WEBVTT - Mid-Week Mom Chat: Gratitude. 0:00:00.080 --> 0:00:04.200 Hey, friends. So on this midweek mom chat, I am 0:00:04.240 --> 0:00:08.479 going to talk about gratitude. Someone sent me a message 0:00:08.480 --> 0:00:12.200 on my Instagram and it really got me thinking about 0:00:12.280 --> 0:00:15.000 reframing the way I think about things because I am 0:00:15.040 --> 0:00:18.360 such a grateful person. I even have the word grateful 0:00:18.400 --> 0:00:21.680 tattooed on my left wrist to to remind myself to 0:00:21.680 --> 0:00:25.239 have gratitude every single day, because I think gratitude is 0:00:25.280 --> 0:00:28.520 the key to happiness. I think gratitude is just honestly 0:00:29.000 --> 0:00:31.960 the most important thing that you can have in your 0:00:32.000 --> 0:00:35.160 life because it blesses you. It allows you to see 0:00:35.159 --> 0:00:38.320 everything in your life as a blessing, and I really 0:00:38.400 --> 0:00:40.959 try to live that way. But I will say, ever 0:00:41.040 --> 0:00:44.280 since having Sunny, I have been filled with so much 0:00:44.560 --> 0:00:47.519 gratitude for her and for her life and for the 0:00:47.560 --> 0:00:51.000 blessing that she is. But I have let myself get 0:00:51.040 --> 0:00:56.000 completely overwhelmed by the exhaustion of it all because it 0:00:56.160 --> 0:01:00.360 is so tiring. And the one thing in life that 0:01:00.600 --> 0:01:04.800 really knocks me to my booty is lack of sleep. 0:01:05.240 --> 0:01:08.080 And I know everyone's probably that way, but I don't 0:01:08.120 --> 0:01:11.120 get like hungry. I mean, I don't know what the 0:01:11.120 --> 0:01:13.480 other things are that people get when they're just like 0:01:13.560 --> 0:01:16.840 worn out. But I just get so tired, and I've 0:01:16.880 --> 0:01:20.839 always been someone who gets so tired. Um, I'm pumping 0:01:20.920 --> 0:01:24.120 right now too, because if you hear that constant little hume, 0:01:24.600 --> 0:01:28.039 it's my pump. I'm sorry, it's almost finished, but I 0:01:28.120 --> 0:01:31.640 literally had no time to pump in. I have to 0:01:31.680 --> 0:01:34.960 get her. I have to get this pump her milk 0:01:35.040 --> 0:01:37.800 pumped while she's sleeping. And I did a recorded a 0:01:37.800 --> 0:01:41.160 podcast during her first nap. This nap, I'm uploading and 0:01:41.280 --> 0:01:44.800 editing the podcast, and I just didn't have ton to pop, 0:01:44.840 --> 0:01:46.080 and I was like, shoot, am I going to be 0:01:46.120 --> 0:01:48.200 able to record this podcast while pumping? Is that gonna 0:01:48.200 --> 0:01:49.640 be annoying for people to listen to it? Can they 0:01:49.680 --> 0:01:52.040 even hear it? I'm not sure? But then I thought, 0:01:52.720 --> 0:01:55.200 I am doing this podcast on gratitude, and so I 0:01:55.240 --> 0:01:58.240 want to start off by saying, I am so grateful 0:01:58.400 --> 0:02:02.000 that I get to pump milk for my child so 0:02:02.080 --> 0:02:05.160 she can live. She is living off of the milk 0:02:05.320 --> 0:02:07.880 that my body makes, and that is what is making 0:02:07.880 --> 0:02:11.600 her grow, that it was making her healthy, and that 0:02:11.680 --> 0:02:14.840 is what it's giving her strength, that is keeping her alive. 0:02:15.360 --> 0:02:19.079 So what a blessing that I am able to provide 0:02:19.080 --> 0:02:23.440 that for her. And yes, I it's a full time 0:02:23.560 --> 0:02:26.520 job to pump. I pump and breastfeed. I'll talk about 0:02:26.760 --> 0:02:30.200 how I do both, um because everyone a lot of 0:02:30.200 --> 0:02:32.480 people have asked me about do I breastfeed, do I pump? 0:02:32.560 --> 0:02:35.480 What's my schedule? How much does she eat? All that. 0:02:35.520 --> 0:02:37.480 I'm actually gonna do a whole mom chat mom chat 0:02:37.520 --> 0:02:41.480 on breastfeeding and pumping, but I'll briefly touch on it today. 0:02:42.400 --> 0:02:46.799 Um But I'm just like, it is a full time 0:02:46.880 --> 0:02:51.359 job to pump into breastfeed. Literally, she wakes up at 0:02:51.400 --> 0:02:56.800 seven and feeds six ounces. She eats six ounces every time. Um, 0:02:56.800 --> 0:03:04.280 So she eats at seven, tin, one, four, and seven, 0:03:04.800 --> 0:03:06.520 and so that's five times a day and then I 0:03:06.560 --> 0:03:09.919 pump again. So and I'm pumping all throughout the day 0:03:09.960 --> 0:03:13.880 and then at night and I breastfeed her each time. Also, 0:03:14.080 --> 0:03:17.160 I'll start with breastfeeding or in with breastfeeding, depending on 0:03:18.240 --> 0:03:21.959 just the session, Like depending on if I just pumped 0:03:22.040 --> 0:03:24.079 or not, we'll determine if I start her into the 0:03:24.080 --> 0:03:26.960 breastfeeding anyway, I'll talk about that another mom chap. But 0:03:27.880 --> 0:03:31.520 so I am constantly feeding my child or pumping milk 0:03:31.600 --> 0:03:34.840 to feed my child and it can't get exhausting, Like 0:03:35.000 --> 0:03:36.760 you have to pump in the car, you pump in 0:03:36.840 --> 0:03:38.760 the middle of the night, like at three am, my boobs, 0:03:38.800 --> 0:03:40.920 wait me up and a pump THEMP And then I'm 0:03:40.920 --> 0:03:43.440 pumping right now during this podcast because I don't have 0:03:43.440 --> 0:03:46.680 any other time to pump, and like sometimes and it 0:03:46.720 --> 0:03:49.360 can wear me down, and I'm like, oh god, I'm 0:03:49.440 --> 0:03:53.560 just so tired of pumping, Like my nipples are like 0:03:53.640 --> 0:03:56.480 when am I ever gonna stop pumping? But then I'm like, 0:03:56.520 --> 0:03:59.840 whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa whoa. 0:04:00.000 --> 0:04:04.640 Oh your boat's caroline. Stop complaining. You get to feed 0:04:04.640 --> 0:04:09.440 your child with this perfect, nutritious milk that is all 0:04:09.480 --> 0:04:13.000 she needs. So I started singing a song, I'm just 0:04:13.080 --> 0:04:16.120 so grateful that I get to feed my child with 0:04:16.160 --> 0:04:19.320 my milk. Just so grateful I get to feed my 0:04:19.520 --> 0:04:21.880 child with my milk. It means a terrible song. I 0:04:21.960 --> 0:04:23.520 just made it up, But anyway, I've been singing that 0:04:23.560 --> 0:04:26.720 today and I am so grateful that I get to 0:04:27.040 --> 0:04:29.920 feed my child with my milk. And yes, it is 0:04:29.960 --> 0:04:31.719 a full time job to pump, but you know what, 0:04:32.240 --> 0:04:34.119 I love it. This is what I wanted. I wanted 0:04:34.120 --> 0:04:36.560 to have a child. I wanted to breastfeed. I didn't 0:04:36.600 --> 0:04:38.159 know how intense it was gonna be. But you know what, 0:04:38.240 --> 0:04:41.280 everything is intense, it's worthwhile. If it's not intense, it's 0:04:41.279 --> 0:04:44.640 not worth it. So yeah, I'm glad it's intense. What 0:04:44.760 --> 0:04:47.320 an awesome privilege I have to feed my child. So 0:04:47.400 --> 0:04:50.520 that is how I am refocusing. Like when my boobs 0:04:50.520 --> 0:04:51.760 wipe me up at three in the morning and I'm 0:04:51.800 --> 0:04:54.440 freaking tired, and I'm tired from the night before and 0:04:54.440 --> 0:04:56.120 the night before, the night before in the past twelve 0:04:56.120 --> 0:04:59.680 weeks before that, I'm like, you know what, it's okay, 0:04:59.760 --> 0:05:01.440 because this is a season of life and I do 0:05:01.520 --> 0:05:04.200 not want to miss this season of life of pure 0:05:04.279 --> 0:05:09.159 joy and gratitude and beauty of just this young child 0:05:09.279 --> 0:05:12.040 that needs me completely and I'm able to provide nutrients 0:05:12.040 --> 0:05:15.760 for her because I'm tired. Really, I can sleep when 0:05:15.760 --> 0:05:18.160 I'm freaking dead. I have been tired so many times 0:05:18.160 --> 0:05:20.320 in my life, and do I remember being tired? No, 0:05:20.600 --> 0:05:22.600 I remember the experience, Like when I did the Amazing 0:05:22.680 --> 0:05:26.000 Race raced around the world, I was tired the whole 0:05:26.240 --> 0:05:28.880 time because we never got to sleep. But do I 0:05:28.880 --> 0:05:32.280 remember being tired? Absolutely not. I remember the incredible opportunities 0:05:32.279 --> 0:05:35.159 I got to see, the countries I got to experience, 0:05:35.960 --> 0:05:38.560 the people I got to meet, all of the things 0:05:38.600 --> 0:05:41.160 I got to do. It was amazing. It was mind blowing. 0:05:41.520 --> 0:05:44.359 Do I remember being tired? Heck no, not even in 0:05:44.400 --> 0:05:46.800 the slightest When I was in the country music band 0:05:46.960 --> 0:05:49.360 Stealing Angels and we're traveling around the country and went 0:05:49.400 --> 0:05:51.280 to Iraq on a U s O tour, do I 0:05:51.320 --> 0:05:53.760 remember being tired. We'd have to wake up like four 0:05:53.800 --> 0:05:56.279 am to get on airplanes, and like you're you don't 0:05:56.279 --> 0:05:58.400 even you travel traveling in the bus and you don't 0:05:58.440 --> 0:06:01.200 leave until like three in the morning, and your sleep 0:06:01.240 --> 0:06:02.839 schedule is all over the place. You're sleeping in at 0:06:02.880 --> 0:06:05.640 random hotels. You're not getting any sleep. Do I remember 0:06:05.640 --> 0:06:08.440 being tired? Absolutely not. Do you know what, I remember 0:06:08.839 --> 0:06:13.159 the incredible experiences in time that I had in that band. 0:06:13.560 --> 0:06:17.000 So I'm in another season where I am very tired. 0:06:17.360 --> 0:06:20.279 But am I going to remember being tired? Sure, maybe 0:06:20.279 --> 0:06:22.240 it's like a one liner, Oh my god, that was 0:06:22.279 --> 0:06:25.599 so tiring, But oh how amazing was it? I don't 0:06:25.600 --> 0:06:27.480 want to focus on being tired. Because that's not a 0:06:27.480 --> 0:06:29.640 big deal. That's why we have coffee. So I'm not 0:06:29.839 --> 0:06:33.840 I'm really working on having gratitude, even though there's a 0:06:33.880 --> 0:06:37.040 lot that goes on with having a newborn. So anyway, 0:06:37.080 --> 0:06:39.000 I was telling you, I'm getting sidetracked. Of course when 0:06:39.000 --> 0:06:41.240 I do this podcasts, but myself, I get sidetracked. But 0:06:41.360 --> 0:06:43.680 someone wrote me on my Instagram and said, I really 0:06:43.760 --> 0:06:46.560 encourage you to reframe the way you think and use 0:06:46.600 --> 0:06:49.479 gratitude for everything. And that's the way I like to live. 0:06:49.880 --> 0:06:52.120 But as I was saying before, it can you can 0:06:52.160 --> 0:06:56.680 easily forget to have gratitude when you were exhausted. So 0:06:57.760 --> 0:06:59.920 the other day I got to go to yoga Michael's home. 0:07:00.320 --> 0:07:02.360 And that's another thing. I don't really work out near 0:07:02.400 --> 0:07:04.960 as much as I used to because I just don't 0:07:04.960 --> 0:07:06.760 have time, Like I have to do everything in between 0:07:06.800 --> 0:07:09.200 her naps, which she is awake for an hour and 0:07:09.240 --> 0:07:11.120 a half eating and I'm playing with her. Then she's 0:07:11.120 --> 0:07:13.120 asleep for an hour and a half and she does 0:07:13.160 --> 0:07:15.520 that five times. She has five awake times and five 0:07:15.640 --> 0:07:20.320 nap times during the day, and those her those nap 0:07:20.400 --> 0:07:23.440 times are precious times. Like that's what I'm doing laundry. 0:07:23.640 --> 0:07:25.840 That's what I'm doing a podcast interview. I have people 0:07:25.840 --> 0:07:29.000 come over to my house and I literally time it 0:07:29.440 --> 0:07:31.920 so they get here the second she goes down, and 0:07:32.160 --> 0:07:34.280 my podcast are an hour and they are leaving when 0:07:34.280 --> 0:07:36.880 she's waking up. So it's risky business because I'm just 0:07:36.920 --> 0:07:38.720 assuming that she's going to sleep her whole nap and 0:07:38.720 --> 0:07:41.160 not wake up. So far, I've done six times knock 0:07:41.240 --> 0:07:43.760 on wood and she's slept through the whole time and 0:07:43.800 --> 0:07:47.920 it's been perfect. But I'm literally scheduling everything during her 0:07:47.960 --> 0:07:50.880 naptimes and then I edit my videos during her nap times. 0:07:51.480 --> 0:07:57.160 I upload my podcast, I am doing brand deals during 0:07:57.160 --> 0:07:59.640 her nap times. I mean that is literally I am 0:08:00.040 --> 0:08:02.000 us utilizing every second of the day. So I have 0:08:02.080 --> 0:08:04.240 not gotten around exercising as much as I wanted to, 0:08:04.360 --> 0:08:06.360 just because I don't have time. And if I do 0:08:06.480 --> 0:08:08.160 have time, I'm so freaking tired. I want to take 0:08:08.160 --> 0:08:10.960 a bath, because it's like, oh, sometimes you forget to 0:08:10.960 --> 0:08:13.080 take a bath. I literally will go to sleep, I 0:08:13.080 --> 0:08:15.920 will wear stretch pants and a sweatshirt. I'll wake up 0:08:15.960 --> 0:08:17.520 in it, I will wear it all day. I'll sleep 0:08:17.520 --> 0:08:19.560 in it in the bed. Because our house is freezing. 0:08:19.720 --> 0:08:21.120 Because we have an old house. We have to keep 0:08:21.120 --> 0:08:22.920 it at sixty eight degrees because you can't have a 0:08:22.960 --> 0:08:25.480 hot baby room because the bedrooms get hotter at night. 0:08:25.520 --> 0:08:27.640 And so our house is like sixty eight degrees and 0:08:27.720 --> 0:08:30.640 it's winter outside, but she's all bundled up in her 0:08:30.720 --> 0:08:34.280 room stays like seventy and so I'm sleeping in sweat 0:08:34.320 --> 0:08:36.400 shirts and sweatpants and I go to sleep in them, 0:08:36.720 --> 0:08:39.120 wake up the next day and just start in that outfit, 0:08:39.160 --> 0:08:41.240 and I don't change. I don't brush my hair, don't 0:08:41.280 --> 0:08:43.600 brush my teeth sometimes because you're just up right at 0:08:43.640 --> 0:08:46.320 the crack of dawn with the baby. Anyway, it's just 0:08:46.360 --> 0:08:48.319 around the clock. All your moms and new moms know 0:08:48.400 --> 0:08:53.400 this especially, But really, can I sit there and then say, 0:08:53.440 --> 0:08:55.120 oh my gosh, this is all the stuff I have 0:08:55.240 --> 0:08:57.920 to do. I have to wake up early with her, 0:08:57.960 --> 0:09:00.520 and I have to feed her, and I have to 0:09:01.280 --> 0:09:03.040 then put her down, and then I have to pump, 0:09:03.080 --> 0:09:05.280 and then I have to clean all my pump parts 0:09:05.280 --> 0:09:09.680 and the bottle parts, and I have to change her diaper, 0:09:09.800 --> 0:09:13.280 and I have to do all these things that like 0:09:13.360 --> 0:09:17.160 just are NonStop with the baby. But what if I said, 0:09:17.200 --> 0:09:20.440 I get to do all these things. I get to 0:09:20.559 --> 0:09:23.440 wake up with my precious newborn and see her smiling face, 0:09:23.480 --> 0:09:26.880 which I love so much. I get to change her 0:09:27.040 --> 0:09:30.960 poopy and peepy diapers, which honestly is adorable. That means 0:09:30.960 --> 0:09:34.200 she's having a healthy bowel system and healthy body. It functions, 0:09:34.240 --> 0:09:37.160 it's all working. Like that's such a blessing. I get 0:09:37.160 --> 0:09:39.480 to feed her my breast milk that it is perfect 0:09:39.559 --> 0:09:42.240 nutrients for her, and then I get to pump and 0:09:42.280 --> 0:09:44.840 make her bottle so she can have a full belly. 0:09:44.960 --> 0:09:49.040 And yes, I I'm tired, but like I get to 0:09:49.240 --> 0:09:53.280 have this privilege of raising a human, Like what a blessing. 0:09:53.600 --> 0:09:56.000 And if I can just catch myself and be like Caroline, 0:09:56.040 --> 0:09:58.480 stopped thinking that you're tired, and stop thinking that you 0:09:58.480 --> 0:10:00.360 have all these things to do and that you're body 0:10:00.400 --> 0:10:03.480 is exhausted and that your NonStop moving. Stop thinking that 0:10:03.600 --> 0:10:06.120 that way. Instead, think oh, what a blessing. This is 0:10:06.160 --> 0:10:10.760 so amazing. And then I went to yoga and I 0:10:11.080 --> 0:10:13.320 so this girl had wrote me that on on my Instagram, 0:10:13.320 --> 0:10:15.040 and I was thinking about that, and then I went 0:10:15.080 --> 0:10:19.600 to yoga and I was like, I really want to 0:10:19.640 --> 0:10:22.560 continue thinking about gratitude and I was like, I haven't 0:10:23.000 --> 0:10:25.960 thought about my body in a long time. Maybe, I mean, 0:10:26.000 --> 0:10:29.080 I have periodically been very grateful for what my body 0:10:29.080 --> 0:10:32.040 has done for me, but I haven't stopped and given 0:10:32.080 --> 0:10:35.080 my body praise. And so I was sitting there on 0:10:35.200 --> 0:10:37.960 yoga and it was so hard because I have maybe 0:10:38.000 --> 0:10:41.520 gone to like three or four yoga classes in a year, 0:10:42.200 --> 0:10:44.400 and like two of them being since Sunny has been born. 0:10:44.920 --> 0:10:47.679 But so I still can do everything, but my body 0:10:47.800 --> 0:10:49.920 is just not up to par as it was when 0:10:49.920 --> 0:10:51.720 I was going to yoga three or four times a 0:10:51.720 --> 0:10:53.280 week when I didn't have a kid and I could 0:10:53.320 --> 0:10:58.040 get to classes. Um, so it was harder. And I 0:10:58.080 --> 0:11:01.199 was wearing a sports brawl and a and stretched pants 0:11:01.240 --> 0:11:04.760 and I felt good in my body, but it's not 0:11:04.840 --> 0:11:07.320 the same, Like my stomach does not look the same. 0:11:08.040 --> 0:11:10.520 And when I was younger, I got a belly button ring. 0:11:10.960 --> 0:11:12.760 And I actually have a belly button ring back in 0:11:12.840 --> 0:11:15.520 my stomach now, not because I'm having a midlife crisis, 0:11:16.000 --> 0:11:19.640 but because where I had a belly button ring, I 0:11:19.720 --> 0:11:23.760 have like this saggy skin flap. It's really gross, and 0:11:24.520 --> 0:11:26.440 I had got it. I just got a tiny little 0:11:26.440 --> 0:11:29.600 hoop to like lift the skin flap up because it 0:11:29.720 --> 0:11:32.880 is this just like saggy old skin flap. And I 0:11:32.920 --> 0:11:35.680 have a stretch mark on right above my belly button, 0:11:36.320 --> 0:11:39.200 on top of the belly button ring, and it's just 0:11:39.280 --> 0:11:44.120 like kind of gross, and like my stomach it goes, 0:11:44.360 --> 0:11:47.440 it goes. It's like a cavern. It's all around my 0:11:47.480 --> 0:11:51.040 belly button. And I, of course in yoga, I'm looking 0:11:51.040 --> 0:11:52.640 in a mirror in a sports world and all i 0:11:52.679 --> 0:11:54.600 can see is this, and I'm sitting there thinking like, 0:11:55.200 --> 0:11:57.719 oh God, that did not used to look like that. 0:11:57.800 --> 0:11:59.240 And it's one of those things that you know is 0:11:59.280 --> 0:12:01.160 never gonna go back to how it was before, just 0:12:01.200 --> 0:12:05.720 because it's not going to It's like it's the skin 0:12:05.800 --> 0:12:08.800 has not permanently been stretched to this way. And it's 0:12:08.920 --> 0:12:10.480 right in the middle of my stomach. So it's like 0:12:10.520 --> 0:12:12.840 if you ever want or our halts top. Luckily, I 0:12:12.880 --> 0:12:15.000 like toward jeans over my belly button and everything over 0:12:15.080 --> 0:12:18.000 my belly button that's like bikinis and stuff like you're 0:12:18.040 --> 0:12:20.600 gonna see it. And I'm just like, ah, like this 0:12:20.679 --> 0:12:23.120 is gonna be this way forever. And I'm thirty six 0:12:23.200 --> 0:12:25.280 years old and I'm like, gosh, that's a long time 0:12:25.559 --> 0:12:27.480 to now have a kind of jacked at belly button. 0:12:27.600 --> 0:12:30.680 But I thought to myself, why am I upset? Why 0:12:30.720 --> 0:12:34.240 am I focusing on that? So then I started started 0:12:34.440 --> 0:12:37.800 going to going through my whole body and having gratitude 0:12:37.920 --> 0:12:41.320 for every single part of my body, starting with my feet, 0:12:41.320 --> 0:12:45.240 because my feet are always are oftentimes sore and just tired, 0:12:45.720 --> 0:12:48.560 and I don't give them any love. I'm sorry, this 0:12:48.600 --> 0:12:50.520 is gross. Haven't got a pedicure and forever like my 0:12:50.559 --> 0:12:53.480 heels are cracking to the point where they hurt like I. 0:12:54.040 --> 0:12:56.920 They are hurting because I have not loved on my 0:12:56.960 --> 0:13:00.280 feet and so long. So I got my I have 0:13:00.360 --> 0:13:03.079 this awesome lady lady who comes over to my house. 0:13:03.120 --> 0:13:06.120 I just recently found her and she'll do my nails 0:13:06.200 --> 0:13:08.600 during another one of those Sunny's naps. And she gave me. 0:13:08.920 --> 0:13:11.120 Her name is Nashville Nail Coo. Her name is Lisa. 0:13:11.200 --> 0:13:14.559 You'll find her on Instagram at Nashville Nashville Nail co 0:13:15.160 --> 0:13:18.560 if you need your fingers or nails done at your house. 0:13:18.559 --> 0:13:21.520 It's amazing and she's fast. So she gave me a 0:13:21.559 --> 0:13:23.920 scrub scrubber thing to scrubb on my heels. So I've 0:13:23.960 --> 0:13:26.200 been taking a bath when I can, and just scrubbing 0:13:26.200 --> 0:13:28.320 my heels and trying to give them look because they 0:13:28.360 --> 0:13:33.080 never get a titchen in their hurt. And so I 0:13:33.120 --> 0:13:35.640 started in yoga. I went through my feet and I 0:13:35.640 --> 0:13:37.800 was like feet, and I started rubbing on my feet 0:13:37.840 --> 0:13:40.840 and like just thanking my feet for carrying me around. 0:13:41.720 --> 0:13:43.520 So grateful, I was like, thank you for all that 0:13:43.559 --> 0:13:47.080 you do. You carry my entire body I am. I'm 0:13:47.120 --> 0:13:48.840 such a busy body these days, and I have so 0:13:48.880 --> 0:13:52.880 many places to move and walk and go to, and goodness, gracious, 0:13:52.920 --> 0:13:56.920 what a blessing that you carry me around. You never complain, 0:13:57.440 --> 0:13:59.720 you always hate me where I need to go. You 0:14:00.640 --> 0:14:04.880 move on a notice minute a dumb but I'm not 0:14:04.880 --> 0:14:08.160 trying to say, and a seconds notice, you get moving 0:14:08.200 --> 0:14:12.200 for me, and you make life happen for me. You 0:14:12.280 --> 0:14:14.640 get me places. And I never stopped to say thank 0:14:14.679 --> 0:14:16.199 you for all that you do for me, So fete, 0:14:16.240 --> 0:14:19.160 thank you so much. And I just rubbed my feet 0:14:19.240 --> 0:14:22.720 and my toes and I just was so aware of 0:14:22.720 --> 0:14:24.640 what they do for me. And then stand with my 0:14:24.800 --> 0:14:28.200 legs and my thighs and it's like, thank you for 0:14:28.320 --> 0:14:33.600 carrying my body around, for giving me movement, for being 0:14:33.640 --> 0:14:37.680 there for me, for supporting me, for standing strong for me, 0:14:38.120 --> 0:14:41.520 for being active for me. Like you were there for me, 0:14:41.880 --> 0:14:43.800 and you're always there for me. And I don't ever 0:14:43.840 --> 0:14:46.360 have to ask you to be there for me. I 0:14:46.400 --> 0:14:50.400 completely assume and take advantage of the fact that you 0:14:50.400 --> 0:14:54.200 are going to be there for me, and I I am. 0:14:54.320 --> 0:14:57.160 I don't ever even stop to thank you, but I'm 0:14:57.200 --> 0:15:00.040 just like, thank you for all that you do. And 0:15:00.080 --> 0:15:02.600 then I got to my stomach and I was like, stomach, 0:15:02.920 --> 0:15:05.120 thank you for what you do. God. There's so many 0:15:05.200 --> 0:15:07.840 organs in here that are working on stop for me. 0:15:08.640 --> 0:15:11.520 Uh you might, Yes, I'm sitting here hating on my 0:15:11.560 --> 0:15:13.680 tiny little skin flap on my belly button. But like 0:15:14.120 --> 0:15:18.280 this uterus grew sunny, like you carried this child for me. 0:15:18.760 --> 0:15:21.040 I didn't even have to do anything. You just carried 0:15:21.080 --> 0:15:24.960 this child for me, and you grew her and you 0:15:25.000 --> 0:15:27.520 made her strong and you did it all on your own. 0:15:27.560 --> 0:15:29.640 And yes, maybe we're a little more stretched out than 0:15:29.640 --> 0:15:33.840 we were before. But oh my god, what a marvelous 0:15:34.560 --> 0:15:39.080 act of God you are. What an incredible, what an 0:15:39.120 --> 0:15:44.560 incredible blessing you gave me stomach and uterus and organs 0:15:44.600 --> 0:15:48.280 and you ran perfectly and everything it's just moving on 0:15:48.320 --> 0:15:49.960 its own and I'm not having to ask you to 0:15:50.000 --> 0:15:52.520 do anything, and you're not broken down, and I'm not sick, 0:15:52.560 --> 0:15:55.720 and you're functioning properly, and even take it to like 0:15:55.800 --> 0:15:58.960 my I'm sorry this, I'm just being honest because a 0:15:58.960 --> 0:16:00.640 lot of times we don't like talking abou stuff that 0:16:00.640 --> 0:16:03.600 we feel like is gross or whatever, but like this 0:16:03.680 --> 0:16:08.160 isn't gross, like even like my bowels and my vagina 0:16:08.280 --> 0:16:10.600 and all that, like all the things that it does 0:16:10.680 --> 0:16:13.520 for me, Like I am just so indebted and grateful 0:16:14.040 --> 0:16:16.640 that you are there for me and you are functioning 0:16:16.760 --> 0:16:21.240 and you you all these parts of my body are 0:16:21.320 --> 0:16:25.200 working for me non stop and I am so thankful. 0:16:25.760 --> 0:16:28.800 And my breast like you're providing milk for my child 0:16:29.480 --> 0:16:33.440 and you are. I mean, it's unbelievable what these boobs 0:16:33.480 --> 0:16:36.960 can do because honestly, they feel the milk come in, 0:16:37.080 --> 0:16:39.240 like when Sunny is hungry. It's like when it's time 0:16:39.240 --> 0:16:41.760 for her to eat, the milk drops down. It just 0:16:41.920 --> 0:16:46.320 knows when to come. It is unbelievable what my body does, 0:16:47.160 --> 0:16:51.840 providing life for myself and for an entire human. This 0:16:51.880 --> 0:16:54.080 is what this body is doing for me. My arms 0:16:54.560 --> 0:16:57.800 the way they are they grab things, whole things, can 0:16:57.840 --> 0:17:01.600 hold my baby, can drive a car, can make food. 0:17:01.760 --> 0:17:03.480 Let's get real, though Michael cooks all the food, but 0:17:03.520 --> 0:17:07.080 can eat food, can hold you, can type on a computer, 0:17:07.160 --> 0:17:10.479 can record a podcast. Can you can do anything? Like 0:17:10.680 --> 0:17:14.240 my hands on my arms, like wow, how amazing that 0:17:14.359 --> 0:17:17.320 they are just my grabbers, Like they allow me to 0:17:17.440 --> 0:17:20.679 like connect with the world and hold things like amazing. 0:17:21.119 --> 0:17:24.359 My head my hair, like this hair, it just grows 0:17:24.440 --> 0:17:26.200 and it's wavy and I don't have to do anything 0:17:26.240 --> 0:17:28.160 with it, like thank you for that, Like I don't 0:17:28.160 --> 0:17:30.040 have to wake up and do my hair. Thank you 0:17:30.080 --> 0:17:32.760 for just growing on my head and being the way 0:17:32.800 --> 0:17:36.119 you are, Like you just show up for me. My face, 0:17:36.680 --> 0:17:40.560 my mouth, You allow me to speak and talk and 0:17:40.600 --> 0:17:43.399 my teeth like you allow me to eat. My eyes, 0:17:43.440 --> 0:17:45.280 you allow me to see my nose. You love me 0:17:45.320 --> 0:17:48.720 to smell my brain. You're just working. You give me creativity, 0:17:48.720 --> 0:17:51.600 You give me thoughts. Thank you, thank you, Thank you 0:17:51.960 --> 0:17:55.280 body for all that you do. And instead of me 0:17:55.280 --> 0:17:59.480 sitting around criticizing you, because I can pick apart what's wrong, 0:17:59.520 --> 0:18:03.320 why I'm hired, what doesn't look good? What hurts. No, 0:18:03.840 --> 0:18:06.280 let me thank you for what you're doing for me, 0:18:06.320 --> 0:18:08.320 and for what you're doing for Sonny and what you've 0:18:08.400 --> 0:18:12.720 done for you've created Sonny. Thank you, thank you, thank you. 0:18:12.920 --> 0:18:17.639 So I when I stop, and I have gratitude for 0:18:17.800 --> 0:18:20.280 my body for all the things my body does for 0:18:20.320 --> 0:18:22.680 me when I stopped, and I have gratitude for Yes, 0:18:22.720 --> 0:18:25.680 I have incredibly busy days. But aren't these the days 0:18:25.720 --> 0:18:29.720 that I prayed for? Makes me emotional? Yes, these are 0:18:29.760 --> 0:18:33.000 the days I prayed for. I prayed for these days. 0:18:33.080 --> 0:18:35.560 I prayed to have this child. I prayed to be 0:18:35.600 --> 0:18:37.080 able to feed her with my body and to be 0:18:37.080 --> 0:18:38.840 able to breastfeed, and to be able to nurse her 0:18:38.880 --> 0:18:41.399 and to be able to pump. And I prayed to 0:18:41.440 --> 0:18:43.480 be able to have a podcast that was doing well 0:18:43.520 --> 0:18:45.919 that I took up time that people wanted to be 0:18:46.000 --> 0:18:48.200 on that. Yes, I have to do a lot of 0:18:48.240 --> 0:18:50.639 work around it, but I prayed for this podcast to 0:18:50.760 --> 0:18:53.000 be able to impact people and to have a message 0:18:53.040 --> 0:18:57.199 and to touch women especially. Aren't these the days that 0:18:57.320 --> 0:19:01.159 I prayed for? This body? I pray to be able 0:19:01.240 --> 0:19:03.320 to move and I mean, I don't even know if 0:19:03.359 --> 0:19:04.720 I prayed. I think I took it for granted that 0:19:04.760 --> 0:19:07.800 my body can move and be active and do all 0:19:07.840 --> 0:19:10.520 these things for me. So it's like, aren't these days 0:19:10.600 --> 0:19:13.600 I prayed for? With everything going on in my life 0:19:13.800 --> 0:19:16.679 and with Michael and he's so busy and he is 0:19:17.000 --> 0:19:19.760 traveling and they have a new single coming out and 0:19:19.800 --> 0:19:21.720 a new record deal and he's busy, and it's like, 0:19:21.960 --> 0:19:24.000 but isn't that what he prayed for? Isn't that what 0:19:24.040 --> 0:19:29.560 we prayed for? So why am I not sitting here 0:19:29.600 --> 0:19:35.439 in total gratitude for being busy with the things I 0:19:35.520 --> 0:19:39.119 prayed for? And some of us aren't even feeling like 0:19:39.160 --> 0:19:41.000 we have the things we prayed for in our lives. 0:19:41.040 --> 0:19:43.160 Like we're feeling like, I know some of you listening 0:19:43.160 --> 0:19:45.239 to like you work a job that you hate. Some 0:19:45.280 --> 0:19:46.960 of you have written me and said, gosh, your mom 0:19:47.040 --> 0:19:49.280 Guilt podcast hit me so much because I have to 0:19:49.320 --> 0:19:51.199 drop my kid off at date here and it is 0:19:51.240 --> 0:19:53.439 like breaking my heart and I feel so guilty. Some 0:19:53.520 --> 0:19:55.919 of you are single moms and you are doing this 0:19:56.119 --> 0:19:59.119 on your own. Some of you don't have children yet 0:19:59.119 --> 0:20:01.520 you've been praying to of a child and it's not happening. 0:20:01.760 --> 0:20:04.000 Some of you are in a relationship that's not great. 0:20:04.960 --> 0:20:07.119 That's not good at all. Some of you feel abandoned 0:20:07.359 --> 0:20:09.200 by your families or your parents, or you've had to 0:20:09.240 --> 0:20:12.280 be on your own. So it's like, gosh, it feels 0:20:12.320 --> 0:20:15.719 like there is so many mountains that you have to climb. 0:20:15.960 --> 0:20:19.000