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Speaker 1: Hello, Hey, okay, cool, Hey, what's up man? What's your name?

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Speaker 2: Oh, my name is Zo. It's y e h u

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Speaker 2: where you.

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Speaker 1: Call him from? Yahu.

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Speaker 2: I'm from the Middle East.

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Speaker 1: Oh, very cool. Well part of the Middle East.

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Speaker 2: It's uh, it's like around Syria.

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Speaker 1: Oh you're near Syria. Yeah, I'm actually I'm excited to

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Speaker 1: talk to you because I I'm curious what's going on

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Speaker 1: in Syria.

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Speaker 3: What's going on?

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Speaker 1: Yeah? Politically, No, I mean not politically, just life lifely.

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Speaker 1: You know, what's it like when you walk what's it

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Speaker 1: like when you step outside of wherever you live and

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Speaker 1: walk around?

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Speaker 2: Oh? Well, it's actually pretty much connected to what I

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Speaker 3: Yeah. Please.

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Speaker 2: I'm doing a year of volunteering in a farm, which

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Speaker 2: is like in a three desert y not very desert,

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Speaker 2: but there's like kind of an isolated area. The farm

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Speaker 2: is like one year into construction, so it's a pretty

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Speaker 2: small place. I'm seventeen. I'm I'm doing I'm doing this

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Speaker 2: for like about four months now.

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Speaker 2: I'm really happy with with what I'm doing. I'm a

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Speaker 2: I'm a shepherd here. I'm in charge of some construction and.

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Speaker 3: Animal care. Mm hmm. And what I wanted to talk

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Speaker 2: Kind of it's been starting to get lonely, which is

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Speaker 2: something that it's kind of weird for me to say

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Speaker 2: because I've always considered myself an introvert mm hmm, but

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Speaker 2: I do find myself starting to.

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Speaker 3: Miss people.

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Speaker 2: And socializing.

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Speaker 1: You said you're seventeen. Huh you said you're seventeen. Yeah,

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Speaker 1: are you not in some version of like school?

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Speaker 3: Oh?

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Speaker 2: No, I'm done with school.

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Speaker 1: You're done with school?

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Speaker 2: Yeah, I'm done with a I graduated.

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Speaker 1: Oh okay, I was one in October, So okay, just

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Speaker 1: a little off. So then what are you are you

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Speaker 1: not doing a thing that involves being around other people?

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Speaker 2: Well, because as small as the farm is pretty small,

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Speaker 2: I don't see a lot of people mostly, And also

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Speaker 2: also been very very meditative and peaceful, which I'm very

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Speaker 2: very thankful for. It's been very nurturing to meet mentally.

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Speaker 3: Mm hmmmm hm, okay, say it is.

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Speaker 2: It has been a little tough.

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Speaker 1: Does any are you do work completely alone?

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Speaker 2: Well, like shepherd?

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Speaker 3: Yeah?

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Speaker 2: Done here in the farm yet there are some workers

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Speaker 3: But he's like a pretty busy guy. Mm hm.

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Speaker 3: Were you have like my own room here?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, we were you. Did you have a lot of

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Speaker 2: Yeah, again as this group of a group of friends.

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Speaker 2: But now when once everyone like around the age of eighteen,

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Speaker 1: Well, do you like being a shepherd? I mean, would

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Speaker 2: I do enjoy my job. Oh, I think I think

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Speaker 1: I mean that's that seems to be what you're doing?

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Speaker 1: Again, I don't, I don't know what your options are

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Speaker 1: like clearly not as much if you're feeling so lonely.

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Speaker 2: Right, The first few months have actually been I felt

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Speaker 2: pretty ideal. It is something I wanted, and the isolation

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Speaker 1: Yeah. And by the way, dude, you're so fucking young,

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Speaker 1: like you can try out different versions of your life,

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Speaker 1: and you can do something for a month and then go,

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Speaker 1: you know, I thought this is what I wanted, but

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Speaker 2: Yeah, of course, Well what I'm doing now is in forever.

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Speaker 2: It's a it's a volunteering thing to a program.

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Speaker 3: That's like for a year. But I do have breaks.

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Speaker 2: I do, I do see my family, I do see

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Speaker 1: So you're part of a volunteering program. You're part of

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Speaker 1: a volunteering program where there's no other people working with you. Yeah, yeah, dude,

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Speaker 1: it's that's you don't want you don't want to do that. Dude,

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Speaker 1: You don't want to live a life where you're not

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Speaker 4: Yeah.

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Speaker 2: I guess the thing is that I thought I was,

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Speaker 1: Yeah, you don't have to sound like you don't have

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Speaker 2: I don't mean to sound sad. I'm just I'm a

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Speaker 1: I'm not I'm sure. I'm sure you are tired. Man,

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Speaker 1: I'm sure you are tired. You're a fucking sheep, shepherd.

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Speaker 1: You know, I'm sure you're very tired.

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Speaker 2: I think I want to go on with this for

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Speaker 2: But yeah, I think i'll just I'll try out some

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Speaker 2: Well, it's uh, it's inherently a little isolated from the

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Speaker 1: What's your name again?

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Speaker 3: It's yeah, who?

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Speaker 1: Yeah, who?

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Speaker 1: I appreciate you sharing this with me. I appreciate you calling.

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Speaker 1: No givin. Finding the melancholy in your own isolation.

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Speaker 1: What's the word? This is a trend on TikTok A

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Speaker 1: core memory? Yeah, core memory. Let's say that a core experience.

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Speaker 1: So well, good luck, man, I'll see you around the universe.

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Speaker 1: Man being a sheep shepherd in Syria. There's so many

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Speaker 1: different lives that you can live. Hello, Hello, what's up man?

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Speaker 1: What's your name? Nick? What's happening with you? Nick? Has life?

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Speaker 5: What's overall good?

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Speaker 2: You know?

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Speaker 1: That's making it good? Overall good?

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Speaker 5: Like last year I realized I have free will and

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Speaker 5: just kind of blew up my life and moved across

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Speaker 1: Oh cool, what's okay? Tell me, tell me what that

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Speaker 1: looks like, blowing up your life. Yeah.

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Speaker 5: Yeah, So I was I was gonna have a pretty

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Speaker 5: like bad relationship for six years. And I went home

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Speaker 5: Oh and that's that's not a I realized that's not

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Speaker 5: And I was working a job that I heard at

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Speaker 1: Arm, whoa, yeah, I mean that happens. That happens. That happens.

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Speaker 5: I don't more more than ten, So I've you know,

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Speaker 5: Yeah, yeah, I don't know. I I did Hinge for

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Speaker 1: Yeah, no, it's not. It's it is truthfully, yes, not

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Speaker 5: Granted I I haven't tried hinge recently. I I like,

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Speaker 1: I just don't you say that again. You did a

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Speaker 3: Yeah, well, you know, I like.

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Speaker 1: Did you go Did you go by yourself to do this?

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Speaker 3: Yeah?

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Speaker 5: Yeah most of the time.

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Speaker 5: I don't know, I because sometimes it feels like she's

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Speaker 5: Yeah, Like so I'm an archaeologist, so we we kind

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Speaker 1: Hm, Okay, you seem like you're doing I can I

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Speaker 3: Nick?

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Speaker 1: I'm impressed by you. Actually, I think you seem like

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Speaker 1: you're actually doing great. I don't know if you think

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Speaker 3: Of course, please do so in Monsters University.

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Speaker 1: And I'm gonna make a lot of what I'm about

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Speaker 1: because as Sully says to Mike Wasowski, you are not

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00:28:48,360 --> 00:28:51,400
Speaker 1: You may not be scary, but you are fearless. And

443
00:28:51,440 --> 00:28:53,480
Speaker 1: so that's why I think your life is like is

444
00:28:53,600 --> 00:28:56,120
Speaker 1: like Monsters University.

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00:28:56,960 --> 00:29:04,240
Speaker 5: I never thought about it like that before. Yeah, that's beautiful.

446
00:29:06,320 --> 00:29:07,200
Speaker 1: What's your name again?

447
00:29:08,280 --> 00:29:09,480
Speaker 3: Nick? Nick?

448
00:29:10,720 --> 00:29:12,200
Speaker 1: I want to be like you know, you know how

449
00:29:12,240 --> 00:29:16,560
Speaker 1: like Jordan Peterson is famous for like uh whatever, he

450
00:29:16,720 --> 00:29:20,040
Speaker 1: like gives like lectures about the Lion King or whatever.

451
00:29:20,080 --> 00:29:23,440
Speaker 1: I want to do that, but with also I want

452
00:29:23,440 --> 00:29:25,920
Speaker 1: to do that with Disney movies anyway, who cares? All Right,

453
00:29:26,520 --> 00:29:28,000
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, what's your name? One more time?

454
00:29:29,000 --> 00:29:29,240
Speaker 4: Nick?

455
00:29:29,800 --> 00:29:30,040
Speaker 3: Nick?

456
00:29:31,280 --> 00:29:33,400
Speaker 1: I'm proud of you, Nick, I'm inspired by you. I

457
00:29:33,440 --> 00:29:34,840
Speaker 1: think you're a good person. I think you're going to

458
00:29:34,880 --> 00:29:35,240
Speaker 1: do well.

459
00:29:36,400 --> 00:29:40,360
Speaker 5: Oh thanks, son, It's it feels so much better. It's

460
00:29:40,400 --> 00:29:44,520
Speaker 5: actually like take steps to improve your life then it

461
00:29:44,520 --> 00:29:46,400
Speaker 5: does to like just sulk about it.

462
00:29:46,720 --> 00:29:47,040
Speaker 2: M hm.

463
00:29:49,280 --> 00:29:53,400
Speaker 1: Go watch Monsters University. I think there's a tie in

464
00:29:53,640 --> 00:29:57,560
Speaker 1: video game too. What's the tie in video.

465
00:29:57,840 --> 00:29:59,800
Speaker 5: That like a PS three game or something.

466
00:30:02,000 --> 00:30:06,680
Speaker 1: In July eleventh of twenty thirteen, Disney's Club Penguin hosted

467
00:30:06,720 --> 00:30:11,840
Speaker 1: a Monsters University Takeover event to promote the film. Okay,

468
00:30:11,880 --> 00:30:16,160
Speaker 1: that's probably offline by now, but anyway, Wow. It grossed

469
00:30:16,320 --> 00:30:21,040
Speaker 1: five hundred million Hong Kongese dollars opening day. All right, well,

470
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Speaker 1: I'm Nick. Yes, is there anything else you want to

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00:30:25,480 --> 00:30:27,000
Speaker 1: say to the people of the computer before we go?

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00:30:28,480 --> 00:30:32,160
Speaker 5: If you live in Riting, hitting me up, have a good.

473
00:30:32,000 --> 00:30:34,720
Speaker 1: Wind with your games. Thank you very much for calling.

474
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Speaker 3: All right, love you, bye bye, Nick.

475
00:30:41,000 --> 00:30:43,600
Speaker 1: That really did I. I'm so glad that I had

476
00:30:43,640 --> 00:30:48,320
Speaker 1: the opportunity to talk about Monsters University. Been wanting to

477
00:30:48,320 --> 00:30:50,320
Speaker 1: talk about that for a while. It's a real touching scene.

478
00:30:50,600 --> 00:30:56,400
Speaker 1: I'm gonna go watch that movie when I'm done, when

479
00:30:56,440 --> 00:30:59,120
Speaker 1: I'm done, whatever else, whatever I'm doing.

480
00:31:00,000 --> 00:31:03,280
Speaker 3: Hello, Hello, what's up? Have I in?

481
00:31:04,120 --> 00:31:05,440
Speaker 1: You're in? What's your name?

482
00:31:05,960 --> 00:31:09,640
Speaker 3: No fucking way, no fucking way. My name My name

483
00:31:09,680 --> 00:31:10,160
Speaker 3: is Adrian.

484
00:31:10,360 --> 00:31:11,280
Speaker 1: How's life Adrian?

485
00:31:12,760 --> 00:31:15,680
Speaker 3: My life is pretty good right now? Jesus twice my

486
00:31:15,800 --> 00:31:20,680
Speaker 3: heart peaty confect? What she is crazy to me? Okay,

487
00:31:21,480 --> 00:31:23,440
Speaker 3: mine is pretty good?

488
00:31:22,680 --> 00:31:24,280
Speaker 1: Why tell me more about that.

489
00:31:25,600 --> 00:31:31,680
Speaker 3: I reason it took a took a chance to I

490
00:31:31,800 --> 00:31:36,280
Speaker 3: tried dating apps and I met this girl and she

491
00:31:36,400 --> 00:31:40,240
Speaker 3: lives across the country, and so I drove across the

492
00:31:40,240 --> 00:31:44,040
Speaker 3: country to meet her. And she's good.

493
00:31:46,120 --> 00:31:50,200
Speaker 1: Okay, what do you like about this girl?

494
00:31:53,400 --> 00:32:00,560
Speaker 3: She is very funny, she is very beautiful, She has

495
00:32:00,680 --> 00:32:05,480
Speaker 3: same interest as me, and she has a beautiful singing voice.

496
00:32:06,480 --> 00:32:13,520
Speaker 3: She strives to become an artist. And yeah, her voice

497
00:32:13,560 --> 00:32:14,240
Speaker 3: is gorgeous.

498
00:32:19,520 --> 00:32:22,080
Speaker 1: And you drive across it. That was the first time

499
00:32:22,120 --> 00:32:23,960
Speaker 1: meeting her, was driving across the country.

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00:32:25,200 --> 00:32:29,680
Speaker 3: Yes, after we're spoken for about a week's about nine hours?

501
00:32:32,640 --> 00:32:32,760
Speaker 2: Hm.

502
00:32:33,560 --> 00:32:35,480
Speaker 1: And so what's the plan here? Are you gonna just

503
00:32:35,560 --> 00:32:37,320
Speaker 1: keep driving back and forth nine hours?

504
00:32:39,160 --> 00:32:41,960
Speaker 3: I wall did that once. I've been there two more

505
00:32:42,000 --> 00:32:48,280
Speaker 3: times now, and those two times I flew instead of driving.

506
00:32:48,960 --> 00:32:53,760
Speaker 3: Mm hmm because the driving tip was exhausting.

507
00:32:54,600 --> 00:33:05,440
Speaker 1: Yeah, I'm sure, okay, okay, So is she going to

508
00:33:05,480 --> 00:33:06,520
Speaker 1: come to you now?

509
00:33:09,080 --> 00:33:12,600
Speaker 3: Hopefully one day. But like the school she goes to

510
00:33:12,720 --> 00:33:15,920
Speaker 3: because she's like in I don't know what it would

511
00:33:15,920 --> 00:33:20,480
Speaker 3: be in English, but it's like I don't I don't

512
00:33:20,520 --> 00:33:24,400
Speaker 3: even know. But she she goes to school Monday to Saturday,

513
00:33:24,480 --> 00:33:27,440
Speaker 3: so she kind of only has one day weekend, so

514
00:33:27,480 --> 00:33:31,000
Speaker 3: it's kind of difficult for her to travel here and

515
00:33:31,040 --> 00:33:33,680
Speaker 3: when she has school all the time. Mm hmm. But

516
00:33:33,840 --> 00:33:39,479
Speaker 3: she will come sometime early next year for sure. M hm.

517
00:33:40,560 --> 00:33:46,280
Speaker 1: And what what's your life like? Where are you calling from?

518
00:33:46,320 --> 00:33:49,040
Speaker 1: You have a peculiar phone number, or at least peculiar

519
00:33:49,240 --> 00:33:51,120
Speaker 1: to me as an American.

520
00:33:51,480 --> 00:33:54,720
Speaker 3: I'm calling from Norway, Norway?

521
00:33:55,520 --> 00:33:58,160
Speaker 1: What's going on in Norway? What's happening there.

522
00:33:59,480 --> 00:34:02,960
Speaker 3: Right now? Surprising enough? It's at least where I live.

523
00:34:03,400 --> 00:34:07,120
Speaker 3: There is no snow, which she kind of wouldn't expect

524
00:34:07,440 --> 00:34:09,960
Speaker 3: from Norway because Norway is like known for all the snow.

525
00:34:10,600 --> 00:34:11,000
Speaker 3: Mm hmm.

526
00:34:13,719 --> 00:34:18,279
Speaker 1: Right where and where in Norway? Are you Oslow?

527
00:34:20,120 --> 00:34:23,040
Speaker 3: One hour away from a slow so fairly close?

528
00:34:23,480 --> 00:34:28,080
Speaker 1: Okay? And is this woman a Norwegian woman?

529
00:34:29,640 --> 00:34:33,040
Speaker 3: Yes, she lives in I don't know if you're familiar

530
00:34:33,120 --> 00:34:37,239
Speaker 3: with Norwegian cities, but she lives in Bergen, which is

531
00:34:37,320 --> 00:34:40,440
Speaker 3: like on the Midwest coast.

532
00:34:41,120 --> 00:34:48,640
Speaker 1: Sure, I know I know Bergen from Bergen? Boy? Okay?

533
00:34:49,239 --> 00:34:52,960
Speaker 1: And are you ready? Are you ready to fall in love?

534
00:34:55,040 --> 00:34:56,239
Speaker 3: Did I am falling in love?

535
00:34:57,360 --> 00:34:59,040
Speaker 1: What does that feel like? What does that feel like?

536
00:34:59,120 --> 00:34:59,960
Speaker 1: For falling in love.

537
00:35:00,400 --> 00:35:04,879
Speaker 3: It is, it is exciting, it is. It feels good.

538
00:35:05,440 --> 00:35:08,839
Speaker 3: Mm hmm, feels feels good.

539
00:35:09,560 --> 00:35:14,520
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm mm hmm. Have you been in love before?

540
00:35:14,640 --> 00:35:16,000
Speaker 1: Is this your first time in love?

541
00:35:18,280 --> 00:35:21,200
Speaker 3: I haven't been in love to this degree before.

542
00:35:21,280 --> 00:35:23,880
Speaker 1: Now I wouldn't say that interesting.

543
00:35:23,920 --> 00:35:31,520
Speaker 3: This one is different. Why it just feels more real?

544
00:35:33,239 --> 00:35:39,319
Speaker 3: Just the last person I was with had a like

545
00:35:39,400 --> 00:35:42,600
Speaker 3: it was a difficult issue because like her family was

546
00:35:43,040 --> 00:35:49,080
Speaker 3: very very uh non accepting, and so I was kind

547
00:35:49,120 --> 00:35:52,799
Speaker 3: of like in secret and pushed away kind of. So

548
00:35:52,880 --> 00:35:55,800
Speaker 3: it was very very difficult.

549
00:35:56,239 --> 00:35:58,120
Speaker 1: And what were they not accepting of?

550
00:36:00,280 --> 00:36:05,400
Speaker 3: Like she was from Sri Lanka, so they were not

551
00:36:05,520 --> 00:36:10,120
Speaker 3: expecting off having a Norwegian boyfriend because they wanted like

552
00:36:10,280 --> 00:36:14,720
Speaker 3: a successful Sri Lankan guy instead. I guess I see

553
00:36:14,920 --> 00:36:16,440
Speaker 3: they're like very conservative.

554
00:36:17,320 --> 00:36:23,439
Speaker 1: And now this woman does not want a successful Sri

555
00:36:23,560 --> 00:36:28,560
Speaker 1: Lankan guy. She's down for a regular Joe Schmo Bergen boy.

556
00:36:28,719 --> 00:36:30,359
Speaker 1: Although you're not a burg And boy, you're a.

557
00:36:30,800 --> 00:36:33,480
Speaker 3: Oh this is this is my this is my previous relationship.

558
00:36:33,520 --> 00:36:35,719
Speaker 3: So yes matter anyway.

559
00:36:35,600 --> 00:36:39,799
Speaker 1: Yes, so now, but now this woman loves you for

560
00:36:39,840 --> 00:36:40,399
Speaker 1: who you are?

561
00:36:41,640 --> 00:36:48,720
Speaker 3: Yes, what dating apps parents? It's kind of embarrassing because

562
00:36:49,080 --> 00:36:52,879
Speaker 3: my my my colleague was talking about this dating app

563
00:36:52,880 --> 00:36:57,360
Speaker 3: because she had had very bad experiences. I saw, fuck it,

564
00:36:57,440 --> 00:36:59,360
Speaker 3: let's see how bad it is. So I tried it,

565
00:36:59,400 --> 00:37:00,800
Speaker 3: and it's Facebook dating.

566
00:37:03,080 --> 00:37:05,920
Speaker 1: You're not the first. You're not the first Facebook dating

567
00:37:06,040 --> 00:37:11,160
Speaker 1: success story that we've heard on this podcast. Actually, weirdly enough.

568
00:37:13,520 --> 00:37:14,400
Speaker 3: That is surprising.

569
00:37:14,760 --> 00:37:18,399
Speaker 1: Actually, yeah, weirdly enough.

570
00:37:18,400 --> 00:37:23,760
Speaker 3: I didn't really use it for the intent to date.

571
00:37:23,920 --> 00:37:28,160
Speaker 3: It was just using it for trying to see the

572
00:37:28,320 --> 00:37:32,879
Speaker 3: experience my colleague at a to see, like, how bad

573
00:37:33,000 --> 00:37:33,879
Speaker 3: really is it?

574
00:37:35,280 --> 00:37:41,520
Speaker 1: So, how does this relationship compare to the other one

575
00:37:41,560 --> 00:37:42,120
Speaker 1: that you were in?

576
00:37:44,440 --> 00:37:48,880
Speaker 3: This one is? I This one is way better because

577
00:37:49,040 --> 00:37:53,919
Speaker 3: the previous one I can only like be with them

578
00:37:54,000 --> 00:37:57,600
Speaker 3: for hours and had to be in secretly, have to

579
00:37:57,680 --> 00:38:05,320
Speaker 3: like sneak out or like avoid certain people and such.

580
00:38:05,440 --> 00:38:07,799
Speaker 3: On this one, I can just is just open and

581
00:38:07,840 --> 00:38:10,479
Speaker 3: I can actually talk to her, and I can talk

582
00:38:10,520 --> 00:38:13,080
Speaker 3: to her family. I can talk to her friends properly.

583
00:38:16,920 --> 00:38:21,160
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm, mm hmmm. So you met this woman's family already.

584
00:38:22,239 --> 00:38:26,640
Speaker 3: No, I'm meeting them in two weeks or twelve days.

585
00:38:26,680 --> 00:38:29,680
Speaker 1: Actually, they're gonna You're gonna go back to Bergen.

586
00:38:31,120 --> 00:38:33,800
Speaker 3: Yeah, No, because she doesn't. She's not from Berg and

587
00:38:33,840 --> 00:38:36,120
Speaker 3: she just lives there for school, so she lives like

588
00:38:36,200 --> 00:38:40,400
Speaker 3: a few hours south. But it's also on the west

589
00:38:40,480 --> 00:38:46,839
Speaker 3: side of Norway. So I'm taking the train over there

590
00:38:48,320 --> 00:38:56,320
Speaker 3: in h in twelve days after Christmas. Cool because in Norway.

591
00:38:56,480 --> 00:38:59,640
Speaker 3: In Norway actually actually eleven days. Eleven days because in

592
00:38:59,680 --> 00:39:04,319
Speaker 3: Norway Christmas is on the twenty fourth. I don't know

593
00:39:04,320 --> 00:39:08,120
Speaker 3: why the US is on the twenty fifth, but I

594
00:39:08,160 --> 00:39:10,400
Speaker 3: know a lot of European countries have it on the

595
00:39:10,520 --> 00:39:11,240
Speaker 3: twenty fourth.

596
00:39:12,040 --> 00:39:14,240
Speaker 1: It's because we have different Jesus.

597
00:39:16,200 --> 00:39:17,800
Speaker 3: That makes a whole lot of sense.

598
00:39:18,000 --> 00:39:23,520
Speaker 1: Yeah, you guys have Norwegian Jesus and we have Americans.

599
00:39:26,080 --> 00:39:30,120
Speaker 1: The biggest difference between American Jesus and Norwegian Jesus is

600
00:39:30,120 --> 00:39:36,520
Speaker 1: that Norwegian Jesus is uh, he's Norwegian.

601
00:39:39,040 --> 00:39:43,040
Speaker 3: Yeah, did you know that? I know that. Now.

602
00:39:44,040 --> 00:39:45,480
Speaker 1: Do you know a lot about Jesus?

603
00:39:48,360 --> 00:39:50,880
Speaker 3: Well, not other than what I've learned in school.

604
00:39:51,280 --> 00:39:56,239
Speaker 1: What did you learn in school about Jesus?

605
00:39:56,280 --> 00:39:59,759
Speaker 3: But he has been born and savior him, sush. I

606
00:39:59,760 --> 00:40:04,200
Speaker 3: don't under much. I didn't really enjoy enjoy religion.

607
00:40:05,440 --> 00:40:08,200
Speaker 1: Did you go to did you go to a religious school?

608
00:40:09,600 --> 00:40:09,640
Speaker 5: No?

609
00:40:12,920 --> 00:40:16,720
Speaker 3: In most schools in Norway, you can't like in force

610
00:40:17,320 --> 00:40:21,600
Speaker 3: certain religions and such, at least not in elementary school.

611
00:40:22,840 --> 00:40:29,280
Speaker 3: So it's like, it's not that many Christian schools and such.

612
00:40:30,640 --> 00:40:33,000
Speaker 1: So why were you learning about Jesus in school then?

613
00:40:34,360 --> 00:40:38,440
Speaker 3: Because noways a Christian country? Have we learned about all

614
00:40:38,440 --> 00:40:40,120
Speaker 3: the religions?

615
00:40:42,920 --> 00:40:46,520
Speaker 1: What did you learn about Hinduism?

616
00:40:47,160 --> 00:40:48,680
Speaker 2: You're not remember.

617
00:40:51,440 --> 00:40:54,040
Speaker 1: What's your favorite religion? Which religion do you think is correct?

618
00:40:57,280 --> 00:41:01,640
Speaker 3: I am not fond of legion because it cost is

619
00:41:01,680 --> 00:41:05,040
Speaker 3: so much conflict, So I'd like to believe none of them.

620
00:41:05,880 --> 00:41:07,719
Speaker 3: I don't believe there God.

621
00:41:09,840 --> 00:41:13,160
Speaker 1: What's the best between the PlayStation three, the Xbox three

622
00:41:13,239 --> 00:41:14,640
Speaker 1: sixty and the Nintendo Wii.

623
00:41:16,320 --> 00:41:19,200
Speaker 3: I grew up with the PlayStation three, So for me,

624
00:41:19,280 --> 00:41:21,040
Speaker 3: I will I'd say PlayStation three.

625
00:41:23,120 --> 00:41:23,959
Speaker 1: What's your name again?

626
00:41:25,920 --> 00:41:26,760
Speaker 3: My name is Adrian?

627
00:41:27,160 --> 00:41:30,520
Speaker 1: Adrian. I like you, Adrian, you got a good vibe.

628
00:41:30,600 --> 00:41:31,239
Speaker 3: I like you too.

629
00:41:31,280 --> 00:41:37,280
Speaker 1: Man, you're gonna get married, probably to this Facebook lady.

630
00:41:38,200 --> 00:41:41,160
Speaker 1: You guys will have a Yeah, you guys get married.

631
00:41:41,400 --> 00:41:44,960
Speaker 1: You'll buy a two cats. Yeah, I have two cats.

632
00:41:44,960 --> 00:41:49,319
Speaker 1: Get a PlayStation, Get a PlayStation fucking seven. You know

633
00:41:50,680 --> 00:41:51,239
Speaker 1: that'll be good.

634
00:41:51,160 --> 00:41:54,600
Speaker 3: At the time. By that time. It's probably a PlayStation

635
00:41:54,760 --> 00:41:58,360
Speaker 3: only only PlayStation six if if that will be released

636
00:41:58,400 --> 00:42:03,359
Speaker 3: in time, I'm not sure. I want to. I want

637
00:42:03,360 --> 00:42:06,279
Speaker 3: to talk with you about the first time I tried

638
00:42:06,320 --> 00:42:09,879
Speaker 3: to weed a few months ago, I think two months

639
00:42:09,880 --> 00:42:10,600
Speaker 3: ago or something.

640
00:42:11,800 --> 00:42:17,360
Speaker 1: Mm hmmm, uh, you tried weed a few months ago.

641
00:42:17,640 --> 00:42:22,480
Speaker 3: Yeah, sure, yes, but the first time ever. And I

642
00:42:22,520 --> 00:42:29,600
Speaker 3: had a terrible experience. Wow, okay, very unpleasant. Like I

643
00:42:29,920 --> 00:42:34,000
Speaker 3: only did, like I think, because I smoked with my

644
00:42:34,160 --> 00:42:38,239
Speaker 3: brothers and their friends, and they're like, they smoke a lot,

645
00:42:39,400 --> 00:42:42,400
Speaker 3: and so they do like they make joints with like

646
00:42:42,520 --> 00:42:46,879
Speaker 3: tobacco and weed, and I'm not I'm not someone who

647
00:42:47,080 --> 00:42:50,279
Speaker 3: uses a nicotine of any kind. So I think it

648
00:42:50,400 --> 00:42:55,360
Speaker 3: was like a mix of being being high and getting

649
00:42:55,400 --> 00:43:00,879
Speaker 3: a nickeo shock. And so I took like only four

650
00:43:02,360 --> 00:43:07,520
Speaker 3: big puffs of these joints and and I was I

651
00:43:07,560 --> 00:43:14,080
Speaker 3: was lost, and I was like dissociating from reality and

652
00:43:14,200 --> 00:43:17,439
Speaker 3: just suddenly like constantly, just suddenly realizing what the fuck

653
00:43:17,480 --> 00:43:22,520
Speaker 3: I'm alive. I was just sitting in the couch, disappearing

654
00:43:22,520 --> 00:43:25,239
Speaker 3: completely for like a minute, and I come back and

655
00:43:25,400 --> 00:43:27,960
Speaker 3: what what the fuck? I just remember that I'm alive,

656
00:43:29,719 --> 00:43:32,319
Speaker 3: but that was just like the first few minutes that

657
00:43:32,440 --> 00:43:34,920
Speaker 3: was that was that was like not too bad experience.

658
00:43:35,000 --> 00:43:38,319
Speaker 3: Then I was I went inside and sat on the

659
00:43:38,360 --> 00:43:42,760
Speaker 3: couch inside, and then I was just in pure agony.

660
00:43:44,320 --> 00:43:48,319
Speaker 3: I was laying there and I could not move, and

661
00:43:48,360 --> 00:43:51,719
Speaker 3: I could not see, and I could not think for myself.

662
00:43:51,800 --> 00:43:56,760
Speaker 3: I was just trapped and I felt this uncomfortable feeling

663
00:43:56,760 --> 00:44:00,839
Speaker 3: in my body constantly, and I don't know what it was.

664
00:44:00,960 --> 00:44:06,200
Speaker 3: And then and then and then, like a few minutes later,

665
00:44:06,680 --> 00:44:08,360
Speaker 3: I just felt like I had to throw up. So

666
00:44:08,400 --> 00:44:12,440
Speaker 3: I just just snapped out of it. Who ran outside,

667
00:44:12,680 --> 00:44:16,120
Speaker 3: threw up everything at Eton that day, and then I

668
00:44:16,160 --> 00:44:19,200
Speaker 3: went to go sleep because and then I just kept

669
00:44:19,200 --> 00:44:25,520
Speaker 3: feeling that horrible feeling in my body. But yeah, I

670
00:44:25,840 --> 00:44:27,280
Speaker 3: don't think I want to try that again.

671
00:44:28,360 --> 00:44:34,800
Speaker 1: Really, I feel like you didn't. You didn't you didn't

672
00:44:34,880 --> 00:44:37,680
Speaker 1: like see visions of Bob Marley and you didn't.

673
00:44:38,520 --> 00:44:42,520
Speaker 3: No, I had no visions. I mean not really, I

674
00:44:42,560 --> 00:44:45,759
Speaker 3: didn't really have any visions. I could feel like, you know,

675
00:44:46,440 --> 00:44:49,680
Speaker 3: you know how you played GTA five and been high

676
00:44:49,680 --> 00:44:53,239
Speaker 3: in GTA five, Yeah, yeah, you know you know that

677
00:44:53,440 --> 00:44:56,799
Speaker 3: silter that you have in GT five high? That's what

678
00:44:56,880 --> 00:45:02,600
Speaker 3: I saw like I saw the g mean like shaky screen.

679
00:45:02,680 --> 00:45:06,759
Speaker 3: I guess mmmm, that was like what I saw constantly.

680
00:45:07,200 --> 00:45:07,600
Speaker 3: Mm hmm.

681
00:45:11,200 --> 00:45:13,840
Speaker 1: How did you get How did you get weed in Norway?

682
00:45:13,840 --> 00:45:15,160
Speaker 1: Because it's not legal there.

683
00:45:15,040 --> 00:45:17,840
Speaker 3: Right, it's not illegal. I don't know how they get it.

684
00:45:17,880 --> 00:45:22,360
Speaker 3: They have their dealers, they buy bags of weed. I

685
00:45:22,360 --> 00:45:25,239
Speaker 3: don't know. I as I said, I smoked with my

686
00:45:25,360 --> 00:45:28,040
Speaker 3: brothers and their friends, so like they got it themselves.

687
00:45:28,040 --> 00:45:32,400
Speaker 3: But people either imported or probably cliented legally.

688
00:45:33,040 --> 00:45:40,800
Speaker 1: Mm hmm. What's your name again, Adrian? Adrian? Well, Adrian,

689
00:45:40,920 --> 00:45:46,719
Speaker 1: I wish you a good drug free Norwegian marriage life.

690
00:45:46,760 --> 00:45:48,080
Speaker 1: You're gonna have a good la you to live in

691
00:45:48,080 --> 00:45:53,320
Speaker 1: the countryside with a wife and a PlayStation and no weed,

692
00:45:54,000 --> 00:45:55,560
Speaker 1: and it's going to be good for you. I'm excited

693
00:45:55,640 --> 00:45:59,600
Speaker 1: for you and two cats. Is there anything else you

694
00:45:59,640 --> 00:46:01,279
Speaker 1: want to say to the people of the computer before

695
00:46:01,320 --> 00:46:01,600
Speaker 1: we go.

696
00:46:03,960 --> 00:46:05,759
Speaker 3: I've actually never thought of this. I listened to your

697
00:46:05,760 --> 00:46:08,680
Speaker 3: podcast for four and a half years, for five years

698
00:46:08,680 --> 00:46:11,719
Speaker 3: that I still haven't talked about what so I just

699
00:46:13,280 --> 00:46:21,280
Speaker 3: don't give up, never give up, beautiful, thank you, thank you,

700
00:46:21,320 --> 00:46:25,480
Speaker 3: get go. Also one more thing, I saw you at

701
00:46:25,520 --> 00:46:29,000
Speaker 3: an aquarium the other next week. It was a Green

702
00:46:29,080 --> 00:46:29,360
Speaker 3: Get Go.

703
00:46:29,840 --> 00:46:32,080
Speaker 1: Oh okay, you were like, so, I thought you saw

704
00:46:32,239 --> 00:46:36,479
Speaker 1: me at an aquarium last never been insane? Yeah no, yeah,

705
00:46:37,200 --> 00:46:39,520
Speaker 1: you psakeed me out. Don't psyke me out. Don't psyke

706
00:46:39,560 --> 00:46:43,120
Speaker 1: me out like that. Man, you're sure you're convened. Don't, don't.

707
00:46:43,160 --> 00:46:43,399
Speaker 3: Don't.

708
00:46:43,800 --> 00:46:45,680
Speaker 1: Don't be cute with me about that kind of ship.

709
00:46:45,760 --> 00:46:45,920
Speaker 5: Man.

710
00:46:45,920 --> 00:46:48,600
Speaker 1: You're trying to drive me insane. You're gonna make me

711
00:46:48,640 --> 00:46:53,000
Speaker 1: think I was in Norway or something, you know, driving

712
00:46:53,040 --> 00:46:53,520
Speaker 1: me nuts.

713
00:46:53,520 --> 00:46:53,680
Speaker 2: Bro.

714
00:46:53,960 --> 00:46:56,600
Speaker 3: Maybe maybe it was your brother. I saw Green Get

715
00:46:56,600 --> 00:46:58,879
Speaker 3: Go and and it looked a lot like you.

716
00:47:00,640 --> 00:47:03,120
Speaker 1: I have a good one, Adrian, Good.

717
00:47:03,040 --> 00:47:06,760
Speaker 3: Luck to you have a good one too. Bye bye.

718
00:47:07,840 --> 00:47:09,600
Speaker 1: That freaked me out. I was like, fuck, was I

719
00:47:09,640 --> 00:47:15,120
Speaker 1: in an aquarium in Norway? Maybe I was? You don't

720
00:47:15,160 --> 00:47:17,359
Speaker 1: know me. I don't know me. I don't know where

721
00:47:17,360 --> 00:47:20,640
Speaker 1: I've been aquarium in Norway? I could be at a

722
00:47:20,760 --> 00:47:23,040
Speaker 1: zoo in Russia. I could be anywhere.

723
00:47:24,760 --> 00:47:28,200
Speaker 4: From No, no, hello, Hello.

724
00:47:28,400 --> 00:47:29,719
Speaker 1: What's up? What's your name?

725
00:47:30,840 --> 00:47:31,479
Speaker 3: Oh shit?

726
00:47:32,600 --> 00:47:37,600
Speaker 1: I no, no, no, no? What's going on? No? No nothing?

727
00:47:37,680 --> 00:47:37,919
Speaker 3: GEK?

728
00:47:37,960 --> 00:47:38,440
Speaker 4: How are you?

729
00:47:39,760 --> 00:47:42,360
Speaker 1: I'm doing okay, I'm hanging in there, trying my best.

730
00:47:42,719 --> 00:47:45,600
Speaker 1: Just another day. What's going on with you? No, now,

731
00:47:45,640 --> 00:47:46,640
Speaker 1: how can I get you to then?

732
00:47:47,600 --> 00:47:51,920
Speaker 4: I'll be honest, I called on a whim because, like, uh,

733
00:47:52,680 --> 00:47:58,960
Speaker 4: my partner just left two see their family, and I'm

734
00:47:59,000 --> 00:48:04,600
Speaker 4: pretty much here alone in my house for like first

735
00:48:04,600 --> 00:48:05,239
Speaker 4: time ever.

736
00:48:06,480 --> 00:48:08,560
Speaker 1: Hold on, you're alone in your house for the first

737
00:48:08,600 --> 00:48:09,560
Speaker 1: time ever.

738
00:48:10,400 --> 00:48:13,360
Speaker 4: Because like I used to live with my whole family

739
00:48:14,280 --> 00:48:18,960
Speaker 4: in one building and like they're not far but I'm

740
00:48:18,960 --> 00:48:23,080
Speaker 4: so used to just like going up a floor and

741
00:48:23,160 --> 00:48:25,200
Speaker 4: like now it's just me.

742
00:48:26,640 --> 00:48:27,120
Speaker 3: Mm hmmm.

743
00:48:28,560 --> 00:48:38,160
Speaker 1: So yeah, okay, okay, this is the you how old

744
00:48:38,160 --> 00:48:38,400
Speaker 1: are you?

745
00:48:39,520 --> 00:48:40,520
Speaker 4: Oh, I'm twenty seven.

746
00:48:40,880 --> 00:48:43,080
Speaker 1: You're twenty seven years old, and this is your first

747
00:48:43,120 --> 00:48:48,160
Speaker 1: time ever in the house alone in your entire life?

748
00:48:48,400 --> 00:48:48,680
Speaker 3: Yeah?

749
00:48:48,760 --> 00:48:53,799
Speaker 1: Man, really, yeah that doesn't make any sense to me.

750
00:48:53,880 --> 00:48:55,600
Speaker 1: How did that? How did that happen? Like when you

751
00:48:55,600 --> 00:48:58,600
Speaker 1: were growing up? Did you never find yourself in the

752
00:48:58,640 --> 00:49:00,440
Speaker 1: house alone at one point? Like do you have a

753
00:49:00,440 --> 00:49:02,240
Speaker 1: bunch of brothers and sisters or something?

754
00:49:03,200 --> 00:49:08,120
Speaker 4: Well, my whole family would live in one building, so

755
00:49:08,360 --> 00:49:16,120
Speaker 4: like if uh, there's usually someone home, mm hmm. So

756
00:49:16,239 --> 00:49:19,720
Speaker 4: like I would just go downstairs and see my grandma,

757
00:49:19,920 --> 00:49:21,880
Speaker 4: or like you know, my sister would usually be in

758
00:49:21,920 --> 00:49:25,280
Speaker 4: the other room or like, uh.

759
00:49:25,640 --> 00:49:25,960
Speaker 3: I don't know.

760
00:49:26,000 --> 00:49:28,120
Speaker 4: I'd go upstairs and see one of my uncles or

761
00:49:28,120 --> 00:49:33,359
Speaker 4: my cousins. There's usually someone in the house.

762
00:49:34,640 --> 00:49:36,640
Speaker 1: And so where do you live now? Do you live?

763
00:49:36,760 --> 00:49:38,600
Speaker 1: You live with your significant other?

764
00:49:39,840 --> 00:49:44,880
Speaker 4: Yeah, and like, oh oh, I was gonna say, we

765
00:49:44,920 --> 00:49:48,719
Speaker 4: don't live that far from my family, but it's like

766
00:49:50,560 --> 00:49:54,600
Speaker 4: pretty much we live on the other side of town.

767
00:49:54,960 --> 00:49:58,799
Speaker 4: And it's like it's it's a little weird for me,

768
00:49:58,920 --> 00:50:01,000
Speaker 4: I think, I guess mm hmm.

769
00:50:02,320 --> 00:50:08,719
Speaker 1: Y okay. And how long have you been living with

770
00:50:08,760 --> 00:50:09,640
Speaker 1: your significant other?

771
00:50:09,640 --> 00:50:09,839
Speaker 3: Four?

772
00:50:11,440 --> 00:50:15,120
Speaker 4: Uh, we've only been living together for like a few

773
00:50:15,120 --> 00:50:16,800
Speaker 4: months now, m m.

774
00:50:16,920 --> 00:50:21,120
Speaker 1: Okay. And in the entire few months, you've never been

775
00:50:21,200 --> 00:50:22,200
Speaker 1: at the house alone.

776
00:50:24,080 --> 00:50:27,719
Speaker 4: I mean, not for longer than like a few hours?

777
00:50:29,280 --> 00:50:32,280
Speaker 1: Are that I mean that counts. Why is this different

778
00:50:32,320 --> 00:50:34,200
Speaker 1: than a few hours? This is like the whole day

779
00:50:34,280 --> 00:50:35,560
Speaker 1: or alone.

780
00:50:35,760 --> 00:50:39,759
Speaker 4: Well, they're going to be gone for like two weeks.

781
00:50:40,080 --> 00:50:42,239
Speaker 1: Oh okay, all right, so this is your first time

782
00:50:43,160 --> 00:50:48,120
Speaker 1: an extended period of time alone. Okay, yeah, yeah, no,

783
00:50:48,239 --> 00:50:49,200
Speaker 1: I see, okay.

784
00:50:50,360 --> 00:50:52,920
Speaker 4: And like I was a little excited to have the

785
00:50:52,960 --> 00:50:55,400
Speaker 4: house to myself, but also a little nervous, but like,

786
00:50:56,400 --> 00:51:02,000
Speaker 4: you know, I got stuff to do here. Yeah, I

787
00:51:02,040 --> 00:51:09,960
Speaker 4: have puzzles. I like drawing, reading. Usually I'll like throw

788
00:51:10,000 --> 00:51:14,040
Speaker 4: on a podcast or music. Well I'm doing ship around

789
00:51:14,040 --> 00:51:15,520
Speaker 4: the house mm.

790
00:51:15,440 --> 00:51:16,520
Speaker 3: Hmmm, mm hmmm.

791
00:51:17,320 --> 00:51:20,960
Speaker 4: I did invite like friends to over to come spend

792
00:51:22,200 --> 00:51:24,120
Speaker 4: like I don't know, like maybe a'll work from home

793
00:51:24,239 --> 00:51:26,839
Speaker 4: or something mm hmm from here.

794
00:51:28,719 --> 00:51:31,279
Speaker 1: And what did they say?

795
00:51:32,160 --> 00:51:35,960
Speaker 4: I have two friends who will probably come over during

796
00:51:35,960 --> 00:51:38,919
Speaker 4: those two weeks at some point. That's nice.

797
00:51:40,040 --> 00:51:40,440
Speaker 3: Mm hmm.

798
00:51:43,680 --> 00:51:47,640
Speaker 4: I could always go visit my sister, m h go

799
00:51:47,760 --> 00:51:48,719
Speaker 4: back to the family house.

800
00:51:49,280 --> 00:51:52,879
Speaker 3: Mm hmmm, yeah, mm hmm.

801
00:51:53,320 --> 00:52:01,319
Speaker 1: Okay, okay, And do you like are you you are

802
00:52:01,320 --> 00:52:04,400
Speaker 1: you nervous about being home alone? Like you just like

803
00:52:04,600 --> 00:52:10,480
Speaker 1: with this being the first time, it's it's being a

804
00:52:10,480 --> 00:52:12,439
Speaker 1: thing for you for an extended period of time.

805
00:52:13,719 --> 00:52:14,480
Speaker 3: Yeah, Like.

806
00:52:16,400 --> 00:52:19,879
Speaker 4: I have like so I get like a pank tax

807
00:52:20,040 --> 00:52:25,279
Speaker 4: sometimes and so like I've been talking to like therapists

808
00:52:25,600 --> 00:52:30,200
Speaker 4: on like how to best deal with those. So I

809
00:52:30,239 --> 00:52:33,200
Speaker 4: guess this is kind of like maybe some kind of

810
00:52:33,239 --> 00:52:35,600
Speaker 4: like weird universe trial for myself.

811
00:52:36,440 --> 00:52:36,920
Speaker 3: I don't know.

812
00:52:38,920 --> 00:52:41,000
Speaker 4: I mean, I know I'll be okay like in the end,

813
00:52:41,360 --> 00:52:44,959
Speaker 4: but my lizard brain is like, well, well you're gonna

814
00:52:45,000 --> 00:52:48,480
Speaker 4: die and you're all alone and you know kind of

815
00:52:48,480 --> 00:52:49,160
Speaker 4: have to just.

816
00:52:51,880 --> 00:52:53,440
Speaker 3: Git through it. I guess No.

817
00:52:53,560 --> 00:52:57,040
Speaker 1: I mean it's a valuable skill to know how to

818
00:52:57,080 --> 00:53:01,160
Speaker 1: just be alone, you know, Yeah, especially if you've never

819
00:53:01,160 --> 00:53:01,920
Speaker 1: done it before.

820
00:53:03,280 --> 00:53:05,200
Speaker 3: Yeah. And I don't know.

821
00:53:05,280 --> 00:53:07,440
Speaker 4: I guess when I was younger, I was more comfortable

822
00:53:07,480 --> 00:53:11,040
Speaker 4: with being by myself. But I don't know. I feel

823
00:53:11,080 --> 00:53:14,040
Speaker 4: like as an adult, you just are more anxious about

824
00:53:14,440 --> 00:53:15,480
Speaker 4: everything in general.

825
00:53:15,800 --> 00:53:17,319
Speaker 3: So mm hmm.

826
00:53:18,120 --> 00:53:20,160
Speaker 4: You get very set in your ways, and like I

827
00:53:20,280 --> 00:53:23,520
Speaker 4: was used to, like just like I don't know, just

828
00:53:23,560 --> 00:53:27,000
Speaker 4: going upstairs and saying hi to somebody, Like, I don't know.

829
00:53:27,480 --> 00:53:33,279
Speaker 4: My family is much more communal than my partners.

830
00:53:33,719 --> 00:53:42,600
Speaker 1: M hm. So where where is your partner? What are

831
00:53:42,640 --> 00:53:43,000
Speaker 1: they doing?

832
00:53:44,239 --> 00:53:44,359
Speaker 2: Uh?

833
00:53:44,520 --> 00:53:49,319
Speaker 4: They're going to the Caribbean to see their their mom.

834
00:53:49,360 --> 00:53:55,480
Speaker 1: Cool. Yeah, well, I mean the ship. I mean, I

835
00:53:55,520 --> 00:54:00,960
Speaker 1: live alone. I'm pretty used to it. I mean, what

836
00:54:01,000 --> 00:54:03,279
Speaker 1: are you gonna? Are you gonna watch porn with sound on?

837
00:54:04,719 --> 00:54:04,839
Speaker 2: Uh?

838
00:54:05,000 --> 00:54:07,360
Speaker 4: I guess I could do that if I really really

839
00:54:07,400 --> 00:54:07,839
Speaker 4: wanted to.

840
00:54:11,640 --> 00:54:12,080
Speaker 3: I don't know.

841
00:54:13,920 --> 00:54:17,400
Speaker 4: Uh, he'll put on music as lot as I want

842
00:54:18,120 --> 00:54:20,759
Speaker 4: to do that. Dance, I got I gotta I got

843
00:54:20,760 --> 00:54:21,720
Speaker 4: a pet, pet snake.

844
00:54:24,040 --> 00:54:25,040
Speaker 1: Are you gonna let him lose.

845
00:54:26,080 --> 00:54:31,360
Speaker 4: Yeah, I mean he's been he's been loose before. He's

846
00:54:31,400 --> 00:54:37,360
Speaker 4: not He's pretty small, but mm hmm. It's nice to

847
00:54:37,400 --> 00:54:40,000
Speaker 4: just kind of let him wiggle round the house. He's

848
00:54:40,120 --> 00:54:40,840
Speaker 4: very curious.

849
00:54:41,760 --> 00:54:46,760
Speaker 1: He's curious. What's he curious about? I don't know, eating

850
00:54:46,880 --> 00:54:47,840
Speaker 1: rats and people?

851
00:54:48,960 --> 00:54:52,399
Speaker 4: I I suppose. I mean, I don't think he's big

852
00:54:52,480 --> 00:54:55,279
Speaker 4: enough to eat anybody. He's maybe like I don't know,

853
00:54:56,040 --> 00:54:57,560
Speaker 4: like half an inch in diameter.

854
00:54:58,239 --> 00:54:58,840
Speaker 1: Mm hmm.

855
00:55:01,280 --> 00:55:01,680
Speaker 3: Mm hmm.

856
00:55:05,160 --> 00:55:06,200
Speaker 1: What do you do for a living?

857
00:55:07,719 --> 00:55:10,719
Speaker 4: Uh, I'm not working right now, but I was. I

858
00:55:10,800 --> 00:55:13,920
Speaker 4: was a baker for like almost a decade.

859
00:55:14,719 --> 00:55:16,120
Speaker 1: Yeah, what kind of stuff would you bake?

860
00:55:18,040 --> 00:55:23,840
Speaker 4: We did like Macarons cookies. I've made so much Jeremy

861
00:55:23,960 --> 00:55:27,000
Speaker 4: too in my career. I'm kind of like sick of it.

862
00:55:27,200 --> 00:55:34,000
Speaker 4: But I used to work in like hotels. I usually

863
00:55:34,000 --> 00:55:38,080
Speaker 4: did like large scale production mm hmmm.

864
00:55:42,280 --> 00:55:42,720
Speaker 1: Mmmmm.

865
00:55:43,880 --> 00:55:46,879
Speaker 4: But like, I don't know, I got pretty I got

866
00:55:46,880 --> 00:55:54,480
Speaker 4: pretty tired of doing that. Like it's like it's it's

867
00:55:54,520 --> 00:55:57,400
Speaker 4: a great Like I thought it was a really great experience.

868
00:55:57,440 --> 00:55:58,040
Speaker 3: I don't.

869
00:56:00,400 --> 00:56:05,000
Speaker 4: I don't necessarily regret getting into pastry, but sometimes I

870
00:56:05,040 --> 00:56:10,920
Speaker 4: wish I'd done something different. I don't know, like it's

871
00:56:11,000 --> 00:56:15,319
Speaker 4: I think anyone in the service industry knows, like it's

872
00:56:15,440 --> 00:56:17,440
Speaker 4: very labor intensive.

873
00:56:16,960 --> 00:56:19,759
Speaker 1: Work, yes, and like.

874
00:56:21,600 --> 00:56:26,600
Speaker 4: It's it's just not for me, Like I'm kind of

875
00:56:26,600 --> 00:56:28,279
Speaker 4: a weakling. I guess I don't know.

876
00:56:30,040 --> 00:56:34,240
Speaker 1: No, I understand that I'm also kind of a weakling.

877
00:56:35,320 --> 00:56:37,960
Speaker 1: You know, it is what it is. Sometimes you have

878
00:56:38,000 --> 00:56:40,120
Speaker 1: to just accept that you're kind of a weakling. I

879
00:56:40,160 --> 00:56:43,960
Speaker 1: it's snowing outside and I was like watching I was

880
00:56:44,000 --> 00:56:46,560
Speaker 1: watching someone outside like shoveling all the snow, and I

881
00:56:46,640 --> 00:56:49,560
Speaker 1: was like, shit, I just know, I'm so glad. I'm

882
00:56:49,600 --> 00:56:52,239
Speaker 1: just like, fuck, I just know, I'm like too much

883
00:56:52,239 --> 00:56:56,160
Speaker 1: of a pussy to have, like, uh do do just

884
00:56:56,280 --> 00:56:58,000
Speaker 1: do real shit? You know what I mean?

885
00:57:01,400 --> 00:57:04,719
Speaker 4: Yeah, I don't know. Like my partner is always telling me,

886
00:57:04,760 --> 00:57:07,160
Speaker 4: like you're not built for hard labor. That's my job,

887
00:57:07,160 --> 00:57:10,040
Speaker 4: And I'm like, you, you sit behind a desk, but thanks,

888
00:57:11,520 --> 00:57:16,040
Speaker 4: what do they do? They essentially just sell software?

889
00:57:16,920 --> 00:57:19,440
Speaker 1: Okay, I mean it's a.

890
00:57:19,400 --> 00:57:20,080
Speaker 4: Big boy job.

891
00:57:20,600 --> 00:57:26,919
Speaker 1: Yeah, So what are you most excited about for these

892
00:57:26,960 --> 00:57:27,640
Speaker 1: two weeks?

893
00:57:29,360 --> 00:57:34,000
Speaker 4: I guess just kind of like being able to fully

894
00:57:34,080 --> 00:57:38,000
Speaker 4: relax by myself. Yeah, sometimes you just can't fully relax

895
00:57:38,080 --> 00:57:41,680
Speaker 4: unless you're like entirely by yourself, whether it's like in

896
00:57:41,720 --> 00:57:46,680
Speaker 4: your room or like, I don't know, like maybe have

897
00:57:46,720 --> 00:57:50,360
Speaker 4: the whole house to yourself, kind of like when you're

898
00:57:50,400 --> 00:57:53,520
Speaker 4: like a teenager and your parents leave for the night

899
00:57:53,560 --> 00:57:55,240
Speaker 4: and you get to like sit in the living room

900
00:57:55,280 --> 00:57:56,840
Speaker 4: and watch cartoons at full volume.

901
00:57:57,360 --> 00:58:06,960
Speaker 1: Yeah yeah, hmm, yeah, that'd be awesome. Is that your plan?

902
00:58:07,080 --> 00:58:09,120
Speaker 1: Or you're gonna watch cartoons at full volume?

903
00:58:10,240 --> 00:58:10,520
Speaker 3: Sure?

904
00:58:11,280 --> 00:58:16,040
Speaker 4: I've been watching the new Fionen Cake just I think

905
00:58:16,080 --> 00:58:18,840
Speaker 4: it's good. Some people don't like it, but I think

906
00:58:18,840 --> 00:58:19,280
Speaker 4: it's good.

907
00:58:19,920 --> 00:58:30,439
Speaker 1: Mm hmm, Okay, So I think mean, I think this

908
00:58:30,520 --> 00:58:34,720
Speaker 1: is a good opportunity for you to experience what it's

909
00:58:34,840 --> 00:58:38,960
Speaker 1: like to live without another person for a bit. I mean,

910
00:58:39,040 --> 00:58:43,200
Speaker 1: are you do would you consider yourself anxiously attached? Uh?

911
00:58:45,040 --> 00:58:50,200
Speaker 4: You know, I'm pretty anxious person in general. I mean

912
00:58:50,560 --> 00:58:52,560
Speaker 4: I don't know, Like I get left alone with my

913
00:58:52,640 --> 00:58:57,920
Speaker 4: thoughts for too long, and my brain loves telling me

914
00:58:58,040 --> 00:59:01,560
Speaker 4: that I'm like two seconds from dying, which I know

915
00:59:01,680 --> 00:59:02,200
Speaker 4: is sake.

916
00:59:02,840 --> 00:59:07,680
Speaker 1: But your brain is telling you that you're two seconds

917
00:59:07,680 --> 00:59:08,320
Speaker 1: from dying.

918
00:59:09,520 --> 00:59:13,880
Speaker 4: I don't know, Like I I started getting like these

919
00:59:13,920 --> 00:59:18,560
Speaker 4: weird panic attacks like a few years back, and I

920
00:59:18,600 --> 00:59:23,760
Speaker 4: did take medication for it for a while, but at

921
00:59:23,760 --> 00:59:25,200
Speaker 4: some point I was like, I kind of want to

922
00:59:25,240 --> 00:59:27,600
Speaker 4: try dealing with this without my meds, and I'm about

923
00:59:27,600 --> 00:59:30,880
Speaker 4: to lose my insurance, so let's stop taking the meds

924
00:59:30,920 --> 00:59:31,360
Speaker 4: for a while.

925
00:59:32,240 --> 00:59:37,040
Speaker 1: Sure, not a bad idea. I guess what kind of

926
00:59:37,720 --> 00:59:39,760
Speaker 1: meds are they?

927
00:59:39,800 --> 00:59:44,280
Speaker 4: They were anti depressants. I was on that good good lexapro.

928
00:59:45,280 --> 00:59:45,600
Speaker 1: Cool.

929
00:59:46,520 --> 00:59:46,840
Speaker 3: Cool.

930
00:59:50,520 --> 00:59:53,800
Speaker 1: What do you how do you normally calm down without

931
00:59:54,080 --> 00:59:56,000
Speaker 1: uh using meds?

932
00:59:57,160 --> 01:00:02,560
Speaker 4: Well, I essentially, I guess I just gotta like let

933
01:00:02,600 --> 01:00:06,960
Speaker 4: myself feel the fear for a little bit, you know,

934
01:00:07,480 --> 01:00:09,880
Speaker 4: like you kind of gotta feel it before I can passed.

935
01:00:11,000 --> 01:00:16,080
Speaker 4: And then I essentially like I feel that fear long

936
01:00:16,200 --> 01:00:19,600
Speaker 4: enough for my bodies like, okay, uh is this actually

937
01:00:19,640 --> 01:00:23,320
Speaker 4: like a false alarm or not dying? And then I

938
01:00:23,360 --> 01:00:27,760
Speaker 4: don't know. Then I'll make myself some tea, but on

939
01:00:27,920 --> 01:00:31,760
Speaker 4: like a podcast or like a chill YouTube video or show,

940
01:00:34,320 --> 01:00:40,360
Speaker 4: you know, get up, maybe take some deep breaths.

941
01:00:41,000 --> 01:00:43,880
Speaker 3: Yeah, yeah, M.

942
01:00:46,240 --> 01:00:49,720
Speaker 4: Like, I know essentially what I have to do. I

943
01:00:49,720 --> 01:00:53,400
Speaker 4: think it's just sometimes my my my brain has a

944
01:00:53,440 --> 01:00:55,880
Speaker 4: hard time believing that everything is fine.

945
01:00:57,920 --> 01:01:00,520
Speaker 1: What happens when you talk to a real therapist about this.

946
01:01:00,600 --> 01:01:06,240
Speaker 4: What I say, Well, they usually well I just started

947
01:01:06,280 --> 01:01:10,480
Speaker 4: talking to a therapist again recently, yeah, and said.

948
01:01:11,840 --> 01:01:12,840
Speaker 2: He was.

949
01:01:15,320 --> 01:01:21,640
Speaker 4: Basically like he'll basically ask me, like how it feels

950
01:01:21,880 --> 01:01:24,960
Speaker 4: in my body when I have anxiety or like when

951
01:01:25,000 --> 01:01:28,680
Speaker 4: I'm feeling like I have like a really hard time

952
01:01:29,880 --> 01:01:35,560
Speaker 4: in general just like telling what emotion I'm feeling. And

953
01:01:35,640 --> 01:01:39,840
Speaker 4: so sometimes I'll feel like a really big emotion and

954
01:01:40,040 --> 01:01:41,920
Speaker 4: like I don't know what it is, so my body

955
01:01:42,000 --> 01:01:48,200
Speaker 4: just immediately defaults to like panic sometimes, Like sometimes I

956
01:01:48,240 --> 01:01:50,920
Speaker 4: get so excited about certain things, like I don't know,

957
01:01:50,920 --> 01:01:53,920
Speaker 4: maybe I'm going to see a concert or something, and

958
01:01:54,080 --> 01:01:59,280
Speaker 4: I get so so excited that my body's like, oh shit, man,

959
01:01:59,320 --> 01:02:03,560
Speaker 4: are we like eying because your heart's like beating really fast. Yeah,

960
01:02:03,600 --> 01:02:08,560
Speaker 4: And I basically have to be like, no, we're not dying,

961
01:02:08,760 --> 01:02:12,400
Speaker 4: but this is really exciting. I think what we're feeling

962
01:02:12,600 --> 01:02:17,800
Speaker 4: is excitement. And I guess my therapist is like, well,

963
01:02:19,960 --> 01:02:24,160
Speaker 4: it helps to like name those emotions first, by like,

964
01:02:25,000 --> 01:02:29,200
Speaker 4: I guess it's like kind of an ongoing process of like, well,

965
01:02:29,240 --> 01:02:31,200
Speaker 4: how do you feel in your body right now? Like

966
01:02:31,240 --> 01:02:36,280
Speaker 4: what sensation is this emotion giving your body? And then

967
01:02:36,480 --> 01:02:38,680
Speaker 4: like you can kind of go from there. I think,

968
01:02:39,240 --> 01:02:44,360
Speaker 4: m I just started talking to them again recently, so

969
01:02:48,200 --> 01:02:50,840
Speaker 4: I think right now my therapist is like trying to

970
01:02:50,880 --> 01:02:54,040
Speaker 4: get to like the root of all my anxiety.

971
01:02:55,520 --> 01:02:59,920
Speaker 1: Well, I hope that I hope that this is like

972
01:03:00,160 --> 01:03:03,440
Speaker 1: good test for you. I suppose being alone for that

973
01:03:03,560 --> 01:03:07,760
Speaker 1: long with your thoughts trying to trying to make them

974
01:03:07,800 --> 01:03:10,160
Speaker 1: a better place to exist.

975
01:03:11,200 --> 01:03:15,400
Speaker 4: Yeah, I'm like, I don't know. Sometimes I'm like, man,

976
01:03:15,480 --> 01:03:18,680
Speaker 4: being in a corporeal body sucks so much, Like I

977
01:03:18,720 --> 01:03:20,760
Speaker 4: have to feel all these things. I have to like

978
01:03:21,480 --> 01:03:24,680
Speaker 4: digest food and poop and like uh.

979
01:03:26,080 --> 01:03:26,360
Speaker 2: Leap.

980
01:03:27,560 --> 01:03:29,720
Speaker 4: But then my partner's like, well, if you didn't have

981
01:03:29,760 --> 01:03:32,400
Speaker 4: a human body, you wouldn't be able to like, uh

982
01:03:32,840 --> 01:03:38,920
Speaker 4: eat delicious cookies and like uh take warm naps next

983
01:03:38,960 --> 01:03:40,080
Speaker 4: to the radiator. I don't know.

984
01:03:43,040 --> 01:03:49,240
Speaker 1: M hm hm hmm.

985
01:03:50,760 --> 01:03:51,000
Speaker 6: Yeah.

986
01:03:51,440 --> 01:03:53,720
Speaker 1: I mean I guess anxiety. You can also cure anxiety

987
01:03:53,760 --> 01:03:57,479
Speaker 1: by uh, you know, jerking off and eating a lot,

988
01:03:57,880 --> 01:04:01,640
Speaker 1: But that's that was really curing. That mainly just pushes

989
01:04:01,680 --> 01:04:05,640
Speaker 1: it away. For that that kind of just yeah, I

990
01:04:05,640 --> 01:04:07,240
Speaker 1: don't know if it gets rid of it exactly.

991
01:04:08,360 --> 01:04:11,240
Speaker 4: I'm not super like, I don't know, I feel like

992
01:04:11,400 --> 01:04:15,280
Speaker 4: eating is like, it's not that I don't want to eat,

993
01:04:15,320 --> 01:04:17,360
Speaker 4: but it's like the sensation that's eating is kind of

994
01:04:17,400 --> 01:04:21,720
Speaker 4: gross to me. Sometimes I don't know, like like just

995
01:04:22,880 --> 01:04:29,440
Speaker 4: a physical bodily sensations. They're just so uncomfortable sometimes.

996
01:04:30,440 --> 01:04:31,320
Speaker 1: What did you say your name was?

997
01:04:31,360 --> 01:04:32,919
Speaker 3: Again? It's no?

998
01:04:32,920 --> 01:04:35,600
Speaker 1: No, no, no? Is it your real name?

999
01:04:36,800 --> 01:04:36,840
Speaker 5: No?

1000
01:04:37,000 --> 01:04:38,040
Speaker 4: That's what everyone calls me.

1001
01:04:38,600 --> 01:04:39,720
Speaker 1: Why does everyone call you no?

1002
01:04:39,720 --> 01:04:43,800
Speaker 4: No, because it's easier pronounced than my first name?

1003
01:04:45,760 --> 01:04:46,480
Speaker 1: Is your first name?

1004
01:04:48,360 --> 01:04:48,440
Speaker 5: No?

1005
01:04:48,600 --> 01:04:54,280
Speaker 1: Pataquin? Bodanga bos sure, beautiful?

1006
01:04:55,080 --> 01:04:55,280
Speaker 3: No? No?

1007
01:04:55,400 --> 01:04:56,400
Speaker 1: Is there anything else you want to say to the

1008
01:04:56,440 --> 01:04:57,560
Speaker 1: people of the computer before we go?

1009
01:05:01,240 --> 01:05:07,280
Speaker 4: I guess uh, there's like, I'm sure everyone on here

1010
01:05:07,400 --> 01:05:10,440
Speaker 4: loves the Internet and loves the free Internet and likes

1011
01:05:10,440 --> 01:05:15,200
Speaker 4: to be able to watch cat videos and born without

1012
01:05:15,560 --> 01:05:18,480
Speaker 4: your government I d being tied to it. So if

1013
01:05:18,520 --> 01:05:22,840
Speaker 4: you care about that, go do bad internet.

1014
01:05:22,440 --> 01:05:27,520
Speaker 1: Bill dot com cool okay?

1015
01:05:27,640 --> 01:05:33,520
Speaker 4: And uh yeah, and uh live your life, eat good food,

1016
01:05:33,680 --> 01:05:34,520
Speaker 4: and sleep well.

1017
01:05:35,560 --> 01:05:36,160
Speaker 3: Hock and roll.

1018
01:05:36,960 --> 01:05:37,680
Speaker 1: Thank you very much.

1019
01:05:37,720 --> 01:05:40,200
Speaker 4: No, no, thanks for talking to me, keek.

1020
01:05:41,280 --> 01:05:44,240
Speaker 1: Have a good uh, have a good Ferris Bueller's day off.

1021
01:05:45,440 --> 01:05:45,840
Speaker 3: Thanks.

1022
01:05:46,080 --> 01:05:47,840
Speaker 4: I hope you have a great day.

1023
01:05:49,400 --> 01:05:54,040
Speaker 3: By no, no, see you.

1024
01:05:53,160 --> 01:06:00,240
Speaker 4: Goes on the line, thank your phone calls every nine.

1025
01:06:00,400 --> 01:06:03,440
Speaker 5: You're like, Money's not really an expert.