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Speaker 1: Dear beautiful, wonderful listener. I hope you're doing good. I

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Speaker 1: hope you're feeling good. I hope you will up feeling

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Speaker 1: grateful and are having an amazing day. And if you're not,

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Speaker 1: and you're feeling a little overwhelmed like I am right now,

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Speaker 1: I understand. I get it. I go through it as well,

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Speaker 1: and you have to honor those feelings, like when you

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Speaker 1: feel like crying, you just need to cry, just need

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Speaker 1: to let it out. And that's what I was just

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Speaker 1: doing right now. And one of my new favorite places

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Speaker 1: in my house, in my backyard, on a nice, big,

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Speaker 1: comfy lounge outdoor chair that I was going to get

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Speaker 1: rid of, but I think I'm going to keep for

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Speaker 1: a little longer because I've been sitting here drinking my tea,

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Speaker 1: reading my books and just in silence, and it's been wonderful.

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Speaker 1: And today I woke up fine. I did have a

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Speaker 1: bit of a not stressful day. Yesterday wasn't stressful. It

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Speaker 1: was just I think a little like disappointing and disheartening,

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Speaker 1: and not only with the other person that I was

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Speaker 1: dealing with, but with myself. I feel like I could

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Speaker 1: have handled the situation a little different but it's okay.

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Speaker 1: It is what it is. I'm accepting it. I've accepted it.

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Speaker 1: I'm not sad, I'm not angry about it. I'm just

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Speaker 1: glad that that's over and done with. So I didn't

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Speaker 1: necessarily wake up sad. There wasn't really anything that triggered

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Speaker 1: this session of tears because I just finished crying. But

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Speaker 1: I think I just needed to cry. And I think

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Speaker 1: I'm at a crossroads right now, and I would tell

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Speaker 1: you about it, but I don't necessarily have it clear yet,

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Speaker 1: so i'd rather not until I do. But I do

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Speaker 1: feel at a crossroads right now of letting go of

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Speaker 1: certain things and maybe even people that are good for me,

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Speaker 1: or I think are for me or work good for

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Speaker 1: me for this season of my life, and things that

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Speaker 1: make me happy and make me feel good momentarily but

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Speaker 1: aren't necessarily good for what I want to do in

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Speaker 1: the future. So I know it's a lot of gibberish

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Speaker 1: right now. I'm still trying to figure it out myself,

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Speaker 1: but I think it was just the thought of letting go.

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Speaker 1: It's that whole thing that we've talked about, or I've

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Speaker 1: told you guys about on Cheeky's and chill where it's

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Speaker 1: They call it La Lais del Basillo. So it's the

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Speaker 1: law of emptying out of just okay, saying, Okay, I'm

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Speaker 1: gonna let go of this God because I trust you.

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Speaker 1: Even though these things make me happy, even though these

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Speaker 1: people make me happy and these activities, I'm going to

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Speaker 1: just let it go because I know there's something better.

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Speaker 1: And I've had to let go of people or situations

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Speaker 1: because they've been really bad for me. But now I'm

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Speaker 1: in this new found journey of having to let go

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Speaker 1: of things that make me happy and I think are

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Speaker 1: good for me, but I don't know if they'll fit

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Speaker 1: where I'm going. And that kind of shook me and

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Speaker 1: it made me cry. And now I have to shake

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Speaker 1: it off because I have to go to work because

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Speaker 1: I'm gonna go record an episode of Footy on the

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Speaker 1: Go and I'm really excited because it's one of my

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Speaker 1: favorite restaurants here in La so I'm excited for that.

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Speaker 1: So I just got to shake it off. And I

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Speaker 1: just thought I would send you guys a voice, want

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Speaker 1: to let you guys know that at the end of

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Speaker 1: the day, I'm like you guys, I'm human and I

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Speaker 1: have emotions, and I have a lot of them, and

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Speaker 1: I think a lot, and now that I'm sitting in

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Speaker 1: silence and meditating in silence, even without music, it's been

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Speaker 1: a new world of just things. And I don't know

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Speaker 1: exactly where I'm going with this, but I would just

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Speaker 1: leave you a message because you're like my diary, and

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Speaker 1: I just express it and leave it here and thank

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Speaker 1: you for listening, and everything will be fine. We will

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Speaker 1: find our way, I think it is when we want

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Speaker 1: to and we have the desire, we will. And hopefully

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Speaker 1: this episode doesn't bring you down, because if you're having

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Speaker 1: an amazing day, continue to have an amazing day. That's amazing.

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Speaker 1: I have a lot of amazing days, and then I

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Speaker 1: have days like these, and maybe you do too, So

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Speaker 1: maybe this episode will help you get through those cloudy days,

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Speaker 1: because they're still beautiful on their own and they're meant

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Speaker 1: to teach us things. But sometimes, you know, cloudy days

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Speaker 1: and change and growth is uncomfortable. So it's all right, guys,

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Speaker 1: We're gonna be all right anyway. I love you. Now,

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Speaker 1: let's go have an amazing rest of our day. Sincerely, Janey,