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Speaker 1: Happy Monday. It's so good to be with you on

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Speaker 1: great start to your week. Today we're gonna be finishing

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Speaker 1: up our conversation on neurology, so let's not waste any

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Speaker 1: ease and chill. Okay, guys. So, as I mentioned, this

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Speaker 1: John Seagull. He's been in this line of work for

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Speaker 1: where we left off. I am nervous. I have never

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Speaker 1: Now I'm just kind of like I think on the surface,

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Speaker 1: is always self worth self value as a lesson. So

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00:21:49,440 --> 00:21:52,399
Speaker 1: I can tell you right now that many people in

426
00:21:52,440 --> 00:21:57,520
Speaker 1: this world who are extremely successful have had low self worth. Okay.

427
00:21:57,880 --> 00:22:00,200
Speaker 1: Now a lot of people tell me, they're like, why

428
00:22:00,359 --> 00:22:04,560
Speaker 1: is that, And they said, well, you have something to prove. Okay,

429
00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:10,679
Speaker 1: you're driven to succeed, right to go beyond these feelings

430
00:22:10,760 --> 00:22:14,240
Speaker 1: that you have right too to compensate for that for

431
00:22:14,320 --> 00:22:16,840
Speaker 1: those soft worth concerns. Okay, you know, when you have

432
00:22:16,880 --> 00:22:20,040
Speaker 1: an eight, you have to learn to value yourself that

433
00:22:20,400 --> 00:22:25,200
Speaker 1: who you are is worthy. Yeah, And I got to

434
00:22:25,240 --> 00:22:28,280
Speaker 1: tell you it's strange because you think, well, if someone's

435
00:22:28,280 --> 00:22:29,880
Speaker 1: got self worth the US and they don't, they don't

436
00:22:29,920 --> 00:22:32,640
Speaker 1: value themselves a way they should what they're worth. Of course,

437
00:22:32,720 --> 00:22:34,600
Speaker 1: earlier in their life they're going to put themselves in

438
00:22:34,680 --> 00:22:38,920
Speaker 1: compromise compromise situations. Mm hmm. Now you can do that

439
00:22:39,000 --> 00:22:42,320
Speaker 1: and work, but you can do in relationships right where

440
00:22:42,400 --> 00:22:47,640
Speaker 1: you are not treated as if you are valued. Okay, yes,

441
00:22:47,920 --> 00:22:50,679
Speaker 1: now there's an interesting thing. It also rules the material

442
00:22:50,760 --> 00:22:54,600
Speaker 1: world and finances and money. Okay, Now, if you have

443
00:22:54,760 --> 00:22:58,240
Speaker 1: seventeen eight you know seven rules, that spiritual truth, that

444
00:22:58,480 --> 00:23:00,560
Speaker 1: deep stuff, and then eight will is the money and

445
00:23:00,600 --> 00:23:04,120
Speaker 1: the power and when it's coming together is a deep

446
00:23:04,200 --> 00:23:06,840
Speaker 1: lesson that means is I call a love hate relationship

447
00:23:07,920 --> 00:23:10,080
Speaker 1: with the money and power, and and that we have

448
00:23:10,240 --> 00:23:13,560
Speaker 1: to think about what was going on growing up with

449
00:23:13,720 --> 00:23:19,360
Speaker 1: the mentality the value system of your parents. Okay, where

450
00:23:19,440 --> 00:23:22,479
Speaker 1: they came from, because you know, with eights you can

451
00:23:22,520 --> 00:23:25,040
Speaker 1: go up or down. You know, as can can become

452
00:23:25,160 --> 00:23:28,800
Speaker 1: extremely successful. But their background shows that they're learning how

453
00:23:28,840 --> 00:23:34,920
Speaker 1: to have a spiritual relationship, a positive relationship with money

454
00:23:35,000 --> 00:23:37,880
Speaker 1: and the material world and success. Because if you take

455
00:23:38,040 --> 00:23:40,359
Speaker 1: straight eight, it's all about this success and it doesn't

456
00:23:40,400 --> 00:23:44,639
Speaker 1: matter anything else. Okay, it's about it's about money and

457
00:23:44,720 --> 00:23:47,760
Speaker 1: success and achievement. If you take just the seven, it's like, oh,

458
00:23:47,960 --> 00:23:50,800
Speaker 1: it's about what I do is being feeding my soul.

459
00:23:50,880 --> 00:23:53,720
Speaker 1: It's about doing something meaningful. It's about doing something that

460
00:23:54,320 --> 00:23:56,720
Speaker 1: I use my my deeper talents for. It's not about

461
00:23:56,800 --> 00:23:59,159
Speaker 1: how much money I make. It's not about the status

462
00:23:59,200 --> 00:24:02,480
Speaker 1: and the success. Okay, yeah, your value has always just

463
00:24:02,600 --> 00:24:05,600
Speaker 1: been you. In my past, I've struggled with with self worth.

464
00:24:05,680 --> 00:24:08,200
Speaker 1: I mean it could come from everything that I lived

465
00:24:08,240 --> 00:24:10,760
Speaker 1: through when I was younger and being you know, sexually

466
00:24:10,800 --> 00:24:12,560
Speaker 1: abused by my father. You feel like what am I

467
00:24:12,640 --> 00:24:16,119
Speaker 1: really worth? Like that really affects you, like your confidence

468
00:24:16,480 --> 00:24:19,639
Speaker 1: as a young lady growing up. You feel dirty, You

469
00:24:19,800 --> 00:24:22,680
Speaker 1: feel like you know so many things, like no one's

470
00:24:22,680 --> 00:24:25,359
Speaker 1: gonna want me because I'm already quote unquote used in

471
00:24:25,480 --> 00:24:27,040
Speaker 1: other words, you know what I mean. So all those

472
00:24:27,080 --> 00:24:30,200
Speaker 1: things affected me so much, and then obviously losing my

473
00:24:30,320 --> 00:24:33,160
Speaker 1: mom and having to like stand on my own two feet.

474
00:24:33,640 --> 00:24:35,639
Speaker 1: And now this is why I feel like everything is

475
00:24:35,680 --> 00:24:37,960
Speaker 1: just I feel so different. I don't even know how

476
00:24:38,000 --> 00:24:39,720
Speaker 1: to explain it. I'm so glad I'm having this conversation

477
00:24:39,800 --> 00:24:43,240
Speaker 1: with Josh because it's all just coming full circle for me.

478
00:24:43,400 --> 00:24:44,880
Speaker 1: Like now i feel like I'm not going to put

479
00:24:44,960 --> 00:24:47,240
Speaker 1: up with anyone ship. Now I'm going to speak my mind.

480
00:24:47,359 --> 00:24:51,320
Speaker 1: Now I feel worthy. Now I have is here in

481
00:24:51,440 --> 00:24:53,520
Speaker 1: my intro, That's what I say. She's here, I'm here,

482
00:24:53,560 --> 00:24:56,960
Speaker 1: We're here to stay. Like Like now I'm like I'm

483
00:24:57,040 --> 00:24:59,320
Speaker 1: worthy and I have to tell myself that a lot.

484
00:24:59,800 --> 00:25:02,200
Speaker 1: I'm worthy, I am worthy of love, I am worthy

485
00:25:02,359 --> 00:25:06,280
Speaker 1: of success, I am worthy of being financially stable. Like

486
00:25:06,359 --> 00:25:09,120
Speaker 1: those are all affirmations that I tell myself on every day,

487
00:25:09,160 --> 00:25:11,240
Speaker 1: because sometimes my past can come and try to seep

488
00:25:11,280 --> 00:25:20,879
Speaker 1: into my future. Now, when we grow up with this,

489
00:25:21,400 --> 00:25:23,600
Speaker 1: what's odd is this stuff can play out in relationships,

490
00:25:23,640 --> 00:25:25,360
Speaker 1: and you think, well, how would that play out relationships?

491
00:25:25,840 --> 00:25:28,520
Speaker 1: It does the people you check their self worth and

492
00:25:28,600 --> 00:25:31,719
Speaker 1: their value system about what's important in life and how

493
00:25:31,800 --> 00:25:34,680
Speaker 1: much they put on outer success and achievements and status

494
00:25:34,920 --> 00:25:36,760
Speaker 1: things and stuff, and how much they put in the

495
00:25:36,880 --> 00:25:39,960
Speaker 1: deeper stuff. Right, So the first thing we need to

496
00:25:40,000 --> 00:25:42,840
Speaker 1: do is go back and talk about where your parents

497
00:25:42,960 --> 00:25:48,600
Speaker 1: came from originally, what happened with their goals and success.

498
00:25:48,680 --> 00:25:51,280
Speaker 1: Now you say your mother was a very successful person,

499
00:25:51,600 --> 00:25:53,879
Speaker 1: kind of over shadowed by or some degree. Where'd your

500
00:25:53,920 --> 00:25:55,919
Speaker 1: dad come from? Where your mom come from? What did

501
00:25:55,960 --> 00:25:59,040
Speaker 1: they do? What was their focus in life? What was

502
00:25:59,080 --> 00:26:03,920
Speaker 1: their system about money, success, achievement? What was your self

503
00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:07,240
Speaker 1: worth level? Inside? Tell me about both of them where

504
00:26:07,240 --> 00:26:12,240
Speaker 1: they came from. Okay, so my mother, she grew up

505
00:26:12,280 --> 00:26:14,000
Speaker 1: I could say like poor, you know, what I mean.

506
00:26:14,160 --> 00:26:17,520
Speaker 1: So she was very loved, had a very pretty and

507
00:26:17,640 --> 00:26:22,080
Speaker 1: beautiful I think childhood. And then she always would say

508
00:26:22,080 --> 00:26:24,320
Speaker 1: I was the ugly duckling and I was always just

509
00:26:24,400 --> 00:26:26,960
Speaker 1: stuck in my books because boys didn't like me. And

510
00:26:27,040 --> 00:26:29,040
Speaker 1: she was like, you know, ugly duck So she was

511
00:26:29,359 --> 00:26:32,240
Speaker 1: top of her class, valutorian. And as she got older,

512
00:26:32,920 --> 00:26:35,840
Speaker 1: she the reason she said that she started singing was

513
00:26:35,960 --> 00:26:37,920
Speaker 1: because she wanted to feed her children, and think it

514
00:26:38,000 --> 00:26:42,359
Speaker 1: just became a thing that didn't necessarily make her pent happy.

515
00:26:42,600 --> 00:26:44,760
Speaker 1: It was something that just brought she was good at

516
00:26:45,080 --> 00:26:46,840
Speaker 1: and brought her a lot of money in a way

517
00:26:46,880 --> 00:26:48,600
Speaker 1: to take care of her children. But for her it

518
00:26:48,800 --> 00:26:51,439
Speaker 1: was very much as far as money was I'm going

519
00:26:51,480 --> 00:26:53,000
Speaker 1: to buy this house, I'm gonna have this car because

520
00:26:53,000 --> 00:26:54,600
Speaker 1: I didn't have it when I was younger. It did

521
00:26:54,760 --> 00:26:58,280
Speaker 1: make her feel very valuable. Oh my god. Okay, so

522
00:26:58,480 --> 00:27:01,719
Speaker 1: just thank you for that. So well done. All right,

523
00:27:01,760 --> 00:27:04,120
Speaker 1: So your mother, who had a huge impact on your life,

524
00:27:04,640 --> 00:27:06,720
Speaker 1: had low self worth as a child. She actually thought

525
00:27:06,760 --> 00:27:10,880
Speaker 1: she was ugly, and and she overcompensated by doing well

526
00:27:10,960 --> 00:27:14,600
Speaker 1: in life in school to overcompensate, like get it into

527
00:27:14,640 --> 00:27:16,280
Speaker 1: you know what I'm saying what people are gonna like me.

528
00:27:16,400 --> 00:27:18,760
Speaker 1: Boys aren'tna like people, So I better I better find

529
00:27:18,840 --> 00:27:22,080
Speaker 1: something that I could be smart. So I'm gonna that'll

530
00:27:22,119 --> 00:27:24,520
Speaker 1: be my success. And then later on in life she

531
00:27:24,680 --> 00:27:27,320
Speaker 1: became a singer, and not for the joy of music necessarily,

532
00:27:27,400 --> 00:27:29,680
Speaker 1: but to make money so she could have the things

533
00:27:29,760 --> 00:27:32,000
Speaker 1: she didn't have when she was poor, which means her

534
00:27:32,240 --> 00:27:35,520
Speaker 1: entire drive in life is the overcompensate for being the

535
00:27:35,640 --> 00:27:38,680
Speaker 1: ugly poor child, so she can have the material things

536
00:27:39,040 --> 00:27:42,400
Speaker 1: to make up for what she didn't have. Yeah, yep,

537
00:27:42,600 --> 00:27:46,720
Speaker 1: oh my god, that's I know, I know, and I

538
00:27:46,800 --> 00:27:49,600
Speaker 1: mean that's really deep. Yeah. And for her, for a

539
00:27:49,680 --> 00:27:52,240
Speaker 1: long time, she she wanted to stop singing because it

540
00:27:52,359 --> 00:27:54,720
Speaker 1: was it's a lot on your body. It's the touring

541
00:27:54,840 --> 00:27:56,399
Speaker 1: in the late nights and stuff that it was just

542
00:27:56,520 --> 00:27:58,560
Speaker 1: like I'm good at this, and she was just she's

543
00:27:58,640 --> 00:28:01,280
Speaker 1: a monster in in in her genre, you know, and

544
00:28:01,400 --> 00:28:04,240
Speaker 1: still is. So I think it just it was just

545
00:28:04,359 --> 00:28:05,639
Speaker 1: the way of like, I'm tired, I don't know if

546
00:28:05,640 --> 00:28:07,840
Speaker 1: I want to do something else, but this is what

547
00:28:08,040 --> 00:28:13,119
Speaker 1: gives me that power, that financial stability, you know what

548
00:28:13,200 --> 00:28:16,520
Speaker 1: I mean. Um, And she loved buying those expensive things

549
00:28:16,600 --> 00:28:18,440
Speaker 1: because it just in the diamonds and that, this and that,

550
00:28:18,560 --> 00:28:20,200
Speaker 1: because she didn't have that when she was younger. So

551
00:28:20,400 --> 00:28:23,119
Speaker 1: for her it did make her feel better like I'm successful.

552
00:28:23,160 --> 00:28:24,919
Speaker 1: But I know in her heart, like there was there

553
00:28:24,960 --> 00:28:26,560
Speaker 1: were a lot of things that she was sad about,

554
00:28:26,720 --> 00:28:28,720
Speaker 1: you know, like when she was at home by herself

555
00:28:28,840 --> 00:28:31,159
Speaker 1: and the conversations we had and stuff like that, you know,

556
00:28:31,600 --> 00:28:35,200
Speaker 1: But externally she seemed like this very confident, strong woman,

557
00:28:35,400 --> 00:28:38,680
Speaker 1: you know. And my dad, my dad, I don't you know.

558
00:28:39,200 --> 00:28:42,640
Speaker 1: He he was also he was born in Mexico, so

559
00:28:42,800 --> 00:28:45,040
Speaker 1: he came from a very poor family, like there was

560
00:28:45,120 --> 00:28:49,560
Speaker 1: fifteen children. Um. He worked and he was in real estate.

561
00:28:49,840 --> 00:28:52,040
Speaker 1: That's how him and my mom met, or actually now

562
00:28:52,040 --> 00:28:53,239
Speaker 1: that's not how they met, but they worked in real

563
00:28:53,320 --> 00:28:57,440
Speaker 1: estate together like earlier in life. Um, And I don't

564
00:28:57,440 --> 00:28:59,160
Speaker 1: know too much about him, to be honest. He was

565
00:28:59,240 --> 00:29:01,280
Speaker 1: just more of like a mellow type of dude that

566
00:29:01,480 --> 00:29:03,640
Speaker 1: just say I'm making money, take care of my family

567
00:29:03,680 --> 00:29:05,600
Speaker 1: sort of thing. What do you do? What kind of

568
00:29:05,640 --> 00:29:08,760
Speaker 1: work do you do? He did real estate. That's all

569
00:29:08,840 --> 00:29:10,360
Speaker 1: I ever knew that he did was just he was

570
00:29:10,360 --> 00:29:12,680
Speaker 1: a real estate agent and he did he did fairly well.

571
00:29:12,960 --> 00:29:15,400
Speaker 1: With that. You know, Um, now he's in jail. He's

572
00:29:15,400 --> 00:29:18,040
Speaker 1: in jail for what he sexually molested me when when

573
00:29:18,080 --> 00:29:20,959
Speaker 1: I was a little girl. I'm sorry to hear that. Um,

574
00:29:21,000 --> 00:29:23,480
Speaker 1: it's okay. What was it like for him to have

575
00:29:23,680 --> 00:29:26,640
Speaker 1: his wife blow up like that? I'm sure she made

576
00:29:26,640 --> 00:29:29,400
Speaker 1: more money than he did. He Yes, she always did

577
00:29:29,480 --> 00:29:31,160
Speaker 1: make more money. My mom, I'm telling you, was the

578
00:29:31,600 --> 00:29:34,640
Speaker 1: you know, she was super super. He didn't want her

579
00:29:34,640 --> 00:29:36,040
Speaker 1: to go to school for a long time. He didn't

580
00:29:36,040 --> 00:29:38,560
Speaker 1: want her to finish high school, and she was just

581
00:29:38,720 --> 00:29:40,480
Speaker 1: very adamant about it. She went to college, she had

582
00:29:40,480 --> 00:29:42,840
Speaker 1: a good job. Um, and then when my mom wanted

583
00:29:42,840 --> 00:29:44,680
Speaker 1: to start singing, that's when the problem started. You know.

584
00:29:44,720 --> 00:29:46,200
Speaker 1: It was just like, no, you gotta stay at home

585
00:29:46,240 --> 00:29:47,760
Speaker 1: with the kids. So he wasn't okay with that. So

586
00:29:47,840 --> 00:29:50,320
Speaker 1: that's why they separated. Ultimately. You know, he cheated and

587
00:29:50,360 --> 00:29:53,160
Speaker 1: stuff like that, but that was ultimately because he wasn't

588
00:29:53,160 --> 00:29:55,280
Speaker 1: allowing my mom to do what she wanted to do. Okay,

589
00:29:55,520 --> 00:29:58,240
Speaker 1: Now let's go back to the seventeen eight mm hmm.

590
00:29:59,480 --> 00:30:04,280
Speaker 1: Overcome you know, change in financial status, overcompensating for low

591
00:30:04,360 --> 00:30:08,840
Speaker 1: self worth. Making that your way of showing that you're

592
00:30:08,880 --> 00:30:11,600
Speaker 1: worthy because you've got the external things. You've got the diamonds,

593
00:30:11,600 --> 00:30:13,600
Speaker 1: you've got the material objects, you've got the car and

594
00:30:13,680 --> 00:30:17,000
Speaker 1: all that. Right, Okay, but you still haven't healed a

595
00:30:17,040 --> 00:30:20,760
Speaker 1: low self worth. I think it's amazing what your mom did.

596
00:30:20,880 --> 00:30:22,760
Speaker 1: I don't get me wrong. I think it's incredible. She

597
00:30:22,800 --> 00:30:26,120
Speaker 1: obviously was extremely talented. What I'm saying is he didn't

598
00:30:26,200 --> 00:30:30,280
Speaker 1: heal her wound. She still had that sadness when you

599
00:30:30,320 --> 00:30:32,400
Speaker 1: sit at the kitchen table and you're talking about that ship,

600
00:30:33,000 --> 00:30:35,080
Speaker 1: the diamond rings and the fur coats, all that ship

601
00:30:35,320 --> 00:30:37,120
Speaker 1: that she didn't have, growing enough that she thought, if

602
00:30:37,120 --> 00:30:38,360
Speaker 1: I could have this, I can have the things that

603
00:30:38,400 --> 00:30:41,840
Speaker 1: I don't have. It didn't fix that. You know. On

604
00:30:41,960 --> 00:30:45,840
Speaker 1: top of that, your father didn't want her to work.

605
00:30:47,120 --> 00:30:49,080
Speaker 1: Now you got to think about this. He's a man,

606
00:30:49,320 --> 00:30:52,240
Speaker 1: he's a you know, he's a Latino man, right, and

607
00:30:52,400 --> 00:30:55,480
Speaker 1: and the wife is making more money than him, you know,

608
00:30:55,560 --> 00:31:00,800
Speaker 1: potentially yeah, yeah, and so what did do affect his

609
00:31:00,920 --> 00:31:04,640
Speaker 1: self worth as a man? And he's now competing with her.

610
00:31:04,680 --> 00:31:06,640
Speaker 1: He's not liking that he can't be the he can't

611
00:31:06,640 --> 00:31:09,320
Speaker 1: be the breadwinner where he's unless she stops working and

612
00:31:09,400 --> 00:31:12,360
Speaker 1: he's the soul breadwinner and then he can be the man. Right,

613
00:31:12,600 --> 00:31:14,920
Speaker 1: So his self worth is being affected by that, by

614
00:31:15,000 --> 00:31:18,280
Speaker 1: her success eclipsing him, and she's trying to control her.

615
00:31:18,600 --> 00:31:21,720
Speaker 1: So it's all about her goals and outer success because

616
00:31:21,760 --> 00:31:25,800
Speaker 1: that's affecting him negatively. Yeah, So it's self worth on

617
00:31:25,960 --> 00:31:29,240
Speaker 1: his side, and it's about success and achievement being a

618
00:31:29,360 --> 00:31:32,360
Speaker 1: point of contention that led to the demise of your

619
00:31:32,440 --> 00:31:37,120
Speaker 1: parents relationship. Now you know why I say there's a

620
00:31:37,240 --> 00:31:39,120
Speaker 1: lesson in that world that you might have a love

621
00:31:39,160 --> 00:31:41,200
Speaker 1: hate relationship with money in power because money in power

622
00:31:41,360 --> 00:31:44,080
Speaker 1: was the cause of so much pain and suffering growing up.

623
00:31:44,880 --> 00:31:48,960
Speaker 1: My goodness, Yeah, do you see it? I absolutely do.

624
00:31:49,080 --> 00:31:50,920
Speaker 1: And I've been dealing with this for the past two months,

625
00:31:51,320 --> 00:31:55,640
Speaker 1: moving homes, having a big, bigger responsibility. And it's kind

626
00:31:55,680 --> 00:31:58,920
Speaker 1: of like that song Biggie song, more money, more problems,

627
00:31:59,000 --> 00:32:01,160
Speaker 1: you feel. And I don't like to look at money

628
00:32:01,200 --> 00:32:03,600
Speaker 1: in that way at all, because I feel like it's

629
00:32:04,040 --> 00:32:06,960
Speaker 1: a blessing, you know, And I try to look at

630
00:32:07,000 --> 00:32:09,600
Speaker 1: money in a very positive way, no matter how it's

631
00:32:09,640 --> 00:32:13,360
Speaker 1: affected my life in the past. Because people, when they

632
00:32:13,400 --> 00:32:16,200
Speaker 1: have money and power, some people, not all people. Some

633
00:32:16,360 --> 00:32:21,000
Speaker 1: people that aren't emotionally healthy will do certain things and

634
00:32:21,480 --> 00:32:24,440
Speaker 1: hurt other people because they can because I have that

635
00:32:24,880 --> 00:32:28,200
Speaker 1: financial stability and they're wealthy and they have that power.

636
00:32:28,920 --> 00:32:32,680
Speaker 1: So anyways, that's a whole other subject, but it is

637
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Speaker 1: so important for me that I take care of Like

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Speaker 1: one time they told me at church to be a

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Speaker 1: good steward, and I've struggled with that in my whole life.

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Speaker 1: When it's like I have some money and instead of

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Speaker 1: saving it, instead of making the right choices with it,

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Speaker 1: I spend it on things that I don't really need,

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Speaker 1: more luxuries, you know what I mean, Things that it's

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Speaker 1: just like you know, like lomal Gasto, you know. And

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Speaker 1: I feel like right now, God and the universe are

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Speaker 1: teaching me a lesson of learning. Like if you have

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Speaker 1: five dollars and we had an episode on this, you

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Speaker 1: guys save three dollars of it, you know what I mean,

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Speaker 1: and spend two of it, you know what I mean.

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Speaker 1: Like that's just a little example, but that's just kind

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Speaker 1: of like the lesson that I feel I'm learning right now,

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Speaker 1: because sometimes we don't know or appreciate the value of money.

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Speaker 1: So you guys, remember save your money and then telling

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Speaker 1: myself that too. Now, understand the timing in your life, right,

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Speaker 1: m hm, you're in an eleven year. You have an

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Speaker 1: eleven personality. You can google eleven. You can find out

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Speaker 1: what eleven is. I mean, there's some standard mean a

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Speaker 1: lot of stuff Internet's bullshit, but you know, but some

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Speaker 1: of it's just basic stuff here that you can learn.

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Speaker 1: So and eleven is is a cycle when you're going

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Speaker 1: to have shifts of consciousness and awakenings and you're going

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Speaker 1: to realize certain things. And now you have to think

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Speaker 1: about the matrix. Now, what's the matrix going to say?

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Speaker 1: You're gonna attract people in your life and you always

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Speaker 1: got to check what is there value system and mentality? Okay,

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Speaker 1: you want to be around successful people who do what

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Speaker 1: they do because they love it, not just for the money,

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Speaker 1: not to compensate, not to be all about the status.

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Speaker 1: And also in business, who are you attracting? Who are

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Speaker 1: you working with? You know? Are you are you getting

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Speaker 1: a positive thing or a negative thing about business? You know?

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Speaker 1: What are what's their mentality and their value system? And

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Speaker 1: who's in control and who's the authority? Oh my god, yeah,

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Speaker 1: you know. Now I don't know exactly what happened in

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Speaker 1: your childhood. I never I never said I know everything.

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Speaker 1: I mean, I know the basics of it. I know

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Speaker 1: the dynamics. So I ask you know, I'm not a psychic.

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Speaker 1: This is a mathematical formula. It gives me a blueprint

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Speaker 1: of what might have happened and how that affected you.

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Speaker 1: And I know for certain that we repeat whatever happened

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Speaker 1: to us. So you've got to figure that out. And look,

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Speaker 1: I've done twenty of these things, so you fear you

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00:34:51,000 --> 00:34:53,759
Speaker 1: learn kind of how it works. You're going to a

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Speaker 1: major shift right now, change of mind, change of heart,

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00:34:56,160 --> 00:35:01,000
Speaker 1: reevaluation of your life. And I bet a million dollars

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00:35:01,520 --> 00:35:04,839
Speaker 1: that it's related to you maintaining your first of all,

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00:35:04,920 --> 00:35:08,239
Speaker 1: your identity and doing you. And number two, it has

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00:35:08,280 --> 00:35:11,680
Speaker 1: to do with your self worth, business, your your goals

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00:35:11,719 --> 00:35:13,640
Speaker 1: that you want to accomplish, and keeping your integrity or

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00:35:13,680 --> 00:35:15,719
Speaker 1: what you want to do and losing power and this

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00:35:15,880 --> 00:35:18,800
Speaker 1: kind of stuff and making sure that your pathway is

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Speaker 1: in alignment with your value system. Oh yes, oh my goodness. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: it's absolutely what's going on. And it's been really pulling

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Speaker 1: on the strings of my soul to the point where

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00:35:33,360 --> 00:35:35,239
Speaker 1: it gets me in a bad mood where I'm just like, wait,

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Speaker 1: like I I'm very intuitive, I know, and I'm like,

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Speaker 1: I can't ignore this because it's later on the universe.

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Speaker 1: Isn't a kickman? Yes, but that's exactly what's going on,

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Speaker 1: absolutely right, And then you have to look at this.

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Speaker 1: Am I going to do the programming and repeat the

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00:35:50,640 --> 00:35:56,120
Speaker 1: fact that that world symbolically related to your mother and

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00:35:56,200 --> 00:35:57,640
Speaker 1: your father? We went over that. I don't have to

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00:35:57,680 --> 00:36:01,040
Speaker 1: go over that. Do I have to repeat that pattern

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Speaker 1: and play out that money's route all evil or business

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00:36:03,600 --> 00:36:07,160
Speaker 1: or all that whatever that ship is right? Or can

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Speaker 1: I wake up out of the matrix and say, you

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Speaker 1: know what, I'm going to make sure that my business

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Speaker 1: turns out the right way. I'm going to make sure

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Speaker 1: that I keep my integrity and that I work with

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Speaker 1: those who do. I'm going to make sure that the

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Speaker 1: truth and honesty and all that's going to be a

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Speaker 1: part of this, and that I see myself as the

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Speaker 1: manager of my own life because I'm my own authority

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00:36:27,480 --> 00:36:29,040
Speaker 1: and I'm going to have the self worth to say

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Speaker 1: what I need and what I want. Yep, absolutely yes,

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Speaker 1: even though my self worth got kicked in the ball

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00:36:36,920 --> 00:36:40,480
Speaker 1: sack growing up seeing all that ship. Yes, I know,

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Speaker 1: but I I am adamant about making the changes necessary

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Speaker 1: in my life. So this was honestly wonderful. It really

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Speaker 1: did answer so many questions. It confirmed a lot of

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Speaker 1: things for me, and I just I feel that, I mean,

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Speaker 1: we can do this off of the podcast, right, I

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Speaker 1: can have a session with you later. Yeah, you didn't

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Speaker 1: get to doing those those magical cycles, because those are

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Speaker 1: wild when you go back and you see how things

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Speaker 1: played out during these certain number cycles. But I guess

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Speaker 1: we don't have enough time for that today. Yeah, I know,

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Speaker 1: but but it's okay. I do want to speak to you.

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Speaker 1: I'm going to tell my producers, um for us to

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Speaker 1: I would love to have your numbers so I can

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Speaker 1: have a session with you. Have a lot of questions, um,

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Speaker 1: you know, but but I'm honestly you guys, I'm in

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Speaker 1: like all right now, my mouth is open. I have

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Speaker 1: I feel like I want to cry, but of excitement

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Speaker 1: because I'm just like, oh my gosh, I feel like

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Speaker 1: I can rest with so many things. It's just it's

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Speaker 1: hard to explain because I feel like I would have

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Speaker 1: to get in into detail. But either way, Josh, thank

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Speaker 1: you so much. I am so grateful. You are definitely

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Speaker 1: gifted and and what it is that you do because

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Speaker 1: the thing is, yes, I know you said this is

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Speaker 1: very factual and everything and like it. It's all connected,

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Speaker 1: but you are also very intuitive. It all goes together.

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Speaker 1: So and Josh, I don't know if you want to

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Speaker 1: share your social media or a website where people can

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Speaker 1: find you. Yeah, so, I mean the websites you know,

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Speaker 1: Josh code. My Instagram is at Numerology, Josh at Numerology Josh.

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Speaker 1: And today's motivational quote is I wasn't ready for half

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Speaker 1: the ship I went through, but clearly I'm built for it.

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Speaker 1: That's what Numerology says. Guys, were built for the stuff

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00:38:24,440 --> 00:38:26,320
Speaker 1: that we're meant to go through. We get out of

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Speaker 1: it again. You guys, Loso, thank you for being with

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Speaker 1: me on Chickens and Chill. I will you know catch

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Speaker 1: you next Monday. Pall y'all, and guys, I want to

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00:38:41,480 --> 00:38:42,960
Speaker 1: let you know there's a brand new way for us

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