WEBVTT - Numerology Part 2: My Personal Reading 0:00:03.880 --> 0:00:06.080 I feel so different. I don't even know how to 0:00:06.080 --> 0:00:07.880 explain it. I'm so glad I'm having this conversation with 0:00:07.960 --> 0:00:11.320 Josh because it's all just coming full circle for me. 0:00:13.320 --> 0:00:15.880 When your mom passes, I see that as a part 0:00:15.880 --> 0:00:19.360 of a greater plan of passing the baton, saying you're 0:00:19.400 --> 0:00:21.880 ready now to do your own thing. My job here 0:00:21.960 --> 0:00:24.919 is done. The first part of your life is going 0:00:24.960 --> 0:00:34.240 to be topsy turvy, volatile, crazy, changeable, unstable. What up, y'all? 0:00:34.280 --> 0:00:36.760 Happy Monday. It's so good to be with you on 0:00:36.800 --> 0:00:39.600 this beautiful day. I hope you all are having a 0:00:39.720 --> 0:00:42.560 great start to your week. Today we're gonna be finishing 0:00:42.680 --> 0:00:45.880 up our conversation on neurology, so let's not waste any 0:00:45.880 --> 0:00:48.560 more time. Let's get right into it. This is chick 0:00:48.560 --> 0:00:56.279 ease and chill. Okay, guys. So, as I mentioned, this 0:00:56.360 --> 0:00:59.520 is actually a part two of our conversation with numerologists 0:00:59.760 --> 0:01:02.520 John Seagull. He's been in this line of work for 0:01:02.600 --> 0:01:05.200 more than two decades and he's been kind enough to 0:01:05.240 --> 0:01:07.160 do a reading on me. So let's pick up right 0:01:07.200 --> 0:01:12.920 where we left off. I am nervous. I have never 0:01:13.000 --> 0:01:15.280 done a reading like this. I know about numerology. I've 0:01:15.280 --> 0:01:18.400 read about numerology. I was into it a lot more before. 0:01:18.640 --> 0:01:20.560 Now I'm just kind of like I think on the surface, 0:01:20.560 --> 0:01:22.360 but now I'm ready to get in there. This is 0:01:22.400 --> 0:01:24.240 my first time talking to Josh. Okay, I have not 0:01:24.280 --> 0:01:27.200 spoken to him before this. I just literally met him 0:01:27.240 --> 0:01:30.720 because of my podcast. So thank you to my right here. Um. 0:01:30.760 --> 0:01:32.720 And all he has is my full name, my birthday, 0:01:32.760 --> 0:01:35.160 and do you have the time I was born or no? 0:01:35.200 --> 0:01:38.160 I think that's not needed. That's only for astrology. Okay, perfect, 0:01:38.240 --> 0:01:41.520 So let's do it. Okay, so we talk about you know, 0:01:41.680 --> 0:01:44.959 your natural I call your natural ability. But you know, 0:01:45.120 --> 0:01:48.559 on the websites, you know, they'll say it's your destiny number. 0:01:48.760 --> 0:01:52.080 Right in your case, it's a fifty seven. Okay, now 0:01:52.520 --> 0:01:54.600 it's a seven. You'll go on the website that will 0:01:54.600 --> 0:01:57.080 say seven, you'll call DestinE number. It's not. Your destiny 0:01:57.120 --> 0:02:01.080 has nothing to do with that. The number seven is 0:02:01.400 --> 0:02:04.560 the number of truth and knowledge and delving into the 0:02:04.640 --> 0:02:08.720 mysteries and why Buddha when he was born walks seven steps. 0:02:09.760 --> 0:02:14.160 In Islam, they have seven heavens, seven house. In Catholicism 0:02:14.200 --> 0:02:17.320 they have the seven Holy sacraments and Judaism they have 0:02:17.400 --> 0:02:20.400 the seven candled menorah. In ancient India they have the 0:02:20.600 --> 0:02:24.440 seven great teachers called the Seven Reshi's okay. I can 0:02:24.480 --> 0:02:27.480 go on and on and on and show how every 0:02:27.680 --> 0:02:32.639 single major world religion, every almost every single spiritual tradition 0:02:32.680 --> 0:02:35.560 that's been around for any length of time venerates the 0:02:35.639 --> 0:02:40.519 number seven. So when we talk about your natural ability, 0:02:41.320 --> 0:02:45.440 you naturally instinctually delve into the truth and find the 0:02:45.480 --> 0:02:48.200 answer and figure that ship out because that's you were 0:02:48.280 --> 0:02:51.560 born with that you have the power to see through, analyze, 0:02:51.600 --> 0:02:54.040 find the truth, find answers, and spirituality can be a 0:02:54.080 --> 0:02:56.880 part of that. There's certain things that you know inherently. 0:02:57.400 --> 0:02:59.520 It's just and I gotta tell you something. It separates 0:02:59.520 --> 0:03:02.280 you from other people in a weird way. You're always 0:03:02.320 --> 0:03:04.480 going to be the way your mind thinks, a little 0:03:04.520 --> 0:03:09.360 bit introverted in the way you think. You know. You know, 0:03:09.480 --> 0:03:13.280 people have ironies and contradictions in the chart, you know. 0:03:14.200 --> 0:03:16.440 And one of the things when you're dealing with with skeptics, 0:03:16.520 --> 0:03:18.160 they try to play this game and they say, well 0:03:18.200 --> 0:03:20.520 what you said can apply to everybody. They get to 0:03:20.560 --> 0:03:24.440 this crazy, really illogical, insane area where they say, well 0:03:24.440 --> 0:03:28.680 everything applies to everything. What I'm saying is is that 0:03:28.720 --> 0:03:30.480 we're going to get to all your numbers, and we're 0:03:30.520 --> 0:03:33.680 just piecing it little by little. But if you want 0:03:33.680 --> 0:03:36.040 to know why you you inherently know this stuff, and 0:03:36.200 --> 0:03:38.920 people in your family are other people, they're not understanding 0:03:38.960 --> 0:03:41.120 that it is because you were born with with the 0:03:41.160 --> 0:03:45.520 mystical seven. Part of your talent here is to share information, 0:03:45.560 --> 0:03:48.120 knowledge and truth with others. I mean, you could do 0:03:48.160 --> 0:03:50.840 that through music, but it doesn't necessarily say music. It 0:03:50.920 --> 0:03:53.280 just says that you're here to share what you know 0:03:53.400 --> 0:03:56.520 with others. Now, I looked at that, and then I 0:03:56.560 --> 0:03:58.480 looked at your life path, which remember that's one of 0:03:58.520 --> 0:04:02.360 your lesson numbers. And so in numerology, there is a 0:04:02.400 --> 0:04:05.320 certain kind of number called a master number. Okay, the 0:04:05.400 --> 0:04:08.400 master number and what they are just double digits to 0:04:08.440 --> 0:04:12.440 repeat eleven five up to ninety nine. If you've got 0:04:12.480 --> 0:04:14.800 one of those, and you've got a fifty five and 0:04:14.880 --> 0:04:17.080 an eleven, so you've got two of those master numbers 0:04:17.080 --> 0:04:20.640 in your chart, so um you will you will have 0:04:21.240 --> 0:04:24.920 certain special gifts inherent in that number. People listening right 0:04:24.960 --> 0:04:26.480 now may not know this, but they may have a 0:04:26.520 --> 0:04:29.240 special Master number in their chart that they don't know about. 0:04:29.279 --> 0:04:33.000 The may explain certain skills they've got. Right now, understand this. 0:04:33.839 --> 0:04:36.480 That master number also happens to be one of your 0:04:36.520 --> 0:04:41.119 life lesson numbers, right, So you've got a master lesson. 0:04:41.320 --> 0:04:44.760 So it's like it's like, well, okay, I was given 0:04:44.800 --> 0:04:48.920 these extra skills or certain special qualities to me, but 0:04:49.000 --> 0:04:51.720 I have to learn that. You know, you didn't have 0:04:51.760 --> 0:04:53.560 that in your natural ability. You have to learn it. 0:04:53.720 --> 0:04:56.359 So yours is a fifty one. And right off the bat, 0:04:56.839 --> 0:05:00.599 there's some irony because five rules communications, right, But I 0:05:00.640 --> 0:05:02.800 just said seven is very introverted thinking number, and it 0:05:02.880 --> 0:05:05.240 kind of separates you from other people the way you are, 0:05:04.920 --> 0:05:07.080 you know, the way you're different. But the fifty five 0:05:07.120 --> 0:05:09.320 says your life is going to be about communications on 0:05:09.320 --> 0:05:12.360 a powerful level. Right now, here's the interesting about fifty five. 0:05:13.120 --> 0:05:16.520 Five is not a stable number. Okay, it is a 0:05:16.600 --> 0:05:19.040 freedom number. It is a restless number. Is a need 0:05:19.120 --> 0:05:23.040 for constant change, new things. It can't it can't stay stuck. 0:05:23.120 --> 0:05:26.120 It can't mean one particular situation for too long. So 0:05:26.600 --> 0:05:29.520 it brings the kind of a one like a travel adventure, 0:05:29.880 --> 0:05:32.039 new things in life. But if you if it's a 0:05:32.040 --> 0:05:35.320 part of a lesson. That means that there's a changeable 0:05:35.440 --> 0:05:38.080 energy to your environment growing up. It is not stable, 0:05:38.120 --> 0:05:42.240 and you know because five, by nature breaks the stability. 0:05:42.480 --> 0:05:44.400 Now there's a positive, and then there's a negative in 0:05:44.400 --> 0:05:48.560 every number. Okay, the positive is you have a fast, quick, 0:05:48.560 --> 0:05:54.000 adaptable mind, and you have remarkable communication capabilities, networking, communicating 0:05:54.000 --> 0:05:56.520 and innovating. Your your new ideas, new concepts in your 0:05:56.520 --> 0:05:58.599 mind is moving around this fast. And you have the 0:05:58.600 --> 0:06:01.520 ability to use the power marketing and promoting and all 0:06:01.560 --> 0:06:04.800 that kind of stuff and communicate your message right now. 0:06:04.880 --> 0:06:06.880 When when I look at that again, it's not like 0:06:06.920 --> 0:06:10.080 I said, well that can't be music business considered to 0:06:10.160 --> 0:06:14.479 fall unerneath that, But I'm thinking communication industry period. And 0:06:14.480 --> 0:06:17.120 then I look at that seven and I'm thinking, oh, well, 0:06:17.120 --> 0:06:19.400 she's got to drop her knowledge. She's got to get deep, 0:06:19.440 --> 0:06:21.680 she's got to explain things to people. Now she may 0:06:21.760 --> 0:06:24.880 do it in a very powerful communicative manner. The first 0:06:24.880 --> 0:06:29.960 part of her life is going to be topsy turvy, volatile, crazy, changeable, unstable. 0:06:30.800 --> 0:06:36.480 Since I can remember, my life has been emotionally unstable. 0:06:36.560 --> 0:06:38.520 I mean at home with my mom and my dad 0:06:38.560 --> 0:06:40.840 not being together. It was always wishy washy. They were 0:06:40.880 --> 0:06:44.080 back and forth. Um, we lived with my grandparents and 0:06:44.160 --> 0:06:46.200 we lived in the garage with the back of my 0:06:46.360 --> 0:06:49.200 uncle's house. So my life has always been a little 0:06:49.279 --> 0:06:52.000 like hectic for the lack of a better word, it's been. 0:06:52.000 --> 0:06:54.039 It was beautiful, but then here comes the stuff with 0:06:54.080 --> 0:06:56.920 my dad that happened, the sexual abuse, and and then 0:06:56.960 --> 0:06:59.120 the issue with my mom and I and it's just 0:06:59.440 --> 0:07:02.600 I feel like it has been an uphill battle. You're 0:07:02.640 --> 0:07:06.520 gonna have to learn discipline and focus. You gotta take 0:07:06.560 --> 0:07:09.000 that fire and you've got to discipline. Now, you say, 0:07:09.360 --> 0:07:11.680 what happens when I take the discipline? I discipline that 0:07:11.720 --> 0:07:16.800 double five? What moves from you know, unstable lifestyle, everything's 0:07:17.160 --> 0:07:19.480 you know, running around being kind of crazy, being out 0:07:19.480 --> 0:07:22.600 of focus. Because think about this, if you're just running around, 0:07:22.640 --> 0:07:24.680 you're and you're doing this, and you're scattered and you're 0:07:24.680 --> 0:07:27.600 not focused, you can't get anything done. You can have 0:07:27.640 --> 0:07:32.080 great success. It's true. Absolutely, you start something and you 0:07:32.160 --> 0:07:33.920 go onto something else and you're this and that. You're 0:07:33.960 --> 0:07:38.240 not focusing on things right. So now, but when you 0:07:38.320 --> 0:07:40.920 discipline it, that double five is a power number. Maybe 0:07:41.040 --> 0:07:43.880 that's there's a I'd say a life path waiting for 0:07:43.920 --> 0:07:48.440 you where you can use your innovative mind, your communication 0:07:48.560 --> 0:07:51.640 skills to become kind of the master of getting the 0:07:51.680 --> 0:07:54.440 message out, and your mind is always thinking to something 0:07:54.440 --> 0:07:56.400 that's like an inventor, Like I got a new idea, 0:07:56.440 --> 0:07:58.440 got this, I got that, but I'm going to focus 0:07:58.480 --> 0:08:02.240 in on it and discipline my life so I can 0:08:02.280 --> 0:08:07.560 get that thing happening, so I don't repeat the crazy, tumultuous, unstable, 0:08:07.600 --> 0:08:12.840 out of whack ship. Yeah, you're speaking to mysel all right. Now, 0:08:13.040 --> 0:08:15.880 when you add down the fifty five, five and five, 0:08:15.960 --> 0:08:19.040 make ten, one and zero make one, okay. So one 0:08:19.200 --> 0:08:21.640 means that you're here to to really do your own 0:08:21.680 --> 0:08:25.400 thing and be a unique leader in your field. That 0:08:25.520 --> 0:08:27.320 means you have to have a strong sense of self 0:08:27.360 --> 0:08:30.760 and identity, like this is who I am. I'm doing 0:08:30.840 --> 0:08:33.440 my own thing. I'm not a follower. One. One leads 0:08:33.440 --> 0:08:35.720 all the numbers. One doesn't go, hey, three, wonder why 0:08:35.720 --> 0:08:37.520 I start. They're like, dude, you're one, you start, we 0:08:37.640 --> 0:08:40.959 follow you, all right. So one represents the identity. That 0:08:41.080 --> 0:08:44.280 means you're going to have a parent who may their 0:08:44.360 --> 0:08:47.480 identity may be either too big or their identity may 0:08:47.520 --> 0:08:49.920 be strong and they may have some kind of a 0:08:50.000 --> 0:08:54.160 narcissism to them. You know, I'm so so a level okay, 0:08:54.559 --> 0:08:59.000 And so they're gonna overshadow your identity. Your identity is 0:08:59.040 --> 0:09:01.240 going to be carving out who you are. You have 0:09:01.360 --> 0:09:03.240 to create your own thing, remember it. So I said 0:09:03.280 --> 0:09:05.480 this is a lesson number. I didn't say it came 0:09:05.480 --> 0:09:08.959 to you like that right now. I've also just so 0:09:09.440 --> 0:09:13.199 you understand, there are cases where you also can be 0:09:13.320 --> 0:09:16.760 abandoned in a weird way. So there can be control 0:09:17.280 --> 0:09:18.719 like you've got to be like this, you should be 0:09:18.840 --> 0:09:21.320 like this. They look at you as an extension of them. 0:09:21.360 --> 0:09:22.719 Where they see you is that, and they maybe have 0:09:22.800 --> 0:09:25.520 opinions and things like that, you know, and then you're 0:09:25.559 --> 0:09:26.920 like but then you grow up thinking, well, who the 0:09:26.920 --> 0:09:30.920 funk am I? My own identity didn't get carved out. 0:09:31.000 --> 0:09:33.959 I was too affected by the narcissistic person who over 0:09:34.080 --> 0:09:36.839 identified with themselves. To help you to see you, you 0:09:37.080 --> 0:09:40.320 got to overshadow at that. Now you have to understand 0:09:41.000 --> 0:09:44.880 there's the other side of that too. So being around 0:09:45.040 --> 0:09:47.360 very insecure people who are who don't know who they are, 0:09:48.400 --> 0:09:50.040 it's not good for you, just as much as being 0:09:50.080 --> 0:09:52.959 around people who are all about themselves and narcissistant. I 0:09:52.960 --> 0:09:56.200 gotta tell you there's a likelihood that you'd grow up 0:09:56.240 --> 0:09:59.400 out of that and attract the two extremes of the 0:09:59.480 --> 0:10:03.440 narcissist thick access. So that would be like somebody, well, 0:10:03.440 --> 0:10:05.840 you're gonna repeat what you know? You think you think 0:10:05.840 --> 0:10:10.600 you're gonna get conditioned by that. Dude. I want to cry. 0:10:10.960 --> 0:10:15.920 I'm fucking triving out right now. Okay. So so so 0:10:16.080 --> 0:10:18.679 that's your Remember, that's your matrix, that's your program. And 0:10:18.880 --> 0:10:21.480 so you're gonna the program is don't be you, it 0:10:21.480 --> 0:10:23.040 ain't about you. Then you go out, what do you 0:10:23.080 --> 0:10:25.280 think is gonna happen? You're gonna say, oh well, it's 0:10:25.280 --> 0:10:27.000 not about you. Then it's gonna be about me. And 0:10:27.040 --> 0:10:29.240 then you're gonna attract another narcissist and it's gonna be 0:10:29.280 --> 0:10:30.880 about them. And then and here's the thing. What I 0:10:30.920 --> 0:10:34.040 found is something called an undercover narcissist. I found this 0:10:34.080 --> 0:10:37.120 side from talking to my clients, because sometimes they attract 0:10:37.160 --> 0:10:39.160 these people who are like, let me begin an example, 0:10:39.280 --> 0:10:41.000 like you have a friend that their life is just 0:10:41.360 --> 0:10:44.360 oh man, they never figure it out. They're always got 0:10:44.400 --> 0:10:47.560 a problem and issue there. They're insecure, they always they 0:10:47.640 --> 0:10:50.000 never get over the hump, and then something really great 0:10:50.040 --> 0:10:51.280 happen in your life. You want to sit down and 0:10:51.320 --> 0:10:53.360 tell them, but you look in their eyes and they're like, oh, 0:10:54.120 --> 0:10:56.680 I can't say this. I can't tell them that they're 0:10:56.679 --> 0:10:59.000 already this is gonna make them feel worse. I'm gonna 0:10:59.200 --> 0:11:01.640 click them. You keep yourself a little small around them, 0:11:01.760 --> 0:11:06.120 You dim your life. Let me tell you something, what's 0:11:06.120 --> 0:11:08.839 the difference if you attract the narcissist that becomes all 0:11:08.840 --> 0:11:11.640 about them and you lose yourself to them, or you're 0:11:11.679 --> 0:11:14.600 with somebody that's insecuted so insecure that you dim your 0:11:14.679 --> 0:11:17.600 life so they don't feel bad. At both cases, yeah, 0:11:17.640 --> 0:11:21.760 in both cases you were giving away yourself. Yea. And 0:11:21.840 --> 0:11:23.559 the funny thing about this is when I talked to 0:11:23.640 --> 0:11:26.200 once and I asked them about this stuff. Sometimes they 0:11:26.240 --> 0:11:29.439 had a parent that was an egotist or there or narcissistic, 0:11:29.559 --> 0:11:32.079 or they're they're about there, you know, this big person. 0:11:32.160 --> 0:11:35.120 And sometimes they had a parent who is insecure and 0:11:35.559 --> 0:11:37.640 unsure of themselves. And in both cases they had the 0:11:37.720 --> 0:11:40.679 same They both had a loss of self. Right. So 0:11:41.280 --> 0:11:43.040 I don't know what I told you these things. I 0:11:43.120 --> 0:11:45.240 don't know I don't know which one it is because 0:11:45.280 --> 0:11:48.000 they have a similar response. I know this much. You 0:11:48.080 --> 0:11:50.040 can still attract either one of those if you're going 0:11:50.080 --> 0:11:51.959 to repeat your pattern, and then you have to wake 0:11:52.040 --> 0:11:54.240 up and wait wait wait, wait wait wait. I can 0:11:54.320 --> 0:11:57.640 be loved and be and shine my light at the 0:11:57.679 --> 0:12:11.040 same time. Josh is absolutely correct. I have dealt with 0:12:11.720 --> 0:12:17.559 both sides of the spectrum, narcissistic and insecure but pretended 0:12:17.760 --> 0:12:20.920 to be very secure but in reality wasn't. I'm not 0:12:20.960 --> 0:12:23.440 gonna say any names here, you guys, but I've dealt 0:12:23.480 --> 0:12:26.360 with that with family members and relationships. I had a 0:12:26.520 --> 0:12:30.320 very narcissistic partner once in my life, and I felt 0:12:30.360 --> 0:12:33.760 like it was just all about him, and he wasn't 0:12:33.800 --> 0:12:37.000 really allowing me to be who I am meant to 0:12:37.080 --> 0:12:39.319 be in this world. It was in a way, it 0:12:39.400 --> 0:12:42.280 was it was all about him, But then he was 0:12:42.320 --> 0:12:44.640 also insecure because he was afraid of what I can become. 0:12:45.320 --> 0:12:47.480 So when I said, hey, I want to continue to 0:12:47.559 --> 0:12:50.719 do this X, Y, and Z, it was like, well, no, 0:12:51.160 --> 0:12:54.199 I want a wife that stays home and has children 0:12:54.280 --> 0:12:56.520 and all these things, which is fine, but I had 0:12:56.640 --> 0:13:01.280 goals that I wanted to accomplish, so I had to 0:13:01.400 --> 0:13:05.080 excitate that relationship. And then in one of my past relationships, 0:13:05.760 --> 0:13:09.000 he was very confident exteriorly like he you know, on 0:13:09.160 --> 0:13:11.040 his exterior he was like, yeah, you know, I got this, 0:13:11.800 --> 0:13:17.079 But my light kind of not bothered him, but I 0:13:17.360 --> 0:13:19.599 guess I did. I had to just step back a 0:13:19.679 --> 0:13:23.000 little bit and not be myself to my full potential 0:13:23.080 --> 0:13:25.680 because I didn't want to hurt his feelings. I didn't 0:13:25.679 --> 0:13:27.319 want him to feel like he was less than or 0:13:27.360 --> 0:13:31.000 felt inadequate, or felt inferior, you know. But then that 0:13:31.120 --> 0:13:33.000 wasn't good for me either, So I had to let 0:13:33.080 --> 0:13:36.160 go of that relationship. And now I can honestly tell 0:13:36.200 --> 0:13:39.559 you that I'm with someone that does allow me to 0:13:39.720 --> 0:13:42.880 be myself. You know. There have been times when he 0:13:42.960 --> 0:13:48.559 tells me, you know what I feel like, not not intimidated, 0:13:48.880 --> 0:13:51.439 but like where he feels am I enough for you? 0:13:51.679 --> 0:13:55.640 And he definitely is. But more than anything, he allows me. 0:13:55.760 --> 0:13:58.120 He loves that I am who I am. He wants 0:13:58.200 --> 0:13:59.839 me to be better. So it just feels good to 0:13:59.880 --> 0:14:01.520 have someone like that, like where I don't feel like 0:14:01.600 --> 0:14:05.360 I have to be less than or I either way 0:14:05.480 --> 0:14:07.959 like dimming my light? Now would you would you be 0:14:08.120 --> 0:14:12.319 with someone like that. Now. No, okay, now, now I 0:14:12.440 --> 0:14:16.000 know all right, Remember I deal with facts. I'm a 0:14:16.040 --> 0:14:19.280 son of an attorney. You don't ask me. Earlier you 0:14:19.320 --> 0:14:22.880 said to me, is this your faith? Is this your ship? 0:14:23.000 --> 0:14:24.320 Is this how it's always going to be? And I said, 0:14:24.320 --> 0:14:26.400 I got twenty cases. I know for a fact that 0:14:26.440 --> 0:14:28.960 you can change. And even before they talk to my 0:14:29.120 --> 0:14:31.760 big mouth as right, and you know you just did. 0:14:32.080 --> 0:14:35.120 You just factually confirmed it. I used to date that, 0:14:35.680 --> 0:14:37.160 but I don't do it. I would never do it 0:14:37.240 --> 0:14:39.600 now because I woke up. You woke up out of 0:14:39.600 --> 0:14:43.440 the matrix. I woke honestly in that aspect. Now, I'm like, 0:14:43.520 --> 0:14:45.920 the crazy ship is that? You're just you're confirming so 0:14:46.040 --> 0:14:49.200 many things. And I've never said this before, but but 0:14:49.400 --> 0:14:53.280 my mother was that a woman that for a long 0:14:53.360 --> 0:14:55.480 time I was in her shadow since I can remember, 0:14:55.760 --> 0:14:57.360 you know what I mean, because she was just this 0:14:57.640 --> 0:15:01.560 huge force, and I always felt like, for a long time, 0:15:01.600 --> 0:15:04.480 I felt like my destiny was to be by her 0:15:04.560 --> 0:15:07.360 side and help her shine and build her up, and 0:15:08.000 --> 0:15:10.160 then one day would be my time. Never did I 0:15:10.280 --> 0:15:13.480 think she was going to pass. And then it was 0:15:13.600 --> 0:15:16.160 only until then that I was able to find the 0:15:16.200 --> 0:15:18.600 strength within myself to say, okay, let me step into 0:15:19.480 --> 0:15:21.760 my own light. For a long time, it was just 0:15:21.840 --> 0:15:24.480 and even even in the beginning of my of my career, 0:15:24.560 --> 0:15:27.400 it was difficult because it was the comparison like and 0:15:27.480 --> 0:15:29.800 it's taken a lot of work for people to be like, hey, 0:15:29.880 --> 0:15:32.160 it's me, it's Cheeky's like, don't look at my mom, like, 0:15:32.440 --> 0:15:34.960 don't compare me to her. We're two different individuals. But 0:15:35.240 --> 0:15:38.480 I feel like now, finally, especially with this new tour, 0:15:38.680 --> 0:15:41.600 this new album, I feel like more confident than ever, 0:15:41.960 --> 0:15:44.760 barely like where it's like I thought, but now I'm like, 0:15:44.880 --> 0:15:48.120 I think I got this by the balls. Now. You know, hey, listen, 0:15:48.440 --> 0:15:51.280 when your mom passes, that's a part of this greater 0:15:51.400 --> 0:15:53.080 I see that as a part of a greater plan 0:15:53.200 --> 0:15:56.600 of passing the baton, saying you're ready now to do 0:15:56.720 --> 0:16:00.320 your own thing. My job here is done. Now time 0:16:00.400 --> 0:16:03.600 for you to, you know, create your own path, not 0:16:03.800 --> 0:16:06.320 based on me. I'm passing the baton on to you. 0:16:07.120 --> 0:16:09.080 I've never said that before, and that's how I feel. 0:16:09.080 --> 0:16:11.200 I almost feel wrong with saying that, but I feel 0:16:11.240 --> 0:16:13.880 like if my mom and I were both here, I 0:16:13.960 --> 0:16:16.240 don't know, it's not the correct word is she wouldn't 0:16:16.240 --> 0:16:18.840 allow it. But I just feel like I wouldn't be 0:16:18.960 --> 0:16:21.560 doing what I'm doing if she was still here, you 0:16:21.600 --> 0:16:23.200 know what I mean? Maybe because she was such a 0:16:23.320 --> 0:16:25.800 huge force and she continues to be. Don't don't get 0:16:25.800 --> 0:16:27.760 me wrong, but I do feel like it's more like 0:16:27.880 --> 0:16:30.480 God said, Okay, well here, your mom's gonna go rest now, 0:16:30.680 --> 0:16:32.120 and we're going to allow you to do what you 0:16:32.240 --> 0:16:34.000 have to do. You know. But I've never said that 0:16:34.040 --> 0:16:35.560 out loud because I'm like, how the funk is that 0:16:35.600 --> 0:16:38.000 going to sound? But I've always felt it within me. 0:16:38.400 --> 0:16:40.920 You know, No, it's you love your mom. I mean, 0:16:40.960 --> 0:16:44.280 people love their moms. I love the hell out of her. 0:16:44.360 --> 0:16:45.680 So it has nothing to do with that. It's just 0:16:45.800 --> 0:16:50.720 that your journey, right, your journey needed we needed a transit. 0:16:50.840 --> 0:16:54.440 I called that the catalyst. And sometimes the catalyst comes, 0:16:54.480 --> 0:16:57.080 a person comes in your life, and sometimes someone leaves. 0:16:57.880 --> 0:17:00.320 But it's always a catalyst because it's a time frame 0:17:00.400 --> 0:17:03.040 in your life where you're ready for growth and and 0:17:03.160 --> 0:17:05.120 the universe kind of sets that up in a way, 0:17:05.320 --> 0:17:07.760 right and so and and that's part of the process. 0:17:07.920 --> 0:17:12.080 Now we talk about personality eleven and now eleven is 0:17:12.119 --> 0:17:14.000 it two? You can you can add eleven and becoming two. 0:17:14.080 --> 0:17:17.000 So we know that. But we but but master numbers, um, 0:17:17.119 --> 0:17:19.480 the eleven is the first master number because it's a 0:17:19.480 --> 0:17:22.240 double one. All the other mass numbers. You know, twenty 0:17:22.280 --> 0:17:24.840 two is two times eleven, you know, thirty three or 0:17:24.920 --> 0:17:27.040 three times eleven. So left we always we just added 0:17:27.320 --> 0:17:29.240 respect for the eleven. We just keep it. It's the 0:17:29.240 --> 0:17:32.000 original master number. You have that in your personality. Now 0:17:32.040 --> 0:17:35.359 eleven does rule the media. Okay, so we now know 0:17:35.480 --> 0:17:38.320 you have immediate we have immediate personality, inspirational, you have 0:17:38.359 --> 0:17:41.600 a certain dynamic quality to you, certain charisma may come 0:17:41.640 --> 0:17:44.119 through that to the eleven. People go and go online 0:17:44.119 --> 0:17:46.040 and read about the number eleven. You can run a 0:17:46.080 --> 0:17:47.680 level personality and all that kind of stuff, and you 0:17:47.760 --> 0:17:51.359 can see these are aspects of the eleven. Now we 0:17:51.440 --> 0:17:56.040 already have communications, right, and a powerful communication, and we 0:17:56.119 --> 0:17:58.440 have seven is dropping that knowledge and bringing your truth. 0:17:58.480 --> 0:18:02.440 And then we have a media like person Alley. Okay, Now, 0:18:02.680 --> 0:18:04.280 now am I supposed to be shocked that you're doing 0:18:04.320 --> 0:18:08.320 a podcast? You're communicating your knowledge and your truth right 0:18:08.480 --> 0:18:11.200 within the within the media context. Now I'll tell you 0:18:11.359 --> 0:18:15.280 something that's interesting that eleven personality gives a sort of 0:18:15.400 --> 0:18:19.200 dynamic quality to you, where the seven doesn't have that. 0:18:19.359 --> 0:18:21.800 The seven is the seven will nerd out on you, 0:18:22.040 --> 0:18:24.119 or get spiritual with you, or get deep with you, 0:18:24.880 --> 0:18:27.680 but they don't necessarily have a good personality. Yeah, the 0:18:27.720 --> 0:18:29.720 seven is ja and I feel like the eleven is cheeky. 0:18:29.760 --> 0:18:32.359 Those are my two different people. Yeah, yeah, the the 0:18:32.480 --> 0:18:35.840 leven will dramatize that, you know, the leven will inspire 0:18:35.960 --> 0:18:38.280 and and then you got a double five member five's 0:18:38.320 --> 0:18:41.000 fire and it's over and a shaker, you know what 0:18:41.040 --> 0:18:43.520 I mean. A little a little little wacky, a little 0:18:43.680 --> 0:18:45.720 a little impulsive, a little how to how to learn, 0:18:45.760 --> 0:18:49.240 how to take this topsy turvy craziness, and and and 0:18:49.440 --> 0:18:52.359 and and discipline it. But but it's certainly got the 0:18:52.600 --> 0:18:56.040 magnetic powerful communication ability. This is why I said I wouldn't. 0:18:56.119 --> 0:18:58.560 I would have not have known necessarily you were you 0:18:58.640 --> 0:19:01.200 were a singer. I know that you're involved in communications. 0:19:01.240 --> 0:19:03.120 I know you'd be in the media. What you're doing 0:19:03.240 --> 0:19:07.080 now is more connected to those numbers that I see 0:19:07.080 --> 0:19:09.600 than anything. However, I know this, I know this one 0:19:09.640 --> 0:19:12.959 thing I know from being a musician and a writer, myself. 0:19:13.359 --> 0:19:16.919 You know that music is a you know, a media 0:19:17.040 --> 0:19:19.680 outlet that you can you can bring your truth to 0:19:19.760 --> 0:19:23.560 others through and you can communicate that to others. Right, 0:19:24.320 --> 0:19:27.560 it is communications. It is the media. You know, the 0:19:27.640 --> 0:19:30.080 lyrics in which you say you can bring you know, 0:19:30.280 --> 0:19:34.160 deeper meaning in it. But notice how you're doing a podcast, right, 0:19:34.600 --> 0:19:38.560 and now, how many singers do a podcast? Not very many. 0:19:38.720 --> 0:19:40.720 And the reason why it is is that we have 0:19:40.960 --> 0:19:45.360 straight communications and informational stuff going on here, you know, community, 0:19:45.400 --> 0:19:48.280 you know, communication industry, telling the truth, talking about a 0:19:48.359 --> 0:19:52.000 breaking it down in a communication environment through some media outlet. 0:19:52.280 --> 0:19:55.000 And we see that that is a proposed to your 0:19:55.160 --> 0:19:58.600 chart where just someone who was a straight singer wouldn't 0:19:58.600 --> 0:20:02.760 do that. You see how your chart shows this persolutely. Yes, 0:20:03.040 --> 0:20:06.080 it's crazy. Yes, you know. Now in music you can 0:20:06.119 --> 0:20:09.359 say something, but I mean you've got some real communication 0:20:09.440 --> 0:20:12.720 industry stuff. This is radio, this is TV, this is 0:20:13.200 --> 0:20:15.399 writing a book. You know, it's kind of like that, 0:20:16.520 --> 0:20:19.639 you know, yeah, oh my god, yeah, and that's what 0:20:19.760 --> 0:20:24.159 makes me so happy. Yeah, because why because you have 0:20:24.200 --> 0:20:26.480 an alternative. You were seven, You've you've got to share 0:20:26.560 --> 0:20:29.320 what you know, your truth offenders and you're gonna do 0:20:29.400 --> 0:20:31.639 it through the media, but you can you do it 0:20:31.720 --> 0:20:34.760 in maybe in an unconventional way, in a crazy way, 0:20:34.840 --> 0:20:37.640 and in an edgy way. You know that devil five. 0:20:38.080 --> 0:20:40.960