1 00:00:03,880 --> 00:00:06,120 Speaker 1: I feel so different. I don't even know how to 2 00:00:06,160 --> 00:00:07,920 Speaker 1: explain it. I'm so glad I'm having this conversation with 3 00:00:08,000 --> 00:00:11,320 Speaker 1: Josh because it's all just coming full circle for me. 4 00:00:13,360 --> 00:00:15,880 Speaker 2: When your mom passes, I see that as a part 5 00:00:15,920 --> 00:00:19,400 Speaker 2: of a greater plan of passing to baton saying you're 6 00:00:19,440 --> 00:00:21,919 Speaker 2: ready now to do your own thing. My job here 7 00:00:22,000 --> 00:00:24,959 Speaker 2: is done. The first part of our life is going 8 00:00:25,040 --> 00:00:29,160 Speaker 2: to be topsy turvy, volatile, crazy, changeable, unstable. 9 00:00:33,600 --> 00:00:36,239 Speaker 1: What up, y'all? Happy Monday. It's so good to be 10 00:00:36,320 --> 00:00:38,840 Speaker 1: with you on this beautiful day. I hope you all 11 00:00:38,920 --> 00:00:41,959 Speaker 1: are having a great start to your week. Today we're 12 00:00:41,960 --> 00:00:44,720 Speaker 1: going to be finishing up our conversation on numerology, so 13 00:00:44,960 --> 00:00:47,480 Speaker 1: let's not waste any more time. Let's get right into it. 14 00:00:47,800 --> 00:00:56,200 Speaker 1: This is Cheeky's and chill okay, guys, So, as I mentioned, 15 00:00:56,200 --> 00:00:58,640 Speaker 1: this is actually a part two of our conversation with 16 00:00:58,720 --> 00:01:02,280 Speaker 1: numerologist job siegl He's been in this line of work 17 00:01:02,400 --> 00:01:05,120 Speaker 1: for more than two decades and he's been kind enough 18 00:01:05,160 --> 00:01:06,960 Speaker 1: to do a reading on me. So let's pick up 19 00:01:07,040 --> 00:01:12,640 Speaker 1: right where we left off. I am nervous. I have 20 00:01:12,720 --> 00:01:15,120 Speaker 1: never done a reading like this. I know about numerology, 21 00:01:15,160 --> 00:01:17,040 Speaker 1: I've read about numerology. I was into it a lot 22 00:01:17,200 --> 00:01:20,000 Speaker 1: more before. Now I'm just kind of like I think 23 00:01:20,040 --> 00:01:21,839 Speaker 1: on the surface, but now I'm ready to get in there. 24 00:01:22,120 --> 00:01:24,120 Speaker 1: This is my first time talking to Josh. Okay, I've 25 00:01:24,200 --> 00:01:26,759 Speaker 1: not spoken to him before this. I just literally met 26 00:01:26,840 --> 00:01:29,160 Speaker 1: him because of my podcast. So thank you to Mike 27 00:01:29,760 --> 00:01:32,080 Speaker 1: right here. And all he has is my full name, 28 00:01:32,160 --> 00:01:34,120 Speaker 1: my birthday, and do you have the time I was 29 00:01:34,160 --> 00:01:35,160 Speaker 1: born or no? 30 00:01:35,240 --> 00:01:37,240 Speaker 2: I know that's not needed. That's only for astrology. 31 00:01:37,520 --> 00:01:39,640 Speaker 1: Okay, perfect, So let's do it. 32 00:01:40,120 --> 00:01:42,319 Speaker 2: Okay. So when we talk about, you know, your natural 33 00:01:42,800 --> 00:01:45,240 Speaker 2: I call it your natural ability. But you know, on 34 00:01:45,280 --> 00:01:48,560 Speaker 2: the websites, you know, they'll say it's your destiny number, 35 00:01:48,760 --> 00:01:51,919 Speaker 2: right hmm. In your case, it's a fifty two to seven. Okay, 36 00:01:51,960 --> 00:01:54,640 Speaker 2: now it's a seven. You'll go on the websites that'll 37 00:01:54,640 --> 00:01:57,080 Speaker 2: say seven. It'll call it Deuestinge number. It's not your destiny, 38 00:01:57,120 --> 00:01:59,800 Speaker 2: has nothing to do with that, okay. The number seven 39 00:02:00,960 --> 00:02:04,360 Speaker 2: is the number of truth and knowledge and delving into 40 00:02:04,520 --> 00:02:08,000 Speaker 2: the mysteries and why Buddha when he was born walks 41 00:02:08,040 --> 00:02:12,359 Speaker 2: seven steps. In Islam, they have seven heaven seven hells. 42 00:02:13,240 --> 00:02:17,080 Speaker 2: In Catholicism they have the seven Holy sacraments. In Judaism, 43 00:02:17,120 --> 00:02:20,200 Speaker 2: they have the seven candled monora. In ancient India they 44 00:02:20,200 --> 00:02:23,840 Speaker 2: have the seven great teachers called the seven Rishis. Okay, 45 00:02:24,160 --> 00:02:26,760 Speaker 2: I can go on and on and on and show 46 00:02:26,800 --> 00:02:32,000 Speaker 2: how every single major world religion, almost every single spiritual 47 00:02:32,280 --> 00:02:35,480 Speaker 2: tradition that's been around for any length of time, venerates 48 00:02:35,520 --> 00:02:41,240 Speaker 2: the number seven. So when we talk about your natural ability, 49 00:02:41,360 --> 00:02:45,480 Speaker 2: you naturally instinctually delve into the truth and find the 50 00:02:45,520 --> 00:02:48,240 Speaker 2: answer and figure that shit out because that's you were 51 00:02:48,320 --> 00:02:51,600 Speaker 2: born with. That you have the power to see through, analyze, 52 00:02:51,639 --> 00:02:54,040 Speaker 2: find the truth, find answers, and spirituality can be a 53 00:02:54,120 --> 00:02:56,880 Speaker 2: part of that. There's certain things that you know inherently 54 00:02:57,520 --> 00:02:59,000 Speaker 2: is just and I got to tell you something. It 55 00:02:59,040 --> 00:03:01,920 Speaker 2: separates you from other people in a weird way. You're 56 00:03:01,960 --> 00:03:04,240 Speaker 2: always going to be the way your mind thinks, a 57 00:03:04,240 --> 00:03:06,880 Speaker 2: little bit introverted in the way you think. 58 00:03:07,440 --> 00:03:07,600 Speaker 1: You know. 59 00:03:08,600 --> 00:03:12,720 Speaker 2: Yeah, you know, people have ironies and contradictions in the chart, 60 00:03:13,120 --> 00:03:15,560 Speaker 2: you know. And one of the things when you're dealing 61 00:03:15,600 --> 00:03:18,200 Speaker 2: with skeptics, they try to play this game and they say, well, 62 00:03:18,200 --> 00:03:20,520 Speaker 2: what you said can apply to everybody. They get to 63 00:03:20,560 --> 00:03:24,440 Speaker 2: this crazy, really illogical, insane area where they say, well, 64 00:03:24,480 --> 00:03:25,680 Speaker 2: everything applies to everything. 65 00:03:25,760 --> 00:03:27,080 Speaker 1: M hmm it. 66 00:03:27,440 --> 00:03:29,320 Speaker 2: What I'm saying is is that we're going to get 67 00:03:29,360 --> 00:03:31,720 Speaker 2: to all your numbers, and we're just piecing it little 68 00:03:31,760 --> 00:03:34,320 Speaker 2: by little. But if you want to know why you 69 00:03:34,760 --> 00:03:37,160 Speaker 2: inherently know this stuff and people in your family are 70 00:03:37,160 --> 00:03:40,200 Speaker 2: other people they're not understanding, that is because you were 71 00:03:40,240 --> 00:03:43,600 Speaker 2: born with the mystical seven. Part of your talent here 72 00:03:44,200 --> 00:03:47,560 Speaker 2: is to share information, knowledge and truth with others. I mean, 73 00:03:47,680 --> 00:03:50,119 Speaker 2: you could do that through music, but it doesn't necessarily 74 00:03:50,160 --> 00:03:52,800 Speaker 2: say music. It just says that you're here to share 75 00:03:52,840 --> 00:03:55,880 Speaker 2: what you know with others. Now, I looked at that, 76 00:03:56,200 --> 00:03:58,040 Speaker 2: and then I looked at your life path, which remember 77 00:03:58,080 --> 00:04:01,720 Speaker 2: that's one of your lesson numbers. And so in numerology 78 00:04:01,800 --> 00:04:04,400 Speaker 2: there is a certain kind of number called a master number. 79 00:04:04,920 --> 00:04:06,400 Speaker 1: Okay, the master number. 80 00:04:06,520 --> 00:04:09,160 Speaker 2: And what they are just double digits and repeat eleven, 81 00:04:09,200 --> 00:04:11,480 Speaker 2: twenty two, thirty three, forty four, fifty five up to 82 00:04:11,560 --> 00:04:13,160 Speaker 2: ninety nine. If you've got one of those, and you 83 00:04:13,240 --> 00:04:15,880 Speaker 2: got a fifty five and an eleven, so you've got 84 00:04:15,880 --> 00:04:19,880 Speaker 2: two of those master numbers in your chart. So will 85 00:04:20,040 --> 00:04:23,480 Speaker 2: you will have certain special gifts inherent in that number? 86 00:04:24,120 --> 00:04:26,040 Speaker 2: People listening right, now may not know this, but they 87 00:04:26,080 --> 00:04:28,520 Speaker 2: may have a special master number in their chart that 88 00:04:28,560 --> 00:04:31,159 Speaker 2: they don't know about that may explain certain skills they've got. 89 00:04:31,520 --> 00:04:35,880 Speaker 2: Right now, understand this. That master number also happens to 90 00:04:35,880 --> 00:04:38,719 Speaker 2: be one of your life lesson numbers. Right. 91 00:04:38,880 --> 00:04:40,040 Speaker 1: Oh wow, okay, so. 92 00:04:39,920 --> 00:04:43,400 Speaker 2: You've got a master lesson. So it's like it's like, well, okay, 93 00:04:44,120 --> 00:04:47,880 Speaker 2: I was given these extra skills or certain special qualities 94 00:04:47,880 --> 00:04:51,240 Speaker 2: to me, but I have to learn that. You know, 95 00:04:51,279 --> 00:04:53,080 Speaker 2: you didn't have that in your natural ability. You have 96 00:04:53,160 --> 00:04:55,040 Speaker 2: to learn it. So yours is a fifty five to 97 00:04:55,040 --> 00:04:57,640 Speaker 2: ten one. And right off the bat, there's some irony 98 00:04:57,680 --> 00:05:01,040 Speaker 2: because five rules communications, right yeah, but I just said 99 00:05:01,040 --> 00:05:03,040 Speaker 2: seven is a very introverted thinking number, and it kind 100 00:05:03,040 --> 00:05:04,839 Speaker 2: of separates you from other people the way you are, 101 00:05:05,279 --> 00:05:07,080 Speaker 2: you know, the way you're different. But the fifty five 102 00:05:07,160 --> 00:05:09,479 Speaker 2: says your life's going to be about communications on a 103 00:05:09,480 --> 00:05:12,400 Speaker 2: powerful level. Right now, here's the interesting about fifty five. 104 00:05:13,120 --> 00:05:16,320 Speaker 2: Five is not a stable number. Okay, okay. It is 105 00:05:16,360 --> 00:05:18,919 Speaker 2: a freedom number. It is a restless number. Is a 106 00:05:18,960 --> 00:05:22,360 Speaker 2: need for constant change, new things. It can't it can't 107 00:05:22,400 --> 00:05:25,440 Speaker 2: stay stuck, It can't be in one particular situation for 108 00:05:25,520 --> 00:05:28,039 Speaker 2: too long, so it brings kind of a want like 109 00:05:28,080 --> 00:05:31,960 Speaker 2: a travel adventure, new things in life. But if it's 110 00:05:31,960 --> 00:05:34,680 Speaker 2: a part of a lesson, that means that there's a 111 00:05:34,800 --> 00:05:38,120 Speaker 2: changeable energy to your environment growing up. It is not stable, 112 00:05:38,160 --> 00:05:42,320 Speaker 2: and you know because five by nature breaks the stability. 113 00:05:42,520 --> 00:05:44,400 Speaker 2: Now there's the positive, and then there's a negative in 114 00:05:44,440 --> 00:05:48,600 Speaker 2: every number. Okay, Yes, the positive is you have a fast, quick, 115 00:05:48,600 --> 00:05:54,000 Speaker 2: adaptable mind, and you have remarkable communication capabilities, networking, communicating 116 00:05:54,040 --> 00:05:56,400 Speaker 2: and innovating. You get your new ideas, new concepts in 117 00:05:56,440 --> 00:05:58,520 Speaker 2: your mind is moving like this fast, and you have 118 00:05:58,560 --> 00:06:01,400 Speaker 2: the ability to use the power marketing and promoting and 119 00:06:01,400 --> 00:06:04,240 Speaker 2: all that kind of stuff and communicate your message. Right. 120 00:06:04,320 --> 00:06:04,640 Speaker 1: Yeah. 121 00:06:04,760 --> 00:06:06,919 Speaker 2: Now, when I look at that again, it's not like 122 00:06:06,960 --> 00:06:09,159 Speaker 2: I say, well that can't be in milk music business 123 00:06:09,560 --> 00:06:13,520 Speaker 2: could certainly follow uneath that, But I'm thinking communication industry period. 124 00:06:14,400 --> 00:06:17,120 Speaker 2: And then I look at that seven and I'm thinking, oh, well, 125 00:06:17,160 --> 00:06:19,440 Speaker 2: she's got to drop her knowledge, she's got to get deep, 126 00:06:19,440 --> 00:06:21,720 Speaker 2: she's got to explain things to people. Now she may 127 00:06:21,800 --> 00:06:24,840 Speaker 2: do it in a very powerful communicative manner. The first 128 00:06:24,920 --> 00:06:29,880 Speaker 2: part of her life is going to be topsy turvy, volatile, crazy, changeable, unstable. 129 00:06:30,839 --> 00:06:36,400 Speaker 1: Since I can remember, my life has been emotionally unstable. 130 00:06:36,600 --> 00:06:38,560 Speaker 1: I mean at home with my mom and my dad 131 00:06:38,600 --> 00:06:40,880 Speaker 1: not being together. It was always wishy washy. They were 132 00:06:40,920 --> 00:06:44,240 Speaker 1: back and forth. We lived with my grandparents, and we 133 00:06:44,320 --> 00:06:46,080 Speaker 1: lived in the garage with my in the back of 134 00:06:46,120 --> 00:06:48,880 Speaker 1: my uncle's house. So my life has always been a 135 00:06:48,960 --> 00:06:51,720 Speaker 1: little like hectic for the lack of a better word. 136 00:06:51,720 --> 00:06:53,680 Speaker 1: It's been. It was beautiful, but then here comes the 137 00:06:53,680 --> 00:06:56,040 Speaker 1: stuff with my dad that happened, the sexual abuse, and 138 00:06:56,800 --> 00:06:58,920 Speaker 1: then the issue with my mom and I and it's 139 00:06:59,040 --> 00:07:01,960 Speaker 1: just I feel like it has been an uphill battle. 140 00:07:02,480 --> 00:07:06,000 Speaker 2: You're gonna have to learn discipline and focus. M you 141 00:07:06,080 --> 00:07:08,520 Speaker 2: got to take that fire and you got to discipline. 142 00:07:08,520 --> 00:07:10,880 Speaker 2: Now you say, what happens when I take the discip 143 00:07:10,880 --> 00:07:14,800 Speaker 2: When I disciplined that double five? What moves from you know, 144 00:07:15,000 --> 00:07:19,040 Speaker 2: unstable lifestyle. Everything's you know, running around, being kind of crazy, 145 00:07:19,160 --> 00:07:21,760 Speaker 2: being out of focus. Because think about this, if you're 146 00:07:21,800 --> 00:07:23,920 Speaker 2: just running around you and you're doing this, and you're 147 00:07:23,920 --> 00:07:27,240 Speaker 2: scattered and you're not focused, you can't get anything done. 148 00:07:27,240 --> 00:07:31,120 Speaker 1: You can have great success, That's true, absolutely, quot. 149 00:07:31,120 --> 00:07:33,120 Speaker 2: You start something and you go onto something else and 150 00:07:33,240 --> 00:07:35,160 Speaker 2: or this, and that you're not focusing in on things. 151 00:07:35,440 --> 00:07:36,560 Speaker 1: I am right, yep. 152 00:07:36,720 --> 00:07:39,760 Speaker 2: So now, but when you discipline it, that double five 153 00:07:39,840 --> 00:07:42,560 Speaker 2: is a power number, Gabe. That's there's a i'd say 154 00:07:42,560 --> 00:07:45,880 Speaker 2: a life path waiting for you where you can use 155 00:07:45,920 --> 00:07:50,360 Speaker 2: your innovative mind, your communication skills to become kind of 156 00:07:50,400 --> 00:07:53,480 Speaker 2: the master of getting the message out and your mind 157 00:07:53,520 --> 00:07:55,600 Speaker 2: is always taking this something. It's like an inventor, Like 158 00:07:55,600 --> 00:07:56,920 Speaker 2: I got a new idea, I got it this, I 159 00:07:56,960 --> 00:07:59,160 Speaker 2: got that, But I'm going to focus in on it 160 00:08:00,120 --> 00:08:03,600 Speaker 2: and discipline my life so I can get that thing happening, 161 00:08:03,640 --> 00:08:07,920 Speaker 2: so I don't repeat the crazy, tumultuous, unstable out of 162 00:08:07,960 --> 00:08:08,440 Speaker 2: wax shit. 163 00:08:09,000 --> 00:08:11,720 Speaker 1: Yeah, oh my no, you're speaking to myself. 164 00:08:12,000 --> 00:08:15,040 Speaker 2: Oh all right, Now, when you add down the fifty five, 165 00:08:15,360 --> 00:08:18,240 Speaker 2: five and five, make ten, one is zero? Make one? Okay? Yes, 166 00:08:18,400 --> 00:08:21,480 Speaker 2: So one means that you're here to really do your 167 00:08:21,480 --> 00:08:24,800 Speaker 2: own thing and be a unique leader in your field. 168 00:08:25,360 --> 00:08:27,120 Speaker 2: That means you have to have a strong sense of 169 00:08:27,120 --> 00:08:30,560 Speaker 2: self and identity, like this is who I am. I'm 170 00:08:30,600 --> 00:08:33,480 Speaker 2: doing my own thing. I'm not a follower. One leads 171 00:08:33,480 --> 00:08:35,640 Speaker 2: all the numbers. One doesn't go hay three, When do 172 00:08:35,720 --> 00:08:37,600 Speaker 2: I start? They're like, dude, you're one. You start, we 173 00:08:37,640 --> 00:08:41,000 Speaker 2: follow you, all right, So one represents the identity. That 174 00:08:41,120 --> 00:08:44,320 Speaker 2: means you're going to have a parent who may their 175 00:08:44,400 --> 00:08:47,559 Speaker 2: identity may be either too big or their identity may 176 00:08:47,559 --> 00:08:49,959 Speaker 2: be strong, and they may have some kind of a 177 00:08:50,040 --> 00:08:54,199 Speaker 2: narcissism to them. You know, I'm son soo level. Yeah, okay, 178 00:08:54,600 --> 00:08:58,960 Speaker 2: And so they're going to overshadow your identity. Your identity 179 00:08:59,000 --> 00:09:01,200 Speaker 2: is going to be carving out who you are. You 180 00:09:01,240 --> 00:09:03,320 Speaker 2: have to create your own thing. Remember so I said 181 00:09:03,320 --> 00:09:05,480 Speaker 2: this is a lesson number. I didn't say it came 182 00:09:05,559 --> 00:09:09,000 Speaker 2: to you like that right now. I've also just so 183 00:09:09,480 --> 00:09:13,280 Speaker 2: you understand, there are cases where you also can be 184 00:09:13,360 --> 00:09:16,800 Speaker 2: abandoned in a weird way. So there can be control, 185 00:09:17,360 --> 00:09:18,800 Speaker 2: like you got to be like this, you should be 186 00:09:18,920 --> 00:09:21,360 Speaker 2: like this. They look at you as an extension of them, 187 00:09:21,360 --> 00:09:22,760 Speaker 2: where they see you as that and they maybe have 188 00:09:22,840 --> 00:09:25,520 Speaker 2: opinions and things like that. You know, and then you're 189 00:09:25,600 --> 00:09:26,960 Speaker 2: like but then you grow up thinking, well, who the 190 00:09:26,960 --> 00:09:31,000 Speaker 2: fuck am I My own identity didn't get carved out. 191 00:09:31,040 --> 00:09:34,040 Speaker 2: I was too affected by the narcissistic person who over 192 00:09:34,120 --> 00:09:37,040 Speaker 2: identified with themselves to help you to see you you 193 00:09:37,120 --> 00:09:41,200 Speaker 2: got overshadow at that. Now you have to understand there's 194 00:09:41,240 --> 00:09:45,280 Speaker 2: the other side of that too. So being around very 195 00:09:45,280 --> 00:09:47,480 Speaker 2: insecure people who are who don't know who they are, 196 00:09:48,400 --> 00:09:50,079 Speaker 2: it's not good for you just as much as being 197 00:09:50,120 --> 00:09:52,920 Speaker 2: around people who are all about themselves in narcissist. And 198 00:09:52,920 --> 00:09:55,880 Speaker 2: I got to tell you, there's a likelihood that you'd 199 00:09:55,880 --> 00:09:59,280 Speaker 2: grow up out of that and attract the two extremes 200 00:09:59,320 --> 00:10:03,480 Speaker 2: of the narcissist thick access. So that would be like somebody, well, 201 00:10:03,520 --> 00:10:05,840 Speaker 2: you're gonna repeat what you know? You think you think 202 00:10:05,880 --> 00:10:07,200 Speaker 2: you're gonna get conditioned by that. 203 00:10:09,480 --> 00:10:14,280 Speaker 1: Dude, I want to cry. I'm fucking truven out right now. Okay, 204 00:10:14,400 --> 00:10:15,120 Speaker 1: so sorry. 205 00:10:15,480 --> 00:10:17,880 Speaker 2: So so that's your pro Remember that's your matrix, that's 206 00:10:17,880 --> 00:10:21,160 Speaker 2: your program. And so you're gonna the program is don't 207 00:10:21,200 --> 00:10:22,880 Speaker 2: be you, it ain't about you. Then you go out, 208 00:10:22,920 --> 00:10:25,160 Speaker 2: what do you think is gonna happen? You're gonna say, oh, well, 209 00:10:25,160 --> 00:10:26,920 Speaker 2: it's not about you. Then it's gonna be about me. 210 00:10:27,040 --> 00:10:29,280 Speaker 2: And then you're gonnattract another narcissist and it's gonna be 211 00:10:29,320 --> 00:10:30,920 Speaker 2: about them. And then and here's the thing. What I 212 00:10:30,960 --> 00:10:34,120 Speaker 2: found there's something called an undercover narcissist. I found this 213 00:10:34,200 --> 00:10:37,160 Speaker 2: out from talking to my clients because sometimes they attract 214 00:10:37,200 --> 00:10:39,240 Speaker 2: these people who are like, let me give an example, 215 00:10:39,320 --> 00:10:41,880 Speaker 2: Like you have a friend that their life is just wow. Man, 216 00:10:41,920 --> 00:10:44,839 Speaker 2: they never figure it out. They're always got a problem, 217 00:10:44,920 --> 00:10:48,040 Speaker 2: an issue, they're they're insecure, they always they never get 218 00:10:48,040 --> 00:10:50,319 Speaker 2: over the hump. And then something really great happen in 219 00:10:50,320 --> 00:10:51,720 Speaker 2: your life. You want to sit down and tell them, 220 00:10:51,720 --> 00:10:53,760 Speaker 2: but you look in their eyes and they're like, oh, 221 00:10:54,120 --> 00:10:56,679 Speaker 2: I can't say this. I can't tell them that they're 222 00:10:56,720 --> 00:10:59,160 Speaker 2: already this is gonna make them feel worse. I'm gonna 223 00:10:59,240 --> 00:11:02,199 Speaker 2: put some You keep yourself a little smaller around them, 224 00:11:01,760 --> 00:11:06,160 Speaker 2: You dim your life. Let me tell you something. What's 225 00:11:06,160 --> 00:11:09,199 Speaker 2: the difference if you attracted narcissist that becomes all about 226 00:11:09,200 --> 00:11:11,840 Speaker 2: them and you lose yourself to them, or you're with 227 00:11:11,880 --> 00:11:14,800 Speaker 2: somebody that's insecure, so insecure that you dim your light 228 00:11:15,120 --> 00:11:16,040 Speaker 2: so they don't feel bad. 229 00:11:16,080 --> 00:11:17,080 Speaker 1: In both cases better. 230 00:11:17,440 --> 00:11:19,760 Speaker 2: Yeah, in both cases you were giving away yourself. 231 00:11:20,400 --> 00:11:21,439 Speaker 1: Fuck yep. 232 00:11:21,760 --> 00:11:23,480 Speaker 2: And the funny thing about this is when I talk 233 00:11:23,520 --> 00:11:26,120 Speaker 2: to ones and I asked them about this stuff. Sometimes 234 00:11:26,160 --> 00:11:29,480 Speaker 2: they had a parent that was an egotist or a narcissistic, 235 00:11:29,559 --> 00:11:32,120 Speaker 2: or they're they're about there, you know, this big person, 236 00:11:32,200 --> 00:11:35,240 Speaker 2: and sometimes they had a parent who was insecure and 237 00:11:35,600 --> 00:11:37,679 Speaker 2: unsure of themselves, and in both cases they had the 238 00:11:37,720 --> 00:11:40,839 Speaker 2: same They both had a loss of self. Right, So 239 00:11:41,360 --> 00:11:43,120 Speaker 2: I don't know what I told you. There's things I 240 00:11:43,120 --> 00:11:45,319 Speaker 2: don't know. I don't know which one it is because 241 00:11:45,320 --> 00:11:48,080 Speaker 2: they have a similar response. I know this much. You 242 00:11:48,080 --> 00:11:50,120 Speaker 2: can still attract either one of those if you're going 243 00:11:50,160 --> 00:11:52,000 Speaker 2: to repeat your pattern and then you have to wake 244 00:11:52,080 --> 00:11:53,960 Speaker 2: up them. But way way, wait, wait, wait wait, I 245 00:11:54,080 --> 00:11:57,600 Speaker 2: can be loved and be and shine my light at 246 00:11:57,600 --> 00:11:58,240 Speaker 2: the same time. 247 00:12:07,120 --> 00:12:12,520 Speaker 1: Josh is absolutely correct. I have dealt with both sides 248 00:12:12,600 --> 00:12:18,200 Speaker 1: of the spectrum, narcissistic and insecure but pretended to be 249 00:12:18,440 --> 00:12:21,199 Speaker 1: very secure but in reality wasn't. I'm not going to 250 00:12:21,240 --> 00:12:23,560 Speaker 1: say any names here, you guys, but I've dealt with 251 00:12:23,600 --> 00:12:26,760 Speaker 1: that with family members and relationships. I had a very 252 00:12:26,840 --> 00:12:30,480 Speaker 1: narcissistic partner once in my life, and I felt like 253 00:12:30,520 --> 00:12:34,040 Speaker 1: it was just all about him, and he wasn't really 254 00:12:34,080 --> 00:12:37,200 Speaker 1: allowing me to be who I am meant to be 255 00:12:37,240 --> 00:12:39,760 Speaker 1: in this world. It was, in a way, it was 256 00:12:39,800 --> 00:12:43,240 Speaker 1: all about him. But then he was also insecure because 257 00:12:43,240 --> 00:12:45,839 Speaker 1: he was afraid of what I can become. So when 258 00:12:45,880 --> 00:12:49,280 Speaker 1: I said, hey, I want to continue to do this X, Y, 259 00:12:49,360 --> 00:12:52,520 Speaker 1: and Z. It was like, well, no, I want a 260 00:12:52,559 --> 00:12:55,040 Speaker 1: wife that stays home and has children and all these things, 261 00:12:55,040 --> 00:12:57,680 Speaker 1: which is fine, but I had goals that I wanted 262 00:12:58,600 --> 00:13:03,000 Speaker 1: to accomplish, so I had to exconay that relationship. And 263 00:13:03,080 --> 00:13:06,760 Speaker 1: then in one of my past relationships, he was very 264 00:13:06,800 --> 00:13:09,880 Speaker 1: confident exteriorly like he you know, on his exterior he 265 00:13:09,960 --> 00:13:13,040 Speaker 1: was like, yeah, you know, I got this, but my 266 00:13:13,800 --> 00:13:18,040 Speaker 1: light kind of not bothered him, but I guess I did. 267 00:13:18,120 --> 00:13:20,360 Speaker 1: I had to just step back a little bit and 268 00:13:20,360 --> 00:13:23,720 Speaker 1: not be myself to my full potential because I didn't 269 00:13:23,720 --> 00:13:26,120 Speaker 1: want to hurt his feelings. I didn't want him to 270 00:13:26,120 --> 00:13:28,520 Speaker 1: feel like he was less than or felt inadequate, or 271 00:13:28,559 --> 00:13:31,640 Speaker 1: felt inferior, you know. But then that wasn't good for 272 00:13:31,679 --> 00:13:34,360 Speaker 1: me either, So I had to let go of that relationship. 273 00:13:34,720 --> 00:13:36,920 Speaker 1: And now I can honestly tell you that I'm with 274 00:13:36,960 --> 00:13:41,560 Speaker 1: someone that does allow me to be myself. You know, 275 00:13:41,640 --> 00:13:43,640 Speaker 1: there have been times when he tells me, you know 276 00:13:43,679 --> 00:13:50,040 Speaker 1: what I feel like, not intimidated, but like where he 277 00:13:50,080 --> 00:13:52,800 Speaker 1: feels am I enough for you? And he definitely is. 278 00:13:53,520 --> 00:13:56,400 Speaker 1: But more than anything, he allows me. He loves that 279 00:13:56,480 --> 00:13:58,839 Speaker 1: I am who I am. He wants me to be better. 280 00:13:58,880 --> 00:14:00,640 Speaker 1: So it just feels good to have someone like that, 281 00:14:00,679 --> 00:14:02,320 Speaker 1: like where I don't feel like I have to be 282 00:14:02,440 --> 00:14:06,319 Speaker 1: less than or I either way like dimming my light. 283 00:14:06,800 --> 00:14:09,120 Speaker 2: Now would you be with someone like that? Now? 284 00:14:09,880 --> 00:14:10,080 Speaker 1: No? 285 00:14:10,679 --> 00:14:15,160 Speaker 2: Okay, nope, now I know now, okay, all right, Remember 286 00:14:15,200 --> 00:14:16,800 Speaker 2: I deal with facts. I'm a son of an attorney. 287 00:14:17,120 --> 00:14:17,440 Speaker 1: M hm. 288 00:14:17,960 --> 00:14:21,520 Speaker 2: You done asked me earlier? You said to me, is 289 00:14:21,560 --> 00:14:23,320 Speaker 2: this your fake? Is this your shit? Is this how 290 00:14:23,320 --> 00:14:24,880 Speaker 2: it's always gonna be? And I said, I got twenty 291 00:14:24,880 --> 00:14:27,320 Speaker 2: thousand cases. I know for a fact people can change. 292 00:14:27,640 --> 00:14:30,120 Speaker 2: And even before they talked to my big mouth as right, 293 00:14:30,440 --> 00:14:33,200 Speaker 2: and you know what you just did? You just factually 294 00:14:33,240 --> 00:14:36,160 Speaker 2: confirmed it. I used to date that, but I don't 295 00:14:36,200 --> 00:14:37,920 Speaker 2: do it. I would never do it now because I 296 00:14:37,960 --> 00:14:40,160 Speaker 2: woke up. You woke up out of the matrix. 297 00:14:40,240 --> 00:14:43,520 Speaker 1: I woke okay, honestly in that aspect. Now, I'm like, 298 00:14:43,560 --> 00:14:46,000 Speaker 1: the crazy shit is that You're just you're confirming so 299 00:14:46,080 --> 00:14:49,520 Speaker 1: many things. And I've never said this before, but my 300 00:14:49,640 --> 00:14:53,680 Speaker 1: mother was that woman that for a long time, I 301 00:14:53,720 --> 00:14:55,960 Speaker 1: was in her shadow since I can remember. You know 302 00:14:55,960 --> 00:14:58,480 Speaker 1: what I mean, because she was just this huge force 303 00:14:58,920 --> 00:15:01,720 Speaker 1: and I always felt like for a long time, I 304 00:15:01,720 --> 00:15:04,920 Speaker 1: felt like my destiny was to be by her side 305 00:15:04,960 --> 00:15:08,240 Speaker 1: and help her shine and build her up, and then 306 00:15:08,280 --> 00:15:10,600 Speaker 1: one day would be my time. Never did I think 307 00:15:10,760 --> 00:15:13,880 Speaker 1: she was going to pass. And then it was only 308 00:15:13,960 --> 00:15:16,560 Speaker 1: until then that I was able to find the strength 309 00:15:16,560 --> 00:15:19,560 Speaker 1: within myself to say, okay, let me step into my 310 00:15:19,760 --> 00:15:21,920 Speaker 1: own light. For a long time, it was just and 311 00:15:22,000 --> 00:15:24,800 Speaker 1: even even in the beginning of my career, it was 312 00:15:24,800 --> 00:15:28,200 Speaker 1: difficult because it was the comparison, and it's taken a 313 00:15:28,200 --> 00:15:30,200 Speaker 1: lot of work for people to be like, hey, it's me, 314 00:15:30,280 --> 00:15:32,280 Speaker 1: it's cheeky. It's like, don't look at my mom, like, 315 00:15:32,480 --> 00:15:35,040 Speaker 1: don't compare me to her. We're two different individuals. But 316 00:15:35,280 --> 00:15:38,560 Speaker 1: I feel like now, finally, especially with this new tour, 317 00:15:38,680 --> 00:15:41,680 Speaker 1: this new album, I feel like more confident than ever, 318 00:15:41,960 --> 00:15:44,840 Speaker 1: barely like where it's like I thought, But now I'm like, 319 00:15:44,920 --> 00:15:46,600 Speaker 1: I think I got this by the balls now. 320 00:15:46,720 --> 00:15:50,520 Speaker 2: You know, hey, listen, when your mom passes, that's a 321 00:15:50,520 --> 00:15:52,320 Speaker 2: part of this greater I see that as a part 322 00:15:52,320 --> 00:15:55,800 Speaker 2: of a greater plan of passing the baton, saying you're 323 00:15:55,840 --> 00:15:58,320 Speaker 2: ready now to do your own thing. My job here 324 00:15:58,400 --> 00:16:02,680 Speaker 2: is done. Time for you to, you know, create your 325 00:16:02,680 --> 00:16:06,000 Speaker 2: own path, not based on me I'm passing the baton 326 00:16:06,040 --> 00:16:06,480 Speaker 2: on to you. 327 00:16:07,160 --> 00:16:09,080 Speaker 1: I've never said that before, and that's how I feel. 328 00:16:09,120 --> 00:16:11,280 Speaker 1: I almost feel wrong with saying that, but I feel 329 00:16:11,280 --> 00:16:13,960 Speaker 1: like if my mom and I were both here, I 330 00:16:13,960 --> 00:16:15,920 Speaker 1: don't know if it's not the correct word is, she 331 00:16:15,920 --> 00:16:18,840 Speaker 1: wouldn't allow it. But I just feel like I wouldn't 332 00:16:18,840 --> 00:16:21,280 Speaker 1: be doing what I'm doing if she was still here, 333 00:16:21,560 --> 00:16:23,200 Speaker 1: you know what I mean? Maybe because she was such 334 00:16:23,200 --> 00:16:25,800 Speaker 1: a huge force and she continues to be. Don't get 335 00:16:25,840 --> 00:16:27,840 Speaker 1: me wrong, but I do feel like it's more like 336 00:16:27,880 --> 00:16:30,600 Speaker 1: God said, Okay, well here, your mom's gonna go rest now, 337 00:16:30,720 --> 00:16:32,200 Speaker 1: and we're going to allow you to do what you 338 00:16:32,280 --> 00:16:34,040 Speaker 1: have to do. You know. But I've never said that 339 00:16:34,040 --> 00:16:35,640 Speaker 1: out loud because I'm like, how the fuck is that 340 00:16:35,680 --> 00:16:38,080 Speaker 1: gonna sound? But I've always felt it within me. 341 00:16:38,400 --> 00:16:40,960 Speaker 2: You know, No, it's you love your mom. I mean 342 00:16:40,960 --> 00:16:43,920 Speaker 2: people love their mom. I mean I love the hell 343 00:16:43,960 --> 00:16:45,440 Speaker 2: out of her. So I had nothing to do with that. 344 00:16:45,480 --> 00:16:49,840 Speaker 2: It's just that your journey, right, your journey needed we 345 00:16:49,920 --> 00:16:53,600 Speaker 2: needed a transit. I called that the catalyst. And sometimes 346 00:16:53,640 --> 00:16:55,960 Speaker 2: the catalyst comes if a person comes in your life, 347 00:16:55,960 --> 00:16:59,520 Speaker 2: and sometimes someone leaves, but it's always a catalyst because 348 00:16:59,520 --> 00:17:02,040 Speaker 2: it's a time frame in your life where you're ready 349 00:17:02,120 --> 00:17:04,719 Speaker 2: for growth, and the universe kind of sets that up 350 00:17:04,760 --> 00:17:07,240 Speaker 2: in a way, right, and so and that's part of 351 00:17:07,280 --> 00:17:11,120 Speaker 2: the process. Now we talk about personality, twenty nine, eleven 352 00:17:11,280 --> 00:17:12,879 Speaker 2: and now eleven is a two. You can you can 353 00:17:12,920 --> 00:17:14,879 Speaker 2: add eleven and becoming two. So we know that. But 354 00:17:14,920 --> 00:17:18,520 Speaker 2: we but but master numbers. The eleven is the first 355 00:17:18,600 --> 00:17:20,840 Speaker 2: master number because it's a double one. All the other 356 00:17:20,880 --> 00:17:23,520 Speaker 2: mass numbers. You know, twenty two is two times eleven. 357 00:17:24,080 --> 00:17:26,000 Speaker 2: You know, thirty three is three times eleven. So eleven 358 00:17:26,000 --> 00:17:28,480 Speaker 2: we always we just added respect for the eleven. We 359 00:17:28,560 --> 00:17:30,960 Speaker 2: just keep it. It's the original master number. Now you 360 00:17:31,000 --> 00:17:34,120 Speaker 2: have that in your personality. Now eleven does rule the media. Okay, 361 00:17:34,440 --> 00:17:36,399 Speaker 2: so we now know you have immedia, we have a 362 00:17:36,480 --> 00:17:40,000 Speaker 2: media personality, inspirational, you have a certain dynamic quality to you, 363 00:17:40,320 --> 00:17:43,280 Speaker 2: certain charisma may come through that. That's the eleven. People 364 00:17:43,280 --> 00:17:45,399 Speaker 2: are going to go online and read about the number eleven. 365 00:17:45,560 --> 00:17:47,600 Speaker 2: You can rite eleven personality and all that kind of stuff, 366 00:17:47,600 --> 00:17:50,720 Speaker 2: and you can see these are aspects of the eleven. 367 00:17:50,880 --> 00:17:55,760 Speaker 2: Now we already have communications, right, and a powerful communication, 368 00:17:55,920 --> 00:17:58,000 Speaker 2: and we have seven is dropping that knowledge and bring 369 00:17:58,000 --> 00:18:02,520 Speaker 2: in your truth and then we have a media like percon. Yeah. Okay, now, 370 00:18:02,720 --> 00:18:04,360 Speaker 2: now am I supposed to be shocked that you're doing 371 00:18:04,359 --> 00:18:08,360 Speaker 2: a podcast? You're communicating your knowledge and your truth right 372 00:18:08,520 --> 00:18:11,240 Speaker 2: within the within the media context. Now, I'll tell you 373 00:18:11,400 --> 00:18:15,359 Speaker 2: something that's interesting. That eleven personality gives a sort of 374 00:18:15,440 --> 00:18:19,320 Speaker 2: dynamic quality to you where the seven doesn't have that. 375 00:18:19,400 --> 00:18:21,960 Speaker 2: The seven is the seven will nerd out on you 376 00:18:22,040 --> 00:18:24,159 Speaker 2: or get spiritual with you, or get deep with you, 377 00:18:24,920 --> 00:18:27,120 Speaker 2: but they don't necessarily have a good personality. 378 00:18:27,359 --> 00:18:29,040 Speaker 1: Yeah, the seven is Janay and I feel like the 379 00:18:29,040 --> 00:18:30,800 Speaker 1: eleven is cheeky. Those are my two different people. 380 00:18:31,119 --> 00:18:34,280 Speaker 2: Yeah, yeah, yeah, the eleven will dramatize that, you know, 381 00:18:34,720 --> 00:18:36,919 Speaker 2: the eleven will inspire and they'll have and then you 382 00:18:36,960 --> 00:18:39,720 Speaker 2: got a double five number five's fire and it's over 383 00:18:39,840 --> 00:18:42,119 Speaker 2: and a shaker, you know what I mean. Little, a 384 00:18:42,119 --> 00:18:45,040 Speaker 2: little little wacky, a little little impulsive, a little how 385 00:18:45,040 --> 00:18:47,840 Speaker 2: to how to learn how to take this topsy turvy 386 00:18:47,880 --> 00:18:51,520 Speaker 2: craziness and and and and and discipline it. But but 387 00:18:51,680 --> 00:18:54,840 Speaker 2: it's certainly got the magnetic powerful communication ability. See this 388 00:18:54,880 --> 00:18:56,600 Speaker 2: is why I said I I wouldn't I would have 389 00:18:56,680 --> 00:18:59,240 Speaker 2: not have known necessarily you were you were a singer, 390 00:18:59,680 --> 00:19:01,680 Speaker 2: I know that you're involved in communications. I know you'd 391 00:19:01,680 --> 00:19:04,359 Speaker 2: be in the media. What you're doing now is more 392 00:19:04,840 --> 00:19:08,360 Speaker 2: connected to those numbers that I see than anything. However, 393 00:19:08,520 --> 00:19:10,919 Speaker 2: I know this, I know this one thing I know 394 00:19:11,160 --> 00:19:13,639 Speaker 2: from being a musician and a writer myself. You know 395 00:19:14,040 --> 00:19:17,679 Speaker 2: that music is a you know, a media outlet that 396 00:19:17,720 --> 00:19:20,480 Speaker 2: you can you can bring your truth to others through 397 00:19:20,960 --> 00:19:24,439 Speaker 2: and you can communicate that to others. Right, yeah, it 398 00:19:24,520 --> 00:19:28,000 Speaker 2: is communications. It is the media. You know, the lyrics 399 00:19:28,000 --> 00:19:30,639 Speaker 2: in what you say you can bring you know, deeper 400 00:19:30,680 --> 00:19:33,320 Speaker 2: meaning in it. But notice how you're doing a podcast? 401 00:19:33,760 --> 00:19:37,119 Speaker 2: Yeah right, And now how many singers do a podcast? 402 00:19:37,920 --> 00:19:40,320 Speaker 2: Not very many. And the reason why it is is 403 00:19:40,359 --> 00:19:43,960 Speaker 2: that we have straight communications and informational stuff going on here, 404 00:19:44,680 --> 00:19:47,639 Speaker 2: you know community, you know, communication industry, telling the truth, 405 00:19:47,720 --> 00:19:50,960 Speaker 2: talking about and breaking it down in a communication environment 406 00:19:51,040 --> 00:19:53,760 Speaker 2: through some media outlet. And we see that that is 407 00:19:54,080 --> 00:19:57,320 Speaker 2: a propos to your chart, where just someone who was 408 00:19:57,400 --> 00:20:00,200 Speaker 2: a straight singer wouldn't do that. You see how your 409 00:20:00,280 --> 00:20:02,520 Speaker 2: chart shows this persolutely. 410 00:20:02,600 --> 00:20:03,720 Speaker 1: Yes, it's crazy. 411 00:20:03,920 --> 00:20:07,520 Speaker 2: Yes, Now in music you can say something, but I 412 00:20:07,520 --> 00:20:10,879 Speaker 2: mean you got some real communication industry stuff. This is radio, 413 00:20:11,040 --> 00:20:14,560 Speaker 2: this is TV, this is writing. A book. You know, 414 00:20:14,680 --> 00:20:16,720 Speaker 2: it's kind of like that, you know. 415 00:20:16,880 --> 00:20:20,119 Speaker 1: Yeah, oh my god, yeah, and that's what makes me 416 00:20:20,160 --> 00:20:21,439 Speaker 1: so happy. 417 00:20:22,040 --> 00:20:25,320 Speaker 2: Yeah, because why because you have an alternative you're a seven. 418 00:20:25,359 --> 00:20:28,040 Speaker 2: You you've got to share what you know, you're truth 419 00:20:28,040 --> 00:20:30,879 Speaker 2: of others, and you're gonna do it through the media, 420 00:20:31,000 --> 00:20:32,960 Speaker 2: but you do it in in a maybe in an 421 00:20:33,080 --> 00:20:36,399 Speaker 2: unconventional way, in a crazy way and an edgy way. 422 00:20:36,560 --> 00:20:39,880 Speaker 2: You know that double five. You know, even your inner 423 00:20:39,960 --> 00:20:42,360 Speaker 2: drive is another five. You know. Now I'm gonna say 424 00:20:42,359 --> 00:20:44,760 Speaker 2: when I see a fifty five and another five and say, okay, 425 00:20:44,840 --> 00:20:46,960 Speaker 2: you know, there might have been some excessiveness in some 426 00:20:47,000 --> 00:20:48,480 Speaker 2: department in your life, impulsivity. 427 00:20:48,480 --> 00:20:51,240 Speaker 1: You had to learn how to work, you know, definitely. 428 00:20:51,320 --> 00:20:54,560 Speaker 2: All right. So now let's get to the deepest lesson 429 00:20:54,600 --> 00:20:58,119 Speaker 2: of your chart, your ultimate goal, okay, your which is 430 00:20:58,160 --> 00:21:01,720 Speaker 2: your higher purpose? Okay, and then we're going to go 431 00:21:01,720 --> 00:21:03,720 Speaker 2: back in time and we're going to see how your 432 00:21:03,800 --> 00:21:05,240 Speaker 2: life played out into those cycles. 433 00:21:05,680 --> 00:21:07,040 Speaker 1: Okay, right down. 434 00:21:07,119 --> 00:21:10,120 Speaker 2: So now here's the interesting thing about it. Seventeen eight 435 00:21:10,200 --> 00:21:12,679 Speaker 2: is your ultimate goal number. All right. So let me 436 00:21:12,800 --> 00:21:15,840 Speaker 2: make this clear what an EID is. Okay. Eight is 437 00:21:15,880 --> 00:21:19,280 Speaker 2: a number of authority and power. It is a number 438 00:21:19,320 --> 00:21:23,800 Speaker 2: of someone who builds their own empire and their own business. Okay, 439 00:21:23,880 --> 00:21:25,919 Speaker 2: it could be via communications, because we can't. We're not 440 00:21:25,920 --> 00:21:28,639 Speaker 2: going to throw out the other four numbers I'm saying, 441 00:21:28,680 --> 00:21:31,760 Speaker 2: but all the stuff that you do needs to be 442 00:21:31,880 --> 00:21:35,760 Speaker 2: put into building a business where you were the authority, 443 00:21:36,600 --> 00:21:39,160 Speaker 2: where you were in charge, and you were creating success 444 00:21:39,200 --> 00:21:41,679 Speaker 2: for yourself, but in the right way. And that's why 445 00:21:41,720 --> 00:21:43,239 Speaker 2: I'm going to get into what the right way is. 446 00:21:43,600 --> 00:21:46,840 Speaker 2: So the thing about AID is psychologically it is always 447 00:21:46,920 --> 00:21:49,720 Speaker 2: self worth self value as a lesson. So I can 448 00:21:49,720 --> 00:21:52,840 Speaker 2: tell you right now that many people in this world 449 00:21:52,840 --> 00:21:57,560 Speaker 2: who are extremely successful have had low self worth. Okay. 450 00:21:57,920 --> 00:22:00,320 Speaker 2: Now a lot of people tell me, they're like, why 451 00:22:00,359 --> 00:22:04,600 Speaker 2: is that? And they said, well, you have something to prove. Okay, 452 00:22:05,000 --> 00:22:10,720 Speaker 2: you're driven to succeed, right to go beyond these feelings 453 00:22:10,760 --> 00:22:14,520 Speaker 2: that you have right to compensate for that for those 454 00:22:14,640 --> 00:22:17,200 Speaker 2: self worth concerns. Okay, you know, when you have an eight, 455 00:22:17,240 --> 00:22:20,760 Speaker 2: you have to learn to value yourself that who you 456 00:22:20,880 --> 00:22:22,280 Speaker 2: are is worthy. 457 00:22:23,480 --> 00:22:24,440 Speaker 1: Yeah, yep. 458 00:22:24,560 --> 00:22:27,879 Speaker 2: And I got to tell you it's strange because you think, well, 459 00:22:27,880 --> 00:22:29,719 Speaker 2: if someone's got self worth used and they don't, they 460 00:22:29,720 --> 00:22:31,879 Speaker 2: don't value themselves the way they should or what they're worth. 461 00:22:32,320 --> 00:22:34,199 Speaker 2: Of course, earlier in their life they're going to put 462 00:22:34,240 --> 00:22:36,400 Speaker 2: themselves in comment compromise situations. 463 00:22:36,960 --> 00:22:37,400 Speaker 1: Mm hmm. 464 00:22:38,359 --> 00:22:39,600 Speaker 2: Now you can do that and work, but you can 465 00:22:39,640 --> 00:22:43,720 Speaker 2: do in relationships right absolutely where you are not treated 466 00:22:44,160 --> 00:22:48,439 Speaker 2: as if you are valued. Okay, yes, now there's an 467 00:22:48,480 --> 00:22:51,879 Speaker 2: interesting thing. Eight also rules the material world and finances 468 00:22:51,880 --> 00:22:55,600 Speaker 2: and money. Okay, Now if you have seventeen eight, you 469 00:22:55,640 --> 00:22:59,399 Speaker 2: know seven rules that spiritual truth, that deep stuff, and 470 00:22:59,440 --> 00:23:02,320 Speaker 2: then eight will the money in the power? Yeah, and 471 00:23:02,640 --> 00:23:05,000 Speaker 2: when it's coming together is a deep lesson that means 472 00:23:05,119 --> 00:23:08,440 Speaker 2: is I call a love hate relationship with the money 473 00:23:08,520 --> 00:23:11,520 Speaker 2: and power, and that we have to think about what 474 00:23:11,600 --> 00:23:15,280 Speaker 2: was going on growing up with the mentality the value 475 00:23:15,320 --> 00:23:21,520 Speaker 2: system of your parents. Okay, where they came from, because 476 00:23:21,560 --> 00:23:23,359 Speaker 2: you know, with eights you can go up or down. 477 00:23:23,640 --> 00:23:26,840 Speaker 2: You know, eights can become extremely successful. But their background 478 00:23:26,920 --> 00:23:30,840 Speaker 2: shows that they're learning how to have a spiritual relationship, 479 00:23:31,400 --> 00:23:36,520 Speaker 2: a positive relationship with money and the material world and success. 480 00:23:36,800 --> 00:23:39,399 Speaker 2: Because if you take straight eight, it's all about this 481 00:23:39,520 --> 00:23:43,399 Speaker 2: success and it doesn't matter anything else. Okay, it's about 482 00:23:43,920 --> 00:23:46,160 Speaker 2: it's about money and success and achievement. If you take 483 00:23:46,240 --> 00:23:49,480 Speaker 2: just the seven. It's like, oh, it's about what I 484 00:23:49,560 --> 00:23:52,240 Speaker 2: do is being feeding my soul. It's about doing something meaningful. 485 00:23:52,280 --> 00:23:56,080 Speaker 2: It's about doing something that I use my deeper talents for. 486 00:23:56,200 --> 00:23:58,000 Speaker 2: It's not about how much money I make. It's not 487 00:23:58,040 --> 00:24:02,000 Speaker 2: about the status and the success. Okay, Yeah, your value 488 00:24:02,000 --> 00:24:02,919 Speaker 2: has always just been you. 489 00:24:03,520 --> 00:24:05,800 Speaker 1: In my past, I've struggled with with self worth. I 490 00:24:05,840 --> 00:24:08,480 Speaker 1: mean it could come from everything that I lived through 491 00:24:08,520 --> 00:24:11,159 Speaker 1: when I was younger and being you know, sexually abused 492 00:24:11,160 --> 00:24:13,160 Speaker 1: by my father. You feel like what am I really worth? 493 00:24:13,200 --> 00:24:16,800 Speaker 1: Like that really affects you, like your confidence as a 494 00:24:16,840 --> 00:24:20,199 Speaker 1: young lady, and growing up, you feel dirty, You feel 495 00:24:20,240 --> 00:24:23,000 Speaker 1: like you know so many things, like no one's gonna 496 00:24:23,000 --> 00:24:26,000 Speaker 1: want me because I'm already quote unquote used in other words, 497 00:24:26,040 --> 00:24:27,879 Speaker 1: you know what I mean. So all those things affected 498 00:24:27,880 --> 00:24:30,960 Speaker 1: me so much, and then obviously losing my mom and 499 00:24:31,160 --> 00:24:33,800 Speaker 1: having to like stand on my own two feet. And 500 00:24:33,840 --> 00:24:35,840 Speaker 1: now this is why I feel like everything is just 501 00:24:35,920 --> 00:24:38,119 Speaker 1: I feel so different. I don't even know how to 502 00:24:38,160 --> 00:24:39,879 Speaker 1: explain it. I'm so glad I'm having this conversation with 503 00:24:39,960 --> 00:24:43,320 Speaker 1: Josh because it's all just coming full circle for me. 504 00:24:43,440 --> 00:24:44,919 Speaker 1: Like now i feel like I'm not going to put 505 00:24:44,960 --> 00:24:47,359 Speaker 1: up with anyone shit. Now I'm going to speak my mind. 506 00:24:47,440 --> 00:24:50,280 Speaker 1: Now I feel worthy. Now I have aber he ren Abe. 507 00:24:50,320 --> 00:24:52,560 Speaker 1: Herena is here in my intro. That's what I say. 508 00:24:52,640 --> 00:24:55,800 Speaker 1: She's here. I'm here, We're here to stay, like Aurasma Grell. 509 00:24:55,960 --> 00:24:56,040 Speaker 2: Like. 510 00:24:56,080 --> 00:24:58,080 Speaker 1: Now I'm like, I'm worthy, and I have to tell 511 00:24:58,119 --> 00:25:01,560 Speaker 1: myself that a lot. I'm worthy. I am worthy of love, 512 00:25:01,640 --> 00:25:05,200 Speaker 1: I am worthy of success, I am worthy of being 513 00:25:05,240 --> 00:25:07,880 Speaker 1: financially stable. Like. Those are all affirmations that I tell 514 00:25:07,880 --> 00:25:10,600 Speaker 1: myself on every day because sometimes my past can come 515 00:25:10,600 --> 00:25:12,040 Speaker 1: and try to seep into my future. 516 00:25:19,680 --> 00:25:22,080 Speaker 2: Now, when you grow up with this, what's odd is 517 00:25:22,119 --> 00:25:24,040 Speaker 2: this stuff can play out in relationships, and you think, well, 518 00:25:24,080 --> 00:25:27,159 Speaker 2: how would that play out relationships? It does the people 519 00:25:27,200 --> 00:25:30,120 Speaker 2: you track their self worth and their value system about 520 00:25:30,160 --> 00:25:32,560 Speaker 2: what's important in life and how much they put on 521 00:25:32,680 --> 00:25:35,800 Speaker 2: outer success and achievements and status things and stuff, and 522 00:25:35,840 --> 00:25:39,040 Speaker 2: how much they put in the deeper stuff. Right, So 523 00:25:39,119 --> 00:25:40,960 Speaker 2: the first thing we need to do is go back 524 00:25:41,000 --> 00:25:45,639 Speaker 2: and talk about where your parents came from originally, Okay, 525 00:25:46,200 --> 00:25:49,080 Speaker 2: what happened with their goals and success? Now you say 526 00:25:49,119 --> 00:25:52,000 Speaker 2: your mother was a very successful person, kind of who 527 00:25:52,040 --> 00:25:54,160 Speaker 2: was shodoered by her to some degree. Where'd your dad 528 00:25:54,160 --> 00:25:56,360 Speaker 2: come from? Where your mom come from? What did they do? 529 00:25:56,920 --> 00:26:00,000 Speaker 2: What was their focus in life? What was their value 530 00:26:00,320 --> 00:26:05,960 Speaker 2: system about money, success, achievement, what was there self worth level? Inside? 531 00:26:06,160 --> 00:26:07,800 Speaker 2: Tell me about both of them where they came from. 532 00:26:09,119 --> 00:26:12,800 Speaker 1: Okay, So my mother, she grew up I could say, 533 00:26:12,880 --> 00:26:15,000 Speaker 1: like poor, you know what I mean. So she was 534 00:26:16,040 --> 00:26:19,879 Speaker 1: very loved, had a very pretty and beautiful I think childhood. 535 00:26:20,320 --> 00:26:22,640 Speaker 1: And then she always would say, I was the ugly 536 00:26:22,680 --> 00:26:25,280 Speaker 1: duckling and I was always just stuck in my books 537 00:26:25,359 --> 00:26:27,600 Speaker 1: because boys didn't like me, and she was like, you know, 538 00:26:27,680 --> 00:26:31,080 Speaker 1: ugly duckley. So she was top of her class, valedatorian, 539 00:26:31,200 --> 00:26:34,760 Speaker 1: and as she got older, she the reason she said 540 00:26:34,760 --> 00:26:37,080 Speaker 1: that she started singing was because she wanted to feed 541 00:26:37,080 --> 00:26:38,800 Speaker 1: her children, and I think it just became a thing 542 00:26:38,800 --> 00:26:42,760 Speaker 1: that didn't necessarily make her one hundred percent happy. It 543 00:26:42,840 --> 00:26:45,280 Speaker 1: was something that just brought she was good at and 544 00:26:45,520 --> 00:26:46,960 Speaker 1: brought her a lot of money and a way to 545 00:26:47,000 --> 00:26:48,960 Speaker 1: take care of her children. But for her, it was 546 00:26:49,119 --> 00:26:51,480 Speaker 1: very much as far as like money was I'm going 547 00:26:51,560 --> 00:26:52,800 Speaker 1: to buy this house, I'm going to have this car 548 00:26:52,840 --> 00:26:54,480 Speaker 1: because I didn't have it when I was younger. It 549 00:26:54,520 --> 00:26:56,440 Speaker 1: did make her feel very valuable. 550 00:26:56,720 --> 00:26:59,640 Speaker 2: Oh oh my god. Okay, so just thank you for that. 551 00:27:00,119 --> 00:27:02,760 Speaker 2: So well done. All right, So, your mother, who had 552 00:27:02,800 --> 00:27:05,680 Speaker 2: a huge impact on your life, had low self worth 553 00:27:05,680 --> 00:27:08,159 Speaker 2: as a child. She actually thought she was ugly, and 554 00:27:08,920 --> 00:27:13,720 Speaker 2: she overcompensated by doing well in life in school to overcompensate. Like, 555 00:27:13,760 --> 00:27:15,440 Speaker 2: but get it in the you know what I'm saying, Well, 556 00:27:15,440 --> 00:27:17,200 Speaker 2: people aren't gonna like me. Boys aren't gonna like me, 557 00:27:17,359 --> 00:27:19,760 Speaker 2: so I better. I better find something that I smart, 558 00:27:20,160 --> 00:27:23,359 Speaker 2: be smart, So I'm gonna that'll be my success. And 559 00:27:23,400 --> 00:27:25,760 Speaker 2: then later on in life she became a singer, not 560 00:27:25,840 --> 00:27:28,320 Speaker 2: for the joy of music necessarily, but to make money 561 00:27:28,480 --> 00:27:30,560 Speaker 2: so she could have the things she didn't have when 562 00:27:30,560 --> 00:27:34,040 Speaker 2: she was poor, which means her entire drive in life 563 00:27:34,119 --> 00:27:37,120 Speaker 2: is to overcompensate for being the ugly poor child so 564 00:27:37,119 --> 00:27:39,639 Speaker 2: she can have the material things to make up for 565 00:27:39,680 --> 00:27:40,359 Speaker 2: what she didn't have. 566 00:27:41,160 --> 00:27:44,480 Speaker 1: Yeah, yep, oh my god, that's great. 567 00:27:44,560 --> 00:27:48,080 Speaker 2: I know, I know, And for me that's really deep. 568 00:27:48,880 --> 00:27:50,840 Speaker 1: Yeah, And for her, for a long time, she she 569 00:27:50,920 --> 00:27:53,080 Speaker 1: wanted to stop singing because it was I mean, it's 570 00:27:53,119 --> 00:27:55,000 Speaker 1: a lot on your body. It's the touring and the 571 00:27:55,080 --> 00:27:56,920 Speaker 1: late nights and stuff that it was just like I'm 572 00:27:56,920 --> 00:27:59,200 Speaker 1: good at this, and she was just she's a monster 573 00:27:59,480 --> 00:28:02,119 Speaker 1: in in her genre, you know, and still is. So 574 00:28:02,760 --> 00:28:04,760 Speaker 1: I think it just it was just the way of 575 00:28:04,800 --> 00:28:06,000 Speaker 1: like I'm tired, I don't know if I want to 576 00:28:06,040 --> 00:28:09,719 Speaker 1: do something else, but this is what gives me that power, 577 00:28:10,119 --> 00:28:14,679 Speaker 1: that financial stability, you know what I mean. And she 578 00:28:14,800 --> 00:28:17,320 Speaker 1: loved buying those expensive things because it just in the 579 00:28:17,320 --> 00:28:19,399 Speaker 1: diamonds and this and that, because she didn't have that 580 00:28:19,440 --> 00:28:21,679 Speaker 1: when she was younger. So for her it did make 581 00:28:21,720 --> 00:28:23,679 Speaker 1: her feel better like I'm successful. But I know in 582 00:28:23,680 --> 00:28:25,439 Speaker 1: her heart, like there was there were a lot of 583 00:28:25,440 --> 00:28:27,560 Speaker 1: things that she was sad about, you know, like when 584 00:28:27,560 --> 00:28:30,080 Speaker 1: she was at home by herself and the conversations we 585 00:28:30,119 --> 00:28:32,679 Speaker 1: had and stuff like that, you know. But externally she 586 00:28:32,760 --> 00:28:35,879 Speaker 1: seemed like this very confident, strong woman, you know. And 587 00:28:35,920 --> 00:28:40,720 Speaker 1: my dad, my dad, I don't you know. He he 588 00:28:40,840 --> 00:28:43,240 Speaker 1: was also he was born in Mexico, so he came 589 00:28:43,280 --> 00:28:45,960 Speaker 1: from a very poor family, like there was fifteen children. 590 00:28:47,320 --> 00:28:50,160 Speaker 1: He worked and he was in real estate. That's how 591 00:28:50,240 --> 00:28:52,280 Speaker 1: him and my mom met or actually no that's not 592 00:28:52,280 --> 00:28:53,880 Speaker 1: how they met, but they worked in real estate together 593 00:28:53,960 --> 00:28:57,959 Speaker 1: like earlier in life. And I don't know too much 594 00:28:57,960 --> 00:28:59,680 Speaker 1: about him, To be honest, he was just more of 595 00:28:59,720 --> 00:29:02,400 Speaker 1: like a mellow type of dude that just, hey, I'm 596 00:29:02,400 --> 00:29:04,200 Speaker 1: making money taking care of my family sort of thing. 597 00:29:04,600 --> 00:29:06,200 Speaker 2: What do you do? What kind of work do you do? 598 00:29:06,720 --> 00:29:09,480 Speaker 1: He did real estate. That's all I ever knew that 599 00:29:09,480 --> 00:29:11,240 Speaker 1: he did. Was just he was a real estate agent, 600 00:29:11,400 --> 00:29:13,760 Speaker 1: and he did He did fairly well with that. You know, 601 00:29:14,560 --> 00:29:15,200 Speaker 1: now he's in jail. 602 00:29:15,200 --> 00:29:17,560 Speaker 2: He's in jail for what he sexually. 603 00:29:17,160 --> 00:29:19,440 Speaker 1: Molested me when when I was a little girl. 604 00:29:19,840 --> 00:29:22,760 Speaker 2: I'm sorry to hear that, it's okay. What was it 605 00:29:22,840 --> 00:29:25,080 Speaker 2: like for him to have his wife blow up like that? 606 00:29:25,920 --> 00:29:27,560 Speaker 2: I'm sure she made more money than he did. 607 00:29:28,000 --> 00:29:30,360 Speaker 1: He yes, she always did make more money. My mom, 608 00:29:30,360 --> 00:29:34,120 Speaker 1: I'm telling you, was the you know, she was super super. 609 00:29:34,160 --> 00:29:35,400 Speaker 1: He didn't want her to go to school for a 610 00:29:35,400 --> 00:29:37,760 Speaker 1: long time. He didn't want her to finish high school, 611 00:29:37,840 --> 00:29:39,880 Speaker 1: and she was just very adamant about it. She went 612 00:29:39,920 --> 00:29:42,320 Speaker 1: to college, she had a good job, and then when 613 00:29:42,360 --> 00:29:44,560 Speaker 1: my mom wanted to start singing, that's when the problem started. 614 00:29:44,600 --> 00:29:45,760 Speaker 1: You know. It was just like, no, you got to 615 00:29:45,760 --> 00:29:47,520 Speaker 1: stay at home with the kids. So he wasn't okay 616 00:29:47,520 --> 00:29:49,760 Speaker 1: with that. So that's why they separated. Ultimately, you know, 617 00:29:49,800 --> 00:29:52,000 Speaker 1: he cheated and stuff like that. But yeah, that was 618 00:29:52,080 --> 00:29:54,200 Speaker 1: ultimately because he wasn't allowing my mom to do what 619 00:29:54,240 --> 00:29:54,880 Speaker 1: she wanted to do. 620 00:29:55,040 --> 00:29:58,280 Speaker 2: Okay, now let's go back to the seventeen eight mm hmm. 621 00:29:59,520 --> 00:30:04,000 Speaker 2: Overcome and you know, change and financial status over compensating 622 00:30:04,000 --> 00:30:08,480 Speaker 2: for low self worth, making that your way of showing 623 00:30:08,520 --> 00:30:10,920 Speaker 2: that you're worthy because you've got the external things. You 624 00:30:11,000 --> 00:30:13,239 Speaker 2: got the diamonds, you've got the material objects, you've got 625 00:30:13,280 --> 00:30:16,080 Speaker 2: the car and all that. Right, yeah, okay, but you 626 00:30:16,160 --> 00:30:19,760 Speaker 2: still haven't healed the low self worth. I think it's 627 00:30:19,760 --> 00:30:21,840 Speaker 2: amazing what your mom did. I don't get me wrong. 628 00:30:21,880 --> 00:30:24,800 Speaker 2: I think it's incredible. She obviously was extremely talented. What 629 00:30:24,840 --> 00:30:29,320 Speaker 2: I'm saying is it didn't heal her wound. She still 630 00:30:29,360 --> 00:30:31,320 Speaker 2: had that sadness when you sit at the kitchen table 631 00:30:31,320 --> 00:30:33,920 Speaker 2: and you're talking about that ship, the diamond rings and 632 00:30:33,920 --> 00:30:35,960 Speaker 2: the fur coats, all that ship that she didn't have, 633 00:30:36,040 --> 00:30:37,640 Speaker 2: growing enough that she thought, if I could have this, 634 00:30:37,680 --> 00:30:39,200 Speaker 2: I can have the things that I don't have. It 635 00:30:39,240 --> 00:30:42,600 Speaker 2: didn't fix that. Yeah, you know, on top of that, 636 00:30:43,000 --> 00:30:47,600 Speaker 2: your father didn't want her to work. Now you got 637 00:30:47,640 --> 00:30:50,200 Speaker 2: to think about this, he's a man. You know, he's 638 00:30:50,200 --> 00:30:53,560 Speaker 2: a Latino man, right, Yeah, and hit the wife is 639 00:30:53,600 --> 00:30:59,200 Speaker 2: making more money than him or you know, potentially yeah, yeah, 640 00:30:59,240 --> 00:31:01,480 Speaker 2: and so what did that do affect his self worth 641 00:31:01,520 --> 00:31:04,880 Speaker 2: as a man, and he's now competing with her. He's 642 00:31:04,880 --> 00:31:06,920 Speaker 2: not liking that. He can't be he can't be the 643 00:31:06,960 --> 00:31:10,000 Speaker 2: breadwinner where he unless she stops working and he's the 644 00:31:10,040 --> 00:31:12,400 Speaker 2: sole breadwinner and then he can be the man. Right, 645 00:31:12,640 --> 00:31:15,000 Speaker 2: So his self worth is being affected by that, by 646 00:31:15,000 --> 00:31:18,400 Speaker 2: her success eclipsing him and she's trying to control her. 647 00:31:18,640 --> 00:31:21,800 Speaker 2: So it's all about her goals and outer success because 648 00:31:21,800 --> 00:31:25,880 Speaker 2: that's affecting him negatively. Yeah, So it's self worth on 649 00:31:25,960 --> 00:31:29,360 Speaker 2: his side, and it's about success and achievement being a 650 00:31:29,400 --> 00:31:33,400 Speaker 2: point of contention that led to the demise of your parents' relationship. 651 00:31:33,880 --> 00:31:37,160 Speaker 2: M hm. Now you know why I say there's a 652 00:31:37,280 --> 00:31:39,120 Speaker 2: lesson in that world that you might have a love 653 00:31:39,160 --> 00:31:41,320 Speaker 2: hate relationship with money and power because money and power 654 00:31:41,400 --> 00:31:44,120 Speaker 2: was the cause of so much pain and suffering growing up. 655 00:31:44,920 --> 00:31:49,040 Speaker 1: My goodness, Yeah, do you see it? I absolutely do. 656 00:31:49,120 --> 00:31:51,040 Speaker 1: And I've been dealing with this for the past two months, 657 00:31:51,360 --> 00:31:55,800 Speaker 1: moving homes, having a bigger responsibility, and it's kind of 658 00:31:55,840 --> 00:31:59,480 Speaker 1: like that song Biggie song, more money, more problems, you feel. 659 00:31:59,560 --> 00:32:01,440 Speaker 1: And I don't like to look at money in that 660 00:32:01,480 --> 00:32:04,720 Speaker 1: way at all, because I feel like it's a blessing, 661 00:32:05,480 --> 00:32:07,840 Speaker 1: you know. And I try to look at money in 662 00:32:07,880 --> 00:32:10,760 Speaker 1: a very positive way, no matter how it's affected my 663 00:32:10,880 --> 00:32:13,840 Speaker 1: life in the past. Because people, when they have money 664 00:32:13,840 --> 00:32:17,080 Speaker 1: and power, some people, not all people, some people that 665 00:32:17,160 --> 00:32:22,000 Speaker 1: aren't emotionally healthy, will do certain things and hurt other 666 00:32:22,120 --> 00:32:26,120 Speaker 1: people because they can because I have that financial stability 667 00:32:26,520 --> 00:32:29,960 Speaker 1: and they're wealthy and they have that power. So anyways, 668 00:32:29,960 --> 00:32:33,400 Speaker 1: that's a whole other subject, but it is so important 669 00:32:33,560 --> 00:32:36,360 Speaker 1: for me that I take care of Like one time 670 00:32:36,360 --> 00:32:38,320 Speaker 1: they told me at church to be a good steward, 671 00:32:39,360 --> 00:32:41,160 Speaker 1: and I've struggled with that in my whole life. When 672 00:32:41,200 --> 00:32:43,880 Speaker 1: it's like I have some money and instead of saving it, 673 00:32:43,960 --> 00:32:47,400 Speaker 1: instead of making the right choices with it, I spend 674 00:32:47,440 --> 00:32:49,719 Speaker 1: it on things that I don't really need, more luxuries, 675 00:32:49,800 --> 00:32:51,200 Speaker 1: you know what I mean, things that it's just like, 676 00:32:52,760 --> 00:32:55,160 Speaker 1: you know, like Lo Mar Gasto, you know. And I 677 00:32:55,200 --> 00:32:58,400 Speaker 1: feel like right now, God and the universe are teaching 678 00:32:58,400 --> 00:33:02,360 Speaker 1: me a lesson of learning, like if you have five dollars, 679 00:33:02,680 --> 00:33:04,680 Speaker 1: And we had an episode on this you guys, save 680 00:33:04,920 --> 00:33:06,840 Speaker 1: three dollars of it, you know what I mean, and 681 00:33:07,320 --> 00:33:09,600 Speaker 1: spend two of it, you know what I mean. Like 682 00:33:09,640 --> 00:33:11,840 Speaker 1: that's just a little example. But that's just kind of 683 00:33:11,840 --> 00:33:14,200 Speaker 1: like the lesson that I feel I'm learning right now, 684 00:33:14,240 --> 00:33:18,959 Speaker 1: because sometimes we don't know or appreciate the value of money. 685 00:33:19,320 --> 00:33:23,560 Speaker 1: So you guys, remember save your money. And then I'm 686 00:33:23,560 --> 00:33:24,520 Speaker 1: telling myself that too. 687 00:33:25,280 --> 00:33:30,400 Speaker 2: Now understand the timing in your life. Right, you're in 688 00:33:30,480 --> 00:33:33,400 Speaker 2: an eleven year, You have an eleven personality. You can 689 00:33:33,440 --> 00:33:36,000 Speaker 2: google eleven. You can find out what eleven is. I mean, 690 00:33:36,040 --> 00:33:37,280 Speaker 2: there's some standard I mean, a lot of stuff in 691 00:33:37,280 --> 00:33:39,160 Speaker 2: the internet's bullshit, but you know, but some of it's 692 00:33:39,200 --> 00:33:41,520 Speaker 2: just basic stuff here that you can learn. So an 693 00:33:41,560 --> 00:33:43,720 Speaker 2: eleven is a cycle when you're going to have shifts 694 00:33:43,720 --> 00:33:48,200 Speaker 2: of consciousness and awakenings and you're going to realize certain things. 695 00:33:48,200 --> 00:33:49,959 Speaker 2: And now you have to think about the matrix. Now, 696 00:33:49,960 --> 00:33:51,560 Speaker 2: what's the matrix going to say? You're going to attract 697 00:33:51,560 --> 00:33:54,160 Speaker 2: people in your life m hm, and you always got 698 00:33:54,160 --> 00:34:00,280 Speaker 2: to check what is their value system and mentality? Okay, 699 00:34:01,240 --> 00:34:03,360 Speaker 2: you want to be around successful people who do what 700 00:34:03,360 --> 00:34:05,600 Speaker 2: they do because they love it, not just for the money, 701 00:34:05,640 --> 00:34:08,400 Speaker 2: not to compensate not to be all about the status. 702 00:34:08,800 --> 00:34:12,960 Speaker 2: And also in business, who are you attracting? Who are 703 00:34:12,960 --> 00:34:16,480 Speaker 2: you working with? You know, are you getting a positive 704 00:34:16,480 --> 00:34:19,040 Speaker 2: thing or a negative thing about business? You know what's 705 00:34:19,080 --> 00:34:21,880 Speaker 2: their mentality and their value system and who's in control 706 00:34:21,920 --> 00:34:22,840 Speaker 2: and who's the authority. 707 00:34:23,880 --> 00:34:26,960 Speaker 1: Oh my god, yeah, you know. 708 00:34:27,160 --> 00:34:30,080 Speaker 2: Now I don't know exactly what happened in your childhood. 709 00:34:30,120 --> 00:34:32,000 Speaker 2: I never I never said I know everything. I mean, 710 00:34:32,040 --> 00:34:34,960 Speaker 2: I know the basics of it, I know the dynamics. 711 00:34:35,440 --> 00:34:38,440 Speaker 2: So I ask you know, I'm not a psychic. This 712 00:34:38,520 --> 00:34:41,719 Speaker 2: is a mathematical FORMU that gives me a blueprint of 713 00:34:41,760 --> 00:34:44,080 Speaker 2: what might have happened and how that affected you. And 714 00:34:44,120 --> 00:34:46,920 Speaker 2: I know for certain that we repeat whatever happened to us. 715 00:34:47,160 --> 00:34:49,040 Speaker 2: So you got to figure that out. And I've done 716 00:34:49,080 --> 00:34:52,160 Speaker 2: twenty of these things, so you fear you learn kind 717 00:34:52,160 --> 00:34:54,480 Speaker 2: of how it works. You're going to a major shift 718 00:34:54,520 --> 00:34:57,799 Speaker 2: right now, change of mind, change of heart, reevaluation of 719 00:34:57,840 --> 00:35:01,600 Speaker 2: your life. And I bet you a million dollars that 720 00:35:01,719 --> 00:35:05,120 Speaker 2: it's related to you maintaining your first of all, your 721 00:35:05,160 --> 00:35:08,400 Speaker 2: identity and doing you. And number two, it has to 722 00:35:08,440 --> 00:35:11,880 Speaker 2: do with your self worth, business, your goals that you 723 00:35:11,920 --> 00:35:14,160 Speaker 2: want to accomplish and keeping your integrity of what you want 724 00:35:14,160 --> 00:35:16,480 Speaker 2: to do and losing power in this kind of stuff 725 00:35:16,800 --> 00:35:19,600 Speaker 2: and making sure that your pathway is in alignment with 726 00:35:19,680 --> 00:35:20,560 Speaker 2: your value system. 727 00:35:21,320 --> 00:35:26,960 Speaker 1: Oh my god, yes, Oh my goodness. Yeah, that's absolutely 728 00:35:27,000 --> 00:35:31,360 Speaker 1: what's going on. And it's been really pulling on the 729 00:35:31,400 --> 00:35:33,719 Speaker 1: strings of my soul to the point where it gets 730 00:35:33,719 --> 00:35:35,319 Speaker 1: me in a bad mood where I'm just like, wait, 731 00:35:35,440 --> 00:35:38,360 Speaker 1: like I'm very intuitive, I know, and I'm like, I 732 00:35:38,400 --> 00:35:41,040 Speaker 1: can't ignore this because it's later on the universe is 733 00:35:41,080 --> 00:35:43,080 Speaker 1: in a kick in the ass. But that's exactly what's 734 00:35:43,080 --> 00:35:44,719 Speaker 1: going on, absolutely. 735 00:35:44,680 --> 00:35:47,200 Speaker 2: Right, And then you have to look at this. Am 736 00:35:47,200 --> 00:35:50,960 Speaker 2: I going to do the programming and repeat the fact 737 00:35:51,040 --> 00:35:56,359 Speaker 2: that that world symbolically related to your mother and your 738 00:35:56,400 --> 00:35:57,680 Speaker 2: father and we went over that. I don't have to 739 00:35:57,719 --> 00:36:01,120 Speaker 2: go over that. Do I have to repeat that pattern 740 00:36:01,560 --> 00:36:03,560 Speaker 2: and play out that money's rout all evil or business 741 00:36:03,640 --> 00:36:06,960 Speaker 2: or that kind of whatever that shit is? Right? Or 742 00:36:07,000 --> 00:36:09,839 Speaker 2: Can I wake up out of the matrix and say, 743 00:36:09,880 --> 00:36:12,160 Speaker 2: you know what, I'm going to make sure that my 744 00:36:12,280 --> 00:36:14,880 Speaker 2: business turns out the right way. Yes, I'm going to 745 00:36:14,920 --> 00:36:16,920 Speaker 2: make sure that I keep my integrity and that I 746 00:36:16,960 --> 00:36:19,000 Speaker 2: work with those who do I'm going to make sure 747 00:36:19,040 --> 00:36:21,239 Speaker 2: that the truth and honesty and all that's going to 748 00:36:21,239 --> 00:36:23,840 Speaker 2: be a part of this, and that I see myself 749 00:36:23,880 --> 00:36:26,640 Speaker 2: as the manager of my own life because I'm my 750 00:36:26,680 --> 00:36:28,799 Speaker 2: own authority and I'm going to have this self worth 751 00:36:28,840 --> 00:36:30,279 Speaker 2: to say what I need and what I want. 752 00:36:31,200 --> 00:36:34,400 Speaker 1: Yep, absolutely yes. 753 00:36:34,680 --> 00:36:36,959 Speaker 2: Even though my self worth got kicked in a ball 754 00:36:37,040 --> 00:36:39,080 Speaker 2: sack growing up seeing all that shit. 755 00:36:39,800 --> 00:36:43,400 Speaker 1: Yes, I know, but I am adamant about making the 756 00:36:43,480 --> 00:36:47,040 Speaker 1: changes necessary in my life. So this was honestly wonderful. 757 00:36:47,160 --> 00:36:51,680 Speaker 1: It really did answer so many questions. It confirmed a 758 00:36:51,719 --> 00:36:54,120 Speaker 1: lot of things for me, and I just I feel that. 759 00:36:54,680 --> 00:36:57,560 Speaker 1: I mean, we can do this off of the podcast, right, 760 00:36:57,560 --> 00:36:58,759 Speaker 1: I can have a session with you later. 761 00:36:59,080 --> 00:37:01,720 Speaker 2: Yeah, I didn't get back to doing those those magical cycles, 762 00:37:01,719 --> 00:37:04,160 Speaker 2: because those are wild when you go back and you 763 00:37:04,200 --> 00:37:06,960 Speaker 2: see how things played out during these certain number of cycles. 764 00:37:06,960 --> 00:37:08,920 Speaker 2: But I guess we don't have enough time for that today. 765 00:37:09,239 --> 00:37:11,440 Speaker 1: Yeah, I know, but but it's okay. I do want 766 00:37:11,440 --> 00:37:13,160 Speaker 1: to speak to you. I'm going to tell my producers 767 00:37:13,719 --> 00:37:15,879 Speaker 1: for us to. I would love to have your numbers 768 00:37:15,880 --> 00:37:17,200 Speaker 1: so I can have a session with you. I have 769 00:37:17,239 --> 00:37:21,160 Speaker 1: a lot of questions, yeah, you know, but I'm honestly, 770 00:37:21,560 --> 00:37:23,720 Speaker 1: you guys, I'm in like all right now, my mouth 771 00:37:23,800 --> 00:37:27,040 Speaker 1: is open. I have I feel like I want to cry, 772 00:37:27,040 --> 00:37:28,759 Speaker 1: but of excitement because I'm just like, oh my gosh, 773 00:37:28,760 --> 00:37:31,160 Speaker 1: I feel like i can rest with so many things. 774 00:37:31,520 --> 00:37:33,640 Speaker 1: It's just it's hard to explain because I feel like 775 00:37:33,640 --> 00:37:37,560 Speaker 1: I would have to get into detail. But either way, Josh, 776 00:37:37,719 --> 00:37:41,160 Speaker 1: thank you so much. I am so grateful. You are 777 00:37:41,239 --> 00:37:45,399 Speaker 1: definitely gifted and what it is that you do. Because 778 00:37:45,400 --> 00:37:47,040 Speaker 1: the thing is, yes, I know you said this is 779 00:37:47,120 --> 00:37:50,280 Speaker 1: very factual and everything and like it. It's all connected, 780 00:37:50,640 --> 00:37:53,400 Speaker 1: but you are also very intuitive. It all goes together. 781 00:37:53,520 --> 00:37:55,120 Speaker 1: So and Josh, I don't know if you want to 782 00:37:55,160 --> 00:37:58,000 Speaker 1: share your social media or a website where people can 783 00:37:58,000 --> 00:37:58,440 Speaker 1: find you. 784 00:37:59,400 --> 00:38:02,160 Speaker 2: Yeah, so, I mean the website's you know, Josh code. 785 00:38:02,560 --> 00:38:13,840 Speaker 2: My Instagram is at Numerology, Josh at Numerology, Josh. 786 00:38:14,280 --> 00:38:18,680 Speaker 1: And today's motivational quote is I wasn't ready for half 787 00:38:18,719 --> 00:38:21,080 Speaker 1: the shit I went through, but clearly I'm built for it. 788 00:38:21,360 --> 00:38:23,880 Speaker 1: That's what numerology says. Guys, We're built for the stuff 789 00:38:24,440 --> 00:38:26,640 Speaker 1: that we're meant to go through. We get out of it. 790 00:38:27,680 --> 00:38:31,560 Speaker 1: Yeah again, you guys, los Amo Losquiro, thank you for 791 00:38:31,600 --> 00:38:34,640 Speaker 1: being with me on Cheeky's and Chill. I will you know, 792 00:38:34,760 --> 00:38:41,160 Speaker 1: catch you next Monday. Peace out y'all, and guys, I 793 00:38:41,200 --> 00:38:42,719 Speaker 1: want to let you know there's a brand new way 794 00:38:42,760 --> 00:38:44,839 Speaker 1: for us to keep in touch. 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