Speaker 1: But I was telling the true uncatchable in lies. So
Speaker 1: you should just give a class to all other men
Speaker 1: to help do that. That'd be the words, don't ask
Speaker 1: me to do that, hurting your own self interest. It's
Speaker 1: not I'm not gonna get hurt because I'm not gonna
Speaker 1: ask You're not gonna get hurt because you're guarded because
Speaker 1: of that other situations going back, we're not. But what
Speaker 1: I'm saying is if I don't before I ask you something,
Speaker 1: because I already know, already did my detective work already
Speaker 1: been f B, I C I A everything, I have
Speaker 1: the proof I didn't. I got the receipts everything. So
Speaker 1: if I come to you, which is dumb, if I
Speaker 1: come to you and I'm showing you every light I'm
Speaker 1: showing you, and that's a garbage lying, Lying is perfect.
Speaker 1: But that's what I'm saying. I'm not gonna ask you
Speaker 1: something and I don't know that it's true or false.
Speaker 1: Still like I I deal with relations ships like money laundry. Yeah,
Speaker 1: you gotta conceal sources and you've got to fabricate channels.
Speaker 1: You gotta know how to talk to these people. You
Speaker 1: gotta know how to do things trust me. I'm very slick.
Speaker 1: I know how to get information. That's why I was
Speaker 1: going to school to be a homicide detective. Then I
Speaker 1: was gonna go be a lawyer because I was naturally
Speaker 1: and the woman. But the truth is, y'all never ever
Speaker 1: have enough proof. No, I have enough proof. It's just
Speaker 1: I'm just like you know, I never have enough proof.
Speaker 1: I have all the proof. It's just my feelings is
Speaker 1: hurt today, but I muna still llell you tomorrow. So
Speaker 1: that's why I don't really care. But y'all never have
Speaker 1: enough proof. I have all the proof. You know what.
Speaker 1: You're right. You know why because the proof he really
Speaker 1: wanted from him. That's not why you don't what that accomplish.
Speaker 1: I just feel like you're not taking away my options because, okay,
Speaker 1: say you heard my feelings. The option is for me
Speaker 1: to leave, stay or whatever. If you're telling me what
Speaker 1: I'm hearing because you know I'm gonna leave, I feel
Speaker 1: like you took it away because now I'm just staying
Speaker 1: because I believe in what you said that you did right.
Speaker 1: That's my only my only love. You have to lie
Speaker 1: the whole time. You can't constantly. You don't telling the
Speaker 1: woman the truth never got a human being anywhere. Every
Speaker 1: time they have is always in the bad. But don't
Speaker 1: you know when she finds out later, she's still stuck around.
Speaker 1: So why lie to get caught up later to go
Speaker 1: through that. You're not ever gonna get caught up. You
Speaker 1: you already caught up. A woman's intuition, her gut is
Speaker 1: gonna be accurate. So you deny it the whole time,
Speaker 1: you'll never have enough proof. Ever, my proof is him
Speaker 1: being honest. That's why I just don't ask questions. That's
Speaker 1: just why you lie, because then you would never have proof. No,
Speaker 1: I don't ask questions because I'm not going to give
Speaker 1: you the opportunity to lie to me. So one thing
Speaker 1: I can always say, you ain't lie to me. You know,
Speaker 1: you know what they're gonna say. I ain't never let
Speaker 1: you right because I don't ask questions. Yeah, so you
Speaker 1: know bad news. You don't ask questions about it. You
Speaker 1: don't use the information that you know to make decisions.
Speaker 1: And if you did get answers to your questions, you
Speaker 1: wouldn't use that that information to make decisions. I would
Speaker 1: use both to make my decisions. But what I'm saying
Speaker 1: is if he's lying to me, he's telling me everything
Speaker 1: I want to hear in a good way. So the
Speaker 1: option of me saying said, just say if I call
Speaker 1: him cheating, and I asked them, babe, did you cheat
Speaker 1: on me? How did you catch him cheating? It's a
Speaker 1: whole lot of stuff you can I didn't call people.
Speaker 1: I didn't set up a hole cheating scandal, catching nigga cheating.
Speaker 1: So I know I called you. You ain't never call handed,
Speaker 1: how much want you never walked in on nigga penis
Speaker 1: in Vagina. No, I set up the scandal, and I
Speaker 1: don't mean he cheated. Actually called entrappedment. Oh well, he
Speaker 1: should have been smart enough. That doesn't mean you cheated
Speaker 1: and did And that's why at the end of the day,
Speaker 1: you still I started getting a car note paid here, Hey,
Speaker 1: you need this before I even mentioned it to him,
Speaker 1: because before I even mentioned it to him, he already
Speaker 1: felt guilty because he saw me. But the point was
Speaker 1: he was supposed to but I was about to go
Speaker 1: to his car, but I couldn't put up. He saw
Speaker 1: me and drove off. Literally, that's some emotional ship to do.
Speaker 1: So because the nigga caught you you felt he catching him,
Speaker 1: and so now his relief was let me pay her.
Speaker 1: His apology was let me pay her bills pretty much.
Speaker 1: But then I just end up telling him like, bro,
Speaker 1: like because I wouldn't see him after that, like he
Speaker 1: kept trying to see me, Like well, then he's like,
Speaker 1: how was he paying all of these bills? Because he
Speaker 1: felt guilty? He was doing little stuff, but now them
Speaker 1: if you wasn't seeing you, it's called I gave him
Speaker 1: on the account here to cardinal people call him and put,
Speaker 1: you know, pay with your credit card so you wouldn't
Speaker 1: see him. And he was doing that because he felt good.
Speaker 1: He was doing it because he felt guilty. I know
Speaker 1: a guilty man would try to pay his way out
Speaker 1: have a problem. I'm telling you it wasn't the guilt
Speaker 1: was bothering him. Was the potential loss he was trying
Speaker 1: to stave off. It was it was already gone because
Speaker 1: he thought in the crazy part about it, because I
Speaker 1: end up letting him know, probably like a couple of
Speaker 1: months later, and he was like, women, women is this
Speaker 1: and no, bro, you sat there was texting my cousin.
Speaker 1: God set it up because he blocks me because I
Speaker 1: didn't every food joke on him. He got pissed block me,
Speaker 1: so I text him from my cousin phone. So he's
Speaker 1: having a full fledged conversation. So he started going all
Speaker 1: left field with the conversation, like oh, you gotta ask,
Speaker 1: and you this and that and you know, let's do
Speaker 1: it one time. And we ain't never got to tell
Speaker 1: her to this story. So I'm like, okay, So I
Speaker 1: set it up just to see what's he gonna go.
Speaker 1: He went through, like something that's missing in this story.
Speaker 1: You said, what you just made that one plus one
Speaker 1: equals two and it's a variable in there because because
Speaker 1: what he started talking reckless in the text message. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I doubt he just started talking reckless. So you're trying
Speaker 1: to say that they had something going on, you know,
Speaker 1: something about it made him feel comfortable enough to talk reguless.
Speaker 1: He didn't just jump off the port. I thought he
Speaker 1: thought it was me until he started saying certain stuff
Speaker 1: and then I was like, you know who this is.
Speaker 1: He was like, yeah, this is such a such step
Speaker 1: because it ain't. He was like I always you know.
Speaker 1: And this happened on like so he was mad about
Speaker 1: the April one, and this happened on April one. So
Speaker 1: the whole time thinking like maybe he april fing me
Speaker 1: back at this point, that's what I was thinking. Maybe
Speaker 1: he was. He wasn't, because therein't no way in hell
Speaker 1: you about to just there start paying all my bills.
Speaker 1: You wouldn't paying all my bills. You don't give me
Speaker 1: money here and there. But you wasn't paying car. No,
Speaker 1: my carnal at that time was as I have been
Speaker 1: eighteen years old, I had a five hundred out of carnal.
Speaker 1: Oh so this is no, this is a whole This
Speaker 1: was before I met now. This was the little high
Speaker 1: school situation. So you had a nigger in high school.
Speaker 1: I was paying all your bills. Yeah, you got a job.
Speaker 1: He was paying my card now and gave me no money.
Speaker 1: He was a little work on. He wasn't in high school.
Speaker 1: He was three years older than me. He probably like
Speaker 1: six years older than he was. No, he could went
Speaker 1: to school together when he was in eleventh thousand in
Speaker 1: the night, So technically he was when you were at
Speaker 1: first he was the sixth He was two years older
Speaker 1: than me with two to three to two. No, he
Speaker 1: was he was because he was a prom with me.
Speaker 1: You diy ain't let no grown as man go to
Speaker 1: prom with you. That man was a grown as man.
Speaker 1: They went to prom with you. They don't even after
Speaker 1: a certain age, you can't even go to problem with people.
Speaker 1: I ain't never heard that rule. It's a rule. It
Speaker 1: was stage. I don't know the limit. But a junior
Speaker 1: in college went to your high school prom. No he
Speaker 1: wasn't a junior. Well, I don't know. You have to
Speaker 1: be enrolled. No he was. I'm sure you y'all throwing
Speaker 1: me off with these ages. You were saying that we
Speaker 1: just listening. I was in the twelve. She was seventeen,
Speaker 1: he was one. She was eighteen. Why you keep on?
Speaker 1: I was, I was seventeen, he was nineteen. Whatever. Ain't
Speaker 1: no nigga nineteen paying nobody be he paid my car? No,
Speaker 1: ain't nobody nineteen paying nobody card. Yes he was. That's
Speaker 1: something that god. I can show you his age. I
Speaker 1: need to see it. I'll show you. We're going to
Speaker 1: call him live. And the oldest person you talked to.
Speaker 1: He liked, let's call this guy about emotional men. I
Speaker 1: had a guy that lied to me about the age
Speaker 1: they made themselves younger. I did because I believe that
Speaker 1: he was forty. No, I was not eighteen talking to
Speaker 1: no four year old. He told me he was. He
Speaker 1: told me he was either I want to say thirty
Speaker 1: or like something like that. But I think he was
Speaker 1: older at night. I think later on, no, later on,
Speaker 1: like as years went by, like later on I found out.
Speaker 1: I found I don't say, I didn't say see paperwork.
Speaker 1: But when I was going to this house, I started saying,
Speaker 1: like little family picture with kids and a girl. And
Speaker 1: I was like, who is that? He's the Oh no,
Speaker 1: that's that's my niece's nephew. He was lying to me
Speaker 1: by a whole lot. And one day on Crunshawn Imperial.
Speaker 1: I was going to the nail shop and he drove
Speaker 1: in with the kids in the car and the girl
Speaker 1: in the car, and they saw me and he spoke.
Speaker 1: And then when I was going to the thing, she
Speaker 1: came up to me. She was like, how you know
Speaker 1: such and such And I was like, oh, I break
Speaker 1: this hair. He already hit though, right, we was talking,
Speaker 1: so he already knocked you down. Yeah, we was talking
Speaker 1: all right. This is no Ceilings podcast where a high
Speaker 1: school girl got knocked down by somebody. She was twenty
Speaker 1: eight and I was eighteen. I was in college already
Speaker 1: and you ran into R Kelly. Hey, I was young.
Speaker 1: He was like he was getting money. You know, back then,
Speaker 1: I was just all about using people for their money.
Speaker 1: How would you be about had seen? Because that's what
Speaker 1: I just always wanted. I didn't have money like that,
Speaker 1: so I needed somebody's money before besides my natural aid,
Speaker 1: I needed money. I shocked a lot, I shopped a lot.
Speaker 1: So like, but you're not materialistic, I'm not, I said.
Speaker 1: When I was younger. I was. When I was younger,
Speaker 1: it was all about buying all of Jordan's and all
Speaker 1: this and all that, like I need that, I need that.
Speaker 1: I was a b I would I wouldn't say beggar,
Speaker 1: but I was more like gimme, gimme getting I wasn't
Speaker 1: give me, give me, give me a type of person
Speaker 1: that's a beggar. So why are you trying to not
Speaker 1: the bad part? The trader's trader? Yeah, they trade you
Speaker 1: like stocks in commodity, that's what he said. A bartererer. No,
Speaker 1: and y'all need to find another word. It's cool for
Speaker 1: you to be emotional at okay, I'm just saying I
Speaker 1: mean when you're young in college. You're supposed to live
Speaker 1: your college. Don't try to college. I didn't get the
Speaker 1: know when and I was living on camp. You have
Speaker 1: to live your college life before college and after college
Speaker 1: after college. I calmed down. I did. I calmed down.
Speaker 1: So wait a minute, So this is so let's get
Speaker 1: this right. You are this is five years ago. So
Speaker 1: that dude you dated for eight years this had to
Speaker 1: be around the same time. Yeah, when we was on
Speaker 1: our off phase, I used to tell when I was
Speaker 1: when we when you know, I break up with him
Speaker 1: because I always broke up with him. He never broke
Speaker 1: up with me. I was always the one leaving, but
Speaker 1: it was like I was coming back. You had other
Speaker 1: calls and trades to make. No, y'all not gonna put
Speaker 1: it off like that, That's what say. I mean. No, no, no, no, no, no.
Speaker 1: You break up with your main thing and go find
Speaker 1: the side thing with a couple of dollars. Let him
Speaker 1: knock it down. No, because everybody didn' knock me down.
Speaker 1: It's because you're not about to put it like that.
Speaker 1: You no, no what I'm saying. This is what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: A two parties involved did that. We're talking about now.
Speaker 1: The guy with the family and the kids did. And
Speaker 1: the other guy you were with, and that was only
Speaker 1: I was here for eight and a half years. He was,
Speaker 1: of course that was five years ago. Yes, that was
Speaker 1: five years ago. The guy in high school and the
Speaker 1: guy you saying when he was in college. Okay, both
Speaker 1: was takedowns. Not at the same time. Ya, it's always now. No,
Speaker 1: that's what you're not going to do it. No, y'are
Speaker 1: not gonna be like I just went from one to
Speaker 1: two to three like back to back. First of all,
Speaker 1: it was time frames September. No high school that was
Speaker 1: before either of the two. The other two the one
Speaker 1: was Sunday, Yes, the one I went to prom with
Speaker 1: that was a high school. Of you had the boy
Speaker 1: that was eight years with, Yes, But the boy I
Speaker 1: was with before eight years was not in high school
Speaker 1: five years ago. He got a timeline. He got it wrong.
Speaker 1: There was a high school, and then when the high
Speaker 1: school did what he did, then it went to my
Speaker 1: ex that I met. So I was with him when
Speaker 1: we had broke up. The first time I had met
Speaker 1: somebody and we was talking and we talked, and I
Speaker 1: left him and went back to my ex. That's how
Speaker 1: that went high school has nothing to do with So
Speaker 1: you didn't meet eight years in high school? No, I
Speaker 1: did not. I told you that. I told you I
Speaker 1: met him turned eighteen thirteen days after eighteen. I was
Speaker 1: already in college, dude, I was already in college with
Speaker 1: the wife and kids. He was both college. They was
Speaker 1: both college. I gonna need you get that right thing,
Speaker 1: like I'm knocking down three people in high school. That's
Speaker 1: definitely not what I was doing. I didn't even like
Speaker 1: sex like that. So I used to be like, so
Speaker 1: you had had it before you had it. I had it,
Speaker 1: but it wasn't an issue like it wasn't. I wasn't
Speaker 1: pressed like, oh, let's have sex like I used to, like,
Speaker 1: do we have to do that? No, I was. I
Speaker 1: didn't care for sex. I didn't care for saying. I
Speaker 1: didn't start cantill. I'm just saying, your body counts. I
Speaker 1: like three in high school. It's not it was one
Speaker 1: in high school. In high school, it was three high
Speaker 1: school did you go to it was for short three?
Speaker 1: I went to Washington and Garding. Okay, it was three.
Speaker 1: It was not three. It was two in college and
Speaker 1: then one. It was that seventeen there was one at
Speaker 1: each high school exactly. Definitely. Not. I didn't talked to
Speaker 1: nobody at Gardina. I was. I didn't even have to
Speaker 1: stay in school long. I was there from first to nutrition,
Speaker 1: I was out. That's how smart I was. I didn't
Speaker 1: have time to meet nobody at Guardina. I didn't because
Speaker 1: I didn't even stay long enough. Literally but not I'm
Speaker 1: about to come on here and making me like I
Speaker 1: was just holing around, just bartering around, then bartering around.
Speaker 1: How you just split it? Like I just was taking
Speaker 1: him down, Like September I had him, November I had him.
Speaker 1: They were both September. No, they were not. There wasn't
Speaker 1: even the same age nobody has at the same time.
Speaker 1: Oh lord, or he said he was older than that.
Speaker 1: He was older. He lied to me about to say.
Speaker 1: I knew he was lying, but I couldn't confirm because
Speaker 1: I've never seen like his idea or anything like that.
Speaker 1: But as I got older and we were running to
Speaker 1: each other like here and there every other year, he
Speaker 1: just looked older for a year, was messing around. We
Speaker 1: talked for a year. Yeah, but he was a hustler,
Speaker 1: so like it'd be like, oh, I need you to
Speaker 1: drive here, and in college. Yeah, you know, ship, I
Speaker 1: was wild in college having fun with those two men
Speaker 1: that she was wild with, because most I was not.
Speaker 1: I was not wild with you. Man. You said you
Speaker 1: was wild in college. I was. Man, I couldn't be
Speaker 1: wold because my ex he was always at my dorm
Speaker 1: and stuff I couldn't do all that year, even though
Speaker 1: he was messing with a man for a whole year,
Speaker 1: but he knew about him. It's not like my ex. No,
Speaker 1: I tell him like I'd be like, he'd be like,
Speaker 1: you're ready to come back, and I was like, yeah,
Speaker 1: let me break it off with him. That's a lot
Speaker 1: of self respects right there. That's how That's how I
Speaker 1: love I was with him. So none of us, wait, what,
Speaker 1: that's how in love he was with you. I said,
Speaker 1: that's how in love I was. That you was knocking
Speaker 1: down somebody for a whole year. So you were so
Speaker 1: in love with him that you would text him from
Speaker 1: the other guy's bed. I had my own place, and
Speaker 1: do had his own place. I didn't know, so you
Speaker 1: never saw when I was with y'all, don't create a
Speaker 1: create a story. Yes, that's what you're doing. Well, the
Speaker 1: thing is, I'm gonna tell you something, right, So, Charlotte Mayne,
Speaker 1: I realized something about like, so this is no Settlers podcast, Me,
Speaker 1: Peter the homegird Nicia back again, right, Nicia Jay So
Speaker 1: me and Charlotte Magne had this conversation. I said, the
Speaker 1: reason our interviews go so good, like our conversations go
Speaker 1: so good, is because I'm honest, right, I'm always gonna
Speaker 1: keep it a buck with what I think, so I
Speaker 1: don't have to remember what I just said. So even
Speaker 1: when I interact with the opposite sex in general, I'm
Speaker 1: gonna say exactly what I mean, so I don't have
Speaker 1: to try to remember what I said. I'm gonna say
Speaker 1: exactly what I said because I meant what I said
Speaker 1: so right now, because you're trying to preserve how you
Speaker 1: look like as far as like to a bunch of
Speaker 1: people who don't know you, right, you're trying to preserve
Speaker 1: how you look, so you're trying to catch yourself up
Speaker 1: with all of the kind of feeds you tell it.
Speaker 1: She looks fantastic, by the way, for the non video audience,
Speaker 1: because nobody's gonna see thank you, but for one. What
Speaker 1: I'm saying is like, I have no problem saying what what? What? How?
Speaker 1: Something was? I don't have an issue because I don't
Speaker 1: care what nobody said, because unless you pay my bills.
Speaker 1: You just said this whole time, those are perspective potential
Speaker 1: bill pairs what I don't I mean, I don't care
Speaker 1: for it now, I'm not nineteen and twenty anymore. Like
Speaker 1: that don't matter. You just said right now, You're not
Speaker 1: going to make You're not gonna take something that happened
Speaker 1: or how I'm telling my story and change it into
Speaker 1: y'all narrative, Like how y'all trying to We don't have
Speaker 1: no narrative, but you're trying to make it seem like
Speaker 1: I'm telling you a story like no, but we just
Speaker 1: ain't no. So we're just repeating back what you're saying
Speaker 1: to that we're asking, and I'm trying to catch it.
Speaker 1: And it's like hard because he said one thing and
Speaker 1: you're saying one thing that's eighteen. It's at Timber no
Speaker 1: rease ever you had to that's part of the joke.
Speaker 1: But again, I know it's about a joke, but I'm
Speaker 1: just trying to catch on and I'm trying to tell
Speaker 1: the story. Well, you said you was really wild, and
Speaker 1: then you said that was really well. I said, I
Speaker 1: lived my college days. That's what I said. No, we
Speaker 1: actually have this, so you know we're gonna play this part.
Speaker 1: I don't want to hear it. I was wild in college. Okay,
Speaker 1: my wild probably is different from yo wow, because you're
Speaker 1: a guy. What was your wild? My wild was just
Speaker 1: like I was just standing up lady in popcorn. No,
Speaker 1: I turned up. I went to clubs. I was. I
Speaker 1: was a club right then. I used to promote because
Speaker 1: I used to promote for clubs. Who would you promote
Speaker 1: for this? A little people call money tall? So I
Speaker 1: used to promote with them all the clubs, like that's
Speaker 1: how he used to get in the club free. That's
Speaker 1: how I met a lot of people because I used
Speaker 1: to You know, so, what was your favorite club to promote?
Speaker 1: I want to say, Uh, it's crazy because me and
Speaker 1: my brother was just talking about this. Oh what it's called?
Speaker 1: Where was it? It was in Hollywood? It was the
Speaker 1: club that popped on every Thursday. All the celebrities used
Speaker 1: to perform her. Damn, I came in clubs. Something I'm
Speaker 1: gonna remember, and I'm gonna text you and tell you
Speaker 1: I remember I used to let that club dialing like
Speaker 1: the year and the and the block because they changed
Speaker 1: names about everything they do. They do because one club
Speaker 1: we used to promote that they it was like called
Speaker 1: club Sugar Daddy, and then they changed it to like
Speaker 1: something else and then something else, like every time something
Speaker 1: happening at the club, they have changed their name. That's smart.
Speaker 1: So now we're not trying to catch you up. I'm
Speaker 1: just listening to you tell me about it and asking
Speaker 1: you questions. But because you are kind of lined, like
Speaker 1: not on purpose, you tell them like the white lives
Speaker 1: because you don't want to look bad and not get
Speaker 1: what the hell is that's supposed to mean there's no
Speaker 1: white lives. I mean I don't. But what I'm saying
Speaker 1: is whenever I would break up with my ex, I
Speaker 1: would I would be entanglement with somebody else, you feel me,
Speaker 1: And it's not necessarily and it's not necessarily that I
Speaker 1: did something sexually with these people. No, I'm just saying
Speaker 1: everybody didn't deserve the cookie, got to give it up
Speaker 1: to them, like literally, but not like It's not like
Speaker 1: me and my ex would break up for a week
Speaker 1: and then I'll be with somebody for that week. No,
Speaker 1: it wasn't like that because I would break up and
Speaker 1: still be talking. They're messing around and humping. It's just
Speaker 1: we not together. Never slept with two people at the
Speaker 1: same time. You know why I never did that because
Speaker 1: I was scared. I was always scared to catch something.
Speaker 1: What's the limit of same time? Always I would for me,
Speaker 1: I feel like I would go get tested, because I
Speaker 1: back then I was I'm always caned. I'm always very
Speaker 1: what's the same time, what's the space for the same
Speaker 1: time for me? If I do you to like day,
Speaker 1: then I go see you tonight. That's the same time
Speaker 1: to me a weekend, because I need to make sure
Speaker 1: I'm not pregnant. Ain't got nothing. I got already. I
Speaker 1: promised that God. The furthest you went was sleeping with
Speaker 1: two separate guys three months, I promised. The guy I
Speaker 1: swear to God, I put that if I help you
Speaker 1: was humping the boy that she was your ex, and
Speaker 1: then the other dude that had the family that she
Speaker 1: was nearly it was three months in between. Every time.
Speaker 1: It was no. Once I was done with old boy
Speaker 1: with the kids, it was just no, I was not
Speaker 1: not what I'm saying is once I didn't hump on
Speaker 1: him and then go hump on my ex. When I
Speaker 1: was done with old boy, I went to go hump
Speaker 1: on my broke up with X. Three month gap family man,
Speaker 1: three month gap X. No no, no, no, we know
Speaker 1: y'all asked me, hold up, no, no, we're gonna reverse.
Speaker 1: We're gonna reverse. He said, how long is it? He
Speaker 1: asked a general question. I didn't say, with them too.
Speaker 1: It was a three month gap between each of them.
Speaker 1: That's what That's what we're gonna get. Correct. He asked me,
Speaker 1: what do I consider a lengthy time? I said, three months,
Speaker 1: that's just that's just in general. We're not gonna say, oh,
Speaker 1: my ex and then I went back was a very generous,
Speaker 1: you know, projection of time anywhere. But I'm just saying,
Speaker 1: like what I'm saying was, I didn't say, oh, I
Speaker 1: met him in three months and that I just gave
Speaker 1: it up and then after three months hit I went
Speaker 1: back to him. It wasn't like I never dealt with
Speaker 1: two people at the same time because I was always
Speaker 1: scared to let my ex catch me with somebody else
Speaker 1: because I thought I hear talking about to do. I
Speaker 1: didn't say we talked about the dude. I said, I
Speaker 1: would let him know. I said no, I said, he
Speaker 1: hit me and said, are you ready to come back home?
Speaker 1: I would let him know I had to do And
Speaker 1: I said, well, I'm gonna let him know I'm done
Speaker 1: on him and I'm gonna come back to you. That's
Speaker 1: what I just I said. I said, no, I want
Speaker 1: to put my fee on his couch. Yeah, I stopped
Speaker 1: all over his couch. Know what I'm saying is when
Speaker 1: he had hit me and said you're ready to come
Speaker 1: back home or whatever the situation is, I would let
Speaker 1: him know I'm dealing with somebody. I never just dealt
Speaker 1: with somebody and just called him like, hey, guess what.
Speaker 1: You know? What's up? I'm talking to oh boy. I'm
Speaker 1: never gonna do that. That's dumb. That's the dumb. Why
Speaker 1: would I do that? You know what? Let me call
Speaker 1: him up and be like, hey, guess what, ex boyfriend?
Speaker 1: I got me a new nigga? Like, who's doing that? Well? Women,
Speaker 1: But I don't do that because I know how my
Speaker 1: ex is. So I wouldn't do that. Like I've just said, before,
Speaker 1: he knew about him before I took what I'm saying
Speaker 1: was anybody I deal with. I was always lead them
Speaker 1: to go back to him. That's the whole situation. That's
Speaker 1: what it was. And I'll tell people when I talk
Speaker 1: scared to let him know you was with somebody. I said,
Speaker 1: to let him see me with somebody. I said, let
Speaker 1: him know. I said, see me with somebody, because it's
Speaker 1: a different with us all three being in the same
Speaker 1: room versus me is telling him when he asked me,
Speaker 1: do I want to come back home? It's a difference,
Speaker 1: a big difference. Do you think men should listen to women? Yes, very, oh, Verry,
Speaker 1: I think so. I think your life would be a
Speaker 1: lot easier. What do you think about Eve and Adam
Speaker 1: from the Bible? I hate when he always goes to that.
Speaker 1: I mean it's it's like one of the oldest stories
Speaker 1: or something. I know, he listened to her. He died,
Speaker 1: He didn't die. I just pretty much did what he
Speaker 1: wasn't supposed to do. But I just feel like when
Speaker 1: it comes to that, like, yeah, he should still listen.
Speaker 1: So even though he betrayed, you still should listen. Your
Speaker 1: woman is always right. That's why men have bad credit. No,
Speaker 1: men have bad credit. Yeah, because women pressure men into
Speaker 1: making very bad, unaffordable person. That's what that's co signing
Speaker 1: on a jack. No. I want to say maybe back
Speaker 1: in the days that would be that way, but now
Speaker 1: in today's era, it's definitely not that way because now
Speaker 1: the women would have bad credit. Listen to him, if
Speaker 1: he would listen to her, stuff will be on. Women
Speaker 1: are going to have bad credit anyway because they live
Speaker 1: in a universe and no consequences to that. No, I
Speaker 1: have good credit. I can't. I can't go with that one.
Speaker 1: Well that's because you had me and paying for yr bill. No,
Speaker 1: because I I had my credit was messed up because
Speaker 1: of a dude before. How was his credit? We never
Speaker 1: used this credit. We was always using me because mine
Speaker 1: was good. Because he had an ex girlfriend his credit.
Speaker 1: You know, I don't know how his credit was. You know,
Speaker 1: everything always wanted my name, literally everything, because all some
Speaker 1: other girls ship is in his name. I doubt that.
Speaker 1: I doubted that. I know for a fact. Wasn't that
Speaker 1: in his name and no other girl name it was.
Speaker 1: I have all his credit information. I have a social
Speaker 1: scurity number everything. What was the score? I never read it,
Speaker 1: but I have I have that information. I have it.
Speaker 1: I never like checked it, but I have it. So
Speaker 1: everything day of birth, everything I have, all that. Of
Speaker 1: course I'm gonna have it. Pull that up. I'm not
Speaker 1: about to pull his credit up. I am you're gonna
Speaker 1: I'm not gonna get definitely not. Don't have me out here.
Speaker 1: Did to me because I just personally feel like, listen,
Speaker 1: all your stories of your of the men you talked
Speaker 1: to were like super like fucked up. They were because
Speaker 1: they were. I don't think I ever had a healthy relationship.
Speaker 1: So you don't think you actually make bad decisions versus
Speaker 1: listening a man listening to you. No, I don't. I
Speaker 1: just choose men poorly, that's it. That's not a decision. Nay,
Speaker 1: women have and I just try to grow the flower
Speaker 1: women has no consequences. No, So you don't own the
Speaker 1: fact that you're making these bad decisions, that you know
Speaker 1: you making bad decisions. You want the bar of the day.
Speaker 1: Men lie to women, Women lie to themselves, that's for sure. Truth.
Speaker 1: Think about it. From makeup, heels, gardos, all the justifications
Speaker 1: in the world for anything, eyelashes, eyebrows, nails. They even
Speaker 1: have slimming mirrors at department stores so that women can
Speaker 1: lie to themselves in full size, you know, good and
Speaker 1: fucking god jam well, that is not a true mirror
Speaker 1: yet it has to be there. But do y'all ever
Speaker 1: ask your questions why the females do what they do,
Speaker 1: because obviously they it's not for themselves apparently, So why
Speaker 1: did evet? I'm just because if you do, you're in
Speaker 1: a woman. If you're in a woman's mind, why would
Speaker 1: you Why why should a man listen to a woman?
Speaker 1: I'm not really in a woman's mind because I'm like
Speaker 1: in the middle. I'm half a dude and I'm half yes,
Speaker 1: I like my mentality is half dude half women, Like
Speaker 1: literally it is. You know how many people didn't tell me,
Speaker 1: like I don't know whether to punch you a hug
Speaker 1: you cause use such a nigger, And that's because that's
Speaker 1: because your feelings was hurt. No, you made a hard shell.
Speaker 1: So that's how you think we are, so you conduct
Speaker 1: yourself that way. I don't know why she did what
Speaker 1: she did what she did because you want to do it.
Speaker 1: I don't know. So why should a man listen to
Speaker 1: a woman. We're not just gonna go off just her situation, Okay,
Speaker 1: I don't or if it started, I don't care about it.
Speaker 1: We're not because we can bring up all these other situations.
Speaker 1: So what about the fact that you constantly keep picking
Speaker 1: bad men because there's a whole bunch of bad men
Speaker 1: out there, you know what? Let me you know, maybe
Speaker 1: because y'all disguise yourselves that good good people are good guys.
Speaker 1: And y'all want to do all this. Y'all do all
Speaker 1: this lying in the beginning. That's what y'all do. And
Speaker 1: we believe those lines. We do all of this line
Speaker 1: and we as in men and women. So are women
Speaker 1: just stupid? Na? We because you couldn't possibly believe half
Speaker 1: the ship that they say to you. There's no way
Speaker 1: on earth, no smart persons. So you're either lying to yourself. Y'all,
Speaker 1: y'all sell a good y'all seller, y'all tell a good story.
Speaker 1: What do we say in the beginning, y'all tell you
Speaker 1: know what you say? I have no idea what, friend,
Speaker 1: I know what you're talking about. I know, and I
Speaker 1: got friends like that. I know exactly what it is.
Speaker 1: I watch it happen in real time, and I go,
Speaker 1: holy fun. This bitch wants him so bad he could
Speaker 1: say anything and show over for it. It's crazy because
Speaker 1: with me growing up with a bunch of brothers, like
Speaker 1: I've seen my brothers in them do it and I'd
Speaker 1: be like why, And I'd be like, why did you
Speaker 1: even just tell that girl that? Like you like why,
Speaker 1: I'd want to know why, and I'll be because I
Speaker 1: know my brother, I'll be like why did she believe it?
Speaker 1: But I can see why because you ain't never did
Speaker 1: nothing wrong, or you never she don't have a reason
Speaker 1: not to believe you yet. So you don't think people
Speaker 1: do these things because they're mutually beneficial, Like you want
Speaker 1: somebody for money and they and I don't want nobody
Speaker 1: for money. Now, I mean, I don't know. I kind
Speaker 1: of I blow you. You is a bit shallow, Like
Speaker 1: you still think it's about guys that are fine. That's
Speaker 1: a lie. Every Most of the people I dated were ugly.
Speaker 1: And you know why because I thought if I dated
Speaker 1: an ugly person, he would not treat me bad. But
Speaker 1: they treat you the worst. You are fun and ship
Speaker 1: they I promised the gods say that it's pretty. I
Speaker 1: was like, I was like, man as intelligent as women
Speaker 1: are the silliest I'm telling you. At that time, I
Speaker 1: was like maybe the type because at that type, I
Speaker 1: used to get myself a type like if you're not
Speaker 1: light skinning, pretty eyes and good here, I don't want you.
Speaker 1: That's how I was. That's how I was. And now
Speaker 1: we're like, how light skin we've already bashed on white
Speaker 1: lives today since we're racist against lies in the studio. Damn,
Speaker 1: Like I mean you know yea, yeah I was. I
Speaker 1: was into the lights, light skins. I was into a
Speaker 1: light skin and you had everything coming to you that
Speaker 1: you got for being that shadow. Hey I'm young, what
Speaker 1: do I know? Don't say it's because you're young. Yeah,
Speaker 1: I put everything on my age at that time. Okay,
Speaker 1: So then for you to be a colorist, that's because
Speaker 1: I wasn't why you look at yellow people. I didn't
Speaker 1: say it was better. They just to me, that was
Speaker 1: my type. Why was that person you attacked? Because that's
Speaker 1: what I liked. That's me. I always seem to be
Speaker 1: attracted more to those, not saying that the dark skins was.
Speaker 1: You know, it was the people they now dark skin
Speaker 1: and that's the ugly guys. They're not that handsome. It
Speaker 1: sounds bad, but they were not that handsome. I just
Speaker 1: said at that time, they were not. At that time,
Speaker 1: they were not. At that time, they were not. And
Speaker 1: I don't care what people say, they worry what. No,
Speaker 1: But now you know, I've seen a lot of cute,
Speaker 1: dark skinning guys. I'm like, oh, yes, that chocolate. I
Speaker 1: thought you said you don't date at that time. Week
Speaker 1: you said now you don't date you guys, you said
Speaker 1: most of the guys you gave now are. She was younger,
Speaker 1: she dated ugly and spent money. She was younger, she
Speaker 1: dated cute, light skin fine, light skinned guys until they
Speaker 1: did here a certain way, and then she started dating
Speaker 1: ugly guys who are now dark because she thought it
Speaker 1: would be different. Yeah, I didn't see back in those days.
Speaker 1: I didn't look at it like that, like, oh, let
Speaker 1: me go pick a dark skin ugly. I just said
Speaker 1: I'm a date ugly and just so happy that the
Speaker 1: first that was your opinion of ugly. No, no, don't
Speaker 1: get me wrong, Like I said, there are most handsome
Speaker 1: dark skinned guy, k don't take that personal. She that
Speaker 1: was a guarantee. What you mean, there are there are,
Speaker 1: there are. Tank is sexy and he's dark skinned, dark skinned, Yes,
Speaker 1: he is. Tank is it's not yellow. He's not dark,
Speaker 1: so he caramel. It's like a mere complexion. Guys, it's
Speaker 1: Tyrese handsome. He's cute to me. Excute to me, you
Speaker 1: know what I'm That's what I'm saying. Like there's every
Speaker 1: color is every color has ugly and cute. There's no
Speaker 1: in between. Like there's ugly, light skinned people, the light
Speaker 1: skinning guy ugly. The silence is definitely because because because
Speaker 1: it wouldn't even occur to you know, because I don't
Speaker 1: look at them like not that that. I don't think
Speaker 1: how fast you name the handsome dark guy. Everything I watched,
Speaker 1: he's on the TV a lot, like the things I watch.
Speaker 1: It's some ugly skin guys on those shows too. I
Speaker 1: haven't seen watching them. Terrice Howard. I don't think he's handsome.
Speaker 1: I do not think. But you're not gonna say he's ugly.
Speaker 1: He's not handsome, but he's not the ugliest. We can
Speaker 1: get worse, you can get worse in both, but he's
Speaker 1: not happening because he's the other end of the spectrum.
Speaker 1: Can I know it's it's it's no, no, it gets
Speaker 1: better than I didn't see people on Instagram and I
Speaker 1: don't know who they are, and they dark skinned, and
Speaker 1: I'm like, oh, we baby sexy. Of course I'm not
Speaker 1: saying that because you're light skin that makes you cute,
Speaker 1: because I've seen a whole bunch of light skined uglies
Speaker 1: and I'd be like, and they think because they're light
Speaker 1: skinned that they're automatic cute, and that's not true. That's
Speaker 1: not true. There's a lot of people I know that
Speaker 1: think because they're light skin that they're cute, and I'd
Speaker 1: be like, baby, no, you're not. Is that so? Okay? Okay,
Speaker 1: I hear you. Um oh, y'all have made me a
Speaker 1: colorless on here, a hole everything anything. Hey, anybody, y'all
Speaker 1: should not come on this because y'all gonna come out
Speaker 1: looking bad. All you gotta do is don't lie. I'm
Speaker 1: not lying you for sure, I have not. You can lie, man.
Speaker 1: I'm like, yo, bro, like, I don't mind you lying
Speaker 1: to me. I'm not lying, but do I ossions I'd
Speaker 1: be telling you the truth. It's just when I tell
Speaker 1: something you discepted and you try to like pick that
Speaker 1: at me, like, well, we just we just want to
Speaker 1: say if I'm giving you a play, the food you're
Speaker 1: picking through for the onions and like, that's what you're doing.
Speaker 1: I'm just not You're you're sending us a story post
Speaker 1: at it, and we just want to know what it's
Speaker 1: not post at it. I'm just telling you a whole
Speaker 1: bunch of stories, and y'all trying to pick out pieces
Speaker 1: and put it all together as one story. Y'all asked
Speaker 1: me questions about all these different things, and I'm putting
Speaker 1: them and y'all just putting them together, like y'all making
Speaker 1: one ten stories one story. We're not putting you're putting
Speaker 1: them together. Because every time I stand up, there another
Speaker 1: question to come, and I gotta explaining. You come like, well,
Speaker 1: we're putting the questions together. I'll give her that we
Speaker 1: are putting a question together, ye ask, which is which
Speaker 1: is combined? Okay, which is combining my stories together? Because
Speaker 1: if I could be talking about something that nineteen and
Speaker 1: then a question you may ask, I'm telling you something
Speaker 1: about twenty four, but talked, we talked about high school
Speaker 1: in college eighteen and eighteen you met the boys. See,
Speaker 1: this is the thing when you talk to people who
Speaker 1: listen to you, and this is something that women don't
Speaker 1: do traditionally y'all usually here, my man Low. We talked
Speaker 1: about this all time. The clinical definition of hearing is
Speaker 1: to acknowledge sound. That's why when I say something and
Speaker 1: you're hearing me, you say, well, it sounds like you said, well,
Speaker 1: you're you sound like you're trying to say. If you
Speaker 1: listen right, clinically, you'll just list what I'm saying and
Speaker 1: end it. So what I do to you is I
Speaker 1: list what you're saying, and I ended, and then I
Speaker 1: asked you a question based on the list itself. I'm
Speaker 1: not saying anything different than you're saying to me. I'm
Speaker 1: just repeating it back to you. But that's because, like
Speaker 1: I said, traditionally, right women, I feel like they need
Speaker 1: to kind of hide exactly what's the real. And I
Speaker 1: get why. You know, it's a lot of pressure on
Speaker 1: y'all to to be, you know, on another level. And
Speaker 1: even though you guys aren't, you feel me, it's still
Speaker 1: pressure for you guys to be on another level. So
Speaker 1: I get it, and I get that too. But when
Speaker 1: I said eighteen and twenty four, I know we did
Speaker 1: not talk about twenty four. I would just just saying,
Speaker 1: like I'm saying, all these all these conversations is rooted
Speaker 1: in seventeen and eighteen years old. They definitely, they definitely
Speaker 1: not because I was the first story was high school
Speaker 1: in college and so the first guy you went to
Speaker 1: PRIM with, right, first value was the prom with. So
Speaker 1: he was eighteen in high school. No, I was never
Speaker 1: eighteen in high school. Okay, the way my birthday is,
Speaker 1: I was never eighteen. So correct. So you're seventeen, yes, right,
Speaker 1: and you went to PRIM with the boy that was
Speaker 1: twenty you said twenty, but you said till ye, now
Speaker 1: you letting it down more. But I've been saying that.
Speaker 1: I said that twenty one. That said she said two
Speaker 1: or three. I said, when you hear this back, you
Speaker 1: hear all the things, cause I'll keep rewinding it now
Speaker 1: I know. And I said either three or two? I
Speaker 1: said he first, I said three, and then I said, wait,
Speaker 1: if I was in the ninth, then he was in
Speaker 1: the eleven, that makes it too. You know, was two
Speaker 1: grades ahead, which he didn't, so he could have been either.
Speaker 1: He could have been three years on. Yes, that's what
Speaker 1: I was getting. Okay, So that means if you're seventeen nineteen, right,
Speaker 1: So then the way your birthday set up because your
Speaker 1: birthday is in December. December, right, So the guy you
Speaker 1: was going to problem with, right, who you knocked down? Right? Right?
Speaker 1: No big deals like were equal? Right? Okay, so you
Speaker 1: knocked down? How long did y'all break up after high school?
Speaker 1: Be careful, I'm not about the line, yes you are. No,
Speaker 1: I'm not like there's not a lot of room to
Speaker 1: lie on the it was like October, guy. It was
Speaker 1: definitely not October because I said I met the new
Speaker 1: guy when I was eighteen, so it definitely wasn't. I
Speaker 1: don't know in your birthday. No, I'm just saying we
Speaker 1: just discussed it. We just said December. Yes, so we
Speaker 1: went to prom and what may So after the summer, yeah,
Speaker 1: I went to the summer fling and then I was like, okay,
Speaker 1: this ain't a work summer fling. Like you know, like
Speaker 1: you go through the summer with somebody and then you
Speaker 1: realize when he's going back to college or whatever, it's
Speaker 1: like we we fell off before I actually like started
Speaker 1: college in which because that's when he's you know, got
Speaker 1: arrested pull some bullcrap. Whoa bullcrap? What bullcrap did he pull?
Speaker 1: Just bullcrap? Don't matter. It was bull crap. So okay,
Speaker 1: you know. So now so we're talking on campus. So
Speaker 1: we're talking about all saw this Timothy move on campus.
Speaker 1: Now moved on campus September. I moved in the next
Speaker 1: year because I couldn't get in right then and the air. Okay,
Speaker 1: so then you met the guy m right. That was
Speaker 1: thirteen days after So that was in December. But me
Speaker 1: and him didn't initially like Rember And I told you
Speaker 1: all beginning like I didn't like him like that, so
Speaker 1: we didn't talk like you know, I wouldn' let him
Speaker 1: touch me, not not nothing in the beginning. How long
Speaker 1: was the beginning? And after I actually officially cut off,
Speaker 1: oh boy? You had to officially already caught off, oh boy,
Speaker 1: because remember I told you he was started paying my
Speaker 1: car note. No remember I said he started paying my
Speaker 1: car note before I started doing that. Oh yeah, I
Speaker 1: forgot the same guy the bullcrap. So once once I
Speaker 1: officiently cut him off, after you Connie got his money, Hey,
Speaker 1: I feel like you owe me more than that. But
Speaker 1: he and then that's when I started hanging out with
Speaker 1: you know, the X. We hang out, hang out, hang out.
Speaker 1: Then he finally kissed me and then after that we
Speaker 1: just m and that was how low. I was probably
Speaker 1: second semester into college. So so second semester, this is
Speaker 1: this is in January. No, that's not second semester. That's
Speaker 1: like second semesters like March, March. Okay, so when did
Speaker 1: you meet the dude? They had the wife and kids.
Speaker 1: Because I was at eighteen too, that was like almost
Speaker 1: when I was about to turn nineteen, so a little
Speaker 1: before nineteen. So you see what I'm saying, what's wrong
Speaker 1: with all of this? I get I get what you're saying.
Speaker 1: But what I'm saying was you was making a saying
Speaker 1: like I was just taking them down, like, oh, I
Speaker 1: took you down today. I took him down yesterday. I
Speaker 1: did not make it seem like he didn't he he
Speaker 1: was like September and then November. He said they have
Speaker 1: days like the times, right, half months or days everything.
Speaker 1: I was sure, given the bust, no ship. But I'm saying, yeah,
Speaker 1: so it's not like but I wasn't reading finding a story.
Speaker 1: I was just cracking joke. You know. I had to clarify.
Speaker 1: I want to be like, damn, she would trust me,
Speaker 1: trust me. They're gonna be, but most people hold in college, yeah,
Speaker 1: I feel like that's the time. Definitely, and definitely was
Speaker 1: home in college, but I don't feel no, I wouldn't
Speaker 1: say I was home nice. That was definitely not that
Speaker 1: was actually the truth. But I respect as a woman.
Speaker 1: This is the thing. I respect women, y'all. Y'all really
Speaker 1: do have it tough. We expect y'all to be better
Speaker 1: than us, and you guys aren't. Were not. And it's
Speaker 1: tough because we just geted. We just get judged a lot.
Speaker 1: Like that's the thing, Like if we whatever we do,
Speaker 1: we get judged for it. But it doesn't matter because
Speaker 1: when y'all get judged, just be like the first name, like,
Speaker 1: but he a dude, though not if he broke, that's
Speaker 1: what's gonna say. We could judge on your income. I
Speaker 1: would rather get judged on my income, Dan, somebody like
Speaker 1: nobody wants your income. These guys out here want people income.
Speaker 1: I don't know if that's a man, it ain't that
Speaker 1: and like that's that's that's somebody who wants to funck you.
Speaker 1: And it's like, well, if I can grab an extragram
Speaker 1: out of it, or some who will he is everything
Speaker 1: on the broad. I know a couple of people like that,
Speaker 1: and I'd be like, and she just give it to you, huh,
Speaker 1: Like have you ever had to do what ever got
Speaker 1: you before? Yeah? I got got for how long? I
Speaker 1: keep telling you. It goes back to him, like, oh yeah,
Speaker 1: it's one person who was the most extravagant purchase you
Speaker 1: ever got him, got him extravaging my tax money. He
Speaker 1: was gonna flip it's supposed to and that is a
Speaker 1: real thing. Ran off on the plug, ran like literally left,
Speaker 1: changed his number and everything. I was so hurt. And
Speaker 1: how early was that in today years? That probably was
Speaker 1: he was already working, so he was out of college. No,
Speaker 1: I was working in college. Like that's what I'm saying.
Speaker 1: I didn't get to the chance to be a hole
Speaker 1: in college because I was working. No, not with him probably,
Speaker 1: but now he was coming on a good okay, so
Speaker 1: in college probably like we probably was like three years
Speaker 1: in and he was like, oh, we need your money.
Speaker 1: I'm yeah, And I'm like, for shore, what was he hustling?
Speaker 1: He was doing a lot of stuff, and I mean
Speaker 1: I've seen him. What was his main thing? I don't like,
Speaker 1: I don't know he was I wasn't was getting girls
Speaker 1: to get his tax tax Hey, that could have been it.
Speaker 1: That could have been it, but I was I was
Speaker 1: so hurt. I was like, this nid money was just
Speaker 1: other girls tax I hadn't read off with My money
Speaker 1: was much money? It was. I gave him four thousand
Speaker 1: at the time, A few grand in college on the
Speaker 1: budget is a lot of I gave him. I gave
Speaker 1: him between because I don't know the exactly I know
Speaker 1: it was a couple of thousands. I don't know the
Speaker 1: exact amount. But I was so hurt because I was like,
Speaker 1: Brod told me he was gonna flip it and give
Speaker 1: me money, extra money, and I was counting on that
Speaker 1: because I don't think I want to go buy something.
Speaker 1: And I hit him. But I should have known something.
Speaker 1: He picked the argument with me. I should have know,
Speaker 1: Like after he had the money for a couple of day,
Speaker 1: even the argument we got into it, he changed his
Speaker 1: number everything like and I was so mad. I was like,
Speaker 1: oh my god. And this was in the first three
Speaker 1: years off y'all ain't navier relationships it is and then't
Speaker 1: crazy party. I had asked him about it to us like,
Speaker 1: so I was like, so where my money at? You know,
Speaker 1: you know he told me what he did. He was like, man,
Speaker 1: I paid up all my my tickets and everything. I
Speaker 1: wasn't going back to jail. I said, so you took
Speaker 1: my money? Did he say it was our money? Did
Speaker 1: I say it was our money? Did he say that
Speaker 1: like that's our money? No? What do he said when
Speaker 1: you told him that to him? Told him that, why
Speaker 1: are you taking my money? Yeah? You just spent all
Speaker 1: of my money. I told you. He said he had
Speaker 1: to pay some stuff off to stay out of jail,
Speaker 1: and then you paid that anyway, probably would have so
Speaker 1: he could have just asked for it. Believe that that
Speaker 1: I would have paid for it. No, do you believe
Speaker 1: that he paid off? No? I don't think so. What
Speaker 1: do you think you do? Shot? Shot went shopping? He
Speaker 1: shot like you Yeah, so he probably spent it. Probably
Speaker 1: wasn't mad at me. And because he do stuff like
Speaker 1: if we get into it here, do stuff to try
Speaker 1: to hurt me back, like or hurt me more than
Speaker 1: I would buy a nicer purse. I don't wear a purse.
Speaker 1: Show he's not about to buy a purse. But like literally,
Speaker 1: like I swear at one time I had he won.
Speaker 1: He had sent me a picture of some shoes. He
Speaker 1: was like, I want these shoes. So I was like, okay,
Speaker 1: I wouldn't got them. Bottle for him. Literally, I got
Speaker 1: there was some R red uh, some red like R
Speaker 1: red pumas. I guess there was like limited edition and
Speaker 1: he's seen him. And I was like, oh shoot, because
Speaker 1: I love red. So I'm like, we wantna give me
Speaker 1: a pair of too. So I got us a pair.
Speaker 1: I swear to god. We got into it. So I'm
Speaker 1: in a living room. We're getting into it. So I
Speaker 1: go in the living room. This nigga threw the shoes
Speaker 1: over the balcony and it was like, I'm out of here.
Speaker 1: And I was like, don't take I was like that.
Speaker 1: I was thinking, I'm cool. I'm gonna take the shoes back.
Speaker 1: Went in the whole the shoe boxes in there, the
Speaker 1: shoes not in the box. He threw them over the balcony,
Speaker 1: Like that's the stuff he used to do. That's a
Speaker 1: broader question, not personal. I'm gonna just throw out the
Speaker 1: observation women will break up with a guy not to
Speaker 1: be done. What's up with that? And I agree with that.
Speaker 1: I mean, it's just more so like you just won't
Speaker 1: you feel like if you step away from the relationship,
Speaker 1: are you potentially give that person like you're gonna walk away.
Speaker 1: You would hope that they would want to change, to
Speaker 1: do something, to be like, Okay, I'm gonna be better,
Speaker 1: because that's why I stayed in my situation for so long.
Speaker 1: I just faster. You use fear, used the fear of
Speaker 1: me not being here to something right, because it used
Speaker 1: to be like because when he had like, oh, I'm sorry,
Speaker 1: and then he'd be like, I'll go back, He'll do
Speaker 1: right for a couple of months, like I'm like, oh, shoot,
Speaker 1: we're going now. We were dinner and we got a
Speaker 1: certain day that's just our day and the family day
Speaker 1: with his kids and stuff like that, and I'm like, okay,
Speaker 1: that's cool. Then it seemed like when he see that,
Speaker 1: I'm like, how many kids did he have when y'all met?
Speaker 1: One where he had a girl pregnant. She didn't have
Speaker 1: the baby yet, No, it's one. No, she was pregnant
Speaker 1: when me and he met. She was pregnant. She was
Speaker 1: like four months, five months something like that. So how
Speaker 1: many did he have after day and half years? Because
Speaker 1: y'all was breaking up. Now he had a baby on me,
Speaker 1: I think, but it was one of them times y'all
Speaker 1: broke up. That's what he said. That's what he said,
Speaker 1: which is probably why you shouldn't do the on and
Speaker 1: off thing, which is true, but I don't but believe that.
Speaker 1: I believe we was on. I believe we was living
Speaker 1: together at the time, and from my understanding, so y'all
Speaker 1: moved together after I moved in with him to his
Speaker 1: mom house. After you start to tax money, probably so boy, Yeah,
Speaker 1: I mean, now you owe, you owe your place at
Speaker 1: least at this point. Motherfucker. I hated That's why I
Speaker 1: would never live with a man, because when we get
Speaker 1: into it used to put me out. I hated it.
Speaker 1: I hated it. You know, that's not like a manly
Speaker 1: thing to do. It's not. But he'd be like, it
Speaker 1: don't matter what time I'm coming home, you're getting the
Speaker 1: funk about my house and brother, it's not even your house.
Speaker 1: What was his mom called with you? Yeah, she was cool.
Speaker 1: She was like, you don't have to leave, but I'm like,
Speaker 1: I'm out, Like that's crazy, Like I'm not about to
Speaker 1: argue with this man at through in the morning. Wake
Speaker 1: you up, like I would just leave and then here,
Speaker 1: blow me up, come back, baby, I'm only like so
Speaker 1: he would do kind of the micro thing like he
Speaker 1: would be like, I want to break up for an
Speaker 1: hour and a half and you would want to break
Speaker 1: up for a month and a half. I when I
Speaker 1: break up, I would my initiate. My my intent was
Speaker 1: not to go back. That's always every time I would
Speaker 1: leave them, like, it was never to go back, so
Speaker 1: that it wasn't for it to be fixable. Yeah, it
Speaker 1: was never to be fixable. But you know, like with
Speaker 1: that being my first love, it was just like everything
Speaker 1: he told me, I believe, like, Okay, you're gonna do better.
Speaker 1: You're right, all right, I'm coming. Have you ever initiated
Speaker 1: breaking something off and then tried to initiate bringing it back?
Speaker 1: Never neither, I don't think. I think that's more like
Speaker 1: I wouldn't say more so for like a female, but
Speaker 1: normally I feel like to me, I feel like guys,
Speaker 1: either y'all just don't act on your emotions or it's
Speaker 1: like y'all be like when y'all done with somebody, y'all
Speaker 1: be doing and they'd be like, are you Like I
Speaker 1: didn't see it? Happen like you dated this person so long,
Speaker 1: you've just done and they'd be like, I'm done, and
Speaker 1: they'd be like, how do you just be out of
Speaker 1: your feelings like that? And it makes you question like
Speaker 1: six months before that? Well, also we may not, like
Speaker 1: I haven't always been out of my feelings, but my
Speaker 1: feelings don't run my world. Yeah, that's the probably the
Speaker 1: biggest difference between the two operations, or should be. Yeah, like,
Speaker 1: emotions don't run my room and women are emotional creatures.
Speaker 1: That's just I think human beings are. I think we
Speaker 1: all have the same amount of emotions, right, maybe even
Speaker 1: more for me. But I think the difference is I'll
Speaker 1: ignore it. I'll be like, yeah, whatever, fuck you glasses,
Speaker 1: fuck you emotions. I tried to ignore them, but they
Speaker 1: overpired me. They'd be like, bro, go do something that's
Speaker 1: gonna hurt him. Do it, and I'd be like, nah,
Speaker 1: we ain't doing revenge. And then somethingdy like popping the head,
Speaker 1: like like, damn, that's a good as that it's gonna
Speaker 1: hurt him. Huh, that's the worst thing you ever did
Speaker 1: to hurt a guy, And don't lie. Uh hit him
Speaker 1: with a car that probably hurt yeah, I probably hurt.
Speaker 1: That was like a physic I thought you said just
Speaker 1: because somebody hurt you mentally. In the other podcast, his
Speaker 1: head bounced off the windshield. That hurt him mentally, and
Speaker 1: I was so sad. I kind of hurt him too,
Speaker 1: like he was limping and like I kind of like
Speaker 1: messing with his ankle. Yeah, I'm telling you it was
Speaker 1: a toxic It was a toxic relationship. Like it was toxic.
Speaker 1: Like his family used to be like leave him alone,
Speaker 1: like they used to tell me, and he used to
Speaker 1: get mad, like stop telling her that, because she when
Speaker 1: we get into it, should tell me, like I should
Speaker 1: listen to your family. I should have listened. How many
Speaker 1: kids does he have now? From what I know? Three?
Speaker 1: How many do you you think he asked, probably a
Speaker 1: bunch of them. For my understanding, he don't wrap it up.
Speaker 1: I asked a question, did you not think at the
Speaker 1: time that you were going to start to have an
Speaker 1: involved with a gentleman who had another woman for must
Speaker 1: pregnant than perhaps this is a character flaw indicator. At
Speaker 1: that time, I wasn't thinking about that because I had
Speaker 1: no intentions on being with him, so I didn't care
Speaker 1: about that. Situation. You didn't think, you know what, maybe
Speaker 1: I shouldn't want this guy. What do I know? I don't.
Speaker 1: I didn't like literally when I met him, it was
Speaker 1: not like, oh, I'm about to be with him. It
Speaker 1: was like, wrote illmatic at okay, good for nas. I
Speaker 1: mean that's I mean. What I'm saying is I didn't
Speaker 1: care about his situation because I didn't see him as
Speaker 1: my boyfriend. Like I wasn't like, oh I'm about to
Speaker 1: get with him, We're about to build. It was nothing
Speaker 1: like that. Literally, it was more like I see him
Speaker 1: getting money, and I wanted his money, So I don't
Speaker 1: care about nothing as long as he give me the money.
Speaker 1: That's how it was in beginning. So so somebody introduced
Speaker 1: you to him. I was not introduced to him. I
Speaker 1: was both introduced to him. Have you ever dealt with
Speaker 1: a girl that you know there's a cap on this,
Speaker 1: I'll fuck her. I might even go grab bite sea.
Speaker 1: He used to be like that, yeah, okay, And I'm
Speaker 1: pretty sure that's probably what he in the beginning when
Speaker 1: he met me, Like he probably thought like I'm gonna
Speaker 1: just take her down and that and that we didn't.
Speaker 1: I don't believe we I can't speak for him, but
Speaker 1: I personally feel like when we got in that situation,
Speaker 1: we didn't think it was gonna escalate to how far
Speaker 1: it did. I don't think if the funk whatever, I
Speaker 1: don't he's not here, I don't know him. But you
Speaker 1: met this guy, there was a cap on what you
Speaker 1: thought it could become, and that was changed or raised
Speaker 1: right through time. Yeah, that's yeah. I'm just trying to
Speaker 1: relate on the psyche like I've never had that happen
Speaker 1: in my life. I've never met somebody and but like
Speaker 1: that's all they can be. Oh no, that usual. Like
Speaker 1: I start off with, they could probably this much find
Speaker 1: out pretty quickly. That's a downward moving bar. That's not
Speaker 1: how I was thinking. And I was just like, this
Speaker 1: is what it is in the beginning, and then it
Speaker 1: just happened to be more than what it was. And
Speaker 1: then it just so happened he turned out to be
Speaker 1: my first love. And then I got real dumb. I
Speaker 1: got real stupid, like all common sense went and left
Speaker 1: and went the building like I couldn't find it to
Speaker 1: me a long time to find it. But that's just
Speaker 1: how it was. Like, even every time I thought I
Speaker 1: was done. I was never really done because I'll be like, man,
Speaker 1: I miss him, I miss him. I'm missing I'll miss him.
Speaker 1: And even when somebody was like, well, try to talk
Speaker 1: to somebody else, and I'll talk to somebody else and
Speaker 1: then be like, but I'm thinking about him, So there's
Speaker 1: no point even talking to you. Question at times when
Speaker 1: you were taught to somebody else, do you look back
Speaker 1: and think, man, that one I wish I had that
Speaker 1: one back. I'm guilty. I go no, no, no, no,
Speaker 1: I'm trying to think no, no, okay now, because there
Speaker 1: was full of crap too. Everybody's full of crap. Everybody
Speaker 1: is not full of crap. It just when you deal
Speaker 1: with somebody who didn't put you through everything, it would
Speaker 1: be like the little things, you'd be like, but I'm
Speaker 1: not going through that again. I can see you already
Speaker 1: where it's going, so you don't think that that's probably
Speaker 1: a problem that it may not go there, like you
Speaker 1: may be anticipating something that happened that may not be
Speaker 1: happening based off these minute things. Now, because when females
Speaker 1: start calling my phone and all that is going there
Speaker 1: not necessarily true if any takes though, but any there's
Speaker 1: no way that this woman should even have my contact.
Speaker 1: There's no way that she should have I mean, I
Speaker 1: can't say that the person shouldn't go through your phone
Speaker 1: because I don't know that it takes time for that
Speaker 1: to take. So eight and a half years, had somebody
Speaker 1: calling your phone? Please? He had everything, females came in
Speaker 1: my car, all type of stuff. Why did you hit
Speaker 1: him with your car? Again? I don't know the reason.
Speaker 1: He pissed me off and he just had been stood
Speaker 1: in front. There was plenty of reasons. I mean, there
Speaker 1: was the tax reason, there was I don't know. I
Speaker 1: don't know the reason there was. I don't know the
Speaker 1: reason why we got into it. We get so it
Speaker 1: could have been over the butter. Oh no, for sure,
Speaker 1: not that it wasn't. Is it not possible that he
Speaker 1: had put you out that night and then he ran
Speaker 1: into the driveway while you were backing out. No I didn't.
Speaker 1: I wasn't living with him yet when he ran him over. Yeah,
Speaker 1: my cousin was in the car and she was like,
Speaker 1: oh wait, wait, what's the statute of limitations on something
Speaker 1: like that? What nobody died? All right? Okay, I mean, alright,
Speaker 1: just Loki kidnapping and being and all that good stuff.
Speaker 1: Will he for that he kidnapped you. That's what it
Speaker 1: felt like. When you try to tie me and put
Speaker 1: me in the closet, it takes my transportation away. What
Speaker 1: you call Why did he tie you up and put
Speaker 1: you in a got time for something similar than that?
Speaker 1: So how much you get for that was seven years?
Speaker 1: But I mean, why do you tie you up and
Speaker 1: put you in the closet? I don't know. But we
Speaker 1: got into it. We always we got into it over something.
Speaker 1: I don't know what it was. Every week it's if
Speaker 1: we got into it. It It is always over a female. Literally,
Speaker 1: it was always by the female. Literally, like when we
Speaker 1: get into it because either somebody calling my phone telling
Speaker 1: me they're pregnant by him, somebody different, girls playing on
Speaker 1: my phone, sending me text messages like it was something.
Speaker 1: And I confirmed him about it and went get into
Speaker 1: it about that and I was like, I'm done and
Speaker 1: didn't that He said, you ain't going nowhere, you ain't leaving,
Speaker 1: So let me get this right. So the guy you
Speaker 1: went to prim with, right is a guy that's about
Speaker 1: right and nine. Sure, okay, if I'm seventeen, he has
Speaker 1: to be nineteen, not four years but okay, so right,
Speaker 1: and you caught him. You set him up in high school, right,
Speaker 1: You set him up through your cousin's phone and to
Speaker 1: nail your cousin. And then once you realize he was
Speaker 1: trying to nail your cousin, your next plan became to
Speaker 1: Your next plan became too, I'm going to extort him. No,
Speaker 1: I never I didn't ask him for anything. He would
Speaker 1: hit me like, oh, you need your car? No pay
Speaker 1: of course, I'm yes. Why would I say no? Because
Speaker 1: you was done next month? I don't know, And I
Speaker 1: was mad like yeah, sure, dude, go ahead and pay it. Okay.
Speaker 1: So it's not like I was hitting him asking him
Speaker 1: for stuff so he could feel guilty like he started,
Speaker 1: Like I told you, he he was hitting me off.
Speaker 1: You knew he was done with him, so but it money.
Speaker 1: It ain't the money for so you don't think karma
Speaker 1: fell back on you for that, right? So then after that, right, uh,
Speaker 1: a couple of months down the line, you meet the
Speaker 1: future love of your life and take your second to
Speaker 1: figure it out. But you looked at him and you
Speaker 1: just wanted his money. No, because after a certain age
Speaker 1: that no longer was I'm just saying just right now. Right.
Speaker 1: So when you met him right at eighteen, a couple
Speaker 1: of thirteen days past eighteen, it's like, I'm gonna give
Speaker 1: him a chance because I want his money because what
Speaker 1: you said, right, and you end up falling in love
Speaker 1: with him, right, So you set out to want something
Speaker 1: and then you fell in love with him, and then
Speaker 1: y'all kind of have issues initially early. And then you
Speaker 1: meet the man that was lyned and he was thirty
Speaker 1: years old, and y'all did with each other for a year,
Speaker 1: because that's what you said, a year on and off,
Speaker 1: but the same time, you still did it with the boyfriend,
Speaker 1: not insistently, but so whatever the spaces was, they were
Speaker 1: longer than three months, right, And then you cut him off,
Speaker 1: right because you see him in the shopping center with
Speaker 1: his family. And then you go back to the guy
Speaker 1: that is saying you're done with him yet you know, yeah,
Speaker 1: I'm done, I'm coming back home. And then y'all come
Speaker 1: together and a couple of years later, he run off
Speaker 1: with your tax money, right, and don't have a really
Speaker 1: good excuse, you know, he paid off some tickets, and
Speaker 1: then after that you move in with him, no, before
Speaker 1: you moved in with him, you hit him with your car.
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm, I hit him in the car before I
Speaker 1: moved in, That is correct. And then you move in
Speaker 1: with him after that, right, and y'all living together and
Speaker 1: you know the trials and tribulation of a relationship is happening.
Speaker 1: And after you got out this long kind of situation,
Speaker 1: right of of whatever, you meeting guys. And at that
Speaker 1: point you gave up on cute guys, right, fair, gave
Speaker 1: up on cute guys and realized ugly guys were just
Speaker 1: as funked up. But I say that because my ex
Speaker 1: was not cute. Well that was an eighteen, So one
Speaker 1: was the cute guys at four geen. No, it was
Speaker 1: in high school when I used to be cute guy. Yeah,
Speaker 1: he was for sure, pretty eyes everything. So the ex
Speaker 1: is the first ugly guy. Yes, all right, So that
Speaker 1: didn't work out. And now every time you feel a threat,
Speaker 1: you're like, I'm not going down this road again, because
Speaker 1: you know how this ends pretty much. And you should
Speaker 1: have listened to Adam because of what because we gangst
Speaker 1: us