> 00:17:37,840 Speaker 1: because to me, everything feels very blurry, and it feels 390 00:17:37,880 --> 00:17:40,760 Speaker 1: like there's a sense of being at peace. There's not 391 00:17:40,920 --> 00:17:44,679 Speaker 1: a moment of being afraid, which is weird. It's like 392 00:17:44,800 --> 00:17:48,000 Speaker 1: a calm energy, and you would think that so one 393 00:17:48,320 --> 00:17:53,240 Speaker 1: in that situation or individuals in that situation would be fearful, 394 00:17:53,320 --> 00:17:55,080 Speaker 1: but it's a sense of like coming to a calmness. 395 00:17:55,080 --> 00:17:57,760 Speaker 1: It's like the calm before the storm. I don't know 396 00:17:57,960 --> 00:18:03,879 Speaker 1: if your mom would have own her destiny because I 397 00:18:04,000 --> 00:18:06,120 Speaker 1: don't predict, I don't play god, I don't do any 398 00:18:06,119 --> 00:18:08,240 Speaker 1: of that. But there's a sense with her that she 399 00:18:08,359 --> 00:18:11,240 Speaker 1: wants to recodize more so her love and her gratitude 400 00:18:11,240 --> 00:18:16,119 Speaker 1: towards you, because there wasn't that opportunity to verbally communicate 401 00:18:16,160 --> 00:18:18,920 Speaker 1: that with you, and I feel like it's important for 402 00:18:19,000 --> 00:18:21,719 Speaker 1: you to hear it from her, not from me as 403 00:18:21,720 --> 00:18:24,600 Speaker 1: a medium, but from your mom, because there's a sense 404 00:18:24,680 --> 00:18:28,639 Speaker 1: of understanding and accepting your mom's transition, but there's a 405 00:18:28,640 --> 00:18:30,679 Speaker 1: sense that still makes there there's a brick wall, as 406 00:18:30,720 --> 00:18:33,919 Speaker 1: if I never really got It's not an apology, but 407 00:18:34,040 --> 00:18:37,000 Speaker 1: it's a sense of being validated and being accepted. And 408 00:18:37,080 --> 00:18:39,760 Speaker 1: your mom wants to make sure that you understand that 409 00:18:39,840 --> 00:18:44,080 Speaker 1: she appreciates you then and she appreciates you now because 410 00:18:44,080 --> 00:18:45,919 Speaker 1: there's a sense that she wants to put you on 411 00:18:45,960 --> 00:18:48,760 Speaker 1: a beautiful pedestal in her way for what you have 412 00:18:48,800 --> 00:18:52,440 Speaker 1: done not only after her transition, but more so kind 413 00:18:52,440 --> 00:18:54,720 Speaker 1: of making yourself as like I gotta be in charge, 414 00:18:55,080 --> 00:18:57,359 Speaker 1: I gotta do this. And you took life by the 415 00:18:57,520 --> 00:18:59,320 Speaker 1: by the horns or by the rain, if you will, 416 00:18:59,359 --> 00:19:01,159 Speaker 1: and you kind of like gotta do what you gotta do. 417 00:19:01,720 --> 00:19:04,160 Speaker 1: I do need to bring something interesting. And I don't 418 00:19:04,160 --> 00:19:05,280 Speaker 1: know if you know this, but I don't speak a 419 00:19:05,280 --> 00:19:07,040 Speaker 1: lot of Spanish at all whatsoever, so it might come 420 00:19:07,040 --> 00:19:10,960 Speaker 1: out very so used. The thing I feel like there's 421 00:19:10,960 --> 00:19:13,200 Speaker 1: a sense like I'm just hearing it in a way 422 00:19:13,200 --> 00:19:16,960 Speaker 1: of just like if I'm seeing it correctly, like me, PRINCESSA, me, PRINCESSA, 423 00:19:17,000 --> 00:19:19,119 Speaker 1: Like I keep on hearing over and over and over again, 424 00:19:19,200 --> 00:19:20,840 Speaker 1: and she just wants to put this little t r 425 00:19:21,000 --> 00:19:22,720 Speaker 1: like this crown on you as like you're still my 426 00:19:22,800 --> 00:19:25,199 Speaker 1: little girl, even though you're an adult. In front of 427 00:19:25,240 --> 00:19:27,720 Speaker 1: me and to your mother, there's a sense that she 428 00:19:27,760 --> 00:19:29,640 Speaker 1: wants to pay that respect to you in a very 429 00:19:29,640 --> 00:19:32,159 Speaker 1: beautiful way to recognize Mom will always be with you, 430 00:19:32,240 --> 00:19:35,119 Speaker 1: she will always be guiding you. Because there's moments that 431 00:19:35,280 --> 00:19:38,640 Speaker 1: I know, Cheeky's that you're very spiritual, hence you could 432 00:19:38,640 --> 00:19:40,840 Speaker 1: be very religious at the same time, but I know 433 00:19:41,920 --> 00:19:44,359 Speaker 1: you know your mom was with you. You know that 434 00:19:44,400 --> 00:19:47,879 Speaker 1: your mom is guiding you, but also accepting that. And 435 00:19:47,920 --> 00:19:51,000 Speaker 1: it's not about apologizing because your mom is laughing saying 436 00:19:51,040 --> 00:19:53,280 Speaker 1: that she would never really apologize, to be quite frank, 437 00:19:53,320 --> 00:19:55,520 Speaker 1: so this is not a woman that would really apologize. 438 00:19:55,840 --> 00:19:57,760 Speaker 1: But I feel like it's your way making peace and 439 00:19:57,840 --> 00:20:00,399 Speaker 1: kind of clearing the air that she wants to happen 440 00:20:00,440 --> 00:20:02,199 Speaker 1: here with you because it's something that you need to 441 00:20:02,200 --> 00:20:05,320 Speaker 1: hear from her. There's also a reference that she's showing 442 00:20:05,320 --> 00:20:07,840 Speaker 1: to me that I feel like I might misinterpret. Would 443 00:20:07,880 --> 00:20:11,120 Speaker 1: you understand why she would actually show me like, say, 444 00:20:11,200 --> 00:20:13,200 Speaker 1: oh my god, I'm seeing like a bunch of materials. 445 00:20:13,240 --> 00:20:15,919 Speaker 1: So did you somehow put pieces of material together for 446 00:20:16,000 --> 00:20:19,439 Speaker 1: your mother, or like you somehow did some sort of quilt, 447 00:20:19,560 --> 00:20:21,399 Speaker 1: or you did some sort of blanket. I don't know 448 00:20:21,440 --> 00:20:23,440 Speaker 1: what it is, but there's something that she wants to 449 00:20:23,440 --> 00:20:25,399 Speaker 1: say thank you for honoring her or thank you for 450 00:20:25,440 --> 00:20:28,359 Speaker 1: doing this. So what's the reference. Yeah, I've I've made 451 00:20:28,359 --> 00:20:31,600 Speaker 1: a lot of blankets that I travel with, that I 452 00:20:31,640 --> 00:20:34,439 Speaker 1: sleep with, that I make. They have her pictures and 453 00:20:34,440 --> 00:20:37,280 Speaker 1: pictures of her and I together. Okay, there might be 454 00:20:37,440 --> 00:20:39,280 Speaker 1: a very specific one that I do need to bring 455 00:20:39,359 --> 00:20:41,680 Speaker 1: up here. There would be one that I'm seeing that 456 00:20:41,720 --> 00:20:45,000 Speaker 1: would be more of her items, like say, I don't 457 00:20:45,040 --> 00:20:47,359 Speaker 1: know her shirt, her jacket. I don't know what it is, 458 00:20:47,400 --> 00:20:49,200 Speaker 1: but it feels very personal that she wants to say 459 00:20:49,200 --> 00:20:51,800 Speaker 1: thank you for that one specifically. So I don't know 460 00:20:51,840 --> 00:20:53,520 Speaker 1: how that makes sense for you, but she wants to 461 00:20:53,560 --> 00:20:55,720 Speaker 1: thank you for doing that because she definitely wants to 462 00:20:55,720 --> 00:20:58,760 Speaker 1: recognize that she's still You're guarding your protector in that 463 00:20:58,840 --> 00:21:01,600 Speaker 1: sense when she comes through. There's also a sense that 464 00:21:01,720 --> 00:21:03,800 Speaker 1: I keep on hearing her as like saying, continue to 465 00:21:03,880 --> 00:21:06,000 Speaker 1: kind of be like a chingo now like a badass, 466 00:21:06,080 --> 00:21:08,440 Speaker 1: because I feel like that's something that your mom wants 467 00:21:08,480 --> 00:21:10,679 Speaker 1: to do, is support you on this level of that 468 00:21:10,760 --> 00:21:12,960 Speaker 1: you need from her. I want to make sure that 469 00:21:13,040 --> 00:21:16,080 Speaker 1: you understand this from her, not for me, is that 470 00:21:16,119 --> 00:21:18,720 Speaker 1: you've always had that support from your mother, even in 471 00:21:18,760 --> 00:21:21,119 Speaker 1: the moments that you feel like you didn't have it 472 00:21:21,160 --> 00:21:23,760 Speaker 1: from her. And I feel like that when she brings 473 00:21:23,800 --> 00:21:26,359 Speaker 1: it up here, it was her way of giving you 474 00:21:26,400 --> 00:21:29,680 Speaker 1: the sense of tough love, given the sense of respect 475 00:21:30,119 --> 00:21:32,480 Speaker 1: that you need it. Because there's a sense with Mom's 476 00:21:32,560 --> 00:21:35,280 Speaker 1: energy is that when she shifts my awareness, there's a 477 00:21:35,280 --> 00:21:38,520 Speaker 1: sense that you're able to truly be on your own. 478 00:21:39,000 --> 00:21:40,600 Speaker 1: And I feel like that you were always on your own, 479 00:21:40,600 --> 00:21:42,679 Speaker 1: though in a very interesting way. And I feel like 480 00:21:42,720 --> 00:21:46,919 Speaker 1: that she never meant to give you the responsibility because 481 00:21:46,960 --> 00:21:50,240 Speaker 1: I really believe that you truly made sacrifices one only 482 00:21:50,280 --> 00:21:53,240 Speaker 1: your mom was here, but also when she transitioned, and 483 00:21:53,280 --> 00:21:55,520 Speaker 1: I feel like it's important when she brings us up here, 484 00:21:55,600 --> 00:21:58,560 Speaker 1: is that she never got to thank you as often 485 00:21:58,600 --> 00:22:00,439 Speaker 1: as she should have when she was here in the 486 00:22:00,440 --> 00:22:02,600 Speaker 1: physical realm, and I feel like that she wants to 487 00:22:02,600 --> 00:22:05,360 Speaker 1: thank you today for doing the things that you had 488 00:22:05,400 --> 00:22:07,760 Speaker 1: to do for her in the physical realm. But also 489 00:22:07,920 --> 00:22:10,960 Speaker 1: after she transition, you you may have to I don't 490 00:22:10,960 --> 00:22:13,240 Speaker 1: I'm going to get personal with something and I might 491 00:22:13,280 --> 00:22:17,639 Speaker 1: be wrong on this when we bring up mom or 492 00:22:17,640 --> 00:22:21,240 Speaker 1: say the energies around you guys, is there something we 493 00:22:21,280 --> 00:22:24,480 Speaker 1: need to look at like now relating to like say, 494 00:22:25,280 --> 00:22:28,080 Speaker 1: your mom, say on a financial situation that we need 495 00:22:28,119 --> 00:22:30,879 Speaker 1: to look at with her or with you guys, like 496 00:22:30,960 --> 00:22:32,680 Speaker 1: meaning that is there like a big decision that needs 497 00:22:32,720 --> 00:22:34,240 Speaker 1: to be done or did you guys just make like 498 00:22:34,240 --> 00:22:37,160 Speaker 1: a major decision with her. I don't know. I don't 499 00:22:37,200 --> 00:22:38,959 Speaker 1: say your things, but it seems like more of like 500 00:22:39,840 --> 00:22:44,000 Speaker 1: her legacy. We did we We just yeah, we were 501 00:22:44,080 --> 00:22:46,679 Speaker 1: going through like a transition right now. My sister is 502 00:22:46,720 --> 00:22:50,680 Speaker 1: now the trustee of her estate, so we have been 503 00:22:50,680 --> 00:22:56,080 Speaker 1: finding out certain things and it's been pretty disappointing. But yeah, okay, 504 00:22:56,200 --> 00:23:00,440 Speaker 1: I want to be personal again. But to me, there's 505 00:23:00,480 --> 00:23:02,320 Speaker 1: a sense of what's the word I want to use, 506 00:23:02,800 --> 00:23:06,439 Speaker 1: like ego that's involved with these individuals And it's not 507 00:23:06,480 --> 00:23:08,919 Speaker 1: that your mom is upset, but it's kind of like why. 508 00:23:09,040 --> 00:23:11,680 Speaker 1: It's more of a question of why why, And I 509 00:23:11,680 --> 00:23:13,439 Speaker 1: feel like there's a sense as if she wants to 510 00:23:13,560 --> 00:23:15,560 Speaker 1: orchestrate things in the right way to kind of put 511 00:23:15,560 --> 00:23:18,000 Speaker 1: things in order when it comes down to say the 512 00:23:18,080 --> 00:23:20,679 Speaker 1: business or the estate or whatever it is, Like, I 513 00:23:20,680 --> 00:23:23,320 Speaker 1: feel like there's a sense of it. It seems very difficult, 514 00:23:23,359 --> 00:23:25,959 Speaker 1: and it feels like the cookie has crumbled. So whatever 515 00:23:26,040 --> 00:23:29,600 Speaker 1: happened in the trustee or beneficiary all that stuff, I 516 00:23:29,640 --> 00:23:31,280 Speaker 1: feel like it's happening the way that it needs to 517 00:23:31,320 --> 00:23:33,720 Speaker 1: be done. But I feel like it's making sure that 518 00:23:33,760 --> 00:23:36,919 Speaker 1: it's a sense of accepting what needs to happen. And 519 00:23:36,960 --> 00:23:38,840 Speaker 1: I just feel like, again there's a sense of a 520 00:23:38,840 --> 00:23:41,199 Speaker 1: hand in the cookie jar or the sense of what 521 00:23:41,280 --> 00:23:42,840 Speaker 1: can I benefit, what can I get out of it? 522 00:23:43,040 --> 00:23:44,639 Speaker 1: And that's where I feel like your mom does not 523 00:23:44,880 --> 00:23:47,439 Speaker 1: like in a way thing like let's make sure everything 524 00:23:47,560 --> 00:23:49,879 Speaker 1: is put together, because I just feel like that in 525 00:23:49,960 --> 00:23:51,600 Speaker 1: my gut, it just makes me feel like that it's 526 00:23:51,600 --> 00:23:53,120 Speaker 1: not done right, and I just feel like it needs 527 00:23:53,119 --> 00:23:55,760 Speaker 1: to move in a direction that spirit sees it, that 528 00:23:55,800 --> 00:23:57,800 Speaker 1: her soul sees it in the right way. I'm going 529 00:23:57,840 --> 00:24:00,280 Speaker 1: to shift directions in a very interesting way, and I 530 00:24:00,320 --> 00:24:03,880 Speaker 1: do need to acknowledge something. I don't know where she's 531 00:24:03,880 --> 00:24:07,560 Speaker 1: going with this, but there's a sense with you of 532 00:24:07,680 --> 00:24:11,760 Speaker 1: how she's showing you or how she's showing herself with you. 533 00:24:11,880 --> 00:24:15,720 Speaker 1: So I may totally misinterpret something. But is there a 534 00:24:15,840 --> 00:24:18,560 Speaker 1: unique reference that you would actually have some sort of 535 00:24:20,280 --> 00:24:24,200 Speaker 1: like a rock of her or some sort of paper 536 00:24:24,200 --> 00:24:26,159 Speaker 1: weight of her, or some sort of I don't know 537 00:24:26,240 --> 00:24:28,439 Speaker 1: what it is, but is there some sort of reference 538 00:24:28,480 --> 00:24:30,960 Speaker 1: to like a weight thing or a rock thing that 539 00:24:31,000 --> 00:24:33,760 Speaker 1: we need to bring up here. I don't know. I 540 00:24:33,800 --> 00:24:35,680 Speaker 1: would have to think about it. And to me, it 541 00:24:35,680 --> 00:24:37,960 Speaker 1: feels like there's a smooth surface to it, like a 542 00:24:37,960 --> 00:24:40,840 Speaker 1: smooth surface to it, like almost like a smooth rock 543 00:24:41,040 --> 00:24:42,920 Speaker 1: or like I don't I don't know, like a river rock. 544 00:24:43,000 --> 00:24:45,800 Speaker 1: There's something with this that she's bringing up here. Okay, 545 00:24:45,800 --> 00:24:55,000 Speaker 1: well now that Oh my god, that's so crazy. I 546 00:24:55,040 --> 00:24:59,080 Speaker 1: gave my mom a rock before, and there was something 547 00:24:59,119 --> 00:25:01,520 Speaker 1: written to her on there that I would It was 548 00:25:01,560 --> 00:25:03,480 Speaker 1: like I would always say that she was my rock. 549 00:25:04,160 --> 00:25:05,680 Speaker 1: So I gave it to her when she was here. 550 00:25:05,960 --> 00:25:08,720 Speaker 1: It was she put on her desk. Oh my god, 551 00:25:08,880 --> 00:25:12,199 Speaker 1: that's so crazy. Okay, I just want to let to 552 00:25:12,240 --> 00:25:14,280 Speaker 1: know that she has that rock with her in spirit. 553 00:25:14,760 --> 00:25:17,760 Speaker 1: She is still wrong, she still wants to recognize that, 554 00:25:17,880 --> 00:25:19,639 Speaker 1: because I just feel like there's a sense of her 555 00:25:19,760 --> 00:25:22,280 Speaker 1: of just being very proud of you, and I feel 556 00:25:22,280 --> 00:25:24,480 Speaker 1: like that in a very beautiful way that she kind 557 00:25:24,480 --> 00:25:26,800 Speaker 1: of spiritually wants to hand it back as if now 558 00:25:26,880 --> 00:25:30,400 Speaker 1: you're the rock for everyone else. So I just feel 559 00:25:30,440 --> 00:25:33,240 Speaker 1: like it's her way of thanking you again for doing 560 00:25:33,240 --> 00:25:35,960 Speaker 1: the things that you did for her. But now what 561 00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:37,880 Speaker 1: she's gonna do for you is pull some strings from 562 00:25:37,880 --> 00:25:39,760 Speaker 1: the spirit room to help you lead in the right 563 00:25:39,800 --> 00:25:42,240 Speaker 1: direction where you need to be, because I feel like 564 00:25:42,280 --> 00:25:44,760 Speaker 1: your mom really wants the best for you, regardless of 565 00:25:44,800 --> 00:25:47,840 Speaker 1: like anything that you feel or maybe thought of, like 566 00:25:47,880 --> 00:25:50,400 Speaker 1: it's all like residual and old energy that she does 567 00:25:50,440 --> 00:25:52,400 Speaker 1: not want you to focus on. And I think it's 568 00:25:52,440 --> 00:25:54,760 Speaker 1: so important for you to really kind of thrive in 569 00:25:54,800 --> 00:25:57,760 Speaker 1: that moment and saying thanks Mom, thanks for being here 570 00:25:57,760 --> 00:26:00,240 Speaker 1: with me, thank you for recognizing me. And I feel 571 00:26:00,240 --> 00:26:03,000 Speaker 1: like there's a moment of you of having that peace 572 00:26:03,040 --> 00:26:07,520 Speaker 1: of mind because my impression it's not anything that we 573 00:26:07,560 --> 00:26:11,040 Speaker 1: need to bring up here as the event that caused 574 00:26:11,080 --> 00:26:13,320 Speaker 1: your mom's passing. She doesn't want to emphasize on that. 575 00:26:13,359 --> 00:26:15,240 Speaker 1: She doesn't not really focus on that because that's not 576 00:26:15,320 --> 00:26:18,640 Speaker 1: really an important sense of what we need to talk about. 577 00:26:18,720 --> 00:26:21,800 Speaker 1: It's more so the healing and moving forward from that 578 00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:23,840 Speaker 1: that needs to happen here with you in the family. 579 00:26:24,200 --> 00:26:26,280 Speaker 1: And like as I mentioned earlier in this interview, we 580 00:26:26,320 --> 00:26:28,600 Speaker 1: all grieve differently. It could be a year, could be 581 00:26:28,640 --> 00:26:31,480 Speaker 1: five years, could be so many years. We all grieve differently. 582 00:26:32,080 --> 00:26:33,800 Speaker 1: I just feel like in some ways that there's a 583 00:26:33,840 --> 00:26:37,760 Speaker 1: sense of coming to terms of being at peace, but 584 00:26:37,800 --> 00:26:39,439 Speaker 1: it's not letting go of mom. And I feel like 585 00:26:39,440 --> 00:26:41,159 Speaker 1: there might be fear of letting go a mom of 586 00:26:41,160 --> 00:26:43,640 Speaker 1: those emotions, because if you let go a mom, she's 587 00:26:43,640 --> 00:26:45,760 Speaker 1: not gonna be around you. I feel like it's letting 588 00:26:45,800 --> 00:26:48,840 Speaker 1: go the toxicity, the emotions, all that stuff, knowing that 589 00:26:48,880 --> 00:26:51,040 Speaker 1: she will always be in your heart and recognizing that 590 00:26:51,080 --> 00:26:54,040 Speaker 1: feeling and recognizing that moment. I do need to bring 591 00:26:54,040 --> 00:26:58,000 Speaker 1: something up in a very interesting way. Did you recently 592 00:26:58,040 --> 00:27:00,639 Speaker 1: have like a fall or did you fall down your stairs? 593 00:27:00,720 --> 00:27:01,760 Speaker 1: Or is there some sort of fault that I need 594 00:27:01,760 --> 00:27:03,120 Speaker 1: to bring up here. I don't know what she's bringing 595 00:27:03,200 --> 00:27:06,200 Speaker 1: up here, but okay, make note to your footing or 596 00:27:06,240 --> 00:27:08,400 Speaker 1: to getting out of the car or getting out off 597 00:27:08,440 --> 00:27:10,120 Speaker 1: the stairs or walking out the front yard. I don't 598 00:27:10,119 --> 00:27:12,080 Speaker 1: know what it is, but there's something about your footing 599 00:27:12,080 --> 00:27:14,080 Speaker 1: that I feel like she's trying to acknowledge, like be careful, 600 00:27:14,200 --> 00:27:16,199 Speaker 1: be cautious, whatever, it is still safe for us that 601 00:27:16,240 --> 00:27:18,560 Speaker 1: you have tile floors. I don't know what it is, 602 00:27:18,560 --> 00:27:19,760 Speaker 1: but I feel like it's her way kind of giving 603 00:27:19,800 --> 00:27:22,200 Speaker 1: a projection and a very positive light. I don't want 604 00:27:22,200 --> 00:27:24,240 Speaker 1: to say it's anything of an accident or anything that nature, 605 00:27:24,280 --> 00:27:26,879 Speaker 1: but I feel like there's something funny about it about 606 00:27:26,880 --> 00:27:29,160 Speaker 1: the situation. So if there's gonna be other people's targing 607 00:27:29,200 --> 00:27:31,159 Speaker 1: involve here, it feels like there's more of that moment 608 00:27:31,400 --> 00:27:33,320 Speaker 1: that she's kind of guiding you and protect you in 609 00:27:33,359 --> 00:27:35,840 Speaker 1: that situation that she wants to bring up here. There's 610 00:27:35,880 --> 00:27:38,240 Speaker 1: a reference that I beat maybe a mistake in here, 611 00:27:38,760 --> 00:27:41,600 Speaker 1: And I don't know how I'm to describe this, but 612 00:27:41,640 --> 00:27:45,040 Speaker 1: I'm gonna do my best interpret this. I don't know 613 00:27:45,200 --> 00:27:47,000 Speaker 1: how this doesn't make sense to you at all whatsoever, 614 00:27:48,480 --> 00:27:51,200 Speaker 1: but there's an interesting reference that she's bringing up here 615 00:27:51,440 --> 00:27:56,880 Speaker 1: that we need to identify after her transition, after her passing, 616 00:27:57,000 --> 00:27:59,840 Speaker 1: And I don't know if it means like several years later, 617 00:28:00,440 --> 00:28:05,399 Speaker 1: a day after passing, but would you understand during the 618 00:28:05,480 --> 00:28:10,040 Speaker 1: time of the event that occurred, she's making herself known 619 00:28:10,080 --> 00:28:11,959 Speaker 1: to me in a way saying that she made herself 620 00:28:12,080 --> 00:28:14,880 Speaker 1: known to you, like in spirit, like in a way 621 00:28:14,880 --> 00:28:17,399 Speaker 1: of saying that I'm safe, I'm okay. I don't know 622 00:28:17,440 --> 00:28:19,280 Speaker 1: what that looks like to you if that was more 623 00:28:19,320 --> 00:28:22,919 Speaker 1: so a physical sign a dream, But she wants to 624 00:28:22,920 --> 00:28:25,399 Speaker 1: make sure that whatever happened in this event, it was 625 00:28:25,400 --> 00:28:27,919 Speaker 1: her way letting you know that she made it safe 626 00:28:28,280 --> 00:28:30,480 Speaker 1: and that she went to heaven. And I feel that 627 00:28:30,520 --> 00:28:32,920 Speaker 1: she wants to make sure that you understand that message. 628 00:28:32,920 --> 00:28:34,879 Speaker 1: So what is the sign or what is the reference 629 00:28:34,880 --> 00:28:37,879 Speaker 1: that she's bringing up here? Yeah, that's absolutely right. It 630 00:28:37,960 --> 00:28:41,040 Speaker 1: was a few days after she had passed and I 631 00:28:41,080 --> 00:28:42,960 Speaker 1: had left my grandmother's house because I just needed to 632 00:28:42,960 --> 00:28:45,880 Speaker 1: take a drive. Everyone was there. It was hectic, and 633 00:28:46,080 --> 00:28:48,080 Speaker 1: I drove out. Everything was fine, but when I came 634 00:28:48,120 --> 00:28:50,280 Speaker 1: back to go back to my grandma's house, they had 635 00:28:50,360 --> 00:28:52,520 Speaker 1: closed off the street. So I thought, how am I 636 00:28:52,520 --> 00:28:54,160 Speaker 1: going to do this? There was a bunch of media 637 00:28:54,200 --> 00:28:56,160 Speaker 1: and fans, and I said, how am I going to 638 00:28:56,200 --> 00:28:58,080 Speaker 1: get off the car and try to get my car 639 00:28:58,160 --> 00:29:01,440 Speaker 1: under this to get through to my Grandma's And magically, 640 00:29:01,600 --> 00:29:04,920 Speaker 1: I swear to you, like the little it was like 641 00:29:04,920 --> 00:29:08,360 Speaker 1: a string of some sort lifted high enough for me 642 00:29:08,400 --> 00:29:11,160 Speaker 1: to go under. And I was like, oh my god, 643 00:29:11,280 --> 00:29:13,560 Speaker 1: that's like that's my mom. That was like the first 644 00:29:13,600 --> 00:29:16,560 Speaker 1: time I had felt it. And then I had a 645 00:29:16,600 --> 00:29:18,920 Speaker 1: moment when I knew she was gone gone. I was 646 00:29:18,960 --> 00:29:20,960 Speaker 1: in the restroom, I was holding a picture of hers, 647 00:29:22,000 --> 00:29:24,320 Speaker 1: and I heard it clearly like you are going to 648 00:29:24,440 --> 00:29:25,800 Speaker 1: have to be stronger. You're gonna have to tell your 649 00:29:25,840 --> 00:29:27,920 Speaker 1: siblings that I'm not coming home. Because we still had 650 00:29:28,320 --> 00:29:31,840 Speaker 1: hope that she was going to come home. So I 651 00:29:31,920 --> 00:29:34,000 Speaker 1: felt her and I heard her voice to the point 652 00:29:34,000 --> 00:29:35,520 Speaker 1: where I just cried and cried and cried, and I 653 00:29:35,560 --> 00:29:38,200 Speaker 1: cried so much that I just after I got out 654 00:29:38,200 --> 00:29:40,160 Speaker 1: of that restroom, I was like, Okay, I have to 655 00:29:40,160 --> 00:29:41,800 Speaker 1: tell my siblings that she's not gonna come home. I 656 00:29:41,800 --> 00:29:43,320 Speaker 1: have to tell Johnny, and I have to be strong. 657 00:29:43,400 --> 00:29:46,080 Speaker 1: From that moment forward, it's like I knew she's fine, 658 00:29:46,120 --> 00:29:49,120 Speaker 1: She's at peace. This is how things had to happen. 659 00:29:49,160 --> 00:29:51,600 Speaker 1: And now it's I feel like my turn to step 660 00:29:51,600 --> 00:29:53,520 Speaker 1: forward and be like, Okay, this is what I prepared 661 00:29:53,560 --> 00:29:55,400 Speaker 1: you for all of your life, is to be here 662 00:29:55,400 --> 00:29:58,600 Speaker 1: for these kids. So those two things I'll never forget 663 00:29:58,640 --> 00:30:01,480 Speaker 1: because there were moments of like, oh, she's here with me, 664 00:30:01,760 --> 00:30:04,760 Speaker 1: she's okay. Wow, like with so much respect to you 665 00:30:04,920 --> 00:30:06,800 Speaker 1: and to your family, And again, that is just a 666 00:30:06,800 --> 00:30:10,080 Speaker 1: beautiful message. As much as we don't want to think 667 00:30:10,160 --> 00:30:12,280 Speaker 1: that way in a way, knowing that we lost we 668 00:30:12,360 --> 00:30:15,640 Speaker 1: lost an individual or they're gone, that is a personal 669 00:30:15,680 --> 00:30:18,640 Speaker 1: experience that no one can take away from you. That 670 00:30:18,720 --> 00:30:21,040 Speaker 1: moment in the restroom, that moment of that happening. No 671 00:30:21,080 --> 00:30:22,480 Speaker 1: one can take that away from you. I feel like 672 00:30:22,520 --> 00:30:25,640 Speaker 1: it's just your mom's way validing those experiences and how 673 00:30:25,680 --> 00:30:27,160 Speaker 1: that looks like to you. It was her way let 674 00:30:27,240 --> 00:30:30,320 Speaker 1: you know again that she's safe, she's okay. Now she's 675 00:30:30,360 --> 00:30:32,320 Speaker 1: turning over the leaf to you to kind of pass 676 00:30:32,360 --> 00:30:34,480 Speaker 1: the baton, pass it over. That you need to focus 677 00:30:34,520 --> 00:30:37,480 Speaker 1: on that because for your energy, again, it's kind of 678 00:30:37,520 --> 00:30:40,040 Speaker 1: like the weight that you take on. But I feel 679 00:30:40,040 --> 00:30:42,360 Speaker 1: like at the same time, it's really about bringing in 680 00:30:42,400 --> 00:30:44,160 Speaker 1: that balance that you need in your own life and 681 00:30:44,200 --> 00:30:46,120 Speaker 1: balance is going to be so important for you again, 682 00:30:46,200 --> 00:30:49,520 Speaker 1: not only with business relationships self help. It's going to 683 00:30:49,560 --> 00:30:51,400 Speaker 1: be an important year for you because they feel like 684 00:30:51,440 --> 00:30:54,880 Speaker 1: moving into a transition of it's going to be more 685 00:30:54,920 --> 00:30:57,200 Speaker 1: so a sense of like really kind of focusing on 686 00:30:57,280 --> 00:31:01,000 Speaker 1: than family, focusing on than financials, focusing on that. So 687 00:31:01,040 --> 00:31:03,400 Speaker 1: there there riches were literally right around the corner of 688 00:31:04,160 --> 00:31:06,760 Speaker 1: which is crazy to even think about, but I feel 689 00:31:06,760 --> 00:31:09,840 Speaker 1: like that your mom wants to really spiritually embrace you, 690 00:31:09,920 --> 00:31:11,600 Speaker 1: like she wants to give you this big spirit hug, 691 00:31:11,720 --> 00:31:14,000 Speaker 1: because I feel like physical touch is so important for 692 00:31:14,000 --> 00:31:16,120 Speaker 1: you to have, but more important to have it from 693 00:31:16,120 --> 00:31:17,720 Speaker 1: your mom, because I feel like that she wants to 694 00:31:17,720 --> 00:31:20,440 Speaker 1: make sure that I verbally say I love you like 695 00:31:20,480 --> 00:31:22,840 Speaker 1: I feel like the ghetto ghetto. I feel like it's 696 00:31:22,840 --> 00:31:24,920 Speaker 1: important for her to give that love to you and 697 00:31:24,960 --> 00:31:28,960 Speaker 1: pay that respect again because there wasn't that opportunity for 698 00:31:29,000 --> 00:31:33,440 Speaker 1: her to physically and verbally communicate that with you. And 699 00:31:33,480 --> 00:31:35,000 Speaker 1: I just feel like that you make sure that you 700 00:31:35,040 --> 00:31:36,960 Speaker 1: have it in your heart and you carry that love 701 00:31:36,960 --> 00:31:40,160 Speaker 1: in that vibration regardless of whatever feelings that you've had 702 00:31:40,200 --> 00:31:43,080 Speaker 1: then or what you have now. It's more so it's 703 00:31:43,080 --> 00:31:45,080 Speaker 1: all water on the bridge. Is my impression that your 704 00:31:45,120 --> 00:31:47,080 Speaker 1: mom is given it to you like it's it. We're good, 705 00:31:47,240 --> 00:31:49,920 Speaker 1: we're cool, everything's fine. And I think that's important for 706 00:31:49,960 --> 00:31:54,040 Speaker 1: you to walk away with and understand those messages. Obviously 707 00:31:54,200 --> 00:31:56,959 Speaker 1: if you want to ask questions or anything in general, 708 00:31:57,120 --> 00:31:58,880 Speaker 1: you feel free if there's something that you want to 709 00:31:58,880 --> 00:32:01,479 Speaker 1: ask her throughout there. More than anything, I just kind 710 00:32:01,480 --> 00:32:05,120 Speaker 1: of wanted to see what she had to say and 711 00:32:05,160 --> 00:32:08,640 Speaker 1: what you did say right now about me thanking her 712 00:32:08,720 --> 00:32:11,120 Speaker 1: and thanking her for being here with me and stuff 713 00:32:11,160 --> 00:32:13,040 Speaker 1: like I don't think I've done enough of that, like 714 00:32:13,080 --> 00:32:15,800 Speaker 1: I speak to her. But it's different. I think for 715 00:32:15,840 --> 00:32:18,560 Speaker 1: a long time I was upset because of the mess 716 00:32:18,600 --> 00:32:20,479 Speaker 1: that was left and I had to clean it up, 717 00:32:20,480 --> 00:32:23,400 Speaker 1: and I was a little bit resentful. Obviously still missed 718 00:32:23,400 --> 00:32:25,680 Speaker 1: her and everything, but in my heart I felt, for 719 00:32:25,720 --> 00:32:28,040 Speaker 1: like a long time, I was just mad. There are 720 00:32:28,160 --> 00:32:30,760 Speaker 1: moments that come back and I'm just like I get 721 00:32:30,840 --> 00:32:33,760 Speaker 1: like frustrated. I don't know how to explain it, but 722 00:32:33,800 --> 00:32:36,120 Speaker 1: I think it's just I'm glad you're reminding me of saying, 723 00:32:36,160 --> 00:32:38,680 Speaker 1: you know what. I think things are going to change, 724 00:32:38,680 --> 00:32:41,800 Speaker 1: even for the better if I start thinking her more 725 00:32:42,000 --> 00:32:43,920 Speaker 1: because I know that she's pulling strings. I know she's 726 00:32:43,920 --> 00:32:46,240 Speaker 1: opening doors, like I know it for a fact that 727 00:32:46,600 --> 00:32:48,720 Speaker 1: she's with me, with us, and she's taking care of 728 00:32:48,760 --> 00:32:51,880 Speaker 1: my siblings and I and giving me the strength. But 729 00:32:52,880 --> 00:32:54,400 Speaker 1: I just want to say thank you more than anything 730 00:32:54,400 --> 00:32:56,160 Speaker 1: because I'm like, oh my god, and those are the 731 00:32:56,160 --> 00:32:59,080 Speaker 1: words like she would always call me princess. So it's like, 732 00:32:59,160 --> 00:33:01,360 Speaker 1: I still I think. I'm like, I know that I'm 733 00:33:01,400 --> 00:33:03,560 Speaker 1: like a woman now, but I still want to be 734 00:33:03,600 --> 00:33:05,720 Speaker 1: your baby. And that's so funny that you say that, 735 00:33:05,720 --> 00:33:07,960 Speaker 1: because I'm like, oh my god, that's all I ever want. 736 00:33:08,080 --> 00:33:11,000 Speaker 1: Oh my god. It's such a beautiful thing to again 737 00:33:11,080 --> 00:33:13,800 Speaker 1: recognize and feel that vibration like I have chills, and 738 00:33:13,880 --> 00:33:16,000 Speaker 1: chills for me are always confirmation and validation of what 739 00:33:16,000 --> 00:33:18,200 Speaker 1: you're speaking about. And it just lets me know that 740 00:33:18,240 --> 00:33:20,400 Speaker 1: I want you to continue to build that relationship with 741 00:33:20,440 --> 00:33:23,360 Speaker 1: your mother. One thing, and I don't want to be direct, 742 00:33:23,360 --> 00:33:25,360 Speaker 1: but I am going to be very direct. You need 743 00:33:25,440 --> 00:33:28,320 Speaker 1: to understand from her again not for me as a medium, 744 00:33:28,360 --> 00:33:33,280 Speaker 1: that she never she never ever meant to abandon you 745 00:33:33,280 --> 00:33:36,320 Speaker 1: guys ever, and I need to make sure that you 746 00:33:36,400 --> 00:33:38,960 Speaker 1: and the family understand that in their own way or 747 00:33:39,000 --> 00:33:41,320 Speaker 1: in your own way, because I feel like that sense 748 00:33:41,360 --> 00:33:44,000 Speaker 1: when Mom left is the best way going to use 749 00:33:44,680 --> 00:33:47,719 Speaker 1: that her soul checked out, her spirit checked out, not 750 00:33:47,880 --> 00:33:49,800 Speaker 1: her energy, and not who she was as a woman, 751 00:33:49,960 --> 00:33:52,120 Speaker 1: because if there was anything that she could do to 752 00:33:52,160 --> 00:33:54,360 Speaker 1: come back to this physical realm, she would have made 753 00:33:54,360 --> 00:33:56,720 Speaker 1: it happen in a in a medical way to come back. 754 00:33:57,000 --> 00:33:59,800 Speaker 1: But since the event happened in such a tragic way, again, 755 00:33:59,840 --> 00:34:02,160 Speaker 1: her soul left the body. Their souls left their body. 756 00:34:02,200 --> 00:34:04,720 Speaker 1: Because I don't even feel there's a sense of an 757 00:34:04,720 --> 00:34:08,800 Speaker 1: impact or something happened. I can tell you during an event. 758 00:34:09,280 --> 00:34:13,080 Speaker 1: I remember sitting at a at a restaurant when I'm hurt, 759 00:34:13,120 --> 00:34:16,279 Speaker 1: the news and my cell phone was blowing up from 760 00:34:16,280 --> 00:34:19,680 Speaker 1: different people from networks and this and that, and I refused, 761 00:34:19,800 --> 00:34:22,719 Speaker 1: refused to talk with anyone anything social, this and that, 762 00:34:22,800 --> 00:34:24,520 Speaker 1: and I still this is my first time I ever 763 00:34:24,520 --> 00:34:26,920 Speaker 1: talking about it is on your show because I respect 764 00:34:26,960 --> 00:34:28,720 Speaker 1: you and the family so much, and I never talked 765 00:34:28,719 --> 00:34:31,399 Speaker 1: about it because it's not my place and I need 766 00:34:31,440 --> 00:34:34,200 Speaker 1: to be respectful of the process because it's me in 767 00:34:34,320 --> 00:34:37,440 Speaker 1: beating someone's privacy and I never ever wanted to do 768 00:34:37,520 --> 00:34:39,439 Speaker 1: that to you or your family, nor ever talk about 769 00:34:39,440 --> 00:34:41,800 Speaker 1: it because it wasn't my business, it wasn't my place. 770 00:34:42,200 --> 00:34:44,440 Speaker 1: And I feel like that, you know how things come 771 00:34:44,480 --> 00:34:48,120 Speaker 1: in full circle in a very beautiful way. Here today 772 00:34:48,360 --> 00:34:50,640 Speaker 1: is again respect the process, and I feel like your 773 00:34:50,680 --> 00:34:53,399 Speaker 1: mom and you at least allowed me to be here 774 00:34:53,440 --> 00:34:56,359 Speaker 1: today to maybe orchestrate this and help bridge that gap. 775 00:34:56,440 --> 00:34:59,799 Speaker 1: And I respect you, your team, your producers, every whe 776 00:35:00,000 --> 00:35:03,040 Speaker 1: Scott Spirit that orchestrated this because by you thank your 777 00:35:03,080 --> 00:35:06,400 Speaker 1: mom and by you talking to her, it's it's okay, 778 00:35:06,520 --> 00:35:09,680 Speaker 1: and it's okay for you to be angry. It's okay 779 00:35:09,680 --> 00:35:11,239 Speaker 1: for you to be upset because she's not going to 780 00:35:11,280 --> 00:35:13,680 Speaker 1: be upset. It's more so what we're feeling, and that's 781 00:35:13,719 --> 00:35:15,360 Speaker 1: part of the process. So in those moments that you 782 00:35:15,360 --> 00:35:17,239 Speaker 1: need to thank your mom and say thanks Mam for 783 00:35:17,239 --> 00:35:19,759 Speaker 1: showing up, thanks Mam for gotting me. She's again, she's 784 00:35:19,840 --> 00:35:22,239 Speaker 1: very much with you. So anytime you think about mom, 785 00:35:22,239 --> 00:35:26,040 Speaker 1: she's right there with you. Oh, thank you so much. 786 00:35:26,200 --> 00:35:28,799 Speaker 1: Thank you. Honestly, this it made me feel a lot better, 787 00:35:28,880 --> 00:35:30,680 Speaker 1: especially because I was having a tough day to day, 788 00:35:31,120 --> 00:35:33,480 Speaker 1: so it's just kind of like, okay, just you reminded 789 00:35:33,520 --> 00:35:36,480 Speaker 1: me of a lot of things, And I mean, I 790 00:35:36,680 --> 00:35:38,680 Speaker 1: I don't think I have any questions, to be honest, 791 00:35:38,760 --> 00:35:41,120 Speaker 1: I mean just besides the fact that i'd like to know, 792 00:35:41,200 --> 00:35:43,319 Speaker 1: you know, sometimes I go back and forth with my 793 00:35:43,400 --> 00:35:47,799 Speaker 1: music career. I feel like my music career is a 794 00:35:47,920 --> 00:35:53,239 Speaker 1: vehicle to go somewhere, not necessarily bigger, but for my 795 00:35:53,320 --> 00:35:55,520 Speaker 1: real mission in life. And I just I don't know, 796 00:35:55,719 --> 00:35:57,600 Speaker 1: I just kind of wanted to know, like in regards 797 00:35:57,640 --> 00:35:59,440 Speaker 1: to my music career, like what do you what does 798 00:35:59,480 --> 00:36:03,200 Speaker 1: she say? Would you think? Or yeah? Honestly my impression 799 00:36:03,200 --> 00:36:06,279 Speaker 1: and energetically, I feel like your career would be absolutely fine. 800 00:36:06,560 --> 00:36:08,799 Speaker 1: My only concern, and again I'm very direct of how 801 00:36:08,840 --> 00:36:11,640 Speaker 1: it comes through energetically. I just like, in a very 802 00:36:11,640 --> 00:36:14,600 Speaker 1: interesting way, is that you're holding yourself back Like it's 803 00:36:14,760 --> 00:36:16,160 Speaker 1: it's in a very interesting way. It's kind of like 804 00:36:16,200 --> 00:36:18,920 Speaker 1: yourself sabotaging yourself. You know what you can do, but 805 00:36:18,960 --> 00:36:21,400 Speaker 1: I feel like it's fearful of like being successful and 806 00:36:21,440 --> 00:36:23,920 Speaker 1: not that you're not now. But it's like, once I 807 00:36:23,920 --> 00:36:25,640 Speaker 1: go to place, it's gonna be like seeing my language, 808 00:36:25,640 --> 00:36:28,040 Speaker 1: like oh shit, I can't believe I'm here now. I 809 00:36:28,080 --> 00:36:30,200 Speaker 1: think that's what's the scary part. About it, and once 810 00:36:30,239 --> 00:36:32,800 Speaker 1: that moment happens, you're gonna be like, oh my god, 811 00:36:32,960 --> 00:36:36,200 Speaker 1: I might my feeling though, I feel like like mide, 812 00:36:36,560 --> 00:36:38,279 Speaker 1: I feel like I want to go maybe in springtime 813 00:36:38,320 --> 00:36:40,319 Speaker 1: where I see a major transition. So if that's like 814 00:36:40,440 --> 00:36:42,840 Speaker 1: March April, may like in that time frame, I wouldn't 815 00:36:42,840 --> 00:36:45,880 Speaker 1: be surprised. If there's some major opportunities that present itself 816 00:36:45,880 --> 00:36:47,719 Speaker 1: to you, I don't want you to look for them. 817 00:36:47,800 --> 00:36:50,520 Speaker 1: Jeekie's let it happen organically, because if we would say, 818 00:36:50,520 --> 00:36:52,600 Speaker 1: oh A J said this or my mom brought this 819 00:36:52,680 --> 00:36:54,879 Speaker 1: up here, we're gonna stick to that. We're gonna hold 820 00:36:54,880 --> 00:36:56,439 Speaker 1: on to it. So I feel like there's a sense 821 00:36:56,480 --> 00:36:58,680 Speaker 1: with her that she wants to make sure that she's 822 00:36:58,760 --> 00:37:01,279 Speaker 1: very much with you and guide you. There's also a 823 00:37:01,320 --> 00:37:03,880 Speaker 1: reference that we do need to bring up here, And 824 00:37:03,920 --> 00:37:06,560 Speaker 1: I'm gonna give you a very interesting reference. And I 825 00:37:06,560 --> 00:37:08,239 Speaker 1: don't know how it's gonna make sense, or maybe somehow 826 00:37:08,280 --> 00:37:11,360 Speaker 1: it's gonna come to fruition. Do you remember when Michael 827 00:37:11,440 --> 00:37:14,640 Speaker 1: Jackson did his was it fifty tours or fifty one tours? 828 00:37:14,640 --> 00:37:16,400 Speaker 1: You was supposed to do it? Then he transitioned on 829 00:37:16,760 --> 00:37:19,520 Speaker 1: Proba fall or something like that. So there's an interesting 830 00:37:19,560 --> 00:37:21,239 Speaker 1: reference that we need to bring up here, is that 831 00:37:21,280 --> 00:37:23,680 Speaker 1: we need to highlight something coming into next year. So 832 00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:25,520 Speaker 1: I don't know if you're planning to go onto fifty 833 00:37:25,600 --> 00:37:27,279 Speaker 1: States fifty tours type of thing that we need to 834 00:37:27,320 --> 00:37:29,839 Speaker 1: look at, but there's something very major, like very grand 835 00:37:29,920 --> 00:37:32,000 Speaker 1: use that we're looking at. And there's a sense of 836 00:37:32,040 --> 00:37:35,440 Speaker 1: like having like a very unique like Michael Jackson, Janet Jackson, 837 00:37:35,480 --> 00:37:37,840 Speaker 1: Phil but in your own way where we're kind of 838 00:37:37,880 --> 00:37:41,160 Speaker 1: canna have like say, these amazing backgrounds, these amazing lights, 839 00:37:41,200 --> 00:37:42,920 Speaker 1: Like I just feel like there's a very high scale 840 00:37:42,920 --> 00:37:45,320 Speaker 1: that I've seen this that I feel like that again, 841 00:37:45,400 --> 00:37:47,520 Speaker 1: Mom is gonna pull some strings, but I feel like 842 00:37:47,560 --> 00:37:49,959 Speaker 1: you're already there, Chickie's honestly like, I'm not worried about 843 00:37:49,960 --> 00:37:52,880 Speaker 1: your career. I feel like that it's already here, vibrating. 844 00:37:52,960 --> 00:37:54,160 Speaker 1: It's just up to you to kind of put your 845 00:37:54,160 --> 00:37:57,239 Speaker 1: foot forward and take the opportunities. And again, I feel 846 00:37:57,280 --> 00:38:00,200 Speaker 1: like mid next year, springtime will feel it is like 847 00:38:00,239 --> 00:38:02,160 Speaker 1: the right time in my gut that you're going to 848 00:38:02,239 --> 00:38:04,360 Speaker 1: start seeing that and you're gonna start saying like, Okay, 849 00:38:04,440 --> 00:38:05,880 Speaker 1: this is what they were talking about this is what 850 00:38:05,920 --> 00:38:08,319 Speaker 1: they're bringing up here. This is awesome. Like my mom 851 00:38:08,400 --> 00:38:10,560 Speaker 1: would say, just don't pitch out, cheekies, don't pitch out. 852 00:38:11,400 --> 00:38:14,120 Speaker 1: That's my mom would say, because it's just like right 853 00:38:14,160 --> 00:38:16,320 Speaker 1: when I'm like, when things are about to get like boom, 854 00:38:16,520 --> 00:38:18,719 Speaker 1: it's like when I'm like, I don't know, I want 855 00:38:18,719 --> 00:38:21,279 Speaker 1: to shrink back, and it's like she would always tell 856 00:38:21,320 --> 00:38:27,600 Speaker 1: me that don't pitch out. Now. That this great example. 857 00:38:27,680 --> 00:38:29,840 Speaker 1: So just remember that when that moment comes, listen to 858 00:38:29,920 --> 00:38:35,480 Speaker 1: your mom's words and that will help you out. Thank you, 859 00:38:35,560 --> 00:38:39,040 Speaker 1: Thank you. I really appreciate you you coming on and 860 00:38:39,400 --> 00:38:41,840 Speaker 1: being so open with us, and I'm so happy to 861 00:38:41,880 --> 00:38:43,560 Speaker 1: be able to see you and hear you, you know, 862 00:38:45,719 --> 00:38:47,120 Speaker 1: so I'm so happy. Do you want to share your 863 00:38:47,120 --> 00:38:50,000 Speaker 1: socials with everyone? Yeah? Absolutely. People can find me on 864 00:38:50,040 --> 00:38:53,480 Speaker 1: Instagram at a j Underscore Barrera or TikTok a j 865 00:38:53,719 --> 00:38:56,200 Speaker 1: Underscore Barrea pretty much the same, and my Facebook is 866 00:38:56,239 --> 00:38:58,400 Speaker 1: a J Barrera, so you find me all my socials 867 00:38:58,480 --> 00:39:00,160 Speaker 1: or just go to my website at a j were 868 00:39:00,239 --> 00:39:03,560 Speaker 1: dot com for any upcoming offense online in person or 869 00:39:03,640 --> 00:39:05,560 Speaker 1: private readings and all that good stuff there. But I 870 00:39:05,600 --> 00:39:07,480 Speaker 1: want to thank you guys again, So much for allowing 871 00:39:07,480 --> 00:39:09,080 Speaker 1: me to do this for you, but also letting me 872 00:39:09,160 --> 00:39:12,279 Speaker 1: part of this podcast. It's a fun, beautiful experience and 873 00:39:12,280 --> 00:39:13,840 Speaker 1: I hope this helps you guys out of perhaps a 874 00:39:13,880 --> 00:39:15,600 Speaker 1: family as well and other people let me have lost 875 00:39:15,600 --> 00:39:18,160 Speaker 1: a loved one that was very close to them. Oh yes, 876 00:39:18,360 --> 00:39:20,440 Speaker 1: thank you, thank you so much. And again, you guys, 877 00:39:20,560 --> 00:39:23,799 Speaker 1: you have his website, his social media and before we go, 878 00:39:23,920 --> 00:39:25,520 Speaker 1: you know that I always if you guys with a 879 00:39:25,560 --> 00:39:34,880 Speaker 1: motivational Monday quote, So the quote for today is faith 880 00:39:34,960 --> 00:39:40,080 Speaker 1: sees the invisible, believes the unbelievable, and receives the impossible. 881 00:39:40,120 --> 00:39:44,680 Speaker 1: You guys, thank you so much for listening. Los samos Sen, 882 00:39:45,080 --> 00:39:50,719 Speaker 1: Thank you for tuning in to cheek, Ease and Chill as. 883 00:39:54,080 --> 00:39:58,520 Speaker 1: Do you need advice on love, relationships, health emas. 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