WEBVTT - “I GOT ARRESTED”

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<v Speaker 1>To accept.

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<v Speaker 2>Press one, just send a voicemail.

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<v Speaker 3>Press two. Hello, Hello, what is your name?

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<v Speaker 1>Sir? Call me Michael?

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<v Speaker 3>All right, Michael, what's going on with you?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>What about three weeks ago I got arrested?

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<v Speaker 3>Okay? Uh? Do you want to tell me what you

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<v Speaker 3>got arrested for? I?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh, I took a little too much like acid, and

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<v Speaker 2>I started like freaking out pretty much.

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<v Speaker 3>Uh did you do something illegal?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>I guess, so, Okay, do you I mean, you can

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<v Speaker 3>tell me what it is if you want to?

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<v Speaker 2>Well? Should Basically the night started off fine. I took uh,

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<v Speaker 2>I took three tabs, which is probably the most I've

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<v Speaker 2>ever taken, and towards like the peak of the trip,

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<v Speaker 2>bro That's that did not feel like three tabs. It

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<v Speaker 2>felt like a lot more. And I started to get

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<v Speaker 2>like super anxious, and about like about like three hours

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<v Speaker 2>into the trip, I started to black out. And apparently

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<v Speaker 2>I started like wandering around my neighborhood with my shirt

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<v Speaker 2>out or with my shirt off, and one of my

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<v Speaker 2>neighbors saw me and they called the police. And when

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<v Speaker 2>the when the police came, I started, I guess, resisting arrest,

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<v Speaker 2>and like I remember, I remember thinking they were gonna

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<v Speaker 2>shoot me or something. So I started running away and

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<v Speaker 2>I went on someone's doorstep, and I guess I started

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<v Speaker 2>kicking in their door.

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<v Speaker 3>Were you alone when you took these three tabs of acid?

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<v Speaker 2>Now? My mom was down home.

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<v Speaker 3>How often are you are you taking three tabs of acid?

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<v Speaker 3>That's a lot of acid?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh shit, man, The last time I took acid was

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<v Speaker 2>probably like a year ago.

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<v Speaker 3>Okay, so this was this was and you said this

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<v Speaker 3>was three weeks ago.

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<v Speaker 2>Just about about like a month ago.

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<v Speaker 3>Were you taking the ascid like by yourself or did

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<v Speaker 3>you have like friends taking it with you?

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<v Speaker 1>Now?

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<v Speaker 2>I was about myself.

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<v Speaker 3>Uh So what happened after you got arrested?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh? They took me to the hospital, and I guess

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<v Speaker 2>that's when I kind of like came to because I

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<v Speaker 2>was out of it. Dude. I was just like hallucinating crazily,

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<v Speaker 2>which is nothing that I've really ever experienced before while

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<v Speaker 2>I was taking acid.

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<v Speaker 3>Do you remember what? Do you remember what you were

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<v Speaker 3>hallucinating when you were in uh these people's yards?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? So I remember thinking I was like some sort

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<v Speaker 2>of like football player. So I wasn't just like walking around.

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<v Speaker 2>I was like running around through people's yards. Like like

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<v Speaker 2>shirtless with my fucking chest, hair out and everything, and

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<v Speaker 2>like it's probably like seven in the morning, so this

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<v Speaker 2>light outside, and like I live in like a like

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<v Speaker 2>a college town, so I'm sure I'm on like Instagram

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<v Speaker 2>reels somewhere because if I saw if I saw a

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<v Speaker 2>teenager running around someone's yard with no shirt on, I'd

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<v Speaker 2>start recording.

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<v Speaker 3>Are you a teenager?

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<v Speaker 2>I was at the time, I was nineteen and I

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<v Speaker 2>just turned twenty.

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<v Speaker 3>So, uh, what are you in school? What do you do?

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<v Speaker 3>What's your life? Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>I work at a hospital and I work at Burger King.

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<v Speaker 1>That's nice, but I just got I just.

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<v Speaker 2>Got the burger king job to pay for pay for

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<v Speaker 2>the door.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh did you destroy a door when you were on acid?

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<v Speaker 2>I went and checked out the door, and it looked

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<v Speaker 2>it looked fine, but I don't think it's I don't

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<v Speaker 2>think it's destroyed or anything. But apparently I was trying

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<v Speaker 2>to kick it in, So.

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<v Speaker 3>Like, I guess, I'm is this. Are you upset about this?

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<v Speaker 3>Like how do you what do you make of this? Oh?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I don't. I don't know. It's weird because like

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<v Speaker 2>at first, I was like mortified, bro, because I'm really

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<v Speaker 2>just like a normal dude. Like I'm not. I'm not

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<v Speaker 2>the type of dude to take a bunch of acid

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<v Speaker 2>and and run around with my shirt off. But it's

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<v Speaker 2>weird because like this has kind of made me lock in,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, catching like a court case and everything. And

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<v Speaker 2>I've made even in the short few weeks since it's happened,

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<v Speaker 2>I've made a lot of like changes in my life.

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<v Speaker 2>It's kind of made me realize, like I'm not, I'm

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<v Speaker 2>not in high school anymore. You know, I gotta I

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<v Speaker 2>gotta start acting like an adult. I guess it's it

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<v Speaker 2>sucks because I owe money for the door and people

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<v Speaker 2>my neighbors probably think I'm crazy. But learned a lesson.

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<v Speaker 3>What sort of changes have you made as you as

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<v Speaker 3>you have locked in?

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<v Speaker 2>I stopped smoking weed every day, That's a big one.

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<v Speaker 2>And then getting I got that second job, which I

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<v Speaker 2>probably needed to do to like build up some savings

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<v Speaker 2>and whatnot. Not just really given thought into what I'm

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<v Speaker 2>going to do with my future in terms of like

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<v Speaker 2>a long term career.

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<v Speaker 3>And what have those thoughts yielded.

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<v Speaker 2>I've decided that probably my best course of action would be,

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<v Speaker 2>like I try to get into a trade. You know,

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<v Speaker 2>because I'm not I'm not the type of dude who

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<v Speaker 2>could really go to college and then work in like

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<v Speaker 2>a corporate sitting. I don't think i'd really fit in,

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<v Speaker 2>So you know, maybe I'll go pour concrete and a

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<v Speaker 2>hundred degree weather.

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<v Speaker 3>How do you feel having locked in a right? Is

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<v Speaker 3>there a part of you that's almost glad that this happened,

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<v Speaker 3>that it could cause you to lock in? Is a week?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah?

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<v Speaker 3>I mean relying to.

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<v Speaker 2>That, I mean, like like I've been, I've been kind

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<v Speaker 2>of locked in, you know. I go to the gym,

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<v Speaker 2>my journal, I fucking I get outside, I go on runs,

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<v Speaker 2>I try to watch what I'm eating and whatnot. But

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know, this has kind of made me just

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<v Speaker 2>like realize all the different kind of bullshit I got

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<v Speaker 2>to cut out of my life, you know, and like

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<v Speaker 2>like even on the phone, like I'm so stressed about this.

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<v Speaker 2>I try to act like it's fine and try to

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<v Speaker 2>push it off, you know, but I'm just trying to

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<v Speaker 2>see the good in the situation. But every time I

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<v Speaker 2>try to go to bed bro, I can think about

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<v Speaker 2>it's like how fucking crazy I looked, or my neighbor's

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<v Speaker 2>lawn sprawled out with my fucking nipples out, and.

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<v Speaker 3>Shit, it is a little funny.

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<v Speaker 2>It's it's a little funny. But I think it's too

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<v Speaker 2>soon to start laughing about it, because like I haven't

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<v Speaker 2>told any of my friends.

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<v Speaker 3>About this either, really want none of your friends know

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<v Speaker 3>about this?

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<v Speaker 2>Hell no, bro, because like I've been uh uh, Like

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<v Speaker 2>I'm just I'm a type of character that has like

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of baggage, you know, and like I've done

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<v Speaker 2>a lot of stupid shit in the past, and like

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<v Speaker 2>in the past year, I've kind of, like I said,

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<v Speaker 2>locked in and I don't want to like fucking tell

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<v Speaker 2>all my friends that this happened.

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<v Speaker 3>You, Like, how much? How much bat How at twenty

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<v Speaker 3>years old have you been able to accruse so much baggage?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? Fuck man, I just I've lived a lot of life, bro,

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<v Speaker 2>I've been to a lot of shit. I know, like

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<v Speaker 2>I'm still young, but I don't know. But I just

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<v Speaker 2>I've really lived. I've really lived in my high school experience.

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<v Speaker 3>I guess what kind of baggage and how do you

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<v Speaker 3>what and how do you feel like this baggage is

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<v Speaker 3>holding you back?

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<v Speaker 2>Well, I don't think it's holding me back, but I

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<v Speaker 2>think like people have a predisposed opinion of me because

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<v Speaker 2>like I don't know. One thing is like I've had

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<v Speaker 2>like twelve jobs in the past two years, and a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of my friends are like, what the fuck are

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<v Speaker 2>you doing? Like you got to stay at a job,

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<v Speaker 2>But I don't know, there was There's been a lot

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<v Speaker 2>going on in my life for pretty much my entire life,

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<v Speaker 2>and a lot of that is like like caused by me,

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<v Speaker 2>but a lot of it is shit that I was

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<v Speaker 2>just going throughout the time. I don't know if that

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<v Speaker 2>makes any sense, but I just feel like a lot

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<v Speaker 2>of the people around me don't think I'm don't think

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<v Speaker 2>that like I want more for myself, if that makes sense.

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<v Speaker 3>So you've been going through a bunch of different jobs

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<v Speaker 3>and like you're you're afraid that the people around you

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<v Speaker 3>think that you're inconfident.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, or like just just not taking life seriously? Which

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<v Speaker 2>is which is? Which is fair enough? Like I can't

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<v Speaker 2>if all they see is a bunch of bullshit whatever,

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<v Speaker 2>or they're supposed to believe you.

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<v Speaker 3>Know, Okay, but you're telling me that over the past

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<v Speaker 3>three weeks you've woken up and decided that you want

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<v Speaker 3>to take life seriously.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, no, no, I would say it's been longer than that.

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<v Speaker 2>I just think, like I don't know, like like over

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<v Speaker 2>the past year, I'll be like like doing good for

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<v Speaker 2>like two weeks, three weeks at a time, and then

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<v Speaker 2>I'll just have a week where I'm fuck it, getting

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<v Speaker 2>drunk every day or like just going out doing stupid shit,

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<v Speaker 2>going to the parties, getting into fights and whatnot. And

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<v Speaker 2>this has kind of made me realize like like that's

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<v Speaker 2>like I need to just stay on a straight path,

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<v Speaker 2>you know, like we really try to get my life together.

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<v Speaker 2>I can't let myself just uh you know, I'm gonna

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<v Speaker 2>go get drunk at fucking three am and sit out

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<v Speaker 2>a fucking Wendy's parking lot for six hours and then

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<v Speaker 2>expect to feel quite good about myself.

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<v Speaker 3>You know. Yeah, yeah, yeah. It's not a linear journey.

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<v Speaker 3>It's like a it's like ups and downs. I feel yea,

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<v Speaker 3>even to me, to I mean, I don't know, man,

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<v Speaker 3>even to me, the fact that you're self aware that

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<v Speaker 3>you don't want to fuck up your life is like huge.

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<v Speaker 3>It's the biggest thing, especially you know at twenty, because

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<v Speaker 3>I'm here people a lot of people at that time,

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<v Speaker 3>You're just like, well, fucking fuck everything. Let's just you know,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm gonna live forever or I'm gonna die Tomorrow's let's

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<v Speaker 3>just drink in the Wendy's parking lot every day.

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<v Speaker 2>Yep. It gets tough though, man.

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<v Speaker 3>But also this fear that your friends and family are

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<v Speaker 3>gonna think that you don't take life seriously. Do you

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<v Speaker 3>think you take life seriously?

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<v Speaker 2>I think I take life very seriously. But I also,

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<v Speaker 2>like I struggle with a lot of like I guess,

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<v Speaker 2>mental health issues and stuff, because like, I really have

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<v Speaker 2>been through a lot of shit, and I think for

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<v Speaker 2>the amount of things that I've gone through, to be

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<v Speaker 2>in the position that I'm in right now is honestly crazy.

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<v Speaker 2>But I'm still not in a good position overall, you know,

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<v Speaker 2>like I should. I could be doing a lot better,

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<v Speaker 2>but I'm doing great from where I come from.

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, how's your family?

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<v Speaker 2>Uh, it's interesting, it's really it's really just me and

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<v Speaker 2>my mom right now. My brother lives in the same

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<v Speaker 2>in town too. But and then, like I met the

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<v Speaker 2>other side of my family, my dad's side of the family,

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<v Speaker 2>in twenty twenty, and then I got sent to go

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<v Speaker 2>live over there until my dad died and then I'm back,

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<v Speaker 2>and so now we don't really talk as much anymore.

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<v Speaker 2>So it's just really it's really just me and my mom.

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<v Speaker 3>Do you have a good relationship with your mom?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? Yeah, good, she's like she's my rock.

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<v Speaker 3>What what was her reaction when she saw you half

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<v Speaker 3>naked running around your neighbor's yard on acid.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't Well, she didn't see me because she's legally buying.

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<v Speaker 2>But she like, I've done a lot of stupid shits,

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<v Speaker 2>so she wasn't like, this is not this is not

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<v Speaker 2>the first time that the ambulance and ship came to mind.

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<v Speaker 2>This is like the fourth time some ship like this

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<v Speaker 2>has happened.

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<v Speaker 3>So you know, this is the fourth time that you've

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<v Speaker 3>been you've been picked up by an ambulance.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, my neighborhood. So I think my neighbors don't like

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<v Speaker 2>them very much.

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<v Speaker 3>What are your goals do you have you? What are

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<v Speaker 3>your goals for the future now that you're locked in, like.

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<v Speaker 2>Long term goals or short term goals?

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<v Speaker 3>Both?

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<v Speaker 2>So I U I OWE. I think twenty five hundred

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<v Speaker 2>to the door, which I think is there's no way

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<v Speaker 2>because it's like two thousand dollars in labor and I'm

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<v Speaker 2>also like seven hundred bucks in credit card debt, which

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<v Speaker 2>isn't a lot. So my goal is, like short term,

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<v Speaker 2>it's just to work both these jobs and get that

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<v Speaker 2>paid off, and then as soon as I do that,

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<v Speaker 2>try to get about like two thousand dollars savings to

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<v Speaker 2>have like some sort of emergency fund because if my

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<v Speaker 2>car breaks down and someone, I don't want to be

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<v Speaker 2>fucking walking again. And then really just like within this

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<v Speaker 2>next year, really focus on our mental health. So just

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<v Speaker 2>just trying to stay like I guess, mostly sober. Honestly,

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<v Speaker 2>that's that's probably a big thing holding you back. And

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<v Speaker 2>then in terms of like long term goals, I'm really

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<v Speaker 2>trying to decide about either if I'm going to go

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<v Speaker 2>to college or go apply for like a union apprenticeship

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<v Speaker 2>or something. So I guess a long term goal would

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<v Speaker 2>be like trying to figure out what I'm going to

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<v Speaker 2>start as a career.

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<v Speaker 3>Well, let me say this, and look, I know that

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<v Speaker 3>you're probably beating yourself up because this just happens with

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<v Speaker 3>the you know, three taps of acid, no that shit,

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<v Speaker 3>And I guess, like I'll say this, I think that

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<v Speaker 3>you're uh, at least the fact that we're able to

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<v Speaker 3>have this conversation right now, and you're able to tell

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<v Speaker 3>me these things and think of these thoughts and look

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<v Speaker 3>at your life in this way. Tells me that you're

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<v Speaker 3>like self aware enough to not like that that I'm

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<v Speaker 3>not sitting here going this guy is not gonna make

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<v Speaker 3>it and he's gonna We're gonna find him dead in

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<v Speaker 3>the Wendy's parking lot. I don't think that's gonna happen

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<v Speaker 3>to you. That might happen to me. I might be

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<v Speaker 3>dead in the Wendy's parking lot, but that would be

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<v Speaker 3>from eating too much Wendy, it's not from drinking. So

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<v Speaker 3>I think you're actually in a good spot here. Like, sure,

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<v Speaker 3>you've made a bunch of mistakes and you had to

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<v Speaker 3>kind of deal with the ups and the downs as

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<v Speaker 3>a result of whatever the fuck happened to you as

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<v Speaker 3>a result of whatever the fuck like happened to you

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<v Speaker 3>in your life up until this point. Yeah, but you

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<v Speaker 3>gotta really the fact that you've locked in is great.

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<v Speaker 3>So I mean, for whatever it's worth from this Gecko man,

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<v Speaker 3>I'm I'm optimistic for you listening to what you got

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<v Speaker 3>going on.

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<v Speaker 2>So you know that means that means. That means the

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<v Speaker 2>world to me. Bro Good, I don't even know.

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<v Speaker 1>Bro.

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<v Speaker 2>I listen to you every single day while I'm at work.

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<v Speaker 2>You're not just you, but the people who come on

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<v Speaker 2>here and talk about their experiences. Really Like, I'm in

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<v Speaker 2>a really depressed date. It really helps pull me out.

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<v Speaker 2>That's awesome what you're doing. It really helps people. Bro.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm trying my fucking best, bro Good, But I'm I'm

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<v Speaker 3>not worried about you, man, I don't. I don't have

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<v Speaker 3>any I don't have any words for you. I think

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<v Speaker 3>you're gonna be okay. And as far as like telling

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<v Speaker 3>your friends about it or whatnot, I mean.

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<v Speaker 2>Dude, I'm not I'm not telling I'm not telling them

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<v Speaker 2>until like probably like two years, you know, like what like,

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<v Speaker 2>and then I can look back and on it.

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<v Speaker 4>But while I'm.

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<v Speaker 2>Going through the situation, I don't want I don't.

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<v Speaker 3>I get it, man, I get it. I tell I.

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<v Speaker 3>I kind of tell my friends everything, and that's like

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<v Speaker 3>so sometimes I wonder if that's the best thing to do.

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<v Speaker 3>But at the end of the day, I don't know.

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<v Speaker 3>At the end of the day, with that kind of shit,

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<v Speaker 3>I almost I almost have this opinion of like, if

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<v Speaker 3>you're the kind of person like like me, where you

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<v Speaker 3>want to tell your friends fucking everything, I almost approach

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<v Speaker 3>it like, like, look, if you decide to take my

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<v Speaker 3>openness and use it against me by making fun of

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<v Speaker 3>me or or whatever else, like, that's a much stronger

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<v Speaker 3>reflection on you than it is on me. But whatever, man,

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<v Speaker 3>I you know, do you live your life well crazy?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? They're pretty cool, green dude.

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<v Speaker 3>I'm trying my best. Do you guys? Have you ever

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<v Speaker 3>had the Whopper chips?

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<v Speaker 2>The Whopper chips?

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<v Speaker 3>Yeah, dude, maybe this is in Glasgow, Scotland. I got

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<v Speaker 3>these Doritos that were flavored like Whoppers, and like, bro,

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<v Speaker 3>you eat one and they really do taste like a Whopper.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't know. I don't even know the last time

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<v Speaker 2>I fucking ate a Whopper. I don't I might work

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<v Speaker 2>at burger King, but I do not eat the food.

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<v Speaker 2>But that's because that's because my my burger King has

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<v Speaker 2>ran really poorly and my supervisors on Heroin.

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<v Speaker 3>So tell me no more information about how your burger

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<v Speaker 3>King is run, because I don't want it to be

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<v Speaker 3>ruined for me. This is why I think I have

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<v Speaker 3>as much stronger chance of dying in a Wendy's parking

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<v Speaker 3>lot than you do. I think you're gonna be fine.

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<v Speaker 3>Is there anything else us say to the people of

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<v Speaker 3>the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 2>Comparison is the thief for joy Man, it really is

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<v Speaker 2>your life. Your life might be a dream to somebody else's,

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<v Speaker 2>so no matter where you're at, just be glad you're breathing.

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<v Speaker 3>I could not possibly agree more with you, sir.

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<v Speaker 2>Thanks Man, Have a good night. Yep, you too.

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<v Speaker 3>you guys there all from Nick, Hello, how's it going on?

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<v Speaker 3>What's your name?

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<v Speaker 2>Nick?

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<v Speaker 3>How can I get you to led? Nick?

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<v Speaker 4>Ah Gecko? I don't even know where to begin. I

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<v Speaker 4>know I definitely got something I want to talk about.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm not exactly sure if I should marry my girlfriend

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<v Speaker 4>or if I should break up with her looking for advice?

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<v Speaker 3>Those are two very very different options here. Why, yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>I know, let's let's talk about it.

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<v Speaker 2>What uh?

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<v Speaker 3>What? What? What? What's what's the dichotomy here?

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<v Speaker 4>Well, she and I have been together since twenty nineteen,

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<v Speaker 4>so it's not like five years. You know, I'm in

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<v Speaker 4>my least thirties at this point, well not late I'm

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<v Speaker 4>mid thirties. It's not that time where you know, I

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<v Speaker 4>should be settling down, like getting married and all that junk.

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<v Speaker 4>And you know, we've been together for so long. It

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<v Speaker 4>just kind of like makes sense. It's not that I

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<v Speaker 4>don't love her, it's just it's complicated.

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<v Speaker 3>Why are you considering breaking out with her?

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<v Speaker 4>Well, there's a number of different reasons, but I think

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<v Speaker 4>the number one reason why is just because I'm afraid that.

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<v Speaker 4>So the deal is is that she is a chain smoker,

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<v Speaker 4>just like her parents are. Her parents her father smokes

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<v Speaker 4>well over two packs a day, and her mother has

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<v Speaker 4>said numerous bounts of cancer and heart attacks and strokes,

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<v Speaker 4>and we basically have to take care of both of them.

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<v Speaker 4>And I watched her smoke with them. I was a

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<v Speaker 4>nicotine user and I quit back in October, and I

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<v Speaker 4>just I'm just I don't know what to do because

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<v Speaker 4>the way I feel about it is like, I she

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<v Speaker 4>doesn't she doesn't want to be with me my whole life.

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<v Speaker 4>I want to be with her my whole life. But

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<v Speaker 4>if she doesn't want to be with me, like she

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<v Speaker 4>doesn't want to take care of herself, It's like what

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<v Speaker 4>am I doing here? You know, so.

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<v Speaker 3>You're you're equating her chain smoking to she doesn't want

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<v Speaker 3>to be with me her whole life.

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<v Speaker 4>Kind of, I know that's not like fair, you know,

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<v Speaker 4>it's it's not how she thinks about it. It's not

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<v Speaker 4>how any normal person would think about it.

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<v Speaker 3>The assessment. The assessment is I don't want to marry

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<v Speaker 3>this person if they don't care about their health and

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<v Speaker 3>don't plan to be around for a long time enough

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<v Speaker 3>to stop chain smoking. That's that's sort of the assessments. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 3>kind of, is there any other go ahead?

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<v Speaker 4>Sorry, you know there's like other reasons too, where like

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<v Speaker 4>it gives me like pause. We do have things in common,

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<v Speaker 4>but we argue a lot. You know, she has a

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<v Speaker 4>lot of problems with like an anxiety. You know, who

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<v Speaker 4>doesn't like I have, you know, like I got depression.

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<v Speaker 4>Everybody these days has got depression. It's part of life.

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<v Speaker 4>But she's got like crazy anxiety issues and the other

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<v Speaker 4>big elephant in the room that's really hard to talk

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<v Speaker 4>with her about. So her parents, you know, they're in

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<v Speaker 4>their sixties. They both look like they're one hundred. Her

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<v Speaker 4>mom looks like the crypt keeper, but she has an

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<v Speaker 4>older sister who has disabilities. And they both take care

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<v Speaker 4>of her, so any day now they're going to drop

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<v Speaker 4>dead and then it's going to be on us to

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<v Speaker 4>start taking care of her older sister. And the thing

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<v Speaker 4>about it is like, I wouldn't it wouldn't be a

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<v Speaker 4>big deal if she wasn't going down the same exact

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<v Speaker 4>path they are. You know, we argue about this, and

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<v Speaker 4>it's not like she's like smoking like two packs a

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<v Speaker 4>day like her old man is, but it's pretty close,

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<v Speaker 4>and I just I don't know what to do.

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<v Speaker 3>So I got a few questions, so, you know, I

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<v Speaker 3>mean when you you said you talk about this all

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<v Speaker 3>the time, and when you talk about it, what does

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<v Speaker 3>she say? And when you and when you when you

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<v Speaker 3>say to her like as you've laid out to me

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<v Speaker 3>just now, the your issues, when you lay them out

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<v Speaker 3>to her, what does she say in response? And how

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<v Speaker 3>does she help to resolve them?

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<v Speaker 4>You know, Usually it's like I know, or it's like

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<v Speaker 4>I get it, or how many times I heard her

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<v Speaker 4>say I planned to quit smoking and all that stuff.

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<v Speaker 4>And then other times, if I'm pestering her too much,

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<v Speaker 4>then she just gets angry with me. She says things like, well,

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<v Speaker 4>you telling me not to do it just makes me

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<v Speaker 4>want to smoke more like a child's And it's just

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<v Speaker 4>half of it is her agreeing with me and saying, yep,

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<v Speaker 4>I'm going to change, and then maybe it'd be a

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<v Speaker 4>couple of days where she, you know, changes, and then

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<v Speaker 4>sooner or later she was right back into old habits again.

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<v Speaker 4>And you know, I've tried giving her like patches, I've

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<v Speaker 4>tried giving her gum like that's how I quit, like

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<v Speaker 4>because you know, the truth of it is like I

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<v Speaker 4>chewed chewing tobacco for a number of years and I

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<v Speaker 4>was like sixteen, and and then we had one of

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<v Speaker 4>those he had one of those moments where you can't

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<v Speaker 4>unsee it, and I just quit pretty much, pretty much

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<v Speaker 4>cold turkey. It took me a couple of weeks, agom,

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<v Speaker 4>but I was done smoking after about two weeks after that.

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<v Speaker 3>So tell me this, Okay, we've ran through one side

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<v Speaker 3>of this. What's the other side. What's the side that

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<v Speaker 3>makes you feel like you want to get married to

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<v Speaker 3>this person?

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<v Speaker 2>You know.

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<v Speaker 4>It's I You know, I am have not had a

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<v Speaker 4>lot of luck with relationships in my life. You know,

0:26:47.320 --> 0:26:50.320
<v Speaker 4>I'm in my the thirties. I spent all of my

0:26:50.400 --> 0:26:54.520
<v Speaker 4>twenties single, you know, basically like living by myself. And

0:26:54.600 --> 0:26:57.840
<v Speaker 4>she and I met each other like online, and you know,

0:26:58.240 --> 0:27:00.720
<v Speaker 4>she like gets me, and it's just nice to like

0:27:01.400 --> 0:27:04.639
<v Speaker 4>have a life partner. You know, it's so hard to

0:27:04.720 --> 0:27:08.160
<v Speaker 4>live alone all the time. And it's not just like

0:27:08.320 --> 0:27:10.680
<v Speaker 4>you know, she's like my life like it's not that

0:27:10.720 --> 0:27:15.000
<v Speaker 4>like utilitarian, but and there is other things, like you know,

0:27:15.040 --> 0:27:17.959
<v Speaker 4>we we like like the same things. You know, we

0:27:18.000 --> 0:27:20.960
<v Speaker 4>both like anime and play video games. You know, we

0:27:21.080 --> 0:27:23.000
<v Speaker 4>like the same types of music, and we like to

0:27:23.040 --> 0:27:24.200
<v Speaker 4>go to concerts together.

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<v Speaker 2>You know.

0:27:25.160 --> 0:27:27.080
<v Speaker 4>It's just nice that like have somebody where it's like

0:27:27.119 --> 0:27:30.359
<v Speaker 4>we can both agree on, like she is like my

0:27:30.560 --> 0:27:32.960
<v Speaker 4>friend like and also my girlfriend type of thing.

0:27:35.720 --> 0:27:40.800
<v Speaker 3>So this, this problem, this topic is is something I've

0:27:40.840 --> 0:27:44.560
<v Speaker 3>I've thought a lot about and I don't I have

0:27:44.640 --> 0:27:51.119
<v Speaker 3>no conclusion because it's such a difficult topic. I have

0:27:51.200 --> 0:27:56.360
<v Speaker 3>ways that like I I uh, sort of lean and

0:27:56.680 --> 0:27:58.679
<v Speaker 3>things that I think about, Well, I don't have like

0:27:58.760 --> 0:28:02.080
<v Speaker 3>I'm I'm going to I'm disclaiming. I want to disclaim

0:28:02.119 --> 0:28:06.040
<v Speaker 3>something that is extremely important, which is that I do

0:28:06.119 --> 0:28:09.840
<v Speaker 3>not have opinions on this. I'm just I'm thinking it

0:28:10.080 --> 0:28:13.560
<v Speaker 3>through with you and These are the thoughts that I

0:28:13.600 --> 0:28:18.520
<v Speaker 3>think as I think through because it's such a thing

0:28:18.600 --> 0:28:21.160
<v Speaker 3>I go really back and forth on and so difficult

0:28:21.320 --> 0:28:28.159
<v Speaker 3>is this idea of Like, on one hand, my fucking

0:28:28.440 --> 0:28:34.560
<v Speaker 3>gut really tells me that if you're gonna get married

0:28:34.840 --> 0:28:40.240
<v Speaker 3>to somebody, that should be a fuck yes decision. You

0:28:40.240 --> 0:28:43.760
<v Speaker 3>should be getting married because you're like, I want to

0:28:44.120 --> 0:28:46.240
<v Speaker 3>fuck I love this person and I want to be

0:28:46.320 --> 0:28:47.920
<v Speaker 3>with them for the rest of my life. That should

0:28:47.960 --> 0:28:51.520
<v Speaker 3>that shouldn't be a thing that you're on the fence about.

0:28:51.560 --> 0:28:56.560
<v Speaker 3>That should be a fuck yes decision, right because it's

0:28:56.760 --> 0:28:58.520
<v Speaker 3>like it's like one of them. It's one of, if

0:28:58.560 --> 0:29:01.920
<v Speaker 3>not the most important decisions you're gonna make in your

0:29:02.120 --> 0:29:06.520
<v Speaker 3>entire life. It should be a one hundred percenter or

0:29:06.920 --> 0:29:12.760
<v Speaker 3>minimum like ninety five percenter fuck yes decision. So that's

0:29:12.800 --> 0:29:15.520
<v Speaker 3>what one part of my gut tells me. The other

0:29:15.600 --> 0:29:22.480
<v Speaker 3>part of my gut levels and goes, yeah, sure, that's great.

0:29:23.800 --> 0:29:28.800
<v Speaker 3>Yeah sure, and your perfect, beautiful, amazing version of the

0:29:28.920 --> 0:29:31.640
<v Speaker 3>universe where everything goes great and perfect and awesome one

0:29:31.720 --> 0:29:34.640
<v Speaker 3>hundred percent of the time, as we all know life

0:29:34.680 --> 0:29:38.440
<v Speaker 3>does not, that would be great. The other partlem I

0:29:38.480 --> 0:29:43.160
<v Speaker 3>got is like the other part of I got recognizes

0:29:43.440 --> 0:29:47.520
<v Speaker 3>how painful it is and how difficult it is to

0:29:47.600 --> 0:29:51.680
<v Speaker 3>be alone and to date, especially as you get older

0:29:51.720 --> 0:29:59.960
<v Speaker 3>and older, and fully understands why, like really really understand

0:30:00.000 --> 0:30:04.920
<v Speaker 3>and why you would say to yourself, you know what,

0:30:05.240 --> 0:30:09.760
<v Speaker 3>there's these problems, and they're not small problems, they're big problems.

0:30:12.120 --> 0:30:19.240
<v Speaker 3>But I can get past those problems because I like

0:30:19.320 --> 0:30:23.680
<v Speaker 3>this person enough, so let's do it. And I don't

0:30:23.720 --> 0:30:26.800
<v Speaker 3>want to be alone and I can't go back into

0:30:26.840 --> 0:30:29.200
<v Speaker 3>the dating pool. And it's not like I don't like

0:30:29.280 --> 0:30:32.240
<v Speaker 3>this person. It's not like this person is abusive to me.

0:30:32.360 --> 0:30:36.200
<v Speaker 3>It's not like this person, you know, it's not like

0:30:36.200 --> 0:30:39.640
<v Speaker 3>I actively hate this person. I like this person. She's

0:30:39.720 --> 0:30:42.440
<v Speaker 3>my friend. We get along, we have a lot in common.

0:30:42.720 --> 0:30:45.640
<v Speaker 3>We've been together for five years. She gets me. As

0:30:45.680 --> 0:30:49.120
<v Speaker 3>you said, Yes, we have these problems, but I can

0:30:49.400 --> 0:30:54.280
<v Speaker 3>get past it because I like her enough that I

0:30:54.320 --> 0:30:58.600
<v Speaker 3>think we can have a successful relationship together. And I

0:30:58.640 --> 0:31:01.560
<v Speaker 3>know what it's like to be alone into to struggle,

0:31:01.640 --> 0:31:04.080
<v Speaker 3>and I fucking dear God don't want to do that.

0:31:05.320 --> 0:31:07.160
<v Speaker 3>And so I understand what that part of my gut

0:31:07.520 --> 0:31:10.520
<v Speaker 3>tells me to say about this situation and those two

0:31:10.600 --> 0:31:14.800
<v Speaker 3>parts of my gut, the part that like levels and goes, yeah,

0:31:14.840 --> 0:31:16.480
<v Speaker 3>it's good enough and I don't want to be alone,

0:31:16.560 --> 0:31:18.720
<v Speaker 3>versus the part that goes, no, I'm not gonna quote

0:31:18.800 --> 0:31:21.800
<v Speaker 3>unquote settle and I'm gonna be fuck yes about this

0:31:22.280 --> 0:31:25.360
<v Speaker 3>and I'm gonna make sure I ain't even gonna be

0:31:26.280 --> 0:31:28.680
<v Speaker 3>struggle to find I'm gonna try to find somebody that

0:31:28.800 --> 0:31:31.120
<v Speaker 3>I can be you know, one hundred percent is excited about.

0:31:31.440 --> 0:31:33.560
<v Speaker 3>I don't know which parts of those gut. I don't

0:31:33.600 --> 0:31:36.560
<v Speaker 3>know which of those two sides is the right one.

0:31:37.080 --> 0:31:43.840
<v Speaker 3>I have no idea. I really don't, because again, the

0:31:43.880 --> 0:31:45.440
<v Speaker 3>part of me that's like, well, this should be one

0:31:45.520 --> 0:31:50.440
<v Speaker 3>hundred percent decision makes so much logical sense. But then

0:31:50.480 --> 0:31:57.840
<v Speaker 3>when you throw in the difficulty of navigating being being

0:31:57.840 --> 0:32:02.880
<v Speaker 3>alone and and and then the the side that goes, well,

0:32:02.920 --> 0:32:05.000
<v Speaker 3>we have this much in common and this and that

0:32:05.080 --> 0:32:13.640
<v Speaker 3>and the other thing, like, let's just make it work, buddy.

0:32:13.640 --> 0:32:15.800
<v Speaker 3>I don't know. I don't know.

0:32:16.120 --> 0:32:17.840
<v Speaker 4>You're not You're not You're not very much help to me,

0:32:17.880 --> 0:32:18.120
<v Speaker 4>are you.

0:32:18.680 --> 0:32:21.120
<v Speaker 3>I'm not. I'm no, I'm zero help to you at all.

0:32:21.520 --> 0:32:23.720
<v Speaker 3>I'm zero helped. You don't. I'm sure I've expressed the

0:32:23.720 --> 0:32:25.800
<v Speaker 3>two sides of your brain as well. Have I not?

0:32:27.160 --> 0:32:30.920
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, And it's like something I think about every day.

0:32:31.120 --> 0:32:33.280
<v Speaker 4>The thing that always gets me, know, to be honest,

0:32:33.400 --> 0:32:35.920
<v Speaker 4>is the thing I always think about more is I

0:32:35.960 --> 0:32:37.880
<v Speaker 4>think more about breaking up with her than I do

0:32:37.920 --> 0:32:41.160
<v Speaker 4>about marrying her, which is the killer to me sometimes.

0:32:41.520 --> 0:32:47.360
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, yeah, yeah again you way that you you have

0:32:47.480 --> 0:32:50.479
<v Speaker 3>you make that decision for yourself ultimately at the end

0:32:50.520 --> 0:32:54.160
<v Speaker 3>of the day. And if you're thinking more about breaking

0:32:54.160 --> 0:32:56.000
<v Speaker 3>out with someone than you are a boy getting together

0:32:56.040 --> 0:33:05.680
<v Speaker 3>with them, that's a it's definitely signify something. I mean,

0:33:05.680 --> 0:33:07.120
<v Speaker 3>how long have you been thinking about breaking up with

0:33:07.160 --> 0:33:07.600
<v Speaker 3>this person?

0:33:11.400 --> 0:33:17.600
<v Speaker 4>I don't know, maybe like two years at least. I

0:33:17.680 --> 0:33:20.280
<v Speaker 4>mean that's pretty much like because that's pretty much like

0:33:20.400 --> 0:33:22.560
<v Speaker 4>right when we get over our honeymoon phase, you know,

0:33:22.680 --> 0:33:26.120
<v Speaker 4>being together, and that's when her problems like really started

0:33:26.160 --> 0:33:32.000
<v Speaker 4>to present themselves. And it's just so tough, you know,

0:33:32.080 --> 0:33:37.040
<v Speaker 4>because it's like we I own a home, I'm very

0:33:37.040 --> 0:33:40.560
<v Speaker 4>grateful to own a home, not nowadays, and we like

0:33:40.640 --> 0:33:44.080
<v Speaker 4>live together, but at this point we're like practically married.

0:33:44.600 --> 0:33:47.400
<v Speaker 4>Like how could you even like divide our because she

0:33:47.480 --> 0:33:49.520
<v Speaker 4>and I have been like living together pretty much right

0:33:49.560 --> 0:33:52.040
<v Speaker 4>from the get go, like within a week of us

0:33:52.080 --> 0:33:55.120
<v Speaker 4>knowing each other. Even we were like living together essentially

0:33:55.400 --> 0:33:57.320
<v Speaker 4>because she was like living at home with her parents

0:33:57.320 --> 0:33:59.600
<v Speaker 4>at the time, and I was like, well, just come

0:33:59.640 --> 0:34:01.240
<v Speaker 4>live with me if you don't live with your parents,

0:34:01.240 --> 0:34:02.760
<v Speaker 4>and that's how it went.

0:34:03.320 --> 0:34:07.959
<v Speaker 5>So it's like, if I, how do you think she

0:34:08.000 --> 0:34:09.040
<v Speaker 5>feels about marrying you?

0:34:10.520 --> 0:34:13.680
<v Speaker 4>Oh, I know she wants to. I know she she

0:34:13.840 --> 0:34:17.759
<v Speaker 4>hints and talks about it. It's a little weird for her, thankfully,

0:34:17.920 --> 0:34:20.120
<v Speaker 4>Like not thankfully, but it's a little weird for her

0:34:20.160 --> 0:34:23.640
<v Speaker 4>because she was engaged at one point and then that

0:34:23.760 --> 0:34:27.840
<v Speaker 4>didn't happen. So she's a little bit gunshy about the

0:34:27.840 --> 0:34:28.279
<v Speaker 4>whole thing.

0:34:28.440 --> 0:34:31.200
<v Speaker 3>But I know that if I asked her, why did

0:34:31.239 --> 0:34:34.160
<v Speaker 3>you say thankful? Why did you say thankfully?

0:34:34.200 --> 0:34:37.799
<v Speaker 4>Because she's never really bugged me about this question, you know,

0:34:38.440 --> 0:34:41.560
<v Speaker 4>she has, of course, she's like broached the subject. But

0:34:41.640 --> 0:34:45.320
<v Speaker 4>if I say, like, it's not she's like, okay. But

0:34:45.360 --> 0:34:46.799
<v Speaker 4>then we just move on with our lives. You know.

0:34:46.800 --> 0:34:49.280
<v Speaker 4>We're both so busy all the time, you know, between

0:34:49.280 --> 0:34:52.160
<v Speaker 4>like work and like dealing with her family and stuff, like,

0:34:52.520 --> 0:34:55.120
<v Speaker 4>we at a lot of time to think about it. If

0:34:55.320 --> 0:34:57.319
<v Speaker 4>I worry that if I did ask her to marry me,

0:34:57.960 --> 0:34:59.719
<v Speaker 4>I would just be putting more stress on her plate

0:34:59.800 --> 0:35:02.759
<v Speaker 4>because she doesn't deal with stress pretty well. And so

0:35:02.840 --> 0:35:06.120
<v Speaker 4>it's like, can I And it's funny, like I have

0:35:06.239 --> 0:35:11.280
<v Speaker 4>a built in excuse. When we first got together, I

0:35:11.320 --> 0:35:14.120
<v Speaker 4>made a joke about Harry Potter and she had never

0:35:14.120 --> 0:35:16.480
<v Speaker 4>read Harry Potter, and I told her, which was the

0:35:16.480 --> 0:35:19.040
<v Speaker 4>truth of the time. I told her. I promised myself

0:35:19.080 --> 0:35:21.760
<v Speaker 4>I would never marry anybody that hasn't read Harry Potter.

0:35:23.760 --> 0:35:27.480
<v Speaker 3>Bro Bro, Bro, Look, do whatever you're gonna do, and

0:35:27.560 --> 0:35:31.120
<v Speaker 3>I can't. I said everything I said. If you decide

0:35:31.160 --> 0:35:33.160
<v Speaker 3>you're gonna break up with this girl, don't fucking blame

0:35:33.160 --> 0:35:34.000
<v Speaker 3>it on Harry Potter.

0:35:34.880 --> 0:35:37.040
<v Speaker 4>I'm I'm not I'm not. I'm not saying I'm just

0:35:37.040 --> 0:35:42.120
<v Speaker 4>saying that whenever this kind of comes up, it's like, well,

0:35:42.239 --> 0:35:44.440
<v Speaker 4>you haven't you haven't been reading, have you.

0:35:45.840 --> 0:35:48.680
<v Speaker 3>I'll blame it on Harry Potter. Bro don't blame.

0:35:49.120 --> 0:35:49.480
<v Speaker 4>I'm not.

0:35:51.040 --> 0:35:51.279
<v Speaker 2>Weird.

0:35:51.840 --> 0:35:59.200
<v Speaker 3>Truly, truly, truly, truly, this is It's really something I

0:35:59.200 --> 0:36:01.280
<v Speaker 3>think about a lot, is like what what what should

0:36:01.320 --> 0:36:02.839
<v Speaker 3>we do? Should we.

0:36:04.840 --> 0:36:09.319
<v Speaker 6>Find what should we do? Should we pick somebody and

0:36:09.680 --> 0:36:16.680
<v Speaker 6>fucking make it work or should we, you know, keep

0:36:16.800 --> 0:36:22.760
<v Speaker 6>keep playing the lottery and playing the field until.

0:36:23.280 --> 0:36:26.680
<v Speaker 3>We find something that naturally works. And I don't know,

0:36:28.000 --> 0:36:36.200
<v Speaker 3>I don't know. Logically, my brain is telling me, if

0:36:36.239 --> 0:36:41.800
<v Speaker 3>you're thinking about breaking up with someone constantly over two years,

0:36:43.000 --> 0:36:43.720
<v Speaker 3>that's friendly.

0:36:45.160 --> 0:36:49.600
<v Speaker 5>That's say, you know, that's something that's not nothing. That's

0:36:49.640 --> 0:36:53.120
<v Speaker 5>not something to to ignore. That's not something to ignore.

0:36:53.280 --> 0:36:56.560
<v Speaker 5>That's not something to ignore. But again, it's a tough situation.

0:36:56.719 --> 0:37:01.359
<v Speaker 3>And and and what you know, this is, this is

0:37:01.480 --> 0:37:03.440
<v Speaker 3>all all I can really do is sit here with

0:37:03.480 --> 0:37:05.279
<v Speaker 3>you and think this through as I as I as

0:37:05.280 --> 0:37:11.000
<v Speaker 3>I have before. But don't blame Harry. But don't blame

0:37:11.040 --> 0:37:11.640
<v Speaker 3>Harry Potter.

0:37:12.440 --> 0:37:17.560
<v Speaker 4>I'm not. I'm just saying like it's it's it's in

0:37:17.640 --> 0:37:19.479
<v Speaker 4>my back pocket as a reason why we haven't gotten

0:37:19.480 --> 0:37:20.359
<v Speaker 4>married yet. That's all.

0:37:21.600 --> 0:37:22.400
<v Speaker 3>What's your name again?

0:37:23.440 --> 0:37:24.799
<v Speaker 2>Nick? Well?

0:37:24.880 --> 0:37:26.160
<v Speaker 3>Nick? Is there anything else you want to say to

0:37:26.160 --> 0:37:27.360
<v Speaker 3>the people of the computer before we go?

0:37:29.040 --> 0:37:30.320
<v Speaker 2>Uh?

0:37:30.480 --> 0:37:32.680
<v Speaker 4>It would be cool to each other, I guess.

0:37:32.719 --> 0:37:38.000
<v Speaker 3>Oh, good luck, sir, Thank you, sir, have a good one.

0:37:40.120 --> 0:37:43.239
<v Speaker 3>That would be kind of funny if he decided he

0:37:43.320 --> 0:37:44.719
<v Speaker 3>was going to break up with her and then like

0:37:44.800 --> 0:37:48.359
<v Speaker 3>the day he was gonna have the conversation, she was like,

0:37:48.400 --> 0:37:51.640
<v Speaker 3>you know, I finally got around to reading Harry Potter

0:37:51.800 --> 0:37:54.120
<v Speaker 3>and I'm a big fan, and I got us tickets

0:37:54.360 --> 0:37:59.239
<v Speaker 3>to the Wizarding World in Universal Florida. Then he'd be fucked.

0:37:59.280 --> 0:38:01.040
<v Speaker 3>Then he'd have to heat definitely have to marry her.

0:38:03.120 --> 0:38:03.480
<v Speaker 1>Corey.

0:38:04.640 --> 0:38:06.200
<v Speaker 7>Hello, Hey is a flyle?

0:38:07.160 --> 0:38:08.239
<v Speaker 3>Yes? How are you doing?

0:38:08.320 --> 0:38:08.520
<v Speaker 1>Sir?

0:38:08.560 --> 0:38:09.200
<v Speaker 3>What is your name?

0:38:11.320 --> 0:38:13.719
<v Speaker 1>I am Corey? How are you?

0:38:14.920 --> 0:38:17.359
<v Speaker 3>I'm hanging in there. I'm trying my best. What's going

0:38:17.360 --> 0:38:20.839
<v Speaker 3>on with you? Corey? How can I get you today? Oh?

0:38:21.000 --> 0:38:24.440
<v Speaker 7>This is a this is actually kind of an interesting one.

0:38:24.760 --> 0:38:30.560
<v Speaker 7>So I I have my dream job, but it doesn't

0:38:30.719 --> 0:38:40.120
<v Speaker 7>pay nearly enough, like at all. So have you ever

0:38:40.120 --> 0:38:40.960
<v Speaker 7>heard of Kindama?

0:38:42.760 --> 0:38:45.319
<v Speaker 3>The fucking the thing with the ball in the cup? Right?

0:38:46.480 --> 0:38:50.040
<v Speaker 1>Yeah? So I actually make a living? Well yeah?

0:38:51.880 --> 0:38:54.200
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, Oh dude, that's so sick that you know what

0:38:54.239 --> 0:38:54.560
<v Speaker 2>it is.

0:38:56.520 --> 0:39:00.279
<v Speaker 7>So yeah, I'm like one of six people and in

0:39:00.400 --> 0:39:04.600
<v Speaker 7>like North America who do this for like a living.

0:39:07.280 --> 0:39:11.200
<v Speaker 7>And like right now, I'm like it's kind of like

0:39:11.880 --> 0:39:14.560
<v Speaker 7>a weird time in my life where it's like I

0:39:14.600 --> 0:39:17.359
<v Speaker 7>really believe in Kandama and like it's growth and shit

0:39:17.480 --> 0:39:20.000
<v Speaker 7>right like in the down the line, you know what

0:39:20.000 --> 0:39:24.399
<v Speaker 7>I mean, But like as of right now, like there's

0:39:24.480 --> 0:39:26.960
<v Speaker 7>no like there's money in it enough for me to

0:39:27.160 --> 0:39:29.600
<v Speaker 7>like have a job, and like I'm thankful for that.

0:39:30.680 --> 0:39:33.520
<v Speaker 7>I'm beyond blessed. Like there's so many people who would

0:39:33.560 --> 0:39:39.399
<v Speaker 7>like die to have my job, and I just I'm

0:39:39.440 --> 0:39:41.200
<v Speaker 7>in a weird place where it's like I know I

0:39:41.239 --> 0:39:44.920
<v Speaker 7>need to like move on, I guess, or not move on,

0:39:45.200 --> 0:39:46.800
<v Speaker 7>but like I just don't know what to do because

0:39:46.920 --> 0:39:51.160
<v Speaker 7>like I need to make money, but also like man,

0:39:51.200 --> 0:39:52.160
<v Speaker 7>I just fucking love what I.

0:39:52.120 --> 0:39:57.360
<v Speaker 3>Do, So I guess. For the uninitiated, the condoma is

0:39:57.480 --> 0:39:59.719
<v Speaker 3>kind of like a it's like a ball in a cup.

0:39:59.760 --> 0:40:05.600
<v Speaker 3>It's like this ball that you like attached via string

0:40:06.360 --> 0:40:08.839
<v Speaker 3>to a stick with a bunch of little cups on it,

0:40:09.120 --> 0:40:11.120
<v Speaker 3>and you gotta throw the ball up and get it

0:40:11.160 --> 0:40:11.759
<v Speaker 3>into the cup.

0:40:12.440 --> 0:40:15.759
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, I guess, But anyone who's listening, it's K E

0:40:16.120 --> 0:40:17.880
<v Speaker 7>N D A M A.

0:40:19.120 --> 0:40:21.239
<v Speaker 3>So this is not is this your business or is

0:40:21.280 --> 0:40:21.880
<v Speaker 3>this a job?

0:40:22.640 --> 0:40:26.200
<v Speaker 7>So okay, So I've been playing since I was like fourteen,

0:40:27.280 --> 0:40:30.680
<v Speaker 7>and when I first started, it was a very very

0:40:30.719 --> 0:40:36.640
<v Speaker 7>small community, like just my town knew about it, and

0:40:36.680 --> 0:40:38.640
<v Speaker 7>it's like one of those things. I guess it's like

0:40:39.000 --> 0:40:41.120
<v Speaker 7>whenever it does get to like where you're at. Like

0:40:41.880 --> 0:40:44.279
<v Speaker 7>how I found out about it was like everyone at

0:40:44.280 --> 0:40:45.719
<v Speaker 7>my school had one. It was kind of like a

0:40:45.760 --> 0:40:51.839
<v Speaker 7>bad like silly bands, I guess at that time, which

0:40:51.880 --> 0:40:54.600
<v Speaker 7>I guess for people who are younger probably don't even

0:40:54.640 --> 0:41:00.080
<v Speaker 7>know what that is. But but yeah, so like I

0:41:00.400 --> 0:41:02.880
<v Speaker 7>found out about it around fourteen years ago, and like

0:41:04.640 --> 0:41:06.680
<v Speaker 7>I guess in the in the time to now, like

0:41:07.960 --> 0:41:10.440
<v Speaker 7>I I've just been playing ever since then, and so

0:41:10.560 --> 0:41:13.080
<v Speaker 7>like the company I work for is actually the first

0:41:13.280 --> 0:41:17.719
<v Speaker 7>company I ever bought a kandama from when I was

0:41:17.719 --> 0:41:24.920
<v Speaker 7>like fourteen, and so like obviously like when I first started,

0:41:25.080 --> 0:41:27.200
<v Speaker 7>this was none of this was ever like a reality.

0:41:28.480 --> 0:41:33.600
<v Speaker 7>Like I've kind of seen everything like get bigger and bigger,

0:41:34.640 --> 0:41:36.200
<v Speaker 7>and I'm just like stuck in a place now where

0:41:36.239 --> 0:41:40.040
<v Speaker 7>it's like, man, I fucking love what I do, but

0:41:40.320 --> 0:41:44.600
<v Speaker 7>like it's it's like I could make more. Just to

0:41:44.600 --> 0:41:47.320
<v Speaker 7>put in perspective, I guess I can make more money

0:41:47.320 --> 0:41:50.239
<v Speaker 7>working at Walmart than what I do, even though it's

0:41:50.239 --> 0:41:51.080
<v Speaker 7>so specialized.

0:41:52.400 --> 0:41:54.359
<v Speaker 3>So what do you exactly do do you make?

0:41:54.400 --> 0:41:54.600
<v Speaker 1>You know?

0:41:54.719 --> 0:41:57.279
<v Speaker 3>You see that you're not seen from toy story two,

0:41:57.320 --> 0:42:00.319
<v Speaker 3>where like that fucking guy with the glasses is like

0:42:00.400 --> 0:42:04.600
<v Speaker 3>recreating Woody and ship? Do you like do that withs

0:42:04.600 --> 0:42:05.640
<v Speaker 3>Like you're sitting there.

0:42:05.480 --> 0:42:07.760
<v Speaker 1>And like very much.

0:42:10.719 --> 0:42:13.759
<v Speaker 7>It's very much to like that. So I can't give

0:42:13.800 --> 0:42:16.040
<v Speaker 7>out like too much details on like what we do,

0:42:16.120 --> 0:42:19.960
<v Speaker 7>but like I can tell you that make.

0:42:19.880 --> 0:42:22.480
<v Speaker 3>You can't give away the secret recipe for your.

0:42:25.000 --> 0:42:25.600
<v Speaker 7>Because like.

0:42:27.080 --> 0:42:31.239
<v Speaker 3>Just just are you? Are you genuinely you're protecting a

0:42:31.560 --> 0:42:35.640
<v Speaker 3>like Condoma crafting secret? Is that why you can't?

0:42:37.640 --> 0:42:39.680
<v Speaker 7>Legitimately? I have an nd A?

0:42:40.840 --> 0:42:43.880
<v Speaker 3>That's very funny? Uh well, can you talk about the

0:42:43.920 --> 0:42:46.000
<v Speaker 3>company you work for? What company is it?

0:42:46.360 --> 0:42:49.120
<v Speaker 7>Yeah? I work for Condoma us.

0:42:48.800 --> 0:42:52.640
<v Speaker 3>A Condoma U s A. Then they're one of six.

0:42:54.000 --> 0:42:56.440
<v Speaker 7>There so no, like so when I said that, I

0:42:56.560 --> 0:43:02.360
<v Speaker 7>legitimately mean like six people. But so I'm actually not

0:43:02.400 --> 0:43:04.840
<v Speaker 7>the owner of my company obviously I said that, but

0:43:05.880 --> 0:43:07.960
<v Speaker 7>it's literally like four of us at the company.

0:43:08.440 --> 0:43:08.920
<v Speaker 1>Like that's it?

0:43:11.040 --> 0:43:13.720
<v Speaker 3>Would you ever? Would you ever go into business for yourself?

0:43:15.840 --> 0:43:16.120
<v Speaker 6>See?

0:43:16.280 --> 0:43:19.560
<v Speaker 7>Like that's the thing is like before I start doing this,

0:43:19.640 --> 0:43:23.080
<v Speaker 7>I knew nothing about what I do, and like my

0:43:23.239 --> 0:43:27.000
<v Speaker 7>boss has been such a fucking goat and like in

0:43:27.480 --> 0:43:30.000
<v Speaker 7>order for me to like do it on my own,

0:43:30.040 --> 0:43:32.360
<v Speaker 7>I would have to have like hundreds of thousands of

0:43:32.360 --> 0:43:34.600
<v Speaker 7>dollars just like start up, you know what I mean,

0:43:35.680 --> 0:43:40.480
<v Speaker 7>and like economically just I and also morally, I couldn't

0:43:40.880 --> 0:43:44.520
<v Speaker 7>like just pick up and be like all right, bro,

0:43:44.840 --> 0:43:48.480
<v Speaker 7>like thanks for like giving me the knowledge. I'm just

0:43:48.480 --> 0:43:50.600
<v Speaker 7>gonna go like start a company and like.

0:43:51.200 --> 0:43:55.279
<v Speaker 3>Well, okay, you have you do? Is the company successful?

0:43:57.080 --> 0:44:00.880
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, I'd say, like right now, we have like like

0:44:00.920 --> 0:44:05.239
<v Speaker 7>one or two other main competitors. But as far as

0:44:05.280 --> 0:44:10.399
<v Speaker 7>like the the USA made product, that's us, Like there's

0:44:10.440 --> 0:44:12.600
<v Speaker 7>not really like there's other people in the US who

0:44:12.680 --> 0:44:16.160
<v Speaker 7>do it, like I said, but they're like accord.

0:44:16.960 --> 0:44:19.200
<v Speaker 3>How many condomas are we selling a day?

0:44:19.239 --> 0:44:23.240
<v Speaker 1>You think, ooh, that's a good question.

0:44:25.680 --> 0:44:29.560
<v Speaker 7>I couldn't tell you that because I'm not I'm not

0:44:29.680 --> 0:44:32.000
<v Speaker 7>at that warehouse, like we have two locations, so I

0:44:32.040 --> 0:44:34.799
<v Speaker 7>don't really see that. But I can tell you how

0:44:34.840 --> 0:44:42.400
<v Speaker 7>much I make. So I usually like usually we do

0:44:42.640 --> 0:44:46.279
<v Speaker 7>orders of like one hundred of each wood type, and

0:44:46.360 --> 0:44:53.560
<v Speaker 7>we do like birch, maple, ash and then hickory sometimes,

0:44:54.239 --> 0:44:57.880
<v Speaker 7>so like every every wood type, we usually do around

0:44:57.920 --> 0:45:00.960
<v Speaker 7>eighty to one hundred and and right now we're working

0:45:01.000 --> 0:45:06.080
<v Speaker 7>in order that's like around six hundred pieces, and that

0:45:06.080 --> 0:45:07.799
<v Speaker 7>that's taking us like two months.

0:45:08.120 --> 0:45:09.880
<v Speaker 3>Oh, I thought you wanted to talk. I thought you're

0:45:09.880 --> 0:45:11.800
<v Speaker 3>gonna say how much money you made?

0:45:12.200 --> 0:45:14.480
<v Speaker 7>Oh no, no, no, no, no, no that.

0:45:16.760 --> 0:45:18.239
<v Speaker 3>I thought you were gonna be. I thought you're gonna

0:45:18.239 --> 0:45:23.080
<v Speaker 3>be like I make candamas and my wife sells wooden birdhouses,

0:45:23.120 --> 0:45:25.680
<v Speaker 3>and our budget for five million.

0:45:27.320 --> 0:45:27.360
<v Speaker 5>No.

0:45:27.600 --> 0:45:28.040
<v Speaker 1>So like.

0:45:30.800 --> 0:45:35.640
<v Speaker 3>Sorry, okay, So, so why why did you ask for

0:45:35.680 --> 0:45:36.160
<v Speaker 3>a raise?

0:45:38.480 --> 0:45:41.840
<v Speaker 7>I mean, I guess I should ask for a raise.

0:45:42.600 --> 0:45:44.560
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, what is what is it solid about? You're the

0:45:44.600 --> 0:45:46.600
<v Speaker 3>only I don't understand. So you don't want to go

0:45:46.640 --> 0:45:49.080
<v Speaker 3>do your own thing, You don't ask for a raise,

0:45:49.160 --> 0:45:50.319
<v Speaker 3>you don't want to get a different job.

0:45:50.600 --> 0:45:52.960
<v Speaker 7>Well, it's just more so like we're in a wall

0:45:53.080 --> 0:45:56.560
<v Speaker 7>right now with our Yeah.

0:45:56.760 --> 0:45:58.520
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, when when's kandama season?

0:46:01.280 --> 0:46:08.080
<v Speaker 7>When it's not city economic times, I guess.

0:46:06.080 --> 0:46:09.040
<v Speaker 3>I guess people are. I guess Kandama is a very

0:46:09.239 --> 0:46:11.560
<v Speaker 3>disposable income parts.

0:46:13.200 --> 0:46:15.120
<v Speaker 1>Believe it or not, it is it is.

0:46:15.920 --> 0:46:19.560
<v Speaker 3>Well, I believe it, bro, Why don't you fucking Okay,

0:46:19.640 --> 0:46:23.480
<v Speaker 3>but listen, if you're the only I assume if you're

0:46:23.480 --> 0:46:28.319
<v Speaker 3>the only company that makes condamas. They're popular enough that

0:46:28.600 --> 0:46:32.160
<v Speaker 3>like people kind of I guess fucking know what they are.

0:46:32.719 --> 0:46:34.800
<v Speaker 3>So why don't you ask for a raise?

0:46:36.440 --> 0:46:38.080
<v Speaker 1>I think you're right enough that.

0:46:38.080 --> 0:46:41.799
<v Speaker 3>You can make more than working at fucking Walmart. You're

0:46:41.840 --> 0:46:43.200
<v Speaker 3>not even that much. I mean, where do you What

0:46:43.560 --> 0:46:44.239
<v Speaker 3>state do you live in?

0:46:45.160 --> 0:46:46.000
<v Speaker 1>I live in Georgia?

0:46:46.960 --> 0:46:50.279
<v Speaker 3>Okay, how much does it cost to live in Georgia? Like, fucking.

0:46:53.200 --> 0:46:54.640
<v Speaker 1>I wish that'd be nice.

0:46:57.120 --> 0:46:59.120
<v Speaker 7>I mean, like, right now, I'm leaving with my parents.

0:46:59.200 --> 0:47:02.799
<v Speaker 7>I'm like twenty seven them, so like I'm just you know,

0:47:03.000 --> 0:47:05.560
<v Speaker 7>I'm saving, I'm doing what I can, but I just.

0:47:05.640 --> 0:47:11.080
<v Speaker 3>Know that it's just your full time job legitimately. Yeah,

0:47:11.480 --> 0:47:13.759
<v Speaker 3>and it doesn't pay you enough to at least like

0:47:13.920 --> 0:47:16.960
<v Speaker 3>live in a place that's not with your parents.

0:47:18.760 --> 0:47:19.600
<v Speaker 1>Not at the moment.

0:47:20.160 --> 0:47:21.320
<v Speaker 3>You should have for a raise.

0:47:22.480 --> 0:47:25.000
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I think you're right. I should ask for a raise.

0:47:26.600 --> 0:47:28.000
<v Speaker 3>Just at least enough for you to like get your

0:47:28.000 --> 0:47:32.760
<v Speaker 3>own place, yeah, or get a place with random dudes

0:47:32.800 --> 0:47:33.560
<v Speaker 3>on greg List.

0:47:35.440 --> 0:47:39.799
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, I think you're right. I gotta just ask

0:47:39.800 --> 0:47:40.319
<v Speaker 1>for that raise.

0:47:42.680 --> 0:47:46.359
<v Speaker 7>And if he doesn't say yes, then then I can

0:47:46.520 --> 0:47:49.600
<v Speaker 7>go into panic mode, I guess. And then then figure

0:47:49.600 --> 0:47:49.919
<v Speaker 7>it out.

0:47:50.320 --> 0:47:52.040
<v Speaker 3>What if he says, I'll give you a raise, but

0:47:52.080 --> 0:47:54.359
<v Speaker 3>you have to get the ball in the cup three

0:47:54.400 --> 0:47:55.200
<v Speaker 3>times in a row.

0:47:57.280 --> 0:47:59.360
<v Speaker 1>That'd be easy. That'd be easy.

0:47:59.760 --> 0:48:01.240
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, you are you good? Are you nice?

0:48:03.280 --> 0:48:05.520
<v Speaker 7>I was sponsored at one point, I uh.

0:48:05.840 --> 0:48:11.920
<v Speaker 3>Sponsored by who? There's only one company that makes it.

0:48:12.000 --> 0:48:17.120
<v Speaker 7>Okay, so so well American man, So like there there's

0:48:17.160 --> 0:48:19.680
<v Speaker 7>a lot of It's actually gotten really big in the

0:48:19.719 --> 0:48:24.439
<v Speaker 7>States right now. Actually, my friend just landed Japan. They're

0:48:24.480 --> 0:48:29.600
<v Speaker 7>doing the Kondoma World Cup right now, so he is

0:48:29.960 --> 0:48:33.399
<v Speaker 7>in that. For those who don't know, Kandama is its

0:48:33.440 --> 0:48:38.200
<v Speaker 7>birthplace is Japan. It's a Japanese skill toy. But yeah,

0:48:38.200 --> 0:48:40.680
<v Speaker 7>it's like super big over there because like in school

0:48:40.800 --> 0:48:44.440
<v Speaker 7>they teach them like from from like a very young age,

0:48:44.440 --> 0:48:47.920
<v Speaker 7>like it's incorporated into their like school programs and stuff,

0:48:47.960 --> 0:48:50.959
<v Speaker 7>and that's pretty crazy.

0:48:51.160 --> 0:48:53.400
<v Speaker 3>They teach kandomics. But why don't you move to Japan

0:48:53.480 --> 0:48:55.359
<v Speaker 3>and be a kandoma guy over there? That sounds like

0:48:56.040 --> 0:48:58.239
<v Speaker 3>sounds like that sounds like that's your dream you want

0:48:58.280 --> 0:49:01.200
<v Speaker 3>to be with You're like it's like it's like when

0:49:01.239 --> 0:49:03.759
<v Speaker 3>it's like when when like I don't know if you

0:49:03.760 --> 0:49:05.640
<v Speaker 3>ever had this moment when you were in high school

0:49:06.280 --> 0:49:09.680
<v Speaker 3>and you read some article on the internet that was like,

0:49:10.000 --> 0:49:13.480
<v Speaker 3>did you know that in Korea professional gamers are are

0:49:13.520 --> 0:49:18.000
<v Speaker 3>treated with as much respect as uh fucking football players

0:49:18.000 --> 0:49:18.840
<v Speaker 3>are in the US.

0:49:19.200 --> 0:49:23.600
<v Speaker 7>Remember reading shit like that, Oh, that'd be that'd be nice.

0:49:24.080 --> 0:49:27.920
<v Speaker 3>That's like you with kandamas, you know, I bet the

0:49:27.920 --> 0:49:30.879
<v Speaker 3>there's there's a bigger industry there.

0:49:31.640 --> 0:49:31.839
<v Speaker 1>Yeah.

0:49:31.960 --> 0:49:37.320
<v Speaker 7>Low Kiev is literally a street called Kandama Street, and uh,

0:49:37.520 --> 0:49:40.959
<v Speaker 7>they're like legitimately, I think tomorrow night or the night after.

0:49:41.040 --> 0:49:43.080
<v Speaker 7>I don't know when they do it, but they do.

0:49:43.200 --> 0:49:47.520
<v Speaker 7>Like this giant ass party. I just get all crazy

0:49:47.560 --> 0:49:51.279
<v Speaker 7>and just drink a shit ton and it's a good

0:49:51.280 --> 0:49:53.000
<v Speaker 7>time from one of here. I haven't been yet. I

0:49:53.040 --> 0:49:54.839
<v Speaker 7>really want to go. I'm hoping next year.

0:49:55.239 --> 0:49:57.960
<v Speaker 3>What's the most expensive kndama that your company sells.

0:49:59.040 --> 0:50:02.200
<v Speaker 7>Oh, it's definitely one of the ones that we make.

0:50:02.360 --> 0:50:05.799
<v Speaker 7>There's one on our website that's like I think it's

0:50:05.840 --> 0:50:07.360
<v Speaker 7>just over one hundred. I think we just did a

0:50:07.400 --> 0:50:12.480
<v Speaker 7>price drop on it. But like, so for those who

0:50:12.520 --> 0:50:17.520
<v Speaker 7>don't know, like the praise, it's depending on the wood type,

0:50:17.840 --> 0:50:20.640
<v Speaker 7>and then also like it's got a really good pain

0:50:20.719 --> 0:50:23.359
<v Speaker 7>on the ball, so like for those who don't know,

0:50:23.680 --> 0:50:26.920
<v Speaker 7>like there's balance tricks you can do, and so like

0:50:27.040 --> 0:50:30.279
<v Speaker 7>having a paint that's like grippier and like kind of

0:50:30.760 --> 0:50:34.359
<v Speaker 7>sticks better to the ken, which is what the part

0:50:34.400 --> 0:50:37.719
<v Speaker 7>you catch it with is you kind of want it

0:50:37.760 --> 0:50:42.400
<v Speaker 7>to be like not super glossy paint wise, so that

0:50:42.440 --> 0:50:44.280
<v Speaker 7>way it doesn't like slip out of your hands.

0:50:44.920 --> 0:50:47.680
<v Speaker 3>Bro, you need to raise nobody else. Nobody else knows

0:50:47.719 --> 0:50:49.879
<v Speaker 3>as much about Condomas as well as you just said.

0:50:51.680 --> 0:50:56.360
<v Speaker 3>Only your boss is not going to be able to

0:50:56.360 --> 0:51:03.400
<v Speaker 3>replace you. It's your name again, Corey, Corey. Is there

0:51:03.400 --> 0:51:04.520
<v Speaker 3>anything else you want to say to the people of

0:51:04.560 --> 0:51:05.440
<v Speaker 3>the computer before we go.

0:51:07.480 --> 0:51:10.800
<v Speaker 7>I make music. You should listen to me. H my

0:51:10.800 --> 0:51:12.440
<v Speaker 7>my artist name is little.

0:51:12.200 --> 0:51:17.279
<v Speaker 3>Snipes, Little Snipes, Little Snipes, just like you do you

0:51:17.320 --> 0:51:18.759
<v Speaker 3>have a music do you have any you have a

0:51:18.840 --> 0:51:21.319
<v Speaker 3>music video where you're like fucking condoming it up?

0:51:23.640 --> 0:51:26.600
<v Speaker 7>I do. It's from years ago, though it's not it's

0:51:26.640 --> 0:51:28.680
<v Speaker 7>it's literally I don't want anyone to see it.

0:51:30.520 --> 0:51:34.120
<v Speaker 3>All right, take care of all right, appreciate what you did.

0:51:34.120 --> 0:51:35.880
<v Speaker 3>You want to plug your I forgot if you plugged

0:51:35.920 --> 0:51:36.480
<v Speaker 3>your thing or not?

0:51:37.440 --> 0:51:41.000
<v Speaker 7>Oh uh yeah, so Condoma USA if you guys.

0:51:40.760 --> 0:51:43.960
<v Speaker 3>Are no, don't plug them. They whatever, all right, plug them,

0:51:44.000 --> 0:51:48.040
<v Speaker 3>but just just here's the thing. Okay, hold on, if

0:51:48.040 --> 0:51:50.480
<v Speaker 3>you if you go to Kandama, USA, just use the

0:51:50.520 --> 0:51:53.000
<v Speaker 3>code Cory so that he gets a commission.

0:51:54.680 --> 0:51:56.920
<v Speaker 7>Mess my boss and tell them to do that, because

0:51:56.920 --> 0:51:58.040
<v Speaker 7>there's not a code for that.

0:52:00.560 --> 0:52:02.919
<v Speaker 3>Uh no, your bands. I thought you were gonna plug

0:52:02.920 --> 0:52:03.320
<v Speaker 3>your bands.

0:52:03.560 --> 0:52:07.520
<v Speaker 7>Oh oh my music, just little snipes. I just I

0:52:07.840 --> 0:52:11.160
<v Speaker 7>do produce. I produce produce myself and you know I'm

0:52:11.160 --> 0:52:14.759
<v Speaker 7>a vocalist. So if you if you like that kind

0:52:14.800 --> 0:52:16.640
<v Speaker 7>of thing. If not, then like.

0:52:16.760 --> 0:52:18.120
<v Speaker 1>That's cool to see a chord.

0:52:18.280 --> 0:52:20.480
<v Speaker 7>Appreciate it, man, have a good one.

0:52:20.880 --> 0:52:22.759
<v Speaker 6>Goes on the line, making.

0:52:22.840 --> 0:52:27.000
<v Speaker 2>One calls every night, every can goes to exact teaching.

0:52:30.520 --> 0:52:30.800
<v Speaker 3>Thanks,