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Speaker 3: Press two. Hello, Hello, what is your name?

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Speaker 1: Sir? Call me Michael?

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Speaker 3: All right, Michael, what's going on with you?

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Speaker 1: Uh?

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Speaker 2: What about three weeks ago I got arrested?

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Speaker 3: Okay? Uh? Do you want to tell me what you

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Speaker 3: got arrested for? I?

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Speaker 2: Uh, I took a little too much like acid, and

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Speaker 2: I started like freaking out pretty much.

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Speaker 3: Uh did you do something illegal?

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Speaker 2: Yeah?

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Speaker 3: I guess, so, Okay, do you I mean, you can

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Speaker 3: tell me what it is if you want to?

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Speaker 2: Well? Should Basically the night started off fine. I took uh,

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Speaker 2: I took three tabs, which is probably the most I've

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Speaker 3: Were you alone when you took these three tabs of acid?

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Speaker 2: Now? My mom was down home.

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Speaker 3: How often are you are you taking three tabs of acid?

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Speaker 3: That's a lot of acid?

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Speaker 2: Oh shit, man, The last time I took acid was

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Speaker 2: probably like a year ago.

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Speaker 3: Okay, so this was this was and you said this

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Speaker 2: I was about myself.

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Speaker 2: Uh? They took me to the hospital, and I guess

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Speaker 2: Yeah? So I remember thinking I was like some sort

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Speaker 2: I work at a hospital and I work at Burger King.

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Speaker 3: So you've been going through a bunch of different jobs

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Speaker 2: I think I take life very seriously. But I also,

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Speaker 3: Yeah, how's your family?

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Speaker 2: Uh, it's interesting, it's really it's really just me and

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Speaker 2: Oh? Yeah, good, she's like she's my rock.

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Speaker 2: So you know that means that means. That means the

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Speaker 2: I listen to you every single day while I'm at work.

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Speaker 3: I'm trying my fucking best, bro Good, But I'm I'm

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Speaker 3: not worried about you, man, I don't. I don't have

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Speaker 3: I you know, do you live your life well crazy?

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Speaker 2: Yeah? They're pretty cool, green dude.

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Speaker 3: I'm trying my best. Do you guys? Have you ever

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Speaker 3: Yeah, dude, maybe this is in Glasgow, Scotland. I got

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Speaker 2: Comparison is the thief for joy Man, it really is

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Speaker 2: your life. Your life might be a dream to somebody else's,

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Speaker 3: I could not possibly agree more with you, sir.

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Speaker 2: Thanks Man, Have a good night. Yep, you too.

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Speaker 3: you guys there all from Nick, Hello, how's it going on?

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Speaker 3: What's your name?

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Speaker 4: Ah Gecko? I don't even know where to begin. I

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Speaker 3: Those are two very very different options here. Why, yeah,

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Speaker 4: Well, she and I have been together since twenty nineteen,

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Speaker 4: So the deal is is that she is a chain smoker,

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Speaker 4: And then other times, if I'm pestering her too much,

439
00:25:30,720 --> 00:25:33,800
Speaker 4: then she just gets angry with me. She says things like, well,

440
00:25:33,840 --> 00:25:35,720
Speaker 4: you telling me not to do it just makes me

441
00:25:35,760 --> 00:25:39,159
Speaker 4: want to smoke more like a child's And it's just

442
00:25:43,160 --> 00:25:45,240
Speaker 4: half of it is her agreeing with me and saying, yep,

443
00:25:45,240 --> 00:25:47,359
Speaker 4: I'm going to change, and then maybe it'd be a

444
00:25:47,400 --> 00:25:49,720
Speaker 4: couple of days where she, you know, changes, and then

445
00:25:50,080 --> 00:25:52,240
Speaker 4: sooner or later she was right back into old habits again.

446
00:25:54,600 --> 00:25:56,560
Speaker 4: And you know, I've tried giving her like patches, I've

447
00:25:56,560 --> 00:25:59,040
Speaker 4: tried giving her gum like that's how I quit, like

448
00:25:59,560 --> 00:26:01,639
Speaker 4: because you know, the truth of it is like I

449
00:26:01,760 --> 00:26:05,359
Speaker 4: chewed chewing tobacco for a number of years and I

450
00:26:05,440 --> 00:26:08,560
Speaker 4: was like sixteen, and and then we had one of

451
00:26:08,560 --> 00:26:11,600
Speaker 4: those he had one of those moments where you can't

452
00:26:11,680 --> 00:26:15,040
Speaker 4: unsee it, and I just quit pretty much, pretty much

453
00:26:15,040 --> 00:26:16,960
Speaker 4: cold turkey. It took me a couple of weeks, agom,

454
00:26:17,040 --> 00:26:20,360
Speaker 4: but I was done smoking after about two weeks after that.

455
00:26:22,520 --> 00:26:26,919
Speaker 3: So tell me this, Okay, we've ran through one side

456
00:26:26,920 --> 00:26:29,480
Speaker 3: of this. What's the other side. What's the side that

457
00:26:29,560 --> 00:26:32,760
Speaker 3: makes you feel like you want to get married to

458
00:26:32,840 --> 00:26:33,400
Speaker 3: this person?

459
00:26:36,080 --> 00:26:36,360
Speaker 2: You know.

460
00:26:39,920 --> 00:26:43,879
Speaker 4: It's I You know, I am have not had a

461
00:26:43,880 --> 00:26:47,080
Speaker 4: lot of luck with relationships in my life. You know,

462
00:26:47,320 --> 00:26:50,320
Speaker 4: I'm in my the thirties. I spent all of my

463
00:26:50,400 --> 00:26:54,520
Speaker 4: twenties single, you know, basically like living by myself. And

464
00:26:54,600 --> 00:26:57,840
Speaker 4: she and I met each other like online, and you know,

465
00:26:58,240 --> 00:27:00,720
Speaker 4: she like gets me, and it's just nice to like

466
00:27:01,400 --> 00:27:04,639
Speaker 4: have a life partner. You know, it's so hard to

467
00:27:04,720 --> 00:27:08,160
Speaker 4: live alone all the time. And it's not just like

468
00:27:08,320 --> 00:27:10,680
Speaker 4: you know, she's like my life like it's not that

469
00:27:10,720 --> 00:27:15,000
Speaker 4: like utilitarian, but and there is other things, like you know,

470
00:27:15,040 --> 00:27:17,959
Speaker 4: we we like like the same things. You know, we

471
00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:20,960
Speaker 4: both like anime and play video games. You know, we

472
00:27:21,080 --> 00:27:23,000
Speaker 4: like the same types of music, and we like to

473
00:27:23,040 --> 00:27:24,200
Speaker 4: go to concerts together.

474
00:27:24,920 --> 00:27:25,119
Speaker 2: You know.

475
00:27:25,160 --> 00:27:27,080
Speaker 4: It's just nice that like have somebody where it's like

476
00:27:27,119 --> 00:27:30,359
Speaker 4: we can both agree on, like she is like my

477
00:27:30,560 --> 00:27:32,960
Speaker 4: friend like and also my girlfriend type of thing.

478
00:27:35,720 --> 00:27:40,800
Speaker 3: So this, this problem, this topic is is something I've

479
00:27:40,840 --> 00:27:44,560
Speaker 3: I've thought a lot about and I don't I have

480
00:27:44,640 --> 00:27:51,119
Speaker 3: no conclusion because it's such a difficult topic. I have

481
00:27:51,200 --> 00:27:56,360
Speaker 3: ways that like I I uh, sort of lean and

482
00:27:56,680 --> 00:27:58,679
Speaker 3: things that I think about, Well, I don't have like

483
00:27:58,760 --> 00:28:02,080
Speaker 3: I'm I'm going to I'm disclaiming. I want to disclaim

484
00:28:02,119 --> 00:28:06,040
Speaker 3: something that is extremely important, which is that I do

485
00:28:06,119 --> 00:28:09,840
Speaker 3: not have opinions on this. I'm just I'm thinking it

486
00:28:10,080 --> 00:28:13,560
Speaker 3: through with you and These are the thoughts that I

487
00:28:13,600 --> 00:28:18,520
Speaker 3: think as I think through because it's such a thing

488
00:28:18,600 --> 00:28:21,160
Speaker 3: I go really back and forth on and so difficult

489
00:28:21,320 --> 00:28:28,159
Speaker 3: is this idea of Like, on one hand, my fucking

490
00:28:28,440 --> 00:28:34,560
Speaker 3: gut really tells me that if you're gonna get married

491
00:28:34,840 --> 00:28:40,240
Speaker 3: to somebody, that should be a fuck yes decision. You

492
00:28:40,240 --> 00:28:43,760
Speaker 3: should be getting married because you're like, I want to

493
00:28:44,120 --> 00:28:46,240
Speaker 3: fuck I love this person and I want to be

494
00:28:46,320 --> 00:28:47,920
Speaker 3: with them for the rest of my life. That should

495
00:28:47,960 --> 00:28:51,520
Speaker 3: that shouldn't be a thing that you're on the fence about.

496
00:28:51,560 --> 00:28:56,560
Speaker 3: That should be a fuck yes decision, right because it's

497
00:28:56,760 --> 00:28:58,520
Speaker 3: like it's like one of them. It's one of, if

498
00:28:58,560 --> 00:29:01,920
Speaker 3: not the most important decisions you're gonna make in your

499
00:29:02,120 --> 00:29:06,520
Speaker 3: entire life. It should be a one hundred percenter or

500
00:29:06,920 --> 00:29:12,760
Speaker 3: minimum like ninety five percenter fuck yes decision. So that's

501
00:29:12,800 --> 00:29:15,520
Speaker 3: what one part of my gut tells me. The other

502
00:29:15,600 --> 00:29:22,480
Speaker 3: part of my gut levels and goes, yeah, sure, that's great.

503
00:29:23,800 --> 00:29:28,800
Speaker 3: Yeah sure, and your perfect, beautiful, amazing version of the

504
00:29:28,920 --> 00:29:31,640
Speaker 3: universe where everything goes great and perfect and awesome one

505
00:29:31,720 --> 00:29:34,640
Speaker 3: hundred percent of the time, as we all know life

506
00:29:34,680 --> 00:29:38,440
Speaker 3: does not, that would be great. The other partlem I

507
00:29:38,480 --> 00:29:43,160
Speaker 3: got is like the other part of I got recognizes

508
00:29:43,440 --> 00:29:47,520
Speaker 3: how painful it is and how difficult it is to

509
00:29:47,600 --> 00:29:51,680
Speaker 3: be alone and to date, especially as you get older

510
00:29:51,720 --> 00:29:59,960
Speaker 3: and older, and fully understands why, like really really understand

511
00:30:00,000 --> 00:30:04,920
Speaker 3: and why you would say to yourself, you know what,

512
00:30:05,240 --> 00:30:09,760
Speaker 3: there's these problems, and they're not small problems, they're big problems.

513
00:30:12,120 --> 00:30:19,240
Speaker 3: But I can get past those problems because I like

514
00:30:19,320 --> 00:30:23,680
Speaker 3: this person enough, so let's do it. And I don't

515
00:30:23,720 --> 00:30:26,800
Speaker 3: want to be alone and I can't go back into

516
00:30:26,840 --> 00:30:29,200
Speaker 3: the dating pool. And it's not like I don't like

517
00:30:29,280 --> 00:30:32,240
Speaker 3: this person. It's not like this person is abusive to me.

518
00:30:32,360 --> 00:30:36,200
Speaker 3: It's not like this person, you know, it's not like

519
00:30:36,200 --> 00:30:39,640
Speaker 3: I actively hate this person. I like this person. She's

520
00:30:39,720 --> 00:30:42,440
Speaker 3: my friend. We get along, we have a lot in common.

521
00:30:42,720 --> 00:30:45,640
Speaker 3: We've been together for five years. She gets me. As

522
00:30:45,680 --> 00:30:49,120
Speaker 3: you said, Yes, we have these problems, but I can

523
00:30:49,400 --> 00:30:54,280
Speaker 3: get past it because I like her enough that I

524
00:30:54,320 --> 00:30:58,600
Speaker 3: think we can have a successful relationship together. And I

525
00:30:58,640 --> 00:31:01,560
Speaker 3: know what it's like to be alone into to struggle,

526
00:31:01,640 --> 00:31:04,080
Speaker 3: and I fucking dear God don't want to do that.

527
00:31:05,320 --> 00:31:07,160
Speaker 3: And so I understand what that part of my gut

528
00:31:07,520 --> 00:31:10,520
Speaker 3: tells me to say about this situation and those two

529
00:31:10,600 --> 00:31:14,800
Speaker 3: parts of my gut, the part that like levels and goes, yeah,

530
00:31:14,840 --> 00:31:16,480
Speaker 3: it's good enough and I don't want to be alone,

531
00:31:16,560 --> 00:31:18,720
Speaker 3: versus the part that goes, no, I'm not gonna quote

532
00:31:18,800 --> 00:31:21,800
Speaker 3: unquote settle and I'm gonna be fuck yes about this

533
00:31:22,280 --> 00:31:25,360
Speaker 3: and I'm gonna make sure I ain't even gonna be

534
00:31:26,280 --> 00:31:28,680
Speaker 3: struggle to find I'm gonna try to find somebody that

535
00:31:28,800 --> 00:31:31,120
Speaker 3: I can be you know, one hundred percent is excited about.

536
00:31:31,440 --> 00:31:33,560
Speaker 3: I don't know which parts of those gut. I don't

537
00:31:33,600 --> 00:31:36,560
Speaker 3: know which of those two sides is the right one.

538
00:31:37,080 --> 00:31:43,840
Speaker 3: I have no idea. I really don't, because again, the

539
00:31:43,880 --> 00:31:45,440
Speaker 3: part of me that's like, well, this should be one

540
00:31:45,520 --> 00:31:50,440
Speaker 3: hundred percent decision makes so much logical sense. But then

541
00:31:50,480 --> 00:31:57,840
Speaker 3: when you throw in the difficulty of navigating being being

542
00:31:57,840 --> 00:32:02,880
Speaker 3: alone and and and then the the side that goes, well,

543
00:32:02,920 --> 00:32:05,000
Speaker 3: we have this much in common and this and that

544
00:32:05,080 --> 00:32:13,640
Speaker 3: and the other thing, like, let's just make it work, buddy.

545
00:32:13,640 --> 00:32:15,800
Speaker 3: I don't know. I don't know.

546
00:32:16,120 --> 00:32:17,840
Speaker 4: You're not You're not You're not very much help to me,

547
00:32:17,880 --> 00:32:18,120
Speaker 4: are you.

548
00:32:18,680 --> 00:32:21,120
Speaker 3: I'm not. I'm no, I'm zero help to you at all.

549
00:32:21,520 --> 00:32:23,720
Speaker 3: I'm zero helped. You don't. I'm sure I've expressed the

550
00:32:23,720 --> 00:32:25,800
Speaker 3: two sides of your brain as well. Have I not?

551
00:32:27,160 --> 00:32:30,920
Speaker 4: Yeah, And it's like something I think about every day.

552
00:32:31,120 --> 00:32:33,280
Speaker 4: The thing that always gets me, know, to be honest,

553
00:32:33,400 --> 00:32:35,920
Speaker 4: is the thing I always think about more is I

554
00:32:35,960 --> 00:32:37,880
Speaker 4: think more about breaking up with her than I do

555
00:32:37,920 --> 00:32:41,160
Speaker 4: about marrying her, which is the killer to me sometimes.

556
00:32:41,520 --> 00:32:47,360
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, yeah again you way that you you have

557
00:32:47,480 --> 00:32:50,479
Speaker 3: you make that decision for yourself ultimately at the end

558
00:32:50,520 --> 00:32:54,160
Speaker 3: of the day. And if you're thinking more about breaking

559
00:32:54,160 --> 00:32:56,000
Speaker 3: out with someone than you are a boy getting together

560
00:32:56,040 --> 00:33:05,680
Speaker 3: with them, that's a it's definitely signify something. I mean,

561
00:33:05,680 --> 00:33:07,120
Speaker 3: how long have you been thinking about breaking up with

562
00:33:07,160 --> 00:33:07,600
Speaker 3: this person?

563
00:33:11,400 --> 00:33:17,600
Speaker 4: I don't know, maybe like two years at least. I

564
00:33:17,680 --> 00:33:20,280
Speaker 4: mean that's pretty much like because that's pretty much like

565
00:33:20,400 --> 00:33:22,560
Speaker 4: right when we get over our honeymoon phase, you know,

566
00:33:22,680 --> 00:33:26,120
Speaker 4: being together, and that's when her problems like really started

567
00:33:26,160 --> 00:33:32,000
Speaker 4: to present themselves. And it's just so tough, you know,

568
00:33:32,080 --> 00:33:37,040
Speaker 4: because it's like we I own a home, I'm very

569
00:33:37,040 --> 00:33:40,560
Speaker 4: grateful to own a home, not nowadays, and we like

570
00:33:40,640 --> 00:33:44,080
Speaker 4: live together, but at this point we're like practically married.

571
00:33:44,600 --> 00:33:47,400
Speaker 4: Like how could you even like divide our because she

572
00:33:47,480 --> 00:33:49,520
Speaker 4: and I have been like living together pretty much right

573
00:33:49,560 --> 00:33:52,040
Speaker 4: from the get go, like within a week of us

574
00:33:52,080 --> 00:33:55,120
Speaker 4: knowing each other. Even we were like living together essentially

575
00:33:55,400 --> 00:33:57,320
Speaker 4: because she was like living at home with her parents

576
00:33:57,320 --> 00:33:59,600
Speaker 4: at the time, and I was like, well, just come

577
00:33:59,640 --> 00:34:01,240
Speaker 4: live with me if you don't live with your parents,

578
00:34:01,240 --> 00:34:02,760
Speaker 4: and that's how it went.

579
00:34:03,320 --> 00:34:07,959
Speaker 5: So it's like, if I, how do you think she

580
00:34:08,000 --> 00:34:09,040
Speaker 5: feels about marrying you?

581
00:34:10,520 --> 00:34:13,680
Speaker 4: Oh, I know she wants to. I know she she

582
00:34:13,840 --> 00:34:17,759
Speaker 4: hints and talks about it. It's a little weird for her, thankfully,

583
00:34:17,920 --> 00:34:20,120
Speaker 4: Like not thankfully, but it's a little weird for her

584
00:34:20,160 --> 00:34:23,640
Speaker 4: because she was engaged at one point and then that

585
00:34:23,760 --> 00:34:27,840
Speaker 4: didn't happen. So she's a little bit gunshy about the

586
00:34:27,840 --> 00:34:28,279
Speaker 4: whole thing.

587
00:34:28,440 --> 00:34:31,200
Speaker 3: But I know that if I asked her, why did

588
00:34:31,239 --> 00:34:34,160
Speaker 3: you say thankful? Why did you say thankfully?

589
00:34:34,200 --> 00:34:37,799
Speaker 4: Because she's never really bugged me about this question, you know,

590
00:34:38,440 --> 00:34:41,560
Speaker 4: she has, of course, she's like broached the subject. But

591
00:34:41,640 --> 00:34:45,320
Speaker 4: if I say, like, it's not she's like, okay. But

592
00:34:45,360 --> 00:34:46,799
Speaker 4: then we just move on with our lives. You know.

593
00:34:46,800 --> 00:34:49,280
Speaker 4: We're both so busy all the time, you know, between

594
00:34:49,280 --> 00:34:52,160
Speaker 4: like work and like dealing with her family and stuff, like,

595
00:34:52,520 --> 00:34:55,120
Speaker 4: we at a lot of time to think about it. If

596
00:34:55,320 --> 00:34:57,319
Speaker 4: I worry that if I did ask her to marry me,

597
00:34:57,960 --> 00:34:59,719
Speaker 4: I would just be putting more stress on her plate

598
00:34:59,800 --> 00:35:02,759
Speaker 4: because she doesn't deal with stress pretty well. And so

599
00:35:02,840 --> 00:35:06,120
Speaker 4: it's like, can I And it's funny, like I have

600
00:35:06,239 --> 00:35:11,280
Speaker 4: a built in excuse. When we first got together, I

601
00:35:11,320 --> 00:35:14,120
Speaker 4: made a joke about Harry Potter and she had never

602
00:35:14,120 --> 00:35:16,480
Speaker 4: read Harry Potter, and I told her, which was the

603
00:35:16,480 --> 00:35:19,040
Speaker 4: truth of the time. I told her. I promised myself

604
00:35:19,080 --> 00:35:21,760
Speaker 4: I would never marry anybody that hasn't read Harry Potter.

605
00:35:23,760 --> 00:35:27,480
Speaker 3: Bro Bro, Bro, Look, do whatever you're gonna do, and

606
00:35:27,560 --> 00:35:31,120
Speaker 3: I can't. I said everything I said. If you decide

607
00:35:31,160 --> 00:35:33,160
Speaker 3: you're gonna break up with this girl, don't fucking blame

608
00:35:33,160 --> 00:35:34,000
Speaker 3: it on Harry Potter.

609
00:35:34,880 --> 00:35:37,040
Speaker 4: I'm I'm not I'm not. I'm not saying I'm just

610
00:35:37,040 --> 00:35:42,120
Speaker 4: saying that whenever this kind of comes up, it's like, well,

611
00:35:42,239 --> 00:35:44,440
Speaker 4: you haven't you haven't been reading, have you.

612
00:35:45,840 --> 00:35:48,680
Speaker 3: I'll blame it on Harry Potter. Bro don't blame.

613
00:35:49,120 --> 00:35:49,480
Speaker 4: I'm not.

614
00:35:51,040 --> 00:35:51,279
Speaker 2: Weird.

615
00:35:51,840 --> 00:35:59,200
Speaker 3: Truly, truly, truly, truly, this is It's really something I

616
00:35:59,200 --> 00:36:01,280
Speaker 3: think about a lot, is like what what what should

617
00:36:01,320 --> 00:36:02,839
Speaker 3: we do? Should we.

618
00:36:04,840 --> 00:36:09,319
Speaker 6: Find what should we do? Should we pick somebody and

619
00:36:09,680 --> 00:36:16,680
Speaker 6: fucking make it work or should we, you know, keep

620
00:36:16,800 --> 00:36:22,760
Speaker 6: keep playing the lottery and playing the field until.

621
00:36:23,280 --> 00:36:26,680
Speaker 3: We find something that naturally works. And I don't know,

622
00:36:28,000 --> 00:36:36,200
Speaker 3: I don't know. Logically, my brain is telling me, if

623
00:36:36,239 --> 00:36:41,800
Speaker 3: you're thinking about breaking up with someone constantly over two years,

624
00:36:43,000 --> 00:36:43,720
Speaker 3: that's friendly.

625
00:36:45,160 --> 00:36:49,600
Speaker 5: That's say, you know, that's something that's not nothing. That's

626
00:36:49,640 --> 00:36:53,120
Speaker 5: not something to to ignore. That's not something to ignore.

627
00:36:53,280 --> 00:36:56,560
Speaker 5: That's not something to ignore. But again, it's a tough situation.

628
00:36:56,719 --> 00:37:01,359
Speaker 3: And and and what you know, this is, this is

629
00:37:01,480 --> 00:37:03,440
Speaker 3: all all I can really do is sit here with

630
00:37:03,480 --> 00:37:05,279
Speaker 3: you and think this through as I as I as

631
00:37:05,280 --> 00:37:11,000
Speaker 3: I have before. But don't blame Harry. But don't blame

632
00:37:11,040 --> 00:37:11,640
Speaker 3: Harry Potter.

633
00:37:12,440 --> 00:37:17,560
Speaker 4: I'm not. I'm just saying like it's it's it's in

634
00:37:17,640 --> 00:37:19,479
Speaker 4: my back pocket as a reason why we haven't gotten

635
00:37:19,480 --> 00:37:20,359
Speaker 4: married yet. That's all.

636
00:37:21,600 --> 00:37:22,400
Speaker 3: What's your name again?

637
00:37:23,440 --> 00:37:24,799
Speaker 2: Nick? Well?

638
00:37:24,880 --> 00:37:26,160
Speaker 3: Nick? Is there anything else you want to say to

639
00:37:26,160 --> 00:37:27,360
Speaker 3: the people of the computer before we go?

640
00:37:29,040 --> 00:37:30,320
Speaker 2: Uh?

641
00:37:30,480 --> 00:37:32,680
Speaker 4: It would be cool to each other, I guess.

642
00:37:32,719 --> 00:37:38,000
Speaker 3: Oh, good luck, sir, Thank you, sir, have a good one.

643
00:37:40,120 --> 00:37:43,239
Speaker 3: That would be kind of funny if he decided he

644
00:37:43,320 --> 00:37:44,719
Speaker 3: was going to break up with her and then like

645
00:37:44,800 --> 00:37:48,359
Speaker 3: the day he was gonna have the conversation, she was like,

646
00:37:48,400 --> 00:37:51,640
Speaker 3: you know, I finally got around to reading Harry Potter

647
00:37:51,800 --> 00:37:54,120
Speaker 3: and I'm a big fan, and I got us tickets

648
00:37:54,360 --> 00:37:59,239
Speaker 3: to the Wizarding World in Universal Florida. Then he'd be fucked.

649
00:37:59,280 --> 00:38:01,040
Speaker 3: Then he'd have to heat definitely have to marry her.

650
00:38:03,120 --> 00:38:03,480
Speaker 1: Corey.

651
00:38:04,640 --> 00:38:06,200
Speaker 7: Hello, Hey is a flyle?

652
00:38:07,160 --> 00:38:08,239
Speaker 3: Yes? How are you doing?

653
00:38:08,320 --> 00:38:08,520
Speaker 1: Sir?

654
00:38:08,560 --> 00:38:09,200
Speaker 3: What is your name?

655
00:38:11,320 --> 00:38:13,719
Speaker 1: I am Corey? How are you?

656
00:38:14,920 --> 00:38:17,359
Speaker 3: I'm hanging in there. I'm trying my best. What's going

657
00:38:17,360 --> 00:38:20,839
Speaker 3: on with you? Corey? How can I get you today? Oh?

658
00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:24,440
Speaker 7: This is a this is actually kind of an interesting one.

659
00:38:24,760 --> 00:38:30,560
Speaker 7: So I I have my dream job, but it doesn't

660
00:38:30,719 --> 00:38:40,120
Speaker 7: pay nearly enough, like at all. So have you ever

661
00:38:40,120 --> 00:38:40,960
Speaker 7: heard of Kindama?

662
00:38:42,760 --> 00:38:45,319
Speaker 3: The fucking the thing with the ball in the cup? Right?

663
00:38:46,480 --> 00:38:50,040
Speaker 1: Yeah? So I actually make a living? Well yeah?

664
00:38:51,880 --> 00:38:54,200
Speaker 2: Yeah, Oh dude, that's so sick that you know what

665
00:38:54,239 --> 00:38:54,560
Speaker 2: it is.

666
00:38:56,520 --> 00:39:00,279
Speaker 7: So yeah, I'm like one of six people and in

667
00:39:00,400 --> 00:39:04,600
Speaker 7: like North America who do this for like a living.

668
00:39:07,280 --> 00:39:11,200
Speaker 7: And like right now, I'm like it's kind of like

669
00:39:11,880 --> 00:39:14,560
Speaker 7: a weird time in my life where it's like I

670
00:39:14,600 --> 00:39:17,359
Speaker 7: really believe in Kandama and like it's growth and shit

671
00:39:17,480 --> 00:39:20,000
Speaker 7: right like in the down the line, you know what

672
00:39:20,000 --> 00:39:24,399
Speaker 7: I mean, But like as of right now, like there's

673
00:39:24,480 --> 00:39:26,960
Speaker 7: no like there's money in it enough for me to

674
00:39:27,160 --> 00:39:29,600
Speaker 7: like have a job, and like I'm thankful for that.

675
00:39:30,680 --> 00:39:33,520
Speaker 7: I'm beyond blessed. Like there's so many people who would

676
00:39:33,560 --> 00:39:39,399
Speaker 7: like die to have my job, and I just I'm

677
00:39:39,440 --> 00:39:41,200
Speaker 7: in a weird place where it's like I know I

678
00:39:41,239 --> 00:39:44,920
Speaker 7: need to like move on, I guess, or not move on,

679
00:39:45,200 --> 00:39:46,800
Speaker 7: but like I just don't know what to do because

680
00:39:46,920 --> 00:39:51,160
Speaker 7: like I need to make money, but also like man,

681
00:39:51,200 --> 00:39:52,160
Speaker 7: I just fucking love what I.

682
00:39:52,120 --> 00:39:57,360
Speaker 3: Do, So I guess. For the uninitiated, the condoma is

683
00:39:57,480 --> 00:39:59,719
Speaker 3: kind of like a it's like a ball in a cup.

684
00:39:59,760 --> 00:40:05,600
Speaker 3: It's like this ball that you like attached via string

685
00:40:06,360 --> 00:40:08,839
Speaker 3: to a stick with a bunch of little cups on it,

686
00:40:09,120 --> 00:40:11,120
Speaker 3: and you gotta throw the ball up and get it

687
00:40:11,160 --> 00:40:11,759
Speaker 3: into the cup.

688
00:40:12,440 --> 00:40:15,759
Speaker 7: Yeah, I guess, But anyone who's listening, it's K E

689
00:40:16,120 --> 00:40:17,880
Speaker 7: N D A M A.

690
00:40:19,120 --> 00:40:21,239
Speaker 3: So this is not is this your business or is

691
00:40:21,280 --> 00:40:21,880
Speaker 3: this a job?

692
00:40:22,640 --> 00:40:26,200
Speaker 7: So okay, So I've been playing since I was like fourteen,

693
00:40:27,280 --> 00:40:30,680
Speaker 7: and when I first started, it was a very very

694
00:40:30,719 --> 00:40:36,640
Speaker 7: small community, like just my town knew about it, and

695
00:40:36,680 --> 00:40:38,640
Speaker 7: it's like one of those things. I guess it's like

696
00:40:39,000 --> 00:40:41,120
Speaker 7: whenever it does get to like where you're at. Like

697
00:40:41,880 --> 00:40:44,279
Speaker 7: how I found out about it was like everyone at

698
00:40:44,280 --> 00:40:45,719
Speaker 7: my school had one. It was kind of like a

699
00:40:45,760 --> 00:40:51,839
Speaker 7: bad like silly bands, I guess at that time, which

700
00:40:51,880 --> 00:40:54,600
Speaker 7: I guess for people who are younger probably don't even

701
00:40:54,640 --> 00:41:00,080
Speaker 7: know what that is. But but yeah, so like I

702
00:41:00,400 --> 00:41:02,880
Speaker 7: found out about it around fourteen years ago, and like

703
00:41:04,640 --> 00:41:06,680
Speaker 7: I guess in the in the time to now, like

704
00:41:07,960 --> 00:41:10,440
Speaker 7: I I've just been playing ever since then, and so

705
00:41:10,560 --> 00:41:13,080
Speaker 7: like the company I work for is actually the first

706
00:41:13,280 --> 00:41:17,719
Speaker 7: company I ever bought a kandama from when I was

707
00:41:17,719 --> 00:41:24,920
Speaker 7: like fourteen, and so like obviously like when I first started,

708
00:41:25,080 --> 00:41:27,200
Speaker 7: this was none of this was ever like a reality.

709
00:41:28,480 --> 00:41:33,600
Speaker 7: Like I've kind of seen everything like get bigger and bigger,

710
00:41:34,640 --> 00:41:36,200
Speaker 7: and I'm just like stuck in a place now where

711
00:41:36,239 --> 00:41:40,040
Speaker 7: it's like, man, I fucking love what I do, but

712
00:41:40,320 --> 00:41:44,600
Speaker 7: like it's it's like I could make more. Just to

713
00:41:44,600 --> 00:41:47,320
Speaker 7: put in perspective, I guess I can make more money

714
00:41:47,320 --> 00:41:50,239
Speaker 7: working at Walmart than what I do, even though it's

715
00:41:50,239 --> 00:41:51,080
Speaker 7: so specialized.

716
00:41:52,400 --> 00:41:54,359
Speaker 3: So what do you exactly do do you make?

717
00:41:54,400 --> 00:41:54,600
Speaker 1: You know?

718
00:41:54,719 --> 00:41:57,279
Speaker 3: You see that you're not seen from toy story two,

719
00:41:57,320 --> 00:42:00,319
Speaker 3: where like that fucking guy with the glasses is like

720
00:42:00,400 --> 00:42:04,600
Speaker 3: recreating Woody and ship? Do you like do that withs

721
00:42:04,600 --> 00:42:05,640
Speaker 3: Like you're sitting there.

722
00:42:05,480 --> 00:42:07,760
Speaker 1: And like very much.

723
00:42:10,719 --> 00:42:13,759
Speaker 7: It's very much to like that. So I can't give

724
00:42:13,800 --> 00:42:16,040
Speaker 7: out like too much details on like what we do,

725
00:42:16,120 --> 00:42:19,960
Speaker 7: but like I can tell you that make.

726
00:42:19,880 --> 00:42:22,480
Speaker 3: You can't give away the secret recipe for your.

727
00:42:25,000 --> 00:42:25,600
Speaker 7: Because like.

728
00:42:27,080 --> 00:42:31,239
Speaker 3: Just just are you? Are you genuinely you're protecting a

729
00:42:31,560 --> 00:42:35,640
Speaker 3: like Condoma crafting secret? Is that why you can't?

730
00:42:37,640 --> 00:42:39,680
Speaker 7: Legitimately? I have an nd A?

731
00:42:40,840 --> 00:42:43,880
Speaker 3: That's very funny? Uh well, can you talk about the

732
00:42:43,920 --> 00:42:46,000
Speaker 3: company you work for? What company is it?

733
00:42:46,360 --> 00:42:49,120
Speaker 7: Yeah? I work for Condoma us.

734
00:42:48,800 --> 00:42:52,640
Speaker 3: A Condoma U s A. Then they're one of six.

735
00:42:54,000 --> 00:42:56,440
Speaker 7: There so no, like so when I said that, I

736
00:42:56,560 --> 00:43:02,360
Speaker 7: legitimately mean like six people. But so I'm actually not

737
00:43:02,400 --> 00:43:04,840
Speaker 7: the owner of my company obviously I said that, but

738
00:43:05,880 --> 00:43:07,960
Speaker 7: it's literally like four of us at the company.

739
00:43:08,440 --> 00:43:08,920
Speaker 1: Like that's it?

740
00:43:11,040 --> 00:43:13,720
Speaker 3: Would you ever? Would you ever go into business for yourself?

741
00:43:15,840 --> 00:43:16,120
Speaker 6: See?

742
00:43:16,280 --> 00:43:19,560
Speaker 7: Like that's the thing is like before I start doing this,

743
00:43:19,640 --> 00:43:23,080
Speaker 7: I knew nothing about what I do, and like my

744
00:43:23,239 --> 00:43:27,000
Speaker 7: boss has been such a fucking goat and like in

745
00:43:27,480 --> 00:43:30,000
Speaker 7: order for me to like do it on my own,

746
00:43:30,040 --> 00:43:32,360
Speaker 7: I would have to have like hundreds of thousands of

747
00:43:32,360 --> 00:43:34,600
Speaker 7: dollars just like start up, you know what I mean,

748
00:43:35,680 --> 00:43:40,480
Speaker 7: and like economically just I and also morally, I couldn't

749
00:43:40,880 --> 00:43:44,520
Speaker 7: like just pick up and be like all right, bro,

750
00:43:44,840 --> 00:43:48,480
Speaker 7: like thanks for like giving me the knowledge. I'm just

751
00:43:48,480 --> 00:43:50,600
Speaker 7: gonna go like start a company and like.

752
00:43:51,200 --> 00:43:55,279
Speaker 3: Well, okay, you have you do? Is the company successful?

753
00:43:57,080 --> 00:44:00,880
Speaker 7: Yeah, I'd say, like right now, we have like like

754
00:44:00,920 --> 00:44:05,239
Speaker 7: one or two other main competitors. But as far as

755
00:44:05,280 --> 00:44:10,399
Speaker 7: like the the USA made product, that's us, Like there's

756
00:44:10,440 --> 00:44:12,600
Speaker 7: not really like there's other people in the US who

757
00:44:12,680 --> 00:44:16,160
Speaker 7: do it, like I said, but they're like accord.

758
00:44:16,960 --> 00:44:19,200
Speaker 3: How many condomas are we selling a day?

759
00:44:19,239 --> 00:44:23,240
Speaker 1: You think, ooh, that's a good question.

760
00:44:25,680 --> 00:44:29,560
Speaker 7: I couldn't tell you that because I'm not I'm not

761
00:44:29,680 --> 00:44:32,000
Speaker 7: at that warehouse, like we have two locations, so I

762
00:44:32,040 --> 00:44:34,799
Speaker 7: don't really see that. But I can tell you how

763
00:44:34,840 --> 00:44:42,400
Speaker 7: much I make. So I usually like usually we do

764
00:44:42,640 --> 00:44:46,279
Speaker 7: orders of like one hundred of each wood type, and

765
00:44:46,360 --> 00:44:53,560
Speaker 7: we do like birch, maple, ash and then hickory sometimes,

766
00:44:54,239 --> 00:44:57,880
Speaker 7: so like every every wood type, we usually do around

767
00:44:57,920 --> 00:45:00,960
Speaker 7: eighty to one hundred and and right now we're working

768
00:45:01,000 --> 00:45:06,080
Speaker 7: in order that's like around six hundred pieces, and that

769
00:45:06,080 --> 00:45:07,799
Speaker 7: that's taking us like two months.

770
00:45:08,120 --> 00:45:09,880
Speaker 3: Oh, I thought you wanted to talk. I thought you're

771
00:45:09,880 --> 00:45:11,800
Speaker 3: gonna say how much money you made?

772
00:45:12,200 --> 00:45:14,480
Speaker 7: Oh no, no, no, no, no, no that.

773
00:45:16,760 --> 00:45:18,239
Speaker 3: I thought you were gonna be. I thought you're gonna

774
00:45:18,239 --> 00:45:23,080
Speaker 3: be like I make candamas and my wife sells wooden birdhouses,

775
00:45:23,120 --> 00:45:25,680
Speaker 3: and our budget for five million.

776
00:45:27,320 --> 00:45:27,360
Speaker 5: No.

777
00:45:27,600 --> 00:45:28,040
Speaker 1: So like.

778
00:45:30,800 --> 00:45:35,640
Speaker 3: Sorry, okay, So, so why why did you ask for

779
00:45:35,680 --> 00:45:36,160
Speaker 3: a raise?

780
00:45:38,480 --> 00:45:41,840
Speaker 7: I mean, I guess I should ask for a raise.

781
00:45:42,600 --> 00:45:44,560
Speaker 3: Yeah, what is what is it solid about? You're the

782
00:45:44,600 --> 00:45:46,600
Speaker 3: only I don't understand. So you don't want to go

783
00:45:46,640 --> 00:45:49,080
Speaker 3: do your own thing, You don't ask for a raise,

784
00:45:49,160 --> 00:45:50,319
Speaker 3: you don't want to get a different job.

785
00:45:50,600 --> 00:45:52,960
Speaker 7: Well, it's just more so like we're in a wall

786
00:45:53,080 --> 00:45:56,560
Speaker 7: right now with our Yeah.

787
00:45:56,760 --> 00:45:58,520
Speaker 3: Yeah, when when's kandama season?

788
00:46:01,280 --> 00:46:08,080
Speaker 7: When it's not city economic times, I guess.

789
00:46:06,080 --> 00:46:09,040
Speaker 3: I guess people are. I guess Kandama is a very

790
00:46:09,239 --> 00:46:11,560
Speaker 3: disposable income parts.

791
00:46:13,200 --> 00:46:15,120
Speaker 1: Believe it or not, it is it is.

792
00:46:15,920 --> 00:46:19,560
Speaker 3: Well, I believe it, bro, Why don't you fucking Okay,

793
00:46:19,640 --> 00:46:23,480
Speaker 3: but listen, if you're the only I assume if you're

794
00:46:23,480 --> 00:46:28,319
Speaker 3: the only company that makes condamas. They're popular enough that

795
00:46:28,600 --> 00:46:32,160
Speaker 3: like people kind of I guess fucking know what they are.

796
00:46:32,719 --> 00:46:34,800
Speaker 3: So why don't you ask for a raise?

797
00:46:36,440 --> 00:46:38,080
Speaker 1: I think you're right enough that.

798
00:46:38,080 --> 00:46:41,799
Speaker 3: You can make more than working at fucking Walmart. You're

799
00:46:41,840 --> 00:46:43,200
Speaker 3: not even that much. I mean, where do you What

800
00:46:43,560 --> 00:46:44,239
Speaker 3: state do you live in?

801
00:46:45,160 --> 00:46:46,000
Speaker 1: I live in Georgia?

802
00:46:46,960 --> 00:46:50,279
Speaker 3: Okay, how much does it cost to live in Georgia? Like, fucking.

803
00:46:53,200 --> 00:46:54,640
Speaker 1: I wish that'd be nice.

804
00:46:57,120 --> 00:46:59,120
Speaker 7: I mean, like, right now, I'm leaving with my parents.

805
00:46:59,200 --> 00:47:02,799
Speaker 7: I'm like twenty seven them, so like I'm just you know,

806
00:47:03,000 --> 00:47:05,560
Speaker 7: I'm saving, I'm doing what I can, but I just.

807
00:47:05,640 --> 00:47:11,080
Speaker 3: Know that it's just your full time job legitimately. Yeah,

808
00:47:11,480 --> 00:47:13,759
Speaker 3: and it doesn't pay you enough to at least like

809
00:47:13,920 --> 00:47:16,960
Speaker 3: live in a place that's not with your parents.

810
00:47:18,760 --> 00:47:19,600
Speaker 1: Not at the moment.

811
00:47:20,160 --> 00:47:21,320
Speaker 3: You should have for a raise.

812
00:47:22,480 --> 00:47:25,000
Speaker 1: Yeah, I think you're right. I should ask for a raise.

813
00:47:26,600 --> 00:47:28,000
Speaker 3: Just at least enough for you to like get your

814
00:47:28,000 --> 00:47:32,760
Speaker 3: own place, yeah, or get a place with random dudes

815
00:47:32,800 --> 00:47:33,560
Speaker 3: on greg List.

816
00:47:35,440 --> 00:47:39,799
Speaker 1: Yeah, yeah, I think you're right. I gotta just ask

817
00:47:39,800 --> 00:47:40,319
Speaker 1: for that raise.

818
00:47:42,680 --> 00:47:46,359
Speaker 7: And if he doesn't say yes, then then I can

819
00:47:46,520 --> 00:47:49,600
Speaker 7: go into panic mode, I guess. And then then figure

820
00:47:49,600 --> 00:47:49,919
Speaker 7: it out.

821
00:47:50,320 --> 00:47:52,040
Speaker 3: What if he says, I'll give you a raise, but

822
00:47:52,080 --> 00:47:54,359
Speaker 3: you have to get the ball in the cup three

823
00:47:54,400 --> 00:47:55,200
Speaker 3: times in a row.

824
00:47:57,280 --> 00:47:59,360
Speaker 1: That'd be easy. That'd be easy.

825
00:47:59,760 --> 00:48:01,240
Speaker 3: Yeah, you are you good? Are you nice?

826
00:48:03,280 --> 00:48:05,520
Speaker 7: I was sponsored at one point, I uh.

827
00:48:05,840 --> 00:48:11,920
Speaker 3: Sponsored by who? There's only one company that makes it.

828
00:48:12,000 --> 00:48:17,120
Speaker 7: Okay, so so well American man, So like there there's

829
00:48:17,160 --> 00:48:19,680
Speaker 7: a lot of It's actually gotten really big in the

830
00:48:19,719 --> 00:48:24,439
Speaker 7: States right now. Actually, my friend just landed Japan. They're

831
00:48:24,480 --> 00:48:29,600
Speaker 7: doing the Kondoma World Cup right now, so he is

832
00:48:29,960 --> 00:48:33,399
Speaker 7: in that. For those who don't know, Kandama is its

833
00:48:33,440 --> 00:48:38,200
Speaker 7: birthplace is Japan. It's a Japanese skill toy. But yeah,

834
00:48:38,200 --> 00:48:40,680
Speaker 7: it's like super big over there because like in school

835
00:48:40,800 --> 00:48:44,440
Speaker 7: they teach them like from from like a very young age,

836
00:48:44,440 --> 00:48:47,920
Speaker 7: like it's incorporated into their like school programs and stuff,

837
00:48:47,960 --> 00:48:50,959
Speaker 7: and that's pretty crazy.

838
00:48:51,160 --> 00:48:53,400
Speaker 3: They teach kandomics. But why don't you move to Japan

839
00:48:53,480 --> 00:48:55,359
Speaker 3: and be a kandoma guy over there? That sounds like

840
00:48:56,040 --> 00:48:58,239
Speaker 3: sounds like that sounds like that's your dream you want

841
00:48:58,280 --> 00:49:01,200
Speaker 3: to be with You're like it's like it's like when

842
00:49:01,239 --> 00:49:03,759
Speaker 3: it's like when when like I don't know if you

843
00:49:03,760 --> 00:49:05,640
Speaker 3: ever had this moment when you were in high school

844
00:49:06,280 --> 00:49:09,680
Speaker 3: and you read some article on the internet that was like,

845
00:49:10,000 --> 00:49:13,480
Speaker 3: did you know that in Korea professional gamers are are

846
00:49:13,520 --> 00:49:18,000
Speaker 3: treated with as much respect as uh fucking football players

847
00:49:18,000 --> 00:49:18,840
Speaker 3: are in the US.

848
00:49:19,200 --> 00:49:23,600
Speaker 7: Remember reading shit like that, Oh, that'd be that'd be nice.

849
00:49:24,080 --> 00:49:27,920
Speaker 3: That's like you with kandamas, you know, I bet the

850
00:49:27,920 --> 00:49:30,879
Speaker 3: there's there's a bigger industry there.

851
00:49:31,640 --> 00:49:31,839
Speaker 1: Yeah.

852
00:49:31,960 --> 00:49:37,320
Speaker 7: Low Kiev is literally a street called Kandama Street, and uh,

853
00:49:37,520 --> 00:49:40,959
Speaker 7: they're like legitimately, I think tomorrow night or the night after.

854
00:49:41,040 --> 00:49:43,080
Speaker 7: I don't know when they do it, but they do.

855
00:49:43,200 --> 00:49:47,520
Speaker 7: Like this giant ass party. I just get all crazy

856
00:49:47,560 --> 00:49:51,279
Speaker 7: and just drink a shit ton and it's a good

857
00:49:51,280 --> 00:49:53,000
Speaker 7: time from one of here. I haven't been yet. I

858
00:49:53,040 --> 00:49:54,839
Speaker 7: really want to go. I'm hoping next year.

859
00:49:55,239 --> 00:49:57,960
Speaker 3: What's the most expensive kndama that your company sells.

860
00:49:59,040 --> 00:50:02,200
Speaker 7: Oh, it's definitely one of the ones that we make.

861
00:50:02,360 --> 00:50:05,799
Speaker 7: There's one on our website that's like I think it's

862
00:50:05,840 --> 00:50:07,360
Speaker 7: just over one hundred. I think we just did a

863
00:50:07,400 --> 00:50:12,480
Speaker 7: price drop on it. But like, so for those who

864
00:50:12,520 --> 00:50:17,520
Speaker 7: don't know, like the praise, it's depending on the wood type,

865
00:50:17,840 --> 00:50:20,640
Speaker 7: and then also like it's got a really good pain

866
00:50:20,719 --> 00:50:23,359
Speaker 7: on the ball, so like for those who don't know,

867
00:50:23,680 --> 00:50:26,920
Speaker 7: like there's balance tricks you can do, and so like

868
00:50:27,040 --> 00:50:30,279
Speaker 7: having a paint that's like grippier and like kind of

869
00:50:30,760 --> 00:50:34,359
Speaker 7: sticks better to the ken, which is what the part

870
00:50:34,400 --> 00:50:37,719
Speaker 7: you catch it with is you kind of want it

871
00:50:37,760 --> 00:50:42,400
Speaker 7: to be like not super glossy paint wise, so that

872
00:50:42,440 --> 00:50:44,280
Speaker 7: way it doesn't like slip out of your hands.

873
00:50:44,920 --> 00:50:47,680
Speaker 3: Bro, you need to raise nobody else. Nobody else knows

874
00:50:47,719 --> 00:50:49,879
Speaker 3: as much about Condomas as well as you just said.

875
00:50:51,680 --> 00:50:56,360
Speaker 3: Only your boss is not going to be able to

876
00:50:56,360 --> 00:51:03,400
Speaker 3: replace you. It's your name again, Corey, Corey. Is there

877
00:51:03,400 --> 00:51:04,520
Speaker 3: anything else you want to say to the people of

878
00:51:04,560 --> 00:51:05,440
Speaker 3: the computer before we go.

879
00:51:07,480 --> 00:51:10,800
Speaker 7: I make music. You should listen to me. H my

880
00:51:10,800 --> 00:51:12,440
Speaker 7: my artist name is little.

881
00:51:12,200 --> 00:51:17,279
Speaker 3: Snipes, Little Snipes, Little Snipes, just like you do you

882
00:51:17,320 --> 00:51:18,759
Speaker 3: have a music do you have any you have a

883
00:51:18,840 --> 00:51:21,319
Speaker 3: music video where you're like fucking condoming it up?

884
00:51:23,640 --> 00:51:26,600
Speaker 7: I do. It's from years ago, though it's not it's

885
00:51:26,640 --> 00:51:28,680
Speaker 7: it's literally I don't want anyone to see it.

886
00:51:30,520 --> 00:51:34,120
Speaker 3: All right, take care of all right, appreciate what you did.

887
00:51:34,120 --> 00:51:35,880
Speaker 3: You want to plug your I forgot if you plugged

888
00:51:35,920 --> 00:51:36,480
Speaker 3: your thing or not?

889
00:51:37,440 --> 00:51:41,000
Speaker 7: Oh uh yeah, so Condoma USA if you guys.

890
00:51:40,760 --> 00:51:43,960
Speaker 3: Are no, don't plug them. They whatever, all right, plug them,

891
00:51:44,000 --> 00:51:48,040
Speaker 3: but just just here's the thing. Okay, hold on, if

892
00:51:48,040 --> 00:51:50,480
Speaker 3: you if you go to Kandama, USA, just use the

893
00:51:50,520 --> 00:51:53,000
Speaker 3: code Cory so that he gets a commission.

894
00:51:54,680 --> 00:51:56,920
Speaker 7: Mess my boss and tell them to do that, because

895
00:51:56,920 --> 00:51:58,040
Speaker 7: there's not a code for that.

896
00:52:00,560 --> 00:52:02,919
Speaker 3: Uh no, your bands. I thought you were gonna plug

897
00:52:02,920 --> 00:52:03,320
Speaker 3: your bands.

898
00:52:03,560 --> 00:52:07,520
Speaker 7: Oh oh my music, just little snipes. I just I

899
00:52:07,840 --> 00:52:11,160
Speaker 7: do produce. I produce produce myself and you know I'm

900
00:52:11,160 --> 00:52:14,759
Speaker 7: a vocalist. So if you if you like that kind

901
00:52:14,800 --> 00:52:16,640
Speaker 7: of thing. If not, then like.

902
00:52:16,760 --> 00:52:18,120
Speaker 1: That's cool to see a chord.

903
00:52:18,280 --> 00:52:20,480
Speaker 7: Appreciate it, man, have a good one.

904
00:52:20,880 --> 00:52:22,759
Speaker 6: Goes on the line, making.

905
00:52:22,840 --> 00:52:27,000
Speaker 2: One calls every night, every can goes to exact teaching.

906
00:52:30,520 --> 00:52:30,800
Speaker 3: Thanks,