WEBVTT - THE ICE CREAM QUEEN

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<v Speaker 1>Caw from Angie.

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<v Speaker 2>Hi. What's your name?

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<v Speaker 1>Angie?

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<v Speaker 2>Angie? What's up? Angie? How you doing?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm doing doing great? Geck doing? What are you up

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<v Speaker 1>to delivering the mail? Currently?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh? What's what's Have you opened up anyone's letters?

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<v Speaker 1>No? No, I I always get that uh that one

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<v Speaker 1>person who says I got their million dollar check, but uh,

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<v Speaker 1>it's always in my pocket. I never delivered that one.

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<v Speaker 2>I got you. I got you well, Angie? What uh?

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<v Speaker 2>What brings you to to the to this gecko thing

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<v Speaker 2>that I'm doing? What brings you to call it? To

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<v Speaker 2>call a gecko on the phone today?

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<v Speaker 3>Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Man, Uh, I don't know. I've been watching you for

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<v Speaker 1>almost two three years now, you know, since you started,

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<v Speaker 1>I've been keeping up with you.

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<v Speaker 4>Uh.

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<v Speaker 1>Before I did mail, I used to sell ice cream.

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<v Speaker 1>I had nothing but time to listen to you on

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<v Speaker 1>my you know, doing ice cream.

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<v Speaker 2>Mmm, what kind of What was the most popular flavor

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<v Speaker 2>of ice cream that you sold?

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<v Speaker 1>I sold sauce served. So it's just like vanilla and chocolate,

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<v Speaker 1>and the amount of people who love chocolate but like

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<v Speaker 1>hate vanilla is crazy.

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<v Speaker 2>What do you prefer?

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<v Speaker 1>I'm a vanilla girl. I'll do vanilla with everything. I

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<v Speaker 1>just destroy it with toppings.

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<v Speaker 2>People hate chocolate but love vanilla.

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<v Speaker 1>You say, no, the opposite.

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<v Speaker 2>I's so surprising that people hate vanilla. I'm a big

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<v Speaker 2>fan of vanilla. Did you sell Oh it's a soft serve? Okay,

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<v Speaker 2>did you serve it out of a truck? Did you

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<v Speaker 2>serve it out of a truck?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Yeah, you've probably heard of mister Softies.

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<v Speaker 2>You worked in a mister softy.

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<v Speaker 1>Truck, Yes, sir, Yes, sir, the only one in the

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<v Speaker 1>Bay Area.

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<v Speaker 2>Wow, well, yeah, I guess the Bay Area. Well actually, wait,

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<v Speaker 2>I'm an idiot. They of course they would need They

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<v Speaker 2>have hot summers, don't they.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, yeah, we got hot ass summers down here.

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<v Speaker 2>What did you How often were you sneaking cream?

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<v Speaker 4>Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Dude, every day? Every day. I was being ice cream.

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<v Speaker 1>You shouldn't be every day.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. I used to work out of this place called

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<v Speaker 2>you Spoon, and it was a frozen yogurt store that

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<v Speaker 2>nobody was, a failing frozen yogurt store that I, as

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<v Speaker 2>a sixteen year old, worked in alone and nobody would

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<v Speaker 2>come in. So it was literally I just would fucking

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<v Speaker 2>make huge, disgusting milkshakes out of red velvet and cookie dough.

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<v Speaker 2>It's so awesome.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh wow, that's my shit right there. I make the

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<v Speaker 1>best shakes, best shape.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah yeah. Why'd you get out of the ice cream

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<v Speaker 2>business and into uh mail? Ah?

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<v Speaker 1>Money, money, And I moved and I moved too far

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<v Speaker 1>away to keep doing my ice cream gig. Otherwise it's

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<v Speaker 1>like a four hour drive there and back.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>So now I just I deliver mail in a really

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<v Speaker 1>small town. It's really nice, it's beautiful.

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<v Speaker 2>What's the which job was was more hectic? The mail

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<v Speaker 2>or the ice cream? Ooh?

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<v Speaker 1>Uh? Ice cream was more hectic because there was more

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<v Speaker 1>things going on. But the mail is just angry people

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<v Speaker 1>just everyone's always mad.

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<v Speaker 2>Mm hmm mmmm what was I going to say? Uh?

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<v Speaker 2>What's what? What's What's one of the more interesting experiences

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<v Speaker 2>perhaps that you had while you were delivering ice cream?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh? Oh, I had h We do all sorts of events.

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<v Speaker 1>If you know, mister Safty from New York, New Jersey area,

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<v Speaker 1>they're all like serving in the streets and everything. But

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<v Speaker 1>in the Bay Area we're a lot smaller, so we

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<v Speaker 1>do a lot of like parties and that kind of stuff.

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<v Speaker 1>And one of my favorite and more crazy stories is

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<v Speaker 1>I did a wedding at like a like a wedding night,

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<v Speaker 1>so it was all of the and it was starting

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<v Speaker 1>at ten thirty and ending at one am. So I

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<v Speaker 1>worked my whole day, Like I got to work at

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<v Speaker 1>nine am, and I worked and served ice cream all

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<v Speaker 1>day and then I went to this wedding afterwards. It

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<v Speaker 1>was like a sixteen hour day for me. And the

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<v Speaker 1>whole day was like horrible. Everybody was like all a grumpy,

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<v Speaker 1>and then I got to this wedding and they were

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<v Speaker 1>just raving out. It was great.

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<v Speaker 2>Sounds that sounds really nice. That sounds really nice. What

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<v Speaker 2>about uh serving? What about serving mail? Like you said,

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<v Speaker 2>people are people are crazy? What in what way? Oh?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, Like I'm a substitute for everybody in this small town.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm the only sub so of course there's like the

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<v Speaker 1>regular who runs it every day, and whenever you're not

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<v Speaker 1>the regular, people are upset, like I'm late, excuse me,

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<v Speaker 1>I you know I don't I'm always lost, I'm a

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<v Speaker 1>little late. Sometimes I'm not as fast as the regular

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<v Speaker 1>who's been doing it for like twenty years, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>so they're always like you forgot this piece of mail,

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<v Speaker 1>or or I had a lady the other day called

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<v Speaker 1>my office and say that I cut her off and

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<v Speaker 1>flipped her off. But then she knew my name because

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<v Speaker 1>you know, she was pulling me over all grumpy, and

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<v Speaker 1>she was like, what's your name? What's your name? And

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<v Speaker 1>I was like, Angie, just happy to you know, be here.

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<v Speaker 2>What's going on?

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<v Speaker 1>Complaining?

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<v Speaker 2>What's going on in your life? Angie? Are you are

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<v Speaker 2>is severing? Are you enjoying the experience of being alive?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh? Yeah, oh yeah.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh.

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<v Speaker 1>Currently, I'm I'm trying to decide if I should move

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<v Speaker 1>on from mail, but but I seem to be the

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<v Speaker 1>only happy person delivering mail. I try to keep it,

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<v Speaker 1>keep it peppy, you know, like I had a rough

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<v Speaker 1>growing up, and you know, I'm I'm able to do

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<v Speaker 1>what I want to do right now, and so I'm

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<v Speaker 1>just having fun with it. Like uh, like October. The

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<v Speaker 1>every day of October, I was dressed up in a

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<v Speaker 1>different costume every day delivery mail.

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<v Speaker 2>What were your costumes?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, dude, I did a clown. I did a cow,

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<v Speaker 1>like full on cow with tat ear tags and everything.

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<v Speaker 1>I did scarecrow. I did an angel with some big

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<v Speaker 1>old wings.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>Uh, literally, if you could see if you could see it,

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<v Speaker 1>from a block away and be like, I know what

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<v Speaker 1>that is. That's I dressed up as that.

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<v Speaker 2>That's so funny. This is a really cool thing because

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<v Speaker 2>you're saying that you're one of the only people who

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<v Speaker 2>deliver mail that you feel as happy, and you say

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<v Speaker 2>it's just because you're keeping it peppy, because I always,

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<v Speaker 2>I always really feel like so much so much stuff

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<v Speaker 2>is like it's it's just about like the perspective that

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<v Speaker 2>you have on it and whether you're going to choose

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<v Speaker 2>to have fun and enjoy shit.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, I'm a big believer in that. I'm a

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<v Speaker 1>big believer like a lot of the regulars or maybe

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<v Speaker 1>like forty five and up, and they're just so gloomy,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm like, I come in, I'm like, good morning,

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<v Speaker 1>and they're like, Angie, just give it ten more years

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<v Speaker 1>and you won't be all excited about good mornings. And

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, I hope that I turn eighty in my

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<v Speaker 1>clown costume delivering the mail happy.

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<v Speaker 2>Mm hmmm, that's so awesome. Have you always been this way?

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<v Speaker 1>I've I've heard from other people that I am, but

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<v Speaker 1>I personally feel like I'm just so grumpy in my

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<v Speaker 1>personal life that there's no point in being grumpy all

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<v Speaker 1>the time, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>So you say you're you so you feel like you're

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<v Speaker 2>grumpy in your personal life?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, how so in what way?

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<v Speaker 1>Like? Uh, like right now I'm living with my future husband.

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<v Speaker 1>We just you know, we're struggling. We're not rich or anything.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm living paycheck to paycheck with a little debt a

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<v Speaker 1>little bit. But you know, it's like, what am I

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<v Speaker 1>going to do grump around all day and just fucking

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<v Speaker 1>be MOPy about it? Like, you know, I still got

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<v Speaker 1>to like eat and do things, you know, so I

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<v Speaker 1>might as well do it with a little bit of pep.

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<v Speaker 2>Well how'd you meet your future husband?

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<v Speaker 1>Oh, dude, tender?

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<v Speaker 2>Huh cool?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, we met eight years ago on Tinder. We both

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<v Speaker 1>just got out of high school and both of our

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<v Speaker 1>like friend groups were like just downloaded, it's fun. And

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<v Speaker 1>we were the first people that we met on Tinder

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<v Speaker 1>and we just stopped there. We were like all right,

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<v Speaker 1>locked in.

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<v Speaker 2>Wow. So they so high school? So are you you're

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<v Speaker 2>like may you're like twenty seven.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, I'm actually twenty five.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh cool? Cool? Cool? What you say? So you say

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<v Speaker 2>you want to get out of mail potentially.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, well what did you go in? I want

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<v Speaker 1>to go back to ice cream. I really like serving

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<v Speaker 1>ice cream, but I got a job offer from my

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<v Speaker 1>father in law to do something way boring but it

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<v Speaker 1>pays more, you know, and it's a way high position

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<v Speaker 1>than I am now, and it's like a career that

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<v Speaker 1>I could do without busting my back. M. So it's

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<v Speaker 1>just like it's one of those things where I've worked

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<v Speaker 1>a lot of jobs, and I'm a believer in if

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<v Speaker 1>you don't like what you're doing, you're not gonna be happy,

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<v Speaker 1>so you might as well enjoy your job a little bit.

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<v Speaker 1>But like, this is a job that I guess I

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<v Speaker 1>could see myself doing, and everybody else says that I

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<v Speaker 1>will be great at it, but it's it's a computer job,

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<v Speaker 1>and I'm not. I'm not with the technology these days,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. M.

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<v Speaker 2>What's your dream job? Like, if you could do anything,

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<v Speaker 2>If I could.

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<v Speaker 1>Do anything while I'd be back in my ice cream

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<v Speaker 1>truck serving ice cream all day. Yeah. Yeah. I I

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<v Speaker 1>served ice cream for five years and I loved it.

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<v Speaker 1>It was one of those jobs I got where I

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<v Speaker 1>was I was training dogs, and I was walking dogs,

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<v Speaker 1>and I was serving ice cream and that was like

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<v Speaker 1>the pinnacle of my life, even though I was deadbeat, broke.

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<v Speaker 1>It was like the highlight of my existence serving us.

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<v Speaker 2>That's so cool. Why was Tell me more about why

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<v Speaker 2>was it the highlight of your existence?

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<v Speaker 5>Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>Just it's really freeing. Like when we started the Softy

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<v Speaker 1>Company down here in the Bay Area, I started it

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<v Speaker 1>sort of with my boss. I was like the first

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<v Speaker 1>five employees we had down here, and we only had

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<v Speaker 1>like four trucks, so I was like in charge of

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<v Speaker 1>my own truck. Essentially. It was like my thing. I

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<v Speaker 1>cleaned it up, I took cre of it, that kind

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<v Speaker 1>of stuff. And it's really nice when I get to just,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, drive around my neighborhood and wave and just smile,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, and just hand out ice cream, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>And there's a lot of times where we have like

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<v Speaker 1>events where it's like prepaid and there's nothing better than

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<v Speaker 1>looking someone dead in the face and going, it's free,

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<v Speaker 1>it's free ice.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah. You're like a hero of those people.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, oh yeah. I'm like, no, it's free, and

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<v Speaker 1>they're like trying to pay me. I'm like, I'll take

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<v Speaker 1>tips you that twenty I will not argue. But the

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<v Speaker 1>ice cream itself is free, but it was really free.

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<v Speaker 4>You know.

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<v Speaker 1>I got to essentially do what I want within reason,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. And then on top of that, I get

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<v Speaker 1>to eat ice cream and then food trucks. Food trucks

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<v Speaker 1>will trade ice cream for food. So if I ever

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<v Speaker 1>want a burrito or anything, I just pull up to

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<v Speaker 1>the next food truck. Hey, you'ren't trade, They're usually down.

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<v Speaker 2>That's that's so, that's so funny. I was I a

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<v Speaker 2>couple nights ago. I shout out the Parkway Theater in Minneapolis.

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<v Speaker 2>I did a show there and they I went to

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<v Speaker 2>the concessions that the manager was like, you guys can

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<v Speaker 2>have whatever you want from the concession stand. And we

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<v Speaker 2>were so fucking stoked and we took popcorn and we

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<v Speaker 2>put mic and ikes and bunch of crunch in it,

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<v Speaker 2>and we were like so giddy, and we were like, yeah,

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<v Speaker 2>we've been traveling around doing like these crazy shows and

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<v Speaker 2>just nothing made us happier than like getting free shit

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<v Speaker 2>from the concession stand. You know, it's power. There's really

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<v Speaker 2>power in that. There's power in that.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, I want to even now free step is

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<v Speaker 1>on the rise.

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<v Speaker 2>I want to take if anyone in the chat has

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<v Speaker 2>any questions for Angie. I want to take some questions

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<v Speaker 2>from the chat, if they if they have any Somebody

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<v Speaker 2>in the chat already somebody said, you can take Angie

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<v Speaker 2>out of the ice cream truck, but you can never

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<v Speaker 2>take the ice cream truck out of Angie.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh thank you. That's an honor. Yeah, yeah, you truly cannot.

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<v Speaker 1>I can't live without it.

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<v Speaker 2>It's true. Yeah, I really I feel. I feel deep

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<v Speaker 2>ice cream truck energy within you.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah. Even when I was doing ice cream, I

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<v Speaker 1>did the every day of October in a different costume,

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<v Speaker 1>and you'll pull up to the ice cream truck and

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<v Speaker 1>there'll be a clown in there or cow, and it's great.

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<v Speaker 2>Somebody wants to know it's your personal favorite ice cream flavor.

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<v Speaker 1>Flavor out of all the flavors in the entire universe,

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<v Speaker 1>mint chocolate chip is my favorite. But like basics, it's vanilla.

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<v Speaker 1>I gotta go Vanilla.

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<v Speaker 2>A couple of people want to know if you've ever

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<v Speaker 2>thought about starting your own ice cream truck, like going

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<v Speaker 2>entrepreneurial about it.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, I have, And I have a really beat

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<v Speaker 1>down old popsicle truck sitting in my driveway right now

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<v Speaker 1>currently on the mend really, but it's yeah, yeah, I dude, Lyle,

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<v Speaker 1>when I tell you I'm in ice cream, I'm into

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<v Speaker 1>ice cream. But it's like it's more work than it's

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<v Speaker 1>going to be worse for the next two years, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>like I just don't have it in the budget, you know.

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<v Speaker 1>But it's getting there.

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<v Speaker 2>It's getting there, Okay. I love I under I just

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<v Speaker 2>want you to know. I understand the idea of like

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<v Speaker 2>putting something off until you feel like it's just possible.

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<v Speaker 2>But I'm giddy at the idea of you starting your

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<v Speaker 2>own ice cream truck. I think that would be the

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<v Speaker 2>coolest thing ever.

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<v Speaker 1>Thanks, Lyle. Yeah, no, when you when when I have

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<v Speaker 1>it up and running, they'll be Lyle stickers all over it.

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<v Speaker 2>Well you will. It be called Angie's because that is

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<v Speaker 2>a perfect name for an ice cream thing.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, oh yeah, yeah, Angie's. And then it's gonna have

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<v Speaker 1>like the little Angie's List star on the bottom.

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<v Speaker 2>You know, dude, please do that. That's so fucking cool.

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<v Speaker 2>So I mean not to keep going, but somebody said,

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<v Speaker 2>does she know how easy it is to get a

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<v Speaker 2>business loan from the government right now? You don't even

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<v Speaker 2>have to pay it back. I don't know if that's

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<v Speaker 2>true or not. Somebody I don't know if that's true

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<v Speaker 2>or not, but somebody in a Twitch chat did say that.

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<v Speaker 1>It's like it's like sort of true. I guess it

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<v Speaker 1>depends on the county you're in. Mike County has a

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<v Speaker 1>ton of small businesses and they're like looking at my

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<v Speaker 1>case quote unquote, you know, looking at my case.

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<v Speaker 2>Let's see here. Someone said, well, what's the what do

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<v Speaker 2>you think is the worst ice cream chain?

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<v Speaker 1>Ooh uh, it's either Baskin Robbins or Coldstone.

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<v Speaker 2>Really I love Coldstone? Why do you hit Coldstone?

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah? Coldstone is it's so good in like specific flavors,

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<v Speaker 1>but most of their stuff is like, uh, it's got

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<v Speaker 1>like freezer burn on it and it just doesn't hit right,

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<v Speaker 1>you know. Or like you go to one and there's

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<v Speaker 1>always some like cranky fifteen year old behind the counter.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm like, yo, dog, you literally an ice cream shop.

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<v Speaker 1>You need to have more pets, like.

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<v Speaker 2>Wow, yeah yeah? Are you like, like, do you are

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<v Speaker 2>you very uh critical when you go when you have

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<v Speaker 2>your own ice cream experiences? Are you like this person's.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, oh yeah, my my my boyfriend Scott loves

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<v Speaker 1>to like like shut me down because I'm like, behind

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<v Speaker 1>the counter going man, he's not really scooping that very sturdy.

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<v Speaker 1>I bet I could flip that conupside down. There's no

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<v Speaker 1>way he can like stuff like that. Like I'm always

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<v Speaker 1>My big thing too, is customer service. Because before I

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<v Speaker 1>did ice cream, I worked in a restaurant, and before

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<v Speaker 1>that I worked in a library, and before that I

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<v Speaker 1>worked for my parents. I did house cleaning and gardening,

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<v Speaker 1>you know, that kind of stuff. But it's like, I'm

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<v Speaker 1>always customer service first, you know, because that's the face

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<v Speaker 1>you're putting out there. If you want something in return

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<v Speaker 1>or you're selling something, you should have at least have

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<v Speaker 1>like a good attitude or aura around.

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<v Speaker 2>You, you know. But well, well also mainly just because sorry, sorry,

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<v Speaker 2>say I want you to let you finish.

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<v Speaker 1>Oh yeah, especially if someone's like miss mishandling stuff Like

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<v Speaker 1>if I feel like somebody putting scoopers back where they

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<v Speaker 1>shouldn't be, I'm like, that's not food safety.

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<v Speaker 4>That's not good.

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<v Speaker 2>Well it's also I mean it got it's good for

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<v Speaker 2>it's good for you too, because if you're like upset

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<v Speaker 2>about what you're it, see, it seems to me like

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<v Speaker 2>you know, just like good customer service and all that stuff.

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<v Speaker 2>Like for you personally, it seems like it gives you energy.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, somebody asked. Somebody asked, what's the trick to

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<v Speaker 2>a perfect scoop?

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<v Speaker 1>So, if you're going ice cream scoop? You know that

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<v Speaker 1>like pretty ball that everybody tries to do, that's not it.

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<v Speaker 1>You want an oval, yeah you want to and yeah,

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<v Speaker 1>an oval shape like like an egg sort of you know,

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<v Speaker 1>you want sort of a point. That point goes into

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<v Speaker 1>your cone and that cone. I promise you can flip

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<v Speaker 1>it with three scoops on top, no problem. And then

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<v Speaker 1>if it's like a soft serve, it's all in the

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<v Speaker 1>cone fill, everything's in the cone steal. If your cone

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<v Speaker 1>is filled perfectly, then the rest of the cone is

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<v Speaker 1>set up, you know, perfect, Angie.

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<v Speaker 2>I want you to make this ice cream truck so badly.

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<v Speaker 3>Oh wow, when it happens, you will know, well, I

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<v Speaker 3>guess speaking of that, somebody in the chat did say,

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<v Speaker 3>and this this is totally up to you, but somebody

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<v Speaker 3>in the chat does want to know if you have

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<v Speaker 3>any plugs or socials or anything.

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<v Speaker 2>Somebody said, do you have any socials? So we can

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<v Speaker 2>watch this stream come to life only if you want,

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<v Speaker 2>only if you want random folks following yet to see,

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<v Speaker 2>if your dreams, if the truck comes to fruition.

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<v Speaker 1>All right, So if anybody wants to keep up, I

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<v Speaker 1>actually I'm not on the internet, like I have zero

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<v Speaker 1>social media, zero Instagram. I have zero. The only Instagram

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<v Speaker 1>I have is for my dog, and it's just because

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<v Speaker 1>I want. I want him to have photos forever. You know,

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<v Speaker 1>I don't I don't want a bazillion photos on my phone,

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<v Speaker 1>but I like taking pictures of him. Uh, that would

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<v Speaker 1>be the only thing. And then you guys, don't worry.

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<v Speaker 1>From there you will see my ice cream career blossom.

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<v Speaker 1>But it would be that's the only thing I have.

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<v Speaker 2>What's the what's the what's the dog Instagram?

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<v Speaker 1>If you want, it's WINSTONB dotch Nedman.

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<v Speaker 2>So you're gonna have to spell that.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, yeah, yeah, Winston w I and he s O

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<v Speaker 1>n Winstone.

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<v Speaker 2>And then b win win win win st Yeah dyslexic.

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<v Speaker 1>I'm a little dyslexic. Winston like Churchill, like Winston Churchill,

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah yeah, and then B dot und Man s n

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<v Speaker 1>E d Man.

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<v Speaker 2>Winston b Winston b dot Sndman Let me see if

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<v Speaker 2>I can find this.

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<v Speaker 1>Yeah, hold on, yeah, sorry, he's my first he's my

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<v Speaker 1>first dog that wasn't a rescue, so I had to

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<v Speaker 1>name him something extreme.

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<v Speaker 2>Oh yeah, there he is, there, he is there is Wow. Man,

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<v Speaker 2>you got a cool life, dude.

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<v Speaker 1>Thank you, thank you, Lyle.

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<v Speaker 4>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 1>I I just I just enjoy what I have, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>I if I have it and I can, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>breathe every day and eat food and stay warm, you know,

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<v Speaker 1>then it's all good.

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<v Speaker 2>Hey, this was I really enjoyed talking to you, Angie.

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<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm inspired by by your your attitude on life.

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<v Speaker 2>Is there anything else you want to say to the

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<v Speaker 2>people of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 4>Uh?

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<v Speaker 1>Lyle, forever wile forever, dude. I'm watching your stuff for

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<v Speaker 1>so long, and I'm so happy I got on a call.

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<v Speaker 1>This was my first time ever trying to call, and

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<v Speaker 1>and I really like what you do, Lyle. Like even

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<v Speaker 1>though you say you dog on yourself a lot, like

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<v Speaker 1>you always say that you don't know anything and all

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<v Speaker 1>this stuff, but a lot of the stuff you do

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<v Speaker 1>say is pretty good.

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<v Speaker 2>It's all right, thank you, Ange. I really appreciate that.

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<v Speaker 2>I well about Actually I had one more question if

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<v Speaker 2>you don't have any social media, how did you find

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<v Speaker 2>that I exist?

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<v Speaker 1>I actually my husband Scott, he's he's on Twitch and

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<v Speaker 1>stuff and he does art and he was on Twitch.

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<v Speaker 1>Like we like to go on Twitch just to see

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<v Speaker 1>all the outrageous like big booby ladies who are on

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<v Speaker 1>Twitch just shacking it. Yeah, And I were like, that

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<v Speaker 1>does There's no way this is getting through guidelines, and

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<v Speaker 1>it does. It's crazy, Lyle, but we always laugh at

0:21:06.400 --> 0:21:08.080
<v Speaker 1>that stuff. And I was like, who's that little green

0:21:08.080 --> 0:21:10.920
<v Speaker 1>guy in the corner. He was like that, I think

0:21:10.920 --> 0:21:13.280
<v Speaker 1>that's Lyle and I was like, oh, and then I've

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<v Speaker 1>been onto you ever since. I always watched the podcast

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<v Speaker 1>on YouTube.

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<v Speaker 2>Well kick ass, Well, thank you Angie, you rock. It

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<v Speaker 2>was great talking to you.

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<v Speaker 1>Thanks Lil YouTube man. Are you have a great.

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<v Speaker 2>One you two dude?

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<v Speaker 6>Bye?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh my god? That what a what an awesome What

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<v Speaker 2>an awesome caller? Man, what an awesome caller, she reminds.

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<v Speaker 2>So I went to I went to I was in

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<v Speaker 2>Minneapolis a couple of days ago, and I went to

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<v Speaker 2>the Mall of America and it was the most stimulating

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<v Speaker 2>thing I've ever There's no porn on the internet that

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<v Speaker 2>says stimulating to the senses as the Mall of America

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<v Speaker 2>in Minneapolis, and uh we went to the Beef Jerky

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<v Speaker 2>Experience and there was a guy there who uh like

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<v Speaker 2>was guiding us. He like knew everything about all the

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<v Speaker 2>beef jerky and he was like very joyously guiding us

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<v Speaker 2>through the He literally provided a fucking beef jerky experience.

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<v Speaker 2>And he was talking about his life and he was like, yeah, dude,

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<v Speaker 2>I fucking work here, and I work at the uh

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<v Speaker 2>the the Spicy Sauce place, uh right next door, and

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<v Speaker 2>I'm chilling. I love beef jerky and I love life

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<v Speaker 2>and I'm I'm sitting over here trying to figure out

0:22:31.560 --> 0:22:34.520
<v Speaker 2>the meaning of how to not be depressed and ship.

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<v Speaker 2>And then I'm like, I don't know, man, some people

0:22:37.240 --> 0:22:41.760
<v Speaker 2>they just have these like great perspectives and fucking great

0:22:41.920 --> 0:22:45.719
<v Speaker 2>kick ass energy and they're just good at being a

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<v Speaker 2>person and it's it's uh, it's really cool. So thanks

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<v Speaker 2>thanks for sharing your stuff with us, Angie. Once again,

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<v Speaker 2>if you want to keep up with her, that's Winston

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<v Speaker 2>b dot Snedman. Good stuff. Good. Hello.

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<v Speaker 5>My name's Aaron Nice meining you man. I've been watching

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<v Speaker 5>the show for a minute biggest, uh, biggest stream that

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<v Speaker 5>I watched was a little YACHTI one I want to

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<v Speaker 5>went crazy.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, thanks Aaron, Well what's up? How you doing? You

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<v Speaker 2>have a I like your demeanor. You have a calm demeanor.

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<v Speaker 5>Thank you man, I appreciate it. I wanted to call

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<v Speaker 5>today because I'm currently twenty one about it, going on

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<v Speaker 5>twenty two in January, and ever since, like seventeen, I've

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<v Speaker 5>been fighting a new addiction every year. But like, I

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<v Speaker 5>don't know if this is like in like a self

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<v Speaker 5>deprecated way, like if life is just going crazy for me.

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<v Speaker 5>But uh, do you want to hear a little bit

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<v Speaker 5>about that.

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<v Speaker 2>You've been fighting a new, a different addiction every year

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<v Speaker 2>since seventeen?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah, I don't know what the l it is.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, if you want to talk about it, so check

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<v Speaker 2>it out.

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<v Speaker 5>Seventeen right seventeen, I was in high school. My first

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<v Speaker 5>ever addiction was it was admirable, I believe.

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<v Speaker 4>It or not?

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<v Speaker 2>Oh, I believe.

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<v Speaker 4>Uh.

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<v Speaker 5>Are you familiar with how the stimulant works?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Basically, you feel like you want to die and

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<v Speaker 2>you can't do anything right, and that you're never gonna

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<v Speaker 2>achieve anything at all, and you're gonna h everything. You're

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<v Speaker 2>basically you spiral and then you take a pill and

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<v Speaker 2>then you and then you all of a sudden get

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<v Speaker 2>flipped and you're like, oh my god, I can actually

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<v Speaker 2>do anything I ever want to do in my life

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<v Speaker 2>and everything's gonna be okay, and then you crash boom.

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<v Speaker 5>Right, That's exactly how it was going for me.

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<v Speaker 4>I'm uh.

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<v Speaker 5>I was a junior in high school and I was,

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<v Speaker 5>you know, going on to the SAPs and I was like,

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<v Speaker 5>all right, here we go, and I spiraled crazy. I

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<v Speaker 5>lost it and then you know, I was like, screw

0:24:57.520 --> 0:25:01.879
<v Speaker 5>that terrible, terrible to have and it wasn't really helping

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<v Speaker 5>my pockets. So I was like, instead of buying it

0:25:04.440 --> 0:25:07.000
<v Speaker 5>and using it, why not sell it and distribute it?

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<v Speaker 5>And so on eighteen, I just started pushing it. But

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<v Speaker 5>you know, that's not really an addiction. But to get

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<v Speaker 5>out of it, I started flipping shoes and I got

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<v Speaker 5>really addicted to selling shoes at eighteen. Man, you ever,

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<v Speaker 5>uh you ever heard about selling shoes at all?

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah? Like the hype beast thing is that you call

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<v Speaker 2>that an addiction. It sounds like you're just you're being

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<v Speaker 2>an entrepreneur.

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<v Speaker 5>Well, I mean I was just addicted to shoes. Man,

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<v Speaker 5>you've you brought me any payer? Well, uh, what is

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<v Speaker 5>chatting about?

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<v Speaker 4>That? Is it? Is it an addiction?

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<v Speaker 5>If you just it doesn't even matter if you're making

0:25:40.320 --> 0:25:43.240
<v Speaker 5>money at that point, Well you're just pushing.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, Well, well what's what? What was nineteen.

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<v Speaker 4>Nineteen? I went to weed.

0:25:50.960 --> 0:25:54.040
<v Speaker 5>I was like, you know, I was, I was having

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<v Speaker 5>my eyes with something that made me feel really up.

0:25:57.359 --> 0:25:59.200
<v Speaker 5>What's on the flip side? What don't make me feel

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<v Speaker 5>really low?

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<v Speaker 4>You know?

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<v Speaker 2>Sure?

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<v Speaker 5>So, I mean, you know, we it's it's one of

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<v Speaker 5>those things where you're either you know, you're really productive

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<v Speaker 5>on it and you're just someone who's like a superhuman

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<v Speaker 5>and I don't know.

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<v Speaker 4>How the hell these people do it.

0:26:15.920 --> 0:26:18.520
<v Speaker 5>Or you just start like spiraling and like I guess,

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<v Speaker 5>losing uh, losing control of everything in front of you.

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<v Speaker 5>You know, you just start wanting to change what kind

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<v Speaker 5>of person you are. You start looking at stuff like

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<v Speaker 5>marshmallows all day. You know, you start you start researching the.

0:26:30.320 --> 0:26:36.160
<v Speaker 4>Most random craft like hmm, what's what's a crazy one?

0:26:36.359 --> 0:26:38.359
<v Speaker 5>I remember I started looking at water and like pH

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<v Speaker 5>levels and like looking at different types of cups to

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<v Speaker 5>sip from.

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<v Speaker 4>I don't know.

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<v Speaker 5>I'm more of a of a of a horizontal like

0:26:44.320 --> 0:26:45.280
<v Speaker 5>short cup type of guy.

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<v Speaker 4>What kind of stuff do you like drinking?

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<v Speaker 2>Hold on, brother, I'm so confused right now because you

0:26:49.720 --> 0:26:51.560
<v Speaker 2>were talking about weed. Now you're talking about looking at

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<v Speaker 2>cups on the internet.

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<v Speaker 4>No, that's what I'm saying.

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<v Speaker 5>You like hyper fixate on anything.

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<v Speaker 4>Man.

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<v Speaker 5>It's like, I don't know what we does to me,

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<v Speaker 5>but I'm just like it just makes me really want

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<v Speaker 5>to learn about everything, and like everything just becomes really chill.

0:27:04.880 --> 0:27:06.399
<v Speaker 4>You know. It's like one of those.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, Like I'll smoke weed and I'll look at

0:27:10.080 --> 0:27:14.280
<v Speaker 2>the instant I'll look at the Wikipedia page of subjectivity

0:27:14.840 --> 0:27:16.560
<v Speaker 2>and I'll be like, I'm gonna sit here and look

0:27:16.560 --> 0:27:22.640
<v Speaker 2>at the Wikipedia page, read the whole Wikipedia page on subjectivity.

0:27:22.960 --> 0:27:24.960
<v Speaker 2>But then I but then I get like, you know,

0:27:25.119 --> 0:27:28.280
<v Speaker 2>two sentences in and I go do something else. I mean,

0:27:28.359 --> 0:27:30.320
<v Speaker 2>I don't know, is there hyperfixation? How long does it

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<v Speaker 2>stay on a track for it? Because mine is a

0:27:32.960 --> 0:27:36.960
<v Speaker 2>very EIGHTYHD. I'm I'm just going all around, driving in

0:27:37.000 --> 0:27:38.280
<v Speaker 2>circles around Wikipedia.

0:27:39.600 --> 0:27:42.879
<v Speaker 5>I'll go like forty five minutes to an hour if

0:27:42.920 --> 0:27:45.760
<v Speaker 5>a topic doesn't have me hooked and then I'll just

0:27:45.800 --> 0:27:49.240
<v Speaker 5>start pushing crazy if something's like got me going. Like

0:27:49.280 --> 0:27:52.840
<v Speaker 5>I remember at twenty, I just I dropped weed and

0:27:52.840 --> 0:27:55.280
<v Speaker 5>I was like, all right, Crypto, you know, let me

0:27:55.320 --> 0:27:57.199
<v Speaker 5>just get addicted to the big mean thing. Let me

0:27:57.200 --> 0:27:58.240
<v Speaker 5>get let me get addicted to.

0:27:58.359 --> 0:28:02.639
<v Speaker 4>Well what was I addicted to? It?

0:28:02.680 --> 0:28:05.280
<v Speaker 5>Basically should coins just what everyone's doing now. I was like,

0:28:05.320 --> 0:28:07.720
<v Speaker 5>oh my god, this is terrible. I'm losing all my

0:28:07.760 --> 0:28:10.199
<v Speaker 5>money left and right. I'm no longer in school now,

0:28:10.280 --> 0:28:12.919
<v Speaker 5>I'm like, all right, I went from computer science when

0:28:12.920 --> 0:28:16.359
<v Speaker 5>I was like eighteen to going into being an accountant afterwards.

0:28:17.080 --> 0:28:18.040
<v Speaker 5>That shit was terrible.

0:28:18.080 --> 0:28:18.280
<v Speaker 4>Man.

0:28:18.440 --> 0:28:23.199
<v Speaker 5>I feel like one of the man one of the

0:28:23.200 --> 0:28:25.440
<v Speaker 5>worst addictions that I've had is definitely Crypto, just because

0:28:25.440 --> 0:28:29.919
<v Speaker 5>I kept pushing you know, like a different fucking I

0:28:29.920 --> 0:28:33.280
<v Speaker 5>guess strategies every single like week or so. I was

0:28:33.280 --> 0:28:38.360
<v Speaker 5>started looking at trading, and you know, just you start

0:28:38.360 --> 0:28:40.800
<v Speaker 5>going into all these like degenerate shits, like you start

0:28:40.840 --> 0:28:46.760
<v Speaker 5>going on like all these degenerate plays. But after crypto

0:28:46.800 --> 0:28:48.800
<v Speaker 5>and now twenty one, this is you know, I'm twenty

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<v Speaker 5>one right now, I got into gambling, and so life

0:28:56.000 --> 0:28:58.719
<v Speaker 5>has just been weird. I looked at what I make

0:28:58.760 --> 0:29:07.040
<v Speaker 5>in a year, and I've gambled my entire salary. I

0:29:07.080 --> 0:29:09.080
<v Speaker 5>went from zero to hero with this.

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<v Speaker 2>Did you go from zero to hero and back to zero?

0:29:14.040 --> 0:29:15.000
<v Speaker 2>Or are you still a hero?

0:29:17.360 --> 0:29:24.320
<v Speaker 5>You know what, I'm actually breaking even right now, which

0:29:24.360 --> 0:29:24.840
<v Speaker 5>is crazy.

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<v Speaker 2>Okay, great, that's a good time to quit.

0:29:28.240 --> 0:29:33.400
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, man, I'm glad you brought that up so before

0:29:33.440 --> 0:29:37.320
<v Speaker 5>I turned twenty two. My thing is, if I don't

0:29:37.360 --> 0:29:42.520
<v Speaker 5>break even, I'm done, you know, like I'm no longer

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<v Speaker 5>hitting it.

0:29:45.320 --> 0:29:46.040
<v Speaker 2>Hold on, what do you?

0:29:46.040 --> 0:29:46.280
<v Speaker 4>What do you?

0:29:46.320 --> 0:29:49.520
<v Speaker 2>Okay, well, here's here's here's I'm gonna stop you for

0:29:49.560 --> 0:29:53.560
<v Speaker 2>a second. Okay, Okay, so you've you've almost broken even,

0:29:53.640 --> 0:29:54.240
<v Speaker 2>is what you're saying.

0:29:55.240 --> 0:29:55.720
<v Speaker 4>No, no, no, no.

0:29:55.880 --> 0:29:58.080
<v Speaker 5>What I'm saying is I'm still above the water. I'm

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<v Speaker 5>still I'm like maybe like a grand a grand profit

0:30:02.440 --> 0:30:02.800
<v Speaker 5>right now?

0:30:03.280 --> 0:30:05.520
<v Speaker 2>Oh so why don't you? Why don't you quit now?

0:30:07.040 --> 0:30:09.200
<v Speaker 5>The goal is to just keep riding the wave, you

0:30:09.240 --> 0:30:13.200
<v Speaker 5>know what. Like, here's the thing. If I'm someone right

0:30:13.680 --> 0:30:17.120
<v Speaker 5>who's got the I don't I got not shitty.

0:30:17.160 --> 0:30:17.800
<v Speaker 2>Look, but.

0:30:20.280 --> 0:30:23.400
<v Speaker 5>If I'm someone who's able to just ride the waves,

0:30:23.520 --> 0:30:26.040
<v Speaker 5>and like, so far nothing bad has happened to me,

0:30:27.240 --> 0:30:31.560
<v Speaker 5>why not just keep going. There's there's definitely like there's

0:30:31.560 --> 0:30:34.160
<v Speaker 5>definitely like a I don't know, I feel like.

0:30:34.120 --> 0:30:35.720
<v Speaker 4>It's a sign or something. You know.

0:30:35.800 --> 0:30:40.400
<v Speaker 5>It's like I haven't I haven't really lost. I guess

0:30:40.440 --> 0:30:42.320
<v Speaker 5>the only what do you what?

0:30:42.320 --> 0:30:44.560
<v Speaker 2>What do you? What do you mean? What kind of sign?

0:30:44.760 --> 0:30:45.920
<v Speaker 2>What are you? A sign of? What?

0:30:47.760 --> 0:30:49.880
<v Speaker 4>I feel like it?

0:30:49.880 --> 0:30:51.360
<v Speaker 5>It's it's obviously not my thing.

0:30:51.920 --> 0:30:52.720
<v Speaker 4>Gambling isn't.

0:30:53.000 --> 0:30:56.760
<v Speaker 5>But I'm saying I feel like my sign is that

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<v Speaker 5>once I'm able to continue on something for a year

0:31:00.520 --> 0:31:03.280
<v Speaker 5>plus and and this is right now, is this has

0:31:03.360 --> 0:31:04.160
<v Speaker 5>all been negative?

0:31:04.240 --> 0:31:04.360
<v Speaker 1>Right?

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<v Speaker 5>All these addictions have been pretty uh, I guess, uh,

0:31:09.800 --> 0:31:16.920
<v Speaker 5>spiraling right. I feel like once I find something that's positive,

0:31:16.960 --> 0:31:19.040
<v Speaker 5>I'm just gonna ride that way for like ten years

0:31:19.160 --> 0:31:22.880
<v Speaker 5>or some shit. And and so far I haven't I

0:31:22.960 --> 0:31:25.960
<v Speaker 5>had like I don't know, I just haven't hit big

0:31:26.000 --> 0:31:26.880
<v Speaker 5>on something positive.

0:31:27.040 --> 0:31:30.920
<v Speaker 2>I like, my literally is, but what's your what's your name?

0:31:31.000 --> 0:31:31.840
<v Speaker 2>What's your name again?

0:31:32.280 --> 0:31:35.560
<v Speaker 4>Aaron? Aaron? Uh?

0:31:35.600 --> 0:31:36.520
<v Speaker 2>And you're twenty one?

0:31:38.280 --> 0:31:39.000
<v Speaker 4>Yeah? Yeah?

0:31:39.160 --> 0:31:44.680
<v Speaker 2>And here's the thing, what hold on? What are you

0:31:44.760 --> 0:31:45.360
<v Speaker 2>in school?

0:31:46.840 --> 0:31:51.000
<v Speaker 5>I was in school for computer science and I switched

0:31:51.000 --> 0:31:56.120
<v Speaker 5>to accounting and after that, I'm like going on literally

0:31:56.120 --> 0:31:58.520
<v Speaker 5>the whole year of just going to work instead of

0:31:58.720 --> 0:31:59.680
<v Speaker 5>instead of going to school.

0:31:59.720 --> 0:32:00.880
<v Speaker 4>So I'm like a year into it.

0:32:01.080 --> 0:32:06.640
<v Speaker 2>And you're you're, I, look, I'm the Here's and you

0:32:06.760 --> 0:32:08.840
<v Speaker 2>know this. Everyone knows this. I'm not a real therapist,

0:32:08.920 --> 0:32:14.800
<v Speaker 2>but I'm interested in you. It's an interesting issue. So

0:32:14.920 --> 0:32:18.080
<v Speaker 2>you're trying to find you sound like you get you

0:32:18.120 --> 0:32:21.840
<v Speaker 2>get obsessed with things, like every year you have a

0:32:21.880 --> 0:32:25.320
<v Speaker 2>new thing that you're obsessed with. And you're like, all right,

0:32:25.400 --> 0:32:27.600
<v Speaker 2>I know that I get obsessed with stuff, so let

0:32:27.640 --> 0:32:32.440
<v Speaker 2>me at least find something to get obsessed with that's positive, right.

0:32:32.520 --> 0:32:34.440
<v Speaker 2>That's and then and then and you're and you're like,

0:32:34.520 --> 0:32:37.280
<v Speaker 2>let me get let me see if I can land

0:32:37.440 --> 0:32:43.400
<v Speaker 2>the my crazy plane on a positive runway. And then

0:32:43.440 --> 0:32:46.920
<v Speaker 2>once I do, I'm gonna rock it down that runway

0:32:46.960 --> 0:32:50.120
<v Speaker 2>for for forever. This is what you're saying to me.

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<v Speaker 5>Well, that's the thing. I feel like, once you find

0:32:54.920 --> 0:33:00.840
<v Speaker 5>something positive, you are you Definitely I had the waves longer,

0:33:00.880 --> 0:33:03.600
<v Speaker 5>because you know, it's like impacting you in a positive way,

0:33:03.680 --> 0:33:07.840
<v Speaker 5>like from fourteen to seventeen. I Uh, I had a

0:33:07.840 --> 0:33:12.760
<v Speaker 5>girlfriend in high school and uh, you know, like that

0:33:12.880 --> 0:33:16.480
<v Speaker 5>shit was just great, Like I remember like, you know,

0:33:16.520 --> 0:33:21.040
<v Speaker 5>it was all fucking rainbows and happiness and sunshine and shit.

0:33:21.200 --> 0:33:22.760
<v Speaker 4>Now at that's.

0:33:22.560 --> 0:33:26.320
<v Speaker 5>Gone, it's like, oh shit, you know, you're just you

0:33:26.360 --> 0:33:31.680
<v Speaker 5>start spiraling out of it, and that's uh, maybe that's

0:33:31.680 --> 0:33:32.440
<v Speaker 5>where it all started.

0:33:32.440 --> 0:33:32.600
<v Speaker 4>You know.

0:33:32.920 --> 0:33:36.520
<v Speaker 5>Maybe I just became like destructive ones once me and

0:33:36.520 --> 0:33:37.880
<v Speaker 5>the girl's lazy, you know what I mean.

0:33:38.480 --> 0:33:41.120
<v Speaker 2>But you feel like you became destructive once you broke

0:33:41.200 --> 0:33:43.400
<v Speaker 2>up with your girlfriend four years ago.

0:33:45.720 --> 0:33:47.880
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, it could be.

0:33:48.480 --> 0:33:52.040
<v Speaker 2>So tell me, I guess, tell me this. You're saying

0:33:52.040 --> 0:33:55.480
<v Speaker 2>that you want to land this plane on something positive,

0:33:55.840 --> 0:34:00.120
<v Speaker 2>right to get obsessed with what what ideas do you have?

0:34:00.200 --> 0:34:02.840
<v Speaker 2>What have you been leaning towards?

0:34:03.080 --> 0:34:10.440
<v Speaker 5>So, I you know, I guess I've noticed that every

0:34:10.480 --> 0:34:14.279
<v Speaker 5>time that I pick up something, it's always because I

0:34:14.360 --> 0:34:17.480
<v Speaker 5>started doing research on Reddit or something like. I've always

0:34:17.560 --> 0:34:21.680
<v Speaker 5>just been heavily focused on using my computer to find

0:34:21.719 --> 0:34:23.319
<v Speaker 5>out whatever it is I'm gonna do.

0:34:24.840 --> 0:34:26.399
<v Speaker 6>Yeah, and so.

0:34:27.840 --> 0:34:34.200
<v Speaker 5>I guess maybe using my using my uh using my

0:34:34.239 --> 0:34:35.880
<v Speaker 5>computer or something good like, I don't know if that's

0:34:35.920 --> 0:34:37.799
<v Speaker 5>why I picked up coding like that was fun for

0:34:37.840 --> 0:34:43.040
<v Speaker 5>a while while last year. Yeah, Like, I don't know,

0:34:43.080 --> 0:34:46.280
<v Speaker 5>it's just with the current field that I'm in in work.

0:34:47.000 --> 0:34:50.319
<v Speaker 5>I haven't touched the computer in a while to like

0:34:51.280 --> 0:34:52.480
<v Speaker 5>make a program or anything.

0:34:53.040 --> 0:34:57.680
<v Speaker 2>So well, well let me tell you. Well, can I

0:34:57.760 --> 0:34:59.879
<v Speaker 2>just say this because this just popped into my brain.

0:35:00.360 --> 0:35:02.480
<v Speaker 2>I just want you to I want you to know something, Aaron,

0:35:02.520 --> 0:35:08.600
<v Speaker 2>You're not You're not insane. You're not insane. You're not insane.

0:35:08.800 --> 0:35:11.240
<v Speaker 2>And the reason I think you're not insane and maybe,

0:35:11.520 --> 0:35:17.160
<v Speaker 2>by the way, I'm by the way, I'm insane, So

0:35:17.160 --> 0:35:20.799
<v Speaker 2>so me saying that you're not insane actually probably isn't

0:35:20.800 --> 0:35:24.359
<v Speaker 2>worth much because I'm only saying you're not insane because

0:35:24.400 --> 0:35:27.440
<v Speaker 2>I identify with your issue. But yet I am also insane,

0:35:27.880 --> 0:35:30.440
<v Speaker 2>So maybe you actually are insane. But what what I

0:35:30.560 --> 0:35:35.760
<v Speaker 2>The reason I said that is because the does Sometimes

0:35:35.760 --> 0:35:39.399
<v Speaker 2>I really feel like life is just uh you need

0:35:39.440 --> 0:35:44.840
<v Speaker 2>to distract yourself until you die, uh because if you don't,

0:35:45.320 --> 0:35:52.279
<v Speaker 2>you will slip into a pit of existential dread and

0:35:52.600 --> 0:35:54.839
<v Speaker 2>uh some and it's like you you can either really

0:35:54.920 --> 0:35:59.920
<v Speaker 2>distract yourself, well, most most people on Earth are distracting

0:36:00.080 --> 0:36:04.880
<v Speaker 2>themselves with their own survival. That's like most people. And

0:36:04.920 --> 0:36:09.440
<v Speaker 2>then if you are fucking lucky, if you're a blessed

0:36:10.239 --> 0:36:16.239
<v Speaker 2>lucky human being. Survival doesn't doesn't isn't the main thing

0:36:16.640 --> 0:36:19.640
<v Speaker 2>that's distracting you from the void. And if you're that lucky,

0:36:20.000 --> 0:36:23.240
<v Speaker 2>you can be distracted from the void through your relationships

0:36:23.480 --> 0:36:27.640
<v Speaker 2>like this girlfriend you were talking about, or through passions,

0:36:28.760 --> 0:36:33.640
<v Speaker 2>a career that you chose or whatever, like like the

0:36:33.680 --> 0:36:36.840
<v Speaker 2>fucking sneakers, or you distract yourself, or you distract yourself

0:36:36.880 --> 0:36:40.120
<v Speaker 2>with drugs and getting high all the time and doing

0:36:40.680 --> 0:36:44.920
<v Speaker 2>getting drunk all the time. But yeah, the struggle that

0:36:44.920 --> 0:36:47.279
<v Speaker 2>you're having of like I need to distract myself with

0:36:47.400 --> 0:36:51.920
<v Speaker 2>something or else I will go my my idle hands

0:36:52.000 --> 0:36:57.040
<v Speaker 2>will reach for the nearest fucking gun. And yeah, maybe

0:36:57.040 --> 0:36:59.960
<v Speaker 2>not that far, but but you know what I mean,

0:37:00.320 --> 0:37:03.799
<v Speaker 2>Like you just will just go insane, You'll go crazy. So, yes,

0:37:03.840 --> 0:37:07.120
<v Speaker 2>I understand the whole, the whole. I'm getting a d

0:37:07.880 --> 0:37:10.200
<v Speaker 2>You're framing it like it's such a crazy thing to

0:37:10.920 --> 0:37:13.520
<v Speaker 2>need something for your brain to land on, for you

0:37:13.600 --> 0:37:19.440
<v Speaker 2>to not not want to kill yourself. But it makes sense,

0:37:20.200 --> 0:37:24.560
<v Speaker 2>So I get you. I'm in the same boat as that,

0:37:25.080 --> 0:37:27.480
<v Speaker 2>and I think I think it's true, and I want

0:37:27.520 --> 0:37:28.920
<v Speaker 2>you to hold that thought for a second, but I

0:37:28.960 --> 0:37:34.680
<v Speaker 2>think I'm just in my personal experience with this, and

0:37:34.760 --> 0:37:39.319
<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm also you know, the the idea of like, Okay,

0:37:39.400 --> 0:37:43.640
<v Speaker 2>let me at least find something that's good, that's not

0:37:43.680 --> 0:37:46.680
<v Speaker 2>gonna drive me crazy, that's not gonna cause me to

0:37:46.719 --> 0:37:49.920
<v Speaker 2>lose all my fucking money, that's not gonna cause my

0:37:50.360 --> 0:37:54.400
<v Speaker 2>health to shoot into the fucking gutter. Yeah, you have

0:37:54.440 --> 0:37:56.600
<v Speaker 2>a you're on a certain I think that makes sense

0:37:57.000 --> 0:37:58.799
<v Speaker 2>to try to take all this energy and putting into

0:37:59.160 --> 0:38:02.200
<v Speaker 2>something else, but something that's good. So what were you

0:38:02.239 --> 0:38:03.600
<v Speaker 2>gonna say?

0:38:05.800 --> 0:38:07.960
<v Speaker 4>Man? You lost me.

0:38:08.000 --> 0:38:14.600
<v Speaker 5>Those are beautiful words. I lost my thought going on

0:38:14.680 --> 0:38:15.280
<v Speaker 5>to that though.

0:38:17.760 --> 0:38:18.400
<v Speaker 4>Man, it's.

0:38:20.000 --> 0:38:21.840
<v Speaker 2>Why I was talking and you said, I hold on,

0:38:21.880 --> 0:38:23.799
<v Speaker 2>I was talking and you said, you know, you said

0:38:23.840 --> 0:38:25.200
<v Speaker 2>you said to me, You're like, you know what it is,

0:38:25.239 --> 0:38:26.839
<v Speaker 2>you know what it is, And then you're gonna say something,

0:38:28.760 --> 0:38:29.439
<v Speaker 2>you know what it.

0:38:29.440 --> 0:38:36.200
<v Speaker 4>Is, you know what it is. It's that, Uh. I think.

0:38:37.640 --> 0:38:41.040
<v Speaker 5>Throughout all the drugs that I've taken, throughout all the

0:38:42.080 --> 0:38:44.200
<v Speaker 5>you know girls that I've talked to, whatever it is,

0:38:45.080 --> 0:38:48.799
<v Speaker 5>it's the the addictions that I claim to have that

0:38:49.000 --> 0:38:52.760
<v Speaker 5>like I guess you said weed was really an addiction,

0:38:53.000 --> 0:38:55.920
<v Speaker 5>and like searching for something positive isn't always an addiction.

0:38:57.320 --> 0:38:59.160
<v Speaker 2>I don't know if I said weed isn't an addiction,

0:38:59.400 --> 0:39:01.000
<v Speaker 2>but go ahead, keep going.

0:39:03.400 --> 0:39:09.239
<v Speaker 5>Throughout throughout the space. I've noticed that, like, I guess

0:39:09.840 --> 0:39:11.960
<v Speaker 5>I just became like, well, I went from being like

0:39:12.000 --> 0:39:15.480
<v Speaker 5>a shooting star. You know, I really patted myself on

0:39:15.520 --> 0:39:20.120
<v Speaker 5>the back at seventeen for having like a I think

0:39:20.160 --> 0:39:22.239
<v Speaker 5>it was like a one hundred and thirty four i Q.

0:39:22.680 --> 0:39:26.640
<v Speaker 5>I don't know, I was some fucking I'm I'm somewhat smart, right,

0:39:26.680 --> 0:39:30.479
<v Speaker 5>I'm I'm someone half smart. I have somewhat of a brain.

0:39:31.360 --> 0:39:35.040
<v Speaker 5>From from being a shooting star to now, like you know,

0:39:35.239 --> 0:39:37.240
<v Speaker 5>just living a regular life.

0:39:37.360 --> 0:39:38.040
<v Speaker 4>You know, at one.

0:39:37.880 --> 0:39:40.120
<v Speaker 5>Point with the shoe that I was making like a

0:39:40.160 --> 0:39:44.080
<v Speaker 5>good I think it was like eighty ninety grand from

0:39:44.120 --> 0:39:46.920
<v Speaker 5>being a shooting star making some decent money. Yeah, and

0:39:46.960 --> 0:39:50.440
<v Speaker 5>now just like feeling burnt out. I feel like the

0:39:50.520 --> 0:39:53.400
<v Speaker 5>distractions has helped me along the way to, like I

0:39:53.400 --> 0:39:55.919
<v Speaker 5>guess remind myself that, like I could have it way worse,

0:39:55.960 --> 0:40:01.520
<v Speaker 5>you know. I feel like, yeah, maybe know just being

0:40:01.560 --> 0:40:07.360
<v Speaker 5>burnt out, maybe just taking losses along the way, shaping

0:40:07.400 --> 0:40:13.160
<v Speaker 5>myself back up being a regular person. Yeah, maybe maybe

0:40:13.160 --> 0:40:14.040
<v Speaker 5>it was for the better man.

0:40:15.120 --> 0:40:20.239
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, yeah, yeah, well I think so too. That's that's

0:40:20.280 --> 0:40:22.439
<v Speaker 2>the journey I'm on right now, is I'm I just don't.

0:40:22.440 --> 0:40:26.040
<v Speaker 2>I don't, But I don't know if this is resonates

0:40:26.040 --> 0:40:27.400
<v Speaker 2>with you or if it's what we're talking about. But

0:40:27.440 --> 0:40:32.319
<v Speaker 2>I've I've I just finished my uh final like tour,

0:40:32.440 --> 0:40:35.319
<v Speaker 2>and I've been running around for two years trying to

0:40:35.360 --> 0:40:41.680
<v Speaker 2>distract myself from uh, you know, existential thought and whatnot.

0:40:42.320 --> 0:40:47.440
<v Speaker 2>And I'm also it's been very high highs and low lows.

0:40:47.440 --> 0:40:49.839
<v Speaker 2>And I'm also like, let me just kind of keep

0:40:49.880 --> 0:40:54.840
<v Speaker 2>get things normal, get things on a steady chill, not

0:40:55.120 --> 0:41:03.120
<v Speaker 2>crazy pace. Okay, is that is that? Did I interrupt

0:41:03.160 --> 0:41:05.000
<v Speaker 2>what you were saying to talk about something completely random

0:41:05.040 --> 0:41:05.880
<v Speaker 2>or does that make sense?

0:41:06.719 --> 0:41:08.960
<v Speaker 5>No, it makes sense that you've had high highs and

0:41:09.000 --> 0:41:12.120
<v Speaker 5>low lows, but you just like cut yourself off.

0:41:12.200 --> 0:41:12.640
<v Speaker 4>Made sense?

0:41:13.800 --> 0:41:19.799
<v Speaker 2>Oh? Sorry? Oh I thought I thought I finished that thought. Shit,

0:41:21.640 --> 0:41:24.600
<v Speaker 2>what the fuck were we talking? What were we talking about?

0:41:25.320 --> 0:41:26.120
<v Speaker 5>Being burnt out?

0:41:26.600 --> 0:41:30.279
<v Speaker 2>Oh? Yes, yes, yes, being burnt out. Yes, being burnt out,

0:41:30.400 --> 0:41:32.680
<v Speaker 2>and yes I feel burnt out. And now I'm just like,

0:41:33.880 --> 0:41:35.520
<v Speaker 2>I don't know, I know, I don't know. Man, I

0:41:35.560 --> 0:41:39.040
<v Speaker 2>wish I had fucking answers for you, but this, uh,

0:41:39.200 --> 0:41:41.080
<v Speaker 2>I don't. I don't at all. I don't at all.

0:41:41.200 --> 0:41:43.920
<v Speaker 2>I think I think. I mean, you're twenty to your

0:41:44.000 --> 0:41:48.640
<v Speaker 2>you're you've got uh I'm like five six years older

0:41:48.640 --> 0:41:52.759
<v Speaker 2>than you something like that, and I'm feeling pretty burnt out.

0:41:52.800 --> 0:41:58.200
<v Speaker 2>And it's like, if you're feeling burnt out, now, maybe

0:41:58.239 --> 0:42:00.640
<v Speaker 2>cut yourself a little bit of a break and step

0:42:00.760 --> 0:42:04.479
<v Speaker 2>back and try to approach it, approach this a little

0:42:04.480 --> 0:42:05.800
<v Speaker 2>more patiently, I suppose.

0:42:08.160 --> 0:42:11.120
<v Speaker 5>Man, I'm not. I'm not one for patience. I think

0:42:11.120 --> 0:42:12.400
<v Speaker 5>that's that's part of the issue.

0:42:12.640 --> 0:42:19.360
<v Speaker 2>I've definitely like, if if that's your wiring, go ahead,

0:42:19.760 --> 0:42:24.960
<v Speaker 2>just don't don't hurt yourself or other people or or

0:42:25.000 --> 0:42:28.040
<v Speaker 2>lose all your money. Just just I think it's okay.

0:42:28.080 --> 0:42:29.840
<v Speaker 2>I think it's okay for you to be uh, be

0:42:29.920 --> 0:42:32.360
<v Speaker 2>a be a crazy guy and and and and do

0:42:33.640 --> 0:42:36.000
<v Speaker 2>you know, go ham and do your crazy stuff, but

0:42:36.400 --> 0:42:39.320
<v Speaker 2>just be careful a little bit. Have have a couple

0:42:39.360 --> 0:42:46.400
<v Speaker 2>of of uh, you know, rules in place, you know,

0:42:46.560 --> 0:42:49.680
<v Speaker 2>don't you know what I mean? Like like like, it's okay,

0:42:49.760 --> 0:42:52.359
<v Speaker 2>it's okay to be obsessed with things and keep keep

0:42:52.400 --> 0:42:56.840
<v Speaker 2>going down following your obsessions. But don't don't kill anyone,

0:42:57.320 --> 0:43:01.480
<v Speaker 2>including you know, don't yourself. Don't do anything too fucking crazy.

0:43:03.960 --> 0:43:06.759
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, that's that's tough. But I gotta ask about the tour.

0:43:07.040 --> 0:43:09.399
<v Speaker 5>So did you take any drugs on the tour?

0:43:10.480 --> 0:43:13.040
<v Speaker 2>Sure? Yeah, not like every day?

0:43:13.320 --> 0:43:18.120
<v Speaker 4>Not every day? Damn.

0:43:18.840 --> 0:43:21.000
<v Speaker 5>Can you get into specifics about that on on stream

0:43:21.080 --> 0:43:21.239
<v Speaker 5>or no?

0:43:22.200 --> 0:43:26.560
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, it's not it's nothing, I dude me, it's I was.

0:43:26.680 --> 0:43:31.360
<v Speaker 2>I was just in Europe and uh, me and my

0:43:31.480 --> 0:43:34.200
<v Speaker 2>buddy David, who went with me, we were sitting in

0:43:34.239 --> 0:43:39.319
<v Speaker 2>our hotel room, uh eating Mike and Ikes, were just

0:43:39.400 --> 0:43:42.000
<v Speaker 2>eating a bunch of mic and Ikes, and we were like,

0:43:43.440 --> 0:43:47.600
<v Speaker 2>we were like, man, people people people keep people are

0:43:47.640 --> 0:43:50.120
<v Speaker 2>People are like, oh, tour must be so crazy, and

0:43:50.160 --> 0:43:52.640
<v Speaker 2>it's just us in twin beds eating Mike and Ikes.

0:43:54.800 --> 0:43:57.879
<v Speaker 2>I mean I did cocaine once, but just a little bit.

0:43:58.520 --> 0:44:00.759
<v Speaker 2>It wasn't that crazy though, it was. It's whatnot. It

0:44:00.800 --> 0:44:03.719
<v Speaker 2>wasn't that. It's not that crazy. It's more it's like

0:44:03.920 --> 0:44:08.160
<v Speaker 2>it's like one time doing that and then most nights

0:44:09.880 --> 0:44:13.439
<v Speaker 2>just eating drinking a Coca cola at night. I don't

0:44:13.480 --> 0:44:15.279
<v Speaker 2>usually drink it. I don't usually drink them at night

0:44:15.320 --> 0:44:16.680
<v Speaker 2>because there's too much caffeine.

0:44:19.719 --> 0:44:23.120
<v Speaker 5>Man, we are on different boats. I I guess that's

0:44:23.160 --> 0:44:24.080
<v Speaker 5>the one that I never beat.

0:44:24.560 --> 0:44:25.080
<v Speaker 4>Caffeine.

0:44:25.680 --> 0:44:28.160
<v Speaker 5>That was like since I was like three four years old.

0:44:28.680 --> 0:44:30.400
<v Speaker 5>My grandma gave me like a cup of coffee and

0:44:30.400 --> 0:44:32.960
<v Speaker 5>a pizza bread, and I've just been running with it

0:44:32.960 --> 0:44:36.880
<v Speaker 5>ever since, you know, drinking coffee every day. But I

0:44:36.920 --> 0:44:39.840
<v Speaker 5>think that's the one thing that I'll never do. And crazy,

0:44:39.880 --> 0:44:42.880
<v Speaker 5>you know, I've fucking I've been on LSD seen my

0:44:42.960 --> 0:44:45.560
<v Speaker 5>fucking future and shit fucking crazy.

0:44:46.160 --> 0:44:48.800
<v Speaker 2>Obviously it's you said you said you saw your future

0:44:48.840 --> 0:44:49.520
<v Speaker 2>on LSD.

0:44:50.600 --> 0:44:53.839
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, it's it's well, you know, it's you're you're hallucinating,

0:44:53.880 --> 0:44:54.959
<v Speaker 5>so it's not one hundred percent.

0:44:55.360 --> 0:44:57.839
<v Speaker 4>But I saw some pretty crazy shit.

0:44:57.920 --> 0:45:02.200
<v Speaker 5>Like I saw myself basically like living.

0:45:01.960 --> 0:45:02.160
<v Speaker 4>In a.

0:45:05.160 --> 0:45:07.160
<v Speaker 5>It was like a high rise or something with my

0:45:07.280 --> 0:45:11.160
<v Speaker 5>feet like like I was like sitting down a little

0:45:11.200 --> 0:45:13.120
<v Speaker 5>like deck looking over the city.

0:45:12.880 --> 0:45:15.600
<v Speaker 4>Of Chicago because that's where I'm from. Like just.

0:45:17.600 --> 0:45:19.839
<v Speaker 5>Like and I woke up and I was like, oh shit,

0:45:20.760 --> 0:45:23.720
<v Speaker 5>Like it started off with me, you know, just closing

0:45:23.719 --> 0:45:25.680
<v Speaker 5>my eyes and I was loosening just seeing ship. And

0:45:25.719 --> 0:45:29.040
<v Speaker 5>then I wake up hours later and I was like, oh, shit,

0:45:29.239 --> 0:45:32.520
<v Speaker 5>like it was like this hallucination was just like it

0:45:32.560 --> 0:45:35.040
<v Speaker 5>also just expended into a dream and like seeing ship

0:45:35.160 --> 0:45:40.839
<v Speaker 5>like that, Like it's like, how do I put this?

0:45:41.000 --> 0:45:44.799
<v Speaker 5>Like basically seeing what a hallucination version of my life

0:45:44.840 --> 0:45:47.560
<v Speaker 5>would have been and then going back to like just

0:45:47.600 --> 0:45:51.759
<v Speaker 5>being a burnt out star. I was like, either I

0:45:51.840 --> 0:45:52.319
<v Speaker 5>fixed my.

0:45:52.320 --> 0:45:56.239
<v Speaker 2>Life, now I'm gonna let you finish, and then I'm

0:45:56.239 --> 0:45:57.399
<v Speaker 2>gonna let you finish and then I'll.

0:45:57.800 --> 0:46:02.480
<v Speaker 5>Okay being on that like bright bright star, being like,

0:46:02.520 --> 0:46:05.120
<v Speaker 5>you know, fucking pushing myself to the limits, hat holding

0:46:05.160 --> 0:46:07.560
<v Speaker 5>myself up to high standards and being in the one

0:46:07.640 --> 0:46:13.200
<v Speaker 5>percent of amongst my peers, like I guess financially and educationally,

0:46:13.360 --> 0:46:16.600
<v Speaker 5>so now fucking losing it all and basically like feeling

0:46:16.640 --> 0:46:19.200
<v Speaker 5>like I have no you know, I'm not even I'm not.

0:46:19.280 --> 0:46:21.880
<v Speaker 5>I'm not, I'm not I'm not even in college anymore.

0:46:22.600 --> 0:46:24.600
<v Speaker 5>And I see all of my peers about it, fucking

0:46:25.400 --> 0:46:29.200
<v Speaker 5>get their bachelors and ship, like seeing seeing the difference

0:46:29.239 --> 0:46:31.440
<v Speaker 5>in life among the years where I kind of, you know,

0:46:31.560 --> 0:46:36.239
<v Speaker 5>just spiraled out. It's kind of like blowing. It's kind

0:46:36.239 --> 0:46:39.279
<v Speaker 5>of like fucking with my head where I'm like I

0:46:39.280 --> 0:46:42.040
<v Speaker 5>can either make that hallucination true, or I just fucking

0:46:42.040 --> 0:46:44.600
<v Speaker 5>blew it all and like picking up the drugs fucked

0:46:44.600 --> 0:46:44.920
<v Speaker 5>me up?

0:46:47.160 --> 0:46:51.440
<v Speaker 2>You're can I I have so many observations about uh

0:46:52.239 --> 0:46:55.480
<v Speaker 2>what you what you just said? If I can't, what's up?

0:46:56.040 --> 0:46:56.960
<v Speaker 4>What up? Go for it?

0:46:58.000 --> 0:46:59.560
<v Speaker 2>A few of them and by the and also by

0:46:59.600 --> 0:47:01.839
<v Speaker 2>the way, my hypocrites. So everything I'm telling you, I'm

0:47:01.880 --> 0:47:05.520
<v Speaker 2>just telling myself because I struggle with a lot of

0:47:05.560 --> 0:47:09.440
<v Speaker 2>these things too. Is one is that these what just

0:47:09.480 --> 0:47:14.160
<v Speaker 2>I mean, the greatest poison is comparing yourself to other people,

0:47:14.480 --> 0:47:16.719
<v Speaker 2>especially when you're young, just being you know what I mean,

0:47:16.960 --> 0:47:19.959
<v Speaker 2>being like, oh, my friends are graduating and I'm doing

0:47:20.080 --> 0:47:25.520
<v Speaker 2>It's like who gives a who fucking cares what anyone

0:47:25.520 --> 0:47:29.440
<v Speaker 2>else is doing? It was number one and then two

0:47:29.520 --> 0:47:33.120
<v Speaker 2>is like this, You're you're You're playing a crazy game

0:47:33.200 --> 0:47:34.239
<v Speaker 2>with yourself right now.

0:47:34.280 --> 0:47:34.440
<v Speaker 4>Man.

0:47:34.520 --> 0:47:38.120
<v Speaker 2>You're like, You're like, oh, either I either I need

0:47:38.200 --> 0:47:41.560
<v Speaker 2>to be in the top one percent financially of everyone

0:47:41.600 --> 0:47:45.279
<v Speaker 2>in my age group and I need to you know,

0:47:45.520 --> 0:47:50.120
<v Speaker 2>uh uh uh uh fucking have a have a super

0:47:50.239 --> 0:47:55.839
<v Speaker 2>successful whatever, or I lost it all and I suck

0:47:55.920 --> 0:47:58.359
<v Speaker 2>and I need to die. It's like, well, don't that's

0:47:58.400 --> 0:48:02.680
<v Speaker 2>too much. That's too much. There's too much. And also,

0:48:02.680 --> 0:48:04.280
<v Speaker 2>by the way, a lot of those things don't matter.

0:48:04.920 --> 0:48:09.399
<v Speaker 2>I've learned this because I've been there, and now I'm

0:48:09.440 --> 0:48:12.359
<v Speaker 2>looking back at things kind of retroactively, and I'm like, oh,

0:48:12.400 --> 0:48:15.120
<v Speaker 2>a lot of the stuff I thought matter doesn't matter.

0:48:15.320 --> 0:48:18.440
<v Speaker 2>There's a few things that matter. And it's like, are

0:48:18.480 --> 0:48:23.000
<v Speaker 2>you when you wake up? Are you do you feel

0:48:23.080 --> 0:48:27.000
<v Speaker 2>sane and happy? And are you are you are you

0:48:27.160 --> 0:48:29.680
<v Speaker 2>genuinely enjoying whatever it is you're about to go do?

0:48:31.719 --> 0:48:36.520
<v Speaker 2>And then two, are you around other people who you

0:48:36.800 --> 0:48:40.400
<v Speaker 2>like and make you and don't make you feel like

0:48:40.400 --> 0:48:42.239
<v Speaker 2>you're alone?

0:48:42.480 --> 0:48:42.719
<v Speaker 4>You know?

0:48:43.320 --> 0:48:46.399
<v Speaker 2>Those are really the two things that I've identified matter

0:48:46.520 --> 0:48:50.319
<v Speaker 2>because you can because everything else isn't really a road

0:48:50.400 --> 0:48:54.320
<v Speaker 2>to anywhere, right, Like, like, you could have the most

0:48:54.480 --> 0:48:59.200
<v Speaker 2>successful sneaker company ever, you could be the kingpin of sneakers.

0:49:00.320 --> 0:49:03.360
<v Speaker 2>But if you don't if you don't actually care about

0:49:03.680 --> 0:49:06.200
<v Speaker 2>selling sneakers, if you don't care about the process of

0:49:07.080 --> 0:49:11.160
<v Speaker 2>selling your sneakers, and and if you've made enough money

0:49:11.160 --> 0:49:16.759
<v Speaker 2>and now you're just making more just because I what

0:49:16.760 --> 0:49:17.520
<v Speaker 2>are you even doing?

0:49:18.840 --> 0:49:22.840
<v Speaker 5>Just you know, show No, I'm not even at sneakers.

0:49:22.880 --> 0:49:28.279
<v Speaker 5>I ended up losing at all. They long story short,

0:49:28.320 --> 0:49:30.120
<v Speaker 5>there's a way you can sell your sneakers where you

0:49:30.160 --> 0:49:32.839
<v Speaker 5>put them in different sneakers stories around the country, and

0:49:32.920 --> 0:49:35.200
<v Speaker 5>once they sell it, they take us like pen ten

0:49:35.239 --> 0:49:39.120
<v Speaker 5>percent and they give you back your money. A whole

0:49:39.120 --> 0:49:41.520
<v Speaker 5>bunch of stories during COVID just kind of ran off

0:49:41.560 --> 0:49:45.040
<v Speaker 5>with everyone's money and I lost that, so I had

0:49:45.040 --> 0:49:48.840
<v Speaker 5>to build up my money again by working. But that

0:49:48.960 --> 0:49:54.000
<v Speaker 5>that whole comparison party about, you know, just being an

0:49:54.040 --> 0:49:58.360
<v Speaker 5>extremist and having comparison just like deeply engraved into me.

0:49:58.560 --> 0:50:01.640
<v Speaker 5>I think.

0:50:02.840 --> 0:50:06.120
<v Speaker 4>I don't know.

0:50:06.160 --> 0:50:10.280
<v Speaker 5>I think I've just been kind of like always drilling

0:50:10.280 --> 0:50:14.799
<v Speaker 5>that into my head to kind of be wanting to

0:50:14.840 --> 0:50:17.560
<v Speaker 5>be the very best, like fucking ash catch like it's

0:50:17.600 --> 0:50:21.239
<v Speaker 5>just it's part of I guess, just well do it.

0:50:21.400 --> 0:50:24.560
<v Speaker 2>Just do me a favorite. And I actually think I

0:50:24.600 --> 0:50:27.399
<v Speaker 2>don't want to discount that fully because I don't think

0:50:27.640 --> 0:50:33.520
<v Speaker 2>ambition is inherently bad. I don't. But just just do

0:50:33.680 --> 0:50:38.240
<v Speaker 2>me when you when you when you will. I can't

0:50:38.600 --> 0:50:43.560
<v Speaker 2>do this for you, but like take a second, whether

0:50:43.600 --> 0:50:47.000
<v Speaker 2>it's today or tomorrow, just really sit down and journal

0:50:47.080 --> 0:50:51.239
<v Speaker 2>or meditate and just be like take that that that

0:50:52.800 --> 0:50:55.359
<v Speaker 2>thing of like I gotta be the best and take

0:50:55.400 --> 0:50:58.600
<v Speaker 2>your ambition and throw it on the table and go, okay,

0:50:58.680 --> 0:51:01.040
<v Speaker 2>in what and be honest with yourself and go in

0:51:01.200 --> 0:51:07.360
<v Speaker 2>what arenas has this thing made my life better? And

0:51:07.400 --> 0:51:11.680
<v Speaker 2>then in what arenas has this thing made my life worse?

0:51:13.360 --> 0:51:18.600
<v Speaker 2>And try to be honest with yourself about the answers

0:51:18.760 --> 0:51:22.480
<v Speaker 2>to that, and then see see what you find it

0:51:22.480 --> 0:51:23.800
<v Speaker 2>could be helpful information.

0:51:25.760 --> 0:51:28.080
<v Speaker 4>Yeah, I get that. I just.

0:51:30.400 --> 0:51:32.960
<v Speaker 5>I guess off of that, you pick out what areas

0:51:32.960 --> 0:51:35.239
<v Speaker 5>of life you'd like to focus on, and then you

0:51:35.320 --> 0:51:40.160
<v Speaker 5>start pushing towards those general categories more and building up

0:51:40.200 --> 0:51:40.840
<v Speaker 5>something positive.

0:51:40.920 --> 0:51:46.399
<v Speaker 2>Right, Oh well, I guess so well, like one other thing,

0:51:46.560 --> 0:51:50.879
<v Speaker 2>one another thing before or just what is the whole

0:51:51.160 --> 0:51:55.759
<v Speaker 2>the whole concept of you lost everything? Just so you know,

0:51:56.440 --> 0:52:00.200
<v Speaker 2>is that whatever is inside of you that was able

0:52:00.280 --> 0:52:04.799
<v Speaker 2>to create anything in the first place is no no

0:52:04.840 --> 0:52:07.399
<v Speaker 2>one can ever take that away from you. That can't

0:52:07.440 --> 0:52:10.440
<v Speaker 2>be lost. That's like, that's the only thing you truly

0:52:10.520 --> 0:52:14.480
<v Speaker 2>even have. And so when you think you've lost everything,

0:52:14.520 --> 0:52:18.600
<v Speaker 2>you you really haven't because you're a young guy and

0:52:18.640 --> 0:52:22.040
<v Speaker 2>you have the you have whatever it is that caused

0:52:22.040 --> 0:52:25.520
<v Speaker 2>you to ever have anything in the first place. So, uh,

0:52:25.600 --> 0:52:26.680
<v Speaker 2>you know, don't don't forget that.

0:52:28.480 --> 0:52:30.800
<v Speaker 5>Yeah, yeah, for sure.

0:52:34.680 --> 0:52:37.879
<v Speaker 2>Well don't don't do cocaine. I always said I did cocaine,

0:52:38.160 --> 0:52:40.279
<v Speaker 2>but don't do it. I didn't even do that much.

0:52:43.200 --> 0:52:46.160
<v Speaker 5>Look that's an upper man you. It was so bad

0:52:46.200 --> 0:52:49.000
<v Speaker 5>off admile man. I'm telling you, it was so bad

0:52:49.920 --> 0:52:52.080
<v Speaker 5>that I'm just like, coke is just a whole nother

0:52:52.200 --> 0:52:53.600
<v Speaker 5>drag and I never want to ride.

0:52:53.400 --> 0:52:54.080
<v Speaker 4>On you know what I mean?

0:52:54.120 --> 0:52:58.319
<v Speaker 2>Like that, Yeah, well I do you can? I just

0:52:58.400 --> 0:53:01.000
<v Speaker 2>drink celsius. That that's my that's like my mini at

0:53:01.000 --> 0:53:01.319
<v Speaker 2>a role.

0:53:03.200 --> 0:53:06.440
<v Speaker 5>It's awesome, And celsius is nothing. I remember, like, like

0:53:06.440 --> 0:53:09.279
<v Speaker 5>I'm telling you. The caffeine thing, it's actually the one

0:53:09.280 --> 0:53:10.880
<v Speaker 5>that I'm trying to fight right now, is actually like

0:53:10.920 --> 0:53:13.480
<v Speaker 5>a month a month and a half of the caffeine.

0:53:13.520 --> 0:53:16.560
<v Speaker 5>But right before I decided this, I remember I was

0:53:16.560 --> 0:53:22.400
<v Speaker 5>doing like maybe like four three cels three celsius a day.

0:53:22.480 --> 0:53:25.279
<v Speaker 2>Oh my god, you have you have no idea, You

0:53:25.360 --> 0:53:28.520
<v Speaker 2>have no idea how much celsius related diarrhea. I am

0:53:29.040 --> 0:53:31.680
<v Speaker 2>trying not to, trying to contain so I can talk

0:53:31.719 --> 0:53:36.160
<v Speaker 2>to you right now, Aaron, Aaron, is there anything else

0:53:36.200 --> 0:53:37.800
<v Speaker 2>you want to say? To the people of the computer

0:53:37.920 --> 0:53:38.720
<v Speaker 2>before we go.

0:53:42.840 --> 0:53:47.600
<v Speaker 5>Well, you know what, to the extremists that might be

0:53:47.920 --> 0:53:52.600
<v Speaker 5>on the same boat as me. I guess Gecko is

0:53:52.640 --> 0:53:55.480
<v Speaker 5>really taught, is that, you know? It's just it's all

0:53:55.480 --> 0:53:56.000
<v Speaker 5>on your heads.

0:53:57.440 --> 0:54:00.600
<v Speaker 2>Guess Gecko's got to teach himself. It's all on his.

0:54:00.600 --> 0:54:02.120
<v Speaker 4>Head, you know what.

0:54:02.760 --> 0:54:04.719
<v Speaker 5>After the tour and everything, man, you kind of have

0:54:04.800 --> 0:54:06.720
<v Speaker 5>to feel yeah, I guess.

0:54:06.760 --> 0:54:06.960
<v Speaker 3>Yeah.

0:54:07.800 --> 0:54:10.919
<v Speaker 5>My words to you men, hopefully it's not a year

0:54:10.920 --> 0:54:13.000
<v Speaker 5>that you're going to take off that you know, you're

0:54:13.040 --> 0:54:15.080
<v Speaker 5>gonna maybe lose forty pounds or whatever.

0:54:15.200 --> 0:54:16.880
<v Speaker 4>I'm not sure what exactly your goal.

0:54:16.760 --> 0:54:19.920
<v Speaker 2>Is with that. Yeah, go ahead. Yeah, but.

0:54:22.160 --> 0:54:24.879
<v Speaker 5>Everyone, I guess it's about the friends you make along

0:54:24.920 --> 0:54:26.480
<v Speaker 5>the way, you know what?

0:54:26.560 --> 0:54:31.040
<v Speaker 2>It surefucking is it, surefucking is. Thanks for calling Aaron.

0:54:31.080 --> 0:54:31.480
<v Speaker 2>Good luck.

0:54:32.200 --> 0:54:33.480
<v Speaker 5>It's been a pleasure, man, Thank you.

0:54:33.520 --> 0:54:35.000
<v Speaker 4>I'll keep watching. Have a good one.

0:54:37.560 --> 0:54:42.120
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, that was a good call. I like talking to

0:54:42.160 --> 0:54:48.560
<v Speaker 2>that guy. Uh, It's it's cool. It's cool when I

0:54:48.680 --> 0:54:51.920
<v Speaker 2>like doing this because it's fun. It's fun listening to

0:54:51.960 --> 0:54:55.080
<v Speaker 2>other people trying to figure out life, and I kind

0:54:55.080 --> 0:54:59.400
<v Speaker 2>of get to in this one little moment sort of

0:54:59.440 --> 0:55:05.839
<v Speaker 2>talk talk with them about figuring it out. Yeah, I

0:55:05.880 --> 0:55:08.239
<v Speaker 2>don't know. I really do feel that way sometimes. I

0:55:08.280 --> 0:55:11.000
<v Speaker 2>really do feel that way sometimes that like we're just

0:55:11.080 --> 0:55:15.239
<v Speaker 2>I'm just I just need to distract myself, even like

0:55:15.400 --> 0:55:21.560
<v Speaker 2>beautiful things like uh, like you're like relationships with people

0:55:21.560 --> 0:55:27.560
<v Speaker 2>that you care about and passions that are meaningful, they're

0:55:27.560 --> 0:55:31.279
<v Speaker 2>all I guess there are you. They're just distractions that

0:55:31.360 --> 0:55:35.759
<v Speaker 2>you need. You need distractions or else you're gonna go

0:55:35.840 --> 0:55:39.080
<v Speaker 2>and go completely insane. So I don't think that well,

0:55:39.120 --> 0:55:40.839
<v Speaker 2>I guess what I heard from Aaron as I heard

0:55:40.880 --> 0:55:45.319
<v Speaker 2>a guy who was looking for something to get into

0:55:45.640 --> 0:55:50.120
<v Speaker 2>so that you can. I don't know when it comes

0:55:50.120 --> 0:55:53.120
<v Speaker 2>to like it just I'm speaking purely of my own experience.

0:55:53.160 --> 0:55:57.000
<v Speaker 2>When it comes to like depression and anxiety, I'm like,

0:55:59.480 --> 0:56:03.040
<v Speaker 2>I'm I'm always you're always running away from it. Hey,

0:56:03.080 --> 0:56:04.319
<v Speaker 2>I don't know, and I'm trying to deal with it,

0:56:04.320 --> 0:56:07.200
<v Speaker 2>but I'm always you're running away from it, and you can.

0:56:07.360 --> 0:56:10.600
<v Speaker 2>There's healthy ways to run away from it, like through

0:56:10.640 --> 0:56:16.320
<v Speaker 2>building positive relationships and uh passions and hobbies and things

0:56:16.320 --> 0:56:19.600
<v Speaker 2>that keep you grounded in real life. And then there's

0:56:19.640 --> 0:56:26.640
<v Speaker 2>of course uh fentanyl and uh uh mike and ice.

0:56:28.960 --> 0:56:32.400
<v Speaker 2>But I hopefully you find something and then you do okay,

0:56:33.239 --> 0:56:39.759
<v Speaker 2>and then uh you die surrounded by dogs, and and

0:56:39.800 --> 0:56:41.759
<v Speaker 2>that was it. I hope, I hope, I hope I

0:56:41.840 --> 0:56:45.279
<v Speaker 2>made any amount of sense rambling just now. And and

0:56:45.400 --> 0:56:49.759
<v Speaker 2>let's and and let's take another call. Hey man, what's

0:56:49.760 --> 0:56:54.280
<v Speaker 2>your name, Jeremiah? Jeremiah? What's up, Jeremiah? How's life?

0:56:55.040 --> 0:56:55.200
<v Speaker 5>Uh?

0:56:56.200 --> 0:56:57.359
<v Speaker 6>Going good? Going good?

0:56:58.040 --> 0:56:58.200
<v Speaker 4>Uh?

0:57:00.000 --> 0:57:03.560
<v Speaker 2>A little nervous, don't be, don't be. There's this is

0:57:04.280 --> 0:57:08.080
<v Speaker 2>this is This might be one of the lowest stakes

0:57:08.200 --> 0:57:12.120
<v Speaker 2>things you ever do with your entire life. You've taken

0:57:12.239 --> 0:57:15.960
<v Speaker 2>math tests in elementary school with higher stakes than this.

0:57:17.960 --> 0:57:20.120
<v Speaker 2>What's up, Jeremiah? What would you would you want to

0:57:20.160 --> 0:57:20.800
<v Speaker 2>talk about today?

0:57:22.600 --> 0:57:27.800
<v Speaker 6>I don't know, kind of just uh, just sided the call. Okay,

0:57:29.640 --> 0:57:30.280
<v Speaker 6>let's see.

0:57:30.840 --> 0:57:33.120
<v Speaker 7>I've been thinking a lot about joining.

0:57:32.840 --> 0:57:35.600
<v Speaker 6>Like the military right now?

0:57:36.320 --> 0:57:39.720
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, yeah, but I don't know how like like a

0:57:39.720 --> 0:57:44.160
<v Speaker 7>lot of my friends and stuff aren't very uh supportive

0:57:44.200 --> 0:57:45.520
<v Speaker 7>of it. They don't like, they don't they don't like

0:57:45.560 --> 0:57:46.000
<v Speaker 7>the idea.

0:57:46.800 --> 0:57:51.720
<v Speaker 2>How old are you? Twenty twenty? Okay? What what are

0:57:51.720 --> 0:57:54.600
<v Speaker 2>your reasons for joining the military.

0:57:54.680 --> 0:57:56.840
<v Speaker 7>So this is where this is where a lot of

0:57:56.840 --> 0:57:59.440
<v Speaker 7>my buddies are like, so I'm wanting to join. I've

0:57:59.440 --> 0:58:02.840
<v Speaker 7>always thought of joining, Like I'm a physical guy, like

0:58:02.880 --> 0:58:05.200
<v Speaker 7>going to the gym, working out stuff like that. So

0:58:05.240 --> 0:58:08.560
<v Speaker 7>it's always seemed pretty cool. But it was always like

0:58:08.640 --> 0:58:13.040
<v Speaker 7>the like the like the loneliness of it, like going

0:58:13.080 --> 0:58:16.520
<v Speaker 7>in by yourself, scared of making friends and stuff. But

0:58:16.680 --> 0:58:19.960
<v Speaker 7>now you know, I got a girlfriend and stuff. She's

0:58:20.000 --> 0:58:24.040
<v Speaker 7>in the military, and I can go in, go through

0:58:24.040 --> 0:58:27.080
<v Speaker 7>basic and stuff, and then be in her unit and

0:58:27.120 --> 0:58:30.560
<v Speaker 7>be like just like in the military with her. But

0:58:30.800 --> 0:58:33.880
<v Speaker 7>my buddies are like, ooh, that's you know what if

0:58:33.920 --> 0:58:35.440
<v Speaker 7>it didn't work out and then you're in the military

0:58:35.480 --> 0:58:36.000
<v Speaker 7>by yourself.

0:58:39.040 --> 0:58:43.160
<v Speaker 2>So I have to add I I think that's a

0:58:43.240 --> 0:58:48.560
<v Speaker 2>bad reason to join the military, right, right do you

0:58:48.640 --> 0:58:53.200
<v Speaker 2>have if your girlfriend were not in that unit and

0:58:53.240 --> 0:58:56.200
<v Speaker 2>you were going in alone, would you still want to talk?

0:58:58.480 --> 0:59:02.440
<v Speaker 7>See that's where because like it's like right now, I

0:59:02.800 --> 0:59:06.640
<v Speaker 7>worked at like h org at the gas station, and

0:59:07.320 --> 0:59:10.959
<v Speaker 7>I don't know, it's just getting it's getting. Uh what's

0:59:11.000 --> 0:59:14.560
<v Speaker 7>the word monotonous? Sure, I think it's the word, or

0:59:14.680 --> 0:59:17.400
<v Speaker 7>like I just wake up, come to work, go home,

0:59:17.840 --> 0:59:19.160
<v Speaker 7>or go to the gym, then go home.

0:59:20.040 --> 0:59:22.880
<v Speaker 2>Yeah, you're looking you're looking to spice up. Yeah, you're

0:59:22.920 --> 0:59:28.800
<v Speaker 2>looking to spice things up? Yeah, why did you? Is that?

0:59:29.800 --> 0:59:29.960
<v Speaker 4>Ok?

0:59:30.000 --> 0:59:33.560
<v Speaker 2>Here's the thing with the military is like you have

0:59:33.640 --> 0:59:36.000
<v Speaker 2>to sign a little contract where it's like they kind

0:59:36.000 --> 0:59:39.360
<v Speaker 2>of right. Yeah, that's what that's the big thing I

0:59:39.360 --> 0:59:40.120
<v Speaker 2>don't like about it.

0:59:41.280 --> 0:59:41.520
<v Speaker 5>Yeah.

0:59:41.680 --> 0:59:43.920
<v Speaker 7>No, that's that's what's always kept me from doing it,

0:59:44.520 --> 0:59:46.120
<v Speaker 7>because it's like, oh, man, you know, I signed this

0:59:46.120 --> 0:59:48.120
<v Speaker 7>piece of paper and that's it, and there is no

0:59:48.560 --> 0:59:50.760
<v Speaker 7>Well I don't want to do it no more.

0:59:50.840 --> 0:59:53.920
<v Speaker 2>Yeah tick backs no, Yeah, twenty twenty is a little

0:59:54.200 --> 0:59:56.520
<v Speaker 2>young to I mean, look, here's the thing I'm not

0:59:56.560 --> 1:00:01.800
<v Speaker 2>gonna I've I have a friend who joined the military,

1:00:01.880 --> 1:00:05.120
<v Speaker 2>and it's he's had a really positive experience. And you know,

1:00:05.120 --> 1:00:07.720
<v Speaker 2>I've talked to people on this show who've had positive

1:00:07.760 --> 1:00:11.600
<v Speaker 2>experiences joining the military and conversely people who've had horrible

1:00:11.640 --> 1:00:15.200
<v Speaker 2>experiences joining the military. But I think, again, it's it's

1:00:15.200 --> 1:00:19.760
<v Speaker 2>one of those sort of individual decisions. And if you're

1:00:19.840 --> 1:00:22.320
<v Speaker 2>only if your only thing is well, my girlfriend's in it,

1:00:22.360 --> 1:00:24.200
<v Speaker 2>I think that's a bad thing.

1:00:24.480 --> 1:00:28.240
<v Speaker 7>Yeah no, I mean so like she tells me, so

1:00:28.280 --> 1:00:31.160
<v Speaker 7>she's been in there for a little bit, and you know,

1:00:31.200 --> 1:00:34.280
<v Speaker 7>she'll tell me about like what she does and stuff,

1:00:34.880 --> 1:00:37.200
<v Speaker 7>and like, you know, it comes back to the like

1:00:38.080 --> 1:00:42.200
<v Speaker 7>her life in the military seems so much more interesting

1:00:42.240 --> 1:00:45.680
<v Speaker 7>than it does cleaning up shit after truckers, you know

1:00:45.720 --> 1:00:46.120
<v Speaker 7>what I mean.

1:00:46.280 --> 1:00:49.080
<v Speaker 2>Okay, well, let's let's get into that. What is it

1:00:49.120 --> 1:00:51.240
<v Speaker 2>about her life in the military that's exciting to you?

1:00:54.080 --> 1:00:57.440
<v Speaker 7>I don't know, like being around a bunch of people

1:00:57.800 --> 1:01:03.160
<v Speaker 7>kind of all doing the same thing. Yeah, they get

1:01:03.320 --> 1:01:06.000
<v Speaker 7>in Like I love I love working out. Being in

1:01:06.040 --> 1:01:08.320
<v Speaker 7>the gym is a big part of like just what

1:01:08.360 --> 1:01:11.040
<v Speaker 7>I really enjoyed doing. Yeah, and you know they do

1:01:11.160 --> 1:01:13.040
<v Speaker 7>that as like things like they do that as a job.

1:01:13.600 --> 1:01:17.560
<v Speaker 7>They travel, and it just seems just like that's just

1:01:17.600 --> 1:01:19.040
<v Speaker 7>that's that's really cool, you know.

1:01:22.160 --> 1:01:27.760
<v Speaker 2>Cool. So look, here's what I would say is you

1:01:27.920 --> 1:01:32.520
<v Speaker 2>have these you don't expressly want to join the military,

1:01:32.600 --> 1:01:35.560
<v Speaker 2>but you expressly want to. You've ident this is good,

1:01:35.920 --> 1:01:39.440
<v Speaker 2>You've identified like, Okay, I want to be around other people,

1:01:39.800 --> 1:01:44.800
<v Speaker 2>I want something that's communal, I like things that I

1:01:44.880 --> 1:01:49.560
<v Speaker 2>like being physically active, and I want to travel. And

1:01:50.840 --> 1:01:54.560
<v Speaker 2>I would I would I would write those three things

1:01:54.640 --> 1:01:58.320
<v Speaker 2>down and I would be like, let's come up with

1:01:58.360 --> 1:02:02.480
<v Speaker 2>some ideas that are just joining the military where you

1:02:02.520 --> 1:02:05.680
<v Speaker 2>can kind of fulfill those goals because those are I mean,

1:02:05.720 --> 1:02:09.640
<v Speaker 2>there's a lot of things you can do under the

1:02:09.720 --> 1:02:14.320
<v Speaker 2>umbrella of those three things that aren't just joining the military.

1:02:14.320 --> 1:02:15.280
<v Speaker 2>Have you thought about that.

1:02:16.880 --> 1:02:22.960
<v Speaker 7>Yeah, I don't know, it just seems it seems very uh.

1:02:23.280 --> 1:02:25.400
<v Speaker 7>I guess, like I don't know how to put it.

1:02:25.440 --> 1:02:26.880
<v Speaker 7>Like I just like when I try to think of

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<v Speaker 7>something like you know what I could do, I pull blanks,

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<v Speaker 7>you know, like, Okay, I'm not sure.

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<v Speaker 2>I don't I don't want to expressly dissuade you from

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<v Speaker 2>it because now that now that you have identified three

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<v Speaker 2>things that aren't just the fact that your girlfriend's in there,

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<v Speaker 2>how long how long do you have to sign y'all

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<v Speaker 2>your your life away for?

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<v Speaker 7>So I think it's like it's like five years of

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<v Speaker 7>like on, yeah, on, like like you're working, you're doing

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<v Speaker 7>military stuff, and then I think it's another like three

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<v Speaker 7>years of like, yeah, hey, if World War three happens,

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<v Speaker 7>we're coming to get you. You're coming with us, and

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<v Speaker 7>they're gonna, oh.

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<v Speaker 2>My god, they want you for eight years.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, that's typically they want god.

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<v Speaker 2>Man. Yeah, you can look, brother, you could find a

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<v Speaker 2>better job to just work outside, you know, what I'm saying.

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<v Speaker 7>Yeah, this is good though.

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<v Speaker 2>This is you've identified uh three things that you want

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<v Speaker 2>out of your life. Mm hmmm, Uh are you have

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<v Speaker 2>you have you sort of really tried to brainstorm other

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<v Speaker 2>things that could satisfy that, but that aren't just signing

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<v Speaker 2>an eight year contract.

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<v Speaker 6>Yeah.

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<v Speaker 7>No, I've always like I've always like thought about so,

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<v Speaker 7>like I got a bunch of buddies. They like the

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<v Speaker 7>gym too, and we've always like said that we would

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<v Speaker 7>want to like, uh like start a gym up and

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<v Speaker 7>like just on our own gym because like in my mind,

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<v Speaker 7>that sounds like that way I could be. I'd be

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<v Speaker 7>around people that work out, I'd be making money off

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<v Speaker 7>of it.

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<v Speaker 2>Uh cool.

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<v Speaker 7>Like anytime I would have like friends or something come

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<v Speaker 7>to the gym with me for the first time, I've

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<v Speaker 7>always like it. It It made me feel good to

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<v Speaker 7>like teach them something that I've been doing for a

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<v Speaker 7>long time and helping them reach their goal. That sounds

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<v Speaker 7>you know, I like that, But it's a that's I

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<v Speaker 7>feel like, that's like starting up a gym. That's just

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<v Speaker 7>something you know, I'm twenty, I ain't got a whole

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<v Speaker 7>lot of money, you know.

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<v Speaker 2>Yeah, sure, yeah, yeah, how that like, can you become

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<v Speaker 2>a personal trainer?

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<v Speaker 7>I've looked into it, but it seems like there's like

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<v Speaker 7>a lot of uh like you gotta like.

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<v Speaker 4>A lot of them.

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<v Speaker 7>Is like you got to like go to college and

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<v Speaker 7>be like uh like good with uh like you know,

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<v Speaker 7>on the specifics and stuff like I don't know.

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<v Speaker 2>How about a having that thing much? How about like

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<v Speaker 2>being being like a firefighter.

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<v Speaker 7>You know, I've definitely I'll put thought into that, but uh,

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<v Speaker 7>i'd have to stop smoking. That's one of the few

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<v Speaker 7>things that kind of stopped me from doing that.

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<v Speaker 2>But weed or cigarettes, uh we oh, I don't think

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<v Speaker 2>it's a terrible idea to stop smoking weeds.

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<v Speaker 7>No, No, it's it's not.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, definitely, go ahead.

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<v Speaker 4>You go ahead.

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<v Speaker 7>No, I've definitely thought about being a firefighter, but it's

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<v Speaker 7>always what's always worried me about that is just like

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<v Speaker 7>the like the pay and stuff, which I know you're

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<v Speaker 7>not supposed to worry about pay. I guess, you know,

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<v Speaker 7>you know, but like I kind of live. I still

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<v Speaker 7>live with my parents right now, which is you know,

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<v Speaker 7>it's good, you know, I don't I don't have to

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<v Speaker 7>pay bills or nothing really, so that's you know, it's

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<v Speaker 7>always good to save my mind, but you know, eventually

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<v Speaker 7>I kind of want to I'm wanting to move out,

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<v Speaker 7>try to get an apartment.

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<v Speaker 2>M hm, well, he like here, I guess. Here's what

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<v Speaker 2>I would say is if hopefully, if you gleaned anything

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<v Speaker 2>from the phone call, it's like you've identified three things

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<v Speaker 2>that you want is to work outside, be around other people,

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<v Speaker 2>and uh, travel, And I would say I'm a big

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<v Speaker 2>fan of like kind of doing away with commitments to vessels,

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<v Speaker 2>if that makes sense, Like, like the military is just

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<v Speaker 2>a vessel for these underlying desires that you have. And

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<v Speaker 2>I believe that there's there's a multiple different vessels that

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<v Speaker 2>you perhaps haven't thought about yet that could fulfill those

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<v Speaker 2>underlying desires. So I wouldn't I wouldn't laser focus in

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<v Speaker 2>on the one vessel that you've identified that require is

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<v Speaker 2>you to you know, sign a contract for eight years

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<v Speaker 2>and go kill a bunch of people in some place, right,

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<v Speaker 2>unless unless you like killing people. Some people like killing

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<v Speaker 2>people some people.

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<v Speaker 7>What's your name again, Jeremiah?

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<v Speaker 2>Jeremiah? Was it? Did you? Was this a good phone

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<v Speaker 2>call for you? Did you? This is helpful?

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<v Speaker 5>Yeah?

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<v Speaker 7>I'm surprised that I even got through nice.

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<v Speaker 2>Well, is there anything else you want to say to

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<v Speaker 2>the people of the computer before we go?

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<v Speaker 6>Ah? God, bless I hope you have a good one get.

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<v Speaker 2>Thank you Jeremiah, you take care you too. Life is crazy,

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<v Speaker 2>goes on line taking was teaching you exp