WEBVTT - “I’M IN DOUBLE JEOPARDY” 0:00:01.170 --> 0:00:03.830 Hi, if you record your name and reason for calling, 0:00:04.200 --> 0:00:05.660 I'll see if this person is available. 0:00:06.880 --> 0:00:10.300 Hi, this is the gecko. I'm calling to see if 0:00:10.320 --> 0:00:14.480 you want to be on the gecko show. Thanks. 0:00:16.200 --> 0:00:16.480 Hello. 0:00:17.600 --> 0:00:17.960 Hello. 0:00:19.820 --> 0:00:20.220 Yes, sir. 0:00:21.300 --> 0:00:23.200 What's up? What's up, man? What's your name? 0:00:24.060 --> 0:00:26.040 My name is Andrew. What's your name? 0:00:26.120 --> 0:00:30.659 Andrew. My name is Lyle. I do the gecko show. 0:00:32.590 --> 0:00:33.309 No shit. 0:00:33.990 --> 0:00:36.850 I never got on the phone with you, dude. 0:00:37.090 --> 0:00:43.490 Yeah, you called me two days ago, and so I'm 0:00:43.530 --> 0:00:44.410 calling you back. 0:00:46.820 --> 0:00:51.060 Oh, nice. What are you doing? 0:00:52.580 --> 0:01:01.080 Okay, yeah, I'll go first. It's going all right. It's 0:01:01.240 --> 0:01:12.550 evening time. It's Saturday. I'm alive. I'm trying my best. And, 0:01:13.930 --> 0:01:18.590 you know, we have less than a month until Grand 0:01:18.610 --> 0:01:26.020 Theft Auto 6 comes out. So, that'll keep me going 0:01:26.080 --> 0:01:26.660 for a while. 0:01:27.900 --> 0:01:31.600 How about you? Right, right. You know, honestly, man, just 0:01:33.400 --> 0:01:35.660 waiting for our holidays to be over, you know. We're 0:01:35.680 --> 0:01:39.080 all stacked up on work and never ends, you know. 0:01:39.300 --> 0:01:47.080 Can't complain about work. I, uh, recently, uh, recently got 0:01:47.120 --> 0:01:50.000 into some stuff with, uh, with some law here, with 0:01:50.020 --> 0:01:55.110 the law, and man, it's honestly just a bunch of mind, 0:01:55.200 --> 0:01:57.670 it's mind-blowing, you know, on all the stuff that they're, uh, 0:01:57.670 --> 0:02:02.260 that they're trying to do, you know. So, So I 0:02:02.300 --> 0:02:08.820 got arrested a few days ago. And they're trying to 0:02:08.840 --> 0:02:11.800 get me on the old charge that I had actually 0:02:12.540 --> 0:02:19.120 taken care of. And they're saying that I never took 0:02:19.260 --> 0:02:22.260 care of it. And they're saying that I was never dismissed. 0:02:22.500 --> 0:02:25.470 So now they want me to go back to court 0:02:26.110 --> 0:02:28.830 at the end of the year. And I'm like, you know, 0:02:29.970 --> 0:02:35.130 why is it going to take this long for her? Okay. 0:02:35.169 --> 0:02:39.930 Would talking about... I mean, this is... I'm recording this 0:02:40.130 --> 0:02:47.770 for the podcast. I mean, is talking about this bad 0:02:47.870 --> 0:02:49.670 for your case? 0:02:51.620 --> 0:02:57.399 No, no. It's not even nothing serious, to be honest. 0:02:58.860 --> 0:03:01.810 It is what it is. It's something... It's nothing serious. 0:03:01.870 --> 0:03:04.050 There's nothing that they could do about it. Or even 0:03:04.070 --> 0:03:05.109 if I talk about it, you know? 0:03:06.290 --> 0:03:06.590 Okay. 0:03:06.669 --> 0:03:10.190 It's just, yeah, it's like an old case from, for 0:03:10.250 --> 0:03:13.220 so many years ago. And I guess now they finally 0:03:13.250 --> 0:03:15.940 brought it up and they said that I never went 0:03:15.960 --> 0:03:17.800 to court, but I never went to court for it 0:03:17.860 --> 0:03:21.560 and getting dismissed. And I don't know what's going on now. 0:03:23.900 --> 0:03:26.079 So what's your, so do you have to, you have 0:03:26.100 --> 0:03:26.859 to go back to court? 0:03:28.320 --> 0:03:32.890 Yeah, I have to go back actually in December. towards 0:03:32.910 --> 0:03:35.830 the end of the month of December. And they said 0:03:35.870 --> 0:03:38.910 that I had to go to court to see what 0:03:38.940 --> 0:03:41.280 they're going to give me. And I told them, you know, 0:03:42.400 --> 0:03:43.920 I don't know what's even going to happen here. 0:03:44.960 --> 0:03:46.100 How old is the case? 0:03:47.900 --> 0:03:49.160 About three and a half years old. 0:03:50.120 --> 0:03:53.559 Okay. Do you have to like, do you have to 0:03:53.800 --> 0:03:54.800 go to another state? 0:03:56.440 --> 0:04:00.140 No, no. It's in the same state. Same city, you know, 0:04:00.420 --> 0:04:01.140 same little town. 0:04:01.980 --> 0:04:02.180 Mm-hmm. 0:04:03.680 --> 0:04:06.540 So, I'm trying to figure out what's going to go 0:04:06.620 --> 0:04:08.970 on there. That's really been bugging me, you know, because, um, 0:04:10.330 --> 0:04:12.350 I never really tried to get myself into trouble, you know, 0:04:12.410 --> 0:04:15.310 and now I feel like, you know, I got to 0:04:15.350 --> 0:04:18.690 wait for the dang law to, you know, take care 0:04:18.710 --> 0:04:20.610 of this. It's going to take me two months now 0:04:20.650 --> 0:04:21.470 to get this over with. 0:04:24.310 --> 0:04:28.590 Why did it, uh, uh, okay, I, you know, I 0:04:28.770 --> 0:04:30.210 don't want you to get too detailed. I don't want 0:04:30.240 --> 0:04:33.360 you getting, uh, any trouble or anything, but why, why 0:04:33.380 --> 0:04:36.640 did it take, why did it like reappear? 0:04:38.900 --> 0:04:44.099 I guess, um, so this area where I'm from, and 0:04:44.140 --> 0:04:48.520 I think this is an area, actually, um, I think 0:04:48.550 --> 0:04:53.650 they do roundup and I'm guessing, uh, they do background 0:04:53.690 --> 0:04:56.650 checks on people with veins, you know, see if they 0:04:56.670 --> 0:05:00.150 have any outstanding warrants or outstanding pain cases, I'm guessing, 0:05:00.170 --> 0:05:03.800 you know, I'm assuming, and I guess my name was 0:05:03.880 --> 0:05:06.339 on there, and I didn't know, and they came and 0:05:06.360 --> 0:05:10.580 got me, dude, from work, actually. 0:05:10.700 --> 0:05:11.360 Oh, from work? 0:05:12.560 --> 0:05:14.560 Yeah, they came and got me from work. They didn't 0:05:14.580 --> 0:05:16.170 wait for me to be off to work. Like, they 0:05:16.210 --> 0:05:20.430 came and got me from work. Oh, wow. Yeah, and 0:05:20.550 --> 0:05:24.130 I was like, what's going on, you know? And they 0:05:24.150 --> 0:05:25.550 told me I had a warrant for my arrest, and 0:05:25.589 --> 0:05:27.620 I was like, what? You know what I'm saying? They 0:05:27.660 --> 0:05:30.370 set the charge and I'm like, dude, this was taken 0:05:30.640 --> 0:05:32.710 care of like years ago. I was like, how is 0:05:32.750 --> 0:05:36.810 this even possible? I don't know. They said, well, that's 0:05:36.830 --> 0:05:39.050 the law, buddy. They said, put your hands on your back. 0:05:39.089 --> 0:05:43.070 And I was like, dude, are you serious? I was like, 0:05:43.089 --> 0:05:44.890 why did it take so long for you to come 0:05:44.930 --> 0:05:45.430 get me then? 0:05:47.750 --> 0:05:53.920 Great. But there's like a, isn't there like a double jeopardy? 0:05:53.940 --> 0:05:56.680 I'm not going to be your lawyer. I'm not a 0:05:56.700 --> 0:06:01.890 good lawyer. Um, but, uh, if you have a lawyer, 0:06:01.910 --> 0:06:04.650 I was going to say, yeah, if you have a lawyer, 0:06:04.710 --> 0:06:07.710 tell him, I said this, if you have a lawyer 0:06:07.790 --> 0:06:10.200 and you tell him that I said this and he goes, oh, 0:06:10.279 --> 0:06:13.099 that sounds like a sub, then you should fire that lawyer. 0:06:13.140 --> 0:06:17.420 Cause he should probably know this, but, um, isn't there 0:06:17.440 --> 0:06:20.200 like a double jeopardy thing where like, you can't be 0:06:21.370 --> 0:06:23.630 arrested twice for the same thing. 0:06:25.900 --> 0:06:27.860 And you know what and honestly you are right about 0:06:27.900 --> 0:06:31.659 that you know you are right about that because i've 0:06:31.680 --> 0:06:34.640 already been arrested for discharge once and then i'm getting 0:06:34.680 --> 0:06:36.950 re-arrested for discharge again after it was ready to take 0:06:37.029 --> 0:06:41.070 care of you know so it's it's honestly very mind-blowing 0:06:41.150 --> 0:06:43.230 if you really think about it you know and i 0:06:43.270 --> 0:06:46.050 think it's just a i think honestly it's just a 0:06:46.110 --> 0:06:47.990 money game you know like they just want to make 0:06:48.050 --> 0:06:51.710 money off somebody because uh or they want to make 0:06:51.770 --> 0:06:53.730 money off all the people that can actually right now 0:06:53.750 --> 0:06:56.050 have some, some swords. I'm assuming towards the end of 0:06:56.070 --> 0:06:58.710 the holidays, they want to get a bonus or, or 0:06:58.770 --> 0:07:02.979 something like that, you know? And, but that's not right 0:07:03.060 --> 0:07:04.640 either for them to be doing that, you know? 0:07:06.820 --> 0:07:08.280 Do you, do you have a lawyer? 0:07:08.300 --> 0:07:13.060 Not yet. I mean, it's not serious. It's not a 0:07:13.080 --> 0:07:15.920 serious charge for me to get a lawyer, but it 0:07:15.940 --> 0:07:17.700 doesn't hurt for me to get one either as well. 0:07:17.720 --> 0:07:19.910 You know, it's like, that would probably be the best 0:07:19.990 --> 0:07:21.890 option for me too, you know, just to be on 0:07:21.910 --> 0:07:22.510 the safe side. 0:07:24.170 --> 0:07:25.970 Uh, probably. I mean, well, you get, I mean, you 0:07:25.990 --> 0:07:28.130 get one anyway, right? They have like a public defender. 0:07:29.330 --> 0:07:32.500 Oh yeah. Yeah. They gave me one. Yeah. They gave 0:07:32.520 --> 0:07:36.520 me one. They appointed me one. Uh, and, uh, she 0:07:36.540 --> 0:07:37.760 told me, she was like, you need to call back 0:07:37.800 --> 0:07:41.300 in December. Cause I'm looking into this case. Well, I 0:07:41.340 --> 0:07:43.750 told her, I said, nothing even serious, you know, that's 0:07:43.760 --> 0:07:47.390 just a, that's an old charge from a long time ago, 0:07:47.410 --> 0:07:51.670 you know? I had to pay like $ 1, 000 to get 0:07:51.700 --> 0:07:54.170 out of jail for this damn charge. And that was 0:07:54.190 --> 0:07:56.890 a cash bond. It wasn't even 10% or nothing else. 0:07:57.430 --> 0:07:58.230 That's what they wanted. 0:08:00.610 --> 0:08:06.730 What's your life... Well, okay, so... Tell me about what 0:08:06.790 --> 0:08:12.490 life is going on that is being disrupted by this. 0:08:12.530 --> 0:08:16.420 How's your life going in general? You mentioned... You mentioned 0:08:16.460 --> 0:08:19.780 getting through the holidays. I want to get to how 0:08:20.700 --> 0:08:24.890 your life is going, but I'm also curious, are we 0:08:24.950 --> 0:08:29.010 in the holidays? Does Halloween count as the holidays? I 0:08:29.010 --> 0:08:33.670 always think of the holidays as Christmas, November. Does Halloween count? 0:08:34.850 --> 0:08:37.930 In my perspective of you, honestly, bro, I don't really 0:08:37.970 --> 0:08:42.069 celebrate Halloween, so... everybody's not gonna say they have the 0:08:42.110 --> 0:08:44.150 same answer as me either you know they have their 0:08:44.190 --> 0:08:46.730 own opinion but i really think halloween is not a 0:08:47.830 --> 0:08:51.469 it's not a holiday you know but other people say 0:08:51.530 --> 0:08:54.390 it is a holiday so i don't know it's just 0:08:54.429 --> 0:08:56.440 kind of one of those things you don't i guess 0:08:56.580 --> 0:08:59.179 they have their different opinions on them you know and 0:09:00.240 --> 0:09:03.059 honestly in my eyes it's not a holiday you know 0:09:03.100 --> 0:09:06.460 it's more thanksgiving than christmas or new year's you know 0:09:07.020 --> 0:09:11.010 you know and uh But, you know, it's just, man, 0:09:11.370 --> 0:09:14.109 besides this, whatever's going on here, you know, this sort 0:09:14.130 --> 0:09:17.750 of thing in my life, man, it's just, my life's 0:09:17.820 --> 0:09:20.160 been real busy, real good, you know? For me, being 0:09:20.200 --> 0:09:25.380 real young, man, I've been working since I was, like, 0:09:25.380 --> 0:09:29.960 15 years old. I had a full-time job. And it's 0:09:30.020 --> 0:09:34.689 always been, um, always been 12-hour days, you know? Mm-hmm. 0:09:36.130 --> 0:09:39.199 And it's just been, uh, I'm not complaining about it because, 0:09:39.220 --> 0:09:42.640 you know, I thank God every day that I get 0:09:42.660 --> 0:09:44.160 to wake up and I have a job to go to, 0:09:44.179 --> 0:09:47.550 you know. And I'm not here at home and just 0:09:47.610 --> 0:09:52.010 slouched up somewhere, you know. And so I thank God 0:09:52.030 --> 0:09:53.910 for that much, you know. At least he keeps me 0:09:53.929 --> 0:09:58.429 busy throughout my week and weekends and stuff. So, you know, 0:09:58.490 --> 0:10:01.850 it's it's just one of those things too, where, yeah, 0:10:01.870 --> 0:10:05.440 it's exhausting, but as well, you can't really complain about 0:10:05.460 --> 0:10:07.100 it because, you know, you don't work, you don't make 0:10:07.140 --> 0:10:11.020 no money, you don't eat, you know, so it's just 0:10:11.040 --> 0:10:12.000 the way I see it, you know. 0:10:12.640 --> 0:10:17.730 Respect, respect, respect. Do you, do you have a family? 0:10:19.800 --> 0:10:24.040 Actually, no, I'm a single guy, you know. I have 0:10:24.080 --> 0:10:27.189 no kids or nothing, so, you know, I just have 0:10:28.170 --> 0:10:31.030 my brothers, you know, my mother and father and stuff 0:10:31.070 --> 0:10:33.050 like that, you know, but that's beside me, you know, 0:10:33.070 --> 0:10:35.670 I just, I go on about my life, you know, 0:10:35.710 --> 0:10:39.240 it's just, I don't, I'm not looking for a family 0:10:39.260 --> 0:10:41.780 right now, but, I mean, if God gives me a family, 0:10:41.820 --> 0:10:45.460 you know, in the future, then, I mean, that's what 0:10:45.500 --> 0:10:48.330 he's been giving, you know, but. I think honestly right 0:10:48.350 --> 0:10:50.910 now I'm not even ready to have to get into 0:10:50.929 --> 0:10:54.540 a relationship right now I'm just real too focused on 0:10:54.559 --> 0:10:59.459 work and I don't know it's just don't get me 0:10:59.480 --> 0:11:01.120 wrong I do want to get into a relationship with 0:11:01.200 --> 0:11:03.620 a female but it's just I guess you could call 0:11:03.640 --> 0:11:06.800 me a workaholic I'm always working dude so I mean 0:11:06.830 --> 0:11:11.090 I really have no time to to go out and 0:11:11.530 --> 0:11:13.530 explore you know I guess if that makes. 0:11:13.370 --> 0:11:17.760 Sense that makes sense that makes sense It's a lot, 0:11:17.780 --> 0:11:18.600 you got a lot going on. 0:11:18.620 --> 0:11:25.700 Yeah, oh yeah, for sure. And it's, you know, and honestly, 0:11:25.740 --> 0:11:28.500 I wouldn't trade it for nothing else, you know. It's, 0:11:30.540 --> 0:11:33.699 it's real, I wouldn't trade it for nothing else because 0:11:35.059 --> 0:11:36.860 I could lose what I have now, you know, being 0:11:36.880 --> 0:11:39.300 real busy the way I am. You know, it's, I 0:11:39.340 --> 0:11:42.900 get real bored, you know, just not doing nothing at home, 0:11:42.940 --> 0:11:44.900 you know. I always got to do something, you know. 0:11:45.710 --> 0:11:48.520 I'm outside, you know, and cutting the trees or men. 0:11:49.309 --> 0:11:52.530 I gotta do something, you know? And just, that's the 0:11:52.570 --> 0:11:54.070 way I've always been, you know? It's just the way 0:11:54.090 --> 0:11:56.750 I was, that's how I was raised and trained, you know? Oh, 0:11:58.929 --> 0:11:59.530 I don't know. 0:11:59.800 --> 0:12:02.020 You gotta, I, I mean, you gotta do some, if 0:12:02.040 --> 0:12:04.900 you don't do anything, you, uh, the whole idea of the, the, 0:12:04.940 --> 0:12:11.340 the idle hands are the devil's, uh, the devil, the 0:12:11.380 --> 0:12:17.880 devil uses them to, uh, get people to, kill themselves. 0:12:17.980 --> 0:12:20.040 You know right right. 0:12:19.920 --> 0:12:22.620 That whole thing that's a real thing that's a real thing. 0:12:23.679 --> 0:12:29.020 Oh yeah for sure you know uh but uh i'll 0:12:29.040 --> 0:12:31.780 let you go but i'm gonna go ahead and uh 0:12:33.620 --> 0:12:35.110 go to town get some dinner. 0:12:35.640 --> 0:12:38.010 You're gonna wait you said you're gonna go you're gonna. 0:12:37.910 --> 0:12:42.070 Go where uh get some dinner in town oh okay 0:12:42.090 --> 0:12:46.130 cool wanna uh buy at a restaurant Cool. 0:12:46.370 --> 0:12:49.470 What, what kind of, what, what kind of, uh, cuisine 0:12:49.510 --> 0:12:51.170 are you aiming for? What kind of cuisine are you 0:12:51.190 --> 0:12:52.030 going to try to get? 0:12:54.270 --> 0:12:57.630 You know, I was really thinking, uh, sounds funny, but 0:12:57.650 --> 0:13:00.270 I was probably, I was probably going out for a salad, dude. 0:13:00.790 --> 0:13:04.860 Conceited salad with, you know, I already ate too many, uh, 0:13:06.460 --> 0:13:08.900 too many stuff during this week, you know, like chicken and, 0:13:08.920 --> 0:13:11.660 you know, beef and stuff like that. I kind of 0:13:11.679 --> 0:13:15.000 want to really go for like a salad kind of, you. 0:13:14.780 --> 0:13:17.500 Know, something chill. Are you, are you going to get, 0:13:18.000 --> 0:13:19.760 I was going to ask, this was actually my next question, 0:13:19.780 --> 0:13:23.800 is are you going to get chicken on the salad? 0:13:23.820 --> 0:13:25.180 Are you going to get any kind of meat on 0:13:25.200 --> 0:13:25.660 the salad? 0:13:25.679 --> 0:13:29.720 Maybe just ham, preferably, you know, preferably ham. Ham. 0:13:30.220 --> 0:13:30.780 Okay, cool. 0:13:31.059 --> 0:13:35.820 Yeah. All right. That's, yeah, go ahead, go ahead. It's 0:13:36.000 --> 0:13:38.660 actually pretty good, dude, because they put lettuce, they put 0:13:38.700 --> 0:13:41.760 the ham, and then they put like the, you know, 0:13:42.140 --> 0:13:45.900 tomatoes or, You know, they put cucumbers and bacon and 0:13:46.740 --> 0:13:48.240 a bunch of other stuff on it. You know, you 0:13:48.280 --> 0:13:49.500 could put chicken on it. 0:13:49.800 --> 0:13:52.210 Yeah. But you don't want it to be too heavy. 0:13:52.230 --> 0:13:53.410 You don't want it to be too heavy. 0:13:53.530 --> 0:13:57.090 Yeah, for sure. I'd rather just do the ham, you know. Yeah. 0:13:57.210 --> 0:14:03.270 Well, you know what? Yeah, that sounds stressful. It sounds stressful, 0:14:03.370 --> 0:14:09.250 all that stuff. But I'm glad that, like, in between everything, 0:14:09.290 --> 0:14:13.770 you get to have a nice salad, too. That's good, too. 0:14:15.330 --> 0:14:18.190 Yeah, for sure. Can't ever go wrong with the cello, man, 0:14:18.230 --> 0:14:19.130 every once in a while, you know? 0:14:19.720 --> 0:14:25.900 Yeah, sometimes, uh, it's like, it's the little things in life. Sometimes, uh, 0:14:25.920 --> 0:14:29.360 you know, if I'm going through a lot, I'll drink a, uh, 0:14:30.320 --> 0:14:34.420 a diet root beer, and I'll be like, this is 0:14:34.640 --> 0:14:36.980 why I got something, you know? 0:14:38.360 --> 0:14:42.820 Right, yeah. You know, uh, I've actually been stuck on those, uh, 0:14:43.750 --> 0:14:46.710 Coke Zeros and Sprite and stuff like that you know 0:14:46.770 --> 0:14:52.130 and you know honestly man it's kind of weird if 0:14:52.150 --> 0:14:54.290 you really think about it because I've gotten used to 0:14:54.330 --> 0:14:58.620 a drink so much I've drank regular drinks and I'm 0:14:58.630 --> 0:15:01.530 kind of getting disgusted by the regular drinks now you 0:15:01.550 --> 0:15:01.880 know yeah. 0:15:01.820 --> 0:15:04.280 That's what happens that's what happens you're like I can't 0:15:04.320 --> 0:15:10.160 believe the people regularly drink regular Coke that's not true 0:15:10.200 --> 0:15:11.820 I'll have a regular Coke once in a while and 0:15:11.840 --> 0:15:15.000 I'll be like wow this is incredible But it's too 0:15:15.040 --> 0:15:16.340 much to do all the time. 0:15:18.000 --> 0:15:22.380 Real sweet, right? Yeah, I guess you never really notice 0:15:22.460 --> 0:15:24.100 until you change it up, you know? 0:15:25.520 --> 0:15:27.100 It's true, you never notice until you change it up. 0:15:28.880 --> 0:15:29.330 That's life. 0:15:29.350 --> 0:15:31.790 Yeah, that's very true. 0:15:33.790 --> 0:15:37.430 All right, Andrew, I'll let you get your salad. Thanks 0:15:37.470 --> 0:15:39.770 for sharing. Thanks for talking in the show. Is there 0:15:39.810 --> 0:15:41.970 anything else you want to... Do you have any final 0:15:42.070 --> 0:15:45.000 words for... for the people that you want to share 0:15:45.220 --> 0:15:45.980 before we go? 0:15:47.480 --> 0:15:51.440 Uh, all I gotta say is, you know, um, y'all 0:15:51.460 --> 0:15:54.720 keep working and, you know, never give up and always 0:15:54.800 --> 0:15:58.620 aim for, for the best you got in life. You know, never, 0:15:59.580 --> 0:16:03.000 never let nobody put you down and always have a, uh, 0:16:03.470 --> 0:16:07.630 solid mind to whatever you're doing and always be motivated. 0:16:07.650 --> 0:16:10.350 And you've got things for everything that he gives you and, 0:16:11.590 --> 0:16:14.400 and also everything that he, uh, And the strength that 0:16:14.420 --> 0:16:17.760 he gives you to go out every day and provide 0:16:17.780 --> 0:16:23.480 for your family. That's pretty much all I got to say. 0:16:24.400 --> 0:16:31.180 Thank you, Andrew. Good luck. Enjoy your salad. I hope 0:16:31.200 --> 0:16:33.660 you continue to have a beautiful, uninterrupted life. 0:16:35.700 --> 0:16:36.860 You too, brother. Thank you. 0:16:37.500 --> 0:16:39.160 Thanks, Andrew. See you around the universe, man. 0:16:40.330 --> 0:16:40.680 Yes, sir. 0:16:41.140 --> 0:16:41.280 Bye. 0:16:43.290 --> 0:16:46.950 That was Andrew. And look, before... I know what everyone's 0:16:46.970 --> 0:16:48.850 going to do. Everyone's going to go in the comments 0:16:48.910 --> 0:16:51.370 and be like, he said, you know, a. 0:16:54.070 --> 0:16:54.330 Lot. 0:16:54.710 --> 0:16:59.650 And he did. But he's not media. This is a 0:16:59.710 --> 0:17:01.070 show about talking to real people. 0:17:01.910 --> 0:17:02.170 You know? 0:17:03.250 --> 0:17:04.830 No, I say it all the time. It's a regular 0:17:04.850 --> 0:17:06.970 thing to say. It's not media trained. 0:17:08.820 --> 0:17:09.090 Um.... 0:17:14.660 --> 0:17:18.480 I would be if somebody wanted to if somebody just 0:17:18.640 --> 0:17:20.760 wrote a comment being like he said you know a 0:17:20.820 --> 0:17:23.790 lot I'd be like come on like cut the guy 0:17:23.810 --> 0:17:26.630 some slack. But if somebody wrote a comment being like 0:17:26.950 --> 0:17:31.670 I did the work to physically count how many times 0:17:31.710 --> 0:17:33.369 he said it and they came up with a number 0:17:33.450 --> 0:17:36.390 then I'd be like okay I'm impressed that you put 0:17:36.450 --> 0:17:40.500 work into doing that. So don't just comment it for 0:17:40.520 --> 0:17:44.240 the sake of commenting it. Unless if you're going to 0:17:44.280 --> 0:17:47.570 do the work to count just out of, not out 0:17:47.609 --> 0:17:50.230 of a way of like putting anyone down, just have like, 0:17:50.450 --> 0:17:55.590 like a genuine curio, like a, how many, uh, M & 0:17:55.210 --> 0:17:58.449 Ms are in this jar kind of a way, not 0:17:58.490 --> 0:18:03.080 in like a mean way. Cause, uh, you know, I 0:18:03.119 --> 0:18:06.960 like Andrew. He's chill. It's a really chill guy. He's 0:18:06.980 --> 0:18:11.460 a chill guy. This has been a chill podcast. It's not, 0:18:11.540 --> 0:18:15.630 not every episode is a crazy thing. Sometimes we just, 0:18:15.710 --> 0:18:19.780 we just, uh, we just kind of chill. I like, 0:18:19.920 --> 0:18:24.880 I like it. I like to, uh, I like, I like, 0:18:25.780 --> 0:18:26.379 I like chilling. 0:18:32.140 --> 0:18:33.179 Hey, how's it going? Who is this? 0:18:34.180 --> 0:18:37.550 Uh, hey, what's up? This is, uh, the gecko guy. 0:18:37.570 --> 0:18:40.370 Oh, no way. 0:18:40.390 --> 0:18:43.970 How are you doing, man? I'm doing good. It's, it's, uh, 0:18:44.800 --> 0:18:48.980 Sometimes I make an Instagram story and I'm like, people 0:18:49.680 --> 0:18:52.699 can call in now, but other times I'm like, I 0:18:52.740 --> 0:18:55.600 don't want to bother everyone with an Instagram story. Let 0:18:55.940 --> 0:19:01.810 me just randomly call back a missed call from two 0:19:01.869 --> 0:19:05.850 days ago and see if they respond. And so this is, 0:19:05.970 --> 0:19:08.070 I guess this is that. Do you want to talk? 0:19:08.090 --> 0:19:09.810 Do you want to be on the podcast? 0:19:09.830 --> 0:19:16.350 Yes. Yeah, 100%. Let's do it. All right, cool. 0:19:16.750 --> 0:19:19.010 What should I call you? I'm going to call you Devin. 0:19:20.590 --> 0:19:24.949 I guess I'll use a fake name. My name's Parker. 0:19:26.210 --> 0:19:31.119 Okay, we can do Parker. That's cool with me. What 0:19:31.140 --> 0:19:33.460 are you doing right now? It's always funny when I 0:19:33.480 --> 0:19:36.600 just call someone randomly and they pick up because I'm like, 0:19:37.440 --> 0:19:39.419 what are you doing right now that you picked up? 0:19:39.840 --> 0:19:42.760 Yeah. Yeah, I'm just chilling in my room. I was 0:19:42.800 --> 0:19:48.250 watching Avatar. I just got done watching the UFC. My 0:19:48.310 --> 0:19:51.910 favorite fighter won, Alexander Volkov. Huge shout out to him. 0:19:53.230 --> 0:19:55.090 I'm really happy right now. I'm in a very good mood, 0:19:55.150 --> 0:19:56.130 as you can probably tell. 0:19:58.359 --> 0:20:00.380 What makes him your favorite fighter? 0:20:04.880 --> 0:20:07.040 Well, okay, so one of the things that I think 0:20:07.140 --> 0:20:10.159 I really like about him was that Like, when he 0:20:10.200 --> 0:20:12.869 kind of first started fighting, he didn't really have a 0:20:12.910 --> 0:20:16.969 lot of, like, a lot of supporters. He had, like, 0:20:17.010 --> 0:20:20.330 this trilogy fight with this guy named Max Holloway, and 0:20:20.350 --> 0:20:23.710 the fans, like, loved Max Holloway. And so when Alexander 0:20:23.730 --> 0:20:25.960 Volkanovsky had his first fight, the fight was really close. 0:20:26.440 --> 0:20:29.280 So he didn't get a lot of fans. And for 0:20:29.300 --> 0:20:31.180 a while, he was kind of talking about how he had, like, 0:20:31.200 --> 0:20:34.830 this really, like, hard time, just in his life, I guess, 0:20:35.030 --> 0:20:38.050 just about how, like, He was a really nice guy. 0:20:38.630 --> 0:20:43.210 He's a genuinely terrific person, in my opinion. And he 0:20:43.230 --> 0:20:45.740 was kind of having this dilemma where he's doing the 0:20:45.800 --> 0:20:48.460 sport he loves, but all the fans hate him. And 0:20:48.480 --> 0:20:51.380 it wasn't even for his own fault. But I think 0:20:52.020 --> 0:20:54.720 what speaks to him or speaks to me the most 0:20:54.760 --> 0:20:57.119 about him was that he just kind of kept going 0:20:57.160 --> 0:21:00.379 with his attitude. He didn't turn on the fans. He 0:21:00.400 --> 0:21:04.109 didn't turn into a dick or anything like that. He 0:21:04.130 --> 0:21:06.070 just kind of kept doing what he thought was right. 0:21:06.910 --> 0:21:09.520 And I feel like in my own life, especially when 0:21:09.540 --> 0:21:10.720 I was in high school, I used to be a 0:21:10.780 --> 0:21:15.560 really like, I guess, I wouldn't say like a mean person, 0:21:15.600 --> 0:21:20.879 but I was really like obnoxious. And I kind of 0:21:20.900 --> 0:21:23.920 realized like looking back, like I wasn't really a good 0:21:23.980 --> 0:21:27.830 person to all my friends. And I kind of had 0:21:27.850 --> 0:21:29.910 this like epiphany, I guess, when I was in Berlin 0:21:29.970 --> 0:21:33.210 over the summer. I was doing like an internship there. 0:21:34.160 --> 0:21:36.920 And I don't know, the people in Berlin are just so, 0:21:37.060 --> 0:21:39.040 it's so incredible. And I kind of got into, I 0:21:39.060 --> 0:21:41.660 was able to like look at my life objectively, I guess. 0:21:42.359 --> 0:21:44.540 And it allowed me to, um, kind of like walk 0:21:44.619 --> 0:21:47.350 away from like my day-to-day life and kind of look 0:21:47.400 --> 0:21:50.870 at it in a different perspective. And so I kind 0:21:50.930 --> 0:21:53.090 of had this like huge thing, like where I was 0:21:53.130 --> 0:21:56.170 kind of like reaching out to people and kind of, um, 0:21:57.609 --> 0:22:01.070 you know, trying to be like a better person. And 0:22:01.090 --> 0:22:03.290 I actually, this is kind of funny. I know I'm talking, 0:22:03.310 --> 0:22:05.590 I'm going on this huge rant. No, go ahead. 0:22:05.609 --> 0:22:06.710 There's a lot to get into. 0:22:08.350 --> 0:22:09.830 Have you seen the show called The Night of the 0:22:09.850 --> 0:22:10.449 Seven Kingdoms? 0:22:11.130 --> 0:22:12.270 No, I have no idea what that is. 0:22:13.450 --> 0:22:17.250 Oh, it's this excellent Game of Thrones spinoff. And so 0:22:17.290 --> 0:22:21.310 I kind of, I don't know. I kind of got 0:22:21.330 --> 0:22:23.800 a lot of inspiration from his character too. His name 0:22:23.859 --> 0:22:26.820 is Sir Duncan the Tall. And I don't want to 0:22:26.840 --> 0:22:31.070 spoil the show, but he just kind of, goes into 0:22:31.090 --> 0:22:35.470 these like really strange new experiences, I guess. And he 0:22:35.590 --> 0:22:39.630 still does what he thinks is right. And he sticks 0:22:39.670 --> 0:22:41.210 up for people who are in need. And I kind 0:22:41.260 --> 0:22:43.560 of like really took a lot out of that. And 0:22:43.619 --> 0:22:45.340 so I guess I'm just trying to become a better person. 0:22:45.359 --> 0:22:48.160 Like I started doing like Muay Thai, like I started 0:22:48.200 --> 0:22:51.660 training mixed martial arts. Like I started like getting off 0:22:51.720 --> 0:22:54.080 my phone, which was a really big thing. I don't know. 0:22:54.119 --> 0:22:57.090 I've just kind of been on this huge, like almost 0:22:57.130 --> 0:23:00.090 like life transformation, I guess. And I don't know, I 0:23:00.150 --> 0:23:04.670 kind of, I look to him as like inspiration and, um, 0:23:04.930 --> 0:23:07.450 like an example of like what it means to be like, 0:23:08.330 --> 0:23:10.860 I guess like a father, but also like a hard worker. 0:23:10.920 --> 0:23:12.460 And I don't know, I just took a lot out of, 0:23:13.040 --> 0:23:15.900 I took a lot out of his, um, his fights 0:23:16.000 --> 0:23:18.220 and his adversity and his like life story. And I 0:23:18.720 --> 0:23:20.460 don't know, I kind of try to apply that to 0:23:20.720 --> 0:23:21.160 my own life. 0:23:22.060 --> 0:23:26.470 Now I'm curious, what did you, what was it about Berlin? 0:23:28.880 --> 0:23:34.490 that made you re-examine your life? Because there's definitely a 0:23:36.850 --> 0:23:43.010 European way of thinking about the world and life and 0:23:43.290 --> 0:23:46.090 whatnot that'll get you thinking about stuff. 0:23:47.790 --> 0:23:52.290 Yeah, I mean, I think primarily it kind of allowed 0:23:52.369 --> 0:23:55.909 me to reset everything. It kind of allowed me to 0:23:56.070 --> 0:24:02.520 reinvent myself because I was in like my cohort and 0:24:03.980 --> 0:24:06.340 like all these people had never met me before besides 0:24:06.460 --> 0:24:08.800 one of my friends who's like my best friend. I'm 0:24:08.820 --> 0:24:10.420 not gonna say his name because I don't want, you know, 0:24:10.800 --> 0:24:13.159 but he's an awesome guy and I really, he's one 0:24:13.180 --> 0:24:15.480 of my best friends. And so I was just with 0:24:15.500 --> 0:24:16.100 Berlin and him. 0:24:16.119 --> 0:24:16.859 Sorry? 0:24:17.600 --> 0:24:18.780 Oh, I said we'll call him Devin. 0:24:19.980 --> 0:24:20.580 Yeah, Devin. 0:24:20.619 --> 0:24:21.859 Yes, Devin. 0:24:22.119 --> 0:24:24.820 Perfect. So Devin and I were kind of in Berlin 0:24:24.840 --> 0:24:27.480 together and I guess Devin is kind of one of 0:24:27.520 --> 0:24:30.700 the people who... And I'm just so blessed to say this, 0:24:30.780 --> 0:24:33.260 I guess. And I feel so grateful to him. But 0:24:33.300 --> 0:24:34.460 he's kind of like one of those people who kind 0:24:34.540 --> 0:24:39.989 of sees the best in me, I guess. And... That 0:24:40.010 --> 0:24:44.450 kind of helped me sort of... Like... That kind of 0:24:44.470 --> 0:24:47.850 helped me try to become the best person I was. Because... 0:24:48.530 --> 0:24:51.379 Someone could see it in me before... Before maybe I 0:24:51.390 --> 0:24:52.209 could see it in myself. 0:24:52.840 --> 0:24:53.859 Yeah, you super knew. 0:24:53.900 --> 0:24:54.060 And. 0:24:55.560 --> 0:24:59.000 Yeah... And I don't know, like I, it just, I, 0:24:59.200 --> 0:25:01.000 I was able to, one of the big things I 0:25:01.020 --> 0:25:02.740 think I've realized I've had is I think I've had 0:25:02.760 --> 0:25:06.480 a really big phone addiction. Um, I was listening to 0:25:06.540 --> 0:25:08.139 one of your calls like the other day and one 0:25:08.180 --> 0:25:09.720 of the guys, one of the guys was talking about how, 0:25:10.320 --> 0:25:11.880 I forget his name, but he was kind of talking 0:25:11.900 --> 0:25:14.080 about how he wasn't using his phone anymore. And I 0:25:14.900 --> 0:25:17.460 feel like I was walking around like the city and 0:25:17.500 --> 0:25:19.520 I was just kind of like people watching and, you know, 0:25:19.540 --> 0:25:21.200 maybe I'd get like a, like a, you know, a 0:25:21.200 --> 0:25:25.400 nice tea or, um, sit down and have a drink 0:25:25.440 --> 0:25:27.830 by the, uh, by the river. And I kind of, 0:25:27.840 --> 0:25:30.159 I just would, I would just like think about stuff 0:25:31.180 --> 0:25:36.220 and this kind of let me sort of look at life, 0:25:36.570 --> 0:25:39.650 look at like my life trajectory objectively. And it had 0:25:39.670 --> 0:25:42.770 a really big impact. Like I was majoring in communications and, 0:25:43.450 --> 0:25:45.690 you know, it was something that I, and it always 0:25:45.710 --> 0:25:50.070 was something that I was like, you know, so growing up, um, sorry, 0:25:50.090 --> 0:25:53.260 I'm getting really deep here. I'm sorry. Um, growing up, 0:25:53.310 --> 0:25:55.149 I was kind of told that I wasn't really good 0:25:55.190 --> 0:25:59.590 at math and I kind of started to like give 0:25:59.710 --> 0:26:02.159 up at all the math that I had. And I 0:26:02.200 --> 0:26:04.139 kind of would just cheat on like my exams and 0:26:04.160 --> 0:26:07.040 stuff like that. But then over the summer, I kind 0:26:07.080 --> 0:26:09.820 of had another epiphany, I guess, was that like, I'm 0:26:09.840 --> 0:26:12.859 not really in school to like get good grades. I'm 0:26:12.900 --> 0:26:14.720 kind of in school to learn and try to like 0:26:14.780 --> 0:26:16.460 figure out who I am as a person. I mean, 0:26:16.480 --> 0:26:19.000 grades are important. Don't get me wrong, but you know, 0:26:19.060 --> 0:26:21.740 there's an aspect of kind of like developing, I guess, 0:26:21.790 --> 0:26:25.389 like who you are. And so I kind of realized 0:26:25.430 --> 0:26:28.830 that I was selling myself short and it was time 0:26:28.890 --> 0:26:32.429 for me to like put in my most, my best effort. And, 0:26:32.730 --> 0:26:34.669 you know, kind of looking at that, you know, UFC 0:26:34.690 --> 0:26:41.020 fighter guy, like Alexander Volkanovsky, I kind of, I just 0:26:41.060 --> 0:26:44.080 kind of tried, I just tried. And I like, I 0:26:44.100 --> 0:26:46.240 guess I just tried to be the best that I 0:26:46.280 --> 0:26:49.669 could be. And If I failed, I would speak to 0:26:49.710 --> 0:26:51.990 myself like how I would speak to my friend Josh. 0:26:52.090 --> 0:26:54.990 I would try to be forgiving of myself. If I failed, 0:26:55.310 --> 0:26:58.590 I'd be like, all right, Parker, it's all good, man. 0:26:58.750 --> 0:27:01.310 You make mistakes, and that's okay. I just kind of 0:27:01.330 --> 0:27:06.740 started speaking to myself more synthetically. It's okay to make mistakes, 0:27:06.800 --> 0:27:09.859 but what really matters is how you go about it after. 0:27:13.310 --> 0:27:15.590 It's not the... I don't know if you've ever seen 0:27:15.609 --> 0:27:17.710 this movie. It's called La Haine. It's like a French movie. 0:27:17.730 --> 0:27:18.470 It's really good. 0:27:19.530 --> 0:27:20.450 La Haine? 0:27:21.770 --> 0:27:22.590 Yeah, yeah, yeah. 0:27:23.830 --> 0:27:24.810 La Haine. 0:27:25.010 --> 0:27:25.590 Oh, La Haine. 0:27:25.590 --> 0:27:26.209 1995. 0:27:26.210 --> 0:27:29.910 Wow, this definitely looks like a movie. Very good movie. 0:27:30.150 --> 0:27:33.100 Look at this guy. This guy looks like this Eminem-looking guy. 0:27:33.119 --> 0:27:36.440 Indeed, yeah, yeah. 0:27:36.680 --> 0:27:37.840 What's La Haine about? 0:27:39.400 --> 0:27:43.470 Yeah, so it's about these three... like kids who kind 0:27:43.530 --> 0:27:46.170 of live on the street a lot. And it's kind 0:27:46.210 --> 0:27:50.590 of like a commentary on like the, the dilemma between like, um, 0:27:51.609 --> 0:27:55.450 like police authority and like the day to day lives 0:27:55.510 --> 0:28:01.410 of like people they, that maybe look like they're committing crimes, but, but, 0:28:01.670 --> 0:28:03.980 but they're really just trying to like figure themselves. 0:28:03.720 --> 0:28:04.180 Out, I guess. 0:28:04.960 --> 0:28:06.859 And it's like a really good commentary on like, I 0:28:07.400 --> 0:28:11.160 don't know if you've seen the wire, um, I haven't. 0:28:11.180 --> 0:28:13.270 But I'm from Baltimore, so people are always talking to 0:28:13.290 --> 0:28:13.700 me about it. 0:28:15.230 --> 0:28:17.070 Oh, dude, you've got to watch The Wire. 0:28:17.090 --> 0:28:18.750 I love The Wire. Dude, I don't know what it is. 0:28:19.290 --> 0:28:21.679 I'm not good at serialized dramas. I'm too family guy, 0:28:21.750 --> 0:28:38.510 funny moments, compilation pilled. That's totally fair. I'll watch the 0:28:38.530 --> 0:28:40.760 first episode. Enough people have told me. I'll try to 0:28:40.780 --> 0:28:52.140 watch the first episode. It sounds like you're in a form. 0:28:53.010 --> 0:28:53.390 Of. 0:28:53.470 --> 0:28:57.190 You seem amped up to live your best life. 0:28:58.790 --> 0:29:03.130 Yeah. I'm really happy hearing that, actually. That makes me 0:29:03.150 --> 0:29:04.790 very happy to hear it. 0:29:05.770 --> 0:29:06.330 You sound young. 0:29:06.390 --> 0:29:09.010 How old are you? 0:29:09.030 --> 0:29:13.780 I'm 21. Cool. Man, I'm happy for you. I think 0:29:14.900 --> 0:29:21.960 that's good. I think everything you're talking about is good. 0:29:22.800 --> 0:29:23.940 Trying to live your best life. 0:29:25.560 --> 0:29:27.980 Yeah. 0:29:29.440 --> 0:29:33.340 I interrupted you. You were talking about this movie. It 0:29:33.380 --> 0:29:34.800 had an effect on you of some sort. 0:29:36.930 --> 0:29:39.950 Um, which movie was that? 0:29:40.020 --> 0:29:41.460 Talking about oh. 0:29:41.360 --> 0:29:45.400 Lehane Lehane yeah Lehane yeah no I I always just 0:29:45.460 --> 0:29:47.220 found it to be to be a really good movie 0:29:47.800 --> 0:29:50.510 um I kind of saw I'm like I'm so happy 0:29:50.530 --> 0:29:52.510 that I I've been trying to get on this or 0:29:52.530 --> 0:29:55.850 try to talk to you for like years and um 0:29:56.270 --> 0:29:58.330 it's just so funny that it just like randomly happened 0:29:58.350 --> 0:29:59.470 today I think that's pretty. 0:29:59.330 --> 0:30:01.120 Awesome It's in French. 0:30:02.940 --> 0:30:04.440 Yeah, it is in French. Do you speak French? 0:30:04.460 --> 0:30:05.020 I listen to it. 0:30:06.520 --> 0:30:09.280 Unfortunately not. I wish I could, though. If I could 0:30:09.300 --> 0:30:10.380 speak French, that would be awesome. 0:30:11.310 --> 0:30:12.530 Wow. Cool. 0:30:12.590 --> 0:30:14.290 Okay, I don't know if I'll watch The Wire, but 0:30:14.310 --> 0:30:17.770 I'll watch La Haine. This looks cool. How did you even... 0:30:17.650 --> 0:30:20.870 It is a very cool movie. This is off-topic in 0:30:20.910 --> 0:30:29.870 some sense, but you were born at least... 10 years, 10, 0:30:29.870 --> 0:30:32.030 my math is wrong, but how'd you find out this 0:30:32.070 --> 0:30:32.910 movie exists? 0:30:34.790 --> 0:30:40.030 Oh my gosh. Therein lies a tale. Um, basically I, uh, 0:30:40.270 --> 0:30:42.090 I was in, so my high school I went to, 0:30:42.590 --> 0:30:45.570 I had like this IB film class and we would 0:30:45.670 --> 0:30:50.540 analyze like a bunch of different movies from like different eras. And, uh, 0:30:50.600 --> 0:30:52.900 one of the movies we had to review was Lahane. 0:30:53.720 --> 0:30:55.800 And I thought that's a very good movie. I very 0:30:55.840 --> 0:30:57.400 much enjoyed it. Hmm. 0:30:59.260 --> 0:30:59.640 Hmm. 0:30:59.660 --> 0:31:02.140 So you're back from Berlin. 0:31:03.580 --> 0:31:03.800 Yes. 0:31:05.060 --> 0:31:09.600 And what's next for you, Parker? 0:31:11.120 --> 0:31:15.470 That is that is a good question. You know, I'm 0:31:15.510 --> 0:31:18.830 really I'm really trying to get some of my habits better. 0:31:18.890 --> 0:31:22.430 Like I'm I I'm not trying. I used to smoke 0:31:22.470 --> 0:31:25.770 a lot of weed. And I still smoke weed now. 0:31:25.850 --> 0:31:32.130 I go to University of Colorado. So obviously, there's a 0:31:32.170 --> 0:31:35.330 decent amount of people who engage in the Mary Jane. 0:31:37.010 --> 0:31:42.340 But yeah, I've been trying to have better habits. But 0:31:42.720 --> 0:31:45.080 I also noticed that sometimes when I go down these 0:31:45.120 --> 0:31:49.480 rabbit holes of self-improvement, which I think I might be 0:31:49.500 --> 0:31:54.760 on right now, I kind of I maybe it's like 0:31:54.800 --> 0:31:56.940 I try to escape some of my faults or I 0:31:56.960 --> 0:31:59.459 try to like I'm running from something, I guess. And 0:31:59.530 --> 0:32:01.430 so I've been really like I've been trying to like 0:32:01.510 --> 0:32:04.730 reflect a lot more and still be a better person 0:32:04.770 --> 0:32:07.310 and mostly like try to love myself more. Like I 0:32:07.350 --> 0:32:10.650 kind of had it. I was not a very like 0:32:11.050 --> 0:32:12.270 I don't really know the best way to put it. 0:32:13.150 --> 0:32:15.170 Growing up, like a lot of the people who like 0:32:15.510 --> 0:32:19.550 I found mentors kind of like turned out not to 0:32:19.570 --> 0:32:23.780 be like be the best people occasionally. And so it 0:32:23.820 --> 0:32:28.040 kind of stunted my, like, emotional, like, confidence, I guess, and, like, 0:32:28.080 --> 0:32:32.760 confidence in, like, being myself. So I kind of tried to, 0:32:33.160 --> 0:32:38.010 I guess I'm trying to, like, you know, have, like, more, like, 0:32:38.110 --> 0:32:43.050 I guess, like, more, like, self-love, I guess. And I 0:32:43.070 --> 0:32:45.510 kind of realized, like, I feel the best about myself 0:32:45.550 --> 0:32:48.280 when I'm helping others. So I try to do that. So, like, 0:32:48.300 --> 0:32:51.590 for example, I, like, do Muay Thai, which is, like, a, 0:32:52.240 --> 0:32:55.460 like if you like speak, like, um, if you're watching 0:32:55.480 --> 0:32:57.320 like the UFC, all the striking that they do is 0:32:57.360 --> 0:33:00.120 primarily like Muay Thai. Cause you use like knees, elbows 0:33:00.160 --> 0:33:01.720 and all that kind of stuff. And I've been doing 0:33:01.780 --> 0:33:04.380 it for a pretty long time. And I don't know. 0:33:04.400 --> 0:33:07.050 I try to like mentor the young, the young guys, like, 0:33:07.270 --> 0:33:09.810 or the young, like, uh, like athletes and stuff like that. 0:33:09.830 --> 0:33:12.250 The guys who's like, just started out. And like, cause I, 0:33:12.350 --> 0:33:13.970 I try to remember what it was, what it felt 0:33:14.010 --> 0:33:17.630 like for me being a beginner. Um, and I try 0:33:17.650 --> 0:33:19.620 to like, you know, guide them through it. And if, 0:33:20.330 --> 0:33:22.170 you know, try to always give them support and like 0:33:22.210 --> 0:33:25.080 tips and stuff like that. Because, you know, a lot 0:33:25.120 --> 0:33:27.360 of times people join Muay Thai and this was kind 0:33:27.380 --> 0:33:30.140 of my experience. Like I joined Muay Thai because like 0:33:30.320 --> 0:33:31.880 I was at a party and I almost got like, 0:33:32.220 --> 0:33:34.140 like beat up. And I like, I felt so like 0:33:34.280 --> 0:33:36.520 ashamed of myself. I felt so bad about myself. I 0:33:36.540 --> 0:33:38.180 was like, you know what? I can't, if I'm like 0:33:38.220 --> 0:33:40.520 with someone I love and if they're trying to hurt them, 0:33:40.540 --> 0:33:42.440 like I gotta be able to like, at least like 0:33:42.460 --> 0:33:42.960 protect them. 0:33:43.000 --> 0:33:45.160 You know what I mean? How did you almost get 0:33:45.180 --> 0:33:46.280 beat up at this party? 0:33:48.010 --> 0:33:48.670 Yeah, I did. 0:33:48.690 --> 0:33:49.170 I did. 0:33:49.190 --> 0:33:50.890 It was really, it was really, it was really, uh, 0:33:51.190 --> 0:33:53.280 not the best memory, I guess. Like, it was my 0:33:53.340 --> 0:33:55.540 first high school party, and I was hanging out with 0:33:55.560 --> 0:33:57.660 all the kids that I thought were really cool, and, like, 0:33:57.680 --> 0:33:59.440 two of them, like, started taking on me, and then 0:33:59.480 --> 0:34:01.700 they were, like, just, so I just, like, laughed, and 0:34:01.740 --> 0:34:03.560 I was like, man, like, this was really disappointing. Like, 0:34:03.600 --> 0:34:06.320 I was so, so much looking forward to beat these guys, or, like, 0:34:06.360 --> 0:34:09.580 meet these guys, but I guess they weren't at all 0:34:09.620 --> 0:34:12.819 what I thought they were like. But, yeah, like, I 0:34:12.840 --> 0:34:14.620 feel like a lot of times people join Muay Thai 0:34:14.640 --> 0:34:16.700 for some of those reasons, and A lot of times 0:34:16.739 --> 0:34:19.259 people might be looking for community, and I feel like 0:34:19.280 --> 0:34:22.940 you kind of have to guide them in the right direction, 0:34:22.960 --> 0:34:23.439 so to speak. 0:34:27.290 --> 0:34:33.930 And what did you say? You said you changed your major? Yeah, yeah, yeah. 0:34:34.710 --> 0:34:37.270 I changed it to economics. Okay. 0:34:37.650 --> 0:34:39.710 What are you hoping to do with economics? 0:34:41.890 --> 0:34:44.920 I don't know. I honestly don't really know what I 0:34:44.960 --> 0:34:46.600 want to do after college yet. I've been thinking a 0:34:46.620 --> 0:34:52.259 lot about doing the Peace Corps. Yeah, I've always thought 0:34:52.280 --> 0:34:58.980 that was pretty interesting. I guess kind of what economics, 0:34:59.060 --> 0:35:02.890 I think, is the reason for me being the best major. Sorry, 0:35:03.050 --> 0:35:05.529 I'm fumbling over my words. I think one of the 0:35:05.570 --> 0:35:08.560 reasons why it's the best major for me is is 0:35:08.600 --> 0:35:10.860 because I kind of, like, get to learn how the 0:35:10.880 --> 0:35:12.580 world works. And I always thought, like, I always try 0:35:12.620 --> 0:35:15.180 to have been, like, a very curious person, you know 0:35:15.200 --> 0:35:16.820 what I mean? Like, I love learning about new things. 0:35:17.460 --> 0:35:21.120 I'm kind of a nerd in that sense. And I just, like, 0:35:21.160 --> 0:35:23.370 love learning new things and learning about how the world 0:35:23.410 --> 0:35:26.109 works and how, like, money flows through different countries and 0:35:26.570 --> 0:35:32.650 learning about, you know, how to, how, like, countries build, like, 0:35:32.710 --> 0:35:34.190 economies and all that kind of stuff. I always thought 0:35:34.210 --> 0:35:36.670 that was really interesting. And so I always, and I 0:35:36.690 --> 0:35:38.670 was kind of thinking, like, you know what? if I'm 0:35:38.710 --> 0:35:42.750 learning about something interesting and, you know, I learn like 0:35:42.790 --> 0:35:45.670 how to, you know, do important skills like coding or 0:35:45.750 --> 0:35:47.509 Python or learn, you know, learn how to do some 0:35:47.530 --> 0:35:50.669 good math as well as like other stuff as well. 0:35:50.690 --> 0:35:52.690 I always thought that could be like a good, um, 0:35:54.070 --> 0:35:55.549 a good way to get like a job, I guess, 0:35:55.570 --> 0:35:57.669 you know what I mean? Make myself useful in some, 0:35:57.730 --> 0:35:59.550 in some ways. And then I can use those skills 0:35:59.590 --> 0:36:01.489 maybe to, to help other people, which is kind of 0:36:01.510 --> 0:36:05.759 like what I was thinking about with, um, doing, uh, uh, 0:36:06.700 --> 0:36:09.219 Peace Corps. I also really like traveling, too. So, you know, 0:36:09.239 --> 0:36:10.280 that's an added bonus, I guess. 0:36:11.850 --> 0:36:12.110 Man. 0:36:13.010 --> 0:36:16.910 I'm happy for you, Parker. You sound like you got 0:36:17.150 --> 0:36:18.270 a good life ahead of you. 0:36:19.750 --> 0:36:23.029 Thank you. I mean, it's not perfect. Like, I do have, like, 0:36:23.050 --> 0:36:25.359 a lot of struggles I go through from time to time. Like, 0:36:26.940 --> 0:36:29.180 I always kind of had this, like, idea that, like, 0:36:29.640 --> 0:36:33.359 everybody that I thought had it all figured out, like, had, like, lived, like, 0:36:33.380 --> 0:36:36.230 perfect lives and, like, I'm really grateful for everything I 0:36:36.270 --> 0:36:39.150 have and all that kind of stuff. But, you know, 0:36:39.170 --> 0:36:42.200 I also have my own struggles. And, you know, sometimes 0:36:42.260 --> 0:36:47.080 I try to keep that in my mind, I guess, because, like, say, like, someone, like, 0:36:47.100 --> 0:36:50.040 kind of gives me a, or, like, cuts me off 0:36:50.100 --> 0:36:52.980 in traffic or, you know, maybe makes, like, an off-color 0:36:53.020 --> 0:36:55.420 remark towards me, like, as a joke, but maybe I 0:36:55.440 --> 0:36:56.879 take it serious. Like, I always just try to give 0:36:56.900 --> 0:37:00.600 people the benefit of the doubt because I've noticed, like, 0:37:00.620 --> 0:37:03.870 whenever I messed up, it's never personal. Like it's, it's, 0:37:04.010 --> 0:37:06.450 I mean, sometimes maybe if I'm like angry or upset 0:37:06.469 --> 0:37:08.310 and if I say something, I don't mean, then it's, 0:37:08.370 --> 0:37:10.489 then it's something different. But I've always noticed, like if 0:37:10.610 --> 0:37:14.120 I like, you know, maybe if someone says hi to 0:37:14.160 --> 0:37:15.520 me and I just kind of look at them, but 0:37:15.540 --> 0:37:16.960 I have my AirPods and so I didn't hear them 0:37:17.000 --> 0:37:19.939 and stuff like that. I always try to give people 0:37:19.960 --> 0:37:21.719 the benefit of the doubt in those regards. Cause I'm like, Oh, 0:37:21.760 --> 0:37:24.560 he probably didn't see me. Cause I know in my experience, 0:37:24.620 --> 0:37:27.839 at least like the majority of the times, like a 0:37:27.940 --> 0:37:30.440 little thing like that happens. It's always just cause I'm 0:37:30.480 --> 0:37:33.330 like blundering around or, you know, not paying attention or 0:37:33.350 --> 0:37:33.950 something like that. 0:37:34.150 --> 0:37:40.190 Right, right. There's a, there's a, it's not a, I 0:37:40.210 --> 0:37:43.200 guess a phrase, there's a phrase for that. It's called 0:37:43.910 --> 0:37:45.520 reading positive intent. 0:37:48.080 --> 0:37:50.759 You ever heard of that? I have not. 0:37:51.520 --> 0:37:56.799 It's like, like, okay, sometimes, you know, sometimes someone will 0:37:56.820 --> 0:37:59.529 be like, oh, this, I tried to say hi to 0:37:59.570 --> 0:38:01.630 this guy, but, He had his headphones in and he 0:38:01.670 --> 0:38:04.649 just ignored me and, you know, fucking piece of shit. 0:38:04.670 --> 0:38:07.630 But it's like you're kind of practicing a form of 0:38:07.690 --> 0:38:11.850 reading positive intent, which is another way of saying giving 0:38:11.870 --> 0:38:13.549 the benefit of the doubt of just being like, oh, 0:38:13.610 --> 0:38:19.129 they probably just didn't see me. And it's funny because 0:38:19.170 --> 0:38:25.299 even if you're wrong, you're still, I think it's a 0:38:26.160 --> 0:38:29.629 better term. default way to go through the world because 0:38:29.650 --> 0:38:31.370 like i mean some people have it the kind of 0:38:31.410 --> 0:38:35.410 the opposite where like their brain has been conditioned to 0:38:35.810 --> 0:38:44.359 um consistently read a negative intent um yeah you know 0:38:44.460 --> 0:38:48.719 even about the even yeah even about themselves uh and 0:38:48.860 --> 0:38:52.210 so i think it's a form of this is like 0:38:52.410 --> 0:38:54.270 real therapy shit but it's like it's a form of 0:38:54.310 --> 0:38:59.270 like brain conditioning and it sounds like you're trying to 0:38:59.310 --> 0:39:03.070 condition yourself you had to read positive intent of people 0:39:06.070 --> 0:39:09.750 which is good and look I'll say this I think 0:39:10.469 --> 0:39:15.380 that this is a good share I'm glad you shared 0:39:15.480 --> 0:39:22.899 this because you're I don't know maybe your optimism will 0:39:23.380 --> 0:39:26.920 rub off on the people you know Oh, that would 0:39:26.960 --> 0:39:32.299 be so awesome. good to, there's something, man, I don't know. 0:39:32.320 --> 0:39:38.069 There's something about like, um, like hearing a guy be, uh, 0:39:39.150 --> 0:39:44.390 like optimistic where I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm a little jazzed up. 0:39:44.469 --> 0:39:50.000 I'm like, Oh, I gotta, you know, stop smoking weed 0:39:50.040 --> 0:39:53.279 and all these other, all these other things. So it's 0:39:53.320 --> 0:39:54.760 a good share. It's a good share. 0:39:55.940 --> 0:39:59.470 Yeah. You know, I always kind of like, I guess, 0:40:00.050 --> 0:40:02.570 so I had like a, actually this happened when I 0:40:02.610 --> 0:40:05.330 was in Berlin. I kind of had this like, like 0:40:05.989 --> 0:40:08.049 day long crisis where I was just kind of like 0:40:08.730 --> 0:40:11.129 thinking about how bad the world's getting right now. I mean, 0:40:11.150 --> 0:40:12.759 I don't, sorry again, I don't want to sound like 0:40:12.920 --> 0:40:17.279 really depressing or anything like that, but I kind of like, Yeah, like, 0:40:17.390 --> 0:40:19.129 I kind of, like, saw a bunch of stuff, like, 0:40:19.210 --> 0:40:21.529 all the bunch of shit that, like, Trump's doing and, sorry, 0:40:21.550 --> 0:40:23.790 I don't want to get political, and how, like, there's 0:40:23.810 --> 0:40:29.469 this rise of, like, loneliness and, like, kind of animosity between, like, 0:40:29.530 --> 0:40:32.290 men and women because men are told online that, like, 0:40:32.610 --> 0:40:34.840 girls will only like them if they're, like, 6'5 and 0:40:34.860 --> 0:40:40.700 super rich and girls have told other girls or ladies 0:40:40.739 --> 0:40:43.600 have told other ladies that, like, guys are, like, all, like, 0:40:43.680 --> 0:40:46.799 really just, like, assholes and stuff like that. And I 0:40:46.840 --> 0:40:50.460 kind of had this realization that, um, we kind of 0:40:50.520 --> 0:40:53.700 live in like two humans live in like two separate 0:40:53.780 --> 0:40:57.360 universes right now. And they're so different. And you have 0:40:57.380 --> 0:41:01.700 this one universe of like in-person face-to-face communication, right? Like 0:41:02.710 --> 0:41:04.489 you just, you know, walk down the street, say hi 0:41:04.510 --> 0:41:06.890 to your neighbor and you're, you go back home after 0:41:06.910 --> 0:41:08.609 you're walking. You're like, man, like, you know what? All 0:41:08.630 --> 0:41:10.509 the people around me are really nice. But then you 0:41:10.530 --> 0:41:12.730 go online, you go on Twitter and everyone's just yelling 0:41:12.750 --> 0:41:16.230 at each other. Everyone's like, just like ruthless. And I 0:41:16.270 --> 0:41:18.149 just kind of like step back from that a little bit. 0:41:18.230 --> 0:41:21.110 And like, I feel like if you just walk around 0:41:21.350 --> 0:41:23.390 and breathe in the air and meet all the people 0:41:23.469 --> 0:41:26.450 and you realize that like, we're so much more alike 0:41:26.489 --> 0:41:31.730 than we are unalike. And, um, you know, like we've 0:41:31.770 --> 0:41:34.790 had like, as, as much as, you know, these times 0:41:34.870 --> 0:41:37.950 are getting a little bit tricky with inflation and, you know, 0:41:37.969 --> 0:41:41.489 cost of living and obviously the, you know, the situations 0:41:41.510 --> 0:41:44.200 in the middle East as well. Like there's a lot 0:41:44.239 --> 0:41:47.230 of stuff to be really pessimistic about as well as 0:41:47.310 --> 0:41:50.090 AI as well. But, you know, I was kind of 0:41:50.110 --> 0:41:53.670 thinking like, I'm really inspired by people like Zoran Mandani and, um, 0:41:55.430 --> 0:41:59.819 you know, uh, uh, Abdul outside and all those, you know, 0:41:59.880 --> 0:42:02.800 these new era of Democrats. And, and, and I really 0:42:02.860 --> 0:42:06.259 think that like, well, one thing I think they, that 0:42:06.300 --> 0:42:08.520 I really like is that they don't really try to 0:42:08.840 --> 0:42:12.120 make any like divides. Like they're accepting of all people, 0:42:12.180 --> 0:42:14.480 no matter like what you, what, what your skin color 0:42:14.560 --> 0:42:16.299 is and, or, you know, who you like to go 0:42:16.340 --> 0:42:19.219 home with at night. And it's like, I kind of 0:42:19.239 --> 0:42:23.680 look at that and I think these are people who 0:42:23.890 --> 0:42:27.469 are genuinely trying to make other people's lives better. And 0:42:27.530 --> 0:42:31.149 as long as there are people who are actively trying 0:42:31.170 --> 0:42:34.689 to make other people's lives better, then that gives me hope. 0:42:35.210 --> 0:42:39.210 And if they're in a fight scene, like there's nobody 0:42:39.270 --> 0:42:41.210 in my community or in my friend group or in 0:42:41.250 --> 0:42:44.069 my area that's not doing that, then I'll step up. 0:42:44.440 --> 0:42:47.060 I'll be the one who tries to, like, do more 0:42:47.100 --> 0:42:50.239 good than, you know, or tries to fix some of 0:42:50.260 --> 0:42:50.620 the things. 0:42:50.640 --> 0:42:51.739 Like, I don't know. 0:42:51.780 --> 0:42:55.080 I always feel like, I don't know. I don't really 0:42:55.120 --> 0:42:57.359 know where I was going with that. But, you know, 0:42:57.400 --> 0:42:59.259 I feel like, I guess, like, to sum it all up, 0:42:59.300 --> 0:43:01.020 I guess I try to be the change I see 0:43:01.040 --> 0:43:02.480 in the world. And I'm not perfect at it, but, 0:43:03.060 --> 0:43:04.379 you know, I feel like if you try a little 0:43:04.400 --> 0:43:07.420 bit each day, you know, eventually maybe, you know, change 0:43:07.440 --> 0:43:10.040 happens slowly, I guess, then it happens all of a sudden, 0:43:10.380 --> 0:43:11.359 at least in my experience. 0:43:11.390 --> 0:43:12.529 So, I don't know. 0:43:13.219 --> 0:43:14.339 You're very hope-pilled. 0:43:16.200 --> 0:43:18.419 Yeah, I try to be. You know what I mean? 0:43:18.480 --> 0:43:21.779 That's good. I think there's a lot of things to 0:43:21.800 --> 0:43:22.299 be hopeful in. 0:43:22.239 --> 0:43:22.819 The world right now. 0:43:23.460 --> 0:43:29.450 No, I agree with you. I particularly very much agree 0:43:29.469 --> 0:43:36.690 with you on the two different worlds thing, which is 0:43:36.810 --> 0:43:43.709 that it's so... I mean, it's hard because... like we 0:43:43.810 --> 0:43:48.239 live in the digital world and stuff. And even like, uh, 0:43:49.000 --> 0:43:51.200 you know, like I'll delete Instagram for a while and 0:43:51.239 --> 0:43:56.720 I'll feel weirdly isolated. Um, yeah, but I don't like, 0:43:57.210 --> 0:44:00.310 it's really true. It's really trippy. It's not, uh, good, 0:44:00.350 --> 0:44:03.150 but then it's, um, you know, yeah. If you want 0:44:03.250 --> 0:44:07.759 to go online and, uh, scroll through the, you know, 0:44:07.820 --> 0:44:10.730 it's a conversation we've had, we've had a lot, but, uh, Yeah, 0:44:10.770 --> 0:44:12.489 if you want to go online and scroll through the 0:44:12.510 --> 0:44:20.040 black mirror of death, it'll show you death. Yeah, I've 0:44:20.060 --> 0:44:22.620 said this a bunch, but I'll just be walking down 0:44:22.680 --> 0:44:34.710 the street and you see real life. It's weird little things. 0:44:35.170 --> 0:44:37.230 I was on the subway and I just saw this. 0:44:40.530 --> 0:44:45.239 Woman be like, say to some other lady like, oh, 0:44:45.480 --> 0:44:47.700 I like your shirt. It's really cool. Where'd you get it? 0:44:47.800 --> 0:44:50.180 And then they said something and they laughed and I 0:44:50.200 --> 0:44:53.040 was like, oh, okay, we're still doing it. You know 0:44:53.080 --> 0:44:57.780 what I mean? We're still doing it. Or you see 0:44:59.140 --> 0:45:03.000 like two people holding hands and one of them has 0:45:03.040 --> 0:45:07.520 an iced coffee and they're just talking about whatever and 0:45:07.560 --> 0:45:13.190 you're like, alright, this is CNN will never report on that. 0:45:13.690 --> 0:45:18.299 CNN will never be like, two people held hands and 0:45:19.100 --> 0:45:24.260 drank coffee and it was nice. But that's happening. But 0:45:24.620 --> 0:45:28.859 that's like what's happening in the world a lot. But 0:45:28.880 --> 0:45:31.279 you know, it's about what you want to look at and. 0:45:32.820 --> 0:45:33.000 Focus on. 0:45:39.000 --> 0:45:45.029 And whatnot. It feels nice as hell to not be 0:45:45.090 --> 0:45:52.670 on the internet. Lahane. I'm going to watch Lahane. You 0:45:52.690 --> 0:45:56.969 definitely should. It's very good. It seems like a lot 0:45:57.010 --> 0:46:01.950 of people who made it died while it was being made. 0:46:03.469 --> 0:46:03.719 What? 0:46:05.239 --> 0:46:06.259 I have not heard about that. 0:46:06.980 --> 0:46:09.560 Whoa, hey, do you know who made the... Well, okay, 0:46:09.620 --> 0:46:12.379 I'm only saying that because it says the film is... Yeah, 0:46:12.420 --> 0:46:15.469 I'm only saying that because it says the film is 0:46:15.510 --> 0:46:18.570 dedicated to those who died while it was being made. 0:46:21.670 --> 0:46:26.189 Oh, I think that might be... I honestly don't know 0:46:26.230 --> 0:46:27.010 what that could mean. 0:46:28.450 --> 0:46:31.150 Wait. Oh, oh, oh, oh. 0:46:31.330 --> 0:46:32.330 Okay, I think. 0:46:34.530 --> 0:46:37.940 Wait, I'm dumb. I don't think the people making it... 0:46:37.969 --> 0:46:40.650 I don't think it's dedicated to the people making it 0:46:41.330 --> 0:46:45.049 who died. I think it's dedicated to other people who 0:46:45.110 --> 0:46:49.770 died while it was being made unrelated to its production. 0:46:50.770 --> 0:46:51.270 Maybe. 0:46:51.910 --> 0:46:52.730 I don't know. 0:46:52.750 --> 0:47:00.500 The movie kind of makes a lot of... A big 0:47:00.560 --> 0:47:03.490 theme of the movie is police brutality, so... I think 0:47:03.510 --> 0:47:06.510 maybe that might be talking to about people who have 0:47:06.530 --> 0:47:10.510 been victims of police brutality. 0:47:11.190 --> 0:47:15.310 Hey, you want to know something? I think this is cool, too. 0:47:15.350 --> 0:47:16.450 You know who does the music? 0:47:18.430 --> 0:47:18.879 No, who? 0:47:19.820 --> 0:47:20.520 Assassin. 0:47:20.540 --> 0:47:24.080 Assassin? 0:47:25.140 --> 0:47:27.339 It says music by Assassin. 0:47:27.360 --> 0:47:29.800 Huh. 0:47:31.020 --> 0:47:36.040 Assassin is a French... Assassin is a French hardcore rap 0:47:36.120 --> 0:47:47.580 group formed in 1985 by Rockin' Squat and Solo. That's awesome. 0:47:47.620 --> 0:47:50.180 That's such a fucking great name for a rap group. 0:47:50.500 --> 0:47:54.160 Not The Assassins. That's kind of lame. The Assassins, that's 0:47:54.180 --> 0:47:59.770 kind of lame. Just Assassin? That's great. That's so tough. 0:48:00.380 --> 0:48:01.200 It's a duo. 0:48:01.239 --> 0:48:01.719 They're like. 0:48:02.200 --> 0:48:03.980 What's that rap duo? 0:48:04.980 --> 0:48:05.340 Crap. 0:48:06.840 --> 0:48:10.350 Outkast, maybe? No, Killer Mike and. 0:48:14.270 --> 0:48:19.129 Fuck. Why don't I... This is just my brain. What's 0:48:19.190 --> 0:48:20.270 the name of that rap group? 0:48:22.830 --> 0:48:23.110 I don't know. 0:48:23.210 --> 0:48:25.570 They're the only... I don't know a lot about music. 0:48:25.630 --> 0:48:28.589 They're the only... Rap duo, I can think. Well, the 0:48:28.630 --> 0:48:32.540 Insane Clown Posse is two people. Run the Jewels. That's 0:48:32.560 --> 0:48:34.759 what I was thinking. I've run the Jewels. Those are 0:48:34.780 --> 0:48:37.020 the two rap groups I know that only have two people. 0:48:37.340 --> 0:48:40.400 But look at this. It's a rap group. Can you 0:48:40.480 --> 0:48:44.600 call it a group if it's only two people? I 0:48:44.620 --> 0:48:46.669 guess they're already doing that. I guess the verdict has been. 0:48:46.690 --> 0:48:49.089 I don't know. 0:48:49.150 --> 0:48:51.890 I mean, I guess so. I guess a group is 0:48:51.969 --> 0:48:52.930 two or more people. 0:48:52.950 --> 0:48:55.910 I don't know. 0:48:56.900 --> 0:48:58.279 Rock and school. That's a cool name. 0:48:58.560 --> 0:48:58.799 Wow. 0:48:59.739 --> 0:49:00.540 They're doing cool. 0:49:00.660 --> 0:49:00.980 French. 0:49:01.200 --> 0:49:04.140 They're doing cool. Other countries are, they're good at being, 0:49:04.180 --> 0:49:05.069 doing cool stuff. 0:49:06.670 --> 0:49:06.930 Yeah. 0:49:06.950 --> 0:49:10.270 So I, you know, I, I kind of agree. 0:49:10.469 --> 0:49:13.930 They're like cinema, Paradiso, I think, or Paris. I don't 0:49:13.969 --> 0:49:15.250 know how to say that. That's a good movie. I 0:49:15.250 --> 0:49:17.930 like to watch. The Germans have really good techno music. 0:49:19.469 --> 0:49:22.750 All these different countries have some really cool attributes about them, 0:49:22.790 --> 0:49:30.089 in my opinion. Parker. Yes. 0:49:33.820 --> 0:49:42.870 Let's see. It's Saturday at 7 p.m. Are you going 0:49:42.890 --> 0:49:44.950 to do something? Are you going to go? Well, I'll 0:49:45.010 --> 0:49:46.759 end the call soon. I'll let you go soon. But 0:49:46.780 --> 0:49:49.759 what are you going to do after this? Do you 0:49:49.780 --> 0:49:50.300 have any plans? 0:49:52.440 --> 0:49:54.799 That is a good question. So I'm in Colorado right now. 0:49:54.820 --> 0:50:00.799 So it is currently 5.53. I'm thinking I could do 0:50:00.820 --> 0:50:04.940 a couple things. The fraternity I'm in had a party 0:50:04.980 --> 0:50:05.840 a couple days ago. 0:50:05.860 --> 0:50:07.360 Sorry, yesterday. 0:50:08.390 --> 0:50:10.650 So waking up this morning has been a little challenging. 0:50:11.489 --> 0:50:11.969 But you know what? 0:50:12.030 --> 0:50:13.670 I think I'm just going to keep drinking some water, 0:50:13.730 --> 0:50:18.900 trying to recover. And then I think I'm going to 0:50:18.940 --> 0:50:21.420 go to the dining hall and get some food because 0:50:21.460 --> 0:50:23.920 I'm kind of hungry. Then I might go to the gym. 0:50:24.739 --> 0:50:28.339 And then I'm going to ask my friends if they 0:50:28.360 --> 0:50:29.820 want to. Yeah, I'm going to ask my friends if 0:50:29.840 --> 0:50:31.480 they want to get a beer tonight and see if 0:50:31.540 --> 0:50:33.000 I can chop it up with them a little bit. 0:50:33.800 --> 0:50:36.510 That's nice. You have a nice life, Parker. 0:50:38.300 --> 0:50:40.489 Thank you. I try. I try. 0:50:40.510 --> 0:50:45.830 Thank you for sharing this. I'm going to watch Lahane. 0:50:47.469 --> 0:50:47.810 Thank you. 0:50:48.370 --> 0:50:50.509 Is there anything else you want to say to the 0:50:50.570 --> 0:50:53.299 people of the computer before we go? 0:50:55.620 --> 0:50:55.859 Yes. 0:50:56.140 --> 0:50:59.879 One thing. Here's my advice. I haven't really accomplished much. 0:51:00.760 --> 0:51:04.180 I've failed a lot. But I would say just show up. 0:51:05.020 --> 0:51:07.359 you know, if, if you're trying to work on going 0:51:07.410 --> 0:51:09.470 to the gym or, you know, doing something like that, 0:51:10.150 --> 0:51:11.690 just show up to the gym. You don't even have 0:51:11.730 --> 0:51:15.770 to work out. Just, just try a little bit. And 0:51:15.950 --> 0:51:18.530 if you fail, that's totally fine. Like try to, try 0:51:18.550 --> 0:51:20.980 to be more, try to speak to you as if 0:51:21.000 --> 0:51:23.600 you're speaking like your mom or your best friend and 0:51:23.660 --> 0:51:27.279 try to give yourself some, some grace and sympathy and, um, 0:51:27.460 --> 0:51:30.000 try to be, try to be the, be nice to 0:51:30.020 --> 0:51:32.330 other people. No, you don't never know what somebody else 0:51:32.390 --> 0:51:35.700 is going through. And, um, You know, one small thing 0:51:35.739 --> 0:51:38.310 you might think you can do or one small thing 0:51:38.330 --> 0:51:42.310 you do could totally, totally change someone else's life for 0:51:42.330 --> 0:51:44.210 the better. And I always try to remember that. 0:51:45.410 --> 0:51:48.489 Hey, thanks, Parker. Have a nice rest of your night 0:51:48.690 --> 0:51:49.649 and the end of your life. 0:51:51.090 --> 0:51:52.690 Thank you, man. You too. Have a good one. 0:51:53.250 --> 0:51:55.710 Take care, man. Thanks for answering this call very randomly. 0:51:56.950 --> 0:51:57.350 Of course. 0:51:57.410 --> 0:51:57.710 Yeah. 0:51:57.930 --> 0:51:58.250 Bye. 0:51:58.850 --> 0:51:59.290 Bye, Parker. 0:52:03.489 --> 0:52:12.600 That was Parker. What a sweet guy Parker is. Yeah, 0:52:13.540 --> 0:52:19.959 he's a sweet guy. Hopeful, you know. That's good. That's good. 0:52:20.040 --> 0:52:23.700 I'm glad, you know, I'm glad that some people have hope. 0:52:24.940 --> 0:52:30.770 It's good. You know, he's in college. He's getting his 0:52:30.830 --> 0:52:38.490 life started. And he's got hope. And he's watching old movies. 0:52:39.989 --> 0:52:42.090 What year is it right now? 0:52:42.090 --> 0:52:42.770 2026? 0:52:42.770 --> 0:52:46.610 Lehane. Man, can you imagine you make a movie called 0:52:46.700 --> 0:52:53.390 Lehane and then 31 years later a guy still watches it. 0:52:56.940 --> 0:52:59.320 This was made two years before I was born. And 0:53:01.060 --> 0:53:16.670 people are watching it. Lehane. Um, Wendy Eyed of the Times. 0:53:18.190 --> 0:53:22.029 It doesn't say, uh, a city. Like, it's not like 0:53:22.070 --> 0:53:24.129 a Los Angeles Times or a New York Times, just 0:53:24.250 --> 0:53:30.750 the Times. Says, Lahane is one... This is weird. Okay, 0:53:30.790 --> 0:53:35.440 it says one, but the O in one has a parenthesis. 0:53:36.280 --> 0:53:40.160 You know how, like, like, uh, If someone's being quoted. 0:53:40.440 --> 0:53:42.900 And like they didn't say the exact word. But you 0:53:42.940 --> 0:53:46.160 need the word for the context. They'll put it in brackets. 0:53:47.800 --> 0:53:50.080 Do you know what I'm saying? You guys know what 0:53:50.100 --> 0:53:57.049 I'm saying. For some reason. In this quote. From Wendy 0:53:57.310 --> 0:54:02.410 Ide of the Times. Reviewing Lehane. Just the O. Is 0:54:02.469 --> 0:54:07.469 in brackets. Does that mean that she said. That her like. 0:54:07.950 --> 0:54:11.830 her literal, her verbatim quote was one of the most 0:54:12.810 --> 0:54:19.980 blisteringly effective pieces of urban cinema ever made? Why is 0:54:20.020 --> 0:54:26.660 the one in parentheses? Or brackets? Anyway, she said it 0:54:26.700 --> 0:54:29.600 was one of the most blisteringly effective pieces of urban 0:54:29.680 --> 0:54:37.980 cinema ever made. Lahayn. Oh, uh. 0:54:41.820 --> 0:54:49.460 Let's see. Oh, it was produced by LeStudio Canal Plus. 0:54:53.920 --> 0:54:54.980 That's, uh.... 0:54:56.200 --> 0:54:59.000 You know, shout out Lehane. Shout out Lehane. I don't 0:54:59.020 --> 0:55:02.359 know why I'm... I don't know if there's anything else 0:55:02.380 --> 0:55:05.160 to say about Lehane, but we'll watch it. I'm not 0:55:05.180 --> 0:55:11.650 going to read the plot summary. I'll actually watch the movie. Hello, folks. 0:55:11.710 --> 0:55:15.630 This is Lyle. I don't know why I forgot my 0:55:15.710 --> 0:55:22.130 own name. This is the end part of the podcast 0:55:22.690 --> 0:55:29.750 where I am going to read one Gekmail. I'm going 0:55:29.770 --> 0:55:33.839 to read one Gekmail. I'm not going to say I'll 0:55:33.890 --> 0:55:35.379 read two because then. 0:55:36.960 --> 0:55:38.920 If I say I'll read two and then I only 0:55:38.980 --> 0:55:40.740 read one, people will get disappointed. But if I say 0:55:40.760 --> 0:55:42.589 I'll read one, then I decide, you know what, let's 0:55:42.620 --> 0:55:47.810 read two. Then it's a good thing. And then if 0:55:47.850 --> 0:55:49.650 I say I'll read one and then I only read one, 0:55:49.690 --> 0:55:56.609 then you deliver on your promise. I haven't been getting 0:55:56.650 --> 0:55:58.690 a lot of geck mails lately. If you sent me 0:55:58.910 --> 0:56:02.049 one at any time in the last... If you sent 0:56:02.090 --> 0:56:03.710 me one and it hasn't been read in the podcast, 0:56:04.030 --> 0:56:09.930 send it again. I've lost track of everything. It's therapygeckomail 0:56:10.830 --> 0:56:19.770 at gmail.com. It's therapygeckomail at gmail.com. 0:56:22.260 --> 0:56:22.640 Okay. 0:56:23.000 --> 0:56:34.710 Let's read one geck mail to end the show. Alright, 0:56:34.750 --> 0:56:38.700 this is from... This is from Texas. 0:56:41.020 --> 0:56:41.620 Hi, Gecko. 0:56:41.780 --> 0:56:44.700 I would like to be anonymous, so call me Texas. 0:56:45.980 --> 0:56:50.810 I believe I am an extrovert trapped in an introvert's body. 0:56:51.830 --> 0:56:55.610 As a kid, I was very outgoing and loud. I 0:56:55.630 --> 0:56:57.870 would get in trouble all the time in elementary school 0:56:57.910 --> 0:57:02.570 for talking too much or being hyper. All this changed 0:57:03.090 --> 0:57:06.820 when I moved to a new city in starting middle school. 0:57:07.380 --> 0:57:10.239 I was excited to move because this new city was 0:57:10.380 --> 0:57:14.400 bigger and seemed more fun, but my outgoing and talkative 0:57:14.520 --> 0:57:18.280 personality suddenly went away and I didn't understand why I 0:57:18.300 --> 0:57:20.419 couldn't just talk to people the way I used to. 0:57:20.440 --> 0:57:23.800 I had trouble making friends, and if I did make friends, 0:57:23.920 --> 0:57:27.340 it would not last very long. Eventually, I just gave 0:57:27.480 --> 0:57:31.360 up and spent the rest of my school years mainly alone. 0:57:32.270 --> 0:57:34.860 I am 22 now, And to this day, I want 0:57:34.900 --> 0:57:37.320 to talk to people. I have an interest in getting 0:57:37.360 --> 0:57:40.760 to know people who seem interesting or who like the 0:57:40.820 --> 0:57:43.790 same things I like. But when I want to talk, 0:57:43.970 --> 0:57:48.070 I feel the words won't come out. I've been diagnosed 0:57:48.150 --> 0:57:52.470 with social anxiety in the past. And I have gotten 0:57:52.670 --> 0:57:55.740 better at talking to people. But I am not where 0:57:55.780 --> 0:57:58.320 I want to be. I just wish I could be 0:57:58.380 --> 0:58:01.140 the same kid I used to be. I feel like 0:58:01.160 --> 0:58:03.530 that's what I was meant to be. Even if I 0:58:03.570 --> 0:58:07.370 was annoying, I don't care. Maybe my brain is trying 0:58:07.390 --> 0:58:12.890 to stop myself from being embarrassing. I miss being carefree 0:58:12.930 --> 0:58:16.170 and not freezing up to talk to people. Anyway, I 0:58:17.650 --> 0:58:20.870 love listening to your podcast. And it would be so 0:58:20.930 --> 0:58:28.260 cool if you read this. Live life, breathe air. Stay cool, Gak, Texas. Huh. 0:58:29.840 --> 0:58:30.100 Hmm. 0:58:31.660 --> 0:58:31.990 Hmm. Hmm. 0:58:33.140 --> 0:58:36.460 This is a tough one, Texas. Trying to think here. 0:58:39.740 --> 0:58:42.320 I've definitely dealt with an issue like that. I've definitely 0:58:42.340 --> 0:58:47.260 dealt with issues like this before. A hundred percent. Not 0:58:47.300 --> 0:58:49.180 so much of like, oh, I used to be this 0:58:49.260 --> 0:58:50.920 way and I don't know what happened to me. I mean, 0:58:50.940 --> 0:58:55.200 I've dealt with versions of that too, but like certain 0:58:55.320 --> 0:58:58.100 social situations I'll get into and I'll be like, what 0:58:58.120 --> 0:59:03.020 the fuck? I thought I knew how to exist. And 0:59:03.040 --> 0:59:05.550 it's not even that the social situation is that intimidating. 0:59:05.590 --> 0:59:09.010 It's just uncomfortable or unfamiliar. And I'm like, what the fuck? 0:59:09.030 --> 0:59:12.860 I thought I knew how to exist. What happened? I 0:59:12.920 --> 0:59:17.990 know how to exist. What's that Jacob... I cannot pronounce 0:59:18.030 --> 0:59:21.090 his last name. But it's that clip where he goes like, 0:59:21.590 --> 0:59:24.190 you are a regular guy. You can exist in a room. 0:59:24.910 --> 0:59:26.390 You know, I'm giving myself that speech. 0:59:27.710 --> 0:59:27.850 Um. 0:59:30.770 --> 0:59:34.710 I understand the frustration of this emailer, for sure. Of 0:59:34.750 --> 0:59:38.390 just being like, fuck, I know I'm... Why is my 0:59:38.750 --> 0:59:43.170 fucking body and... Why is my physical body acting in 0:59:43.290 --> 0:59:50.480 such incongruence with who I know myself to be? Down 0:59:50.500 --> 0:59:54.280 to my feelings. You know, I'm feeling nervous. I'm like, 0:59:54.300 --> 0:59:57.080 what the fuck? I don't get nervous. Why am I nervous? 0:59:58.000 --> 1:00:03.150 It's frustrating. Do I have a solution? Of course not. 1:00:03.590 --> 1:00:05.600 But... Maybe. 1:00:05.680 --> 1:00:07.160 I don't know. What's the solution? 1:00:08.920 --> 1:00:09.160 Hmm. 1:00:11.960 --> 1:00:17.240 Hmm. Your brain is trying to stop yourself from being embarrassing. 1:00:18.160 --> 1:00:21.169 Maybe it's a fucking... Let me reread this. 1:00:21.190 --> 1:00:27.690 Uh.... 1:00:25.030 --> 1:00:26.990 I gave up and spent the rest of my years alone. 1:00:27.090 --> 1:00:30.470 I had trouble... I'm 22 now, and to this day, 1:00:30.490 --> 1:00:32.190 I want to talk to people. I have an interest 1:00:32.230 --> 1:00:34.510 in getting to... You know what? I mean, it's... I 1:00:34.530 --> 1:00:39.410 don't know. I'm going to repeat the same thing that 1:00:39.450 --> 1:00:42.980 I've said. I've said it a million times on this show, 1:00:43.000 --> 1:00:45.120 but it's kind of the same answer. 1:00:45.560 --> 1:00:45.960 If I have. 1:00:46.020 --> 1:00:50.600 If I'm... If relating to the issue is not enough, 1:00:51.520 --> 1:00:53.820 and there needs to be some form of solution, I 1:00:53.840 --> 1:00:55.220 guess my form of solution would be the same one 1:00:55.240 --> 1:00:56.740 that I've been talking about for a while. 1:00:56.760 --> 1:00:57.220 Which is like. 1:00:59.530 --> 1:01:06.370 You're not comfortable. Whatever situation you're in, you're just not comfortable. 1:01:07.530 --> 1:01:15.380 And you build comfort by exposure over time. So you 1:01:15.410 --> 1:01:18.500 just need to find a community of people or a 1:01:18.540 --> 1:01:20.740 place to go and just show up. I've said a 1:01:21.080 --> 1:01:24.260 bunch of that. But find a community, a place to go, 1:01:24.380 --> 1:01:29.380 and just be there a lot. Just continue being there. 1:01:29.400 --> 1:01:34.200 Just continue physically being there. And then I think maybe 1:01:34.220 --> 1:01:37.610 your body has this thing where it's like recognizing that 1:01:37.630 --> 1:01:43.370 it's not comfortable. And then after extended exposure in a place, 1:01:44.350 --> 1:01:45.910 your body will start to be like, oh, I know 1:01:45.950 --> 1:01:49.770 this guy. I can talk to this guy. But when 1:01:49.790 --> 1:01:51.730 you're brand new and you're not, I mean, when you're 1:01:51.750 --> 1:01:56.860 brand new to a social situation, Then yeah, your body's 1:01:56.880 --> 1:01:58.320 going to be like, what the fuck? I don't know 1:01:58.360 --> 1:02:02.620 these people. And you're like, no, no, no. It's like 1:02:02.680 --> 1:02:06.180 your body is like a bouncer. And you're trying to 1:02:06.200 --> 1:02:07.950 tell your body, you're like, no, I'm cool. I'm on 1:02:07.990 --> 1:02:12.950 the list. And then the bouncer, your body is like, 1:02:13.490 --> 1:02:15.169 who do you know here? You don't know anyone here. 1:02:16.370 --> 1:02:17.970 And you're like, no, I'm cool. I'm on the list. 1:02:19.350 --> 1:02:21.160 And it doesn't matter. And that's the thing. Your body, 1:02:21.440 --> 1:02:26.560 the central nervous system is a dick bouncer. The central 1:02:26.600 --> 1:02:30.720 nervous system doesn't care that you're on the list. The 1:02:30.740 --> 1:02:33.000 central nervous system is like. You don't know anyone here. 1:02:34.050 --> 1:02:34.280 So. 1:02:36.290 --> 1:02:38.230 And you can't argue with the central nervous system. So 1:02:38.250 --> 1:02:39.970 I'm not even going to say some corny shit. I'm 1:02:39.990 --> 1:02:42.250 not even going to be like. Remember you're on the list. 1:02:42.270 --> 1:02:44.850 I'm just going to you know. Show up to the 1:02:44.870 --> 1:02:48.080 club a couple more times. Then the bouncer will be like. 1:02:48.240 --> 1:02:51.600 Oh Texas it's you. I know you come right on in. 1:02:52.740 --> 1:02:54.120 But you got to build that familiarity. 1:02:54.140 --> 1:02:54.220 Okay. 1:02:56.760 --> 1:02:59.390 Um, thanks for emailing about this, Texas. I hope that you, 1:02:59.410 --> 1:03:03.870 I hope you, I hope you find, um, I hope 1:03:03.890 --> 1:03:06.870 you develop enough comfortability. Cause that once you, cause you 1:03:06.890 --> 1:03:08.650 know how it goes, man, you get comfortable and then 1:03:08.670 --> 1:03:10.430 you're like, all right, I knew, I knew, I knew 1:03:11.470 --> 1:03:16.050 how to exist. I knew I was a real person. Um, 1:03:19.270 --> 1:03:24.950 that's it. That's, that's my, um, that's the last Geck 1:03:24.990 --> 1:03:29.410 mail I'll read. I like just doing the one. Send 1:03:29.450 --> 1:03:34.760 me a Gecko mail. TherapyGeckoMail at gmail.com. And that's it. 1:03:36.020 --> 1:03:38.720 I don't have anything else to say or do or be. 1:03:39.940 --> 1:03:43.400 And so I'm going to go. Thanks for listening to 1:03:43.420 --> 1:03:47.550 this podcast. And I'll see you guys on the next episode. 1:03:49.010 --> 1:03:49.510 Geck bless. 1:03:51.060 --> 1:03:51.460 Thank you.