WEBVTT - “I AM EXPERIMENTING WITH DMT” 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:01.240 All from Flux. 0:00:01.800 --> 0:00:04.400 Hello, Hello, Hi, what's your name? 0:00:04.640 --> 0:00:04.960 Flux? 0:00:05.920 --> 0:00:06.920 What's up? Plugs? 0:00:07.160 --> 0:00:13.280 Well, I wanted to talk to you about some recent 0:00:13.360 --> 0:00:23.200 experiences I've been having. Okay, so I've been experimenting with 0:00:23.320 --> 0:00:23.720 d MT. 0:00:26.440 --> 0:00:28.160 Oh very nice. How's that been going. 0:00:31.560 --> 0:00:32.040 Crazy? 0:00:32.120 --> 0:00:32.440 Dude? 0:00:34.159 --> 0:00:35.239 Okay? 0:00:37.240 --> 0:00:45.440 So I yes, I guess I've experimented with psychedelics kind 0:00:45.440 --> 0:00:51.800 of growing up, and I always had pleasant experiences with them. 0:00:52.280 --> 0:00:55.440 Then I had a coworker tell me about this group, 0:00:55.840 --> 0:01:03.200 Discord group, and ended up getting one of these weight patents. 0:01:04.160 --> 0:01:07.759 And so first night I tried it, I was with 0:01:07.800 --> 0:01:10.000 my fiance and she wanted to try a little bit, 0:01:10.480 --> 0:01:15.679 so she just tried a little bit. She liked it, 0:01:16.600 --> 0:01:18.840 and then I was like, okay, well I guess I'll 0:01:18.840 --> 0:01:20.920 try just a little bit. I tried a little bit 0:01:21.480 --> 0:01:26.160 and you know, nothing too powerful or anything. And then 0:01:26.200 --> 0:01:31.600 after that ended, I looked at her and I was like, okay, 0:01:31.959 --> 0:01:33.480 I think I want to go all the way in. 0:01:35.160 --> 0:01:42.679 And so I did, and so I took to you know, 0:01:42.840 --> 0:01:46.080 a blinker, you know, two blinkers off the ten and 0:01:47.280 --> 0:01:51.440 my ears started ringing and the patterns I have my 0:01:51.480 --> 0:01:56.840 eyes closed, and the patterns came in and it was 0:01:57.720 --> 0:02:04.440 probably the most intense experien as I've ever had. So yeah, 0:02:04.480 --> 0:02:07.480 my ears started ringing and ringing kind of faded out. 0:02:07.560 --> 0:02:11.239 I saw these cool patterns. The most interesting one of 0:02:11.280 --> 0:02:13.919 the most interesting things I had was my I got 0:02:13.919 --> 0:02:17.320 a weird taste in my mouth, like I don't know 0:02:17.320 --> 0:02:19.800 if you ever liked a nine vault battery before, but 0:02:20.000 --> 0:02:25.880 it was a weird metallicky taste. I also had a 0:02:25.919 --> 0:02:29.440 weird almost as if I'd put like a couple of 0:02:30.040 --> 0:02:33.400 pop rocks on my tongue. So I found that really interesting. 0:02:36.320 --> 0:02:41.320 So I was like just really intense, and I kept 0:02:41.320 --> 0:02:43.880 telling on telling myself, Oh, breathe through this, you know, breathe, 0:02:44.000 --> 0:02:46.600 keep breathing. It's okay, it's temporary. Just breathe. So I 0:02:46.639 --> 0:02:50.000 was just breathing it and not fighting anything, and I 0:02:50.040 --> 0:02:55.799 broke I believe I broke through. I saw an entity. 0:02:56.000 --> 0:02:58.480 I don't know if you've how much you know about 0:02:58.560 --> 0:03:04.600 d MT, but it's for people to encounter entities. So 0:03:05.919 --> 0:03:10.679 this entity was a all black shadow that had kind 0:03:10.680 --> 0:03:13.440 of like a pointed hat, kind of like a triangle, 0:03:13.560 --> 0:03:17.079 like almost like a witch hat almost. It was really weird. 0:03:17.600 --> 0:03:20.480 And I had deep red eyes, and I found you know, 0:03:20.600 --> 0:03:26.160 describing that to somebody sounds kind of terrifying, but I 0:03:26.200 --> 0:03:32.200 got a more mysterious vibe to it, like it was 0:03:32.240 --> 0:03:38.120 introducing itself to me. You know, it wasn't intimidating. It's 0:03:38.200 --> 0:03:43.840 kind of eerie, but it wasn't aggressive, intimidating negative. So 0:03:43.880 --> 0:03:48.720 I came back out, came back out of it, and 0:03:48.760 --> 0:03:51.240 then you know, I told my fiance, Okay, I'm coming back, 0:03:52.280 --> 0:03:57.120 and she said, well, I'm surprised how calm you were 0:03:57.280 --> 0:03:59.839 during it, And I was like really, She goes, yeah, 0:03:59.880 --> 0:04:04.720 you were just laying there. Your breathing was normal, And 0:04:04.760 --> 0:04:08.600 I was like, really, because my breath during it while 0:04:08.640 --> 0:04:10.840 I was in there, I felt like I was like, 0:04:12.400 --> 0:04:14.600 you know, because it's so intense, but apparently I was 0:04:14.640 --> 0:04:20.280 just calm throughout it all. So I don't know if 0:04:20.360 --> 0:04:23.880 you've ever had any experiences like that. Have you ever 0:04:23.960 --> 0:04:24.520 done DMT? 0:04:26.520 --> 0:04:28.800 So this experience, how long did it last? Because I've 0:04:28.839 --> 0:04:31.520 heard that it's only about fifteen minutes, but it feels 0:04:31.560 --> 0:04:32.240 like a lot longer. 0:04:35.040 --> 0:04:38.840 We didn't time it, but she said I was about 0:04:38.880 --> 0:04:43.279 five to seven minutes where I was silent and kind 0:04:43.279 --> 0:04:47.280 of not there. But I definitely feel that I was 0:04:48.360 --> 0:04:52.640 in another dimension, that's for sure. I didn't have an 0:04:52.680 --> 0:04:55.440 out of body experience to the point where like you're 0:04:56.200 --> 0:04:59.480 looking down and you see yourself, but I was definitely 0:05:00.200 --> 0:05:01.960 not here at all. 0:05:03.400 --> 0:05:05.120 And how long do you feel like you were under 0:05:05.120 --> 0:05:05.840 the influence for. 0:05:08.560 --> 0:05:11.400 So I took the two puffs and held them in 0:05:12.760 --> 0:05:17.479 and you know, came came back maybe five minutes, six 0:05:17.520 --> 0:05:22.680 minutes later, and then it was very kind of short lived. 0:05:24.480 --> 0:05:29.800 Everything felt completely normal within twenty minutes after it came back, 0:05:29.960 --> 0:05:33.680 just like it never happened. I mean, uh, physically, you know, 0:05:33.720 --> 0:05:35.600 I didn't feel high or whatever. 0:05:38.440 --> 0:05:40.799 So do you feel like you learned anything. 0:05:45.080 --> 0:05:48.000 I've been listening to a lot of different podcasts about 0:05:48.400 --> 0:05:57.120 d MT and consciousness and stuff like that, so I 0:05:57.200 --> 0:06:04.320 definitely learned that there's more to life than one would think. 0:06:07.680 --> 0:06:10.119 But also it's just like I said, that entity I met, 0:06:11.200 --> 0:06:13.279 it was almost like it was cautious towards me, like 0:06:13.320 --> 0:06:18.480 I didn't want to reveal itself fully. But I ended 0:06:18.560 --> 0:06:21.080 up doing Guarantee the next night because I wanted to 0:06:21.160 --> 0:06:21.719 learn more. 0:06:23.200 --> 0:06:26.520 Tell me about that one. 0:06:26.800 --> 0:06:30.960 Yeah, it went great again this time. You know that 0:06:31.240 --> 0:06:38.000 my ears started ringing again a weird case, and sensation 0:06:38.160 --> 0:06:43.360 came in my mouth, and I, you know, felt everything 0:06:43.440 --> 0:06:49.520 I felt before, but this time I had I felt 0:06:49.520 --> 0:06:55.880 like there was like a weird triangle or pyramid on 0:06:55.960 --> 0:06:57.800 the left side of my vision. I had my eyes 0:06:57.839 --> 0:07:02.839 closed again, and uh but this pyramid was slanted at 0:07:02.880 --> 0:07:07.600 like forty five degrees clockwise and this I believe it 0:07:07.640 --> 0:07:13.120 was the same entity, which fully revealed itself. And uh 0:07:14.200 --> 0:07:17.520 so the backtrack a little bit. A few weeks ago, 0:07:17.960 --> 0:07:21.920 the mother in law wanted to go see Wicked. You 0:07:22.200 --> 0:07:23.320 heard about that movie yet? 0:07:26.040 --> 0:07:26.920 Yeah, I've heard of Wicked. 0:07:28.440 --> 0:07:32.000 Yeah, so you know, I'm not I don't really like musicals, 0:07:32.000 --> 0:07:33.200 but I was like, I at least spend time with 0:07:33.240 --> 0:07:35.960 the family, so we went and saw it. And so 0:07:36.000 --> 0:07:38.720 I think that movie may have had an influence on 0:07:38.760 --> 0:07:42.880 this trip because I saw this the figure again, but 0:07:42.960 --> 0:07:46.440 this figure was fully revealed, and there was a green 0:07:46.800 --> 0:07:49.760 kind of like you know, green skin with the same hat, 0:07:50.240 --> 0:07:53.400 but it was bouncing on each side of the top 0:07:53.440 --> 0:07:59.960 of the pyramid, kind of like a playful teasing vibe 0:08:00.080 --> 0:08:03.640 to it, and it was kind of like she was 0:08:03.720 --> 0:08:08.840 wholly revealing herself to me and kind of like tease 0:08:09.120 --> 0:08:11.240 teasing me, like, oh you thought you knew what to 0:08:11.360 --> 0:08:16.600 expect because you did it the time before, but it 0:08:16.680 --> 0:08:20.480 just kind of reminded me that, like, I have no 0:08:20.560 --> 0:08:26.760 idea what this molecule or whatever is capable of. So 0:08:26.840 --> 0:08:29.560 that was a part that was a really positive experience again, 0:08:29.640 --> 0:08:34.400 you know. And then the next day I tried to 0:08:34.440 --> 0:08:37.160 go in again, and this is where I had I 0:08:37.160 --> 0:08:42.480 wouldn't say a bad trip, but an unsettling experience. And 0:08:42.520 --> 0:08:44.199 that's kind of what I want to talk to you about. 0:08:45.280 --> 0:08:46.640 Did you did it a third time? 0:08:46.760 --> 0:08:51.600 You said, yes, yes, I've done a couple of times 0:08:51.600 --> 0:08:54.520 after that, but I didn't take as much, so I 0:08:54.520 --> 0:08:57.520 didn't go as deep and those were just kind of 0:08:57.559 --> 0:09:00.920 like you know, psychedelic visions and kept my eyes open 0:09:02.440 --> 0:09:03.080 the third time. 0:09:03.600 --> 0:09:07.800 So to recap, you took it once, you saw the 0:09:07.800 --> 0:09:11.120 outline of an entity. Then the very next day you 0:09:11.160 --> 0:09:14.200 take it again and the entity reveals itself. It is 0:09:14.240 --> 0:09:16.360 Alphabe from Wicked, and she is taunting you. 0:09:17.400 --> 0:09:20.840 And then it wasn't it was it was it wasn't 0:09:20.840 --> 0:09:21.600 her from Alpha. 0:09:22.240 --> 0:09:26.200 It was inspired. It was it was Alphaba inspired, I think. 0:09:26.240 --> 0:09:28.320 So yeah, now tell me about the third time. 0:09:29.800 --> 0:09:32.000 Okay, so this is where things get weird. 0:09:32.000 --> 0:09:32.160 You know. 0:09:32.200 --> 0:09:34.920 And every time I work long hours, I get home 0:09:34.960 --> 0:09:37.480 from work, I shower. I'm going to know, I'm going 0:09:37.520 --> 0:09:39.520 to go back in. I take a shower, you know. 0:09:39.880 --> 0:09:41.880 I mean that's the first thing I do after I 0:09:41.880 --> 0:09:44.960 get out of work, shower and I'm in the shower, 0:09:45.000 --> 0:09:48.880 you practice breathing and kind of getting my mind straight 0:09:50.040 --> 0:09:55.679 and h. So this time my fiance wasn't home. I 0:09:55.720 --> 0:09:57.960 was just alone. But I felt comfortable enough to do 0:09:58.000 --> 0:09:58.559 this alone. 0:09:59.720 --> 0:10:00.080 And and. 0:10:02.280 --> 0:10:06.480 Uh, I was laying down. I did you know the 0:10:06.520 --> 0:10:09.520 amount that I've been doing the two blinkers or whatever, 0:10:10.760 --> 0:10:15.080 and I make it a point to keep my eyes open. 0:10:17.160 --> 0:10:18.719 I guess I did it. I think I did it 0:10:19.840 --> 0:10:24.000 twice before this time, but they're half the half of 0:10:24.040 --> 0:10:28.000 the dose. Kept my eyes open, had music, and I didn't, 0:10:28.040 --> 0:10:32.240 you know, fully break through to this other dimension. This time. 0:10:33.000 --> 0:10:38.000 I did the full amount, no music, playing the same lighting, 0:10:38.080 --> 0:10:40.760 you know, in my bedroom, laying on my bed looking out. 0:10:41.800 --> 0:10:45.240 But I was told, you know, by the Di Square group, 0:10:45.280 --> 0:10:47.720 you'll always keep your eyes open, So I kept my 0:10:47.720 --> 0:10:52.960 eyes open this time. And I don't recall closing my 0:10:53.120 --> 0:10:56.679 eyes if or when I close my eyes, And I 0:10:56.720 --> 0:11:00.679 don't recall if or when opening my eye back up. 0:11:00.760 --> 0:11:07.720 But I went in and this time I didn't. At first, 0:11:07.800 --> 0:11:11.280 I didn't see all time. I don't recall seeing a 0:11:11.320 --> 0:11:18.160 lot of geometric patterns. I don't I didn't recall anything 0:11:18.200 --> 0:11:21.320 like the the first two times, I did get the 0:11:21.360 --> 0:11:25.800 ears ringing, I did get the weird sensation in my mouth, 0:11:27.120 --> 0:11:31.360 but this time it was really dark and black, and 0:11:32.760 --> 0:11:40.000 there was like almost like these tubes or lines going 0:11:40.080 --> 0:11:46.520 in further, like further in my sight. And like I said, 0:11:46.520 --> 0:11:48.320 I don't know if my eyes are open or closed, 0:11:49.320 --> 0:11:54.320 but it was a really weird unset. I wouldn't say negative, 0:11:54.679 --> 0:11:59.760 but it was kind of unsettling, almost like a anxious 0:11:59.800 --> 0:12:04.079 pair annoyed thing feeling. But at this entity, I was 0:12:04.360 --> 0:12:06.240 really looking forward. I was hoping to see the entity 0:12:06.240 --> 0:12:08.199 before because I wanted to ask what if it had 0:12:08.240 --> 0:12:11.920 a name? You know. This time I saw a different 0:12:12.000 --> 0:12:17.400 entity and it was humanoid and from what I remember, 0:12:17.640 --> 0:12:20.840 kind of had like a mummy look to it. It 0:12:20.920 --> 0:12:25.640 was kind of creepy, and it was bouncing around these 0:12:25.679 --> 0:12:30.360 different angles of lines, like almost like seeking around the 0:12:30.360 --> 0:12:33.680 corner looking at me, and so you know, I felt 0:12:33.720 --> 0:12:37.920 pretty uncomfortable, but at the same time, you know, I 0:12:38.000 --> 0:12:42.200 was like just breathed, this isn't forever, and it's okay. 0:12:42.320 --> 0:12:47.480 You know, it wasn't threatening. It was just creepy. And 0:12:47.520 --> 0:12:51.400 then when I came back, uh, you know, I had 0:12:51.679 --> 0:12:54.720 like the cool kind of psychedelic visuals with your eyes open. 0:12:55.800 --> 0:12:58.719 I came back, I felt I kind of felt discouraged 0:12:58.800 --> 0:13:02.760 and a little sad because the experiences weren't like it 0:13:02.880 --> 0:13:08.120 was before. I asked about it to the group and 0:13:08.200 --> 0:13:10.760 one of the people said that, oh, you know, there's 0:13:10.880 --> 0:13:15.000 duality and everything, and though it wasn't a very pleasant experience, 0:13:15.400 --> 0:13:17.400 you have to appreciate it for what it was and 0:13:17.480 --> 0:13:21.960 what it might be telling you. So I think maybe. 0:13:21.920 --> 0:13:23.720 Yeah, that's kind of the that's kind of the motto 0:13:23.920 --> 0:13:28.240 when it comes to intense drug experiences. 0:13:29.120 --> 0:13:32.120 Yeah, so I think maybe it was trying to tell me, 0:13:32.280 --> 0:13:34.720 like again, like, hey, you have no idea what you're doing, 0:13:35.720 --> 0:13:38.840 and maybe you don't need to rush anything. You know, 0:13:38.920 --> 0:13:41.400 this group talks about, you know, don't force anything. If 0:13:41.400 --> 0:13:44.160 you don't feel right, don't go into it. I felt 0:13:44.200 --> 0:13:48.640 right before I went into it, but it told you know, afterwards, 0:13:48.679 --> 0:13:50.760 I was thinking about it, you know, like, don't rush it, 0:13:51.880 --> 0:13:54.880 don't don't you know, don't force yourself to go back 0:13:54.880 --> 0:13:57.719 in there. There's no need. And so I've taken the 0:13:57.800 --> 0:14:02.000 last few few days off from it, but I do 0:14:02.160 --> 0:14:05.280 plan to go back in either later tonight or tomorrow. 0:14:06.679 --> 0:14:10.640 How recently was this third DMT experience? 0:14:12.200 --> 0:14:14.040 I was two or three days ago? 0:14:15.040 --> 0:14:17.240 Okay, so I think it was two days ago. So 0:14:17.280 --> 0:14:21.600 hold on, hold on, So when did you do it? 0:14:21.720 --> 0:14:21.840 When? 0:14:22.000 --> 0:14:23.280 When did you say you did it for the very 0:14:23.320 --> 0:14:23.800 first time? 0:14:26.440 --> 0:14:29.480 Actually, the first time I did it was last year 0:14:30.040 --> 0:14:33.040 and I smoked it off a lead bowl, which is 0:14:33.680 --> 0:14:35.480 kind of a funny story. I don't think you had 0:14:35.520 --> 0:14:38.880 time for that. But the first time I did it, 0:14:38.920 --> 0:14:42.960 I believe I was coming off of mental health prescriptions. 0:14:43.000 --> 0:14:45.920 So so hold on, So just iould just want to 0:14:46.120 --> 0:14:50.800 get a timeline here, So you how many times in 0:14:50.840 --> 0:14:53.240 the last seven days have you done DMT? 0:14:55.280 --> 0:15:00.560 I'd say four or five, but two of those four 0:15:00.960 --> 0:15:04.320 I believe, but two of those are the full dishes 0:15:04.440 --> 0:15:04.920 that I took. 0:15:05.360 --> 0:15:08.760 All right, So you're so in the last seven days, 0:15:09.360 --> 0:15:13.760 you've done it four times, and I think you want 0:15:13.800 --> 0:15:15.000 to do it again tonight. 0:15:16.120 --> 0:15:17.600 Or tomorrow whatever. 0:15:18.120 --> 0:15:19.400 As let me ask you a question. 0:15:20.560 --> 0:15:22.200 Yeah, h. 0:15:23.680 --> 0:15:28.520 What are you hoping to gain from doing d m 0:15:28.640 --> 0:15:30.960 T five times in one week. 0:15:35.240 --> 0:15:43.200 I'm more so interested about uh learning and uh broadening 0:15:43.280 --> 0:15:44.520 my consciousness. 0:15:47.320 --> 0:15:48.760 What are you trying to learn? 0:15:52.080 --> 0:15:59.040 I'm trying to learn about reality, trying to learn about 0:15:59.640 --> 0:16:04.920 just kind of life, what it all may mean, whatever, 0:16:05.040 --> 0:16:07.600 I'm open whatever it has to teach me. 0:16:08.120 --> 0:16:12.840 Well, okay, can I can I offer you? Well, but 0:16:13.000 --> 0:16:16.440 I here's I'm because I'm open minded. But can I 0:16:16.480 --> 0:16:21.400 offer you alternative viewpoints as well as for other questions? 0:16:22.680 --> 0:16:23.280 Absolutely? 0:16:23.600 --> 0:16:31.360 Okay. I think if you're trying to learn about reality, 0:16:32.760 --> 0:16:40.280 inducing yourself constantly in a world of hallucinations is the opposite. 0:16:43.440 --> 0:16:47.320 I want to learn about reality. Just go outside and 0:16:47.400 --> 0:16:52.680 take a walk and real, you know, because if you 0:16:52.760 --> 0:16:55.400 take if you take a drug, it's gonna make you 0:16:55.560 --> 0:17:01.520 hallucinate that you are seeing al for but from wicked 0:17:01.720 --> 0:17:07.200 and she's teasing you. That's not a great way. I 0:17:07.240 --> 0:17:10.080 don't think to learn about reality. And I'm and you 0:17:10.160 --> 0:17:14.280 know what, there's gonna be comments on the fucking thing 0:17:14.359 --> 0:17:17.000 that are gonna fucking be like, you don't know what 0:17:17.000 --> 0:17:19.800 you're talking about, and all the aliens are real, and 0:17:19.880 --> 0:17:21.879 what do you know about reality? You're a gecko, and 0:17:21.920 --> 0:17:25.359 you know what, I'm open to that. That's fine. I 0:17:25.440 --> 0:17:30.880 respect it. I like drugs. I like psychedelics. I think 0:17:30.880 --> 0:17:34.240 it's good too. I think you can take some stuff 0:17:34.240 --> 0:17:40.479 away from them. But I don't. I just I'm I 0:17:40.800 --> 0:17:45.000 think I'm just mildly concerned about doing d MT six 0:17:45.040 --> 0:17:47.880 times in a six times in a row, five times 0:17:47.880 --> 0:17:50.479 in a row, however many times in a row it is. 0:17:50.800 --> 0:17:51.920 Yeah, So I. 0:17:51.960 --> 0:17:57.199 Just add a certain point, what to what degree is 0:17:57.240 --> 0:18:00.800 this going to be healing and helpful to you? Versus 0:18:00.880 --> 0:18:03.639 like you're just hitting a lever over and over and 0:18:03.680 --> 0:18:06.280 over again. And I don't know, I'm ignorant to that, 0:18:06.359 --> 0:18:09.320 but I'm just I think it's worth bringing up and 0:18:09.359 --> 0:18:10.640 talking about. 0:18:11.840 --> 0:18:15.440 Yeah, And I'm not dying to like escape my reality. 0:18:15.520 --> 0:18:19.600 I'm not doing it to heal any part of myself. 0:18:19.640 --> 0:18:22.280 I'm at a pretty decent place in my life, you know. 0:18:25.880 --> 0:18:30.639 But I also don't plan on Ben's using this, you know, 0:18:30.800 --> 0:18:35.439 Like I have this pen, and once the pen is gone, 0:18:35.520 --> 0:18:39.480 I don't plan on getting another one for quite some time. 0:18:39.720 --> 0:18:41.520 I just want to learn what I can from it 0:18:41.840 --> 0:18:42.520 while I have it. 0:18:43.000 --> 0:18:44.840 Okay, what have you so? I mean you've already done 0:18:44.840 --> 0:18:46.359 this five times. What have you learned? 0:18:50.280 --> 0:18:53.280 That's a kind of a loaded question. I learned that 0:18:53.280 --> 0:19:03.000 there's a lot more going on than what we're aware of, 0:19:04.040 --> 0:19:09.680 like what, Like I said, it's it's kind of hard 0:19:09.720 --> 0:19:13.760 to put into words like uh more on like a 0:19:15.520 --> 0:19:34.240 where we're at consciously and where we're at the cosmos almost. 0:19:29.040 --> 0:19:29.119 What? 0:19:29.480 --> 0:19:29.600 Uh? 0:19:31.480 --> 0:19:34.040 Well, yeah, well, I mean yeah, yeah, we're we're part 0:19:34.080 --> 0:19:37.880 of a we're on a little ball that's like point 0:19:38.040 --> 0:19:45.280 zero zero zero zero percent of infinity. Yeah, it's pretty crazy. 0:19:47.040 --> 0:19:51.800 Yes, and you know all the things going on like 0:19:52.800 --> 0:19:58.960 ah in the US, it kind of fascinates me. 0:19:59.400 --> 0:20:05.679 But yeah, all right, I'm gonna take some questions from 0:20:05.720 --> 0:20:06.720 the chat. Is that cool? 0:20:07.840 --> 0:20:09.240 Yeah? I'd love to hear from the chat. 0:20:09.359 --> 0:20:11.800 All right, cool, all right, you don't have to you 0:20:11.800 --> 0:20:13.000 don't have to look at the chat though, I'll just 0:20:13.040 --> 0:20:18.560 I'll read the questions for you. Has any questions here? 0:20:18.640 --> 0:20:26.520 Let's see, Uh well, someone said, oh yeah, okay, uh 0:20:27.080 --> 0:20:32.280 someone asked, what's your favorite McDonald's order? We can you 0:20:32.320 --> 0:20:35.000 can answer that, while more well, some real questions come in. 0:20:36.240 --> 0:20:41.560 My favorite McDonald's order, probably I'm almost really hungry when 0:20:41.600 --> 0:20:44.160 I get McDonald's. We'll probably a quarter pound double quarter 0:20:44.200 --> 0:20:48.240 pound or cheese and my snager a couple of chicken 0:20:48.320 --> 0:20:52.040 nuggets from my fiance with the diet coke, always die coke. 0:20:52.400 --> 0:20:54.320 I'm a part of the diet coke cult. 0:20:54.880 --> 0:21:00.600 Yeah, oh yeah, I'm a big die coke mf. Someone 0:21:00.600 --> 0:21:03.679 wants to know what is this discord group? Although if 0:21:03.720 --> 0:21:05.919 you say it and it goes on this podcast, it 0:21:06.000 --> 0:21:06.920 might get flooded. 0:21:08.600 --> 0:21:13.760 Yeah, I'm not allowed to talk about that. 0:21:16.000 --> 0:21:19.360 Uh. Someone asked, have you ever done d MT? 0:21:22.600 --> 0:21:24.399 I mean we're just talking about that. 0:21:26.920 --> 0:21:30.680 Then someone asked, how are you learning about reality from 0:21:30.720 --> 0:21:34.560 drugs and not going and not from going out and 0:21:34.600 --> 0:21:37.880 experiencing things. 0:21:40.560 --> 0:21:43.960 I think I've learned quite a bit about reality by 0:21:45.119 --> 0:21:49.159 going out doing I'm a very active person. I have 0:21:49.240 --> 0:21:53.199 a lot of social interactions every day of the week. So, 0:21:54.160 --> 0:21:58.000 like I said, I think I'm learning more about perceived reality. 0:21:59.040 --> 0:22:01.119 What I believe, I believe. I believe. I believe you 0:22:01.160 --> 0:22:03.600 on that. I don't. I don't think you're a basement dweller. 0:22:04.880 --> 0:22:05.800 Yeah, no, no at all. 0:22:06.200 --> 0:22:08.119 Someone said, do you think your desire to learn more 0:22:08.160 --> 0:22:13.359 about reality comes from a fear of your own perceived reality? U? 0:22:13.560 --> 0:22:16.440 No, I don't. I don't. I don't fear my perceived 0:22:16.480 --> 0:22:24.720 reality at all. Someone said, I was just saying, I'm 0:22:24.800 --> 0:22:29.720 very curious about, uh more of what I see. You know, 0:22:29.920 --> 0:22:32.280 I'm on a cosmos level almost. 0:22:32.040 --> 0:22:35.720 You know. Someone said, do you think reality is real? 0:22:37.960 --> 0:22:41.440 Do I think reality is real? That's a good question, 0:22:42.640 --> 0:22:47.040 especially I don't know if you've heard. I'm sure you 0:22:47.119 --> 0:22:52.080 have the whole simulation theory. I've been learning up about 0:22:52.119 --> 0:22:57.120 that and that blows my mind. But I don't know, man, 0:22:57.760 --> 0:22:59.040 I don't think we're meant to know. 0:23:03.680 --> 0:23:06.080 Someone asked if you've ever seen the movie I Robot, 0:23:06.119 --> 0:23:07.440 and if you have, if it's good. 0:23:10.040 --> 0:23:15.840 I have seen I Robot, but not in a long time. Yeah. 0:23:15.840 --> 0:23:17.960 I think it was a good movie from what I remember. 0:23:19.240 --> 0:23:25.480 I think it would be very dangerous to resimulate what's 0:23:25.520 --> 0:23:26.560 going on in that movie. 0:23:27.440 --> 0:23:29.439 Someone asked what your greatest fear is. 0:23:31.480 --> 0:23:41.320 My greatest fear probably dying alone with my loved ones present. 0:23:42.920 --> 0:23:44.960 Do you mean dying alone without your loved ones present? 0:23:46.560 --> 0:23:47.480 Yeah, I guess. 0:23:47.680 --> 0:23:47.840 Well. 0:23:47.880 --> 0:23:51.959 I lost my father to cancer, and he didn't have 0:23:52.080 --> 0:23:54.760 much support in the last few months of his life, 0:23:55.960 --> 0:23:58.919 So I don't know. But fear is a kind of 0:23:58.960 --> 0:24:06.080 a weird idea for me, because I don't think I 0:24:06.160 --> 0:24:12.760 necessarily fear moving on. I guess I have more so 0:24:12.920 --> 0:24:17.320 fear about doing it alone before I move on. 0:24:20.040 --> 0:24:23.960 Someone said, what does the missus think of all these 0:24:24.040 --> 0:24:26.560 reality learning experiences you are going on? 0:24:27.680 --> 0:24:33.920 What does the missus think about it? She she's sitting 0:24:33.960 --> 0:24:36.080 right next to me, and you want to talk to her? 0:24:37.080 --> 0:24:43.719 Sure, yeah, we can get her answer to that question. Hi, 0:24:43.840 --> 0:24:46.880 mister ghetto, Hey, what's up? How's life? What's your name? 0:24:48.440 --> 0:24:52.200 I'm uh z z z. 0:24:52.359 --> 0:24:53.680 What do you think of all this d What do 0:24:53.680 --> 0:24:56.080 you think of at this D M T stuff going on? 0:24:57.440 --> 0:25:00.360 I think it's cool. I mean as a a little 0:25:00.359 --> 0:25:03.560 bit with him, but I only do like one puff 0:25:04.640 --> 0:25:06.960 and I just get like visuals and it's really cool. 0:25:07.520 --> 0:25:09.600 Are you afraid that he'll lose his mind? 0:25:14.080 --> 0:25:16.919 I have pretty bad anxiety, so I have, like I 0:25:16.920 --> 0:25:19.280 always think of the worst case scenarios. So whenever he 0:25:19.320 --> 0:25:24.000 goes in, I'm kind of like hyper hyper vigilant about 0:25:24.040 --> 0:25:29.800 like his breathing and how he's acting. So I always 0:25:29.840 --> 0:25:31.520 feel like a breath of relief when he comes back 0:25:31.560 --> 0:25:32.199 and he's normal. 0:25:34.359 --> 0:25:36.080 So when he comes back and he's normal, and then 0:25:36.119 --> 0:25:38.359 he okay. So when he comes back and he's normal, 0:25:38.440 --> 0:25:41.080 and then he's like, Hey, I'm gonna do this again. 0:25:42.040 --> 0:25:43.840 Are you like? Are you like? Does that make you 0:25:43.920 --> 0:25:44.680 nervous too? 0:25:46.280 --> 0:25:46.800 A little bit? 0:25:47.160 --> 0:25:49.439 But now that he's done it a couple of times, 0:25:49.480 --> 0:25:51.800 it's like, I'm getting used to it. 0:25:51.880 --> 0:25:53.920 I guess would you ever do it with him? 0:25:56.320 --> 0:25:57.000 Like go all in? 0:25:58.160 --> 0:26:00.880 Yeah? 0:26:00.960 --> 0:26:03.640 I don't know because I have quite a bit of 0:26:03.680 --> 0:26:08.400 like mental health issues. So, and I'm also on SSRIs 0:26:09.000 --> 0:26:13.960 and it's not really recommended to be doing drugs anyway. 0:26:15.480 --> 0:26:22.280 On that, someone asked are cats birds? I don't. You 0:26:22.320 --> 0:26:26.359 don't have to answer that. So what do you what? 0:26:26.520 --> 0:26:29.119 I want to know? What's who is? Who are you guys? 0:26:29.160 --> 0:26:29.200 Like? 0:26:29.240 --> 0:26:30.000 What's your life? 0:26:30.359 --> 0:26:30.439 Like? 0:26:30.480 --> 0:26:35.200 What do you guys do? How old are you guys? 0:26:35.720 --> 0:26:37.879 Where So I'm in my late twenties, he's in his 0:26:37.960 --> 0:26:38.800 early thirties. 0:26:39.440 --> 0:26:41.280 What do you guys do with your lives? 0:26:43.600 --> 0:26:49.840 I do like customer service and he is like blue collar? 0:26:51.160 --> 0:26:54.520 It's pretty cool. What do you what's uh? What's what's 0:26:54.520 --> 0:27:00.159 your guys' dream? What do you what's your dream in life? 0:27:00.400 --> 0:27:04.399 My dream is to open up a restaurant or a 0:27:04.440 --> 0:27:05.119 coffee shop. 0:27:07.000 --> 0:27:08.240