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<v Speaker 1>Hey, welcome backup Burns the inner call Happy.

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<v Speaker 2>This is the first time I've touched in you all year.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god damn year to.

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<v Speaker 1>Me touching me in crazy waye tonight because we're switching

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<v Speaker 1>positions hot and fresh in the kitchen silly podcast, guys. Honestly,

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<v Speaker 1>I have I am going into twenty twenty five with

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<v Speaker 1>nothing but delusional positivity. I know last year I went

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<v Speaker 1>into it with positivity, and god damn it did I

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<v Speaker 1>get rugburn on my fucking butt from being but fucked

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<v Speaker 1>from throwing to the.

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<v Speaker 2>Ground thrown to the ground several times. But also we

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<v Speaker 2>have to reckon is that simultaneously there's a yin and

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<v Speaker 2>a yang, so many good things, so many good things,

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<v Speaker 2>so many great things. That's what I'm leading with this

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<v Speaker 2>year is positivity. I'm looking for the good things in

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<v Speaker 2>life and it'll find me. It'll find me. Please fucking

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<v Speaker 2>find me, good things, please find me.

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<v Speaker 1>It is so funny being people who like prize our

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<v Speaker 1>privacy because I feel like when we talk about last

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<v Speaker 1>year being bad, it can sound so annoying to you, guys.

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<v Speaker 1>I really don't want it to go unseen that I

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<v Speaker 1>am so grateful for the life I have, like I

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<v Speaker 1>genuinely feel so blessed. And I said it in like

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<v Speaker 1>a few episodes ago, but just no, just no, just

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<v Speaker 1>just no, just just But the fun part is last year,

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<v Speaker 1>like I've been feeling like a teenager again in terms

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<v Speaker 1>of like when things are happening in my personal life.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like it motivates me a lot to do

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<v Speaker 1>creative work, which that you really have.

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<v Speaker 2>Been drawing, like drawing, writing, all that.

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<v Speaker 1>Good shob Yeah, it like really puts that pep in

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<v Speaker 1>my step and it makes me feel alive. But that's

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<v Speaker 1>because I am mentally ill, and there's just something about

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<v Speaker 1>a deep sick sadness that makes me feel alive. But

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<v Speaker 1>that's not the vibe this year live. Wait, should we

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<v Speaker 1>do our ins and outs to.

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<v Speaker 2>Start off the end?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Yea yeah, do you want me to start? Yeah?

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<v Speaker 1>Should Okay? How should we do it so that we

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<v Speaker 1>don't like cut each other off? Should we just go

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<v Speaker 1>down our list and then we could pick ones out?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Yeah, we'll go down our list fully, But I

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<v Speaker 2>mean also just chime in, Like we'll just chime in

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<v Speaker 2>and it'll be fine, because love is what interrupting exactly. Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>I just have Okay, so this is what I have.

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<v Speaker 2>I have what are we leaving in twenty twenty five?

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<v Speaker 2>I have my resolutions and then I just deleted all

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<v Speaker 2>of them. Yeah, I have resolutions. What we're leaving in

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<v Speaker 2>trend forecasting? So should I just do what are we

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<v Speaker 2>leaving in twenty twenty five?

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<v Speaker 1>Because I only have ins and outs?

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, so in twenty twenty five, we're leaving heart palpitations. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>those are canceled. They're out. Like I'm done feeling my

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<v Speaker 2>heart skip three beats and thinking I'm gonna have a

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<v Speaker 2>heart vape.

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<v Speaker 1>You don't vapor.

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<v Speaker 2>I know, it's got to be some other shit, bro,

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<v Speaker 2>it's got to be some other shit.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm stopping vaping this year. I am, like, genuinely committed

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<v Speaker 1>to it. My puff bar died yesterday on the first,

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<v Speaker 1>and I told myself I was gonna stop. I had

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<v Speaker 1>a very stressful.

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<v Speaker 2>We Yeah, like I really can't get into I cannot

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<v Speaker 2>get into it. I'm sorry for cutting you off, but

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<v Speaker 2>my life has been a living fucking hell for the

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<v Speaker 2>last week. So Hasenya's not spilling her tea, not spilling

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<v Speaker 2>my tea. But just know, these holidays were fucking scary.

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<v Speaker 2>Fucking boots. They were not a vibe at all. Like,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm so glad I spent it with my family and

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<v Speaker 2>I love my parents and my family to have a

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<v Speaker 2>family to go back to. Oh my god, I'm liter

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<v Speaker 2>gonna start crying. Imagine I just start crying for the

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<v Speaker 2>first time over all the shit. Now I've been y'all

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<v Speaker 2>the shit going on. I have been internalizing and been

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<v Speaker 2>laughing at it for far too fucking long, and it

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<v Speaker 2>is not funny.

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<v Speaker 1>I get the point where it's not fun.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like so unhealthy for me to like process the process,

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<v Speaker 2>process it this way. But like we're just gonna keep laughing.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna keep shoving it down until we have some

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<v Speaker 2>time away so I can fucking cry about all the

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<v Speaker 2>bullshit going on in my goddamn life. But just know

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<v Speaker 2>we in this together. But heart palpitations out, heart competitions

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<v Speaker 2>are out.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, puff bars out. I don't think I'm gonna buy

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<v Speaker 1>a new one. I do have cigarettes, and this is

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<v Speaker 1>gonna sound like the craziest thing ever that shit, but

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<v Speaker 1>I think I'm gonna like smoke a cigarette today and

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<v Speaker 1>see if it even sparks.

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<v Speaker 2>Toy, don't smoke a cigarette don't do it because it'll.

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<v Speaker 1>Spark toy good scene so bad.

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<v Speaker 2>You just got a cold turkey.

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<v Speaker 1>That's like, no, I know, I'm gonna buy bunch of

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<v Speaker 1>toothpicks and stuff because for me, it really is like

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<v Speaker 1>I bite my nails. I always have something in my mouth,

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<v Speaker 1>and I just like I'm constantly thinking too much and

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<v Speaker 1>I like to chew once. If y'all saw the tips

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<v Speaker 1>of my vapes, the teeth marks are crazy. I just

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<v Speaker 1>chew on.

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<v Speaker 2>It so like it is so like embarrassing it is.

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<v Speaker 2>Vaping is like literally just embarrassing. It's just giving like

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<v Speaker 2>bab bab being like bottle like.

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<v Speaker 1>Also, I just don't want us to be a part

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<v Speaker 1>of like the testing generation. I feel like we've already

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<v Speaker 1>we've already given enough, We've already given enough of our

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<v Speaker 1>money to that side of the world and tobacco. I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like if we all are in this together, we

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<v Speaker 1>can all step away from it. And you know, yeah

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<v Speaker 1>right yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Also, I saw that gen Z is drinking like exponentially

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<v Speaker 2>less than the generations. The three previous generations like the

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<v Speaker 2>others are averaging like twenty four billion dollars a year

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<v Speaker 2>spent on alcohol. Gen Z granted, only like half of

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<v Speaker 2>us are of age, are only spending three billion dollars

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<v Speaker 2>a year on alcohol, which is iconic. And if we

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<v Speaker 2>could kill big alcohol and big tobacco, bitch, that's a vibe.

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<v Speaker 1>But smoke your weed though, hit that car, I don't. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>smoking the cars are a different conversation.

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<v Speaker 2>Smoke your weed, do your heroin? Uh, snort smoke or

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<v Speaker 2>inject meth like either way, like those are those are

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<v Speaker 2>the good ones? Yeah? Yeah, yeah, but actually cocaine like

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<v Speaker 2>all of that.

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<v Speaker 1>My only literally, my only gripe.

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<v Speaker 2>With weed is I'm joking, by the way, y'all.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, obviously, But my only worry with weed is the

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<v Speaker 1>memory loss of it all. And I genuinely do because

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<v Speaker 1>I believe in science. I do believe in the idea

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<v Speaker 1>of smoking too much before. I think it's like age

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<v Speaker 1>twenty four or five can really fuck with your memory

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<v Speaker 1>and your like cognitive ability. So keep that in my

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<v Speaker 1>But also what I'm not your fucking mom, don't listen

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<v Speaker 1>to me.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, literally, Okay, so we are leaving eye contact in

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<v Speaker 2>twenty twenty five. I agree, it's too much. It's too

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<v Speaker 2>much pressure. It's like there's too many like diagnosed ccs

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<v Speaker 2>that you can put around it, and I don't fall

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<v Speaker 2>in any of those fucking categories. It's never that deep.

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<v Speaker 2>Like if I'm having a conversation and I'm looking this

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<v Speaker 2>way I'm talking to you, it is not that fucking deep.

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<v Speaker 2>It's not disrespectful for me not to look in your

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<v Speaker 2>goddamn eyes. And I don't know why people made it

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<v Speaker 2>that way, but like, oh my god, Like, it's not

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<v Speaker 2>that deep. We're leaving eye contact in twenty twenty five.

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<v Speaker 1>Also, we have to leave it in twenty twenty five

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<v Speaker 1>because you can't.

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<v Speaker 2>Talk for twenty twenty six, twenty twenty six or twenty

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<v Speaker 2>twenty four. Yeah, I'm leaving all of this.

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<v Speaker 1>You can't tell me like to make eye contact with

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<v Speaker 1>somebody because I take it too literal and I just

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<v Speaker 1>stare people.

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<v Speaker 2>Not Yeah, that's how I like overthink it.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I overthinking.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I'm like, okay, am I like creeping them out?

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<v Speaker 2>Do they think I'm falling in love with it?

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<v Speaker 1>And it's also interesting because I feel like with people

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<v Speaker 1>I'm comfortable with, I don't think about eye contact at all.

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<v Speaker 1>Like I feel like I stare my friends in the

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<v Speaker 1>face when I talk to them.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, like I can't even look at you because we're

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<v Speaker 2>talking about it, but I'm I think we can like

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<v Speaker 2>have conversations looking at.

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<v Speaker 1>Each other, looking at my fucking eyes, bitch.

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<v Speaker 2>Literally, Okay, we're leaving irony poisoning. In twenty twenty four,

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<v Speaker 2>Ethylcine said it best. We are in a sincerity epidemic.

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<v Speaker 2>No one's being sincere anymore. And I am at the

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<v Speaker 2>forefront of the irony poisoned movement. And if you see

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<v Speaker 2>me being irony poisoned and making sarcastic remarks and jokes

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<v Speaker 2>for all of twenty twenty five, don't say shit. I'm trying,

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm aware of it, and I want to be

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<v Speaker 2>more sincere with myself and with y'all and with my

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<v Speaker 2>friends and family. Because I realized I was like really

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<v Speaker 2>thinking back, and I was like, Okay, I'm in tune

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<v Speaker 2>with my emotions, Like I know what I'm feeling, and

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<v Speaker 2>I like control can control my emotion like four years

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<v Speaker 2>ago that's a different story. But like I can't verbalize

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<v Speaker 2>like what I'm feeling, like it's it's it's like a

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<v Speaker 2>weird thing, Like in my head, I know what I'm

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<v Speaker 2>thinking and I know what I want to say, but

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<v Speaker 2>then there's like this like blockade like that I just

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<v Speaker 2>can't get out, and I'm just like, we gotta I

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<v Speaker 2>gotta work on that shit. And yeah, that starts with

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<v Speaker 2>being sincere.

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<v Speaker 1>I feel like you're really good at it when we're

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<v Speaker 1>talking about things like I never feel like you're not

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<v Speaker 1>good at just.

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<v Speaker 2>You know what it is is like comparison is a

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<v Speaker 2>thief of joy because you are so good at it.

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<v Speaker 2>Like you are like every time I hear you talk

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<v Speaker 2>about like your emotions or like talking about your feelings

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<v Speaker 2>about someone or anything like that, like I'm like, Damn,

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<v Speaker 2>she's really good at Like she's just really in tune

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<v Speaker 2>with her mind. And even like on the podcast will

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<v Speaker 2>go on these like tangents and I'm like, damn, she's

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<v Speaker 2>like just really good at it. And then like I

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<v Speaker 2>just am sitting next to you and I'm like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm sad because my family, and like that's all I

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<v Speaker 2>can get out.

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<v Speaker 1>I really do think I feel like with me, you're

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<v Speaker 1>very vulnerable, so I wouldn't it. It really is just

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<v Speaker 1>comparison to the thief of joy. Also, I always try

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<v Speaker 1>to remind people not only am I batshit crazy and

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<v Speaker 1>OCD so I can't not think about every single waking

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<v Speaker 1>move I make. But I've had six, i think now

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<v Speaker 1>seven years of consistent therapy, so it really is I

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<v Speaker 1>I doing that once a week. I tell that to everybody.

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<v Speaker 1>I was talking to my sister and she was talking

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<v Speaker 1>about how she has such a hard time verbalizing how

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<v Speaker 1>she feels, but she knows how she feels. It's very

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<v Speaker 1>similar to how you'd say. But just like my sister,

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<v Speaker 1>like when she talks, I'm I'm like, no, you don't

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<v Speaker 1>have a problem talking. You're really good at expressing yourself.

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<v Speaker 1>But it is just because I've done so it's like

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<v Speaker 1>I've taken a class.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, like an acting class. Yeah. For emotions, I have

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<v Speaker 2>a few, but I'm leaving them off because I wrote

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<v Speaker 2>this list when I was sobbing on the floor of

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<v Speaker 2>my bathroom. And we'll get into that. We'll get into

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<v Speaker 2>that in a second. But the last one I'll say

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<v Speaker 2>is unmarrented guilt. I feel like I am a very

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<v Speaker 2>guilty person for things that I had nothing involved with,

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<v Speaker 2>or like just I feel like I carry around a

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<v Speaker 2>lot of guilt for things that literally do not matter

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<v Speaker 2>or that I had no involvement with, and I am

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<v Speaker 2>just leaving that in twenty twenty four, I am living

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<v Speaker 2>a guilt free lifestyle. I'm moving on. Like I'm apologizing

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<v Speaker 2>if I did do wrong, but like I'm not holding

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<v Speaker 2>that guilt over me, and there will be no more shame,

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<v Speaker 2>no more shame, no more shame.

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<v Speaker 1>You know what's funny is my top tour admitting your

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<v Speaker 1>annoying slash wrong and vulnerability, which I feel like kind

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<v Speaker 1>of playing that just being annoying and my like the

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<v Speaker 1>way I wrote it, but it really is that just

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<v Speaker 1>if I'm wrong, I am wrong. I feel like I've

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<v Speaker 1>started to realize because I am a people pleaser through

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<v Speaker 1>and through, and that is such a selfish and self

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<v Speaker 1>absorbed act. I don't think I do it that way

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<v Speaker 1>on purpose, but it does get to a point where

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<v Speaker 1>it's okay, all of these things and all of my

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<v Speaker 1>guilt comes back to me and how I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>I'm going to be perceived for this, Like a ego said, yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>so it's such an ego thing, and I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>it really didn't start as that it comes from our

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<v Speaker 1>fucking childhood and like being like the younger or like

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<v Speaker 1>middle siblings whatever, whatever. But I feel that I can carry. Literally,

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<v Speaker 1>I will have nothing to do with some shit, and

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<v Speaker 1>I will say sorry eighteen million times.

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<v Speaker 2>You gotta stop apologize.

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<v Speaker 1>I say sorry. Oh, I give out sorries like I'm

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<v Speaker 1>mister Beast, given out fucking one hundred chocolate. Yeah, like

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<v Speaker 1>I'm given out feasts.

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<v Speaker 2>Bitch. Oh my god, I fled out. I found out

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<v Speaker 2>mister Beast received millions of taxpayer dollars from the Pentagon

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<v Speaker 2>to get kids to fucking enlist in the goddamn military

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<v Speaker 2>because we are in a military crisis, like because no

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<v Speaker 2>one wants to fight a fucking war. Like no, like

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<v Speaker 2>everyone is just like over, okay whatever, because what the fuck.

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<v Speaker 1>Does that have to do with me. I don't even

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<v Speaker 1>believe in the shit y'all are trying to put me

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<v Speaker 1>at war for like literally, leave those people alone, Leave

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<v Speaker 1>those people the fuck alone, sing me off. I want

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<v Speaker 1>to throw like I think an inn for this year

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<v Speaker 1>is throwing tomatoes. We need to bring back like I

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<v Speaker 1>feel like so much of our society is reversing into

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<v Speaker 1>these crazy ideas that feel very old school. So okay,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm gonna bring back the old school retaliation and I'm

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<v Speaker 1>gonna start y'all better start to try to get getting tomatos.

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<v Speaker 2>Bitches are getting tomatoes and stones, like we're gonna start

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<v Speaker 2>stoning people. We like, we'll throw tomatoes at people where

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<v Speaker 2>we're like this guy fucking stinks, but we'll throw stones

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<v Speaker 2>at people that commit heinous crimes.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I think mister bees is getting a tomato with

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<v Speaker 1>a rock inserted in it.

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<v Speaker 2>So like a dirt dog a dirt dirt clog. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>so it's like not gonna cause permanent damage. There may

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<v Speaker 2>be a cut. Have ever told you about my dirt

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<v Speaker 2>clog fight era?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm not gonna I'm not gonna lie. I don't know

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<v Speaker 1>what the fuck a dirt clog is.

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<v Speaker 2>It's just like a really hard compacted mass of dirt,

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<v Speaker 2>Like it gets wet and it turns into like almost

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<v Speaker 2>a stone where you can pick up a clot of dirt.

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<v Speaker 2>And we would on recess. We found a big pile

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<v Speaker 2>of them, like for like three days, and we would

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<v Speaker 2>just have like wars where we kept throwing them at

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<v Speaker 2>each other and they would hit you and like hurt

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<v Speaker 2>a little bit, but they would burst into dust and

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<v Speaker 2>it was just like really fun. Well, one day a

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<v Speaker 2>kid accidentally picked up a literal stone and launched at

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<v Speaker 2>a kid and gashed his fucking forehead open, and no

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<v Speaker 2>one like the parents of the kid that had his

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<v Speaker 2>forehead gashed open, We're like, what are I saying? Fucking charges?

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<v Speaker 2>But the kid was like mom, like that's gonna make

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<v Speaker 2>me so fucking lame, Like that made me a loser.

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<v Speaker 2>So nothing happened. But yeah, I was almost almost a

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<v Speaker 2>kid that threw the stone, the first stone at the third.

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<v Speaker 1>Stone, the first stone at Grandbury Brook stone wall.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, brick wall, brickwall. Okay, I'll say my other ones,

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<v Speaker 2>but just know that these are back. No, no, no, no, no,

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<v Speaker 2>you're good. These are good conversations. We're leaving showering in

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<v Speaker 2>twenty twenty four.

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<v Speaker 1>Like, are you gonna substitute it with something?

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<v Speaker 2>No? I think I think our human bodies were not

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<v Speaker 2>meant to be showered. And I mean I already left

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<v Speaker 2>it in twenty twenty three, but I'm saying everybody else

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<v Speaker 2>is going to start joining. I literally think the only

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<v Speaker 2>time I quote unquote showered last year was when we

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<v Speaker 2>went to the river. I guess I went to the

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<v Speaker 2>ocean with Mason and Zamar and swim like it.

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<v Speaker 1>But does that s like no, because you're not using soap,

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<v Speaker 1>so it's secondly not a shower. You're just like getting wet.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm confused, Like you you go in the bathroom all

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<v Speaker 1>the time.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I just hang out in there. True, I know. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>I make it seem like I'm showering. I'll maybe wash

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<v Speaker 2>my hands because we're also leaving that in twenty twenty

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<v Speaker 2>two where I left it like washing it.

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<v Speaker 1>But there's like like sicknesses and stuff going around.

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<v Speaker 2>That's why I'm building my immune system bare.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh okay, honestly I feel that. I feel that. Also,

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<v Speaker 1>I just realized I couldn't cut this off if it's

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<v Speaker 1>like too much. But it's not even it literally has

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<v Speaker 1>no details to it. I've realized because both of us

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<v Speaker 1>love hanging out in the bathroom, and I genuinely think

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<v Speaker 1>we like hanging out in the bathroom so much because

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<v Speaker 1>we both grew up in huge families that we had

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<v Speaker 1>to share all these spaces and the bathroom was the

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<v Speaker 1>only place you got to be fully alone. Because what

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<v Speaker 1>I was just looking at you and thinking about in

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<v Speaker 1>the bathroom, I was like, I don't do that, and

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, wait, yes I do. Every night when

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<v Speaker 1>I get ready for bed, I am in there for

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<v Speaker 1>like two fucking hours.

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<v Speaker 2>It's chilling, it's a vibe. It was stairs.

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<v Speaker 1>Love being in there.

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<v Speaker 2>It was the stairs. And oh, best believe.

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<v Speaker 1>Under the table? Were you under the table?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh no, that's weird.

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<v Speaker 1>I was hanging out under the dining room table because

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<v Speaker 1>we had this table. All the chairs would block it

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<v Speaker 1>and there was this little center area with a glass

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<v Speaker 1>piece that would shine light in there, and I would

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<v Speaker 1>just literally I would bring Clay under there, I would

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<v Speaker 1>bring shit under there, and I would hang out under there.

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<v Speaker 1>And I have the best memory from when I was

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<v Speaker 1>a kid during like the house the fridge is about

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<v Speaker 1>to explode. At the first house I lived in, we

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<v Speaker 1>had these huge windows in the living room and it

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<v Speaker 1>was a crazy thunderstorm and I was under the table

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<v Speaker 1>like I had an iPod touch. I was like fourteen.

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<v Speaker 1>I was under the table and Orange is the New

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<v Speaker 1>Black Wow just came out and I was having that,

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<v Speaker 1>watching that and playing with Clay, and I remember like

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<v Speaker 1>going to the kitchen and like putting it to bake

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<v Speaker 1>and going back under the table and waiting. Also, actually,

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<v Speaker 1>before I forget, I almost set my fucking parents' house

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<v Speaker 1>on fire in Miami because my dumb high ass was

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<v Speaker 1>like playing with clay with my siblings, which was so amazing.

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<v Speaker 1>Loved it so much. Made the cutest character. I made

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<v Speaker 1>that thing we've been working on. I made it at

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<v Speaker 1>a clane and it was really good.

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<v Speaker 2>Do you have pictures of it? No?

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<v Speaker 1>Because I put it in the air fryer instead of

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<v Speaker 1>the oven, because I was like same different. I was like,

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<v Speaker 1>same thing, bitch. I. Natalie came in the room and

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<v Speaker 1>Sabrina was there, and she came in the room and

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<v Speaker 1>she goes, there's a lot of smoke in the house.

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<v Speaker 1>Mind you. No one else noticed. My brother is sitting

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<v Speaker 1>in the living room literally dinner. And I had to

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<v Speaker 1>go and run and open all the windows and fan

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<v Speaker 1>out the house. And I went and told my dad

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<v Speaker 1>and he just looked at me. He was like, you

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<v Speaker 1>were so dumb, and I was like, yes, we know.

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<v Speaker 1>And then he was like, did you get the smoke on?

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<v Speaker 1>I was like no, and he was like okay, and

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<v Speaker 1>he got up and he just started.

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<v Speaker 2>Doing You mentioned Oranges a New Black, And I don't

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<v Speaker 2>think that show gets the credit it deserves for making

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<v Speaker 2>Netflix what it is today, because that single handedly changed

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<v Speaker 2>the trajectory of Netflix forever. Like they were making like

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<v Speaker 2>little dinky shows. I think they had Who Was the Murderer?

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<v Speaker 2>That like docuseries or whatever making a murderer. Yeah, but

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<v Speaker 2>like Oranges and New Black really revolutionized I mean streaming

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<v Speaker 2>in general, which I don't know if that's a good

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<v Speaker 2>thing or a bad thing. But it's really convenient. But

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<v Speaker 2>it also costs so much money.

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<v Speaker 1>Also, it's yeah, it's more expensive than cable. I miss cable,

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<v Speaker 1>Like I genuinely I don't like decision making. It's we're

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<v Speaker 1>all being played like pawns, Like I don't I I

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<v Speaker 1>guess actually it's like a very sheep mentality to just

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<v Speaker 1>want decisions made for me. But I don't give a fuck.

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<v Speaker 1>Why do I have to think about what to watch? Sorry,

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<v Speaker 1>I keep going because I'm like literally gonna no, you're.

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<v Speaker 2>Good, You're good. So my other one was uh, not crying.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't cry enough. We're leaving that. In twenty twenty four,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm going to be an emotional baby. I'm going to

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<v Speaker 2>be crying all the time. Yeah, trying to cry.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't be the only girl crying.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, And also I feel like it is like a

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<v Speaker 2>really useful skill to have to be able to cry.

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<v Speaker 2>But just just manipulate, malipolate, manipulate. Okay, then we're leaving

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<v Speaker 2>crushes in twenty twenty four. But I redacted that one

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<v Speaker 2>because I wrote this when I was crying on the

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<v Speaker 2>floor of the bathroom. But I got a text back,

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<v Speaker 2>so good looking up, we're cooking. But I'll get into

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<v Speaker 2>all of that after's.

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<v Speaker 1>Looks my ends. My ends already said the first two,

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<v Speaker 1>admitting your annoying slash wrong vulnerability, not caring about text backs,

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<v Speaker 1>which is crazy. Said that, but I mainly meant that

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<v Speaker 1>because I'm sorry. I'm not a good texterer.

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<v Speaker 2>It's never that's only for you.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's never going to happen.

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<v Speaker 2>Please know I can I show you the way we text.

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<v Speaker 2>I'll show you later. But like you tell me if

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<v Speaker 2>I'm like overreading things, No, it is bad.

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<v Speaker 1>Every time I open a text with anybody I love,

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, holy shit, I suck dick and balls. But

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<v Speaker 1>I just can't you know what it is too, It's like,

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<v Speaker 1>this is so annoying, But I genuinely I have decided

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<v Speaker 1>I like giving so much time and attention to someone,

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<v Speaker 1>and I feel like text is a barrier. I can't

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<v Speaker 1>be fully like, I can't be as fast enough because

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<v Speaker 1>if you look at our texts or like me and

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<v Speaker 1>Oryan's text and our group tech text, we're all just

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<v Speaker 1>talking at the same time, like we're not really replying

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<v Speaker 1>to each other because the way we all talk is

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<v Speaker 1>we like to just be in each other's face and

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, blah blah blah blah blah. I can't do

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<v Speaker 1>that over text. And if I see you in person

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<v Speaker 1>and you're my friend and I am fully present, you

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<v Speaker 1>should know I love you. A textback is not going

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<v Speaker 1>to change that.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that's a good one, and I need to also

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<v Speaker 2>get on that wavelength.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I just like I feel like also being a

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<v Speaker 1>bad text backer or whatever, being bad at replying to

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<v Speaker 1>text also is like remove the anxiety. I don't really

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<v Speaker 1>care that much when someone doesn't text me back because

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<v Speaker 1>I don't even remember I send the text. If I'm

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<v Speaker 1>being honest, like I send a text and I leave

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<v Speaker 1>the app and I'm just like living in my own world,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I'll be like, oh shit, that person ever

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<v Speaker 1>responded to me. That's crazy, Like I actually don't give

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<v Speaker 1>a fuck about a text back. I will say crazy

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<v Speaker 1>shit in your text, and I don't give a fuck

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<v Speaker 1>if you don't reply because I know you saw it, Like,

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<v Speaker 1>because I know I see everything on my phone, So.

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<v Speaker 2>I say, that's what drives me insane. I'm like, bitch,

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<v Speaker 2>you saw it and you didn't respond, like because I

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<v Speaker 2>see everything. Like if I don't text you back, it's

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<v Speaker 2>not because I didn't see it. I saw it, but

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<v Speaker 2>I was scrolling on TikTok and I don't have the

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<v Speaker 2>capacity and wherewithal to exit the app. Put the energy

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<v Speaker 2>into texting you and then sending and then going back

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<v Speaker 2>to the video I was watching, Like I just need

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<v Speaker 2>to be in perpetual rot state because if I break

0:21:33.600 --> 0:21:36.320
<v Speaker 2>that cycle, bad things happen. I start thinking thoughts, I

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<v Speaker 2>start having thoughts inside of my head, your own thought. Yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>and I can't have that. I really, I really cannot have.

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<v Speaker 1>That's why this year, we're going to dedicate more of

0:21:42.760 --> 0:21:45.679
<v Speaker 1>our free time to using our hands. The idol was it?

0:21:45.720 --> 0:21:46.840
<v Speaker 1>The Devil loves idle hands?

0:21:46.880 --> 0:21:49.199
<v Speaker 2>Yep. I mean that's one of my resolutions, which I

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<v Speaker 2>won't get into yet.

0:21:51.359 --> 0:21:54.679
<v Speaker 1>Making coffee at home. I already do this, but I

0:21:54.760 --> 0:21:58.240
<v Speaker 1>mainly wanted to say it for y'all, Like, invest in

0:21:58.240 --> 0:22:01.320
<v Speaker 1>a little setup. It's like a self care thing I love.

0:22:01.520 --> 0:22:03.840
<v Speaker 1>Like as much as I would love to just lay

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<v Speaker 1>in bed and order a coffee, one I can never

0:22:05.840 --> 0:22:07.520
<v Speaker 1>get myself to do it because I'm like, that's awful

0:22:07.520 --> 0:22:09.840
<v Speaker 1>and a waste of time and also a waste of money,

0:22:09.880 --> 0:22:11.760
<v Speaker 1>and the idea of somebody going in their car and

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<v Speaker 1>getting me a coffee and leaving on my front porch

0:22:13.520 --> 0:22:16.159
<v Speaker 1>makes me feel absolutely batshit crazy. But also it's like

0:22:16.200 --> 0:22:19.280
<v Speaker 1>a self care ritual if you have the time, make

0:22:19.320 --> 0:22:21.760
<v Speaker 1>a coffee at home, like invest in your little setup.

0:22:21.760 --> 0:22:24.280
<v Speaker 1>It's like doing your makeup or skincare or whatever the fuck.

0:22:24.320 --> 0:22:26.240
<v Speaker 1>It's like it's a moment to yourself.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's like I think that's why Mancha also became so.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, because it really it's a rich a ritual. Like

0:22:31.240 --> 0:22:34.000
<v Speaker 1>rituals are very important, guys, we need to tap back in.

0:22:34.080 --> 0:22:35.200
<v Speaker 1>That's an inn is virtual.

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<v Speaker 2>It's like little rituals for yourself, like not like not

0:22:38.520 --> 0:22:42.159
<v Speaker 2>like big things, like little like every morning, one of

0:22:42.160 --> 0:22:44.720
<v Speaker 2>my rituals is making my beding my.

0:22:44.640 --> 0:22:48.639
<v Speaker 1>Sheets, curts, yeah have currents, but like opening my curtains ritual.

0:22:48.800 --> 0:22:51.520
<v Speaker 2>It's like I I wake up before everybody else. I

0:22:51.560 --> 0:22:53.439
<v Speaker 2>clean up a little bit like that's a ritual. Like

0:22:53.440 --> 0:22:55.000
<v Speaker 2>little things like that that's so in.

0:22:55.320 --> 0:22:57.600
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, just little things for yourself. You don't have to

0:22:57.600 --> 0:23:00.680
<v Speaker 1>do your big one every day. That's like absolutely ridiculous

0:23:01.720 --> 0:23:05.119
<v Speaker 1>watching the movies your friends recommend, but I have Wow,

0:23:05.440 --> 0:23:07.800
<v Speaker 1>I have to immediately follow that up with one of

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<v Speaker 1>my outs, which is recommending movies you already went to

0:23:10.640 --> 0:23:12.639
<v Speaker 1>see in a theater without me and you didn't invite me.

0:23:12.720 --> 0:23:16.480
<v Speaker 2>Okay, that is also for me too, Yeah, because I

0:23:16.760 --> 0:23:19.760
<v Speaker 2>I didn't get invited. Actually, granted I was in either

0:23:19.800 --> 0:23:22.600
<v Speaker 2>other countries or states, but y'all saw all of the

0:23:22.600 --> 0:23:28.639
<v Speaker 2>major motion pictures without me, and I'll never see Barbie. Barbie, bitch.

0:23:28.680 --> 0:23:31.239
<v Speaker 1>I'm telling you you're not missing shit with Barbie like

0:23:31.400 --> 0:23:35.960
<v Speaker 1>I am. I love saying that shit. Wait, because y'all

0:23:36.000 --> 0:23:37.320
<v Speaker 1>saw something without.

0:23:37.119 --> 0:23:39.280
<v Speaker 2>Me too, but you were in another state.

0:23:39.320 --> 0:23:40.520
<v Speaker 1>You see hell is shit without me?

0:23:40.680 --> 0:23:43.960
<v Speaker 2>You see hell this shit without me? Should we kiss? Nope,

0:23:47.280 --> 0:23:52.639
<v Speaker 2>I'm gonna shove this as so you hit me and

0:23:52.680 --> 0:23:56.640
<v Speaker 2>then you say you're gonna shove a banana up my ass.

0:23:55.480 --> 0:24:00.680
<v Speaker 1>And a new end too is playing like not enough

0:24:00.680 --> 0:24:03.760
<v Speaker 1>friends want to just play like I'm taking instpo from Rain.

0:24:03.840 --> 0:24:05.840
<v Speaker 1>She's really good. At getting her friends together and playing

0:24:05.880 --> 0:24:08.280
<v Speaker 1>games and just not watching TV. When I go to

0:24:08.359 --> 0:24:10.240
<v Speaker 1>Rain's house, it's rare. We sit down and just like

0:24:10.320 --> 0:24:13.120
<v Speaker 1>watch TV. We just play with her cat. We play

0:24:13.160 --> 0:24:15.720
<v Speaker 1>with little things we get like little kids to make

0:24:15.760 --> 0:24:18.200
<v Speaker 1>fucking what's it called? Those like pop and cook in

0:24:18.359 --> 0:24:20.160
<v Speaker 1>Like I want to do more of that. I want

0:24:20.160 --> 0:24:22.760
<v Speaker 1>to do more playing with my friends. I want to

0:24:22.800 --> 0:24:24.680
<v Speaker 1>go run around with my friends. I want to find

0:24:24.680 --> 0:24:26.560
<v Speaker 1>a field and like chase each other and play in

0:24:26.600 --> 0:24:30.000
<v Speaker 1>person like I want to play. And the second thing

0:24:30.040 --> 0:24:32.639
<v Speaker 1>is that, like that is dressing up and being loud.

0:24:32.920 --> 0:24:35.800
<v Speaker 1>I feel like I really like my style. It's become

0:24:35.880 --> 0:24:38.000
<v Speaker 1>very diluted and basic. But I think it's just been

0:24:38.000 --> 0:24:40.600
<v Speaker 1>easier for me, especially with how busy I've gotten to

0:24:40.680 --> 0:24:42.760
<v Speaker 1>be more simple. But I want to be more playful

0:24:42.760 --> 0:24:45.800
<v Speaker 1>with my outfits. I want to be like more of

0:24:45.840 --> 0:24:49.600
<v Speaker 1>a presence. And that's a whole other thing. But yeah,

0:24:49.720 --> 0:24:52.960
<v Speaker 1>I just want to have more fun with my expression,

0:24:53.480 --> 0:24:55.960
<v Speaker 1>with my clothing and my hair and things like that.

0:24:56.000 --> 0:24:58.880
<v Speaker 1>And I'm trying to figure it out. In you actually

0:24:58.960 --> 0:25:01.439
<v Speaker 1>like kind of did I'm like, oh damn, Like getting

0:25:01.440 --> 0:25:04.840
<v Speaker 1>a fun haircut is a thing, Like it's a good thing.

0:25:05.280 --> 0:25:07.000
<v Speaker 2>My rat tail. I need it rebraided.

0:25:07.040 --> 0:25:08.720
<v Speaker 1>The rubber ram follow.

0:25:09.080 --> 0:25:10.440
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, this has been braided.

0:25:10.800 --> 0:25:12.800
<v Speaker 1>Oh you have to take that out and wash it

0:25:12.800 --> 0:25:14.679
<v Speaker 1>because you probably have like scout build up at the

0:25:14.680 --> 0:25:15.440
<v Speaker 1>base of that brain.

0:25:15.520 --> 0:25:17.639
<v Speaker 2>Oh no, I like get up in there and it's

0:25:17.720 --> 0:25:18.680
<v Speaker 2>really loose at the tip.

0:25:19.240 --> 0:25:23.480
<v Speaker 1>Oh that's it, And that's honestly it for my ends,

0:25:23.520 --> 0:25:26.240
<v Speaker 1>like I have other ends, but there are more, I

0:25:26.280 --> 0:25:30.960
<v Speaker 1>guess resolutions for myself. Should we do outs?

0:25:31.760 --> 0:25:33.400
<v Speaker 2>I did my ins and outs at the same time.

0:25:33.400 --> 0:25:37.680
<v Speaker 1>Oh shit, I'm dumb as fuck. Outs is doom scrolling

0:25:37.680 --> 0:25:39.720
<v Speaker 1>because I really want to get off my phone this year.

0:25:39.840 --> 0:25:42.040
<v Speaker 1>I don't think. I don't agree with the idea that

0:25:42.359 --> 0:25:44.280
<v Speaker 1>the Internet and everything is the worst thing you can

0:25:44.320 --> 0:25:46.199
<v Speaker 1>do to your brain, because I genuinely do think it's

0:25:46.240 --> 0:25:49.719
<v Speaker 1>such a good form of connection, information, whatever. But I

0:25:49.800 --> 0:25:52.199
<v Speaker 1>do think I have an addiction to my phone like

0:25:52.240 --> 0:25:55.880
<v Speaker 1>most of us do. And if I'm sitting around anxious,

0:25:55.920 --> 0:25:57.680
<v Speaker 1>I'm like I could be doing something. I just want

0:25:57.680 --> 0:25:59.680
<v Speaker 1>to move my mind somewhere else, even if that means

0:25:59.680 --> 0:26:02.560
<v Speaker 1>to a bigger screen and watching a movie that will

0:26:02.560 --> 0:26:03.040
<v Speaker 1>be done.

0:26:03.240 --> 0:26:06.520
<v Speaker 2>Yeah. One of my resolutions this year is when I'm bored.

0:26:06.560 --> 0:26:11.320
<v Speaker 2>I'll read when I'm overwhelmed, allrite or draw instead of

0:26:11.440 --> 0:26:15.600
<v Speaker 2>scrolling on iPhone. But like you were saying, I'm a

0:26:15.720 --> 0:26:19.320
<v Speaker 2>huge proponent of the iPhone, Like there's kal phone, crack phone.

0:26:19.440 --> 0:26:21.960
<v Speaker 2>I want crackphone. Give it to me, let me utilize

0:26:22.000 --> 0:26:24.800
<v Speaker 2>it to the greatest of its abilities, like I want

0:26:24.800 --> 0:26:28.479
<v Speaker 2>it to consume ninety percent of my day. But at

0:26:28.520 --> 0:26:32.000
<v Speaker 2>the same time, I know I have life to live

0:26:32.119 --> 0:26:34.119
<v Speaker 2>because I'll only be seventeen ones.

0:26:36.440 --> 0:26:39.239
<v Speaker 1>Oh but I thought, I'm so confused. I thought you

0:26:39.240 --> 0:26:39.840
<v Speaker 1>were eighteen.

0:26:43.720 --> 0:26:44.840
<v Speaker 2>Wait, let me do the math.

0:26:45.520 --> 0:26:47.000
<v Speaker 1>So what year were you born?

0:26:47.400 --> 0:26:54.280
<v Speaker 2>Twenty ten? Damn, so I'm only fifteen. You're so double.

0:26:54.359 --> 0:26:59.919
<v Speaker 2>I'm fourteen in like nine months, So I guess I'm like, technically, sixteen.

0:27:00.040 --> 0:27:04.240
<v Speaker 1>Are so annoying? Another out is holding your pee. That's

0:27:04.320 --> 0:27:06.280
<v Speaker 1>kind of just to me. I have this really bad habit,

0:27:06.400 --> 0:27:09.439
<v Speaker 1>especially because I'm always with my friends. I will just

0:27:09.560 --> 0:27:13.040
<v Speaker 1>I hate leaving a room from you guys, because leaving

0:27:13.080 --> 0:27:15.680
<v Speaker 1>a room from the people I know means you miss

0:27:16.000 --> 0:27:19.240
<v Speaker 1>thirty percent of a conversation and you come back and everything.

0:27:18.880 --> 0:27:20.200
<v Speaker 2>Is an inside joke with it.

0:27:20.359 --> 0:27:24.639
<v Speaker 1>Everything has happened. There's something being repeated that you don't understand,

0:27:25.119 --> 0:27:28.040
<v Speaker 1>but I really don't want a uti avoiding the doctors

0:27:28.080 --> 0:27:30.080
<v Speaker 1>another out. I want to go to the doctor. Yes,

0:27:30.720 --> 0:27:33.560
<v Speaker 1>slug enough to have access to doctors, and I want

0:27:33.600 --> 0:27:35.359
<v Speaker 1>to use it. I want to take.

0:27:35.320 --> 0:27:38.080
<v Speaker 2>Let's get those let's get those executive physicals. Y'ah. There's

0:27:38.119 --> 0:27:43.680
<v Speaker 2>these physicals. Granted they're so fucking expensive, like ridiculously expensive,

0:27:43.680 --> 0:27:45.199
<v Speaker 2>but you can do them in Mexico City for like

0:27:45.240 --> 0:27:49.080
<v Speaker 2>seven hundred dollars. But there are these physicals where you

0:27:49.119 --> 0:27:51.199
<v Speaker 2>go in and it's like three days of testing.

0:27:51.200 --> 0:27:52.720
<v Speaker 1>A STIs just do that because I want to go

0:27:52.760 --> 0:27:53.440
<v Speaker 1>back to Mexico.

0:27:53.640 --> 0:27:55.200
<v Speaker 2>I love I love Mexico.

0:27:55.440 --> 0:27:59.719
<v Speaker 1>I love I love me. Oh I literally, I'm not playing.

0:28:00.160 --> 0:28:00.960
<v Speaker 1>I love me.

0:28:01.200 --> 0:28:04.680
<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, shout out Mexican. It's like, y'all, a

0:28:04.960 --> 0:28:09.119
<v Speaker 2>the food is delicious. Y'all's city is Gorgina Grande, Like,

0:28:09.200 --> 0:28:11.240
<v Speaker 2>oh my god, I love Mexico so much, and every

0:28:11.240 --> 0:28:13.840
<v Speaker 2>time I go back, I'm like, damn, like this might

0:28:13.880 --> 0:28:15.480
<v Speaker 2>be my favorite city I've ever been to.

0:28:15.640 --> 0:28:20.679
<v Speaker 1>It's so good. Also, I'm sorry, like Latin America is

0:28:20.760 --> 0:28:25.120
<v Speaker 1>just goat. I really want to go to this year,

0:28:26.560 --> 0:28:30.080
<v Speaker 1>but my family is like boring as fuck their Doerhovah's witnesses,

0:28:31.000 --> 0:28:33.040
<v Speaker 1>like I want to go to Hunduras to like go

0:28:33.080 --> 0:28:34.399
<v Speaker 1>do the shit I did as a kid, which is

0:28:34.440 --> 0:28:36.280
<v Speaker 1>like go play in the river, but my great grandma's

0:28:36.359 --> 0:28:39.480
<v Speaker 1>dead and she's the one who lives by the river.

0:28:40.360 --> 0:28:43.280
<v Speaker 1>But like what, I don't want to go to church,

0:28:43.320 --> 0:28:45.440
<v Speaker 1>but maybe Loki would be interesting because oh my god,

0:28:45.480 --> 0:28:47.680
<v Speaker 1>when I was in Honduras when I was a kid.

0:28:48.480 --> 0:28:50.600
<v Speaker 1>Don't get on me for my pronunciation. I'm sorry, I like,

0:28:50.640 --> 0:28:53.480
<v Speaker 1>I can't, I can't do it. When I would go

0:28:53.520 --> 0:28:55.760
<v Speaker 1>as a kid, they would drag my ass to church

0:28:55.960 --> 0:29:00.280
<v Speaker 1>three times a week. That's I don't want to go well,

0:29:00.440 --> 0:29:02.080
<v Speaker 1>And you know what I would always do. My cheek

0:29:02.120 --> 0:29:04.480
<v Speaker 1>code for getting the fuck out of the church is

0:29:04.520 --> 0:29:07.400
<v Speaker 1>I'd be like, I'm thirsty. I'm thirsty, So my mom

0:29:07.440 --> 0:29:09.640
<v Speaker 1>would give me money or my grandma would give me money,

0:29:09.640 --> 0:29:11.320
<v Speaker 1>and I would run outside and go find a lady

0:29:11.320 --> 0:29:13.360
<v Speaker 1>who was selling water, because they sell water in Math,

0:29:13.600 --> 0:29:15.720
<v Speaker 1>and I would just like go and sneak into my

0:29:16.520 --> 0:29:19.240
<v Speaker 1>aunt's truck, into her backbed, and I would lay there

0:29:19.240 --> 0:29:21.640
<v Speaker 1>and like drink my water until my grandma came out

0:29:21.720 --> 0:29:23.640
<v Speaker 1>looking for me. She'd be like, yeah, because she thought

0:29:23.680 --> 0:29:25.640
<v Speaker 1>I got kidnapped. But really I was hiding because I

0:29:25.640 --> 0:29:26.680
<v Speaker 1>didn't want to be in fucking church.

0:29:26.800 --> 0:29:29.280
<v Speaker 2>We listen and we don't judge. Every time I find

0:29:29.360 --> 0:29:32.360
<v Speaker 2>money in the washing machine, it becomes mine. Oh, same,

0:29:32.640 --> 0:29:36.440
<v Speaker 2>it's mine every time. That's just that's something I thought about.

0:29:36.480 --> 0:29:40.040
<v Speaker 2>And then I don't know why I just said that,

0:29:40.840 --> 0:29:41.360
<v Speaker 2>But you.

0:29:41.280 --> 0:29:43.320
<v Speaker 1>Just had to admit your sins. That's the party you're in.

0:29:43.400 --> 0:29:44.320
<v Speaker 1>You're being vulnerable.

0:29:44.440 --> 0:29:45.560
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm being authentic.

0:29:46.200 --> 0:29:48.880
<v Speaker 1>My other out is staying up too late. I am

0:29:48.920 --> 0:29:52.920
<v Speaker 1>a night owl by nature. I want to get better

0:29:53.120 --> 0:29:55.800
<v Speaker 1>actually sleeping. I just want to get my sleep in.

0:29:55.840 --> 0:29:57.680
<v Speaker 2>Tune because I'm a really did you need that?

0:29:57.760 --> 0:30:00.520
<v Speaker 1>I'm like a heavy sleeper, but I sleep I don't

0:30:00.520 --> 0:30:02.600
<v Speaker 1>really invest in like good pillows and stuff, so I

0:30:02.640 --> 0:30:04.520
<v Speaker 1>have like really bad back problems.

0:30:04.600 --> 0:30:06.480
<v Speaker 2>Like I'm so excited to get a new fucking bed.

0:30:06.640 --> 0:30:08.760
<v Speaker 1>I know, I just want to, like I want to

0:30:08.840 --> 0:30:12.520
<v Speaker 1>just splurge. And also with that not staying up too late,

0:30:12.560 --> 0:30:14.960
<v Speaker 1>I want to do more sleepovers in bed, which is

0:30:14.960 --> 0:30:17.880
<v Speaker 1>why we're we're planning on getting bigger beds so we

0:30:17.920 --> 0:30:21.680
<v Speaker 1>can sleep with our friends. And that also is partially

0:30:21.800 --> 0:30:23.600
<v Speaker 1>with the end, but I don't want to stay up

0:30:23.600 --> 0:30:25.360
<v Speaker 1>too late with y'all, Like I want to be better

0:30:25.400 --> 0:30:27.920
<v Speaker 1>at us waking up and having a day together. Yeah,

0:30:28.040 --> 0:30:29.600
<v Speaker 1>and then we're going to bed early together.

0:30:29.680 --> 0:30:31.880
<v Speaker 2>But we always have nights, we never have days. But

0:30:31.920 --> 0:30:34.240
<v Speaker 2>we're also like we always say like, Okay, we're gonna

0:30:34.240 --> 0:30:35.920
<v Speaker 2>go do this, this and this tomorrow, and then it

0:30:36.040 --> 0:30:38.720
<v Speaker 2>like comes time and more like working or some shit.

0:30:38.920 --> 0:30:41.760
<v Speaker 2>I know that's what's something we need. I need a schedule,

0:30:41.760 --> 0:30:42.680
<v Speaker 2>but sorry, keep going.

0:30:43.280 --> 0:30:46.360
<v Speaker 1>Okay, this, okay, I really have to explain this one.

0:30:46.880 --> 0:30:51.200
<v Speaker 1>This isn't out public massandry is out. But let me explain.

0:30:51.360 --> 0:30:53.360
<v Speaker 2>Mmm, this is interesting.

0:30:53.440 --> 0:31:00.600
<v Speaker 1>Let me explain. I will always hate men, pointblank period always.

0:31:01.560 --> 0:31:02.680
<v Speaker 1>Do I have men in my life?

0:31:02.720 --> 0:31:03.040
<v Speaker 2>I love?

0:31:03.280 --> 0:31:08.240
<v Speaker 1>Yes, there is a balance. Am I the strongest messandras No,

0:31:09.440 --> 0:31:12.240
<v Speaker 1>not by any means, because yes, I saw a baby.

0:31:11.960 --> 0:31:15.720
<v Speaker 2>Girl and you're straight again.

0:31:16.160 --> 0:31:22.840
<v Speaker 1>Let's just say, don't let me in that room. Don't

0:31:22.880 --> 0:31:23.760
<v Speaker 1>let me in that room.

0:31:23.960 --> 0:31:28.440
<v Speaker 2>I literally that's how I'm like, don't let me in

0:31:28.480 --> 0:31:30.720
<v Speaker 2>that goddamn coffin because I will be eating the maggots

0:31:30.760 --> 0:31:37.240
<v Speaker 2>off his dick. Oh my god, true, his rotten fucking

0:31:37.320 --> 0:31:42.000
<v Speaker 2>member is a member.

0:31:42.200 --> 0:31:45.800
<v Speaker 1>No, it is a member. It's a lot. But I'm like,

0:31:47.800 --> 0:31:52.760
<v Speaker 1>I just think men are too aware of it, and

0:31:52.800 --> 0:31:57.040
<v Speaker 1>I am tired of them getting to go online and

0:31:57.120 --> 0:31:59.640
<v Speaker 1>say the right things. Are just in person say the

0:31:59.720 --> 0:32:03.760
<v Speaker 1>right things. Yeah, I feel like straight men are just

0:32:03.840 --> 0:32:06.440
<v Speaker 1>seeing that and they're getting to manipulate it. If you're

0:32:06.440 --> 0:32:07.800
<v Speaker 1>a straight man listening to this.

0:32:08.640 --> 0:32:11.640
<v Speaker 2>Be you you are, be you yea be who you are.

0:32:11.720 --> 0:32:17.800
<v Speaker 1>I'm not hating on you publicly, but yeah, I I

0:32:17.800 --> 0:32:20.440
<v Speaker 1>feel like I can't even go into detail, like just

0:32:21.000 --> 0:32:25.680
<v Speaker 1>the girls are together, no, actually see even saying that, Like,

0:32:25.760 --> 0:32:27.960
<v Speaker 1>I just don't want to be a public messandrist because

0:32:28.680 --> 0:32:31.920
<v Speaker 1>I like the shock value of men coming up to

0:32:31.960 --> 0:32:37.040
<v Speaker 1>me and then me being like, but just know that

0:32:37.120 --> 0:32:39.440
<v Speaker 1>there is a rhyme and a reason. I just don't

0:32:39.440 --> 0:32:41.400
<v Speaker 1>want men to know what we're up to, Like men

0:32:41.480 --> 0:32:44.160
<v Speaker 1>shouldn't have the right like they we have to start

0:32:44.200 --> 0:32:46.280
<v Speaker 1>treating it like a secret society.

0:32:47.000 --> 0:32:48.400
<v Speaker 2>The Illuminati and massandry.

0:32:48.800 --> 0:32:54.120
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, and that's that. And then my last out is mystery.

0:32:54.240 --> 0:32:57.600
<v Speaker 2>I'm enough, it's done, it's tried, it's boring.

0:32:57.360 --> 0:32:59.920
<v Speaker 1>It's over, Like yeah, like enough with the mystery of

0:33:00.080 --> 0:33:02.400
<v Speaker 1>it all. I think I've been thinking a lot about

0:33:02.440 --> 0:33:05.600
<v Speaker 1>my Yes, literally, I've been thinking a lot about my

0:33:05.800 --> 0:33:08.880
<v Speaker 1>age and my perceptions of what it means to be

0:33:08.880 --> 0:33:10.480
<v Speaker 1>a woman. I kind of went on a tangent like

0:33:10.520 --> 0:33:13.960
<v Speaker 1>this on the live stream the other day, But just

0:33:14.080 --> 0:33:16.040
<v Speaker 1>my ideas of what it means to be a woman,

0:33:16.080 --> 0:33:18.560
<v Speaker 1>what it means to grow into my womanhood, and like

0:33:18.640 --> 0:33:20.760
<v Speaker 1>how I am perceived in public and all these things.

0:33:20.760 --> 0:33:22.200
<v Speaker 1>And I think I had a lot of ideas of

0:33:22.240 --> 0:33:25.120
<v Speaker 1>when I grew older, I would become more calm and

0:33:25.160 --> 0:33:28.000
<v Speaker 1>within myself and be a little more like restrictive of

0:33:28.040 --> 0:33:32.760
<v Speaker 1>the things I say and all these things. No, no,

0:33:32.840 --> 0:33:34.600
<v Speaker 1>because that is a ploy to get my ass to

0:33:34.640 --> 0:33:36.120
<v Speaker 1>shut up. And one thing you're never gonna do is

0:33:36.160 --> 0:33:39.040
<v Speaker 1>have me fucking shut That literally.

0:33:38.720 --> 0:33:40.680
<v Speaker 2>Is the patriarchy like locking you down.

0:33:40.760 --> 0:33:42.640
<v Speaker 1>No, that's what I feel like, because I'm like, oh, yeah,

0:33:42.640 --> 0:33:45.719
<v Speaker 1>when I'm older, I'll be just like this sexy woman

0:33:45.960 --> 0:33:50.160
<v Speaker 1>and like people will turn their heads. Actually, no, I

0:33:50.200 --> 0:33:58.480
<v Speaker 1>realize that I don't like. I literally don't. I don't

0:33:58.520 --> 0:34:00.600
<v Speaker 1>want to shut up. I don't like, yeah, I want

0:34:00.640 --> 0:34:02.760
<v Speaker 1>people to fear me, and I don't give a fuck.

0:34:02.840 --> 0:34:06.800
<v Speaker 2>Actually, just don't don't. It is scary. I am being

0:34:07.920 --> 0:34:13.920
<v Speaker 2>perceived as scary. But I'll tell you later. Okay. So, uh,

0:34:14.680 --> 0:34:17.239
<v Speaker 2>trend forecasting for twenty twenty five. I came up with

0:34:17.280 --> 0:34:22.440
<v Speaker 2>a few. Changing underwear daily is going to be in

0:34:22.520 --> 0:34:23.520
<v Speaker 2>for twenty twenty five.

0:34:23.800 --> 0:34:25.520
<v Speaker 1>Like the thing is, you keep saying a lot of

0:34:25.600 --> 0:34:28.040
<v Speaker 1>hygiene based things that actually make me a bit worried

0:34:28.080 --> 0:34:28.399
<v Speaker 1>for you.

0:34:28.880 --> 0:34:32.200
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, no, you get like I feel like all of us,

0:34:32.320 --> 0:34:36.680
<v Speaker 2>we you, like everyone involved, on my on your soul,

0:34:37.080 --> 0:34:40.200
<v Speaker 2>we're all like not changing underwear daily. Sometimes we go

0:34:40.200 --> 0:34:41.839
<v Speaker 2>four or five days without it, and that's just like

0:34:41.960 --> 0:34:45.319
<v Speaker 2>saving them all on your soul, on your soul, we

0:34:45.320 --> 0:34:47.840
<v Speaker 2>we all of us are not changing.

0:34:47.920 --> 0:34:50.160
<v Speaker 1>You're like manipulating me. Now, I'm really thinking about my

0:34:50.280 --> 0:34:51.160
<v Speaker 1>underwear consumption.

0:34:51.400 --> 0:34:53.040
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you're you're watching it too much. You're wasting too

0:34:53.120 --> 0:34:55.040
<v Speaker 2>much water. Like did you know the amount of water

0:34:55.120 --> 0:34:57.240
<v Speaker 2>in a washing machine could fill an Olympic size pool

0:34:57.400 --> 0:34:58.160
<v Speaker 2>one wash.

0:34:58.320 --> 0:35:00.399
<v Speaker 1>That can't be true, that can be sure.

0:35:00.480 --> 0:35:02.200
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, so every time you wash your clothes, you're filling

0:35:02.200 --> 0:35:03.319
<v Speaker 2>an Olympics ice swimming pool.

0:35:03.640 --> 0:35:05.279
<v Speaker 1>Like, I actually can't tell if you're lying to me.

0:35:05.440 --> 0:35:09.960
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I'm being dead serious, So like just keep in mind.

0:35:10.120 --> 0:35:13.120
<v Speaker 1>Yes, see, you can't say anything to me because I

0:35:13.160 --> 0:35:14.759
<v Speaker 1>believe anything anyone says.

0:35:15.000 --> 0:35:17.760
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, So changing your underwear daily is and I feel

0:35:17.760 --> 0:35:20.160
<v Speaker 2>like we've taken it too far and we just got

0:35:20.160 --> 0:35:21.359
<v Speaker 2>to come back to it.

0:35:21.640 --> 0:35:27.120
<v Speaker 1>I don't think we should just banish underwear. Yeah, Like I

0:35:27.120 --> 0:35:28.279
<v Speaker 1>I'm low key prog and.

0:35:28.280 --> 0:35:39.240
<v Speaker 2>Gray sweatpants on big hairy men. No underwear, Oh my god. Okay.

0:35:39.400 --> 0:35:41.319
<v Speaker 2>I feel like sambas are gonna be.

0:35:46.840 --> 0:35:49.400
<v Speaker 1>I feel like jeans are gonna be a vibe jeans.

0:35:50.360 --> 0:35:58.239
<v Speaker 2>Jeans why shirt fire men have more fun on the earth? Okay, Okay,

0:35:58.360 --> 0:35:59.279
<v Speaker 2>Cheetah print.

0:35:59.600 --> 0:36:03.680
<v Speaker 1>Yours so annoying. I actually was so curious. I was like, damn,

0:36:03.719 --> 0:36:06.040
<v Speaker 1>you wrote trend forecast, Like what are you gonna think

0:36:06.400 --> 0:36:08.960
<v Speaker 1>that is how it's gonna be. It's like Bambi print

0:36:09.080 --> 0:36:09.600
<v Speaker 1>is in.

0:36:09.920 --> 0:36:13.279
<v Speaker 2>We know it's been in, Nike is gonna be in

0:36:13.760 --> 0:36:16.719
<v Speaker 2>for twenty twenty five. This is a very real one,

0:36:16.760 --> 0:36:20.560
<v Speaker 2>a very authentic one. Sincerity is coming back, loving thy neighbor.

0:36:20.800 --> 0:36:24.520
<v Speaker 2>I feel like we've gone a little too far. Oh

0:36:24.560 --> 0:36:25.560
<v Speaker 2>did you get that text too?

0:36:25.800 --> 0:36:27.360
<v Speaker 1>From the transcar transport?

0:36:27.600 --> 0:36:30.840
<v Speaker 2>Oh? No, I got a text while we were recording.

0:36:31.360 --> 0:36:34.080
<v Speaker 2>We haven't chatted for a long time when are you

0:36:34.200 --> 0:36:37.399
<v Speaker 2>free to have a cup of coffee? Who is nice

0:36:37.480 --> 0:36:43.319
<v Speaker 2>right now? Send a pic? I'm free now because it's

0:36:43.320 --> 0:36:43.720
<v Speaker 2>a bot.

0:36:45.280 --> 0:36:47.640
<v Speaker 1>But wait, wait, what's your actual trend forecast?

0:36:47.680 --> 0:36:50.719
<v Speaker 2>I'm curious, Love thy neighbor, loving thy neighbor. I feel

0:36:50.719 --> 0:36:52.439
<v Speaker 2>like it's gonna come in in a very big way.

0:36:52.560 --> 0:36:55.800
<v Speaker 2>Like I feel like we've been doing this like hating

0:36:55.840 --> 0:36:58.480
<v Speaker 2>each other thing for like far, far, far too long,

0:36:58.520 --> 0:36:59.800
<v Speaker 2>and I feel like this is the year of you

0:37:00.200 --> 0:37:04.040
<v Speaker 2>unity and union and like respecting each other's differences. And

0:37:04.160 --> 0:37:05.920
<v Speaker 2>I think it's I think it's gonna happen finally.

0:37:05.960 --> 0:37:08.239
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, I do want to be less judgmental this year,

0:37:08.280 --> 0:37:10.000
<v Speaker 1>but that's a that don't even.

0:37:09.800 --> 0:37:14.800
<v Speaker 2>Sound right, like a big pig. Internally, I will judge

0:37:14.840 --> 0:37:21.440
<v Speaker 2>everything everybody does forward facing. That makes me sound so crazy.

0:37:21.800 --> 0:37:28.000
<v Speaker 2>I redact all of that. I reject that energy. I

0:37:28.040 --> 0:37:31.440
<v Speaker 2>don't have any real trend forecasts. Like I think I

0:37:31.480 --> 0:37:39.120
<v Speaker 2>saw someone say, like sailor wear like clothing. It's really

0:37:39.200 --> 0:37:41.840
<v Speaker 2>niche right now, Like I think for like the masses,

0:37:41.920 --> 0:37:44.920
<v Speaker 2>it's gonna be a thing like wearing like sailor hats

0:37:44.960 --> 0:37:49.160
<v Speaker 2>and like blue and white collars and like that vibe. Okay,

0:37:49.239 --> 0:37:53.000
<v Speaker 2>so this bot texted me saying, we haven't chatted for

0:37:53.040 --> 0:37:55.279
<v Speaker 2>a long time. When are you free to have a

0:37:55.280 --> 0:37:57.440
<v Speaker 2>cup of coffee? I said, who is this? Sinda pick

0:37:57.520 --> 0:38:00.480
<v Speaker 2>I'm free now, I'm Stephanie. You have haven't you saved

0:38:00.520 --> 0:38:04.240
<v Speaker 2>my number friend Julia? And then she sent her picture

0:38:04.480 --> 0:38:07.239
<v Speaker 2>and then I said, oh, img, high, I don't remember you,

0:38:07.320 --> 0:38:08.480
<v Speaker 2>but I want to touch your boobs.

0:38:10.120 --> 0:38:15.360
<v Speaker 1>I see also this picture of this girl just on vacation.

0:38:15.800 --> 0:38:19.040
<v Speaker 2>I know who is this random girl? Who is Should

0:38:19.040 --> 0:38:23.640
<v Speaker 2>we reverse image searches? Yes, zero matches. What if she's real?

0:38:25.800 --> 0:38:28.280
<v Speaker 1>There's no way that girl does not What if.

0:38:28.120 --> 0:38:33.839
<v Speaker 2>I literally just like accidentally like sexually a woman? Yeah, say,

0:38:33.880 --> 0:38:37.960
<v Speaker 2>I'm gay. By the way, I just like playing with boobs. Oh,

0:38:38.120 --> 0:38:47.719
<v Speaker 2>isn't this my friend Julia's number? No, I'm gay, by

0:38:47.800 --> 0:38:53.600
<v Speaker 2>the way, I just like playing with boobs.

0:38:54.800 --> 0:38:55.920
<v Speaker 1>You're so annoying.

0:38:57.000 --> 0:39:02.640
<v Speaker 2>Okay, I am batshit forucking crazy. I found out over

0:39:02.719 --> 0:39:06.000
<v Speaker 2>this Christmas break that there is a part of me

0:39:06.360 --> 0:39:10.320
<v Speaker 2>that I did not know existed, never thought would exist.

0:39:10.719 --> 0:39:16.440
<v Speaker 2>And I have gone full blown fucking tweaker psycho like

0:39:16.440 --> 0:39:21.719
<v Speaker 2>like stalker like literally stalker mode like it's and it

0:39:21.760 --> 0:39:22.319
<v Speaker 2>got to a.

0:39:22.320 --> 0:39:25.239
<v Speaker 1>Point I guess, yeah, you have all that pent up

0:39:25.360 --> 0:39:28.040
<v Speaker 1>energy since you're not somebody who like casually has crushes.

0:39:28.160 --> 0:39:30.239
<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, yeah, I have a crush. This is That's

0:39:30.239 --> 0:39:32.600
<v Speaker 2>what I'm talking about. I have a Sorry, I don't

0:39:32.600 --> 0:39:35.279
<v Speaker 2>know if you big no that I did. I have

0:39:35.320 --> 0:39:40.200
<v Speaker 2>a big, big, fat, nasty crush. And I realized I

0:39:40.280 --> 0:39:42.200
<v Speaker 2>was like, why is it called a crush? Like, why

0:39:42.239 --> 0:39:44.840
<v Speaker 2>is it called the crush? It's because it literally crushes. Yeah,

0:39:44.880 --> 0:39:46.360
<v Speaker 2>I never knew that. I just thought it was like

0:39:46.360 --> 0:39:50.200
<v Speaker 2>a silly little name. No, it literally crushes me, y'all.

0:39:50.440 --> 0:39:53.560
<v Speaker 2>I literally, like, one night he didn't text me back

0:39:54.520 --> 0:39:56.879
<v Speaker 2>when I like was like asking to hang out, and

0:39:57.120 --> 0:40:01.160
<v Speaker 2>literally I went fucking crazy. I found his family. I

0:40:01.200 --> 0:40:04.600
<v Speaker 2>found every one of his siblings. I paid thirty dollars

0:40:04.640 --> 0:40:07.479
<v Speaker 2>to find his addresses of his old houses. I found

0:40:07.520 --> 0:40:10.400
<v Speaker 2>out every location he's ever lived in. I found his

0:40:10.520 --> 0:40:14.600
<v Speaker 2>ex boyfriend. Like, I found literally everything you could about

0:40:14.600 --> 0:40:17.840
<v Speaker 2>and made a timeline of events in my notes apps

0:40:18.239 --> 0:40:23.120
<v Speaker 2>of his life. Like, wait, you have notes, I have notes.

0:40:23.600 --> 0:40:25.600
<v Speaker 2>I have notes, Like I'm literally fucking crazy.

0:40:25.640 --> 0:40:27.920
<v Speaker 1>No, it's this great Drew called me. I was in

0:40:27.920 --> 0:40:29.279
<v Speaker 1>the middle of talking to my family. He called me.

0:40:29.360 --> 0:40:32.040
<v Speaker 1>He was like, oh my God, and because of everything

0:40:32.080 --> 0:40:34.480
<v Speaker 1>that's been happening, I was like, oh Jesus Christ. Okay,

0:40:34.680 --> 0:40:36.680
<v Speaker 1>Like I walked away and I ran into my parents'

0:40:36.680 --> 0:40:39.040
<v Speaker 1>bedrooms bathroom, and I was like, what happened? What happened?

0:40:39.040 --> 0:40:43.480
<v Speaker 1>He's like, I'm fucking crazy. No, you have to tell

0:40:43.480 --> 0:40:46.320
<v Speaker 1>them you fucking how you got that information though.

0:40:46.280 --> 0:40:53.240
<v Speaker 2>I paid thirty dollars to subscribe to truthfinder dot com.

0:40:53.800 --> 0:40:57.239
<v Speaker 2>I paid thirty dollars, y'all. And then it gets.

0:40:57.040 --> 0:41:01.600
<v Speaker 1>Worse, I mean to be fair, very very crazy situation

0:41:01.760 --> 0:41:05.440
<v Speaker 1>because no social media, got no problem, no social media,

0:41:05.640 --> 0:41:07.400
<v Speaker 1>no Like I.

0:41:06.840 --> 0:41:09.320
<v Speaker 2>I did find his Facebook profile from twenty eleven.

0:41:09.520 --> 0:41:11.839
<v Speaker 1>But that's what I'm saying. Every time somebody, anybody who

0:41:11.840 --> 0:41:16.400
<v Speaker 1>has a crush that ig is getting ran through tags, followers, bubbah.

0:41:16.480 --> 0:41:20.320
<v Speaker 1>But like everything everything, I'm googling your name, I'm googling

0:41:20.360 --> 0:41:23.520
<v Speaker 1>your last name, I'm seeing, I am, I'm seeing I

0:41:24.640 --> 0:41:28.839
<v Speaker 1>am seeing everything everywhere, all at once. But that's to

0:41:28.840 --> 0:41:30.560
<v Speaker 1>spend thirty dollars. I can't even get on you though,

0:41:30.560 --> 0:41:32.719
<v Speaker 1>because I would spend oh I would the amount of

0:41:32.719 --> 0:41:36.200
<v Speaker 1>money I would spend to know people's business.

0:41:36.320 --> 0:41:39.840
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I was doing really crazy things like I literally

0:41:40.000 --> 0:41:43.920
<v Speaker 2>like when on cheeterbuster dot com.

0:41:43.880 --> 0:41:48.640
<v Speaker 1>What yeah, why is cheeterbuster?

0:41:49.640 --> 0:41:52.120
<v Speaker 2>You find a picture of them and insert their name

0:41:52.160 --> 0:41:55.080
<v Speaker 2>and age and then it'll tell you if they have Tinder.

0:41:56.560 --> 0:41:59.760
<v Speaker 1>That is so funny, drone Cheaterbuster.

0:42:00.960 --> 0:42:02.600
<v Speaker 2>Not because I thought he was cheating, but I was

0:42:02.680 --> 0:42:05.080
<v Speaker 2>just like, is he like looking to date? Like is

0:42:05.120 --> 0:42:08.719
<v Speaker 2>this possibility? Also kinda he might actually be listening to

0:42:08.760 --> 0:42:14.120
<v Speaker 2>this right now, which is also mortifying. But vulnerability vulnerability

0:42:14.200 --> 0:42:16.600
<v Speaker 2>for twenty thirty four, well, I was so down bad.

0:42:16.880 --> 0:42:23.000
<v Speaker 2>I literally I'm not gonna say that one. I'm gonna

0:42:23.000 --> 0:42:24.959
<v Speaker 2>save that, but this one I will say.

0:42:25.520 --> 0:42:27.520
<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah.

0:42:27.560 --> 0:42:32.360
<v Speaker 2>I was sitting on the floor of the bathroom, hadn't

0:42:32.640 --> 0:42:34.640
<v Speaker 2>texted me back all day. I was like, damn, I

0:42:34.680 --> 0:42:36.920
<v Speaker 2>really like caught feelings and this is like bullshit. And

0:42:36.960 --> 0:42:40.440
<v Speaker 2>I was literally crying, like I never cry. I was

0:42:40.480 --> 0:42:42.359
<v Speaker 2>literally crying. But there was a lot of other shit

0:42:42.480 --> 0:42:44.840
<v Speaker 2>going on, so it wasn't just that. And I was

0:42:44.840 --> 0:42:46.440
<v Speaker 2>like journaling in my phone because I was like when

0:42:46.480 --> 0:42:48.880
<v Speaker 2>I'm overwhelmed, all right, like that's like That's what I

0:42:48.960 --> 0:42:50.919
<v Speaker 2>was doing. And I was writing all this shit down

0:42:50.960 --> 0:42:53.680
<v Speaker 2>and I was actually being really truthful, which also something

0:42:53.680 --> 0:42:56.680
<v Speaker 2>I realized is, bitch, I still like, why do I

0:42:56.760 --> 0:42:58.960
<v Speaker 2>lie when I journal? Like I still like I make

0:42:59.000 --> 0:43:00.719
<v Speaker 2>shit up when I'm journaling, and I'm like, bitch, this

0:43:00.760 --> 0:43:02.839
<v Speaker 2>is just for me, Like literally, I have like an

0:43:02.880 --> 0:43:04.000
<v Speaker 2>actual fucking issue.

0:43:04.200 --> 0:43:06.840
<v Speaker 1>But well, that kind of makes sense because it's I have.

0:43:07.480 --> 0:43:09.840
<v Speaker 1>I literally, if you look at my last page of journaling,

0:43:10.200 --> 0:43:12.120
<v Speaker 1>I write about that because.

0:43:11.840 --> 0:43:13.040
<v Speaker 2>I wrote about that. Look.

0:43:13.160 --> 0:43:15.759
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, cause it's like it's almost like a fear if

0:43:15.800 --> 0:43:19.440
<v Speaker 1>you're putting it somewhere, and even the idea and notion

0:43:19.600 --> 0:43:22.480
<v Speaker 1>that somebody out there would ever cross a boundary and

0:43:22.600 --> 0:43:25.239
<v Speaker 1>look at that stuff is enough to keep you back

0:43:25.239 --> 0:43:27.960
<v Speaker 1>from writing it exactly. And it sucks so bad. I

0:43:28.000 --> 0:43:29.719
<v Speaker 1>want to get better at that too, because there's a

0:43:29.840 --> 0:43:30.640
<v Speaker 1>lot of stuff.

0:43:30.680 --> 0:43:33.080
<v Speaker 2>But there's also it's not like me lying like.

0:43:33.080 --> 0:43:34.839
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, it's just feel like I can't write it down.

0:43:34.960 --> 0:43:37.719
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's like not me lying, it's like me like

0:43:38.520 --> 0:43:43.759
<v Speaker 2>just being like like saying what I want to hear,

0:43:43.760 --> 0:43:46.040
<v Speaker 2>if that makes sense. It's like something I find myself

0:43:46.080 --> 0:43:51.040
<v Speaker 2>doing specifically with crushes is I'll like make like I'll

0:43:51.080 --> 0:43:55.600
<v Speaker 2>formulate texts where I get the response I want in return.

0:43:55.680 --> 0:43:58.719
<v Speaker 2>Like it's really fucking psychoshit, like, I'll make sure the

0:43:58.760 --> 0:44:00.799
<v Speaker 2>text is like a response that I want to hear.

0:44:01.920 --> 0:44:07.600
<v Speaker 2>I know, genuine like insanity, but bitch, it's some embarrassing.

0:44:07.880 --> 0:44:10.440
<v Speaker 2>It's really it's really really jarring. But I was so

0:44:10.480 --> 0:44:12.480
<v Speaker 2>beat up about it, and I was like, I just

0:44:12.520 --> 0:44:14.240
<v Speaker 2>need someone to talk to you about this. And everyone

0:44:14.360 --> 0:44:20.919
<v Speaker 2>was asleep. I had a full blown conversation with chat

0:44:20.960 --> 0:44:26.560
<v Speaker 2>chept over it co like I wonder if the chat

0:44:26.560 --> 0:44:31.760
<v Speaker 2>log saved. I didn't save and I forgot to screen

0:44:31.800 --> 0:44:38.120
<v Speaker 2>record it. Literally talked to chatpyat cheap chat GPT and

0:44:38.160 --> 0:44:40.400
<v Speaker 2>it was giving me advice and it was giving me

0:44:40.480 --> 0:44:41.040
<v Speaker 2>good advice.

0:44:41.120 --> 0:44:44.000
<v Speaker 1>Okay, good per because I give bad advice. I was

0:44:44.000 --> 0:44:46.359
<v Speaker 1>gonna say, like, I feel bad for Drew because I'm

0:44:46.360 --> 0:44:48.520
<v Speaker 1>not very helpful during these times. Because I am the

0:44:48.719 --> 0:44:53.400
<v Speaker 1>most forward person ever. Drew has been the butt of

0:44:53.440 --> 0:44:58.600
<v Speaker 1>that experience. But if I like someone, I will just

0:44:58.719 --> 0:45:01.040
<v Speaker 1>literally say it. The thing it's like, oh, I'm talking

0:45:01.040 --> 0:45:02.399
<v Speaker 1>to you because I want to fuck.

0:45:02.680 --> 0:45:05.800
<v Speaker 2>No. Literally, the thing is is I'm like, I don't

0:45:06.600 --> 0:45:09.479
<v Speaker 2>feel like I'm allowed to like him, if that makes sense,

0:45:09.560 --> 0:45:12.880
<v Speaker 2>not because not because like gay or whatever, but because

0:45:12.960 --> 0:45:16.200
<v Speaker 2>like we've only hung out for a couple times, and

0:45:16.239 --> 0:45:18.239
<v Speaker 2>I'm like, I feel like if I was like, oh,

0:45:18.360 --> 0:45:21.600
<v Speaker 2>like I have a crush on you, like that would

0:45:21.640 --> 0:45:24.000
<v Speaker 2>just be like so jarring and scary. So I'm like,

0:45:24.600 --> 0:45:27.520
<v Speaker 2>what I'm gonna do is just let it rock. And

0:45:27.520 --> 0:45:30.560
<v Speaker 2>then when I go back to Texas and we hang out,

0:45:30.880 --> 0:45:33.120
<v Speaker 2>I feel like three times hanging out is like enough

0:45:33.120 --> 0:45:34.959
<v Speaker 2>to be like, hey, like I really enjoy our time

0:45:35.280 --> 0:45:37.000
<v Speaker 2>that we spend together. Da da da da da da

0:45:37.040 --> 0:45:37.600
<v Speaker 2>da da da dah.

0:45:37.680 --> 0:45:40.919
<v Speaker 1>I'm crazy, but not that crazy because the only time

0:45:40.920 --> 0:45:43.160
<v Speaker 1>I've ever met someone in person and immediately was like,

0:45:43.200 --> 0:45:44.560
<v Speaker 1>oh my god, I have a crush on this person

0:45:44.760 --> 0:45:48.040
<v Speaker 1>was more Yeah, but I withheld that information for a

0:45:48.080 --> 0:45:50.600
<v Speaker 1>while because it did make me feel bashit crazy. That's

0:45:50.640 --> 0:45:53.400
<v Speaker 1>the crazy part is it's different when you meet someone

0:45:53.440 --> 0:45:55.799
<v Speaker 1>through someone or like a friend and you have a

0:45:55.800 --> 0:45:58.879
<v Speaker 1>crush in that way. When you meet someone random, you're

0:45:58.920 --> 0:46:02.239
<v Speaker 1>not expecting to exactly can you have a crush. That

0:46:02.400 --> 0:46:05.440
<v Speaker 1>is when the psychosis really kicks in, because it's one

0:46:05.480 --> 0:46:07.960
<v Speaker 1>thing to be searching and find something, but when something

0:46:08.080 --> 0:46:12.399
<v Speaker 1>just lands on your lap, literally, I'm like I need this,

0:46:12.520 --> 0:46:14.320
<v Speaker 1>I literally need this. God put it here for me,

0:46:14.360 --> 0:46:16.399
<v Speaker 1>and I'm a little schizophrenic, and I genuinely think God

0:46:16.440 --> 0:46:18.319
<v Speaker 1>put this here for me, like there's no other way,

0:46:18.400 --> 0:46:19.919
<v Speaker 1>like it was meant to happen now, and I want

0:46:19.960 --> 0:46:22.319
<v Speaker 1>it now. I love this for you. It makes me

0:46:22.520 --> 0:46:23.160
<v Speaker 1>very happy.

0:46:23.560 --> 0:46:25.600
<v Speaker 2>I think he was born in May, and I decided,

0:46:25.600 --> 0:46:27.759
<v Speaker 2>if you're a man born in May, you're gay, even

0:46:27.800 --> 0:46:29.759
<v Speaker 2>if you're straight, Like, oh my birthdays May.

0:46:29.920 --> 0:46:32.520
<v Speaker 1>Yeah. All the gay people I know who like even

0:46:32.520 --> 0:46:33.120
<v Speaker 1>if they're.

0:46:33.080 --> 0:46:35.080
<v Speaker 2>Like, if a straight man is born in May, like

0:46:35.160 --> 0:46:38.200
<v Speaker 2>you're gay. Yeah, Like that's such a gay ass month.

0:46:41.160 --> 0:46:45.120
<v Speaker 1>So stupid. Well, I think it's time for me to

0:46:45.160 --> 0:46:49.520
<v Speaker 1>tell this story. Maybe I have told it, but I've

0:46:49.520 --> 0:46:51.319
<v Speaker 1>been thinking a lot about wanting to do my hair

0:46:51.360 --> 0:46:54.040
<v Speaker 1>and all this shit. And I have such bad PTSD

0:46:54.120 --> 0:46:57.200
<v Speaker 1>with anything cosmetic or like beauty related because I have

0:46:57.320 --> 0:46:59.920
<v Speaker 1>had fuck ass experiences and I don't think of it

0:47:00.000 --> 0:47:04.400
<v Speaker 1>ever told this story. But one time, when I was

0:47:04.440 --> 0:47:06.920
<v Speaker 1>in Miami, it was after I graduated, I really wanted

0:47:06.920 --> 0:47:08.799
<v Speaker 1>hair extensions. It was when my hair was like up

0:47:08.800 --> 0:47:11.400
<v Speaker 1>to hear and I wanted long hair. So I found

0:47:11.440 --> 0:47:14.719
<v Speaker 1>someone and it was at all to Beauty where I

0:47:14.760 --> 0:47:16.440
<v Speaker 1>went to go get my hair done, which is a

0:47:16.440 --> 0:47:19.319
<v Speaker 1>crazy vibe and I went and I got keratin, like

0:47:19.400 --> 0:47:22.319
<v Speaker 1>not keratin, but the beaded extensions that they like. Get

0:47:22.320 --> 0:47:26.240
<v Speaker 1>that little waxing and tip it around. I served another

0:47:26.480 --> 0:47:30.600
<v Speaker 1>satisfied customer too. I think I do. I think I do,

0:47:31.040 --> 0:47:32.680
<v Speaker 1>but it's gonna take me a minute to find them.

0:47:33.400 --> 0:47:36.960
<v Speaker 1>But I was so embarrassed that I took one picture

0:47:37.000 --> 0:47:39.279
<v Speaker 1>and I went home. And this is how I'm such

0:47:39.280 --> 0:47:41.360
<v Speaker 1>a pushover. I was in the seat and I was like,

0:47:41.440 --> 0:47:44.480
<v Speaker 1>I love it. I love it. I paid, I tipped,

0:47:44.560 --> 0:47:46.719
<v Speaker 1>I left. I went home and I got pliers for

0:47:46.800 --> 0:47:48.680
<v Speaker 1>my dad and I went in my room and I ply,

0:47:49.040 --> 0:47:51.879
<v Speaker 1>I like took them all out. And I was so

0:47:51.920 --> 0:47:53.960
<v Speaker 1>embarrassed because I had already told all my friends that

0:47:54.000 --> 0:47:56.439
<v Speaker 1>I was getting extensions and they were like, yes, girl,

0:47:56.480 --> 0:47:57.839
<v Speaker 1>let me see the picture. And I was like, bro,

0:47:58.040 --> 0:48:00.319
<v Speaker 1>oh my god. The appointment fell through and I lie

0:48:00.360 --> 0:48:03.279
<v Speaker 1>to everyone, but I really need to fight for you.

0:48:03.560 --> 0:48:05.759
<v Speaker 1>I was like eighteen. It was like my first like

0:48:05.800 --> 0:48:07.879
<v Speaker 1>big splurge of like I'm gonna get my hair done.

0:48:07.920 --> 0:48:09.839
<v Speaker 1>I never get my hair done by someone else, and

0:48:09.840 --> 0:48:13.480
<v Speaker 1>that's why I have fucking issues. But I really want

0:48:13.520 --> 0:48:15.400
<v Speaker 1>to do something fun with my hair. When I'm scared.

0:48:15.520 --> 0:48:18.320
<v Speaker 1>I think I'm just gonna get into wigs. Yeah, like Loria,

0:48:18.400 --> 0:48:19.839
<v Speaker 1>I'm going to get into wigs.

0:48:19.480 --> 0:48:21.719
<v Speaker 2>For real, that's my thing. As I'm like, you don't

0:48:21.760 --> 0:48:24.200
<v Speaker 2>have to like cut your hair all crazy right now.

0:48:24.200 --> 0:48:26.680
<v Speaker 2>You can like wear a style or wear a fake

0:48:26.760 --> 0:48:29.040
<v Speaker 2>bang and like see if it like, get a good one,

0:48:29.120 --> 0:48:31.440
<v Speaker 2>spend good money on it and see if you like

0:48:31.480 --> 0:48:33.680
<v Speaker 2>the way it looks and like or if you're over

0:48:33.400 --> 0:48:36.680
<v Speaker 2>in blonde hair, that's kind I loved your blonde hair era.

0:48:37.239 --> 0:48:39.560
<v Speaker 1>I just like like that. But that's also why I

0:48:39.560 --> 0:48:41.520
<v Speaker 1>feel like a teenager again. I do have this picture

0:48:41.520 --> 0:48:42.959
<v Speaker 1>of the night we watched The Portrait of a Lady

0:48:42.960 --> 0:48:43.360
<v Speaker 1>on Fire.

0:48:43.719 --> 0:48:44.000
<v Speaker 2>Wow.

0:48:45.200 --> 0:48:46.719
<v Speaker 1>Sorry, this is going to take forever to find.

0:48:48.560 --> 0:48:52.040
<v Speaker 2>Well, while you're doing that, I will talk about something else.

0:48:52.640 --> 0:48:55.239
<v Speaker 1>I love you guys so much, by the way, I know,

0:48:55.640 --> 0:48:57.239
<v Speaker 1>I love my friends so much.

0:48:57.360 --> 0:49:00.480
<v Speaker 2>It hurts me sometimes thinking about everybody, and then it

0:49:00.560 --> 0:49:03.680
<v Speaker 2>hurts me like thinking about not being with y'all forever,

0:49:03.880 --> 0:49:05.720
<v Speaker 2>and I don't even like having those thoughts.

0:49:05.920 --> 0:49:07.120
<v Speaker 1>No, that's not gonna happen.

0:49:07.840 --> 0:49:10.279
<v Speaker 2>I know the threshold's like seven years and we made it.

0:49:10.640 --> 0:49:13.840
<v Speaker 2>Like it's like if you can sustain a friendship for

0:49:13.920 --> 0:49:17.160
<v Speaker 2>seven years, it'll last a lifetime and we're far past that.

0:49:17.840 --> 0:49:23.839
<v Speaker 2>So New Year's Eve was yesterday, two days ago, and

0:49:24.320 --> 0:49:28.680
<v Speaker 2>like everyone knows that they wear divers, Like everyone knows.

0:49:28.560 --> 0:49:30.879
<v Speaker 1>Oh, like at the front of like the ball drop, Yeah,

0:49:30.920 --> 0:49:34.360
<v Speaker 1>so they can like kidding, I can't understand the vibe.

0:49:34.520 --> 0:49:37.800
<v Speaker 2>No, that's like I really want their brain studied by science,

0:49:37.840 --> 0:49:40.080
<v Speaker 2>Like I want all of them like before they're like

0:49:41.440 --> 0:49:43.799
<v Speaker 2>before they leave, they can watch the ball drop, but

0:49:43.840 --> 0:49:45.839
<v Speaker 2>we take their fucking brains from them and study them

0:49:45.840 --> 0:49:48.960
<v Speaker 2>because like, I truly believe those are the happiest people

0:49:48.960 --> 0:49:51.480
<v Speaker 2>on earth because to put yourself through that, that's like

0:49:51.760 --> 0:49:54.080
<v Speaker 2>the equivalent to me like having to run like an

0:49:54.160 --> 0:49:57.040
<v Speaker 2>ultra marathon, Like you couldn't you literally could not make

0:49:57.080 --> 0:49:59.000
<v Speaker 2>me do it. But like they do it, and they

0:49:59.040 --> 0:50:02.360
<v Speaker 2>love it and they're happy to do it. But we

0:50:02.400 --> 0:50:04.759
<v Speaker 2>all know they wear diapers, Like that's like that's the

0:50:04.760 --> 0:50:06.439
<v Speaker 2>big thing. It's like, oh, they wear diapers and shit

0:50:06.480 --> 0:50:09.040
<v Speaker 2>and piss themselves the whole time. What no one's talking

0:50:09.040 --> 0:50:13.920
<v Speaker 2>about is the utter fucking stinch.

0:50:13.920 --> 0:50:15.800
<v Speaker 1>That have somebody reported on the stink.

0:50:15.960 --> 0:50:17.800
<v Speaker 2>I haven't seen anybody talk about.

0:50:17.560 --> 0:50:20.160
<v Speaker 1>Its distinct because Also all your bodies are pressed up.

0:50:20.200 --> 0:50:23.400
<v Speaker 2>All your bodies are pressed up, everybody's sweating, everybody shitting

0:50:23.440 --> 0:50:26.239
<v Speaker 2>and pissing themselves. Like it's literally got to be the

0:50:26.239 --> 0:50:28.799
<v Speaker 2>big stink two point Oh, like London is falling like

0:50:28.920 --> 0:50:30.880
<v Speaker 2>literally like orb.

0:50:31.000 --> 0:50:35.320
<v Speaker 1>Mean, guys make you diarrhea and hit crazy. Oh I

0:50:35.400 --> 0:50:36.960
<v Speaker 1>know that New Year's Eve with sting.

0:50:37.360 --> 0:50:37.640
<v Speaker 2>Yeah.

0:50:37.719 --> 0:50:41.640
<v Speaker 1>Oh, I guess people wait and because there's performances, right,

0:50:41.719 --> 0:50:44.240
<v Speaker 1>don't people perform? So it's technically a free concert.

0:50:44.440 --> 0:50:48.120
<v Speaker 3>Yeah, I okay, I get it, like it's cute, but

0:50:48.160 --> 0:50:51.520
<v Speaker 3>I could never Yeah, but I'm also just like there's

0:50:51.600 --> 0:50:54.520
<v Speaker 3>really nothing I want that bad I've realized, and that's

0:50:54.520 --> 0:50:55.479
<v Speaker 3>why I've been trying to wrest.

0:50:55.600 --> 0:50:57.719
<v Speaker 2>I want to compound that bad.

0:50:57.440 --> 0:50:59.080
<v Speaker 1>A compound for us all to live on.

0:50:59.239 --> 0:51:01.120
<v Speaker 2>Well, yeah, that's or like a chateau.

0:51:01.440 --> 0:51:03.880
<v Speaker 1>I wish. No one I knew had family they loved

0:51:03.920 --> 0:51:08.839
<v Speaker 1>also like I don't, but like I hate how much

0:51:08.880 --> 0:51:11.160
<v Speaker 1>I love the people I love because my dream would

0:51:11.160 --> 0:51:13.040
<v Speaker 1>be to move us all into one city, like.

0:51:13.040 --> 0:51:15.440
<v Speaker 2>I I want to live in the middle of nowhere

0:51:15.480 --> 0:51:16.360
<v Speaker 2>with all my friends.

0:51:16.520 --> 0:51:19.400
<v Speaker 1>I was talking to my friend Sabrina about it. I

0:51:19.440 --> 0:51:21.760
<v Speaker 1>was like, oh my god, if I could like build

0:51:21.800 --> 0:51:24.840
<v Speaker 1>out a state, so then there's like this mainland and

0:51:24.880 --> 0:51:26.759
<v Speaker 1>it's like me and all my friends, and then the

0:51:26.800 --> 0:51:29.560
<v Speaker 1>town over that's where all our families live, and then

0:51:29.600 --> 0:51:32.279
<v Speaker 1>the town over is where all their friends live. That

0:51:32.480 --> 0:51:34.719
<v Speaker 1>is what I want.

0:51:35.400 --> 0:51:37.400
<v Speaker 2>So I think we're just talking about a commune.

0:51:38.760 --> 0:51:39.719
<v Speaker 1>What's that bad about that?

0:51:39.880 --> 0:51:40.880
<v Speaker 2>There's nothing bad about it.

0:51:40.960 --> 0:51:42.880
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Like I feel like when we talk about that

0:51:42.920 --> 0:51:44.680
<v Speaker 1>to random people, they're like, oh, that's a cult. I'm like,

0:51:44.719 --> 0:51:48.480
<v Speaker 1>that's literally not a literal so fucking what, Like I'm

0:51:48.520 --> 0:51:51.720
<v Speaker 1>not taking anyone's money. I literally just like that's okay. Actually,

0:51:51.719 --> 0:51:54.480
<v Speaker 1>that's what annoys me about fucking billionaires is you have

0:51:54.560 --> 0:51:56.200
<v Speaker 1>all that money, and what are you doing getting on

0:51:56.280 --> 0:52:02.480
<v Speaker 1>yachts boom boom. You're so boring, Like how are you

0:52:02.520 --> 0:52:05.000
<v Speaker 1>going to be a money hoarder? But you were using it?

0:52:05.239 --> 0:52:07.680
<v Speaker 1>So boring And it's because you don't have true connection

0:52:07.760 --> 0:52:08.759
<v Speaker 1>and wealth, no.

0:52:08.760 --> 0:52:13.879
<v Speaker 2>Swag, no bitches, Like oh god it I literally thought

0:52:13.880 --> 0:52:14.759
<v Speaker 2>the world was I know.

0:52:15.160 --> 0:52:18.400
<v Speaker 1>I just hate that, Like millionaires and stuff's vibe is

0:52:18.440 --> 0:52:20.880
<v Speaker 1>going out and getting fucked up with strangers and getting

0:52:20.880 --> 0:52:23.240
<v Speaker 1>more ego, Like do you is your ego not filled?

0:52:23.280 --> 0:52:25.520
<v Speaker 1>You're already like so famous and rint.

0:52:25.560 --> 0:52:28.919
<v Speaker 2>A table at a club with bottle service, Like what

0:52:29.360 --> 0:52:32.719
<v Speaker 2>can you literally like? Instead of that, how about you

0:52:33.200 --> 0:52:38.520
<v Speaker 2>hug your loved ones? No, how about you sit in

0:52:38.560 --> 0:52:39.960
<v Speaker 2>bed on iPhone? Like I know?

0:52:40.000 --> 0:52:42.880
<v Speaker 1>How about you pay for a therapist and wonder why

0:52:42.920 --> 0:52:45.520
<v Speaker 1>that you were trying to chase high school terms of

0:52:46.320 --> 0:52:49.640
<v Speaker 1>admiration in public? Like it just feels so high school

0:52:49.800 --> 0:52:51.080
<v Speaker 1>Like like.

0:52:51.040 --> 0:52:53.240
<v Speaker 2>I'm sorry, you were a loser in fucking high school.

0:52:53.280 --> 0:52:55.160
<v Speaker 2>Like we all know it, Like we can tell like

0:52:55.360 --> 0:52:56.680
<v Speaker 2>based on the way you behave now.

0:52:56.719 --> 0:52:59.160
<v Speaker 1>But I have a burnt ego and you're in eleven

0:52:59.239 --> 0:53:00.480
<v Speaker 1>on New Year's Eve?

0:53:00.760 --> 0:53:04.720
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, how about you heal your inner child's How about

0:53:04.920 --> 0:53:07.440
<v Speaker 2>you give my child a gun?

0:53:08.160 --> 0:53:08.600
<v Speaker 1>Oh?

0:53:08.640 --> 0:53:10.200
<v Speaker 2>How about you give my inner child a gun so

0:53:10.239 --> 0:53:10.880
<v Speaker 2>it'll kill I?

0:53:11.000 --> 0:53:13.239
<v Speaker 1>Literally? Okay? I think I have been losing it because

0:53:13.239 --> 0:53:16.280
<v Speaker 1>the other day I couldn't describe how I was feeling.

0:53:17.040 --> 0:53:19.400
<v Speaker 1>And the only way to describe it is it felt

0:53:19.440 --> 0:53:22.800
<v Speaker 1>like somebody drugged me, knocked me out, hid a gun

0:53:22.920 --> 0:53:24.960
<v Speaker 1>and a bunch of drugs in my brain for me

0:53:25.040 --> 0:53:27.719
<v Speaker 1>to like ship them to a different country. Does that

0:53:27.760 --> 0:53:29.719
<v Speaker 1>make sense? Like that was the kind of anxiety I had.

0:53:29.760 --> 0:53:31.400
<v Speaker 1>I felt like I had a gun in my head.

0:53:32.239 --> 0:53:36.799
<v Speaker 2>Zom Okay, well we're gonna do media real quick and

0:53:36.840 --> 0:53:39.480
<v Speaker 2>then we'll probably just continue this episode on Patriot. We're

0:53:39.520 --> 0:53:44.239
<v Speaker 2>trying something new, We're trying something new, but my media

0:53:44.480 --> 0:53:48.040
<v Speaker 2>bitch wild Robot. I'm not kidding. I know that might.

0:53:47.920 --> 0:53:49.840
<v Speaker 1>Maybe we've watched that after Wicked tonight.

0:53:50.000 --> 0:53:53.600
<v Speaker 2>That might break my top four on whoa Letterbox, Like

0:53:53.640 --> 0:53:55.279
<v Speaker 2>I swear to God, Like I don't think it's like

0:53:55.320 --> 0:53:58.040
<v Speaker 2>the best movie ever made, but it I have never

0:53:58.320 --> 0:54:00.280
<v Speaker 2>cried at a movie like that ever in my life.

0:54:00.280 --> 0:54:03.919
<v Speaker 2>Like it was like it was simultaneous like happy and

0:54:04.040 --> 0:54:06.320
<v Speaker 2>sad tears. And it's, like I said, not the best

0:54:06.360 --> 0:54:09.040
<v Speaker 2>movie ever, but like it just made me think about

0:54:09.080 --> 0:54:11.399
<v Speaker 2>all the women in my life, like made me think

0:54:11.440 --> 0:54:13.760
<v Speaker 2>about myself as a caretaker for some of the people

0:54:13.800 --> 0:54:15.400
<v Speaker 2>that I love. Like it made me think about like

0:54:15.480 --> 0:54:19.200
<v Speaker 2>all the moms out there that like literally just detroy

0:54:19.520 --> 0:54:22.520
<v Speaker 2>themselves to like raise their kids, and like how like

0:54:23.640 --> 0:54:26.480
<v Speaker 2>friends destroy themselves for their friends. And it's like their

0:54:26.520 --> 0:54:31.080
<v Speaker 2>bodies are literally phys like mother's bodies literally physically fall

0:54:31.160 --> 0:54:34.600
<v Speaker 2>apart to raise their kids. They like break bones, they

0:54:34.680 --> 0:54:38.480
<v Speaker 2>like their immune systems get shot their skin gets off saggy,

0:54:38.560 --> 0:54:40.680
<v Speaker 2>like it's so dark sided, but they do it because

0:54:40.719 --> 0:54:43.480
<v Speaker 2>there's some like love that we can't even like begin

0:54:43.520 --> 0:54:46.440
<v Speaker 2>to comprehend, for like offspring and I don't know it.

0:54:46.560 --> 0:54:49.760
<v Speaker 1>Just like that, I literallycked me pereful to have kids

0:54:50.320 --> 0:54:54.759
<v Speaker 1>because the way I love the people I love so intensely,

0:54:54.920 --> 0:54:58.040
<v Speaker 1>like I was having a panic attack for reasons I

0:54:58.080 --> 0:55:00.520
<v Speaker 1>won't say. Also, I remember in an a so recently,

0:55:00.520 --> 0:55:02.120
<v Speaker 1>I was talking about that panic attack in Mexico, and

0:55:02.120 --> 0:55:03.400
<v Speaker 1>I was like, I haven't had a panic attack in

0:55:03.480 --> 0:55:09.959
<v Speaker 1>so long. I have panic attacks at least six times

0:55:10.040 --> 0:55:12.600
<v Speaker 1>a year. When I was talking about that, like, I

0:55:12.640 --> 0:55:15.480
<v Speaker 1>was like, I never have panic attacks. That was just

0:55:15.520 --> 0:55:17.879
<v Speaker 1>a really bad one that like lasted a long time.

0:55:17.920 --> 0:55:21.320
<v Speaker 1>But I do that all the time, Like I literally

0:55:21.360 --> 0:55:23.040
<v Speaker 1>even yesterday when I was talking to you, that wasn't

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<v Speaker 1>a panic attack. But like when I'm talking about certain things,

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<v Speaker 1>I can feel my heart like start to clench and

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<v Speaker 1>I have to sit down, like I physically can't stand

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<v Speaker 1>and I can't get the words out and I have

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<v Speaker 1>to rush them out or I also have a panic

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<v Speaker 1>attack attack. That is crazy though. That's how I've been

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<v Speaker 1>feeling about Janet Planet. I already said Janet Planet last week,

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<v Speaker 1>but I watched it two times when I was in Miami.

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<v Speaker 1>It's been like my comfort movie, and I feel like

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<v Speaker 1>I never have that with movies. But it's just a

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<v Speaker 1>movie I've been putting on and I really like the

0:55:55.200 --> 0:55:57.960
<v Speaker 1>soundtrack and I really like the story, like it's so good.

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<v Speaker 1>My other media of the week is baby Girl, Thank

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<v Speaker 1>You so much, because like I want both of them now.

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<v Speaker 1>I want both now. And my music media of the

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<v Speaker 1>week is Walk a Thin Line by Fleetwood Mac and

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<v Speaker 1>Miracle Man by Bob Carpenter. That's honestly and still Dochi's

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<v Speaker 1>Tiny Desk crazy because I still just I just will

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<v Speaker 1>play that and listen to it.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, I'll do three sy ops and then we're dipping,

0:56:36.760 --> 0:56:39.920
<v Speaker 2>uh enya, here's party and starts digging in her dirty

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<v Speaker 2>clothes basket.

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<v Speaker 1>Cut the fuck up.

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<v Speaker 2>Lily Rose Toy, m Lily Rose Toy. It's probably been

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<v Speaker 2>said because it's so easy, but cuddling it. I've said

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<v Speaker 2>this one three times, but it's just so perfectly and

0:57:01.840 --> 0:57:04.480
<v Speaker 2>it literally is how I felt on Crush night. Cuddling

0:57:04.480 --> 0:57:06.319
<v Speaker 2>a twin feels like you're laying on the Apple TV

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<v Speaker 2>Remote Bones bones, bones bones, Okay, in that's it.

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<v Speaker 1>You know how I know I'm back in my bisexual

0:57:20.160 --> 0:57:22.640
<v Speaker 1>bag for real because you were showing me pictures of

0:57:22.680 --> 0:57:24.800
<v Speaker 1>a man last night that you think is hot, and I,

0:57:24.920 --> 0:57:25.960
<v Speaker 1>for the first time was like.

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<v Speaker 2>Was it? Oh my?

0:57:30.080 --> 0:57:33.320
<v Speaker 1>I guess like I would have to tell I was

0:57:33.320 --> 0:57:35.600
<v Speaker 1>feeling a bit feral over it all. I have to

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<v Speaker 1>tell Kai, Well, the bad news is someone locked me

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<v Speaker 1>up because I think I might be becoming a whore.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, I mean enter it. But every time I've exited

0:57:48.760 --> 0:57:52.680
<v Speaker 2>a hose phase, I've been like two seconds away from

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<v Speaker 2>being fifty one to fifty So oh.

0:57:54.040 --> 0:57:55.880
<v Speaker 1>Yeah, no, it's but no, it's I know it's I

0:57:55.920 --> 0:57:58.680
<v Speaker 1>want to dye my hair and bleach it. I am

0:57:59.440 --> 0:58:03.560
<v Speaker 1>incredibly optimistic out of like pure survival mode, and I

0:58:03.600 --> 0:58:05.840
<v Speaker 1>am finding everyone sexy.

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<v Speaker 2>Like, so y'all better watch the fuck out and it's

0:58:13.160 --> 0:58:17.160
<v Speaker 2>gonna get you. But that was that episode. Happy New Year, everybody,

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you so fucking much for tuning in. Another year

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<v Speaker 2>of emergency in our common incoming. You're all the goats,

0:58:24.520 --> 0:58:28.840
<v Speaker 2>You're all very special to me, And we'll just say

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<v Speaker 2>some things are going to be changing soon. A lot

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<v Speaker 2>of a lot of a lot of new things are

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<v Speaker 2>coming soon, so just be ready for that. Be excited. Please, Peace, love, prosperity, respect,

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<v Speaker 2>health to you and yours. Sleeps tight tonight, bye,