Speaker 1: I jump awake. It's a Saturday morning and I've got
Speaker 1: my next therapy appointment today. I'm actually excited for it.
Speaker 1: I want to talk about the breakthrough I had in
Speaker 1: my meditation the other night. Mom makes breakfast bacon, eggs,
Speaker 1: home fries, and grits, the whole nine, and after we eat,
Speaker 1: that drives me over to the therapist office. So how
Speaker 1: are things telling the truth? Things are going really well.
Speaker 1: We almost didn't have an artist to interview this week,
Speaker 1: but I reached out to this rapper I met during
Speaker 1: my so called antic episode and she's open to being
Speaker 1: a guest when I Seeson finale. M hm. And how
Speaker 1: are things with your parents? It's getting much better? Come
Speaker 1: our punishment next week. My parents agreed to fall back
Speaker 1: a bit so that I can join Marco and Janella
Speaker 1: the Black Lives Matter A really good for you. It
Speaker 1: must be nice to have things back to normal. Yeah,
Speaker 1: that's how it feels like like things are really coming together.
Speaker 1: And I know that a big part of that is
Speaker 1: just me getting out of my own way. I had
Speaker 1: to let go up the pass and stop fearing the future.
Speaker 1: You know, there's no time like the president exactly. Honestly,
Speaker 1: I'm not trying to sound all deep, but I had
Speaker 1: a break tough meditate it. Oh you meditate. You haven't
Speaker 1: mentioned that to you before. Honestly, I could never even
Speaker 1: sit for ten minutes before. I don't exactly go around
Speaker 1: advertising it. I was inspired by stick from dead prayers.
Speaker 1: I started off meditating for just five minutes at a time,
Speaker 1: you know, as a way to manage anxiety. I always
Speaker 1: felt anty and ended up fixating on one train of
Speaker 1: thought or another. But the other night, it was wild.
Speaker 1: I was letting all these starts and feelings just well
Speaker 1: up and passed through me, and it was like I
Speaker 1: could feel pins and needles rising up through my body.
Speaker 1: It was like my my shockers were opening up. Ship.
Speaker 1: That sounds just like Janell. Wow, Wow, that does sound
Speaker 1: like quite a breakthrough. Does Janelle meditate too? You said
Speaker 1: she's into mindful as practices, right, Yeah, you should ask
Speaker 1: her to meditate with you. Maybe you can build up
Speaker 1: your sitting time together. So really good, I do. That's
Speaker 1: what I'm here for. We're going to talk about my
Speaker 1: anxiety and how it settled down over the last few weeks.
Speaker 1: But then he kind of warns me that dis floating
Speaker 1: on air filling can be a sign of hypomania. It's
Speaker 1: kind of a sort of high energy early stage of
Speaker 1: mania that feels really good and confidence boosting, bucking signal
Speaker 1: a coming episode. Considering my recent behavior, I should keep
Speaker 1: an eye on it and note if I feel too
Speaker 1: damn excited or distracted. If it's not one thing, it's another.
Speaker 1: But you know what, not even more diagnosis talk could
Speaker 1: get me down right now. I've been through the break
Speaker 1: now and I'm on the other side ship. I jump
Speaker 1: up in bed, drenched and sweat. I almost slept through
Speaker 1: my alarm. Today's the big day, the interview after school,
Speaker 1: and then the bl M rally tonight. I meant to
Speaker 1: go to good night's sleep, but I ended up staying
Speaker 1: awake until four ADM, prepping my questions and watching Elliott
Speaker 1: Wilson interviews. What was I dreaming about to have me
Speaker 1: waking in the panic attack, I don't even remember. It
Speaker 1: was some kind of searching dream I was lost in
Speaker 1: looking for my friends and family. Maybe he was about
Speaker 1: having feeling this past month. I leaped by the bed
Speaker 1: and start gathering my stuff for school. It text me
Speaker 1: a minutes even realized that I still did get up
Speaker 1: with my alarm. I'm not running late. I don't have
Speaker 1: to rush through all this. I sit in an upright
Speaker 1: position on my bed with my feet planning on the floor.
Speaker 1: I'm still I'll take a couple of deep rests. I
Speaker 1: inhale and make sure my stomach expands like I'm filling
Speaker 1: the bloom with air. And then I exhale and my
Speaker 1: stomach starts to expand like I'm deflating a balloon. I
Speaker 1: confront the anxiety attack head on and it begins to fade.
Speaker 1: But even as it recedes, I still feel frustrated with myself. Damn.
Speaker 1: This is what my therapist was talking about the other day, hypomania.
Speaker 1: I've been writing so high, I've been agitated, haven't been
Speaker 1: sleeping right, and now I'm waking up in cold sweats,
Speaker 1: and my lack of sleep has impacted me on my
Speaker 1: busiest day since well since viral villa him off balance
Speaker 1: on edge. My mood is starting to swing. It's exhilarating
Speaker 1: to stop and become aware of my mood and control
Speaker 1: my emotions so clearly cognitive behavioral therapy, my therapist calls it.
Speaker 1: But it's worrying in me too that this part of
Speaker 1: my potential bipolar diagnosis is fit the pattern of my
Speaker 1: recent behavior so well. Either way, I take another deep
Speaker 1: breath and remind myself that I don't have to worry
Speaker 1: about that, I don't have to pathologize my behavior. It's
Speaker 1: like when I went to the villa. On some level,
Speaker 1: I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I
Speaker 1: did it anyway and accepted the consequences. And even if
Speaker 1: it might have been a manic break it was a
Speaker 1: personal breakthrough for me too. Both things can be true.
Speaker 1: I have a level of confidence that I didn't have before.
Speaker 1: I know that my parents just wanted me to be
Speaker 1: honest with them, and my friends just wanted me to
Speaker 1: stay humble. Now that I've claimed my power, that's what
Speaker 1: I need to focus on, staying honest and humble. That
Speaker 1: and chugg an extra large coffee. I'm feeling more centered again.
Speaker 1: I head downstairs for breakfast and pounding that coffee, then
Speaker 1: make my way out of the house and down to
Speaker 1: the subway station and head to book a t. When
Speaker 1: I get to school and walk into the busy hallway,
Speaker 1: it's like a jot of adrenaline. All the energy of
Speaker 1: everybody bustling around wakes me up properly, even more than
Speaker 1: the coffee deal. This is the day Janelle and I
Speaker 1: present here comes to break is our class project to
Speaker 1: Audio Lab. I should have thought of that in my
Speaker 1: panic this morning. Keep your grades did. If you're trying
Speaker 1: to convince your parents that you got your life, figure
Speaker 1: it out. Keep your grades decent, and then they'll believe you.
Speaker 1: They'll believe me, I promise. I feel a pang of guilt,
Speaker 1: but it subsides quickly. The truth is this particular grade
Speaker 1: is for the podcast, and that's going great. I've got
Speaker 1: nothing to worry about. We're gonna kick ass. And that's
Speaker 1: exactly what we do. When we present to the class,
Speaker 1: we explained the podcast format, content business model. Class already
Speaker 1: knows the score. The word of the pot has been
Speaker 1: spreading around school for months now, but our teacher is
Speaker 1: very impressed. Our progress supports didn't go into details about
Speaker 1: our listenership. There were more about the technical side of things,
Speaker 1: so this is news to her. Then Janelle talks about
Speaker 1: our editorial stance, our questions about the artistic process, self care,
Speaker 1: and social activism, and she catches me by surprise by
Speaker 1: suggesting to the class that we're reaching the point of
Speaker 1: signing ad sponsors. That's a turnaround from last week. Shoot
Speaker 1: her an impressed glance, and she flashes me one of
Speaker 1: those winning smiles. After the presentation, the rest of the
Speaker 1: day flies by. When the final bell rings, Danilla and
Speaker 1: I meet up at the audio lab, and just like
Speaker 1: last week, Marco joins us with time left over before
Speaker 1: the interview starts Avengers as symbol. Damn, bro, do you
Speaker 1: even stay at school to the closing bell anymore? You
Speaker 1: got here fast? Do you really think that I would
Speaker 1: sacrifice my public school education to visit this booge institution
Speaker 1: you called school. I've got hometown broad Okay, we have
Speaker 1: a few minutes before we're supposed to be online with
Speaker 1: oom bus, so let's talk about these adds again. Settle
Speaker 1: into my chair behind the mic while Marco leans against
Speaker 1: the door. I'll just say it, you guys were right.
Speaker 1: I have a lot of ideas, and I was enthusiastic
Speaker 1: only about working with sponsors who prioritize the environment, the
Speaker 1: ship that really matters. However, I know we're just starting
Speaker 1: out and going the equal friendly route can be limiting.
Speaker 1: I was just thinking of the pod and the contents
Speaker 1: of the Class Project. Grooveen and I were doing focused
Speaker 1: on that ideal presentation. But the class project is done
Speaker 1: and we have to keep moving forward. Girl, you always
Speaker 1: say the right thing. I'm gonna get us a great
Speaker 1: sponsor and we'll incorporate the ads into all our existing episodes.
Speaker 1: We're blowing up. Damn the way Janelle is able to
Speaker 1: be so open minded and embrace change. I'm constantly overwhelmed
Speaker 1: by all the other ships I got going on. I
Speaker 1: make a mental note to ask relator about meditating together,
Speaker 1: like my therapist suggested, And just then a window lights
Speaker 1: up on Janell's can. Peter at the board ship looks
Speaker 1: like oops calling in early. Janelle turns around the face
Speaker 1: her workstation, and Marcop quiets down. I adjust my mic
Speaker 1: can get ready for our last interview of the season.
Speaker 1: Let's do this, okay? Bringing up online in three two one?
Speaker 1: So my first question is, in an industry that's constantly
Speaker 1: trying to define artists in your own words, can you
Speaker 1: tell our listeners who is? Oh is I am? The
Speaker 1: person is from Roxbury? I'm an artist, Auntie and sister
Speaker 1: a friend. I'm an artist, you know, I think it
Speaker 1: and feel it and I make it and I'm unafraid
Speaker 1: to do so I think that's who I am. Roll.
Speaker 1: But we only just met recently, but in my research,
Speaker 1: I know you from your work and poetry, slam poetry.
Speaker 1: Also I look at you like, I guess, like a
Speaker 1: community leader. Like when I think of artists from Boston,
Speaker 1: you're just one of those individuals that I can't say
Speaker 1: Boston art with. You know, what's your experiences like working
Speaker 1: with young people in the community. Oh yeah, So as
Speaker 1: long as I can remember, I had an affinity for
Speaker 1: working with young people. So like when I was a
Speaker 1: young person, I was still working with young people. I
Speaker 1: think I was like twelve something like that, eleven or twelve,
Speaker 1: and I had all the kids in my neighborhood in
Speaker 1: the playground, like teaching them how to box or teaching
Speaker 1: the math, and they just you know, like playing like
Speaker 1: school teacher, even as a young person. But it was
Speaker 1: a nice way for free babysitting essentially, so I think
Speaker 1: all the neighborhood moms appreciated it. And then when I
Speaker 1: got my first set of summer jobs in the city,
Speaker 1: they were all in youth and peer education. I think
Speaker 1: that the goal for my mom for a long time
Speaker 1: was that her kids would be eighteen. Like, I don't
Speaker 1: think we really knew like a future future situation um
Speaker 1: for ourselves. So it wasn't until I had this math
Speaker 1: teacher in high school and then an English teacher about
Speaker 1: tenth grade, and they really changed a lot for me
Speaker 1: because they were the first people, I think who said, yo,
Speaker 1: you could be something. You're very smart, you could be
Speaker 1: something to find something that you want to do and
Speaker 1: do it. And I was like, alright, cool, I don't
Speaker 1: really know what I want to do. I really like,
Speaker 1: you know, music, I really like poetry, but I didn't
Speaker 1: know that people like me make careers out of it.
Speaker 1: So it seems like you found it a little bit,
Speaker 1: you know, in the middle of your high school career. Um.
Speaker 1: What was it something from with him or maybe any
Speaker 1: outside influences that you gravitated towards to fund the strength? Yeah.
Speaker 1: I think honestly, the reason I stayed on the right
Speaker 1: path it was because I needed a place to stay
Speaker 1: at that time. So I stayed in college for that
Speaker 1: reason primarily. And the reason why I stayed I think there,
Speaker 1: why I did well and why I stayed alive was
Speaker 1: I just felt like there was something bigger for me,
Speaker 1: and that's something bigger. Was was was that art? Was
Speaker 1: that activism? Actually, how do you balance between art and activism?
Speaker 1: For my own sanity and my own piece. I haven't
Speaker 1: been looking at the news and keeping inside of my
Speaker 1: body the different names of black people who have been
Speaker 1: killed by white supremacy and law enforcement. I haven't been
Speaker 1: doing that, but it was really hard to not hear
Speaker 1: George Floyd's name. And then I watched from Dave Chappelle
Speaker 1: and at the end of that, I was like, man,
Speaker 1: what if the only way for us to be truly
Speaker 1: liberated as black people is to choose our own death
Speaker 1: and to choose it before somebody else chooses it for us.
Speaker 1: So that left me in this real crazy, just sad
Speaker 1: place of like do I want to be here? And
Speaker 1: then I was thinking, okay, my new deal for being here,
Speaker 1: my new deal with God for being here, Like I
Speaker 1: have to think about what it means for me to
Speaker 1: be here on this earth. And for me it became like,
Speaker 1: all right, I'm not going out to the protest. I'm
Speaker 1: not gonna be reactive to white supremacy like white supremacy
Speaker 1: does a thing. And now I have to protest. You know,
Speaker 1: I'm still on white supremacies time, and I don't want
Speaker 1: that for myself. So instead I was like, all right,
Speaker 1: the best thing for me to do is take care
Speaker 1: of the most central Black person, the most the person
Speaker 1: who I'm most responsible for, and that's myself, and finally
Speaker 1: focus on my healing, Finally focus on my spirituality, finally
Speaker 1: focus on being my authentic self and loving myself truly
Speaker 1: and even the people around me, loving my community which
Speaker 1: includes so many different kinds of people. But like, don't
Speaker 1: get it twisted. If the war needs to happen, you know,
Speaker 1: if I have to get my life to this thing,
Speaker 1: if that's where it has to go, I'm down for that.
Speaker 1: But in the meantime, like until we're ready to push
Speaker 1: that button, until that's ready to happen, I'm choosing peace,
Speaker 1: I'm choosing love, and I'm choosing my healing for myself
Speaker 1: and the people around me. That's what's gonna keep me
Speaker 1: on this earth. So many of us, for different reasons,
Speaker 1: live a whole life of service to everyone else and
Speaker 1: everything else, and then we end up at seventy five
Speaker 1: and all we did was give, and all we did
Speaker 1: was live for other people, and it's like, how do
Speaker 1: I take care of my people and keep liberation at
Speaker 1: the center while also not losing the opportunity to live
Speaker 1: my life and to live a life that I've been granted.
Speaker 1: Um so in in in striking that balance. How have
Speaker 1: you been taking care of yourself? Thank you for that question.
Speaker 1: I think I've been focusing a lot on I know
Speaker 1: I'm using air quotes now self care. Part of my
Speaker 1: rest is my morning routine. I get up every day,
Speaker 1: I go run, I take my time completely and at
Speaker 1: different times every day. I run, I make my bed,
Speaker 1: I drink, see, I meditate, I pray, I journal, I write.
Speaker 1: And part of my process has been like making sure
Speaker 1: that I'm put in creativity. It's a meeting of the
Speaker 1: body of the mind in the spirit. Like my body,
Speaker 1: I need to put it in the place so that
Speaker 1: I can do the work, like I can honor my craft.
Speaker 1: So every morning I work on my chat book and
Speaker 1: poetry because I like to write poems before the sun
Speaker 1: is up. Like that. That's your U, that's what up. Well.
Speaker 1: I know when you drop your new work, we and
Speaker 1: I know audience will be laiting. Thank you so much
Speaker 1: for taking this time to be with us. We'll be
Speaker 1: right back and now back to the show. And that's
Speaker 1: a wrap on season one. Holy Ship. That interview, that
Speaker 1: eat wow, I mean that was a dope interview. I
Speaker 1: have to admit Ruben's back on his game lately. I mean,
Speaker 1: he's really matured as an interviewer, even if he's completely
Speaker 1: on his bullshit with that running a waist on he bowled.
Speaker 1: This was our best interview yet, everything said about her
Speaker 1: existence being an active service. I just I really need
Speaker 1: to figure out my place in this movement. Do I march?
Speaker 1: Do I write letters to my local government and police station?
Speaker 1: Do I donate? It's really exhausting being woke or to
Speaker 1: care about more beyond yourself. I know we planned on
Speaker 1: attending the BLM rally today, but to be honest, I'm
Speaker 1: just I'm scared. I know Marco and Reuben will be
Speaker 1: joining me, but black girls aren't safe. I just can't
Speaker 1: stop thinking about Brianna Taylor. I mean, she was in
Speaker 1: the comfort of our own home and murdered. Maybe I
Speaker 1: should just follow this lad and stay home. Maybe my
Speaker 1: place isn't on the frontlines. Marco jumps off the studio
Speaker 1: lab do or He's been leaning on in chimes in
Speaker 1: did this dude just hear my thoughts? That was pretty
Speaker 1: spooky for this gus protests. Considering we're all about to
Speaker 1: go to a rally together. I feel my cheeks flush
Speaker 1: Suddenly I'm self conscious. Do you guys don't want to go?
Speaker 1: I mean, we don't have you know, I'm down. This
Speaker 1: is how I'm celebrating closing out this season. Remember, yeah,
Speaker 1: come on, Jay, you know you're the activists of the squad.
Speaker 1: Why are you being all weird? Now? Be happy? Mon
Speaker 1: g we just ended the season. Okay, I'm in. I'm in.
Speaker 1: They're enthusiasm is reassuring for a second, but I'm still afraid.
Speaker 1: It's been really tense in the city. It's our age
Speaker 1: have been arrested, ended up missing, or pepper sprayed during
Speaker 1: the marchis In protests. I can't back out now. I mean,
Speaker 1: I'm the one who convinced Reuben to pitch this to
Speaker 1: his parents, and Marco just always tags along. I feel
Speaker 1: like I'm kind of their mama or something. This is
Speaker 1: just a damn shame. Who's going to protect me? I'm
Speaker 1: the woman in the situation. These guys better have my
Speaker 1: back When something goes down tonight. We should get going.
Speaker 1: It's gonna take a while to get on. The train
Speaker 1: is at again h Fort Greene Park in Brooklyn. How
Speaker 1: are they going to rush to me? I'm still exporting
Speaker 1: the files from the recording session. Just give me a minute.
Speaker 1: The session is exporting. Reuben throws his hands up, like,
Speaker 1: all right, all right. I still can't wrap my head
Speaker 1: around it. And when I first met this kid, he
Speaker 1: was so timid. Then he completely wilds out, like out
Speaker 1: of nowhere. But even when I first met him, and
Speaker 1: he was so inside himself, he could tell there was
Speaker 1: a lot going on underneath the surface. That's why I
Speaker 1: called him over at lunch that day. They're the files
Speaker 1: are ready. I fire off the copy so all three
Speaker 1: of us can dig into the raw material later, and
Speaker 1: I closed out the pro tool session. Now y'all can relax.
Speaker 1: I'm ready. Now, we all gather up our backpacks and
Speaker 1: make our way out of book or Team. Soon we're
Speaker 1: on a train, and Reuben's right, it's a bit of
Speaker 1: a long rack to Brooklyn. Still, this is kind of
Speaker 1: like old times before Ruben's whole Villa drama, when we're
Speaker 1: going out to shows together, when we were all about
Speaker 1: the artists and the music. It was about logging in
Speaker 1: interviews and not ads from sponsors. Of course, Marco was
Speaker 1: on his phone promoting the season finale. He's always been
Speaker 1: his own best hype man. Reuben lost in his own
Speaker 1: head replaying the interview and critiquing himself. And then there's me.
Speaker 1: I need to figure out what's my future and all
Speaker 1: of this. Do I want to be more than a secretary?
Speaker 1: Do I always want to be behind the scenes. I
Speaker 1: want more. I have to decide which college I'm attending
Speaker 1: in the fall. Will it be Spellman Howard Columbia or
Speaker 1: Emmerson College in Boston. I still feel nervous about the rally,
Speaker 1: being out there on the front lines, but I'm also
Speaker 1: looking forward to tonight. It's important that we're showing solidarity
Speaker 1: for the black lives and just they lost. This isn't
Speaker 1: my first rally. Being out there in the streets with
Speaker 1: other protesters makes me feel electric. I remember when I
Speaker 1: returned home for my first rally. I was out there
Speaker 1: fighting for justice for tray Von Martin. I was so
Speaker 1: fired up, and to be so young. ILL never forget
Speaker 1: that feeling. I never stopped chasing that feeling I lost
Speaker 1: my voice by the time I got home after the
Speaker 1: March for Justice. But when Upa talked about needing to
Speaker 1: back away from all the news for healing and self care,
Speaker 1: I felt that we've been asking artists about their activism
Speaker 1: all season. But she talked about how her existence is
Speaker 1: an act of resistance. That just blew my mind. I
Speaker 1: turned to Reuben, are you thinking about the interview? That
Speaker 1: was insane? She got me reevaluating my entire life right.
Speaker 1: I'm just I'm speechless. When we get to the station,
Speaker 1: we hear the crowd noise growing as we run up
Speaker 1: the steps. On the far side of the park, there's
Speaker 1: a stand on someone using a megaphone, but it's nothing
Speaker 1: but a muffled noise from the end of the station.
Speaker 1: We make our way into the rally. Margaret puts his
Speaker 1: phone away for once and all three of us can
Speaker 1: the intense energy. I feel a rush of adrenaline. There's
Speaker 1: so many people gathering about, just enjoying the vibe. A
Speaker 1: drum circle jams over by the monument in the center
Speaker 1: valent here's a various activist groups handing up newsletters, bottled water,
Speaker 1: and signing up new folks. Of the cause. It's nothing
Speaker 1: like the news depicts. It's not chaotic, just alive. I
Speaker 1: look around the edges of the park and see rows
Speaker 1: of cops along the edges. I'm not gonna lie, it's
Speaker 1: it's alimidating. Isn't necessary for all these cops to be
Speaker 1: out here. There's plenty of space between them and the
Speaker 1: rally though, no signs of kettling the protesters or people
Speaker 1: throwing watterle bottles at them. I reassure myself that the
Speaker 1: energy is positive tonight. Yeah, I'm glad we came out. Yeah.
Speaker 1: I think a couple of my girls are going to
Speaker 1: meet us here. I'm just waiting to see if they
Speaker 1: text me. A group chance starts forming around us, and
Speaker 1: I see Reuben and get approached by a twenty something
Speaker 1: year old in a red T shirt with the clipboard.
Speaker 1: I glanced over at Markow when he's got his phone
Speaker 1: out again to taking video. I slip my phone out
Speaker 1: to check for text and see nothing. So I raised
Speaker 1: my fist, joining the chape and only last for a
Speaker 1: minute before some of the crowds starts speeding up and
Speaker 1: marching across the park. I look around for Reuben and
Speaker 1: Marco again, just if they want to follow the crowd
Speaker 1: or keep exploring the park. Marco emerged from the crowd,
Speaker 1: tucking his phone back in his pocket. Where's Reuben learned
Speaker 1: with that clipboard girl? If he has any sense? I
Speaker 1: look around and find the red shirt quick enough, But
Speaker 1: still no Ruben. Clipboard girl has moved on to chat
Speaker 1: with the middle aged white guy the goat cheap ship.
Speaker 1: Where the hell is he? Reuben? Marco sees clipboard girls too,
Speaker 1: Still no Reuben. J chill, he probably want to take
Speaker 1: a leak. We'll find him. Let's keep walking. I don't
Speaker 1: have a good feeling about this. A black kid alone,
Speaker 1: separated from his friends at the BLM protest. This it
Speaker 1: can't be good. I have to find him. If he
Speaker 1: doesn't REATO him home, his parents are going to freak
Speaker 1: out and never trust me again. He's gonna be grounded
Speaker 1: for life. What the hell he was just here? Did
Speaker 1: he follow the crowd? I turned a three sixties scanning
Speaker 1: for him, but nothing. What's going on in that boy's head?
Speaker 1: How am I supposed to find Ruben when he's wearing
Speaker 1: all black to Black Lives Matter March. Almost everyone is
Speaker 1: dressed in black here. I play a coolful Marco, but
Speaker 1: I can go a ball rising in my throat the
Speaker 1: worst case scenarios just starting to play out of my head.
Speaker 1: I pause, take a deep breath, don't for catch. You
Speaker 1: know everything's gonna be fine. But I can tell by
Speaker 1: the look at Marco's eyes he's concerned. To Reuben has
Speaker 1: been acting out so much. What if a cup approached
Speaker 1: him and he just snapped like the dude has a
Speaker 1: lot of pent up anger. Where the hell is he?
Speaker 1: I pick up my phone and I call him. His
Speaker 1: phone goes straight to worse Now shit Ruben Ruby and
Speaker 1: Now an exclusive track from UMPA featuring into Christopher Ow.
Speaker 1: I don't know, yeah, top down, let's just take a
Speaker 1: scenic round. Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, you like nature last
Speaker 1: I'm thin in the clown. They're calming down. We've got
Speaker 1: a long, wide row and leaving is all I know.
Speaker 1: Damn it. Don't speed through the night right slow right, slow,
Speaker 1: eyes closed signs to slow for my master. Go and
Speaker 1: go and go and go and go and go go.
Speaker 1: I gotta everything you're doing to make you digging on
Speaker 1: and how you be digging in my back like you're
Speaker 1: looking for feeling that you feeling in your grass. Every
Speaker 1: time I try to quit, you come with it. I'll relax.
Speaker 1: Need me another hit U buck fifty. I'm here and
Speaker 1: gas for She said it uge. You don't even have
Speaker 1: to ask for for girls said. We don't even need
Speaker 1: no passports. We could take a flight if you ain't
Speaker 1: afraid of heights where we're going on tonight, you don't
Speaker 1: need no boy, the mass you're don't know if I'm
Speaker 1: swimming now, don't know if I'm drawing to know. I
Speaker 1: know what's that I'm kicking. The notion is all around me.
Speaker 1: Tell me that she loved me. Boy, I know it's
Speaker 1: something bigger than cameras. Is gonna be quick and we'll
Speaker 1: see you in the bigger pictures. I don't know what
Speaker 1: to do. I know she want me calm with that
Speaker 1: so good. I'm forgetting that as wrong as it worth it.
Speaker 1: I know many work it, but I got a goal confessional.
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Speaker 1: Where You Wanting Here Comes to Break is produced by
Speaker 1: Double Elvis and partnership with I Heart Radio Executive produced
Speaker 1: by Deaf Jam Recordings Executive produced by and starring Asanti
Speaker 1: Black Is Ruben, Produced by Daniella Perkins who plays Janelle,
Speaker 1: Bobby cs Is Marco, Christopher V. Edwards as Dad, Raymie
Speaker 1: Cornell is Mom, and Taylor Bettenson. Written by Taylor Bettenson
Speaker 1: and the Kia Hill Artist Interviews conducted by Nikia Hill,
Speaker 1: directed by Christopher V. Edwards, mixed and edited by Matt
Speaker 1: Ta Hainey, Sound recording by Colin Fleming Music Elements and
Speaker 1: production by Ryan's Breaker. Additional production support by Jamie Demons.
Speaker 1: Executive produced by Jake Brennan and Grady Sadler for Double Elvis.
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Speaker 1: Jordan Garrellic United Talent Agency, Beck Comedian Marketing, Barack Moffatt
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