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Speaker 1: is the rest of that conversation. Let's dive in. So

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Speaker 1: after the engagement goes down, you know, you guys are

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Speaker 1: skewed timeline in their minds and they think that it's

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00:22:04,640 --> 00:22:07,440
Speaker 1: really happening when in reality, like, no, this happened three

428
00:22:07,480 --> 00:22:11,080
Speaker 1: months ago. And my question is, and this is what

429
00:22:11,119 --> 00:22:12,320
Speaker 1: I want to ask you. This is not related to

430
00:22:12,400 --> 00:22:14,600
Speaker 1: what I'm talking about right now, but if you were Maddie,

431
00:22:14,600 --> 00:22:17,199
Speaker 1: granted you guys are very different people, if you were

432
00:22:17,240 --> 00:22:22,159
Speaker 1: in her position, would you take him back after everything

433
00:22:22,200 --> 00:22:24,159
Speaker 1: went down and all play out of how it did,

434
00:22:24,160 --> 00:22:26,800
Speaker 1: would you take him back? And you know, if you

435
00:22:26,800 --> 00:22:29,919
Speaker 1: look back on this season, you see Peter's pattern of

436
00:22:30,000 --> 00:22:36,119
Speaker 1: behavior being consistently indecisive and confused, and I'd be running

437
00:22:36,119 --> 00:22:39,280
Speaker 1: for the hills. Yeah, exactly, I mean I would. I mean,

438
00:22:39,320 --> 00:22:41,159
Speaker 1: even girl, even if he's saying he's loving you and

439
00:22:41,200 --> 00:22:44,160
Speaker 1: all this stuff, I mean, look at his pattern of behavior. Yeah.

440
00:22:44,240 --> 00:22:49,359
Speaker 1: The one consistency he has ever had is being confused, conflicted,

441
00:22:49,480 --> 00:22:53,560
Speaker 1: and torn. His consistency is inconsistency. Yes, And if you

442
00:22:53,600 --> 00:22:56,320
Speaker 1: want to ride that emotional roller coaster with him, go

443
00:22:56,440 --> 00:22:58,400
Speaker 1: for it. I just got off of it, and it's

444
00:22:58,440 --> 00:23:07,119
Speaker 1: a wild ride pever if things for whatever. Again, we

445
00:23:07,160 --> 00:23:08,840
Speaker 1: don't know what the deal is with him in Madison

446
00:23:08,880 --> 00:23:11,480
Speaker 1: at this point. If things don't work out, do you

447
00:23:11,640 --> 00:23:14,000
Speaker 1: think he would come back to you? Because we saw it.

448
00:23:14,040 --> 00:23:16,800
Speaker 1: He still isn't clearly over Hannah Brown. He was never

449
00:23:16,880 --> 00:23:20,639
Speaker 1: over Madison, honestly, you guys, I don't put anything past

450
00:23:20,680 --> 00:23:23,960
Speaker 1: Peter whatever. I don't. He's just like so all over

451
00:23:24,000 --> 00:23:27,000
Speaker 1: the blace. He's so low. You ended it perfectly when

452
00:23:27,000 --> 00:23:32,080
Speaker 1: you were like Peter, Hannah's like enough, Like it's a

453
00:23:32,240 --> 00:23:34,920
Speaker 1: confused face any longer you had enough, and that's what

454
00:23:35,040 --> 00:23:37,560
Speaker 1: it was, such a powerful moment, like no, your words

455
00:23:37,600 --> 00:23:40,159
Speaker 1: don't mean anything, they have no weight. At this point,

456
00:23:40,680 --> 00:23:43,399
Speaker 1: I think it's gonna be interesting to see where you

457
00:23:43,440 --> 00:23:47,920
Speaker 1: go from here, because again, you want tonight, thank you, truly.

458
00:23:48,600 --> 00:23:52,200
Speaker 1: The indecisiveness is not something that anybody wants to see

459
00:23:52,240 --> 00:23:56,560
Speaker 1: their friend, daughter, sister, whatever go through. And I think

460
00:23:56,600 --> 00:23:58,680
Speaker 1: that watching this back, you're like, that's not the type

461
00:23:58,680 --> 00:24:00,359
Speaker 1: of man that I thought Peter wasn't. That's not what

462
00:24:00,400 --> 00:24:02,159
Speaker 1: I want to sign up for. And it's very troubling

463
00:24:02,200 --> 00:24:04,000
Speaker 1: for us because I like Peter, I think, yeah, I

464
00:24:04,040 --> 00:24:07,520
Speaker 1: considered him a little brother, But when I look at

465
00:24:07,560 --> 00:24:10,280
Speaker 1: what's happening now in his situation with Madison, It's something

466
00:24:10,320 --> 00:24:13,439
Speaker 1: we've said from the beginning. The men like the idea

467
00:24:13,440 --> 00:24:15,679
Speaker 1: of somebody, but not the reality, and they don't think

468
00:24:15,720 --> 00:24:17,720
Speaker 1: about who works in real life, and they just get

469
00:24:17,720 --> 00:24:20,119
Speaker 1: caught up in this fantasy. And once the bubble is burst,

470
00:24:20,520 --> 00:24:23,320
Speaker 1: then it doesn't work. And I just don't know how

471
00:24:23,400 --> 00:24:26,120
Speaker 1: this situation can work. The problem is is that when

472
00:24:26,160 --> 00:24:28,240
Speaker 1: we talk to Bastelnation, we're talking to a room full

473
00:24:28,240 --> 00:24:31,520
Speaker 1: of hopeless romantics and they just see a love story

474
00:24:31,560 --> 00:24:33,560
Speaker 1: and that's what they wish for, and they don't think

475
00:24:33,600 --> 00:24:36,199
Speaker 1: logistically like how this can work and the reality of

476
00:24:36,200 --> 00:24:38,639
Speaker 1: the situation. And I think that when we end this

477
00:24:38,680 --> 00:24:41,200
Speaker 1: podcast and you move on and you go home, actually

478
00:24:41,240 --> 00:24:42,399
Speaker 1: I think it's so you moved to la We'll talk

479
00:24:42,400 --> 00:24:45,280
Speaker 1: about that in a second. But you know, when you

480
00:24:45,400 --> 00:24:47,520
Speaker 1: leave here, you're going to see how people are going

481
00:24:47,560 --> 00:24:49,800
Speaker 1: to rally behind you, and how you were strong and

482
00:24:49,840 --> 00:24:51,679
Speaker 1: you were an example, and mothers are going to say,

483
00:24:51,720 --> 00:24:53,240
Speaker 1: that's what I want my daughter to be, and I

484
00:24:53,280 --> 00:24:55,679
Speaker 1: want her to respond to men like that and know

485
00:24:55,760 --> 00:24:58,920
Speaker 1: her self worth and not compromise who she is, which

486
00:24:58,960 --> 00:25:01,879
Speaker 1: is the title they're giving me Madison, which can I

487
00:25:01,960 --> 00:25:05,080
Speaker 1: just say is such a contradiction. We are crowning Madison

488
00:25:05,160 --> 00:25:07,840
Speaker 1: because she knows who she is and she doesn't want

489
00:25:07,840 --> 00:25:10,359
Speaker 1: to compromise her values for somebody. But I'm sorry for

490
00:25:10,400 --> 00:25:12,520
Speaker 1: her to go back to Peter is not exactly what

491
00:25:12,600 --> 00:25:17,280
Speaker 1: she just did. Oh, don't get me started. Anyways. Anyways,

492
00:25:17,400 --> 00:25:19,240
Speaker 1: I'm going somewhere with this, people. I was saying, people

493
00:25:19,240 --> 00:25:21,800
Speaker 1: are going to rally behind you for what you did,

494
00:25:21,840 --> 00:25:24,160
Speaker 1: and they should. Then you're going to have the people

495
00:25:24,200 --> 00:25:26,840
Speaker 1: who are fanatics and they're going to rally behind Madison

496
00:25:26,920 --> 00:25:29,440
Speaker 1: and Peter as hopeless romantics. But then you're going to

497
00:25:29,480 --> 00:25:32,880
Speaker 1: see a lot of hate also. And the villain, unfortunately

498
00:25:33,000 --> 00:25:36,800
Speaker 1: and in my opinion, unnecessarily, has become Barb because of

499
00:25:36,840 --> 00:25:39,760
Speaker 1: what happened the first night of the finale, the first

500
00:25:39,800 --> 00:25:44,040
Speaker 1: part and then into the second part. Do you agree

501
00:25:44,160 --> 00:25:46,680
Speaker 1: with the online hate that Barbe is getting and this

502
00:25:46,800 --> 00:25:49,440
Speaker 1: she's going to continue to get. I think that's completely

503
00:25:49,440 --> 00:25:52,640
Speaker 1: you know, the online hate Barb's getting is completely unnecessary.

504
00:25:52,720 --> 00:25:55,200
Speaker 1: I mean, take that hate somewhere else. She's looking after

505
00:25:55,400 --> 00:25:57,720
Speaker 1: for her son, and no one needs to judge her

506
00:25:57,720 --> 00:26:01,159
Speaker 1: for that ever, and everyone loves their babies. Everyone, I

507
00:26:01,240 --> 00:26:04,280
Speaker 1: think in that position would need to back off of her. Yeah,

508
00:26:04,320 --> 00:26:07,040
Speaker 1: they would want the very best for their son or daughter. Um,

509
00:26:08,040 --> 00:26:13,800
Speaker 1: Hannah Anne. As as Rachel said, you sorry, I interrupt

510
00:26:13,920 --> 00:26:17,720
Speaker 1: this program to let you know. Remember I said people

511
00:26:17,720 --> 00:26:20,159
Speaker 1: are gonna round it behind you. Okay. I guess I

512
00:26:20,200 --> 00:26:24,880
Speaker 1: was a little too general. Not people. Someone has said,

513
00:26:25,080 --> 00:26:29,239
Speaker 1: quote I love Hannah Anne with four exclamation points? Who

514
00:26:29,440 --> 00:26:32,159
Speaker 1: give it to us? Rage? Who's the one person you

515
00:26:32,160 --> 00:26:36,919
Speaker 1: would want to hear from. Who's iconic in this in

516
00:26:37,000 --> 00:26:39,080
Speaker 1: this day and age? I don't know, tell me, tell

517
00:26:39,160 --> 00:26:43,720
Speaker 1: me starts the k Okay, I'm gonna say a Kardashian

518
00:26:43,960 --> 00:26:50,639
Speaker 1: it is? Oh what? Um? Is it? Chris? Is it

519
00:26:50,760 --> 00:26:56,800
Speaker 1: the mall bear? No? Kylie Kim Kim Kim Kardashi West

520
00:26:57,000 --> 00:27:00,960
Speaker 1: said twenty one minute ago, quote I love Hannah an

521
00:27:01,240 --> 00:27:07,280
Speaker 1: exclamation I mean podcast? Okay, he wasn't already winning, damn,

522
00:27:08,080 --> 00:27:12,320
Speaker 1: Kim Kardashian West. Can Hannah Ann get some scams some what?

523
00:27:12,080 --> 00:27:16,879
Speaker 1: What else are we serving here? I can get them to?

524
00:27:17,280 --> 00:27:20,920
Speaker 1: That's that's huge. Wow, Wow, that's huge. That's another. Don't

525
00:27:20,920 --> 00:27:23,240
Speaker 1: even think the Queen herself. Kim Kardashian, Oh my gosh,

526
00:27:23,600 --> 00:27:28,480
Speaker 1: Christian is a huge fan of the show. Oh really yeah, yeah,

527
00:27:28,600 --> 00:27:32,600
Speaker 1: like Kylie, all of them. So listen. If another boss,

528
00:27:32,840 --> 00:27:35,800
Speaker 1: I'm sorry, we curse on this podcast. If one boss

529
00:27:35,840 --> 00:27:38,600
Speaker 1: ass bitch is going to tell you that you're a boss,

530
00:27:38,840 --> 00:27:42,639
Speaker 1: you better wear the crown. Oh my god again, whitter

531
00:27:43,000 --> 00:27:48,080
Speaker 1: you wan tonight? My goodness, I promise you this. You

532
00:27:48,080 --> 00:27:51,000
Speaker 1: are going to wake up tomorrow and first of all,

533
00:27:51,040 --> 00:27:52,720
Speaker 1: your phone is going to be blowing up, so maybe

534
00:27:52,760 --> 00:27:54,959
Speaker 1: turn it off. Takes some time for yourself, but you

535
00:27:55,000 --> 00:27:57,760
Speaker 1: are gonna look at headlines and your name is going

536
00:27:57,800 --> 00:28:00,879
Speaker 1: to be splattered across so many of them in the

537
00:28:00,960 --> 00:28:03,840
Speaker 1: best way. But as Rachel said, people are going to

538
00:28:03,920 --> 00:28:06,640
Speaker 1: rally behind you. People are gonna want you to find

539
00:28:06,760 --> 00:28:09,720
Speaker 1: so much love you. We're gonna be infiltrated with so

540
00:28:09,800 --> 00:28:12,840
Speaker 1: much support. When I say that, you think like what

541
00:28:12,960 --> 00:28:15,120
Speaker 1: went down was the hardest moment in your life, it's

542
00:28:15,320 --> 00:28:17,560
Speaker 1: gonna get so much better. And there's gonna be so

543
00:28:17,600 --> 00:28:20,840
Speaker 1: many moments where you're gonna be blindsided in the best

544
00:28:20,880 --> 00:28:22,680
Speaker 1: possible way, and your breath is gonna be taken away

545
00:28:22,720 --> 00:28:24,919
Speaker 1: because you're gonna be like, oh my gosh, this person

546
00:28:25,400 --> 00:28:28,119
Speaker 1: gave me this, these kind words, and they want me

547
00:28:28,160 --> 00:28:30,800
Speaker 1: to find love. They want me to find a partner.

548
00:28:30,920 --> 00:28:33,200
Speaker 1: Like it's it's gonna be in the weirdest way as possible.

549
00:28:33,200 --> 00:28:36,600
Speaker 1: You can't even imagine, Like so many crazy, cool things

550
00:28:36,640 --> 00:28:39,640
Speaker 1: have come, I mean from my breakup, which was the

551
00:28:39,680 --> 00:28:43,120
Speaker 1: weirdest moment in my life. But like, your heart is

552
00:28:43,120 --> 00:28:45,240
Speaker 1: gonna be filled in ways that Peter could never have

553
00:28:45,320 --> 00:28:48,400
Speaker 1: filled it. I'll tell you that. Yeah I love that, Yeah,

554
00:28:48,560 --> 00:28:50,520
Speaker 1: I really do. But now we have to hear what

555
00:28:50,680 --> 00:28:53,800
Speaker 1: is next in your life? Are you moving to Allay? Yeah?

556
00:28:53,840 --> 00:28:57,040
Speaker 1: I actually moved this week, so like I was like

557
00:28:57,080 --> 00:28:59,200
Speaker 1: just buying me a one a one white ticket and

558
00:28:59,200 --> 00:29:02,920
Speaker 1: so I move in and literally Thursday good. And you know,

559
00:29:03,000 --> 00:29:06,400
Speaker 1: for me, I gotta keep it moving. You know, the

560
00:29:06,440 --> 00:29:10,360
Speaker 1: situation's unfortunate, and you know, I gave myself a good

561
00:29:10,360 --> 00:29:13,720
Speaker 1: couple of days and cried NonStop, and then I'm like, Okay,

562
00:29:13,960 --> 00:29:16,840
Speaker 1: you know, Peter wasted you know, and I love you.

563
00:29:16,880 --> 00:29:20,040
Speaker 1: He wasted an engagement, but he's not wasting anymore my tears. Yeah,

564
00:29:20,240 --> 00:29:24,120
Speaker 1: I gotta focus. You're gonna be You're gonna be an

565
00:29:24,120 --> 00:29:28,080
Speaker 1: inspiration to so many girls out there and even for me,

566
00:29:28,200 --> 00:29:30,480
Speaker 1: somebody who has been in a similar position. I looked

567
00:29:30,560 --> 00:29:34,520
Speaker 1: up to you tonight and I really I rallied behind you,

568
00:29:34,640 --> 00:29:37,200
Speaker 1: and I truly do want the best for you, but

569
00:29:37,280 --> 00:29:39,800
Speaker 1: to see how you handled that situation in that darkness.

570
00:29:39,840 --> 00:29:42,320
Speaker 1: But everyone has been through a breakup. Everyone has felt

571
00:29:43,000 --> 00:29:47,440
Speaker 1: that sadness and that darkness, and they felt like where

572
00:29:47,440 --> 00:29:48,800
Speaker 1: do I turn to now? And they're going to look

573
00:29:48,880 --> 00:29:50,200
Speaker 1: up to you and they will reach out to you,

574
00:29:50,200 --> 00:29:51,480
Speaker 1: and so you are going to be a point of

575
00:29:51,560 --> 00:29:54,520
Speaker 1: light for them and that's something really really special. Thank you.

576
00:29:54,640 --> 00:29:57,400
Speaker 1: Listen you too, definitely, I mean you can talk to

577
00:29:57,440 --> 00:29:59,000
Speaker 1: you too. But I'm just saying, like you guys share

578
00:29:59,040 --> 00:30:05,840
Speaker 1: something that other people. But she's glowing like this is

579
00:30:05,880 --> 00:30:07,440
Speaker 1: what you're glowing out too. But I'm just saying like

580
00:30:07,440 --> 00:30:10,240
Speaker 1: this could be you too. And I think also you

581
00:30:10,280 --> 00:30:13,680
Speaker 1: said something about he took away this moment for you

582
00:30:13,720 --> 00:30:16,680
Speaker 1: in this engagement. Don't look at it that way, because honestly,

583
00:30:16,680 --> 00:30:19,080
Speaker 1: if you didn't take away myself worth, he didn't take

584
00:30:19,080 --> 00:30:21,040
Speaker 1: away yourself forth. But also he really didn't take this

585
00:30:21,080 --> 00:30:24,000
Speaker 1: engagement away from you because he never really gave himself

586
00:30:24,040 --> 00:30:26,480
Speaker 1: to you in that moment. Just think of it like that.

587
00:30:26,760 --> 00:30:28,840
Speaker 1: He didn't take that away from you. You still have that,

588
00:30:28,880 --> 00:30:30,840
Speaker 1: so hold on to that. I was so I mean,

589
00:30:30,840 --> 00:30:33,600
Speaker 1: it was so so proud of you in that moment.

590
00:30:34,240 --> 00:30:36,520
Speaker 1: And moving on, you got LA, you got a new place,

591
00:30:36,960 --> 00:30:39,960
Speaker 1: you know, you have this new platform. Yeah, you have

592
00:30:39,960 --> 00:30:45,520
Speaker 1: an agent, hopefully hopefully. Sorry did you do not already

593
00:30:45,560 --> 00:30:48,720
Speaker 1: have an agent like somebody else? Do you not already

594
00:30:48,720 --> 00:30:51,560
Speaker 1: have an agent in this situation or waiting to talk

595
00:30:51,560 --> 00:30:54,400
Speaker 1: about it? I'm so please, don't get any such I

596
00:30:54,400 --> 00:30:56,320
Speaker 1: don't have an agent, right So it's not so not

597
00:30:56,400 --> 00:31:00,000
Speaker 1: everybody comes off the Bachelor with an agent. No, Well,

598
00:31:00,000 --> 00:31:01,760
Speaker 1: come back to that part in a second. I was

599
00:31:01,760 --> 00:31:04,080
Speaker 1: gonna say, And if anyone needs to know who Rachel

600
00:31:04,200 --> 00:31:06,640
Speaker 1: is talking about, there's only two girls on stage tonight

601
00:31:06,680 --> 00:31:10,520
Speaker 1: and it's on Hannah. I don't have anyone right now.

602
00:31:10,640 --> 00:31:12,560
Speaker 1: I'm just I was just trying to focus on getting

603
00:31:12,600 --> 00:31:15,360
Speaker 1: through this past week, you know, I mean, I left

604
00:31:15,400 --> 00:31:17,760
Speaker 1: that breakup feeling like a bunch of broken pieces, and

605
00:31:17,880 --> 00:31:20,680
Speaker 1: I've taken time to like rebuild myself, and you know what,

606
00:31:20,720 --> 00:31:23,800
Speaker 1: I'm still rebuilding. I'm still you know, feeling pain every day.

607
00:31:23,880 --> 00:31:26,480
Speaker 1: But you know, I'm strong and just like I told Peter,

608
00:31:26,920 --> 00:31:30,560
Speaker 1: I'm own rock and I'll get through it while he's

609
00:31:30,640 --> 00:31:36,360
Speaker 1: kicking rocks. So we're not So we're not looking for love.

610
00:31:36,600 --> 00:31:39,480
Speaker 1: You're just like all about loving yourself. But I've not dated.

611
00:31:40,200 --> 00:31:43,080
Speaker 1: I've just been surrounding myself with like friends and family

612
00:31:43,160 --> 00:31:46,360
Speaker 1: that are consistent and that are true to their word

613
00:31:46,440 --> 00:31:49,720
Speaker 1: and that are nice and uplifting. But hey, you know

614
00:31:49,920 --> 00:31:53,080
Speaker 1: that's definitely in my feature. Hopefully with the right person, right,

615
00:31:53,080 --> 00:31:54,920
Speaker 1: I better be the right guy because now I had

616
00:31:55,040 --> 00:31:58,800
Speaker 1: like this big sister mentality over you and so taking

617
00:31:58,880 --> 00:32:01,719
Speaker 1: ship from many guys, she's stronger, Like you're stronger than

618
00:32:01,720 --> 00:32:04,160
Speaker 1: you think. You've learned so much from this opportunity. Like

619
00:32:04,560 --> 00:32:07,000
Speaker 1: we're so excited to see I can't where you go

620
00:32:07,080 --> 00:32:09,520
Speaker 1: from here. You're in La, the land of opportunity. But

621
00:32:09,520 --> 00:32:12,040
Speaker 1: but he and I do live in southern California now,

622
00:32:12,120 --> 00:32:14,320
Speaker 1: So just know, when I'm done with this bachelor, I

623
00:32:14,320 --> 00:32:17,560
Speaker 1: want stage. Sure, I'm taking you. Invite Kelsey too, We're

624
00:32:17,600 --> 00:32:22,280
Speaker 1: going out, Okay by making you date me? Yeah? No,

625
00:32:22,400 --> 00:32:24,200
Speaker 1: I would love that well. And it's crazy because like

626
00:32:24,240 --> 00:32:27,680
Speaker 1: after our breakup, I thought about you every single day,

627
00:32:28,000 --> 00:32:31,080
Speaker 1: every single day. And this is grist. I tell you,

628
00:32:31,400 --> 00:32:35,880
Speaker 1: you know, you know confidentiality and about you, and I

629
00:32:35,960 --> 00:32:37,720
Speaker 1: knew there would be the right. You really are a

630
00:32:37,760 --> 00:32:42,840
Speaker 1: good bat guy. Okay, I'm gonna give you a numb

631
00:32:42,880 --> 00:32:47,080
Speaker 1: after this week in chat and seriously every day, and

632
00:32:47,640 --> 00:32:49,640
Speaker 1: you know, I wish I would have known her. I

633
00:32:49,680 --> 00:32:51,920
Speaker 1: mean I kind of heard Inklands like in the past

634
00:32:51,960 --> 00:32:53,840
Speaker 1: couple of days, but I really do wish I would

635
00:32:53,840 --> 00:32:56,200
Speaker 1: have known her one percent. I would have DMed you.

636
00:32:56,240 --> 00:32:58,920
Speaker 1: I would have reached out. Oh my shit, it's I'm

637
00:32:58,920 --> 00:33:01,040
Speaker 1: a little emotional. That's it's like, really beauty. I'm just

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Speaker 1: so glad you guys gonna have this moment. We'll listen,

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Speaker 1: We're gonna let them have this moment. Off Mike, We're

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Speaker 1: gonna in this podcast. But I just had to say,

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Speaker 1: it's just such a pleasure to get to talk to you.

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Speaker 1: I have to see, like I said I was at

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Speaker 1: the beginning, I was wrong. We started off the podcast

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Speaker 1: talking about that. But it has really been a great

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00:33:18,960 --> 00:33:20,720
Speaker 1: thing to see you find your voice and to see

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Speaker 1: you grow and to see where you go from here.

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Speaker 1: So again, you won the day you did. Thank you

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Speaker 1: guys for having me well, thank you for being here.

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Speaker 1: As I mean, I can't ever top Rachel because she's

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Speaker 1: just so good with words for Hanny and you, really

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Speaker 1: you are a light to so many people. I really

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00:33:35,400 --> 00:33:37,520
Speaker 1: looked up to you tonight, even though I, you know,

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00:33:37,560 --> 00:33:41,000
Speaker 1: could be like you're much much older, sister, But thank

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Speaker 1: you for being you. Thank you for seeing in your

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Speaker 1: ground and showing girls out there what a strong voice

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Speaker 1: can be. And I wish you all the best. I

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Speaker 1: have no worries that you will be just fine in

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Speaker 1: your future, but thank you. I'm glad that we were

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Speaker 1: your first podcast, and we stole your podcast, Virginity yep,

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Speaker 1: heard eyes. Oh gosh, I don't know, you have to ask.

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Speaker 1: I'm not sure what the future holds, but it's gonna

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Speaker 1: be better than what I've had. She's being cool in

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Speaker 1: twenty twenty two. You gonna wait a second, You wait

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Speaker 1: a second. I mean, who knows, but it's gonna be

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Speaker 1: better than what I've had, and that's what I hold

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Speaker 1: on to you. No, that's right, all right, you guys,

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Speaker 1: thank you so much for tuning in to Bachelor Happy Hour.

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Speaker 1: As you can see, we had such a great time

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Speaker 1: just hanging out after the final rows talking to Hannah

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Speaker 1: and she's just been so open and honest with us

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Speaker 1: and giving us all the tea as well. She did

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Speaker 1: not hold back. So thank you so much for being

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Speaker 1: here with us, and like we said, we just can't

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Speaker 1: wait to see what you have going on for you

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Speaker 1: in the future. We're fans, huge fans. Yes, thank you,

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Speaker 1: Hannah Hand