1 00:00:02,279 --> 00:00:05,080 Speaker 1: I jump awake. It's a Saturday morning and I've got 2 00:00:05,160 --> 00:00:08,920 Speaker 1: my next therapy appointment today. I'm actually excited for it. 3 00:00:09,280 --> 00:00:10,920 Speaker 1: I want to talk about the breakthrough I had in 4 00:00:10,960 --> 00:00:18,800 Speaker 1: my meditation the other night. Mom makes breakfast bacon, eggs, 5 00:00:18,840 --> 00:00:22,480 Speaker 1: home fries, and grits, the whole nine, and after we eat, 6 00:00:23,000 --> 00:00:28,080 Speaker 1: that drives me over to the therapist office. So how 7 00:00:28,120 --> 00:00:32,680 Speaker 1: are things telling the truth? Things are going really well. 8 00:00:33,360 --> 00:00:35,080 Speaker 1: We almost didn't have an artist to interview this week, 9 00:00:35,120 --> 00:00:36,760 Speaker 1: but I reached out to this rapper I met during 10 00:00:36,800 --> 00:00:40,040 Speaker 1: my so called antic episode and she's open to being 11 00:00:40,040 --> 00:00:43,279 Speaker 1: a guest when I Seeson finale. M hm. And how 12 00:00:43,320 --> 00:00:47,400 Speaker 1: are things with your parents? It's getting much better? Come 13 00:00:47,440 --> 00:00:50,479 Speaker 1: our punishment next week. My parents agreed to fall back 14 00:00:50,520 --> 00:00:52,240 Speaker 1: a bit so that I can join Marco and Janella 15 00:00:52,280 --> 00:00:54,600 Speaker 1: the Black Lives Matter A really good for you. It 16 00:00:54,720 --> 00:00:57,120 Speaker 1: must be nice to have things back to normal. Yeah, 17 00:00:58,120 --> 00:01:01,520 Speaker 1: that's how it feels like like things are really coming together. 18 00:01:02,160 --> 00:01:03,520 Speaker 1: And I know that a big part of that is 19 00:01:03,560 --> 00:01:06,440 Speaker 1: just me getting out of my own way. I had 20 00:01:06,480 --> 00:01:08,440 Speaker 1: to let go up the pass and stop fearing the future. 21 00:01:08,840 --> 00:01:12,760 Speaker 1: You know, there's no time like the president exactly. Honestly, 22 00:01:13,000 --> 00:01:14,880 Speaker 1: I'm not trying to sound all deep, but I had 23 00:01:14,880 --> 00:01:17,640 Speaker 1: a break tough meditate it. Oh you meditate. You haven't 24 00:01:17,640 --> 00:01:20,800 Speaker 1: mentioned that to you before. Honestly, I could never even 25 00:01:20,840 --> 00:01:23,399 Speaker 1: sit for ten minutes before. I don't exactly go around 26 00:01:23,400 --> 00:01:26,319 Speaker 1: advertising it. I was inspired by stick from dead prayers. 27 00:01:27,280 --> 00:01:29,759 Speaker 1: I started off meditating for just five minutes at a time, 28 00:01:30,200 --> 00:01:32,839 Speaker 1: you know, as a way to manage anxiety. I always 29 00:01:32,840 --> 00:01:35,480 Speaker 1: felt anty and ended up fixating on one train of 30 00:01:35,520 --> 00:01:38,520 Speaker 1: thought or another. But the other night, it was wild. 31 00:01:39,160 --> 00:01:41,000 Speaker 1: I was letting all these starts and feelings just well 32 00:01:41,080 --> 00:01:42,920 Speaker 1: up and passed through me, and it was like I 33 00:01:42,920 --> 00:01:45,119 Speaker 1: could feel pins and needles rising up through my body. 34 00:01:46,200 --> 00:01:51,440 Speaker 1: It was like my my shockers were opening up. Ship. 35 00:01:51,560 --> 00:01:55,160 Speaker 1: That sounds just like Janell. Wow, Wow, that does sound 36 00:01:55,200 --> 00:01:59,000 Speaker 1: like quite a breakthrough. Does Janelle meditate too? You said 37 00:01:59,080 --> 00:02:02,600 Speaker 1: she's into mindful as practices, right, Yeah, you should ask 38 00:02:02,640 --> 00:02:04,760 Speaker 1: her to meditate with you. Maybe you can build up 39 00:02:04,800 --> 00:02:08,040 Speaker 1: your sitting time together. So really good, I do. That's 40 00:02:08,040 --> 00:02:11,120 Speaker 1: what I'm here for. We're going to talk about my 41 00:02:11,160 --> 00:02:13,519 Speaker 1: anxiety and how it settled down over the last few weeks. 42 00:02:14,000 --> 00:02:15,840 Speaker 1: But then he kind of warns me that dis floating 43 00:02:15,840 --> 00:02:19,000 Speaker 1: on air filling can be a sign of hypomania. It's 44 00:02:19,080 --> 00:02:22,160 Speaker 1: kind of a sort of high energy early stage of 45 00:02:22,200 --> 00:02:26,000 Speaker 1: mania that feels really good and confidence boosting, bucking signal 46 00:02:26,000 --> 00:02:30,960 Speaker 1: a coming episode. Considering my recent behavior, I should keep 47 00:02:30,960 --> 00:02:32,639 Speaker 1: an eye on it and note if I feel too 48 00:02:32,680 --> 00:02:37,200 Speaker 1: damn excited or distracted. If it's not one thing, it's another. 49 00:02:38,040 --> 00:02:40,919 Speaker 1: But you know what, not even more diagnosis talk could 50 00:02:40,960 --> 00:02:43,360 Speaker 1: get me down right now. I've been through the break 51 00:02:43,400 --> 00:03:06,919 Speaker 1: now and I'm on the other side ship. I jump 52 00:03:07,000 --> 00:03:09,520 Speaker 1: up in bed, drenched and sweat. I almost slept through 53 00:03:09,560 --> 00:03:13,040 Speaker 1: my alarm. Today's the big day, the interview after school, 54 00:03:13,080 --> 00:03:15,280 Speaker 1: and then the bl M rally tonight. I meant to 55 00:03:15,280 --> 00:03:16,920 Speaker 1: go to good night's sleep, but I ended up staying 56 00:03:16,919 --> 00:03:19,640 Speaker 1: awake until four ADM, prepping my questions and watching Elliott 57 00:03:19,639 --> 00:03:22,240 Speaker 1: Wilson interviews. What was I dreaming about to have me 58 00:03:22,280 --> 00:03:25,480 Speaker 1: waking in the panic attack, I don't even remember. It 59 00:03:25,560 --> 00:03:28,679 Speaker 1: was some kind of searching dream I was lost in 60 00:03:29,080 --> 00:03:31,919 Speaker 1: looking for my friends and family. Maybe he was about 61 00:03:31,919 --> 00:03:34,720 Speaker 1: having feeling this past month. I leaped by the bed 62 00:03:34,800 --> 00:03:37,560 Speaker 1: and start gathering my stuff for school. It text me 63 00:03:37,600 --> 00:03:40,640 Speaker 1: a minutes even realized that I still did get up 64 00:03:40,640 --> 00:03:45,680 Speaker 1: with my alarm. I'm not running late. I don't have 65 00:03:45,720 --> 00:03:53,880 Speaker 1: to rush through all this. I sit in an upright 66 00:03:53,880 --> 00:03:56,280 Speaker 1: position on my bed with my feet planning on the floor. 67 00:03:57,280 --> 00:04:05,440 Speaker 1: I'm still I'll take a couple of deep rests. I 68 00:04:05,520 --> 00:04:07,880 Speaker 1: inhale and make sure my stomach expands like I'm filling 69 00:04:07,880 --> 00:04:10,960 Speaker 1: the bloom with air. And then I exhale and my 70 00:04:11,000 --> 00:04:14,280 Speaker 1: stomach starts to expand like I'm deflating a balloon. I 71 00:04:14,400 --> 00:04:17,920 Speaker 1: confront the anxiety attack head on and it begins to fade. 72 00:04:18,440 --> 00:04:23,520 Speaker 1: But even as it recedes, I still feel frustrated with myself. Damn. 73 00:04:23,880 --> 00:04:28,000 Speaker 1: This is what my therapist was talking about the other day, hypomania. 74 00:04:28,600 --> 00:04:31,480 Speaker 1: I've been writing so high, I've been agitated, haven't been 75 00:04:31,480 --> 00:04:35,040 Speaker 1: sleeping right, and now I'm waking up in cold sweats, 76 00:04:35,240 --> 00:04:36,960 Speaker 1: and my lack of sleep has impacted me on my 77 00:04:37,040 --> 00:04:42,160 Speaker 1: busiest day since well since viral villa him off balance 78 00:04:42,839 --> 00:04:46,560 Speaker 1: on edge. My mood is starting to swing. It's exhilarating 79 00:04:46,560 --> 00:04:48,240 Speaker 1: to stop and become aware of my mood and control 80 00:04:48,279 --> 00:04:52,600 Speaker 1: my emotions so clearly cognitive behavioral therapy, my therapist calls it. 81 00:04:53,400 --> 00:04:55,720 Speaker 1: But it's worrying in me too that this part of 82 00:04:55,760 --> 00:04:58,680 Speaker 1: my potential bipolar diagnosis is fit the pattern of my 83 00:04:58,720 --> 00:05:04,200 Speaker 1: recent behavior so well. Either way, I take another deep 84 00:05:04,200 --> 00:05:06,040 Speaker 1: breath and remind myself that I don't have to worry 85 00:05:06,040 --> 00:05:10,839 Speaker 1: about that, I don't have to pathologize my behavior. It's 86 00:05:10,880 --> 00:05:13,040 Speaker 1: like when I went to the villa. On some level, 87 00:05:13,080 --> 00:05:15,160 Speaker 1: I knew what I was doing was wrong, but I 88 00:05:15,200 --> 00:05:18,760 Speaker 1: did it anyway and accepted the consequences. And even if 89 00:05:18,800 --> 00:05:20,480 Speaker 1: it might have been a manic break it was a 90 00:05:20,520 --> 00:05:23,719 Speaker 1: personal breakthrough for me too. Both things can be true. 91 00:05:24,160 --> 00:05:26,200 Speaker 1: I have a level of confidence that I didn't have before. 92 00:05:27,120 --> 00:05:28,599 Speaker 1: I know that my parents just wanted me to be 93 00:05:28,640 --> 00:05:30,800 Speaker 1: honest with them, and my friends just wanted me to 94 00:05:30,800 --> 00:05:34,200 Speaker 1: stay humble. Now that I've claimed my power, that's what 95 00:05:34,279 --> 00:05:39,800 Speaker 1: I need to focus on, staying honest and humble. That 96 00:05:40,160 --> 00:05:57,159 Speaker 1: and chugg an extra large coffee. I'm feeling more centered again. 97 00:05:57,800 --> 00:06:00,520 Speaker 1: I head downstairs for breakfast and pounding that coffee, then 98 00:06:00,560 --> 00:06:02,000 Speaker 1: make my way out of the house and down to 99 00:06:02,040 --> 00:06:04,680 Speaker 1: the subway station and head to book a t. When 100 00:06:04,680 --> 00:06:07,000 Speaker 1: I get to school and walk into the busy hallway, 101 00:06:07,360 --> 00:06:09,880 Speaker 1: it's like a jot of adrenaline. All the energy of 102 00:06:09,920 --> 00:06:13,040 Speaker 1: everybody bustling around wakes me up properly, even more than 103 00:06:13,040 --> 00:06:15,800 Speaker 1: the coffee deal. This is the day Janelle and I 104 00:06:15,920 --> 00:06:17,960 Speaker 1: present here comes to break is our class project to 105 00:06:18,000 --> 00:06:20,320 Speaker 1: Audio Lab. I should have thought of that in my 106 00:06:20,320 --> 00:06:23,000 Speaker 1: panic this morning. Keep your grades did. If you're trying 107 00:06:23,000 --> 00:06:26,000 Speaker 1: to convince your parents that you got your life, figure 108 00:06:26,000 --> 00:06:30,960 Speaker 1: it out. Keep your grades decent, and then they'll believe you. 109 00:06:31,040 --> 00:06:34,080 Speaker 1: They'll believe me, I promise. I feel a pang of guilt, 110 00:06:34,760 --> 00:06:39,080 Speaker 1: but it subsides quickly. The truth is this particular grade 111 00:06:39,400 --> 00:06:43,400 Speaker 1: is for the podcast, and that's going great. I've got 112 00:06:43,440 --> 00:06:47,200 Speaker 1: nothing to worry about. We're gonna kick ass. And that's 113 00:06:47,240 --> 00:06:51,360 Speaker 1: exactly what we do. When we present to the class, 114 00:06:51,760 --> 00:06:56,240 Speaker 1: we explained the podcast format, content business model. Class already 115 00:06:56,240 --> 00:06:58,400 Speaker 1: knows the score. The word of the pot has been 116 00:06:58,400 --> 00:07:01,279 Speaker 1: spreading around school for months now, but our teacher is 117 00:07:01,440 --> 00:07:04,800 Speaker 1: very impressed. Our progress supports didn't go into details about 118 00:07:04,800 --> 00:07:08,200 Speaker 1: our listenership. There were more about the technical side of things, 119 00:07:08,279 --> 00:07:12,400 Speaker 1: so this is news to her. Then Janelle talks about 120 00:07:12,400 --> 00:07:16,680 Speaker 1: our editorial stance, our questions about the artistic process, self care, 121 00:07:16,800 --> 00:07:19,920 Speaker 1: and social activism, and she catches me by surprise by 122 00:07:19,920 --> 00:07:21,680 Speaker 1: suggesting to the class that we're reaching the point of 123 00:07:21,680 --> 00:07:26,280 Speaker 1: signing ad sponsors. That's a turnaround from last week. Shoot 124 00:07:26,280 --> 00:07:28,240 Speaker 1: her an impressed glance, and she flashes me one of 125 00:07:28,280 --> 00:07:34,720 Speaker 1: those winning smiles. After the presentation, the rest of the 126 00:07:34,800 --> 00:07:37,840 Speaker 1: day flies by. When the final bell rings, Danilla and 127 00:07:37,840 --> 00:07:39,520 Speaker 1: I meet up at the audio lab, and just like 128 00:07:39,600 --> 00:07:42,040 Speaker 1: last week, Marco joins us with time left over before 129 00:07:42,080 --> 00:07:50,320 Speaker 1: the interview starts Avengers as symbol. Damn, bro, do you 130 00:07:50,400 --> 00:07:53,000 Speaker 1: even stay at school to the closing bell anymore? You 131 00:07:53,080 --> 00:07:55,280 Speaker 1: got here fast? Do you really think that I would 132 00:07:55,280 --> 00:07:58,440 Speaker 1: sacrifice my public school education to visit this booge institution 133 00:07:58,520 --> 00:08:02,800 Speaker 1: you called school. I've got hometown broad Okay, we have 134 00:08:02,840 --> 00:08:04,680 Speaker 1: a few minutes before we're supposed to be online with 135 00:08:04,720 --> 00:08:08,360 Speaker 1: oom bus, so let's talk about these adds again. Settle 136 00:08:08,440 --> 00:08:10,760 Speaker 1: into my chair behind the mic while Marco leans against 137 00:08:10,760 --> 00:08:14,520 Speaker 1: the door. I'll just say it, you guys were right. 138 00:08:15,000 --> 00:08:17,360 Speaker 1: I have a lot of ideas, and I was enthusiastic 139 00:08:17,440 --> 00:08:21,000 Speaker 1: only about working with sponsors who prioritize the environment, the 140 00:08:21,040 --> 00:08:24,280 Speaker 1: ship that really matters. However, I know we're just starting 141 00:08:24,280 --> 00:08:26,560 Speaker 1: out and going the equal friendly route can be limiting. 142 00:08:26,880 --> 00:08:28,640 Speaker 1: I was just thinking of the pod and the contents 143 00:08:28,640 --> 00:08:31,200 Speaker 1: of the Class Project. Grooveen and I were doing focused 144 00:08:31,200 --> 00:08:34,719 Speaker 1: on that ideal presentation. But the class project is done 145 00:08:34,720 --> 00:08:37,960 Speaker 1: and we have to keep moving forward. Girl, you always 146 00:08:37,960 --> 00:08:40,320 Speaker 1: say the right thing. I'm gonna get us a great 147 00:08:40,360 --> 00:08:43,479 Speaker 1: sponsor and we'll incorporate the ads into all our existing episodes. 148 00:08:43,920 --> 00:08:47,480 Speaker 1: We're blowing up. Damn the way Janelle is able to 149 00:08:47,480 --> 00:08:51,560 Speaker 1: be so open minded and embrace change. I'm constantly overwhelmed 150 00:08:51,600 --> 00:08:53,640 Speaker 1: by all the other ships I got going on. I 151 00:08:53,720 --> 00:08:56,200 Speaker 1: make a mental note to ask relator about meditating together, 152 00:08:56,240 --> 00:08:59,240 Speaker 1: like my therapist suggested, And just then a window lights 153 00:08:59,280 --> 00:09:02,439 Speaker 1: up on Janell's can. Peter at the board ship looks 154 00:09:02,440 --> 00:09:05,240 Speaker 1: like oops calling in early. Janelle turns around the face 155 00:09:05,280 --> 00:09:08,440 Speaker 1: her workstation, and Marcop quiets down. I adjust my mic 156 00:09:08,480 --> 00:09:10,440 Speaker 1: can get ready for our last interview of the season. 157 00:09:11,240 --> 00:09:18,760 Speaker 1: Let's do this, okay? Bringing up online in three two one? 158 00:09:22,360 --> 00:09:25,240 Speaker 1: So my first question is, in an industry that's constantly 159 00:09:25,240 --> 00:09:27,920 Speaker 1: trying to define artists in your own words, can you 160 00:09:27,960 --> 00:09:32,240 Speaker 1: tell our listeners who is? Oh is I am? The 161 00:09:32,280 --> 00:09:36,720 Speaker 1: person is from Roxbury? I'm an artist, Auntie and sister 162 00:09:37,080 --> 00:09:40,200 Speaker 1: a friend. I'm an artist, you know, I think it 163 00:09:40,240 --> 00:09:42,680 Speaker 1: and feel it and I make it and I'm unafraid 164 00:09:42,720 --> 00:09:45,839 Speaker 1: to do so I think that's who I am. Roll. 165 00:09:46,120 --> 00:09:48,200 Speaker 1: But we only just met recently, but in my research, 166 00:09:48,240 --> 00:09:50,800 Speaker 1: I know you from your work and poetry, slam poetry. 167 00:09:51,480 --> 00:09:54,200 Speaker 1: Also I look at you like, I guess, like a 168 00:09:54,240 --> 00:09:56,800 Speaker 1: community leader. Like when I think of artists from Boston, 169 00:09:57,280 --> 00:09:59,200 Speaker 1: you're just one of those individuals that I can't say 170 00:09:59,200 --> 00:10:02,839 Speaker 1: Boston art with. You know, what's your experiences like working 171 00:10:02,880 --> 00:10:04,880 Speaker 1: with young people in the community. Oh yeah, So as 172 00:10:04,920 --> 00:10:07,720 Speaker 1: long as I can remember, I had an affinity for 173 00:10:07,760 --> 00:10:10,000 Speaker 1: working with young people. So like when I was a 174 00:10:10,000 --> 00:10:11,840 Speaker 1: young person, I was still working with young people. I 175 00:10:11,840 --> 00:10:15,240 Speaker 1: think I was like twelve something like that, eleven or twelve, 176 00:10:15,280 --> 00:10:17,160 Speaker 1: and I had all the kids in my neighborhood in 177 00:10:17,200 --> 00:10:20,280 Speaker 1: the playground, like teaching them how to box or teaching 178 00:10:20,280 --> 00:10:22,080 Speaker 1: the math, and they just you know, like playing like 179 00:10:22,200 --> 00:10:24,599 Speaker 1: school teacher, even as a young person. But it was 180 00:10:24,640 --> 00:10:28,120 Speaker 1: a nice way for free babysitting essentially, so I think 181 00:10:28,120 --> 00:10:31,320 Speaker 1: all the neighborhood moms appreciated it. And then when I 182 00:10:31,360 --> 00:10:33,760 Speaker 1: got my first set of summer jobs in the city, 183 00:10:34,040 --> 00:10:37,719 Speaker 1: they were all in youth and peer education. I think 184 00:10:37,760 --> 00:10:39,439 Speaker 1: that the goal for my mom for a long time 185 00:10:39,559 --> 00:10:41,880 Speaker 1: was that her kids would be eighteen. Like, I don't 186 00:10:41,920 --> 00:10:46,079 Speaker 1: think we really knew like a future future situation um 187 00:10:46,120 --> 00:10:48,760 Speaker 1: for ourselves. So it wasn't until I had this math 188 00:10:48,800 --> 00:10:51,679 Speaker 1: teacher in high school and then an English teacher about 189 00:10:51,679 --> 00:10:54,880 Speaker 1: tenth grade, and they really changed a lot for me 190 00:10:54,960 --> 00:10:57,679 Speaker 1: because they were the first people, I think who said, yo, 191 00:10:57,800 --> 00:10:59,920 Speaker 1: you could be something. You're very smart, you could be 192 00:11:00,200 --> 00:11:02,280 Speaker 1: something to find something that you want to do and 193 00:11:02,320 --> 00:11:04,000 Speaker 1: do it. And I was like, alright, cool, I don't 194 00:11:04,000 --> 00:11:05,760 Speaker 1: really know what I want to do. I really like, 195 00:11:05,920 --> 00:11:08,439 Speaker 1: you know, music, I really like poetry, but I didn't 196 00:11:08,440 --> 00:11:10,800 Speaker 1: know that people like me make careers out of it. 197 00:11:11,400 --> 00:11:12,880 Speaker 1: So it seems like you found it a little bit, 198 00:11:12,920 --> 00:11:16,360 Speaker 1: you know, in the middle of your high school career. Um. 199 00:11:16,880 --> 00:11:19,600 Speaker 1: What was it something from with him or maybe any 200 00:11:19,640 --> 00:11:22,960 Speaker 1: outside influences that you gravitated towards to fund the strength? Yeah. 201 00:11:23,080 --> 00:11:25,480 Speaker 1: I think honestly, the reason I stayed on the right 202 00:11:25,480 --> 00:11:27,319 Speaker 1: path it was because I needed a place to stay 203 00:11:27,679 --> 00:11:29,840 Speaker 1: at that time. So I stayed in college for that 204 00:11:29,920 --> 00:11:33,319 Speaker 1: reason primarily. And the reason why I stayed I think there, 205 00:11:33,440 --> 00:11:36,080 Speaker 1: why I did well and why I stayed alive was 206 00:11:36,120 --> 00:11:38,240 Speaker 1: I just felt like there was something bigger for me, 207 00:11:38,480 --> 00:11:40,959 Speaker 1: and that's something bigger. Was was was that art? Was 208 00:11:41,080 --> 00:11:45,920 Speaker 1: that activism? Actually, how do you balance between art and activism? 209 00:11:46,080 --> 00:11:48,560 Speaker 1: For my own sanity and my own piece. I haven't 210 00:11:48,640 --> 00:11:51,440 Speaker 1: been looking at the news and keeping inside of my 211 00:11:51,520 --> 00:11:53,600 Speaker 1: body the different names of black people who have been 212 00:11:53,640 --> 00:11:56,559 Speaker 1: killed by white supremacy and law enforcement. I haven't been 213 00:11:56,600 --> 00:11:58,679 Speaker 1: doing that, but it was really hard to not hear 214 00:11:58,720 --> 00:12:03,040 Speaker 1: George Floyd's name. And then I watched from Dave Chappelle 215 00:12:03,280 --> 00:12:05,320 Speaker 1: and at the end of that, I was like, man, 216 00:12:05,920 --> 00:12:08,280 Speaker 1: what if the only way for us to be truly 217 00:12:08,320 --> 00:12:10,920 Speaker 1: liberated as black people is to choose our own death 218 00:12:11,000 --> 00:12:13,280 Speaker 1: and to choose it before somebody else chooses it for us. 219 00:12:13,640 --> 00:12:16,559 Speaker 1: So that left me in this real crazy, just sad 220 00:12:16,679 --> 00:12:19,160 Speaker 1: place of like do I want to be here? And 221 00:12:19,200 --> 00:12:22,719 Speaker 1: then I was thinking, okay, my new deal for being here, 222 00:12:22,760 --> 00:12:25,320 Speaker 1: my new deal with God for being here, Like I 223 00:12:25,360 --> 00:12:27,600 Speaker 1: have to think about what it means for me to 224 00:12:27,720 --> 00:12:30,760 Speaker 1: be here on this earth. And for me it became like, 225 00:12:31,160 --> 00:12:33,480 Speaker 1: all right, I'm not going out to the protest. I'm 226 00:12:33,480 --> 00:12:36,400 Speaker 1: not gonna be reactive to white supremacy like white supremacy 227 00:12:36,440 --> 00:12:38,640 Speaker 1: does a thing. And now I have to protest. You know, 228 00:12:38,640 --> 00:12:40,840 Speaker 1: I'm still on white supremacies time, and I don't want 229 00:12:40,880 --> 00:12:43,600 Speaker 1: that for myself. So instead I was like, all right, 230 00:12:43,840 --> 00:12:45,439 Speaker 1: the best thing for me to do is take care 231 00:12:45,440 --> 00:12:48,240 Speaker 1: of the most central Black person, the most the person 232 00:12:48,280 --> 00:12:52,080 Speaker 1: who I'm most responsible for, and that's myself, and finally 233 00:12:52,120 --> 00:12:55,840 Speaker 1: focus on my healing, Finally focus on my spirituality, finally 234 00:12:55,880 --> 00:12:59,319 Speaker 1: focus on being my authentic self and loving myself truly 235 00:12:59,640 --> 00:13:01,920 Speaker 1: and even the people around me, loving my community which 236 00:13:01,960 --> 00:13:04,560 Speaker 1: includes so many different kinds of people. But like, don't 237 00:13:04,559 --> 00:13:07,040 Speaker 1: get it twisted. If the war needs to happen, you know, 238 00:13:07,080 --> 00:13:08,480 Speaker 1: if I have to get my life to this thing, 239 00:13:08,559 --> 00:13:10,480 Speaker 1: if that's where it has to go, I'm down for that. 240 00:13:10,520 --> 00:13:13,640 Speaker 1: But in the meantime, like until we're ready to push 241 00:13:13,640 --> 00:13:16,040 Speaker 1: that button, until that's ready to happen, I'm choosing peace, 242 00:13:16,040 --> 00:13:18,240 Speaker 1: I'm choosing love, and I'm choosing my healing for myself 243 00:13:18,280 --> 00:13:20,200 Speaker 1: and the people around me. That's what's gonna keep me 244 00:13:20,240 --> 00:13:26,080 Speaker 1: on this earth. So many of us, for different reasons, 245 00:13:26,600 --> 00:13:29,560 Speaker 1: live a whole life of service to everyone else and 246 00:13:29,600 --> 00:13:32,680 Speaker 1: everything else, and then we end up at seventy five 247 00:13:32,720 --> 00:13:35,080 Speaker 1: and all we did was give, and all we did 248 00:13:35,240 --> 00:13:37,960 Speaker 1: was live for other people, and it's like, how do 249 00:13:38,080 --> 00:13:40,520 Speaker 1: I take care of my people and keep liberation at 250 00:13:40,559 --> 00:13:44,199 Speaker 1: the center while also not losing the opportunity to live 251 00:13:44,280 --> 00:13:47,000 Speaker 1: my life and to live a life that I've been granted. 252 00:13:49,679 --> 00:13:53,440 Speaker 1: Um so in in in striking that balance. How have 253 00:13:53,520 --> 00:13:55,920 Speaker 1: you been taking care of yourself? Thank you for that question. 254 00:13:56,120 --> 00:13:58,320 Speaker 1: I think I've been focusing a lot on I know 255 00:13:58,360 --> 00:14:00,720 Speaker 1: I'm using air quotes now self care. Part of my 256 00:14:00,840 --> 00:14:03,600 Speaker 1: rest is my morning routine. I get up every day, 257 00:14:04,000 --> 00:14:07,000 Speaker 1: I go run, I take my time completely and at 258 00:14:07,000 --> 00:14:09,240 Speaker 1: different times every day. I run, I make my bed, 259 00:14:09,559 --> 00:14:13,520 Speaker 1: I drink, see, I meditate, I pray, I journal, I write. 260 00:14:13,840 --> 00:14:16,880 Speaker 1: And part of my process has been like making sure 261 00:14:16,920 --> 00:14:19,400 Speaker 1: that I'm put in creativity. It's a meeting of the 262 00:14:19,440 --> 00:14:21,040 Speaker 1: body of the mind in the spirit. Like my body, 263 00:14:21,080 --> 00:14:22,680 Speaker 1: I need to put it in the place so that 264 00:14:22,880 --> 00:14:24,800 Speaker 1: I can do the work, like I can honor my craft. 265 00:14:24,840 --> 00:14:27,680 Speaker 1: So every morning I work on my chat book and 266 00:14:27,720 --> 00:14:30,480 Speaker 1: poetry because I like to write poems before the sun 267 00:14:30,560 --> 00:14:33,760 Speaker 1: is up. Like that. That's your U, that's what up. Well. 268 00:14:33,920 --> 00:14:35,800 Speaker 1: I know when you drop your new work, we and 269 00:14:35,920 --> 00:14:39,120 Speaker 1: I know audience will be laiting. Thank you so much 270 00:14:39,120 --> 00:14:42,920 Speaker 1: for taking this time to be with us. We'll be 271 00:14:43,040 --> 00:14:55,120 Speaker 1: right back and now back to the show. And that's 272 00:14:55,120 --> 00:14:58,600 Speaker 1: a wrap on season one. Holy Ship. That interview, that 273 00:14:59,680 --> 00:15:04,760 Speaker 1: eat wow, I mean that was a dope interview. I 274 00:15:04,800 --> 00:15:07,600 Speaker 1: have to admit Ruben's back on his game lately. I mean, 275 00:15:07,640 --> 00:15:10,400 Speaker 1: he's really matured as an interviewer, even if he's completely 276 00:15:10,480 --> 00:15:12,520 Speaker 1: on his bullshit with that running a waist on he bowled. 277 00:15:13,200 --> 00:15:16,400 Speaker 1: This was our best interview yet, everything said about her 278 00:15:16,440 --> 00:15:19,960 Speaker 1: existence being an active service. I just I really need 279 00:15:20,000 --> 00:15:22,000 Speaker 1: to figure out my place in this movement. Do I march? 280 00:15:22,160 --> 00:15:24,680 Speaker 1: Do I write letters to my local government and police station? 281 00:15:25,000 --> 00:15:28,880 Speaker 1: Do I donate? It's really exhausting being woke or to 282 00:15:28,960 --> 00:15:31,880 Speaker 1: care about more beyond yourself. I know we planned on 283 00:15:31,920 --> 00:15:35,320 Speaker 1: attending the BLM rally today, but to be honest, I'm 284 00:15:35,320 --> 00:15:38,320 Speaker 1: just I'm scared. I know Marco and Reuben will be 285 00:15:38,400 --> 00:15:41,160 Speaker 1: joining me, but black girls aren't safe. I just can't 286 00:15:41,160 --> 00:15:43,400 Speaker 1: stop thinking about Brianna Taylor. I mean, she was in 287 00:15:43,440 --> 00:15:47,120 Speaker 1: the comfort of our own home and murdered. Maybe I 288 00:15:47,160 --> 00:15:49,600 Speaker 1: should just follow this lad and stay home. Maybe my 289 00:15:49,680 --> 00:15:53,480 Speaker 1: place isn't on the frontlines. Marco jumps off the studio 290 00:15:53,560 --> 00:15:55,280 Speaker 1: lab do or He's been leaning on in chimes in 291 00:15:55,800 --> 00:15:58,880 Speaker 1: did this dude just hear my thoughts? That was pretty 292 00:15:58,880 --> 00:16:02,000 Speaker 1: spooky for this gus protests. Considering we're all about to 293 00:16:02,000 --> 00:16:05,280 Speaker 1: go to a rally together. I feel my cheeks flush 294 00:16:05,560 --> 00:16:08,400 Speaker 1: Suddenly I'm self conscious. Do you guys don't want to go? 295 00:16:08,560 --> 00:16:11,400 Speaker 1: I mean, we don't have you know, I'm down. This 296 00:16:11,440 --> 00:16:14,320 Speaker 1: is how I'm celebrating closing out this season. Remember, yeah, 297 00:16:14,440 --> 00:16:16,920 Speaker 1: come on, Jay, you know you're the activists of the squad. 298 00:16:17,080 --> 00:16:20,080 Speaker 1: Why are you being all weird? Now? Be happy? Mon 299 00:16:20,120 --> 00:16:24,920 Speaker 1: g we just ended the season. Okay, I'm in. I'm in. 300 00:16:25,760 --> 00:16:30,480 Speaker 1: They're enthusiasm is reassuring for a second, but I'm still afraid. 301 00:16:31,320 --> 00:16:34,000 Speaker 1: It's been really tense in the city. It's our age 302 00:16:34,000 --> 00:16:36,880 Speaker 1: have been arrested, ended up missing, or pepper sprayed during 303 00:16:36,920 --> 00:16:40,720 Speaker 1: the marchis In protests. I can't back out now. I mean, 304 00:16:40,760 --> 00:16:42,720 Speaker 1: I'm the one who convinced Reuben to pitch this to 305 00:16:42,760 --> 00:16:46,800 Speaker 1: his parents, and Marco just always tags along. I feel 306 00:16:46,800 --> 00:16:49,680 Speaker 1: like I'm kind of their mama or something. This is 307 00:16:49,720 --> 00:16:53,040 Speaker 1: just a damn shame. Who's going to protect me? I'm 308 00:16:53,080 --> 00:16:55,920 Speaker 1: the woman in the situation. These guys better have my 309 00:16:55,960 --> 00:16:58,680 Speaker 1: back When something goes down tonight. We should get going. 310 00:16:58,880 --> 00:17:00,520 Speaker 1: It's gonna take a while to get on. The train 311 00:17:00,760 --> 00:17:03,560 Speaker 1: is at again h Fort Greene Park in Brooklyn. How 312 00:17:03,560 --> 00:17:05,840 Speaker 1: are they going to rush to me? I'm still exporting 313 00:17:05,880 --> 00:17:08,760 Speaker 1: the files from the recording session. Just give me a minute. 314 00:17:08,760 --> 00:17:11,800 Speaker 1: The session is exporting. Reuben throws his hands up, like, 315 00:17:11,880 --> 00:17:14,360 Speaker 1: all right, all right. I still can't wrap my head 316 00:17:14,359 --> 00:17:16,399 Speaker 1: around it. And when I first met this kid, he 317 00:17:16,520 --> 00:17:19,760 Speaker 1: was so timid. Then he completely wilds out, like out 318 00:17:19,800 --> 00:17:22,639 Speaker 1: of nowhere. But even when I first met him, and 319 00:17:22,720 --> 00:17:25,080 Speaker 1: he was so inside himself, he could tell there was 320 00:17:25,080 --> 00:17:27,720 Speaker 1: a lot going on underneath the surface. That's why I 321 00:17:27,720 --> 00:17:32,159 Speaker 1: called him over at lunch that day. They're the files 322 00:17:32,160 --> 00:17:34,440 Speaker 1: are ready. I fire off the copy so all three 323 00:17:34,480 --> 00:17:36,399 Speaker 1: of us can dig into the raw material later, and 324 00:17:36,440 --> 00:17:39,560 Speaker 1: I closed out the pro tool session. Now y'all can relax. 325 00:17:39,800 --> 00:17:46,320 Speaker 1: I'm ready. Now, we all gather up our backpacks and 326 00:17:46,359 --> 00:17:48,840 Speaker 1: make our way out of book or Team. Soon we're 327 00:17:48,880 --> 00:17:51,320 Speaker 1: on a train, and Reuben's right, it's a bit of 328 00:17:51,359 --> 00:17:54,199 Speaker 1: a long rack to Brooklyn. Still, this is kind of 329 00:17:54,200 --> 00:17:57,560 Speaker 1: like old times before Ruben's whole Villa drama, when we're 330 00:17:57,600 --> 00:18:00,199 Speaker 1: going out to shows together, when we were all about 331 00:18:00,240 --> 00:18:03,200 Speaker 1: the artists and the music. It was about logging in 332 00:18:03,200 --> 00:18:06,960 Speaker 1: interviews and not ads from sponsors. Of course, Marco was 333 00:18:07,000 --> 00:18:10,160 Speaker 1: on his phone promoting the season finale. He's always been 334 00:18:10,160 --> 00:18:13,960 Speaker 1: his own best hype man. Reuben lost in his own 335 00:18:14,000 --> 00:18:17,800 Speaker 1: head replaying the interview and critiquing himself. And then there's me. 336 00:18:18,720 --> 00:18:20,439 Speaker 1: I need to figure out what's my future and all 337 00:18:20,480 --> 00:18:23,280 Speaker 1: of this. Do I want to be more than a secretary? 338 00:18:23,359 --> 00:18:26,560 Speaker 1: Do I always want to be behind the scenes. I 339 00:18:26,640 --> 00:18:30,359 Speaker 1: want more. I have to decide which college I'm attending 340 00:18:30,359 --> 00:18:33,200 Speaker 1: in the fall. Will it be Spellman Howard Columbia or 341 00:18:33,240 --> 00:18:37,159 Speaker 1: Emmerson College in Boston. I still feel nervous about the rally, 342 00:18:37,320 --> 00:18:39,720 Speaker 1: being out there on the front lines, but I'm also 343 00:18:39,760 --> 00:18:43,120 Speaker 1: looking forward to tonight. It's important that we're showing solidarity 344 00:18:43,160 --> 00:18:46,040 Speaker 1: for the black lives and just they lost. This isn't 345 00:18:46,080 --> 00:18:48,199 Speaker 1: my first rally. Being out there in the streets with 346 00:18:48,200 --> 00:18:51,800 Speaker 1: other protesters makes me feel electric. I remember when I 347 00:18:51,840 --> 00:18:54,520 Speaker 1: returned home for my first rally. I was out there 348 00:18:54,560 --> 00:18:57,320 Speaker 1: fighting for justice for tray Von Martin. I was so 349 00:18:57,400 --> 00:19:00,600 Speaker 1: fired up, and to be so young. ILL never forget 350 00:19:00,600 --> 00:19:04,880 Speaker 1: that feeling. I never stopped chasing that feeling I lost 351 00:19:04,920 --> 00:19:06,520 Speaker 1: my voice by the time I got home after the 352 00:19:06,520 --> 00:19:09,919 Speaker 1: March for Justice. But when Upa talked about needing to 353 00:19:09,960 --> 00:19:12,480 Speaker 1: back away from all the news for healing and self care, 354 00:19:13,040 --> 00:19:16,440 Speaker 1: I felt that we've been asking artists about their activism 355 00:19:16,480 --> 00:19:19,280 Speaker 1: all season. But she talked about how her existence is 356 00:19:19,320 --> 00:19:22,679 Speaker 1: an act of resistance. That just blew my mind. I 357 00:19:22,720 --> 00:19:25,639 Speaker 1: turned to Reuben, are you thinking about the interview? That 358 00:19:25,720 --> 00:19:29,720 Speaker 1: was insane? She got me reevaluating my entire life right. 359 00:19:29,880 --> 00:19:34,320 Speaker 1: I'm just I'm speechless. When we get to the station, 360 00:19:34,359 --> 00:19:36,520 Speaker 1: we hear the crowd noise growing as we run up 361 00:19:36,560 --> 00:19:39,480 Speaker 1: the steps. On the far side of the park, there's 362 00:19:39,480 --> 00:19:42,080 Speaker 1: a stand on someone using a megaphone, but it's nothing 363 00:19:42,080 --> 00:19:43,879 Speaker 1: but a muffled noise from the end of the station. 364 00:19:44,640 --> 00:19:47,280 Speaker 1: We make our way into the rally. Margaret puts his 365 00:19:47,320 --> 00:19:49,400 Speaker 1: phone away for once and all three of us can 366 00:19:49,520 --> 00:19:53,200 Speaker 1: the intense energy. I feel a rush of adrenaline. There's 367 00:19:53,320 --> 00:19:56,960 Speaker 1: so many people gathering about, just enjoying the vibe. A 368 00:19:57,040 --> 00:19:59,520 Speaker 1: drum circle jams over by the monument in the center 369 00:19:59,680 --> 00:20:03,920 Speaker 1: valent here's a various activist groups handing up newsletters, bottled water, 370 00:20:04,359 --> 00:20:07,760 Speaker 1: and signing up new folks. Of the cause. It's nothing 371 00:20:07,840 --> 00:20:12,040 Speaker 1: like the news depicts. It's not chaotic, just alive. I 372 00:20:12,080 --> 00:20:14,160 Speaker 1: look around the edges of the park and see rows 373 00:20:14,240 --> 00:20:17,200 Speaker 1: of cops along the edges. I'm not gonna lie, it's 374 00:20:18,000 --> 00:20:21,359 Speaker 1: it's alimidating. Isn't necessary for all these cops to be 375 00:20:21,400 --> 00:20:23,960 Speaker 1: out here. There's plenty of space between them and the 376 00:20:24,080 --> 00:20:27,520 Speaker 1: rally though, no signs of kettling the protesters or people 377 00:20:27,520 --> 00:20:31,359 Speaker 1: throwing watterle bottles at them. I reassure myself that the 378 00:20:31,480 --> 00:20:36,120 Speaker 1: energy is positive tonight. Yeah, I'm glad we came out. Yeah. 379 00:20:36,200 --> 00:20:37,600 Speaker 1: I think a couple of my girls are going to 380 00:20:37,640 --> 00:20:39,199 Speaker 1: meet us here. I'm just waiting to see if they 381 00:20:39,240 --> 00:20:45,879 Speaker 1: text me. A group chance starts forming around us, and 382 00:20:46,080 --> 00:20:48,760 Speaker 1: I see Reuben and get approached by a twenty something 383 00:20:48,840 --> 00:20:51,200 Speaker 1: year old in a red T shirt with the clipboard. 384 00:20:52,280 --> 00:20:54,359 Speaker 1: I glanced over at Markow when he's got his phone 385 00:20:54,359 --> 00:20:57,000 Speaker 1: out again to taking video. I slip my phone out 386 00:20:57,040 --> 00:20:59,520 Speaker 1: to check for text and see nothing. So I raised 387 00:20:59,520 --> 00:21:06,199 Speaker 1: my fist, joining the chape and only last for a 388 00:21:06,240 --> 00:21:08,320 Speaker 1: minute before some of the crowds starts speeding up and 389 00:21:08,400 --> 00:21:11,240 Speaker 1: marching across the park. I look around for Reuben and 390 00:21:11,280 --> 00:21:13,560 Speaker 1: Marco again, just if they want to follow the crowd 391 00:21:13,640 --> 00:21:16,600 Speaker 1: or keep exploring the park. Marco emerged from the crowd, 392 00:21:16,680 --> 00:21:20,040 Speaker 1: tucking his phone back in his pocket. Where's Reuben learned 393 00:21:20,080 --> 00:21:22,600 Speaker 1: with that clipboard girl? If he has any sense? I 394 00:21:22,680 --> 00:21:24,720 Speaker 1: look around and find the red shirt quick enough, But 395 00:21:24,800 --> 00:21:28,480 Speaker 1: still no Ruben. Clipboard girl has moved on to chat 396 00:21:28,520 --> 00:21:31,480 Speaker 1: with the middle aged white guy the goat cheap ship. 397 00:21:31,880 --> 00:21:37,840 Speaker 1: Where the hell is he? Reuben? Marco sees clipboard girls too, 398 00:21:38,480 --> 00:21:40,760 Speaker 1: Still no Reuben. J chill, he probably want to take 399 00:21:40,800 --> 00:21:43,280 Speaker 1: a leak. We'll find him. Let's keep walking. I don't 400 00:21:43,320 --> 00:21:46,600 Speaker 1: have a good feeling about this. A black kid alone, 401 00:21:47,000 --> 00:21:50,639 Speaker 1: separated from his friends at the BLM protest. This it 402 00:21:50,720 --> 00:21:53,439 Speaker 1: can't be good. I have to find him. If he 403 00:21:53,440 --> 00:21:55,359 Speaker 1: doesn't REATO him home, his parents are going to freak 404 00:21:55,359 --> 00:21:57,679 Speaker 1: out and never trust me again. He's gonna be grounded 405 00:21:57,720 --> 00:22:01,480 Speaker 1: for life. What the hell he was just here? Did 406 00:22:01,480 --> 00:22:04,439 Speaker 1: he follow the crowd? I turned a three sixties scanning 407 00:22:04,480 --> 00:22:07,600 Speaker 1: for him, but nothing. What's going on in that boy's head? 408 00:22:08,200 --> 00:22:10,200 Speaker 1: How am I supposed to find Ruben when he's wearing 409 00:22:10,240 --> 00:22:13,879 Speaker 1: all black to Black Lives Matter March. Almost everyone is 410 00:22:13,960 --> 00:22:16,840 Speaker 1: dressed in black here. I play a coolful Marco, but 411 00:22:16,880 --> 00:22:20,080 Speaker 1: I can go a ball rising in my throat the 412 00:22:20,119 --> 00:22:22,760 Speaker 1: worst case scenarios just starting to play out of my head. 413 00:22:23,720 --> 00:22:27,000 Speaker 1: I pause, take a deep breath, don't for catch. You 414 00:22:27,080 --> 00:22:31,199 Speaker 1: know everything's gonna be fine. But I can tell by 415 00:22:31,200 --> 00:22:33,920 Speaker 1: the look at Marco's eyes he's concerned. To Reuben has 416 00:22:33,920 --> 00:22:36,520 Speaker 1: been acting out so much. What if a cup approached 417 00:22:36,600 --> 00:22:39,480 Speaker 1: him and he just snapped like the dude has a 418 00:22:39,520 --> 00:22:41,760 Speaker 1: lot of pent up anger. Where the hell is he? 419 00:22:42,359 --> 00:22:44,280 Speaker 1: I pick up my phone and I call him. His 420 00:22:44,359 --> 00:22:57,199 Speaker 1: phone goes straight to worse Now shit Ruben Ruby and 421 00:22:57,280 --> 00:23:00,959 Speaker 1: Now an exclusive track from UMPA featuring into Christopher Ow. 422 00:23:18,640 --> 00:23:25,920 Speaker 1: I don't know, yeah, top down, let's just take a 423 00:23:26,119 --> 00:23:36,000 Speaker 1: scenic round. Yeah yeah, yeah, yeah, you like nature last 424 00:23:36,080 --> 00:23:44,280 Speaker 1: I'm thin in the clown. They're calming down. We've got 425 00:23:44,280 --> 00:23:50,840 Speaker 1: a long, wide row and leaving is all I know. 426 00:23:51,560 --> 00:23:57,520 Speaker 1: Damn it. Don't speed through the night right slow right, slow, 427 00:23:58,000 --> 00:24:03,600 Speaker 1: eyes closed signs to slow for my master. Go and 428 00:24:03,760 --> 00:24:10,200 Speaker 1: go and go and go and go and go go. 429 00:24:11,760 --> 00:24:23,320 Speaker 1: I gotta everything you're doing to make you digging on 430 00:24:23,720 --> 00:24:25,640 Speaker 1: and how you be digging in my back like you're 431 00:24:25,680 --> 00:24:28,160 Speaker 1: looking for feeling that you feeling in your grass. Every 432 00:24:28,200 --> 00:24:30,400 Speaker 1: time I try to quit, you come with it. I'll relax. 433 00:24:30,640 --> 00:24:32,680 Speaker 1: Need me another hit U buck fifty. I'm here and 434 00:24:32,720 --> 00:24:35,040 Speaker 1: gas for She said it uge. You don't even have 435 00:24:35,160 --> 00:24:37,680 Speaker 1: to ask for for girls said. We don't even need 436 00:24:37,680 --> 00:24:39,960 Speaker 1: no passports. We could take a flight if you ain't 437 00:24:39,960 --> 00:24:42,280 Speaker 1: afraid of heights where we're going on tonight, you don't 438 00:24:42,280 --> 00:24:44,200 Speaker 1: need no boy, the mass you're don't know if I'm 439 00:24:44,200 --> 00:24:46,119 Speaker 1: swimming now, don't know if I'm drawing to know. I 440 00:24:46,119 --> 00:24:48,359 Speaker 1: know what's that I'm kicking. The notion is all around me. 441 00:24:48,600 --> 00:24:50,200 Speaker 1: Tell me that she loved me. Boy, I know it's 442 00:24:50,280 --> 00:24:52,320 Speaker 1: something bigger than cameras. Is gonna be quick and we'll 443 00:24:52,320 --> 00:24:54,199 Speaker 1: see you in the bigger pictures. I don't know what 444 00:24:54,280 --> 00:24:56,200 Speaker 1: to do. I know she want me calm with that 445 00:24:56,640 --> 00:24:59,159 Speaker 1: so good. I'm forgetting that as wrong as it worth it. 446 00:25:00,000 --> 00:25:05,119 Speaker 1: I know many work it, but I got a goal confessional. 447 00:25:05,640 --> 00:25:15,080 Speaker 1: I'm wrestless. I guess it best high. I got a 448 00:25:15,160 --> 00:25:26,159 Speaker 1: bus somewhere down the way to go and go and go. 449 00:25:26,480 --> 00:25:29,320 Speaker 1: We go, he goes and he go go and go 450 00:25:29,880 --> 00:25:36,360 Speaker 1: go Sta gop and go got go. 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