1 00:00:01,920 --> 00:00:04,480 Speaker 1: Hey, this is Stephen Ferdick. I'm the pastor of Elevation 2 00:00:04,720 --> 00:00:06,960 Speaker 1: Church and this is our podcast. I wanted to thank 3 00:00:07,000 --> 00:00:10,280 Speaker 1: you for joining us today. Hope this inspires you. Hope 4 00:00:10,320 --> 00:00:12,360 Speaker 1: it builds your faith. Hope it gives your perspective to 5 00:00:12,400 --> 00:00:15,080 Speaker 1: see God is moving in your life. Enjoy the message. 6 00:00:17,239 --> 00:00:19,439 Speaker 1: Just to hit it real quick from first Peter five 7 00:00:19,520 --> 00:00:22,079 Speaker 1: eight and nine, which serves as a theme. We won't 8 00:00:22,079 --> 00:00:24,520 Speaker 1: preach from it today, but be alert and of sober mind. 9 00:00:24,560 --> 00:00:29,200 Speaker 1: Your enemy, the devil prows around like a roaring lion. 10 00:00:30,200 --> 00:00:32,199 Speaker 1: See I always read it wrong. I thought he was 11 00:00:32,240 --> 00:00:34,720 Speaker 1: a lion. I thought he was bigger than me and 12 00:00:34,800 --> 00:00:37,559 Speaker 1: stronger than me. But I found out that he's just 13 00:00:37,720 --> 00:00:41,360 Speaker 1: loud like a lion. And the place where he roars 14 00:00:42,080 --> 00:00:46,440 Speaker 1: is in my mind. That's where he's the loudest, in 15 00:00:46,479 --> 00:00:49,599 Speaker 1: the thoughts that I have. And so he's looking for 16 00:00:49,640 --> 00:00:54,520 Speaker 1: someone to devour. Did you ever wonder why all those 17 00:00:54,840 --> 00:00:58,560 Speaker 1: Twitter feeds and Instagram feeds and Facebook feeds, why they 18 00:00:58,560 --> 00:01:02,720 Speaker 1: call him feeds is because they're eating your mind alive? 19 00:01:04,120 --> 00:01:09,000 Speaker 1: Did you know that? And so he devours people in 20 00:01:09,040 --> 00:01:11,480 Speaker 1: any way that he can. He's looking for someone. The 21 00:01:11,520 --> 00:01:16,800 Speaker 1: command is resist him, But how many know it's hard 22 00:01:16,840 --> 00:01:22,440 Speaker 1: to resist what you don't recognize, and if we're to 23 00:01:22,560 --> 00:01:25,880 Speaker 1: resist the enemy, because I don't know about you, But 24 00:01:25,959 --> 00:01:28,600 Speaker 1: I don't intend to live the rest of my life 25 00:01:28,640 --> 00:01:35,360 Speaker 1: as a Christian and be a slave to my own imagination. Amen. 26 00:01:36,600 --> 00:01:38,919 Speaker 1: I don't intend to live the rest of my life 27 00:01:39,000 --> 00:01:43,720 Speaker 1: forgiven by Christ as a prisoner to my past and 28 00:01:43,760 --> 00:01:47,600 Speaker 1: replaying memories of moments that have come and gone, but 29 00:01:47,680 --> 00:01:50,840 Speaker 1: I can't escape them in my mind. And so I 30 00:01:50,920 --> 00:01:53,600 Speaker 1: really intend if it takes me the rest of my life, 31 00:01:53,640 --> 00:01:55,800 Speaker 1: and it might, because it seems like sometimes I take 32 00:01:55,840 --> 00:01:59,040 Speaker 1: two steps forward and three steps back. But I'm trying 33 00:01:59,080 --> 00:02:01,559 Speaker 1: to get free. I'm trying to take my mind back 34 00:02:02,200 --> 00:02:05,080 Speaker 1: so I can serve God with my mind and love 35 00:02:05,120 --> 00:02:06,800 Speaker 1: the Lord my God with all my heart, with all 36 00:02:06,800 --> 00:02:10,520 Speaker 1: my soul, with all my mind, with all my strength. 37 00:02:11,160 --> 00:02:13,640 Speaker 1: And I don't want to be drained, so I go 38 00:02:13,760 --> 00:02:18,520 Speaker 1: into each day with no energy and broken focus. I 39 00:02:18,560 --> 00:02:21,079 Speaker 1: really want to be able to see clear the way 40 00:02:21,080 --> 00:02:24,200 Speaker 1: ahead so I can follow Christ into my future. And 41 00:02:24,200 --> 00:02:27,560 Speaker 1: that's the intention of this series. But in order to 42 00:02:28,560 --> 00:02:31,680 Speaker 1: resist the enemy, we've got to recognize him, or we'll 43 00:02:31,680 --> 00:02:37,520 Speaker 1: spend our whole life, resisting all the wrong things, resisting 44 00:02:38,320 --> 00:02:43,560 Speaker 1: silence when sometimes that's where God speaks the loudest, resisting 45 00:02:43,639 --> 00:02:47,200 Speaker 1: or trying to avoid awkward situations. And God's middle name 46 00:02:47,280 --> 00:02:50,760 Speaker 1: is awkward. He'll run out of food on purpose to 47 00:02:50,800 --> 00:02:53,280 Speaker 1: see what you're going to do in an awkward situation. 48 00:02:54,040 --> 00:02:57,520 Speaker 1: He'll sit down next to a disreputable woman it all well, 49 00:02:57,600 --> 00:03:00,000 Speaker 1: and make it awkward. So the disciples have to decide 50 00:03:00,160 --> 00:03:04,200 Speaker 1: if they really believe that this message is for everyone. 51 00:03:04,560 --> 00:03:10,320 Speaker 1: And so let's take a look today at this idea 52 00:03:11,360 --> 00:03:15,600 Speaker 1: of recognizing the enemy so we can see how he's 53 00:03:15,639 --> 00:03:17,960 Speaker 1: at work in our lives. And this may be a 54 00:03:17,960 --> 00:03:20,880 Speaker 1: weird title, but I want to call this message the 55 00:03:21,000 --> 00:03:26,040 Speaker 1: devil in three D. What does he look like in 56 00:03:26,160 --> 00:03:30,320 Speaker 1: real life, not our cartoon image of him, our coloring 57 00:03:30,360 --> 00:03:33,639 Speaker 1: book devil. Once we get the cape off of him 58 00:03:33,680 --> 00:03:39,000 Speaker 1: and try to understand how he really operates to try 59 00:03:39,040 --> 00:03:43,120 Speaker 1: to master our minds and set up a seed of 60 00:03:43,160 --> 00:03:46,360 Speaker 1: influence and our souls through controlling our emotions, we can 61 00:03:46,400 --> 00:03:49,440 Speaker 1: start to do battle. And you know, Paul said one time, 62 00:03:49,520 --> 00:03:58,200 Speaker 1: we are not ignorant of Satan's devices, devices, Satan's devices, 63 00:04:00,160 --> 00:04:02,280 Speaker 1: and of course I don't think this is the devil, 64 00:04:02,320 --> 00:04:04,360 Speaker 1: but I wanted to give you three things just to 65 00:04:04,360 --> 00:04:08,480 Speaker 1: make it memorable that start with the letter D. And 66 00:04:08,760 --> 00:04:11,680 Speaker 1: rather than continue on talking about Peter this week, I 67 00:04:11,720 --> 00:04:14,400 Speaker 1: want to move into the Old Testament for a few 68 00:04:14,440 --> 00:04:18,000 Speaker 1: moments and tell you a story about a Bible character 69 00:04:18,080 --> 00:04:21,520 Speaker 1: that I know you've heard of, named Moses, and I 70 00:04:21,560 --> 00:04:25,120 Speaker 1: want to use this one example from his Life's probably 71 00:04:25,160 --> 00:04:27,680 Speaker 1: not the one that he would choose for us to evaluate, 72 00:04:27,800 --> 00:04:30,840 Speaker 1: because he made a great mistake and it cost him dearly. 73 00:04:30,920 --> 00:04:34,520 Speaker 1: But hopefully, like First Corinthians ten says, we can use 74 00:04:34,839 --> 00:04:37,880 Speaker 1: him as an example so the same thing doesn't happen 75 00:04:37,920 --> 00:04:39,599 Speaker 1: to us. How many of you want your kids to 76 00:04:39,720 --> 00:04:42,760 Speaker 1: learn some stuff from your experience that they don't have 77 00:04:42,800 --> 00:04:47,040 Speaker 1: to learn through their own pain. And so let's look 78 00:04:47,040 --> 00:04:49,160 Speaker 1: at this. I'll read it to you. I'll be honest 79 00:04:49,160 --> 00:04:51,279 Speaker 1: with you. I never appreached on this passage before because 80 00:04:51,279 --> 00:04:55,600 Speaker 1: I was intimidated by it. And really it's a little confusing. 81 00:04:55,839 --> 00:04:59,120 Speaker 1: You'll see that it seems a little harsh what happens 82 00:04:59,120 --> 00:05:02,599 Speaker 1: in this passage. And honestly, I knew that if I 83 00:05:02,600 --> 00:05:05,960 Speaker 1: ever preached it, that God would probably speak something to 84 00:05:06,000 --> 00:05:09,240 Speaker 1: me that I wouldn't want to hear because I relate 85 00:05:09,320 --> 00:05:11,920 Speaker 1: to a little thing that happens in this Bible story. 86 00:05:11,960 --> 00:05:15,000 Speaker 1: But I want to share it with you now as 87 00:05:15,000 --> 00:05:17,159 Speaker 1: we lean into this message. The devil in three D 88 00:05:17,960 --> 00:05:22,520 Speaker 1: and of course Moses's devil was a little different than ours. 89 00:05:23,160 --> 00:05:27,040 Speaker 1: He would have said Pharaoh, who was the ruler of Egypt, 90 00:05:27,360 --> 00:05:29,680 Speaker 1: the one that he had to demand emancipation for the 91 00:05:29,680 --> 00:05:32,799 Speaker 1: people of God from. He never really asked for that assignment. 92 00:05:33,080 --> 00:05:36,919 Speaker 1: He didn't seek that assignment. He wasn't looking for a 93 00:05:37,000 --> 00:05:40,840 Speaker 1: life purpose. God just interrupted what he thought was his 94 00:05:42,480 --> 00:05:45,279 Speaker 1: second half of life and gave him something different to 95 00:05:45,320 --> 00:05:49,000 Speaker 1: do and wasn't terribly convenient. But now we're looking at 96 00:05:49,000 --> 00:05:51,880 Speaker 1: Moses at the end of his life, and this is 97 00:05:51,920 --> 00:05:54,800 Speaker 1: what the Bible says Numbers chapter twenty, verse one. In 98 00:05:54,839 --> 00:05:57,760 Speaker 1: the first month, the whole Israelite community arrived at the 99 00:05:57,760 --> 00:06:02,159 Speaker 1: desert of Zenn and they stayed at Kadesh. Their Miriam 100 00:06:02,200 --> 00:06:05,760 Speaker 1: died and was buried. Their Miriam died and was buried. 101 00:06:05,760 --> 00:06:08,440 Speaker 1: Now there was no water for the community, and the 102 00:06:08,480 --> 00:06:12,279 Speaker 1: people gathered in opposition to Moses and Aaron, and they 103 00:06:12,440 --> 00:06:15,800 Speaker 1: quarreled with Moses and said, if only we had died 104 00:06:16,080 --> 00:06:19,920 Speaker 1: when our brothers fell dead before the Lord. Why did 105 00:06:20,000 --> 00:06:23,719 Speaker 1: you bring the Lord's community into this wilderness that we 106 00:06:23,800 --> 00:06:27,479 Speaker 1: and our livestock should die here? Why did you bring 107 00:06:27,600 --> 00:06:31,360 Speaker 1: us up out of Egypt to this terrible place? It 108 00:06:31,400 --> 00:06:38,000 Speaker 1: has no grain or figs, grape vines or pomegranates, Wi 109 00:06:38,000 --> 00:06:43,080 Speaker 1: Fi or Starbucks. It's trying to bring you into the text. 110 00:06:43,080 --> 00:06:45,159 Speaker 1: I don't want you bored trying to listen to this 111 00:06:45,240 --> 00:06:51,240 Speaker 1: Bible story. And there is no water to drink. Moses 112 00:06:51,279 --> 00:06:53,680 Speaker 1: and Aaron went from the assembly to the entrance to 113 00:06:53,720 --> 00:06:57,640 Speaker 1: the tent of meeting and fell face down, and the 114 00:06:57,640 --> 00:07:00,920 Speaker 1: glory of the Lord appeared to them. When God's glory 115 00:07:00,960 --> 00:07:04,960 Speaker 1: shows up when you've run out of answers, That's when 116 00:07:05,000 --> 00:07:08,479 Speaker 1: God's glory shows up when you admit God, I'm powerless 117 00:07:08,920 --> 00:07:11,840 Speaker 1: to do this on my own. I need you God. 118 00:07:12,360 --> 00:07:16,720 Speaker 1: I've tried everything, and still these people are driving me crazy. 119 00:07:16,760 --> 00:07:19,520 Speaker 1: But I'm here at the entrance to the tent and 120 00:07:19,560 --> 00:07:21,960 Speaker 1: I need you to speak. So for everybody who came 121 00:07:22,000 --> 00:07:25,080 Speaker 1: into church with a cocky attitude today talking about I 122 00:07:25,120 --> 00:07:26,960 Speaker 1: wonder what this sermon is gonna be about. And he 123 00:07:27,040 --> 00:07:29,040 Speaker 1: better hurry up and get to it. Because I don't 124 00:07:29,040 --> 00:07:30,920 Speaker 1: really even want to be here, up here in that 125 00:07:31,000 --> 00:07:35,320 Speaker 1: karate kid shirt looking like a Halloween costume, say something, 126 00:07:35,360 --> 00:07:37,520 Speaker 1: won't you. You're not gonna get it. But those of 127 00:07:37,560 --> 00:07:40,320 Speaker 1: you who came in here humbled under the mighty hand 128 00:07:40,320 --> 00:07:47,200 Speaker 1: of God, he might just speak, because you're listening now. 129 00:07:47,240 --> 00:07:52,720 Speaker 1: Then the Lord said to Moses verse seven, take the staff, 130 00:07:53,800 --> 00:07:57,160 Speaker 1: that same staff that you raised over the Red Sea, 131 00:07:57,280 --> 00:08:00,800 Speaker 1: and it parted, that same staff that initially threw on 132 00:08:00,840 --> 00:08:03,160 Speaker 1: the ground. And I proved who I was to you 133 00:08:03,240 --> 00:08:06,800 Speaker 1: because I turned the staff into a snake, and you 134 00:08:06,840 --> 00:08:09,480 Speaker 1: picked it back up and it became a staff again. 135 00:08:09,560 --> 00:08:13,320 Speaker 1: That same staff that turned the Nile River into blood 136 00:08:13,800 --> 00:08:16,280 Speaker 1: until your enemy had no choice but to release you 137 00:08:16,400 --> 00:08:20,320 Speaker 1: from bondage. That same staff that when you raised it up, 138 00:08:20,520 --> 00:08:24,800 Speaker 1: the Amalekites were no match for the Israelites. That same staff. 139 00:08:24,880 --> 00:08:30,840 Speaker 1: Take it now. I want you to get erin and 140 00:08:31,040 --> 00:08:35,880 Speaker 1: get everybody together and speak to the rock before their eyes, 141 00:08:36,760 --> 00:08:39,520 Speaker 1: and it will pour out its water, and you will 142 00:08:39,559 --> 00:08:41,480 Speaker 1: bring water out of the rock for the community, so 143 00:08:41,520 --> 00:08:43,599 Speaker 1: they in their livestock and drink. So Moses took the 144 00:08:43,679 --> 00:08:47,640 Speaker 1: staff from the Lord's presence, just as he had commanded him. 145 00:08:48,040 --> 00:08:51,120 Speaker 1: He and Aaron gathered the assembly together in front of 146 00:08:51,160 --> 00:08:54,680 Speaker 1: the rock, and Moses said to them, listen, you rebels. 147 00:08:55,520 --> 00:08:57,560 Speaker 1: I'm gonna start saying that around my house. More to 148 00:08:57,600 --> 00:09:02,960 Speaker 1: the kids. Do we bring you water out of this rock? 149 00:09:03,880 --> 00:09:08,240 Speaker 1: Isn't anything I do enough for you. I've been leading 150 00:09:08,280 --> 00:09:13,720 Speaker 1: you through this wilderness for thirty eight years, and it's 151 00:09:13,840 --> 00:09:17,800 Speaker 1: never enough. It never stops. It never stops. Somebody shout, 152 00:09:17,800 --> 00:09:21,760 Speaker 1: it never stops. I screamed that one day on vacation, 153 00:09:22,280 --> 00:09:24,839 Speaker 1: top of my lungs. I'd been such a good dad 154 00:09:24,880 --> 00:09:27,679 Speaker 1: all day. I took my kids swimming, I went on 155 00:09:27,720 --> 00:09:30,000 Speaker 1: a bike ride with the kids. We went in ate 156 00:09:30,080 --> 00:09:33,400 Speaker 1: Japanese food, and we sat with people we didn't know, 157 00:09:33,800 --> 00:09:35,559 Speaker 1: and I pretended to think it was funny when he 158 00:09:35,600 --> 00:09:38,200 Speaker 1: flipped the bowl into his hat, like I never saw 159 00:09:38,200 --> 00:09:41,000 Speaker 1: it before. I was a good dad that day. I 160 00:09:41,040 --> 00:09:43,280 Speaker 1: was a great dad that day. I read to him 161 00:09:43,320 --> 00:09:45,760 Speaker 1: at bedtime. And still at the end of the day, 162 00:09:46,040 --> 00:09:48,400 Speaker 1: they were fighting, and all of a sudden, I heard 163 00:09:48,480 --> 00:09:51,320 Speaker 1: myself screaming at my kids. Have you ever had an 164 00:09:51,360 --> 00:09:54,320 Speaker 1: out of body experience screaming at your kids? And you 165 00:09:54,400 --> 00:09:57,080 Speaker 1: were surprised what you said next? And you were thinking 166 00:09:57,120 --> 00:09:59,599 Speaker 1: I might have to bleep myself at it myself. I 167 00:09:59,600 --> 00:10:01,960 Speaker 1: don't know what what's coming out next. The Holy Ghost 168 00:10:02,120 --> 00:10:05,040 Speaker 1: just left and something else took over. And now I'm 169 00:10:05,080 --> 00:10:08,480 Speaker 1: watching myself and I'm scaring of myself, and I shouted 170 00:10:08,520 --> 00:10:15,880 Speaker 1: at the top of my lungs. It never stops. Now 171 00:10:15,880 --> 00:10:21,360 Speaker 1: we can laugh about it. It It wasn't funny at the time. Listen, 172 00:10:21,480 --> 00:10:25,360 Speaker 1: your rebels, must we bring you water out of this rock. 173 00:10:26,280 --> 00:10:29,120 Speaker 1: We already did this one time, thirty eight years ago. 174 00:10:29,880 --> 00:10:33,760 Speaker 1: This has happened before. God kept your shoes from wearing out. 175 00:10:33,800 --> 00:10:39,360 Speaker 1: Then Moses raised his arm and struck the rock, which 176 00:10:39,400 --> 00:10:43,840 Speaker 1: God did not instruct him to do, twice with his staff, 177 00:10:44,880 --> 00:10:50,160 Speaker 1: and water gushed out, and the community and their livestock drank. 178 00:10:50,280 --> 00:10:55,120 Speaker 1: So on the surface what Moses did worked, But just 179 00:10:55,240 --> 00:10:59,000 Speaker 1: because it worked on the surface doesn't mean it was 180 00:10:59,080 --> 00:11:03,840 Speaker 1: wise and does not mean it will have a sustainable effect. 181 00:11:04,800 --> 00:11:07,120 Speaker 1: And this is why when you control people with your 182 00:11:07,160 --> 00:11:15,080 Speaker 1: anger or your pouting or your manipulat see I can't 183 00:11:15,080 --> 00:11:18,079 Speaker 1: even say the word is a foreign concept to me, manipulation. 184 00:11:20,120 --> 00:11:25,240 Speaker 1: You end up very lonely because the cost of controlling 185 00:11:25,280 --> 00:11:28,880 Speaker 1: people is to end up alone and I know I 186 00:11:28,960 --> 00:11:31,080 Speaker 1: got you pinned up against your chair right now talking 187 00:11:31,120 --> 00:11:34,400 Speaker 1: about this sermons, so look confused and you get through this. 188 00:11:34,559 --> 00:11:39,480 Speaker 1: But some of the stuff that works on the surface 189 00:11:40,360 --> 00:11:44,320 Speaker 1: costs us in the end. And that's why it's so 190 00:11:44,360 --> 00:11:48,240 Speaker 1: important that we understand this. Because what everybody got water, 191 00:11:49,640 --> 00:11:54,120 Speaker 1: but it cost Moses what God had promised. And if 192 00:11:54,160 --> 00:11:57,920 Speaker 1: the passage ended at verse eleven, you'd say, well, what's 193 00:11:57,920 --> 00:12:03,800 Speaker 1: so hard about that scripture? Unfortunately, Verse twelve tell us 194 00:12:03,880 --> 00:12:06,400 Speaker 1: that even though the water came out of the rock, 195 00:12:07,480 --> 00:12:11,679 Speaker 1: what came out of Moses's heart in that moment prevented 196 00:12:11,720 --> 00:12:15,319 Speaker 1: him from going further into God's promise. And even though 197 00:12:15,320 --> 00:12:18,800 Speaker 1: all the people were happy and the people were impressed, 198 00:12:19,360 --> 00:12:21,800 Speaker 1: and the people might not have even known anything was 199 00:12:21,840 --> 00:12:25,320 Speaker 1: wrong because they were all too busy drinking, the people 200 00:12:25,720 --> 00:12:29,920 Speaker 1: got hydrated. The people got what they wanted, but Moses 201 00:12:30,080 --> 00:12:34,200 Speaker 1: lost what God had promised. Verse twelve, the Lord said 202 00:12:34,240 --> 00:12:37,720 Speaker 1: to Moses and Aaron, because you did not trust in 203 00:12:37,800 --> 00:12:42,000 Speaker 1: me enough to honor me as holy in the sight 204 00:12:42,200 --> 00:12:47,560 Speaker 1: of the Israelites, you will not bring this community into 205 00:12:47,640 --> 00:12:55,319 Speaker 1: the land I give them. These were the waters of Mirabah, 206 00:12:55,720 --> 00:12:58,840 Speaker 1: where the Israelites quarreled with the Lord, and where he 207 00:12:58,920 --> 00:13:03,520 Speaker 1: was proved holy among them. Makes me wish I would 208 00:13:03,559 --> 00:13:07,840 Speaker 1: have paid more attention in my Hebrew class, because if 209 00:13:07,880 --> 00:13:12,000 Speaker 1: I knew that miraba means quarreling, I would understand that 210 00:13:12,040 --> 00:13:16,679 Speaker 1: God does some great miracles in places of great conflict. 211 00:13:18,080 --> 00:13:19,840 Speaker 1: You know, it's funny all the little things we miss 212 00:13:19,840 --> 00:13:23,479 Speaker 1: if we read the Bible in English because the interpretation. 213 00:13:23,679 --> 00:13:27,080 Speaker 1: Sometimes the writers will put little humorous things in there 214 00:13:27,120 --> 00:13:31,920 Speaker 1: that I wouldn't know to look for. But this particular 215 00:13:31,960 --> 00:13:33,920 Speaker 1: word play, if you go back to verse two and 216 00:13:33,960 --> 00:13:35,520 Speaker 1: I told you, I'm gonna give you three d's and 217 00:13:35,559 --> 00:13:38,640 Speaker 1: I am the first one is deficit because he is 218 00:13:38,679 --> 00:13:41,679 Speaker 1: describing a deficit that the people of God are in. 219 00:13:41,760 --> 00:13:43,680 Speaker 1: It says in verse two there was no water for 220 00:13:43,760 --> 00:13:47,600 Speaker 1: the community, and the people gathered. Now the Hebrew word 221 00:13:47,640 --> 00:13:51,319 Speaker 1: forgathered here that he uses is a word that means 222 00:13:51,679 --> 00:13:56,080 Speaker 1: to come together for the purpose of conflict. And see, 223 00:13:56,120 --> 00:13:59,560 Speaker 1: I didn't even know Facebook was in the Bible. Talk 224 00:13:59,600 --> 00:14:03,800 Speaker 1: to me, they call it a community. But the community 225 00:14:03,880 --> 00:14:08,680 Speaker 1: came together to quarrel in that a nice word to quarrel, 226 00:14:09,679 --> 00:14:12,160 Speaker 1: not to not to fight, not to argue, but to 227 00:14:12,679 --> 00:14:16,920 Speaker 1: quarrel and so they're they're fighting with each other and 228 00:14:16,920 --> 00:14:18,880 Speaker 1: they don't have patience. But they don't have patience because 229 00:14:18,880 --> 00:14:22,000 Speaker 1: they don't have water. And before we're too hard on them, 230 00:14:22,040 --> 00:14:26,320 Speaker 1: these complaining Israelites, we need to consider that this was 231 00:14:26,360 --> 00:14:29,720 Speaker 1: a matter of life and death. This is not the 232 00:14:29,720 --> 00:14:33,720 Speaker 1: barista messed up your order and forgot that you prefer 233 00:14:33,760 --> 00:14:37,800 Speaker 1: almond milk. This is something different. This is we can't 234 00:14:37,880 --> 00:14:41,280 Speaker 1: live but a few days without water, and so we're desperate. 235 00:14:42,120 --> 00:14:45,560 Speaker 1: And I've noticed that when people get desperate, they start 236 00:14:45,640 --> 00:14:48,920 Speaker 1: doing things they wouldn't normally do. Have you noticed this 237 00:14:48,960 --> 00:14:52,480 Speaker 1: about yourself, that that when you get desperate, you get edgy, 238 00:14:53,360 --> 00:14:57,040 Speaker 1: you get touchy, and sometimes you're lashing out at people. 239 00:14:57,120 --> 00:14:59,680 Speaker 1: And it's not about the people. Like I had to 240 00:15:00,000 --> 00:15:02,080 Speaker 1: flaying to the kids about my road rage, it's not 241 00:15:02,200 --> 00:15:05,280 Speaker 1: really about the driving. It has nothing to do with 242 00:15:05,360 --> 00:15:08,160 Speaker 1: the driving. It's just that Dad finds this a convenient 243 00:15:08,280 --> 00:15:11,440 Speaker 1: place to be shielded and an anonymous where I can 244 00:15:11,520 --> 00:15:15,560 Speaker 1: let some stuff lie that's been building up. God, I 245 00:15:15,600 --> 00:15:18,240 Speaker 1: don't want a real preacher, JJ. You preached next week. 246 00:15:18,280 --> 00:15:23,280 Speaker 1: Thank them out. It's a whole thing because they came 247 00:15:23,360 --> 00:15:26,440 Speaker 1: together to quarrel and what they didn't know couldn't know, 248 00:15:26,600 --> 00:15:29,760 Speaker 1: is that they were on the border of Canaan. The 249 00:15:29,840 --> 00:15:33,480 Speaker 1: land that God had promised them was just a few 250 00:15:33,600 --> 00:15:37,160 Speaker 1: short months away. But in a time when they should 251 00:15:37,160 --> 00:15:40,520 Speaker 1: have been preparing to conquer, the enemy had them in 252 00:15:40,560 --> 00:15:44,560 Speaker 1: a state of conflict. Don't you understand that the reason 253 00:15:45,360 --> 00:15:48,640 Speaker 1: that you've been fighting like you've been fighting, and even 254 00:15:48,680 --> 00:15:51,440 Speaker 1: the reason sometimes that the devil will get you focused 255 00:15:51,440 --> 00:15:55,040 Speaker 1: on fighting against people, is because God is trying to 256 00:15:55,080 --> 00:15:59,320 Speaker 1: bring you into what he spoke over your life and 257 00:15:59,360 --> 00:16:02,800 Speaker 1: the promise of his inheritance and the saints. And now 258 00:16:02,840 --> 00:16:05,400 Speaker 1: the closer you get to that promise, the greater the 259 00:16:05,480 --> 00:16:08,600 Speaker 1: conflict is going to be. I think one of the 260 00:16:08,640 --> 00:16:11,520 Speaker 1: reasons that our church gets so divided is because the 261 00:16:11,640 --> 00:16:14,440 Speaker 1: enemy knows that if we would ever stop fighting and 262 00:16:14,560 --> 00:16:17,840 Speaker 1: focus on the mission that we were given by our 263 00:16:17,920 --> 00:16:20,800 Speaker 1: captain and the savior of our souls, we would be 264 00:16:20,920 --> 00:16:24,280 Speaker 1: dangerous to the kingdom of darkness. But we can't come 265 00:16:24,280 --> 00:16:28,320 Speaker 1: together because we quarrel too much. It never stops, we 266 00:16:28,360 --> 00:16:31,760 Speaker 1: never quit finding new things to fight about. It's not 267 00:16:31,800 --> 00:16:35,840 Speaker 1: only that Christians fight against other religions. We can subdivide 268 00:16:35,880 --> 00:16:40,400 Speaker 1: on a multiplicity of different levels of Christianity, and we 269 00:16:40,440 --> 00:16:42,760 Speaker 1: can get into little groups so that we no longer 270 00:16:42,800 --> 00:16:45,320 Speaker 1: come together to lift up the name of the Lord 271 00:16:45,600 --> 00:16:47,920 Speaker 1: and to take this message to the ends of the earth. 272 00:16:48,240 --> 00:16:51,200 Speaker 1: But now we're fighting over a translation of the Bible, 273 00:16:51,600 --> 00:16:54,280 Speaker 1: or we're fighting over what you wear to worship, or 274 00:16:54,280 --> 00:16:57,400 Speaker 1: we're fighting over what specific nuance you believe about the 275 00:16:57,440 --> 00:17:00,560 Speaker 1: Holy Spirit. But I didn't come to quarrel, so I 276 00:17:00,560 --> 00:17:03,280 Speaker 1: don't need to fight with you. I came to conquer, 277 00:17:03,480 --> 00:17:05,760 Speaker 1: and I need you in my corner. And I don't 278 00:17:05,760 --> 00:17:09,080 Speaker 1: have the energy to spend fighting against the people God 279 00:17:09,160 --> 00:17:11,920 Speaker 1: called me to fight with. So if you're black, fight 280 00:17:12,000 --> 00:17:14,720 Speaker 1: with me. If you're a Hispanic, fight with me. If 281 00:17:14,720 --> 00:17:17,320 Speaker 1: you're a woman, fight with me. If you're young, fight 282 00:17:17,400 --> 00:17:21,080 Speaker 1: with me. Let's get together, old heads, young people, let's 283 00:17:21,119 --> 00:17:37,040 Speaker 1: fight this fight together. And there's no water in the wilderness. 284 00:17:38,240 --> 00:17:42,080 Speaker 1: And when there is no water, when there is a deficit, 285 00:17:43,160 --> 00:17:50,920 Speaker 1: you start reacting instead of responding. I'm apprecia this message, Hollie. 286 00:17:52,560 --> 00:17:56,800 Speaker 1: I feel it happening right now, because what I want 287 00:17:56,840 --> 00:18:00,280 Speaker 1: to say is, forget about the budget deficit. We got 288 00:18:00,280 --> 00:18:02,320 Speaker 1: a whole lot more than a budget deficit in our 289 00:18:02,400 --> 00:18:06,200 Speaker 1: nation today. And it's a different deficit than they faced. 290 00:18:06,240 --> 00:18:09,040 Speaker 1: It's not a lack of water. I feel like in 291 00:18:09,080 --> 00:18:13,880 Speaker 1: our world today we are severely lacking in our ability 292 00:18:13,880 --> 00:18:18,879 Speaker 1: to empathize with others because we've got a surplus of 293 00:18:18,960 --> 00:18:25,399 Speaker 1: opinions and a deficit of empathy. Let me try another one. 294 00:18:25,960 --> 00:18:31,320 Speaker 1: They didn't like that very much. We have a surplus 295 00:18:31,320 --> 00:18:40,200 Speaker 1: of information and a deficit of wisdom, because if we 296 00:18:40,240 --> 00:18:43,239 Speaker 1: don't have insight into information, we will get caught up 297 00:18:43,280 --> 00:18:47,679 Speaker 1: in highlights and headlines and highlights and headlines and highlights 298 00:18:47,720 --> 00:18:53,159 Speaker 1: and headlines and highlights and headlines, clicking on crazy stuff 299 00:18:53,160 --> 00:18:55,719 Speaker 1: and not even bothering to read anything but the first sentence. 300 00:18:55,720 --> 00:18:58,120 Speaker 1: And then somebody wants to ask me, do you really 301 00:18:58,160 --> 00:19:01,400 Speaker 1: have a water slide on your stage because you don't 302 00:19:01,400 --> 00:19:10,720 Speaker 1: want to come. I almost lost my faith in the 303 00:19:10,840 --> 00:19:18,040 Speaker 1: human race over that water slide. It's a deficit, and 304 00:19:18,080 --> 00:19:20,960 Speaker 1: I've been noticing about myself. Maybe this is why I 305 00:19:21,000 --> 00:19:23,760 Speaker 1: wanted to preach the series that I'm having a hard 306 00:19:23,800 --> 00:19:30,880 Speaker 1: time focusing because you know, the Devil's devices. I think 307 00:19:30,880 --> 00:19:35,159 Speaker 1: it's I think I'm no neurologist, but I think when 308 00:19:35,200 --> 00:19:38,040 Speaker 1: it's getting hard for me to read three sentences in 309 00:19:38,119 --> 00:19:42,320 Speaker 1: a book and now I'm trying to swipe paper. When 310 00:19:42,320 --> 00:19:47,520 Speaker 1: I reached up to swipe a book the other day, 311 00:19:48,480 --> 00:19:52,479 Speaker 1: I thought, I got to take my mind back. Actually, 312 00:19:52,520 --> 00:19:54,840 Speaker 1: next week, if the Lord will enable me and help me, 313 00:19:54,920 --> 00:19:57,360 Speaker 1: I'm gonna try to preach on that very subject of focus, 314 00:19:59,000 --> 00:20:01,040 Speaker 1: because I'm talking to more more people who feel like 315 00:20:01,080 --> 00:20:04,639 Speaker 1: their mind is fragmented and can't hold a thought. And 316 00:20:05,240 --> 00:20:07,040 Speaker 1: it's not just because you're getting old and fish oil 317 00:20:07,119 --> 00:20:09,679 Speaker 1: won't help it. There's some principles in the Word of 318 00:20:09,720 --> 00:20:14,000 Speaker 1: God about distraction that we need to look at. It's 319 00:20:14,080 --> 00:20:19,760 Speaker 1: a deficit, a deficit where we have more ways to 320 00:20:19,880 --> 00:20:27,680 Speaker 1: communicate and we're connecting less than ever. I think that's 321 00:20:27,680 --> 00:20:30,400 Speaker 1: what the skyrocketing porn rates are about. I think that's 322 00:20:30,440 --> 00:20:33,520 Speaker 1: what the skyrocketing sleep deprivation rates are about. We are 323 00:20:33,600 --> 00:20:39,440 Speaker 1: desperate to connect, and we call ourselves connected and nothing 324 00:20:39,440 --> 00:20:43,920 Speaker 1: could be further from the truth. And it's too much. 325 00:20:45,400 --> 00:20:49,000 Speaker 1: Costa called it too much to live with, too little 326 00:20:49,040 --> 00:20:54,439 Speaker 1: to live for. It's a deficit, a deficit of meaning, 327 00:20:56,200 --> 00:21:02,760 Speaker 1: a deficit of insight. And when the deficit is left unaddressed, 328 00:21:02,840 --> 00:21:07,800 Speaker 1: you know what happens next. Disappointment sets in And that's 329 00:21:07,800 --> 00:21:12,280 Speaker 1: the second D is disappointment because I'm looking at how 330 00:21:12,320 --> 00:21:14,800 Speaker 1: the Israelites are talking to Moses right, and I get it. 331 00:21:15,840 --> 00:21:17,879 Speaker 1: I get it because when you don't have what you 332 00:21:17,920 --> 00:21:20,880 Speaker 1: need to live, you start doing things that you would 333 00:21:20,920 --> 00:21:23,840 Speaker 1: not normally do and it's not even you. And you 334 00:21:23,840 --> 00:21:25,800 Speaker 1: also want to explain to people. Sometimes I don't even 335 00:21:25,800 --> 00:21:27,720 Speaker 1: know who that was. I'm so sorry. Can we take 336 00:21:27,760 --> 00:21:31,520 Speaker 1: back the last five minutes? And sometimes you can't. Sometimes 337 00:21:31,560 --> 00:21:34,960 Speaker 1: you can undo it. And what the Israelites said to 338 00:21:35,040 --> 00:21:39,280 Speaker 1: Moses here apparently hit that button. Now everybody has a button. 339 00:21:40,760 --> 00:21:42,560 Speaker 1: All of you who are calm, we just haven't found 340 00:21:42,600 --> 00:21:48,760 Speaker 1: yours yet. Really, everybody has a boiling point. Everybody has 341 00:21:49,320 --> 00:21:52,959 Speaker 1: something that if you hit that, you will see a 342 00:21:52,960 --> 00:21:58,800 Speaker 1: different version of them, and you will completely change their 343 00:21:58,880 --> 00:22:02,359 Speaker 1: enneagram number. The right button, they go from a seven 344 00:22:02,440 --> 00:22:05,480 Speaker 1: to a two, a peacemaker to a shooter, and it 345 00:22:05,520 --> 00:22:10,280 Speaker 1: can happen so quick. Most is the man of God 346 00:22:10,920 --> 00:22:15,720 Speaker 1: is violently striking a rock when God is trying to 347 00:22:15,720 --> 00:22:18,320 Speaker 1: show his people grace. But the reason he did it, 348 00:22:18,359 --> 00:22:21,679 Speaker 1: and this is why I can't figure out sometimes in 349 00:22:21,680 --> 00:22:23,840 Speaker 1: my own life where it comes from, because I find 350 00:22:23,840 --> 00:22:26,440 Speaker 1: things coming out of me, and I'm confused about where 351 00:22:26,440 --> 00:22:28,359 Speaker 1: it came from, because i know I'm not mad about 352 00:22:28,400 --> 00:22:30,720 Speaker 1: what I'm mad about, because it's not a big enough 353 00:22:30,760 --> 00:22:32,320 Speaker 1: deal to make me as mad as I am about 354 00:22:32,320 --> 00:22:35,520 Speaker 1: what I'm mad about. Please help me preach to you 355 00:22:36,760 --> 00:22:41,000 Speaker 1: in this together. And they just got done telling him 356 00:22:41,040 --> 00:22:47,000 Speaker 1: they wanted to die. And it's his fault. Because anytime 357 00:22:47,040 --> 00:22:49,719 Speaker 1: you are facing a deficit in your own life, you 358 00:22:49,760 --> 00:22:55,920 Speaker 1: start looking for someone to blame. Anytime you are confronted 359 00:22:55,960 --> 00:22:59,440 Speaker 1: with your own barrenness or brokenness, you want to find 360 00:22:59,480 --> 00:23:02,560 Speaker 1: somebody else or something else whose fault it can be. 361 00:23:03,840 --> 00:23:05,760 Speaker 1: And the first thing we do when we run out 362 00:23:05,760 --> 00:23:09,480 Speaker 1: of resource is to look for someone else to take responsibility. 363 00:23:10,400 --> 00:23:12,440 Speaker 1: If only we had died when our brothers fell dead 364 00:23:12,480 --> 00:23:16,440 Speaker 1: before the Lord. Why did you bring the Lord's community? 365 00:23:16,480 --> 00:23:19,480 Speaker 1: Why didn't my mom? Why wasn't my dad around? All? 366 00:23:19,520 --> 00:23:22,440 Speaker 1: These are reasonable things to say, but they don't really 367 00:23:22,440 --> 00:23:26,080 Speaker 1: help the situation. They only make it worse. Why did 368 00:23:26,119 --> 00:23:28,840 Speaker 1: you bring us out here into this wilderness that we 369 00:23:28,880 --> 00:23:32,680 Speaker 1: should die here? They weren't actually about to die. God 370 00:23:32,760 --> 00:23:35,639 Speaker 1: wasn't going to let him die. They were on the 371 00:23:35,920 --> 00:23:39,960 Speaker 1: edge of destiny, about to take the land that God 372 00:23:40,040 --> 00:23:43,960 Speaker 1: had promised for generations, and they want to die at 373 00:23:43,960 --> 00:23:48,760 Speaker 1: the edge of destiny. Why'd you bring us up out 374 00:23:48,800 --> 00:23:54,600 Speaker 1: of Egypt to this terrible place? There we had figs. There, 375 00:23:54,600 --> 00:23:59,480 Speaker 1: we had grape funds. There we had pomegranates. There we 376 00:23:59,520 --> 00:24:07,040 Speaker 1: had grain. I forget to mention the whips. They forget 377 00:24:07,080 --> 00:24:12,200 Speaker 1: to mention the mud and the straw, and they begin 378 00:24:12,320 --> 00:24:20,560 Speaker 1: to glamorize a past that really didn't even exist, well, 379 00:24:20,560 --> 00:24:30,159 Speaker 1: the good old days. I get it, man, it's tempting 380 00:24:30,200 --> 00:24:31,920 Speaker 1: to go back there in your mind. Just as long 381 00:24:31,960 --> 00:24:35,320 Speaker 1: as you know is your version of the past is 382 00:24:35,359 --> 00:24:43,280 Speaker 1: just as imaginary as your version of the future back 383 00:24:43,280 --> 00:24:46,000 Speaker 1: in Egypt, the place that you were praying God to 384 00:24:46,040 --> 00:24:49,280 Speaker 1: get you out of. Oh, I never forget this. One 385 00:24:49,320 --> 00:24:51,920 Speaker 1: time a lady came to me. She said, you need 386 00:24:51,920 --> 00:24:53,760 Speaker 1: to change some things in the church, very early in 387 00:24:53,800 --> 00:24:57,320 Speaker 1: the church. And I was woo, I was cocky. I 388 00:24:57,359 --> 00:25:00,400 Speaker 1: was twenty eight. So what I said, next to Homie responsible. 389 00:25:00,440 --> 00:25:04,720 Speaker 1: There's statute of limitations. She listed everything she wanted me 390 00:25:04,760 --> 00:25:06,760 Speaker 1: to change in the church, change this and change that, 391 00:25:06,800 --> 00:25:09,320 Speaker 1: and change this and change that. And either the Lord 392 00:25:09,359 --> 00:25:12,080 Speaker 1: or the devil prompted me to say what follows. I said, 393 00:25:12,119 --> 00:25:14,040 Speaker 1: so you want me to recreate the church that you 394 00:25:14,119 --> 00:25:18,960 Speaker 1: left to come to this one. I didn't mean it 395 00:25:19,000 --> 00:25:21,840 Speaker 1: how it came out. I meant to say, I'll pray 396 00:25:21,880 --> 00:25:24,439 Speaker 1: about it. I am, but a servant and a vessel 397 00:25:25,440 --> 00:25:30,600 Speaker 1: just gushed out came out frustration. So you understand that 398 00:25:30,640 --> 00:25:36,959 Speaker 1: frustration operates when your experience is different than your expectation. 399 00:25:38,960 --> 00:25:42,879 Speaker 1: So when you are frustrated, it is not your life 400 00:25:42,880 --> 00:25:48,240 Speaker 1: that you're frustrated with. It's your life compared to your 401 00:25:48,280 --> 00:25:53,600 Speaker 1: expectation of your life. That's what makes you frustrated. It's 402 00:25:53,680 --> 00:25:57,920 Speaker 1: that it normally takes me thirteen minutes to get there, 403 00:25:58,359 --> 00:26:01,200 Speaker 1: and today it took me thirty. And I didn't plan 404 00:26:01,359 --> 00:26:04,199 Speaker 1: for that. And so since I was already at a 405 00:26:04,240 --> 00:26:08,120 Speaker 1: time deficit and a sleep deficit, and I didn't put 406 00:26:08,240 --> 00:26:12,160 Speaker 1: margin on this trip, now I find myself frustrated. I'm 407 00:26:12,160 --> 00:26:15,800 Speaker 1: not really frustrated at how long it's taking. I'm frustrated 408 00:26:15,800 --> 00:26:19,199 Speaker 1: about how long it's taken compared to how long I 409 00:26:19,240 --> 00:26:21,800 Speaker 1: thought it was gonna take. And one of the best 410 00:26:21,800 --> 00:26:24,399 Speaker 1: things we can do for our peace of mind is 411 00:26:24,440 --> 00:26:30,240 Speaker 1: to crucify our expectations of others. I mean, really just 412 00:26:30,359 --> 00:26:33,199 Speaker 1: put it up there on the cross and get to 413 00:26:33,280 --> 00:26:37,159 Speaker 1: the place where we no longer have an expectation of 414 00:26:37,280 --> 00:26:41,520 Speaker 1: people to meet our needs, because we understand that our 415 00:26:41,560 --> 00:26:46,160 Speaker 1: water flows from a different rock, that our joy flows 416 00:26:46,200 --> 00:26:50,240 Speaker 1: from a different place. Come on, Epham, shout at the 417 00:26:50,240 --> 00:26:54,919 Speaker 1: phone that I don't depend on people to provide for 418 00:26:55,040 --> 00:27:01,600 Speaker 1: me what God has promised. It's already mine. And so 419 00:27:01,720 --> 00:27:05,639 Speaker 1: they got really upset man. And then Moses got upset, 420 00:27:05,680 --> 00:27:07,240 Speaker 1: and he went to God and he wanted God to 421 00:27:07,280 --> 00:27:10,560 Speaker 1: be upset like he was upset. And Moses was mad 422 00:27:10,600 --> 00:27:16,359 Speaker 1: because God wasn't mad. That's what happened here. He was disappointed. 423 00:27:17,720 --> 00:27:25,080 Speaker 1: It never stops after all I've done for you. I've 424 00:27:25,080 --> 00:27:33,080 Speaker 1: been here before. I have been here before, even even 425 00:27:33,119 --> 00:27:40,560 Speaker 1: in high school when I was the athletic trainer water 426 00:27:40,680 --> 00:27:46,159 Speaker 1: boy for the football team. Coach Meyer recruited me to 427 00:27:46,200 --> 00:27:49,400 Speaker 1: be the athletic trainer. Said you could get a scholarship. 428 00:27:54,280 --> 00:27:57,159 Speaker 1: And one day I was mixing that gatorade so sweet, 429 00:27:57,600 --> 00:27:59,920 Speaker 1: and I thought, I don't think they give scholarships for that. 430 00:28:01,760 --> 00:28:05,359 Speaker 1: I think he tricked me into this. You know, I 431 00:28:05,440 --> 00:28:07,240 Speaker 1: kind of didn't like it anyway. It wasn't like I 432 00:28:07,280 --> 00:28:09,960 Speaker 1: really cared too much about football. Football's fine, I'll turn 433 00:28:10,000 --> 00:28:13,280 Speaker 1: it on. I'm not like some of y'all fantasy lineups 434 00:28:13,320 --> 00:28:15,880 Speaker 1: and stuff. I got a real life. I'm skinding, I'm skinning. 435 00:28:15,880 --> 00:28:17,840 Speaker 1: I'm scarting this fine as fine as fine. Fine, I'm skarting. 436 00:28:17,880 --> 00:28:23,520 Speaker 1: I'm scarting this fine as fine as fine. But man, 437 00:28:24,680 --> 00:28:26,840 Speaker 1: it was a relatively simple job. I did it for 438 00:28:26,920 --> 00:28:29,800 Speaker 1: over a year, and the main part of the job, 439 00:28:29,840 --> 00:28:31,199 Speaker 1: you know, every once in a while, they would let 440 00:28:31,240 --> 00:28:34,280 Speaker 1: me tape a wrist or an ankle. I think it 441 00:28:34,320 --> 00:28:36,200 Speaker 1: wasn't even really people that was hurt. I think they 442 00:28:36,280 --> 00:28:41,960 Speaker 1: just sent cast members over because if anybody was really hurt, 443 00:28:42,000 --> 00:28:44,040 Speaker 1: doctor Bowens came in. So I don't even think I 444 00:28:44,120 --> 00:28:46,400 Speaker 1: was really taping anybody. I don't even think it was. 445 00:28:46,600 --> 00:28:49,960 Speaker 1: But I did have one one job, and every time 446 00:28:50,000 --> 00:28:52,720 Speaker 1: they would have a water break, it was my job 447 00:28:53,240 --> 00:28:59,719 Speaker 1: to turn on the water. That's right, Bobby Bouche got 448 00:28:59,760 --> 00:29:06,640 Speaker 1: nothing on me. Well, I did it like clockwork. They 449 00:29:06,640 --> 00:29:09,960 Speaker 1: blow the whistle. I was positioned close enough to the 450 00:29:10,000 --> 00:29:12,840 Speaker 1: spickett which was connected to the hose which went to 451 00:29:12,920 --> 00:29:16,360 Speaker 1: the PVC pipe in Monk's Corner. It was fancy with 452 00:29:16,480 --> 00:29:20,240 Speaker 1: a PVC pipe with the holes in it, trough of 453 00:29:20,320 --> 00:29:22,920 Speaker 1: sorts with the water would come out of the pipe. 454 00:29:23,080 --> 00:29:25,160 Speaker 1: But I was the man who turned it on, and 455 00:29:25,200 --> 00:29:28,400 Speaker 1: I turned it on about three or four times every practice. 456 00:29:28,800 --> 00:29:31,080 Speaker 1: And one day I went over there to turn it 457 00:29:31,120 --> 00:29:34,960 Speaker 1: on and nothing came out. I don't know who forgot 458 00:29:34,960 --> 00:29:40,560 Speaker 1: to pay the bill, but nothing came out. And those 459 00:29:40,560 --> 00:29:43,719 Speaker 1: football players went to drink and they lined up at 460 00:29:43,720 --> 00:29:48,720 Speaker 1: the PVC pipe and nothing happened. And they started yelling 461 00:29:48,720 --> 00:29:54,440 Speaker 1: at me, like these rebellious Israelites started yelling at Moses, 462 00:29:55,160 --> 00:29:57,800 Speaker 1: started yelling at me, calling me Steve. I don't even 463 00:29:57,840 --> 00:30:00,000 Speaker 1: go by Steve. There's an N on my name. Now 464 00:30:00,240 --> 00:30:06,640 Speaker 1: the consonant. This ain't will of fortune. Oh, I was 465 00:30:06,800 --> 00:30:10,480 Speaker 1: mad yelling at me for the one time the water 466 00:30:10,560 --> 00:30:14,640 Speaker 1: didn't come on. Hundreds of times the water came on. 467 00:30:14,640 --> 00:30:18,120 Speaker 1: One time it didn't come on. And guess what, I'm 468 00:30:18,200 --> 00:30:21,560 Speaker 1: not controlling the water. I'm just the one turning it on. 469 00:30:22,680 --> 00:30:26,600 Speaker 1: So they were yelling at me. So I wasn't saved yet. 470 00:30:26,880 --> 00:30:29,400 Speaker 1: Let me get that in. So I turned around and 471 00:30:29,440 --> 00:30:33,479 Speaker 1: said God bless all y'all. Only instead of God bless 472 00:30:33,720 --> 00:30:38,000 Speaker 1: I've said some different bce vocabulary that is not appropriate 473 00:30:38,240 --> 00:30:41,760 Speaker 1: for this church setting and holy people such as yourself, 474 00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:44,600 Speaker 1: And in that moment, I forgot they were bigger than me, 475 00:30:44,880 --> 00:30:47,240 Speaker 1: because I do have a level of crazy that if 476 00:30:47,280 --> 00:30:50,360 Speaker 1: it kicks in, I will stop caring how much bigger 477 00:30:50,440 --> 00:30:52,600 Speaker 1: you are. And I would rather die than have you 478 00:30:52,680 --> 00:30:55,800 Speaker 1: cussed me out. I got in my Toyota turch cell 479 00:30:55,840 --> 00:31:06,920 Speaker 1: and I drove off. So oh just kind of came 480 00:31:06,960 --> 00:31:15,560 Speaker 1: back to me. Man, I'm sorry because all these times 481 00:31:15,600 --> 00:31:20,600 Speaker 1: I get Moses's disappointment. I really do, all these times, 482 00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:26,200 Speaker 1: and this one time, all I've done for you, all 483 00:31:26,240 --> 00:31:32,160 Speaker 1: the meals I've cooked, all the prayers I've prayed, all 484 00:31:32,200 --> 00:31:36,760 Speaker 1: the compliments I gave, all the Christmas presents I bought, 485 00:31:37,680 --> 00:31:42,280 Speaker 1: all the sacrifices I made, and you mean this one thing, 486 00:31:42,760 --> 00:31:45,560 Speaker 1: this one time, and now you want to yell at 487 00:31:45,560 --> 00:31:50,920 Speaker 1: me and disrespect me and ignore me. I figure Moses 488 00:31:51,000 --> 00:31:57,120 Speaker 1: is tired of being taken for granted, tired of people 489 00:31:57,240 --> 00:32:00,400 Speaker 1: just assuming that you're always gonna do it and it's 490 00:32:00,480 --> 00:32:05,000 Speaker 1: just easy for you. Until I realized that Moses wasn't 491 00:32:05,040 --> 00:32:12,960 Speaker 1: really disappointed with the people. Moses was still dealing with 492 00:32:14,400 --> 00:32:20,040 Speaker 1: a fear that he had carried with him since the 493 00:32:20,080 --> 00:32:22,600 Speaker 1: time God met him at the Burning Bush, impossibly before 494 00:32:22,640 --> 00:32:28,080 Speaker 1: that forty years earlier, when he killed an Egyptian to 495 00:32:28,200 --> 00:32:31,760 Speaker 1: try to rescue one of his fellow Hebrews. And he 496 00:32:31,880 --> 00:32:34,920 Speaker 1: never really fit in because he was raised as an Egyptian, 497 00:32:36,400 --> 00:32:39,600 Speaker 1: but he was by birth a Hebrew. And when he 498 00:32:39,720 --> 00:32:42,120 Speaker 1: tried to defend the people that he was one of 499 00:32:43,480 --> 00:32:45,360 Speaker 1: from the people that he had had to live with, 500 00:32:46,520 --> 00:32:49,280 Speaker 1: Moses ended up having to run. That's why he ended 501 00:32:49,320 --> 00:32:51,520 Speaker 1: up in the wilderness with the shepherd's staff to begin with. 502 00:32:51,680 --> 00:32:54,120 Speaker 1: And that's why when God met him at the bush, 503 00:32:54,200 --> 00:32:59,280 Speaker 1: Moses said, you got the wrong one. Picked somebody stronger, 504 00:33:00,600 --> 00:33:06,960 Speaker 1: Pick somebody more capable, Pick somebody with more experience. Pick 505 00:33:07,040 --> 00:33:10,880 Speaker 1: somebody who doesn't struggle with what I struggle with, because 506 00:33:10,880 --> 00:33:14,440 Speaker 1: I'll let you down, God, and I'll let them down. 507 00:33:16,480 --> 00:33:20,400 Speaker 1: And not only not only is Moses dealing with this moment, 508 00:33:21,520 --> 00:33:26,400 Speaker 1: but he's dealing with forty years of frustration, forty years 509 00:33:26,400 --> 00:33:29,400 Speaker 1: of frustration that you could argue were the result of 510 00:33:29,400 --> 00:33:32,000 Speaker 1: his lack of faith when he didn't go in and 511 00:33:32,040 --> 00:33:37,360 Speaker 1: fight and take the land God had promised. In a sense, 512 00:33:37,400 --> 00:33:39,600 Speaker 1: what they're saying about Moses is true, and he knows it. 513 00:33:41,000 --> 00:33:44,560 Speaker 1: It's not him, it's not them that he is disappointed in. 514 00:33:50,360 --> 00:33:54,680 Speaker 1: So like for me realizing in my adult life that 515 00:33:54,760 --> 00:33:59,360 Speaker 1: my core fear and a lot of the reasons that 516 00:33:59,400 --> 00:34:02,640 Speaker 1: I withdraw and a lot of the reasons that I 517 00:34:03,680 --> 00:34:07,320 Speaker 1: lash out. It really came to me one time early 518 00:34:07,400 --> 00:34:10,399 Speaker 1: in my marriage to Holly, and it was a low 519 00:34:10,440 --> 00:34:12,319 Speaker 1: key argument, but all of a sudden it just kind 520 00:34:12,360 --> 00:34:14,400 Speaker 1: of erupted and I yelled at her, I'm not stupid, 521 00:34:15,960 --> 00:34:23,279 Speaker 1: I'm not stupid. It never stops. I'm not stupid, she said. 522 00:34:23,320 --> 00:34:26,280 Speaker 1: I didn't say you were stupid, But I wasn't responding 523 00:34:26,280 --> 00:34:27,920 Speaker 1: to what she said. I was responding to what I 524 00:34:27,960 --> 00:34:35,600 Speaker 1: felt somewhere in me was something that told me that 525 00:34:35,719 --> 00:34:40,359 Speaker 1: I didn't know enough, probably back to my dad, in 526 00:34:40,360 --> 00:34:42,399 Speaker 1: some ways he loved me. It wasn't that he didn't 527 00:34:42,440 --> 00:34:45,160 Speaker 1: love me, but he kind of felt like it was 528 00:34:45,239 --> 00:34:47,040 Speaker 1: him against the world and he didn't have a full 529 00:34:47,120 --> 00:34:49,240 Speaker 1: deck to play with because of the way he was raised. 530 00:34:50,719 --> 00:34:54,840 Speaker 1: And somewhere I probably started thinking that I was operating 531 00:34:54,840 --> 00:34:58,640 Speaker 1: in life out of a deficit of intelligence. And so 532 00:34:58,719 --> 00:35:01,640 Speaker 1: my first instinct when someone makes me feel stupid, what 533 00:35:01,680 --> 00:35:06,879 Speaker 1: a phrase when they make me feel stupid. How much 534 00:35:06,960 --> 00:35:11,920 Speaker 1: power are you giving away to other people when someone 535 00:35:12,000 --> 00:35:15,200 Speaker 1: can make you feel stupid. That's a weak mind. But 536 00:35:15,239 --> 00:35:18,960 Speaker 1: that's where that's where I find myself sometimes and that 537 00:35:19,000 --> 00:35:22,719 Speaker 1: mental wilderness, that mental wilderness, do you know what I'm 538 00:35:22,719 --> 00:35:29,000 Speaker 1: talking about? And I'm afraid. I'm afraid sometimes up here, 539 00:35:30,239 --> 00:35:31,920 Speaker 1: not that I'm going to get the Bible wrong or 540 00:35:31,960 --> 00:35:36,319 Speaker 1: that I'm going to dishonor God, but unfortunately that I 541 00:35:36,320 --> 00:35:42,400 Speaker 1: will disappoint you. And every time we start a new series, 542 00:35:42,440 --> 00:35:45,799 Speaker 1: I feel it, you know, because I try to create 543 00:35:45,880 --> 00:35:48,800 Speaker 1: expectation this is going to be the best series ever. 544 00:35:50,800 --> 00:35:54,799 Speaker 1: And then I hope Baby Jesus and Mother Mary and 545 00:35:54,880 --> 00:36:00,000 Speaker 1: the Holy Ghosts will somehow help us, because I don't 546 00:36:00,080 --> 00:36:04,560 Speaker 1: want to disappoint you. And I'm sharing this autobiographically, but 547 00:36:04,600 --> 00:36:08,560 Speaker 1: I'm wondering, is like, do a lot of us function 548 00:36:08,680 --> 00:36:11,239 Speaker 1: in this place that I don't want to disappoint you? 549 00:36:13,040 --> 00:36:15,160 Speaker 1: And that's why I hide. And now I find myself 550 00:36:15,200 --> 00:36:16,600 Speaker 1: I don't even want to pick up the phone when 551 00:36:16,640 --> 00:36:21,200 Speaker 1: people call, because now if I can text them back, 552 00:36:21,280 --> 00:36:26,880 Speaker 1: I can carefully craft my response. Even in the smallest ways. 553 00:36:27,080 --> 00:36:31,279 Speaker 1: I see this fear, I see myself withdrawing. I see 554 00:36:31,320 --> 00:36:36,160 Speaker 1: myself wanting to isolate, and it's a tendency that I 555 00:36:36,160 --> 00:36:40,120 Speaker 1: don't fully understand because I do love people. I really 556 00:36:40,160 --> 00:36:43,239 Speaker 1: do love people. I've always loved people. I was a 557 00:36:43,320 --> 00:36:46,120 Speaker 1: dude that hugged everybody in his graduating high school class, 558 00:36:46,800 --> 00:36:49,440 Speaker 1: the whole two one hundred and thirty of them, hug 559 00:36:49,600 --> 00:36:53,840 Speaker 1: them all. But I find myself sometimes wanting to withdraw, 560 00:36:55,400 --> 00:36:58,279 Speaker 1: find myself wanting to walk out, find myself wanting to 561 00:36:58,280 --> 00:37:01,920 Speaker 1: get out, and I wonder why, you know, like, am 562 00:37:02,000 --> 00:37:06,080 Speaker 1: I losing my love for people? It is all this 563 00:37:06,200 --> 00:37:08,759 Speaker 1: getting to me, like lights and cameras and all that. 564 00:37:08,800 --> 00:37:12,279 Speaker 1: But I realized I realized in the weirdest way one 565 00:37:12,320 --> 00:37:15,080 Speaker 1: day what it was when a lady said to me, 566 00:37:15,440 --> 00:37:18,000 Speaker 1: I've I've been going to your church seven years and 567 00:37:18,040 --> 00:37:20,000 Speaker 1: I've never met you. And I said, I'm so sorry. 568 00:37:21,480 --> 00:37:23,680 Speaker 1: I took it like an accusation, you know. She said, no, no, 569 00:37:23,719 --> 00:37:26,480 Speaker 1: it's a big church. We love. The minister said, okay, good, 570 00:37:26,480 --> 00:37:30,000 Speaker 1: I'm sorry. That's I'm really sorry, though, that's bad. I 571 00:37:30,120 --> 00:37:31,759 Speaker 1: met your pastor in seven years. I'm sorry. She said, 572 00:37:31,760 --> 00:37:36,000 Speaker 1: it's fine, it's fine. Stop apologizing now. It's awkward because 573 00:37:36,000 --> 00:37:38,960 Speaker 1: I'm making it awkward. Then she made it awkward. She said, 574 00:37:38,960 --> 00:37:43,720 Speaker 1: you're much taller on the screen. Well that helped you already. 575 00:37:43,719 --> 00:37:52,440 Speaker 1: See I'm insecure woman, but I don't want to let 576 00:37:52,480 --> 00:37:58,359 Speaker 1: you down, you know. So, So when Moses has this 577 00:37:58,520 --> 00:38:00,719 Speaker 1: moment and I'm calling in a moment, but it's really 578 00:38:00,760 --> 00:38:05,920 Speaker 1: not a moment because anytime something comes bursting to the surface, 579 00:38:06,040 --> 00:38:11,120 Speaker 1: like Moses hitting that rock twice when God specifically spoke 580 00:38:11,160 --> 00:38:14,160 Speaker 1: to him to speak to the rock, not to strike it. 581 00:38:15,400 --> 00:38:17,640 Speaker 1: And I know why he struck the rock because this 582 00:38:17,680 --> 00:38:23,600 Speaker 1: is the third issue. It's the issue of dependence. You know. 583 00:38:23,640 --> 00:38:27,840 Speaker 1: This staff was the thing that he carried with him. 584 00:38:27,880 --> 00:38:32,320 Speaker 1: Like Tom Hanks had a volleyball, Moses had a stick. 585 00:38:34,200 --> 00:38:37,840 Speaker 1: And now in this moment where the community needs water 586 00:38:37,920 --> 00:38:39,880 Speaker 1: and this is to be their last test, but they 587 00:38:39,880 --> 00:38:42,960 Speaker 1: don't know it. This is to be their last test 588 00:38:43,000 --> 00:38:46,800 Speaker 1: to see if they really trust God, and Moses fails 589 00:38:46,840 --> 00:38:51,680 Speaker 1: the test. What I could not understand is why did 590 00:38:51,680 --> 00:38:54,880 Speaker 1: God tell him to take the stick if he didn't 591 00:38:54,920 --> 00:38:59,879 Speaker 1: want him to use it. Why did God tell mos 592 00:39:00,160 --> 00:39:06,120 Speaker 1: us take the staff and then don't use it, just 593 00:39:06,160 --> 00:39:12,440 Speaker 1: hold it and speak to the rock. Until I remember 594 00:39:13,800 --> 00:39:17,400 Speaker 1: what Moses said to God when God first called Moses, 595 00:39:18,640 --> 00:39:29,919 Speaker 1: I'm not good at speaking. And before God could let 596 00:39:30,040 --> 00:39:36,080 Speaker 1: Moses lead his people into the promise, he had to 597 00:39:36,120 --> 00:39:42,920 Speaker 1: know do you trust me enough? When God said Moses, 598 00:39:42,960 --> 00:39:46,040 Speaker 1: you can't lead the people, it wasn't for punishment, it 599 00:39:46,080 --> 00:39:52,520 Speaker 1: was for protection. If Moses would have led them in 600 00:39:52,520 --> 00:39:55,360 Speaker 1: in the condition that his heart was in, with years 601 00:39:55,520 --> 00:39:59,480 Speaker 1: and years and years and years of resentment building up, 602 00:39:59,520 --> 00:40:02,480 Speaker 1: they would have all got killed the first time God spoken, 603 00:40:02,520 --> 00:40:06,720 Speaker 1: they didn't do what he said because God needs someone 604 00:40:06,719 --> 00:40:13,200 Speaker 1: who is not dependent on their staff. I know you 605 00:40:13,320 --> 00:40:16,080 Speaker 1: struck the Red the Nile River, and the Red Sea, 606 00:40:16,360 --> 00:40:19,080 Speaker 1: and I know that this staff has been used to 607 00:40:19,120 --> 00:40:21,600 Speaker 1: perform great miracles, and I want you to hold it 608 00:40:21,640 --> 00:40:23,879 Speaker 1: in your hand, but have the faith not to use it. 609 00:40:25,760 --> 00:40:29,640 Speaker 1: I want you to speak to the rock, and he 610 00:40:29,719 --> 00:40:34,400 Speaker 1: struck it instead. And God said, you don't trust me enough. 611 00:40:36,360 --> 00:40:40,120 Speaker 1: You've allowed this resentment to build to a point that 612 00:40:40,239 --> 00:40:45,080 Speaker 1: it has killed your potential. When we allow resentment to 613 00:40:45,160 --> 00:40:50,640 Speaker 1: build and build and build and build, when we never 614 00:40:50,680 --> 00:40:53,359 Speaker 1: really believe that we are what God said we are, 615 00:40:54,120 --> 00:40:58,200 Speaker 1: when we are constantly taking people's assessment of us as 616 00:40:58,239 --> 00:41:03,680 Speaker 1: the ultimate reality, it limits our participation in the promise 617 00:41:03,719 --> 00:41:07,719 Speaker 1: of God. It doesn't keep God from loving you, but 618 00:41:07,840 --> 00:41:11,360 Speaker 1: it keeps God from being able to lead you into 619 00:41:11,480 --> 00:41:15,759 Speaker 1: the great and precious promises that have your name on them. 620 00:41:16,120 --> 00:41:20,399 Speaker 1: God said, I just need you to trust me. I 621 00:41:20,480 --> 00:41:24,160 Speaker 1: know you stutter, I know you stammer. I know you're 622 00:41:24,200 --> 00:41:28,680 Speaker 1: afraid of letting me down. But it's never been about you, Moses. 623 00:41:29,040 --> 00:41:32,200 Speaker 1: It was never about your mouth. It was about my 624 00:41:32,360 --> 00:41:36,840 Speaker 1: mighty hand and my outstretched arm. It was never about 625 00:41:36,880 --> 00:41:44,920 Speaker 1: your rod. It was about the rock. So what are 626 00:41:45,000 --> 00:41:51,239 Speaker 1: you trusting in today, my friend, the rod or the rock? 627 00:41:53,760 --> 00:41:58,000 Speaker 1: Because First Corinthians ten tells us plainly that this happened 628 00:41:58,040 --> 00:42:02,480 Speaker 1: as an example for us, that the Israelites who wandered 629 00:42:02,480 --> 00:42:05,319 Speaker 1: in the wilderness were an example for us, for you 630 00:42:05,400 --> 00:42:11,400 Speaker 1: and me in our daily lives, in our efforts to 631 00:42:11,480 --> 00:42:16,680 Speaker 1: trust God in the face of our own frailty, he said. 632 00:42:16,680 --> 00:42:23,440 Speaker 1: The apostle Paul said verse four. They drank the same 633 00:42:23,560 --> 00:42:27,759 Speaker 1: spiritual drink. They drank from the spiritual rock that accompanied them. 634 00:42:27,880 --> 00:42:36,880 Speaker 1: Here's the revelation, and that rock was Christ. It wasn't 635 00:42:36,880 --> 00:42:42,640 Speaker 1: about Moses. It's not about me. It's not about you. Yes, 636 00:42:42,760 --> 00:42:45,960 Speaker 1: I will let you down. Yes, I will disappoint you, 637 00:42:46,400 --> 00:42:49,480 Speaker 1: But I'm not the rock. You know how good that 638 00:42:49,640 --> 00:42:53,360 Speaker 1: makes me feel to know I'm not the rock. I 639 00:42:53,400 --> 00:42:56,440 Speaker 1: don't have to force it, I don't have to fight it. 640 00:42:56,800 --> 00:42:59,800 Speaker 1: I don't have to explode in anger when it doesn't 641 00:42:59,840 --> 00:43:02,799 Speaker 1: go oh my way. I'm not the He is my 642 00:43:03,000 --> 00:43:07,960 Speaker 1: stable place. He is my solid ground on Christ, the 643 00:43:08,160 --> 00:43:12,680 Speaker 1: solid rock I stand. Whole other ground is sinking sand. 644 00:43:17,440 --> 00:43:23,160 Speaker 1: Please stand, I'm closing, Please stand, I'm closing these Verse thirteen, 645 00:43:23,960 --> 00:43:29,799 Speaker 1: where the waters of Miraba, where the Israelites quarreled with 646 00:43:29,920 --> 00:43:38,319 Speaker 1: the Lord, they quarreled with the Lord. And verse two 647 00:43:38,360 --> 00:43:43,080 Speaker 1: it said they quarreled with Moses. But really they were 648 00:43:43,160 --> 00:43:50,680 Speaker 1: quarreling with the Lord. It wasn't even about Moses. It's 649 00:43:50,719 --> 00:43:56,799 Speaker 1: not even about you. It's not even about me. We've 650 00:43:56,800 --> 00:44:02,200 Speaker 1: been taking things personally, you know. Let it build and 651 00:44:02,239 --> 00:44:06,600 Speaker 1: then it explodes. Not in church, Oh you look so 652 00:44:06,800 --> 00:44:10,680 Speaker 1: fancy in here, your little boozy blessed self, come up 653 00:44:10,680 --> 00:44:13,360 Speaker 1: in the House of God carrying a big, old, thick Bible. 654 00:44:15,560 --> 00:44:17,920 Speaker 1: Explodes when you get home. It explodes when you're all 655 00:44:17,960 --> 00:44:24,080 Speaker 1: alone and you find yourself crying out, desperate for connection 656 00:44:25,200 --> 00:44:30,520 Speaker 1: and disappointed with your life. So you start striking rocks 657 00:44:32,640 --> 00:44:35,560 Speaker 1: and you start trying to get You know, the water 658 00:44:35,640 --> 00:44:38,880 Speaker 1: came out of the rock, and it worked on the surface, 659 00:44:40,600 --> 00:44:43,280 Speaker 1: but Moses did not get to enter into the promise 660 00:44:43,320 --> 00:44:48,040 Speaker 1: of God. Did God still love Moses? Absolutely? You see 661 00:44:48,080 --> 00:44:51,960 Speaker 1: the God of second chances? I sure hope, so I 662 00:44:52,000 --> 00:44:56,400 Speaker 1: know he is. I know He's not gonna punish me 663 00:44:56,440 --> 00:44:58,640 Speaker 1: for one mistake. I can prove it. I can prove 664 00:44:58,680 --> 00:45:00,920 Speaker 1: it to you. Give him that verse you earlier someone 665 00:45:01,000 --> 00:45:05,600 Speaker 1: fourteen eight. When the Psalmist reflected on this event, he said, 666 00:45:06,440 --> 00:45:09,160 Speaker 1: you got it one fourteen eight, the one I sent 667 00:45:09,200 --> 00:45:14,600 Speaker 1: you earlier today? No is Psalm one fourteen verse A. 668 00:45:16,120 --> 00:45:17,840 Speaker 1: What if I started yelling at the people on the 669 00:45:17,840 --> 00:45:25,000 Speaker 1: screens to demonstrate Moses's frustration, But it said that God 670 00:45:25,040 --> 00:45:30,600 Speaker 1: turned the rock into a pool, the hard rock into 671 00:45:30,680 --> 00:45:32,719 Speaker 1: springs of water. And God spoke to me through that 672 00:45:32,840 --> 00:45:37,960 Speaker 1: verse and said, if they'll let me, the place of 673 00:45:38,000 --> 00:45:42,000 Speaker 1: their greatest mistake will become the place of my mercy 674 00:45:42,680 --> 00:45:53,120 Speaker 1: and their greatest miracle. But for this to happen, we 675 00:45:53,200 --> 00:45:57,960 Speaker 1: can't keep it all up inside and keep exploding in 676 00:45:58,080 --> 00:46:02,799 Speaker 1: situations and exploding. It's not for everybody. Sometimes it's much 677 00:46:02,840 --> 00:46:06,399 Speaker 1: more subtle than that. It's the little waste that you 678 00:46:06,440 --> 00:46:10,960 Speaker 1: withdraw yourself from those that you love because I don't 679 00:46:11,000 --> 00:46:13,960 Speaker 1: want to be disappointed again. I don't want to be 680 00:46:14,040 --> 00:46:18,759 Speaker 1: a disappointment some living my whole life trying to avoid disappointment. 681 00:46:20,080 --> 00:46:25,560 Speaker 1: I'm bringing my expectations down, down, down, down, down, down down, 682 00:46:25,719 --> 00:46:28,720 Speaker 1: because now no one can disappoint me. And I'm bringing 683 00:46:28,760 --> 00:46:32,200 Speaker 1: myself back back back back, because i don't want to 684 00:46:32,239 --> 00:46:38,320 Speaker 1: disappoint you. It's not about you. This is the test. 685 00:46:38,520 --> 00:46:42,560 Speaker 1: This is the test. With your rod in your hand, 686 00:46:43,360 --> 00:46:47,319 Speaker 1: to remember all that God has done for you, and 687 00:46:47,400 --> 00:46:50,240 Speaker 1: the rock in front of you, the presence of God. 688 00:46:51,920 --> 00:46:57,560 Speaker 1: Speak to it, don't strike it, Speak to it, Confess 689 00:46:57,600 --> 00:47:03,400 Speaker 1: it before God. Speak to your weakness, own your inadequacy. 690 00:47:04,440 --> 00:47:09,880 Speaker 1: God said, I'm not looking for you to be what 691 00:47:10,000 --> 00:47:12,759 Speaker 1: I need you to be. I'm looking for you to 692 00:47:12,800 --> 00:47:17,960 Speaker 1: trust in what I already am. And so when Moses 693 00:47:18,000 --> 00:47:23,640 Speaker 1: said I'm not, God said I am. When Moses said 694 00:47:23,719 --> 00:47:27,480 Speaker 1: I'm not, God said I am. When Moses said I'm not, 695 00:47:27,640 --> 00:47:32,600 Speaker 1: God said I am. When Moses said not, God said 696 00:47:33,680 --> 00:47:40,480 Speaker 1: I am. Do you trust him enough to let him 697 00:47:40,480 --> 00:47:43,040 Speaker 1: handle those who have hurt you? Do you trust him 698 00:47:43,120 --> 00:47:46,960 Speaker 1: enough to allow him to use everything that's happened for 699 00:47:47,080 --> 00:47:50,719 Speaker 1: your good and his glory? Lift your hands. If you do, 700 00:47:50,800 --> 00:47:56,400 Speaker 1: the rock is in this place. When my heart is overwhelmed, 701 00:47:56,480 --> 00:48:00,040 Speaker 1: Lead me to the rock that is higher than I 702 00:48:00,200 --> 00:48:04,480 Speaker 1: meet us in this moment. God, pour out your spirit 703 00:48:04,520 --> 00:48:09,279 Speaker 1: in a fresh way for your people. Now. I asked 704 00:48:09,320 --> 00:48:11,920 Speaker 1: that you would speak to that weak place, broken place, 705 00:48:12,680 --> 00:48:21,200 Speaker 1: discouraged place. Make that heart beat again for real water 706 00:48:21,280 --> 00:48:30,480 Speaker 1: from a rock, so you are beauty from brokenness. Call 707 00:48:30,560 --> 00:48:37,000 Speaker 1: to him, Call to him, speak to the rock. Unless 708 00:48:37,080 --> 00:48:43,719 Speaker 1: you come, ask if you need me enter my decision 709 00:48:43,760 --> 00:48:47,600 Speaker 1: making process. God, I need you well. I hope you 710 00:48:47,719 --> 00:48:50,040 Speaker 1: enjoyed the podcast today, and if you did, there are 711 00:48:50,080 --> 00:48:52,160 Speaker 1: just a couple of things I'd love for you to do. 712 00:48:52,400 --> 00:48:55,879 Speaker 1: Number one, subscribe to our show. That way, the most 713 00:48:55,920 --> 00:48:59,160 Speaker 1: recent episode will always be in your feed, waiting for 714 00:48:59,200 --> 00:49:02,720 Speaker 1: you ready when you are. And secondly, if this ministry 715 00:49:02,760 --> 00:49:05,200 Speaker 1: has impacted you and you'd like to help us continue 716 00:49:05,239 --> 00:49:07,279 Speaker 1: to reach others, you can click the link in the 717 00:49:07,320 --> 00:49:10,120 Speaker 1: description and you can give now and I'll see you 718 00:49:10,320 --> 00:49:12,800 Speaker 1: next time on the Elevation Podcast.